(pensive music)
- [Camille] Children's perceptions
are clear of society's fears, hatreds and hurts.
They are new open souls, innocent and loving.
I think the monster under the bed at night
is born of the parent's skeletons in the closet,
clawing their way out of their psyches,
growing flesh and fangs,
desperate to reclaim their lost innocence.
(pensive music)
(brush scrubbing) (pensive music)
(saw scraping) (pensive music)
(sewing machine whirring) (pensive music)
(liquid splashing) (pensive music)
(pencil scratching) (pensive music)
(pencil snaps)
(hammer tapping) (pensive music)
(box cutter scraping) (pensive music)
(teacup shattering) (pensive music)
(fire crackling) (pensive music)
(birds chirping)
- Who's house is this?
- It's your grandparent's.
- You sure you wanna do this?
- Yeah, let's get it over with.
- Can I play with the little girl?
- [Camille] What little girl?
- [Sadie] On the swing.
- [Camille] No.
Come on, I want you to stay close to me.
(swing creaking) (gentle music)
(mourners chattering faintly) (gentle music)
- Camille, Malcolm.
I'm so glad you decided to come.
- Hi, Margaret.
- Margaret.
- [Camille] Oh, hi.
- Hi, Barry.
I haven't seen you since you were a tiny baby.
And who is this lovely child?
Is this my granddaughter?
- She's still a little stranger shy.
- I see.
- Hi, Shelly.
- It's good to finally see you again, Millie.
- Nobody calls me that anymore.
These are for you.
- Thank you.
They're lovely.
Shelly, do me a favor and put these
on the table with the others.
- Can I go play now?
- Okay, but stay close.
All right?
- [Margaret] We saved you a seat
at the church today with the family.
- [Camille] Yeah, I'm sorry we were late.
There was an accident on the turnpike.
- [Margaret] Oh.
(mourners chattering)
(eerie music) (swing creaking)
- [Woman] Can I get you another drink?
- Yeah.
It's like my Jim said, why limit happy to an hour?
- When happy comes in a bottle.
(birds chirping) (floorboards creaking)
- "I don't wanna go to bed."
Why not?
"There's a monster under the bed and I'm scared."
It's okay.
I'll stay with you.
- Where's Sadie?
Barry, where'd your sister go?
Barry?
- I don't know.
(Barry imitates car revving)
(mourners chattering faintly)
- Sadie?
(eerie music) (floorboards creaking)
- [Sadie] I'll move you here and you go there.
- Sadie.
I've been looking all over for you.
- Look what I found.
- I told you not to wander.
- I'm playing family.
(Camille sighs)
- These were my dolls when I was a little girl.
- Piper doesn't wanna go to bed.
She's afraid of the dark.
(eerie music) (floorboard creaking)
- How did you know what her name was?
- She told me.
- Remember when your dad made
that doll house for you girls?
- How could I forget?
- [Margaret] You should take it home with you.
- Can we, Mommy?
- I don't think that's a good idea.
- Shelly doesn't need it.
She's barren.
- I didn't know that.
- Well, if you ever called dear, you would know.
Anyway, if you don't take it with you,
I'm gonna donate it to Goodwill.
I'm trying to downsize.
- Please, Mama?
Please?
- Maybe we can come back later in the week and pick it up.
- Thank you, Grandma.
- [Margaret] Oh, you lovely child.
You're so sweet.
- It's getting late.
We really need to be going now.
- I'll see you out.
(eerie music)
(crickets chirping)
(engine rumbling)
(crickets chirping)
- [Malcolm] Okay, let's go to bed, buddy.
Come on. - But I'm tired.
- Come on.
(crickets chirping)
- I'll take this.
(eerie music) (crickets chirping)
(keys jingling) (eerie music)
- Don't forget to brush your teeth.
I'll be up in a second
to tuck you in, okay? - Come away (whispering).
(water splashing)
- Did Barry go down okay?
- Yeah, they're both out like lights.
- My hero.
- Hey, what's up with that creepy doll?
Sadie had a death grip on it.
- My mom made it for me when I was little.
(eerie music)
- Hey, where'd you go?
- Just thinking about today.
Thank God we made it through without too much drama.
(crickets chirping)
- You stayed strong.
I'm proud of you.
- It's weird, I don't feel sad.
I don't feel anything, really.
It's like I'm dead inside.
- Have you talked to Dr. Radcliffe?
- She died.
- What?
You never told me that.
- Oh, I emailed her a couple of weeks
after Dad went into the hospital
and her husband got back to me and told me the news.
Pancreatic cancer.
- Oh, that's awful.
- I'm sorry, I have been so busy with work
and everything I forgot to tell you.
- I was thinkin' maybe take a couple days off from work.
Give yourself some time to grieve.
- I can't right now.
- I'm sorry.
Just, I know how much she meant to you.
- Thank you.
(crickets chirping)
(gentle music)
Hi.
(eerie music)
- During visitation my Mom's all like,
"I love you, I'm sorry."
It makes me feel dirty.
- [Camille] Why is that?
- 'Cause she's only saying it
'cause she wants to make her feel better.
Love me, hurt me, fuck me, it's all the same.
If she was really sorry she'd change.
- I hear you, Tina.
I really do.
She may never change.
We have no control over that but what we can do here
is create a safe place to allow
the feelings around the trauma to emerge and release,
and over time heal.
Maybe even eventually forgive.
(eerie music)
- Some things are just unforgivable.
- I know you're hurting Tina,
but it's important that you direct
your anger where it belongs
so you no longer feel the need to aim it at yourself.
We often self harm in an attempt to relieve
our feelings of shame and anger.
- We?
Our?
Right.
(Tina sighs)
Hey, look, I gotta bounce.
- We still have some time in our session.
- [Tina] Yeah, but I got shit to do.
- Hey, Tina, you're doing really well.
- Right.
- [Camille] I'll see you next week?
- Yeah.
I'll see you, Doc.
(door creaking)
(door latches)
(knife thudding) (food sizzling)
(phone vibrating)
- [Malcolm] You've reached Malcolm Everett.
Please leave a message. (voicemail beeps)
- Hey babe.
Just checking in.
I need to stay late and catch up on some work
so don't hold dinner for me.
(papers rustling)
(light clicks)
(eerie music)
(light clicks)
(eerie music)
Hello?
Is anyone there?
(eerie music)
(lock clicks)
(eerie music)
(Piper whispering)
- [Piper] This isn't real.
I'm telling you, this isn't real.
(eerie music)
- It's after office hours.
The building's closed.
(eerie music)
- [Piper] Hi.
- [Camille] Who's there?
(eerie music) (electricity crackling)
(phone ringing)
Jesus, Camille.
Get your shit together.
Hey.
- [Malcolm] Hey, it's late.
What, you fall asleep or something?
- No, I got caught up with a case.
- [Malcolm] Is everything all right?
You sound weird.
- Someone's messing around inside the building.
- [Malcolm] You need me to come check it out?
- Yeah.
No, I mean, I don't know.
It's been a long day.
Maybe it was my imagination.
- [Malcolm] I told you, you're working too hard.
- I think you're right.
I should probably take some time off.
- [Malcolm] Come home.
- Okay.
I have a light patient load tomorrow.
I'll take the day off and I'll drive out to my parents.
- [Malcolm] Are you sure you don't wanna wait
until I can go with you?
- No, I just need to get some of my old things
before Margaret throws 'em out.
I'll bring Sadie with me and I'll be back
in time to pick up Barry from baseball practice.
- [Malcolm] All right.
- Okay, love you.
Bye.
(eerie music)
(birds chirping)
Hi, Margaret.
- Oh good, you're here.
I made us some lunch.
- I'm sorry, we can't stay.
I need to get back in time to pick Barry up from school.
- I see.
Well, Shelly can help you take down
the doll house and I did pack up
some of your books and things.
- Okay, great, thanks.
(birds chirping)
(floorboard creaking)
- Teddy, You sit here while I make the tea.
(bugs chirping) (dog barking)
(lever ticking)
(gentle music)
Oh, hi.
You can come play with us.
(gentle music) (floorboards creaking)
Sit next to Teddy.
We're having a tea party.
(gentle music)
(bugs chirping) (dog barking)
Want a cup of tea?
(floorboard creaking) (bugs chirping)
- Delicious.
Thank you (chuckles).
(bugs chirping) (birds chirping)
- Here, Mommy.
- [Camille] Oh.
(bugs chirping)
- [Sadie] Would you like some cream or sugar?
One lump or two?
Drink your tea, Piper.
- You left Piper over here with me, baby.
- Nuh uh, she's having a tea party with me.
Be careful.
Don't spill it, it's hot.
(eerie music)
- Camille?
Mom told me to help you with the dollhouse.
(eerie music) (bugs chirping)
- Well, this is the last of it.
Thank you, Margaret.
- Thank you, Grandma.
- You know, your father was in and out
of consciousness the last few days.
- Sweetie, will you do me a favor
and take this out to the car for me?
I will be right there.
- Shelly and I took turns at the hospital.
- He would come to and would be agitated.
He kept asking for you.
- He never really got over the death of your mother.
He always claimed that was the reason
for the distance between you two.
- Every time he told that story he'd always say,
"If only she kept her seat belt on, she'd still be alive."
- It was an accident, Millie.
- Right.
Well, she only took it off to get in the backseat
with me 'cause I was crying.
He tells the story like it's a blessing
I didn't die too but I know what
he was really saying. - He did not blame you.
- And then in college I found the police report.
He was driving under the influence.
- The other driver ran a red light.
What could he possibly have done differently?
- You know what?
Listen, I've made my peace with all this.
- I was with him when he died, Cam.
He was terribly weak and frail.
- That's what sorosis of the liver does to you.
- I don't know why you have to be so cold.
You were always Daddy's favorite.
You should've come to the hospital and said goodbye.
- I said my goodbyes a long time ago.
(door slams)
(pensive music)
- I have a big bedroom and lots
of toys and dolls you can play with, too.
And you can meet Barry and my daddy.
- He did not blame you. - Why do you have
to be so cold? - Safe in my heart-
- [Shelly] You were always Daddy's favorite.
- He did not blame you. - Why do you have
to be so cold?
- He was asking for you. - You were always
Daddy's favorite. - He did not blame you.
- [Shelly] You should've gone
to the hospital and said goodbye.
You were always Daddy's favorite.
You should've come to the hospital and said goodbye.
(pensive music)
- I promise I'll take good care of you.
I'll sing you to sleep.
I'll keep you safe at night
so you don't have to be afraid anymore.
- Sadie, who are you talking to?
- [Sadie] Piper.
(eerie music)
- Sadie, there's no one there, sweetie.
- Piper says grownups can't see her
because they're too far away from God.
(eerie music)
(officer knocking) (Camille gasps)
- Oh shit.
(window whirring)
- Everything all right here?
- You startled me.
- You've been waiting in this alley for some time.
- Yes, I'm sorry, Officer.
I needed to rest here for a moment.
- Have you had anything to drink
or any substances this afternoon?
- No, Sir.
(bugs chirping) (birds chirping)
(officer sighs)
- Look, I'll you what.
I'm not gonna run your license today
because I am off duty and my wife
is at home waiting for me. - Thank you.
- But look, I do need you to move along and get home safe.
- [Camille] Of course.
- Have a good one.
(Camille sighs)
(window whirring) (pensive music)
(doors slamming)
(pensive music) (dog barking)
- I'm gonna go play on the swing set, Mama.
- Okay, baby.
Just stay where I can see you.
Barry, can you help keep an eye on your sister?
- [Barry] Mm hm.
(pensive music) (dog barking)
(water splashing) (swing creaking)
- I don't need mama to push me anymore
'cause I'm a big girl.
I can pump my legs now.
- Not too high, Sadie.
- [Sadie] Okay, Mama.
(fly buzzing) (birds chirping)
(wine sloshing) (swing creaking)
Do you want me a turn now?
I'll push you.
Hold on tight.
(water splashing) (swing creaking)
Ugh, you're so heavy. - In my heart, innocence.
I sleep in (whispering).
- [Sadie] You have to pump your legs
like me if you wanna go high.
(dramatic music)
- Sadie!
(pensive music)
Sadie?
(door latches)
Who was just out here with you?
- It was Piper, Mama.
- What happened?
- [Camille] Did you see her?
- [Barry] Who?
- Where did she go?
- You scared her, Mommy.
She went away.
- Where were you?
I told you to stay outside with your sister.
- Sorry.
(eerie music)
- I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to scare you guys.
Come on, let's go inside.
(eerie music) (dog barking)
Barry.
(eerie music)
- All right, that's in.
Your dad built this, huh?
- [Camille] Mm hm.
- Voila.
It's a beautiful piece of work.
I wish my construction workers paid
this much attention to detail.
- Yeah.
- All right.
Anything else?
- No, thank you.
- All right.
I'm gonna go clean up and come down for dinner shortly.
(pensive music)
- Thank you, Sadie.
- Are we expecting a guest tonight?
- It's for Piper.
- Sadie has an imaginary friend.
- Isn't she a little old to have imaginary friends?
I defer to the specialist.
- Well, hello Piper.
Pleased to make your acquaintance.
Special occasion?
- It was a long day.
I needed something to take the edge off.
- Barry, tell me when.
- I think that's probably good.
- That's good?
And for Sadie.
Here.
Here you go.
- And Piper, too.
(Camille chuckles)
Tell me when Piper.
- She's not allowed to speak to anyone, Daddy.
- No, why not?
- It's a secret.
(eerie music)
- [Piper] Come away.
- "'Here's a special friend for you my child,'
the mother whispered.
And from beneath the heavy blanket she pulled a tiny doll,
which was wearing the same night clothes as herself.
'Listen to my last words, beloved-'"
- All right.
Time for bed.
- But the story's not over.
"'Listen to my last words beloved', said the mother.
'Keep the doll with you at all times.
Feed her when she's hungry,
let her guide you when you feel lost.
Tell her all your secrets.
She'll keep them safe,
locked away in the dungeon of her soul.
And with that, the mother's breath rushed out
from between her lips and her eyes fell closed forevermore."
- Where'd you get that book?
- It was mine when I was a kid.
- It's kinda dark.
- Read more.
(Camille chuckles)
- Nope.
That's enough for tonight.
All right, buddy.
You come with me.
Let's go.
I'll take that.
Good night, ladies.
Come on.
(gentle music) (crickets chirping)
- Piper wants a kiss goodnight, too.
- You're her mommy now.
- Too dark.
- Here you go.
(plate clinks)
Sadie, what is that?
It's Piper's dinner.
- Sadie, you can't put food under the bed.
It's gonna attract pests.
- [Sadie] But she's still hungry.
(eerie music)
- I said no.
Night, sweet girl.
(pensive music) (crickets chirping)
(cutlery clinking) (crickets chirping)
(wine sloshing) (crickets chirping)
- You coming up?
- Yeah.
I'll be up in a bit.
I have some transcriptions I need to catch up on.
"When Peter was two,
his mother died giving birth to his baby sister, Emma.
Shortly after, his nanny moved into the family home
to care for him and Emma.
Two years later, the nanny's boyfriend murdered Emma
and accused Peter of the murder.
Peter confessed to a police investigator.
He thought he had killed his sister
because he'd once hit her with a toy.
Disassociative identity disorder is characterized
by switching to alternate identities.
Each identity may have unique mannerisms,
different names and personal histories.
The psyche reverts to the alternate identity
as a coping mechanism during times
of high stress or physical trauma.
When Joanna was seven, she sexually abused
the three year old girl
who lived next door Devon.
who was six.
Michael, age five found her mother.
Physical abuse by...
Samantha committed suicide.
Two years. David Jones, age 15.
Severe neglect."
(solemn music) (crickets chirping)
(glasses clinking) (solemn music)
(cutlery clinking) (food sizzling)
- [Barry] Mom usually lets me have cereal for breakfast.
- [Sadie] Yeah, and then you put a ton
of sugar on it when she's not looking.
- [Malcolm] Eat them up.
They'll put some hair on your chest like me.
- But I don't like eggs.
- [Malcolm] Come on.
I gotta get to work, quick, quick, quick.
Daddy's got a big meeting today.
- I can take them on my way to the office.
- I thought we decided that you
were gonna take some time off?
- Don't infantilize me. - I'm not.
I'm just making an observation.
You're hung over.
Are you sure you're in the right head space
to see clients right now?
(Camille scoffs)
- [Camille] You're gonna be late for your meeting.
- Don't shut me out, Camille.
- I can't sit around all day and do nothing.
I need to stay busy or I'm gonna go fuckin' crazy.
- Whoa!
- Language! - Time out.
Hey.
I understand you're under a lot of stress right now, okay?
But I'm on your side, Camille.
Look.
(Malcolm sighs)
I know losing a parent can bring up all kinds of ghosts.
- I'm fine.
- I'm just worried that you throwing yourself
into your work is probably not the best idea right now.
- [Camille] My patients need me!
- [Malcolm] They need you or do you need them?
- Both!
Those kids have been through hell.
I can't just turn
my back on them. (game beeping)
Excuse me young man, you know the rules.
No electronics before school.
- Shit, I'm gonna be late.
Barry, go get in the car.
- I told you I can take them.
- Okay, fine.
You know I'm just trying to help, right?
(dog barking) (birds chirping)
(eerie music)
- [Camille] Sadie, it's time for school.
(eerie music)
- I have to go now, but I'll leave her with you.
(eerie music) (Piper exhaling)
(cart rattling) (pensive music)
- No.
Too much sugar.
(solemn music)
Barry, no.
(solemn music)
Okay, come on, let's go.
(solemn music)
Thank you.
Let's go.
- Excuse me, Ma'am, can you stop please?
- Why?
- I need to check your purse.
- No.
Come on, guys. - Hold on.
He told me you took a bottle of booze
and put it in your pocket book so I need to look.
Let me see.
- What are you doing?
- Let me see, let me see. - Let go of my purse!
- Let me see it! - Stop!
- Let me see! - Stop!
(glass shatters) (pensive music)
(shutter clicks) (eerie music)
(upbeat music) (solemn music)
(shutter clicks)
(upbeat music) (solemn music)
(shutter clicks)
(Camille snorting) (solemn music)
(Camille panting)
(shutter clicks) (solemn music)
- [Social Worker] Your father will be here soon, okay?
(officers chattering faintly)
- Hi.
I got here as fast as I could.
- [Sadie] Where's Mama?
- Is she gonna have to stay the night in jail?
- It's gonna be okay.
I need you guys to wait here while Daddy gets Mommy, okay?
- [Sadie] Okay.
- [Malcolm] Hello?
- What can I do for you?
- I'm here for Camille Everett.
- [Officer] Who are you?
- I'm her husband.
- [Officer] I'm gonna need to see some ID.
- Is she okay?
- [Officer] Have a seat.
(phone ringing) (officers chattering)
(door creaking)
- [Sadie] Mama!
- [Barry] Mom.
- Hey.
- Mr. Everett.
- Mom? - Thank you.
- You're free to go. - Hi.
- You okay?
- Mm hm.
- We'll call a lawyer in the morning, okay?
- Yeah. - Let's get you home.
(pensive music)
♪ Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream ♪
♪ Merrily, merrily ♪
Come on, Barry, get into it.
♪ Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily ♪
♪ Life is but a dream ♪
♪ Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream ♪
♪ Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily ♪
♪ Life is but a dream ♪
♪ Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream ♪
(door latches)
The kids are in bed.
Sadie's asking about you.
Maybe you should go tuck her in.
(crickets chirping)
We need to talk about this.
- Not tonight.
- They're very upset, Cam.
- I said I don't wanna talk about it.
- Couldn't you have dropped them off at school first?
- It's not like I was planning this, Malcolm.
(water splashing)
- Then tell me.
I mean, what the fuck were you thinking?
(Camille sighs)
- My dad just died.
People process grief differently.
- Peppermint schnapps?
Maybe we should get you back
on the meds until we can find someone you can talk to.
- I am not depressed.
- That is not what I'm saying.
- I'm doing some kind of fucked up version of grieving.
- And clearly you're not coping well.
Is there anyone you can to at Dr. Radcliffe's office, huh?
Did she not leave a referral for you?
- Starting over with a new shrink is pointless.
There's nothing new there to discover.
It's like picking scabs off old wounds.
- Then tell me what, what do you plan to do, huh?
Grief counseling, group therapy, AA?
Something that tells me that you are on top of this.
- I realize that you are looking
for a quick fix to this problem, Malcolm,
but it's just gonna take time.
So if you don't mind, I would love to go
to bed and put this day behind me.
(Malcolm sighs) (pensive music)
(crickets chirping)
- [Sadie] Mama?
Mama?
(eerie music)
(Sadie whimpering)
(eerie music)
Mama help me.
- Sadie!
(Camille gasps)
(object thudding)
(Camille panting)
(eerie music) (crickets chirping)
(Sadie screams) (dramatic music)
(Camille gasping)
- It was me!
It was my fault, I let her in the house.
- Who?
- [Sadie] Mommy!
- No, no, no, no, I'll go.
Stay here.
(Camille gasping) (crickets chirping)
Are you okay?
(Sadie panting)
- I had a bad dream.
- [Malcolm] Well, what was it?
- Mama forgot about me.
(water splashing)
(Camille sighs)
- [Piper] I wish you were dead.
Help me, help me.
(eerie music)
You're hurting me.
Let me go.
(Piper whispering)
Get out here.
Go.
No.
(eerie music)
- Oh.
- I had an accident.
- It's okay, sweetie.
You wanna come and sleep in daddy and mommy's room?
Okay.
Let's get you some new pj's, okay?
Come on.
Hey.
- What are you doing with her?
- She had a nightmare.
Sadie, there's Mama.
- [Camille] Hi.
- She had a little accident so I changed her pj's.
- [Camille] Okay.
- I'm sorry, Mama.
- No.
No big deal.
I'll wash your sheets in the morning, okay?
Come on, let's go.
(crickets chirping)
Don't worry, Sadie.
I'm not gonna let anything bad happen to you.
(solemn music) (crickets chirping)
(birds chirping) (solemn music)
(Camille groans)
(solemn music) (birds chirping)
- Who wants to go to the park today?
- Me!
- Why didn't you wake me?
(shutter clicks)
- I thought you needed some sleep.
(solemn music)
All right, how many are you getting?
- [Sadie] 10!
- 10?
And you?
- [Barry] 15.
- [Malcolm] 15?
Wow, we're hungry this morning.
All right, let's make some more.
(plate shatters) (Camille gasps)
(glass shattering)
What happened?
- Nothing.
(batter sizzling) (pensive music)
(water splashing) (pensive music)
(birds chirping)
- Hey.
- Hey, it's fine.
It's just a little scratch.
- [Malcolm] Let me see.
(birds chirping)
- Why did you marry me?
- When you fall in love with someone
you fall in love with their pain, too.
- There's an AA meeting near my office.
I'm gonna check the schedule online
and stop by after work one day this week.
- That's great.
(birds chirping)
There.
All good.
- Thank you, Dr. Everett.
- [Sadie] Mama, I can't find Piper anywhere.
- Do you want me to help her go look?
- No, it's okay.
I got it.
(air whooshing)
(pensive music) (birds chirping)
(fire crackling) (pensive music)
(gentle music)
- Barry, you wanna play catch?
- Yeah.
(gentle music)
- Nice catch.
Ready?
(gentle music) (birds chirping)
- Those are really pretty flowers, Sadie.
- [Sadie] They're for Piper so she comes back.
- You know Piper's not real, right?
- Yes, she is.
- Sometimes kids create imaginary friends
to help them understand difficult feelings.
Or if they're feeling lonely,
they make up a friend to play with.
Are you feelin' lonely, Sadie?
That's probably why she disappeared, sweetie.
'Cause you don't really need her anymore.
- But she needs me.
- Come on, sweetie.
Let's go find Daddy and Barry.
(water splashing)
I got you something.
(pensive music)
- Thanks.
(pensive music) (birds chirping)
(Malcolm whistling) (pensive music)
- That was a good throw today.
Almost hit me in the face.
Good thing I was quick.
(Barry chuckles)
Sadie, eat your food.
- I'm not eating until Piper comes back.
- There won't be anything else before bedtime.
- I don't care.
- Excuse me?
- Uh oh, you're
in big trouble now. - Barry, quiet.
Sadie, don't talk to your mama like that.
- You can spend the rest
of the evening alone in your bedroom.
- Okay, fine.
- What was that about?
(gentle music)
(eerie music)
Sadie?
It's time for school.
- Okay, Mama.
- Sadie, what did you do?
- It was Piper.
- Piper's not real.
This isn't real.
- Yes she is.
- Don't lie to me.
What is this?
- What's goin' on?
- Sadie, she drew all over the walls.
- It wasn't me.
- It's okay, Sadie.
- I don't have time for this right now.
I have to go to work.
- Hey, Cam?
Why are you makin' such a big deal?
It's just crayon.
It washes off.
- She's old enough to know better.
- Come on, Cam.
Imaginary friends, acting out, bad dreams.
Wetting the bad.
I mean you're a doctor, you know better than that.
- She's fine.
You're overreacting.
- Overreacting?
I mean even I know something's going on with her.
- It's just a cry for attention.
(Malcolm knocking) (car beeping)
(engine rumbling)
- Roll the window down.
There's more to it than that.
And this?
Aren't you dealing with this?
- Don't let her see that.
- She's a sensitive kid and you,
you haven't even been acting with yourself lately.
- I'll check her out of school on my lunch break
and take her to the park for a picnic.
She just needs a little extra one-on-one time with me.
- Yeah, we all do.
- If I don't leave now I'm gonna hit traffic.
We'll talk about it more tonight when I get home from group.
- All right.
(window whirring)
(Sadie humming)
- Sadie, come eat your lunch.
I got your favorite, peanut butter and jelly.
(phone ringing)
(Camille sighs)
I have to take this.
Hello?
Hi, Tina.
Is everything okay?
(eerie music)
- Mama?
- If you feel as though your home environment is unsafe,
your social worker can place you
in a domestic violence shelter
until we can find you a better living situation.
I know.
I'm so sorry.
I'll see you in a couple of hours.
(eerie music) (goat bleating)
- Hey, Sadie, do you like goats?
(eerie music)
You wanna pet him?
(goat bleating) (eerie music)
He's soft isn't he?
I've got some more in the van if you wanna see 'em?
(eerie music)
(Sadie screams)
- Sadie!
(dramatic music)
(Camille screams) (dramatic music)
(Camille gasping)
Shit.
(line trilling)
Where are you?
- [Malcolm] Hey.
- Malcolm, Malcolm, I forgot Sadie.
Someone took her.
- [Malcolm] What are you talking about?
The kids are with me.
- Tina?
It seemed so real.
I, I thought I lost her.
- [Malcolm] What are you talking about?
(line beeps)
- Hold on.
I have to take this.
- [Malcolm] Camille, wait.
Hey, Cam?
- Hello?
Tina?
- [Sheriff Vincent] No, this is Sheriff Vincent.
Is Tina Daniels a friend of yours?
- No, she's my patient.
Is everything okay?
- [Sheriff Vincent] Well, I hate to give bad news
over the phone but you were listed as the emergency contact
and were the last number dialed.
(solemn music)
(alcohol sloshing)
(phone ringing) (solemn music)
- Whiskey on the rocks.
♪ Take me underground ♪
- Just in time for happy hour.
♪ Take my hand ♪
Can I buy you a drink?
- Why limit happy to an hour when happy comes in a bottle?
♪ And we'll never ♪
Got a cigarette?
Got a light?
- Can't smoke in here, sweetheart.
- Care to join me?
(gentle music)
- I need you to make me forget.
- Oh.
(siren wailing)
(Camille moaning) (man moaning)
(eerie music)
- [Man] Playin' hard to get?
- [Camille] I don't want this.
- Fuckin' tease!
(singer vocalizing)
(crickets chirping) (engine rumbling)
- All right, let's tuck you in.
Get some ice cream tomorrow.
Are you okay?
- I miss Piper, Daddy.
Can you help me find her?
- What does she look like?
- She looks like Mama when she was a little girl,
but Piper has black hair and white eyes.
(eerie music) (crickets chirping)
- [Piper] Help me.
(Camille screams) (dramatic music)
(Camille sobbing) (dramatic music)
- Stay away from me!
Stay away from my daughter!
Leave us alone!
(eerie music)
- Hey, what- - Leave me alone!
(eerie music) (crickets chirping)
(Camille sobbing)
(door latches)
(crickets chirping)
- Why aren't you answering my calls?
(Camille sobbing)
Are you drunk?
- I lost a patient today and it's my fault.
- So you drank?
(Camille sobbing) (crickets chirping)
- [Barry] Dad, what's wrong with mom?
(dog barking) (crickets chirping)
- We can't live like this anymore.
I'm takin' the kids to my parents.
Cam?
Please get some help.
Nobody loves you as much as I do.
(eerie music)
(floorboards creaking) (eerie music)
(doors creaking) (eerie music)
- Always remember Camille,
no other man will love you as much as I do.
(door creaking)
(door latches) (eerie music)
- It's over but you have to stay very quiet
or he's going to find you.
(eerie music)
(Camille whimpering) (eerie music)
- If you tell anyone our secret, I will kill you.
(Camille whimpers) (dramatic music)
(solemn music)
(engine rumbling) (solemn music)
- I'm ready.
- [Malcolm] You got everything, buddy?
- Yeah.
- Let's go.
(solemn music)
(eerie music)
Oh, God.
(solemn music)
(eerie music)
- It's okay, everyone.
You can go back inside your houses.
We have everything under control.
(Camille knocking)
- Open up, Margaret, I know you're in there!
(Camille knocking)
You knew, didn't you?
- Come in before the neighbors hear you.
Come in, sit down.
- No, answer me.
All those years you knew what he
was doing and you never did anything to stop it.
- I don't know what you're talkin' about.
Your daddy loved you.
He never would have done anything to hurt you.
- Stop lying.
That's why you drank so much
because you're trying to forget.
(Margaret gasps)
- Sometimes it's best leavin' the past alone.
Jim didn't have an easy life.
His father beat the livin' shit out of him on a daily basis,
but he still survived it and he built
a good life for himself and his family.
- Why didn't you ever protect me?
- Because you were his special little girl.
Nothing could come between the two of you, not even me.
You always were a selfish little bitch.
Besides, by the time I knew what was goin' on,
it was too late and I didn't like what my options were.
You weren't legally my daughter
and I didn't wanna bring shame on the family.
Child Protective Services would have taken you away from us.
I grew up in foster care.
I know what happens to a pretty little broken girl
like you in the system.
Victims become prey to the predators.
No, you were better off with us.
- I am not a broken little girl!
- Shut up!
(glass shatters) (eerie music)
(Piper gagging) (eerie music)
(blood gushing) (glass clinking)
- You can't silence the truth, Margaret,
no matter how hard you try.
(eerie music)
(solemn music)
Is it okay if I clean you up a bit?
(solemn music)
- Is it safe to talk now?
- That's what we do here.
I help little girls and boys
when bad things happen to them.
- Like when they feel scared and alone?
- Yeah, mm hm.
It can be really confusing for little kids
when the people who are supposed to love
and take care of them hurt them instead.
They come and talk to me and I help
them make sense of things so they feel better.
- Daddy needed me to help him.
(solemn music)
- Can you tell me more, Piper?
- He felt sad about Mommy dying.
He would come into my room at night
so we could be sad together.
He told me I was his special girl.
- You're helping me remember, Piper.
I remember I did feel special because he chose to come
to my room at night instead of Shelly's.
I also remember being terrified of him.
- The sound of his footsteps,
his feet pounding on the ground,
the creaking wood, the clicking and popping of his bones
as he lumbered down the hall.
I could tell by his stride if he
was going to keep walking stop or stop at my room.
(eerie music)
Hide.
(footsteps approaching) (eerie music)
And when I say the shadow,
his feet beneath the crack of my door,
I'd hold my breath,
hoping in the sound of silence I could disappear.
He told me he loved me more than anything in the world.
- And I thought it was love until I became
a woman and realized the way he played with me was wrong.
(solemn music)
And the shame filled the space where my innocence was lost.
As I grew into a woman,
I finally came to understand the power
that I had over him and I used
that power and I started to reject him.
He needed me.
He was afraid of me.
(eerie music)
Excuse me, please.
I want some drinks for my friends.
- Can I have a kiss?
- No.
(eerie music)
- Bitch.
- He needed me.
He was afraid of me.
He threatened to kill me if I ever told anyone,
but he never came in my room again.
I must've buried the memory of you,
I buried you deep in my psyche to protect myself.
- That's what the world went black.
- What I thought was the monster beneath
the bed was actually me.
I'm the one that put you there.
(solemn music)
- Camille?
- [Camille] Malcolm.
- I heard you talking to Piper.
- Can you see her?
- No,
but I see you.
I see how incredibly strong you had to be
to have kept this secret for all these years.
- I've been disassociated
from that part of myself for so long,
and now that he's gone, it's resurfaced seeking integration
but I just can't get there because I can't face the shame.
- [Malcolm] No, it's not your fault.
- I already lost my mother.
I was terrified of losing him too
and I thought my survival meant making him love me again.
- You were just a little girl trying cope
with a horrible situation the best you could.
- And what's at that little girl's core is love.
How can I love my father when I hate him so much?
- Just like your patients, right?
Through forgiveness.
- I can't forgive this.
On some level it feels like,
like I seduced my father to get love.
- No, no, look at me.
Look at me.
This isn't in anyway your fault.
Forgiveness starts with forgiving yourself, Camille.
She needs you.
(solemn music)
- I am so sorry I left you in the dark for so long.
- It's okay.
(Camille sobs)
- You've been so brave.
Thank you.
I love you.
- I love you, too.
(solemn music)
- [Camille] There are many ways this story could end, Dad.
I could hold onto my anger as a boundary against the truth,
pretend it didn't happen,
hate you for the rest of my life and live
with the shame and darkness it brings.
But instead, I choose love.
I choose forgiveness for the sake of healing
this cycle of violence for myself, for my daughter.
I choose to step out of victim hood and reclaim my power.
It stops with me.
(gentle music) (birds chirping)
- Is he gone?
- Yes, baby.
- Is it safe now?
- You will always be safe in my heart.
(gentle music) (birds chirping)
(mellow music)
(gentle music)
♪ If I pulled some strings would you answer me ♪
♪ Take me underground ♪
♪ Where I'll take my hands ♪
♪ Off of both my eyes ♪
♪ So I can hold your face ♪
♪ And we'll never speak ♪
♪ Of our own place ♪
♪ I am alone ♪
♪ Too much, too much at hand ♪
♪ The water's too cold ♪
♪ I can't get in ♪
♪ I push it ahead ♪
♪ Deep in the sand ♪
♪ Doesn't it lay ♪
♪ A day ♪
♪ If I pull some strings would you answer me ♪
♪ Take me underground where I'll take my hands ♪
♪ Off of both my eyes ♪
♪ So I can hold your face ♪
♪ And we'll never speak of our own place ♪
♪ I am alone ♪