1 00:00:08,216 --> 00:00:10,802 [The Last Artful, Dodgr's "Hot"] 2 00:00:10,844 --> 00:00:13,263 - * Hot, hot, hot, hot * 3 00:00:13,304 --> 00:00:15,724 * Hot, hot * 4 00:00:15,765 --> 00:00:16,850 * * 5 00:00:16,891 --> 00:00:20,061 - * Died inside, it's all right * 6 00:00:20,103 --> 00:00:23,398 * Lovin' is a fairy tale, least in my head it's so * 7 00:00:23,440 --> 00:00:26,860 * Childish-like, immature * 8 00:00:26,901 --> 00:00:29,195 * Batman, robbin' man's everything * 9 00:00:29,237 --> 00:00:30,947 * And it's not * 10 00:00:30,989 --> 00:00:33,116 - * Hot, hot, hot, hot * 11 00:00:33,158 --> 00:00:36,244 * Hot, hot, hot, hot * 12 00:00:36,286 --> 00:00:39,414 - * I feel like dyin' for sure * 13 00:00:39,456 --> 00:00:43,376 * Lockin' the pine for sure, man's not * 14 00:00:43,418 --> 00:00:46,880 - * Hot, hot, hot, hot * 15 00:00:46,921 --> 00:00:49,257 * Hot, hot, hot, hot * 16 00:00:49,299 --> 00:00:52,344 - * I feel like dyin' for sure * 17 00:00:52,385 --> 00:00:56,556 * Lockin' the pine for sure * 18 00:00:56,598 --> 00:00:59,434 * Pompous like Pomeranian * 19 00:00:59,476 --> 00:01:02,520 * You say I'm a dog and I'm crazy * 20 00:01:02,562 --> 00:01:04,564 * Yeah, maybe true * 21 00:01:04,606 --> 00:01:08,943 * Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh * 22 00:01:08,985 --> 00:01:10,779 * But I never stray from you * 23 00:01:10,820 --> 00:01:12,906 * Shoo-op, always by your side * 24 00:01:12,947 --> 00:01:16,618 - Hey, Noah, me again, Brodie. [laughs] 25 00:01:16,659 --> 00:01:18,620 I don't mean to blow up your phone. 26 00:01:18,661 --> 00:01:22,374 I'm just--I'm losing my fucking mind 27 00:01:22,415 --> 00:01:24,250 at the house and wondering 28 00:01:24,292 --> 00:01:26,378 if you need some company over there, 29 00:01:26,419 --> 00:01:28,797 you know, even for just a couple of-- 30 00:01:28,838 --> 00:01:32,092 - * I feel like dyin' for sure * 31 00:01:32,133 --> 00:01:35,303 * Lockin' the pine for sure * 32 00:01:35,345 --> 00:01:36,346 * Man's not * 33 00:01:36,388 --> 00:01:38,973 - * Hot, hot, hot, hot * 34 00:01:39,015 --> 00:01:41,810 - [moaning] 35 00:01:41,851 --> 00:01:45,271 - * I feel like dyin' for sure * 36 00:01:45,313 --> 00:01:48,441 * Lockin' the pine for sure * 37 00:01:48,483 --> 00:01:50,110 - Okay, baby's fed. 38 00:01:50,151 --> 00:01:54,781 I was thinking we could go to Ruby' later for--hello. 39 00:01:54,823 --> 00:01:56,908 - Hi, sorry. Do you mind if I-- 40 00:01:56,950 --> 00:01:58,493 - By all means. 41 00:01:58,535 --> 00:02:00,995 You clearly got your own breakfast plans. 42 00:02:01,037 --> 00:02:04,541 * * 43 00:02:04,582 --> 00:02:07,919 - * I feel like dyin' for sure * 44 00:02:07,961 --> 00:02:12,007 * Lockin' the pine for sure * 45 00:02:12,048 --> 00:02:13,341 * Enough is enough * 46 00:02:13,383 --> 00:02:14,634 * Is enough, ain't it? * 47 00:02:14,676 --> 00:02:15,927 * Enough is enough * 48 00:02:15,969 --> 00:02:17,220 * Is enough, ain't it? * 49 00:02:17,262 --> 00:02:18,513 * Enough is enough * 50 00:02:18,555 --> 00:02:22,851 * Giving up, ooh, on my luck * 51 00:02:22,892 --> 00:02:29,357 [all moaning] 52 00:02:29,399 --> 00:02:31,151 - * Is enough, giving up * 53 00:02:31,192 --> 00:02:34,195 * Ooh, on my luck * 54 00:02:34,237 --> 00:02:37,532 * * 55 00:02:37,574 --> 00:02:39,909 - Fuck. [phone rumbles] 56 00:02:39,951 --> 00:02:46,916 * * 57 00:02:51,588 --> 00:02:55,216 - * I feel like dyin' for sure * 58 00:02:55,258 --> 00:02:59,179 * Lockin' the pine for sure * 59 00:02:59,220 --> 00:03:00,388 * Enough is enough * 60 00:03:00,430 --> 00:03:02,057 * Is enough, ain't it? * 61 00:03:02,098 --> 00:03:03,266 * Enough is enough * 62 00:03:03,308 --> 00:03:04,434 * Is enough, ain't it? * 63 00:03:04,476 --> 00:03:05,560 * Enough is enough * 64 00:03:05,602 --> 00:03:09,773 * Giving up, ooh, on my luck * 65 00:03:09,814 --> 00:03:14,486 * Wah, wah, man's not * - * Hot, hot * 66 00:03:23,578 --> 00:03:26,706 - [playing sparse piano] 67 00:03:26,748 --> 00:03:32,003 * * 68 00:03:32,045 --> 00:03:35,090 - No, no, keep going. 69 00:03:35,131 --> 00:03:37,509 It's like when you used to play cocktail hour. 70 00:03:37,550 --> 00:03:38,885 Oh, you were so good. 71 00:03:38,927 --> 00:03:40,303 - I was even better after sneaking 72 00:03:40,345 --> 00:03:41,513 a couple of French 75s. 73 00:03:41,554 --> 00:03:44,516 - [laughs] What's that? 74 00:03:44,557 --> 00:03:47,102 - Just a thoughtful note Winston slid under my door. 75 00:03:47,143 --> 00:03:48,603 - [chuckles] 76 00:03:48,645 --> 00:03:50,563 - You know, he's been even more of an asshole lately. 77 00:03:50,605 --> 00:03:52,691 - That's because he is an asshole. 78 00:03:52,732 --> 00:03:55,026 - Then why are you still with him? 79 00:03:55,068 --> 00:03:56,903 - What can I say, honey? 80 00:03:56,945 --> 00:03:59,614 The best dicks often have the worst owners. 81 00:03:59,656 --> 00:04:02,784 - Oh, my God. Ew, do not tell me that. 82 00:04:02,826 --> 00:04:05,787 - Are you going to that Jack Cole Jordan vigil later? 83 00:04:05,829 --> 00:04:07,122 - How do you even know about that? 84 00:04:07,163 --> 00:04:08,665 Also, no. 85 00:04:08,707 --> 00:04:10,542 - Well, that little gay boy is so inspiring 86 00:04:10,583 --> 00:04:12,711 the way he took this tragedy 87 00:04:12,752 --> 00:04:14,963 and turned it into a call to help people. 88 00:04:15,005 --> 00:04:17,298 - It's not inspiring. It's opportunistic. 89 00:04:17,340 --> 00:04:19,801 Anyways, I'm not going to his performative cry-fest. 90 00:04:19,843 --> 00:04:21,970 - Can we talk about you seeing someone? 91 00:04:22,012 --> 00:04:24,681 Now, it doesn't have to be Dr. Maxwell. 92 00:04:24,723 --> 00:04:27,100 But I do think seeing someone is a very good idea. 93 00:04:27,142 --> 00:04:28,393 - Look, I saw the shrink 94 00:04:28,435 --> 00:04:29,561 you wanted me to see, and it didn't work. 95 00:04:29,602 --> 00:04:31,604 - Okay, fine, fuck therapy. 96 00:04:31,646 --> 00:04:33,148 How about acupuncture? 97 00:04:33,189 --> 00:04:35,525 Now, I know this older woman. She's on the west bank. 98 00:04:35,567 --> 00:04:37,444 - You think the thing that's gonna fix me getting shot 99 00:04:37,485 --> 00:04:39,195 is me getting stabbed? 100 00:04:39,237 --> 00:04:40,822 - This is with needles, and it's not like-- 101 00:04:40,864 --> 00:04:43,283 - Julian, where are we going? 102 00:04:44,117 --> 00:04:46,661 - Well, I'm going to the mall. - I'll drive. 103 00:04:46,703 --> 00:04:48,288 You know, I just need to change first. 104 00:04:48,329 --> 00:04:50,123 - Brodie, can we talk about this? 105 00:04:50,165 --> 00:04:53,335 - Sorry, I wanna spend some quality time with my brother. 106 00:04:53,376 --> 00:04:54,836 Let's go. 107 00:04:54,878 --> 00:04:56,379 What do you think I should wear? 108 00:04:56,421 --> 00:04:58,173 - Okay, take it down, like, one notch. 109 00:04:58,214 --> 00:05:00,008 [upbeat music] 110 00:05:00,050 --> 00:05:02,093 Are you sure the babies aren't gonna suffocate on that? 111 00:05:02,135 --> 00:05:04,137 - Look, I've gotta bring something to the sip and see, 112 00:05:04,179 --> 00:05:06,014 and dinosaurs are dope and transcend gender binaries. 113 00:05:06,056 --> 00:05:09,059 They'll love it. So what do you need to get? 114 00:05:09,100 --> 00:05:11,353 - Nothing, came to hang out. 115 00:05:11,394 --> 00:05:13,605 - Oh, cool. 116 00:05:15,106 --> 00:05:17,025 - Hey. 117 00:05:17,067 --> 00:05:18,818 - So how do you know everyone here? 118 00:05:18,860 --> 00:05:21,029 - Because they're my friends. That's Jojo. 119 00:05:21,071 --> 00:05:22,947 Her boyfriend's a pilot for Delta, 120 00:05:22,989 --> 00:05:24,866 so I get all the gossip on new routes 121 00:05:24,908 --> 00:05:26,659 and what they're adding to their fleet. 122 00:05:26,701 --> 00:05:29,496 - Right, I mean, you see them here, 123 00:05:29,537 --> 00:05:30,872 but don't you wanna, like, 124 00:05:30,914 --> 00:05:34,501 I don't know, meet a girl or make real friends? 125 00:05:34,542 --> 00:05:36,920 - These are my real friends. 126 00:05:36,961 --> 00:05:38,922 - Right, cool. 127 00:05:38,963 --> 00:05:41,424 - Okay, when someone invites you into their home, 128 00:05:41,466 --> 00:05:42,717 don't be a dick, all right? 129 00:05:42,759 --> 00:05:44,469 - I'm not. I'm just looking at it-- 130 00:05:44,511 --> 00:05:48,973 - Yes, you were. Look, I get it, okay? 131 00:05:49,015 --> 00:05:51,643 It's really easy to look past this place and these people 132 00:05:51,685 --> 00:05:53,770 and think in a world with Amazon, 133 00:05:53,812 --> 00:05:56,106 why does a mall even need to exist, right? 134 00:05:56,147 --> 00:05:58,108 - I mean, yeah. 135 00:05:58,149 --> 00:06:00,068 - But it does exist. 136 00:06:00,110 --> 00:06:02,404 Even if you can't see it, 137 00:06:02,445 --> 00:06:04,739 even if you ignore it, it's still here. 138 00:06:04,781 --> 00:06:07,075 Brodie, just because something isn't cool or whatever, 139 00:06:07,117 --> 00:06:08,660 it doesn't mean it doesn't have value. 140 00:06:08,702 --> 00:06:11,454 It just means that you might need to look harder. 141 00:06:13,998 --> 00:06:17,919 - Wow, that's-- - I have to pee. 142 00:06:26,469 --> 00:06:29,639 [child screaming] 143 00:06:31,641 --> 00:06:34,561 [upbeat music] 144 00:06:34,602 --> 00:06:37,397 * * 145 00:06:37,439 --> 00:06:39,399 [gunshot] 146 00:06:39,441 --> 00:06:43,111 * * 147 00:06:43,153 --> 00:06:45,530 [gunshot] 148 00:06:45,572 --> 00:06:48,575 - [gasping] 149 00:06:48,616 --> 00:06:51,536 [soft music] 150 00:06:51,578 --> 00:06:55,206 * * 151 00:06:55,248 --> 00:06:59,252 - Hey, hey, Brodie, Brodie. Look at me. 152 00:06:59,294 --> 00:07:03,298 Shh, it's okay, it's okay. Just breathe. 153 00:07:03,340 --> 00:07:06,009 Come on. 154 00:07:06,051 --> 00:07:09,512 * * 155 00:07:09,554 --> 00:07:12,432 You're okay. Just sit. 156 00:07:12,474 --> 00:07:17,187 * * 157 00:07:17,228 --> 00:07:19,189 Drink this. 158 00:07:19,230 --> 00:07:21,316 * * 159 00:07:21,358 --> 00:07:23,026 You're okay. 160 00:07:23,068 --> 00:07:26,488 * * 161 00:07:26,529 --> 00:07:29,324 - Weird, I think I was just having a... 162 00:07:29,366 --> 00:07:32,160 * * 163 00:07:32,202 --> 00:07:36,206 - Yeah, I know actually. 164 00:07:36,247 --> 00:07:38,583 - Right. 165 00:07:43,213 --> 00:07:45,799 It's good to see you. 166 00:07:45,840 --> 00:07:49,219 - [scoffs] - What? 167 00:07:51,262 --> 00:07:53,056 - I don't know. 168 00:07:53,098 --> 00:07:56,810 I mean, after that night, I DMed you a few times. 169 00:07:56,851 --> 00:07:59,145 Never heard back, so... 170 00:07:59,187 --> 00:08:02,857 - Yeah, I'm not really on social media 171 00:08:02,899 --> 00:08:06,194 is a fucking bullshit blow off line. 172 00:08:06,236 --> 00:08:08,405 I don't know, I guess I just don't know proper etiquette 173 00:08:08,446 --> 00:08:10,740 for I ate your ass, then we survived a shooting, 174 00:08:10,782 --> 00:08:13,034 then I discovered you were secretly in high school. 175 00:08:13,076 --> 00:08:16,454 - Oh, is that not a common thing for you? 176 00:08:16,496 --> 00:08:17,872 - It was my first time. 177 00:08:17,914 --> 00:08:21,584 - Oh, weird. [laughs] 178 00:08:21,626 --> 00:08:23,878 You going to JCJ's vigil tonight? 179 00:08:23,920 --> 00:08:27,340 - No, last place on the planet I would wanna go. 180 00:08:29,843 --> 00:08:32,220 - Right, okay. See, my mom wanted me to go, 181 00:08:32,262 --> 00:08:34,889 and I'm just like-- 182 00:08:34,931 --> 00:08:37,642 luckily, she's working, so saved. 183 00:08:40,770 --> 00:08:44,733 Would you want to, like, hang out? 184 00:08:44,774 --> 00:08:47,068 I mean, if your friend here 185 00:08:47,110 --> 00:08:48,486 doesn't mind me tagging along, that is. 186 00:08:48,528 --> 00:08:50,405 - [laughs] 187 00:08:50,447 --> 00:08:52,240 You know, I would, 188 00:08:52,282 --> 00:08:55,910 but I have to go to this potluck sip and see 189 00:08:55,952 --> 00:08:58,163 at Ruthie's, or Ms. O'Neill's, I guess. 190 00:08:58,204 --> 00:08:59,539 I don't know. 191 00:08:59,581 --> 00:09:01,583 It's for people to come see the babies and stuff. 192 00:09:01,624 --> 00:09:03,418 Another time? 193 00:09:03,460 --> 00:09:05,170 - Yeah, yeah, absolutely. 194 00:09:05,211 --> 00:09:06,963 [police radio chatter] - Fuck this. 195 00:09:07,005 --> 00:09:09,799 - I'm sorry, this is just a misunderstanding. 196 00:09:09,841 --> 00:09:16,056 * * 197 00:09:20,226 --> 00:09:22,395 - What was just a misunderstanding? 198 00:09:22,437 --> 00:09:25,315 - Um, right. 199 00:09:25,357 --> 00:09:30,111 * * 200 00:09:30,153 --> 00:09:32,781 - Kylie Jenner's collection. - What? 201 00:09:32,822 --> 00:09:34,449 I'm not gonna steal from Rihanna. 202 00:09:34,491 --> 00:09:36,201 I'm not a monster. 203 00:09:36,242 --> 00:09:38,161 [radio chatter] 204 00:09:38,203 --> 00:09:41,289 [tense music] 205 00:09:41,331 --> 00:09:44,959 * * 206 00:09:53,385 --> 00:09:55,095 - Thanks for picking up your phone this time. 207 00:09:55,136 --> 00:09:56,971 - I usually do when someone calls eight times in a row 208 00:09:57,013 --> 00:09:58,390 and says, "The police are involved." 209 00:09:58,431 --> 00:10:00,058 - Yeah, well, I really needed your help. 210 00:10:00,100 --> 00:10:02,769 - It's fine. It's for a good reason. 211 00:10:02,811 --> 00:10:05,063 Happy I could get him off. - You got him off? 212 00:10:05,105 --> 00:10:07,691 - Don't make a "get him off" joke. 213 00:10:07,732 --> 00:10:09,275 Anyway, he got a warning. 214 00:10:09,317 --> 00:10:11,027 Also, you do know that this is not the kind 215 00:10:11,069 --> 00:10:12,362 of law that I practice, right? 216 00:10:12,404 --> 00:10:13,947 - Right, but doesn't every lawyer have to learn 217 00:10:13,988 --> 00:10:15,990 about mall cruising cases the first week of law school? 218 00:10:16,032 --> 00:10:18,034 You know, start with the important stuff. 219 00:10:18,076 --> 00:10:20,161 - Right, the fundamentals. 220 00:10:20,203 --> 00:10:24,124 Also, it's nice to you stepping up for Julian. 221 00:10:24,165 --> 00:10:26,126 - I'm nice. Everybody knows that. 222 00:10:26,167 --> 00:10:28,086 - Brodie, can we go? - One second. 223 00:10:28,128 --> 00:10:31,214 So Ruthie and Shar are having this thing for everyone 224 00:10:31,256 --> 00:10:33,967 to come meet the babies today. Wanna come? 225 00:10:34,009 --> 00:10:36,553 - I wish I could, but I gotta get back to work. 226 00:10:36,594 --> 00:10:38,388 I'm swamped. - Okay. 227 00:10:39,848 --> 00:10:41,683 Can we at least hang out soon? 228 00:10:43,518 --> 00:10:44,853 I wanna see you. 229 00:10:44,894 --> 00:10:46,855 - Yeah, maybe. 230 00:10:48,398 --> 00:10:50,275 Hey, don't worry, okay? 231 00:10:50,316 --> 00:10:51,735 If I got arrested every time I cruised, 232 00:10:51,776 --> 00:10:53,653 I'd be doing 25 to life. 233 00:10:53,695 --> 00:10:55,196 - Thanks. 234 00:11:02,370 --> 00:11:04,164 - So was it a glory hole situation, 235 00:11:04,205 --> 00:11:05,582 or were y'all going under stall? 236 00:11:05,623 --> 00:11:07,083 - Funny. 237 00:11:07,125 --> 00:11:09,044 - I can't believe I didn't know you were gay. 238 00:11:09,085 --> 00:11:10,754 Why didn't you tell me? 239 00:11:10,795 --> 00:11:12,005 - I don't know why you're so surprised. 240 00:11:12,047 --> 00:11:14,424 We don't talk. - That is not true. 241 00:11:14,466 --> 00:11:15,759 I know for a fact 242 00:11:15,800 --> 00:11:17,844 I sent you that horny frog meme on your birthday. 243 00:11:17,886 --> 00:11:21,848 - You did, two years ago. - Wow. 244 00:11:21,890 --> 00:11:24,351 It's a pretty basic meme, too. 245 00:11:24,392 --> 00:11:27,145 - Yeah, I'd seen it, like, a thousand times. 246 00:11:29,230 --> 00:11:31,358 - Holy shit, Brenda and Winston 247 00:11:31,399 --> 00:11:33,068 are gonna fucking lose it when they find out. 248 00:11:33,109 --> 00:11:35,028 Look, I can be with you when you tell them if you want. 249 00:11:35,070 --> 00:11:36,404 - Oh, they already know. 250 00:11:36,446 --> 00:11:38,907 They've known for, like, two years. 251 00:11:39,866 --> 00:11:41,910 - And they didn't freak out? 252 00:11:45,830 --> 00:11:48,041 Sorry. 253 00:11:48,083 --> 00:11:51,002 I guess a lot has changed since I've left. 254 00:11:51,044 --> 00:11:53,296 - Yeah, that's kind of what happens. 255 00:11:57,342 --> 00:11:58,927 - Okay. 256 00:11:58,968 --> 00:12:02,055 Like, maybe we haven't talked before, 257 00:12:02,097 --> 00:12:05,850 but that doesn't mean we can't now, right? 258 00:12:05,892 --> 00:12:08,228 I wanna know everything. Are you going to bars? 259 00:12:08,269 --> 00:12:10,230 Who are your gays? Do I know them? 260 00:12:10,271 --> 00:12:12,357 - The whole gay scene really isn't my thing. 261 00:12:12,399 --> 00:12:13,775 - Isn't your thing? 262 00:12:13,817 --> 00:12:16,361 Fuck, look, let me make up for lost time. 263 00:12:16,403 --> 00:12:18,822 I'm going to be the Aladdin to your Jasmine 264 00:12:18,863 --> 00:12:20,740 and show you a whole new world of faggotry. 265 00:12:20,782 --> 00:12:22,992 - Brodie, I was arrested for sucking dick 266 00:12:23,034 --> 00:12:25,328 in a bathroom stall today. I think I'm good. 267 00:12:25,370 --> 00:12:29,207 - Julian, shut up and get on the magic carpet. 268 00:12:29,249 --> 00:12:32,377 There will be go-go boys and dick pics. 269 00:12:32,419 --> 00:12:34,546 - Have you even seen "Aladdin"? No, just take me home. 270 00:12:34,587 --> 00:12:36,214 - After. 271 00:12:36,256 --> 00:12:38,758 First we gotta stop at Ruthie and Shar's to see their babies. 272 00:12:38,800 --> 00:12:41,761 [upbeat music] 273 00:12:41,803 --> 00:12:43,221 * * 274 00:12:43,263 --> 00:12:46,099 - Oh, my God, they're so cute. 275 00:12:46,141 --> 00:12:48,059 - You told people this was a potluck, right? 276 00:12:48,101 --> 00:12:50,979 'Cause nobody brought food. They all just sipping. 277 00:12:51,021 --> 00:12:53,273 If one of these drunk bitches drops our kid, 278 00:12:53,314 --> 00:12:55,984 my friend count is gonna drop to zero. 279 00:12:57,652 --> 00:12:59,154 - [mouths words] 280 00:13:01,197 --> 00:13:04,034 - She is so brave. I mean, I couldn't handle it. 281 00:13:04,075 --> 00:13:06,578 - After what she just went through, oh, my God. 282 00:13:06,619 --> 00:13:07,787 - I don't know what to say. 283 00:13:07,829 --> 00:13:08,955 - And she's still here. - Okay, fuck this. 284 00:13:08,997 --> 00:13:09,998 [baby fussing] 285 00:13:10,040 --> 00:13:11,124 - Is she okay? 286 00:13:11,166 --> 00:13:14,753 [electronic music] 287 00:13:14,794 --> 00:13:16,629 - Hey. 288 00:13:16,671 --> 00:13:19,132 * * 289 00:13:19,174 --> 00:13:21,092 How you holding up since the shooting-- 290 00:13:21,134 --> 00:13:23,219 - Oh, Brodie. Sorry, just gotta-- 291 00:13:23,261 --> 00:13:27,390 - Oh-ho! And they call you mother. 292 00:13:27,432 --> 00:13:28,975 Ga, ga, ga, ga! 293 00:13:29,017 --> 00:13:32,228 - Hi. Hi, Julian. 294 00:13:32,270 --> 00:13:34,814 - Hi. - The fuck is this? 295 00:13:34,856 --> 00:13:36,358 - For the babies. 296 00:13:36,399 --> 00:13:38,443 - Great, just put it somewhere Shar can't see it. 297 00:13:38,485 --> 00:13:40,070 Oh, sorry so much. 298 00:13:42,322 --> 00:13:44,157 - So the party's going well. 299 00:13:44,199 --> 00:13:46,951 - On one hand, it's so nice to see so many friends. 300 00:13:46,993 --> 00:13:49,079 And on the other, I'd love if they all died. 301 00:13:49,120 --> 00:13:50,580 Is that weird? 302 00:13:50,622 --> 00:13:52,040 - It's only weird 303 00:13:52,082 --> 00:13:53,792 if you're pretending it's nice to see these people. 304 00:13:53,833 --> 00:14:00,632 * * 305 00:14:03,176 --> 00:14:06,137 - She won't go to therapy. She won't go to the vigil. 306 00:14:06,179 --> 00:14:08,139 You know what she will do? 307 00:14:08,181 --> 00:14:10,517 - Kill her liver? - Well, yeah. 308 00:14:10,558 --> 00:14:13,228 That and masturbating like she's 13 309 00:14:13,269 --> 00:14:15,980 and just discovered the hand shower. 310 00:14:16,022 --> 00:14:17,315 - Well, you gotta admire a sex drive 311 00:14:17,357 --> 00:14:19,234 that can survive a massive hate crime. 312 00:14:19,275 --> 00:14:22,362 - I do admire it, okay, but I just wish 313 00:14:22,404 --> 00:14:23,988 she'd acknowledge she going through it, 314 00:14:24,030 --> 00:14:26,324 instead of pretending like her biggest problem is getting off. 315 00:14:26,366 --> 00:14:27,826 - Honestly, it's my only problem. 316 00:14:27,867 --> 00:14:29,119 - I totally get it. 317 00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:30,286 When my dog died, I couldn't cum for a week. 318 00:14:30,328 --> 00:14:31,705 You just gotta get creative. 319 00:14:31,746 --> 00:14:33,123 Be a teenager about it. 320 00:14:33,164 --> 00:14:34,749 Like, jerk off wherever and whenever you can. 321 00:14:34,791 --> 00:14:36,376 Public bathrooms, cars, the bus. 322 00:14:36,418 --> 00:14:38,420 - Girl, how have you not been arrested? 323 00:14:38,461 --> 00:14:41,631 - Trust me, you have a block. You gotta clear it. 324 00:14:41,673 --> 00:14:43,675 - Hey, babe. 325 00:14:43,717 --> 00:14:45,593 Can you go get those blankets that kid from NOCCA made us? 326 00:14:45,635 --> 00:14:48,388 - On it. 327 00:14:48,430 --> 00:14:51,016 - Masturbating in your bedroom during a party? 328 00:14:51,057 --> 00:14:53,059 That's so wrong. 329 00:14:53,101 --> 00:14:55,061 - Get the fuck outta here. 330 00:14:55,103 --> 00:14:56,855 - What? I'm an ideas person. 331 00:14:56,896 --> 00:15:04,029 * * 332 00:15:05,822 --> 00:15:08,742 [percussion music] 333 00:15:08,783 --> 00:15:13,997 * * 334 00:15:19,210 --> 00:15:22,130 [percussion music] 335 00:15:22,172 --> 00:15:26,301 * * 336 00:15:26,343 --> 00:15:27,969 - [sighs] 337 00:15:32,724 --> 00:15:35,602 [impacts and crying] 338 00:15:40,607 --> 00:15:43,485 - You're just a filthy fucking whore. 339 00:15:43,526 --> 00:15:45,528 - Yes, Mistress. 340 00:15:45,570 --> 00:15:47,405 [whimpers] 341 00:15:50,158 --> 00:15:53,119 - Yes, Mommy, I'm a filthy whore. 342 00:15:57,290 --> 00:16:00,460 [indistinct chatter] 343 00:16:02,003 --> 00:16:03,755 - Shit. 344 00:16:03,797 --> 00:16:06,633 - [moaning and whimpering] 345 00:16:11,930 --> 00:16:14,933 [baby crying] 346 00:16:14,974 --> 00:16:17,560 - Damn it, she's awake. 347 00:16:18,728 --> 00:16:20,647 - I know, it's fine. I'll get her. 348 00:16:20,689 --> 00:16:22,607 - Are you sure? - No, babe, I got it. 349 00:16:22,649 --> 00:16:24,818 - You did it last time. It's my turn. 350 00:16:24,859 --> 00:16:26,778 - She gets the crying thing from you. 351 00:16:26,820 --> 00:16:29,280 - Yes, you do. [camera shutter clicks] 352 00:16:35,912 --> 00:16:38,832 - There she is. Any luck? 353 00:16:38,873 --> 00:16:41,001 - Unfortunately, no. 354 00:16:41,042 --> 00:16:44,379 - Oh, I'm sorry, baby. 355 00:16:45,797 --> 00:16:48,425 Maybe you just graduated from darker and darker porn 356 00:16:48,466 --> 00:16:50,135 and now nothing can get you there. 357 00:16:50,176 --> 00:16:51,803 Been there. 358 00:16:51,845 --> 00:16:53,972 - Oh, yeah? - Oh, absolutely. 359 00:16:54,014 --> 00:16:55,348 There was this two-month period 360 00:16:55,390 --> 00:16:57,267 when I discovered those weird Czech videos 361 00:16:57,308 --> 00:16:59,227 where the dudes' bodies would be half in a wall. 362 00:16:59,269 --> 00:17:01,479 People's faces were a total turnoff for months. 363 00:17:01,521 --> 00:17:05,567 - I've seen those videos. I'd work at a place like that. 364 00:17:05,608 --> 00:17:08,153 - You'd be terrible at a place like that. 365 00:17:08,194 --> 00:17:09,738 - Fuck you. I'd be a star. 366 00:17:09,779 --> 00:17:12,699 - No, that is a pillow princess job. 367 00:17:12,741 --> 00:17:14,534 You like doing the work. 368 00:17:14,576 --> 00:17:16,536 - Aw, I do like doing the work. 369 00:17:16,578 --> 00:17:19,539 [laughter] 370 00:17:20,707 --> 00:17:24,252 You're not going to the JCJ vigil thing, right? 371 00:17:24,294 --> 00:17:26,379 Right? Fucking thank you. 372 00:17:26,421 --> 00:17:28,506 Shar keeps pushing it, saying it'll be cathartic. 373 00:17:28,548 --> 00:17:31,217 I'm like, "Why would I want go be on display like that?" 374 00:17:31,259 --> 00:17:33,261 "Come on down. See the crying fag." 375 00:17:33,303 --> 00:17:35,388 - They wouldn't call you a fag. - I know. 376 00:17:35,430 --> 00:17:38,683 I miss being called a fag. I'm a woman of fag experience. 377 00:17:38,725 --> 00:17:42,520 - [laughs] Look, I get it though. 378 00:17:42,562 --> 00:17:45,398 If one more person calls me brave, 379 00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:47,108 I'm gonna kick them full-on in the dick. 380 00:17:47,150 --> 00:17:48,777 - Mm-hmm. 381 00:17:48,818 --> 00:17:50,862 - Although based on your choice of porn, 382 00:17:50,904 --> 00:17:52,113 I probably shouldn't tempt you. 383 00:17:52,155 --> 00:17:54,616 - Shut up. 384 00:17:54,657 --> 00:17:57,619 [soft music] 385 00:17:57,660 --> 00:17:59,329 * * 386 00:17:59,371 --> 00:18:02,582 - You know I'd do anything for you. 387 00:18:02,624 --> 00:18:04,292 - Faggot. 388 00:18:04,334 --> 00:18:06,961 * * 389 00:18:07,003 --> 00:18:08,963 - Oh, shit. 390 00:18:09,005 --> 00:18:10,507 I forgot why I was looking for you. 391 00:18:10,548 --> 00:18:13,677 I think Gen Z might have crashed sip and see. 392 00:18:13,718 --> 00:18:16,471 * * 393 00:18:16,513 --> 00:18:17,681 - Brodie. 394 00:18:19,265 --> 00:18:21,267 - Sorry so much. 395 00:18:25,939 --> 00:18:27,232 - Oh. 396 00:18:27,273 --> 00:18:29,609 - My gosh, so many options. 397 00:18:30,944 --> 00:18:35,407 Ruthie, hi, happy baby. - What are you doing here? 398 00:18:35,448 --> 00:18:37,200 - You're on leave, so you're not technically my teacher. 399 00:18:37,242 --> 00:18:39,244 Plus, we're like friends now. 400 00:18:39,285 --> 00:18:41,162 And friends show up to friends, 401 00:18:41,204 --> 00:18:44,416 like, whatever this baby potluck thing is. 402 00:18:44,457 --> 00:18:48,795 Also, this is for you and, like, maybe the babies. 403 00:18:48,837 --> 00:18:52,382 I got the vegan ones, which should be okay for them. 404 00:18:52,424 --> 00:18:54,175 - I'm guessing this wasn't your idea? 405 00:18:54,217 --> 00:18:55,719 - I'm sorry, Ms. O'Neill. I tried to tell him. 406 00:18:55,760 --> 00:18:57,762 - Oh, God, the betrayal and, like, immediately. 407 00:18:57,804 --> 00:18:59,556 - Yeah, sorry to interrupt, but you guys need to go home. 408 00:18:59,597 --> 00:19:02,517 Come on, come on. - [groans] 409 00:19:02,559 --> 00:19:05,061 Okay, fine, but I'm taking this. 410 00:19:05,103 --> 00:19:08,314 Excuse me, have fun. Bye, bye. 411 00:19:09,691 --> 00:19:12,444 Real quick though, is Brodie here? 412 00:19:12,485 --> 00:19:15,155 'Cause I think he wanted to hang out with me. 413 00:19:15,196 --> 00:19:17,574 - You know, you actually you just missed him. 414 00:19:17,615 --> 00:19:20,452 - Oh, do you know where he was going? 415 00:19:20,493 --> 00:19:21,953 - Maybe go to the vigil tonight. 416 00:19:21,995 --> 00:19:24,122 I think he might be there. 417 00:19:24,164 --> 00:19:27,000 - Really? Because earlier he said that-- 418 00:19:27,042 --> 00:19:29,794 - Must have changed his mind, said something about it 419 00:19:29,836 --> 00:19:32,839 maybe being good for him, cathartic. 420 00:19:34,174 --> 00:19:35,467 - Okay. - Okay, bye. 421 00:19:35,508 --> 00:19:37,302 Thanks for the quiche. 422 00:19:37,344 --> 00:19:39,554 - All right, fine. - See you. 423 00:19:39,596 --> 00:19:41,681 - Bye. 424 00:19:49,314 --> 00:19:50,565 Quiche. - Oh, thank God. 425 00:19:50,607 --> 00:19:52,400 I'm so fucking hungry. - Mm, thank you. 426 00:19:52,442 --> 00:19:55,653 [upbeat music] 427 00:19:55,695 --> 00:19:57,947 * * 428 00:19:57,989 --> 00:19:59,699 - Hey, how are you doing? 429 00:19:59,741 --> 00:20:01,951 You know, I was supposed to be at Babylon 430 00:20:01,993 --> 00:20:05,288 for a bachelorette that night, but I was too tired, 431 00:20:05,330 --> 00:20:07,290 but can you imagine 432 00:20:07,332 --> 00:20:10,293 if I had had one more cup of coffee that day? 433 00:20:10,335 --> 00:20:14,255 - No, I cannot imagine at all. 434 00:20:14,297 --> 00:20:20,845 * * 435 00:20:20,887 --> 00:20:22,639 I'd like to make a toast! 436 00:20:24,766 --> 00:20:28,520 First, I wanna thank Ruthie, my best friend, 437 00:20:28,561 --> 00:20:30,522 since--well, since we were young enough 438 00:20:30,563 --> 00:20:32,232 that calling someone your best friend 439 00:20:32,273 --> 00:20:34,025 was a very loaded set of words. 440 00:20:34,067 --> 00:20:36,653 You know, Ryan Andrews stopped being my friend all together 441 00:20:36,695 --> 00:20:38,321 when I gave the title to Ruthie, 442 00:20:38,363 --> 00:20:40,365 but that sacrifice was worth it. 443 00:20:40,407 --> 00:20:41,991 - He got kicked out of school 444 00:20:42,033 --> 00:20:44,619 because he wouldn't stop taking his dick out in class. 445 00:20:44,661 --> 00:20:48,748 - Regardless, I wanna wish you and Shar all the best 446 00:20:48,790 --> 00:20:51,042 in your new journey as parents. 447 00:20:51,084 --> 00:20:53,461 I especially wanna thank Shar 448 00:20:53,503 --> 00:20:54,963 because even though they don't like me-- 449 00:20:55,005 --> 00:20:56,423 - What kind of toast is this? 450 00:20:56,464 --> 00:20:58,883 - I want to thank you 451 00:20:58,925 --> 00:21:02,262 because you still let me be your donor. 452 00:21:02,303 --> 00:21:04,556 You let me play a little part 453 00:21:04,597 --> 00:21:07,017 in bringing these two beauties into the world. 454 00:21:08,643 --> 00:21:10,311 To Flotsam and Jetsam! 455 00:21:10,353 --> 00:21:12,522 - To Florence and Jett, but thank you. 456 00:21:12,564 --> 00:21:16,693 - But most importantly, I wanna raise a toast 457 00:21:16,735 --> 00:21:20,113 to all you wonderful people here today. 458 00:21:20,155 --> 00:21:22,032 All these great... 459 00:21:24,117 --> 00:21:26,077 Allies. 460 00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:29,414 I mean, if it weren't for you, 461 00:21:29,456 --> 00:21:32,167 who would ask us if we were okay? 462 00:21:32,208 --> 00:21:35,670 Who would tell us about all the ways 463 00:21:35,712 --> 00:21:38,882 that the most traumatic night of our lives 464 00:21:38,923 --> 00:21:40,592 was, kind of, sort of 465 00:21:40,633 --> 00:21:44,846 actually almost about them? 466 00:21:46,556 --> 00:21:49,059 I mean, 'cause that's the takeaway here. 467 00:21:49,100 --> 00:21:52,771 You know, this party, the vigil tonight, hell, 468 00:21:52,812 --> 00:21:56,733 the shooting itself, it's really all about you. 469 00:22:00,195 --> 00:22:01,863 To these heroes. 470 00:22:03,698 --> 00:22:05,325 - Wow. 471 00:22:05,367 --> 00:22:07,369 Someone making someone else's moment 472 00:22:07,410 --> 00:22:09,788 about them. Can you imagine? 473 00:22:09,829 --> 00:22:11,373 - Okay, Shar, let's give him a break. 474 00:22:11,414 --> 00:22:13,541 - What? Give him a break? 475 00:22:13,583 --> 00:22:15,543 The person in our home insulting the people 476 00:22:15,585 --> 00:22:17,462 we work with, he needs a break? 477 00:22:19,422 --> 00:22:21,174 You know what? 478 00:22:21,216 --> 00:22:24,636 I'm gonna go check on the babies for a minute. 479 00:22:26,638 --> 00:22:29,557 [upbeat pop music] 480 00:22:29,599 --> 00:22:31,059 * * 481 00:22:31,101 --> 00:22:32,394 - Guess I should go. 482 00:22:32,435 --> 00:22:37,941 * * 483 00:22:37,982 --> 00:22:39,943 - Well, this was lovely. 484 00:22:39,984 --> 00:22:42,987 Please have more kids, so we can do it again. 485 00:22:43,029 --> 00:22:48,618 * * 486 00:22:53,998 --> 00:22:56,960 [percussion music] 487 00:22:57,002 --> 00:23:01,464 * * 488 00:23:01,506 --> 00:23:03,466 - So your toast was interesting. 489 00:23:03,508 --> 00:23:05,760 - You don't think it went well? 490 00:23:05,802 --> 00:23:07,429 - I think it just kind of depends 491 00:23:07,470 --> 00:23:09,264 on what you were going for, you know? 492 00:23:09,305 --> 00:23:13,059 - What if I was going for not ruining a children's party? 493 00:23:13,101 --> 00:23:14,978 - Then I'd have some notes. 494 00:23:16,521 --> 00:23:19,816 So you have kids. 495 00:23:19,858 --> 00:23:22,986 It's actually crazy that you didn't tell me that, but okay. 496 00:23:26,823 --> 00:23:29,909 And now you're ignoring me. Really? 497 00:23:33,204 --> 00:23:35,165 Brodie, what is happening? 498 00:23:35,206 --> 00:23:36,916 - I'm sorry. 499 00:23:36,958 --> 00:23:40,170 Honestly, I'm just going through a lot, okay? 500 00:23:40,211 --> 00:23:42,672 And I feel really fucked up. 501 00:23:42,714 --> 00:23:44,841 Noah's been ignoring me, which I get. 502 00:23:44,883 --> 00:23:46,468 But I don't know. 503 00:23:46,509 --> 00:23:48,511 I just thought that after Babylon, you know, 504 00:23:48,553 --> 00:23:51,056 after Daddius that... 505 00:23:52,849 --> 00:23:54,434 Then he didn't wanna talk to me. 506 00:23:54,476 --> 00:23:57,604 So it was just really nice seeing him today. 507 00:23:57,645 --> 00:23:59,981 I just really wish he'd message me back. 508 00:24:02,567 --> 00:24:05,362 - You know what? I change my mind. 509 00:24:05,403 --> 00:24:09,908 I do need "Aladdin," yeah. - What? 510 00:24:09,949 --> 00:24:12,869 - Come on, show me the world. Give me the gay-BCs. 511 00:24:12,911 --> 00:24:14,162 - Oh, okay. 512 00:24:14,204 --> 00:24:16,539 Julian, you're right. You know how to be gay. 513 00:24:18,208 --> 00:24:21,002 - I have never done the apps. - Yes, you have. 514 00:24:21,044 --> 00:24:23,505 - No, no, CP just makes it too tricky, you know? 515 00:24:23,546 --> 00:24:24,881 It's like, do you mention it and get guys 516 00:24:24,923 --> 00:24:26,675 that are weirdly into it, or do you not mention it 517 00:24:26,716 --> 00:24:28,093 and risk someone getting mad at you? 518 00:24:28,134 --> 00:24:29,386 So, no. 519 00:24:29,427 --> 00:24:33,682 - Well, you know, I am pretty good at the apps. 520 00:24:33,723 --> 00:24:36,601 - I have no doubt about that. 521 00:24:36,643 --> 00:24:38,228 Okay, is this crazy? 522 00:24:38,269 --> 00:24:40,313 What if we trade phones? 523 00:24:40,355 --> 00:24:42,023 And you can build me a profile, 524 00:24:42,065 --> 00:24:44,109 and I can be Grindr Brodie for a little bit. 525 00:24:44,150 --> 00:24:46,111 Like training wheels. 526 00:24:46,152 --> 00:24:47,737 - Okay, I'm in. 527 00:24:47,779 --> 00:24:50,407 But be careful with Grindr Brodie. 528 00:24:50,448 --> 00:24:51,783 He's a lot. 529 00:24:51,825 --> 00:24:54,744 - Gross, but thank you. - You have no idea. 530 00:24:54,786 --> 00:24:57,080 Okay, so you're gonna get full pics. 531 00:24:57,122 --> 00:25:00,041 You're gonna get dick pics. You're gonna get armpit pics. 532 00:25:00,083 --> 00:25:03,128 [upbeat music] 533 00:25:03,169 --> 00:25:04,671 * * 534 00:25:07,382 --> 00:25:10,301 [soft dramatic music] 535 00:25:10,343 --> 00:25:17,475 * * 536 00:25:33,742 --> 00:25:36,619 [phone chirps] 537 00:25:36,661 --> 00:25:41,291 * * 538 00:25:41,332 --> 00:25:44,627 [phone ringing] 539 00:25:44,669 --> 00:25:47,547 - You know you miss me. 540 00:25:47,589 --> 00:25:50,467 * * 541 00:25:50,508 --> 00:25:52,385 - Why are you here? 542 00:25:52,427 --> 00:25:54,137 - I'm here to fill your paper tray. 543 00:25:54,179 --> 00:25:56,306 * * 544 00:25:56,348 --> 00:25:58,391 Come on. 545 00:25:58,433 --> 00:26:01,019 You didn't think I actually left you? 546 00:26:01,061 --> 00:26:04,022 [tense music] 547 00:26:04,064 --> 00:26:08,151 * * 548 00:26:08,193 --> 00:26:10,195 - Stop, stop! 549 00:26:10,236 --> 00:26:12,030 Stop! 550 00:26:12,072 --> 00:26:13,156 * * 551 00:26:13,198 --> 00:26:14,574 Stop! 552 00:26:14,616 --> 00:26:20,330 * * 553 00:26:20,372 --> 00:26:23,333 [sobbing] 554 00:26:23,375 --> 00:26:28,088 * * 555 00:26:38,973 --> 00:26:42,394 - Babe, can you take a break for a minute? 556 00:26:42,435 --> 00:26:43,895 - It's the least I can do. 557 00:26:43,937 --> 00:26:45,563 I don't know why I defended him in that moment. 558 00:26:45,605 --> 00:26:47,023 He was being an asshole. 559 00:26:47,065 --> 00:26:48,858 - I honestly don't even care about that right now. 560 00:26:48,900 --> 00:26:50,985 Just come sit down. 561 00:27:00,161 --> 00:27:01,955 I've been tiptoeing around this, 562 00:27:01,996 --> 00:27:04,207 but we gotta talk about it. 563 00:27:04,249 --> 00:27:05,709 I'm worried about you. 564 00:27:05,750 --> 00:27:08,795 - Shar. - Just let me finish. 565 00:27:08,837 --> 00:27:10,922 I'm worried about you. 566 00:27:10,964 --> 00:27:12,841 I'm mad at you for sneaking out that night, 567 00:27:12,882 --> 00:27:16,177 and I'm so sorry that something terrible happened. 568 00:27:16,219 --> 00:27:18,722 But I feel like I can't talk to you about that 569 00:27:18,763 --> 00:27:21,057 because you went through this awful thing, 570 00:27:21,099 --> 00:27:24,060 and that's gonna make me a bad guy every time, 571 00:27:24,102 --> 00:27:28,648 and not being able to talk to you scares me 572 00:27:28,690 --> 00:27:31,151 because you don't seem like Ruthie. 573 00:27:31,192 --> 00:27:33,903 And, look, you distant, and you hurting, 574 00:27:33,945 --> 00:27:36,865 and I get that, but you also not you. 575 00:27:36,906 --> 00:27:39,617 - That's not true. - When the last time you cried? 576 00:27:40,994 --> 00:27:42,078 - What? 577 00:27:42,120 --> 00:27:43,997 - Ruthie, since I've known you, 578 00:27:44,039 --> 00:27:46,249 you've been the kind of person that cries at everything, 579 00:27:46,291 --> 00:27:48,752 and I'm not just talking "Terms of Endearment." 580 00:27:48,793 --> 00:27:50,503 I'm talking gum commercials. 581 00:27:50,545 --> 00:27:51,796 - Okay, well, in my defense, 582 00:27:51,838 --> 00:27:53,214 that was a particularly sad gum commercial. 583 00:27:53,256 --> 00:27:55,675 - And I love that you cry at dumb stuff. 584 00:27:55,717 --> 00:28:00,555 I do, but you haven't since the babies were born, since-- 585 00:28:00,597 --> 00:28:02,766 - I know what it's since. 586 00:28:02,807 --> 00:28:04,976 And I don't think it's that. 587 00:28:05,769 --> 00:28:08,938 I've just been very sexually frustrated, 588 00:28:08,980 --> 00:28:10,440 and I haven't been able to cum. 589 00:28:10,482 --> 00:28:13,610 - Oh, my God, can we stop with the sex stuff? 590 00:28:13,651 --> 00:28:15,487 You need to talk to someone. 591 00:28:15,528 --> 00:28:18,114 And you need to go to these vigils and let yourself grieve. 592 00:28:18,156 --> 00:28:20,658 The sex stuff, not the problem. - Look, you're probably right. 593 00:28:20,700 --> 00:28:22,285 I probably should talk to somebody. 594 00:28:22,327 --> 00:28:25,080 Or fine, let's go to the vigils if that's what you wanna do. 595 00:28:25,121 --> 00:28:29,000 But the sex stuff isn't just sex stuff. 596 00:28:29,042 --> 00:28:32,128 Okay, well, when I transitioned, 597 00:28:32,170 --> 00:28:35,090 I didn't sleep with anybody for a long time, 598 00:28:35,131 --> 00:28:37,092 and not for a lack of trying. 599 00:28:37,133 --> 00:28:39,678 Clearly, your girl's a ho-bag. 600 00:28:39,719 --> 00:28:43,848 I went from being this super cute, gay boy 601 00:28:43,890 --> 00:28:46,309 who people very much wanted to fuck 602 00:28:46,351 --> 00:28:48,436 to a trans woman 603 00:28:48,478 --> 00:28:53,233 that--well, people just didn't see me that way anymore. 604 00:28:55,652 --> 00:28:57,028 So what do you do? 605 00:28:57,070 --> 00:29:00,907 Well, all you want is to feel something, 606 00:29:00,949 --> 00:29:03,576 so you jerk off, but in those early days, 607 00:29:03,618 --> 00:29:06,996 the hormones made cumming on my own feel impossible, 608 00:29:07,038 --> 00:29:12,002 and suddenly, I had lost this entire part of myself 609 00:29:12,043 --> 00:29:16,006 that made me feel okay, that made me feel alive 610 00:29:16,047 --> 00:29:18,842 even at times when I wasn't sure I wanted to be, 611 00:29:18,883 --> 00:29:24,097 and it was scary, and it was lonely, 612 00:29:24,139 --> 00:29:27,559 and then one day years later, somehow without realizing it, 613 00:29:27,600 --> 00:29:30,729 I had started looking more the way I wanted to, 614 00:29:30,770 --> 00:29:33,898 more like an after pic than a before. 615 00:29:35,442 --> 00:29:37,152 You know, the before's really not so bad. 616 00:29:37,193 --> 00:29:41,197 It's really that weird middle picture 617 00:29:41,239 --> 00:29:44,534 where you kind of, sort of look like two aliens 618 00:29:44,576 --> 00:29:46,995 that got fused together in this weird teleportation accident. 619 00:29:47,037 --> 00:29:48,747 - Babe, I love you, 620 00:29:48,788 --> 00:29:50,373 but I think you're losing the plot. 621 00:29:50,415 --> 00:29:52,542 - Right. 622 00:29:52,584 --> 00:29:54,377 So I figured out makeup. 623 00:29:54,419 --> 00:29:58,548 I lost my Adam's apple, and people wanted me again. 624 00:29:58,590 --> 00:30:01,551 And the hormones evened out, and I could cum again. 625 00:30:01,593 --> 00:30:04,804 I could feel alive again. 626 00:30:06,598 --> 00:30:09,100 But now since that night, 627 00:30:09,142 --> 00:30:12,187 that part of me is gone again. 628 00:30:16,399 --> 00:30:21,237 - I'm so sorry. 629 00:30:21,279 --> 00:30:23,156 I didn't know. 630 00:30:25,700 --> 00:30:28,244 But I know one thing. 631 00:30:30,580 --> 00:30:32,749 I'm gonna fuck the shit out of you tonight. 632 00:30:32,791 --> 00:30:35,126 - [chuckles] 633 00:30:35,168 --> 00:30:38,838 - We don't have to. - Oh, fuck you. 634 00:30:38,880 --> 00:30:40,882 You gonna give me this beautiful speech 635 00:30:40,924 --> 00:30:44,469 about transness, and sex, and self-worth? 636 00:30:46,721 --> 00:30:49,349 Nothing could turn me on more. 637 00:30:49,391 --> 00:30:56,314 * * 638 00:30:59,484 --> 00:31:02,987 But we are gonna go to this vigil first as a family. 639 00:31:03,029 --> 00:31:06,616 - Ugh, fine, zaddy. 640 00:31:06,658 --> 00:31:10,870 - Yeah, there's my moody teen. I missed her. 641 00:31:10,912 --> 00:31:13,873 [upbeat music] 642 00:31:13,915 --> 00:31:21,006 * * 643 00:31:25,176 --> 00:31:27,971 - Nope, not including that. - Everybody lies about it. 644 00:31:28,013 --> 00:31:29,639 Like, even if it's 8 inches, you say it's 12. 645 00:31:29,681 --> 00:31:31,433 - I've never measured my dick, and I'm not gonna start. 646 00:31:31,474 --> 00:31:32,976 - Oh, I can take your dick pics for you. 647 00:31:33,018 --> 00:31:34,144 - You do know that we're brothers, 648 00:31:34,185 --> 00:31:35,603 and that's weird, right? 649 00:31:35,645 --> 00:31:36,855 - You asked for "Aladdin." 650 00:31:36,896 --> 00:31:38,314 - "Aladdin" doesn't have incest. 651 00:31:38,356 --> 00:31:39,399 - It should. 652 00:31:39,441 --> 00:31:41,818 Might have been less problematic. 653 00:31:41,860 --> 00:31:44,154 - You came. 654 00:31:44,195 --> 00:31:47,198 Which one of my guilt-inducing text messages did it? 655 00:31:47,240 --> 00:31:49,409 - The one Julian sent. 656 00:31:54,831 --> 00:31:58,168 - You sneaky bitch. I love it. 657 00:31:58,209 --> 00:31:59,461 - Well, then you're gonna love 658 00:31:59,502 --> 00:32:01,379 that I've been on Grindr for years. 659 00:32:01,421 --> 00:32:03,173 - Then what have we been doing here? 660 00:32:03,214 --> 00:32:04,591 - You got to teach me something, 661 00:32:04,632 --> 00:32:06,634 which in your current, very obvious depression spiral 662 00:32:06,676 --> 00:32:09,012 meant something to you, and I got a profile written 663 00:32:09,054 --> 00:32:10,930 by a famed heartthrob. 664 00:32:10,972 --> 00:32:14,142 - Wow, so this how it feels to be used. 665 00:32:14,184 --> 00:32:15,435 Honestly, not terrible. 666 00:32:17,437 --> 00:32:21,024 So what are we gonna do tonight? 667 00:32:21,066 --> 00:32:23,193 - I was thinking you should 668 00:32:23,234 --> 00:32:25,070 probably come stay with me for a bit. 669 00:32:25,111 --> 00:32:28,490 - Wait, really? Move back into our old house? 670 00:32:28,531 --> 00:32:31,826 - My house, but yeah. 671 00:32:31,868 --> 00:32:36,539 I feel like living alone in a huge place all by myself 672 00:32:36,581 --> 00:32:39,042 is probably not great for me right now. 673 00:32:39,084 --> 00:32:41,294 - And do you miss me? 674 00:32:42,879 --> 00:32:45,340 - I said what I said. 675 00:32:49,427 --> 00:32:52,806 - You know I would, but I don't wanna bail on Julian. 676 00:32:52,847 --> 00:32:54,224 - Why not? 677 00:32:54,265 --> 00:32:55,892 You've basically been doing it my entire life. 678 00:32:55,934 --> 00:32:57,811 - [laughs] 679 00:32:57,852 --> 00:32:59,646 I like him. 680 00:32:59,688 --> 00:33:01,564 Honestly... 681 00:33:03,733 --> 00:33:05,235 Why don't you come too? 682 00:33:05,276 --> 00:33:08,530 It's a huge place. - Oh, I'm good. 683 00:33:08,571 --> 00:33:10,990 You guys got a lot of stuff going on. 684 00:33:11,032 --> 00:33:13,368 - All the more reason for you to come. 685 00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:17,080 - I'll think about it. 686 00:33:18,123 --> 00:33:21,084 I'm thinking about it. 687 00:33:21,126 --> 00:33:24,963 - He's in. - Fantastic. 688 00:33:25,005 --> 00:33:27,048 We'll head there right after the vigil. 689 00:33:27,090 --> 00:33:29,217 - Works for us. 690 00:33:31,761 --> 00:33:34,139 - I'll meet you there, okay? 691 00:33:34,180 --> 00:33:37,142 [tender music] 692 00:33:37,183 --> 00:33:44,315 * * 693 00:33:48,111 --> 00:33:51,614 - You okay? - Yeah. 694 00:34:14,763 --> 00:34:16,181 - I can't believe it. 695 00:34:16,222 --> 00:34:18,683 You're making me an empty nester. 696 00:34:18,725 --> 00:34:21,728 Now I'm gonna have to actually speak to your father. 697 00:34:21,770 --> 00:34:25,607 - Aww, what do you talk to a straight man over 60 about? 698 00:34:25,648 --> 00:34:28,610 - Food, golf, network TV. 699 00:34:28,651 --> 00:34:31,071 It's horrible. 700 00:34:31,112 --> 00:34:33,865 Are you sure you wanna do this? 701 00:34:33,907 --> 00:34:35,533 - Mom, do you think I can't, 702 00:34:35,575 --> 00:34:37,744 like, handle living away from you or something? 703 00:34:37,786 --> 00:34:40,163 - I know. 704 00:34:40,205 --> 00:34:44,084 I know, but you're my best friend. 705 00:34:44,125 --> 00:34:46,544 - You're my best friend too. - Mm-hmm. 706 00:34:46,586 --> 00:34:49,964 - Which is why I need to move away. 707 00:34:50,006 --> 00:34:52,300 - Look, I love Brodie, 708 00:34:52,342 --> 00:34:55,762 and I'm glad he's looking out for you, 709 00:34:55,804 --> 00:35:00,517 but when it comes down to it, Brodie puts Brodie first. 710 00:35:00,558 --> 00:35:02,185 Now, you can call me overbearing, 711 00:35:02,227 --> 00:35:03,561 but I'm just worried 712 00:35:03,603 --> 00:35:07,982 that when the time comes, he might not protect you. 713 00:35:08,024 --> 00:35:10,443 - Well, maybe I don't need protecting. 714 00:35:10,485 --> 00:35:14,072 - I know you're right. I just know Brodie. 715 00:35:14,114 --> 00:35:16,324 - You know, I don't think you know him 716 00:35:16,366 --> 00:35:17,826 as well as you think you do. 717 00:35:17,867 --> 00:35:19,035 - A mother knows her children 718 00:35:19,077 --> 00:35:20,412 better than they know themselves. 719 00:35:20,453 --> 00:35:22,831 - Oh, so I guess you know that Brodie's the donor 720 00:35:22,872 --> 00:35:25,166 to Ruthie and Shar's babies. 721 00:35:25,208 --> 00:35:28,128 [soft dramatic music] 722 00:35:28,169 --> 00:35:29,671 * * 723 00:35:29,713 --> 00:35:31,631 Bye, Mom. 724 00:35:31,673 --> 00:35:38,596 * * 725 00:36:05,790 --> 00:36:08,168 - I know I've been gone for a while, 726 00:36:08,209 --> 00:36:10,045 but does anybody else get Mayor Pete fake gay vibes 727 00:36:10,086 --> 00:36:11,921 from him, but like evil? 728 00:36:11,963 --> 00:36:13,548 - I thought y'all liked Mayor Pete ever since 729 00:36:13,590 --> 00:36:16,718 he looked hot with a beard. - [chuckles] 730 00:36:16,760 --> 00:36:18,178 - You know what's weird? 731 00:36:18,219 --> 00:36:19,846 I don't know anybody that's fucked him. 732 00:36:19,888 --> 00:36:21,389 I know a lot of fags, 733 00:36:21,431 --> 00:36:23,350 and it feels like I should know someone that's fucked him. 734 00:36:23,391 --> 00:36:25,268 - Excuse me. - Hi, hi. 735 00:36:25,310 --> 00:36:27,520 - Julian, thank God you're here. 736 00:36:27,562 --> 00:36:29,647 Now we can stop listening to Brodie. 737 00:36:29,689 --> 00:36:31,566 - Yeah, he's always been the B-list Beaumont. 738 00:36:31,608 --> 00:36:33,651 - Would we even go that high? 739 00:36:33,693 --> 00:36:36,905 - Hello, my beautiful trauma queens. 740 00:36:36,946 --> 00:36:38,740 [scattered applause] 741 00:36:38,782 --> 00:36:41,993 I'm so glad y'all could make it out tonight. 742 00:36:42,035 --> 00:36:46,581 Within hours of the shooting, I posted a GoFundMe 743 00:36:46,623 --> 00:36:50,168 that went viral when none other 744 00:36:50,210 --> 00:36:54,756 than Lil Nas X's number one stan account 745 00:36:54,798 --> 00:36:56,716 on Twitter shared it. 746 00:36:56,758 --> 00:36:58,718 - Is stan account endorsement impressive? 747 00:36:58,760 --> 00:37:01,513 - Unfortunately, yes. Ugh, I hate that I know that. 748 00:37:01,554 --> 00:37:03,264 I don't miss teaching high schoolers. 749 00:37:03,306 --> 00:37:08,812 - I took that fundraiser and made something bigger. 750 00:37:08,853 --> 00:37:13,483 My charity, Babyl-On, Babyl-Strong 751 00:37:13,525 --> 00:37:18,113 will raise money for victims' families as well as survivors. 752 00:37:18,154 --> 00:37:22,784 Actually not survivors, 753 00:37:22,826 --> 00:37:24,202 thrivers. 754 00:37:24,244 --> 00:37:26,579 Because we will thrive. [both gagging] 755 00:37:26,621 --> 00:37:28,164 - Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, stop. 756 00:37:28,206 --> 00:37:30,750 He's raising money for us. We shouldn't make fun of him. 757 00:37:30,792 --> 00:37:32,961 - And while I'm up here, 758 00:37:33,003 --> 00:37:36,214 I should probably address some of the rumors. 759 00:37:36,256 --> 00:37:39,968 Yes, I will be appearing in the upcoming season 760 00:37:40,010 --> 00:37:42,095 of "American Horror Story." 761 00:37:42,137 --> 00:37:44,222 - Okay, never mind, he's trash. 762 00:37:44,264 --> 00:37:45,557 [laughter] 763 00:37:45,598 --> 00:37:47,809 - I'm really glad we came to this. 764 00:37:47,851 --> 00:37:49,602 - Okay, Mom. 765 00:37:49,644 --> 00:37:51,980 - Oh, don't be a dick. I care about you. 766 00:37:52,022 --> 00:37:54,024 And it seems like a lot of other people do, too. 767 00:37:54,065 --> 00:37:55,483 So is that so bad? 768 00:37:55,525 --> 00:37:57,694 - Yeah, okay, fine. You're right. 769 00:38:02,240 --> 00:38:03,783 [laughter] 770 00:38:03,825 --> 00:38:06,077 Hey, Brodie! 771 00:38:06,119 --> 00:38:08,997 - Oh, shit. - What? 772 00:38:09,039 --> 00:38:11,207 - I told him to come tonight. I said you'd be here. 773 00:38:11,249 --> 00:38:12,500 - Why? 774 00:38:12,542 --> 00:38:13,877 - Because I knew you weren't coming, 775 00:38:13,918 --> 00:38:15,295 but he seemed like he was struggling, 776 00:38:15,337 --> 00:38:17,005 so I thought if he came, maybe it would help him. 777 00:38:17,047 --> 00:38:19,341 - You bitch, all while I'm trying to get you to go, 778 00:38:19,382 --> 00:38:21,301 and you're blowing me off. 779 00:38:21,343 --> 00:38:23,887 - Hey, those who can't do, teach. 780 00:38:23,928 --> 00:38:24,929 [laughter] 781 00:38:28,058 --> 00:38:31,019 - Nine souls lost 782 00:38:31,061 --> 00:38:33,646 while celebrating life. 783 00:38:34,814 --> 00:38:38,026 Sheridan Segal, 784 00:38:38,068 --> 00:38:40,945 Andy Jayne, 785 00:38:40,987 --> 00:38:44,282 Max Walker, 786 00:38:44,324 --> 00:38:47,869 Johnny Romano, 787 00:38:47,911 --> 00:38:50,872 Lonnie Simpson, 788 00:38:50,914 --> 00:38:54,209 Michael Ryan, 789 00:38:54,250 --> 00:38:57,212 Kevin Fradmir, 790 00:38:57,253 --> 00:39:00,548 Kennedy Mondelot, 791 00:39:00,590 --> 00:39:03,760 and Daddius Miller. 792 00:39:03,802 --> 00:39:05,220 * * 793 00:39:05,261 --> 00:39:08,890 A moment for those we lost. 794 00:39:08,932 --> 00:39:15,897 * * 795 00:39:29,828 --> 00:39:36,793 * * 796 00:39:43,299 --> 00:39:46,344 [relaxed pop music] 797 00:39:46,386 --> 00:39:48,555 * * 798 00:39:48,596 --> 00:39:53,268 - * Do we matter in the ring? * 799 00:39:53,309 --> 00:39:56,604 * We want power * 800 00:39:56,646 --> 00:39:58,606 * Next big thing * 801 00:39:58,648 --> 00:40:02,944 * Validation from the rest * 802 00:40:02,986 --> 00:40:06,740 - Do you wanna talk about the vigil? 803 00:40:06,781 --> 00:40:09,117 - * We're obsessed * 804 00:40:09,159 --> 00:40:11,036 - Please. 805 00:40:11,077 --> 00:40:12,495 * * 806 00:40:12,537 --> 00:40:14,581 - * To survive * 807 00:40:14,622 --> 00:40:17,500 * Whether we go * 808 00:40:17,542 --> 00:40:19,794 * With alibis * 809 00:40:19,836 --> 00:40:24,632 * Can't you see it, broke and bleeding? * 810 00:40:24,674 --> 00:40:29,429 * We are slaves to our senses * 811 00:40:29,471 --> 00:40:32,557 * We are gorgeous * 812 00:40:32,599 --> 00:40:34,726 * Please approve * 813 00:40:34,768 --> 00:40:37,645 - [muffled moaning] 814 00:40:37,687 --> 00:40:39,773 - * To make a move * 815 00:40:39,814 --> 00:40:43,777 * Do you see it, the regime? * 816 00:40:43,818 --> 00:40:45,737 - Are you sure? We don't have to. 817 00:40:45,779 --> 00:40:48,156 You can top if you want, I just-- 818 00:40:48,198 --> 00:40:49,866 - Shut up. 819 00:40:49,908 --> 00:40:56,831 * * 820 00:41:08,051 --> 00:41:15,016 * * 821 00:41:20,980 --> 00:41:22,440 - Fuck. 822 00:41:22,482 --> 00:41:25,527 * * 823 00:41:25,568 --> 00:41:29,531 - * Do we matter in the ring? * 824 00:41:29,572 --> 00:41:33,159 * We want power * 825 00:41:33,201 --> 00:41:35,203 * Next big thing * 826 00:41:35,245 --> 00:41:36,996 * Validation * 827 00:41:37,038 --> 00:41:39,541 - Good boy. 828 00:41:39,582 --> 00:41:41,292 * * 829 00:41:41,334 --> 00:41:44,004 - * As a nation * 830 00:41:44,045 --> 00:41:48,925 * We're obsessed, feed the ego * 831 00:41:48,967 --> 00:41:53,930 * To survive whether we go * 832 00:41:53,972 --> 00:41:58,727 * With alibis, can't you see it? * 833 00:41:58,768 --> 00:42:00,645 - I missed you so much. 834 00:42:00,687 --> 00:42:03,565 I'm so glad we're getting a second chance. 835 00:42:03,606 --> 00:42:06,651 - [sighs] You feel better? 836 00:42:08,194 --> 00:42:15,118 * * 837 00:42:16,327 --> 00:42:18,079 - [sobs softly] 838 00:42:18,121 --> 00:42:19,748 [sighs]