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When it's time to hit the stage,
I still get super-nervous.
I like to be in control.

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I still get super-nervous.
I like to be in control.
I like to know that things are

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I like to be in control.
I like to know that things are
gonna go the way I want them to

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I like to know that things are
gonna go the way I want them to
go, because I put so much time

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gonna go the way I want them to
go, because I put so much time
and effort into them going that

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go, because I put so much time
and effort into them going that
way.

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And effort into them going that
way.
And I know if I do it my way,

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way.
And I know if I do it my way,
then I'm not gonna

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and I know if I do it my way,
then I'm not gonna
be disappointed.

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Then I'm not gonna
be disappointed.
If I do it your way, maybe a

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be disappointed.
If I do it your way, maybe a
disappointment.

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If I do it your way, maybe a
disappointment.
So, I'm gonna do it my way, and

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disappointment.
So, I'm gonna do it my way, and
I know my way's gonna be the way

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so, I'm gonna do it my way, and
I know my way's gonna be the way
that fits me, that I'm

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I know my way's gonna be the way
that fits me, that I'm
comfortable in.

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That fits me, that I'm
comfortable in.
So, that's the calmness to,

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comfortable in.
So, that's the calmness to,
like, this whole riot when it

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so, that's the calmness to,
like, this whole riot when it
comes to me.

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I had a great childhood,
absolutely.
Yeah, you know, my family lived

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absolutely.
Yeah, you know, my family lived
directly in miami, which is

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yeah, you know, my family lived
directly in miami, which is
liberty city.

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Directly in miami, which is
liberty city.
I didn't actually live in

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liberty city.
I didn't actually live in
liberty city, but it was like my

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I didn't actually live in
liberty city, but it was like my
family's house.

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Liberty city, but it was like my
family's house.
So, that was the hangout spot

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family's house.
So, that was the hangout spot
every day.

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So, that was the hangout spot
every day.
You know, I went to school in

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every day.
You know, I went to school in
liberty city.

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You know, I went to school in
liberty city.
My mom's salon in liberty city,

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liberty city.
My mom's salon in liberty city,
another store in liberty city.

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My mom's salon in liberty city,
another store in liberty city.
So, this was where I grew up at.

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Another store in liberty city.
So, this was where I grew up at.
This is where I hung out at

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so, this was where I grew up at.
This is where I hung out at
every single day when my mom was

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this is where I hung out at
every single day when my mom was
working, doing hair at the

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every single day when my mom was
working, doing hair at the
salon.

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Working, doing hair at the
salon.
We'd be there every day.

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Salon.
We'd be there every day.
And then, when it's time to go

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we'd be there every day.
And then, when it's time to go
home, I leave.

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And then, when it's time to go
home, I leave.
So, you know, I had two

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home, I leave.
So, you know, I had two
different versions -- the city

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so, you know, I had two
different versions -- the city
and the suburbs.

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Different versions -- the city
and the suburbs.
But the city, that's where it

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and the suburbs.
But the city, that's where it
was at.

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But the city, that's where it
was at.
You know, that's where I learned

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was at.
You know, that's where I learned
everything, from how to just

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you know, that's where I learned
everything, from how to just
grow up, how to adapt, how to

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everything, from how to just
grow up, how to adapt, how to
deal with just the guys.

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Grow up, how to adapt, how to
deal with just the guys.
You know, how to be respected.

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Deal with just the guys.
You know, how to be respected.
You know, I came from a

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you know, how to be respected.
You know, I came from a
well-respected family.

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You know, I came from a
well-respected family.
So, I grew up into that.

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Well-respected family.
So, I grew up into that.
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so, I grew up into that.
♪
my mom was the type of woman

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♪
my mom was the type of woman
that you had to have the utmost

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my mom was the type of woman
that you had to have the utmost
respect from.

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That you had to have the utmost
respect from.
When it comes to a man, there is

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respect from.
When it comes to a man, there is
no such thing as not being

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when it comes to a man, there is
no such thing as not being
treated as a queen.

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No such thing as not being
treated as a queen.
That wasn't tolerated.

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Treated as a queen.
That wasn't tolerated.
All I saw was the royal

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that wasn't tolerated.
All I saw was the royal
treatment.

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All I saw was the royal
treatment.
All I saw was never accept a

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treatment.
All I saw was never accept a
whole bunch of stuff when it

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all I saw was never accept a
whole bunch of stuff when it
comes to that.

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Whole bunch of stuff when it
comes to that.
And I had two amazing

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comes to that.
And I had two amazing
stepfathers.

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And I had two amazing
stepfathers.
My mom was married to my

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stepfathers.
My mom was married to my
stepfather.

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My mom was married to my
stepfather.
He passed away, and then I had

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stepfather.
He passed away, and then I had
another stepfather.

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He passed away, and then I had
another stepfather.
And those are the men that

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another stepfather.
And those are the men that
raised me.

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And those are the men that
raised me.
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raised me.
♪
well, my mom owned some stores

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♪
well, my mom owned some stores
and salons and stuff, so she

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well, my mom owned some stores
and salons and stuff, so she
would be working.

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And salons and stuff, so she
would be working.
Like, sometimes, she would be

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would be working.
Like, sometimes, she would be
in there 24 hours.

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Like, sometimes, she would be
in there 24 hours.
Like, it's time for us to go to

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in there 24 hours.
Like, it's time for us to go to
school, and she's still doing

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like, it's time for us to go to
school, and she's still doing
hair.

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School, and she's still doing
hair.
Like, women would still be

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hair.
Like, women would still be
getting their hair done.

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Like, women would still be
getting their hair done.
And so, sometimes we would --

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getting their hair done.
And so, sometimes we would --
we had a caretaker, somebody

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and so, sometimes we would --
we had a caretaker, somebody
that would always watch us

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we had a caretaker, somebody
that would always watch us
sometimes, like when we're home,

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that would always watch us
sometimes, like when we're home,
and she's at the salon.

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Sometimes, like when we're home,
and she's at the salon.
And sometimes in the morning,

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and she's at the salon.
And sometimes in the morning,
it's time to go to school, we

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and sometimes in the morning,
it's time to go to school, we
just have to go in the limo.

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It's time to go to school, we
just have to go in the limo.
We just have to get to school.

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Just have to go in the limo.
We just have to get to school.
It doesn't matter that she's not

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we just have to get to school.
It doesn't matter that she's not
there.

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It doesn't matter that she's not
there.
It just always was made a way.

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There.
It just always was made a way.
And that was just something I

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it just always was made a way.
And that was just something I
grew up.

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And that was just something I
grew up.
It's just the weirdest thing

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grew up.
It's just the weirdest thing
when I say that, but yeah.

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It's just the weirdest thing
when I say that, but yeah.
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when I say that, but yeah.
♪
it was just a different raising,

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♪
it was just a different raising,
you know?

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It was just a different raising,
you know?
We were catered and cared for

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you know?
We were catered and cared for
and watched carefully.

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We were catered and cared for
and watched carefully.
Just because of the type of

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and watched carefully.
Just because of the type of
lifestyle my mom had, that's

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just because of the type of
lifestyle my mom had, that's
previously before me.

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Lifestyle my mom had, that's
previously before me.
So, therefore, she had to make

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previously before me.
So, therefore, she had to make
sure I was super-protected.

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So, therefore, she had to make
sure I was super-protected.
So, you know, yeah, I just grew

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sure I was super-protected.
So, you know, yeah, I just grew
up like that, always seeing my

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so, you know, yeah, I just grew
up like that, always seeing my
mom never, ever have a down day.

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Up like that, always seeing my
mom never, ever have a down day.
Never say there's a day that she

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mom never, ever have a down day.
Never say there's a day that she
don't have it.

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Never say there's a day that she
don't have it.
Never say there's a day that no,

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don't have it.
Never say there's a day that no,
you can't have it.

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Never say there's a day that no,
you can't have it.
Never is there a day -- I never

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you can't have it.
Never is there a day -- I never
was told no.

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Never is there a day -- I never
was told no.
It was always, "the world is

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was told no.
It was always, "the world is
yours and everything in it.

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It was always, "the world is
yours and everything in it.
And as long as I'm here, that's

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yours and everything in it.
And as long as I'm here, that's
gonna happen."

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and as long as I'm here, that's
gonna happen."
♪

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gonna happen."
♪
[ birds chirping ]

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♪
[ birds chirping ]
you know, soon as I fly home, I

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[ birds chirping ]
you know, soon as I fly home, I
always go to my mom's house

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you know, soon as I fly home, I
always go to my mom's house
first.

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Always go to my mom's house
first.
If I'm going for the weekend, I

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first.
If I'm going for the weekend, I
always go there.

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If I'm going for the weekend, I
always go there.
And this particular day is

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always go there.
And this particular day is
thanksgiving.

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And this particular day is
thanksgiving.
So, I just know the pots is on

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thanksgiving.
So, I just know the pots is on
the stove, the mac and cheese in

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so, I just know the pots is on
the stove, the mac and cheese in
the oven.

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The stove, the mac and cheese in
the oven.
Like, it's just gonna be -- this

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the oven.
Like, it's just gonna be -- this
is always what happened.

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Like, it's just gonna be -- this
is always what happened.
So, when I get there, I didn't

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is always what happened.
So, when I get there, I didn't
smell no food, and I didn't see

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so, when I get there, I didn't
smell no food, and I didn't see
her.

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Smell no food, and I didn't see
her.
She was actually in her room,

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her.
She was actually in her room,
and that just wasn't like her.

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She was actually in her room,
and that just wasn't like her.
So, I went in her room, and she

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and that just wasn't like her.
So, I went in her room, and she
was just laying in the bed,

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so, I went in her room, and she
was just laying in the bed,
like, just laying there.

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Was just laying in the bed,
like, just laying there.
And I was like, "are you okay,

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like, just laying there.
And I was like, "are you okay,
mom?"

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and I was like, "are you okay,
mom?"
she was like, "yeah, I'm fine."

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mom?"
she was like, "yeah, I'm fine."
I was like, "well, why aren't

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she was like, "yeah, I'm fine."
I was like, "well, why aren't
you up?

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I was like, "well, why aren't
you up?
I don't see food or nothing.

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You up?
I don't see food or nothing.
Do you feel good?"

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I don't see food or nothing.
Do you feel good?"
and she was like, "a little."

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do you feel good?"
and she was like, "a little."
and then I just, you know, I was

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and she was like, "a little."
and then I just, you know, I was
like, "a little?

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And then I just, you know, I was
like, "a little?
What does that mean?"

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like, "a little?
What does that mean?"
she was just like, "oh, no, you

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what does that mean?"
she was just like, "oh, no, you
know, just stomach hurt, not

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she was just like, "oh, no, you
know, just stomach hurt, not
really feeling good."

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know, just stomach hurt, not
really feeling good."
I was like, "okay."

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really feeling good."
I was like, "okay."
and then I was like, "but it

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I was like, "okay."
and then I was like, "but it
looks like you're in pain or

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and then I was like, "but it
looks like you're in pain or
something."

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looks like you're in pain or
something."
and then I was like, "okay,

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something."
and then I was like, "okay,
we're going to the hospital."

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and then I was like, "okay,
we're going to the hospital."
♪

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we're going to the hospital."
♪
that day, I spent thanksgiving

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♪
that day, I spent thanksgiving
at the hospital.

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That day, I spent thanksgiving
at the hospital.
And when I took her there, I

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at the hospital.
And when I took her there, I
remember them just doing all

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and when I took her there, I
remember them just doing all
these tests and all this stuff.

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Remember them just doing all
these tests and all this stuff.
It was just, like, stressing me

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these tests and all this stuff.
It was just, like, stressing me
out.

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It was just, like, stressing me
out.
They said she had kidney stones

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out.
They said she had kidney stones
or something.

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They said she had kidney stones
or something.
So, I was like, "oh, okay.

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Or something.
So, I was like, "oh, okay.
Well, is that fixable?"

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so, I was like, "oh, okay.
Well, is that fixable?"
you know.

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Well, is that fixable?"
you know.
And then they were like, "yeah,

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you know.
And then they were like, "yeah,
we just have to do a surgery,"

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and then they were like, "yeah,
we just have to do a surgery,"
whatever.

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We just have to do a surgery,"
whatever.
I convinced her to stay for the

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whatever.
I convinced her to stay for the
surgery because they could have

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I convinced her to stay for the
surgery because they could have
did it right away.

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Surgery because they could have
did it right away.
So, she was in there maybe like

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did it right away.
So, she was in there maybe like
a week or so before she had the

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so, she was in there maybe like
a week or so before she had the
surgery.

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A week or so before she had the
surgery.
And then, after the surgery, I

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surgery.
And then, after the surgery, I
went back because I wanted to

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and then, after the surgery, I
went back because I wanted to
physically see the doctor and,

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went back because I wanted to
physically see the doctor and,
like, know the process.

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Physically see the doctor and,
like, know the process.
And then the doctor says to me,

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like, know the process.
And then the doctor says to me,
"well, your mom is diagnosed

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and then the doctor says to me,
"well, your mom is diagnosed
with cancer."

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"well, your mom is diagnosed
with cancer."
and I was looking at him like,

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with cancer."
and I was looking at him like,
"sir, I don't know what you're

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and I was looking at him like,
"sir, I don't know what you're
talking about.

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"sir, I don't know what you're
talking about.
Like, I didn't even -- I don't

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talking about.
Like, I didn't even -- I don't
know what you're talking

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like, I didn't even -- I don't
know what you're talking
about."

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know what you're talking
about."
that's what I was saying.

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About."
that's what I was saying.
And then, I was like, "where is

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that's what I was saying.
And then, I was like, "where is
my mom?"

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and then, I was like, "where is
my mom?"
and then he was like, "she's in

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my mom?"
and then he was like, "she's in
there.

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And then he was like, "she's in
there.
She's out of recovery,"

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there.
She's out of recovery,"
whatever.

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She's out of recovery,"
whatever.
And I go see her, and she was

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whatever.
And I go see her, and she was
asleep.

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And I go see her, and she was
asleep.
And I just sat there for a

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asleep.
And I just sat there for a
while, and he was like, "would

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and I just sat there for a
while, and he was like, "would
you like me to explain?"

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while, and he was like, "would
you like me to explain?"
I was like, "no, I just want you

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you like me to explain?"
I was like, "no, I just want you
to leave."

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I was like, "no, I just want you
to leave."
and so, he left, and I stayed

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to leave."
and so, he left, and I stayed
there with her the night.

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And so, he left, and I stayed
there with her the night.
I spent the night.

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There with her the night.
I spent the night.
And then, the next morning, she

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I spent the night.
And then, the next morning, she
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And then, the next morning, she
woke up.
He came in maybe, like, early in

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woke up.
He came in maybe, like, early in
the morning, like, 7:00 in the

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he came in maybe, like, early in
the morning, like, 7:00 in the
morning or 6:00 in the morning

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the morning, like, 7:00 in the
morning or 6:00 in the morning
or something, and he goes, "I

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morning or 6:00 in the morning
or something, and he goes, "I
think we should talk."

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or something, and he goes, "I
think we should talk."
he told my mom what he told me,

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think we should talk."
he told my mom what he told me,
but I walked out.

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He told my mom what he told me,
but I walked out.
When I came back, she was just

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but I walked out.
When I came back, she was just
real quiet or whatever.

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When I came back, she was just
real quiet or whatever.
So, I never said a word.

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Real quiet or whatever.
So, I never said a word.
I didn't say anything.

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So, I never said a word.
I didn't say anything.
And then, the next day, I came

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I didn't say anything.
And then, the next day, I came
back to the hospital, and I go

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and then, the next day, I came
back to the hospital, and I go
to her, "so, like, you know,

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back to the hospital, and I go
to her, "so, like, you know,
what is he saying?

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To her, "so, like, you know,
what is he saying?
What does that mean?"

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what is he saying?
What does that mean?"
it just happened so fast.

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What does that mean?"
it just happened so fast.
She stayed in the hospital

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it just happened so fast.
She stayed in the hospital
until, from thanksgiving, which

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she stayed in the hospital
until, from thanksgiving, which
is November, until, like, right

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until, from thanksgiving, which
is November, until, like, right
before her birthday, which is

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is November, until, like, right
before her birthday, which is
just past February 10th.

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Before her birthday, which is
just past February 10th.
So, that was a while being in

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just past February 10th.
So, that was a while being in
there, and it was just test and

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so, that was a while being in
there, and it was just test and
this and all this stuff.

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There, and it was just test and
this and all this stuff.
And I just wanted to move her

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this and all this stuff.
And I just wanted to move her
from this particular hospital.

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And I just wanted to move her
from this particular hospital.
And I took her somewhere else.

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From this particular hospital.
And I took her somewhere else.
They were basically saying kind

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and I took her somewhere else.
They were basically saying kind
of the same things and kind of

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they were basically saying kind
of the same things and kind of
giving more in depth of what

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of the same things and kind of
giving more in depth of what
it was and the type of cancer.

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Giving more in depth of what
it was and the type of cancer.
And I don't think I wanted to

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it was and the type of cancer.
And I don't think I wanted to
believe or understand the word.

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And I don't think I wanted to
believe or understand the word.
I just hate that word.

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Believe or understand the word.
I just hate that word.
I don't know how to process it.

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I just hate that word.
I don't know how to process it.
And it was just happening so

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I don't know how to process it.
And it was just happening so
fast.

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And it was just happening so
fast.
And when the treatments started

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fast.
And when the treatments started
happening, then I was really,

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and when the treatments started
happening, then I was really,
like, "no."

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happening, then I was really,
like, "no."
for me, like, a lot of it was --

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like, "no."
for me, like, a lot of it was --
a lot of it was...

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For me, like, a lot of it was --
a lot of it was...
For me, a lot it was, um...

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A lot of it was...
For me, a lot it was, um...
I think I was just in disbelief

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for me, a lot it was, um...
I think I was just in disbelief
a lot.

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I think I was just in disbelief
a lot.
And then, um...

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A lot.
And then, um...
I mean, you could just see.

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And then, um...
I mean, you could just see.
It's like this person that...

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I mean, you could just see.
It's like this person that...
Um...

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It's like this person that...
Um...
[ voice breaking ] ...Is like

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um...
[ voice breaking ] ...Is like
the strongest person that

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[ voice breaking ] ...Is like
the strongest person that
you've ever seen is now

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the strongest person that
you've ever seen is now
helpless.

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You've ever seen is now
helpless.
And there's nothing you can do

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helpless.
And there's nothing you can do
about it.

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And there's nothing you can do
about it.
♪

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>> trina: Luke?
To me, he's like the father of
miami because when I grew up,

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to me, he's like the father of
miami because when I grew up,
luke was just known for, like,

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miami because when I grew up,
luke was just known for, like,
all the girls, you know?

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Luke was just known for, like,
all the girls, you know?
Nice bodies, you know, that.

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All the girls, you know?
Nice bodies, you know, that.
But for us, as kids, it was more

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nice bodies, you know, that.
But for us, as kids, it was more
than that, because that was for

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but for us, as kids, it was more
than that, because that was for
the adults.

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Than that, because that was for
the adults.
So, that's where he had the

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the adults.
So, that's where he had the
pac jam, which was a teen disco

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so, that's where he had the
pac jam, which was a teen disco
for the kids.

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Pac jam, which was a teen disco
for the kids.
So, we got a chance to, like,

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for the kids.
So, we got a chance to, like,
see luke but the kiddie version

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so, we got a chance to, like,
see luke but the kiddie version
of luke, not the adult version.

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See luke but the kiddie version
of luke, not the adult version.
So, we had to separate the two.

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Of luke, not the adult version.
So, we had to separate the two.
Then, at the pac jam, luke would

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so, we had to separate the two.
Then, at the pac jam, luke would
have, like, it would be

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then, at the pac jam, luke would
have, like, it would be
different -- back then, it was

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have, like, it would be
different -- back then, it was
like dance groups or dance

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different -- back then, it was
like dance groups or dance
competition.

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Like dance groups or dance
competition.
He'll have all his girls.

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Competition.
He'll have all his girls.
He'll have guys dancing.

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He'll have all his girls.
He'll have guys dancing.
They come, do teen disco dance,

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he'll have guys dancing.
They come, do teen disco dance,
and then you'll have local

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they come, do teen disco dance,
and then you'll have local
artists that perform and stuff

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and then you'll have local
artists that perform and stuff
like that.

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Artists that perform and stuff
like that.
And so, some of his dancers I

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like that.
And so, some of his dancers I
knew, I was friends with, they

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and so, some of his dancers I
knew, I was friends with, they
were at his studio.

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Knew, I was friends with, they
were at his studio.
They would all go there, like,

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were at his studio.
They would all go there, like,
to rehearse their dance moves or

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they would all go there, like,
to rehearse their dance moves or
whatever.

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To rehearse their dance moves or
whatever.
So, they called me.

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Whatever.
So, they called me.
They were like, "hey, come by

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so, they called me.
They were like, "hey, come by
the studio."

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they were like, "hey, come by
the studio."
so, I got my friend pinkie.

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The studio."
so, I got my friend pinkie.
We go to the studio.

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So, I got my friend pinkie.
We go to the studio.
So, they got this song.

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We go to the studio.
So, they got this song.
Like, "I'm not getting in there.

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So, they got this song.
Like, "I'm not getting in there.
I'm not going there."

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like, "I'm not getting in there.
I'm not going there."
so, we ended up going in there,

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I'm not going there."
so, we ended up going in there,
anyway.

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So, we ended up going in there,
anyway.
And so, she goes, "pinkie, it's

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anyway.
And so, she goes, "pinkie, it's
your birthday," and I'm like,

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and so, she goes, "pinkie, it's
your birthday," and I'm like,
"trina, it's your birthday."

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your birthday," and I'm like,
"trina, it's your birthday."
so, we did the song.

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"trina, it's your birthday."
so, we did the song.
Cool.

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So, we did the song.
Cool.
Couple weeks after, they call

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cool.
Couple weeks after, they call
us, like, "oh, well, we're

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couple weeks after, they call
us, like, "oh, well, we're
shooting a video to

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us, like, "oh, well, we're
shooting a video to
'it's your birthday.'

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shooting a video to
'it's your birthday.'
y'all should come."

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'it's your birthday.'
y'all should come."
[ laughs ]

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y'all should come."
[ laughs ]
and I'm like, "my mama gonna

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[ laughs ]
and I'm like, "my mama gonna
kill me!"

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and I'm like, "my mama gonna
kill me!"
like, "I can't be in no luke

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kill me!"
like, "I can't be in no luke
video."

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like, "I can't be in no luke
video."
and so, they was like, "oh, no,

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video."
and so, they was like, "oh, no,
it's gonna be good," whatever.

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And so, they was like, "oh, no,
it's gonna be good," whatever.
So, they got this big, old

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it's gonna be good," whatever.
So, they got this big, old
mansion.

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So, they got this big, old
mansion.
All these girls is coming.

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Mansion.
All these girls is coming.
We done snuck in with our little

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all these girls is coming.
We done snuck in with our little
bathing suits, all this stuff in

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we done snuck in with our little
bathing suits, all this stuff in
the video.

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Bathing suits, all this stuff in
the video.
So, if you watch this video,

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the video.
So, if you watch this video,
there's this clip in the

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so, if you watch this video,
there's this clip in the
beginning of the video of me and

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there's this clip in the
beginning of the video of me and
her, like, right in front of

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beginning of the video of me and
her, like, right in front of
this cake.

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Her, like, right in front of
this cake.
And I swear I was looking,

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this cake.
And I swear I was looking,
like, 15 years old or something.

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And I swear I was looking,
like, 15 years old or something.
Now, when luke come, he bring

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like, 15 years old or something.
Now, when luke come, he bring
out the real girls.

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Now, when luke come, he bring
out the real girls.
These are the ones with the

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out the real girls.
These are the ones with the
dress and bodies just banging.

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These are the ones with the
dress and bodies just banging.
Butts is out.

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Dress and bodies just banging.
Butts is out.
And he spotted us. He saw me.

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Butts is out.
And he spotted us. He saw me.
He was like, "oh, you got to get

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and he spotted us. He saw me.
He was like, "oh, you got to get
from here now!"

359
00:09:44,451 --> 00:09:45,617
he was like, "oh, you got to get
from here now!"
he went crazy.

360
00:09:45,619 --> 00:09:47,052
From here now!"
he went crazy.
Like, "your mama's gonna kill me

361
00:09:47,054 --> 00:09:48,286
he went crazy.
Like, "your mama's gonna kill me
if she know you was here,"

362
00:09:48,288 --> 00:09:49,321
like, "your mama's gonna kill me
if she know you was here,"
saying all this stuff.

363
00:09:49,323 --> 00:09:50,589
If she know you was here,"
saying all this stuff.
He did not know I was there.

364
00:09:50,591 --> 00:09:51,990
Saying all this stuff.
He did not know I was there.
He was like, "oh, no, it's time

365
00:09:51,992 --> 00:09:52,757
he did not know I was there.
He was like, "oh, no, it's time
for you to go."

366
00:09:52,759 --> 00:09:54,059
he was like, "oh, no, it's time
for you to go."
and we left the video, but we

367
00:09:54,061 --> 00:09:54,893
for you to go."
and we left the video, but we
had fun, though.

368
00:09:54,895 --> 00:09:55,961
And we left the video, but we
had fun, though.
That was a little, fun

369
00:09:55,963 --> 00:09:56,928
had fun, though.
That was a little, fun
experience about it.

370
00:09:56,930 --> 00:09:58,997
That was a little, fun
experience about it.
And I just love how he grounded

371
00:09:58,999 --> 00:10:00,865
experience about it.
And I just love how he grounded
our culture, and he stood up

372
00:10:00,867 --> 00:10:02,834
and I just love how he grounded
our culture, and he stood up
for something when it comes to

373
00:10:02,836 --> 00:10:04,769
our culture, and he stood up
for something when it comes to
us and this hip-hop, you know,

374
00:10:04,771 --> 00:10:05,971
for something when it comes to
us and this hip-hop, you know,
because it really started from

375
00:10:05,973 --> 00:10:06,671
us and this hip-hop, you know,
because it really started from
him from miami.

376
00:10:06,673 --> 00:10:07,772
Because it really started from
him from miami.
You know, first thing you think

377
00:10:07,774 --> 00:10:08,773
him from miami.
You know, first thing you think
of miami, you think of luke.

378
00:10:08,775 --> 00:10:09,808
You know, first thing you think
of miami, you think of luke.
Like, when you come to miami,

379
00:10:09,810 --> 00:10:10,709
of miami, you think of luke.
Like, when you come to miami,
that was the first thing.

380
00:10:10,711 --> 00:10:11,343
Like, when you come to miami,
that was the first thing.
Then there's trick.

381
00:10:11,345 --> 00:10:12,177
That was the first thing.
Then there's trick.
There's me. There's ross.

382
00:10:12,179 --> 00:10:12,978
Then there's trick.
There's me. There's ross.
There's all these people.

383
00:10:12,980 --> 00:10:14,579
There's me. There's ross.
There's all these people.
But luke is definitely the

384
00:10:14,581 --> 00:10:15,547
there's all these people.
But luke is definitely the
pioneer of it.

385
00:10:15,549 --> 00:10:18,316
But luke is definitely the
pioneer of it.
♪

386
00:10:18,318 --> 00:10:20,652
pioneer of it.
♪
hollywood I met when I was in

387
00:10:20,654 --> 00:10:23,154
♪
hollywood I met when I was in
high school and just a different

388
00:10:23,156 --> 00:10:25,690
hollywood I met when I was in
high school and just a different
type of person, just a different

389
00:10:25,692 --> 00:10:26,992
high school and just a different
type of person, just a different
guy, you know?

390
00:10:26,994 --> 00:10:29,461
Type of person, just a different
guy, you know?
He was just a very honest, very

391
00:10:29,463 --> 00:10:30,862
guy, you know?
He was just a very honest, very
charming gentleman.

392
00:10:30,864 --> 00:10:32,831
He was just a very honest, very
charming gentleman.
And he just really looked out

393
00:10:32,833 --> 00:10:34,899
charming gentleman.
And he just really looked out
for me, like really watched out

394
00:10:34,901 --> 00:10:35,600
and he just really looked out
for me, like really watched out
for me.

395
00:10:35,602 --> 00:10:38,837
For me, like really watched out
for me.
Trick was actually in jail when

396
00:10:38,839 --> 00:10:41,373
for me.
Trick was actually in jail when
I was dating hollywood.

397
00:10:41,375 --> 00:10:42,574
Trick was actually in jail when
I was dating hollywood.
But trick would call me all the

398
00:10:42,576 --> 00:10:43,808
I was dating hollywood.
But trick would call me all the
time from there because he would

399
00:10:43,810 --> 00:10:45,010
but trick would call me all the
time from there because he would
always want to say his raps and

400
00:10:45,012 --> 00:10:46,211
time from there because he would
always want to say his raps and
his stuff, and I was just like,

401
00:10:46,213 --> 00:10:46,611
always want to say his raps and
his stuff, and I was just like,
"okay."

402
00:10:46,613 --> 00:10:47,846
his stuff, and I was just like,
"okay."
and so, he was like when he get

403
00:10:47,848 --> 00:10:48,947
"okay."
and so, he was like when he get
out, he's gonna be this big

404
00:10:48,949 --> 00:10:49,781
and so, he was like when he get
out, he's gonna be this big
rapper and all this.

405
00:10:49,783 --> 00:10:50,749
Out, he's gonna be this big
rapper and all this.
So, it was like, "okay."

406
00:10:50,751 --> 00:10:51,983
rapper and all this.
So, it was like, "okay."
and at that time, hollywood, his

407
00:10:51,985 --> 00:10:53,051
so, it was like, "okay."
and at that time, hollywood, his
brother, actually was into

408
00:10:53,053 --> 00:10:53,418
and at that time, hollywood, his
brother, actually was into
music.

409
00:10:53,420 --> 00:10:54,419
Brother, actually was into
music.
He would put on concerts.

410
00:10:54,421 --> 00:10:55,987
Music.
He would put on concerts.
He would do promotions for

411
00:10:55,989 --> 00:10:56,688
he would put on concerts.
He would do promotions for
concerts.

412
00:10:56,690 --> 00:10:58,289
He would do promotions for
concerts.
So, trick thought that would be

413
00:10:58,291 --> 00:10:59,557
concerts.
So, trick thought that would be
probably a good outlet.

414
00:10:59,559 --> 00:11:01,226
So, trick thought that would be
probably a good outlet.
And me and hollywood, we had the

415
00:11:01,228 --> 00:11:02,260
probably a good outlet.
And me and hollywood, we had the
best relationship.

416
00:11:02,262 --> 00:11:03,528
And me and hollywood, we had the
best relationship.
We were friends mostly more than

417
00:11:03,530 --> 00:11:03,995
best relationship.
We were friends mostly more than
anything.

418
00:11:03,997 --> 00:11:06,798
We were friends mostly more than
anything.
He was just like a great person

419
00:11:06,800 --> 00:11:08,199
anything.
He was just like a great person
to be around.

420
00:11:08,201 --> 00:11:09,234
He was just like a great person
to be around.
And one day...

421
00:11:09,236 --> 00:11:10,802
To be around.
And one day...
I was in a car with him.

422
00:11:10,804 --> 00:11:12,704
And one day...
I was in a car with him.
We went to, like, a fun place,

423
00:11:12,706 --> 00:11:14,539
I was in a car with him.
We went to, like, a fun place,
like a grand prix race-o-rama

424
00:11:14,541 --> 00:11:15,573
we went to, like, a fun place,
like a grand prix race-o-rama
type of thing.

425
00:11:15,575 --> 00:11:17,575
Like a grand prix race-o-rama
type of thing.
And then afterwards I think they

426
00:11:17,577 --> 00:11:19,277
type of thing.
And then afterwards I think they
were gonna go to a club or

427
00:11:19,279 --> 00:11:20,078
and then afterwards I think they
were gonna go to a club or
something.

428
00:11:20,080 --> 00:11:21,279
Were gonna go to a club or
something.
So, I was like, "oh, well, I'm

429
00:11:21,281 --> 00:11:21,913
something.
So, I was like, "oh, well, I'm
gonna go, too."

430
00:11:21,915 --> 00:11:23,014
so, I was like, "oh, well, I'm
gonna go, too."
he was like, "no, you're not

431
00:11:23,016 --> 00:11:23,515
gonna go, too."
he was like, "no, you're not
gonna go.

432
00:11:23,517 --> 00:11:24,482
He was like, "no, you're not
gonna go.
You need to go home" or

433
00:11:24,484 --> 00:11:24,949
gonna go.
You need to go home" or
whatever.

434
00:11:24,951 --> 00:11:26,051
You need to go home" or
whatever.
And I was like, "oh, okay."

435
00:11:26,053 --> 00:11:27,819
whatever.
And I was like, "oh, okay."
so, I left. I go home.

436
00:11:27,821 --> 00:11:30,088
And I was like, "oh, okay."
so, I left. I go home.
And him and his friends go out

437
00:11:30,090 --> 00:11:31,089
so, I left. I go home.
And him and his friends go out
somewhere.

438
00:11:31,091 --> 00:11:32,524
And him and his friends go out
somewhere.
And I was asleep.

439
00:11:32,526 --> 00:11:36,361
Somewhere.
And I was asleep.
And I just remember, like, maybe

440
00:11:36,363 --> 00:11:40,198
and I was asleep.
And I just remember, like, maybe
3:30, I just kind of rolled over

441
00:11:40,200 --> 00:11:42,734
and I just remember, like, maybe
3:30, I just kind of rolled over
and just realized he didn't call

442
00:11:42,736 --> 00:11:43,301
3:30, I just kind of rolled over
and just realized he didn't call
me.

443
00:11:43,303 --> 00:11:44,602
And just realized he didn't call
me.
He's not here.

444
00:11:44,604 --> 00:11:45,470
Me.
He's not here.
I was paging him.

445
00:11:45,472 --> 00:11:46,738
He's not here.
I was paging him.
I was beeping him, and I was

446
00:11:46,740 --> 00:11:47,405
I was paging him.
I was beeping him, and I was
calling him.

447
00:11:47,407 --> 00:11:48,840
I was beeping him, and I was
calling him.
He didn't call back or anything.

448
00:11:48,842 --> 00:11:54,279
Calling him.
He didn't call back or anything.
At about maybe 6:00 a.M., his

449
00:11:54,281 --> 00:11:57,782
he didn't call back or anything.
At about maybe 6:00 a.M., his
sister called me.

450
00:11:57,784 --> 00:11:59,417
At about maybe 6:00 a.M., his
sister called me.
She was kind of like hysterical,

451
00:11:59,419 --> 00:12:00,885
sister called me.
She was kind of like hysterical,
and I was like, "hey, what's

452
00:12:00,887 --> 00:12:01,619
she was kind of like hysterical,
and I was like, "hey, what's
happening?"

453
00:12:01,621 --> 00:12:03,121
and I was like, "hey, what's
happening?"
she said, "turn on the news."

454
00:12:03,123 --> 00:12:07,292
happening?"
she said, "turn on the news."
and I turned the news on, and I

455
00:12:07,294 --> 00:12:11,262
she said, "turn on the news."
and I turned the news on, and I
just remember just seeing his

456
00:12:11,264 --> 00:12:13,965
and I turned the news on, and I
just remember just seeing his
friend's car on the news, and

457
00:12:13,967 --> 00:12:16,835
just remember just seeing his
friend's car on the news, and
the car was just badly shot up.

458
00:12:16,837 --> 00:12:18,837
Friend's car on the news, and
the car was just badly shot up.
A couple of my friends, two of

459
00:12:18,839 --> 00:12:20,805
the car was just badly shot up.
A couple of my friends, two of
my best friends, they knew it

460
00:12:20,807 --> 00:12:21,539
a couple of my friends, two of
my best friends, they knew it
was him.

461
00:12:21,541 --> 00:12:22,874
My best friends, they knew it
was him.
Somebody who worked at the

462
00:12:22,876 --> 00:12:24,075
was him.
Somebody who worked at the
hospital told them they

463
00:12:24,077 --> 00:12:25,210
somebody who worked at the
hospital told them they
identified his teeth.

464
00:12:25,212 --> 00:12:26,010
Hospital told them they
identified his teeth.
He had a grill.

465
00:12:26,012 --> 00:12:27,078
Identified his teeth.
He had a grill.
They said what it was.

466
00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:28,413
He had a grill.
They said what it was.
That's the only way you could

467
00:12:28,415 --> 00:12:28,980
they said what it was.
That's the only way you could
tell him.

468
00:12:28,982 --> 00:12:30,715
That's the only way you could
tell him.
But they didn't tell me.

469
00:12:30,717 --> 00:12:32,117
Tell him.
But they didn't tell me.
And so, as we're driving to his

470
00:12:32,119 --> 00:12:35,553
but they didn't tell me.
And so, as we're driving to his
mom, I just knew.

471
00:12:35,555 --> 00:12:37,789
And so, as we're driving to his
mom, I just knew.
When we pulled up, his mom came

472
00:12:37,791 --> 00:12:39,991
mom, I just knew.
When we pulled up, his mom came
out the door, and she just saw

473
00:12:39,993 --> 00:12:41,793
when we pulled up, his mom came
out the door, and she just saw
me, and she just started

474
00:12:41,795 --> 00:12:43,862
out the door, and she just saw
me, and she just started
screaming and hollering, and

475
00:12:43,864 --> 00:12:45,730
me, and she just started
screaming and hollering, and
from then I had fell out.

476
00:12:45,732 --> 00:12:47,298
Screaming and hollering, and
from then I had fell out.
I didn't remember nothing else

477
00:12:47,300 --> 00:12:48,032
from then I had fell out.
I didn't remember nothing else
after that.

478
00:12:48,034 --> 00:12:49,601
I didn't remember nothing else
after that.
I just completely blacked out.

479
00:12:49,603 --> 00:12:51,136
After that.
I just completely blacked out.
That was the first time

480
00:12:51,138 --> 00:12:53,104
I just completely blacked out.
That was the first time
something like that happened to

481
00:12:53,106 --> 00:12:54,739
that was the first time
something like that happened to
me, of me being involved.

482
00:12:54,741 --> 00:12:56,775
Something like that happened to
me, of me being involved.
♪

483
00:12:56,777 --> 00:13:01,012
me, of me being involved.
♪
he was the most caring, careful,

484
00:13:01,014 --> 00:13:04,015
♪
he was the most caring, careful,
not bothersome person.

485
00:13:04,017 --> 00:13:05,550
He was the most caring, careful,
not bothersome person.
You're in the car with your

486
00:13:05,552 --> 00:13:06,117
not bothersome person.
You're in the car with your
friend.

487
00:13:06,119 --> 00:13:07,585
You're in the car with your
friend.
I was in the car with you.

488
00:13:07,587 --> 00:13:09,287
Friend.
I was in the car with you.
Had you not told me to get out

489
00:13:09,289 --> 00:13:11,055
I was in the car with you.
Had you not told me to get out
and go home, maybe I wouldn't be

490
00:13:11,057 --> 00:13:12,524
had you not told me to get out
and go home, maybe I wouldn't be
here doing this interview.

491
00:13:12,526 --> 00:13:14,025
And go home, maybe I wouldn't be
here doing this interview.
I was in the car.

492
00:13:14,027 --> 00:13:16,394
Here doing this interview.
I was in the car.
Not only did they shoot up the

493
00:13:16,396 --> 00:13:18,863
I was in the car.
Not only did they shoot up the
car, they came up to the car to

494
00:13:18,865 --> 00:13:21,032
not only did they shoot up the
car, they came up to the car to
make sure the job was done.

495
00:13:21,034 --> 00:13:22,801
Car, they came up to the car to
make sure the job was done.
His...

496
00:13:22,803 --> 00:13:25,737
Make sure the job was done.
His...
It was almost unrecognizable,

497
00:13:25,739 --> 00:13:28,873
his...
It was almost unrecognizable,
like, half of his head -- like,

498
00:13:28,875 --> 00:13:31,743
it was almost unrecognizable,
like, half of his head -- like,
it just...

499
00:13:31,745 --> 00:13:33,878
Like, half of his head -- like,
it just...
I just didn't understand.

500
00:13:33,880 --> 00:13:36,381
It just...
I just didn't understand.
I didn't understand.

501
00:13:36,383 --> 00:13:39,617
I just didn't understand.
I didn't understand.
So, I come from a family of

502
00:13:39,619 --> 00:13:40,618
I didn't understand.
So, I come from a family of
this.

503
00:13:40,620 --> 00:13:42,821
So, I come from a family of
this.
So, I already know this, but the

504
00:13:42,823 --> 00:13:43,521
this.
So, I already know this, but the
family...

505
00:13:43,523 --> 00:13:44,823
So, I already know this, but the
family...
They're more mature.

506
00:13:44,825 --> 00:13:46,457
Family...
They're more mature.
They're in the streets, but

507
00:13:46,459 --> 00:13:48,059
they're more mature.
They're in the streets, but
they're not in the streets.

508
00:13:48,061 --> 00:13:49,861
They're in the streets, but
they're not in the streets.
They're not hanging out in the

509
00:13:49,863 --> 00:13:50,528
they're not in the streets.
They're not hanging out in the
streets.

510
00:13:50,530 --> 00:13:52,063
They're not hanging out in the
streets.
You can't get next to the

511
00:13:52,065 --> 00:13:52,664
streets.
You can't get next to the
family.

512
00:13:52,666 --> 00:13:55,934
You can't get next to the
family.
So, when it's guys that's in the

513
00:13:55,936 --> 00:13:58,870
family.
So, when it's guys that's in the
street, you're not prepared.

514
00:13:58,872 --> 00:14:00,638
So, when it's guys that's in the
street, you're not prepared.
It's never a day -- I still to

515
00:14:00,640 --> 00:14:02,140
street, you're not prepared.
It's never a day -- I still to
this day of my life don't

516
00:14:02,142 --> 00:14:02,941
it's never a day -- I still to
this day of my life don't
understand.

517
00:14:02,943 --> 00:14:04,642
This day of my life don't
understand.
And I learned that, you know,

518
00:14:04,644 --> 00:14:06,311
understand.
And I learned that, you know,
just growing up, my mom -- I

519
00:14:06,313 --> 00:14:08,146
and I learned that, you know,
just growing up, my mom -- I
mean, it was just another way of

520
00:14:08,148 --> 00:14:09,714
just growing up, my mom -- I
mean, it was just another way of
growing up, to be careful.

521
00:14:09,716 --> 00:14:10,815
Mean, it was just another way of
growing up, to be careful.
When you hang out with guys, and

522
00:14:10,817 --> 00:14:11,816
growing up, to be careful.
When you hang out with guys, and
when you're around guys, you

523
00:14:11,818 --> 00:14:12,650
when you hang out with guys, and
when you're around guys, you
just got to be careful.

524
00:14:12,652 --> 00:14:13,384
When you're around guys, you
just got to be careful.
You just never know.

525
00:14:13,386 --> 00:14:14,419
Just got to be careful.
You just never know.
You know, people are jealous.

526
00:14:14,421 --> 00:14:15,353
You just never know.
You know, people are jealous.
They're envious, just so much

527
00:14:15,355 --> 00:14:15,753
you know, people are jealous.
They're envious, just so much
stuff.

528
00:14:15,755 --> 00:14:17,455
They're envious, just so much
stuff.
So, it made me grow after that

529
00:14:17,457 --> 00:14:19,257
stuff.
So, it made me grow after that
incident even more to just watch

530
00:14:19,259 --> 00:14:20,859
so, it made me grow after that
incident even more to just watch
how I was, watch how I move,

531
00:14:20,861 --> 00:14:22,293
incident even more to just watch
how I was, watch how I move,
watch how I carry myself.

532
00:14:22,295 --> 00:14:23,795
How I was, watch how I move,
watch how I carry myself.
Watch who I hang out with.

533
00:14:23,797 --> 00:14:25,496
Watch how I carry myself.
Watch who I hang out with.
Watch and make sure it's solid

534
00:14:25,498 --> 00:14:26,497
watch who I hang out with.
Watch and make sure it's solid
people and guys are this,

535
00:14:26,499 --> 00:14:27,665
watch and make sure it's solid
people and guys are this,
because you don't never want to

536
00:14:27,667 --> 00:14:28,833
people and guys are this,
because you don't never want to
get crossed up in the midst of

537
00:14:28,835 --> 00:14:29,267
because you don't never want to
get crossed up in the midst of
nothing.

538
00:14:29,269 --> 00:14:31,302
Get crossed up in the midst of
nothing.
You don't want to be in that

539
00:14:31,304 --> 00:14:31,970
nothing.
You don't want to be in that
space.

540
00:14:31,972 --> 00:14:34,105
You don't want to be in that
space.
That was heartbreaking for me.

541
00:14:34,107 --> 00:14:36,608
Space.
That was heartbreaking for me.
That was heartbreaking.

542
00:14:36,610 --> 00:14:39,944
That was heartbreaking for me.
That was heartbreaking.
I don't -- I just didn't get it.

543
00:14:39,946 --> 00:14:42,447
That was heartbreaking.
I don't -- I just didn't get it.
♪

544
00:14:42,449 --> 00:14:43,014
I don't -- I just didn't get it.
♪
♪

545
00:14:43,016 --> 00:14:46,885
♪
♪
I had to tell trick he was gone.

546
00:14:46,887 --> 00:14:49,153
♪
I had to tell trick he was gone.
He called me, and that was the

547
00:14:49,155 --> 00:14:51,456
I had to tell trick he was gone.
He called me, and that was the
hardest thing I had to come out

548
00:14:51,458 --> 00:14:53,324
he called me, and that was the
hardest thing I had to come out
of my mouth to tell him.

549
00:14:53,326 --> 00:14:56,160
Hardest thing I had to come out
of my mouth to tell him.
And so, it was even harder that

550
00:14:56,162 --> 00:14:57,896
of my mouth to tell him.
And so, it was even harder that
he was locked up.

551
00:14:57,898 --> 00:15:00,732
And so, it was even harder that
he was locked up.
He was able to come out to come

552
00:15:00,734 --> 00:15:01,766
he was locked up.
He was able to come out to come
to the funeral.

553
00:15:01,768 --> 00:15:03,301
He was able to come out to come
to the funeral.
He was chained up, police

554
00:15:03,303 --> 00:15:04,602
to the funeral.
He was chained up, police
officers everywhere.

555
00:15:04,604 --> 00:15:07,939
He was chained up, police
officers everywhere.
He was hurt. He was sad.

556
00:15:07,941 --> 00:15:10,041
Officers everywhere.
He was hurt. He was sad.
He was just -- because I felt

557
00:15:10,043 --> 00:15:12,176
he was hurt. He was sad.
He was just -- because I felt
like for him, he felt like he

558
00:15:12,178 --> 00:15:13,978
he was just -- because I felt
like for him, he felt like he
had a gift and a talent.

559
00:15:13,980 --> 00:15:16,214
Like for him, he felt like he
had a gift and a talent.
His brother was doing something

560
00:15:16,216 --> 00:15:17,982
had a gift and a talent.
His brother was doing something
that was aligned with the gift

561
00:15:17,984 --> 00:15:18,983
his brother was doing something
that was aligned with the gift
and the talent.

562
00:15:18,985 --> 00:15:20,184
That was aligned with the gift
and the talent.
"and this is my brother.

563
00:15:20,186 --> 00:15:21,653
And the talent.
"and this is my brother.
You're bringing big acts to the

564
00:15:21,655 --> 00:15:22,053
"and this is my brother.
You're bringing big acts to the
city.

565
00:15:22,055 --> 00:15:23,554
You're bringing big acts to the
city.
I know when I get out of here --

566
00:15:23,556 --> 00:15:24,622
city.
I know when I get out of here --
I believe in myself.

567
00:15:24,624 --> 00:15:25,690
I know when I get out of here --
I believe in myself.
I know I can make it.

568
00:15:25,692 --> 00:15:27,659
I believe in myself.
I know I can make it.
I know I can -- you're my

569
00:15:27,661 --> 00:15:28,593
I know I can make it.
I know I can -- you're my
brother."

570
00:15:28,595 --> 00:15:30,728
I know I can -- you're my
brother."
and so, he had dreams and hopes.

571
00:15:30,730 --> 00:15:33,264
Brother."
and so, he had dreams and hopes.
And that was shattering.

572
00:15:33,266 --> 00:15:36,601
And so, he had dreams and hopes.
And that was shattering.
♪

573
00:15:36,603 --> 00:15:37,735
and that was shattering.
♪
he asked me to come to the

574
00:15:37,737 --> 00:15:38,202
♪
he asked me to come to the
studio.

575
00:15:38,204 --> 00:15:38,636
He asked me to come to the
studio.
I went.

576
00:15:38,638 --> 00:15:40,104
Studio.
I went.
I took my friends with me.

577
00:15:40,106 --> 00:15:42,173
I went.
I took my friends with me.
And he goes, "I want you to go

578
00:15:42,175 --> 00:15:43,908
I took my friends with me.
And he goes, "I want you to go
in there and get on this

579
00:15:43,910 --> 00:15:44,676
and he goes, "I want you to go
in there and get on this
record."

580
00:15:44,678 --> 00:15:45,643
in there and get on this
record."
and I'm like, "and do what?"

581
00:15:45,645 --> 00:15:47,245
record."
and I'm like, "and do what?"
and he's like, "when you hear

582
00:15:47,247 --> 00:15:48,880
and I'm like, "and do what?"
and he's like, "when you hear
the record, you're gonna know

583
00:15:48,882 --> 00:15:49,681
and he's like, "when you hear
the record, you're gonna know
what to do."

584
00:15:49,683 --> 00:15:50,348
the record, you're gonna know
what to do."
like, "listen.

585
00:15:50,350 --> 00:15:51,482
What to do."
like, "listen.
I know you're not a rapper.

586
00:15:51,484 --> 00:15:52,650
Like, "listen.
I know you're not a rapper.
I just need you to go in here

587
00:15:52,652 --> 00:15:53,184
I know you're not a rapper.
I just need you to go in here
and talk."

588
00:15:53,186 --> 00:15:54,886
I just need you to go in here
and talk."
I listened to the record, and

589
00:15:54,888 --> 00:15:56,888
and talk."
I listened to the record, and
I'm like, "boy, what am I about

590
00:15:56,890 --> 00:15:57,588
I listened to the record, and
I'm like, "boy, what am I about
to say?"

591
00:15:57,590 --> 00:15:59,090
I'm like, "boy, what am I about
to say?"
like, "this is crazy."

592
00:15:59,092 --> 00:16:00,258
to say?"
like, "this is crazy."
I said "oh, no."

593
00:16:00,260 --> 00:16:02,093
like, "this is crazy."
I said "oh, no."
I was like, "this is way too

594
00:16:02,095 --> 00:16:02,694
I said "oh, no."
I was like, "this is way too
much."

595
00:16:02,696 --> 00:16:04,195
I was like, "this is way too
much."
and he was like, "man, come on.

596
00:16:04,197 --> 00:16:05,296
Much."
and he was like, "man, come on.
I need you to do this.

597
00:16:05,298 --> 00:16:06,564
And he was like, "man, come on.
I need you to do this.
You're gonna kill this."

598
00:16:06,566 --> 00:16:07,799
I need you to do this.
You're gonna kill this."
so, I go in there with my

599
00:16:07,801 --> 00:16:08,333
you're gonna kill this."
so, I go in there with my
friends.

600
00:16:08,335 --> 00:16:09,334
So, I go in there with my
friends.
This is new for me.

601
00:16:09,336 --> 00:16:10,768
Friends.
This is new for me.
I put the headphones on.

602
00:16:10,770 --> 00:16:12,437
This is new for me.
I put the headphones on.
It's this little stand here.

603
00:16:12,439 --> 00:16:13,938
I put the headphones on.
It's this little stand here.
There's the mic, and then

604
00:16:13,940 --> 00:16:15,139
it's this little stand here.
There's the mic, and then
there's this stand.

605
00:16:15,141 --> 00:16:16,941
There's the mic, and then
there's this stand.
And on the stand, there is like

606
00:16:16,943 --> 00:16:17,842
there's this stand.
And on the stand, there is like
a pad, a pen.

607
00:16:17,844 --> 00:16:19,477
And on the stand, there is like
a pad, a pen.
Then it's like my four girls

608
00:16:19,479 --> 00:16:20,278
a pad, a pen.
Then it's like my four girls
right here.

609
00:16:20,280 --> 00:16:21,412
Then it's like my four girls
right here.
I was scared at first.

610
00:16:21,414 --> 00:16:22,580
Right here.
I was scared at first.
So, I was like, "okay."

611
00:16:22,582 --> 00:16:23,381
I was scared at first.
So, I was like, "okay."
so, here I go.

612
00:16:23,383 --> 00:16:24,882
So, I was like, "okay."
so, here I go.
I'm listening to what trick got

613
00:16:24,884 --> 00:16:25,383
so, here I go.
I'm listening to what trick got
to say.

614
00:16:25,385 --> 00:16:26,751
I'm listening to what trick got
to say.
He's doing his little thing,

615
00:16:26,753 --> 00:16:27,352
to say.
He's doing his little thing,
whatever.

616
00:16:27,354 --> 00:16:28,886
He's doing his little thing,
whatever.
So, now it comes to my part, and

617
00:16:28,888 --> 00:16:30,355
whatever.
So, now it comes to my part, and
I'm like, "okay, I'm gonna say

618
00:16:30,357 --> 00:16:30,822
so, now it comes to my part, and
I'm like, "okay, I'm gonna say
this."

619
00:16:30,824 --> 00:16:32,156
I'm like, "okay, I'm gonna say
this."
and then my girls are like,

620
00:16:32,158 --> 00:16:33,091
this."
and then my girls are like,
"nah, that's lame.

621
00:16:33,093 --> 00:16:33,925
And then my girls are like,
"nah, that's lame.
Don't say that.

622
00:16:33,927 --> 00:16:35,026
"nah, that's lame.
Don't say that.
You got to be nasty."

623
00:16:35,028 --> 00:16:36,327
don't say that.
You got to be nasty."
[ laughs ]

624
00:16:36,329 --> 00:16:37,829
you got to be nasty."
[ laughs ]
so, I was like -- oh, no, I was

625
00:16:37,831 --> 00:16:39,230
[ laughs ]
so, I was like -- oh, no, I was
like, "I'm not saying that."

626
00:16:39,232 --> 00:16:40,732
so, I was like -- oh, no, I was
like, "I'm not saying that."
so, they was really helping me.

627
00:16:40,734 --> 00:16:42,133
Like, "I'm not saying that."
so, they was really helping me.
We was going back and forth,

628
00:16:42,135 --> 00:16:42,967
so, they was really helping me.
We was going back and forth,
back and forth.

629
00:16:42,969 --> 00:16:45,036
We was going back and forth,
back and forth.
They listened to the song for --

630
00:16:45,038 --> 00:16:46,537
back and forth.
They listened to the song for --
after, it was a party.

631
00:16:46,539 --> 00:16:47,939
They listened to the song for --
after, it was a party.
He called the ceo of

632
00:16:47,941 --> 00:16:48,973
after, it was a party.
He called the ceo of
slip-n-slide.

633
00:16:48,975 --> 00:16:50,808
He called the ceo of
slip-n-slide.
He was like, "no, you got to

634
00:16:50,810 --> 00:16:52,443
slip-n-slide.
He was like, "no, you got to
come to the studio now."

635
00:16:52,445 --> 00:16:54,278
he was like, "no, you got to
come to the studio now."
so, ted comes to the studio.

636
00:16:54,280 --> 00:16:54,846
Come to the studio now."
so, ted comes to the studio.
[ laughs ]

637
00:16:54,848 --> 00:16:56,147
so, ted comes to the studio.
[ laughs ]
and we play the record and all,

638
00:16:56,149 --> 00:16:57,348
[ laughs ]
and we play the record and all,
and ted's like, "oh, no, we

639
00:16:57,350 --> 00:16:58,383
and we play the record and all,
and ted's like, "oh, no, we
signing a record deal."

640
00:16:58,385 --> 00:16:59,617
and ted's like, "oh, no, we
signing a record deal."
I was like, "oh, no, we not."

641
00:16:59,619 --> 00:17:00,852
signing a record deal."
I was like, "oh, no, we not."
I was like, "no, no, no, I'm

642
00:17:00,854 --> 00:17:02,120
I was like, "oh, no, we not."
I was like, "no, no, no, I'm
doing this a favor for trick."

643
00:17:02,122 --> 00:17:02,754
I was like, "no, no, no, I'm
doing this a favor for trick."
like, "wait.

644
00:17:02,756 --> 00:17:04,055
Doing this a favor for trick."
like, "wait.
Y'all are pushing this way too

645
00:17:04,057 --> 00:17:04,422
like, "wait.
Y'all are pushing this way too
far."

646
00:17:04,424 --> 00:17:05,456
y'all are pushing this way too
far."
so, now the label's now calling

647
00:17:05,458 --> 00:17:05,990
far."
so, now the label's now calling
me every day.

648
00:17:05,992 --> 00:17:06,991
So, now the label's now calling
me every day.
Like, "you sure you don't want

649
00:17:06,993 --> 00:17:07,558
me every day.
Like, "you sure you don't want
to sign a deal?

650
00:17:07,560 --> 00:17:08,159
Like, "you sure you don't want
to sign a deal?
I'm telling you.

651
00:17:08,161 --> 00:17:09,160
To sign a deal?
I'm telling you.
All you got to do is get in a

652
00:17:09,162 --> 00:17:09,994
I'm telling you.
All you got to do is get in a
studio with ross, trick, all

653
00:17:09,996 --> 00:17:10,395
all you got to do is get in a
studio with ross, trick, all
them."

654
00:17:10,397 --> 00:17:10,928
studio with ross, trick, all
them."
it was a lot.

655
00:17:10,930 --> 00:17:13,097
Them."
it was a lot.
So, after that, I had just had

656
00:17:13,099 --> 00:17:14,499
it was a lot.
So, after that, I had just had
got my little job.

657
00:17:14,501 --> 00:17:16,534
So, after that, I had just had
got my little job.
I had the job for, like, two

658
00:17:16,536 --> 00:17:17,201
got my little job.
I had the job for, like, two
weeks.

659
00:17:17,203 --> 00:17:18,436
I had the job for, like, two
weeks.
It was at a firm called

660
00:17:18,438 --> 00:17:19,537
weeks.
It was at a firm called
era homeland realty.

661
00:17:19,539 --> 00:17:21,105
It was at a firm called
era homeland realty.
So, this particular week, I was

662
00:17:21,107 --> 00:17:22,740
era homeland realty.
So, this particular week, I was
about to just go out and go show

663
00:17:22,742 --> 00:17:24,242
so, this particular week, I was
about to just go out and go show
this house when trick called.

664
00:17:24,244 --> 00:17:25,143
About to just go out and go show
this house when trick called.
So, I was, "okay, cool."

665
00:17:25,145 --> 00:17:25,743
this house when trick called.
So, I was, "okay, cool."
I didn't care.

666
00:17:25,745 --> 00:17:26,744
So, I was, "okay, cool."
I didn't care.
I still was gonna go do the

667
00:17:26,746 --> 00:17:27,845
I didn't care.
I still was gonna go do the
favor for him, but I was still

668
00:17:27,847 --> 00:17:28,780
I still was gonna go do the
favor for him, but I was still
going to go do my house.

669
00:17:28,782 --> 00:17:29,547
Favor for him, but I was still
going to go do my house.
I had to go to work.

670
00:17:29,549 --> 00:17:30,648
Going to go do my house.
I had to go to work.
I'm gonna do my job, whatever.

671
00:17:30,650 --> 00:17:33,251
I had to go to work.
I'm gonna do my job, whatever.
And then, after that, it was

672
00:17:33,253 --> 00:17:34,986
I'm gonna do my job, whatever.
And then, after that, it was
trick's birthday.

673
00:17:34,988 --> 00:17:36,554
And then, after that, it was
trick's birthday.
He had a party.

674
00:17:36,556 --> 00:17:39,123
Trick's birthday.
He had a party.
We go to the party.

675
00:17:39,125 --> 00:17:40,391
He had a party.
We go to the party.
And now trick is about to

676
00:17:40,393 --> 00:17:40,925
we go to the party.
And now trick is about to
perform.

677
00:17:40,927 --> 00:17:42,260
And now trick is about to
perform.
Now, previous, this "nann"

678
00:17:42,262 --> 00:17:43,461
perform.
Now, previous, this "nann"
record is something new.

679
00:17:43,463 --> 00:17:44,862
Now, previous, this "nann"
record is something new.
I'm not even -- I'm not even

680
00:17:44,864 --> 00:17:46,297
record is something new.
I'm not even -- I'm not even
thinking about this record at

681
00:17:46,299 --> 00:17:46,898
I'm not even -- I'm not even
thinking about this record at
the time.

682
00:17:46,900 --> 00:17:50,701
Thinking about this record at
the time.
And as he's doing his show,

683
00:17:50,703 --> 00:17:52,770
the time.
And as he's doing his show,
the deejay puts on the "nann"

684
00:17:52,772 --> 00:17:53,838
and as he's doing his show,
the deejay puts on the "nann"
record.

685
00:17:53,840 --> 00:17:55,506
The deejay puts on the "nann"
record.
And they're all boosting me up.

686
00:17:55,508 --> 00:17:56,741
Record.
And they're all boosting me up.
"no, get the mic on."

687
00:17:56,743 --> 00:17:58,309
and they're all boosting me up.
"no, get the mic on."
I was like, "I'm not going up

688
00:17:58,311 --> 00:17:59,477
"no, get the mic on."
I was like, "I'm not going up
there and doing it."

689
00:17:59,479 --> 00:18:00,978
I was like, "I'm not going up
there and doing it."
they're pushing me from the

690
00:18:00,980 --> 00:18:02,046
there and doing it."
they're pushing me from the
back, in the back.

691
00:18:02,048 --> 00:18:03,514
They're pushing me from the
back, in the back.
I pushed to the top of the

692
00:18:03,516 --> 00:18:04,015
back, in the back.
I pushed to the top of the
stage.

693
00:18:04,017 --> 00:18:06,284
I pushed to the top of the
stage.
And by the time the girl part

694
00:18:06,286 --> 00:18:08,719
stage.
And by the time the girl part
came on, which was me, the girls

695
00:18:08,721 --> 00:18:10,455
and by the time the girl part
came on, which was me, the girls
were going ballistic.

696
00:18:10,457 --> 00:18:11,789
Came on, which was me, the girls
were going ballistic.
I never said a word.

697
00:18:11,791 --> 00:18:12,924
Were going ballistic.
I never said a word.
I was so scared.

698
00:18:12,926 --> 00:18:14,859
I never said a word.
I was so scared.
I stood on that stage with that

699
00:18:14,861 --> 00:18:16,761
I was so scared.
I stood on that stage with that
mic with my eyes closed, and I

700
00:18:16,763 --> 00:18:17,562
I stood on that stage with that
mic with my eyes closed, and I
was just scared.

701
00:18:17,564 --> 00:18:18,396
Mic with my eyes closed, and I
was just scared.
I was terrified.

702
00:18:18,398 --> 00:18:19,964
Was just scared.
I was terrified.
And they were singing this

703
00:18:19,966 --> 00:18:21,499
I was terrified.
And they were singing this
record from word to word.

704
00:18:21,501 --> 00:18:22,900
And they were singing this
record from word to word.
I could not believe it.

705
00:18:22,902 --> 00:18:25,203
Record from word to word.
I could not believe it.
So, now, here go the label again

706
00:18:25,205 --> 00:18:27,205
I could not believe it.
So, now, here go the label again
with this whole deal thing.

707
00:18:27,207 --> 00:18:28,272
So, now, here go the label again
with this whole deal thing.
Oh, my gosh.

708
00:18:28,274 --> 00:18:29,941
With this whole deal thing.
Oh, my gosh.
I think this is when I had

709
00:18:29,943 --> 00:18:31,476
oh, my gosh.
I think this is when I had
started to get anxiety.

710
00:18:31,478 --> 00:18:33,377
I think this is when I had
started to get anxiety.
I go to tallahassee with them.

711
00:18:33,379 --> 00:18:35,213
Started to get anxiety.
I go to tallahassee with them.
Trick's doing his whole show.

712
00:18:35,215 --> 00:18:36,781
I go to tallahassee with them.
Trick's doing his whole show.
The show is going crazy.

713
00:18:36,783 --> 00:18:38,116
Trick's doing his whole show.
The show is going crazy.
Now "nann" comes on.

714
00:18:38,118 --> 00:18:40,084
The show is going crazy.
Now "nann" comes on.
And he says, "are you ready to

715
00:18:40,086 --> 00:18:40,985
now "nann" comes on.
And he says, "are you ready to
see trina?"

716
00:18:40,987 --> 00:18:42,920
and he says, "are you ready to
see trina?"
and the girls is going crazy,

717
00:18:42,922 --> 00:18:43,921
see trina?"
and the girls is going crazy,
crazy, crazy!

718
00:18:43,923 --> 00:18:45,289
And the girls is going crazy,
crazy, crazy!
He plays the song.

719
00:18:45,291 --> 00:18:46,390
Crazy, crazy!
He plays the song.
They go nuts.

720
00:18:46,392 --> 00:18:47,358
He plays the song.
They go nuts.
I walk out.

721
00:18:47,360 --> 00:18:48,626
They go nuts.
I walk out.
I mean, lose it.

722
00:18:48,628 --> 00:18:50,361
I walk out.
I mean, lose it.
This is the first time I

723
00:18:50,363 --> 00:18:52,463
I mean, lose it.
This is the first time I
actually did perform the song.

724
00:18:52,465 --> 00:18:56,534
This is the first time I
actually did perform the song.
And from that moment on, I

725
00:18:56,536 --> 00:19:01,139
actually did perform the song.
And from that moment on, I
didn't do real estate no more.

726
00:19:01,141 --> 00:19:02,440
And from that moment on, I
didn't do real estate no more.
I said, "I'm gonna do the deal."

727
00:19:02,442 --> 00:19:03,441
didn't do real estate no more.
I said, "I'm gonna do the deal."
I said, "I'm gonna be a

728
00:19:03,443 --> 00:19:03,774
I said, "I'm gonna do the deal."
I said, "I'm gonna be a
superstar."

729
00:19:08,280 --> 00:19:13,885
>> trina: I get a call from
another artist, ludacris.
Ludacris want me to get on the

730
00:19:13,887 --> 00:19:18,723
another artist, ludacris.
Ludacris want me to get on the
remix of his record.

731
00:19:18,725 --> 00:19:22,760
Ludacris want me to get on the
remix of his record.
So, I do this record for him.

732
00:19:22,762 --> 00:19:24,061
Remix of his record.
So, I do this record for him.
While trick is going on tour,

733
00:19:24,063 --> 00:19:25,463
so, I do this record for him.
While trick is going on tour,
some of the days ludacris is on

734
00:19:25,465 --> 00:19:26,430
while trick is going on tour,
some of the days ludacris is on
the same tour dates.

735
00:19:26,432 --> 00:19:27,832
Some of the days ludacris is on
the same tour dates.
We kind of have the same dates.

736
00:19:27,834 --> 00:19:29,066
The same tour dates.
We kind of have the same dates.
So, now I have two records.

737
00:19:29,068 --> 00:19:30,468
We kind of have the same dates.
So, now I have two records.
So now all eyes is definitely on

738
00:19:30,470 --> 00:19:31,802
so, now I have two records.
So now all eyes is definitely on
me because now I'm performing

739
00:19:31,804 --> 00:19:33,204
so now all eyes is definitely on
me because now I'm performing
with ludacris and trick on these

740
00:19:33,206 --> 00:19:34,605
me because now I'm performing
with ludacris and trick on these
two records that is bubbling up

741
00:19:34,607 --> 00:19:35,673
with ludacris and trick on these
two records that is bubbling up
from the south all over

742
00:19:35,675 --> 00:19:36,807
two records that is bubbling up
from the south all over
everywhere, going crazy.

743
00:19:36,809 --> 00:19:38,142
From the south all over
everywhere, going crazy.
In the midst of that,

744
00:19:38,144 --> 00:19:39,977
everywhere, going crazy.
In the midst of that,
atlantic records wants to give

745
00:19:39,979 --> 00:19:41,112
in the midst of that,
atlantic records wants to give
me a record deal.

746
00:19:41,114 --> 00:19:42,213
Atlantic records wants to give
me a record deal.
We're on a tour.

747
00:19:42,215 --> 00:19:43,915
Me a record deal.
We're on a tour.
I sign a deal with atlantic.

748
00:19:43,917 --> 00:19:45,683
We're on a tour.
I sign a deal with atlantic.
So, this whole year, we're on

749
00:19:45,685 --> 00:19:47,351
I sign a deal with atlantic.
So, this whole year, we're on
the road just grinding out work

750
00:19:47,353 --> 00:19:48,986
so, this whole year, we're on
the road just grinding out work
and performing -- radio shows,

751
00:19:48,988 --> 00:19:51,255
the road just grinding out work
and performing -- radio shows,
concerts, clubs, nightclubs.

752
00:19:51,257 --> 00:19:53,558
And performing -- radio shows,
concerts, clubs, nightclubs.
But in the midst of this, the

753
00:19:53,560 --> 00:19:55,626
concerts, clubs, nightclubs.
But in the midst of this, the
only things on my mind is

754
00:19:55,628 --> 00:19:58,362
but in the midst of this, the
only things on my mind is
how am I gonna do this for me?

755
00:19:58,364 --> 00:20:00,064
Only things on my mind is
how am I gonna do this for me?
It's a lot different than going

756
00:20:00,066 --> 00:20:01,666
how am I gonna do this for me?
It's a lot different than going
out with your girlfriends and

757
00:20:01,668 --> 00:20:03,234
it's a lot different than going
out with your girlfriends and
trying to do this one little

758
00:20:03,236 --> 00:20:04,902
out with your girlfriends and
trying to do this one little
verse, this one little -- this

759
00:20:04,904 --> 00:20:05,269
trying to do this one little
verse, this one little -- this
is different.

760
00:20:08,006 --> 00:20:12,810
♪
>> trina: All of it, it was new.
So, everything was scary.

761
00:20:12,812 --> 00:20:14,111
>> trina: All of it, it was new.
So, everything was scary.
When you say "solo project,"

762
00:20:14,113 --> 00:20:15,246
so, everything was scary.
When you say "solo project,"
that seemed like a lot.

763
00:20:15,248 --> 00:20:16,948
When you say "solo project,"
that seemed like a lot.
Like, here I am. I know trick.

764
00:20:16,950 --> 00:20:18,416
That seemed like a lot.
Like, here I am. I know trick.
I know he's in the studio.

765
00:20:18,418 --> 00:20:19,984
Like, here I am. I know trick.
I know he's in the studio.
I know that's what he does.

766
00:20:19,986 --> 00:20:21,719
I know he's in the studio.
I know that's what he does.
Like, he had a notebook full of

767
00:20:21,721 --> 00:20:23,487
I know that's what he does.
Like, he had a notebook full of
just rhymes and rhymes and ready

768
00:20:23,489 --> 00:20:25,256
like, he had a notebook full of
just rhymes and rhymes and ready
to go in the studio at any given

769
00:20:25,258 --> 00:20:25,756
just rhymes and rhymes and ready
to go in the studio at any given
time.

770
00:20:25,758 --> 00:20:26,958
To go in the studio at any given
time.
That wasn't my life.

771
00:20:26,960 --> 00:20:28,292
Time.
That wasn't my life.
Mine was a little bit more

772
00:20:28,294 --> 00:20:29,393
that wasn't my life.
Mine was a little bit more
structured, you know?

773
00:20:29,395 --> 00:20:30,962
Mine was a little bit more
structured, you know?
I wasn't like trick, just in the

774
00:20:30,964 --> 00:20:32,029
structured, you know?
I wasn't like trick, just in the
car, writing rhymes.

775
00:20:32,031 --> 00:20:33,497
I wasn't like trick, just in the
car, writing rhymes.
So, the guys -- I came up with

776
00:20:33,499 --> 00:20:34,365
car, writing rhymes.
So, the guys -- I came up with
all these guys.

777
00:20:34,367 --> 00:20:35,533
So, the guys -- I came up with
all these guys.
There's c.O.

778
00:20:35,535 --> 00:20:36,500
All these guys.
There's c.O.
There was money mark.

779
00:20:36,502 --> 00:20:37,768
There's c.O.
There was money mark.
There was ross. There's trick.

780
00:20:37,770 --> 00:20:39,070
There was money mark.
There was ross. There's trick.
There's, like, all the groups,

781
00:20:39,072 --> 00:20:40,371
there was ross. There's trick.
There's, like, all the groups,
everybody that's signed to the

782
00:20:40,373 --> 00:20:40,771
there's, like, all the groups,
everybody that's signed to the
label.

783
00:20:40,773 --> 00:20:42,340
Everybody that's signed to the
label.
So, the guys would hang out.

784
00:20:42,342 --> 00:20:43,207
Label.
So, the guys would hang out.
They're guys.

785
00:20:43,209 --> 00:20:44,508
So, the guys would hang out.
They're guys.
They're chasing girls.

786
00:20:44,510 --> 00:20:45,977
They're guys.
They're chasing girls.
They're doing their thing.

787
00:20:45,979 --> 00:20:47,078
They're chasing girls.
They're doing their thing.
I didn't hang out.

788
00:20:47,080 --> 00:20:48,546
They're doing their thing.
I didn't hang out.
I didn't party with them.

789
00:20:48,548 --> 00:20:49,480
I didn't hang out.
I didn't party with them.
I didn't drink.

790
00:20:49,482 --> 00:20:50,681
I didn't party with them.
I didn't drink.
I didn't do anything.

791
00:20:50,683 --> 00:20:52,383
I didn't drink.
I didn't do anything.
I just went to do the show, got

792
00:20:52,385 --> 00:20:53,918
I didn't do anything.
I just went to do the show, got
off the stage, and I went to

793
00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:55,319
I just went to do the show, got
off the stage, and I went to
that room, and I got that

794
00:20:55,321 --> 00:20:56,954
off the stage, and I went to
that room, and I got that
notebook, and I was writing my

795
00:20:56,956 --> 00:20:58,623
that room, and I got that
notebook, and I was writing my
life away, everything I thought

796
00:20:58,625 --> 00:21:00,324
notebook, and I was writing my
life away, everything I thought
about -- my history, my friends,

797
00:21:00,326 --> 00:21:01,993
life away, everything I thought
about -- my history, my friends,
the good days, the nasty days,

798
00:21:01,995 --> 00:21:03,494
about -- my history, my friends,
the good days, the nasty days,
the bad, the fun, whatever

799
00:21:03,496 --> 00:21:05,129
the good days, the nasty days,
the bad, the fun, whatever
happened that was surrounding

800
00:21:05,131 --> 00:21:06,931
the bad, the fun, whatever
happened that was surrounding
us, like just about the streets,

801
00:21:06,933 --> 00:21:08,599
happened that was surrounding
us, like just about the streets,
the life, the hustle, how you

802
00:21:08,601 --> 00:21:10,735
us, like just about the streets,
the life, the hustle, how you
getting money, how we came up.

803
00:21:10,737 --> 00:21:11,869
The life, the hustle, how you
getting money, how we came up.
This is miami.

804
00:21:11,871 --> 00:21:13,671
Getting money, how we came up.
This is miami.
This is the home of luke.

805
00:21:13,673 --> 00:21:15,506
This is miami.
This is the home of luke.
The women are voluptuous.

806
00:21:15,508 --> 00:21:17,008
This is the home of luke.
The women are voluptuous.
The bodies is there.

807
00:21:17,010 --> 00:21:18,109
The women are voluptuous.
The bodies is there.
Butts is big.

808
00:21:18,111 --> 00:21:19,710
The bodies is there.
Butts is big.
So, this is my world.

809
00:21:19,712 --> 00:21:21,879
Butts is big.
So, this is my world.
How do I incorporate that into

810
00:21:21,881 --> 00:21:24,048
so, this is my world.
How do I incorporate that into
my world, because I was there.

811
00:21:24,050 --> 00:21:25,116
How do I incorporate that into
my world, because I was there.
I was in it.

812
00:21:25,118 --> 00:21:26,951
My world, because I was there.
I was in it.
I just remember just being real

813
00:21:26,953 --> 00:21:28,719
I was in it.
I just remember just being real
young, and luke shot his video

814
00:21:28,721 --> 00:21:29,854
I just remember just being real
young, and luke shot his video
at my dad's store.

815
00:21:29,856 --> 00:21:31,188
Young, and luke shot his video
at my dad's store.
And of course my mom wouldn't

816
00:21:31,190 --> 00:21:32,590
at my dad's store.
And of course my mom wouldn't
let me come to the video, but I

817
00:21:32,592 --> 00:21:33,457
and of course my mom wouldn't
let me come to the video, but I
was at the store.

818
00:21:33,459 --> 00:21:34,925
Let me come to the video, but I
was at the store.
I was in the back hiding because

819
00:21:34,927 --> 00:21:36,327
was at the store.
I was in the back hiding because
I could see the women, but they

820
00:21:36,329 --> 00:21:37,762
I was in the back hiding because
I could see the women, but they
were like -- you know the bodies

821
00:21:37,764 --> 00:21:38,863
I could see the women, but they
were like -- you know the bodies
was like my mom's body.

822
00:21:38,865 --> 00:21:40,164
Were like -- you know the bodies
was like my mom's body.
So, it was like, "you're not

823
00:21:40,166 --> 00:21:41,332
was like my mom's body.
So, it was like, "you're not
supposed to be out here."

824
00:21:41,334 --> 00:21:42,700
so, it was like, "you're not
supposed to be out here."
so, this is like -- I seen all

825
00:21:42,702 --> 00:21:43,334
supposed to be out here."
so, this is like -- I seen all
this stuff.

826
00:21:43,336 --> 00:21:44,435
So, this is like -- I seen all
this stuff.
I know what's going on.

827
00:21:44,437 --> 00:21:47,038
This stuff.
I know what's going on.
So, I'm in this hotel room, and

828
00:21:47,040 --> 00:21:48,472
I know what's going on.
So, I'm in this hotel room, and
I got this pad.

829
00:21:48,474 --> 00:21:50,941
So, I'm in this hotel room, and
I got this pad.
I got to make these songs for

830
00:21:50,943 --> 00:21:53,944
I got this pad.
I got to make these songs for
my experiences.

831
00:21:53,946 --> 00:21:56,013
I got to make these songs for
my experiences.
And I was able to talk about

832
00:21:56,015 --> 00:21:57,848
my experiences.
And I was able to talk about
that, because it's real.

833
00:21:57,850 --> 00:21:59,116
And I was able to talk about
that, because it's real.
I came from it.

834
00:21:59,118 --> 00:22:00,685
That, because it's real.
I came from it.
And I would just make that make

835
00:22:00,687 --> 00:22:01,619
I came from it.
And I would just make that make
sense, you know?

836
00:22:01,621 --> 00:22:03,254
And I would just make that make
sense, you know?
When I would go to the guys, and

837
00:22:03,256 --> 00:22:04,655
sense, you know?
When I would go to the guys, and
they was like, "what do you

838
00:22:04,657 --> 00:22:05,156
when I would go to the guys, and
they was like, "what do you
need?"

839
00:22:05,158 --> 00:22:06,624
they was like, "what do you
need?"
and it would just be just the

840
00:22:06,626 --> 00:22:07,291
need?"
and it would just be just the
structure.

841
00:22:07,293 --> 00:22:08,826
And it would just be just the
structure.
Make all these words, all this

842
00:22:08,828 --> 00:22:10,428
structure.
Make all these words, all this
fly stuff I want to talk about,

843
00:22:10,430 --> 00:22:11,862
make all these words, all this
fly stuff I want to talk about,
all these diamonds and these

844
00:22:11,864 --> 00:22:13,464
fly stuff I want to talk about,
all these diamonds and these
cars and just let's help me put

845
00:22:13,466 --> 00:22:14,432
all these diamonds and these
cars and just let's help me put
into perspective.

846
00:22:14,434 --> 00:22:15,566
Cars and just let's help me put
into perspective.
And that's all I did.

847
00:22:15,568 --> 00:22:16,967
Into perspective.
And that's all I did.
I would do it day and night, a

848
00:22:16,969 --> 00:22:18,402
and that's all I did.
I would do it day and night, a
year straight on the road from

849
00:22:18,404 --> 00:22:18,803
I would do it day and night, a
year straight on the road from
them.

850
00:22:18,805 --> 00:22:20,504
Year straight on the road from
them.
I had one year because I just

851
00:22:20,506 --> 00:22:22,139
them.
I had one year because I just
had got signed to atlantic.

852
00:22:22,141 --> 00:22:24,008
I had one year because I just
had got signed to atlantic.
My album was coming out in 2000.

853
00:22:24,010 --> 00:22:25,476
Had got signed to atlantic.
My album was coming out in 2000.
"nann" came out in 1998.

854
00:22:25,478 --> 00:22:27,178
My album was coming out in 2000.
"nann" came out in 1998.
We went on tour for the whole

855
00:22:27,180 --> 00:22:28,045
"nann" came out in 1998.
We went on tour for the whole
year of 1999.

856
00:22:28,047 --> 00:22:29,947
We went on tour for the whole
year of 1999.
"the baddest" came out in 2000.

857
00:22:29,949 --> 00:22:31,849
Year of 1999.
"the baddest" came out in 2000.
So, I was completely locked in.

858
00:22:31,851 --> 00:22:33,751
"the baddest" came out in 2000.
So, I was completely locked in.
I wasn't thinking about nothing

859
00:22:33,753 --> 00:22:34,752
so, I was completely locked in.
I wasn't thinking about nothing
else but that.

860
00:22:34,754 --> 00:22:35,953
I wasn't thinking about nothing
else but that.
I had no distractions.

861
00:22:35,955 --> 00:22:37,388
Else but that.
I had no distractions.
I had all the help from the

862
00:22:37,390 --> 00:22:37,855
I had no distractions.
I had all the help from the
guys.

863
00:22:37,857 --> 00:22:38,923
I had all the help from the
guys.
They were partying.

864
00:22:38,925 --> 00:22:40,591
Guys.
They were partying.
I got a lot of stories from them

865
00:22:40,593 --> 00:22:42,059
they were partying.
I got a lot of stories from them
because they would be always

866
00:22:42,061 --> 00:22:42,893
I got a lot of stories from them
because they would be always
chasing girls.

867
00:22:42,895 --> 00:22:44,428
Because they would be always
chasing girls.
And I was just like, "some of

868
00:22:44,430 --> 00:22:46,097
chasing girls.
And I was just like, "some of
these girls, they're not like my

869
00:22:46,099 --> 00:22:46,630
and I was just like, "some of
these girls, they're not like my
girls."

870
00:22:46,632 --> 00:22:48,299
these girls, they're not like my
girls."
like, my girls, we ain't pulling

871
00:22:48,301 --> 00:22:49,100
girls."
like, my girls, we ain't pulling
up like that.

872
00:22:49,102 --> 00:22:50,768
Like, my girls, we ain't pulling
up like that.
You ain't tricking us to the set

873
00:22:50,770 --> 00:22:51,435
up like that.
You ain't tricking us to the set
like that.

874
00:22:51,437 --> 00:22:52,770
You ain't tricking us to the set
like that.
Like, we just come from a

875
00:22:52,772 --> 00:22:53,671
like that.
Like, we just come from a
different vibe.

876
00:22:53,673 --> 00:22:55,139
Like, we just come from a
different vibe.
So, when I see some of these

877
00:22:55,141 --> 00:22:56,607
different vibe.
So, when I see some of these
girls, sometimes I would ask

878
00:22:56,609 --> 00:22:57,074
so, when I see some of these
girls, sometimes I would ask
them.

879
00:22:57,076 --> 00:22:57,742
Girls, sometimes I would ask
them.
They know.

880
00:22:57,744 --> 00:22:59,276
Them.
They know.
I would pull them to the side

881
00:22:59,278 --> 00:23:00,745
they know.
I would pull them to the side
and be like, "you so pretty.

882
00:23:00,747 --> 00:23:01,612
I would pull them to the side
and be like, "you so pretty.
Why you here?"

883
00:23:01,614 --> 00:23:03,180
and be like, "you so pretty.
Why you here?"
like, "why you here with these

884
00:23:03,182 --> 00:23:03,647
why you here?"
like, "why you here with these
guys?"

885
00:23:03,649 --> 00:23:05,316
like, "why you here with these
guys?"
they'd be like, "oh, you're just

886
00:23:05,318 --> 00:23:06,717
guys?"
they'd be like, "oh, you're just
trying to block our vibe."

887
00:23:06,719 --> 00:23:08,319
they'd be like, "oh, you're just
trying to block our vibe."
I'd be like, "no, because I'm a

888
00:23:08,321 --> 00:23:09,754
trying to block our vibe."
I'd be like, "no, because I'm a
girl," and I'm speaking for

889
00:23:09,756 --> 00:23:10,521
I'd be like, "no, because I'm a
girl," and I'm speaking for
these girls.

890
00:23:10,523 --> 00:23:12,022
Girl," and I'm speaking for
these girls.
I came up around women -- you

891
00:23:12,024 --> 00:23:13,557
these girls.
I came up around women -- you
know, in a beauty salon, it's

892
00:23:13,559 --> 00:23:14,291
I came up around women -- you
know, in a beauty salon, it's
just women.

893
00:23:14,293 --> 00:23:15,893
Know, in a beauty salon, it's
just women.
I mean, these are grown ladies.

894
00:23:15,895 --> 00:23:16,894
Just women.
I mean, these are grown ladies.
They're venting.

895
00:23:16,896 --> 00:23:18,562
I mean, these are grown ladies.
They're venting.
They're going through divorce.

896
00:23:18,564 --> 00:23:19,730
They're venting.
They're going through divorce.
They're having kids.

897
00:23:19,732 --> 00:23:21,399
They're going through divorce.
They're having kids.
They tell it all in the salon.

898
00:23:21,401 --> 00:23:22,967
They're having kids.
They tell it all in the salon.
So, as a kid, I've heard so

899
00:23:22,969 --> 00:23:23,701
they tell it all in the salon.
So, as a kid, I've heard so
much of it.

900
00:23:23,703 --> 00:23:25,369
So, as a kid, I've heard so
much of it.
And just growing, I was always

901
00:23:25,371 --> 00:23:26,904
much of it.
And just growing, I was always
just always like that when it

902
00:23:26,906 --> 00:23:27,772
and just growing, I was always
just always like that when it
came to women.

903
00:23:27,774 --> 00:23:29,106
Just always like that when it
came to women.
Like, you got to boss up.

904
00:23:29,108 --> 00:23:30,741
Came to women.
Like, you got to boss up.
You got to, like, push through.

905
00:23:30,743 --> 00:23:32,376
Like, you got to boss up.
You got to, like, push through.
You got to keep moving, because

906
00:23:32,378 --> 00:23:33,177
you got to, like, push through.
You got to keep moving, because
nobody cares.

907
00:23:33,179 --> 00:23:33,878
You got to keep moving, because
nobody cares.
Work harder.

908
00:23:33,880 --> 00:23:35,346
Nobody cares.
Work harder.
Nobody's coming to save you.

909
00:23:35,348 --> 00:23:36,881
Work harder.
Nobody's coming to save you.
And I believe the only person

910
00:23:36,883 --> 00:23:38,382
nobody's coming to save you.
And I believe the only person
that saved me is my mom, and

911
00:23:38,384 --> 00:23:39,283
and I believe the only person
that saved me is my mom, and
she's not here.

912
00:23:39,285 --> 00:23:41,852
That saved me is my mom, and
she's not here.
So, I definitely don't depend

913
00:23:41,854 --> 00:23:44,355
she's not here.
So, I definitely don't depend
on nobody coming to save me.

914
00:23:44,357 --> 00:23:46,190
So, I definitely don't depend
on nobody coming to save me.
That's just -- that's just in

915
00:23:46,192 --> 00:23:46,390
on nobody coming to save me.
That's just -- that's just in
me.

916
00:23:48,927 --> 00:23:51,595
♪

917
00:23:51,797 --> 00:23:57,067
>> trina: Never had a problem
with wayne, ever.
Wayne was one of the most honest

918
00:23:57,069 --> 00:24:00,204
with wayne, ever.
Wayne was one of the most honest
guys I've ever been around,

919
00:24:00,206 --> 00:24:01,605
wayne was one of the most honest
guys I've ever been around,
honestly.

920
00:24:01,607 --> 00:24:04,942
Guys I've ever been around,
honestly.
Wayne and I was really young.

921
00:24:04,944 --> 00:24:06,177
Honestly.
Wayne and I was really young.
I was really young.

922
00:24:06,179 --> 00:24:07,378
Wayne and I was really young.
I was really young.
Wayne was younger.

923
00:24:07,380 --> 00:24:08,913
I was really young.
Wayne was younger.
It's two people coming up in the

924
00:24:08,915 --> 00:24:09,747
wayne was younger.
It's two people coming up in the
same game.

925
00:24:09,749 --> 00:24:11,749
It's two people coming up in the
same game.
But before me and wayne, me and

926
00:24:11,751 --> 00:24:13,050
same game.
But before me and wayne, me and
wayne was friends.

927
00:24:13,052 --> 00:24:15,119
But before me and wayne, me and
wayne was friends.
So, just being somebody that you

928
00:24:15,121 --> 00:24:16,954
wayne was friends.
So, just being somebody that you
know that's your friend, you

929
00:24:16,956 --> 00:24:18,889
so, just being somebody that you
know that's your friend, you
kind of just -- we in the same

930
00:24:18,891 --> 00:24:20,925
know that's your friend, you
kind of just -- we in the same
thing, and we know what goes on

931
00:24:20,927 --> 00:24:22,193
kind of just -- we in the same
thing, and we know what goes on
in the same thing.

932
00:24:22,195 --> 00:24:24,028
Thing, and we know what goes on
in the same thing.
Us just coming up and growing

933
00:24:24,030 --> 00:24:25,930
in the same thing.
Us just coming up and growing
up -- wayne was going through a

934
00:24:25,932 --> 00:24:27,598
us just coming up and growing
up -- wayne was going through a
lot in a situation with his

935
00:24:27,600 --> 00:24:29,533
up -- wayne was going through a
lot in a situation with his
label and his self and trying to

936
00:24:29,535 --> 00:24:31,235
lot in a situation with his
label and his self and trying to
make sure he get to the top.

937
00:24:31,237 --> 00:24:32,403
Label and his self and trying to
make sure he get to the top.
This is right before he did

938
00:24:32,405 --> 00:24:32,937
make sure he get to the top.
This is right before he did
"fireman."

939
00:24:32,939 --> 00:24:34,738
this is right before he did
"fireman."
I was there.

940
00:24:34,740 --> 00:24:36,807
"fireman."
I was there.
I remember him being in like a

941
00:24:36,809 --> 00:24:38,909
I was there.
I remember him being in like a
very pivotal moment, and I was

942
00:24:38,911 --> 00:24:41,045
I remember him being in like a
very pivotal moment, and I was
just pushing and pushing, like,

943
00:24:41,047 --> 00:24:41,879
very pivotal moment, and I was
just pushing and pushing, like,
"you it."

944
00:24:41,881 --> 00:24:43,481
just pushing and pushing, like,
"you it."
like, "you got to turn this

945
00:24:43,483 --> 00:24:44,114
"you it."
like, "you got to turn this
around.

946
00:24:44,116 --> 00:24:45,716
Like, "you got to turn this
around.
We got to figure this out."

947
00:24:45,718 --> 00:24:47,151
around.
We got to figure this out."
and he came up with the

948
00:24:47,153 --> 00:24:48,752
we got to figure this out."
and he came up with the
"fireman," and that was the

949
00:24:48,754 --> 00:24:51,222
and he came up with the
"fireman," and that was the
takeoff.

950
00:24:51,224 --> 00:24:53,991
"fireman," and that was the
takeoff.
I looked at wayne as just a

951
00:24:53,993 --> 00:24:57,228
takeoff.
I looked at wayne as just a
really great friend that I could

952
00:24:57,230 --> 00:25:00,097
I looked at wayne as just a
really great friend that I could
tell and any and everything.

953
00:25:00,099 --> 00:25:03,133
Really great friend that I could
tell and any and everything.
Wayne and I got engaged, and I

954
00:25:03,135 --> 00:25:06,270
tell and any and everything.
Wayne and I got engaged, and I
don't know if I was ready to

955
00:25:06,272 --> 00:25:09,240
wayne and I got engaged, and I
don't know if I was ready to
handle that or knew how to

956
00:25:09,242 --> 00:25:10,341
don't know if I was ready to
handle that or knew how to
handle it.

957
00:25:10,343 --> 00:25:12,643
Handle that or knew how to
handle it.
Just scared, just young, just

958
00:25:12,645 --> 00:25:14,879
handle it.
Just scared, just young, just
chasing your dream, watching

959
00:25:14,881 --> 00:25:17,248
just scared, just young, just
chasing your dream, watching
somebody else that you already

960
00:25:17,250 --> 00:25:19,783
chasing your dream, watching
somebody else that you already
adore and think is so dope chase

961
00:25:19,785 --> 00:25:22,219
somebody else that you already
adore and think is so dope chase
their dreams, and trying to put

962
00:25:22,221 --> 00:25:23,554
adore and think is so dope chase
their dreams, and trying to put
that together.

963
00:25:23,556 --> 00:25:25,489
Their dreams, and trying to put
that together.
Wayne is a workaholic.

964
00:25:25,491 --> 00:25:28,092
That together.
Wayne is a workaholic.
Wayne is gonna get in the studio

965
00:25:28,094 --> 00:25:28,893
wayne is a workaholic.
Wayne is gonna get in the studio
24 hours.

966
00:25:28,895 --> 00:25:30,427
Wayne is gonna get in the studio
24 hours.
He's the most giving,

967
00:25:30,429 --> 00:25:32,329
24 hours.
He's the most giving,
considerate person I've ever

968
00:25:32,331 --> 00:25:32,863
he's the most giving,
considerate person I've ever
met.

969
00:25:32,865 --> 00:25:34,899
Considerate person I've ever
met.
I just feel like with us, it's

970
00:25:34,901 --> 00:25:36,834
met.
I just feel like with us, it's
one of those things where --

971
00:25:36,836 --> 00:25:38,869
I just feel like with us, it's
one of those things where --
when you're just young, I feel

972
00:25:38,871 --> 00:25:40,804
one of those things where --
when you're just young, I feel
like, just early, early 20s,

973
00:25:40,806 --> 00:25:42,973
when you're just young, I feel
like, just early, early 20s,
that's when the most mistakes is

974
00:25:42,975 --> 00:25:43,908
like, just early, early 20s,
that's when the most mistakes is
being made.

975
00:25:43,910 --> 00:25:45,142
That's when the most mistakes is
being made.
That's when you're trying to

976
00:25:45,144 --> 00:25:45,843
being made.
That's when you're trying to
figure it out.

977
00:25:45,845 --> 00:25:46,977
That's when you're trying to
figure it out.
That's when you're unsure.

978
00:25:46,979 --> 00:25:48,078
Figure it out.
That's when you're unsure.
You're uncertain the most.

979
00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:49,046
That's when you're unsure.
You're uncertain the most.
Like, you don't want to make

980
00:25:49,048 --> 00:25:49,513
you're uncertain the most.
Like, you don't want to make
mistakes.

981
00:25:49,515 --> 00:25:50,347
Like, you don't want to make
mistakes.
You don't want to fail.

982
00:25:50,349 --> 00:25:53,017
Mistakes.
You don't want to fail.
You don't want to do nothing for

983
00:25:53,019 --> 00:25:54,318
you don't want to fail.
You don't want to do nothing for
it to not be.

984
00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:56,820
You don't want to do nothing for
it to not be.
Are you really ready for that?

985
00:25:56,822 --> 00:25:58,355
It to not be.
Are you really ready for that?
It was just one of those kind of

986
00:25:58,357 --> 00:25:59,023
are you really ready for that?
It was just one of those kind of
situations.

987
00:25:59,025 --> 00:26:01,225
It was just one of those kind of
situations.
>> keep skateboarding, bro!

988
00:26:01,227 --> 00:26:02,760
Situations.
>> keep skateboarding, bro!
[ crowd cheers ]

989
00:26:02,762 --> 00:26:04,995
>> keep skateboarding, bro!
[ crowd cheers ]
>> trina: My mom had me at 18.

990
00:26:04,997 --> 00:26:06,564
[ crowd cheers ]
>> trina: My mom had me at 18.
My mom's mom's family is from

991
00:26:06,566 --> 00:26:07,531
>> trina: My mom had me at 18.
My mom's mom's family is from
nassau, bahamas.

992
00:26:07,533 --> 00:26:08,933
My mom's mom's family is from
nassau, bahamas.
I was gonna be born in nassau.

993
00:26:08,935 --> 00:26:10,267
Nassau, bahamas.
I was gonna be born in nassau.
My mom end up falling, like,

994
00:26:10,269 --> 00:26:11,702
I was gonna be born in nassau.
My mom end up falling, like,
tripped up the step and off the

995
00:26:11,704 --> 00:26:12,303
my mom end up falling, like,
tripped up the step and off the
bus, fell.

996
00:26:12,305 --> 00:26:13,537
Tripped up the step and off the
bus, fell.
Had to go to the hospital.

997
00:26:13,539 --> 00:26:14,738
Bus, fell.
Had to go to the hospital.
Almost had a miscarriage.

998
00:26:14,740 --> 00:26:15,639
Had to go to the hospital.
Almost had a miscarriage.
I survive.

999
00:26:15,641 --> 00:26:17,474
Almost had a miscarriage.
I survive.
And then, knowing that the

1000
00:26:17,476 --> 00:26:19,677
I survive.
And then, knowing that the
person that helped you create me

1001
00:26:19,679 --> 00:26:21,645
and then, knowing that the
person that helped you create me
is nowhere in the picture at

1002
00:26:21,647 --> 00:26:23,814
person that helped you create me
is nowhere in the picture at
all, I don't resonate with that

1003
00:26:23,816 --> 00:26:25,349
is nowhere in the picture at
all, I don't resonate with that
when it comes to men.

1004
00:26:25,351 --> 00:26:27,318
All, I don't resonate with that
when it comes to men.
When I say "my dads," that's

1005
00:26:27,320 --> 00:26:28,819
when it comes to men.
When I say "my dads," that's
what I call showing.

1006
00:26:28,821 --> 00:26:30,654
When I say "my dads," that's
what I call showing.
You're putting the action.

1007
00:26:30,656 --> 00:26:31,889
What I call showing.
You're putting the action.
It's just not a word.

1008
00:26:31,891 --> 00:26:33,390
You're putting the action.
It's just not a word.
You're a whole person that

1009
00:26:33,392 --> 00:26:34,992
it's just not a word.
You're a whole person that
created a human, and you were

1010
00:26:34,994 --> 00:26:36,193
you're a whole person that
created a human, and you were
nowhere to be found.

1011
00:26:36,195 --> 00:26:38,562
Created a human, and you were
nowhere to be found.
So, therefore, I'm numb to that.

1012
00:26:38,564 --> 00:26:40,598
Nowhere to be found.
So, therefore, I'm numb to that.
So, when it comes to a man,

1013
00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:42,800
so, therefore, I'm numb to that.
So, when it comes to a man,
certainty must take place for

1014
00:26:42,802 --> 00:26:43,300
so, when it comes to a man,
certainty must take place for
me.

1015
00:26:43,302 --> 00:26:44,635
Certainty must take place for
me.
Like, reassurance.

1016
00:26:44,637 --> 00:26:46,070
Me.
Like, reassurance.
I need to make sure.

1017
00:26:46,072 --> 00:26:48,105
Like, reassurance.
I need to make sure.
At 23 years old, I was in love,

1018
00:26:48,107 --> 00:26:50,174
I need to make sure.
At 23 years old, I was in love,
but I wasn't sure to be a wife.

1019
00:26:50,176 --> 00:26:51,909
At 23 years old, I was in love,
but I wasn't sure to be a wife.
I didn't want to make the

1020
00:26:51,911 --> 00:26:52,643
but I wasn't sure to be a wife.
I didn't want to make the
mistake.

1021
00:26:52,645 --> 00:26:54,378
I didn't want to make the
mistake.
I didn't know what to do.

1022
00:26:54,380 --> 00:26:56,313
Mistake.
I didn't know what to do.
I didn't know what a wife do.

1023
00:26:56,315 --> 00:26:58,282
I didn't know what to do.
I didn't know what a wife do.
Like, back then, it's a scary

1024
00:26:58,284 --> 00:27:00,184
I didn't know what a wife do.
Like, back then, it's a scary
place of just being me, the

1025
00:27:00,186 --> 00:27:02,186
like, back then, it's a scary
place of just being me, the
"girl off 'nann,'" the persona

1026
00:27:02,188 --> 00:27:04,288
place of just being me, the
"girl off 'nann,'" the persona
of you feeling like there's this

1027
00:27:04,290 --> 00:27:06,423
"girl off 'nann,'" the persona
of you feeling like there's this
raunchy girl that comes from the

1028
00:27:06,425 --> 00:27:09,093
of you feeling like there's this
raunchy girl that comes from the
city, and she got this edge and

1029
00:27:09,095 --> 00:27:11,095
raunchy girl that comes from the
city, and she got this edge and
this spunk, this sass.

1030
00:27:11,097 --> 00:27:12,896
City, and she got this edge and
this spunk, this sass.
The song is the streets.

1031
00:27:12,898 --> 00:27:14,298
This spunk, this sass.
The song is the streets.
That's what it is.

1032
00:27:14,300 --> 00:27:16,266
The song is the streets.
That's what it is.
But when I'm with you, it's a

1033
00:27:16,268 --> 00:27:17,901
that's what it is.
But when I'm with you, it's a
whole different person.

1034
00:27:17,903 --> 00:27:19,436
But when I'm with you, it's a
whole different person.
That's the katrina person.

1035
00:27:19,438 --> 00:27:20,871
Whole different person.
That's the katrina person.
The song is -- that's my

1036
00:27:20,873 --> 00:27:21,605
that's the katrina person.
The song is -- that's my
alter ego.

1037
00:27:21,607 --> 00:27:22,773
The song is -- that's my
alter ego.
That's an illusion.

1038
00:27:22,775 --> 00:27:24,408
Alter ego.
That's an illusion.
You could lust and do all it

1039
00:27:24,410 --> 00:27:25,142
that's an illusion.
You could lust and do all it
over that.

1040
00:27:25,144 --> 00:27:26,910
You could lust and do all it
over that.
But when it comes to me, it has

1041
00:27:26,912 --> 00:27:28,112
over that.
But when it comes to me, it has
to be real.

1042
00:27:28,114 --> 00:27:29,880
But when it comes to me, it has
to be real.
[ crowd cheers ]

1043
00:27:29,882 --> 00:27:32,416
to be real.
[ crowd cheers ]
knowing who I am now, I would

1044
00:27:32,418 --> 00:27:34,752
[ crowd cheers ]
knowing who I am now, I would
say there are parts of the

1045
00:27:34,754 --> 00:27:37,421
knowing who I am now, I would
say there are parts of the
relationship I took for granted

1046
00:27:37,423 --> 00:27:40,057
say there are parts of the
relationship I took for granted
because I didn't understand or

1047
00:27:40,059 --> 00:27:41,325
relationship I took for granted
because I didn't understand or
didn't know.

1048
00:27:41,327 --> 00:27:42,893
Because I didn't understand or
didn't know.
Or I was unsure.

1049
00:27:42,895 --> 00:27:44,194
Didn't know.
Or I was unsure.
I was unsure.

1050
00:27:44,196 --> 00:27:46,463
Or I was unsure.
I was unsure.
I always put this thing up.

1051
00:27:46,465 --> 00:27:48,966
I was unsure.
I always put this thing up.
And, just to be honest, a part

1052
00:27:48,968 --> 00:27:51,402
I always put this thing up.
And, just to be honest, a part
of me sometimes, I don't know

1053
00:27:51,404 --> 00:27:53,203
and, just to be honest, a part
of me sometimes, I don't know
how to not put it up

1054
00:27:53,205 --> 00:27:55,305
of me sometimes, I don't know
how to not put it up
because I don't know how to set

1055
00:27:55,307 --> 00:27:56,907
how to not put it up
because I don't know how to set
myself up for failure.

1056
00:27:56,909 --> 00:27:58,842
Because I don't know how to set
myself up for failure.
I don't know how to do that.

1057
00:27:58,844 --> 00:28:01,879
Myself up for failure.
I don't know how to do that.
♪

1058
00:28:01,881 --> 00:28:04,014
I don't know how to do that.
♪
kenyon martin became even more

1059
00:28:04,016 --> 00:28:06,150
♪
kenyon martin became even more
of the reason why I have walls

1060
00:28:06,152 --> 00:28:06,650
kenyon martin became even more
of the reason why I have walls
up.

1061
00:28:06,652 --> 00:28:08,585
Of the reason why I have walls
up.
Kenyon martin and I were in

1062
00:28:08,587 --> 00:28:10,788
up.
Kenyon martin and I were in
love, absolutely.

1063
00:28:10,790 --> 00:28:13,157
Kenyon martin and I were in
love, absolutely.
This is the expectation.

1064
00:28:13,159 --> 00:28:16,126
Love, absolutely.
This is the expectation.
This is the high-profile person

1065
00:28:16,128 --> 00:28:17,594
this is the expectation.
This is the high-profile person
in the world.

1066
00:28:17,596 --> 00:28:19,396
This is the high-profile person
in the world.
I don't know you.

1067
00:28:19,398 --> 00:28:21,932
In the world.
I don't know you.
I am another person in the

1068
00:28:21,934 --> 00:28:25,569
I don't know you.
I am another person in the
world.

1069
00:28:25,571 --> 00:28:27,571
I am another person in the
world.
You knew me before I knew you.

1070
00:28:27,573 --> 00:28:29,707
World.
You knew me before I knew you.
You knew who I was.

1071
00:28:29,709 --> 00:28:31,308
You knew me before I knew you.
You knew who I was.
And then this exterior, that

1072
00:28:31,310 --> 00:28:32,976
you knew who I was.
And then this exterior, that
persona thing builds up of the

1073
00:28:32,978 --> 00:28:34,044
and then this exterior, that
persona thing builds up of the
girl from "nann."

1074
00:28:34,046 --> 00:28:37,081
persona thing builds up of the
girl from "nann."
that's the infatuation that men

1075
00:28:37,083 --> 00:28:38,615
girl from "nann."
that's the infatuation that men
are drawn to.

1076
00:28:38,617 --> 00:28:40,851
That's the infatuation that men
are drawn to.
But when I meet her, it's a

1077
00:28:40,853 --> 00:28:42,820
are drawn to.
But when I meet her, it's a
whole different person.

1078
00:28:42,822 --> 00:28:44,988
But when I meet her, it's a
whole different person.
Like, the sweetest person.

1079
00:28:44,990 --> 00:28:47,357
Whole different person.
Like, the sweetest person.
A lot of things went bad, you

1080
00:28:47,359 --> 00:28:48,058
like, the sweetest person.
A lot of things went bad, you
know?

1081
00:28:48,060 --> 00:28:50,561
A lot of things went bad, you
know?
And this thing, I let my entire

1082
00:28:50,563 --> 00:28:52,062
know?
And this thing, I let my entire
guard down.

1083
00:28:52,064 --> 00:28:54,064
And this thing, I let my entire
guard down.
I was the most vulnerable I've

1084
00:28:54,066 --> 00:28:56,033
guard down.
I was the most vulnerable I've
ever been in any relationship.

1085
00:28:56,035 --> 00:28:57,835
I was the most vulnerable I've
ever been in any relationship.
And then things took a turn,

1086
00:28:57,837 --> 00:28:59,703
ever been in any relationship.
And then things took a turn,
where it was no truth, and it

1087
00:28:59,705 --> 00:29:00,804
and then things took a turn,
where it was no truth, and it
was no honesty.

1088
00:29:00,806 --> 00:29:04,208
Where it was no truth, and it
was no honesty.
And that became to bother me.

1089
00:29:04,210 --> 00:29:07,344
Was no honesty.
And that became to bother me.
I became to feel unwanted.

1090
00:29:07,346 --> 00:29:10,948
And that became to bother me.
I became to feel unwanted.
I became to feel unappreciated.

1091
00:29:10,950 --> 00:29:14,718
I became to feel unwanted.
I became to feel unappreciated.
I became to feel...All these

1092
00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:18,589
I became to feel unappreciated.
I became to feel...All these
things that I shouldn't feel.

1093
00:29:18,591 --> 00:29:20,657
I became to feel...All these
things that I shouldn't feel.
In those situations, where

1094
00:29:20,659 --> 00:29:23,127
things that I shouldn't feel.
In those situations, where
there's a man, and he have kids,

1095
00:29:23,129 --> 00:29:27,664
in those situations, where
there's a man, and he have kids,
you know, me, without the kids,

1096
00:29:27,666 --> 00:29:29,666
there's a man, and he have kids,
you know, me, without the kids,
I go, "let me be as supportive

1097
00:29:29,668 --> 00:29:31,602
you know, me, without the kids,
I go, "let me be as supportive
as I can for that," because I

1098
00:29:31,604 --> 00:29:33,337
I go, "let me be as supportive
as I can for that," because I
know that can be a touchy

1099
00:29:33,339 --> 00:29:34,071
as I can for that," because I
know that can be a touchy
situation.

1100
00:29:34,073 --> 00:29:35,639
Know that can be a touchy
situation.
And things could be all cool

1101
00:29:35,641 --> 00:29:37,374
situation.
And things could be all cool
until somebody else come in the

1102
00:29:37,376 --> 00:29:37,975
and things could be all cool
until somebody else come in the
picture.

1103
00:29:37,977 --> 00:29:39,777
Until somebody else come in the
picture.
And now you can't see your kids.

1104
00:29:39,779 --> 00:29:41,311
Picture.
And now you can't see your kids.
You can't visit -- just the

1105
00:29:41,313 --> 00:29:42,446
and now you can't see your kids.
You can't visit -- just the
stuff that happens.

1106
00:29:42,448 --> 00:29:43,947
You can't visit -- just the
stuff that happens.
"oh, yeah, just be with me.

1107
00:29:43,949 --> 00:29:45,282
Stuff that happens.
"oh, yeah, just be with me.
Don't worry about that."

1108
00:29:45,284 --> 00:29:46,483
"oh, yeah, just be with me.
Don't worry about that."
that's not me.

1109
00:29:46,485 --> 00:29:48,719
Don't worry about that."
that's not me.
Trust is the biggest factor for

1110
00:29:48,721 --> 00:29:49,219
that's not me.
Trust is the biggest factor for
me.

1111
00:29:49,221 --> 00:29:51,688
Trust is the biggest factor for
me.
I have to trust you.

1112
00:29:51,690 --> 00:29:53,490
Me.
I have to trust you.
We're both doing our thing.

1113
00:29:53,492 --> 00:29:55,025
I have to trust you.
We're both doing our thing.
We're both successful.

1114
00:29:55,027 --> 00:29:56,360
We're both doing our thing.
We're both successful.
We both make money.

1115
00:29:56,362 --> 00:29:57,528
We're both successful.
We both make money.
We both live our life.

1116
00:29:57,530 --> 00:29:59,163
We both make money.
We both live our life.
But if I trust you, and I put my

1117
00:29:59,165 --> 00:30:00,764
we both live our life.
But if I trust you, and I put my
all into you, and we're planning

1118
00:30:00,766 --> 00:30:03,467
but if I trust you, and I put my
all into you, and we're planning
a family, and we're living a

1119
00:30:03,469 --> 00:30:06,236
all into you, and we're planning
a family, and we're living a
life together, and you betray

1120
00:30:06,238 --> 00:30:11,608
a family, and we're living a
life together, and you betray
that, I don't know how to give

1121
00:30:11,610 --> 00:30:13,143
life together, and you betray
that, I don't know how to give
the man the power to do that to

1122
00:30:13,145 --> 00:30:13,343
that, I don't know how to give
the man the power to do that to
me.

1123
00:30:18,216 --> 00:30:25,823
>> trina: My album "the one" --
I've worked on this album for
five years almost.

1124
00:30:25,825 --> 00:30:27,424
I've worked on this album for
five years almost.
I mean, I would book the studio.

1125
00:30:27,426 --> 00:30:29,026
Five years almost.
I mean, I would book the studio.
I would go record for months and

1126
00:30:29,028 --> 00:30:30,027
I mean, I would book the studio.
I would go record for months and
months and months.

1127
00:30:30,029 --> 00:30:31,428
I would go record for months and
months and months.
Sometimes I wouldn't record

1128
00:30:31,430 --> 00:30:31,995
months and months.
Sometimes I wouldn't record
nothing.

1129
00:30:31,997 --> 00:30:33,597
Sometimes I wouldn't record
nothing.
Sometimes I was in a good space.

1130
00:30:33,599 --> 00:30:34,865
Nothing.
Sometimes I was in a good space.
Sometimes I wasn't.

1131
00:30:34,867 --> 00:30:36,767
Sometimes I was in a good space.
Sometimes I wasn't.
The time my mom got sick -- this

1132
00:30:36,769 --> 00:30:38,669
sometimes I wasn't.
The time my mom got sick -- this
is how I created the "mama" song

1133
00:30:38,671 --> 00:30:39,436
the time my mom got sick -- this
is how I created the "mama" song
to my mom.

1134
00:30:39,438 --> 00:30:41,071
Is how I created the "mama" song
to my mom.
I was in a terrible space.

1135
00:30:41,073 --> 00:30:42,072
To my mom.
I was in a terrible space.
My mom was sick.

1136
00:30:42,074 --> 00:30:43,640
I was in a terrible space.
My mom was sick.
I was just mad at the world.

1137
00:30:43,642 --> 00:30:44,441
My mom was sick.
I was just mad at the world.
I was angry.

1138
00:30:44,443 --> 00:30:45,676
I was just mad at the world.
I was angry.
I just didn't get it.

1139
00:30:45,678 --> 00:30:47,377
I was angry.
I just didn't get it.
I was like, "here I go, living

1140
00:30:47,379 --> 00:30:48,245
I just didn't get it.
I was like, "here I go, living
my best life.

1141
00:30:48,247 --> 00:30:49,980
I was like, "here I go, living
my best life.
Me and my friends, we drinking,

1142
00:30:49,982 --> 00:30:50,848
my best life.
Me and my friends, we drinking,
we partying."

1143
00:30:50,850 --> 00:30:52,649
me and my friends, we drinking,
we partying."
my mom never drank a sip of wine

1144
00:30:52,651 --> 00:30:53,817
we partying."
my mom never drank a sip of wine
in her entire life.

1145
00:30:53,819 --> 00:30:55,352
My mom never drank a sip of wine
in her entire life.
I don't have a major deal at

1146
00:30:55,354 --> 00:30:56,019
in her entire life.
I don't have a major deal at
this time.

1147
00:30:56,021 --> 00:30:57,421
I don't have a major deal at
this time.
I'm doing this on my own.

1148
00:30:57,423 --> 00:30:59,189
This time.
I'm doing this on my own.
We go get a deal with

1149
00:30:59,191 --> 00:31:02,759
I'm doing this on my own.
We go get a deal with
sony records.

1150
00:31:02,761 --> 00:31:05,128
We go get a deal with
sony records.
I went to do my album.

1151
00:31:05,130 --> 00:31:07,664
Sony records.
I went to do my album.
I put wayne on my album.

1152
00:31:07,666 --> 00:31:09,233
I went to do my album.
I put wayne on my album.
I called him.

1153
00:31:09,235 --> 00:31:11,702
I put wayne on my album.
I called him.
I want him on my album.

1154
00:31:11,704 --> 00:31:13,170
I called him.
I want him on my album.
Done.

1155
00:31:13,172 --> 00:31:14,404
I want him on my album.
Done.
2 chainz on my album.

1156
00:31:14,406 --> 00:31:14,872
Done.
2 chainz on my album.
Done.

1157
00:31:14,874 --> 00:31:17,541
2 chainz on my album.
Done.
Plies. Done.

1158
00:31:17,543 --> 00:31:18,942
Done.
Plies. Done.
Rico love. Done.

1159
00:31:18,944 --> 00:31:21,712
Plies. Done.
Rico love. Done.
Nicki minaj. Done.

1160
00:31:21,714 --> 00:31:22,913
Rico love. Done.
Nicki minaj. Done.
It was something that happened

1161
00:31:22,915 --> 00:31:23,981
nicki minaj. Done.
It was something that happened
when I went to the studio.

1162
00:31:23,983 --> 00:31:25,249
It was something that happened
when I went to the studio.
I went to the studio for a week.

1163
00:31:25,251 --> 00:31:27,217
When I went to the studio.
I went to the studio for a week.
I didn't record nothing,

1164
00:31:27,219 --> 00:31:27,818
I went to the studio for a week.
I didn't record nothing,
all week.

1165
00:31:27,820 --> 00:31:29,353
I didn't record nothing,
all week.
The engineer -- we just sitting

1166
00:31:29,355 --> 00:31:29,820
all week.
The engineer -- we just sitting
there.

1167
00:31:29,822 --> 00:31:30,854
The engineer -- we just sitting
there.
Nobody's recording.

1168
00:31:30,856 --> 00:31:31,755
There.
Nobody's recording.
Chef is cooking.

1169
00:31:31,757 --> 00:31:33,457
Nobody's recording.
Chef is cooking.
I'm just -- I'm just stuck,

1170
00:31:33,459 --> 00:31:33,991
chef is cooking.
I'm just -- I'm just stuck,
numb.

1171
00:31:33,993 --> 00:31:35,559
I'm just -- I'm just stuck,
numb.
I'm not writing nothing.

1172
00:31:35,561 --> 00:31:37,060
Numb.
I'm not writing nothing.
I'm listening to music.

1173
00:31:37,062 --> 00:31:39,997
I'm not writing nothing.
I'm listening to music.
Everything is sad.

1174
00:31:39,999 --> 00:31:41,198
I'm listening to music.
Everything is sad.
This record comes up, and I do

1175
00:31:41,200 --> 00:31:42,165
everything is sad.
This record comes up, and I do
this record for my mom.

1176
00:31:42,167 --> 00:31:42,900
This record comes up, and I do
this record for my mom.
My mom was sick.

1177
00:31:42,902 --> 00:31:44,801
This record for my mom.
My mom was sick.
I was like, "mom, this is

1178
00:31:44,803 --> 00:31:45,569
my mom was sick.
I was like, "mom, this is
the..."

1179
00:31:45,571 --> 00:31:47,604
I was like, "mom, this is
the..."
a friend of mine comes to the

1180
00:31:47,606 --> 00:31:48,906
the..."
a friend of mine comes to the
studio to see me.

1181
00:31:48,908 --> 00:31:50,874
A friend of mine comes to the
studio to see me.
Brian mckinney -- this is a

1182
00:31:50,876 --> 00:31:52,109
studio to see me.
Brian mckinney -- this is a
friend of mine.

1183
00:31:52,111 --> 00:31:53,644
Brian mckinney -- this is a
friend of mine.
"I'm gonna stop by and see you.

1184
00:31:53,646 --> 00:31:55,145
Friend of mine.
"I'm gonna stop by and see you.
I feel like you just need some

1185
00:31:55,147 --> 00:31:56,513
"I'm gonna stop by and see you.
I feel like you just need some
good energy in the studio."

1186
00:31:56,515 --> 00:31:58,582
I feel like you just need some
good energy in the studio."
he says, "I'm gonna bring

1187
00:31:58,584 --> 00:32:00,183
good energy in the studio."
he says, "I'm gonna bring
somebody with me."

1188
00:32:00,185 --> 00:32:02,252
he says, "I'm gonna bring
somebody with me."
and I said, "okay, cool."

1189
00:32:02,254 --> 00:32:04,388
somebody with me."
and I said, "okay, cool."
he come by the studio.

1190
00:32:04,390 --> 00:32:06,790
And I said, "okay, cool."
he come by the studio.
He was in there for, like, a

1191
00:32:06,792 --> 00:32:09,293
he come by the studio.
He was in there for, like, a
good 10, 15 minutes, and then

1192
00:32:09,295 --> 00:32:10,360
he was in there for, like, a
good 10, 15 minutes, and then
ms. Kelly price walks in the

1193
00:32:10,362 --> 00:32:12,663
good 10, 15 minutes, and then
ms. Kelly price walks in the
studio.

1194
00:32:12,665 --> 00:32:15,365
Ms. Kelly price walks in the
studio.
I was so fanned out, my god.

1195
00:32:15,367 --> 00:32:17,000
Studio.
I was so fanned out, my god.
I was in tears.

1196
00:32:17,002 --> 00:32:18,735
I was so fanned out, my god.
I was in tears.
I'm already sad.

1197
00:32:18,737 --> 00:32:21,738
I was in tears.
I'm already sad.
I'm in tears. It's just a lot.

1198
00:32:21,740 --> 00:32:23,206
I'm already sad.
I'm in tears. It's just a lot.
And then I just stopped the

1199
00:32:23,208 --> 00:32:23,674
I'm in tears. It's just a lot.
And then I just stopped the
music.

1200
00:32:23,676 --> 00:32:25,242
And then I just stopped the
music.
So, I'm just like, "you know,

1201
00:32:25,244 --> 00:32:26,576
music.
So, I'm just like, "you know,
oh, my god, how are you?

1202
00:32:26,578 --> 00:32:27,945
So, I'm just like, "you know,
oh, my god, how are you?
I can't believe it's you.

1203
00:32:27,947 --> 00:32:29,413
Oh, my god, how are you?
I can't believe it's you.
I can't believe you came in

1204
00:32:29,415 --> 00:32:29,913
I can't believe it's you.
I can't believe you came in
here."

1205
00:32:29,915 --> 00:32:31,315
I can't believe you came in
here."
like, I was just so happy.

1206
00:32:31,317 --> 00:32:32,950
Here."
like, I was just so happy.
She goes, "what are you working

1207
00:32:32,952 --> 00:32:33,350
like, I was just so happy.
She goes, "what are you working
on?"

1208
00:32:33,352 --> 00:32:35,352
she goes, "what are you working
on?"
I'm like, "oh, just some music,

1209
00:32:35,354 --> 00:32:37,354
on?"
I'm like, "oh, just some music,
must my album stuff, whatever."

1210
00:32:37,356 --> 00:32:38,255
I'm like, "oh, just some music,
must my album stuff, whatever."
and she said, "well, play

1211
00:32:38,257 --> 00:32:38,689
must my album stuff, whatever."
and she said, "well, play
something.

1212
00:32:38,691 --> 00:32:39,690
And she said, "well, play
something.
Let me hear what you're working

1213
00:32:39,692 --> 00:32:40,023
something.
Let me hear what you're working
on."

1214
00:32:40,025 --> 00:32:41,258
let me hear what you're working
on."
so, we just start playing a

1215
00:32:41,260 --> 00:32:41,658
on."
so, we just start playing a
track.

1216
00:32:41,660 --> 00:32:42,960
So, we just start playing a
track.
I was trying to play a little

1217
00:32:42,962 --> 00:32:44,227
track.
I was trying to play a little
upbeat because I was already

1218
00:32:44,229 --> 00:32:44,995
I was trying to play a little
upbeat because I was already
with the tears.

1219
00:32:44,997 --> 00:32:46,263
Upbeat because I was already
with the tears.
I'm trying to hold the tears

1220
00:32:46,265 --> 00:32:46,630
with the tears.
I'm trying to hold the tears
back.

1221
00:32:46,632 --> 00:32:48,699
I'm trying to hold the tears
back.
So, we go through these songs,

1222
00:32:48,701 --> 00:32:50,734
back.
So, we go through these songs,
and I play the song that I was

1223
00:32:50,736 --> 00:32:52,436
so, we go through these songs,
and I play the song that I was
working on about my mom.

1224
00:32:52,438 --> 00:32:55,672
And I play the song that I was
working on about my mom.
As soon as I play the song, she

1225
00:32:55,674 --> 00:32:58,175
working on about my mom.
As soon as I play the song, she
said, "stop the music."

1226
00:32:58,177 --> 00:32:59,743
as soon as I play the song, she
said, "stop the music."
and she just went in the studio,

1227
00:32:59,745 --> 00:33:00,711
said, "stop the music."
and she just went in the studio,
went in the booth.

1228
00:33:00,713 --> 00:33:01,979
And she just went in the studio,
went in the booth.
She just started singing.

1229
00:33:01,981 --> 00:33:03,347
Went in the booth.
She just started singing.
And it was just -- the song was

1230
00:33:03,349 --> 00:33:04,748
she just started singing.
And it was just -- the song was
talking about my mom and just me

1231
00:33:04,750 --> 00:33:06,049
and it was just -- the song was
talking about my mom and just me
being sad and just me needing

1232
00:33:06,051 --> 00:33:06,383
talking about my mom and just me
being sad and just me needing
her.

1233
00:33:06,385 --> 00:33:08,285
Being sad and just me needing
her.
And then, she just went to

1234
00:33:08,287 --> 00:33:10,220
her.
And then, she just went to
saying, like, "mama, please

1235
00:33:10,222 --> 00:33:12,422
and then, she just went to
saying, like, "mama, please
don't go," and it just went all

1236
00:33:12,424 --> 00:33:15,425
saying, like, "mama, please
don't go," and it just went all
the way in full tear mode.

1237
00:33:15,427 --> 00:33:17,494
Don't go," and it just went all
the way in full tear mode.
And when she came out, I was

1238
00:33:17,496 --> 00:33:18,161
the way in full tear mode.
And when she came out, I was
happy.

1239
00:33:18,163 --> 00:33:19,096
And when she came out, I was
happy.
I was sad.

1240
00:33:19,098 --> 00:33:20,230
Happy.
I was sad.
I was crying.

1241
00:33:20,232 --> 00:33:22,666
I was sad.
I was crying.
I just was hugging her so tight

1242
00:33:22,668 --> 00:33:25,002
I was crying.
I just was hugging her so tight
I didn't even want to let her

1243
00:33:25,004 --> 00:33:25,535
I just was hugging her so tight
I didn't even want to let her
go.

1244
00:33:25,537 --> 00:33:27,704
I didn't even want to let her
go.
I couldn't believe that she

1245
00:33:27,706 --> 00:33:30,107
go.
I couldn't believe that she
just, like, walked in -- like,

1246
00:33:30,109 --> 00:33:32,409
I couldn't believe that she
just, like, walked in -- like,
her night in miami, whatever

1247
00:33:32,411 --> 00:33:34,878
just, like, walked in -- like,
her night in miami, whatever
she was doing prior, she got an

1248
00:33:34,880 --> 00:33:37,314
her night in miami, whatever
she was doing prior, she got an
hour or two to, like, hang out.

1249
00:33:37,316 --> 00:33:39,049
She was doing prior, she got an
hour or two to, like, hang out.
And you decided to come by the

1250
00:33:39,051 --> 00:33:40,784
hour or two to, like, hang out.
And you decided to come by the
studio where I'm recording it.

1251
00:33:40,786 --> 00:33:41,952
And you decided to come by the
studio where I'm recording it.
I play this record.

1252
00:33:41,954 --> 00:33:43,186
Studio where I'm recording it.
I play this record.
It's about my mom.

1253
00:33:43,188 --> 00:33:44,554
I play this record.
It's about my mom.
You go in the studio.

1254
00:33:44,556 --> 00:33:45,689
It's about my mom.
You go in the studio.
You do the song.

1255
00:33:45,691 --> 00:33:47,290
You go in the studio.
You do the song.
The rest is history.

1256
00:33:47,292 --> 00:33:50,527
You do the song.
The rest is history.
♪

1257
00:33:50,529 --> 00:33:53,964
the rest is history.
♪
boom. Album comes out.

1258
00:33:53,966 --> 00:33:56,633
♪
boom. Album comes out.
Now, I'm in a bad situation with

1259
00:33:56,635 --> 00:33:59,236
boom. Album comes out.
Now, I'm in a bad situation with
members of my team that has not

1260
00:33:59,238 --> 00:34:01,738
now, I'm in a bad situation with
members of my team that has not
been honest, has not explained

1261
00:34:01,740 --> 00:34:03,907
members of my team that has not
been honest, has not explained
to me certain situations.

1262
00:34:03,909 --> 00:34:06,576
Been honest, has not explained
to me certain situations.
Just...You know what?

1263
00:34:06,578 --> 00:34:09,146
To me certain situations.
Just...You know what?
A lot of it hurt me.

1264
00:34:09,148 --> 00:34:12,349
Just...You know what?
A lot of it hurt me.
And this is two years ago.

1265
00:34:12,351 --> 00:34:14,785
A lot of it hurt me.
And this is two years ago.
I've grown so much since then.

1266
00:34:14,787 --> 00:34:15,685
And this is two years ago.
I've grown so much since then.
I'm still hurt.

1267
00:34:15,687 --> 00:34:16,787
I've grown so much since then.
I'm still hurt.
I'm gonna be honest.

1268
00:34:16,789 --> 00:34:18,655
I'm still hurt.
I'm gonna be honest.
I'm still hurt.

1269
00:34:18,657 --> 00:34:21,925
I'm gonna be honest.
I'm still hurt.
But it was just -- this album,

1270
00:34:21,927 --> 00:34:24,528
I'm still hurt.
But it was just -- this album,
like, I worked so hard.

1271
00:34:24,530 --> 00:34:27,697
But it was just -- this album,
like, I worked so hard.
I went through so much to get

1272
00:34:27,699 --> 00:34:30,967
like, I worked so hard.
I went through so much to get
the artists that I admired and

1273
00:34:30,969 --> 00:34:32,169
I went through so much to get
the artists that I admired and
respect.

1274
00:34:32,171 --> 00:34:34,237
The artists that I admired and
respect.
And just the fact that off of

1275
00:34:34,239 --> 00:34:36,206
respect.
And just the fact that off of
good faith in me and my name

1276
00:34:36,208 --> 00:34:38,275
and just the fact that off of
good faith in me and my name
that they made sure to do the

1277
00:34:38,277 --> 00:34:40,210
good faith in me and my name
that they made sure to do the
songs for me, do the verses, and

1278
00:34:40,212 --> 00:34:41,545
that they made sure to do the
songs for me, do the verses, and
to get back in time.

1279
00:34:41,547 --> 00:34:43,180
Songs for me, do the verses, and
to get back in time.
And they cleared it, and

1280
00:34:43,182 --> 00:34:45,182
to get back in time.
And they cleared it, and
everybody, and it just -- it's

1281
00:34:45,184 --> 00:34:47,217
and they cleared it, and
everybody, and it just -- it's
somebody that still came behind

1282
00:34:47,219 --> 00:34:48,952
everybody, and it just -- it's
somebody that still came behind
me and screwed me over.

1283
00:34:48,954 --> 00:34:50,720
Somebody that still came behind
me and screwed me over.
That one hurt, you know?

1284
00:34:50,722 --> 00:34:51,555
Me and screwed me over.
That one hurt, you know?
It hurt.

1285
00:34:51,557 --> 00:34:53,623
That one hurt, you know?
It hurt.
It hurt to see my album taken

1286
00:34:53,625 --> 00:34:54,191
it hurt.
It hurt to see my album taken
off.

1287
00:34:54,193 --> 00:34:56,359
It hurt to see my album taken
off.
It hurt to go behind the doors

1288
00:34:56,361 --> 00:34:58,395
off.
It hurt to go behind the doors
privately to fight to get it

1289
00:34:58,397 --> 00:34:59,196
it hurt to go behind the doors
privately to fight to get it
back up.

1290
00:34:59,198 --> 00:35:00,497
Privately to fight to get it
back up.
We got it back up.

1291
00:35:00,499 --> 00:35:01,765
Back up.
We got it back up.
We got it back up.

1292
00:35:01,767 --> 00:35:03,700
We got it back up.
We got it back up.
You know, a lot of people say

1293
00:35:03,702 --> 00:35:05,535
we got it back up.
You know, a lot of people say
they're thankful to whoever.

1294
00:35:05,537 --> 00:35:07,637
You know, a lot of people say
they're thankful to whoever.
I say thankful to my mom because

1295
00:35:07,639 --> 00:35:08,305
they're thankful to whoever.
I say thankful to my mom because
I know.

1296
00:35:08,307 --> 00:35:09,539
I say thankful to my mom because
I know.
I could feel her.

1297
00:35:09,541 --> 00:35:11,274
I know.
I could feel her.
You know, I could feel her

1298
00:35:11,276 --> 00:35:13,543
I could feel her.
You know, I could feel her
everywhere I'm at.

1299
00:35:13,545 --> 00:35:15,512
You know, I could feel her
everywhere I'm at.
I just feel it.

1300
00:35:15,514 --> 00:35:16,980
Everywhere I'm at.
I just feel it.
And yeah, we fought to get it

1301
00:35:16,982 --> 00:35:17,414
I just feel it.
And yeah, we fought to get it
back.

1302
00:35:17,416 --> 00:35:18,515
And yeah, we fought to get it
back.
We went through hell.

1303
00:35:18,517 --> 00:35:20,117
Back.
We went through hell.
It was almost like somebody just

1304
00:35:20,119 --> 00:35:21,017
we went through hell.
It was almost like somebody just
left you to die.

1305
00:35:21,019 --> 00:35:22,252
It was almost like somebody just
left you to die.
So, when it comes to that, it's

1306
00:35:22,254 --> 00:35:23,153
left you to die.
So, when it comes to that, it's
like it's just not me.

1307
00:35:23,155 --> 00:35:23,987
So, when it comes to that, it's
like it's just not me.
It's my whole team.

1308
00:35:23,989 --> 00:35:25,222
Like it's just not me.
It's my whole team.
It's those that's riding in the

1309
00:35:25,224 --> 00:35:25,789
it's my whole team.
It's those that's riding in the
back for me.

1310
00:35:25,791 --> 00:35:28,558
It's those that's riding in the
back for me.
It's those that's making sure

1311
00:35:28,560 --> 00:35:30,760
back for me.
It's those that's making sure
everything goes right.

1312
00:35:30,762 --> 00:35:33,697
It's those that's making sure
everything goes right.
And this person I trusted, this

1313
00:35:33,699 --> 00:35:36,399
everything goes right.
And this person I trusted, this
man, this man that I trusted

1314
00:35:36,401 --> 00:35:37,134
and this person I trusted, this
man, this man that I trusted
you.

1315
00:35:37,136 --> 00:35:39,736
Man, this man that I trusted
you.
You were somebody that I...

1316
00:35:39,738 --> 00:35:41,271
You.
You were somebody that I...
You were somebody I allowed to

1317
00:35:41,273 --> 00:35:42,873
you were somebody that I...
You were somebody I allowed to
speak for me, to sign for me, to

1318
00:35:42,875 --> 00:35:44,307
you were somebody I allowed to
speak for me, to sign for me, to
deliver for me, and you failed

1319
00:35:44,309 --> 00:35:45,542
speak for me, to sign for me, to
deliver for me, and you failed
me.

1320
00:35:45,544 --> 00:35:47,410
Deliver for me, and you failed
me.
You deliberately betrayed me,

1321
00:35:47,412 --> 00:35:48,712
me.
You deliberately betrayed me,
and you failed me.

1322
00:35:48,714 --> 00:35:49,613
You deliberately betrayed me,
and you failed me.
And there's no forgiveness for

1323
00:35:49,615 --> 00:35:50,180
and you failed me.
And there's no forgiveness for
that.

1324
00:35:50,182 --> 00:35:51,014
And there's no forgiveness for
that.
There's no coming back from

1325
00:35:51,016 --> 00:35:51,248
that.
There's no coming back from
that.

1326
00:35:55,853 --> 00:35:57,220
>> I want to talk about

1327
00:35:57,355 --> 00:36:00,056
raymond taylor and how much

1328
00:36:00,191 --> 00:36:00,690
people love you two together.

1329
00:36:01,659 --> 00:36:06,096
>> trina: [ chuckles ]
raymond is a ball of light.
He's just refreshing.

1330
00:36:06,098 --> 00:36:06,897
Raymond is a ball of light.
He's just refreshing.
He gets me.

1331
00:36:06,899 --> 00:36:08,365
He's just refreshing.
He gets me.
I feel like he's the male

1332
00:36:08,367 --> 00:36:09,299
he gets me.
I feel like he's the male
version of me.

1333
00:36:09,301 --> 00:36:11,268
I feel like he's the male
version of me.
When it comes to him, he's just

1334
00:36:11,270 --> 00:36:12,936
version of me.
When it comes to him, he's just
there full circle for me,

1335
00:36:12,938 --> 00:36:14,037
when it comes to him, he's just
there full circle for me,
whatever it is.

1336
00:36:14,039 --> 00:36:15,872
There full circle for me,
whatever it is.
>> is raymond the one you can

1337
00:36:15,874 --> 00:36:17,040
whatever it is.
>> is raymond the one you can
finally rely on?

1338
00:36:17,042 --> 00:36:19,776
>> is raymond the one you can
finally rely on?
>> trina: I rely on him because

1339
00:36:19,778 --> 00:36:21,745
finally rely on?
>> trina: I rely on him because
he knows what I need.

1340
00:36:21,747 --> 00:36:24,514
>> trina: I rely on him because
he knows what I need.
But I'm still always relying on

1341
00:36:24,516 --> 00:36:25,715
he knows what I need.
But I'm still always relying on
me, always.

1342
00:36:25,717 --> 00:36:28,218
But I'm still always relying on
me, always.
>> so, let me try another way.

1343
00:36:28,220 --> 00:36:30,987
Me, always.
>> so, let me try another way.
Is raymond finally that man who

1344
00:36:30,989 --> 00:36:33,823
>> so, let me try another way.
Is raymond finally that man who
you don't worry is gonna let you

1345
00:36:33,825 --> 00:36:34,291
is raymond finally that man who
you don't worry is gonna let you
down?

1346
00:36:34,293 --> 00:36:36,092
You don't worry is gonna let you
down?
>> trina: When it comes to being

1347
00:36:36,094 --> 00:36:37,894
down?
>> trina: When it comes to being
let down, there's nobody in this

1348
00:36:37,896 --> 00:36:39,496
>> trina: When it comes to being
let down, there's nobody in this
world that might not let you

1349
00:36:39,498 --> 00:36:39,963
let down, there's nobody in this
world that might not let you
down.

1350
00:36:39,965 --> 00:36:42,065
World that might not let you
down.
Husband, best friend, boss --

1351
00:36:42,067 --> 00:36:44,067
down.
Husband, best friend, boss --
whatever you have going on,

1352
00:36:44,069 --> 00:36:46,036
husband, best friend, boss --
whatever you have going on,
there's a chance that something

1353
00:36:46,038 --> 00:36:47,938
whatever you have going on,
there's a chance that something
could probably disappoint you

1354
00:36:47,940 --> 00:36:49,139
there's a chance that something
could probably disappoint you
and let you down.

1355
00:36:49,141 --> 00:36:49,806
Could probably disappoint you
and let you down.
For me, my wall is up for that.

1356
00:36:56,581 --> 00:37:02,285
♪
>> trina: So, when I started my
career, kids were totally out of

1357
00:37:02,287 --> 00:37:04,654
>> trina: So, when I started my
career, kids were totally out of
the question.

1358
00:37:04,656 --> 00:37:06,723
Career, kids were totally out of
the question.
As signed to a label as a female

1359
00:37:06,725 --> 00:37:08,525
the question.
As signed to a label as a female
artist, you were taught and

1360
00:37:08,527 --> 00:37:10,427
as signed to a label as a female
artist, you were taught and
told, "you have a kid, that's

1361
00:37:10,429 --> 00:37:12,062
artist, you were taught and
told, "you have a kid, that's
the end of your career."

1362
00:37:12,064 --> 00:37:13,096
told, "you have a kid, that's
the end of your career."
and, I mean, I didn't get it

1363
00:37:13,098 --> 00:37:13,463
the end of your career."
and, I mean, I didn't get it
then.

1364
00:37:13,465 --> 00:37:14,564
And, I mean, I didn't get it
then.
Well, I did get it, because I

1365
00:37:14,566 --> 00:37:15,065
then.
Well, I did get it, because I
was young.

1366
00:37:15,067 --> 00:37:15,932
Well, I did get it, because I
was young.
So, I was like "a kid?

1367
00:37:15,934 --> 00:37:16,967
Was young.
So, I was like "a kid?
How you gonna go on a show?

1368
00:37:16,969 --> 00:37:17,901
So, I was like "a kid?
How you gonna go on a show?
How you gonna do a tour?

1369
00:37:17,903 --> 00:37:18,902
How you gonna go on a show?
How you gonna do a tour?
How you gonna get a role?

1370
00:37:18,904 --> 00:37:20,003
How you gonna do a tour?
How you gonna get a role?
What you gonna do with a kid?

1371
00:37:20,005 --> 00:37:20,870
How you gonna get a role?
What you gonna do with a kid?
Who's gonna watch it?"

1372
00:37:20,872 --> 00:37:22,439
what you gonna do with a kid?
Who's gonna watch it?"
my mom is there all the time,

1373
00:37:22,441 --> 00:37:23,974
who's gonna watch it?"
my mom is there all the time,
but thinking -- I don't know.

1374
00:37:23,976 --> 00:37:25,442
My mom is there all the time,
but thinking -- I don't know.
Just being young, thinking,

1375
00:37:25,444 --> 00:37:27,010
but thinking -- I don't know.
Just being young, thinking,
like, "is that raising a kid,

1376
00:37:27,012 --> 00:37:28,378
just being young, thinking,
like, "is that raising a kid,
just dropping off to your

1377
00:37:28,380 --> 00:37:29,946
like, "is that raising a kid,
just dropping off to your
grandma, drop if off grandma

1378
00:37:29,948 --> 00:37:31,648
just dropping off to your
grandma, drop if off grandma
house, drop it off to your mom?"

1379
00:37:31,650 --> 00:37:33,183
grandma, drop if off grandma
house, drop it off to your mom?"
yeah, she's there, but my mama

1380
00:37:33,185 --> 00:37:34,484
house, drop it off to your mom?"
yeah, she's there, but my mama
wasn't dropping me off to

1381
00:37:34,486 --> 00:37:38,521
yeah, she's there, but my mama
wasn't dropping me off to
nobody's house.

1382
00:37:38,523 --> 00:37:39,923
Wasn't dropping me off to
nobody's house.
I was supposed to have a kid.

1383
00:37:39,925 --> 00:37:41,758
Nobody's house.
I was supposed to have a kid.
I had four miscarriages, the

1384
00:37:41,760 --> 00:37:43,760
I was supposed to have a kid.
I had four miscarriages, the
most hurtful thing in the world

1385
00:37:43,762 --> 00:37:45,228
I had four miscarriages, the
most hurtful thing in the world
to happen as a woman.

1386
00:37:45,230 --> 00:37:47,163
Most hurtful thing in the world
to happen as a woman.
Sometimes -- I didn't know how

1387
00:37:47,165 --> 00:37:48,832
to happen as a woman.
Sometimes -- I didn't know how
to bounce back from that.

1388
00:37:48,834 --> 00:37:49,866
Sometimes -- I didn't know how
to bounce back from that.
Sometimes I screamed, "I never

1389
00:37:49,868 --> 00:37:50,934
to bounce back from that.
Sometimes I screamed, "I never
want to get pregnant, have a kid

1390
00:37:50,936 --> 00:37:51,401
sometimes I screamed, "I never
want to get pregnant, have a kid
in my life.

1391
00:37:51,403 --> 00:37:52,435
Want to get pregnant, have a kid
in my life.
I don't care what nobody say."

1392
00:37:52,437 --> 00:37:55,238
in my life.
I don't care what nobody say."
because what I experienced, it

1393
00:37:55,240 --> 00:37:55,805
I don't care what nobody say."
because what I experienced, it
was hurtful.

1394
00:37:55,807 --> 00:37:56,573
Because what I experienced, it
was hurtful.
And you're not me.

1395
00:37:56,575 --> 00:37:57,507
Was hurtful.
And you're not me.
You're not in my shoes.

1396
00:37:57,509 --> 00:38:01,111
And you're not me.
You're not in my shoes.
So, you can't walk in the pain

1397
00:38:01,113 --> 00:38:02,779
you're not in my shoes.
So, you can't walk in the pain
that I've walked in to feel

1398
00:38:02,781 --> 00:38:03,313
so, you can't walk in the pain
that I've walked in to feel
that.

1399
00:38:03,315 --> 00:38:05,548
That I've walked in to feel
that.
Like, having a miscarriage?

1400
00:38:05,550 --> 00:38:07,550
That.
Like, having a miscarriage?
Okay, for me, it was two

1401
00:38:07,552 --> 00:38:08,752
like, having a miscarriage?
Okay, for me, it was two
attachments.

1402
00:38:08,754 --> 00:38:09,719
Okay, for me, it was two
attachments.
"okay, you're pregnant.

1403
00:38:09,721 --> 00:38:10,920
Attachments.
"okay, you're pregnant.
This is beautiful" at the time

1404
00:38:10,922 --> 00:38:11,955
"okay, you're pregnant.
This is beautiful" at the time
because you're in a great

1405
00:38:11,957 --> 00:38:12,555
this is beautiful" at the time
because you're in a great
relationship.

1406
00:38:12,557 --> 00:38:15,292
Because you're in a great
relationship.
We both want this.

1407
00:38:15,294 --> 00:38:16,526
Relationship.
We both want this.
Do you tell people?

1408
00:38:16,528 --> 00:38:17,927
We both want this.
Do you tell people?
Do you get too excited?

1409
00:38:17,929 --> 00:38:19,462
Do you tell people?
Do you get too excited?
You don't make it public.

1410
00:38:19,464 --> 00:38:21,298
Do you get too excited?
You don't make it public.
I'm not a "public-announcement"

1411
00:38:21,300 --> 00:38:22,232
you don't make it public.
I'm not a "public-announcement"
kind of girl.

1412
00:38:22,234 --> 00:38:23,900
I'm not a "public-announcement"
kind of girl.
So, a couple friends knew, a

1413
00:38:23,902 --> 00:38:24,868
kind of girl.
So, a couple friends knew, a
couple family.

1414
00:38:24,870 --> 00:38:27,070
So, a couple friends knew, a
couple family.
Then, boom, something go wrong.

1415
00:38:27,072 --> 00:38:28,772
Couple family.
Then, boom, something go wrong.
You have a miscarriage.

1416
00:38:28,774 --> 00:38:30,040
Then, boom, something go wrong.
You have a miscarriage.
And everybody's in a huddle,

1417
00:38:30,042 --> 00:38:30,840
you have a miscarriage.
And everybody's in a huddle,
crying over you.

1418
00:38:30,842 --> 00:38:31,875
And everybody's in a huddle,
crying over you.
Now it's a pity party.

1419
00:38:31,877 --> 00:38:33,143
Crying over you.
Now it's a pity party.
I don't want the pity party.

1420
00:38:33,145 --> 00:38:34,277
Now it's a pity party.
I don't want the pity party.
That's making me sad and

1421
00:38:34,279 --> 00:38:34,844
I don't want the pity party.
That's making me sad and
depressed.

1422
00:38:34,846 --> 00:38:36,046
That's making me sad and
depressed.
I don't want to have that.

1423
00:38:36,048 --> 00:38:37,180
Depressed.
I don't want to have that.
Don't want to feel like a

1424
00:38:37,182 --> 00:38:37,681
I don't want to have that.
Don't want to feel like a
failure.

1425
00:38:37,683 --> 00:38:39,115
Don't want to feel like a
failure.
I don't want to feel, "is it me?

1426
00:38:39,117 --> 00:38:40,083
Failure.
I don't want to feel, "is it me?
Is it my fault? Why?

1427
00:38:40,085 --> 00:38:40,850
I don't want to feel, "is it me?
Is it my fault? Why?
Why, why, why?"

1428
00:38:40,852 --> 00:38:42,085
is it my fault? Why?
Why, why, why?"
four times.

1429
00:38:42,087 --> 00:38:43,820
Why, why, why?"
four times.
I don't even know.

1430
00:38:43,822 --> 00:38:46,489
Four times.
I don't even know.
Maybe I'm not supposed to be a

1431
00:38:46,491 --> 00:38:47,190
I don't even know.
Maybe I'm not supposed to be a
mom.

1432
00:38:47,192 --> 00:38:48,224
Maybe I'm not supposed to be a
mom.
Or am I?

1433
00:38:48,226 --> 00:38:51,161
Mom.
Or am I?
"oh, you'll be a beautiful mom."

1434
00:38:51,163 --> 00:38:55,932
or am I?
"oh, you'll be a beautiful mom."
and then...

1435
00:38:55,934 --> 00:38:59,469
"oh, you'll be a beautiful mom."
and then...
When my mom got sick, 2015, I

1436
00:38:59,471 --> 00:39:03,306
and then...
When my mom got sick, 2015, I
said, "do I really want a child?

1437
00:39:03,308 --> 00:39:04,574
When my mom got sick, 2015, I
said, "do I really want a child?
How could I have a child without

1438
00:39:04,576 --> 00:39:05,975
said, "do I really want a child?
How could I have a child without
my mom here?"

1439
00:39:05,977 --> 00:39:08,712
how could I have a child without
my mom here?"
I don't have the connection to

1440
00:39:08,714 --> 00:39:11,348
my mom here?"
I don't have the connection to
go through and see it without

1441
00:39:11,350 --> 00:39:12,048
I don't have the connection to
go through and see it without
her.

1442
00:39:12,050 --> 00:39:16,686
Go through and see it without
her.
I don't feel like I have

1443
00:39:16,688 --> 00:39:18,922
her.
I don't feel like I have
enough...

1444
00:39:18,924 --> 00:39:20,957
I don't feel like I have
enough...
I don't have enough stuff,

1445
00:39:20,959 --> 00:39:21,958
enough...
I don't have enough stuff,
greatness.

1446
00:39:21,960 --> 00:39:23,126
I don't have enough stuff,
greatness.
I don't know.

1447
00:39:23,128 --> 00:39:26,529
Greatness.
I don't know.
I don't have what she gave to me

1448
00:39:26,531 --> 00:39:27,197
I don't know.
I don't have what she gave to me
to give.

1449
00:39:27,199 --> 00:39:29,065
I don't have what she gave to me
to give.
I don't know -- I don't know if

1450
00:39:29,067 --> 00:39:29,966
to give.
I don't know -- I don't know if
I have that.

1451
00:39:29,968 --> 00:39:31,835
I don't know -- I don't know if
I have that.
Like, if she's here, that's the

1452
00:39:31,837 --> 00:39:33,603
I have that.
Like, if she's here, that's the
most dependable person for my

1453
00:39:33,605 --> 00:39:35,972
like, if she's here, that's the
most dependable person for my
child.

1454
00:39:35,974 --> 00:39:40,009
Most dependable person for my
child.
Without her being here...No, I'm

1455
00:39:40,011 --> 00:39:41,044
child.
Without her being here...No, I'm
not relying.

1456
00:39:41,046 --> 00:39:42,946
Without her being here...No, I'm
not relying.
I don't care if this is my

1457
00:39:42,948 --> 00:39:43,713
not relying.
I don't care if this is my
husband.

1458
00:39:43,715 --> 00:39:45,982
I don't care if this is my
husband.
Husbands go away. Stuff happens.

1459
00:39:45,984 --> 00:39:47,016
Husband.
Husbands go away. Stuff happens.
We could fall out.

1460
00:39:47,018 --> 00:39:48,351
Husbands go away. Stuff happens.
We could fall out.
It could be years later.

1461
00:39:48,353 --> 00:39:49,886
We could fall out.
It could be years later.
The kid's still gonna be here

1462
00:39:49,888 --> 00:39:51,588
it could be years later.
The kid's still gonna be here
forever to the day we leave this

1463
00:39:51,590 --> 00:39:52,088
the kid's still gonna be here
forever to the day we leave this
earth.

1464
00:39:52,090 --> 00:39:54,657
Forever to the day we leave this
earth.
I don't...I don't even know how

1465
00:39:54,659 --> 00:39:56,326
earth.
I don't...I don't even know how
to trust that deep.

1466
00:39:56,328 --> 00:39:58,895
I don't...I don't even know how
to trust that deep.
I don't know how to let go like

1467
00:39:58,897 --> 00:39:59,429
to trust that deep.
I don't know how to let go like
that.

1468
00:39:59,431 --> 00:40:01,231
I don't know how to let go like
that.
Nothing feels so safe and so

1469
00:40:01,233 --> 00:40:02,298
that.
Nothing feels so safe and so
surreal for me.

1470
00:40:02,300 --> 00:40:03,400
Nothing feels so safe and so
surreal for me.
That's just me.

1471
00:40:03,402 --> 00:40:05,235
Surreal for me.
That's just me.
May not be for everybody, but

1472
00:40:05,237 --> 00:40:07,270
that's just me.
May not be for everybody, but
for me.

1473
00:40:07,272 --> 00:40:09,272
May not be for everybody, but
for me.
♪

1474
00:40:09,274 --> 00:40:11,241
for me.
♪
I'm just constantly evolving.

1475
00:40:11,243 --> 00:40:13,109
♪
I'm just constantly evolving.
I just call it growing, though.

1476
00:40:13,111 --> 00:40:14,778
I'm just constantly evolving.
I just call it growing, though.
It's like growing up, you know?

1477
00:40:14,780 --> 00:40:15,712
I just call it growing, though.
It's like growing up, you know?
When it comes to anything --

1478
00:40:15,714 --> 00:40:16,312
it's like growing up, you know?
When it comes to anything --
music, everything.

1479
00:40:16,314 --> 00:40:17,113
When it comes to anything --
music, everything.
Like, you know, even with my

1480
00:40:17,115 --> 00:40:19,315
music, everything.
Like, you know, even with my
fans, like, yeah, we all want

1481
00:40:19,317 --> 00:40:20,884
like, you know, even with my
fans, like, yeah, we all want
the "nann" record, but "nann"

1482
00:40:20,886 --> 00:40:22,986
fans, like, yeah, we all want
the "nann" record, but "nann"
was 20 years ago.

1483
00:40:22,988 --> 00:40:25,588
The "nann" record, but "nann"
was 20 years ago.
I was young and wild and crazy.

1484
00:40:25,590 --> 00:40:26,990
Was 20 years ago.
I was young and wild and crazy.
[ laughs ]

1485
00:40:26,992 --> 00:40:28,024
I was young and wild and crazy.
[ laughs ]
crazy, crazy!

1486
00:40:28,026 --> 00:40:29,959
[ laughs ]
crazy, crazy!
I'm more chill and grown and

1487
00:40:29,961 --> 00:40:30,660
crazy, crazy!
I'm more chill and grown and
mature.

1488
00:40:30,662 --> 00:40:32,896
I'm more chill and grown and
mature.
I know what I want.

1489
00:40:32,898 --> 00:40:35,565
Mature.
I know what I want.
I'm grounded. I'm solid.

1490
00:40:35,567 --> 00:40:37,200
I know what I want.
I'm grounded. I'm solid.
Music led into one thing.

1491
00:40:37,202 --> 00:40:39,169
I'm grounded. I'm solid.
Music led into one thing.
Want me to do my own company, my

1492
00:40:39,171 --> 00:40:40,003
music led into one thing.
Want me to do my own company, my
own label.

1493
00:40:40,005 --> 00:40:41,938
Want me to do my own company, my
own label.
Wanting to just evolve in a way

1494
00:40:41,940 --> 00:40:43,773
own label.
Wanting to just evolve in a way
where you have new rules, new

1495
00:40:43,775 --> 00:40:45,074
wanting to just evolve in a way
where you have new rules, new
obligations, new goals.

1496
00:40:45,076 --> 00:40:46,643
Where you have new rules, new
obligations, new goals.
That's how I look at my life.

1497
00:40:46,645 --> 00:40:48,178
Obligations, new goals.
That's how I look at my life.
Every day I wake up with a new

1498
00:40:48,180 --> 00:40:49,646
that's how I look at my life.
Every day I wake up with a new
goal, to be better than I was

1499
00:40:49,648 --> 00:40:51,681
every day I wake up with a new
goal, to be better than I was
yesterday, to be better than I

1500
00:40:51,683 --> 00:40:52,682
goal, to be better than I was
yesterday, to be better than I
was hours ago.

1501
00:40:52,684 --> 00:40:54,617
Yesterday, to be better than I
was hours ago.
I may have been on a phone call,

1502
00:40:54,619 --> 00:40:55,985
was hours ago.
I may have been on a phone call,
and I hated the call.

1503
00:40:55,987 --> 00:40:57,520
I may have been on a phone call,
and I hated the call.
It wasn't what I wanted.

1504
00:40:57,522 --> 00:40:58,721
And I hated the call.
It wasn't what I wanted.
How do I make this call turn out

1505
00:40:58,723 --> 00:41:00,957
it wasn't what I wanted.
How do I make this call turn out
to be execution for me?

1506
00:41:00,959 --> 00:41:02,792
How do I make this call turn out
to be execution for me?
Hours later down the line, how

1507
00:41:02,794 --> 00:41:04,160
to be execution for me?
Hours later down the line, how
do I benefit from it?

1508
00:41:04,162 --> 00:41:05,895
Hours later down the line, how
do I benefit from it?
How can I turn this disaster

1509
00:41:05,897 --> 00:41:06,930
do I benefit from it?
How can I turn this disaster
into, like, triumph?

1510
00:41:06,932 --> 00:41:08,565
How can I turn this disaster
into, like, triumph?
How can I master from this?

1511
00:41:08,567 --> 00:41:10,166
Into, like, triumph?
How can I master from this?
That's how I always think.

1512
00:41:10,168 --> 00:41:11,534
How can I master from this?
That's how I always think.
No matter what it is thrown

1513
00:41:11,536 --> 00:41:13,069
that's how I always think.
No matter what it is thrown
against me, I'm always thinking

1514
00:41:13,071 --> 00:41:14,370
no matter what it is thrown
against me, I'm always thinking
of, "how can I execute the

1515
00:41:14,372 --> 00:41:14,604
against me, I'm always thinking
of, "how can I execute the
plan?"

1516
00:41:15,573 --> 00:41:17,307
I learned it from my mom,

1517
00:41:17,441 --> 00:41:18,074
though.

1518
00:41:18,209 --> 00:41:19,809
She always played by her rules,

1519
00:41:19,944 --> 00:41:20,944
and she always won.

1520
00:41:21,078 --> 00:41:22,712
So, for me, don't play by nobody

1521
00:41:22,847 --> 00:41:24,347
else's rules, because you set

1522
00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:25,482
yourself up for failure and

1523
00:41:25,616 --> 00:41:27,951
disappointment, because you

1524
00:41:28,085 --> 00:41:30,119
trusted somebody that can

1525
00:41:30,254 --> 00:41:32,155
possibly let you down.

1526
00:41:32,289 --> 00:41:34,691
If I trust me, and this don't

1527
00:41:34,825 --> 00:41:37,327
work out, it's all or nothing.

1528
00:41:37,461 --> 00:41:38,962
And I don't blame nobody but me.

1529
00:41:39,096 --> 00:41:40,363
I'm gonna take the "l," and I'm

1530
00:41:40,498 --> 00:41:41,698
gonna come back up for a win.

1531
00:41:41,832 --> 00:41:42,265
That's just the way it go.