1 00:00:01,441 --> 00:00:04,338 - My husband died for nothing. 2 00:00:04,339 --> 00:00:05,549 Do you know your husband's passcode 3 00:00:05,550 --> 00:00:08,217 to his phone? - Of course. 4 00:00:08,218 --> 00:00:09,760 - Jesus. 5 00:00:09,761 --> 00:00:11,054 - If I were to ask eight-year-old Matt 6 00:00:11,055 --> 00:00:12,888 what he really wanted, what would he say? 7 00:00:12,889 --> 00:00:14,390 - I wanted to make comic books. 8 00:00:14,391 --> 00:00:16,475 - This is amazing. 9 00:00:16,476 --> 00:00:17,686 - That day Rogue died... 10 00:00:17,687 --> 00:00:19,103 it was the day after Christmas, right? 11 00:00:19,104 --> 00:00:20,230 That was the day 12 00:00:20,231 --> 00:00:22,022 that he knew he was gonna marry you. 13 00:00:22,023 --> 00:00:25,150 - 12-26. 14 00:00:25,151 --> 00:00:27,278 [twangy music] 15 00:00:27,279 --> 00:00:29,780 I think there was a lot about him I didn't know. 16 00:00:29,781 --> 00:00:31,366 ♪ ♪ 17 00:00:38,331 --> 00:00:41,333 [desolate music] 18 00:00:41,334 --> 00:00:47,381 ♪ ♪ 19 00:00:47,382 --> 00:00:49,300 - Hey, I'm just running to the grocery store. 20 00:00:49,301 --> 00:00:50,594 Can you let me know if there's anything 21 00:00:50,595 --> 00:00:53,012 you want me to get? 22 00:00:53,013 --> 00:00:55,055 I hope you're having a nice hike. Bye. 23 00:00:55,056 --> 00:00:57,766 [cell phone making springing noise] 24 00:00:57,767 --> 00:01:00,769 [phone vibrating] 25 00:01:00,770 --> 00:01:07,777 ♪ ♪ 26 00:01:10,113 --> 00:01:12,364 - [groans] 27 00:01:12,365 --> 00:01:19,372 ♪ ♪ 28 00:01:29,049 --> 00:01:32,051 [shower running] 29 00:01:32,052 --> 00:01:39,059 ♪ ♪ 30 00:01:49,027 --> 00:01:51,028 So why is Raskolnikov so concerned 31 00:01:51,029 --> 00:01:52,780 for his sister's safety here? 32 00:01:52,781 --> 00:01:57,076 ♪ ♪ 33 00:01:57,077 --> 00:01:59,370 Is it because Vin Diesel told him 34 00:01:59,371 --> 00:02:00,996 the most important thing is family 35 00:02:00,997 --> 00:02:02,331 and then drove off 36 00:02:02,332 --> 00:02:04,208 in a $1/2 million car? 37 00:02:04,209 --> 00:02:05,543 [laughter] 38 00:02:05,544 --> 00:02:08,462 Guys, we have six weeks left. 39 00:02:08,463 --> 00:02:10,422 Way too early to check out like this. 40 00:02:10,423 --> 00:02:13,217 I mean, come on. Give me... give me something 41 00:02:13,218 --> 00:02:14,718 before the period ends. 42 00:02:14,719 --> 00:02:16,470 [school bell rings] 43 00:02:16,471 --> 00:02:18,389 No, wait, hold up. 44 00:02:18,390 --> 00:02:20,933 Hold up. How about this? 45 00:02:20,934 --> 00:02:23,435 Read the first six chapters, 46 00:02:23,436 --> 00:02:27,314 and if you're still this bored, 47 00:02:27,315 --> 00:02:28,608 we'll find something more exciting, 48 00:02:28,609 --> 00:02:30,526 and we'll swap out 49 00:02:30,527 --> 00:02:33,153 Robert Frost for Kendrick Lamar. 50 00:02:33,154 --> 00:02:35,197 Huh? 51 00:02:35,198 --> 00:02:37,783 But you have to really read it, 52 00:02:37,784 --> 00:02:39,493 or do a way better job faking it. 53 00:02:39,494 --> 00:02:41,328 All right. [laughter] 54 00:02:41,329 --> 00:02:43,789 - [on phone] Hey, I'm, uh, checking out 55 00:02:43,790 --> 00:02:47,084 so if there's anything you want, let me know. 56 00:02:47,085 --> 00:02:49,628 Okay, I guess you're not getting service yet. 57 00:02:49,629 --> 00:02:52,339 [somber music] 58 00:02:52,340 --> 00:02:54,383 You ready? 59 00:02:54,384 --> 00:02:56,135 - I can't decide what shirt to wear. 60 00:02:56,136 --> 00:02:58,637 - Aren't all men's shirts the same shirt? 61 00:02:58,638 --> 00:03:01,432 ♪ ♪ 62 00:03:01,433 --> 00:03:04,560 Well, you look good in all of these. 63 00:03:04,561 --> 00:03:06,353 How about this one? This is fun. 64 00:03:06,354 --> 00:03:09,565 ♪ ♪ 65 00:03:09,566 --> 00:03:14,820 [voice mail] Hi. Can you please call me back? 66 00:03:14,821 --> 00:03:18,324 I am starting to worry. 67 00:03:18,325 --> 00:03:20,159 Um... 68 00:03:20,160 --> 00:03:22,494 Please just give me a call so I know you're okay. 69 00:03:22,495 --> 00:03:24,747 Love you. Bye. 70 00:03:24,748 --> 00:03:27,750 - What if art becomes like the 24-hour news cycle? 71 00:03:27,751 --> 00:03:29,293 When everything comes out quick, 72 00:03:29,294 --> 00:03:31,879 it has the shelf life of a gallon of milk. 73 00:03:31,880 --> 00:03:33,547 [laughter] 74 00:03:33,548 --> 00:03:34,841 What if we end up living in a world of first drafts? 75 00:03:34,842 --> 00:03:36,968 ♪ ♪ 76 00:03:41,348 --> 00:03:44,141 - Really? - What? 77 00:03:44,142 --> 00:03:45,435 - You were weird at the party, 78 00:03:45,436 --> 00:03:46,977 you didn't say a word in the car ride home, 79 00:03:46,978 --> 00:03:48,812 and now you want to go straight to bed. 80 00:03:48,813 --> 00:03:50,314 - I'm tired. - Everyone is tired. 81 00:03:50,315 --> 00:03:51,649 It's Friday. 82 00:03:51,650 --> 00:03:53,692 You completely shut down. 83 00:03:53,693 --> 00:03:56,237 - Oh, because I didn't want to laugh at Rob's jokes? 84 00:03:56,238 --> 00:03:57,905 He said he was so impressed with my self-sacrifice 85 00:03:57,906 --> 00:03:59,531 in being a teacher. 86 00:03:59,532 --> 00:04:01,033 - I can't believe he gave you a compliment. 87 00:04:01,034 --> 00:04:02,160 What a sociopath. 88 00:04:02,160 --> 00:04:03,411 - He's in finance. It was a dig 89 00:04:03,412 --> 00:04:04,870 about how little I make, Leigh. 90 00:04:04,871 --> 00:04:08,582 - Why do you have to run every nice thing 91 00:04:08,583 --> 00:04:10,668 someone says to you through the Matt Machine 92 00:04:10,669 --> 00:04:12,878 to figure out how it's secretly an insult? 93 00:04:12,879 --> 00:04:14,421 - Maybe because I'm just not interested 94 00:04:14,422 --> 00:04:16,006 in laughing at unfunny jokes 95 00:04:16,007 --> 00:04:18,510 and pretending to be interested in lame stories. 96 00:04:20,554 --> 00:04:22,429 - You could've stayed home if you didn't want to go. 97 00:04:22,430 --> 00:04:24,975 - Yeah, really? You would've let me stay home? 98 00:04:36,027 --> 00:04:38,947 - I get that you're going through a hard time right now. 99 00:04:41,408 --> 00:04:43,409 I... I just thought 100 00:04:43,410 --> 00:04:46,245 that going out might make you feel better. 101 00:04:46,246 --> 00:04:48,956 - Yeah, going out doesn't do that for me, Leigh. 102 00:04:48,957 --> 00:04:51,876 - Well, sometimes, you're... 103 00:04:51,877 --> 00:04:53,961 sure that you won't have fun, 104 00:04:53,962 --> 00:04:55,754 and then you do, 105 00:04:55,755 --> 00:04:59,092 and... then you're glad you went, sometimes. 106 00:05:00,927 --> 00:05:03,554 But what never makes you feel better 107 00:05:03,555 --> 00:05:06,015 is lying in bed all day. 108 00:05:06,016 --> 00:05:07,516 - You know, what also never makes me feel better 109 00:05:07,517 --> 00:05:09,226 is when my wife yells at me. 110 00:05:09,227 --> 00:05:10,644 - I'm not yelling. 111 00:05:10,645 --> 00:05:12,188 [sighs] 112 00:05:15,859 --> 00:05:16,860 - It's hard to figure out what book 113 00:05:16,860 --> 00:05:18,111 might keep my students awake 114 00:05:18,111 --> 00:05:19,404 when I keep getting push alerts 115 00:05:19,405 --> 00:05:22,406 that the world is going to hell, 116 00:05:22,407 --> 00:05:24,325 and with summer coming up, 117 00:05:24,326 --> 00:05:26,201 I'll have even more time to spiral out like this. 118 00:05:26,202 --> 00:05:28,829 - You feel like your medication has stopped working? 119 00:05:28,830 --> 00:05:30,372 - Uh... 120 00:05:30,373 --> 00:05:33,459 I have thought loops that I can't stop, so yeah. 121 00:05:33,460 --> 00:05:35,127 - Happens. 122 00:05:35,128 --> 00:05:37,087 We've reached the maximum dose with this one. 123 00:05:37,088 --> 00:05:39,798 We'll try another. Have you tried Sertraline? 124 00:05:39,799 --> 00:05:41,051 - Not yet. You know, 125 00:05:41,052 --> 00:05:43,052 every time I cycle onto something new, 126 00:05:43,053 --> 00:05:45,012 I've... I end up crying at dog food commercials. 127 00:05:45,013 --> 00:05:46,513 - You know that's temporary. 128 00:05:46,514 --> 00:05:49,516 I'll send the prescription in today. 129 00:05:49,517 --> 00:05:51,894 Let's talk more about summer. 130 00:05:51,895 --> 00:05:54,271 Ideally, what does this break look like? 131 00:05:54,272 --> 00:05:58,234 - Um, well, I... I want to exercise more, 132 00:05:58,235 --> 00:06:01,320 uh, and meditate. Um... 133 00:06:01,321 --> 00:06:03,572 And Leigh's dad and stepmom 134 00:06:03,573 --> 00:06:04,741 gave us this gift certificate 135 00:06:04,742 --> 00:06:07,660 to some... hotel in Palm Springs. 136 00:06:07,661 --> 00:06:09,995 - That real life or ideal life? 137 00:06:09,996 --> 00:06:11,747 - Uh, both, 138 00:06:11,748 --> 00:06:14,333 um, though it's 110 degrees in the summer, 139 00:06:14,334 --> 00:06:16,919 so probably ideal fall. 140 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:19,296 Um, and I know Leigh would love it 141 00:06:19,297 --> 00:06:21,674 if I finished my... my comic book. 142 00:06:21,675 --> 00:06:25,553 - Leigh would love it? 143 00:06:25,554 --> 00:06:27,471 - I might want to finish it. 144 00:06:27,472 --> 00:06:29,265 Um... 145 00:06:29,266 --> 00:06:30,766 [sucks teeth] Yeah, I mean... you know, 146 00:06:30,767 --> 00:06:32,018 it's a comic that I wanna read, 147 00:06:32,019 --> 00:06:33,811 so I wanna create it. 148 00:06:33,812 --> 00:06:36,815 - Just so you can read it? Only you? 149 00:06:41,987 --> 00:06:45,155 - Oh, boy. I... 150 00:06:45,156 --> 00:06:46,740 I want... I want... yeah. 151 00:06:46,741 --> 00:06:48,617 I want everyone to read it. 152 00:06:48,618 --> 00:06:50,578 Why is that so hard to say? 153 00:06:50,579 --> 00:06:52,705 - Say it again, even if it's hard. 154 00:06:52,706 --> 00:06:55,457 - Okay, I want everyone to read it. 155 00:06:55,458 --> 00:06:58,377 I want... I want everyone to read it. 156 00:06:58,378 --> 00:07:01,422 Um, I... 157 00:07:01,423 --> 00:07:03,632 I want it to get published. 158 00:07:03,633 --> 00:07:06,385 I want... 159 00:07:06,386 --> 00:07:08,429 I wanna... I wanna see it 160 00:07:08,430 --> 00:07:10,389 on my favorite shelf 161 00:07:10,390 --> 00:07:12,683 in my favorite comic book store. 162 00:07:12,684 --> 00:07:14,894 I... I want some kid who's like I was 163 00:07:14,895 --> 00:07:18,647 to pick it up and... 164 00:07:18,648 --> 00:07:20,942 and... and, uh... 165 00:07:23,904 --> 00:07:25,487 And... and love it so much 166 00:07:25,488 --> 00:07:27,364 they make their friends read it. 167 00:07:27,365 --> 00:07:29,491 - So you'll finish it this summer. 168 00:07:29,492 --> 00:07:32,077 - Uh, y... um, it's not just finishing it, 169 00:07:32,078 --> 00:07:33,330 which I'm actually pretty close to. 170 00:07:33,331 --> 00:07:36,582 It's... it's telling people about it. 171 00:07:36,583 --> 00:07:39,919 I... I have to pitch my book 172 00:07:39,920 --> 00:07:42,838 with my online portfolio, which I... I set up... 173 00:07:42,839 --> 00:07:44,965 last year, and you're now 174 00:07:44,966 --> 00:07:45,967 the second person in the world 175 00:07:45,967 --> 00:07:47,010 who knows it exists, 176 00:07:47,011 --> 00:07:48,928 and... and if I do all that, 177 00:07:48,929 --> 00:07:52,973 well, what if it gets published? 178 00:07:52,974 --> 00:07:55,643 - Matt... 179 00:07:55,644 --> 00:07:58,647 What about success frightens you? 180 00:08:00,273 --> 00:08:03,901 - Hm... 181 00:08:03,902 --> 00:08:06,111 What if it gets published, 182 00:08:06,112 --> 00:08:09,406 and... 183 00:08:09,407 --> 00:08:11,493 it doesn't make me feel better? 184 00:08:13,453 --> 00:08:16,247 I mean, if... 185 00:08:16,248 --> 00:08:17,415 If that doesn't work, 186 00:08:17,416 --> 00:08:20,876 then I don't think anything could. 187 00:08:20,877 --> 00:08:22,711 I just don't know what else to try. 188 00:08:22,712 --> 00:08:24,797 - I think you do. 189 00:08:24,798 --> 00:08:25,799 I think we listed 190 00:08:25,800 --> 00:08:27,758 a whole bunch of things to try. 191 00:08:27,759 --> 00:08:30,761 [melancholy music] 192 00:08:30,762 --> 00:08:37,769 ♪ ♪ 193 00:08:44,901 --> 00:08:48,404 - [voice mail] Where are you? 194 00:08:48,405 --> 00:08:51,865 Uh, did you forget to charge your phone again? 195 00:08:51,866 --> 00:08:54,201 'Cause I got you that new charger 196 00:08:54,202 --> 00:08:56,787 for your car, 197 00:08:56,788 --> 00:09:01,417 and, uh, here it is on your drafting table. 198 00:09:01,418 --> 00:09:03,210 Cool. 199 00:09:03,211 --> 00:09:10,135 ♪ ♪ 200 00:09:28,069 --> 00:09:31,906 - Oh, my God. 201 00:09:31,907 --> 00:09:33,365 What time is it? 202 00:09:33,366 --> 00:09:34,618 I'm supposed to teach at 8:00. 203 00:09:34,619 --> 00:09:37,036 - Leigh's already there. 204 00:09:37,037 --> 00:09:38,370 - Okay, on a scale of 205 00:09:38,371 --> 00:09:39,539 "We'll laugh about this someday" 206 00:09:39,540 --> 00:09:41,624 to "my sister is dead to me," 207 00:09:41,625 --> 00:09:42,834 how mad is she? 208 00:09:42,835 --> 00:09:44,752 - Uh, she was in the "I'm not saying anything, 209 00:09:44,753 --> 00:09:46,795 but I'm sighing really loudly" range. 210 00:09:46,796 --> 00:09:50,466 - That's not good. 211 00:09:50,467 --> 00:09:52,468 Whatever. 212 00:09:52,469 --> 00:09:53,886 She always judges people. 213 00:09:53,887 --> 00:09:55,387 It's like the smokescreen she uses 214 00:09:55,388 --> 00:09:57,431 so that she doesn't have to work on her own problems. 215 00:09:57,432 --> 00:09:58,849 - Oh, you're in trouble right now, 216 00:09:58,850 --> 00:10:01,560 so I'm not gonna agree with you. 217 00:10:01,561 --> 00:10:05,105 Hope whatever happened last night was worth it. 218 00:10:05,106 --> 00:10:06,774 - [laughing] Oh, it was. 219 00:10:06,775 --> 00:10:09,151 The family my friend Kristin nannys for 220 00:10:09,152 --> 00:10:11,237 went out of town for the weekend, 221 00:10:11,238 --> 00:10:13,489 so we raided their wine cellar 222 00:10:13,490 --> 00:10:17,368 and went skinny-dipping in their infinity pool, 223 00:10:17,369 --> 00:10:20,037 uh, but then Kristin fell asleep inside the house 224 00:10:20,038 --> 00:10:23,123 with all of our stuff and we were all locked outside. 225 00:10:23,124 --> 00:10:25,125 All I had was my phone, so... 226 00:10:25,126 --> 00:10:27,503 I threw an inflatable pool toy 227 00:10:27,504 --> 00:10:29,088 over my naked body 228 00:10:29,089 --> 00:10:31,131 and took a Lyft here. 229 00:10:31,132 --> 00:10:32,716 The Lyft driver said that the next time 230 00:10:32,717 --> 00:10:33,885 anyone asks her for her craziest story, 231 00:10:33,886 --> 00:10:36,304 she's going to tell mine. 232 00:10:38,098 --> 00:10:39,724 [laughs] 233 00:10:41,226 --> 00:10:44,228 What? 234 00:10:44,229 --> 00:10:46,146 - Just think about 235 00:10:46,147 --> 00:10:47,399 what you could accomplish 236 00:10:47,400 --> 00:10:49,608 if you took all that energy you put into partying 237 00:10:49,609 --> 00:10:51,819 and funneled it literally into anything else. 238 00:10:51,820 --> 00:10:53,153 - [sighs] 239 00:10:53,154 --> 00:10:54,738 Thanks for the lecture, Dad, 240 00:10:54,739 --> 00:10:56,615 but I'm fine. 241 00:10:56,616 --> 00:10:58,158 I have a job, my mom makes me pay rent... 242 00:10:58,159 --> 00:11:00,661 - Okay, but what about the future? 243 00:11:00,662 --> 00:11:03,163 - Uh, I mean, I think it's unstoppable, 244 00:11:03,164 --> 00:11:05,332 but until it comes, 245 00:11:05,333 --> 00:11:06,293 I'm going to continue 246 00:11:06,294 --> 00:11:08,043 giving Lyft drivers their best stories. 247 00:11:08,044 --> 00:11:09,962 - Okay, clearly, I'm not getting through. 248 00:11:09,963 --> 00:11:13,924 This is the decade where you build your life. 249 00:11:13,925 --> 00:11:15,301 What do you want to build, Jules? 250 00:11:15,302 --> 00:11:16,802 Who do you want to be? 251 00:11:16,803 --> 00:11:18,137 - Yeah, okay. 252 00:11:18,138 --> 00:11:19,597 I can't wait for you to screw up, 253 00:11:19,598 --> 00:11:21,140 so you can call me, 254 00:11:21,141 --> 00:11:22,350 and I can ask you, 255 00:11:22,350 --> 00:11:23,560 "Who do you want to be?" 256 00:11:23,561 --> 00:11:26,020 but for now, I'm going to make us some pancakes, 257 00:11:26,021 --> 00:11:28,939 so you can stop questioning my life choices. 258 00:11:28,940 --> 00:11:30,066 Blueberry? 259 00:11:30,067 --> 00:11:31,525 - Okay. 260 00:11:31,526 --> 00:11:32,986 - Cool. 261 00:11:49,336 --> 00:11:51,254 - And send. 262 00:12:08,813 --> 00:12:10,981 - [voice mail] Yo, bro, talk to your wife. 263 00:12:10,982 --> 00:12:12,067 She's, like, freaking out 264 00:12:12,067 --> 00:12:13,360 'cause you haven't called her back. 265 00:12:13,361 --> 00:12:15,819 Text her you're okay, so she can stop calling me. 266 00:12:15,820 --> 00:12:17,446 Thanks. 267 00:12:17,447 --> 00:12:20,449 [relaxed music] 268 00:12:20,450 --> 00:12:27,457 ♪ ♪ 269 00:12:35,382 --> 00:12:37,841 - [voice mail] Hi, honey. It's Mom. 270 00:12:37,842 --> 00:12:39,760 I want to get you guys over for dinner. 271 00:12:39,761 --> 00:12:41,929 Can you and Leigh do Sunday night? 272 00:12:41,930 --> 00:12:44,431 Let me know. Love you. 273 00:12:44,432 --> 00:12:51,439 ♪ ♪ 274 00:13:04,828 --> 00:13:06,580 - [laughs] 275 00:13:08,832 --> 00:13:11,418 [laughs] 276 00:13:17,841 --> 00:13:19,633 [line ringing] 277 00:13:19,634 --> 00:13:21,594 Dude, dude, dude, you are never gonna believe 278 00:13:21,595 --> 00:13:23,512 what just... 279 00:13:23,513 --> 00:13:24,972 okay, wait, hold on. 280 00:13:24,973 --> 00:13:26,557 Hold on, wait. Whoa, whoa. 281 00:13:26,558 --> 00:13:28,225 W-what happened? 282 00:13:28,226 --> 00:13:31,854 - [laughs] 283 00:13:31,855 --> 00:13:33,647 Man, 284 00:13:33,648 --> 00:13:35,816 she said I was too defensive, 285 00:13:35,817 --> 00:13:37,860 but obviously, I'm gonna be defensive 286 00:13:37,861 --> 00:13:40,779 when she's always criticizing me, 287 00:13:40,780 --> 00:13:41,865 and she had already broken up with me 288 00:13:41,866 --> 00:13:44,199 at this point, by the way. 289 00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:46,952 So I'm like, [laughs] 290 00:13:46,953 --> 00:13:49,079 "Why am I still getting yelled at 291 00:13:49,080 --> 00:13:51,498 when you're already done?" 292 00:13:51,499 --> 00:13:52,709 - She was still yelling because 293 00:13:52,710 --> 00:13:55,586 she still wants to work it out between you guys, 294 00:13:55,587 --> 00:13:56,962 and as long as you insist 295 00:13:56,963 --> 00:13:57,964 on being right about everything, 296 00:13:57,964 --> 00:13:59,257 you're never gonna be in a relationship 297 00:13:59,258 --> 00:14:00,591 that lasts longer than six months. 298 00:14:00,592 --> 00:14:03,052 - Hm. That's amazing. 299 00:14:03,053 --> 00:14:04,470 How does Leigh get her voice 300 00:14:04,471 --> 00:14:06,597 to come out of your mouth like that? 301 00:14:06,598 --> 00:14:08,057 - It's not funny. - It is. 302 00:14:08,058 --> 00:14:09,683 Actually, it is. 303 00:14:09,684 --> 00:14:11,936 - You know, Mom let you get away with everything, 304 00:14:11,937 --> 00:14:14,688 and it created unrealistic expectations 305 00:14:14,689 --> 00:14:17,650 for how a woman would treat you. 306 00:14:17,651 --> 00:14:18,984 - You obviously got that from therapy. 307 00:14:18,985 --> 00:14:20,361 - No, I get a lot from it, actually. 308 00:14:20,362 --> 00:14:21,987 - Mm, maybe I can use some 309 00:14:21,988 --> 00:14:23,240 to help me get over this breakup. 310 00:14:23,240 --> 00:14:24,532 - No, you don't need therapy for that. 311 00:14:24,533 --> 00:14:27,034 Y-you're supposed to feel bad when you get dumped. 312 00:14:27,035 --> 00:14:28,619 You should go to therapy about Mom, though. 313 00:14:28,620 --> 00:14:31,038 - [laughs] 314 00:14:31,039 --> 00:14:34,833 [gentle music over speakers] 315 00:14:34,834 --> 00:14:37,711 You really think I have unrealistic expectations? 316 00:14:37,712 --> 00:14:39,463 ♪ ♪ 317 00:14:39,464 --> 00:14:42,550 Man, all I want is a girl... 318 00:14:42,551 --> 00:14:44,051 [sighs] 319 00:14:44,052 --> 00:14:46,554 Who will laugh really hard at my jokes 320 00:14:46,555 --> 00:14:48,514 and to make me laugh really hard back. 321 00:14:48,515 --> 00:14:54,270 ♪ ♪ 322 00:14:54,271 --> 00:14:56,897 - There was a study 323 00:14:56,898 --> 00:14:58,774 that looked at people 324 00:14:58,775 --> 00:15:00,068 who won the lottery 325 00:15:00,069 --> 00:15:02,653 and people who had an accident, 326 00:15:02,654 --> 00:15:05,698 became paraplegics, quadriplegics, 327 00:15:05,699 --> 00:15:07,741 and... 328 00:15:07,742 --> 00:15:09,410 pretty soon, 329 00:15:09,411 --> 00:15:10,662 they were about as happy 330 00:15:10,663 --> 00:15:12,746 as they were before the lottery 331 00:15:12,747 --> 00:15:16,458 or the accident, 332 00:15:16,459 --> 00:15:17,877 so they came up with this idea 333 00:15:17,878 --> 00:15:20,588 of a happiness set point. 334 00:15:20,589 --> 00:15:22,965 However happy you were, no matter what happened, 335 00:15:22,966 --> 00:15:25,676 after a momentary spike or dip, 336 00:15:25,677 --> 00:15:28,220 that's about as happy as you'll always be. 337 00:15:28,221 --> 00:15:30,347 ♪ ♪ 338 00:15:30,348 --> 00:15:32,224 - So I'm just gonna keep talking about Kyra, 339 00:15:32,225 --> 00:15:34,101 and you're just gonna keep talking 340 00:15:34,102 --> 00:15:35,644 about some article you read. - I'm saying, 341 00:15:35,645 --> 00:15:38,230 you're a relatively happy person. 342 00:15:38,231 --> 00:15:39,815 You were happy before you met Kyra, 343 00:15:39,816 --> 00:15:42,443 and you'll be happy again soon. 344 00:15:42,444 --> 00:15:43,737 - Okay. 345 00:15:43,738 --> 00:15:46,405 Okay, thanks. [laughs] 346 00:15:46,406 --> 00:15:48,324 - You know, the really crazy thing is, 347 00:15:48,325 --> 00:15:49,825 after the study, the lead researcher 348 00:15:49,826 --> 00:15:51,535 jumped off of a building. 349 00:15:51,536 --> 00:15:54,538 - Mm-hm. 350 00:15:54,539 --> 00:15:57,207 What do you think my sober set point is? 351 00:15:57,208 --> 00:16:00,920 I think I should spike it soon. 352 00:16:00,921 --> 00:16:02,254 Good? - Yeah. 353 00:16:02,255 --> 00:16:03,631 - Yeah? - Yeah. 354 00:16:03,632 --> 00:16:05,549 - I love you, man. - I love you, too. 355 00:16:05,550 --> 00:16:08,052 ♪ ♪ 356 00:16:08,053 --> 00:16:11,056 [sobs] 357 00:16:15,060 --> 00:16:18,062 [melancholy music] 358 00:16:18,063 --> 00:16:25,527 ♪ ♪ 359 00:16:25,528 --> 00:16:26,987 - [voice mail] I don't know why I'm still calling you 360 00:16:26,988 --> 00:16:29,740 if your phone's dead, 361 00:16:29,741 --> 00:16:33,244 Matt, if you are ignoring me, 362 00:16:33,245 --> 00:16:37,331 I am going to be so pissed. 363 00:16:37,332 --> 00:16:40,042 [sighs] Please call me. 364 00:16:40,043 --> 00:16:41,502 Call me, call me, call me, call me, 365 00:16:41,503 --> 00:16:42,836 call me, call me, call me, call me. 366 00:16:42,837 --> 00:16:43,922 Call me, call me, call me. 367 00:16:43,923 --> 00:16:45,881 Oh, my... wait, oh, shit, 368 00:16:45,882 --> 00:16:47,092 I'm getting another call. 369 00:16:47,093 --> 00:16:49,843 Uh, Oh, God, I hope this is you. 370 00:16:49,844 --> 00:16:55,683 ♪ ♪ 371 00:16:55,684 --> 00:16:59,270 - [cries] 372 00:16:59,271 --> 00:17:03,274 ♪ ♪ 373 00:17:03,275 --> 00:17:06,026 - [crying] What are you doing? 374 00:17:06,027 --> 00:17:08,612 - I was waiting until I was okay to drive, Leigh. 375 00:17:08,613 --> 00:17:11,949 - [crying] I thought you were dead. 376 00:17:11,950 --> 00:17:14,535 - No, no. 377 00:17:14,536 --> 00:17:16,453 - You can't die. 378 00:17:16,454 --> 00:17:17,997 - I won't. 379 00:17:17,998 --> 00:17:20,374 - No, I'm... I'm, like, never. 380 00:17:20,375 --> 00:17:22,376 - [laughs] 381 00:17:22,377 --> 00:17:24,712 I think I might have to someday. 382 00:17:24,713 --> 00:17:28,674 - [raggedly] Just do it after me. 383 00:17:28,675 --> 00:17:30,217 ♪ ♪ 384 00:17:30,218 --> 00:17:31,760 - Okay. 385 00:17:31,761 --> 00:17:33,888 It's okay. 386 00:17:33,889 --> 00:17:35,764 - [crying] - Hey, hey. 387 00:17:35,765 --> 00:17:36,850 Hey. 388 00:17:36,851 --> 00:17:39,435 Hey, it's okay, I'm here. 389 00:17:39,436 --> 00:17:43,063 ♪ ♪ 390 00:17:43,064 --> 00:17:46,067 [both panting and moaning] 391 00:17:55,869 --> 00:17:57,786 - [voice mail] This is your local Rite Aid Pharmacy. 392 00:17:57,787 --> 00:18:00,956 Your prescription is ready for pickup. 393 00:18:00,957 --> 00:18:06,003 - [sighs] 394 00:18:06,004 --> 00:18:08,130 - [voice mail] This is your local Rite Aid Pharmacy. 395 00:18:08,131 --> 00:18:10,216 Your prescription will be available 396 00:18:10,217 --> 00:18:12,760 for three more days. 397 00:18:12,761 --> 00:18:16,430 - [kisses] 398 00:18:16,431 --> 00:18:18,515 - [voice mail] This is your local Rite Aid Pharmacy. 399 00:18:18,516 --> 00:18:20,809 Your prescription has been canceled. 400 00:18:20,810 --> 00:18:22,895 Please call your doctor's office. 401 00:18:22,896 --> 00:18:24,563 - I think that's better than a coffee. 402 00:18:24,564 --> 00:18:25,898 - [laughs] 403 00:18:25,899 --> 00:18:27,901 You're welcome. 404 00:18:30,612 --> 00:18:32,363 - Did you cum? 405 00:18:32,364 --> 00:18:33,948 - Um, no, I don't think... 406 00:18:33,949 --> 00:18:36,159 uh, I don't think it's gonna happen today. 407 00:18:47,629 --> 00:18:48,880 - Are you okay? 408 00:18:48,881 --> 00:18:50,548 - Yeah, I think it's just a possible side effect 409 00:18:50,549 --> 00:18:52,508 of the medication I'm taking. 410 00:18:52,509 --> 00:18:54,802 - You do... 411 00:18:54,803 --> 00:18:58,847 seem like you're... a little better, I think. 412 00:18:58,848 --> 00:19:01,517 - Well, I read somewhere that sometimes, 413 00:19:01,518 --> 00:19:05,480 your body feels it before your head does. 414 00:19:14,114 --> 00:19:16,198 - I wish I had a better understanding 415 00:19:16,199 --> 00:19:18,742 of what you're going through. - Oh, it's hard to describe. 416 00:19:18,743 --> 00:19:21,078 - You're an English teacher. 417 00:19:21,079 --> 00:19:23,707 Give me a metaphor. - I don't know! 418 00:19:26,418 --> 00:19:29,003 - I read an article 419 00:19:29,004 --> 00:19:31,589 that said it's like a... 420 00:19:31,590 --> 00:19:35,551 like a fog descending over everything. 421 00:19:35,552 --> 00:19:37,344 - Mm. 422 00:19:37,345 --> 00:19:39,471 - Like that? 423 00:19:39,472 --> 00:19:41,474 - Kind of. 424 00:19:43,768 --> 00:19:45,269 - Please just tell me 425 00:19:45,270 --> 00:19:48,480 if there's anything 426 00:19:48,481 --> 00:19:50,107 I can do to help. 427 00:19:50,108 --> 00:19:51,609 - Oh, yeah. 428 00:19:51,610 --> 00:19:53,361 - Anything. 429 00:19:56,072 --> 00:19:58,282 Even if it's giving you space, 430 00:19:58,283 --> 00:20:01,285 which, you know, is the hardest thing 431 00:20:01,286 --> 00:20:04,872 you could ask me to do. 432 00:20:04,873 --> 00:20:08,334 But I love you that much. 433 00:20:08,335 --> 00:20:11,420 - That is what I need. 434 00:20:11,421 --> 00:20:14,423 [somber music] 435 00:20:14,424 --> 00:20:15,883 ♪ ♪ 436 00:20:15,884 --> 00:20:17,718 - Then... 437 00:20:17,719 --> 00:20:21,722 I can start by taking a shower, 438 00:20:21,723 --> 00:20:24,308 and that will buy you ten minutes. 439 00:20:24,309 --> 00:20:27,102 - Mm, twenty-five. - [laughs] 440 00:20:27,103 --> 00:20:32,775 ♪ ♪ 441 00:20:32,776 --> 00:20:38,239 [voice mail recording starts] 442 00:20:38,240 --> 00:20:39,865 [recording ends] 443 00:20:39,866 --> 00:20:46,873 ♪ ♪ 444 00:20:51,920 --> 00:20:53,379 - [voice mail] Hey, it's, uh... it's Danny. 445 00:20:53,380 --> 00:20:55,548 I, uh... 446 00:20:55,549 --> 00:20:57,383 I do... I don't know why 447 00:20:57,384 --> 00:20:59,385 I even called you. I... 448 00:20:59,386 --> 00:21:02,346 You're never even gonna get this message. 449 00:21:02,347 --> 00:21:04,473 Yeah. 450 00:21:04,474 --> 00:21:06,850 I guess I just wanted to hear your voice. 451 00:21:06,851 --> 00:21:09,562 ♪ ♪ 452 00:21:09,563 --> 00:21:11,647 [laughs] This is weird. 453 00:21:11,648 --> 00:21:12,899 Sorry. 454 00:21:12,900 --> 00:21:15,067 - [sighs] 455 00:21:15,068 --> 00:21:18,070 Um... 456 00:21:18,071 --> 00:21:21,323 I was procrastinating the other day 457 00:21:21,324 --> 00:21:23,450 and I was flipping through my phone, 458 00:21:23,451 --> 00:21:27,871 and I found this old credit card bill 459 00:21:27,872 --> 00:21:30,583 I hadn't paid. 460 00:21:30,584 --> 00:21:34,461 Um, I donated to this thing. 461 00:21:34,462 --> 00:21:39,758 The last male northern white rhino was sick. 462 00:21:39,759 --> 00:21:41,886 And I hid the emails 463 00:21:41,887 --> 00:21:43,554 because I didn't want Leigh to find out about it, 464 00:21:43,555 --> 00:21:46,932 and I guess I forgot to pay it. 465 00:21:46,933 --> 00:21:51,020 W... anyway, um... 466 00:21:51,021 --> 00:21:52,521 I hadn't heard about the rhino, 467 00:21:52,522 --> 00:21:57,151 so I looked him up, 468 00:21:57,152 --> 00:22:01,447 and it turns out he died. 469 00:22:01,448 --> 00:22:03,491 Months ago, actually. 470 00:22:06,745 --> 00:22:10,289 Um... 471 00:22:10,290 --> 00:22:14,627 The whole world just didn't care about him. 472 00:22:14,628 --> 00:22:17,046 We killed off every single creature like him, 473 00:22:17,047 --> 00:22:20,966 and now he's gone. 474 00:22:20,967 --> 00:22:22,843 - Why don't you want Leigh to know? 475 00:22:22,844 --> 00:22:24,470 - Uh, because I always donate 476 00:22:24,471 --> 00:22:25,846 to bummer things like that, 477 00:22:25,847 --> 00:22:28,015 and I shouldn't be spending the money, 478 00:22:28,016 --> 00:22:30,643 and e... I'll... I'll just put the credit card 479 00:22:30,644 --> 00:22:33,145 in the freezer. - Why can't you... 480 00:22:33,146 --> 00:22:34,897 just tell Leigh about it? 481 00:22:34,898 --> 00:22:38,525 - She doesn't know what it's really like. 482 00:22:38,526 --> 00:22:40,194 She thinks it's like a fog, 483 00:22:40,195 --> 00:22:41,321 because someone described it like that 484 00:22:41,321 --> 00:22:42,197 in an article or something, 485 00:22:42,198 --> 00:22:45,324 but that's... that's not how it feels to me. 486 00:22:45,325 --> 00:22:46,992 - What does it feel like for you? 487 00:22:46,993 --> 00:22:48,869 - The opposite. 488 00:22:48,870 --> 00:22:51,372 It feels like a bracing wind 489 00:22:51,373 --> 00:22:53,332 that blows... blows the fog away 490 00:22:53,333 --> 00:22:55,459 and reveals the whole truth 491 00:22:55,460 --> 00:23:00,130 of the world underneath, and it's... 492 00:23:00,131 --> 00:23:04,051 Everyone else is in the fog. They can't see it, but I can, 493 00:23:04,052 --> 00:23:07,304 and it's all ugly and hopeless. 494 00:23:07,305 --> 00:23:08,973 - Is that the depression talking? 495 00:23:08,974 --> 00:23:11,559 - No, no, it's me talking. 496 00:23:11,560 --> 00:23:13,060 - The disease 497 00:23:13,061 --> 00:23:14,728 makes you see the world that way. 498 00:23:14,729 --> 00:23:16,522 - No, the disease isn't dangerous 499 00:23:16,523 --> 00:23:17,856 because it tells me lies. 500 00:23:17,857 --> 00:23:22,319 The disease is dangerous because it tells me the truth. 501 00:23:22,320 --> 00:23:24,573 - Matt... 502 00:23:28,702 --> 00:23:31,453 You have to open yourself up 503 00:23:31,454 --> 00:23:33,247 to the possibility 504 00:23:33,248 --> 00:23:35,375 that you can be happy. 505 00:23:43,466 --> 00:23:45,050 - [voice mail] I was thinking about this time 506 00:23:45,051 --> 00:23:46,510 we were driving to Vegas. 507 00:23:46,511 --> 00:23:48,846 I was sleeping, and... 508 00:23:48,847 --> 00:23:52,099 you woke me up because there was actually 509 00:23:52,100 --> 00:23:53,684 a tumbleweed blowing by, 510 00:23:53,685 --> 00:23:56,687 and you knew it would make me laugh. 511 00:23:56,688 --> 00:23:58,564 [laughs] 512 00:23:58,565 --> 00:24:00,399 And I did. 513 00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:02,192 I laughed so hard. It... 514 00:24:02,193 --> 00:24:03,737 - Matt Greer? 515 00:24:05,196 --> 00:24:08,032 - [voice mail] Not saying I don't... laugh anymore, 516 00:24:08,033 --> 00:24:11,243 but... not like you made me laugh. 517 00:24:11,244 --> 00:24:12,578 - Sorry I'm late, but I swear, 518 00:24:12,579 --> 00:24:15,164 being an editor's like being a firefighter on the Sun, 519 00:24:15,165 --> 00:24:16,540 which is why it's so nice 520 00:24:16,541 --> 00:24:18,042 when I get to make someone's day. 521 00:24:18,043 --> 00:24:19,294 Here's the deal: 522 00:24:19,295 --> 00:24:20,920 You're a better writer than artist, 523 00:24:20,921 --> 00:24:22,214 and there's a few key panels 524 00:24:22,215 --> 00:24:23,631 I want you to take another crack at, 525 00:24:23,632 --> 00:24:26,091 and obviously, you gotta finish that last chapter, 526 00:24:26,092 --> 00:24:28,886 but I know you can get there. - Uh, sure. 527 00:24:28,887 --> 00:24:32,431 - Sorry. I'm totally burying the lede here. 528 00:24:32,432 --> 00:24:34,767 We're gonna publish you. 529 00:24:34,768 --> 00:24:36,477 - [laughs] 530 00:24:36,478 --> 00:24:38,604 - We just gotta nail those last few pages and I'm... 531 00:24:38,605 --> 00:24:41,608 [muffled speech] 532 00:24:45,362 --> 00:24:47,780 [muffled] Congratulations, Matt. 533 00:24:47,781 --> 00:24:49,573 Welcome to the club. 534 00:24:49,574 --> 00:24:52,576 [desolate music] 535 00:24:52,577 --> 00:24:59,584 ♪ ♪ 536 00:25:04,089 --> 00:25:06,090 [voice mail] Matt, dude. Joe Tsang. 537 00:25:06,091 --> 00:25:07,300 It's been three weeks. Where'd you go? 538 00:25:07,301 --> 00:25:09,593 I've been emailing you. Hit me back. 539 00:25:09,594 --> 00:25:11,929 ♪ ♪ 540 00:25:11,930 --> 00:25:14,848 [phone rings] 541 00:25:14,849 --> 00:25:17,309 ♪ ♪ 542 00:25:17,310 --> 00:25:20,187 - Hey. - Hey. 543 00:25:20,188 --> 00:25:22,022 - What's going on? 544 00:25:22,023 --> 00:25:24,358 - It's Jules. Her car 545 00:25:24,359 --> 00:25:26,652 quote-unquote broke down in Victorville, 546 00:25:26,653 --> 00:25:30,197 so I'm not... I'm not gonna make it for dinner. 547 00:25:30,198 --> 00:25:31,991 - Uh, then don't give it a second thought. 548 00:25:31,992 --> 00:25:33,742 Just go do what you've gotta do. 549 00:25:33,743 --> 00:25:35,578 - You're the greatest. I'm so sorry. 550 00:25:35,579 --> 00:25:36,871 I'll make it up to you tomorrow. 551 00:25:36,872 --> 00:25:39,248 - No, don't... don't... I... 552 00:25:39,249 --> 00:25:41,125 Yeah, you better. [laughs] 553 00:25:41,126 --> 00:25:43,085 Uh... 554 00:25:43,086 --> 00:25:44,920 Hey, I'll see you later, okay? 555 00:25:44,921 --> 00:25:48,090 - Okay, I love you. - Yeah, love you too. 556 00:25:48,091 --> 00:25:49,425 Bye. 557 00:25:49,426 --> 00:25:52,428 [soothing music] 558 00:25:52,429 --> 00:25:58,350 ♪ ♪ 559 00:25:58,351 --> 00:25:59,768 - [voice mail] I went for a hike today. 560 00:25:59,769 --> 00:26:02,146 [laughs] What do you think of that? 561 00:26:02,147 --> 00:26:05,274 I'm at the spot where, um... 562 00:26:05,275 --> 00:26:07,401 Anyway, I'm looking straight down 563 00:26:07,402 --> 00:26:10,321 the side of this cliff, man. It's no joke. 564 00:26:10,322 --> 00:26:13,949 But I guess you already knew that. 565 00:26:13,950 --> 00:26:16,368 Was it muddy up there? 566 00:26:16,369 --> 00:26:17,870 You never replaced those raggedy-ass boots, 567 00:26:17,871 --> 00:26:19,413 did you? 568 00:26:19,414 --> 00:26:21,832 [melancholy music] 569 00:26:21,833 --> 00:26:24,168 I'm just trying to understand... 570 00:26:24,169 --> 00:26:25,295 what happened, since you can't 571 00:26:25,296 --> 00:26:27,880 explain it to me. 572 00:26:27,881 --> 00:26:29,715 Those last few seconds 573 00:26:29,716 --> 00:26:32,593 on the way down, 574 00:26:32,594 --> 00:26:34,428 what was going through your head? 575 00:26:34,429 --> 00:26:41,435 ♪ ♪ 576 00:26:41,436 --> 00:26:43,604 [groans] Where are you going? 577 00:26:43,605 --> 00:26:45,022 - I'm gonna go for a hike. 578 00:26:45,023 --> 00:26:46,690 - I'm gonna come with you. 579 00:26:46,691 --> 00:26:47,984 ♪ ♪ 580 00:26:47,985 --> 00:26:50,402 Just give me ten minutes to get ready. 581 00:26:50,403 --> 00:26:52,196 ♪ ♪ 582 00:26:52,197 --> 00:26:54,073 And three more hours to sleep. 583 00:26:54,074 --> 00:26:56,075 - You were up all night. It's okay. 584 00:26:56,076 --> 00:26:57,660 - Mm, okay. 585 00:26:57,661 --> 00:26:58,954 I love you. 586 00:26:58,954 --> 00:27:00,247 - I love you too. 587 00:27:00,248 --> 00:27:07,254 ♪ ♪ 588 00:27:17,722 --> 00:27:20,432 - [voice mail] You've done that hike a hundred times, 589 00:27:20,433 --> 00:27:24,228 and I've done it with you at least 20. 590 00:27:24,229 --> 00:27:30,192 ♪ ♪ 591 00:27:30,193 --> 00:27:31,694 I want to believe this was an accident, 592 00:27:31,695 --> 00:27:33,237 but I'm standing here, looking down, 593 00:27:33,238 --> 00:27:36,740 and... I just don't know. 594 00:27:36,741 --> 00:27:39,119 ♪ ♪ 595 00:27:39,953 --> 00:27:42,956 - [crying] 596 00:28:13,486 --> 00:28:15,529 - I think I want a party. - You do? 597 00:28:15,530 --> 00:28:16,947 - I do. - A party? 598 00:28:16,948 --> 00:28:19,033 - Mm-hmm. Like a big party. 599 00:28:19,034 --> 00:28:21,035 - Okay. 600 00:28:21,036 --> 00:28:22,245 - Leigh, I've been trying to give you 601 00:28:22,245 --> 00:28:23,413 your column back for months. 602 00:28:23,414 --> 00:28:27,291 - I-I know you waited on me, and the good news is, 603 00:28:27,292 --> 00:28:29,126 is that I'm done putting my life on hold 604 00:28:29,127 --> 00:28:30,170 and I'm ready to do this. 605 00:28:30,170 --> 00:28:31,213 - Are you okay? 606 00:28:31,214 --> 00:28:35,466 You've invited 657 people to my house tonight. 607 00:28:35,467 --> 00:28:37,343 - Well, it's a last-minute invite on a Tuesday. 608 00:28:37,344 --> 00:28:39,553 If 30 people show up, it's gonna be a Christmas miracle. 609 00:28:39,554 --> 00:28:43,474 - No. Shit. [doorbell rings] 610 00:28:43,475 --> 00:28:45,518 [squeals, laughs]