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Dear Evan Hansen...
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...today is going to
be an amazing day,
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and here's why.
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Because today, all you
have to do is just be yourself.
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But also confident.
That's-that's important.
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And interesting.
Easy to talk to.
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Approachable. But
mostly just be yourself.
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You know, that's number
one, obviously. Be yourself.
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But, like, a confident
version of yourself,
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like, approachable
and interesting
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and not weird or
anxious or depressed.
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But you're not weird or
anxious or depressed.
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I don't even know why
you're bringing it up.
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You can't be scared
to talk to other people.
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You said that you'd be better.
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You said this year
would be different.
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You're overthinking it.
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Do you like having no friends?
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All you have to do
is just be yourself.
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♪ I've learned to
slam on the brake ♪
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♪ Before I even turn the key ♪
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♪ Before I make the mistake ♪
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♪ Before I lead with
the worst of me ♪
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♪ Give them no reason to stare ♪
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♪ No slipping up
if you slip away ♪
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♪ So I got nothing to share ♪
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♪ No, I got nothing to say ♪
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♪ Step out, step
out of the sun ♪
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♪ If you keep getting burned ♪
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♪ Step out, step out of the
sun because you've learned ♪
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♪ Because you've learned ♪
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♪ On the outside
always looking in ♪
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♪ Will I ever be more
than I've always been? ♪
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♪ 'Cause I'm tap, tap,
tapping on the glass ♪
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♪ I'm waving through a window ♪
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♪ Oh, I try to speak,
but nobody can hear ♪
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♪ So I wait around for
an answer to appear ♪
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♪ While I'm watch, watch,
watching people pass ♪
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♪ I'm waving through a window ♪
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♪ Oh ♪
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♪ Can anybody see? ♪
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♪ Is anybody
waving back at me? ♪
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So you just didn't
eat last night?
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I wasn't hungry.
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You're a senior in high school.
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You need to be able to
order dinner for yourself.
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You can do it all online.
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You don't have
to talk to anybody.
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Okay, well, that's not, that's
not true, actually, though,
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because, um, the credit card's
expired, so you have to meet
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the delivery person
at the door, you know?
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You have to pay them
with cash at the door.
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You have to greet them.
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You know, you have
to figure out the right,
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the right, um...
the-the proper greeting.
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Okay.
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This is what you're supposed
to be working on, sweetheart,
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with Dr. Sherman.
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Have you been doing those
letters he wants you to do?
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"Dear Evan Hansen."
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I mean, I've definitely...
I-I've been trying to.
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Those letters are
important, honey.
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You have to keep working.
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We can't go back to where
you were last year, right?
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Um, you have an
appointment this afternoon.
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I'm working till 6:00,
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so you're gonna
have to take the bus.
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Hey.
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I thought you could go around
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and ask all the other
kids to sign your cast.
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Perfect icebreaker, right?
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- What happened to your shirt?
- There was a stain on it.
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- Wha... But it's brand-new.
- Yes, I know.
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I was... I'm so mad.
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♪ We start with
stars in our eyes ♪
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♪ We start believing
that we belong ♪
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♪ But every sun doesn't rise ♪
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♪ And no one tells you
where you went wrong ♪
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♪ Step out, step
out of the sun ♪
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♪ If you keep getting burned ♪
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♪ Step out, step out of the
sun because you've learned ♪
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♪ Because you've learned ♪
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♪ On the outside
always looking in ♪
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♪ Will I ever be more
than I've always been? ♪
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♪ 'Cause I'm tap, tap,
tapping on the glass ♪
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♪ Waving through a window ♪
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♪ Oh, I try to speak,
but nobody can hear ♪
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♪ So I wait around for
an answer to appear ♪
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♪ While I'm watch, watch,
watching people pass ♪
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♪ Waving through a window ♪
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♪ Oh ♪
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♪ Can anybody see? ♪
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♪ Is anybody waving? ♪
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♪ When you're
falling in a forest ♪
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♪ And there's nobody around ♪
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♪ Do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? ♪
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♪ When you're
falling in a forest ♪
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♪ And there's nobody around ♪
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♪ Do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? ♪
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♪ When you're
falling in a forest ♪
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♪ And there's nobody around ♪
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♪ Do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? ♪
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♪ When you're
falling in a forest ♪
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♪ And there's nobody around ♪
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♪ Do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? ♪
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♪ Did I even make a sound?
Did I even make a sound? ♪
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♪ It's like I never
made a sound ♪
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♪ Will I ever make a sound? ♪
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♪ On the outside
always looking in ♪
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♪ Will I ever be more
than I've always been? ♪
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♪ 'Cause I'm tap, tap,
tapping on the glass ♪
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♪ Waving through a window ♪
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♪ Oh, I try to speak,
but nobody can hear ♪
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♪ So I wait around for
an answer to appear ♪
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♪ While I'm watch, watch,
watching people pass ♪
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♪ Waving through a window ♪
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♪ Oh ♪
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♪ Can anybody see? ♪
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♪ Is anybody
waving back at me? ♪
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♪ Is anybody waving? ♪
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♪ Waving, waving ♪
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♪ Whoa... ♪
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♪ Whoa. ♪
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♪ Let's go,
Bobcats, let's go... ♪
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Evan.
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What?
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It's Zoe Murphy
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in that hot band shirt
you love so much.
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Can you just... Can
you please stop?
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Well, hey, maybe
she's into you, too.
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Maybe you should talk to
her, tell her how you feel.
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I've tried talking to her.
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Really?
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Yes. Yeah, I...
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I stayed afterwards,
um, last year
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after the spring
jazz band concert,
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but, um, I didn't go up to her
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because I was worried
that my hands were sweaty.
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Which they weren't even,
they weren't even that sweaty.
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I just... I was worried
that they were sweaty,
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and sometimes worrying
that they're sweaty
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makes them sweaty, so I
just went to the bathroom
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and I put 'em under,
like, the hand dryer thing,
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but then they were still sweaty.
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They were just, um...
They were just also warm.
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I was kidding.
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You obviously
should not talk to her.
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You are a literal disaster.
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Go, Bobcats!
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Go, Bobcats.
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So awesome.
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So awesome, everyone.
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Phenomenal, really.
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You know what's not phenomenal?
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Deforestation.
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So, what happened
to your arm exactly?
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Um, I was climbing
a tree, and I fell.
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It was stupid.
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You fell out of a tree?
What are you, five?
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Well, um...
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So, actually, I-I
worked this summer
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as an apprentice park
ranger at Ellison State Park.
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It's a funny story,
though, because...
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there was, like, this solid
ten minutes after I fell
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where I just lay
there on the ground,
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um, waiting for someone
to come get me, you know?
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I was like, "Any second
now." You know?
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I just kept... I, like... I
was saying to myself,
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"Any second now.
Here they come." So...
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Did they?
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No, nobody came.
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That's the, um...
That's what's funny.
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That's not funny.
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Model U.N....
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Well, anyways, um,
how was... Did you, um...
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How was camp?
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Well, I put on 13
pounds of pure muscle.
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Also, I hooked up
with this Brazilian dude
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who is literally a supermodel.
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So, yeah, hope that
answers your question.
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So let's have Mother Nature's
back so that she'll have ours.
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Yeah! Yeah!
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All right, thank you,
Alana. Very inspirational.
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All right, so let's
have a great year,
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and, uh, go, Bobcats!
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Hey, um...
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would you want to sign my cast?
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Uh, you could, you
could be the first.
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Why would I do that?
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Well, I just... I thought, um,
because we're friends and...
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We're family friends, Evan.
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That's an entirely
different thing.
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Please respect that.
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Connor, I'm loving
this manicure.
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- Very school shooter chic.
- You're such an idiot.
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That is so not...
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♪ Here we go,
Bobcats, here we go. ♪
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You think that's funny?
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What? No. Not-not at all.
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Then stop laughing!
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Hey.
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I'm sorry about my brother.
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He's a psycho.
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Evan, right?
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Evan?
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That-That's your,
that's your name?
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Y-Yeah, it is. It is. Sorry.
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It's Evan. It's Evan. I'm sorry.
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Why are you sorry?
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'Cause you s-s... you said
Evan, and then I said it, you know?
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I just repeated
it, which is, um...
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That's just really annoying
when people do that, so...
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I'm Zoe.
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Sorry. I should...
I think... Sorry.
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Dear Evan Hansen,
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turns out this wasn't
an amazing day after all.
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This isn't gonna be an amazing
week or an amazing year
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because why would it be?
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Oh, I know. Because there's Zoe.
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Who I don't even know and
who doesn't know me, but...
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Maybe if I did, maybe
if I could just talk to her,
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maybe things would be better.
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Or...
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...maybe nothing
would be different at all.
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I wish everything was different.
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I wish I was different.
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I wish I was part of something.
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I wish that anything I
said mattered to anyone.
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But it doesn't,
and it never did.
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And it never will.
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I mean, face it, would
anyone even notice if I just...
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disappeared tomorrow?
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Sincerely, your best
and most dearest friend,
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Me.
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Hey.
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What happened to your arm?
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Um...
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I was climbing
a tree, and I fell.
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You fell out of a tree?
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That's the saddest
thing I've ever heard.
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I know.
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S-Sorry, um, I think I
accidentally printed something.
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Yeah, we're all waiting.
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Um, no one signed your cast.
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No, I-I know.
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I'll sign it.
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Oh, you don't... you
really don't have to...
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Do you have a Sharpie?
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Oh, um, I don't. Shoot.
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Oh, here's one.
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Nice.
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Wow, that's great.
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Now we can both
pretend we have friends.
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Uh, "Dear Evan
Hansen." Here you go.
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00:13:49,843 --> 00:13:51,511
Y-Yeah, that's
mine. That's mine.
256
00:13:51,611 --> 00:13:53,980
- I'll... I can take it, sorry.
- "Because there's Zoe..."
257
00:13:55,115 --> 00:13:56,416
Is this about my sister?
258
00:13:56,516 --> 00:13:59,251
What? No, no.
Who's-who's your sister?
259
00:13:59,352 --> 00:14:01,988
- You wanted me to find this?
- What?
260
00:14:02,089 --> 00:14:05,192
You saw I was here,
so you started writing this
261
00:14:05,292 --> 00:14:06,560
- and you started talking to me.
- No.
262
00:14:06,660 --> 00:14:07,794
No, you started talking to me.
263
00:14:07,894 --> 00:14:09,329
So that I would read
some creepy shit
264
00:14:09,429 --> 00:14:11,131
about my sister
and freak out, right?
265
00:14:11,230 --> 00:14:13,066
- Why would I do that?
- So then you can tell everyone
266
00:14:13,166 --> 00:14:15,234
that I'm crazy. Right?
267
00:14:15,335 --> 00:14:18,305
- Right?!
- Gentlemen!
268
00:14:19,473 --> 00:14:21,240
No, I really...
269
00:14:21,341 --> 00:14:23,844
Look, I really need
that back, so can...
270
00:14:23,944 --> 00:14:26,012
Look, can you please
just give it back?
271
00:14:32,552 --> 00:14:34,621
Just-just please don't
show it to anyone.
272
00:14:34,721 --> 00:14:35,889
Connor!
273
00:14:47,334 --> 00:14:49,069
Come on.
274
00:14:50,570 --> 00:14:52,906
Shit, shit.
275
00:15:29,910 --> 00:15:31,011
Hi.
276
00:15:31,111 --> 00:15:32,813
Hi, honey. I'm so sorry.
277
00:15:32,913 --> 00:15:34,447
Erica called in at the last
minute with a stomach bug,
278
00:15:34,548 --> 00:15:36,817
and there's only one
other nurse on tonight,
279
00:15:36,917 --> 00:15:38,919
so I-I volunteered
to take her shift.
280
00:15:39,019 --> 00:15:40,687
I hope you weren't
waiting for me to eat.
281
00:15:40,787 --> 00:15:43,423
- No, I already ate.
- Um, it's just they, uh,
282
00:15:43,523 --> 00:15:45,192
they announced more
budget cuts this morning,
283
00:15:45,293 --> 00:15:46,459
so anything I can do to show
284
00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:47,661
that I'm a team
player, you know?
285
00:15:47,761 --> 00:15:49,696
- How was your day?
- Fine.
286
00:15:49,796 --> 00:15:51,164
It was, it was pretty good.
287
00:15:51,264 --> 00:15:54,034
Yeah? You know, I-I texted
with Meera this morning,
288
00:15:54,134 --> 00:15:55,635
and she said that Jared was
289
00:15:55,735 --> 00:15:57,938
really looking forward to
seeing you and reconnecting.
290
00:15:58,038 --> 00:15:59,406
I thought that was nice.
291
00:15:59,506 --> 00:16:01,775
Yeah, he's so nice.
292
00:16:01,875 --> 00:16:03,543
- How was Dr. Sherman?
- Pretty good.
293
00:16:03,643 --> 00:16:05,645
Any change to your meds?
294
00:16:07,080 --> 00:16:08,515
Um, no.
295
00:16:08,615 --> 00:16:10,951
Oh, God, here he
comes. Um, all right, I-I-I...
296
00:16:11,051 --> 00:16:12,320
All right, love you. Bye.
297
00:16:12,419 --> 00:16:14,821
Okay, I love you...
298
00:16:14,921 --> 00:16:16,423
too.
299
00:16:19,025 --> 00:16:20,794
A letter to yourself.
I mean, what is that,
300
00:16:20,894 --> 00:16:22,596
like some kind of sex thing?
301
00:16:22,696 --> 00:16:24,231
No. No, it's not a sex thing.
302
00:16:24,332 --> 00:16:25,966
It's... It was an assignment
from my therapist.
303
00:16:26,066 --> 00:16:27,868
Ew. Why-why are
you telling me this?
304
00:16:27,968 --> 00:16:29,369
Well, I didn't know
who else to tell.
305
00:16:29,469 --> 00:16:31,471
You're my only
f... family friend.
306
00:16:31,571 --> 00:16:32,839
Oh, that's sad.
307
00:16:32,939 --> 00:16:34,674
Look, Connor isn't
here again today.
308
00:16:34,774 --> 00:16:36,310
That's-that's three
days in a row.
309
00:16:36,409 --> 00:16:38,411
And h-he hasn't done
anything with it yet, you know,
310
00:16:38,511 --> 00:16:39,646
like put it online or whatever,
311
00:16:39,746 --> 00:16:41,248
because I've-I've been checking.
312
00:16:41,349 --> 00:16:44,084
So, you know, maybe he
just... maybe he forgot, right?
313
00:16:44,184 --> 00:16:45,986
Right. Right.
314
00:16:46,086 --> 00:16:47,220
Or maybe he didn't,
315
00:16:47,321 --> 00:16:48,889
because he's definitely
gonna put it online.
316
00:16:48,989 --> 00:16:50,957
Dude, Connor Murphy is batshit.
317
00:16:51,057 --> 00:16:53,059
Don't you remember when
he threw a printer at Mrs. G
318
00:16:53,159 --> 00:16:55,695
in the second grade because
he couldn't be line leader?
319
00:16:55,795 --> 00:16:57,430
Like, he was seven.
320
00:16:57,530 --> 00:16:59,599
Just imagine what
he's capable of now.
321
00:16:59,699 --> 00:17:01,534
Evan Hansen, please report
322
00:17:01,635 --> 00:17:03,003
to Mr. Howard's office.
323
00:17:03,103 --> 00:17:04,938
Oh, damn.
324
00:17:10,311 --> 00:17:12,479
Evan.
325
00:17:15,383 --> 00:17:18,852
Connor Murphy's mother and
stepfather are here to see you.
326
00:17:18,952 --> 00:17:20,854
They want to speak in private.
327
00:17:43,243 --> 00:17:45,011
Hi.
328
00:17:46,913 --> 00:17:48,014
Hello.
329
00:17:49,783 --> 00:17:51,551
Why don't you go ahead, honey.
330
00:17:51,651 --> 00:17:53,486
I'm going as fast as I can.
331
00:17:53,586 --> 00:17:56,756
Well, that's not
what I said, is it?
332
00:17:59,393 --> 00:18:01,127
This is...
333
00:18:02,929 --> 00:18:06,099
Connor wanted you to have this.
334
00:18:19,145 --> 00:18:21,614
Yeah, we didn't
know you were friends.
335
00:18:21,715 --> 00:18:23,049
Oh, well, we didn't think
336
00:18:23,149 --> 00:18:25,952
Connor had any
friends, frankly, and...
337
00:18:26,052 --> 00:18:28,755
and then we see this note,
and it seems to suggest
338
00:18:28,855 --> 00:18:31,325
pretty clearly that you
and Connor were, uh...
339
00:18:31,425 --> 00:18:33,927
Or at least for Connor...
340
00:18:34,027 --> 00:18:36,029
"Dear Evan Hansen."
He addressed it to you.
341
00:18:36,129 --> 00:18:38,031
He wrote it to you.
342
00:18:38,131 --> 00:18:41,034
These are the words that
he wanted to share with you.
343
00:18:43,837 --> 00:18:46,773
His last words.
344
00:18:48,742 --> 00:18:51,144
Connor took his own life.
345
00:18:55,316 --> 00:18:56,716
He what?
346
00:18:57,517 --> 00:18:59,786
This is all we found with him.
347
00:18:59,886 --> 00:19:03,156
He had it folded
up in his pocket.
348
00:19:07,527 --> 00:19:09,763
But this is...
349
00:19:09,863 --> 00:19:11,865
I'm sorry, Connor
didn't... He...
350
00:19:11,965 --> 00:19:13,166
He didn't write this.
351
00:19:13,266 --> 00:19:15,668
Connor didn't,
Connor didn't write this.
352
00:19:15,769 --> 00:19:17,937
What-what does that mean?
353
00:19:18,038 --> 00:19:19,606
Well, he's obviously in shock.
354
00:19:19,706 --> 00:19:21,775
- I mean, if Connor didn't write this...
- I'm so sorry.
355
00:19:21,875 --> 00:19:23,743
Can I just... I should
probably go, please.
356
00:19:23,843 --> 00:19:25,178
No, you don't understand.
This is all that we have.
357
00:19:25,278 --> 00:19:28,114
This is the only thing
that we have left.
358
00:19:28,214 --> 00:19:30,817
- Cynthia, listen to me.
- No. No. Don't-don't go.
359
00:19:30,917 --> 00:19:32,619
Okay, then you take
it. Please take it, okay?
360
00:19:32,719 --> 00:19:33,653
No. No, don't go.
361
00:19:33,753 --> 00:19:36,256
Don't. Please stay. Please.
362
00:19:41,828 --> 00:19:44,831
His best and most
dearest friend.
363
00:19:58,546 --> 00:20:01,081
That's-that's Connor.
364
00:20:01,181 --> 00:20:02,248
Connor Murphy.
365
00:20:04,318 --> 00:20:05,819
Holy shit.
366
00:20:05,919 --> 00:20:07,321
They invited me for dinner.
367
00:20:07,421 --> 00:20:09,323
They want to know more
stuff about Connor and me,
368
00:20:09,423 --> 00:20:11,425
about our... friendship.
369
00:20:11,525 --> 00:20:13,193
- A-And you said yes?
- I froze.
370
00:20:13,294 --> 00:20:16,162
Well... what are
you gonna tell them?
371
00:20:16,262 --> 00:20:17,531
I mean, the truth.
372
00:20:17,630 --> 00:20:18,998
I-I don't know, man.
373
00:20:19,099 --> 00:20:20,501
I mean, are you really
gonna tell these people
374
00:20:20,600 --> 00:20:22,135
that the only thing they
have left of their son
375
00:20:22,235 --> 00:20:24,572
is a sex letter that
you wrote to yourself?
376
00:20:24,704 --> 00:20:25,805
Hey.
377
00:20:25,905 --> 00:20:28,309
I'm so sorry.
378
00:20:28,409 --> 00:20:30,243
What the hell was that?
379
00:20:30,344 --> 00:20:32,645
I don't know.
380
00:20:32,745 --> 00:20:34,482
Oh, my God, they
were so sad, his parents.
381
00:20:34,582 --> 00:20:38,051
I mean, his-his mom was just...
382
00:20:39,185 --> 00:20:41,721
I've never seen
anyone so sad before.
383
00:20:48,995 --> 00:20:51,231
I have to tell them.
384
00:21:08,214 --> 00:21:09,416
You're early.
385
00:21:10,417 --> 00:21:12,819
Oh. S-Sorry.
386
00:21:24,632 --> 00:21:26,367
Sit.
387
00:21:31,372 --> 00:21:33,407
I hope you're hungry.
388
00:21:49,923 --> 00:21:51,425
So...
389
00:21:52,926 --> 00:21:54,395
...you and Connor.
390
00:21:54,495 --> 00:21:56,996
You probably spent a
lot of time together, I bet.
391
00:21:58,898 --> 00:22:01,468
So, um, not...
392
00:22:01,569 --> 00:22:03,236
not really, actually.
393
00:22:03,337 --> 00:22:06,440
- Uh, the thing is that I...
- We looked through his phone.
394
00:22:07,541 --> 00:22:10,243
His texts, emails.
395
00:22:10,344 --> 00:22:11,778
We didn't find
anything from you.
396
00:22:11,878 --> 00:22:13,046
Yeah, no, I know.
397
00:22:13,146 --> 00:22:14,448
- I know.
- He set up different accounts,
398
00:22:14,548 --> 00:22:16,082
ones we couldn't find.
399
00:22:16,182 --> 00:22:17,817
He knew you read his emails.
400
00:22:17,917 --> 00:22:20,086
Well, somebody
had to be the bad guy.
401
00:22:20,186 --> 00:22:22,623
Well, if you did have any
402
00:22:22,722 --> 00:22:25,925
emails or conversations
between the two of you,
403
00:22:26,025 --> 00:22:28,928
we'd love to see anything.
404
00:22:29,028 --> 00:22:30,997
- Well...
- Yeah, it's-it's weird.
405
00:22:31,097 --> 00:22:33,099
Th-The only time I saw
you two together was
406
00:22:33,199 --> 00:22:35,902
when he was screaming in
your face at school last week.
407
00:22:36,002 --> 00:22:37,338
He was screaming at you?
408
00:22:37,438 --> 00:22:38,505
Yeah, yeah, um...
409
00:22:38,606 --> 00:22:40,374
Well, that wasn't very nice.
410
00:22:40,474 --> 00:22:43,876
Well, Connor wasn't very nice,
so that actually makes sense.
411
00:22:46,279 --> 00:22:48,549
I think that everybody
at this table can agree
412
00:22:48,649 --> 00:22:50,750
that Connor was, um...
413
00:22:51,851 --> 00:22:54,053
...a complicated person.
414
00:22:54,153 --> 00:22:56,222
No, he was a bad person.
415
00:22:56,323 --> 00:22:57,028
Zoe, please.
416
00:22:57,052 --> 00:22:59,192
Don't pretend like you
don't agree with me.
417
00:22:59,293 --> 00:23:01,828
You refuse to remember
any of the good things.
418
00:23:01,928 --> 00:23:05,098
Because there
were no good things.
419
00:23:05,198 --> 00:23:07,900
What-what were the good things?
420
00:23:08,001 --> 00:23:09,503
I'm not having this conversation
421
00:23:09,603 --> 00:23:12,740
- in front of our guest.
- No, tell us the good things.
422
00:23:12,839 --> 00:23:14,341
What were the good things?
423
00:23:14,441 --> 00:23:16,443
- Family day at Sunny Glen?
- Zoe!
424
00:23:16,543 --> 00:23:17,810
This is not the time.
425
00:23:17,910 --> 00:23:19,413
Who knew rehab
could be so much fun?
426
00:23:19,513 --> 00:23:20,980
There were good things.
427
00:23:21,649 --> 00:23:24,518
I'm not the only one.
428
00:23:24,618 --> 00:23:26,019
You remember, right?
429
00:23:29,789 --> 00:23:30,790
Right.
430
00:23:30,890 --> 00:23:32,125
Of course.
431
00:23:32,225 --> 00:23:33,860
Yes, of course there
were good things.
432
00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:36,730
Tell us something.
433
00:23:36,829 --> 00:23:38,197
Please, Evan.
434
00:23:41,934 --> 00:23:43,836
Right, um...
435
00:23:43,936 --> 00:23:46,005
S... Uh, Connor and I...
436
00:23:47,240 --> 00:23:49,842
Uh, I d... I don't know, um...
437
00:23:51,679 --> 00:23:53,246
We had a really great...
438
00:23:53,347 --> 00:23:56,483
we had a really great
time together, um...
439
00:23:56,583 --> 00:23:58,184
this one day recently.
440
00:23:58,285 --> 00:24:02,423
That's something good,
um, that I remember.
441
00:24:02,523 --> 00:24:03,823
That day.
442
00:24:03,923 --> 00:24:05,592
Um...
443
00:24:05,693 --> 00:24:08,094
Yeah, that awesome day at the...
444
00:24:08,861 --> 00:24:10,930
...um, trees.
445
00:24:12,800 --> 00:24:14,668
- Trees?
- Never mind, never mind.
446
00:24:14,768 --> 00:24:17,538
I'm sorry, I don't, I don't... I
shouldn't have said anything,
447
00:24:17,638 --> 00:24:19,340
and I-I knew it was
stupid, so I'm sorry...
448
00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:21,040
You don't mean
the orchard, do you?
449
00:24:24,110 --> 00:24:26,580
He took you to
the apple orchard?
450
00:24:26,680 --> 00:24:28,649
- When?
- Uh, once.
451
00:24:28,749 --> 00:24:29,982
Just-just once. That once.
452
00:24:30,083 --> 00:24:32,486
I thought that place
closed years ago.
453
00:24:32,586 --> 00:24:34,521
Well, the hiking trails are
still open though, aren't they?
454
00:24:34,621 --> 00:24:37,190
We used to go to the
orchard all of the time.
455
00:24:37,291 --> 00:24:39,058
We'd do picnics there.
456
00:24:39,158 --> 00:24:40,893
Do you remember that, Zoe?
457
00:24:40,993 --> 00:24:42,429
Yeah, I do.
458
00:24:42,529 --> 00:24:45,064
And you and Connor
would fly that little toy plane
459
00:24:45,164 --> 00:24:47,401
until you crashed
it into the creek.
460
00:24:48,901 --> 00:24:50,304
That was an emergency landing.
461
00:24:50,404 --> 00:24:53,474
I can't believe that
he took you there.
462
00:24:53,574 --> 00:24:55,274
I bet you had fun.
463
00:24:55,376 --> 00:24:58,512
I bet the two of you... I...
464
00:24:58,612 --> 00:25:00,547
I bet that was fun.
465
00:25:01,548 --> 00:25:03,784
Yeah.
466
00:25:03,883 --> 00:25:05,686
We did. We did.
467
00:25:05,786 --> 00:25:06,687
The whole day.
468
00:25:06,787 --> 00:25:09,690
Uh, it-it was just...
469
00:25:12,258 --> 00:25:14,328
♪ End of May or early June ♪
470
00:25:14,428 --> 00:25:19,333
♪ This picture-perfect
afternoon we share ♪
471
00:25:20,567 --> 00:25:23,504
What was the name of that
ice cream place that we loved?
472
00:25:23,604 --> 00:25:24,638
Gifford's?
473
00:25:25,839 --> 00:25:26,874
A La Mode.
474
00:25:26,973 --> 00:25:28,542
That's it. A La Mode.
475
00:25:28,642 --> 00:25:30,910
And they had this
homemade hot fudge.
476
00:25:31,010 --> 00:25:34,280
♪ Drive the winding
country road ♪
477
00:25:34,381 --> 00:25:36,949
♪ Grab a scoop at A La Mode ♪
478
00:25:37,049 --> 00:25:38,485
♪ And then we're there ♪
479
00:25:38,585 --> 00:25:41,422
And we'd sit in that
meadow by the pine trees,
480
00:25:41,522 --> 00:25:44,558
and you and your brother
would look for four-leaf clovers.
481
00:25:44,658 --> 00:25:47,327
♪ An open field that's
framed with trees ♪
482
00:25:47,428 --> 00:25:50,397
♪ We pick a spot and... ♪
483
00:25:50,497 --> 00:25:53,300
♪ Shoot the breeze
like buddies do ♪
484
00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:56,470
♪ Uh, quoting songs
by our favorite bands ♪
485
00:25:56,570 --> 00:25:59,306
♪ Telling jokes no
one understands ♪
486
00:25:59,406 --> 00:26:02,008
♪ Except us two ♪
487
00:26:02,108 --> 00:26:07,046
♪ And we talk and
take in the view ♪
488
00:26:09,148 --> 00:26:13,654
♪ All we see is
sky for forever ♪
489
00:26:13,754 --> 00:26:19,526
♪ We let the world
pass by for forever ♪
490
00:26:19,626 --> 00:26:25,499
♪ Feels like we could go
on for forever this way ♪
491
00:26:27,033 --> 00:26:30,671
♪ Two friends on a perfect day ♪
492
00:26:32,706 --> 00:26:35,442
I'd completely forgotten
about that place.
493
00:26:35,542 --> 00:26:38,846
Well, I guess
Connor didn't, did he?
494
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:42,316
♪ We walk a while
and talk about ♪
495
00:26:42,416 --> 00:26:46,620
♪ The things we'll do
when we get out of school ♪
496
00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:49,456
♪ Um... bike the
Appalachian Trail ♪
497
00:26:49,556 --> 00:26:52,191
♪ Or write a book
or learn to sail ♪
498
00:26:52,292 --> 00:26:54,495
♪ Wouldn't that be cool? ♪
499
00:26:54,595 --> 00:26:57,063
♪ There's nothing
that we can't discuss ♪
500
00:26:57,163 --> 00:26:59,967
♪ Like girls we wish
would notice us ♪
501
00:27:00,066 --> 00:27:02,034
♪ But never do ♪
502
00:27:02,134 --> 00:27:04,471
♪ He looks around
and says to me ♪
503
00:27:04,571 --> 00:27:06,974
♪ "There's nowhere
else I'd rather be" ♪
504
00:27:07,073 --> 00:27:08,542
♪ And I say, "Me, too" ♪
505
00:27:08,642 --> 00:27:13,347
♪ And we talk and
take in the view ♪
506
00:27:14,448 --> 00:27:19,118
♪ We just talk and
take in the view ♪
507
00:27:20,186 --> 00:27:23,624
♪ All we see is
sky for forever ♪
508
00:27:23,724 --> 00:27:29,663
♪ We let the world
pass by for forever ♪
509
00:27:29,763 --> 00:27:35,969
♪ Feels like we could go
on for forever this way ♪
510
00:27:36,068 --> 00:27:40,172
♪ This way ♪
511
00:27:40,273 --> 00:27:45,144
♪ All we see is
light for forever ♪
512
00:27:45,244 --> 00:27:49,983
♪ 'Cause the sun
shines bright for forever ♪
513
00:27:50,082 --> 00:27:56,857
♪ Like we'll be all right
for forever this way ♪
514
00:27:56,957 --> 00:28:02,261
♪ Two friends on a perfect day ♪
515
00:28:02,362 --> 00:28:04,230
♪ And there he goes ♪
516
00:28:04,331 --> 00:28:06,967
♪ Racing toward
the tallest tree ♪
517
00:28:07,066 --> 00:28:09,235
♪ From far across
a yellow field ♪
518
00:28:09,336 --> 00:28:12,104
♪ I hear him calling,
"Follow me" ♪
519
00:28:12,204 --> 00:28:13,774
♪ There we go ♪
520
00:28:13,874 --> 00:28:17,076
♪ Wondering how the world
might look from up so high ♪
521
00:28:17,176 --> 00:28:19,613
♪ One foot after the other ♪
522
00:28:19,713 --> 00:28:22,015
♪ One branch then to another ♪
523
00:28:22,114 --> 00:28:24,116
♪ I climb higher and higher ♪
524
00:28:24,216 --> 00:28:27,186
♪ I climb till the entire sun ♪
525
00:28:27,287 --> 00:28:33,527
♪ Shines on my face ♪
526
00:28:35,562 --> 00:28:41,368
♪ And I suddenly feel
the branch give way ♪
527
00:28:45,204 --> 00:28:47,273
♪ I'm on the ground ♪
528
00:28:48,842 --> 00:28:50,877
♪ My arm goes numb ♪
529
00:28:53,112 --> 00:28:54,881
♪ I look around ♪
530
00:28:54,982 --> 00:28:57,818
♪ And I see him come to get me ♪
531
00:28:59,987 --> 00:29:02,522
He's come to get me.
532
00:29:04,558 --> 00:29:07,427
♪ And everything's okay ♪
533
00:29:10,297 --> 00:29:14,868
♪ All we see is
sky for forever ♪
534
00:29:14,968 --> 00:29:20,507
♪ We let the world
pass by for forever ♪
535
00:29:21,742 --> 00:29:28,247
♪ Buddy, you and I
for forever this way ♪
536
00:29:28,348 --> 00:29:31,418
♪ This way ♪
537
00:29:31,518 --> 00:29:37,090
♪ All we see is light ♪
538
00:29:37,189 --> 00:29:41,695
♪ 'Cause the sun burns bright ♪
539
00:29:41,795 --> 00:29:46,066
♪ We could be all
right for forever ♪
540
00:29:46,165 --> 00:29:51,203
♪ This way ♪
541
00:29:51,304 --> 00:29:53,707
♪ Two friends ♪
542
00:29:55,475 --> 00:29:57,310
♪ True friends ♪
543
00:29:57,411 --> 00:30:00,580
♪ On a perfect ♪
544
00:30:01,748 --> 00:30:07,654
♪ Day. ♪
545
00:30:08,922 --> 00:30:11,391
Thank you, Evan.
546
00:30:11,491 --> 00:30:14,628
Thank you, thank you,
thank you, thank you.
547
00:30:17,898 --> 00:30:19,666
I mean, they think
you were lovers.
548
00:30:19,766 --> 00:30:21,668
- You realize that, right?
- Oh, my God.
549
00:30:21,768 --> 00:30:23,303
I thought you were
gonna tell them the truth.
550
00:30:23,403 --> 00:30:24,838
I-I-I tried, but then I just...
551
00:30:24,938 --> 00:30:26,540
I got nervous and
I started talking.
552
00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:28,141
And then once
I started, I just...
553
00:30:28,240 --> 00:30:30,043
Couldn't stop.
554
00:30:30,143 --> 00:30:31,545
They didn't want me to stop.
555
00:30:31,645 --> 00:30:33,547
What else did you say to them?
556
00:30:33,647 --> 00:30:35,682
Uh, his mom thinks that we
wrote emails to each other.
557
00:30:35,782 --> 00:30:36,917
Oh, perfect.
558
00:30:37,017 --> 00:30:39,086
Sh-She thinks he had,
like, secret accounts.
559
00:30:39,186 --> 00:30:40,854
Ha, yes. Secret email accounts.
560
00:30:40,954 --> 00:30:42,889
That's what all the
cool kids are doing.
561
00:30:42,989 --> 00:30:44,324
Hansen! Kalwani!
562
00:30:44,424 --> 00:30:45,559
Pick it up!
563
00:30:45,659 --> 00:30:47,794
- No, thank you.
- What was that?
564
00:30:47,894 --> 00:30:51,031
I said thank you for
the encouragement!
565
00:30:51,131 --> 00:30:52,132
Fascist.
566
00:30:52,231 --> 00:30:53,834
She wants to see the emails.
567
00:30:53,934 --> 00:30:56,303
And now you want me to make
a bunch of fake emails for you.
568
00:30:56,403 --> 00:30:57,804
- Classic.
- You know how to do that?
569
00:30:57,904 --> 00:31:00,307
- It's simple coding.
- But you failed coding.
570
00:31:00,407 --> 00:31:02,274
If you consider
a D-minus failing.
571
00:31:02,375 --> 00:31:03,677
Just so we're clear,
572
00:31:03,777 --> 00:31:05,145
I charge a minimum
of two grand per email,
573
00:31:05,244 --> 00:31:06,313
and that is a
floor, not a ceiling.
574
00:31:06,413 --> 00:31:08,081
- $2,000?
- 500.
575
00:31:08,181 --> 00:31:09,349
I didn't even ask for your help.
576
00:31:09,449 --> 00:31:10,784
250, bottom line.
Take it or leave it.
577
00:31:10,884 --> 00:31:12,486
I could probably
give you 20 bucks.
578
00:31:12,586 --> 00:31:14,621
Fine, but I'm not gonna
act like I'm happy about it.
579
00:31:16,690 --> 00:31:18,325
♪ Dear Evan Hansen ♪
580
00:31:18,425 --> 00:31:21,561
♪ We've been way
too out of touch ♪
581
00:31:21,661 --> 00:31:23,130
♪ Things have been crazy ♪
582
00:31:23,230 --> 00:31:26,333
♪ And it sucks that we
don't talk that much ♪
583
00:31:26,433 --> 00:31:31,204
♪ But I should tell you that
I think of you each night ♪
584
00:31:31,304 --> 00:31:35,408
♪ I rub my nipples and
start moaning with delight ♪
585
00:31:35,509 --> 00:31:36,676
Why would you write that?
586
00:31:36,777 --> 00:31:38,145
I'm just trying
to make it erotic.
587
00:31:38,245 --> 00:31:39,412
Look, if you can't take
this seriously, then...
588
00:31:39,513 --> 00:31:40,680
Ugh, calm yourself, honey.
589
00:31:40,781 --> 00:31:42,182
I just want to
get this over with.
590
00:31:42,281 --> 00:31:44,050
♪ I gotta tell you ♪
591
00:31:44,151 --> 00:31:46,553
♪ Life without you
has been hard ♪
592
00:31:46,653 --> 00:31:47,721
- "Hard"?
- ♪ Has been bad ♪
593
00:31:47,821 --> 00:31:49,189
- "Bad"?
- Has been rough.
594
00:31:49,289 --> 00:31:50,557
- Kinky.
- Please stop.
595
00:31:50,657 --> 00:31:52,559
♪ And I miss
talking about life ♪
596
00:31:52,659 --> 00:31:54,094
♪ And other stuff ♪
597
00:31:54,194 --> 00:31:56,029
- Very specific.
- Shut up.
598
00:31:56,129 --> 00:31:58,365
- ♪ I like my parents ♪
- Who says that?
599
00:31:58,465 --> 00:32:00,333
♪ I love my parents ♪
600
00:32:00,433 --> 00:32:02,769
♪ But each day's another fight ♪
601
00:32:03,570 --> 00:32:05,372
♪ If I stop smoking drugs ♪
602
00:32:05,472 --> 00:32:08,041
♪ Then everything
might be all right ♪
603
00:32:08,141 --> 00:32:09,342
"Smoking drugs"?
604
00:32:09,442 --> 00:32:10,844
Just fix it!
605
00:32:10,944 --> 00:32:13,413
- ♪ If I stop smoking crack ♪
- "Crack"?
606
00:32:13,513 --> 00:32:15,348
♪ If I stop smoking pot ♪
607
00:32:15,448 --> 00:32:18,351
♪ Then everything
might be all right ♪
608
00:32:18,451 --> 00:32:20,587
♪ I'll take your advice ♪
609
00:32:20,687 --> 00:32:23,490
♪ I'll try to be more nice ♪
610
00:32:23,590 --> 00:32:24,891
♪ I'll turn it around ♪
611
00:32:24,991 --> 00:32:28,228
♪ Wait and see ♪
612
00:32:28,328 --> 00:32:33,033
♪ 'Cause all that it takes
is a little reinvention ♪
613
00:32:33,133 --> 00:32:37,838
♪ It's easy to change if
you give it your attention ♪
614
00:32:37,938 --> 00:32:40,407
♪ All you got to
do is just believe ♪
615
00:32:40,507 --> 00:32:43,210
♪ You can be who
you want to be ♪
616
00:32:43,311 --> 00:32:45,512
♪ Sincerely, Me ♪
617
00:32:45,612 --> 00:32:46,947
Are we done?
618
00:32:47,047 --> 00:32:48,615
Well, I mean, I can't
just show them one email.
619
00:32:48,715 --> 00:32:50,617
I want to show that I
was, like, a good friend.
620
00:32:50,717 --> 00:32:52,919
That I was trying to
help him, you know?
621
00:32:53,019 --> 00:32:54,387
Oh, my God.
622
00:32:54,487 --> 00:32:56,489
♪ Dear Connor Murphy ♪
623
00:32:56,590 --> 00:33:00,026
♪ Yes, I also miss our talks ♪
624
00:33:00,126 --> 00:33:01,561
♪ Stop doing drugs ♪
625
00:33:01,661 --> 00:33:04,298
♪ Just try to take deep
breaths and go on walks ♪
626
00:33:04,397 --> 00:33:06,399
- No.
- ♪ I'm sending pictures ♪
627
00:33:06,499 --> 00:33:08,401
♪ Of the most amazing trees ♪
628
00:33:08,501 --> 00:33:09,736
No.
629
00:33:09,836 --> 00:33:11,404
♪ You'll be obsessed with ♪
630
00:33:11,504 --> 00:33:14,274
- ♪ All my forest expertise ♪
- What?
631
00:33:14,374 --> 00:33:17,244
♪ Dude, I'm proud of you ♪
632
00:33:17,345 --> 00:33:20,046
♪ Just keep pushing through ♪
633
00:33:20,146 --> 00:33:22,215
♪ You're turning
around, I can see ♪
634
00:33:22,316 --> 00:33:24,084
♪ Just wait and see ♪
635
00:33:24,184 --> 00:33:29,422
♪ 'Cause all that it takes
is a little reinvention ♪
636
00:33:29,522 --> 00:33:34,362
♪ It's easy to change if
you give it your attention ♪
637
00:33:34,461 --> 00:33:36,863
♪ All you got to
do is just believe ♪
638
00:33:36,963 --> 00:33:39,599
♪ You can be who
you want to be ♪
639
00:33:39,699 --> 00:33:41,501
♪ Sincerely, Me ♪
640
00:33:41,601 --> 00:33:42,669
♪ My sister's hot ♪
641
00:33:42,769 --> 00:33:44,437
- What the hell?
- My bad.
642
00:33:44,537 --> 00:33:45,939
♪ Dear Evan Hansen ♪
643
00:33:46,039 --> 00:33:49,576
♪ Thanks for every
note you send ♪
644
00:33:49,676 --> 00:33:50,944
♪ Dear Connor Murphy ♪
645
00:33:51,044 --> 00:33:54,348
♪ I'm just glad to
be your friend ♪
646
00:33:54,447 --> 00:33:56,750
♪ Our friendship goes beyond ♪
647
00:33:56,850 --> 00:33:59,287
♪ Your average kind of bond ♪
648
00:33:59,387 --> 00:34:01,588
♪ But not because they're gay ♪
649
00:34:01,688 --> 00:34:03,189
♪ No, not because... ♪
650
00:34:03,291 --> 00:34:04,557
♪ Well, anyway ♪
651
00:34:04,658 --> 00:34:06,760
♪ You're getting
better every day ♪
652
00:34:06,860 --> 00:34:08,995
♪ I'm getting better every day ♪
653
00:34:09,095 --> 00:34:10,497
- ♪ Keep ♪
- ♪ Getting ♪
654
00:34:10,597 --> 00:34:11,299
- ♪ Better ♪
- ♪ Every ♪
655
00:34:11,399 --> 00:34:12,400
♪ Day ♪
656
00:34:12,499 --> 00:34:14,000
♪ Hey, hey, hey, hey ♪
657
00:34:14,100 --> 00:34:18,972
♪ 'Cause all that it takes
is a little reinvention ♪
658
00:34:19,072 --> 00:34:23,810
♪ It's easy to change if
you give it your attention ♪
659
00:34:23,910 --> 00:34:26,479
♪ All you got to
do is just believe ♪
660
00:34:26,579 --> 00:34:29,182
♪ You can be who
you want to be ♪
661
00:34:29,282 --> 00:34:31,251
♪ Sincerely ♪
662
00:34:31,352 --> 00:34:34,154
♪ Miss you dearly ♪
663
00:34:34,254 --> 00:34:36,823
♪ Sincerely, Me ♪
664
00:34:37,590 --> 00:34:39,192
♪ Sincerely, Me ♪
665
00:34:39,960 --> 00:34:43,463
♪ Sincerely, Me ♪
666
00:34:43,563 --> 00:34:45,231
♪ Sincerely, Me. ♪
667
00:34:48,969 --> 00:34:51,638
I can't remember the last
time that I heard him laugh,
668
00:34:51,738 --> 00:34:53,673
but the two of them,
if you read these...
669
00:34:53,773 --> 00:34:55,575
I think if you could
take ten minutes
670
00:34:55,675 --> 00:34:57,477
and actually read
these emails...
671
00:34:57,577 --> 00:34:59,679
I'm looking at them right now.
672
00:35:01,915 --> 00:35:04,517
Zoe. Look what Evan sent us.
673
00:35:04,617 --> 00:35:07,053
They're emails
from your brother.
674
00:35:07,153 --> 00:35:08,289
I printed them out.
675
00:35:08,389 --> 00:35:10,557
Oh. Take that, trees.
676
00:35:10,657 --> 00:35:12,158
- How was school?
- Terrific.
677
00:35:12,258 --> 00:35:14,328
All of a sudden,
people I've never met
678
00:35:14,428 --> 00:35:15,795
want to be my best friend.
679
00:35:15,895 --> 00:35:18,631
I'm the dead kid's
sister, didn't you know?
680
00:35:19,433 --> 00:35:20,667
I'm sure they mean well.
681
00:35:20,767 --> 00:35:23,003
I'm sure they don't.
682
00:35:29,509 --> 00:35:31,345
She needs time.
683
00:35:32,178 --> 00:35:35,048
No, Larry, she
needs her parents.
684
00:35:35,148 --> 00:35:37,250
Enjoy the game.
685
00:35:44,591 --> 00:35:46,059
Can I come in?
686
00:35:49,162 --> 00:35:50,398
Oh.
687
00:35:50,498 --> 00:35:53,066
You don't have to stop playing.
688
00:35:54,067 --> 00:35:55,969
How was band?
689
00:35:58,472 --> 00:36:01,475
You know, he-he talks
about you playing guitar,
690
00:36:01,574 --> 00:36:05,379
in one of his emails, at
the spring concert last year.
691
00:36:05,479 --> 00:36:07,247
Really?
692
00:36:07,348 --> 00:36:08,281
Yeah.
693
00:36:08,382 --> 00:36:11,951
Does he, does he talk about
694
00:36:12,052 --> 00:36:14,220
when he disappeared
for two days?
695
00:36:14,321 --> 00:36:17,291
But then he called me and
asked me to come pick him up.
696
00:36:17,391 --> 00:36:18,658
He wanted to come home,
697
00:36:18,758 --> 00:36:20,193
but he wasn't ready
to talk to you yet,
698
00:36:20,294 --> 00:36:23,431
so I took the bus all the
way downtown to get him,
699
00:36:23,531 --> 00:36:26,132
and guess what.
700
00:36:28,935 --> 00:36:31,805
All he really wanted was money.
701
00:36:34,308 --> 00:36:38,711
And I gave it to him
because I was 12.
702
00:36:41,247 --> 00:36:43,249
He was struggling.
703
00:36:45,352 --> 00:36:47,787
How about the time he tried
to punch through my door,
704
00:36:47,887 --> 00:36:49,290
screaming at the
top of his lungs,
705
00:36:49,390 --> 00:36:52,393
saying he was gonna
kill me for no reason?
706
00:36:52,493 --> 00:36:54,761
Is that email in there?
707
00:36:56,196 --> 00:36:58,665
We're all grieving
in our own way.
708
00:37:05,439 --> 00:37:09,376
You might consider reading
these when you're ready.
709
00:37:10,677 --> 00:37:13,046
They might help
more than you think.
710
00:37:30,230 --> 00:37:33,467
♪ Why should I play
this game of pretend? ♪
711
00:37:34,634 --> 00:37:39,272
♪ Remembering through
a secondhand sorrow ♪
712
00:37:39,373 --> 00:37:43,276
♪ Such a great son
and wonderful friend ♪
713
00:37:43,377 --> 00:37:47,881
♪ Oh, don't the
tears just pour ♪
714
00:37:48,748 --> 00:37:52,152
♪ I could curl up
and hide in my room ♪
715
00:37:53,253 --> 00:37:57,790
♪ Here in my bed still
sobbing tomorrow ♪
716
00:37:57,891 --> 00:38:01,895
♪ I could give in
to all of the gloom ♪
717
00:38:01,995 --> 00:38:06,900
♪ But tell me,
tell me what for ♪
718
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:09,969
♪ Why should I
have a heavy heart? ♪
719
00:38:10,069 --> 00:38:12,939
♪ Why should I start
to break in pieces? ♪
720
00:38:13,039 --> 00:38:17,311
♪ Why should I go
and fall apart for you? ♪
721
00:38:19,112 --> 00:38:24,552
♪ Why should I play
the grieving girl ♪
722
00:38:24,652 --> 00:38:27,421
♪ And lie ♪
723
00:38:27,521 --> 00:38:32,359
♪ Saying that I miss
you and that my world ♪
724
00:38:32,459 --> 00:38:37,931
♪ Has gone dark
without your light? ♪
725
00:38:39,533 --> 00:38:42,769
♪ I will sing no requiem ♪
726
00:38:44,438 --> 00:38:45,673
♪ Tonight ♪
727
00:38:53,547 --> 00:38:57,016
♪ We gave you the
world, you threw it away ♪
728
00:38:58,251 --> 00:39:02,722
♪ Leaving these broken
pieces behind you ♪
729
00:39:02,822 --> 00:39:06,893
♪ Everything wasted,
nothing to say ♪
730
00:39:06,993 --> 00:39:09,829
♪ So I can sing no requiem ♪
731
00:39:09,929 --> 00:39:14,234
♪ I hear your voice
and feel you near ♪
732
00:39:14,335 --> 00:39:19,105
♪ Within these words
I finally find you ♪
733
00:39:19,205 --> 00:39:23,510
♪ And now that I know
that you are still here ♪
734
00:39:23,611 --> 00:39:26,746
♪ I will sing no
requiem tonight ♪
735
00:39:26,846 --> 00:39:29,550
♪ Why should I
have a heavy heart? ♪
736
00:39:29,650 --> 00:39:32,453
♪ Why should I say
I'll keep you with me? ♪
737
00:39:32,553 --> 00:39:38,258
♪ Why should I go
and fall apart for you? ♪
738
00:39:38,359 --> 00:39:41,094
♪ Why ♪
739
00:39:41,194 --> 00:39:43,397
♪ Should I play
the grieving girl ♪
740
00:39:43,497 --> 00:39:46,500
♪ And lie ♪
741
00:39:46,600 --> 00:39:49,235
♪ Saying that I
miss you and that ♪
742
00:39:49,336 --> 00:39:53,139
♪ My world has gone
dark without your light? ♪
743
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:57,711
♪ I can see your light ♪
744
00:39:57,810 --> 00:40:01,315
♪ I will sing no requiem ♪
745
00:40:01,415 --> 00:40:03,182
♪ Tonight ♪
746
00:40:03,284 --> 00:40:05,818
♪ 'Cause when
the villains fall ♪
747
00:40:05,918 --> 00:40:08,522
♪ The kingdoms never weep ♪
748
00:40:08,622 --> 00:40:13,294
♪ No one lights a
candle to remember ♪
749
00:40:13,394 --> 00:40:16,497
♪ No, no one mourns at all ♪
750
00:40:16,597 --> 00:40:19,633
♪ When they lay
them down to sleep ♪
751
00:40:19,733 --> 00:40:26,607
♪ So don't tell me that
I didn't have it right ♪
752
00:40:26,707 --> 00:40:31,612
♪ Don't tell me that it
wasn't black and white ♪
753
00:40:31,712 --> 00:40:34,180
♪ After all you put me through ♪
754
00:40:34,280 --> 00:40:37,418
♪ Don't say it wasn't true ♪
755
00:40:37,518 --> 00:40:41,220
♪ That you were
not the monster ♪
756
00:40:49,896 --> 00:40:52,131
♪ That I knew ♪
757
00:40:55,134 --> 00:40:58,237
♪ 'Cause I ♪
758
00:40:58,339 --> 00:41:03,577
♪ Cannot play the
grieving girl and lie ♪
759
00:41:03,677 --> 00:41:08,782
♪ Saying that I miss
you and that my world ♪
760
00:41:08,881 --> 00:41:11,117
♪ Has gone dark ♪
761
00:41:15,221 --> 00:41:19,125
♪ I will sing no requiem ♪
762
00:41:20,026 --> 00:41:23,896
♪ I will sing no requiem ♪
763
00:41:24,798 --> 00:41:28,000
♪ I will sing no requiem ♪
764
00:41:29,936 --> 00:41:31,405
♪ Tonight ♪
765
00:41:31,505 --> 00:41:33,973
♪ Oh, oh ♪
766
00:41:34,073 --> 00:41:36,242
♪ Oh, oh ♪
767
00:41:36,343 --> 00:41:38,812
♪ Oh, oh ♪
768
00:41:38,911 --> 00:41:43,983
♪ Oh, oh. ♪
769
00:41:45,853 --> 00:41:47,755
They did a whole thing
about them on NPR yesterday,
770
00:41:47,855 --> 00:41:49,088
these-these essay contests.
771
00:41:49,188 --> 00:41:50,491
And if you win,
772
00:41:50,591 --> 00:41:52,091
it doesn't count
against any financial aid.
773
00:41:52,191 --> 00:41:57,029
You know, so $5,000
here or $3,000 there.
774
00:41:57,130 --> 00:41:59,232
It adds up, and we're gonna need
775
00:41:59,333 --> 00:42:01,468
all the help we can
get with college.
776
00:42:01,568 --> 00:42:04,838
I mean, unless your stepmother
has some trust fund for you
777
00:42:04,937 --> 00:42:07,273
that I don't know about
with all those fabulous tips
778
00:42:07,374 --> 00:42:08,842
- she made cocktail waitressing.
- Huh.
779
00:42:08,941 --> 00:42:10,844
Right?
780
00:42:10,943 --> 00:42:12,446
Mm.
781
00:42:17,484 --> 00:42:18,685
I got a...
782
00:42:18,786 --> 00:42:21,555
I got an email from
your school yesterday,
783
00:42:21,655 --> 00:42:25,659
um, about that boy
that-that killed himself.
784
00:42:25,759 --> 00:42:26,926
Connor Murphy?
785
00:42:27,026 --> 00:42:28,695
Yeah.
786
00:42:28,796 --> 00:42:30,330
I didn't really know him, so...
787
00:42:30,431 --> 00:42:35,067
You know, if you ever
want to talk about anything...
788
00:42:35,168 --> 00:42:37,069
You know, I mean, I
mean, I know that lately
789
00:42:37,170 --> 00:42:38,472
it feels like I'm-I'm
always working.
790
00:42:38,572 --> 00:42:40,340
- It's fine.
- But I'm-I'm-I'm here,
791
00:42:40,441 --> 00:42:42,975
and if I... If I'm not here,
I'm just a phone call away
792
00:42:43,075 --> 00:42:44,711
or an email or a text,
you know, whatever.
793
00:42:44,812 --> 00:42:46,279
I know.
794
00:42:47,079 --> 00:42:49,917
It says "Connor" on your cast.
795
00:42:50,016 --> 00:42:52,084
Oh.
796
00:42:52,185 --> 00:42:53,587
No, no, yeah. Um...
797
00:42:53,687 --> 00:42:55,955
- You said you didn't know him.
- Sorry, I didn't.
798
00:42:56,055 --> 00:42:57,758
Um...
799
00:42:57,858 --> 00:43:00,527
It's in memory, so, like...
800
00:43:00,627 --> 00:43:02,830
Y-You know,
kids are, like, um...
801
00:43:02,930 --> 00:43:04,665
they're writing
his name on-on...
802
00:43:04,765 --> 00:43:07,634
lockers and stuff like that.
803
00:43:07,734 --> 00:43:09,202
Oh.
804
00:43:10,938 --> 00:43:13,005
Um...
805
00:43:15,141 --> 00:43:18,244
That's lovely. You
know, in memory.
806
00:43:18,345 --> 00:43:19,746
Hmm.
807
00:43:22,483 --> 00:43:23,282
Hey.
808
00:43:23,383 --> 00:43:25,251
Tuesday. What are you doing?
809
00:43:26,353 --> 00:43:28,922
When's the last time
we did Taco Tuesday?
810
00:43:29,021 --> 00:43:30,657
That'd be great.
811
00:43:30,757 --> 00:43:32,693
Really?
812
00:43:32,793 --> 00:43:34,193
Yeah.
813
00:43:34,294 --> 00:43:36,195
So the memorial's
really just an opportunity
814
00:43:36,296 --> 00:43:38,097
for all of us to come
together as a community
815
00:43:38,197 --> 00:43:41,602
and to remember Connor
and celebrate who he was.
816
00:43:42,569 --> 00:43:44,036
Would you want to
speak or perform?
817
00:43:44,136 --> 00:43:45,939
I didn't really
know him. I'm sorry.
818
00:43:46,038 --> 00:43:48,174
- That's okay.
- Bye.
819
00:44:00,287 --> 00:44:01,555
Want a wristband?
820
00:44:01,655 --> 00:44:03,957
Oh, yes. Yeah. Okay.
821
00:44:04,056 --> 00:44:05,425
Thank you.
822
00:44:08,227 --> 00:44:10,062
You were friends
with him, right?
823
00:44:11,398 --> 00:44:13,300
I saw him sign your
cast in the library,
824
00:44:13,400 --> 00:44:15,969
and you started
arguing about something.
825
00:44:16,837 --> 00:44:19,540
- Were you friends with him?
- We weren't close.
826
00:44:19,640 --> 00:44:22,342
We presented together o-on
Huck Finn in the tenth grade,
827
00:44:22,442 --> 00:44:25,278
but he probably
didn't tell you that.
828
00:44:25,379 --> 00:44:27,146
Um, no, no, I didn't know.
829
00:44:27,246 --> 00:44:29,316
I always really liked him.
830
00:44:29,416 --> 00:44:31,018
It seemed like he
didn't really care
831
00:44:31,117 --> 00:44:32,986
what anyone else thought, and...
832
00:44:33,085 --> 00:44:34,888
I thought that was
pretty remarkable.
833
00:44:38,692 --> 00:44:41,093
Well, I'm putting together
a memorial for him
834
00:44:41,193 --> 00:44:43,262
at school on Friday.
835
00:44:43,363 --> 00:44:44,798
If you wanted to do something...
836
00:44:44,898 --> 00:44:47,233
Oh. Um...
837
00:44:47,334 --> 00:44:49,436
Sorry, I-I...
838
00:44:49,536 --> 00:44:53,105
I-I probably w-would
rather not, if that's okay.
839
00:44:53,205 --> 00:44:54,240
Yeah, sure.
840
00:44:54,341 --> 00:44:56,777
If you change your mind...
841
00:44:56,877 --> 00:44:58,045
just text me.
842
00:45:02,015 --> 00:45:04,150
Okay.
843
00:45:10,791 --> 00:45:12,191
Mom.
844
00:45:50,364 --> 00:45:52,432
My mom realized we
were out of ice cream,
845
00:45:52,532 --> 00:45:54,601
so they went to go get more.
846
00:45:55,402 --> 00:45:57,304
Did you park in the driveway?
847
00:45:57,404 --> 00:45:59,740
'Cause if you park on
the street, they'll ticket you.
848
00:45:59,840 --> 00:46:01,708
The people in this
neighborhood are monsters.
849
00:46:01,808 --> 00:46:03,844
Um, no, I didn't,
I didn't, um...
850
00:46:03,944 --> 00:46:06,046
I took the bus. My mom
needed the car for work.
851
00:46:06,145 --> 00:46:08,115
- What about your dad?
- My dad.
852
00:46:08,214 --> 00:46:10,817
Um, he lives in Colorado, so...
853
00:46:10,917 --> 00:46:13,152
He left when I was seven.
854
00:46:15,689 --> 00:46:17,256
That sucks.
855
00:46:18,257 --> 00:46:21,762
Mine died when I was one, so...
856
00:46:21,862 --> 00:46:23,063
I sort of win.
857
00:46:24,163 --> 00:46:26,099
- Sorry.
- Thanks.
858
00:46:26,198 --> 00:46:27,634
It's fine.
859
00:46:27,734 --> 00:46:30,871
I-I don't even really
remember him, to be honest.
860
00:46:30,971 --> 00:46:33,774
Connor did, though, a little.
861
00:46:33,874 --> 00:46:35,742
That's terrible.
862
00:46:35,842 --> 00:46:37,176
Yeah.
863
00:46:37,276 --> 00:46:41,180
And then Larry showed
up, fixed everything.
864
00:46:42,349 --> 00:46:44,518
For a while, at least.
865
00:46:44,618 --> 00:46:45,986
Yeah.
866
00:46:46,086 --> 00:46:48,722
Most people, with Connor,
they just would've been like,
867
00:46:48,822 --> 00:46:53,560
"See ya," but he's the only
dad we ever really knew, so...
868
00:46:54,895 --> 00:46:57,064
Wow, your mom... I
didn't, I didn't realize.
869
00:46:57,164 --> 00:46:58,532
Yeah, well.
870
00:46:58,632 --> 00:47:01,034
She's in total denial now.
871
00:47:01,134 --> 00:47:02,436
So is Larry.
872
00:47:02,536 --> 00:47:04,071
I mean, he didn't
even cry at the funeral.
873
00:47:04,171 --> 00:47:05,439
I'm sorry.
874
00:47:06,406 --> 00:47:08,975
Not as sorry as you're gonna be.
875
00:47:10,711 --> 00:47:12,679
- Oh, is-is that the...
- Mm-hmm.
876
00:47:12,779 --> 00:47:16,183
Gluten-free apple pie? You bet.
877
00:47:16,282 --> 00:47:17,851
It-it looks...
878
00:47:19,386 --> 00:47:21,154
Inedible?
879
00:47:21,253 --> 00:47:22,823
It is.
880
00:47:23,690 --> 00:47:26,593
Just be glad we get
to have real ice cream.
881
00:47:26,693 --> 00:47:28,595
My mom was Buddhist last year,
882
00:47:28,695 --> 00:47:30,397
so we couldn't have
any animal products.
883
00:47:30,497 --> 00:47:32,866
She was B... um, Buddhist
last year but not this year?
884
00:47:32,966 --> 00:47:35,335
Yep. That's sort
of what she does.
885
00:47:35,435 --> 00:47:37,204
She gets into a lot
of different things.
886
00:47:37,304 --> 00:47:40,407
- Mm.
- For a while, it was Pilates.
887
00:47:40,507 --> 00:47:42,274
The Secret.
888
00:47:42,375 --> 00:47:44,177
Buddhism. Et cetera.
889
00:47:44,276 --> 00:47:46,513
It's cool that she's interested
in so much different stuff.
890
00:47:46,613 --> 00:47:47,848
Yeah, she's not, though.
891
00:47:47,948 --> 00:47:50,050
That's just what
happens when you're rich
892
00:47:50,150 --> 00:47:51,118
and you don't have a job.
893
00:47:51,218 --> 00:47:52,319
You get a little crazy.
894
00:47:52,419 --> 00:47:53,587
Well, my mom always says
895
00:47:53,687 --> 00:47:55,188
it's better to be
rich than poor, so...
896
00:47:55,288 --> 00:47:56,857
Yeah, well, your mom's
probably never been rich, then.
897
00:47:56,957 --> 00:47:58,825
Yeah, you've probably
never been poor.
898
00:48:00,894 --> 00:48:02,295
Oh, my God, I can't
believe I just said that.
899
00:48:02,395 --> 00:48:03,630
I'm so sorry.
900
00:48:03,730 --> 00:48:05,699
Wow. I didn't realize
901
00:48:05,799 --> 00:48:08,201
you were capable of saying
something that wasn't nice.
902
00:48:08,301 --> 00:48:09,836
I'm n... I'm not.
I'm really sorry.
903
00:48:09,936 --> 00:48:12,405
You really don't have
to keep saying that.
904
00:48:12,506 --> 00:48:14,407
Okay.
905
00:48:14,508 --> 00:48:16,576
You want to say it again.
906
00:48:16,676 --> 00:48:18,111
Yeah, very much so, I do.
907
00:48:25,118 --> 00:48:27,687
Why did he write that...
908
00:48:27,788 --> 00:48:28,989
in his note?
909
00:48:29,089 --> 00:48:31,024
"Because there's Zoe.
910
00:48:31,124 --> 00:48:34,795
And I don't even know her,
but if I could just talk to her..."
911
00:48:37,297 --> 00:48:39,399
Honestly, I really don't know.
912
00:48:39,499 --> 00:48:42,102
What does any of that
even mean? I mean...
913
00:48:42,202 --> 00:48:44,337
We weren't close at all.
914
00:48:44,437 --> 00:48:46,706
Not since we were kids.
915
00:48:46,807 --> 00:48:48,809
He never noticed
anything about me.
916
00:48:48,909 --> 00:48:51,411
That's not true.
That's not true.
917
00:48:51,511 --> 00:48:53,780
He-he-he noticed a
lot of things about you.
918
00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:55,582
Like what things?
919
00:49:05,492 --> 00:49:06,760
Right.
920
00:49:06,860 --> 00:49:07,761
No, no, no.
921
00:49:07,861 --> 00:49:09,863
That's, um...
922
00:49:09,963 --> 00:49:11,031
Well...
923
00:49:11,131 --> 00:49:12,933
Okay, w... Okay.
924
00:49:13,033 --> 00:49:15,068
Here's something. Um...
925
00:49:15,168 --> 00:49:18,805
Whenever you have,
uh, a solo in-in jazz band,
926
00:49:18,905 --> 00:49:21,007
you just... you close your e...
927
00:49:21,107 --> 00:49:22,576
you probably don't even
know you're doing this,
928
00:49:22,676 --> 00:49:25,078
but you close your eyes,
um, and you get, like...
929
00:49:25,178 --> 00:49:26,847
I don't know, it's
like a half smile,
930
00:49:26,947 --> 00:49:28,648
like you just heard the
funniest thing in the world,
931
00:49:28,748 --> 00:49:30,183
but it's a secret and you
can't tell anyone about it.
932
00:49:30,283 --> 00:49:31,818
But then...
933
00:49:31,918 --> 00:49:33,820
uh, the way that you smile,
it's sort of like you are...
934
00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:36,656
you're letting us in
on the secret, too.
935
00:49:36,756 --> 00:49:38,491
Um...
936
00:49:38,592 --> 00:49:40,760
♪ He said ♪
937
00:49:40,861 --> 00:49:42,662
♪ There's nothing
like your smile ♪
938
00:49:42,762 --> 00:49:46,833
♪ Sort of subtle and
perfect and real ♪
939
00:49:47,901 --> 00:49:52,939
♪ He said you never
knew how wonderful ♪
940
00:49:53,039 --> 00:49:57,077
♪ That smile could
make someone feel ♪
941
00:49:58,478 --> 00:50:02,282
♪ And he knew
whenever you get bored ♪
942
00:50:02,382 --> 00:50:07,187
♪ You scribble stars on
the cuffs of your jeans ♪
943
00:50:08,421 --> 00:50:12,826
♪ And he noticed that
you still fill out the quizzes ♪
944
00:50:12,926 --> 00:50:15,729
♪ That they put in
those teen magazines ♪
945
00:50:15,829 --> 00:50:17,697
I-I do that ironically.
946
00:50:17,797 --> 00:50:22,969
♪ But he kept it all
inside his head ♪
947
00:50:23,069 --> 00:50:27,707
♪ What he saw he left unsaid ♪
948
00:50:27,807 --> 00:50:30,510
♪ And though he wanted to ♪
949
00:50:30,610 --> 00:50:32,212
♪ He couldn't talk to you ♪
950
00:50:32,313 --> 00:50:35,715
♪ He couldn't find a way ♪
951
00:50:37,318 --> 00:50:41,821
♪ But he would always say ♪
952
00:50:41,922 --> 00:50:45,558
♪ If I could tell her ♪
953
00:50:45,659 --> 00:50:47,627
♪ Tell her everything I see ♪
954
00:50:47,727 --> 00:50:50,398
♪ If I could tell her ♪
955
00:50:50,497 --> 00:50:53,600
♪ How she's everything to me ♪
956
00:50:53,700 --> 00:50:58,538
♪ But we're a
million worlds apart ♪
957
00:50:59,673 --> 00:51:03,810
♪ And I don't know
how I would even start ♪
958
00:51:03,910 --> 00:51:08,081
♪ If I could tell her ♪
959
00:51:08,882 --> 00:51:14,487
♪ If I could tell her ♪
960
00:51:15,755 --> 00:51:18,224
Did he say anything else?
961
00:51:18,326 --> 00:51:19,659
About you?
962
00:51:19,759 --> 00:51:21,161
N-Never mind. I don't
even care, all right?
963
00:51:21,261 --> 00:51:22,729
Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
He said so many things.
964
00:51:22,829 --> 00:51:24,130
I'm trying to... I'm just...
965
00:51:24,230 --> 00:51:26,066
I'm trying to remember
the best ones, so...
966
00:51:26,166 --> 00:51:27,267
Um...
967
00:51:27,368 --> 00:51:31,204
♪ He thought it
looked pretty cool ♪
968
00:51:31,305 --> 00:51:34,808
♪ When you put indigo
streaks in your hair ♪
969
00:51:34,908 --> 00:51:36,977
No fucking way.
970
00:51:37,077 --> 00:51:40,780
♪ And he wondered how
you learned to dance ♪
971
00:51:40,880 --> 00:51:46,686
♪ Like all the rest of
the world isn't there ♪
972
00:51:46,786 --> 00:51:51,725
♪ But he kept it all
inside his head ♪
973
00:51:51,825 --> 00:51:56,496
♪ What he saw he left unsaid ♪
974
00:51:56,596 --> 00:51:59,532
♪ If I could tell her ♪
975
00:51:59,632 --> 00:52:01,469
♪ Tell her everything I see ♪
976
00:52:01,568 --> 00:52:04,004
♪ If I could tell her ♪
977
00:52:04,104 --> 00:52:06,374
♪ How she's everything to me ♪
978
00:52:06,474 --> 00:52:11,945
♪ But we're a
million worlds apart ♪
979
00:52:13,713 --> 00:52:17,717
♪ And I don't know
how I would even start ♪
980
00:52:17,817 --> 00:52:22,088
♪ If I could tell her ♪
981
00:52:22,889 --> 00:52:25,091
♪ If I could tell her ♪
982
00:52:25,191 --> 00:52:30,364
♪ But what do you do when
there's this great divide? ♪
983
00:52:30,464 --> 00:52:35,068
♪ He just seemed so far away ♪
984
00:52:35,168 --> 00:52:39,272
♪ And what do you do when
the distance is too wide? ♪
985
00:52:39,373 --> 00:52:40,673
♪ It's like I don't
know anything ♪
986
00:52:40,774 --> 00:52:42,842
♪ How do you say ♪
987
00:52:42,942 --> 00:52:47,113
♪ I love you? ♪
988
00:52:47,881 --> 00:52:51,818
♪ I love you ♪
989
00:52:52,585 --> 00:52:57,291
♪ I love you ♪
990
00:52:58,292 --> 00:53:02,695
♪ I love you ♪
991
00:53:05,765 --> 00:53:13,139
♪ But we're a
million worlds apart ♪
992
00:53:14,908 --> 00:53:18,678
♪ And I don't know
how I would even start ♪
993
00:53:20,381 --> 00:53:26,252
♪ If I could tell her ♪
994
00:53:26,353 --> 00:53:30,757
♪ If I could. ♪
995
00:53:35,563 --> 00:53:37,764
Hello.
996
00:53:37,864 --> 00:53:39,699
- Oh, sorry.
- Uh...
997
00:53:39,799 --> 00:53:41,968
Oh, you beat us.
998
00:53:42,068 --> 00:53:43,636
Um, Zoe, can you help serve?
999
00:53:43,736 --> 00:53:45,271
- Yeah.
- Larry, get the plates.
1000
00:53:45,372 --> 00:53:46,706
Can I do anything?
1001
00:53:46,806 --> 00:53:48,074
No, no, no. You're the
guest. You sit down.
1002
00:53:48,174 --> 00:53:50,243
We asked if they had
any soy ice cream,
1003
00:53:50,344 --> 00:53:54,582
but the guy at the store said
there was just no "whey," so...
1004
00:53:54,681 --> 00:53:56,082
When are you gonna
give up that joke?
1005
00:53:56,182 --> 00:53:57,884
I think never, actually.
1006
00:53:57,984 --> 00:53:59,252
You don't have to laugh
at that. Please don't.
1007
00:53:59,353 --> 00:54:00,588
Oh.
1008
00:54:00,687 --> 00:54:03,123
I'm sorry, but there's no way
1009
00:54:03,223 --> 00:54:05,593
you'd ever be able
to tell in a million years
1010
00:54:05,692 --> 00:54:06,860
that this was gluten-free.
1011
00:54:06,960 --> 00:54:08,761
Mom, come on. Look at it.
1012
00:54:08,862 --> 00:54:11,599
A million years is,
uh... that's a lot of years.
1013
00:54:11,698 --> 00:54:14,267
Do you see what I
have to deal with?
1014
00:54:15,336 --> 00:54:16,437
I'm glad you're here.
1015
00:54:44,931 --> 00:54:46,900
"The Connor Project."
1016
00:54:47,000 --> 00:54:48,801
So, it's a student
group dedicated to
1017
00:54:48,902 --> 00:54:52,105
mental health awareness,
outreach and education.
1018
00:54:53,006 --> 00:54:55,409
Uh, great. This
is... it's great.
1019
00:54:57,143 --> 00:54:58,745
You know the Murphys, right?
1020
00:54:58,845 --> 00:55:00,980
- Mm-hmm.
- I was wondering if
1021
00:55:01,080 --> 00:55:02,849
you would reach out to
them and get their blessing.
1022
00:55:02,949 --> 00:55:05,885
Oh, well, I don't...
I-I don't, I don't, um...
1023
00:55:05,985 --> 00:55:07,655
You want to help the Murphys?
1024
00:55:07,754 --> 00:55:10,790
And all the other
people who might need it,
1025
00:55:10,890 --> 00:55:12,326
like people like Connor.
1026
00:55:12,426 --> 00:55:14,328
Or...
1027
00:55:14,428 --> 00:55:15,795
people like us.
1028
00:55:15,895 --> 00:55:17,997
"People like us"?
1029
00:55:19,633 --> 00:55:22,570
Yes, right, because we
have so much in common.
1030
00:55:22,670 --> 00:55:23,937
What?
1031
00:55:24,737 --> 00:55:26,340
Well, you're,
like, the president
1032
00:55:26,440 --> 00:55:28,241
of a m-million different
groups at school,
1033
00:55:28,342 --> 00:55:30,444
and you're, like, part
of every single activity.
1034
00:55:30,544 --> 00:55:33,813
And you're, you know, and I'm...
1035
00:55:33,913 --> 00:55:35,949
um, I am not.
1036
00:55:36,916 --> 00:55:38,485
What do you take?
1037
00:55:42,389 --> 00:55:44,592
Okay, I'll go first.
1038
00:55:44,692 --> 00:55:46,893
I'm on Lexapro, ten milligrams.
1039
00:55:49,128 --> 00:55:50,497
Oh.
1040
00:55:51,998 --> 00:55:55,502
Well, I'm-I'm on Zoloft.
1041
00:55:55,603 --> 00:55:57,338
Uh, and Wellbutrin.
1042
00:55:59,373 --> 00:56:01,207
And, um...
1043
00:56:01,308 --> 00:56:03,109
Ativan as needed.
1044
00:56:03,876 --> 00:56:07,013
Depression? Anxiety?
1045
00:56:08,349 --> 00:56:09,749
Yeah.
1046
00:56:10,517 --> 00:56:12,752
Yeah, me, too.
1047
00:56:14,588 --> 00:56:16,523
Some days, it's just like, um...
1048
00:56:17,890 --> 00:56:19,627
It's like, um...
1049
00:56:19,727 --> 00:56:20,694
Impossible?
1050
00:56:20,793 --> 00:56:23,330
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
1051
00:56:24,864 --> 00:56:27,534
You know, you don't
really act like a...
1052
00:56:28,702 --> 00:56:30,270
...depressed sort of person.
1053
00:56:30,371 --> 00:56:34,475
I'm just good at
staying anonymous.
1054
00:56:36,677 --> 00:56:38,077
Same as you.
1055
00:56:40,547 --> 00:56:43,850
There are a lot of
people who feel like us.
1056
00:56:45,952 --> 00:56:48,522
People that you wouldn't think.
1057
00:56:52,058 --> 00:56:53,960
♪ You ever look
at all the people ♪
1058
00:56:54,060 --> 00:56:57,997
♪ Who seem to know
exactly how to be? ♪
1059
00:57:00,768 --> 00:57:04,672
♪ You think, "They don't
need piles of prescriptions ♪
1060
00:57:04,772 --> 00:57:06,440
♪ To function naturally" ♪
1061
00:57:08,575 --> 00:57:11,811
♪ Well, look again
and you might catch it ♪
1062
00:57:11,911 --> 00:57:14,280
♪ Just stay a minute more ♪
1063
00:57:15,549 --> 00:57:19,886
♪ There's this little moment
after the sunny smile ♪
1064
00:57:19,986 --> 00:57:24,257
♪ As their eyes
fall to the floor ♪
1065
00:57:24,358 --> 00:57:27,461
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
1066
00:57:27,561 --> 00:57:32,999
♪ Who never let you
see the ache they carry ♪
1067
00:57:33,933 --> 00:57:37,136
♪ All of those anonymous ones ♪
1068
00:57:37,236 --> 00:57:42,141
♪ Who never name that
quiet pain they bury ♪
1069
00:57:43,377 --> 00:57:46,179
♪ So they keep on
keeping secrets ♪
1070
00:57:46,279 --> 00:57:48,981
♪ That they think
they have to hide ♪
1071
00:57:49,082 --> 00:57:50,983
♪ But what if
everybody's secret ♪
1072
00:57:51,084 --> 00:57:53,252
♪ Is they have
that secret side? ♪
1073
00:57:53,354 --> 00:57:57,491
♪ And to know they're
somehow not alone ♪
1074
00:57:57,591 --> 00:58:00,993
♪ Well, that's all
they're hoping for ♪
1075
00:58:01,094 --> 00:58:03,597
♪ What if they ♪
1076
00:58:03,697 --> 00:58:06,533
♪ Didn't have to stay ♪
1077
00:58:07,668 --> 00:58:09,603
♪ Anonymous anymore? ♪
1078
00:58:16,643 --> 00:58:20,314
♪ Spot the girl who
stays in motion ♪
1079
00:58:20,414 --> 00:58:23,617
♪ She spins so fast
so she won't fall ♪
1080
00:58:23,717 --> 00:58:26,820
♪ She's built a wall
with her achievements ♪
1081
00:58:26,919 --> 00:58:28,622
♪ To keep out the question ♪
1082
00:58:28,722 --> 00:58:33,126
♪ Without it, is she
worth anything at all? ♪
1083
00:58:33,226 --> 00:58:36,929
♪ So nobody can know ♪
1084
00:58:37,765 --> 00:58:42,068
♪ Just what the
cracks might show ♪
1085
00:58:42,168 --> 00:58:48,342
♪ How deep and dark they go ♪
1086
00:58:48,442 --> 00:58:51,512
♪ There are those
anonymous ones ♪
1087
00:58:51,612 --> 00:58:55,948
♪ Stuck inside the perfect
frame they're faking ♪
1088
00:58:57,351 --> 00:59:00,253
♪ All of us anonymous ones ♪
1089
00:59:00,354 --> 00:59:05,392
♪ Who pick themselves
apart till they start breaking ♪
1090
00:59:06,360 --> 00:59:08,862
♪ And we keep on
keeping secrets ♪
1091
00:59:08,961 --> 00:59:11,030
♪ That we think
we have to hide ♪
1092
00:59:11,130 --> 00:59:13,434
♪ But what we really
need is somebody ♪
1093
00:59:13,534 --> 00:59:15,502
♪ To see that secret side ♪
1094
00:59:15,602 --> 00:59:19,172
♪ And to know we're
somehow not alone ♪
1095
00:59:19,272 --> 00:59:22,074
♪ Is all we're hoping for ♪
1096
00:59:22,175 --> 00:59:26,279
♪ And then we
wouldn't have to be ♪
1097
00:59:26,380 --> 00:59:28,482
♪ Anonymous anymore ♪
1098
00:59:34,721 --> 00:59:36,824
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
1099
00:59:36,924 --> 00:59:39,460
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
1100
00:59:39,560 --> 00:59:41,795
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
1101
00:59:41,895 --> 00:59:44,398
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
1102
00:59:44,498 --> 00:59:47,233
♪ The anonymous one ♪
1103
00:59:47,334 --> 00:59:50,002
♪ Noticed by none ♪
1104
00:59:51,839 --> 00:59:53,507
Go, Bobcats!
1105
00:59:53,607 --> 00:59:57,243
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
1106
00:59:57,344 --> 01:00:00,848
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy. ♪
1107
01:00:20,266 --> 01:00:21,702
"The Connor Project"?
1108
01:00:21,802 --> 01:00:23,169
Yeah, so it's a student group
1109
01:00:23,269 --> 01:00:26,306
dedicated to keeping
Connor's memory alive.
1110
01:00:26,406 --> 01:00:28,775
Um, making sure
people that need help,
1111
01:00:28,876 --> 01:00:30,310
they have somewhere they can go.
1112
01:00:30,410 --> 01:00:33,647
I didn't realize Connor
meant this much to people.
1113
01:00:33,747 --> 01:00:35,916
Well, it's all... I mean,
it was all Alana's idea.
1114
01:00:36,015 --> 01:00:37,083
She thought of the whole thing.
1115
01:00:37,183 --> 01:00:38,452
That's the young woman
1116
01:00:38,552 --> 01:00:40,754
who organized the
memorial tomorrow.
1117
01:00:40,854 --> 01:00:43,189
- Mm-hmm.
- Well, she seems like...
1118
01:00:43,290 --> 01:00:45,124
- quite a force.
- Yeah.
1119
01:00:45,224 --> 01:00:47,427
Um, anyways, um...
1120
01:00:47,528 --> 01:00:49,296
we just wanted to do something.
1121
01:00:49,396 --> 01:00:52,399
It's-it's r-really cool.
1122
01:00:56,770 --> 01:00:59,071
There's something
I want to show you.
1123
01:00:59,873 --> 01:01:01,140
Sure.
1124
01:01:03,175 --> 01:01:05,244
Oh, here we go.
1125
01:01:06,513 --> 01:01:08,615
It's a bit of a mess, I know.
1126
01:01:08,715 --> 01:01:13,754
We still haven't decided
what to do with, um, everything.
1127
01:01:16,088 --> 01:01:19,459
Oh, um... he used
to write songs.
1128
01:01:19,560 --> 01:01:21,160
Or at least he told us he did.
1129
01:01:21,260 --> 01:01:23,497
He refused to play
for us, so who knows?
1130
01:01:24,831 --> 01:01:27,801
He never played any for you?
1131
01:01:28,802 --> 01:01:30,304
No, he di... he didn't.
1132
01:01:30,404 --> 01:01:32,639
He... No. I'm sorry.
1133
01:01:35,709 --> 01:01:36,810
Um...
1134
01:01:47,321 --> 01:01:49,255
Here it is.
1135
01:01:50,791 --> 01:01:53,060
It's a...
1136
01:01:53,159 --> 01:01:56,128
When Connor
entered seventh grade,
1137
01:01:56,228 --> 01:01:58,465
all of my girlfriends said,
1138
01:01:58,565 --> 01:02:00,434
"Here it comes,
Bar Mitzvah season.
1139
01:02:00,534 --> 01:02:04,404
He's gonna have a different
party every Saturday."
1140
01:02:04,504 --> 01:02:06,540
And Larry was so excited
to take him shopping.
1141
01:02:06,640 --> 01:02:08,342
He dragged him
to Brooks Brothers,
1142
01:02:08,442 --> 01:02:11,545
and they picked out a
suit, some shirts and this tie.
1143
01:02:11,645 --> 01:02:16,316
He looked... just like his dad.
1144
01:02:21,388 --> 01:02:24,156
He never got invited
to a single party.
1145
01:02:29,329 --> 01:02:33,165
He was such a sweet
boy underneath it all.
1146
01:02:34,635 --> 01:02:37,804
Everything just hurt too much.
1147
01:02:40,641 --> 01:02:44,243
I thought that, uh, you could
wear this to the memorial.
1148
01:02:44,344 --> 01:02:46,212
For your speech.
1149
01:02:48,048 --> 01:02:50,684
Oh, I'm not... I-I...
1150
01:02:50,784 --> 01:02:52,853
I wasn't... I'm-I'm
not speaking.
1151
01:02:52,953 --> 01:02:54,388
Why not?
1152
01:02:54,488 --> 01:02:58,224
Well, I... I just
don't think, um...
1153
01:03:00,226 --> 01:03:02,462
I mean, most
people think that I'm...
1154
01:03:03,330 --> 01:03:04,598
...not that cool of a person,
1155
01:03:04,698 --> 01:03:07,668
so nobody wants to hear from me.
1156
01:03:10,236 --> 01:03:12,472
Well, if...
1157
01:03:12,572 --> 01:03:15,776
that's what most people think...
1158
01:03:16,743 --> 01:03:19,312
...it sounds like most people
don't know you very well.
1159
01:03:21,415 --> 01:03:23,383
They didn't know Connor either.
1160
01:03:24,418 --> 01:03:26,687
They never bothered.
1161
01:03:26,787 --> 01:03:28,355
Hmm.
1162
01:03:30,824 --> 01:03:33,259
You can tell them
what they missed.
1163
01:03:40,500 --> 01:03:42,469
You're so handsome.
1164
01:04:18,805 --> 01:04:22,241
I'm so glad you
changed your mind.
1165
01:04:32,552 --> 01:04:37,157
Today is a day of
remembrance and reflection.
1166
01:04:37,256 --> 01:04:39,025
It sucks he isn't
here to see this.
1167
01:04:39,126 --> 01:04:41,260
The first person we'll
hear from this morning
1168
01:04:41,361 --> 01:04:43,663
is Evan Hansen.
1169
01:05:01,280 --> 01:05:03,517
Uh, good morning, s...
1170
01:05:03,617 --> 01:05:06,286
Holy shit.
1171
01:05:08,355 --> 01:05:09,890
Sorry.
1172
01:05:09,990 --> 01:05:11,725
Sorry.
1173
01:05:13,894 --> 01:05:17,164
Good morning,
students and faculty.
1174
01:05:17,264 --> 01:05:20,734
I would like to say a
few words to you today...
1175
01:05:22,636 --> 01:05:24,437
...about my friend...
1176
01:05:25,806 --> 01:05:29,242
...my best friend,
Connor Murphy.
1177
01:05:29,342 --> 01:05:30,443
Holy shit.
1178
01:05:32,078 --> 01:05:33,947
I would like to tell you about
the day that Connor and I
1179
01:05:34,047 --> 01:05:37,551
went hiking behind the old
Autumn Smile Apple Orchard.
1180
01:05:37,651 --> 01:05:40,086
We found a huge oak tree.
1181
01:05:40,187 --> 01:05:42,222
Connor said that he wondered
what the world would look like
1182
01:05:42,322 --> 01:05:46,560
from all the way up there,
so we decided to find out.
1183
01:05:49,529 --> 01:05:51,731
We started climbing slowly.
1184
01:05:51,832 --> 01:05:53,700
And then, when I
finally looked back,
1185
01:05:53,800 --> 01:05:55,635
we were already 30
feet off the ground.
1186
01:05:55,735 --> 01:05:57,971
Um, Connor just looked at me...
1187
01:05:59,639 --> 01:06:02,142
...and smiled that
way he always did.
1188
01:06:02,242 --> 01:06:04,544
Um, and then...
1189
01:06:13,486 --> 01:06:15,055
Um...
1190
01:06:16,156 --> 01:06:17,490
Sorry. Then I fell.
1191
01:06:17,591 --> 01:06:19,659
I-I lay there on
the ground and...
1192
01:06:19,759 --> 01:06:23,196
Good morning,
students and f-f... faculty.
1193
01:06:25,398 --> 01:06:27,601
Sorry, that...
1194
01:06:27,701 --> 01:06:29,102
Sorry, that's the wrong...
1195
01:07:26,927 --> 01:07:31,698
♪ Have you ever felt
like nobody was there? ♪
1196
01:07:33,600 --> 01:07:40,073
♪ Have you ever felt forgotten
in the middle of nowhere? ♪
1197
01:07:41,041 --> 01:07:45,078
♪ Have you ever felt like
you could disappear? ♪
1198
01:07:46,813 --> 01:07:48,715
♪ Like you could fall ♪
1199
01:07:49,783 --> 01:07:52,085
♪ And no one would hear ♪
1200
01:07:54,587 --> 01:07:57,891
But, see, the thing is, when I
looked up, Connor was there.
1201
01:07:59,993 --> 01:08:02,195
That's the gift he gave me.
1202
01:08:02,996 --> 01:08:05,031
To show me th-that
I wasn't alone.
1203
01:08:05,131 --> 01:08:06,300
Um, nobody is.
1204
01:08:06,400 --> 01:08:09,569
That's-that's the gift
that he gave all of us.
1205
01:08:09,669 --> 01:08:11,905
I just wish...
1206
01:08:13,673 --> 01:08:15,608
I wish we could've
given that to him.
1207
01:08:18,412 --> 01:08:19,646
So...
1208
01:08:19,746 --> 01:08:24,117
♪ Let that lonely
feeling wash away ♪
1209
01:08:25,453 --> 01:08:31,191
♪ Maybe there's a reason
to believe you'll be okay ♪
1210
01:08:31,292 --> 01:08:36,730
♪ 'Cause when you don't
feel strong enough to stand ♪
1211
01:08:36,830 --> 01:08:42,736
♪ You can reach,
reach out your hand ♪
1212
01:08:43,837 --> 01:08:49,175
♪ And, oh, someone
will come running ♪
1213
01:08:49,275 --> 01:08:55,181
♪ And I know they'll
take you home ♪
1214
01:08:57,817 --> 01:09:00,920
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
1215
01:09:01,021 --> 01:09:04,157
♪ When you need a
friend to carry you ♪
1216
01:09:04,257 --> 01:09:08,362
♪ And when you're
broken on the ground ♪
1217
01:09:08,462 --> 01:09:10,897
♪ You will be found ♪
1218
01:09:10,997 --> 01:09:13,434
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
1219
01:09:13,533 --> 01:09:16,870
♪ 'Cause you'll reach
up and you'll rise again ♪
1220
01:09:16,970 --> 01:09:19,906
♪ Lift your head
and look around ♪
1221
01:09:20,907 --> 01:09:25,845
♪ You will be found ♪
1222
01:09:26,613 --> 01:09:31,151
♪ You will be found ♪
1223
01:09:31,918 --> 01:09:36,689
♪ You will be found ♪
1224
01:09:37,458 --> 01:09:42,195
♪ You will be found ♪
1225
01:09:42,962 --> 01:09:45,265
♪ You will be found ♪
1226
01:09:56,009 --> 01:09:57,610
Have you seen this?
1227
01:09:57,710 --> 01:09:59,045
People started sharing it,
1228
01:09:59,145 --> 01:10:00,880
and now, I mean,
it's everywhere.
1229
01:10:00,980 --> 01:10:02,682
This morning, it only
had, like, 30 views.
1230
01:10:02,782 --> 01:10:04,385
Well, how many does it have now?
1231
01:10:04,485 --> 01:10:06,586
723.
1232
01:10:06,686 --> 01:10:09,656
2,326 views.
1233
01:10:09,756 --> 01:10:12,125
14,359.
1234
01:10:12,225 --> 01:10:15,296
I don't understand
what happened.
1235
01:10:15,396 --> 01:10:16,963
You did.
1236
01:10:18,631 --> 01:10:22,268
♪ There's a place where we
don't have to feel unknown ♪
1237
01:10:22,369 --> 01:10:23,404
Oh, my God.
1238
01:10:23,504 --> 01:10:24,804
Everybody needs to see this.
1239
01:10:24,904 --> 01:10:26,806
♪ And every time
that you call out ♪
1240
01:10:26,906 --> 01:10:28,842
♪ You're a little less alone ♪
1241
01:10:28,942 --> 01:10:30,777
- I can't stop watching this video.
- ...17 years old.
1242
01:10:30,877 --> 01:10:32,946
♪ If you only say the word ♪
1243
01:10:33,046 --> 01:10:34,614
- Take five minutes.
- It'll make your day.
1244
01:10:34,714 --> 01:10:40,488
♪ From across the silence,
your voice is heard ♪
1245
01:10:40,588 --> 01:10:41,754
♪ Oh ♪
1246
01:10:41,855 --> 01:10:43,189
Share it with the
people you love.
1247
01:10:43,290 --> 01:10:45,459
- Repost.
- The world needs to hear this.
1248
01:10:45,559 --> 01:10:46,960
Beautiful tribute.
1249
01:10:47,060 --> 01:10:49,062
I know someone who really
needed to hear this today.
1250
01:10:49,162 --> 01:10:51,798
So thank you, Evan Hansen,
for doing what you're doing.
1251
01:10:51,898 --> 01:10:54,801
I never met you, Connor,
but coming on here,
1252
01:10:54,901 --> 01:10:56,102
reading everyone's posts...
1253
01:10:56,202 --> 01:10:58,138
Evan is exactly right.
We are not alone.
1254
01:10:58,238 --> 01:10:59,573
We are not alone.
1255
01:10:59,672 --> 01:11:00,740
None of us.
1256
01:11:00,840 --> 01:11:01,875
None of us are alone.
1257
01:11:01,975 --> 01:11:03,544
- Like. - Forward.
- Especially now,
1258
01:11:03,676 --> 01:11:04,944
with everything you
hear on the news.
1259
01:11:05,044 --> 01:11:06,480
- Like. - Share.
- Repost. - Forward.
1260
01:11:06,580 --> 01:11:07,881
Thank you, Evan Hansen,
1261
01:11:07,981 --> 01:11:09,383
for giving us a space
to remember Connor.
1262
01:11:09,483 --> 01:11:11,050
- Thanks to Evan.
- To be together.
1263
01:11:11,151 --> 01:11:12,018
- Thanks for helping my mom.
- Thank you for helping my mom.
1264
01:11:12,118 --> 01:11:13,420
Thank you, Evan Hansen.
1265
01:11:13,521 --> 01:11:14,687
- ♪ To take you home... ♪
- Vermont. - Tampa.
1266
01:11:14,787 --> 01:11:16,055
- Sacramento.
- Michigan.
1267
01:11:16,156 --> 01:11:17,223
- ♪ Someone will come... ♪
- Just reach out.
1268
01:11:17,324 --> 01:11:18,392
Thank you, Evan.
1269
01:11:18,492 --> 01:11:19,726
This is about community
and friendship.
1270
01:11:19,826 --> 01:11:20,693
- Thank you, Evan.
- Thank you.
1271
01:11:21,828 --> 01:11:23,229
Thank you, Evan Hansen.
1272
01:11:23,330 --> 01:11:26,433
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
1273
01:11:26,534 --> 01:11:29,802
♪ When you need a
friend to carry you ♪
1274
01:11:29,903 --> 01:11:32,839
♪ When you're
broken on the ground ♪
1275
01:11:32,939 --> 01:11:35,074
♪ You will be found ♪
1276
01:11:35,175 --> 01:11:37,378
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
1277
01:11:37,478 --> 01:11:40,780
♪ 'Cause you'll reach
up and you'll rise again ♪
1278
01:11:40,880 --> 01:11:43,850
♪ If you only look around ♪
1279
01:11:43,950 --> 01:11:49,390
♪ You will be found,
you will be found ♪
1280
01:11:49,490 --> 01:11:50,924
♪ You will be found ♪
1281
01:11:51,024 --> 01:11:56,129
♪ You will be found,
you will be found ♪
1282
01:11:56,229 --> 01:12:01,034
♪ Out of the shadows,
the morning is breaking ♪
1283
01:12:01,134 --> 01:12:04,505
♪ And all is new ♪
1284
01:12:04,605 --> 01:12:07,207
♪ All is new ♪
1285
01:12:07,308 --> 01:12:10,377
♪ It's filling up the empty ♪
1286
01:12:10,477 --> 01:12:12,879
♪ And suddenly I see ♪
1287
01:12:12,979 --> 01:12:14,914
♪ That all is new ♪
1288
01:12:15,014 --> 01:12:18,051
♪ All is new ♪
1289
01:12:18,151 --> 01:12:22,889
♪ You are not alone,
you are not alone ♪
1290
01:12:22,989 --> 01:12:26,092
♪ You are not alone ♪
1291
01:12:26,192 --> 01:12:30,431
♪ You are not alone,
you are not alone ♪
1292
01:12:30,531 --> 01:12:32,600
- ♪ You are not alone ♪
- ♪ You are not alone ♪
1293
01:12:32,700 --> 01:12:33,866
♪ You are not alone ♪
1294
01:12:33,967 --> 01:12:35,569
♪ You are not ♪
1295
01:12:35,669 --> 01:12:40,039
- ♪ You are not alone ♪
- ♪ You are not alone ♪
1296
01:12:40,139 --> 01:12:42,842
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
1297
01:12:42,942 --> 01:12:45,945
♪ When you need
someone to carry you ♪
1298
01:12:46,045 --> 01:12:48,848
♪ When you're
broken on the ground ♪
1299
01:12:48,948 --> 01:12:51,150
♪ You will be found ♪
1300
01:12:51,251 --> 01:12:53,520
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
1301
01:12:53,621 --> 01:12:56,789
♪ 'Cause you'll reach
up and you'll rise again ♪
1302
01:12:56,889 --> 01:12:59,993
♪ If you only look around ♪
1303
01:13:00,093 --> 01:13:02,161
♪ You will be found ♪
1304
01:13:02,262 --> 01:13:05,965
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
1305
01:13:06,065 --> 01:13:07,468
♪ You will be found ♪
1306
01:13:07,568 --> 01:13:10,604
♪ When you need
someone to carry you ♪
1307
01:13:10,704 --> 01:13:15,409
♪ You will be found ♪
1308
01:13:16,175 --> 01:13:20,280
♪ You will be found. ♪
1309
01:13:29,523 --> 01:13:30,790
Hey.
1310
01:13:30,890 --> 01:13:32,825
What's wrong?
1311
01:13:34,927 --> 01:13:37,498
Everything you
said in your speech.
1312
01:13:37,598 --> 01:13:40,066
Everything you've done.
1313
01:13:40,166 --> 01:13:42,835
You don't know how much...
1314
01:13:42,935 --> 01:13:45,739
you've given all of us.
1315
01:13:45,838 --> 01:13:47,173
My family.
1316
01:13:47,273 --> 01:13:48,808
Me.
1317
01:13:48,908 --> 01:13:50,544
No.
1318
01:13:50,644 --> 01:13:52,145
No, I...
1319
01:13:52,245 --> 01:13:55,281
You've given me my brother back.
1320
01:14:43,797 --> 01:14:45,965
Welcome to the
first official meeting
1321
01:14:46,065 --> 01:14:47,768
of The Connor Project.
1322
01:14:52,038 --> 01:14:53,574
Right?
1323
01:14:54,308 --> 01:14:58,144
Um, now, as you all
know from Evan's speech,
1324
01:14:58,244 --> 01:15:00,848
uh, Connor's favorite
place in the entire world
1325
01:15:00,947 --> 01:15:02,850
was the Autumn
Smile Apple Orchard.
1326
01:15:02,949 --> 01:15:05,519
I am beyond excited
to announce that,
1327
01:15:05,619 --> 01:15:07,887
in addition to our support
groups, we will be launching
1328
01:15:07,987 --> 01:15:13,159
a Kickstarter campaign to raise
$100,000 to reopen and redesign
1329
01:15:13,259 --> 01:15:16,430
Autumn Smile as the Connor
Murphy Memorial Orchard.
1330
01:15:18,898 --> 01:15:22,770
Um, so to explain what we're
going to be asking of you,
1331
01:15:22,870 --> 01:15:24,170
I'm gonna turn things over
1332
01:15:24,270 --> 01:15:27,508
to our director of
global communications.
1333
01:15:27,608 --> 01:15:29,208
Thanks, Alana.
1334
01:15:29,309 --> 01:15:30,577
So great.
1335
01:15:30,677 --> 01:15:32,912
Our new website is now live.
1336
01:15:33,012 --> 01:15:34,848
If you have not yet read
1337
01:15:34,947 --> 01:15:37,751
the emails between
Evan and Connor...
1338
01:15:37,851 --> 01:15:40,987
oh, you're gonna want
to grab some tissues.
1339
01:15:44,391 --> 01:15:48,762
I swear, I've got a Cal
Ripken here somewhere.
1340
01:15:48,862 --> 01:15:51,164
Look at that, hmm?
1341
01:15:51,964 --> 01:15:54,000
The entire '96 team.
1342
01:15:54,100 --> 01:15:55,402
There's three Hall
of Famers on there.
1343
01:15:55,502 --> 01:15:57,069
- Wow.
- You get the right people,
1344
01:15:57,170 --> 01:15:59,473
baseball fans,
uh, you could raise
1345
01:15:59,573 --> 01:16:01,875
at least a few hundred
bucks for the orchard,
1346
01:16:01,974 --> 01:16:03,510
maybe a couple thousand.
1347
01:16:03,610 --> 01:16:05,312
Yeah, but...
1348
01:16:05,412 --> 01:16:08,782
I mean, you should, you
should probably keep all this stuff.
1349
01:16:08,882 --> 01:16:12,118
Oh, uh, it's just gonna
sit here gathering dust.
1350
01:16:15,021 --> 01:16:17,023
Uh, stiff as a board, isn't it?
1351
01:16:17,123 --> 01:16:18,958
Yeah.
1352
01:16:19,058 --> 01:16:20,327
Well, it's never been used.
1353
01:16:20,427 --> 01:16:21,728
Connor...
1354
01:16:22,896 --> 01:16:24,898
...he loved baseball.
1355
01:16:24,997 --> 01:16:27,233
When he was little.
1356
01:16:27,334 --> 01:16:29,369
First time I met him, uh...
1357
01:16:29,470 --> 01:16:31,572
Cynthia wasn't sure how
the kids would react, all right?
1358
01:16:31,672 --> 01:16:32,840
She was terrified.
1359
01:16:32,940 --> 01:16:35,776
And I was terrified.
1360
01:16:35,876 --> 01:16:37,778
I mean...
1361
01:16:37,878 --> 01:16:39,613
five minutes in...
1362
01:16:41,381 --> 01:16:45,385
Connor's, like,
pulling my arm, uh...
1363
01:16:46,320 --> 01:16:48,755
"Come on, let's go play catch."
1364
01:16:50,390 --> 01:16:52,124
He...
1365
01:16:55,662 --> 01:16:58,231
I bought that... I don't
know... two years ago.
1366
01:16:58,332 --> 01:17:01,635
I thought, you know,
maybe we could...
1367
01:17:08,241 --> 01:17:09,409
So stupid.
1368
01:17:09,510 --> 01:17:13,347
He was really lucky
to have a step...
1369
01:17:15,415 --> 01:17:17,518
...to have a dad like you.
1370
01:17:19,252 --> 01:17:23,089
Your dad must
feel pretty lucky to...
1371
01:17:24,123 --> 01:17:26,092
...have a son like you.
1372
01:17:28,829 --> 01:17:30,697
Yeah, he does.
1373
01:18:06,400 --> 01:18:09,403
You know, I-I saw
the strangest thing
1374
01:18:09,503 --> 01:18:11,672
- on-on Facebook yesterday.
- Really?
1375
01:18:11,772 --> 01:18:16,677
Um, somebody had a
video of you doing a speech.
1376
01:18:17,477 --> 01:18:21,848
About that boy, Connor Murphy.
1377
01:18:21,949 --> 01:18:25,786
How the two of you
climbed a tree together
1378
01:18:25,886 --> 01:18:27,654
at an orchard.
1379
01:18:29,221 --> 01:18:31,758
You told me that you didn't
know him, but in the speech,
1380
01:18:31,858 --> 01:18:33,827
you said that he
was your best friend.
1381
01:18:33,927 --> 01:18:35,227
Right, well...
1382
01:18:36,228 --> 01:18:37,798
...'cause that wasn't true.
1383
01:18:37,898 --> 01:18:39,299
Um...
1384
01:18:42,101 --> 01:18:43,704
When I said I didn't know him.
1385
01:18:43,804 --> 01:18:45,237
Mm.
1386
01:18:45,339 --> 01:18:48,775
I thought that you broke
your arm at-at work.
1387
01:18:48,875 --> 01:18:51,277
Okay, well, who do you
think drove me to urgent care
1388
01:18:51,378 --> 01:18:52,980
and-and waited there with me?
1389
01:18:53,080 --> 01:18:54,681
You were at work. You remember?
1390
01:18:54,781 --> 01:18:56,182
I couldn't even... You didn't,
you didn't answer your phone.
1391
01:18:56,282 --> 01:18:57,951
You-you told me that
your boss took you.
1392
01:18:58,051 --> 01:18:59,453
Well, so I lied, obviously.
1393
01:18:59,553 --> 01:19:01,955
So when were you planning
on telling me any of this?
1394
01:19:02,055 --> 01:19:03,890
When would I tell you exactly?
When are you even here?
1395
01:19:03,991 --> 01:19:06,460
- I'm here now.
- Okay.
1396
01:19:07,527 --> 01:19:10,530
You know, I-I-I talked to
Dr. Sherman, and he told me
1397
01:19:10,631 --> 01:19:12,131
- you've been skipping appointments.
- I missed one.
1398
01:19:12,231 --> 01:19:14,401
You know those aren't free.
1399
01:19:19,773 --> 01:19:21,908
Sorry. I'm sorry.
1400
01:19:22,909 --> 01:19:25,177
I'm...
1401
01:19:26,713 --> 01:19:29,683
I'm so happy you had
a friend, sweetheart.
1402
01:19:31,084 --> 01:19:32,819
I'm sorry he's gone.
1403
01:19:32,919 --> 01:19:34,821
I just wish I'd known.
1404
01:19:38,625 --> 01:19:40,861
That speech you gave, it...
1405
01:19:43,330 --> 01:19:45,732
I don't even know
what to say. I'm...
1406
01:19:47,067 --> 01:19:48,935
I'm proud of you.
1407
01:19:51,872 --> 01:19:53,140
Thanks.
1408
01:20:08,755 --> 01:20:09,790
Hi.
1409
01:20:11,458 --> 01:20:13,360
This is a cool surprise.
1410
01:20:15,362 --> 01:20:17,196
Um...
1411
01:20:17,297 --> 01:20:19,299
Can I get you anything or...?
1412
01:20:19,399 --> 01:20:21,134
Just water.
1413
01:20:21,935 --> 01:20:24,705
- Just water? You're sure?
- Yeah. That's perfect.
1414
01:20:25,706 --> 01:20:26,773
Coming up.
1415
01:20:31,210 --> 01:20:32,312
Where's your mom?
1416
01:20:32,412 --> 01:20:35,182
She works late on Fridays.
1417
01:20:35,281 --> 01:20:37,417
Oh. I wanted to meet her.
1418
01:20:37,517 --> 01:20:40,287
Yeah, that would've been great.
1419
01:20:43,824 --> 01:20:44,991
What's this?
1420
01:20:45,092 --> 01:20:46,693
Oh, it's just my mom is obsessed
1421
01:20:46,793 --> 01:20:48,795
with these college
scholarship essay contests.
1422
01:20:48,895 --> 01:20:51,164
I mean, I'd-I'd-I'd have to
win probably, like, all of them
1423
01:20:51,263 --> 01:20:55,267
to actually pay
for college, so...
1424
01:20:56,603 --> 01:20:58,805
Your parents,
they-they can't...?
1425
01:20:58,905 --> 01:21:00,874
Uh, not really.
1426
01:21:02,274 --> 01:21:03,677
I'm sorry.
1427
01:21:12,352 --> 01:21:14,654
Is your room upstairs?
1428
01:21:19,126 --> 01:21:20,894
Yeah. It's, um...
1429
01:21:23,363 --> 01:21:24,765
Yeah.
1430
01:21:32,038 --> 01:21:34,841
Yeah, so it's, like, a pretty
standard sort of room, I guess.
1431
01:21:34,941 --> 01:21:36,176
So...
1432
01:21:36,275 --> 01:21:37,911
Hey. Oh, um...
1433
01:21:38,011 --> 01:21:39,780
actually, I meant to
tell you this before.
1434
01:21:39,880 --> 01:21:42,682
Um, so Alana and I
had a really good...
1435
01:21:43,817 --> 01:21:46,486
Um, we had a really
good meeting this morning,
1436
01:21:46,586 --> 01:21:48,588
and I think that...
y-you probably noticed,
1437
01:21:48,688 --> 01:21:51,258
um, that, uh, you know, a
lot of people were giving,
1438
01:21:51,358 --> 01:21:54,060
uh, during that first week,
which is definitely great,
1439
01:21:54,161 --> 01:21:56,630
but, um, it sort of slowed
down a bit, obviously.
1440
01:21:56,730 --> 01:21:57,931
But Alana and I
are really confident
1441
01:21:58,031 --> 01:21:59,466
that it's gonna
pick right back up.
1442
01:21:59,566 --> 01:22:01,968
I think it's just a
m... a matter of...
1443
01:22:02,769 --> 01:22:05,438
Can I talk to you
about something?
1444
01:22:08,942 --> 01:22:10,510
Yes.
1445
01:22:14,581 --> 01:22:16,349
Uh...
1446
01:22:16,449 --> 01:22:18,752
The Connor Project
is... awesome.
1447
01:22:18,852 --> 01:22:21,855
It's-it's really, really cool.
1448
01:22:21,955 --> 01:22:23,156
Oh.
1449
01:22:24,090 --> 01:22:26,560
- Thank you.
- It's just that, my whole life,
1450
01:22:26,660 --> 01:22:28,261
everything has been about him.
1451
01:22:28,361 --> 01:22:31,965
And maybe the two of us...
1452
01:22:33,133 --> 01:22:35,936
...maybe we don't have to talk
about my brother all the time.
1453
01:22:36,036 --> 01:22:38,205
Maybe we can...
1454
01:22:38,306 --> 01:22:41,808
talk about other things.
1455
01:22:49,883 --> 01:22:51,184
I like you.
1456
01:22:53,453 --> 01:22:57,357
And it's not because you
were friends with my brother
1457
01:22:57,457 --> 01:22:59,359
or because of The
Connor Project.
1458
01:23:02,229 --> 01:23:04,698
I like you 'cause...
1459
01:23:04,798 --> 01:23:06,700
you.
1460
01:23:06,800 --> 01:23:11,404
♪ I don't need you to sell
me on reasons to want you ♪
1461
01:23:13,473 --> 01:23:17,944
♪ I don't need you to search
for the proof that I should ♪
1462
01:23:20,547 --> 01:23:24,017
♪ You don't have
to convince me ♪
1463
01:23:24,117 --> 01:23:27,954
♪ You don't have to be
scared you're not enough ♪
1464
01:23:28,054 --> 01:23:30,957
♪ 'Cause what we've got going ♪
1465
01:23:31,057 --> 01:23:33,426
♪ Is good ♪
1466
01:23:34,227 --> 01:23:38,899
♪ I don't need more reminders
of all that's been broken ♪
1467
01:23:41,034 --> 01:23:46,039
♪ I don't need you to
fix what I'd rather forget ♪
1468
01:23:47,607 --> 01:23:51,177
♪ Clear the slate
and start over ♪
1469
01:23:51,278 --> 01:23:55,849
♪ Try to quiet the
noises in your head ♪
1470
01:23:55,949 --> 01:23:59,185
♪ We can't compete
with all that ♪
1471
01:24:01,655 --> 01:24:03,723
♪ So what if it's us? ♪
1472
01:24:03,823 --> 01:24:08,396
♪ What if it's us and only us ♪
1473
01:24:08,495 --> 01:24:13,633
♪ And what came before won't
count anymore or matter? ♪
1474
01:24:13,733 --> 01:24:15,835
♪ Can we try that? ♪
1475
01:24:15,936 --> 01:24:19,139
♪ What if it's you,
what if it's me ♪
1476
01:24:19,239 --> 01:24:23,109
♪ And what if that's all
that we need it to be ♪
1477
01:24:23,209 --> 01:24:26,880
♪ And the rest of the
world falls away? ♪
1478
01:24:27,814 --> 01:24:28,949
♪ What do you say? ♪
1479
01:24:29,049 --> 01:24:30,784
♪ I never thought there'd be ♪
1480
01:24:30,884 --> 01:24:33,920
♪ Someone like you
who would want me ♪
1481
01:24:34,020 --> 01:24:34,988
Well...
1482
01:24:35,088 --> 01:24:38,392
♪ So I give you 10,000 reasons ♪
1483
01:24:38,491 --> 01:24:40,727
♪ To not let me go ♪
1484
01:24:42,829 --> 01:24:46,866
♪ But if you really see me ♪
1485
01:24:46,967 --> 01:24:51,137
♪ If you like me for
me and nothing else ♪
1486
01:24:51,237 --> 01:24:53,006
♪ Well, that's all
that I've wanted ♪
1487
01:24:53,106 --> 01:24:57,378
♪ For longer than you
could possibly know ♪
1488
01:24:57,477 --> 01:24:59,380
♪ So it can be us ♪
1489
01:24:59,512 --> 01:25:04,184
♪ It can be us and only us ♪
1490
01:25:04,284 --> 01:25:09,457
♪ And what came before
won't count anymore or matter ♪
1491
01:25:09,556 --> 01:25:11,224
♪ We can try that ♪
1492
01:25:11,325 --> 01:25:15,028
♪ It's not so impossible ♪
1493
01:25:15,128 --> 01:25:17,897
♪ Nobody else but
the two of us here ♪
1494
01:25:17,998 --> 01:25:21,868
♪ 'Cause you're
saying it's possible ♪
1495
01:25:21,968 --> 01:25:25,373
♪ We can just watch the
whole world disappear ♪
1496
01:25:25,473 --> 01:25:30,677
♪ Till you're the only one ♪
1497
01:25:30,777 --> 01:25:37,717
♪ I still know how to see ♪
1498
01:25:40,854 --> 01:25:42,555
♪ It's just you and me ♪
1499
01:25:42,655 --> 01:25:44,891
♪ It'll be us ♪
1500
01:25:44,991 --> 01:25:49,896
♪ It'll be us and only us ♪
1501
01:25:49,996 --> 01:25:54,667
♪ And what came before
won't count anymore ♪
1502
01:25:54,768 --> 01:25:57,371
♪ We can try that ♪
1503
01:25:57,471 --> 01:26:00,874
♪ You and me ♪
1504
01:26:00,974 --> 01:26:04,110
♪ That's all that
we need it to be ♪
1505
01:26:04,210 --> 01:26:07,747
♪ And the rest of
the world falls away ♪
1506
01:26:07,847 --> 01:26:14,054
♪ And the rest of
the world falls away ♪
1507
01:26:15,855 --> 01:26:18,758
♪ The world falls away ♪
1508
01:26:19,692 --> 01:26:22,896
♪ The world falls away ♪
1509
01:26:28,735 --> 01:26:30,970
♪ The world falls away ♪
1510
01:26:32,038 --> 01:26:35,041
♪ The world falls away ♪
1511
01:26:35,842 --> 01:26:38,845
♪ The world falls away ♪
1512
01:26:39,779 --> 01:26:42,882
♪ The world falls away ♪
1513
01:26:50,458 --> 01:26:51,791
♪ The world falls away ♪
1514
01:26:51,891 --> 01:26:53,893
All right, let's just
start without him.
1515
01:26:53,993 --> 01:26:57,664
♪ The world falls away ♪
1516
01:26:57,764 --> 01:27:03,837
♪ And it's only us. ♪
1517
01:27:20,019 --> 01:27:20,720
No.
1518
01:27:20,820 --> 01:27:22,021
I'm famous for doing that.
1519
01:27:22,122 --> 01:27:23,324
I've been told that many times.
1520
01:27:23,424 --> 01:27:24,325
Mm-hmm.
1521
01:27:24,425 --> 01:27:25,326
Hi, honey.
1522
01:27:25,426 --> 01:27:26,693
Come join us.
1523
01:27:26,793 --> 01:27:29,195
- I just put dinner in the oven.
- Hi.
1524
01:27:31,332 --> 01:27:32,765
She made me swear
to keep it a surprise.
1525
01:27:32,866 --> 01:27:34,267
I'm surprised.
1526
01:27:34,368 --> 01:27:35,503
Hi.
1527
01:27:35,603 --> 01:27:37,203
It's so nice to
finally meet you.
1528
01:27:37,304 --> 01:27:38,671
- Oh, hi.
- Hi.
1529
01:27:38,771 --> 01:27:40,407
Yeah, uh, great.
1530
01:27:40,508 --> 01:27:42,409
It's great.
1531
01:27:42,510 --> 01:27:44,144
Come on, Evan. Sit.
1532
01:27:45,945 --> 01:27:47,881
I-I thought that you
were working tonight.
1533
01:27:47,981 --> 01:27:50,049
Cynthia called and
invited me for dinner,
1534
01:27:50,150 --> 01:27:51,951
so, you know, I'm playing hooky.
1535
01:27:52,051 --> 01:27:54,154
We were just discussing how
sneaky you and Connor were.
1536
01:27:54,254 --> 01:27:56,856
I had no idea that he and
Connor were even friends.
1537
01:27:56,956 --> 01:27:58,258
Oh, we were the same.
1538
01:27:58,359 --> 01:27:59,893
You know, boys
love their secrets.
1539
01:27:59,993 --> 01:28:01,895
Something smells
good. What's for dinner?
1540
01:28:01,995 --> 01:28:03,763
Oh, it's chicken
Milanese, your favorite.
1541
01:28:03,863 --> 01:28:05,732
Oh, actually his favorite is
1542
01:28:05,832 --> 01:28:07,233
my great-grandmother's
black beans.
1543
01:28:07,334 --> 01:28:08,201
Really?
1544
01:28:08,302 --> 01:28:09,669
Well, he's the only one
1545
01:28:09,769 --> 01:28:10,904
that appreciates
my cooking, so...
1546
01:28:11,004 --> 01:28:12,540
- That's not true.
- Uh, another drop?
1547
01:28:12,640 --> 01:28:14,642
Oh, no, no. I'm-I'm
fine. Thank you.
1548
01:28:14,741 --> 01:28:17,010
Oh, um, fascinating
story about the wine.
1549
01:28:17,110 --> 01:28:19,580
It's from a vineyard in Napa,
1550
01:28:19,712 --> 01:28:22,849
and the entire growing
process from start to finish,
1551
01:28:22,949 --> 01:28:24,784
100% sustainable.
1552
01:28:24,884 --> 01:28:26,152
Is that right?
1553
01:28:26,252 --> 01:28:28,721
Not to mention, it
tastes good, too.
1554
01:28:28,821 --> 01:28:29,923
- Mm-hmm. It does.
- Mm.
1555
01:28:30,023 --> 01:28:32,225
You know, I-I
didn't realize, uh...
1556
01:28:32,326 --> 01:28:33,726
Cynthia and Larry
were telling me
1557
01:28:33,826 --> 01:28:35,261
that you spend
so much time here.
1558
01:28:35,362 --> 01:28:37,096
Yeah, I... you've been
working a lot, so...
1559
01:28:37,197 --> 01:28:39,333
Why did I think
you were at Jared's?
1560
01:28:39,433 --> 01:28:40,733
I-I don't know.
1561
01:28:40,833 --> 01:28:42,101
Evan was showing me
1562
01:28:42,202 --> 01:28:45,506
all of those scholarship
contests that you found.
1563
01:28:45,606 --> 01:28:46,640
It's really impressive.
1564
01:28:46,739 --> 01:28:49,476
Well, Evan is a great writer.
1565
01:28:49,577 --> 01:28:50,977
Well, that does not
1566
01:28:51,077 --> 01:28:52,613
surprise me at all.
1567
01:28:53,414 --> 01:28:55,915
His English teacher last
year told me that he wrote
1568
01:28:56,015 --> 01:28:58,485
one of the best papers
she'd ever read on Sulu.
1569
01:28:58,586 --> 01:28:59,553
Is that right?
1570
01:28:59,653 --> 01:29:01,854
- It's Sula.
- What?
1571
01:29:01,955 --> 01:29:03,256
You said "Sulu." It's Sula.
1572
01:29:03,357 --> 01:29:05,526
Yeah, I believe Sulu's
1573
01:29:05,626 --> 01:29:07,461
a character on Star Trek.
1574
01:29:10,964 --> 01:29:12,466
My mistake.
1575
01:29:14,033 --> 01:29:17,404
So, speaking of scholarships...
1576
01:29:18,372 --> 01:29:19,473
Oh, right, uh...
1577
01:29:19,573 --> 01:29:21,908
Yeah, well, I guess...
1578
01:29:22,008 --> 01:29:25,412
now's as good a time as any.
1579
01:29:25,512 --> 01:29:27,581
Uh...
1580
01:29:27,681 --> 01:29:30,049
Cynthia, do you want to...?
1581
01:29:30,149 --> 01:29:30,850
Hmm.
1582
01:29:30,950 --> 01:29:32,720
Well, um...
1583
01:29:32,819 --> 01:29:36,423
Zoe happened to mention that
Evan was having some difficulty
1584
01:29:36,523 --> 01:29:40,260
in terms of the financial
burden of college.
1585
01:29:40,361 --> 01:29:43,796
And Larry and I
started thinking,
1586
01:29:43,896 --> 01:29:45,466
and we've been fortunate enough
1587
01:29:45,566 --> 01:29:48,134
to set some money
aside for Connor.
1588
01:29:51,572 --> 01:29:53,072
Um, I'm good.
1589
01:29:53,172 --> 01:29:54,708
- I'm okay.
- Yeah.
1590
01:29:54,807 --> 01:29:57,277
Heidi, with your blessing,
we would like to give Evan
1591
01:29:57,378 --> 01:29:59,078
the money that we
set aside for our son
1592
01:29:59,178 --> 01:30:03,317
so he can fulfill his dreams.
1593
01:30:08,855 --> 01:30:11,392
Thank you so much...
1594
01:30:11,492 --> 01:30:12,992
but we're gonna be fine.
1595
01:30:13,092 --> 01:30:15,529
I don't have a lot of
money, but I-I do have some.
1596
01:30:15,629 --> 01:30:17,030
Oh.
1597
01:30:17,130 --> 01:30:18,599
No, no, no, no, no. I
didn't mean to intimate...
1598
01:30:18,699 --> 01:30:21,200
No, no, I understand, but,
um, we do have money,
1599
01:30:21,302 --> 01:30:24,871
so I'm sorry you were under
the impression that we didn't.
1600
01:30:24,971 --> 01:30:27,073
And whatever
money we don't have,
1601
01:30:27,173 --> 01:30:30,076
Evan will either
make up for with a job
1602
01:30:30,176 --> 01:30:31,612
or he'll get a scholarship.
1603
01:30:31,712 --> 01:30:34,748
I don't want my son to
get the idea that it's okay
1604
01:30:34,847 --> 01:30:36,182
to rely on other
people for favors.
1605
01:30:36,282 --> 01:30:38,117
- Well, it's not a favor.
- No.
1606
01:30:38,217 --> 01:30:40,354
But as his mother, I
need to set that example.
1607
01:30:40,454 --> 01:30:42,589
You can't expect
things from strangers.
1608
01:30:42,690 --> 01:30:44,558
Oh, we're not strangers.
1609
01:30:44,658 --> 01:30:47,060
No, of course not.
1610
01:30:47,860 --> 01:30:49,962
But you're not family either.
1611
01:30:57,438 --> 01:30:58,838
Mom, just hold on.
1612
01:30:58,938 --> 01:31:00,507
No, I think I
better get to work,
1613
01:31:00,607 --> 01:31:02,343
see if I can grab a
shift now that I know
1614
01:31:02,443 --> 01:31:04,378
how concerned you
are about our finances.
1615
01:31:04,478 --> 01:31:05,912
Mom, will you please
come back inside?
1616
01:31:06,012 --> 01:31:07,947
Oh, my God. Are you kidding me?
1617
01:31:08,047 --> 01:31:10,149
Will you just come
back inside, please?
1618
01:31:10,249 --> 01:31:12,386
They think you're
their son, these people.
1619
01:31:13,219 --> 01:31:14,220
They're not "these people."
1620
01:31:14,321 --> 01:31:15,789
They don't really know you.
1621
01:31:15,888 --> 01:31:17,624
Well, they like
me. They like me.
1622
01:31:17,725 --> 01:31:19,526
I know that that's very
hard for you to believe,
1623
01:31:19,626 --> 01:31:20,927
that they don't think I'm...
1624
01:31:21,027 --> 01:31:22,296
you know, that there's
something wrong with me,
1625
01:31:22,396 --> 01:31:23,863
that I need to be,
like, fixed, like you do.
1626
01:31:23,963 --> 01:31:25,599
- When have I ever said that?
- Oh, my God.
1627
01:31:25,699 --> 01:31:27,066
Mom, I-I have to
go to therapy, right?
1628
01:31:27,166 --> 01:31:28,369
I have to take
drugs. I have to...
1629
01:31:28,469 --> 01:31:30,103
There's-there's
nothing wrong with that.
1630
01:31:30,203 --> 01:31:31,338
There-There's nothing wrong
with needing help, honey.
1631
01:31:31,438 --> 01:31:32,606
Just stop. I know that there is,
1632
01:31:32,706 --> 01:31:34,073
and I know that I'm a burden,
1633
01:31:34,173 --> 01:31:35,476
that I'm the worst thing
that ever happened to you,
1634
01:31:35,576 --> 01:31:36,710
and I just... well, I just
ruined your life, okay?!
1635
01:31:36,810 --> 01:31:39,546
No. You are the best thing.
1636
01:31:39,646 --> 01:31:42,215
You're the best thing
that's ever happened to me.
1637
01:31:43,417 --> 01:31:45,586
I'm sorry I can't give you
anything more than that.
1638
01:31:46,953 --> 01:31:49,255
It's not my fault if
other people can.
1639
01:31:56,330 --> 01:31:57,464
I'll see you at home.
1640
01:32:08,908 --> 01:32:10,310
Hi.
1641
01:32:10,411 --> 01:32:11,978
I'm so sorry. I meant
to be there yesterday.
1642
01:32:12,078 --> 01:32:15,616
Okay, well, we have two days
left, and we're $25,000 short.
1643
01:32:15,716 --> 01:32:17,618
Yeah, I just... Everything...
1644
01:32:17,718 --> 01:32:19,118
You're right. I know. I'm sorry.
1645
01:32:19,218 --> 01:32:21,087
Things have been
really busy, so...
1646
01:32:23,156 --> 01:32:24,725
I've been wondering something.
1647
01:32:24,825 --> 01:32:26,627
Mm-hmm?
1648
01:32:27,428 --> 01:32:29,430
Were you ever actually
friends with him?
1649
01:32:31,063 --> 01:32:32,499
What are you talking about?
1650
01:32:32,599 --> 01:32:35,201
Well, the thing about
the emails, it's just that,
1651
01:32:35,302 --> 01:32:37,170
like, you and Connor
keep talking about
1652
01:32:37,270 --> 01:32:38,938
climbing this tree
together in June.
1653
01:32:39,038 --> 01:32:40,006
Mm-hmm?
1654
01:32:40,106 --> 01:32:42,476
We were in school in June.
1655
01:32:43,276 --> 01:32:45,612
You didn't have a
cast until September.
1656
01:32:45,712 --> 01:32:47,280
Well, uh, you know what?
1657
01:32:47,381 --> 01:32:49,148
We probably just wrote down
the wrong date or something.
1658
01:32:49,248 --> 01:32:52,586
It's not just the emails, Evan.
1659
01:32:52,686 --> 01:32:55,154
You've missed, like,
three meetings in a row.
1660
01:32:55,254 --> 01:32:57,089
If I were his best friend,
1661
01:32:57,190 --> 01:32:58,725
I would be doing everything
I could to make sure
1662
01:32:58,826 --> 01:33:00,627
his dream of rebuilding
the orchard came true.
1663
01:33:00,727 --> 01:33:02,228
Okay.
1664
01:33:02,329 --> 01:33:04,030
Look, it's terrible that
people aren't giving
1665
01:33:04,130 --> 01:33:05,632
as much money as
we hoped they would.
1666
01:33:05,732 --> 01:33:08,134
It is, but-but it's
not like it's him.
1667
01:33:08,234 --> 01:33:09,436
You know what I mean?
1668
01:33:09,536 --> 01:33:11,672
It's-it's just... it's
an orchard, Alana.
1669
01:33:15,509 --> 01:33:18,712
We have people watching us,
1670
01:33:18,812 --> 01:33:20,781
hoping...
1671
01:33:20,881 --> 01:33:24,050
praying that we can
prove Connor wrong.
1672
01:33:24,150 --> 01:33:27,287
And if the orchard is
just an empty promise,
1673
01:33:27,387 --> 01:33:30,624
all of those people will
know that Connor was right.
1674
01:33:32,158 --> 01:33:33,727
That no one cares.
1675
01:33:36,563 --> 01:33:38,765
Did you lie to me?
1676
01:33:43,002 --> 01:33:45,271
Did I lie to all these people?
1677
01:33:51,812 --> 01:33:53,680
Just go to your email.
1678
01:33:53,780 --> 01:33:54,982
Another email?
1679
01:33:55,081 --> 01:33:57,049
It's not...
1680
01:33:57,149 --> 01:33:59,386
it's not another email.
1681
01:34:07,126 --> 01:34:09,429
"Dear Evan Hansen..."
1682
01:34:11,197 --> 01:34:13,433
If we weren't friends,
then he wouldn't...
1683
01:34:15,234 --> 01:34:17,804
...he wouldn't have
written his note to me.
1684
01:34:20,641 --> 01:34:23,443
Look, only his family
have seen this, okay?
1685
01:34:23,544 --> 01:34:27,447
You can't, you can't show
it to anybody else, okay?
1686
01:34:27,548 --> 01:34:29,416
Alana.
1687
01:34:29,516 --> 01:34:30,751
Okay.
1688
01:34:40,294 --> 01:34:42,228
He wasn't right.
1689
01:34:43,330 --> 01:34:45,332
You know that, don't you?
1690
01:35:05,052 --> 01:35:07,688
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
1691
01:35:07,788 --> 01:35:10,424
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
1692
01:35:10,524 --> 01:35:13,293
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
1693
01:35:13,393 --> 01:35:15,862
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
1694
01:35:15,963 --> 01:35:18,732
♪ The anonymous one ♪
1695
01:35:18,832 --> 01:35:20,834
♪ Noticed by none ♪
1696
01:35:20,934 --> 01:35:23,470
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
1697
01:35:23,570 --> 01:35:27,106
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
1698
01:35:30,344 --> 01:35:33,145
♪ The parts we can't tell ♪
1699
01:35:33,245 --> 01:35:35,549
♪ We carry them well ♪
1700
01:35:35,649 --> 01:35:40,186
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
1701
01:35:40,287 --> 01:35:42,522
♪ The parts we can't tell ♪
1702
01:35:42,623 --> 01:35:44,691
♪ We carry them well ♪
1703
01:35:44,791 --> 01:35:51,665
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
1704
01:36:02,241 --> 01:36:05,012
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
1705
01:36:05,112 --> 01:36:09,516
♪ Who might just need this
moment to remind them ♪
1706
01:36:11,318 --> 01:36:14,855
♪ That there are more
anonymous ones ♪
1707
01:36:14,955 --> 01:36:19,626
♪ They're out there if you
take the time to find them ♪
1708
01:36:27,067 --> 01:36:32,673
♪ Just to know we're
somehow not alone ♪
1709
01:36:32,773 --> 01:36:39,546
♪ Isn't that all we're
ever really looking for? ♪
1710
01:37:02,069 --> 01:37:04,671
♪ Maybe we ♪
1711
01:37:04,771 --> 01:37:07,607
♪ We don't have to be ♪
1712
01:37:10,977 --> 01:37:13,480
♪ Anonymous anymore. ♪
1713
01:37:49,049 --> 01:37:50,884
Can you imagine?
1714
01:38:08,802 --> 01:38:10,637
Wh-What's wrong?
1715
01:38:16,176 --> 01:38:18,078
Yep.
1716
01:38:51,711 --> 01:38:52,746
Hi.
1717
01:38:52,846 --> 01:38:54,614
Alana, you have to
take it down, okay?
1718
01:38:54,714 --> 01:38:56,116
They've been through enough.
1719
01:38:56,216 --> 01:38:58,151
I took it down already,
Evan, but it-it doesn't matter
1720
01:38:58,251 --> 01:38:59,653
because it's everywhere.
1721
01:39:07,594 --> 01:39:08,628
Zoe, it's me.
1722
01:39:08,728 --> 01:39:10,030
Please call me back, okay?
1723
01:39:10,130 --> 01:39:11,598
I'm worried about you.
1724
01:39:11,698 --> 01:39:13,400
They have pictures of us now.
1725
01:39:13,500 --> 01:39:14,734
Just put it away.
1726
01:39:14,835 --> 01:39:16,703
"His parents act
like they are bereft,
1727
01:39:16,803 --> 01:39:19,472
but where were they when
their son was actually alive?"
1728
01:39:19,573 --> 01:39:21,808
Please stop reading them.
1729
01:39:23,977 --> 01:39:26,346
- Hey. Is Zoe here?
- She went home.
1730
01:39:42,562 --> 01:39:43,697
Things really aren't good here.
1731
01:39:43,797 --> 01:39:46,266
I know. I just... I had to come.
1732
01:39:47,200 --> 01:39:49,269
Where did they even... How
did they get Connor's note?
1733
01:39:49,369 --> 01:39:50,670
I don't know.
1734
01:39:50,770 --> 01:39:52,272
Like, did they hack
our computers?
1735
01:39:52,372 --> 01:39:54,241
They hacked our emails?
Did... These people are adults.
1736
01:39:54,342 --> 01:39:55,709
Did you see their pictures?
1737
01:39:55,809 --> 01:39:56,910
These people are adults.
1738
01:39:57,010 --> 01:39:58,612
Look, maybe let it ring.
1739
01:39:58,712 --> 01:40:00,881
I'm sick of hiding. Hello?
1740
01:40:00,981 --> 01:40:02,482
Yeah, have-have fun
with your miserable life.
1741
01:40:02,582 --> 01:40:04,318
What did they say?
What's the number?
1742
01:40:04,417 --> 01:40:05,585
It's blocked.
1743
01:40:05,685 --> 01:40:07,020
It doesn't... No,
it doesn't matter.
1744
01:40:07,120 --> 01:40:08,822
That's it. I'm
calling the police.
1745
01:40:08,922 --> 01:40:10,056
No, look, right now,
maybe the best thing to do
1746
01:40:10,156 --> 01:40:11,758
is to just stay calm, all right?
1747
01:40:11,858 --> 01:40:13,593
- And sit...
- That's always your solution, isn't it?
1748
01:40:13,693 --> 01:40:14,928
Wait and see. Let's just
wait and see, right, Larry?
1749
01:40:15,028 --> 01:40:16,263
What are the police going to do?
1750
01:40:16,364 --> 01:40:17,530
It's the Internet. Wh...
1751
01:40:17,631 --> 01:40:19,032
Are they gonna
arrest the Internet?
1752
01:40:19,132 --> 01:40:20,334
I had to beg you,
every step of the way,
1753
01:40:20,433 --> 01:40:21,401
for-for therapy, for-for rehab.
1754
01:40:21,501 --> 01:40:23,003
What? N-No, no.
1755
01:40:23,103 --> 01:40:24,838
You went lurching from
one miracle cure to the next...
1756
01:40:24,938 --> 01:40:26,606
Oh, you're... Really?
1757
01:40:26,706 --> 01:40:28,575
...because all he needed
was another $20,000
1758
01:40:28,675 --> 01:40:29,643
weekend yoga retreat.
1759
01:40:29,743 --> 01:40:31,044
What was your alternative,
1760
01:40:31,144 --> 01:40:32,612
other than picking apart
everything that I did?
1761
01:40:32,712 --> 01:40:34,681
How about putting him on
1762
01:40:34,781 --> 01:40:36,449
one program and sticking to it?
1763
01:40:36,549 --> 01:40:38,184
Remember what he said
1764
01:40:38,285 --> 01:40:40,253
the first time that Connor
tried to kill himself?
1765
01:40:40,354 --> 01:40:41,922
- That he's just looking for attention.
- For Christ's sake.
1766
01:40:42,022 --> 01:40:43,623
He just wants attention!
1767
01:40:43,723 --> 01:40:45,393
I'm not gonna sit here
and defend myself!
1768
01:40:45,492 --> 01:40:46,760
You couldn't understand him.
1769
01:40:46,860 --> 01:40:50,030
You never understood him
because he wasn't yours!
1770
01:40:50,130 --> 01:40:51,965
Mom, what the hell?
1771
01:40:52,065 --> 01:40:53,833
I raised him from the time
he was three years old.
1772
01:40:53,934 --> 01:40:55,535
He was getting better, and
you refused to see it. Ask Evan.
1773
01:40:55,635 --> 01:40:57,504
Tell them, Evan.
1774
01:40:57,604 --> 01:40:59,139
Evan did everything
that he could.
1775
01:40:59,239 --> 01:41:02,075
Evan? Evan was in denial
of what was happening.
1776
01:41:02,175 --> 01:41:03,910
Do not bring him into this.
1777
01:41:04,010 --> 01:41:05,278
Read the note, Larry.
1778
01:41:05,379 --> 01:41:06,780
Read what he said.
1779
01:41:06,880 --> 01:41:09,015
"I just wish that
everything was different."
1780
01:41:09,115 --> 01:41:10,750
I tried.
1781
01:41:10,850 --> 01:41:12,386
- But he was my son!
- He wanted to be better! - Please.
1782
01:41:12,485 --> 01:41:13,586
I-I tried everything!
1783
01:41:13,687 --> 01:41:15,121
Stop it! Just please stop!
1784
01:41:15,221 --> 01:41:17,657
- Please stop fighting!
- He was trying to be better!
1785
01:41:17,757 --> 01:41:18,658
He was trying!
1786
01:41:18,758 --> 01:41:20,294
And he was failing.
1787
01:41:20,394 --> 01:41:22,696
We failed him.
1788
01:41:23,530 --> 01:41:25,065
No, you didn't. No, you didn't.
1789
01:41:25,165 --> 01:41:26,466
You didn't fail him.
1790
01:41:28,436 --> 01:41:29,836
Read the note.
1791
01:41:31,504 --> 01:41:33,239
He didn't write it.
1792
01:41:39,079 --> 01:41:40,113
I wrote it.
1793
01:41:40,213 --> 01:41:43,917
You didn't write
Connor's suicide note.
1794
01:41:44,684 --> 01:41:48,289
Um, it was an assignment
from my therapist.
1795
01:41:48,389 --> 01:41:50,324
Write a letter to
yourself, um, a pep talk.
1796
01:41:50,424 --> 01:41:52,559
"Evan Hansen, Dear Evan
Hansen, today's gonna be a good day.
1797
01:41:52,659 --> 01:41:54,127
- Here's why."
- I-I don't, I don't think that...
1798
01:41:54,227 --> 01:41:55,962
I was supposed to bring it
to my appointment with me,
1799
01:41:56,062 --> 01:41:58,332
but Connor took it, and then
I guess he must have had it
1800
01:41:58,432 --> 01:42:00,533
with him, um...
1801
01:42:02,470 --> 01:42:04,971
...when you found him, so...
1802
01:42:09,609 --> 01:42:11,177
What are you saying?
1803
01:42:12,779 --> 01:42:14,415
We weren't friends.
1804
01:42:14,547 --> 01:42:16,016
No.
1805
01:42:16,116 --> 01:42:17,217
No, no, no, no.
1806
01:42:17,318 --> 01:42:19,986
♪ I never meant to
make it such a mess ♪
1807
01:42:21,821 --> 01:42:24,624
♪ I never thought that
it would go this far ♪
1808
01:42:24,724 --> 01:42:27,027
There were emails.
You showed us emails.
1809
01:42:27,127 --> 01:42:31,264
♪ So I just stand here sorry ♪
1810
01:42:31,365 --> 01:42:34,167
♪ Searching for
something to say ♪
1811
01:42:34,267 --> 01:42:35,336
Mm.
1812
01:42:35,436 --> 01:42:36,736
♪ Something to say ♪
1813
01:42:36,836 --> 01:42:39,272
Y-Y-You knew about the orchard.
1814
01:42:39,373 --> 01:42:41,442
He-he took you to the orchard.
1815
01:42:41,541 --> 01:42:43,076
That's where you broke your arm.
1816
01:42:43,176 --> 01:42:46,813
I broke my arm in Ellison
Park, um, by myself.
1817
01:42:46,913 --> 01:42:49,616
But that day at the orchard...
1818
01:42:51,017 --> 01:42:53,153
You and Connor at the orchard.
1819
01:42:57,391 --> 01:42:59,626
♪ Words fail ♪
1820
01:43:00,494 --> 01:43:02,729
♪ Words fail ♪
1821
01:43:03,897 --> 01:43:06,833
♪ There's nothing I can say ♪
1822
01:43:06,933 --> 01:43:08,302
Oh, God.
1823
01:43:10,070 --> 01:43:12,605
But you said that you
guys would talk about me.
1824
01:43:12,705 --> 01:43:14,607
He would...
1825
01:43:14,707 --> 01:43:16,076
How could you do this?
1826
01:43:16,176 --> 01:43:19,012
♪ I guess I thought I
could be part of this ♪
1827
01:43:20,146 --> 01:43:23,249
♪ I never had this
kind of thing before ♪
1828
01:43:24,385 --> 01:43:27,455
♪ I never had
that perfect girl ♪
1829
01:43:27,555 --> 01:43:33,059
♪ Who somehow could
see the good part of me ♪
1830
01:43:34,260 --> 01:43:37,030
♪ I never had the
dad who stuck it out ♪
1831
01:43:38,231 --> 01:43:42,068
♪ No corny jokes
or baseball gloves ♪
1832
01:43:42,168 --> 01:43:44,472
♪ No mom who just was there ♪
1833
01:43:44,572 --> 01:43:50,076
♪ 'Cause mom was
all that she had to be ♪
1834
01:43:50,176 --> 01:43:54,247
♪ That's not a
worthy explanation ♪
1835
01:43:54,348 --> 01:43:57,217
♪ I know there is none ♪
1836
01:43:59,052 --> 01:44:04,858
♪ Nothing can make sense
of all these things I've done ♪
1837
01:44:06,626 --> 01:44:11,197
♪ Words fail, words fail ♪
1838
01:44:11,298 --> 01:44:14,667
♪ There's nothing I can say ♪
1839
01:44:14,767 --> 01:44:18,539
♪ Except sometimes you
see everything you wanted ♪
1840
01:44:18,638 --> 01:44:20,508
♪ And sometimes ♪
1841
01:44:20,608 --> 01:44:23,076
♪ You see everything
you wish you had ♪
1842
01:44:23,176 --> 01:44:28,349
♪ And it's right there,
right there, right there ♪
1843
01:44:28,449 --> 01:44:30,817
♪ In front of you ♪
1844
01:44:35,322 --> 01:44:38,825
♪ And you want
to believe it's true ♪
1845
01:44:44,664 --> 01:44:47,834
♪ So you make it true ♪
1846
01:44:51,204 --> 01:44:54,941
♪ And you think maybe ♪
1847
01:44:55,041 --> 01:45:00,813
♪ Everybody wants it ♪
1848
01:45:03,317 --> 01:45:05,051
♪ And needs it ♪
1849
01:45:06,786 --> 01:45:10,391
♪ A little bit, too. ♪
1850
01:45:26,839 --> 01:45:28,241
Zoe.
1851
01:45:37,250 --> 01:45:40,321
I think it's time for you to go.
1852
01:46:12,453 --> 01:46:13,587
Go away, Evan.
1853
01:46:13,687 --> 01:46:15,021
It isn't fair, okay?
1854
01:46:15,121 --> 01:46:16,557
You can't, you can't let people
1855
01:46:16,657 --> 01:46:18,692
just blame you and your parents.
1856
01:46:18,791 --> 01:46:19,959
They need to know
it was me, okay?
1857
01:46:20,059 --> 01:46:21,227
I'm the one people should hate.
1858
01:46:21,328 --> 01:46:23,896
Yeah, well, we're
not telling anyone.
1859
01:46:23,997 --> 01:46:25,566
Well, that's... I...
1860
01:46:25,666 --> 01:46:28,569
You can't... You have to.
1861
01:46:28,669 --> 01:46:30,704
It's not my decision.
1862
01:46:30,803 --> 01:46:32,272
It's my mom's.
1863
01:46:32,373 --> 01:46:33,940
She doesn't want
to ruin your life.
1864
01:46:34,040 --> 01:46:36,543
She's afraid you'll
do something stupid.
1865
01:46:36,644 --> 01:46:38,612
Like hurt yourself.
1866
01:46:42,516 --> 01:46:45,352
She said they
already lost one son.
1867
01:46:49,690 --> 01:46:52,058
Can you just...
1868
01:46:52,158 --> 01:46:54,662
leave my family alone, okay?
1869
01:47:22,121 --> 01:47:26,460
♪ This was just
a sad invention ♪
1870
01:47:27,761 --> 01:47:30,531
♪ It wasn't real, I know ♪
1871
01:47:32,165 --> 01:47:34,267
♪ But we were happy ♪
1872
01:47:35,835 --> 01:47:39,373
♪ I guess I
couldn't let that go ♪
1873
01:47:41,207 --> 01:47:44,210
♪ I guess I couldn't
give that up ♪
1874
01:47:45,479 --> 01:47:48,214
♪ I guess I wanted to believe ♪
1875
01:47:48,315 --> 01:47:50,950
♪ 'Cause if I just believe ♪
1876
01:47:51,050 --> 01:47:53,853
♪ Then I don't have to see ♪
1877
01:47:53,953 --> 01:47:56,357
♪ What's really there ♪
1878
01:47:58,057 --> 01:47:59,760
♪ No, I'd rather pretend ♪
1879
01:47:59,859 --> 01:48:03,096
♪ I'm something better
than these broken parts ♪
1880
01:48:03,196 --> 01:48:06,032
♪ Pretend I'm
something other than ♪
1881
01:48:06,132 --> 01:48:08,067
♪ This mess that I am ♪
1882
01:48:08,167 --> 01:48:11,003
♪ 'Cause then I don't
have to look at it ♪
1883
01:48:11,104 --> 01:48:13,307
♪ And no one
gets to look at it ♪
1884
01:48:13,407 --> 01:48:18,277
♪ No, no one can really see ♪
1885
01:48:18,379 --> 01:48:22,483
♪ 'Cause I've learned
to slam on the brake ♪
1886
01:48:22,583 --> 01:48:27,120
♪ Before I even turn the key ♪
1887
01:48:27,220 --> 01:48:31,425
♪ Before I make the mistake ♪
1888
01:48:31,525 --> 01:48:35,295
♪ Before I lead with
the worst of me ♪
1889
01:48:35,396 --> 01:48:37,664
♪ I never let them see ♪
1890
01:48:37,765 --> 01:48:46,373
♪ The worst of me ♪
1891
01:48:55,915 --> 01:48:57,651
♪ 'Cause what if everyone saw? ♪
1892
01:49:01,855 --> 01:49:04,458
♪ What if everyone knew? ♪
1893
01:49:06,360 --> 01:49:09,061
♪ Would they like
what they saw? ♪
1894
01:49:10,997 --> 01:49:14,200
♪ Or would they hate it, too? ♪
1895
01:49:25,178 --> 01:49:29,616
♪ Will I just keep
on running away ♪
1896
01:49:29,716 --> 01:49:33,720
♪ From what's true? ♪
1897
01:49:36,757 --> 01:49:42,329
♪ All I ever do is run ♪
1898
01:49:45,399 --> 01:49:50,169
♪ So how do I step in ♪
1899
01:49:54,508 --> 01:50:02,982
♪ Step into the sun? ♪
1900
01:50:04,283 --> 01:50:10,958
♪ Step into the sun. ♪
1901
01:50:45,492 --> 01:50:47,093
Evan?
1902
01:50:47,861 --> 01:50:49,563
Evan?
1903
01:50:58,070 --> 01:50:59,473
Evan?
1904
01:51:16,055 --> 01:51:17,624
Oh, honey.
1905
01:51:23,297 --> 01:51:25,399
"Dear Evan Hansen..."
1906
01:51:27,301 --> 01:51:29,703
You wrote this? Connor's note?
1907
01:51:33,239 --> 01:51:34,775
I didn't know.
1908
01:51:34,875 --> 01:51:36,343
No one did.
1909
01:51:36,443 --> 01:51:38,545
No, honey, that's...
1910
01:51:39,880 --> 01:51:42,114
...that's not what I meant.
1911
01:51:43,617 --> 01:51:45,852
I didn't know that you were...
1912
01:51:46,787 --> 01:51:49,155
...that you were
hurting like that.
1913
01:51:49,255 --> 01:51:51,658
That you felt...
1914
01:51:51,758 --> 01:51:53,493
I didn't know.
1915
01:51:55,896 --> 01:51:57,631
I lied.
1916
01:52:01,401 --> 01:52:03,804
I lied about so many things.
1917
01:52:06,340 --> 01:52:08,575
Not just Connor. Um...
1918
01:52:13,212 --> 01:52:15,616
So, last summer, um...
1919
01:52:18,250 --> 01:52:19,820
...I just...
1920
01:52:22,254 --> 01:52:25,124
...I just felt so alone. Um...
1921
01:52:27,995 --> 01:52:29,563
You can tell me.
1922
01:52:32,699 --> 01:52:34,434
The tree.
1923
01:52:37,269 --> 01:52:39,473
I didn't fall.
1924
01:52:42,542 --> 01:52:43,744
I let go.
1925
01:52:47,714 --> 01:52:50,317
- Oh, Evan.
- Do you hate me now?
1926
01:52:52,419 --> 01:52:55,822
You should. You should.
1927
01:52:55,922 --> 01:53:00,627
If you knew who I am,
just how just broken I am.
1928
01:53:01,428 --> 01:53:03,530
I already know you.
1929
01:53:04,931 --> 01:53:06,333
And I love you.
1930
01:53:12,171 --> 01:53:14,408
I can promise you that...
1931
01:53:16,743 --> 01:53:18,111
...someday...
1932
01:53:19,046 --> 01:53:22,749
...all of this is gonna feel
like a very long time ago.
1933
01:53:26,853 --> 01:53:28,755
Ah.
1934
01:53:30,123 --> 01:53:32,359
Your dad, um...
1935
01:53:34,961 --> 01:53:37,631
Do you remember when
he drove by to get his things?
1936
01:53:42,869 --> 01:53:45,806
It was a few weeks
after he moved out.
1937
01:53:47,374 --> 01:53:49,609
Temporarily, we said.
1938
01:53:50,711 --> 01:53:53,547
♪ It was a February day ♪
1939
01:53:54,915 --> 01:54:00,320
♪ When your dad came
by before going away ♪
1940
01:54:01,421 --> 01:54:04,891
♪ A U-Haul truck
in the driveway ♪
1941
01:54:06,426 --> 01:54:11,531
♪ The day it was suddenly real ♪
1942
01:54:12,699 --> 01:54:15,836
♪ I told you not
to come outside ♪
1943
01:54:16,737 --> 01:54:22,375
♪ But you saw that truck,
and you smiled so wide ♪
1944
01:54:23,910 --> 01:54:28,682
♪ A real live truck
in your driveway ♪
1945
01:54:29,516 --> 01:54:33,720
♪ We let you sit
behind the wheel ♪
1946
01:54:36,289 --> 01:54:41,260
♪ Goodbye, goodbye ♪
1947
01:54:42,062 --> 01:54:45,565
♪ Now it's just me ♪
1948
01:54:45,665 --> 01:54:48,835
♪ And my little guy ♪
1949
01:54:50,904 --> 01:54:55,675
♪ And the house felt so big ♪
1950
01:54:57,477 --> 01:55:02,616
♪ And I felt so small ♪
1951
01:55:03,650 --> 01:55:08,455
♪ The house felt so big ♪
1952
01:55:09,656 --> 01:55:14,528
♪ And I felt so small ♪
1953
01:55:16,196 --> 01:55:19,466
♪ That night, I
tucked you into bed ♪
1954
01:55:20,567 --> 01:55:25,939
♪ I will never forget how
you sat up and said ♪
1955
01:55:26,039 --> 01:55:30,510
♪ "Is there another truck
coming to our driveway? ♪
1956
01:55:31,545 --> 01:55:37,350
♪ A truck that will
take Mommy away?" ♪
1957
01:55:38,819 --> 01:55:44,391
♪ And the house felt so big ♪
1958
01:55:45,192 --> 01:55:50,797
♪ And I felt so small ♪
1959
01:55:51,631 --> 01:55:56,837
♪ The house felt so big ♪
1960
01:55:56,937 --> 01:55:59,706
♪ And I ♪
1961
01:55:59,806 --> 01:56:03,610
♪ And I knew there would be ♪
1962
01:56:03,710 --> 01:56:06,580
♪ Moments that I'd miss ♪
1963
01:56:06,680 --> 01:56:10,050
♪ And I knew there would be ♪
1964
01:56:10,150 --> 01:56:12,485
♪ Space I couldn't fill ♪
1965
01:56:12,586 --> 01:56:15,889
♪ And I knew I'd come up short ♪
1966
01:56:15,989 --> 01:56:20,493
♪ A million different ways ♪
1967
01:56:20,594 --> 01:56:23,396
♪ And I did ♪
1968
01:56:25,098 --> 01:56:28,902
♪ And I do ♪
1969
01:56:30,338 --> 01:56:32,939
♪ And I will ♪
1970
01:56:34,908 --> 01:56:37,844
♪ But like that February day ♪
1971
01:56:39,347 --> 01:56:41,414
♪ I will take your hand ♪
1972
01:56:41,514 --> 01:56:44,918
♪ Squeeze it tightly and say ♪
1973
01:56:45,018 --> 01:56:48,822
♪ "There's not another
truck in the driveway ♪
1974
01:56:50,023 --> 01:56:52,626
♪ "Your mom isn't
going anywhere ♪
1975
01:56:52,726 --> 01:56:55,562
♪ "Your mom is
staying right here ♪
1976
01:56:55,662 --> 01:56:58,164
♪ "Your mom isn't
going anywhere ♪
1977
01:56:58,265 --> 01:57:01,868
♪ Your mom is
staying right here" ♪
1978
01:57:02,636 --> 01:57:04,905
♪ No matter what ♪
1979
01:57:07,173 --> 01:57:11,711
♪ I'll be here ♪
1980
01:57:12,512 --> 01:57:17,751
♪ When it all feels so big ♪
1981
01:57:18,752 --> 01:57:23,924
♪ Till it all feels so small ♪
1982
01:57:24,724 --> 01:57:29,629
♪ When it all feels so big ♪
1983
01:57:30,697 --> 01:57:33,967
♪ Till it all feels ♪
1984
01:57:34,067 --> 01:57:40,473
♪ So small ♪
1985
01:57:42,609 --> 01:57:49,215
♪ Till it all feels so small. ♪
1986
01:57:50,583 --> 01:57:51,851
Oh.
1987
01:57:57,557 --> 01:58:00,193
It's gonna get
better, I promise.
1988
01:58:14,674 --> 01:58:17,077
I was never friends
with Connor Murphy.
1989
01:58:18,446 --> 01:58:20,880
I lied,
1990
01:58:20,981 --> 01:58:22,482
repeatedly,
1991
01:58:22,582 --> 01:58:25,419
to his family,
1992
01:58:25,518 --> 01:58:28,088
to Alana,
1993
01:58:28,188 --> 01:58:30,090
to all of you.
1994
01:58:31,591 --> 01:58:33,226
I'm not asking for
your forgiveness.
1995
01:58:33,327 --> 01:58:34,328
I don't deserve it.
1996
01:58:34,428 --> 01:58:37,063
But, um, please...
1997
01:58:38,366 --> 01:58:41,134
Connor's family doesn't
deserve your hatred.
1998
01:58:42,669 --> 01:58:44,237
I do.
1999
01:58:46,506 --> 01:58:48,074
I'm sorry.
2000
02:00:00,613 --> 02:00:03,283
♪ Spent so many seasons ♪
2001
02:00:03,384 --> 02:00:06,554
♪ Lost inside my mind ♪
2002
02:00:06,653 --> 02:00:11,124
♪ Lost inside my mind ♪
2003
02:00:12,659 --> 02:00:14,828
♪ Like a message in a bottle ♪
2004
02:00:14,928 --> 02:00:17,597
♪ I thought nobody would find ♪
2005
02:00:17,697 --> 02:00:22,268
♪ That nobody would find ♪
2006
02:00:23,870 --> 02:00:27,006
♪ I've been drifting,
I've been dreaming ♪
2007
02:00:27,107 --> 02:00:29,943
♪ I would land upon the shore ♪
2008
02:00:30,043 --> 02:00:33,481
♪ To a haven, to a harbor ♪
2009
02:00:33,581 --> 02:00:38,118
♪ That felt so far before ♪
2010
02:00:39,420 --> 02:00:42,289
♪ Well, today ♪
2011
02:00:42,389 --> 02:00:45,326
♪ Today ♪
2012
02:00:45,426 --> 02:00:47,760
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2013
02:00:47,861 --> 02:00:51,365
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2014
02:00:51,465 --> 02:00:57,605
♪ For today, today ♪
2015
02:00:57,704 --> 02:01:00,039
♪ Today ♪
2016
02:01:01,941 --> 02:01:06,946
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2017
02:01:09,916 --> 02:01:12,085
♪ How long these
days of darkness ♪
2018
02:01:12,185 --> 02:01:15,623
♪ At the bottom of a well ♪
2019
02:01:15,722 --> 02:01:20,226
♪ That old, familiar well ♪
2020
02:01:21,928 --> 02:01:25,466
♪ Sitting heavy
with these secrets ♪
2021
02:01:25,566 --> 02:01:27,834
♪ With nobody to tell ♪
2022
02:01:27,934 --> 02:01:31,804
♪ Nobody to tell ♪
2023
02:01:32,606 --> 02:01:34,841
- Okay, your turn. Come on.
- ♪ High above ♪
2024
02:01:34,941 --> 02:01:36,577
♪ A streak of sunlight ♪
2025
02:01:36,676 --> 02:01:39,212
♪ And a wall too tall to climb ♪
2026
02:01:39,313 --> 02:01:43,116
♪ All the reaching,
all the wanting ♪
2027
02:01:43,216 --> 02:01:46,719
♪ Just to tumble every time ♪
2028
02:01:46,819 --> 02:01:47,887
I think we got it.
2029
02:01:47,987 --> 02:01:49,657
All right.
2030
02:01:49,756 --> 02:01:52,692
♪ But today ♪
2031
02:01:52,792 --> 02:01:55,396
♪ Today ♪
2032
02:01:55,496 --> 02:01:57,697
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2033
02:01:57,797 --> 02:02:01,335
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2034
02:02:01,435 --> 02:02:07,707
♪ For today, today ♪
2035
02:02:07,807 --> 02:02:10,276
♪ Today ♪
2036
02:02:12,946 --> 02:02:16,149
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2037
02:02:25,225 --> 02:02:31,731
♪ And the days carry on ♪
2038
02:02:31,831 --> 02:02:33,701
♪ The clouds come rolling in ♪
2039
02:02:33,800 --> 02:02:37,070
♪ And then they're gone ♪
2040
02:02:37,170 --> 02:02:44,077
♪ As the days keep coming on ♪
2041
02:02:44,177 --> 02:02:48,781
♪ The midnight
sky turns to dawn ♪
2042
02:02:58,726 --> 02:03:04,732
♪ Today, today ♪
2043
02:03:04,831 --> 02:03:07,200
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2044
02:03:07,301 --> 02:03:11,271
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2045
02:03:11,372 --> 02:03:17,478
♪ Today, today ♪
2046
02:03:17,578 --> 02:03:19,779
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2047
02:03:19,879 --> 02:03:24,183
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2048
02:03:24,284 --> 02:03:30,189
♪ For today, today ♪
2049
02:03:30,291 --> 02:03:33,192
♪ Today ♪
2050
02:03:35,696 --> 02:03:38,766
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2051
02:03:38,865 --> 02:03:41,302
♪ A little closer ♪
2052
02:03:41,402 --> 02:03:44,937
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2053
02:03:45,038 --> 02:03:48,342
♪ A little closer ♪
2054
02:03:50,910 --> 02:03:55,048
♪ It feels a little closer. ♪
2055
02:04:36,923 --> 02:04:39,793
You must start
school pretty soon.
2056
02:04:39,892 --> 02:04:41,994
Two more weeks.
2057
02:04:43,797 --> 02:04:46,099
When do you leave for college?
2058
02:04:46,199 --> 02:04:50,804
Um, actually I decided
to take a year off, so...
2059
02:04:50,903 --> 02:04:52,673
Uh, just try to save some money.
2060
02:04:52,773 --> 02:04:54,441
Get a job.
2061
02:04:54,541 --> 02:04:57,944
Uh... take some time.
2062
02:04:58,044 --> 02:05:00,314
So, I'm taking classes
at the community college.
2063
02:05:00,414 --> 02:05:03,517
I'll have credits to
transfer in the fall, so...
2064
02:05:04,585 --> 02:05:05,652
That's smart.
2065
02:05:05,753 --> 02:05:07,654
Yeah. We'll see.
2066
02:05:11,257 --> 02:05:13,594
I always picture you
and Connor here.
2067
02:05:14,894 --> 02:05:16,630
Even though...
2068
02:05:18,298 --> 02:05:20,401
This is my first time.
2069
02:05:21,802 --> 02:05:23,537
It's nice.
2070
02:05:24,805 --> 02:05:26,507
Peaceful.
2071
02:05:27,508 --> 02:05:30,477
My parents come
here all the time.
2072
02:05:30,577 --> 02:05:33,946
We do picnics,
like, every weekend.
2073
02:05:34,046 --> 02:05:36,983
Lots of gluten-free sandwiches.
2074
02:05:40,621 --> 02:05:43,055
It's helped them
a lot, actually.
2075
02:05:44,190 --> 02:05:45,592
Having this.
2076
02:05:51,632 --> 02:05:53,367
What I did...
2077
02:05:55,067 --> 02:05:57,003
...I can't even...
2078
02:06:00,940 --> 02:06:04,277
It's the worst thing
anyone can do.
2079
02:06:11,351 --> 02:06:13,554
I wish we could have met now.
2080
02:06:15,355 --> 02:06:17,223
Today.
2081
02:06:17,324 --> 02:06:19,293
For the first time.
2082
02:06:20,059 --> 02:06:22,563
Me, too.
2083
02:06:26,867 --> 02:06:27,935
I should probably...
2084
02:06:28,034 --> 02:06:29,536
Yeah. Yeah, of course.
2085
02:06:29,636 --> 02:06:31,538
Of course.
2086
02:06:33,907 --> 02:06:35,642
Hey, can I just...
2087
02:06:36,677 --> 02:06:38,712
Can I just ask you...
2088
02:06:40,414 --> 02:06:42,349
Why did you want to meet here?
2089
02:06:48,388 --> 02:06:51,157
I wanted to be sure
that you saw this.
2090
02:06:55,362 --> 02:06:58,130
He really loved it here.
2091
02:07:13,714 --> 02:07:16,048
Dear Evan Hansen...
2092
02:07:17,183 --> 02:07:20,821
...today is gonna be a
good day, and here's why.
2093
02:07:21,822 --> 02:07:25,859
Because today,
no matter what else,
2094
02:07:25,959 --> 02:07:28,328
today at least you're you.
2095
02:07:28,428 --> 02:07:29,997
No hiding, no lying.
2096
02:07:30,096 --> 02:07:32,064
And that's...
2097
02:07:32,164 --> 02:07:33,534
that's enough.
2098
02:07:33,634 --> 02:07:36,770
So no matter how hard it gets,
2099
02:07:36,870 --> 02:07:40,807
even if it feels... impossible,
2100
02:07:40,908 --> 02:07:42,809
this time you'll know.
2101
02:07:43,944 --> 02:07:46,112
Don't let go.
2102
02:07:46,212 --> 02:07:49,783
Just hold on and keep going.
2103
02:07:51,618 --> 02:07:53,020
Just keep going.
2104
02:07:57,758 --> 02:08:06,733
♪ Today, today ♪
2105
02:08:06,833 --> 02:08:08,402
♪ Today ♪
2106
02:08:12,138 --> 02:08:19,111
♪ It feels a little closer. ♪
2107
02:09:06,026 --> 02:09:10,597
♪ Have you ever felt
like nobody was there? ♪
2108
02:09:12,099 --> 02:09:18,005
♪ Have you ever felt forgotten
in the middle of nowhere? ♪
2109
02:09:18,105 --> 02:09:22,909
♪ Have you ever felt like
you could disappear? ♪
2110
02:09:24,044 --> 02:09:26,580
♪ Like you could fall ♪
2111
02:09:26,680 --> 02:09:29,383
♪ And no one would hear? ♪
2112
02:09:30,484 --> 02:09:34,788
♪ Well, let that lonely
feeling wash away ♪
2113
02:09:36,757 --> 02:09:42,194
♪ Maybe there's a reason
to believe you'll be okay ♪
2114
02:09:42,295 --> 02:09:47,334
♪ 'Cause when you don't
feel strong enough to stand ♪
2115
02:09:48,435 --> 02:09:50,570
♪ You can reach ♪
2116
02:09:50,671 --> 02:09:54,007
♪ Reach out your hand ♪
2117
02:09:54,107 --> 02:09:59,980
♪ And, oh, someone
will come running ♪
2118
02:10:00,080 --> 02:10:07,354
♪ And I know they'll
take you home ♪
2119
02:10:07,454 --> 02:10:10,357
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
2120
02:10:10,457 --> 02:10:13,493
♪ When you need a
friend to carry you ♪
2121
02:10:13,593 --> 02:10:17,064
♪ And when you're
broken on the ground ♪
2122
02:10:17,164 --> 02:10:19,533
♪ You will be found ♪
2123
02:10:19,633 --> 02:10:22,102
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
2124
02:10:22,201 --> 02:10:25,672
♪ 'Cause you'll reach
up and you'll rise again ♪
2125
02:10:25,772 --> 02:10:29,042
♪ Lift your head
and look around ♪
2126
02:10:29,142 --> 02:10:34,448
♪ You will be found ♪
2127
02:10:35,214 --> 02:10:40,320
♪ You will be found ♪
2128
02:10:42,189 --> 02:10:47,194
♪ There's a place where we
don't have to feel unknown ♪
2129
02:10:48,795 --> 02:10:51,364
♪ And every time you call out ♪
2130
02:10:51,465 --> 02:10:54,768
♪ You're a little less alone ♪
2131
02:10:54,868 --> 02:10:59,506
♪ Oh, if you only say the word ♪
2132
02:10:59,606 --> 02:11:03,710
♪ Oh, from across the silence ♪
2133
02:11:03,810 --> 02:11:08,782
♪ Your voice is heard ♪
2134
02:11:08,882 --> 02:11:11,852
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
2135
02:11:11,952 --> 02:11:14,988
♪ When you need a
friend to carry you ♪
2136
02:11:15,088 --> 02:11:18,558
♪ And when you're
broken on the ground ♪
2137
02:11:18,658 --> 02:11:20,994
♪ You will be found ♪
2138
02:11:21,094 --> 02:11:23,630
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
2139
02:11:23,730 --> 02:11:27,334
♪ 'Cause you'll reach
up and you'll rise again ♪
2140
02:11:27,434 --> 02:11:30,637
♪ Lift your head
and look around ♪
2141
02:11:30,737 --> 02:11:33,673
♪ You will be found ♪
2142
02:11:33,774 --> 02:11:42,616
♪ You will be found,
you will be found ♪
2143
02:11:42,716 --> 02:11:45,685
♪ You will be found ♪
2144
02:11:45,786 --> 02:11:53,360
♪ You will be found,
you will be found ♪
2145
02:11:56,329 --> 02:11:58,799
♪ Out of the shadows ♪
2146
02:11:58,899 --> 02:12:01,535
♪ The morning is breaking ♪
2147
02:12:01,635 --> 02:12:07,974
♪ And all is new
and all is new ♪
2148
02:12:08,074 --> 02:12:11,144
♪ It's filling up the empty ♪
2149
02:12:11,244 --> 02:12:13,446
♪ And suddenly I see ♪
2150
02:12:13,547 --> 02:12:16,716
♪ That all is new ♪
2151
02:12:16,817 --> 02:12:20,921
♪ All is new ♪
2152
02:12:21,021 --> 02:12:24,124
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
2153
02:12:24,224 --> 02:12:27,494
♪ When you need a
friend to carry you ♪
2154
02:12:27,594 --> 02:12:31,198
♪ And when you're
broken on the ground ♪
2155
02:12:31,299 --> 02:12:33,733
♪ You will be found ♪
2156
02:12:33,834 --> 02:12:36,670
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
2157
02:12:36,770 --> 02:12:40,340
♪ 'Cause you'll reach
up and you'll rise again ♪
2158
02:12:40,440 --> 02:12:43,777
♪ Lift your head
and look around ♪
2159
02:12:43,877 --> 02:12:49,349
♪ You will be found. ♪
2160
02:13:06,066 --> 02:13:08,068
♪ Ever look at all the people ♪
2161
02:13:08,168 --> 02:13:11,238
♪ Seem to know
exactly how to be? ♪
2162
02:13:11,339 --> 02:13:14,875
♪ How to be, how to
be now, how to be ♪
2163
02:13:14,975 --> 02:13:18,745
♪ You think, they don't
need piles of prescriptions ♪
2164
02:13:18,845 --> 02:13:21,414
♪ To function naturally ♪
2165
02:13:21,514 --> 02:13:25,151
♪ Functioning natural ♪
2166
02:13:25,252 --> 02:13:28,588
♪ Take a look and
you might just catch it ♪
2167
02:13:28,688 --> 02:13:30,523
♪ Stay a minute more ♪
2168
02:13:30,624 --> 02:13:33,927
♪ Minute more, minute
more now, minute more ♪
2169
02:13:34,027 --> 02:13:38,198
♪ There's a little moment
after the sunny smile ♪
2170
02:13:38,299 --> 02:13:40,166
♪ Their eyes fall to the floor ♪
2171
02:13:40,267 --> 02:13:43,470
♪ To the floor, to the
floor now, to the floor ♪
2172
02:13:43,570 --> 02:13:46,840
♪ The truth starts
peeking through ♪
2173
02:13:46,940 --> 02:13:48,309
♪ Peeking through ♪
2174
02:13:48,408 --> 02:13:52,846
♪ They're a lot
like me and you ♪
2175
02:13:52,946 --> 02:13:58,118
♪ They can fake a smile, too ♪
2176
02:14:00,720 --> 02:14:03,089
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
2177
02:14:03,189 --> 02:14:06,626
♪ Never let you see
the ache they carry ♪
2178
02:14:06,726 --> 02:14:09,829
♪ They carry, they
carry, they carry ♪
2179
02:14:09,930 --> 02:14:12,899
♪ All those anonymous ones ♪
2180
02:14:12,999 --> 02:14:16,169
♪ Never name the
quiet pain they bury ♪
2181
02:14:16,269 --> 02:14:20,140
♪ They bury, they
bury, they bury ♪
2182
02:14:20,240 --> 02:14:24,244
♪ Keep on keeping secrets
that they think they have to hide ♪
2183
02:14:24,345 --> 02:14:29,082
♪ What if everybody's secret
is they have that secret side? ♪
2184
02:14:29,182 --> 02:14:33,453
♪ And to know, to
know we're not alone ♪
2185
02:14:33,553 --> 02:14:36,156
♪ Is all we're hoping for ♪
2186
02:14:37,123 --> 02:14:39,492
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪
2187
02:14:39,592 --> 02:14:41,895
♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪
2188
02:14:41,995 --> 02:14:45,598
♪ I don't wanna be
anonymous anymore ♪
2189
02:14:53,173 --> 02:14:56,710
♪ Anymore ♪
2190
02:15:03,683 --> 02:15:05,952
♪ Spot the girl who
stays in motion ♪
2191
02:15:06,052 --> 02:15:09,290
♪ Spins so fast
so she won't fall ♪
2192
02:15:09,390 --> 02:15:13,159
♪ World spins so
fast, spins so fast ♪
2193
02:15:13,259 --> 02:15:15,595
♪ She's built a wall
of her achievements ♪
2194
02:15:15,695 --> 02:15:17,230
♪ Keep out the question ♪
2195
02:15:17,331 --> 02:15:22,002
♪ Without it, is she
worth anything at all? ♪
2196
02:15:22,102 --> 02:15:26,606
♪ And truth starts
peeking through ♪
2197
02:15:26,706 --> 02:15:31,479
♪ They're a lot
like me and you ♪
2198
02:15:31,578 --> 02:15:36,750
♪ They can fake a smile, too ♪
2199
02:15:39,453 --> 02:15:41,755
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
2200
02:15:41,855 --> 02:15:45,025
♪ Never let you see
the ache they carry ♪
2201
02:15:45,125 --> 02:15:48,396
♪ They carry, they
carry, they carry ♪
2202
02:15:48,496 --> 02:15:51,332
♪ All those anonymous ones ♪
2203
02:15:51,432 --> 02:15:54,502
♪ Never name the
quiet pain they bury ♪
2204
02:15:54,601 --> 02:15:58,705
♪ They bury, they
bury, they bury ♪
2205
02:15:58,805 --> 02:16:01,041
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪
2206
02:16:01,141 --> 02:16:03,676
♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪
2207
02:16:03,777 --> 02:16:05,545
♪ I don't wanna be
anonymous anymore ♪
2208
02:16:05,645 --> 02:16:08,048
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
2209
02:16:08,148 --> 02:16:10,351
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
2210
02:16:10,451 --> 02:16:12,886
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
2211
02:16:12,986 --> 02:16:15,155
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
2212
02:16:15,255 --> 02:16:17,458
♪ The parts we can't
tell, we carry them well ♪
2213
02:16:17,557 --> 02:16:22,496
♪ But that doesn't
mean they're not heavy ♪
2214
02:16:22,595 --> 02:16:24,864
♪ Heavy ♪
2215
02:16:24,964 --> 02:16:27,334
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
2216
02:16:27,435 --> 02:16:30,837
♪ Never let you see
the ache they carry ♪
2217
02:16:30,937 --> 02:16:34,007
♪ They carry, they
carry, they carry ♪
2218
02:16:34,107 --> 02:16:37,043
♪ All the anonymous ones ♪
2219
02:16:37,143 --> 02:16:42,582
♪ Never name the
quiet pain they bury ♪
2220
02:16:44,318 --> 02:16:48,522
♪ Keep on keeping secrets
that they think they have to hide ♪
2221
02:16:48,621 --> 02:16:53,226
♪ What if everybody's secret
is they have that secret side? ♪
2222
02:16:53,327 --> 02:16:57,431
♪ And to know, to
know we're not alone ♪
2223
02:16:57,531 --> 02:17:01,067
♪ Is all we're hoping for ♪
2224
02:17:01,167 --> 02:17:03,571
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪
2225
02:17:03,670 --> 02:17:06,005
♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪
2226
02:17:06,106 --> 02:17:10,143
♪ I don't wanna be
anonymous anymore. ♪