[Elizabeth] Previously on The Baxters...
[Landon] You seem really happy, Ashley.
I'm getting there.
Just in time for me to leave for California.
I'll try to speed it up.
- [Ryan] Hey. - [Kari] Hey. Come here.
You've always had a place in my heart.
The ball's in your court.
All you keep telling me to do, is put my faith in God.
That's all anyone can do right now.
Yeah, well, that's not enough for me, Dad!
I can't be here, right now.
[Lori] You can always crash here.
Won't be able to find another roommate till the end of the month, anyway.
Free of charge.
Think about it.
[theme song playing]
♪ Cause life has a way Of pulling us under ♪
♪ But we'll stick it out ♪
♪ If we got each other ♪
♪ When it all feels too much ♪
♪ I know you'll come running For me ♪
♪ Through the highs and lows We'll find our way home ♪
♪ Family ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Family ♪
- [clattering] - [Landon] Oops!
- Watch it, there. - [Ashley] Okay.
- You got it? - Yeah.
Okay, go backwards.
- Okay. - And to your left.
- Your left. - My left?
- Yeah, your left. - My left? Okay.
Watch out! Hey, Watch out. Watch that!
- Watch that! - [Ashley chuckles]
[both panting]
[Ashley chuckles] Grr!
Ashley Baxter moving services officially gets one star
review from this customer.
[sighs] Hey, you get what you pay for.
[Ashley sighs]
- What? - Nothing.
It doesn't seem like nothing.
I don't want to get into it.
Leaving on a weird note with you.
What would make it weird?
Me asking why I'm in the friend zone, again.
Or still.
[exhales]
Favorite topic of conversation.
I wouldn't call it my favorite.
- [soft chuckle] - I am gonna miss you.
- I knew it. - I'm serious.
[both chuckle]
I'm gonna miss you too.
Can I ask you a question?
Hmm, depends.
Ash...
Do you love yourself?
Do I love myself?
Yeah.
What does that even mean?
Well, I went through a tough time after high school.
I had no direction.
No idea of what I wanted to do with my life.
So it launched me on this downward spiral.
And I felt worthless.
So it made me put up this massive wall, so nobody could get in.
But then, after a while, I realized that wall was just between me and me.
I couldn't let anyone love me if I didn't love myself.
And you think that's what's wrong with me?
Ash, there's nothing wrong with you.
[sighs] Well...
I'm sure my mom has a self-help book
I can borrow, all about your little theory.
And probably a bible verse I can memorize.
I'm sure she does.
I know my faith helped me through.
Right. So, should we finish up what we started?
[chuckles]
I was promised pizza at the end of this.
[Landon] All right. Come on, let's do it.
[Ashley] Okay, hold on.
[Ashley grunts]
[Elizabeth] "You can never please God without faith."
"Then Jesus told him
"You believe because you've seen me,
"but blessed are those who haven't seen me
- and yet believe anyway." - [door opens]
[door closes]
[Ashley] Mom, I'm home!
- Hey, are you okay? - Hi.
Not really. Your brother is struggling
and I'm trying to find a way to help him.
And you think your favorite book has all the answers.
I know it does. It just sometimes takes a bit longer to find them.
Mom, Luke just needs space.
No, it's space that worries me.
The further he distances himself from his family,
- from his faith-- - The closer he ends up
looking like me.
It's been a while since I've even read it.
But could you remind me what the Bible has to say about self-love?
The 'how' is God's job.
But self-love stems from forgiveness.
Ashley, the Bible doesn't command us to forgive ourselves.
It encourages us to seek God's forgiveness.
And it tells us when He forgives us.
He remembers our sins no more.
But I still remember.
Imagine, if every day when you get dressed, you put a rock in your back pocket,
and you walked around with it all the time, every day.
You can feel it when you're walking, when you're sitting.
And it was uncomfortable and inconvenient.
But you still consciously choose every morning,
to carry it around with you.
And then one day, you realize that you have an alternate option.
Do you still carry that burden around with you?
Or do you release it?
Speak it.
Confess it.
And how would that feel for a change?
Because that's all it is, Ashley.
It's all a choice.
Mom, I'm tired of carrying the rock.
I know you are, baby.
I know you are.
[crying]
I prayed that God would give me time to think,
and when Sam got a call saying that his company postponed the move,
I've felt that those prayers were answered.
Sometimes God works in not so mysterious ways.
I don't know what's gonna happen next,
but I'm willing to put in the effort to find out.
Thank you for listening and for letting me talk through this.
I don't know where Sam and I would be today,
- [message alert] - if I didn't have a shoulder.
That's what I'm here for.
[message alert]
Maybe you should check those?
Ryan?
"Kari girl, meet me at our spot this time tomorrow. There's something I want to show you."
- [knocking at door] - [door opens]
[Lori] Hi. Can I help you?
I'm looking for my son.
Uh-oh, Mrs. Baxter,
I'm Lori. Nice to meet you.
- I'll get Luke. - Thank you.
Mom, what are you doing here?
May I speak with you privately, for a moment?
Your dad and I were hoping that you would come to the memorial tonight.
You should not have driven all the way out here just to tell me that, okay?
You could have texted me. I would have told you I wasn't interested.
But this is really special and it would mean so much to both of us
- to have you there. - Why?
Why can you not ever respect my point of view, huh?
I mean, you guys gave Ashley years of space to find her way.
Just leave me alone for a little while, okay?
You are my son and I will always fight for you.
Do you know what the doctors told me when I got sick?
They told me that I wouldn't last that year.
That the kind of cancer I had, was usually terminal.
But do you know what got me through?
It was believing that God has a bigger plan for my life,
and that included sticking around to be your mom.
And does God's plan include all the bad stuff too?
Huh? Was the shooting at the church just part of his great design?
God sees all the bad things.
But having faith is about believing that no matter what happens,
there's still a plan in place.
And no matter how dark it seems,
God is always shining his light to guide us.
You should probably get on the road, Ma.
You're gonna be late.
I love you, son.
[knock at door]
Hi.
I'm ready to talk about what happened in Paris.
[Ryan] Kari, girl.
Glad you came.
I had to find out what this last minute adventure was all about.
Follow me.
[Ashley] I was so wide-eyed, eager.
I showed my work to anyone that would give me the time of day.
And they all looked at me like I was handing them trash.
And then there was Adrian.
He was every gallery's idea of a blockbuster artist.
[sighs]
And he was married.
Happily. Before me.
Something...
inside of me screamed, "Don't get involved, Ashley.
Think of his family. Think of your family."
But he, he told me he loved me.
And I believed him.
I even asked him to leave his wife.
I'm that person.
And then, I got pregnant.
And when I told him,
he gave me the address to a clinic.
And he, he said that they would have an answer there.
Ash, you didn't go through with it?
I almost did.
I was humiliated.
I was terrified. [sniffling]
I let a man destroy me.
And then I almost destroyed a life in the process.
You're wrong. Nothing destroyed you.
Ash...
It gave you strength. It gave you insight.
Hey...
It gave you Cole.
And nothing that led you to him make you ever feel ashamed.
Nothing. Okay?
Come here.
Thank you.
I thought a lot about what you said.
About realizing what's really important.
Seeing things clearly.
And?
And you've always been my person, Kari.
I mean, when I got hurt, even when you were with Tim,
you were always on my mind.
You're going back to New York soon.
What if I didn't?
What are you saying?
I'm saying that you're the love of my life.
I don't want to spend one more day apart from you.
If that means staying here with you and Jesse, then that's what I want to do.
My whole world is right here.
Now I know we've got a long way to go and it's not perfect,
but there's nobody else I'd rather figure it out with.
Did you make it out of fishing gear?
I didn't have time to get a real one.
I thought it'd do for now.
It's perfect.
May I?
Kari Baxter, will you marry me?
Yes!
Of course, yes!
[Kari chuckles]
I love you, Kari girl.
Well, I have to say...
Ryan and Kari did an amazing job.
[John] They make a great team.
Well, it wouldn't have happened without you.
- It looks incredible. - Yeah.
Pastor Mark would love it.
Hey.
Did you guys know?
I had to get their blessing.
Glad to have you in the family, son.
- Thank you. - Congratulations.
Well, as long as he's on our team for the Baxter ball.
- Uh-huh, we'll flip a coin for him. - We'll see.
A month ago, our lives were changed.
Forever.
And our hearts are still broken.
[Pastor Mariana] So we'll remember those in our church family
who were called home that day.
They were part of the fabric of who we are.
And we honor them.
But today is also a day of celebration.
God promising His word to make all things new.
And today,
we stand as living testaments to that promise.
No matter what challenges lie ahead for this church family,
we know that God has the power
to turn even the darkest, most hopeless situation
into a miracle.
And we know that one of the greatest miracles He gives us,
is our eternal life in heaven.
That's why I am so pleased to mark this moment
for the first lighting of a flame that will remain
eternally lit.
A reminder of the eternal life
those we lost now have with the Lord above,
is still with us all.
I wish Luke was here.
Well, you did everything you could.
He'll find his way back one day.
Please join me for a moment of silence.
- [Lori] So nothing? - [Luke] No, not yet.
Why is a one-bedroom so expensive in this town anyway?
[Lori scoffs]
Why do you think I always have a roommate?
[Lori sighs]
[typing]
You know you could just move in here, permanently?
- I couldn't ask you to do that. - You're not asking me.
I'm asking you.
You can sleep in the other bedroom if it makes you feel better.
Come on, now, we both know that's not gonna happen.
I haven't slept on the couch once, since I've been here.
Cool! Then, yeah, you could just stay here,
and we could make the other bedroom a study room.
Or a guest room. Or an exercise room?
Or a pet sanctuary.
Hey, I-- I'm not sure that I'm ready.
Still not over your ex?
She was so hurtful to you, Luke.
Yeah.
I don't know, isn't it just a little bit soon for us?
When would be the exact right moment then?
I don't know.
Exactly.
You don't know the future, and neither do I.
So why don't we just have fun in the moment?
- [laptop closes] - All right.
Yeah?
Yeah.
[Luke chuckles softly]
[nurse] All right, we're ready to start.
This gel might feel a little cold.
Now, I'm just going to move the probe around on your abdomen.
[heart beating]
All right.
And here is your little one.
And by the looks of it, he or she has a healthy little heart.
- Oh, is this your first, Miss Peters? - Yes.
- Well, congratulations. - Thank you.
Is there a father in the picture?
No. No.
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