1 00:00:07,134 --> 00:00:08,385 Previously on The Baxters... 2 00:00:08,385 --> 00:00:10,220 We need to talk about Kari's wedding dress. 3 00:00:13,015 --> 00:00:13,849 What if he shuts us both out? 4 00:00:14,224 --> 00:00:15,893 I'm terrified, Mom. 5 00:00:19,855 --> 00:00:20,689 Would you be comfortable giving me Ashley's number? 6 00:00:21,315 --> 00:00:22,441 I'm always gonna be here to make you feel better. 7 00:00:22,441 --> 00:00:24,151 Excuse me. 8 00:00:25,903 --> 00:00:27,070 Imagine how hard it is for her to hear that she's being replaced. 9 00:00:28,614 --> 00:00:29,573 Kari, are you having second thoughts about the wedding? 10 00:00:31,200 --> 00:00:34,745 Miss Baxter? Yeah, sickness taking Adrian's life is SIDA 11 00:00:34,745 --> 00:00:36,747 or as you in America call... 12 00:00:37,915 --> 00:00:38,749 AIDS. 13 00:00:43,754 --> 00:00:47,007 ♪ 'Cause life has a way Of pulling us under ♪ 14 00:00:47,007 --> 00:00:49,009 ♪ But we'll stick it out ♪ 15 00:00:49,968 --> 00:00:52,638 {\an8}♪ If we got each other ♪ 16 00:00:52,638 --> 00:00:55,808 {\an8}♪ When it all feels too much ♪ 17 00:00:55,808 --> 00:00:59,853 {\an8}♪ I know you'll come running For me ♪ 18 00:00:59,853 --> 00:01:04,149 {\an8}♪ Through the highs and lows We'll find our way home ♪ 19 00:01:04,149 --> 00:01:05,484 {\an8}♪ Family ♪ 20 00:01:07,778 --> 00:01:09,905 {\an8}♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 21 00:01:09,905 --> 00:01:11,031 ♪ Family ♪ 22 00:01:22,084 --> 00:01:23,669 {\an8}Okay. 23 00:01:23,669 --> 00:01:25,420 {\an8}I feel like I'm forgetting something. 24 00:01:25,420 --> 00:01:29,007 {\an8}Ash, you've double... Triple checked. 25 00:01:29,007 --> 00:01:30,801 {\an8}- You're not... - Cole's already with mom 26 00:01:31,885 --> 00:01:34,221 {\an8}Portfolio's been shipped. 27 00:01:34,221 --> 00:01:36,348 {\an8}Keys and car's almost here. 28 00:01:37,182 --> 00:01:39,017 {\an8}Hey, Ash. 29 00:01:39,017 --> 00:01:40,185 {\an8}I'm really proud of you. 30 00:01:42,104 --> 00:01:43,605 {\an8}Thanks. 31 00:01:43,605 --> 00:01:45,065 {\an8}Keep me posted from LA, okay? 32 00:01:45,649 --> 00:01:47,025 {\an8}Okay. Bye. 33 00:01:47,025 --> 00:01:48,026 {\an8}Bye. 34 00:01:52,656 --> 00:01:54,199 Hey. What are you doing here? 35 00:01:54,199 --> 00:01:57,369 Hey, Ash. Can we talk for a few minutes? 36 00:01:57,369 --> 00:01:59,746 {\an8}Yeah, but can't it wait? I'm on my way to the airport. 37 00:01:59,746 --> 00:02:01,790 {\an8}No, no, it really can't. This is important. 38 00:02:05,002 --> 00:02:06,712 What? 39 00:02:06,712 --> 00:02:08,922 I overheard your phone call at Mom and Dad's. 40 00:02:08,922 --> 00:02:11,133 Ashley, I know about Adrian. 41 00:02:14,928 --> 00:02:17,598 {\an8}Brooke, my ride's here, I have to go. 42 00:02:17,598 --> 00:02:20,225 Ashley, listen to me. This is serious. 43 00:02:20,225 --> 00:02:23,770 I really think that you should stay home and get tested as soon as possible. 44 00:02:23,770 --> 00:02:25,022 Yeah, I will, when I get back. 45 00:02:25,022 --> 00:02:26,690 Ashley, if you test positive, 46 00:02:26,690 --> 00:02:28,650 you need to start treatment immediately. 47 00:02:28,650 --> 00:02:30,068 I said I don't have time for this. 48 00:02:30,068 --> 00:02:31,862 I am literally on my way to the airport. 49 00:02:32,696 --> 00:02:35,574 Ashley, I love you, 50 00:02:35,574 --> 00:02:37,075 and I... 51 00:02:38,619 --> 00:02:39,453 I don't know what I would do if something happened to you. 52 00:02:40,621 --> 00:02:42,623 Adrian didn't have it when we were together. 53 00:02:42,623 --> 00:02:44,625 How can you be sure? 54 00:02:44,625 --> 00:02:46,752 I know that I don't need to tell you this, 55 00:02:46,752 --> 00:02:48,837 but if you contracted the virus, 56 00:02:48,837 --> 00:02:51,131 then Cole could have it too. 57 00:02:51,131 --> 00:02:53,467 Cole is perfectly healthy. He's fine. 58 00:02:53,467 --> 00:02:55,469 I think it's important that we rule it out. 59 00:02:55,469 --> 00:02:57,346 I have to go to the gallery opening, okay. 60 00:02:57,346 --> 00:02:58,972 My future depends on it. 61 00:03:09,983 --> 00:03:11,818 {\an8}When's your future fiancee getting here? 62 00:03:13,195 --> 00:03:14,071 {\an8}Yo! 63 00:03:14,613 --> 00:03:15,530 {\an8}Landon. 64 00:03:15,530 --> 00:03:16,448 {\an8}What? 65 00:03:16,448 --> 00:03:17,366 {\an8}When does Ashley get in here? 66 00:03:17,366 --> 00:03:18,367 {\an8}She got in late last night. 67 00:03:18,867 --> 00:03:20,661 {\an8}Ah! 68 00:03:20,661 --> 00:03:22,746 {\an8}That's why you're tired. 69 00:03:22,746 --> 00:03:24,831 {\an8}No, I haven't seen her yet. 70 00:03:24,831 --> 00:03:25,958 {\an8}Her big show's tonight. 71 00:03:25,958 --> 00:03:27,459 {\an8}So I'm meeting her at the gallery. 72 00:03:27,459 --> 00:03:30,879 {\an8}And I need to leave here by, like, 4:30 maybe 4:00. 73 00:03:30,879 --> 00:03:32,589 I gotta go home, take a shower, 74 00:03:32,589 --> 00:03:34,508 change, get all the supplies. 75 00:03:34,508 --> 00:03:36,093 - And then I gotta-- - Deep breaths, buddy. 76 00:03:37,594 --> 00:03:38,679 {\an8}It's gonna be amazing. 77 00:03:39,680 --> 00:03:41,223 {\an8}Yeah. 78 00:03:41,223 --> 00:03:43,016 {\an8}You think you can cover for me tonight while I'm gone? 79 00:03:43,016 --> 00:03:44,434 {\an8}It'd be my honor. 80 00:03:44,434 --> 00:03:46,561 {\an8}- Thanks, bro. - No problem, dude. 81 00:03:46,561 --> 00:03:48,772 {\an8}Oh, help me finish this truck, though. 82 00:03:50,857 --> 00:03:52,484 So, how was everybody's day? 83 00:03:53,485 --> 00:03:54,778 It was... It was pretty good. 84 00:03:54,778 --> 00:03:57,072 - Yeah? - Yeah, mine was good, too. 85 00:03:57,072 --> 00:03:58,740 We had that quiz again. 86 00:03:58,740 --> 00:04:00,659 I don't know if it went the best. 87 00:04:00,659 --> 00:04:01,910 Yeah. - Believe in yourself. 88 00:04:03,286 --> 00:04:04,246 Should we begin? 89 00:04:04,246 --> 00:04:05,205 Yes. 90 00:04:07,374 --> 00:04:09,334 Okay, so today we're gonna talk about... 91 00:04:10,335 --> 00:04:11,586 ♪ Can you help me out? ♪ 92 00:04:13,005 --> 00:04:14,297 ♪ Can you help me out? ♪ 93 00:04:18,260 --> 00:04:21,096 Almost ready with the next one. Okay. 94 00:04:21,972 --> 00:04:23,390 Say a little prayer. 95 00:04:23,390 --> 00:04:24,891 Mom, the wedding is so soon. 96 00:04:24,891 --> 00:04:26,143 If we don't pick a dress today, 97 00:04:27,436 --> 00:04:28,270 Kari's gonna be walking down the aisle in jeans. 98 00:04:30,647 --> 00:04:32,190 - Oh. - Oh, wow. 99 00:04:32,190 --> 00:04:33,692 That's so pretty. 100 00:04:33,692 --> 00:04:35,277 You look beautiful, Kari. 101 00:04:35,277 --> 00:04:36,319 Yeah? Yeah. 102 00:04:36,319 --> 00:04:38,113 It's beautiful. 103 00:04:38,113 --> 00:04:40,365 - Honey, it's gorgeous. - You look so pretty. 104 00:04:40,365 --> 00:04:41,825 Oh, and I love the cut. 105 00:04:42,993 --> 00:04:44,161 So pretty. 106 00:04:44,161 --> 00:04:45,912 Oh, no. 107 00:04:45,912 --> 00:04:49,541 Wait, wait. We can't decide without the finishing touch. 108 00:04:49,541 --> 00:04:51,835 - Oh, wow. - That's really special. 109 00:04:51,835 --> 00:04:52,753 Gorgeous. 110 00:04:53,628 --> 00:04:55,047 It's pretty. 111 00:04:55,047 --> 00:04:56,381 I feel a "but" coming. 112 00:04:56,965 --> 00:04:58,425 But... 113 00:04:58,425 --> 00:05:01,219 It's just not the one. 114 00:05:01,219 --> 00:05:02,679 Plenty more to see. 115 00:05:02,679 --> 00:05:04,306 Let me go pull some from the racks. 116 00:05:05,432 --> 00:05:07,100 I should go home. 117 00:05:07,100 --> 00:05:09,436 I left Jessie with Diane hours ago. 118 00:05:09,853 --> 00:05:10,937 I'm sorry. 119 00:05:10,937 --> 00:05:12,439 Oh, honey. Don't worry. 120 00:05:13,023 --> 00:05:14,608 Ryan adores you. 121 00:05:14,608 --> 00:05:16,526 And he wouldn't care if you walk down the aisle 122 00:05:16,526 --> 00:05:17,986 wearing one of the pretty dresses 123 00:05:17,986 --> 00:05:19,780 - that are already in your closet. - Mm-hm. 124 00:05:21,531 --> 00:05:23,784 He asked me the other day if I'm having second thoughts. 125 00:05:25,285 --> 00:05:26,995 I didn't know how to answer him. 126 00:05:28,038 --> 00:05:29,247 Are you? 127 00:05:29,247 --> 00:05:31,333 Preparing for this wedding with Diane here 128 00:05:31,333 --> 00:05:33,210 has been really hard. 129 00:05:33,210 --> 00:05:37,589 I feel like I can't let myself picture the day, 130 00:05:38,048 --> 00:05:40,008 which is why 131 00:05:40,008 --> 00:05:42,219 I can't picture the dress. 132 00:05:42,219 --> 00:05:45,639 Well, why don't you try to picture it right now? 133 00:05:46,807 --> 00:05:48,809 Just close your eyes. 134 00:05:48,809 --> 00:05:50,268 Come on, Kari, it'll be fun. 135 00:05:52,646 --> 00:05:56,233 Imagine this is the morning of your wedding 136 00:05:56,233 --> 00:05:59,653 and you're about to walk through the church doors, 137 00:05:59,653 --> 00:06:02,906 catch a glimpse of yourself in a mirror. 138 00:06:02,906 --> 00:06:04,574 What does your dress look like? 139 00:06:06,535 --> 00:06:07,994 Okay, um... 140 00:06:08,870 --> 00:06:10,455 It has long sleeves. 141 00:06:11,957 --> 00:06:13,416 They're a delicate lace, 142 00:06:14,084 --> 00:06:14,960 and... 143 00:06:16,419 --> 00:06:18,088 the bodice is simple. 144 00:06:18,713 --> 00:06:19,714 Just white 145 00:06:20,757 --> 00:06:21,800 and... 146 00:06:22,551 --> 00:06:25,220 it has a full skirt, 147 00:06:25,220 --> 00:06:28,014 but not too full, you know. 148 00:06:32,185 --> 00:06:36,815 Honestly, it's a dress you don't see in stores these days. 149 00:06:36,815 --> 00:06:40,902 Something with a history as amazing as Ryan and mine. 150 00:06:42,779 --> 00:06:47,200 I have one last idea up my sleeve. 151 00:06:48,076 --> 00:06:48,952 Really? 152 00:06:58,420 --> 00:06:59,754 ...in a while, so, I think I've forgotten a bit of it. 153 00:06:59,754 --> 00:07:01,464 Peter's Story is one of my favorites. 154 00:07:03,216 --> 00:07:05,385 It's the one I go to whenever I feel myself questioning my faith. 155 00:07:05,385 --> 00:07:08,096 Peter was considered one of Jesus' most devoted followers. 156 00:07:08,096 --> 00:07:11,516 But then I know that he denied him three times. 157 00:07:11,516 --> 00:07:14,936 Jesus took a man who blatantly denied him in one moment, 158 00:07:14,936 --> 00:07:18,064 and the next establishes him as the rock of his church. 159 00:07:18,064 --> 00:07:20,775 That's the God of new beginnings. 160 00:07:20,775 --> 00:07:22,861 How did Jesus even trust Peter? 161 00:07:22,861 --> 00:07:26,198 It just doesn't make sense when so many others were loyal. 162 00:07:26,198 --> 00:07:29,743 Feels like Peter was just let back in without consequences. 163 00:07:29,743 --> 00:07:31,161 Yeah, totally. 164 00:07:32,412 --> 00:07:33,872 I don't know. 165 00:07:33,872 --> 00:07:36,124 Proverbs 17:9, says, 166 00:07:36,124 --> 00:07:39,628 "Love prospers when a fault is forgiven." 167 00:07:39,628 --> 00:07:42,297 So Peter found his way back. 168 00:07:42,297 --> 00:07:45,926 I like to think he was never fully gone. 169 00:07:45,926 --> 00:07:49,221 Peter could have gone far away from Jesus, but he cared too much for that. 170 00:07:49,221 --> 00:07:50,805 He stayed among his community, 171 00:07:50,805 --> 00:07:54,100 even through his anger and confusion. 172 00:07:54,100 --> 00:07:58,230 Maybe he knew that he needed them to find his way back to his faith. 173 00:07:58,230 --> 00:07:59,606 God knows we have doubts. 174 00:07:59,606 --> 00:08:03,777 Like Peter. Jesus gave room for Peter's doubt. 175 00:08:05,862 --> 00:08:06,947 And Peter came home. 176 00:08:12,244 --> 00:08:13,245 Hello? 177 00:09:12,846 --> 00:09:13,847 Landon. 178 00:09:15,557 --> 00:09:16,725 What are you... 179 00:09:17,350 --> 00:09:19,728 Ashley Baxter, 180 00:09:19,728 --> 00:09:21,938 I fell for you on the zoo trip 181 00:09:21,938 --> 00:09:23,982 in Mr. Garrett's fifth grade class. 182 00:09:23,982 --> 00:09:26,443 And every single day since, 183 00:09:26,443 --> 00:09:27,527 I've loved you more. 184 00:09:29,195 --> 00:09:30,613 My heart belongs to you. 185 00:09:32,449 --> 00:09:33,825 For a very long time, I've... 186 00:09:35,201 --> 00:09:36,953 I've wanted to ask you one question. 187 00:09:41,958 --> 00:09:43,084 Ashley, 188 00:09:44,336 --> 00:09:45,795 will you marry me? 189 00:09:49,215 --> 00:09:50,342 I, uh... 190 00:09:50,967 --> 00:09:51,885 Ash... 191 00:09:54,095 --> 00:09:55,555 it's a yes or no question. 192 00:09:59,809 --> 00:10:01,227 No. 193 00:10:04,356 --> 00:10:05,190 No? 194 00:10:06,900 --> 00:10:09,194 Hello? Can I come in? 195 00:10:09,194 --> 00:10:11,029 Yeah, that's fine. 196 00:10:12,906 --> 00:10:14,866 Did you finish whatever your surprise was for our star on her big night? 197 00:10:14,866 --> 00:10:17,452 Yeah, we're done here. Thanks for letting me in early. 198 00:10:17,452 --> 00:10:18,912 Sure, hope it was a hit. 199 00:10:19,954 --> 00:10:22,499 Oh, why the long face? 200 00:10:22,499 --> 00:10:25,752 Tonight is the night that's gonna change your life forever. 201 00:10:25,752 --> 00:10:27,170 I need to see a smile. 202 00:10:28,546 --> 00:10:29,839 Okay. We'll work on that. 203 00:10:29,839 --> 00:10:31,216 I need to steal you for a sec. 204 00:10:32,634 --> 00:10:33,468 I just... I can't figure out where to put our programs 205 00:10:34,302 --> 00:10:35,136 with your gorgeous face on them. 206 00:10:35,470 --> 00:10:36,429 Yeah, sure. 207 00:10:36,429 --> 00:10:37,472 Yeah? Okay. 208 00:11:39,325 --> 00:11:40,410 Hi, Luke. 209 00:11:44,205 --> 00:11:47,709 This has been in my family for generations. 210 00:11:47,709 --> 00:11:50,378 Oh, Mom. Grandma's dress. 211 00:11:50,378 --> 00:11:51,921 Mm-hm. Yes. 212 00:11:52,964 --> 00:11:54,215 I wore it. 213 00:11:54,215 --> 00:11:58,470 And now maybe you'll continue the tradition. 214 00:11:58,470 --> 00:12:01,055 I've only ever seen it in pictures. It's... 215 00:12:01,055 --> 00:12:02,557 It's in perfect shape. 216 00:12:02,557 --> 00:12:04,225 - It's beautiful, right? - Yeah. 217 00:12:04,225 --> 00:12:06,019 Lace sleeves, 218 00:12:06,019 --> 00:12:07,854 simple bodice, 219 00:12:07,854 --> 00:12:12,984 full, but not obnoxiously full skirt. 220 00:12:12,984 --> 00:12:15,820 I guess we've had similar visions. 221 00:12:17,405 --> 00:12:18,781 You want to try it on? 222 00:12:20,033 --> 00:12:22,785 I love it. But if it doesn't fit, 223 00:12:22,785 --> 00:12:24,579 we don't have time to get it altered. 224 00:12:25,830 --> 00:12:28,416 I just have a feeling about it, you know? 225 00:12:28,416 --> 00:12:30,043 Take it home. Right? 226 00:12:30,043 --> 00:12:32,962 When you're in the right heart space, you can try it on. 227 00:12:44,516 --> 00:12:45,683 Everything okay? 228 00:12:46,226 --> 00:12:47,685 Yeah. 229 00:12:47,685 --> 00:12:51,105 Um, Diane wants to talk to me and Ryan about something. 230 00:12:51,105 --> 00:12:53,816 Okay. Well, maybe it's a good thing. 231 00:12:53,816 --> 00:12:54,943 I don't know. 232 00:12:56,110 --> 00:12:57,237 She's been pretty quiet since we were here 233 00:12:57,237 --> 00:12:59,197 the other day for Maddie's party. 234 00:12:59,197 --> 00:13:02,200 She's a lovely, intelligent woman, Kari. 235 00:13:02,200 --> 00:13:04,827 And she loves and cares about you very much. 236 00:13:07,288 --> 00:13:09,290 A lot has happened since you left. 237 00:13:09,290 --> 00:13:11,125 Yeah, for me, too. 238 00:13:11,125 --> 00:13:14,295 I mean, we obviously have so much to talk about. 239 00:13:14,295 --> 00:13:15,964 But after my dad died, I freaked out. 240 00:13:15,964 --> 00:13:17,382 I couldn't face it. 241 00:13:18,258 --> 00:13:19,384 Any of it. 242 00:13:20,218 --> 00:13:22,136 Then nine months later, 243 00:13:22,136 --> 00:13:23,805 this little miracle came into my life. 244 00:13:27,892 --> 00:13:29,227 - Is he-- - Yours? 245 00:13:30,311 --> 00:13:31,229 Yes. 246 00:13:32,272 --> 00:13:33,648 His name is Thomas Luke. 247 00:13:36,776 --> 00:13:37,819 After my dad and... 248 00:13:38,319 --> 00:13:39,237 his dad. 249 00:13:40,738 --> 00:13:41,948 I call him Tommy. 250 00:13:44,117 --> 00:13:45,451 Tommy. 251 00:13:46,327 --> 00:13:47,370 Hey, Tommy. 252 00:13:56,004 --> 00:13:57,422 ♪ My feet are frozen ♪ 253 00:13:57,422 --> 00:14:00,258 ♪ Wanna run but I can't move ♪ 254 00:14:02,176 --> 00:14:04,137 ♪ Cannot disappear ♪ 255 00:14:05,346 --> 00:14:07,473 ♪ I know I have to choose ♪ 256 00:14:09,642 --> 00:14:12,687 ♪ Where is the me I imagined ♪ 257 00:14:12,687 --> 00:14:14,981 ♪ Feel my dreams Slipping away ♪ 258 00:14:16,566 --> 00:14:19,944 ♪ So I close my eyes ♪ 259 00:14:20,945 --> 00:14:24,240 ♪ And try not to fade away ♪ 260 00:14:24,240 --> 00:14:29,245 ♪ If I could rewind time Would I regret it? ♪ 261 00:14:31,748 --> 00:14:36,753 ♪ Is it worth all the time For me to forget it? ♪ 262 00:14:47,263 --> 00:14:51,017 You're okay. You're okay. You're okay. 263 00:14:52,769 --> 00:14:54,562 Oh, there you are. 264 00:14:54,562 --> 00:14:56,648 I have been looking everywhere for you. 265 00:14:56,648 --> 00:14:58,274 A buyer is asking to meet you. 266 00:15:00,318 --> 00:15:01,944 Well, Ashley, they won't wait around forever. 267 00:15:01,944 --> 00:15:03,154 This is your moment. 268 00:15:03,154 --> 00:15:04,405 Come. Come. Come. 269 00:15:16,000 --> 00:15:16,834 It's perfect. 270 00:15:17,794 --> 00:15:18,711 Hi. 271 00:15:18,711 --> 00:15:20,046 - Hi. - Hi. 272 00:15:21,422 --> 00:15:23,091 You're already here? Sorry, I was gone for so long. 273 00:15:23,091 --> 00:15:24,634 Oh, honey, no problem. 274 00:15:24,634 --> 00:15:26,886 Jessie and I had a fabulous time. 275 00:15:26,886 --> 00:15:30,264 We even danced to a little Miles Davis in the living room. 276 00:15:30,264 --> 00:15:31,724 Oh, I love that. 277 00:15:32,350 --> 00:15:34,394 Um, thank you both 278 00:15:34,394 --> 00:15:36,979 for making the time this evening, um... 279 00:15:36,979 --> 00:15:39,649 There's a few things I need to say to the two of you. 280 00:15:40,566 --> 00:15:41,567 Come, sit. 281 00:15:50,326 --> 00:15:53,204 I think you both know that I wish Tim was here. 282 00:15:55,039 --> 00:15:58,334 I wish I could see my sweet granddaughter 283 00:15:58,334 --> 00:15:59,836 in my own baby's arms. 284 00:16:00,837 --> 00:16:04,298 And yes, it has been really hard 285 00:16:04,298 --> 00:16:07,593 to be among all this talk about your wedding 286 00:16:08,428 --> 00:16:09,554 and your future. 287 00:16:10,304 --> 00:16:12,265 But... 288 00:16:12,265 --> 00:16:14,392 I don't wish away what you two have now. 289 00:16:15,143 --> 00:16:17,019 Ryan... 290 00:16:17,019 --> 00:16:19,814 I walked away from you at Maddie's welcome home party 291 00:16:19,814 --> 00:16:21,899 because my heart was torn. 292 00:16:24,193 --> 00:16:26,487 I can understand that. 293 00:16:26,487 --> 00:16:30,658 I saw what a loving and strong father figure you're gonna be for Jessie. 294 00:16:31,826 --> 00:16:34,370 And it made me realize it is time for me 295 00:16:34,370 --> 00:16:36,205 to start letting go of the idea 296 00:16:36,205 --> 00:16:39,375 that my granddaughter can only be raised by Tim. 297 00:16:42,545 --> 00:16:43,588 Thank you. 298 00:16:45,631 --> 00:16:46,924 And Kari, 299 00:16:48,176 --> 00:16:51,262 thank you for choosing such a loving partner. 300 00:16:51,262 --> 00:16:54,015 It's gonna be a beautiful home. 301 00:16:54,015 --> 00:16:58,853 Now, I'm not gonna lie and say that this isn't hard, 302 00:16:58,853 --> 00:17:00,521 but when it gets hard, I think of Tim. 303 00:17:00,521 --> 00:17:03,566 And I know Tim would want you and Jessie 304 00:17:03,566 --> 00:17:05,485 to be loved and cared for. 305 00:17:06,819 --> 00:17:09,822 And I know he would believe, like, I believe 306 00:17:09,822 --> 00:17:13,785 you are following a path that God has so clearly laid out for you. 307 00:17:15,328 --> 00:17:16,454 Thank you. 308 00:17:18,790 --> 00:17:21,626 I didn't know how much I needed to hear that. 309 00:17:22,794 --> 00:17:23,795 I know. 310 00:17:25,630 --> 00:17:28,841 Um, I bought this... 311 00:17:28,841 --> 00:17:31,552 when Tim called me to tell me that you were pregnant. 312 00:17:32,345 --> 00:17:33,971 And I want you to have it. 313 00:17:38,351 --> 00:17:40,353 Only keeping this if you promise 314 00:17:41,395 --> 00:17:42,814 to come back and read it to her. 315 00:17:43,606 --> 00:17:44,565 I promise. 316 00:17:46,526 --> 00:17:48,820 Okay. Um... 317 00:17:48,820 --> 00:17:51,239 I think it's time for me to go kiss my grandbaby 318 00:17:51,239 --> 00:17:52,949 one more time before I head out. 319 00:17:55,034 --> 00:17:55,952 Okay. 320 00:18:12,760 --> 00:18:13,678 Wow. 321 00:18:17,139 --> 00:18:18,641 I did not expect that. 322 00:18:19,475 --> 00:18:20,726 Me neither. 323 00:18:27,400 --> 00:18:28,526 Ryan... 324 00:18:30,903 --> 00:18:33,030 I am ready to marry you now. 325 00:18:34,740 --> 00:18:35,825 Yeah? 326 00:18:55,094 --> 00:18:55,928 Landon. 327 00:18:57,179 --> 00:18:58,055 Listen... 328 00:18:59,515 --> 00:19:02,560 You don't have to talk to me if you don't want to. 329 00:19:02,560 --> 00:19:05,396 But at least let me give you a ride back to your hotel. 330 00:19:07,773 --> 00:19:08,691 Please. 331 00:19:28,920 --> 00:19:30,504 Can you just tell me what I did wrong? 332 00:19:31,297 --> 00:19:33,090 It's nothing you did. 333 00:19:34,508 --> 00:19:36,052 You're amazing. 334 00:19:37,511 --> 00:19:39,305 You're the best guy I've ever met. 335 00:19:39,305 --> 00:19:41,223 - Then why-- - It's me. 336 00:19:42,433 --> 00:19:45,019 Something happened and it changed everything. 337 00:19:47,063 --> 00:19:49,357 Trust me, you don't want to marry me. 338 00:19:49,357 --> 00:19:50,942 Nothing could change the fact 339 00:19:50,942 --> 00:19:52,652 that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Ash. 340 00:19:52,652 --> 00:19:53,569 You don't get it. 341 00:19:53,569 --> 00:19:54,904 So help me understand. 342 00:19:54,904 --> 00:19:56,322 I'm damaged goods. 343 00:19:58,157 --> 00:20:00,201 You deserve someone better. 344 00:20:00,201 --> 00:20:01,827 Don't talk about yourself that way. 345 00:20:03,663 --> 00:20:04,789 You don't get it. 346 00:20:06,707 --> 00:20:07,625 Ash... 347 00:20:09,502 --> 00:20:11,837 whatever it is, we'll work it out. 348 00:20:16,258 --> 00:20:18,511 The man that I was with in Paris. 349 00:20:19,887 --> 00:20:21,681 I got a call from his lawyer. 350 00:20:24,600 --> 00:20:25,601 He's dying. 351 00:20:28,521 --> 00:20:30,481 I'm... I'm so sorry. 352 00:20:30,481 --> 00:20:32,274 Landon, he's dying of AIDS. 353 00:20:33,818 --> 00:20:35,736 Which means I could have been infected. 354 00:20:41,867 --> 00:20:42,785 Oh. 355 00:20:59,260 --> 00:21:01,095 Ash, hey. Ash, Ash. 356 00:21:14,025 --> 00:21:15,317 He has your cheeks. 357 00:21:16,152 --> 00:21:17,278 And your cute little nose. 358 00:21:18,362 --> 00:21:20,114 Oh, he totally has your eyes. 359 00:21:24,201 --> 00:21:25,036 Reagan... 360 00:21:26,704 --> 00:21:28,289 why did you keep this from me? 361 00:21:32,877 --> 00:21:34,336 I'm so, so sorry. 362 00:21:36,088 --> 00:21:37,590 I just didn't know how to tell you. 363 00:21:39,091 --> 00:21:43,387 And I just, I felt so guilty. And I feel so guilty. 364 00:21:43,387 --> 00:21:45,598 Pushed you away from your faith and your family. 365 00:21:45,598 --> 00:21:46,557 No... 366 00:21:47,933 --> 00:21:49,393 None of that was your fault. 367 00:21:51,062 --> 00:21:53,397 I mean, you left and then I was crushed. 368 00:21:54,815 --> 00:21:56,609 But I could have been more persistent. 369 00:21:58,944 --> 00:22:00,029 I gave up. 370 00:22:01,405 --> 00:22:02,531 We both did. 371 00:22:08,162 --> 00:22:10,164 I don't want to spend another day 372 00:22:10,164 --> 00:22:12,041 without you or Tommy in my life. 373 00:22:12,041 --> 00:22:14,210 Neither do I, Luke. 374 00:22:14,210 --> 00:22:15,836 But we can't just rush into this. 375 00:22:18,380 --> 00:22:20,174 Tell me what I can do. 376 00:22:20,174 --> 00:22:21,717 I just want to take this slow. 377 00:22:22,593 --> 00:22:23,636 Done. 378 00:22:23,636 --> 00:22:25,763 And another thing. 379 00:22:25,763 --> 00:22:27,473 I want you to work on things with your family. 380 00:22:29,517 --> 00:22:30,851 Luke, listen, 381 00:22:30,851 --> 00:22:32,186 in order to work on us, 382 00:22:33,145 --> 00:22:34,480 you have to work on yourself. 383 00:22:34,480 --> 00:22:36,107 And you're not alone. You have a family 384 00:22:36,107 --> 00:22:38,109 that loves you and fights for you. 385 00:22:40,361 --> 00:22:41,362 Yeah. 386 00:22:43,114 --> 00:22:45,825 Reagan. I'm just... I'm just scared. 387 00:22:47,827 --> 00:22:50,121 I mean, I've lived my entire life 388 00:22:50,121 --> 00:22:51,914 anchored to a belief that... 389 00:22:51,914 --> 00:22:54,583 That I knew with every fiber of my being 390 00:22:54,583 --> 00:22:56,127 I knew God. 391 00:22:56,127 --> 00:22:58,212 I knew the church. 392 00:22:58,212 --> 00:23:00,840 I had a Bible verse for every single situation 393 00:23:00,840 --> 00:23:01,966 until the shooting. 394 00:23:03,634 --> 00:23:05,302 And then I realized I don't know anything. 395 00:23:06,887 --> 00:23:08,430 I don't even know myself. 396 00:23:12,309 --> 00:23:13,727 And it's terrifying. 397 00:23:15,187 --> 00:23:16,689 I completely understand. 398 00:23:18,899 --> 00:23:20,401 But what good is running gonna do? 399 00:23:22,319 --> 00:23:25,322 My running from you didn't leave my grief 400 00:23:25,322 --> 00:23:26,323 or my guilt. 401 00:23:27,491 --> 00:23:29,368 You running from your God 402 00:23:29,368 --> 00:23:31,996 and your family isn't bringing you any comfort. 403 00:23:34,039 --> 00:23:35,666 You're allowed to wrestle, Luke. 404 00:23:37,334 --> 00:23:38,627 God wants that. 405 00:23:41,755 --> 00:23:42,840 Thank you. 406 00:23:47,094 --> 00:23:48,679 I've missed you so much. 407 00:24:07,364 --> 00:24:08,324 Ashley. 408 00:24:16,707 --> 00:24:17,666 Don't leave. 409 00:24:19,543 --> 00:24:20,836 Not without me. 410 00:24:37,645 --> 00:24:40,022 Next time on The Baxters... 411 00:24:43,192 --> 00:24:44,360 Hi. 412 00:24:44,360 --> 00:24:46,487 Sam, there's nothing more transformative 413 00:24:46,487 --> 00:24:48,405 than the love that you have for your child. 414 00:24:48,405 --> 00:24:49,865 I just got a text from our venue. 415 00:24:50,741 --> 00:24:52,660 A septic tank burst. 416 00:24:52,660 --> 00:24:54,787 Let's take it one step at a time, Ash. 417 00:24:54,787 --> 00:24:56,497 First, a test. 418 00:24:56,497 --> 00:24:57,748 Was that the doctor? 419 00:24:57,748 --> 00:24:58,916 What did she say? 420 00:25:00,292 --> 00:25:01,126 You don't have to do this, Reagan. 421 00:25:01,961 --> 00:25:02,795 I want to. No more secrets, okay? 422 00:25:04,088 --> 00:25:04,880 I would like to welcome you 423 00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:06,465 to the wedding ceremony 424 00:25:06,465 --> 00:25:09,927 of Kari Baxter and Ryan Taylor.