What your girlfriend has been through is intense
medically and spiritually, and she needs you.
- What are you talking about? - You didn't know?
When will I see Landon again? I miss him.
Me too, buddy.
I ran away. I couldn't handle it...
I don't know how he could ever forgive me for all of this.
It sounds like an important question for you to ask,
is whether or not you can forgive yourself.
You're telling me that Luke does not know he has a child!
I wasn't pregnant with your baby.
So, you cheated on me?
I would really like to work this out between us.
I shouldn't be here. I'm sorry.
Luke. Luke.
♪ 'Cause life has a way Of pulling us under ♪
♪ But we'll stick it out ♪
♪ If we got each other ♪
♪ When it all feels too much ♪
♪ I know you'll come running For me ♪
♪ Through the highs and lows We'll find our way home ♪
♪ Family ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Family ♪
John! I didn't know you were back.
What happened with Luke?
I was waiting for you to call me.
Sorry.
I was in a haze after I talked to him.
He didn't know.
He didn't know she was in the hospital.
By the look on his face he didn't know...
she was pregnant.
But they're living together.
I mean, they're in a relationship.
And not a very honest one, I guess.
So what did you do?
Told him to go to the hospital. To go see her.
Well, you let him go by himself?
He's a grown man, Elizabeth.
One that's made it very clear
he doesn't want us in his life for now.
So, he can figure it out.
- Well, what if he doesn't? - Well...
we'll always be there for him.
Help him to pick himself back up.
And what about Lori?
I can't imagine being where she is right now.
I mean, she did something I wish she hadn't,
but my heart is aching for her.
I will have mercy...
on whom I will have mercy.
I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.
And hopefully...
she has a mother with a heart as big as yours
that she can talk to.
John, what are we gonna do?
We're gonna wait.
And we're gonna pray.
- Kari! Hi. - Hi.
I'm sorry to barge in on you like this.
I just thought maybe we could have dinner together before I head out tomorrow.
Oh, um...
I know, I should've called.
I just... I thought you'd say no, so...
I bought sushi.
It's so good here.
Yeah, I know, I actually craved that place throughout my entire pregnancy.
Yeah, sure. Come in.
Right there.
Okay.
I can't do this.
I mean, look at all those perfect, beautiful, successful people in there.
- Who do I think I am? - One of them.
- I'm a nobody. - Oh, that's not fair.
It's how I feel.
You were invited here.
You belong here. You're just as talented.
Besides, has anyone ever told you...
you have such beautiful hair.
- Thank you. - Come on.
- Okay, look at this one. - Mm.
Color almost has like, energy.
Like, jumping off the painting
and then pulling you back in to look at it.
I wish I knew what inspired the artist.
Dancing. Dancing like literally no one is watching
is what inspired the artist.
I danced for years as a little girl,
and still do whenever I can today.
I'm always trying to paint something
that looks like how my body feels when I'm moving.
- I can see that. - Why, thank you.
Congratulations. Your work is...
- It's beautiful. - Oh, thank you.
And same to you.
Ashley, right?
Cynthia pointed you out earlier.
She's been raving about you.
Apparently, we're very similar.
I got my start last year after I sent Cynthia's gallery an email of my work.
- Same. - I know.
That's why I was so excited to meet you.
I need someone to talk to about how crazy this is.
Last month I was waiting tables
and now people want my art for their Beverly Hills mansions.
Well, I'd be honored to follow in your footsteps.
- Um, this is Landon. - Oh. Hi, Landon. I'm Ally.
- Really nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you.
You two make a gorgeous couple.
How long have you been together for?
Oh!
We're not together.
I was hoping you two would meet.
Oh, my two phenoms.
Ashley, consider this brilliant young woman your guide
to the first steps in life as a showing artist.
This is only her second show
and she is making quite the splash.
- Bye. - Thank you.
Think she says that to all her new clients?
I honestly don't care as long as I'm one of them.
Amen to that. Okay. Come on.
I'll introduce you to some people.
You go. Yeah.
- Okay. - Follow me.
Hi.
That was amazing!
Did you see how amazing that was?
And they knew me. And I think they liked me.
And the most insane part is when I finish some pieces,
that's going to be me in there showing my work.
What?
It's amazing to see you this alive.
I wasn't like this before, huh?
- Hmm... It was hiding a little. - Thank you, for believing in me,
and encouraging me.
And giving me something to paint.
A piece I did of you and Cole
was my first in a really long time.
You're welcome.
Now, there is something I want to show you, Ash.
- Oh, yeah? - You down for a little drive?
What's up, Luke?
- Game? - Of course.
I was pretty shocked to get your text.
Yeah. Wasn't sure you'd come,
after the way I left things off last time.
I'm always gonna be here for you, Luke.
What's on your mind?
Just wanted to shoot some hoops.
You texted me just to play basketball?
Yeah, man. Come on, we used to play all the time.
Yeah?
Well, that was before you took a big step away from this family, wasn't it?
Hey. You're not married to my sister yet.
Luke, did you call me out here just to fight with me?
No. I'm sorry.
Why don't you try talking to me, man?
Look, you wouldn't have texted me of some small party,
- you didn't wanna talk this out. - Yeah, I know. Okay.
I know, maybe. But...
I don't know if I'm ready to talk anymore.
All right.
I'll make a deal with you.
Play some one-on-one.
Winner gets to ask the questions, loser's got to answer 'em.
I'd feel good to run around a little bit.
Blow off some steam.
- Yeah, you're on. - All right.
That's one.
So...
How has Tommy been sleeping?
Better.
Which means that I'm getting a little rest.
- Has your mom been helpful? - Yeah.
Yeah, she has, but...
he's my responsibility. This is all my responsibility.
- Uh... I don't understand. - I don't wanna talk about it.
Listen, Reagan.
When I first had Jessie,
I was such a mess.
I had just lost Tim and there was so much
around that loss that I hadn't processed.
It was affecting my relationship with my daughter.
I couldn't connect with her because of the grief.
Does that make sense?
More than you know.
You need to push through this.
So you can be fully present for Tommy.
I can't.
I've never... I've never talked about this to anyone.
Kari...
Luke and I got lost in the moment and slept together
the night before my dad died.
That...
That just set off the chain of events.
We were still together the next morning.
And I called him and told him not to come pick me up.
So he went to the church early.
Reagan.
Your father did not die because of you.
That is just not how things work.
How do they work?
Oh, I don't know.
Just like I don't know why Tim died.
Trust me, I've been mad at God.
I've asked him all the whys.
But...
if I've learned anything,
it's that instead of asking,
"Why is this happening, God?"
I ask, "Where are you taking me?"
His will is a mystery to all of us.
But his love is unconditional.
And I believe he has blessed you
to keep living the life you have.
You owe that to your father.
You owe that to your son.
What if I can't? - You can.
We both can.
It may just take small steps at first.
These are beads from my wedding.
Tim had them added to a wreath
that we had on our door for Christmas.
I've been carrying them around with me since his funeral.
I just want to put them down.
To make small steps first.
Exactly.
Oh, you're still sitting there.
Hey.
Hmm.
You seem like you have a lot on your mind.
I've been keeping something from you, John. And it's weighing on me.
What is it?
I went to see Lori at the hospital.
- When? - When you were with Luke.
You know, you said yourself that no one had been to see her,
not the family, no friends.
I couldn't bear the thought of her going through
what she was going through by herself.
Was she awake?
No, she was sleeping.
I just sat with her,
- I prayed. - Mm.
And then I left.
I heard from the hospital, she's coming out of it.
I wonder...
if Luke went by to see her.
I hope he did. I mean, she...
she really needs someone now.
I understand. I'm just...
not sure it's wise for either of us to get involved here.
All right, John. But I sense that she's really in need.
I know. And your heart is in the right place. It always is,
but with Luke...
I just worry you could do more harm than good.
Whoo.
Game point, coach.
Ball.
Oh, whoa.
Get in, game! - Ah, you really pushed, bro.
Maybe I really wanted you to talk.
Why? Huh?
I mean, I don't even know how to start, buddy.
Start wherever you want, man. Come on, you can tell me anything.
Is it about Lori?
- You haven't heard? - Heard what?
Lori's in the ICU, man.
She got an infection because she had an abortion.
Luke, I'm... I'm sorry.
Yeah. It gets a lot worse, man. It's not even my kid.
She's been cheating on me.
So?
- She's there alone right now. - Did you not just hear me, Ryan? She's been cheating--
Yeah, all right. I know. I heard you.
And that sucks. But you're in a relationship, man.
She's been your world these past few months.
Abandoning her right now?
In this state?
Hey.
- That's not who you are. - Well, you have no idea who I am anymore.
Maybe not.
But I know you're angry. I can see it. I can feel it.
Maybe you're mad at Lori, maybe you're mad at a lot more.
You've been through so much these past few months, man.
It's okay to be a little bit angry about what happened to Reagan's--
Look, I don't wanna hear about Reagan.
Why? Why, Ryan, huh?
Why? There's nothing you can say or do
that's gonna change that, okay?
And do not, please,
do not say that they're with God right now, Ryan, I...
You know, man, just go.
Honestly, just go.
Never forget I'm here for you, man.
There you are.
What're you doing?
Just finding some pieces of Dad's that I wanna keep.
Oh, I think that's a nice idea.
Oh, maybe you can pick a few special things
for Tommy to have when he's older.
Hmm. Yeah.
That's cute.
Want some help?
Yeah, I'd love that.
Okay.
- Mm. - Thank you, Mom.
Of course.
No.
For everything.
I could have never gotten through any of this
without you.
No. You're stronger than you realize.
You're gonna move beyond this.
Come here.
Where are we going?
Oh, you'll see.
Okay.
Oh, man. Okay.
I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff or something.
Because we are...
I could not wait to show it to you.
Wow.
Ash.
I'm sorry I was so distant before you came here.
It's because of Reagan.
I wanted to protect her privacy
and I couldn't imagine lying to you.
So, it was easier to ignore me?
- Ash. - Mm?
The last thing I wanna do is hurt you or Cole.
That might be out of your control.
Cole...
He's been asking about you.
How long you'll be here,
when you're coming back.
I haven't known what to say.
It's hard.
But I really like what I'm doing here,
and there's so much need.
I'm happy for you.
Doesn't sound like you meant that.
Hmm.
Ash?
Talk to me.
It's just...
I don't know what we're doing.
You know, sometimes I feel we're building toward
really being together.
Other times...
I don't know.
Yeah, I know.
I never know if I should be calling you or not.
It's confusing.
That's the thing, Landon.
It's not...
confusing to me.
I'm finally realizing...
I can't be your friend.
I can't talk to you every now and then.
I miss you too much.
But I'm here for now and you're back home.
Yeah, I know. But...
I think we can make it work.
- Landon. - Hmm?
I want you in my life.
I want you in Cole's life.
Then we should try being together.
Long distance.
Yeah?
As together as we can be when we're apart?
What do you think?
Good answer.
You came back.
Yeah.
To say I'm sorry.
No, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
Look, I, uh...
I know thigs have been tough between us.
I really care about you, Lori.
You've been the only thing getting me through these past few months.
And I just, uh...
Do you think there's any way we can make it work together?
I don't know, I just feel really lost right now.
I know. Me too.
Just give me some time to think about things, okay?
Thanks for coming back.
I never should have left.
Next time on The Baxters...
Hi.
Lori.
Did you come and see me the other day?
Could we maybe talk?
I have to keep this from Luke, and Luke from them,
and Reagan from everyone.
Mr. Baxter! Hi.
Hi.
We're ideally looking for a date nine, maybe ten months from today.
Looks like our next available date
is one month from today.
Maybe getting it together faster
will help us focus on what really matters most.
I feel like I can celebrate Tim's life
by celebrating Jessie.
Would anyone else help you to feel more connected to Tim?
No.