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Kailangan mo na yatang maligo, a.
Halika nga. Sobrang dumi mo.

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May ilang oras pa bago ko siya makita.

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Mahabang biyahe 'yon.
Saka gusto nang umuwi ni Charlie,

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mag-unpack at kung ano-ano pa.

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Sobrang excited na akong makita siya.

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- Di ako makapaniwala, two months na pala.
- Ako nga rin, e.

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Kumusta ka naman?

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Di ko alam, e.

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- Ang haba no'ng dalawang buwan.
- Nagda-diary ka na ba?

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Tingin ko pa rin talaga,
di ako pang-diary, e.

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Lahat pwedeng mag-diary, Nicholas.

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Nakakatulong 'yon
sa pag-process ng emotions.

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Pag di ako nag-diary,
literal na magbe-breakdown ako.

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Oo na, di mo na kailangang i-explain ulit.

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Sinubukan mo man lang ba?

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Okay. Pag sinubukan ko,
di mo na ako ipe-pressure?

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Oo. Promise.

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<i>Alam n'yo 'yong kasabihang,
"Lumalala muna ang mga bagay bago umayos"?</i>

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<i>Parang naiintindihan ko na 'yon ngayon.</i>

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{\an8}<i>No'ng September,
ipina-schedule si Charlie sa doktor.</i>

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A, oo.

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Sa Thursday, 9:45.

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Oo, ayos 'yan. Salamat.

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<i>Sabi niya, ayaw niyang nagpapadoktor.
Sino ba'ng nag-e-enjoy magpadoktor?</i>

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<i>Lalo na kung para sa ganito.</i>

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<i>Naging okay naman siguro</i>

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<i>kasi na-refer siya
sa isang eating disorder service.</i>

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<i>Pero January pa
'yong unang appointment no'n.</i>

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<i>Nagsimulang lumala ang mga bagay
pagkatapos no'n.</i>

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<i>Mas lumala ang eating disorder niya.</i>

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Pwedeng tigilan mo na?

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- Pwede mo kaming kausapin.
- Nag-aalala lang kami sa 'yo.

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Pwedeng tama na?

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Di ko kailangang sabihin sa inyo lahat.

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<i>Tapos, nagsimula na talaga siyang magalit.</i>

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<i>Tapos, di na niya ako kinausap
tungkol do'n.</i>

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<i>Madalas na din siyang umabsent.</i>

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ABSENT KA DIN BA NGAYON?

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<i>Parang spinning wheel
na pabilis nang pabilis,</i>

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<i>at sobrang nahihirapan na siya.</i>

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Sorry.

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Di ko sinasadya.

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<i>Sinasaktan niya din daw dati
ang sarili niya.</i>

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Okay lang 'yon.

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Sobrang pangit ng pakiramdam ko lagi.

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Ang sama ng naging trato ko sa 'yo,
sa lahat, at...

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ayoko ng ganitong pakiramdam.

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Sorry, ha?

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Okay lang 'yon.

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<i>Nagbasa din ako tungkol do'n online.</i>

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<i>Sabi, kailangang maiparamdam mong
naiintindihan mo sila at di hinuhusgahan.</i>

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<i>Pakiramdam ko, di sapat 'yon,
pero sinubukan ko pa rin.</i>

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<i>Nag-effort akong damayan siya.</i>

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I love you.

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- Sobrang galing mo sa game na 'to.
- Ano?

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- Wag! Tori!
- Ang galing nito.

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Tori!

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Tingnan mo 'yong paggalaw ng balahibo.
Itong mga...

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Charlie! Wag gano'n.

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Darcy!

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Oh my God, nagupit...

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<i>Alam niyang walang sense
'yong compulsions,</i>

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<i>pero di niya alam kung pa'no pigilan 'yon.</i>

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<i>Kahit ako.</i>

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<i>- Aksidente lang 'yon.</i>
- Alam ko.

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<i>Ang tanga ko lang.</i>

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Naiintindihan ko. Di mo kasalanan.

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<i>Pero di ko mapigilan.</i>

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Naiisip mo ba...

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na baka kailangan mong sabihin
sa parents mo?

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Sabi ni Papa, ako dapat ang magdesisyon.

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PAGGALING SA DAFFODIL CLINIC

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Tingin mo, makakatulong?

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Di talaga, e.

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Pero at least,
di muna ako papasok sa school, so...

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Wag kang iiyak.

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Pag umiyak ka, iiyak ako.

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Di ko yata mapipigilan, e.

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<i>Ang weird
na di ko kasama sa school si Charlie.</i>

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<i>Bawal siyang magdala ng phone do'n,
kaya ni di ko siya makumusta.</i>

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{\an8}PAGGAMOT NG OSPITAL SA MENTAL HEALTH

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{\an8}ANO'NG PAKIRAMDAM PAG NASA OSPITAL?
HORROR STORY KO SA PSYCH WARD

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<i>Tingin ko, sinubukan kong magpaka-busy</i>

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<i>o malibang o 'yong dalawang 'yon.</i>

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<i>Di nga lang ako magaling sa gano'n.</i>

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Tingin mo, okay lang siya?
Tingin ko nga rin.

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At least di na niya hihintaying
mag-January.

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Baka may mga bagong kaibigan na din siya.

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Tingin ko nga rin.

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Sai, ga'no kadalas mo ba 'to laruin?

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Asan pala si Charlie?
Apat na practice na ang na-miss niya.

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May...

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May sakit lang siya sa ngayon.

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Grabe.

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Malala siguro.
Ang tagal na niyang wala, e.

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Oo, ano...

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- Medyo malala siya.
- Di nga?

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Ano'ng meron?

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Di ko pwedeng...

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Di ko pwedeng sabihin, e.

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Ayos lang, bro.

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Oo nga.

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Andito lang kami.

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- I-charge mo 'yong lightning.
- May espada ka?

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Ayan na siya.

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<i>Sabi ni Charlie, pwede kong sabihin
sa barkada ang nangyayari.</i>

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<i>Nakakapagpakita pa rin sila ng suporta
kahit ayaw niyang bumisita sila.</i>

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Ang gandang box.

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Pwede siguro nating lagyan
ng mga pang-self care gaya ng face masks.

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- Gusto ko 'yon.
- Board games kaya?

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Ay, Top Trumps na lang.

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- Gumagawa kaya sila ng gay Top Trumps?
- Ewan ko.

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- Gagawan ko siya ng listahan ng mga libro.
- Movies kaya?

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- May magagamit kaya siyang Blu-ray player?
- Siguro naman.

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Ano 'yong Blu-ray player?

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Di mo alam 'yon?

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Nabanggit ba ni Sahar
na may engrandeng pa-Halloween party siya?

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Oo.

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Send nga nang send si Imogen
ng costume ideas na pang-couple.

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So pupunta ka?

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Di ko alam.

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Makakatulong sa 'yo ang party.
Sa 'kin, alam kong makakatulong.

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Oo, ano lang kasi...

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Ang weird lang.

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00:07:08,080 --> 00:07:08,920
Na wala siya?

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Oo.

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Nicholas! Ikaw dapat 'yong Ken ko, a?

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Ito lang 'yong nakita ko, e.

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Pero nag-usap tayo, e.
Pa'no na 'yong pictures?

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Drinks ka pa?

131
00:07:47,360 --> 00:07:50,360
Video para kay Charlie para makita niyang
sobrang mahal natin siya.

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Magsalita ka.

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00:07:52,040 --> 00:07:53,320
Nicholas Nelson,

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ano'ng sasabihin mo
sa boyfriend mong si Charlie Spring?

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Hi, Charlie.

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I love you.

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Well, dito n'yo unang narinig 'yon.
Mahal ni Nick Nelson si Charlie Spring.

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- Sige na, okay na. Salamat.
- Tao! Ayos 'yang rabbit costume mo.

139
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Kita naman na si Frank ako
sa <i>Donnie Darko.</i>

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- Ha?
- Pinanood natin 'yon last week.

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- Hindi, a.
- Tulog ka na naman no'n?

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- Tulog ka na naman no'n? Naku, ha!
- Nakatulog siguro ako!

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Lahat, nakikipaghalikan pag lasing.
Pwede akong mag-experiment.

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00:09:17,640 --> 00:09:20,120
Tulad din 'to no'ng nagka-boyfriend ako,

145
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tapos basta na lang nagalit
si Sahar sa 'kin.

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Nagpunta ka!

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Hindi.

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Okay lang tabihan kita?

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00:10:08,200 --> 00:10:09,080
Oo, sige lang.

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{\an8}<i>No'ng nag-November,</i>

151
00:10:44,360 --> 00:10:46,480
{\an8}<i>unang beses tumawag ni Charlie
mula sa clinic.</i>

152
00:10:46,480 --> 00:10:49,400
{\an8}Next year, papa-attendin kita
na naka-Spider-Man.

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00:10:49,400 --> 00:10:52,000
<i>Never uubra sa 'kin
'yang mga Marvel-Marvel mo.</i>

154
00:10:53,280 --> 00:10:55,400
Kahit umattend ako bilang Mary Jane?

155
00:10:56,080 --> 00:10:57,840
At may upside-down kiss tayo?

156
00:10:58,360 --> 00:11:00,200
<i>Okay, siguro mapipilit mo ako.</i>

157
00:11:02,880 --> 00:11:04,640
<i>May anorexia at OCD pala ako.</i>

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00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:10,560
<i>Awkward talagang sabihin.</i>

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00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:14,600
Kaya siguro gano'n.

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<i>I mean, medyo nagulat ako sa OCD, pero...</i>

161
00:11:21,480 --> 00:11:24,160
<i>Sa ulo ko, may rules
pagdating sa pagkain, at...</i>

162
00:11:24,840 --> 00:11:27,200
<i>pag di ko sinunod, parang mamamatay ako.</i>

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00:11:29,880 --> 00:11:33,680
<i>Sorry, ano, e... Kailangan ko lang tawanan
para di ako maiyak.</i>

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00:11:38,480 --> 00:11:43,560
{\an8}Well, kahit na may anorexia at OCD ka,
bawal pa rin 'yong salitang "sorry".

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00:11:44,640 --> 00:11:46,880
<i>Di ba pwedeng idahilan
'yong mental illness ko?</i>

166
00:11:48,440 --> 00:11:52,280
Hindi. Nag-a-apply pa rin
'yong S-word rule sa may mental illness.

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00:11:55,600 --> 00:11:59,200
<i>Kasunod no'n, ilang beses sa isang linggo,
dinadalaw namin siya ng pamilya niya.</i>

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00:11:59,920 --> 00:12:02,240
<i>Gusto ko nga sana,
bisitahin siya araw-araw, pero...</i>

169
00:12:03,720 --> 00:12:05,440
<i>kailangan niya ng space.</i>

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00:12:07,160 --> 00:12:08,000
Bakit?

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00:12:08,960 --> 00:12:09,800
Wala.

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00:12:12,440 --> 00:12:14,600
<i>Di ko pa rin sigurado
kung boto si Tori sa 'kin.</i>

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- Hello. Welcome back.
- Hi. Nice to see you.

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<i>Alam kong di naman siya
'yong magaling na agad o kung ano.</i>

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00:13:02,000 --> 00:13:03,720
<i>Di gano'n 'yong gamutan niya.</i>

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00:13:05,080 --> 00:13:07,320
<i>At alam kong pagsugal
ang lumayo sa pamilya.</i>

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00:13:08,040 --> 00:13:10,040
<i>Pwedeng maging malala ang lagay niya.</i>

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00:13:10,040 --> 00:13:11,840
<i>Sa iba, di nakakatulong 'yon.</i>

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00:13:22,240 --> 00:13:23,920
Pwedeng i-kiss mo 'ko?

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00:13:37,520 --> 00:13:39,920
<i>Nagpapaka-positive lang siguro ako,</i>

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00:13:39,920 --> 00:13:40,840
<i>pero...</i>

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00:13:41,360 --> 00:13:42,200
<i>sa totoo lang,</i>

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00:13:43,280 --> 00:13:44,520
<i>tingin ko, nakatulong 'yon.</i>

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00:13:45,320 --> 00:13:46,480
<i>Tingin ko talaga.</i>

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00:14:15,880 --> 00:14:18,520
<i>Ang dami na yatang nangyari
mula no'ng huling nagsulat ako.</i>

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00:14:20,880 --> 00:14:23,360
<i>Di naging maganda ang mga nakaraang buwan.</i>

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00:14:23,360 --> 00:14:25,760
Nag-e-exercise ka ba nang sobra-sobra?

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00:14:26,360 --> 00:14:27,200
Hindi po.

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00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:31,760
- Pinapasama mo ba ang pakiramdam mo?
- Di po.

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00:14:32,320 --> 00:14:35,960
Masasabi mo bang pagkain
ang iniisip mo madalas?

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00:14:41,840 --> 00:14:44,280
Opo. Tingin ko, tama po 'yon.

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00:14:45,920 --> 00:14:47,920
Tingin ko, tama 'yon, di ba, Charlie?

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00:14:52,280 --> 00:14:54,840
<i>Sabi ng therapist ko,
isulat ko dapat sa diary ko.</i>

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00:14:57,880 --> 00:15:00,000
{\an8}UY, ABSENT KA DIN BA NGAYON?

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00:15:11,880 --> 00:15:15,680
{\an8}Charlie, nakatatlong sabi na ako sa 'yo.
Bumaba ka na. Bangon na.

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00:15:16,240 --> 00:15:17,840
{\an8}Charlie, bumangon ka na.

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00:15:19,840 --> 00:15:21,880
<i>Ang hirap nga lang i-open up nito.</i>

198
00:15:31,000 --> 00:15:34,400
<i>Wala sa plano ko
na mag-stay sa clinic nang ilang buwan.</i>

199
00:15:35,160 --> 00:15:38,160
<i>Pero dapat isipin kong masuwerte ako
kasi afford ng parents ko.</i>

200
00:15:38,760 --> 00:15:41,240
<i>At na napunta ako
sa clinic na nagawa akong tulungan.</i>

201
00:15:42,440 --> 00:15:43,840
<i>Sa nabasa ko online,</i>

202
00:15:43,840 --> 00:15:47,000
<i>mas lumala 'yong iba
pagkalabas sa mga ganitong lugar</i>

203
00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:48,640
<i>kasi di sila tinrato nang maayos.</i>

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00:15:49,440 --> 00:15:51,720
<i>Maayos ang naging trato sa 'kin.</i>

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00:15:51,720 --> 00:15:52,640
<i>And'yan si Susan.</i>

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00:15:52,640 --> 00:15:57,240
Sorry, bawal ang kahit anong may camera.
Para sa kaligtasan at kapakanan ng lahat.

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00:15:58,680 --> 00:16:01,720
Okay, pero pa'no ko makakausap
ang mga kaibigan ko?

208
00:16:01,720 --> 00:16:04,480
Well, merong landline sa ward.

209
00:16:04,480 --> 00:16:07,040
Mas okay 'yon
kaysa sa pag-PM sa kanila sa Snapchat

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00:16:07,040 --> 00:16:09,680
o sa kung anumang ginagamit n'yo ngayon.

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00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:21,720
Bangon na, Mr. Spring.
Ang ganda ng bagong araw na ito!

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00:16:24,280 --> 00:16:25,600
Ang pangit ng sa 'kin.

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00:16:27,280 --> 00:16:30,000
Well, di lahat, pwedeng maging artist.

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00:16:34,640 --> 00:16:36,440
<i>Do'n ko rin nakilala si Geoff.</i>

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00:16:40,640 --> 00:16:42,800
Hi, Charlie. Ako si Geoff.

216
00:16:42,800 --> 00:16:45,520
- Hi po.
- Ako ang magiging therapist mo dito.

217
00:16:45,520 --> 00:16:49,160
Upo tayo at magkuwentuhan
para makilala ang isa't isa?

218
00:16:51,240 --> 00:16:52,080
Okay po.

219
00:16:59,160 --> 00:17:02,840
<i>Kinailangan ko pa ring mag-schoolwork,
na nakapagpagaan ng pakiramdam ko.</i>

220
00:17:02,840 --> 00:17:05,800
<i>Dahil alam kong paglabas ko,
di ako maghahabol.</i>

221
00:17:06,400 --> 00:17:09,000
- Ano'ng inaaral mo?
- Chemistry lang.

222
00:17:09,760 --> 00:17:13,880
- Ayoko ng chemistry. Never kong na-gets.
- Ako rin. Nalalabuan ako, e.

223
00:17:13,880 --> 00:17:15,600
<i>May nakilala akong ilang mababait.</i>

224
00:17:15,600 --> 00:17:18,120
<i>Di siguro tulad ng mga kaibigan
na pangmatagalan,</i>

225
00:17:18,720 --> 00:17:20,040
<i>pero at least di ako mag-isa.</i>

226
00:17:21,640 --> 00:17:23,560
Alam kong kaya mo 'yan, Charlie.

227
00:17:24,440 --> 00:17:25,280
Sige lang.

228
00:17:25,280 --> 00:17:27,760
<i>Naiisip ko rin na ayaw kong gumaling</i>

229
00:17:27,760 --> 00:17:30,320
<i>kasi parang sobrang hirap
no'ng pinipilit mong magbago.</i>

230
00:17:31,200 --> 00:17:32,040
Di ko po kaya.

231
00:17:32,040 --> 00:17:33,680
Alam kong kaya mo.

232
00:17:34,240 --> 00:17:36,440
<i>Akala ko, kaya kong kontrolin ang pagkain,</i>

233
00:17:37,160 --> 00:17:38,800
<i>pero kabaliktaran ang nangyayari.</i>

234
00:17:46,480 --> 00:17:48,960
<i>Pwede kong tawagan si Nick pag gusto ko,</i>

235
00:17:48,960 --> 00:17:52,360
<i>pero di pa rin kasi ako okay,
at ayokong mag-alala siya.</i>

236
00:17:55,280 --> 00:17:57,240
<i>Di ko alam
kung ano'ng masasabi ko sa kanya.</i>

237
00:17:58,000 --> 00:18:00,160
<i>"Ayoko dito,
at di ako matigil sa pag-iyak"?</i>

238
00:18:03,840 --> 00:18:05,200
Di ko po talaga maintindihan.

239
00:18:06,360 --> 00:18:10,160
Para sa iba, tungkol sa body image
ang eating disorder.

240
00:18:10,160 --> 00:18:12,040
Pagpapapayat, pagbibilang ng calories.

241
00:18:12,640 --> 00:18:16,920
Sa nakikita ko, 'yong sa 'yo,
konektado sa obsessions at compulsions.

242
00:18:16,920 --> 00:18:21,120
Pagkain ng tamang pagkain sa tamang oras
at sa tamang mga pagkakataon.

243
00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:24,800
Tama ba 'yon, Charlie?

244
00:18:28,680 --> 00:18:29,520
Opo.

245
00:18:29,520 --> 00:18:32,280
At pag tumitindi
'yong mga obsession na 'yon,

246
00:18:33,000 --> 00:18:35,560
nati-trigger 'yong kagustuhan mong
saktan ang sarili mo?

247
00:18:36,760 --> 00:18:37,600
Opo.

248
00:18:38,280 --> 00:18:39,120
Okay.

249
00:18:41,640 --> 00:18:42,760
Pag-usapan natin 'yan.

250
00:18:43,360 --> 00:18:46,680
<i>Di talaga masaya
'yong paggamot sa eating disorder.</i>

251
00:19:27,240 --> 00:19:29,160
Gusto ka talagang makausap ni Nick.

252
00:19:30,600 --> 00:19:31,440
Oo...

253
00:19:32,840 --> 00:19:34,560
Gusto ko rin siyang makausap.

254
00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:37,480
Siya 'yong favorite ko.

255
00:19:38,360 --> 00:19:41,320
Medyo nakakainis 'yong mga kaibigan mo,
pero gusto ko siya.

256
00:19:43,320 --> 00:19:47,080
Pag pinayagan kitang tawagan
'yong boyfriend mo, ipinapangako mo ba

257
00:19:47,080 --> 00:19:49,920
na titigilan mo na
'yong pagsasabi na ibang klase siya

258
00:19:49,920 --> 00:19:51,800
at di mo na ipaparamdam na mag-isa ako?

259
00:19:51,800 --> 00:19:54,080
Di ko po alam kung maipapangako ko 'yan.

260
00:19:54,080 --> 00:19:56,800
Well, sinubukan kong ipaglaban
ang sarili ko.

261
00:19:57,640 --> 00:19:58,560
Sige na.

262
00:19:59,160 --> 00:20:02,720
Sorry, ano, e... Kailangan ko lang tawanan
para di ako maiyak.

263
00:20:02,720 --> 00:20:07,840
<i>Well, kahit na may anorexia at OCD ka,
bawal pa rin 'yong salitang "sorry".</i>

264
00:20:09,600 --> 00:20:11,840
Di ba pwedeng idahilan
'yong mental illness ko?

265
00:20:12,840 --> 00:20:16,480
<i>Hindi. Nag-a-apply pa rin
'yong S-word rule sa may mental illness.</i>

266
00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:19,560
Pwedeng humingi ng favor bago ko ibaba?

267
00:20:19,560 --> 00:20:20,480
Oo naman.

268
00:20:22,080 --> 00:20:23,760
Pwedeng pa-check ng number ni Tao?

269
00:20:24,360 --> 00:20:26,880
- May hinahanda akong regalo mo.
- Di na kailangan.

270
00:20:26,880 --> 00:20:28,280
Tumigil ka. Kailangan.

271
00:20:28,280 --> 00:20:29,640
Okay. Ano ba 'yon?

272
00:20:30,320 --> 00:20:31,280
Surprise 'yon.

273
00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:32,520
E, bakit mo sinabi?

274
00:20:32,520 --> 00:20:34,960
Oo na, tatahimik na ako next time.

275
00:20:38,400 --> 00:20:41,240
Sorry, di ko sinabi sa 'yo
'yong tungkol dito.

276
00:20:42,120 --> 00:20:45,240
Ano, e, kasalanan ko rin
kaya nahirapan kang sabihin.

277
00:20:45,240 --> 00:20:46,960
In love ka buong summer.

278
00:20:46,960 --> 00:20:50,040
<i>- Di 'yon masama.</i>
- Oo, pero mahal din kita.

279
00:20:50,840 --> 00:20:51,680
<i>So...</i>

280
00:20:54,560 --> 00:20:56,040
pwede na ba kitang kumustahin?

281
00:20:56,040 --> 00:20:59,160
<i>O medyo bad timing na itanong ko 'yon?</i>

282
00:21:00,360 --> 00:21:02,280
Oo, medyo bad timing nga.

283
00:21:03,280 --> 00:21:04,560
Grabe ba d'yan?

284
00:21:05,120 --> 00:21:07,600
<i>Hindi, di naman.</i>

285
00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:12,040
<i>Mahirap lang,
at sana nasa bahay na lang ako.</i>

286
00:21:12,040 --> 00:21:14,080
Pero tingin ko, tama lang 'to.

287
00:21:14,080 --> 00:21:16,120
Well, nakakatuwang malaman 'yan.

288
00:21:16,120 --> 00:21:17,120
Di sa...

289
00:21:17,120 --> 00:21:19,480
importante 'yong nararamdaman ko,
pero, alam mo na.

290
00:21:19,480 --> 00:21:20,760
Importante 'yon.

291
00:21:22,040 --> 00:21:23,760
Nakakainis na sobrang ano mo...

292
00:21:28,280 --> 00:21:31,600
- Tapos, wala man lang akong alam.
- Magaling akong magkunwari.

293
00:21:32,240 --> 00:21:33,440
Pero di ko napansin.

294
00:21:35,560 --> 00:21:36,480
Di talaga.

295
00:21:41,160 --> 00:21:43,480
Ano pala 'yong nangyari
kina Imogen at Sahar?

296
00:21:43,480 --> 00:21:47,240
<i>Sobrang iniisip kasi ni Nick 'yon.
E, di ko alam kung ano'ng nangyari.</i>

297
00:21:47,240 --> 00:21:51,000
Oh my God. Okay, sige.
Bale buong gabing nagsa-shot si Imogen.

298
00:21:51,000 --> 00:21:53,400
<i>I mean, isang bote ng tequila.</i>

299
00:21:53,920 --> 00:21:55,840
<i>Isang bote, tapos...</i>

300
00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:13,720
Oo.

301
00:22:13,720 --> 00:22:15,920
May lumang video camera si Tao,

302
00:22:15,920 --> 00:22:20,560
tapos ginawa niya 'tong film na 'to
o documetary yata.

303
00:22:20,560 --> 00:22:21,960
Di ako sure, e.

304
00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:23,480
Okay, na-curious ako.

305
00:22:26,680 --> 00:22:27,520
<i>Okay.</i>

306
00:22:27,520 --> 00:22:28,720
<i>Take four na 'to.</i>

307
00:22:30,560 --> 00:22:31,400
<i>Marker.</i>

308
00:22:34,560 --> 00:22:37,840
Hi, ako si Tao Xu,
at ito ang short film ko

309
00:22:37,840 --> 00:22:40,320
tungkol sa araw-araw na buhay
ng mga barkada ko.

310
00:22:40,320 --> 00:22:44,320
Well, ang mga barkada ko na kulang ng isa,
na mahal na mahal namin.

311
00:22:45,680 --> 00:22:49,880
Sana sa pagnood niya sa video na 'to,
maramdaman niyang kasama namin siya dito

312
00:22:49,880 --> 00:22:53,080
kasi, kung iisipin,
kasama naman talaga namin siya.

313
00:22:53,880 --> 00:22:57,200
- Tao, walang sense 'yang sinasabi mo.
- Ha? Meron kaya.

314
00:22:58,160 --> 00:22:59,240
Okay.

315
00:22:59,240 --> 00:23:01,240
Simulan na natin ang film.

316
00:23:02,880 --> 00:23:06,600
Hi, Charlie, 'yong suggestion mo
na <i>The Song of Achilles,</i> binasa ko.

317
00:23:06,600 --> 00:23:08,880
Oo, sinabi mong malungkot ang ending.

318
00:23:08,880 --> 00:23:11,600
Pero nagulat ako,
apat na oras akong umiyak.

319
00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:14,280
So salamat do'n, na-appreciate ko 'yon.

320
00:23:15,400 --> 00:23:20,240
Medyo galit ako sa 'yo,
sa totoo lang, kasi ano, e...

321
00:23:20,240 --> 00:23:23,920
Kasi tinanong kita kung okay ka,
at mukhang nagsinungaling ka.

322
00:23:25,400 --> 00:23:27,040
I mean, alam ko naman na.

323
00:23:27,920 --> 00:23:30,520
Alam kong di mo kasalanan, Charlie.
Ano lang...

324
00:23:33,160 --> 00:23:36,600
Sana pagbalik mo, maramdaman mong
pwede ka nang magsabi ng totoo sa 'min.

325
00:23:37,800 --> 00:23:40,840
Kasi never ka naman naming ija-judge.

326
00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:44,440
Mahal ka namin, so...

327
00:23:45,160 --> 00:23:46,000
Ayun.

328
00:23:47,080 --> 00:23:48,080
Oh my God.

329
00:23:48,080 --> 00:23:50,000
- Tara na, magto-tour pa tayo.
- Tao!

330
00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:51,760
Dalhin mo 'yang camera.

331
00:23:53,080 --> 00:23:54,120
Mainit-init pa.

332
00:23:54,120 --> 00:23:57,600
Nakitang naghahalikan sina Barbie
at Dracula sa isang house party.

333
00:23:58,120 --> 00:23:59,560
Ano'ng nangyayari dito?

334
00:24:03,280 --> 00:24:04,120
Lol.

335
00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:05,560
Bitawan mo...

336
00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:07,120
Joke lang ba 'to sa 'yo?

337
00:24:10,360 --> 00:24:14,440
Cut na. I-cut mo na. Labag na 'to
sa code of ethics ng documentary ko!

338
00:24:14,440 --> 00:24:16,000
- Uh-oh.
- Isaac!

339
00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:19,480
Nire-record ko lang 'yong reality
gaya ng gusto mo, Tao. Idea mo 'to.

340
00:24:19,480 --> 00:24:21,440
Okay. Halika na. Tara.

341
00:24:25,280 --> 00:24:27,760
- Teka, gusto kong makausap si Charlie.
- Uy!

342
00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:34,640
Hi, Charlie, gusto ko lang ipaalam sa 'yo
na nagde-"they/them" pronouns na ako.

343
00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:39,360
Ine-explore ko lang 'yong nararamdaman ko.
Ewan ko, pero feeling ko, mage-gets mo.

344
00:24:39,360 --> 00:24:40,560
- Gets niya.
- Oo.

345
00:24:40,560 --> 00:24:42,240
- Talaga?
- Oo.

346
00:24:42,240 --> 00:24:44,000
- Darcy.
- Halika nga.

347
00:24:44,640 --> 00:24:45,840
Halika. Halika.

348
00:24:47,040 --> 00:24:48,400
Ayan, sama-sama tayong lahat.

349
00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:51,320
Sabihin mo sa kanya.

350
00:24:52,760 --> 00:24:55,720
Bale nag-post ako
ng bagong painting sa Instagram...

351
00:24:55,720 --> 00:24:56,720
O, tapos?

352
00:24:56,720 --> 00:24:59,280
Ngayon, may higit 10,000 followers na ako.

353
00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:01,600
Sikat na artist ang girlfriend ko.

354
00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:05,200
Di gano'n kadami 'yong 10,000.
Sa pagiging prefect naman tayo ni Tara.

355
00:25:05,200 --> 00:25:08,920
A, oo nga. Ipapakilala kita
sa pinakabagong prefect ng Higgs.

356
00:25:08,920 --> 00:25:11,920
- Tao, di big deal 'yon.
- Sobrang big deal kaya!

357
00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:15,920
Ang girlfriend ko
ang pinakamatalino sa buong mundo.

358
00:25:15,920 --> 00:25:19,000
Prefect siya.
Member siya ng Oxbridge prep group.

359
00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:21,920
- Sumasayaw siya. Nagka-clarinet...
- Darcy, tama na!

360
00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:24,360
Tao, akin na 'yan.

361
00:25:25,200 --> 00:25:27,800
Di ko alam
kung may phone ka d'yan, Charlie,

362
00:25:27,800 --> 00:25:30,960
pero tingin ko,
matutuwa siyang marinig ang boses mo.

363
00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:35,080
- Ang ganda. Ano nga lang...
- Magkapareho, o.

364
00:25:35,080 --> 00:25:38,480
- Sa iisang pakete lang galing, e.
- Saang lupalop ka ba nakakain ng...

365
00:25:38,480 --> 00:25:41,120
- Di ako marunong magluto.
- From scratch ka nagnu-noodles?

366
00:25:41,120 --> 00:25:42,800
Mag-hi po kayo kay Charlie.

367
00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:44,880
Hi, Charlie.

368
00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:48,040
Hi, Charlie.

369
00:25:48,040 --> 00:25:51,200
May bakanteng upuan para sa 'yo
pagbalik mo.

370
00:25:53,040 --> 00:25:54,080
Thanks, Tao.

371
00:25:55,120 --> 00:25:56,120
Bye, Charlie.

372
00:25:57,320 --> 00:25:58,480
Salamat, Tao.

373
00:25:58,480 --> 00:25:59,920
- Bye, Tao.
- Okay na.

374
00:25:59,920 --> 00:26:02,680
Alam kong mukhang para sa 'yo
itong painting,

375
00:26:02,680 --> 00:26:06,360
pero kukunin ko 'to
pag maganda talaga ang kinalabasan.

376
00:26:09,560 --> 00:26:10,880
Miss na kita, Charlie.

377
00:26:12,080 --> 00:26:13,120
I love you.

378
00:26:16,280 --> 00:26:17,280
Okay.

379
00:26:19,320 --> 00:26:21,120
- Hi, Charlie.
- Hi, Charlie.

380
00:26:21,120 --> 00:26:23,520
Tingin ko, ito na ang dulo ng video.

381
00:26:23,520 --> 00:26:24,440
Siguro.

382
00:26:25,320 --> 00:26:28,200
Anyway, sasabihin lang namin
na marami kaming plano pag-uwi mo.

383
00:26:28,200 --> 00:26:30,160
- Talaga? Hala.
- Oo.

384
00:26:31,160 --> 00:26:34,840
I mean, hindi.
Basta marami lang bagay na dapat abangan.

385
00:26:34,840 --> 00:26:36,000
Oo. Sigurado 'yon.

386
00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:39,240
At mahal ka namin at miss ka na namin.

387
00:26:40,360 --> 00:26:42,800
Iba talaga 'yong barkada pag wala ka.

388
00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:46,280
Pero alam naming ginagawa mo
'yong kailangan mong gawin.

389
00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:47,200
Tama.

390
00:26:48,320 --> 00:26:52,400
At sana maiparamdam sa 'yo nitong video...
na may mga nagmamahal sa 'yo.

391
00:26:52,920 --> 00:26:56,720
Tama, pero galit pa rin ako sa 'yo
dahil sa <i>The Song of Achilles.</i>

392
00:26:56,720 --> 00:26:59,280
- Ano 'yon?
- Libro 'yon. Wag mo nang isipin.

393
00:26:59,280 --> 00:27:00,400
Okay.

394
00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:04,840
Nicholas Nelson, ano'ng sasabihin mo
sa boyfriend mong si Charlie Spring?

395
00:27:10,600 --> 00:27:11,600
Hi, Charlie.

396
00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:15,480
I love you.

397
00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:37,800
<i>Di napagaling na parang magic ng clinic
ang mental illness ko.</i>

398
00:27:37,800 --> 00:27:41,560
<i>Alam kong nakakatakot,
pero handa ka para dito, Charlie.</i>

399
00:27:42,360 --> 00:27:45,760
At hangga't kailangan mo,
pwede tayong mag-weekly session.

400
00:27:47,360 --> 00:27:49,520
Kaya kahit mahirapan ka sa labas,

401
00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:52,120
nandito lang ako para tumulong.

402
00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:55,160
<i>Pero natulungan ako no'ng makabangon.</i>

403
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:03,800
Makaka-recover ka.

404
00:28:04,680 --> 00:28:05,560
Salamat po.

405
00:28:05,560 --> 00:28:07,880
Basta magtiwala ka sa sarili mo. Okay?

406
00:28:09,560 --> 00:28:10,440
Halika nga.

407
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:15,440
- Okay. Umalis ka na dito.
- Okay po.

408
00:28:20,880 --> 00:28:22,000
Ready ka na?

409
00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:23,720
Opo.

410
00:28:33,440 --> 00:28:36,640
<i>Di na siguro ako babalik sa normal.
Kung anuman 'yon.</i>

411
00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:38,720
<i>Pero okay lang siguro.</i>

412
00:28:39,640 --> 00:28:42,120
<i>Di magiging madali ang paglalakbay na 'to.</i>

413
00:28:43,840 --> 00:28:45,520
<i>Baka nga simula pa lang 'to.</i>

414
00:28:51,960 --> 00:28:52,800
Hi.

415
00:28:54,760 --> 00:28:55,800
Dinner by seven?

416
00:28:56,600 --> 00:28:57,600
Sige po.

417
00:28:57,600 --> 00:29:01,040
Lasagna ang nasa meal plan mo ngayon.
Okay lang ba 'yon?

418
00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:03,000
Opo.

419
00:29:05,440 --> 00:29:06,280
Ma?

420
00:29:07,600 --> 00:29:08,440
O?

421
00:29:09,720 --> 00:29:12,080
May oras pa ba akong mag-hi kay Nick?

422
00:29:12,080 --> 00:29:14,520
Babalik ako para mag-dinner. Promise.

423
00:29:15,840 --> 00:29:16,680
Okay.

424
00:29:17,880 --> 00:29:18,720
Sige na.

425
00:30:05,200 --> 00:30:07,720
KUNG IKAW O ANG KAKILALA MO
AY HIRAP SA EATING DISORDER,

426
00:30:07,720 --> 00:30:09,840
SA MENTAL HEALTH,
O NAIISIP SAKTAN ANG SARILI,

427
00:30:09,840 --> 00:30:12,120
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SA WWW.WANNATALKABOUTIT.COM

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00:30:57,800 --> 00:31:00,800
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