1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:25,627 --> 00:00:27,394 Okay, roll up like a ball. 4 00:00:27,427 --> 00:00:30,130 - Yeah. - This feels super comfortable. 5 00:00:37,170 --> 00:00:38,673 Make space for the baby. 6 00:00:50,117 --> 00:00:51,385 Oh, it's heavy. 7 00:01:14,742 --> 00:01:16,844 You wanna really remember that the baby 8 00:01:16,878 --> 00:01:20,280 is coming out of your vagina and not your face. 9 00:01:20,314 --> 00:01:21,592 Like, imagine you're sitting on the toilet 10 00:01:21,616 --> 00:01:23,283 and you're taking a big poop. 11 00:01:23,317 --> 00:01:26,186 You're face is usually like... 12 00:01:26,219 --> 00:01:27,689 You might be making some tension, 13 00:01:27,722 --> 00:01:29,500 but you're really focusing in down on your bottom. 14 00:01:29,524 --> 00:01:31,158 - Mhm, yeah. - Right? 15 00:01:31,191 --> 00:01:33,160 Next time you pee, just notice what you're doing 16 00:01:33,193 --> 00:01:34,596 with your face. 17 00:01:53,781 --> 00:01:57,217 Is this my pee face? 18 00:01:57,250 --> 00:01:59,319 So, clue me in. 19 00:01:59,353 --> 00:02:01,723 Tell me a little bit about how you're feeling. 20 00:02:01,756 --> 00:02:03,256 Like, how's everything going? 21 00:02:03,290 --> 00:02:04,826 How's it all? 22 00:02:04,859 --> 00:02:07,160 I think pretty good. 23 00:02:07,194 --> 00:02:08,529 Um. 24 00:02:10,430 --> 00:02:12,567 I'm hormonal. 25 00:02:12,600 --> 00:02:14,167 - Mhm. - I do feel like... 26 00:02:17,705 --> 00:02:19,473 Do you have something to say? 27 00:02:19,507 --> 00:02:22,476 We... we had kind of a defcon 3 meltdown 28 00:02:22,510 --> 00:02:24,344 in target the other day. 29 00:02:24,378 --> 00:02:26,313 - It was about car seats. - Yeah. 30 00:02:26,346 --> 00:02:28,348 We read all this stuff online, 31 00:02:28,382 --> 00:02:31,485 all the safety things, all the recommendations, 32 00:02:31,519 --> 00:02:33,521 and... 33 00:02:33,554 --> 00:02:35,757 And I had a friend say, 34 00:02:35,790 --> 00:02:39,326 "you know, this one's great 'cause it's the lightest one." 35 00:02:39,359 --> 00:02:41,261 The chicco that goes... 36 00:02:41,294 --> 00:02:43,865 - Yeah. - That's, yeah, interchangeable. 37 00:02:43,898 --> 00:02:45,566 - Yeah. - But, once we get there, 38 00:02:45,600 --> 00:02:48,435 I saw it was also the cheapest one, 39 00:02:48,468 --> 00:02:52,707 and then that made me so uncomfortable, 40 00:02:52,740 --> 00:02:54,942 'cause then I didn't trust it, and then I, like... 41 00:02:54,976 --> 00:02:58,445 I felt like a shitty mom for going to buy 42 00:02:58,478 --> 00:03:02,482 the cheapest car seat 'cause it was the lightest one, 43 00:03:02,517 --> 00:03:03,994 and it was the one that was recommended to me, 44 00:03:04,018 --> 00:03:06,821 but it wasn't the highest rated one. 45 00:03:06,854 --> 00:03:08,388 Hm. 46 00:03:09,724 --> 00:03:11,859 I, like, totally lost it. 47 00:03:11,893 --> 00:03:13,861 We didn't wind up with that car seat. 48 00:03:13,895 --> 00:03:15,763 - Okay. - Um. 49 00:03:15,797 --> 00:03:17,532 And... and we've never done this before, 50 00:03:17,565 --> 00:03:20,768 so we don't know what... What the right thing to do is. 51 00:03:20,802 --> 00:03:22,469 We don't know what the right way to go is. 52 00:03:22,503 --> 00:03:24,906 But, I mean, I know that my tendency 53 00:03:24,939 --> 00:03:28,943 is to... you know, I get anxious about this stuff, 54 00:03:28,976 --> 00:03:30,578 - and... - Yeah. 55 00:03:30,611 --> 00:03:33,681 And then, I try to mitigate my anxiousness 56 00:03:33,715 --> 00:03:36,851 - with control, and... - And when he gets, 57 00:03:36,884 --> 00:03:38,686 like, high tense and controlling about stuff, 58 00:03:38,720 --> 00:03:41,321 then I start to just take care of him, 59 00:03:41,354 --> 00:03:43,758 and I totally throw myself out the window... 60 00:03:43,791 --> 00:03:45,893 Right, she's trying to take care of me, 61 00:03:45,927 --> 00:03:49,731 and controlling the situation, which... which pisses me off, 62 00:03:49,764 --> 00:03:52,332 because we just keep triggering each other, and... 63 00:03:52,365 --> 00:03:53,977 Like, we've always, you know, kinda sometimes 64 00:03:54,001 --> 00:03:55,803 we just get into a cycle of, like, 65 00:03:55,837 --> 00:03:58,371 - caretaking, controlling... - Caretaking, controlling. 66 00:03:58,405 --> 00:04:00,007 But, I would say it's like 67 00:04:00,041 --> 00:04:03,276 - mm, mm, mm, because of that. - It's on steroids. 68 00:04:03,310 --> 00:04:05,312 So, why don't you just take a deep breath? 69 00:04:05,345 --> 00:04:06,781 Okay. 70 00:04:10,017 --> 00:04:12,520 Now, close your eyes for a second, 71 00:04:12,553 --> 00:04:15,288 both of you, 72 00:04:15,322 --> 00:04:17,925 and I want you to think about is, 73 00:04:17,959 --> 00:04:20,061 what do you need most from each other 74 00:04:20,094 --> 00:04:22,964 to get through the rest of this pregnancy? 75 00:04:22,997 --> 00:04:26,834 And how can you best show up for each other 76 00:04:26,868 --> 00:04:30,303 and make sure that those needs get met? 77 00:04:53,928 --> 00:04:55,428 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 78 00:04:55,462 --> 00:04:57,532 - Bye. - Bye. 79 00:04:57,565 --> 00:04:59,033 Okay. 80 00:05:01,869 --> 00:05:05,338 Oh, don't forget, oxytocin. 81 00:05:05,372 --> 00:05:08,375 At least one orgasm a day, okay? 82 00:05:08,408 --> 00:05:10,645 One orgasm every day. 83 00:05:10,678 --> 00:05:11,879 - Just one. - For both of us? 84 00:05:11,913 --> 00:05:14,381 - More her, you... - It's my oxytocin. 85 00:05:14,414 --> 00:05:16,050 - It's hers. - It's my oxytocin, too. 86 00:05:16,083 --> 00:05:17,585 - One. - Bye. 87 00:05:17,618 --> 00:05:19,419 Bye. 88 00:05:32,066 --> 00:05:34,434 - These kinda go together. - I like this one. 89 00:05:34,467 --> 00:05:35,770 His and her? 90 00:05:35,803 --> 00:05:37,138 These are for us to wear, right? 91 00:05:37,171 --> 00:05:38,806 Yeah. 92 00:05:48,082 --> 00:05:49,750 You don't have to watch us open, 93 00:05:49,784 --> 00:05:52,854 especially if you got us a shitty gift, 94 00:05:52,887 --> 00:05:54,789 but if you want to, 95 00:05:54,822 --> 00:05:57,058 we're gonna be determining which ones of you 96 00:05:57,091 --> 00:05:59,560 are our close friends, and which ones of you 97 00:05:59,594 --> 00:06:01,596 are expendable, so. 98 00:06:01,629 --> 00:06:03,731 - Ohh. - Ohh. 99 00:06:08,736 --> 00:06:10,638 - Oh, my god, it's the chicco! - Oh, man. 100 00:06:10,671 --> 00:06:13,808 - That's cool. - Oh, my god, it's a car seat. 101 00:06:13,841 --> 00:06:16,077 It's a good one, it's light, it's not too heavy, 102 00:06:16,110 --> 00:06:17,912 so you can pop it out, and I'll teach you 103 00:06:17,945 --> 00:06:20,023 a little trick for how to, like, loop your arm under, 104 00:06:20,047 --> 00:06:22,482 - and it makes it easier to... - It's a huge gift. 105 00:06:22,516 --> 00:06:25,086 - Kids do well with it, and... - So, yeah, and the breastfeed, 106 00:06:25,119 --> 00:06:28,556 it, like, really hurts for a long time. 107 00:06:28,589 --> 00:06:31,092 Oh, my gosh, she talked about the latch-on like it was so hard 108 00:06:31,125 --> 00:06:32,593 for new rudi be able to latch on, 109 00:06:32,627 --> 00:06:34,071 and she just, like, "near, near near," 110 00:06:34,095 --> 00:06:36,429 like a little gremlin, just biting and trying to, 111 00:06:36,463 --> 00:06:40,433 like, suck you dry of every little ounce of life 112 00:06:40,467 --> 00:06:42,069 - in your soul. - The only part of it 113 00:06:42,103 --> 00:06:44,005 that is cute is, like, your friend who, like, 114 00:06:44,038 --> 00:06:47,440 posts a beautiful photo of her breastfeeding on social media. 115 00:06:49,143 --> 00:06:51,045 It's like, "uh-huh, okay." 116 00:06:51,078 --> 00:06:52,956 - Nature at its best. - I've got, like, the cracked, 117 00:06:52,980 --> 00:06:54,682 bleeding nipples, and you're just like, 118 00:06:54,715 --> 00:06:56,117 "fuck you." 119 00:06:56,150 --> 00:06:58,185 It's cute, it's cute. 120 00:06:58,219 --> 00:07:00,453 Well, that's the thing, and I feel like women, 121 00:07:00,487 --> 00:07:02,890 and correct me if I'm... If I'm speaking out of turn, 122 00:07:02,924 --> 00:07:06,560 but I feel like women do other women a real disservice 123 00:07:06,594 --> 00:07:08,495 when they talk about their birth experience, 124 00:07:08,529 --> 00:07:10,564 like, "oh, my god, it was so wonderful." 125 00:07:10,598 --> 00:07:13,668 I think that that's a really messed up thing to do 126 00:07:13,701 --> 00:07:15,636 to somebody who's about to go into childbirth, 127 00:07:15,670 --> 00:07:18,606 'cause you should prepared that it's gonna be 128 00:07:18,639 --> 00:07:21,742 the worst thing ever. 129 00:07:21,776 --> 00:07:26,247 It is, sometimes it just tears all the way down. 130 00:07:26,280 --> 00:07:28,082 But, that's just the beginning, 131 00:07:28,115 --> 00:07:30,651 and that's gonna be, like, one to two days tops of... 132 00:07:30,685 --> 00:07:33,888 Of your life, and then it really... begins 133 00:07:33,921 --> 00:07:36,524 - to like... - Do you guys have a method 134 00:07:36,557 --> 00:07:39,160 - that, like, you're in? - Your, um, parenting method. 135 00:07:39,193 --> 00:07:42,697 So, we've been doing, um... Been doing these rie classes. 136 00:07:42,730 --> 00:07:45,099 - Uh-oh. - Which are pretty cool. 137 00:07:45,132 --> 00:07:47,001 - Yeah. - Read the Janet lansbury books, 138 00:07:47,034 --> 00:07:49,170 - which are fantastic. - And babywise. 139 00:07:49,203 --> 00:07:50,738 - Babywise. - To get around 140 00:07:50,771 --> 00:07:52,773 our sleep schedules, so like, we know when 141 00:07:52,807 --> 00:07:54,809 her cry phase will be, and... 142 00:07:54,842 --> 00:07:57,011 I think picking and choosing 143 00:07:57,044 --> 00:07:59,046 different pieces from different books 144 00:07:59,080 --> 00:08:01,649 is totally fine, that's great. 145 00:08:01,682 --> 00:08:02,859 But, you have to decide, like, 146 00:08:02,883 --> 00:08:04,161 "are we gonna have a family bed?" 147 00:08:04,185 --> 00:08:06,153 Like, is she gonna sleep with you guys. 148 00:08:06,187 --> 00:08:07,888 - That's what we did. - We did not do that. 149 00:08:07,922 --> 00:08:10,791 We had her sleeping with us until she was, like, 5? 150 00:08:10,825 --> 00:08:12,693 - Yeah, about 5 years old. - Were you guys just 151 00:08:12,727 --> 00:08:14,104 afraid of, like, crib death, is that why you...? 152 00:08:14,128 --> 00:08:15,672 - Yeah, that was... - Well, that was one of 153 00:08:15,696 --> 00:08:17,565 the big things, of course, it's crib death. 154 00:08:17,598 --> 00:08:19,100 We wanted to keep her close to us. 155 00:08:19,133 --> 00:08:21,602 But, I mean, she is a girl, so I mean, 156 00:08:21,635 --> 00:08:24,138 it's not that high crib deaths for... for girls baby... 157 00:08:24,171 --> 00:08:26,741 You keep saying "crib death" like that's a thing to... 158 00:08:26,774 --> 00:08:28,494 - It's... it's a thing. - Well, yeah, it is. 159 00:08:30,277 --> 00:08:32,613 It's... for a while it's hell, so just be prepared 160 00:08:32,646 --> 00:08:34,257 - that it's gonna be... - You don't get a lot of sleep 161 00:08:34,281 --> 00:08:36,050 - at all. - As soon as they're born, 162 00:08:36,083 --> 00:08:38,061 you will no longer do anything that you enjoy, because... 163 00:08:38,085 --> 00:08:40,154 Your baby dictates who you will become. 164 00:08:40,187 --> 00:08:42,256 You don't get to be yourselves anymore, 165 00:08:42,289 --> 00:08:44,759 'cause you're so tired, and so focused 166 00:08:44,792 --> 00:08:47,695 on making sure that you're not ruining this kid's life, 167 00:08:47,728 --> 00:08:49,339 and you're trying to make sure that you're doing it 168 00:08:49,363 --> 00:08:51,132 in a healthy way, in a productive way, 169 00:08:51,165 --> 00:08:52,666 in a happy way. 170 00:08:52,700 --> 00:08:54,077 You're not gonna repeat your parents' mistakes, 171 00:08:54,101 --> 00:08:55,669 you're not gonna do the wrong things, 172 00:08:55,703 --> 00:08:57,304 - and you do. - Yep. 173 00:08:57,338 --> 00:09:00,141 - You just do. - Watching my parents 174 00:09:00,174 --> 00:09:02,143 deteriorate in front of my eyes as a child, 175 00:09:02,176 --> 00:09:04,945 and not really understand what it was, 176 00:09:04,979 --> 00:09:07,014 I feel like you can see them shrinking from 177 00:09:07,048 --> 00:09:08,816 - who they wanted to be. - You're basically 178 00:09:08,849 --> 00:09:10,360 - getting thrown into war. - You don't have time 179 00:09:10,384 --> 00:09:11,886 for yourself, you just don't, like... 180 00:09:11,919 --> 00:09:13,754 My mother didn't wanna become her mother. 181 00:09:13,788 --> 00:09:15,332 Her mother didn't wanna become her mother. 182 00:09:15,356 --> 00:09:18,759 - My sister didn't wanna become... - And you see it, you know it, 183 00:09:18,793 --> 00:09:20,194 you hate it, 184 00:09:20,227 --> 00:09:22,339 - but you can't stop... - My dad had his money in order, 185 00:09:22,363 --> 00:09:24,065 had, you know, a record collection, 186 00:09:24,098 --> 00:09:25,332 all this cool stuff. 187 00:09:25,366 --> 00:09:27,068 He had a car that he really liked, 188 00:09:27,101 --> 00:09:29,603 he cared about his fucking car, and then at a certain point, 189 00:09:29,637 --> 00:09:31,238 everything was annihilated. 190 00:09:31,272 --> 00:09:33,340 I saw that happen, I saw a man 191 00:09:33,374 --> 00:09:36,377 deteriorate in front of my eyes as a teenager. 192 00:09:36,410 --> 00:09:38,012 I... it was a nightmare. 193 00:09:38,045 --> 00:09:40,014 I can't... I couldn't do it. 194 00:09:41,882 --> 00:09:43,322 But, you guys are gonna kill it, I... 195 00:09:46,954 --> 00:09:48,289 Yeah. 196 00:09:48,322 --> 00:09:51,025 Babe, babe, can you... 197 00:09:51,058 --> 00:09:52,960 Can you please tell me what's...? 198 00:09:52,993 --> 00:09:55,196 Jackie. 199 00:09:55,229 --> 00:09:57,832 Can you... can you just stop for a second? 200 00:09:59,867 --> 00:10:01,669 Babe, 201 00:10:01,702 --> 00:10:04,638 can you look at me and talk to me, please? 202 00:10:08,042 --> 00:10:10,811 Babe. 203 00:10:16,283 --> 00:10:18,185 What the fuck is this? 204 00:10:19,820 --> 00:10:21,222 Hummus. 205 00:10:27,294 --> 00:10:29,930 Did you not see this one? 206 00:10:29,964 --> 00:10:31,799 - I... - I got this one two days ago. 207 00:10:31,832 --> 00:10:33,210 - I didn't... I didn't see that. - It's huge. 208 00:10:33,234 --> 00:10:35,102 Okay, I didn't see that, but I don't think 209 00:10:35,136 --> 00:10:38,072 - it's a big deal, can we not...? - Now, we're just never gonna 210 00:10:38,105 --> 00:10:40,007 get through both of these before they go bad. 211 00:10:40,040 --> 00:10:42,443 - Oh, okay, but... - This one's huge. 212 00:10:42,476 --> 00:10:44,145 I... I didn't see it, I didn't look. 213 00:10:44,178 --> 00:10:46,280 I was also... you gave me the list with the bok choy 214 00:10:46,313 --> 00:10:47,824 - and the tamarind. - Yeah, I gave you a list. 215 00:10:47,848 --> 00:10:49,717 I was just trying to do a nice thing. 216 00:10:49,750 --> 00:10:51,952 I'm just asking you to do an aware thing. 217 00:10:51,986 --> 00:10:54,722 Look, we've... We've already eaten some. 218 00:10:54,755 --> 00:10:56,690 Look, there's already that much out... 219 00:10:56,724 --> 00:10:59,260 You're making that up, you're, like, making that up 220 00:10:59,293 --> 00:11:00,770 - to make your argument stronger. - Okay. 221 00:11:00,794 --> 00:11:03,164 The seal is still on it. 222 00:11:03,197 --> 00:11:05,366 Okay, okay, so the seal's still on it, 223 00:11:05,399 --> 00:11:07,444 - but... but the way they pack... - Why would you lie to me 224 00:11:07,468 --> 00:11:08,869 and be like, "we already ate some"? 225 00:11:08,903 --> 00:11:10,371 I mean, look, it's not that full. 226 00:11:10,404 --> 00:11:11,848 - It's like a potato chip... - You actually think we're gonna 227 00:11:11,872 --> 00:11:14,175 eat all of this before this one... 228 00:11:14,208 --> 00:11:15,943 - Yes! - Goes bad? 229 00:11:15,976 --> 00:11:18,913 - We eat a lot of hummus. - We would never eat this much. 230 00:11:18,946 --> 00:11:20,314 - We've definitely eaten... - When? 231 00:11:20,347 --> 00:11:22,159 - When? When? - Two things of hummus in a week. 232 00:11:22,183 --> 00:11:24,818 Okay, this is not... do you hear yourself talking right now? 233 00:11:24,852 --> 00:11:27,154 Do you hear yourself talking? You're, like, making shit up 234 00:11:27,188 --> 00:11:29,857 - about the stuff we do! - Would you fucking stop? 235 00:11:32,126 --> 00:11:33,961 I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell. 236 00:11:33,994 --> 00:11:35,329 Would you just stop? 237 00:11:35,362 --> 00:11:37,040 Because you're getting really stressed out, 238 00:11:37,064 --> 00:11:39,266 and the ob said you can't get stressed out. 239 00:11:39,300 --> 00:11:42,369 Babe, please don't cry. 240 00:11:42,403 --> 00:11:44,238 I'm... I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 241 00:11:44,271 --> 00:11:46,073 Look, this was all my fault. 242 00:11:46,106 --> 00:11:47,908 I should've absolutely seen 243 00:11:47,942 --> 00:11:49,511 that you bought hummus two days ago. 244 00:11:49,544 --> 00:11:52,022 I was trying to do a nice thing, but you're right, it was stupid. 245 00:11:52,046 --> 00:11:53,781 It wasn't a nice thing. 246 00:11:53,814 --> 00:11:55,382 It was a stupid and oblivious thing, 247 00:11:55,416 --> 00:11:58,819 and, hey, stop, stop, please, please, please? 248 00:11:58,852 --> 00:12:01,021 Babe, 249 00:12:01,055 --> 00:12:03,023 I'm really sorry. 250 00:12:05,560 --> 00:12:07,361 Hey. 251 00:12:13,367 --> 00:12:14,935 Ew. 252 00:12:14,969 --> 00:12:18,372 Why did you just put your hand in it? 253 00:12:18,405 --> 00:12:21,543 If having too much hummus is an issue, 254 00:12:21,576 --> 00:12:25,379 then I'm gonna take care of the issue. 255 00:12:25,412 --> 00:12:27,381 Whether it makes sense to me or not. 256 00:12:27,414 --> 00:12:30,184 It looks... You're not enjoying it. 257 00:12:30,217 --> 00:12:33,954 This is the best hummus I've ever had. 258 00:12:35,422 --> 00:12:37,091 I love this hummus so much. 259 00:12:37,124 --> 00:12:38,560 Oh, my gosh, I mean... 260 00:12:38,593 --> 00:12:40,928 - Ugh, the smell. - This is fun. 261 00:12:40,961 --> 00:12:42,196 The smell, please stop. 262 00:12:42,229 --> 00:12:43,931 Please stop putting it in your mouth, 263 00:12:43,964 --> 00:12:45,408 - stop putting it in your mouth. - And I'm gonna eat that one 264 00:12:45,432 --> 00:12:47,468 - after I'm done with this. - No. 265 00:12:47,502 --> 00:12:48,936 - No. - And we're not gonna 266 00:12:48,969 --> 00:12:50,481 have enough, are we? And we're gonna have to 267 00:12:50,505 --> 00:12:52,349 go shopping for more hummus later on this afternoon. 268 00:12:52,373 --> 00:12:54,542 - Don't you fucking dare. - 'Cause I'm gonna be 269 00:12:54,576 --> 00:12:56,844 a hummus-eating machine. 270 00:12:56,877 --> 00:12:58,379 Don't put it in your mouth, it's so... 271 00:12:58,412 --> 00:13:00,247 Ugh! 272 00:13:01,616 --> 00:13:03,917 Oh, god, sorry, that's so gross. 273 00:13:03,951 --> 00:13:06,253 - I just wanna establish that... - Oh, god. 274 00:13:07,988 --> 00:13:11,526 In this case, your concern 275 00:13:11,559 --> 00:13:14,962 about our... our hummus overage, 276 00:13:14,995 --> 00:13:17,131 um, might've just been rectified, 277 00:13:17,164 --> 00:13:18,999 'cause look, look, that one's half gone. 278 00:13:19,033 --> 00:13:21,001 - It's half gone. - And here's a vow 279 00:13:21,035 --> 00:13:23,871 that I make to you: 280 00:13:23,904 --> 00:13:28,008 I will never, ever, ever 281 00:13:28,042 --> 00:13:29,943 buy too much hummus again. 282 00:13:29,977 --> 00:13:31,912 - Never. - Never. 283 00:13:31,945 --> 00:13:34,616 I really appreciate that. 284 00:13:39,053 --> 00:13:41,455 There are gonna be times when I probably want more hummus. 285 00:13:41,488 --> 00:13:44,124 If you ask me to buy you hummus, I'll go out and buy you hummus 286 00:13:44,158 --> 00:13:46,293 that minute. 287 00:13:47,928 --> 00:13:49,564 Hm? 288 00:13:56,270 --> 00:13:57,871 - Oh, god. - Mm. 289 00:13:57,905 --> 00:13:59,239 - It's smelling. - Mm. 290 00:13:59,273 --> 00:14:00,974 - It's smelling. - Mm. 291 00:14:01,008 --> 00:14:02,644 - Mm. - Mm. 292 00:14:04,978 --> 00:14:07,214 What are you doing? 293 00:14:07,247 --> 00:14:09,850 Maya said, "once a day." 294 00:14:11,452 --> 00:14:13,053 Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. 295 00:14:13,087 --> 00:14:14,288 - What? - Do you still have 296 00:14:14,321 --> 00:14:16,056 hummus in your mouth? 297 00:14:16,090 --> 00:14:17,901 - No, I swallowed the hummus. - I think there's probably 298 00:14:17,925 --> 00:14:20,160 - still some there. - No, I think I... 299 00:14:20,194 --> 00:14:21,962 - Yeah, but... - I think I swallowed it. 300 00:14:21,995 --> 00:14:24,566 I can smell it still, so. 301 00:14:24,599 --> 00:14:26,300 What if you...? No, it's so... 302 00:14:26,333 --> 00:14:28,603 I'm super turned on, but if you, like, 303 00:14:28,636 --> 00:14:31,506 maybe just brush your teeth, or...? 304 00:14:31,539 --> 00:14:33,140 - 'Cause of bacteria. - Okay. 305 00:14:33,173 --> 00:14:35,075 I could go for it, but it... It's the bacteria 306 00:14:35,109 --> 00:14:37,044 - and the baby. - Okay, yeah. 307 00:14:37,077 --> 00:14:38,613 I'll go brush my teeth. 308 00:14:38,646 --> 00:14:41,516 And then, I'm gonna be... 309 00:14:41,549 --> 00:14:44,084 I'll meet you upstairs. 310 00:14:44,118 --> 00:14:45,653 Thank you. 311 00:14:57,331 --> 00:15:00,334 You're right, it was the whole day. 312 00:15:00,367 --> 00:15:02,202 It was the whole day. 313 00:15:02,236 --> 00:15:04,606 - I know. - Our friends... 314 00:15:04,639 --> 00:15:07,174 - Suck. - I know, our friends suck. 315 00:15:07,207 --> 00:15:09,644 They were so discouraging. 316 00:15:12,246 --> 00:15:14,214 It's still a little... I still smell it. 317 00:15:14,248 --> 00:15:17,017 - You're such a dick. - I'm a super smeller. 318 00:15:18,485 --> 00:15:20,454 Who brings up crib death 319 00:15:20,487 --> 00:15:22,222 at our baby shower? 320 00:15:22,256 --> 00:15:24,191 Mhm, I know. 321 00:15:24,224 --> 00:15:27,194 - Who does that? - I know. 322 00:15:27,227 --> 00:15:30,030 They said my vagina 323 00:15:30,063 --> 00:15:33,467 is gonna rip down. 324 00:15:33,500 --> 00:15:35,603 To your asshole. 325 00:15:35,637 --> 00:15:37,304 I don't mean to laugh, because I know 326 00:15:37,337 --> 00:15:39,215 - that would really suck. - Apparently it happens 327 00:15:39,239 --> 00:15:41,108 - all the time. - I am just laughing 328 00:15:41,141 --> 00:15:44,111 at the severe insensitivity of our asshole friends 329 00:15:44,144 --> 00:15:45,989 that they would bring it up at our fucking baby shower. 330 00:15:46,013 --> 00:15:49,283 I truly don't think they want us to be parents. 331 00:15:49,316 --> 00:15:52,119 What, you think they want us to have an abortion? 332 00:15:52,152 --> 00:15:54,221 Third-term abortion. 333 00:15:54,254 --> 00:15:55,623 I do. 334 00:15:55,657 --> 00:15:57,066 - Oh, that's so dark. - I do, I think they were trying 335 00:15:57,090 --> 00:15:58,368 - to convince us... - That's so dark 336 00:15:58,392 --> 00:16:00,294 to go into the ob, be like, 337 00:16:00,327 --> 00:16:03,197 "um, here's the thing: We know we were 338 00:16:03,230 --> 00:16:05,767 - really excited... - "We were, we were excited." 339 00:16:05,800 --> 00:16:08,001 About having this kid, but..." 340 00:16:08,035 --> 00:16:10,270 "But, we had a... We had a baby shower." 341 00:16:10,304 --> 00:16:12,740 "And our friends really fucked us up, 342 00:16:12,774 --> 00:16:15,710 and now we're wondering if you could 343 00:16:15,743 --> 00:16:18,513 take her out, and just, like, 344 00:16:18,546 --> 00:16:20,123 - "get rid of her." - You need to kiss her 345 00:16:20,147 --> 00:16:22,684 after this joke, this joke is too bad. 346 00:16:22,717 --> 00:16:25,052 - Baby, it's really dark and... - Baby. 347 00:16:25,085 --> 00:16:28,422 Dark, bad jokes for a dark, bad baby shower. 348 00:16:30,424 --> 00:16:32,059 But, they were so serious 349 00:16:32,092 --> 00:16:36,029 about... turning out like their parents. 350 00:16:36,063 --> 00:16:38,098 I know, but you know what? 351 00:16:38,131 --> 00:16:39,534 And it's true. 352 00:16:39,567 --> 00:16:41,803 - But, you know what? - They have. 353 00:16:41,836 --> 00:16:45,339 But, in fairness, b's always been a living nightmare, and... 354 00:16:45,372 --> 00:16:47,407 But now, she's exactly like her mom. 355 00:16:47,441 --> 00:16:50,477 Hey, babe, it's okay. 356 00:16:50,512 --> 00:16:53,080 - You know why? - Why? 357 00:16:53,113 --> 00:16:55,783 'Cause we're cooler than they are. 358 00:16:58,118 --> 00:17:00,755 Come on, take your pants off, come to bed. 359 00:17:02,590 --> 00:17:05,425 Fuck. 360 00:17:05,459 --> 00:17:07,227 Honey, 361 00:17:07,261 --> 00:17:09,764 I have to tell you something before I take my pants off. 362 00:17:09,797 --> 00:17:12,099 No, take your pants off, then you can tell me something. 363 00:17:12,132 --> 00:17:14,301 - That's so bad. - No, can you just 364 00:17:14,334 --> 00:17:16,571 take your pants off first, and then you can 365 00:17:16,604 --> 00:17:18,405 tell me something if you have to? 366 00:17:20,675 --> 00:17:23,443 Take your pants off. 367 00:17:23,477 --> 00:17:26,413 I got a text from my dad at the baby shower. 368 00:17:30,250 --> 00:17:32,419 I'm so sorry. 369 00:17:32,452 --> 00:17:34,321 Ugh. 370 00:17:34,354 --> 00:17:35,823 - No. - He said he was gonna 371 00:17:35,857 --> 00:17:37,457 be evicted. 372 00:17:37,491 --> 00:17:40,127 No. 373 00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:41,596 Um, I know. 374 00:17:43,698 --> 00:17:46,534 - I know, honey, I know... - How much did you send him? 375 00:17:49,202 --> 00:17:50,772 2,000. 376 00:17:52,507 --> 00:17:54,842 I'm... I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 377 00:17:59,479 --> 00:18:00,882 Woo. 378 00:18:00,915 --> 00:18:04,384 Babe, your dad is always about to be evicted, 379 00:18:04,418 --> 00:18:06,688 because your dad is a fucking drug addict 380 00:18:06,721 --> 00:18:08,856 who spends all his money on oxys. 381 00:18:08,890 --> 00:18:10,525 You swore. 382 00:18:10,558 --> 00:18:12,326 - You swore to god... - I know, I did. 383 00:18:12,359 --> 00:18:14,461 The last four times, not just, like, 384 00:18:14,494 --> 00:18:15,830 the last time it happened. 385 00:18:15,863 --> 00:18:18,600 The last four times it happened you swore to me 386 00:18:18,633 --> 00:18:19,877 - that you'd never do it again. - I did. 387 00:18:19,901 --> 00:18:21,603 - You swore to your sponsor. - I did. 388 00:18:21,636 --> 00:18:23,638 You swore to our therapist. 389 00:18:23,671 --> 00:18:25,205 - I did. - We sat down 390 00:18:25,238 --> 00:18:26,874 and we had this discussion, and you said, 391 00:18:26,908 --> 00:18:28,643 - "I'm never gonna do it again." - I know. 392 00:18:28,676 --> 00:18:31,546 That's the fucking kid's money that you just gave him. 393 00:18:31,579 --> 00:18:33,548 You are so, so right, 394 00:18:33,581 --> 00:18:36,383 and I know you're so, so right. 395 00:18:36,416 --> 00:18:38,352 Can you... can you not turn this into, like, 396 00:18:38,385 --> 00:18:41,388 "you're so right," self-flagellation stuff? 397 00:18:41,421 --> 00:18:44,759 Can you just let me be really pissed for a second? 398 00:18:44,792 --> 00:18:47,294 Yes. 399 00:18:47,327 --> 00:18:49,931 Thank you. 400 00:18:49,964 --> 00:18:53,233 Okay, that's all I needed. 401 00:18:55,268 --> 00:18:57,337 - Oh, man. - It's not fair. 402 00:18:57,371 --> 00:19:00,240 - That's a bummer. - It's such a bummer. 403 00:19:00,273 --> 00:19:02,744 It was just habit, but I know I... 404 00:19:02,777 --> 00:19:05,345 I can't, I gotta change. 405 00:19:05,379 --> 00:19:08,716 Well, we both have... Look, I just... 406 00:19:08,750 --> 00:19:11,485 I just... my first reaction when I was upset 407 00:19:11,519 --> 00:19:13,487 - was to, like, do that. - It's very scary. 408 00:19:13,521 --> 00:19:15,455 And... and I don't... 409 00:19:15,489 --> 00:19:18,926 I mean, how many fucking hundreds of hours 410 00:19:18,960 --> 00:19:20,561 in therapy have I spent 411 00:19:20,595 --> 00:19:22,396 trying to work through my rage issues. 412 00:19:22,429 --> 00:19:24,599 - There's still... - A hole. 413 00:19:24,632 --> 00:19:26,834 The hole in the sheetrock 414 00:19:26,868 --> 00:19:29,904 from... from, like, a month and a half ago, 415 00:19:29,937 --> 00:19:31,506 and that's insane. 416 00:19:31,539 --> 00:19:34,207 It's like, 417 00:19:34,241 --> 00:19:37,477 if we don't pull our shit together, 418 00:19:37,512 --> 00:19:39,714 - she's gonna... - We're gonna fuck up our kid. 419 00:19:41,916 --> 00:19:43,483 Mm. 420 00:19:43,518 --> 00:19:45,653 Like, we signed up for each other's madness. 421 00:19:45,687 --> 00:19:48,656 - I know. - She didn't sign up for it. 422 00:19:48,690 --> 00:19:51,391 I know, it makes me really sad actually. 423 00:19:51,425 --> 00:19:54,862 The therapy has made us aware. 424 00:19:54,896 --> 00:19:57,364 - Mhm. - But, clearly... 425 00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:59,466 Hasn't actually changed 426 00:19:59,499 --> 00:20:02,335 our behavior enough. 427 00:20:02,369 --> 00:20:05,640 It's like we need to, like, shake ourselves, 428 00:20:05,673 --> 00:20:08,710 'cause we gotta pull it together before we're parents. 429 00:20:08,743 --> 00:20:11,846 And I'm scared, too, because we've got 430 00:20:11,879 --> 00:20:14,782 - a month. - What if we shake it up? 431 00:20:14,816 --> 00:20:16,617 What if we challenge each other? 432 00:20:16,651 --> 00:20:18,553 What if we challenge each other to, like, 433 00:20:18,586 --> 00:20:20,655 activities and tasks? Like, we have a month... 434 00:20:20,688 --> 00:20:22,857 - I like this. - Before this baby is coming. 435 00:20:22,890 --> 00:20:24,458 - That is time. - We got... 436 00:20:24,491 --> 00:20:25,769 - We got four weeks... - It's a short amount. 437 00:20:25,793 --> 00:20:29,429 To become fully realized humans. 438 00:20:33,333 --> 00:20:36,537 To be parents. 439 00:20:36,571 --> 00:20:38,740 - Okay, so we got four weeks. - Let's do something. 440 00:20:38,773 --> 00:20:40,416 - Let's do it, let's do it. - Let's do it, let's change. 441 00:20:40,440 --> 00:20:41,809 Let's do it. 442 00:20:41,843 --> 00:20:43,745 - What are we gonna do? - More... let's, like... 443 00:20:43,778 --> 00:20:45,345 Let's jump out of an airplane. 444 00:20:45,378 --> 00:20:47,582 - Dine and dash. - Dine and dash, I'm in. 445 00:20:47,615 --> 00:20:49,358 - I'm in, let's do it. - I mean, just to get ourselves, 446 00:20:49,382 --> 00:20:51,284 - like, uncomfortable... - Okay. 447 00:20:51,318 --> 00:20:53,721 And, like... And see what we're made of. 448 00:20:53,755 --> 00:20:55,623 We could, uh... 449 00:20:55,656 --> 00:20:58,860 We could buy a classic car and drive it up the coast. 450 00:20:58,893 --> 00:21:00,762 Like, we go to Antarctica. 451 00:21:00,795 --> 00:21:03,598 Great, we dive under an icecap, 452 00:21:03,631 --> 00:21:06,333 and swim around, and we come up, and woo! 453 00:21:06,366 --> 00:21:08,703 - Yeah, yeah! - Yeah, yeah! 454 00:21:08,736 --> 00:21:10,738 We could jump off a cliff into the ocean. 455 00:21:10,772 --> 00:21:13,841 - Um, we could swim with sharks. - We could graffiti something. 456 00:21:13,875 --> 00:21:15,510 Uh, we could get tattoos. 457 00:21:15,543 --> 00:21:17,779 - Let's, um... - Go to a punk-rock show. 458 00:21:17,812 --> 00:21:20,380 - Mosh pit. - We buy a falcon. 459 00:21:20,413 --> 00:21:22,683 - I would love a falcon. - Oh, yeah. 460 00:21:22,717 --> 00:21:24,852 - Sitting on the porch. - Um. 461 00:21:24,886 --> 00:21:27,320 We could... Let's get chased by the cops. 462 00:21:27,354 --> 00:21:28,890 We could do anything honestly. 463 00:21:28,923 --> 00:21:30,625 We could... but we could both take 464 00:21:30,658 --> 00:21:32,778 - pole dancing classes. - I could fuck you in the ass. 465 00:21:34,061 --> 00:21:35,863 That's funny. 466 00:21:38,733 --> 00:21:40,701 - Yeah, no. - Okay, what else could we do? 467 00:21:40,735 --> 00:21:42,402 - No, but, honey. - What? 468 00:21:42,435 --> 00:21:44,481 - Actually that one... - Oh, we're not playing a game, 469 00:21:44,505 --> 00:21:46,373 - you're serious now. - All the other ones 470 00:21:46,406 --> 00:21:48,085 it's super fun to think of, but we actually 471 00:21:48,109 --> 00:21:50,578 can't travel right now, 'cause of the baby, 472 00:21:50,611 --> 00:21:52,880 and we can't put her in dangerous situations. 473 00:21:52,914 --> 00:21:55,448 Like... like, it's fun to think about jumping out of a plane, 474 00:21:55,482 --> 00:21:56,827 but I'm never gonna do that with a baby, 475 00:21:56,851 --> 00:21:59,654 but... but what about 476 00:21:59,687 --> 00:22:02,089 pegging? 477 00:22:02,123 --> 00:22:04,692 - Because that's... - I... I... I... 478 00:22:04,725 --> 00:22:06,127 - intimate. - I just got... 479 00:22:06,160 --> 00:22:08,495 It is intimate, I don't see how it really 480 00:22:08,529 --> 00:22:10,631 prepares us to become better parents 481 00:22:10,665 --> 00:22:12,042 - in a month. - No, but it... it makes us 482 00:22:12,066 --> 00:22:13,534 - deal with stuff. - Ugh. 483 00:22:13,568 --> 00:22:16,537 It's an act... it's so actionable. 484 00:22:16,571 --> 00:22:18,639 Yeah, no, it's definitely actionable. 485 00:22:18,673 --> 00:22:20,449 I read this article and it's like it's supposed 486 00:22:20,473 --> 00:22:22,510 - to be so empowering. - Mhm. 487 00:22:22,543 --> 00:22:25,546 And it... and honestly, it really deals with our issues 488 00:22:25,580 --> 00:22:26,957 in a way where... 'Cause I'm always being 489 00:22:26,981 --> 00:22:28,783 a caretaker, and I'm always, like... 490 00:22:28,816 --> 00:22:31,484 Like, when we have sex, I receive you and I hold you, 491 00:22:31,519 --> 00:22:32,820 and I'm always going 492 00:22:32,854 --> 00:22:34,555 - with your rhythm. - I wait until you come 493 00:22:34,589 --> 00:22:36,066 - until I come every single time. - Which is... which is awesome. 494 00:22:36,090 --> 00:22:37,792 No, you are a very generous lover, 495 00:22:37,825 --> 00:22:39,703 you're very good, but it is like a waiting for you... 496 00:22:39,727 --> 00:22:41,762 It is... there is, like, um... 497 00:22:41,796 --> 00:22:43,831 You're in control, 498 00:22:43,865 --> 00:22:46,167 and what if you weren't in control? 499 00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:49,136 Hm? 500 00:22:49,170 --> 00:22:52,607 I mean, it would be so... Remember what Maya said? 501 00:22:52,640 --> 00:22:55,475 Yeah, when... when we were humming the song back then, 502 00:22:55,509 --> 00:22:58,478 I didn't think it was leading to fucking me in the ass. 503 00:23:00,648 --> 00:23:02,516 - Honey. - Uh-huh? 504 00:23:05,485 --> 00:23:08,556 I feel like I need this. 505 00:23:30,511 --> 00:23:32,013 - Hello. - Hi. 506 00:23:32,046 --> 00:23:34,649 Hi. 507 00:23:34,682 --> 00:23:38,019 So, this is our sweet spot. 508 00:23:38,052 --> 00:23:40,955 First time, it's so exciting. 509 00:23:40,988 --> 00:23:43,224 I remember my first time like it was, 510 00:23:43,257 --> 00:23:44,892 uh, 10 years ago. 511 00:23:46,594 --> 00:23:48,863 Uh, I guess it kinda depends on who this is for. 512 00:23:48,896 --> 00:23:52,033 I mean, obviously it's for both of you, right? 513 00:23:52,066 --> 00:23:55,468 Yeah, more for her in this case than for me, 514 00:23:55,503 --> 00:23:58,239 - but yeah. - I think for you... 515 00:23:58,272 --> 00:23:59,807 - Mhm. - You might like something 516 00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:01,742 - with vibration because... - Nah. 517 00:24:01,776 --> 00:24:05,046 You'll also have a bit of clitoral stimulation during. 518 00:24:05,079 --> 00:24:07,615 - Ooh. - So, that could be really nice. 519 00:24:07,648 --> 00:24:10,483 I think... I think we don't need to do vibration. 520 00:24:10,518 --> 00:24:12,553 Let's just... Let's skip the vibration. 521 00:24:12,586 --> 00:24:14,622 Let's skip any bells and whistles, 522 00:24:14,655 --> 00:24:16,691 and really what we're looking for 523 00:24:16,724 --> 00:24:19,260 is just kinda the vw bug 524 00:24:19,293 --> 00:24:21,729 of strap-ons. 525 00:24:21,762 --> 00:24:23,831 We do have a beginner strap-on actually. 526 00:24:23,864 --> 00:24:26,043 Oh, that is, that says, "beginner strap-on" right there, 527 00:24:26,067 --> 00:24:28,569 - "for him." - It's 4-and-a-half inches. 528 00:24:28,602 --> 00:24:30,871 - Okay. - So, I think plus belly... 529 00:24:30,905 --> 00:24:33,240 I was gonna say, if... Do we need, like... 530 00:24:33,274 --> 00:24:35,152 I think you're gonna want more length, personally. 531 00:24:35,176 --> 00:24:37,220 Personally, I would say you're gonna want more length 532 00:24:37,244 --> 00:24:39,246 given belly and. 533 00:24:39,280 --> 00:24:42,950 Okay, I would suggest going modular. 534 00:24:42,984 --> 00:24:44,885 We've got a couple harness options. 535 00:24:44,919 --> 00:24:46,954 This is our most popular, this is my favorite. 536 00:24:46,988 --> 00:24:48,899 - I have this one actually. - Oh, you have this one? 537 00:24:48,923 --> 00:24:50,591 Yeah, this one's really, really great. 538 00:24:50,624 --> 00:24:53,794 Super well priced, really easy to use. 539 00:24:53,828 --> 00:24:55,563 Um, not super intimidating. 540 00:24:55,596 --> 00:24:58,833 Can you just tell me, what... What are these? 541 00:24:58,866 --> 00:25:02,136 This is, um, if you want a dick on your dick. 542 00:25:02,169 --> 00:25:03,771 Uh, oh, that's just if... 543 00:25:03,804 --> 00:25:05,272 - Length. - You have a small dick 544 00:25:05,306 --> 00:25:06,984 - and you want a bigger dick? - You don't necessarily 545 00:25:07,008 --> 00:25:08,976 have to have a small dick, it's for any size dick, 546 00:25:09,010 --> 00:25:11,312 but if you want more length. 547 00:25:11,345 --> 00:25:13,848 So, I... I would go here. 548 00:25:13,881 --> 00:25:15,549 It's a really good color. 549 00:25:15,583 --> 00:25:17,752 - If it's your favorite. - Yeah, I would go here. 550 00:25:17,785 --> 00:25:19,887 - And then... - Can I just ask, 551 00:25:19,920 --> 00:25:22,990 um, is something that you use with your current partner? 552 00:25:23,024 --> 00:25:25,826 It is something I have used with past partners, yes. 553 00:25:25,860 --> 00:25:28,562 Um, and without getting too personal... 554 00:25:28,596 --> 00:25:30,140 I guess as a general question, 'cause I think 555 00:25:30,164 --> 00:25:32,566 what he's getting at is, a lot of straight couples 556 00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:34,668 - use this, right? - Definitely. 557 00:25:34,702 --> 00:25:36,246 - That's what I was asking. - Definitely, plenty of 558 00:25:36,270 --> 00:25:40,307 - straight couples use these. - But, is your partner a...? 559 00:25:43,244 --> 00:25:45,279 So, I would say 560 00:25:45,312 --> 00:25:47,882 this would be a great place to go 561 00:25:47,915 --> 00:25:49,817 if you wanna go for something modular, 562 00:25:49,850 --> 00:25:53,254 where you can purchase a harness and also a dildo. 563 00:25:53,287 --> 00:25:55,089 And are these the only two options for dildos? 564 00:25:55,122 --> 00:25:57,358 No, we have a plethora of options. 565 00:25:57,391 --> 00:25:59,360 Uh, would you like to see them? 566 00:25:59,393 --> 00:26:01,729 - Okay, there we go. - Good. 567 00:26:01,762 --> 00:26:03,998 - And that'll be all? - And some of this. 568 00:26:04,031 --> 00:26:06,700 - Plus lube, okay. - I got this one. 569 00:26:06,734 --> 00:26:08,235 - Thanks, babe. - Yeah. 570 00:26:37,798 --> 00:26:39,700 All right, come here, I love you. 571 00:26:39,733 --> 00:26:41,268 I just want you to know 572 00:26:41,302 --> 00:26:44,038 your mama's dick is bigger than mine is, 573 00:26:44,071 --> 00:26:46,073 and, um, I'm okay with that, 574 00:26:46,107 --> 00:26:49,743 because I am a modern, evolved man 575 00:26:49,777 --> 00:26:51,979 - in a modern, evolved world. - Mhm. 576 00:26:52,012 --> 00:26:55,316 And, um, that doesn't make me feel insecure at all. 577 00:26:55,349 --> 00:26:57,718 - Okay, okay. - Mhm. 578 00:26:57,751 --> 00:26:59,420 Okay, okay. 579 00:26:59,453 --> 00:27:02,256 - I like this angle. - Thanks. 580 00:27:02,289 --> 00:27:05,025 I'm gonna need your butt a little higher. 581 00:27:05,059 --> 00:27:06,760 - Okay. - Like, put a little arch 582 00:27:06,794 --> 00:27:08,996 in your back, a little cat cow. 583 00:27:09,029 --> 00:27:10,664 - Uh-huh. - Okay. 584 00:27:10,698 --> 00:27:13,167 Just... I know what you're feeling. 585 00:27:13,200 --> 00:27:15,069 - Uh-huh, uh-huh. - I've been there. 586 00:27:15,102 --> 00:27:18,272 Just put the weight on the elbows. 587 00:27:18,305 --> 00:27:20,141 - Okay. - And let yourself 588 00:27:20,174 --> 00:27:22,710 rock forward. 589 00:27:22,743 --> 00:27:24,445 It's better, right? 590 00:27:24,478 --> 00:27:26,881 You're gonna feel 591 00:27:26,914 --> 00:27:28,415 - a little something... - Okay! 592 00:27:28,449 --> 00:27:32,219 Um, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. 593 00:27:32,253 --> 00:27:34,221 - I didn't even put it in. - I know. 594 00:27:34,255 --> 00:27:36,790 If I say, "stop," you stop immediately. 595 00:27:36,824 --> 00:27:38,425 - Immediately. - Safe word: 596 00:27:38,459 --> 00:27:40,861 "Immediately." 597 00:27:40,895 --> 00:27:43,130 "Immediately" is our safe word? 598 00:27:43,164 --> 00:27:46,133 No, "stop" is our safe word, I'm just... I was just trying 599 00:27:46,167 --> 00:27:48,702 to reiterate that if I say, "stop," 600 00:27:48,736 --> 00:27:50,704 that you immediately stop. 601 00:27:50,738 --> 00:27:53,140 Yes, and maybe, 602 00:27:53,174 --> 00:27:55,843 just throwing out there, we pause, 603 00:27:55,876 --> 00:27:58,078 as opposed to, like, pull everything apart. 604 00:27:58,112 --> 00:28:00,714 Okay, except if I tell you to pull it out, you pull it out. 605 00:28:00,748 --> 00:28:01,916 - Yes. - Okay. 606 00:28:01,949 --> 00:28:03,951 - Yeah. - Okay, I just, you know, 607 00:28:03,984 --> 00:28:06,220 - I would do the same for you. - You would? 608 00:28:06,253 --> 00:28:09,190 - Yeah. - All right. 609 00:28:09,223 --> 00:28:12,893 - Just breathe. - Okay, huh! 610 00:28:12,927 --> 00:28:15,863 - Huh! - It's a familiar. 611 00:28:15,896 --> 00:28:18,432 - It's me. - Ah, ah, ah, ah! 612 00:28:18,465 --> 00:28:20,467 Breathe. 613 00:28:20,501 --> 00:28:22,970 It's okay, are you okay? 614 00:28:23,003 --> 00:28:24,338 - Mhm. - Okay, I want you to... 615 00:28:24,371 --> 00:28:26,974 I want you to enjoy it, and if you don't, it's... 616 00:28:27,007 --> 00:28:29,977 We're just gonna pause. 617 00:28:30,010 --> 00:28:31,988 Just let me breathe, just stop right there and let me breathe. 618 00:28:32,012 --> 00:28:33,480 Uh-huh. 619 00:28:36,116 --> 00:28:37,785 You're doing so good. 620 00:28:37,818 --> 00:28:40,154 - You're doing so good, baby. - Okay. 621 00:28:40,187 --> 00:28:43,290 I'm just gonna... Your back is all sweaty. 622 00:28:43,324 --> 00:28:45,859 - Okay, um... - Like it, do you like it? 623 00:28:45,893 --> 00:28:48,062 - Yeah, I'm just... - You do? 624 00:28:48,095 --> 00:28:51,165 - I'm gonna move for a second. - Yeah. 625 00:28:51,198 --> 00:28:53,500 - Okay. - Yeah, lean in. 626 00:28:56,971 --> 00:29:00,007 - Okay. - Uh-huh. 627 00:29:00,040 --> 00:29:03,110 That's what it looks like. 628 00:29:03,143 --> 00:29:05,346 - Okay. - Yeah. 629 00:29:07,982 --> 00:29:10,484 - Get it. - Okay. 630 00:29:10,518 --> 00:29:12,453 - Oh, sweetie! - Ah, ah! 631 00:29:12,486 --> 00:29:14,288 - Oh, sweetie. - Ah, ah! 632 00:29:14,321 --> 00:29:16,558 - Uh-huh, uh-huh. - Ah, ah! 633 00:29:16,591 --> 00:29:19,393 - Ah, ah! - Oh, sweetie, sweetie! 634 00:29:19,426 --> 00:29:22,196 - Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah! - Ah, ah! 635 00:29:22,229 --> 00:29:23,797 Yeah! 636 00:29:23,831 --> 00:29:25,899 Yeah. 637 00:29:37,478 --> 00:29:40,981 I'm... I'm the woman. 638 00:29:41,015 --> 00:29:43,417 I'm the woman. 639 00:29:56,297 --> 00:29:57,865 Honey? 640 00:29:57,898 --> 00:29:59,833 Are you okay? 641 00:29:59,867 --> 00:30:01,468 Yes, and I'm sorry. 642 00:30:03,538 --> 00:30:05,939 Where'd you fucking go? 643 00:30:10,210 --> 00:30:11,513 Fuck! 644 00:30:52,319 --> 00:30:54,054 You're awake? 645 00:30:54,088 --> 00:30:55,923 Mhm. 646 00:30:55,956 --> 00:30:58,359 - Good mornin'. - Good morning, baby. 647 00:31:01,596 --> 00:31:04,198 I feel great! 648 00:31:04,231 --> 00:31:06,300 - Great. - Honey, 649 00:31:06,333 --> 00:31:09,571 I just slept through the whole night. 650 00:31:09,604 --> 00:31:12,172 I know, you didn't get up and pee, or anything. 651 00:31:12,206 --> 00:31:14,308 I can't believe it. 652 00:31:14,341 --> 00:31:16,043 Uh, you deserve it. 653 00:31:16,076 --> 00:31:18,445 It's like a miracle. 654 00:31:18,479 --> 00:31:21,448 I haven't slept a whole night 655 00:31:21,482 --> 00:31:23,585 the entire third trimester. 656 00:31:23,618 --> 00:31:26,353 I know. 657 00:31:26,387 --> 00:31:28,422 Ahh. 658 00:31:28,455 --> 00:31:30,391 I'm glad. 659 00:31:30,424 --> 00:31:32,694 I wore myself out yesterday. 660 00:31:32,727 --> 00:31:34,562 - Yeah, you sure did. - Yep. 661 00:31:34,596 --> 00:31:36,363 Yeah. 662 00:31:36,397 --> 00:31:39,266 Oh, how do you feel? 663 00:31:39,299 --> 00:31:42,035 Mm, I'm okay. 664 00:31:42,069 --> 00:31:44,539 I feel a little funny, I didn't sleep much, 665 00:31:44,572 --> 00:31:46,974 - but I'm all right. - No? 666 00:31:47,007 --> 00:31:49,644 Uh-uh, it was a bit of a fraught night. 667 00:31:51,478 --> 00:31:53,280 Oh, my god, I'm so sorry. 668 00:31:53,313 --> 00:31:57,017 - It's okay. - I felt so profoundly... 669 00:31:59,621 --> 00:32:01,221 completed. 670 00:32:01,255 --> 00:32:03,558 I really appreciate it, I'm sorry you had 671 00:32:03,591 --> 00:32:06,059 such a bad night. 672 00:32:06,093 --> 00:32:08,128 - Mm. - I mean, don't you feel 673 00:32:08,162 --> 00:32:10,130 like we... 674 00:32:10,164 --> 00:32:11,599 We broke the mold? 675 00:32:11,633 --> 00:32:15,102 I feel like I... I broke the... 676 00:32:15,135 --> 00:32:16,638 The mold in some way. 677 00:32:16,671 --> 00:32:19,273 I, like, feel funky and weird. 678 00:32:19,306 --> 00:32:21,208 - Hm. - Like, 679 00:32:21,241 --> 00:32:23,545 we can do anything. 680 00:32:23,578 --> 00:32:26,046 There's no rules, we can do anything. 681 00:32:26,079 --> 00:32:27,615 Hm. 682 00:32:30,284 --> 00:32:32,152 No. 683 00:32:32,186 --> 00:32:35,088 I think... 684 00:32:35,122 --> 00:32:38,593 I mean, 685 00:32:38,626 --> 00:32:40,994 okay, if I'm being totally honest. 686 00:32:41,028 --> 00:32:43,464 Mhm, which I want you to be. 687 00:32:43,497 --> 00:32:46,133 Okay. 688 00:32:46,166 --> 00:32:47,501 Um. 689 00:32:53,307 --> 00:32:55,743 Do you know how many times my dad used the word "faggot" 690 00:32:55,777 --> 00:32:58,479 when I was a kid? 691 00:32:58,513 --> 00:33:00,615 That's so bad. 692 00:33:00,648 --> 00:33:03,350 Like, "faggot this, and faggot that." 693 00:33:03,383 --> 00:33:05,419 And that didn't even 694 00:33:05,452 --> 00:33:09,256 really mean "gay." 695 00:33:09,289 --> 00:33:11,492 It just meant 696 00:33:11,526 --> 00:33:14,094 "weak." 697 00:33:14,127 --> 00:33:16,598 And so, here I am, 698 00:33:16,631 --> 00:33:18,432 an adult man, 699 00:33:18,465 --> 00:33:21,636 who's in a loving relationship... 700 00:33:21,669 --> 00:33:23,303 - Mhm. - With a strong 701 00:33:23,337 --> 00:33:25,339 and beautiful woman, who has, 702 00:33:25,372 --> 00:33:27,307 at least biologically speaking, 703 00:33:27,341 --> 00:33:29,611 - proved my manliness. - Totally. 704 00:33:29,644 --> 00:33:32,446 And all of a sudden we're doing this thing 705 00:33:32,479 --> 00:33:35,449 where we're... we're conducting this experiment. 706 00:33:35,482 --> 00:33:37,317 - Yeah? - And then, the second 707 00:33:37,351 --> 00:33:40,320 it felt good, my head came back in, 708 00:33:40,354 --> 00:33:43,223 and it was like, "what, 'cause you're a faggot?" 709 00:33:45,158 --> 00:33:47,261 - Okay. - And... and... and that's terrible, 710 00:33:47,294 --> 00:33:50,397 and I'm sorry I keep using that word. 711 00:33:50,430 --> 00:33:53,066 It's just, it's obviously not me talking. 712 00:33:53,100 --> 00:33:55,703 - Yeah. - It's... it's all the baggage 713 00:33:55,737 --> 00:33:58,506 from my hometown, and from growing up 714 00:33:58,540 --> 00:34:00,675 - with an Alpha father... - Yeah. 715 00:34:00,708 --> 00:34:02,309 And... and so, when I was downstairs, 716 00:34:02,342 --> 00:34:04,077 I really started trying to pick this apart 717 00:34:04,111 --> 00:34:07,314 and go like, "what... What's at the core of this?" 718 00:34:07,347 --> 00:34:10,083 Because there's two things that are competing inside of me. 719 00:34:10,117 --> 00:34:12,787 One is that, um, I wanna be your partner, 720 00:34:12,820 --> 00:34:15,389 and I wanna be... I wanna be truly open 721 00:34:15,422 --> 00:34:17,692 to new experiences in the universe. 722 00:34:17,725 --> 00:34:19,827 Um, and the other side is, 723 00:34:19,861 --> 00:34:23,430 my dad was a homophobe, and I just let my wife 724 00:34:23,463 --> 00:34:25,365 fuck me in the ass, 725 00:34:25,399 --> 00:34:28,770 and so all of a sudden I felt like, 726 00:34:28,803 --> 00:34:30,638 "you're not a man." 727 00:34:30,672 --> 00:34:33,106 And then... and then, I started thinking about 728 00:34:33,140 --> 00:34:35,342 all of the therapy that I've had, 729 00:34:35,375 --> 00:34:37,512 and... and going like, 730 00:34:37,545 --> 00:34:40,347 "why is this... you know, why is this such an issue?" 731 00:34:40,380 --> 00:34:41,849 This shouldn't be such an issue, 732 00:34:41,883 --> 00:34:44,519 and maybe I would like it if we did it again. 733 00:34:44,552 --> 00:34:46,219 If I could get past the shame. 734 00:34:46,253 --> 00:34:48,856 If I could get past all the stuff that's built up 735 00:34:48,890 --> 00:34:51,158 in my head, and so I think in the same way 736 00:34:51,191 --> 00:34:53,695 that you had to 737 00:34:53,728 --> 00:34:56,831 go on your journey 738 00:34:56,864 --> 00:34:59,867 to feel more in control, 739 00:34:59,901 --> 00:35:04,404 and... and to feel powerful, 740 00:35:04,438 --> 00:35:06,774 I think I got some work to do, too. 741 00:35:06,808 --> 00:35:08,643 - Totally. - You know? 742 00:35:08,676 --> 00:35:11,813 Yeah, what do... What do you wanna do? 743 00:35:13,948 --> 00:35:16,551 I think I need to punch somebody in the face. 744 00:35:20,187 --> 00:35:21,756 That... 745 00:35:21,789 --> 00:35:24,792 And also, I think another important component 746 00:35:24,826 --> 00:35:29,363 of this is that I need to know what it feels like 747 00:35:29,396 --> 00:35:31,633 to actually take a full face punch. 748 00:35:33,601 --> 00:35:34,936 You want somebody to punch you...? 749 00:35:34,969 --> 00:35:38,673 Punch me in the face. 750 00:35:38,706 --> 00:35:41,475 I hate this. 751 00:35:45,479 --> 00:35:46,781 Okay, jab. 752 00:35:48,415 --> 00:35:49,951 - Hello! - One, two, one, two. 753 00:35:49,984 --> 00:35:52,319 Uh, hello, back here. 754 00:35:52,352 --> 00:35:54,187 Okay, give me a jab. 755 00:35:54,221 --> 00:35:55,923 - Hey, man. - Give me a jab. 756 00:35:55,957 --> 00:35:58,325 One, duck, two. 757 00:35:58,358 --> 00:36:00,928 - Hey, what's up? - Hey, what's up, man? 758 00:36:00,962 --> 00:36:02,362 Ah, it's good to see you. 759 00:36:02,396 --> 00:36:04,264 Hey, what's going on? I'm Elliot. 760 00:36:04,297 --> 00:36:05,767 - Hi. - What's your name? 761 00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:08,268 - I'm Josh. - Josh, nice to meet you. 762 00:36:08,301 --> 00:36:10,237 Elliot, Jackie, these are my friends. 763 00:36:10,270 --> 00:36:11,849 You guys look like you're hanging tough in here. 764 00:36:11,873 --> 00:36:13,508 Yeah, hooking it up... What's up, man? 765 00:36:13,541 --> 00:36:16,711 Uh, can I... can I steal you for, like, 3 minutes? 766 00:36:18,713 --> 00:36:19,857 - Uh, you cool with it? - Yeah. 767 00:36:19,881 --> 00:36:21,391 - Are we cool with that? - Is that cool? 768 00:36:21,415 --> 00:36:22,926 - 4 minutes, it'll be real quick. - Okay, a couple. 769 00:36:22,950 --> 00:36:24,819 - I got a little favor to ask. - It's fine. 770 00:36:24,852 --> 00:36:26,921 All right, Josh, 100 jumping Jacks. 771 00:36:26,954 --> 00:36:28,422 Count 'em out. 772 00:36:28,455 --> 00:36:29,700 When you're done, I'll be back, okay? 773 00:36:29,724 --> 00:36:31,291 - All right. - Okay. 774 00:36:31,324 --> 00:36:34,361 - I'll bring him right back. - All right. 775 00:36:34,394 --> 00:36:38,900 One, two, three, four, five... 776 00:36:38,933 --> 00:36:42,570 Um, so here's the thing. 777 00:36:42,603 --> 00:36:45,439 Yeah? 778 00:36:45,472 --> 00:36:47,508 I would like you to hit me in the face 779 00:36:47,542 --> 00:36:49,376 as hard as you can. 780 00:36:52,580 --> 00:36:53,881 Fight club. 781 00:36:53,915 --> 00:36:55,983 Hm? 782 00:36:56,017 --> 00:36:57,451 You're fight clubbing me? 783 00:36:57,484 --> 00:36:58,853 Hey, did you do a fight club to me? 784 00:37:00,621 --> 00:37:02,557 Oh, shit, that is from fight club, isn't it? 785 00:37:02,590 --> 00:37:05,325 No, I kinda... In the back of my head, 786 00:37:05,358 --> 00:37:08,495 I had some recognition, but I didn't realize 787 00:37:08,529 --> 00:37:10,330 - it was something... - It was it exactly. 788 00:37:10,363 --> 00:37:12,533 - That's exactly what it's from. - Yeah. 789 00:37:12,567 --> 00:37:14,736 Okay, so I know you have to get back in there. 790 00:37:14,769 --> 00:37:17,437 This is real quick, if you could just punch me, 791 00:37:17,471 --> 00:37:19,974 and, um, if it's okay... 792 00:37:20,007 --> 00:37:22,744 If it's okay, I'd love to be able to punch you back. 793 00:37:22,777 --> 00:37:24,879 - That would be super helpful. - I can't tell 794 00:37:24,912 --> 00:37:26,379 if you guys are fucking with me. 795 00:37:26,413 --> 00:37:28,616 - Is this real? - It... 796 00:37:28,649 --> 00:37:30,350 Yeah. 797 00:37:32,319 --> 00:37:33,921 - No, no way. - Okay, um. 798 00:37:33,955 --> 00:37:35,065 You're out of your fucking mind. 799 00:37:35,089 --> 00:37:35,957 I'm not gonna punch you. 800 00:37:35,990 --> 00:37:38,291 - Here, here's the thing. - In the face? 801 00:37:38,325 --> 00:37:39,994 I swear to god I won't be upset. 802 00:37:40,027 --> 00:37:41,461 I won't either. 803 00:37:41,495 --> 00:37:42,530 She won't either. 804 00:37:42,563 --> 00:37:43,831 Okay, here's the thing. 805 00:37:43,865 --> 00:37:45,633 Do you remember at our baby shower 806 00:37:45,666 --> 00:37:46,910 when you came up to me at the end, 807 00:37:46,934 --> 00:37:48,603 and you hugged me, and you were just like, 808 00:37:48,636 --> 00:37:49,904 "brother, anything you need... 809 00:37:49,937 --> 00:37:51,773 - Yeah. - Anything at all?" 810 00:37:51,806 --> 00:37:54,041 - Yeah, I... - This is it. 811 00:37:54,075 --> 00:37:55,375 Not gonna do it, I'm sorry. 812 00:37:55,408 --> 00:37:56,644 - I lied to you. - This is it. 813 00:37:56,677 --> 00:37:58,345 I can't. 814 00:37:58,378 --> 00:37:59,523 - I've... - Okay, so I'll tell, 815 00:37:59,547 --> 00:38:00,991 I'll tell, I'll tell you why, I'll tell you why 816 00:38:01,015 --> 00:38:02,626 'cause I do think it'll make a difference. 817 00:38:02,650 --> 00:38:03,416 It's this thing that. 818 00:38:03,450 --> 00:38:04,628 - Jackie and I are doing... - Okay. 819 00:38:04,652 --> 00:38:07,021 Because, uh, because we're about to have a baby... 820 00:38:07,054 --> 00:38:07,955 - Yeah, yeah. - And we're trying to become 821 00:38:07,989 --> 00:38:09,489 fully realized humans. 822 00:38:09,524 --> 00:38:10,801 I mean, you know, I've talked to you about 823 00:38:10,825 --> 00:38:12,392 my dad stuff, my rape stuff. 824 00:38:12,425 --> 00:38:13,661 You know, I've been in therapy 825 00:38:13,694 --> 00:38:16,030 since I was fuckin' 18 years old. 826 00:38:16,063 --> 00:38:18,633 And, obviously, you know, they're like, 827 00:38:18,666 --> 00:38:19,834 "you shouldn't punch people." 828 00:38:19,867 --> 00:38:22,804 So, I punch walls, I, like, kick things, 829 00:38:22,837 --> 00:38:25,640 but what I've never done in my entire life 830 00:38:25,673 --> 00:38:27,575 is I've never been punched in the face. 831 00:38:27,608 --> 00:38:28,375 And my dad used to do 832 00:38:28,408 --> 00:38:30,077 - this to me all the time. - Yeah. 833 00:38:30,111 --> 00:38:34,048 So, I am so afraid of this, and I just, I, I just need, 834 00:38:34,081 --> 00:38:35,458 - I need the full thing. - Not happening. 835 00:38:35,482 --> 00:38:38,418 I appreciate everything you just told me. 836 00:38:38,451 --> 00:38:41,122 I'm sorry you had a mean dad. 837 00:38:41,155 --> 00:38:43,991 And whatever you guys are going through 838 00:38:44,025 --> 00:38:45,092 feels weird. 839 00:38:45,126 --> 00:38:47,728 Uh, I can't help you with this. 840 00:38:47,762 --> 00:38:50,097 I'm facing 841 00:38:50,131 --> 00:38:52,133 my biggest fear. 842 00:38:52,166 --> 00:38:55,435 This wall of fear. 843 00:38:55,468 --> 00:38:57,505 And her and I together, 844 00:38:57,538 --> 00:39:00,775 are gonna get over that fuckin' wall. 845 00:39:00,808 --> 00:39:01,742 Cool, man. 846 00:39:01,776 --> 00:39:03,044 So we can be... 847 00:39:03,077 --> 00:39:05,146 I'm not goin' over the wall with you. 848 00:39:05,179 --> 00:39:08,115 I don't need you to, I just need you to punch me. 849 00:39:08,149 --> 00:39:09,660 There's a kid in the other room waiting. 850 00:39:09,684 --> 00:39:11,451 You punch guys in the face 851 00:39:11,484 --> 00:39:12,485 - every day! - Yeah, 852 00:39:12,520 --> 00:39:14,655 'cause I don't care about them, and also... 853 00:39:14,689 --> 00:39:16,624 Okay, can I punch you in the face? 854 00:39:16,657 --> 00:39:18,491 - No. - Please? 855 00:39:18,526 --> 00:39:19,927 Absolutely not. 856 00:39:19,961 --> 00:39:21,963 I just need to punch you in the face. 857 00:39:21,996 --> 00:39:23,764 - Well, okay. - Dude, no. 858 00:39:23,798 --> 00:39:25,633 One of the two is gonna happen. 859 00:39:25,666 --> 00:39:27,034 Neither of the two are gonna 860 00:39:27,068 --> 00:39:28,512 - happen actually. - Okay, punch me in the face. 861 00:39:28,536 --> 00:39:30,771 - I am not gonna... - Punch me in the face. 862 00:39:30,805 --> 00:39:31,949 - Elliot, I'm not gonna... - Punch me in the face. 863 00:39:31,973 --> 00:39:32,840 - I'm not punching... - I'm gonna punch you in the face 864 00:39:32,874 --> 00:39:34,542 if you don't punch me in the face. 865 00:39:34,575 --> 00:39:35,475 I'm gonna punch you in the face. 866 00:39:35,509 --> 00:39:37,511 You're not gonna punch me in the face. 867 00:39:37,545 --> 00:39:38,622 I'm gonna... punch me in the face! 868 00:39:38,646 --> 00:39:39,446 - No one's getting punched. - Punch me in the face! 869 00:39:39,479 --> 00:39:40,413 How 'bout this, no one's fucking 870 00:39:40,447 --> 00:39:42,083 - getting punched. - I'm gonna punch you! 871 00:39:42,116 --> 00:39:43,450 Ah! 872 00:39:45,019 --> 00:39:46,621 Ho! 873 00:39:46,654 --> 00:39:47,889 Ooh. 874 00:39:47,922 --> 00:39:49,156 That was... 875 00:39:49,190 --> 00:39:50,625 Are you bleeding? 876 00:39:50,658 --> 00:39:52,627 - Ah, shit. - You're fuckin' bleeding. 877 00:39:52,660 --> 00:39:53,594 - Oh, brother! - Fuckin' damn it, man. 878 00:39:53,628 --> 00:39:54,996 I'm sorry, but that was amazing! 879 00:39:55,029 --> 00:39:56,607 - What are you doing? - Come on, that was amazing. 880 00:39:56,631 --> 00:39:58,175 That wasn't amazing, that was ridiculous. 881 00:39:58,199 --> 00:39:59,432 Get the fuck outta here. 882 00:39:59,466 --> 00:40:00,544 Josh, go in the other room. 883 00:40:00,568 --> 00:40:02,469 - Oh! - Okay, okay, so you're mad. 884 00:40:02,503 --> 00:40:04,105 - Jackie... - So, punch me in the face! 885 00:40:04,138 --> 00:40:04,972 - I'm gonna... - Come on, come on, come on, 886 00:40:05,006 --> 00:40:06,116 - come on, come on. - I need you to go. 887 00:40:06,140 --> 00:40:07,380 Dude, dude, dude, dude, come... 888 00:40:09,844 --> 00:40:11,212 Oh! 889 00:40:11,245 --> 00:40:13,581 - Oh! - Dude, I'm sorry. 890 00:40:13,614 --> 00:40:14,982 Oh! 891 00:40:15,016 --> 00:40:15,917 - Hey! - Honey, honey. 892 00:40:15,950 --> 00:40:18,152 - Elliot, I'm sorry. - Oh, it's okay. 893 00:40:18,185 --> 00:40:19,520 Flip over. 894 00:40:19,553 --> 00:40:21,989 Oh, my god. 895 00:40:22,023 --> 00:40:23,891 Dude, I'm so sorry. 896 00:40:23,925 --> 00:40:24,992 Elliot, I'm so sorry. 897 00:40:27,962 --> 00:40:29,196 You're okay? 898 00:40:29,230 --> 00:40:30,564 Yeah. 899 00:40:30,598 --> 00:40:33,534 - He's okay! - Oh, I went out. 900 00:40:33,567 --> 00:40:35,569 - I went out! - Yeah. 901 00:40:35,603 --> 00:40:36,637 Oh, that really... 902 00:40:36,671 --> 00:40:38,572 - Fuck you! - That was crazy! 903 00:40:38,606 --> 00:40:39,917 Can I help you, let me help you both up, 904 00:40:39,941 --> 00:40:41,676 then you can get the fuck out, okay? 905 00:40:41,709 --> 00:40:43,020 - Sorry. You did it! - Do I have a black eye? 906 00:40:43,044 --> 00:40:43,844 - You do a little bit! - Yeah, you have a black eye 907 00:40:43,878 --> 00:40:45,055 'cause you're a fuckin' idiot. 908 00:40:45,079 --> 00:40:45,880 Now, can you please leave? 909 00:40:45,913 --> 00:40:47,648 Dude, I know you're upset, but... 910 00:40:47,682 --> 00:40:48,959 - You have no idea. - It's the best thing 911 00:40:48,983 --> 00:40:49,684 - in my entire life. - I don't wanna 912 00:40:49,717 --> 00:40:50,827 - hear it right now. - Can I? 913 00:40:50,851 --> 00:40:51,686 No, don't touch me. 914 00:40:51,719 --> 00:40:54,121 Okay, some day you're gonna understand. 915 00:40:54,155 --> 00:40:55,089 No, I won't! 916 00:40:55,122 --> 00:40:56,824 You'll be lucky if we talk some day soon. 917 00:40:56,857 --> 00:40:57,758 - Get the fuck out, Elliot. - I love you. 918 00:40:57,792 --> 00:40:59,260 - No, Jackie. - Let's get out. 919 00:40:59,293 --> 00:41:01,529 - Okay, I feel you. - Let's go. Thank you. 920 00:41:01,562 --> 00:41:04,598 No, don't thank me, just fuckin' go. 921 00:43:06,887 --> 00:43:07,855 First of all, we have to 922 00:43:07,888 --> 00:43:09,056 - thank you. - Oh, my god. 923 00:43:09,090 --> 00:43:10,925 The things you said to us 924 00:43:10,958 --> 00:43:12,235 - resonated. - Something broke open. 925 00:43:12,259 --> 00:43:13,160 - You asked the question... - You were like, 926 00:43:13,194 --> 00:43:14,271 - "what do you need? - "What do you need?" 927 00:43:14,295 --> 00:43:17,364 I've never been this confident in my entire life! 928 00:43:17,398 --> 00:43:19,300 That's, that's, that's great! 929 00:43:19,333 --> 00:43:22,336 Also, when you were saying you gotta trust each other, 930 00:43:22,369 --> 00:43:24,839 - and, like, fuck everybody else. - And fuck everybody else! 931 00:43:24,872 --> 00:43:26,874 Everything in us went, "whoa!" 932 00:43:26,907 --> 00:43:28,342 - "Break the cycle." - Like, stop. 933 00:43:28,375 --> 00:43:29,310 What do we need? 934 00:43:29,343 --> 00:43:31,188 - What would do that? - Yeah, 'cause all that... 935 00:43:31,212 --> 00:43:32,656 - And the oxytocin... - Everything you, 936 00:43:32,680 --> 00:43:35,216 everything you said made sense in our brains, 937 00:43:35,249 --> 00:43:36,860 - but we've never put it... - But we had to do it. 938 00:43:36,884 --> 00:43:38,719 - Into effect. - Got it. 939 00:43:38,752 --> 00:43:41,088 And more stuff with my dad, obviously. 940 00:43:41,122 --> 00:43:44,225 - But, like, the thing... - Her dad's money, 941 00:43:44,258 --> 00:43:45,025 - drugs. - I realized 942 00:43:45,059 --> 00:43:47,995 I needed, sexually, to give it. 943 00:43:48,028 --> 00:43:50,264 - I needed to fuck him. - She wanted to fuck me. 944 00:43:50,297 --> 00:43:52,867 It just seemed like the only answer.. 945 00:43:52,900 --> 00:43:55,703 So we went to a shop, and we got a strap-on, 946 00:43:55,736 --> 00:43:56,913 - and then we went home... - And then... 947 00:43:56,937 --> 00:43:57,838 and we did it, 948 00:43:57,872 --> 00:43:59,940 and it hurt, 949 00:43:59,974 --> 00:44:00,875 um, for me. 950 00:44:00,908 --> 00:44:02,343 For you... 951 00:44:02,376 --> 00:44:04,879 Great, but emotionally, 952 00:44:04,912 --> 00:44:08,782 - I felt like a rock star. - Mm-hm. 953 00:44:08,816 --> 00:44:10,918 - And then... - And then, I cried. 954 00:44:10,951 --> 00:44:13,120 I mean, I didn't cry around you because I didn't, 955 00:44:13,154 --> 00:44:15,389 I didn't want that to tamp down, 956 00:44:15,422 --> 00:44:17,367 - you know, your moment because... - And how nice is that? 957 00:44:17,391 --> 00:44:18,993 And then it, the chain reaction. 958 00:44:19,026 --> 00:44:21,729 Somehow, the pavlovian connection between 959 00:44:21,762 --> 00:44:24,098 masculinity, and sexuality, 960 00:44:24,131 --> 00:44:28,469 and violence, the smallness I felt, 961 00:44:28,502 --> 00:44:30,704 I was six years old again. 962 00:44:30,738 --> 00:44:34,074 And I was sitting at my kitchen table 963 00:44:34,108 --> 00:44:36,043 in my childhood house, 964 00:44:36,076 --> 00:44:39,380 and I just spilled a glass of orange juice. 965 00:44:39,413 --> 00:44:41,048 And my father turned, and he, 966 00:44:41,081 --> 00:44:43,851 and he cocked a fist like he was gonna punch me 967 00:44:43,884 --> 00:44:47,788 because I spilled a fucking glass of orange juice, okay? 968 00:44:47,821 --> 00:44:52,059 And that fear has dictated 969 00:44:52,092 --> 00:44:54,128 so many of the choices that I've made 970 00:44:54,161 --> 00:44:57,164 - my entire life. - Like, the cycle of backing away 971 00:44:57,198 --> 00:44:59,900 from that energy had to break. 972 00:44:59,934 --> 00:45:01,468 Because I'm a grown-ass man, 973 00:45:01,502 --> 00:45:03,437 and I'm about to be a father. 974 00:45:03,470 --> 00:45:05,039 And so, I can't be scared. 975 00:45:05,072 --> 00:45:07,174 I can't be scared of a fist, 976 00:45:07,208 --> 00:45:09,176 or, like, a plastic dick 977 00:45:09,210 --> 00:45:11,946 the way that I have been my entire life. 978 00:45:11,979 --> 00:45:14,014 So, I went to visit my friend. 979 00:45:14,048 --> 00:45:16,784 - It was amazing! - And I punched him in the face! 980 00:45:16,817 --> 00:45:18,285 And he didn't... 981 00:45:18,319 --> 00:45:19,453 I asked him at first, 982 00:45:19,486 --> 00:45:21,355 I was like, "can I, can I..." 983 00:45:21,388 --> 00:45:23,190 Well, I asked him if he'd punch me, 984 00:45:23,224 --> 00:45:25,159 and he was like, "no, I'm not gonna punch you." 985 00:45:25,192 --> 00:45:26,504 And I was like, "come on, please, punch me." 986 00:45:26,528 --> 00:45:28,488 - And he was like, "no!" - Like, don't be a pussy! 987 00:45:30,431 --> 00:45:32,199 - I punched him! - Got it. 988 00:45:32,233 --> 00:45:34,868 And then he still wouldn't punch me! 989 00:45:34,902 --> 00:45:35,902 So then... 990 00:45:38,540 --> 00:45:40,307 - I was amazed. - And then, 991 00:45:40,341 --> 00:45:43,444 and then I saw it happen on his face when he was just like... 992 00:45:43,477 --> 00:45:45,212 And then, he was like 993 00:45:45,246 --> 00:45:46,548 black out. 994 00:45:48,816 --> 00:45:51,118 Just punched me in the face. 995 00:45:51,151 --> 00:45:52,453 It was the best. 996 00:45:52,486 --> 00:45:54,088 And then, and then... 997 00:45:56,023 --> 00:45:58,926 and then I'm seeing stars for a second. 998 00:45:58,959 --> 00:46:00,562 But, I could tell, like... 999 00:46:00,595 --> 00:46:02,329 But then I came up, 1000 00:46:02,363 --> 00:46:07,468 - and I was clear as day. - Yeah. 1001 00:46:07,501 --> 00:46:08,646 You know what, give me a second. 1002 00:46:08,670 --> 00:46:13,541 I'll be right back, I'm just gonna grab something. 1003 00:46:13,575 --> 00:46:15,109 She's the bomb. 1004 00:46:15,142 --> 00:46:17,011 Yeah. 1005 00:46:17,044 --> 00:46:18,513 Oh, man. 1006 00:46:18,546 --> 00:46:21,015 I could take a nap. 1007 00:46:21,048 --> 00:46:22,550 Yeah. 1008 00:46:22,584 --> 00:46:23,417 Maybe I'll take a nap. 1009 00:46:23,450 --> 00:46:24,385 Can we go take a nap? 1010 00:46:24,418 --> 00:46:26,320 - Wanna go take a nap? - Just a midday nap? 1011 00:46:26,353 --> 00:46:27,921 And then go to a rave? 1012 00:46:27,955 --> 00:46:29,823 How 'bout the zoo? 1013 00:46:29,857 --> 00:46:31,025 You wanna go to the zoo? 1014 00:46:31,058 --> 00:46:32,459 I think they have pandas there now. 1015 00:46:32,493 --> 00:46:34,161 Did they get pandas at the zoo? 1016 00:46:34,194 --> 00:46:36,063 So, this is for you. 1017 00:46:36,096 --> 00:46:37,398 What's this? 1018 00:46:37,431 --> 00:46:40,467 It's a full refund. 1019 00:46:40,501 --> 00:46:42,570 - Um. - You deserve it! 1020 00:46:42,604 --> 00:46:44,171 You deserve so much more than this. 1021 00:46:44,204 --> 00:46:45,873 It's really okay. 1022 00:46:45,906 --> 00:46:48,375 I don't think there's any amount of money that 1023 00:46:48,409 --> 00:46:49,376 either of you could give me 1024 00:46:49,410 --> 00:46:52,413 that would make it okay for us to work together. 1025 00:46:55,015 --> 00:46:56,450 Wha... 1026 00:46:56,483 --> 00:46:59,253 This whole thing, the eye, 1027 00:46:59,286 --> 00:47:02,222 the battery, the pegging, 1028 00:47:02,256 --> 00:47:04,100 - just there's a lot of... - I don't think it's battery. 1029 00:47:04,124 --> 00:47:06,528 There's a lot of liability issues here that 1030 00:47:06,561 --> 00:47:09,396 just make me feel super uncomfortable. 1031 00:47:09,430 --> 00:47:13,233 So, I think it's probably gonna be best if both of you just 1032 00:47:13,267 --> 00:47:14,344 - get up... - Wait a minute. 1033 00:47:14,368 --> 00:47:17,338 - And leave. - Wait a minute. 1034 00:47:17,371 --> 00:47:20,608 - Babe? - Wait a minute. 1035 00:47:20,642 --> 00:47:22,109 So, wait. 1036 00:47:24,178 --> 00:47:26,347 - You want us to go? - Yeah. 1037 00:47:26,380 --> 00:47:28,082 Are you still gonna be our doula? 1038 00:47:28,115 --> 00:47:30,552 No, no doula. 1039 00:47:30,585 --> 00:47:32,119 All done. 1040 00:47:32,152 --> 00:47:33,220 Finito. 1041 00:47:33,253 --> 00:47:36,457 Need you both to get up, and leave. 1042 00:47:43,197 --> 00:47:45,366 The thing that's just, like, 1043 00:47:45,399 --> 00:47:48,670 nuts is that it's not evident, and it's not so apparent 1044 00:47:48,703 --> 00:47:51,205 - that this is amazing. - Other people don't get it. 1045 00:47:51,238 --> 00:47:52,640 No, it's incredible. 1046 00:47:52,674 --> 00:47:54,542 How do other people not get it? 1047 00:47:54,576 --> 00:47:55,976 I mean, and that's hard. 1048 00:47:56,009 --> 00:47:58,412 If I didn't have you, I'd be so lonely. 1049 00:47:58,445 --> 00:48:01,048 - Honey! - To have these revelations, 1050 00:48:01,081 --> 00:48:02,449 - to really... - I see them, 1051 00:48:02,483 --> 00:48:04,118 I see what you're going through. 1052 00:48:04,151 --> 00:48:06,954 Have my brain break open in these ways. 1053 00:48:06,987 --> 00:48:09,056 And have other people look at it and go like, 1054 00:48:09,089 --> 00:48:10,391 "eh, not into it." 1055 00:48:10,424 --> 00:48:13,528 It's so weird 'cause I see you. 1056 00:48:13,561 --> 00:48:15,996 - You see me. - And look, I get it with Zach. 1057 00:48:16,029 --> 00:48:18,265 Like, I punched my dear friend in the face, 1058 00:48:18,298 --> 00:48:19,976 - and that might have been... - Zach? Yeah. 1059 00:48:20,000 --> 00:48:20,702 A little fucked up... 1060 00:48:20,735 --> 00:48:22,637 - But Maya. - But still! 1061 00:48:22,670 --> 00:48:26,541 - Maya. - She, like, talks the talk, 1062 00:48:26,574 --> 00:48:28,510 - but doesn't walk the walk. - Walk the walk. 1063 00:48:28,543 --> 00:48:30,277 No, she's a fake truth teller. 1064 00:48:30,310 --> 00:48:33,280 Yeah, she's living in her own lies. 1065 00:48:33,313 --> 00:48:36,049 Well, I think you, I think we live in a culture 1066 00:48:36,083 --> 00:48:38,118 that's not prepared for the truth. 1067 00:48:38,152 --> 00:48:39,195 I think we live in a culture 1068 00:48:39,219 --> 00:48:41,556 - that can't handle the truth. - I think we do. 1069 00:48:41,589 --> 00:48:43,390 'Cause it's just easier to lie to each other. 1070 00:48:43,424 --> 00:48:45,527 It is, like, how many times has your mom been like, 1071 00:48:45,560 --> 00:48:47,638 "do you like the casserole?" And I'm like, "I love it!" 1072 00:48:47,662 --> 00:48:49,096 Oh, exactly, and how many times 1073 00:48:49,129 --> 00:48:50,708 has my mom been like, "was I a good mother?" 1074 00:48:50,732 --> 00:48:52,966 And I'm like, "of course, mom." 1075 00:48:53,000 --> 00:48:54,201 We do it, why? 1076 00:48:54,234 --> 00:48:55,969 Just because it's easier. 1077 00:48:56,003 --> 00:48:58,238 It's just like a path of least resistance. 1078 00:48:58,272 --> 00:49:00,407 I know, and that's why we're so fucked! 1079 00:49:00,441 --> 00:49:02,710 We're fucked as a country because of this 1080 00:49:02,744 --> 00:49:06,113 - epidemic of lying. - We're fucked as a world. 1081 00:49:06,146 --> 00:49:08,148 Maybe we have been afraid of that with each other. 1082 00:49:08,182 --> 00:49:09,116 That's why we had a... 1083 00:49:09,149 --> 00:49:10,752 And now, for the first time, we're like, 1084 00:49:10,785 --> 00:49:12,720 "I can totally show you me, 1085 00:49:12,754 --> 00:49:14,188 and you can totally show me you." 1086 00:49:14,221 --> 00:49:16,132 - We can just, like, be like... - And we love it! 1087 00:49:16,156 --> 00:49:17,324 Like, "this is me." 1088 00:49:17,357 --> 00:49:18,760 - This is me. - This is me. 1089 00:49:18,793 --> 00:49:21,395 - And I love you! - And I love you! 1090 00:49:21,428 --> 00:49:23,130 You are everything! 1091 00:49:23,163 --> 00:49:26,066 - You are everything to me, babe. - Oh. 1092 00:49:26,099 --> 00:49:28,202 I trust you more than anyone. 1093 00:49:28,235 --> 00:49:31,773 I trust you more than anyone. 1094 00:49:31,806 --> 00:49:34,208 And you're gonna have my baby. 1095 00:49:34,241 --> 00:49:35,677 - And... - I've been thinkin'. 1096 00:49:35,710 --> 00:49:36,578 What are you thinkin'? 1097 00:49:36,611 --> 00:49:38,580 - Since this whole Maya thing. - Uh-huh. 1098 00:49:38,613 --> 00:49:41,148 Like, "ah, where we gonna find a doula now?" 1099 00:49:41,181 --> 00:49:43,661 - I know what you're thinkin'. - I don't, I don't think we need 1100 00:49:43,685 --> 00:49:45,753 some other stranger coming into this. 1101 00:49:45,787 --> 00:49:48,222 We don't need anybody else comin' in 1102 00:49:48,255 --> 00:49:51,091 and coaching us on what the truth 1103 00:49:51,124 --> 00:49:52,459 of our experience is, 1104 00:49:52,493 --> 00:49:54,394 bringing our baby into the world. 1105 00:49:54,428 --> 00:49:58,198 I think you can be my doula. 1106 00:49:58,232 --> 00:50:00,267 I've never seen a better doula... 1107 00:50:00,300 --> 00:50:01,101 - That makes me... - Than the one right in 1108 00:50:01,134 --> 00:50:04,037 - front of me. - Makes me wanna cry. 1109 00:50:04,071 --> 00:50:07,107 - But, you're right. - You can take the pain. 1110 00:50:57,424 --> 00:50:59,694 We should probably get back before it gets dark. 1111 00:51:02,262 --> 00:51:03,831 Okay. 1112 00:51:03,865 --> 00:51:05,299 Let's go. 1113 00:51:11,238 --> 00:51:13,508 No! There's not a path over here! 1114 00:51:13,541 --> 00:51:15,442 There's not a path over here! 1115 00:51:15,475 --> 00:51:17,177 It can't be that far. 1116 00:51:17,210 --> 00:51:19,146 We were just on the fucking path! 1117 00:51:19,179 --> 00:51:20,480 No, we weren't just on the path. 1118 00:51:20,515 --> 00:51:21,481 We were just on the path. 1119 00:51:21,516 --> 00:51:22,660 - We were coming down it. - By "just," do you mean 1120 00:51:22,684 --> 00:51:24,484 20 minutes ago? 1121 00:51:24,519 --> 00:51:25,853 Now we're way off! 1122 00:51:25,887 --> 00:51:28,288 - Okay. - Would you stop going up there? 1123 00:51:28,322 --> 00:51:31,124 I really know the path is not up there. 1124 00:51:31,158 --> 00:51:33,595 I think we might have to go back up 1125 00:51:33,628 --> 00:51:34,762 to go back down. 1126 00:51:34,796 --> 00:51:36,531 But down is clearly the direction 1127 00:51:36,564 --> 00:51:38,666 we need to generally be going. 1128 00:51:40,267 --> 00:51:43,170 Um. 1129 00:51:43,203 --> 00:51:44,606 Let's go, let's go this way. 1130 00:51:44,639 --> 00:51:45,439 Yeah, okay. 1131 00:51:45,472 --> 00:51:47,875 Yeah, I think down is a good idea. 1132 00:51:47,909 --> 00:51:50,678 - Ow! Ow. - Ow. 1133 00:51:50,712 --> 00:51:53,180 - Ah! Ah! Fuck! - Oh, my gosh. 1134 00:51:53,213 --> 00:51:55,617 - Okay, okay. - We're... we've gone. 1135 00:51:55,650 --> 00:51:57,518 No, we're totally off the fucking path. 1136 00:51:57,552 --> 00:51:58,485 - I understand that. - Will you keep your 1137 00:51:58,519 --> 00:52:01,188 - voice down? - Can you not be condescending 1138 00:52:01,221 --> 00:52:02,332 - right now? - I'm asking you 1139 00:52:02,356 --> 00:52:04,892 to keep your voice down for a very practical reason 1140 00:52:04,926 --> 00:52:06,369 - because I feel like... - Yeah, what's the practical 1141 00:52:06,393 --> 00:52:07,327 - reason? - We're like, 1142 00:52:07,361 --> 00:52:09,897 like shouting, like, "help, we're lost." 1143 00:52:09,931 --> 00:52:12,700 Like, "help, ow! Ow!" 1144 00:52:12,734 --> 00:52:14,645 - Okay, can, can you... - If there are gangs out here, 1145 00:52:14,669 --> 00:52:16,203 - they're just gonna like... - Jackie. 1146 00:52:16,236 --> 00:52:18,271 - Jackie, Jackie, Jackie! - What? 1147 00:52:18,305 --> 00:52:21,509 Can I just talk for ten seconds 1148 00:52:21,542 --> 00:52:24,512 without you getting all fucking vicious on me? 1149 00:52:24,545 --> 00:52:26,279 I'd like to make a suggestion. 1150 00:52:26,313 --> 00:52:28,415 Mm-hm? 1151 00:52:28,448 --> 00:52:31,418 Okay, do you remember that podcast 1152 00:52:31,451 --> 00:52:33,286 that we were listening to 1153 00:52:33,320 --> 00:52:36,223 where the two guys went hiking in muir beach 1154 00:52:36,256 --> 00:52:37,959 up by San Francisco? 1155 00:52:37,992 --> 00:52:41,395 And they got up to the top, and it was dark, 1156 00:52:41,428 --> 00:52:42,329 and one guy was like, 1157 00:52:42,362 --> 00:52:44,231 "let's just stop here for the night." 1158 00:52:44,264 --> 00:52:46,299 And the other guy was like, "I'm gonna keep going. 1159 00:52:46,333 --> 00:52:47,645 - "I'm just gonna push through." - You're not suggesting 1160 00:52:47,669 --> 00:52:48,903 that we are stopping. 1161 00:52:48,936 --> 00:52:50,972 But the second guy, the guy who kept going, 1162 00:52:51,005 --> 00:52:52,540 he fell off the fucking cliff. 1163 00:52:52,573 --> 00:52:54,441 And the guy who stayed there, 1164 00:52:54,474 --> 00:52:56,978 he found that other guy's body the next morning 1165 00:52:57,011 --> 00:52:59,647 - with his head bashed in! - We're not just gonna 1166 00:52:59,681 --> 00:53:01,549 sit like ducks 1167 00:53:01,582 --> 00:53:02,926 - out in the middle of the woods! - I'm trying to do 1168 00:53:02,950 --> 00:53:04,652 the safest thing. 1169 00:53:04,686 --> 00:53:06,286 I'm trying to do the safest thing 1170 00:53:06,319 --> 00:53:08,589 for me, and you, and our baby. 1171 00:53:08,623 --> 00:53:10,825 - And you can sleep... - Honey, just 'cause you hit 1172 00:53:10,858 --> 00:53:11,893 one guy! 1173 00:53:11,926 --> 00:53:13,537 - You hit one guy... - I'll put my coat on you. 1174 00:53:13,561 --> 00:53:14,805 - And now you think... - I'll make a fire. 1175 00:53:14,829 --> 00:53:16,931 If we get attacked by multiple people, 1176 00:53:16,964 --> 00:53:18,533 or animals, or whatever, 1177 00:53:18,566 --> 00:53:20,434 that you're gonna be able to, like, 1178 00:53:20,467 --> 00:53:21,936 get us through the night? 1179 00:53:21,969 --> 00:53:23,604 Honestly! 1180 00:53:25,506 --> 00:53:28,475 That was really mean. 1181 00:53:28,509 --> 00:53:29,443 - I'm just... - I mean, that was, 1182 00:53:29,476 --> 00:53:30,978 that was, like... 1183 00:53:31,012 --> 00:53:34,414 Hitting that guy, you know that was my thing. 1184 00:53:34,448 --> 00:53:35,917 - And... - You know that that, 1185 00:53:35,950 --> 00:53:39,020 - you know what a huge... - I know internally 1186 00:53:39,053 --> 00:53:40,555 - that that was... - Demarcation 1187 00:53:40,588 --> 00:53:42,557 that was to make me feel 1188 00:53:42,590 --> 00:53:44,759 like I could be a protector 1189 00:53:44,792 --> 00:53:46,794 of you, and our child, 1190 00:53:46,828 --> 00:53:49,296 - and our family, and now I do... - Like... 1191 00:53:49,329 --> 00:53:50,397 and now, and now I do. 1192 00:53:50,430 --> 00:53:52,867 And you said you trusted me, you said you wanted me 1193 00:53:52,900 --> 00:53:54,678 - to be your doula! - I didn't say that I wanted 1194 00:53:54,702 --> 00:53:56,938 - to sleep in the woods. - It's not fucking fair! 1195 00:53:56,971 --> 00:53:59,372 I'm not a baby, I'm not a fucking child! 1196 00:53:59,406 --> 00:54:00,984 - I'm not drawing a line. - I'm not a goddamn junkie 1197 00:54:01,008 --> 00:54:02,442 like your father! 1198 00:54:02,476 --> 00:54:05,278 Why would you say that? 1199 00:54:05,312 --> 00:54:07,280 What? Is that an unfair thing? 1200 00:54:07,314 --> 00:54:10,350 Is that an untrue thing? 1201 00:54:10,383 --> 00:54:11,853 How... 1202 00:54:11,886 --> 00:54:13,721 I have nothing to say to you. 1203 00:54:13,755 --> 00:54:16,858 I have nothing to say to you. 1204 00:54:16,891 --> 00:54:18,993 I hope that we can do the rest of this 1205 00:54:19,026 --> 00:54:21,996 silently, or just part our ways out here. 1206 00:54:22,029 --> 00:54:23,564 Okay, but what if the thing happens 1207 00:54:23,598 --> 00:54:25,032 that happened in the podcast? 1208 00:54:27,769 --> 00:54:29,737 Well, it was meant to be. 1209 00:54:41,381 --> 00:54:43,951 Look, I'm sorry, okay? 1210 00:54:43,985 --> 00:54:46,521 That shouldn't have been aimed at you. 1211 00:54:46,554 --> 00:54:47,889 No? 1212 00:54:47,922 --> 00:54:50,558 Who should it have been aimed at, Elliot? 1213 00:55:39,507 --> 00:55:40,541 Do you like it? 1214 00:55:40,575 --> 00:55:42,442 Yeah! 1215 00:55:42,475 --> 00:55:43,611 Sort of picks up this... 1216 00:55:43,644 --> 00:55:46,113 Does anybody need anything else? 1217 00:55:46,147 --> 00:55:48,850 More coffee, or... no. 1218 00:55:48,883 --> 00:55:51,853 When is the baby actually due? 1219 00:55:51,886 --> 00:55:53,955 Uh, one more month. 1220 00:55:53,988 --> 00:55:55,790 Four weeks. 1221 00:55:55,823 --> 00:55:56,924 No more drinks? 1222 00:55:56,958 --> 00:55:57,892 Good, we good? 1223 00:55:57,925 --> 00:55:59,459 Everybody cool? 1224 00:55:59,492 --> 00:56:00,828 For a little while. 1225 00:56:00,862 --> 00:56:03,496 I'm so worried about your eye, honey. 1226 00:56:03,531 --> 00:56:05,408 - My eye's okay. - Don't you think we need to put 1227 00:56:05,432 --> 00:56:06,910 - ice on it? - No, it actually doesn't hurt 1228 00:56:06,934 --> 00:56:07,735 at all anymore. 1229 00:56:07,768 --> 00:56:09,937 It really hurt at first, but it hurt... 1230 00:56:09,971 --> 00:56:10,905 I'll tell ya about it later. 1231 00:56:10,938 --> 00:56:12,472 - Bob? - Hey, dad? 1232 00:56:12,506 --> 00:56:13,841 Bob? 1233 00:56:13,875 --> 00:56:14,942 Yeah? 1234 00:56:14,976 --> 00:56:16,878 Will you come over here? 1235 00:56:16,911 --> 00:56:18,813 Sure, sure. 1236 00:56:23,017 --> 00:56:24,552 Here we go! 1237 00:56:26,787 --> 00:56:27,755 Here I am. 1238 00:56:27,788 --> 00:56:31,458 - Hey! - Hey, thanks! 1239 00:56:31,491 --> 00:56:32,491 So. 1240 00:56:34,228 --> 00:56:37,064 I know it's weird, it's like we've called this meeting. 1241 00:56:37,098 --> 00:56:39,499 - Here! Here! - We've called you here... 1242 00:56:39,533 --> 00:56:42,770 - Today. - Today to, uh, 1243 00:56:42,803 --> 00:56:45,438 - well, I'm joking around. - Well, we have, we have 1244 00:56:45,472 --> 00:56:48,075 because we, um... 1245 00:56:48,109 --> 00:56:49,644 We've been going through this 1246 00:56:49,677 --> 00:56:52,479 intense transformation. 1247 00:56:52,513 --> 00:56:54,882 We've been on kind of a quest. 1248 00:56:54,916 --> 00:56:56,617 - Mm. - Hm. 1249 00:56:56,651 --> 00:57:00,922 And, um, we've had some revelations 1250 00:57:00,955 --> 00:57:02,489 - that we'd... - Oh! 1251 00:57:02,523 --> 00:57:04,792 And we wanted to share those with you guys. 1252 00:57:06,861 --> 00:57:09,096 - Yeah. - Great hummus. 1253 00:57:09,130 --> 00:57:10,765 Thank you. 1254 00:57:10,798 --> 00:57:13,200 You have anymore? 1255 00:57:13,234 --> 00:57:14,969 No. 1256 00:57:15,002 --> 00:57:16,079 - No, there's... - That's it. 1257 00:57:16,103 --> 00:57:17,772 There's no more hummus, dad. 1258 00:57:17,805 --> 00:57:21,242 So when, when is the baby coming? 1259 00:57:21,275 --> 00:57:24,512 It's in, it's in four weeks, three and a half. 1260 00:57:24,545 --> 00:57:26,814 Ah, right, right. 1261 00:57:26,847 --> 00:57:28,716 Final countdown, as they said. 1262 00:57:28,749 --> 00:57:31,752 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1263 00:57:31,786 --> 00:57:35,156 So, we, we have realized that 1264 00:57:35,189 --> 00:57:38,025 the thing 1265 00:57:38,059 --> 00:57:40,861 that set all this off 1266 00:57:40,895 --> 00:57:42,630 was about being parents 1267 00:57:42,663 --> 00:57:46,067 and how we feel we've been parented. 1268 00:57:46,100 --> 00:57:50,771 - And, and, some of the... - And... 1269 00:57:50,805 --> 00:57:55,009 issues we might hold onto, 1270 00:57:55,042 --> 00:57:59,213 which have something to do with, um... 1271 00:57:59,246 --> 00:58:01,282 - You. - Stuff, stuff... you. 1272 00:58:01,315 --> 00:58:04,151 I can't take my eyes off your eye. 1273 00:58:04,185 --> 00:58:05,152 It's okay, it's okay. 1274 00:58:05,186 --> 00:58:07,254 - I'm okay. - Don't you want an ice pack 1275 00:58:07,288 --> 00:58:08,089 - or something? - I'm okay. 1276 00:58:08,122 --> 00:58:10,057 - I'm just so concerned. - Okay, guys. 1277 00:58:10,091 --> 00:58:11,959 There are lots of good things. 1278 00:58:11,993 --> 00:58:14,295 It can hemorrhage, you can get a hemorrhage 1279 00:58:14,328 --> 00:58:15,772 - in your eye and a blood clot. - He's not gonna get, 1280 00:58:15,796 --> 00:58:17,040 he's not gonna get a hemorrhage. 1281 00:58:17,064 --> 00:58:18,933 - My eye is fine. - We do need to, you know, 1282 00:58:18,966 --> 00:58:21,902 I just... what did you wanna say? 1283 00:58:21,936 --> 00:58:24,805 We just need to be 1284 00:58:24,839 --> 00:58:28,142 - honest. - Okay, honest, go. 1285 00:58:28,175 --> 00:58:31,579 So you have your hand on your cheek? 1286 00:58:31,612 --> 00:58:33,047 Yeah. 1287 00:58:33,080 --> 00:58:35,192 - Um, do you wanna? Or, should I? - I can take it off. 1288 00:58:35,216 --> 00:58:36,884 Should I? 1289 00:58:36,917 --> 00:58:38,619 - Should I? Okay. - Okay. 1290 00:58:38,652 --> 00:58:41,555 Okay, dad, I'm afraid of you. 1291 00:58:44,191 --> 00:58:47,128 Right now? 1292 00:58:47,161 --> 00:58:49,697 Um, always. 1293 00:58:49,730 --> 00:58:51,599 Always, I always have been. 1294 00:58:51,632 --> 00:58:54,802 Your, um, anger, um, 1295 00:58:54,835 --> 00:58:56,146 well, it scared me when I was a kid 1296 00:58:56,170 --> 00:58:58,672 'cause I was much smaller than you. 1297 00:58:58,706 --> 00:59:03,110 And, um, and it scares me now 1298 00:59:03,144 --> 00:59:08,082 because I don't wanna be that way with our daughter 1299 00:59:08,115 --> 00:59:09,884 when she's born. 1300 00:59:09,917 --> 00:59:14,288 Well, get rid of that so you don't pass it on to 1301 00:59:14,321 --> 00:59:16,157 your whippersnapper there. 1302 00:59:16,190 --> 00:59:19,593 Well, yeah, that's, that's what I'm trying to do. 1303 00:59:19,627 --> 00:59:20,961 - Um... - But, honey, 1304 00:59:20,995 --> 00:59:23,264 we've dealt with all that stuff. 1305 00:59:23,297 --> 00:59:28,035 Okay, but actually, we haven't dealt with it at all. 1306 00:59:28,069 --> 00:59:30,738 Do you, do you remember 1307 00:59:30,771 --> 00:59:32,907 what he's talking about? 1308 00:59:32,940 --> 00:59:35,376 Mm, not specifically, but... 1309 00:59:35,409 --> 00:59:37,278 Do you remember all the times when you would 1310 00:59:37,311 --> 00:59:39,613 pinch me, or you'd spank me, 1311 00:59:39,647 --> 00:59:42,683 or you'd cock a fist back like you were gonna hit me? 1312 00:59:42,716 --> 00:59:44,618 - Do you remember that? No? - Mm-mm. 1313 00:59:44,652 --> 00:59:46,187 - No. - He never punched you 1314 00:59:46,220 --> 00:59:49,056 - with his fist. - You seriously don't remember? 1315 00:59:49,090 --> 00:59:51,992 I don't remember a lot of things. 1316 00:59:52,026 --> 00:59:54,728 - Really? - Really. 1317 00:59:54,762 --> 00:59:56,297 - Really? - Really. 1318 00:59:56,330 --> 00:59:58,032 - Really? - Really! 1319 00:59:58,065 --> 00:59:59,342 It's gotta be in there somewhere. 1320 00:59:59,366 --> 01:00:02,169 - Well, I don't remember... - You're choosing 1321 01:00:02,203 --> 01:00:03,237 to not remember. 1322 01:00:03,270 --> 01:00:07,041 - You almost drowned him. - Huh? 1323 01:00:07,074 --> 01:00:08,642 - Nothing. - What do you wanna say? 1324 01:00:08,676 --> 01:00:09,677 No, no, no, no, no, no. 1325 01:00:09,710 --> 01:00:12,179 Oh, in the pool, when you got pissed off at me 1326 01:00:12,213 --> 01:00:14,682 because you thought I should be able to swim, 1327 01:00:14,715 --> 01:00:17,151 and I couldn't swim, and I was scared of the water, 1328 01:00:17,184 --> 01:00:18,228 and you told me to figure it out, 1329 01:00:18,252 --> 01:00:21,188 and you turned around and you went back inside? 1330 01:00:21,222 --> 01:00:23,224 And you swam. 1331 01:00:23,257 --> 01:00:25,025 - Well... - Could you not laugh? 1332 01:00:25,059 --> 01:00:27,761 Please don't laugh about it, Richard. 1333 01:00:27,795 --> 01:00:28,796 Mom came out, 1334 01:00:28,829 --> 01:00:31,098 and she had to jump in the pool 1335 01:00:31,132 --> 01:00:33,067 with all her clothes on and pull me out. 1336 01:00:33,100 --> 01:00:34,068 - Exactly! - I didn't actually 1337 01:00:34,101 --> 01:00:36,904 magically learn to swim. 1338 01:00:36,937 --> 01:00:39,073 She's a better swimmer than I am. 1339 01:00:41,442 --> 01:00:45,346 Okay, dad, do you remember, 1340 01:00:45,379 --> 01:00:48,082 do you remember the time in church 1341 01:00:48,115 --> 01:00:51,285 where I was six, and you kept telling me 1342 01:00:51,318 --> 01:00:52,786 to tuck my shirt in, 1343 01:00:52,820 --> 01:00:54,088 and my shirt wouldn't stay in 1344 01:00:54,121 --> 01:00:55,956 because it was a little too short? 1345 01:00:55,990 --> 01:00:58,092 And you pulled me over to the side, 1346 01:00:58,125 --> 01:00:59,793 and in front of everybody, 1347 01:00:59,827 --> 01:01:01,228 you pulled my pants down, 1348 01:01:01,262 --> 01:01:02,463 and pulled my shirt down, 1349 01:01:02,496 --> 01:01:06,901 and then you pulled my pants, like, almost up to my chest? 1350 01:01:06,934 --> 01:01:07,801 Do you remember that? 1351 01:01:07,835 --> 01:01:10,304 Yeah, did we get your shirt tucked in? 1352 01:01:16,744 --> 01:01:18,913 - I'm just gonna run and get... - Mom? 1353 01:01:18,946 --> 01:01:21,015 Mom, mom, mom, stop, please? 1354 01:01:21,048 --> 01:01:22,983 Please put that down. 1355 01:01:23,017 --> 01:01:24,084 Please put that down. 1356 01:01:24,118 --> 01:01:25,162 You're just tryin' to clean up 1357 01:01:25,186 --> 01:01:26,396 because you're conflict avoidant, 1358 01:01:26,420 --> 01:01:28,155 and that's always been your issue, 1359 01:01:28,189 --> 01:01:29,790 and it's crippled you as a human being. 1360 01:01:29,823 --> 01:01:31,859 Conflict avoidant? Well, I don't know about that. 1361 01:01:31,892 --> 01:01:35,262 Please stop, please stop! 1362 01:01:35,296 --> 01:01:38,032 I think you need to calm down, 1363 01:01:38,065 --> 01:01:39,333 buster. 1364 01:01:39,366 --> 01:01:41,769 - We're calm! - We're, 1365 01:01:41,802 --> 01:01:43,971 we are in a safe space. 1366 01:01:44,004 --> 01:01:46,173 - This is a safe space. - This is a safe space 1367 01:01:46,207 --> 01:01:49,109 - for us to just... - This is not a safe place. 1368 01:01:49,143 --> 01:01:51,011 This is a safe space 1369 01:01:51,045 --> 01:01:53,223 - to talk about what's really... - This is the most unsafe place 1370 01:01:53,247 --> 01:01:55,382 I've ever been in my whole life. 1371 01:01:55,416 --> 01:01:57,451 There is nothing safe about this! 1372 01:01:57,484 --> 01:01:59,186 This is a safe space! 1373 01:01:59,220 --> 01:02:00,955 What does that mean, a safe space? 1374 01:02:00,988 --> 01:02:02,122 It's not a safe place. 1375 01:02:02,156 --> 01:02:04,258 There's no such thing as a safe place! 1376 01:02:04,291 --> 01:02:06,269 - What is a safe place? - This is a family safe place 1377 01:02:06,293 --> 01:02:08,762 to just say everything you gotta say! 1378 01:02:08,796 --> 01:02:11,031 Dad, I think you're petrified. 1379 01:02:11,065 --> 01:02:12,900 I think you're fucking petrified, 1380 01:02:12,933 --> 01:02:14,835 and I just wanna create a safe space 1381 01:02:14,868 --> 01:02:16,046 to talk about why you're scared. 1382 01:02:16,070 --> 01:02:20,908 I'm just frightened to death, so how we gonna help me? 1383 01:02:20,941 --> 01:02:23,010 - What happened to you? - When? 1384 01:02:23,043 --> 01:02:25,012 When you were a kid? 1385 01:02:25,045 --> 01:02:27,948 I got the shit beat outta me. 1386 01:02:31,118 --> 01:02:32,820 I got hit with a fist, 1387 01:02:32,853 --> 01:02:34,421 I got hit with a belt, 1388 01:02:34,455 --> 01:02:36,223 I got hit with a stick. 1389 01:02:36,257 --> 01:02:40,995 I got hit with whatever was available. 1390 01:02:41,028 --> 01:02:43,931 You don't know real fear 1391 01:02:43,964 --> 01:02:47,101 until you met my dad when he was younger. 1392 01:02:49,136 --> 01:02:52,239 He'd come home from a trip, and I don't know where 1393 01:02:52,273 --> 01:02:53,907 the rage was coming from, 1394 01:02:53,941 --> 01:02:58,812 but this guy came like a fucking lion 1395 01:02:58,846 --> 01:03:01,181 out of nowhere! 1396 01:03:01,215 --> 01:03:03,817 And he would beat the shit out of me, 1397 01:03:03,851 --> 01:03:08,222 and then he'd leave again for three days. 1398 01:03:08,255 --> 01:03:11,892 All I knew about being a parent is 1399 01:03:11,925 --> 01:03:14,128 how he parented me. 1400 01:03:16,463 --> 01:03:19,199 What else is there? 1401 01:03:24,171 --> 01:03:26,473 Well, I, I, I gotta go. 1402 01:03:26,508 --> 01:03:27,975 Dad, no you don't. 1403 01:03:28,008 --> 01:03:30,844 Well, I gotta go soon. 1404 01:03:30,878 --> 01:03:32,146 Real soon. 1405 01:03:32,179 --> 01:03:34,114 I know we haven't, 1406 01:03:34,148 --> 01:03:35,158 I haven't talked to you yet, 1407 01:03:35,182 --> 01:03:39,053 but I do, I do need you to stay 1408 01:03:39,086 --> 01:03:40,321 because... 1409 01:03:40,354 --> 01:03:42,156 I don't wanna talk about that other thing. 1410 01:03:42,189 --> 01:03:44,992 Well, we are going to talk about it 1411 01:03:45,025 --> 01:03:47,394 because this is an open forum. 1412 01:03:47,428 --> 01:03:49,531 It's open forum day. 1413 01:03:49,564 --> 01:03:53,200 And the whole reason that I got 1414 01:03:53,233 --> 01:03:56,970 sent up on this quest 1415 01:03:57,004 --> 01:04:00,240 was because of your text. 1416 01:04:00,274 --> 01:04:02,309 What text? 1417 01:04:02,343 --> 01:04:04,546 Where you asked us to pay your rent? 1418 01:04:04,579 --> 01:04:05,579 Mm. 1419 01:04:08,282 --> 01:04:11,653 That's why we're here? 1420 01:04:11,686 --> 01:04:15,089 I'm, I'm sorry I, 1421 01:04:15,122 --> 01:04:16,591 I got backed up. 1422 01:04:16,624 --> 01:04:18,425 I got behind. 1423 01:04:18,459 --> 01:04:19,993 I got behind, 1424 01:04:20,027 --> 01:04:22,963 and that's what family's for. 1425 01:04:22,996 --> 01:04:24,932 Family's there to help each other. 1426 01:04:24,965 --> 01:04:27,234 I helped you when you were a little baby. 1427 01:04:27,267 --> 01:04:29,370 Dad, the... 1428 01:04:29,403 --> 01:04:31,338 Can we talk about the pills? 1429 01:04:31,372 --> 01:04:33,374 And the relapse? 1430 01:04:33,407 --> 01:04:35,643 And the fact that this is the fourth time 1431 01:04:35,677 --> 01:04:37,211 in the last two years 1432 01:04:37,244 --> 01:04:39,647 that you've hit us up for money? 1433 01:04:39,681 --> 01:04:42,650 I'm not a drug addict. 1434 01:04:42,684 --> 01:04:46,220 I have a pain problem 1435 01:04:46,253 --> 01:04:47,354 with my back. 1436 01:04:47,388 --> 01:04:49,591 Had an accident many years ago, 1437 01:04:49,624 --> 01:04:52,292 and sometimes it's hard to maintain 1438 01:04:52,326 --> 01:04:55,963 the right, you know, balance. 1439 01:04:55,996 --> 01:04:57,030 But, dad... 1440 01:04:57,064 --> 01:05:00,134 I needed the money 'cause I needed the money! 1441 01:05:00,167 --> 01:05:02,403 And I don't appreciate you bringing it up. 1442 01:05:02,436 --> 01:05:06,373 - How many pills are you taking? - I take it as prescribed. 1443 01:05:06,407 --> 01:05:08,475 What is prescribed? 1444 01:05:08,510 --> 01:05:12,146 I don't know. 1445 01:05:12,179 --> 01:05:14,047 I'm sorry, just kill me, okay? 1446 01:05:14,081 --> 01:05:14,948 Just fucking kill me? 1447 01:05:14,982 --> 01:05:17,050 Why don't I just fucking kill myself? 1448 01:05:17,084 --> 01:05:18,529 Then it'd be over, then you wouldn't have to... you could 1449 01:05:18,553 --> 01:05:20,254 - raise your kid by yourself. - Whoa! 1450 01:05:20,287 --> 01:05:22,022 - Okay, Bob... - I don't give a fuck! 1451 01:05:22,055 --> 01:05:22,956 - Dad! - Do you understand how 1452 01:05:22,990 --> 01:05:23,991 narcissistic you're being 1453 01:05:24,024 --> 01:05:25,560 - right now? - Narcissistic. 1454 01:05:25,593 --> 01:05:27,629 - Fuck you! - Yeah! 1455 01:05:27,662 --> 01:05:30,197 Yeah, I mean, we drive down here 1456 01:05:30,230 --> 01:05:32,399 five hours to come here, 1457 01:05:32,433 --> 01:05:33,701 and take you out, 1458 01:05:33,735 --> 01:05:36,336 and have a great time to celebrate 1459 01:05:36,370 --> 01:05:38,405 the birth of our grandkid, 1460 01:05:38,439 --> 01:05:41,709 and you, you wanna have an inquisition with us 1461 01:05:41,743 --> 01:05:44,746 about the parents that we were 1462 01:05:44,779 --> 01:05:46,581 years and years ago, 1463 01:05:46,614 --> 01:05:48,282 when we didn't know any better? 1464 01:05:48,315 --> 01:05:50,217 We didn't have these parenting classes, 1465 01:05:50,250 --> 01:05:54,522 this rie, rie parenting classes, whatever the heck 1466 01:05:54,556 --> 01:05:55,599 it was you went to... You don't understand 1467 01:05:55,623 --> 01:05:58,025 - how different it was. - I was out on the streets 1468 01:05:58,058 --> 01:05:58,992 when I was a kid. 1469 01:05:59,026 --> 01:06:01,361 I was sellin' papers on a paper corner, 1470 01:06:01,395 --> 01:06:05,365 on a corner when I was nine years old. 1471 01:06:05,399 --> 01:06:07,569 - It's different! - It's real different. 1472 01:06:07,602 --> 01:06:09,236 I had to walk to school, 1473 01:06:09,269 --> 01:06:12,005 miles, when I was seven years old! 1474 01:06:12,039 --> 01:06:12,874 They would just put me out. 1475 01:06:12,907 --> 01:06:14,284 I mean, anything could have happened, 1476 01:06:14,308 --> 01:06:15,375 and bad things did happen! 1477 01:06:15,409 --> 01:06:18,680 Yeah, you can't teach somebody to climb a tree. 1478 01:06:18,713 --> 01:06:22,282 I fell out of a tree! 1479 01:06:22,316 --> 01:06:24,619 That's right, you gotta learn to climb the tree. 1480 01:06:24,652 --> 01:06:26,487 Cut my ear, I still have a scar. 1481 01:06:26,521 --> 01:06:28,231 Oh, I'll tell you another thing that happened. 1482 01:06:28,255 --> 01:06:30,692 They would give me a dog, my mother would give me a dog. 1483 01:06:30,725 --> 01:06:33,203 I'd fall in love with the dog, I'd have the dog for six months, 1484 01:06:33,227 --> 01:06:35,797 then daddy would come home, and give the dog away! 1485 01:06:35,830 --> 01:06:38,600 On Christmas Eve, once, I had a dog named stray. 1486 01:06:38,633 --> 01:06:40,200 They gave the dog away on Christmas Eve, 1487 01:06:40,234 --> 01:06:41,636 and my mother said, "oh, 1488 01:06:41,669 --> 01:06:43,738 it's a good time to give the dog to the pound 1489 01:06:43,771 --> 01:06:46,106 because on Christmas, people will be goin' to get 1490 01:06:46,139 --> 01:06:47,407 dogs for their children." 1491 01:06:47,441 --> 01:06:49,553 You wonder why I didn't want you to have a dog growin' up? 1492 01:06:49,577 --> 01:06:52,145 - I couldn't bear it! - It's a different world 1493 01:06:52,179 --> 01:06:53,615 that you're living in 1494 01:06:53,648 --> 01:06:56,450 from the world we lived in and grew up in. 1495 01:06:56,483 --> 01:06:59,621 And you really don't know what it was like. 1496 01:06:59,654 --> 01:07:01,523 And feelings, I mean, it's a luxury, 1497 01:07:01,556 --> 01:07:03,257 it's a privilege to have feelings, 1498 01:07:03,290 --> 01:07:04,467 to be able to discuss feelings. 1499 01:07:04,491 --> 01:07:08,228 If I would have stopped to talk to my dad about feelings, 1500 01:07:08,262 --> 01:07:09,764 he woulda knocked me for a loop! 1501 01:07:09,797 --> 01:07:11,533 I didn't even know I had feelings. 1502 01:07:11,566 --> 01:07:15,068 - What are feelings, man? - Feelings. 1503 01:07:15,102 --> 01:07:17,271 Good luck! 1504 01:07:17,304 --> 01:07:19,206 Is that what you want, is you want, you want, 1505 01:07:19,239 --> 01:07:22,442 you guys want, you want an apology? 1506 01:07:22,476 --> 01:07:24,278 I'll apologize to you. 1507 01:07:24,311 --> 01:07:27,347 I'll look right into your eyes right now, 1508 01:07:27,381 --> 01:07:29,551 and I am so sorry 1509 01:07:29,584 --> 01:07:31,786 for all the times that I ever hurt you, 1510 01:07:31,819 --> 01:07:34,321 and all the times that I ever 1511 01:07:34,354 --> 01:07:36,089 made you upset, 1512 01:07:36,123 --> 01:07:37,157 and all the times... 1513 01:07:37,190 --> 01:07:38,660 I'll apologize for him too. 1514 01:07:38,693 --> 01:07:39,561 I hated it when he 1515 01:07:39,594 --> 01:07:41,461 - threatened you. - Is that what you want? 1516 01:07:41,495 --> 01:07:43,263 For us to tell you we're sorry? 1517 01:07:43,297 --> 01:07:45,867 - Tell him! Apologize to him. - I mean, okay, I'm sorry 1518 01:07:45,900 --> 01:07:47,267 if I hurt you. 1519 01:07:47,301 --> 01:07:48,068 I'm sorry. 1520 01:07:48,101 --> 01:07:49,771 But say it, say it like you mean it. 1521 01:07:49,804 --> 01:07:52,707 I am sorry if I hurt you. 1522 01:07:56,744 --> 01:07:58,846 See? 1523 01:07:58,880 --> 01:08:01,716 He is sorry. 1524 01:08:01,749 --> 01:08:03,450 This is a good man, 1525 01:08:03,483 --> 01:08:05,385 and he loves you. 1526 01:08:09,389 --> 01:08:10,825 You doin' okay, dad? 1527 01:08:15,462 --> 01:08:16,831 I'm sorry. 1528 01:08:18,465 --> 01:08:22,302 Dad, dad, look at me. 1529 01:08:22,336 --> 01:08:25,138 How many pills are you at? 1530 01:08:25,172 --> 01:08:26,507 How many? 1531 01:08:30,612 --> 01:08:33,881 I don't know! 1532 01:08:33,915 --> 01:08:35,550 I don't know. 1533 01:08:35,583 --> 01:08:36,718 Dad. 1534 01:08:38,653 --> 01:08:40,755 I don't know! 1535 01:08:40,788 --> 01:08:44,191 I take 'em, I take 'em, I just, it doesn't... 1536 01:08:44,224 --> 01:08:46,393 I take 'em as needed! 1537 01:08:46,426 --> 01:08:48,428 And I need a lot. 1538 01:08:48,462 --> 01:08:50,565 I need a lot. 1539 01:08:55,202 --> 01:08:56,671 Will you go to rehab? 1540 01:09:04,512 --> 01:09:06,814 Okay. 1541 01:09:06,848 --> 01:09:08,816 Yeah? 1542 01:09:08,850 --> 01:09:11,451 Yeah. 1543 01:09:11,485 --> 01:09:14,354 I'll go to the meetings, I'll do whatever I can. 1544 01:09:14,388 --> 01:09:15,389 I'll do anything! 1545 01:09:15,422 --> 01:09:17,592 I'm gonna throw these freakin' pills away. 1546 01:09:17,625 --> 01:09:19,594 Here! Take 'em, 1547 01:09:19,627 --> 01:09:21,896 and flush 'em away. 1548 01:09:21,929 --> 01:09:24,364 This is it, this is day one... day zero. 1549 01:09:24,398 --> 01:09:26,868 Tomorrow's day one. 1550 01:09:26,901 --> 01:09:29,604 Dad. 1551 01:09:29,637 --> 01:09:32,239 If you mean it, 1552 01:09:32,272 --> 01:09:34,307 it would really mean a lot to me. 1553 01:09:37,545 --> 01:09:38,880 I mean it! 1554 01:09:41,549 --> 01:09:43,651 But I don't know. 1555 01:09:48,321 --> 01:09:50,390 But I wanna see your baby. 1556 01:09:56,363 --> 01:09:59,634 I'm excited for you to be a grandpa. 1557 01:10:02,570 --> 01:10:04,304 I don't wanna miss that! 1558 01:10:04,337 --> 01:10:07,374 I don't want you to miss that. 1559 01:10:07,407 --> 01:10:10,377 We don't want you guys to miss it. 1560 01:10:10,410 --> 01:10:12,279 That's why we wanted to 1561 01:10:12,312 --> 01:10:14,649 talk to you because it's important to us 1562 01:10:14,682 --> 01:10:17,852 that you're in our kid's life. 1563 01:10:42,844 --> 01:10:44,779 Oh, that's weird. 1564 01:10:44,812 --> 01:10:46,313 Ooh! 1565 01:10:49,517 --> 01:10:52,019 Oh, my god, I have to go to the bathroom. 1566 01:10:52,053 --> 01:10:53,654 You okay? 1567 01:10:53,688 --> 01:10:55,757 Ooh, I gotta go. 1568 01:10:55,790 --> 01:10:58,025 Uh, okay. 1569 01:11:00,360 --> 01:11:02,029 I'll be right back. 1570 01:11:49,877 --> 01:11:51,846 Uh, honey? 1571 01:11:51,879 --> 01:11:53,346 Can you come up here? 1572 01:11:53,380 --> 01:11:54,849 I'll be right back. 1573 01:11:59,120 --> 01:12:01,055 Wow. 1574 01:12:01,088 --> 01:12:03,658 What the fuck was that? 1575 01:12:03,691 --> 01:12:05,293 I don't know. 1576 01:12:08,696 --> 01:12:10,463 - Hey. - Hey. 1577 01:12:10,497 --> 01:12:12,834 You okay? 1578 01:12:12,867 --> 01:12:14,434 It's starting. 1579 01:12:14,467 --> 01:12:15,970 It's star... 1580 01:12:16,003 --> 01:12:19,472 Oh, like, it's starting right now? 1581 01:12:19,507 --> 01:12:22,844 Yeah, right now. 1582 01:12:22,877 --> 01:12:25,613 Okay. 1583 01:12:25,646 --> 01:12:26,948 Okay. 1584 01:12:29,617 --> 01:12:30,952 Awesome! 1585 01:12:33,087 --> 01:12:35,790 Awesome. 1586 01:12:38,860 --> 01:12:40,127 Oh! 1587 01:13:18,666 --> 01:13:19,567 Are you okay? 1588 01:13:19,600 --> 01:13:20,601 - No. - Are you okay? 1589 01:13:20,635 --> 01:13:23,638 I'm really stressed, and I'm really tired. 1590 01:13:23,671 --> 01:13:24,739 Oh, okay. 1591 01:13:24,772 --> 01:13:25,873 My white blood cell count 1592 01:13:25,907 --> 01:13:27,217 - is not doing well. - No, I know. 1593 01:13:27,241 --> 01:13:28,408 You need to not stress out. 1594 01:13:28,441 --> 01:13:31,112 - I can't be stressed out! - You need to not stress out. 1595 01:13:31,145 --> 01:13:32,947 I know I need to not stress out! 1596 01:13:32,980 --> 01:13:36,717 - Just, so just calm down! - So I know, so you... 1597 01:13:41,923 --> 01:13:44,659 Okay, let's try it again. 1598 01:14:03,210 --> 01:14:05,579 Wait a second, 'cause we can figure this out mathematically. 1599 01:14:05,613 --> 01:14:08,883 - Let's go that way. - The city lights are there. 1600 01:14:08,916 --> 01:14:10,851 The moon is there. 1601 01:14:10,885 --> 01:14:12,887 Do you remember where our car was 1602 01:14:12,920 --> 01:14:14,588 in relation to the moon? 1603 01:14:17,992 --> 01:14:20,795 Do you remember where our car was... 1604 01:14:20,828 --> 01:14:22,663 I peed my pants. 1605 01:14:26,000 --> 01:14:27,868 Hey, stop. 1606 01:14:40,648 --> 01:14:42,283 Eighty-eight, eighty-nine, 1607 01:14:42,316 --> 01:14:44,785 ninety, ninety-one, ninety-two, 1608 01:14:44,819 --> 01:14:47,288 ninety-three, ninety-four, ninety-five, 1609 01:14:47,321 --> 01:14:49,056 ninety-six, ninety-seven, 1610 01:14:49,090 --> 01:14:50,992 ninety-eight, ninety-nine. 1611 01:15:25,760 --> 01:15:26,861 That's good, hold up. 1612 01:15:26,894 --> 01:15:28,295 Hold on, just like that. 1613 01:15:28,329 --> 01:15:30,564 - Hold on just like... - Don't take a picture! 1614 01:15:30,598 --> 01:15:31,432 We don't need a picture, 1615 01:15:31,465 --> 01:15:32,876 - this is for us! - Let me take a picture! 1616 01:15:32,900 --> 01:15:34,201 No, that goes to the cloud. 1617 01:15:34,235 --> 01:15:35,312 I'm about to let you fuck me. 1618 01:15:35,336 --> 01:15:37,671 - Let me take a picture. - Yeah, this is different. 1619 01:15:37,705 --> 01:15:38,572 It's not on the cloud. 1620 01:15:38,606 --> 01:15:40,775 - You swear your phone? - I swear to god 1621 01:15:40,808 --> 01:15:41,709 it's not on the cloud. 1622 01:15:41,742 --> 01:15:44,912 'Cause this is not for social media.