[Kate exhales]
Hi.
- What took you so long? - I was literally in Antarctica.
Hmm. That's a likely excuse.
Well, you know how I like to make an entrance.
[Kate chuckles softly]
[sighs]
So if you're wondering why I look like shit,
I have inflammatory breast cancer...
[sucks teeth] ...which is apparently, like, the most aggressive kind you can get.
So...
lucky me.
Kate.
- I don't know how you handle it. - [Tully exhales]
Being the center of attention all the time.
It's exhausting.
Everyone trying to cater to me, walking on eggshells around me,
worrying about me,
and then I can't tell them that...
I'm scared,
because then I wouldn't be brave and inspiring.
They all just love you so much.
Yeah.
That's the hard part.
[Kate inhales]
I don't want to overstep...
but have you considered... [inhales]
...being an asshole?
[laughs, snorts]
That's my strategy.
I like to be just enough of a bitch that if it were to come out I might die,
no one's upset.
They're just sort of like, "Cool, when?"
[Kate chuckles]
["Both Sides Now" by Joni Mitchell playing]
- Shit, my knitting needle is stabbing me. - [Tully chuckles]
It's pretty.
♪ Rows and floes of angel hair ♪
♪ And ice cream castles in the air... ♪
That is definitely your color.
♪ And feather canyons everywhere... ♪
Guess I was knitting it for you all along.
- ♪ But now they only block the sun... ♪ - [Tully exhales]
- ♪ They rain and snow on everyone... ♪ - [Kate sobbing]
♪ So many things I would have done ♪
♪ But clouds got in my way ♪
♪ I've looked at clouds From both sides now ♪
♪ From up and down And still somehow ♪
♪ It's cloud illusions I recall ♪
♪ I really don't know clouds ♪
♪ At all... ♪
[Kate sighs]
- ♪ Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels... ♪ - [baby Marah crying]
- ♪ The dizzy dancing way that you feel ♪ - [shushing] It's okay.
- ♪ As every fairy tale comes real... ♪ - [indistinct whispers]
- Oh, okay... [sighs] - [crying stops]
♪ But now it's just another show ♪
- ♪ You leave 'em laughing when you go ♪ - [sighs]
♪ And if you care... ♪
Hey, Coop. How was your weekend?
Oh, you like my top?
Oh, it's just something I threw together last minute.
I wouldn't say "bombshell."
Ugh.
♪ And still somehow It's love's illusions that I recall ♪
♪ I really don't know love... ♪
[Kate inhales]
♪ At all... ♪
[sighs]
[breathes deeply]
♪ Tears and fears and feeling proud... ♪
Hey, Coop. [sighs]
♪ To say "I love you" right out loud ♪
♪ Dreams and schemes and circus crowds ♪
♪ I've looked at life that way ♪
[Kate] Hey.
- Oh, well, hello there. Good morning. - [Johnny chuckles]
[inhales] Sorry.
No, don't apologize. I like it.
I know it's been a while.
[inhales]
I'm so sorry that we've been stranded in a sex desert.
It's not you. It's the chemo.
I get it.
Except I'm done with the chemo.
I know. Doctor said it could take a while.
[sucks teeth] But I'm actually feeling a lot better.
Oh, really?
Okay. So...
does that mean, like, maybe we should try and...
Only if you want to.
Yeah, of course. I do. Yeah. But, you know, if you're comfortable.
- I don't wanna make you feel you have to-- - Oh, just fucking kiss me.
[Johnny breathing heavily]
- Wait, stop. [sighs] - [Johnny] Oh, I'm sorry.
- Are... Are you okay? Did I hurt you? - No, I just don't want you to...
I just don't want you to look at me.
- The rash just looks so awful and I-- - It doesn't look awful.
Yes, it does. I cannot wait till they get it off of me.
This...
surgery cannot come soon enough.
Well...
I think you look beautiful.
Yeah, that's what you say to make someone feel better
when they're bald and sporting a giant cancerous rash.
[Kate inhales]
I'm sorry. I mean,
we can still keep going, just work around the boobs.
Yeah, sure, yeah. If you want.
Well, do you want to?
Totally up to you.
- [alarm chiming] - Oh.
You know what, look, forget it, let's just...
Yeah, we should get to the doctor.
[sighs] Yeah.
Okay, well, I'm gonna jump in the shower. Unless, did you want to go first?
[sucks teeth] No, it's fine.
Probably gonna take a minute anyway.
Okay.
I love you, Mularkey.
[chuckles softly]
And you are beautiful.
You know something?
What?
The best sex is yet to come.
[chuckles]
Yeah, totally.
[tender music playing]
[breathes deeply]
- [Kate] Shh! - [baby Marah crying]
Okay! It's okay, sweetie! It's okay!
"Continue this football hold until the baby latches..."
- I'm trying. It's not working. - "...and the baby will suckle."
Yeah, she's not suckling.
"Make sure you and your baby are relaxed and comfortable..."
- Does she look relaxed? - "...before trying another angle."
This is the fourth angle.
Okay, well, I'm not sure what else you want me to do, Kate.
Help me help her do this.
I am helping, but at some point you have to face facts.
Do not start with that.
- Please, Kate. She's hungry. - Yeah, that's why I'm feeding her.
- We already supplement with formula. - That's why she has nipple confusion.
- I think you'd both be so much happier-- - I'm not giving up on this, okay?!
I will breastfeed my baby! This is a beautiful and natural process!
- But we don't have to punish ourselves. - We?
- [Marah continues crying] - [Johnny sighs]
[bell dings]
[Kate exhales]
- Can you take her? I have to go pump. - You actually don't have to.
I actually do have to. It's the only way to get my supply up.
Shh, it's okay.
Shh...
Ow! [sighs]
Someday your breasts will be better, but until then...
Holy boobs, Batman.
It's just like a little enhancement.
Like, people wear lipstick to make their lips redder,
they wear mascara to make their eyelashes look longer.
- Did Coop say something about your chest? - No, it's just something I'm trying out.
Could you be a little bit more supportive?
I'm being more supportive than that Kleenex.
- [Kate sighs] - Look, okay.
Here, okay, let me fix it, then, because it's all lumpy.
- I'll take some of that. - Okay, well, don't make them too small.
They need to look realistic,
and you really don't need to be doing this for him.
I know.
This is for me, though.
I mean, that kiss was so amazing, Tul.
It made me feel like a woman, and I want to look like a woman.
[Tully chuckles softly]
I'm really glad you got a good kiss.
- [chuckles] - Oh, it was better than good.
It was like an out-of-body experience.
Like, I'm still floating from it.
And, you know, the craziest part is I never even looked at Coop before this.
Like, he was so far out of my league I never even bothered.
He was just this vague handsome figure
floating down the hall getting high-fives from everybody.
I just can't believe that the hottest guy at Barbara Lee Ellis High
is interested in me.
He is lucky that you're interested in him.
[Kate scoffs]
No, I'm serious, look at you.
[gentle music playing]
Okay. You've no idea how foxy you are.
- Thanks, Tul. I feel a lot foxier now. - [Tully chuckles]
Come on.
Let's go.
[both giggle]
[Kate sighs]
[sighs] I feel like a cow who's being slowly milked to death.
Now my udders are so sore from that stupid machine.
How much did you get?
- [sighs] Almost two ounces. - That's it?
I mean, that's it! Two ounces. That's great.
[scoffs] Every drop counts, Johnny, it's liquid gold. I mean, breast is best.
So I've heard. [exhales]
Anyway, I put it in the fridge,
and we have enough for a whole bottle of mom milk in the morning.
Shit, where are the herbs from the lactation lady?
I don't know.
I'm supposed to take them every two hours. Shit.
- You know, I've been thinking, maybe-- - Shh! Shh! Tully's on.
- [Johnny sighs] - [indistinct chatter on TV]
[man on TV] Uh, feel free to call in to let us know about that.
Uh, moderate temperatures throughout the day. You can expect...
Landlord called, said if we don't remove the satellite dish from the roof,
he's gonna do it himself, charge us for the labor.
Did you tell him we need it? It's the only way I get to see Tully.
Mayor Koch said the police department
is providing additional security around the city...
Does she look different to you?
- As final preparations are... - [Johnny] Maybe it's her hair.
[Kate] Her boobs, they look smaller.
[Johnny] What? You're insane. If anything they look bigger.
[Kate] No, they only look bigger
because of that blouse and the weird low angle,
but they're actually smaller, I swear.
[Johnny] How can they be bigger but smaller?
- [Kate] Trust me. I know her breasts. - [Johnny] Do tell.
[Kate scoffs] Not like that. Can't you see? They're smushed down.
Yeah, at least two cup sizes.
You are just obsessed with boobs at the moment.
- [chuckles] - You are. It's all you think about.
...finally coming together to talk. Back to you in the studio.
[phone dialing]
[voicemail] Hello. Please leave a message after the tone.
[chuckling] Tull! Oh my God! Great report! This is so exciting!
"Live from New York. It's Tully Hart on the local news!"
[chuckles]
Oh, Tul. I'm so proud of you.
God, I can't believe it.
You taking the leap and moving out there, even though I miss you like crazy.
Anyway, speaking of crazy, am I crazy or are your boobs shrinking?
- [Johnny sighs] - I'm probably crazy.
Johnny thinks I'm breast obsessed because mine don't work.
Oh my God, someone from my "mommy and me" group
literally gasped when I told them that I had to supplement with formula.
It's a nightmare.
Anyway, I am not giving up. I will breastfeed my baby. God damn it!
Anyway, Marah misses you too.
[knocking on door]
Oh shit, I gotta go. The lactation lady's here.
Okay, call me.
[gentle music playing]
[hair dryer whirring]
[phone ringing]
[switches off hair dryer]
[phone chimes]
- Hi. - Hi.
- Uh, so you have the, uh-- - Yeah, we're supposed... [chuckles]
- Sorry. - Sorry. Go ahead.
- Sorry. - [Tully] Go ahead. You called me, right?
I just wanted to touch base.
You're coming with me to the hospital tomorrow
and I want to make sure you know we leave at 7:00 a.m. for check-in.
Yep, I will be there.
[Kate breathes deeply]
Everything okay?
Yeah, Johnny and I are just about to head out for my pre-op appointment.
Are you nervous?
No, honestly, I can't wait to get it over with.
- Never really liked my boobs anyway. - What? You have fabulous boobs.
I mean, not...
not that the new ones won't be too,
I'm sure. [sighs]
I'm sorry. I... I am not good at this.
It's okay.
None of us really are.
And what is with the new Tully just, like, apologizing all over the place?
I am the new Tully, Kate.
I am not the same as I was before.
Yeah, I guess none of us are.
[inhales]
I'm sorry.
No, I'm sorry.
[Kate] I guess, maybe, things are just gonna be weird for a while.
Yeah.
- I'm so glad you're back in my life, Tul. - [Tully] Me too.
I cannot imagine doing any of this without you.
Even though I did for a long time.
I know. [inhales deeply]
I'm sorry. [exhales]
No more apologies, okay?
[Tully] Okay, sorry.
[Kate] Okay, I should go.
- Good luck today. - [Kate] Thanks. See you tomorrow?
[Tully] You sure will.
[Kate] Mmm.
- Hey. - Hey, Mama.
What?
Nothing.
Just how you eat your cookies and milk. It's just like when you were little.
Because it's good.
[both chuckle]
- [crying] - Shh! Shh!
It's okay. It's gonna be okay.
It's okay. It's gonna be okay, baby.
Will you please take her, Daddy?
Yep.
[Marah continues crying]
- [Johnny] There we go. - All right, let's see.
[huffs] Your milk still isn't letting down.
Have you been using the surrogate nipple to help her latch?
Of course, I... I've done everything that you've told me to do.
I'm taking the herbs, I'm drinking all the teas,
and I'm pumping every two hours.
I have no idea why I'm not making more.
At what point should we talk about maybe letting go?
- Letting go? - [scoffs]
Yeah, I just think maybe Kate and Marah might be happier if we just used formula.
[sighs]
That's not helpful, Daddy.
Mommy needs your support if she's going to succeed.
Don't worry, Amy, I'm not giving up. I have to do this.
[Amy] Good for you, Mommy.
Just remember, your body was designed for this.
But you won't make milk if you're stressed.
You need to bond with your baby
and let your breasts do what they were made to do.
- Okay. - They can't work if you don't let them.
- I'll see you Wednesday. - Okay. Thank you.
Wednesday. I can't wait. We'll see you then.
[door opens]
Tell you what'd help me de-stress, not paying 200 bucks an hour
to someone who stresses you out by telling you not to stress.
- Well, it's worth the money if it works. - Except it's not working.
Well, it will work. If I try hard enough, I can do this. I know it.
I mean, you heard her. It's the most natural thing in the world.
Well, if it's so natural, why do we need her?
Because obviously there's something wrong with me and I need help fixing it.
- There's nothing wrong with you. - [Kate sighs]
All right? She's the problem, making you feel inadequate. You're not.
Also, the way she calls me Daddy is creepy and disgusting.
She's just using the names that we want Marah to use.
- She told us that from the beginning. - [Johnny] I know.
I just worry about you. That's all.
[Kate] I will be fine.
Once my boobs start working, I will be lounging in a sunroom
with my beautiful little baby in the cutest cloth little diapers
as she is nestled into my breast, suckling peacefully,
while I read a book, bathed in a shaft of beautiful sunlight.
We don't have a sunroom.
Then we better get one because that's what I pictured, not this fucking hellscape.
- Could you? Ow! That's... - That's it.
- It's fine, I got it. - Okay, okay.
- Where are you going? - [sighs] For a walk.
With Marah to de-stress and bond with my baby and to fucking relax.
[Johnny] Okay.
- Take your time. - [door slams shut]
[mysterious music playing]
[crunching]
Oh my God! Danny! Why are you in my apartment?
Why are you in your apartment? I thought you were in Antarctica.
That doesn't explain why you're getting Cheeto dust all over my sofa.
Celeste had friends over for brunch, and I just needed a little "me" time.
- That's all. - In my living room?
You gave me the key to your place.
- And you told me to look after it. - I meant to water the plants.
- Which I did. They're green and healthy. - Okay.
You can open your eyes now, you jackass.
[Danny sighs]
Okay.
This is awkward, but let's just put it all on the table.
I saw your boobs.
- Okay, we don't have to-- - Nothing I haven't seen before, you know?
Of course, it was 20 years ago, so...
But, you know...
What're you implying?
What? Nothing.
My breasts have not changed. They look as good as ever.
I concur. They're surprisingly firm and perky.
Surprisingly?
What? Isn't that a good thing, right?
Because...
Okay, just get out.
Get out, please. The party is over. Go back to your penthouse.
There might be some, like, Cheeto dust in between the cushions--
- Just go. Just, please. - Okay.
- It's good to have you back. - [Tully sighs]
- We should catch up. - Mmm!
[Danny] Okay.
[tender music plays]
[doctor] We're very pleased with the chemo results.
Following the unilateral mastectomy and radiation,
you'll be ready for reconstruction in 6 to 12 months.
Do you have any questions?
Nope, just can't wait to get it over with.
They're not something I've ever been attached to.
Truly, I'm just ready to move forward. The breast is yet to come, right?
[doctor] How are you coming along after chemo?
Yeah, I mean, you know, I guess it's been hard with the chemo.
You know, sent me into early menopause with the hot flashes and the mood swings,
but, you know, my appetite's come back, and my hair has stopped hurting.
Oh, and I have stopped bruising so easily,
and the whole see-sawing thing with the constipation and diarrhea's gone.
So, it's, you know... It's all... It's all good news.
How about intimacy? Are you still struggling sexually?
[Kate chuckles]
[objects clatter]
Yeah, uh, a little bit.
All of this is very common.
What used to be normal is gone, but you will find a new normal.
- Great. - [doctor] Intimacy will return.
But for now, focus on your upcoming surgery.
Losing a breast can be very emotional.
It's perfectly natural to go through a grieving process,
but there's life beyond this.
Have faith that you'll get there.
Honestly, I'm just looking forward to being done with it.
You know, they were never really that special, anyway. So...
[tender music playing]
- Great. - Yeah.
- I don't think this'll fit. - Yeah, I know what you mean.
- I don't think I can wear a bra with this. - Yeah, I know what you mean.
Hey, you, how's it going?
- Look at that! - [Kate] Oh my God!
Oh, don't worry, I could totally tell that he was hot for you.
- Really? - Yeah. Yeah, for sure.
- Okay. - [Mr. Waverly] Listen up, thespians.
God hath given you one face.
Now go put on another.
[chuckles]
I'm paraphrasing.
Hamlet.
Go put on your costumes for rehearsal. Let's go. [claps]
[students murmuring]
[Tully] Good night! Good night!
As sweet repose and rest come to thy heart as that within my breast.
Oh, will thou leave me so unsatisfied.
[Tully] What satisfaction canst thou have tonight?
The exchange for thy love's faithful vow for mine.
Stop, stop, stop. Dear God, please stop.
[breathes deeply]
Okay, those are all the right words,
but, um, let's say we try again...
[inhales deeply] ...like we're actually alive.
Acting is not just about reciting dialogue.
It's about... [sighs]
...bringing the spirit and the emotions of these characters to life.
Don't just say Shakespeare's words. Feel them, be them.
You're in love with her, Coop.
Except I'm not, Mr. Waverly.
But when you're on stage, you are.
You become Romeo,
and Tully becomes Juliet,
a girl that you are so madly, insanely in love with
that you would... that you would destroy any obstacle,
even your own family,
just to bask in the sound of her voice.
[sighs]
She speaks.
"O, speak again, bright angel."
"For thou art as glorious to this night, being over my head...
[inhales]
...as is a winged messenger of heaven
unto the white, upturned, wondering eyes of mortals
that fall back in gaze upon him as he bestrides the lazy-puffing clouds
and sails upon the bosom of the air."
O Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father and refuse thy name.
Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,
and I will no longer be a Capulet.
[claps]
Yes!
[students murmuring]
- [exhales] You see that, Coop? - Yeah.
[Mr. Waverly] That's it. That is it.
Excellent work, Tully.
[exhales]
Okay. Everyone take five. [clears throat]
- Now you feel it? - Good!
Feel it?
- Hey. - You were really good, Tul.
Thanks. Yeah, I was really feeling it just then.
- Oh yeah. You're a natural-born performer. - Thanks.
He's good.
[tender music playing]
[indistinct chatter]
[sputters] Uh, I'm gonna go put some props away.
Oh, uh...
- Do you need help with that or-- - [Kate] No.
No, I'll just, um, grab this, uh... this goblet.
Right.
- Okay. - Okay.
You can do this, so calm, so relaxed.
Just get the...
[Theo] Oh, no, no, no. Let me get that for you, miss.
[Kate] Thank you.
It's you.
Theo, hi. How are you? Um, how... how is everything?
[Theo exhales]
Single.
Oh, you're still... Um, I mean...
[chuckles] Yes, yes, still single.
That's great. So great. I mean, it's like the world's your oyster.
You're a free man. Nothing is tying you down.
So how's, uh, you know, um...
How... How is everything?
Oh, you mean my, um...
my remaining testicle?
It's fine, thank you for asking.
That's great. I mean, it's not great,
but it is great that your... testicle is doing well,
the remaining... the remaining one, the one that is, uh, still... there.
They say you don't actually need two. One is kinda like a spare, you know?
It's... It's more just there for symmetry.
I'll be sure to remember that next time I have to break the news to a date.
Well, Theo, I'm just glad you're... that you're well.
Part of me was just worried that, you know,
I don't know, you're out there simmering and holding a grudge
somewhere in the world.
But at this point, all that's like water under the bridge, right?
- It's so long ago, who even remembers? - I remember.
[chuckles] I see that you, uh... you have a little one.
Yeah, this is my, um, baby, Marah.
Marah, this is my old friend Theo.
Hello, Marah.
You know, I heard that you married Johnny.
I guess everything worked out for you.
[sighs deeply]
Happy for you, Kate.
[playful music playing]
All right...
- [Margie] You look a little tired still. - [Johnny] Do I?
- [Margie] Yeah. - [Sean] Katie!
Kate!
Guess who dropped by for a wonderful surprise.
- Ahh! - Fantastic.
I mean, if there's anything we... we love, it's a surprise.
Oh, that's...
- Come here. - Oh, you know, she's finally down.
- So I'm just gonna go put her down. - [Margie] Oh.
Well, I know what it's like to be a new mother. [chuckles]
How busy and tired you are.
If my mother didn't just drop in unannounced twice a week,
well, I wouldn't have had time for her. [chuckles]
So true. Wait till you have two, Kate.
Luca and Mia are on completely different sleep schedules. It's just chaos.
And plus, Julia's breastfeeding day and night.
She says she feels like a one-woman dairy farm.
[Margie chuckles]
Yes, know how she feels.
What's with the, uh, pump? It's not like you're working.
It helps with the flow.
Oh.
Are you having flow problems? Do you need a lactation consultant?
No. We're...
Because Julia didn't have flow problems.
More like overflow problems, but we know a couple good ones.
- Oh, that's cool. We're covered. - That's a ridiculous job.
Lactation consultant? Formula works just fine.
It's better than fine. It gives them all of the nutrients they need.
Formula is like feeding your baby white bread and hot dogs.
- I fed you white bread and hot dogs. - That was 30 years ago.
We're practically in the '90s. Breast is best. We know that now.
Hogwash. Formula worked just fine for me.
Hear! Hear! It's a valid option.
[Margie] Hmm. And it'll save your marriage.
After all, the breasts are really just for the husband. Hmm?
Ew! Mom!
- Well... - They're for the baby.
And as a husband, I can say I'm totally fine with that. It's not a problem for me.
Oh, hey, why don't we give you some of Julia's milk?
We have gallons just sitting in our freezer.
[Kate exhales]
Okay, who wants a snack? We got cookies.
And we have...
milk, the store-bought kind.
[jug thuds]
You know, maybe you're not getting the proper nutrition.
Eating a lot of cookies?
Nothing but cookies, night and day, both of us, actually, love it.
Cookie, cookie, cookie.
Tried to give one to Marah once, but, uh, she didn't go for it.
Oh! That is very dangerous, giving solids to a baby Marah's age.
Mom, he's joking.
[Margie sputters]
Well, I don't think that that's funny.
[Johnny sucks teeth] Sorry.
There is a reason that you two look so exhausted.
Those bags under Kate's eyes.
If you just gave Marah some formula, you might be able to sleep.
[tender music plays]
You know what? Um, it is time for me to go pump.
So I am just gonna go and do that.
[knocking on door]
[door hinge creaks]
Oh, so he does know how to knock.
Right. [laughs]
Look, um, I want to apologize about, well, earlier.
It's fine.
I did give you a key after all,
but I appreciate you coming over to apologize.
- That's very thoughtful. - Of course.
Um, I also think I may have lost my cell phone
in between your couch cushions.
Okay.
[Tully sighs]
So, how come you didn't tell me you were back?
You... You mad at me or something?
No, of course not.
I've just been really busy. There's this thing going on with Kate.
Oh.
So you and Kate made up.
That explains why you don't need old Dan the Sports Man anymore.
What? No. It's... It's not like that.
Oh, it kind of sounds like that.
Wait.
- Are you mad? - [Danny laughs]
Not at all. It must be hard to walk ten steps to knock on my door.
Wow, you are mad.
I'm not mad, Tully.
Just because we hung out a lot when you didn't have Kate,
and now that you do, you didn't tell me that you're back, doesn't mean I'm mad.
- Are you sure? 'Cause you sound mad. - I'm not.
Okay, maybe I'm a little hurt, but mad?
That is almost sweet, Danny.
But also annoying because we're not 12.
I'm sorry. Okay? You're right. I know I sound crazy.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was back.
[Tully sighs]
Maybe I've just been... [sighs]
...sort of avoiding other people.
There's, um...
[smacks lips]
There's something going on...
with Kate.
It's big.
[Tully sighs]
What is it, Tully?
[knocking on door]
- Hey, Tully. Have you seen my guy? - Hey, I found it.
I am so sorry he was using your place as his man cave.
Oh my God, he was so embarrassed about the boob thing.
I was like, "Grow up. It's hilarious."
Yeah, so funny.
Hey, you want to come over to our place? Have a drink with us?
I wanna hear about Antarctica.
Um, you know what? I'm actually late to meet my friend Kate. Rain check?
[Celeste] Yes, definitely.
Let us know.
[gentle music playing]
[birds squawking]
- [Kate] Oh, really? No. - [Johnny] Yeah. I wouldn't lie.
- Surprise! - [screams, gasps]
Oh my God! You scared the shit out of me.
What is this?
It's a "boob voyage" party for just the two of us.
Johnny's gonna take Marah to the movies so we can have a little girl time.
- Really? - Thought you could use it.
- Have fun. Don't corrupt her, please. - [Kate chuckles] Mmm.
And now for the piece de resistance.
Ta-da!
- [Kate laughs] - [joyful music plays]
- Or should I say ta-ta! - [Kate continues laughing]
You're such a nut!
Oh, I can't. Surgery's tomorrow.
Babe, I got you covered.
It's sparkling cider.
Oh, well, in that case, let's do this.
- Okay. - [Kate chuckles]
Thanks for the mammaries.
[Tully chuckles]
[girl] Do you wanna come sit with us?
I've been wanting to do this all day.
- Come here. - Um, okay.
[tender music playing]
[both breathing heavily]
[music stops abruptly]
Um...
I just keep that there for... emergencies. In case I sneeze.
[Coop chuckles]
You don't have to do this for me. You're perfect the way you are.
- Really? - [Coop] Yeah.
[both breathing heavily]
[Kate breathes deeply]
Oh my...
[Kate breathing heavily]
[tender music playing]
Oh my God.
Oh! Oh my... Oh my God. Oh God!
- [Kate moans, breathes heavily] - Shh!
- Oh man. - It's okay, it's okay. Shh!
- Everyone will hear. - [Kate] Oh my God.
[Kate gasps]
- Um, something crazy just happened. - [Coop] Yeah.
- You can say that again. - [Kate chuckles]
- I'm sorry, I'm sorry. - It's okay, it's okay.
I know you don't want anyone knowing about us. [breathes heavily]
Yeah,
that's just because everyone talks about everyone at this school,
and I hate it.
Plus, Jesse and I just broke up, and she's so jealous and mean.
I'd rather keep this pure. It's so special.
For us.
And it's so hot to look at you from across the room
and know we have this incredible secret.
Yeah. Yeah, you're totally right.
I haven't felt this way about anyone.
Me neither.
[tender music continues]
I'll remember that kiss for the rest of my life.
Coop.
[Kate] Mmm.
Damn, Tul, I missed you. I could never do this with anyone else.
[chuckles] I missed you too.
- How long do we have to sit here? - Till it's dry.
Come on. Don't you want a record of your breast to have forever?
So you can always take a walk down mammary lane.
[sighs] They're assholes.
Your breasts are assholes?
They were too small in high school when all I wanted was bigger boobs.
And then they finally sprouted in college right when I took up jogging.
I realized why actual boobs are a problem. [inhales]
Then they would not feed Marah, no matter how hard I tried.
And now they are literally attempting to murder me.
You're not gonna die.
I might, we don't know.
I mean, the five-year survival rate for inflammatory breast cancer is 41%.
Pfft.
You can totally beat those odds.
You're gonna be fine.
You're gonna have the surgery, you're gonna do the radiation,
and then you're gonna be done.
- And you're gonna have new boobs to boot. - [chuckles]
I don't even care about the boobs.
You know, it's strange.
Everyone keeps saying, I'm gonna go through this grieving process
of losing my old breasts, but...
I'm not.
[inhales sharply] I mean, maybe I'd be a little sad if I had boobs like yours.
What?
I always wished I had your boobs.
What? Yours are literally perfect.
- No, yours are. - No, yours are big yet perky.
[Tully chuckles]
[sighs deeply]
I always wondered who I'd be if I had smaller boobs.
Like, if I were an A and not a D, would I be a different person?
Would I be less successful? Would I be more successful?
Would my shoulders not have permanent grooves in them
from my bra straps?
[sighs]
Do you think I'm gonna be a different person?
After.
No.
You are so much more than a great rack, Mularkey.
[Kate chuckles]
[breathes deeply]
[tender music playing]
- Come off? - Ah.
Yeah.
- [phone ringing] - [breast pump whirring]
[voicemail beeps]
[Johnny] We can't come to the phone right now.
- We'll call you back when Marah's two. - [recorder beeps]
[Tully] Hey, babe, I got your message.
Sorry it took me so long to get back to you.
I hate that we keep missing each other.
I can't believe you noticed my boobs. [chuckles]
They are smaller.
Some honcho at the network decided my boobs were distracting and unserious.
So they have me wearing a minimizer bra.
As if the smaller my boobs, the higher my IQ.
It's bullshit and painful.
I'm all bound up,
but I'm new here so I can't make waves, at least not yet.
But believe me, I will.
I gotta set the girls free.
- [Kate chuckles] - Did I make a mistake moving to New York?
How am I still jet-lagged? It's been almost a month.
And, listen, babe, about the breastfeeding thing...
I can tell how stressed out you are,
and, honey, I'm here to tell you it is okay to let go of the dream.
I know you had this whole fantasy
of sitting in your sunroom, reading a book, feeding your baby,
blah, blah, blah.
- [Kate sighs] - Let yourself off the hook.
Parenting is hard enough without adding extra layers of guilt.
So they tell me.
Just my two cents.
[recorder beeps]
- Mmm. - [breast pump whirring]
[sucks teeth]
[sighs]
- [switch clicks] - [whirring stops]
[Tully] Okay, the sculptures should be done.
Time to pay our respects to your breasts. You ready?
- Open your eyes. - [Kate exhales]
[owl hooting in the distance]
- [tender music playing] - [Kate exhales]
- [breathes deeply] - You okay, babe?
[sucks teeth]
They're so beautiful.
I never realized.
[Kate sniffles]
[sighs]
[sniffles]
[exhales]
[sighs]
[exhales]
[indistinct chatter]
[Tully sighs]
[Mr. Waverly clears throat]
So, where have you been?
- N-- Nothing. - Nothing?
- [Kate] Um-- - You little minx.
- Shh! - [Tully] Sorry. How was it?
It was... It was good. It was, um...
[clicks tongue] It was good.
- Yeah? - [Kate] Yeah, he was--
We were kissing, and then he was feeling me up,
and I was sitting on his lap and like moving.
Okay, sure.
And then I had like... like a seizure, but like a... but like a good seizure.
That might have been an orgasm, Katie bear.
- [chuckles]
- Oh. - Yeah.
Wow.
Hey, Coop, were you just in there with Mularkey?
[Coop scoffs]
Um, yeah, right, like that would ever happen. Right?
- [Coop chuckles] - [gentle music playing]
[Coop] Seriously? [chuckles]
Okay.
[knocking on door]
[Tully sighs]
- Hi, there. - Well, hello again.
My timing continues to be impeccable. My apologies.
To be fair, this was my second shower of the day.
You couldn't have predicted that.
[both chuckle]
[siren wailing in the distance]
Was there something you needed?
Oh, yeah, yeah, um...
You know, earlier when I was here,
I kind of got the feeling that you wanted to tell me something.
So, you know, I just wanted to--
Kate has cancer.
- What? - [Tully exhales]
[Danny] Oh my God.
Oh my God. Shit.
- I'm sorry. - [Tully sighs]
How far along is she?
[Tully] Um...
It's stage 3.
[inhales]
It's, uh... It's called inflammatory breast cancer.
- It's really rare and... and aggressive. - [sighs]
It's often misdiagnosed because it doesn't look like traditional breast cancer.
[tender music playing]
[smacks lips] I'm afraid she's gonna die. [breathes shakily]
[sobbing] And I can't... I can't show her that
because I'm the one who's supposed to believe in impossible odds.
Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.
[Danny sighs deeply]
[Tully sighs deeply]
[tender music continues]
[exhales] So...
that's the news. [chuckles]
I'm sorry I, um, I didn't call you when I got back.
No, no, no.
Look, look... I don't know what you have planned for the rest of the evening,
but Celeste's gone for the weekend on a yoga retreat.
And I've been eyeing your wine closet for months now.
So what do you say we crack open a bottle, we put on a terrible horror film, okay?
- I rented Son of Devil Boy 2 finally... - [chuckles]
...only took us 20 years.
- Oh God, yes. Perfect. - [Danny chuckles]
- Yeah? - Yeah. I'm gonna throw on some sweats.
You crack open a bottle of red from the wine closet, but not the Petrus.
I'm saving that for a special occasion.
["Both Sides Now" playing]
♪ Rows and floes of angel hair ♪
♪ And ice cream castles in the air ♪
[faucet running]
♪ And feather canyons everywhere ♪
♪ Looked at clouds that way ♪
[chuckles]
♪ But now they only block the sun ♪
♪ They rain and they snow on everyone ♪
- ♪ So many things I would have done ♪ - [sighs]
♪ But clouds got in my way ♪
♪ I've looked at clouds From both sides now ♪
♪ From up and down and still somehow ♪
♪ It's cloud illusions I recall... ♪
Okay, okay.
Thanks.
♪ I really don't know clouds ♪
♪ At all... ♪
[Marah coos]
♪ Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels ♪
♪ The dizzy dancing way that you feel... ♪
- Hey. - [Kate] Hey.
Want some company?
[Kate] Yeah.
♪ I've looked at love that way ♪
♪ But now it's just another show... ♪
Thanks.
♪ And you leave 'em laughing when you go ♪
♪ And if you care, don't let them know ♪
♪ Don't give yourself away ♪
[Johnny exhales]
♪ I've looked at love From both sides now... ♪
[grunts]
♪ From give and take and still somehow... ♪
- Hey! What are you doing? - [laughs] You did it first.
- I didn't throw it at you. - [Danny laughs]
♪ I really don't know love ♪
♪ Really don't know love at all ♪
♪ Tears and fears and feeling proud ♪
♪ To say "I love you" right out loud ♪
♪ Dreams and schemes And circus crowds ♪
♪ I've looked at life that way... ♪
[sighs]
♪ Oh, but now old friends They're acting strange... ♪
[Marah] I love you, Mom.
I love you too, sweetheart.
[Tully] You got this, babe.
We're gonna be here when you wake up.
Here we go.
- Thanks for the mammaries. - [Tully chuckles]
♪ I've looked at life From both sides now... ♪
She's gonna be okay, honey.
♪From win and lose and still somehow ♪
♪ It's life's illusions I recall ♪
♪ I really don't know love ♪
♪ At all ♪
[song fades]
[piano playing]
- [Sean] That's very kind of you. - [Johnny] I'll talk to you afterwards.
[Johnny sighs deeply]
Almost go time. How you feeling?
I'd feel a lot better if the bride would show up.
We're supposed to start any minute.
[Johnny sighs]
[knocking on door]
Hold your horses.
I'm almost ready.
It's not like you can start without me anyway.
[sighs]
[gentle music playing]
[music fades]