1 00:00:07,009 --> 00:00:10,509 (engaging dramatic music) 2 00:00:15,465 --> 00:00:18,417 (keyboard taps) 3 00:00:18,417 --> 00:00:21,500 (gentle piano music) 4 00:00:24,573 --> 00:00:27,406 (keyboard clacks) 5 00:00:40,610 --> 00:00:43,277 (keyboard taps) 6 00:00:49,981 --> 00:00:52,648 (keyboard taps) 7 00:00:58,201 --> 00:01:00,134 - Try it in black. 8 00:01:00,134 --> 00:01:02,211 (uptempo drum beat) 9 00:01:02,211 --> 00:01:04,997 Maybe not full black, something a little lighter. 10 00:01:04,997 --> 00:01:08,181 (percussion beats) 11 00:01:08,181 --> 00:01:10,457 Maybe slightly bigger on the font. 12 00:01:10,457 --> 00:01:12,811 (snare beats) 13 00:01:12,811 --> 00:01:14,211 How about a different color? 14 00:01:15,573 --> 00:01:18,061 (rhythmic percussion) 15 00:01:18,061 --> 00:01:19,594 Oh, oh yeah, I like that. 16 00:01:20,901 --> 00:01:23,415 Now, maybe a little smaller on the font. 17 00:01:23,415 --> 00:01:26,832 (light percussion music) 18 00:01:27,791 --> 00:01:28,624 Perfect. 19 00:01:29,585 --> 00:01:34,311 Great work, Ian, great work. 20 00:01:34,311 --> 00:01:35,561 How do you feel about it? 21 00:01:36,641 --> 00:01:37,931 - I'm happy if you're happy. 22 00:01:37,931 --> 00:01:39,331 - Thank you very much. 23 00:01:39,331 --> 00:01:42,176 You know, I knew you were the right choice. 24 00:01:42,176 --> 00:01:44,259 (laughs) 25 00:01:46,861 --> 00:01:48,261 Oh, is there something else? 26 00:01:50,721 --> 00:01:53,101 Oh, right, right, right. 27 00:01:53,101 --> 00:01:54,874 I'm a bit short on time. 28 00:02:05,185 --> 00:02:06,018 Mm-hm. 29 00:02:12,021 --> 00:02:13,121 There's progress here. 30 00:02:18,357 --> 00:02:21,857 But, it's just not what we're looking for! 31 00:02:29,904 --> 00:02:32,061 - Too many notes? 32 00:02:32,061 --> 00:02:33,564 - It's just a bit derivative. 33 00:02:34,814 --> 00:02:38,064 (dramatic piano music) 34 00:02:46,085 --> 00:02:49,335 Great work on the logo, though, truly. 35 00:02:52,701 --> 00:02:53,534 - Thanks. 36 00:02:55,191 --> 00:02:56,331 - [Taymour] How'd it go? 37 00:02:56,331 --> 00:02:58,021 - [Ian] He really liked the logo. 38 00:02:58,021 --> 00:03:01,938 (melancholic orchestral music) 39 00:03:22,445 --> 00:03:25,695 (delicate piano music) 40 00:03:43,145 --> 00:03:45,978 (keyboard clacks) 41 00:03:58,098 --> 00:04:01,765 (stirring orchestral music) 42 00:04:06,157 --> 00:04:08,990 (keyboard clacks) 43 00:04:19,957 --> 00:04:21,217 (computer closes) 44 00:04:21,217 --> 00:04:24,212 (Ian sighs) 45 00:04:24,212 --> 00:04:26,629 (bed creaks) 46 00:04:29,747 --> 00:04:32,247 (birds chirp) 47 00:04:51,844 --> 00:04:54,244 (engaging piano music) 48 00:04:54,244 --> 00:04:57,827 (strokes violently strike) 49 00:05:01,788 --> 00:05:04,955 (uptempo piano music) 50 00:05:29,524 --> 00:05:32,607 (somber piano notes) 51 00:05:36,604 --> 00:05:39,104 (phone beeps) 52 00:05:41,748 --> 00:05:43,621 So, what actually made you use a dating site? 53 00:05:43,621 --> 00:05:46,251 I mean, I'm sure you got guys asking you out all the time. 54 00:05:46,251 --> 00:05:49,081 - Well, my friend met her boyfriend online? 55 00:05:49,081 --> 00:05:52,291 and our other friend did too, but my sister, 56 00:05:52,291 --> 00:05:55,371 she just got engaged and she met hims online. 57 00:05:55,371 --> 00:05:57,674 So, I figured I must as well give it a shot. 58 00:05:58,568 --> 00:05:59,869 - You had any luck? 59 00:05:59,869 --> 00:06:02,261 - A few dates, it's kind of overwhelming. 60 00:06:02,261 --> 00:06:04,751 - Yeah, I know, I hear there's so many assholes out there. 61 00:06:04,751 --> 00:06:06,611 - I know, the assholes are easy to deal with. 62 00:06:06,611 --> 00:06:08,481 You just delete whatever crude 63 00:06:08,481 --> 00:06:10,921 bullshit they say or whatever. 64 00:06:10,921 --> 00:06:14,181 The racially-charged things used to bother me a bit more, 65 00:06:14,181 --> 00:06:16,895 guys talking about catching Yellow Fever. 66 00:06:16,895 --> 00:06:18,321 - Wait, what? 67 00:06:18,321 --> 00:06:20,131 People would do that in a message? 68 00:06:20,131 --> 00:06:24,601 - Yes, the overwhelming part were all the sweet messages. 69 00:06:24,601 --> 00:06:27,301 You know, I would get these thoughtful, 70 00:06:27,301 --> 00:06:29,371 sincere messages from guys responding 71 00:06:29,371 --> 00:06:32,681 to my profile and showing general interest, 72 00:06:32,681 --> 00:06:35,761 and then I'm just not attracted to the person. 73 00:06:35,761 --> 00:06:38,271 I used to try to respond but it was so much. 74 00:06:38,271 --> 00:06:40,411 I don't even know these people and suddenly 75 00:06:40,411 --> 00:06:42,071 I'm investing so much emotional energy 76 00:06:42,071 --> 00:06:43,771 just trying to let them down easy, 77 00:06:44,758 --> 00:06:46,551 I just had to stop responding. 78 00:06:46,551 --> 00:06:48,631 - I get it, it's exhausting. 79 00:06:48,631 --> 00:06:49,464 - I feel bad about it. 80 00:06:49,464 --> 00:06:53,021 - No, I send at least 10 messages a day and every 81 00:06:53,021 --> 00:06:55,401 single time and get invested enough 82 00:06:55,401 --> 00:06:57,461 to actually write a great message and then somehow 83 00:06:57,461 --> 00:06:59,741 not be attached to whether or not they respond. 84 00:06:59,741 --> 00:07:01,531 So, then I'll see like an amazing profile, 85 00:07:01,531 --> 00:07:03,461 spend so long trying to write an good message, 86 00:07:03,461 --> 00:07:06,311 and then nothing, no response, it... 87 00:07:10,591 --> 00:07:13,672 - That seems like a lot of messages to send. 88 00:07:13,672 --> 00:07:16,201 - You know, it's how it works. 89 00:07:16,201 --> 00:07:19,151 - [Jessica] Well, I don't know, it just seems like a lot. 90 00:07:19,151 --> 00:07:21,341 How many messages did you send today? 91 00:07:21,341 --> 00:07:22,604 - Okay, totally-- 92 00:07:22,604 --> 00:07:23,937 - [Jessica] Ian? 93 00:07:25,109 --> 00:07:28,041 - When I first started, when I first started online dating, 94 00:07:28,041 --> 00:07:32,341 I would just message one person, and I'd spend three weeks 95 00:07:32,341 --> 00:07:35,231 like getting to know them and building a real connection, 96 00:07:35,231 --> 00:07:37,441 and then we get in person and there's nothing. 97 00:07:37,441 --> 00:07:39,261 There is no chemistry. 98 00:07:39,261 --> 00:07:41,261 You can learn more in five minutes of meeting someone 99 00:07:41,261 --> 00:07:43,651 than you can in 100s of messages online. 100 00:07:43,651 --> 00:07:47,897 - So, let me get this straight, you message what, 101 00:07:47,897 --> 00:07:51,431 a dozen women a day even when you have a date that night? 102 00:07:51,431 --> 00:07:53,308 - [Ian] Okay, I get that, that... 103 00:07:54,671 --> 00:07:58,401 - Yeah, this was a really nice place that you brought 104 00:07:58,401 --> 00:08:01,771 me to and you went out and got me flowers. 105 00:08:01,771 --> 00:08:05,411 I was excited to be taken out instead of just casual coffee, 106 00:08:05,411 --> 00:08:09,181 but it's pretty hard to feel special when you get the vibe-- 107 00:08:09,181 --> 00:08:10,961 - You are, you are special. 108 00:08:10,961 --> 00:08:12,781 I don't how to say it, I don't wanna lie to you. 109 00:08:12,781 --> 00:08:14,131 I don't wanna lie to you on our first date, 110 00:08:14,131 --> 00:08:18,221 but okay, yes, when I like someone I go all out 111 00:08:18,221 --> 00:08:19,581 and how is that any different than someone 112 00:08:19,581 --> 00:08:22,201 who just goes to coffee every single time? 113 00:08:22,201 --> 00:08:24,871 - Because I'm aware that coffee isn't special. 114 00:08:24,871 --> 00:08:28,491 This actually felt special, but actually 115 00:08:28,491 --> 00:08:30,711 it's just what you do every single time. 116 00:08:30,711 --> 00:08:33,121 - All right, dinner, flowers, that stuff used 117 00:08:33,121 --> 00:08:34,881 to be standard, that's not my fault, 118 00:08:34,881 --> 00:08:39,881 that's other guys these days, and what's the alternative? 119 00:08:39,911 --> 00:08:42,221 Casual has never worked for me. 120 00:08:42,221 --> 00:08:44,361 I mean, I would go to coffee with a girl 121 00:08:44,361 --> 00:08:47,251 and I'd think that she was so amazing, 122 00:08:47,251 --> 00:08:48,668 and then she'd be like, "Oh, I'm sorry. 123 00:08:48,668 --> 00:08:50,431 "I see you more as just a friend," 124 00:08:50,431 --> 00:08:51,671 which of course she did because 125 00:08:51,671 --> 00:08:55,041 we got coffee which is what friends do. 126 00:08:55,041 --> 00:08:57,731 - Or, maybe if it was truly special it would transcend 127 00:08:57,731 --> 00:09:00,631 even just getting coffee, and maybe doing 128 00:09:00,631 --> 00:09:03,711 all of this makes it feel more special than it is. 129 00:09:03,711 --> 00:09:08,561 - Okay Jessica, I'm sorry, what, 130 00:09:08,561 --> 00:09:10,394 I can't change what happened before. 131 00:09:12,071 --> 00:09:13,791 - You know how some couples are right on the verge 132 00:09:13,791 --> 00:09:16,291 of marriage, and then months before the wedding 133 00:09:16,291 --> 00:09:18,731 they break up, usually because one person realized 134 00:09:18,731 --> 00:09:20,661 it wasn't a good fit and had the sense 135 00:09:20,661 --> 00:09:23,641 to back out before things got even messier? 136 00:09:23,641 --> 00:09:25,691 And then, within a year the person who got broken up with 137 00:09:25,691 --> 00:09:29,321 is married, and it's like when that happens the person 138 00:09:29,321 --> 00:09:33,141 who got broken up with just can't adjust their life plan. 139 00:09:33,141 --> 00:09:35,741 They've alread carved out a spot for a wife or a husband 140 00:09:35,741 --> 00:09:38,791 and now it just feels like a big hole is there. 141 00:09:38,791 --> 00:09:41,091 So, they just shove the next person that fits. 142 00:09:41,991 --> 00:09:44,891 Because their plan becomes more important than the person. 143 00:09:47,031 --> 00:09:49,961 When you try to make everything special, 144 00:09:49,961 --> 00:09:51,564 on some level, nothing is. 145 00:09:56,551 --> 00:09:57,424 - Another date? 146 00:09:59,561 --> 00:10:01,631 Man, you need to be painting, not dating. 147 00:10:01,631 --> 00:10:03,521 - [Ian] Dude, they're not mutually exclusive. 148 00:10:03,521 --> 00:10:04,704 - For you they are. 149 00:10:06,371 --> 00:10:09,291 Remember when you got rejected form CalArts? 150 00:10:09,291 --> 00:10:10,891 Instead of using that for your work, everything 151 00:10:10,891 --> 00:10:12,901 was suddenly about getting back together with Tina. 152 00:10:12,901 --> 00:10:14,661 How she was really the one. 153 00:10:14,661 --> 00:10:17,891 Listen, dude, you can do this. 154 00:10:17,891 --> 00:10:19,111 I know you can. 155 00:10:19,111 --> 00:10:22,571 You just gotta stop running away from your bullshit, okay? 156 00:10:22,571 --> 00:10:23,404 Use that. 157 00:10:25,261 --> 00:10:28,019 So, while I'm gone why don't you use my space? 158 00:10:28,019 --> 00:10:29,071 - No, I don't wanna use up all your paint-- 159 00:10:29,071 --> 00:10:30,991 - I'm gone three months, Ian. 160 00:10:30,991 --> 00:10:33,581 These paints, these brushes, they need to breathe, 161 00:10:33,581 --> 00:10:36,911 they need to live, all right, so let them live. 162 00:11:00,360 --> 00:11:02,943 (brush scrubs) 163 00:11:34,078 --> 00:11:36,995 (paint can clanks) 164 00:11:50,377 --> 00:11:53,210 (keyboard clacks) 165 00:12:03,621 --> 00:12:06,871 (dramatic piano music) 166 00:12:26,587 --> 00:12:28,511 - [Ian] I don't even know where to begin, from your love 167 00:12:28,511 --> 00:12:31,131 of Berryman, to your preference for "The Royal Tenenbaums" 168 00:12:31,131 --> 00:12:33,011 over all of the Wes Anderson movies, 169 00:12:33,011 --> 00:12:35,491 to your insistence on using the oxford comma. 170 00:12:35,491 --> 00:12:38,891 We have more in common than I could ever list here. 171 00:12:38,891 --> 00:12:41,261 I think it is amazing that you travel the world. 172 00:12:41,261 --> 00:12:42,591 It's so beautiful that you make sure 173 00:12:42,591 --> 00:12:45,631 to volunteer one day no matter were you travel. 174 00:12:45,631 --> 00:12:47,241 I can't imagine what an incredible 175 00:12:47,241 --> 00:12:49,821 and humbling experience that must be. 176 00:12:49,821 --> 00:12:52,171 You carry around "Letters to a Young Poet." 177 00:12:52,171 --> 00:12:54,031 I haven't read it 100 times like you, 178 00:12:54,031 --> 00:12:56,161 but it is a book that changed my life. 179 00:12:56,161 --> 00:12:57,971 What's your favorite quote from it? 180 00:12:57,971 --> 00:13:01,028 Mine is easily, "Perhaps all the dragons of our lives 181 00:13:01,028 --> 00:13:02,878 "are princesses, who are only waiting 182 00:13:02,878 --> 00:13:05,058 "to see us beautiful and brave. 183 00:13:05,058 --> 00:13:07,648 "Perhaps everything terrible is in deepest being, 184 00:13:07,648 --> 00:13:10,298 "something helpless that wants help from us." 185 00:13:11,241 --> 00:13:12,851 Honestly, I could go on and on, 186 00:13:12,851 --> 00:13:15,244 but nothing I say is gonna top Rilke's words. 187 00:13:16,511 --> 00:13:17,344 I'm ian. 188 00:13:24,571 --> 00:13:27,071 (birds chirp) 189 00:13:29,193 --> 00:13:31,610 (bed creaks) 190 00:13:42,513 --> 00:13:44,846 (Ian sighs) 191 00:14:01,769 --> 00:14:04,936 (engaging drum music) 192 00:14:06,513 --> 00:14:07,561 Who's that? 193 00:14:07,561 --> 00:14:08,394 - Christina. 194 00:14:09,871 --> 00:14:11,841 - What, you're not gonna see her in New York, are you? 195 00:14:11,841 --> 00:14:13,421 - Maybe, maybe. 196 00:14:13,421 --> 00:14:15,431 - Dude, do not go down that road again. 197 00:14:15,431 --> 00:14:17,991 - Yeah, you'd do the same for the best sex of your life. 198 00:14:17,991 --> 00:14:18,974 - What about Samantha? 199 00:14:19,872 --> 00:14:22,034 - I don't know, I'm gone all summer, what? 200 00:14:22,034 --> 00:14:23,607 - Just for weeks you wouldn't shut up about 201 00:14:23,607 --> 00:14:24,854 this hilarious joke Samantha made 202 00:14:24,854 --> 00:14:27,251 and this amazing conversation you had, 203 00:14:27,251 --> 00:14:28,874 or how fucking hot she is. 204 00:14:28,874 --> 00:14:32,431 - Look, I know it sounds messed up, but I've told you, 205 00:14:32,431 --> 00:14:34,911 when a girl gets too interested, it doesn't work. 206 00:14:34,911 --> 00:14:36,421 - Yeah, so back to the manipulative chick 207 00:14:36,421 --> 00:14:37,671 who never really cared about you. 208 00:14:37,671 --> 00:14:40,751 - Look, relax, I thought we're here to see some art? 209 00:14:40,751 --> 00:14:44,191 - All right this, this is not art. 210 00:14:44,191 --> 00:14:46,010 - Come on, this is why you're here. 211 00:14:46,010 --> 00:14:46,941 I mean, look. 212 00:14:46,941 --> 00:14:49,611 - Yeah, no, Pop Art was bad enough when it happened, 213 00:14:49,611 --> 00:14:51,701 like I get it made some commentary on consumerism. 214 00:14:51,701 --> 00:14:54,001 The entire movement made one point. 215 00:14:54,001 --> 00:14:57,024 To see the same shit 50 years later is a waste of time. 216 00:14:58,381 --> 00:15:00,521 - [Taymour] What are you so pissed about. 217 00:15:00,521 --> 00:15:03,191 - You have this amazing girl who could be everything you 218 00:15:03,191 --> 00:15:05,591 ever want right in front of you, thrown way, because what? 219 00:15:05,591 --> 00:15:07,541 She's too interested? 220 00:15:07,541 --> 00:15:08,750 - You date her then. 221 00:15:08,750 --> 00:15:10,431 - I would date the shit out of Samantha. 222 00:15:10,431 --> 00:15:12,366 - Then I'll give her your number okay? 223 00:15:12,366 --> 00:15:13,199 - Dude, she doesn't like me, 224 00:15:13,199 --> 00:15:15,141 she likes you, just like they always do. 225 00:15:17,191 --> 00:15:20,431 Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know, it's not your fault. 226 00:15:21,654 --> 00:15:22,487 I'm good all right? 227 00:15:22,487 --> 00:15:23,481 I'm good, let's catch your flight, all right? 228 00:15:24,904 --> 00:15:28,237 (light percussion beat) 229 00:15:34,456 --> 00:15:37,706 (dramatic piano music) 230 00:15:58,867 --> 00:16:01,284 (water runs) 231 00:16:02,949 --> 00:16:05,141 (phone rings) 232 00:16:05,141 --> 00:16:05,974 Fuck! 233 00:16:15,921 --> 00:16:16,911 Hey. 234 00:16:16,911 --> 00:16:20,561 - [Sofia] Hi, do you know who this is? 235 00:16:20,561 --> 00:16:22,321 - [Ian] I was hoping. 236 00:16:22,321 --> 00:16:23,691 - [Sofia] You sound out of breath. 237 00:16:23,691 --> 00:16:25,031 Is this a bad time? 238 00:16:25,031 --> 00:16:27,291 - Now I was just brushing my teeth 239 00:16:27,291 --> 00:16:29,841 and I raced to grab the call. 240 00:16:29,841 --> 00:16:32,481 - [Sofia] Wait, you raced to brush 241 00:16:32,481 --> 00:16:35,301 your teeth after sending me your number? 242 00:16:35,301 --> 00:16:36,201 - [Ian] Ah, maybe. 243 00:16:37,161 --> 00:16:39,268 - [Sofia] You brush your teeth for a phone call? 244 00:16:39,268 --> 00:16:41,941 - Okay, I realize that doesn't make any sense. 245 00:16:41,941 --> 00:16:44,563 - [Sofia] It does and it's very sweet. 246 00:16:44,563 --> 00:16:45,396 - Yeah? 247 00:16:45,396 --> 00:16:46,491 - [Sofia] Yeah, you're racing around 248 00:16:46,491 --> 00:16:48,431 to get ready for a phone call. 249 00:16:48,431 --> 00:16:50,361 - Well, I was excited. 250 00:16:50,361 --> 00:16:54,091 You know, calling's cool, or whatever, 251 00:16:54,091 --> 00:16:57,891 I wasn't overly excited or interested after two messages 252 00:16:57,891 --> 00:17:02,201 and 30 seconds of a phone call, it was whatever. 253 00:17:02,201 --> 00:17:05,671 - [Sofia] Oh, well good, because I prefer my men 254 00:17:05,671 --> 00:17:08,551 to be so aloof and so caught up in their own image 255 00:17:08,551 --> 00:17:11,021 that I become completely expendable. 256 00:17:11,021 --> 00:17:13,594 - Oh perfect, should I neg you now? 257 00:17:14,581 --> 00:17:15,414 - Yes, please. 258 00:17:16,711 --> 00:17:19,511 - Your voice is kind of okay, I guess. 259 00:17:19,511 --> 00:17:21,939 - [Sofia] What kind of neg is that? 260 00:17:21,939 --> 00:17:23,091 - I don't know, I've never done it before. 261 00:17:23,091 --> 00:17:26,414 Isn't supposed to be like this back-handed compliment? 262 00:17:27,341 --> 00:17:29,791 - [Sofia] I'm not sure, but that was neither. 263 00:17:29,791 --> 00:17:30,878 It was just vague. 264 00:17:30,878 --> 00:17:34,504 - Ah, okay, let me, let me try again. 265 00:17:37,561 --> 00:17:39,911 I'm not usually attracted to voices like yours. 266 00:17:41,211 --> 00:17:42,044 - [Sofia] Ouch. 267 00:17:43,001 --> 00:17:44,101 Okay, that was better. 268 00:17:46,931 --> 00:17:49,501 Let me try to prove to you how attractive 269 00:17:49,501 --> 00:17:52,951 my voice can be in sick validation. 270 00:17:52,951 --> 00:17:57,141 - Woo, we are great at this. 271 00:17:57,141 --> 00:17:57,974 - Experts. 272 00:17:57,974 --> 00:18:00,581 - You know, clearly we have had the best dating experiences. 273 00:18:00,581 --> 00:18:01,414 - [Sofia] Oh, clearly. 274 00:18:01,414 --> 00:18:03,274 - Hence, taking our talents online. 275 00:18:04,761 --> 00:18:08,441 - [Sofia] Oh, did you not see my profile? 276 00:18:08,441 --> 00:18:10,881 I actually have a boyfriend. 277 00:18:10,881 --> 00:18:12,951 I just run a service helping guys improve 278 00:18:12,951 --> 00:18:15,054 their profiles and send their messages. 279 00:18:16,091 --> 00:18:18,231 - Wait, really? 280 00:18:18,231 --> 00:18:19,064 - No. 281 00:18:20,411 --> 00:18:21,244 - [Sofia] Oh my gosh, you believed me-- 282 00:18:21,244 --> 00:18:24,944 - All my hopes and dreams just flashed before my eyes. 283 00:18:26,031 --> 00:18:28,274 - [Sofia] Oh yeah, but I hook. 284 00:18:30,151 --> 00:18:31,651 - Amazing. 285 00:18:31,651 --> 00:18:36,551 - [Sofia] Well good, you know, it's funny, I love art 286 00:18:36,551 --> 00:18:39,711 but I swore I would never date an artist. 287 00:18:39,711 --> 00:18:42,414 - Oh yeah and why is that, why is that? 288 00:18:43,591 --> 00:18:45,411 - [Sofia] All the usual stereotypes, 289 00:18:45,411 --> 00:18:47,641 which I guess is unfair. 290 00:18:47,641 --> 00:18:49,641 - Hey, I'm just grateful for any 291 00:18:49,641 --> 00:18:52,181 of your stereotypes or biases that kept you 292 00:18:52,181 --> 00:18:54,231 single long enough for me to get my shot. 293 00:18:55,351 --> 00:18:57,413 (Sofia chuckles) 294 00:18:57,413 --> 00:19:00,504 What was the last piece of art that truly arrested you? 295 00:19:01,481 --> 00:19:04,454 - [Sofia] Wow, now that's a question. 296 00:19:06,361 --> 00:19:08,414 Are you familiar with Umberto Boccioni? 297 00:19:10,221 --> 00:19:12,974 - I know the name but I don't really know the work. 298 00:19:15,101 --> 00:19:18,301 - [Sofia] He was so young when he died. 299 00:19:18,301 --> 00:19:20,451 He was not like these other artists 300 00:19:20,451 --> 00:19:23,181 that kept painting the same things over and over, 301 00:19:23,181 --> 00:19:25,761 long after art has progressed and moved on. 302 00:19:25,761 --> 00:19:28,994 No, he was right in the middle of it. 303 00:19:30,031 --> 00:19:33,654 I mean, who knows how many paintings we don't get now? 304 00:19:34,611 --> 00:19:38,694 By the end with Pollock, and Picasso, and Ed Ruscha, 305 00:19:39,591 --> 00:19:42,391 we felt like that we have seen everything that could do, 306 00:19:43,806 --> 00:19:48,278 but Boccioni, gosh, he as just getting started. 307 00:19:49,221 --> 00:19:53,044 And it is, "The City Rises" to answer your question. 308 00:19:55,591 --> 00:19:58,051 - [Ian] Oh wow, wow, I just pulled it up. 309 00:19:58,051 --> 00:19:59,201 It looks pretty cool. 310 00:19:59,201 --> 00:20:01,931 - [Sofia] What, no, no, no, no, what are you doing? 311 00:20:01,931 --> 00:20:03,459 Oh my God. 312 00:20:03,459 --> 00:20:04,292 - Sorry, sorry, okay. 313 00:20:05,178 --> 00:20:10,021 - [Sofia] No, every image whether blurs out 314 00:20:10,021 --> 00:20:12,471 the brush strokes on top that make it come to life, 315 00:20:12,471 --> 00:20:15,021 or they capture the brush strokes but then 316 00:20:15,021 --> 00:20:17,374 the entire images loses shape. 317 00:20:18,691 --> 00:20:22,161 Oh, it's like there's a vibrancy. 318 00:20:22,161 --> 00:20:27,161 There's a life to this piece, like nothing I have ever seen. 319 00:20:28,121 --> 00:20:31,751 It literally stopped me in my tracks. 320 00:20:31,751 --> 00:20:34,201 That's why I find it so striking that you use 321 00:20:34,201 --> 00:20:38,181 the word, arrested, because that's exactly 322 00:20:38,181 --> 00:20:39,581 what this painted did to me. 323 00:20:42,091 --> 00:20:44,911 - Well, I don't think I ever wanted 324 00:20:44,911 --> 00:20:46,781 to see a painting more in my life. 325 00:20:46,781 --> 00:20:48,841 - [Sofia] It's part of the permanent collection at MoMA. 326 00:20:48,841 --> 00:20:50,441 - Oh, we'll have to go sometime. 327 00:20:50,441 --> 00:20:53,684 - [Sofia] Yeah, yeah, we will. 328 00:20:54,601 --> 00:20:58,981 - Okay, so, I don't usually do this, 329 00:20:58,981 --> 00:21:02,461 but I also don't usually hit it off with people like this, 330 00:21:02,461 --> 00:21:07,461 so, I was wondering, do you wanna be super spontaneous 331 00:21:08,471 --> 00:21:09,971 and got out to dinner tonight? 332 00:21:12,072 --> 00:21:15,181 - [Sofia] Oh, Ian, I really would love to but I can't. 333 00:21:15,181 --> 00:21:18,745 - Yeah, no, yes, of course, right yeah. 334 00:21:18,745 --> 00:21:19,804 I understand. 335 00:21:20,941 --> 00:21:24,141 - [Sofia] No, no, no, no, you don't understand. 336 00:21:24,141 --> 00:21:25,594 I'm not in LA right now. 337 00:21:27,041 --> 00:21:28,774 My mom is sick, she has cancer. 338 00:21:30,410 --> 00:21:34,414 - Oh, I'm so sorry. 339 00:21:36,213 --> 00:21:37,384 - [Sofia] Don't be sorry. 340 00:21:38,291 --> 00:21:41,031 She's going for a double mastectomy next week, 341 00:21:41,031 --> 00:21:42,934 so I'm here to be with her. 342 00:21:44,891 --> 00:21:49,358 - I can't even imagine what you're going through right now. 343 00:21:49,358 --> 00:21:50,734 I'm so glad she has you. 344 00:21:52,401 --> 00:21:55,591 - [Sofia] We are very optimistic. 345 00:21:55,591 --> 00:21:59,241 She's a doctor, so she's getting the best care possible 346 00:21:59,241 --> 00:22:02,551 and the oncologist is very confident 347 00:22:02,551 --> 00:22:04,301 that they'll be able to get it all. 348 00:22:07,255 --> 00:22:09,331 - [Ian] I'm sorry. 349 00:22:09,331 --> 00:22:10,581 - [Sofia] Don't say that. 350 00:22:12,191 --> 00:22:14,441 Sorry is for when you lose something. 351 00:22:14,441 --> 00:22:17,321 This is I don't know, it's just one 352 00:22:17,321 --> 00:22:18,874 of those life moments, I guess. 353 00:22:19,941 --> 00:22:23,444 But, I am going to be here for a month. 354 00:22:24,821 --> 00:22:26,934 - Where is here? 355 00:22:28,071 --> 00:22:29,171 - [Sofia] Mexico City. 356 00:22:30,901 --> 00:22:33,624 - Wow, that is far. 357 00:22:34,631 --> 00:22:37,481 - [Sofia] Yeah, it is. 358 00:22:37,481 --> 00:22:40,231 Look, I understand if you're not interested. 359 00:22:40,231 --> 00:22:41,751 I was going to delete my profile 360 00:22:41,751 --> 00:22:45,281 but then I got your message, and I wasn't even going 361 00:22:45,281 --> 00:22:47,914 to respond, I had so many things going on. 362 00:22:49,151 --> 00:22:52,511 But it was the best message I've ever received 363 00:22:52,511 --> 00:22:56,031 and I really tried to restrain myself 364 00:22:56,031 --> 00:22:57,474 from responding but I couldn't. 365 00:22:58,312 --> 00:23:00,581 - That was like less than 24 hours ago. 366 00:23:00,581 --> 00:23:03,131 - [Sofia] I know, I got it last night 367 00:23:03,131 --> 00:23:07,151 and I might have stayed up later than I would like 368 00:23:07,151 --> 00:23:10,104 to admit just trying not to respond. 369 00:23:11,463 --> 00:23:12,674 - I'm really glad you did. 370 00:23:14,001 --> 00:23:14,851 - [Sofia] Me too. 371 00:23:16,561 --> 00:23:18,741 But I'm not there. 372 00:23:18,741 --> 00:23:21,201 Look, we can always try when I get back again, 373 00:23:21,201 --> 00:23:25,271 if you're available, when can probably meet for coffee. 374 00:23:25,271 --> 00:23:26,224 - Sofia. 375 00:23:27,171 --> 00:23:28,091 - [Sofia] Yeah? 376 00:23:28,091 --> 00:23:30,161 - This is something special. 377 00:23:30,161 --> 00:23:31,881 Look at the way we just jumped into conversation, 378 00:23:31,881 --> 00:23:34,414 skipping all of that boring small talk. 379 00:23:35,301 --> 00:23:37,241 Look, maybe you don't have this problem, 380 00:23:37,241 --> 00:23:39,701 because you are so damn fascinating, 381 00:23:39,701 --> 00:23:42,041 but moments like this are rare, 382 00:23:42,041 --> 00:23:44,941 and when I encounter it, I'm smart enough to hold onto it. 383 00:23:46,051 --> 00:23:47,551 A month is nothing. 384 00:23:47,551 --> 00:23:51,391 And, I know you are going through so much 385 00:23:51,391 --> 00:23:55,414 and we've just met, but I'm here, 386 00:23:57,171 --> 00:23:58,721 as much here as you'll want me. 387 00:24:01,921 --> 00:24:04,884 - [Sofia] Wow, you are amazing. 388 00:24:05,910 --> 00:24:08,645 - Me, have you seen yourself? 389 00:24:08,645 --> 00:24:10,883 - [Sofia] Yeah, I have. 390 00:24:10,883 --> 00:24:12,133 - You're the amazing one. 391 00:24:12,991 --> 00:24:16,054 - [Sofia] Why does me being amazing mean that you aren't? 392 00:24:18,021 --> 00:24:23,021 I gotta go now, but I would love to talk to you soon. 393 00:24:24,115 --> 00:24:26,465 - I would love that too. 394 00:24:26,465 --> 00:24:28,118 - [Sofia] Thank you, Ian. 395 00:24:28,118 --> 00:24:29,035 - For what? 396 00:24:32,243 --> 00:24:33,076 Sofia? 397 00:24:36,642 --> 00:24:39,892 (engaging piano music) 398 00:24:42,515 --> 00:24:45,182 (messages beep) 399 00:25:53,418 --> 00:25:56,311 (phone rings) 400 00:25:56,311 --> 00:25:58,818 Hey, I thought you with your mom? 401 00:26:00,115 --> 00:26:01,174 - [Sofia] I am. 402 00:26:01,174 --> 00:26:03,571 I just have to escape for a second. 403 00:26:03,571 --> 00:26:05,181 Oh my God, escape it's so bad. 404 00:26:05,181 --> 00:26:08,351 - Oh yeah, no, no, I think I know what you mean. 405 00:26:08,351 --> 00:26:10,281 - [Sofia] I'm in this random stairwell. 406 00:26:10,281 --> 00:26:12,094 Everything just feels so crammed! 407 00:26:13,275 --> 00:26:15,511 I've been here with my mom so many times 408 00:26:15,511 --> 00:26:17,091 when she was working, but it's like 409 00:26:17,091 --> 00:26:19,866 everything just feels so phony now. 410 00:26:19,866 --> 00:26:21,966 - Oh, hey, hey, hey, hey, how's she doing? 411 00:26:22,841 --> 00:26:24,184 How's she doing, is she doing okay? 412 00:26:25,681 --> 00:26:27,081 - [Sofia] She's a tough one. 413 00:26:28,904 --> 00:26:29,814 - How are you doing? 414 00:26:31,173 --> 00:26:33,961 - [Sofia] I'm not quite as tough, but I am 415 00:26:33,961 --> 00:26:36,258 trying to stay strong for her. 416 00:26:36,258 --> 00:26:38,611 - No, you don't have to do that for me. 417 00:26:38,611 --> 00:26:40,154 - [Sofia] That's quite the gift. 418 00:26:41,285 --> 00:26:43,935 - All you gotta be is exactly who you are, that's it. 419 00:26:45,131 --> 00:26:47,204 - [Sofia] You don't believe in God, do you? 420 00:26:49,801 --> 00:26:53,464 - No, that was unexpected. 421 00:26:55,071 --> 00:26:57,001 - [Sofia] I saw it on your profile, and it's just 422 00:26:57,001 --> 00:27:00,001 with my mom and everything that's happening right now. 423 00:27:00,001 --> 00:27:01,921 - Yeah, no, I don't 424 00:27:03,221 --> 00:27:05,054 - [Sofia] I don't know how you do that. 425 00:27:05,911 --> 00:27:08,181 Religion is so important in my culture. 426 00:27:08,181 --> 00:27:11,091 Questioning was never even an option. 427 00:27:11,091 --> 00:27:14,051 I mean, even my mom, this woman of science. 428 00:27:14,051 --> 00:27:16,504 She went to confession every week. 429 00:27:17,691 --> 00:27:19,421 And yes, I've always had my doubts, 430 00:27:19,421 --> 00:27:22,621 but when everything around you is built on believing-- 431 00:27:22,621 --> 00:27:25,681 - I mean, our entire society is built on believing. 432 00:27:25,681 --> 00:27:27,911 How do you ever get anyone go to die 433 00:27:27,911 --> 00:27:29,371 in your war if you think this it? 434 00:27:29,371 --> 00:27:31,411 How do you ever comfort their loved ones 435 00:27:31,411 --> 00:27:33,611 if they think there's not some better place? 436 00:27:35,513 --> 00:27:38,761 - [Sofia] You don't think there's a better place? 437 00:27:38,761 --> 00:27:40,531 - Okay, I realize this is the worst time 438 00:27:40,531 --> 00:27:43,514 to say it, but I don't. 439 00:27:44,751 --> 00:27:46,831 - [Sofia] That scares me. 440 00:27:46,831 --> 00:27:50,631 - Of course, of course it scares you. 441 00:27:50,631 --> 00:27:53,451 I mean that's terrifying. 442 00:27:53,451 --> 00:27:55,141 - [Sofia] Then why don't you believe? 443 00:27:55,141 --> 00:27:56,511 - Me wanting something to be true 444 00:27:56,511 --> 00:27:58,871 is not enough of a reason to believe it. 445 00:28:00,443 --> 00:28:02,264 - [Sofia] I don't wanna believe this is it. 446 00:28:03,612 --> 00:28:05,661 - Neither do I. 447 00:28:05,661 --> 00:28:07,111 - [Sofia] The only way that I was able to get through 448 00:28:07,111 --> 00:28:10,741 my dad passing was believing he was in a better place, 449 00:28:10,741 --> 00:28:15,741 and yeah, I was 10-years-old, but now I can't get over it. 450 00:28:17,141 --> 00:28:19,371 I can accept this being the only love that I get, 451 00:28:19,371 --> 00:28:21,911 but how could I possibly wish that 452 00:28:21,911 --> 00:28:23,904 on the people that I love the most? 453 00:28:25,551 --> 00:28:27,564 - I only ever want Heaven for other people. 454 00:28:29,331 --> 00:28:30,781 - [Sofia] What about for you? 455 00:28:34,811 --> 00:28:38,961 - I don't know, I guess I don't need it. 456 00:28:38,961 --> 00:28:41,101 I just see so many people throwing away 457 00:28:41,101 --> 00:28:43,801 their entire lives just trying to get to the next one. 458 00:28:44,941 --> 00:28:46,451 - [Sofia] I don't think anyone wants to find out 459 00:28:46,451 --> 00:28:48,438 that something that they've spent 460 00:28:48,438 --> 00:28:49,621 so long believing in just doesn't exist. 461 00:28:49,621 --> 00:28:52,181 - Of course not, who wants to be wrong about that? 462 00:28:52,181 --> 00:28:55,062 How do you tell some Mormon, that oh sorry, 463 00:28:55,062 --> 00:28:57,662 you spent your whole life looking at the wrong book. 464 00:29:00,094 --> 00:29:01,561 (Sofia laughs) 465 00:29:01,561 --> 00:29:02,711 - [Sofia] You're funny. 466 00:29:04,355 --> 00:29:08,951 You know, I just got this image of all these Catholics 467 00:29:08,951 --> 00:29:11,911 and Muslim extremists walking up to the Pearly Gates 468 00:29:11,911 --> 00:29:15,278 and St. Peter being like, "Oh, I'm sorry, 469 00:29:15,278 --> 00:29:19,018 "actually Scientology was the way to eternal salvation. 470 00:29:19,018 --> 00:29:20,434 "What do I tell you?" 471 00:29:22,621 --> 00:29:25,331 - I love how in that image, it's still St. Peter telling 472 00:29:25,331 --> 00:29:27,728 all these people that Scientology was the way. 473 00:29:28,658 --> 00:29:30,721 - [Sofia] Of course it is. 474 00:29:30,721 --> 00:29:34,298 He'll be like, "I know, I know, this sucks. 475 00:29:34,298 --> 00:29:35,578 "They didn't let me in either. 476 00:29:35,578 --> 00:29:36,888 "Why do you think I'm stuck here 477 00:29:36,888 --> 00:29:39,393 "with gate duty for all eternity?" 478 00:29:39,393 --> 00:29:41,726 (Ian sighs) 479 00:29:44,001 --> 00:29:45,781 I gotta go check on my mom. 480 00:29:45,781 --> 00:29:46,614 - Yeah, I know. 481 00:29:47,858 --> 00:29:49,377 - [Sofia] I'll be thinking of you. 482 00:29:49,377 --> 00:29:50,377 - Mm, ditto. 483 00:29:52,960 --> 00:29:54,322 - [Sofia] Ew. 484 00:29:54,322 --> 00:29:55,155 (Ian laughs) 485 00:29:55,155 --> 00:29:56,911 Oh gosh, you did not just say ditto. 486 00:29:56,911 --> 00:29:58,891 I am hanging up. 487 00:29:58,891 --> 00:30:00,210 - Ditto. 488 00:30:00,210 --> 00:30:02,834 (Sofia scoffs) 489 00:30:02,834 --> 00:30:05,501 (message beeps) 490 00:30:13,920 --> 00:30:17,003 (gentle piano music) 491 00:31:05,344 --> 00:31:08,427 (bright piano music) 492 00:31:16,509 --> 00:31:18,124 (camera clicks) 493 00:31:18,124 --> 00:31:20,791 (message sends) 494 00:31:25,420 --> 00:31:27,502 (message replies) 495 00:31:27,502 --> 00:31:29,221 (phone rings) 496 00:31:29,221 --> 00:31:31,391 Hey, what are you doing up so late? 497 00:31:31,391 --> 00:31:33,491 - [Sofia] You drew me a picture! 498 00:31:33,491 --> 00:31:34,841 - A sketch, but yeah. 499 00:31:34,841 --> 00:31:36,395 - [Sofia] I love it. 500 00:31:36,395 --> 00:31:37,911 - Oh, it's just a doodle. 501 00:31:37,911 --> 00:31:40,661 - [Sofia] Oh come on, shut up and take your compliment. 502 00:31:41,941 --> 00:31:42,901 Thank you. 503 00:31:42,901 --> 00:31:43,751 - You're welcome. 504 00:31:44,691 --> 00:31:47,111 What time is there, I didn't wake up, did I? 505 00:31:47,111 --> 00:31:48,854 - [Sofia] No, it's about four. 506 00:31:49,751 --> 00:31:52,331 I woke up and I'm just couldn't go back to sleep. 507 00:31:52,331 --> 00:31:53,901 - Right, I know that one. 508 00:31:53,901 --> 00:31:55,841 - [Sofia] What are you doing up so late? 509 00:31:55,841 --> 00:32:00,074 - Well, I didn't know who bell hooks was. 510 00:32:01,251 --> 00:32:03,451 - Wait, were you just Googling 511 00:32:03,451 --> 00:32:06,984 everything you didn't know in my profile? 512 00:32:06,984 --> 00:32:10,321 - Maybe, but the point is that I could've just Googled it 513 00:32:10,321 --> 00:32:13,261 and not said anything, but I'm actually admitting 514 00:32:13,261 --> 00:32:16,271 that I don't know, which is a big deal 515 00:32:16,271 --> 00:32:19,711 for someone who likes to hide behind their intelligence. 516 00:32:19,711 --> 00:32:24,511 - [Sofia] Okay, well, so are you ready 517 00:32:24,511 --> 00:32:26,074 for your feminism crash course? 518 00:32:27,551 --> 00:32:29,051 - I mean, I guess. 519 00:32:29,051 --> 00:32:32,531 I just, I don't know if I'd call myself a feminist. 520 00:32:32,531 --> 00:32:35,824 I'm all for equality but do I have to call it fem-in-ism? 521 00:32:36,736 --> 00:32:37,569 - [Sofia] Ian! 522 00:32:37,569 --> 00:32:39,633 (Ian laughs manically) 523 00:32:39,633 --> 00:32:41,561 Oh, you asshole. 524 00:32:41,561 --> 00:32:42,614 - I'm so, sorry. 525 00:32:42,614 --> 00:32:44,514 I just wish I could've seen your face. 526 00:32:45,521 --> 00:32:46,871 - [Sofia] Do you know how often 527 00:32:46,871 --> 00:32:48,761 I have to hear shit like that? 528 00:32:48,761 --> 00:32:50,976 - [Ian] I am sorry, I am sorry. 529 00:32:50,976 --> 00:32:52,641 (Ian laughs strangely) 530 00:32:52,641 --> 00:32:54,031 Please, please give me my lesson. 531 00:32:54,031 --> 00:32:56,611 - [Sofia] Well, clearly I'm gonna to have 532 00:32:56,611 --> 00:32:59,391 to start way farther back than I thought. 533 00:32:59,391 --> 00:33:00,224 - Ouch. 534 00:33:01,772 --> 00:33:05,502 - [Sofia] Okay, so, first wave we have 535 00:33:05,502 --> 00:33:09,484 suffragettes, right to vote, equality. 536 00:33:10,771 --> 00:33:13,674 Second wave, it's the bra-burning, 537 00:33:14,581 --> 00:33:17,111 claiming that men are the problem, 538 00:33:17,111 --> 00:33:19,581 and sore women who want to be housewives. 539 00:33:19,581 --> 00:33:22,704 We are still trying to undo the damage from the second wave. 540 00:33:23,681 --> 00:33:27,844 And, then third wave is bell hooks, intersectionality. 541 00:33:29,072 --> 00:33:30,321 - And intersectionality is the idea 542 00:33:30,321 --> 00:33:32,921 that you can't separate race from gender, 543 00:33:32,921 --> 00:33:34,841 from class when you discuss these things? 544 00:33:34,841 --> 00:33:36,401 - [Sofia] Mm hm, yeah, exactly. 545 00:33:36,401 --> 00:33:40,621 So, first wave we would like to have a choice. 546 00:33:40,621 --> 00:33:43,761 Second wave, this is the only choice that you can make, 547 00:33:43,761 --> 00:33:45,274 or you're part of the problem. 548 00:33:46,551 --> 00:33:49,561 Third wave, all of the choices. 549 00:33:49,561 --> 00:33:51,984 - Smash the patriarchy! 550 00:33:51,984 --> 00:33:55,701 - [Sofia] But the patriarchy does not mean men. 551 00:33:55,701 --> 00:33:59,809 - Yeah, I know, I read bell hooks' essay 552 00:33:59,809 --> 00:34:02,341 "Understanding Patriarchy." 553 00:34:02,341 --> 00:34:03,284 - [Sofia] You did? 554 00:34:04,231 --> 00:34:07,951 - Yeah, the part about a man's value being measured 555 00:34:07,951 --> 00:34:10,454 by his willingness or ability to do violence, 556 00:34:11,951 --> 00:34:13,751 well really hit me, no pun intended. 557 00:34:15,451 --> 00:34:19,511 - [Sofia] Men are only allowed to have one emotion, rage. 558 00:34:19,511 --> 00:34:20,711 - Yeah, that was my Dad. 559 00:34:26,961 --> 00:34:31,961 My dad was, he was the kind of guy, I don't know. 560 00:34:33,498 --> 00:34:35,461 You feel weird using certain words, 561 00:34:35,461 --> 00:34:37,251 but he was the kind of guy that thought 562 00:34:37,251 --> 00:34:39,421 it was okay to beat up your kids, 563 00:34:39,421 --> 00:34:44,235 and we would get beat up for all kinds of things. 564 00:34:44,235 --> 00:34:49,235 Like, one time I got beat up for putting the pizza 565 00:34:50,231 --> 00:34:52,001 in the fridge while it was still in the box, 566 00:34:52,001 --> 00:34:53,601 as opposed to taking it out and putting 567 00:34:53,601 --> 00:34:56,251 each piece into individual bags so it'd stay fresher. 568 00:34:58,205 --> 00:35:03,205 I, saw this one show where the kid stands up to his dad 569 00:35:04,001 --> 00:35:07,681 and his dad backs down, and every time I tried 570 00:35:07,681 --> 00:35:12,681 to do it, but I wasn't able to. 571 00:35:17,871 --> 00:35:18,751 But this... 572 00:35:26,951 --> 00:35:28,074 Sorry, one second. 573 00:35:34,131 --> 00:35:37,111 This one time, I was in the den watching TV 574 00:35:38,461 --> 00:35:41,061 and he came into the back and he just slammed me 575 00:35:41,061 --> 00:35:43,241 in the shoulder, I didn't even know what the fuck I did. 576 00:35:43,241 --> 00:35:44,074 He just... 577 00:35:47,811 --> 00:35:52,444 And, I told him he didn't get to hit me anymore. 578 00:35:54,633 --> 00:35:55,861 He said, "What was that?" 579 00:35:55,861 --> 00:35:57,494 And I said it again. 580 00:36:00,041 --> 00:36:05,041 And he got so calm and he walked out of the room, 581 00:36:05,631 --> 00:36:10,631 and he walked into my bedroom, and he took all my paintings 582 00:36:10,968 --> 00:36:15,364 and my drawings, and he just started tearing them, 583 00:36:16,771 --> 00:36:20,391 and I screaming for him to stop, 584 00:36:20,391 --> 00:36:24,331 and he went into the kitchen and he grabbed 585 00:36:24,331 --> 00:36:26,091 the ones off the fridge, and he ripped 586 00:36:26,091 --> 00:36:30,214 those up too, like fucking things from when I was like four, 587 00:36:31,171 --> 00:36:33,161 and he shoved all the pieces under my pillow, 588 00:36:33,161 --> 00:36:35,421 and he forced me into the bed 589 00:36:35,421 --> 00:36:37,321 and he told me to fucking sleep on it. 590 00:36:38,881 --> 00:36:40,397 - [Sofia] Ian. 591 00:36:40,397 --> 00:36:44,601 - And, the thing they never show you about people 592 00:36:44,601 --> 00:36:47,184 like that is how nice they are in between. 593 00:36:49,388 --> 00:36:53,258 Just so nice to all my friends and no one believed me, 594 00:36:55,551 --> 00:37:00,551 and it makes you feel like if you didn't keep messing up, 595 00:37:00,831 --> 00:37:05,014 that maybe they'd still be nice to you. 596 00:37:06,651 --> 00:37:09,641 So, I tried to do anything I possibly could 597 00:37:09,641 --> 00:37:14,641 to prove that I had value, I'd win all these contests 598 00:37:15,091 --> 00:37:17,911 for my art in the newspaper, and the county fairs, 599 00:37:17,911 --> 00:37:21,934 and at school, and every painting was like the only, 600 00:37:24,012 --> 00:37:26,894 and just like that he ripped 'em all up. 601 00:37:32,175 --> 00:37:37,175 And, I let him hit me whenever he wanted after that. 602 00:37:37,211 --> 00:37:38,911 - [Sofia] You didn't deserve that. 603 00:37:40,571 --> 00:37:41,821 - Yeah, I know. 604 00:37:43,891 --> 00:37:46,084 Sorry, I changed the subject. 605 00:37:48,291 --> 00:37:50,221 It all connects in my head. 606 00:37:50,221 --> 00:37:52,571 - [Sofia] No, I see it. 607 00:37:52,571 --> 00:37:56,161 Don't ever apologize for being open with me. 608 00:37:56,161 --> 00:37:58,371 What I hold onto all this time is 609 00:37:58,371 --> 00:38:01,311 this longing for my dad to see me now, 610 00:38:01,311 --> 00:38:02,921 to have all those moments that I didn't 611 00:38:02,921 --> 00:38:04,348 get to have with him, but-- 612 00:38:05,612 --> 00:38:06,445 - What? 613 00:38:06,445 --> 00:38:08,711 - [Sofia] I realized that was gonna come up wrong. 614 00:38:08,711 --> 00:38:11,567 - You were gonna say something about your dad 615 00:38:11,567 --> 00:38:13,951 and being glad he wasn't like mine. 616 00:38:13,951 --> 00:38:15,881 - [Sofia] I didn't mean it like that. 617 00:38:15,881 --> 00:38:18,334 - No, it's okay, it's all right. 618 00:38:22,021 --> 00:38:24,781 - [Sofia] My dad used to go out every night. 619 00:38:24,781 --> 00:38:27,794 He was never gone for long, maybe an hour, 620 00:38:28,851 --> 00:38:31,764 it just felt way longer back then. 621 00:38:33,031 --> 00:38:35,164 I always wanted to go with him. 622 00:38:37,341 --> 00:38:41,161 My mom got mad at him and told him to just go after work 623 00:38:41,161 --> 00:38:43,461 instead of coming home and then leaving again. 624 00:38:45,721 --> 00:38:48,514 But he said he always wanted to see us first. 625 00:38:49,911 --> 00:38:52,354 It was always the same routine. 626 00:38:53,451 --> 00:38:55,541 He would go get his shoes on, 627 00:38:55,541 --> 00:38:58,314 I would stand in front of the door trying to block it, 628 00:38:59,611 --> 00:39:02,521 and he would just come up to me and kiss me 629 00:39:02,521 --> 00:39:05,674 on the head and told me that he loved me. 630 00:39:09,324 --> 00:39:12,711 But one day, he said, "Okay, let's go then." 631 00:39:15,431 --> 00:39:18,761 He took me out on this windy road by the coast 632 00:39:21,757 --> 00:39:24,114 and we watched the waves and the birds. 633 00:39:27,761 --> 00:39:32,661 Then, we got out of the car and he carried me 634 00:39:32,661 --> 00:39:36,481 in his arms and I remember thinking 635 00:39:36,481 --> 00:39:39,384 I was too big for this but I loved it. 636 00:39:41,111 --> 00:39:46,111 He carried me until the sun sat and the waves 637 00:39:46,158 --> 00:39:48,418 and the tide came up to his ankles. 638 00:39:53,628 --> 00:39:56,851 Then we went back to the car. 639 00:39:56,851 --> 00:39:58,254 He put me in the back seat. 640 00:40:01,001 --> 00:40:03,304 He said he was going to take a picture. 641 00:40:04,811 --> 00:40:06,811 He went to the back and grabbed the bag. 642 00:40:08,761 --> 00:40:11,544 He told me to stay right there and keep the car locked. 643 00:40:12,501 --> 00:40:13,514 Then he walked away. 644 00:40:17,191 --> 00:40:18,054 I heard the bang. 645 00:40:19,241 --> 00:40:22,684 I don't know if he thought I would hear it, but I did. 646 00:40:24,347 --> 00:40:25,897 I just didn't know what it was. 647 00:40:31,281 --> 00:40:32,114 - Sofia? 648 00:40:34,395 --> 00:40:35,562 - [Sofia] Yes. 649 00:40:37,179 --> 00:40:39,261 - Did you feel that? 650 00:40:39,261 --> 00:40:40,428 - [Sofia] Yes? 651 00:40:43,003 --> 00:40:45,336 (Ian sighs) 652 00:40:49,757 --> 00:40:53,007 (engaging piano music) 653 00:41:28,922 --> 00:41:32,672 (upbeat orchestral movement) 654 00:41:58,922 --> 00:42:01,589 (messages beep) 655 00:42:07,724 --> 00:42:10,807 (gentle piano music) 656 00:42:43,415 --> 00:42:47,003 (video call rings) 657 00:42:47,003 --> 00:42:49,503 (phone rings) 658 00:42:53,471 --> 00:42:56,761 - [Sofia] Hey, you accidentally video called me. 659 00:42:56,761 --> 00:42:59,321 - I know, it was on purpose. 660 00:42:59,321 --> 00:43:00,477 - [Sofia] Oh. 661 00:43:00,477 --> 00:43:03,581 - It was date night, I wanted to make it special. 662 00:43:03,581 --> 00:43:05,334 - [Sofia] I'm sorry, I can't. 663 00:43:06,971 --> 00:43:09,228 Video-calling is so expensive here 664 00:43:09,228 --> 00:43:12,236 and I really need to save money when I'm not working. 665 00:43:12,236 --> 00:43:15,534 - It's okay, I just got dressed up, I wanted to show you. 666 00:43:17,164 --> 00:43:19,251 - [Sofia] Oh really? 667 00:43:19,251 --> 00:43:21,144 So did I, just give me one second. 668 00:43:22,604 --> 00:43:25,104 (phone dings) 669 00:43:27,466 --> 00:43:28,299 - Damn. 670 00:43:30,250 --> 00:43:31,083 Damn. 671 00:43:32,731 --> 00:43:34,811 This would've been, woo. 672 00:43:34,811 --> 00:43:36,261 This would've been your view. 673 00:43:38,301 --> 00:43:40,968 (camera clicks) 674 00:43:42,691 --> 00:43:47,691 - [Sofia] Oh wow, you are so handsome. 675 00:43:47,941 --> 00:43:51,654 A suit is literally like the equivalent of male lingerie. 676 00:43:52,765 --> 00:43:55,111 - Well, if you wanna send a lingerie photo 677 00:43:55,111 --> 00:43:57,401 to even us out, I won't object. 678 00:43:57,401 --> 00:43:59,001 - [Sofia] I'm sure you wouldn't. 679 00:44:01,444 --> 00:44:03,171 Are you okay? 680 00:44:03,171 --> 00:44:05,314 Yeah, yeah. 681 00:44:07,001 --> 00:44:08,301 Are you lying to me? 682 00:44:08,301 --> 00:44:12,274 - No, I'm good, how was your day? 683 00:44:13,403 --> 00:44:16,570 (engaging drum beats) 684 00:45:08,746 --> 00:45:11,829 (intense drum beats) 685 00:45:43,852 --> 00:45:47,019 (engaging drum beats) 686 00:45:51,724 --> 00:45:54,224 (shower runs) 687 00:45:56,362 --> 00:45:59,862 (engaging dramatic music) 688 00:46:21,437 --> 00:46:23,804 (phone rings) 689 00:46:23,804 --> 00:46:26,685 - [Sofia] Hey, I was getting a little worried. 690 00:46:26,685 --> 00:46:28,051 - Yeah, I was working out. 691 00:46:28,051 --> 00:46:30,654 - [Sofia] Hmm, thanks for the visual. 692 00:46:31,916 --> 00:46:32,771 - [Ian] You said you were Colombian. 693 00:46:32,771 --> 00:46:34,721 What are you doing in Mexico? 694 00:46:34,721 --> 00:46:36,461 - [Sofia] My dad was from Mexico City. 695 00:46:36,461 --> 00:46:37,961 My mom is from Colombia. 696 00:46:37,961 --> 00:46:40,618 So, they moved to Mexico after I was born. 697 00:46:40,618 --> 00:46:42,171 - You have Colombian citizenship? 698 00:46:42,171 --> 00:46:44,064 - [Sofia] I am indeed dual. 699 00:46:44,951 --> 00:46:46,911 My mom would always get mad at me for speaking 700 00:46:46,911 --> 00:46:49,884 Mexican-Spanish instead of real Spanish. 701 00:46:51,831 --> 00:46:54,361 - Don't wanna be cliche, but would you mind-- 702 00:46:54,361 --> 00:46:57,184 - [Sofia] Saying something right now. 703 00:46:59,306 --> 00:47:00,139 - Yeah. 704 00:47:01,607 --> 00:47:03,154 - [Sofia] Do you speak Spanish? 705 00:47:04,071 --> 00:47:04,904 - No. 706 00:47:06,487 --> 00:47:10,070 - [Sofia] (speaks Spanish) 707 00:47:24,343 --> 00:47:27,181 - Damn, that was, that really does it for me. 708 00:47:27,181 --> 00:47:29,361 Certain things just-- 709 00:47:29,361 --> 00:47:32,521 - [Sofia] Just do it for you, like accents, right? 710 00:47:32,521 --> 00:47:34,058 - Yeah. 711 00:47:34,058 --> 00:47:35,881 - [Sofia] And what else? 712 00:47:35,881 --> 00:47:39,261 - Asses, I have dealt with way more than I should've, 713 00:47:39,261 --> 00:47:40,903 abandoned something that was way better 714 00:47:40,903 --> 00:47:43,371 than it was, just for a great ass. 715 00:47:43,371 --> 00:47:46,221 - [Sofia] You are such a man. 716 00:47:46,221 --> 00:47:47,821 - Yeah, despite my best efforts. 717 00:47:52,321 --> 00:47:53,971 Why won't you video chat with me? 718 00:47:55,311 --> 00:47:57,551 - I told you, it's expensive here. 719 00:47:57,551 --> 00:47:59,741 - I know you have Wifi. 720 00:47:59,741 --> 00:48:01,131 - [Sofia] I don't have a webcam. 721 00:48:01,131 --> 00:48:02,474 - Come on. 722 00:48:03,421 --> 00:48:05,061 - [Sofia] What if when we meet it's not the same 723 00:48:05,061 --> 00:48:07,449 and then we never speak again? 724 00:48:07,449 --> 00:48:08,282 - What are you talking about? 725 00:48:08,282 --> 00:48:09,231 Of course it will be the same. 726 00:48:09,231 --> 00:48:11,024 It'll be fucking better! 727 00:48:12,951 --> 00:48:15,234 - [Sofia] Did you ever think that you found the one? 728 00:48:16,911 --> 00:48:18,818 - Once, but it was in high school. 729 00:48:20,961 --> 00:48:22,861 - [Sofia] Mine was more recent. 730 00:48:22,861 --> 00:48:26,291 He was from England and had joined the Peace Corps. 731 00:48:26,291 --> 00:48:28,141 His Spanish was bad so we mainly 732 00:48:28,141 --> 00:48:31,021 spoke in English, but he would try. 733 00:48:31,021 --> 00:48:32,094 That was important. 734 00:48:33,171 --> 00:48:35,431 We fell in love and then he went back to England 735 00:48:35,431 --> 00:48:37,981 to take care of his visa and visit his family. 736 00:48:37,981 --> 00:48:40,431 He was supposed to back in a couple months, 737 00:48:40,431 --> 00:48:42,551 but I never saw him again, never heard 738 00:48:42,551 --> 00:48:45,335 from him again, not a text, nothing. 739 00:48:45,335 --> 00:48:46,761 I don't understand that. 740 00:48:46,761 --> 00:48:48,231 How can you tell someone that you love them 741 00:48:48,231 --> 00:48:50,291 and then you never text them again? 742 00:48:50,291 --> 00:48:52,891 I mean, I get it that if it's hard 743 00:48:52,891 --> 00:48:54,921 and I understand if he couldn't come back, but nothing? 744 00:48:54,921 --> 00:48:59,111 Never knowing, even to this day, I can barely think 745 00:48:59,111 --> 00:49:01,374 about it, it just eats me up inside. 746 00:49:02,868 --> 00:49:04,534 - Yeah, I can't even imagine. 747 00:49:06,241 --> 00:49:08,921 - [Sofia] Your biggest fear is I'm not who I say I am, 748 00:49:08,921 --> 00:49:10,621 that all this will be for nothing. 749 00:49:11,585 --> 00:49:12,418 - Yeah. 750 00:49:13,961 --> 00:49:17,834 - [Sofia] I understand, that's exactly what I went through. 751 00:49:20,401 --> 00:49:23,541 My biggest fear is all of a sudden you're 752 00:49:23,541 --> 00:49:26,964 just gonna disappear and if I get on video with you, 753 00:49:27,862 --> 00:49:30,012 all of a sudden all of your fears are gone, 754 00:49:31,173 --> 00:49:33,373 but I still wake up with mine every morning. 755 00:49:36,261 --> 00:49:39,654 But, I'll do it, if that's what it takes. 756 00:49:40,741 --> 00:49:41,574 I'll do it. 757 00:49:45,941 --> 00:49:49,091 - Ah, you know they say the opposite of love isn't hate, 758 00:49:49,091 --> 00:49:54,091 it's fear, I don't wanna come from a place of fear, 759 00:49:54,191 --> 00:49:59,191 so, like every time someone you're with, 760 00:50:00,331 --> 00:50:01,791 they go out to dinner, or they work late, 761 00:50:01,791 --> 00:50:04,981 you gotta choose trust, so that's what I'm gonna. 762 00:50:04,981 --> 00:50:07,744 It's only what, 10 more days? 763 00:50:11,160 --> 00:50:12,824 I choose trust. 764 00:50:12,824 --> 00:50:16,074 (delicate piano music) 765 00:51:11,495 --> 00:51:14,439 (audio instructor speaks in Spanish) 766 00:51:14,439 --> 00:51:17,878 (Ian speaks Spanish) 767 00:51:17,878 --> 00:51:20,809 (audio instructor speaks in Spanish) 768 00:51:20,809 --> 00:51:23,702 (Ian speaks Spanish) 769 00:51:23,702 --> 00:51:28,358 - [Audio Instructor] Excellent, now, where is my hotel? 770 00:51:28,358 --> 00:51:31,538 - (Ian speaks Spanish) 771 00:51:31,538 --> 00:51:32,904 - [Audio Instructor] That's right. 772 00:51:33,745 --> 00:51:36,323 (speaks Spanish) 773 00:51:36,323 --> 00:51:38,823 (phone rings) 774 00:51:41,781 --> 00:51:42,661 - [Ian] Hey, you. 775 00:51:42,661 --> 00:51:43,494 - [Sofia] Hey. 776 00:51:44,561 --> 00:51:45,981 - [Ian] What's up? 777 00:51:45,981 --> 00:51:47,774 - [Sofia] Just getting home from a meeting. 778 00:51:48,811 --> 00:51:50,631 - Yeah, what kind of meeting? 779 00:51:50,631 --> 00:51:52,281 - Is this a bad time? 780 00:51:52,281 --> 00:51:55,401 - No, I was just getting some work done, 781 00:51:55,401 --> 00:51:57,061 you know, painting, I'm on a roll. 782 00:51:57,061 --> 00:51:58,471 - [Sofia] Well, I can call you back. 783 00:51:58,471 --> 00:51:59,701 - It's okay, just trying to squeeze 784 00:51:59,701 --> 00:52:01,001 some in before I gotta go. 785 00:52:03,191 --> 00:52:05,321 - [Sofia] Okay, why don't you just 786 00:52:05,321 --> 00:52:07,661 call me back from the car then. 787 00:52:07,661 --> 00:52:08,494 - All right. 788 00:52:10,061 --> 00:52:11,931 - [Sofia] I'm nervous for you. 789 00:52:11,931 --> 00:52:13,204 - Don't be, I'll be fine. 790 00:52:18,418 --> 00:52:19,921 - [Audio Instructor] Excellent. 791 00:52:19,921 --> 00:52:22,964 Now, where is my hotel. 792 00:52:24,409 --> 00:52:27,409 (speaks in Spanish) 793 00:52:28,355 --> 00:52:30,991 (speaks in Spanish) 794 00:52:30,991 --> 00:52:32,721 - [Sofia] When was the last time you were home? 795 00:52:32,721 --> 00:52:34,081 - Oh, maybe six months ago. 796 00:52:34,081 --> 00:52:35,801 - [Sofia] Wait, how long is your drive? 797 00:52:35,801 --> 00:52:37,091 - It's only two hours? 798 00:52:37,091 --> 00:52:39,841 - [Sofia] And you haven't been home in six months? 799 00:52:39,841 --> 00:52:41,891 - Yeah, just with my dad and everything. 800 00:52:41,891 --> 00:52:43,891 - [Sofia] Oh sorry, I know. 801 00:52:43,891 --> 00:52:46,384 I just thought you wanted to see everyone else. 802 00:52:47,571 --> 00:52:50,141 So, you're brother just graduated med school. 803 00:52:50,141 --> 00:52:51,571 You must be super proud of him. 804 00:52:51,571 --> 00:52:52,404 - Yeah, I am. 805 00:52:54,681 --> 00:52:55,514 Earlier it seemed like there was 806 00:52:55,514 --> 00:52:57,781 something you wanted to tell me. 807 00:52:57,781 --> 00:53:00,535 - [Sofia] Yeah, do you want the good news or the bad news? 808 00:53:00,535 --> 00:53:02,751 - Bad news first, always bad news. 809 00:53:02,751 --> 00:53:03,911 - [Sofia] Can I do the good news first? 810 00:53:03,911 --> 00:53:05,671 - Yeah, of course. 811 00:53:05,671 --> 00:53:07,671 - [Sofia] I got offered an internship at Google. 812 00:53:07,671 --> 00:53:10,301 - Wait, what, that's incredible, for coding? 813 00:53:10,301 --> 00:53:11,181 - [Sofia] Yes. 814 00:53:11,181 --> 00:53:13,121 - Oh my God, that's amazing. 815 00:53:13,121 --> 00:53:15,191 What's the bad news? 816 00:53:15,191 --> 00:53:17,384 - [Sofia] The job is here in Mexico City. 817 00:53:18,681 --> 00:53:19,514 - Oh. 818 00:53:19,514 --> 00:53:20,831 - [Sofia] It's only three months 819 00:53:20,831 --> 00:53:22,581 and it would give me more time with my mom 820 00:53:22,581 --> 00:53:24,644 and I'd actually be making money. 821 00:53:25,672 --> 00:53:28,511 - Yeah, right, of course. 822 00:53:28,511 --> 00:53:31,421 - [Sofia] But also, I really care about you 823 00:53:31,421 --> 00:53:34,741 and I know this isn't what you signed up for. 824 00:53:34,741 --> 00:53:37,491 - I mean, it's Google, you don't say no to Google. 825 00:53:37,491 --> 00:53:38,324 Also it's your mom. 826 00:53:38,324 --> 00:53:41,321 I wouldn't want you picking me over either of those things. 827 00:53:41,321 --> 00:53:42,731 When do you start? 828 00:53:42,731 --> 00:53:44,131 - [Sofia] In two weeks, why? 829 00:53:45,448 --> 00:53:48,008 - Well, maybe we still use that ticket you have back, 830 00:53:48,008 --> 00:53:49,881 spend a weekend together, and then 831 00:53:49,881 --> 00:53:52,251 I pay for you to fly to Mexico. 832 00:53:52,251 --> 00:53:53,681 - [Sofia] That is so sweet of you, 833 00:53:53,681 --> 00:53:56,504 but I would never let you pay for my ticket. 834 00:53:57,541 --> 00:53:58,521 I really wanna see you. 835 00:53:58,521 --> 00:54:01,241 I just have to figure this all out. 836 00:54:01,241 --> 00:54:02,874 - Yeah, of course. 837 00:54:04,933 --> 00:54:07,381 - [Sofia] Are you sure you're okay? 838 00:54:07,381 --> 00:54:10,021 - I'm sorry if it seems like I'm not. 839 00:54:10,021 --> 00:54:11,694 I really am happy for you. 840 00:54:12,651 --> 00:54:15,301 I was just also really excited to see you. 841 00:54:15,301 --> 00:54:16,981 - [Sofia] I know, you will soon. 842 00:54:18,231 --> 00:54:19,381 - Yeah. 843 00:54:19,381 --> 00:54:21,125 - [Sofia] I gotta tell my mom. 844 00:54:21,125 --> 00:54:21,958 - Oh, you told me first? 845 00:54:21,958 --> 00:54:24,921 - [Sofia] Of course, (speaks Spanish) 846 00:54:24,921 --> 00:54:25,841 - Sofia? 847 00:54:25,841 --> 00:54:27,071 - [Sofia] Yeah. 848 00:54:27,071 --> 00:54:28,658 - I truly am happy for you. 849 00:54:33,591 --> 00:54:36,633 (door knocks) 850 00:54:36,633 --> 00:54:37,681 - [JD] What's up sis? 851 00:54:37,681 --> 00:54:39,214 - [Ian] Congratulations, buddy. 852 00:54:42,381 --> 00:54:43,214 - Hi, Ian. 853 00:54:43,214 --> 00:54:44,047 - [Ian] Hey mom. 854 00:54:48,021 --> 00:54:49,041 - I missed you. 855 00:54:49,041 --> 00:54:50,074 - I missed you too. 856 00:54:51,513 --> 00:54:52,346 Where's Dad? 857 00:54:52,346 --> 00:54:53,261 - He's in the kitchen. 858 00:54:53,261 --> 00:54:54,811 - [DJ] You see that Allison? 859 00:54:54,811 --> 00:54:55,644 - Hey Ian. 860 00:54:55,644 --> 00:54:57,451 - [Ian] Hey Allison. 861 00:54:57,451 --> 00:54:58,831 How's nursing school? 862 00:54:58,831 --> 00:54:59,841 - It's tough but worth it. 863 00:54:59,841 --> 00:55:01,651 Just one more year until I'm a RN. 864 00:55:01,651 --> 00:55:03,094 - [Ian] That's really awesome. 865 00:55:04,138 --> 00:55:05,104 I gotta find my dad. 866 00:55:06,762 --> 00:55:09,262 (knives chop) 867 00:55:11,111 --> 00:55:12,884 - There you are. 868 00:55:16,980 --> 00:55:18,480 - [Ian] Hiya, Dad. 869 00:55:21,640 --> 00:55:22,841 - You were cutting it a little close don't you think? 870 00:55:22,841 --> 00:55:24,911 - [Ian] There was traffic. 871 00:55:24,911 --> 00:55:26,204 - There's always traffic. 872 00:55:30,151 --> 00:55:31,851 - [Ian] You need a hand? 873 00:55:31,851 --> 00:55:33,614 - No, no, I got that, you get that. 874 00:55:36,247 --> 00:55:38,191 (light percussion) 875 00:55:38,191 --> 00:55:41,741 So, did you hear back from the art gallery? 876 00:55:41,741 --> 00:55:43,224 - [Ian] I did actually. 877 00:55:44,151 --> 00:55:46,231 They're all booked up but they liked my stuff. 878 00:55:46,231 --> 00:55:47,631 - Congratulations. 879 00:55:47,631 --> 00:55:49,561 - [Ian] And they want me to submit again. 880 00:55:49,561 --> 00:55:50,941 - Well, of course they did. 881 00:55:50,941 --> 00:55:52,081 - That's so awesome. 882 00:55:52,081 --> 00:55:53,841 I'd love to see some of your art. 883 00:55:53,841 --> 00:55:55,670 - He did the one in the hallway you said was weird. 884 00:55:55,670 --> 00:55:58,024 - I didn't say it was weird. 885 00:55:58,024 --> 00:55:59,501 I just didn't know what it was. 886 00:55:59,501 --> 00:56:01,501 - [Ian] It's not supposed to be anything. 887 00:56:01,501 --> 00:56:03,501 It's supposed to make you feel something 888 00:56:03,501 --> 00:56:05,381 more than it's supposed to be something. 889 00:56:05,381 --> 00:56:07,831 - And what is this one supposed to make you feel? 890 00:56:09,391 --> 00:56:10,851 - [Ian] I mean, it varies for each person. 891 00:56:10,851 --> 00:56:15,321 I'm not gonna tell someone what they're supposed to feel. 892 00:56:15,321 --> 00:56:17,121 - Seems to me if you knew what you were saying, 893 00:56:17,121 --> 00:56:21,024 the art galleries would respond to you more, favorably. 894 00:56:22,481 --> 00:56:25,189 I mean, your brother always knew what he wanted to be. 895 00:56:25,189 --> 00:56:27,301 Since he was 13-years-old, wanted to be 896 00:56:27,301 --> 00:56:30,381 an orthopedic surgeon, not a doctor like the other kids, 897 00:56:30,381 --> 00:56:35,031 but something very specific, he always knew 898 00:56:35,031 --> 00:56:37,704 what he wanted to be and look at him now. 899 00:56:40,241 --> 00:56:41,864 - [JD] Same thing I did with Allison. 900 00:56:45,351 --> 00:56:46,801 - I need to use the restroom. 901 00:56:49,411 --> 00:56:50,871 (light percussion) 902 00:56:50,871 --> 00:56:53,538 (messages beep) 903 00:56:54,821 --> 00:56:58,488 (drums play more intensely) 904 00:57:33,605 --> 00:57:36,355 (toilet flushes) 905 00:57:46,831 --> 00:57:49,481 - [Jonathan] What on Earth took you so long, man? 906 00:57:49,481 --> 00:57:50,801 - He was probably taking a shit. 907 00:57:50,801 --> 00:57:51,634 - [Sandra] JD! 908 00:57:51,634 --> 00:57:53,461 - I was texting a girl. 909 00:57:53,461 --> 00:57:54,411 - [JD] What's his name? 910 00:57:54,411 --> 00:57:55,244 - [Sandra] Quiet. 911 00:57:55,244 --> 00:57:56,644 - Her name is Sofia. 912 00:57:57,521 --> 00:57:59,397 - [Sandra] So, do you have any pictures? 913 00:57:59,397 --> 00:58:00,230 - Yeah. 914 00:58:03,352 --> 00:58:04,892 - Oh, she's beautiful. 915 00:58:04,892 --> 00:58:05,975 - Let me see. 916 00:58:08,751 --> 00:58:09,744 Dude, she's hot. 917 00:58:11,231 --> 00:58:13,338 What are you texting Tina for? 918 00:58:13,338 --> 00:58:14,401 - Who is that, your new girlfriend? 919 00:58:14,401 --> 00:58:16,021 - [Sandra] His ex-girlfriend. 920 00:58:16,021 --> 00:58:17,901 - [JD] Trying to reignite an old high school fling? 921 00:58:17,901 --> 00:58:19,225 - JD! 922 00:58:19,225 --> 00:58:20,058 - [Ian] No, I'm with Sofia. 923 00:58:20,058 --> 00:58:22,621 - Then why isn't Sofia here? 924 00:58:22,621 --> 00:58:24,151 - She's in Mexico. 925 00:58:24,151 --> 00:58:25,841 - Your girlfriend lives in Mexico? 926 00:58:25,841 --> 00:58:27,611 - Her mom has cancer. 927 00:58:27,611 --> 00:58:29,084 - Oh my God, I'm so sorry. 928 00:58:30,721 --> 00:58:32,231 - How did you two meet? 929 00:58:32,231 --> 00:58:33,631 - [Ian] Online. 930 00:58:33,631 --> 00:58:34,981 - [JD] You have met her though, right? 931 00:58:34,981 --> 00:58:37,371 - Yeah, no, of course we want on a great date 932 00:58:37,371 --> 00:58:38,961 and then her mom get sick. 933 00:58:38,961 --> 00:58:42,161 I'm not gonna call it off just because her mom's sick. 934 00:58:42,161 --> 00:58:44,226 - That is so sweet of you. 935 00:58:44,226 --> 00:58:46,341 - [JD] You have any pictures of you two? 936 00:58:46,341 --> 00:58:47,424 - [Ian] Stop it, give me my phone. 937 00:58:47,424 --> 00:58:48,921 - Man, come on share your phone. 938 00:58:48,921 --> 00:58:50,731 Your brother doesn't have any secrets. 939 00:58:50,731 --> 00:58:51,564 - It's my phone. 940 00:58:51,564 --> 00:58:53,696 - If I recall you're on my phone plan. 941 00:58:53,696 --> 00:58:54,606 - [Ian] That's because you won't take 942 00:58:54,606 --> 00:58:55,439 the money whenever I try to give it to you. 943 00:58:55,439 --> 00:58:56,485 - That's not the point. 944 00:58:56,485 --> 00:58:58,294 - The point is you can't hold it 945 00:58:58,294 --> 00:58:59,769 over my head and also refuse it. 946 00:58:59,769 --> 00:59:01,321 - It's my house, I can do what I want. 947 00:59:01,321 --> 00:59:02,441 - [Ian] Yeah, you made that clear. 948 00:59:02,441 --> 00:59:04,291 - What's that supposed to mean? 949 00:59:04,291 --> 00:59:06,952 - Don't start with the Dad was abusive shit, again. 950 00:59:06,952 --> 00:59:07,785 - [Allison] What? 951 00:59:07,785 --> 00:59:09,047 - [JD] Ian he likes to say-- 952 00:59:09,047 --> 00:59:10,661 - You don't know what it was like. 953 00:59:10,661 --> 00:59:12,091 - We don't know what it was like, huh? 954 00:59:12,091 --> 00:59:13,891 Well, then tell us. 955 00:59:13,891 --> 00:59:15,867 Tell us little buddy, what was 956 00:59:15,867 --> 00:59:17,191 it like to be such an abused child. 957 00:59:17,191 --> 00:59:18,891 - [Sandra] Okay, Jonathan, let's just drop it. 958 00:59:18,891 --> 00:59:20,431 - No, I wanna hear it from the artist here. 959 00:59:20,431 --> 00:59:21,881 Come on tell us. 960 00:59:21,881 --> 00:59:23,581 Congratulations, you made what was 961 00:59:23,581 --> 00:59:26,314 supposed to be JD's night all about you. 962 00:59:27,451 --> 00:59:30,141 I put a roof over your head ever day. 963 00:59:30,141 --> 00:59:35,141 I put food on your plate every day, every day, every day. 964 00:59:40,123 --> 00:59:41,484 - I don't have to take this. 965 00:59:42,391 --> 00:59:43,224 - I love you all, but I don't have 966 00:59:43,224 --> 00:59:44,914 to take this just because I love you. 967 00:59:46,232 --> 00:59:47,482 - [Sandra] Ian? 968 00:59:48,991 --> 00:59:50,134 - Hey, hey asshole. 969 00:59:51,201 --> 00:59:52,901 You get your ass back in this house, 970 00:59:52,901 --> 00:59:55,871 you apologize to your brother, and your mother. 971 00:59:55,871 --> 00:59:57,672 - [Ian] I'll call 'em later, I'm leaving. 972 00:59:57,672 --> 00:59:58,722 - No, no, no, no, no. 973 00:59:59,929 --> 01:00:01,625 (tense dramatic music) 974 01:00:01,625 --> 01:00:03,961 You think life is so hard, it isn't. 975 01:00:03,961 --> 01:00:08,491 When I was in high school I wanted to be a rock star, 976 01:00:08,491 --> 01:00:11,948 but I manned up, your mother got pregnant so I married her. 977 01:00:11,948 --> 01:00:13,301 - Oh, I'm sorry I stopped 978 01:00:13,301 --> 01:00:15,771 the Red Eye Ducks from international fame. 979 01:00:15,771 --> 01:00:17,111 (slaps) 980 01:00:17,111 --> 01:00:19,705 - That remind you of how I abused ya? 981 01:00:19,705 --> 01:00:20,762 Let me remind you again. 982 01:00:20,762 --> 01:00:23,351 (slaps) 983 01:00:23,351 --> 01:00:24,528 You don't say a word. 984 01:00:25,465 --> 01:00:29,531 You don't get to say shit til you walked a mile in my shoes. 985 01:00:29,531 --> 01:00:33,054 Following your dreams is easy, manning up is what's hard. 986 01:00:36,984 --> 01:00:39,401 - That's what being a man is? 987 01:00:41,971 --> 01:00:43,171 You coulda kept playing. 988 01:00:47,181 --> 01:00:48,731 - [Johnathan] It hurt too much. 989 01:00:51,014 --> 01:00:52,811 - Where do you think all that pain went? 990 01:00:53,834 --> 01:00:57,084 (tense dramatic music) 991 01:01:08,601 --> 01:01:12,054 - Oh my God, I almost thought you weren't gonna show. 992 01:01:16,537 --> 01:01:18,001 Are you okay? 993 01:01:18,001 --> 01:01:19,514 - [Ian] Why didn't we work out? 994 01:01:22,587 --> 01:01:25,761 - You mean 'cause I was going to school 995 01:01:25,761 --> 01:01:28,189 in Boston and then you went to LA? 996 01:01:28,189 --> 01:01:29,871 - No after that, when you came back? 997 01:01:29,871 --> 01:01:33,211 - Do you really wanna do this again? 998 01:01:33,211 --> 01:01:34,471 - I gave you everything. 999 01:01:34,471 --> 01:01:35,304 I gave you all of myself. 1000 01:01:35,304 --> 01:01:37,901 - Congratulations, so what? 1001 01:01:37,901 --> 01:01:38,941 - So what? 1002 01:01:38,941 --> 01:01:40,271 You're saying so what to me giving you everything. 1003 01:01:40,271 --> 01:01:42,474 - Okay, what the hell happened at your Dad's? 1004 01:01:45,644 --> 01:01:50,644 Hey, shh, shh, shh, shh, shh. 1005 01:01:51,815 --> 01:01:56,815 Hey, come here. 1006 01:02:00,314 --> 01:02:01,147 Hey, hey. 1007 01:02:06,282 --> 01:02:11,282 Do you remember when we snuck into that construction site 1008 01:02:13,341 --> 01:02:14,984 and we climbed the scaffolding, 1009 01:02:16,351 --> 01:02:19,881 and you packed all that stuff, and you had 1010 01:02:19,881 --> 01:02:23,801 this whole little picnic thing planned, 1011 01:02:23,801 --> 01:02:27,331 but when you pulled the blanket out 1012 01:02:27,331 --> 01:02:31,756 you sent all the food flying off the side of the building? 1013 01:02:31,756 --> 01:02:33,164 - Yeah, that really sucked. 1014 01:02:33,164 --> 01:02:34,661 - And then the boombox wouldn't work. 1015 01:02:34,661 --> 01:02:36,531 - Yeah, stupid JD took the batteries. 1016 01:02:36,531 --> 01:02:39,321 - Yeah, so you sang to me instead. 1017 01:02:39,321 --> 01:02:41,331 - Yeah, but I didn't know any of the lyrics. 1018 01:02:41,331 --> 01:02:43,245 - So you just kept singing. 1019 01:02:43,245 --> 01:02:44,391 ♪ I don't wanna wait ♪ 1020 01:02:44,391 --> 01:02:48,090 Over, and over, and over again. 1021 01:02:48,090 --> 01:02:50,340 (Ian hums) 1022 01:02:52,206 --> 01:02:53,521 It was the most beautiful thing I'd ever had. 1023 01:02:53,521 --> 01:02:54,854 - That is not true. 1024 01:03:05,245 --> 01:03:06,912 - Hey, are you okay? 1025 01:03:08,641 --> 01:03:09,474 - Yeah. 1026 01:03:22,239 --> 01:03:24,989 (engaging music) 1027 01:03:27,517 --> 01:03:29,684 (panting) 1028 01:03:37,645 --> 01:03:40,895 - They really did a number on you, huh? 1029 01:03:42,412 --> 01:03:44,430 Shh, it's okay. 1030 01:03:44,430 --> 01:03:47,013 (bright music) 1031 01:03:48,186 --> 01:03:49,853 Hey, where'd you go? 1032 01:03:52,221 --> 01:03:53,054 Come back. 1033 01:03:57,322 --> 01:04:00,669 (bright music) 1034 01:04:00,669 --> 01:04:02,836 (panting) 1035 01:04:07,755 --> 01:04:10,338 (bright music) 1036 01:04:12,058 --> 01:04:13,975 - I'm sorry, okay Tina. 1037 01:04:15,578 --> 01:04:16,411 - [Tina] What? 1038 01:04:16,411 --> 01:04:18,427 - I can't, I can't. 1039 01:04:18,427 --> 01:04:19,260 - What? 1040 01:04:22,237 --> 01:04:24,652 Where are you going? 1041 01:04:24,652 --> 01:04:25,485 Hey! 1042 01:04:42,058 --> 01:04:44,891 (phone rings) 1043 01:04:44,891 --> 01:04:46,751 - [Sofia] Hey, are you okay? 1044 01:04:46,751 --> 01:04:48,661 - Yeah, I'm so sorry about earlier. 1045 01:04:48,661 --> 01:04:50,041 - [Sofia] What are you sorry for? 1046 01:04:50,041 --> 01:04:52,361 - I wasn't as excited as I should have been. 1047 01:04:52,361 --> 01:04:54,421 You are so amazing. 1048 01:04:54,421 --> 01:04:55,298 You're going through such a hard time. 1049 01:04:55,298 --> 01:04:57,441 You get this incredible news about thing you worked 1050 01:04:57,441 --> 01:04:59,711 so hard for and that you completely deserve, 1051 01:04:59,711 --> 01:05:03,211 and I made it all about me, and you deserve 1052 01:05:03,211 --> 01:05:05,681 better than that and I am so sorry. 1053 01:05:05,681 --> 01:05:07,758 - [Sofia] I really appreciate you saying that, 1054 01:05:07,758 --> 01:05:10,094 but it's okay, I get it. 1055 01:05:10,094 --> 01:05:12,281 - It isn't okay, I'm going to be better. 1056 01:05:12,281 --> 01:05:14,001 - [Sofia] You're already amazing. 1057 01:05:14,001 --> 01:05:17,901 - Still, it frustrates me so much sometimes. 1058 01:05:17,901 --> 01:05:19,821 Like, what if something happened to you? 1059 01:05:19,821 --> 01:05:21,725 Would anyone even know to call me? 1060 01:05:21,725 --> 01:05:22,941 Would I get to talk at your funeral? 1061 01:05:22,941 --> 01:05:24,661 - [Sofia] Jesus, how often are you thinking 1062 01:05:24,661 --> 01:05:26,471 about something terrible happening to me? 1063 01:05:26,471 --> 01:05:27,468 - I didn't mean it like that, 1064 01:05:27,468 --> 01:05:29,584 but does anybody even know about me? 1065 01:05:30,927 --> 01:05:32,811 It's just so hard not having anything 1066 01:05:32,811 --> 01:05:34,274 I could literally hold on to. 1067 01:05:35,391 --> 01:05:37,261 - [Sofia] Do you think it's easy for me? 1068 01:05:37,261 --> 01:05:38,911 I take care of my mom. 1069 01:05:38,911 --> 01:05:41,741 I spent all night refreshing myself 1070 01:05:41,741 --> 01:05:45,631 on Python and C++ and then I'm distracted the whole time, 1071 01:05:45,631 --> 01:05:49,061 because the guy that I'm super into went from texting me 1072 01:05:49,061 --> 01:05:51,101 all the time to not texting me at all. 1073 01:05:51,101 --> 01:05:52,421 - I'm really sorry about that? 1074 01:05:52,421 --> 01:05:54,231 - [Sofia] And meanwhile, I have this other guy 1075 01:05:54,231 --> 01:05:57,121 hitting me up that I was talking to before I met you. 1076 01:05:57,121 --> 01:05:58,671 - Wait, wait, wait, what other dude? 1077 01:05:58,671 --> 01:05:59,857 - [Sofia] It doesn't matter. 1078 01:05:59,857 --> 01:06:02,241 Some guy I went with on a couple dates. 1079 01:06:02,241 --> 01:06:03,781 - Wait, what happened? 1080 01:06:03,781 --> 01:06:05,281 - [Sofia] You happened, dummy. 1081 01:06:06,527 --> 01:06:09,801 - I'm sorry I didn't mean to-- 1082 01:06:09,801 --> 01:06:11,601 - [Sofia] That's not what I'm trying to say. 1083 01:06:11,601 --> 01:06:14,931 What I'm trying to say is you are my life now 1084 01:06:14,931 --> 01:06:16,881 and if I hadn't met you I probably would have 1085 01:06:16,881 --> 01:06:19,571 gone out with him and it would have been okay, 1086 01:06:19,571 --> 01:06:21,871 and who knows, maybe it could've been something more, 1087 01:06:21,871 --> 01:06:26,871 because I'm 30 and I didn't find what I was looking for, 1088 01:06:28,121 --> 01:06:30,241 that thing that I thought was out there. 1089 01:06:30,241 --> 01:06:33,721 But then I met you and I realized 1090 01:06:33,721 --> 01:06:35,854 I didn't have to give up on that hope, 1091 01:06:36,851 --> 01:06:39,191 and I'm not trying to make you feel bad 1092 01:06:39,191 --> 01:06:41,231 for not texting me and me being distracted. 1093 01:06:41,231 --> 01:06:44,661 It's not that, it's just I'm revealing to you 1094 01:06:44,661 --> 01:06:46,931 what I'm not supposed to reveal, 1095 01:06:46,931 --> 01:06:49,891 that I'm upset when we're not talking. 1096 01:06:49,891 --> 01:06:51,261 I miss you and I'm-- 1097 01:06:51,261 --> 01:06:53,211 - I missed you, I missed you too. 1098 01:06:53,211 --> 01:06:55,868 Okay, I have never felt anything like this 1099 01:06:55,868 --> 01:06:57,784 and I am terrified of losing you. 1100 01:06:59,268 --> 01:07:01,281 - [Sofia] I thought you gonna choose trust. 1101 01:07:01,281 --> 01:07:05,044 - Yeah, yes, I am. 1102 01:07:07,541 --> 01:07:09,978 You're able to video chat aren't you? 1103 01:07:09,978 --> 01:07:12,385 All that other stuff is just-- 1104 01:07:12,385 --> 01:07:13,438 - [Sofia] Ian, I-- 1105 01:07:13,438 --> 01:07:16,044 - No, no, no, no, hey, I get it. 1106 01:07:17,501 --> 01:07:22,501 I do, I just, I wanna show you me. 1107 01:07:24,578 --> 01:07:27,170 I want you to see the look in my eyes. 1108 01:07:27,170 --> 01:07:29,057 - [Sofia] You don't have to do this. 1109 01:07:29,057 --> 01:07:30,724 - I know, I want to. 1110 01:07:39,791 --> 01:07:40,624 Hey. 1111 01:07:41,617 --> 01:07:43,864 - [Sofia] Hi, it's your face. 1112 01:07:44,711 --> 01:07:45,581 - It is. 1113 01:07:45,581 --> 01:07:46,821 - [Sofia] I love it. 1114 01:07:46,821 --> 01:07:48,621 - You've seen it before. 1115 01:07:48,621 --> 01:07:50,869 - [Sofia] It's different in action. 1116 01:07:50,869 --> 01:07:55,869 I didn't realize how nice your jaw is. 1117 01:07:56,281 --> 01:07:57,734 - A girl told me once that's how 1118 01:07:57,734 --> 01:07:59,251 she knew I was a good kisser. 1119 01:07:59,251 --> 01:08:00,351 - [Sofia] Subtle brag. 1120 01:08:02,561 --> 01:08:05,201 I can always judge by lip size. 1121 01:08:05,201 --> 01:08:06,171 - Well, I'm not winning there. 1122 01:08:06,171 --> 01:08:08,371 - [Sofia] Oh shush, you're lips are prefect. 1123 01:08:10,417 --> 01:08:12,014 - I really wish I could kiss you. 1124 01:08:12,966 --> 01:08:14,182 - [Sofia] Where are you? 1125 01:08:14,182 --> 01:08:15,332 - The side of the road. 1126 01:08:16,422 --> 01:08:18,731 - [Sofia] Isn't it late and you can just go home? 1127 01:08:18,731 --> 01:08:19,631 We can talk later. 1128 01:08:20,709 --> 01:08:22,600 - I wanted you to see me. 1129 01:08:22,600 --> 01:08:24,267 - [Sofia] I see you. 1130 01:08:25,446 --> 01:08:26,291 Ian. 1131 01:08:26,291 --> 01:08:27,929 - Yeah. 1132 01:08:27,929 --> 01:08:29,175 - [Sofia] Kiss me. 1133 01:08:29,175 --> 01:08:31,925 (engaging music) 1134 01:08:33,305 --> 01:08:35,636 (lips smack) 1135 01:08:35,636 --> 01:08:38,719 She was right, you are a good kisser. 1136 01:08:42,711 --> 01:08:43,794 - I want you. 1137 01:08:45,591 --> 01:08:46,594 - [Sofia] I need you too. 1138 01:08:48,471 --> 01:08:52,134 - Imagine my lips kissing down your neck, gently, 1139 01:08:53,334 --> 01:08:55,584 gently down over your body. 1140 01:08:56,534 --> 01:08:57,795 - [Sofia] Mm hmm 1141 01:08:57,795 --> 01:09:00,403 - Down in between your breasts, 1142 01:09:00,403 --> 01:09:03,070 down your belly, down your legs. 1143 01:09:05,028 --> 01:09:07,030 - [Sofia] I can feel that. 1144 01:09:07,030 --> 01:09:07,863 - Do you feel that? 1145 01:09:07,863 --> 01:09:09,235 - [Sofia] Yes, I can feel that. 1146 01:09:09,235 --> 01:09:12,235 - Feel my hands rubbing up your leg. 1147 01:09:13,395 --> 01:09:16,062 Feel me when I was between them. 1148 01:09:18,884 --> 01:09:20,659 (panting and moaning) 1149 01:09:20,659 --> 01:09:23,488 Feel the way you make me grow. 1150 01:09:23,488 --> 01:09:24,994 - [Sofia] Oh God, I'm waiting. 1151 01:09:24,994 --> 01:09:26,291 - I'm gonna get inside you. 1152 01:09:26,291 --> 01:09:27,571 - [Sofia] I need you inside me right now. 1153 01:09:27,571 --> 01:09:30,468 - Oh yes, please, yes, yes. 1154 01:09:30,468 --> 01:09:33,489 - [Sofia] Just like that, oh God, it's amazing. 1155 01:09:33,489 --> 01:09:34,322 - Sofia. 1156 01:09:34,322 --> 01:09:35,652 - [Sofia] Oh give it to me, just like that, just that, yeah. 1157 01:09:35,652 --> 01:09:36,740 Ian, Ian. 1158 01:09:36,740 --> 01:09:38,353 - Yes, yes, yes Sofia. 1159 01:09:38,353 --> 01:09:40,020 - [Sofia] Oh my God. 1160 01:09:41,489 --> 01:09:44,906 (screaming and grunting) 1161 01:09:47,522 --> 01:09:50,180 (laughing) 1162 01:09:50,180 --> 01:09:51,013 Oh my God. 1163 01:09:53,188 --> 01:09:55,300 - I made such a big mess. 1164 01:09:55,300 --> 01:09:56,452 - [Sofia] In the car? 1165 01:09:56,452 --> 01:09:58,927 - No, all over the side of the road. 1166 01:09:58,927 --> 01:10:01,177 (laughing) 1167 01:10:02,191 --> 01:10:06,828 - [Sofia] I don't think I've ever orgasmed this hard. 1168 01:10:06,828 --> 01:10:08,134 - I know I haven't. 1169 01:10:11,231 --> 01:10:12,064 Sofia? 1170 01:10:13,071 --> 01:10:15,601 - [Sofia] What is it? 1171 01:10:15,601 --> 01:10:16,434 - I-- 1172 01:10:18,143 --> 01:10:19,310 - [Sofia] Ian. 1173 01:10:20,687 --> 01:10:21,520 - Yeah? 1174 01:10:23,392 --> 01:10:25,142 - [Sofia] I love you. 1175 01:10:26,444 --> 01:10:27,498 - I love you too. 1176 01:10:33,761 --> 01:10:35,774 - You really turned a corner here, Ian. 1177 01:10:36,670 --> 01:10:41,598 There is something so fresh and raw about these paintings. 1178 01:10:42,721 --> 01:10:44,521 These are all the same woman, right? 1179 01:10:45,471 --> 01:10:50,471 It's like you couldn't get all of her in one painting, 1180 01:10:50,541 --> 01:10:53,364 so you had to do more to get all of her sides. 1181 01:10:55,811 --> 01:10:56,644 Wow. 1182 01:11:01,031 --> 01:11:02,181 This is the one, right? 1183 01:11:11,681 --> 01:11:14,241 This is it, you know what? 1184 01:11:14,241 --> 01:11:16,841 The feature artist that we were gonna show next month got 1185 01:11:16,841 --> 01:11:20,684 snatched up by MOCHA, would you be interested in the slot? 1186 01:11:24,541 --> 01:11:26,318 - [Sofia] Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. 1187 01:11:26,318 --> 01:11:29,321 I'm so happy for you? 1188 01:11:29,321 --> 01:11:31,281 I want you to tell me everything. 1189 01:11:31,281 --> 01:11:33,531 I haven't even seen one of the paintings. 1190 01:11:33,531 --> 01:11:34,961 - They're a surprise. 1191 01:11:34,961 --> 01:11:37,481 - [Sofia] Oh my God, you are such a tease. 1192 01:11:37,481 --> 01:11:39,714 - Okay, okay, here. 1193 01:11:43,021 --> 01:11:46,831 - [Sofia] Wait, is that one of the paintings? 1194 01:11:46,831 --> 01:11:47,664 - Yeah. 1195 01:11:47,664 --> 01:11:49,401 - [Sofia] It's of me. 1196 01:11:49,401 --> 01:11:50,821 - [Ian] Yeah, I know. 1197 01:11:50,821 --> 01:11:52,301 - [Sofia] You showed a curator 1198 01:11:52,301 --> 01:11:54,414 a painting of me before you showed me? 1199 01:11:57,566 --> 01:11:59,921 - Do you know how difficult you are to paint? 1200 01:11:59,921 --> 01:12:00,941 Do you know how many times I had 1201 01:12:00,941 --> 01:12:03,004 to start over just trying to get it right? 1202 01:12:04,351 --> 01:12:06,301 - [Sofia] What are the other paintings? 1203 01:12:08,877 --> 01:12:09,710 Ian? 1204 01:12:11,051 --> 01:12:15,951 Ian, are you gonna fill a gallery with paintings 1205 01:12:15,951 --> 01:12:19,494 of me when I can't even be there? 1206 01:12:20,631 --> 01:12:21,511 - I thought it'd be a surprise. 1207 01:12:21,511 --> 01:12:23,354 I thought I could fly you out. 1208 01:12:26,051 --> 01:12:28,081 - [Sofia] Let's just drop it. 1209 01:12:28,081 --> 01:12:30,804 - No, I don't want this hanging between us. 1210 01:12:31,731 --> 01:12:34,531 - [Sofia] You are filling a a gallery with paintings 1211 01:12:34,531 --> 01:12:37,081 of me without my permission and then you're guilting 1212 01:12:37,081 --> 01:12:40,844 about not being able to be there, so let's just drop it. 1213 01:12:44,001 --> 01:12:45,571 - I'm sorry. 1214 01:12:45,571 --> 01:12:46,404 - [Sofia] Ian-- 1215 01:12:48,350 --> 01:12:53,350 - Look, I'll cancel, I'll cancel the show, okay? 1216 01:12:53,591 --> 01:12:54,911 I'll cancel the show, it's not worth it. 1217 01:12:54,911 --> 01:12:56,495 I don't wanna fight with you. 1218 01:12:56,495 --> 01:12:59,191 - [Sofia] No, no, you will not do such a thing. 1219 01:12:59,191 --> 01:13:03,791 Look, it's okay, I'm fine, I promise. 1220 01:13:03,791 --> 01:13:07,891 I am really flattered. 1221 01:13:07,891 --> 01:13:11,574 I just wish you would have told me. 1222 01:13:16,681 --> 01:13:20,994 And, what's your schedule like next week? 1223 01:13:23,281 --> 01:13:24,114 - Why? 1224 01:13:24,114 --> 01:13:27,361 - [Sofia] I know it's your birthday, so I figure you're 1225 01:13:27,361 --> 01:13:28,851 gonna be with friends and everything, 1226 01:13:28,851 --> 01:13:31,994 but I would love to have one of those days. 1227 01:13:33,711 --> 01:13:35,021 - The whole day? 1228 01:13:35,021 --> 01:13:35,854 - [Sofia] Yep. 1229 01:13:40,051 --> 01:13:41,991 - I would really love that. 1230 01:13:41,991 --> 01:13:42,824 - [Sofia] Good. 1231 01:13:44,977 --> 01:13:47,477 (phone rings) 1232 01:13:49,661 --> 01:13:50,494 - Good morning. 1233 01:13:51,341 --> 01:13:53,991 - [Sofia] Happy day, we're celebrating your birthday! 1234 01:13:54,941 --> 01:13:56,992 Aftofore to be shortened to, Happy Birthday? 1235 01:13:56,992 --> 01:13:58,571 - Aftofore? 1236 01:13:58,571 --> 01:14:00,731 - [Sofia] The opposite of heretofore. 1237 01:14:00,731 --> 01:14:03,324 Try to keep up, we have a very very, busy day. 1238 01:14:04,296 --> 01:14:05,271 - Oh yeah. 1239 01:14:05,271 --> 01:14:07,368 - [Sofia] Happy Birthday, get up, get up, get up. 1240 01:14:07,368 --> 01:14:08,692 Go check your computer. 1241 01:14:08,692 --> 01:14:09,954 - Okay, okay, okay. 1242 01:14:18,431 --> 01:14:20,361 - [Sofia] Check your email. 1243 01:14:20,361 --> 01:14:24,221 - Okay, what is all this? 1244 01:14:24,221 --> 01:14:25,544 - [Sofia] Our itinerary. 1245 01:14:26,801 --> 01:14:30,134 (bright engaging music) 1246 01:14:33,201 --> 01:14:34,061 - [Ian] This looks so good. 1247 01:14:34,061 --> 01:14:36,341 - [Sofia] You said you always wanted to go. 1248 01:14:36,341 --> 01:14:37,191 - You remembered. 1249 01:14:40,711 --> 01:14:42,501 Oh my God, it's so good. 1250 01:14:42,501 --> 01:14:43,551 - [Sofia] I told you. 1251 01:14:44,891 --> 01:14:48,274 - Wow, what have I been doing? 1252 01:14:49,140 --> 01:14:51,091 (Sofia laughs) 1253 01:14:51,091 --> 01:14:54,311 - [Sofia] Pick out a book, anyone you want. 1254 01:14:54,311 --> 01:14:55,861 It's your birthday. 1255 01:14:55,861 --> 01:14:58,494 So, I want you to really treat yourself. 1256 01:15:00,541 --> 01:15:01,514 Read me one. 1257 01:15:02,518 --> 01:15:04,208 - "I could scream down 90 mountains 1258 01:15:04,208 --> 01:15:05,728 "to less than dust 1259 01:15:05,728 --> 01:15:08,468 "if only one living human had eyes in the head 1260 01:15:08,468 --> 01:15:09,988 "and heart in the body, 1261 01:15:09,988 --> 01:15:12,006 "but there is no chance, 1262 01:15:12,006 --> 01:15:12,839 "my god, 1263 01:15:12,839 --> 01:15:13,672 "no chance. 1264 01:15:13,672 --> 01:15:16,568 "rat with rat dog with dog hog with hog, 1265 01:15:16,568 --> 01:15:18,677 "play the piano drunk 1266 01:15:18,677 --> 01:15:20,748 "listen to the drunk piano, 1267 01:15:20,748 --> 01:15:22,048 "realize the myth of mercy 1268 01:15:22,048 --> 01:15:23,388 "stand still 1269 01:15:23,388 --> 01:15:25,501 "as even a child's voice snarls 1270 01:15:26,538 --> 01:15:28,738 "and we have not been fooled, 1271 01:15:28,738 --> 01:15:30,731 "it's only that we wanted to believe." 1272 01:15:30,731 --> 01:15:33,361 - [Sofia] You already knew that one, didn't you? 1273 01:15:33,361 --> 01:15:34,758 - Yeah, it's one of my favorites. 1274 01:15:34,758 --> 01:15:35,691 - [Sofia] Pick up a book full of ones 1275 01:15:35,691 --> 01:15:37,631 that you have never read before. 1276 01:15:37,631 --> 01:15:38,464 - Okay. 1277 01:15:45,691 --> 01:15:46,721 - [Cashier] Will that be all for you? 1278 01:15:46,721 --> 01:15:48,901 - [Sofia] Tell them you're Ian. 1279 01:15:48,901 --> 01:15:50,164 - What? 1280 01:15:50,164 --> 01:15:52,238 - [Sofia] Tell them you're Ian. 1281 01:15:52,238 --> 01:15:53,601 - I'm Ian. 1282 01:15:53,601 --> 01:15:55,504 - [Cashier] Oh, well this is all taken care of then. 1283 01:15:55,504 --> 01:15:56,801 Happy Birthday. 1284 01:15:56,801 --> 01:15:58,651 - Thank you, how did you-- 1285 01:15:58,651 --> 01:16:00,017 - [Sofia] Next place. 1286 01:16:00,017 --> 01:16:03,350 (bright engaging music) 1287 01:16:21,241 --> 01:16:22,848 - The swan? 1288 01:16:22,848 --> 01:16:24,098 - [Sofia] I know, I know. 1289 01:16:24,098 --> 01:16:25,122 - Seriously? 1290 01:16:25,122 --> 01:16:25,965 The swan? 1291 01:16:25,965 --> 01:16:26,798 - [Sofia] You love it anyways. 1292 01:16:26,798 --> 01:16:28,161 - Do you have any idea how ridiculous I look. 1293 01:16:28,161 --> 01:16:30,127 - [Sofia] It's your birthday. 1294 01:16:30,127 --> 01:16:31,827 You're allowed to look ridiculous. 1295 01:16:35,321 --> 01:16:36,471 - [Ian] Wow. 1296 01:16:36,471 --> 01:16:38,871 - [Sofia] This is my favorite place in LA. 1297 01:16:38,871 --> 01:16:40,621 - It really is beautiful. 1298 01:16:40,621 --> 01:16:41,921 - [Sofia] If you look under the tree 1299 01:16:41,921 --> 01:16:44,801 you're gonna find pen and paper to write with. 1300 01:16:46,021 --> 01:16:47,711 I wrote you something. 1301 01:16:47,711 --> 01:16:49,124 - Wait really? 1302 01:16:49,124 --> 01:16:52,694 - No, not there silly, I don't want anyone to get it? 1303 01:16:55,751 --> 01:16:57,121 - Still, that means so much to me. 1304 01:16:57,121 --> 01:16:59,014 No one's every written something for me before. 1305 01:16:59,014 --> 01:17:00,511 - [Sofia] Shut up and let me read it. 1306 01:17:00,511 --> 01:17:02,251 - Okay, okay. 1307 01:17:02,251 --> 01:17:05,231 - There's something that happens when we get up high enough. 1308 01:17:05,231 --> 01:17:08,221 The things once important suddenly so small, 1309 01:17:08,221 --> 01:17:10,661 like the world of ants bustling beneath us, 1310 01:17:10,661 --> 01:17:13,921 that never gives us pause as we tread on homes. 1311 01:17:13,921 --> 01:17:16,391 You were the first thing that lifted me high enough 1312 01:17:16,391 --> 01:17:20,501 to make ants of my troubles and sand for my fears. 1313 01:17:20,501 --> 01:17:23,551 You took all my tomorrows and turned them into years, 1314 01:17:23,551 --> 01:17:27,331 for the first breath of air after wishing in a tunnel, 1315 01:17:27,331 --> 01:17:29,051 the excitement of an ice cream truck 1316 01:17:29,051 --> 01:17:31,101 when you just got your allowance, 1317 01:17:31,101 --> 01:17:33,734 you snow-fallen Christmas, rain in the desert. 1318 01:17:34,600 --> 01:17:36,861 You bring thanks to people on a daily basis, 1319 01:17:36,861 --> 01:17:39,004 but most of all you mean the world to me. 1320 01:17:42,181 --> 01:17:43,014 - Thank you. 1321 01:17:44,721 --> 01:17:46,011 - [Sofia] What is it? 1322 01:17:46,011 --> 01:17:47,421 - My battery's dying. 1323 01:17:47,421 --> 01:17:49,049 - [Sofia] Oh it's okay. 1324 01:17:49,049 --> 01:17:49,882 That was the last thing on the itinerary 1325 01:17:49,882 --> 01:17:51,201 and I have to go soon anyway. 1326 01:17:52,111 --> 01:17:54,511 - I just thought there was maybe something else. 1327 01:17:54,511 --> 01:17:55,801 - [Sofia] Like what. 1328 01:17:55,801 --> 01:17:57,736 - Well, it is my birthday. 1329 01:17:57,736 --> 01:18:00,471 - [Sofia] Oh, I see, well we can have sex 1330 01:18:00,471 --> 01:18:03,041 later tonight after I get my mom into bed. 1331 01:18:03,041 --> 01:18:04,491 - I wasn't talking about sex. 1332 01:18:05,481 --> 01:18:07,651 - [Sofia] Oh, Ian, I can't. 1333 01:18:07,651 --> 01:18:09,151 - Yes you can. 1334 01:18:09,151 --> 01:18:10,261 - [Sofia] I told you. 1335 01:18:10,261 --> 01:18:11,940 - Yeah, but just because you told me before 1336 01:18:11,940 --> 01:18:12,773 doesn't mean we can't do this. 1337 01:18:12,773 --> 01:18:14,051 - [Sofia] So what, you just presumed 1338 01:18:14,051 --> 01:18:16,181 that because it was your birthday I would get on camera 1339 01:18:16,181 --> 01:18:17,321 with you and now you're mad at me because I didn't-- 1340 01:18:17,321 --> 01:18:18,424 - I'm not mad, it's just-- 1341 01:18:18,424 --> 01:18:21,528 - [Sofia] After the entire day that I planned for you, 1342 01:18:21,528 --> 01:18:23,851 all you can focus on is that I did not get on camera 1343 01:18:23,851 --> 01:18:25,751 with you after you told me that you were okay with my-- 1344 01:18:25,751 --> 01:18:26,981 - It's weird, okay, it's okay. 1345 01:18:26,981 --> 01:18:29,131 Like, I get in the beginning but you know me. 1346 01:18:29,131 --> 01:18:30,421 I've given you everything. 1347 01:18:30,421 --> 01:18:31,321 When will it be enough? 1348 01:18:31,321 --> 01:18:32,901 When will I be enough? 1349 01:18:32,901 --> 01:18:34,481 - [Sofia] Enough for what? 1350 01:18:34,481 --> 01:18:35,421 You have me. 1351 01:18:35,421 --> 01:18:37,621 - No, I don't! 1352 01:18:37,621 --> 01:18:39,964 - [Sofia] You're right, you don't. 1353 01:18:42,021 --> 01:18:45,382 - Sofia, Sofia? 1354 01:18:45,382 --> 01:18:47,799 (drums play) 1355 01:18:51,110 --> 01:18:52,343 - [Machine] Your call has been 1356 01:18:52,343 --> 01:18:56,951 forwarded to an automated. 1357 01:18:56,951 --> 01:18:59,868 Your call has been forwarded to an. 1358 01:19:07,234 --> 01:19:08,831 - Fuck. 1359 01:19:08,831 --> 01:19:12,414 (intense percussion plays) 1360 01:19:23,571 --> 01:19:24,934 Come on, come on. 1361 01:19:26,086 --> 01:19:26,961 - [Machine] Your call has been forwarded 1362 01:19:26,961 --> 01:19:28,631 to an automated voice messaging. 1363 01:19:28,631 --> 01:19:30,358 When you finish recording you may hung up 1364 01:19:30,358 --> 01:19:33,331 or press one for more options. 1365 01:19:33,331 --> 01:19:35,585 - Hey, it's me. 1366 01:19:35,585 --> 01:19:37,194 I know that was bad. 1367 01:19:39,141 --> 01:19:40,771 Call me back when you can, please. 1368 01:19:40,771 --> 01:19:42,851 My text messages aren't going through. 1369 01:19:42,851 --> 01:19:45,104 I don't know if it's the service out here. 1370 01:19:47,202 --> 01:19:49,681 I'm sorry, okay, I love you. 1371 01:19:49,681 --> 01:19:52,098 (drums play) 1372 01:20:08,290 --> 01:20:10,957 (message beeps) 1373 01:20:22,121 --> 01:20:26,711 Hey, just call me please, please. 1374 01:20:38,731 --> 01:20:43,731 Hey, Sofia, it's me, sorry about the other voice mails. 1375 01:20:46,581 --> 01:20:49,741 I really don't wanna sound like a crazy person. 1376 01:20:49,741 --> 01:20:51,204 It's me, it's Ian. 1377 01:20:51,204 --> 01:20:52,787 I just don't even know. 1378 01:20:52,787 --> 01:20:53,909 I love you. 1379 01:20:53,909 --> 01:20:54,946 Call me back. 1380 01:20:54,946 --> 01:20:56,068 I guess I should say. 1381 01:20:56,068 --> 01:20:56,901 I don't know if something happened. 1382 01:20:56,901 --> 01:21:00,581 Hey, it is your daily call from Ian, day number four. 1383 01:21:00,581 --> 01:21:02,291 Sofia, please pick up, please. 1384 01:21:02,291 --> 01:21:04,121 It was nothing that bad. 1385 01:21:04,121 --> 01:21:06,551 I mean, are we really going to end this over something 1386 01:21:06,551 --> 01:21:08,931 like that, come on that's stupid. 1387 01:21:08,931 --> 01:21:11,111 Sofia, Sofia, Sofia, Sofia. 1388 01:21:21,621 --> 01:21:24,288 (drawer creaks) 1389 01:21:29,941 --> 01:21:31,074 Hey, it's me. 1390 01:21:34,371 --> 01:21:35,844 It's been nine days. 1391 01:21:40,711 --> 01:21:44,714 Voicemail number 127. 1392 01:21:46,385 --> 01:21:47,685 I hope it's not that many. 1393 01:21:50,899 --> 01:21:52,244 I don't know what else to say. 1394 01:21:55,726 --> 01:22:00,178 ♪ But of all these friends and lovers ♪ 1395 01:22:00,178 --> 01:22:02,428 ♪ I really ♪ 1396 01:22:03,936 --> 01:22:05,724 You don't even like "The Beatles," I know. 1397 01:22:08,546 --> 01:22:10,344 It still makes me think of you every time. 1398 01:22:18,867 --> 01:22:22,700 ♪ In my life I loved you more ♪ 1399 01:22:27,711 --> 01:22:30,904 Call me, please. 1400 01:22:32,674 --> 01:22:35,174 (shower runs) 1401 01:22:42,018 --> 01:22:44,518 (phone rings) 1402 01:22:51,587 --> 01:22:52,420 Hello. 1403 01:22:52,420 --> 01:22:53,784 - [Grandma] Hi, honey. 1404 01:22:54,721 --> 01:22:55,921 - Hey, Grandma. 1405 01:22:55,921 --> 01:22:57,251 - [Grandma] Are you okay? 1406 01:22:57,251 --> 01:22:59,511 - Yeah, no, I was just showering. 1407 01:22:59,511 --> 01:23:01,351 - [Grandma] Well, that's okay. 1408 01:23:01,351 --> 01:23:04,444 I just wanted to see if you got my birthday card I sent. 1409 01:23:05,371 --> 01:23:09,278 - I did, I just, I'm sorry. 1410 01:23:09,278 --> 01:23:11,881 - [Grandma] Are you sure you're okay? 1411 01:23:11,881 --> 01:23:13,391 You always call right away. 1412 01:23:13,391 --> 01:23:14,954 I sent it weeks ago. 1413 01:23:15,911 --> 01:23:16,834 - Yeah, no, I am. 1414 01:23:18,471 --> 01:23:20,931 I should've called, I'm really sorry. 1415 01:23:20,931 --> 01:23:22,841 Can I call you back, Grandma? 1416 01:23:22,841 --> 01:23:25,491 - [Grandma] It's okay honey, I love you. 1417 01:23:25,491 --> 01:23:26,408 - I love you too. 1418 01:24:11,501 --> 01:24:14,334 (door bell rings) 1419 01:24:21,741 --> 01:24:24,074 (Ian sighs) 1420 01:24:44,286 --> 01:24:46,703 (knife cuts) 1421 01:25:02,691 --> 01:25:05,934 - [Sofia] Hey handsome, I know this is late. 1422 01:25:06,781 --> 01:25:10,421 I know because I'm sending it the day before your birthday 1423 01:25:10,421 --> 01:25:14,311 and overnight shipping from Mexico costs a million dollars. 1424 01:25:14,311 --> 01:25:17,541 So, you're just going to have to deal with the lateness. 1425 01:25:17,541 --> 01:25:21,231 Anyway, by this point we will have spent 1426 01:25:21,231 --> 01:25:23,741 an amazing day together, and anything 1427 01:25:23,741 --> 01:25:25,731 I can say will be out-of-date, 1428 01:25:27,119 --> 01:25:31,286 but know that I love you and I am always with you. 1429 01:25:32,267 --> 01:25:33,184 Your Sofia. 1430 01:26:09,740 --> 01:26:12,573 (keyboard clacks) 1431 01:26:40,106 --> 01:26:42,856 (crickets chirp) 1432 01:26:48,300 --> 01:26:51,800 (engaging dramatic music) 1433 01:27:39,866 --> 01:27:43,283 (uptempo engaging music) 1434 01:27:57,114 --> 01:28:00,697 (announcements in Spanish) 1435 01:28:03,867 --> 01:28:07,284 (uptempo engaging music) 1436 01:28:23,243 --> 01:28:26,743 (Pilot speaks in Spanish) 1437 01:28:32,587 --> 01:28:35,920 (bright engaging music) 1438 01:28:46,266 --> 01:28:48,766 (birds chirp) 1439 01:29:07,067 --> 01:29:08,400 - [Ian] Gracias. 1440 01:29:30,598 --> 01:29:32,931 (Ian sighs) 1441 01:29:37,706 --> 01:29:40,206 (door knocks) 1442 01:29:48,108 --> 01:29:50,608 (door knocks) 1443 01:29:58,604 --> 01:30:01,354 (traffic blares) 1444 01:30:04,858 --> 01:30:07,358 (door knocks) 1445 01:30:19,962 --> 01:30:20,795 Ingles? 1446 01:30:34,546 --> 01:30:35,396 - Si. 1447 01:30:35,396 --> 01:30:36,597 - Si, si? 1448 01:30:36,597 --> 01:30:37,430 - Si. 1449 01:30:37,430 --> 01:30:38,847 - Muchas gracias. 1450 01:30:45,574 --> 01:30:49,074 (bright orchestral music) 1451 01:31:36,215 --> 01:31:38,715 (phone rings) 1452 01:31:45,831 --> 01:31:47,381 Hey. 1453 01:31:47,381 --> 01:31:48,836 - [Sofia] Hey. 1454 01:31:48,836 --> 01:31:50,241 - How are you? 1455 01:31:50,241 --> 01:31:52,725 How have you been? 1456 01:31:52,725 --> 01:31:54,294 What are you up to? 1457 01:31:55,428 --> 01:31:56,914 - I'm just getting home from work. 1458 01:31:59,268 --> 01:32:02,768 (engaging dramatic music) 1459 01:32:06,411 --> 01:32:07,454 What are you up to? 1460 01:32:14,254 --> 01:32:15,351 - I'm... 1461 01:32:23,071 --> 01:32:24,671 Just getting home from work too. 1462 01:32:27,091 --> 01:32:28,224 - [Sofia] I've missed you. 1463 01:32:29,641 --> 01:32:31,191 - [Ian] I've really missed you. 1464 01:32:32,369 --> 01:32:35,286 (children chatter) 1465 01:32:56,081 --> 01:32:59,331 (engaging piano music) 1466 01:33:12,366 --> 01:33:15,170 ♪ I could paint you a portrait ♪ 1467 01:33:15,170 --> 01:33:18,527 ♪ I could paint you an ocean ♪ 1468 01:33:18,527 --> 01:33:23,527 ♪ You could say that I've lost my faith in it ♪ 1469 01:33:28,082 --> 01:33:31,347 ♪ I could give you the desert ♪ 1470 01:33:31,347 --> 01:33:34,692 ♪ I could give you the mountains ♪ 1471 01:33:34,692 --> 01:33:39,692 ♪ But I don't know how to make them fit ♪ 1472 01:33:43,379 --> 01:33:47,169 ♪ This could be the real thing ♪ 1473 01:33:47,169 --> 01:33:50,338 ♪ We need a room to find out ♪ 1474 01:33:50,338 --> 01:33:53,664 ♪ If this could be the real thing ♪ 1475 01:33:53,664 --> 01:33:58,664 ♪ And it's too soon to have these doubts ♪ 1476 01:34:01,982 --> 01:34:06,982 ♪ Oh, I will get to you somehow ♪ 1477 01:34:09,651 --> 01:34:13,105 ♪ Somehow ♪ 1478 01:34:13,105 --> 01:34:16,544 ♪ 'Cause it tasted like a promise ♪ 1479 01:34:16,544 --> 01:34:19,950 ♪ 'Cause I feel like a bargain ♪ 1480 01:34:19,950 --> 01:34:24,950 ♪ Would you break it off to let me see ♪ 1481 01:34:29,329 --> 01:34:32,607 ♪ Does it break like a window ♪ 1482 01:34:32,607 --> 01:34:35,921 ♪ Does it break like a spirit ♪ 1483 01:34:35,921 --> 01:34:40,921 ♪ Well at least I tried to make it be ♪ 1484 01:34:43,874 --> 01:34:47,360 ♪ This could be the real thing ♪ 1485 01:34:47,360 --> 01:34:50,719 ♪ But we need to a room to find out ♪ 1486 01:34:50,719 --> 01:34:53,999 ♪ This could be the real thing ♪ 1487 01:34:53,999 --> 01:34:58,999 ♪ And I don't wanna have these doubts ♪ 1488 01:35:02,447 --> 01:35:07,447 ♪ Will you get to me somehow ♪ 1489 01:35:10,097 --> 01:35:12,264 ♪ Somehow ♪