1 00:00:10,569 --> 00:00:12,819 RUE BENNETT: I've never met anyone in my entire life like Jules. 2 00:00:12,902 --> 00:00:15,068 WOMAN: Rue is in love with Jules, I think. 3 00:00:16,360 --> 00:00:18,569 -ETHAN LEWIS: Hey, I'm Ethan. -I'm Kat. 4 00:00:24,402 --> 00:00:25,569 You look different. 5 00:00:27,152 --> 00:00:28,235 I changed. 6 00:00:29,777 --> 00:00:30,777 'Sup, Cass. 7 00:00:30,861 --> 00:00:32,110 You wanna ride the carousel? 8 00:00:33,360 --> 00:00:35,068 That's the guy from the motel. 9 00:00:36,110 --> 00:00:38,402 -CAL JACOBS: You're beautiful. -Thank you. 10 00:00:38,736 --> 00:00:41,110 -That's Nate's dad?! -Yes. That's Nate's dad. 11 00:00:42,110 --> 00:00:43,527 Hey. Tyler? 12 00:00:44,110 --> 00:00:46,027 NATE JACOBS: God, are you broken inside. 13 00:00:46,902 --> 00:00:49,694 I went through Nate's phone, and it was weird. 14 00:00:50,360 --> 00:00:53,068 I need you to promise me that you're not gonna tell a soul. 15 00:00:55,193 --> 00:00:57,569 I'm sorry I got so angry at you before. 16 00:01:03,943 --> 00:01:06,943 Rue: Maddy knew who she was from a very early age. 17 00:01:07,027 --> 00:01:09,985 ♪ ♪ 18 00:01:15,152 --> 00:01:18,611 Rue: For as long as Maddy could remember, everybody loved her. 19 00:01:18,694 --> 00:01:22,152 ♪ You must be my lucky star ♪ 20 00:01:22,235 --> 00:01:26,402 ♪ 'Cause you shine on me wherever you are ♪ 21 00:01:26,485 --> 00:01:28,902 Rue: She never knew exactly what it was. 22 00:01:28,985 --> 00:01:31,694 She just knew that she had something special, 23 00:01:31,777 --> 00:01:33,235 something intangible, 24 00:01:33,319 --> 00:01:35,319 something immeasurable. 25 00:01:35,402 --> 00:01:39,235 ♪ Star light, star bright, first star I see tonight ♪ 26 00:01:39,319 --> 00:01:41,402 ♪ Star light, star bright ♪ 27 00:01:41,485 --> 00:01:43,611 Rue: And it gave her confidence. 28 00:01:43,694 --> 00:01:46,152 ♪ Star light, star bright ♪ 29 00:01:46,235 --> 00:01:48,736 (crowd applauding) 30 00:01:48,819 --> 00:01:50,402 Rue: That's why she loved pageantry, 31 00:01:50,485 --> 00:01:53,527 because you didn't have to be the prettiest or the tallest 32 00:01:53,611 --> 00:01:56,277 or the blondest or the whitest. 33 00:01:56,360 --> 00:02:00,193 You just had to have fucking confidence. 34 00:02:00,277 --> 00:02:03,777 And she probably would have gone on to win Miss Universe, 35 00:02:03,861 --> 00:02:05,527 -if it weren't for... -(camera shutter clicks) 36 00:02:05,611 --> 00:02:07,943 - ...this guy. -Newsman (on TV): A beauty pageant coach, 37 00:02:08,027 --> 00:02:09,694 Marcus Cutler was arrested today 38 00:02:09,777 --> 00:02:11,402 on 18 counts of child molestation. 39 00:02:11,485 --> 00:02:14,943 That's it. You're done. No more pageants. This is sick. 40 00:02:15,027 --> 00:02:17,068 Rue: Her dreams were dashed by some random, 41 00:02:17,152 --> 00:02:19,193 50-year-old creep who didn't molest her, 42 00:02:19,277 --> 00:02:21,277 let alone even meet her. 43 00:02:21,360 --> 00:02:24,235 She refused to eat for a week out of protest. 44 00:02:25,527 --> 00:02:27,152 Jenni (on TV): Drama! 45 00:02:27,235 --> 00:02:31,569 Rue: But then she realized how much she liked not doing anything. 46 00:02:31,652 --> 00:02:33,569 Maddy would never say it out loud, 47 00:02:33,652 --> 00:02:36,277 especially not today, because everybody's so political, 48 00:02:36,360 --> 00:02:42,485 but she never really had any desire to have a career... or job. 49 00:02:42,569 --> 00:02:45,485 She was just interested in doing what she did, 50 00:02:45,569 --> 00:02:47,861 just, without school and the other bullshit. 51 00:02:47,943 --> 00:02:49,485 (sighs) 52 00:02:49,569 --> 00:02:51,360 Her mother was an esthetician. 53 00:02:51,444 --> 00:02:55,152 Which is a fancy way of saying she gave pedicures to rich people. 54 00:02:55,235 --> 00:02:56,777 And her dad was a drunk, 55 00:02:56,861 --> 00:02:59,777 who was always pretending to hold jobs longer than he did. 56 00:02:59,861 --> 00:03:03,152 She quickly realized that there are two kinds of people in the world: 57 00:03:03,235 --> 00:03:06,861 people who sit in the chairs with their feet in the footbath, 58 00:03:06,943 --> 00:03:11,235 and the people who kneel in front of the footbath. 59 00:03:12,861 --> 00:03:16,152 She used to sit and study the women who came in. 60 00:03:16,235 --> 00:03:18,360 She'd pay attention to what they wore, 61 00:03:18,444 --> 00:03:20,068 what they'd talk about, 62 00:03:20,152 --> 00:03:23,611 and what she realized was that none of them actually did anything. 63 00:03:23,694 --> 00:03:26,527 I mean, they may have, like, children to raise 64 00:03:26,611 --> 00:03:29,360 or homes to decorate, but at the end of the day, 65 00:03:29,444 --> 00:03:31,611 they literally did nothing. 66 00:03:31,694 --> 00:03:34,694 They literally did... 67 00:03:34,777 --> 00:03:36,110 nothing. 68 00:03:36,193 --> 00:03:40,068 And strangely, none of them had confidence. 69 00:03:41,152 --> 00:03:43,277 She had had a thing for Nate for a while, 70 00:03:43,360 --> 00:03:45,569 before he finally asked her out. 71 00:03:45,652 --> 00:03:47,360 And at first, he was a gentleman, 72 00:03:47,444 --> 00:03:49,777 like, flowers every day kind of gentleman. 73 00:03:49,861 --> 00:03:52,527 -And he was smarter than most guys. -Nate: Maddy. 74 00:03:52,611 --> 00:03:55,402 - Plus, Nate, like, really loved her. -You're so sweet. 75 00:03:55,485 --> 00:03:57,235 I love you. 76 00:03:57,319 --> 00:03:59,444 I love you, too. 77 00:03:59,527 --> 00:04:00,943 Rue: And she did love Nate. 78 00:04:01,027 --> 00:04:02,902 She loved her relationship with Nate. 79 00:04:02,985 --> 00:04:05,569 She was also a really good girlfriend. 80 00:04:05,652 --> 00:04:07,902 Granted, she didn't always tell the truth. 81 00:04:07,985 --> 00:04:09,277 You're a virgin? 82 00:04:09,360 --> 00:04:12,110 Rue: Because the truth-truth is that when she was 14, 83 00:04:12,193 --> 00:04:14,569 on vacation in Panama City Beach, 84 00:04:14,652 --> 00:04:16,902 she met a guy who was, like, 40. 85 00:04:16,985 --> 00:04:19,027 Hey. You from around here? 86 00:04:19,110 --> 00:04:21,902 Rue: Which in retrospect seems kind of rape-y and weird, 87 00:04:21,985 --> 00:04:24,193 but honestly, she was the one in control. 88 00:04:24,277 --> 00:04:27,319 -Yeah. -Rue: She could tell by looking in Nate's eyes 89 00:04:27,402 --> 00:04:29,485 -how much it meant to him. -Like fully? 90 00:04:29,569 --> 00:04:30,736 Maddy: Yeah. 91 00:04:30,819 --> 00:04:32,777 Rue: That she was a hundred percent his. 92 00:04:32,861 --> 00:04:36,193 Nate: What about, like, have you ever been fingered? 93 00:04:38,068 --> 00:04:39,652 Only my own. 94 00:04:39,736 --> 00:04:42,611 Rue: Plus, it's not like anyone can feel the fucking difference. 95 00:04:42,694 --> 00:04:44,277 (grunting) 96 00:04:44,360 --> 00:04:47,861 Rue: But that's the thing with guys like Nate. 97 00:04:47,943 --> 00:04:50,527 (breathing heavily) 98 00:04:50,611 --> 00:04:52,777 Rue: They don't actually want a person. 99 00:04:52,861 --> 00:04:55,444 They want something they can own 100 00:04:55,527 --> 00:04:57,193 and possess. 101 00:04:58,027 --> 00:05:00,902 Like Sharon Stone in Casino. 102 00:05:00,985 --> 00:05:03,736 But the cool thing about Sharon Stone in Casino 103 00:05:03,819 --> 00:05:06,027 is that she ran the fuck over De Niro. 104 00:05:06,110 --> 00:05:07,861 I would fucking kill for that coat. 105 00:05:07,943 --> 00:05:09,611 Rue: And she did the same to Nate. 106 00:05:09,694 --> 00:05:11,360 How much do you think it costs? 107 00:05:11,444 --> 00:05:13,861 Rue: Seriously, Sharon Stone in Casino was, like, 108 00:05:13,943 --> 00:05:15,902 Maddy's spirit animal. 109 00:05:15,985 --> 00:05:18,110 She also watched a lot of porn. 110 00:05:18,193 --> 00:05:21,736 Not because it turned her on or anything, it didn't. 111 00:05:21,819 --> 00:05:23,777 But if you analyzed it really closely, 112 00:05:23,861 --> 00:05:26,152 there were a ton of really good secrets. 113 00:05:26,235 --> 00:05:29,402 (moaning, groaning) 114 00:05:29,485 --> 00:05:31,319 (panting) 115 00:05:31,402 --> 00:05:32,777 Rue: Sometimes, during sex, 116 00:05:32,861 --> 00:05:34,819 she would imagine she was a ventriloquist 117 00:05:34,902 --> 00:05:36,444 controlling her body-- 118 00:05:36,527 --> 00:05:40,068 moving her hips and arching her back in just the right way. 119 00:05:40,152 --> 00:05:43,485 She wanted Nate to feel good about the way he fucked. 120 00:05:43,569 --> 00:05:47,611 Because if you make a guy feel confident and powerful, 121 00:05:47,694 --> 00:05:49,694 well, they'll do anything. 122 00:05:49,777 --> 00:05:51,902 -That one. -I got you a present. 123 00:05:51,985 --> 00:05:52,985 Really? 124 00:05:53,068 --> 00:05:54,902 After dinner. It's in the car. 125 00:05:54,985 --> 00:05:57,235 (water sloshing) 126 00:05:57,319 --> 00:05:59,611 ♪ ♪ 127 00:05:59,694 --> 00:06:01,652 (breathing heavily) 128 00:06:01,736 --> 00:06:04,152 Oh, my God, it's perfect! 129 00:06:04,235 --> 00:06:06,569 -I fucking love you. -I fucking love you, too. 130 00:06:10,152 --> 00:06:14,193 Rue: She did worry about the whole monogamy thing, though. 131 00:06:14,277 --> 00:06:17,152 It's not like she ever cheated-cheated. 132 00:06:17,235 --> 00:06:20,819 But every now and then, she'd find herself in, like, a gray area. 133 00:06:20,902 --> 00:06:22,611 I'll do anything to fuck you. 134 00:06:22,694 --> 00:06:24,943 You're so sweet... but no. 135 00:06:25,027 --> 00:06:27,736 Rue: Except for that DJ who said he opened for Calvin Harris. 136 00:06:27,819 --> 00:06:30,569 And the stockbroker guy with the family who lived on Oak Street. 137 00:06:30,652 --> 00:06:33,277 -And hot dude who ran the roller rink. -(panting) 138 00:06:33,360 --> 00:06:37,444 -(whirring) -(Maddy panting) 139 00:06:37,527 --> 00:06:39,943 Rue: But honestly, those were all times 140 00:06:40,027 --> 00:06:41,652 when Nate and her were on a break. 141 00:06:41,736 --> 00:06:45,235 Plus, Nate could be a real asshole. 142 00:06:45,319 --> 00:06:49,152 And sometimes, Maddy fantasized about punching Nate. 143 00:06:49,235 --> 00:06:51,444 But because of who he was as a person, 144 00:06:51,527 --> 00:06:53,402 she was afraid he'd hit her back. 145 00:06:53,485 --> 00:06:56,402 Especially because he was coming to terms with his sexuality. 146 00:06:56,485 --> 00:06:57,902 You're fucking dead to me. 147 00:06:57,985 --> 00:07:01,193 Rue: It's, like, the root of a lot of violence. 148 00:07:02,611 --> 00:07:04,068 And when she got home that night, 149 00:07:04,152 --> 00:07:06,360 she felt sick to her stomach... 150 00:07:07,527 --> 00:07:09,861 like enough to throw up. 151 00:07:12,235 --> 00:07:15,068 It wasn't the violence that scared her. 152 00:07:15,152 --> 00:07:18,569 It was the fact that she knew no matter what he did, 153 00:07:18,652 --> 00:07:21,152 she'd still love him. 154 00:07:21,235 --> 00:07:24,652 ♪ ♪ 155 00:07:38,569 --> 00:07:41,736 Rue: Nothing in the world comes close to opiates. 156 00:07:41,819 --> 00:07:44,777 A good ES 7.5 Vicodin? Fuck. 157 00:07:44,861 --> 00:07:48,902 But honestly, the best thing I've ever had 158 00:07:48,985 --> 00:07:50,694 is fentanyl. 159 00:07:50,777 --> 00:07:55,068 And there is not a thing on the planet Earth that compares to fentanyl. 160 00:07:55,902 --> 00:07:57,736 Except Jules. 161 00:07:58,569 --> 00:08:00,319 Jules is a close second. 162 00:08:00,402 --> 00:08:03,360 Jules, Jules, Jules. 163 00:08:03,444 --> 00:08:06,402 And then you know what would be better? Jules and fentanyl. 164 00:08:06,485 --> 00:08:09,152 But I can't do both, 'cause Jules won't have me. 165 00:08:09,235 --> 00:08:12,068 So for now, I'll choose Jules. 166 00:08:12,152 --> 00:08:14,235 ♪ ♪ 167 00:08:14,902 --> 00:08:16,652 -(knocking) -(door opens) 168 00:08:16,736 --> 00:08:20,527 -Rue, dinner's ready. -Okay. 169 00:08:20,902 --> 00:08:23,319 -Are you coming? -Yeah. No. 170 00:08:23,402 --> 00:08:26,027 Yeah. For-- aah-- For dinner. 171 00:08:26,110 --> 00:08:29,068 -Just, uh, give me a second. -Okay. 172 00:08:30,736 --> 00:08:32,277 (door closes) 173 00:08:32,360 --> 00:08:33,611 (sighs) 174 00:08:33,694 --> 00:08:36,068 You two have a good time at the carnival? 175 00:08:37,569 --> 00:08:40,485 -Yeah, it was cool. -It was all right. 176 00:08:40,569 --> 00:08:43,777 -Rue said you got sick on the Gravitron. -I don't want to talk about it. 177 00:08:43,861 --> 00:08:45,902 (laughs) 178 00:08:48,360 --> 00:08:50,444 So... 179 00:08:50,527 --> 00:08:52,943 Jules slept over last night? 180 00:08:55,569 --> 00:08:57,110 Yeah. So? 181 00:08:59,777 --> 00:09:02,235 Leslie: Are you two in a relationship? 182 00:09:02,319 --> 00:09:05,235 I mean, yeah, kinda. 183 00:09:06,736 --> 00:09:09,902 It may not matter what I think, but... 184 00:09:09,985 --> 00:09:12,235 I really like her. 185 00:09:14,027 --> 00:09:15,943 Yeah, me, too. 186 00:09:22,819 --> 00:09:25,193 Baby, just take your time. 187 00:09:25,277 --> 00:09:27,277 You've come a long way. 188 00:09:29,027 --> 00:09:30,819 You're delicate. 189 00:09:30,902 --> 00:09:35,110 -I'm not delicate. -Yes, you are. 190 00:09:37,402 --> 00:09:39,777 It's fine, Mom. We, um... 191 00:09:40,985 --> 00:09:44,319 We had a really long conversation about everything, and... 192 00:09:44,402 --> 00:09:47,152 we're just gonna take things really, really slow. 193 00:09:49,110 --> 00:09:51,068 ♪ Okay, I'm Rambo, I ramshack ♪ 194 00:09:51,152 --> 00:09:52,736 ♪ I'm next to that cheese like rattraps ♪ 195 00:09:52,819 --> 00:09:54,444 ♪ On top of that green like grass ass ♪ 196 00:09:54,527 --> 00:09:55,777 ♪ That's over y'all head... ♪ 197 00:09:55,861 --> 00:09:57,694 (groans) 198 00:09:59,152 --> 00:10:01,235 Yo. Looks good. 199 00:10:01,319 --> 00:10:02,777 You ready? 200 00:10:03,943 --> 00:10:05,569 Um... 201 00:10:05,652 --> 00:10:07,444 How bad does it hurt? 202 00:10:07,527 --> 00:10:09,902 (mumbling): It didn't hurt, like, at all. 203 00:10:09,985 --> 00:10:12,277 It's all good. I've been doing this for years. 204 00:10:12,360 --> 00:10:14,152 I love you, Rue, 205 00:10:14,235 --> 00:10:15,943 but there's no fucking way I'm doing that. 206 00:10:16,027 --> 00:10:18,485 -(tattoo gun buzzing) -(Jules whimpers) 207 00:10:18,569 --> 00:10:21,943 Rue: I didn't know what happened the night Jules met Tyler. 208 00:10:22,027 --> 00:10:25,027 I knew it wasn't good, but I was afraid to pry. 209 00:10:25,110 --> 00:10:28,611 And selfishly, things had been going really well. 210 00:10:28,694 --> 00:10:31,527 Show me exactly where the holdup is. 211 00:10:31,611 --> 00:10:33,110 Rue: Granted, after the carnival, 212 00:10:33,193 --> 00:10:35,193 -things got really fucking weird. -(phone ringing) 213 00:10:35,277 --> 00:10:36,777 Hey, I gotta call you back. 214 00:10:36,861 --> 00:10:38,985 Slow down. 215 00:10:39,652 --> 00:10:42,777 Slow down. What's happened? 216 00:10:42,861 --> 00:10:47,444 (Marsha chattering frantically on phone) 217 00:10:47,527 --> 00:10:49,694 I'll meet you out front. 218 00:10:54,777 --> 00:10:56,902 ♪ ♪ 219 00:11:11,569 --> 00:11:13,444 Officer Wilson: Thank you for coming down, Mr. Jacobs. 220 00:11:13,527 --> 00:11:14,985 Cal: Do you want to tell me what's going on? 221 00:11:15,068 --> 00:11:17,569 Officer Wilson: Let's talk when we get inside. 222 00:11:21,943 --> 00:11:24,068 ♪ ♪ 223 00:11:41,193 --> 00:11:44,736 -Marsha: Cal, you okay? -Yeah. Need a second. 224 00:11:50,068 --> 00:11:51,527 (retches, coughs) 225 00:11:51,611 --> 00:11:53,861 Rue: Now, what had happened was... 226 00:11:53,943 --> 00:11:56,444 that morning, Maddy went to school. 227 00:11:57,652 --> 00:12:00,402 (chuckles) What are you, the Unabomber? 228 00:12:00,485 --> 00:12:02,985 What are you, a dominatrix? 229 00:12:03,068 --> 00:12:06,360 -No. -I didn't mean for real, bitch. 230 00:12:06,444 --> 00:12:07,985 Obviously. 231 00:12:08,777 --> 00:12:10,736 But seriously, are you okay? 232 00:12:10,819 --> 00:12:13,319 Yeah. I'm just on my period. 233 00:12:13,402 --> 00:12:15,360 -Okay. Bye. -Bye. 234 00:12:15,444 --> 00:12:19,360 Rue: And Maddy's first class was Intro to Calc in room 202, 235 00:12:19,444 --> 00:12:22,611 which unfortunately was in the upper left wing of the school. 236 00:12:22,694 --> 00:12:24,985 Is the air conditioner, like, not working? 237 00:12:25,068 --> 00:12:27,985 Ms. Donovan: It's broken. You could always take off your hoodie. 238 00:12:28,068 --> 00:12:29,444 Rue: Now, if it was a normal day, 239 00:12:29,527 --> 00:12:31,527 Maddy would have just taken off her hoodie. 240 00:12:31,611 --> 00:12:34,110 But since Nate choked her, 241 00:12:34,193 --> 00:12:36,110 Maddy woke up three hours early, 242 00:12:36,193 --> 00:12:38,068 applied more concealer than a burn victim, 243 00:12:38,152 --> 00:12:39,902 and tried her best to cover up. 244 00:12:39,985 --> 00:12:42,652 (bell ringing) 245 00:12:42,736 --> 00:12:44,402 To compound the problem, 246 00:12:44,485 --> 00:12:46,360 she also suffered from a drop in serotonin 247 00:12:46,444 --> 00:12:49,110 from the Molly she took at the carnival, got depressed, 248 00:12:49,193 --> 00:12:52,652 and therefore hadn't had anything to eat or drink the entire weekend. 249 00:12:52,736 --> 00:12:55,444 Plus, she actually was on her period. 250 00:12:55,527 --> 00:12:57,277 Maddy? 251 00:12:57,985 --> 00:12:59,402 Maddy? 252 00:13:00,652 --> 00:13:02,277 (stretcher clattering) 253 00:13:02,360 --> 00:13:04,527 She's in here. 254 00:13:05,193 --> 00:13:08,861 I'm fine. Why is everyone, like, so dramatic? 255 00:13:08,943 --> 00:13:12,193 Principal Hayes: Obviously, you've been through a lot this weekend. 256 00:13:12,277 --> 00:13:15,277 But my real concern is the bruising on your neck. 257 00:13:15,360 --> 00:13:17,319 There is no bruising on my neck. 258 00:13:17,402 --> 00:13:21,152 -Mm. Paramedics saw it. -Yeah, well, they're lying. 259 00:13:22,193 --> 00:13:24,611 Madeleine, look. 260 00:13:24,694 --> 00:13:29,777 I understand that you may be afraid to talk about how you got hurt. 261 00:13:29,861 --> 00:13:32,444 But I want you to know that it is not your fault. 262 00:13:32,527 --> 00:13:35,652 I'm trying to find a really respectful way to say this. 263 00:13:35,736 --> 00:13:38,569 But, um, this doesn't concern you. 264 00:13:38,652 --> 00:13:41,319 It does concern me, Madeleine. 265 00:13:41,402 --> 00:13:43,569 You're 17 years old. 266 00:13:43,652 --> 00:13:45,985 If I suspect that you're being abused, 267 00:13:46,068 --> 00:13:48,444 I'm mandated by law to report it. 268 00:13:48,527 --> 00:13:49,736 (mutters): Fuck. 269 00:13:50,694 --> 00:13:52,736 Was it someone you know? 270 00:13:54,152 --> 00:13:56,152 Was it Nate Jacobs? 271 00:13:56,527 --> 00:13:59,485 All I know is she, like, knocked over a giant pot of chili 272 00:13:59,569 --> 00:14:01,652 and, like, called his mother the "C" word. 273 00:14:01,736 --> 00:14:04,110 I mean, he did, like, grab her by the arm. 274 00:14:04,193 --> 00:14:06,485 Yo, straight up? The chick's crazy. 275 00:14:06,569 --> 00:14:08,819 Do you know why Nate and Maddy were fighting? 276 00:14:08,902 --> 00:14:11,152 Um, I don't wanna talk until I get a lawyer. 277 00:14:11,235 --> 00:14:13,027 You're not being charged with anything. 278 00:14:13,110 --> 00:14:15,527 (pops lips) Look, Nate's gay. 279 00:14:15,611 --> 00:14:17,068 I'm being serious, Barbara. 280 00:14:17,152 --> 00:14:19,235 No, I'm telling you, like, Nate's actually gay. 281 00:14:19,319 --> 00:14:21,152 That's why Maddy was upset. 282 00:14:21,235 --> 00:14:22,736 I don't know about the carnival, 283 00:14:22,819 --> 00:14:26,485 but I do know she smashed some dude in the pool at McKay's. 284 00:14:26,569 --> 00:14:27,694 Smashed? 285 00:14:27,777 --> 00:14:30,235 That's why he attacked the new girl. 286 00:14:30,319 --> 00:14:32,193 What new girl? 287 00:14:32,277 --> 00:14:34,611 The one who cut herself. 288 00:14:37,902 --> 00:14:40,777 I have no idea what you're talking about. 289 00:14:42,152 --> 00:14:44,861 Mr. Jacobs, would you please come with me? 290 00:14:44,943 --> 00:14:47,319 -What? -Come with me. 291 00:14:50,902 --> 00:14:53,360 You wanna tell me what the problem is? 292 00:14:53,444 --> 00:14:55,402 Don't worry. We will. 293 00:14:56,611 --> 00:15:00,611 (indistinct chatter on police radio) 294 00:15:03,277 --> 00:15:05,152 What was that about? 295 00:15:05,235 --> 00:15:08,277 -Probably 'cause Nate tried to kill Maddy. -What? 296 00:15:08,360 --> 00:15:11,068 Well, 'cause she found all that gay porn on his phone. 297 00:15:11,152 --> 00:15:12,819 -Who told you that? -You did. 298 00:15:12,902 --> 00:15:14,611 -When? -At the carnival. 299 00:15:14,694 --> 00:15:16,319 Okay, Lexi, never repeat that, 300 00:15:16,402 --> 00:15:18,652 because literally none of it's true. 301 00:15:23,193 --> 00:15:24,861 (Cassie gasps) 302 00:15:28,444 --> 00:15:29,819 Uh... 303 00:15:30,694 --> 00:15:34,277 Daniel, I-I can't. I'm sorry. 304 00:15:34,902 --> 00:15:37,943 I just-- I'm-- I'm dating somebody, and... 305 00:15:38,027 --> 00:15:39,569 I really don't want to fuck it up. 306 00:15:39,652 --> 00:15:41,943 It's cool. Don't worry. 307 00:15:42,027 --> 00:15:45,444 I just like you. I kind of thought you liked me. 308 00:15:45,527 --> 00:15:47,527 I do, I just... 309 00:15:48,319 --> 00:15:50,360 I have a boyfriend. 310 00:15:52,527 --> 00:15:55,027 Please don't say anything. 311 00:15:56,569 --> 00:15:59,277 If I promise not to say anything, 312 00:15:59,360 --> 00:16:01,527 can we hang out again? 313 00:16:07,652 --> 00:16:10,694 Woman (over projector): ...reproductive health and your total well being 314 00:16:10,777 --> 00:16:12,777 in all aspects of reproduction. 315 00:16:12,861 --> 00:16:15,110 For example, physical, emotional... 316 00:16:15,193 --> 00:16:18,444 (whispers): Hey. Did you get my texts? 317 00:16:18,527 --> 00:16:21,152 -No. -Really? 318 00:16:21,527 --> 00:16:25,527 -Well, I sent you a bunch of texts. -Didn't get 'em. 319 00:16:26,694 --> 00:16:28,819 Well, it says, like, delivered on my phone. 320 00:16:28,902 --> 00:16:32,736 Look, I really don't want to talk about this right now. 321 00:16:33,902 --> 00:16:35,902 What, are you for real? 322 00:16:39,068 --> 00:16:40,902 Did I, like, do something? 323 00:16:42,235 --> 00:16:44,694 I don't know, Ethan. Did you? 324 00:16:46,152 --> 00:16:50,319 Rue: So the night of the carnival, while fucking Luke Kasten, 325 00:16:50,402 --> 00:16:52,152 Kat had an epiphany. 326 00:16:52,235 --> 00:16:54,319 She was fucking Luke Kasten, 327 00:16:54,402 --> 00:16:56,985 Luke motherfucking Kasten. 328 00:16:57,068 --> 00:16:58,485 (grunting) 329 00:16:58,569 --> 00:17:01,569 And for those of you who didn't go to East Highland... 330 00:17:01,943 --> 00:17:05,611 (sighs) Luke Kasten was a fucking god. 331 00:17:05,694 --> 00:17:08,485 I mean, he graduated years ago and people still talk about him. 332 00:17:08,569 --> 00:17:10,694 He has the biggest dick I've ever seen, 333 00:17:10,777 --> 00:17:12,819 and I was looking at him while he was fucking me. 334 00:17:12,902 --> 00:17:16,193 I could see his face scrunching up when he was coming all over my stomach, 335 00:17:16,277 --> 00:17:20,277 and I had this, like, realization, you know, like, this epiphany. 336 00:17:20,360 --> 00:17:23,235 That no matter how cool, or, or sexy 337 00:17:23,319 --> 00:17:26,569 or, or smart you think a guy is, 338 00:17:26,652 --> 00:17:29,235 they're actually just fucking pathetic. 339 00:17:29,861 --> 00:17:31,777 It's true, KittenKween. 340 00:17:31,861 --> 00:17:34,068 (Kat laughs) Oh. 341 00:17:34,985 --> 00:17:36,736 By the way, if you wanna come, 342 00:17:36,819 --> 00:17:38,861 I put a body harness on my Amazon wish list. 343 00:17:38,943 --> 00:17:40,360 I'm gonna need you to buy it for me. 344 00:17:40,444 --> 00:17:43,027 Johnny: Yes, KittenKween. 345 00:17:43,110 --> 00:17:45,569 -Kat: Can I be honest with you? -Johnny: Always. 346 00:17:45,652 --> 00:17:47,943 -Kat: What I realize is that, like... -Where are you going? 347 00:17:48,027 --> 00:17:50,736 Kat: ... my whole life, all I've tried to do is to take up less space. 348 00:17:50,819 --> 00:17:52,110 To the mall. 349 00:17:52,193 --> 00:17:53,902 Try to hide from guys, like, who might, like, 350 00:17:53,985 --> 00:17:57,319 whisper to their friend under their breath as I walked by. 351 00:17:57,402 --> 00:18:00,485 I've spent my whole life afraid people were gonna find out that I was fat. 352 00:18:00,569 --> 00:18:02,527 But honestly, who gives a shit? 353 00:18:02,611 --> 00:18:04,985 Johnny: I'm so in awe of you, KittenKween. 354 00:18:05,068 --> 00:18:08,694 Kat: There's nothing more powerful than a fat girl who doesn't give a fuck. 355 00:18:08,777 --> 00:18:11,611 ♪ You should see me in a crown ♪ 356 00:18:11,694 --> 00:18:14,861 ♪ I'm gonna run this nothing town ♪ 357 00:18:14,943 --> 00:18:19,235 ♪ Watch me make 'em bow, one by, one by, one ♪ 358 00:18:19,319 --> 00:18:24,402 ♪ One by, one by, You should see me in a crown ♪ 359 00:18:24,485 --> 00:18:27,569 ♪ Your silence is my favorite sound ♪ 360 00:18:27,652 --> 00:18:32,402 ♪ Watch me make 'em bow, one by, one by, one ♪ 361 00:18:32,943 --> 00:18:34,527 Hey. 362 00:18:36,611 --> 00:18:39,694 -Thought you weren't from around here. -I'm not. 363 00:18:41,861 --> 00:18:45,193 I get off work at seven. You wanna hang out? 364 00:18:45,277 --> 00:18:48,777 ♪ One by, one by, one ♪ 365 00:18:48,861 --> 00:18:52,027 ♪ One by, one by, one ♪ 366 00:18:53,777 --> 00:18:55,694 (whispering): Why are you suddenly being so mean? 367 00:18:55,777 --> 00:18:58,027 (woman speaking indistinctly over projector) 368 00:19:01,319 --> 00:19:03,861 -You don't understand, Mommy. He didn't do it. -Then who did? 369 00:19:03,943 --> 00:19:05,777 -It wasn't Nate. -Maddy, stop lying. 370 00:19:05,861 --> 00:19:07,943 -I'm not lying! -I am not gonna let the son of a bitch 371 00:19:08,027 --> 00:19:10,152 attack my daughter and get away with it. 372 00:19:10,235 --> 00:19:11,611 -Right? -Absolutely. 373 00:19:11,694 --> 00:19:13,569 -He needs to know that there are consequences. -Mom! 374 00:19:13,652 --> 00:19:16,193 -I would like to press charges. -Well, you're not fucking pressing charges! 375 00:19:16,277 --> 00:19:17,985 -I am gonna press charges. -No, you're not pressing-- 376 00:19:18,068 --> 00:19:20,152 -This is for your own good! -No, you're not pressing charges! 377 00:19:20,235 --> 00:19:22,319 -Principal Hayes: O-Okay! -(Maddy sobbing) 378 00:19:22,402 --> 00:19:24,527 I would like to press charges. 379 00:19:28,485 --> 00:19:32,068 -You okay, Mr. Jacobs? -I'm fine. 380 00:19:35,444 --> 00:19:36,902 Principal Hayes: Mr. and Mrs. Jacobs, 381 00:19:36,985 --> 00:19:39,068 thanks for getting here so quickly. 382 00:19:40,402 --> 00:19:43,027 Officer Wilson: So, it appears that your son and Miss Perez 383 00:19:43,110 --> 00:19:45,777 had a physical altercation on Saturday night, 384 00:19:45,861 --> 00:19:47,652 in which he allegedly strangled her. 385 00:19:47,736 --> 00:19:50,736 -Marsha: What? -Officer Wilson: There are multiple eyewitnesses. 386 00:19:50,819 --> 00:19:53,402 Miss Perez has extensive bruising, 387 00:19:53,485 --> 00:19:55,527 and the family will be pressing charges. 388 00:19:55,611 --> 00:19:57,110 (gasps) 389 00:19:57,193 --> 00:19:59,777 There must be some misunderstanding. 390 00:19:59,861 --> 00:20:02,527 This doesn't sound like something my son would do. 391 00:20:02,611 --> 00:20:04,985 I would like to talk to the Perez family. 392 00:20:05,068 --> 00:20:06,694 Officer Wilson: Actually, Mr. Jacobs, 393 00:20:06,777 --> 00:20:08,861 I think it'd be best to speak to your son 394 00:20:08,943 --> 00:20:11,193 before we take him to the station. 395 00:20:11,277 --> 00:20:13,319 He's just this way. 396 00:20:19,694 --> 00:20:21,777 ♪ ♪ 397 00:20:38,402 --> 00:20:40,611 (exhales) 398 00:20:44,652 --> 00:20:46,152 (sighs) 399 00:20:47,485 --> 00:20:49,152 Did you do it? 400 00:20:52,652 --> 00:20:54,777 (softly): Not really. 401 00:20:56,110 --> 00:20:58,152 Did you admit to it? 402 00:20:59,985 --> 00:21:01,152 No. 403 00:21:04,652 --> 00:21:06,611 Did you do it? 404 00:21:16,319 --> 00:21:17,360 No. 405 00:21:19,736 --> 00:21:22,527 (sighs) Well, that's good to hear. 406 00:21:26,527 --> 00:21:28,736 Her family's gonna press charges. 407 00:21:31,319 --> 00:21:33,235 -(whispers): Fuck. -Hey. 408 00:21:36,277 --> 00:21:37,902 Listen to me. 409 00:21:39,193 --> 00:21:41,527 You need to stay composed. 410 00:21:41,611 --> 00:21:43,235 Don't get angry, don't make a scene. 411 00:21:43,319 --> 00:21:45,861 You walk out of the school with your head held high. 412 00:21:48,485 --> 00:21:51,861 Look at me. Hey, look at me. 413 00:21:55,068 --> 00:21:57,527 What's about to happen to you... 414 00:21:58,193 --> 00:22:00,485 to me, to our family... 415 00:22:00,569 --> 00:22:03,193 is not gonna be easy. 416 00:22:05,235 --> 00:22:08,777 You walk out first. I'm right behind you. 417 00:22:10,485 --> 00:22:12,360 Go on. 418 00:22:21,319 --> 00:22:23,193 (door closes) 419 00:22:27,068 --> 00:22:29,193 (whispers): I love you. 420 00:22:30,152 --> 00:22:33,861 (bell ringing) 421 00:22:36,652 --> 00:22:39,985 -♪ Hee, hee ♪ -♪ Oh! ♪ 422 00:22:40,068 --> 00:22:43,485 -♪ Hee, hee ♪ -♪ Oh! ♪ 423 00:22:43,569 --> 00:22:46,694 -♪ Hee, hee ♪ -♪ Oh! ♪ 424 00:22:46,777 --> 00:22:49,068 -♪ Hee, hee ♪ -♪ Oh! ♪ 425 00:22:49,902 --> 00:22:52,902 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 426 00:22:53,777 --> 00:22:55,943 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 427 00:22:57,110 --> 00:22:59,444 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 428 00:23:00,569 --> 00:23:02,485 ♪ Hee, hee ♪ 429 00:23:06,819 --> 00:23:08,569 (door opens) 430 00:23:09,277 --> 00:23:11,027 Okay, one: what was that about? 431 00:23:11,110 --> 00:23:14,611 Two: Can we talk about the fact that you fucked Nate's dad? 432 00:23:14,694 --> 00:23:18,819 Rue, swear to God, like, on your life that you will never tell anyone. 433 00:23:18,902 --> 00:23:21,694 -That you fucked Nate's dad. -I'm serious! 434 00:23:21,777 --> 00:23:23,569 This is like, like, 435 00:23:23,652 --> 00:23:25,819 even if you decide you hate me one day, 436 00:23:25,902 --> 00:23:27,444 like, you can never tell anyone. 437 00:23:27,527 --> 00:23:29,819 How would I ever hate you? 438 00:23:30,985 --> 00:23:33,485 That's not the point. Like... 439 00:23:33,569 --> 00:23:36,736 Seriously, this is some go-to-your-grave shit. 440 00:23:36,819 --> 00:23:38,652 I promise. 441 00:23:40,819 --> 00:23:42,319 (mutters): Okay. 442 00:23:43,943 --> 00:23:46,193 Do you think Nate knows? 443 00:23:46,277 --> 00:23:48,569 No. Why would Nate know? 444 00:23:48,652 --> 00:23:51,319 I don't know. You went up to the chili booth at the carnival. 445 00:23:51,402 --> 00:23:54,652 Did... he look like he knew? 446 00:23:55,943 --> 00:23:59,027 No, like, literally, I didn't even notice. 447 00:24:03,319 --> 00:24:04,819 Nate's scary. 448 00:24:06,861 --> 00:24:09,027 The whole fucking family is scary. 449 00:24:11,861 --> 00:24:15,485 I don't want to have this conversation. 450 00:24:17,861 --> 00:24:21,027 You know what would be amazing? If they paid you off 451 00:24:21,110 --> 00:24:23,736 with a bunch of money and we do a bunch of really cool shit. 452 00:24:26,902 --> 00:24:29,360 Rue, this isn't a joke. 453 00:24:33,652 --> 00:24:35,736 ♪ ♪ 454 00:24:41,402 --> 00:24:43,360 Rue: I don't know why Jules didn't trust me 455 00:24:43,444 --> 00:24:45,902 or why she'd think I'd ever hate her. 456 00:24:45,985 --> 00:24:47,652 There's literally nothing in the world 457 00:24:47,736 --> 00:24:51,402 that Jules could do to make me upset. I even told her that. 458 00:24:51,485 --> 00:24:54,569 -Jules: Yeah, right. -No, for real. It's true. 459 00:24:58,110 --> 00:25:01,736 So, like, do you have a lot of one-night stands? 460 00:25:03,360 --> 00:25:07,235 Um, define a lot. 461 00:25:08,402 --> 00:25:10,193 Um, like... 462 00:25:10,277 --> 00:25:13,235 -More than five. -(chuckles) Yeah. 463 00:25:13,777 --> 00:25:15,569 More than ten. 464 00:25:16,235 --> 00:25:18,110 I don't know. 465 00:25:18,569 --> 00:25:20,402 More than 20. 466 00:25:20,777 --> 00:25:23,985 -Rue, why does it matter? -It's just a question. 467 00:25:24,068 --> 00:25:25,902 Who cares? 468 00:25:27,402 --> 00:25:29,402 Is the sex, like, good? 469 00:25:29,485 --> 00:25:32,943 I don't know. It's, like, it's not even the point, you know? 470 00:25:33,611 --> 00:25:37,360 It's more about, like, everything that leads up to it. 471 00:25:37,444 --> 00:25:39,777 That's the good part. 472 00:25:40,943 --> 00:25:45,110 I mean, you've had one-night stands, right? 473 00:25:45,193 --> 00:25:46,444 No. 474 00:25:46,527 --> 00:25:48,652 But you've, like, hooked up with people 475 00:25:48,736 --> 00:25:51,985 -that you've just met, right? -Uh, not-- Not like that. No. No. 476 00:25:52,068 --> 00:25:55,402 Wait. How many people have you slept with? 477 00:25:56,235 --> 00:25:57,485 Not many. 478 00:25:57,569 --> 00:26:00,360 No, like, what's your number? 479 00:26:00,444 --> 00:26:02,819 Rue: Ugh, this is so embarrassing. 480 00:26:02,902 --> 00:26:04,985 ♪ ♪ 481 00:26:07,652 --> 00:26:10,027 I had my first kiss at the age of 12 482 00:26:10,110 --> 00:26:12,027 with a boy I didn't really like, but... 483 00:26:12,110 --> 00:26:15,235 I just wanted to get it over with. 484 00:26:15,319 --> 00:26:17,777 I gave four hand jobs in eighth grade, 485 00:26:17,861 --> 00:26:19,110 two blow jobs in ninth, 486 00:26:19,193 --> 00:26:21,985 one of which I was emotionally coerced into. 487 00:26:22,068 --> 00:26:24,277 I'm literally gonna tell the entire school that you sucked my dick, 488 00:26:24,360 --> 00:26:26,902 so you might as well just suck my dick. 489 00:26:26,985 --> 00:26:29,902 Then there was that time that Lexi got asked to the freshman formal 490 00:26:29,985 --> 00:26:33,444 by Tucker Blake and I tried to teach her how to French kiss. 491 00:26:35,861 --> 00:26:39,444 Is this, like, really weird and uncomfortable for you? 492 00:26:40,110 --> 00:26:41,902 Mm, no. Not really. 493 00:26:41,985 --> 00:26:44,819 Okay. Um, I'm gonna get ready. 494 00:26:49,985 --> 00:26:51,902 Rue: Also, at 15, 495 00:26:51,985 --> 00:26:56,943 I ate two Xannie bars, drank a beer, which is super dangerous, 496 00:26:57,027 --> 00:26:58,569 and lost my virginity. 497 00:26:58,652 --> 00:27:00,193 (moans) 498 00:27:00,277 --> 00:27:03,736 -(exhales) Did you come? -Yeah. 499 00:27:05,027 --> 00:27:06,527 Word. 500 00:27:09,068 --> 00:27:12,110 You look like you came hard. 501 00:27:12,193 --> 00:27:17,360 Rue: All I know is, life is not a Nicholas Sparks novel. 502 00:27:18,193 --> 00:27:21,319 -That's it? -Yep. That's-- That's it. 503 00:27:23,444 --> 00:27:27,485 Wait, so, like... have you ever been in love? 504 00:27:34,402 --> 00:27:36,152 -(splatters) -Fucking pigs! 505 00:27:36,235 --> 00:27:37,985 Fuck you! 506 00:27:38,068 --> 00:27:39,527 (door buzzes) 507 00:27:39,611 --> 00:27:42,319 Hi, Maddy. I'm Detective Riley. I understand this is traumatic, 508 00:27:42,402 --> 00:27:44,152 but you're gonna have to cooperate. 509 00:27:44,235 --> 00:27:46,485 If you literally step any closer, I will fight you! 510 00:27:46,569 --> 00:27:49,902 Miss, this is procedure. I need you to remove your sweater now, 511 00:27:49,985 --> 00:27:52,319 and if you don't, we will remove it for you. 512 00:27:52,402 --> 00:27:54,861 Really, bitch? How? 513 00:27:55,360 --> 00:27:57,652 -Maddy: You're fucking crazy! -Officer Wilson: Calm down. 514 00:27:57,736 --> 00:27:59,444 Take a deep breath. Take a deep breath. 515 00:27:59,527 --> 00:28:01,527 Come on, Maddy. We don't want to hurt you. 516 00:28:01,611 --> 00:28:02,902 Get off of me! 517 00:28:02,985 --> 00:28:05,402 -Officer Wilson: Maddy, please. -Detective Riley: Relax. 518 00:28:05,485 --> 00:28:08,402 -Officer: There we go. -Detective Riley: Thanks, guys. I got this. 519 00:28:09,569 --> 00:28:11,985 (snipping) 520 00:28:12,068 --> 00:28:15,527 (sobbing) 521 00:28:23,819 --> 00:28:25,611 (Maddy gasps) 522 00:28:32,110 --> 00:28:34,277 Detective Riley: I know you're really upset right now, 523 00:28:34,360 --> 00:28:36,027 -and you don't want to hear this. -(camera shutter clicks) 524 00:28:36,110 --> 00:28:39,611 But trust me, when I tell you that the person that did this... 525 00:28:40,444 --> 00:28:42,985 -(camera shutter clicks) -...doesn't love you. 526 00:28:46,152 --> 00:28:49,110 (camera shutter clicking) 527 00:28:50,277 --> 00:28:52,360 (indistinct chatter on police radio) 528 00:28:52,444 --> 00:28:53,777 Nate: Mm-hmm. 529 00:28:54,611 --> 00:28:56,193 So you grabbed her. 530 00:28:56,277 --> 00:29:00,360 I grabbed her by the arm to drag her away. I didn't choke her. 531 00:29:02,819 --> 00:29:05,235 I asked her why she was acting that way. 532 00:29:05,319 --> 00:29:07,985 Like, I asked her what she was doing. 533 00:29:11,319 --> 00:29:14,985 I don't want to get her in any trouble, but she'd taken a lot of drugs. 534 00:29:15,819 --> 00:29:17,319 What drugs? 535 00:29:18,110 --> 00:29:20,444 I don't want to get her in trouble. 536 00:29:21,235 --> 00:29:23,444 She's not gonna get in any trouble. 537 00:29:25,652 --> 00:29:27,110 Molly. 538 00:29:27,985 --> 00:29:30,068 As in MDMA? 539 00:29:30,152 --> 00:29:31,485 Yeah. 540 00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:34,444 But I don't know if it was pure. 541 00:29:34,527 --> 00:29:37,110 Like, I don't-- I don't do drugs, so I don't know. 542 00:29:41,110 --> 00:29:43,527 And after that conversation, was that the last time 543 00:29:43,611 --> 00:29:45,985 you spoke to Miss Perez that evening? 544 00:29:46,694 --> 00:29:47,819 Yeah. 545 00:29:58,193 --> 00:30:01,527 Her and I don't have the healthiest relationship. 546 00:30:02,652 --> 00:30:04,360 I know that. 547 00:30:05,027 --> 00:30:09,360 My dad's always telling me that she's a distraction, and he's right. 548 00:30:13,068 --> 00:30:14,360 I love her. 549 00:30:15,027 --> 00:30:16,902 You know, I really love her. No matter... 550 00:30:16,985 --> 00:30:20,360 how crazy she acts, no matter what she does, I love her. 551 00:30:27,235 --> 00:30:31,110 It's kind of embarrassing to admit, but, um... 552 00:30:33,360 --> 00:30:35,652 on the times when we've broken up, 553 00:30:35,736 --> 00:30:38,694 I know for a fact that she's been with other guys. 554 00:30:41,444 --> 00:30:44,402 I don't know, I mean, it's possible that that night... 555 00:30:50,027 --> 00:30:51,611 Aah, it doesn't matter. 556 00:30:53,193 --> 00:30:56,235 -Detective: What were you gonna say? -It doesn't matter. 557 00:30:58,402 --> 00:31:00,110 I love Maddy. 558 00:31:00,193 --> 00:31:02,943 I'd never do anything to hurt her. 559 00:31:03,027 --> 00:31:05,360 Rue: The fallout from Nate's assault was swift... 560 00:31:05,444 --> 00:31:07,902 Principal Hayes (on phone): I'm suspending your son until the investigation is completed. 561 00:31:07,985 --> 00:31:09,985 Cal: Look, that could take months. 562 00:31:10,068 --> 00:31:11,485 Rue: ...and harsh. 563 00:31:11,569 --> 00:31:15,027 East Highland football team has a zero tolerance policy. 564 00:31:15,110 --> 00:31:17,402 I'm a survivor of abuse. 565 00:31:18,652 --> 00:31:21,943 It took me ten years to admit that. 566 00:31:22,027 --> 00:31:24,360 Because the most insidious symptom of abuse 567 00:31:24,444 --> 00:31:28,611 is the inability to admit that what you're enduring 568 00:31:28,694 --> 00:31:30,985 is not normal, 569 00:31:31,068 --> 00:31:34,611 not okay, and not love. 570 00:31:36,235 --> 00:31:38,985 Those are the moments that keep me up at night-- 571 00:31:39,068 --> 00:31:41,819 thinking about all the times that I ignored that, 572 00:31:41,902 --> 00:31:44,902 that voice in my head. 573 00:31:44,985 --> 00:31:48,027 You know, that told me, "What are you doing?" 574 00:31:49,527 --> 00:31:53,068 Ali: And what happens in a month? Six months? A year? 575 00:31:53,152 --> 00:31:56,152 When she moves away and goes to college? 576 00:31:56,235 --> 00:31:59,943 When she tells you, she just wants to be friends? 577 00:32:01,319 --> 00:32:04,694 -You mean "if." -No, Rue. I mean "when." 578 00:32:06,110 --> 00:32:08,569 I mean, I don't know. We talked about living together. 579 00:32:08,652 --> 00:32:11,402 Like, if she goes to New York, I'll just go with her. 580 00:32:11,485 --> 00:32:14,485 -I'll go anywhere she goes. -I think you're missing my point, Rue. 581 00:32:15,736 --> 00:32:19,152 Nothing in high school lasts forever. 582 00:32:23,819 --> 00:32:26,027 You should meet her. 583 00:32:29,943 --> 00:32:32,402 Woman: Go ahead, Rue. 584 00:32:32,485 --> 00:32:35,152 ♪ What the fuck are we talking for? ♪ 585 00:32:35,235 --> 00:32:36,736 Uh... 586 00:32:37,277 --> 00:32:40,652 Hey, everyone. I'm-- I'm Rue and I'm an addict. 587 00:32:40,736 --> 00:32:42,861 All: Hi, Rue. 588 00:32:44,110 --> 00:32:45,527 Uh... 589 00:32:47,736 --> 00:32:51,985 I guess I just wanted to, uh, make amends with everyone. 590 00:32:52,736 --> 00:32:56,652 Because most every time I've shared, 591 00:32:56,736 --> 00:32:58,819 I-- I was lying. 592 00:32:59,193 --> 00:33:02,527 (sighs) Yeah, every time I collected a chip, 593 00:33:02,611 --> 00:33:05,777 whether it be 30 days or 60 days or 90 days, 594 00:33:05,861 --> 00:33:08,360 I was lying. (chuckles) 595 00:33:08,444 --> 00:33:09,736 Um... 596 00:33:12,402 --> 00:33:14,402 (Rue sighs) 597 00:33:15,027 --> 00:33:18,569 But... I met someone. 598 00:33:21,277 --> 00:33:23,110 And she's helped. 599 00:33:23,985 --> 00:33:27,027 And now I want to stay clean. 600 00:33:27,652 --> 00:33:31,527 And, shit, maybe that's-- Maybe that's me being selfish, 601 00:33:31,611 --> 00:33:35,068 you know, and Ali just scared the shit out of me. 602 00:33:35,152 --> 00:33:38,485 'Cause he told me that it wasn't gonna last. (laughs) 603 00:33:38,569 --> 00:33:41,360 And, fuck, you know what? 604 00:33:42,569 --> 00:33:44,611 Maybe you're right. 605 00:33:46,027 --> 00:33:49,235 But I really, really, really hope you're wrong. 606 00:33:52,152 --> 00:33:56,777 'Cause, uh, I've been clean for 13 days. 607 00:33:59,611 --> 00:34:01,027 It's been okay. 608 00:34:01,110 --> 00:34:03,777 Um, I've actually been really happy. 609 00:34:06,569 --> 00:34:08,152 So, um... 610 00:34:08,235 --> 00:34:11,985 Yeah, I don't know. I guess that's why I wanted to come here, and... 611 00:34:12,736 --> 00:34:14,611 tell you guys the truth. 612 00:34:18,527 --> 00:34:20,235 Uh, thank you. 613 00:34:21,819 --> 00:34:23,444 -(applause) -Thank you. 614 00:34:23,527 --> 00:34:26,235 -Man 1: Welcome back. -Man 2: Thank you, Rue. 615 00:34:28,527 --> 00:34:32,819 David: So, is this like a friend thing with Rue or is it, like... 616 00:34:33,485 --> 00:34:36,277 I don't want to talk about it. 617 00:34:36,861 --> 00:34:39,068 I was just wondering... 618 00:34:39,152 --> 00:34:43,027 are you two, like, a thing? 619 00:34:45,777 --> 00:34:49,402 No, we're not a thing. I don't know what a thing is. 620 00:34:49,485 --> 00:34:52,402 'Cause I've been thinking, you know, if it was, 621 00:34:52,485 --> 00:34:54,902 if you two were a thing... 622 00:34:54,985 --> 00:34:57,819 We could all just do, like, a family thing together. 623 00:34:57,902 --> 00:34:59,569 Maybe go out to dinner or something. 624 00:34:59,652 --> 00:35:01,819 I don't want to go to dinner with you and Rue. 625 00:35:01,902 --> 00:35:06,152 -I'm sorry. -Why? Because you're embarrassed of me? 626 00:35:06,985 --> 00:35:09,360 Or is it because you're a thing? 627 00:35:11,902 --> 00:35:15,527 -You're hilarious. -Yeah, I know. 628 00:35:17,193 --> 00:35:19,068 Is she still going to meetings? 629 00:35:20,861 --> 00:35:22,235 That's great. 630 00:35:23,694 --> 00:35:25,694 You're a good influence. 631 00:35:32,027 --> 00:35:35,902 ♪ ♪ 632 00:35:57,736 --> 00:35:59,193 (phone beeps) 633 00:36:04,569 --> 00:36:06,402 (phone bloops) 634 00:36:08,985 --> 00:36:10,736 (phone bloops) 635 00:36:25,152 --> 00:36:26,777 (grunting) 636 00:36:26,861 --> 00:36:29,527 Rue: McKay had heard the news about Nate. 637 00:36:29,611 --> 00:36:32,193 Had a bunch of dick pics on his phone. 638 00:36:33,235 --> 00:36:35,736 And was, like, what, sending them to other girls? 639 00:36:35,819 --> 00:36:39,652 No, McKay, it wasn't his dick. It was other guys' dicks. 640 00:36:39,736 --> 00:36:41,485 I'm confused. Who told you this? 641 00:36:41,569 --> 00:36:43,319 What dick pics? 642 00:36:43,402 --> 00:36:45,694 The ones you told me about, on his phone. 643 00:36:45,777 --> 00:36:47,694 I don't know if your brain is all scrambled 644 00:36:47,777 --> 00:36:51,193 from, like, all the Molly you take, but I never said that. 645 00:36:51,277 --> 00:36:54,819 If you spread a lie like that, I will fucking come for you. 646 00:36:54,902 --> 00:36:56,319 We good? 647 00:36:56,402 --> 00:36:58,527 -Yeah. -(locker slams) 648 00:36:58,611 --> 00:37:00,319 McKay: Anyway, look, Cassie, 649 00:37:00,402 --> 00:37:04,068 I'm really sorry about what happened the other night at the carnival. 650 00:37:05,360 --> 00:37:06,943 It's okay. 651 00:37:08,235 --> 00:37:10,819 No, I should have said something to Nate. 652 00:37:13,652 --> 00:37:17,027 It just really hurt my feelings. 653 00:37:17,110 --> 00:37:20,777 It made me feel like you weren't proud to be my boyfriend. 654 00:37:25,902 --> 00:37:27,193 Cass. 655 00:37:29,736 --> 00:37:31,652 Give me a kiss. 656 00:37:34,485 --> 00:37:37,485 I'm proud to be your boyfriend, trust me. 657 00:37:41,319 --> 00:37:43,360 I'm sorry, too. 658 00:37:43,819 --> 00:37:45,819 What do you got to be sorry about? 659 00:37:51,068 --> 00:37:52,569 Trevor: I love making music. 660 00:37:52,652 --> 00:37:55,235 Yeah, I mean, but to be honest... (clears throat) 661 00:37:55,319 --> 00:37:58,819 I don't think I'm, like, good enough yet to just do music. 662 00:37:58,902 --> 00:38:01,861 But that's, like, my dream, you know or whatever. 663 00:38:06,152 --> 00:38:09,569 -What about you? -What about me? 664 00:38:10,193 --> 00:38:12,777 You look like you're creative or something. 665 00:38:12,861 --> 00:38:14,277 Uh, you know? 666 00:38:14,360 --> 00:38:17,110 -Creative. (laughs) -Yeah. 667 00:38:17,193 --> 00:38:20,569 I don't know. Just, like, the way you dress and stuff. 668 00:38:21,235 --> 00:38:24,027 I just thought you might be an artist or something. 669 00:38:26,694 --> 00:38:30,360 Look, if you wanna hook up, we can hook up. 670 00:38:32,527 --> 00:38:37,027 Um... (chuckles) I wasn't expecting that. 671 00:38:37,110 --> 00:38:38,485 Really? 672 00:38:38,569 --> 00:38:41,360 Yeah, I was just making conversation. 673 00:38:42,068 --> 00:38:45,569 I mean, that's my point, you don't really have to. 674 00:38:46,902 --> 00:38:49,819 ♪ Doll, Eskimo, aye! ♪ 675 00:38:49,902 --> 00:38:52,694 -♪ BankRollGotit ♪ -♪ I'm so icy... ♪ 676 00:38:52,777 --> 00:38:55,235 Rue: Maddy wasn't doing well. 677 00:38:55,319 --> 00:38:57,193 Over the course of the last five days, 678 00:38:57,277 --> 00:39:02,152 Maddy has sent Nate a total of 273 text messages, 679 00:39:02,235 --> 00:39:05,193 none of which he answered. 680 00:39:05,277 --> 00:39:07,569 Plus, everyone in her life was against her. 681 00:39:07,652 --> 00:39:09,943 (speaking Spanish) 682 00:39:10,027 --> 00:39:12,444 -Who the fuck are you to judge? -(Sonia speaking Spanish) 683 00:39:12,527 --> 00:39:16,819 Seriously, Mom, Dad has slept on the couch since I was ten years old. 684 00:39:16,902 --> 00:39:18,485 (Sonia speaking Spanish) 685 00:39:18,569 --> 00:39:20,027 I'm not. 686 00:39:20,110 --> 00:39:22,027 I'm just saying love is a million things. 687 00:39:22,110 --> 00:39:25,193 Sometimes it feels good, sometimes it doesn't. 688 00:39:25,277 --> 00:39:28,027 The one thing I know is that Nate loves me no matter what. 689 00:39:28,110 --> 00:39:31,193 He'd fucking kill for me and I'd kill for him. 690 00:39:31,277 --> 00:39:35,611 It feels good to know that there's one person in this whole fucked-up world 691 00:39:35,694 --> 00:39:37,319 who has my back. 692 00:39:37,402 --> 00:39:39,110 You think I want this? 693 00:39:39,193 --> 00:39:43,527 You live in the same house and you don't even say one word to each other. 694 00:39:43,611 --> 00:39:46,485 That's the difference between me and you. 695 00:39:46,569 --> 00:39:49,611 (speaking Spanish) 696 00:39:54,277 --> 00:39:58,027 Kat, I need to come over, like, right now. 697 00:39:58,110 --> 00:40:01,193 -Kat (on phone): I'm not home. -What? Where are you? 698 00:40:01,277 --> 00:40:04,444 -Kat (on phone): With a... friend. -Who? 699 00:40:04,527 --> 00:40:06,611 Kat (on phone): It doesn't really matter. I'm just, like, 700 00:40:06,694 --> 00:40:08,736 in the middle of something. Can I call you back later? 701 00:40:08,819 --> 00:40:13,235 Well, can you blow them off, please? I really need you right now. 702 00:40:13,319 --> 00:40:15,777 Kat (on phone): I-- I can't. I gotta go. 703 00:40:18,319 --> 00:40:21,861 -Sorry about that. -All good. 704 00:40:24,027 --> 00:40:25,360 Um... 705 00:40:26,444 --> 00:40:27,985 So, like... 706 00:40:31,861 --> 00:40:33,193 (sniffs) 707 00:40:35,193 --> 00:40:37,360 (belt unbuckles) 708 00:40:37,444 --> 00:40:39,694 (unzipping) 709 00:40:46,444 --> 00:40:48,068 (moans) 710 00:40:48,694 --> 00:40:50,819 (grunts) Oh! 711 00:40:51,819 --> 00:40:53,527 (groans) 712 00:40:56,736 --> 00:40:58,527 (grunts) Shit. 713 00:40:59,068 --> 00:41:00,736 Mmm! 714 00:41:00,819 --> 00:41:03,110 (grunting) 715 00:41:03,193 --> 00:41:06,235 (groans) Fuck! 716 00:41:06,319 --> 00:41:08,485 (shudders): Shit. 717 00:41:08,985 --> 00:41:10,861 Fuck. 718 00:41:11,193 --> 00:41:13,235 It was just... 719 00:41:13,694 --> 00:41:15,569 (breathes heavily) 720 00:41:15,652 --> 00:41:17,569 That was really good. 721 00:41:18,943 --> 00:41:20,444 (exhales, chuckles) 722 00:41:20,527 --> 00:41:22,402 (breathes heavily) 723 00:41:22,485 --> 00:41:24,694 Seriously, that was like... 724 00:41:25,319 --> 00:41:28,068 one of the best blow jobs I've ever had. 725 00:41:33,402 --> 00:41:35,611 (engine starts) 726 00:41:39,902 --> 00:41:42,027 ♪ ♪ 727 00:41:50,402 --> 00:41:53,277 ♪ ♪ 728 00:41:55,027 --> 00:41:59,360 -(laughing) -(indistinct chatter) 729 00:42:00,861 --> 00:42:04,485 ♪ Hour past time and I didn't want to wake up ♪ 730 00:42:04,569 --> 00:42:06,444 ♪ Eh, eh, oh ♪ 731 00:42:06,527 --> 00:42:09,068 ♪ All that's fine, are we headin' back home? ♪ 732 00:42:09,152 --> 00:42:11,652 ♪ Headin' back home, headin' back home ♪ 733 00:42:11,736 --> 00:42:15,027 ♪ Cross that line and the second we make it ♪ 734 00:42:15,110 --> 00:42:16,943 ♪ Eh, eh, oh ♪ 735 00:42:17,027 --> 00:42:19,652 ♪ All come round, now they sayin' don't go ♪ 736 00:42:19,736 --> 00:42:22,444 ♪ Sayin' don't go, sayin' don't go ♪ 737 00:42:22,527 --> 00:42:24,736 ♪ I'm tired, still we rockin' all days ♪ 738 00:42:24,819 --> 00:42:27,652 ♪ Racin' 'gainst time, think we're neck to neck ♪ 739 00:42:27,736 --> 00:42:29,985 ♪ Got people talking that talk ♪ 740 00:42:30,068 --> 00:42:32,943 ♪ Copy the rhyme but ain't in their walk ♪ 741 00:42:33,027 --> 00:42:35,235 ♪ From outside looks like a circle ♪ 742 00:42:35,319 --> 00:42:38,193 ♪ From on this side it seems like a wall ♪ 743 00:42:38,277 --> 00:42:40,277 ♪ Rough ride, get me through it some way ♪ 744 00:42:40,360 --> 00:42:42,360 ♪ Another long flight, make me earn the pay ♪ 745 00:42:42,444 --> 00:42:44,777 One more time, okay? One more time! 746 00:42:45,485 --> 00:42:47,402 Rue seems really good. 747 00:42:47,485 --> 00:42:50,277 Yeah. She does. 748 00:42:51,444 --> 00:42:53,985 It's 'cause of you, you know. 749 00:43:01,277 --> 00:43:04,777 -Um, I'm gonna go to the bathroom. -Okay. 750 00:43:15,360 --> 00:43:17,485 ♪ ♪ 751 00:43:28,152 --> 00:43:29,819 I'm so sorry I'm late. 752 00:43:29,902 --> 00:43:34,444 My landlord is such a fucking cocksucker. Ugh. 753 00:43:34,527 --> 00:43:37,943 You know that type of person that, like, just tries to get under your skin 754 00:43:38,027 --> 00:43:40,444 for, like, no reason? 755 00:43:40,527 --> 00:43:44,027 Whatever. You don't care. I can breathe. 756 00:43:45,402 --> 00:43:49,193 Oh, my God. You're actually hot? 757 00:43:49,277 --> 00:43:52,902 Can I, uh... Would you like a glass of champagne? 758 00:43:52,985 --> 00:43:55,402 Honey, no. I don't do alcohol. 759 00:44:03,027 --> 00:44:05,402 You from around here? 760 00:44:05,485 --> 00:44:08,360 I'm from planet Venus, baby. 761 00:44:11,485 --> 00:44:13,319 I'm Minako. 762 00:44:13,777 --> 00:44:15,943 But the boys call me Mina. 763 00:44:16,402 --> 00:44:19,569 ("Fabric" by Cupcakke plays on phone) 764 00:44:21,902 --> 00:44:23,444 ♪ Bitch, you don't know me so shut the fuck up ♪ 765 00:44:23,527 --> 00:44:25,235 ♪ Can't walk like Naomi 'cause I got it tucked ♪ 766 00:44:25,319 --> 00:44:26,985 ♪ It's right on my waist and it's heavy as fuck ♪ 767 00:44:27,068 --> 00:44:28,819 ♪ Leave a bitch under like Harriet Tub' ♪ 768 00:44:28,902 --> 00:44:30,527 ♪ I caught a whole body now the block hot ♪ 769 00:44:30,611 --> 00:44:32,110 ♪ You caught a half a body like a crop top ♪ 770 00:44:32,193 --> 00:44:33,777 ♪ If it's in my hair then it's top notch ♪ 771 00:44:33,861 --> 00:44:35,902 ♪ Niggas wanna cock-block Niggas straight squares like hopscotch ♪ 772 00:44:35,985 --> 00:44:38,152 ♪ Yeah, it's too late I'm pulling up straight to the gate ♪ 773 00:44:38,235 --> 00:44:39,611 ♪ This what you call on fate ♪ 774 00:44:39,694 --> 00:44:41,152 ♪ It's only one way to deal with the hate ♪ 775 00:44:41,235 --> 00:44:42,819 ♪ Make a nigga disappear like the period late... ♪ 776 00:44:42,902 --> 00:44:45,943 I'm, um... I just... 777 00:44:46,402 --> 00:44:49,569 -Will you please stop the music? -Jeez. 778 00:44:50,402 --> 00:44:52,736 What is up with you? 779 00:44:52,819 --> 00:44:54,819 (music stops) 780 00:44:54,902 --> 00:44:56,943 (sighs) 781 00:44:59,694 --> 00:45:02,319 -You want a popper? -No. 782 00:45:03,985 --> 00:45:05,485 (scoffs) 783 00:45:06,027 --> 00:45:08,277 Well, then, what do you want? 784 00:45:10,985 --> 00:45:13,444 I just want to talk for a little bit. 785 00:45:14,444 --> 00:45:16,569 What do you want to talk about? 786 00:45:17,652 --> 00:45:20,736 I've just had a really long week. 787 00:45:21,360 --> 00:45:23,652 -Wife? -No. 788 00:45:25,068 --> 00:45:27,943 -Kids? -Yeah. 789 00:45:30,319 --> 00:45:31,902 Mm. 790 00:45:35,402 --> 00:45:38,277 -Boys or girls? -Boys. 791 00:45:38,360 --> 00:45:40,152 Mm. 792 00:45:45,485 --> 00:45:47,985 Cal: Do you think this stuff affects them? 793 00:45:49,527 --> 00:45:51,611 Even if they don't know it? 794 00:45:53,611 --> 00:45:55,444 Minako: I don't know. 795 00:45:57,110 --> 00:46:00,943 Do you think hiding it creates the same thing in them? 796 00:46:01,027 --> 00:46:03,110 Minako: Honey, I don't know. 797 00:46:03,193 --> 00:46:05,360 Everyone knows who I am. 798 00:46:12,068 --> 00:46:14,902 (sighs) 799 00:46:14,985 --> 00:46:16,819 You know... 800 00:46:18,861 --> 00:46:22,985 I spent my whole life trying to keep this part of me separate. 801 00:46:25,527 --> 00:46:28,652 But I feel like it's poisoned everything. 802 00:46:30,360 --> 00:46:32,527 I thought that 803 00:46:32,611 --> 00:46:36,402 I was doing what was best for everybody. 804 00:46:37,319 --> 00:46:40,736 And then, I look at my boys, and... 805 00:46:40,819 --> 00:46:43,694 they have so much anger. 806 00:46:45,235 --> 00:46:46,861 Not just anger... 807 00:46:48,652 --> 00:46:50,527 but rage. 808 00:46:51,611 --> 00:46:53,402 And it scares me. 809 00:46:53,485 --> 00:46:55,902 (inhales) 810 00:46:55,985 --> 00:46:59,527 Cal: Because... it's too late. 811 00:46:59,611 --> 00:47:01,485 (Minako moans) 812 00:47:01,569 --> 00:47:03,902 It's always gonna be inside them. 813 00:47:05,985 --> 00:47:08,736 All those problems you have, baby... 814 00:47:10,027 --> 00:47:12,444 I'm here to fix it. 815 00:47:14,068 --> 00:47:16,569 All that bad energy... 816 00:47:17,402 --> 00:47:19,527 you can give it to me. 817 00:47:20,319 --> 00:47:22,277 I can handle it. 818 00:47:24,152 --> 00:47:25,611 (sighs) 819 00:47:27,652 --> 00:47:30,068 ♪ ♪ 820 00:47:44,444 --> 00:47:46,861 ♪ You're still ♪ 821 00:47:46,943 --> 00:47:52,485 ♪ The same girl ♪ 822 00:47:53,611 --> 00:47:59,819 ♪ You always were ♪ 823 00:48:03,277 --> 00:48:05,611 ♪ You're still ♪ 824 00:48:05,694 --> 00:48:11,611 ♪ The same girl ♪ 825 00:48:12,444 --> 00:48:18,485 ♪ You always were ♪ 826 00:48:23,110 --> 00:48:25,694 ♪ A few more nights ♪ 827 00:48:25,777 --> 00:48:28,819 You know, it seems like we never do this anymore. 828 00:48:29,861 --> 00:48:31,444 Yeah. 829 00:48:32,152 --> 00:48:35,235 ♪ A few more holes ♪ 830 00:48:35,319 --> 00:48:37,985 ♪ In your arm ♪ 831 00:48:40,569 --> 00:48:44,694 -You gonna spend the night? -Uh, I should probably go home. 832 00:48:44,777 --> 00:48:48,319 Okay. Uh, well, is it cool if I just go with you? 833 00:48:50,527 --> 00:48:52,943 Uh, yeah. Sure. 834 00:48:53,777 --> 00:48:59,402 ♪ Still the same girl ♪ 835 00:48:59,485 --> 00:49:01,527 (phone buzzing) 836 00:49:02,777 --> 00:49:05,943 -♪ Same sweet smile ♪ -My God. 837 00:49:06,027 --> 00:49:09,027 ♪ That you always had ♪ 838 00:49:09,110 --> 00:49:11,068 What's up, bro? 839 00:49:13,110 --> 00:49:15,569 Yeah, I'm with her right now. What's up? 840 00:49:17,277 --> 00:49:20,193 He says can you tell Maddy to download Signal? 841 00:49:21,985 --> 00:49:25,402 -♪ Same clear voice ♪ -(phone bloops) 842 00:49:25,485 --> 00:49:28,444 -(tires skidding) -(honking) 843 00:49:28,527 --> 00:49:30,068 (loud honking) 844 00:49:30,152 --> 00:49:33,527 -Woman (in car): Get off the road, you fucking cunt! -Fuck you! 845 00:49:35,110 --> 00:49:41,485 ♪ The same girl ♪ 846 00:49:42,943 --> 00:49:46,152 ♪ That I ♪ 847 00:49:46,235 --> 00:49:47,694 (phone beeps) 848 00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:50,569 ♪ Love ♪ 849 00:49:57,110 --> 00:49:59,235 (engine revs) 850 00:50:01,152 --> 00:50:03,235 ♪ ♪ 851 00:50:07,527 --> 00:50:10,402 -(car alarm chirps) -♪ You're still ♪ 852 00:50:10,485 --> 00:50:15,235 ♪ T he same girl ♪ 853 00:50:15,319 --> 00:50:17,193 (engine starts) 854 00:50:17,277 --> 00:50:23,736 ♪ You always were ♪ 855 00:50:26,736 --> 00:50:29,360 ♪ Still ♪ 856 00:50:29,444 --> 00:50:34,736 ♪ The same girl ♪ 857 00:50:36,193 --> 00:50:42,277 ♪ You always were ♪ 858 00:50:46,485 --> 00:50:49,611 ♪ With the same sweet smile ♪ 859 00:50:50,402 --> 00:50:54,152 ♪ That you always had ♪ 860 00:50:55,444 --> 00:50:58,277 ♪ And the same blue eyes ♪ 861 00:50:59,235 --> 00:51:01,485 ♪ Like the sun ♪ 862 00:51:05,569 --> 00:51:09,193 -♪ And the same clear voice ♪ -Hey, handsome. 863 00:51:09,277 --> 00:51:12,652 ♪ That I always ♪ 864 00:51:13,319 --> 00:51:15,902 (knocks on door) 865 00:51:15,985 --> 00:51:18,652 ♪ Still ♪ 866 00:51:18,736 --> 00:51:25,235 ♪ The same girl ♪ 867 00:51:25,319 --> 00:51:26,569 (sniffles) 868 00:51:26,652 --> 00:51:31,861 ♪ That I ♪ 869 00:51:31,943 --> 00:51:34,652 ♪ Love ♪ 870 00:51:41,861 --> 00:51:43,985 ♪ ♪ 871 00:51:57,694 --> 00:51:59,611 ♪ ♪ 872 00:51:59,694 --> 00:52:01,694 (wind whistling) 873 00:52:01,777 --> 00:52:03,861 ♪ ♪ 874 00:52:12,611 --> 00:52:15,110 (wind whistling) 875 00:52:15,193 --> 00:52:19,985 ♪ It was just before the moon hung ♪ 876 00:52:20,068 --> 00:52:24,485 ♪ Her weary, heavy head in ♪ 877 00:52:24,569 --> 00:52:29,110 ♪ The gallows and the graves of ♪ 878 00:52:29,193 --> 00:52:33,527 ♪ The milky, milky cradle ♪ 879 00:52:33,611 --> 00:52:38,110 ♪ His tears have turned to poppies ♪ 880 00:52:38,193 --> 00:52:42,485 ♪ A shimmer in the midnight ♪ 881 00:52:42,569 --> 00:52:46,819 ♪ A flower in the twilight ♪ 882 00:52:46,902 --> 00:52:50,736 ♪ A flower in the twilight ♪ 883 00:52:50,819 --> 00:52:54,694 ♪ And our screaming ♪ 884 00:52:54,777 --> 00:52:59,819 ♪ Is in his screaming ♪ 885 00:52:59,902 --> 00:53:03,569 ♪ Our screaming ♪ 886 00:53:03,652 --> 00:53:07,068 ♪ Is in his screaming ♪ 887 00:53:09,485 --> 00:53:12,527 ♪ Our screaming ♪ 888 00:53:12,611 --> 00:53:17,402 ♪ In the willow tree ♪ 889 00:53:17,485 --> 00:53:19,611 (wind whistling) 890 00:53:57,694 --> 00:53:59,569 RUE BENNETT: Christopher McKay's father demanded excellence. 891 00:53:59,652 --> 00:54:00,444 (WHISTLE BLOWS) 892 00:54:00,694 --> 00:54:02,777 Then he got to college and he realized... 893 00:54:03,152 --> 00:54:05,068 he didn't stand a chance of going pro. 894 00:54:05,319 --> 00:54:06,110 (WHISTLE BLOWS) 895 00:54:06,736 --> 00:54:08,027 CHRIS MCKAY: If we go to this party and you dress like that, 896 00:54:08,110 --> 00:54:09,152 I ain't gon' ever hear the end of it. 897 00:54:09,444 --> 00:54:11,985 MAN: The whole point of Halloween is to look attractive. 898 00:54:13,193 --> 00:54:14,235 (LAUGHTER) 899 00:54:14,985 --> 00:54:16,569 MAN 2: The situation with your son, 900 00:54:16,652 --> 00:54:17,985 a lot of people are talking. 901 00:54:18,485 --> 00:54:19,611 You need a plan. 902 00:54:19,694 --> 00:54:21,319 (PRINTER WHIRRING) 903 00:54:22,319 --> 00:54:25,110 RUE: Every time I feel good, I think it'll last forever. 904 00:54:25,902 --> 00:54:26,985 But it doesn't. 905 00:54:32,027 --> 00:54:34,611 ♪ (TRIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYS) ♪ 906 00:54:38,527 --> 00:54:41,193 I was drawn to Maddy as a character because I knew 907 00:54:41,277 --> 00:54:43,235 she would pull me out of my comfort zone. 908 00:54:43,694 --> 00:54:46,068 I think Maddy's always been confident. 909 00:54:46,152 --> 00:54:47,277 Like when she was a little girl, 910 00:54:47,360 --> 00:54:50,694 she was winning pageant after pageant. 911 00:54:50,777 --> 00:54:54,277 So, I think her confidence is something that she's always had. 912 00:54:55,027 --> 00:54:57,736 Like I think Maddy definitely runs Nate. 913 00:54:58,110 --> 00:54:59,777 She definitely gets what she wants out of him, 914 00:54:59,861 --> 00:55:03,819 but in those moments where he gets angry and violent 915 00:55:03,902 --> 00:55:05,110 and dark, she just... 916 00:55:05,193 --> 00:55:08,110 she's so weak, and I think she's in pain. 917 00:55:08,193 --> 00:55:10,985 She's in a toxic, abusive relationship. 918 00:55:11,819 --> 00:55:13,861 RUE BENNETT: It wasn't the violence that scared her. 919 00:55:14,319 --> 00:55:16,985 It was the fact that she knew no matter what he did, 920 00:55:17,360 --> 00:55:18,736 she'd still love him. 921 00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:21,569 She thinks that what Nate provides for her 922 00:55:21,652 --> 00:55:24,235 and does for her is 100 times better 923 00:55:24,319 --> 00:55:26,235 than what she's seen her dad do. 924 00:55:26,611 --> 00:55:28,569 Growing up in a dysfunctional home, 925 00:55:29,068 --> 00:55:30,902 you can end up in those relationships 926 00:55:30,985 --> 00:55:32,985 because they either seem normal to you, 927 00:55:33,068 --> 00:55:35,694 or they seem better than what you've seen at home. 928 00:55:35,985 --> 00:55:37,943 Maddy will do anything in her power 929 00:55:38,027 --> 00:55:39,819 not to end up like her parents. 930 00:55:39,902 --> 00:55:43,444 She doesn't want that life, so she's-- she's trying to find 931 00:55:43,527 --> 00:55:46,068 a way out in any way she can and I think... 932 00:55:46,402 --> 00:55:48,736 that's where the relationship with Nate comes in. 933 00:55:48,819 --> 00:55:51,193 I think she likes the idea of it. 934 00:55:51,402 --> 00:55:53,068 So even though he's hurting her, she just-- 935 00:55:53,402 --> 00:55:56,277 she thinks it's better than what she's grown up watching. 936 00:55:57,569 --> 00:55:59,485 Just saying love is a million things! 937 00:55:59,569 --> 00:56:02,360 Sometimes, it feels good. Sometimes, it doesn't. 938 00:56:02,444 --> 00:56:05,402 MOTHER: Trust me when I tell you that the person that did this 939 00:56:05,736 --> 00:56:06,777 doesn't love you. 940 00:56:07,611 --> 00:56:10,402 I think Maddy feels like everyone's against her, 941 00:56:10,485 --> 00:56:11,985 and no one understands them. 942 00:56:12,068 --> 00:56:15,235 It feels like the lowest point of her life, 943 00:56:15,319 --> 00:56:20,319 and even then, she's-- she's still rooting for Nate. 944 00:56:20,402 --> 00:56:22,319 She wants him to figure out a plan. 945 00:56:22,402 --> 00:56:23,861 She wants him to be okay. 946 00:56:24,319 --> 00:56:28,360 She really feels like they have this special bond, 947 00:56:28,444 --> 00:56:31,943 but it's-- you know, it's a dysfunctional young love. 948 00:56:32,444 --> 00:56:35,444 ♪ (SOMBER ELECTRONIC MUSIC PLAYS) ♪ 949 00:56:37,152 --> 00:56:39,360 Working with Jacob was incredible. 950 00:56:39,444 --> 00:56:42,527 I couldn't have asked for a better scene partner. 951 00:56:42,736 --> 00:56:46,861 Those scenes are really intense, and you know, it is-- 952 00:56:46,943 --> 00:56:50,277 it's acting, but it's physical and you know, 953 00:56:50,360 --> 00:56:53,360 you're pouring all of your emotion into this. 954 00:56:54,152 --> 00:56:56,027 I think Maddy's searching for 955 00:56:56,110 --> 00:56:58,402 any bit of love, any bit of hope. 956 00:56:58,485 --> 00:57:02,152 I think we want love sometimes so bad, 957 00:57:02,235 --> 00:57:03,985 we stay in these relationships 958 00:57:04,068 --> 00:57:06,027 even when we know they aren't right. 959 00:57:06,110 --> 00:57:08,777 But she doesn't want to admit that to herself. 960 00:57:08,985 --> 00:57:10,652 She just wants everybody to leave her alone, 961 00:57:10,736 --> 00:57:12,444 and she wants it to just be her and Nate. 962 00:57:12,527 --> 00:57:14,152 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪