1 00:00:01,027 --> 00:00:03,671 - I hate when people use the word condolences. 2 00:00:03,672 --> 00:00:05,714 - I hate it when people tell me that I'm in their prayers. 3 00:00:05,715 --> 00:00:08,175 - In the beginning everyone wants to send you flowers 4 00:00:08,176 --> 00:00:10,719 and then they stop calling because they're over it 5 00:00:10,720 --> 00:00:12,680 and they expect you to be over it. 6 00:00:12,681 --> 00:00:14,139 - These last few months everything 7 00:00:14,140 --> 00:00:17,101 has been stressful, but I handled it. 8 00:00:17,102 --> 00:00:20,145 - It really screwed me up too when my husband died. 9 00:00:20,146 --> 00:00:21,647 - That's not what I was saying. 10 00:00:21,648 --> 00:00:23,107 - That's exactly what you were saying. 11 00:00:23,108 --> 00:00:25,442 That my husband being dead is making it harder 12 00:00:25,443 --> 00:00:26,860 for you to stay sober. 13 00:00:26,861 --> 00:00:28,362 - You know, you can get another husband. 14 00:00:28,363 --> 00:00:29,947 I can't just get another brother. 15 00:00:29,948 --> 00:00:33,534 - This is why I still don't wanna hang out with you. 16 00:00:33,535 --> 00:00:36,370 - I went to your apartment and I stood outside the door, 17 00:00:36,371 --> 00:00:38,956 but I can't go for you. 18 00:00:38,957 --> 00:00:40,708 You have to show up for yourself. 19 00:00:40,709 --> 00:00:42,418 How you feel about it doesn't matter. 20 00:00:42,419 --> 00:00:45,714 What matters is that you do it. 21 00:01:08,653 --> 00:01:10,571 [cheerful music] 22 00:01:10,572 --> 00:01:12,156 ♪ ♪ 23 00:01:12,157 --> 00:01:14,325 - Whoa. 24 00:01:14,326 --> 00:01:17,620 I love it. - Oh ho. 25 00:01:17,621 --> 00:01:20,707 - Oh, my God. 26 00:01:22,959 --> 00:01:25,753 I love it. I love it. I love it. I love it. 27 00:01:25,754 --> 00:01:27,421 I love it. I love it. I love it. I love it. 28 00:01:27,422 --> 00:01:28,923 I love it. I love it. 29 00:01:28,924 --> 00:01:31,050 Okay, so my couch 30 00:01:31,051 --> 00:01:33,052 would go perfectly here and then my mom's 31 00:01:33,053 --> 00:01:34,511 gonna get rid of, like, one of her couches 32 00:01:34,512 --> 00:01:36,263 and that, that could actually go here. 33 00:01:36,264 --> 00:01:38,098 - Yeah, what about my couch? - You don't have a couch. 34 00:01:38,099 --> 00:01:39,683 You have a futon. - I love my futon. 35 00:01:39,684 --> 00:01:42,978 - Well, so will the fraternity that we donate it to. 36 00:01:42,979 --> 00:01:46,148 - Aw, this mantle is freaking rad. 37 00:01:46,149 --> 00:01:48,234 I can put a rotating display of my figures here. 38 00:01:48,235 --> 00:01:50,194 - Okay, well, if you're serious about this apartment 39 00:01:50,195 --> 00:01:52,196 you can glue your toys to the ceiling 40 00:01:52,197 --> 00:01:53,781 so that they're fighting each other in space. 41 00:01:53,782 --> 00:01:57,117 - Yeah, I wouldn't use glue. I would use Sticky Tack. 42 00:01:57,118 --> 00:01:58,577 You know... - Okay, so you're in? 43 00:01:58,578 --> 00:02:00,246 - Of course. - So you're in. 44 00:02:00,247 --> 00:02:02,081 - I'm in. - So this is our apartment. 45 00:02:02,082 --> 00:02:04,500 - This is our apartment. both: This is our home. 46 00:02:04,501 --> 00:02:06,252 - This is where we're supposed to live. 47 00:02:06,253 --> 00:02:07,753 This is where we're supposed to live. 48 00:02:07,754 --> 00:02:10,005 [laughter] - I like this, yeah! 49 00:02:10,006 --> 00:02:12,259 [laughter] 50 00:02:44,249 --> 00:02:47,251 [nostalgic music] 51 00:02:47,252 --> 00:02:54,259 ♪ ♪ 52 00:02:55,635 --> 00:02:58,013 - Ooh. [laughs] 53 00:03:05,562 --> 00:03:07,396 - Yes, you could have. 54 00:03:07,397 --> 00:03:09,106 - You're being irrational. - I'm not being irrational. 55 00:03:09,107 --> 00:03:10,691 You're completely... - Are you kidding? 56 00:03:10,692 --> 00:03:11,943 - Yeah, you are so... 57 00:03:11,944 --> 00:03:13,360 - What, what are you talking about? 58 00:03:13,361 --> 00:03:15,112 - Oh, my God. - Fine! Fine! 59 00:03:15,113 --> 00:03:16,697 [dog barks] - Oh, no. 60 00:03:16,698 --> 00:03:18,157 Oh hey. Come here. Come here. Come here. Come here. 61 00:03:18,158 --> 00:03:21,369 Come here. Come here. Come here. Good girl. 62 00:03:22,147 --> 00:03:29,029 ♪ ♪ 63 00:03:55,362 --> 00:03:57,113 - [sighs] 64 00:03:58,281 --> 00:04:01,408 - You know, we can take as long as you need to do this. 65 00:04:01,409 --> 00:04:03,410 If you need a few days we can take a few days. 66 00:04:03,411 --> 00:04:05,120 If you need a few weeks we'll take a few weeks. 67 00:04:05,121 --> 00:04:06,956 - Mom, she can't do this for weeks. 68 00:04:06,957 --> 00:04:08,707 - No, I'm just saying that there's no clock. 69 00:04:08,708 --> 00:04:11,585 You know, when your father moved out... 70 00:04:11,586 --> 00:04:13,629 I'm not saying that that is the same thing as this, 71 00:04:13,630 --> 00:04:15,381 of course, but that took a month. 72 00:04:15,382 --> 00:04:18,050 - That's definitely not the same thing. 73 00:04:18,051 --> 00:04:21,428 Dad moved to an apartment. Matt moved to a casket. 74 00:04:21,429 --> 00:04:24,349 - That's why I said it wasn't the same thing. 75 00:04:25,433 --> 00:04:27,060 - Okay. 76 00:04:27,811 --> 00:04:30,146 How do you want this to happen? 77 00:04:31,106 --> 00:04:34,024 - I... why don't we just put everything in boxes and bags 78 00:04:34,025 --> 00:04:35,901 and... 79 00:04:35,902 --> 00:04:37,278 get it into storage. 80 00:04:37,279 --> 00:04:39,780 - Great. I'll start with the kitchen 81 00:04:39,781 --> 00:04:41,907 So we can stop smelling the trash and the fridge. 82 00:04:41,908 --> 00:04:45,996 I can't tell if we're smelling the trash or the fridge. 83 00:04:49,583 --> 00:04:51,375 - I don't want to fight. 84 00:04:51,376 --> 00:04:54,421 I'm here to help. - But? 85 00:04:55,422 --> 00:04:57,757 You said help like you were going to follow it with a but. 86 00:05:00,844 --> 00:05:03,178 - I don't want you to rush this process 87 00:05:03,179 --> 00:05:04,847 and then regret it later. 88 00:05:04,848 --> 00:05:07,349 Your belongings have meaning and they should be treated 89 00:05:07,350 --> 00:05:09,143 with the respect that they're owed. 90 00:05:09,144 --> 00:05:11,562 - Okay. 91 00:05:11,563 --> 00:05:13,188 So... 92 00:05:13,189 --> 00:05:16,317 why don't you spend a week in this place 93 00:05:16,318 --> 00:05:18,152 respecting the objects because if I do that 94 00:05:18,153 --> 00:05:19,863 I'm going to throw myself out a window. 95 00:05:20,864 --> 00:05:22,490 - Okay. 96 00:05:23,617 --> 00:05:25,034 Why don't we make this as straightforward 97 00:05:25,035 --> 00:05:27,077 as this impossible thing can be? 98 00:05:27,078 --> 00:05:28,537 Divide everything into three piles, 99 00:05:28,538 --> 00:05:31,165 keep, toss, and give away. How does that sound? 100 00:05:31,166 --> 00:05:32,959 - That sounds great. 101 00:05:44,012 --> 00:05:46,473 Ten points for Gryffindor. 102 00:05:47,724 --> 00:05:50,559 - You said I was Slytherin, and it really hurt my feelings. 103 00:05:50,560 --> 00:05:53,812 - Well, you know what? Now I'm re-sorting you. 104 00:05:53,813 --> 00:05:55,815 - [chuckles] 105 00:06:00,403 --> 00:06:02,447 - Oh, my God. 106 00:06:08,536 --> 00:06:11,539 [waves rolling, gulls cawing] 107 00:06:16,836 --> 00:06:18,880 - Are we done with regrets? 108 00:06:20,507 --> 00:06:23,509 [nostalgic music] 109 00:06:23,510 --> 00:06:30,517 ♪ ♪ 110 00:06:45,240 --> 00:06:47,450 Ready? [laughter] 111 00:06:49,828 --> 00:06:51,412 - Okay. - Ready? 112 00:06:51,413 --> 00:06:53,289 - All right. - Cast out the past! 113 00:06:53,290 --> 00:06:55,417 [cheering] 114 00:07:01,381 --> 00:07:03,299 - Read a book a week. 115 00:07:03,300 --> 00:07:05,426 Learn to sew. 116 00:07:05,427 --> 00:07:07,511 Have advice column go viral. 117 00:07:07,512 --> 00:07:08,888 Run a marathon. 118 00:07:08,889 --> 00:07:10,431 You're gonna do all that this year? 119 00:07:10,432 --> 00:07:12,224 - Well, I am going to try. 120 00:07:12,225 --> 00:07:14,018 What'd you do? 121 00:07:14,019 --> 00:07:15,686 - Leigh, don't read that. Come on. 122 00:07:15,687 --> 00:07:17,396 - What? You're just gonna throw it in a drawer. 123 00:07:17,397 --> 00:07:18,607 I see rocks every time I'm looking for a gas bill. 124 00:07:18,608 --> 00:07:19,982 - Sweetie, please. 125 00:07:19,983 --> 00:07:22,693 - Be a good husband, brother, 126 00:07:22,694 --> 00:07:25,070 son, friend, teacher. 127 00:07:25,071 --> 00:07:28,032 - I'm gonna cry. That's so nice. 128 00:07:28,033 --> 00:07:31,035 - It is nice, but you already are all those things. 129 00:07:31,036 --> 00:07:33,078 You have to think of actual aspirations 130 00:07:33,079 --> 00:07:36,707 for your vision rock, or else the solstice magic 131 00:07:36,708 --> 00:07:39,335 will not work. - [laughs] 132 00:07:39,336 --> 00:07:42,171 - The solstice magic definitely will not work 133 00:07:42,172 --> 00:07:44,506 if you insist on making fun of it. 134 00:07:44,507 --> 00:07:46,884 - Okay, pick a country that you want to go to, 135 00:07:46,885 --> 00:07:49,511 write it on the rock, and then go there. 136 00:07:49,512 --> 00:07:52,556 If you can't think of a country do Iceland. 137 00:07:52,557 --> 00:07:54,225 - You know, I believe that we are all 138 00:07:54,226 --> 00:07:55,809 the ages that we've ever been. - Mm-hmm. 139 00:07:55,810 --> 00:07:57,937 - So whenever I have 140 00:07:57,938 --> 00:08:00,064 a question that I don't know the answer to 141 00:08:00,065 --> 00:08:01,732 I ask my inner child... - [laughs] 142 00:08:01,733 --> 00:08:03,692 - Don't. What? Stop laughing. 143 00:08:03,693 --> 00:08:06,362 - I'm not, it's just. You always say inner child 144 00:08:06,363 --> 00:08:07,988 with this really serious face. 145 00:08:07,989 --> 00:08:10,366 - That is because some of the profoundest truths 146 00:08:10,367 --> 00:08:11,992 of my life have come from asking 147 00:08:11,993 --> 00:08:14,203 the eight-year-old inside of me what she really wants. 148 00:08:14,204 --> 00:08:16,497 So if I were to ask eight-year-old Matt 149 00:08:16,498 --> 00:08:18,750 what he really wanted, what would he say? 150 00:08:20,210 --> 00:08:22,586 - [clears throat] 151 00:08:22,587 --> 00:08:24,714 - No. No. Say what you were gonna say. 152 00:08:26,174 --> 00:08:29,802 - I wanted to make comic books when I was that age. 153 00:08:29,803 --> 00:08:32,346 Yeah, I used to... 154 00:08:32,347 --> 00:08:35,599 draw and write pages for my brother. 155 00:08:35,600 --> 00:08:37,768 And I still draw; I'm okay. 156 00:08:37,769 --> 00:08:40,730 - No, you're not okay, you're amazing. 157 00:08:41,815 --> 00:08:43,524 That's what you should do. 158 00:08:43,525 --> 00:08:45,902 Make that your aspiration. 159 00:08:46,653 --> 00:08:49,154 Create a comic this year. 160 00:08:49,155 --> 00:08:52,074 - Well, I will when you give me back my vision rock first. 161 00:08:52,075 --> 00:08:54,451 - [laughs] 162 00:08:54,452 --> 00:08:56,161 [door knocking] 163 00:08:56,162 --> 00:08:57,621 - Hello? 164 00:08:57,622 --> 00:08:59,373 - Hey. Come in. How are you? 165 00:08:59,374 --> 00:09:02,543 - I'm good. I'm good. - You okay? 166 00:09:02,544 --> 00:09:04,754 - Thanks. - What are you doing here? 167 00:09:06,089 --> 00:09:07,590 - Your mom texted. 168 00:09:07,591 --> 00:09:10,010 She told me I should come get whatever I wanted. 169 00:09:11,136 --> 00:09:13,262 Thanks again. It was really nice of you 170 00:09:13,263 --> 00:09:14,556 to think that I might want some things 171 00:09:14,557 --> 00:09:16,391 that belong to my dead brother. 172 00:09:17,642 --> 00:09:19,643 Really. I mean it. Amy, thanks. 173 00:09:19,644 --> 00:09:21,020 - 'Course. 174 00:09:21,021 --> 00:09:22,438 - I was gonna make you a box. 175 00:09:22,439 --> 00:09:24,982 - Well, I'm here now, so... 176 00:09:24,983 --> 00:09:26,568 make my own box. 177 00:09:28,236 --> 00:09:29,946 - Okay. 178 00:09:32,365 --> 00:09:34,241 - Um... 179 00:09:34,242 --> 00:09:36,118 Where his action figures? 180 00:09:36,119 --> 00:09:38,120 - Why? - I'm gonna sell them on eBay. 181 00:09:38,121 --> 00:09:39,496 - Really. 182 00:09:39,497 --> 00:09:41,041 - What were you going to do with them? 183 00:09:44,002 --> 00:09:45,921 - They're in the hall closet. 184 00:09:48,798 --> 00:09:50,800 - Hmm. 185 00:09:56,389 --> 00:09:57,974 - [sighs] 186 00:09:59,935 --> 00:10:02,604 - Want me to get rid of him? - How? 187 00:10:03,939 --> 00:10:07,149 - Oh yes. Do that. - Okay. [laughs] 188 00:10:07,150 --> 00:10:09,819 - Hey, Leigh. Come here. - What? 189 00:10:11,112 --> 00:10:12,781 - What's this? 190 00:10:13,990 --> 00:10:15,824 Is this a credit card? 191 00:10:15,825 --> 00:10:19,536 - Oh, yeah. That's um... 192 00:10:19,537 --> 00:10:22,665 We... we kept that in the freezer 193 00:10:22,666 --> 00:10:24,167 in case of an emergency. 194 00:10:25,585 --> 00:10:26,919 - What emergency? 195 00:10:26,920 --> 00:10:28,712 - We never had an emergency 196 00:10:28,713 --> 00:10:30,673 that we could fix with the credit card 197 00:10:30,674 --> 00:10:32,216 so we never found out. 198 00:10:32,217 --> 00:10:34,426 - Huh. 199 00:10:34,427 --> 00:10:36,095 - Mom has the kitchen covered. 200 00:10:36,096 --> 00:10:37,763 Do you want me to start in the bedroom? 201 00:10:37,764 --> 00:10:39,848 - No, that's.... 202 00:10:39,849 --> 00:10:42,017 I-I just, I want to do that myself. 203 00:10:42,018 --> 00:10:44,270 - Okay. I'll do the bathroom. 204 00:10:44,271 --> 00:10:46,815 - Great, thank you. 205 00:10:50,485 --> 00:10:53,196 - [sighs] 206 00:11:06,710 --> 00:11:09,712 [somber music] 207 00:11:09,713 --> 00:11:16,720 ♪ ♪ 208 00:11:28,815 --> 00:11:33,820 ♪ ♪ 209 00:11:52,464 --> 00:11:55,216 - I am obsessed with all of these. 210 00:11:55,217 --> 00:11:57,343 I have no idea what I'm going to read first. 211 00:11:57,344 --> 00:11:59,178 - They won't actually let you be an English teacher 212 00:11:59,179 --> 00:12:02,181 if you suck at getting people books for Christmas. 213 00:12:02,182 --> 00:12:04,725 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 214 00:12:04,726 --> 00:12:06,310 - Okay, you're up. 215 00:12:06,311 --> 00:12:09,272 - [laughs] - [imitates fanfare] 216 00:12:10,857 --> 00:12:12,984 - Okay. 217 00:12:14,444 --> 00:12:17,446 Oh. Whoa. 218 00:12:17,447 --> 00:12:21,325 This is a table for... grading papers. 219 00:12:21,326 --> 00:12:23,744 - It's a drafting table. 220 00:12:23,745 --> 00:12:25,829 - Oh, wow. 221 00:12:25,830 --> 00:12:28,540 Wow, no, this is so, so cool. 222 00:12:28,541 --> 00:12:30,543 - 'Cause you remember at the solstice thing 223 00:12:30,544 --> 00:12:33,212 you said that you wanted to make your comic this year. 224 00:12:33,213 --> 00:12:35,673 So I just... I thought that, um... 225 00:12:35,674 --> 00:12:38,717 it would help if you had, like, a designated space to do it. 226 00:12:38,718 --> 00:12:40,844 - Ah, that is crazy that you remember that. 227 00:12:40,845 --> 00:12:42,763 - Yeah, I take all that inner child stuff seriously. 228 00:12:42,764 --> 00:12:44,181 - [laughs] 229 00:12:44,182 --> 00:12:45,599 - Plus, unlike my mom's 230 00:12:45,600 --> 00:12:47,685 past life regression bullshit, 231 00:12:47,686 --> 00:12:50,271 the inner child thing is actual psychology. 232 00:12:50,272 --> 00:12:52,022 - Well, I hope that past life stuff 233 00:12:52,023 --> 00:12:54,400 is real because your mom said 234 00:12:54,401 --> 00:12:58,655 she and I were Vikings, gladiators, and something else. 235 00:13:00,782 --> 00:13:03,158 Medieval assassins. I mean... 236 00:13:03,159 --> 00:13:04,827 [both chuckle] 237 00:13:04,828 --> 00:13:06,870 - So can I just say one more thing about my gift? 238 00:13:06,871 --> 00:13:08,831 - Oh, yes. Yeah, say it. 239 00:13:08,832 --> 00:13:14,378 - I see how much you love reading comic books. 240 00:13:14,379 --> 00:13:18,257 And your art's so, so, so, so good. 241 00:13:18,258 --> 00:13:20,050 - Jeez. - That I just think of this 242 00:13:20,051 --> 00:13:22,595 as the year where you get to put it all together. 243 00:13:22,596 --> 00:13:25,139 And this is the place 244 00:13:25,140 --> 00:13:27,601 where you get to make something great. 245 00:13:28,560 --> 00:13:30,269 - Thank you. 246 00:13:30,270 --> 00:13:32,062 - Hmm. - No, thank you. 247 00:13:32,063 --> 00:13:34,315 - Yeah? - Yes. 248 00:13:34,316 --> 00:13:37,276 This is, seriously, 249 00:13:37,277 --> 00:13:39,153 the nicest gift 250 00:13:39,154 --> 00:13:42,198 I've ever gotten. 251 00:13:53,043 --> 00:13:54,752 - Baby. - Yeah? 252 00:13:54,753 --> 00:13:57,297 - There's got to be some things you want to keep. 253 00:13:58,089 --> 00:14:00,759 - Oh, I don't know what they are. 254 00:14:01,927 --> 00:14:04,262 - Well... 255 00:14:05,388 --> 00:14:06,847 Think about what makes you happy. 256 00:14:06,848 --> 00:14:10,267 - [laughs] Well, nothing makes me happy. 257 00:14:10,268 --> 00:14:12,019 - Well, I know right now, 258 00:14:12,020 --> 00:14:14,230 but think about a year from now, two years from now. 259 00:14:14,231 --> 00:14:16,523 What are you gonna want to still have? 260 00:14:16,524 --> 00:14:19,401 - I know that you need to control 261 00:14:19,402 --> 00:14:21,237 everything in the universe, 262 00:14:21,238 --> 00:14:25,699 but can you try not to control my feelings right now? 263 00:14:25,700 --> 00:14:27,993 - You've got to stop twisting everything that I say. 264 00:14:27,994 --> 00:14:29,246 I'm trying to help. 265 00:14:29,247 --> 00:14:31,372 - I know that you're trying to help. 266 00:14:31,373 --> 00:14:33,082 That's not what I meant. 267 00:14:33,083 --> 00:14:34,917 - Um... 268 00:14:34,918 --> 00:14:36,877 I'm gonna do a snack run. 269 00:14:36,878 --> 00:14:38,879 Do you want anything? 270 00:14:38,880 --> 00:14:40,839 - Yeah... 271 00:14:40,840 --> 00:14:42,800 anything. 272 00:14:42,801 --> 00:14:44,426 - Do you need a 20? 273 00:14:44,427 --> 00:14:47,304 - Nope, I'm good. I have the last 20 you gave me. 274 00:14:47,305 --> 00:14:48,640 See you in a few. 275 00:14:51,685 --> 00:14:53,936 - She's been great. - [scoffs] 276 00:14:53,937 --> 00:14:55,854 - Like she's been body snatched. 277 00:14:55,855 --> 00:14:57,606 - Be nice. - I am. 278 00:14:57,607 --> 00:14:58,983 The aliens sent, like, 279 00:14:58,984 --> 00:15:01,528 the best pod person to replace Jules. 280 00:15:16,877 --> 00:15:18,669 Don't freak out. 281 00:15:18,670 --> 00:15:21,046 There was Vicodin in the medicine cabinet 282 00:15:21,047 --> 00:15:24,133 from when Matt dislocated his shoulder. 283 00:15:24,134 --> 00:15:25,634 - Was? 284 00:15:25,635 --> 00:15:27,845 - Yeah. 285 00:15:27,846 --> 00:15:29,139 I... 286 00:15:29,140 --> 00:15:32,516 I can't leave Danny in my home alone. 287 00:15:32,517 --> 00:15:34,603 - I got this. - Okay. 288 00:15:39,149 --> 00:15:41,025 Hey. 289 00:15:41,026 --> 00:15:42,526 Are you... 290 00:15:42,527 --> 00:15:44,821 Are you almost done in there? 291 00:15:47,198 --> 00:15:49,784 [soft moaning] 292 00:15:57,584 --> 00:16:01,212 What are you doing? - Yes. 293 00:16:01,213 --> 00:16:04,506 - Oh, you want his boot? - Nah. 294 00:16:04,507 --> 00:16:06,509 Just this. 295 00:16:07,636 --> 00:16:09,762 You didn't know where he kept his stash? 296 00:16:09,763 --> 00:16:11,388 Or you didn't know that he had one? 297 00:16:11,389 --> 00:16:13,558 - Of course I knew. I'm not an idiot. 298 00:16:16,144 --> 00:16:17,686 Real good. 299 00:16:17,687 --> 00:16:19,730 Hey. No. No. No. No. No. 300 00:16:19,731 --> 00:16:21,607 I gave him that. 301 00:16:21,608 --> 00:16:24,444 - Yeah, and he's not going to be needing it anytime soon. 302 00:16:34,079 --> 00:16:35,829 - Get out of there. - Calm down. 303 00:16:35,830 --> 00:16:37,540 I don't care about your vibrator. 304 00:16:45,215 --> 00:16:48,050 Why does he have this? 305 00:16:48,051 --> 00:16:49,927 - It was your dad's. 306 00:16:49,928 --> 00:16:51,471 - Yeah, I know. 307 00:17:16,830 --> 00:17:18,748 - [sighs] 308 00:17:23,169 --> 00:17:26,547 - Give them to me. - Give what to you? 309 00:17:26,548 --> 00:17:28,507 - Don't do this, Jules. 310 00:17:28,508 --> 00:17:30,426 Leigh told me there was Vicodin in the medicine cabinet. 311 00:17:30,427 --> 00:17:31,760 Give them to me. 312 00:17:31,761 --> 00:17:33,095 - I threw them out with the rest 313 00:17:33,096 --> 00:17:35,015 of Matt's bathroom stuff. 314 00:17:35,849 --> 00:17:37,976 Search the trash. It's there. 315 00:17:39,811 --> 00:17:42,146 - Then what are you doing out here? 316 00:17:42,147 --> 00:17:44,149 - [deep breath] 317 00:17:46,443 --> 00:17:48,986 Just seeing his toothbrush and his toothpaste 318 00:17:48,987 --> 00:17:51,114 and the towel he used last. 319 00:17:52,115 --> 00:17:54,242 I don't know. 320 00:17:55,118 --> 00:17:56,452 - You are allowed to feel what you feel. 321 00:17:56,453 --> 00:17:58,662 - No, I'm not actually. 322 00:17:58,663 --> 00:18:01,957 Because she would say that I was being selfish, 323 00:18:01,958 --> 00:18:05,003 and that I was making it about me, so. 324 00:18:07,005 --> 00:18:09,590 - I was so focused on Leigh, 325 00:18:09,591 --> 00:18:11,258 I never thought about how hard this was gonna be 326 00:18:11,259 --> 00:18:13,053 for you or for me. 327 00:18:15,680 --> 00:18:17,641 - I'm sorry. - It's okay. 328 00:18:19,935 --> 00:18:23,772 I keep thinking I'm out of... 329 00:18:25,023 --> 00:18:27,650 This thing, but... 330 00:18:27,651 --> 00:18:30,111 it happened a few months before Matt died. 331 00:18:31,571 --> 00:18:34,740 I had just gotten all my transfer rejection letters 332 00:18:34,741 --> 00:18:36,409 because none of the UCs wanted me. 333 00:18:37,786 --> 00:18:41,288 I went on this huge bender at a warehouse party. 334 00:18:41,289 --> 00:18:42,915 I didn't want to call you or Leigh 335 00:18:42,916 --> 00:18:44,458 'cause I knew you'd yell at me. 336 00:18:44,459 --> 00:18:46,169 - I don't yell. - You yell with your eyes. 337 00:18:48,255 --> 00:18:50,798 - But I-I called Matt to pick me up 338 00:18:50,799 --> 00:18:52,968 and on the way home he said... 339 00:18:55,095 --> 00:18:56,554 "What's it gonna take for you 340 00:18:56,555 --> 00:18:58,056 to get your life together, Jules?" 341 00:19:00,433 --> 00:19:02,227 "Does someone have to get hurt? 342 00:19:03,645 --> 00:19:05,689 Do you have to get hurt?" 343 00:19:08,692 --> 00:19:11,193 And I... 344 00:19:11,194 --> 00:19:13,530 I keep thinking about him dying because... 345 00:19:16,449 --> 00:19:18,493 [sighs] 346 00:19:19,536 --> 00:19:21,663 Because that's what it took. 347 00:19:24,332 --> 00:19:26,959 - Matt was your sister's person 348 00:19:26,960 --> 00:19:28,752 and we do have to be there for her, 349 00:19:28,753 --> 00:19:31,047 but he was our family too. 350 00:19:32,799 --> 00:19:35,427 We're allowed to feel heartbroken. 351 00:19:36,553 --> 00:19:38,722 - [laughs] 352 00:19:39,639 --> 00:19:41,932 I can't believe that you thought 353 00:19:41,933 --> 00:19:44,019 I would choose today to relapse of all days. 354 00:19:45,020 --> 00:19:46,812 - Jesus, today made me want to relapse. 355 00:19:46,813 --> 00:19:49,023 I'm not even an addict. - [laughs] 356 00:19:49,024 --> 00:19:51,901 - Gimme that. 357 00:19:51,902 --> 00:19:53,527 You look disgusting. - I know. 358 00:19:53,528 --> 00:19:54,862 - Blow your nose. 359 00:19:54,863 --> 00:19:56,447 Oh, that's disgusting. You're disgusting. 360 00:19:56,448 --> 00:19:57,865 Blow it again. - [laughs] 361 00:19:57,866 --> 00:19:59,826 - Oh, my God. This takes me back. 362 00:20:05,707 --> 00:20:07,666 - What are you looking for? 363 00:20:07,667 --> 00:20:09,376 - Just, um... 364 00:20:09,377 --> 00:20:11,462 - If you just tell me then I can help you find it 365 00:20:11,463 --> 00:20:13,423 and you can go. 366 00:20:16,343 --> 00:20:18,261 - I want the comic he made. 367 00:20:19,679 --> 00:20:22,556 - No, you can't have that. - Why not? 368 00:20:22,557 --> 00:20:24,767 - Because it's mine. 369 00:20:24,768 --> 00:20:28,020 I-I got him to make it. - That's bullshit. 370 00:20:28,021 --> 00:20:29,897 You don't deserve that comic. 371 00:20:29,898 --> 00:20:31,357 You took something that he loved 372 00:20:31,358 --> 00:20:33,317 and you turned it into a homework assignment. 373 00:20:33,318 --> 00:20:35,236 - I just... I helped him set goals 374 00:20:35,237 --> 00:20:37,196 that he could get what he wanted in life. 375 00:20:37,197 --> 00:20:39,114 - And what was that supposed to be? 376 00:20:39,115 --> 00:20:41,575 See, you think you knew him, 377 00:20:41,576 --> 00:20:43,369 but you really, you really didn't 378 00:20:43,370 --> 00:20:44,745 know him as well as you thought. 379 00:20:44,746 --> 00:20:46,455 - [scoffs] 380 00:20:46,456 --> 00:20:48,499 I don't know what you're trying to get at, but I... 381 00:20:48,500 --> 00:20:50,459 - Okay, what is that? 382 00:20:50,460 --> 00:20:51,878 - What? - That is my shirt. 383 00:20:52,754 --> 00:20:54,296 - The what... this shirt? 384 00:20:54,297 --> 00:20:56,675 - [laughing] 385 00:20:59,928 --> 00:21:03,222 I've been... I've been looking for that shirt for years. 386 00:21:03,223 --> 00:21:04,682 And Matt said he lost it 387 00:21:04,683 --> 00:21:06,016 and he's had it this whole time, 388 00:21:06,017 --> 00:21:08,227 and he just didn't want to give it back. 389 00:21:08,228 --> 00:21:10,354 Damn. 390 00:21:10,355 --> 00:21:12,399 [sighs] 391 00:21:17,112 --> 00:21:19,947 You know what? Keep the comic. 392 00:21:19,948 --> 00:21:21,323 Keep the shirt. 393 00:21:21,324 --> 00:21:23,909 Keep whatever you want. 394 00:21:23,910 --> 00:21:25,829 This is all just stuff. 395 00:21:27,038 --> 00:21:28,706 Just stuff. 396 00:21:28,707 --> 00:21:30,709 [chuckles] 397 00:21:32,168 --> 00:21:34,796 [door creaks] 398 00:21:57,277 --> 00:21:59,112 - [sighs] 399 00:22:02,866 --> 00:22:04,241 [door creaks] 400 00:22:04,242 --> 00:22:06,077 Hey. Hey. 401 00:22:07,996 --> 00:22:09,915 - Oh, man. 402 00:22:12,751 --> 00:22:14,627 Oh, wow. 403 00:22:14,628 --> 00:22:16,045 What are you doing with this? 404 00:22:16,046 --> 00:22:18,797 - Well, I was putting things away 405 00:22:18,798 --> 00:22:22,718 and I just thought it was one of your random sketchbooks. 406 00:22:22,719 --> 00:22:26,056 I-Matt, this is amazing. 407 00:22:27,515 --> 00:22:29,642 - Okay, you weren't... - It's so good. 408 00:22:29,643 --> 00:22:31,018 - Yeah, no, you weren't supposed to... 409 00:22:31,019 --> 00:22:33,354 no one was supposed to see this. 410 00:22:33,355 --> 00:22:36,483 - Kay, well, there wasn't a padlock on it. 411 00:22:37,734 --> 00:22:39,653 So I did not know that. 412 00:22:42,030 --> 00:22:43,489 Why? What about the part 413 00:22:43,490 --> 00:22:45,199 where I just told you it was amazing? 414 00:22:45,200 --> 00:22:48,202 - Oh, you... you know, you don't really get it. 415 00:22:48,203 --> 00:22:49,788 This... 416 00:22:51,373 --> 00:22:52,957 This was hard enough for me to work on 417 00:22:52,958 --> 00:22:55,209 with no one knowing about it. 418 00:22:55,210 --> 00:22:56,835 If you're always gonna ask me questions 419 00:22:56,836 --> 00:22:58,462 and expect progress updates, 420 00:22:58,463 --> 00:23:00,089 I'm gonna be crushed under this mountain of pressure. 421 00:23:00,090 --> 00:23:03,592 - Well, I'm not going to crush you under anything. 422 00:23:03,593 --> 00:23:07,513 I'm... I'm going to be supportive and excited. 423 00:23:07,514 --> 00:23:09,557 - Yeah, well, for me that's like the same thing. 424 00:23:09,558 --> 00:23:11,309 - Can you not be mad at me? 425 00:23:13,436 --> 00:23:15,312 Hey, I'm just... I'm proud of you. 426 00:23:15,313 --> 00:23:17,356 You are doing the thing that you said you were going 427 00:23:17,357 --> 00:23:18,899 to do this year. 428 00:23:18,900 --> 00:23:21,819 I didn't... I didn't run a marathon. 429 00:23:21,820 --> 00:23:23,862 My column never went viral, 430 00:23:23,863 --> 00:23:25,740 but you are doing your comic. 431 00:23:29,953 --> 00:23:31,704 - Okay. 432 00:23:31,705 --> 00:23:33,790 Okay, no, you're right. 433 00:23:35,917 --> 00:23:37,626 Thank you. - Okay. 434 00:23:37,627 --> 00:23:39,588 - I'm glad you like my stuff. 435 00:23:42,757 --> 00:23:45,759 [melancholy music] 436 00:23:45,760 --> 00:23:52,767 ♪ ♪ 437 00:24:16,708 --> 00:24:19,711 ♪ ♪ 438 00:24:46,780 --> 00:24:48,864 - What are you doing at my apartment? 439 00:24:48,865 --> 00:24:50,532 I told you I didn't want it. 440 00:24:50,533 --> 00:24:52,661 - Yeah, well, you say that now. 441 00:24:53,787 --> 00:24:55,747 Maybe in a couple years you will. 442 00:24:57,916 --> 00:24:59,918 Here. 443 00:25:03,713 --> 00:25:05,130 - [clears throat] 444 00:25:05,131 --> 00:25:06,508 - [sighs] 445 00:25:08,593 --> 00:25:10,803 I think you were right. 446 00:25:10,804 --> 00:25:12,264 I think there was... 447 00:25:13,848 --> 00:25:16,850 A lot about him I didn't know. 448 00:25:16,851 --> 00:25:18,478 - [sighs] 449 00:25:22,190 --> 00:25:25,610 - Did you know why he kept a credit card in the freezer? 450 00:25:28,446 --> 00:25:30,031 - No. 451 00:25:32,117 --> 00:25:34,202 - Okay. 452 00:25:36,830 --> 00:25:38,707 [sighs] Okay. 453 00:25:41,376 --> 00:25:42,919 - So... 454 00:25:43,962 --> 00:25:45,754 Are you gonna give me my shirt back? 455 00:25:45,755 --> 00:25:48,048 - No. No. 456 00:25:48,049 --> 00:25:50,634 I really like this shirt. 457 00:25:50,635 --> 00:25:52,596 - [laughs] 458 00:25:56,182 --> 00:25:58,643 Does it still smell like him? 459 00:25:59,811 --> 00:26:02,230 - Not anymore. 460 00:26:12,365 --> 00:26:14,492 Bye, Danny. 461 00:26:37,098 --> 00:26:40,100 [melancholy music] 462 00:26:40,101 --> 00:26:47,108 ♪ ♪ 463 00:26:59,871 --> 00:27:06,878 ♪ ♪ 464 00:27:20,392 --> 00:27:22,435 [phone buzzes] 465 00:27:25,730 --> 00:27:27,816 [phone buzzes] 466 00:27:30,860 --> 00:27:32,821 [phone buzzes] 467 00:27:35,991 --> 00:27:37,909 [phone buzzes] 468 00:27:40,245 --> 00:27:42,789 [phone buzzes] 469 00:27:43,748 --> 00:27:45,625 [phone buzzes] 470 00:27:59,389 --> 00:28:00,765 [phone buzzes] 471 00:28:01,641 --> 00:28:03,059 [phone buzzes] 472 00:28:07,022 --> 00:28:08,939 [phone buzzes] 473 00:28:08,940 --> 00:28:10,441 ["Little Marriage" by Lia Ices] 474 00:28:10,442 --> 00:28:13,694 - ♪ Ooh ooh ♪ 475 00:28:13,695 --> 00:28:17,156 ♪ ♪ 476 00:28:17,157 --> 00:28:19,283 - ♪ A year and a day ♪ 477 00:28:19,284 --> 00:28:22,703 ♪ Could pass just as quickly ♪ 478 00:28:22,704 --> 00:28:26,790 ♪ And I don't mind and I don't mind ♪ 479 00:28:26,791 --> 00:28:30,628 - I just feel so connected to each and every one of you. 480 00:28:30,629 --> 00:28:32,213 - This Nicholas Sparks widow at Group 481 00:28:32,214 --> 00:28:33,714 put on the most spectacular show 482 00:28:33,715 --> 00:28:35,341 and everyone was obsessed with her. 483 00:28:35,342 --> 00:28:36,717 - Sounds like she's got it figured out. 484 00:28:36,718 --> 00:28:38,594 - You have my number on the roster. 485 00:28:38,595 --> 00:28:40,054 I'm totally around. You know, maybe we could hang out or... 486 00:28:40,055 --> 00:28:41,181 - Sure. I'm pretty late, yeah. 487 00:28:41,181 --> 00:28:42,390 - Okay. Bye. 488 00:28:42,391 --> 00:28:44,350 - Ryan and I are engaged. 489 00:28:44,351 --> 00:28:46,977 - That's fast. - We both realized 490 00:28:46,978 --> 00:28:49,271 that life is short. Why wait? 491 00:28:49,272 --> 00:28:50,606 - Why did you cheat on Mom? 492 00:28:50,607 --> 00:28:51,900 - Sometimes when a person drowns, 493 00:28:51,901 --> 00:28:53,317 they thrash around so much, 494 00:28:53,318 --> 00:28:56,821 they bring down anyone trying to rescue them.