1 00:00:08,385 --> 00:00:10,971 What your girlfriend has been through is intense 2 00:00:10,971 --> 00:00:13,766 medically and spiritually, and she needs you. 3 00:00:13,766 --> 00:00:16,226 - What are you talking about? - You didn't know? 4 00:00:16,226 --> 00:00:19,313 {\an8}When will I see Landon again? I miss him. 5 00:00:19,313 --> 00:00:21,106 Me too, buddy. 6 00:00:21,106 --> 00:00:23,150 I ran away. I couldn't handle it... 7 00:00:23,150 --> 00:00:25,736 I don't know how he could ever forgive me for all of this. 8 00:00:25,736 --> 00:00:28,447 It sounds like an important question for you to ask, 9 00:00:28,447 --> 00:00:31,992 is whether or not you can forgive yourself. 10 00:00:31,992 --> 00:00:37,247 You're telling me that Luke does not know he has a child! 11 00:00:37,247 --> 00:00:38,874 I wasn't pregnant with your baby. 12 00:00:40,667 --> 00:00:42,377 So, you cheated on me? 13 00:00:42,377 --> 00:00:44,379 I would really like to work this out between us. 14 00:00:44,379 --> 00:00:46,256 I shouldn't be here. I'm sorry. 15 00:00:46,256 --> 00:00:48,175 Luke. Luke. 16 00:00:52,304 --> 00:00:56,266 ♪ 'Cause life has a way Of pulling us under ♪ 17 00:00:56,266 --> 00:00:59,061 ♪ But we'll stick it out ♪ 18 00:00:59,061 --> 00:01:02,064 {\an8}♪ If we got each other ♪ 19 00:01:02,064 --> 00:01:05,234 {\an8}♪ When it all feels too much ♪ 20 00:01:05,234 --> 00:01:09,363 {\an8}♪ I know you'll come running For me ♪ 21 00:01:09,363 --> 00:01:12,908 {\an8}♪ Through the highs and lows We'll find our way home ♪ 22 00:01:13,784 --> 00:01:14,743 {\an8}♪ Family ♪ 23 00:01:17,204 --> 00:01:19,248 {\an8}♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 24 00:01:19,248 --> 00:01:20,374 ♪ Family ♪ 25 00:01:38,976 --> 00:01:41,270 {\an8}John! I didn't know you were back. 26 00:01:47,109 --> 00:01:48,902 {\an8}What happened with Luke? 27 00:01:48,902 --> 00:01:50,529 {\an8}I was waiting for you to call me. 28 00:01:51,405 --> 00:01:52,281 {\an8}Sorry. 29 00:01:53,699 --> 00:01:56,118 {\an8}I was in a haze after I talked to him. 30 00:01:59,705 --> 00:02:01,248 {\an8}He didn't know. 31 00:02:01,248 --> 00:02:02,833 {\an8}He didn't know she was in the hospital. 32 00:02:04,251 --> 00:02:05,878 {\an8}By the look on his face he didn't know... 33 00:02:07,337 --> 00:02:08,422 {\an8}she was pregnant. 34 00:02:09,506 --> 00:02:11,341 {\an8}But they're living together. 35 00:02:11,341 --> 00:02:13,135 {\an8}I mean, they're in a relationship. 36 00:02:13,135 --> 00:02:14,678 {\an8}And not a very honest one, I guess. 37 00:02:17,180 --> 00:02:18,849 {\an8}So what did you do? 38 00:02:18,849 --> 00:02:22,060 {\an8}Told him to go to the hospital. To go see her. 39 00:02:22,060 --> 00:02:23,478 {\an8}Well, you let him go by himself? 40 00:02:23,478 --> 00:02:25,188 {\an8}He's a grown man, Elizabeth. 41 00:02:26,273 --> 00:02:27,774 {\an8}One that's made it very clear 42 00:02:27,774 --> 00:02:30,319 {\an8}he doesn't want us in his life for now. 43 00:02:30,319 --> 00:02:33,572 {\an8}So, he can figure it out. 44 00:02:33,572 --> 00:02:35,824 {\an8}- Well, what if he doesn't? - Well... 45 00:02:37,910 --> 00:02:39,244 {\an8}we'll always be there for him. 46 00:02:40,829 --> 00:02:42,789 {\an8}Help him to pick himself back up. 47 00:02:42,789 --> 00:02:45,083 {\an8}And what about Lori? 48 00:02:45,083 --> 00:02:48,462 I can't imagine being where she is right now. 49 00:02:50,255 --> 00:02:52,799 {\an8}I mean, she did something I wish she hadn't, 50 00:02:52,799 --> 00:02:56,094 {\an8}but my heart is aching for her. 51 00:03:05,395 --> 00:03:06,647 I will have mercy... 52 00:03:08,732 --> 00:03:10,984 on whom I will have mercy. 53 00:03:10,984 --> 00:03:13,820 I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion. 54 00:03:17,074 --> 00:03:18,241 And hopefully... 55 00:03:20,744 --> 00:03:23,288 she has a mother with a heart as big as yours 56 00:03:23,288 --> 00:03:24,414 that she can talk to. 57 00:03:27,042 --> 00:03:28,585 John, what are we gonna do? 58 00:03:29,628 --> 00:03:30,504 We're gonna wait. 59 00:03:32,631 --> 00:03:33,674 And we're gonna pray. 60 00:03:50,273 --> 00:03:53,068 - Kari! Hi. - Hi. 61 00:03:53,068 --> 00:03:55,654 I'm sorry to barge in on you like this. 62 00:03:55,654 --> 00:03:58,031 I just thought maybe we could have dinner together before I head out tomorrow. 63 00:03:58,657 --> 00:04:00,575 Oh, um... 64 00:04:00,575 --> 00:04:02,577 I know, I should've called. 65 00:04:02,577 --> 00:04:04,788 I just... I thought you'd say no, so... 66 00:04:06,248 --> 00:04:07,290 I bought sushi. 67 00:04:08,458 --> 00:04:10,877 It's so good here. 68 00:04:10,877 --> 00:04:12,629 Yeah, I know, I actually craved that place throughout my entire pregnancy. 69 00:04:15,590 --> 00:04:16,925 Yeah, sure. Come in. 70 00:04:18,885 --> 00:04:19,761 Right there. 71 00:04:26,476 --> 00:04:27,352 Okay. 72 00:04:36,987 --> 00:04:39,322 I can't do this. 73 00:04:39,322 --> 00:04:41,783 I mean, look at all those perfect, beautiful, successful people in there. 74 00:04:41,783 --> 00:04:43,744 - Who do I think I am? - One of them. 75 00:04:45,162 --> 00:04:46,997 - I'm a nobody. - Oh, that's not fair. 76 00:04:49,124 --> 00:04:50,542 It's how I feel. 77 00:04:50,542 --> 00:04:52,377 You were invited here. 78 00:04:52,377 --> 00:04:54,921 You belong here. You're just as talented. 79 00:04:54,921 --> 00:04:57,007 Besides, has anyone ever told you... 80 00:04:58,300 --> 00:05:00,135 you have such beautiful hair. 81 00:05:03,305 --> 00:05:04,973 - Thank you. - Come on. 82 00:05:14,691 --> 00:05:16,860 - Okay, look at this one. - Mm. 83 00:05:16,860 --> 00:05:20,072 Color almost has like, energy. 84 00:05:20,072 --> 00:05:22,115 Like, jumping off the painting 85 00:05:22,115 --> 00:05:24,117 and then pulling you back in to look at it. 86 00:05:24,117 --> 00:05:25,869 I wish I knew what inspired the artist. 87 00:05:27,537 --> 00:05:30,415 Dancing. Dancing like literally no one is watching 88 00:05:30,415 --> 00:05:31,625 is what inspired the artist. 89 00:05:32,918 --> 00:05:34,920 I danced for years as a little girl, 90 00:05:34,920 --> 00:05:37,798 and still do whenever I can today. 91 00:05:37,798 --> 00:05:39,800 I'm always trying to paint something 92 00:05:39,800 --> 00:05:43,136 that looks like how my body feels when I'm moving. 93 00:05:45,013 --> 00:05:47,265 - I can see that. - Why, thank you. 94 00:05:47,265 --> 00:05:49,434 Congratulations. Your work is... 95 00:05:50,644 --> 00:05:52,687 - It's beautiful. - Oh, thank you. 96 00:05:52,687 --> 00:05:53,772 And same to you. 97 00:05:54,606 --> 00:05:56,358 Ashley, right? 98 00:05:56,358 --> 00:05:58,276 Cynthia pointed you out earlier. 99 00:05:58,276 --> 00:06:00,320 She's been raving about you. 100 00:06:00,320 --> 00:06:02,739 Apparently, we're very similar. 101 00:06:02,739 --> 00:06:06,910 I got my start last year after I sent Cynthia's gallery an email of my work. 102 00:06:06,910 --> 00:06:08,537 - Same. - I know. 103 00:06:08,537 --> 00:06:10,872 That's why I was so excited to meet you. 104 00:06:10,872 --> 00:06:13,875 I need someone to talk to about how crazy this is. 105 00:06:13,875 --> 00:06:16,294 Last month I was waiting tables 106 00:06:16,294 --> 00:06:19,005 and now people want my art for their Beverly Hills mansions. 107 00:06:19,005 --> 00:06:22,008 Well, I'd be honored to follow in your footsteps. 108 00:06:24,427 --> 00:06:27,514 - Um, this is Landon. - Oh. Hi, Landon. I'm Ally. 109 00:06:27,514 --> 00:06:29,850 - Really nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you. 110 00:06:29,850 --> 00:06:31,768 You two make a gorgeous couple. 111 00:06:31,768 --> 00:06:33,562 How long have you been together for? 112 00:06:33,562 --> 00:06:34,688 Oh! 113 00:06:35,897 --> 00:06:37,274 We're not together. 114 00:06:37,274 --> 00:06:39,025 I was hoping you two would meet. 115 00:06:39,025 --> 00:06:41,653 Oh, my two phenoms. 116 00:06:41,653 --> 00:06:45,157 Ashley, consider this brilliant young woman your guide 117 00:06:45,157 --> 00:06:47,784 to the first steps in life as a showing artist. 118 00:06:47,784 --> 00:06:49,161 This is only her second show 119 00:06:49,161 --> 00:06:51,371 and she is making quite the splash. 120 00:06:52,998 --> 00:06:54,040 - Bye. - Thank you. 121 00:06:55,584 --> 00:06:57,586 Think she says that to all her new clients? 122 00:06:57,586 --> 00:06:59,546 I honestly don't care as long as I'm one of them. 123 00:06:59,546 --> 00:07:02,299 Amen to that. Okay. Come on. 124 00:07:02,299 --> 00:07:03,842 I'll introduce you to some people. 125 00:07:04,926 --> 00:07:06,011 You go. Yeah. 126 00:07:06,011 --> 00:07:07,262 - Okay. - Follow me. 127 00:07:11,308 --> 00:07:12,267 Hi. 128 00:07:21,610 --> 00:07:25,238 That was amazing! 129 00:07:25,238 --> 00:07:26,907 Did you see how amazing that was? 130 00:07:26,907 --> 00:07:29,659 And they knew me. And I think they liked me. 131 00:07:29,659 --> 00:07:31,661 And the most insane part is when I finish some pieces, 132 00:07:31,661 --> 00:07:35,373 that's going to be me in there showing my work. 133 00:07:37,209 --> 00:07:38,043 What? 134 00:07:39,836 --> 00:07:41,254 It's amazing to see you this alive. 135 00:07:43,548 --> 00:07:45,759 I wasn't like this before, huh? 136 00:07:45,759 --> 00:07:50,805 - Hmm... It was hiding a little. - Thank you, for believing in me, 137 00:07:50,805 --> 00:07:52,682 and encouraging me. 138 00:07:52,682 --> 00:07:54,851 And giving me something to paint. 139 00:07:54,851 --> 00:07:56,353 A piece I did of you and Cole 140 00:07:56,353 --> 00:07:58,063 was my first in a really long time. 141 00:07:58,063 --> 00:07:59,022 You're welcome. 142 00:08:01,024 --> 00:08:04,110 Now, there is something I want to show you, Ash. 143 00:08:04,110 --> 00:08:06,196 - Oh, yeah? - You down for a little drive? 144 00:08:18,875 --> 00:08:19,751 What's up, Luke? 145 00:08:21,544 --> 00:08:22,963 - Game? - Of course. 146 00:08:22,963 --> 00:08:24,297 I was pretty shocked to get your text. 147 00:08:25,799 --> 00:08:28,468 Yeah. Wasn't sure you'd come, 148 00:08:28,468 --> 00:08:29,844 after the way I left things off last time. 149 00:08:31,721 --> 00:08:33,056 I'm always gonna be here for you, Luke. 150 00:08:35,684 --> 00:08:36,559 What's on your mind? 151 00:08:38,436 --> 00:08:39,396 Just wanted to shoot some hoops. 152 00:08:41,189 --> 00:08:43,066 You texted me just to play basketball? 153 00:08:43,066 --> 00:08:45,402 Yeah, man. Come on, we used to play all the time. 154 00:08:46,319 --> 00:08:48,655 Yeah? 155 00:08:48,655 --> 00:08:51,283 Well, that was before you took a big step away from this family, wasn't it? 156 00:08:51,283 --> 00:08:54,035 Hey. You're not married to my sister yet. 157 00:08:58,164 --> 00:09:00,250 Luke, did you call me out here just to fight with me? 158 00:09:00,250 --> 00:09:02,627 No. I'm sorry. 159 00:09:04,504 --> 00:09:07,674 Why don't you try talking to me, man? 160 00:09:07,674 --> 00:09:09,884 Look, you wouldn't have texted me of some small party, 161 00:09:09,884 --> 00:09:12,053 - you didn't wanna talk this out. - Yeah, I know. Okay. 162 00:09:12,053 --> 00:09:13,763 I know, maybe. But... 163 00:09:13,763 --> 00:09:15,390 I don't know if I'm ready to talk anymore. 164 00:09:17,517 --> 00:09:18,601 All right. 165 00:09:19,644 --> 00:09:21,187 I'll make a deal with you. 166 00:09:23,440 --> 00:09:26,401 Play some one-on-one. 167 00:09:26,401 --> 00:09:30,864 Winner gets to ask the questions, loser's got to answer 'em. 168 00:09:30,864 --> 00:09:32,949 I'd feel good to run around a little bit. 169 00:09:33,867 --> 00:09:35,452 Blow off some steam. 170 00:09:35,452 --> 00:09:37,662 - Yeah, you're on. - All right. 171 00:09:46,963 --> 00:09:48,214 That's one. 172 00:09:57,349 --> 00:09:59,059 So... 173 00:10:00,310 --> 00:10:02,270 How has Tommy been sleeping? 174 00:10:02,937 --> 00:10:04,439 Better. 175 00:10:04,439 --> 00:10:06,441 Which means that I'm getting a little rest. 176 00:10:11,029 --> 00:10:15,325 - Has your mom been helpful? - Yeah. 177 00:10:15,325 --> 00:10:17,494 Yeah, she has, but... 178 00:10:17,494 --> 00:10:21,414 he's my responsibility. This is all my responsibility. 179 00:10:25,210 --> 00:10:29,506 - Uh... I don't understand. - I don't wanna talk about it. 180 00:10:32,675 --> 00:10:34,302 Listen, Reagan. 181 00:10:35,178 --> 00:10:37,639 When I first had Jessie, 182 00:10:37,639 --> 00:10:39,307 I was such a mess. 183 00:10:39,307 --> 00:10:42,143 I had just lost Tim and there was so much 184 00:10:42,143 --> 00:10:44,604 around that loss that I hadn't processed. 185 00:10:44,604 --> 00:10:47,941 It was affecting my relationship with my daughter. 186 00:10:47,941 --> 00:10:49,651 I couldn't connect with her because of the grief. 187 00:10:50,777 --> 00:10:52,404 Does that make sense? 188 00:10:52,404 --> 00:10:53,780 More than you know. 189 00:10:53,780 --> 00:10:56,491 You need to push through this. 190 00:10:56,491 --> 00:10:59,285 So you can be fully present for Tommy. 191 00:11:00,245 --> 00:11:01,329 I can't. 192 00:11:10,672 --> 00:11:13,967 I've never... I've never talked about this to anyone. 193 00:11:16,136 --> 00:11:17,929 Kari... 194 00:11:17,929 --> 00:11:20,348 Luke and I got lost in the moment and slept together 195 00:11:20,348 --> 00:11:21,975 the night before my dad died. 196 00:11:23,768 --> 00:11:25,186 That... 197 00:11:25,186 --> 00:11:27,021 That just set off the chain of events. 198 00:11:27,021 --> 00:11:28,940 We were still together the next morning. 199 00:11:31,025 --> 00:11:33,153 And I called him and told him not to come pick me up. 200 00:11:38,450 --> 00:11:40,452 So he went to the church early. 201 00:11:40,452 --> 00:11:42,203 Reagan. 202 00:11:42,203 --> 00:11:45,498 Your father did not die because of you. 203 00:11:45,498 --> 00:11:48,668 That is just not how things work. 204 00:11:48,668 --> 00:11:50,211 How do they work? 205 00:11:51,379 --> 00:11:53,631 Oh, I don't know. 206 00:11:53,631 --> 00:11:57,594 Just like I don't know why Tim died. 207 00:11:57,594 --> 00:12:00,388 Trust me, I've been mad at God. 208 00:12:00,388 --> 00:12:02,515 I've asked him all the whys. 209 00:12:03,766 --> 00:12:04,767 But... 210 00:12:05,935 --> 00:12:07,479 if I've learned anything, 211 00:12:08,813 --> 00:12:11,816 it's that instead of asking, 212 00:12:11,816 --> 00:12:14,444 "Why is this happening, God?" 213 00:12:16,821 --> 00:12:20,074 I ask, "Where are you taking me?" 214 00:12:21,910 --> 00:12:26,122 His will is a mystery to all of us. 215 00:12:27,874 --> 00:12:29,709 But his love is unconditional. 216 00:12:29,709 --> 00:12:32,337 And I believe he has blessed you 217 00:12:32,337 --> 00:12:35,632 to keep living the life you have. 218 00:12:35,632 --> 00:12:38,510 You owe that to your father. 219 00:12:38,510 --> 00:12:40,386 You owe that to your son. 220 00:12:41,596 --> 00:12:44,432 What if I can't? - You can. 221 00:12:44,432 --> 00:12:46,684 We both can. 222 00:12:46,684 --> 00:12:50,313 It may just take small steps at first. 223 00:12:58,821 --> 00:13:01,699 These are beads from my wedding. 224 00:13:01,699 --> 00:13:04,160 Tim had them added to a wreath 225 00:13:04,160 --> 00:13:07,997 that we had on our door for Christmas. 226 00:13:07,997 --> 00:13:11,376 I've been carrying them around with me since his funeral. 227 00:13:11,376 --> 00:13:14,379 I just want to put them down. 228 00:13:15,547 --> 00:13:17,507 To make small steps first. 229 00:13:18,508 --> 00:13:19,884 Exactly. 230 00:13:35,024 --> 00:13:36,943 Oh, you're still sitting there. 231 00:13:37,860 --> 00:13:39,445 Hey. 232 00:13:39,445 --> 00:13:40,363 Hmm. 233 00:13:42,365 --> 00:13:44,325 You seem like you have a lot on your mind. 234 00:13:46,536 --> 00:13:50,123 I've been keeping something from you, John. And it's weighing on me. 235 00:13:51,416 --> 00:13:52,375 What is it? 236 00:13:54,085 --> 00:13:56,296 I went to see Lori at the hospital. 237 00:14:02,093 --> 00:14:06,055 - When? - When you were with Luke. 238 00:14:06,055 --> 00:14:09,684 You know, you said yourself that no one had been to see her, 239 00:14:09,684 --> 00:14:13,563 not the family, no friends. 240 00:14:13,563 --> 00:14:16,357 I couldn't bear the thought of her going through 241 00:14:16,357 --> 00:14:18,776 what she was going through by herself. 242 00:14:20,028 --> 00:14:21,154 Was she awake? 243 00:14:22,238 --> 00:14:23,615 No, she was sleeping. 244 00:14:24,532 --> 00:14:27,076 I just sat with her, 245 00:14:27,076 --> 00:14:28,911 - I prayed. - Mm. 246 00:14:28,911 --> 00:14:31,456 And then I left. 247 00:14:31,456 --> 00:14:34,500 I heard from the hospital, she's coming out of it. 248 00:14:35,835 --> 00:14:37,295 I wonder... 249 00:14:38,880 --> 00:14:40,798 if Luke went by to see her. 250 00:14:40,798 --> 00:14:43,092 I hope he did. I mean, she... 251 00:14:43,092 --> 00:14:45,428 she really needs someone now. 252 00:14:45,428 --> 00:14:48,097 I understand. I'm just... 253 00:14:50,058 --> 00:14:53,853 not sure it's wise for either of us to get involved here. 254 00:14:53,853 --> 00:14:57,565 All right, John. But I sense that she's really in need. 255 00:14:57,565 --> 00:15:01,110 I know. And your heart is in the right place. It always is, 256 00:15:01,110 --> 00:15:02,737 but with Luke... 257 00:15:07,492 --> 00:15:11,079 I just worry you could do more harm than good. 258 00:15:19,837 --> 00:15:21,172 Whoo. 259 00:15:22,006 --> 00:15:23,633 Game point, coach. 260 00:15:25,009 --> 00:15:25,927 Ball. 261 00:15:34,060 --> 00:15:35,978 Oh, whoa. 262 00:15:35,978 --> 00:15:39,273 Get in, game! - Ah, you really pushed, bro. 263 00:15:39,273 --> 00:15:40,942 Maybe I really wanted you to talk. 264 00:15:42,527 --> 00:15:44,320 Why? Huh? 265 00:15:44,320 --> 00:15:46,447 I mean, I don't even know how to start, buddy. 266 00:15:46,447 --> 00:15:49,242 Start wherever you want, man. Come on, you can tell me anything. 267 00:15:51,160 --> 00:15:52,245 Is it about Lori? 268 00:15:53,621 --> 00:15:56,332 - You haven't heard? - Heard what? 269 00:15:56,332 --> 00:15:58,918 Lori's in the ICU, man. 270 00:15:58,918 --> 00:16:01,295 She got an infection because she had an abortion. 271 00:16:03,005 --> 00:16:05,633 Luke, I'm... I'm sorry. 272 00:16:05,633 --> 00:16:07,802 Yeah. It gets a lot worse, man. It's not even my kid. 273 00:16:09,178 --> 00:16:10,304 She's been cheating on me. 274 00:16:11,264 --> 00:16:13,808 So? 275 00:16:13,808 --> 00:16:16,102 - She's there alone right now. - Did you not just hear me, Ryan? She's been cheating-- 276 00:16:16,102 --> 00:16:17,603 Yeah, all right. I know. I heard you. 277 00:16:19,689 --> 00:16:21,983 And that sucks. But you're in a relationship, man. 278 00:16:21,983 --> 00:16:24,694 She's been your world these past few months. 279 00:16:24,694 --> 00:16:26,487 Abandoning her right now? 280 00:16:27,488 --> 00:16:28,740 In this state? 281 00:16:29,407 --> 00:16:31,492 Hey. 282 00:16:31,492 --> 00:16:33,077 - That's not who you are. - Well, you have no idea who I am anymore. 283 00:16:34,746 --> 00:16:35,913 Maybe not. 284 00:16:37,999 --> 00:16:42,128 But I know you're angry. I can see it. I can feel it. 285 00:16:42,128 --> 00:16:45,006 Maybe you're mad at Lori, maybe you're mad at a lot more. 286 00:16:47,508 --> 00:16:49,802 You've been through so much these past few months, man. 287 00:16:49,802 --> 00:16:51,971 It's okay to be a little bit angry about what happened to Reagan's-- 288 00:16:51,971 --> 00:16:53,431 Look, I don't wanna hear about Reagan. 289 00:16:53,431 --> 00:16:55,808 Why? Why, Ryan, huh? 290 00:16:55,808 --> 00:16:57,310 Why? There's nothing you can say or do 291 00:16:57,310 --> 00:16:58,352 that's gonna change that, okay? 292 00:16:58,352 --> 00:17:00,271 And do not, please, 293 00:17:00,271 --> 00:17:01,355 do not say that they're with God right now, Ryan, I... 294 00:17:02,732 --> 00:17:03,816 You know, man, just go. 295 00:17:03,816 --> 00:17:04,734 Honestly, just go. 296 00:17:09,155 --> 00:17:10,323 Never forget I'm here for you, man. 297 00:17:56,702 --> 00:17:57,870 There you are. 298 00:17:59,705 --> 00:18:01,499 What're you doing? 299 00:18:01,499 --> 00:18:03,417 Just finding some pieces of Dad's that I wanna keep. 300 00:18:03,417 --> 00:18:05,169 Oh, I think that's a nice idea. 301 00:18:08,214 --> 00:18:10,174 Oh, maybe you can pick a few special things 302 00:18:10,174 --> 00:18:11,425 for Tommy to have when he's older. 303 00:18:11,425 --> 00:18:12,343 Hmm. Yeah. 304 00:18:14,637 --> 00:18:15,638 That's cute. 305 00:18:17,098 --> 00:18:18,432 Want some help? 306 00:18:18,432 --> 00:18:19,475 Yeah, I'd love that. 307 00:18:19,475 --> 00:18:20,393 Okay. 308 00:18:21,352 --> 00:18:22,812 - Mm. - Thank you, Mom. 309 00:18:24,188 --> 00:18:25,022 Of course. 310 00:18:25,022 --> 00:18:25,940 No. 311 00:18:27,108 --> 00:18:28,985 For everything. 312 00:18:28,985 --> 00:18:30,653 I could have never gotten through any of this 313 00:18:30,653 --> 00:18:32,154 without you. 314 00:18:32,154 --> 00:18:34,282 No. You're stronger than you realize. 315 00:18:36,075 --> 00:18:37,743 You're gonna move beyond this. 316 00:18:37,743 --> 00:18:38,828 Come here. 317 00:18:41,956 --> 00:18:43,916 Where are we going? 318 00:18:43,916 --> 00:18:44,834 Oh, you'll see. 319 00:18:45,668 --> 00:18:46,502 Okay. 320 00:18:47,169 --> 00:18:48,796 Oh, man. Okay. 321 00:18:48,796 --> 00:18:49,839 I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff or something. 322 00:18:51,173 --> 00:18:53,968 Because we are... 323 00:18:57,555 --> 00:18:59,348 I could not wait to show it to you. 324 00:19:00,766 --> 00:19:01,601 Wow. 325 00:19:05,062 --> 00:19:07,064 Ash. 326 00:19:07,064 --> 00:19:10,026 I'm sorry I was so distant before you came here. 327 00:19:10,985 --> 00:19:12,194 It's because of Reagan. 328 00:19:12,194 --> 00:19:13,779 I wanted to protect her privacy 329 00:19:13,779 --> 00:19:15,781 and I couldn't imagine lying to you. 330 00:19:19,035 --> 00:19:22,121 So, it was easier to ignore me? 331 00:19:22,997 --> 00:19:24,582 - Ash. - Mm? 332 00:19:24,582 --> 00:19:26,208 The last thing I wanna do is hurt you or Cole. 333 00:19:28,377 --> 00:19:29,837 That might be out of your control. 334 00:19:30,713 --> 00:19:32,131 Cole... 335 00:19:32,131 --> 00:19:33,716 He's been asking about you. 336 00:19:35,092 --> 00:19:36,844 How long you'll be here, 337 00:19:37,929 --> 00:19:38,971 when you're coming back. 338 00:19:42,600 --> 00:19:43,935 I haven't known what to say. 339 00:19:44,644 --> 00:19:45,478 It's hard. 340 00:19:46,729 --> 00:19:48,648 But I really like what I'm doing here, 341 00:19:48,648 --> 00:19:49,982 and there's so much need. 342 00:19:55,571 --> 00:19:57,281 I'm happy for you. 343 00:19:57,281 --> 00:19:58,699 Doesn't sound like you meant that. 344 00:19:59,241 --> 00:20:00,076 Hmm. 345 00:20:01,577 --> 00:20:02,411 Ash? 346 00:20:08,584 --> 00:20:09,460 Talk to me. 347 00:20:12,421 --> 00:20:13,255 It's just... 348 00:20:15,925 --> 00:20:18,636 I don't know what we're doing. 349 00:20:18,636 --> 00:20:21,472 You know, sometimes I feel we're building toward 350 00:20:22,390 --> 00:20:23,933 really being together. 351 00:20:25,476 --> 00:20:26,394 Other times... 352 00:20:28,145 --> 00:20:29,063 I don't know. 353 00:20:29,063 --> 00:20:30,982 Yeah, I know. 354 00:20:30,982 --> 00:20:33,150 I never know if I should be calling you or not. 355 00:20:33,150 --> 00:20:34,151 It's confusing. 356 00:20:38,280 --> 00:20:39,782 That's the thing, Landon. 357 00:20:41,450 --> 00:20:42,284 It's not... 358 00:20:42,994 --> 00:20:44,203 confusing to me. 359 00:20:45,913 --> 00:20:48,833 I'm finally realizing... 360 00:20:48,833 --> 00:20:50,418 I can't be your friend. 361 00:20:52,086 --> 00:20:55,172 I can't talk to you every now and then. 362 00:20:56,632 --> 00:20:58,634 I miss you too much. 363 00:21:01,971 --> 00:21:05,057 But I'm here for now and you're back home. 364 00:21:05,057 --> 00:21:06,976 Yeah, I know. But... 365 00:21:09,395 --> 00:21:10,855 I think we can make it work. 366 00:21:13,399 --> 00:21:15,026 - Landon. - Hmm? 367 00:21:15,026 --> 00:21:17,278 I want you in my life. 368 00:21:17,278 --> 00:21:19,071 I want you in Cole's life. 369 00:21:19,071 --> 00:21:20,698 Then we should try being together. 370 00:21:20,698 --> 00:21:21,615 Long distance. 371 00:21:22,450 --> 00:21:24,118 Yeah? 372 00:21:24,118 --> 00:21:26,787 As together as we can be when we're apart? 373 00:21:30,207 --> 00:21:31,125 What do you think? 374 00:21:39,592 --> 00:21:41,010 Good answer. 375 00:22:05,076 --> 00:22:05,951 You came back. 376 00:22:08,704 --> 00:22:09,538 Yeah. 377 00:22:11,332 --> 00:22:12,166 To say I'm sorry. 378 00:22:13,709 --> 00:22:15,503 No, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. 379 00:22:17,505 --> 00:22:19,507 Look, I, uh... 380 00:22:19,507 --> 00:22:21,842 I know thigs have been tough between us. 381 00:22:25,096 --> 00:22:28,307 I really care about you, Lori. 382 00:22:28,307 --> 00:22:31,602 You've been the only thing getting me through these past few months. 383 00:22:31,602 --> 00:22:33,771 And I just, uh... 384 00:22:33,771 --> 00:22:35,272 Do you think there's any way we can make it work together? 385 00:22:36,816 --> 00:22:39,401 I don't know, I just feel really lost right now. 386 00:22:39,401 --> 00:22:41,278 I know. Me too. 387 00:22:41,278 --> 00:22:43,489 Just give me some time to think about things, okay? 388 00:22:47,576 --> 00:22:48,994 Thanks for coming back. 389 00:22:48,994 --> 00:22:50,079 I never should have left. 390 00:22:59,588 --> 00:23:01,882 Next time on The Baxters... 391 00:23:01,882 --> 00:23:02,800 Hi. 392 00:23:03,551 --> 00:23:05,052 Lori. 393 00:23:05,052 --> 00:23:06,428 Did you come and see me the other day? 394 00:23:06,428 --> 00:23:08,264 Could we maybe talk? 395 00:23:08,264 --> 00:23:10,057 I have to keep this from Luke, and Luke from them, 396 00:23:10,057 --> 00:23:11,308 and Reagan from everyone. 397 00:23:11,308 --> 00:23:14,061 Mr. Baxter! Hi. 398 00:23:14,937 --> 00:23:17,148 Hi. 399 00:23:17,148 --> 00:23:20,401 We're ideally looking for a date nine, maybe ten months from today. 400 00:23:20,401 --> 00:23:22,528 Looks like our next available date 401 00:23:22,528 --> 00:23:23,946 is one month from today. 402 00:23:23,946 --> 00:23:26,407 Maybe getting it together faster 403 00:23:26,407 --> 00:23:28,325 will help us focus on what really matters most. 404 00:23:28,325 --> 00:23:30,870 I feel like I can celebrate Tim's life 405 00:23:30,870 --> 00:23:32,997 by celebrating Jessie. 406 00:23:32,997 --> 00:23:36,125 Would anyone else help you to feel more connected to Tim? 407 00:23:36,125 --> 00:23:37,042 No.