1 00:00:06,093 --> 00:00:08,747 [soft music] 2 00:00:08,791 --> 00:00:13,665 ♪ 3 00:00:13,709 --> 00:00:15,624 ♪ Time 4 00:00:15,667 --> 00:00:18,627 ♪ Ticking in the back of my mind ♪ 5 00:00:18,670 --> 00:00:21,021 ♪ 'Cause I know what I'll find ♪ 6 00:00:21,064 --> 00:00:23,719 ♪ If I sit in place 7 00:00:23,762 --> 00:00:26,287 ♪ So I walk 8 00:00:26,330 --> 00:00:29,638 ♪ Never really sure where I'm going ♪ 9 00:00:29,681 --> 00:00:31,640 ♪ But it's better than knowing ♪ 10 00:00:31,683 --> 00:00:33,859 ♪ What every day will be 11 00:00:33,903 --> 00:00:36,558 ♪ I am who I am 12 00:00:36,601 --> 00:00:39,039 ♪ 13 00:00:39,082 --> 00:00:44,348 ♪ And I know what I know 14 00:00:44,392 --> 00:00:50,137 ♪ But I don't know my way 15 00:00:50,180 --> 00:00:53,575 ♪ I just go where I go 16 00:00:53,618 --> 00:01:00,147 ♪ 17 00:01:06,153 --> 00:01:09,286 My dearest Max, 18 00:01:09,330 --> 00:01:12,420 if you toss this letter, rip it up, burn it, 19 00:01:12,463 --> 00:01:15,727 I won't blame you. 20 00:01:15,771 --> 00:01:18,556 I've done the same to countless versions. 21 00:01:18,600 --> 00:01:21,081 What I did was unforgiveable 22 00:01:21,124 --> 00:01:23,909 to you, to our friends. - Hi. 23 00:01:23,953 --> 00:01:27,261 To sweet Luna. 24 00:01:27,304 --> 00:01:30,264 - Hey. - [humming] 25 00:01:30,307 --> 00:01:33,180 It was never my intention. 26 00:01:33,223 --> 00:01:36,400 None of this is what I intended. 27 00:01:36,444 --> 00:01:39,882 ♪ But I never could forget 28 00:01:39,925 --> 00:01:43,103 Everything I ever said to you was true. 29 00:01:43,146 --> 00:01:47,019 Everything we had was real, 30 00:01:47,063 --> 00:01:50,110 but so is this thing that kept me in London. 31 00:01:50,153 --> 00:01:51,850 Kept me from marrying you. 32 00:01:51,894 --> 00:01:55,158 ♪ Dreams, but talk is always cheap ♪ 33 00:01:55,202 --> 00:02:01,251 ♪ So I go where I go 34 00:02:01,295 --> 00:02:04,428 I wish I knew what it was. 35 00:02:04,472 --> 00:02:06,256 I wish I could rip it out of me, 36 00:02:06,300 --> 00:02:08,258 obliterate it so I could be with you. 37 00:02:08,302 --> 00:02:11,131 ♪ Ooh, ooh 38 00:02:11,174 --> 00:02:14,786 Because you deserve all the happiness in the world. 39 00:02:14,830 --> 00:02:18,486 I wish I had an explanation to help ease your pain, 40 00:02:18,529 --> 00:02:21,663 but none has come. 41 00:02:21,706 --> 00:02:24,100 All I have is the time that's passed 42 00:02:24,144 --> 00:02:27,886 and the desperate hope that it heals us both. 43 00:02:27,930 --> 00:02:30,454 Heals your heart, heals your mind, 44 00:02:30,498 --> 00:02:33,892 heals Luna, and heals our friends. 45 00:02:33,936 --> 00:02:40,072 ♪ 46 00:02:40,116 --> 00:02:44,729 ♪ That road is gone 47 00:02:44,773 --> 00:02:50,474 [humming] 48 00:02:50,518 --> 00:02:53,651 ♪ Now, it just slips 49 00:02:53,695 --> 00:02:58,439 Max, you are beautiful and shimmering. 50 00:02:58,482 --> 00:03:02,747 And I was made better for being in your light. 51 00:03:02,791 --> 00:03:05,620 We all were. 52 00:03:05,663 --> 00:03:11,060 ♪ I've seen all I've seen 53 00:03:11,103 --> 00:03:15,151 ♪ But I sometimes wonder 54 00:03:15,195 --> 00:03:17,022 Please don't lose your light. 55 00:03:17,066 --> 00:03:18,502 ♪ Still think of 56 00:03:18,546 --> 00:03:22,027 May it shine again, even brighter than before. 57 00:03:22,071 --> 00:03:25,074 All my love, Helen. 58 00:03:25,117 --> 00:03:30,340 ♪ I never meant to fade away ♪ 59 00:03:30,384 --> 00:03:35,389 ♪ It's just the way I'm made 60 00:03:35,432 --> 00:03:39,697 ♪ I hope if you ever hear 61 00:03:39,741 --> 00:03:43,701 ♪ My name that it doesn't bring you pain ♪ 62 00:03:43,745 --> 00:03:48,837 ♪ And just know that I know 63 00:03:48,880 --> 00:03:52,232 ♪ Yeah, just know that I know ♪ 64 00:03:52,275 --> 00:03:54,756 [mouthing] Come on. 65 00:03:54,799 --> 00:03:59,761 ♪ That those days were gold ♪ 66 00:03:59,804 --> 00:04:05,375 ♪ And a heart always holds 67 00:04:05,419 --> 00:04:08,596 ♪ What the missing wrote 68 00:04:10,772 --> 00:04:13,688 [snoring] 69 00:04:22,305 --> 00:04:25,743 - Lauren! - What? What's going on? 70 00:04:27,832 --> 00:04:30,835 How many times I got to tell you to stay on the couch? 71 00:04:30,879 --> 00:04:32,663 And how many times have I got to tell you 72 00:04:32,707 --> 00:04:35,971 that your couch is a sciatica waiting to happen. 73 00:04:36,014 --> 00:04:38,321 You gotta go back to your own place. 74 00:04:38,365 --> 00:04:40,410 Look, you've been bouncing from couch-to-couch for months. 75 00:04:40,454 --> 00:04:41,542 Don't blame me. 76 00:04:41,585 --> 00:04:44,109 Blame the US immigration system. 77 00:04:44,153 --> 00:04:46,677 Every month Leyla's visa's supposed to be sorted 78 00:04:46,721 --> 00:04:48,070 and she's supposed to move out 79 00:04:48,113 --> 00:04:50,464 and every month they throw something new at her. 80 00:04:50,507 --> 00:04:53,075 You have a two bedroom. Just use the other one. 81 00:04:53,118 --> 00:04:55,338 Floyd, I know me. If I'm living there, 82 00:04:55,382 --> 00:04:56,905 I'm falling back into bed with her. 83 00:04:56,948 --> 00:04:59,560 - Better her bed than mine. - Come on. 84 00:04:59,603 --> 00:05:01,605 I'm giving you till tomorrow, 85 00:05:01,649 --> 00:05:04,042 then you can find someone else's couch to not sleep on. 86 00:05:07,437 --> 00:05:08,699 [sighs] 87 00:05:08,743 --> 00:05:12,355 [chuckles] Okay, so these flapjacks, 88 00:05:12,399 --> 00:05:15,140 right here, they are both circles, yeah? 89 00:05:15,184 --> 00:05:17,621 - No one says flapjacks. - That-- 90 00:05:17,665 --> 00:05:19,971 well, these objects that I call flapjacks 91 00:05:20,015 --> 00:05:24,454 and you call pancakes, are they similar or congruent? 92 00:05:24,498 --> 00:05:26,674 - Similar. - Okay. Hey, Harper. 93 00:05:26,717 --> 00:05:30,286 Feet--not at the table. Raffi, breakfast. 94 00:05:30,330 --> 00:05:32,941 Sorry I'm late. I got your text-- 95 00:05:32,984 --> 00:05:35,117 - It's all good. - And I come bearing 96 00:05:35,160 --> 00:05:38,729 the last bottle of the bougie real maple stuff. 97 00:05:38,773 --> 00:05:41,297 All right, guys, Dad is home and breakfast is served. 98 00:05:41,341 --> 00:05:42,820 Come on. Let's go, guys. Come on. Come on. 99 00:05:42,864 --> 00:05:44,866 Not even a hello from these locusts. 100 00:05:44,909 --> 00:05:46,824 Yeah, well, you know, when you taste delicious 101 00:05:46,868 --> 00:05:48,870 covered in maple syrup, you'll be popular too. 102 00:05:48,913 --> 00:05:51,002 [chuckles] Hey, about Tuesday-- 103 00:05:51,046 --> 00:05:53,353 Uh, yeah, yeah. It's all good. I can stay late. 104 00:05:53,396 --> 00:05:54,919 Okay, I thought Tuesday was yoga morning. 105 00:05:54,963 --> 00:05:56,834 No, no. Yoga's on Wednesdays now. 106 00:05:56,878 --> 00:05:58,836 Oh, okay. Well, thank you. 107 00:05:58,880 --> 00:06:00,664 Namaste. 108 00:06:00,708 --> 00:06:03,798 Well, then I present to thee the spat-of-tula. 109 00:06:03,841 --> 00:06:07,410 [laughs] Best separated dads ever. 110 00:06:07,454 --> 00:06:10,674 Um, what was I? Yeah, yeah. 111 00:06:10,718 --> 00:06:12,415 That's it, I guess. - Yeah. 112 00:06:12,459 --> 00:06:13,677 I'll see you in three days, okay? 113 00:06:13,721 --> 00:06:16,114 - All right. - Okay. 114 00:06:16,158 --> 00:06:18,769 Bye, guys. Bye, my loves. Have a good day. 115 00:06:18,813 --> 00:06:22,338 Who wants more pancakes? 116 00:06:22,382 --> 00:06:23,905 - I do! - Here you are, sir. 117 00:06:23,948 --> 00:06:26,168 [giggling] And more maple syrup? 118 00:06:26,211 --> 00:06:28,388 Did you forget something? 119 00:06:28,431 --> 00:06:32,479 Uh, no. The house is yours. 120 00:06:32,522 --> 00:06:33,871 All right. More fruit. 121 00:06:33,915 --> 00:06:36,439 A lot of fruit on those pancakes. 122 00:06:40,138 --> 00:06:43,011 - Oh, look at those cheeks. - Yeah, she eats like crazy. 123 00:06:43,054 --> 00:06:45,753 Especially the phone while we're FaceTiming, but-- 124 00:06:45,796 --> 00:06:48,973 - Happy girl. - Yeah, happy girl. Happy dad. 125 00:06:49,017 --> 00:06:52,281 Well, two happy dads. [phone chimes] 126 00:06:52,324 --> 00:06:56,372 And there's my dad. 127 00:06:56,416 --> 00:06:58,548 - What? - Flaking on dinner. 128 00:06:58,592 --> 00:07:00,550 - Again? - Again. 129 00:07:00,594 --> 00:07:02,378 Well, what's his excuse this time? 130 00:07:02,422 --> 00:07:04,467 Uh, I don't know. I can't ask. 131 00:07:04,511 --> 00:07:06,208 - You can't ask? - Well-- 132 00:07:06,251 --> 00:07:08,340 Have you never asked? 133 00:07:08,384 --> 00:07:11,735 Look, it's taken decades to get here, you know? 134 00:07:11,779 --> 00:07:13,737 I have a relationship with the man. 135 00:07:13,781 --> 00:07:15,391 What kind of relationship is it? 136 00:07:15,435 --> 00:07:16,523 I mean, you don't see the guy. 137 00:07:16,566 --> 00:07:17,959 You don't tell him how you feel. 138 00:07:18,002 --> 00:07:22,267 Well, at least I know I'll never lose him again. 139 00:07:22,311 --> 00:07:23,965 Well, I hate this, you know? 140 00:07:24,008 --> 00:07:27,098 You are an incredible person and you deserve better. 141 00:07:27,142 --> 00:07:28,578 Thank you, 142 00:07:28,622 --> 00:07:31,407 but you still got to move out tomorrow. 143 00:07:31,451 --> 00:07:33,322 - You suck. - [chuckles] 144 00:07:33,365 --> 00:07:36,107 Why does it rain? 145 00:07:36,151 --> 00:07:38,153 Uh, because clouds. 146 00:07:38,196 --> 00:07:39,763 Why clouds? 147 00:07:39,807 --> 00:07:42,418 [laughs] 'Cause, uh, rain droplets. 148 00:07:42,462 --> 00:07:43,941 Why rain droplets? 149 00:07:43,985 --> 00:07:46,466 Hmm, why rain droplets? That's a tough one. 150 00:07:46,509 --> 00:07:48,685 Um, because evaporation. 151 00:07:48,729 --> 00:07:50,600 We made it. Give me a hug. 152 00:07:50,644 --> 00:07:53,473 Big hug. Big hug. Rrarr! 153 00:07:53,516 --> 00:07:55,387 Have a good day, okay? 154 00:07:55,431 --> 00:07:58,042 Why isn't Mom here? 155 00:07:58,086 --> 00:08:01,002 [somber music] 156 00:08:01,045 --> 00:08:05,441 ♪ 157 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:07,182 Because, um... 158 00:08:09,663 --> 00:08:11,273 - Good morning, Luna. - Hi. 159 00:08:11,316 --> 00:08:14,537 - Hi. Ready to go inside? - Okay. Have fun, Lu. 160 00:08:14,581 --> 00:08:16,539 Love you. - Watch your step. 161 00:08:16,583 --> 00:08:20,064 - Hey, Lu. - Gonna have fun today. 162 00:08:22,066 --> 00:08:25,505 [monitor beeping] 163 00:08:30,335 --> 00:08:32,990 We know the children's foundation can't help everyone. 164 00:08:33,034 --> 00:08:36,211 We just hadn't seen Brady that excited about something 165 00:08:36,254 --> 00:08:39,997 since before the diagnosis. 166 00:08:40,041 --> 00:08:42,739 What did he say when you told him? 167 00:08:42,783 --> 00:08:45,655 You know Brady. He's putting up a brave front. 168 00:08:45,699 --> 00:08:48,136 But he's devastated. 169 00:08:48,179 --> 00:08:50,660 I mean, how else is a 12-year-old supposed to react 170 00:08:50,704 --> 00:08:53,315 to being denied his dying wish? 171 00:08:53,358 --> 00:08:56,361 [percussive music] 172 00:08:56,405 --> 00:08:59,016 ♪ 173 00:08:59,060 --> 00:09:01,236 New Amsterdam has a wonderful board 174 00:09:01,279 --> 00:09:03,151 and a truly amazing medical director. 175 00:09:03,194 --> 00:09:06,067 We have a large volunteer group and... 176 00:09:08,678 --> 00:09:13,770 A lot of celebrities owe us a few favors. 177 00:09:13,814 --> 00:09:15,598 What are you saying, Dr. Wilder? 178 00:09:15,642 --> 00:09:17,687 What I'm saying is that we 179 00:09:17,731 --> 00:09:20,385 can make Brady's wish come true. 180 00:09:20,429 --> 00:09:23,519 So what is it? 181 00:09:23,563 --> 00:09:26,217 I want to be the star of a Bollywood musical. 182 00:09:29,743 --> 00:09:32,702 Male, 30s, multiple fractured ribs. 183 00:09:32,746 --> 00:09:34,356 Patient was trampled when some march 184 00:09:34,399 --> 00:09:36,793 was disrupted by protestors. Vital signs stable. 185 00:09:36,837 --> 00:09:39,753 Okay, bay 23. 186 00:09:39,796 --> 00:09:41,711 I liked it better when they protested on Facebook. 187 00:09:41,755 --> 00:09:44,061 More coming. 188 00:09:44,105 --> 00:09:46,020 Patient was hit in the head by a glass bottle. 189 00:09:46,063 --> 00:09:47,587 She sustained-- - She is a they. 190 00:09:47,630 --> 00:09:53,505 Okay, I'm gonna need transport for a CT scan, stat. 191 00:09:53,549 --> 00:09:55,420 Brunstetter, Brunstetter, over here. 192 00:09:55,464 --> 00:09:57,248 Bay 23. Alert ortho. 193 00:09:57,292 --> 00:09:59,947 Keith James, 43-year-old man with chemical burns. 194 00:09:59,990 --> 00:10:01,862 Induced dyspnea due to pepper spray. 195 00:10:01,905 --> 00:10:03,994 I tried to shield him. Doug's asthmatic. 196 00:10:04,038 --> 00:10:05,953 It was so fast. - You did great, Keith, okay? 197 00:10:05,996 --> 00:10:07,781 We're gonna take good care of him and you. 198 00:10:07,824 --> 00:10:10,348 34-year-old female, fractured wrist, 199 00:10:10,392 --> 00:10:12,742 extensive lacerations from glass shards in the field. 200 00:10:12,786 --> 00:10:13,743 They just came out of nowhere. 201 00:10:13,787 --> 00:10:14,918 We got you. 202 00:10:14,962 --> 00:10:16,137 They just started attacking us. 203 00:10:16,180 --> 00:10:17,225 Why? 204 00:10:17,268 --> 00:10:18,661 Why were we attacked, everybody? 205 00:10:18,705 --> 00:10:20,358 - Sex worker rights now. - Yeah. 206 00:10:20,402 --> 00:10:21,795 Our bodies, our business, our choice. 207 00:10:21,838 --> 00:10:25,755 Sex work is-- all: Work! 208 00:10:29,716 --> 00:10:32,457 Sex work is work. Sex work-- 209 00:10:32,501 --> 00:10:34,198 It's not even 10 a.m. yet. 210 00:10:34,242 --> 00:10:36,026 - Max. - Hey. 211 00:10:36,070 --> 00:10:37,941 Hey. 212 00:10:37,985 --> 00:10:39,421 And then you say-- - Yeah, sorry. 213 00:10:39,464 --> 00:10:41,292 How can I help? - There he is. There it is. 214 00:10:41,336 --> 00:10:42,554 - A little rusty. - Yeah, that's cool. 215 00:10:42,598 --> 00:10:43,860 You'll get there. So, hey, listen, 216 00:10:43,904 --> 00:10:45,993 I missed the first day of drop-offs today 217 00:10:46,036 --> 00:10:48,169 because me and Martin have the new nesting schedule. 218 00:10:48,212 --> 00:10:49,823 I'm jonesing for some cute kid stories. 219 00:10:49,866 --> 00:10:51,607 You got a cute kid. 220 00:10:51,651 --> 00:10:53,261 Luna, tell me about her. Was she nervous? 221 00:10:53,304 --> 00:10:55,393 Was there extra hugs? Were there tears? 222 00:10:55,437 --> 00:10:56,960 - Just mine. - Oh. 223 00:10:57,004 --> 00:10:58,788 Well, that's okay. It happens to the best of us. 224 00:10:58,832 --> 00:11:00,703 You know, with Raffi, I was a blubbering mess. 225 00:11:00,747 --> 00:11:03,750 Well, Luna asked why Helen wasn't there. 226 00:11:03,793 --> 00:11:07,275 Oof. That is not a cute kid story. 227 00:11:07,318 --> 00:11:08,276 Not really. No. 228 00:11:08,319 --> 00:11:09,756 More of a tragic Dickensian one. 229 00:11:09,799 --> 00:11:10,974 - Yeah. - You think I could get 230 00:11:11,018 --> 00:11:12,280 some kind of bulk discount 231 00:11:12,323 --> 00:11:14,630 if I buy years of therapy in advance for Luna? 232 00:11:14,674 --> 00:11:16,414 I mean, yes, big discount, but also, 233 00:11:16,458 --> 00:11:18,329 maybe ease up on yourself a little bit. 234 00:11:18,373 --> 00:11:21,071 You're doing great work in the face of massive pain, Max. 235 00:11:21,115 --> 00:11:22,682 Thanks for the reminder. 236 00:11:22,725 --> 00:11:24,335 Look, Luna feels loved, right? 237 00:11:24,379 --> 00:11:26,337 She feels free to ask big, hard questions. 238 00:11:26,381 --> 00:11:27,861 You're doing great work here at the hospital. 239 00:11:27,904 --> 00:11:30,211 You're moving on. - I'm-I'm not. 240 00:11:32,039 --> 00:11:33,388 I'm not. 241 00:11:35,216 --> 00:11:37,914 I mean, I can't really move on until I understand why 242 00:11:37,958 --> 00:11:40,917 Helen did what she did, and she doesn't even know. 243 00:11:40,961 --> 00:11:42,702 And when I look back on the relationship, 244 00:11:42,745 --> 00:11:44,399 when I think about Helen-- 245 00:11:48,272 --> 00:11:49,883 I just see love. 246 00:11:52,973 --> 00:11:56,019 Yeah, I know. 247 00:11:56,063 --> 00:11:59,283 Okay, look, since you're about to buy therapy in bulk, 248 00:11:59,327 --> 00:12:01,242 I'm gonna drop a freebee on you. 249 00:12:01,285 --> 00:12:03,853 If your memories aren't giving you the answers 250 00:12:03,897 --> 00:12:05,376 you're looking for, 251 00:12:05,420 --> 00:12:07,422 maybe you're remembering the wrong ones. 252 00:12:18,650 --> 00:12:20,391 Is this even real? 253 00:12:22,437 --> 00:12:27,834 I've thought about nothing... but you. 254 00:12:27,877 --> 00:12:30,619 And this 255 00:12:30,662 --> 00:12:32,577 for so long. 256 00:12:34,797 --> 00:12:37,060 Thought it, but... 257 00:12:37,104 --> 00:12:40,063 I didn't know how to say it 258 00:12:40,107 --> 00:12:43,153 or maybe was afraid to. 259 00:12:43,197 --> 00:12:46,983 But now-- [chuckles] 260 00:12:47,027 --> 00:12:50,508 I feel like I have a future again 261 00:12:50,552 --> 00:12:54,774 with you. 262 00:12:54,817 --> 00:12:56,688 Just like this. 263 00:13:01,128 --> 00:13:03,043 I should never have let you in. 264 00:13:03,086 --> 00:13:06,002 [dramatic music] 265 00:13:06,046 --> 00:13:08,352 ♪ 266 00:13:08,396 --> 00:13:10,441 [echoing] 267 00:13:10,485 --> 00:13:12,443 Max. 268 00:13:12,487 --> 00:13:13,836 Max! 269 00:13:13,880 --> 00:13:15,142 I've got fantastic news. 270 00:13:15,185 --> 00:13:17,405 We've just been gifted $10 million 271 00:13:17,448 --> 00:13:20,756 to fund a new clinic. No strings attached. 272 00:13:20,800 --> 00:13:23,019 - No strings? - Maybe like a thread. 273 00:13:23,063 --> 00:13:24,586 - Oh, a thread. - A silk thread. 274 00:13:24,629 --> 00:13:27,023 Invisible to the human eye. - Which is? 275 00:13:27,067 --> 00:13:30,070 The corporation just wants their name on the clinic. 276 00:13:30,113 --> 00:13:31,506 - That's it? - Yes. 277 00:13:31,549 --> 00:13:33,247 - That's easy. - Right? 278 00:13:33,290 --> 00:13:34,422 What's the corporation? 279 00:13:34,465 --> 00:13:37,817 A company called-- [mumbles] 280 00:13:37,860 --> 00:13:39,209 What's that? 281 00:13:39,253 --> 00:13:41,733 - Wholesome Home Goods. - Wholesome Home Goods. 282 00:13:41,777 --> 00:13:44,432 As in the company whose cleaning products I don't buy 283 00:13:44,475 --> 00:13:46,564 because they lobby for abstinence-only education 284 00:13:46,608 --> 00:13:47,957 and try to defund Planned Parenthood 285 00:13:48,001 --> 00:13:51,265 and promote conversion therapy? That Wholesome? 286 00:13:51,308 --> 00:13:53,833 What's also true is they make great sponges. 287 00:13:53,876 --> 00:13:56,792 Karen, Wholesome's lobbying efforts hurt the very patients 288 00:13:56,836 --> 00:13:58,663 in this hospital, and when people come here 289 00:13:58,707 --> 00:14:01,623 with a ruptured uterus or they're suicidal because 290 00:14:01,666 --> 00:14:03,277 they're being bullied for their sexuality 291 00:14:03,320 --> 00:14:05,627 or any other of the direct consequences 292 00:14:05,670 --> 00:14:07,803 of their agenda, sponges aren't gonna help. 293 00:14:07,847 --> 00:14:10,153 They're not going to use our good reputation 294 00:14:10,197 --> 00:14:12,939 to launder their bad name. 295 00:14:12,982 --> 00:14:14,462 You can swallow this poison pill 296 00:14:14,505 --> 00:14:16,203 and help thousands of people 297 00:14:16,246 --> 00:14:19,249 or stay on your high horse and help no one. 298 00:14:19,293 --> 00:14:20,947 One question for you. 299 00:14:20,990 --> 00:14:23,340 What would Veronica have done? 300 00:14:23,384 --> 00:14:25,168 She would've taken the money. 301 00:14:27,867 --> 00:14:29,346 She would have. 302 00:14:32,306 --> 00:14:33,481 All right, so take a seat. 303 00:14:33,524 --> 00:14:37,441 I'm, uh, Dr. Frome, as you already know. 304 00:14:37,485 --> 00:14:39,356 Alex, what do you say? 305 00:14:40,967 --> 00:14:44,274 You're meeting someone new. Alex, what do you say? 306 00:14:44,318 --> 00:14:46,320 It's, uh, nice to meet you, Dr. Frome. 307 00:14:46,363 --> 00:14:48,800 I'm Alex and how's your day going so far? 308 00:14:48,844 --> 00:14:52,717 Good. Thank you. Yeah. Real good. How about you? 309 00:14:52,761 --> 00:14:57,679 Uh, not very good because my doctor, Dr. Lloyd, died. 310 00:14:57,722 --> 00:15:02,727 He died on September 1, 2022. 311 00:15:02,771 --> 00:15:04,860 Yeah, yeah, I heard about that. 312 00:15:04,904 --> 00:15:06,427 I-I'm sorry. 313 00:15:06,470 --> 00:15:08,385 You were a patient of his for a long time. 314 00:15:08,429 --> 00:15:09,865 Yeah, yeah. 315 00:15:09,909 --> 00:15:13,042 Ever since he was diagnosed with autism at seven. 316 00:15:13,086 --> 00:15:14,783 I'm sorry. 317 00:15:14,826 --> 00:15:17,177 Dr. Lloyd was a special therapist. 318 00:15:17,220 --> 00:15:19,005 You bet ya, 319 00:15:19,048 --> 00:15:21,703 so we need somebody special to replace him. 320 00:15:21,746 --> 00:15:25,228 Alex has been regressing a little bit 321 00:15:25,272 --> 00:15:27,970 since, uh, Dr. Lloyd died. 322 00:15:28,014 --> 00:15:30,712 He's been having trouble self-regulating 323 00:15:30,755 --> 00:15:34,542 and he's gotten a little bit, uh, 324 00:15:34,585 --> 00:15:37,110 physically aggressive with me. 325 00:15:37,153 --> 00:15:39,808 - Okay. - So... 326 00:15:39,851 --> 00:15:44,639 And that hasn't happened in 20 years, so we need your help. 327 00:15:44,682 --> 00:15:45,945 Okay. 328 00:15:45,988 --> 00:15:48,121 But you will not be doing this alone. 329 00:15:48,164 --> 00:15:50,253 - Yeah. - He's been working 330 00:15:50,297 --> 00:15:52,734 with this team for the last 20 years. 331 00:15:52,777 --> 00:15:54,910 Occupational therapist, speech therapist, 332 00:15:54,954 --> 00:15:56,564 the whole nine yards. 333 00:15:56,607 --> 00:16:01,134 And these people are totally, totally committed to his care. 334 00:16:01,177 --> 00:16:03,266 I mean-- [laughs] 335 00:16:03,310 --> 00:16:04,572 Half the names on this list 336 00:16:04,615 --> 00:16:06,313 wrote the books on that shelf right there. 337 00:16:06,356 --> 00:16:09,055 - No kidding. - This is the dream team. 338 00:16:09,098 --> 00:16:10,621 Yup. 339 00:16:10,665 --> 00:16:13,189 So will you take us on? 340 00:16:13,233 --> 00:16:14,843 Hmm. 341 00:16:18,281 --> 00:16:20,631 Um... - [whispers] Al. 342 00:16:20,675 --> 00:16:24,505 Oh, that's okay. That's okay. Uh, yeah, I will. 343 00:16:24,548 --> 00:16:26,246 - Oh! - I will. Yeah. 344 00:16:26,289 --> 00:16:27,638 [laughter] - Good. 345 00:16:27,682 --> 00:16:31,033 - On, uh, on one condition. - What's that? 346 00:16:31,077 --> 00:16:34,819 I, uh, I want you to replace every name on this list. 347 00:16:37,997 --> 00:16:40,782 [background chatter] 348 00:16:40,825 --> 00:16:44,133 Hey, can I sleep with you tonight? 349 00:16:44,177 --> 00:16:46,309 On your couch. 350 00:16:46,353 --> 00:16:48,790 Only slightly less disturbing. 351 00:16:48,833 --> 00:16:51,314 I mean, I would prefer the bed because of my sciatica, 352 00:16:51,358 --> 00:16:53,273 but I'll take the couch 'cause I snore. 353 00:16:53,316 --> 00:16:55,927 I'm--I just-- - You have no right! 354 00:16:55,971 --> 00:16:57,712 No right! - Keep your voice down. 355 00:16:57,755 --> 00:17:00,671 Keep my voice down. Are you serious? 356 00:17:00,715 --> 00:17:02,630 Hey, hey, what's going on? 357 00:17:02,673 --> 00:17:04,458 What's going on is this doctor 358 00:17:04,501 --> 00:17:06,634 ran an HIV test without my consent. 359 00:17:06,677 --> 00:17:08,462 There must be some kind of misunderstanding. 360 00:17:08,505 --> 00:17:10,029 There's a bunch of consent forms-- 361 00:17:10,072 --> 00:17:13,336 Exactly and I never signed anything and he never asked. 362 00:17:15,730 --> 00:17:17,166 Dr. Huxley, is this true? 363 00:17:17,210 --> 00:17:19,473 [tense music] 364 00:17:19,516 --> 00:17:21,605 - I thought she'd want to know. - [scoffs] 365 00:17:21,649 --> 00:17:22,867 I thought I was helping. 366 00:17:22,911 --> 00:17:25,566 This is exactly why we were marching today 367 00:17:25,609 --> 00:17:27,829 because you people who should know better 368 00:17:27,872 --> 00:17:29,657 keep putting your own morals, 369 00:17:29,700 --> 00:17:32,094 your own judgments onto my body. 370 00:17:43,018 --> 00:17:45,238 Well, is Brady going to India? 371 00:17:45,281 --> 00:17:47,501 No, he's not. I can't clear him for travel. 372 00:17:47,544 --> 00:17:49,024 Why not? 373 00:17:49,068 --> 00:17:51,113 Are you saying you would send a child with lymphoma 374 00:17:51,157 --> 00:17:53,376 jet-setting across the world to a country teeming 375 00:17:53,420 --> 00:17:55,117 with unfamiliar pathogens? 376 00:17:55,161 --> 00:17:57,728 Yes, I would've cleared him. 377 00:17:57,772 --> 00:17:59,861 Okay, what if I said yes? 378 00:17:59,904 --> 00:18:02,342 How would you even get him on a Bollywood movie set? 379 00:18:02,385 --> 00:18:04,605 Do you know any Bollywood directors? 380 00:18:04,648 --> 00:18:06,868 I would've found a way. 381 00:18:06,911 --> 00:18:10,132 I'm sure you would've, but the answer's still no. 382 00:18:11,394 --> 00:18:13,570 Well, then you have to tell him. 383 00:18:18,227 --> 00:18:21,100 Hey, listen, there's all sorts of cool stuff 384 00:18:21,143 --> 00:18:25,060 you can do around the city. How about Yankees tickets? 385 00:18:25,104 --> 00:18:27,802 Yeah, I guess that could be good. 386 00:18:29,760 --> 00:18:32,372 Can I ask you something? 387 00:18:32,415 --> 00:18:34,722 Why Bollywood? 388 00:18:34,765 --> 00:18:36,376 It's what I watched during chemo, 389 00:18:36,419 --> 00:18:38,073 and there was a lotta chemo. 390 00:18:38,117 --> 00:18:39,205 Mm-hmm. 391 00:18:39,248 --> 00:18:41,468 Always a fan? - No. 392 00:18:41,511 --> 00:18:45,124 But Mr. Bhaskar, he was in chemo too. 393 00:18:45,167 --> 00:18:46,864 Same schedule. 394 00:18:46,908 --> 00:18:50,259 He used to watch these movies on his iPad... 395 00:18:50,303 --> 00:18:53,958 and this one day he saw me watching over his shoulder. 396 00:18:54,002 --> 00:18:57,484 And I thought he'd get really mad because he's super grumpy, 397 00:18:57,527 --> 00:19:00,661 but instead, he turned the subtitles on 398 00:19:00,704 --> 00:19:03,185 and we watched together. 399 00:19:03,229 --> 00:19:06,797 And after that, we always watched Bollywood together. 400 00:19:06,841 --> 00:19:08,756 Oh, I don't think I've ever seen a Bollywood movie. 401 00:19:08,799 --> 00:19:10,801 Well, you have to. 402 00:19:10,845 --> 00:19:13,413 It has fighting and dancing. 403 00:19:13,456 --> 00:19:15,066 And the hero always wins, 404 00:19:15,110 --> 00:19:17,417 and the right thing always happens in the end. 405 00:19:17,460 --> 00:19:19,941 And whenever I watch them, 406 00:19:19,984 --> 00:19:23,162 at least for a few hours, I forget I'm sick. 407 00:19:25,773 --> 00:19:28,689 My parents don't have that. 408 00:19:28,732 --> 00:19:30,865 Nothing makes them forget, 409 00:19:30,908 --> 00:19:34,912 so being in my own Bollywood musical 410 00:19:34,956 --> 00:19:37,915 would be big enough to make us all forget 411 00:19:37,959 --> 00:19:40,091 for a little while at least. 412 00:19:40,135 --> 00:19:43,094 [soft music] 413 00:19:43,138 --> 00:19:45,619 ♪ 414 00:19:45,662 --> 00:19:46,924 I don't care what it takes, 415 00:19:46,968 --> 00:19:48,665 we're getting that kid to India. 416 00:20:00,895 --> 00:20:02,897 Max, I don't know how to tell you this. 417 00:20:02,940 --> 00:20:05,900 [soft music] 418 00:20:05,943 --> 00:20:08,294 ♪ 419 00:20:08,337 --> 00:20:10,818 I don't want to get married in a castle. 420 00:20:10,861 --> 00:20:17,999 ♪ 421 00:20:19,130 --> 00:20:21,829 I don't know if I want any of it. 422 00:20:21,872 --> 00:20:23,613 [elevator bell dings] 423 00:20:23,657 --> 00:20:25,267 There you are. 424 00:20:25,311 --> 00:20:28,183 Uh, the answer is still no, no, and no. 425 00:20:28,227 --> 00:20:30,316 Unless the board took a vote, and now the answer is yes, 426 00:20:30,359 --> 00:20:31,534 which is what happened. - What? 427 00:20:31,578 --> 00:20:33,144 I'm protecting you from yourself, Max. 428 00:20:33,188 --> 00:20:36,191 I'm protecting this hospital from your hasty decisions. 429 00:20:36,235 --> 00:20:37,975 The kind of decisions that 430 00:20:38,019 --> 00:20:39,716 made me hire Veronica Fuentes in the first place. 431 00:20:39,760 --> 00:20:41,022 You mean moral decisions? 432 00:20:41,065 --> 00:20:42,545 Max, I love your morals. 433 00:20:42,589 --> 00:20:44,460 I'm on a first-name basis with them at this point. 434 00:20:44,504 --> 00:20:47,637 And I'm not gonna defend the Wholesome brand, 435 00:20:47,681 --> 00:20:49,117 but I am gonna defend 436 00:20:49,160 --> 00:20:51,772 this hospital's ability to provide healthcare. 437 00:20:51,815 --> 00:20:53,077 Right, but let me just ask you this. 438 00:20:53,121 --> 00:20:54,992 How would you feel if you walked into a clinic 439 00:20:55,036 --> 00:20:56,385 with the name Wholesome on it 440 00:20:56,429 --> 00:20:58,257 if you were gay or you needed an abortion? 441 00:20:58,300 --> 00:21:00,084 How much faith would you have 442 00:21:00,128 --> 00:21:02,261 in our ability to act in your best interest? 443 00:21:02,304 --> 00:21:03,914 That's why I'm chair of the board 444 00:21:03,958 --> 00:21:05,264 and you're the medical director. 445 00:21:05,307 --> 00:21:07,788 Figure it out, because we're taking the money. 446 00:21:10,704 --> 00:21:11,748 [sighs] 447 00:21:11,792 --> 00:21:13,359 - Dr. Frome. - Mm-hmm. 448 00:21:13,402 --> 00:21:15,143 All due respect, 449 00:21:15,186 --> 00:21:17,188 everyone on this list 450 00:21:17,232 --> 00:21:20,322 has helped make my son who he is today. 451 00:21:20,366 --> 00:21:22,411 Well, yeah. Yeah, everyone on this list 452 00:21:22,455 --> 00:21:24,413 helped guide Alex when he was a child, 453 00:21:24,457 --> 00:21:25,588 but he's an adult now. 454 00:21:25,632 --> 00:21:27,373 He needs someone to guide him as an adult. 455 00:21:27,416 --> 00:21:29,940 Do you know how many schools he's been kicked out of? 456 00:21:29,984 --> 00:21:32,769 How many misdiagnosed, mis-guided treatments, 457 00:21:32,813 --> 00:21:35,685 how many mind-altering medications 458 00:21:35,729 --> 00:21:37,121 he's had to suffer through? 459 00:21:37,165 --> 00:21:38,166 I can imagine the difficulty. 460 00:21:38,209 --> 00:21:39,907 But that's all you can do. 461 00:21:39,950 --> 00:21:42,170 All right. 462 00:21:42,213 --> 00:21:44,999 Dr. Phife, legend, but I guarantee you, 463 00:21:45,042 --> 00:21:46,653 he's using the exact same interventions 464 00:21:46,696 --> 00:21:48,002 he used 40 years ago. 465 00:21:48,045 --> 00:21:50,134 And Dr. Scarborough, I mean, very impressive, 466 00:21:50,178 --> 00:21:51,397 but he doesn't even have a practice anymore. 467 00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:54,182 Okay, wait. Scarborough loves Alex. 468 00:21:54,225 --> 00:21:55,836 He has committed to his treatment 469 00:21:55,879 --> 00:21:57,403 long after he retires from Columbia. 470 00:21:57,446 --> 00:21:59,143 You want stability for Alex, you do. 471 00:21:59,187 --> 00:22:00,362 I understand that. Of course you do. 472 00:22:00,406 --> 00:22:01,798 But what happens when-- - Shut up. 473 00:22:01,842 --> 00:22:03,452 The next therapist on this list retires or dies? 474 00:22:03,496 --> 00:22:05,454 - Shut up. Shut up. - Okay, Alex-- 475 00:22:05,498 --> 00:22:07,108 Shut up. Shut up! 476 00:22:07,151 --> 00:22:09,415 Shut up! - Don't! 477 00:22:09,458 --> 00:22:12,156 [heavy music] 478 00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:13,941 [breathing heavily] 479 00:22:13,984 --> 00:22:17,727 Shut up. Shut up. 480 00:22:17,771 --> 00:22:19,642 Shut up. 481 00:22:19,686 --> 00:22:21,818 [breathing heavily] 482 00:22:21,862 --> 00:22:23,516 Shut up... 483 00:22:23,559 --> 00:22:27,215 Dr. Ching, call Recovery. Dr. Ching, call Recovery. 484 00:22:29,304 --> 00:22:32,133 I'm sorry. The tests were run before I could cancel them. 485 00:22:32,176 --> 00:22:34,527 But here are the results. 486 00:22:35,702 --> 00:22:37,225 I can't take these. 487 00:22:37,268 --> 00:22:39,183 Rhoda, Rhoda, please. 488 00:22:39,227 --> 00:22:41,360 Please don't let our failure here today 489 00:22:41,403 --> 00:22:43,666 negatively impact your health. 490 00:22:43,710 --> 00:22:46,277 I marched today in public for the first time in my life. 491 00:22:46,321 --> 00:22:48,279 Do you know how hard that was? 492 00:22:48,323 --> 00:22:50,804 To walk down 5th Avenue announcing to the world 493 00:22:50,847 --> 00:22:53,502 that this is who I am, this is what I do for a living. 494 00:22:53,546 --> 00:22:56,897 Knowing how the world feels about what I do. 495 00:22:56,940 --> 00:22:58,942 If I take these results for a test 496 00:22:58,986 --> 00:23:00,553 that you performed without my consent, 497 00:23:00,596 --> 00:23:04,165 I might as well not have marched at all. 498 00:23:04,208 --> 00:23:06,385 You're absolutely right. 499 00:23:10,432 --> 00:23:13,522 Just so I'm clear, you want to put a seriously ill, 500 00:23:13,566 --> 00:23:17,439 immunocompromised child on a 14-hour flight to India 501 00:23:17,483 --> 00:23:21,269 to appear in a Bollywood musical. 502 00:23:21,312 --> 00:23:23,489 Well, actually it's a 17-hour flight. 503 00:23:23,532 --> 00:23:24,533 Even better. 504 00:23:24,577 --> 00:23:25,795 Well, this particular musical-- 505 00:23:25,839 --> 00:23:27,754 - "Khilata Hua Guaab." - Oh. 506 00:23:27,797 --> 00:23:29,756 And it shoots in Mumbai. 507 00:23:29,799 --> 00:23:32,062 Which is naturally where all the good ones shoot. 508 00:23:32,106 --> 00:23:36,719 - Naturally. - So... you're in? 509 00:23:36,763 --> 00:23:38,765 Oh, I was in as soon as you said you had a crazy idea 510 00:23:38,808 --> 00:23:40,462 that no one else would approve. 511 00:23:40,506 --> 00:23:42,333 Hey, so Brady's going to India. 512 00:23:42,377 --> 00:23:46,033 Unfortunately, I am not the one you need to convince. 513 00:23:46,076 --> 00:23:48,470 There's no way I'm approving any part 514 00:23:48,514 --> 00:23:50,690 of this dangerous and insane request. 515 00:23:50,733 --> 00:23:51,734 - If you'll just-- - No. 516 00:23:51,778 --> 00:23:53,606 - Maybe you should-- - No. 517 00:23:53,649 --> 00:23:55,259 Then you're gonna have to be the one 518 00:23:55,303 --> 00:23:57,653 to tell a child he can't have his dying wish. 519 00:23:57,697 --> 00:24:00,526 I am the CEO of a billion dollar company. 520 00:24:00,569 --> 00:24:02,615 I'm used to being bearer of bad news. 521 00:24:02,658 --> 00:24:04,181 What room is he in? 522 00:24:04,225 --> 00:24:09,143 Imagine every plot of every movie you've ever watched 523 00:24:09,186 --> 00:24:12,059 crammed into one single movie, 524 00:24:12,102 --> 00:24:14,670 and that's a Bollywood musical. 525 00:24:14,714 --> 00:24:16,455 The hero finds the girl, 526 00:24:16,498 --> 00:24:18,587 he rebels against his parents, 527 00:24:18,631 --> 00:24:21,721 he makes a shady business deal that he thinks is legitimate 528 00:24:21,764 --> 00:24:25,768 but results in a police chase through the city. 529 00:24:25,812 --> 00:24:27,770 There's a wedding, 530 00:24:27,814 --> 00:24:30,556 a promise of children, 531 00:24:30,599 --> 00:24:35,256 and everyone is reunited. 532 00:24:35,299 --> 00:24:37,911 If I was in my own Bollywood musical 533 00:24:37,954 --> 00:24:41,218 for just one day, 534 00:24:41,262 --> 00:24:43,525 I could live an entire life. 535 00:24:46,528 --> 00:24:48,356 When does this musical start shooting? 536 00:24:48,399 --> 00:24:50,489 - In two days. - Well, we got to move fast. 537 00:24:50,532 --> 00:24:52,142 Mumbai's almost ten hours ahead of New York, 538 00:24:52,186 --> 00:24:53,622 so I need to tell my private jet service 539 00:24:53,666 --> 00:24:55,668 to find me a pilot immediately. - Thank you, Karen. 540 00:24:55,711 --> 00:24:57,496 There's no time for self-congratulations. 541 00:24:57,539 --> 00:24:59,628 We have to get Brady to India. 542 00:24:59,672 --> 00:25:00,847 [rapid beeping] 543 00:25:00,890 --> 00:25:02,501 Crash cart. 544 00:25:02,544 --> 00:25:04,415 I got it. 545 00:25:06,200 --> 00:25:07,984 [indistinct chatter] 546 00:25:08,028 --> 00:25:10,204 - BP's dropping. - He's crashing. 547 00:25:10,247 --> 00:25:12,075 We got to get him to OR one, now. 548 00:25:16,950 --> 00:25:18,560 I just stopped talking. 549 00:25:18,604 --> 00:25:19,996 You want answers? 550 00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:24,174 Just--just-- 551 00:25:24,218 --> 00:25:26,568 listen. Max, I need you 552 00:25:26,612 --> 00:25:29,353 to stay out of my family. 553 00:25:29,397 --> 00:25:32,008 I guess I thought that we were a family. 554 00:25:32,052 --> 00:25:34,184 'Cause I don't know what I want. 555 00:25:34,228 --> 00:25:36,796 I'm so-- [cries] 556 00:25:36,839 --> 00:25:40,016 sorry. [cries] Sorry... 557 00:25:40,060 --> 00:25:42,323 - Max, watch out. - Sorry, sorry. 558 00:25:42,366 --> 00:25:43,585 It's okay. 559 00:25:43,629 --> 00:25:45,631 I'm a little stuck in my head today. 560 00:25:45,674 --> 00:25:47,589 Well, that's funny, 'cause I wished my staff 561 00:25:47,633 --> 00:25:50,113 used their heads more today. 562 00:25:50,157 --> 00:25:52,507 I had a patient population of sex workers, 563 00:25:52,551 --> 00:25:54,335 and it completely threw the entire ED. 564 00:25:54,378 --> 00:25:56,293 - Mm. - Rookie mistakes, 565 00:25:56,337 --> 00:25:58,687 offensive jokes, microaggressions, 566 00:25:58,731 --> 00:26:00,820 aggressive aggressions. 567 00:26:00,863 --> 00:26:02,648 You know, I would be shocked if any of them ever came back 568 00:26:02,691 --> 00:26:04,824 here ever again and this is New Amsterdam, you know? 569 00:26:04,867 --> 00:26:07,348 Can you imagine how they get treated anywhere else? 570 00:26:07,391 --> 00:26:09,655 I might be able to help. 571 00:26:10,917 --> 00:26:13,659 How? 572 00:26:13,702 --> 00:26:17,097 Where do you buy your sponges? 573 00:26:18,011 --> 00:26:20,927 As soon as he finishes that game, we'll be gone. 574 00:26:20,970 --> 00:26:23,103 I think you'd be making a big mistake. 575 00:26:23,146 --> 00:26:25,584 Hmm. 576 00:26:25,627 --> 00:26:28,064 That outburst you just saw, 577 00:26:28,108 --> 00:26:31,459 that's how he responds to all change. 578 00:26:31,502 --> 00:26:34,244 I'm talking about the smallest thing. 579 00:26:34,288 --> 00:26:37,900 [stutters] I mean, a bruise on a banana. 580 00:26:37,944 --> 00:26:39,641 Mm-hmm. 581 00:26:39,685 --> 00:26:41,643 And you are asking him 582 00:26:41,687 --> 00:26:45,299 to change everything all at once. 583 00:26:45,342 --> 00:26:48,345 No. 584 00:26:48,389 --> 00:26:52,959 When the next person retires or passes away, 585 00:26:53,002 --> 00:26:54,917 that's when I'll replace them. 586 00:26:54,961 --> 00:26:57,746 Well, what if that person is you? 587 00:27:02,403 --> 00:27:06,276 There are people in place. 588 00:27:06,320 --> 00:27:09,497 People from the list? 589 00:27:09,540 --> 00:27:10,672 Yeah. 590 00:27:15,024 --> 00:27:17,157 The regressions that you're talking about, 591 00:27:17,200 --> 00:27:19,507 the setbacks, 592 00:27:19,550 --> 00:27:21,814 let Alex have them-- let him have them 593 00:27:21,857 --> 00:27:24,643 while you're still here to help him through. 594 00:27:27,036 --> 00:27:29,691 He didn't talk until he was eight. 595 00:27:29,735 --> 00:27:32,694 Until then he would bite himself, 596 00:27:32,738 --> 00:27:35,001 he would hit himself, he would scream, 597 00:27:35,044 --> 00:27:38,569 he would thrash around on the floor. 598 00:27:38,613 --> 00:27:41,790 Now, he goes to a job. He's got friends. 599 00:27:41,834 --> 00:27:45,011 He's got a weekly poker game, 600 00:27:45,054 --> 00:27:48,536 and-and we talk. 601 00:27:48,579 --> 00:27:51,626 All the time, we talk. 602 00:27:51,670 --> 00:27:54,281 I finally have my son, 603 00:27:54,324 --> 00:27:57,327 and you want me to give all of that up. 604 00:27:58,459 --> 00:28:01,157 Yeah, I do. 605 00:28:01,201 --> 00:28:08,121 ♪ 606 00:28:09,688 --> 00:28:12,865 All I want... 607 00:28:12,908 --> 00:28:16,738 with the time I have left 608 00:28:16,782 --> 00:28:21,308 I just spend that time loving him 609 00:28:21,351 --> 00:28:23,745 and him loving me. 610 00:28:23,789 --> 00:28:28,619 I know, I know... 611 00:28:28,663 --> 00:28:31,057 but, Grace, I-I'm only asking you to do 612 00:28:31,100 --> 00:28:32,754 what I ask of all my parents. 613 00:28:32,798 --> 00:28:36,279 I am asking you to sacrifice your comfort, 614 00:28:36,323 --> 00:28:39,805 your happiness to ensure that Alex thrives without you. 615 00:28:39,848 --> 00:28:41,894 And that sucks. 616 00:28:41,937 --> 00:28:45,245 It is the cruelest part of being a parent, 617 00:28:45,288 --> 00:28:49,815 but you need to struggle now with Alex, 618 00:28:49,858 --> 00:28:54,167 so Alex doesn't struggle when you're gone. 619 00:28:54,210 --> 00:28:57,213 Ooh. 620 00:28:57,257 --> 00:28:58,301 [sniffles] 621 00:28:58,345 --> 00:29:05,308 ♪ 622 00:29:07,658 --> 00:29:10,792 [background chatter] 623 00:29:12,315 --> 00:29:13,273 Clamp. 624 00:29:13,316 --> 00:29:15,231 Needle driver with 3-0 VICRYL. 625 00:29:15,275 --> 00:29:17,233 - Richardson. - We got a bleeder in there. 626 00:29:19,235 --> 00:29:20,236 Got it. 627 00:29:20,280 --> 00:29:22,673 Looks like that's the last one. 628 00:29:25,851 --> 00:29:28,854 Field is drying up nicely. - Wait, wait, wait. 629 00:29:31,944 --> 00:29:33,772 That's a sizeable tumor. 630 00:29:36,818 --> 00:29:38,951 It's encasing the aorta. 631 00:29:38,994 --> 00:29:41,605 - Can you resect it? - Can you? 632 00:29:41,649 --> 00:29:48,787 ♪ 633 00:29:53,226 --> 00:29:57,273 The cancer has spread throughout Brady's body. 634 00:29:57,317 --> 00:29:59,188 There's nothing more we can do. 635 00:29:59,232 --> 00:30:02,191 We are so sorry. 636 00:30:02,235 --> 00:30:09,155 ♪ 637 00:30:09,198 --> 00:30:11,331 There's no chance he can travel now. 638 00:30:11,374 --> 00:30:17,076 ♪ 639 00:30:17,119 --> 00:30:19,905 I don't think anyone's wishes are coming true today. 640 00:30:19,948 --> 00:30:25,954 ♪ 641 00:30:36,269 --> 00:30:38,184 Hey, Alex. 642 00:30:38,227 --> 00:30:40,273 [game sounds] 643 00:30:40,316 --> 00:30:42,231 Do you think maybe we could pause the game for a sec? 644 00:30:42,275 --> 00:30:43,711 Where's my mom? 645 00:30:43,754 --> 00:30:45,191 She's right out there. She's sitting right outside, 646 00:30:45,234 --> 00:30:47,062 but she wanted us to have a chat. 647 00:30:47,106 --> 00:30:48,672 I don't want you to be my therapist. 648 00:30:48,716 --> 00:30:50,849 I want Dr. Lloyd to be my therapist. 649 00:30:50,892 --> 00:30:53,286 Yeah. Yeah, I get that. 650 00:30:53,329 --> 00:30:55,027 I get it, and I bet you're having some 651 00:30:55,070 --> 00:30:58,291 pretty intense feelings around Dr. Lloyd right now. 652 00:30:58,334 --> 00:30:59,945 So why don't we pause the game 653 00:30:59,988 --> 00:31:01,381 and we can just chat about them? 654 00:31:01,424 --> 00:31:03,731 Dr. Lloyd lets me play games when we talk. 655 00:31:03,774 --> 00:31:05,776 Yeah, we'll do that sometimes too. 656 00:31:05,820 --> 00:31:08,214 I love games, but right now, 657 00:31:08,257 --> 00:31:10,477 maybe I can really use your focus. 658 00:31:10,520 --> 00:31:11,565 Mom. 659 00:31:11,608 --> 00:31:13,262 - Alex, just stick with me. - Mom! 660 00:31:13,306 --> 00:31:16,135 Okay, so you're having a big feeling--big feeling right now. 661 00:31:16,178 --> 00:31:18,964 Right? So why don't we try to identify it? 662 00:31:19,007 --> 00:31:22,097 Is it anger? - Um... 663 00:31:22,141 --> 00:31:25,971 no. - Is it sad? 664 00:31:26,014 --> 00:31:29,235 - No. - Is it scared? 665 00:31:29,278 --> 00:31:32,325 - Yes. I-I'm scared. - Scared. Okay. 666 00:31:32,368 --> 00:31:33,456 Why don't you try to give it a number? 667 00:31:33,500 --> 00:31:35,328 All right? One is totally not scared. 668 00:31:35,371 --> 00:31:40,115 Five is, like, really scared. 669 00:31:40,159 --> 00:31:42,422 - Number four. - Four. Okay. 670 00:31:42,465 --> 00:31:44,119 That's--yeah, that's pretty scared, 671 00:31:44,163 --> 00:31:46,339 but at least it's not a number five. 672 00:31:46,382 --> 00:31:48,036 Yeah, you know this technique, right? 673 00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:50,125 From Dr. Lloyd. 674 00:31:50,169 --> 00:31:51,431 That's where I learned it too. 675 00:31:51,474 --> 00:31:53,085 You know, you and I can use this technique. 676 00:31:53,128 --> 00:31:57,132 Yeah, Dr. Lloyd's techniques help me identify my feelings. 677 00:31:57,176 --> 00:31:59,439 Yeah. Yeah, I know. 678 00:31:59,482 --> 00:32:01,006 Between you and me, 679 00:32:01,049 --> 00:32:04,444 Dr. Lloyd does not deserve all the credit there. 680 00:32:04,487 --> 00:32:06,489 Or Dr. Hedlund or Dr. Alger. 681 00:32:06,533 --> 00:32:08,578 Honestly, any of the doctors you worked with. 682 00:32:08,622 --> 00:32:11,581 You know who deserves the real credit? 683 00:32:11,625 --> 00:32:13,496 You. 684 00:32:13,540 --> 00:32:15,498 You made all the progress, 685 00:32:15,542 --> 00:32:18,588 and so any doctor you work with whether they're new, old, 686 00:32:18,632 --> 00:32:20,982 they all have one thing in common. 687 00:32:21,026 --> 00:32:24,464 You. 688 00:32:24,507 --> 00:32:27,641 All right? Now, I'm just-- I'm here to help. 689 00:32:27,684 --> 00:32:30,731 If you want it, you got it, but the choice is yours. 690 00:32:30,774 --> 00:32:32,167 Always. 691 00:32:36,389 --> 00:32:39,261 Okay. Okay. Cool. 692 00:32:39,305 --> 00:32:46,834 ♪ 693 00:32:46,877 --> 00:32:49,445 Family values are at the core of everything we do, 694 00:32:49,489 --> 00:32:50,838 and we're proud New Amsterdam 695 00:32:50,881 --> 00:32:52,318 is part of the Wholesome family. 696 00:32:52,361 --> 00:32:54,842 We couldn't be happier, Patrick. 697 00:32:54,885 --> 00:32:57,671 You've got quite the reputation, Dr. Goodwin. 698 00:32:57,714 --> 00:33:00,543 People say you're something of a social justice warrior 699 00:33:00,587 --> 00:33:02,415 and that you'd never accept our gracious offer. 700 00:33:02,458 --> 00:33:04,852 Well, I try not to let my personal opinions 701 00:33:04,895 --> 00:33:07,768 stand in the way of my patient's access to healthcare. 702 00:33:07,811 --> 00:33:08,987 I appreciate that, 703 00:33:09,030 --> 00:33:11,467 but we're not so different, Dr. Goodwin. 704 00:33:11,511 --> 00:33:13,817 You've got your patients, I've got my customers. 705 00:33:13,861 --> 00:33:16,820 We both have strong brands, but if we're to expand, 706 00:33:16,864 --> 00:33:18,866 we have to dip our toes into each other's water. 707 00:33:18,909 --> 00:33:20,215 I couldn't agree more. 708 00:33:20,259 --> 00:33:22,217 And with a little paint and some staff training, 709 00:33:22,261 --> 00:33:23,566 we'll get this up and running in no time. 710 00:33:23,610 --> 00:33:25,873 But I did make sure that the sign was ready 711 00:33:25,916 --> 00:33:29,833 for your arrival, so... 712 00:33:29,877 --> 00:33:31,618 what do you think? 713 00:33:33,707 --> 00:33:34,751 [chuckles] 714 00:33:37,276 --> 00:33:39,278 Is this some kind of joke? - No. Why? 715 00:33:39,321 --> 00:33:40,583 Would you like your name bigger? 716 00:33:40,627 --> 00:33:44,283 I would like our name taken off right now. 717 00:33:44,326 --> 00:33:47,068 - Hmm. Can we do that? - No, we can't, Max. 718 00:33:47,112 --> 00:33:49,549 I told you Wholesome's name is the one nonnegotiable. 719 00:33:49,592 --> 00:33:53,292 Hmm. Yeah, sorry. I did try. Believe me. 720 00:33:53,335 --> 00:33:56,425 So you're trying to shame us 721 00:33:56,469 --> 00:33:58,210 because you dislike our values. 722 00:33:58,253 --> 00:33:59,385 Actually, the opposite. 723 00:33:59,428 --> 00:34:01,909 We're trying to alleviate shame. 724 00:34:01,952 --> 00:34:04,085 See, you picked this hospital because you wanted 725 00:34:04,129 --> 00:34:06,740 to legitimize your brand in the eyes of those who aren't buying 726 00:34:06,783 --> 00:34:09,090 what you're selling literally and figuratively. 727 00:34:09,134 --> 00:34:12,267 But sex workers are also looking for legitimacy, 728 00:34:12,311 --> 00:34:14,922 not just in what they do, but in how they're treated for it. 729 00:34:14,965 --> 00:34:17,751 And our job is to remove the barriers between 730 00:34:17,794 --> 00:34:21,189 them and good healthcare, so while we are legitimizing 731 00:34:21,233 --> 00:34:24,105 your brand, you are legitimizing their profession. 732 00:34:24,149 --> 00:34:26,760 It's a win-win and, um... 733 00:34:26,803 --> 00:34:29,850 probably the most wholesome thing you've ever done. 734 00:34:29,893 --> 00:34:35,812 ♪ 735 00:34:57,269 --> 00:34:59,445 [door clicks open] 736 00:34:59,488 --> 00:35:01,838 The Wholesome Sex Workers Clinic. 737 00:35:01,882 --> 00:35:04,972 - You heard about that, huh? - Did I hear about it? 738 00:35:05,015 --> 00:35:07,061 The WSWC? 739 00:35:07,105 --> 00:35:08,802 It's all anybody's talking about, man. 740 00:35:08,845 --> 00:35:11,457 It's quintessential Max-ism, right? 741 00:35:11,500 --> 00:35:13,981 Systemic change to help vulnerable patients 742 00:35:14,024 --> 00:35:16,549 with a nice, fat dallop of poetic justice right on top. 743 00:35:16,592 --> 00:35:18,159 Yeah, doubters can go home. 744 00:35:18,203 --> 00:35:21,293 There is nothing that Max Goodwin can't fix. 745 00:35:21,336 --> 00:35:23,817 Except for one thing. 746 00:35:23,860 --> 00:35:25,514 Right. 747 00:35:25,558 --> 00:35:29,301 I just keep thinking about these moments with Helen 748 00:35:29,344 --> 00:35:31,607 that I just kind of brushed aside. 749 00:35:31,651 --> 00:35:36,699 You know, the ones that we never really figured out. 750 00:35:36,743 --> 00:35:39,267 You know, if your feelings for her change, 751 00:35:39,311 --> 00:35:41,313 that's okay. 752 00:35:41,356 --> 00:35:43,402 It's not that. I-I-- 753 00:35:45,360 --> 00:35:47,188 I still love her. 754 00:35:47,232 --> 00:35:49,451 Ah. 755 00:35:49,495 --> 00:35:51,540 You know, there was, like... 756 00:35:57,894 --> 00:35:59,983 It was the best. 757 00:36:03,117 --> 00:36:06,555 And there were just so many good moments. 758 00:36:10,472 --> 00:36:14,389 It made the bad moments feel like nothing. 759 00:36:16,739 --> 00:36:20,134 But I guess for Helen, 760 00:36:20,178 --> 00:36:23,616 they might've been everything. 761 00:36:24,834 --> 00:36:26,967 You know, she was dealing with a lot. 762 00:36:27,010 --> 00:36:29,709 The truth about her family, who she was, 763 00:36:29,752 --> 00:36:31,711 who she wanted to be. 764 00:36:31,754 --> 00:36:33,843 Maybe she needed to deal with that alone. 765 00:36:33,887 --> 00:36:36,368 - She did. - Yeah. 766 00:36:36,411 --> 00:36:40,763 I know she did 'cause she told me, 767 00:36:40,807 --> 00:36:42,896 but I just tried to fix it. 768 00:36:50,338 --> 00:36:53,080 'Cause I wanted to fix it. 769 00:36:54,734 --> 00:36:56,388 Well, the truth of the matter is 770 00:36:56,431 --> 00:36:59,913 there are some problems that aren't yours to repair. 771 00:37:04,483 --> 00:37:07,050 So what do I do now? 772 00:37:14,362 --> 00:37:16,146 Hey, listen, my man, 773 00:37:16,190 --> 00:37:19,106 I'm sorry we couldn't get you to India, 774 00:37:19,149 --> 00:37:22,414 but we got you a little something 775 00:37:22,457 --> 00:37:25,068 to remind you of Bollywood. 776 00:37:25,112 --> 00:37:28,246 Oh. Cool. 777 00:37:28,289 --> 00:37:34,426 Oh, wow. Baby, you're gonna look like Shah Rukh Khan. 778 00:37:34,469 --> 00:37:36,036 Thanks, Dr. Reynolds. 779 00:37:36,079 --> 00:37:37,516 You got it. 780 00:37:42,477 --> 00:37:44,044 That was weird. 781 00:37:44,087 --> 00:37:47,656 - What's happening? - I don't know. 782 00:37:47,700 --> 00:37:51,007 - You're just in time. - For what? 783 00:37:51,051 --> 00:37:53,532 We told you that we couldn't take you to India 784 00:37:53,575 --> 00:37:58,276 to star in a Bollywood musical, so... 785 00:37:58,319 --> 00:38:01,017 we brought the Bollywood musical to you. 786 00:38:01,061 --> 00:38:04,064 [Amit Trivedi and Alia Bhatt's "Love You Zindagi"] 787 00:38:04,107 --> 00:38:08,808 ♪ 788 00:38:08,851 --> 00:38:16,424 ♪ Love you Zindagi 789 00:38:16,468 --> 00:38:20,298 ♪ Love you Zindagi ♪ 790 00:38:20,341 --> 00:38:25,346 ♪ Love me Zindagi 791 00:38:25,390 --> 00:38:32,527 ♪ 792 00:38:33,876 --> 00:38:36,749 [Caamp's "Feels like Home"] 793 00:38:36,792 --> 00:38:43,930 ♪ 794 00:38:45,235 --> 00:38:48,021 Hey. 795 00:38:48,064 --> 00:38:53,113 So what do you think about me sleeping in the spare room? 796 00:38:53,156 --> 00:38:55,811 Um, 797 00:38:55,855 --> 00:38:58,423 yes, of course, 798 00:38:58,466 --> 00:39:00,338 but I should tell you something. 799 00:39:00,381 --> 00:39:02,644 Who is it? 800 00:39:02,688 --> 00:39:06,256 Hey. You must be Lauren. 801 00:39:06,300 --> 00:39:10,652 ♪ There's yearning in the river, it feels like home ♪ 802 00:39:10,696 --> 00:39:12,741 [knock on door] 803 00:39:12,785 --> 00:39:16,571 ♪ Oh 804 00:39:16,615 --> 00:39:18,181 Didn't you get my message? 805 00:39:18,225 --> 00:39:20,749 I can't go out with you tonight. 806 00:39:20,793 --> 00:39:24,100 That's why I brought tacos to your place. 807 00:39:24,144 --> 00:39:29,541 ♪ Telling myself to keep good faith ♪ 808 00:39:29,584 --> 00:39:34,415 ♪ There ain't much these days to celebrate ♪ 809 00:39:34,459 --> 00:39:37,375 ♪ 810 00:39:37,418 --> 00:39:43,206 ♪ Pulling my hoodie over my face ♪ 811 00:39:43,250 --> 00:39:47,254 ♪ I need time 812 00:39:47,297 --> 00:39:50,213 ♪ 813 00:39:50,257 --> 00:39:54,435 ♪ Give me time 814 00:39:54,479 --> 00:39:57,960 ♪ 815 00:39:58,004 --> 00:40:02,138 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 816 00:40:02,182 --> 00:40:04,837 ♪ 817 00:40:04,880 --> 00:40:08,449 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 818 00:40:08,493 --> 00:40:09,450 [phone chimes] 819 00:40:09,494 --> 00:40:11,757 ♪ 820 00:40:11,800 --> 00:40:15,804 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 821 00:40:15,848 --> 00:40:22,985 ♪ 822 00:40:40,568 --> 00:40:43,615 ♪ Take my name when I'm dead and gone ♪ 823 00:40:43,658 --> 00:40:45,530 ♪ 824 00:40:45,573 --> 00:40:48,271 ♪ And throw my ashes in the river ♪ 825 00:40:48,315 --> 00:40:50,665 ♪ 826 00:40:50,709 --> 00:40:53,625 ♪ Know that I live my whole life long ♪ 827 00:40:53,668 --> 00:40:55,540 ♪ 828 00:40:55,583 --> 00:40:59,239 ♪ And gave all the love that I could've given ♪ 829 00:40:59,282 --> 00:41:01,415 ♪ 830 00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:04,505 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 831 00:41:04,549 --> 00:41:06,551 ♪ 832 00:41:06,594 --> 00:41:09,423 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 833 00:41:09,467 --> 00:41:11,643 ♪ 834 00:41:11,686 --> 00:41:14,559 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 835 00:41:14,602 --> 00:41:16,778 [mouthing] Come on. 836 00:41:16,822 --> 00:41:19,607 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 837 00:41:19,651 --> 00:41:21,914 ♪ 838 00:41:21,957 --> 00:41:24,786 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 839 00:41:24,830 --> 00:41:26,919 ♪ 840 00:41:26,962 --> 00:41:30,183 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 841 00:41:30,226 --> 00:41:35,405 ♪