1 00:00:06,300 --> 00:00:09,303 "Blue Skies"] 2 00:00:33,410 --> 00:00:36,455 singing a song... 3 00:00:51,470 --> 00:00:53,555 You can't just do this. You can't just give up on me. 4 00:00:53,555 --> 00:00:55,224 - Like hell I can't. - Let me try again. 5 00:00:55,224 --> 00:00:56,517 Let me fix it. He was so close. 6 00:00:56,517 --> 00:00:58,185 I just...I... I don't know why I stopped him. 7 00:00:58,185 --> 00:01:01,522 It was, like, this stupid crisis of conscience. 8 00:01:01,522 --> 00:01:03,565 I had one of those myself recently, 9 00:01:03,565 --> 00:01:06,276 but now I'm over it, and I've never felt better. 10 00:01:06,276 --> 00:01:07,820 Please! 11 00:01:07,820 --> 00:01:09,571 Please just... 12 00:01:09,571 --> 00:01:11,365 just let me try again. 13 00:01:11,365 --> 00:01:12,574 Do you think this is the kind of place 14 00:01:12,574 --> 00:01:14,743 that hands out second chances? 15 00:01:14,743 --> 00:01:17,830 And cut the hysterics 'cause I'm not falling for them again. 16 00:01:17,830 --> 00:01:19,998 You really aren't any different, are you? 17 00:01:19,998 --> 00:01:22,125 You're just as cruel and as sick as everybody else here. 18 00:01:22,125 --> 00:01:23,418 Well, shit. 19 00:01:23,418 --> 00:01:25,087 - I guess so. - Do you even have a daughter? 20 00:01:25,087 --> 00:01:26,171 Or was that photo you showed me 21 00:01:26,171 --> 00:01:27,548 just some cheap internet stock photo? 22 00:01:27,548 --> 00:01:29,633 Hush your mouth and keep walking. 23 00:01:30,717 --> 00:01:32,678 You brought this on yourself, you know? 24 00:01:32,678 --> 00:01:36,265 Came up with a plan and didn't even bother asking yourself 25 00:01:36,265 --> 00:01:38,392 if you can go through with it. 26 00:01:38,392 --> 00:01:40,519 And speaking of half-baked schemes, 27 00:01:40,519 --> 00:01:42,271 we found your little weapon, 28 00:01:42,271 --> 00:01:44,523 the knife you hid in the toilet tank. 29 00:01:44,523 --> 00:01:47,359 Did you honestly think we weren't doing sweeps? 30 00:01:47,359 --> 00:01:50,153 I had you thinking I was nice, 31 00:01:50,153 --> 00:01:52,906 and you had me thinking you were smart. 32 00:01:52,906 --> 00:01:55,868 I guess we really did play each other. 33 00:03:25,290 --> 00:03:27,459 Our next interview's in place... 34 00:03:29,461 --> 00:03:32,464 ...but it can wait if you need a moment. 35 00:03:33,507 --> 00:03:35,258 I hate the beach. 36 00:03:35,258 --> 00:03:37,427 Well, some people say the ocean brings peace. 37 00:03:37,427 --> 00:03:38,887 Yeah, well, having been out here an hour, 38 00:03:38,887 --> 00:03:41,056 I'd like to report they're full of shit. 39 00:03:41,056 --> 00:03:42,933 Okay, talk to me. 40 00:03:43,809 --> 00:03:45,811 Talk. 41 00:03:45,811 --> 00:03:48,397 I'll bill you later. 42 00:03:51,900 --> 00:03:55,153 I'm a scientist, you know? A strict materialist. 43 00:03:55,153 --> 00:03:58,490 I don't subscribe to any kind of mystical thinking, 44 00:03:58,490 --> 00:04:00,826 except when it comes to failure. 45 00:04:00,826 --> 00:04:02,661 For me, failure's always had 46 00:04:02,661 --> 00:04:04,079 a sort of black magic to it. 47 00:04:04,079 --> 00:04:06,707 Like, you got to ward it off with crosses and garlic 48 00:04:06,707 --> 00:04:08,291 and everything in your power, 49 00:04:08,291 --> 00:04:11,586 because if you let it in, even just the thought of it, 50 00:04:11,586 --> 00:04:14,172 it becomes inevitable. 51 00:04:14,172 --> 00:04:16,675 And then I woke up this morning, 52 00:04:16,675 --> 00:04:19,177 there it was, the prospect of failure 53 00:04:19,177 --> 00:04:22,014 just sort of sitting on my chest, 54 00:04:22,014 --> 00:04:24,808 waiting for me to acknowledge it. 55 00:04:24,808 --> 00:04:28,729 All because these fucking boys won't fucking talk. 56 00:04:31,106 --> 00:04:33,775 Well, we'll cycle through a few more of them today. 57 00:04:33,775 --> 00:04:35,444 We'll press them harder. 58 00:04:35,444 --> 00:04:37,237 We'll get more surgical with our questions. 59 00:04:37,237 --> 00:04:39,322 Yes, there is a hole in our research, 60 00:04:39,322 --> 00:04:41,658 but we will fill it. 61 00:04:41,658 --> 00:04:45,454 Look, you can't lose sight of the endgame here, Gretchen. 62 00:04:45,454 --> 00:04:46,830 You got to remember what you're doing here. 63 00:04:46,830 --> 00:04:48,623 I swear to Christ, Dan, 64 00:04:48,623 --> 00:04:51,209 I swear to the actual biblical Christ, 65 00:04:51,209 --> 00:04:53,837 if he ruined this, if he did something to taint this... 66 00:04:53,837 --> 00:04:56,131 He. 67 00:04:56,131 --> 00:04:57,591 Good. So you're ready 68 00:04:57,591 --> 00:04:59,217 to have this conversation. 69 00:04:59,217 --> 00:05:00,969 You're ready to admit that the problem... 70 00:05:00,969 --> 00:05:05,307 our real problem here was your choice of operative. 71 00:05:10,771 --> 00:05:15,358 Look, um, I don't mean to sound the alarm or anything, 72 00:05:15,358 --> 00:05:16,693 but I'm starting to worry about Josh. 73 00:05:16,693 --> 00:05:18,779 All the meds that he takes for stress or depression, 74 00:05:18,779 --> 00:05:20,322 I don't know what. 75 00:05:20,322 --> 00:05:22,824 And the poor kid, he drinks... he drinks so much. 76 00:05:22,824 --> 00:05:25,660 And, like, gets really sloppy. I found him wandering all alone 77 00:05:25,660 --> 00:05:28,747 last night, uh, just totally out of it. 78 00:05:28,747 --> 00:05:33,085 And then this morning we were collecting salt water for, um, 79 00:05:33,085 --> 00:05:35,253 so we could boil it down and preserve the jag meat... 80 00:05:35,253 --> 00:05:36,922 Preserving sustenance. 81 00:05:36,922 --> 00:05:39,216 That's a pretty impressive milestone for them to hit. 82 00:05:39,216 --> 00:05:40,884 Josh, he was so hungover he tried to drink 83 00:05:40,884 --> 00:05:42,719 the water straight from the ocean. 84 00:05:42,719 --> 00:05:44,346 I don't know what's going on with him. 85 00:05:44,346 --> 00:05:46,098 Maybe his dosages are off something. 86 00:05:46,098 --> 00:05:47,933 I do wonder why Gretchen picked someone like Josh 87 00:05:47,933 --> 00:05:49,518 with all of his health issues. 88 00:05:49,518 --> 00:05:51,144 Okay, first off, most of his illnesses 89 00:05:51,144 --> 00:05:52,729 are obviously psychosomatic. 90 00:05:52,729 --> 00:05:55,732 And second, his family is one of the few that paid. 91 00:05:55,732 --> 00:05:58,318 World-altering studies don't just fund themselves, Susan. 92 00:05:58,318 --> 00:06:00,028 The kid is absurdly fragile, Thom. 93 00:06:00,028 --> 00:06:02,197 - That's all I'm saying. - That's why he's there, 94 00:06:02,197 --> 00:06:03,281 to grow some thicker skin. 95 00:06:03,281 --> 00:06:05,033 Look, if I had someone helping me 96 00:06:05,033 --> 00:06:06,827 the way Gretchen's helping Josh, I, 97 00:06:06,827 --> 00:06:09,663 you know, might've come into my own a little sooner. 98 00:06:09,663 --> 00:06:11,790 But anyway, he's got support. Look. 99 00:06:11,790 --> 00:06:13,708 I'm doing my best to look out for him. 100 00:06:13,708 --> 00:06:15,293 I just hope it'll be enough. 101 00:06:15,293 --> 00:06:17,921 I mean, if he hurts himself 102 00:06:17,921 --> 00:06:22,175 or like, someone else, then... 103 00:06:22,175 --> 00:06:23,718 I don't know. 104 00:06:24,928 --> 00:06:26,304 I had to put this on your radar though. 105 00:06:26,304 --> 00:06:28,056 I'll memo this and CC her. 106 00:06:28,056 --> 00:06:29,724 You know, it might be time 107 00:06:29,724 --> 00:06:31,643 to admit what's happening here. 108 00:06:31,643 --> 00:06:34,688 The guys are building community even faster than the girls did. 109 00:06:34,688 --> 00:06:37,524 I don't think it's time to admit that. 110 00:06:37,524 --> 00:06:39,276 They've killed an apex predator, 111 00:06:39,276 --> 00:06:40,819 they're working as a team, 112 00:06:40,819 --> 00:06:43,280 and they've already cracked food preservation. 113 00:06:43,280 --> 00:06:45,365 The girls are how many days ahead of them 114 00:06:45,365 --> 00:06:47,659 and they still haven't figured that one out. 115 00:06:52,038 --> 00:06:54,457 All right, eat up. 116 00:06:54,457 --> 00:06:56,376 - This shit won't keep. - No, I can't. 117 00:06:56,376 --> 00:06:58,420 - I'm way too full over here. - Come on, guys. 118 00:06:58,420 --> 00:07:02,048 We'll feel like dicks if we just throw away food today 119 00:07:02,048 --> 00:07:05,635 and then, you know, we don't have anything tomorrow. 120 00:07:05,635 --> 00:07:07,137 - Yummy. - No. 121 00:07:07,137 --> 00:07:08,805 Mm-mm. I'm engorged, 122 00:07:08,805 --> 00:07:10,265 and not in a hot way. 123 00:07:10,265 --> 00:07:13,310 Wow, I am so over this feast to famine bullshit. 124 00:07:13,310 --> 00:07:15,729 I know, they're sort of awful in their own way. 125 00:07:15,729 --> 00:07:17,397 I don't know. I still like feast. 126 00:07:17,397 --> 00:07:19,274 - Look at my food baby. 127 00:07:19,274 --> 00:07:21,276 Absolutely not, Martha. 128 00:07:21,276 --> 00:07:24,362 No one has said "food baby" since 2017 for a reason. 129 00:07:24,362 --> 00:07:26,156 We decided to leave it there. 130 00:07:26,156 --> 00:07:27,365 Food baby? I think it's kind of cute. 131 00:07:27,365 --> 00:07:29,701 Nope, Shelby, we are not reinforcing this. 132 00:07:29,701 --> 00:07:31,077 Martha, I love you, 133 00:07:31,077 --> 00:07:33,496 but I'm not letting you resurrect "food baby." 134 00:07:33,496 --> 00:07:36,249 My thing is, like, if you extend the metaphor, 135 00:07:36,249 --> 00:07:37,709 when you do take a shit, are you supposed to love it 136 00:07:37,709 --> 00:07:39,419 like a child? 137 00:07:39,419 --> 00:07:41,588 It's all very confusing. 138 00:07:41,588 --> 00:07:42,797 I'm sorry, baby. 139 00:07:42,797 --> 00:07:44,841 I didn't know you'd be so controversial. 140 00:07:44,841 --> 00:07:46,092 Yeah, Jesus. Come on. 141 00:07:46,092 --> 00:07:47,344 Let her have her food baby. 142 00:07:47,344 --> 00:07:48,678 Ah, nails on a chalkboard. 143 00:07:48,678 --> 00:07:49,888 Can we just stop saying it? 144 00:07:49,888 --> 00:07:52,098 Come on, Fatin, let her have her baby. 145 00:07:53,516 --> 00:07:54,601 Just let her have her little food baby. 146 00:07:54,601 --> 00:07:55,936 - This isn't funny. 147 00:07:55,936 --> 00:07:56,770 - Now you're... - You want a little kiss? 148 00:07:56,770 --> 00:07:57,771 Fuck! 149 00:07:57,771 --> 00:07:59,064 - Oh, my God. - Oh. 150 00:07:59,064 --> 00:08:00,815 Oh, shit! 151 00:08:00,815 --> 00:08:02,442 I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry. 152 00:08:02,442 --> 00:08:03,902 Yeah, it's fine, it's fine, it's fine. 153 00:08:03,902 --> 00:08:05,528 It's fine. Honestly, something needed 154 00:08:05,528 --> 00:08:07,489 to interrupt that conversation, so... 155 00:08:07,489 --> 00:08:10,951 Yeah, that was pretty low for us in terms of banter. 156 00:08:12,202 --> 00:08:14,246 I wanna know if you're okay. 157 00:08:16,081 --> 00:08:18,375 I am. 158 00:08:18,375 --> 00:08:20,669 And then I'm not. 159 00:08:20,669 --> 00:08:23,004 And then I am, and then I'm really not. 160 00:08:24,381 --> 00:08:27,300 But the prayer thing is working. 161 00:08:27,300 --> 00:08:30,303 Uh, I guess I just 162 00:08:30,303 --> 00:08:32,389 want more. 163 00:08:32,389 --> 00:08:33,556 More? 164 00:08:33,556 --> 00:08:36,726 Like, I don't know, more God, I guess. 165 00:08:36,726 --> 00:08:39,062 I don't mean to make this heavy, I just... 166 00:08:39,062 --> 00:08:41,314 I just want some of what you got. 167 00:08:42,399 --> 00:08:44,025 Well... 168 00:08:45,527 --> 00:08:48,071 ...finding God is about faith really. 169 00:08:48,071 --> 00:08:52,158 You can't just get it or learn it. 170 00:08:52,158 --> 00:08:53,994 You know, you... 171 00:08:53,994 --> 00:08:55,412 you sort of have to trust it. 172 00:08:55,412 --> 00:08:58,081 Yeah, but you know me. I've got control issues. 173 00:08:59,624 --> 00:09:02,419 Like, I need steps. Like... 174 00:09:02,419 --> 00:09:06,089 like a program or some rituals or something. 175 00:09:06,089 --> 00:09:09,259 Okay. Uh, well... 176 00:09:10,302 --> 00:09:13,555 ...um, maybe you could start with, like, a baptism or... 177 00:09:14,681 --> 00:09:16,349 I've been in water my whole life. 178 00:09:16,349 --> 00:09:17,934 It's kind of played out for me. 179 00:09:18,893 --> 00:09:21,438 Then there's marriage, 180 00:09:21,438 --> 00:09:23,106 though not everybody's allowed that. 181 00:09:23,106 --> 00:09:24,274 Not in my church anyway. 182 00:09:25,942 --> 00:09:27,569 Uh, I don't know. 183 00:09:27,569 --> 00:09:28,903 Uh, maybe the Catholics do more. 184 00:09:28,903 --> 00:09:30,613 We just kind of hit the high notes, you know, 185 00:09:30,613 --> 00:09:32,615 babies, matrimony, death. 186 00:09:33,616 --> 00:09:34,868 Rachel, I didn't mean to bring that up. 187 00:09:34,868 --> 00:09:37,829 - I'm...I'm so sorry. - Don't be. 188 00:09:37,829 --> 00:09:41,833 Maybe, like, that's 189 00:09:41,833 --> 00:09:43,501 what I need. 190 00:09:44,919 --> 00:09:47,505 A funeral, you know? 191 00:09:49,591 --> 00:09:51,384 Maybe I need to... 192 00:09:53,219 --> 00:09:55,638 Maybe I need to bury her. 193 00:09:57,140 --> 00:09:58,058 We're here to help. 194 00:10:00,602 --> 00:10:01,644 Whatever you need. 195 00:10:03,730 --> 00:10:06,566 I'll be here for you. 196 00:10:19,245 --> 00:10:22,040 Thank you. 197 00:10:22,040 --> 00:10:25,960 Um, I'll get some of her stuff together. 198 00:10:32,842 --> 00:10:34,135 You okay? 199 00:10:34,135 --> 00:10:35,762 Of course. 200 00:10:35,762 --> 00:10:37,180 Shelby, you gave her your cross. 201 00:10:37,180 --> 00:10:39,224 I'm just...I'm just trying to be a good friend. 202 00:10:44,270 --> 00:10:46,314 When you're brought up a certain way, 203 00:10:46,314 --> 00:10:49,109 you just do stuff and believe stuff, 204 00:10:49,109 --> 00:10:50,652 'cause it's what your parents taught you. 205 00:10:50,652 --> 00:10:52,195 Like... 206 00:10:53,405 --> 00:10:57,826 Like you've got to make your bed with the tight corners 207 00:10:57,826 --> 00:11:01,538 and put the milk in the fridge with the spout facing out. 208 00:11:01,538 --> 00:11:05,125 How everything is always better 209 00:11:05,125 --> 00:11:09,379 when it's straight and neat and clean. 210 00:11:12,048 --> 00:11:14,634 And you don't question it really... 211 00:11:15,969 --> 00:11:18,138 ...because it's all you know. 212 00:11:18,138 --> 00:11:20,390 Until it's not, 213 00:11:20,390 --> 00:11:23,643 and you glimpse something different for yourself. 214 00:11:23,643 --> 00:11:25,520 Yeah, like the morning after the hunt. 215 00:11:25,520 --> 00:11:29,315 We had all this dried meat from the kill. 216 00:11:29,315 --> 00:11:32,444 We could look at it and say that we did that. 217 00:11:32,444 --> 00:11:34,821 We provided for ourselves. 218 00:11:34,821 --> 00:11:36,030 I was eating it, you know, 219 00:11:36,030 --> 00:11:38,116 grease all over my hands, 220 00:11:38,116 --> 00:11:39,993 gristle under my nails. 221 00:11:43,955 --> 00:11:47,750 I've never been proud and dirty at the same time. 222 00:11:52,255 --> 00:11:54,215 What? 223 00:11:54,215 --> 00:11:55,592 Why are you looking at me like that all weird? 224 00:11:55,592 --> 00:11:57,135 Nothing, man. 225 00:11:57,135 --> 00:11:59,304 It's just a good day is all. 226 00:11:59,304 --> 00:12:00,805 It's just a damn good day. 227 00:12:00,805 --> 00:12:02,474 Who wants some more? 228 00:12:02,474 --> 00:12:04,809 This is unreal, dude. 229 00:12:04,809 --> 00:12:06,144 I can't believe you got it to taste okay. 230 00:12:06,144 --> 00:12:08,771 Hey, it's not just okay, okay? 231 00:12:08,771 --> 00:12:10,940 This shit is fucking marketable. 232 00:12:10,940 --> 00:12:13,443 It...it's all-natural, gluten-free. 233 00:12:13,443 --> 00:12:15,987 It's exotic. I mean, when we get home, 234 00:12:15,987 --> 00:12:17,739 me and you are gonna talk. 235 00:12:17,739 --> 00:12:19,741 We gonna see if we can't market this shit. 236 00:12:21,701 --> 00:12:24,996 Yeah, I don't know. I tried a few things. 237 00:12:24,996 --> 00:12:28,583 Took that bunker ketchup and used it as a rub, 238 00:12:28,583 --> 00:12:31,628 and then I smoked the meat for a punch of mesquite. 239 00:12:31,628 --> 00:12:34,756 Um, I'm sorry, what? 240 00:12:34,756 --> 00:12:37,383 Uh, my coach used to be a pit master. 241 00:12:37,383 --> 00:12:39,385 Taught me all this cool shit. 242 00:12:40,970 --> 00:12:44,098 It's good, Kirin. Compliments to the chef. 243 00:12:46,809 --> 00:12:49,646 Where's J-Bird, huh? He get any? 244 00:12:49,646 --> 00:12:51,105 You know what, maybe we should just let him chill. 245 00:12:51,105 --> 00:12:52,649 He's super hungover. 246 00:12:52,649 --> 00:12:54,442 Probably should just, like, walk it off. 247 00:12:54,442 --> 00:12:56,402 Besides the energy is good here. 248 00:12:56,402 --> 00:12:59,948 If Josh comes over, then it's a whole spiel about alcohol 249 00:12:59,948 --> 00:13:02,158 and the effects on his microbiome. 250 00:13:03,660 --> 00:13:05,203 He might not be drinking enough water. 251 00:13:05,203 --> 00:13:07,247 That's true...Raf, tell them what he told you. 252 00:13:07,247 --> 00:13:09,791 Tell them why he doesn't wanna drink from the water supply. 253 00:13:09,791 --> 00:13:12,585 He doesn't want to abuse his white privilege. 254 00:13:12,585 --> 00:13:14,796 Oh, Lord. So what? 255 00:13:14,796 --> 00:13:16,881 Instead, he's gonna die heroically of dehydration 256 00:13:16,881 --> 00:13:18,091 and make himself the center of the narrative 257 00:13:18,091 --> 00:13:19,259 when we get back home? 258 00:13:19,259 --> 00:13:21,469 - Please. - Nah, it's true. 259 00:13:21,469 --> 00:13:23,805 I mean, that boy's all messed up with this shit. 260 00:13:23,805 --> 00:13:25,557 The other day, guess what he called me? 261 00:13:25,557 --> 00:13:27,642 Wait for it. 262 00:13:27,642 --> 00:13:28,685 Articulate. 263 00:13:33,648 --> 00:13:35,567 Josh! 264 00:13:35,567 --> 00:13:37,068 Come hang out. 265 00:13:37,068 --> 00:13:39,612 I feel like I just told you to let him chill, but okay. 266 00:13:39,612 --> 00:13:42,156 Packs don't leave the weak on their own. 267 00:13:42,156 --> 00:13:44,450 It's against nature. 268 00:13:44,450 --> 00:13:45,994 Hey. 269 00:13:47,161 --> 00:13:48,871 How are you feeling, man? 270 00:13:48,871 --> 00:13:50,873 - You holding up okay? - Joshua, 271 00:13:50,873 --> 00:13:52,625 would you like some water? 272 00:13:52,625 --> 00:13:54,544 I really shouldn't. 273 00:13:54,544 --> 00:13:57,714 I want you to know that me and my people would very much love 274 00:13:57,714 --> 00:14:00,300 for you to take some water and not die. 275 00:14:00,300 --> 00:14:01,718 Yeah, dude. We want you to rebound. 276 00:14:01,718 --> 00:14:04,178 We got a "good vibes only" thing here and... 277 00:14:05,346 --> 00:14:07,181 ...uh, we want you in on it. 278 00:14:07,181 --> 00:14:10,101 Here. Seriously. 279 00:14:11,394 --> 00:14:12,979 Are you sure you're okay, Josh? 280 00:14:15,732 --> 00:14:17,233 Oh, shit. 281 00:14:17,233 --> 00:14:18,776 We blew through the fucking water supply. 282 00:14:18,776 --> 00:14:20,403 Aw, man. 283 00:14:20,403 --> 00:14:21,821 No, no, it's cool. It's cool. 284 00:14:21,821 --> 00:14:25,033 Between the alcohol and... and the salt on the meat, 285 00:14:25,033 --> 00:14:26,242 we weren't not gonna get thirsty. 286 00:14:26,242 --> 00:14:28,911 We just... we just got to... 287 00:14:28,911 --> 00:14:30,955 We got to hit the woods, find some fresh water. 288 00:14:30,955 --> 00:14:33,207 - Come on, come on. - Spillz is right. 289 00:14:33,207 --> 00:14:35,209 - We can't really put this off. - Let's go, come on. 290 00:14:35,209 --> 00:14:36,461 Should we split up, cover more ground? 291 00:14:36,461 --> 00:14:38,046 Excellent idea all the way around. 292 00:14:38,046 --> 00:14:40,381 I'll...I'll hang back here with...with J. 293 00:14:40,381 --> 00:14:42,300 No, I, uh... 294 00:14:43,593 --> 00:14:45,762 No, I... I should move. 295 00:14:45,762 --> 00:14:47,639 I should keep it moving. 296 00:14:47,639 --> 00:14:49,807 You can go with me, Snowflake. 297 00:14:49,807 --> 00:14:52,602 I'll push your sad ass up the hill if it comes to that. 298 00:14:52,602 --> 00:14:53,728 Let's go. 299 00:14:53,728 --> 00:14:55,355 Great. Thanks...thanks, Kirin. 300 00:14:55,355 --> 00:14:56,731 Show me those high knees. 301 00:14:56,731 --> 00:14:58,066 Let's do it. 302 00:14:58,066 --> 00:14:59,692 Up high. No charge. 303 00:14:59,692 --> 00:15:01,235 Let's go. Let's get it. 304 00:15:01,235 --> 00:15:03,821 The first one to find water... 305 00:15:06,157 --> 00:15:07,992 ...gets water. 306 00:15:25,593 --> 00:15:26,511 - Fuck! - Hey. 307 00:15:26,511 --> 00:15:29,222 Oh, my God, you scared me. 308 00:15:29,222 --> 00:15:31,140 How long were you lurking over there? 309 00:15:31,140 --> 00:15:33,059 Long enough to marvel at you doing laundry. 310 00:15:34,811 --> 00:15:37,021 Weird, right? 311 00:15:37,021 --> 00:15:38,690 - Is that Nora's? - Mm-hmm. 312 00:15:38,690 --> 00:15:41,317 Rachel wants to bury it as part of the funeral. 313 00:15:42,652 --> 00:15:43,986 If it's just gonna get dirt all over it, 314 00:15:43,986 --> 00:15:46,030 why are you cleaning it? 315 00:15:46,030 --> 00:15:47,865 I don't really know. 316 00:15:49,826 --> 00:15:52,370 Feels more respectful or something. 317 00:15:56,207 --> 00:15:57,542 You know, about today... 318 00:15:58,668 --> 00:16:01,671 ...I really wanna be there for Rachel but... 319 00:16:02,964 --> 00:16:04,882 ...all things Nora are just sort of triggering for me, 320 00:16:04,882 --> 00:16:06,509 and I think maybe I should just sit this one out. 321 00:16:06,509 --> 00:16:09,345 And here we are again. 322 00:16:09,345 --> 00:16:10,763 - Here we are where? - You're fixated 323 00:16:10,763 --> 00:16:12,849 on shit that's dead and gone. 324 00:16:12,849 --> 00:16:14,600 If it's not Nora, it's your writer boyfie, 325 00:16:14,600 --> 00:16:17,019 and honestly, I don't love any of it for you. 326 00:16:17,019 --> 00:16:19,439 I know I trash talk Jeff, right? 327 00:16:19,439 --> 00:16:21,524 I think it's just because I'm bummed out. 328 00:16:21,524 --> 00:16:22,734 You give him so much real estate 329 00:16:22,734 --> 00:16:24,569 in your head and your heart. 330 00:16:24,569 --> 00:16:26,320 I don't think he deserves it. 331 00:16:26,320 --> 00:16:28,823 Well, if I give it up, 332 00:16:28,823 --> 00:16:31,617 like, I stop thinking about him and Nora... 333 00:16:33,411 --> 00:16:35,121 ...what then? 334 00:16:35,121 --> 00:16:38,958 Just dream bigger or better or different. 335 00:16:48,050 --> 00:16:49,927 Ben Folds. 336 00:16:49,927 --> 00:16:51,220 - What? - I'll fantasize 337 00:16:51,220 --> 00:16:52,555 about Ben Folds. 338 00:16:52,555 --> 00:16:54,766 - Is that a human being? - A human. 339 00:16:54,766 --> 00:16:57,477 A musician, a songwriter, a poet, 340 00:16:57,477 --> 00:17:00,938 a messy-haired wearer of great glasses. 341 00:17:00,938 --> 00:17:03,357 Wait, do you really not know Ben Folds of Ben Folds Five? 342 00:17:03,357 --> 00:17:05,067 He was, like, huge in the early aughts. 343 00:17:05,067 --> 00:17:06,944 Bieber was huge. I've never heard of this guy. 344 00:17:06,944 --> 00:17:08,237 Okay, he was, like, niche huge. 345 00:17:08,237 --> 00:17:09,989 But my cousin at Berkeley was super into him 346 00:17:09,989 --> 00:17:13,117 and so I was super into him and he just, like... 347 00:17:13,117 --> 00:17:14,827 he wrecked me. 348 00:17:14,827 --> 00:17:16,454 I was maybe 11. 349 00:17:16,454 --> 00:17:19,624 He was my first crush and I knew every lyric to every song. 350 00:17:19,624 --> 00:17:21,626 I wrote them all over my binders, my walls, 351 00:17:21,626 --> 00:17:23,294 sometimes my skin. 352 00:17:23,294 --> 00:17:25,171 Yeah, that sounds really on brand for you. 353 00:17:27,423 --> 00:17:29,383 See, isn't this is more fun 354 00:17:29,383 --> 00:17:31,344 than getting hung up on the same old shit? 355 00:17:34,055 --> 00:17:36,516 You know what else sounds fun? 356 00:17:39,185 --> 00:17:42,104 Oh... 357 00:17:42,104 --> 00:17:43,523 Whoo! 358 00:17:43,523 --> 00:17:44,899 Agh. 359 00:17:46,484 --> 00:17:49,695 Yeah, Leah! 360 00:17:49,695 --> 00:17:53,115 Oh, fuck me, it's so cold. 361 00:17:54,617 --> 00:17:57,203 I'm so fucking hot. 362 00:17:57,203 --> 00:17:59,705 I'm fucking thirsty too. 363 00:17:59,705 --> 00:18:02,875 But I keep at it. I keep going. 364 00:18:02,875 --> 00:18:06,712 'Cause "pain is weakness leaving the body." 365 00:18:06,712 --> 00:18:08,923 You ever heard that before? 366 00:18:08,923 --> 00:18:11,175 "Pain is weakness leaving the body?" 367 00:18:12,802 --> 00:18:14,220 Come on, dude. Keep going. 368 00:18:14,220 --> 00:18:16,222 Sweat it out. It'll be good for you. 369 00:18:16,222 --> 00:18:18,766 - I'm trying. - Try harder. 370 00:18:18,766 --> 00:18:21,227 Redeem yourself for getting so shit-faced. 371 00:18:25,439 --> 00:18:27,400 Shh, shh, shh. 372 00:18:32,530 --> 00:18:34,073 Oh, shit. 373 00:18:35,658 --> 00:18:37,785 H2O, baby! 374 00:18:37,785 --> 00:18:42,123 Yeow-y! 375 00:18:47,086 --> 00:18:49,088 Oh, yeah. 376 00:18:53,509 --> 00:18:55,428 Whoo! 377 00:18:55,428 --> 00:18:58,431 We fucking did it, bro! 378 00:19:04,645 --> 00:19:07,899 Oh! 379 00:19:07,899 --> 00:19:09,191 Come on down. 380 00:19:09,191 --> 00:19:13,738 Sweet baby Jesus, it feels so good. 381 00:19:14,614 --> 00:19:16,365 Dude, let's go, let's go, let's go. 382 00:19:16,365 --> 00:19:18,367 Get in the water! 383 00:19:18,367 --> 00:19:21,746 Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. 384 00:19:21,746 --> 00:19:23,873 What are you doing, man? Get the hell in here. 385 00:19:28,085 --> 00:19:29,211 It's nice. 386 00:19:30,546 --> 00:19:32,465 What the hell was that? 387 00:19:32,465 --> 00:19:35,676 All the way in, man. Feels fucking amazing. 388 00:19:36,928 --> 00:19:38,638 - Oh, you're getting in. - No. 389 00:19:38,638 --> 00:19:39,680 Oh, yeah. 390 00:19:39,680 --> 00:19:40,556 I'm really not up for it. 391 00:19:40,556 --> 00:19:43,434 Oh, yeah! Oh, yeah! 392 00:19:43,434 --> 00:19:45,937 Come on, don't be such a little bitch, Joshy. 393 00:19:45,937 --> 00:19:49,273 I'm telling you, you'll be reborn. 394 00:19:49,273 --> 00:19:50,316 - Get... - Come on. 395 00:19:50,316 --> 00:19:52,944 - Kirin, get off! - Whoa! 396 00:19:52,944 --> 00:19:55,112 - What is that on your stomach? - It's nothing. 397 00:19:55,112 --> 00:19:57,823 It just happens sometimes when I drink, especially beer. 398 00:19:57,823 --> 00:20:00,159 It's just...it's gluten. It'll go away. 399 00:20:01,285 --> 00:20:04,372 Jesus, why are you like this? 400 00:20:04,372 --> 00:20:06,374 We literally can't get a single win 401 00:20:06,374 --> 00:20:08,709 without you bringing up some of your sad shit. 402 00:20:08,709 --> 00:20:10,586 Whatever. Seth's right. 403 00:20:10,586 --> 00:20:12,630 We're all out here vibing, trying to keep each other up... 404 00:20:12,630 --> 00:20:14,215 What did Seth say? 405 00:20:14,215 --> 00:20:15,675 That this is your thing. 406 00:20:15,675 --> 00:20:17,677 Killing the high, being the problem, 407 00:20:17,677 --> 00:20:20,137 I'm not the fucking problem. Seth is! 408 00:20:20,137 --> 00:20:22,765 Seth is the problem! He's the fucking problem! 409 00:20:22,765 --> 00:20:24,392 It wasn't me! I'm not the fucking problem! 410 00:20:24,392 --> 00:20:26,394 - Hey, hey, hey, hey, shh, shh. - No! 411 00:20:26,394 --> 00:20:27,687 - No, it's okay. - I just...I couldn't... 412 00:20:27,687 --> 00:20:29,522 - Okay. - Seth... 413 00:20:31,273 --> 00:20:33,901 I am not the fucking problem, man. 414 00:20:34,902 --> 00:20:38,030 I'm not the fucking problem. 415 00:20:38,030 --> 00:20:39,156 Josh... 416 00:20:40,533 --> 00:20:42,868 ...what happened, man? 417 00:20:42,868 --> 00:20:45,496 Is there anything that you might share with us 418 00:20:45,496 --> 00:20:48,666 about what he told you that day? 419 00:20:48,666 --> 00:20:51,669 It changed us. 420 00:20:51,669 --> 00:20:53,254 It changed everything. 421 00:20:53,254 --> 00:20:56,841 How exactly did it change you? 422 00:20:57,967 --> 00:20:59,260 Not sure it's one of those things 423 00:20:59,260 --> 00:21:02,388 you can describe, just... 424 00:21:02,388 --> 00:21:07,601 ...boom, and then nothing was the same. 425 00:21:07,601 --> 00:21:11,897 Well, for you to be so rattled by this, that's saying a lot. 426 00:21:11,897 --> 00:21:14,275 You who'd been so strong, so steady, 427 00:21:14,275 --> 00:21:15,693 the one everyone counted on, 428 00:21:15,693 --> 00:21:17,903 or at least that's what the others have said. 429 00:21:17,903 --> 00:21:20,031 Used to that, I guess. 430 00:21:20,031 --> 00:21:22,658 Sort of had to be an adult back home, you know? 431 00:21:24,285 --> 00:21:26,454 Mom doesn't count. You figured that out 432 00:21:26,454 --> 00:21:28,039 if you talked to her. 433 00:21:28,039 --> 00:21:29,874 And my father... 434 00:21:34,628 --> 00:21:38,007 I wonder if this adult quality that you have 435 00:21:38,007 --> 00:21:41,385 is why Josh felt so comfortable opening up to you 436 00:21:41,385 --> 00:21:43,095 when he shared with you what he did. 437 00:21:43,095 --> 00:21:46,766 I actually figured out where he lived, my dad. 438 00:21:46,766 --> 00:21:52,396 New house, new wife, new kid. 439 00:21:52,396 --> 00:21:56,734 I was in the third grade I think and I went by. 440 00:22:01,864 --> 00:22:04,700 They were having pancakes for dinner. 441 00:22:12,666 --> 00:22:14,001 That feeling... 442 00:22:17,088 --> 00:22:19,590 ...never really goes away. 443 00:22:22,009 --> 00:22:25,763 That shitty feeling of not mattering to people... 444 00:22:29,141 --> 00:22:32,228 ...not mattering to the people you're supposed to matter to. 445 00:22:43,405 --> 00:22:45,491 It hits hard. 446 00:22:45,491 --> 00:22:46,992 It hits early. 447 00:22:48,035 --> 00:22:50,663 And it will fuck with your soul. 448 00:22:59,630 --> 00:23:02,049 That not mattering shit... 449 00:23:05,511 --> 00:23:07,221 ...you can let it fuck you up. 450 00:23:09,098 --> 00:23:10,599 Or you can bury it. 451 00:23:58,063 --> 00:24:00,608 'Cause she loved birds. 452 00:24:02,359 --> 00:24:04,612 My last cig. 453 00:24:04,612 --> 00:24:07,531 Martha suggested that I give it to her. 454 00:24:07,531 --> 00:24:11,744 My family burns tobacco when we pray to our creator. 455 00:24:11,744 --> 00:24:14,663 The smoke sends our prayers to Manidoo. 456 00:24:50,157 --> 00:24:56,080 You think I could have a moment alone with her? 457 00:24:56,080 --> 00:25:00,459 Maybe say goodbye just the two of us? 458 00:25:18,227 --> 00:25:21,355 Do you guys think that, 459 00:25:21,355 --> 00:25:23,816 like, our families have given us funerals? 460 00:25:26,193 --> 00:25:28,696 Jesus, I hadn't thought about that. 461 00:25:29,613 --> 00:25:31,031 Yeah. 462 00:25:33,033 --> 00:25:35,703 I mean, it's been so long that we're probably... 463 00:25:35,703 --> 00:25:39,581 Gone to people back home? 464 00:25:42,459 --> 00:25:44,378 We are dead to the world. 465 00:25:47,298 --> 00:25:50,259 Oh, my God, my parents. 466 00:25:50,259 --> 00:25:55,306 I love them but they definitely got the funeral all wrong. 467 00:25:55,306 --> 00:25:57,474 Probably made a slide show with all the pictures I hate, 468 00:25:57,474 --> 00:26:00,602 the baby ones when I had a cone head. 469 00:26:00,602 --> 00:26:03,188 And they definitely picked some regrettably bad song 470 00:26:03,188 --> 00:26:04,982 like "I Hope You Dance." 471 00:26:04,982 --> 00:26:07,234 My parents probably cry a lot... 472 00:26:09,320 --> 00:26:12,531 ...but are probably trying to be strong for my sisters. 473 00:26:13,991 --> 00:26:16,160 I hope someone's taking care of my bunny. 474 00:26:17,286 --> 00:26:18,662 If you don't love them, bunnies get mean. 475 00:26:18,662 --> 00:26:22,416 Your mom's definitely taking care of Mr. Bunniesworth. 476 00:26:22,416 --> 00:26:28,922 That fucking Dr. Gretchen Klein with her whole greasy little 477 00:26:28,922 --> 00:26:32,676 "don't you deserve good things" sales pitch. 478 00:26:32,676 --> 00:26:35,262 - Who are you talking about? - Gretchen Klein, 479 00:26:35,262 --> 00:26:38,515 the retreat lady in the airplane video. 480 00:26:38,515 --> 00:26:40,726 I don't think she's actually, like, a doctor-doctor, 481 00:26:40,726 --> 00:26:43,020 but that's just, you know, how she introduced herself. 482 00:26:43,020 --> 00:26:45,939 - Wait, you met her? - Yeah. 483 00:26:45,939 --> 00:26:47,107 Didn't you? 484 00:26:47,107 --> 00:26:48,609 - No. - No. 485 00:26:48,609 --> 00:26:49,777 Oh. 486 00:26:49,777 --> 00:26:52,363 I think she just gave me a donut, 487 00:26:52,363 --> 00:26:55,657 did her little song and dance selling me on the retreat. 488 00:26:56,700 --> 00:26:59,912 Said that she'd sort out child services, 489 00:26:59,912 --> 00:27:02,706 so I fucking went for it. 490 00:27:04,333 --> 00:27:08,379 Doesn't that strike you as weird that she met with Dot? 491 00:27:08,379 --> 00:27:10,005 Yes, I'm just not really interested 492 00:27:10,005 --> 00:27:11,715 in reopening some extremely closed doors 493 00:27:11,715 --> 00:27:14,301 that weren't good for me in the first place. 494 00:27:14,301 --> 00:27:15,844 Said with love. 495 00:27:33,612 --> 00:27:36,615 You know, I'm just gonna keep asking this. 496 00:27:37,950 --> 00:27:39,701 I'm not really a quitter. 497 00:27:41,161 --> 00:27:42,329 Are you okay? 498 00:27:46,458 --> 00:27:48,585 You know what I thought 499 00:27:48,585 --> 00:27:50,671 when I realized I was dead to the world? 500 00:27:53,215 --> 00:27:55,134 Good. 501 00:27:57,010 --> 00:27:58,554 'Cause if they knew who I really was, 502 00:27:58,554 --> 00:28:00,681 I'd be dead to them anyway. 503 00:28:06,228 --> 00:28:08,522 - I'm gonna kill him. - Kirin, no. 504 00:28:08,522 --> 00:28:10,190 You said you wouldn't, over and over. 505 00:28:10,190 --> 00:28:12,067 And I keep changing my mind over and over. 506 00:28:12,067 --> 00:28:13,902 But you can't just sweep this shit under the rug. 507 00:28:13,902 --> 00:28:15,028 Yeah, but it's my thing. 508 00:28:15,028 --> 00:28:16,447 Don't I get to decide what happens? 509 00:28:16,447 --> 00:28:18,282 There have to be consequences. 510 00:28:18,282 --> 00:28:19,908 Otherwise monsters like this piece of shit 511 00:28:19,908 --> 00:28:22,744 start getting fucking confident and then they take charge. 512 00:28:22,744 --> 00:28:24,621 No! 513 00:28:25,747 --> 00:28:29,376 I can't tell people. Like... 514 00:28:29,376 --> 00:28:32,045 I don't wanna be the kid who, like... 515 00:28:33,046 --> 00:28:35,674 Look, I'm not gonna be that. 516 00:28:35,674 --> 00:28:36,842 Then we don't tell them what happened 517 00:28:36,842 --> 00:28:38,260 and I beat the shit out of him anyway. 518 00:28:38,260 --> 00:28:40,846 Okay, no, but I was drunk and I was all over the place, 519 00:28:40,846 --> 00:28:43,098 so who even knows and who's gonna believe me? 520 00:28:43,098 --> 00:28:45,267 I believe you. 521 00:28:46,351 --> 00:28:48,645 Look, if you want me to chill, 522 00:28:48,645 --> 00:28:52,691 not say anything, not do anything, fine. 523 00:28:52,691 --> 00:28:55,861 But if he comes near you again... 524 00:28:58,197 --> 00:28:59,990 Come on. 525 00:29:12,294 --> 00:29:13,420 Hey! 526 00:29:15,005 --> 00:29:16,590 What do we got? 527 00:29:17,674 --> 00:29:20,886 - Goal? - Sorry. 528 00:29:20,886 --> 00:29:24,389 I found this. It's not water though. 529 00:29:24,389 --> 00:29:26,308 Sick consolation prize though. 530 00:29:26,308 --> 00:29:28,852 Hey, man. Somebody better come through. 531 00:29:28,852 --> 00:29:30,771 My mouth is dry as hell. 532 00:29:30,771 --> 00:29:35,359 Got that white buildup shit in the corners of my damn mouth. 533 00:29:35,359 --> 00:29:36,693 I hate that. Here, take mine. 534 00:29:36,693 --> 00:29:38,362 Thanks, man. 535 00:29:38,362 --> 00:29:40,948 Hey, how'd we go? Goal? 536 00:29:40,948 --> 00:29:43,909 - You don't even play soccer. - My entire body is screaming. 537 00:29:43,909 --> 00:29:47,412 Okay, I'll take that as a... as a no. 538 00:29:47,412 --> 00:29:49,831 Uh, we're zero for two, but it can turn around. 539 00:29:49,831 --> 00:29:53,293 I'm a man of...of... of faith. 540 00:29:53,293 --> 00:29:54,920 Mm-hmm. Ish. 541 00:29:56,547 --> 00:29:58,423 - Hey. - Hey! 542 00:29:59,341 --> 00:30:01,176 Goal? 543 00:30:03,053 --> 00:30:04,471 - Oh, shit, fuck yeah! 544 00:30:04,471 --> 00:30:07,641 - Goal! - Whoo-hoo! 545 00:30:07,641 --> 00:30:11,311 Goal! Goal! 546 00:30:11,311 --> 00:30:13,146 Heads-up seven up! 547 00:30:14,856 --> 00:30:17,484 JK bringing it home, baby. 548 00:30:17,484 --> 00:30:20,654 Bottled at the source, Crystal Geyser realness. 549 00:30:20,654 --> 00:30:22,197 Don't. 550 00:30:23,824 --> 00:30:25,742 It needs purifying. 551 00:30:27,327 --> 00:30:29,538 Huge find. Thanks, guys. 552 00:30:29,538 --> 00:30:31,415 Yeah, of course. 553 00:30:31,415 --> 00:30:34,459 It's a really good spot about an hour away. 554 00:30:34,459 --> 00:30:35,961 It's a waterfall, actually. 555 00:30:35,961 --> 00:30:38,630 It's a whole fall of water. 556 00:30:38,630 --> 00:30:40,632 - Pretty psyched about it. - Joshua! 557 00:30:42,217 --> 00:30:44,177 You prince! 558 00:30:44,177 --> 00:30:45,929 Here I thought you were off your game, 559 00:30:45,929 --> 00:30:47,973 but you saved the fucking day. 560 00:30:47,973 --> 00:30:50,559 Get your fucking hands off him! 561 00:30:50,559 --> 00:30:52,477 Kirin! 562 00:30:52,477 --> 00:30:53,979 Kirin! Kirin, Kirin! 563 00:30:53,979 --> 00:30:56,315 - Agh! 564 00:30:56,315 --> 00:30:58,609 - Chill! - Come on, dude! 565 00:30:58,609 --> 00:31:00,694 What the hell is your problem? 566 00:31:00,694 --> 00:31:03,155 Why don't you ask your sick fuck friend? 567 00:31:06,158 --> 00:31:07,784 What caused Kirin 568 00:31:07,784 --> 00:31:10,912 to show such aggression towards Seth, 569 00:31:10,912 --> 00:31:12,664 especially when things were going so well? 570 00:31:12,664 --> 00:31:16,084 You had food and then water. 571 00:31:18,545 --> 00:31:21,423 Oftentimes when the physical needs of a group are met, 572 00:31:21,423 --> 00:31:24,343 emotional conflicts tend to bubble up. 573 00:31:24,343 --> 00:31:25,927 Is that what was happening here? 574 00:31:27,804 --> 00:31:30,223 Maybe. 575 00:31:30,223 --> 00:31:32,392 Or maybe Seth deserved it. 576 00:31:32,392 --> 00:31:35,520 Why might he have deserved it? 577 00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:38,065 Well, his face is sort of punch-able. 578 00:31:38,065 --> 00:31:40,859 The Germans have a marvelous word for that. 579 00:31:42,694 --> 00:31:45,322 Backpfeifengesicht. 580 00:31:45,322 --> 00:31:48,533 Sure. That. 581 00:31:48,533 --> 00:31:51,995 As Seth's step-brother, you must've had 582 00:31:51,995 --> 00:31:55,832 some complicated feelings about Kirin's attack. 583 00:31:55,832 --> 00:31:59,878 Fear or anger, defensiveness. 584 00:32:03,882 --> 00:32:06,426 When I was a young boy... 585 00:32:07,594 --> 00:32:10,931 ...my father took me into the city 586 00:32:10,931 --> 00:32:13,350 to see a marching band. 587 00:32:13,350 --> 00:32:14,351 Go on. 588 00:32:15,560 --> 00:32:18,689 He said, "Son, when you grow up... 589 00:32:42,546 --> 00:32:44,631 - Mm. - No... 590 00:32:44,631 --> 00:32:46,633 I think we should talk. 591 00:32:52,806 --> 00:32:56,351 You remember when we had that grudge match 592 00:32:56,351 --> 00:32:58,437 over who had the shittiest life back home? 593 00:33:01,064 --> 00:33:04,609 Well, I'm...I'm not conceding here, you know? 594 00:33:04,609 --> 00:33:06,653 I still got it locked up but... 595 00:33:09,114 --> 00:33:10,824 ...I'll admit I... 596 00:33:10,824 --> 00:33:12,033 I don't know what it's like to have the kind 597 00:33:12,033 --> 00:33:13,452 of parents you do. 598 00:33:15,829 --> 00:33:17,914 You know, who can't or won't... 599 00:33:17,914 --> 00:33:19,833 Accept me? Yeah. 600 00:33:19,833 --> 00:33:20,959 That's got to hit deep, you know? 601 00:33:20,959 --> 00:33:23,044 There's no way that it doesn't, so... 602 00:33:25,046 --> 00:33:27,132 ...I get it if... 603 00:33:28,842 --> 00:33:30,844 ...this is hard. 604 00:33:32,763 --> 00:33:34,973 If being with me is hard. 605 00:33:37,476 --> 00:33:40,187 It's not though. 606 00:33:40,187 --> 00:33:43,440 I may be doubting everything else, 607 00:33:43,440 --> 00:33:45,025 but not this. 608 00:33:47,652 --> 00:33:50,822 With the church, it was all just... 609 00:33:52,115 --> 00:33:55,243 ...lies and hiding. 610 00:33:56,369 --> 00:33:58,538 That's what I wanna be done with. 611 00:33:58,538 --> 00:34:01,833 That's the part that I wanna, like, 612 00:34:01,833 --> 00:34:06,505 burn or scrape out of me until I'm just... 613 00:34:06,505 --> 00:34:09,424 until I'm just here, you know? 614 00:34:09,424 --> 00:34:12,302 And okay. 615 00:34:12,302 --> 00:34:14,679 And honest. 616 00:34:14,679 --> 00:34:16,515 You are. 617 00:34:16,515 --> 00:34:19,601 You're the most honest person I know. 618 00:34:19,601 --> 00:34:21,353 Except I'm not. 619 00:34:24,356 --> 00:34:28,360 I was on lookout a few nights ago and... 620 00:34:29,945 --> 00:34:31,988 ...I saw a light on the horizon. 621 00:34:31,988 --> 00:34:35,367 Like... like the light of a boat. 622 00:34:36,451 --> 00:34:40,330 I went to go and get the tinder to stoke the fire... 623 00:34:45,168 --> 00:34:47,546 ...but then I just froze. 624 00:34:49,047 --> 00:34:53,343 Only for a second or two, but when I came back the... 625 00:34:53,343 --> 00:34:56,096 the boat...the light was... it was gone. 626 00:34:57,639 --> 00:35:00,725 I was so afraid of my other life that I hesitated 627 00:35:00,725 --> 00:35:03,770 and I missed our chance of being saved and I fucked up. 628 00:35:03,770 --> 00:35:06,022 - Shh. - I fucked up and I'm so sorry. 629 00:35:06,022 --> 00:35:07,399 - Shelby. - I'm sorry. 630 00:35:07,399 --> 00:35:09,442 - I'm sorry, I'm sorry. - Shelby, Shelby. 631 00:35:09,442 --> 00:35:12,070 - I'm sorry. - Shh, shh. 632 00:35:13,780 --> 00:35:16,908 It probably wouldn't have made a difference, okay? 633 00:35:16,908 --> 00:35:18,118 Okay, if the boat was that far out, 634 00:35:18,118 --> 00:35:20,620 the fire wouldn't have helped, all right? 635 00:35:23,415 --> 00:35:24,749 It's okay. 636 00:35:28,712 --> 00:35:32,340 This is quite possibly the sickest destiny 637 00:35:32,340 --> 00:35:34,259 I've ever beheld. 638 00:35:34,259 --> 00:35:37,804 You're gonna marry Shrek, which sucks for Marcus, 639 00:35:37,804 --> 00:35:40,682 but Shrek is one hot piece. 640 00:35:40,682 --> 00:35:43,393 You're gonna be a powerful and sexy 641 00:35:43,393 --> 00:35:45,145 Veterinarian Without Borders. 642 00:35:45,145 --> 00:35:46,438 You're gonna live in a shack, 643 00:35:46,438 --> 00:35:47,939 which given the current circumstances, 644 00:35:47,939 --> 00:35:49,399 is a true upgrade. 645 00:35:49,399 --> 00:35:51,860 And you are going to have 18 beautiful children. 646 00:35:51,860 --> 00:35:56,531 Real ones. Not food ones. 647 00:35:56,531 --> 00:35:58,366 I'm on fire with jealousy. 648 00:35:58,366 --> 00:36:00,118 Really? Because 18 kids is a lot. 649 00:36:00,118 --> 00:36:03,705 Yeah, maybe not 18 with global warming in play, 650 00:36:03,705 --> 00:36:06,666 but a brood sounds nice. 651 00:36:06,666 --> 00:36:08,793 Heading to signal fire duty. 652 00:36:08,793 --> 00:36:13,340 Oh, um, if you see Rachel, can you tell her to come back? 653 00:36:13,340 --> 00:36:16,134 Funerals are draining and I just sort of want her to crash. 654 00:36:20,055 --> 00:36:22,265 Okay. My turn. 655 00:36:23,516 --> 00:36:25,393 - Do my MASH. - Sure. 656 00:36:25,393 --> 00:36:27,312 Oh, but don't waste your time filling in the jobs 657 00:36:27,312 --> 00:36:29,940 because A, I am retired and B, 658 00:36:29,940 --> 00:36:32,317 I'm gonna be living off the settlement money. 659 00:36:32,317 --> 00:36:34,903 You know, Dr. Klein doesn't have to pay for a funeral, 660 00:36:34,903 --> 00:36:39,658 but she will have to bankroll my very luxurious lifestyle. 661 00:36:41,576 --> 00:36:43,036 Wow, you're really out for her blood. 662 00:36:43,036 --> 00:36:45,580 Yeah. I mean, I don't know. 663 00:36:45,580 --> 00:36:48,667 It just feels nice to have someone to blame. 664 00:36:50,627 --> 00:36:55,090 Look, can I...can I please explain now that I'm... 665 00:36:56,424 --> 00:36:59,803 now I'm no longer getting thrashed for no fucking reason. 666 00:36:59,803 --> 00:37:02,097 No reason, my ass. 667 00:37:02,097 --> 00:37:04,432 - He jacked off on him. - Kirin, let him explain. 668 00:37:04,432 --> 00:37:06,393 There's not usually a rationale for sexual assault. 669 00:37:06,393 --> 00:37:07,811 Come on, we...we don't know that's what happened. 670 00:37:07,811 --> 00:37:09,187 Let him talk! 671 00:37:09,187 --> 00:37:11,940 Look, Josh, he walked in on me 672 00:37:11,940 --> 00:37:14,234 when I was in the middle of... when I was... 673 00:37:14,234 --> 00:37:16,152 I was...I was jerking off, 674 00:37:16,152 --> 00:37:17,779 and then he was just standing there, 675 00:37:17,779 --> 00:37:19,823 and he saw me and... and that's it. 676 00:37:19,823 --> 00:37:21,074 And now somehow, it's getting scrambled. 677 00:37:21,074 --> 00:37:22,826 Bullshit. 678 00:37:24,119 --> 00:37:25,954 Lift up your shirt. 679 00:37:28,957 --> 00:37:31,084 Show 'em. 680 00:37:33,336 --> 00:37:37,424 He's got, like, red all over. 681 00:37:40,093 --> 00:37:41,469 What the hell is going on? 682 00:37:41,469 --> 00:37:43,054 Why can't we hear anything? 683 00:37:43,054 --> 00:37:45,223 Microphones must be malfunctioning. 684 00:37:45,223 --> 00:37:46,516 Oh, what? Like that...like that's 685 00:37:46,516 --> 00:37:49,227 supposed to be some smoking gun? 686 00:37:49,227 --> 00:37:52,647 Look, I mean, no offense, Josh, 687 00:37:52,647 --> 00:37:55,400 you literally break out in hives over everything. 688 00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:57,235 Why would Josh lie? 689 00:37:58,528 --> 00:38:00,572 Huh, why? 690 00:38:00,572 --> 00:38:02,449 He's right. 691 00:38:02,449 --> 00:38:04,826 And if Kirin O'Connor is believing the victim, then... 692 00:38:06,369 --> 00:38:08,621 ...something obviously happened here. 693 00:38:08,621 --> 00:38:10,248 Okay. Wait, wait, wait, wait. 694 00:38:10,248 --> 00:38:12,250 Kirin, dude, I mean, you got, 695 00:38:12,250 --> 00:38:14,544 like, 99 reasons to fuck with Seth. 696 00:38:14,544 --> 00:38:16,880 You've been in a dick measuring contest with him since day one. 697 00:38:16,880 --> 00:38:19,674 You think I'd make up some sick lie about it? 698 00:38:21,593 --> 00:38:23,386 Josh, I believe you. 699 00:38:23,386 --> 00:38:25,013 Okay, okay. Okay, this... 700 00:38:25,013 --> 00:38:26,514 this is getting out of hand. 701 00:38:26,514 --> 00:38:29,059 He's not okay! 702 00:38:29,059 --> 00:38:31,561 Somebody... 703 00:38:31,561 --> 00:38:33,813 somebody did something to him. 704 00:38:33,813 --> 00:38:35,774 You say that like you're sure. 705 00:38:35,774 --> 00:38:38,276 I know that kind of scared when I see it. 706 00:38:39,444 --> 00:38:41,905 This is a whole mess. 707 00:38:41,905 --> 00:38:44,407 I'm not about to be on the wrong side of history, man. 708 00:38:44,407 --> 00:38:48,036 Wait, come on. Sides of history? 709 00:38:48,036 --> 00:38:49,037 Looks like you've picked yours. 710 00:38:49,037 --> 00:38:50,538 No. No, I'm...I'm not. 711 00:38:50,538 --> 00:38:52,248 I... 712 00:38:53,833 --> 00:38:56,002 Josh, I'm not saying you're making it up... 713 00:38:57,378 --> 00:39:01,091 ...but with the drinking and everything. 714 00:39:04,219 --> 00:39:06,387 Henry, 715 00:39:06,387 --> 00:39:08,807 do you really think that he could do this? 716 00:39:08,807 --> 00:39:10,725 He's your family. You know him. 717 00:39:12,310 --> 00:39:13,311 Talk. 718 00:39:17,107 --> 00:39:18,274 It's possible. 719 00:39:18,274 --> 00:39:19,526 What? Hen...Henry, 720 00:39:19,526 --> 00:39:22,737 Henry, what...what the fuck? Wh...I mean. 721 00:39:22,737 --> 00:39:24,197 His own brother said he did it. 722 00:39:24,197 --> 00:39:26,199 I didn't. I said it's possible. 723 00:39:26,199 --> 00:39:28,159 He's out. 724 00:39:28,159 --> 00:39:29,744 We're kicking the motherfucker out of camp. 725 00:39:29,744 --> 00:39:31,162 Can we just take a second... 726 00:39:31,162 --> 00:39:33,957 No, I'm sorry, we're not being passive about this. 727 00:39:33,957 --> 00:39:35,708 Okay, we'll vote. 728 00:39:35,708 --> 00:39:37,919 Okay, it's the...it's the just and fair way to decide. 729 00:39:37,919 --> 00:39:38,962 This is insane. This is... 730 00:39:38,962 --> 00:39:40,755 this is completely off the rails. 731 00:39:40,755 --> 00:39:41,881 Let's keep this as civilized as possible, okay? 732 00:39:41,881 --> 00:39:43,216 All those in favor of protecting Josh 733 00:39:43,216 --> 00:39:46,928 and removing a toxic force... 734 00:39:46,928 --> 00:39:48,012 hands up. 735 00:39:57,897 --> 00:39:59,816 I can't get behind this. 736 00:39:59,816 --> 00:40:04,028 Josh, I'm sorry, I don't think you would lie, but... 737 00:40:06,072 --> 00:40:08,032 ...I don't think Seth would either. 738 00:40:08,032 --> 00:40:11,619 No. It's okay, I, uh... 739 00:40:11,619 --> 00:40:14,455 Well, I...I don't... I don't wanna mess things up 740 00:40:14,455 --> 00:40:16,875 and, um, may... maybe I was just confused 741 00:40:16,875 --> 00:40:19,043 and, you know, things were really confusing 742 00:40:19,043 --> 00:40:23,464 and I just...you know, I just wanna forget...forget it. 743 00:40:23,464 --> 00:40:25,175 He just wants to forget. He just wants to... 744 00:40:25,175 --> 00:40:27,844 he just wants to forget this, so... 745 00:40:31,848 --> 00:40:33,892 Hey... 746 00:40:41,274 --> 00:40:45,528 Seth, you are hereby expelled from this group. 747 00:40:45,528 --> 00:40:47,113 For the safety of Josh and everyone else, 748 00:40:47,113 --> 00:40:51,284 remove yourself and keep your distance until further notice. 749 00:40:51,284 --> 00:40:53,661 Pack your fucking bags. 750 00:41:02,045 --> 00:41:05,256 Camp mics one through six all out. 751 00:41:05,256 --> 00:41:06,341 I'm calling Alex. 752 00:41:06,341 --> 00:41:07,717 If we can't get the audio repatched, 753 00:41:07,717 --> 00:41:10,511 we'll be completely in the dark. 754 00:41:27,612 --> 00:41:28,988 Guys. 755 00:41:30,907 --> 00:41:33,493 I'm fine. 756 00:41:33,493 --> 00:41:35,286 Really. 757 00:41:35,286 --> 00:41:37,288 You don't have to, like, 758 00:41:37,288 --> 00:41:40,083 put me on some kind of watch or something. 759 00:41:40,083 --> 00:41:41,834 We know. 760 00:41:44,420 --> 00:41:47,298 I, uh... 761 00:41:47,298 --> 00:41:50,718 I should thank you, everybody, 762 00:41:50,718 --> 00:41:53,263 for having my back, you know? 763 00:41:53,263 --> 00:41:56,766 Even when I didn't have my own, you know, back. 764 00:41:58,309 --> 00:42:00,812 I'm just... 765 00:42:00,812 --> 00:42:02,230 I'm sorry. 766 00:42:02,230 --> 00:42:05,149 Apology fiercely rejected. 767 00:42:06,401 --> 00:42:07,944 Oh. 768 00:42:09,445 --> 00:42:11,698 Okay. 769 00:42:11,698 --> 00:42:14,367 - I'm sorry. - Josh, 770 00:42:14,367 --> 00:42:18,079 you are not the one who needs to be apologizing. 771 00:42:18,079 --> 00:42:20,123 You're the victim here. 772 00:42:22,166 --> 00:42:23,668 Right. 773 00:42:24,836 --> 00:42:27,005 Yeah. 774 00:42:27,005 --> 00:42:28,673 That's great. 775 00:42:28,673 --> 00:42:30,425 No, honey, don't... 776 00:42:31,467 --> 00:42:33,469 There's no stigma. 777 00:42:34,304 --> 00:42:36,055 It's your truth, 778 00:42:36,055 --> 00:42:39,517 and now you need to own it... 779 00:42:39,517 --> 00:42:42,687 What I need is to never fucking think about it again, 780 00:42:42,687 --> 00:42:46,482 and for everybody here to shut up about it...forever! 781 00:42:46,482 --> 00:42:48,818 Whether we get out of this place or not. 782 00:42:48,818 --> 00:42:51,446 I have been called all of the things... 783 00:42:51,446 --> 00:42:53,656 pussy, chicken shit, little bitch... 784 00:42:53,656 --> 00:42:56,659 and I'm so sick of it all that I could choke. 785 00:42:56,659 --> 00:42:59,245 And everyone is like, own it, just own it, 786 00:42:59,245 --> 00:43:03,499 like if you own it you'll be invincible or something. 787 00:43:05,251 --> 00:43:08,379 And that is just... it's not how it works. 788 00:43:12,050 --> 00:43:16,304 Owning it just means that you are it. 789 00:43:19,974 --> 00:43:21,809 Okay, whatever you need, Josh. 790 00:43:21,809 --> 00:43:24,645 For you to just never tell anyone... 791 00:43:25,813 --> 00:43:27,398 ...please. 792 00:43:30,693 --> 00:43:31,944 I promise. 793 00:43:33,446 --> 00:43:34,864 I promise. 794 00:43:34,864 --> 00:43:36,240 I promise. 795 00:43:36,240 --> 00:43:37,658 I promise. 796 00:43:37,658 --> 00:43:40,161 I promise. 797 00:43:47,001 --> 00:43:48,836 I promise. 798 00:44:01,557 --> 00:44:06,354 "Boy who cried wolf, unstable, problem case." 799 00:44:06,354 --> 00:44:08,272 Ugh, these are some of the monikers... 800 00:44:08,272 --> 00:44:11,401 Blah, blah, blah. 801 00:44:11,401 --> 00:44:14,821 Blah, blah, blah, blah. 802 00:44:14,821 --> 00:44:17,115 Those are just words. 803 00:44:17,115 --> 00:44:19,784 Right. 804 00:44:19,784 --> 00:44:23,538 So why didn't you tell us in your words 805 00:44:23,538 --> 00:44:25,873 what happened to you on that island? 806 00:44:27,750 --> 00:44:30,086 I learned a lot. 807 00:44:33,714 --> 00:44:35,591 Like what, Josh? 808 00:44:37,468 --> 00:44:41,472 Silence can be very potent. 809 00:45:26,601 --> 00:45:29,270 R.I.P. 810 00:45:29,270 --> 00:45:31,355 What a load of shit. 811 00:45:32,899 --> 00:45:35,109 Rest in power? 812 00:45:35,109 --> 00:45:38,696 Rest in power, rest in peace, 813 00:45:38,696 --> 00:45:41,365 the "rest" of it all. 814 00:45:42,909 --> 00:45:45,369 I tried really hard today... 815 00:45:46,496 --> 00:45:51,292 ...to walk the paces, to get my goodbye right. 816 00:45:53,419 --> 00:45:55,922 Nope. 817 00:45:55,922 --> 00:45:57,882 There's no rest. 818 00:45:59,133 --> 00:46:01,344 Not for me at least. 819 00:46:03,179 --> 00:46:07,683 Oh, fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck. 820 00:46:07,683 --> 00:46:09,185 You're probably really sick of hearing this. 821 00:46:09,185 --> 00:46:11,020 You all must be. 822 00:46:20,321 --> 00:46:22,615 Not even a little. 823 00:46:27,703 --> 00:46:29,705 I just really miss her. 824 00:46:31,916 --> 00:46:33,501 Have faith, Rachel. 825 00:46:37,755 --> 00:46:40,174 Nora will find you. 826 00:46:43,302 --> 00:46:47,348 The people who have really meant something to us, 827 00:46:47,348 --> 00:46:50,518 they never really go away. 828 00:46:53,104 --> 00:46:56,357 They stay by our sides, 829 00:46:56,357 --> 00:46:59,110 and they show up in the strangest ways. 830 00:47:10,580 --> 00:47:12,957 They leave us signs... 831 00:47:16,877 --> 00:47:18,421 signals... 832 00:47:30,891 --> 00:47:32,977 to make sure we still feel them. 833 00:47:34,061 --> 00:47:36,981 Holy shit. 834 00:47:49,327 --> 00:47:52,830 If I could just see her one more time... 835 00:48:06,010 --> 00:48:08,429 Oh, my God. 836 00:48:10,598 --> 00:48:11,682 Martha. 837 00:48:17,313 --> 00:48:19,523 Martha. 838 00:48:33,954 --> 00:48:35,206 She's here. 839 00:48:43,214 --> 00:48:45,216 Nora's here. 840 00:49:13,869 --> 00:49:15,746 It's time. 841 00:51:20,079 --> 00:51:23,040 Beep beep, coming through!