1 00:00:03,920 --> 00:00:06,715 [jazz blues playing] 2 00:00:17,058 --> 00:00:22,313 [Johnnie Keyes] I helped change the sexual mores of this country, 3 00:00:22,397 --> 00:00:25,483 and made it legal for human beings 4 00:00:25,567 --> 00:00:27,652 to go to a store 5 00:00:27,736 --> 00:00:31,865 and rent a X-rated movie legally. 6 00:00:31,948 --> 00:00:36,202 And I helped make that thing a reality in this country. 7 00:00:36,286 --> 00:00:38,955 So, I freed a lot of dicks and pussies. 8 00:00:39,039 --> 00:00:40,957 That's how I feel about it, you know what I mean? 9 00:00:41,041 --> 00:00:43,501 Real talk. Heh. That's some real talk. 10 00:00:43,585 --> 00:00:46,379 [jazz blues playing] 11 00:00:48,047 --> 00:00:50,216 [rock music playing] 12 00:01:44,521 --> 00:01:47,148 [light theme playing] 13 00:01:57,075 --> 00:02:00,745 When I first got into the industry, I was waiting tables for seven years. 14 00:02:00,829 --> 00:02:02,580 And I was in college. I was a broke college student. 15 00:02:02,664 --> 00:02:07,377 I used to sell and market timeshare, and I really just hated my job. 16 00:02:07,460 --> 00:02:10,630 And I actually have job satisfaction now. 17 00:02:10,713 --> 00:02:12,715 So even on the days that it's bad, 18 00:02:12,799 --> 00:02:15,301 I just remind myself how much I love my work, 19 00:02:15,385 --> 00:02:16,845 and the next day is going to be better. 20 00:02:16,928 --> 00:02:18,847 [Tee] She was like, "Please, please, do this scene." I was like, 21 00:02:18,930 --> 00:02:20,890 "I'm not doing no fucking porn. Now, get the fuck outta here." 22 00:02:20,974 --> 00:02:22,350 And they were like, "Lo, we'll give you basically 23 00:02:22,433 --> 00:02:25,478 three times what you make at your regular job for 45 minutes 24 00:02:25,562 --> 00:02:27,147 of doing what you did at home for free an hour ago." 25 00:02:27,230 --> 00:02:29,440 So, I was like, "Okay, let's do that." 26 00:02:30,483 --> 00:02:33,319 He was my first scene in the business in 2006. 27 00:02:33,403 --> 00:02:36,573 -Did not go well... at all. -Did not go well... at all. 28 00:02:36,656 --> 00:02:39,951 It was so bad, I didn't want to work with her for like three years after that. 29 00:02:40,034 --> 00:02:43,454 -But three years later, he worked with me. -And then it went well. 30 00:02:43,538 --> 00:02:45,540 -And then it went well. -And now we're married. 31 00:03:12,984 --> 00:03:14,903 [Priya Rai] I was treated a little differently. 32 00:03:19,073 --> 00:03:21,117 [grunting] 33 00:03:22,285 --> 00:03:23,870 I think that it actually got harder 34 00:03:23,953 --> 00:03:26,289 when I was more, like, in junior high, 35 00:03:26,372 --> 00:03:28,416 and kids started picking on me, and, like... 36 00:03:30,043 --> 00:03:31,836 I would get jumped. 37 00:03:32,921 --> 00:03:34,923 I got held down, my hair cut off. 38 00:03:35,798 --> 00:03:38,468 [grunting] 39 00:03:38,551 --> 00:03:40,053 I was pretty. I was a pretty little girl. 40 00:03:40,136 --> 00:03:42,805 And so, girls were very, um, very mean to me. 41 00:03:42,889 --> 00:03:44,182 Little things like that would happen to me 42 00:03:44,265 --> 00:03:46,768 all throughout my teen years. 43 00:03:46,851 --> 00:03:48,102 [grunting] 44 00:03:49,437 --> 00:03:52,106 [crowd cheering] 45 00:04:03,284 --> 00:04:06,704 I cannot be tamed. 46 00:04:06,788 --> 00:04:09,332 Being a wild child is being an extraordinaire, 47 00:04:09,415 --> 00:04:11,626 being not the norm. 48 00:04:11,709 --> 00:04:12,961 [heavy breathing] 49 00:04:13,962 --> 00:04:16,172 Like, I just loved being free. 50 00:04:27,141 --> 00:04:29,894 They say, like, there's your conservatives and then your exhibitionists-- 51 00:04:29,978 --> 00:04:31,854 two different types of personalities. 52 00:04:31,938 --> 00:04:33,773 Not one is better than the other. 53 00:04:33,856 --> 00:04:36,192 They're just different. Society tries to tell you 54 00:04:36,276 --> 00:04:38,111 one is better than the other, but they're not. 55 00:04:42,949 --> 00:04:44,617 [female announcer 1] Remember, guys, when you're throwing money 56 00:04:44,701 --> 00:04:47,412 during the fights, get it on the outside of the cage. 57 00:04:47,495 --> 00:04:50,039 [female announcer 2] I don't wanna have to teach y'all how to make it rain. 58 00:05:00,967 --> 00:05:04,637 [Priya] I'm actually really super excited for this particular fight. 59 00:05:04,721 --> 00:05:07,015 This is very new to me. I don't know, it's just something 60 00:05:07,098 --> 00:05:10,685 I wanted to tap into, have a lot of fun, be a little sexy. 61 00:05:10,768 --> 00:05:14,272 And, uh, I was like, "Shit. Let's do it." So... [laughs] 62 00:05:14,355 --> 00:05:16,024 [chattering] 63 00:05:35,084 --> 00:05:37,295 Okay. So where was I at? I forget. 64 00:05:37,378 --> 00:05:41,382 I was born in New Delhi. I came to America when I was eight months old. 65 00:05:41,466 --> 00:05:45,762 I was adopted by a very religious family. 66 00:05:45,845 --> 00:05:49,557 They adopted four of us, and, uh, they had three of their own, so... 67 00:05:49,640 --> 00:05:52,310 Uh, they're, they're older, they're really involved in the church, 68 00:05:52,393 --> 00:05:57,523 so they're not really aware of the extent of what I do and who I am. 69 00:05:59,609 --> 00:06:02,111 Yeah, I think she just had this idea that we were gonna come, 70 00:06:02,195 --> 00:06:04,781 we're gonna be, you know, good Indian little kids. 71 00:06:04,864 --> 00:06:06,908 We were gonna go to school like a normal Indian kid 72 00:06:06,991 --> 00:06:08,326 that comes from India. 73 00:06:08,409 --> 00:06:10,411 I remember my mom looking at my brother and I, 74 00:06:10,495 --> 00:06:12,497 and she goes, she looked at my brother and goes, 75 00:06:12,580 --> 00:06:14,624 "You were supposed to be my engineer." 76 00:06:14,707 --> 00:06:17,835 Then she goes, "You were supposed to be my doctor." 77 00:06:17,919 --> 00:06:21,589 And, um, I just go, "Well, I'm a doctor of love." [laughs] 78 00:06:21,672 --> 00:06:23,549 And she didn't like that too much. 79 00:06:31,516 --> 00:06:33,518 Everything seems okay. 80 00:06:35,061 --> 00:06:36,813 Ooh. 81 00:06:40,066 --> 00:06:42,902 So, 15, I'm pregnant, '93. 82 00:06:42,985 --> 00:06:45,822 I remember they had pregnant schools. 83 00:06:45,905 --> 00:06:50,326 And they would ship all the pregnant girls to this one school. 84 00:06:50,409 --> 00:06:53,121 We'd all come in on buses, and, uh, we would go to school there 85 00:06:53,204 --> 00:06:56,082 until we had our kids, and then we'd go back to school, so... 86 00:06:56,165 --> 00:06:58,876 Definitely a different world than it is now. 87 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:02,713 I look back, but... I did it. 88 00:07:02,797 --> 00:07:06,634 It was kind of forced upon me to grow up really fast. 89 00:07:06,717 --> 00:07:09,220 So I went from being 15 to a parent. 90 00:07:09,303 --> 00:07:12,140 You're ready? All right. Hands up. 91 00:07:14,434 --> 00:07:16,436 [Priya] And so, it's rough, you know, 92 00:07:16,519 --> 00:07:19,272 trying to work, and be a single parent. 93 00:07:19,355 --> 00:07:21,399 I remember when I was looking at ads. 94 00:07:21,482 --> 00:07:25,736 I was like, "Topless dancers." [giggles] 95 00:07:25,820 --> 00:07:27,989 All right. I'm gonna go try this out, so... 96 00:07:28,072 --> 00:07:31,033 [male DJ] Priya Rai, she's at Cheerleaders in the strip district. 97 00:07:31,117 --> 00:07:33,161 And you're gonna be here for two shows tonight... 98 00:07:33,244 --> 00:07:34,912 -Yes. -...and two shows tomorrow? 99 00:07:34,996 --> 00:07:35,997 Yes! 100 00:07:36,080 --> 00:07:37,498 [Priya] Stripping for me, you know, you don't know 101 00:07:37,582 --> 00:07:39,709 what you're going come in there and make in the hustle. 102 00:07:39,792 --> 00:07:41,669 I was just, you know, being the little wild child at work. 103 00:07:41,752 --> 00:07:43,796 I would be partying instead of working. 104 00:07:43,880 --> 00:07:46,340 And then, like, I just remember the girls in the back, 105 00:07:46,424 --> 00:07:47,633 I'd be rolling around on the floor. 106 00:07:47,717 --> 00:07:49,552 They would be like, "Girl, why don't you just become a porn star. 107 00:07:49,635 --> 00:07:51,929 What the hell, doing your asshole up in the air just like, 108 00:07:52,013 --> 00:07:55,683 you know, it's just crazy." And so, I was like, "You know what?" 109 00:07:55,766 --> 00:07:57,852 One day, I-- I thought about it. I was like, "Why not?" 110 00:07:57,935 --> 00:08:00,396 So, I lived in Phoenix, Arizona. 111 00:08:00,480 --> 00:08:03,149 I was in the circle of Jenna Jameson. 112 00:08:03,232 --> 00:08:06,027 So, I would go to all the parties and I would talk to people. 113 00:08:06,110 --> 00:08:08,321 And I remember I was in the pool, talking to this guy. 114 00:08:08,404 --> 00:08:10,740 I was like, "I want to be an actress, and thought about doing--" 115 00:08:10,823 --> 00:08:13,451 He's like, "Honey, you don't look like an actress." 116 00:08:13,534 --> 00:08:15,912 He's like, "You look like a porn star." 117 00:08:15,995 --> 00:08:19,582 Back then, my tits were bigger than they are now, and... 118 00:08:19,665 --> 00:08:21,209 I don't know. I always had this thing. I-- 119 00:08:21,292 --> 00:08:22,752 It's always been in the back of my head, 120 00:08:22,835 --> 00:08:26,172 but I was always too chicken shit to really do it, and I'm like, 121 00:08:26,255 --> 00:08:28,382 "You're a year away from being 30, bitch." 122 00:08:28,466 --> 00:08:32,553 Like, if you're gonna do it, do it. Here's the perfect opportunity. 123 00:08:32,637 --> 00:08:36,599 You know, in the beginning of my career, I was doing nude modeling, 124 00:08:36,682 --> 00:08:39,936 soft porn, should I say. 125 00:08:40,019 --> 00:08:42,522 My first year, I got a lot of death e-mails 126 00:08:42,605 --> 00:08:45,358 because of the niche of being-- 127 00:08:45,441 --> 00:08:49,195 There are no East Indian American porn stars. 128 00:08:49,278 --> 00:08:51,239 You know, there was a lot more going on in my life 129 00:08:51,322 --> 00:08:53,241 than to sit there and worry about some guy 130 00:08:53,324 --> 00:08:56,160 who halfway across the country's opinion 131 00:08:56,244 --> 00:08:58,871 on what I was doing, 'cause, guess what? He's not paying my bills. 132 00:08:58,955 --> 00:09:02,083 And he's probably not paying for his porn either, so... 133 00:09:02,166 --> 00:09:04,710 -[trainer] Yeah. Doing good? All right. -I think, yeah. 134 00:09:06,128 --> 00:09:07,171 [trainer] Ready? 135 00:09:07,255 --> 00:09:08,673 [grunting] 136 00:09:10,091 --> 00:09:11,926 [Priya] I had to deal with that within the first year, 137 00:09:12,009 --> 00:09:15,263 but I think, within the first to second year, 138 00:09:15,346 --> 00:09:17,974 it kind of calmed down and people began to love me. 139 00:09:18,057 --> 00:09:21,477 -Who the fuck is that? -What the fuck is she wearing? 140 00:09:21,561 --> 00:09:25,731 Actually, making hardcore movies, I went in at 29. 141 00:09:25,815 --> 00:09:28,234 There's days you go to work, and it's work, 142 00:09:28,317 --> 00:09:30,778 but then there's days you go to work, and I'm like, 143 00:09:30,861 --> 00:09:32,154 "I'm gonna have fun today." 144 00:09:32,238 --> 00:09:34,991 -[man] Look how sexy you are. -So, let's go play. 145 00:09:35,074 --> 00:09:38,619 Well, hello to my licorice bra. 146 00:09:38,703 --> 00:09:39,954 [man gasps] 147 00:09:41,205 --> 00:09:43,583 There are a couple of scenes in the beginning of my career 148 00:09:43,666 --> 00:09:47,086 that taught me a lot, sexually about myself. 149 00:09:47,169 --> 00:09:48,921 Does that look like something that you like? 150 00:09:49,005 --> 00:09:50,631 It's so big! 151 00:09:51,632 --> 00:09:54,552 -[trainer] There you go. -[heavy breathing] 152 00:09:57,263 --> 00:09:58,848 [trainer] There you go. Now move your head. 153 00:10:02,935 --> 00:10:05,521 [trainer] Take a breath. Where is the water at? 154 00:10:07,565 --> 00:10:09,734 [female announcer] Fighting out of Fresno... 155 00:10:09,817 --> 00:10:11,444 This former rodeo rider, 156 00:10:11,527 --> 00:10:14,989 adult star, cage fighter, total package of dynamite, 157 00:10:15,072 --> 00:10:18,951 -Blaten Lee! -[male announcer] Blaten Lee! 158 00:10:19,035 --> 00:10:20,661 [female announcer howls] 159 00:10:20,745 --> 00:10:24,248 It-- It was hard for me, because I had kids. So what I would do is, 160 00:10:24,332 --> 00:10:28,711 I would get up at 7:00 a.m., get on a flight, come to LA, 161 00:10:28,794 --> 00:10:30,713 be in hair and makeup by 8:30... 162 00:10:30,796 --> 00:10:34,175 We got Priya here, and, uh, she just did a bunch of baby oil stuff. 163 00:10:34,258 --> 00:10:38,429 -Look. There she is. -I'm-- It's so hot outside. 164 00:10:38,512 --> 00:10:41,891 [Priya] Do my scene, be on the last flight back home to Phoenix 165 00:10:41,974 --> 00:10:43,517 to be home with my kids for dinner, 166 00:10:43,601 --> 00:10:45,519 or late, you know, to put them to bed. 167 00:10:45,603 --> 00:10:49,190 But that's how I managed a career for the first two years. 168 00:10:49,273 --> 00:10:52,526 I was going back and forth almost every other day. 169 00:10:52,610 --> 00:10:56,197 -[female announcer] Priya Rai! -[male announcer] Priya Rai! 170 00:10:56,280 --> 00:10:58,866 [Priya] My daughter and I have a very good relationship. 171 00:11:00,618 --> 00:11:02,662 But it got to a point, she'd be at high school, 172 00:11:02,745 --> 00:11:04,038 and she used to like, tell everybody, 173 00:11:04,121 --> 00:11:06,707 "My mom's Priya. My mom's Priya." Like, "Stop it!" 174 00:11:06,791 --> 00:11:08,709 Like all these boys at my door, you know. 175 00:11:08,793 --> 00:11:11,921 I was like, "Do you want them to come over for you or me? 176 00:11:12,004 --> 00:11:14,465 Like, just stop it!" 177 00:11:14,548 --> 00:11:15,966 [female announcer] All right, here we go, guys. 178 00:11:16,050 --> 00:11:17,718 -Round one! -[bell rings] 179 00:11:17,802 --> 00:11:19,804 [woman] Oh, shit. Oh, shit. 180 00:11:19,887 --> 00:11:24,225 [Priya] My son, he is now in college, and he's doing well. 181 00:11:24,308 --> 00:11:26,060 I think for a couple of years, 182 00:11:26,143 --> 00:11:29,563 it really affected our relationship, 'cause he was going through puberty 183 00:11:29,647 --> 00:11:33,943 and I probably ruined it for him, but, um, but now it's like, 184 00:11:34,026 --> 00:11:35,569 we kind of laugh about it. 185 00:11:35,653 --> 00:11:37,154 He's cool about it. He's like, "Whatever." 186 00:11:37,238 --> 00:11:38,823 He's like, "I know my friends have seen you." 187 00:11:38,906 --> 00:11:43,077 But I just kinda stay away, like, I-- I don't go near the campus, or... 188 00:11:43,160 --> 00:11:46,747 Um, I did go to his graduation, but I, you know, 189 00:11:46,831 --> 00:11:48,082 kind of just showed up and left. 190 00:11:48,165 --> 00:11:50,668 I don't really linger around his friends, 191 00:11:50,751 --> 00:11:53,129 or his people right now. 192 00:11:53,212 --> 00:11:54,672 Just out of respect. He's a straight-A student. 193 00:11:54,755 --> 00:11:56,882 He's getting a full-ride scholarship, 194 00:11:56,966 --> 00:11:59,135 so, that's a fun little experience. 195 00:11:59,218 --> 00:12:01,345 So, that's why I'm a little jealous 196 00:12:01,429 --> 00:12:04,223 of the whole like, college experience, but I don't know. 197 00:12:09,186 --> 00:12:11,605 [crowd cheering] 198 00:12:22,700 --> 00:12:26,370 I probably still, um, expect more of myself, 199 00:12:26,454 --> 00:12:27,872 like I could have done it. 200 00:12:29,123 --> 00:12:32,543 I had, um, an extremely high GPA. 201 00:12:32,626 --> 00:12:35,796 You know, I look back, being 40, gonna be 40, 202 00:12:35,880 --> 00:12:38,215 and I do wish I could do-- could have done things 203 00:12:38,299 --> 00:12:40,134 a little bit differently. 204 00:12:40,217 --> 00:12:41,760 And that's what sucks, like, 205 00:12:41,844 --> 00:12:43,512 you know, just having a couple regrets. 206 00:12:43,596 --> 00:12:45,097 I don't have many regrets, 207 00:12:45,181 --> 00:12:48,601 'cause I've lived life pretty wildly. [laughs] 208 00:12:48,684 --> 00:12:51,312 But I do have regrets 209 00:12:51,395 --> 00:12:53,939 when it's coming to having a normal life, 210 00:12:54,023 --> 00:12:57,735 just like, kind of maybe missing out on doing things 211 00:12:57,818 --> 00:13:01,363 like, maybe college, or different things like that. 212 00:13:01,447 --> 00:13:03,365 I'm sitting here, watching my son go to college, 213 00:13:03,449 --> 00:13:05,367 and it's just like, "Wow, I got to miss out on all of that." 214 00:13:05,493 --> 00:13:06,494 So... 215 00:13:06,577 --> 00:13:08,996 [dramatic theme playing] 216 00:13:20,841 --> 00:13:22,343 Hi. 217 00:13:25,012 --> 00:13:29,850 You're at X-Fest 2018. 218 00:13:31,143 --> 00:13:33,771 [Buck] In the United States, we don't really talk about sex and porn, and... 219 00:13:33,854 --> 00:13:35,940 Yeah, there's a lot of stigma around pornography. 220 00:13:36,023 --> 00:13:38,776 And that was very difficult for me to break through this idea, 221 00:13:38,859 --> 00:13:41,278 of this stigma of being a porn star. 222 00:13:41,362 --> 00:13:44,031 [Michael] Nearly everybody knows a sex worker now, 223 00:13:44,114 --> 00:13:46,242 but everybody keeps it hidden if you're a sex worker, 224 00:13:46,325 --> 00:13:47,868 because you don't know who's safe, 225 00:13:47,952 --> 00:13:49,537 you don't know when it will come back to bite you. 226 00:13:49,620 --> 00:13:51,330 Unfortunately, it's still legal 227 00:13:51,413 --> 00:13:53,832 to discriminate against sex workers and fire somebody 228 00:13:53,916 --> 00:13:56,335 because they used to be a sex worker in normal jobs. 229 00:13:56,418 --> 00:13:58,629 [Michael] People have been fired from Subway 230 00:13:58,712 --> 00:14:01,048 because they previously had a porn past. 231 00:14:01,131 --> 00:14:03,175 Teachers have had jobs for 15 years 232 00:14:03,259 --> 00:14:05,219 and they're fired, because all of a sudden 233 00:14:05,302 --> 00:14:06,470 they found out they did porn. 234 00:14:06,554 --> 00:14:08,639 As if somehow having done this activity 235 00:14:08,722 --> 00:14:11,892 changes how they'll behave outwardly in society. 236 00:14:11,976 --> 00:14:15,980 [Kira] Unfortunately, until our society can see sex workers 237 00:14:16,063 --> 00:14:19,567 in a better light, and we can have more resources to defend ourselves 238 00:14:19,650 --> 00:14:21,193 and keep ourselves healthy, 239 00:14:21,277 --> 00:14:23,028 then people are going to be able to attack us 240 00:14:23,112 --> 00:14:25,072 as easily as they have been for centuries. 241 00:14:26,866 --> 00:14:32,329 [Luc Wylder] Then there's the bad boy, The Master's Choice with Ashley Renee. 242 00:14:32,413 --> 00:14:36,584 She was one of my slaves before I met you, Alex. 243 00:14:36,667 --> 00:14:38,085 [chuckles] 244 00:14:38,168 --> 00:14:40,254 We should take 'em into the basement, Luc. 245 00:14:40,337 --> 00:14:42,089 -I know. I know. -You know, we have a whole basement 246 00:14:42,172 --> 00:14:44,091 downstairs full of slaves. 247 00:14:44,174 --> 00:14:45,968 Yeah, that's a whole 'nother show, though. 248 00:14:46,051 --> 00:14:47,052 Oh. [giggles] 249 00:14:51,849 --> 00:14:54,810 [indistinct whispering] 250 00:14:54,894 --> 00:14:56,478 [woman] Okay, let's start it from the top. 251 00:14:56,562 --> 00:14:58,814 -Okay. -[woman] Luc Wylder, how'd that happen? 252 00:14:58,898 --> 00:15:00,858 How did Luc Wylder happen? Okay. 253 00:15:02,860 --> 00:15:08,282 [Luc] We're in the mid '70s, and the sex industry was booming. 254 00:15:08,365 --> 00:15:12,703 And Times Square became a Mecca 255 00:15:12,786 --> 00:15:15,623 for sexual deviance. 256 00:15:15,706 --> 00:15:19,001 So, I began to explore, 257 00:15:19,084 --> 00:15:21,587 and, uh, I got into bondage, 258 00:15:21,670 --> 00:15:24,089 and discipline, and S&M, 259 00:15:24,173 --> 00:15:27,551 and, uh, I began to perform 260 00:15:27,635 --> 00:15:30,346 for companies in New York that shot fetish, 261 00:15:30,429 --> 00:15:32,681 like Bizarre Video and Gotham Gold 262 00:15:32,765 --> 00:15:34,350 and Star Maker. 263 00:15:34,433 --> 00:15:37,645 Master Luc, she broke your chain. 264 00:15:37,728 --> 00:15:40,314 [Luc] She did what? She broke it? 265 00:15:41,565 --> 00:15:43,734 [Luc] And I got good at it because 266 00:15:43,817 --> 00:15:46,528 I had studied aikido when I was a kid, 267 00:15:46,612 --> 00:15:49,239 so I was into that fluid kind of motion 268 00:15:49,323 --> 00:15:52,242 that is involved in flogging, 269 00:15:52,326 --> 00:15:54,203 and whipping people. 270 00:15:54,286 --> 00:15:55,871 [Luc] Very good. 271 00:15:55,955 --> 00:16:00,584 I was the most in-demand, male dom in the adult industry. 272 00:16:00,668 --> 00:16:05,923 And we came out to California, and we began to make films out here. 273 00:16:06,006 --> 00:16:08,175 [Luc] Alexandra, could you come on in here? 274 00:16:08,258 --> 00:16:10,886 -Come in here for just a minute. -[Alexandra laughing] 275 00:16:10,970 --> 00:16:12,096 Wait, wait, wait. 276 00:16:12,179 --> 00:16:15,683 -What? She's crawling into that-- -[laughs] You should see-- 277 00:16:15,766 --> 00:16:17,059 I was sitting over there. 278 00:16:17,142 --> 00:16:19,561 -You should see the view I have. -[Luc] Oh... 279 00:16:19,645 --> 00:16:24,441 How did I get my start? Well, I like sex. [laughs] 280 00:16:24,525 --> 00:16:26,610 Let me show you how these work. 281 00:16:26,694 --> 00:16:28,696 I guess you could say, um, 282 00:16:28,779 --> 00:16:32,366 I was really a-- a fan more than anything 283 00:16:32,449 --> 00:16:35,035 I-- I loved watching adult movies. 284 00:16:35,119 --> 00:16:37,913 So, like, I knew-- Like, for instance, 285 00:16:37,997 --> 00:16:41,583 my first movie was with, uh, Randy West. 286 00:16:41,667 --> 00:16:43,752 Alexandra Silk is a very hot lady 287 00:16:43,836 --> 00:16:46,338 that had been in the business six or eight months before I met her. 288 00:16:46,422 --> 00:16:49,800 In fact, I met her at David Christopher's 4th of July party. 289 00:16:49,883 --> 00:16:52,052 You know David, Pussyman? 290 00:16:52,136 --> 00:16:54,888 [Alexandra] Raw Sil-- Or I don't know what the name of it was. 291 00:16:54,972 --> 00:16:57,307 -Raw Sex. -Sex. [laughs] 292 00:16:58,892 --> 00:17:04,064 [Luc] We got married December 31st, 1999 in Las Vegas. 293 00:17:04,148 --> 00:17:07,943 Uh, it was a fucking party, man. 294 00:17:08,027 --> 00:17:10,320 [Alexandra] It was not the traditional wedding, though. 295 00:17:10,404 --> 00:17:12,865 [laughs] We had a very-- 296 00:17:12,948 --> 00:17:15,743 I had a very short, short, short wedding dress. 297 00:17:15,826 --> 00:17:18,871 [laughs] And no panties. 298 00:17:18,954 --> 00:17:21,373 [Luc] If you could call that a dress, I suppose. 299 00:17:21,457 --> 00:17:25,627 And the, uh, the judge was somewhat taken aback by that. 300 00:17:25,711 --> 00:17:26,920 [Alexandra laughs] 301 00:17:27,004 --> 00:17:30,382 -Partied like it was 1999. -[laughs] 302 00:17:32,760 --> 00:17:34,887 And you've been my best friend ever since. 303 00:17:34,970 --> 00:17:37,514 Absolutely. Absolutely. 304 00:17:37,598 --> 00:17:40,934 -Hey, everybody. Come on in. -Come on in. 305 00:17:41,977 --> 00:17:44,688 -Welcome to our home. -That's right. 306 00:17:44,772 --> 00:17:46,732 [Luc] We had both been married twice before. 307 00:17:46,815 --> 00:17:49,777 Both in open relationships. 308 00:17:49,860 --> 00:17:53,739 We are swingers, and we're very safe in our practice, 309 00:17:53,822 --> 00:17:56,492 so we like to encourage that. 310 00:17:56,575 --> 00:17:58,368 As we're always safe, 311 00:17:58,452 --> 00:18:01,538 but never sorry. [laughter] 312 00:18:01,622 --> 00:18:04,249 Well, I-- I want to say a little bit more about that. 313 00:18:04,333 --> 00:18:06,126 -Yeah, let's go. -[Luc] Yeah? 314 00:18:08,504 --> 00:18:12,049 We were like... We were just gonna remain this casual couple 315 00:18:12,132 --> 00:18:14,134 and we were gonna be fuck buddies... 316 00:18:14,218 --> 00:18:17,513 -Yes, my best friend. -...and have this wonderful life. 317 00:18:17,596 --> 00:18:20,891 Just hanging around. Waiting for Luc Wylder. 318 00:18:20,974 --> 00:18:22,559 -Oh, there he is. -[Luc] You're waiting for me? 319 00:18:22,643 --> 00:18:24,186 Hi, Luc Wylder. 320 00:18:24,269 --> 00:18:26,605 Oh, my goodness, look at this-- 321 00:18:26,688 --> 00:18:30,901 [Luc] But in the background, we began to do a lot of work together. 322 00:18:30,984 --> 00:18:34,238 So, we wanted to make films 323 00:18:34,321 --> 00:18:37,783 that had a little bit more credibility, 324 00:18:37,866 --> 00:18:40,536 a little bit more value, a little bit more oomph. 325 00:18:40,619 --> 00:18:44,414 -Mm. -We built a company called Fallen Angel. 326 00:18:47,251 --> 00:18:51,338 [Luc] In essence, what we did was, we created a company 327 00:18:51,421 --> 00:18:56,844 that would distribute adult video, but on higher standards 328 00:18:56,927 --> 00:18:59,555 than many people were used to. 329 00:18:59,638 --> 00:19:04,309 Let me explain. It's some of the nastiest sex that you'll ever see, 330 00:19:04,393 --> 00:19:07,354 the guy actually cums right inside the girl's pussy. 331 00:19:07,437 --> 00:19:10,899 However, they're all couples. It's real couples 332 00:19:10,983 --> 00:19:13,068 having real sex with real cum. 333 00:19:16,697 --> 00:19:19,074 We were offering something that was different. 334 00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:21,285 This is... I'm Mike Horner with... 335 00:19:21,368 --> 00:19:24,246 Adult Stars at Home. Thanks for doing this. 336 00:19:24,329 --> 00:19:27,040 It was passionate. It was intense. 337 00:19:27,124 --> 00:19:29,668 -The Silk series, remember? -Oh, my God. 338 00:19:29,751 --> 00:19:32,546 I did a series called Silk Stockings 339 00:19:32,629 --> 00:19:36,550 and Silk Panties and Silk Ties. 340 00:19:36,633 --> 00:19:39,595 It was very high-end. It was quality. 341 00:19:39,678 --> 00:19:44,349 Gosh, I remember when we were shooting that movie Tramps, 342 00:19:44,433 --> 00:19:46,894 heh, in New Orleans. 343 00:19:46,977 --> 00:19:48,520 [Luc] What do you think, Alexandra? You wanna go out there 344 00:19:48,604 --> 00:19:51,690 and-- and play around a little bit, and then come back in here 345 00:19:51,773 --> 00:19:54,067 and watch how T. J. Heart can, uh, 346 00:19:54,151 --> 00:19:57,446 -you know, turn a guy on? -Oh, yeah. 347 00:19:57,529 --> 00:20:02,034 Mary Gates said, "Would you do a travelogue series 348 00:20:02,117 --> 00:20:04,369 for us at Adam & Eve?" 349 00:20:04,453 --> 00:20:07,789 We said, "Sure." [giggles] Road trip. 350 00:20:07,873 --> 00:20:10,584 [rock music playing] 351 00:20:13,253 --> 00:20:16,882 We went to 12 different states and had-- 352 00:20:16,965 --> 00:20:19,801 Sex Across America from San Francisco. 353 00:20:19,885 --> 00:20:21,386 New Orleans. 354 00:20:21,470 --> 00:20:23,138 We are headed to New York, next stop. 355 00:20:23,222 --> 00:20:25,933 Waikiki, Hawaii. 356 00:20:26,016 --> 00:20:29,811 Had sex across America. 357 00:20:29,895 --> 00:20:31,813 I don't think you're telling the whole story, my dear. 358 00:20:31,897 --> 00:20:34,149 [Luc] Give me the camera. Act like you like it. 359 00:20:34,233 --> 00:20:38,070 [Alexandra] Like, nothing happened? Okay. Okay, wait, wait, wait, wait. Okay. 360 00:20:39,655 --> 00:20:42,324 -[Alexandra laughing] -[Luc] Taking off my camera. 361 00:20:42,407 --> 00:20:45,494 -[Alexandra] Whoo! - Here we are. Whoa, we're gonna crash. 362 00:20:45,577 --> 00:20:47,829 When we first started shooting that series, 363 00:20:47,913 --> 00:20:51,500 -you were the hostess of the series. -Yeah. 364 00:20:51,583 --> 00:20:53,377 Is that great, guys, or what? [laughs] 365 00:20:53,460 --> 00:20:55,629 [woman] You guys are wild. 366 00:20:55,712 --> 00:20:57,673 [Luc] I'm running around the country, 367 00:20:57,756 --> 00:21:01,009 having all this wild, outrageous sex. 368 00:21:01,093 --> 00:21:05,138 Mm-hmm, and then the second volume, we were, we were on the plane. 369 00:21:05,222 --> 00:21:06,932 -We're flying everywhere. -Right. 370 00:21:07,015 --> 00:21:08,600 I think we're in Hawaii. 371 00:21:08,684 --> 00:21:11,395 [Luc] Have you ever seen such beautiful vegetation? 372 00:21:12,646 --> 00:21:16,984 [Luc] We caught ten-foot-long blue marlins naked 373 00:21:17,067 --> 00:21:18,986 on a fishing boat in Hawaii. 374 00:21:20,612 --> 00:21:22,948 We had sex in hot-air balloons. 375 00:21:23,031 --> 00:21:27,077 I mean, this was a series where we really got to do 376 00:21:27,160 --> 00:21:29,997 the things that you would want to do in a travelogue. 377 00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:32,040 That was so fun. [laughs] 378 00:21:32,124 --> 00:21:34,418 [Luc] At the time, we were able to take the series 379 00:21:34,501 --> 00:21:36,962 and really kind of elevate the porn 380 00:21:37,045 --> 00:21:40,257 that we were shooting at that time through the locations, 381 00:21:40,340 --> 00:21:45,095 through the people that we would encounter while we were traveling... 382 00:21:45,178 --> 00:21:47,389 -Oh, my gosh, that was... -[dog snoring] 383 00:21:47,472 --> 00:21:50,183 Wait. That was just-- No snoring. 384 00:21:51,476 --> 00:21:54,396 What a pivoting point in our life. 385 00:21:54,479 --> 00:21:59,234 That, we're-- we're having fun traveling across America 386 00:21:59,318 --> 00:22:01,194 and then, 387 00:22:01,278 --> 00:22:02,904 all of a sudden, 388 00:22:03,989 --> 00:22:07,242 -Mom gets sick. -Hmm. 389 00:22:07,326 --> 00:22:10,746 [Luc] While we were in New Jersey, 390 00:22:10,829 --> 00:22:14,958 caring for my mother, I went back to school. 391 00:22:15,042 --> 00:22:19,504 And I, uh, completed my degree in psychology. 392 00:22:19,588 --> 00:22:21,631 So, when we came back 393 00:22:21,715 --> 00:22:25,218 and went back to Chatsworth, 394 00:22:25,302 --> 00:22:27,846 everyone else was gone. 395 00:22:27,929 --> 00:22:30,015 We're like, what the fuck? Where did everybody go? 396 00:22:30,098 --> 00:22:32,809 -In the adult industry, Chatsworth... -What the fuck happened? 397 00:22:32,893 --> 00:22:36,271 -was the porn capital of the world. -Right. 398 00:22:38,398 --> 00:22:42,694 [Luc] All of those buildings, all of those companies had closed up. 399 00:22:42,778 --> 00:22:45,155 -Chatsworth had turned into a ghost town. -Yeah. 400 00:22:45,238 --> 00:22:48,742 [Luc] And all the companies and people that we knew 401 00:22:48,825 --> 00:22:50,535 were no longer there. 402 00:22:50,619 --> 00:22:54,581 I understand now that our circumstances had changed. 403 00:22:54,664 --> 00:22:56,666 So, you know, it's interesting. 404 00:22:56,750 --> 00:23:00,587 We're not who we are in our 20's, it's not who we are in our 30's, 405 00:23:00,670 --> 00:23:03,006 and it's not who we are in our 40's. 406 00:23:03,090 --> 00:23:05,842 We just keep evolving, you know? 407 00:23:05,926 --> 00:23:08,595 I always go to my passion, you know. 408 00:23:08,678 --> 00:23:12,474 Where's my passion in life? What can I do next? 409 00:23:12,557 --> 00:23:14,935 [Luc] Consequently, both Alex and I 410 00:23:15,018 --> 00:23:18,939 have now achieved our doctorates in human sexology. 411 00:23:19,022 --> 00:23:24,945 Well, I became a certified surrogate partner therapist. 412 00:23:25,028 --> 00:23:29,199 And there's only 19 in the United States, 413 00:23:29,282 --> 00:23:31,535 -and I'm one of 'em. -[Luc] Mm-hmm. 414 00:23:31,618 --> 00:23:36,540 It's, um, it's very, um, serious work, it's healing work. 415 00:23:36,623 --> 00:23:40,502 And it's my way of giving back to the world. [laughs] 416 00:23:40,585 --> 00:23:44,256 One orgasm at a time. [laughs] Right? 417 00:23:44,339 --> 00:23:47,300 [people chattering] 418 00:23:48,718 --> 00:23:53,181 To go and meet a complete stranger, have sex in front of 20 people, 419 00:23:53,265 --> 00:23:57,227 no Viagra, no, no, no, male enhancement pills, 420 00:23:57,310 --> 00:23:59,771 is very, very difficult to stay hard 421 00:23:59,855 --> 00:24:01,439 and not cum when you need to be. 422 00:24:01,523 --> 00:24:04,776 So if you can prove that you can do that, you have a shot. 423 00:24:04,860 --> 00:24:07,988 [Romi Rain] Anybody can do it, but not everybody can be successful at it, 424 00:24:08,071 --> 00:24:09,656 especially not long-term. 425 00:24:09,739 --> 00:24:12,576 And it is fun, it is an alternative lifestyle, 426 00:24:12,659 --> 00:24:14,452 but it's not a joke, it's not a game. 427 00:24:14,536 --> 00:24:17,497 It is a career and it is a big business 428 00:24:17,581 --> 00:24:20,667 that can be very lucrative, or very damaging to somebody. 429 00:24:28,008 --> 00:24:30,385 -[man] Wow. -Hi. 430 00:24:30,468 --> 00:24:34,222 Hi, yourself. How are you there, beautiful? 431 00:24:34,306 --> 00:24:37,726 -Good. How are you doing? -How am I doin'? How are you doin'? 432 00:24:39,895 --> 00:24:44,357 I'm doing fine, thank you for asking me. Now that you're here-- 433 00:24:44,441 --> 00:24:46,401 Wow, what's your name, gorgeous? 434 00:24:48,862 --> 00:24:51,239 Shh. 435 00:24:58,121 --> 00:25:01,458 [preacher] What is that one thing that you're holding onto, 436 00:25:01,541 --> 00:25:04,836 that's making you become stuck and you can't move forward? 437 00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:07,297 Some of us are holding on to unforgiveness. 438 00:25:07,380 --> 00:25:09,090 We're holding on to pain, 439 00:25:09,174 --> 00:25:12,552 we're holding on to bad relationships, we're holding on to friendships, 440 00:25:12,636 --> 00:25:14,846 and we're holding on to all of these things 441 00:25:14,930 --> 00:25:17,724 and this is the reason why we can't move forward. 442 00:25:17,807 --> 00:25:20,936 God can't do a new thing in you when you're surrounded 443 00:25:21,019 --> 00:25:22,604 by people who hinder you. 444 00:25:23,980 --> 00:25:26,316 [Jenna Presley] The unconditional love of God means that 445 00:25:26,399 --> 00:25:28,818 no matter what this person did to me, 446 00:25:28,902 --> 00:25:31,488 I will still love them. I will not hate them. 447 00:25:31,571 --> 00:25:35,242 Don't hate your enemies, love your enemies. 448 00:25:35,325 --> 00:25:38,453 Let me love people through you. 449 00:26:04,646 --> 00:26:07,399 There were a lot of factors throughout my childhood 450 00:26:07,482 --> 00:26:09,192 and throughout my teenage years 451 00:26:09,276 --> 00:26:12,320 that would've resulted in me getting into the porn industry. 452 00:26:12,404 --> 00:26:16,616 I constantly had to live up to unfair standards. 453 00:26:16,700 --> 00:26:19,744 You know, if I had a B-plus on a report card, 454 00:26:19,828 --> 00:26:22,539 it was ripped up in front of my face, and I was called a loser. 455 00:26:22,664 --> 00:26:25,834 I started, you know, searching for ways 456 00:26:25,917 --> 00:26:28,086 to become perfect. 457 00:26:28,169 --> 00:26:31,131 And that's kind of where things started for me, because I thought, 458 00:26:31,214 --> 00:26:34,342 "Well, if I could just be skinny enough, maybe then my mom will love me. 459 00:26:34,426 --> 00:26:37,512 If I can be perfect enough and my grades are good enough, 460 00:26:37,595 --> 00:26:39,139 then maybe I'll be loved." 461 00:26:40,598 --> 00:26:43,518 I remember watching, you know, the E! channel 462 00:26:43,601 --> 00:26:46,730 and seeing Jenna Jameson, the other Vivid girls, 463 00:26:46,813 --> 00:26:51,484 and it looked glitzy and glamorous, 464 00:26:51,568 --> 00:26:55,780 and it looked like everything that I wanted to become. 465 00:26:55,864 --> 00:26:58,199 They really portrayed the industry to be something 466 00:26:58,283 --> 00:27:01,494 that was lavish, and beautiful, and... 467 00:27:01,578 --> 00:27:03,997 So, that's what I was expecting. 468 00:27:04,080 --> 00:27:06,082 All right, Jenna, let's have you strip down here, 469 00:27:06,166 --> 00:27:08,835 -we'll just take a couple pictures. -Oh. Okay. 470 00:27:08,918 --> 00:27:10,545 -Okay? -Okay. 471 00:27:10,628 --> 00:27:12,505 Okay. Yeah, you're a cutie. 472 00:27:12,589 --> 00:27:15,592 [man] Yeah, you might be-- Yeah, you-- Yeah... Well, yeah. 473 00:27:15,675 --> 00:27:17,510 All right, yeah, just stay there, strip down 474 00:27:17,594 --> 00:27:20,430 -and we'll just take a couple pictures. -But I have to take off all my clothes? 475 00:27:20,513 --> 00:27:22,474 -[Travis] Yes, all of them, sorry. -Really? 476 00:27:22,557 --> 00:27:24,934 It is porno. You are planning on fucking on camera, right? 477 00:27:25,018 --> 00:27:26,686 Well, but I've never done it before, 478 00:27:26,770 --> 00:27:30,231 -so I was trying to take it slow. -[Travis] Okay, I'm not-- 479 00:27:30,315 --> 00:27:32,067 [man] You've never taken your clothes off before? 480 00:27:32,150 --> 00:27:34,319 -Must be a bitch when you shower. -[laughter] 481 00:27:34,402 --> 00:27:38,573 -No, I have, but not in front of boys. -[man] Oh, well, I see. 482 00:27:38,656 --> 00:27:40,658 -Would it help if I was naked too? -[man] Yeah, please don't. 483 00:27:40,742 --> 00:27:42,869 -[Jenna] Yeah. Heh. -[man] Don't go to that extreme. 484 00:27:42,952 --> 00:27:46,039 [Travis] Alright, let's just get this going, because we got business. 485 00:27:46,122 --> 00:27:50,502 -[man laughs] Travis has got business. -[Travis] And other bitches to see. 486 00:27:50,585 --> 00:27:53,296 [Jenna] It's horrific to be asked, 487 00:27:53,380 --> 00:27:55,632 "Is it okay if a guy spits in your face?" 488 00:27:55,715 --> 00:27:58,259 "Is it okay if a guy slaps you 489 00:27:58,343 --> 00:28:00,470 and pulls your hair really hard?" 490 00:28:00,553 --> 00:28:03,515 But at that time of my life, to me it was like, 491 00:28:03,598 --> 00:28:06,726 "Oh, yeah, that's cool. They want to shoot me. At least I'm wanted." 492 00:28:06,810 --> 00:28:09,896 [man] Think you might be interested in doing a little hardcore stuff today? 493 00:28:09,979 --> 00:28:12,023 -How much are we talking? -A thousand. 494 00:28:12,107 --> 00:28:13,691 I'll do it. I'll do it. 495 00:28:13,775 --> 00:28:15,360 [applause from audience] 496 00:28:15,443 --> 00:28:18,696 Brittni Ruiz who was known to millions as Jenna Presley, 497 00:28:18,780 --> 00:28:21,157 one of the biggest stars in the porn industry. 498 00:28:21,241 --> 00:28:23,076 Brittni, I remember we had someone on here 499 00:28:23,159 --> 00:28:25,078 who was the CEO of a porn company. 500 00:28:25,161 --> 00:28:27,705 He said, "Women in porn, they were empowered." 501 00:28:27,789 --> 00:28:31,626 You did about three sex scenes a day, did you feel empowered? 502 00:28:31,709 --> 00:28:34,045 In the beginning I felt beautiful. 503 00:28:34,129 --> 00:28:37,132 Like I-- I felt like I had found my self-worth. 504 00:28:37,215 --> 00:28:41,636 And after a while, I felt destroyed, hopeless, I felt helpless. 505 00:28:41,720 --> 00:28:43,096 [man] Now, here we are. Come on, Alex, bring her in. 506 00:28:43,179 --> 00:28:44,973 -[Alex] Come on, baby. -Okay. 507 00:28:45,056 --> 00:28:47,434 -This is a set. -Okay. 508 00:28:47,517 --> 00:28:49,352 [man] Alex, I'm just gonna sit here and watch the monitor. 509 00:28:49,436 --> 00:28:51,062 -You show her what to do. -Okay. 510 00:28:51,146 --> 00:28:52,647 Well, I guess the first thing we would do 511 00:28:52,731 --> 00:28:54,858 is to show off how beautiful you are. 512 00:28:54,941 --> 00:28:58,570 Thanks. [laughs] So, this is a porno set? 513 00:28:58,653 --> 00:29:00,780 Mm-hmm. Spin you around. 514 00:29:00,864 --> 00:29:03,158 [Jenna] And it wasn't until I went into the church 515 00:29:03,241 --> 00:29:05,577 and truly surrendered my life to God, 516 00:29:05,660 --> 00:29:08,997 and I said, "God, whatever your word says in this book right here, 517 00:29:09,080 --> 00:29:11,583 I'm gonna do it. Whatever it says, I'm gonna do it." 518 00:29:11,666 --> 00:29:14,085 And I started following all of His commands, 519 00:29:14,169 --> 00:29:16,087 and every word that I saw in this Bible, like, 520 00:29:16,171 --> 00:29:17,964 I started to just do it. 521 00:29:18,047 --> 00:29:22,302 Um, I hit rock bottom in the porn industry twice. 522 00:29:22,385 --> 00:29:26,973 Um, the first one was really, really bad. 523 00:29:27,056 --> 00:29:29,058 Okay, let's all stand for prayer. 524 00:29:29,142 --> 00:29:32,687 This was the time where I was, I was a full-blown heroin addict. 525 00:29:32,771 --> 00:29:34,773 I was doing a lot of it. 526 00:29:34,856 --> 00:29:37,942 Father, we come before you, Lord, in the name of Jesus. 527 00:29:38,026 --> 00:29:39,986 And, God, I thank you for what you're doing 528 00:29:40,069 --> 00:29:41,613 in these women's lives, Lord. 529 00:29:41,696 --> 00:29:44,073 I was depressed and I was suicidal. 530 00:29:44,157 --> 00:29:45,575 I wanted to take my life, 531 00:29:45,658 --> 00:29:47,494 but I was such a people pleaser, 532 00:29:47,577 --> 00:29:48,912 that I felt like I was gonna 533 00:29:48,995 --> 00:29:50,622 let the directors down 534 00:29:50,705 --> 00:29:52,707 if I didn't show up to perform a scene. 535 00:29:52,791 --> 00:29:54,083 [Jenna] God, I thank you that we are learning 536 00:29:54,167 --> 00:29:55,585 to take the limits off of ourselves 537 00:29:55,668 --> 00:29:59,088 that we could do all things through Christ who strengthens us. 538 00:29:59,172 --> 00:30:00,590 So, I thought, "Okay... 539 00:30:00,673 --> 00:30:01,841 I can't commit suicide 540 00:30:01,925 --> 00:30:03,301 because there's too many people 541 00:30:03,384 --> 00:30:04,969 that are counting on me." 542 00:30:05,053 --> 00:30:07,013 I want to cut my wrists, 543 00:30:07,096 --> 00:30:09,474 I want to do something, I just want to hurt myself, 544 00:30:09,557 --> 00:30:11,309 I just want to feel something. 545 00:30:11,392 --> 00:30:14,103 I felt so numb and I felt so lonely. 546 00:30:14,187 --> 00:30:17,565 And I ended up just going to a tattoo shop 547 00:30:17,649 --> 00:30:20,151 and I started getting tattoos all over my body 548 00:30:20,235 --> 00:30:23,655 because I thought at least then I can feel something, you know. 549 00:30:23,738 --> 00:30:27,575 And then, the next day, when I went to go do the movie, 550 00:30:27,659 --> 00:30:31,371 I had a girl tell me, "What did you do to yourself? 551 00:30:31,454 --> 00:30:34,290 Why did you get these big tattoos all over your body? 552 00:30:34,374 --> 00:30:36,417 Nobody's gonna wanna hire you now." 553 00:30:36,501 --> 00:30:39,671 Once again in my life, I felt rejected. 554 00:30:39,754 --> 00:30:42,465 And that was that point where I said, "Okay, 555 00:30:42,549 --> 00:30:45,510 I'm done with the porn industry, I'm leaving. 556 00:30:45,593 --> 00:30:48,680 Like, I'm not even gonna be accepted here anymore." 557 00:30:48,763 --> 00:30:52,725 And so, I left for the first time. 558 00:30:58,022 --> 00:31:00,233 [people chattering] 559 00:31:10,535 --> 00:31:14,205 I thought, when I quit the first time, that I was gonna be done. 560 00:31:14,289 --> 00:31:16,416 I had gone to church and that was when 561 00:31:16,499 --> 00:31:20,795 I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, 562 00:31:20,879 --> 00:31:23,464 but I didn't understand the importance 563 00:31:23,548 --> 00:31:26,175 of having a relationship with God, 564 00:31:26,259 --> 00:31:29,721 because having that relationship with God, that's where you get strength 565 00:31:29,804 --> 00:31:32,682 from God is spending time with Him. 566 00:31:32,765 --> 00:31:37,395 Do you want something to eat? Hold on to it for later? 567 00:31:37,478 --> 00:31:39,147 Can we pray for you? 568 00:31:39,230 --> 00:31:42,692 My weakness at that time in my life was men. 569 00:31:42,775 --> 00:31:46,279 If you sent me a man, I would instantly fall in love. 570 00:31:46,362 --> 00:31:48,531 I felt like somebody wanted me, 571 00:31:48,615 --> 00:31:51,784 and I almost felt safer because I wasn't alone. 572 00:31:51,868 --> 00:31:54,537 I had a guy that got placed into my life 573 00:31:54,621 --> 00:31:58,708 and then he took me to church, and then I got baptized. 574 00:31:58,791 --> 00:32:02,879 I'm reading the Bible and I'm starting to do really good, 575 00:32:02,962 --> 00:32:04,881 and then this guy says, 576 00:32:04,964 --> 00:32:08,217 "You are gonna be a bigger star than ever before." 577 00:32:08,301 --> 00:32:10,762 Um, it turns out he was a pimp, 578 00:32:10,845 --> 00:32:13,139 he got me back into the porn industry... 579 00:32:15,058 --> 00:32:17,352 for another three and a half years. 580 00:32:19,729 --> 00:32:21,856 It's a vicious cycle in the porn industry. 581 00:32:21,940 --> 00:32:24,859 It starts with one thing, and it just goes on 582 00:32:24,943 --> 00:32:27,862 to the next, and to the next, and to the next 583 00:32:27,946 --> 00:32:31,574 until you just feel... hopeless. 584 00:32:34,452 --> 00:32:38,623 I knew that my life was gonna change forever when I met Jesus, 585 00:32:38,706 --> 00:32:43,419 because a man cannot change your life, because a man is not your Savior. 586 00:32:43,503 --> 00:32:45,838 God is our Savior, Jesus is our Savior. 587 00:32:45,922 --> 00:32:49,467 That's the only person that could ever transform my life. 588 00:32:49,550 --> 00:32:52,220 God used Richard a lot in my life, 589 00:32:52,303 --> 00:32:56,557 to be a part of him moving to change my life. 590 00:32:56,641 --> 00:32:59,143 And what I think the triple-X business does 591 00:32:59,227 --> 00:33:01,229 is that it gives you temporary relief. 592 00:33:01,312 --> 00:33:04,983 It gives you the sense of wow, people are noticing me, 593 00:33:05,066 --> 00:33:06,734 wow, I have money in my pocket, 594 00:33:06,818 --> 00:33:09,487 but it doesn't fulfill your heart and your soul. 595 00:33:09,570 --> 00:33:12,115 It gave her promises that it could not fulfill. 596 00:33:12,198 --> 00:33:14,158 It told her what she could have, 597 00:33:14,242 --> 00:33:17,495 but yet, it didn't fulfill her heart. 598 00:33:17,578 --> 00:33:20,331 It told her she was gonna be appreciated, 599 00:33:20,415 --> 00:33:22,542 but the moment when she was reaching for help, 600 00:33:22,625 --> 00:33:24,919 nobody was reaching out for her. 601 00:33:25,003 --> 00:33:27,130 [Jenna] I want you to know that you're not alone. 602 00:33:27,213 --> 00:33:30,425 Anytime that you feel like you are unworthy, 603 00:33:30,508 --> 00:33:32,593 God wants you to know that you are worthy, 604 00:33:32,677 --> 00:33:35,847 and it just takes a bold step of faith of saying, 605 00:33:35,930 --> 00:33:37,181 "You know what, I'm done." 606 00:33:37,265 --> 00:33:39,434 And faith, it's being sure of what you hope for 607 00:33:39,517 --> 00:33:41,102 and certain of what you do not see. 608 00:33:41,185 --> 00:33:43,354 So you may not see the better life, 609 00:33:43,438 --> 00:33:46,232 but you just have to have faith to believe that there is a better life 610 00:33:46,315 --> 00:33:49,110 and God wants to give you that better life, He really does. 611 00:33:49,193 --> 00:33:51,446 [applause] 612 00:33:56,993 --> 00:33:58,077 [chuckles] 613 00:33:58,161 --> 00:34:02,373 For all you new girls, remember that this is forever. 614 00:34:02,457 --> 00:34:05,043 The Internet is completely and totally forever 615 00:34:05,126 --> 00:34:06,794 and you can't take it back. 616 00:34:06,878 --> 00:34:11,632 Your friends and family will find out. You will get harassed by people. 617 00:34:11,716 --> 00:34:13,509 This will affect the rest of your life. 618 00:34:13,593 --> 00:34:15,887 I-- I've definitely seen girls in the industry 619 00:34:15,970 --> 00:34:17,972 where I'm like, "This is not a good place for you. 620 00:34:18,056 --> 00:34:19,766 You shouldn't be here." Heh. 621 00:34:19,849 --> 00:34:22,685 Um, and it is a tough industry. 622 00:34:22,769 --> 00:34:26,230 You gotta have guts in porn nowadays, because you are going to be judged. 623 00:34:26,314 --> 00:34:28,274 So, you have to be okay with yourself, 624 00:34:28,357 --> 00:34:30,735 and we all struggle, there is insecurities, 625 00:34:30,818 --> 00:34:33,863 we're all nervous about our bodies, and our minds, and our future. 626 00:34:33,946 --> 00:34:35,823 But you really do have to have a strong will 627 00:34:35,907 --> 00:34:37,200 when you come into this industry, 628 00:34:37,283 --> 00:34:40,078 especially if you're younger, and I completely acknowledge that. 629 00:34:40,161 --> 00:34:42,705 It's called adult entertainment for a reason. 630 00:34:42,789 --> 00:34:45,833 Like, you kind of have to be an adult to thrive. 631 00:34:49,712 --> 00:34:52,757 I'm really glad that I get to be on your documentary finally. 632 00:34:52,840 --> 00:34:55,551 It's about time you guys asked me. 633 00:34:55,635 --> 00:34:57,637 I'm lying, they've asked me every time. 634 00:34:59,430 --> 00:35:02,767 [Christy Canyon] We are each other's holiday presents every day of the week 635 00:35:02,850 --> 00:35:06,062 here on Vivid Radio SiriusXM. 636 00:35:06,145 --> 00:35:09,148 I've actually been with Vivid Radio which is on SiriusXM 637 00:35:09,232 --> 00:35:11,901 for the past three years. 638 00:35:11,984 --> 00:35:15,655 And then before that, I was on Playboy Radio 639 00:35:15,738 --> 00:35:18,324 for ten years on SiriusXM. 640 00:35:18,407 --> 00:35:20,618 So, I just-- I had like a two week period off 641 00:35:20,701 --> 00:35:22,578 and then just right back in business. 642 00:35:22,662 --> 00:35:25,540 And I love radio, it is so much fun. 643 00:35:25,623 --> 00:35:28,334 It's Vivid Radio's winter holiday special 644 00:35:28,417 --> 00:35:30,294 here on SiriusXM 415. 645 00:35:30,378 --> 00:35:35,341 Whoo! Your girl's here to just warm you up 646 00:35:35,424 --> 00:35:37,468 this holiday season. 647 00:35:37,552 --> 00:35:41,055 I definitely am not over sex after being around 648 00:35:41,139 --> 00:35:44,142 since I was 18 in this business. 649 00:35:44,225 --> 00:35:47,687 Eighteen, that's been in like two decades now. 650 00:35:49,355 --> 00:35:53,109 Looking for that lightning bolt to strike me. [laughs] 651 00:35:53,192 --> 00:35:56,487 Hey, boys, I'm Christy. 652 00:35:56,571 --> 00:35:58,698 [rock music playing] 653 00:36:02,577 --> 00:36:04,745 What's your fantasy? 654 00:36:04,829 --> 00:36:07,707 I've got to hand it to you, Paul, you outdid yourself this time. 655 00:36:07,790 --> 00:36:10,084 [Christy] I got in trouble, 'cause my girlfriend and I made 656 00:36:10,168 --> 00:36:12,086 Playboys and we sold them to the boys. 657 00:36:12,170 --> 00:36:13,421 They were like stick figures. 658 00:36:13,504 --> 00:36:16,424 But like, I'm sure there was like, big weenie 659 00:36:16,507 --> 00:36:18,176 going on... [laughs] 660 00:36:18,259 --> 00:36:19,594 And boobs or something. 661 00:36:19,677 --> 00:36:21,637 So, I think it was, like, from an early age 662 00:36:21,721 --> 00:36:24,724 that I'd somehow been in some kind of a business 663 00:36:24,807 --> 00:36:28,144 with nudity, I guess. I don't know. 664 00:36:30,897 --> 00:36:33,274 When I got in the business, I wasn't talking to my parents. 665 00:36:33,357 --> 00:36:35,860 Never was abused, I don't fall under that, never was hit, 666 00:36:35,943 --> 00:36:37,778 never was molested by anyone. 667 00:36:37,862 --> 00:36:39,280 I was just rebellious. 668 00:36:39,363 --> 00:36:41,782 And I just knew that I had to, I had to be in control of my life 669 00:36:41,866 --> 00:36:43,409 when I was 17 and moved out. 670 00:36:44,869 --> 00:36:47,246 So, when I got into the business, 671 00:36:47,330 --> 00:36:51,834 I had no money, nothing, and I hated that, like-- 672 00:36:51,918 --> 00:36:55,171 I hated being in that position, and then when I met somebody and they're, 673 00:36:55,254 --> 00:36:58,090 "Oh, you can make, you know, 500 a day, or 200," whatever. 674 00:36:58,174 --> 00:37:01,344 For an 18-year-old, that was making like, 150 a week 675 00:37:01,427 --> 00:37:04,513 working 40 hours at a job, it was like, "Wow." 676 00:37:04,597 --> 00:37:08,684 You don't need a car like this to take a beautiful woman out. 677 00:37:08,768 --> 00:37:10,561 You're a beautiful woman. 678 00:37:11,896 --> 00:37:13,272 Thank you. 679 00:37:13,356 --> 00:37:16,067 My first scenes that I look back on, 680 00:37:16,150 --> 00:37:18,819 nothing against Ron Jeremy, 'cause he's one of my best friends 681 00:37:18,903 --> 00:37:22,156 and I love him, that was the scariest fucking day of my life. 682 00:37:22,240 --> 00:37:23,950 Looking for... 683 00:37:24,992 --> 00:37:29,956 hot babe with big huge tits 684 00:37:30,039 --> 00:37:31,791 for a loving couple. 685 00:37:31,874 --> 00:37:35,336 Like I really thought I was, you know, going to a magazine or whatever, 686 00:37:35,419 --> 00:37:38,130 and it was a loop, which I-- I didn't know what a loop was at 18. 687 00:37:38,214 --> 00:37:40,466 It turned out it was a porn. 688 00:37:40,549 --> 00:37:43,511 And I'd been doing magazines for like, three or four months. 689 00:37:43,594 --> 00:37:46,222 Um, and it was with Ron Jeremy and another couple. 690 00:37:46,305 --> 00:37:49,267 -[all] Come on. -Please. 691 00:37:49,350 --> 00:37:51,560 Well... Oh, what the fuck. 692 00:37:51,644 --> 00:37:53,062 -[Ron] All right. -[man] Yeah! 693 00:37:53,145 --> 00:37:56,649 And it was just scar-- I don't care who the guy or girl was, it was like, 694 00:37:56,732 --> 00:37:59,151 "Oh, my God, I'm having sex on film." 695 00:37:59,235 --> 00:38:00,945 How-- And I don't mean to be mean, 696 00:38:01,028 --> 00:38:02,530 'cause it turned out great for me but I thought, 697 00:38:02,613 --> 00:38:04,907 "How low has my fucking life sunk?" 698 00:38:04,991 --> 00:38:10,538 Oh, my God! Thank you, Lord. Oh, God. 699 00:38:10,621 --> 00:38:15,418 But then, like, the next time I did a scene and it was with Ginger Lynn. 700 00:38:15,501 --> 00:38:19,755 -Let's take a bath together. -[chuckles] Together in there? 701 00:38:19,839 --> 00:38:22,591 I'd never been with a girl. I was like, "Not only is it with a girl, 702 00:38:22,675 --> 00:38:24,343 but look how cute she is." 703 00:38:25,886 --> 00:38:28,180 It was a whole different vibe on the set. It was... 704 00:38:28,264 --> 00:38:31,350 Like, these really great looking people. 705 00:38:31,434 --> 00:38:33,352 Like I get to have sex with them, and they're paying me. 706 00:38:33,436 --> 00:38:35,104 I felt like a movie star. 707 00:38:37,106 --> 00:38:39,150 I did a lot of firsts on camera-- 708 00:38:39,233 --> 00:38:42,153 interracial, gangbang, girls. 709 00:38:42,236 --> 00:38:45,406 I didn't know what was going to happen, but then he introduced me 710 00:38:45,489 --> 00:38:48,242 to this beautiful woman, Catherine. 711 00:38:48,326 --> 00:38:50,661 Well, hurry up and get to the good stuff. 712 00:38:50,745 --> 00:38:53,456 [Christy] Eighties, we made nothing, but fuck, it was fun. 713 00:38:53,539 --> 00:38:56,125 It was fun, learned a lot about sex, 714 00:38:56,208 --> 00:38:57,835 can't put a price tag on that. 715 00:38:57,918 --> 00:39:02,256 Has TV almost gotten you to a point of turning it off? 716 00:39:02,340 --> 00:39:06,969 Well, don't pull that plug, because we're going to turn you on. 717 00:39:11,599 --> 00:39:14,894 [Christy] This business has had more integrity for me. 718 00:39:14,977 --> 00:39:16,687 I don't think you have to sleep your way in po-- 719 00:39:16,771 --> 00:39:18,856 At least not in the-- the '80s and '90s. 720 00:39:18,939 --> 00:39:23,944 It's like, they were like, "Oh, my God, a girl wants to fuck on film for $500? 721 00:39:24,028 --> 00:39:25,112 Hire her." 722 00:39:25,196 --> 00:39:27,239 Like, they didn't wanna, like, ruin a good thing 723 00:39:27,323 --> 00:39:30,618 'cause, back in the '80s, very few girls were doing it. 724 00:39:30,701 --> 00:39:33,913 Never made to do a se-- Like a sex act that I wasn't-- 725 00:39:33,996 --> 00:39:36,415 I never did anal, I never did DP, 726 00:39:36,499 --> 00:39:39,418 not because there's anything wrong with it, wasn't my choice. 727 00:39:39,502 --> 00:39:42,588 No one said, "Well, we can't hire you if you don't take two dicks up your ass." 728 00:39:42,671 --> 00:39:43,672 No. 729 00:39:45,091 --> 00:39:47,551 In September of 1990 730 00:39:47,635 --> 00:39:50,179 is when I signed my contract with, 731 00:39:50,262 --> 00:39:53,307 what was then known as Vivid Video. 732 00:39:53,391 --> 00:39:55,851 And it was the best move. 733 00:39:55,935 --> 00:39:57,311 I-- I never left. 734 00:39:57,395 --> 00:40:00,940 Because the fucking '90s rocked, money-wise. 735 00:40:01,023 --> 00:40:02,650 I mean, they were amazing. 736 00:40:04,610 --> 00:40:09,240 I never compared myself to anyone. I was my own person. 737 00:40:09,323 --> 00:40:11,617 I didn't have to be number one. 738 00:40:11,700 --> 00:40:12,827 I mean, I kind of was. 739 00:40:17,790 --> 00:40:20,084 Men are only after two things-- 740 00:40:20,167 --> 00:40:21,752 pussy and money-- 741 00:40:21,836 --> 00:40:25,047 and unfortunately, I've got both. 742 00:40:25,131 --> 00:40:26,715 [laughter] 743 00:40:28,467 --> 00:40:32,388 [Christy] And then, in here is the messy office. 744 00:40:32,471 --> 00:40:37,226 Like, this photo that was taken of me about two years ago. 745 00:40:37,309 --> 00:40:40,646 Oh, that is lovely. No, just kidding. It's like 1985. 746 00:40:40,729 --> 00:40:45,568 This was a big fucking hit, and I made $400 off of it. 747 00:40:45,651 --> 00:40:48,195 And so-- Oh, you know what, this was another great thing-- 748 00:40:48,279 --> 00:40:51,574 it's a little dusty-- my action figure doll. 749 00:40:51,657 --> 00:40:55,119 I wouldn't wanna meet that version of me in a dark alley. 750 00:40:55,202 --> 00:40:57,538 Hey, wait, where's that nice young boy? 751 00:40:57,621 --> 00:41:01,417 I was going to give him a tub of Vivid condoms. [chuckles] 752 00:41:01,500 --> 00:41:04,295 That's for you. It's your little party gift. 753 00:41:04,378 --> 00:41:06,505 There you go. Wear them in good health. 754 00:41:06,589 --> 00:41:09,633 It was just a different time. It was innocent. It was underground. 755 00:41:09,717 --> 00:41:14,555 It was hidden. It was wonderful, and it was just a cozy little family. 756 00:41:14,638 --> 00:41:18,726 The one thing that I will never ever get rid of, and it's in my office, 757 00:41:18,809 --> 00:41:22,396 it's a big poster from one of the AVN shows 758 00:41:22,480 --> 00:41:25,232 of all the Vivid girls, Janine, Jenteal... 759 00:41:25,316 --> 00:41:27,985 And we all signed a poster to each other. 760 00:41:28,068 --> 00:41:29,653 See? And that's the thing with me. 761 00:41:29,737 --> 00:41:32,448 That's why I have no bad feelings about this business. 762 00:41:32,531 --> 00:41:34,158 I never took any of it seriously. 763 00:41:34,241 --> 00:41:38,496 It's a sex clinic run by Dr. Phil Lashio. 764 00:41:38,579 --> 00:41:42,208 It was just my job and a fun fucking job. 765 00:41:42,291 --> 00:41:46,212 Who wants to see me fuck the shit out of Steve? 766 00:41:46,295 --> 00:41:48,839 Yes! Yes. 767 00:41:50,716 --> 00:41:52,885 I mean, I took a break for maybe a year. 768 00:41:52,968 --> 00:41:54,887 Came back. I made like, three comebacks. 769 00:41:54,970 --> 00:41:57,097 Every time I got divorced, I'd make a comeback. 770 00:41:57,181 --> 00:41:59,308 As they were like, moving out, I'd be like, 771 00:41:59,391 --> 00:42:02,686 "Time to make a comeback, Steve. Yeah, wait, he's packing up now. 772 00:42:02,770 --> 00:42:04,605 Yeah, okay. I'm ready. Uh-huh. All right. 773 00:42:04,688 --> 00:42:06,315 Yeah, it was great while it lasted. All right. 774 00:42:06,398 --> 00:42:10,027 So, anyway, can you get Tony Tedeschi? I always wanted to have sex with--" 775 00:42:10,110 --> 00:42:12,196 I just didn't miss a beat. 776 00:42:12,279 --> 00:42:14,615 I don't have one complaint about the business. 777 00:42:14,698 --> 00:42:17,409 I loved it. I loved it. 778 00:42:17,493 --> 00:42:20,996 If I could go back in time and do films again under that era, 779 00:42:21,080 --> 00:42:23,290 I would do it in a heartbeat. 780 00:42:23,374 --> 00:42:25,042 I mean, I knew that there was a certain age 781 00:42:25,125 --> 00:42:26,961 where I wanted to hang it up. 782 00:42:27,044 --> 00:42:29,463 [sighs] I don't even know why. 783 00:42:29,547 --> 00:42:32,007 I think 14 years was enough, but I thought, 784 00:42:32,091 --> 00:42:35,261 "What do I want to do after porn ends?" 785 00:42:37,930 --> 00:42:42,726 Annie Cruz, what is your cock fucking choice for the holidays? 786 00:42:42,810 --> 00:42:44,144 Oh, lots of anal. 787 00:42:44,228 --> 00:42:49,024 The new girl today. They will do anything. [chuckles] 788 00:42:49,108 --> 00:42:52,403 So, I felt this warm sensation in my throat and I'm-- 789 00:42:52,486 --> 00:42:54,655 "Oh, my God." I wasn't expecting-- I didn't even-- 790 00:42:54,738 --> 00:42:56,365 To be honest, I didn't even know what it was. 791 00:42:56,448 --> 00:42:59,785 The majority of men, they like-- they want to fuck a woman's ass. 792 00:42:59,868 --> 00:43:02,746 Wrap their dicks in a little bow and then they can come feed it to me. 793 00:43:02,830 --> 00:43:05,791 -She can do triple vag, triple anal... -[Christy] Okay, now... 794 00:43:05,874 --> 00:43:08,377 To have them face, like their ass facing me. 795 00:43:08,460 --> 00:43:11,338 I want the-- I want the tit-fucking Christmas cocks. 796 00:43:11,422 --> 00:43:12,798 It's going to be like a fuck-a-fan. 797 00:43:12,881 --> 00:43:14,133 [Christy] It's just fun. 798 00:43:14,216 --> 00:43:17,344 It's just a good... Good old like, 799 00:43:17,428 --> 00:43:20,347 I... um, don't know if I can make films again, 800 00:43:20,431 --> 00:43:22,474 and yet, I love the business. 801 00:43:22,558 --> 00:43:24,476 So it just kind of keeps me in the loop. 802 00:43:24,560 --> 00:43:27,396 And I think just through porn and even radio, 803 00:43:27,479 --> 00:43:30,649 I've learned so much more about sex, obviously. 804 00:43:30,733 --> 00:43:34,612 I mean, people call in, and they give me tips sometimes. 805 00:43:34,695 --> 00:43:36,905 Something about a loofah on her boyfriend's dick. 806 00:43:36,989 --> 00:43:39,116 I don't know. I tried it. It was actually good. 807 00:43:39,199 --> 00:43:40,868 Thank you, Bob in Michigan. 808 00:43:43,996 --> 00:43:46,790 This is an entertainment business, and entertainment is tough, 809 00:43:46,874 --> 00:43:49,001 and it's competitive, and it's not particularly fair. 810 00:43:49,084 --> 00:43:51,253 Because people get very excited and they think 811 00:43:51,337 --> 00:43:53,589 it's easy money coming from all directions. 812 00:43:53,672 --> 00:43:57,176 And you can get a quick influx of money when you're brand new, 813 00:43:57,259 --> 00:44:00,179 but you have to make sure that you're sustaining yourself long-term. 814 00:44:00,262 --> 00:44:03,432 Where back in the day, people would shoot one movie 815 00:44:03,515 --> 00:44:05,893 and you would get up to $30,000 816 00:44:05,976 --> 00:44:08,020 for shooting one movie-- it's not like that anymore. 817 00:44:08,103 --> 00:44:11,482 I think the most valuable thing a performer, especially, can do nowadays 818 00:44:11,565 --> 00:44:13,400 is make, produce and own your own content. 819 00:44:13,484 --> 00:44:16,070 I produce my own content, I webcam, 820 00:44:16,153 --> 00:44:18,697 I do custom videos, I do porn. 821 00:44:18,781 --> 00:44:21,784 I do a little bit of camming, I do little bit of everything. 822 00:44:21,867 --> 00:44:24,244 I made an identity out of myself and that was the best thing 823 00:44:24,328 --> 00:44:27,414 that I ever did was trademarking myself and creating a brand. 824 00:44:27,498 --> 00:44:29,958 I think now more than ever, performers really do have 825 00:44:30,042 --> 00:44:33,170 more control over their brands and their success 826 00:44:33,253 --> 00:44:34,963 and their future than ever before. 827 00:44:35,047 --> 00:44:37,633 Having an extra, that extra income 828 00:44:37,716 --> 00:44:39,551 gives you the ability to say, 829 00:44:39,635 --> 00:44:42,638 "You know what, no, I don't wanna shoot that scene. 830 00:44:42,721 --> 00:44:46,058 I'm gonna shoot the type of scenes that I want to shoot and I want to be-- 831 00:44:46,141 --> 00:44:49,186 This is the way that I want people to see me." 832 00:44:52,106 --> 00:44:53,857 [Tera Patrick] Boy on a Dolphin, Sophia Loren. 833 00:44:53,941 --> 00:44:56,026 This woman could come out of the ocean. 834 00:44:56,110 --> 00:44:59,446 He was laughing at me, the boy. 835 00:44:59,530 --> 00:45:01,115 He was all gold, so big. 836 00:45:01,198 --> 00:45:04,326 [Tera] She was, in my opinion, and still is 837 00:45:04,410 --> 00:45:07,830 the sultry siren. It was incredible to me. 838 00:45:07,913 --> 00:45:11,667 So I wanted to relive that, and feel that on stage. 839 00:45:11,750 --> 00:45:15,587 And every time, still to this day, it's why I haven't stopped. 840 00:45:15,671 --> 00:45:18,590 [rock music playing] 841 00:45:18,674 --> 00:45:20,801 My father was in the Vietnam War. 842 00:45:20,884 --> 00:45:24,263 He was a hippie. He was drafted over to Vietnam. 843 00:45:24,346 --> 00:45:28,350 Met my mother there. They were both very young and they fell in love fast. 844 00:45:28,434 --> 00:45:30,561 My mother, she did the best she could. 845 00:45:30,644 --> 00:45:33,772 I think that, after ten years, 846 00:45:33,856 --> 00:45:37,734 she saw a bigger world outside of Montana, 847 00:45:37,818 --> 00:45:40,529 and was like, "Arrivederci." 848 00:45:40,612 --> 00:45:42,531 So I was raised by my father. 849 00:45:42,614 --> 00:45:44,700 My father and I, from a very early age, 850 00:45:44,783 --> 00:45:47,453 had a very close relationship. 851 00:45:47,536 --> 00:45:50,581 My dad was into rock and roll, he grew weed, 852 00:45:50,664 --> 00:45:52,666 he was studying to be a winemaker. 853 00:45:52,749 --> 00:45:53,959 You know, he was a bit rogue. 854 00:45:54,042 --> 00:45:56,462 Even if he personally didn't like something, 855 00:45:56,545 --> 00:45:57,838 I knew that I could go home. 856 00:45:59,339 --> 00:46:02,259 So at age 13, we enrolled me 857 00:46:02,342 --> 00:46:05,137 in Barbizon Modeling School, I think just out of necessity. 858 00:46:05,220 --> 00:46:07,848 [all] Welcome to Barbizon. Whoo! 859 00:46:07,931 --> 00:46:09,850 So he said, "She'll go to this modeling school. 860 00:46:09,933 --> 00:46:12,352 These, you know, these people will teach her 861 00:46:12,436 --> 00:46:15,063 everything she needs to know and she'll come out a lady." 862 00:46:15,147 --> 00:46:18,150 And you become a really unique and wholesome person. 863 00:46:18,233 --> 00:46:19,234 Okay, sort of. 864 00:46:25,574 --> 00:46:28,869 I look at these pictures of myself, and I can-- I can tell you 865 00:46:28,952 --> 00:46:34,124 every single picture I've ever taken, where I've been. 866 00:46:34,208 --> 00:46:37,836 I was 15, living abroad, working as a model. 867 00:46:37,920 --> 00:46:40,297 Now this, I think, this would be considered trafficking. 868 00:46:45,093 --> 00:46:48,889 But I remember, and my dad's always said, you know, 869 00:46:48,972 --> 00:46:52,059 the one thing he wanted me to be was fearless. 870 00:46:56,980 --> 00:47:00,317 Paulina Porizkova was the first model 871 00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:03,153 that I can remember being, wow. 872 00:47:03,237 --> 00:47:05,155 And it was because she had been in Playboy. 873 00:47:05,239 --> 00:47:08,158 I had taken-- My dad had that issue of her on the cover. 874 00:47:08,242 --> 00:47:11,203 She was a supermodel, Paulina. 875 00:47:11,286 --> 00:47:14,456 Seeing her in that Playboy really changed it for me, 'cause I realized, 876 00:47:14,540 --> 00:47:18,043 "Wait, you can do both. You can be an elegant woman 877 00:47:18,126 --> 00:47:21,755 and show your body and, you know, 878 00:47:21,838 --> 00:47:25,259 uh, get naked, and it's okay." 879 00:47:25,342 --> 00:47:27,719 You know, the more fashion models that I saw-- 880 00:47:27,803 --> 00:47:30,055 Linda Evangelista, Christy Turlington, 881 00:47:30,138 --> 00:47:32,015 this was Yasmeen Ghauri-- 882 00:47:32,099 --> 00:47:34,309 this was the height of the supermodel. 883 00:47:34,393 --> 00:47:37,271 There was something missing about them, in my opinion, 884 00:47:37,354 --> 00:47:39,106 and it was that they weren't sexual. 885 00:47:39,189 --> 00:47:41,567 They just didn't-- I always kind of gravitated 886 00:47:41,650 --> 00:47:43,402 to Sophia Loren, Marilyn Monroe. 887 00:47:43,485 --> 00:47:45,737 I liked-- I liked the va-va-voom. 888 00:47:45,821 --> 00:47:48,574 I found myself attracted to women 889 00:47:48,657 --> 00:47:51,159 that were, in my opinion, just uninhibited. 890 00:47:51,243 --> 00:47:54,413 ♪ Pa-dam pa-dam pa-tudeli-dam pooh ♪ 891 00:47:55,998 --> 00:47:58,750 [Tera] You're really treated... 892 00:48:00,210 --> 00:48:03,005 If you don't work, 893 00:48:03,088 --> 00:48:05,507 we have 10,000 other girls. 894 00:48:05,591 --> 00:48:09,177 It's not ten, it's not five, it's 10,000 other girls. 895 00:48:09,261 --> 00:48:13,974 So, I gave up modeling. I came to Los Angeles. 896 00:48:14,057 --> 00:48:17,144 I wanted to pursue working as a nurse anesthetist. 897 00:48:17,227 --> 00:48:19,104 I had applied at school here. 898 00:48:19,187 --> 00:48:22,899 [man] I was just thinking that you might be a model. Are you? 899 00:48:22,983 --> 00:48:25,944 No, I'm a student. Can't you tell? 900 00:48:26,028 --> 00:48:29,031 -Oh... -Yeah, I just came home from school. 901 00:48:30,365 --> 00:48:33,702 Playboy was doing one of their "Girls of the Campus," 902 00:48:33,785 --> 00:48:35,829 or I don't even remember the exact title. 903 00:48:36,830 --> 00:48:41,084 And I can remember going through the Playboy Studio West in Santa Monica. 904 00:48:41,168 --> 00:48:44,546 It's kind of the first taste I had had of... 905 00:48:44,630 --> 00:48:46,423 They brought me champagne. 906 00:48:46,506 --> 00:48:48,550 Marilyn said, "You're great." 907 00:48:48,634 --> 00:48:51,011 I went to the mansion a week later. I'm like, 908 00:48:51,094 --> 00:48:54,348 "You know what, hmm, nursing just isn't gonna cut it anymore." 909 00:48:54,431 --> 00:48:56,683 You're-- You get a taste of this amazing life. 910 00:48:56,767 --> 00:48:59,811 It was ten star, you had publicity. 911 00:48:59,895 --> 00:49:02,689 They took such good care of us. 912 00:49:02,773 --> 00:49:07,736 I'm the only woman who's been featured on the cover of Pent-- 913 00:49:07,819 --> 00:49:10,822 I was Penthouse Pet of the Year in February of 2002, 914 00:49:10,906 --> 00:49:14,493 and Playboy, on the cover of Playboy, the same month. 915 00:49:14,576 --> 00:49:18,372 The crazy thing is, so, the gateway to porn for me was Playboy. 916 00:49:18,455 --> 00:49:19,956 How could I not get into the business? 917 00:49:20,040 --> 00:49:22,751 I was introduced in the most incredible way. 918 00:49:22,834 --> 00:49:26,004 And... I mean, I didn't have to do a six-guy bukkake, right? 919 00:49:26,088 --> 00:49:27,631 It was like, I went to Playboy. 920 00:49:27,714 --> 00:49:32,052 If some girls aren't even college educated, this is a dream. 921 00:49:32,135 --> 00:49:34,221 I had a college degree and I wasn't making 922 00:49:34,304 --> 00:49:37,349 even a quarter of the money, so why was I going to continue? 923 00:49:38,934 --> 00:49:43,730 My first crush in porn was Janine Lindemulder. 924 00:49:43,814 --> 00:49:47,109 And I'll always remember, she wore jeans, 925 00:49:47,192 --> 00:49:49,695 blue jeans and a white tank top with no bra. 926 00:49:49,778 --> 00:49:53,156 She was smiling so big, and she came over and hugged me. 927 00:49:53,240 --> 00:49:56,535 And I was like, "This is-- This is where I need to be. 928 00:49:56,618 --> 00:49:58,412 This is it. I'm-- I'm in." 929 00:49:58,495 --> 00:50:02,833 I feel like this is a fantasy and I'm making it come true. 930 00:50:02,916 --> 00:50:04,960 Yeah, and even better if you took off that part, 931 00:50:05,043 --> 00:50:08,672 that-- the-- the top bra thing. 932 00:50:10,340 --> 00:50:13,135 [Tera] I realized, if I'm getting into this, 933 00:50:13,218 --> 00:50:15,011 I have to make it worth my while. 934 00:50:15,095 --> 00:50:16,680 Once you've had a dick in your mouth, 935 00:50:16,763 --> 00:50:19,891 you can never go back. 936 00:50:19,975 --> 00:50:21,518 You can't un-ring the bell. 937 00:50:21,601 --> 00:50:24,479 Tera Patrick in the flesh. 938 00:50:30,444 --> 00:50:32,571 There goes anonymity. 939 00:50:34,239 --> 00:50:37,492 In a way, I think that, early on in my career, 940 00:50:37,576 --> 00:50:40,454 I explored a lot of my sexuality. 941 00:50:40,537 --> 00:50:42,581 So, I think anal was the hardest thing. 942 00:50:42,664 --> 00:50:44,374 I can't believe I whispered that "anal." 943 00:50:44,458 --> 00:50:46,418 You know, I mean, it was taboo a little bit. 944 00:50:46,501 --> 00:50:48,462 I mean, it was kind of like, 945 00:50:48,545 --> 00:50:50,881 "Okay, now she's gonna do anal," you know. 946 00:50:50,964 --> 00:50:56,178 Um, actually, for me, what was a big deal, was I never did girl-girl. 947 00:50:57,262 --> 00:51:00,098 Ooh, it's hot in here. Could we take off all our clothes? My God. 948 00:51:00,182 --> 00:51:03,643 So, when I did my first girl-girl scene in 2003, 949 00:51:03,727 --> 00:51:07,606 and of course, it was with a really beautiful woman, Savannah... 950 00:51:07,689 --> 00:51:11,067 uh, with Vivid, for Tera, Tera, Tera. 951 00:51:11,193 --> 00:51:14,154 Tera, Tera, Tera. 952 00:51:14,237 --> 00:51:17,157 It was a great experience for me, but I was ready. 953 00:51:17,240 --> 00:51:21,453 I never did anything that I didn't want to do, ever. 954 00:51:21,536 --> 00:51:22,913 We're out and open with what we do. 955 00:51:22,996 --> 00:51:25,665 I've always said, "Why do you think I wasn't in mainstream? 956 00:51:25,749 --> 00:51:27,209 I have my own production." [imitates buzzer] 957 00:51:27,292 --> 00:51:31,004 You know, I'm making my own money. I'm doing what I want to do. 958 00:51:31,087 --> 00:51:32,881 I don't want to do mainstream. 959 00:51:32,964 --> 00:51:35,342 I like sucking dick. That's what I'm famous for. 960 00:51:35,425 --> 00:51:37,385 I didn't cure cancer, you know what I mean? 961 00:51:37,469 --> 00:51:40,472 I-- I'm famous for being Tera Patrick. 962 00:51:41,848 --> 00:51:44,142 And I can remember being in Cannes. 963 00:51:44,226 --> 00:51:48,355 And I was on the red carpet, too, and I had a police escort. 964 00:51:48,438 --> 00:51:51,983 And people, uh, they knew me, they were waiting for pictures. 965 00:51:52,067 --> 00:51:55,195 They were waiting, and I said, "They've all seen my pussy." 966 00:51:55,278 --> 00:51:57,405 My pussy made it to Europe. 967 00:52:00,200 --> 00:52:02,828 So, how I ended up, uh, 968 00:52:02,911 --> 00:52:05,664 with Teravision and on my own in the porn business, 969 00:52:05,747 --> 00:52:08,500 starting from 2003, 970 00:52:08,583 --> 00:52:11,044 until I retired in 2009, 971 00:52:11,127 --> 00:52:13,588 was, uh, I became a feature dancer. 972 00:52:18,969 --> 00:52:21,805 And this was what bankrolled my company. 973 00:52:21,888 --> 00:52:23,974 I went on the road as a feature dancer, 974 00:52:24,057 --> 00:52:27,352 where we performed, uh, striptease shows in clubs. 975 00:52:27,435 --> 00:52:29,187 We made money, and I would go home 976 00:52:29,271 --> 00:52:31,690 and use that money to fund my movies. 977 00:52:31,773 --> 00:52:34,818 The sales from my movies-- half went into living, 978 00:52:34,901 --> 00:52:36,653 the other half went into savings. 979 00:52:38,196 --> 00:52:41,867 We made a lot more money, per movie, per scene. 980 00:52:41,950 --> 00:52:43,326 A lot of us got residuals, 981 00:52:43,410 --> 00:52:45,829 a lot of us owned our content, owned our company. 982 00:52:45,912 --> 00:52:49,124 We had many ways to exploit our revenue. 983 00:52:49,207 --> 00:52:52,252 I look at my body of work and Teravision, 984 00:52:52,335 --> 00:52:55,380 my website-- I, I made beautiful work. 985 00:52:55,463 --> 00:52:58,216 I mean, listen, we're not shooting Othello, you know? 986 00:52:58,300 --> 00:53:00,468 Uh, the dialogue doesn't have to be perfect. 987 00:53:00,552 --> 00:53:03,138 Get the cock in the mouth, the cum shot on the face and we're good. 988 00:53:03,221 --> 00:53:06,600 So, is there anything else I can get you guys? 989 00:53:06,683 --> 00:53:08,977 I can't think of anything. 990 00:53:09,060 --> 00:53:11,438 Yeah, what in the world could we possibly want after that? 991 00:53:17,736 --> 00:53:22,532 The opportunity to work in Italy came up. 992 00:53:22,616 --> 00:53:25,952 And I said, "Italy, this is the most beautiful country in the world. 993 00:53:26,036 --> 00:53:27,495 The best food, wine. 994 00:53:27,579 --> 00:53:30,206 I mean, yeah, I-- I'm gone. I'm going." 995 00:53:30,290 --> 00:53:32,292 Anything to do with food or money 996 00:53:32,375 --> 00:53:34,336 is what I learned first in Italian, 997 00:53:34,419 --> 00:53:36,963 because you have to eat and you have to get paid. 998 00:53:37,047 --> 00:53:39,049 And so the first phrase I learned was 999 00:53:39,132 --> 00:53:40,842 [speaks Italian] 1000 00:53:40,926 --> 00:53:41,927 Pay me now. 1001 00:53:48,642 --> 00:53:51,227 I signed a contract to do feature shows. 1002 00:53:51,311 --> 00:53:53,521 My very first feature show, 1003 00:53:53,605 --> 00:53:58,234 my now-husband Alberto had come from day one. 1004 00:53:58,318 --> 00:54:00,070 Of course, I wanted to sit on his face, 1005 00:54:00,153 --> 00:54:02,405 you know, and this beautiful Italian accent, and-- 1006 00:54:02,489 --> 00:54:05,158 But he fascinated me. 1007 00:54:05,241 --> 00:54:07,327 This is an open-minded man. 1008 00:54:07,410 --> 00:54:10,163 I think to even jump in the water 1009 00:54:10,246 --> 00:54:13,583 and see what it would be like to swim with me for a while, 1010 00:54:13,667 --> 00:54:14,751 yeah, it takes balls. 1011 00:54:16,252 --> 00:54:19,881 [whispering] I think I feel this one. Watch, y'all. 1012 00:54:21,424 --> 00:54:24,260 Okay. Here we go. 1013 00:54:24,344 --> 00:54:26,596 [Tera] I love the business. I love my life now. 1014 00:54:26,680 --> 00:54:29,265 I'm just gonna... I'm gonna keep camming. 1015 00:54:29,349 --> 00:54:32,143 I'm gonna keep my websites, I'm gonna keep featuring. 1016 00:54:32,227 --> 00:54:34,062 I'm never gonna stop. I'm a pervert. 1017 00:54:34,145 --> 00:54:39,150 I'm never gonna stop, uh, dancing and performing on stage. 1018 00:54:39,234 --> 00:54:42,988 And so, maybe that's when it's gonna end, 1019 00:54:43,071 --> 00:54:45,407 maybe that's when porn is gonna end. 1020 00:54:45,490 --> 00:54:47,617 When they stop throwing the dollars. I hope not. 1021 00:54:47,701 --> 00:54:50,453 Guys, come to Cheerleaders next month. 1022 00:54:52,998 --> 00:54:55,959 I don't know if the analogy is the same, 1023 00:54:56,042 --> 00:54:58,628 but I feel like it's almost like being a professional athlete. 1024 00:54:58,712 --> 00:55:02,757 You have a few good years, in my opinion, physically, 1025 00:55:02,841 --> 00:55:04,217 to do what you want, 1026 00:55:04,300 --> 00:55:07,303 to make your mark, to make your splash. 1027 00:55:07,387 --> 00:55:11,433 And then I wanted to go out gracefully. 1028 00:55:12,642 --> 00:55:14,352 This was something that early on I said, 1029 00:55:14,436 --> 00:55:17,480 "I can't do this till I'm 50, and I don't want to." 1030 00:55:17,564 --> 00:55:21,568 But I am so grateful, and I always will be, 1031 00:55:21,651 --> 00:55:25,572 because I've been retired for 10 years 1032 00:55:25,655 --> 00:55:29,034 and I still sell in webcam. 1033 00:55:29,117 --> 00:55:32,954 And I have thousands of website members. 1034 00:55:33,038 --> 00:55:36,291 My life in the adult business has not resulted 1035 00:55:36,374 --> 00:55:38,001 in anything negative for me. 1036 00:55:38,084 --> 00:55:39,878 Have I hit some speed bumps? 1037 00:55:39,961 --> 00:55:41,046 Had a lawsuit? 1038 00:55:41,129 --> 00:55:43,339 Fucked the wrong guy a few times? Sure. 1039 00:55:43,423 --> 00:55:45,800 But I'm not damaged to a point 1040 00:55:45,884 --> 00:55:48,261 where I'm bankrupt, destitute, 1041 00:55:48,344 --> 00:55:49,846 and trying to figure out, 1042 00:55:49,929 --> 00:55:51,973 "What do I want to do with my life?" 1043 00:56:01,107 --> 00:56:04,778 It's a movie industry combined with sex, nothing more. 1044 00:56:04,861 --> 00:56:08,031 It is what you make of it. It's an artistic medium 1045 00:56:08,114 --> 00:56:11,785 that is meant to draw out a reaction from people-- 1046 00:56:11,868 --> 00:56:14,621 turned on, angry, whatever it is, it's working. 1047 00:56:14,704 --> 00:56:19,334 I really... unlocked a piece of my sexuality 1048 00:56:19,417 --> 00:56:24,464 that, um, that was hidden before I got here, 1049 00:56:24,547 --> 00:56:28,426 and porn really helped open it up and it's built me confidence. 1050 00:56:28,510 --> 00:56:31,930 It's definitely not where you should learn how to have sex, 1051 00:56:32,013 --> 00:56:35,809 the same way that you wouldn't watch a Wes Craven movie 1052 00:56:35,892 --> 00:56:40,980 and then feel like you have to go slaughter a teenager in a camp, 1053 00:56:41,064 --> 00:56:43,358 uh, in summer wear-- wearing a hockey mask. 1054 00:56:43,441 --> 00:56:44,859 -You know what I mean? -So specific. 1055 00:56:54,661 --> 00:56:56,454 Now, so, what should we talk about? 1056 00:57:02,168 --> 00:57:03,962 [laughs] 1057 00:57:04,045 --> 00:57:05,547 Nina gave me one of the best compliments 1058 00:57:05,630 --> 00:57:07,215 when I was put into the whole thing, 1059 00:57:07,298 --> 00:57:09,676 She said, "Herschel Savage-- 1060 00:57:09,759 --> 00:57:13,888 steel wrapped in skin, that was his cock." I love that. 1061 00:57:13,972 --> 00:57:15,348 [man] That's an unbelievably-- 1062 00:57:15,431 --> 00:57:18,143 That's a great compliment coming from Nina Hartley. Come on. 1063 00:57:18,226 --> 00:57:21,813 Can you believe it? Sometimes, horses have wings, baby. 1064 00:57:21,896 --> 00:57:23,773 You know, like, I would've taken an extra inch, 1065 00:57:23,857 --> 00:57:26,484 but I was happy with what I had. 1066 00:57:26,568 --> 00:57:30,447 I mean, I never competed with anybody. I was not one of those guys, you know. 1067 00:57:30,530 --> 00:57:33,199 I literally had young porn stars 1068 00:57:33,283 --> 00:57:36,828 come on the set and tell me shit like, 1069 00:57:36,911 --> 00:57:40,582 "I could cum eight times in a day. I got a nine-inch dick." 1070 00:57:40,665 --> 00:57:43,543 I said, "Nice to meet you. Get the fuck out of my face." 1071 00:57:43,626 --> 00:57:45,545 No, I didn't say that, but still, I mean, you know, 1072 00:57:45,628 --> 00:57:47,547 people try to promote themselves as-- 1073 00:57:47,630 --> 00:57:50,008 You know, give me a break, man. Just say hello. 1074 00:57:50,091 --> 00:57:53,428 I'm looking for the manager. You must be him. What's your name? 1075 00:57:53,511 --> 00:57:55,638 -You're the manager, right? -Uh, uh... 1076 00:57:55,722 --> 00:57:57,432 Uh, yeah. Uh, hi. 1077 00:57:57,515 --> 00:57:59,726 -[chuckles] What's your name? -Uh... 1078 00:57:59,809 --> 00:58:03,938 Uh, uh, Boom. Uh, uh, Bada Boom. 1079 00:58:06,441 --> 00:58:09,861 [man] How often did you actually have an orgasm? 1080 00:58:11,070 --> 00:58:12,989 On film? 1081 00:58:13,072 --> 00:58:15,617 Are you asking me how often I had an orgasm on film? 1082 00:58:15,700 --> 00:58:18,536 -Is that a real question? -Well, versus faking. 1083 00:58:18,620 --> 00:58:22,874 Uh, that's my job is to have an orgasm, to maintain an erection, 1084 00:58:22,957 --> 00:58:26,711 get the footage, and... have an orgasm, cum. 1085 00:58:26,794 --> 00:58:29,380 [man] A lot of people, like Tera said she faked it. Like-- 1086 00:58:29,464 --> 00:58:32,425 Well, well, a woman can fake it. I mean, most women in the business 1087 00:58:32,509 --> 00:58:34,802 probably aren't cumming. I mean, that's-- 1088 00:58:34,886 --> 00:58:38,473 But-- But they don't have to. Guys have to. We're doing real work. 1089 00:58:38,556 --> 00:58:42,310 I mean, it's-- It's hard to believe having an orgasm on camera is work, 1090 00:58:42,393 --> 00:58:46,064 but there's some, uh, physical, uh, strain to it. 1091 00:58:46,147 --> 00:58:49,734 But no, guys don't... Guys don't like-- I mean, yeah, 1092 00:58:49,817 --> 00:58:53,363 "Herschel, we, we need you to fuck three girls today, but please don't cum." 1093 00:58:53,446 --> 00:58:55,740 "Okay, no problem." 1094 00:58:55,823 --> 00:58:59,786 I don't care how you do it, but you have got to make this girl cum, 1095 00:58:59,869 --> 00:59:02,664 and when she does, I want you to have this beaker ready 1096 00:59:02,747 --> 00:59:05,250 and catch every single drop. 1097 00:59:05,333 --> 00:59:07,502 [man] And to reiterate, nobody ever told you to hold your orgasm 1098 00:59:07,585 --> 00:59:12,131 for a couple of days to make it more prodigious? 1099 00:59:13,675 --> 00:59:15,218 Uh... no. 1100 00:59:15,301 --> 00:59:17,887 [laughs] No one ever asks me to 1101 00:59:17,971 --> 00:59:20,723 hold off on cumming for a couple of days, 1102 00:59:20,807 --> 00:59:24,394 so I could have a prodigious ejaculate. 1103 00:59:24,477 --> 00:59:26,604 No, no one ever did that. They assume that you-- 1104 00:59:26,688 --> 00:59:30,650 All men in the business have these amazing powers and abilities. 1105 00:59:30,733 --> 00:59:33,528 But no, we don't. No, no one ever asked that. 1106 00:59:35,446 --> 00:59:37,407 I have never had 1107 00:59:37,490 --> 00:59:41,619 a sexual relationship with any of the White House interns. 1108 00:59:44,622 --> 00:59:47,083 [Herschel] I played Bill Clinton 1109 00:59:47,166 --> 00:59:50,295 in a, in a scene, uh, with Monica Lewinsky. 1110 00:59:50,378 --> 00:59:54,048 Monica was played by Aja, the beautiful Aja. 1111 00:59:54,132 --> 00:59:56,801 And I must say, I mean, I got a blowjob under the desk 1112 00:59:56,884 --> 01:00:00,179 while I'm being interviewed on camera as Bill Clinton, 1113 01:00:00,263 --> 01:00:02,473 and she was-- She just didn't stop. 1114 01:00:02,557 --> 01:00:05,393 When they cut camera, she kept blowing me. She was the best. 1115 01:00:05,476 --> 01:00:07,729 It was an amazing blowjob, it was so great. 1116 01:00:07,812 --> 01:00:10,648 Just send me the dry cleaning charge, honey. 1117 01:00:10,732 --> 01:00:13,568 -What am I doing? Straight? -Uh, we're gonna get on the freeway. 1118 01:00:13,651 --> 01:00:15,570 -West? -Ah, you're gonna go east. 1119 01:00:15,653 --> 01:00:17,280 -We're gonna go back towards the house. -East. All right. 1120 01:00:17,363 --> 01:00:20,033 I'm having a good time. I just want to let you know you're doing a good job. 1121 01:00:20,116 --> 01:00:22,952 -I hope you're enjoying the-- -Are you? Are you having a good time? 1122 01:00:25,747 --> 01:00:28,416 [Herschel] I think, generally speaking, my scenes are hot, 1123 01:00:28,499 --> 01:00:29,917 because of the connection I have with the women. 1124 01:00:30,001 --> 01:00:34,464 It's hot. It's hot stuff, man. I think, anyway. 1125 01:00:39,844 --> 01:00:43,056 I'd really like to finish those planter boxes tomorrow. 1126 01:00:43,139 --> 01:00:46,976 I was never real-- really kinky. I was more of a romantic. 1127 01:00:47,060 --> 01:00:49,520 I mean, I just loved kissing and... 1128 01:00:49,604 --> 01:00:51,731 For me, it was like a romantic adventure. 1129 01:00:51,814 --> 01:00:55,193 I mean, you had to still make it hot, but for the most part, 1130 01:00:55,276 --> 01:00:59,489 those are private, intense connections with that woman. 1131 01:00:59,572 --> 01:01:01,824 So, when I, when I watch a scene that I'm in, 1132 01:01:01,908 --> 01:01:03,785 I'm reliving that moment with that woman 1133 01:01:03,868 --> 01:01:07,330 'cause that was so significant to me and so strong. 1134 01:01:08,414 --> 01:01:12,085 Stay a while. Talk. 1135 01:01:12,168 --> 01:01:14,003 Honey, if I stay, we won't be talking. 1136 01:01:14,087 --> 01:01:17,090 It wasn't even performing, it wasn't performing for me, 1137 01:01:17,173 --> 01:01:19,592 it was like, I was, I was... 1138 01:01:19,676 --> 01:01:21,636 I was with... I was with somebody. 1139 01:01:21,719 --> 01:01:23,054 It was like... 1140 01:01:23,137 --> 01:01:25,807 It was like a universal snuggle, man. 1141 01:01:25,890 --> 01:01:29,018 It was great. I'm with you, you know. It's fucking great. 1142 01:01:31,979 --> 01:01:36,150 You know, you're really beautiful, I mean, really attractive. 1143 01:01:36,234 --> 01:01:41,572 I-- I quit the first time in '87. Came back in '97. 1144 01:01:41,656 --> 01:01:43,700 And the difference between women 1145 01:01:43,783 --> 01:01:47,578 from the '80s to the '90s was unbelievable. 1146 01:01:47,662 --> 01:01:49,455 It was like model-quality young women. 1147 01:01:49,539 --> 01:01:51,749 I mean, you know. I mean, it was just like... 1148 01:01:51,833 --> 01:01:55,503 [scoffs] I was selling videotapes during my retirement period, 1149 01:01:55,586 --> 01:01:59,382 realizing I'm never gonna have sex with this woman, you know. 1150 01:02:02,301 --> 01:02:05,096 -They got a Jamba Juice-- -Nice ass. 1151 01:02:05,179 --> 01:02:07,181 [man] You've a great eye still. You still got it. 1152 01:02:07,265 --> 01:02:08,266 I do. 1153 01:02:08,349 --> 01:02:10,935 -You look really great. -[woman] Oh, thank you. 1154 01:02:11,018 --> 01:02:15,773 Light shining behind your head. You look like, like an angel. 1155 01:02:18,776 --> 01:02:22,905 As we can see in the, uh, normal entertainment industry, 1156 01:02:22,989 --> 01:02:27,910 how at risk women are to men especially 1157 01:02:27,994 --> 01:02:30,580 who use their power to take advantage of them. 1158 01:02:30,663 --> 01:02:34,167 Every woman is hit on, whether they're in the adult industry or not. 1159 01:02:34,250 --> 01:02:38,045 And certainly, it's going to be more likely if they're encountering 1160 01:02:38,129 --> 01:02:41,132 many of the pigs that populate this industry. 1161 01:02:41,215 --> 01:02:43,342 "Oh, you wanna work?" You know, it's like, "Give me a blow--" 1162 01:02:43,426 --> 01:02:46,053 I mean, it's like, "I'm gonna be blowing somebody, anyway," 1163 01:02:46,137 --> 01:02:47,805 "You're gonna be doing this anyway, I just want to see 1164 01:02:47,889 --> 01:02:49,932 how you are," you know. It's bullshit. 1165 01:02:50,016 --> 01:02:51,976 Everyone becomes objectified, 1166 01:02:52,059 --> 01:02:53,853 and you don't see a woman as a person, 1167 01:02:53,936 --> 01:02:56,063 and that's a sickness. 1168 01:02:56,147 --> 01:02:57,732 When you're only dealing with the sex 1169 01:02:57,815 --> 01:03:01,486 and the need of that, it's-- you're an empty vessel. 1170 01:03:05,448 --> 01:03:07,742 It's a massage parlor scene. 1171 01:03:07,825 --> 01:03:10,286 And I come in and I play the role 1172 01:03:10,369 --> 01:03:11,829 of a guy who's coming in for a massage, 1173 01:03:11,913 --> 01:03:14,207 and she just is pulling-- 1174 01:03:14,290 --> 01:03:16,167 We don't actually have intercourse. 1175 01:03:16,250 --> 01:03:20,171 She gives me a shower, masturbates me, and blows me. 1176 01:03:20,254 --> 01:03:22,131 This was one of my-- one of the hottest scenes ever-- 1177 01:03:22,215 --> 01:03:24,008 I-- I masturbate to that scene. 1178 01:03:24,091 --> 01:03:26,427 I'm sorry, I have to have some kind of life. 1179 01:03:26,511 --> 01:03:29,096 Anyway, that's a hot scene. Check that one out. 1180 01:03:33,559 --> 01:03:36,312 As I spoke of earlier, this is the scene 1181 01:03:36,395 --> 01:03:40,691 I just love to watch called Soapy Massage, 1182 01:03:40,775 --> 01:03:43,778 and I am the shy massage parlor customer 1183 01:03:43,861 --> 01:03:46,531 coming for a normal everyday massage. 1184 01:03:46,614 --> 01:03:49,784 But she is starting to grab my thigh. 1185 01:03:49,867 --> 01:03:53,704 And she's just, I mean-- Can you see this? 1186 01:03:53,788 --> 01:03:56,040 I'm reacting in horror. "Oh, my God, what are you doing? 1187 01:03:56,123 --> 01:03:58,376 Oh, no, I-- I-- I shouldn't be doing this. 1188 01:03:58,459 --> 01:04:01,170 I'm just here to have my muscles worked out." 1189 01:04:01,254 --> 01:04:03,714 My shirt's off, I shouldn't be shocked anymore. I... 1190 01:04:03,798 --> 01:04:05,967 What I should be shocked at, is that I wasn't going to the gym 1191 01:04:06,050 --> 01:04:08,719 for three years, that's what I should be shocked about. 1192 01:04:08,803 --> 01:04:11,305 But, uh, but here we go. You know, I kind of feel embarrassed 1193 01:04:11,389 --> 01:04:13,224 being with you people and doing an interview, 1194 01:04:13,307 --> 01:04:14,809 and now my cock's coming out. 1195 01:04:14,892 --> 01:04:17,353 You know, so, it's almost like, you know-- 1196 01:04:17,436 --> 01:04:20,940 It's like forcing your close friend, Bob, 1197 01:04:21,023 --> 01:04:22,608 to watch your dick getting sucked. 1198 01:04:22,692 --> 01:04:23,943 It's weird. Kind of weird. 1199 01:04:26,153 --> 01:04:29,740 People have been against me from day one. Do you... do you see me? 1200 01:04:29,824 --> 01:04:33,452 Here I stand, go ahead. Try it, I dare you. 1201 01:04:33,536 --> 01:04:35,830 That's the thing that this industry has taught me. Ball-- 1202 01:04:35,913 --> 01:04:38,082 I have balls. Let me tell you. 1203 01:04:38,165 --> 01:04:42,253 And I'm very proud of my big balls. Because you know what? I know who I am. 1204 01:04:42,336 --> 01:04:44,755 To be in adult entertainment doesn't have to be a stigma. 1205 01:04:44,839 --> 01:04:48,968 It doesn't have to be a dark, seedy, evil place. I'm very proud of myself. 1206 01:04:49,051 --> 01:04:50,678 I'm honest about what I, what I do, 1207 01:04:50,761 --> 01:04:52,680 who I am, and how it is when you're with me. 1208 01:04:52,763 --> 01:04:54,807 Hopefully, you want to come along for the ride. 1209 01:04:54,891 --> 01:04:57,018 And if not, then there's another bus or train 1210 01:04:57,101 --> 01:04:59,020 or something down, down the way you can hop on, 1211 01:04:59,103 --> 01:05:01,522 but hopping on me is always fun. 1212 01:05:03,149 --> 01:05:06,777 [Jenteal] I wanted to build a Jenteal-pire. 1213 01:05:06,861 --> 01:05:09,947 [moaning, panting] 1214 01:05:10,031 --> 01:05:12,575 I wanted to build an empire of my own. 1215 01:05:14,035 --> 01:05:15,870 My goal was to have a million dollars in the bank 1216 01:05:15,953 --> 01:05:17,663 free and clear by the time I hit 30. 1217 01:05:19,206 --> 01:05:21,626 [man] All right. First of all, I want to know, 1218 01:05:21,709 --> 01:05:23,753 what makes you do videos? How come you're here? 1219 01:05:27,214 --> 01:05:31,636 My boyfriend and I were very interested in watching porn. 1220 01:05:31,719 --> 01:05:34,430 Um, I was very interested in girls. 1221 01:05:36,223 --> 01:05:38,017 I had a huge crush on Janine. 1222 01:05:38,100 --> 01:05:40,353 She was one of the girls that we always looked for 1223 01:05:40,436 --> 01:05:42,188 when we went to the adult bookstore. 1224 01:05:42,271 --> 01:05:45,316 You know, it's always kind of in the back of my mind, what would that be like? 1225 01:05:46,359 --> 01:05:49,779 It's easy. You just, you just do what you feel. 1226 01:05:49,862 --> 01:05:52,031 Never did I think that would come to fruition. 1227 01:05:52,114 --> 01:05:54,283 Look what the cat dragged in. 1228 01:05:58,454 --> 01:06:01,374 There was an ad in, uh, one of the Berkeley school papers 1229 01:06:01,457 --> 01:06:02,833 that was looking for nude models. 1230 01:06:02,917 --> 01:06:05,419 I'd seen the ad for-- for months and months on end. 1231 01:06:05,503 --> 01:06:07,213 And then, when I turned 18, my boyfriend was like, 1232 01:06:07,296 --> 01:06:08,673 "You know, you need to call that ad." 1233 01:06:08,756 --> 01:06:11,175 You know, I wanted to explore that more. 1234 01:06:11,258 --> 01:06:14,637 And he really wanted me to explore that more. [laughs] 1235 01:06:14,720 --> 01:06:20,059 So, the ad was run by a man named Dan Barros, who became my agent. 1236 01:06:20,142 --> 01:06:21,978 Uh, he had a small little production company 1237 01:06:22,061 --> 01:06:24,021 called Wildfire Productions. 1238 01:06:24,105 --> 01:06:26,941 And, um, a star was born. 1239 01:06:28,484 --> 01:06:31,404 [man] Are you an exhibitionist? You like to be watched? 1240 01:06:31,487 --> 01:06:34,699 I-- I think that being watched can be a turn-on at one point. 1241 01:06:34,782 --> 01:06:37,493 [man] Well, you're being watched now. [laughter] 1242 01:06:37,576 --> 01:06:41,956 And will be watched by several people, several thousand. 1243 01:06:42,039 --> 01:06:46,210 I only worked with girls in the beginning because I didn't wanna work with guys. 1244 01:06:46,293 --> 01:06:50,256 Like I only wanted to work with girls. Uh, I was really curious about it. 1245 01:06:52,383 --> 01:06:54,218 Oh, yes. 1246 01:06:54,301 --> 01:06:56,929 [moans] Good girl. 1247 01:06:57,013 --> 01:07:00,516 So, I mean, it had only been six months, nine months, maybe. 1248 01:07:00,599 --> 01:07:03,728 Um, I'd worked with all of the girls I ever wanted to work with. 1249 01:07:03,811 --> 01:07:07,732 Um, and Vivid had always told me, when I was on their set, uh, that 1250 01:07:07,815 --> 01:07:11,277 if you ever want to work with men, we will sign you to a contract. 1251 01:07:11,360 --> 01:07:13,946 So, I wanted more money. [laughs] 1252 01:07:15,114 --> 01:07:17,450 Three hundred dollars? 1253 01:07:17,533 --> 01:07:21,871 And, uh, I knew that I could get a lot more money working with guys. 1254 01:07:21,954 --> 01:07:24,540 [dramatic theme playing for logo] 1255 01:07:28,377 --> 01:07:30,463 [transitions to rock theme] 1256 01:07:32,048 --> 01:07:34,467 I mean, being a Vivid girl was a huge accolade. 1257 01:07:35,926 --> 01:07:39,180 I felt really special that they wanted to sign me. 1258 01:07:39,263 --> 01:07:42,975 And they reassured me that I'd have control over who I worked with 1259 01:07:43,059 --> 01:07:44,769 and that I could insist on condoms. 1260 01:07:44,852 --> 01:07:48,814 And when I signed with Vivid, uh, my first boy-girl scene 1261 01:07:48,898 --> 01:07:51,150 was in Dangerous Games with Alex Sanders. 1262 01:07:51,233 --> 01:07:52,526 He was my first guy. 1263 01:07:52,610 --> 01:07:54,737 [Jenteal] I don't like that kind of talk. I don't like it at all. 1264 01:07:56,697 --> 01:07:58,074 Can you believe these lines? 1265 01:07:59,700 --> 01:08:03,287 [Jenteal] Vivid was definitely, uh, the company to work for. 1266 01:08:03,370 --> 01:08:06,415 It was sought after by everybody in the business. 1267 01:08:06,499 --> 01:08:08,501 And they sort of 1268 01:08:08,584 --> 01:08:11,128 were the elite girls, it felt like-- 1269 01:08:11,212 --> 01:08:12,797 You know, it was all of the classics. 1270 01:08:12,880 --> 01:08:14,840 It was Janine, Christy Canyon, 1271 01:08:14,924 --> 01:08:18,302 myself, Nikki Tyler, Racquel Darrian. 1272 01:08:18,385 --> 01:08:20,429 Everybody wanted to be a Vivid girl. 1273 01:08:22,181 --> 01:08:25,851 To be successful, as in any business in any industry, you have to be unique 1274 01:08:25,935 --> 01:08:29,313 and do something different, and market yourself in a different way. 1275 01:08:29,396 --> 01:08:33,484 [Jenteal] Steve Hirsch was really big on advertising in a mainstream way. 1276 01:08:33,567 --> 01:08:36,362 And for a time, he had us all 17 feet tall, 1277 01:08:36,445 --> 01:08:38,989 on Sunset Boulevard, right above Tower Records. 1278 01:08:39,073 --> 01:08:41,158 And that was huge. You know, no other adult company 1279 01:08:41,242 --> 01:08:42,660 had done anything like that before. 1280 01:08:42,743 --> 01:08:46,664 Vivid did so many different things in their movies, you know, with costumes 1281 01:08:46,747 --> 01:08:51,585 and with locations that I had a bunch of really unique experiences. 1282 01:08:51,669 --> 01:08:54,171 I know you don't know this yet, but... 1283 01:08:54,255 --> 01:08:56,966 it's a very big world out there. 1284 01:08:57,049 --> 01:09:00,845 Over my 21st birthday, we were in Hawaii shooting for Vivid and for Playboy. 1285 01:09:00,928 --> 01:09:03,931 And those two movies that I did in Hawaii were awesome. 1286 01:09:05,099 --> 01:09:06,142 Hi, I'm Eve. 1287 01:09:06,225 --> 01:09:09,270 The locations were just superb. I felt really pretty. 1288 01:09:09,353 --> 01:09:13,816 My boyfriend was really, uh, perfectly okay with the industry. 1289 01:09:13,899 --> 01:09:18,237 He was perfectly okay with me working with guys in movies. 1290 01:09:18,320 --> 01:09:21,282 I got into the business with my boyfriend 1291 01:09:21,365 --> 01:09:24,368 And, uh, we got married about five years later. 1292 01:09:24,451 --> 01:09:27,079 And then six months later, when I got pregnant, 1293 01:09:27,163 --> 01:09:31,417 uh, I stopped everything-- I stopped nude modeling, dancing. 1294 01:09:31,500 --> 01:09:33,878 Um, I'd pretty much been done with films already. 1295 01:09:33,961 --> 01:09:36,380 Um, but for me, that was it. 1296 01:09:36,463 --> 01:09:38,966 [dramatic theme playing] 1297 01:09:46,098 --> 01:09:48,767 I definitely knew I didn't wanna be a part of the industry 1298 01:09:48,851 --> 01:09:51,687 and be pregnant, or raising two children. 1299 01:09:51,770 --> 01:09:54,940 I was born, I felt, to be a mother first and foremost, 1300 01:09:55,024 --> 01:09:58,360 and, uh, my accomplishments in the industry 1301 01:09:58,444 --> 01:10:00,613 and with my business were just secondary, 1302 01:10:00,696 --> 01:10:02,489 but for me, uh, being a mother was it, 1303 01:10:02,573 --> 01:10:04,950 and I didn't want to have to juggle the two. 1304 01:10:05,034 --> 01:10:07,661 I, honestly, after doing so much in the business 1305 01:10:07,745 --> 01:10:10,623 and being, uh, made up so glamorously for so many years 1306 01:10:10,706 --> 01:10:13,876 and all the travel and everything, I just really wanted to be a basic bitch. 1307 01:10:13,959 --> 01:10:16,754 I wanted a-- a flat salary, I wanted to know my hours 1308 01:10:16,837 --> 01:10:18,881 and... and that was it. 1309 01:10:18,964 --> 01:10:21,300 So, um, when I was at Trader Joe's, 1310 01:10:21,383 --> 01:10:24,094 I-- I hurt my back really bad, um, lifting some milk crates 1311 01:10:24,178 --> 01:10:26,388 and had to have two back surgeries. 1312 01:10:26,472 --> 01:10:28,098 That was in 2009. 1313 01:10:28,182 --> 01:10:31,560 And, uh, I've had this injury since then, despite the surgeries. 1314 01:10:31,644 --> 01:10:34,396 Thank you all for coming. Uh... 1315 01:10:34,480 --> 01:10:37,983 I really just wanted an opportunity to, um, open up 1316 01:10:38,067 --> 01:10:40,945 the discussion about the oil and share my experience 1317 01:10:41,028 --> 01:10:44,073 and see if you have any questions. 1318 01:10:44,156 --> 01:10:47,159 Not that long ago, a girlfriend, uh, posted something 1319 01:10:47,243 --> 01:10:50,120 on her Facebook page regarding CBD oil. 1320 01:10:50,204 --> 01:10:53,582 And, um, I'd heard that it helps people, you know, 1321 01:10:53,666 --> 01:10:57,169 heal cancer. I've heard that it helps with, um, 1322 01:10:57,253 --> 01:10:59,964 with a lot of other illnesses and ailments. 1323 01:11:00,047 --> 01:11:01,966 And so, I was really curious. 1324 01:11:02,049 --> 01:11:04,260 I just knew that, with my back injury, 1325 01:11:04,343 --> 01:11:06,595 you know, this was something that was really going to help me. 1326 01:11:06,679 --> 01:11:08,305 And I was very, very interested 1327 01:11:08,389 --> 01:11:11,809 in where the business is going, so I got involved. 1328 01:11:14,228 --> 01:11:17,856 Uh, I don't really feel like my past ever was, um-- 1329 01:11:17,940 --> 01:11:21,694 It never brought any tumultuousness to my life. 1330 01:11:21,777 --> 01:11:25,864 There are certain people that certainly don't agree with it and have opinions. 1331 01:11:25,948 --> 01:11:28,158 Um, their opinions are their business, 1332 01:11:28,242 --> 01:11:30,911 and they've never really been imposed on me. 1333 01:11:30,995 --> 01:11:36,083 So, uh, I felt like I got away pretty unscathed in that regard, actually. 1334 01:11:37,459 --> 01:11:41,005 Just having been a fan of porn, I would definitely say 1335 01:11:41,088 --> 01:11:43,799 that the porn shot in the '90s was far superior 1336 01:11:43,882 --> 01:11:46,051 than, uh, than what's shot today. 1337 01:11:46,135 --> 01:11:49,596 And, um, I definitely think, just from a fan's perspective, 1338 01:11:49,680 --> 01:11:51,307 that the porn then was... 1339 01:11:51,390 --> 01:11:53,267 That was a golden era. 1340 01:11:53,350 --> 01:11:56,645 That little honey pot of my life in my early 20s 1341 01:11:56,729 --> 01:11:59,565 was really, uh, that had a lot packed into it, though. 1342 01:11:59,648 --> 01:12:02,359 There was a lot that I experienced, I mean, a ton. 1343 01:12:02,443 --> 01:12:04,069 I probably lived more life in those five years 1344 01:12:04,153 --> 01:12:06,155 than most 50-year-old's have their entire life. 1345 01:12:08,073 --> 01:12:11,910 The juice was worth the squeeze, and, uh, I wrang that fucker dry, dude. 1346 01:12:11,994 --> 01:12:13,037 [chuckles] 1347 01:12:21,587 --> 01:12:24,340 [Alex] I feel like people frequently think that I'm just a sex object, 1348 01:12:24,423 --> 01:12:27,134 and I'm not. I'm a person. 1349 01:12:27,217 --> 01:12:29,636 And, like, I've literally had guys that-- I was just hanging out, 1350 01:12:29,720 --> 01:12:31,972 and they just took their dick out, expecting me to do something with it. 1351 01:12:34,975 --> 01:12:38,270 We need to stop shaming people for being in porn. There's no reason 1352 01:12:38,354 --> 01:12:39,563 to shame people for being in porn. 1353 01:12:39,646 --> 01:12:42,149 It's a legitimate business. It's a real business. 1354 01:12:42,232 --> 01:12:43,567 It's a billion-dollar business. 1355 01:12:43,650 --> 01:12:45,944 [Romi] Everybody always says, "Like, well, you're in porn, 1356 01:12:46,028 --> 01:12:47,946 you're in adult entertainment, people are never gonna forget it. 1357 01:12:48,030 --> 01:12:51,200 They're gonna remember this forever. You are a porn star for life." 1358 01:12:51,283 --> 01:12:53,369 And I always thought, "Well, use that, 1359 01:12:53,452 --> 01:12:55,662 and if you're going to be in adult entertainment anyway, 1360 01:12:55,746 --> 01:12:58,707 try to be the best version of yourself you can be. 1361 01:12:58,791 --> 01:13:00,876 Try to be as successful as possible. 1362 01:13:00,959 --> 01:13:02,503 So then, when you look back on your career, 1363 01:13:02,586 --> 01:13:04,421 you're not looking back on it with regrets." 1364 01:13:07,299 --> 01:13:10,511 Take a breath in, bring your ears up in line with your shoulders 1365 01:13:10,594 --> 01:13:12,513 so your neck is in line with your spine. 1366 01:13:12,596 --> 01:13:14,515 That's it. Draw your shoulders back. 1367 01:13:14,598 --> 01:13:16,016 [Bonnie] So, I went to this person's house, 1368 01:13:16,100 --> 01:13:17,393 and I had one drink. 1369 01:13:17,476 --> 01:13:19,895 And after that one drink, I remember nothing, 1370 01:13:19,978 --> 01:13:21,814 and woke up the next morning to my IDs 1371 01:13:21,897 --> 01:13:25,025 and a consent form on the nightstand. 1372 01:13:25,109 --> 01:13:26,693 And that was when I shot my first film. 1373 01:13:30,781 --> 01:13:34,618 [woman] Every time you exhale, watch what you can let go of more. 1374 01:13:34,701 --> 01:13:36,453 [Bonnie] Physical, mental, 1375 01:13:36,537 --> 01:13:38,914 the exhalation is a process of letting go. 1376 01:13:41,083 --> 01:13:43,544 [thunder crashing] 1377 01:13:43,627 --> 01:13:46,755 My mother, um, she didn't raise me, she left me 1378 01:13:46,839 --> 01:13:49,383 when I was probably two months old. 1379 01:13:49,466 --> 01:13:50,801 And we haven't really had a relationship 1380 01:13:50,884 --> 01:13:53,178 since then, and my father was in prison my entire life. 1381 01:13:53,262 --> 01:13:54,596 Uh, my grandparents raised me 1382 01:13:54,680 --> 01:13:57,558 from four until I was, you know, 16 years old. 1383 01:13:57,641 --> 01:13:58,934 I grew up with my grandfather. 1384 01:13:59,017 --> 01:14:01,437 My grandfather and grandmother actually separated-- 1385 01:14:01,520 --> 01:14:03,021 they're my mother's parents. 1386 01:14:03,105 --> 01:14:06,900 So, my grandfather raised me. I grew up at the horse track with him. 1387 01:14:06,984 --> 01:14:09,403 I grew up, uh, just in the country. 1388 01:14:10,988 --> 01:14:15,200 When I was 13, I lost my virginity to a boyfriend, and we were in school. 1389 01:14:15,284 --> 01:14:18,328 He was-- I was in eighth, eighth grade, he was in seventh grade. 1390 01:14:18,412 --> 01:14:20,456 And my best friend went to church 1391 01:14:20,539 --> 01:14:22,666 and told all of my family that I lost my virginity. 1392 01:14:22,749 --> 01:14:25,502 And then the next day, I went to school 1393 01:14:25,586 --> 01:14:27,754 to beat up my best friend for, you know, 1394 01:14:27,838 --> 01:14:31,717 that issue and, uh, was then removed from school and kicked out of school. 1395 01:14:31,800 --> 01:14:35,596 And that was what perpetuated me leaving school at eighth grade. 1396 01:14:35,679 --> 01:14:38,724 And once that all had happened, where I lost my virginity 1397 01:14:38,807 --> 01:14:40,058 and moved out from my grand-- 1398 01:14:40,142 --> 01:14:42,311 my grandmother's back into my grandfather's, 1399 01:14:42,394 --> 01:14:43,729 I started tattooing myself. 1400 01:14:43,812 --> 01:14:46,231 So, this is a 13-hour tattoo, I got it when I was 15. 1401 01:14:46,315 --> 01:14:48,609 My back, I kinda wanted to do like a freak show thing 1402 01:14:48,692 --> 01:14:50,819 because it's-- you know, we're all freaks. 1403 01:14:50,903 --> 01:14:52,863 Sinatra's everywhere, and I have to carry him with me everywhere. 1404 01:14:52,946 --> 01:14:56,950 I did this zombie pinup, and I named her Bonnie Rotten. 1405 01:14:57,034 --> 01:15:01,955 And, um, I ended up being me, very quickly. 1406 01:15:02,039 --> 01:15:05,000 I was very heavily tattooed by the time I was about 17. 1407 01:15:05,083 --> 01:15:06,710 [rock music playing] 1408 01:15:06,793 --> 01:15:09,588 I started doing car shows, horror shows, 1409 01:15:09,671 --> 01:15:12,883 different expos in the Midwest, and that kind of like, 1410 01:15:12,966 --> 01:15:15,719 started my modeling career, and I invented Bonnie Rotten. 1411 01:15:17,012 --> 01:15:19,097 I'm 21 years old. I don't need my mommy and daddy 1412 01:15:19,181 --> 01:15:21,391 worrying about me. Thanks. 1413 01:15:21,475 --> 01:15:25,812 You know what? I think you're involved in some bad stuff. 1414 01:15:26,647 --> 01:15:28,148 Bad stuff, like what? 1415 01:15:28,232 --> 01:15:30,150 [screaming] 1416 01:15:31,235 --> 01:15:34,446 Fuck! Ow! You're a fucking cunt! [screams] 1417 01:15:34,530 --> 01:15:37,908 [Bonnie] The genre of horror for me was so important. 1418 01:15:37,991 --> 01:15:39,117 It was almost like a fantasy. 1419 01:15:39,201 --> 01:15:41,537 Even though it was horror and kind of like, crazy and scary, 1420 01:15:41,620 --> 01:15:44,748 it still was that fantasy world for me that I could really enjoy, 1421 01:15:44,831 --> 01:15:46,250 just like people do with porn. 1422 01:15:48,919 --> 01:15:50,087 [loud bang] 1423 01:15:51,171 --> 01:15:54,716 My first visit to California happened because I was working a horror expo. 1424 01:15:54,800 --> 01:15:57,010 And they had a pageant for a magazine, 1425 01:15:57,094 --> 01:15:59,471 and I competed in the pageant, and I won the pageant. 1426 01:15:59,555 --> 01:16:01,598 So the prize was like, we'll fly you out to California 1427 01:16:01,682 --> 01:16:03,850 and shoot this layout for our magazine. 1428 01:16:03,934 --> 01:16:06,728 So, I did it, and came out here and shot the magazine, 1429 01:16:06,812 --> 01:16:10,274 and kind of met some connections in the porn industry. 1430 01:16:10,357 --> 01:16:12,609 So, I'd actually met someone that was 1431 01:16:12,693 --> 01:16:16,154 on a podcast at the friend's that I was staying at while I was in town. 1432 01:16:16,238 --> 01:16:19,324 So, I went to this person's house, and I had one drink. 1433 01:16:19,408 --> 01:16:21,535 And after that one drink, I remember nothing. 1434 01:16:23,996 --> 01:16:25,914 And that was when I shot my first film. 1435 01:16:31,461 --> 01:16:34,756 You look at him, he has the devil in his soul. 1436 01:16:34,840 --> 01:16:37,050 I don't think that about most people. 1437 01:16:40,679 --> 01:16:42,514 Scary, very scary. 1438 01:16:42,598 --> 01:16:44,683 But he was the only person that I encountered 1439 01:16:44,766 --> 01:16:46,643 in the business that was like that. 1440 01:16:46,727 --> 01:16:50,564 After that, I had the best experiences that I could possibly have. 1441 01:16:53,025 --> 01:16:56,403 So, when I came into the industry, I was told by the bigger companies, like, 1442 01:16:56,486 --> 01:16:58,530 "We can't shoot you. Like, you have too many tattoos. 1443 01:16:58,614 --> 01:16:59,948 We don't know what to do with you." 1444 01:17:00,032 --> 01:17:02,576 So, I was introduced to someone at a company 1445 01:17:02,659 --> 01:17:05,287 uh, called New Sensations, and because of them, 1446 01:17:05,370 --> 01:17:07,831 they opened the gate for tattooed girls 1447 01:17:07,914 --> 01:17:10,167 to be accepted into mainstream porn companies. 1448 01:17:12,419 --> 01:17:15,047 I was accepted with that movie, Meet Bonnie. 1449 01:17:15,797 --> 01:17:18,508 Hi, my name is Bonnie Rotten. I'm 19. 1450 01:17:18,592 --> 01:17:21,470 I just turned 19 three weeks ago. 1451 01:17:21,553 --> 01:17:25,599 It was nominated for a bunch of awards the first year I was in the business. 1452 01:17:25,682 --> 01:17:28,310 I was nominated for Best New Starlet, like, three months in. 1453 01:17:28,393 --> 01:17:30,312 [man] How many awards are you nominated for tonight? 1454 01:17:30,395 --> 01:17:31,563 Uh, 14. 1455 01:17:31,647 --> 01:17:35,359 -And the winner is... Bonnie Rotten. -[audience cheering] 1456 01:17:35,442 --> 01:17:38,028 [Bonnie] And then after that, that was it. 1457 01:17:38,111 --> 01:17:40,447 Everybody shot me, everybody started hiring me. 1458 01:17:40,530 --> 01:17:42,824 Everybody started putting me on box covers. 1459 01:17:42,908 --> 01:17:45,327 And then it kind of just took off from there. 1460 01:17:45,410 --> 01:17:49,122 -[man] Rambone! -Colonel, I didn't expect to see you here. 1461 01:17:50,791 --> 01:17:53,585 Rambone, I need you to abort this mission immediately, soldier. 1462 01:17:55,420 --> 01:17:58,340 [Bonnie] So, I was shooting 10 to 15 times a month, 1463 01:17:58,423 --> 01:18:00,759 featuring one to two-- one to three weekends a month. 1464 01:18:00,842 --> 01:18:02,969 [male announcer over P.A.] Internationally famous 1465 01:18:03,053 --> 01:18:07,182 Bonnie Rotten is in the building. 1466 01:18:07,265 --> 01:18:09,726 [Bonnie] I got to experience a lot. 1467 01:18:09,810 --> 01:18:11,603 -[man 1] Bonnie, how you doing? -I'm awesome. How are you? 1468 01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:13,605 [man 2] We're doing great. This is hard, I don't know where to put my eyes. 1469 01:18:13,689 --> 01:18:15,148 [laughs] Right here. 1470 01:18:15,232 --> 01:18:16,733 [cheering] 1471 01:18:16,817 --> 01:18:18,318 [man 1] Say hi to to the husband behind you! 1472 01:18:18,402 --> 01:18:20,195 [exclaiming] 1473 01:18:20,278 --> 01:18:22,781 One of my most favorite parts of my career was when I got to travel 1474 01:18:22,864 --> 01:18:25,867 to Switzerland and Germany, and I did like, basically a world tour. 1475 01:18:25,951 --> 01:18:27,536 I can't go to sleep because I'm excited, 1476 01:18:27,619 --> 01:18:29,746 and I just want to see everything, and I want to go eat, 1477 01:18:29,830 --> 01:18:31,289 and I want to eat all the food, and I want to try everything. 1478 01:18:31,373 --> 01:18:33,125 And I want to do everything. I want to do everything! 1479 01:18:33,208 --> 01:18:35,794 Well, I started, um, in South Africa, 1480 01:18:35,877 --> 01:18:38,255 and did something called Sexpo in Johannesburg. 1481 01:18:39,798 --> 01:18:42,676 Went from there to Switzerland 1482 01:18:42,759 --> 01:18:45,178 to shoot a movie called Roller Girl. 1483 01:18:45,262 --> 01:18:48,390 And went to Hungary to shoot with Rocco Siffredi. 1484 01:18:48,473 --> 01:18:51,935 And we did Bonnie vs. Rocco, which was insane. 1485 01:18:53,311 --> 01:18:56,648 And it was the best time of my life. I got a couple of tattoos-- 1486 01:18:56,732 --> 01:18:59,693 the Berlin bear, and the Swiss flag... 1487 01:19:01,528 --> 01:19:03,739 and the bull from Barcelona. 1488 01:19:05,115 --> 01:19:07,617 I really wanted to make porn art. 1489 01:19:07,701 --> 01:19:09,536 You know, 'cause I was shooting so much, and I was always involved 1490 01:19:09,619 --> 01:19:11,496 in these things, and I was like, "These guys, 1491 01:19:11,580 --> 01:19:14,166 like, they bring us in their-- their apartment, or their whatever, 1492 01:19:14,249 --> 01:19:16,168 and they have us shoot on their couch in these mansions. 1493 01:19:16,251 --> 01:19:19,421 But these could be so cool." 1494 01:19:19,504 --> 01:19:21,631 Like I have all these ideas. Fuck it, I'm going to do it. 1495 01:19:21,715 --> 01:19:24,301 I put together Anal Candy Disco Chicks. 1496 01:19:25,427 --> 01:19:27,846 Anal Candy Disco Chicks. Can you get a picture? 1497 01:19:27,929 --> 01:19:30,891 [rock theme playing] 1498 01:19:30,974 --> 01:19:35,187 Afros, buckets of gumballs, it was insane. 1499 01:19:35,270 --> 01:19:37,689 And then after that, I directed Cape Fear 1500 01:19:37,773 --> 01:19:40,108 and I also starred in it as Robert De Niro. 1501 01:19:40,192 --> 01:19:42,277 The people call Samantha Bowden. 1502 01:19:42,360 --> 01:19:43,695 Do you swear to tell the truth, 1503 01:19:43,779 --> 01:19:46,490 the whole truth and nothing but the truth, God help your soul? 1504 01:19:46,573 --> 01:19:49,910 While using my friend's boat, in Marina del Rey, 1505 01:19:49,993 --> 01:19:52,287 and trying to make sure that none of the mahogany 1506 01:19:52,370 --> 01:19:55,957 and nothing was like messed up by the crew, it was intense. 1507 01:19:56,041 --> 01:19:58,919 I made zero money. I lost money, but it was fun. 1508 01:20:00,170 --> 01:20:01,797 -[gunshot] -[screams] 1509 01:20:01,880 --> 01:20:04,674 Yeah, and I learned, okay, this is crazy and this is fun. 1510 01:20:04,758 --> 01:20:07,302 But you know, people kinda want simpler stuff, 1511 01:20:07,385 --> 01:20:10,305 so, let's kind of dumb down production and give 'em what they want. 1512 01:20:13,433 --> 01:20:15,936 The thing about the industry is, you're 18 years old, 1513 01:20:16,019 --> 01:20:18,146 and you're making 30, 40 grand a month. 1514 01:20:18,230 --> 01:20:21,650 You don't know what to do with that money at 18 years old. It's insane. 1515 01:20:21,733 --> 01:20:25,070 So that money is very short lived and you're not taught what to do with it. 1516 01:20:25,153 --> 01:20:29,449 But luckily, I did start a sex toy company that I owned myself. 1517 01:20:29,533 --> 01:20:32,911 One of the coolest things was, um, these action figures, 1518 01:20:32,994 --> 01:20:37,374 and they fashioned an action figure from every inch of your body. 1519 01:20:37,457 --> 01:20:38,750 It was completely insane. 1520 01:20:38,834 --> 01:20:43,922 Every detail, every tattoo, every curl in my hair showed up on this little doll. 1521 01:20:44,005 --> 01:20:46,800 And we started selling them online, and they were doing really great. 1522 01:20:46,883 --> 01:20:50,262 And people had like, little Bonnie figurines, or they could have big ones. 1523 01:20:52,264 --> 01:20:54,850 When I left the industry, I'd actually met my second husband, 1524 01:20:54,933 --> 01:20:56,351 who I had my daughter with. 1525 01:20:56,434 --> 01:20:58,979 You know, I was kind of looking for an out, 1526 01:20:59,062 --> 01:21:01,731 because I'd won Performer of the Year the year before, 1527 01:21:01,815 --> 01:21:04,192 I had outperformed myself, 1528 01:21:04,276 --> 01:21:05,944 'cause if you know anything about my films, like, 1529 01:21:06,027 --> 01:21:07,863 I always did the craziest stuff, 1530 01:21:07,946 --> 01:21:09,823 and there was really nothing more that I could do 1531 01:21:09,906 --> 01:21:12,325 that was any crazier than what I was doing, 1532 01:21:12,409 --> 01:21:15,287 without it being a circus act, or me not enjoying it. 1533 01:21:17,956 --> 01:21:20,375 I like to carry myself a certain way because I know 1534 01:21:20,458 --> 01:21:23,545 that as soon as I walk into a room, I'm looked at a certain way. 1535 01:21:23,628 --> 01:21:26,339 Even with the moms at school, like, I'm-- I don't like for them 1536 01:21:26,423 --> 01:21:28,800 to get to know me too much because I don't like to lie 1537 01:21:28,884 --> 01:21:30,594 about my past or who I was. 1538 01:21:30,677 --> 01:21:33,763 And I don't want to compromise my daughter's life, 1539 01:21:33,847 --> 01:21:37,350 or her safety, or her well-being with her friends at school 1540 01:21:37,434 --> 01:21:41,479 because of my past and what the parents think of me. 1541 01:21:43,273 --> 01:21:45,275 I want for her to have 1542 01:21:45,358 --> 01:21:48,153 the easiest, safest... 1543 01:21:48,904 --> 01:21:51,364 structured life that she can possibly have. 1544 01:21:54,534 --> 01:21:57,454 There's been some talk about, like, me returning to the industry, 1545 01:21:57,537 --> 01:22:00,373 but because of my daughter, I don't think that I would. 1546 01:22:00,457 --> 01:22:03,960 Just because I want to be able to say that I walked away when I had her 1547 01:22:04,044 --> 01:22:05,295 and didn't have to return. 1548 01:22:05,378 --> 01:22:07,005 [woman] Exhale, jump back. 1549 01:22:08,340 --> 01:22:10,175 Low down, inhale, cobra. 1550 01:22:10,258 --> 01:22:12,469 [Bonnie] I'm very sensitive when it comes to emotions 1551 01:22:12,552 --> 01:22:14,971 and things like that because of the things that have happened to me-- 1552 01:22:15,055 --> 01:22:17,265 abandonment, those things. I'm... 1553 01:22:17,349 --> 01:22:19,601 I really don't want her to ever feel that way. 1554 01:22:19,684 --> 01:22:21,436 So, I'm just very hands-on with her, 1555 01:22:21,519 --> 01:22:23,897 and very attentive, and she's my world. 1556 01:22:27,567 --> 01:22:30,695 I was a very extreme, you know, 1557 01:22:30,779 --> 01:22:33,573 tattooed, hardcore girl when I performed. 1558 01:22:33,657 --> 01:22:37,118 But in my life, I'm a very sweet, loving, generous person, 1559 01:22:37,202 --> 01:22:40,997 and most people wouldn't think that about me at all just by looking at me. 1560 01:22:42,290 --> 01:22:44,876 Don't ever judge a book by its cover-- you never know 1561 01:22:44,960 --> 01:22:46,544 who that person may be on the inside, 1562 01:22:46,628 --> 01:22:49,422 and you never know where that person may take you. 1563 01:23:01,726 --> 01:23:04,479 [Luc] You need to realize that what goes on 1564 01:23:04,562 --> 01:23:09,609 in the adult industry is created for your entertainment. 1565 01:23:09,693 --> 01:23:11,569 It's not reality. 1566 01:23:11,653 --> 01:23:12,988 [woman] Oh, hold it out. 1567 01:23:13,071 --> 01:23:16,241 -[digital camera beeping] -[woman] Don't go in. Like that, yeah. 1568 01:23:16,324 --> 01:23:19,160 [Luc] Reality is bumping up against people. 1569 01:23:19,244 --> 01:23:21,329 It's having sex. 1570 01:23:21,413 --> 01:23:24,207 It's feeling that moment 1571 01:23:24,290 --> 01:23:26,292 of connection between two people. 1572 01:23:26,376 --> 01:23:28,837 -[laughs] Right? -That's right. 1573 01:23:28,920 --> 01:23:30,463 [man laughs] 1574 01:23:30,547 --> 01:23:34,718 [Luc] The digital world can be very, very isolating 1575 01:23:34,801 --> 01:23:37,095 and dividing, if we allow it to be. 1576 01:23:37,178 --> 01:23:39,389 [Alexandra] Yes, what's the solution, though? 1577 01:23:39,472 --> 01:23:42,434 It's like we just need to make better choices. 1578 01:23:42,517 --> 01:23:46,146 Let's choose to kiss and hug instead of... 1579 01:23:46,229 --> 01:23:48,732 [Alexandra giggles] 1580 01:23:48,815 --> 01:23:49,983 Well, and turn it off. 1581 01:23:50,066 --> 01:23:52,819 -Turn-- Or turn it on. -It should be turned off and on. 1582 01:23:52,902 --> 01:23:55,155 -On. -[both laughing] 1583 01:23:59,534 --> 01:24:01,703 [rock music playing] 1584 01:25:10,021 --> 01:25:13,441 [dramatic theme playing]