1 00:00:01,262 --> 00:00:06,919 ♪♪ 2 00:00:06,919 --> 00:00:12,882 ♪♪ 3 00:00:22,935 --> 00:00:25,764 [ Indistinct conversations ] 4 00:00:36,297 --> 00:00:38,995 -Where's my phone? Where do I go? 5 00:00:38,995 --> 00:00:41,389 [ Indistinct conversations ] 6 00:00:46,959 --> 00:00:48,352 [ Cheers and applause ] 7 00:00:48,352 --> 00:00:50,963 -Follow me. Follow me. 8 00:00:50,963 --> 00:00:53,140 [ Indistinct conversations ] 9 00:01:01,061 --> 00:01:02,410 -Love you, dawg. -Love you. 10 00:01:02,410 --> 00:01:04,412 -We love you! 11 00:01:04,412 --> 00:01:06,675 [ Indistinct conversations ] 12 00:01:06,675 --> 00:01:10,766 [ Audience chanting indistinctly ] 13 00:01:20,645 --> 00:01:22,386 -Whoo! -Yeah! 14 00:01:22,386 --> 00:01:24,475 [ Indistinct conversations ] 15 00:01:36,531 --> 00:01:39,273 -Can this be him? 16 00:01:39,273 --> 00:01:42,363 The one I have waited centuries to see? 17 00:01:42,363 --> 00:01:44,756 How strange. 18 00:01:44,756 --> 00:01:46,410 So far from his path 19 00:01:46,410 --> 00:01:49,500 that I barely see the promise of glory. 20 00:01:49,500 --> 00:01:54,026 Can this be him, this hellboy? 21 00:01:54,026 --> 00:01:57,204 [ Cheers and applause ] 22 00:01:57,204 --> 00:02:07,214 ♪♪ 23 00:02:07,214 --> 00:02:10,565 ♪♪ 24 00:02:10,565 --> 00:02:12,044 -Yo! 25 00:02:14,395 --> 00:02:16,005 So you know I got to run, baby. 26 00:02:16,005 --> 00:02:17,789 [ Cheers and applause continue ] 27 00:02:17,789 --> 00:02:19,095 [ "Hellboy" playing ] 28 00:02:19,095 --> 00:02:23,404 ♪♪ 29 00:02:23,404 --> 00:02:26,885 ♪ You don't even know what I been through ♪ 30 00:02:26,885 --> 00:02:30,541 ♪ You don't gotta like me, ya bitch do ♪ 31 00:02:30,541 --> 00:02:34,110 ♪ Blowing up my phone like, "I miss you" ♪ 32 00:02:34,110 --> 00:02:37,505 ♪ You know I love you by the way that I kiss you ♪ 33 00:02:37,505 --> 00:02:39,202 ♪ You don't even know... ♪ 34 00:02:39,202 --> 00:02:42,379 [ Cheers and applause fading ] 35 00:02:42,379 --> 00:02:52,084 ♪♪ 36 00:02:52,084 --> 00:03:01,790 ♪♪ 37 00:03:01,790 --> 00:03:05,010 -Dear grandson, my prophet... 38 00:03:06,708 --> 00:03:08,884 ...my tattooed poet, 39 00:03:08,884 --> 00:03:10,320 the sweetheart... 40 00:03:13,323 --> 00:03:17,284 ...the wounds your father gave you, 41 00:03:17,284 --> 00:03:21,375 God did not heal but did close 42 00:03:21,375 --> 00:03:24,421 even if in scars 43 00:03:24,421 --> 00:03:26,641 so that you receive this strength 44 00:03:26,641 --> 00:03:30,688 to stand up against him for yourself, 45 00:03:30,688 --> 00:03:34,388 to declare just as a boy your independence... 46 00:03:34,388 --> 00:03:38,305 [ Audience singing indistinctly ] 47 00:03:38,305 --> 00:03:42,047 ...and determined to grow into your own man. 48 00:03:44,049 --> 00:03:45,877 This is one of your gifts 49 00:03:45,877 --> 00:03:48,358 and wonders that makes me admire you, 50 00:03:48,358 --> 00:03:51,970 makes me happiest about you, for you. 51 00:03:51,970 --> 00:03:58,107 ♪♪ 52 00:03:58,107 --> 00:04:04,331 ♪♪ 53 00:04:04,331 --> 00:04:07,725 Only I ask you in dead seriousness, 54 00:04:07,725 --> 00:04:12,295 think about what being a man is, 55 00:04:12,295 --> 00:04:15,733 the strength of heart to fight for love, 56 00:04:15,733 --> 00:04:22,784 to defend it over and over and over again. 57 00:04:22,784 --> 00:04:24,220 That's manly. 58 00:04:24,220 --> 00:04:26,614 [ Indistinct conversations ] 59 00:04:26,614 --> 00:04:27,745 -I love you, too. 60 00:04:27,745 --> 00:04:32,272 [ Cheers and applause ] 61 00:04:32,272 --> 00:04:34,361 -Anyway, it'll be wonderful to see you. 62 00:04:34,361 --> 00:04:37,973 I must look forward to it. 63 00:04:37,973 --> 00:04:40,105 Love, your grandpa, Pack Ack. 64 00:04:42,107 --> 00:04:44,936 -And just straight on through, clip it right there? 65 00:04:44,936 --> 00:04:47,199 -Yeah. -Bada bing, bada boom. 66 00:04:47,199 --> 00:04:49,114 I'll just do it through my jacket. 67 00:04:52,944 --> 00:04:54,555 -Fuck yeah. 68 00:04:54,555 --> 00:04:55,904 -Look. What I could do maybe... 69 00:04:55,904 --> 00:04:57,297 Nah, I'll do it on the jacket. Yeah. 70 00:05:00,691 --> 00:05:03,564 -You want me to clip that? -Oh, yeah. 71 00:05:07,698 --> 00:05:09,134 -Bro, you're so professional, bro. 72 00:05:09,134 --> 00:05:10,440 -Yeah, I know. This shit is crazy. 73 00:05:10,440 --> 00:05:11,441 -Have all the gear and everything, 74 00:05:11,441 --> 00:05:13,095 and, like, it's nice. 75 00:05:18,492 --> 00:05:20,798 -Hey, can I get you to say something quick? 76 00:05:20,798 --> 00:05:23,584 -Yeah, I just... I was just picking my nose. 77 00:05:23,584 --> 00:05:25,281 I hope you weren't recording. 78 00:05:25,281 --> 00:05:27,283 -How long you guys been working on music? 79 00:05:27,283 --> 00:05:29,241 -Shit. I been working on music, 80 00:05:29,241 --> 00:05:32,984 like, 6, 7, nah, 7 months, 7, 8 months now, bro. 81 00:05:32,984 --> 00:05:34,464 I'm all over the place right now. 82 00:05:34,464 --> 00:05:36,118 Like, I'm gonna be staying here. 83 00:05:36,118 --> 00:05:37,467 I'm gonna be staying in L.A., you know what I'm saying? 84 00:05:37,467 --> 00:05:39,164 I just fuck with my friends, yo. 85 00:05:39,164 --> 00:05:40,601 -This is just some family shit, bro. 86 00:05:40,601 --> 00:05:42,298 -Yeah, it's just some family shit. 87 00:05:42,298 --> 00:05:46,302 [ Indistinct conversations ] 88 00:05:46,302 --> 00:05:50,567 -♪ You know I don't want to do you like that ♪ 89 00:05:50,567 --> 00:05:53,744 ♪ Why you got to do me like that? ♪ 90 00:05:53,744 --> 00:05:57,618 ♪ Because I got face tats and my boots black ♪ 91 00:05:57,618 --> 00:06:00,969 ♪ I don't want to go to school, I don't like that ♪ 92 00:06:00,969 --> 00:06:04,842 ♪ Everybody think I'm cool, I don't like that ♪ 93 00:06:04,842 --> 00:06:07,976 ♪ Codeine by the pool while I write raps ♪ 94 00:06:07,976 --> 00:06:12,415 ♪ Spend money like a fool, I'm gonna make it back ♪ 95 00:06:12,415 --> 00:06:14,199 ♪ I don't want to lose you ♪ 96 00:06:14,199 --> 00:06:16,071 ♪ I don't want to hate you ♪ 97 00:06:16,071 --> 00:06:19,683 ♪ I don't want to do you like that ♪ 98 00:06:19,683 --> 00:06:22,904 ♪ Why you got to do me like that? ♪ 99 00:06:22,904 --> 00:06:26,473 ♪ Because I got face tats and my clothes black ♪ 100 00:06:26,473 --> 00:06:30,215 ♪ I don't want to go to school, I don't like that ♪ 101 00:06:30,215 --> 00:06:33,741 ♪ Everybody think I'm cool, I don't like that ♪ 102 00:06:33,741 --> 00:06:37,309 ♪ Codeine by the pool while I write raps ♪ 103 00:06:37,309 --> 00:06:40,400 ♪ Spend money like a fool, I'm gonna make it back ♪ 104 00:06:40,400 --> 00:06:44,316 ♪ I'm gonna have a couple million when I'm 21 ♪ 105 00:06:44,316 --> 00:06:47,537 ♪ Shorty told me that she thought that I was 21 ♪ 106 00:06:47,537 --> 00:06:49,278 -I don't think I have it all in red. 107 00:06:51,149 --> 00:06:53,674 Don't touch because they're very new. 108 00:06:56,328 --> 00:06:58,026 -I touched! -Okay. 109 00:06:58,026 --> 00:06:59,767 Well, you know how to touch gently. 110 00:06:59,767 --> 00:07:02,509 I've seen you do it. -I touched gently. 111 00:07:02,509 --> 00:07:04,380 -A very good, gentle touch. 112 00:07:04,380 --> 00:07:05,903 All done eating? 113 00:07:05,903 --> 00:07:08,732 [ Speaks indistinctly ] I bet that would... 114 00:07:08,732 --> 00:07:10,430 Let's take a little spongie. 115 00:07:17,915 --> 00:07:21,441 -Like that. -Yeah. 116 00:07:21,441 --> 00:07:24,226 The night that he was born, he opened his eyes 117 00:07:24,226 --> 00:07:28,796 and looked me right in the eye in a way that I hadn't... 118 00:07:28,796 --> 00:07:32,887 was completed surprised by, great big, brown eyes, 119 00:07:32,887 --> 00:07:37,021 and he looked at me like, "Okay, so introductions. 120 00:07:37,021 --> 00:07:42,462 Let's go," and I said, "Hi. I'm your mama, and I love you." 121 00:07:42,462 --> 00:07:45,247 I was like...I'll never forget that moment, 122 00:07:45,247 --> 00:07:48,946 and he was like a little, tiny... 123 00:07:48,946 --> 00:07:53,211 Like the little characters in "Snow White" 124 00:07:53,211 --> 00:07:56,606 or like little Walt Disney characters with these big eyes, 125 00:07:56,606 --> 00:07:59,566 and so he was just like a little peep. 126 00:07:59,566 --> 00:08:01,829 -I'm gonna do this. 127 00:08:01,829 --> 00:08:03,744 I'm doing that to talk in. 128 00:08:03,744 --> 00:08:07,922 -You're talking now. I can hear you. 129 00:08:07,922 --> 00:08:09,053 -Uh-huh. -Uh-huh. 130 00:08:09,053 --> 00:08:12,317 I can hear you in the camera. 131 00:08:12,317 --> 00:08:14,363 That's called a microphone. 132 00:08:14,363 --> 00:08:16,887 Go on and grab it. 133 00:08:16,887 --> 00:08:18,367 -I want to do the microphone. 134 00:08:18,367 --> 00:08:21,152 -Gus had a way about him. 135 00:08:21,152 --> 00:08:23,503 When he would walk into the class, 136 00:08:23,503 --> 00:08:25,940 he was... He always had a smile, 137 00:08:25,940 --> 00:08:27,507 always had a smile, 138 00:08:27,507 --> 00:08:29,596 and the first thing he would say is, 139 00:08:29,596 --> 00:08:32,424 "Good morning, Mrs. Camacho." 140 00:08:32,424 --> 00:08:37,081 You know, one thing that got me was his creativity. 141 00:08:37,081 --> 00:08:41,564 He was a very creative artist and writer, 142 00:08:41,564 --> 00:08:43,653 and I picked up on that very quickly. 143 00:08:43,653 --> 00:08:50,355 ♪♪ 144 00:08:50,355 --> 00:08:52,836 -I can't do it. I can't do it. 145 00:08:52,836 --> 00:08:54,621 -Yeah, you can do it. 146 00:08:54,621 --> 00:08:56,361 -No, I can't do it. -Yeah, you can do it. 147 00:08:56,361 --> 00:08:57,493 -I can't do it. -Aw, come on. 148 00:08:57,493 --> 00:08:58,668 You can do it. -Nah. 149 00:08:58,668 --> 00:09:00,583 -Yeah, come on. You can do it. 150 00:09:00,583 --> 00:09:03,020 -There we go. I'm...There. I'm done. 151 00:09:03,020 --> 00:09:04,587 I'm done. -Okay. 152 00:09:04,587 --> 00:09:06,154 You're feeling a little more shy, aren't you? 153 00:09:06,154 --> 00:09:08,199 I can tell there's mischief in your eyes, and yet... 154 00:09:08,199 --> 00:09:09,897 -But if you meet me in real life, 155 00:09:09,897 --> 00:09:12,552 you'll find out that I'm not very confident, 156 00:09:12,552 --> 00:09:15,642 and I'm a very sensitive person, 157 00:09:15,642 --> 00:09:18,122 and I have a lot of insecurities. 158 00:09:28,176 --> 00:09:30,831 -It wasn't just like, "I'm writing catchy songs." 159 00:09:30,831 --> 00:09:33,050 I feel like Gus talked about the pain, too, 160 00:09:33,050 --> 00:09:34,399 and a lot of people were drawn to it 161 00:09:34,399 --> 00:09:36,401 because he's brutally honest about it. 162 00:09:41,537 --> 00:09:47,108 -I remember we'd, like, go out, and he had all these tattoos, 163 00:09:47,108 --> 00:09:49,327 and he's always like, "Don't you feel weird, like, 164 00:09:49,327 --> 00:09:51,112 walking into a restaurant with me?" 165 00:09:51,112 --> 00:09:54,419 And I'd be like, "Why do you get all these tattoos 166 00:09:54,419 --> 00:09:56,639 if you care so much about it? 167 00:09:56,639 --> 00:09:58,946 Like, if you're going to be so insecure about it, 168 00:09:58,946 --> 00:10:00,948 why did you do that?" because he was. 169 00:10:00,948 --> 00:10:03,211 He was, like... He knew people were judging him, 170 00:10:03,211 --> 00:10:05,430 and it did upset him. 171 00:10:05,430 --> 00:10:07,128 -I used to bike everywhere. 172 00:10:07,128 --> 00:10:09,043 Like, where I grew up in New York was a really small 173 00:10:09,043 --> 00:10:11,828 surfing city, surfing community, so we just biked. 174 00:10:11,828 --> 00:10:14,265 Everyone just biked everywhere. 175 00:10:14,265 --> 00:10:15,745 Like, they actually made it, like... 176 00:10:15,745 --> 00:10:17,225 I remember the year I moved, 177 00:10:17,225 --> 00:10:18,618 they made it illegal to be drunk on a bike. 178 00:10:18,618 --> 00:10:19,836 You can get pulled over on your bike. 179 00:10:19,836 --> 00:10:22,926 -A DUI, yeah. -Yeah, yeah, yeah. 180 00:10:22,926 --> 00:10:24,841 I'm also a professional handlebar rider. 181 00:10:24,841 --> 00:10:26,495 I can hop on someone's handlebars if they're going, 182 00:10:26,495 --> 00:10:29,280 like, 30 miles an hour. I'd be like, "Whoo." 183 00:10:29,280 --> 00:10:32,109 -Honestly, a huge reason he did it was, he was like, 184 00:10:32,109 --> 00:10:33,981 "I'm not gonna have, like, a normal job. 185 00:10:33,981 --> 00:10:37,375 I don't ever want a normal job, and I'm going to make myself 186 00:10:37,375 --> 00:10:40,378 not be this, like, normal person." 187 00:10:40,378 --> 00:10:49,474 ♪♪ 188 00:10:49,474 --> 00:10:59,310 ♪♪ 189 00:10:59,310 --> 00:11:01,486 -Being a normal kid in Long Beach is, 190 00:11:01,486 --> 00:11:03,619 you're going to the beach all the time. 191 00:11:03,619 --> 00:11:06,274 You want to be a lifeguard because that's the coolest thing 192 00:11:06,274 --> 00:11:08,711 you can be in middle school or high school 193 00:11:08,711 --> 00:11:11,714 is that you're a lifeguard, and you're playing lacrosse, 194 00:11:11,714 --> 00:11:13,803 and you're playing beach volleyball, 195 00:11:13,803 --> 00:11:16,240 and it's very much a small beach town. 196 00:11:16,240 --> 00:11:23,291 ♪♪ 197 00:11:23,291 --> 00:11:27,295 And Long Beach is almost like a tribalism of, 198 00:11:27,295 --> 00:11:29,079 "We're from Long Beach, 199 00:11:29,079 --> 00:11:34,215 and, like, we do things our way, and everyone else is trash." 200 00:11:34,215 --> 00:11:38,523 -Gus, from the beginning, is a creative and different kid. 201 00:11:38,523 --> 00:11:41,657 Big, like, pink and green Osirises on 202 00:11:41,657 --> 00:11:43,703 that, like, went up to his knees. 203 00:11:43,703 --> 00:11:45,487 So he stood out just from the start, 204 00:11:45,487 --> 00:11:48,098 probably had a Mohawk at the time, too. 205 00:11:48,098 --> 00:11:49,360 He communicated through his image, 206 00:11:49,360 --> 00:11:50,840 and, like, you could tell 207 00:11:50,840 --> 00:11:53,800 that he was different from the rest of us. 208 00:11:53,800 --> 00:11:55,976 -Smells good. 209 00:11:55,976 --> 00:11:58,543 -Stop. Stop! Okay, stop. 210 00:11:58,543 --> 00:12:01,024 Aah! -Aah! 211 00:12:01,024 --> 00:12:03,592 -Evan, get off. You're crushing my soul. 212 00:12:03,592 --> 00:12:06,377 -Ah, tickles my lips. 213 00:12:06,377 --> 00:12:09,729 -It tickles...my lips. 214 00:12:11,121 --> 00:12:13,907 -[ Speaking indistinctly ] 215 00:12:16,605 --> 00:12:19,782 -I remember in 10th grade when we were dating, 216 00:12:19,782 --> 00:12:21,915 and he didn't answer me for two hours, 217 00:12:21,915 --> 00:12:23,525 and I was like, "What the hell are you doing?" 218 00:12:23,525 --> 00:12:26,397 And he was like, "My parents are getting divorced," 219 00:12:26,397 --> 00:12:28,878 and the day after, he, like, broke up with me, 220 00:12:28,878 --> 00:12:32,229 and we didn't speak for a really long time. 221 00:12:32,229 --> 00:12:33,753 And after that, like, 222 00:12:33,753 --> 00:12:37,060 he was, like, completely a different person. 223 00:12:37,060 --> 00:12:38,975 Like, he started hanging out with different people. 224 00:12:38,975 --> 00:12:42,849 He came to school less, stopped going to his classes. 225 00:12:45,112 --> 00:12:48,550 -He used to talk to me about how much he hated high school, 226 00:12:48,550 --> 00:12:50,552 and he'd throw up 227 00:12:50,552 --> 00:12:54,164 in the mornings sometimes before he had to go. 228 00:12:54,164 --> 00:12:57,167 They were all judging him. 229 00:12:57,167 --> 00:12:59,126 You know, well, "You're not an athlete, 230 00:12:59,126 --> 00:13:02,782 and you're smoking pot, and you're getting tattoos, 231 00:13:02,782 --> 00:13:04,827 and you're not applying to college, 232 00:13:04,827 --> 00:13:09,136 and I don't want you going over to Gus' house anymore." 233 00:13:09,136 --> 00:13:11,791 You know, there were several parents who... 234 00:13:11,791 --> 00:13:15,620 He told me that, and he told that to me, and he cried. 235 00:13:15,620 --> 00:13:19,015 He just felt like an absolute loser. 236 00:13:19,015 --> 00:13:20,538 -I was worried about him, yeah, 237 00:13:20,538 --> 00:13:24,325 for quite a while because he was in his bedroom, 238 00:13:24,325 --> 00:13:26,501 and he had to have black curtains, 239 00:13:26,501 --> 00:13:31,898 so it was all dark in there, and it just seemed so grim. 240 00:13:33,290 --> 00:13:36,206 He was in there a lot and sad. 241 00:13:36,293 --> 00:13:38,774 He was in there a lot and sad. 242 00:13:38,774 --> 00:13:41,255 -Five nine six. Is that Wheeler? 243 00:13:41,255 --> 00:13:43,126 -Nine six five. 244 00:13:43,126 --> 00:13:45,650 -Nine six four? -Nine six five. 245 00:13:48,523 --> 00:13:50,438 -Like, I would hang out with Gus when he didn't want 246 00:13:50,438 --> 00:13:53,136 to think about that type of shit, you know what I mean? 247 00:13:53,136 --> 00:13:55,356 Like, he was always, like, really good at, like, hiding, 248 00:13:55,356 --> 00:13:58,272 like, any feelings that he had or anything like that. 249 00:13:58,272 --> 00:14:00,665 He was good at it, so, like, it was hard to... 250 00:14:00,665 --> 00:14:02,189 It's hard to tell, like, whether or not he was, 251 00:14:02,189 --> 00:14:03,494 like, bothered, you know what I mean? 252 00:14:03,494 --> 00:14:04,669 It always was. 253 00:14:07,324 --> 00:14:09,022 -He would run away. 254 00:14:09,022 --> 00:14:11,285 Like, we would just dip from the school, and that's when 255 00:14:11,285 --> 00:14:14,462 he would just, like, record mostly early-on stuff. 256 00:14:16,812 --> 00:14:18,205 -You've been blessed. 257 00:14:18,205 --> 00:14:20,207 -I remember laying in his bed, 258 00:14:20,207 --> 00:14:23,863 and his name was Trap Goose at the time, and he was like, 259 00:14:23,863 --> 00:14:26,474 "I think I'm gonna change my name to Lil Peep," 260 00:14:26,474 --> 00:14:27,867 and I was like, "Why?" 261 00:14:27,867 --> 00:14:30,043 And he's like, "My mom calls me Peep," 262 00:14:30,043 --> 00:14:32,872 and I was like, "I think that's kind of weird." 263 00:14:32,872 --> 00:14:35,352 Like, it sounds like little penis, 264 00:14:35,352 --> 00:14:37,833 and I made fun of him for it, 265 00:14:37,833 --> 00:14:39,791 and he was like, "No, I'm doing it. I don't care." 266 00:14:39,791 --> 00:14:42,707 -[ Laughing evilly ] 267 00:14:42,707 --> 00:14:44,448 -[ Speaks indistinctly ] 268 00:14:44,448 --> 00:14:47,582 -♪ I can keep my cool under pressure ♪ 269 00:14:47,582 --> 00:14:49,714 -♪ Pressure ♪ 270 00:14:49,714 --> 00:14:52,195 -♪ Clouds without law like the weather ♪ 271 00:14:52,195 --> 00:14:54,154 -♪ Show time, bitch ♪ 272 00:14:54,154 --> 00:14:55,459 ♪ Kinky shit ♪ 273 00:14:55,459 --> 00:14:57,331 -Me personally, like, I thought, like, 274 00:14:57,331 --> 00:14:59,855 if you wanted to be a rapper, you were a fucking idiot. 275 00:14:59,855 --> 00:15:02,205 Like, like, come on. 276 00:15:02,205 --> 00:15:03,467 There's just so many other things 277 00:15:03,467 --> 00:15:04,860 that you could be in life. 278 00:15:04,860 --> 00:15:06,731 Like, why do you want to be a rapper? 279 00:15:06,731 --> 00:15:08,603 Like, doesn't make any sense to me, 280 00:15:08,603 --> 00:15:12,824 but when Gus was doing it, I obviously had that same 281 00:15:12,824 --> 00:15:14,391 kind of thought, like, "You're a fucking idiot." 282 00:15:14,391 --> 00:15:16,045 Like, "Just do something normal," 283 00:15:16,045 --> 00:15:17,873 but I was still his friend, 284 00:15:17,873 --> 00:15:19,962 and I wasn't gonna sit there and tell him that. 285 00:15:19,962 --> 00:15:23,226 Like, I never told him like, "Be something else," like, 286 00:15:23,226 --> 00:15:25,315 because I knew that he was serious about it. 287 00:15:27,230 --> 00:15:29,798 -He didn't want to go see anybody he knew, 288 00:15:29,798 --> 00:15:32,322 and in our town, you go anywhere, you know somebody. 289 00:15:32,322 --> 00:15:35,064 They're gonna say, "Oh, what are you doing now?" 290 00:15:35,064 --> 00:15:37,632 And what was he gonna say? Like, "Oh, I'm making music." 291 00:15:37,632 --> 00:15:42,419 Like, nobody would have thought anything of it, 292 00:15:42,419 --> 00:15:44,726 and he would've just been, like, judged by it. 293 00:15:44,726 --> 00:15:47,120 [ Indistinct conversations ] 294 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:50,123 -Yeah, but it was always very good. 295 00:15:50,123 --> 00:15:51,907 You know, it was... The only other... 296 00:15:51,907 --> 00:15:54,388 -Basically, my father was like a surrogate father. 297 00:15:54,388 --> 00:15:56,999 You know, he was the guy that Gus figured, 298 00:15:56,999 --> 00:15:58,696 "Okay. 299 00:15:58,696 --> 00:16:02,918 My own blood father is definitely not somebody 300 00:16:02,918 --> 00:16:05,138 I respect, certainly, and not somebody 301 00:16:05,138 --> 00:16:07,401 I'm gonna spend any... 302 00:16:07,401 --> 00:16:11,492 waste my energy on," and he, I think, 303 00:16:11,492 --> 00:16:15,626 kind of transferred his, you know, 304 00:16:15,626 --> 00:16:19,979 "Who is my male figure?" you know, onto his grandpa. 305 00:16:19,979 --> 00:16:25,245 ♪♪ 306 00:16:25,245 --> 00:16:28,030 -I remember Gus literally told me once 307 00:16:28,030 --> 00:16:31,381 if he was to die, he thinks Jack would be, like, 308 00:16:31,381 --> 00:16:34,384 the person welcoming him into Heaven. 309 00:16:34,384 --> 00:16:37,561 Like, he literally thought, like, Jack was God. 310 00:16:37,561 --> 00:16:39,650 He loved him so much. 311 00:16:39,650 --> 00:16:44,003 He was, like, super, just intelligent, very smart, 312 00:16:44,003 --> 00:16:47,571 but he also, like, didn't judge anybody. 313 00:16:47,571 --> 00:16:49,530 He'd always say that whenever Gus, like, 314 00:16:49,530 --> 00:16:51,184 got a new tattoo or something, 315 00:16:51,184 --> 00:16:53,055 Jack, like, wouldn't even notice. 316 00:16:53,055 --> 00:16:55,840 Like, he just, like, looked him straight in the eyes always, 317 00:16:55,840 --> 00:16:58,669 and I think Gus, like, really appreciated that. 318 00:16:58,669 --> 00:17:00,845 -My dad is a big letter writer. 319 00:17:00,845 --> 00:17:04,545 He's old-school, so he does like to write a lot of e-mails, 320 00:17:04,545 --> 00:17:07,156 but he also does like to write actual letters 321 00:17:07,156 --> 00:17:09,289 and send them in the mail. 322 00:17:09,289 --> 00:17:11,856 I mean, he wrote to the boys a lot, 323 00:17:11,856 --> 00:17:13,380 and he felt that it was important 324 00:17:13,380 --> 00:17:16,078 to write to both of them. 325 00:17:16,078 --> 00:17:17,601 Gus was home. 326 00:17:17,601 --> 00:17:24,043 Oskar was in college, but Gus was floundering. 327 00:17:24,043 --> 00:17:27,698 So he just wanted to reach out to Gus and write to him. 328 00:17:31,876 --> 00:17:35,532 -Dear Gus, I think your mama asked you if you'd like 329 00:17:35,532 --> 00:17:39,797 to do that research for me at the NYU Library 330 00:17:39,797 --> 00:17:45,325 for pay and travel and other expenses into the city and out. 331 00:17:45,325 --> 00:17:46,891 Let me know if you'll do it. 332 00:17:46,891 --> 00:17:48,719 I'm sure you can do it. 333 00:17:48,719 --> 00:17:51,766 Your mama and I can easily explain how. 334 00:17:54,203 --> 00:17:56,466 I believe in you, Gus. 335 00:17:56,466 --> 00:18:01,993 I know you'll find your way, and it'll be a good, strong way. 336 00:18:01,993 --> 00:18:05,736 These days especially, take good care of yourself. 337 00:18:05,736 --> 00:18:09,218 Think about things you really like or don't like. 338 00:18:09,218 --> 00:18:12,569 Wonder why you like them or don't. 339 00:18:12,569 --> 00:18:15,311 Talk to your friends about them or make friends 340 00:18:15,311 --> 00:18:17,400 that do want to talk about them. 341 00:18:19,750 --> 00:18:21,752 Life is full of surprises. 342 00:18:21,752 --> 00:18:26,496 Some of them, I know from my experiences, are very bad, 343 00:18:26,496 --> 00:18:28,716 but some are wonderful. 344 00:18:28,716 --> 00:18:31,849 I can tell you, too, that these years you're living now, 345 00:18:31,849 --> 00:18:36,985 16, 17, are particularly hard years. 346 00:18:36,985 --> 00:18:41,120 It's hard to know what to do, but you'll get through them, 347 00:18:41,120 --> 00:18:45,385 and things will start to get clear and make sense. 348 00:18:45,385 --> 00:18:47,604 Whatever you may say or do, 349 00:18:47,604 --> 00:18:51,652 have faith in yourself and in your mama. 350 00:18:51,652 --> 00:18:56,178 I do look forward to seeing you at some point over the summer. 351 00:18:56,178 --> 00:18:58,702 Love Pack Ack, your grandpa. 352 00:19:02,489 --> 00:19:04,752 -Wait, you don't have enough to do a video, do you? 353 00:19:04,752 --> 00:19:06,797 -I don't know. 354 00:19:06,797 --> 00:19:09,974 -Where? 355 00:19:09,974 --> 00:19:11,628 -Walk away. 356 00:19:17,286 --> 00:19:18,722 I'm telling you, it fucking looks... 357 00:19:18,722 --> 00:19:21,638 -She tells me she's not upset, but look at her. 358 00:19:25,294 --> 00:19:27,166 -We started to make the music videos 359 00:19:27,166 --> 00:19:28,341 because we were just, like, bored 360 00:19:28,341 --> 00:19:29,951 and wanted to get out of the house, 361 00:19:29,951 --> 00:19:31,822 and it was something to get Gus out of the house 362 00:19:31,822 --> 00:19:34,999 because other than that, he wasn't leaving his room. 363 00:19:34,999 --> 00:19:37,567 It had to be, like, music-involved, 364 00:19:37,567 --> 00:19:39,569 so I wanted to go to my house, 365 00:19:39,569 --> 00:19:41,658 and we went to the "Live Forever" music video, 366 00:19:41,658 --> 00:19:43,834 and I was like, "If we go to my house, 367 00:19:43,834 --> 00:19:45,793 I'll shoot a music video for you," 368 00:19:45,793 --> 00:19:49,971 and he was like, "Fine. We can go." 369 00:19:49,971 --> 00:19:52,626 -♪ ...motherfucking big screen ♪ 370 00:19:52,626 --> 00:19:56,412 ♪ Live forever, bitch, smoking on that HD ♪ 371 00:20:08,424 --> 00:20:09,904 ♪ Live forever ♪ 372 00:20:09,904 --> 00:20:11,949 ♪ Get them motherfucking blunts rolled ♪ 373 00:20:11,949 --> 00:20:14,430 ♪ Now I pull up, and I get it... ♪ 374 00:20:14,430 --> 00:20:15,823 -I messaged him on SoundCloud, 375 00:20:15,823 --> 00:20:17,564 and I was like, "Bro, you're amazing." 376 00:20:17,564 --> 00:20:19,696 I had a small following, like, 5,000 followers. 377 00:20:19,696 --> 00:20:22,873 He had, like, 200 or some shit. 378 00:20:22,873 --> 00:20:24,223 But I just loved his shit. 379 00:20:24,223 --> 00:20:26,442 I was like, "Bro, let's make some music. 380 00:20:26,442 --> 00:20:27,922 Like, I love what you're doing." 381 00:20:27,922 --> 00:20:29,315 -♪ You ♪ 382 00:20:29,315 --> 00:20:32,143 -♪ I remember looking at you ♪ 383 00:20:32,143 --> 00:20:35,712 ♪ Through the window in my bedroom ♪ 384 00:20:35,712 --> 00:20:37,453 -And then, yeah, he sent his clips through. 385 00:20:37,453 --> 00:20:40,978 Like...He had, like, the dustiest green screen. 386 00:20:40,978 --> 00:20:43,416 It was like a green bedsheet, 387 00:20:43,416 --> 00:20:45,766 and I had, like, green cardboard here. 388 00:20:45,766 --> 00:20:47,550 We was both like... -Yeah, we was... 389 00:20:47,550 --> 00:20:49,248 -We didn't know what we were doing, 390 00:20:49,248 --> 00:20:51,293 and, like, you can see the green line around us 391 00:20:51,293 --> 00:20:53,034 and shit when I edited it. 392 00:20:53,034 --> 00:20:54,209 -It was perfect, though, now, 393 00:20:54,209 --> 00:20:56,777 when you look back at it. -Yeah. 394 00:20:56,777 --> 00:20:59,258 Because we were so new to it, you know? 395 00:20:59,258 --> 00:21:00,868 -He's trying to do this work, 396 00:21:00,868 --> 00:21:02,609 and Emma kind of brings him out of it, 397 00:21:02,609 --> 00:21:04,959 and he's making progress and getting better at it 398 00:21:04,959 --> 00:21:07,440 and meeting people online and doing this stuff 399 00:21:07,440 --> 00:21:11,270 and on his own and probably so much of it unbeknownst to me 400 00:21:11,270 --> 00:21:14,185 except for the fact that every night, I heard him singing. 401 00:21:14,185 --> 00:21:15,752 You know, he worked while I slept, 402 00:21:15,752 --> 00:21:17,624 but I heard him, and so this was... 403 00:21:17,624 --> 00:21:21,280 made me happy because he was doing something that he enjoyed 404 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:23,369 and was committed to. 405 00:21:23,369 --> 00:21:24,848 -Eventually, he made a couple songs 406 00:21:24,848 --> 00:21:26,633 like "Star Shopping," and I'm just like, 407 00:21:26,633 --> 00:21:30,593 "Dude, like, it's over. Like, now you've got it." 408 00:21:30,593 --> 00:21:33,292 -I'm so fucking excited. 409 00:21:33,292 --> 00:21:35,946 Oh, I'm shaking. 410 00:21:35,946 --> 00:21:37,339 -And I've never seen him satisfied 411 00:21:37,339 --> 00:21:38,384 with his own music before, too. 412 00:21:38,384 --> 00:21:40,037 He used to be embarrassed of it, 413 00:21:40,037 --> 00:21:42,562 and now he's playing his songs every day over and over. 414 00:21:42,562 --> 00:21:45,086 -♪ Wait right here ♪ 415 00:21:45,086 --> 00:21:47,871 ♪ I'll be back in the morning ♪ 416 00:21:47,871 --> 00:21:50,091 ♪ I know that I'm not that important to you ♪ 417 00:21:50,091 --> 00:21:53,660 ♪ But to me, girl, you're so much more than gorgeous ♪ 418 00:21:53,660 --> 00:21:56,402 ♪ So much more than perfect ♪ 419 00:21:56,402 --> 00:21:58,882 ♪ Right now, I know that I'm not really worth it ♪ 420 00:21:58,882 --> 00:22:00,971 ♪ If you give me time, I can work on it ♪ 421 00:22:00,971 --> 00:22:03,757 -The change was real, and, like, people were like, 422 00:22:03,757 --> 00:22:06,281 "Damn, all right. Lil Peep is actually a thing." 423 00:22:06,281 --> 00:22:08,588 -♪ In rotation, you're waiting for me ♪ 424 00:22:08,588 --> 00:22:10,067 ♪ Look at my face when I... ♪ 425 00:22:10,067 --> 00:22:12,069 [ Static ] 426 00:22:12,069 --> 00:22:15,246 [ Thunder crashing ] 427 00:22:15,246 --> 00:22:21,601 ♪♪ 428 00:22:21,601 --> 00:22:28,956 ♪♪ 429 00:22:28,956 --> 00:22:33,961 -You know, at Schema, we had, like, like, 30 rappers. 430 00:22:33,961 --> 00:22:37,007 We were like Wu-Tang, like old Three 6 Mafia. 431 00:22:37,007 --> 00:22:42,665 ♪♪ 432 00:22:42,665 --> 00:22:48,323 ♪♪ 433 00:22:48,323 --> 00:22:52,893 I only needed to hear, like, the first four bars of Lil Peep. 434 00:22:52,893 --> 00:22:54,155 That's it. 435 00:22:54,155 --> 00:22:55,765 -♪ Schema boys ♪ 436 00:22:55,765 --> 00:22:57,985 ♪ It's the posse, bitch, we running shit ♪ 437 00:22:57,985 --> 00:23:00,161 ♪ And no, it ain't nothing ♪ 438 00:23:00,161 --> 00:23:03,991 ♪ Maxed out, shorty, now my battery full ♪ 439 00:23:03,991 --> 00:23:05,732 ♪ I got plenty more to go ♪ 440 00:23:05,732 --> 00:23:08,387 -I sent Peep a DM, matter of fact, 441 00:23:08,387 --> 00:23:10,171 and the first thing I told him was, 442 00:23:10,171 --> 00:23:11,825 "We gonna blow you up." 443 00:23:11,825 --> 00:23:13,043 Like, I didn't say, "Hey, what's up? 444 00:23:13,043 --> 00:23:14,871 My name Grxxn," blah, blah, blah. 445 00:23:14,871 --> 00:23:17,396 All I said was, "We gonna blow you up," 446 00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:21,574 and then later on, I think we all hopped on the phone 447 00:23:21,574 --> 00:23:23,445 and just was, like, planning shit out. 448 00:23:23,445 --> 00:23:25,055 How are we gonna do things? 449 00:23:25,055 --> 00:23:29,059 And we gonna do a tour here and yadda, yadda, yadda. 450 00:23:29,059 --> 00:23:32,062 So it started, like, in Tucson. 451 00:23:32,062 --> 00:23:34,108 -It was, like...I don't know. 452 00:23:34,108 --> 00:23:35,414 It was kind of surreal because I was like, 453 00:23:35,414 --> 00:23:37,764 "Well, I'm out here with a bunch of people 454 00:23:37,764 --> 00:23:40,419 that I've, like, met on the Internet, 455 00:23:40,419 --> 00:23:42,682 and, like, we're doing this thing now. 456 00:23:42,682 --> 00:23:45,293 We're, like, playing a show together and stuff." 457 00:23:45,293 --> 00:23:48,775 I remember it was, like, 30 or 40 kids showed up, 458 00:23:48,775 --> 00:23:51,821 and the venue looked like a hou-- 459 00:23:51,821 --> 00:23:54,563 Like, a fuc-- it used to be a meth den or something, 460 00:23:54,563 --> 00:23:55,738 and then there was an explosion, 461 00:23:55,738 --> 00:23:57,566 and they, like, gutted everything. 462 00:23:57,566 --> 00:24:00,308 Like, it was just a total shithole, but it was awesome. 463 00:24:00,308 --> 00:24:02,136 And there was no stage. 464 00:24:02,136 --> 00:24:03,920 There was obviously a few songs of mine that went off, 465 00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:06,140 but, like, Gus played "Beamer Boy" 466 00:24:06,140 --> 00:24:07,968 because "Beamer Boy," like, just came out at that time, 467 00:24:07,968 --> 00:24:10,579 and it was just... 468 00:24:10,579 --> 00:24:12,276 Everyone in that bitch was singing. 469 00:24:12,276 --> 00:24:14,104 Like, it was so crazy. 470 00:24:14,104 --> 00:24:15,845 [ "Beamer Boy" playing ] 471 00:24:15,845 --> 00:24:22,417 ♪♪ 472 00:24:22,417 --> 00:24:25,333 -♪ I'm a motherfucking Schema boy ♪ 473 00:24:25,333 --> 00:24:27,291 ♪ I'm a dreamer boy ♪ 474 00:24:27,291 --> 00:24:30,686 ♪ I love a girl that don't even fucking need a boy ♪ 475 00:24:30,686 --> 00:24:32,993 ♪ Baby, I'm a beamer boy ♪ 476 00:24:32,993 --> 00:24:34,951 ♪ I need a beemer, boy ♪ 477 00:24:34,951 --> 00:24:36,562 ♪ I want a Z3 ♪ 478 00:24:36,562 --> 00:24:38,389 ♪ That's a two-seater, boy ♪ 479 00:24:38,389 --> 00:24:40,957 ♪ Okay, I pull my cash out ♪ 480 00:24:40,957 --> 00:24:42,655 ♪ Shorty pass out ♪ 481 00:24:42,655 --> 00:24:45,484 -At that point, he was real, real happy at that point 482 00:24:45,484 --> 00:24:49,836 because I think from that show, 483 00:24:49,836 --> 00:24:52,491 he started to believe that, "You know what? 484 00:24:52,491 --> 00:24:54,580 I can actually do this shit," you know what I'm saying? 485 00:24:54,580 --> 00:24:56,277 -♪ Yeah, I'm in my zone now ♪ 486 00:24:56,277 --> 00:24:58,366 ♪ I put my phone down ♪ 487 00:24:58,366 --> 00:25:00,716 ♪ I'm on my own now, I'm on my own now ♪ 488 00:25:00,716 --> 00:25:03,632 We're performing our tracks we made. 489 00:25:03,632 --> 00:25:05,329 -Yeah. -But how we're gonna do it is, 490 00:25:05,329 --> 00:25:07,157 you guys are gonna go on first, do your opening thing, 491 00:25:07,157 --> 00:25:09,899 and then, like, when we all come out, 492 00:25:09,899 --> 00:25:12,119 me, J and Ghost, 493 00:25:12,119 --> 00:25:13,599 I'm gonna do them with you guys. 494 00:25:13,599 --> 00:25:15,383 -Oh, that... -So it's like a segue into it. 495 00:25:15,383 --> 00:25:17,690 -Yeah, like you guys do your shit first, 496 00:25:17,690 --> 00:25:20,127 and then once us three come out, you know, 497 00:25:20,127 --> 00:25:22,825 I'm probably gonna do "Beamer Boy," like, second. 498 00:25:22,825 --> 00:25:24,348 I don't know, but my set... 499 00:25:24,348 --> 00:25:28,918 ♪♪ 500 00:25:28,918 --> 00:25:31,921 -♪ Shit go off when I come around ♪ 501 00:25:31,921 --> 00:25:33,532 -I remember the table broke. 502 00:25:33,532 --> 00:25:37,536 Everybody fell, and then I, like, grabbed my laptop, 503 00:25:37,536 --> 00:25:38,885 plugged the aux back in. 504 00:25:38,885 --> 00:25:40,234 They were, like, on the microphone. 505 00:25:40,234 --> 00:25:42,366 I'm, like, holding my shit like this. 506 00:25:42,366 --> 00:25:44,238 Just like this, playing the music. 507 00:25:44,238 --> 00:25:46,022 There was no more table. 508 00:25:46,022 --> 00:25:50,157 ♪♪ 509 00:25:50,157 --> 00:25:53,595 -♪ Shit go off when I come around ♪ 510 00:25:53,595 --> 00:26:02,952 ♪♪ 511 00:26:02,952 --> 00:26:12,832 ♪♪ 512 00:26:12,832 --> 00:26:19,099 ♪♪ 513 00:26:19,099 --> 00:26:21,754 -One day, we were sitting outside of this pizza shop. 514 00:26:21,754 --> 00:26:23,669 Gus was like, "How long have we been"... 515 00:26:23,669 --> 00:26:25,018 Like, we were trying to calculate 516 00:26:25,018 --> 00:26:27,194 how long we'd been in Denver and shit, 517 00:26:27,194 --> 00:26:28,674 and we all were like, "Yeah, that was, like... 518 00:26:28,674 --> 00:26:30,850 The show was, like, two weeks ago, right?" 519 00:26:30,850 --> 00:26:33,287 And we were all like, "Yeah, yeah. 520 00:26:33,287 --> 00:26:35,376 That must have been, like, two weeks ago." 521 00:26:35,376 --> 00:26:37,291 And then we, like, looked at the calendar, 522 00:26:37,291 --> 00:26:39,902 and it had been, like, two months since the show, 523 00:26:39,902 --> 00:26:41,338 and then that's when we were like, 524 00:26:41,338 --> 00:26:43,210 "Fuck. We got to, like, get out of here." 525 00:26:43,210 --> 00:26:45,168 -Dude, we got some skaters, bro. 526 00:26:45,168 --> 00:26:48,389 -You want to see some fresh moves? 527 00:26:48,389 --> 00:26:51,044 -Oh, okay. -Oh, oh. 528 00:26:51,044 --> 00:26:54,221 -Dude, holy shit, bro. 529 00:26:54,221 --> 00:26:55,875 -Wait, you didn't get that on video, did you? 530 00:26:55,875 --> 00:26:57,093 -What's up? What's up? What's up? 531 00:26:57,093 --> 00:26:58,921 That's the way to do it. 532 00:26:58,921 --> 00:27:02,403 -Hey, Peep. Hey, what's up? 533 00:27:02,403 --> 00:27:05,014 -And we would go to get tattooed 534 00:27:05,014 --> 00:27:06,755 in San Diego with Brendan, 535 00:27:06,755 --> 00:27:12,021 who was a guy that tattoos us there, and he's a actual cop, 536 00:27:12,021 --> 00:27:14,371 and he, like, tattoos out of his garage. 537 00:27:14,371 --> 00:27:15,459 Me and Peep went down to San Diego 538 00:27:15,459 --> 00:27:17,113 on the same day that day, 539 00:27:17,113 --> 00:27:19,594 and he went to his tattoo appointment 540 00:27:19,594 --> 00:27:21,422 because it was before mine. 541 00:27:21,422 --> 00:27:26,296 Me and Brennan went to the mall, and then we met up with Peep, 542 00:27:26,296 --> 00:27:29,212 and as we walked into the dude's house, 543 00:27:29,212 --> 00:27:32,085 Peep was literally, like, finishing up his crybaby tat, 544 00:27:32,085 --> 00:27:34,174 and we looked at it, and we were like, 545 00:27:34,174 --> 00:27:37,307 "Dude, we did not know it was gonna be that big." 546 00:27:37,307 --> 00:27:38,569 And it showed me... It was like, 547 00:27:38,569 --> 00:27:40,136 he doesn't give a fuck. 548 00:27:40,136 --> 00:27:42,095 like, he knows what he has. 549 00:27:42,095 --> 00:27:45,489 He knows where this is going. 550 00:27:45,489 --> 00:27:48,057 -I remember kind of laughing, and I was like, 551 00:27:48,057 --> 00:27:50,756 "Bro, what is up with the tattoo?" 552 00:27:50,756 --> 00:27:54,237 Because at the time, no other young rappers like this 553 00:27:54,237 --> 00:27:56,022 had face tattoos. 554 00:27:56,022 --> 00:27:58,024 And then he was talking about, like... 555 00:27:58,024 --> 00:27:59,329 I swear, just, like, talking about, like, 556 00:27:59,329 --> 00:28:01,984 some conflict in Syria or something. 557 00:28:01,984 --> 00:28:05,161 -I think it was partly an identification 558 00:28:05,161 --> 00:28:07,511 with oppressed people. 559 00:28:07,511 --> 00:28:13,517 He, I think, really wanted to make himself an outsider. 560 00:28:15,650 --> 00:28:18,305 -I definitely think the planet is very sad. 561 00:28:18,305 --> 00:28:22,570 There's people fighting to survive, so live on for them. 562 00:28:22,570 --> 00:28:24,528 That's why I got the crybaby tat, 563 00:28:24,528 --> 00:28:27,053 to keep me grateful and remind me not to be a crybaby, 564 00:28:27,053 --> 00:28:30,709 so I see it every time I look in the mirror, you know? 565 00:28:30,709 --> 00:28:33,494 -Everyone saw that he was gonna be something special, 566 00:28:33,494 --> 00:28:35,322 so everyone wanted to be around him, 567 00:28:35,322 --> 00:28:37,150 wanted to be with him, wanted to hang out with him, 568 00:28:37,150 --> 00:28:38,673 and not even, like... 569 00:28:38,673 --> 00:28:40,893 I'm not talking about leeching or anything, 570 00:28:40,893 --> 00:28:44,244 though there has been some of those people in his life. 571 00:28:44,244 --> 00:28:47,116 -I start seeing people coming over 572 00:28:47,116 --> 00:28:50,380 that I never even heard of before. 573 00:28:50,380 --> 00:28:53,166 Sometimes, you would wake up. 574 00:28:53,166 --> 00:28:54,515 You'd go to the living room. 575 00:28:54,515 --> 00:28:58,214 You'd see about 10 bodies all laid out, 576 00:28:58,214 --> 00:29:00,260 and so you got to get to the kitchen, 577 00:29:00,260 --> 00:29:02,697 and you got to step over motherfuckers like this, 578 00:29:02,697 --> 00:29:05,265 people you never even heard of before. 579 00:29:05,265 --> 00:29:07,267 Everybody just laid out. 580 00:29:07,267 --> 00:29:11,097 And then we like, "Peep, what the fuck? Who are these people?" 581 00:29:11,097 --> 00:29:15,797 You know, and I was telling him, I'm like, 582 00:29:15,797 --> 00:29:20,759 "Why you think you got 30 new best friends like that?" 583 00:29:20,759 --> 00:29:23,152 He would always tell me, "Yo, man. 584 00:29:23,152 --> 00:29:27,287 Yo, so-and-so said they'll pay for this for me 585 00:29:27,287 --> 00:29:31,030 and that for me and yadda-yadda for me," 586 00:29:31,030 --> 00:29:35,077 and I was just like... just a matter of time. 587 00:29:35,077 --> 00:29:36,731 It was like this. 588 00:29:38,907 --> 00:29:41,083 And then the next day, 589 00:29:41,083 --> 00:29:42,955 everybody announced they were gone. 590 00:29:45,522 --> 00:29:50,963 He said it wasn't for him, so he bounced, 591 00:29:50,963 --> 00:29:52,529 and then when he made that decision, 592 00:29:52,529 --> 00:29:55,837 that's when everybody followed suit. 593 00:29:55,837 --> 00:29:58,187 And it was over with. Schema was over with. 594 00:30:00,929 --> 00:30:03,497 [ Indistinct conversation ] 595 00:30:08,197 --> 00:30:14,116 -Dear Gus, I hear you had a pretty hard week. 596 00:30:14,116 --> 00:30:18,947 I'm sorry, but once you get big, 597 00:30:18,947 --> 00:30:22,472 and you're big now, it can get very spooky 598 00:30:22,472 --> 00:30:25,345 when you have a really hard fight. 599 00:30:25,345 --> 00:30:29,218 It's maybe hardest because even after the dust settles, 600 00:30:29,218 --> 00:30:33,919 it's hard to know how to reconnect, 601 00:30:33,919 --> 00:30:37,705 what to say, what to think, even to yourself. 602 00:30:41,013 --> 00:30:44,494 There are lots of people in the world crappy as it is, 603 00:30:44,494 --> 00:30:47,149 and you will learn you cannot trust. 604 00:30:47,149 --> 00:30:48,890 You may like them or not. 605 00:30:48,890 --> 00:30:53,329 You may work with them or not, but you can't trust them. 606 00:30:53,329 --> 00:30:56,115 If you do, they'll betray you. 607 00:30:56,115 --> 00:30:58,465 But there are people whom you can trust 608 00:30:58,465 --> 00:31:00,771 and whom you can have faith. 609 00:31:03,035 --> 00:31:06,952 I know so sure that I'd put my hand in the fire to prove it. 610 00:31:08,954 --> 00:31:13,175 Keep your faith, and the love will always be there. 611 00:31:13,175 --> 00:31:18,180 ♪♪ 612 00:31:18,180 --> 00:31:20,748 Love, your grandpa, Pack Ack. 613 00:31:24,012 --> 00:31:28,321 -In 2016 in the spring, 614 00:31:28,321 --> 00:31:31,106 Gus became homeless, 615 00:31:31,106 --> 00:31:35,719 and he'll call me, "Mama, my phone is about to die. 616 00:31:35,719 --> 00:31:38,722 The card isn't working," and I say every time, 617 00:31:38,722 --> 00:31:40,550 "Are you with anybody?" because I always... 618 00:31:40,550 --> 00:31:42,944 Moms want to know, is my son alone, 619 00:31:42,944 --> 00:31:46,034 or does he have a friend that he's at least with? 620 00:31:46,034 --> 00:31:48,558 And it was always, "Yeah, Tracy," 621 00:31:48,558 --> 00:31:51,300 so there was always this Tracy who was always with him, 622 00:31:51,300 --> 00:31:53,563 and I thought, "Okay. Thank goodness for Tracy. 623 00:31:53,563 --> 00:31:55,652 Tracy is at least sticking by my son." 624 00:31:55,652 --> 00:31:57,741 -We were, like, pretty much, like, 625 00:31:57,741 --> 00:32:00,875 glued together before any one of us 626 00:32:00,875 --> 00:32:04,183 had a crib, a house or anything. 627 00:32:04,183 --> 00:32:06,968 -♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ 628 00:32:06,968 --> 00:32:08,839 ♪ I used to think I love you ♪ 629 00:32:08,839 --> 00:32:10,406 ♪ Now I know it ain't true ♪ 630 00:32:10,406 --> 00:32:12,017 ♪ Now I know it's not you ♪ 631 00:32:12,017 --> 00:32:13,670 ♪ Fifty on my boxers ♪ 632 00:32:13,670 --> 00:32:15,629 -Everything we did was easy. 633 00:32:15,629 --> 00:32:19,024 It was like drinking water. 634 00:32:19,024 --> 00:32:21,243 It was just like, "Another track?" 635 00:32:21,243 --> 00:32:22,636 ♪ Doing all my drugs, young bruh ♪ 636 00:32:22,636 --> 00:32:24,029 ♪ Standing in the club ♪ 637 00:32:24,029 --> 00:32:25,682 ♪ Like little mama in my eyesight ♪ 638 00:32:25,682 --> 00:32:26,945 ♪ She go home with me tonight ♪ 639 00:32:26,945 --> 00:32:29,077 -Peep just automatically liked Tracy. 640 00:32:29,077 --> 00:32:30,339 He was like... He said to me... 641 00:32:30,339 --> 00:32:31,427 He brought Tracy to my house. 642 00:32:31,427 --> 00:32:33,255 He's like, "Bro, this guy, he... 643 00:32:33,255 --> 00:32:34,953 I got to keep him with me, you know? 644 00:32:34,953 --> 00:32:37,390 Like, he's gonna be -- he's gonna be a star." 645 00:32:37,390 --> 00:32:39,740 ♪ Pull it out, the club going up, baby ♪ 646 00:32:39,740 --> 00:32:41,176 ♪ Will you hold me down ♪ 647 00:32:41,176 --> 00:32:42,351 ♪ Will you hold me down, ice on my wrist ♪ 648 00:32:42,351 --> 00:32:44,092 -Peep had definitely found somebody 649 00:32:44,092 --> 00:32:46,573 that he could really fucking make music with, you know? 650 00:32:46,573 --> 00:32:47,748 They made "White Tee" within a day of knowing 651 00:32:47,748 --> 00:32:49,184 each other, I think. 652 00:32:49,184 --> 00:32:50,925 I shot the video, like, that same week 653 00:32:50,925 --> 00:32:52,971 or some shit like that, and that shit just did amazing. 654 00:32:52,971 --> 00:32:54,537 -♪ Fifty on my boxers ♪ 655 00:32:54,537 --> 00:32:56,452 -He's really fast. There's never, like... 656 00:32:56,452 --> 00:32:58,150 He's definitely not a artist 657 00:32:58,150 --> 00:33:00,630 that would ever, like, plan anything out. 658 00:33:00,630 --> 00:33:03,024 It's never like you would be like, "Yeah, like, 659 00:33:03,024 --> 00:33:04,634 we're gonna do this. We're gonna do..." 660 00:33:04,634 --> 00:33:06,723 Like, maybe, like, a little bit but not really. 661 00:33:06,723 --> 00:33:09,683 He's very just like, "Let's do it now." 662 00:33:09,683 --> 00:33:13,078 [ Indistinct conversations ] 663 00:33:13,078 --> 00:33:16,124 -Do we use a beat? -No. We can. 664 00:33:16,124 --> 00:33:17,908 -Play it. -I really like that beat. 665 00:33:17,908 --> 00:33:20,389 -I love that beat. Oh, let's use that beat. 666 00:33:20,389 --> 00:33:22,043 It's done. Send it to me. 667 00:33:22,043 --> 00:33:23,827 -Oh, no, we're good. -Yeah, send it to me right now 668 00:33:23,827 --> 00:33:26,526 because I tweeted it. 669 00:33:26,526 --> 00:33:27,657 -What's the name? -Nah, I'm just gonna write, 670 00:33:27,657 --> 00:33:29,442 "Dropping within 20 minutes on..." 671 00:33:29,442 --> 00:33:32,836 -Yeah. -"Dropping within 20 minutes, 672 00:33:32,836 --> 00:33:34,229 nah, 15 minutes." 673 00:33:34,229 --> 00:33:36,275 -[ Laughing ] -15 minutes. 674 00:33:36,275 --> 00:33:38,625 -Fuck that. I'm not waiting 20 minutes. 675 00:33:38,625 --> 00:33:41,497 ♪ Get into the bus, fill up, motherfucker ♪ 676 00:33:41,497 --> 00:33:44,587 ♪ ...fucked up on some other shit ♪ 677 00:33:44,587 --> 00:33:47,460 ♪ All I ever wanted was a... ♪ 678 00:33:47,460 --> 00:33:49,375 -Gus was recording anywhere he could. 679 00:33:49,375 --> 00:33:51,942 He didn't care what room it was, what he was doing, you know? 680 00:33:51,942 --> 00:33:53,466 Just, like, they were 681 00:33:53,466 --> 00:33:55,076 just recording in the corner of my room. 682 00:33:55,076 --> 00:33:57,122 It wasn't even how I would want them to record, 683 00:33:57,122 --> 00:34:00,560 but it was what was most comfortable for them, 684 00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:01,952 and with his mix on his laptop, 685 00:34:01,952 --> 00:34:03,258 it didn't matter where you recorded. 686 00:34:03,258 --> 00:34:04,694 It somehow... It just sound good. 687 00:34:04,694 --> 00:34:06,131 -I don't even know how to record myself. 688 00:34:06,131 --> 00:34:07,741 I just, like, turned a bunch of knobs. 689 00:34:07,741 --> 00:34:09,177 I didn't know what they meant. 690 00:34:09,177 --> 00:34:11,136 Like, I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing. 691 00:34:11,136 --> 00:34:13,660 People be asking me questions like... 692 00:34:13,660 --> 00:34:17,620 -So I feel like he always kind of downplayed his own, 693 00:34:17,620 --> 00:34:21,059 like, skills with all of that because, like, 694 00:34:21,059 --> 00:34:23,104 whenever I watched him do it, there was, like, 695 00:34:23,104 --> 00:34:26,890 a very calculated formula behind the way 696 00:34:26,890 --> 00:34:29,589 that he made his voice work, you know, on a song, 697 00:34:29,589 --> 00:34:32,287 and he made do with whatever he had, you know, 698 00:34:32,287 --> 00:34:35,203 whether it was the USB microphone or GarageBand 699 00:34:35,203 --> 00:34:38,119 or a $30 VHS camera 700 00:34:38,119 --> 00:34:39,947 that I had to shoot the video with. 701 00:34:39,947 --> 00:34:43,690 Like, he's just like, "This is what we got. 702 00:34:43,690 --> 00:34:45,953 We're gonna make it work, and it's gonna be perfect. 703 00:34:45,953 --> 00:34:48,608 It's gonna be exactly what it's supposed to be." 704 00:34:48,608 --> 00:34:50,262 -I never seen anything like it. You know what I mean? 705 00:34:50,262 --> 00:34:51,915 It really felt like... I was like, 706 00:34:51,915 --> 00:34:53,700 "Damn, this is, like, the new generation of music." 707 00:34:53,700 --> 00:34:57,660 I was like, "All these kids are just moving out to L.A. 708 00:34:57,660 --> 00:35:00,098 and staying in Airbnbs and just, like, 709 00:35:00,098 --> 00:35:02,970 pitching in 30 bucks a day, like, doing repost or whatever." 710 00:35:02,970 --> 00:35:04,754 I was like, "This is..." 711 00:35:04,754 --> 00:35:07,627 It was one of the craziest things I'd ever seen before. 712 00:35:07,627 --> 00:35:09,803 -How many people total are there in GBC? 713 00:35:09,803 --> 00:35:11,021 -10. -Is it 10? 714 00:35:11,021 --> 00:35:12,240 -Yeah. -Okay. 715 00:35:12,240 --> 00:35:13,633 -We all men. 716 00:35:13,633 --> 00:35:15,939 -It's a hard 10? -Yeah, the door is closed. 717 00:35:15,939 --> 00:35:18,116 -Damn, so me and Adam can't... -Strong 10. 718 00:35:18,116 --> 00:35:19,552 -I would love to join GothBoiClique. 719 00:35:19,552 --> 00:35:21,162 -GothBoiClique. 720 00:35:21,162 --> 00:35:23,469 -♪ I just fell in love with a bad bitch ♪ 721 00:35:23,469 --> 00:35:25,079 ♪ Told me that she love me, too ♪ 722 00:35:25,079 --> 00:35:26,950 ♪ Baby, I'm not having it ♪ 723 00:35:26,950 --> 00:35:30,215 ♪ Sniffing cocaine because I didn't have no Actavis ♪ 724 00:35:30,215 --> 00:35:31,651 -Tracy was already in GBC, 725 00:35:31,651 --> 00:35:33,479 and Peep wanted to be a part of a group. 726 00:35:33,479 --> 00:35:35,263 I saw this look in Peep's eyes 727 00:35:35,263 --> 00:35:38,223 where he, like, looked up to Tracy. 728 00:35:38,223 --> 00:35:40,355 You know, him wanting to be in GBC 729 00:35:40,355 --> 00:35:42,314 stemmed from his love for Tracy. 730 00:35:42,314 --> 00:35:44,098 -It's almost like a brand or something, you know, 731 00:35:44,098 --> 00:35:45,795 so it's, like, 732 00:35:45,795 --> 00:35:49,059 it would benefit him to have, like, that group of, 733 00:35:49,059 --> 00:35:51,323 like, like-minded people to make music with 734 00:35:51,323 --> 00:35:54,152 and, you know, rap, and then he was... 735 00:35:54,152 --> 00:35:56,415 You know, he was already on the rise and shit, so he's like, 736 00:35:56,415 --> 00:35:58,156 "You know, I'm gonna help you guys, 737 00:35:58,156 --> 00:35:59,635 bring you guys up with me, you know?" 738 00:35:59,635 --> 00:36:02,812 ♪♪ 739 00:36:02,812 --> 00:36:05,206 -Y'all don't know Tracy. Everybody, give it up for him. 740 00:36:05,206 --> 00:36:06,860 -I texted Chase. 741 00:36:06,860 --> 00:36:08,427 I said, "Hey, are you listening to the radio show? 742 00:36:08,427 --> 00:36:10,516 You need to listen to this dude, Peep," 743 00:36:10,516 --> 00:36:12,213 and he goes, "What's his deal?" 744 00:36:12,213 --> 00:36:13,823 I was like, "Just listen," and then literally, like, 745 00:36:13,823 --> 00:36:15,999 three songs later, he goes, "Does he have a manager?" 746 00:36:15,999 --> 00:36:19,481 -I meet him, and just talking with him, 747 00:36:19,481 --> 00:36:23,355 I'm like, "You are above my head." 748 00:36:23,355 --> 00:36:25,357 I'm just like, "Dude, like, you're a star. 749 00:36:25,357 --> 00:36:29,099 Like, immediately I knew you're going to be huge." 750 00:36:29,099 --> 00:36:30,449 You know, I was asking him questions like, 751 00:36:30,449 --> 00:36:31,580 "How do you live? Like, how are you doing?" 752 00:36:31,580 --> 00:36:32,842 He's just like, "I don't know. 753 00:36:32,842 --> 00:36:34,453 I just kind of get by, whatever," 754 00:36:34,453 --> 00:36:36,846 so I'm like, "All right. Let me help you with your merch. 755 00:36:36,846 --> 00:36:38,631 I'm not tripping on contracts or anything. 756 00:36:38,631 --> 00:36:40,546 Just let me help you. 757 00:36:40,546 --> 00:36:42,374 You know, I'll help whatever I can, 758 00:36:42,374 --> 00:36:45,377 but you're gonna need, like, a big-time management company. 759 00:36:45,377 --> 00:36:48,641 Like, you're pop. You're a big deal." 760 00:36:48,641 --> 00:36:51,296 -I first heard Lil Peep on Twitter. 761 00:36:51,296 --> 00:36:53,211 At that point, I had never felt like 762 00:36:53,211 --> 00:36:55,169 I discovered something with such passion 763 00:36:55,169 --> 00:36:56,953 since I was, like, 15 years old. 764 00:36:56,953 --> 00:36:58,216 It was refreshing. 765 00:36:58,216 --> 00:36:59,913 It was like a breath of fresh air 766 00:36:59,913 --> 00:37:01,349 and like a slap in my fucking face, 767 00:37:01,349 --> 00:37:03,090 and I showed everyone around me. 768 00:37:03,090 --> 00:37:08,704 -Travis came bounding into my office with some things. 769 00:37:08,704 --> 00:37:10,750 Like, he'd periodically come and show me things 770 00:37:10,750 --> 00:37:14,014 that he thought were cool and that he liked. 771 00:37:14,014 --> 00:37:16,495 He said, "Look at this kid." 772 00:37:18,192 --> 00:37:21,543 I could only describe it as an obsession. 773 00:37:21,543 --> 00:37:26,722 I was obsessed with this, like, 19-year-old boy. 774 00:37:26,722 --> 00:37:29,464 [ "Crybaby" playing ] 775 00:37:29,464 --> 00:37:31,945 -♪ Oh, it's a lonely world ♪ 776 00:37:31,945 --> 00:37:33,773 ♪ I know ♪ 777 00:37:33,773 --> 00:37:36,863 ♪ Go and get lonely, girl ♪ 778 00:37:36,863 --> 00:37:39,039 ♪ That's fo sho ♪ 779 00:37:39,039 --> 00:37:41,868 ♪ Oh, I'm a lonely boy ♪ 780 00:37:41,868 --> 00:37:44,305 ♪ She made a lonely boy ♪ 781 00:37:44,305 --> 00:37:45,828 ♪ Yeah, I know ♪ 782 00:37:45,828 --> 00:37:47,961 -And I asked him actually... 783 00:37:47,961 --> 00:37:51,181 It was at one of these early meetings. 784 00:37:51,181 --> 00:37:56,578 I said, "How -- How big do you want to be? 785 00:37:56,578 --> 00:37:59,146 How far do you want to go?" 786 00:37:59,146 --> 00:38:00,713 I said, "Do you want to play stadiums?" 787 00:38:00,713 --> 00:38:05,631 And he said, "Yeah, I want to play stadiums," 788 00:38:05,631 --> 00:38:08,808 and I said, "Well, I can... I think I can help." 789 00:38:08,808 --> 00:38:10,636 -We lose Peep. I, like, call him. 790 00:38:10,636 --> 00:38:13,726 He doesn't answer. Sarah can't get ahold of him. 791 00:38:13,726 --> 00:38:15,249 Nobody knows where he is. 792 00:38:15,249 --> 00:38:17,469 -I have this, like... 793 00:38:17,469 --> 00:38:21,386 It was, like, daily, daily dialogue like, 794 00:38:21,386 --> 00:38:25,085 "Where is he? What's he doing? What do you mean you don't know? 795 00:38:25,085 --> 00:38:27,043 What do you mean he's not answering?" 796 00:38:27,043 --> 00:38:28,741 -He was bouncing around a lot. 797 00:38:28,741 --> 00:38:31,091 He stayed there in Whittier sometimes, 798 00:38:31,091 --> 00:38:33,528 and shortly after that or right around the same time, 799 00:38:33,528 --> 00:38:36,052 they got the lofts in Skid Row, 800 00:38:36,052 --> 00:38:38,620 which was, I think, Nedarb's place. 801 00:38:38,620 --> 00:38:40,056 -We just all came up with the money. 802 00:38:40,056 --> 00:38:42,755 Lederrick was selling, like, Magic cards. 803 00:38:42,755 --> 00:38:45,758 That's how he used to make money, like, 804 00:38:45,758 --> 00:38:48,761 buying and reselling Magic cards and shit, 805 00:38:48,761 --> 00:38:50,676 so then I was a dishwasher. 806 00:38:50,676 --> 00:38:53,156 He was a Magic card seller, and then Peep was just, like... 807 00:38:53,156 --> 00:38:54,636 Oh, I remember the... 808 00:38:54,636 --> 00:38:59,206 We were $500 away from getting the spot, 809 00:38:59,206 --> 00:39:00,816 so me and Peep, like... 810 00:39:00,816 --> 00:39:04,167 He had this song that you can find online 811 00:39:04,167 --> 00:39:06,822 called "Mud On My Gucci" or some shit like that. 812 00:39:06,822 --> 00:39:10,304 We sold it for, like, 500 bucks, and then we just used that 813 00:39:10,304 --> 00:39:12,828 for, like, the rest of the rent, 814 00:39:12,828 --> 00:39:15,831 and then we just split that rent, like, five ways, 815 00:39:15,831 --> 00:39:18,573 and then we were just living at the lofts together. 816 00:39:18,573 --> 00:39:21,707 -It was crammed with artists -- Slug Christ, 817 00:39:21,707 --> 00:39:26,451 Tracy, me, Cortex, Peep, Nedarb, 818 00:39:26,451 --> 00:39:29,715 Horsehead, you know, all crammed into one spot 819 00:39:29,715 --> 00:39:32,021 and, you know, just creating music, man, creating history. 820 00:39:32,021 --> 00:39:34,023 -I forget what that means. -Drinking off the table? 821 00:39:34,023 --> 00:39:35,198 -You got to, like, get down there. 822 00:39:35,198 --> 00:39:37,200 -Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. -Exactly. 823 00:39:37,200 --> 00:39:38,854 -That's worth a lot of money in 1950. 824 00:39:38,854 --> 00:39:40,421 -That's worth, like, 10 bucks. 825 00:39:40,421 --> 00:39:42,771 -You can't really spend that all in one place. 826 00:39:42,771 --> 00:39:45,208 -Talk in the tip. Talk in the tip. 827 00:39:45,208 --> 00:39:47,472 -All right. I'm gonna talk into the tip. 828 00:39:47,472 --> 00:39:49,778 -Talk about "Hellboy." -Talk about "Hellboy"? 829 00:39:49,778 --> 00:39:51,563 -Yeah, real quick. -Brief moment. 830 00:39:51,563 --> 00:39:53,042 -This will drop before the... 831 00:39:53,042 --> 00:39:55,305 -All right. I got Kanye on there. 832 00:39:55,305 --> 00:39:57,699 -Mm-hmm. That's easy. -Yeah. 833 00:39:57,699 --> 00:39:59,222 -Dude, it was, like... 834 00:39:59,222 --> 00:40:01,747 There'd be a... There was a couch thing. 835 00:40:01,747 --> 00:40:03,313 There was, like, this big-ass couch thing, 836 00:40:03,313 --> 00:40:05,925 and, like, three people would sleep on the couch, 837 00:40:05,925 --> 00:40:08,928 and then people would just pass out in chairs. 838 00:40:08,928 --> 00:40:11,365 Like, it was some crazy shit. 839 00:40:11,365 --> 00:40:12,888 -And it was... 840 00:40:12,888 --> 00:40:15,761 Yeah, it was just, like, a big warehouse space. 841 00:40:15,761 --> 00:40:19,068 Like, we...Like, no one had any rooms, you know? 842 00:40:19,068 --> 00:40:20,940 Gus' shit was all in one corner, 843 00:40:20,940 --> 00:40:22,550 and Ed's shit was all in one corner, 844 00:40:22,550 --> 00:40:26,554 and Tracy had all his shit, you know, in one corner. 845 00:40:26,554 --> 00:40:30,428 When I say, "Debauchery," I mean debauchery, like, 846 00:40:30,428 --> 00:40:32,255 in the funnest sense of the word. 847 00:40:32,255 --> 00:40:34,736 Like, it was just a party. 848 00:40:34,736 --> 00:40:36,738 -Water. -And you'd go outside, 849 00:40:36,738 --> 00:40:40,133 and it's just, like, Skid Row, like, 850 00:40:40,133 --> 00:40:42,657 the purest form of Skid Row, 851 00:40:42,657 --> 00:40:47,706 you know, just, like, smells like human shit and human piss, 852 00:40:47,706 --> 00:40:50,622 and there's just tents everywhere. 853 00:40:50,622 --> 00:40:52,406 -Like, he liked living there, 854 00:40:52,406 --> 00:40:54,539 but it was definitely really hard for him because it was, 855 00:40:54,539 --> 00:40:57,585 like, there's just one bathroom, a whole bunch of people, 856 00:40:57,585 --> 00:40:59,457 and the floors were sticky as shit 857 00:40:59,457 --> 00:41:01,067 because of the night before. 858 00:41:01,067 --> 00:41:03,852 -♪ I could be your... ♪ 859 00:41:03,852 --> 00:41:05,463 -♪ Nigga, what the fuck you mean ♪ 860 00:41:05,463 --> 00:41:06,681 ♪ I'm dunking on your team ♪ 861 00:41:06,681 --> 00:41:08,553 ♪ You sending texts to her ♪ 862 00:41:08,553 --> 00:41:10,293 ♪ Yeah, I'm sitting next to her ♪ 863 00:41:10,293 --> 00:41:12,034 -It definitely is the new punk, 864 00:41:12,034 --> 00:41:17,431 and hip-hop has been the new punk ever since the '80s 865 00:41:17,431 --> 00:41:19,955 because it had moved away from rock, 866 00:41:19,955 --> 00:41:23,219 and punk isn't a type of music. 867 00:41:23,219 --> 00:41:24,220 It's an aesthetic. 868 00:41:24,220 --> 00:41:25,526 It's a energy. 869 00:41:25,526 --> 00:41:27,310 It's a attitude. 870 00:41:27,310 --> 00:41:31,663 Everything is kind of being homogenized to be rooted 871 00:41:31,663 --> 00:41:35,231 in current trap trends, you know, 872 00:41:35,231 --> 00:41:37,973 but then we have what Peep was doing 873 00:41:37,973 --> 00:41:42,674 kind of interlaced between this new trap. 874 00:41:44,893 --> 00:41:46,765 -♪ If you're scared ♪ 875 00:41:46,765 --> 00:41:48,418 -I apparently got a Wikipedia page. 876 00:41:48,418 --> 00:41:50,508 I was looking at my Wikipedia page. 877 00:41:50,508 --> 00:41:55,077 The genres was, like, alternative rock, like, R and B, 878 00:41:55,077 --> 00:41:59,255 hip-hop, trap, emo, pop punk, 879 00:41:59,255 --> 00:42:00,866 so they don't really know what to call me. 880 00:42:00,866 --> 00:42:02,824 You know what I mean? -♪ What you love ♪ 881 00:42:02,824 --> 00:42:04,696 -People don't realize actually how hard it is 882 00:42:04,696 --> 00:42:09,265 to take an established style of music or styles of music 883 00:42:09,265 --> 00:42:11,833 and combine them together and make them be something new, 884 00:42:11,833 --> 00:42:14,967 and that's what the greatest stars of the world did. 885 00:42:14,967 --> 00:42:17,317 You know, you can talk about Prince, for example, 886 00:42:17,317 --> 00:42:19,537 and if he's taking from the Beatles and Jimi Hendrix 887 00:42:19,537 --> 00:42:22,235 and Parliament and Funkadelic and others 888 00:42:22,235 --> 00:42:24,150 and mixing it together, and it becomes Prince. 889 00:42:24,150 --> 00:42:27,196 It's like Lil Peep was a guy who was fascinating to me 890 00:42:27,196 --> 00:42:29,634 because he was basically doing the same thing 891 00:42:29,634 --> 00:42:31,766 if he was taking Green Day and My Chemical Romance 892 00:42:31,766 --> 00:42:36,684 and his favorite trap and hip-hop music 893 00:42:36,684 --> 00:42:41,559 and marrying those styles to create something new. 894 00:42:41,559 --> 00:42:43,212 You got to kind of be a genius to be able 895 00:42:43,212 --> 00:42:45,737 to do that kind of stuff and make it work, and he was. 896 00:42:45,737 --> 00:42:47,869 -I mean, I've met people I thought were amazing, 897 00:42:47,869 --> 00:42:50,263 and I've had instincts where I'm like, 898 00:42:50,263 --> 00:42:53,745 "You're a star. You're a star," this, but this was, like, 899 00:42:53,745 --> 00:42:56,399 something much more, much deeper, 900 00:42:56,399 --> 00:42:57,923 and I knew that at the time. 901 00:42:57,923 --> 00:42:59,838 -♪ I always play that shit ♪ 902 00:42:59,838 --> 00:43:02,492 ♪ You ain't getting nothing that I'm saying ♪ 903 00:43:02,492 --> 00:43:04,407 ♪ Don't tell me you is ♪ 904 00:43:04,407 --> 00:43:07,236 ♪ Nothing like them other motherfuckers ♪ 905 00:43:07,236 --> 00:43:08,890 ♪ I can make you rich ♪ 906 00:43:08,890 --> 00:43:10,152 ♪ I can make you rich, I can make you rich ♪ 907 00:43:10,152 --> 00:43:12,067 -Peep was becoming the new guard 908 00:43:12,067 --> 00:43:14,069 of the L.A. underground scene. 909 00:43:14,069 --> 00:43:15,636 -♪ I can take you there, but, baby ♪ 910 00:43:15,636 --> 00:43:17,856 -It was so clear that he was gonna be, 911 00:43:17,856 --> 00:43:20,032 you know, the guy on top. 912 00:43:20,032 --> 00:43:23,078 -♪ And I don't want to make you sad ♪ 913 00:43:23,078 --> 00:43:24,732 -Eventually we... 914 00:43:24,732 --> 00:43:28,040 Josh Binder and a guy from my office 915 00:43:28,040 --> 00:43:30,999 had made an agreement with him. 916 00:43:30,999 --> 00:43:33,959 -Go meet with Sarah, and Sarah and I hit it off. 917 00:43:33,959 --> 00:43:36,614 She's amazing person, and she's like, 918 00:43:36,614 --> 00:43:39,007 "Look, I want to bring you in. 919 00:43:39,007 --> 00:43:41,270 I want to partner with Peep, 920 00:43:41,270 --> 00:43:43,359 and I want to bring you in as manager." 921 00:43:43,359 --> 00:43:47,407 When he told us about GBC, it's like, "That's great, 922 00:43:47,407 --> 00:43:49,278 but we're focused on you," and that's kind of... 923 00:43:49,278 --> 00:43:52,020 There was also tension between GBC and myself 924 00:43:52,020 --> 00:43:54,762 because my priority was Gus. 925 00:43:54,762 --> 00:43:58,157 When he moved, everybody gravitated towards his place, 926 00:43:58,157 --> 00:43:59,767 and his place, people would say all the time, 927 00:43:59,767 --> 00:44:01,464 "This is the new loft." 928 00:44:01,464 --> 00:44:03,641 20% of the time, he might have used his bed. 929 00:44:03,641 --> 00:44:05,251 It was, like, always, like... I'd go in. 930 00:44:05,251 --> 00:44:09,298 Like, Tracy, Con, Horsehead, everybody was, like... 931 00:44:09,298 --> 00:44:10,909 I'd go into his room looking for him, 932 00:44:10,909 --> 00:44:12,301 and I was like, "Who the fuck is this?" 933 00:44:12,301 --> 00:44:14,129 Like, it's just some random dude. 934 00:44:14,129 --> 00:44:16,218 [ Indistinct conversations ] 935 00:44:16,218 --> 00:44:22,921 ♪♪ 936 00:44:22,921 --> 00:44:29,579 ♪♪ 937 00:44:29,579 --> 00:44:31,364 [ Indistinct conversations ] 938 00:44:33,932 --> 00:44:35,324 -He called me, like, the next day like, 939 00:44:35,324 --> 00:44:37,675 "Yo, put another sample 940 00:44:37,675 --> 00:44:40,808 over that or find another Three Days Grace song," 941 00:44:40,808 --> 00:44:45,117 and I was like, "Really? Okay." 942 00:44:45,117 --> 00:44:46,771 And I did it. 943 00:44:46,771 --> 00:44:48,686 I found a cool one, and then I brought it to him. 944 00:44:52,341 --> 00:44:55,431 I was in the room laying on the, like, futon, 945 00:44:55,431 --> 00:44:57,390 a little futon they had like this, and they're recording. 946 00:44:57,390 --> 00:44:59,000 I'm, like, sick, having anxiety attack 947 00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:00,698 because I've been up so long, 948 00:45:00,698 --> 00:45:03,352 and, like, we're just doing too much. 949 00:45:03,352 --> 00:45:05,311 I'm, like, thinking in my head, like, "I'm going so hard 950 00:45:05,311 --> 00:45:06,965 making so many beats." 951 00:45:06,965 --> 00:45:10,577 And all of a sudden, I hear... ♪ Switchblades! ♪ 952 00:45:12,057 --> 00:45:13,754 I'm like, "Yo, what the fuck?" 953 00:45:23,721 --> 00:45:27,420 ♪ When I die, bury with me without the lights on ♪ 954 00:45:27,420 --> 00:45:28,813 ♪ Lights off ♪ 955 00:45:28,813 --> 00:45:30,423 ♪ Night-lights ♪ 956 00:45:30,423 --> 00:45:31,685 ♪ Clothes off ♪ 957 00:45:31,685 --> 00:45:33,992 ♪ Baby, I got good white ♪ 958 00:45:33,992 --> 00:45:36,646 ♪ When I die bury me with all my ice on ♪ 959 00:45:36,646 --> 00:45:41,042 ♪ When I die bury me without the lights on ♪ 960 00:45:41,042 --> 00:45:42,435 ♪ Lights off ♪ 961 00:45:42,435 --> 00:45:44,132 ♪ Night-lights ♪ 962 00:45:44,132 --> 00:45:45,307 ♪ Clothes off ♪ 963 00:45:45,307 --> 00:45:46,831 ♪ Baby, I got good white ♪ 964 00:45:46,831 --> 00:45:48,702 -When I heard that shit, I was blown away by it. 965 00:45:48,702 --> 00:45:50,573 I was like, "Damn, this white dude go hard." 966 00:45:50,573 --> 00:45:51,792 You know what I'm saying? 967 00:45:51,792 --> 00:45:53,489 So I start doing research on him. 968 00:45:53,489 --> 00:45:54,969 I'm like, "Where is he from?" just trying to find out 969 00:45:54,969 --> 00:45:56,623 some shit about it, man. You know what I'm saying? 970 00:45:56,623 --> 00:45:58,233 I was just happy to see that somebody 971 00:45:58,233 --> 00:46:00,322 actually stepped up to the plate and was like, 972 00:46:00,322 --> 00:46:01,976 "Fuck it. I'm gonna do my shit like this." 973 00:46:01,976 --> 00:46:03,891 -♪ Cocaine ♪ 974 00:46:03,891 --> 00:46:07,416 ♪ GothBoiClique make a ho shake ♪ 975 00:46:07,416 --> 00:46:09,114 ♪ Black fur ♪ 976 00:46:09,114 --> 00:46:10,768 ♪ Black coat ♪ 977 00:46:10,768 --> 00:46:14,075 ♪ GothBoiClique in the backhoe ♪ 978 00:46:14,075 --> 00:46:15,685 ♪ Switchblades ♪ 979 00:46:15,685 --> 00:46:17,296 ♪ Cocaine ♪ 980 00:46:17,296 --> 00:46:20,778 ♪ GothBoiClique till my soul take ♪ 981 00:46:20,778 --> 00:46:22,040 ♪ Black Jeans ♪ 982 00:46:22,040 --> 00:46:23,781 ♪ Half black hoes ♪ 983 00:46:23,781 --> 00:46:26,871 ♪ GothBoiClique in the castle ♪ 984 00:46:26,871 --> 00:46:28,481 -GothBoiClique. 985 00:46:28,481 --> 00:46:30,613 GothBoiClique. 986 00:46:30,613 --> 00:46:32,790 -Friends forever, man. 987 00:46:32,790 --> 00:46:34,052 -No, you got to get a picture 988 00:46:34,052 --> 00:46:35,793 doing the same picture next to us. 989 00:46:40,058 --> 00:46:41,711 -Know what I'm saying? I like this. 990 00:46:41,711 --> 00:46:43,583 "The all-American reject you'll hate to love." 991 00:46:43,583 --> 00:46:46,020 -You think a lot of people used to doubt you? 992 00:46:46,020 --> 00:46:47,413 -I used to doubt myself. 993 00:46:47,413 --> 00:46:48,893 Now I don't anymore. 994 00:46:48,893 --> 00:46:51,069 -Dude, I don't think anybody realized, 995 00:46:51,069 --> 00:46:54,159 like, what was happening while it was happening, you know? 996 00:46:54,159 --> 00:46:56,639 And that's why, like, now I try to put the timeline 997 00:46:56,639 --> 00:47:00,513 on everything that happened, and this shit is a blur to me. 998 00:47:00,513 --> 00:47:03,646 [ Indistinct conversations ] 999 00:47:03,646 --> 00:47:06,693 -2,500 people at the first show. 1000 00:47:06,693 --> 00:47:08,260 [ Laughter ] 1001 00:47:08,260 --> 00:47:11,480 -Watching him sell out 3,000 people in Russia 1002 00:47:11,480 --> 00:47:15,006 with no radio record ever, never being there before, 1003 00:47:15,006 --> 00:47:19,488 3,000 kids singing every single fucking lyric, 1004 00:47:19,488 --> 00:47:21,708 headliner, no support, 1005 00:47:21,708 --> 00:47:25,973 none of that shit, like, insane. 1006 00:47:25,973 --> 00:47:27,888 -Sold out London. 1007 00:47:27,888 --> 00:47:30,456 Sold out Belgium. 1008 00:47:30,456 --> 00:47:32,153 Sold out Russia. 1009 00:47:32,153 --> 00:47:34,634 Sold out Berlin. 1010 00:47:34,634 --> 00:47:36,027 Sold out your mom. 1011 00:47:36,027 --> 00:47:37,115 -♪ Cash out ♪ 1012 00:47:37,115 --> 00:47:38,377 ♪ I get on the stage ♪ 1013 00:47:38,377 --> 00:47:39,900 ♪ And I rap till I pass out ♪ 1014 00:47:39,900 --> 00:47:41,162 ♪ Hit another city and another city ♪ 1015 00:47:41,162 --> 00:47:42,772 ♪ I'm just grooving ♪ 1016 00:47:42,772 --> 00:47:44,296 ♪ I was trying to tell you I was losing ♪ 1017 00:47:44,296 --> 00:47:46,167 ♪ I was gonna tell you I'm improving ♪ 1018 00:47:46,167 --> 00:47:47,952 ♪ I done caught a vibe she was choosing ♪ 1019 00:47:47,952 --> 00:47:49,823 ♪ Got to keep my pride, I'm a general ♪ 1020 00:47:49,823 --> 00:47:51,651 ♪ Got to keep it real with some criminals ♪ 1021 00:47:51,651 --> 00:47:53,305 ♪ Got to keep my focus, I'm phenomenal ♪ 1022 00:47:53,305 --> 00:47:55,829 -We get off the plane and totally did not expect. 1023 00:47:55,829 --> 00:47:59,267 There was just, like, hundreds of fans waiting for him. 1024 00:47:59,267 --> 00:48:00,790 I don't know how they knew what flight. 1025 00:48:00,790 --> 00:48:03,532 I don't know how they knew where to find us, 1026 00:48:03,532 --> 00:48:05,883 but they were there with signs and gifts, 1027 00:48:05,883 --> 00:48:09,277 and there was crying, and there was screaming, 1028 00:48:09,277 --> 00:48:11,236 and I was like, "Chase, is this normal? 1029 00:48:11,236 --> 00:48:13,455 Like, is this gonna happen a lot?" 1030 00:48:13,455 --> 00:48:16,763 And, like, he's like, "Yeah, probably," 1031 00:48:16,763 --> 00:48:18,504 And to be honest, it did. 1032 00:48:18,504 --> 00:48:22,334 Everywhere we went in Russia, it became a spectacle. 1033 00:48:22,334 --> 00:48:24,249 -♪ Stacks hid inside the mattress ♪ 1034 00:48:24,249 --> 00:48:26,207 ♪ Racks hid inside the mattress ♪ 1035 00:48:26,207 --> 00:48:27,905 ♪ Packs hid inside the mattress ♪ 1036 00:48:27,905 --> 00:48:29,558 ♪ Ganks hid inside the mattress ♪ 1037 00:48:29,558 --> 00:48:31,473 ♪ Vert dipping through traffic ♪ 1038 00:48:31,473 --> 00:48:33,301 ♪ I'm getting better I'm at practice ♪ 1039 00:48:33,301 --> 00:48:34,737 ♪ I'm working every day, crafting ♪ 1040 00:48:34,737 --> 00:48:37,131 ♪ I'm cool on her, I done had her ♪ 1041 00:48:37,131 --> 00:48:39,046 ♪ Bounce back with a millio ♪ 1042 00:48:39,046 --> 00:48:40,874 ♪ Hit a island like Gilligan ♪ 1043 00:48:40,874 --> 00:48:42,571 ♪ Not just a regular civilian ♪ 1044 00:48:42,571 --> 00:48:44,922 ♪ I ride for the squad, I'm a champion ♪ 1045 00:48:44,922 --> 00:48:46,662 ♪ Remember we hit up the highway ♪ 1046 00:48:46,662 --> 00:48:50,101 ♪ We got us a stash spot, remember as we touch down ♪ 1047 00:48:50,101 --> 00:48:53,278 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1048 00:48:53,278 --> 00:48:55,845 -We love Lil Peep. 1049 00:48:55,845 --> 00:48:58,370 We love... -[ Speaks Russian ] 1050 00:48:58,370 --> 00:49:03,897 -We stay here for 10 hours, 10 hours. 1051 00:49:03,897 --> 00:49:05,943 We stay here. 1052 00:49:05,943 --> 00:49:09,729 We love very much. 1053 00:49:09,729 --> 00:49:14,429 -This music in my friend's site, and I really enjoyed it. 1054 00:49:14,429 --> 00:49:18,303 It's really interesting, and I don't know. 1055 00:49:18,303 --> 00:49:21,610 When I listen to his music, I'm really enjoyed. 1056 00:49:21,610 --> 00:49:23,177 I like...I want to paint. 1057 00:49:23,177 --> 00:49:26,964 I want to do something, and it's really cool. 1058 00:49:26,964 --> 00:49:28,052 His music is really cool. 1059 00:49:28,052 --> 00:49:30,924 -♪ Baby, make me scream ♪ 1060 00:49:30,924 --> 00:49:35,363 ♪ I would blow my brains out just for you ♪ 1061 00:49:37,322 --> 00:49:41,326 ♪ And honestly, to tell you the truth ♪ 1062 00:49:42,805 --> 00:49:45,156 ♪ I'd still blow my brains out ♪ 1063 00:49:45,156 --> 00:49:46,896 -Oh! 1064 00:49:46,896 --> 00:49:47,941 -Kill it! -Kill! 1065 00:49:47,941 --> 00:49:49,421 -Kill the spider! 1066 00:49:49,421 --> 00:49:50,770 No, kill it because we're in a play booth. 1067 00:49:50,770 --> 00:49:52,772 -Cheers. -[ Speaks Russian ] 1068 00:49:52,772 --> 00:49:54,948 -Uh, I'm gonna hold off. -[ Speaks Russian ] 1069 00:49:54,948 --> 00:49:57,820 -He's on Xanax. 1070 00:49:57,820 --> 00:49:59,648 -It's not... I don't know if you guys know, 1071 00:49:59,648 --> 00:50:01,563 but you shouldn't mix Xanax and alcohol. 1072 00:50:03,522 --> 00:50:06,525 -It was funny because, like, kids from Kazakhstan and, 1073 00:50:06,525 --> 00:50:10,268 like, territories that, like, I would've never imagined 1074 00:50:10,268 --> 00:50:13,401 came really far away to come to that show, 1075 00:50:13,401 --> 00:50:15,882 and, like, that was really, like, kind of eye-opening to me 1076 00:50:15,882 --> 00:50:18,319 that he was more than just, like, 1077 00:50:18,319 --> 00:50:20,365 a guy that's big in Russia. Like, you know what I mean? 1078 00:50:20,365 --> 00:50:22,541 Like, kids making these long-ass bus rides 1079 00:50:22,541 --> 00:50:23,846 to come in and see this show, 1080 00:50:23,846 --> 00:50:25,457 I think that speaks volumes of, like, 1081 00:50:25,457 --> 00:50:29,461 where he was already at that point of his career. 1082 00:50:29,461 --> 00:50:32,638 [ Camera shutter clicks ] 1083 00:50:32,638 --> 00:50:35,293 -Is your biggest fan. Biggest fan. 1084 00:50:35,293 --> 00:50:37,164 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1085 00:50:37,164 --> 00:50:38,687 [ Camera shutter clicks ] 1086 00:50:38,687 --> 00:50:41,995 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1087 00:50:41,995 --> 00:50:43,301 -You guys coming to the show? 1088 00:50:43,301 --> 00:50:44,650 -Yes. Yes, of course. 1089 00:50:44,650 --> 00:50:48,697 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1090 00:50:48,697 --> 00:50:50,177 -If you got any friends that need to get in, 1091 00:50:50,177 --> 00:50:52,049 we can put them on the guest list, too. 1092 00:50:52,049 --> 00:50:53,963 -We don't have any friends. -No? 1093 00:50:53,963 --> 00:50:56,183 -No. -And so far away, right? 1094 00:50:56,183 --> 00:50:57,880 -Yes. 1095 00:50:57,880 --> 00:50:59,360 -You guys are brothers? -We're all brothers. 1096 00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:00,535 -You're brothers? -Yeah. 1097 00:51:00,535 --> 00:51:04,017 -You're all brothers? -Yes. 1098 00:51:04,017 --> 00:51:05,801 -You guys fight a lot? 1099 00:51:05,801 --> 00:51:08,630 -Yeah. -Yes. 1100 00:51:08,630 --> 00:51:11,546 -Sometimes. 1101 00:51:11,546 --> 00:51:12,678 -Yeah. 1102 00:51:12,678 --> 00:51:14,767 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1103 00:51:18,814 --> 00:51:21,643 -Oh, that's great. 1104 00:51:21,643 --> 00:51:23,993 I have a brother two years older than me. 1105 00:51:23,993 --> 00:51:27,736 -Yeah? Great. -Yeah. We fight a lot. 1106 00:51:27,736 --> 00:51:29,086 -You're excited for the show tonight? 1107 00:51:29,086 --> 00:51:31,000 -Yeah, oh, yeah. -Okay. 1108 00:51:31,000 --> 00:51:33,438 -Hey, so we're gonna go to the club 1109 00:51:33,438 --> 00:51:37,572 and drop the stuff off and then go from the club... 1110 00:51:37,572 --> 00:51:39,748 The venue is really close to the club, 1111 00:51:39,748 --> 00:51:42,099 so we can drop all the stuff, do a quick check. 1112 00:51:43,404 --> 00:51:47,321 -♪ I see your face when I look out the window ♪ 1113 00:51:47,321 --> 00:51:49,367 ♪ Yeah ♪ 1114 00:51:49,367 --> 00:51:53,632 ♪ I think about her every time I sniff blow ♪ 1115 00:51:53,632 --> 00:51:55,938 ♪ Yeah ♪ 1116 00:51:55,938 --> 00:51:59,594 ♪ If you love me, hit me up on the flip phone ♪ 1117 00:51:59,594 --> 00:52:01,596 ♪ Yeah ♪ 1118 00:52:01,596 --> 00:52:05,905 ♪ I'm dying, I don't think that my bitch know ♪ 1119 00:52:05,905 --> 00:52:06,993 ♪ Yeah ♪ 1120 00:52:06,993 --> 00:52:08,951 ♪ Bitch know I'm dying ♪ 1121 00:52:08,951 --> 00:52:11,563 ♪ I don't think that my bitch know ♪ 1122 00:52:11,563 --> 00:52:13,173 -All right! Let's do one more! 1123 00:52:13,173 --> 00:52:15,088 -Yeah, yeah. 1124 00:52:15,088 --> 00:52:18,918 -Trying to put some cocaine in my already bleeding nostril. 1125 00:52:18,918 --> 00:52:20,789 -Do you have to shit? 1126 00:52:20,789 --> 00:52:22,400 -Yeah, this coke is gonna make me bleed. 1127 00:52:22,400 --> 00:52:24,228 -Oh, you're gonna have to deuce, man. 1128 00:52:24,228 --> 00:52:26,143 You're gonna have to deuce, man, deuce, man. 1129 00:52:26,143 --> 00:52:27,666 -It's gonna be a shit show tonight. 1130 00:52:27,666 --> 00:52:29,581 -That fucking Indian food is already bleeding 1131 00:52:29,581 --> 00:52:30,669 out of me, dude. 1132 00:52:30,669 --> 00:52:33,411 -And you...cocaine? 1133 00:52:33,411 --> 00:52:34,847 -♪ Curry ♪ 1134 00:52:34,847 --> 00:52:36,414 ♪ Cocaine ♪ 1135 00:52:36,414 --> 00:52:38,372 ♪ Curry ♪ 1136 00:52:38,372 --> 00:52:40,896 -Cigarettes make me shit, too. -You should smoke a whole... 1137 00:52:40,896 --> 00:52:44,248 -My hair is dead as fuck, bro. 1138 00:52:44,248 --> 00:52:46,815 It's fucking dead. -It feels so fucked. 1139 00:52:46,815 --> 00:52:48,165 -It is. It's like straw. 1140 00:52:48,165 --> 00:52:49,905 -It's gonna all fall out. 1141 00:52:49,905 --> 00:52:52,517 -Dude, it is falling out. 1142 00:52:52,517 --> 00:52:54,519 -Maybe you should just condition it once. 1143 00:52:54,519 --> 00:52:57,435 -♪ Switchblades ♪ -I do. I do. 1144 00:52:57,435 --> 00:53:02,004 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1145 00:53:02,004 --> 00:53:04,616 -And, oh, shit! 1146 00:53:04,616 --> 00:53:06,487 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1147 00:53:10,839 --> 00:53:13,146 -[ Speaking indistinctly ] 1148 00:53:13,146 --> 00:53:14,756 [ Cheers and applause ] 1149 00:53:14,756 --> 00:53:19,848 ♪♪ 1150 00:53:19,848 --> 00:53:24,940 ♪♪ 1151 00:53:24,940 --> 00:53:27,029 [ Cheers and applause continue ] 1152 00:53:27,029 --> 00:53:32,252 ♪♪ 1153 00:53:32,252 --> 00:53:37,475 ♪♪ 1154 00:53:37,475 --> 00:53:41,827 [ Cheers and applause intensify ] 1155 00:53:41,827 --> 00:53:44,873 -What? 1156 00:53:44,873 --> 00:53:47,659 Everybody say, "GothBoiClique." 1157 00:53:47,659 --> 00:53:49,487 -GothBoiClique! -GothBoiClique! 1158 00:53:49,487 --> 00:53:50,792 -GothBoiClique! 1159 00:53:50,792 --> 00:53:52,707 -GothBoiClique! -GothBoiClique! 1160 00:53:52,707 --> 00:53:54,056 -Yeah! 1161 00:53:54,056 --> 00:53:56,189 [ Audience chanting "GothBoiClique" ] 1162 00:54:03,283 --> 00:54:07,679 -He believed in equality in a way 1163 00:54:07,679 --> 00:54:10,421 I think that he maybe struggled with the idea 1164 00:54:10,421 --> 00:54:13,902 that all things aren't equal, that you... 1165 00:54:13,902 --> 00:54:15,426 even just with the concept 1166 00:54:15,426 --> 00:54:19,647 that you have to rise above means you're... 1167 00:54:19,647 --> 00:54:20,996 All things aren't equal. 1168 00:54:20,996 --> 00:54:23,608 You can't be equal with your friends. 1169 00:54:23,608 --> 00:54:25,218 That's why he'd give away a lot of things 1170 00:54:25,218 --> 00:54:27,089 and allow people to share, 1171 00:54:27,089 --> 00:54:30,223 to live in his house and allow people to share all his stuff 1172 00:54:30,223 --> 00:54:32,573 and give away his money 1173 00:54:32,573 --> 00:54:36,229 because he believed in that concept. 1174 00:54:36,229 --> 00:54:39,145 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1175 00:54:39,145 --> 00:54:44,019 -He was anxious about not being able to be enough for everyone 1176 00:54:44,019 --> 00:54:47,675 and that everybody just wanted so much from him. 1177 00:54:47,675 --> 00:54:49,155 This apartment is because of him. 1178 00:54:49,155 --> 00:54:52,071 He paid my rent in August, and I didn't ask, 1179 00:54:52,071 --> 00:54:54,073 but he knew my money was bad, 1180 00:54:54,073 --> 00:54:55,988 and he just... He had bought... 1181 00:54:55,988 --> 00:54:58,904 It was the day he bought that triple-pendant diamond chain. 1182 00:54:58,904 --> 00:55:01,776 -Everyone was experiencing it for the first time, 1183 00:55:01,776 --> 00:55:04,953 didn't understand how anything worked. 1184 00:55:04,953 --> 00:55:07,608 They just...Yeah, they thought that Peep had 1185 00:55:07,608 --> 00:55:11,133 this endless supply of money, and he has this credit card. 1186 00:55:11,133 --> 00:55:12,874 He can use it whenever, and I don't think 1187 00:55:12,874 --> 00:55:14,528 Peep understood how it worked either. 1188 00:55:14,528 --> 00:55:16,008 Like, I don't think Peep was conscious of the fact 1189 00:55:16,008 --> 00:55:17,836 that what he's spending he had to make back, 1190 00:55:17,836 --> 00:55:19,272 you know, but, like, no one was 1191 00:55:19,272 --> 00:55:20,969 because everyone was learning for the first time. 1192 00:55:20,969 --> 00:55:22,623 Everyone was so young. 1193 00:55:22,623 --> 00:55:26,018 Like, this is not a good situation of all these kids 1194 00:55:26,018 --> 00:55:27,889 being dependent on him like this. 1195 00:55:27,889 --> 00:55:30,239 Like, this is gonna end up bad. 1196 00:55:30,239 --> 00:55:35,593 ♪♪ 1197 00:55:35,593 --> 00:55:37,203 -This is the grandson of someone 1198 00:55:37,203 --> 00:55:40,032 that was part of leftist causes around the fucking world. 1199 00:55:42,295 --> 00:55:45,211 His grandfather fucking has the Medal of fucking Freedom 1200 00:55:45,211 --> 00:55:49,607 from the fucking Mexico City workers union. 1201 00:55:49,607 --> 00:55:52,610 Like, he went there and became one of them, 1202 00:55:52,610 --> 00:55:55,830 and it's almost kind of like what Peep did. 1203 00:55:55,830 --> 00:55:59,486 He came here and became one of the kids. 1204 00:55:59,486 --> 00:56:02,054 -He had very big plans. 1205 00:56:02,054 --> 00:56:04,273 You know, he said he wanted to take capitalism 1206 00:56:04,273 --> 00:56:07,189 out of the music industry, 1207 00:56:07,189 --> 00:56:12,760 not just revolutionize music as it sounds but revolutionize, 1208 00:56:12,760 --> 00:56:16,634 make a revolution, like, change the structure 1209 00:56:16,634 --> 00:56:20,115 of the power structure of who was controlling it. 1210 00:56:20,115 --> 00:56:24,032 He was so excited by that. 1211 00:56:24,032 --> 00:56:26,687 But I do think that he was kind of wrestling 1212 00:56:26,687 --> 00:56:34,303 with the materialism of the entertainment business, 1213 00:56:34,303 --> 00:56:36,436 I guess you could call it. 1214 00:56:36,436 --> 00:56:39,918 He came home in August, you know, saying, 1215 00:56:39,918 --> 00:56:43,400 "Oh, you know, and capitalism, and it's just awful, 1216 00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:45,793 and look at how they make these decisions about me 1217 00:56:45,793 --> 00:56:48,100 and the way I look, and it's just all wrong, 1218 00:56:48,100 --> 00:56:50,319 and I just... You know, I got to be... 1219 00:56:50,319 --> 00:56:52,713 These are my bros and my brothers, 1220 00:56:52,713 --> 00:56:54,715 and I just want to just make music, 1221 00:56:54,715 --> 00:56:58,110 and we all help each other, and it's a collective, Mama." 1222 00:56:58,110 --> 00:57:01,461 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1223 00:57:01,461 --> 00:57:04,595 It kind of was tied to, 1224 00:57:04,595 --> 00:57:08,642 you know, a sense of justice that he has. 1225 00:57:08,642 --> 00:57:15,127 -The guilt of being... having more, more charisma, 1226 00:57:15,127 --> 00:57:21,786 more talent, more, you know, everything. 1227 00:57:21,786 --> 00:57:24,092 [ "Interlude" playing ] 1228 00:57:24,092 --> 00:57:32,449 ♪♪ 1229 00:57:32,449 --> 00:57:40,761 ♪♪ 1230 00:57:40,761 --> 00:57:49,117 ♪♪ 1231 00:57:49,117 --> 00:57:51,772 ♪ Two racks on my new shoes ♪ 1232 00:57:51,772 --> 00:57:53,731 ♪ Why the fuck I do that ♪ 1233 00:57:53,731 --> 00:57:56,211 ♪ Tell me, why the fuck do I do that ♪ 1234 00:57:56,211 --> 00:57:58,431 ♪ Two racks on some Gucci shoes ♪ 1235 00:57:58,431 --> 00:58:00,564 ♪ Why the fuck do I do that ♪ 1236 00:58:00,564 --> 00:58:02,870 ♪ Tell them why the fuck I do that ♪ 1237 00:58:02,870 --> 00:58:05,220 ♪ Who's that, Wish you were in a room ♪ 1238 00:58:05,220 --> 00:58:07,396 ♪ Why the fuck do you do that ♪ 1239 00:58:07,396 --> 00:58:09,573 ♪ Tell me, why the fuck do you do that ♪ 1240 00:58:09,573 --> 00:58:12,140 ♪ Girl, you know that I'm a die real soon ♪ 1241 00:58:12,140 --> 00:58:14,316 ♪ Why the fuck do you do that ♪ 1242 00:58:14,316 --> 00:58:17,668 ♪ Tell me, why the fuck do you do that ♪ 1243 00:58:17,668 --> 00:58:21,062 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1244 00:58:21,149 --> 00:58:24,326 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1245 00:58:24,413 --> 00:58:27,852 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1246 00:58:27,852 --> 00:58:30,071 ♪ She just want me for the coke drip ♪ 1247 00:58:30,071 --> 00:58:31,551 ♪ Yeah ♪ 1248 00:58:31,551 --> 00:58:34,772 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1249 00:58:34,859 --> 00:58:38,166 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1250 00:58:38,253 --> 00:58:40,995 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1251 00:58:40,995 --> 00:58:45,086 ♪ She just want me for the coke drip ♪ 1252 00:58:45,086 --> 00:58:48,437 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1253 00:58:48,525 --> 00:58:51,919 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1254 00:58:52,006 --> 00:58:55,401 ♪ Give me a break from all this bullshit ♪ 1255 00:58:55,401 --> 00:58:57,055 ♪ Give me a break ♪ 1256 00:58:57,142 --> 00:58:58,709 ♪ Give me a break ♪ 1257 00:59:03,017 --> 00:59:05,716 -Dear Gus, believe me. 1258 00:59:05,716 --> 00:59:10,677 I know things about boys a mother cannot know. 1259 00:59:10,677 --> 00:59:14,159 She's learning it now from Oskar and you, 1260 00:59:14,159 --> 00:59:16,509 but I already know it, having lived through it 1261 00:59:16,509 --> 00:59:19,556 and learned it from Alfred. 1262 00:59:19,556 --> 00:59:25,779 I can tell you, I see pure gold in you. 1263 00:59:25,779 --> 00:59:28,956 It's not just success. 1264 00:59:28,956 --> 00:59:32,220 Actually, it's not success at all. 1265 00:59:32,220 --> 00:59:36,703 It's the good we do, the good you can do, 1266 00:59:36,703 --> 00:59:40,054 the good I believe you will do, 1267 00:59:40,054 --> 00:59:43,362 the good you don't understand now, 1268 00:59:43,362 --> 00:59:45,146 can't see now 1269 00:59:45,146 --> 00:59:50,151 but will see better and better as you get older. 1270 00:59:50,151 --> 00:59:55,896 There's tremendous strength in this kind of work, 1271 00:59:55,896 --> 00:59:59,421 the kind that moves mountains. 1272 00:59:59,421 --> 01:00:02,250 It's a strength that comes purely from a deep, 1273 01:00:02,250 --> 01:00:05,427 special kind of yearning, 1274 01:00:05,427 --> 01:00:10,563 a yearning for making things right, a yearning for justice. 1275 01:00:13,784 --> 01:00:16,613 I'm sorry about your bike being stolen. 1276 01:00:16,613 --> 01:00:19,224 Let's just say, without planning to do it, 1277 01:00:19,224 --> 01:00:23,141 we gave it for Christmas to a poor kid, 1278 01:00:23,141 --> 01:00:24,621 but while I'm in this world, 1279 01:00:24,621 --> 01:00:26,318 you're not gonna go without a real 1280 01:00:26,318 --> 01:00:28,059 Christmas present. 1281 01:00:28,059 --> 01:00:30,452 Even if it's not the same kind of little bike, 1282 01:00:30,452 --> 01:00:32,629 we'll get you some wheels. 1283 01:00:32,629 --> 01:00:37,546 Only remember, the best presents aren't things, material things, 1284 01:00:37,546 --> 01:00:42,377 but qualities, experiences we cannot lose. 1285 01:00:42,377 --> 01:00:45,772 You, your mom and Oskar and Alfred 1286 01:00:45,772 --> 01:00:49,820 coming to see me at Christmas was by far the best present 1287 01:00:49,820 --> 01:00:51,822 I could have. 1288 01:00:51,822 --> 01:00:53,998 I can't lose it. 1289 01:00:53,998 --> 01:00:57,697 It's in a better place even than my memory. 1290 01:00:57,697 --> 01:01:01,266 It's in the memory of my heart. 1291 01:01:01,266 --> 01:01:05,139 Is there any particular Johnny Cash CD you'd like? 1292 01:01:05,139 --> 01:01:07,794 I hope you stay warm and well. 1293 01:01:07,794 --> 01:01:09,970 Study hard. Be good. 1294 01:01:09,970 --> 01:01:11,755 Hasta febrero. 1295 01:01:11,755 --> 01:01:14,366 Love, your grandpa, Pack Ack. 1296 01:01:14,366 --> 01:01:20,024 ♪♪ 1297 01:01:20,024 --> 01:01:25,682 ♪♪ 1298 01:01:25,682 --> 01:01:28,859 -I think there were two people. 1299 01:01:28,859 --> 01:01:32,297 There was Gus, and there was Lil Peep, 1300 01:01:32,297 --> 01:01:34,778 and I think a lot of us have that kind of duality, 1301 01:01:34,778 --> 01:01:38,216 but with him, it happened to have a name, 1302 01:01:38,216 --> 01:01:42,873 and I think he would... His nature, one side, 1303 01:01:42,873 --> 01:01:44,613 he would be the kid who was like, 1304 01:01:44,613 --> 01:01:46,311 "I want a sanctuary. I don't want to party. 1305 01:01:46,311 --> 01:01:48,400 I want to hang out and just be chill," 1306 01:01:48,400 --> 01:01:52,186 and who was completely sweet and, you know, 1307 01:01:52,186 --> 01:01:54,362 just, like, an amazing human being, 1308 01:01:54,362 --> 01:01:56,364 and then you have this other person 1309 01:01:56,364 --> 01:02:01,195 that's way more flamboyant, way more reckless. 1310 01:02:01,195 --> 01:02:02,675 It was like this daredevil 1311 01:02:02,675 --> 01:02:05,722 that he would go harder than anybody else. 1312 01:02:05,722 --> 01:02:07,898 Everyone was doing blow or pills. 1313 01:02:07,898 --> 01:02:10,727 He was going to out-blow everybody. 1314 01:02:10,727 --> 01:02:12,685 He was just...He went hard. 1315 01:02:12,685 --> 01:02:14,382 -Give me that bottle. Grab that bottle. 1316 01:02:14,382 --> 01:02:15,862 Grab that bottle. 1317 01:02:15,862 --> 01:02:18,256 -What bottle, Tuck? -The Hennessy bottle. 1318 01:02:18,256 --> 01:02:20,649 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1319 01:02:27,047 --> 01:02:29,136 -The fam is back. The fam is back. 1320 01:02:29,136 --> 01:02:30,703 The money pops, as you can see, baby. 1321 01:02:30,703 --> 01:02:33,793 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1322 01:02:33,793 --> 01:02:36,361 -♪ I don't want to die alone right now ♪ 1323 01:02:36,361 --> 01:02:39,712 ♪ But I admit I do sometimes ♪ 1324 01:02:39,712 --> 01:02:42,062 ♪ These drugs are calling me ♪ 1325 01:02:42,062 --> 01:02:43,760 ♪ Do one more line ♪ 1326 01:02:43,760 --> 01:02:46,980 ♪ Don't fall asleep ♪ 1327 01:02:46,980 --> 01:02:49,069 ♪ This is the song they played ♪ 1328 01:02:49,069 --> 01:02:53,508 ♪ When I crashed into the wall ♪ 1329 01:02:53,508 --> 01:02:56,120 ♪ This is the girl I told that ♪ 1330 01:02:56,120 --> 01:02:59,950 ♪ We could have it all ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 1331 01:02:59,950 --> 01:03:01,429 -Dude, once you become successful, 1332 01:03:01,429 --> 01:03:03,605 I mean, no matter, like, what field it's in, 1333 01:03:03,605 --> 01:03:07,871 but, I mean, especially music, it's, "What do you want? 1334 01:03:07,871 --> 01:03:09,437 And how much of it do you want? 1335 01:03:09,437 --> 01:03:11,439 Because I can have it here right now," 1336 01:03:11,439 --> 01:03:14,138 and if you are the star of the party, 1337 01:03:14,138 --> 01:03:17,968 all anybody wants to do is give you what you want. 1338 01:03:17,968 --> 01:03:20,231 You can have as much of whatever. 1339 01:03:20,231 --> 01:03:21,623 You know? You like girls? Here you go. 1340 01:03:21,623 --> 01:03:23,060 You like blow? Here you go. 1341 01:03:23,060 --> 01:03:25,323 You like alcohol? Here you go. 1342 01:03:25,323 --> 01:03:27,368 -Everyone wanted to feed him drugs and, you know, 1343 01:03:27,368 --> 01:03:30,067 they wanted him to like them and, you know, like, 1344 01:03:30,067 --> 01:03:31,677 "Oh, you're gonna feel so good," whatever. 1345 01:03:31,677 --> 01:03:34,680 I saw people offering him drugs all day and night. 1346 01:03:36,073 --> 01:03:38,727 -Came with the acid, look! 1347 01:03:38,727 --> 01:03:40,555 [ Speaks indistinctly ] 1348 01:03:44,081 --> 01:03:45,647 -But, like, it would slow down, 1349 01:03:45,647 --> 01:03:46,953 and that's why it would be difficult 1350 01:03:46,953 --> 01:03:48,476 because, like, I would tell Chase, 1351 01:03:48,476 --> 01:03:50,652 "Okay, yeah, he does drugs." 1352 01:03:50,652 --> 01:03:53,264 But then Chase would come and be like, 1353 01:03:53,264 --> 01:03:56,397 "Okay, yeah," like, "You have a problem," like, 1354 01:03:56,397 --> 01:03:58,312 "You're an addict. You're this. You're that," like, 1355 01:03:58,312 --> 01:04:00,184 "Layla is telling me that you're doing drugs," and he's like, 1356 01:04:00,184 --> 01:04:02,099 "Okay, well, I can stop. I don't have to do drugs," 1357 01:04:02,099 --> 01:04:03,143 and then, like, a week would go by. 1358 01:04:03,143 --> 01:04:04,841 He wouldn't do drugs. 1359 01:04:04,841 --> 01:04:06,712 Like, he really could stop, and he wouldn't do them, 1360 01:04:06,712 --> 01:04:10,020 but, like, when he did do them, it would sometimes be excessive. 1361 01:04:10,020 --> 01:04:13,327 -Mike is on the bed. 1362 01:04:13,327 --> 01:04:14,720 -Get the fuck out. 1363 01:04:14,720 --> 01:04:19,812 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1364 01:04:19,812 --> 01:04:23,120 [ Girls screaming ] 1365 01:04:23,120 --> 01:04:24,904 [ "Hellboy" playing ] 1366 01:04:24,904 --> 01:04:29,169 ♪♪ 1367 01:04:29,169 --> 01:04:32,433 -♪ You don't even know what I've been through ♪ 1368 01:04:32,433 --> 01:04:36,524 ♪ You don't gotta like me, ya bitch do ♪ 1369 01:04:36,524 --> 01:04:39,440 ♪ Blowing up my phone like, "I miss you" ♪ 1370 01:04:39,440 --> 01:04:42,574 ♪ You know I love you by the way that I kiss you ♪ 1371 01:04:42,574 --> 01:04:45,664 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1372 01:04:45,664 --> 01:04:47,884 -Then we finished the tour, 1373 01:04:47,884 --> 01:04:50,887 the last few dates in Seattle. 1374 01:04:50,887 --> 01:04:52,714 Then there was, like, a day or two off, 1375 01:04:52,714 --> 01:04:56,327 and then there was the end L.A. show. 1376 01:04:56,327 --> 01:05:00,244 -Watch out, vehicle stopped on shoulder ahead. 1377 01:05:00,244 --> 01:05:01,680 -♪ Fuck the flag ♪ 1378 01:05:01,680 --> 01:05:05,423 ♪♪ 1379 01:05:05,423 --> 01:05:07,599 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1380 01:05:08,730 --> 01:05:11,298 [ Laughter ] 1381 01:05:14,432 --> 01:05:19,176 -He had been touring around the country and the world, 1382 01:05:19,176 --> 01:05:23,832 and I was excited to finally see him in Los Angeles after, 1383 01:05:23,832 --> 01:05:27,924 you know, his rise as a young independent artist, 1384 01:05:27,924 --> 01:05:32,406 and I think I got to the show maybe a half an hour 1385 01:05:32,406 --> 01:05:35,932 before he was supposed to go on, 1386 01:05:35,932 --> 01:05:40,762 and Chase comes over to me, and he said, 1387 01:05:40,762 --> 01:05:43,374 "I was thinking about canceling the show," 1388 01:05:43,374 --> 01:05:45,376 and I said, "Why?" 1389 01:05:45,376 --> 01:05:48,466 And he goes, "'Cause I think Peep might 1390 01:05:48,466 --> 01:05:51,556 have taken a little too much of something," 1391 01:05:51,556 --> 01:05:54,428 and I was like, "That's not good." 1392 01:05:54,428 --> 01:05:58,780 And all of a sudden, everybody kind of empties the backstage, 1393 01:05:58,780 --> 01:06:02,262 and I think there's about 5 minutes before showtime. 1394 01:06:02,262 --> 01:06:04,090 Chase runs and, you know, 1395 01:06:04,090 --> 01:06:07,180 tries to get the stage ready, and we're in the stairwell, 1396 01:06:07,180 --> 01:06:09,617 and it's just Peep and I, and Peep looks at me. 1397 01:06:09,617 --> 01:06:12,838 He goes, "I don't know if I can do this," 1398 01:06:12,838 --> 01:06:16,537 and I was like..."Okay." 1399 01:06:16,537 --> 01:06:19,584 Um... and some guy opens the door, 1400 01:06:19,584 --> 01:06:23,762 and he goes, um, "It's time." 1401 01:06:23,762 --> 01:06:26,417 I go, "All right," and look at Peep, 1402 01:06:26,417 --> 01:06:30,464 and I'm fearful that he won't be able to find the stage 1403 01:06:30,464 --> 01:06:33,467 'cause he's disoriented. 1404 01:06:33,467 --> 01:06:35,382 He runs onstage. 1405 01:06:35,382 --> 01:06:37,950 He's able to stand. 1406 01:06:37,950 --> 01:06:39,996 [ Cheers and applause ] 1407 01:06:39,996 --> 01:06:43,695 [ "Hellboy" playing ] 1408 01:06:43,695 --> 01:06:50,658 ♪♪ 1409 01:06:50,658 --> 01:06:54,314 -♪ You don't even know what I've been through ♪ 1410 01:06:54,314 --> 01:06:57,404 ♪ You don't gotta like me, ya bitch do ♪ 1411 01:06:57,404 --> 01:07:00,755 ♪ Blowing up my phone like, "I miss you" ♪ 1412 01:07:00,755 --> 01:07:04,020 ♪ You know I love you by the way that I kiss you ♪ 1413 01:07:04,020 --> 01:07:08,024 ♪ You don't even know what I've been through ♪ 1414 01:07:08,024 --> 01:07:11,636 ♪ You don't gotta like me, ya bitch do ♪ 1415 01:07:11,636 --> 01:07:14,247 ♪ Blowing up my phone like, "I miss you" ♪ 1416 01:07:14,247 --> 01:07:16,032 -There was a lot of talk about what was gonna happen 1417 01:07:16,032 --> 01:07:17,772 if he wasn't able to perform. 1418 01:07:17,772 --> 01:07:20,558 There was talks of even calling to, like, 1419 01:07:20,558 --> 01:07:23,865 not make the show cancellation be on his back 1420 01:07:23,865 --> 01:07:25,215 but, like, calling the fire department 1421 01:07:25,215 --> 01:07:26,868 or reporting the venue over capacity 1422 01:07:26,868 --> 01:07:29,393 and having the city come and shut the show down 1423 01:07:29,393 --> 01:07:31,221 instead of it being canceled on our end. 1424 01:07:31,221 --> 01:07:33,919 -♪ It keeps on telling me ♪ 1425 01:07:33,919 --> 01:07:35,877 ♪ Peep, leave it alone ♪ 1426 01:07:35,877 --> 01:07:37,662 ♪ I'm good on my own ♪ 1427 01:07:37,662 --> 01:07:38,967 ♪ Mama miss me at home ♪ 1428 01:07:38,967 --> 01:07:41,361 ♪ But I'm good on my own ♪ 1429 01:07:41,361 --> 01:07:42,841 ♪ Baby, I'm cold ♪ 1430 01:07:42,841 --> 01:07:44,147 ♪ Back on the road ♪ 1431 01:07:44,147 --> 01:07:45,452 -There was a point where he, like, 1432 01:07:45,452 --> 01:07:49,369 disassociated with, like, the show, 1433 01:07:49,369 --> 01:07:51,241 and I start hitting the fog machine, 1434 01:07:51,241 --> 01:07:54,374 like, just, like, flood the stage with fog 1435 01:07:54,374 --> 01:07:56,594 and, like, Tessa was next to me, 1436 01:07:56,594 --> 01:07:59,510 and she had, like, a trash can in case he needed to puke. 1437 01:07:59,510 --> 01:08:00,989 It worried me, you know? 1438 01:08:00,989 --> 01:08:02,469 Like, I was like, "Yo, like, the one day 1439 01:08:02,469 --> 01:08:03,949 you're, like, out of my sight, 1440 01:08:03,949 --> 01:08:05,472 it's like things went really bad," 1441 01:08:05,472 --> 01:08:07,474 and, like, I don't know what was about to happen 1442 01:08:07,474 --> 01:08:09,607 when he hit that weird, dazed moment. 1443 01:08:09,607 --> 01:08:12,479 It was really weird. 1444 01:08:12,479 --> 01:08:14,829 It was very unlike him. 1445 01:08:14,829 --> 01:08:16,657 -[ Singing indistinctly ] 1446 01:08:16,657 --> 01:08:22,533 ♪♪ 1447 01:08:22,533 --> 01:08:28,321 ♪♪ 1448 01:08:28,321 --> 01:08:30,323 [ Cheers and applause ] 1449 01:08:34,936 --> 01:08:38,201 -I don't know what happened. He snapped right back into it. 1450 01:08:38,201 --> 01:08:40,638 -He, found... He, like, he found his way. 1451 01:08:40,638 --> 01:08:43,945 He mumbled through the first song and got the chorus, 1452 01:08:43,945 --> 01:08:46,339 and at a moment, it clicked. 1453 01:08:46,339 --> 01:08:56,219 ♪♪ 1454 01:08:56,219 --> 01:09:06,098 ♪♪ 1455 01:09:06,098 --> 01:09:16,021 ♪♪ 1456 01:09:16,021 --> 01:09:20,547 -♪ Have you ever felt like... ♪ 1457 01:09:20,547 --> 01:09:23,594 -And he killed the entire show. 1458 01:09:25,900 --> 01:09:29,339 After the show, all the record people are just blown away, 1459 01:09:29,339 --> 01:09:32,733 thinking, like, "This is the guy." 1460 01:09:32,733 --> 01:09:35,649 I go upstairs to say hello to him. 1461 01:09:35,649 --> 01:09:39,697 He goes, "I told you I could do it," 1462 01:09:39,697 --> 01:09:44,484 and at that moment, I was like, "We got a problem." 1463 01:09:44,484 --> 01:09:45,703 -I'm sorry, man. 1464 01:09:45,703 --> 01:09:48,227 [ Cheers and applause ] 1465 01:09:48,227 --> 01:09:49,663 You know me. 1466 01:09:49,663 --> 01:09:51,578 -We love you! -We love you! 1467 01:09:51,578 --> 01:09:54,407 [ Cheers and applause ] 1468 01:09:54,407 --> 01:09:59,847 -He was kind of nodding off some something, 1469 01:09:59,847 --> 01:10:01,632 putting some ecstasy in his mouth, 1470 01:10:01,632 --> 01:10:03,024 just getting onstage, 1471 01:10:03,024 --> 01:10:05,375 and, you know, Chase is sort of like, 1472 01:10:05,375 --> 01:10:07,246 "Get that shit out of your mouth!" 1473 01:10:07,246 --> 01:10:08,900 Like, hands down his throat, like, trying to literally fish 1474 01:10:08,900 --> 01:10:10,858 the pill out of his mouth, you know? 1475 01:10:10,858 --> 01:10:12,338 And there's this sort of realization 1476 01:10:12,338 --> 01:10:14,166 where Peep just sort of grabbed the pill 1477 01:10:14,166 --> 01:10:16,777 and just ran into the bathroom, locked the door behind him, 1478 01:10:16,777 --> 01:10:19,911 and this was a heavy moment where it's this sort of, 1479 01:10:19,911 --> 01:10:21,739 "You're not my dad!" 1480 01:10:21,739 --> 01:10:24,350 Or this sort of, "You can't control me." 1481 01:10:26,570 --> 01:10:29,573 He divulged a lot of, like, very intimate, very personal things, 1482 01:10:29,573 --> 01:10:32,924 and I just feel like he had a crazy life, 1483 01:10:32,924 --> 01:10:35,492 and I think what it told me was just, like, 1484 01:10:35,492 --> 01:10:38,582 it's someone who almost went through some sort of, 1485 01:10:38,582 --> 01:10:40,279 like, ego death or something. 1486 01:10:40,279 --> 01:10:45,676 Like, he felt like he, like, transcended his own ego 1487 01:10:45,676 --> 01:10:48,592 or the battle that someone would have with their own ego 1488 01:10:48,592 --> 01:10:50,985 and acknowledging their own pride 1489 01:10:50,985 --> 01:10:52,465 and sort of all these things. 1490 01:10:52,465 --> 01:10:54,685 It just seemed like something had crushed that 1491 01:10:54,685 --> 01:10:56,252 a long time ago. 1492 01:10:58,950 --> 01:11:01,257 -[ Sighs ] 1493 01:11:06,174 --> 01:11:09,134 Little bit. 1494 01:11:09,134 --> 01:11:12,529 Uh... 1495 01:11:12,529 --> 01:11:16,315 it was pretty vague and pretty, um... 1496 01:11:18,883 --> 01:11:20,450 ...pretty, uh... 1497 01:11:22,408 --> 01:11:23,801 ...not mu-- not really. 1498 01:11:26,412 --> 01:11:28,327 He didn't really... 1499 01:11:28,327 --> 01:11:31,199 He -- he actually... 1500 01:11:31,199 --> 01:11:36,379 He did mention that he would tell me more down the road. 1501 01:11:36,379 --> 01:11:40,470 -♪ When I was a young Peep ♪ 1502 01:11:40,470 --> 01:11:46,389 ♪ My father took me into the city ♪ 1503 01:11:46,389 --> 01:11:51,872 ♪ To see a baseball game ♪ 1504 01:11:51,872 --> 01:11:57,922 ♪ He said, "Son, when you grow up, I'll leave you ♪ 1505 01:11:57,922 --> 01:12:04,711 ♪ And then you'll make a lot of money in, like, two years" ♪ 1506 01:12:04,711 --> 01:12:07,018 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1507 01:12:10,978 --> 01:12:14,155 -He was the coach dad, so he coached them, 1508 01:12:14,155 --> 01:12:17,202 and that was really his relationship with them 1509 01:12:17,202 --> 01:12:20,031 was to be their coach. 1510 01:12:20,031 --> 01:12:22,990 I mean, I think if you ask a lot of people, they'll say, 1511 01:12:22,990 --> 01:12:25,645 "Yeah, he never talked about his dad." 1512 01:12:25,645 --> 01:12:28,953 You know, I think he was ashamed of him. 1513 01:12:28,953 --> 01:12:32,696 I think he may have been ashamed of the way 1514 01:12:32,696 --> 01:12:34,524 his father treated him. 1515 01:12:34,524 --> 01:12:40,094 ♪♪ 1516 01:12:40,094 --> 01:12:42,532 -Johan had so little respect for Gus 1517 01:12:42,532 --> 01:12:44,185 that he actually would talk 1518 01:12:44,185 --> 01:12:46,144 to his girlfriend on the phone in the car 1519 01:12:46,144 --> 01:12:48,233 when Gus was in the back seat. 1520 01:12:49,974 --> 01:12:51,889 And finally one day, 1521 01:12:51,889 --> 01:12:54,718 Gus went upstairs and told his mother. 1522 01:12:54,718 --> 01:12:58,330 -Obviously, I've never stopped thinking about 1523 01:12:58,330 --> 01:13:00,027 what it took for him to do that. 1524 01:13:00,027 --> 01:13:02,769 He's, like, 12 or 13 years old 1525 01:13:02,769 --> 01:13:06,860 and standing there in front of his father, 1526 01:13:06,860 --> 01:13:10,081 calling his father out to me, 1527 01:13:10,081 --> 01:13:12,866 and at that moment, from that moment on, 1528 01:13:12,866 --> 01:13:16,217 you can imagine his relationship with his father. 1529 01:13:16,217 --> 01:13:20,178 -Oskar, do you know where this tree could go? 1530 01:13:20,178 --> 01:13:21,832 Oskar... 1531 01:13:21,832 --> 01:13:28,752 ♪♪ 1532 01:13:28,752 --> 01:13:33,409 -Dear Gus, after the letter I sent you yesterday, 1533 01:13:33,409 --> 01:13:35,411 I need to write you something else 1534 01:13:35,411 --> 01:13:38,414 because it's been pressing me so sharp 1535 01:13:38,414 --> 01:13:41,895 and hard on my mind the last couple of days. 1536 01:13:44,028 --> 01:13:48,424 You all three, your brother, you and your mother 1537 01:13:48,424 --> 01:13:52,428 have been now through two very stressful years, 1538 01:13:52,428 --> 01:13:55,213 the collapse and end of her marriage 1539 01:13:55,213 --> 01:13:58,259 and the collapse and end of the only family 1540 01:13:58,259 --> 01:14:02,438 your brother and you ever knew. 1541 01:14:02,438 --> 01:14:06,485 This has to be terribly painful and confusing. 1542 01:14:06,485 --> 01:14:11,055 Off and on, it makes people frantic, bewildered and furious. 1543 01:14:12,491 --> 01:14:17,278 It's probably something you cannot talk about with anybody, 1544 01:14:17,278 --> 01:14:19,933 but my advice is, if you can't talk about it, 1545 01:14:19,933 --> 01:14:24,111 at least don't deny it or run from it. 1546 01:14:24,111 --> 01:14:28,246 Ask yourself whom you respect, if anybody, 1547 01:14:28,246 --> 01:14:31,815 and if there are any such people, write a few words, 1548 01:14:31,815 --> 01:14:35,166 maybe no more than a short sentence or two, 1549 01:14:35,166 --> 01:14:38,386 saying to yourself why you respect them, 1550 01:14:38,386 --> 01:14:39,997 and if you don't respect anything 1551 01:14:39,997 --> 01:14:45,524 or anybody including me, ask yourself why you don't. 1552 01:14:45,524 --> 01:14:47,265 Maybe you have good reasons. 1553 01:14:47,265 --> 01:14:49,136 Maybe you don't. 1554 01:14:49,136 --> 01:14:51,312 Maybe you don't think you need a reason. 1555 01:14:51,312 --> 01:14:55,142 Just think about it, not once, but over days. 1556 01:14:55,142 --> 01:14:59,016 One day, you and I might talk about it. 1557 01:14:59,016 --> 01:15:01,714 Love, your grandpa, Pack Ack. 1558 01:15:01,714 --> 01:15:06,763 ♪♪ 1559 01:15:06,763 --> 01:15:08,504 -We didn't talk about it for a long time. 1560 01:15:08,504 --> 01:15:11,681 He just told me he hated his dad, 1561 01:15:11,681 --> 01:15:15,728 doesn't really know him, like, as a person, and one day, 1562 01:15:15,728 --> 01:15:19,384 he mentioned something about how it fueled a lot of his lyrics. 1563 01:15:19,384 --> 01:15:22,518 It was bad. It definitely scarred Peep 1564 01:15:22,518 --> 01:15:26,478 in a way that, like, I think nobody knew about. 1565 01:15:26,478 --> 01:15:28,306 -That's what I'm telling you, brother. 1566 01:15:28,306 --> 01:15:30,830 There's some pain in this kid, and I saw it from the beginning. 1567 01:15:33,877 --> 01:15:35,922 And there's more to that story 1568 01:15:35,922 --> 01:15:38,795 that, like, is not my place to speak on, 1569 01:15:38,795 --> 01:15:41,406 and God knows whose place it is to speak on. 1570 01:15:41,406 --> 01:15:43,713 It might not be anybody's place to speak on. 1571 01:15:48,369 --> 01:15:52,896 -I would always tell people, like, he is not lying. 1572 01:15:52,896 --> 01:15:55,159 He's not making things up. 1573 01:15:55,159 --> 01:16:00,730 These songs are his true feelings, and this is real. 1574 01:16:00,730 --> 01:16:03,863 Good or bad, this is all the truth. 1575 01:16:03,863 --> 01:16:05,517 -Obviously you hear it in his music. 1576 01:16:05,517 --> 01:16:06,997 It's very, very apparent 1577 01:16:06,997 --> 01:16:08,520 in the lyrics that he was unhappy, right? 1578 01:16:08,520 --> 01:16:12,916 But spending time around him day-to-day, 1579 01:16:12,916 --> 01:16:16,528 that wasn't what he gave off. 1580 01:16:16,528 --> 01:16:18,486 He came off as very, you know, 1581 01:16:18,486 --> 01:16:22,752 charismatic and alive and, like, happy. 1582 01:16:22,752 --> 01:16:26,407 -He was gentle, lighthearted, 1583 01:16:26,407 --> 01:16:30,847 and honestly good-spirited all the time. 1584 01:16:30,847 --> 01:16:33,327 Like, I just felt good energy around him all the time. 1585 01:16:33,327 --> 01:16:36,983 He was never a miser or a negative person. 1586 01:16:36,983 --> 01:16:42,554 Just, like, light, like, fucking, 1587 01:16:42,554 --> 01:16:45,252 just, like, goofy as hell, like, 1588 01:16:45,252 --> 01:16:50,127 just funny, always joking, like, making a joke out of everything. 1589 01:16:50,127 --> 01:16:52,695 -Today we gonna hit up Rodeo Drive. 1590 01:16:52,695 --> 01:16:54,740 You know, cash the fuck out with some Louis Vuitton, 1591 01:16:54,740 --> 01:16:56,133 some Birkin bag, you know? 1592 01:16:56,133 --> 01:16:57,743 ♪ Make me feel fine ♪ 1593 01:16:57,743 --> 01:17:02,356 ♪ 10 years ago, I went blind ♪ 1594 01:17:02,356 --> 01:17:06,143 ♪ I've been on my own since age 9 ♪ 1595 01:17:06,143 --> 01:17:10,974 ♪ 16 lines of blow, and I'm fine ♪ 1596 01:17:10,974 --> 01:17:14,499 ♪ Break my bones but act as my spine ♪ 1597 01:17:14,499 --> 01:17:16,327 Chicken breast and coleslaw. 1598 01:17:16,327 --> 01:17:19,939 -Yeah, pizza base with nothing on it. 1599 01:17:19,939 --> 01:17:21,288 -I can get a pizza base. 1600 01:17:21,288 --> 01:17:23,639 -Are you getting creamy fruit salad? 1601 01:17:23,639 --> 01:17:25,292 -I can get blended... Oh, my God. 1602 01:17:25,292 --> 01:17:27,425 The coleslaw is blended with creamy mayonnaise. 1603 01:17:27,425 --> 01:17:29,296 [ Laughing ] 1604 01:17:29,296 --> 01:17:33,736 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1605 01:17:33,823 --> 01:17:36,086 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1606 01:17:42,701 --> 01:17:45,095 -♪ But they don't want that ♪ 1607 01:17:45,095 --> 01:17:46,749 ♪ They want that real shit ♪ 1608 01:17:46,749 --> 01:17:48,707 ♪ They want that drug talk ♪ 1609 01:17:48,707 --> 01:17:50,187 ♪ That I can't feel shit ♪ 1610 01:17:50,187 --> 01:17:52,711 ♪ I'm never coming home now ♪ 1611 01:17:52,711 --> 01:17:54,670 ♪ All alone now ♪ 1612 01:17:54,670 --> 01:17:56,672 ♪ Can't let my bros down ♪ 1613 01:17:56,672 --> 01:17:58,325 ♪ Can't let my bros down ♪ 1614 01:17:58,325 --> 01:18:00,458 ♪ I feel like I'm a no one ♪ 1615 01:18:00,458 --> 01:18:02,590 ♪ That's what they told me ♪ 1616 01:18:02,590 --> 01:18:04,070 ♪ I'm gonna show you ♪ 1617 01:18:04,070 --> 01:18:06,333 ♪ Baby, I was chosen ♪ 1618 01:18:06,333 --> 01:18:08,292 ♪ I'm a motherfucking Schema boy ♪ 1619 01:18:08,292 --> 01:18:10,424 ♪ I'm a dreamer boy ♪ 1620 01:18:10,424 --> 01:18:12,035 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1621 01:18:22,567 --> 01:18:24,874 [ Beeping ] 1622 01:18:24,874 --> 01:18:27,050 -Tyler. 1623 01:18:27,050 --> 01:18:28,704 ♪ Tell me that you hate me ♪ 1624 01:18:28,791 --> 01:18:30,618 ♪ Tell me that you hate me ♪ 1625 01:18:30,618 --> 01:18:33,012 ♪ I just want to hear that, I just want to hear that ♪ 1626 01:18:33,012 --> 01:18:34,448 -He was looking out for hella people. 1627 01:18:34,448 --> 01:18:36,842 Like, he looked out for, like, everyone. 1628 01:18:38,409 --> 01:18:40,367 Like, I felt like he was going kind of crazy. 1629 01:18:40,367 --> 01:18:42,021 It just seemed like 1630 01:18:42,021 --> 01:18:43,936 he was losing his mind for a little bit. 1631 01:18:43,936 --> 01:18:45,242 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1632 01:18:45,242 --> 01:18:48,680 He just kind of realized, like... 1633 01:18:48,680 --> 01:18:51,204 he needs to just do him, and he did. 1634 01:18:51,204 --> 01:18:56,079 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1635 01:18:56,079 --> 01:18:57,297 -He seemed uncomfortable in his own house. 1636 01:18:57,297 --> 01:18:58,777 -On edge. 1637 01:18:58,777 --> 01:19:00,605 -I mean, no seats. There's all these people. 1638 01:19:00,605 --> 01:19:02,650 He's standing in the kitchen as everyone is sitting on the sofa. 1639 01:19:02,650 --> 01:19:04,870 -It was like he didn't want us to see him that way. 1640 01:19:04,870 --> 01:19:05,915 -Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. 1641 01:19:05,915 --> 01:19:07,307 -He's written lyrics about it. 1642 01:19:07,307 --> 01:19:09,396 Like, you're in a room full of people, 1643 01:19:09,396 --> 01:19:11,747 but you're alone. 1644 01:19:11,747 --> 01:19:13,009 -♪ Take care ♪ 1645 01:19:13,009 --> 01:19:15,315 ♪ Take me away from here ♪ 1646 01:19:15,315 --> 01:19:16,839 ♪ Everybody's so fake ♪ 1647 01:19:16,839 --> 01:19:19,145 ♪ Everybody's so fake, I swear ♪ 1648 01:19:19,145 --> 01:19:21,321 ♪ But I don't want to go back there ♪ 1649 01:19:21,321 --> 01:19:22,975 ♪ Everybody's so fake ♪ 1650 01:19:22,975 --> 01:19:25,108 ♪ Everybody act like they care ♪ 1651 01:19:25,195 --> 01:19:27,850 ♪ Everybody act like they care ♪ 1652 01:19:27,850 --> 01:19:30,330 -If people wanted to hang out, even if he was tired, 1653 01:19:30,330 --> 01:19:32,071 he would never say no. 1654 01:19:32,071 --> 01:19:33,290 He would never... 1655 01:19:33,290 --> 01:19:34,726 There were times when he'd be like, 1656 01:19:34,726 --> 01:19:36,597 "I don't want these people in my place," 1657 01:19:36,597 --> 01:19:38,425 but he wouldn't tell them to leave. 1658 01:19:38,425 --> 01:19:40,297 I don't know. 1659 01:19:40,297 --> 01:19:42,125 Like, saying no to somebody to him was, like, hurting them. 1660 01:19:42,125 --> 01:19:43,953 He didn't want to do it. 1661 01:19:43,953 --> 01:19:46,782 -He told me he used to, like, cry in his wardrobe and shit 1662 01:19:46,782 --> 01:19:48,348 because he didn't even have a bed. 1663 01:19:48,348 --> 01:19:49,697 People were in his bed and so... 1664 01:19:49,697 --> 01:19:50,786 -Yeah, yeah, yeah. -...he'd sit there 1665 01:19:50,786 --> 01:19:53,049 and cry, try not to cry too loud. 1666 01:19:53,049 --> 01:19:54,920 Like, he's in his wardrobe crying 1667 01:19:54,920 --> 01:19:56,356 just on his own, you know? 1668 01:19:56,356 --> 01:19:58,968 -Fuck this nigga. 1669 01:19:58,968 --> 01:20:01,057 He don't want to come to the studio with us, man. 1670 01:20:01,057 --> 01:20:04,147 -Yeah, I do, bro. -Fuck this nigga, man. 1671 01:20:04,147 --> 01:20:06,976 He don't want to come to the fucking studio with us. 1672 01:20:06,976 --> 01:20:08,978 Oh, yeah? -All right. Goddamn it! 1673 01:20:08,978 --> 01:20:10,588 -You don't want to come to the studio with us, huh? 1674 01:20:10,588 --> 01:20:13,678 -That's when I was like, "You have to get out of L.A." 1675 01:20:13,678 --> 01:20:17,943 I realized it was unmanageable with all these people, 1676 01:20:17,943 --> 01:20:21,033 and I said, "You have to get out of L.A." 1677 01:20:21,033 --> 01:20:24,297 -I remember, like, Dre or Goth, one of them called me 1678 01:20:24,297 --> 01:20:26,169 and was... They were crying. 1679 01:20:26,169 --> 01:20:28,649 They were like, "Oh, my God," like, "What are we gonna do? 1680 01:20:28,649 --> 01:20:30,347 I think Gus is going to London," 1681 01:20:30,347 --> 01:20:31,652 and I was like, "What do you mean?" 1682 01:20:31,652 --> 01:20:33,132 They're like, "He's moving," 1683 01:20:33,132 --> 01:20:34,742 like, "We all just, like, went to his house 1684 01:20:34,742 --> 01:20:36,614 and, like, he told us he's moving to London." 1685 01:20:36,614 --> 01:20:39,791 I'm like, "When is he moving?" and they're like, "Tomorrow." 1686 01:20:39,791 --> 01:20:43,012 And I was like, "Oh, fuck no!" Like, "You're lying," like, 1687 01:20:43,012 --> 01:20:45,057 "There's no way he's moving to London, like, in one day." 1688 01:20:45,057 --> 01:20:48,191 -♪ Hey, man, we did not know ♪ 1689 01:20:48,191 --> 01:20:51,020 -♪ It's a shame that we did not know ♪ 1690 01:20:51,107 --> 01:20:54,371 ♪ It's a shame that we did not know ♪ 1691 01:20:54,371 --> 01:20:58,549 -♪ Can't afford to fall in love with you ♪ 1692 01:20:58,549 --> 01:21:00,290 ♪ Not today, girl ♪ 1693 01:21:02,553 --> 01:21:04,250 ♪ They say life is a movie ♪ 1694 01:21:04,250 --> 01:21:07,688 ♪ No, no, baby, mine is a picture ♪ 1695 01:21:07,688 --> 01:21:08,994 -Tilt your hands down a little more. 1696 01:21:08,994 --> 01:21:11,127 Yeah, that's it, 1697 01:21:11,127 --> 01:21:12,824 and eyes at camera. 1698 01:21:12,824 --> 01:21:18,438 ♪♪ 1699 01:21:18,438 --> 01:21:20,397 -I mean, if you saw, like, this course of action, 1700 01:21:20,397 --> 01:21:22,486 it's just... It's kind of crazy. 1701 01:21:22,486 --> 01:21:25,228 He just had so many things coming out at all times, 1702 01:21:25,228 --> 01:21:27,186 and so many things around the corner, 1703 01:21:27,186 --> 01:21:28,709 and he truly got into a flow 1704 01:21:28,709 --> 01:21:33,323 where he was just rolling forward with so much. 1705 01:21:33,323 --> 01:21:36,282 Fashion was honestly, like, the next big thing. 1706 01:21:36,282 --> 01:21:38,719 He wanted to start his own clothing brand, 1707 01:21:38,719 --> 01:21:40,504 No Smoking. 1708 01:21:40,504 --> 01:21:42,593 He thought to himself, "I could design the coolest shit." 1709 01:21:42,593 --> 01:21:44,073 -♪ Isn't life beautiful? ♪ 1710 01:21:44,073 --> 01:21:46,553 ♪ I think that life is beautiful ♪ 1711 01:21:46,553 --> 01:21:49,339 -And I was like, "He's going to fashion week. 1712 01:21:49,339 --> 01:21:51,645 I want him to arrive like a star." 1713 01:21:51,645 --> 01:21:55,998 I said, "I want him to roll into fashion week." 1714 01:21:55,998 --> 01:21:59,131 I was like, "He's gonna be a really big star," 1715 01:21:59,131 --> 01:22:00,306 and he actually was. 1716 01:22:00,306 --> 01:22:02,265 Everyone went crazy for him. 1717 01:22:02,265 --> 01:22:06,138 -There was something very innocent and childlike 1718 01:22:06,138 --> 01:22:09,011 in his lack of understanding 1719 01:22:09,011 --> 01:22:13,015 at the beginning of the fashion industry, 1720 01:22:13,015 --> 01:22:16,235 of designers, of photographers, of stylists. 1721 01:22:16,235 --> 01:22:19,369 He didn't really understand why this was all happening 1722 01:22:19,369 --> 01:22:21,849 and why there was such an interest in him. 1723 01:22:21,849 --> 01:22:24,113 Somebody doing their first fashion shoot with Mario Testino 1724 01:22:24,113 --> 01:22:28,465 for "V Magazine" being styled by Nicola Formichetti, 1725 01:22:28,465 --> 01:22:30,597 really, like, a stylist who's kind of responsible 1726 01:22:30,597 --> 01:22:33,470 for the careers of, like, Lady Gaga, 1727 01:22:33,470 --> 01:22:37,561 who at the time was the creative director for Diesel. 1728 01:22:37,561 --> 01:22:41,260 It was a huge deal, and so that would give him, 1729 01:22:41,260 --> 01:22:44,481 like, that springboard into the fashion industry. 1730 01:22:44,481 --> 01:22:46,613 -How is this fashion? -Oh, wow. 1731 01:22:46,613 --> 01:22:49,529 -This is -- this is ridiculous. 1732 01:22:49,529 --> 01:22:51,096 This is ridiculous. 1733 01:22:51,096 --> 01:22:52,750 [ "Fat Lip" playing ] 1734 01:22:52,750 --> 01:22:57,711 ♪♪ 1735 01:22:57,711 --> 01:23:02,716 ♪♪ 1736 01:23:02,716 --> 01:23:05,415 -♪ Storming through the party like my name is El Niño ♪ 1737 01:23:05,415 --> 01:23:07,634 ♪ When I'm hangin' out drinkin' in the back of an El Camino ♪ 1738 01:23:07,634 --> 01:23:08,896 ♪ As a kid I was a skid ♪ 1739 01:23:08,896 --> 01:23:10,724 ♪ And no one knew me by name ♪ 1740 01:23:10,724 --> 01:23:12,422 ♪ I trashed my own house party 'cause nobody came ♪ 1741 01:23:12,422 --> 01:23:14,076 ♪ Well, I know I'm not the one ♪ 1742 01:23:14,076 --> 01:23:15,729 ♪ You thought you knew back in high school ♪ 1743 01:23:15,729 --> 01:23:17,601 ♪ Never going, never showing up when we had to ♪ 1744 01:23:17,601 --> 01:23:19,995 ♪ Attention that we crave, don't tell us to behave ♪ 1745 01:23:19,995 --> 01:23:22,388 ♪ I'm sick of always hearing "act your age" ♪ 1746 01:23:22,388 --> 01:23:24,695 ♪ I don't want to waste my time ♪ 1747 01:23:24,695 --> 01:23:27,045 ♪ Become another casualty of society ♪ 1748 01:23:27,045 --> 01:23:29,178 ♪ I'll never fall in line ♪ 1749 01:23:29,178 --> 01:23:31,832 ♪ Become another victim of your conformity ♪ 1750 01:23:31,832 --> 01:23:33,486 ♪ And back down ♪ 1751 01:23:33,486 --> 01:23:42,104 ♪♪ 1752 01:23:42,104 --> 01:23:44,367 ♪ Because you don't ♪ 1753 01:23:44,367 --> 01:23:46,804 ♪ Know us at all, we laugh when old people fall ♪ 1754 01:23:46,804 --> 01:23:49,198 ♪ But what would you expect with a conscience so small? ♪ 1755 01:23:49,198 --> 01:23:52,201 ♪ Heavy metal and mullets, it's how we were raised ♪ 1756 01:23:52,201 --> 01:23:54,159 ♪ Maiden and Priest were the gods that we praised ♪ 1757 01:23:54,159 --> 01:23:56,857 ♪ 'Cause we like having fun at other peoples expense and ♪ 1758 01:23:56,857 --> 01:23:59,164 ♪ Cutting people down is just a minor offense then ♪ 1759 01:23:59,164 --> 01:24:01,514 ♪ It's none of your concern, I guess I'll never learn ♪ 1760 01:24:01,514 --> 01:24:03,516 ♪ I'm sick of being told to wait my turn ♪ 1761 01:24:03,516 --> 01:24:05,866 ♪ I don't want to waste my time ♪ 1762 01:24:05,866 --> 01:24:08,652 ♪ Become another casualty of society ♪ 1763 01:24:08,652 --> 01:24:10,741 ♪ I'll never fall in line ♪ 1764 01:24:10,741 --> 01:24:13,570 ♪ Become another victim of your conformity ♪ 1765 01:24:13,570 --> 01:24:14,745 ♪ And back down ♪ 1766 01:24:14,745 --> 01:24:22,927 ♪♪ 1767 01:24:26,539 --> 01:24:28,454 -How's your first time in Paris, mate? 1768 01:24:32,328 --> 01:24:36,114 [ Laughs ] 1769 01:24:36,114 --> 01:24:37,550 -It's all good, man. 1770 01:24:41,467 --> 01:24:43,121 -♪ I will come and haunt you ♪ 1771 01:24:43,121 --> 01:24:44,818 ♪ If I ever fucking die ♪ 1772 01:24:44,818 --> 01:24:46,429 ♪ I'm gonna be too fly ♪ 1773 01:24:46,429 --> 01:24:48,300 ♪ See me looking like a goddamn... ♪ 1774 01:24:48,300 --> 01:24:50,868 -Can we get a balance-down of that? 1775 01:24:50,868 --> 01:24:54,567 And can you send it back to that e-mail that I sent you? 1776 01:24:54,567 --> 01:24:56,787 [ Singing indistinctly ] 1777 01:24:59,790 --> 01:25:04,055 -Makonnen looked at it like this -- 1778 01:25:04,055 --> 01:25:06,449 "I like this kid. He's cool as fuck. 1779 01:25:06,449 --> 01:25:10,931 Let's do this shit, and let's go hard." 1780 01:25:10,931 --> 01:25:14,935 They were FaceTiming me in from that fucking studio constantly. 1781 01:25:14,935 --> 01:25:16,763 Like, I was supposed to be there as well. 1782 01:25:16,763 --> 01:25:19,157 It's just that I never liked inserting myself 1783 01:25:19,157 --> 01:25:20,245 into these situations. 1784 01:25:20,245 --> 01:25:21,768 I wanted them to, like, 1785 01:25:21,768 --> 01:25:23,335 fucking have creative freedom in their moments. 1786 01:25:23,335 --> 01:25:25,424 Like, what the fuck am I gonna offer the situation? 1787 01:25:25,424 --> 01:25:27,774 Because I'm not fucking here. Fuck it. 1788 01:25:27,774 --> 01:25:30,429 -It was very surreal, and I felt with him, 1789 01:25:30,429 --> 01:25:35,304 I was like, "Look, if you looked like me on the outside." 1790 01:25:35,304 --> 01:25:36,870 You know what I'm saying? Like, on the outside 1791 01:25:36,870 --> 01:25:38,655 with all your tats that house this, like, "Rrr," 1792 01:25:38,655 --> 01:25:40,352 it's scary. 1793 01:25:40,352 --> 01:25:42,224 I was like, "That's how I really am on the inside," 1794 01:25:42,224 --> 01:25:44,574 and I said, "But you on the inside look kind of soft 1795 01:25:44,574 --> 01:25:46,489 and nice as how I look on the outside." 1796 01:25:46,489 --> 01:25:48,317 And you know what I'm saying? So we would just... 1797 01:25:48,317 --> 01:25:51,058 We would have this cool, little, you know what I'm saying, 1798 01:25:51,058 --> 01:25:53,365 dynamic with each other to where it's, like, 1799 01:25:53,365 --> 01:25:55,150 we're saying we were little brokenhearted teddy bears, 1800 01:25:55,150 --> 01:25:56,673 and we were, like, 1801 01:25:56,673 --> 01:25:58,762 repairing each other, you know, me and him. 1802 01:25:58,762 --> 01:26:01,330 And so, like, you know, we're making this music, right? 1803 01:26:01,330 --> 01:26:02,983 And so, like, this music was like, 1804 01:26:02,983 --> 01:26:04,463 "It's gonna heal the world, and it's gonna elevate us 1805 01:26:04,463 --> 01:26:05,943 into pop-star land." 1806 01:26:05,943 --> 01:26:08,163 -♪ You're the only one that I want ♪ 1807 01:26:08,163 --> 01:26:09,468 -Hello. 1808 01:26:09,468 --> 01:26:11,035 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 1809 01:26:11,035 --> 01:26:14,299 ♪ But don't tell me I'm not doing fine ♪ 1810 01:26:14,299 --> 01:26:16,954 ♪ Because I'm doing fine ♪ 1811 01:26:16,954 --> 01:26:18,477 ♪ Let me go ♪ 1812 01:26:18,477 --> 01:26:20,087 ♪ I'm spending time ♪ 1813 01:26:20,087 --> 01:26:21,741 ♪ Not doing fine ♪ 1814 01:26:21,741 --> 01:26:23,352 ♪ But I'm doing fine ♪ 1815 01:26:23,352 --> 01:26:25,919 -♪ Why you acting vain for my love ♪ 1816 01:26:25,919 --> 01:26:27,747 ♪ Vain for my love ♪ 1817 01:26:27,747 --> 01:26:30,620 ♪ When you've got everything that I want ♪ 1818 01:26:30,620 --> 01:26:32,709 -[ Laughing ] 1819 01:26:36,365 --> 01:26:37,844 Damn, that's... -If I put that out, 1820 01:26:37,844 --> 01:26:40,456 Sarah is gonna be like, "What did they do?" 1821 01:26:40,456 --> 01:26:42,022 -It was great, man. 1822 01:26:42,022 --> 01:26:43,589 I've never made music like that with anybody. 1823 01:26:43,589 --> 01:26:46,592 Like, it's just... It was never a dull session. 1824 01:26:46,592 --> 01:26:48,028 You know what I'm saying? 1825 01:26:48,028 --> 01:26:49,856 The only time we had to leave the session 1826 01:26:49,856 --> 01:26:51,989 is because too many people came to the session, 1827 01:26:51,989 --> 01:26:54,426 and I was like, "Peep, we've got to get out of here," like, 1828 01:26:54,426 --> 01:26:57,647 "It's just getting hectic. We're not getting no work done," 1829 01:26:57,647 --> 01:26:59,953 and then, like, people... We're so nice, right? 1830 01:26:59,953 --> 01:27:02,304 He's...So I started to have to try to teach him, like, 1831 01:27:02,304 --> 01:27:03,870 "Bro, they're gonna take everything. 1832 01:27:03,870 --> 01:27:06,569 You have to start being like, 'No, no, no.'" 1833 01:27:06,569 --> 01:27:09,006 -And me and Makonnen kind of, like, fucking towards the end, 1834 01:27:09,006 --> 01:27:12,096 I'll be honest with you. Like, we weren't being dicks. 1835 01:27:12,096 --> 01:27:13,924 We weren't being haters to, like, 1836 01:27:13,924 --> 01:27:16,709 this whole group of friends. Like, you know what I mean? 1837 01:27:16,709 --> 01:27:18,363 But, like, did me and Makonnen tell him 1838 01:27:18,363 --> 01:27:20,017 specifically he needed to stop fucking hanging out 1839 01:27:20,017 --> 01:27:21,236 with everybody he was hanging out with? 1840 01:27:21,236 --> 01:27:23,063 To kind of take a step back 1841 01:27:23,063 --> 01:27:25,762 and let this, like, fucking wave get to where it was going? 1842 01:27:25,762 --> 01:27:27,285 Because I already saw where it was. 1843 01:27:27,285 --> 01:27:28,678 -I would be with him sometimes, 1844 01:27:28,678 --> 01:27:29,766 and some of his friends would call him 1845 01:27:29,766 --> 01:27:31,071 and be like, "What the fuck?" 1846 01:27:31,071 --> 01:27:33,552 Like, "I'm going on tour. I'm doing this," 1847 01:27:33,552 --> 01:27:35,032 like, "We're coming." 1848 01:27:35,032 --> 01:27:36,947 Sometimes he would really cry and be like, 1849 01:27:36,947 --> 01:27:38,992 "I don't know how to help them. I've done everything," like, 1850 01:27:38,992 --> 01:27:40,994 "They're all homeless. I let them stay at my house. 1851 01:27:40,994 --> 01:27:42,822 I let them come in and out. I let them wear my clothes. 1852 01:27:42,822 --> 01:27:44,476 I buy them food." 1853 01:27:44,476 --> 01:27:47,087 -When we went to London, sort of him and GBC 1854 01:27:47,087 --> 01:27:50,221 were kind of having some sort of rift or something, 1855 01:27:50,221 --> 01:27:52,615 and they were kind of saying, like, a lot of negative things, 1856 01:27:52,615 --> 01:27:56,445 and he was feeling sad and stuff and about it, and I was like, 1857 01:27:56,445 --> 01:27:58,664 "A lot of people don't want you to grow without them. 1858 01:27:58,664 --> 01:28:00,275 You have a lot of great opportunity going on. 1859 01:28:00,275 --> 01:28:02,668 Your music is so real, and I know that you've been 1860 01:28:02,668 --> 01:28:05,758 in your pain and hurt to get this music, and this is, like, 1861 01:28:05,758 --> 01:28:07,804 when you do this, you're alone, right? 1862 01:28:07,804 --> 01:28:10,241 And all you really wanted is others around you, 1863 01:28:10,241 --> 01:28:11,851 and now you have everybody coming around you 1864 01:28:11,851 --> 01:28:14,289 for all the wrong reasons. 1865 01:28:14,289 --> 01:28:15,899 Your friends are gonna start saying 1866 01:28:15,899 --> 01:28:17,553 the worst things about you. You know what I'm saying? 1867 01:28:17,553 --> 01:28:19,294 The ones that you were with the longest, 1868 01:28:19,294 --> 01:28:21,078 and you were friends, and then they're gonna start 1869 01:28:21,078 --> 01:28:22,384 saying the worst things about you, 1870 01:28:22,384 --> 01:28:23,776 and it's gonna hurt you the most." 1871 01:28:23,776 --> 01:28:29,565 ♪♪ 1872 01:28:29,565 --> 01:28:35,353 ♪♪ 1873 01:28:35,353 --> 01:28:37,486 -♪ Bother me ♪ 1874 01:28:37,486 --> 01:28:40,315 ♪ Tell me awful things ♪ 1875 01:28:40,315 --> 01:28:44,188 ♪ You know I love it when you move that on me ♪ 1876 01:28:44,188 --> 01:28:47,104 ♪ Love it when you do that on me ♪ 1877 01:28:47,104 --> 01:28:49,628 -I distinctly said to him, 1878 01:28:49,628 --> 01:28:53,545 "You know you're not just a rapper," 1879 01:28:53,545 --> 01:28:55,895 and he said, "Yeah." 1880 01:28:55,895 --> 01:28:59,899 And I said, "You do know that in order to achieve 1881 01:28:59,899 --> 01:29:03,425 what you're gonna be able of achieving, 1882 01:29:03,425 --> 01:29:06,776 you're gonna have to leave people behind," 1883 01:29:06,776 --> 01:29:09,605 and I said, "Do you understand that?" 1884 01:29:09,605 --> 01:29:12,129 And he said, "Yeah." He said, "I know that." 1885 01:29:12,129 --> 01:29:13,826 -♪ Ahh ♪ 1886 01:29:13,826 --> 01:29:16,394 [ Cheers and applause ] 1887 01:29:16,394 --> 01:29:17,874 Y'all remember? 1888 01:29:17,874 --> 01:29:19,963 [ "Sometimes Life Gets Fucked Up" playing ] 1889 01:29:19,963 --> 01:29:28,580 ♪♪ 1890 01:29:28,580 --> 01:29:30,626 ♪ Sometimes life gets fucked up ♪ 1891 01:29:30,626 --> 01:29:33,280 ♪ That's why we get fucked up ♪ -♪ Fucked up ♪ 1892 01:29:33,280 --> 01:29:36,109 -♪ I can still feel your touch ♪ 1893 01:29:36,109 --> 01:29:38,808 ♪ I still do those same drugs ♪ 1894 01:29:38,808 --> 01:29:41,767 ♪ Sometimes life gets fucked up ♪ 1895 01:29:41,767 --> 01:29:44,770 ♪ That's why we get fucked up ♪ -♪ Fucked up ♪ 1896 01:29:44,770 --> 01:29:47,033 -♪ I can still feel your touch ♪ 1897 01:29:47,033 --> 01:29:51,298 ♪ I still do those same drugs ♪ 1898 01:29:51,298 --> 01:29:53,475 ♪ That we used to do ♪ 1899 01:29:53,475 --> 01:29:54,519 -When Chase reached out and was like, 1900 01:29:54,519 --> 01:29:55,738 "You ready for the next one?" 1901 01:29:55,738 --> 01:29:58,044 I was like, "Okay," you know? 1902 01:29:58,044 --> 01:29:59,568 Okay, because now at least 1903 01:29:59,568 --> 01:30:01,570 I knew a little more of what to expect, 1904 01:30:01,570 --> 01:30:04,007 and I was coming in a little bit more prepared, 1905 01:30:04,007 --> 01:30:08,490 so that was nice, um... 1906 01:30:08,490 --> 01:30:11,014 but it didn't matter, you know? 1907 01:30:11,014 --> 01:30:12,842 It didn't matter in the end because, like, 1908 01:30:12,842 --> 01:30:15,366 so many things got changed the week before that tour left. 1909 01:30:15,366 --> 01:30:18,630 -[ Speaking indistinctly ] 1910 01:30:18,630 --> 01:30:20,284 -Hey, hey, hey! -They are responsible. 1911 01:30:20,284 --> 01:30:22,025 They are responsible. -Steve, stop. 1912 01:30:22,025 --> 01:30:23,592 -This is him right now. 1913 01:30:23,592 --> 01:30:26,551 This is the before video in case this goes tits up. 1914 01:30:26,551 --> 01:30:28,901 -The tour was originally supposed to be just him, 1915 01:30:28,901 --> 01:30:30,860 and I think he wanted to bring Tracy. 1916 01:30:30,860 --> 01:30:32,557 You know, that was his original plans 1917 01:30:32,557 --> 01:30:36,648 until everything went down, like, a week before tour. 1918 01:30:36,648 --> 01:30:39,129 He didn't want to tell them, "I'm leaving GBC," 1919 01:30:39,129 --> 01:30:42,524 without kind of giving them a present, you know, 1920 01:30:42,524 --> 01:30:45,222 taking them on tour and getting them exposure. 1921 01:30:45,222 --> 01:30:48,355 -♪ Somebody wake me up I'm kissing Styrofoam ♪ 1922 01:30:48,355 --> 01:30:50,140 -It's like this perfect storm. 1923 01:30:50,140 --> 01:30:56,146 It's like that was happening while he and I had an issue, 1924 01:30:56,146 --> 01:30:59,541 and he was touring where I couldn't be close to him, 1925 01:30:59,541 --> 01:31:02,935 and, you know, and so that led to the situation 1926 01:31:02,935 --> 01:31:06,722 of having to switch tour crew, and we had a whole new crew, 1927 01:31:06,722 --> 01:31:09,464 and we had, like, days to do this. 1928 01:31:09,464 --> 01:31:12,336 We had maybe, like, three to five days. 1929 01:31:12,336 --> 01:31:14,425 -♪ That ain't no hard rock ♪ 1930 01:31:14,425 --> 01:31:16,166 ♪ I love all bitches ♪ 1931 01:31:16,166 --> 01:31:19,299 ♪ Dislike Tupac ♪ 1932 01:31:19,299 --> 01:31:21,432 -The people brought in had no fucking idea what they're doing. 1933 01:31:21,432 --> 01:31:22,955 L.B. was holding it down. 1934 01:31:22,955 --> 01:31:25,262 He was pretty much being production manager 1935 01:31:25,262 --> 01:31:27,394 and tour manager, and that's not his fucking job. 1936 01:31:27,394 --> 01:31:28,744 You know what I mean? 1937 01:31:28,744 --> 01:31:30,180 But he was like, "This is a nightmare. 1938 01:31:30,180 --> 01:31:32,008 This is the worst tour I've ever been on." 1939 01:31:32,008 --> 01:31:38,231 ♪♪ 1940 01:31:38,231 --> 01:31:39,581 -What I do, how old I am, where I'm from? 1941 01:31:39,581 --> 01:31:41,365 -Your name, how old are you, 1942 01:31:41,365 --> 01:31:42,801 where you're from, what you do. 1943 01:31:42,801 --> 01:31:46,413 -Okay. My name is Lil Peep. 1944 01:31:46,413 --> 01:31:48,024 I'm 21. 1945 01:31:48,024 --> 01:31:49,547 I'm from Long Island, New York. 1946 01:31:49,547 --> 01:31:53,812 I'm a goth boy. I'm a ladyboy. 1947 01:31:53,812 --> 01:31:55,684 -When did you notice GothBoiClique 1948 01:31:55,684 --> 01:31:58,730 starting to pop up? 1949 01:31:58,730 --> 01:32:01,211 -Um... 1950 01:32:01,211 --> 01:32:05,171 I noticed GothBoiClique started to pop up when I had 1951 01:32:05,171 --> 01:32:07,347 to start walking around with my shades on. 1952 01:32:07,347 --> 01:32:10,350 You feel me? 1953 01:32:10,350 --> 01:32:11,743 -What's it feel like to see kids lined 1954 01:32:11,743 --> 01:32:13,353 down the block to see you? 1955 01:32:13,353 --> 01:32:16,705 -It feels like I got to keep my shades on. 1956 01:32:16,705 --> 01:32:18,141 -You got to answer it differently. 1957 01:32:18,141 --> 01:32:19,534 -Okay. -Say, "The feeling I get 1958 01:32:19,534 --> 01:32:21,971 from seeing kids lined down the block." 1959 01:32:21,971 --> 01:32:25,148 -The feeling I get from seeing kids lined down the block 1960 01:32:25,148 --> 01:32:29,674 for my show is that I got to keep my shades on. 1961 01:32:31,937 --> 01:32:36,768 -How does it feel to have kids sing your lyrics back at you? 1962 01:32:36,768 --> 01:32:41,381 -When kids sing my lyrics back at me, 1963 01:32:41,381 --> 01:32:46,430 it reminds me that I need to keep my shades on at all times. 1964 01:32:46,430 --> 01:32:50,477 -How...[Laughs] How has this tour been? 1965 01:32:50,477 --> 01:32:52,218 -This tour has been great. 1966 01:32:52,218 --> 01:32:55,831 My shades have been on the whole time. 1967 01:32:55,831 --> 01:32:59,530 [ Indistinct conversations ] 1968 01:32:59,530 --> 01:33:03,708 ♪♪ 1969 01:33:03,708 --> 01:33:05,754 -♪ I'm kissing Styrofoam ♪ 1970 01:33:05,754 --> 01:33:07,582 ♪ Who know what I be on ♪ 1971 01:33:07,582 --> 01:33:09,148 ♪ That's what I be on ♪ 1972 01:33:09,148 --> 01:33:11,020 ♪ She know what I be on ♪ 1973 01:33:11,020 --> 01:33:13,065 ♪ Who know what I be on ♪ 1974 01:33:13,065 --> 01:33:14,893 ♪ That's what I be on ♪ 1975 01:33:14,893 --> 01:33:16,678 ♪ Baby, move along ♪ 1976 01:33:16,678 --> 01:33:18,505 ♪ I keep moving on ♪ 1977 01:33:18,593 --> 01:33:20,377 ♪ I keep moving on ♪ 1978 01:33:20,377 --> 01:33:22,335 ♪ We keep making up ♪ 1979 01:33:22,335 --> 01:33:23,989 ♪ I keep moving on ♪ 1980 01:33:23,989 --> 01:33:25,774 ♪ We keep making up ♪ 1981 01:33:25,774 --> 01:33:27,602 ♪ I keep moving on ♪ 1982 01:33:27,602 --> 01:33:29,560 ♪ We keep making up ♪ 1983 01:33:29,560 --> 01:33:30,909 ♪ I can't make it up ♪ 1984 01:33:30,909 --> 01:33:33,912 ♪ Somebody wake me up, yeah ♪ 1985 01:33:33,912 --> 01:33:37,176 ♪ Pulled up with my whole team ♪ 1986 01:33:37,176 --> 01:33:40,266 ♪ Mackned swerving in a white Beam ♪ 1987 01:33:40,266 --> 01:33:44,009 ♪ Yeah, GothBoiClique trying to stay clean ♪ 1988 01:33:44,009 --> 01:33:47,665 ♪ Yeah, GothBoiClique, we got big dreams ♪ 1989 01:33:47,665 --> 01:33:50,668 ♪ And my new bitch on a movie screen ♪ 1990 01:33:50,668 --> 01:33:52,365 ♪ And my old ♪ 1991 01:33:52,365 --> 01:33:54,193 -You're open through your lyrics and through your music 1992 01:33:54,193 --> 01:33:56,935 in terms of your relationship with anxiety and, of course, 1993 01:33:56,935 --> 01:33:59,198 by-products and things like that like depression and such, 1994 01:33:59,198 --> 01:34:00,722 and this is a very important subject now 1995 01:34:00,722 --> 01:34:02,593 because, more than ever, we're seeing, 1996 01:34:02,593 --> 01:34:05,814 you know, kids and young people really suffering through this. 1997 01:34:05,814 --> 01:34:08,251 This is now an established part of life. 1998 01:34:08,251 --> 01:34:09,992 You know, how is your relationship 1999 01:34:09,992 --> 01:34:11,341 with that right now? 2000 01:34:11,341 --> 01:34:12,864 Now you're actually out on the road, 2001 01:34:12,864 --> 01:34:14,605 keeping yourself busy touring, making music. 2002 01:34:14,605 --> 01:34:16,738 Is it still a struggle for you to stay centered and stay, 2003 01:34:16,738 --> 01:34:20,480 you know... -Yeah, yeah, definitely. 2004 01:34:20,480 --> 01:34:24,876 If anything, things have gotten worse probably. 2005 01:34:24,876 --> 01:34:27,662 -Because of the traveling and the touring and the pressure? 2006 01:34:27,662 --> 01:34:29,838 -Yeah, things just get worse. 2007 01:34:29,838 --> 01:34:33,319 The anxiety just gets worse and worse and worse every day. 2008 01:34:33,319 --> 01:34:35,887 -Every time I saw him, he would cry to me, 2009 01:34:35,887 --> 01:34:39,412 like, every time how much he, like, wished, like, 2010 01:34:39,412 --> 01:34:41,023 everything could go back to normal, 2011 01:34:41,023 --> 01:34:42,851 and he didn't have this pressure on him, 2012 01:34:42,851 --> 01:34:46,028 and he wished we could just be in his room 2013 01:34:46,028 --> 01:34:48,726 and, like, do nothing all day like we used to, 2014 01:34:48,726 --> 01:34:53,035 but, like, it just, like, can't happen anymore. 2015 01:34:53,035 --> 01:34:55,690 -Salmon-avocado roll, tuna-avocado roll, 2016 01:34:55,690 --> 01:34:59,084 avocado roll, please, with extra soy sauce. 2017 01:34:59,084 --> 01:35:00,477 Can I have yellow sauce, please? 2018 01:35:00,477 --> 01:35:02,653 -By the time we get to, like, El Paso 2019 01:35:02,653 --> 01:35:07,136 or, like, those later dates, 2020 01:35:07,136 --> 01:35:10,705 me and that kid have been up every night for hour-- 2021 01:35:10,705 --> 01:35:12,794 My sleep schedule is stupid. 2022 01:35:12,794 --> 01:35:15,753 Like, I don't know. I was kind of going insane. 2023 01:35:15,753 --> 01:35:18,016 For two months, you know, for two months, 2024 01:35:18,016 --> 01:35:19,844 we were, like, nonstop. 2025 01:35:19,844 --> 01:35:22,107 [ Indistinct conversations ] 2026 01:35:22,107 --> 01:35:25,328 He was going so hard for everyone else. 2027 01:35:25,328 --> 01:35:30,028 -♪ I was on my own ♪ 2028 01:35:30,028 --> 01:35:31,856 ♪ For the past two months ♪ 2029 01:35:33,989 --> 01:35:35,642 ♪ I haven't seen a friend's face ♪ 2030 01:35:35,642 --> 01:35:38,384 -Friends, business, management, 2031 01:35:38,384 --> 01:35:39,864 he had a lot of pressure on him, you know? 2032 01:35:39,864 --> 01:35:42,562 Like, he's... He was just one human being, 2033 01:35:42,562 --> 01:35:45,391 and I think under anybody would have a problem 2034 01:35:45,391 --> 01:35:47,176 with dealing with all of that, 2035 01:35:47,176 --> 01:35:49,526 and it came from every angle. You know what I mean? 2036 01:35:49,526 --> 01:35:51,354 It really did come from every angle. 2037 01:35:53,835 --> 01:35:57,490 -Peep. 2038 01:35:57,490 --> 01:35:59,014 -He had a lot of kindness. 2039 01:35:59,014 --> 01:36:01,581 He had a very warm heart, cared about anybody, 2040 01:36:01,581 --> 01:36:03,453 like, you know, like, and, like, 2041 01:36:03,453 --> 01:36:06,586 I think people, like, were like, "Oh, because he's so kind, 2042 01:36:06,586 --> 01:36:08,284 I can, like, probably get his time, 2043 01:36:08,284 --> 01:36:10,460 or I can probably get him to do this or that or, like, 2044 01:36:10,460 --> 01:36:13,637 give me a feature or listen to my problems," 2045 01:36:13,637 --> 01:36:15,813 and, like, he didn't have all the answers 2046 01:36:15,813 --> 01:36:17,293 for his own problems. 2047 01:36:17,293 --> 01:36:19,382 Like, how is he supposed to help all these people? 2048 01:36:19,382 --> 01:36:22,211 I mean, his music was, like, the most he could give them, 2049 01:36:22,211 --> 01:36:24,604 I feel like, and people wanted almost more. 2050 01:36:27,912 --> 01:36:29,740 He couldn't be everything to everyone. 2051 01:36:29,740 --> 01:36:31,350 You know what I mean? 2052 01:36:31,350 --> 01:36:39,968 ♪♪ 2053 01:36:39,968 --> 01:36:45,756 -Wednesday, November 15, 2017, 2054 01:36:45,756 --> 01:36:50,369 20:52 and 48 seconds. 2055 01:36:50,369 --> 01:36:53,111 -911. What is your emergency? 2056 01:36:53,111 --> 01:36:56,288 -Hello? 2057 01:36:56,288 --> 01:36:58,595 -911. What is the emergency? 2058 01:36:58,595 --> 01:37:01,554 -I need an ambulance. -Okay. What's the address? 2059 01:37:01,554 --> 01:37:05,341 -I'm at The Rock. I'm at a venue called The Rock. 2060 01:37:05,341 --> 01:37:06,995 -All right. Tell me what's going on there. 2061 01:37:06,995 --> 01:37:09,388 -I've got a... I work with an artist, 2062 01:37:09,388 --> 01:37:11,738 and he's just completely out of it. 2063 01:37:11,738 --> 01:37:13,871 He's cold. He's just knocked out. 2064 01:37:13,871 --> 01:37:15,220 I don't know what he's taken. -Okay. 2065 01:37:15,220 --> 01:37:17,048 -But he's completely out. -And he's awake? 2066 01:37:17,048 --> 01:37:18,702 -He's not awake. We're trying to wake him up, 2067 01:37:18,702 --> 01:37:21,487 and he's not awake at all. -Is he breathing normally? 2068 01:37:21,487 --> 01:37:23,315 -Not really, no. -All right. 2069 01:37:23,315 --> 01:37:24,839 We're getting the help sent now. 2070 01:37:24,839 --> 01:37:26,536 I want you get him flat on his back on the floor 2071 01:37:26,536 --> 01:37:28,451 with nothing under his head. 2072 01:37:28,451 --> 01:37:30,279 -I'm on the phone to the ambulance now. 2073 01:37:32,455 --> 01:37:33,978 I'm on the phone to the ambulance now, bro. 2074 01:37:33,978 --> 01:37:35,893 -Okay. -Okay. 2075 01:37:35,893 --> 01:37:37,199 Are you next to him now? 2076 01:37:37,199 --> 01:37:38,983 -We're in the bus. -Okay. 2077 01:37:38,983 --> 01:37:41,072 Can you get him just flat on the ground? 2078 01:37:41,072 --> 01:37:42,421 -We need to get him flat on the ground. 2079 01:37:42,421 --> 01:37:44,162 -If he's not breathing normally, 2080 01:37:44,162 --> 01:37:45,947 we need to start CPR 2081 01:37:45,947 --> 01:37:48,210 to keep that oxygen pumping through his blood. 2082 01:37:48,210 --> 01:37:49,994 -We need to get him flat on his back. 2083 01:37:49,994 --> 01:37:52,214 -You need to start CPR now. He's not breathing properly. 2084 01:37:52,214 --> 01:37:53,911 -We need to get him flat on his back... 2085 01:37:53,911 --> 01:37:55,870 -We need to get him doing... We need to do CPR. 2086 01:37:55,870 --> 01:37:57,132 -...on the floor, on the floor, 2087 01:37:57,132 --> 01:37:58,742 yeah, on the floor. 2088 01:37:58,742 --> 01:38:00,875 -If whoever is doing it starts to get tired, 2089 01:38:00,875 --> 01:38:02,354 have somebody else take over. 2090 01:38:02,354 --> 01:38:04,487 -If she gets tired... -It can be tiring. 2091 01:38:04,487 --> 01:38:07,838 -If she gets tired, then fucking take over. 2092 01:38:07,838 --> 01:38:10,058 Have to stay on the phone. Is somebody on their way? 2093 01:38:10,058 --> 01:38:11,929 -They're already on their way, lights and sirens. 2094 01:38:11,929 --> 01:38:13,409 You tell me... -They're on their way. 2095 01:38:13,409 --> 01:38:14,453 -...if they're right there. 2096 01:38:14,453 --> 01:38:17,369 -They're not very far away. 2097 01:38:17,369 --> 01:38:19,371 -Fuck. 2098 01:38:22,200 --> 01:38:25,595 -You don't know how to call a mother to tell her 2099 01:38:25,595 --> 01:38:27,292 that her son just died. 2100 01:38:27,292 --> 01:38:34,430 ♪♪ 2101 01:38:34,430 --> 01:38:35,648 [ Clears throat ] 2102 01:38:35,648 --> 01:38:39,783 So I called her, 2103 01:38:39,783 --> 01:38:41,219 and she had, like, woken up. 2104 01:38:41,219 --> 01:38:42,742 I think she said she had just gone to sleep, 2105 01:38:42,742 --> 01:38:46,790 and I was just like, "Liza... 2106 01:38:46,790 --> 01:38:48,618 I'm so sorry. 2107 01:38:51,534 --> 01:38:54,232 Peep has passed. 2108 01:38:54,232 --> 01:38:57,844 Uh, I think he O.D.'d, 2109 01:38:57,844 --> 01:39:00,804 but the paramedics were there, 2110 01:39:00,804 --> 01:39:04,025 and the cops, you know, declared him dead." 2111 01:39:07,942 --> 01:39:09,639 What kept going through my head is, like, 2112 01:39:09,639 --> 01:39:13,338 I have, you know, two babies, and I'm just, like, 2113 01:39:13,338 --> 01:39:17,081 putting myself in his mother's shoes, 2114 01:39:17,081 --> 01:39:24,175 and I'm trying to process that this kid 2115 01:39:24,175 --> 01:39:26,351 who I've spent the last year and a half 2116 01:39:26,351 --> 01:39:30,529 taking care of... 2117 01:39:30,529 --> 01:39:33,141 [sighs] ...is gone and... 2118 01:39:35,795 --> 01:39:38,233 -I looked at him like he's so strong to me, 2119 01:39:38,233 --> 01:39:41,105 and then he looks at me like I'm so strong to him, 2120 01:39:41,105 --> 01:39:44,021 so it was just... 2121 01:39:44,021 --> 01:39:45,849 You know, it's just a great... 2122 01:39:45,849 --> 01:39:49,070 It's like it makes you feel worth it, you know, 2123 01:39:49,070 --> 01:39:51,986 especially when you look up to somebody, 2124 01:39:51,986 --> 01:39:56,599 and you look up to somebody, and they look up to you back, 2125 01:39:56,599 --> 01:39:58,862 and so what you got, start feeling equal. 2126 01:39:58,862 --> 01:40:02,300 It's not like you're looking up to somebody, anything, 2127 01:40:02,300 --> 01:40:04,694 just feel... 2128 01:40:04,694 --> 01:40:08,132 It just feel good being accepted by another, 2129 01:40:08,132 --> 01:40:10,352 and so that's what me and Lil Peep had. 2130 01:40:10,352 --> 01:40:16,184 ♪♪ 2131 01:40:16,184 --> 01:40:19,100 -The reality is that Peep is like a fucking Viking 2132 01:40:19,100 --> 01:40:23,887 and that he probably could muscle the unimaginable. 2133 01:40:23,887 --> 01:40:30,067 However, he took, you know, over the lethal dose of fentanyl. 2134 01:40:30,067 --> 01:40:33,853 I mean, there's no fucking... That's just death. 2135 01:40:33,853 --> 01:40:35,986 That's, like, death for anyone who takes it, you know? 2136 01:40:35,986 --> 01:40:38,075 He got spiked with something that, like, was far more 2137 01:40:38,075 --> 01:40:39,903 than any system could take, you know? 2138 01:40:39,903 --> 01:40:44,125 Sort of he just got fucking killed, you know? 2139 01:40:44,125 --> 01:40:46,866 -I remember seeing one video as a kid in the beginning. 2140 01:40:46,866 --> 01:40:48,738 It was daylight still. 2141 01:40:48,738 --> 01:40:50,914 He was passed out, and then the second video, next scene, 2142 01:40:50,914 --> 01:40:52,568 it was already dark, 2143 01:40:52,568 --> 01:40:54,874 and he already looked like he was fucking gone. 2144 01:40:54,874 --> 01:40:59,879 -At least hours, like, four or five hours, go by, 2145 01:40:59,879 --> 01:41:01,925 and there's obviously time stamps for this, too, 2146 01:41:01,925 --> 01:41:04,623 so there's, like, proof that, like, four or five hours go by, 2147 01:41:04,623 --> 01:41:07,365 and the sun is down, and he's in the exact same position. 2148 01:41:07,365 --> 01:41:12,196 Like, no one decided to touch him, not one person. 2149 01:41:12,196 --> 01:41:13,893 -Listen. I came onto the bus, 2150 01:41:13,893 --> 01:41:16,070 and the first thing I always do is check on Peep, 2151 01:41:16,070 --> 01:41:17,593 went straight to the back of the bus. 2152 01:41:17,593 --> 01:41:19,899 Everybody is on the bus now having fun. 2153 01:41:19,899 --> 01:41:24,339 Open the door, seen him, blanket, like, light off, 2154 01:41:24,339 --> 01:41:26,602 first of all, air-con blowing, 2155 01:41:26,602 --> 01:41:28,734 which is something he does when he goes to sleep, yeah. 2156 01:41:28,734 --> 01:41:30,388 He's covered in a blanket, 2157 01:41:30,388 --> 01:41:32,042 and his head is back looking like he's knocked out. 2158 01:41:32,042 --> 01:41:36,786 I was under the belief here that Peep went to sleep. 2159 01:41:36,786 --> 01:41:39,136 -So how the fuck is there any type of motive 2160 01:41:39,136 --> 01:41:42,270 or any reasoning behind some type of conspiracy? 2161 01:41:42,270 --> 01:41:44,402 I can't even go online, my nigga. 2162 01:41:48,014 --> 01:41:51,540 Looking at my mom in the eyes, bro, like, every little thing 2163 01:41:51,540 --> 01:41:54,586 that I've ever done wrong just blown up, my nigga. 2164 01:41:54,586 --> 01:41:57,023 It's the most embarrassing thing, my nigga, 2165 01:41:57,023 --> 01:41:59,983 and especially when I know the fucking truth, you know? 2166 01:41:59,983 --> 01:42:03,552 And I know that this shit is just so wrong, my nigga, 2167 01:42:03,552 --> 01:42:04,944 and just all lies. 2168 01:42:04,944 --> 01:42:06,294 I'm just so paranoid. 2169 01:42:06,294 --> 01:42:08,034 Like, may not even be y'all doing. 2170 01:42:08,034 --> 01:42:10,472 I don't know how this may be flipped, you know? 2171 01:42:10,472 --> 01:42:13,301 What specific parts of this documentary 2172 01:42:13,301 --> 01:42:15,259 are gonna be planted against me and my family? 2173 01:42:15,259 --> 01:42:17,609 -Yeah, yeah. -You know what I mean? 2174 01:42:17,609 --> 01:42:19,611 It would have nothing to do with you guys. 2175 01:42:19,611 --> 01:42:21,396 It'll be completely out of here, bro. 2176 01:42:21,396 --> 01:42:22,919 You feel me? 2177 01:42:22,919 --> 01:42:25,965 -Yeah. 2178 01:42:25,965 --> 01:42:29,665 -I mean, like, after this comes out, you feel me? 2179 01:42:29,665 --> 01:42:31,449 Certain parts that get picked, you know what I mean, 2180 01:42:31,449 --> 01:42:33,799 and edited by the conspiracists and, 2181 01:42:33,799 --> 01:42:35,627 "Oh, this is why this happened, and this why the..." 2182 01:42:35,627 --> 01:42:37,847 Suck my dick, bitch, nigga. 2183 01:42:37,847 --> 01:42:40,023 That's why this happened, nigga. 2184 01:42:40,023 --> 01:42:42,895 You feel me? Fuck you, bitch, nigga. 2185 01:42:42,895 --> 01:42:44,636 You got me fucked up, nigga. 2186 01:42:44,636 --> 01:42:46,203 That's why this happened. 2187 01:42:50,860 --> 01:42:54,472 -Peep's death, it's a lot of mystery behind it. 2188 01:42:54,472 --> 01:42:56,518 What the fuck was everybody doing? 2189 01:42:56,518 --> 01:42:58,650 Now, I'm not sitting here pointing no fingers. 2190 01:42:58,650 --> 01:43:02,263 I wasn't there, so I don't know. 2191 01:43:02,263 --> 01:43:04,656 Hey. You need 30 minutes? Okay. Cool? 2192 01:43:04,656 --> 01:43:06,832 You need a hour? All right. 2193 01:43:06,832 --> 01:43:10,575 Little weird, but four, four hours? 2194 01:43:12,534 --> 01:43:15,624 I don't know, man. I don't know. 2195 01:43:15,624 --> 01:43:17,191 I don't know about that. 2196 01:43:17,191 --> 01:43:18,888 I don't know exactly what happened, 2197 01:43:18,888 --> 01:43:22,457 but to me, something ain't right. 2198 01:43:24,285 --> 01:43:26,591 I'm telling -- Look, I'm telling you right now. 2199 01:43:26,591 --> 01:43:28,724 Keep this in there. 2200 01:43:28,724 --> 01:43:31,379 Half the people that's gonna be in this documentary, 2201 01:43:31,379 --> 01:43:32,597 they bullshitting. 2202 01:43:32,597 --> 01:43:33,859 They clout chasing. 2203 01:43:33,859 --> 01:43:35,861 That's all it is. 2204 01:43:35,861 --> 01:43:40,518 You have to be aware of your surroundings 2205 01:43:40,518 --> 01:43:43,956 because not everybody your friends. 2206 01:43:43,956 --> 01:43:50,876 So I believe he was starting to wake up, 2207 01:43:50,876 --> 01:43:53,052 but he just couldn't 2208 01:43:53,052 --> 01:43:57,056 because he didn't get the opportunity to. 2209 01:43:57,056 --> 01:43:59,624 Everything came back full circle. 2210 01:43:59,624 --> 01:44:01,713 -Wait right here. -Whoo! 2211 01:44:01,713 --> 01:44:04,847 -♪ I'll be back in the morning ♪ 2212 01:44:04,847 --> 01:44:07,371 ♪ I know that I'm not that important to you ♪ 2213 01:44:07,371 --> 01:44:11,027 ♪ But to me, girl, you're so much more than gorgeous ♪ 2214 01:44:11,027 --> 01:44:13,856 ♪ So much more than perfect ♪ 2215 01:44:13,856 --> 01:44:16,511 ♪ Right now, I know that I'm not really worth it ♪ 2216 01:44:16,511 --> 01:44:19,383 ♪ If you give me time, I can work on it ♪ 2217 01:44:19,383 --> 01:44:21,559 ♪ Give me some time while I work on it ♪ 2218 01:44:21,559 --> 01:44:23,605 ♪ Losing your patience, girl ♪ 2219 01:44:23,605 --> 01:44:28,436 ♪♪ 2220 01:44:28,436 --> 01:44:30,916 -He did not get to have his life. 2221 01:44:30,916 --> 01:44:34,920 He was gonna get to really have a experience. 2222 01:44:38,446 --> 01:44:43,233 I think what really is heartbreaking to me, though, 2223 01:44:43,233 --> 01:44:48,064 is that he had endured a lot of pain, 2224 01:44:48,064 --> 01:44:51,850 and he had fought his way through it, 2225 01:44:51,850 --> 01:44:53,548 and he was... 2226 01:44:53,548 --> 01:44:55,985 You know, he fought his way through the pain 2227 01:44:55,985 --> 01:44:59,771 of his childhood, really, 2228 01:44:59,771 --> 01:45:02,905 and he just didn't give up. 2229 01:45:02,905 --> 01:45:10,260 ♪♪ 2230 01:45:10,260 --> 01:45:12,349 But that's why I have anger at... 2231 01:45:14,786 --> 01:45:16,571 That's the thing, you know? 2232 01:45:16,571 --> 01:45:18,964 So, like, all of this, like, you get to holding onto him 2233 01:45:18,964 --> 01:45:22,446 and holding onto him and then don't want to let him go. 2234 01:45:26,102 --> 01:45:27,756 But you definitely don't want to get... 2235 01:45:27,756 --> 01:45:30,019 You just don't want to let him go. 2236 01:45:30,019 --> 01:45:36,808 ♪♪ 2237 01:45:36,808 --> 01:45:43,554 ♪♪ 2238 01:45:43,554 --> 01:45:46,775 -I'd had my usual day, 2239 01:45:46,775 --> 01:45:48,951 a couple hours at the gym in the morning 2240 01:45:48,951 --> 01:45:52,563 and then working hard in the afternoon, 2241 01:45:52,563 --> 01:45:56,306 come home about 6:30, 2242 01:45:56,306 --> 01:46:01,093 make my soup and go to bed 2243 01:46:01,093 --> 01:46:03,269 and get up at 5:00 2244 01:46:03,269 --> 01:46:08,013 and do my routine for the next day. 2245 01:46:10,059 --> 01:46:13,236 But then some point in the middle of the night, 2246 01:46:13,236 --> 01:46:20,722 the light went on, and Jenny, Liza's mother, came. 2247 01:46:20,722 --> 01:46:22,680 She has a key to the house, 2248 01:46:22,680 --> 01:46:26,510 um... 2249 01:46:26,510 --> 01:46:30,471 she came in and kind of just touched me when, 2250 01:46:30,471 --> 01:46:34,562 with the light, I woke up, 2251 01:46:34,562 --> 01:46:40,916 and she said kind of taking a breath, 2252 01:46:40,916 --> 01:46:43,222 "Gus is dead," 2253 01:46:43,222 --> 01:46:46,356 and, uh... 2254 01:46:46,356 --> 01:46:51,187 that woke me up. 2255 01:46:51,187 --> 01:46:52,971 Um... 2256 01:46:55,887 --> 01:46:58,716 I don't think I'd felt anything that bad... 2257 01:47:01,893 --> 01:47:05,114 ...um... 2258 01:47:05,114 --> 01:47:07,769 or so strangely bad... 2259 01:47:12,121 --> 01:47:14,253 ...ever before. 2260 01:47:17,039 --> 01:47:21,173 It's just a wound that... 2261 01:47:21,173 --> 01:47:23,698 [ Sighs ] 2262 01:47:23,698 --> 01:47:26,222 ...I don't... 2263 01:47:26,222 --> 01:47:30,400 I think it heals but only in the sense 2264 01:47:30,400 --> 01:47:33,098 that the pain of it never really ends. 2265 01:47:33,098 --> 01:47:40,279 The shock of the pain subsides unevenly 2266 01:47:40,279 --> 01:47:46,895 because sometimes, you know, the littlest thing... 2267 01:47:46,895 --> 01:47:50,507 Harvard Square, I see some kid walking along the way 2268 01:47:50,507 --> 01:47:55,643 Gus walked in a kind of... 2269 01:47:55,643 --> 01:47:58,384 I don't know what kind of... how to describe it. 2270 01:48:03,651 --> 01:48:08,351 And just, you know, I mean, daily you... 2271 01:48:08,351 --> 01:48:10,875 [ Sighs ] 2272 01:48:10,875 --> 01:48:13,530 Um... 2273 01:48:13,530 --> 01:48:16,925 It, uh, gets to you. 2274 01:48:40,688 --> 01:48:42,820 You know, everybody's life in that way 2275 01:48:42,820 --> 01:48:46,432 is some kind of instant in eternity, 2276 01:48:46,432 --> 01:48:52,308 and the good in it is just there forever. 2277 01:48:52,308 --> 01:48:57,966 I mean, I think Augustine got that from Plato 2278 01:48:57,966 --> 01:48:59,924 and from what he understood 2279 01:48:59,924 --> 01:49:05,669 from Greekish gospels like John... 2280 01:49:09,673 --> 01:49:12,415 ...that these things 2281 01:49:12,415 --> 01:49:18,682 are...limitlessly good, 2282 01:49:18,682 --> 01:49:24,296 and that makes me feel 2283 01:49:24,296 --> 01:49:26,342 that I don't have to worry about it. 2284 01:49:26,342 --> 01:49:28,692 It's just true. 2285 01:49:28,692 --> 01:49:31,608 I mean, there's... 2286 01:49:31,608 --> 01:49:35,830 That gospel song that I remembered at some point 2287 01:49:35,830 --> 01:49:40,530 over the last few years about this little light of mine, 2288 01:49:40,530 --> 01:49:45,579 but the chorus is wonderful 2289 01:49:45,579 --> 01:49:49,495 more than the verses, I think. 2290 01:49:49,495 --> 01:49:57,155 It's about, "Do remember me way beyond the blue." 2291 01:49:57,155 --> 01:49:58,635 [ Laughs ] 2292 01:49:58,635 --> 01:50:03,771 That's where truth is, 2293 01:50:03,771 --> 01:50:05,163 way beyond the blue, 2294 01:50:05,163 --> 01:50:09,080 but it's as real as it is here and now. 2295 01:50:09,080 --> 01:50:17,959 ♪♪ 2296 01:50:17,959 --> 01:50:20,222 So Gus is gone, 2297 01:50:20,222 --> 01:50:23,834 but, you know, he's way beyond the blue. 2298 01:50:23,834 --> 01:50:30,101 ♪♪ 2299 01:50:30,101 --> 01:50:36,325 ♪♪ 2300 01:50:36,325 --> 01:50:42,070 The deepest significance of being in the world 2301 01:50:42,070 --> 01:50:43,637 but not of it, 2302 01:50:43,637 --> 01:50:46,161 you don't have to accept the limits of it. 2303 01:50:48,946 --> 01:50:50,600 And certainly Gus did. 2304 01:50:50,600 --> 01:50:57,955 ♪♪ 2305 01:50:57,955 --> 01:51:01,916 And he had work to do, and he wanted to do it 2306 01:51:01,916 --> 01:51:04,570 to say what he had to say, 2307 01:51:04,570 --> 01:51:07,791 a real bell-ringing truth. 2308 01:51:10,098 --> 01:51:13,841 He wanted to get it right and get it out. 2309 01:51:13,841 --> 01:51:18,889 ♪♪ 2310 01:51:18,889 --> 01:51:22,327 I think that's, you know, real art 2311 01:51:22,327 --> 01:51:26,027 and, more than that, real soul. 2312 01:51:26,027 --> 01:51:30,031 [ "Walk Away as the Door Slams" playing ] 2313 01:51:30,031 --> 01:51:33,991 -♪ Club lights, we fight every night ♪ 2314 01:51:33,991 --> 01:51:37,081 ♪ Baby, I don't wanna do that ♪ 2315 01:51:37,081 --> 01:51:40,955 ♪ Your type, jeans tight, dirty Sprite ♪ 2316 01:51:40,955 --> 01:51:44,175 ♪ She like, "How the fuck you do that" ♪ 2317 01:51:44,175 --> 01:51:48,005 ♪ I can't be there all the time ♪ 2318 01:51:48,005 --> 01:51:51,356 ♪ But you know I got to prove that ♪ 2319 01:51:51,356 --> 01:51:55,491 ♪ I can't leave here anytime soon ♪ 2320 01:51:55,491 --> 01:51:58,886 ♪ I got something to do, yeah ♪ 2321 01:51:58,886 --> 01:52:02,541 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2322 01:52:02,541 --> 01:52:05,980 ♪ You got blood on your poor hands ♪ 2323 01:52:05,980 --> 01:52:07,633 ♪ I just wanted to help ♪ 2324 01:52:07,633 --> 01:52:09,679 ♪ Now I'm goin' to hell ♪ 2325 01:52:09,679 --> 01:52:13,030 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2326 01:52:13,117 --> 01:52:16,686 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2327 01:52:16,686 --> 01:52:20,211 ♪ You got blood on your poor hands ♪ 2328 01:52:20,211 --> 01:52:21,996 ♪ I just wanted to help ♪ 2329 01:52:21,996 --> 01:52:23,737 ♪ Now I'm goin' to hell ♪ 2330 01:52:23,737 --> 01:52:27,262 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2331 01:52:27,262 --> 01:52:36,140 ♪♪ 2332 01:52:36,140 --> 01:52:41,145 ♪♪ 2333 01:52:41,145 --> 01:52:45,062 ♪ Club lights, we fight every night ♪ 2334 01:52:45,062 --> 01:52:48,196 ♪ Baby, I don't wanna do that ♪ 2335 01:52:48,196 --> 01:52:52,069 ♪ Your type, jeans tight, dirty Sprite ♪ 2336 01:52:52,069 --> 01:52:55,246 ♪ She like, "How the fuck you do that" ♪ 2337 01:52:55,246 --> 01:52:58,684 ♪ I can't be there all the time ♪ 2338 01:52:58,684 --> 01:53:02,471 ♪ But you know I got to prove that ♪ 2339 01:53:02,471 --> 01:53:06,475 ♪ I can't leave here anytime soon ♪ 2340 01:53:06,475 --> 01:53:09,957 ♪ I got something to do, yeah ♪ 2341 01:53:09,957 --> 01:53:13,612 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2342 01:53:13,612 --> 01:53:17,094 ♪ You got blood on your poor hands ♪ 2343 01:53:17,094 --> 01:53:18,748 ♪ I just wanted to help ♪ 2344 01:53:18,748 --> 01:53:20,750 ♪ Now I'm goin' to hell ♪ 2345 01:53:20,750 --> 01:53:24,145 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2346 01:53:24,232 --> 01:53:27,801 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2347 01:53:27,801 --> 01:53:31,326 ♪ You got blood on your poor hands ♪ 2348 01:53:31,326 --> 01:53:33,023 ♪ I just wanted to help ♪ 2349 01:53:33,023 --> 01:53:34,982 ♪ Now I'm goin' to hell ♪ 2350 01:53:34,982 --> 01:53:38,420 ♪ Walk away as the door slams ♪ 2351 01:53:38,420 --> 01:53:48,430 ♪♪ 2352 01:53:48,430 --> 01:53:58,440 ♪♪ 2353 01:53:58,440 --> 01:54:08,450 ♪♪ 2354 01:54:08,450 --> 01:54:18,460 ♪♪ 2355 01:54:18,460 --> 01:54:28,470 ♪♪ 2356 01:54:28,470 --> 01:54:38,480 ♪♪ 2357 01:54:38,480 --> 01:54:48,490 ♪♪ 2358 01:54:48,490 --> 01:54:58,500 ♪♪ 2359 01:54:58,500 --> 01:55:08,510 ♪♪ 2360 01:55:08,510 --> 01:55:18,520 ♪♪ 2361 01:55:18,520 --> 01:55:28,530 ♪♪ 2362 01:55:28,530 --> 01:55:38,540 ♪♪ 2363 01:55:38,540 --> 01:55:44,459 ♪♪