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I was so outspoken when I felt
like I had no other choice.
You know what I mean?

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Like I had no other choice.
You know what I mean?
When I grew up, growing up

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you know what I mean?
When I grew up, growing up
in a haitian household,

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when I grew up, growing up
in a haitian household,
I was told to be nice, be nice,

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in a haitian household,
I was told to be nice, be nice,
be nice to a fault,

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I was told to be nice, be nice,
be nice to a fault,
where I knew how to be nice,

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be nice to a fault,
where I knew how to be nice,
but I didn't know

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where I knew how to be nice,
but I didn't know
how to stand up for myself.

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But I didn't know
how to stand up for myself.
So that was something

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how to stand up for myself.
So that was something
that I had to learn.

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So that was something
that I had to learn.
I had to grow and figure

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that I had to learn.
I had to grow and figure
out who I am.

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I had to grow and figure
out who I am.
And then, once I found out,

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out who I am.
And then, once I found out,
I haven't shut up...

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And then, once I found out,
I haven't shut up...
[chuckling] ...Since.

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I haven't shut up...
[chuckling] ...Since.
♪

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[chuckling] ...Since.
♪
best piece of advice that

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♪
best piece of advice that
another celebrity has given me

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best piece of advice that
another celebrity has given me
came from jamie foxx.

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Another celebrity has given me
came from jamie foxx.
I was going through heartache

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came from jamie foxx.
I was going through heartache
when we were shooting

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I was going through heartache
when we were shooting
"the jamie foxx show,"

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when we were shooting
"the jamie foxx show,"
and he said, "you can love,

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"the jamie foxx show,"
and he said, "you can love,
but always keep a little

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and he said, "you can love,
but always keep a little
for yourself.

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But always keep a little
for yourself.
And I'll never forget that.

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For yourself.
And I'll never forget that.
And that stays with me

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and I'll never forget that.
And that stays with me
to this day.

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♪

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I wouldn't call my parents
a divorce.
My father went out to get milk

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a divorce.
My father went out to get milk
and never came back.

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My father went out to get milk
and never came back.
There wasn't a 7-eleven nearby.

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And never came back.
There wasn't a 7-eleven nearby.
[ laughs ] so...

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There wasn't a 7-eleven nearby.
[ laughs ] so...
Listen, was it traumatic?

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[ laughs ] so...
Listen, was it traumatic?
Absolutely.

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Listen, was it traumatic?
Absolutely.
But at three years old,

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absolutely.
But at three years old,
my mom was everything to me.

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But at three years old,
my mom was everything to me.
I remember when she would sit up

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my mom was everything to me.
I remember when she would sit up
front with my dad in the car.

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I remember when she would sit up
front with my dad in the car.
That would make me upset because

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front with my dad in the car.
That would make me upset because
I wanted her to be with me.

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That would make me upset because
I wanted her to be with me.
I just never really bonded

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I wanted her to be with me.
I just never really bonded
with my dad.

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I just never really bonded
with my dad.
There was -- he wasn't warm,

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with my dad.
There was -- he wasn't warm,
and I never felt like he saw me,

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there was -- he wasn't warm,
and I never felt like he saw me,
honestly.

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And I never felt like he saw me,
honestly.
My mom got married three times.

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Honestly.
My mom got married three times.
So my first three siblings

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my mom got married three times.
So my first three siblings
are by one dad.

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So my first three siblings
are by one dad.
The second set

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are by one dad.
The second set
is by another dad.

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The second set
is by another dad.
And then there's me with my dad.

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Is by another dad.
And then there's me with my dad.
What I remember about haiti

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and then there's me with my dad.
What I remember about haiti
was I loved my country.

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What I remember about haiti
was I loved my country.
I still love my country.

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Was I loved my country.
I still love my country.
I love the beauty, the colors,

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I still love my country.
I love the beauty, the colors,
the music, the food.

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I love the beauty, the colors,
the music, the food.
Every time I smell a tangerine,

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the music, the food.
Every time I smell a tangerine,
it reminds me of haiti.

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Every time I smell a tangerine,
it reminds me of haiti.
♪

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it reminds me of haiti.
♪
oh, my god.

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♪
oh, my god.
So I'm seven years old.

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Oh, my god.
So I'm seven years old.
We leave haiti.

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So I'm seven years old.
We leave haiti.
We fly to boston

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we leave haiti.
We fly to boston
in the dead of winter.

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We fly to boston
in the dead of winter.
It's January.

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In the dead of winter.
It's January.
I don't speak a word of english.

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It's January.
I don't speak a word of english.
I had never

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I don't speak a word of english.
I had never
really seen white people.

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I had never
really seen white people.
And then there was white stuff

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really seen white people.
And then there was white stuff
all over the ground. [chuckles]

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and then there was white stuff
all over the ground. [chuckles]
I didn't know

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all over the ground. [chuckles]
I didn't know
what was happening.

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I didn't know
what was happening.
I thought my mom lost her mind.

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What was happening.
I thought my mom lost her mind.
I don't know.

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I thought my mom lost her mind.
I don't know.
But it was just, you know,

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I don't know.
But it was just, you know,
it was a culture shock.

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But it was just, you know,
it was a culture shock.
And I couldn't go to school

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it was a culture shock.
And I couldn't go to school
because

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and I couldn't go to school
because
I didn't know the language.

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Because
I didn't know the language.
So I learned english language

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I didn't know the language.
So I learned english language
watching sesame street.

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So I learned english language
watching sesame street.
Counting with the count.

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Watching sesame street.
Counting with the count.
Singing with big bird.

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Counting with the count.
Singing with big bird.
And then, when I did go

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singing with big bird.
And then, when I did go
to school finally, I was

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and then, when I did go
to school finally, I was
the only black kid.

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To school finally, I was
the only black kid.
And I remember kids

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the only black kid.
And I remember kids
touching my skin.

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And I remember kids
touching my skin.
I remember kids, you know,

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touching my skin.
I remember kids, you know,
touching my hair

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I remember kids, you know,
touching my hair
because they had never seen it.

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Touching my hair
because they had never seen it.
They didn't know the texture.

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Because they had never seen it.
They didn't know the texture.
They didn't --

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they didn't know the texture.
They didn't --
it was different.

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They didn't --
it was different.
It was different,

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it was different.
It was different,
to say the least.

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It was different,
to say the least.
Never had aspirations

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to say the least.
Never had aspirations
of being a model.

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Never had aspirations
of being a model.
I didn't even know

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of being a model.
I didn't even know
you could do that.

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I didn't even know
you could do that.
I remember,

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you could do that.
I remember,
when I was 16 going on 17,

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I remember,
when I was 16 going on 17,
my mom had had it with

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when I was 16 going on 17,
my mom had had it with
new England and the cold.

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My mom had had it with
new England and the cold.
So we were moving to miami.

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New England and the cold.
So we were moving to miami.
She wants to be closer to haiti

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so we were moving to miami.
She wants to be closer to haiti
and family.

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She wants to be closer to haiti
and family.
And, so, we moved to miami,

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and family.
And, so, we moved to miami,
and a friend of mine said,

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and, so, we moved to miami,
and a friend of mine said,
"do you want to be an extra

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and a friend of mine said,
"do you want to be an extra
in an orange juice commercial?"

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"do you want to be an extra
in an orange juice commercial?"
and I said, "what's an extra?"

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in an orange juice commercial?"
and I said, "what's an extra?"
and, so, he told me and he said,

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and I said, "what's an extra?"
and, so, he told me and he said,
"it's two days.

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And, so, he told me and he said,
"it's two days.
You get $75 a day."

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"it's two days.
You get $75 a day."
that was a lot of money back

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you get $75 a day."
that was a lot of money back
then to me.

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That was a lot of money back
then to me.
And, so, we did it.

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Then to me.
And, so, we did it.
So they had, like, maybe five

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and, so, we did it.
So they had, like, maybe five
or six principal actors

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so they had, like, maybe five
or six principal actors
and one of them was this really

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or six principal actors
and one of them was this really
pretty black girl.

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And one of them was this really
pretty black girl.
So, on the second day, I get up

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pretty black girl.
So, on the second day, I get up
the nerve to go up to this

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so, on the second day, I get up
the nerve to go up to this
pretty black girl and say,

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the nerve to go up to this
pretty black girl and say,
"I want to do what you're doing.

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Pretty black girl and say,
"I want to do what you're doing.
How do I do that?"

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"I want to do what you're doing.
How do I do that?"
honey, she was not having it.

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How do I do that?"
honey, she was not having it.
She was not having it.

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Honey, she was not having it.
She was not having it.
She didn't help me at all.

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She was not having it.
She didn't help me at all.
I found out

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she didn't help me at all.
I found out
what agency she was with,

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I found out
what agency she was with,
and it's irene marie

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what agency she was with,
and it's irene marie
in fort lauderdale.

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And it's irene marie
in fort lauderdale.
So I asked my mom

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in fort lauderdale.
So I asked my mom
to borrow her car.

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So I asked my mom
to borrow her car.
I drive up to fort lauderdale.

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To borrow her car.
I drive up to fort lauderdale.
I don't have --

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I drive up to fort lauderdale.
I don't have --
I don't have any pictures.

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I don't have --
I don't have any pictures.
I don't have a portfolio.

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I don't have any pictures.
I don't have a portfolio.
I don't have an appointment.

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I don't have a portfolio.
I don't have an appointment.
I'm at a red light and I decide

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I don't have an appointment.
I'm at a red light and I decide
to poke my head out

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I'm at a red light and I decide
to poke my head out
to check my makeup, right?

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To poke my head out
to check my makeup, right?
A hand comes in the car and

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to check my makeup, right?
A hand comes in the car and
scares the [bleep] out of me.

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A hand comes in the car and
scares the [bleep] out of me.
Right?

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Scares the [bleep] out of me.
Right?
The woman who was at the traffic

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right?
The woman who was at the traffic
light behind me got out of her

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the woman who was at the traffic
light behind me got out of her
car, came to my car, and said,

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light behind me got out of her
car, came to my car, and said,
"you should be a model."

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car, came to my car, and said,
"you should be a model."
and on the card,

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"you should be a model."
and on the card,
it was irene marie agency,

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and on the card,
it was irene marie agency,
where I was going without an

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it was irene marie agency,
where I was going without an
appointment, without anything.

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Where I was going without an
appointment, without anything.
Divine intervention?

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Appointment, without anything.
Divine intervention?
[ laughs ] right?

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Divine intervention?
[ laughs ] right?
Crazy.

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[ laughs ] right?
Crazy.
So now I show up, of course,

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crazy.
So now I show up, of course,
and I'm like, I should be here.

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So now I show up, of course,
and I'm like, I should be here.
So about eight months later,

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and I'm like, I should be here.
So about eight months later,
you know, they help me get test

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so about eight months later,
you know, they help me get test
shots, build my portfolio.

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You know, they help me get test
shots, build my portfolio.
Eileen ford

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shots, build my portfolio.
Eileen ford
of the ford modeling agency,

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eileen ford
of the ford modeling agency,
who goes all over the country

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of the ford modeling agency,
who goes all over the country
scouting for new talent,

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who goes all over the country
scouting for new talent,
comes, and she says to my mom,

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scouting for new talent,
comes, and she says to my mom,
"she should move to new york.

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Comes, and she says to my mom,
"she should move to new york.
All she needs is a toothbrush."

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"she should move to new york.
All she needs is a toothbrush."
and my mother goes, "okay."

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all she needs is a toothbrush."
and my mother goes, "okay."
now, this is a haitian mother

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and my mother goes, "okay."
now, this is a haitian mother
who they watch their

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now, this is a haitian mother
who they watch their
haitian daughters like a hawk.

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Who they watch their
haitian daughters like a hawk.
So for her to let me go

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haitian daughters like a hawk.
So for her to let me go
to new york at 17 by myself was

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so for her to let me go
to new york at 17 by myself was
just sheer I don't know what.

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To new york at 17 by myself was
just sheer I don't know what.
Bravery,

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just sheer I don't know what.
Bravery,
whatever you want to call it.

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Bravery,
whatever you want to call it.
Amazing.

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Whatever you want to call it.
Amazing.
And that's how my career

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amazing.
And that's how my career
started.

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And that's how my career
started.
Before I left miami,

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started.
Before I left miami,
my mom went to a party.

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Before I left miami,
my mom went to a party.
And you know

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my mom went to a party.
And you know
how you go to parties

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and you know
how you go to parties
and they give you party favors?

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How you go to parties
and they give you party favors?
Her party favor was my father.

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And they give you party favors?
Her party favor was my father.
So here he comes,

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her party favor was my father.
So here he comes,
and we're having dinner.

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So here he comes,
and we're having dinner.
And my mom was standing up,

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and we're having dinner.
And my mom was standing up,
and I remember he's sitting

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and my mom was standing up,
and I remember he's sitting
across from me at the table,

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and I remember he's sitting
across from me at the table,
and it was a small little table.

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Across from me at the table,
and it was a small little table.
And I don't know him.

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And it was a small little table.
And I don't know him.
So I asked my mom while she was

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and I don't know him.
So I asked my mom while she was
standing up, I said, "mom, can

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so I asked my mom while she was
standing up, I said, "mom, can
you pass me the fork?"

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standing up, I said, "mom, can
you pass me the fork?"
and he said, "you should

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you pass me the fork?"
and he said, "you should
get the fork yourself."

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and he said, "you should
get the fork yourself."
that was the wrong thing to say.

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Get the fork yourself."
that was the wrong thing to say.
From that day on, I never

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that was the wrong thing to say.
From that day on, I never
really spent time with him.

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From that day on, I never
really spent time with him.
I never really connected

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really spent time with him.
I never really connected
with him.

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I never really connected
with him.
I remember when I got my first

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with him.
I remember when I got my first
magazine cover, which was

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I remember when I got my first
magazine cover, which was
"essence."

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magazine cover, which was
"essence."
you know how the magazines

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"essence."
you know how the magazines
come out a month

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you know how the magazines
come out a month
before for the, you know,

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come out a month
before for the, you know,
for the month that's coming?

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Before for the, you know,
for the month that's coming?
He went out

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for the month that's coming?
He went out
and bought the "essence" cover,

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he went out
and bought the "essence" cover,
and it was the month before

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and bought the "essence" cover,
and it was the month before
mine, and he was showing it off

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and it was the month before
mine, and he was showing it off
at work.

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Mine, and he was showing it off
at work.
It wasn't me.

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At work.
It wasn't me.
So...

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It wasn't me.
So...
That was hard. That was hard.

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So...
That was hard. That was hard.
We never had a relationship.

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That was hard. That was hard.
We never had a relationship.
Before he passed away,

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we never had a relationship.
Before he passed away,
he wrote me a letter, and I

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before he passed away,
he wrote me a letter, and I
didn't want to read the letter.

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He wrote me a letter, and I
didn't want to read the letter.
My mom knew that I didn't want

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didn't want to read the letter.
My mom knew that I didn't want
anything to do with him.

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My mom knew that I didn't want
anything to do with him.
And she threw out the letter.

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Anything to do with him.
And she threw out the letter.
And if there's one regret that

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and she threw out the letter.
And if there's one regret that
I have --

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and if there's one regret that
I have --
I don't have a lot of regrets --

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I have --
I don't have a lot of regrets --
is that I never read the letter.

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I don't have a lot of regrets --
is that I never read the letter.
I don't know how he felt about

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is that I never read the letter.
I don't know how he felt about
me, and I'll never know.

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>> beauvais: When I first came
to america and moved to new york
to model, I would say I'm from

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to america and moved to new york
to model, I would say I'm from
haiti, and I would say with such

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to model, I would say I'm from
haiti, and I would say with such
pride, and people would go,

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haiti, and I would say with such
pride, and people would go,
"tahiti?"

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pride, and people would go,
"tahiti?"
and then, I'd go, "no, haiti."

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"tahiti?"
and then, I'd go, "no, haiti."
and then, they'd go,

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and then, I'd go, "no, haiti."
and then, they'd go,
"doesn't everybody in haiti

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and then, they'd go,
"doesn't everybody in haiti
have aids?"

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"doesn't everybody in haiti
have aids?"
I got so mad when people

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have aids?"
I got so mad when people
would say that because it felt

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I got so mad when people
would say that because it felt
like we all had aids.

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Would say that because it felt
like we all had aids.
There was no compassion.

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Like we all had aids.
There was no compassion.
There was -- there was nothing.

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There was no compassion.
There was -- there was nothing.
Or, "did you come on a boat?"

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there was -- there was nothing.
Or, "did you come on a boat?"
you know, people would say that,

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or, "did you come on a boat?"
you know, people would say that,
and it would drive me crazy, but

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you know, people would say that,
and it would drive me crazy, but
it never deterred me from saying

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and it would drive me crazy, but
it never deterred me from saying
that I am from haiti and being

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it never deterred me from saying
that I am from haiti and being
proud of where I come from.

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>> beauvais: So I moved to
new york city at 17.
Don't know a soul.

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New york city at 17.
Don't know a soul.
I'm living with eileen ford

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don't know a soul.
I'm living with eileen ford
because the models' apartment

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I'm living with eileen ford
because the models' apartment
is full, which is crazy.

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Because the models' apartment
is full, which is crazy.
Whose life is this, right?

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Is full, which is crazy.
Whose life is this, right?
I'm living with eileen ford on

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whose life is this, right?
I'm living with eileen ford on
madison avenue and 71st street.

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I'm living with eileen ford on
madison avenue and 71st street.
Like, crazy.

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Madison avenue and 71st street.
Like, crazy.
And they give you a list.

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Like, crazy.
And they give you a list.
It's called go-sees,

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and they give you a list.
It's called go-sees,
so you can go see photographers

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it's called go-sees,
so you can go see photographers
to build your book.

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So you can go see photographers
to build your book.
So I get a long appointment of

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to build your book.
So I get a long appointment of
go-sees.

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So I get a long appointment of
go-sees.
One of the girls

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go-sees.
One of the girls
that they connected me with,

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one of the girls
that they connected me with,
she said,

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that they connected me with,
she said,
"we're going to the same place.

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She said,
"we're going to the same place.
Let's take the subway."

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"we're going to the same place.
Let's take the subway."
and I go, "no, no, no,

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let's take the subway."
and I go, "no, no, no,
I'm not taking the subway."

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and I go, "no, no, no,
I'm not taking the subway."
all I had heard were people

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I'm not taking the subway."
all I had heard were people
were thrown in front of the

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all I had heard were people
were thrown in front of the
subways when you go on the

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were thrown in front of the
subways when you go on the
train.

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Subways when you go on the
train.
So I didn't want to get on the

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train.
So I didn't want to get on the
subway.

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So I didn't want to get on the
subway.
She's like, "we'll be together.

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Subway.
She's like, "we'll be together.
We'll be fine."

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she's like, "we'll be together.
We'll be fine."
okay, so we're on the platform

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we'll be fine."
okay, so we're on the platform
waiting for the train.

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Okay, so we're on the platform
waiting for the train.
And I am scared, I'm looking

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waiting for the train.
And I am scared, I'm looking
everywhere, I'm panicked,

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and I am scared, I'm looking
everywhere, I'm panicked,
I'm sweating, and this guy

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everywhere, I'm panicked,
I'm sweating, and this guy
taps me on the shoulder,

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I'm sweating, and this guy
taps me on the shoulder,
and I scream like I was shot.

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Taps me on the shoulder,
and I scream like I was shot.
Right?

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And I scream like I was shot.
Right?
He wanted to know where the

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right?
He wanted to know where the
e train was. [ laughs ]

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he wanted to know where the
e train was. [ laughs ]
and the girl I was with,

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e train was. [ laughs ]
and the girl I was with,
she was like, "yeah,

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and the girl I was with,
she was like, "yeah,
you shouldn't take the subway."

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she was like, "yeah,
you shouldn't take the subway."
so I would leave so early.

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You shouldn't take the subway."
so I would leave so early.
I couldn't afford cabs,

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so I would leave so early.
I couldn't afford cabs,
so I would take the bus.

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I couldn't afford cabs,
so I would take the bus.
I would leave, like, hours

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so I would take the bus.
I would leave, like, hours
early so I could make it on time

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I would leave, like, hours
early so I could make it on time
for my go-sees.

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Early so I could make it on time
for my go-sees.
First of all, a lot of models

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for my go-sees.
First of all, a lot of models
start in new york

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first of all, a lot of models
start in new york
and then they go to europe

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start in new york
and then they go to europe
to build their book.

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And then they go to europe
to build their book.
I started working, getting

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to build their book.
I started working, getting
catalog work, advertisement,

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I started working, getting
catalog work, advertisement,
which is what you want

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catalog work, advertisement,
which is what you want
because that's the money jobs,

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which is what you want
because that's the money jobs,
but it's not the glamorous,

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because that's the money jobs,
but it's not the glamorous,
you know, on "vogue" covers.

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But it's not the glamorous,
you know, on "vogue" covers.
But I remember my first fashion

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you know, on "vogue" covers.
But I remember my first fashion
show was for calvin klein,

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but I remember my first fashion
show was for calvin klein,
and he was doing something

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show was for calvin klein,
and he was doing something
sort of extraordinary.

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And he was doing something
sort of extraordinary.
We were in this building in

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sort of extraordinary.
We were in this building in
new york city where the models

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we were in this building in
new york city where the models
come down the escalator

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new york city where the models
come down the escalator
and then the runway begins.

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Come down the escalator
and then the runway begins.
So my first big show,

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and then the runway begins.
So my first big show,
I'm so excited, and then,

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so my first big show,
I'm so excited, and then,
they come and say to me,

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I'm so excited, and then,
they come and say to me,
"you are number 10, and number

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they come and say to me,
"you are number 10, and number
9 before you is iman.

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"you are number 10, and number
9 before you is iman.
"you mean iman, iman?!"

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9 before you is iman.
"you mean iman, iman?!"
like, gorgeous, long neck.

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"you mean iman, iman?!"
like, gorgeous, long neck.
Gorgeous woman.

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Like, gorgeous, long neck.
Gorgeous woman.
I mean, like -- I'm like, no

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gorgeous woman.
I mean, like -- I'm like, no
one's ever going to see me

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I mean, like -- I'm like, no
one's ever going to see me
behind her.

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One's ever going to see me
behind her.
No one is going to see me.

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Behind her.
No one is going to see me.
I -- knowing that iman

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no one is going to see me.
I -- knowing that iman
was going to be in the show

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I -- knowing that iman
was going to be in the show
and she walks in like a gazelle,

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was going to be in the show
and she walks in like a gazelle,
and everybody's like, "iman!

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And she walks in like a gazelle,
and everybody's like, "iman!
Iman! Iman!"

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and everybody's like, "iman!
Iman! Iman!"
and I'm just sitting there

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iman! Iman!"
and I'm just sitting there
just going, "oh, my god."

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and I'm just sitting there
just going, "oh, my god."
like, it was incredible.

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Just going, "oh, my god."
like, it was incredible.
It was incredible.

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Like, it was incredible.
It was incredible.
♪

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it was incredible.
♪
I remember going to studio 54.

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♪
I remember going to studio 54.
With the cool kids, right?

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I remember going to studio 54.
With the cool kids, right?
Trying to be cool myself.

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With the cool kids, right?
Trying to be cool myself.
And they usher me

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trying to be cool myself.
And they usher me
to a table and,

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and they usher me
to a table and,
you know, it's like rock stars

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to a table and,
you know, it's like rock stars
and beautiful models,

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you know, it's like rock stars
and beautiful models,
and they were doing coke.

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And beautiful models,
and they were doing coke.
Now, I've never done coke.

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And they were doing coke.
Now, I've never done coke.
I don't know what to do.

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Now, I've never done coke.
I don't know what to do.
Do I act like the cool kids?

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I don't know what to do.
Do I act like the cool kids?
Do I not act like the cool kids?

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Do I act like the cool kids?
Do I not act like the cool kids?
And they're like,

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do I not act like the cool kids?
And they're like,
"do you want some?"

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and they're like,
"do you want some?"
and I'm like, in a split second,

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"do you want some?"
and I'm like, in a split second,
I'm like, "yeah, sure."

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and I'm like, in a split second,
I'm like, "yeah, sure."
like with your high-pitched

361
00:11:04,531 --> 00:11:06,064
I'm like, "yeah, sure."
like with your high-pitched
voice, which obviously I'm

362
00:11:06,066 --> 00:11:07,198
like with your high-pitched
voice, which obviously I'm
not comfortable.

363
00:11:07,200 --> 00:11:09,167
Voice, which obviously I'm
not comfortable.
So I went to try it,

364
00:11:09,169 --> 00:11:10,602
not comfortable.
So I went to try it,
and I spilled the whole thing,

365
00:11:10,604 --> 00:11:12,437
so I went to try it,
and I spilled the whole thing,
and they said, "never mind."

366
00:11:12,439 --> 00:11:13,738
and I spilled the whole thing,
and they said, "never mind."
[ laughing ] and I said,

367
00:11:13,740 --> 00:11:15,674
and they said, "never mind."
[ laughing ] and I said,
"thank you, god,

368
00:11:15,676 --> 00:11:17,609
[ laughing ] and I said,
"thank you, god,
thank you, god."

369
00:11:17,611 --> 00:11:19,177
"thank you, god,
thank you, god."
and I never tried it.

370
00:11:19,179 --> 00:11:22,480
Thank you, god."
and I never tried it.
I never tried it.

371
00:11:22,482 --> 00:11:23,548
And I never tried it.
I never tried it.
While I was in new york,

372
00:11:23,550 --> 00:11:25,517
I never tried it.
While I was in new york,
I would get music video offers.

373
00:11:25,519 --> 00:11:26,818
While I was in new york,
I would get music video offers.
And I remember I got a music

374
00:11:26,820 --> 00:11:30,655
I would get music video offers.
And I remember I got a music
video offer from peter wolf, and

375
00:11:30,657 --> 00:11:32,090
and I remember I got a music
video offer from peter wolf, and
michael mann was directing it.

376
00:11:32,092 --> 00:11:33,591
Video offer from peter wolf, and
michael mann was directing it.
Now, I didn't know who

377
00:11:33,593 --> 00:11:35,493
michael mann was directing it.
Now, I didn't know who
michael mann was at the time.

378
00:11:35,495 --> 00:11:37,796
Now, I didn't know who
michael mann was at the time.
So we're doing this video

379
00:11:37,798 --> 00:11:39,164
michael mann was at the time.
So we're doing this video
where I play his love interest.

380
00:11:39,166 --> 00:11:40,398
So we're doing this video
where I play his love interest.
And they had asked me, they

381
00:11:40,400 --> 00:11:41,766
where I play his love interest.
And they had asked me, they
said, "hey, can you drive?"

382
00:11:41,768 --> 00:11:42,801
and they had asked me, they
said, "hey, can you drive?"
and I said, "yeah."

383
00:11:42,803 --> 00:11:44,202
said, "hey, can you drive?"
and I said, "yeah."
they said, "we're getting an

384
00:11:44,204 --> 00:11:45,537
and I said, "yeah."
they said, "we're getting an
amazing ferrari for you to

385
00:11:45,539 --> 00:11:46,037
they said, "we're getting an
amazing ferrari for you to
drive."

386
00:11:46,039 --> 00:11:46,905
amazing ferrari for you to
drive."
I said, "sure."

387
00:11:46,907 --> 00:11:47,706
drive."
I said, "sure."
so get on set.

388
00:11:47,708 --> 00:11:48,640
I said, "sure."
so get on set.
We're shooting, shooting,

389
00:11:48,642 --> 00:11:49,107
so get on set.
We're shooting, shooting,
shooting.

390
00:11:49,109 --> 00:11:50,108
We're shooting, shooting,
shooting.
Now it's time to do the car

391
00:11:50,110 --> 00:11:50,442
shooting.
Now it's time to do the car
scene.

392
00:11:50,444 --> 00:11:51,376
Now it's time to do the car
scene.
It's supposed to be wet,

393
00:11:51,378 --> 00:11:52,343
scene.
It's supposed to be wet,
it's supposed to be night.

394
00:11:52,345 --> 00:11:53,912
It's supposed to be wet,
it's supposed to be night.
And it's a stick shift.

395
00:11:53,914 --> 00:11:55,980
It's supposed to be night.
And it's a stick shift.
No one asked me if I knew how to

396
00:11:55,982 --> 00:11:59,050
and it's a stick shift.
No one asked me if I knew how to
drive a stick shift.

397
00:11:59,052 --> 00:12:00,285
No one asked me if I knew how to
drive a stick shift.
So you can imagine

398
00:12:00,287 --> 00:12:02,721
drive a stick shift.
So you can imagine
the producers are freaking out

399
00:12:02,723 --> 00:12:03,922
so you can imagine
the producers are freaking out
and, "what do we do?

400
00:12:03,924 --> 00:12:04,723
The producers are freaking out
and, "what do we do?
What do we do?"

401
00:12:04,725 --> 00:12:06,224
and, "what do we do?
What do we do?"
so they ended up towing the car

402
00:12:06,226 --> 00:12:08,526
what do we do?"
so they ended up towing the car
and me pretending that I'm

403
00:12:08,528 --> 00:12:09,494
so they ended up towing the car
and me pretending that I'm
driving.

404
00:12:09,496 --> 00:12:10,395
And me pretending that I'm
driving.
Right?

405
00:12:10,397 --> 00:12:11,663
Driving.
Right?
And, so,

406
00:12:11,665 --> 00:12:12,897
right?
And, so,
that was interesting to me.

407
00:12:12,899 --> 00:12:15,934
And, so,
that was interesting to me.
Then michael mann gave me a part

408
00:12:15,936 --> 00:12:17,902
that was interesting to me.
Then michael mann gave me a part
in "miami vice,"

409
00:12:17,904 --> 00:12:19,504
then michael mann gave me a part
in "miami vice,"
which wasn't a speaking part,

410
00:12:19,506 --> 00:12:20,872
in "miami vice,"
which wasn't a speaking part,
but it was, you know, it's --

411
00:12:20,874 --> 00:12:22,440
which wasn't a speaking part,
but it was, you know, it's --
now I know who michael mann is.

412
00:12:22,442 --> 00:12:24,075
But it was, you know, it's --
now I know who michael mann is.
And, you know, "miami vice" was

413
00:12:24,077 --> 00:12:26,111
now I know who michael mann is.
And, you know, "miami vice" was
the hottest thing at the time.

414
00:12:26,113 --> 00:12:27,312
And, you know, "miami vice" was
the hottest thing at the time.
And then I got, you know,

415
00:12:27,314 --> 00:12:28,546
the hottest thing at the time.
And then I got, you know,
other parts like

416
00:12:28,548 --> 00:12:29,948
and then I got, you know,
other parts like
"the cosby show"

417
00:12:29,950 --> 00:12:31,783
other parts like
"the cosby show"
and "coming to america."

418
00:12:31,785 --> 00:12:33,451
"the cosby show"
and "coming to america."
now, "coming to america,"

419
00:12:33,453 --> 00:12:34,719
and "coming to america."
now, "coming to america,"
every beautiful

420
00:12:34,721 --> 00:12:36,721
now, "coming to america,"
every beautiful
black actress, model,

421
00:12:36,723 --> 00:12:39,758
every beautiful
black actress, model,
everybody was vying for, you

422
00:12:39,760 --> 00:12:42,060
black actress, model,
everybody was vying for, you
know, to play lisa, the lead.

423
00:12:42,062 --> 00:12:43,728
Everybody was vying for, you
know, to play lisa, the lead.
And, so, I had no business

424
00:12:43,730 --> 00:12:45,630
know, to play lisa, the lead.
And, so, I had no business
whatsoever auditioning for the

425
00:12:45,632 --> 00:12:48,399
and, so, I had no business
whatsoever auditioning for the
lead whatsoever.

426
00:12:48,401 --> 00:12:49,534
Whatsoever auditioning for the
lead whatsoever.
So I auditioned and, of course,

427
00:12:49,536 --> 00:12:50,335
lead whatsoever.
So I auditioned and, of course,
I didn't get it.

428
00:12:50,337 --> 00:12:52,437
So I auditioned and, of course,
I didn't get it.
But john landis was cool enough

429
00:12:52,439 --> 00:12:53,872
I didn't get it.
But john landis was cool enough
and he called my agent and said,

430
00:12:53,874 --> 00:12:54,639
but john landis was cool enough
and he called my agent and said,
"listen,

431
00:12:54,641 --> 00:12:55,440
and he called my agent and said,
"listen,
if she wants to be an actress,

432
00:12:55,442 --> 00:12:56,508
"listen,
if she wants to be an actress,
this is a great way to" --

433
00:12:56,510 --> 00:12:57,776
if she wants to be an actress,
this is a great way to" --
you know, we're offering her one

434
00:12:57,778 --> 00:12:58,643
this is a great way to" --
you know, we're offering her one
of the rose bearers.

435
00:12:58,645 --> 00:12:59,778
You know, we're offering her one
of the rose bearers.
She'll be around it.

436
00:12:59,780 --> 00:13:00,512
Of the rose bearers.
She'll be around it.
She'll get to see it.

437
00:13:00,514 --> 00:13:01,946
She'll be around it.
She'll get to see it.
She'll get to know it.

438
00:13:01,948 --> 00:13:04,182
She'll get to see it.
She'll get to know it.
And and we said, "yeah."

439
00:13:04,184 --> 00:13:06,084
she'll get to know it.
And and we said, "yeah."
so, then, I showed up on set and

440
00:13:06,086 --> 00:13:08,019
and and we said, "yeah."
so, then, I showed up on set and
there's eddie murphy and arsenio

441
00:13:08,021 --> 00:13:09,687
so, then, I showed up on set and
there's eddie murphy and arsenio
and all these beautiful

442
00:13:09,689 --> 00:13:10,889
there's eddie murphy and arsenio
and all these beautiful
black faces.

443
00:13:10,891 --> 00:13:12,190
And all these beautiful
black faces.
To me, I thought,

444
00:13:12,192 --> 00:13:13,057
black faces.
To me, I thought,
"this is hollywood."

445
00:13:13,059 --> 00:13:14,759
to me, I thought,
"this is hollywood."
like, you know, it's always

446
00:13:14,761 --> 00:13:15,660
"this is hollywood."
like, you know, it's always
going to look like this.

447
00:13:15,662 --> 00:13:17,061
Like, you know, it's always
going to look like this.
It's always going to be amazing,

448
00:13:17,063 --> 00:13:20,165
going to look like this.
It's always going to be amazing,
beautiful black people.

449
00:13:20,167 --> 00:13:24,169
It's always going to be amazing,
beautiful black people.
Which wasn't the case.

450
00:13:24,171 --> 00:13:25,770
Beautiful black people.
Which wasn't the case.
Every woman on that set

451
00:13:25,772 --> 00:13:27,205
which wasn't the case.
Every woman on that set
was trying to date eddie murphy.

452
00:13:27,207 --> 00:13:29,574
Every woman on that set
was trying to date eddie murphy.
He was the hot commodity.

453
00:13:29,576 --> 00:13:31,476
Was trying to date eddie murphy.
He was the hot commodity.
And we dated.

454
00:13:31,478 --> 00:13:32,944
He was the hot commodity.
And we dated.
We dated,

455
00:13:32,946 --> 00:13:34,979
and we dated.
We dated,
I think, for a year off and on.

456
00:13:34,981 --> 00:13:37,816
We dated,
I think, for a year off and on.
And, you know, it was...

457
00:13:37,818 --> 00:13:40,084
I think, for a year off and on.
And, you know, it was...
How do I say this?

458
00:13:40,086 --> 00:13:41,386
And, you know, it was...
How do I say this?
We had a really great

459
00:13:41,388 --> 00:13:43,054
how do I say this?
We had a really great
connection, we really did.

460
00:13:43,056 --> 00:13:45,390
We had a really great
connection, we really did.
I loved, you know, obviously,

461
00:13:45,392 --> 00:13:47,792
connection, we really did.
I loved, you know, obviously,
him, his mom, his family.

462
00:13:47,794 --> 00:13:51,262
I loved, you know, obviously,
him, his mom, his family.
Like, you know, we were dating.

463
00:13:51,264 --> 00:13:52,530
Him, his mom, his family.
Like, you know, we were dating.
So...

464
00:13:52,532 --> 00:13:55,567
Like, you know, we were dating.
So...
I once double booked, though.

465
00:13:55,569 --> 00:13:57,669
So...
I once double booked, though.
I once had a date with eddie and

466
00:13:57,671 --> 00:13:59,704
I once double booked, though.
I once had a date with eddie and
then I forgot I had a date with

467
00:13:59,706 --> 00:14:00,772
I once had a date with eddie and
then I forgot I had a date with
somebody else.

468
00:14:00,774 --> 00:14:01,806
Then I forgot I had a date with
somebody else.
This was in the early beginning

469
00:14:01,808 --> 00:14:03,241
somebody else.
This was in the early beginning
when we first started dating.

470
00:14:03,243 --> 00:14:04,909
This was in the early beginning
when we first started dating.
And, so, they showed up

471
00:14:04,911 --> 00:14:05,743
when we first started dating.
And, so, they showed up
at the same time

472
00:14:05,745 --> 00:14:06,644
and, so, they showed up
at the same time
and I didn't know what to do.

473
00:14:06,646 --> 00:14:07,779
At the same time
and I didn't know what to do.
One was downstairs ringing

474
00:14:07,781 --> 00:14:09,948
and I didn't know what to do.
One was downstairs ringing
my bell and one was in my house.

475
00:14:09,950 --> 00:14:10,381
One was downstairs ringing
my bell and one was in my house.
So it was -- yeah.

476
00:14:15,120 --> 00:14:18,489
>> beauvais: When I was a kid, I
wanted to be a flight attendant
because I loved the uniforms and

477
00:14:18,491 --> 00:14:21,025
wanted to be a flight attendant
because I loved the uniforms and
I loved that they got to travel.

478
00:14:21,027 --> 00:14:23,628
Because I loved the uniforms and
I loved that they got to travel.
And then, journalism has always

479
00:14:23,630 --> 00:14:25,597
I loved that they got to travel.
And then, journalism has always
been what I wanted to do.

480
00:14:25,599 --> 00:14:27,599
And then, journalism has always
been what I wanted to do.
So, for me, acting was a way,

481
00:14:27,601 --> 00:14:29,667
been what I wanted to do.
So, for me, acting was a way,
like, okay, after modeling,

482
00:14:29,669 --> 00:14:30,935
so, for me, acting was a way,
like, okay, after modeling,
let's try this acting thing.

483
00:14:30,937 --> 00:14:32,737
Like, okay, after modeling,
let's try this acting thing.
That's really how it came about.

484
00:14:32,739 --> 00:14:33,605
Let's try this acting thing.
That's really how it came about.
I didn't set out to be

485
00:14:33,607 --> 00:14:36,474
that's really how it came about.
I didn't set out to be
an actress.

486
00:14:36,476 --> 00:14:37,909
I didn't set out to be
an actress.
I remember being on

487
00:14:37,911 --> 00:14:38,977
an actress.
I remember being on
"the fresh prince of bel-air."

488
00:14:38,979 --> 00:14:40,011
I remember being on
"the fresh prince of bel-air."
first of all, it was the hottest

489
00:14:40,013 --> 00:14:41,179
"the fresh prince of bel-air."
first of all, it was the hottest
show at the time.

490
00:14:41,181 --> 00:14:41,980
First of all, it was the hottest
show at the time.
Will smith

491
00:14:41,982 --> 00:14:43,014
show at the time.
Will smith
couldn't have been better.

492
00:14:43,016 --> 00:14:43,982
Will smith
couldn't have been better.
And what I learned

493
00:14:43,984 --> 00:14:44,782
couldn't have been better.
And what I learned
from will smith,

494
00:14:44,784 --> 00:14:46,417
and what I learned
from will smith,
I take with me to this day.

495
00:14:46,419 --> 00:14:48,786
From will smith,
I take with me to this day.
Will smith is the epitome of

496
00:14:48,788 --> 00:14:49,854
I take with me to this day.
Will smith is the epitome of
a movie star.

497
00:14:49,856 --> 00:14:51,155
Will smith is the epitome of
a movie star.
Even then, right?

498
00:14:51,157 --> 00:14:53,024
A movie star.
Even then, right?
He would walk on set.

499
00:14:53,026 --> 00:14:54,692
Even then, right?
He would walk on set.
He would know everybody's name.

500
00:14:54,694 --> 00:14:56,728
He would walk on set.
He would know everybody's name.
No one was beneath him.

501
00:14:56,730 --> 00:14:58,463
He would know everybody's name.
No one was beneath him.
No one -- he didn't treat

502
00:14:58,465 --> 00:14:59,864
no one was beneath him.
No one -- he didn't treat
anybody like "I'm will smith,

503
00:14:59,866 --> 00:15:01,065
no one -- he didn't treat
anybody like "I'm will smith,
and you're lower than me."

504
00:15:01,067 --> 00:15:02,901
anybody like "I'm will smith,
and you're lower than me."
and I watched that, and this

505
00:15:02,903 --> 00:15:04,535
and you're lower than me."
and I watched that, and this
is what I'm going to do.

506
00:15:04,537 --> 00:15:05,803
And I watched that, and this
is what I'm going to do.
And I've stuck to it

507
00:15:05,805 --> 00:15:06,838
is what I'm going to do.
And I've stuck to it
because I've been on other

508
00:15:06,840 --> 00:15:08,139
and I've stuck to it
because I've been on other
people's shows where

509
00:15:08,141 --> 00:15:10,275
because I've been on other
people's shows where
the star doesn't talk to you.

510
00:15:10,277 --> 00:15:11,709
People's shows where
the star doesn't talk to you.
They, you know,

511
00:15:11,711 --> 00:15:12,577
the star doesn't talk to you.
They, you know,
they mistreat you.

512
00:15:12,579 --> 00:15:15,113
They, you know,
they mistreat you.
They don't even see you, so

513
00:15:15,115 --> 00:15:16,180
they mistreat you.
They don't even see you, so
will smith taught me

514
00:15:16,182 --> 00:15:18,149
they don't even see you, so
will smith taught me
a great lesson.

515
00:15:18,151 --> 00:15:20,051
Will smith taught me
a great lesson.
>> will! Will!

516
00:15:20,053 --> 00:15:21,286
A great lesson.
>> will! Will!
>> beauvais: Yes, I dated

517
00:15:21,288 --> 00:15:21,920
>> will! Will!
>> beauvais: Yes, I dated
will smith.

518
00:15:21,922 --> 00:15:23,187
>> beauvais: Yes, I dated
will smith.
I was a young ingenue in

519
00:15:23,189 --> 00:15:24,522
will smith.
I was a young ingenue in
hollywood, and it was really

520
00:15:24,524 --> 00:15:25,723
I was a young ingenue in
hollywood, and it was really
brief.

521
00:15:25,725 --> 00:15:27,358
Hollywood, and it was really
brief.
I remember one time, will was

522
00:15:27,360 --> 00:15:29,827
brief.
I remember one time, will was
driving somewhere, and I guess I

523
00:15:29,829 --> 00:15:32,230
I remember one time, will was
driving somewhere, and I guess I
was calling him to figure out

524
00:15:32,232 --> 00:15:33,665
driving somewhere, and I guess I
was calling him to figure out
where we were going to meet up,

525
00:15:33,667 --> 00:15:34,666
was calling him to figure out
where we were going to meet up,
if we were going to have dinner

526
00:15:34,668 --> 00:15:35,333
where we were going to meet up,
if we were going to have dinner
or whatever.

527
00:15:35,335 --> 00:15:37,135
If we were going to have dinner
or whatever.
And, you know, he was on

528
00:15:37,137 --> 00:15:38,736
or whatever.
And, you know, he was on
speakerphone in the car.

529
00:15:38,738 --> 00:15:39,737
And, you know, he was on
speakerphone in the car.
He picked up the phone

530
00:15:39,739 --> 00:15:40,505
speakerphone in the car.
He picked up the phone
and he said, "hey."

531
00:15:40,507 --> 00:15:43,074
he picked up the phone
and he said, "hey."
and I said, "hey, are you good?"

532
00:15:43,076 --> 00:15:44,142
and he said, "hey."
and I said, "hey, are you good?"
and he said, "yeah."

533
00:15:44,144 --> 00:15:46,477
and I said, "hey, are you good?"
and he said, "yeah."
and trey, who was, I guess,

534
00:15:46,479 --> 00:15:47,645
and he said, "yeah."
and trey, who was, I guess,
in the car seat in the back,

535
00:15:47,647 --> 00:15:49,480
and trey, who was, I guess,
in the car seat in the back,
said, "is that jada?"

536
00:15:49,482 --> 00:15:51,549
in the car seat in the back,
said, "is that jada?"
and I was like...

537
00:15:51,551 --> 00:15:52,917
Said, "is that jada?"
and I was like...
And then, that's when I realized

538
00:15:52,919 --> 00:15:53,985
and I was like...
And then, that's when I realized
that I wasn't that important

539
00:15:53,987 --> 00:15:55,887
and then, that's when I realized
that I wasn't that important
in his life.

540
00:15:55,889 --> 00:15:59,090
That I wasn't that important
in his life.
♪

541
00:15:59,092 --> 00:16:01,092
in his life.
♪
all right, so, "models, inc."

542
00:16:01,094 --> 00:16:03,094
♪
all right, so, "models, inc."
I am now living in la,

543
00:16:03,096 --> 00:16:04,062
all right, so, "models, inc."
I am now living in la,
going back and forth

544
00:16:04,064 --> 00:16:05,263
I am now living in la,
going back and forth
to new york modeling

545
00:16:05,265 --> 00:16:07,665
going back and forth
to new york modeling
because that's my day job.

546
00:16:07,667 --> 00:16:09,300
To new york modeling
because that's my day job.
And I remember having an agent,

547
00:16:09,302 --> 00:16:10,468
because that's my day job.
And I remember having an agent,
and he said, "hey, there's a

548
00:16:10,470 --> 00:16:12,704
and I remember having an agent,
and he said, "hey, there's a
show coming up about models

549
00:16:12,706 --> 00:16:14,005
and he said, "hey, there's a
show coming up about models
and you'd be great for it."

550
00:16:14,007 --> 00:16:15,440
show coming up about models
and you'd be great for it."
and I thought, "awesome."

551
00:16:15,442 --> 00:16:17,041
and you'd be great for it."
and I thought, "awesome."
so I go about my life.

552
00:16:17,043 --> 00:16:18,810
And I thought, "awesome."
so I go about my life.
A couple of weeks later, I go,

553
00:16:18,812 --> 00:16:19,711
so I go about my life.
A couple of weeks later, I go,
"hey, whatever happened

554
00:16:19,713 --> 00:16:20,445
a couple of weeks later, I go,
"hey, whatever happened
to that audition?"

555
00:16:20,447 --> 00:16:21,713
"hey, whatever happened
to that audition?"
and he goes, "they're not

556
00:16:21,715 --> 00:16:23,481
to that audition?"
and he goes, "they're not
seeing any black models."

557
00:16:23,483 --> 00:16:25,183
and he goes, "they're not
seeing any black models."
and I went, "wow.

558
00:16:25,185 --> 00:16:28,119
Seeing any black models."
and I went, "wow.
Okay. Disappointed."

559
00:16:28,121 --> 00:16:29,387
and I went, "wow.
Okay. Disappointed."
that night, I go to bed

560
00:16:29,389 --> 00:16:30,655
okay. Disappointed."
that night, I go to bed
and I have a dream.

561
00:16:30,657 --> 00:16:33,358
That night, I go to bed
and I have a dream.
In my dream, I am sitting

562
00:16:33,360 --> 00:16:36,127
and I have a dream.
In my dream, I am sitting
and talking to aaron spelling.

563
00:16:36,129 --> 00:16:36,995
In my dream, I am sitting
and talking to aaron spelling.
You know, I'm from haiti.

564
00:16:36,997 --> 00:16:38,162
And talking to aaron spelling.
You know, I'm from haiti.
We're superstitious.

565
00:16:38,164 --> 00:16:40,898
You know, I'm from haiti.
We're superstitious.
That dream meant something,

566
00:16:40,900 --> 00:16:41,933
we're superstitious.
That dream meant something,
and I'm going to follow through.

567
00:16:41,935 --> 00:16:45,970
That dream meant something,
and I'm going to follow through.
So I decide to find out

568
00:16:45,972 --> 00:16:48,106
and I'm going to follow through.
So I decide to find out
where the spelling office is.

569
00:16:48,108 --> 00:16:49,540
So I decide to find out
where the spelling office is.
I put a package together,

570
00:16:49,542 --> 00:16:51,309
where the spelling office is.
I put a package together,
I put some pictures, I put,

571
00:16:51,311 --> 00:16:53,678
I put a package together,
I put some pictures, I put,
you know, a couple of tapes --

572
00:16:53,680 --> 00:16:54,946
I put some pictures, I put,
you know, a couple of tapes --
[ laughs ] right.

573
00:16:54,948 --> 00:16:56,180
You know, a couple of tapes --
[ laughs ] right.
8-track tapes --

574
00:16:56,182 --> 00:16:57,482
[ laughs ] right.
8-track tapes --
together in a package, and I go

575
00:16:57,484 --> 00:16:59,450
8-track tapes --
together in a package, and I go
to 5757 wilshire.

576
00:16:59,452 --> 00:17:00,418
Together in a package, and I go
to 5757 wilshire.
So I walk in,

577
00:17:00,420 --> 00:17:01,519
to 5757 wilshire.
So I walk in,
I go to the seventh floor,

578
00:17:01,521 --> 00:17:03,021
so I walk in,
I go to the seventh floor,
and it's a black receptionist.

579
00:17:03,023 --> 00:17:04,589
I go to the seventh floor,
and it's a black receptionist.
I'm like, "sweet!"

580
00:17:04,591 --> 00:17:05,556
and it's a black receptionist.
I'm like, "sweet!"
right?

581
00:17:05,558 --> 00:17:06,891
I'm like, "sweet!"
right?
So I walk up to her and I said,

582
00:17:06,893 --> 00:17:07,859
right?
So I walk up to her and I said,
"hi, I'd like to see

583
00:17:07,861 --> 00:17:08,493
so I walk up to her and I said,
"hi, I'd like to see
mr. Spelling."

584
00:17:08,495 --> 00:17:09,660
"hi, I'd like to see
mr. Spelling."
and she goes, "do you have an

585
00:17:09,662 --> 00:17:10,261
mr. Spelling."
and she goes, "do you have an
appointment?"

586
00:17:10,263 --> 00:17:10,862
and she goes, "do you have an
appointment?"
and I go, "no."

587
00:17:10,864 --> 00:17:12,397
appointment?"
and I go, "no."
and she goes, "honey,

588
00:17:12,399 --> 00:17:14,198
and I go, "no."
and she goes, "honey,
it doesn't work like that.

589
00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:15,199
And she goes, "honey,
it doesn't work like that.
Right?

590
00:17:15,201 --> 00:17:16,167
It doesn't work like that.
Right?
And, so, I talked to her

591
00:17:16,169 --> 00:17:17,035
right?
And, so, I talked to her
for a little bit and I said,

592
00:17:17,037 --> 00:17:19,270
and, so, I talked to her
for a little bit and I said,
"listen, he's casting this show.

593
00:17:19,272 --> 00:17:21,205
For a little bit and I said,
"listen, he's casting this show.
I think I'd be great for it.

594
00:17:21,207 --> 00:17:23,207
"listen, he's casting this show.
I think I'd be great for it.
Can you give him this package?"

595
00:17:23,209 --> 00:17:25,710
I think I'd be great for it.
Can you give him this package?"
four days later, I get a call

596
00:17:25,712 --> 00:17:27,345
can you give him this package?"
four days later, I get a call
from the casting director.

597
00:17:27,347 --> 00:17:29,480
Four days later, I get a call
from the casting director.
I go in and read for her,

598
00:17:29,482 --> 00:17:31,315
from the casting director.
I go in and read for her,
and then I have a callback.

599
00:17:31,317 --> 00:17:32,250
I go in and read for her,
and then I have a callback.
I read in front of

600
00:17:32,252 --> 00:17:33,751
and then I have a callback.
I read in front of
aaron spelling, and I booked the

601
00:17:33,753 --> 00:17:34,986
I read in front of
aaron spelling, and I booked the
part of cynthia nichols on

602
00:17:34,988 --> 00:17:36,287
aaron spelling, and I booked the
part of cynthia nichols on
"models, inc."

603
00:17:36,289 --> 00:17:38,222
part of cynthia nichols on
"models, inc."
where I got those balls, I have

604
00:17:38,224 --> 00:17:39,390
"models, inc."
where I got those balls, I have
no idea.

605
00:17:39,392 --> 00:17:40,992
Where I got those balls, I have
no idea.
I have no idea. No idea.

606
00:17:40,994 --> 00:17:44,962
No idea.
I have no idea. No idea.
I had no fear.

607
00:17:44,964 --> 00:17:46,697
I have no idea. No idea.
I had no fear.
"down low," r. Kelly.

608
00:17:46,699 --> 00:17:48,332
I had no fear.
"down low," r. Kelly.
That was a big deal.

609
00:17:48,334 --> 00:17:50,268
"down low," r. Kelly.
That was a big deal.
At the time, music videos

610
00:17:50,270 --> 00:17:52,203
that was a big deal.
At the time, music videos
weren't shot like movies.

611
00:17:52,205 --> 00:17:53,438
At the time, music videos
weren't shot like movies.
This is one of the first ones

612
00:17:53,440 --> 00:17:54,839
weren't shot like movies.
This is one of the first ones
that was shot like a movie.

613
00:17:54,841 --> 00:17:57,975
This is one of the first ones
that was shot like a movie.
We shot over four days.

614
00:17:57,977 --> 00:17:58,876
That was shot like a movie.
We shot over four days.
But it was really cool

615
00:17:58,878 --> 00:18:00,845
we shot over four days.
But it was really cool
for my career, you know?

616
00:18:00,847 --> 00:18:02,814
But it was really cool
for my career, you know?
It was sexy, it was, you know,

617
00:18:02,816 --> 00:18:03,881
for my career, you know?
It was sexy, it was, you know,
what people --

618
00:18:03,883 --> 00:18:05,817
it was sexy, it was, you know,
what people --
you know, when people used to

619
00:18:05,819 --> 00:18:07,151
what people --
you know, when people used to
call in for videos,

620
00:18:07,153 --> 00:18:08,352
you know, when people used to
call in for videos,
used to call in.

621
00:18:08,354 --> 00:18:10,354
Call in for videos,
used to call in.
I remember when I auditioned

622
00:18:10,356 --> 00:18:11,222
used to call in.
I remember when I auditioned
for "the jamie foxx show,"

623
00:18:11,224 --> 00:18:12,190
I remember when I auditioned
for "the jamie foxx show,"
I was sitting in the lobby

624
00:18:12,192 --> 00:18:13,791
for "the jamie foxx show,"
I was sitting in the lobby
with all the other actresses,

625
00:18:13,793 --> 00:18:15,526
I was sitting in the lobby
with all the other actresses,
and jamie was coming down the

626
00:18:15,528 --> 00:18:17,862
with all the other actresses,
and jamie was coming down the
hallway, and he walked and he

627
00:18:17,864 --> 00:18:19,297
and jamie was coming down the
hallway, and he walked and he
sort of doubled back

628
00:18:19,299 --> 00:18:20,264
hallway, and he walked and he
sort of doubled back
and came to me, and he goes,

629
00:18:20,266 --> 00:18:21,532
sort of doubled back
and came to me, and he goes,
"you don't know how many times

630
00:18:21,534 --> 00:18:22,967
and came to me, and he goes,
"you don't know how many times
I requested that 'down low'

631
00:18:22,969 --> 00:18:24,936
"you don't know how many times
I requested that 'down low'
video." [ laughs ]

632
00:18:24,938 --> 00:18:26,037
I requested that 'down low'
video." [ laughs ]
I'm sure that helped me

633
00:18:26,039 --> 00:18:30,341
video." [ laughs ]
I'm sure that helped me
get the part, I'm sure of it.

634
00:18:30,343 --> 00:18:32,043
I'm sure that helped me
get the part, I'm sure of it.
First of all, I knew jamie

635
00:18:32,045 --> 00:18:33,077
get the part, I'm sure of it.
First of all, I knew jamie
from "in living color."

636
00:18:33,079 --> 00:18:35,279
first of all, I knew jamie
from "in living color."
I didn't know him.

637
00:18:35,281 --> 00:18:36,981
From "in living color."
I didn't know him.
You know, he wasn't a movie star

638
00:18:36,983 --> 00:18:38,549
I didn't know him.
You know, he wasn't a movie star
or anything like that.

639
00:18:38,551 --> 00:18:40,651
You know, he wasn't a movie star
or anything like that.
And I remember getting

640
00:18:40,653 --> 00:18:42,353
or anything like that.
And I remember getting
the audition.

641
00:18:42,355 --> 00:18:44,555
And I remember getting
the audition.
So, fly out, do it.

642
00:18:44,557 --> 00:18:45,723
The audition.
So, fly out, do it.
They call me back for another

643
00:18:45,725 --> 00:18:48,025
so, fly out, do it.
They call me back for another
audition, and I was like,

644
00:18:48,027 --> 00:18:48,860
they call me back for another
audition, and I was like,
"I'm leaving town,

645
00:18:48,862 --> 00:18:50,528
audition, and I was like,
"I'm leaving town,
I have a job, I have a booking."

646
00:18:50,530 --> 00:18:52,063
"I'm leaving town,
I have a job, I have a booking."
and I remember my agent going,

647
00:18:52,065 --> 00:18:54,031
I have a job, I have a booking."
and I remember my agent going,
"this is a big deal, you know.

648
00:18:54,033 --> 00:18:56,701
And I remember my agent going,
"this is a big deal, you know.
Are you serious about this?"

649
00:18:56,703 --> 00:18:59,737
"this is a big deal, you know.
Are you serious about this?"
so I said, "yeah, I am serious.

650
00:18:59,739 --> 00:19:00,605
Are you serious about this?"
so I said, "yeah, I am serious.
I'm going to show up."

651
00:19:00,607 --> 00:19:02,673
so I said, "yeah, I am serious.
I'm going to show up."
so I show up, and that's when,

652
00:19:02,675 --> 00:19:03,641
I'm going to show up."
so I show up, and that's when,
you know, I meet jamie.

653
00:19:03,643 --> 00:19:05,009
So I show up, and that's when,
you know, I meet jamie.
And I wasn't competing to be

654
00:19:05,011 --> 00:19:06,444
you know, I meet jamie.
And I wasn't competing to be
funnier than him.

655
00:19:06,446 --> 00:19:07,845
And I wasn't competing to be
funnier than him.
She had to be the straight man

656
00:19:07,847 --> 00:19:09,280
funnier than him.
She had to be the straight man
to his funny, and I

657
00:19:09,282 --> 00:19:10,314
she had to be the straight man
to his funny, and I
really think that's what it was.

658
00:19:10,316 --> 00:19:11,816
To his funny, and I
really think that's what it was.
And then, our chemistry

659
00:19:11,818 --> 00:19:14,252
really think that's what it was.
And then, our chemistry
was through the roof.

660
00:19:14,254 --> 00:19:15,286
And then, our chemistry
was through the roof.
You couldn't buy it,

661
00:19:15,288 --> 00:19:16,654
was through the roof.
You couldn't buy it,
you couldn't fake it.

662
00:19:16,656 --> 00:19:18,222
You couldn't buy it,
you couldn't fake it.
We just had great chemistry

663
00:19:18,224 --> 00:19:21,792
you couldn't fake it.
We just had great chemistry
right out the gate.

664
00:19:21,794 --> 00:19:24,662
We just had great chemistry
right out the gate.
Playing francesca "fancy" monroe

665
00:19:24,664 --> 00:19:25,830
right out the gate.
Playing francesca "fancy" monroe
was iconic.

666
00:19:25,832 --> 00:19:26,631
Playing francesca "fancy" monroe
was iconic.
I didn't know was

667
00:19:26,633 --> 00:19:27,632
was iconic.
I didn't know was
going to be iconic to my career,

668
00:19:27,634 --> 00:19:28,799
I didn't know was
going to be iconic to my career,
but it became iconic

669
00:19:28,801 --> 00:19:30,835
going to be iconic to my career,
but it became iconic
because the show was such a hit.

670
00:19:30,837 --> 00:19:32,503
But it became iconic
because the show was such a hit.
I mean, we thought,

671
00:19:32,505 --> 00:19:34,338
because the show was such a hit.
I mean, we thought,
if we got 13 episodes,

672
00:19:34,340 --> 00:19:35,339
I mean, we thought,
if we got 13 episodes,
we were golden.

673
00:19:35,341 --> 00:19:37,141
If we got 13 episodes,
we were golden.
We ended up doing 100 episodes.

674
00:19:37,143 --> 00:19:38,576
We were golden.
We ended up doing 100 episodes.
And at the time, wb had

675
00:19:38,578 --> 00:19:39,810
we ended up doing 100 episodes.
And at the time, wb had
just started.

676
00:19:39,812 --> 00:19:41,946
And at the time, wb had
just started.
And fancy became, you know,

677
00:19:41,948 --> 00:19:43,014
just started.
And fancy became, you know,
the short little skirts.

678
00:19:43,016 --> 00:19:45,683
And fancy became, you know,
the short little skirts.
My legs were twigs.

679
00:19:45,685 --> 00:19:47,251
The short little skirts.
My legs were twigs.
And it was just a fun show,

680
00:19:47,253 --> 00:19:47,919
my legs were twigs.
And it was just a fun show,
a family show

681
00:19:47,921 --> 00:19:48,753
and it was just a fun show,
a family show
that people could watch.

682
00:19:48,755 --> 00:19:50,321
A family show
that people could watch.
And I think that's why it

683
00:19:50,323 --> 00:19:52,623
that people could watch.
And I think that's why it
resonated with so many people.

684
00:19:52,625 --> 00:19:55,259
And I think that's why it
resonated with so many people.
♪

685
00:19:55,261 --> 00:19:58,196
resonated with so many people.
♪
jamie and I had a pact that

686
00:19:58,198 --> 00:19:59,497
♪
jamie and I had a pact that
we weren't going to fool around,

687
00:19:59,499 --> 00:20:00,831
jamie and I had a pact that
we weren't going to fool around,
although we did steal a kiss

688
00:20:00,833 --> 00:20:03,234
we weren't going to fool around,
although we did steal a kiss
one time backstage.

689
00:20:03,236 --> 00:20:04,702
Although we did steal a kiss
one time backstage.
And I believe it was

690
00:20:04,704 --> 00:20:06,204
one time backstage.
And I believe it was
gladys knight who came around

691
00:20:06,206 --> 00:20:07,638
and I believe it was
gladys knight who came around
the corner and she saw us.

692
00:20:07,640 --> 00:20:08,272
Gladys knight who came around
the corner and she saw us.
And I remember

693
00:20:08,274 --> 00:20:09,974
the corner and she saw us.
And I remember
being so embarrassed.

694
00:20:09,976 --> 00:20:10,942
And I remember
being so embarrassed.
And she must have thought,

695
00:20:10,944 --> 00:20:11,776
being so embarrassed.
And she must have thought,
"oh, for sure.

696
00:20:11,778 --> 00:20:12,777
And she must have thought,
"oh, for sure.
Something's going on with him."

697
00:20:12,779 --> 00:20:14,212
"oh, for sure.
Something's going on with him."
but that was a one-time thing.

698
00:20:14,214 --> 00:20:15,580
Something's going on with him."
but that was a one-time thing.
So we had made a pact we were

699
00:20:15,582 --> 00:20:17,848
but that was a one-time thing.
So we had made a pact we were
not going to mess anything up.

700
00:20:17,850 --> 00:20:18,749
So we had made a pact we were
not going to mess anything up.
We had a good thing, we're not

701
00:20:18,751 --> 00:20:20,518
not going to mess anything up.
We had a good thing, we're not
going to mess it up by dating.

702
00:20:20,520 --> 00:20:24,088
We had a good thing, we're not
going to mess it up by dating.
So, two weeks before we wrap,

703
00:20:24,090 --> 00:20:25,890
going to mess it up by dating.
So, two weeks before we wrap,
I get engaged, and I remember

704
00:20:25,892 --> 00:20:27,825
so, two weeks before we wrap,
I get engaged, and I remember
foxx coming into my room going,

705
00:20:27,827 --> 00:20:30,461
I get engaged, and I remember
foxx coming into my room going,
"you couldn't wait?"

706
00:20:30,463 --> 00:20:31,729
foxx coming into my room going,
"you couldn't wait?"
and I was like, "I love him."

707
00:20:31,731 --> 00:20:32,863
"you couldn't wait?"
and I was like, "I love him."
and he saw me go through

708
00:20:32,865 --> 00:20:34,065
and I was like, "I love him."
and he saw me go through
the journey of

709
00:20:34,067 --> 00:20:35,333
and he saw me go through
the journey of
falling in love with mike,

710
00:20:35,335 --> 00:20:36,267
the journey of
falling in love with mike,
and then, we broke up

711
00:20:36,269 --> 00:20:37,635
falling in love with mike,
and then, we broke up
because we came at a crossroad

712
00:20:37,637 --> 00:20:39,270
and then, we broke up
because we came at a crossroad
and mike wasn't sure.

713
00:20:39,272 --> 00:20:40,605
Because we came at a crossroad
and mike wasn't sure.
And then we got engaged.

714
00:20:40,607 --> 00:20:42,373
And mike wasn't sure.
And then we got engaged.
And, so, jamie was a little

715
00:20:42,375 --> 00:20:44,342
and then we got engaged.
And, so, jamie was a little
bitter about it.

716
00:20:44,344 --> 00:20:47,011
And, so, jamie was a little
bitter about it.
But I remember the hundredth

717
00:20:47,013 --> 00:20:48,312
bitter about it.
But I remember the hundredth
episode was a big deal.

718
00:20:48,314 --> 00:20:49,580
But I remember the hundredth
episode was a big deal.
You know, warner bros.

719
00:20:49,582 --> 00:20:51,415
Episode was a big deal.
You know, warner bros.
Brought out a huge cake

720
00:20:51,417 --> 00:20:53,451
you know, warner bros.
Brought out a huge cake
during rehearsals.

721
00:20:53,453 --> 00:20:54,385
Brought out a huge cake
during rehearsals.
It was beautiful.

722
00:20:54,387 --> 00:20:55,519
During rehearsals.
It was beautiful.
It was emotional.

723
00:20:55,521 --> 00:20:56,654
It was beautiful.
It was emotional.
It was, you know,

724
00:20:56,656 --> 00:20:58,122
it was emotional.
It was, you know,
jamie singing to me.

725
00:20:58,124 --> 00:20:59,590
It was, you know,
jamie singing to me.
I mean, it brought

726
00:20:59,592 --> 00:21:01,092
jamie singing to me.
I mean, it brought
all the feels,

727
00:21:01,094 --> 00:21:03,728
I mean, it brought
all the feels,
not a dry eye in the house.

728
00:21:03,730 --> 00:21:05,229
All the feels,
not a dry eye in the house.
It was the most beautiful thing.

729
00:21:05,231 --> 00:21:06,297
Not a dry eye in the house.
It was the most beautiful thing.
It almost felt like we were

730
00:21:06,299 --> 00:21:08,899
it was the most beautiful thing.
It almost felt like we were
getting married for real.

731
00:21:08,901 --> 00:21:09,634
It almost felt like we were
getting married for real.
But I had

732
00:21:09,636 --> 00:21:10,701
getting married for real.
But I had
my real engagement ring on.

733
00:21:10,703 --> 00:21:11,936
But I had
my real engagement ring on.
I remember him seeing it at one

734
00:21:11,938 --> 00:21:12,870
my real engagement ring on.
I remember him seeing it at one
point and he kind of, like,

735
00:21:12,872 --> 00:21:15,006
I remember him seeing it at one
point and he kind of, like,
just looked away.

736
00:21:15,008 --> 00:21:16,574
Point and he kind of, like,
just looked away.
[ chuckles ]

737
00:21:16,576 --> 00:21:18,643
just looked away.
[ chuckles ]
♪

738
00:21:18,645 --> 00:21:20,211
[ chuckles ]
♪
we built this really great

739
00:21:20,213 --> 00:21:20,911
♪
we built this really great
friendship,

740
00:21:20,913 --> 00:21:22,947
we built this really great
friendship,
and I think the friendship

741
00:21:22,949 --> 00:21:23,914
friendship,
and I think the friendship
was important to us.

742
00:21:23,916 --> 00:21:25,549
And I think the friendship
was important to us.
I mean, if you ask him, he might

743
00:21:25,551 --> 00:21:27,218
was important to us.
I mean, if you ask him, he might
say something different.

744
00:21:27,220 --> 00:21:28,986
I mean, if you ask him, he might
say something different.
But I feel like...

745
00:21:28,988 --> 00:21:32,456
Say something different.
But I feel like...
No, sometimes do I regret not

746
00:21:32,458 --> 00:21:33,557
but I feel like...
No, sometimes do I regret not
giving it a try?

747
00:21:33,559 --> 00:21:36,594
No, sometimes do I regret not
giving it a try?
Yeah, but I love, I love, love,

748
00:21:36,596 --> 00:21:38,362
giving it a try?
Yeah, but I love, I love, love,
love, love our friendship.

749
00:21:38,364 --> 00:21:39,730
Yeah, but I love, I love, love,
love, love our friendship.
I've seen him grow as a man.

750
00:21:39,732 --> 00:21:40,564
Love, love our friendship.
I've seen him grow as a man.
I've seen him become

751
00:21:40,566 --> 00:21:42,633
I've seen him grow as a man.
I've seen him become
an amazing father.

752
00:21:42,635 --> 00:21:44,235
I've seen him become
an amazing father.
My kids hang out with his kids.

753
00:21:44,237 --> 00:21:45,336
An amazing father.
My kids hang out with his kids.
I mean, it's beautiful.

754
00:21:45,338 --> 00:21:46,804
My kids hang out with his kids.
I mean, it's beautiful.
I think, if we had messed

755
00:21:46,806 --> 00:21:48,005
I mean, it's beautiful.
I think, if we had messed
around, we probably

756
00:21:48,007 --> 00:21:49,740
I think, if we had messed
around, we probably
wouldn't be friends now.

757
00:21:49,742 --> 00:21:52,943
Around, we probably
wouldn't be friends now.
♪

758
00:21:52,945 --> 00:21:55,613
wouldn't be friends now.
♪
I remember getting the audition

759
00:21:55,615 --> 00:21:57,081
♪
I remember getting the audition
on the last day of shooting

760
00:21:57,083 --> 00:21:58,316
I remember getting the audition
on the last day of shooting
"the jamie foxx show,"

761
00:21:58,318 --> 00:22:00,051
on the last day of shooting
"the jamie foxx show,"
our hundredth episode,

762
00:22:00,053 --> 00:22:01,218
"the jamie foxx show,"
our hundredth episode,
and the audition came in,

763
00:22:01,220 --> 00:22:02,219
our hundredth episode,
and the audition came in,
and I had planned

764
00:22:02,221 --> 00:22:03,554
and the audition came in,
and I had planned
to go celebrate in jamaica.

765
00:22:03,556 --> 00:22:06,090
And I had planned
to go celebrate in jamaica.
We had a trip planned,

766
00:22:06,092 --> 00:22:07,224
to go celebrate in jamaica.
We had a trip planned,
and, so, my agent goes,

767
00:22:07,226 --> 00:22:08,392
we had a trip planned,
and, so, my agent goes,
"you should go on this.

768
00:22:08,394 --> 00:22:09,226
And, so, my agent goes,
"you should go on this.
It's a great show."

769
00:22:09,228 --> 00:22:10,861
"you should go on this.
It's a great show."
and I knew the show.

770
00:22:10,863 --> 00:22:11,562
It's a great show."
and I knew the show.
And I was like,

771
00:22:11,564 --> 00:22:12,963
and I knew the show.
And I was like,
"yeah, but we have a trip."

772
00:22:12,965 --> 00:22:14,999
and I was like,
"yeah, but we have a trip."
you know, silly little girl.

773
00:22:15,001 --> 00:22:16,701
"yeah, but we have a trip."
you know, silly little girl.
And he goes, "you should go on

774
00:22:16,703 --> 00:22:17,702
you know, silly little girl.
And he goes, "you should go on
it," and I said, "okay."

775
00:22:17,704 --> 00:22:19,570
and he goes, "you should go on
it," and I said, "okay."
so we changed our trip.

776
00:22:19,572 --> 00:22:21,872
It," and I said, "okay."
so we changed our trip.
And I went on the audition

777
00:22:21,874 --> 00:22:22,907
so we changed our trip.
And I went on the audition
and I remember walking in.

778
00:22:22,909 --> 00:22:23,974
And I went on the audition
and I remember walking in.
I didn't know steven bochco

779
00:22:23,976 --> 00:22:24,709
and I remember walking in.
I didn't know steven bochco
was going to be there.

780
00:22:24,711 --> 00:22:25,609
I didn't know steven bochco
was going to be there.
And I knew of him.

781
00:22:25,611 --> 00:22:26,477
Was going to be there.
And I knew of him.
And I knew the show

782
00:22:26,479 --> 00:22:29,714
and I knew of him.
And I knew the show
was a critically acclaimed show,

783
00:22:29,716 --> 00:22:31,916
and I knew the show
was a critically acclaimed show,
had won emmys and everything.

784
00:22:31,918 --> 00:22:33,317
Was a critically acclaimed show,
had won emmys and everything.
So I walk in and he's there.

785
00:22:33,319 --> 00:22:34,485
Had won emmys and everything.
So I walk in and he's there.
So that ups the game.

786
00:22:34,487 --> 00:22:35,686
So I walk in and he's there.
So that ups the game.
And he was so cool.

787
00:22:35,688 --> 00:22:37,221
So that ups the game.
And he was so cool.
He was like, "thank you for

788
00:22:37,223 --> 00:22:38,656
and he was so cool.
He was like, "thank you for
coming in."

789
00:22:38,658 --> 00:22:40,091
he was like, "thank you for
coming in."
I'm like...

790
00:22:40,093 --> 00:22:42,560
Coming in."
I'm like...
Right? You're steven bochco.

791
00:22:42,562 --> 00:22:44,028
I'm like...
Right? You're steven bochco.
So I sit down,

792
00:22:44,030 --> 00:22:44,962
right? You're steven bochco.
So I sit down,
and he tells me a little bit

793
00:22:44,964 --> 00:22:46,063
so I sit down,
and he tells me a little bit
about the character,

794
00:22:46,065 --> 00:22:49,700
and he tells me a little bit
about the character,
and it was a four-episode arc,

795
00:22:49,702 --> 00:22:50,901
about the character,
and it was a four-episode arc,
and I ended up doing four

796
00:22:50,903 --> 00:22:51,435
and it was a four-episode arc,
and I ended up doing four
seasons on "nypd blue."

797
00:22:55,974 --> 00:23:00,277
>> beauvais: The talk show world
has always been my love.
That's where I feel the most

798
00:23:00,279 --> 00:23:01,112
has always been my love.
That's where I feel the most
comfortable.

799
00:23:01,114 --> 00:23:02,113
That's where I feel the most
comfortable.
That's where I feel like this

800
00:23:02,115 --> 00:23:03,347
comfortable.
That's where I feel like this
is what I meant to do.

801
00:23:03,349 --> 00:23:05,549
That's where I feel like this
is what I meant to do.
So I thought, how do I do that?

802
00:23:05,551 --> 00:23:06,717
Is what I meant to do.
So I thought, how do I do that?
I kept on, you know,

803
00:23:06,719 --> 00:23:08,819
so I thought, how do I do that?
I kept on, you know,
co-hosting here and there,

804
00:23:08,821 --> 00:23:10,187
I kept on, you know,
co-hosting here and there,
but I really needed something

805
00:23:10,189 --> 00:23:11,555
co-hosting here and there,
but I really needed something
that would solidify

806
00:23:11,557 --> 00:23:12,857
but I really needed something
that would solidify
that I can actually do it,

807
00:23:12,859 --> 00:23:15,192
that would solidify
that I can actually do it,
that it's not a one-time deal.

808
00:23:15,194 --> 00:23:16,761
That I can actually do it,
that it's not a one-time deal.
So "hollywood today live" comes.

809
00:23:16,763 --> 00:23:17,895
That it's not a one-time deal.
So "hollywood today live" comes.
I have a meeting with

810
00:23:17,897 --> 00:23:18,696
so "hollywood today live" comes.
I have a meeting with
stephen brown,

811
00:23:18,698 --> 00:23:20,564
I have a meeting with
stephen brown,
who's an executive at fox,

812
00:23:20,566 --> 00:23:21,866
stephen brown,
who's an executive at fox,
to talk about the talk world.

813
00:23:21,868 --> 00:23:22,933
Who's an executive at fox,
to talk about the talk world.
I want to get into the talk

814
00:23:22,935 --> 00:23:23,768
to talk about the talk world.
I want to get into the talk
world, how do I do it?

815
00:23:23,770 --> 00:23:25,035
I want to get into the talk
world, how do I do it?
And he said,

816
00:23:25,037 --> 00:23:25,803
world, how do I do it?
And he said,
"well, there's a show

817
00:23:25,805 --> 00:23:27,071
and he said,
"well, there's a show
called 'hollywood today live.'

818
00:23:27,073 --> 00:23:29,373
"well, there's a show
called 'hollywood today live.'
we have really some young hosts.

819
00:23:29,375 --> 00:23:30,875
Called 'hollywood today live.'
we have really some young hosts.
I would love for you to come,

820
00:23:30,877 --> 00:23:32,176
we have really some young hosts.
I would love for you to come,
you know, come and play with us,

821
00:23:32,178 --> 00:23:32,943
I would love for you to come,
you know, come and play with us,
you know, for a week

822
00:23:32,945 --> 00:23:34,211
you know, come and play with us,
you know, for a week
or a few days if you want to."

823
00:23:34,213 --> 00:23:34,845
you know, for a week
or a few days if you want to."
and I said,

824
00:23:34,847 --> 00:23:36,013
or a few days if you want to."
and I said,
"yeah, I would love to.'

825
00:23:36,015 --> 00:23:37,715
and I said,
"yeah, I would love to.'
now, mind you, there was

826
00:23:37,717 --> 00:23:40,885
"yeah, I would love to.'
now, mind you, there was
a black girl that had the job.

827
00:23:40,887 --> 00:23:42,820
Now, mind you, there was
a black girl that had the job.
I assumed she was on vacation

828
00:23:42,822 --> 00:23:44,121
a black girl that had the job.
I assumed she was on vacation
and I'm coming in to fill in

829
00:23:44,123 --> 00:23:45,322
I assumed she was on vacation
and I'm coming in to fill in
and play.

830
00:23:45,324 --> 00:23:46,390
And I'm coming in to fill in
and play.
And I didn't realize

831
00:23:46,392 --> 00:23:48,058
and play.
And I didn't realize
that I was replacing her.

832
00:23:48,060 --> 00:23:49,059
And I didn't realize
that I was replacing her.
Like, I had no idea.

833
00:23:49,061 --> 00:23:50,127
That I was replacing her.
Like, I had no idea.
No one told me that,

834
00:23:50,129 --> 00:23:51,962
like, I had no idea.
No one told me that,
"oh, if you like this job,

835
00:23:51,964 --> 00:23:53,097
no one told me that,
"oh, if you like this job,
you're replacing someone."

836
00:23:53,099 --> 00:23:54,598
"oh, if you like this job,
you're replacing someone."
so, you know,

837
00:23:54,600 --> 00:23:56,367
you're replacing someone."
so, you know,
that's always hard.

838
00:23:56,369 --> 00:23:58,269
So, you know,
that's always hard.
But "hollywood today live"

839
00:23:58,271 --> 00:24:00,871
that's always hard.
But "hollywood today live"
was amazing for me.

840
00:24:00,873 --> 00:24:02,540
But "hollywood today live"
was amazing for me.
It didn't pay very well.

841
00:24:02,542 --> 00:24:03,541
Was amazing for me.
It didn't pay very well.
But that wasn't the point.

842
00:24:03,543 --> 00:24:05,509
It didn't pay very well.
But that wasn't the point.
The point was letting people

843
00:24:05,511 --> 00:24:07,244
but that wasn't the point.
The point was letting people
see me in that position.

844
00:24:07,246 --> 00:24:11,282
The point was letting people
see me in that position.
But I loved it. I loved it.

845
00:24:11,284 --> 00:24:13,150
See me in that position.
But I loved it. I loved it.
I was in my element.

846
00:24:13,152 --> 00:24:14,351
But I loved it. I loved it.
I was in my element.
I was talking to guests,

847
00:24:14,353 --> 00:24:15,553
I was in my element.
I was talking to guests,
I was researching,

848
00:24:15,555 --> 00:24:17,521
I was talking to guests,
I was researching,
and it was -- it felt

849
00:24:17,523 --> 00:24:18,756
I was researching,
and it was -- it felt
like where I wanted to be.

850
00:24:18,758 --> 00:24:20,124
And it was -- it felt
like where I wanted to be.
Now I'm going

851
00:24:20,126 --> 00:24:21,091
like where I wanted to be.
Now I'm going
to go back a little bit.

852
00:24:21,093 --> 00:24:22,460
Now I'm going
to go back a little bit.
So I was in haiti doing

853
00:24:22,462 --> 00:24:24,962
to go back a little bit.
So I was in haiti doing
some charity work with my kids,

854
00:24:24,964 --> 00:24:25,696
so I was in haiti doing
some charity work with my kids,
and I got a call

855
00:24:25,698 --> 00:24:28,265
some charity work with my kids,
and I got a call
that they wanted me to come

856
00:24:28,267 --> 00:24:29,533
and I got a call
that they wanted me to come
and co-host for "the view"

857
00:24:29,535 --> 00:24:31,268
that they wanted me to come
and co-host for "the view"
for a week.

858
00:24:31,270 --> 00:24:34,238
And co-host for "the view"
for a week.
Huge, right? Huge, huge, huge.

859
00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:34,705
For a week.
Huge, right? Huge, huge, huge.
Great.

860
00:24:34,707 --> 00:24:36,106
Huge, right? Huge, huge, huge.
Great.
I'm in the wardrobe room at

861
00:24:36,108 --> 00:24:37,608
great.
I'm in the wardrobe room at
"the view" and nicolle wallace

862
00:24:37,610 --> 00:24:38,709
I'm in the wardrobe room at
"the view" and nicolle wallace
and I are in there.

863
00:24:38,711 --> 00:24:40,177
"the view" and nicolle wallace
and I are in there.
So I thought I'd strike up

864
00:24:40,179 --> 00:24:41,011
and I are in there.
So I thought I'd strike up
a conversation.

865
00:24:41,013 --> 00:24:41,579
So I thought I'd strike up
a conversation.
You know,

866
00:24:41,581 --> 00:24:43,581
a conversation.
You know,
I knew she had kids, and I said,

867
00:24:43,583 --> 00:24:45,182
you know,
I knew she had kids, and I said,
"oh, so you have kids?"

868
00:24:45,184 --> 00:24:48,018
I knew she had kids, and I said,
"oh, so you have kids?"
and she goes, "uh-huh."

869
00:24:48,020 --> 00:24:49,353
"oh, so you have kids?"
and she goes, "uh-huh."
and that's it.

870
00:24:49,355 --> 00:24:51,989
And she goes, "uh-huh."
and that's it.
She says nothing back like,

871
00:24:51,991 --> 00:24:53,591
and that's it.
She says nothing back like,
"do you have kids?"

872
00:24:53,593 --> 00:24:54,658
she says nothing back like,
"do you have kids?"
nothing. So I'm like,

873
00:24:54,660 --> 00:24:55,993
"do you have kids?"
nothing. So I'm like,
okay, shut up, garcelle.

874
00:24:55,995 --> 00:24:57,261
Nothing. So I'm like,
okay, shut up, garcelle.
Mind your business.

875
00:24:57,263 --> 00:24:59,497
Okay, shut up, garcelle.
Mind your business.
Go back to my room.

876
00:24:59,499 --> 00:25:01,732
Mind your business.
Go back to my room.
A couple of days in,

877
00:25:01,734 --> 00:25:02,833
go back to my room.
A couple of days in,
I am on set.

878
00:25:02,835 --> 00:25:04,969
A couple of days in,
I am on set.
We're doing our thing, you know,

879
00:25:04,971 --> 00:25:06,437
I am on set.
We're doing our thing, you know,
I feel like I got a good rhythm.

880
00:25:06,439 --> 00:25:07,872
We're doing our thing, you know,
I feel like I got a good rhythm.
I'm not really sure.

881
00:25:07,874 --> 00:25:09,373
I feel like I got a good rhythm.
I'm not really sure.
I'm talking, I'm making my

882
00:25:09,375 --> 00:25:11,141
I'm not really sure.
I'm talking, I'm making my
point, I'm setting it up.

883
00:25:11,143 --> 00:25:12,676
I'm talking, I'm making my
point, I'm setting it up.
I'm talking about it.

884
00:25:12,678 --> 00:25:13,944
Point, I'm setting it up.
I'm talking about it.
I get kicked under the table

885
00:25:13,946 --> 00:25:16,113
I'm talking about it.
I get kicked under the table
by rosie perez.

886
00:25:16,115 --> 00:25:17,281
I get kicked under the table
by rosie perez.
It wasn't a kick where, like,

887
00:25:17,283 --> 00:25:20,084
by rosie perez.
It wasn't a kick where, like,
oh, she's crossing her legs.

888
00:25:20,086 --> 00:25:21,151
It wasn't a kick where, like,
oh, she's crossing her legs.
It was a kick where it was

889
00:25:21,153 --> 00:25:22,887
oh, she's crossing her legs.
It was a kick where it was
intentional.

890
00:25:22,889 --> 00:25:25,356
It was a kick where it was
intentional.
And, so, at the end of the show,

891
00:25:25,358 --> 00:25:28,025
intentional.
And, so, at the end of the show,
I say nothing.

892
00:25:28,027 --> 00:25:31,729
And, so, at the end of the show,
I say nothing.
I grab my stuff and I leave.

893
00:25:31,731 --> 00:25:33,731
I say nothing.
I grab my stuff and I leave.
And the next day, there's a

894
00:25:33,733 --> 00:25:35,766
I grab my stuff and I leave.
And the next day, there's a
knock on the door, and it's

895
00:25:35,768 --> 00:25:36,967
and the next day, there's a
knock on the door, and it's
rosie.

896
00:25:36,969 --> 00:25:38,469
Knock on the door, and it's
rosie.
And she said,

897
00:25:38,471 --> 00:25:39,436
rosie.
And she said,
"can I talk to you?"

898
00:25:39,438 --> 00:25:40,137
and she said,
"can I talk to you?"
and I said, "yeah."

899
00:25:40,139 --> 00:25:40,804
"can I talk to you?"
and I said, "yeah."
she goes, "alone?"

900
00:25:40,806 --> 00:25:41,872
and I said, "yeah."
she goes, "alone?"
so my makeup artist leaves

901
00:25:41,874 --> 00:25:45,175
she goes, "alone?"
so my makeup artist leaves
the room, and she said,

902
00:25:45,177 --> 00:25:46,277
so my makeup artist leaves
the room, and she said,
"I kicked you because

903
00:25:46,279 --> 00:25:49,813
the room, and she said,
"I kicked you because
I wanted you to stop talking."

904
00:25:49,815 --> 00:25:50,681
"I kicked you because
I wanted you to stop talking."
that's not how you do it.

905
00:25:50,683 --> 00:25:53,250
I wanted you to stop talking."
that's not how you do it.
I'm in your house, but that

906
00:25:53,252 --> 00:25:55,986
that's not how you do it.
I'm in your house, but that
kick said a lot, a lot to me,

907
00:25:55,988 --> 00:25:57,254
I'm in your house, but that
kick said a lot, a lot to me,
and I didn't want to be in that

908
00:25:57,256 --> 00:25:57,855
kick said a lot, a lot to me,
and I didn't want to be in that
environment.

909
00:25:57,857 --> 00:26:00,491
And I didn't want to be in that
environment.
I had heard a lot of stories.

910
00:26:00,493 --> 00:26:01,458
Environment.
I had heard a lot of stories.
By the end of my week,

911
00:26:01,460 --> 00:26:02,793
I had heard a lot of stories.
By the end of my week,
I had a meeting with one

912
00:26:02,795 --> 00:26:04,094
by the end of my week,
I had a meeting with one
of the executives, and she said,

913
00:26:04,096 --> 00:26:05,896
I had a meeting with one
of the executives, and she said,
"how did it go?"

914
00:26:05,898 --> 00:26:08,666
of the executives, and she said,
"how did it go?"
and I said, "it's not for me."

915
00:26:08,668 --> 00:26:10,067
"how did it go?"
and I said, "it's not for me."
I didn't want to be in an

916
00:26:10,069 --> 00:26:12,136
and I said, "it's not for me."
I didn't want to be in an
environment where I felt like

917
00:26:12,138 --> 00:26:13,704
I didn't want to be in an
environment where I felt like
that's not how you handle

918
00:26:13,706 --> 00:26:14,238
environment where I felt like
that's not how you handle
things.

919
00:26:14,240 --> 00:26:17,975
That's not how you handle
things.
And, also, if I had the

920
00:26:17,977 --> 00:26:19,610
things.
And, also, if I had the
opportunity to have that job,

921
00:26:19,612 --> 00:26:21,478
and, also, if I had the
opportunity to have that job,
it would change --

922
00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:23,681
opportunity to have that job,
it would change --
you know, I'm divorced.

923
00:26:23,683 --> 00:26:25,716
It would change --
you know, I'm divorced.
My ex-husband is hands on.

924
00:26:25,718 --> 00:26:27,151
You know, I'm divorced.
My ex-husband is hands on.
So he -- you know, he wasn't

925
00:26:27,153 --> 00:26:28,619
my ex-husband is hands on.
So he -- you know, he wasn't
going to just let me take them.

926
00:26:28,621 --> 00:26:29,820
So he -- you know, he wasn't
going to just let me take them.
I would have to fly back

927
00:26:29,822 --> 00:26:30,521
going to just let me take them.
I would have to fly back
and forth.

928
00:26:30,523 --> 00:26:31,488
I would have to fly back
and forth.
It would be a big adjustment

929
00:26:31,490 --> 00:26:32,323
and forth.
It would be a big adjustment
for my family.

930
00:26:32,325 --> 00:26:33,557
It would be a big adjustment
for my family.
So, a big

931
00:26:33,559 --> 00:26:34,825
for my family.
So, a big
adjustment for my family

932
00:26:34,827 --> 00:26:36,594
so, a big
adjustment for my family
and that kind of environment,

933
00:26:36,596 --> 00:26:38,729
adjustment for my family
and that kind of environment,
it wasn't for me.

934
00:26:38,731 --> 00:26:41,332
And that kind of environment,
it wasn't for me.
What made me decide

935
00:26:41,334 --> 00:26:42,666
it wasn't for me.
What made me decide
to join "the real housewives

936
00:26:42,668 --> 00:26:44,234
what made me decide
to join "the real housewives
of beverly hills"?

937
00:26:44,236 --> 00:26:45,836
To join "the real housewives
of beverly hills"?
Timing is everything.

938
00:26:45,838 --> 00:26:48,672
Of beverly hills"?
Timing is everything.
I was traveling a lot,

939
00:26:48,674 --> 00:26:49,873
timing is everything.
I was traveling a lot,
flying all over the place.

940
00:26:49,875 --> 00:26:51,175
I was traveling a lot,
flying all over the place.
My kids now are becoming

941
00:26:51,177 --> 00:26:51,642
flying all over the place.
My kids now are becoming
teenagers.

942
00:26:51,644 --> 00:26:52,676
My kids now are becoming
teenagers.
They're going to go to middle

943
00:26:52,678 --> 00:26:53,611
teenagers.
They're going to go to middle
school.

944
00:26:53,613 --> 00:26:55,813
They're going to go to middle
school.
I want to be around more.

945
00:26:55,815 --> 00:26:57,147
School.
I want to be around more.
I need to be around more.

946
00:26:57,149 --> 00:26:58,315
I want to be around more.
I need to be around more.
So when my manager called me

947
00:26:58,317 --> 00:26:59,283
I need to be around more.
So when my manager called me
and said, "hey, they're

948
00:26:59,285 --> 00:27:00,150
so when my manager called me
and said, "hey, they're
interested in you in

949
00:27:00,152 --> 00:27:01,185
and said, "hey, they're
interested in you in
beverly hills," he goes,

950
00:27:01,187 --> 00:27:02,086
interested in you in
beverly hills," he goes,
"we're going to pass.

951
00:27:02,088 --> 00:27:03,120
Beverly hills," he goes,
"we're going to pass.
But I just want to tell you

952
00:27:03,122 --> 00:27:04,788
"we're going to pass.
But I just want to tell you
because you know everybody."

953
00:27:04,790 --> 00:27:05,489
but I just want to tell you
because you know everybody."
and I was like,

954
00:27:05,491 --> 00:27:06,357
because you know everybody."
and I was like,
"hold on, hold on, hold on,

955
00:27:06,359 --> 00:27:07,224
and I was like,
"hold on, hold on, hold on,
give me a couple of days."

956
00:27:07,226 --> 00:27:09,059
"hold on, hold on, hold on,
give me a couple of days."
and he's like, "garcelle,

957
00:27:09,061 --> 00:27:10,027
give me a couple of days."
and he's like, "garcelle,
you're not doing this.

958
00:27:10,029 --> 00:27:11,095
And he's like, "garcelle,
you're not doing this.
You're on a roll.

959
00:27:11,097 --> 00:27:11,929
You're not doing this.
You're on a roll.
You're doing great.

960
00:27:11,931 --> 00:27:12,963
You're on a roll.
You're doing great.
You're not --

961
00:27:12,965 --> 00:27:14,665
you're doing great.
You're not --
you want to do reality?"

962
00:27:14,667 --> 00:27:15,432
you're not --
you want to do reality?"
and I was like,

963
00:27:15,434 --> 00:27:16,533
you want to do reality?"
and I was like,
"it's not about reality.

964
00:27:16,535 --> 00:27:18,235
And I was like,
"it's not about reality.
Give me a minute."

965
00:27:18,237 --> 00:27:20,237
"it's not about reality.
Give me a minute."
and I called my manager back

966
00:27:20,239 --> 00:27:21,171
give me a minute."
and I called my manager back
and I said, "gordon,

967
00:27:21,173 --> 00:27:22,039
and I called my manager back
and I said, "gordon,
you're going to think I'm crazy,

968
00:27:22,041 --> 00:27:23,774
and I said, "gordon,
you're going to think I'm crazy,
but I want to do 'housewives.'"

969
00:27:23,776 --> 00:27:25,242
you're going to think I'm crazy,
but I want to do 'housewives.'"
he was like, "I don't think it's

970
00:27:25,244 --> 00:27:25,943
but I want to do 'housewives.'"
he was like, "I don't think it's
a good idea."

971
00:27:25,945 --> 00:27:27,378
he was like, "I don't think it's
a good idea."
I said, "you know what?

972
00:27:27,380 --> 00:27:29,046
A good idea."
I said, "you know what?
I want to be home."

973
00:27:29,048 --> 00:27:31,015
I said, "you know what?
I want to be home."
and he said, "okay."

974
00:27:31,017 --> 00:27:33,384
I want to be home."
and he said, "okay."
and let me tell you this.

975
00:27:33,386 --> 00:27:34,451
And he said, "okay."
and let me tell you this.
I have never gotten

976
00:27:34,453 --> 00:27:35,686
and let me tell you this.
I have never gotten
more attention

977
00:27:35,688 --> 00:27:36,920
I have never gotten
more attention
than when they announced that I

978
00:27:36,922 --> 00:27:38,956
more attention
than when they announced that I
was going to be a housewife.

979
00:27:38,958 --> 00:27:41,659
Than when they announced that I
was going to be a housewife.
This show has fans

980
00:27:41,661 --> 00:27:43,694
was going to be a housewife.
This show has fans
that are diehards.

981
00:27:43,696 --> 00:27:47,865
This show has fans
that are diehards.
I mean, they watch everything.

982
00:27:47,867 --> 00:27:49,733
That are diehards.
I mean, they watch everything.
They're -- it's unbelievable.

983
00:27:49,735 --> 00:27:51,068
I mean, they watch everything.
They're -- it's unbelievable.
I never thought --

984
00:27:51,070 --> 00:27:52,102
they're -- it's unbelievable.
I never thought --
but let me tell you, it's the

985
00:27:52,104 --> 00:27:54,071
I never thought --
but let me tell you, it's the
hardest job I've ever done.

986
00:27:54,073 --> 00:27:55,239
But let me tell you, it's the
hardest job I've ever done.
There are cameras in my house,

987
00:27:55,241 --> 00:27:58,342
hardest job I've ever done.
There are cameras in my house,
cameras in my car.

988
00:27:58,344 --> 00:27:59,777
There are cameras in my house,
cameras in my car.
You know, the concept

989
00:27:59,779 --> 00:28:02,413
cameras in my car.
You know, the concept
of the show being based on drama

990
00:28:02,415 --> 00:28:03,881
you know, the concept
of the show being based on drama
is not what I'm used to.

991
00:28:03,883 --> 00:28:05,282
Of the show being based on drama
is not what I'm used to.
You know, if I don't like you,

992
00:28:05,284 --> 00:28:07,217
is not what I'm used to.
You know, if I don't like you,
you're not in my life, right?

993
00:28:07,219 --> 00:28:09,653
You know, if I don't like you,
you're not in my life, right?
But it's a different type of

994
00:28:09,655 --> 00:28:10,554
you're not in my life, right?
But it's a different type of
thing.

995
00:28:10,556 --> 00:28:12,556
But it's a different type of
thing.
I mean, scrutiny.

996
00:28:12,558 --> 00:28:13,524
Thing.
I mean, scrutiny.
People are watching.

997
00:28:13,526 --> 00:28:14,491
I mean, scrutiny.
People are watching.
You're in a fishbowl.

998
00:28:14,493 --> 00:28:15,392
People are watching.
You're in a fishbowl.
I'm in a fishbowl

999
00:28:15,394 --> 00:28:16,794
you're in a fishbowl.
I'm in a fishbowl
being on a reality show.

1000
00:28:16,796 --> 00:28:19,463
I'm in a fishbowl
being on a reality show.
And it's one that's a big hit.

1001
00:28:19,465 --> 00:28:20,931
Being on a reality show.
And it's one that's a big hit.
People feel like a snippet

1002
00:28:20,933 --> 00:28:22,966
and it's one that's a big hit.
People feel like a snippet
of a scene on a reality show

1003
00:28:22,968 --> 00:28:24,334
people feel like a snippet
of a scene on a reality show
is exactly who you are

1004
00:28:24,336 --> 00:28:26,036
of a scene on a reality show
is exactly who you are
in your entire life.

1005
00:28:26,038 --> 00:28:28,706
Is exactly who you are
in your entire life.
It's hard. It's hard.

1006
00:28:28,708 --> 00:28:30,908
In your entire life.
It's hard. It's hard.
♪

1007
00:28:30,910 --> 00:28:32,409
it's hard. It's hard.
♪
I think the fans can relate

1008
00:28:32,411 --> 00:28:33,577
♪
I think the fans can relate
that I'm real.

1009
00:28:33,579 --> 00:28:34,845
I think the fans can relate
that I'm real.
You know, they have a housewife

1010
00:28:34,847 --> 00:28:36,513
that I'm real.
You know, they have a housewife
that they can relate to,

1011
00:28:36,515 --> 00:28:37,748
you know, they have a housewife
that they can relate to,
you know what I mean?

1012
00:28:37,750 --> 00:28:39,149
That they can relate to,
you know what I mean?
Although there are

1013
00:28:39,151 --> 00:28:40,718
you know what I mean?
Although there are
lots of glamorous parts

1014
00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:42,019
although there are
lots of glamorous parts
to the job, but I'm also

1015
00:28:42,021 --> 00:28:43,454
lots of glamorous parts
to the job, but I'm also
like hands-on with my kids.

1016
00:28:43,456 --> 00:28:45,522
To the job, but I'm also
like hands-on with my kids.
I'm also -- I say it like it is.

1017
00:28:45,524 --> 00:28:46,824
Like hands-on with my kids.
I'm also -- I say it like it is.
I don't --

1018
00:28:46,826 --> 00:28:49,860
I'm also -- I say it like it is.
I don't --
you know, I don't mince words.

1019
00:28:49,862 --> 00:28:52,629
I don't --
you know, I don't mince words.
♪

1020
00:28:52,631 --> 00:28:53,964
you know, I don't mince words.
♪
sheree zampino,

1021
00:28:53,966 --> 00:28:55,399
♪
sheree zampino,
I love her energy,

1022
00:28:55,401 --> 00:28:56,667
sheree zampino,
I love her energy,
I love her spirit.

1023
00:28:56,669 --> 00:28:59,303
I love her energy,
I love her spirit.
I just love who she is.

1024
00:28:59,305 --> 00:29:01,004
I love her spirit.
I just love who she is.
We connected through

1025
00:29:01,006 --> 00:29:02,606
I just love who she is.
We connected through
my assistant, tazz, actually

1026
00:29:02,608 --> 00:29:04,241
we connected through
my assistant, tazz, actually
because tazz worked for her.

1027
00:29:04,243 --> 00:29:05,075
My assistant, tazz, actually
because tazz worked for her.
And we connected

1028
00:29:05,077 --> 00:29:06,410
because tazz worked for her.
And we connected
and we hit it off,

1029
00:29:06,412 --> 00:29:08,145
and we connected
and we hit it off,
and then, we found out that

1030
00:29:08,147 --> 00:29:09,980
and we hit it off,
and then, we found out that
we had will smith in common.

1031
00:29:09,982 --> 00:29:11,782
And then, we found out that
we had will smith in common.
[ chuckles ]

1032
00:29:11,784 --> 00:29:13,016
we had will smith in common.
[ chuckles ]
we apparently like

1033
00:29:13,018 --> 00:29:14,251
[ chuckles ]
we apparently like
the same things.

1034
00:29:14,253 --> 00:29:16,353
We apparently like
the same things.
[ laughs ]

1035
00:29:16,355 --> 00:29:18,388
the same things.
[ laughs ]
but she's a great girl.

1036
00:29:18,390 --> 00:29:19,656
[ laughs ]
but she's a great girl.
And, you know, she wasn't

1037
00:29:19,658 --> 00:29:20,958
but she's a great girl.
And, you know, she wasn't
married to him at the time.

1038
00:29:20,960 --> 00:29:23,727
And, you know, she wasn't
married to him at the time.
So there's no angst about that.

1039
00:29:23,729 --> 00:29:25,329
Married to him at the time.
So there's no angst about that.
We joke about it.

1040
00:29:25,331 --> 00:29:26,797
So there's no angst about that.
We joke about it.
But, yeah.

1041
00:29:26,799 --> 00:29:28,766
We joke about it.
But, yeah.
So, when I did "housewives,"

1042
00:29:28,768 --> 00:29:29,833
but, yeah.
So, when I did "housewives,"
you know, I was tired of being

1043
00:29:29,835 --> 00:29:31,969
so, when I did "housewives,"
you know, I was tired of being
the only black girl in the room.

1044
00:29:31,971 --> 00:29:33,170
You know, I was tired of being
the only black girl in the room.
You know, I was tired of it.

1045
00:29:33,172 --> 00:29:34,671
The only black girl in the room.
You know, I was tired of it.
And, so, when the producer

1046
00:29:34,673 --> 00:29:35,773
you know, I was tired of it.
And, so, when the producer
said to me,

1047
00:29:35,775 --> 00:29:37,007
and, so, when the producer
said to me,
"we'd like for you

1048
00:29:37,009 --> 00:29:38,008
said to me,
"we'd like for you
to bring on a friend,"

1049
00:29:38,010 --> 00:29:40,144
"we'd like for you
to bring on a friend,"
I said, "I know exactly who."

1050
00:29:40,146 --> 00:29:41,378
to bring on a friend,"
I said, "I know exactly who."
she's getting used to it

1051
00:29:41,380 --> 00:29:43,847
I said, "I know exactly who."
she's getting used to it
because she's very spiritual,

1052
00:29:43,849 --> 00:29:45,082
she's getting used to it
because she's very spiritual,
she's very religious.

1053
00:29:45,084 --> 00:29:46,917
Because she's very spiritual,
she's very religious.
So she's brought out god a

1054
00:29:46,919 --> 00:29:48,018
she's very religious.
So she's brought out god a
couple of times, and those

1055
00:29:48,020 --> 00:29:48,552
so she's brought out god a
couple of times, and those
women are not having it.

1056
00:29:52,557 --> 00:29:57,528
>> beauvais: Yeah.
I mean, my first marriage,
I think I was, in a way,

1057
00:29:57,530 --> 00:29:58,061
I mean, my first marriage,
I think I was, in a way,
rebelling.

1058
00:29:58,063 --> 00:29:59,196
I think I was, in a way,
rebelling.
I met him, we knew each other

1059
00:29:59,198 --> 00:30:00,297
rebelling.
I met him, we knew each other
two months, and then we got

1060
00:30:00,299 --> 00:30:00,731
I met him, we knew each other
two months, and then we got
married.

1061
00:30:00,733 --> 00:30:01,999
Two months, and then we got
married.
I mean, we really

1062
00:30:02,001 --> 00:30:02,900
married.
I mean, we really
didn't know each other.

1063
00:30:02,902 --> 00:30:03,667
I mean, we really
didn't know each other.
And then we had our

1064
00:30:03,669 --> 00:30:05,269
didn't know each other.
And then we had our
beautiful son, oliver,

1065
00:30:05,271 --> 00:30:06,670
and then we had our
beautiful son, oliver,
and we were

1066
00:30:06,672 --> 00:30:07,638
beautiful son, oliver,
and we were
married for six years,

1067
00:30:07,640 --> 00:30:08,906
and we were
married for six years,
which is pretty cool considering

1068
00:30:08,908 --> 00:30:10,574
married for six years,
which is pretty cool considering
we really didn't know

1069
00:30:10,576 --> 00:30:13,844
which is pretty cool considering
we really didn't know
each other.

1070
00:30:13,846 --> 00:30:15,212
We really didn't know
each other.
I love being married.

1071
00:30:15,214 --> 00:30:16,814
Each other.
I love being married.
First of all, let me say that.

1072
00:30:16,816 --> 00:30:21,585
I love being married.
First of all, let me say that.
And I didn't plan on remarrying.

1073
00:30:21,587 --> 00:30:22,786
First of all, let me say that.
And I didn't plan on remarrying.
It wasn't in my head, it wasn't

1074
00:30:22,788 --> 00:30:25,122
and I didn't plan on remarrying.
It wasn't in my head, it wasn't
something I was out to do.

1075
00:30:25,124 --> 00:30:26,523
It wasn't in my head, it wasn't
something I was out to do.
But mike and I were friends.

1076
00:30:26,525 --> 00:30:28,992
Something I was out to do.
But mike and I were friends.
He was a young, upcoming agent

1077
00:30:28,994 --> 00:30:30,694
but mike and I were friends.
He was a young, upcoming agent
at caa.

1078
00:30:30,696 --> 00:30:32,329
He was a young, upcoming agent
at caa.
And I remember he called

1079
00:30:32,331 --> 00:30:33,530
at caa.
And I remember he called
my manager, and he said,

1080
00:30:33,532 --> 00:30:35,532
and I remember he called
my manager, and he said,
"hey, I'd like to have lunch

1081
00:30:35,534 --> 00:30:36,800
my manager, and he said,
"hey, I'd like to have lunch
with garcelle."

1082
00:30:36,802 --> 00:30:38,869
"hey, I'd like to have lunch
with garcelle."
and she said, "let's set it up,

1083
00:30:38,871 --> 00:30:39,670
with garcelle."
and she said, "let's set it up,
but don't ask her out.

1084
00:30:39,672 --> 00:30:40,804
And she said, "let's set it up,
but don't ask her out.
Everybody asks her out."

1085
00:30:40,806 --> 00:30:42,339
but don't ask her out.
Everybody asks her out."
and, so, he said, "okay."

1086
00:30:42,341 --> 00:30:43,473
everybody asks her out."
and, so, he said, "okay."
so the three of us went

1087
00:30:43,475 --> 00:30:44,675
and, so, he said, "okay."
so the three of us went
and had lunch.

1088
00:30:44,677 --> 00:30:46,076
So the three of us went
and had lunch.
And I just thought he was smart

1089
00:30:46,078 --> 00:30:47,711
and had lunch.
And I just thought he was smart
and he had great ideas.

1090
00:30:47,713 --> 00:30:48,879
And I just thought he was smart
and he had great ideas.
And I didn't want to be --

1091
00:30:48,881 --> 00:30:49,847
and he had great ideas.
And I didn't want to be --
like, I didn't want

1092
00:30:49,849 --> 00:30:50,914
and I didn't want to be --
like, I didn't want
to be signed to him.

1093
00:30:50,916 --> 00:30:52,583
Like, I didn't want
to be signed to him.
So we struck up a, you know,

1094
00:30:52,585 --> 00:30:53,717
to be signed to him.
So we struck up a, you know,
a friendship.

1095
00:30:53,719 --> 00:30:54,585
So we struck up a, you know,
a friendship.
And we were friends

1096
00:30:54,587 --> 00:30:55,652
a friendship.
And we were friends
for maybe a year.

1097
00:30:55,654 --> 00:30:56,753
And we were friends
for maybe a year.
I was dating someone else.

1098
00:30:56,755 --> 00:30:57,855
For maybe a year.
I was dating someone else.
Every now and then, I would call

1099
00:30:57,857 --> 00:30:59,223
I was dating someone else.
Every now and then, I would call
him and ask him -- you know,

1100
00:30:59,225 --> 00:31:00,624
every now and then, I would call
him and ask him -- you know,
pick his brain about things.

1101
00:31:00,626 --> 00:31:03,293
Him and ask him -- you know,
pick his brain about things.
And one weekend, he said,

1102
00:31:03,295 --> 00:31:04,361
pick his brain about things.
And one weekend, he said,
"do you want to go to a barbecue

1103
00:31:04,363 --> 00:31:04,862
and one weekend, he said,
"do you want to go to a barbecue
with me?"

1104
00:31:04,864 --> 00:31:05,696
"do you want to go to a barbecue
with me?"
and I said, "sure."

1105
00:31:05,698 --> 00:31:06,763
with me?"
and I said, "sure."
and I was kind of falling out

1106
00:31:06,765 --> 00:31:08,365
and I said, "sure."
and I was kind of falling out
with the guy I was dating.

1107
00:31:08,367 --> 00:31:09,032
And I was kind of falling out
with the guy I was dating.
And, so, we're

1108
00:31:09,034 --> 00:31:10,067
with the guy I was dating.
And, so, we're
driving to the barbecue.

1109
00:31:10,069 --> 00:31:12,536
And, so, we're
driving to the barbecue.
We get to the address, and we're

1110
00:31:12,538 --> 00:31:13,770
driving to the barbecue.
We get to the address, and we're
in the car about to get out.

1111
00:31:13,772 --> 00:31:15,472
We get to the address, and we're
in the car about to get out.
And he kisses me out of the blue

1112
00:31:15,474 --> 00:31:16,874
in the car about to get out.
And he kisses me out of the blue
and I'm like, "oh..."

1113
00:31:16,876 --> 00:31:18,041
and he kisses me out of the blue
and I'm like, "oh..."
like, I like his friendship.

1114
00:31:18,043 --> 00:31:19,409
And I'm like, "oh..."
like, I like his friendship.
I don't want anything --

1115
00:31:19,411 --> 00:31:20,978
like, I like his friendship.
I don't want anything --
you know, I didn't want it to

1116
00:31:20,980 --> 00:31:22,346
I don't want anything --
you know, I didn't want it to
mess up because I wasn't

1117
00:31:22,348 --> 00:31:23,914
you know, I didn't want it to
mess up because I wasn't
thinking of him romantically.

1118
00:31:23,916 --> 00:31:25,549
Mess up because I wasn't
thinking of him romantically.
So once the kiss happened,

1119
00:31:25,551 --> 00:31:27,584
thinking of him romantically.
So once the kiss happened,
I started thinking about things,

1120
00:31:27,586 --> 00:31:29,753
so once the kiss happened,
I started thinking about things,
and I just liked who he is.

1121
00:31:29,755 --> 00:31:30,654
I started thinking about things,
and I just liked who he is.
And I had a son.

1122
00:31:30,656 --> 00:31:32,222
And I just liked who he is.
And I had a son.
I was a single mom.

1123
00:31:32,224 --> 00:31:34,157
And I had a son.
I was a single mom.
I wanted a guy who was safe,

1124
00:31:34,159 --> 00:31:36,760
I was a single mom.
I wanted a guy who was safe,
and he felt safe to me.

1125
00:31:36,762 --> 00:31:39,663
I wanted a guy who was safe,
and he felt safe to me.
Boy, was I wrong.

1126
00:31:39,665 --> 00:31:42,966
And he felt safe to me.
Boy, was I wrong.
Anyway, so we got married two

1127
00:31:42,968 --> 00:31:44,801
boy, was I wrong.
Anyway, so we got married two
and a half years later.

1128
00:31:44,803 --> 00:31:47,838
Anyway, so we got married two
and a half years later.
♪

1129
00:31:47,840 --> 00:31:49,239
and a half years later.
♪
we were trying to have babies,

1130
00:31:49,241 --> 00:31:50,073
♪
we were trying to have babies,
trying to have babies,

1131
00:31:50,075 --> 00:31:50,807
we were trying to have babies,
trying to have babies,
trying to have babies.

1132
00:31:50,809 --> 00:31:51,875
Trying to have babies,
trying to have babies.
I had already had a baby.

1133
00:31:51,877 --> 00:31:53,677
Trying to have babies.
I had already had a baby.
I thought I could have a baby.

1134
00:31:53,679 --> 00:31:54,711
I had already had a baby.
I thought I could have a baby.
I remember a friend of mine

1135
00:31:54,713 --> 00:31:56,179
I thought I could have a baby.
I remember a friend of mine
who had a child and was having

1136
00:31:56,181 --> 00:31:57,614
I remember a friend of mine
who had a child and was having
a hard time getting pregnant

1137
00:31:57,616 --> 00:31:59,149
who had a child and was having
a hard time getting pregnant
bring a book over to my house,

1138
00:31:59,151 --> 00:32:00,417
a hard time getting pregnant
bring a book over to my house,
like, how to get pregnant.

1139
00:32:00,419 --> 00:32:01,151
Bring a book over to my house,
like, how to get pregnant.
And I was like, "girl,

1140
00:32:01,153 --> 00:32:02,386
like, how to get pregnant.
And I was like, "girl,
I know how to get pregnant."

1141
00:32:02,388 --> 00:32:03,620
and I was like, "girl,
I know how to get pregnant."
have you met oliver?

1142
00:32:03,622 --> 00:32:04,855
I know how to get pregnant."
have you met oliver?
Like, I can do this.

1143
00:32:04,857 --> 00:32:05,856
Have you met oliver?
Like, I can do this.
No big deal.

1144
00:32:05,858 --> 00:32:07,925
Like, I can do this.
No big deal.
I'm older, mind you, now.

1145
00:32:07,927 --> 00:32:09,059
No big deal.
I'm older, mind you, now.
So we were having a hard time

1146
00:32:09,061 --> 00:32:11,194
I'm older, mind you, now.
So we were having a hard time
trying to conceive, and I was

1147
00:32:11,196 --> 00:32:12,429
so we were having a hard time
trying to conceive, and I was
really down on my body.

1148
00:32:12,431 --> 00:32:13,563
Trying to conceive, and I was
really down on my body.
I was jealous of women

1149
00:32:13,565 --> 00:32:14,965
really down on my body.
I was jealous of women
who were pregnant, and it felt

1150
00:32:14,967 --> 00:32:16,199
I was jealous of women
who were pregnant, and it felt
like every other woman was

1151
00:32:16,201 --> 00:32:17,034
who were pregnant, and it felt
like every other woman was
pregnant, right?

1152
00:32:17,036 --> 00:32:18,168
Like every other woman was
pregnant, right?
I felt like I was seeing

1153
00:32:18,170 --> 00:32:19,603
pregnant, right?
I felt like I was seeing
pregnant women everywhere,

1154
00:32:19,605 --> 00:32:20,771
I felt like I was seeing
pregnant women everywhere,
which was giving me a hard time.

1155
00:32:20,773 --> 00:32:22,072
Pregnant women everywhere,
which was giving me a hard time.
I had a lot of miscarriages.

1156
00:32:22,074 --> 00:32:22,906
Which was giving me a hard time.
I had a lot of miscarriages.
I had fibroids

1157
00:32:22,908 --> 00:32:24,341
I had a lot of miscarriages.
I had fibroids
that had to be removed.

1158
00:32:24,343 --> 00:32:25,075
I had fibroids
that had to be removed.
I almost died

1159
00:32:25,077 --> 00:32:27,911
that had to be removed.
I almost died
from the fibroid surgery.

1160
00:32:27,913 --> 00:32:29,212
I almost died
from the fibroid surgery.
And I'm very spiritual

1161
00:32:29,214 --> 00:32:32,282
from the fibroid surgery.
And I'm very spiritual
and I believe the energy

1162
00:32:32,284 --> 00:32:33,717
and I'm very spiritual
and I believe the energy
you put out is what you get in.

1163
00:32:33,719 --> 00:32:34,618
And I believe the energy
you put out is what you get in.
I really believe that.

1164
00:32:34,620 --> 00:32:37,721
You put out is what you get in.
I really believe that.
And I felt, at one point, I was

1165
00:32:37,723 --> 00:32:40,557
I really believe that.
And I felt, at one point, I was
being too negative on my body.

1166
00:32:40,559 --> 00:32:41,959
And I felt, at one point, I was
being too negative on my body.
I felt like, as a woman,

1167
00:32:41,961 --> 00:32:43,360
being too negative on my body.
I felt like, as a woman,
I had failed mike

1168
00:32:43,362 --> 00:32:44,628
I felt like, as a woman,
I had failed mike
or I was failing him because

1169
00:32:44,630 --> 00:32:46,363
I had failed mike
or I was failing him because
I couldn't give him a child.

1170
00:32:46,365 --> 00:32:48,699
Or I was failing him because
I couldn't give him a child.
And also, being haitian, that's

1171
00:32:48,701 --> 00:32:49,833
I couldn't give him a child.
And also, being haitian, that's
a big part of your marriage,

1172
00:32:49,835 --> 00:32:51,635
and also, being haitian, that's
a big part of your marriage,
is being able to bear

1173
00:32:51,637 --> 00:32:52,636
a big part of your marriage,
is being able to bear
a child for your husband.

1174
00:32:52,638 --> 00:32:54,404
Is being able to bear
a child for your husband.
So there was a lot of history,

1175
00:32:54,406 --> 00:32:55,172
a child for your husband.
So there was a lot of history,
a lot of angst,

1176
00:32:55,174 --> 00:32:57,007
so there was a lot of history,
a lot of angst,
a lot of heartache

1177
00:32:57,009 --> 00:32:59,309
a lot of angst,
a lot of heartache
and just frustration.

1178
00:32:59,311 --> 00:33:00,277
A lot of heartache
and just frustration.
So when I decided,

1179
00:33:00,279 --> 00:33:01,745
and just frustration.
So when I decided,
you know what?

1180
00:33:01,747 --> 00:33:03,146
So when I decided,
you know what?
You need to change this around,

1181
00:33:03,148 --> 00:33:04,815
you know what?
You need to change this around,
your your energy is off.

1182
00:33:04,817 --> 00:33:05,682
You need to change this around,
your your energy is off.
It's negative.

1183
00:33:05,684 --> 00:33:08,652
Your your energy is off.
It's negative.
It's not serving you.

1184
00:33:08,654 --> 00:33:10,420
It's negative.
It's not serving you.
At that time,

1185
00:33:10,422 --> 00:33:11,455
it's not serving you.
At that time,
"playboy" came back around

1186
00:33:11,457 --> 00:33:12,556
at that time,
"playboy" came back around
'cause they had come to me,

1187
00:33:12,558 --> 00:33:13,357
"playboy" came back around
'cause they had come to me,
like, years before.

1188
00:33:13,359 --> 00:33:15,292
'cause they had come to me,
like, years before.
They came back around.

1189
00:33:15,294 --> 00:33:16,693
Like, years before.
They came back around.
Mike wasn't on board,

1190
00:33:16,695 --> 00:33:19,229
they came back around.
Mike wasn't on board,
by the way.

1191
00:33:19,231 --> 00:33:21,598
Mike wasn't on board,
by the way.
He wasn't on board at all.

1192
00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:22,699
By the way.
He wasn't on board at all.
I thought about it,

1193
00:33:22,701 --> 00:33:24,601
he wasn't on board at all.
I thought about it,
and I thought, you know what?

1194
00:33:24,603 --> 00:33:27,270
I thought about it,
and I thought, you know what?
Let's honor your body.

1195
00:33:27,272 --> 00:33:28,472
And I thought, you know what?
Let's honor your body.
So they're giving me a cover,

1196
00:33:28,474 --> 00:33:29,539
let's honor your body.
So they're giving me a cover,
which is a big deal.

1197
00:33:29,541 --> 00:33:30,474
So they're giving me a cover,
which is a big deal.
Not a lot of black women

1198
00:33:30,476 --> 00:33:31,742
which is a big deal.
Not a lot of black women
get the cover.

1199
00:33:31,744 --> 00:33:33,377
Not a lot of black women
get the cover.
They say I can shoot it

1200
00:33:33,379 --> 00:33:35,112
get the cover.
They say I can shoot it
anywhere in the world I want,

1201
00:33:35,114 --> 00:33:35,912
they say I can shoot it
anywhere in the world I want,
right?

1202
00:33:35,914 --> 00:33:36,947
Anywhere in the world I want,
right?
Anywhere.

1203
00:33:36,949 --> 00:33:38,281
Right?
Anywhere.
So me and my glam team, we're

1204
00:33:38,283 --> 00:33:40,050
anywhere.
So me and my glam team, we're
thinking, "do we shoot it in

1205
00:33:40,052 --> 00:33:40,684
so me and my glam team, we're
thinking, "do we shoot it in
africa?

1206
00:33:40,686 --> 00:33:43,487
Thinking, "do we shoot it in
africa?
Do we shoot it in australia?

1207
00:33:43,489 --> 00:33:44,087
Africa?
Do we shoot it in australia?
Where are we

1208
00:33:44,089 --> 00:33:45,622
do we shoot it in australia?
Where are we
going to shoot this?"

1209
00:33:45,624 --> 00:33:46,957
where are we
going to shoot this?"
at the time, I'm going through

1210
00:33:46,959 --> 00:33:48,158
going to shoot this?"
at the time, I'm going through
infertility treatments,

1211
00:33:48,160 --> 00:33:49,493
at the time, I'm going through
infertility treatments,
and if anybody knows what that's

1212
00:33:49,495 --> 00:33:51,161
infertility treatments,
and if anybody knows what that's
like, it's a roller coaster

1213
00:33:51,163 --> 00:33:51,661
and if anybody knows what that's
like, it's a roller coaster
ride.

1214
00:33:51,663 --> 00:33:52,829
Like, it's a roller coaster
ride.
You're giving yourself shots.

1215
00:33:52,831 --> 00:33:53,663
Ride.
You're giving yourself shots.
You're going to the doctor

1216
00:33:53,665 --> 00:33:54,931
you're giving yourself shots.
You're going to the doctor
every other day.

1217
00:33:54,933 --> 00:33:56,233
You're going to the doctor
every other day.
I have estrogen patches

1218
00:33:56,235 --> 00:33:57,834
every other day.
I have estrogen patches
on my stomach.

1219
00:33:57,836 --> 00:33:59,102
I have estrogen patches
on my stomach.
And because of the infertility

1220
00:33:59,104 --> 00:34:00,504
on my stomach.
And because of the infertility
treatments, instead of shooting

1221
00:34:00,506 --> 00:34:02,706
and because of the infertility
treatments, instead of shooting
it in africa, in australia,

1222
00:34:02,708 --> 00:34:04,174
treatments, instead of shooting
it in africa, in australia,
we shoot it in long beach.

1223
00:34:04,176 --> 00:34:05,175
It in africa, in australia,
we shoot it in long beach.
Because I have to be

1224
00:34:05,177 --> 00:34:07,010
we shoot it in long beach.
Because I have to be
close to my doctor.

1225
00:34:07,012 --> 00:34:08,678
Because I have to be
close to my doctor.
[ laughs ]

1226
00:34:08,680 --> 00:34:11,081
close to my doctor.
[ laughs ]
we shoot it on the<i> queen mary</i>

1227
00:34:11,083 --> 00:34:11,915
[ laughs ]
we shoot it on the<i> queen mary</i>
in long beach,

1228
00:34:11,917 --> 00:34:13,316
we shoot it on the<i> queen mary</i>
in long beach,
which I found out was haunted.

1229
00:34:13,318 --> 00:34:15,452
In long beach,
which I found out was haunted.
And being haitian,

1230
00:34:15,454 --> 00:34:16,386
which I found out was haunted.
And being haitian,
I spent a night there.

1231
00:34:16,388 --> 00:34:18,889
And being haitian,
I spent a night there.
I didn't sleep a wink because I

1232
00:34:18,891 --> 00:34:20,657
I spent a night there.
I didn't sleep a wink because I
thought, they're coming to get

1233
00:34:20,659 --> 00:34:21,291
I didn't sleep a wink because I
thought, they're coming to get
me.

1234
00:34:21,293 --> 00:34:22,926
Thought, they're coming to get
me.
We got a great photographer,

1235
00:34:22,928 --> 00:34:23,760
me.
We got a great photographer,
and I decided

1236
00:34:23,762 --> 00:34:24,995
we got a great photographer,
and I decided
I'm only going to show my top.

1237
00:34:24,997 --> 00:34:26,229
And I decided
I'm only going to show my top.
I'm not going to show my bottom.

1238
00:34:26,231 --> 00:34:29,199
I'm only going to show my top.
I'm not going to show my bottom.
I wasn't okay with that.

1239
00:34:29,201 --> 00:34:31,968
I'm not going to show my bottom.
I wasn't okay with that.
And, so, I shot "playboy,"

1240
00:34:31,970 --> 00:34:33,804
I wasn't okay with that.
And, so, I shot "playboy,"
and they had to airbrush the

1241
00:34:33,806 --> 00:34:35,572
and, so, I shot "playboy,"
and they had to airbrush the
estrogen patches on my stomach

1242
00:34:35,574 --> 00:34:36,773
and they had to airbrush the
estrogen patches on my stomach
because I wasn't going to take

1243
00:34:36,775 --> 00:34:38,108
estrogen patches on my stomach
because I wasn't going to take
them off because being pregnant

1244
00:34:38,110 --> 00:34:40,043
because I wasn't going to take
them off because being pregnant
was really important to me.

1245
00:34:40,045 --> 00:34:42,312
Them off because being pregnant
was really important to me.
And I got pregnant right

1246
00:34:42,314 --> 00:34:43,080
was really important to me.
And I got pregnant right
after that

1247
00:34:43,082 --> 00:34:44,948
and I got pregnant right
after that
and gave birth the next year.

1248
00:34:44,950 --> 00:34:47,684
After that
and gave birth the next year.
♪

1249
00:34:47,686 --> 00:34:50,053
and gave birth the next year.
♪
ay yi yi. Crazy man.

1250
00:34:50,055 --> 00:34:51,655
♪
ay yi yi. Crazy man.
Crazy. I mean, I thought

1251
00:34:51,657 --> 00:34:53,056
ay yi yi. Crazy man.
Crazy. I mean, I thought
I won the lotto in husbands.

1252
00:34:53,058 --> 00:34:54,091
Crazy. I mean, I thought
I won the lotto in husbands.
I mean, he was attentive.

1253
00:34:54,093 --> 00:34:55,292
I won the lotto in husbands.
I mean, he was attentive.
He was there.

1254
00:34:55,294 --> 00:34:56,493
I mean, he was attentive.
He was there.
If I had a flat tire.

1255
00:34:56,495 --> 00:34:57,594
He was there.
If I had a flat tire.
I remember I had a flat tire

1256
00:34:57,596 --> 00:34:58,395
if I had a flat tire.
I remember I had a flat tire
on mulholland.

1257
00:34:58,397 --> 00:34:59,763
I remember I had a flat tire
on mulholland.
He left caa and came to make

1258
00:34:59,765 --> 00:35:01,231
on mulholland.
He left caa and came to make
sure I was safe on the side of

1259
00:35:01,233 --> 00:35:01,832
he left caa and came to make
sure I was safe on the side of
the road.

1260
00:35:01,834 --> 00:35:02,999
Sure I was safe on the side of
the road.
Like, I mean, he was the epitome

1261
00:35:03,001 --> 00:35:05,469
the road.
Like, I mean, he was the epitome
of, like, a guy who was there,

1262
00:35:05,471 --> 00:35:06,570
like, I mean, he was the epitome
of, like, a guy who was there,
there for me, there for my

1263
00:35:06,572 --> 00:35:08,538
of, like, a guy who was there,
there for me, there for my
family, there for my friends.

1264
00:35:08,540 --> 00:35:10,107
There for me, there for my
family, there for my friends.
I never would have thought

1265
00:35:10,109 --> 00:35:13,210
family, there for my friends.
I never would have thought
that he was doing anything

1266
00:35:13,212 --> 00:35:15,011
I never would have thought
that he was doing anything
outside of me.

1267
00:35:15,013 --> 00:35:16,613
That he was doing anything
outside of me.
So when I found out,

1268
00:35:16,615 --> 00:35:17,848
outside of me.
So when I found out,
literally the rug

1269
00:35:17,850 --> 00:35:19,382
so when I found out,
literally the rug
was pulled out from under me.

1270
00:35:19,384 --> 00:35:21,852
Literally the rug
was pulled out from under me.
Literally I never saw it coming,

1271
00:35:21,854 --> 00:35:23,253
was pulled out from under me.
Literally I never saw it coming,
had no idea.

1272
00:35:23,255 --> 00:35:24,888
Literally I never saw it coming,
had no idea.
It changed my life.

1273
00:35:24,890 --> 00:35:25,956
Had no idea.
It changed my life.
It changed my life.

1274
00:35:25,958 --> 00:35:28,792
It changed my life.
It changed my life.
My kids were three.

1275
00:35:28,794 --> 00:35:29,860
It changed my life.
My kids were three.
And it was just a time

1276
00:35:29,862 --> 00:35:31,828
my kids were three.
And it was just a time
that no one wants to start over

1277
00:35:31,830 --> 00:35:34,030
and it was just a time
that no one wants to start over
at this point in your life.

1278
00:35:34,032 --> 00:35:35,532
That no one wants to start over
at this point in your life.
We tried to have babies for five

1279
00:35:35,534 --> 00:35:36,967
at this point in your life.
We tried to have babies for five
and a half years,

1280
00:35:36,969 --> 00:35:40,637
we tried to have babies for five
and a half years,
had infertility problems.

1281
00:35:40,639 --> 00:35:43,206
And a half years,
had infertility problems.
All the while, you know, things

1282
00:35:43,208 --> 00:35:44,574
had infertility problems.
All the while, you know, things
were going on behind my back.

1283
00:35:44,576 --> 00:35:48,612
All the while, you know, things
were going on behind my back.
So I had to figure out

1284
00:35:48,614 --> 00:35:50,881
were going on behind my back.
So I had to figure out
how to move on

1285
00:35:50,883 --> 00:35:51,982
so I had to figure out
how to move on
with two little boys

1286
00:35:51,984 --> 00:35:53,383
how to move on
with two little boys
that are looking at me,

1287
00:35:53,385 --> 00:35:54,684
with two little boys
that are looking at me,
two little boys that love

1288
00:35:54,686 --> 00:35:56,653
that are looking at me,
two little boys that love
their father so much.

1289
00:35:56,655 --> 00:35:57,988
Two little boys that love
their father so much.
And I couldn't hate the man

1290
00:35:57,990 --> 00:35:59,923
their father so much.
And I couldn't hate the man
that they love so much.

1291
00:35:59,925 --> 00:36:01,158
And I couldn't hate the man
that they love so much.
That was

1292
00:36:01,160 --> 00:36:02,259
that they love so much.
That was
the biggest thing for me.

1293
00:36:02,261 --> 00:36:04,361
That was
the biggest thing for me.
I can't hate him

1294
00:36:04,363 --> 00:36:07,297
the biggest thing for me.
I can't hate him
because they love him so much.

1295
00:36:07,299 --> 00:36:08,398
I can't hate him
because they love him so much.
And that's what I did.

1296
00:36:08,400 --> 00:36:10,033
Because they love him so much.
And that's what I did.
I strapped on my boots.

1297
00:36:10,035 --> 00:36:11,801
And that's what I did.
I strapped on my boots.
I went to therapy.

1298
00:36:11,803 --> 00:36:13,904
I strapped on my boots.
I went to therapy.
I got a life coach.

1299
00:36:13,906 --> 00:36:15,105
I went to therapy.
I got a life coach.
I...

1300
00:36:15,107 --> 00:36:18,408
I got a life coach.
I...
I put my kids first.

1301
00:36:18,410 --> 00:36:21,178
I...
I put my kids first.
And in doing so, they're great.

1302
00:36:21,180 --> 00:36:23,713
I put my kids first.
And in doing so, they're great.
He's at my house all the time.

1303
00:36:23,715 --> 00:36:25,115
And in doing so, they're great.
He's at my house all the time.
He's there for thanksgiving.

1304
00:36:25,117 --> 00:36:26,316
He's at my house all the time.
He's there for thanksgiving.
He's there for christmas.

1305
00:36:26,318 --> 00:36:28,285
He's there for thanksgiving.
He's there for christmas.
Which is great for the boys.

1306
00:36:28,287 --> 00:36:31,354
He's there for christmas.
Which is great for the boys.
But you know...

1307
00:36:31,356 --> 00:36:32,756
Which is great for the boys.
But you know...
That was the toughest time

1308
00:36:32,758 --> 00:36:33,256
but you know...
That was the toughest time
in my life, honestly.

1309
00:36:38,529 --> 00:36:39,863
>> you know, garcelle, I'd be

1310
00:36:39,997 --> 00:36:41,431
remiss not to say, you know, you

1311
00:36:41,566 --> 00:36:42,566
and I knew each other.

1312
00:36:42,700 --> 00:36:43,934
Like, we met at, like, some

1313
00:36:44,068 --> 00:36:45,435
arbitrary hollywood event, but

1314
00:36:45,570 --> 00:36:46,770
we really got to know each

1315
00:36:46,904 --> 00:36:48,171
other testing together for a

1316
00:36:48,306 --> 00:36:48,905
situation on

1317
00:36:49,040 --> 00:36:50,340
"the meredith vieira show" on

1318
00:36:50,474 --> 00:36:50,740
nbc.

1319
00:36:50,875 --> 00:36:51,174
>> beauvais: Yes.

1320
00:36:52,710 --> 00:36:55,812
>> and I think, after that,
we had so much fun
working together that we started

1321
00:36:55,814 --> 00:36:56,947
we had so much fun
working together that we started
encouraging each other

1322
00:36:56,949 --> 00:36:58,448
working together that we started
encouraging each other
and really pushing each other

1323
00:36:58,450 --> 00:36:59,316
encouraging each other
and really pushing each other
because both of us wanted

1324
00:36:59,318 --> 00:37:00,550
and really pushing each other
because both of us wanted
to work in the talk show space.

1325
00:37:00,552 --> 00:37:02,252
Because both of us wanted
to work in the talk show space.
And, so, as you mentioned,

1326
00:37:02,254 --> 00:37:03,186
to work in the talk show space.
And, so, as you mentioned,
you know, kind of putting you

1327
00:37:03,188 --> 00:37:04,588
and, so, as you mentioned,
you know, kind of putting you
on the pathway to "the real"

1328
00:37:04,590 --> 00:37:06,456
you know, kind of putting you
on the pathway to "the real"
and encouraging you

1329
00:37:06,458 --> 00:37:07,791
on the pathway to "the real"
and encouraging you
through that, and then --

1330
00:37:07,793 --> 00:37:09,059
and encouraging you
through that, and then --
>> beauvais: Can I just say, you

1331
00:37:09,061 --> 00:37:10,527
through that, and then --
>> beauvais: Can I just say, you
are the most encouraging person

1332
00:37:10,529 --> 00:37:11,928
>> beauvais: Can I just say, you
are the most encouraging person
I've ever met in hollywood.

1333
00:37:11,930 --> 00:37:13,530
Are the most encouraging person
I've ever met in hollywood.
So many times, people don't want

1334
00:37:13,532 --> 00:37:15,065
I've ever met in hollywood.
So many times, people don't want
to give their all because they

1335
00:37:15,067 --> 00:37:15,632
so many times, people don't want
to give their all because they
want it.

1336
00:37:15,634 --> 00:37:18,168
To give their all because they
want it.
You helped so many of us.

1337
00:37:18,170 --> 00:37:20,770
Want it.
You helped so many of us.
You really need your props

1338
00:37:20,772 --> 00:37:21,738
you helped so many of us.
You really need your props
and I want to give them to you

1339
00:37:21,740 --> 00:37:23,607
you really need your props
and I want to give them to you
because you're an exceptional,

1340
00:37:23,609 --> 00:37:25,742
and I want to give them to you
because you're an exceptional,
exceptional talent.

1341
00:37:25,744 --> 00:37:27,077
Because you're an exceptional,
exceptional talent.
>> well, maybe the next chapter

1342
00:37:27,079 --> 00:37:28,478
exceptional talent.
>> well, maybe the next chapter
will have us producing

1343
00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:29,479
>> well, maybe the next chapter
will have us producing
something together.

1344
00:37:29,481 --> 00:37:30,180
Will have us producing
something together.
>> beauvais: Put it out there.

1345
00:37:30,182 --> 00:37:30,947
Something together.
>> beauvais: Put it out there.
You know I believe in the

1346
00:37:30,949 --> 00:37:32,082
>> beauvais: Put it out there.
You know I believe in the
universe, putting it out there.

1347
00:37:32,084 --> 00:37:32,882
You know I believe in the
universe, putting it out there.
>> or we can just become

1348
00:37:32,884 --> 00:37:35,118
universe, putting it out there.
>> or we can just become
the black kelly and ryan.

1349
00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:36,653
>> or we can just become
the black kelly and ryan.
>> beauvais: And ryan! [ gasps ]

1350
00:37:36,655 --> 00:37:38,154
the black kelly and ryan.
>> beauvais: And ryan! [ gasps ]
I would do that in a heartbeat.

1351
00:37:38,156 --> 00:37:38,555
>> beauvais: And ryan! [ gasps ]
I would do that in a heartbeat.
In a heartbeat.

1352
00:37:42,660 --> 00:37:50,500
>> beauvais: As a mom, your
number one job is protecting
your child at all costs.

1353
00:37:50,502 --> 00:37:51,935
Number one job is protecting
your child at all costs.
And oliver started going down

1354
00:37:51,937 --> 00:37:55,605
your child at all costs.
And oliver started going down
a path that wasn't good.

1355
00:37:55,607 --> 00:37:56,573
And oliver started going down
a path that wasn't good.
You know,

1356
00:37:56,575 --> 00:37:57,807
a path that wasn't good.
You know,
hanging out with the wrong kids,

1357
00:37:57,809 --> 00:37:59,576
you know,
hanging out with the wrong kids,
having problems at school.

1358
00:37:59,578 --> 00:38:00,977
Hanging out with the wrong kids,
having problems at school.
He was just struggling.

1359
00:38:00,979 --> 00:38:02,746
Having problems at school.
He was just struggling.
And we tried everything.

1360
00:38:02,748 --> 00:38:05,949
He was just struggling.
And we tried everything.
We did a lot of things.

1361
00:38:05,951 --> 00:38:07,651
And we tried everything.
We did a lot of things.
And they weren't working.

1362
00:38:07,653 --> 00:38:09,185
We did a lot of things.
And they weren't working.
I was scared a lot.

1363
00:38:09,187 --> 00:38:11,421
And they weren't working.
I was scared a lot.
I was scared to turn

1364
00:38:11,423 --> 00:38:13,556
I was scared a lot.
I was scared to turn
on the news.

1365
00:38:13,558 --> 00:38:15,258
I was scared to turn
on the news.
I was scared

1366
00:38:15,260 --> 00:38:18,395
on the news.
I was scared
every time the phone rang.

1367
00:38:18,397 --> 00:38:20,030
I was scared
every time the phone rang.
I was scared

1368
00:38:20,032 --> 00:38:22,565
every time the phone rang.
I was scared
when I didn't know where he was.

1369
00:38:22,567 --> 00:38:25,001
I was scared
when I didn't know where he was.
It was a dark time.

1370
00:38:25,003 --> 00:38:26,436
When I didn't know where he was.
It was a dark time.
It was a dark time.

1371
00:38:26,438 --> 00:38:28,171
It was a dark time.
It was a dark time.
And, you know, there were

1372
00:38:28,173 --> 00:38:29,806
it was a dark time.
And, you know, there were
times everybody was praying.

1373
00:38:29,808 --> 00:38:30,707
And, you know, there were
times everybody was praying.
My mom was praying,

1374
00:38:30,709 --> 00:38:31,941
times everybody was praying.
My mom was praying,
my sisters were praying,

1375
00:38:31,943 --> 00:38:33,576
my mom was praying,
my sisters were praying,
everybody was praying.

1376
00:38:33,578 --> 00:38:36,946
My sisters were praying,
everybody was praying.
And god heard our prayers.

1377
00:38:36,948 --> 00:38:38,581
Everybody was praying.
And god heard our prayers.
He really did.

1378
00:38:38,583 --> 00:38:40,016
And god heard our prayers.
He really did.
And, so, it was great

1379
00:38:40,018 --> 00:38:42,886
he really did.
And, so, it was great
to see him come through.

1380
00:38:42,888 --> 00:38:45,689
And, so, it was great
to see him come through.
♪

1381
00:38:45,691 --> 00:38:49,326
to see him come through.
♪
seeing oliver become a man,

1382
00:38:49,328 --> 00:38:52,195
♪
seeing oliver become a man,
seeing him become a father

1383
00:38:52,197 --> 00:38:54,331
seeing oliver become a man,
seeing him become a father
was something that I didn't

1384
00:38:54,333 --> 00:38:57,434
seeing him become a father
was something that I didn't
even have time to dream

1385
00:38:57,436 --> 00:38:58,935
was something that I didn't
even have time to dream
because I was so worried

1386
00:38:58,937 --> 00:39:01,438
even have time to dream
because I was so worried
about him for so long.

1387
00:39:01,440 --> 00:39:03,106
Because I was so worried
about him for so long.
And, so, seeing him be

1388
00:39:03,108 --> 00:39:05,275
about him for so long.
And, so, seeing him be
accountable and be present and

1389
00:39:05,277 --> 00:39:07,544
and, so, seeing him be
accountable and be present and
love this little boy,

1390
00:39:07,546 --> 00:39:10,647
accountable and be present and
love this little boy,
it saved him.

1391
00:39:10,649 --> 00:39:12,115
Love this little boy,
it saved him.
It saved him.

1392
00:39:12,117 --> 00:39:14,017
It saved him.
It saved him.
Hi. Guess who's back

1393
00:39:14,019 --> 00:39:14,884
it saved him.
Hi. Guess who's back
at "the real"?

1394
00:39:14,886 --> 00:39:16,353
Hi. Guess who's back
at "the real"?
I am so excited to be back.

1395
00:39:16,355 --> 00:39:18,054
At "the real"?
I am so excited to be back.
Okay, first of all, I have a

1396
00:39:18,056 --> 00:39:21,691
I am so excited to be back.
Okay, first of all, I have a
friend named john murray

1397
00:39:21,693 --> 00:39:23,460
okay, first of all, I have a
friend named john murray
who called me immediately

1398
00:39:23,462 --> 00:39:26,296
friend named john murray
who called me immediately
when he heard that tamera

1399
00:39:26,298 --> 00:39:28,064
who called me immediately
when he heard that tamera
was leaving the show and said,

1400
00:39:28,066 --> 00:39:29,099
when he heard that tamera
was leaving the show and said,
"are you going to throw your hat

1401
00:39:29,101 --> 00:39:29,799
was leaving the show and said,
"are you going to throw your hat
in the ring?"

1402
00:39:29,801 --> 00:39:30,800
"are you going to throw your hat
in the ring?"
and I was like,

1403
00:39:30,802 --> 00:39:32,535
in the ring?"
and I was like,
"I should do this."

1404
00:39:32,537 --> 00:39:34,070
and I was like,
"I should do this."
and, so, I called my agents

1405
00:39:34,072 --> 00:39:34,938
"I should do this."
and, so, I called my agents
and my managers,

1406
00:39:34,940 --> 00:39:36,072
and, so, I called my agents
and my managers,
and they were like, "you're

1407
00:39:36,074 --> 00:39:37,707
and my managers,
and they were like, "you're
already on their list of people

1408
00:39:37,709 --> 00:39:39,409
and they were like, "you're
already on their list of people
that they want to see,"

1409
00:39:39,411 --> 00:39:41,845
already on their list of people
that they want to see,"
which was great.

1410
00:39:41,847 --> 00:39:42,846
That they want to see,"
which was great.
And then, we had a chemistry

1411
00:39:42,848 --> 00:39:44,080
which was great.
And then, we had a chemistry
test, you know, and there were,

1412
00:39:44,082 --> 00:39:45,982
and then, we had a chemistry
test, you know, and there were,
I believe, maybe six other women

1413
00:39:45,984 --> 00:39:48,518
test, you know, and there were,
I believe, maybe six other women
that was vying for the chair.

1414
00:39:48,520 --> 00:39:49,819
I believe, maybe six other women
that was vying for the chair.
And I remember having

1415
00:39:49,821 --> 00:39:50,854
that was vying for the chair.
And I remember having
my chemistry test,

1416
00:39:50,856 --> 00:39:54,090
and I remember having
my chemistry test,
and it felt like we were

1417
00:39:54,092 --> 00:39:57,560
my chemistry test,
and it felt like we were
at a bar having cocktails

1418
00:39:57,562 --> 00:39:59,229
and it felt like we were
at a bar having cocktails
and talking.

1419
00:39:59,231 --> 00:40:00,797
At a bar having cocktails
and talking.
There was great chemistry.

1420
00:40:00,799 --> 00:40:02,732
And talking.
There was great chemistry.
There was great banter.

1421
00:40:02,734 --> 00:40:06,536
There was great chemistry.
There was great banter.
The girls were welcoming.

1422
00:40:06,538 --> 00:40:08,838
There was great banter.
The girls were welcoming.
I left it up to god.

1423
00:40:08,840 --> 00:40:10,273
The girls were welcoming.
I left it up to god.
And then, I found out, I think,

1424
00:40:10,275 --> 00:40:12,342
I left it up to god.
And then, I found out, I think,
the next day or two days later.

1425
00:40:12,344 --> 00:40:13,343
And then, I found out, I think,
the next day or two days later.
Two days later, that I got

1426
00:40:13,345 --> 00:40:16,045
the next day or two days later.
Two days later, that I got
the job, and I was screaming

1427
00:40:16,047 --> 00:40:18,882
two days later, that I got
the job, and I was screaming
and jumping, and the kids were

1428
00:40:18,884 --> 00:40:20,049
the job, and I was screaming
and jumping, and the kids were
like, "what happened?

1429
00:40:20,051 --> 00:40:20,950
And jumping, and the kids were
like, "what happened?
What happened?"

1430
00:40:20,952 --> 00:40:23,052
like, "what happened?
What happened?"
I was so happy.

1431
00:40:23,054 --> 00:40:25,321
What happened?"
I was so happy.
I was so happy and still am.

1432
00:40:25,323 --> 00:40:28,591
I was so happy.
I was so happy and still am.
♪

1433
00:40:28,593 --> 00:40:30,193
I was so happy and still am.
♪
when writing my memoir,

1434
00:40:30,195 --> 00:40:31,528
♪
when writing my memoir,
"love me as I am,"

1435
00:40:31,530 --> 00:40:34,063
when writing my memoir,
"love me as I am,"
I did a letter to myself,

1436
00:40:34,065 --> 00:40:37,400
"love me as I am,"
I did a letter to myself,
and when I got to the part of

1437
00:40:37,402 --> 00:40:39,636
I did a letter to myself,
and when I got to the part of
how my mom was brave enough,

1438
00:40:39,638 --> 00:40:42,071
and when I got to the part of
how my mom was brave enough,
as a single woman,

1439
00:40:42,073 --> 00:40:44,441
how my mom was brave enough,
as a single woman,
to come to the states,

1440
00:40:44,443 --> 00:40:47,243
as a single woman,
to come to the states,
bring her kids,

1441
00:40:47,245 --> 00:40:49,012
to come to the states,
bring her kids,
and letting her girl

1442
00:40:49,014 --> 00:40:51,514
bring her kids,
and letting her girl
go to a big city to live

1443
00:40:51,516 --> 00:40:52,949
and letting her girl
go to a big city to live
a dream that we didn't even know

1444
00:40:52,951 --> 00:40:56,920
go to a big city to live
a dream that we didn't even know
about this dream.

1445
00:40:56,922 --> 00:40:59,189
A dream that we didn't even know
about this dream.
And, so, I'm forever, forever,

1446
00:40:59,191 --> 00:41:02,725
about this dream.
And, so, I'm forever, forever,
forever, forever

1447
00:41:02,727 --> 00:41:06,696
and, so, I'm forever, forever,
forever, forever
indebted to my mom.

1448
00:41:06,698 --> 00:41:08,932
Forever, forever
indebted to my mom.
Because she saw it before I did.

1449
00:41:08,934 --> 00:41:13,069
Indebted to my mom.
Because she saw it before I did.
♪

1450
00:41:13,071 --> 00:41:14,771
because she saw it before I did.
♪
love what you want to do.

1451
00:41:14,773 --> 00:41:16,072
♪
love what you want to do.
Love it.

1452
00:41:16,074 --> 00:41:16,673
Love what you want to do.
Love it.
Rejection is going to come.

1453
00:41:18,442 --> 00:41:19,442
You're going to hear a lot more

1454
00:41:19,577 --> 00:41:20,577
no's than you're going to hear

1455
00:41:20,711 --> 00:41:21,744
yeses.

1456
00:41:21,879 --> 00:41:24,447
Show up. Know your craft.

1457
00:41:24,582 --> 00:41:25,849
Be professional.

1458
00:41:25,983 --> 00:41:29,319
Be kind, be nice.

1459
00:41:29,453 --> 00:41:30,787
That goes a long way.

1460
00:41:30,921 --> 00:41:32,255
So many times, the person you're

1461
00:41:32,389 --> 00:41:34,390
riding up in the elevator

1462
00:41:34,525 --> 00:41:36,359
with is the director

1463
00:41:36,494 --> 00:41:39,295
or the producer or someone.

1464
00:41:39,430 --> 00:41:40,263
And if you're not nice

1465
00:41:40,397 --> 00:41:41,631
to that person

1466
00:41:41,765 --> 00:41:44,434
and you walk in that room,

1467
00:41:44,568 --> 00:41:46,102
it's not going to help.

1468
00:41:46,237 --> 00:41:46,369
Be nice.

1469
00:41:54,545 --> 00:41:54,944
♪