The core drives the legs. The legs drive the bike.
Keep the core tight, the shoulders still, OK?
Ruth, how you doing?
Super-good. Yeah? Yes.
Good, good, good.
OK. Move dial
one more turn to the right. Right, now turn bike, point?
Two to the right, let's go. nine, eight,
get to the top, come on. six, five, four,
everything. Come on, Ruth. Put it in.
Come on. You're with me?
Come on. Make it, make it. Five seconds,
come on. Over there.
Yes. Everything you've got. Come on, come on, come on, come on.
four, three, two. Oh, my God.
Everything, everything, come on. OK,
two to the left, rest, rest, rest, rest.
There are times when I have,
when I have not come
to this class if I've read that there's a substitute on who's...
..not him. There was one week. No, not having him.
There was one week I came and it did say on the thing, Miguel,
and I got here and it was Iona, a woman.
Oh, no.
That's no good to me. I don't want
that on a Sunday morning, babes. Wrong. That's not what I'm looking.
Listen, I'm not being funny,
you were literally dangling your fanny in his face.
You were, you were.
Well, you know. I saw you. Well,
d'you know what? I was, to be honest with you,
I, I, I did think he was slightly flirting.
He was. I wasn't imagining that?
No, he was, he kept saying, "Push it, push it.
"Push it, Ruth, push it."
And you were doing your riding skills,
showing him your best riding skills. Oh.
I would, I just want him to,
maybe he could do like an entire class
for us naked, just naked, just so we can just,
just so we can observe. Oh, naked. Just observe,
we don't need to touch. I don't need to do anything.
You just wanna see what's under there, don't you?
I just wanna see exactly what's under there.
I just want to see what's under there.
SIGHS
Hi.
Freya?
Freya.
SHUTTER CLICKS
Freya?
You here, darl...? Oh, you are here.
Hi, I was calling you and calling you.
Didn't you hear me, sweetheart? Are you all right?
Bloody boiling in here.
Have you been out at all today?
Sweetheart?
Should go and get some fresh air.
You look nice, are you going out?
What's the matter?
Nothing. CLEARS THROAT
OK. Erm,
all right darling, well, I'm gonna put some...
..I'm just gonna make like a salad and chicken,
or something like that, if you want anything...
Erm...
Nothing else I can put in the wash?
OK. Well, I think you should just get dressed
and go out for a,
just go for a walk around the block, or something.
Put your phone down
and get some fresh air, or something.
Mum, can you just leave me alone?
All right, erm, just erm,
let me know if you need anything, OK?
OK.
SIGHS
PHONE ALERT
CREAK
SIGHS
DOOR SHUTS
FOOTSTEPS ON STAIRS
DOOR CLOSES
Dinner will be soon, love.
FOOTSTEPS ON STAIRS
DOOR SHUTS
Hi! Hi, darling.
Hi, I'm doing great actually,
yeah, aww, how lovely, it is to hear from you.
How are you getting on?
Oh, no, ho, ho, ho! Oh, no!
Oh, my God, that's funny, I know.
I was a flippin' student, myself...
Part of the whole...
Part of, it's part of the culture. Erm...
Yeah, oh, Mum, I, I, I was really annoyed the other day.
I really wanted to take a photo, or, like, a video for you.
But I mean, I was in the sea so I kind of couldn't.
But I saw a pod of dolphins. How crazy is that?
Oh, my God. That's amazing.
I was gonna Facetime you and show you but obviously I was...
Aw, aw well, please do next time.
If ever that happens
and you're not standing on a surf board. Erm...
Yeah, I'll, I'll try. Also,
I was thinking maybe I'd come up and,
see you and, Chippy at home before I go.
I'd love that, darling. That'd be amazing.
Er, OK, I'll call you. Wait, how's erm,
how's, how's Chippy? Is she, is she around?
She... Hang on a sec.
Yeah, she's, she's fine.
She's just erm... Er, Chippy's being Chippy.
So she's,
I'm guessing she's still pretending to hate you.
No, I think she's actually hating me, to be honest.
No, Mum, that's not Chippy. She doesn't.
She might seem like she does,
but it's not, you know, Chippy never...
No, I know.
Chippy's Chippy, Chippy does these things.
I know. To be honest with you,
I'd really like it if you would phone her, darling.
And ask her, genuinely, if she's all right.
Because I think there could be truly something.
Have you asked her if she's all right?
No, I can't, I can't, I just, everything I say... You haven't?
It seems to quite piss her off. And erm...
Right, OK.
And it's, you know, it's a bit. It's a bit tricky.
Is she eating well, or is, is...? Oh, I don't know. That's the whole thing.
There's a whole Ritz cracker ritual I've noticed.
But I'm sure it's just a phase and everything, but I just,
I just don't want her to get stuck in
a rut about whatever it is.
So I wonder if you could just ring her and just...
Yeah, I'll try and give Chippy a call.
Yeah. Anyway, Mum, I've gotta, I've gotta go erm... All right, sweetheart. OK,
well, I love you so much. And thank you for ringing.
And, oh, OK, oops, I gotta go.
OK, love you, baby. He's gonna give you a ring.
OK, love you, Mum. OK, Freya's here,
she just popped in. Just say hi, hi, hi.
Hi, Chip, hiya. He's, he's gonna give you a buzz.
All right, darling, love you. OK, love you darling,
bye. Bye. Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye.
Oh, erm... D'you want some soup?
Oh, what's the matter?
Well, Billy's having and absolutely lovely time.
And he was asking after you. Erm, and...
All his flatmates are vegan, which doesn't work very well
for him. Erm...
And erm... Yeah, he's really,
really good, really good, really happy, erm...
He said he saw some dolphins.
Oh, sweetheart, come on. Please, this is so silly.
Is there anything I can...? OK, no, don't?
I'm gonna give you a little bowl of this,
it's really nice and you should have some.
UNDER BREATH: Oh, for fuck's sake.
BANGS BOWL
CLICKS HOB
Why are you standing under a tree secretly smoking?
I'm not actually secretly smoking,
I'm just not smoking in the house.
And it's sunny, so I'm standing in the shade.
No?
It's gross.
Thank you, thank you.
Welcome. It stinks.
Yeah, all right darling, OK.
I can do some things that I want to do,
sometimes, and it's OK. It's OK,
you don't need to turn that into another reason
to be pissed off with me. No, I'm not,
but by that same definition, am I not allowed
to do my own thing as well?
Yes, you can do whatever you want, sweetheart.
You, you are not judged, you are not criticised.
Well, I am though, am I not? You're not judged, babe.
I am, though. Just, I'm not... No, but I am judged.
No-one's commenting, no-one. No, I am judged,
because I just heard you on the phone to Billy,
talking about my strange little Ritz cracker ritual.
So, beg my pardon if I'm a little bit hurt
and upset by
the fact that you just have been talking about me,
to my own brother. That feels,
that feels very divisive and manipulative.
I'm sorry.
You should learn how to really whisper. OK.
Or go to the end of the garden and have that conversation.
I was whispering, actually. All right, yep, no you're right, you're right. I. FREYA.
You don't need to get upset. If I want to wear...
You don't need to get upset. I was talking to your brother and
I was sharing with him my concerns about how you are
and I just thought that maybe it would be more helpful
for him to speak to you.
Rather than me trying to speak
to you, when you obviously don't want to speak to me at
the moment. I am sorry if I got that wrong.
I'm sorry if I misjudged it.
And I really am sorry that you overheard me talking about the cracker thing,
because I didn't mean that to seem so.
I, I, it's not, it doesn't matter about the crackers.
You can, you know, make a bloody tower of the things.
I don't give a shit, sweetheart.
Oh, f... Don't act so fucking flippant about it.
OK, I'm not being...
Oh, fucking hell.
TAPS RUN UPSTAIRS
TAPS STILL RUN
Oh... Oh.
TAPS STILL RUN
Oh, for fuck sake.
Stop.
Stop...
Stop it, darling. Stop.
Come on, that's enough.
Stop.
Sweetheart. Stop.
I have to brush my teeth. Stop.
I have to brush my teeth, Mum. Turn the tap off.
Come on. I still have to do my teeth, Mum.
You don't have to brush your teeth, come on.
Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.
It's all right. I'm sorry.
Oh.
I think you just need now,
just have a lovely night's sleep, OK?
Good night's sleep. I'm sure you're feeling a bit...
RUTH SIGHS
Just a bit overwhelmed and maybe a bit premenstrual.
You know how we get, us girls, don't we?
Yeah, all right, come on.
Sort yourself out.
Blow your nose. Blow your nosey.
Blow your nosey. Stop.
SNIFFS
FREYA BRUSHES TEETH
STILL BRUSHES
RUTH SNIFFLES
I can drive you in if you want, darling.
I think you're really gonna be late now.
Are you up?
Sweetheart?
It's nearly half past, darling.
Hi, you're gonna be late, love.
D'you want some eggs?
I heard your phone going until
the early hours of the morning, darling.
It's not the best idea,
beginning of a school week, sweetheart.
Who on Earth is possible messaging you at that time of night anyway?
Look, I'll give you a lift in
and then you shouldn't be too late.
Come on sit down, darling, have some egg.
I'll just grab some plates. Mind out.
I'm not sure if you should be
wearing quite such a revealing skirt,
to school, ha, ha.
I'm not sure you should be wearing such
a horrible wine-coloured dress with such a low neckline.
Why have you got the pink dots on your eyes?
Because it's part of the style that I try out on my face.
Why have you got those earrings in? Why do you have that mascara on.
Why do you have no contour on? Why are you standing like that.
Don't criticise me for wearing a skirt.
I'm not criticising you, I wasn't criticising you actually.
You were. I wasn't, darling. Yes, you were. I wasn't criticising you.
OK, well, if you weren't, then what were you doing, then?
I don't remember dressing as a slut when I went to school.
Don't call me a slut!
All right. I'm 17. I'm sorry.
I'm allowed to experiment with whatever. I don't, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm not like Billy.
I don't want it to be like this. And I'm not perfect
Please stop. Stop doing what? Just stop, I'm just...
You are driving me to do this. What am I fucking doing? Asking me endless fucking questions.
What am I doing? I'm not doing bloody anything.
You are, though. I'm not. Believe it or not, you are. Look, I told...
You shout slut, "It's a bit of a sluttish outfit." Stop.
"Oh, it's a bit of a sluttish." Let's not keep going on about...
How about this? I'm sorry. Fucking bitch. Fuck off!
Freya. Come back here right now.
Freya. Stop it.
Sweetheart, I can see your knickers.
Hi, Janice.
WHISPERS: I'm not a fucking slut, I'm not a fucking slut.
I'm really, really sorry, OK? Freya,
can you look at me, please, darling? I am really sorry.
I shouldn't have said any of what I said. I'm so sorry.
Look, you also can't talk to me like that, you know?
I am your mum, darling and I do care about you
and I know I'm getting some things wrong. I don't know why.
I don't know what it is that I've done to upset you,
or offend you, or something.
Don't know what it is that I've done to make you hate me
so much. But I care about you deeply.
And I want to make sure that you're all right.
And I am really sorry. You know,
we were both a little bit in the wrong there.
You know, both of us a bit below the belt.
Perhaps shouldn't have said those kinds of things
to each other that way.
But can we please just forget it, forget it, forget it?
Please can we, sweetheart? Come on, get in the car.
Get in the car and I'll, I'll drive you to school,
yeah? Please, darling. Come on now.
Stop all this. Freya, don't walk away, please.
Freya, darling, Frey... Freya, Freya, don't walk off!
Don't walk off. Don't walk off.
Freya. Don't walk away from me when I'm talking to you.
That is incredibly annoying.
I'm just trying to talk to you. Please, will you get in the car?
Fuck!
I just want you to be...
..happy. I just want to smash your phone into
a thousand pieces and shit on it and flush it down the fucking loo.
RINGTONE
All right, Mum.
Hi, darling. Hi, are you OK?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm fine. I'm just working.
Erm, are you...? Are you all right?
Yes, I'm fi... Actually no,
I'm not all right and I'm not erm, I'm not all right.
I'm really sorry, I just.
Ah-hem, have you got a minute to chat?
Err, yeah, yeah, yeah, sure, yeah.
Your sister called me a bitch. She left the house.
She called you a bitch?
Yes. She left the house, she slammed the door.
I just went to find her, found her,
she wouldn't even respond to me. Didn't even talk to me.
And erm...
I'm just trying my best. I'm trying my best.
I'm trying my fucking best
and I just don't know what else to do. I'm so sorry.
It's OK. Don't cry, Mum.
You're gonna make me cry if you start crying.
I don't like it when you cry, come on. It's OK.
Yeah. Things like this happen.
Yeah.
BACKGROUND CHATTER
Hi, darling, it's Mum.
Erm, I hope you're having a lovely day.
Let's have a chat and, just clear the air.
Would be lovely to see how your day's going.
Erm, I'm gonna be on my lunch break in about an hour
and a half, so maybe you might have a minute then
to give me a ring?
Erm... OK, love you. Bye...Bye.
Hi, darling, it's just Mum,
calling to see if you're having a nice day.
Erm and, yeah, that's it really.
Just let me know what time you'll be back and,
yeah, I love you very much. OK, speak to you later.
Love you, bye.
RINGTONE
PHONE CONNECTS
Hi...
Hi.
Oh, hi darling, you're there. Are you all right?
DISCONNECTS
Hi, erm,
I'm here to see Mr Kingsley Pallant.
OK. If you just go straight up the,
stairs in front of you, on the first floor.
It's just to the left, room 140. OK, thanks.
Hi. Hello, Ruth, hi. Hello. Come in. Come in.
Thank you. I'm Simon... Simon, hi. Hi,
we met briefly at a parents' evening, erm... Oh, that's right, yes, we did.
..last October. That's right. Erm... OK.
We're just doing her grade reviews at the moment
and it's not good. It's not, not like last term's.
We've seen quite a huge decline
and even some of her assignments not being completed or,
or, or handed in.
OK.
I am really sorry to just spring this on you, but I... No, it's fine.
..I felt, I felt - she just seems very different.
What worries me is that there seems to be,
it is so marked
a contrast from how she was when she first came here.
And I've tried to talk to her about it, erm, in tutor time, erm...
And what, what does she say about that, then?
She's, she's, she's not guarded she just says,
"I'm fine, there's,
"there's nothing, there's nothing to worry about."
There's obviously something weighing on her that she needs help
and support with. Now I,
I completely accept that young people have their rebellions,
they, they like
to try different personas, all that kind of stuff.
But I, I would really think,
I really think it would be worth her while if she saw
a counsellor and I...
No, no, we don't, that's, I don't...
She doesn't need to see,
I, I, it's not that, it's not that bad.
How are you, how are you getting on with her at home?
Fine.
I mean, fine, you know? Erm...
..yeah. So nothing,
nothing has happened between you two that's...?
Nn-nnn. No...No, not that I can...
Not that I can think of.
Yeah, I'll mention, I'll mention it and then I'll, I'll, I'll ring.
I know this sounds really personal
and I do apologise for asking it, but are you all right?
Yeah. Ruth...?
I'm very, I'm fine, thank you, I, I'm gonna go.
I've got to do dinner and stuff, thank you.
I really appreciate your time. I'm very grateful.
Well, we're here and if you could have that conversation
with her about seeing a counsellor, that would be...
I will do my best. I will do my best.
PHONE ALERT
Freya, come downstairs, please!
UNSCREWS BOTTLE
POURS
So, is there anything you want to,
tell me about how everything's going at the moment?
From your point of view.
Not really.
Well, I think you need to have a proper conversation
with me about how you're actually feeling at school.
Whether things are being handed in on time?
Because I have just had a meeting with.
Simon Kingsley Pallant.
Apparently, you're not being very truthful.
In fact, you're being a bit secretive, I think, about
schoolwork, all of a sudden.
And if you're struggling, sweetheart, you need to tell me.
So that... I can't help you unless you tell me.
You care about doing well.
I don't really care right now.
I don't really want to be in school any more.
I remember that feeling, myself.
Yeah, but you went to school years ago, so...
We're not talking about me, please. OK, we're not talking about me.
Don't get all uppity at me. I am just...
You asked me to talk and I'm trying to talk.
OK. I want to try and help.
What's going on, darling, please? Come on.
I just don't really want to be doing school stuff.
OK, let's move on from that. You're doing school stuff,
it's something you have to do. What's, what's going on?
I don't know what's going on.
Well, what's wrong with you? There's something that's wrong.
I don't know what's wrong.
Look, that Simon guy thinks that you need to see
a school counsellor.
That feels a bit embarrassing, to me.
I'm sorry, I shouldn't actually be saying these things out loud... So,
it's embarrassing, no... you shouldn't.
I know, you're right, I shouldn't, I shouldn't. So it's embarra... it's embarrassing
for you that I clearly am not very engaged,
apparently.
And don't really like the schoolwork at the moment.
No, that's not what I said. School is...
Don't twist what I said. I'm not twisting what you said.
I didn't say that it's embarrassing
for me that you don't like school.
That is not what I said.
I said it feels a little bit embarrassing that
I am being told what's really going on with you by
a teacher, who I barely fucking know.
And that that teacher thinks you
need to go and see the bloody counsellor.
Oh, fucking hell.
You can't get frustrated right now.
OK, I'm frustrated with the situation, not you, all right?
Oh, fuck this.
I hate this situation just as much as you do.
I really do,
but I just don't know what to tell you.
Come and sit down, sweetheart.
I don't really want to sit down. Please come and sit down.
I don't really want to sit down.
Come and sit down at the table. No, I don't really want to.
Sit down! I'm...
Sit fucking down, right now! I'm, no,
I've had enough of this. Sit down, young lady.
All this fucking dramatic nonsense.
"I don't know what's wrong." You do know what's wrong,
bloody well tell me, now.
I don't know what's wrong. I don't like being in the dark.
I don't like feeling powerless.
I don't like feeling like I'm doing the wrong thing.
And I don't like being told by a fucking school teacher,
who I barely bloody know that my kid is
going to school dressed like a slut
and that her grades are slipping. You know,
here's the thing,
I don't actually give a shit about whether you get C's,
D's, B's, fucking A's, whatever. I actually don't care.
But what I do care is that I know it matters to you.
It matters to you
and I care that you will end up feeling bitterly disappointed
in yourself.
Oh, my God.
I don't need to be shouted at like that.
No, you're absolutely right, you're absolutely right.
I don't know what is wrong and I don't know what to tell you.
I can't give you any answers because I have no answers.
So don't yell at me.
Look, to me it seems like you don't like yourself very much at
the moment. I don't.
OK. What, why? You are beautiful.
I just don't like myself. You are a beautiful, strong...
I just don't feel like I like myself right now.
You've got an incredible, cracking figure.
You've got, you're so athletic.
I don't want to talk... Oh... You've got incredible skin. You're a vibrant,
gorgeous, gorgeous girl. What's happened? Nothing.
I don't know, I... Oh, fuck me.
WHISPERS: Oh, my God.
I'm gonna go to bed. See you tomorrow morning.
SHE SNIFFLES
PHONE ALERT
RUTH SIGHS
Hi.
Erm...
Here you go.
Erm...
..can I sit down?
Oh, thank you.
Erm...
..I think I need to tell you that I'm really struggling.
Darling, I'm finding this really extremely hard.
I'm sorry to put that on you when
I know that you're going through a lot of stuff too.
But I'm finding this really difficult.
And I feel really lonely at times.
And that's not who I am, either.
It's not what I'm used to. I feel sad.
Don't always like myself, either.
That happens to grown-ups as well.
And so it's really hard for me
to be experiencing this time with you that is so upsetting.
It's occupying my mind all the, all the time.
I'm not really sleeping very well.
I'm not enjoying anything.
I don't look forward to anything.
I don't look forward to anything at all.
Nothing, nothing.
I just feel bad, all the time.
I feel bad, I feel guilty, I feel like I'm a nag.
I feel like I'm not that fun mum that I used to be.
I feel like I'm...losing you.
And in the process of that, I'm losing something
of myself. It's really hard to let go of that.
I don't wanna let go of being a mum. I don't want to have to do that.
And I don't think I should.
SHE SIGHS
So that's where I'm at.
I...feel very...
..lost...
..with where I wanted to be,
or what I was expecting this year to be like.
It's not like that.
And I'm really scared because I,
I feel like I'm just not in touch with myself any more.
SNIFFLING: And I don't know where that's gone.
I'm really frightened that I can't get it back.
SHEETS RUSTLE
Oh, fuck.
PHONE ALERT
ALERT
FREYA SOBS
SNIFFLES
ALERT
Freya, it's 1:30, darling.
Nearly, nearly 1:30 in the morning.
ALERT
KNOCKS DOOR
Sweetheart, I think you've left your phone on.
Please go to sleep now.
KNOCKS
It's a school night, darling, come on.
ALERT
Come on, Freya.
Switch off now, darling, OK?
Right, night, love you, night-night.
ALERT
Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.
WHISPERS: Come on. Come on, come on.
WHISPERS: Switch that fucking thing off.
Come on, darling, we've really got to just get on now,
come on.
We've just gotta crack on with the day.
And just. Just, just, move on. Freya, please.
Freya? Sweetheart, please.
Come on. I've got to go to work.
Freya, come on, please, come on.
Please don't make me leave you like this, darling.
Please. Freya,
you've got to get up and go in darling.
Just do a half day, or something.
I'll come and pick you up at lunch.
I tell you what. I'll set an alarm on your clock.
I'll set an alarm for nine
and then you won't miss your second lesson,
all right?
And I can always call the school
and just let them know that you're not feeling too well, OK?
Come on, sweetheart, this isn't fair on me.
Oh, fuck.
All right,
your alarm's gonna go off at nine
and I'll call you when I get to work, OK? Love you.
RUTH CLEARS THROAT
PHONE VIBRATES
I just... I just want to go back
to how everything was before all this.
We'll be all right, we'll be all right,
we'll figure it out. It'll be OK, darling.
It's just a phase, it's just - these things happen,
don't they? Anyway, look, I love you very much.
I really do. Please just call me, no, pick up when I phone you.
MESSAGE: We'll be all right, we'll be all right, we'll figure it out.
It'll be OK, darling. It's just a phase, it's just - these things happen,
don't they? Anyway, look, I love you very much.
I really do. Please just call me, no, pick up when I phone you.
SENSORS BEEP
RINGTONE
AUTOMATED: Welcome to the O2...
Ruth?
Ruth, are you OK?
Oh, fuck off!
What's happened?
Hi, darling, can you just, please, can you ring me?
I just feel a bit worried about you
and I just really want to talk
to you and just make sure you're OK.
Can you phone me back?
Sorry. That's OK, what's happened?
What is it? I don't... What is it?
What's happened?
RUTH SOBS
Fight everything this time. five, four,
three, two, one.
Two to the right. Let's go, let's go, let's go. Get to the top of the hill!
Ruth, come on, push it. Move your legs,
move your legs. Come on everybody, four...
MUFFLED: ..three, two, one. Great stuff. Two to the left.
Darling?
Oh, sweetheart.
Have you been sleeping all day, darling?
Yeah?
You been sleeping all day?
Are you OK? Are you all right?
Oh, beautiful girl. Come on, it's ever so hot in here.
Have a bit of... Blankets off you.
Come on, sweetheart. Get some air. What you doing?
What have you got...
..are you hiding something? What have you got?
What have you done? What is it?
What is it?
FREYA SOBS
What is it? What, what is, what, what have you done?
What is it? Oh, my God.
Oh, God. Oh, God...
My baby, baby, baby.
PHONE RINGS
DOOR OPENS
Freya Eldwick.
Sorry I'm running late today. Do come in.
Take a seat. Thank you.
So, I've not met you both before. My name's Doctor Suzy.
And erm, how can I help you this afternoon?
Erm, do you want to tell the doctor, darling,
or do you want me to tell her? You can tell her. OK.
Erm... So, Freya's hurt herself.
OK. It's OK.
And erm... When did this happen, Freya?
Today.
OK. How did you do it?
Some nail scissors.
OK, can I have a look, is that OK?
Yeah. Thank you.
Can I have a look underneath?
OK, oh...
You managed to stop the bleeding OK? Yeah.
How do you feel showing that to me now?
Erm, embarrassed.
OK. Would you find it easier if it was just you
and me, Freya?
We can talk together
and maybe Mum could wait in the waiting room, yeah?
Yes, please.
Is that OK with you, Mum?
Erm...
..yeah.
OK, I'll call you back in, I'll come and get you.
But what if I...? Don't I need to know what's happening?
Well, Freya's of
an age now where it might be more comfortable to talk
to me on a one-to-one basis. So, my duty.
I'm her, I'm her mum, though.
Sure, and I can see that you're upset,
but Freya can speak to me on her own.
I'll wait out there.
OK, thank you.
Is that more comfortable, Freya?
Has Mum been part of the problem?
What's been going on?
I just feel really...
..out of control.
OK, OK.
Erm, I don't know why,
I don't know why I cut myself, and I'm really scared.
OK, how long has this been going on for?
Erm, a while.
OK, one month, six months?
Has it been building up over the last couple of weeks?
What sort of, what's been the background?
It's been about, maybe a month.
OK.
And I started to not be able to remember things.
OK.
Which is weird because I normally am really good.
And have you been, do you go to college?
Are you, have you been going to college OK? Yeah...Yeah.
Are you managing to concentrate in your lessons?
I, I mean, it, I thought, I think that I am,
but then I can't remember.
I can't, I can't remember what we did.
OK, and how much have you discussed this with your mum?
Hi, thanks for waiting. Could you come down with me, please?
Yep. Thanks. Yep.
Right, come on in and take a seat. Erm,
I've had a good chat with Freya today and erm,
I'm beginning to understand what's going on.
And I think the safest thing to do is refer her on
to CAMHS for some counselling.
I don't know what that is.
OK, so CAMHS is the
Child and Adolescent Mental Health Services.
It's a part of the NHS that offers counselling services
for children and teenagers.
In the meantime, Freya's got
a sheet of counselling services if she feels like she wants
to contact them. And erm,
you and I will see each other
regularly until CAMHS take on your care.
Mmm.
So obviously this has been a bit of a shock
for you as well.
Do you see anybody at the practice at all?
Me? Yes. No, no.
Do you feel that you need any help, or support?
No, no, no. No.
I mean, I'm a strong, normal person.
Erm, so that, that, that's, well that's,
that's great, isn't it, darling? Sounds good, doesn't it?
If you need any support, or any questions,
just contact me through the main switchboard
and we can have a conversation.
But obviously I can't divulge anything that we've discussed today
with Freya.
All right, thank you.
Thank you. Bye-bye, Freya.
Bye.
Er, would you like me to run you a bath, or something darling?
Maybe...
..maybe you should just go and have a little sleep?
Let me know if you need anything, OK?
DOOR KNOCKS
Oh, my God. Oh, my God. What are you doing here?
You didn't message, or anything? I thought I'd come and surprise you.
You didn't message us, darling. I know, I didn't think I needed to.
How did you get from the...? How did you get from station? I got a taxi. I got a taxi from the station.
Oh, darling, I could have come and... No, it was fine. I wanted to come and surprise you.
How you doing? I could have come and picked you up.
That's OK. Oh, wow. You all right? Yeah, ahhh.
You sure you're all right? Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Right, I'm gonna make some toast. OK. I'm really hungry.
Erm, yeah, come, let's go in. God, bloody hell what have you got in
this bag, it weighs a tonne. No don't take, don't take my bag up.
I'll take, I'll take my bag up to my room in a minute. All right,
darling. Let me put the erm, kettle on.
Is Freya in? Erm Freya? Erm...
Yeah, is, is she, is she out?
No, she's here.
OK.
Erm, darling.
What's happ... Mum, what's happened?
Freya's not very well, sweetheart.
She doesn't have, like, a cancer, or anything like that.
It's nothing like that.
Oh, thank God.
She's erm...
She's... she's very depressed at the moment.
And that means that she is not
behaving quite like herself at all.
And erm, she's, she's quite lost. She's quite lost and, and...
She hurt herself with some scissors,
darling. And she's cut her arms.
And she... I'm sorry, sweetie, I'm sorry, darling.
Come on, come on, angel. Look at me, look at me, darling.
Look at me all right? Listen. I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, darling. I'm sorry, it's all my fault.
No, it isn't, Mum. No it is my fault. I've tried.
No, it's not. No, it's not.
I've really tried to be, "Good Mummy."
You are.
Just go and give her a nice cuddle.
OK. Go and give her a nice cuddle and just... OK.
Just tell her that you love her and that...
Can you tell her that...?
Tell her that she's a beautiful girl.
Tell her that she's beautiful
and tell her that you love her.
Tell her that everybody loves her.
And that she doesn't need to be anything that she isn't.
She can just be herself and we'll just love her the same.
I'll tell her the right thing.
Yeah, just be, nice, kind, you.
Yeah... Yeah, OK.
KNOCKS DOOR
Freya?
Hey, Freya. Hi
Could you pass the erm, pepper? Mm.
And erm, and what about sports.
Have you been keeping up all
of your? Is there, do they have a gym, or...?
They have, they do have a gym. They do have a gym.
Which I've been to a couple of times,
but...I never go on my own,
that's the thing. I can't do solo gym.
No.
It's just not my thing.
No.
Know what I mean?
Well done for coming downstairs, darling.
Would you like me to make you something different?
Why the fuck did you
need to say that? She was doing fine.
You didn't need to throw in,
"Shall I make you something different?" And, "Well done for coming downstairs."
Oh.
Do you see how that would be annoying?
Yeah, I do, I do.
That's just not right.
When she's doing something well, don't thank her for doing it well.
Yeah, I'll just go and see if she's all right.
She was doing fine.
Yeah, OK.
Sorry about that, babe.
I didn't mean to upset you at all.
Look, I think you'll feel a bit better if eat something,
just a little bit. Just a little bit, yeah?
All right.
Have a minute to yourself and then, then come down, OK?
All right.
SHE EXHALES
GASPS QUIETLY
Fuck.
Fuck me.
GASPS
Oh...Oh. Oh...
Oh, my God.
What the fuck has she done?
Fuck.
FLUSHES TOILET
Billy, Billy, Billy, Billy, Billy, I've got her phone.
What are you doing?
I've got her phone, don't. No. Come on, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it.
Mum, you can't. I would be angry if you took my phone. But Billy, look, this is...
No, Mum, you have to give it back. Look at these terrible things people are saying about her.
What, what is this? What the fuck is this?
What are these awful pictures? pictures?
So fucking...
Mum.
Where's my phone? Sit down, sweetheart. Sit down, sit down.
Where's my phone? Mum. Just give... Where's my phone Mum? Give her, her
phone back. Darling. Sweetheart. You have to give me back my phone. Freya, calm down.
No, you have to give me back my phone.
Freya, Freya. Mum.
Why did you take it? Freya, listen to me. Why did you take if from the
bathroom. Darling. It's mine. Listen to Mummy. Darling.
You need to listen to Mummy now, OK?
I don't think that you should have that phone. No, no, no, no, no.
Sweetheart, it's making... You have to give it back to me. It's mine.
Darling, enough, enough.
Mum, just give her, her phone back. Stop.
Enough. This is what's making you ill. It's what's making you ill.
Me and Billy,
me and Billy are gonna help you. Aren't we, darling?
You have to give me back my phone. You have to give me back my phone.
Sweetheart. All right, darling.
It's my phone. It's my phone. OK, all right sweetheart. I'll give it back, I'll give it back.
Give it back, it's my phone. Oh, my God, oh, my God. Billy, get the phone,
OK, sweetheart, stop, stop,
Stop, stop, stop. Just stop. Stop. Give me back my phone, it's mine.
Give it to Mummy, give it to Mummy, give it to Mummy. It's my phone. It's mine.
FREYA WAILS
DOOR KNOCKS
Hi. Morning. Did you sleep all right?
Yeah, I slept great.
I, I'm off, I have to go. I have to get the 8:30 train.
I'll take you, come on.
Oh, thanks, Mum.
You just stay here, OK? Stay in bed.
Mm-hm.
I'll just grab my shoes, darling.
I just wanted to say bye.
Oh, hey.
I love you. I love you too.
You gonna be all right?
Mm-hm.
You're strong.
I'll, I'll call you, yeah?
Yeah.
Love you, Chip.
I'm only gonna be 15 minutes, OK? Yeah.
And I'll come straight back, all right?
OK.
Why don't you go and get back into bed, OK, darling?
Mm-hmm. All right. Love you. OK.
SHE SIGHS
Oh.
BREATHES HEAVILY
Oh.
SHE PANTS
PANTS
Thanks, Mum.
HE SIGHS
It's gonna be good. It's gonna be all right.
SHE PANTS
DROPS PHONE IN SINK
Don't worry about anything, OK?
You're a good mum.
Thank you, darling. I'll get my train. All right. OK, love you.
I'll phone you later, OK? Yeah, call me.
I love you, darling.
Love you. Bye.
PULSING SCORE BEGINS
SHE PANTS
HYPERVENTILATES
SHE GASPS
SHE PANTS
PULSING SCORE INTENSIFIES
PULSING SCORE BUILDS
Darling?
It's all right.
It's all right, sweetheart.
Come on, come on.
It's all right, darling, come on.
Come on.
All right, come on, come on, sit down.
Sit down, sit down.
FREYA SIGHS
FREYA HYPERVENTILATES
It's all right. Oh, my God.
FREYA SOBS
Oh, it's all right, sweetie.
OK, OK.
Come on.
It's OK.
Shh.
It's all right.
I promise.
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