1 00:00:56,771 --> 00:01:01,771 Subtitles by explosiveskull www.OpenSubtitles.org 2 00:01:08,913 --> 00:01:13,582 One of the benefits of showing up at a hospital with a kidney infection 3 00:01:13,584 --> 00:01:15,543 is the first thing they do... 4 00:01:15,545 --> 00:01:17,086 Take this with water. 5 00:01:17,088 --> 00:01:18,837 ...is give you something to bring down your fever 6 00:01:18,839 --> 00:01:21,215 and subdue the agonizing pain you're in. 7 00:01:21,217 --> 00:01:23,594 - Is this a Vicodin? - Yes. 8 00:01:26,305 --> 00:01:29,682 - Five milligrams? - Yes. 9 00:01:29,684 --> 00:01:31,852 I know what you're all thinking. 10 00:01:33,646 --> 00:01:36,063 I had my wisdom teeth out a few years ago 11 00:01:36,065 --> 00:01:39,650 and they gave me Vicodin and it's not good for me. 12 00:01:39,652 --> 00:01:42,154 It really upsets my stomach. 13 00:01:43,364 --> 00:01:44,989 Okay. 14 00:01:44,991 --> 00:01:48,450 I'd rather take Tylenol instead. 15 00:01:48,452 --> 00:01:51,787 Are you sure? Kidney infections are extremely painful. 16 00:01:51,789 --> 00:01:53,749 I'm sure. 17 00:01:55,167 --> 00:02:00,880 Unless... I forget what they put me on instead... 18 00:02:00,882 --> 00:02:07,636 It sounded like a candy name... Like Rox... something? 19 00:02:07,638 --> 00:02:10,556 - Roxicet? - Yes. That's it. 20 00:02:10,558 --> 00:02:17,354 - Roxicet. 7,5 milligrams. - Let me check with the doctor. 21 00:02:17,356 --> 00:02:19,523 Thanks. 22 00:02:19,525 --> 00:02:23,027 It's not a relapse if it's warranted. It's a hall pass. 23 00:02:23,029 --> 00:02:24,987 God please don't get in the way! 24 00:02:24,989 --> 00:02:26,697 According to the paperwork your mother filled out, 25 00:02:26,699 --> 00:02:29,783 it appears you have some pretty extreme substance abuse issues, 26 00:02:29,785 --> 00:02:34,207 so I think you're right, we should just stick with Tylenol. 27 00:02:36,083 --> 00:02:43,255 OK. If I come back someday with cancer, I really hope you're not my doctor. 28 00:02:43,257 --> 00:02:45,176 Yeah, I'm serious! 29 00:02:47,720 --> 00:02:49,805 Can I still get the Vicodin? 30 00:02:51,182 --> 00:02:56,602 They put me on Cipro. They give it to people that are exposed to anthrax, 31 00:02:56,604 --> 00:02:58,145 started me on Lexipro, 32 00:02:58,147 --> 00:03:02,233 which is one of the few antidepressants that doesn't make me crazier, 33 00:03:02,235 --> 00:03:05,653 and kept me there for three days. 34 00:03:05,655 --> 00:03:10,074 It was actually really nice. I love hospitals. 35 00:03:10,076 --> 00:03:13,869 If I could spend the rest of my life in a hospital I would. 36 00:03:13,871 --> 00:03:18,749 Because when you're in a hospital, you have zero responsibilities. 37 00:03:18,751 --> 00:03:21,794 They make sure you eat. Sleep. Stay hydrated. 38 00:03:21,796 --> 00:03:24,338 And if anything bad happens, there's always a doctor nearby. 39 00:03:24,340 --> 00:03:25,881 Thank you! 40 00:03:25,883 --> 00:03:29,802 It's also the best place to be in the event of a mass shooting, 41 00:03:29,804 --> 00:03:32,139 unless a gunman kills all the surgeons. 42 00:03:33,307 --> 00:03:36,435 Point is, I had zero anxiety. 43 00:03:45,111 --> 00:03:49,613 At nighttime, when everyone's asleep, if I close my eyes 44 00:03:49,615 --> 00:03:52,741 and imagine all the little beeps to be the sounds of birds, 45 00:03:52,743 --> 00:03:56,495 and the lukewarm air blowing through the vent to be a warm breeze, 46 00:03:56,497 --> 00:04:00,082 your hospital bed can sort of feel like a poolside chair 47 00:04:00,084 --> 00:04:03,921 on a hot summer night in the Caribbean. 48 00:04:06,299 --> 00:04:08,217 Plus Jules came to visit. 49 00:04:11,345 --> 00:04:15,474 - Did all this happen because I left? - No. 50 00:04:18,185 --> 00:04:20,021 You promise? 51 00:04:21,772 --> 00:04:24,690 Yeah. 52 00:04:24,692 --> 00:04:27,570 I've kinda been this way my whole life. 53 00:04:29,071 --> 00:04:31,616 Not all the time, but sometimes. 54 00:04:34,035 --> 00:04:36,287 But you do make it better. 55 00:04:44,170 --> 00:04:45,922 I'm sorry. 56 00:04:47,840 --> 00:04:49,634 For what? 57 00:04:52,637 --> 00:04:55,012 For not telling you the truth. 58 00:04:55,014 --> 00:05:00,809 For everyone who was calling me manic, I was like 92 percent correct. 59 00:05:00,811 --> 00:05:03,606 But something was different about Jules. 60 00:05:04,815 --> 00:05:07,568 Rue, you look fucking amazing. 61 00:05:08,819 --> 00:05:12,696 Jules, I'm deeply uncomfortable right now. 62 00:05:12,698 --> 00:05:18,702 You look hot and the fact that you usually dress like Seth Rogen 63 00:05:18,704 --> 00:05:23,415 although you make it cute sometimes it crushes my soul. 64 00:05:23,417 --> 00:05:26,043 I don't dress like Seth Rogen. 65 00:05:26,045 --> 00:05:28,587 When was the last time you didn't wear a hoodie or sweatpants? 66 00:05:28,589 --> 00:05:32,800 - I don't know. Now? - Exactly. 67 00:05:32,802 --> 00:05:35,302 Which is why are we gonna finish. 68 00:05:35,304 --> 00:05:40,391 It was the most amazing weekend ever. 69 00:05:40,393 --> 00:05:42,770 I can't stop thinking about it. 70 00:05:44,021 --> 00:05:50,693 It was like the first time I've ever felt like I had a family. 71 00:05:50,695 --> 00:05:54,864 That wasn't my Dad, or like you kind of. 72 00:05:54,866 --> 00:05:56,532 My God! 73 00:05:56,534 --> 00:06:02,162 - Rue, you would die for Anna. - Who's Anna? 74 00:06:02,164 --> 00:06:07,293 She's just like next level. I don't know... 75 00:06:07,295 --> 00:06:11,171 And you hooked up or something? 76 00:06:11,173 --> 00:06:15,634 Yeah. It was kinda crazy. We went to the club... 77 00:06:15,636 --> 00:06:21,098 And the energy was like crazy. And I was feeling it. 78 00:06:21,100 --> 00:06:26,562 And she just like grabbed me and sort of like pushed me down. 79 00:06:26,564 --> 00:06:29,106 And like kissed me. 80 00:06:29,108 --> 00:06:33,360 - And she fucking bit me. - What do you mean she bit you? 81 00:06:33,362 --> 00:06:36,574 When we were hooking up, she fully bit me. 82 00:06:37,658 --> 00:06:40,119 Look! 83 00:06:43,915 --> 00:06:47,958 - Did it like feel good? - Yeah, it felt amazing. 84 00:06:47,960 --> 00:06:50,254 Does anyone ever done that to you? 85 00:06:51,631 --> 00:06:54,089 - No. - You wanna see what it feels like? 86 00:06:54,091 --> 00:06:55,843 I don't know. 87 00:06:59,430 --> 00:07:01,388 What? 88 00:07:01,390 --> 00:07:03,935 - You don't like it? - I don't think so. 89 00:07:07,355 --> 00:07:11,106 - Did you like it? - I liked it. 90 00:07:11,108 --> 00:07:13,567 You gotta meet this kids. 91 00:07:13,569 --> 00:07:19,031 'Cause I swear you would fucking flourish in that energy. 92 00:07:19,033 --> 00:07:20,910 I've never felt anything like it. 93 00:07:23,496 --> 00:07:25,373 There! 94 00:07:26,541 --> 00:07:28,501 I missed you so much! 95 00:07:38,219 --> 00:07:40,304 You look beautiful. 96 00:07:41,931 --> 00:07:43,849 Thanks. You, too. 97 00:07:45,476 --> 00:07:50,356 - By the way, fuck Nate Jacobs! - Fuck Nate Jacobs! 98 00:07:52,108 --> 00:07:54,900 I know you're not supposed to say things like this out loud, 99 00:07:54,902 --> 00:07:56,696 but if I ever got the chance I'd fuck him. 100 00:08:04,579 --> 00:08:06,247 What a fucking pussy! 101 00:08:32,648 --> 00:08:37,361 - Hi, I'm Leslie, Rue's Mom. - Hi Leslie! 102 00:08:40,948 --> 00:08:42,573 They asked me to write a letter 103 00:08:42,575 --> 00:08:46,493 about what your addiction has cost us as a family. 104 00:08:46,495 --> 00:08:50,458 And as I sat down last night to write it... 105 00:08:52,293 --> 00:08:56,962 ...I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born. 106 00:08:56,964 --> 00:09:00,507 Holding you in my arms for the first time. 107 00:09:00,509 --> 00:09:05,389 Looking down at you. Your sweet beautiful face. 108 00:09:06,682 --> 00:09:11,354 I had never felt so much love and joy in my entire life. 109 00:09:12,438 --> 00:09:16,607 And I thought that what if in that moment, 110 00:09:16,609 --> 00:09:21,320 I heard a voice, some omniscient narrator who said: 111 00:09:21,322 --> 00:09:24,615 "Here's what's going to happen..." 112 00:09:24,617 --> 00:09:30,329 Your daughter is going to be funny, and smart and outgoing. 113 00:09:30,331 --> 00:09:32,373 You'll see it from a young age. 114 00:09:32,375 --> 00:09:36,544 - Are you guys drinking wine? - I mean, barely. 115 00:09:36,546 --> 00:09:40,091 We're waiting for you to leave so we can get to the hard stuff. 116 00:09:43,052 --> 00:09:46,639 Relax. I'm not triggered or anything. 117 00:09:48,641 --> 00:09:51,767 - I'm joking. - Let's take some pictures. Come on! 118 00:09:51,769 --> 00:09:56,939 She'll be charismatic and make friends easily. 119 00:09:56,941 --> 00:09:59,026 She'll be kind and sensitive... 120 00:10:00,945 --> 00:10:03,197 Maybe too sensitive. 121 00:10:04,240 --> 00:10:06,868 She won't be an easy child. 122 00:10:08,244 --> 00:10:09,996 She'll struggle. 123 00:10:12,081 --> 00:10:17,835 Just walk in and hold your head up high, baby. 124 00:10:17,837 --> 00:10:22,381 And in turn, you'll struggle to understand her. 125 00:10:22,383 --> 00:10:26,554 - You look beautiful! - I don't know... 126 00:10:28,139 --> 00:10:31,640 To understand what's going on inside her head. 127 00:10:31,642 --> 00:10:35,021 The night terrors that can't be interrupted. 128 00:10:38,316 --> 00:10:42,776 The times after dinner when she'll sit at the kitchen table 129 00:10:42,778 --> 00:10:47,575 and count the tiles over and over until she hyperventilates. 130 00:10:50,161 --> 00:10:54,205 - Do you have a date? - No. 131 00:10:54,207 --> 00:10:58,417 The fight to hold her in your arms. To tell her it's okay. 132 00:10:58,419 --> 00:11:01,172 It makes me look stupid? 133 00:11:02,757 --> 00:11:05,259 No. Not in the least. 134 00:11:08,012 --> 00:11:11,889 To calm down the kicking, the screaming. 135 00:11:11,891 --> 00:11:14,769 The anxiety of being harmed. 136 00:11:16,229 --> 00:11:20,481 The transitions from day to night. From home to school. 137 00:11:20,483 --> 00:11:22,318 From meal to meal. 138 00:11:23,486 --> 00:11:27,865 Of losing her mother or father or little sister. 139 00:11:30,785 --> 00:11:32,952 - You have a beautiful house. - Thank you! 140 00:11:32,954 --> 00:11:34,580 - Hi! - Hi! 141 00:11:36,207 --> 00:11:37,831 - You look beautiful. - Thanks. 142 00:11:37,833 --> 00:11:39,416 That's an understatement. 143 00:11:39,418 --> 00:11:41,043 ...of being alone. 144 00:11:41,045 --> 00:11:42,628 I already like her. 145 00:11:42,630 --> 00:11:47,216 The panic attacks. Mood swings. Confusion. Disorganization. 146 00:11:47,218 --> 00:11:49,595 - Have fun! - I will! 147 00:11:56,936 --> 00:11:58,521 My God! 148 00:11:59,730 --> 00:12:05,860 And all that rage, not just at you but at herself. 149 00:12:05,862 --> 00:12:07,989 And the tough part is... 150 00:12:11,284 --> 00:12:14,827 ...you'll feel as helpless to help her as she does herself. 151 00:12:14,829 --> 00:12:17,121 - What is it? - Gatorade and Everclear. 152 00:12:17,123 --> 00:12:20,459 You'll make mistakes. Small ones. And big ones. 153 00:12:25,006 --> 00:12:28,132 You'll look for help from people who aren't helpful. 154 00:12:28,134 --> 00:12:31,137 Or who don't understand what's happening. 155 00:12:39,478 --> 00:12:41,856 And the guilt will never leave you. 156 00:12:46,235 --> 00:12:48,613 Love you, Grandma! 157 00:12:53,409 --> 00:12:58,370 But if you remain calm and patient, if you listen closely, 158 00:12:58,372 --> 00:13:00,206 you'll understand her more. 159 00:13:00,208 --> 00:13:04,376 - You okay? - Yeah, I'm having an asthma thing. 160 00:13:04,378 --> 00:13:09,342 The counting, the repetition, the need for symmetry. 161 00:13:10,635 --> 00:13:13,219 That if you kiss her left cheek before bed, 162 00:13:13,221 --> 00:13:18,059 you have to kiss her right cheek. and her forehead, then her chin. 163 00:13:19,352 --> 00:13:23,270 That it's about balance. Stability. 164 00:13:23,272 --> 00:13:28,776 The need to organize her feelings and thoughts so she can breathe easier. 165 00:13:28,778 --> 00:13:33,074 - I feel really good tonight. - Really? Why? 166 00:13:34,450 --> 00:13:37,284 I was thinking this is the first time since the beginning of high school 167 00:13:37,286 --> 00:13:39,828 that I haven't been in love with someone. 168 00:13:39,830 --> 00:13:41,791 I love that for you. 169 00:13:44,961 --> 00:13:47,922 I've always really been into pick-up trucks. 170 00:13:51,467 --> 00:13:53,594 Can you take your shoes off the dash? 171 00:14:00,518 --> 00:14:05,479 And there will be moments of relief. In her and in you. 172 00:14:05,481 --> 00:14:09,441 Moments that feel so normal and calm and rewarding 173 00:14:09,443 --> 00:14:13,781 that you'll find yourself praying they last forever. 174 00:14:15,408 --> 00:14:18,784 Even though she's only a child. 175 00:14:18,786 --> 00:14:21,956 And all the hardest parts have yet to even come. 176 00:15:13,507 --> 00:15:17,176 What if these are the big moments in life? 177 00:15:17,178 --> 00:15:21,555 My mom talks about high school like it was this monumental part of her life. 178 00:15:21,557 --> 00:15:25,643 But I cannot imagine being 40 and looking back on this moment like: wow. 179 00:15:25,645 --> 00:15:28,145 That's because most people peak in high school. 180 00:15:28,147 --> 00:15:32,316 - I definitely haven't peaked. - I'm not even a person yet. 181 00:15:32,318 --> 00:15:35,319 I'm definitely like 25% peakness. 182 00:15:35,321 --> 00:15:41,325 I'm at a hundred percent. But I can definitely get to one fifty. 183 00:15:41,327 --> 00:15:44,747 - I never thought I'd make it this far. - What do you mean? 184 00:15:45,790 --> 00:15:50,042 I've always had this anxiety that something bad would happen. 185 00:15:50,044 --> 00:15:54,004 Last summer, there were 3 weeks where I actually thought you were dead. 186 00:15:54,006 --> 00:15:57,299 She's been sober for 3 months. 187 00:15:57,301 --> 00:16:00,221 Weren't you in rehab like six months ago? 188 00:16:04,809 --> 00:16:06,976 Maybe people get nostalgic about high school 189 00:16:06,978 --> 00:16:11,564 because it's like the last time in your life you get to dream. 190 00:16:11,566 --> 00:16:16,404 After is like, bad jobs, and bills, and bad husbands... 191 00:16:20,032 --> 00:16:24,954 Maybe I'm generalizing. But you know what I mean? 192 00:16:26,205 --> 00:16:28,581 I kinda feel the opposite. 193 00:16:28,583 --> 00:16:32,042 I feel like high school's super suffocating. 194 00:16:32,044 --> 00:16:35,423 - Really? - Yeah! 195 00:16:41,053 --> 00:16:42,722 I'll be right back. 196 00:17:23,888 --> 00:17:30,517 First of all, ew! Second of all, ew! 197 00:17:30,519 --> 00:17:33,481 - Just a second. - Are you not hard? 198 00:17:35,024 --> 00:17:37,441 No, I am. Fuck! 199 00:17:37,443 --> 00:17:40,152 It doesn't really feel like you're hard. 200 00:17:40,154 --> 00:17:44,573 - I am. I'm... I am hard. - This isn't something you lie about. 201 00:17:44,575 --> 00:17:46,450 Maddy, I just got a lot of shit on my mind. 202 00:17:46,452 --> 00:17:49,453 - Like during sex? - Stop! 203 00:17:49,455 --> 00:17:52,706 - Stop what? - Talking. Stop talking. Fuck! 204 00:17:52,708 --> 00:17:54,959 I'm officialy turned off! Get off me. 205 00:17:54,961 --> 00:17:57,962 - Why are we even having sex? - We weren't. 206 00:17:57,964 --> 00:18:02,132 You know what your problem is? You can't keep your mouth shut. 207 00:18:02,134 --> 00:18:05,261 - And you can't keep your dick hard. - Maybe I can't keep my dick hard 208 00:18:05,263 --> 00:18:08,138 because everyone at school is spreading rumors about me. 209 00:18:08,140 --> 00:18:10,307 They're not rumors. They're facts. 210 00:18:10,309 --> 00:18:13,435 You had forty different guys' dicks in your phone. 211 00:18:13,437 --> 00:18:17,231 - I told you not to tell anyone. - I told people before you told me. 212 00:18:17,233 --> 00:18:21,235 - You told them out of context. - What is the context? 213 00:18:21,237 --> 00:18:24,071 I'd tell you but I don't even trust you anymore. 214 00:18:24,073 --> 00:18:27,324 Kinda like how you'd fuck me but you're not hard anymore? 215 00:18:27,326 --> 00:18:31,163 Keep talking! Keep fucking talking! 216 00:18:39,964 --> 00:18:44,341 - I don't mind if you're into guys. - I'm not into fucking guys, Maddy. 217 00:18:44,343 --> 00:18:47,720 - Sexuality is a spectrum. - What are you talking about? 218 00:18:47,722 --> 00:18:51,348 It's not like anyone's 100% straight or 100% gay. 219 00:18:51,350 --> 00:18:53,477 That is 100% bullshit. 220 00:19:41,234 --> 00:19:44,860 I don't know you. You might be a good girl. You might not. 221 00:19:44,862 --> 00:19:49,114 - But I do know my son. - Do you? 222 00:19:49,116 --> 00:19:52,326 I'm not defending him. But I do wanna protect him. 223 00:19:52,328 --> 00:19:55,373 And what I know is this relationship you two have is not sustainable. 224 00:19:56,791 --> 00:20:00,876 And it's only a matter of time before it takes the both of you down. 225 00:20:00,878 --> 00:20:04,966 Sometimes the two people who aren't meant for each other find each other. 226 00:20:06,092 --> 00:20:12,515 You're a beautiful girl. And a smart one. It's time to let go. 227 00:20:14,600 --> 00:20:17,520 Your whole family is so fucking weird. 228 00:20:49,135 --> 00:20:53,637 Ladies and Gentlemen, this is the game you've all been waiting for. 229 00:20:53,639 --> 00:20:57,766 This is the first game back for the Hawks starting QB Nate Jacobs. 230 00:20:57,768 --> 00:21:00,769 It could be the final game of his high-school career 231 00:21:00,771 --> 00:21:04,648 unless he can bring home the W and get this struggling team to regionals. 232 00:21:04,650 --> 00:21:07,526 Speaking of struggles, he's had a lot off the field. 233 00:21:07,528 --> 00:21:12,114 It's been a topic of conversation around the team and in this community. 234 00:21:12,116 --> 00:21:14,366 Can he overcome those struggles? 235 00:21:14,368 --> 00:21:16,744 I think Nate Jacobs is gonna unify this ball club. 236 00:21:16,746 --> 00:21:19,830 Thankfully, his teammates have his back. 237 00:21:19,832 --> 00:21:23,626 How much of the game is he going to put on his back? 238 00:21:23,628 --> 00:21:25,628 Here we go. It's game time! 239 00:21:25,630 --> 00:21:29,175 Red twelve. Hut! 240 00:21:48,569 --> 00:21:50,530 Maddy, don't! 241 00:21:56,410 --> 00:21:59,372 - Maddy, don't do it! - Fuck this! 242 00:22:06,837 --> 00:22:08,422 Can you dance? 243 00:22:13,010 --> 00:22:15,471 - Can you dance? - Fuck yeah. 244 00:22:35,700 --> 00:22:38,492 I guarantee you Maddy and Nate are gonna get married. 245 00:22:38,494 --> 00:22:44,081 Probably divorce three times and in some strange way live a pretty happy life. 246 00:22:44,083 --> 00:22:46,667 - Yeah. - Yeah. 247 00:22:46,669 --> 00:22:48,421 Yeah. 248 00:23:15,156 --> 00:23:16,991 Jules? 249 00:23:22,413 --> 00:23:24,165 Jules? 250 00:23:25,499 --> 00:23:27,750 - What're you doing? - Nothing. 251 00:23:27,752 --> 00:23:30,171 - What are you doing? - Nothing. 252 00:23:32,715 --> 00:23:34,340 I like the way I dressed you, 253 00:23:34,342 --> 00:23:37,803 but I'm worried I fucked with your gender expression. 254 00:23:39,055 --> 00:23:41,013 Thank you. 255 00:23:41,015 --> 00:23:44,060 I feel a little stupid. So... 256 00:23:48,856 --> 00:23:52,318 - Can I ask you a question? - Yeah. 257 00:23:53,903 --> 00:23:55,738 Why don't you kiss me? 258 00:23:57,990 --> 00:23:59,492 I kiss you. 259 00:24:00,743 --> 00:24:04,455 No, why don't you like, kiss-kiss me? 260 00:24:06,916 --> 00:24:10,962 I mean did you want me to like, kiss-kiss you? 261 00:24:14,674 --> 00:24:20,721 I want you to wanna kiss me so bad that you don't even ask. 262 00:24:29,397 --> 00:24:31,983 Okay. Fuck it. Let's dance. 263 00:25:14,191 --> 00:25:15,818 What? 264 00:25:20,448 --> 00:25:24,200 I feel like love is super dark and like no one ever talks about it. 265 00:25:24,202 --> 00:25:28,120 Yeah, but that might be specific to their kind of love. 266 00:25:28,122 --> 00:25:30,416 Or my kind of love. 267 00:25:50,686 --> 00:25:52,394 I'm gonna do everything in my power 268 00:25:52,396 --> 00:25:55,397 for at least the next three years to not fall in love. 269 00:25:55,399 --> 00:25:59,862 - What if you do? - Intervene and fucking destroy it. 270 00:26:18,839 --> 00:26:21,507 - Hey! - Hey. 271 00:26:21,509 --> 00:26:25,763 - Can I talk to you for a second? - Yeah. 272 00:26:54,250 --> 00:26:56,127 What's up? 273 00:26:57,753 --> 00:27:02,715 I don't really know what else to say other than I'm so sorry. 274 00:27:02,717 --> 00:27:06,760 But that night at the carnival when you were flirting with that girl, 275 00:27:06,762 --> 00:27:09,932 I had this reaction, and I just like hated you. 276 00:27:11,434 --> 00:27:14,687 Whether that's fair or not I don't know. 277 00:27:16,856 --> 00:27:23,277 I guess I wanted to hurt you as much as I'd imagined you'd hurt me. 278 00:27:23,279 --> 00:27:25,946 I know that sounds juvenile. But it's true. 279 00:27:25,948 --> 00:27:28,324 And I wouldn't even be saying this to you. 280 00:27:28,326 --> 00:27:31,118 Because you're actually not like this. You're actually really kind. 281 00:27:31,120 --> 00:27:33,746 And you're actually really nice and I just... 282 00:27:33,748 --> 00:27:37,958 I'm so shitty and I wish I could go back. 283 00:27:37,960 --> 00:27:41,462 Kat, I liked you since I sat down next to you. 284 00:27:41,464 --> 00:27:45,927 You think there's like zero chance that we're gonna be together forever. 285 00:27:47,136 --> 00:27:51,599 I don't know, I guess were both juniors so you're probably right about that. 286 00:27:53,142 --> 00:27:55,937 I mean like is one of us gonna get hurt? 287 00:27:57,605 --> 00:28:00,191 Yeah, probably. 288 00:28:01,984 --> 00:28:05,530 But I'll do my best to make sure that it's me. 289 00:28:09,450 --> 00:28:13,287 - I'm crying. Sorry. - It's okay. 290 00:28:29,262 --> 00:28:31,722 - Sorry, was that awkward? - No. 291 00:28:40,231 --> 00:28:44,110 - Wanna get the fuck out of here? - Yeah. 292 00:28:46,362 --> 00:28:48,362 What did you say? 293 00:28:48,364 --> 00:28:51,574 I started to say one thing and then I said something else. 294 00:28:51,576 --> 00:28:54,036 But she knows what I meant. 295 00:29:37,038 --> 00:29:39,457 - I'll be right back. - Alright. 296 00:29:54,931 --> 00:29:58,559 - Can I ask you something? - Yeah. 297 00:29:59,685 --> 00:30:02,980 How do you decide who you wanna hook up with? 298 00:30:04,982 --> 00:30:09,443 - They usually just come to you. - Yeah, but what if they don't? 299 00:30:09,445 --> 00:30:12,532 Then go and do whoever the fuck you want. 300 00:30:13,741 --> 00:30:17,453 Yeah. Okay. 301 00:30:21,332 --> 00:30:23,209 I'm gonna do that. 302 00:30:25,670 --> 00:30:29,840 - I love you, Lex. - I love you, too. 303 00:30:48,401 --> 00:30:49,986 Cassie? 304 00:30:52,780 --> 00:30:55,408 - I'm okay. - You sure? 305 00:30:56,534 --> 00:30:59,287 - Yeah. - Okay. 306 00:31:15,469 --> 00:31:22,641 - Any history of depression? - I guess, the normal amount. 307 00:31:22,643 --> 00:31:26,228 - But not diagnosed? - No. 308 00:31:26,230 --> 00:31:28,649 Family history with depression? 309 00:31:29,942 --> 00:31:32,276 Yeah. My mom. 310 00:31:32,278 --> 00:31:36,780 - Any history with drugs or alcohol? - No. Not really. 311 00:31:36,782 --> 00:31:41,245 Any family history with addiction, alcohol, other substances? 312 00:31:44,081 --> 00:31:47,960 Yeah. My mom with wine. 313 00:31:50,129 --> 00:31:54,467 And then my dad with painkillers and then heroin and stuff. 314 00:32:06,646 --> 00:32:09,398 How do you feel about being here today? 315 00:32:13,277 --> 00:32:14,820 Nervous, I guess. 316 00:32:16,072 --> 00:32:20,618 Do you have any reservations about the procedure? Any second thoughts? 317 00:32:25,915 --> 00:32:27,458 No. 318 00:32:28,709 --> 00:32:30,169 Come with me. 319 00:32:35,925 --> 00:32:38,759 Welcome back! Fourth quarter. Time running down. 320 00:32:38,761 --> 00:32:41,554 Hawks trailing 23 to 27... 321 00:32:41,556 --> 00:32:44,890 Here we go it's first and ten on the twenty. 322 00:32:44,892 --> 00:32:48,686 A minute and a half left to go in what is a very close game. 323 00:32:48,688 --> 00:32:51,814 Green 13. Hut! 324 00:32:51,816 --> 00:32:56,610 Here we go. Jacob steps back. He's looking. He sees... 325 00:32:56,612 --> 00:32:59,031 He's got a guy! He throws it up. 326 00:33:01,784 --> 00:33:05,995 A perfect ball by Jacobs goes right through the hands of the receiver. 327 00:33:05,997 --> 00:33:08,749 Jacobs threw up a perfect ball. 328 00:33:12,753 --> 00:33:16,171 My gosh. Again right through the receiver's hands. 329 00:33:16,173 --> 00:33:18,382 Let's fucking go! 330 00:33:18,384 --> 00:33:22,054 The wide receivers have got to give their QB some help tonight. 331 00:33:39,280 --> 00:33:42,323 Why do I feel like you're the reason Fez's house got raided? 332 00:33:42,325 --> 00:33:49,580 Sometimes when you do illegal shit, bad things happen to you. 333 00:33:49,582 --> 00:33:52,291 You ever done anything illegal? 334 00:33:52,293 --> 00:33:56,505 - You talking about your friend Jules? - Actually I'm talking about your Dad. 335 00:34:01,093 --> 00:34:04,053 I just wanna make sure you've given it some forethought. 336 00:34:04,055 --> 00:34:06,805 I know over the years you've lost some brain cells. 337 00:34:06,807 --> 00:34:09,308 I wouldn't want you to say something you might regret. 338 00:34:09,310 --> 00:34:14,563 You gonna ruin my life? I can do that a lot better than you can. 339 00:34:14,565 --> 00:34:17,691 - What do you want, Rue? - I want you to leave Fez alone. 340 00:34:17,693 --> 00:34:22,615 And Jules. If you ever fuck with them again, I'll destroy your life. 341 00:34:23,741 --> 00:34:26,742 I'll destroy your dad's life. I'll burn your whole shit to the ground. 342 00:34:26,744 --> 00:34:29,995 Because I personally have no problem walking into any police station 343 00:34:29,997 --> 00:34:35,503 and telling them that Nate Jacob's daddy likes to fuck little kids. 344 00:34:39,131 --> 00:34:41,715 You look very pretty tonight. 345 00:34:41,717 --> 00:34:46,053 Are you sure that Jules told you everything? 346 00:34:46,055 --> 00:34:49,890 You know what I like about her? She has these very real dreams. 347 00:34:49,892 --> 00:34:53,938 And I seriously think that she's gonna achieve them. 348 00:34:56,065 --> 00:35:00,192 If you look at everyone inside, most of them are gonna go on 349 00:35:00,194 --> 00:35:04,323 and live these lives that aren't even fucking worth mentioning. 350 00:35:05,408 --> 00:35:07,825 Not Jules. 351 00:35:07,827 --> 00:35:09,952 What about you? 352 00:35:09,954 --> 00:35:15,418 - Honestly, I don't really give a fuck. - I gathered that. 353 00:35:16,586 --> 00:35:19,503 It's why you're spending all your time with someone who's gonna leave you 354 00:35:19,505 --> 00:35:23,384 and won't even remember who the fuck you are in ten years. 355 00:35:26,888 --> 00:35:31,350 I really meant what I said. You look really beautiful. 356 00:35:37,690 --> 00:35:40,484 Alright, here we go. Ten seconds left on the clock. 357 00:35:42,278 --> 00:35:44,361 Can Nate Jacobs do it? 358 00:35:44,363 --> 00:35:48,490 It could be the final play of the game, could be the final play of his career. 359 00:35:48,492 --> 00:35:50,328 Set! 360 00:35:51,412 --> 00:35:56,373 Blue 36. Hut! 361 00:35:56,375 --> 00:36:00,127 And there's the snap. Nate Jacobs. He steps back. He's looking. 362 00:36:00,129 --> 00:36:03,839 He's off! He's running. He's taking the game into his hands. 363 00:36:03,841 --> 00:36:06,967 There he goes. He breaks a tackle. He's at the thirty. 364 00:36:06,969 --> 00:36:10,471 He's at the 20. He's gonna do it! He's at the ten. He's at the five! 365 00:36:10,473 --> 00:36:11,891 He's in! 366 00:36:18,231 --> 00:36:22,443 Let's go! Let's fucking go! Let's go! Get the fuck up! 367 00:36:24,111 --> 00:36:27,112 And the East Highland crowd going bananas. 368 00:36:27,114 --> 00:36:30,910 He has warmed this place up. This kid can get it done! 369 00:36:41,045 --> 00:36:45,130 You may have won the game. But you lost control of the team. 370 00:36:45,132 --> 00:36:48,469 And in the long run if you don't lead, you're gonna lose. 371 00:37:09,156 --> 00:37:14,120 You need to take a step back, Nate. I said take a step back. 372 00:37:17,707 --> 00:37:20,374 Get the fuck off me! 373 00:37:20,376 --> 00:37:23,377 Get your fucking hands off me you fucking faggot! Get the fuck off! 374 00:37:23,379 --> 00:37:25,421 - Stop fighting! - Get the fuck off! 375 00:37:25,423 --> 00:37:30,092 - Stop fighting! - Fuck you! Fuck you! 376 00:37:30,094 --> 00:37:33,014 - You had enough? - Get the fuck off me! 377 00:37:35,099 --> 00:37:38,561 - Keep it up! - Get off! 378 00:37:40,980 --> 00:37:45,443 Do you wanna keep fighting? You think you're tough now? 379 00:37:46,694 --> 00:37:48,529 Come on Nate! 380 00:39:50,067 --> 00:39:54,947 - What? - I fucking hate this town. 381 00:39:56,407 --> 00:39:59,450 If I could I'd burn it to fucking the ground. 382 00:39:59,452 --> 00:40:01,829 And salt the earth behind you. 383 00:40:08,252 --> 00:40:10,504 Jules, are you in love with Anna? 384 00:40:15,843 --> 00:40:18,262 Yeah. 385 00:40:23,226 --> 00:40:24,977 Are you... 386 00:40:26,771 --> 00:40:28,981 Are you in love with me? 387 00:40:32,860 --> 00:40:35,196 Yeah. 388 00:40:36,656 --> 00:40:39,158 Do you wish I was different? 389 00:40:44,705 --> 00:40:47,375 This will help with the discomfort. 390 00:40:53,089 --> 00:40:56,175 Some patients like to listen to music. 391 00:41:06,435 --> 00:41:09,230 And just a little pinch. 392 00:42:10,917 --> 00:42:13,211 CERTIFICATE OF RECOGNITION DR. PHILLIP REDMOND, MD 393 00:42:39,904 --> 00:42:46,075 What if we just fucking left? We just fucking left this dance. 394 00:42:46,077 --> 00:42:49,705 We went home, grab a bunch of our shit and just went to the city? 395 00:42:50,873 --> 00:42:52,750 That's fucking crazy. 396 00:43:21,904 --> 00:43:27,199 I ain't here to hurt you. If you fuck around, I swear to God I'll kill you. 397 00:43:27,201 --> 00:43:30,913 - Where's the money at? - It's in the table. 398 00:43:42,133 --> 00:43:44,343 We're almost done. 399 00:44:10,953 --> 00:44:12,663 Move slow! 400 00:44:31,891 --> 00:44:38,105 Jesus fucking Christ! You're a fucking doctor? 401 00:44:44,946 --> 00:44:47,281 Hurry the fuck up, man! 402 00:45:12,932 --> 00:45:16,267 What the fuck you doing? Drop the fucking gun. 403 00:45:16,269 --> 00:45:21,148 Bitch ass motherfucker! Motherfucker! You're fucking dead! 404 00:45:38,791 --> 00:45:43,210 Stop! Let go of my fucking gun! Bitch ass motherfucker! 405 00:45:43,212 --> 00:45:46,716 I told you to fucking be calm! Bitch! Why would you do that? 406 00:45:48,926 --> 00:45:52,471 Let's get the fuck out of here. Come on! 407 00:45:58,561 --> 00:46:00,185 But we didn't bike here. 408 00:46:00,187 --> 00:46:03,357 - Let's go! - My god! 409 00:46:15,953 --> 00:46:17,663 Hold on! 410 00:46:20,708 --> 00:46:22,710 What the fuck did you do that for? 411 00:46:23,836 --> 00:46:25,920 Fuck! 412 00:46:25,922 --> 00:46:30,509 Fuck! Shit! God damn! 413 00:47:50,756 --> 00:47:53,215 Jules... 414 00:47:53,217 --> 00:47:55,303 Is this a bad idea? 415 00:48:00,349 --> 00:48:02,143 No. 416 00:48:12,278 --> 00:48:13,696 What the fuck? 417 00:48:15,364 --> 00:48:17,783 How do you feel? 418 00:48:21,954 --> 00:48:24,415 Better. 419 00:48:54,654 --> 00:48:57,613 - Maddy get up. - No. Why? 420 00:48:57,615 --> 00:49:00,449 Could you stop being such a cunt and just come dance with me please. 421 00:49:00,451 --> 00:49:04,078 - You don't even know how to dance. - It's a slow song. Let's go. Get up. 422 00:49:04,080 --> 00:49:06,791 Firstly, your despicable, but fine. 423 00:49:17,635 --> 00:49:20,930 - I really fucking hate you. - I know. 424 00:49:22,265 --> 00:49:25,933 You're abusive. You're psychopathic. 425 00:49:25,935 --> 00:49:30,062 And most of the time I really hate the way you make me feel. 426 00:49:30,064 --> 00:49:34,569 - I know. - It's not good for us. 427 00:49:37,738 --> 00:49:40,281 I know. 428 00:49:40,283 --> 00:49:43,202 No, but like, we shouldn't be together. 429 00:49:49,959 --> 00:49:51,836 I know. 430 00:50:08,185 --> 00:50:09,604 Hi! 431 00:50:11,314 --> 00:50:13,065 Hi. 432 00:50:15,651 --> 00:50:21,530 I thought this was gonna be a night I'd remember forever. 433 00:50:21,532 --> 00:50:27,411 I think you will remember it forever. Like, not in a bad way. 434 00:50:27,413 --> 00:50:31,834 Just in a way that stays with you. 435 00:50:36,172 --> 00:50:37,840 Yeah. 436 00:50:46,474 --> 00:50:48,724 You're late. 437 00:50:48,726 --> 00:50:51,687 I got caught up dealing with some bullshit. 438 00:50:53,648 --> 00:50:56,526 I heard you got raided. 439 00:50:59,862 --> 00:51:04,408 But they didn't find nothing though. They ain't got shit on me. 440 00:51:06,827 --> 00:51:08,746 Let's hope not. 441 00:51:34,021 --> 00:51:36,232 So, we all good? 442 00:51:48,494 --> 00:51:51,829 Here you go. Deck seven, departing in two minutes. 443 00:51:51,831 --> 00:51:53,875 Thank you. 444 00:52:07,555 --> 00:52:11,265 Jules, I just realized that I didn't bring my medication. 445 00:52:11,267 --> 00:52:13,809 We can get medication like everywhere. 446 00:52:13,811 --> 00:52:18,147 Yeah, but I don't think it's... I can like miss a day. 447 00:52:18,149 --> 00:52:21,944 Rue, we'll figure it out. I promise. 448 00:52:31,245 --> 00:52:34,079 Jules, I don't think this is a good idea. 449 00:52:34,081 --> 00:52:36,624 - Rue, it was your idea. - I know it was my idea. 450 00:52:36,626 --> 00:52:39,501 But I don't think it's a good idea anymore. 451 00:52:39,503 --> 00:52:41,670 It was a fucking great idea. 452 00:52:41,672 --> 00:52:44,340 Can you just slow 'cause I'm thinking, you know my mom, 453 00:52:44,342 --> 00:52:46,717 I don't want her to fucking freak out. 454 00:52:46,719 --> 00:52:51,597 Rue, it's not that far and we're good. We can call. 455 00:52:51,599 --> 00:52:56,270 What am I gonna tell Gia though? She's gonna think I'm missing. 456 00:52:58,147 --> 00:53:01,609 We're good. Come on! It's gonna be amazing. 457 00:53:04,111 --> 00:53:05,947 Rue! 458 00:53:18,167 --> 00:53:20,044 Come on! 459 00:53:25,591 --> 00:53:29,637 Please! I love you! 460 00:53:46,320 --> 00:53:51,991 And there will be moments of relief. In her and in you. 461 00:53:51,993 --> 00:53:56,078 Moments that feel so normal and calm and rewarding 462 00:53:56,080 --> 00:53:59,709 that you'll find yourself praying they last forever. 463 00:54:01,210 --> 00:54:04,712 Even though she's only a child. 464 00:54:04,714 --> 00:54:08,050 And all the hard parts have yet to even come. 465 00:54:09,635 --> 00:54:15,097 And at the age of sixteen, she'll overdose, 466 00:54:15,099 --> 00:54:19,645 spend four days in a coma and you won't know if she'll live or die. 467 00:54:20,980 --> 00:54:25,985 But when she wakes up, she'll be given the opportunity to get clean... 468 00:54:27,236 --> 00:54:31,282 ...to become a different person. A better person. 469 00:54:32,909 --> 00:54:35,242 Here's the toughest part. 470 00:54:35,244 --> 00:54:41,624 No matter what you say or do or wish the decision will be all hers 471 00:54:41,626 --> 00:54:47,089 and all you can do is hope she gives herself the chance that she deserves. 472 00:57:04,143 --> 00:57:06,185 Did you take my money out of the wallet? 473 00:57:06,187 --> 00:57:08,520 No, ma'am. 474 00:57:08,522 --> 00:57:10,606 - Rue? - What? 475 00:57:10,608 --> 00:57:13,943 - I asked you a simple question. - You make everything worse. 476 00:57:13,945 --> 00:57:16,489 It's fucking forty dollars. 477 00:57:18,866 --> 00:57:21,827 - What the fuck do you want? - Get out of my face! 478 00:58:17,967 --> 00:58:21,802 - Mom, you're such a fucking bitch? - I'm a bitch? 479 00:58:21,804 --> 00:58:24,263 Yeah, you're a fucking bitch because you just fucking sat... 480 00:58:24,265 --> 00:58:26,015 Please stop. Stop! 481 00:58:26,017 --> 00:58:30,477 There's something wrong with her. She's trying to get better. 482 00:58:30,479 --> 00:58:33,981 She's fucking mental. And I'm tired of you using it as an excuse. 483 00:58:33,983 --> 00:58:37,486 - Do you think this helps? - It doesn't matter. I'm done. 484 00:59:07,600 --> 00:59:12,313 Leave! I don't care! Go! 485 00:59:16,442 --> 00:59:19,779 Fucking psychotic bitch. You fucking make me wanna go. 486 00:59:21,030 --> 00:59:22,865 Fucking crazy! 487 00:59:25,243 --> 00:59:31,121 - Are you proud? - Go after your sister. 488 00:59:31,123 --> 00:59:35,461 - You wanna be like her. Okay? - I don't wanna be like you. 489 01:03:56,390 --> 01:04:01,390 Subtitles by explosiveskull www.OpenSubtitles.org