1 00:00:00,333 --> 00:00:06,338 >> when you're famous, you know, people think that you're just famous, and everything is great. 2 00:00:06,340 --> 00:00:07,639 People think that you're just famous, and everything is great. But no. 3 00:00:07,641 --> 00:00:09,541 Famous, and everything is great. But no. We go through things. 4 00:00:09,543 --> 00:00:11,176 But no. We go through things. And they're real. 5 00:00:11,178 --> 00:00:12,511 We go through things. And they're real. And they're there. 6 00:00:12,513 --> 00:00:15,881 And they're real. And they're there. Like, we're human people. 7 00:00:15,883 --> 00:00:17,149 And they're there. Like, we're human people. Who cares that we're fa-- 8 00:00:17,151 --> 00:00:18,484 like, we're human people. Who cares that we're fa-- I don't -- 9 00:00:18,486 --> 00:00:21,320 who cares that we're fa-- I don't -- I hate fame, sometimes, 10 00:00:21,322 --> 00:00:23,222 I don't -- I hate fame, sometimes, because people get it twisted. 11 00:00:23,224 --> 00:00:24,656 I hate fame, sometimes, because people get it twisted. We're human. 12 00:00:24,658 --> 00:00:28,394 Because people get it twisted. We're human. I really want people to know... 13 00:00:28,396 --> 00:00:30,262 We're human. I really want people to know... The real me. 14 00:00:30,264 --> 00:00:33,999 I really want people to know... The real me. And the real me is... 15 00:00:34,001 --> 00:00:36,935 The real me. And the real me is... A human being, you know? 16 00:00:36,937 --> 00:00:39,338 And the real me is... A human being, you know? And I have grown so much 17 00:00:39,340 --> 00:00:40,706 a human being, you know? And I have grown so much over the years. 18 00:00:40,708 --> 00:00:41,440 And I have grown so much over the years. 'cause I used to be 19 00:00:41,442 --> 00:00:43,242 over the years. 'cause I used to be a little hothead, honey. 20 00:00:43,244 --> 00:00:44,343 'cause I used to be a little hothead, honey. Y'all know keke was 21 00:00:44,345 --> 00:00:45,711 a little hothead, honey. Y'all know keke was the crazy girl, baby. 22 00:00:45,713 --> 00:00:47,079 Y'all know keke was the crazy girl, baby. You jump in my face, child, 23 00:00:47,081 --> 00:00:49,281 the crazy girl, baby. You jump in my face, child, I'm gonna slap you down. 24 00:00:49,283 --> 00:00:51,050 You jump in my face, child, I'm gonna slap you down. But I'm not like that in life. 25 00:00:51,052 --> 00:00:54,353 I'm gonna slap you down. But I'm not like that in life. And you know, things in my life 26 00:00:54,355 --> 00:00:54,787 but I'm not like that in life. And you know, things in my life help you to grow. 27 00:00:55,789 --> 00:01:02,928 ♪ 28 00:01:03,063 --> 00:01:10,202 ♪ 29 00:01:10,336 --> 00:01:10,469 ♪ 30 00:01:25,618 --> 00:01:30,289 my mom is a beautiful, blond-haired, blue eyed white girl, 31 00:01:30,291 --> 00:01:32,357 blond-haired, blue eyed white girl, and my daddy is a beautiful, 32 00:01:32,359 --> 00:01:35,461 white girl, and my daddy is a beautiful, brown-skinned, chocolate 33 00:01:35,463 --> 00:01:39,431 and my daddy is a beautiful, brown-skinned, chocolate indian/african-american man 34 00:01:39,433 --> 00:01:42,968 brown-skinned, chocolate indian/african-american man who made some great people -- 35 00:01:42,970 --> 00:01:44,837 indian/african-american man who made some great people -- and not just physically, 36 00:01:44,839 --> 00:01:46,305 who made some great people -- and not just physically, but spiritually. 37 00:01:46,307 --> 00:01:49,942 And not just physically, but spiritually. Because, spiritually, my parents 38 00:01:49,944 --> 00:01:54,012 but spiritually. Because, spiritually, my parents are very driven by the lord. 39 00:01:54,014 --> 00:01:55,981 Because, spiritually, my parents are very driven by the lord. And so... 40 00:01:55,983 --> 00:01:57,816 Are very driven by the lord. And so... It's kind of all we knew 41 00:01:57,818 --> 00:01:58,617 and so... It's kind of all we knew growing up. 42 00:01:58,619 --> 00:02:00,853 It's kind of all we knew growing up. We went to school and church. 43 00:02:00,855 --> 00:02:01,920 Growing up. We went to school and church. But my parents 44 00:02:01,922 --> 00:02:05,057 we went to school and church. But my parents are so beautiful. 45 00:02:05,059 --> 00:02:05,791 But my parents are so beautiful. Unfortunately, 46 00:02:05,793 --> 00:02:07,259 are so beautiful. Unfortunately, they're not together anymore. 47 00:02:07,261 --> 00:02:09,428 Unfortunately, they're not together anymore. But they were together 48 00:02:09,430 --> 00:02:10,429 they're not together anymore. But they were together my whole life. 49 00:02:10,431 --> 00:02:11,363 But they were together my whole life. The biggest lesson 50 00:02:11,365 --> 00:02:13,565 my whole life. The biggest lesson that I learned from my parents, 51 00:02:13,567 --> 00:02:15,667 the biggest lesson that I learned from my parents, I'd have to say, is, 52 00:02:15,669 --> 00:02:18,203 that I learned from my parents, I'd have to say, is, when you love someone, 53 00:02:18,205 --> 00:02:19,571 I'd have to say, is, when you love someone, do everything you can 54 00:02:19,573 --> 00:02:21,907 when you love someone, do everything you can to stick it out, and stay. 55 00:02:21,909 --> 00:02:23,509 Do everything you can to stick it out, and stay. 'cause I can tell that 56 00:02:23,511 --> 00:02:25,744 to stick it out, and stay. 'cause I can tell that my parents love each other. 57 00:02:25,746 --> 00:02:26,612 'cause I can tell that my parents love each other. They still do. 58 00:02:26,614 --> 00:02:27,646 My parents love each other. They still do. They flirt, 59 00:02:27,648 --> 00:02:29,114 they still do. They flirt, and I'm like, "y'all are gross." 60 00:02:29,116 --> 00:02:31,383 they flirt, and I'm like, "y'all are gross." when you have the one, 61 00:02:31,385 --> 00:02:32,484 and I'm like, "y'all are gross." when you have the one, you have the one. 62 00:02:32,486 --> 00:02:33,585 When you have the one, you have the one. And they taught me that. 63 00:02:33,587 --> 00:02:34,786 You have the one. And they taught me that. Like, when you have the one, 64 00:02:34,788 --> 00:02:36,355 and they taught me that. Like, when you have the one, you got the one. 65 00:02:36,357 --> 00:02:37,923 Like, when you have the one, you got the one. And, you know, you do whatever 66 00:02:37,925 --> 00:02:39,358 you got the one. And, you know, you do whatever it is that you need to do 67 00:02:39,360 --> 00:02:40,425 and, you know, you do whatever it is that you need to do to stick and stay. 68 00:02:40,427 --> 00:02:42,261 It is that you need to do to stick and stay. I have four brothers. 69 00:02:42,263 --> 00:02:44,096 To stick and stay. I have four brothers. And... 70 00:02:44,098 --> 00:02:45,998 I have four brothers. And... If I could go down the line, 71 00:02:46,000 --> 00:02:48,767 and... If I could go down the line, it's cliff, keyver, 72 00:02:48,769 --> 00:02:50,736 if I could go down the line, it's cliff, keyver, kendall, and ducky. 73 00:02:50,738 --> 00:02:56,108 It's cliff, keyver, kendall, and ducky. And I love the entire hell 74 00:02:56,110 --> 00:02:58,143 kendall, and ducky. And I love the entire hell out of my brothers. 75 00:02:58,145 --> 00:03:00,245 And I love the entire hell out of my brothers. I will beat your ass 76 00:03:00,247 --> 00:03:02,481 out of my brothers. I will beat your ass to my brothers. 77 00:03:02,483 --> 00:03:04,116 I will beat your ass to my brothers. Like, boom. 78 00:03:04,118 --> 00:03:05,984 To my brothers. Like, boom. Don't mess with my brothers. 79 00:03:05,986 --> 00:03:07,486 Like, boom. Don't mess with my brothers. I used to protect them. 80 00:03:07,488 --> 00:03:08,787 Don't mess with my brothers. I used to protect them. Now, they protect me. 81 00:03:08,789 --> 00:03:10,489 I used to protect them. Now, they protect me. And it's beautiful. 82 00:03:10,491 --> 00:03:11,356 Now, they protect me. And it's beautiful. I love it. 83 00:03:11,358 --> 00:03:13,592 And it's beautiful. I love it. Like...I've never had 84 00:03:13,594 --> 00:03:15,527 I love it. Like...I've never had any sisters, biologically. 85 00:03:15,529 --> 00:03:16,662 Like...I've never had any sisters, biologically. And I wish that I had, 86 00:03:16,664 --> 00:03:18,864 any sisters, biologically. And I wish that I had, but I don't. 87 00:03:18,866 --> 00:03:22,401 And I wish that I had, but I don't. But having my brothers... 88 00:03:22,403 --> 00:03:23,569 But I don't. But having my brothers... Three of them are gay, 89 00:03:23,571 --> 00:03:25,504 but having my brothers... Three of them are gay, so we had barbies, 90 00:03:25,506 --> 00:03:26,772 three of them are gay, so we had barbies, barbies days. 91 00:03:26,774 --> 00:03:29,308 So we had barbies, barbies days. >> and we -- and we had fun. 92 00:03:29,310 --> 00:03:30,943 Barbies days. >> and we -- and we had fun. Hell, it was amazing. 93 00:03:30,945 --> 00:03:31,476 >> and we -- and we had fun. Hell, it was amazing. So, I really 94 00:03:31,478 --> 00:03:32,945 hell, it was amazing. So, I really didn't need a sister. 95 00:03:32,947 --> 00:03:33,912 So, I really didn't need a sister. It would have been nice 96 00:03:33,914 --> 00:03:34,846 didn't need a sister. It would have been nice to have a sister, 97 00:03:34,848 --> 00:03:37,182 it would have been nice to have a sister, but god didn't give me a sister. 98 00:03:37,184 --> 00:03:38,150 To have a sister, but god didn't give me a sister. He gave me brothers 99 00:03:38,152 --> 00:03:40,152 but god didn't give me a sister. He gave me brothers that liked dollies. 100 00:03:40,154 --> 00:03:41,620 He gave me brothers that liked dollies. I was the boy of the house. 101 00:03:41,622 --> 00:03:44,189 That liked dollies. I was the boy of the house. [ laughs ] 102 00:03:44,191 --> 00:03:46,792 I was the boy of the house. [ laughs ] I'm still the boy of the house. 103 00:03:46,794 --> 00:03:48,627 [ laughs ] I'm still the boy of the house. Oh, my god. 104 00:03:48,629 --> 00:03:50,229 I'm still the boy of the house. Oh, my god. My husband, we always joke 105 00:03:50,231 --> 00:03:51,129 oh, my god. My husband, we always joke with each other. 106 00:03:51,131 --> 00:03:53,732 My husband, we always joke with each other. And zachariah, he's like, 107 00:03:53,734 --> 00:03:55,000 with each other. And zachariah, he's like, "babe, you're you're the dad. 108 00:03:55,002 --> 00:03:56,268 And zachariah, he's like, "babe, you're you're the dad. And I think I'm the mom." 109 00:03:56,270 --> 00:03:58,203 "babe, you're you're the dad. And I think I'm the mom." I'm like, "yeah, it's okay. 110 00:03:58,205 --> 00:03:59,705 And I think I'm the mom." I'm like, "yeah, it's okay. I got it." 111 00:03:59,707 --> 00:04:01,673 I'm like, "yeah, it's okay. I got it." it just -- it works like that. 112 00:04:01,675 --> 00:04:03,875 I got it." it just -- it works like that. I don't know why, but it does. 113 00:04:03,877 --> 00:04:05,444 It just -- it works like that. I don't know why, but it does. It's amazing. 114 00:04:05,446 --> 00:04:07,813 I don't know why, but it does. It's amazing. One of my earliest memories 115 00:04:07,815 --> 00:04:11,083 it's amazing. One of my earliest memories were singing with my granny, 116 00:04:11,085 --> 00:04:12,384 one of my earliest memories were singing with my granny, my mom's mother. 117 00:04:12,386 --> 00:04:13,852 Were singing with my granny, my mom's mother. And we were singing 118 00:04:13,854 --> 00:04:14,886 my mom's mother. And we were singing "oh, when the saints 119 00:04:14,888 --> 00:04:16,421 and we were singing "oh, when the saints go marching in." 120 00:04:16,423 --> 00:04:18,090 "oh, when the saints go marching in." one of my earliest childhood 121 00:04:18,092 --> 00:04:21,059 go marching in." one of my earliest childhood memories is at church 122 00:04:21,061 --> 00:04:23,061 one of my earliest childhood memories is at church with my family 123 00:04:23,063 --> 00:04:24,930 memories is at church with my family and my church family. 124 00:04:24,932 --> 00:04:26,398 With my family and my church family. And... 125 00:04:26,400 --> 00:04:27,966 And my church family. And... I was 5. 126 00:04:27,968 --> 00:04:31,036 And... I was 5. And I remember thinking, 127 00:04:31,038 --> 00:04:32,971 I was 5. And I remember thinking, "lord, I just want to be saved, 128 00:04:32,973 --> 00:04:34,273 and I remember thinking, "lord, I just want to be saved, and I just want to sing, 129 00:04:34,275 --> 00:04:36,541 "lord, I just want to be saved, and I just want to sing, and sing for you." 130 00:04:36,543 --> 00:04:39,077 and I just want to sing, and sing for you." and... 131 00:04:39,079 --> 00:04:40,445 And sing for you." and... It happened. 132 00:04:40,447 --> 00:04:43,248 And... It happened. Hello. 133 00:04:43,250 --> 00:04:46,118 It happened. Hello. I'm saved. 134 00:04:46,120 --> 00:04:47,219 Hello. I'm saved. I remember that was, like, 135 00:04:47,221 --> 00:04:49,321 I'm saved. I remember that was, like, my first, like, time performing, 136 00:04:49,323 --> 00:04:49,921 I remember that was, like, my first, like, time performing, or whatever, 137 00:04:49,923 --> 00:04:52,224 my first, like, time performing, or whatever, singing in front of people. 138 00:04:52,226 --> 00:04:55,594 Or whatever, singing in front of people. And I was at church. 139 00:04:55,596 --> 00:04:58,263 Singing in front of people. And I was at church. And I was not scared at all. 140 00:04:58,265 --> 00:04:59,865 And I was at church. And I was not scared at all. I was so excited. 141 00:04:59,867 --> 00:05:00,999 And I was not scared at all. I was so excited. And my first song 142 00:05:01,001 --> 00:05:03,201 I was so excited. And my first song was called "beautiful." 143 00:05:03,203 --> 00:05:05,537 and my first song was called "beautiful." and my daddy taught it to me. 144 00:05:05,539 --> 00:05:07,739 Was called "beautiful." and my daddy taught it to me. I remember thinking to myself, 145 00:05:07,741 --> 00:05:10,709 and my daddy taught it to me. I remember thinking to myself, like, "ooh, I get to sing. 146 00:05:10,711 --> 00:05:11,843 I remember thinking to myself, like, "ooh, I get to sing. And I'm not scared. 147 00:05:11,845 --> 00:05:12,477 Like, "ooh, I get to sing. And I'm not scared. And I'm happy. 148 00:05:12,479 --> 00:05:14,579 And I'm not scared. And I'm happy. I'm excited." 149 00:05:14,581 --> 00:05:17,683 and I'm happy. I'm excited." and I sang that song, 150 00:05:17,685 --> 00:05:19,017 I'm excited." and I sang that song, and the whole church 151 00:05:19,019 --> 00:05:20,686 and I sang that song, and the whole church went in an uproar. 152 00:05:20,688 --> 00:05:22,287 And the whole church went in an uproar. They were like, 153 00:05:22,289 --> 00:05:23,121 went in an uproar. They were like, "this little girl 154 00:05:23,123 --> 00:05:24,990 they were like, "this little girl is singing like that?" 155 00:05:24,992 --> 00:05:26,325 "this little girl is singing like that?" and I was thinking, 156 00:05:26,327 --> 00:05:27,826 is singing like that?" and I was thinking, "I didn't even do nothing. 157 00:05:27,828 --> 00:05:29,861 And I was thinking, "I didn't even do nothing. What are you talking about?" 158 00:05:29,863 --> 00:05:32,264 "I didn't even do nothing. What are you talking about?" but now that I'm an adult, 159 00:05:32,266 --> 00:05:34,099 what are you talking about?" but now that I'm an adult, and I hear children sing 160 00:05:34,101 --> 00:05:35,867 but now that I'm an adult, and I hear children sing like grown-ups, 161 00:05:35,869 --> 00:05:38,603 and I hear children sing like grown-ups, and I'm like, "what?" 162 00:05:38,605 --> 00:05:40,505 like grown-ups, and I'm like, "what?" doing that as a little girl, 163 00:05:40,507 --> 00:05:41,873 and I'm like, "what?" doing that as a little girl, and... 164 00:05:41,875 --> 00:05:42,941 Doing that as a little girl, and... It was regular. 165 00:05:42,943 --> 00:05:44,176 And... It was regular. It was normal to me. 166 00:05:44,178 --> 00:05:45,510 It was regular. It was normal to me. But to everybody else, like, 167 00:05:45,512 --> 00:05:46,678 it was normal to me. But to everybody else, like, in the church, they're like, 168 00:05:46,680 --> 00:05:49,114 but to everybody else, like, in the church, they're like, "oh, jesus, thank you, lord." 169 00:05:49,116 --> 00:05:50,148 in the church, they're like, "oh, jesus, thank you, lord." and you know -- "oh!" -- 170 00:05:50,150 --> 00:05:51,083 "oh, jesus, thank you, lord." and you know -- "oh!" -- you know? 171 00:05:51,085 --> 00:05:52,384 And you know -- "oh!" -- you know? And I'm just sitting there like, 172 00:05:52,386 --> 00:05:54,186 you know? And I'm just sitting there like, "I didn't do nothing." 173 00:05:54,188 --> 00:05:57,923 and I'm just sitting there like, "I didn't do nothing." when I was 10, I did... 174 00:05:57,925 --> 00:06:00,125 "I didn't do nothing." when I was 10, I did... Record for the first time. 175 00:06:00,127 --> 00:06:03,395 When I was 10, I did... Record for the first time. And his name's r.H. Duncan. 176 00:06:03,397 --> 00:06:06,098 Record for the first time. And his name's r.H. Duncan. He knew emanuel officer. 177 00:06:06,100 --> 00:06:07,666 And his name's r.H. Duncan. He knew emanuel officer. And they're great writers, 178 00:06:07,668 --> 00:06:08,300 he knew emanuel officer. And they're great writers, and stuff. 179 00:06:08,302 --> 00:06:10,202 And they're great writers, and stuff. And I remember I recorded 180 00:06:10,204 --> 00:06:13,038 and stuff. And I remember I recorded my first song, 181 00:06:13,040 --> 00:06:15,207 and I remember I recorded my first song, and it was called "what if?" 182 00:06:15,209 --> 00:06:18,210 my first song, and it was called "what if?" and the feeling that I felt 183 00:06:18,212 --> 00:06:21,713 and it was called "what if?" and the feeling that I felt while I was recording was like, 184 00:06:21,715 --> 00:06:23,415 and the feeling that I felt while I was recording was like, "ooh! 185 00:06:23,417 --> 00:06:26,485 While I was recording was like, "ooh! I can do this like this, 186 00:06:26,487 --> 00:06:28,854 "ooh! I can do this like this, and I could do this like that." 187 00:06:28,856 --> 00:06:31,523 I can do this like this, and I could do this like that." and "ooh, I can redo it. 188 00:06:31,525 --> 00:06:32,324 And I could do this like that." and "ooh, I can redo it. I didn't like that, 189 00:06:32,326 --> 00:06:34,359 and "ooh, I can redo it. I didn't like that, but I can redo that." 190 00:06:34,361 --> 00:06:36,094 I didn't like that, but I can redo that." it was amazing. 191 00:06:36,096 --> 00:06:39,264 But I can redo that." it was amazing. I hated...Elementary school. 192 00:06:39,266 --> 00:06:41,032 It was amazing. I hated...Elementary school. When I was in elementary school, 193 00:06:41,034 --> 00:06:43,034 I hated...Elementary school. When I was in elementary school, it was, like, the worst time 194 00:06:43,036 --> 00:06:45,303 when I was in elementary school, it was, like, the worst time of my life because I was 195 00:06:45,305 --> 00:06:47,539 it was, like, the worst time of my life because I was a little biracial girl, 196 00:06:47,541 --> 00:06:49,875 of my life because I was a little biracial girl, and people were so mean. 197 00:06:49,877 --> 00:06:51,576 A little biracial girl, and people were so mean. Like, I wasn't black enough 198 00:06:51,578 --> 00:06:52,844 and people were so mean. Like, I wasn't black enough for the black girls. 199 00:06:52,846 --> 00:06:53,912 Like, I wasn't black enough for the black girls. I wasn't white enough 200 00:06:53,914 --> 00:06:56,214 for the black girls. I wasn't white enough for the white girls. 201 00:06:56,216 --> 00:06:59,317 I wasn't white enough for the white girls. And I just -- I felt so out 202 00:06:59,319 --> 00:07:02,120 for the white girls. And I just -- I felt so out of place, and it was so weird. 203 00:07:02,122 --> 00:07:03,555 And I just -- I felt so out of place, and it was so weird. And I used to ask my parents, 204 00:07:03,557 --> 00:07:04,389 of place, and it was so weird. And I used to ask my parents, like, "why? 205 00:07:04,391 --> 00:07:06,792 And I used to ask my parents, like, "why? Why did you do this to me?" 206 00:07:06,794 --> 00:07:08,760 like, "why? Why did you do this to me?" and they're like, "do what?" 207 00:07:08,762 --> 00:07:09,461 why did you do this to me?" and they're like, "do what?" and I'm like, 208 00:07:09,463 --> 00:07:10,662 and they're like, "do what?" and I'm like, "why would you make me 209 00:07:10,664 --> 00:07:11,096 and I'm like, "why would you make me this way?" 210 00:07:11,098 --> 00:07:12,063 "why would you make me this way?" and they're like, 211 00:07:12,065 --> 00:07:13,498 this way?" and they're like, "what are you talking about?" 212 00:07:13,500 --> 00:07:14,499 and they're like, "what are you talking about?" and then, I'm like, 213 00:07:14,501 --> 00:07:15,434 "what are you talking about?" and then, I'm like, I'm -- I'm not -- 214 00:07:15,436 --> 00:07:17,502 and then, I'm like, I'm -- I'm not -- I don't know what I am." 215 00:07:17,504 --> 00:07:18,703 I'm -- I'm not -- I don't know what I am." I didn't know. 216 00:07:18,705 --> 00:07:20,439 I don't know what I am." I didn't know. I didn't know for a long time. 217 00:07:20,441 --> 00:07:21,807 I didn't know. I didn't know for a long time. I'm just ke'tara shavon, 218 00:07:21,809 --> 00:07:23,308 I didn't know for a long time. I'm just ke'tara shavon, and that's just who I am. 219 00:07:23,310 --> 00:07:24,342 I'm just ke'tara shavon, and that's just who I am. And I've learned to just 220 00:07:24,344 --> 00:07:26,077 and that's just who I am. And I've learned to just love myself. 221 00:07:26,079 --> 00:07:28,113 And I've learned to just love myself. And it's not about 222 00:07:28,115 --> 00:07:29,648 love myself. And it's not about what other people think of me. 223 00:07:29,650 --> 00:07:30,749 And it's not about what other people think of me. It's about what god 224 00:07:30,751 --> 00:07:31,883 what other people think of me. It's about what god thinks of me, 225 00:07:31,885 --> 00:07:33,552 it's about what god thinks of me, and it's about what my family 226 00:07:33,554 --> 00:07:36,655 thinks of me, and it's about what my family think, and how they love me. 227 00:07:36,657 --> 00:07:38,023 And it's about what my family think, and how they love me. And if you don't love me 228 00:07:38,025 --> 00:07:38,957 think, and how they love me. And if you don't love me for who I am, 229 00:07:38,959 --> 00:07:40,425 and if you don't love me for who I am, then, just, could you please 230 00:07:40,427 --> 00:07:42,461 for who I am, then, just, could you please just get out of my way? 231 00:07:42,463 --> 00:07:43,395 Then, just, could you please just get out of my way? You know? 232 00:07:43,397 --> 00:07:44,529 Just get out of my way? You know? Just move, 233 00:07:44,531 --> 00:07:46,064 you know? Just move, so I can enjoy my day. 234 00:07:46,066 --> 00:07:47,165 Just move, so I can enjoy my day. If you're out of my way, 235 00:07:47,167 --> 00:07:48,867 so I can enjoy my day. If you're out of my way, I can enjoy my day. 236 00:07:48,869 --> 00:07:50,602 If you're out of my way, I can enjoy my day. So, you know, 237 00:07:50,604 --> 00:07:52,604 I can enjoy my day. So, you know, that is kind of all 238 00:07:52,606 --> 00:07:53,839 so, you know, that is kind of all I can really remember 239 00:07:53,841 --> 00:07:57,342 that is kind of all I can really remember about elementary school. 240 00:07:57,344 --> 00:07:58,543 I can really remember about elementary school. And, you know, 241 00:07:58,545 --> 00:08:00,912 about elementary school. And, you know, it was pretty -- it was rough. 242 00:08:00,914 --> 00:08:01,847 And, you know, it was pretty -- it was rough. It was tough. 243 00:08:01,849 --> 00:08:03,048 It was pretty -- it was rough. It was tough. I ain't gonna lie. 244 00:08:03,050 --> 00:08:04,783 It was tough. I ain't gonna lie. It was -- it was bad. 245 00:08:04,785 --> 00:08:06,852 I ain't gonna lie. It was -- it was bad. And I was in indiana, 246 00:08:06,854 --> 00:08:08,920 it was -- it was bad. And I was in indiana, and it was, like, in the '80's, 247 00:08:08,922 --> 00:08:10,489 and I was in indiana, and it was, like, in the '80's, in the '90's. 248 00:08:10,491 --> 00:08:13,258 And it was, like, in the '80's, in the '90's. It was kind of tough. 249 00:08:13,260 --> 00:08:14,359 In the '90's. It was kind of tough. I don't want to talk about it. 250 00:08:14,361 --> 00:08:18,196 It was kind of tough. I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to cry. 251 00:08:18,198 --> 00:08:19,464 I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to cry. When I was in high school, 252 00:08:19,466 --> 00:08:22,667 I don't want to cry. When I was in high school, about 15 years old, um, 253 00:08:22,669 --> 00:08:24,302 when I was in high school, about 15 years old, um, I recorded my first love 254 00:08:24,304 --> 00:08:25,370 about 15 years old, um, I recorded my first love with avant. 255 00:08:25,372 --> 00:08:27,439 I recorded my first love with avant. First of all, 256 00:08:27,441 --> 00:08:29,007 with avant. First of all, I was a little girl. 257 00:08:29,009 --> 00:08:30,609 First of all, I was a little girl. I'd never heard the song before 258 00:08:30,611 --> 00:08:31,843 I was a little girl. I'd never heard the song before in my life. 259 00:08:31,845 --> 00:08:34,646 I'd never heard the song before in my life. I was a church girl -- 260 00:08:34,648 --> 00:08:36,348 in my life. I was a church girl -- am a church girl, still. 261 00:08:36,350 --> 00:08:38,350 I was a church girl -- am a church girl, still. But all I knew was church songs. 262 00:08:38,352 --> 00:08:40,986 Am a church girl, still. But all I knew was church songs. Jesus all the way, honey. 263 00:08:40,988 --> 00:08:43,188 But all I knew was church songs. Jesus all the way, honey. And so, he was like, 264 00:08:43,190 --> 00:08:47,158 jesus all the way, honey. And so, he was like, "hey, kee, you know... 265 00:08:47,160 --> 00:08:48,293 And so, he was like, "hey, kee, you know... I got this song. 266 00:08:48,295 --> 00:08:49,861 "hey, kee, you know... I got this song. I want you to get on it." 267 00:08:49,863 --> 00:08:51,162 I got this song. I want you to get on it." I'll was like "okay. 268 00:08:51,164 --> 00:08:51,963 I want you to get on it." I'll was like "okay. Let me hear it. 269 00:08:51,965 --> 00:08:53,665 I'll was like "okay. Let me hear it. And so, I listened to it, 270 00:08:53,667 --> 00:08:56,101 let me hear it. And so, I listened to it, and was like, "oh. 271 00:08:56,103 --> 00:08:57,669 And so, I listened to it, and was like, "oh. Yeah, that's -- that's cute. 272 00:08:57,671 --> 00:08:59,037 And was like, "oh. Yeah, that's -- that's cute. That's -- that's groovy. 273 00:08:59,039 --> 00:08:59,771 Yeah, that's -- that's cute. That's -- that's groovy. I dig it. 274 00:08:59,773 --> 00:09:00,739 That's -- that's groovy. I dig it. It's dope. 275 00:09:00,741 --> 00:09:01,673 I dig it. It's dope. Okay." 276 00:09:01,675 --> 00:09:02,641 it's dope. Okay." he said, "I want you 277 00:09:02,643 --> 00:09:05,343 okay." he said, "I want you to record it with me." 278 00:09:05,345 --> 00:09:09,180 he said, "I want you to record it with me." and I was like, "ugh." 279 00:09:09,182 --> 00:09:09,981 to record it with me." and I was like, "ugh." and he was like, "what?" 280 00:09:09,983 --> 00:09:10,515 and I was like, "ugh." and he was like, "what?" I was like, 281 00:09:10,517 --> 00:09:11,550 and he was like, "what?" I was like, "it's like old people." 282 00:09:11,552 --> 00:09:12,484 I was like, "it's like old people." he was like, "when you put 283 00:09:12,486 --> 00:09:14,052 "it's like old people." he was like, "when you put your voice on there, 284 00:09:14,054 --> 00:09:15,353 he was like, "when you put your voice on there, I promise you will sing 285 00:09:15,355 --> 00:09:16,922 your voice on there, I promise you will sing this forever." 286 00:09:16,924 --> 00:09:19,457 I promise you will sing this forever." and I was like, "okay." 287 00:09:19,459 --> 00:09:20,325 this forever." and I was like, "okay." so, I did it. 288 00:09:20,327 --> 00:09:21,159 And I was like, "okay." so, I did it. Oh, my god. 289 00:09:21,161 --> 00:09:23,128 So, I did it. Oh, my god. And I'm doing it forever. 290 00:09:23,130 --> 00:09:25,063 Oh, my god. And I'm doing it forever. I'm doing it forever. 291 00:09:25,065 --> 00:09:27,699 And I'm doing it forever. I'm doing it forever. I've been doing it forever. 292 00:09:27,701 --> 00:09:32,704 I'm doing it forever. I've been doing it forever. Like, if I can explain, 293 00:09:32,706 --> 00:09:34,239 I've been doing it forever. Like, if I can explain, from my heart, 294 00:09:34,241 --> 00:09:35,640 like, if I can explain, from my heart, the feeling that I felt 295 00:09:35,642 --> 00:09:37,342 from my heart, the feeling that I felt when I was in the car, 296 00:09:37,344 --> 00:09:39,077 the feeling that I felt when I was in the car, and I was -- I think I was 18 297 00:09:39,079 --> 00:09:40,645 when I was in the car, and I was -- I think I was 18 at the time -- 298 00:09:40,647 --> 00:09:41,846 and I was -- I think I was 18 at the time -- and... 299 00:09:41,848 --> 00:09:44,182 At the time -- and... I heard me on the radio. 300 00:09:44,184 --> 00:09:46,084 And... I heard me on the radio. I was like... 301 00:09:46,086 --> 00:09:48,086 I heard me on the radio. I was like... "who -- is that? 302 00:09:48,088 --> 00:09:50,922 I was like... "who -- is that? Is that me?" 303 00:09:50,924 --> 00:09:52,290 "who -- is that? Is that me?" I was like, "that's me. 304 00:09:52,292 --> 00:09:52,958 Is that me?" I was like, "that's me. Oh, my god. 305 00:09:52,960 --> 00:09:54,292 I was like, "that's me. Oh, my god. I'm on the radio. 306 00:09:54,294 --> 00:09:55,694 Oh, my god. I'm on the radio. I'm on the radio. 307 00:09:55,696 --> 00:09:56,962 I'm on the radio. I'm on the radio. What?" 308 00:09:56,964 --> 00:09:58,430 I'm on the radio. What?" I never wanted to be famous. 309 00:09:58,432 --> 00:09:59,364 What?" I never wanted to be famous. I never wanted to be 310 00:09:59,366 --> 00:10:00,932 I never wanted to be famous. I never wanted to be on the radio for real. 311 00:10:00,934 --> 00:10:02,801 I never wanted to be on the radio for real. I wanted to just sing. 312 00:10:02,803 --> 00:10:04,002 On the radio for real. I wanted to just sing. Now, if I was famous 313 00:10:04,004 --> 00:10:05,337 I wanted to just sing. Now, if I was famous for acting, that's different. 314 00:10:05,339 --> 00:10:07,872 Now, if I was famous for acting, that's different. But singing, I didn't want 315 00:10:07,874 --> 00:10:09,507 for acting, that's different. But singing, I didn't want to be famous for singing. 316 00:10:09,509 --> 00:10:10,609 But singing, I didn't want to be famous for singing. But I am. 317 00:10:10,611 --> 00:10:11,443 To be famous for singing. But I am. He was like, 318 00:10:11,445 --> 00:10:12,978 but I am. He was like, "oh, my god. 319 00:10:12,980 --> 00:10:15,180 He was like, "oh, my god. Girl, you just have no idea." 320 00:10:15,182 --> 00:10:17,082 "oh, my god. Girl, you just have no idea." and I was like, "about what?" 321 00:10:17,084 --> 00:10:18,883 girl, you just have no idea." and I was like, "about what?" he said, 322 00:10:18,885 --> 00:10:21,653 and I was like, "about what?" he said, "honey, this song is gonna go." 323 00:10:21,655 --> 00:10:26,024 he said, "honey, this song is gonna go." I was like, "okay." 324 00:10:26,026 --> 00:10:27,993 "honey, this song is gonna go." I was like, "okay." so, I look up, 325 00:10:27,995 --> 00:10:33,465 I was like, "okay." so, I look up, and it's been 21 years. 326 00:10:33,467 --> 00:10:36,768 So, I look up, and it's been 21 years. And I'm still 28. 327 00:10:36,770 --> 00:10:39,070 And it's been 21 years. And I'm still 28. That part -- period. 328 00:10:39,072 --> 00:10:41,640 And I'm still 28. That part -- period. [ laughs ] 329 00:10:41,642 --> 00:10:42,774 that part -- period. [ laughs ] yes, I did it 330 00:10:42,776 --> 00:10:45,377 [ laughs ] yes, I did it when I was first born, y'all. 331 00:10:45,379 --> 00:10:46,945 Yes, I did it when I was first born, y'all. And it's still ringing. 332 00:10:46,947 --> 00:10:49,347 When I was first born, y'all. And it's still ringing. And I'm still singing 333 00:10:49,349 --> 00:10:51,349 and it's still ringing. And I'm still singing that same song. 334 00:10:51,351 --> 00:10:53,251 And I'm still singing that same song. Golly. 335 00:10:53,253 --> 00:10:54,252 That same song. Golly. Where did time g-- 336 00:10:54,254 --> 00:10:55,120 golly. Where did time g-- I hate time. 337 00:10:55,122 --> 00:10:57,889 Where did time g-- I hate time. Time sucks. 338 00:10:57,891 --> 00:10:58,390 I hate time. Time sucks. It flies by too fast. 339 00:10:59,959 --> 00:11:03,962 ♪ >> some of my musical 340 00:11:03,964 --> 00:11:07,332 >> some of my musical inspirations, I have to say, is whitney houston. 341 00:11:07,334 --> 00:11:10,035 Inspirations, I have to say, is whitney houston. She's a beautiful soul. 342 00:11:10,037 --> 00:11:12,671 Is whitney houston. She's a beautiful soul. I love mariah carey. 343 00:11:12,673 --> 00:11:14,639 She's a beautiful soul. I love mariah carey. And... 344 00:11:14,641 --> 00:11:19,377 I love mariah carey. And... My favorite is shania twain. 345 00:11:19,379 --> 00:11:21,279 And... My favorite is shania twain. And my gospel favorite 346 00:11:21,281 --> 00:11:22,714 my favorite is shania twain. And my gospel favorite is dorinda clark. 347 00:11:22,716 --> 00:11:24,416 And my gospel favorite is dorinda clark. Like, you cannot come 348 00:11:24,418 --> 00:11:26,151 is dorinda clark. Like, you cannot come for dorinda. 349 00:11:26,153 --> 00:11:27,986 Like, you cannot come for dorinda. If you come for dorinda, 350 00:11:27,988 --> 00:11:30,522 for dorinda. If you come for dorinda, I will come for you. 351 00:11:30,524 --> 00:11:33,992 If you come for dorinda, I will come for you. I think, like, my musical me is, 352 00:11:33,994 --> 00:11:34,859 I will come for you. I think, like, my musical me is, like, in love with 353 00:11:34,861 --> 00:11:37,195 I think, like, my musical me is, like, in love with her musical her. 354 00:11:37,197 --> 00:11:38,396 Like, in love with her musical her. And it's like, 355 00:11:38,398 --> 00:11:41,700 her musical her. And it's like, nobody can do better than her. 356 00:11:41,702 --> 00:11:44,169 And it's like, nobody can do better than her. She ministers to my soul. 357 00:11:44,171 --> 00:11:45,270 Nobody can do better than her. She ministers to my soul. And when she ministers 358 00:11:45,272 --> 00:11:45,970 she ministers to my soul. And when she ministers to my soul, 359 00:11:45,972 --> 00:11:47,238 and when she ministers to my soul, I just want to sing. 360 00:11:47,240 --> 00:11:50,675 To my soul, I just want to sing. And I just want to just... 361 00:11:50,677 --> 00:11:52,811 I just want to sing. And I just want to just... Open my whole flower. 362 00:11:52,813 --> 00:11:55,714 And I just want to just... Open my whole flower. Like, is -- I love her. 363 00:11:55,716 --> 00:11:56,548 Open my whole flower. Like, is -- I love her. Yeah. 364 00:11:56,550 --> 00:11:56,748 Like, is -- I love her. Yeah. Yep. 365 00:11:59,018 --> 00:11:59,150 ♪ 366 00:12:01,620 --> 00:12:08,693 >> steve hough is a clown, a goofball, um, an amazing bass player, 367 00:12:08,695 --> 00:12:10,895 a goofball, um, an amazing bass player, amazing producer. 368 00:12:10,897 --> 00:12:12,831 An amazing bass player, amazing producer. I have so much respect for him 369 00:12:12,833 --> 00:12:14,666 amazing producer. I have so much respect for him because... 370 00:12:14,668 --> 00:12:17,035 I have so much respect for him because... He...Just... 371 00:12:17,037 --> 00:12:18,636 Because... He...Just... Does the dang thing. 372 00:12:18,638 --> 00:12:19,771 He...Just... Does the dang thing. Does that make sense? 373 00:12:19,773 --> 00:12:22,841 Does the dang thing. Does that make sense? Like, he just... 374 00:12:22,843 --> 00:12:23,875 Does that make sense? Like, he just... Does it. 375 00:12:23,877 --> 00:12:24,676 Like, he just... Does it. If there's anything 376 00:12:24,678 --> 00:12:26,478 does it. If there's anything he wants to do, he just does it. 377 00:12:26,480 --> 00:12:28,580 If there's anything he wants to do, he just does it. My whole first album, 378 00:12:28,582 --> 00:12:29,881 he wants to do, he just does it. My whole first album, "soul sister," 379 00:12:29,883 --> 00:12:31,349 my whole first album, "soul sister," he did that whole album. 380 00:12:31,351 --> 00:12:33,985 "soul sister," he did that whole album. And that album is still feeding 381 00:12:33,987 --> 00:12:36,921 he did that whole album. And that album is still feeding me and my family to this day. 382 00:12:36,923 --> 00:12:38,356 And that album is still feeding me and my family to this day. This is 2022. 383 00:12:38,358 --> 00:12:41,392 Me and my family to this day. This is 2022. That album came out in 2001. 384 00:12:41,394 --> 00:12:44,229 This is 2022. That album came out in 2001. We're still eating from that. 385 00:12:44,231 --> 00:12:46,331 That album came out in 2001. We're still eating from that. Like, the guy is amazing. 386 00:12:46,333 --> 00:12:47,465 We're still eating from that. Like, the guy is amazing. So, when I first put out 387 00:12:47,467 --> 00:12:49,667 like, the guy is amazing. So, when I first put out my album in 2001, 388 00:12:49,669 --> 00:12:52,370 so, when I first put out my album in 2001, "soul sister," of course, 389 00:12:52,372 --> 00:12:54,005 my album in 2001, "soul sister," of course, steve hough was a part of it. 390 00:12:54,007 --> 00:12:54,773 "soul sister," of course, steve hough was a part of it. But a lot of people 391 00:12:54,775 --> 00:12:55,673 steve hough was a part of it. But a lot of people don't realize that 392 00:12:55,675 --> 00:12:56,875 but a lot of people don't realize that randy jackson was, like, 393 00:12:56,877 --> 00:12:58,376 don't realize that randy jackson was, like, the a&r. 394 00:12:58,378 --> 00:13:01,579 Randy jackson was, like, the a&r. And now, randy jackson is, like, 395 00:13:01,581 --> 00:13:02,714 the a&r. And now, randy jackson is, like, randy jackson. 396 00:13:02,716 --> 00:13:03,782 And now, randy jackson is, like, randy jackson. But people don't realize -- 397 00:13:03,784 --> 00:13:06,951 randy jackson. But people don't realize -- I've known randy forever, 398 00:13:06,953 --> 00:13:08,419 but people don't realize -- I've known randy forever, so, when we click up, 399 00:13:08,421 --> 00:13:11,089 I've known randy forever, so, when we click up, it's like, we clown out. 400 00:13:11,091 --> 00:13:12,023 So, when we click up, it's like, we clown out. But to everybody else, 401 00:13:12,025 --> 00:13:12,690 it's like, we clown out. But to everybody else, we're like, 402 00:13:12,692 --> 00:13:15,093 but to everybody else, we're like, "that's randy jackson." 403 00:13:15,095 --> 00:13:17,495 we're like, "that's randy jackson." and I'm like, "it's just randy." 404 00:13:17,497 --> 00:13:18,463 "that's randy jackson." and I'm like, "it's just randy." you know? 405 00:13:18,465 --> 00:13:19,964 And I'm like, "it's just randy." you know? To me, he's randy. 406 00:13:19,966 --> 00:13:22,267 You know? To me, he's randy. He's a cool, sweet, 407 00:13:22,269 --> 00:13:25,203 to me, he's randy. He's a cool, sweet, precious, precious soul. 408 00:13:25,205 --> 00:13:27,605 He's a cool, sweet, precious, precious soul. Like, you can't mistake that guy 409 00:13:27,607 --> 00:13:29,107 precious, precious soul. Like, you can't mistake that guy for anything else besides 410 00:13:29,109 --> 00:13:30,241 like, you can't mistake that guy for anything else besides being precious. 411 00:13:30,243 --> 00:13:32,310 For anything else besides being precious. He's wonderful. 412 00:13:32,312 --> 00:13:34,579 Being precious. He's wonderful. And I'm just so happy 413 00:13:34,581 --> 00:13:36,214 he's wonderful. And I'm just so happy that, um, he was a part 414 00:13:36,216 --> 00:13:37,515 and I'm just so happy that, um, he was a part of my career, as well. 415 00:13:37,517 --> 00:13:38,716 That, um, he was a part of my career, as well. Like, he helped 416 00:13:38,718 --> 00:13:40,885 of my career, as well. Like, he helped get me started, too. 417 00:13:40,887 --> 00:13:42,821 Like, he helped get me started, too. Like, it's so crazy. 418 00:13:42,823 --> 00:13:43,955 Get me started, too. Like, it's so crazy. And steve corbin. 419 00:13:43,957 --> 00:13:44,756 Like, it's so crazy. And steve corbin. Like, there's -- 420 00:13:44,758 --> 00:13:45,890 and steve corbin. Like, there's -- there's so many people 421 00:13:45,892 --> 00:13:47,892 like, there's -- there's so many people that I could just name. 422 00:13:47,894 --> 00:13:49,661 There's so many people that I could just name. I'm grateful for all these 423 00:13:49,663 --> 00:13:52,330 that I could just name. I'm grateful for all these people because... 424 00:13:52,332 --> 00:13:53,965 I'm grateful for all these people because... They get overlooked, 425 00:13:53,967 --> 00:13:55,633 people because... They get overlooked, and it's not fair. 426 00:13:55,635 --> 00:13:56,835 They get overlooked, and it's not fair. So, if you could pull 427 00:13:56,837 --> 00:13:59,470 and it's not fair. So, if you could pull all the people together 428 00:13:59,472 --> 00:14:02,006 so, if you could pull all the people together that make us who we are, 429 00:14:02,008 --> 00:14:04,442 all the people together that make us who we are, they literally get up under us, 430 00:14:04,444 --> 00:14:05,743 that make us who we are, they literally get up under us, and they build us -- 431 00:14:05,745 --> 00:14:07,345 they literally get up under us, and they build us -- build us up, 432 00:14:07,347 --> 00:14:08,613 and they build us -- build us up, when they're really 433 00:14:08,615 --> 00:14:10,748 build us up, when they're really the ones standing there, 434 00:14:10,750 --> 00:14:13,284 when they're really the ones standing there, holding us together. 435 00:14:13,286 --> 00:14:14,319 The ones standing there, holding us together. Like, if they weren't there, 436 00:14:14,321 --> 00:14:15,520 holding us together. Like, if they weren't there, we wouldn't be as high 437 00:14:15,522 --> 00:14:16,521 like, if they weren't there, we wouldn't be as high as we are. 438 00:14:16,523 --> 00:14:18,456 We wouldn't be as high as we are. I'm appreciative for that. 439 00:14:18,458 --> 00:14:20,325 As we are. I'm appreciative for that. I can't speak for all these 440 00:14:20,327 --> 00:14:23,027 I'm appreciative for that. I can't speak for all these uppity-ass people, 441 00:14:23,029 --> 00:14:25,396 I can't speak for all these uppity-ass people, artists -- ugh -- that think 442 00:14:25,398 --> 00:14:26,431 uppity-ass people, artists -- ugh -- that think they're just so this 443 00:14:26,433 --> 00:14:27,098 artists -- ugh -- that think they're just so this and so that. 444 00:14:27,100 --> 00:14:29,868 They're just so this and so that. Baby, you didn't get you there, 445 00:14:29,870 --> 00:14:31,836 and so that. Baby, you didn't get you there, sweetheart, alone. 446 00:14:31,838 --> 00:14:33,304 Baby, you didn't get you there, sweetheart, alone. It takes a team. 447 00:14:33,306 --> 00:14:36,641 Sweetheart, alone. It takes a team. One of my craziest memories 448 00:14:36,643 --> 00:14:40,745 it takes a team. One of my craziest memories is when randy jackson told me, 449 00:14:40,747 --> 00:14:42,714 one of my craziest memories is when randy jackson told me, he said... 450 00:14:42,716 --> 00:14:43,581 Is when randy jackson told me, he said... "now, you know, 451 00:14:43,583 --> 00:14:44,916 he said... "now, you know, the fame comes before 452 00:14:44,918 --> 00:14:45,950 "now, you know, the fame comes before the fortune." 453 00:14:45,952 --> 00:14:48,486 the fame comes before the fortune." and I was like... 454 00:14:48,488 --> 00:14:50,722 The fortune." and I was like... "well, that sucks." 455 00:14:50,724 --> 00:14:51,990 and I was like... "well, that sucks." he said, "I know. 456 00:14:51,992 --> 00:14:53,391 "well, that sucks." he said, "I know. You got to get famous first, 457 00:14:53,393 --> 00:14:54,158 he said, "I know. You got to get famous first, honey, then you'll get 458 00:14:54,160 --> 00:14:56,194 you got to get famous first, honey, then you'll get your fortune." 459 00:14:56,196 --> 00:14:58,296 honey, then you'll get your fortune." I was like, "okay." 460 00:14:58,298 --> 00:15:00,865 your fortune." I was like, "okay." so, then, I get this big plaque. 461 00:15:00,867 --> 00:15:02,200 I was like, "okay." so, then, I get this big plaque. It's a gold plaque. 462 00:15:02,202 --> 00:15:03,635 So, then, I get this big plaque. It's a gold plaque. Then, I get a platinum plaque. 463 00:15:03,637 --> 00:15:04,969 It's a gold plaque. Then, I get a platinum plaque. And I'm like, "ooh. 464 00:15:04,971 --> 00:15:07,138 Then, I get a platinum plaque. And I'm like, "ooh. Okay." 465 00:15:07,140 --> 00:15:08,473 and I'm like, "ooh. Okay." there the hell's my money?" 466 00:15:08,475 --> 00:15:08,773 okay." there the hell's my money?" [ laughs ] 467 00:15:12,278 --> 00:15:16,514 but, baby, when I tell you, when the coins started rolling in, I said, 468 00:15:16,516 --> 00:15:19,417 when the coins started rolling in, I said, "well, look at [indistinct]." 469 00:15:19,419 --> 00:15:21,653 rolling in, I said, "well, look at [indistinct]." mm. 470 00:15:21,655 --> 00:15:24,589 "well, look at [indistinct]." mm. That is, like, one of my main 471 00:15:24,591 --> 00:15:26,391 mm. That is, like, one of my main memories that I can think of. 472 00:15:26,393 --> 00:15:28,993 That is, like, one of my main memories that I can think of. Because I was so pissed off 473 00:15:28,995 --> 00:15:30,061 memories that I can think of. Because I was so pissed off at the fact that he said 474 00:15:30,063 --> 00:15:32,997 because I was so pissed off at the fact that he said I have to be famous first, 475 00:15:32,999 --> 00:15:34,599 at the fact that he said I have to be famous first, before I can get the fortune. 476 00:15:34,601 --> 00:15:36,034 I have to be famous first, before I can get the fortune. I'm like... 477 00:15:36,036 --> 00:15:38,169 Before I can get the fortune. I'm like... "I grew up poor, sir. 478 00:15:38,171 --> 00:15:39,304 I'm like... "I grew up poor, sir. I want some money. 479 00:15:39,306 --> 00:15:41,105 "I grew up poor, sir. I want some money. If I'm gonna be famous, 480 00:15:41,107 --> 00:15:41,773 I want some money. If I'm gonna be famous, I want money." 481 00:15:41,775 --> 00:15:43,274 if I'm gonna be famous, I want money." he said, "right. 482 00:15:43,276 --> 00:15:45,343 I want money." he said, "right. You gotta be famous. 483 00:15:45,345 --> 00:15:46,577 He said, "right. You gotta be famous. Then, you can get you money." 484 00:15:46,579 --> 00:15:50,148 you gotta be famous. Then, you can get you money." I said, "well, [bleep]." 485 00:15:50,150 --> 00:15:51,049 then, you can get you money." I said, "well, [bleep]." well, I'm famous, 486 00:15:51,051 --> 00:15:52,884 I said, "well, [bleep]." well, I'm famous, and I got my money, honey. 487 00:15:52,886 --> 00:15:54,485 Well, I'm famous, and I got my money, honey. Thank you, jesus. 488 00:15:54,487 --> 00:15:54,953 And I got my money, honey. Thank you, jesus. Best memories ever. 489 00:15:59,959 --> 00:16:04,295 >> after mci records, I did sign with cash money records. 490 00:16:04,297 --> 00:16:06,664 I did sign with cash money records. And everything was wonderful 491 00:16:06,666 --> 00:16:08,933 cash money records. And everything was wonderful at the time. 492 00:16:08,935 --> 00:16:10,868 And everything was wonderful at the time. But when that daggone -- 493 00:16:10,870 --> 00:16:12,470 at the time. But when that daggone -- what's her name, katrina, 494 00:16:12,472 --> 00:16:13,905 but when that daggone -- what's her name, katrina, miss thing -- came in, 495 00:16:13,907 --> 00:16:17,742 what's her name, katrina, miss thing -- came in, and blew the whole world away -- 496 00:16:17,744 --> 00:16:19,877 miss thing -- came in, and blew the whole world away -- my whole world, anyways, 497 00:16:19,879 --> 00:16:22,146 and blew the whole world away -- my whole world, anyways, and just ruined everything. 498 00:16:22,148 --> 00:16:24,449 My whole world, anyways, and just ruined everything. Like, all of my... 499 00:16:24,451 --> 00:16:25,650 And just ruined everything. Like, all of my... My music, 500 00:16:25,652 --> 00:16:26,818 like, all of my... My music, everything that I recorded, 501 00:16:26,820 --> 00:16:28,286 my music, everything that I recorded, like, everything was ruined. 502 00:16:28,288 --> 00:16:30,488 Everything that I recorded, like, everything was ruined. I was like, "why? 503 00:16:30,490 --> 00:16:32,857 Like, everything was ruined. I was like, "why? What is going on?" 504 00:16:32,859 --> 00:16:34,959 I was like, "why? What is going on?" and they were such wonderful, 505 00:16:34,961 --> 00:16:37,862 what is going on?" and they were such wonderful, sweet, genuine people. 506 00:16:37,864 --> 00:16:40,798 And they were such wonderful, sweet, genuine people. But I don't think it was meant 507 00:16:40,800 --> 00:16:41,666 sweet, genuine people. But I don't think it was meant because, like, 508 00:16:41,668 --> 00:16:42,800 but I don't think it was meant because, like, it was so many things 509 00:16:42,802 --> 00:16:45,370 because, like, it was so many things that were set up so perfectly, 510 00:16:45,372 --> 00:16:45,837 it was so many things that were set up so perfectly, that just kind of... 511 00:16:51,977 --> 00:16:56,581 So, I'm like, "whatever." but then, they got nicki minaj, so, honey, they didn't 512 00:16:56,583 --> 00:16:57,882 but then, they got nicki minaj, so, honey, they didn't give a damn about keke. 513 00:16:57,884 --> 00:16:58,616 So, honey, they didn't give a damn about keke. They had her. 514 00:16:58,618 --> 00:17:00,218 Give a damn about keke. They had her. And she did the damn thing. 515 00:17:00,220 --> 00:17:01,719 They had her. And she did the damn thing. And bless her. 516 00:17:01,721 --> 00:17:02,720 And she did the damn thing. And bless her. I think she's a beautiful, 517 00:17:02,722 --> 00:17:04,489 and bless her. I think she's a beautiful, wonderful person. 518 00:17:04,491 --> 00:17:06,224 I think she's a beautiful, wonderful person. But it wasn't -- I don't -- 519 00:17:06,226 --> 00:17:08,726 wonderful person. But it wasn't -- I don't -- it wasn't for me, with them, 520 00:17:08,728 --> 00:17:09,627 but it wasn't -- I don't -- it wasn't for me, with them, so... 521 00:17:09,629 --> 00:17:11,129 It wasn't for me, with them, so... I met nicki minaj 522 00:17:11,131 --> 00:17:14,632 so... I met nicki minaj back in new york some years ago 523 00:17:14,634 --> 00:17:16,200 I met nicki minaj back in new york some years ago with my lawyer, 524 00:17:16,202 --> 00:17:19,070 back in new york some years ago with my lawyer, londell mcmillan. 525 00:17:19,072 --> 00:17:21,906 With my lawyer, londell mcmillan. I met her on a boat. 526 00:17:21,908 --> 00:17:23,775 Londell mcmillan. I met her on a boat. And it's like a party boat, 527 00:17:23,777 --> 00:17:25,910 I met her on a boat. And it's like a party boat, for her birthday or something, 528 00:17:25,912 --> 00:17:26,944 and it's like a party boat, for her birthday or something, in new york. 529 00:17:26,946 --> 00:17:28,479 For her birthday or something, in new york. And... 530 00:17:28,481 --> 00:17:31,482 In new york. And... She said, "yo, keke. 531 00:17:31,484 --> 00:17:32,483 And... She said, "yo, keke. Oh, my god. 532 00:17:32,485 --> 00:17:33,451 She said, "yo, keke. Oh, my god. I love you. 533 00:17:33,453 --> 00:17:35,386 Oh, my god. I love you. Like, let me tell you, 534 00:17:35,388 --> 00:17:37,021 I love you. Like, let me tell you, like, right now, 535 00:17:37,023 --> 00:17:39,657 like, let me tell you, like, right now, like, I saw you on 'divas,' 536 00:17:39,659 --> 00:17:41,592 like, right now, like, I saw you on 'divas,' and it was like you was gonna 537 00:17:41,594 --> 00:17:43,728 like, I saw you on 'divas,' and it was like you was gonna fall out the tv, yo. 538 00:17:43,730 --> 00:17:45,530 And it was like you was gonna fall out the tv, yo. Like, I love you. 539 00:17:45,532 --> 00:17:47,565 Fall out the tv, yo. Like, I love you. Like, you are amazing." 540 00:17:47,567 --> 00:17:50,001 like, I love you. Like, you are amazing." and I said, "oh, my word, girl. 541 00:17:50,003 --> 00:17:50,835 Like, you are amazing." and I said, "oh, my word, girl. You think I'm amazing?" 542 00:17:50,837 --> 00:17:53,237 and I said, "oh, my word, girl. You think I'm amazing?" she said, "oh, my god, keke, 543 00:17:53,239 --> 00:17:54,806 you think I'm amazing?" she said, "oh, my god, keke, you don't understand. 544 00:17:54,808 --> 00:17:56,841 She said, "oh, my god, keke, you don't understand. Like, I was watching you 545 00:17:56,843 --> 00:17:58,676 you don't understand. Like, I was watching you on the tv, 546 00:17:58,678 --> 00:18:00,011 like, I was watching you on the tv, on the box, 547 00:18:00,013 --> 00:18:01,079 on the tv, on the box, and you was, like, 548 00:18:01,081 --> 00:18:03,781 on the box, and you was, like, coming out of the box." 549 00:18:03,783 --> 00:18:07,251 and you was, like, coming out of the box." I was like... 550 00:18:07,253 --> 00:18:08,352 Coming out of the box." I was like... "really?" 551 00:18:08,354 --> 00:18:10,388 I was like... "really?" she said, "oh, my god, yes. 552 00:18:10,390 --> 00:18:11,522 "really?" she said, "oh, my god, yes. I love you. 553 00:18:11,524 --> 00:18:12,723 She said, "oh, my god, yes. I love you. Like, yours -- 554 00:18:12,725 --> 00:18:14,759 I love you. Like, yours -- your voice is amazing, 555 00:18:14,761 --> 00:18:17,128 like, yours -- your voice is amazing, but you on the tv, you -- 556 00:18:17,130 --> 00:18:18,930 your voice is amazing, but you on the tv, you -- yo, you need to be on tv, 557 00:18:18,932 --> 00:18:20,364 but you on the tv, you -- yo, you need to be on tv, like, all the time. 558 00:18:20,366 --> 00:18:23,000 Yo, you need to be on tv, like, all the time. Like, I love your voice. 559 00:18:23,002 --> 00:18:25,069 Like, all the time. Like, I love your voice. Like on tv, though, like -- 560 00:18:25,071 --> 00:18:26,671 like, I love your voice. Like on tv, though, like -- but I love you singing, 561 00:18:26,673 --> 00:18:28,239 like on tv, though, like -- but I love you singing, but you on tv." 562 00:18:28,241 --> 00:18:28,840 but I love you singing, but you on tv." I was like, 563 00:18:28,842 --> 00:18:30,141 but you on tv." I was like, "ooh, I love how she talks. 564 00:18:30,143 --> 00:18:30,775 I was like, "ooh, I love how she talks. It's so cute. 565 00:18:30,777 --> 00:18:34,078 "ooh, I love how she talks. It's so cute. I wonder if I can do that." 566 00:18:34,080 --> 00:18:36,247 it's so cute. I wonder if I can do that." can I do that? 567 00:18:36,249 --> 00:18:37,915 I wonder if I can do that." can I do that? I don't know. 568 00:18:37,917 --> 00:18:38,916 Can I do that? I don't know. [as nicki] "yo." 569 00:18:38,918 --> 00:18:40,685 I don't know. [as nicki] "yo." [ laughs ] 570 00:18:40,687 --> 00:18:41,419 [as nicki] "yo." [ laughs ] I love her. 571 00:18:41,421 --> 00:18:42,553 [ laughs ] I love her. She's a sweet little 572 00:18:42,555 --> 00:18:44,255 I love her. She's a sweet little sugar lump plum. 573 00:18:44,257 --> 00:18:45,923 She's a sweet little sugar lump plum. I swear. 574 00:18:45,925 --> 00:18:47,692 Sugar lump plum. I swear. But yeah, that was, like, 575 00:18:47,694 --> 00:18:49,760 I swear. But yeah, that was, like, amazing, 'cause I love her. 576 00:18:49,762 --> 00:18:50,728 But yeah, that was, like, amazing, 'cause I love her. The girl can sing. 577 00:18:50,730 --> 00:18:51,496 Amazing, 'cause I love her. The girl can sing. She can rap. 578 00:18:51,498 --> 00:18:52,263 The girl can sing. She can rap. She's cute. 579 00:18:52,265 --> 00:18:52,997 She can rap. She's cute. She fine. 580 00:18:52,999 --> 00:18:54,832 She's cute. She fine. Body banging. 581 00:18:54,834 --> 00:18:56,200 She fine. Body banging. Mercy lord. 582 00:18:56,202 --> 00:18:57,001 Body banging. Mercy lord. I mean, 583 00:18:57,003 --> 00:18:59,504 mercy lord. I mean, she's a little cutie patootie. 584 00:18:59,506 --> 00:19:01,038 I mean, she's a little cutie patootie. So, when my first album 585 00:19:01,040 --> 00:19:04,575 she's a little cutie patootie. So, when my first album came out, yes, I had two babies. 586 00:19:04,577 --> 00:19:05,877 So, when my first album came out, yes, I had two babies. One was my album, 587 00:19:05,879 --> 00:19:07,745 came out, yes, I had two babies. One was my album, and one was my baby, 588 00:19:07,747 --> 00:19:08,713 one was my album, and one was my baby, keyver. 589 00:19:08,715 --> 00:19:10,014 And one was my baby, keyver. We call him "peeny weenie 590 00:19:10,016 --> 00:19:11,149 keyver. We call him "peeny weenie leeney deeney beanie 591 00:19:11,151 --> 00:19:13,217 we call him "peeny weenie leeney deeney beanie beanie bean." 592 00:19:13,219 --> 00:19:15,286 leeney deeney beanie beanie bean." and, um... 593 00:19:15,288 --> 00:19:17,121 Beanie bean." and, um... Bean was a year old. 594 00:19:17,123 --> 00:19:19,056 And, um... Bean was a year old. And I was 18, 595 00:19:19,058 --> 00:19:20,291 bean was a year old. And I was 18, gonna be 19. 596 00:19:20,293 --> 00:19:21,559 And I was 18, gonna be 19. It's so funny because, 597 00:19:21,561 --> 00:19:23,027 gonna be 19. It's so funny because, when I think about 598 00:19:23,029 --> 00:19:26,297 it's so funny because, when I think about what they said to me -- 599 00:19:26,299 --> 00:19:27,932 when I think about what they said to me -- "you need to get an abortion. 600 00:19:27,934 --> 00:19:29,200 What they said to me -- "you need to get an abortion. You need to get rid of," 601 00:19:29,202 --> 00:19:30,668 "you need to get an abortion. You need to get rid of," you know, "that, 602 00:19:30,670 --> 00:19:32,136 you need to get rid of," you know, "that, because it's gonna get it -- 603 00:19:32,138 --> 00:19:33,938 you know, "that, because it's gonna get it -- he's gonna get -- it..." -- 604 00:19:33,940 --> 00:19:35,139 because it's gonna get it -- he's gonna get -- it..." -- they kept saying "it" -- 605 00:19:35,141 --> 00:19:37,508 he's gonna get -- it..." -- they kept saying "it" -- "...Is gonna get in the way of, 606 00:19:37,510 --> 00:19:38,009 they kept saying "it" -- "...Is gonna get in the way of, you know, 607 00:19:38,011 --> 00:19:39,477 "...Is gonna get in the way of, you know, what we're trying to do." 608 00:19:39,479 --> 00:19:41,245 you know, what we're trying to do." and I will never say 609 00:19:41,247 --> 00:19:42,380 what we're trying to do." and I will never say who said that, 610 00:19:42,382 --> 00:19:43,014 and I will never say who said that, but you know 611 00:19:43,016 --> 00:19:45,416 who said that, but you know who you are, suckers. 612 00:19:45,418 --> 00:19:46,584 But you know who you are, suckers. But... 613 00:19:46,586 --> 00:19:47,685 Who you are, suckers. But... I get where they were 614 00:19:47,687 --> 00:19:48,519 but... I get where they were coming from, 615 00:19:48,521 --> 00:19:50,755 I get where they were coming from, but at the same time, 616 00:19:50,757 --> 00:19:54,025 coming from, but at the same time, um, no. 617 00:19:54,027 --> 00:19:55,126 But at the same time, um, no. Mnh-mnh. 618 00:19:55,128 --> 00:19:56,561 Um, no. Mnh-mnh. "well, you know your career 619 00:19:56,563 --> 00:19:57,662 mnh-mnh. "well, you know your career ain't gonna do this, 620 00:19:57,664 --> 00:19:58,729 "well, you know your career ain't gonna do this, and ain't gonna do that 621 00:19:58,731 --> 00:20:00,565 ain't gonna do this, and ain't gonna do that if you have that baby." 622 00:20:00,567 --> 00:20:02,833 and ain't gonna do that if you have that baby." and I said, "that's fine. 623 00:20:02,835 --> 00:20:03,568 If you have that baby." and I said, "that's fine. Okay. 624 00:20:03,570 --> 00:20:04,368 And I said, "that's fine. Okay. And if it doesn't, 625 00:20:04,370 --> 00:20:06,337 okay. And if it doesn't, I don't care." 626 00:20:06,339 --> 00:20:08,472 and if it doesn't, I don't care." and I had my baby. 627 00:20:08,474 --> 00:20:10,575 I don't care." and I had my baby. And then, I had my other baby -- 628 00:20:10,577 --> 00:20:11,442 and I had my baby. And then, I had my other baby -- which went gold, 629 00:20:11,444 --> 00:20:12,577 and then, I had my other baby -- which went gold, and then it went platinum, 630 00:20:12,579 --> 00:20:14,345 which went gold, and then it went platinum, and then, it's been feeding us 631 00:20:14,347 --> 00:20:16,080 and then it went platinum, and then, it's been feeding us forever. 632 00:20:16,082 --> 00:20:17,615 And then, it's been feeding us forever. And bean is 22. 633 00:20:17,617 --> 00:20:19,951 Forever. And bean is 22. Keyver -- he's 22 years old. 634 00:20:19,953 --> 00:20:21,819 And bean is 22. Keyver -- he's 22 years old. My faith in god is, like, 635 00:20:21,821 --> 00:20:23,654 keyver -- he's 22 years old. My faith in god is, like, the biggest thing in my life, 636 00:20:23,656 --> 00:20:25,289 my faith in god is, like, the biggest thing in my life, because faith has gotten me 637 00:20:25,291 --> 00:20:28,092 the biggest thing in my life, because faith has gotten me through so many things. 638 00:20:28,094 --> 00:20:29,393 Because faith has gotten me through so many things. It's gotten me through horrible 639 00:20:29,395 --> 00:20:30,628 through so many things. It's gotten me through horrible marriages, it's gotten me 640 00:20:30,630 --> 00:20:33,030 it's gotten me through horrible marriages, it's gotten me through domestic violence, 641 00:20:33,032 --> 00:20:35,266 marriages, it's gotten me through domestic violence, it's gotten me through 642 00:20:35,268 --> 00:20:36,434 through domestic violence, it's gotten me through losing a child. 643 00:20:36,436 --> 00:20:38,302 It's gotten me through losing a child. It's gotten me through dealing 644 00:20:38,304 --> 00:20:39,637 losing a child. It's gotten me through dealing with a child with cancer. 645 00:20:39,639 --> 00:20:41,672 It's gotten me through dealing with a child with cancer. It's getting me through 646 00:20:41,674 --> 00:20:42,673 with a child with cancer. It's getting me through a situation 647 00:20:42,675 --> 00:20:44,508 it's getting me through a situation with my -- my current baby 648 00:20:44,510 --> 00:20:48,946 a situation with my -- my current baby that I just had, ke'zyah jean. 649 00:20:48,948 --> 00:20:52,250 With my -- my current baby that I just had, ke'zyah jean. And, um... 650 00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:54,118 That I just had, ke'zyah jean. And, um... Without the faith of god, 651 00:20:54,120 --> 00:20:55,286 and, um... Without the faith of god, I would have terminated 652 00:20:55,288 --> 00:20:56,721 without the faith of god, I would have terminated my child, 653 00:20:56,723 --> 00:20:58,990 I would have terminated my child, like the doctors suggested 654 00:20:58,992 --> 00:20:59,423 my child, like the doctors suggested that I should do. 655 00:21:08,533 --> 00:21:15,539 [ exhales ] and I thank god that I didn't make that decision, 656 00:21:15,541 --> 00:21:17,475 and I thank god that I didn't make that decision, 'cause when I look at my sweet 657 00:21:17,477 --> 00:21:21,112 make that decision, 'cause when I look at my sweet little boy, he's so precious. 658 00:21:21,114 --> 00:21:23,147 'cause when I look at my sweet little boy, he's so precious. And I think, "oh, I could have 659 00:21:23,149 --> 00:21:25,449 little boy, he's so precious. And I think, "oh, I could have killed this little person 660 00:21:25,451 --> 00:21:28,719 and I think, "oh, I could have killed this little person listening to these people." 661 00:21:28,721 --> 00:21:31,689 killed this little person listening to these people." but my faith... 662 00:21:31,691 --> 00:21:33,991 Listening to these people." but my faith... I kept my faith. 663 00:21:33,993 --> 00:21:37,361 But my faith... I kept my faith. By keeping my faith in god... 664 00:21:37,363 --> 00:21:40,431 I kept my faith. By keeping my faith in god... My baby is so beautiful, 665 00:21:40,433 --> 00:21:43,000 by keeping my faith in god... My baby is so beautiful, and he's so healthy. 666 00:21:43,002 --> 00:21:44,268 My baby is so beautiful, and he's so healthy. Y'all, they asked me 667 00:21:44,270 --> 00:21:48,139 and he's so healthy. Y'all, they asked me did I want a memorial box. 668 00:21:48,141 --> 00:21:49,540 Y'all, they asked me did I want a memorial box. Before I even gave birth 669 00:21:49,542 --> 00:21:51,776 did I want a memorial box. Before I even gave birth to a baby, they said, 670 00:21:51,778 --> 00:21:54,612 before I even gave birth to a baby, they said, "do you want a memorial box?" 671 00:21:54,614 --> 00:21:56,013 to a baby, they said, "do you want a memorial box?" "no. 672 00:21:56,015 --> 00:21:57,315 "do you want a memorial box?" "no. I don't want a casket 673 00:21:57,317 --> 00:21:58,282 "no. I don't want a casket for my baby. 674 00:21:58,284 --> 00:22:01,385 I don't want a casket for my baby. He's not even born yet. 675 00:22:01,387 --> 00:22:04,655 For my baby. He's not even born yet. Why would you ask me that?" 676 00:22:04,657 --> 00:22:07,358 he's not even born yet. Why would you ask me that?" you know, and I understand 677 00:22:07,360 --> 00:22:09,060 why would you ask me that?" you know, and I understand the situation. 678 00:22:09,062 --> 00:22:10,394 You know, and I understand the situation. I do. 679 00:22:10,396 --> 00:22:11,829 The situation. I do. Please understand that. 680 00:22:11,831 --> 00:22:15,399 I do. Please understand that. But at the same time, 681 00:22:15,401 --> 00:22:17,902 please understand that. But at the same time, my faith... 682 00:22:17,904 --> 00:22:21,372 But at the same time, my faith... It stood so strong, you know? 683 00:22:21,374 --> 00:22:24,975 My faith... It stood so strong, you know? I just thank god that... 684 00:22:24,977 --> 00:22:26,210 It stood so strong, you know? I just thank god that... He's in our lives. 685 00:22:26,212 --> 00:22:29,080 I just thank god that... He's in our lives. And I'm sorry for fussing. 686 00:22:29,082 --> 00:22:30,815 He's in our lives. And I'm sorry for fussing. Excuse me, but I just -- 687 00:22:30,817 --> 00:22:34,218 and I'm sorry for fussing. Excuse me, but I just -- when it comes to...My god, 688 00:22:34,220 --> 00:22:37,421 excuse me, but I just -- when it comes to...My god, and my faith, and my family, 689 00:22:37,423 --> 00:22:38,189 when it comes to...My god, and my faith, and my family, that is, like, 690 00:22:38,191 --> 00:22:39,490 and my faith, and my family, that is, like, the biggest thing for me. 691 00:22:39,492 --> 00:22:40,825 That is, like, the biggest thing for me. If I could never sing 692 00:22:40,827 --> 00:22:43,461 the biggest thing for me. If I could never sing another note, 693 00:22:43,463 --> 00:22:46,230 if I could never sing another note, if I could never, um, 694 00:22:46,232 --> 00:22:47,832 another note, if I could never, um, perform another movie, 695 00:22:47,834 --> 00:22:51,736 if I could never, um, perform another movie, or a show, or whatever... 696 00:22:51,738 --> 00:22:54,438 Perform another movie, or a show, or whatever... You know... 697 00:22:54,440 --> 00:22:55,740 Or a show, or whatever... You know... I have the lord, 698 00:22:55,742 --> 00:22:58,209 you know... I have the lord, and I have my faith. 699 00:22:58,211 --> 00:23:00,244 I have the lord, and I have my faith. And I need people to understand 700 00:23:00,246 --> 00:23:02,413 and I have my faith. And I need people to understand that, if you just -- if you know 701 00:23:02,415 --> 00:23:03,848 and I need people to understand that, if you just -- if you know god, and if you believe in 702 00:23:03,850 --> 00:23:06,517 that, if you just -- if you know god, and if you believe in the lord, have your faith, 703 00:23:06,519 --> 00:23:08,319 god, and if you believe in the lord, have your faith, because it really works. 704 00:23:08,321 --> 00:23:11,622 The lord, have your faith, because it really works. It's a real thing. 705 00:23:11,624 --> 00:23:13,791 Because it really works. It's a real thing. It's real. 706 00:23:13,793 --> 00:23:14,892 It's a real thing. It's real. They told me my baby 707 00:23:14,894 --> 00:23:17,161 it's real. They told me my baby was gonna come out dead. 708 00:23:17,163 --> 00:23:19,130 They told me my baby was gonna come out dead. They offered me a freaking 709 00:23:19,132 --> 00:23:24,535 was gonna come out dead. They offered me a freaking casket for my unborn baby. 710 00:23:24,537 --> 00:23:25,603 They offered me a freaking casket for my unborn baby. And here he is. 711 00:23:25,605 --> 00:23:28,406 Casket for my unborn baby. And here he is. He's about to be a month old. 712 00:23:28,408 --> 00:23:29,807 And here he is. He's about to be a month old. And he's... 713 00:23:29,809 --> 00:23:30,941 He's about to be a month old. And he's... In the best -- 714 00:23:30,943 --> 00:23:33,144 and he's... In the best -- he's wonderful. 715 00:23:33,146 --> 00:23:34,545 In the best -- he's wonderful. He has a few things, 716 00:23:34,547 --> 00:23:36,113 he's wonderful. He has a few things, you know, he's on oxygen, 717 00:23:36,115 --> 00:23:38,682 he has a few things, you know, he's on oxygen, but it's only, you know, 718 00:23:38,684 --> 00:23:39,650 you know, he's on oxygen, but it's only, you know, very small -- 719 00:23:39,652 --> 00:23:41,085 but it's only, you know, very small -- a very small amount. 720 00:23:41,087 --> 00:23:42,520 Very small -- a very small amount. And he has a little tube 721 00:23:42,522 --> 00:23:44,855 a very small amount. And he has a little tube for feeding, in his nose, 722 00:23:44,857 --> 00:23:47,691 and he has a little tube for feeding, in his nose, which...Won't be very long 723 00:23:47,693 --> 00:23:49,593 for feeding, in his nose, which...Won't be very long because he likes to suck 724 00:23:49,595 --> 00:23:51,595 which...Won't be very long because he likes to suck on that binky, honey. 725 00:23:51,597 --> 00:23:53,164 Because he likes to suck on that binky, honey. And I said, "child, it's green. 726 00:23:53,166 --> 00:23:54,498 On that binky, honey. And I said, "child, it's green. If you keep sucking it like that 727 00:23:54,500 --> 00:23:55,499 and I said, "child, it's green. If you keep sucking it like that is gonna be clear 728 00:23:55,501 --> 00:23:57,368 if you keep sucking it like that is gonna be clear by the time you done." 729 00:23:57,370 --> 00:23:59,804 is gonna be clear by the time you done." but he -- that's the only thing. 730 00:23:59,806 --> 00:24:02,406 By the time you done." but he -- that's the only thing. And I'll take that 731 00:24:02,408 --> 00:24:03,040 but he -- that's the only thing. And I'll take that for a beautiful, healthy baby. 732 00:24:08,713 --> 00:24:13,818 >> when I was younger, yes, I said that I wanted 8 to 10 kids because I felt like 733 00:24:13,820 --> 00:24:16,420 I said that I wanted 8 to 10 kids because I felt like a total outcast growing up. 734 00:24:16,422 --> 00:24:17,755 Kids because I felt like a total outcast growing up. And I felt like, if I could have 735 00:24:17,757 --> 00:24:20,491 a total outcast growing up. And I felt like, if I could have my own little city, 736 00:24:20,493 --> 00:24:21,492 and I felt like, if I could have my own little city, my own little world, 737 00:24:21,494 --> 00:24:24,528 my own little city, my own little world, in my own home, 738 00:24:24,530 --> 00:24:26,764 my own little world, in my own home, that.... 739 00:24:26,766 --> 00:24:28,432 In my own home, that.... I'm good. 740 00:24:28,434 --> 00:24:29,633 That.... I'm good. And they... 741 00:24:29,635 --> 00:24:31,001 I'm good. And they... They keep me moving. 742 00:24:31,003 --> 00:24:33,471 And they... They keep me moving. And I still feel that way. 743 00:24:33,473 --> 00:24:36,273 They keep me moving. And I still feel that way. Like...I don't need anybody. 744 00:24:36,275 --> 00:24:37,475 And I still feel that way. Like...I don't need anybody. I feel like I don't even -- 745 00:24:37,477 --> 00:24:38,876 like...I don't need anybody. I feel like I don't even -- if the whole world 746 00:24:38,878 --> 00:24:39,910 I feel like I don't even -- if the whole world just crumbled away -- 747 00:24:39,912 --> 00:24:41,312 if the whole world just crumbled away -- no shade, I love everybody 748 00:24:41,314 --> 00:24:42,980 just crumbled away -- no shade, I love everybody that's out there, y'all, 749 00:24:42,982 --> 00:24:44,381 no shade, I love everybody that's out there, y'all, don't get it twisted. 750 00:24:44,383 --> 00:24:47,318 That's out there, y'all, don't get it twisted. But if y'all faded away, and I 751 00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:49,887 don't get it twisted. But if y'all faded away, and I had my house, with my children, 752 00:24:49,889 --> 00:24:52,323 but if y'all faded away, and I had my house, with my children, and my husband, and my life now, 753 00:24:52,325 --> 00:24:53,891 had my house, with my children, and my husband, and my life now, and my -- my parents, 754 00:24:53,893 --> 00:24:55,359 and my husband, and my life now, and my -- my parents, my brothers -- 755 00:24:55,361 --> 00:24:56,994 and my -- my parents, my brothers -- yeah, I'm adding -- 756 00:24:56,996 --> 00:24:59,997 my brothers -- yeah, I'm adding -- hey, my family, okay? 757 00:24:59,999 --> 00:25:01,398 Yeah, I'm adding -- hey, my family, okay? I would be good. 758 00:25:01,400 --> 00:25:02,633 Hey, my family, okay? I would be good. Like, I wouldn't need 759 00:25:02,635 --> 00:25:04,502 I would be good. Like, I wouldn't need nothing else. 760 00:25:04,504 --> 00:25:06,170 Like, I wouldn't need nothing else. I just wouldn't. 761 00:25:06,172 --> 00:25:07,571 Nothing else. I just wouldn't. The unconditional love 762 00:25:07,573 --> 00:25:09,773 I just wouldn't. The unconditional love that your children give you, 763 00:25:09,775 --> 00:25:11,242 the unconditional love that your children give you, as a mother, 764 00:25:11,244 --> 00:25:13,177 that your children give you, as a mother, like, I could scream at them, 765 00:25:13,179 --> 00:25:15,145 as a mother, like, I could scream at them, and just say, 766 00:25:15,147 --> 00:25:16,514 like, I could scream at them, and just say, "get away from me." 767 00:25:16,516 --> 00:25:17,648 and just say, "get away from me." you know, "you're driving me 768 00:25:17,650 --> 00:25:18,949 "get away from me." you know, "you're driving me nuts." 769 00:25:18,951 --> 00:25:20,217 you know, "you're driving me nuts." but in the same breath, 770 00:25:20,219 --> 00:25:20,818 nuts." but in the same breath, they're just like, 771 00:25:20,820 --> 00:25:22,353 but in the same breath, they're just like, "mommy, I love you." 772 00:25:22,355 --> 00:25:22,820 they're just like, "mommy, I love you." and I'm just -- 773 00:25:22,822 --> 00:25:23,287 "mommy, I love you." and I'm just -- and they're like... 774 00:25:25,190 --> 00:25:28,459 "I just said you were driving me nuts. I love you, too." 775 00:25:28,461 --> 00:25:30,327 driving me nuts. I love you, too." >> like, I'm so ridiculous 776 00:25:30,329 --> 00:25:31,095 I love you, too." >> like, I'm so ridiculous with my kids. 777 00:25:31,097 --> 00:25:33,664 >> like, I'm so ridiculous with my kids. But it's just the unconditional 778 00:25:33,666 --> 00:25:36,534 with my kids. But it's just the unconditional love part, it is truly amazing. 779 00:25:36,536 --> 00:25:37,735 But it's just the unconditional love part, it is truly amazing. Let's talk about motherhood. 780 00:25:37,737 --> 00:25:40,070 Love part, it is truly amazing. Let's talk about motherhood. I have 11 children, 781 00:25:40,072 --> 00:25:43,073 let's talk about motherhood. I have 11 children, and they have all been created 782 00:25:43,075 --> 00:25:46,977 I have 11 children, and they have all been created and made in marriage. 783 00:25:46,979 --> 00:25:47,678 And they have all been created and made in marriage. No ho here -- 784 00:25:47,680 --> 00:25:48,612 and made in marriage. No ho here -- well, a little bit of a ho, 785 00:25:48,614 --> 00:25:52,850 no ho here -- well, a little bit of a ho, but I'm a how in the bedroom. 786 00:25:52,852 --> 00:25:54,385 Well, a little bit of a ho, but I'm a how in the bedroom. Should-- shouldn't a wife 787 00:25:54,387 --> 00:25:58,322 but I'm a how in the bedroom. Should-- shouldn't a wife be a ho to her husband? 788 00:25:58,324 --> 00:25:59,423 Should-- shouldn't a wife be a ho to her husband? If I was a husband, 789 00:25:59,425 --> 00:26:01,859 be a ho to her husband? If I was a husband, I would want a ho at home. 790 00:26:01,861 --> 00:26:04,395 If I was a husband, I would want a ho at home. Don't be no ho in these streets. 791 00:26:04,397 --> 00:26:05,729 I would want a ho at home. Don't be no ho in these streets. Don't be the -- don't have the 792 00:26:05,731 --> 00:26:07,364 don't be no ho in these streets. Don't be the -- don't have the [indistinct] baby 793 00:26:07,366 --> 00:26:09,166 don't be the -- don't have the [indistinct] baby [ laughs ] 794 00:26:09,168 --> 00:26:12,937 [indistinct] baby [ laughs ] be a whore at home, with me, 795 00:26:12,939 --> 00:26:14,638 [ laughs ] be a whore at home, with me, in the home. 796 00:26:14,640 --> 00:26:15,706 Be a whore at home, with me, in the home. Yes. 797 00:26:15,708 --> 00:26:17,074 In the home. Yes. I have 11 children. 798 00:26:17,076 --> 00:26:18,142 Yes. I have 11 children. Golly. 799 00:26:18,144 --> 00:26:20,511 I have 11 children. Golly. What was I thinking? 800 00:26:20,513 --> 00:26:21,011 Golly. What was I thinking? I always say, 801 00:26:21,013 --> 00:26:21,879 what was I thinking? I always say, when I was a little girl, 802 00:26:21,881 --> 00:26:23,180 I always say, when I was a little girl, that I wanted a lot of children. 803 00:26:23,182 --> 00:26:24,715 When I was a little girl, that I wanted a lot of children. I used to always say, "mommy, 804 00:26:24,717 --> 00:26:25,916 that I wanted a lot of children. I used to always say, "mommy, I'm gonna have between 8 and 805 00:26:25,918 --> 00:26:27,351 I used to always say, "mommy, I'm gonna have between 8 and and 10." 806 00:26:27,353 --> 00:26:29,720 I'm gonna have between 8 and and 10." well, I'm at 11, so... 807 00:26:29,722 --> 00:26:32,289 And 10." well, I'm at 11, so... We'll see what the rest brings 808 00:26:32,291 --> 00:26:33,857 well, I'm at 11, so... We'll see what the rest brings of life. 809 00:26:33,859 --> 00:26:36,827 We'll see what the rest brings of life. I think I'm gonna do one more. 810 00:26:36,829 --> 00:26:37,962 Of life. I think I'm gonna do one more. I keep saying "one more, 811 00:26:37,964 --> 00:26:38,495 I think I'm gonna do one more. I keep saying "one more, one more," 812 00:26:38,497 --> 00:26:40,230 I keep saying "one more, one more," and I done did one more, 813 00:26:40,232 --> 00:26:43,167 one more," and I done did one more, let's see -- wyatt, bella, 814 00:26:43,169 --> 00:26:46,136 and I done did one more, let's see -- wyatt, bella, kendall, ke'riah, ke'zyah. 815 00:26:46,138 --> 00:26:47,504 Let's see -- wyatt, bella, kendall, ke'riah, ke'zyah. That was four kids ago. 816 00:26:47,506 --> 00:26:50,741 Kendall, ke'riah, ke'zyah. That was four kids ago. I love being a mama. 817 00:26:50,743 --> 00:26:56,880 That was four kids ago. I love being a mama. If I wasn't a mommy, um... 818 00:26:56,882 --> 00:26:57,982 I love being a mama. If I wasn't a mommy, um... I don't think I would be 819 00:26:57,984 --> 00:27:00,851 if I wasn't a mommy, um... I don't think I would be who I am today. 820 00:27:00,853 --> 00:27:02,720 I don't think I would be who I am today. Started my career with children, 821 00:27:02,722 --> 00:27:04,421 who I am today. Started my career with children, with a child, 822 00:27:04,423 --> 00:27:06,991 started my career with children, with a child, and I'm still in my career 823 00:27:06,993 --> 00:27:08,926 with a child, and I'm still in my career with 11 kids, 824 00:27:08,928 --> 00:27:10,094 and I'm still in my career with 11 kids, after they told me, 825 00:27:10,096 --> 00:27:11,695 with 11 kids, after they told me, "well, if you have a baby, 826 00:27:11,697 --> 00:27:12,896 after they told me, "well, if you have a baby, you know, you're not gonna be 827 00:27:12,898 --> 00:27:15,132 "well, if you have a baby, you know, you're not gonna be able to do what you need to do. 828 00:27:15,134 --> 00:27:16,066 You know, you're not gonna be able to do what you need to do. You can't travel, 829 00:27:16,068 --> 00:27:17,735 able to do what you need to do. You can't travel, and you can't such and such, 830 00:27:17,737 --> 00:27:18,936 you can't travel, and you can't such and such, and blah." 831 00:27:18,938 --> 00:27:20,237 and you can't such and such, and blah." I said, "okay." 832 00:27:20,239 --> 00:27:21,238 and blah." I said, "okay." my mother looked at me 833 00:27:21,240 --> 00:27:21,739 I said, "okay." my mother looked at me in my eyes. 834 00:27:21,741 --> 00:27:24,141 My mother looked at me in my eyes. She said, "baby, you can do 835 00:27:24,143 --> 00:27:25,609 in my eyes. She said, "baby, you can do whatever you want to do 836 00:27:25,611 --> 00:27:27,778 she said, "baby, you can do whatever you want to do with or without a baby. 837 00:27:27,780 --> 00:27:28,245 Whatever you want to do with or without a baby. She said, 838 00:27:28,247 --> 00:27:29,647 with or without a baby. She said, "what do you want to do?" 839 00:27:29,649 --> 00:27:30,914 she said, "what do you want to do?" I said, "well, I think I want 840 00:27:30,916 --> 00:27:32,049 "what do you want to do?" I said, "well, I think I want to travel now." 841 00:27:32,051 --> 00:27:32,916 I said, "well, I think I want to travel now." and, "you know, 842 00:27:32,918 --> 00:27:35,419 to travel now." and, "you know, this song is on the radio, and, 843 00:27:35,421 --> 00:27:36,787 and, "you know, this song is on the radio, and, like, climbing up the charts." 844 00:27:36,789 --> 00:27:37,921 this song is on the radio, and, like, climbing up the charts." she said, "girl, you better put 845 00:27:37,923 --> 00:27:39,323 like, climbing up the charts." she said, "girl, you better put that child in that car seat, 846 00:27:39,325 --> 00:27:40,391 she said, "girl, you better put that child in that car seat, and take your ass, 847 00:27:40,393 --> 00:27:41,925 that child in that car seat, and take your ass, and you get on, and get." 848 00:27:41,927 --> 00:27:43,427 and take your ass, and you get on, and get." this is what keeps me going. 849 00:27:43,429 --> 00:27:46,397 And you get on, and get." this is what keeps me going. This is what makes me who I am. 850 00:27:46,399 --> 00:27:47,631 This is what keeps me going. This is what makes me who I am. The girl that people see 851 00:27:47,633 --> 00:27:49,733 this is what makes me who I am. The girl that people see on the stage, this is -- that -- 852 00:27:49,735 --> 00:27:51,835 the girl that people see on the stage, this is -- that -- that's what makes me sing 853 00:27:51,837 --> 00:27:52,970 on the stage, this is -- that -- that's what makes me sing the way that I do, 854 00:27:52,972 --> 00:27:56,573 that's what makes me sing the way that I do, because my feelings are so, 855 00:27:56,575 --> 00:27:58,542 the way that I do, because my feelings are so, like, wrapped up in the love 856 00:27:58,544 --> 00:28:00,044 because my feelings are so, like, wrapped up in the love and the emotion of music, 857 00:28:00,046 --> 00:28:00,811 like, wrapped up in the love and the emotion of music, and everything. 858 00:28:00,813 --> 00:28:01,645 And the emotion of music, and everything. And my kids, 859 00:28:01,647 --> 00:28:02,813 and everything. And my kids, they're the same way. 860 00:28:02,815 --> 00:28:03,781 And my kids, they're the same way. They love music. 861 00:28:03,783 --> 00:28:04,114 They're the same way. They love music. And...Yeah. 862 00:28:07,886 --> 00:28:14,158 [ giggles ] I gets so giggly when I think about the love of my life, 863 00:28:14,160 --> 00:28:15,192 I gets so giggly when I think about the love of my life, zackariah. 864 00:28:15,194 --> 00:28:18,629 About the love of my life, zackariah. Like, when we were little kids, 865 00:28:18,631 --> 00:28:20,898 zackariah. Like, when we were little kids, I was so in love with this dude. 866 00:28:20,900 --> 00:28:24,201 Like, when we were little kids, I was so in love with this dude. Like, he was way too old for me, 867 00:28:24,203 --> 00:28:27,371 I was so in love with this dude. Like, he was way too old for me, but I didn't give a... 868 00:28:27,373 --> 00:28:28,605 Like, he was way too old for me, but I didn't give a... I didn't care. 869 00:28:28,607 --> 00:28:31,075 But I didn't give a... I didn't care. But my parents did. 870 00:28:31,077 --> 00:28:33,777 I didn't care. But my parents did. So, they made us break up. 871 00:28:33,779 --> 00:28:36,313 But my parents did. So, they made us break up. And it sucked so bad. 872 00:28:36,315 --> 00:28:37,281 So, they made us break up. And it sucked so bad. And when I saw them again 873 00:28:37,283 --> 00:28:39,249 and it sucked so bad. And when I saw them again when I was 18, and I said, 874 00:28:39,251 --> 00:28:40,384 and when I saw them again when I was 18, and I said, "would you marry a girl 875 00:28:40,386 --> 00:28:41,919 when I was 18, and I said, "would you marry a girl like me?" 876 00:28:41,921 --> 00:28:43,620 "would you marry a girl like me?" and he looked at me, 877 00:28:43,622 --> 00:28:45,989 like me?" and he looked at me, and he was like... 878 00:28:45,991 --> 00:28:48,492 And he looked at me, and he was like... I was looking at him like, 879 00:28:48,494 --> 00:28:48,892 and he was like... I was looking at him like, "why are you 880 00:28:48,894 --> 00:28:49,860 I was looking at him like, "why are you looking at me like that?" 881 00:28:49,862 --> 00:28:50,360 "why are you looking at me like that?" 'cause he was like... 882 00:28:52,564 --> 00:28:57,701 I was like, "oh my -- oh, my g-- oh, my god." [ laughs ] 883 00:28:57,703 --> 00:28:59,636 oh, my god." [ laughs ] but I jumped out of his car, 884 00:28:59,638 --> 00:29:01,839 [ laughs ] but I jumped out of his car, and I, like, left. 885 00:29:01,841 --> 00:29:04,108 But I jumped out of his car, and I, like, left. And... 886 00:29:04,110 --> 00:29:06,944 And I, like, left. And... It's so crazy because, 887 00:29:06,946 --> 00:29:09,880 and... It's so crazy because, look at all these years later, 888 00:29:09,882 --> 00:29:11,682 it's so crazy because, look at all these years later, and... 889 00:29:11,684 --> 00:29:12,950 Look at all these years later, and... Here we are, married, 890 00:29:12,952 --> 00:29:15,252 and... Here we are, married, and together, and, you know, 891 00:29:15,254 --> 00:29:18,989 here we are, married, and together, and, you know, we've had our moments, but... 892 00:29:18,991 --> 00:29:20,124 And together, and, you know, we've had our moments, but... I can't believe -- 893 00:29:20,126 --> 00:29:21,325 we've had our moments, but... I can't believe -- like, we let-- 894 00:29:21,327 --> 00:29:23,160 I can't believe -- like, we let-- like, last night we were talking 895 00:29:23,162 --> 00:29:26,697 like, we let-- like, last night we were talking about, like, "how did we end up 896 00:29:26,699 --> 00:29:28,465 like, last night we were talking about, like, "how did we end up back together?" 897 00:29:28,467 --> 00:29:30,467 about, like, "how did we end up back together?" like, what are the odds of that? 898 00:29:30,469 --> 00:29:32,970 Back together?" like, what are the odds of that? Your first love ever. 899 00:29:32,972 --> 00:29:36,273 Like, what are the odds of that? Your first love ever. Like, he was my first love ever. 900 00:29:36,275 --> 00:29:38,008 Your first love ever. Like, he was my first love ever. How do we end up 901 00:29:38,010 --> 00:29:40,644 like, he was my first love ever. How do we end up back together again? 902 00:29:40,646 --> 00:29:42,279 How do we end up back together again? And... 903 00:29:42,281 --> 00:29:44,314 Back together again? And... We were talking about the baby, 904 00:29:44,316 --> 00:29:45,582 and... We were talking about the baby, and I was like, 905 00:29:45,584 --> 00:29:46,850 we were talking about the baby, and I was like, "babe, oh, my god, 906 00:29:46,852 --> 00:29:48,185 and I was like, "babe, oh, my god, can you believe that we have, 907 00:29:48,187 --> 00:29:49,920 "babe, oh, my god, can you believe that we have, like, biological children 908 00:29:49,922 --> 00:29:50,721 can you believe that we have, like, biological children together?" 909 00:29:50,723 --> 00:29:53,624 like, biological children together?" like... 910 00:29:53,626 --> 00:29:54,491 Together?" like... He didn't have 911 00:29:54,493 --> 00:29:55,659 like... He didn't have any other children. 912 00:29:55,661 --> 00:29:57,161 He didn't have any other children. He's never been married. 913 00:29:57,163 --> 00:29:59,163 Any other children. He's never been married. He's barely ever had 914 00:29:59,165 --> 00:30:00,030 he's never been married. He's barely ever had a girlfriend. 915 00:30:00,032 --> 00:30:01,231 He's barely ever had a girlfriend. He was celibate for, like, 916 00:30:01,233 --> 00:30:01,899 a girlfriend. He was celibate for, like, seven years. 917 00:30:01,901 --> 00:30:03,100 He was celibate for, like, seven years. I was like, "dude, how did you 918 00:30:03,102 --> 00:30:03,400 seven years. I was like, "dude, how did you do that?" 919 00:30:07,038 --> 00:30:13,010 "how did you do that? 'cause I couldn't." but now, no, celibacy is -- 920 00:30:13,012 --> 00:30:14,912 'cause I couldn't." but now, no, celibacy is -- celibacy is none 921 00:30:14,914 --> 00:30:16,246 but now, no, celibacy is -- celibacy is none of his vocabulary. 922 00:30:16,248 --> 00:30:16,547 Celibacy is none of his vocabulary. [ laughs ] 923 00:30:29,077 --> 00:30:31,612 ♪ 924 00:30:31,746 --> 00:30:32,880 >> so, I got to ask, because, 925 00:30:33,014 --> 00:30:33,814 you know, on social media, 926 00:30:33,948 --> 00:30:35,382 the fans ask me all the time, 927 00:30:35,517 --> 00:30:37,351 "if there was a reboot, 928 00:30:37,485 --> 00:30:38,619 would you be a part of 929 00:30:38,753 --> 00:30:39,186 'r&b divas' in 2022, '23?" 930 00:30:43,324 --> 00:30:48,428 >> if there was a reboot of "r&b divas" '22, '23, I will not be a part. 931 00:30:48,430 --> 00:30:51,298 Of "r&b divas" '22, '23, I will not be a part. I'm sorry. 932 00:30:51,300 --> 00:30:53,934 I will not be a part. I'm sorry. I just don't feel like I'm being 933 00:30:53,936 --> 00:30:56,436 I'm sorry. I just don't feel like I'm being shown as the person that I am. 934 00:30:56,438 --> 00:30:58,605 I just don't feel like I'm being shown as the person that I am. And, you know, I'm [indistinct], 935 00:30:58,607 --> 00:31:00,007 shown as the person that I am. And, you know, I'm [indistinct], me and my husband. 936 00:31:00,009 --> 00:31:01,208 And, you know, I'm [indistinct], me and my husband. I don't have time for all 937 00:31:01,210 --> 00:31:02,809 me and my husband. I don't have time for all the negative bull. 938 00:31:02,811 --> 00:31:03,777 I don't have time for all the negative bull. I really don't. 939 00:31:03,779 --> 00:31:04,511 The negative bull. I really don't. I'm already a cussing preacher 940 00:31:04,513 --> 00:31:06,580 I really don't. I'm already a cussing preacher on the low. 941 00:31:06,582 --> 00:31:07,881 I'm already a cussing preacher on the low. I don't need nobody making me 942 00:31:07,883 --> 00:31:09,249 on the low. I don't need nobody making me no more of a cusser, 943 00:31:09,251 --> 00:31:12,085 I don't need nobody making me no more of a cusser, or no more of a whatever. 944 00:31:12,087 --> 00:31:13,387 No more of a cusser, or no more of a whatever. And I just -- 945 00:31:13,389 --> 00:31:15,389 or no more of a whatever. And I just -- as much as I love my girls, 946 00:31:15,391 --> 00:31:17,457 and I just -- as much as I love my girls, and, you know, tv one, 947 00:31:17,459 --> 00:31:19,159 as much as I love my girls, and, you know, tv one, they've been good to me. 948 00:31:19,161 --> 00:31:21,562 And, you know, tv one, they've been good to me. I'm just really not interested 949 00:31:21,564 --> 00:31:25,132 they've been good to me. I'm just really not interested in, um... 950 00:31:25,134 --> 00:31:27,367 I'm just really not interested in, um... Being the crazy girl, 951 00:31:27,369 --> 00:31:29,970 in, um... Being the crazy girl, 'cause I'm not the crazy girl. 952 00:31:29,972 --> 00:31:31,438 Being the crazy girl, 'cause I'm not the crazy girl. I'm god's girl. 953 00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:31,939 'cause I'm not the crazy girl. I'm god's girl. And that's -- period. 954 00:31:36,878 --> 00:31:42,382 >> I know what kind of person that I really am. And I saw the person that 955 00:31:42,384 --> 00:31:45,852 that I really am. And I saw the person that they tried to portray me to be. 956 00:31:45,854 --> 00:31:47,087 And I saw the person that they tried to portray me to be. I do have that little -- 957 00:31:47,089 --> 00:31:48,522 they tried to portray me to be. I do have that little -- that little demon 958 00:31:48,524 --> 00:31:50,324 I do have that little -- that little demon that likes to tickle my shoulder 959 00:31:50,326 --> 00:31:51,258 that little demon that likes to tickle my shoulder every now and then, 960 00:31:51,260 --> 00:31:54,361 that likes to tickle my shoulder every now and then, and make me turn into shaqueda. 961 00:31:54,363 --> 00:31:57,931 Every now and then, and make me turn into shaqueda. But I'm not that person. 962 00:31:57,933 --> 00:32:00,334 And make me turn into shaqueda. But I'm not that person. And... 963 00:32:00,336 --> 00:32:01,835 But I'm not that person. And... As much as I love, 964 00:32:01,837 --> 00:32:03,937 and... As much as I love, you know, everybody on there, 965 00:32:03,939 --> 00:32:05,639 as much as I love, you know, everybody on there, I just feel like they tried 966 00:32:05,641 --> 00:32:06,773 you know, everybody on there, I just feel like they tried to make me seem like I was 967 00:32:06,775 --> 00:32:09,509 I just feel like they tried to make me seem like I was a troubled child, and I'm not. 968 00:32:09,511 --> 00:32:11,778 To make me seem like I was a troubled child, and I'm not. That's where I first ever felt 969 00:32:11,780 --> 00:32:15,182 a troubled child, and I'm not. That's where I first ever felt an anxiety attack. 970 00:32:15,184 --> 00:32:16,183 That's where I first ever felt an anxiety attack. Yep. 971 00:32:16,185 --> 00:32:19,419 An anxiety attack. Yep. I went through anxiety so bad. 972 00:32:19,421 --> 00:32:21,989 Yep. I went through anxiety so bad. And I had bubble gut. 973 00:32:21,991 --> 00:32:25,192 I went through anxiety so bad. And I had bubble gut. I had uncontrollable 974 00:32:25,194 --> 00:32:28,662 and I had bubble gut. I had uncontrollable emotional moments from that show 975 00:32:28,664 --> 00:32:30,631 I had uncontrollable emotional moments from that show because... 976 00:32:30,633 --> 00:32:32,766 Emotional moments from that show because... That's not me all the time. 977 00:32:32,768 --> 00:32:35,369 Because... That's not me all the time. Everybody has 978 00:32:35,371 --> 00:32:37,871 that's not me all the time. Everybody has a top-blowing moment. 979 00:32:37,873 --> 00:32:39,906 Everybody has a top-blowing moment. It seemed like... 980 00:32:39,908 --> 00:32:42,442 A top-blowing moment. It seemed like... Every time they filmed me, 981 00:32:42,444 --> 00:32:43,644 it seemed like... Every time they filmed me, they -- they would get me to 982 00:32:43,646 --> 00:32:44,811 every time they filmed me, they -- they would get me to a place where somebody would 983 00:32:44,813 --> 00:32:46,046 they -- they would get me to a place where somebody would say something, or do something 984 00:32:46,048 --> 00:32:47,681 a place where somebody would say something, or do something that would piss me off, 985 00:32:47,683 --> 00:32:49,249 say something, or do something that would piss me off, and then, my -- 986 00:32:49,251 --> 00:32:51,084 that would piss me off, and then, my -- my top would blow. 987 00:32:51,086 --> 00:32:51,885 And then, my -- my top would blow. And then, now you want 988 00:32:51,887 --> 00:32:52,252 my top would blow. And then, now you want to record me. 989 00:32:55,623 --> 00:33:02,396 I'm so glad those days are over. And...There were good moments because... 990 00:33:02,398 --> 00:33:03,830 And...There were good moments because... You know, it put me back on 991 00:33:03,832 --> 00:33:06,233 because... You know, it put me back on my platform, or whatever. 992 00:33:06,235 --> 00:33:08,068 You know, it put me back on my platform, or whatever. And... 993 00:33:08,070 --> 00:33:09,870 My platform, or whatever. And... The good moments, the happy 994 00:33:09,872 --> 00:33:11,171 and... The good moments, the happy moments, the funny moments, 995 00:33:11,173 --> 00:33:13,140 the good moments, the happy moments, the funny moments, who I really am. 996 00:33:13,142 --> 00:33:14,908 Moments, the funny moments, who I really am. People got to see a little bit 997 00:33:14,910 --> 00:33:17,711 who I really am. People got to see a little bit of that crazy, silly girl. 998 00:33:17,713 --> 00:33:20,981 People got to see a little bit of that crazy, silly girl. But.. 999 00:33:20,983 --> 00:33:23,450 Of that crazy, silly girl. But.. I'm glad it's over. 1000 00:33:23,452 --> 00:33:24,618 But.. I'm glad it's over. I hate to say it like that, 1001 00:33:24,620 --> 00:33:27,554 I'm glad it's over. I hate to say it like that, but I'm glad those days are done 1002 00:33:27,556 --> 00:33:29,623 I hate to say it like that, but I'm glad those days are done because I've grown so much 1003 00:33:29,625 --> 00:33:33,260 but I'm glad those days are done because I've grown so much since then, and... 1004 00:33:33,262 --> 00:33:34,061 Because I've grown so much since then, and... Un-uh. 1005 00:33:34,063 --> 00:33:34,995 Since then, and... Un-uh. Nobody can -- 1006 00:33:34,997 --> 00:33:37,030 un-uh. Nobody can -- you can't kick me off my square, 1007 00:33:37,032 --> 00:33:37,464 nobody can -- you can't kick me off my square, honey. 1008 00:33:37,466 --> 00:33:39,599 You can't kick me off my square, honey. My square is my square. 1009 00:33:39,601 --> 00:33:41,001 Honey. My square is my square. I'm gonna stand in my square. 1010 00:33:41,003 --> 00:33:43,370 My square is my square. I'm gonna stand in my square. You can't kick me off my square. 1011 00:33:43,372 --> 00:33:44,304 I'm gonna stand in my square. You can't kick me off my square. We're not like that 1012 00:33:44,306 --> 00:33:44,838 you can't kick me off my square. We're not like that all the time. 1013 00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:47,040 We're not like that all the time. Like, we're actually like 1014 00:33:47,042 --> 00:33:49,109 all the time. Like, we're actually like cornballs, and mothers, 1015 00:33:49,111 --> 00:33:50,444 like, we're actually like cornballs, and mothers, and loving wives, 1016 00:33:50,446 --> 00:33:51,478 cornballs, and mothers, and loving wives, and loving mothers, 1017 00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:52,746 and loving wives, and loving mothers, and loving friends. 1018 00:33:52,748 --> 00:33:55,315 And loving mothers, and loving friends. And... 1019 00:33:55,317 --> 00:33:56,316 And loving friends. And... I don't know why 1020 00:33:56,318 --> 00:33:57,851 and... I don't know why tv always wants to -- 1021 00:33:57,853 --> 00:33:59,853 I don't know why tv always wants to -- certain tv, should I say -- 1022 00:33:59,855 --> 00:34:01,521 tv always wants to -- certain tv, should I say -- wants to portray women -- 1023 00:34:01,523 --> 00:34:03,090 certain tv, should I say -- wants to portray women -- especially african-american 1024 00:34:03,092 --> 00:34:04,558 wants to portray women -- especially african-american women, or women of color, 1025 00:34:04,560 --> 00:34:05,926 especially african-american women, or women of color, or women of, you know, 1026 00:34:05,928 --> 00:34:07,494 women, or women of color, or women of, you know, any other race -- 1027 00:34:07,496 --> 00:34:08,428 or women of, you know, any other race -- like, why do y'all 1028 00:34:08,430 --> 00:34:09,362 any other race -- like, why do y'all got to make us look like 1029 00:34:09,364 --> 00:34:10,330 like, why do y'all got to make us look like we just crazy, 1030 00:34:10,332 --> 00:34:12,566 got to make us look like we just crazy, and like we just fight all day, 1031 00:34:12,568 --> 00:34:13,667 we just crazy, and like we just fight all day, we want to bit each other's head 1032 00:34:13,669 --> 00:34:14,701 and like we just fight all day, we want to bit each other's head off, or titties off, 1033 00:34:14,703 --> 00:34:16,036 we want to bit each other's head off, or titties off, or whatever. 1034 00:34:16,038 --> 00:34:16,870 Off, or titties off, or whatever. Like, stop. 1035 00:34:16,872 --> 00:34:18,371 Or whatever. Like, stop. Don't do that to us. 1036 00:34:18,373 --> 00:34:21,041 Like, stop. Don't do that to us. That's -- that's not who we are. 1037 00:34:21,043 --> 00:34:21,775 Don't do that to us. That's -- that's not who we are. You know? 1038 00:34:21,777 --> 00:34:23,243 That's -- that's not who we are. You know? Everybody gets pissed off 1039 00:34:23,245 --> 00:34:23,944 you know? Everybody gets pissed off when you put them 1040 00:34:23,946 --> 00:34:26,880 everybody gets pissed off when you put them in a position to be pissed off. 1041 00:34:26,882 --> 00:34:27,981 When you put them in a position to be pissed off. But... 1042 00:34:27,983 --> 00:34:29,182 In a position to be pissed off. But... We got to get better. 1043 00:34:29,184 --> 00:34:30,417 But... We got to get better. We got to do better. 1044 00:34:30,419 --> 00:34:32,085 We got to get better. We got to do better. And I vowed -- you see, I have 1045 00:34:32,087 --> 00:34:33,787 we got to do better. And I vowed -- you see, I have not done no tv, no nothing. 1046 00:34:33,789 --> 00:34:36,423 And I vowed -- you see, I have not done no tv, no nothing. Like, I vowed to to be the best 1047 00:34:36,425 --> 00:34:37,657 not done no tv, no nothing. Like, I vowed to to be the best that I can be. 1048 00:34:37,659 --> 00:34:38,625 Like, I vowed to to be the best that I can be. [ clears throat ] 1049 00:34:38,627 --> 00:34:41,895 that I can be. [ clears throat ] and that was not the best me. 1050 00:34:41,897 --> 00:34:44,397 [ clears throat ] and that was not the best me. But that was also 10 years ago, 1051 00:34:44,399 --> 00:34:44,898 and that was not the best me. But that was also 10 years ago, when I was, like, 13. 1052 00:34:49,937 --> 00:34:57,377 >> okay, so, I went through some horrible domestic violence, and it was... 1053 00:34:57,379 --> 00:34:59,146 Some horrible domestic violence, and it was... So horrible. 1054 00:34:59,148 --> 00:34:59,679 And it was... So horrible. Domestic violence is... 1055 00:35:04,452 --> 00:35:04,584 ♪ 1056 00:35:07,722 --> 00:35:10,757 you know, if you've been through it, and you know what it feels like, 1057 00:35:10,759 --> 00:35:12,559 through it, and you know what it feels like, and it's not good. 1058 00:35:12,561 --> 00:35:14,294 And you know what it feels like, and it's not good. And... 1059 00:35:14,296 --> 00:35:15,529 And it's not good. And... You feel like someone 1060 00:35:15,531 --> 00:35:17,831 and... You feel like someone is stealing... 1061 00:35:17,833 --> 00:35:18,532 You feel like someone is stealing... Your soul. 1062 00:35:18,534 --> 00:35:19,733 Is stealing... Your soul. You feel like someone's stealing 1063 00:35:19,735 --> 00:35:20,400 your soul. You feel like someone's stealing who you are. 1064 00:35:20,402 --> 00:35:22,202 You feel like someone's stealing who you are. You feel like someone's 1065 00:35:22,204 --> 00:35:23,470 who you are. You feel like someone's trying to control 1066 00:35:23,472 --> 00:35:24,471 you feel like someone's trying to control your every move, 1067 00:35:24,473 --> 00:35:25,972 trying to control your every move, your every breath, 1068 00:35:25,974 --> 00:35:27,674 your every move, your every breath, your every word, 1069 00:35:27,676 --> 00:35:30,110 your every breath, your every word, your every...Look, 1070 00:35:30,112 --> 00:35:31,912 your every word, your every...Look, your every... 1071 00:35:31,914 --> 00:35:33,780 Your every...Look, your every... Everything. 1072 00:35:33,782 --> 00:35:35,182 Your every... Everything. And it's horrible. 1073 00:35:35,184 --> 00:35:38,752 Everything. And it's horrible. It's not a good feeling at all. 1074 00:35:38,754 --> 00:35:43,557 And it's horrible. It's not a good feeling at all. And so, I joined the national 1075 00:35:43,559 --> 00:35:45,325 it's not a good feeling at all. And so, I joined the national coalition against domestic 1076 00:35:45,327 --> 00:35:47,794 and so, I joined the national coalition against domestic violence... 1077 00:35:47,796 --> 00:35:51,264 Coalition against domestic violence... Movement because... 1078 00:35:51,266 --> 00:35:54,334 Violence... Movement because... I don't think it's fair that 1079 00:35:54,336 --> 00:35:55,936 movement because... I don't think it's fair that people -- I'm not going to say 1080 00:35:55,938 --> 00:35:57,137 I don't think it's fair that people -- I'm not going to say "men," 1081 00:35:57,139 --> 00:35:58,271 people -- I'm not going to say "men," but I don't think it's fair 1082 00:35:58,273 --> 00:36:00,707 "men," but I don't think it's fair that people can just, like, kind 1083 00:36:00,709 --> 00:36:03,009 but I don't think it's fair that people can just, like, kind of take control of who you are. 1084 00:36:03,011 --> 00:36:05,212 That people can just, like, kind of take control of who you are. It's not fair. 1085 00:36:05,214 --> 00:36:05,445 Of take control of who you are. It's not fair. And... 1086 00:36:14,355 --> 00:36:14,487 ♪ 1087 00:36:20,161 --> 00:36:20,327 I'm sorry. 1088 00:36:28,903 --> 00:36:34,207 When you feel like you can trust someone, and they take away your power 1089 00:36:34,209 --> 00:36:37,077 you can trust someone, and they take away your power as a person... 1090 00:36:37,079 --> 00:36:39,346 And they take away your power as a person... Your power as a as a human, 1091 00:36:39,348 --> 00:36:41,481 as a person... Your power as a as a human, your power as a woman. 1092 00:36:41,483 --> 00:36:42,983 Your power as a as a human, your power as a woman. It's not a good feeling. 1093 00:36:42,985 --> 00:36:44,684 Your power as a woman. It's not a good feeling. It's really crappy. 1094 00:36:44,686 --> 00:36:46,286 It's not a good feeling. It's really crappy. And... 1095 00:36:46,288 --> 00:36:47,654 It's really crappy. And... I thank god that I was able 1096 00:36:47,656 --> 00:36:50,724 and... I thank god that I was able to get out of that because... 1097 00:36:50,726 --> 00:36:52,325 I thank god that I was able to get out of that because... It's... 1098 00:36:52,327 --> 00:36:53,793 To get out of that because... It's... Not a lot of women 1099 00:36:53,795 --> 00:36:58,098 it's... Not a lot of women are able to get out of that. 1100 00:36:58,100 --> 00:36:59,532 Not a lot of women are able to get out of that. There's so many women that don't 1101 00:36:59,534 --> 00:37:00,934 are able to get out of that. There's so many women that don't get out, 1102 00:37:00,936 --> 00:37:02,936 there's so many women that don't get out, and they lose their lives. 1103 00:37:02,938 --> 00:37:05,405 Get out, and they lose their lives. And one of my best friends, 1104 00:37:05,407 --> 00:37:07,207 and they lose their lives. And one of my best friends, her name was miranda wilson, 1105 00:37:07,209 --> 00:37:08,541 and one of my best friends, her name was miranda wilson, and she lost her life 1106 00:37:08,543 --> 00:37:10,477 her name was miranda wilson, and she lost her life to domestic violence. 1107 00:37:10,479 --> 00:37:11,378 And she lost her life to domestic violence. And then, I went through it 1108 00:37:11,380 --> 00:37:13,079 to domestic violence. And then, I went through it myself. 1109 00:37:13,081 --> 00:37:15,882 And then, I went through it myself. It's horrible. 1110 00:37:15,884 --> 00:37:17,384 Myself. It's horrible. You literally feel like 1111 00:37:17,386 --> 00:37:18,385 it's horrible. You literally feel like you're in jail. 1112 00:37:18,387 --> 00:37:20,120 You literally feel like you're in jail. You feel like you're in a... 1113 00:37:20,122 --> 00:37:23,290 You're in jail. You feel like you're in a... In a -- in a -- in a cell, 1114 00:37:23,292 --> 00:37:26,359 you feel like you're in a... In a -- in a -- in a cell, mentally and emotionally. 1115 00:37:26,361 --> 00:37:28,595 In a -- in a -- in a cell, mentally and emotionally. And it's like you can't get out. 1116 00:37:28,597 --> 00:37:30,597 Mentally and emotionally. And it's like you can't get out. But god gave me the strength 1117 00:37:30,599 --> 00:37:33,733 and it's like you can't get out. But god gave me the strength and the power and the judge-- 1118 00:37:33,735 --> 00:37:36,603 but god gave me the strength and the power and the judge-- the judgment of a judge to say, 1119 00:37:36,605 --> 00:37:37,771 and the power and the judge-- the judgment of a judge to say, "get out of there. 1120 00:37:37,773 --> 00:37:38,305 The judgment of a judge to say, "get out of there. And if you don't 1121 00:37:38,307 --> 00:37:38,805 "get out of there. And if you don't get out of there, 1122 00:37:38,807 --> 00:37:41,207 and if you don't get out of there, I'm gonna take your children." 1123 00:37:41,209 --> 00:37:42,509 get out of there, I'm gonna take your children." and I don't play with my kids, 1124 00:37:42,511 --> 00:37:43,009 I'm gonna take your children." and I don't play with my kids, so I got out of there. 1125 00:37:46,480 --> 00:37:52,085 Like...And so many women can't. With the national coalition against domestic violence, 1126 00:37:52,087 --> 00:37:54,287 with the national coalition against domestic violence, what we do is, we stand for 1127 00:37:54,289 --> 00:37:56,323 against domestic violence, what we do is, we stand for helping mothers, and families, 1128 00:37:56,325 --> 00:37:57,791 what we do is, we stand for helping mothers, and families, and help fathers, 1129 00:37:57,793 --> 00:37:58,959 helping mothers, and families, and help fathers, and their children. 1130 00:37:58,961 --> 00:38:00,694 And help fathers, and their children. You know, sometimes women... 1131 00:38:00,696 --> 00:38:02,696 And their children. You know, sometimes women... [ mumbles ] 1132 00:38:02,698 --> 00:38:04,397 you know, sometimes women... [ mumbles ] people need help. 1133 00:38:04,399 --> 00:38:06,366 [ mumbles ] people need help. And so, like, we -- 1134 00:38:06,368 --> 00:38:08,001 people need help. And so, like, we -- that's what we specialize in. 1135 00:38:08,003 --> 00:38:10,704 And so, like, we -- that's what we specialize in. Like, you can get out of there. 1136 00:38:10,706 --> 00:38:11,972 That's what we specialize in. Like, you can get out of there. Just get out of the -- 1137 00:38:11,974 --> 00:38:12,772 like, you can get out of there. Just get out of the -- find help, 1138 00:38:12,774 --> 00:38:15,041 just get out of the -- find help, find the right person. 1139 00:38:15,043 --> 00:38:16,643 Find help, find the right person. Find whoever you feel 1140 00:38:16,645 --> 00:38:18,778 find the right person. Find whoever you feel is gonna be able to help you, 1141 00:38:18,780 --> 00:38:21,514 find whoever you feel is gonna be able to help you, and not give -- give you away 1142 00:38:21,516 --> 00:38:23,883 is gonna be able to help you, and not give -- give you away to the situation. 1143 00:38:23,885 --> 00:38:24,985 And not give -- give you away to the situation. You know, get out of there. 1144 00:38:24,987 --> 00:38:25,819 To the situation. You know, get out of there. You can get out of there 1145 00:38:25,821 --> 00:38:26,619 you know, get out of there. You can get out of there with children. 1146 00:38:26,621 --> 00:38:29,522 You can get out of there with children. They have special, um... 1147 00:38:29,524 --> 00:38:30,957 With children. They have special, um... Places for mothers 1148 00:38:30,959 --> 00:38:31,825 they have special, um... Places for mothers and their children, 1149 00:38:31,827 --> 00:38:33,960 places for mothers and their children, and fathers and their children 1150 00:38:33,962 --> 00:38:35,495 and their children, and fathers and their children in these situations. 1151 00:38:35,497 --> 00:38:36,563 And fathers and their children in these situations. And then, even in 1152 00:38:36,565 --> 00:38:38,598 in these situations. And then, even in same-sex marriages, you know, 1153 00:38:38,600 --> 00:38:40,233 and then, even in same-sex marriages, you know, people are being abused, 1154 00:38:40,235 --> 00:38:41,234 same-sex marriages, you know, people are being abused, you know, 1155 00:38:41,236 --> 00:38:43,103 people are being abused, you know, and they have -- they -- 1156 00:38:43,105 --> 00:38:46,139 you know, and they have -- they -- they have places for you to go. 1157 00:38:46,141 --> 00:38:48,041 And they have -- they -- they have places for you to go. Okay, so, my support about 1158 00:38:48,043 --> 00:38:54,848 they have places for you to go. Okay, so, my support about the lgbtq+ community, 1159 00:38:54,850 --> 00:38:56,916 okay, so, my support about the lgbtq+ community, I feel like... 1160 00:38:56,918 --> 00:38:59,085 The lgbtq+ community, I feel like... Everybody is a person, 1161 00:38:59,087 --> 00:39:01,054 I feel like... Everybody is a person, and you live your life 1162 00:39:01,056 --> 00:39:01,788 everybody is a person, and you live your life how you feel. 1163 00:39:01,790 --> 00:39:03,857 And you live your life how you feel. Like, you should live your life. 1164 00:39:03,859 --> 00:39:06,026 How you feel. Like, you should live your life. And I'm no judge. 1165 00:39:06,028 --> 00:39:06,860 Like, you should live your life. And I'm no judge. I'm no god. 1166 00:39:06,862 --> 00:39:07,594 And I'm no judge. I'm no god. I have no heaven, 1167 00:39:07,596 --> 00:39:08,294 I'm no god. I have no heaven, I have no hell, 1168 00:39:08,296 --> 00:39:10,230 I have no heaven, I have no hell, to put anybody in. 1169 00:39:10,232 --> 00:39:12,165 I have no hell, to put anybody in. And I think that 1170 00:39:12,167 --> 00:39:15,101 to put anybody in. And I think that who is born... 1171 00:39:15,103 --> 00:39:18,238 And I think that who is born... Not liking what they like? 1172 00:39:18,240 --> 00:39:19,105 Who is born... Not liking what they like? Period. 1173 00:39:19,107 --> 00:39:21,174 Not liking what they like? Period. You're born to like what you 1174 00:39:21,176 --> 00:39:23,476 period. You're born to like what you like, and it is what it is. 1175 00:39:23,478 --> 00:39:24,744 You're born to like what you like, and it is what it is. And at the end of the day, 1176 00:39:24,746 --> 00:39:25,645 like, and it is what it is. And at the end of the day, people are people. 1177 00:39:25,647 --> 00:39:26,246 And at the end of the day, people are people. And I just -- 1178 00:39:26,248 --> 00:39:28,681 people are people. And I just -- I just love you for who you are, 1179 00:39:28,683 --> 00:39:30,183 and I just -- I just love you for who you are, not for what you have, 1180 00:39:30,185 --> 00:39:31,418 I just love you for who you are, not for what you have, or what you don't have, 1181 00:39:31,420 --> 00:39:33,920 not for what you have, or what you don't have, or who you aren't. 1182 00:39:33,922 --> 00:39:34,921 Or what you don't have, or who you aren't. I just -- 1183 00:39:34,923 --> 00:39:36,923 or who you aren't. I just -- I love you just the way 1184 00:39:36,925 --> 00:39:38,958 I just -- I love you just the way that god made you. 1185 00:39:38,960 --> 00:39:41,561 I love you just the way that god made you. Understand that that person 1186 00:39:41,563 --> 00:39:42,729 that god made you. Understand that that person is someone's son, 1187 00:39:42,731 --> 00:39:44,664 understand that that person is someone's son, or someone's daughter, 1188 00:39:44,666 --> 00:39:45,765 is someone's son, or someone's daughter, someone's friend, 1189 00:39:45,767 --> 00:39:46,633 or someone's daughter, someone's friend, someone's sister, 1190 00:39:46,635 --> 00:39:47,834 someone's friend, someone's sister, someone's brother, 1191 00:39:47,836 --> 00:39:49,302 someone's sister, someone's brother, someone's cousin. 1192 00:39:49,304 --> 00:39:51,538 Someone's brother, someone's cousin. Don't -- don't -- don't do that. 1193 00:39:51,540 --> 00:39:53,239 Someone's cousin. Don't -- don't -- don't do that. Love them because 1194 00:39:53,241 --> 00:39:54,240 don't -- don't -- don't do that. Love them because they're beautiful, and they're 1195 00:39:54,242 --> 00:39:56,076 love them because they're beautiful, and they're wonderfully made by god. 1196 00:39:56,078 --> 00:39:58,578 They're beautiful, and they're wonderfully made by god. And he created them just the way 1197 00:39:58,580 --> 00:40:01,114 wonderfully made by god. And he created them just the way that they have been created. 1198 00:40:01,116 --> 00:40:02,849 And he created them just the way that they have been created. What's in my future 1199 00:40:02,851 --> 00:40:05,485 that they have been created. What's in my future is so much stuff. 1200 00:40:05,487 --> 00:40:07,454 What's in my future is so much stuff. I have music coming. 1201 00:40:07,456 --> 00:40:09,022 Is so much stuff. I have music coming. I have... 1202 00:40:09,024 --> 00:40:10,190 I have music coming. I have... A lot of stuff 1203 00:40:10,192 --> 00:40:11,891 I have... A lot of stuff I can't talk about 1204 00:40:11,893 --> 00:40:13,593 a lot of stuff I can't talk about 'cause I'm under contract. 1205 00:40:13,595 --> 00:40:15,495 I can't talk about 'cause I'm under contract. Sorry. 1206 00:40:15,497 --> 00:40:17,263 'cause I'm under contract. Sorry. I always have advice, 1207 00:40:17,265 --> 00:40:18,765 sorry. I always have advice, and I always have encouragement 1208 00:40:18,767 --> 00:40:21,067 I always have advice, and I always have encouragement for my fans, especially ones 1209 00:40:21,069 --> 00:40:23,870 and I always have encouragement for my fans, especially ones that are aspiring to be artists, 1210 00:40:23,872 --> 00:40:26,406 for my fans, especially ones that are aspiring to be artists, and singers, and actors, 1211 00:40:26,408 --> 00:40:27,207 that are aspiring to be artists, and singers, and actors, and all that. 1212 00:40:27,209 --> 00:40:28,808 And singers, and actors, and all that. I will say this first -- 1213 00:40:28,810 --> 00:40:31,744 and all that. I will say this first -- anybody who is aspiring to be 1214 00:40:31,746 --> 00:40:34,547 I will say this first -- anybody who is aspiring to be an artist, or fam-- whatever. 1215 00:40:34,549 --> 00:40:36,216 Anybody who is aspiring to be an artist, or fam-- whatever. I wasn't trying to do all that, 1216 00:40:36,218 --> 00:40:37,584 an artist, or fam-- whatever. I wasn't trying to do all that, but once I got in it, I said, 1217 00:40:37,586 --> 00:40:39,686 I wasn't trying to do all that, but once I got in it, I said, "okay, I'm here now, 1218 00:40:39,688 --> 00:40:42,655 but once I got in it, I said, "okay, I'm here now, so I might as well do it." 1219 00:40:42,657 --> 00:40:46,126 "okay, I'm here now, so I might as well do it." but if you do want to do it, 1220 00:40:46,128 --> 00:40:47,560 so I might as well do it." but if you do want to do it, and you have children, 1221 00:40:47,562 --> 00:40:48,895 but if you do want to do it, and you have children, or you may be pregnant, 1222 00:40:48,897 --> 00:40:51,898 and you have children, or you may be pregnant, or whatever, 1223 00:40:51,900 --> 00:40:53,733 or you may be pregnant, or whatever, if it's for you, it's for you, 1224 00:40:53,735 --> 00:40:54,968 or whatever, if it's for you, it's for you, and you will have it. 1225 00:40:54,970 --> 00:40:56,336 If it's for you, it's for you, and you will have it. And don't worry about 1226 00:40:56,338 --> 00:40:57,737 and you will have it. And don't worry about what people say. 1227 00:40:57,739 --> 00:40:59,139 And don't worry about what people say. If it's not for you, 1228 00:40:59,141 --> 00:41:00,306 what people say. If it's not for you, it won't be for you. 1229 00:41:00,308 --> 00:41:02,208 If it's not for you, it won't be for you. You'll be singing and chasing a 1230 00:41:02,210 --> 00:41:04,978 it won't be for you. You'll be singing and chasing a dream for the rest of your life. 1231 00:41:04,980 --> 00:41:07,213 You'll be singing and chasing a dream for the rest of your life. If it's for you, it will happen. 1232 00:41:07,215 --> 00:41:07,780 Dream for the rest of your life. If it's for you, it will happen. It will fall in your lap. 1233 00:41:08,582 --> 00:41:10,517 You don't have to chase it. 1234 00:41:10,651 --> 00:41:13,887 Do not chase after something. 1235 00:41:14,021 --> 00:41:14,921 If it's for you, 1236 00:41:15,055 --> 00:41:17,257 it will chase after you. 1237 00:41:17,391 --> 00:41:18,024 And I'll just say 1238 00:41:18,159 --> 00:41:20,226 that much. 1239 00:41:20,361 --> 00:41:20,493 Period. 1240 00:41:23,697 --> 00:41:25,265 'cause it's real. 1241 00:41:25,399 --> 00:41:25,999 'cause I didn't have to 1242 00:41:26,133 --> 00:41:27,333 chase that [bleep]. 1243 00:41:27,468 --> 00:41:29,569 Everything came to me. 1244 00:41:29,703 --> 00:41:31,871 I don't understand people that, 1245 00:41:32,006 --> 00:41:33,139 like, chase after stuff. 1246 00:41:33,274 --> 00:41:34,240 I'm like, "why are you 1247 00:41:34,375 --> 00:41:35,074 chasing that?" 1248 00:41:35,209 --> 00:41:36,976 like, if it's for you 1249 00:41:37,111 --> 00:41:38,878 it will come for you. 1250 00:41:39,013 --> 00:41:40,813 You don't got to chase nothing. 1251 00:41:40,948 --> 00:41:41,114 You don't.