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From the essay,"Circles"

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by American philosopher
Ralph Waldo Emerson.

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The more that we actually learn about the world we're in,

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the greater, not the less,
the greater the mysteries.

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We're like in a circle, and
everything that you know
is inside that circle,

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and the boundary of the circle is the boundary of the unknown.

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And the more you learn,
the larger that circle gets.

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Guess what, so too the larger
the boundary of the unknown.

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The more you learn,
the more conscience you are,

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the greater the mystery
has become.

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The more you are actually are
aware of not knowing.

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MARC D'ANTONIO:
Civilization's elsewhere,

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burgeoning on planets
that are young perhaps,

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that have been around for
just a few billion years
like the Earth.

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The Earth is actually
quite young, in a sense.

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It's been here
4.6 billion years,

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but the universe
is 13.8 billion years old.

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Nine billion years happened
before the Earth

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was even formed,
and before the sun
was even made.

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We see a sliding window
of planetary formation.

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Planets that are
just forming now,

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planets in maturity
like our Earth,

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and planets that have survived
the death of their star.

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That tells everyone that
this has been going on

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for billions of years,
and continues to go on.

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So, I expect that there's
gonna be civilizations
at all levels out there.

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I know our science
is not nearly

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the science of say, an
extraterritorial civilization

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that's been here
for nine billions years.

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It won't be.

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But our science
has made some progress,

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and we can see residual effects
within our...

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scientific purview...

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of another advanced science
that's affecting it,

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and that's what
we're looking for.

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We looking for something
that's kinda

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adding this noise into our
universe that we can detect

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and that's where all this
happens. This is where
all this comes from.

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There definitely enough
corroborative information
out there

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to justify more research

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into this story
with a Harvard study,

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not too long ago
that made a lot of news.

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Where they said Sleep
Paralysis was the answer
for this phenomenon.

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What's interesting, I felt,
was the amount of attention
that story got.

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And it got a lot.

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Which indicates there are
a lot of people interested

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in the mechanisms
of this phenomenon,
why this happens.

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We acknowledge the UFO problem
as a real phenomenon.

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There's something going on,
so we have to ask ourselves
who's behind it.

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Is it the Russians? No.

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Is it the
American Secret Societies?
Not entirely.

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There's a component of
otherness to this.

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And when you get
story after story
of these abductions,

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I don't think it's
that impossible to believe,
to be honest with you.

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We often demonize experts

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because they aren't kind of
going where we want them to go.

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That can happen,
and I think that's dangerous.

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It pushes them away,
and it makes it "Us vs. Them"

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And there's certainly room
where we can all go together.

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Because it's not
important whether

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there's something happening
at the quantum level,

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or whether DNA
is being manipulated.

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What's important is that
the issue
is addressed seriously,

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and we all walk down the road
of trying to discover
what's going on together.

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Really hope to inspire
the next generation

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to be curious,
to want to explore,

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but mostly to look for
the answers for themselves.

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To not always just accept
what they're told.

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To get out there
and put boots on the ground,
and explore life,

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and ask the big questions, and then go after the answers.

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When you open yourself to more,
you always get more.

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If you close yourself off
to this creed and doctrine,

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and this is the way it is,
and I gotta do this,

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then you know
you're not gonna grow.

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There is so much more to know
than we know.

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I don't care who you are,

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and I wanna know everything.
I don't care what it was.

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If I think that aliens
are one thing,

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and they turn out to be
totally different than that,

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that's fine.
I just wanna know the truth.

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No matter what it takes.

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I would say millions of people
around the world.

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The Roper Poll did
a couple of surveys
several years ago,

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and they came out with 1 in 50
American adults,

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that's just
the United States,

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that had experiences that
could point to abduction.

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We're just talking 1 in 50
in the United States.

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A tremendous number of people
in the world,

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not only in the United States,

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who are having these visits
from extraterrestrial beings.

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I've also concluded
that there are many

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different types of
extraterrestrial beings

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who are coming here to Earth
and interacting
with certain human beings.

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It's a strange
kind of scenario, right,

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but there's been a number
of these that have
comes out through

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researchers that have been
dedicated to unpacking this.

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So, I think that there's
something happening here.

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Some of these cases
are believable.

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As incredible as they seem,
the individuals,

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I guess I would say
seem believable.

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When you hear these stories
from the most credible people

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that aren't asking for anything,
they just wanna tell you.

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In today's world,
it's extremely brave for someone

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to make their story public
in this arena.

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Obviously this has caused
an issue in their life,

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and this taboo means that there's a lot of people going untreated

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for something that's affecting their well-being.

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And that's just wrong,
because of this ridiculous

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irrational taboo we have
around the thought of aliens.

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This film is not for everyone.

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If you believe abduction
stories are hoaxes,

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and those telling them
are liars,

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it's definitely not for you.

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But if you're open to the idea that we're not alone in the universe,

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that alien
hybridization programs
are indeed a possibility,

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that people just like you
are used for
reproductive experiments

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against their will,

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then you'll be intrigued by what April, Rob, Geraldine,

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and several others experiencers have to share.

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These are their stories.

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Listen intently,

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and try to imagine how
you might react
if you were in their shoes.

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This is back in the '90s.

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I can remember waking up
at 3:00 a.m.,
going outside my bed

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in through a field,
across from the countryside,

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and just start looking up
at the sky.

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And a piece of me was wondering
"Where is that light?

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"Where did that thing go?"

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Spent many nights wondering,
"What did I see? What was that?"

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I remember my mom was compelled
to talk about it.

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Urged me,

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"You wanna draw
a picture of it? Do you
wanna draw colors of it?"

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The disc shape
with all the different
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I'd draw 'em really brightly,
and sometimes I'd draw like...

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like a light shining down
onto the house.

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My family and I watch
the fireworks with my wife,
and I see a little

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satellite up in the sky,
like that.

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I remember
just telling everybody,
"Hey, guys, look. A satellite."

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Oh, yeah... Fireworks.

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So, nothing.
I think nothing of it.

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Later that night,
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I see the satellite again,

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but it's coming out
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The next thing I know,
that satellite is just over
the neighbor's house.

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Typical glowing
disc shaped object,

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and as we're walking like this,
this ship is also going with us.

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Right? Then we would stop,
and it would stop.

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We'd look away,
and the ship would light up,

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and we'd look at it,
and it'll turn off.

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For about ten minutes,
it was doing that with us,

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and the next thing, it's just...

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Boom! It's gone.
It's the satellite again.

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And at that moment, I was like

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this shit's real.

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Three years ago, I wouldn't
even imagine that I would be
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Not even a little bit.

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When I was abducted in 2013,

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I didn't wanna tell anyone
about that.

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There was no way I would tell
my extended family about it,

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and I had to think ten times
before telling my family
about it.

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Three months after my abduction,
I met my partner
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I was busy with my career,
and he wanted to
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The more I started to have
other experiences, too,
of abduction,

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I couldn't talk to him about it,
and then when
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at night time,
things that would happen to me,
and he couldn't handle it.

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I started having the strange
experiences in childhood.

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Being part of adolescence,
I was pretty much engaged in

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what that brings
into one's life.

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I had an experience at four,

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had an experience
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Then 17, 18, 19,

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and when I was 27,
I started to have sightings
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With neighbors, witnesses,
co-workers, family, friends,
colleagues.

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The memories of being taken on
the ship, being on the table,

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and then having them distract me
with some kind of other memory,

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or some kind of screen image,

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that's what I remember
from the hypnosis sessions.

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And they did it,
time, after time, after time.

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When I was seven,
my mom had a nervous breakdown.

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That's what they called it
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Manic depression,
call it what you will.

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But there was something
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not bio-chemical.

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And I knew that.

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Her mom had an issue,

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her grandmother had an issue.

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It seemed to be cyclic.

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I wish I could say
I knew what triggered it,
I have suspicions.

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But it never left me
that there were aspects
of her mania that, um,

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panned out to be true.

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Things that she said
that she knew that were true.

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As a kid, I'm sure it had
a major effect on me,

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but at the same time,
I was still very much
wanting to go outside

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and play, and do the things
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I was up late,
everybody else had gone to bed,

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and I was sitting
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And I noticed to my right,

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peeking around the corner at me
from the dining room
into the living room,

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was what you would see
as a typical gray alien.

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Like you would see
on TV or something.

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It was peeking
around the corner at me,

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and the way he did his neck
was so strange.

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The way he held his neck.

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I was petrified.

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I normally would pray,
when something...

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I couldn't even think...
I couldn't... It was just...

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My brain did not know
where to put that.

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Even when I went to
first go tell my husband

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what I had seen,
that very first time

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I didn't have proof of that.

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But I knew,

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I knew what I had seen.

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I know what's happened to me.

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But I can't prove any of it.

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I went in my room to go to bed.
I was an office manager
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I had a project due
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I sat my alarm next to me.
Sat on my bed,

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and I thought,
if I fall asleep right now,

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I may get six and half hours
of sleep.

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I did a quick little, like,
close my eyes meditation process
sitting on my bed.

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Just a real quick
visualization process.

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Calm myself down,
deep breathing, so I could
get to sleep right away.

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I turned to turn off the light,

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I look back at the clock,
I just set the alarm,

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'cause I wanna make sure
I didn't forget to set it.
It was obviously set.

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I go to turn off the light,
I look back at the clock,

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just again,
double-checking the alarm.

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It was like two and half
to three hours later.

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And I was like,
"Okay, what just happened?"

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And I couldn't get an image
outta my head

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of three gray aliens
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I was living in
Manitou Springs, and I was

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dating a woman named Gena.

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We had a two bedroom apartment,

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ground floor apartment.

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It was late,
we had gone to bed,

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and I heard
this blood-curdling scream.

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And I woke up, and I rolled over
and I looked at the clock

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and it said 12:36 a.m.

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And then, my girlfriend got up
outta the bed,

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didn't say anything, walked into
the bathroom,
didn't turn he light on,

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shut the door, and I heard the toilet seat cover come up.

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I heard her sit down, and I
was facing the bathroom door,
and I thought, "That's odd."

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Then I felt really pulled back into, like,

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really pulled back
into sleep quickly.

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The hair on the back of my neck
stood up

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and everything in me
was in alarm, like,

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danger, danger, danger.

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And I opened my eyes
and standing against the wall
next to the

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bathroom door was this
little gray creature,

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and it scared me really badly.

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I had a lot of adrenaline
go through my body,

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and I tried to move,
and I couldn't move.

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And I struggled against that,
and I tried to fight it.

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I tried to fight it mentally,
I tried to fight it physically,

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and I would get to the point
where I would literally panic
and pass out again.

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This went on for sometime.

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I would say...

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20 or 30 times of me waking up,
not being able to move,

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panicking,
and passing out again.

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Each time I do this, this gray being kept getting closer to the bed,

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and as I was
getting ahold of myself,

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this time I came awake.

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I opened my eyes,
I looked right at it,

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and I heard clearly this time.

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"Be still.
We aren't here to hurt you.

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"We're only here
to check on you."

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As that was happening,
I started to have
these flashbacks.

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A flash of being on a gurney,
being moved down a hallway,

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a flash of being
in a bright lit room,

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a flash of them being over me,
leaning over my stomach

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and it made me panic
and pass out again.

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And then when I woke up again,

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this being was really close
to the bed.

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Really, really close.

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And when I opened my eyes, I said, "Why are you doing this to me?"

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And he just said,

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"Be still." It was like
this programmed response.

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At some point,
this horrific experience ended

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where all at the same time

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my girlfriend throws open
the door, turns on the light,

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is cursing about
her legs being asleep.

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Is trying to walk,
trying to stand,

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and I looked over at the clock,

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and it was like
four hours later.

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Never left my room,
I was sitting on my bed,

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calmed myself down,
turn off the light,
and I go to sleep.

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I go to work the next day,
come home, dead tired,

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and my roommate approaches me
in the kitchen,

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I'm making dinner that night,
and says,

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"What happened to you
last night?"

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After our discussion,
she couldn't sleep.

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She thought she heard
a prowler downstairs.

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We had a two-story town house.

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She went downstairs,
nobody there.

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There was a gap
under my bedroom door,

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so she could clearly see
that my light was on.

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So she knocks on my door,
at like 3:00 in the morning,

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she knocks on my door.

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No answer.
She pounds on my door,
no answer.

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Now she's afraid that something
has happened to me.

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So she goes in my room,
I'm not there.

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She witnessed I was gone
during my missing time.

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She goes back, sits on her bed,

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she sees a flash of light
in the hallway,

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she looks expecting to see me,

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she sees a three-and-half-foot
tall or four-foot gray alien.

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Steps in the door of her room.
She's fully conscious,

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sitting in bed,
it stares right at her.

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She closed the door to my room,

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it goes through my closed door, as if nothing's there.

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So she's telling me that,
and she goes

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she had read what
Whitley Strieber's

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theCommunion prior to that,
'cause this is early '90s.

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And she said,

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"You know that book by that guy,
that famous author,

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do you think you might be
having that go on?" And I said,

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"I don't know."

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What's most intriguing about
April, Rob, and Geraldine,

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is the divergent journeys
they've taken following
their abduction experiences.

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April's innocence and
genuine wonder still abound,

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despite what her nightmares
were hiding.

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Rob's search
for answers continue

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while he grapples with
the obvious question,

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"Why me?"

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In Geraldine's experiences,
as shocking as they are,

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have encouraged her to be
a conduit for awareness.

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Well, outta the blue

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I have this very vivid dream.

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And this is one of the dreams
that it was so powerful
that I woke up.

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And I had to write
everything down in my dream.

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Not only did I have to
write things down,

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I had to go to the bathroom,
and physically look at my body.

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And I remember

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after I went to the bathroom
and looked at my body,

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I made very specific notes.

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And then, the amazing thing is,
the next morning

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after this dream,
very vivid dream,

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I told my husband
all about the dream.

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And I said,
"Look at my stomach."

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I looked at my stomach

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and there's evidence
of something here.

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There's evidence on my sheet
that I slept in.
A little tiny blood mark.

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And my husband, he looked at me
and said, "April,

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"something else
is going on here.

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"These are not nightmares."

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2009, I was 28 years old.

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Uh, prime of my life,

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and my stomach started hurting
really bad, right?

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I started getting
really bad stomach cramps.

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I couldn't keep food in me,

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I wouldn't be throwing it up...
it's just in, out.

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I went from 210 pounds
to 115 pounds.

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I was given a pretty much
not a good diagnosis.

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The doctors said that
I was gonna end up dying,

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and that I need to have
a feeding tube put in me.

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And they couldn't determine
what it was.

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They just knew that
I was gonna die from this,
uh, from this illness.

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A ton of research
and a string of encounters,
that made me go, like,

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"Oh, no." You know?

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Best way to describe it
is a pit,

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dropping down into my stomach.

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Oh, no. I might be

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interacting or involved
with this phenomenon.

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I went to bed,
everything was normal,

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and exactly at 3:33 on the dot,

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I wake up and there's such a bright light

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and it just annoys me
because the first thing
I think,

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"Who is that inconsiderate
person shining this light?"

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I go to my window and I'm
looking through my blinds,

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and I see the light
even brighter.

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I mean, so bright
that my eyes hurt,

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you know, I'm squinting.

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And I'm trying to look behind
and I'm like,
"That can't be a car.

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"What is that?"
And I see metallic,
and I see this ship.

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Then I'm looking to this side,
lights, and the ship.

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And as I'm approaching this,

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my body just paralyzed.
Completely paralyzed.

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And on the other side,
there are these
six tall shadows

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that I'm seeing from this
light emerging.

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And I'm seeing them walk
towards me.

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This gray... It was a gray
with these gigantic eyes

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and I'm seeing the other five
in front of me,
the sixth is over here.

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I'm getting pulled inside
the ship, and I'm walking in
with the beam next to me,

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waves his hand and everything
around me changes.

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When I have an experience,
I say,

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"I'm coming into the awareness
of the experience."

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So, when I become aware
that I'm having an experience,

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it's like...

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Poof! You go to bed, and then,

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something's happening to me.

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You would think dream,
but it's not a dream because you
have your five senses.

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You can touch,
you can, you can taste,
you can smell,

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you know, hear,
and there's textures.

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You can see the textures.
Whereas in dreams

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there's not so much texture
in the dreams.

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So, it'll be stuff like
I'm standing in my pajamas
that I've gone to bed in.

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I'm in the pajamas I go to bed
in, and I'm like
in this metal dome.

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There would be a platform
on the ground,
and this weird grated floor

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but they'll be all these little
tiny gray beings surrounding me

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and they're all looking up
and me.

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How I now see abduction

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is that it's realer
than real life.

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And it's almost as if a veil, a very delicate veil

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is completely ripped open
and you can't close it
back up again.

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As unreal
as alien hybridization
programs sound,

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hundreds of thousand of people around the world

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have reported
extraordinary experiences.

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Allowing researchers
to identity
a likely sequence of events.

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The abductee witnesses a UFO,

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is taken aboard a craft
and undergoes physical
and neurological procedures.

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Ova or sperm is extracted
following another abduction.

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Alien genetics are introduced
in vitro,

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or through sexual contact with an extraterrestrial being.

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Following another abduction,
an embryo is implanted.

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After carrying
for up to four months,
the woman is abducted again,

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and the fetus removed.

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A woman or man is abducted
and shown
their hybrid children.

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Memories are implanted
so the abductee
doesn't recall the event.

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One of the hardest things
for me

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to wrap my head around
was getting into the field of

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not only abductions,
but a breeding program

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that involved
extraterrestrials.

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And yet, there's case after case

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that has probative evidence
to support

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the witnesses accounts. You can't ignore this anymore.

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Some people have been taken.
Men and women have been taken.

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And some of them have been used
for purposes of reproduction,

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and it appears hybridization.

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Blending with another species

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is something that you would do
if you wanna fit in
and not be noticed.

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Why would you do that?

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If you're a conqueror,
you'd just come and say,
"Get out of the way,"

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and you crush 'em
and take over.

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00:26:03,665 --> 00:26:06,565
But if you wanna blend in,
it means on of two things:
It means,

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either you're not strong enough to overpower and take them,

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or you're desperate.

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'Cause something's wrong
with your world,

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and so, you're trying to just
find a new foothold.

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A new purchase, a new island.

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A new Easter Island
for your species.

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I think that could be
some of what's involved.

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It very well could be,
but I would probably tend to

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think they're more
here to up-step us,

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and bring us into another era.

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I don't know that
that is happening, personally.

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However, I do think it's
important for people to know

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that there are many, many people
who do believe
this is occurring to them.

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And for that reason,
it does deserve
to be taken seriously.

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I think it's one of those
irrational blind spots

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that we have in society
right now.

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I just can't imagine
not wanting,

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you know, to do something,
and yet they are
laying on a table

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and these odd machines
are around them.

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I think the fear
or just what's next,

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and, um, just their lack of

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free will to get off the table
and say, "No.

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00:27:23,780 --> 00:27:26,092
"I-I don't want to do this."

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00:27:26,127 --> 00:27:27,715
And that'd be okay.

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From one side of our house,
we could see a bright light.

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We were very drawn to it,

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and if you go
to the next door room,

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which is the living room,
the light wasn't there.

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So, being curious-natured,

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and of course, I was,
I would go
back to the other room,

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and say, "Oh my goodness,
look at these lights."

469
00:27:49,322 --> 00:27:51,704
"Look, Mom." So, my mom
would come and see it.

470
00:27:51,739 --> 00:27:53,257
She saw it,

471
00:27:53,292 --> 00:27:55,881
and my sister saw it,
and we were all just...

472
00:27:55,915 --> 00:27:57,503
We were mesmerized.

473
00:27:57,537 --> 00:28:01,231
These lights were going
different colors.
They were going...

474
00:28:02,232 --> 00:28:04,717
Spinning faster and faster.

475
00:28:04,752 --> 00:28:08,169
Soon, before we knew it,
it was boom,
right in front of our eyes.

476
00:28:08,203 --> 00:28:09,929
My very first abduction

477
00:28:09,964 --> 00:28:12,794
was in Fremont,
when I was a child,
five years old.

478
00:28:12,829 --> 00:28:15,245
Living in an apartment
just off Fremont Boulevard.

479
00:28:15,279 --> 00:28:19,559
I always used to go into
my mother's bedroom,
which was facing a pool.

480
00:28:19,594 --> 00:28:22,597
One day I went
in the evening time.

481
00:28:23,909 --> 00:28:27,050
My mother wasn't home
but my father was distracted

482
00:28:27,084 --> 00:28:28,707
and I just went in there
by myself.

483
00:28:28,741 --> 00:28:33,435
And as I'm looking outside
the window,
I'm seeing a light.

484
00:28:33,470 --> 00:28:35,334
So when we went
into the regression,

485
00:28:35,368 --> 00:28:37,681
I'm seeing the light,
and the next thing I know,

486
00:28:37,716 --> 00:28:41,167
I'm five years old
walking up inside of a ship.

487
00:28:41,202 --> 00:28:42,651
And as I'm walking up
inside of a ship,

488
00:28:42,686 --> 00:28:45,137
they're making me
sit on a dental chair

489
00:28:45,171 --> 00:28:47,070
and I'm laying back,

490
00:28:47,104 --> 00:28:50,280
and they are inserting
inside of me,

491
00:28:50,314 --> 00:28:52,800
in my uterus
in the very back wall,

492
00:28:52,834 --> 00:28:55,768
an implant to monitor the body.

493
00:28:55,803 --> 00:28:58,806
My wife and I were staying
in the motor home here,

494
00:28:59,392 --> 00:29:03,500
and I hear in the back,

495
00:29:03,534 --> 00:29:05,467
the back garage,
to get into the garage,

496
00:29:05,502 --> 00:29:07,987
something jiggling
the door handle.

497
00:29:08,022 --> 00:29:09,264
-Right?

498
00:29:09,299 --> 00:29:13,510
And I'm like, "Oh, shit!
No, man. You guys..."

499
00:29:13,544 --> 00:29:16,824
'Cause at this time I'm starting
to realize that I'm being taken.

500
00:29:16,858 --> 00:29:19,619
So, I'm staying up, uh,

501
00:29:19,654 --> 00:29:23,382
to avoid being abducted,
you know,

502
00:29:23,416 --> 00:29:25,108
and just this intense fear,

503
00:29:25,142 --> 00:29:28,387
and all of a sudden I hear
something coming into the
garage. I'm like...

504
00:29:29,491 --> 00:29:33,185
"Shit, they're coming into
the freakin' garage, man!"

505
00:29:33,219 --> 00:29:35,912
Because everyone's sleeping,
right?

506
00:29:35,946 --> 00:29:37,879
It couldn't be anything else.

507
00:29:37,914 --> 00:29:42,159
And you can hear the little
footsteps going out
into the garage,

508
00:29:42,194 --> 00:29:45,197
tinkering around and shit
inside the garage.

509
00:29:45,231 --> 00:29:49,063
And I'm like, "Oh...
I'm not going to sleep,"

510
00:29:49,097 --> 00:29:52,860
but I am going to sleep,
because there's something
making me go to sleep.

511
00:29:52,894 --> 00:29:54,378
So, I'm blacking out...

512
00:29:55,517 --> 00:29:57,588
There's all the children
in one room,

513
00:29:57,623 --> 00:30:00,833
and I'm a child being brought
into this room,

514
00:30:00,868 --> 00:30:02,939
and I'm seeing all these children everywhere.

515
00:30:02,973 --> 00:30:06,425
I'm being regressed as a child walking into this...

516
00:30:06,459 --> 00:30:07,840
"Hey, what's happening here?"

517
00:30:07,875 --> 00:30:10,532
I'm one of these children
that's going to be inserted.

518
00:30:10,567 --> 00:30:13,432
The children seem happy,
and they're playing,

519
00:30:13,466 --> 00:30:15,399
and they're enjoying themselves.

520
00:30:15,434 --> 00:30:17,194
And then,
when I look to my right,

521
00:30:17,229 --> 00:30:20,611
I'm seeing this gigantic
glass wall

522
00:30:20,646 --> 00:30:24,201
and this mechanical arm
moving things around

523
00:30:24,236 --> 00:30:26,548
from one side to the other.

524
00:30:26,583 --> 00:30:29,448
Now, in the regression,
I'm being told

525
00:30:29,482 --> 00:30:32,347
"Okay, well, look around
and sense what's occurring."

526
00:30:32,382 --> 00:30:34,556
And when I'm looking through
the glass,

527
00:30:34,591 --> 00:30:37,180
is that they are
grabbing the children

528
00:30:37,214 --> 00:30:41,632
and inserting
through the rectum,

529
00:30:42,702 --> 00:30:43,911
the implants.

530
00:30:43,945 --> 00:30:45,602
Just like that, with a machine.

531
00:30:45,636 --> 00:30:48,674
And, yes, they are bleeding.

532
00:30:48,708 --> 00:30:53,679
And they put the children
piled up, unconscious,
in another corner.

533
00:30:53,713 --> 00:30:56,647
This is happening
one glass wall away.

534
00:30:56,682 --> 00:30:59,409
Further, in the ship,
you go to the other side,

535
00:30:59,443 --> 00:31:03,516
and that's where they extract
the babies as well
from the women.

536
00:31:03,551 --> 00:31:07,900
And I'm seeing the women
that are being put

537
00:31:07,935 --> 00:31:11,904
inside these hooks that open
their legs up

538
00:31:11,939 --> 00:31:13,802
and the children are being...

539
00:31:13,837 --> 00:31:18,117
Somehow, they do something
to induce the labor.

540
00:31:18,152 --> 00:31:21,534
It's premature labor
because they always want
children fetuses.

541
00:31:21,569 --> 00:31:23,882
They drop through
this little cone.

542
00:31:23,916 --> 00:31:26,401
It's like a slide almost,

543
00:31:26,436 --> 00:31:29,370
and it slides down
through this little hole

544
00:31:29,404 --> 00:31:33,788
where it's dropped into
these cases, just like
we were talking earlier.

545
00:31:33,822 --> 00:31:34,962
Those cases.

546
00:31:34,996 --> 00:31:39,069
The next room,
I'm seeing the tall grays

547
00:31:39,104 --> 00:31:43,142
with the petri dish
doing the DNA alterations.

548
00:31:43,177 --> 00:31:44,903
Injecting the fetuses.

549
00:31:44,937 --> 00:31:50,011
The entire operation,
I guess it was a harvesting
and hybridization ship

550
00:31:50,046 --> 00:31:52,324
particular to this process.

551
00:31:52,358 --> 00:31:55,361
Barbara Lamb has regressed
hundreds of people.

552
00:31:55,396 --> 00:31:59,952
She hears common themes
about the introduction of
alien genetics.

553
00:31:59,987 --> 00:32:03,059
That material taken from her

554
00:32:03,093 --> 00:32:06,959
is mixed together
with human sperm,

555
00:32:06,994 --> 00:32:12,240
and mixed with
the genetic material,

556
00:32:12,275 --> 00:32:17,797
the reproductive material
of the extraterrestrials.

557
00:32:17,832 --> 00:32:23,148
So, a new little embryo
is created by them.

558
00:32:23,182 --> 00:32:27,600
The next regression goes to
when I'm about 15, 16 years old.

559
00:32:27,635 --> 00:32:30,914
As I'm walking onto this ship, everything is black all around me,

560
00:32:30,949 --> 00:32:35,263
and I see a chair,
another chair
in front of me

561
00:32:35,298 --> 00:32:40,337
that looks like a, you know,
like a gynecologist's chair.

562
00:32:40,372 --> 00:32:42,477
Examination chair basically.

563
00:32:42,512 --> 00:32:45,101
So, I'm being made
to sit on there,

564
00:32:45,135 --> 00:32:50,934
and they're inserting this
gigantic tube inside of my body.

565
00:32:50,969 --> 00:32:54,662
And they began
the insemination process.

566
00:32:54,696 --> 00:32:59,080
So the liquid that they're
putting within you is freezing.

567
00:32:59,115 --> 00:33:05,155
And I just remember that
if you could just visualize,
I guess, putting an ice cube

568
00:33:05,190 --> 00:33:07,571
inside of your body, you know,

569
00:33:07,606 --> 00:33:09,194
I mean, it's just horrible.

570
00:33:09,228 --> 00:33:12,887
When I was regressed,
what I remember is the pain.

571
00:33:12,921 --> 00:33:17,788
The pain, you tap into
the pain sensation
of what happened physically,

572
00:33:17,823 --> 00:33:20,757
because your body is releasing
information basically.

573
00:33:20,791 --> 00:33:25,520
Now another way that humans are

574
00:33:25,555 --> 00:33:28,799
experiencing
the reproduction program

575
00:33:28,834 --> 00:33:33,908
is to actually have
a sexual relationship.

576
00:33:33,942 --> 00:33:39,258
A sexual contact with one of
the extraterritorial beings.

577
00:33:39,293 --> 00:33:41,985
So, I have regressed
certain women

578
00:33:42,020 --> 00:33:45,609
who've had, uh,
sexual intercourse

579
00:33:45,644 --> 00:33:49,061
with male extraterrestrials.

580
00:33:49,096 --> 00:33:54,101
Particularly with
a reptilian species.

581
00:33:54,135 --> 00:33:56,034
I know of at least

582
00:33:56,068 --> 00:34:00,314
five times I was abducted
for reproduction.

583
00:34:00,348 --> 00:34:05,664
They took me
out of an environment basically.
I was at a party,

584
00:34:05,698 --> 00:34:10,220
and I met this
beautiful looking man,

585
00:34:10,979 --> 00:34:13,085
and, um...

586
00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:19,057
I don't know what happened,
but I think he basically
drugged me or something,

587
00:34:19,091 --> 00:34:24,096
and in the regression,
I'm seeing that
he is numbing me.

588
00:34:24,131 --> 00:34:29,101
The only thing I remember
in waking time is seeing
his face and his eyes.

589
00:34:29,136 --> 00:34:31,517
'Cause I remember
meeting this person

590
00:34:31,552 --> 00:34:33,450
but I don't remember
being with him

591
00:34:33,485 --> 00:34:35,418
in the way that the regression
brought it out.

592
00:34:35,452 --> 00:34:39,698
What I'm opening my eyes to
is seeing his face
directly in front of me

593
00:34:39,732 --> 00:34:43,115
and he is, uh, inside of me,

594
00:34:43,150 --> 00:34:48,465
and I'm seeing his very cold,
expressionless face

595
00:34:48,500 --> 00:34:49,880
directly in front of me.

596
00:34:49,915 --> 00:34:51,882
He gets up, and he walks out.

597
00:34:51,917 --> 00:34:55,921
And I can feel
that I had been inseminated.

598
00:34:55,955 --> 00:34:59,994
Light skin, blue eyes,
dark brown hair,

599
00:35:00,028 --> 00:35:05,586
very, very tall. Very tall.
Uh, Like basketball player tall.

600
00:35:05,620 --> 00:35:07,864
And, uh, slender,

601
00:35:08,451 --> 00:35:10,867
you know, perfect body.

602
00:35:11,385 --> 00:35:13,111
Very, very perfect body.

603
00:35:14,595 --> 00:35:16,976
Handsome.
Handsome man basically.

604
00:35:17,011 --> 00:35:23,328
But the second part is that
I'm now looking
who this man is.

605
00:35:23,362 --> 00:35:26,296
And apparently
it's a screen image

606
00:35:26,331 --> 00:35:29,920
of the reptilians that were
working there, in that time.

607
00:35:29,955 --> 00:35:35,236
And it's actually not
a real man. It's just
a screen image, illusion.

608
00:35:35,271 --> 00:35:38,998
So, basically what that means is
that for some women, or men,

609
00:35:39,033 --> 00:35:43,693
when they are gathering eggs
or trying to inseminate,

610
00:35:43,727 --> 00:35:45,867
they create these images.

611
00:35:45,902 --> 00:35:49,733
These screen images or
experiences like
holographic realities

612
00:35:49,768 --> 00:35:53,254
to make it look like you're
experiencing something,
but you're not.

613
00:35:53,289 --> 00:35:56,982
Something that they would pull from my subconscious mind

614
00:35:57,016 --> 00:36:01,089
that would look like
an ideal image
of what a beautiful man

615
00:36:01,124 --> 00:36:02,953
or an attractive man
would be to me.

616
00:36:02,988 --> 00:36:05,611
I'm in and out of consciousness
while this is happening

617
00:36:05,646 --> 00:36:08,096
but I can see clearly him

618
00:36:08,131 --> 00:36:13,171
getting up outta the bed,
not looking back,
not talking, nothing.

619
00:36:13,205 --> 00:36:15,828
He is just leaving the room,
marching out of the room.

620
00:36:15,863 --> 00:36:18,935
Like a zombie basically.
Like a robot.

621
00:36:18,969 --> 00:36:23,181
And I am sitting there
on the bed,

622
00:36:23,215 --> 00:36:28,600
and, um, I remember
feeling cold again.

623
00:36:28,634 --> 00:36:30,636
That cold sensation.

624
00:36:30,671 --> 00:36:34,122
And then the woman is taken
another time,

625
00:36:34,157 --> 00:36:37,678
and then that little embryo
already formed

626
00:36:37,712 --> 00:36:41,129
as a mixture,
a hybridized mixture

627
00:36:41,164 --> 00:36:46,307
is implanted in the womb
of the woman

628
00:36:46,342 --> 00:36:51,243
and she will gestate that
little embryo for a while.

629
00:36:51,278 --> 00:36:55,696
Usually a month and a half
or two months
or maybe a bit more.

630
00:36:55,730 --> 00:36:58,940
One time I had,
it looked like a burn.

631
00:36:58,975 --> 00:37:02,323
A triangle burn
next to my belly button.

632
00:37:02,358 --> 00:37:04,774
With a very long needle through
the belly button,

633
00:37:04,808 --> 00:37:07,363
would probe around
in the abdominal area

634
00:37:07,397 --> 00:37:10,366
until they found the uterus.
Then they would into the uterus,

635
00:37:10,400 --> 00:37:13,921
and they would find the fetus
with that instrument,

636
00:37:13,955 --> 00:37:15,854
and they would have
some little thing that could

637
00:37:15,888 --> 00:37:18,236
capture it and pull it back out.

638
00:37:18,270 --> 00:37:21,756
They have this prong,
like a three...

639
00:37:21,791 --> 00:37:23,896
I believe it was
a three finger prong,

640
00:37:23,931 --> 00:37:26,140
and they bring it
inside of the body.

641
00:37:26,174 --> 00:37:28,694
It holds onto the fetus
and pulls out.

642
00:37:28,729 --> 00:37:31,352
It just happens quick.
It's so fast.

643
00:37:31,387 --> 00:37:33,285
That's another thing
that's really incredible.

644
00:37:33,320 --> 00:37:35,632
They pull it out, they clip it,
they hook it up,

645
00:37:35,667 --> 00:37:38,670
and they put it in.
Just like that.

646
00:37:38,704 --> 00:37:42,950
The hybridization
program Rob was exposed to
was slightly different.

647
00:37:42,984 --> 00:37:45,953
He was not subjected to
reproductive experiments.

648
00:37:46,919 --> 00:37:49,025
I don't remember
exactly the day.

649
00:37:49,059 --> 00:37:51,924
I just...
The experience itself had

650
00:37:52,580 --> 00:37:55,376
a dramatic impact on me,

651
00:37:55,411 --> 00:37:59,207
and I remember just
coming into an experience.
Right?

652
00:37:59,242 --> 00:38:01,451
Becoming aware that
I'm having an experience,

653
00:38:01,486 --> 00:38:03,177
you know,
textures and everything,

654
00:38:03,211 --> 00:38:06,594
and I was in, like, this
underground facility.

655
00:38:06,629 --> 00:38:13,291
The same kind of grating
almost on the ground
and some dirt.

656
00:38:13,325 --> 00:38:18,054
But lights going down,
like a stereotypical

657
00:38:18,088 --> 00:38:20,850
rock underground
facility, right?

658
00:38:20,884 --> 00:38:23,577
I'm walking with this being
down the hallway

659
00:38:23,611 --> 00:38:25,924
and there's
other beings walking,

660
00:38:25,958 --> 00:38:28,858
just kinda looks like him,
but not quite,

661
00:38:28,892 --> 00:38:30,480
going this way.

662
00:38:30,515 --> 00:38:33,725
Something felt wrong right here.

663
00:38:33,759 --> 00:38:37,522
Right in my gut. A tightness.

664
00:38:37,556 --> 00:38:40,904
Something's off here.
I couldn't
quite put my finger on it.

665
00:38:40,939 --> 00:38:43,873
And when a being would
walk by me like this,

666
00:38:43,907 --> 00:38:46,807
it would kinda like look at me.

667
00:38:46,841 --> 00:38:49,292
If you're walking by,
it would just, like,

668
00:38:49,327 --> 00:38:52,916
you know,
but with this look of malice.

669
00:38:52,951 --> 00:38:54,849
I felt malice from it.

670
00:38:54,884 --> 00:38:57,438
What I was looking at was

671
00:38:59,509 --> 00:39:00,717
a technology.

672
00:39:00,752 --> 00:39:04,031
An overlay of a human
on top of it.

673
00:39:04,065 --> 00:39:10,175
So the image that they're
projecting is of these tall
white Nordic beings, right?

674
00:39:10,209 --> 00:39:13,937
But when I walked by,
it was like a digital distortion

675
00:39:13,972 --> 00:39:15,663
in the holographic image,

676
00:39:15,698 --> 00:39:19,805
and I can see that there was
a lizard face behind
that holographic image.

677
00:39:19,840 --> 00:39:22,808
They were wearing the face
that they wanted you to see.

678
00:39:22,843 --> 00:39:25,017
That they want everyone to see.

679
00:39:25,052 --> 00:39:28,504
Not just me. This is their look.

680
00:39:28,538 --> 00:39:33,854
So, they take me to the next
room, and it's as far as
I can see down there.

681
00:39:33,888 --> 00:39:36,926
Like this hallway,
and there's rows upon rows

682
00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:39,963
of these glass tube like things.

683
00:39:39,998 --> 00:39:42,552
There was this
blue liquid inside,

684
00:39:42,587 --> 00:39:45,900
and beings inside of these tubes

685
00:39:45,935 --> 00:39:48,386
that looked like
a tall white zeta.

686
00:39:48,420 --> 00:39:50,318
It was basically all these
beings, and they said

687
00:39:50,353 --> 00:39:52,113
"Oh, here's
our cloning chambers."

688
00:39:52,148 --> 00:39:54,150
Like, cloning chambers?

689
00:39:54,184 --> 00:39:57,049
I don't like that, either.
That's not cool.

690
00:39:57,084 --> 00:40:03,435
I've had an experience
where I woke up
and I was inside of the tube.

691
00:40:03,470 --> 00:40:08,958
And I look down, you know,
and I'm in this blue liquid,
and I'm going, "Wait..."

692
00:40:08,992 --> 00:40:12,686
I see my hands,
and my hands
are these long fingers

693
00:40:12,720 --> 00:40:15,654
white skin, and I'm like,
"Is this me?"

694
00:40:15,689 --> 00:40:18,036
And I'm all, "Oh, shit!

695
00:40:18,070 --> 00:40:21,384
"This is me,
I'm wiggling my fingers.
Oh, shit. This is me."

696
00:40:21,419 --> 00:40:23,973
And I look out, and there's
all these beings going,

697
00:40:24,007 --> 00:40:27,252
"Oh, shit!" And they're all
scrambling around,

698
00:40:27,286 --> 00:40:28,978
and black out.

699
00:40:29,012 --> 00:40:31,221
So, there's something there.

700
00:40:31,256 --> 00:40:34,086
These beings
are abducting people,

701
00:40:34,121 --> 00:40:38,608
removing their consciousness
just like my consciousness was
removed from my body.

702
00:40:38,643 --> 00:40:42,094
I believe they're removing
consciousness from abductees,

703
00:40:42,129 --> 00:40:44,062
and that's the power source,

704
00:40:44,096 --> 00:40:48,791
like these are the V8 engines
they're putting in these cars.

705
00:40:48,825 --> 00:40:50,378
Of course, they are gonna feel benevolent,

706
00:40:50,413 --> 00:40:52,173
because they've got
the consciousness...

707
00:40:52,208 --> 00:40:55,453
Mrs. Jensen doesn't realize
that when she goes to sleep
at night,

708
00:40:55,487 --> 00:41:00,009
her consciousness is powering
a clone, to do God knows what.

709
00:41:00,043 --> 00:41:01,804
While the experiences are alarming,

710
00:41:01,838 --> 00:41:05,808
the effort to wipe
or hide the memory
is just as disturbing.

711
00:41:05,842 --> 00:41:10,088
But through regression
therapy, most abductees
uncover the truth.

712
00:41:11,020 --> 00:41:12,573
Whatever kind of ET you're with,

713
00:41:12,608 --> 00:41:15,921
they'll lean over
and look at you
right in the face.

714
00:41:15,956 --> 00:41:17,647
They would look at me
with their eyes,

715
00:41:17,682 --> 00:41:21,202
and they would telepathically
speak to me
and they would tell me,

716
00:41:21,237 --> 00:41:23,550
"You will not remember this.

717
00:41:23,584 --> 00:41:25,828
"You will not remember this."

718
00:41:25,862 --> 00:41:27,933
And they will switch
from looking at me,

719
00:41:27,968 --> 00:41:29,935
to looking down
at my lower body,

720
00:41:30,626 --> 00:41:32,938
and I would feel a cold scalpel

721
00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:36,942
slice, with no pain.

722
00:41:36,977 --> 00:41:39,048
And they would look back at me
with their eyes,

723
00:41:39,082 --> 00:41:42,500
and I would directly
have to look in their eyes,
and they would...

724
00:41:42,534 --> 00:41:45,433
They would tell me
to look in their eyes and focus.

725
00:41:45,468 --> 00:41:49,990
They were calm messages,
calm voices.

726
00:41:50,024 --> 00:41:51,888
I remember those eyes.

727
00:41:51,923 --> 00:41:54,028
Those eyes that you
just can't forget.

728
00:41:54,512 --> 00:41:56,203
It was like glass.

729
00:41:56,928 --> 00:41:58,516
And it was cold.

730
00:41:59,447 --> 00:42:01,380
Cold, empty stare.

731
00:42:02,071 --> 00:42:04,487
Literally like a robot. Like AI.

732
00:42:04,522 --> 00:42:08,526
"You will be just fine.
You will be just fine."

733
00:42:08,560 --> 00:42:12,322
And the word
"baby-conception" of course.

734
00:42:12,357 --> 00:42:15,981
I remember hearing that.
Not only did I write it down,

735
00:42:16,016 --> 00:42:19,019
I heard it telepathically.

736
00:42:19,053 --> 00:42:22,540
When they're showing you these
things, they're controlling
your thoughts.

737
00:42:22,574 --> 00:42:25,646
They're controlling what you're
seeing in your mind.

738
00:42:25,681 --> 00:42:27,648
And I don't like that.

739
00:42:27,683 --> 00:42:29,408
I think I get the feeling that

740
00:42:29,443 --> 00:42:32,342
they just want me
to just go with it,
and go, "Oh, okay, okay."

741
00:42:32,377 --> 00:42:34,655
But I fight it,
and it's hard to describe.

742
00:42:34,690 --> 00:42:38,072
But you can feel that
they're frustrated with you.

743
00:42:38,107 --> 00:42:41,973
This program is a part of
the reptilian program.

744
00:42:42,007 --> 00:42:43,906
A much darker program.

745
00:42:43,940 --> 00:42:47,426
Darker from our concept
of negative.

746
00:42:47,461 --> 00:42:51,430
And what they are
inserting in you

747
00:42:51,465 --> 00:42:55,124
is a much lower
vibration entity.

748
00:42:55,158 --> 00:42:59,404
And the reason why
they create these screen images,

749
00:42:59,438 --> 00:43:02,303
and they go through
all this trouble of doing this,

750
00:43:02,338 --> 00:43:06,169
is because what happens
with sexual energy

751
00:43:06,204 --> 00:43:09,138
is when a union is created

752
00:43:09,172 --> 00:43:13,314
the amount of energy that is
created from that union

753
00:43:13,349 --> 00:43:18,526
is an energetic signature
that is ingrained
into the hybrid being.

754
00:43:18,561 --> 00:43:23,255
From the moment of conception,
or contact, literally,

755
00:43:23,290 --> 00:43:25,982
that unification of that energy,

756
00:43:26,017 --> 00:43:29,814
is imprinted within
the subconscious mind

757
00:43:29,848 --> 00:43:31,643
and the vibration of the being.

758
00:43:31,678 --> 00:43:36,648
And that's going to designate
the vibration in
the subconscious mind

759
00:43:36,683 --> 00:43:40,514
of this,
whoever they're creating
throughout their entire life.

760
00:43:40,548 --> 00:43:42,654
That's when
you start to understand
the power of sex

761
00:43:42,689 --> 00:43:46,244
and the difference between
something done through love,

762
00:43:46,278 --> 00:43:49,316
and something done through
some painful situation.

763
00:43:49,350 --> 00:43:52,733
That's why they go through
the trouble of creating this

764
00:43:52,768 --> 00:43:54,977
screen image of a man, whatever.

765
00:43:55,011 --> 00:43:57,048
What he looks like,
it doesn't matter.

766
00:43:57,082 --> 00:43:59,533
They just pull out from
your subconscious mind

767
00:43:59,567 --> 00:44:03,502
what may seem they think
is gonna be appealing to you.

768
00:44:03,537 --> 00:44:07,023
Sorry, guys,
not all ETs are good,
you know?

769
00:44:07,058 --> 00:44:09,957
Just like here on Earth, we have
bad people, we have good people.

770
00:44:09,992 --> 00:44:11,234
It's the same thing.

771
00:44:11,269 --> 00:44:13,858
It's just everything is
a fractal of the whole.

772
00:44:13,892 --> 00:44:16,170
You get smaller
and smaller down,

773
00:44:16,205 --> 00:44:18,310
it's the same thing
as the big things.
So, you have

774
00:44:18,345 --> 00:44:20,174
good people,
you have bad people.

775
00:44:20,209 --> 00:44:23,246
People with agendas
out to do whatever.

776
00:44:23,281 --> 00:44:26,249
It's the same thing up there.
Same thing.

777
00:44:26,284 --> 00:44:29,667
I mean, look, human beings
for 10,000 plus years

778
00:44:29,701 --> 00:44:32,704
have taken animals in the wild and bred them.

779
00:44:32,739 --> 00:44:36,259
And thereby changing them.
That's how we created
all the species of dogs.

780
00:44:36,294 --> 00:44:38,192
That exists from wolves.

781
00:44:38,227 --> 00:44:41,817
Cattle are totally different
from where they were
1,000 years ago. Sheep...

782
00:44:41,851 --> 00:44:44,267
Sheep in the wild
are aggressive and tough.

783
00:44:44,302 --> 00:44:45,890
Not the way we breed them.

784
00:44:45,924 --> 00:44:48,582
We change all of these animals.

785
00:44:48,616 --> 00:44:51,689
And, so now, can we be bred
into something different?

786
00:44:51,723 --> 00:44:53,656
The answer is, absolutely.
Of course, we can.

787
00:44:53,691 --> 00:44:56,210
We're doing it
to ourselves now,

788
00:44:56,245 --> 00:44:57,833
but the real question
to ask is,

789
00:44:57,867 --> 00:45:03,321
has someone else come, taken us,
and added a different mixture?

790
00:45:27,897 --> 00:45:32,660
Abduction experiences that
involve sexual reproduction
are harrowing enough,

791
00:45:32,695 --> 00:45:35,215
but the emotional
and psychological challenges

792
00:45:35,249 --> 00:45:38,218
only intensify
with what comes next.

793
00:45:38,252 --> 00:45:43,154
Well, we were very excited
because we had one daughter.
Very blessed,

794
00:45:43,188 --> 00:45:46,605
and changed our world of
happiness. We realized

795
00:45:46,640 --> 00:45:49,056
we wanna share this happiness
with a sibling.

796
00:45:49,091 --> 00:45:50,678
I called a friend of mine

797
00:45:50,713 --> 00:45:52,680
out of this woman's
spiritual group
in Manitou Springs.

798
00:45:52,715 --> 00:45:56,201
I said please come over, I
need some help. Something
crazy happened last night.

799
00:45:56,236 --> 00:45:59,998
She looks me up and down,
she tilts her head,
and she goes, "Sierra,

800
00:46:00,033 --> 00:46:01,482
"are you pregnant?"

801
00:46:01,517 --> 00:46:02,794
So, I told her everything.

802
00:46:02,829 --> 00:46:04,934
And she's like "Mmm-hmm. Okay.
Yeah, makes sense."

803
00:46:04,969 --> 00:46:07,074
I'm like would you please
just tell me what's happening.

804
00:46:07,109 --> 00:46:11,527
And that's when
she broke down the whole
zeta hybridization program.

805
00:46:11,561 --> 00:46:13,460
In detail.

806
00:46:13,494 --> 00:46:15,807
And I just sat there shaking
my head going, "This is
a bunch of nonsense."

807
00:46:15,842 --> 00:46:19,086
I'm not bisexual.
I don't have
relationships with men.

808
00:46:19,121 --> 00:46:21,261
So, it's like,
how am I pregnant?

809
00:46:21,295 --> 00:46:24,022
When we have the reports
from the witnesses

810
00:46:24,057 --> 00:46:28,509
that have an alternative
lifestyle, such as lesbianism

811
00:46:28,544 --> 00:46:32,410
that have never had
sexual relations with a man,

812
00:46:32,444 --> 00:46:34,343
who is now pregnant.

813
00:46:34,377 --> 00:46:35,723
What do you do with that?

814
00:46:35,758 --> 00:46:38,381
We formed a plan.
I said I wanted to
keep the baby.

815
00:46:38,416 --> 00:46:42,316
It was nobody's right
to impregnate me,
and use me as a laboratory rat.

816
00:46:43,007 --> 00:46:45,250
I wanted to keep the baby.

817
00:46:45,285 --> 00:46:47,839
They had me move out
of my girlfriend's house,

818
00:46:47,874 --> 00:46:50,704
and I would go and stay
with each one of these women.

819
00:46:50,738 --> 00:46:53,741
And then, they would tell me
when I would move.

820
00:46:53,776 --> 00:46:56,227
So, it was like this whole
cloak and dagger thing
that we did.

821
00:46:56,261 --> 00:46:58,954
Knowing that I was pregnant
four months.

822
00:46:58,988 --> 00:47:01,888
I could have been pregnant
a bit longer before then.

823
00:47:01,922 --> 00:47:03,648
I was starting to show,

824
00:47:03,682 --> 00:47:06,789
and all the women
were telling me what to do,
taking care of me.

825
00:47:06,824 --> 00:47:08,964
And my girlfriend and I started having a lot of riffs.

826
00:47:08,998 --> 00:47:13,071
I really think even though
she's such a believer,

827
00:47:13,106 --> 00:47:15,142
when confronted with it,

828
00:47:15,177 --> 00:47:19,698
I think ultimately she
thought I slept with a guy
and got pregnant.

829
00:47:19,733 --> 00:47:22,011
Last, like,
big argument that we had,

830
00:47:22,046 --> 00:47:25,704
she's like, "Sierra,
this is a real baby.
You need to go to a doctor."

831
00:47:25,739 --> 00:47:28,224
I've always been very careful
with my partners,

832
00:47:28,259 --> 00:47:30,261
and we've always been
very conscious about

833
00:47:30,295 --> 00:47:32,504
having the right time
to start a family.

834
00:47:32,539 --> 00:47:36,819
The times that I would become
pregnant was very...

835
00:47:37,924 --> 00:47:41,099
We couldn't understand
how that could have happened.

836
00:47:41,134 --> 00:47:42,549
Okay. Number one.

837
00:47:42,583 --> 00:47:47,381
Number two, um, it would
always end in a miscarriage.

838
00:47:47,416 --> 00:47:53,353
Yeah, I could conceive,
but I never kept it.

839
00:47:55,044 --> 00:47:59,807
I would have
indications of pregnancy,
heightened sense of smell,

840
00:48:00,532 --> 00:48:03,708
sensitivity, things like that.

841
00:48:03,742 --> 00:48:06,918
And then, I would have
a slightly heavy period,
and gone.

842
00:48:06,953 --> 00:48:12,130
I don't even think I knew
that I was pregnant
on a few occasions,

843
00:48:12,165 --> 00:48:14,546
until I had a very late period.

844
00:48:14,581 --> 00:48:18,412
I went and checked,
and, "Oh, my gosh,
I'm pregnant."

845
00:48:18,447 --> 00:48:21,933
And then, I had a miscarriage.
I was like "Oh, okay."

846
00:48:21,968 --> 00:48:25,247
It was an emotional
rollercoaster because sometimes
I would get excited

847
00:48:25,281 --> 00:48:29,320
and I would be like,
"Oh, my gosh, I'm pregnant!"
We didn't expect it.

848
00:48:29,354 --> 00:48:33,358
Well, you know, let's just
make the best of it,
and we'll just make it work.

849
00:48:33,393 --> 00:48:35,671
Some months
I would miss the cycle,

850
00:48:35,705 --> 00:48:38,985
and then three months
would pass,
and I wouldn't have my cycle.

851
00:48:39,019 --> 00:48:41,953
And then, I would think
that I was pregnant,

852
00:48:41,988 --> 00:48:45,129
but there was no way.
I didn't have a partner
or anything.

853
00:48:45,163 --> 00:48:48,718
One month, all the way
up to three months. I mean,

854
00:48:48,753 --> 00:48:52,550
let my body clear out,
and try again
in two more months.

855
00:48:53,827 --> 00:48:57,486
It began to be feeling
like it was

856
00:48:57,520 --> 00:49:00,523
gonna be another let down.
Why are we trying again?

857
00:49:01,076 --> 00:49:02,215
Very emotional.

858
00:49:02,249 --> 00:49:05,735
When I started to have
the miscarriages is November,

859
00:49:05,770 --> 00:49:09,222
I went to UCLA,
because I didn't want to.

860
00:49:09,256 --> 00:49:13,502
I would have a miscarriage,
just like a normal miscarriage.

861
00:49:13,536 --> 00:49:16,194
Then other times I would go in
for my appointment

862
00:49:16,229 --> 00:49:17,678
and there would just be no baby.

863
00:49:17,713 --> 00:49:21,165
It would just be...
The doctor would say,

864
00:49:21,199 --> 00:49:23,029
"Your body
must have absorbed it."

865
00:49:23,063 --> 00:49:25,686
Medical doctors, medical science
would say the same thing.

866
00:49:25,721 --> 00:49:32,210
You had a miscarriage and your
body absorbed that, uh,
that child, that being.

867
00:49:32,245 --> 00:49:35,731
I don't feel comfortable arguing
with medical doctors about this.

868
00:49:35,765 --> 00:49:39,873
They know a lot more about this
than I would know.

869
00:49:39,907 --> 00:49:46,776
But I have spoken with women,
who have had
such a situation happen.

870
00:49:46,811 --> 00:49:50,159
And what's interesting
about some of them is that

871
00:49:50,194 --> 00:49:54,439
they have also had what
any normal person would say,

872
00:49:54,474 --> 00:49:59,306
"That's a UFO experience."
That's a alien
abduction experience.

873
00:49:59,341 --> 00:50:03,069
In other worlds, some of
these people in addition
to having a missing fetus,

874
00:50:03,103 --> 00:50:08,626
have also had memories,
clear memories of abductions
by non-human beings.

875
00:50:08,660 --> 00:50:10,662
After my first menstrual cycle,

876
00:50:10,697 --> 00:50:13,251
that's when they started to

877
00:50:13,286 --> 00:50:18,601
uh, pick me up
and do more things with me,
as far as reproduction.

878
00:50:18,636 --> 00:50:21,777
I had two children already.
My son and my daughter,

879
00:50:21,811 --> 00:50:23,227
and I didn't wanna have more,

880
00:50:23,261 --> 00:50:25,850
so I went to the doctor, I said
I wanna get a tuba ligation.

881
00:50:25,884 --> 00:50:28,301
We made the appointment,
I went in to get it done,

882
00:50:28,335 --> 00:50:30,958
and they did it in the office
under local anesthesia.

883
00:50:30,993 --> 00:50:33,685
But while he was in there
doing the tubal

884
00:50:33,720 --> 00:50:36,723
he said, "You know,
your abdominal cavity

885
00:50:36,757 --> 00:50:39,139
"is full of adhesions.
Have you had
any other procedures?"

886
00:50:39,174 --> 00:50:41,141
Every time I would go
to the doctor, he'll be like,

887
00:50:41,176 --> 00:50:44,213
"You're fine, you're fine.
There's nothing wrong."

888
00:50:44,248 --> 00:50:46,595
And then they found cysts...

889
00:50:46,629 --> 00:50:51,082
Little cysts.
That seems to be very common
with women that do this.

890
00:50:51,117 --> 00:50:55,466
They've had sonograms and
pregnancy tests that show this.

891
00:50:55,500 --> 00:50:56,984
Clearly they're pregnant.

892
00:50:57,019 --> 00:51:01,299
And then they report literally
overnight, they're not.

893
00:51:01,334 --> 00:51:03,681
They knew
something was different,
they knew something was wrong,

894
00:51:03,715 --> 00:51:07,133
they go to the doctor
and there's not a sign
they were ever even pregnant.

895
00:51:07,167 --> 00:51:09,756
It was probably about
a week, week-and-a-half later,

896
00:51:09,790 --> 00:51:14,036
I sat straight up in bed
and I screamed.

897
00:51:14,071 --> 00:51:16,625
And my stomach was flat,
and I was like...

898
00:51:17,798 --> 00:51:20,939
"It's gone.
The baby's not there anymore."

899
00:51:22,631 --> 00:51:24,943
When a woman is pregnant,
many times

900
00:51:24,978 --> 00:51:30,708
the alien beings will abduct her
and manipulate the fetus
in utero.

901
00:51:30,742 --> 00:51:35,954
I would say about 16 of those
are done through, like,

902
00:51:35,989 --> 00:51:39,096
in my uterus.
Like, actually insemination.

903
00:51:39,130 --> 00:51:44,618
Can that happen? We know.
We do in vitro fertilization.
We do, you know...

904
00:51:44,653 --> 00:51:47,690
We have surrogates who can
carry a baby to term for others.

905
00:51:47,725 --> 00:51:53,731
We have that kind of
monkeying around
within our genetic code now.

906
00:51:54,352 --> 00:51:55,595
We know it can be done.

907
00:51:55,629 --> 00:51:59,150
There have been very few doctors
that I've talked to

908
00:51:59,185 --> 00:52:05,950
who have been willing to do much
in the way of examination
in these manners.

909
00:52:05,984 --> 00:52:07,779
And it is difficult,
'cause it costs money.

910
00:52:07,814 --> 00:52:11,162
Of course, equipment and labs
and all of that is expensive.

911
00:52:11,197 --> 00:52:14,752
They did an ultrasound
and what the lab tech said,

912
00:52:14,786 --> 00:52:17,203
and understand this was kind of
said under his breath.

913
00:52:17,237 --> 00:52:20,689
He said, "Well, that's
interesting. It's something
I've never seen before."

914
00:52:20,723 --> 00:52:22,035
And I said, "What's that?"

915
00:52:22,069 --> 00:52:26,902
And he said, "A perfectly intact
egg sac without an egg."

916
00:52:26,936 --> 00:52:31,182
I was told that
I had endometriosis,

917
00:52:31,217 --> 00:52:34,012
which I just attributed,

918
00:52:34,047 --> 00:52:36,325
you know,
the miscarriages to that.

919
00:52:37,430 --> 00:52:39,432
But again, I was young.

920
00:52:39,466 --> 00:52:41,434
I just took the word
of the doctor

921
00:52:41,468 --> 00:52:44,644
and didn't question it too much
to be honest with you.

922
00:52:44,678 --> 00:52:46,301
I couldn't connect the dots.

923
00:52:46,335 --> 00:52:49,994
And my doctors I went to,
you know,

924
00:52:50,028 --> 00:52:52,686
a lot of them would be like,
"Take it easy.

925
00:52:52,721 --> 00:52:55,241
"It's supposed to be
a relaxing period.

926
00:52:55,275 --> 00:53:00,694
"You need to go ahead and
learn to have a stress
free weekend, you know."

927
00:53:00,729 --> 00:53:02,938
A lot of it was associated
with stress.

928
00:53:02,972 --> 00:53:05,078
But I didn't feel stressed out.

929
00:53:05,112 --> 00:53:07,805
They always wanna do testing
on your hormones.

930
00:53:07,839 --> 00:53:09,289
"Are you sleeping okay?"

931
00:53:09,324 --> 00:53:12,361
"His stress level, what's going on in his world?"

932
00:53:12,396 --> 00:53:14,398
"Is your career very demanding?"

933
00:53:15,744 --> 00:53:17,539
A lot of factors.

934
00:53:17,573 --> 00:53:19,851
After probably
the fifth miscarriage,

935
00:53:19,886 --> 00:53:25,478
we began to get a little bit
antsy and emotional about it.

936
00:53:25,512 --> 00:53:28,860
It was taking a toll on me,
my body.

937
00:53:28,895 --> 00:53:31,000
It's painful. It's very painful.

938
00:53:31,035 --> 00:53:33,071
And they're not gentle,
obviously.

939
00:53:33,106 --> 00:53:36,903
Because they don't think
what they're doing is wrong.

940
00:53:36,937 --> 00:53:40,803
They also don't have
the same scale of emotions

941
00:53:40,838 --> 00:53:43,461
and sentiments that we have.
It's very different.

942
00:53:43,496 --> 00:53:45,636
There's a number of these cases.

943
00:53:45,670 --> 00:53:47,258
I personally believe

944
00:53:47,293 --> 00:53:49,916
this is one reason I believe
that there's
a hybridization program.

945
00:53:49,950 --> 00:53:53,126
Because of this fact,
this factor.

946
00:53:53,160 --> 00:53:56,267
My personal experience
I would put it in the hundreds

947
00:53:56,302 --> 00:54:01,307
of reports that I'm either
aware of, or have been
personally involved in.

948
00:54:01,341 --> 00:54:04,379
These are more common
than most people realize.

949
00:54:04,413 --> 00:54:07,796
And when you have
a number of these witnesses
remembering this,

950
00:54:07,830 --> 00:54:10,108
I'm... Absolutely,
I pay attention to that.

951
00:54:10,143 --> 00:54:12,766
I think that this is
something that's going on.

952
00:54:12,801 --> 00:54:18,427
This is so difficult for
not only the female abductee,

953
00:54:18,462 --> 00:54:20,326
but if they're in a relationship

954
00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:24,951
where a woman like April will have several miscarriages.

955
00:54:24,985 --> 00:54:27,712
And then, she'll finally
be able to get pregnant.

956
00:54:27,747 --> 00:54:30,439
I thought I got the flu.

957
00:54:30,474 --> 00:54:36,790
And at that time I did not know
that we had became pregnant.

958
00:54:36,825 --> 00:54:42,106
That night was more of a...
An awe moment

959
00:54:42,140 --> 00:54:48,457
of this is the reason
why you woke up
with blood on your stomach.

960
00:54:48,492 --> 00:54:50,459
This is the reason
why you woke up

961
00:54:52,047 --> 00:54:55,775
writing down, "Baby conceived."

962
00:54:56,431 --> 00:54:58,812
It was a moment of clarity

963
00:54:58,847 --> 00:55:02,264
of this being helped you create

964
00:55:03,403 --> 00:55:04,922
something to come.

965
00:55:04,956 --> 00:55:09,340
We've noticed
that most of the abductees

966
00:55:09,375 --> 00:55:11,204
are in a certain age group.

967
00:55:11,238 --> 00:55:15,346
Everyone that I know of,
their children are
gifted children.

968
00:55:15,381 --> 00:55:18,625
They're all very bright kids
for some reason.

969
00:55:18,660 --> 00:55:22,767
I don't know why, but the best
way to change a civilization

970
00:55:22,802 --> 00:55:24,769
is to start with the children.

971
00:55:24,804 --> 00:55:30,016
And April truly believes she was a beneficiary of alien intervention.

972
00:55:30,050 --> 00:55:33,330
They did yield my son.
Absolutely.

973
00:55:34,227 --> 00:55:36,471
Without any doubt.

974
00:55:36,505 --> 00:55:41,717
It's unexplainable, but probably
six weeks after that dream,

975
00:55:41,752 --> 00:55:43,650
that it was confirmed
it was a pregnancy.

976
00:55:43,685 --> 00:55:48,275
We didn't wanna say too much.
We didn't wanna
get our hopes up.

977
00:55:48,310 --> 00:55:50,864
That was the biggest thing,
not getting your hopes up.

978
00:55:52,107 --> 00:55:55,938
But did it bother us
that we both knew

979
00:55:56,698 --> 00:56:00,011
that we had had an encounter

980
00:56:00,046 --> 00:56:02,842
with something that was

981
00:56:02,876 --> 00:56:06,673
not of human race that helped us
genetically have a baby?

982
00:56:06,708 --> 00:56:08,434
We were so excited.

983
00:56:08,951 --> 00:56:11,264
It didn't faze us.

984
00:56:11,298 --> 00:56:14,267
The pregnancy itself was
very, very different.

985
00:56:14,301 --> 00:56:17,753
Not only for me
carrying him as a mother,

986
00:56:17,788 --> 00:56:22,689
even for the doctors,
the blood work
was very different.

987
00:56:22,724 --> 00:56:24,829
It evolved
all through the nine months,

988
00:56:24,864 --> 00:56:26,728
and we were both okay.

989
00:56:26,762 --> 00:56:30,801
Unlike April,
most experiencers
involved in hybrid programs,

990
00:56:30,835 --> 00:56:33,044
don't have
Earth-bound children,

991
00:56:33,079 --> 00:56:34,943
yet they remain connected.

992
00:56:34,977 --> 00:56:37,152
Some of them have
talked repeatedly actually.

993
00:56:37,186 --> 00:56:38,533
There have been a number of
cases of women

994
00:56:38,567 --> 00:56:41,708
claiming to remember
being taken aboard a craft

995
00:56:41,743 --> 00:56:45,781
and being presented
with an infant that
they were told was theirs.

996
00:56:45,816 --> 00:56:49,889
Some people have
many hybrid children.

997
00:56:49,923 --> 00:56:54,687
Just last night I regressed
a man who had discovered

998
00:56:54,721 --> 00:57:00,313
he had 336 hybrid children.

999
00:57:00,347 --> 00:57:03,868
The number 17 sticks in my mind.
Which is a lot.

1000
00:57:03,903 --> 00:57:08,010
But I think that
not many of them grew up.

1001
00:57:08,045 --> 00:57:10,323
I think most of them
died in infancy.

1002
00:57:10,357 --> 00:57:15,121
I have 24 hybrid children.
And it's a lengthy process.

1003
00:57:15,155 --> 00:57:19,539
The whole process
of insemination,
of having the children,

1004
00:57:19,574 --> 00:57:22,784
and many other implants
that happened in between

1005
00:57:22,818 --> 00:57:25,511
in order
to facilitate the program.

1006
00:57:25,545 --> 00:57:27,305
Sometimes they're taken

1007
00:57:27,340 --> 00:57:33,346
when the hybrid children are
more in their childhood years,

1008
00:57:33,380 --> 00:57:34,761
or even older.

1009
00:57:34,796 --> 00:57:38,040
And as I'm brought back
into ship, he shows me
again another box.

1010
00:57:38,075 --> 00:57:39,766
The box has eight little lights.

1011
00:57:39,801 --> 00:57:41,388
Eight little lights.

1012
00:57:41,423 --> 00:57:46,083
They zoom up in front of me,
all around me,
and then they expand.

1013
00:57:46,117 --> 00:57:49,811
And the first thing I see
is this little boy.

1014
00:57:49,845 --> 00:57:51,640
Strange, blond, curly hair.

1015
00:57:51,675 --> 00:57:55,886
These magnificent giant eyes.

1016
00:57:55,920 --> 00:58:01,892
Eyes that we don't have
on this planet.
Complex eyes. Deep eyes.

1017
00:58:01,926 --> 00:58:05,378
And very frail, thin skin.

1018
00:58:05,412 --> 00:58:07,932
Thin structure to the body.
Beautiful.

1019
00:58:07,967 --> 00:58:09,520
And as I'm looking
at this child,

1020
00:58:09,555 --> 00:58:13,835
it's this feeling of love
that comes over me.

1021
00:58:13,869 --> 00:58:18,184
And I understand.
I see myself in the child.

1022
00:58:18,218 --> 00:58:22,222
With this beautiful eyes,
this face and everything.

1023
00:58:24,155 --> 00:58:26,537
As this child comes
closer to me,

1024
00:58:26,572 --> 00:58:31,818
it's this immediate
knowing that,
that is a product of myself.

1025
00:58:31,853 --> 00:58:33,475
Because I can see myself
in the child.

1026
00:58:33,510 --> 00:58:39,101
And I'm overcome
with this feeling of motherhood.

1027
00:58:39,826 --> 00:58:41,518
One night I went to bed,

1028
00:58:42,657 --> 00:58:45,970
and I woke up in a cave.

1029
00:58:46,005 --> 00:58:51,804
I can feel the cold,
damp feeling on my feet.

1030
00:58:51,838 --> 00:58:56,394
It's lit up with light,
but I can't see
the source of the light.

1031
00:58:56,429 --> 00:59:01,883
And there's a gray there
with a little girl.

1032
00:59:01,917 --> 00:59:04,057
And she didn't look right.

1033
00:59:04,092 --> 00:59:07,613
She was pale and she had...

1034
00:59:07,647 --> 00:59:13,757
Her hair was stringy
and kind of
a dirty blond color.

1035
00:59:13,791 --> 00:59:15,310
She has a nose,

1036
00:59:16,173 --> 00:59:18,175
but it's small.

1037
00:59:18,209 --> 00:59:20,108
She had huge blue eyes.

1038
00:59:20,142 --> 00:59:23,387
And I can't take my eyes
off of her face,

1039
00:59:23,421 --> 00:59:27,667
because I'm trying to see me
in her and I don't.

1040
00:59:27,702 --> 00:59:32,396
And he brought her to me
and he said, "She's yours."

1041
00:59:34,950 --> 00:59:37,366
Which threw me, because

1042
00:59:39,817 --> 00:59:41,647
I can barely accept this.

1043
00:59:41,681 --> 00:59:44,270
This sounds insane, I realize,

1044
00:59:44,788 --> 00:59:46,444
but I was shocked.

1045
00:59:46,479 --> 00:59:49,137
I didn't question
whether he was
telling me the truth or not.

1046
00:59:49,171 --> 00:59:52,105
Which I find strange now,

1047
00:59:52,140 --> 00:59:54,729
but I knew he was
telling me the truth.

1048
00:59:54,763 --> 00:59:57,697
And he walked her up to me

1049
00:59:58,422 --> 01:00:00,079
and told me to mother her.

1050
01:00:01,667 --> 01:00:05,947
And I took it to mean
show her affection.

1051
01:00:05,981 --> 01:00:11,297
She never once
opened her mouth.
She never spoke verbally.

1052
01:00:11,331 --> 01:00:13,264
I could tell
something was wrong.

1053
01:00:13,299 --> 01:00:18,753
And I don't know
whether it's just...

1054
01:00:18,787 --> 01:00:21,272
I don't know what it was.
I don't know if she was sick.

1055
01:00:21,307 --> 01:00:24,413
I don't know if she just needed
to learn about affection.

1056
01:00:24,448 --> 01:00:27,416
I don't know what it was,
but something wasn't right.

1057
01:00:27,451 --> 01:00:31,593
Like, she was
emanating her feelings

1058
01:00:31,628 --> 01:00:35,424
about me very strongly.

1059
01:00:35,459 --> 01:00:39,290
"Don't come near me.
I don't want anything to do
with you."

1060
01:00:39,325 --> 01:00:43,294
But I also noticed
she was obedient to the gray.

1061
01:00:43,329 --> 01:00:45,849
She never showed
any expression on her face.

1062
01:00:45,883 --> 01:00:50,198
She stared at me and
just telepathically
let me know,

1063
01:00:50,232 --> 01:00:51,855
"I don't want anything to do
with you."

1064
01:00:51,889 --> 01:00:55,686
And so, since
it wasn't going the way that
the gray wanted it to go,

1065
01:00:55,721 --> 01:00:57,826
I was taken back home.

1066
01:00:58,516 --> 01:01:00,587
And I've never seen her since.

1067
01:01:00,622 --> 01:01:02,210
And I don't know if...

1068
01:01:04,039 --> 01:01:05,903
Do they lie?

1069
01:01:05,938 --> 01:01:08,285
You know? Is it a lie?

1070
01:01:08,319 --> 01:01:11,322
Is it possible that
that wasn't mine?

1071
01:01:12,082 --> 01:01:14,463
You know, I don't know.

1072
01:01:14,498 --> 01:01:18,502
And if so,
why would God allow that?

1073
01:01:18,536 --> 01:01:22,333
It's just hard, you know.
You don't know what happened.

1074
01:01:22,368 --> 01:01:23,714
And then they explained to me,

1075
01:01:23,749 --> 01:01:26,890
"We've done this before,
we're gonna do this again."

1076
01:01:26,924 --> 01:01:29,858
And I go, what do you mean
they've done this before?

1077
01:01:29,893 --> 01:01:32,896
And then they bring
this little girl in the room.

1078
01:01:32,930 --> 01:01:38,315
She looked to me to be roughly four or five years old.

1079
01:01:38,349 --> 01:01:40,282
She had very thin blond hair.

1080
01:01:40,317 --> 01:01:42,250
Like parted in the middle,
long to about shoulder-length.

1081
01:01:42,284 --> 01:01:46,116
Kind of scraggly.
Very thin blond hair.

1082
01:01:46,150 --> 01:01:48,325
And 'cause I looked
right at her,

1083
01:01:48,359 --> 01:01:50,292
just like I'm looking at you,
and then I went,

1084
01:01:50,327 --> 01:01:53,468
like, I don't want to
look like I'm staring.

1085
01:01:53,502 --> 01:01:55,850
And they immediately
took her out of the room

1086
01:01:55,884 --> 01:01:57,714
and they took her past me out,

1087
01:01:57,748 --> 01:02:00,475
'cause I'm just inside
the doorway, they took her
past me out the door.

1088
01:02:00,509 --> 01:02:02,339
I kind of stepped back into
the hallway.

1089
01:02:02,373 --> 01:02:03,892
They take her down the hallway

1090
01:02:03,927 --> 01:02:06,101
and I go... Uh... Uh...

1091
01:02:06,136 --> 01:02:08,276
And I was like frozen.
I mean, not...

1092
01:02:08,310 --> 01:02:10,485
They didn't do anything to me,
I was just in shock.

1093
01:02:10,519 --> 01:02:13,591
And I wanted to say,
"Wait, bring her back."

1094
01:02:14,731 --> 01:02:19,494
Ever since then,
I had extreme guilt

1095
01:02:19,528 --> 01:02:21,185
that I turned away
from my own child.

1096
01:02:21,220 --> 01:02:26,570
A few decades later, Melinda had a chance to redeem herself.

1097
01:02:26,604 --> 01:02:29,021
Walking in like as if there was
a hallway or something out there

1098
01:02:29,055 --> 01:02:34,267
in this door are these grays
and then, with them
is this adult hybrid.

1099
01:02:34,889 --> 01:02:37,098
And they have her stand there.

1100
01:02:37,132 --> 01:02:38,685
And I looked at her,
and I'm like, "Whoa!"

1101
01:02:38,720 --> 01:02:42,344
Now, bizarre looking,
but beautiful.

1102
01:02:42,379 --> 01:02:46,901
Very thin blond hair,
big forehead, little chin.

1103
01:02:46,935 --> 01:02:48,730
Would not pass for human,

1104
01:02:49,317 --> 01:02:51,112
but yet human enough.

1105
01:02:51,146 --> 01:02:53,977
And I remember thinking,
"Is this her?"

1106
01:02:54,011 --> 01:02:57,325
And then the grays
right next to me
went to introduce her,

1107
01:02:57,359 --> 01:03:00,224
like, "This is..."
kind of a thing.

1108
01:03:00,915 --> 01:03:02,571
And they were like, "Oh!"

1109
01:03:02,606 --> 01:03:05,229
Whether it was the look on my
face, or... It's all telepathy
with them anyways.

1110
01:03:05,264 --> 01:03:08,094
They were like,
"Oh, you know who this is?"

1111
01:03:08,129 --> 01:03:10,683
I said out loud to her,
"I'm sorry."

1112
01:03:11,477 --> 01:03:12,961
I said, "I love you."

1113
01:03:12,996 --> 01:03:14,756
Sorry.

1114
01:03:14,791 --> 01:03:17,034
I didn't think this would be
happening. Sorry.

1115
01:03:17,069 --> 01:03:18,864
I thought...

1116
01:03:19,623 --> 01:03:21,625
Sorry. Just emotional. Sorry.

1117
01:03:23,213 --> 01:03:25,353
I just... I said to her...

1118
01:03:25,387 --> 01:03:27,251
I mean, I had this moment to

1119
01:03:28,494 --> 01:03:30,807
apologize from
all those years from

1120
01:03:31,738 --> 01:03:37,744
25 years of, 24 years of
saying I turned away.

1121
01:03:58,558 --> 01:04:02,010
Common things that you see
when you're listening to
some of these stories

1122
01:04:02,045 --> 01:04:07,188
is the sincerity and the love
that they had already

1123
01:04:07,222 --> 01:04:09,328
that is, um, now taken.

1124
01:04:09,362 --> 01:04:10,812
There is a loss.

1125
01:04:10,847 --> 01:04:13,677
Sometimes people claim
that they carried
a baby to term

1126
01:04:13,711 --> 01:04:15,403
and then the baby disappeared

1127
01:04:15,437 --> 01:04:18,613
seemed to be people with
emotional problems at times.

1128
01:04:18,647 --> 01:04:20,408
But, if that really happened,

1129
01:04:20,442 --> 01:04:23,066
wouldn't someone be
experiencing emotional problems?

1130
01:04:23,100 --> 01:04:26,345
That shouldn't disqualify us
from looking into
these sort of things.

1131
01:04:26,379 --> 01:04:29,279
Especially if there is
any physical evidence.

1132
01:04:29,313 --> 01:04:33,766
Certainly if you're talking
about something that is
seen as taboo or fringe,

1133
01:04:33,800 --> 01:04:38,736
then they're unfortunately not
gonna be as forthcoming
to help people.

1134
01:04:38,771 --> 01:04:40,669
First is
you've had the experience.

1135
01:04:40,704 --> 01:04:43,017
"Am I losing my mind?
What is going on?"

1136
01:04:43,051 --> 01:04:45,916
"Could this really be happening?
What happened to me?"

1137
01:04:45,951 --> 01:04:48,574
Getting over the fear to allow yourself to remember.

1138
01:04:48,608 --> 01:04:50,679
And the trauma of the
loneliness, the separation,

1139
01:04:50,714 --> 01:04:52,923
the feeling like you can't
talk to anyone.

1140
01:04:52,958 --> 01:04:54,752
I mean, you're like
traumatized twice.

1141
01:04:54,787 --> 01:04:58,342
Emotionally, physically,
and to just
make sense of it all.

1142
01:04:58,377 --> 01:05:01,725
'Cause, at this point,
my life is utter chaos.

1143
01:05:01,759 --> 01:05:04,797
I was petrified.

1144
01:05:04,831 --> 01:05:06,523
Petrified, in fear.

1145
01:05:06,557 --> 01:05:10,803
I tried to scream.
I tried to yell out
for my husband.

1146
01:05:10,837 --> 01:05:14,427
I don't know how long
I've sat there frozen.

1147
01:05:14,462 --> 01:05:18,776
'Cause it-it looked at me,
and then it-it leaned back.

1148
01:05:18,811 --> 01:05:21,883
And I was scared
it was right behind that wall,

1149
01:05:21,918 --> 01:05:26,819
and I had to go walk
right past it to get to
my bedroom where my husband was.

1150
01:05:26,853 --> 01:05:31,755
I wasn't ashamed or embarrassed.
I was just too

1151
01:05:32,721 --> 01:05:37,416
emotionally shocked
by the visions,

1152
01:05:37,450 --> 01:05:39,970
by the clarity
of the things that

1153
01:05:40,005 --> 01:05:43,732
not only did I see, but I felt
like they were happening again.

1154
01:05:43,767 --> 01:05:46,873
Now that I know
that the being was

1155
01:05:47,598 --> 01:05:49,635
um, an aggressive being,

1156
01:05:49,669 --> 01:05:52,534
that it was more of a rape.

1157
01:05:52,569 --> 01:05:54,467
I couldn't even talk about it
with him.

1158
01:05:54,502 --> 01:05:56,435
I had to wait a few days
to let him hear the audio,

1159
01:05:56,469 --> 01:05:58,368
'cause I couldn't talk about it.

1160
01:05:58,402 --> 01:06:03,545
You want to do everything
you possibly can to shove it
in a box, to explain it away.

1161
01:06:03,580 --> 01:06:06,065
To make yourself
feel better that

1162
01:06:06,100 --> 01:06:09,862
without your knowledge,
nor your permission

1163
01:06:09,896 --> 01:06:12,969
somebody has used
your body and your DNA

1164
01:06:13,003 --> 01:06:15,937
for their benefit,
for their agenda.

1165
01:06:15,972 --> 01:06:20,183
All of this is happening
without their agreement,

1166
01:06:20,217 --> 01:06:21,770
without their permission.

1167
01:06:21,805 --> 01:06:27,673
And this is
a very important aspect
of the whole phenomenon.

1168
01:06:27,707 --> 01:06:29,364
They knew that
I wasn't gonna remember,

1169
01:06:29,399 --> 01:06:31,746
because they were gonna
work me over with drugs,

1170
01:06:32,229 --> 01:06:34,783
and rape, and...

1171
01:06:35,888 --> 01:06:37,131
And...

1172
01:06:39,064 --> 01:06:43,206
Just a lot of
really, uh, difficult things.

1173
01:06:44,241 --> 01:06:46,416
You know,
really terrifying things.

1174
01:06:46,450 --> 01:06:47,796
You mentioned the word "rape."

1175
01:06:47,831 --> 01:06:50,558
-That's a very powerful word.
-Yeah.

1176
01:06:50,592 --> 01:06:53,319
-Is that really what you felt?
-Oh, yeah.

1177
01:06:53,354 --> 01:06:59,394
Absolutely. Being held down,
you have this non-human
in your face,

1178
01:06:59,429 --> 01:07:02,432
it had claws and it hurt.

1179
01:07:02,466 --> 01:07:08,576
It was definitely
something that was not
wanted or willed for.

1180
01:07:08,610 --> 01:07:12,511
They were each physical.
They were all different.

1181
01:07:13,098 --> 01:07:14,858
Um...

1182
01:07:14,892 --> 01:07:19,863
Sometimes in a sterile setting
like an OR.

1183
01:07:19,897 --> 01:07:24,661
And then unfortunately,
there was times of,
I guess you would say

1184
01:07:25,248 --> 01:07:28,113
it was more of a... Um...

1185
01:07:29,631 --> 01:07:32,531
very public...

1186
01:07:35,430 --> 01:07:39,952
Uh, I would call it
a rape again,
where there was humans.

1187
01:07:39,986 --> 01:07:45,164
I could see human faces along with different species of

1188
01:07:46,269 --> 01:07:48,202
aliens or others.

1189
01:07:48,236 --> 01:07:52,068
They were all
in a big circle and watching

1190
01:07:52,102 --> 01:07:54,000
very silently.

1191
01:07:54,035 --> 01:07:59,834
There was different settings,
different times.

1192
01:07:59,868 --> 01:08:03,009
I've since
really delved into that

1193
01:08:03,044 --> 01:08:05,874
to try to figure out why do they
have people watching.

1194
01:08:05,909 --> 01:08:08,705
I think it was to increase
the level of trauma for me.

1195
01:08:09,326 --> 01:08:10,948
And, uh...

1196
01:08:10,983 --> 01:08:13,261
And I think some of the people
there watching

1197
01:08:13,296 --> 01:08:15,677
didn't want to
be there watching.

1198
01:08:15,712 --> 01:08:18,749
But they may have been
scientists working on things

1199
01:08:18,784 --> 01:08:22,960
and they may have been
forced to watch that

1200
01:08:22,995 --> 01:08:26,585
to know what would happen to
their wives or their daughters

1201
01:08:26,619 --> 01:08:29,139
if they ever talked about
what they were working on.

1202
01:08:29,174 --> 01:08:31,555
The weird thing is
I couldn't close my eyes.

1203
01:08:31,590 --> 01:08:37,043
It was having to physically
have your eyes open,

1204
01:08:37,078 --> 01:08:38,735
see this being,

1205
01:08:39,287 --> 01:08:40,771
um...

1206
01:08:40,806 --> 01:08:43,602
feel it, hear it, smell it.

1207
01:08:44,050 --> 01:08:47,399
Very, very real.

1208
01:08:47,433 --> 01:08:52,749
Unfortunately, part of this
process also left me with fear.

1209
01:08:53,612 --> 01:08:57,650
Fear of rejection,
fear of ridicule.

1210
01:08:58,272 --> 01:09:00,515
Um... Fear of judgment.

1211
01:09:00,550 --> 01:09:03,587
But through the process it was

1212
01:09:03,622 --> 01:09:08,937
my own judgement
that caused probably
the most chaos in my life.

1213
01:09:08,972 --> 01:09:13,597
But the initial reaction
is often one of trauma.

1214
01:09:13,632 --> 01:09:15,668
Because you're dealing
with the unknown.

1215
01:09:15,703 --> 01:09:19,810
You can be afraid of it.
You can be uncertain
and have self-doubt.

1216
01:09:19,845 --> 01:09:24,643
And you might realize
you're having post-traumatic
stress disorder.

1217
01:09:24,677 --> 01:09:28,474
PTSD is all the same symptoms.

1218
01:09:28,509 --> 01:09:32,996
When we all suffer a trauma,
we suffer the same symptoms.

1219
01:09:33,030 --> 01:09:36,206
And UFO abduction
is no different.

1220
01:09:36,241 --> 01:09:38,001
I-It's trauma.

1221
01:09:38,035 --> 01:09:40,141
And then you have to deal
with trauma all over again,

1222
01:09:40,176 --> 01:09:43,248
because then comes the fear of
what is anyone else gonna say?

1223
01:09:43,282 --> 01:09:45,560
Do I tell my spouse? My partner?

1224
01:09:45,595 --> 01:09:47,528
Do I tell my parents?
Do I... You know.

1225
01:09:47,562 --> 01:09:48,908
And what are they gonna say?

1226
01:09:48,943 --> 01:09:52,774
And heaven forbid that person
be negative towards you,

1227
01:09:52,809 --> 01:09:55,191
you're traumatized
all over again.

1228
01:09:56,882 --> 01:09:59,402
And a sense
of growing isolation

1229
01:09:59,436 --> 01:10:03,440
only intensifies the trauma
for experiencers.

1230
01:10:03,475 --> 01:10:06,754
I know this is
hard to articulate,
but how do you describe

1231
01:10:06,788 --> 01:10:09,170
what it's like to be someone
who's had

1232
01:10:09,205 --> 01:10:13,657
tremendous
extraordinary experiences
that no one believes?

1233
01:10:15,072 --> 01:10:18,075
When you're in
a crowd of people,

1234
01:10:19,594 --> 01:10:22,390
and you just stand there

1235
01:10:23,702 --> 01:10:28,603
and it's like you're not moving,
but everybody else is,

1236
01:10:28,638 --> 01:10:30,743
and the camera's kind of
spinning around,

1237
01:10:30,778 --> 01:10:32,676
so you have this dizzy
spinning feeling.

1238
01:10:32,711 --> 01:10:34,471
It's like that. It's like that.

1239
01:10:34,506 --> 01:10:37,854
It's like I'm standing
still and the world is
moving around me.

1240
01:10:37,888 --> 01:10:40,822
I felt it was important for me

1241
01:10:40,857 --> 01:10:45,896
to tell as many people
as I possibly could.

1242
01:10:45,931 --> 01:10:47,657
The interesting thing was,

1243
01:10:47,691 --> 01:10:51,247
as I witnessed this,
I'm excited, I'm terrified,

1244
01:10:51,281 --> 01:10:53,456
I'm going through
all of these emotions,

1245
01:10:53,490 --> 01:10:56,321
and I'm telling people, "Hey!
Oh, my God, I'm so excited.

1246
01:10:56,355 --> 01:10:58,978
"You're not gonna believe this."
I'm getting...

1247
01:10:59,013 --> 01:11:03,259
"Bullshit." And I'm like,
"Bullshit"? Dude!

1248
01:11:03,293 --> 01:11:06,331
At that moment I realized
I got a problem here.

1249
01:11:06,365 --> 01:11:10,852
I got a serious problem here,
and that is,
no one's gonna believe it.

1250
01:11:10,887 --> 01:11:13,234
Constantly, as an abductee,
you wonder,

1251
01:11:13,269 --> 01:11:15,305
"Am I choosing to
see this in a positive way,

1252
01:11:15,340 --> 01:11:17,445
"'cause I'm forced to have to
deal with it and live with it

1253
01:11:17,480 --> 01:11:18,929
"and I have to
integrate my life

1254
01:11:18,964 --> 01:11:20,862
"and that's how
I've come to terms with it."

1255
01:11:20,897 --> 01:11:23,382
Or is this the way it really is?

1256
01:11:23,417 --> 01:11:25,902
And I constantly
battle with that.

1257
01:11:25,936 --> 01:11:28,318
I didn't even want to
research more than

1258
01:11:28,353 --> 01:11:30,562
just looking superficially
at what happened,

1259
01:11:30,596 --> 01:11:32,667
because I was like,
"What's the point?"

1260
01:11:32,702 --> 01:11:34,669
Like, "Okay,
it happens to people."

1261
01:11:34,704 --> 01:11:35,981
"Maybe it happened to me."

1262
01:11:36,015 --> 01:11:38,880
Oh, well, that's fine.
Let's just keep going.

1263
01:11:38,915 --> 01:11:41,573
But it was a pain.
It was internal struggle inside.

1264
01:11:41,607 --> 01:11:44,921
It's like living two lives,
being two different people.

1265
01:11:44,955 --> 01:11:49,201
The two life split. I call it
Life A and Life B, right.

1266
01:11:49,235 --> 01:11:55,587
And at Life A, you have Rob,
which now is Rob the painter.

1267
01:11:55,621 --> 01:11:59,315
And Rob the painter,
he goes to work,

1268
01:11:59,349 --> 01:12:01,351
he pays his bills,

1269
01:12:01,386 --> 01:12:04,423
hangs out with his buds,
you know.

1270
01:12:04,458 --> 01:12:06,183
He does things that people do.

1271
01:12:06,218 --> 01:12:10,740
Life B is what I could say
my true self,

1272
01:12:10,774 --> 01:12:14,640
'cause I'm interacting with
you guys and I'm more free
and more open.

1273
01:12:14,675 --> 01:12:19,369
Not talking about it doesn't help you integrate with the experience

1274
01:12:19,404 --> 01:12:22,338
and suppressing a tremendous amount of emotion.

1275
01:12:23,960 --> 01:12:28,136
I would feel torn and there were
times when I would break down

1276
01:12:28,171 --> 01:12:29,862
and I would cry
about these things,

1277
01:12:29,897 --> 01:12:32,071
because I couldn't express
myself and talk about them.

1278
01:12:32,106 --> 01:12:36,110
There was nobody
that could understand
what I was going through.

1279
01:12:36,144 --> 01:12:39,355
I realized at the moment
I was going to tell him

1280
01:12:39,389 --> 01:12:40,459
how it sounded.

1281
01:12:40,494 --> 01:12:43,600
And I thought, "Oh, my God.
what am I gonna say?"

1282
01:12:43,635 --> 01:12:46,396
I saw, and what am I
gonna say happened

1283
01:12:46,431 --> 01:12:49,399
and are the kids okay?
And, you know...

1284
01:12:49,434 --> 01:12:50,642
It just sounded...

1285
01:12:50,676 --> 01:12:53,127
I mean, I was just
so scared and petrified.

1286
01:12:53,161 --> 01:12:54,922
And I knew it sounded crazy.

1287
01:12:54,956 --> 01:12:59,823
I knew when I was saying it
out loud to him that
it didn't sound believable.

1288
01:12:59,858 --> 01:13:02,378
But I also knew
what had just happened.

1289
01:13:02,412 --> 01:13:07,106
So it was very hard to make him
understand what I had just seen.

1290
01:13:07,141 --> 01:13:09,419
I didn't know what to do.
And so I said,

1291
01:13:09,454 --> 01:13:13,078
"Please. You have to...
Do you believe me?
Do you believe me?"

1292
01:13:13,112 --> 01:13:15,736
And he said,
"I believe that you believe it."

1293
01:13:15,770 --> 01:13:21,397
You feel alone. You feel
as though there's absolutely
nobody else in the world

1294
01:13:21,431 --> 01:13:23,088
that could understand.

1295
01:13:23,122 --> 01:13:27,126
And you try and explain
and you realize you don't have
the language to explain.

1296
01:13:27,161 --> 01:13:28,921
You don't even know
what's going on.

1297
01:13:28,956 --> 01:13:32,062
How can somebody else
commiserate with you?

1298
01:13:32,442 --> 01:13:33,719
They can't.

1299
01:13:33,754 --> 01:13:38,448
And then there's the aspect of
now they're worried about me.

1300
01:13:38,483 --> 01:13:40,795
Now they see me struggling.

1301
01:13:40,830 --> 01:13:44,868
Now they're worried about
my mental capacities.

1302
01:13:44,903 --> 01:13:49,045
They're worried about
my emotional stability.

1303
01:13:49,079 --> 01:13:50,702
And they should be.

1304
01:13:50,736 --> 01:13:54,430
'Cause I'm emotionally
all over the place.
I'm mentally all over the place.

1305
01:13:55,189 --> 01:13:57,087
I'm not okay, but I'm good.

1306
01:13:57,122 --> 01:13:58,986
It's become an intimate
part of my life.

1307
01:13:59,020 --> 01:14:02,023
I'm fully integrated
into this now.

1308
01:14:03,231 --> 01:14:06,787
Does that mean technically
I don't exist to other people,

1309
01:14:06,821 --> 01:14:11,308
'cause I exist outside of
the realm of what
they believe is possible.

1310
01:14:11,343 --> 01:14:14,242
It is difficult, but...

1311
01:14:14,277 --> 01:14:16,486
So, yes, not everyone needs
to go public by any means.

1312
01:14:16,521 --> 01:14:19,420
But recall your memories.
Get some support.

1313
01:14:19,455 --> 01:14:21,698
Meet some other people
you can talk to.

1314
01:14:21,733 --> 01:14:23,320
You're not alone.

1315
01:14:43,548 --> 01:14:45,964
Once you start
to remember some experiences,

1316
01:14:45,998 --> 01:14:48,207
once you explore...

1317
01:14:48,242 --> 01:14:50,865
So, if you think
you've had experiences,

1318
01:14:50,900 --> 01:14:54,938
first is gather your evidence,
I'm always telling people this.

1319
01:14:54,973 --> 01:14:58,528
Gather things like,
draw your experiences.

1320
01:14:58,563 --> 01:15:01,566
Take photos of bruises
and marks and scars,

1321
01:15:01,600 --> 01:15:04,569
scoop marks and other scars
that appear overnight.

1322
01:15:04,603 --> 01:15:08,745
Needle marks, you know...
Take pictures, because later
you'll have those pictures.

1323
01:15:08,780 --> 01:15:13,509
Even if you never show
anyone else, it shows you
that that was real.

1324
01:15:13,543 --> 01:15:16,684
And then work with
a hypnotherapist
to recall memory.

1325
01:15:16,719 --> 01:15:20,585
If you have little bits
and pieces, or like you
were saying, screen memories

1326
01:15:20,619 --> 01:15:24,140
then work with someone,
get that recalled.

1327
01:15:24,174 --> 01:15:26,245
And when you look at
a number of cases

1328
01:15:26,280 --> 01:15:28,972
that have been extracted
through hypnotic regression,

1329
01:15:29,007 --> 01:15:33,805
which, okay, sometimes people
will question that
as a methodology.

1330
01:15:33,839 --> 01:15:35,738
But nonetheless,

1331
01:15:36,911 --> 01:15:39,293
there are a lot of women
who will remember

1332
01:15:39,327 --> 01:15:42,365
the embryo or fetus
being taken out of them.

1333
01:15:42,399 --> 01:15:49,061
Many of the people
who've come to me
wonder, "Why me?

1334
01:15:49,096 --> 01:15:52,237
"Why are these unusual things
happening to me?

1335
01:15:52,271 --> 01:15:54,308
"I didn't ask for this.

1336
01:15:54,342 --> 01:15:56,172
"I didn't give my permission."

1337
01:15:56,206 --> 01:16:00,970
The most important thing
is that I tell 'em is to get
the information out.

1338
01:16:01,004 --> 01:16:03,006
Bring it forward, verbalize it.

1339
01:16:03,041 --> 01:16:06,251
Whatever's in there,
if it needs to come out

1340
01:16:06,285 --> 01:16:07,908
to make this world
a better place,

1341
01:16:07,942 --> 01:16:10,600
then I guess
I gotta do the deal.

1342
01:16:10,635 --> 01:16:12,119
I gotta pursue it.

1343
01:16:12,153 --> 01:16:17,400
They are so ready to know,
to go through the process,

1344
01:16:17,434 --> 01:16:22,232
'cause they're so tired
of all the years of wondering

1345
01:16:22,267 --> 01:16:25,581
and having the recurring dreams.

1346
01:16:26,651 --> 01:16:30,482
Having the fear
of what they don't know.

1347
01:16:30,516 --> 01:16:35,211
'Cause suppressing that
is not gonna help them
with the healing process.

1348
01:16:35,245 --> 01:16:40,526
Brian is the most
important person alive to me
on this journey.

1349
01:16:40,561 --> 01:16:42,356
He's my rock.

1350
01:16:42,390 --> 01:16:46,463
Not only is it comforting,
but it's acceptance,

1351
01:16:46,498 --> 01:16:49,812
it's, "We are gonna get
through this together."

1352
01:16:49,846 --> 01:16:51,917
"We are gonna
make it together."

1353
01:16:51,952 --> 01:16:54,748
There was an article
he read on MSN

1354
01:16:54,782 --> 01:16:59,649
of a young man that
went to a hypnotherapist in LA.

1355
01:16:59,684 --> 01:17:04,378
that helped him to place
the nightmares into place,

1356
01:17:04,412 --> 01:17:09,348
the events that were missing
are traumatizing to him.

1357
01:17:09,383 --> 01:17:11,903
That article on MSN had

1358
01:17:11,937 --> 01:17:14,664
really broke the ice for him.

1359
01:17:14,699 --> 01:17:18,219
"My wife needs to talk to
someone about these nightmares."

1360
01:17:18,254 --> 01:17:20,256
When someone
contacts me for the first time,

1361
01:17:20,290 --> 01:17:23,466
I initially
will send them information

1362
01:17:23,500 --> 01:17:27,366
about hypnosis
and what it entails,

1363
01:17:27,401 --> 01:17:30,300
and about support group.

1364
01:17:30,335 --> 01:17:34,926
And that they must
think about this,
uh, carefully,

1365
01:17:34,960 --> 01:17:40,310
because once the information
comes forward,
we can't put it back.

1366
01:17:40,345 --> 01:17:45,177
You know, once the toothpaste
is out of the tube,
you can't shove it back in.

1367
01:17:45,212 --> 01:17:47,283
They send me their
questionnaire, I review it.

1368
01:17:47,317 --> 01:17:49,457
They come in
for their first session.

1369
01:17:49,492 --> 01:17:51,701
I schedule two hours
for each person.

1370
01:17:51,736 --> 01:17:53,530
We sit and talk

1371
01:17:53,565 --> 01:17:57,949
about what's happened to them,
and where they wanna start.

1372
01:17:57,983 --> 01:18:00,986
It begins to feel different.

1373
01:18:01,021 --> 01:18:05,301
It begins to feel
more acceptable to them.

1374
01:18:05,335 --> 01:18:09,892
And that's one reason
why I think it's very worthwhile

1375
01:18:09,926 --> 01:18:16,139
if a person is doing some work
and recalling the details

1376
01:18:16,174 --> 01:18:19,418
of being part of
this hybrid program,

1377
01:18:19,453 --> 01:18:24,009
and realizing more
of the complete picture.

1378
01:18:24,044 --> 01:18:27,806
Now, with April,
when I received
her questionnaires,

1379
01:18:27,841 --> 01:18:29,083
red flags were going up.

1380
01:18:29,118 --> 01:18:32,708
"Okay," I thought, "Okay,
this sounds likes she-she's had

1381
01:18:33,639 --> 01:18:36,608
"a tremendous
amount of-of miscarriages."

1382
01:18:36,642 --> 01:18:38,990
When I see that
from a questionnaire,

1383
01:18:39,024 --> 01:18:43,028
I know this is gonna be
a very emotional session.

1384
01:18:43,063 --> 01:18:44,927
I was definitely a skeptic.

1385
01:18:44,961 --> 01:18:49,310
I did not believe that the mind
would be able to remember
anything from the past,

1386
01:18:49,345 --> 01:18:53,176
or any type of trauma,
any type of unknown.

1387
01:18:53,211 --> 01:18:56,628
Of course, as everybody
will tell, "I don't think
I can be hypnotized."

1388
01:18:56,662 --> 01:19:00,770
And I try to relax them and say,
"Everybody can."

1389
01:19:00,805 --> 01:19:05,430
"It's just a matter of you
deciding to allow me
to be your facilitator."

1390
01:19:05,464 --> 01:19:08,329
In the very beginning,
Yvonne and I,

1391
01:19:08,364 --> 01:19:10,055
privately, just me
and her talked.

1392
01:19:10,090 --> 01:19:14,439
The very beginning of what was
going on in my life at the time.

1393
01:19:14,473 --> 01:19:16,406
She kind of got to know me.

1394
01:19:16,441 --> 01:19:19,616
Before we even go in hypnosis,
I tell 'em,

1395
01:19:19,651 --> 01:19:22,654
"You're gonna
relive what happened.

1396
01:19:22,688 --> 01:19:26,520
"But I want you to just
tell me what's going on,

1397
01:19:26,554 --> 01:19:31,249
"and I will use different
techniques that you
don't have to experience

1398
01:19:31,283 --> 01:19:33,803
"the pain or the fear.

1399
01:19:33,838 --> 01:19:37,324
"But you can always tell me,
'I wanna stop.'

1400
01:19:37,358 --> 01:19:39,947
"And I'll always ask you,
'Do you wanna go on?'"

1401
01:19:39,982 --> 01:19:41,328
And then she walked me through.

1402
01:19:41,362 --> 01:19:44,020
"April, I want you to lay down.
I want you to relax.

1403
01:19:44,055 --> 01:19:45,366
"Pick a happy thought.

1404
01:19:45,401 --> 01:19:48,266
"Happy place, relaxing place."

1405
01:19:48,300 --> 01:19:50,371
And she walked me
through the steps.

1406
01:19:50,406 --> 01:19:55,652
Her voice was very tranquil.
It was very relaxing.

1407
01:19:55,687 --> 01:19:59,346
Before I knew it,
I was talking
with my eyes shut,

1408
01:19:59,380 --> 01:20:01,589
and I felt so heavy.

1409
01:20:01,624 --> 01:20:07,699
I felt like there was
a warm blanket around me.
I felt secure.

1410
01:20:07,733 --> 01:20:11,599
And she just slowly started
taking me to my happy place.

1411
01:20:11,634 --> 01:20:13,878
Walking me down these steps,

1412
01:20:13,912 --> 01:20:17,467
counting backwards, 15, 14...

1413
01:20:17,502 --> 01:20:21,471
And then, we started talking
about the things I would see.

1414
01:20:21,506 --> 01:20:23,646
Things I would hear.

1415
01:20:23,680 --> 01:20:25,717
And the more and more
she spoke to me,

1416
01:20:25,751 --> 01:20:30,446
the more and more my mind began
activating the nightmares.

1417
01:20:30,480 --> 01:20:35,071
I would hear and see,
and even smell

1418
01:20:35,106 --> 01:20:40,525
some of the things that I had
previously had
night terrors about.

1419
01:20:40,559 --> 01:20:42,561
After the session was over,

1420
01:20:42,596 --> 01:20:45,875
April was, of course,
in total disbelief

1421
01:20:45,910 --> 01:20:50,604
that she had experienced
what she did in hypnosis.

1422
01:20:50,638 --> 01:20:52,295
They're gonna remember more,

1423
01:20:52,330 --> 01:20:55,333
'cause whatever information
is important to them,

1424
01:20:55,367 --> 01:20:57,369
they're gonna remember more.

1425
01:20:57,404 --> 01:21:00,925
Regression therapy
has become popular within
the UFO experiencer world,

1426
01:21:00,959 --> 01:21:05,136
because it helps abductees
better understand what
may have happened.

1427
01:21:05,170 --> 01:21:08,139
Connecting with others
who have had
similar experiences

1428
01:21:08,173 --> 01:21:09,934
is critically important, too.

1429
01:21:10,693 --> 01:21:11,901
It is a community of people.

1430
01:21:11,936 --> 01:21:14,939
Everyone knows each other,
kind of, sort of.

1431
01:21:14,973 --> 01:21:17,044
But the thing that's
important here is that

1432
01:21:17,079 --> 01:21:20,530
when you talk about
a particular group of people

1433
01:21:20,565 --> 01:21:21,980
that are watching
a particular movie,

1434
01:21:22,015 --> 01:21:23,913
and it makes them feel like
they can now come clean

1435
01:21:23,948 --> 01:21:26,433
with something that
they've been bothered by,

1436
01:21:27,468 --> 01:21:31,265
that is the dialog that we want.

1437
01:21:31,300 --> 01:21:33,647
But you've got to understand,
and you do,

1438
01:21:33,681 --> 01:21:36,236
that along with that
comes the other people

1439
01:21:36,270 --> 01:21:41,517
that see an opportunity
to become important.

1440
01:21:41,551 --> 01:21:44,554
And they do it
to become important.
They do it to make money.

1441
01:21:44,589 --> 01:21:46,142
They do it for
all these other reasons.

1442
01:21:46,177 --> 01:21:47,730
They do it for
all the human reasons.

1443
01:21:47,764 --> 01:21:51,216
And that's something that again,
signal and noise.

1444
01:21:51,251 --> 01:21:55,669
The signal is the gem, the noise
is the stuff we wanna get out.

1445
01:21:55,703 --> 01:21:58,568
Hearing other people's accounts will make you go,

1446
01:21:58,603 --> 01:22:00,777
"Okay, I'm not crazy.
I'm not alone."

1447
01:22:00,812 --> 01:22:03,815
And those other people
can be extremely supportive.

1448
01:22:03,849 --> 01:22:06,645
Especially if they're
an abductee that's
lived with it for a while.

1449
01:22:06,680 --> 01:22:10,235
They've gone through all those
emotional highs and lows,

1450
01:22:10,270 --> 01:22:12,548
and those moments of
doubt and confusion

1451
01:22:12,582 --> 01:22:14,032
and all those things
that can help you.

1452
01:22:14,067 --> 01:22:17,863
The very first time
I went to a "support group,"

1453
01:22:17,898 --> 01:22:22,661
the idea that I wasn't alone and
I wasn't crazy, was incredible.

1454
01:22:22,696 --> 01:22:24,698
And that we were there
supporting each other,

1455
01:22:24,732 --> 01:22:26,286
because something happened,

1456
01:22:26,320 --> 01:22:30,083
and we all believe
that in some way
we were contacted or abducted.

1457
01:22:30,117 --> 01:22:32,706
The next step of
me accepting that it was real

1458
01:22:32,740 --> 01:22:36,296
was speaking to the people that
were near me when it happened.

1459
01:22:36,330 --> 01:22:39,747
And having them validate.
"Yep. That happened."

1460
01:22:39,782 --> 01:22:41,542
It's the most
important thing ever.

1461
01:22:41,577 --> 01:22:42,819
It's the most
important thing ever.

1462
01:22:42,854 --> 01:22:45,581
You have to search out others.
You have to.

1463
01:22:45,615 --> 01:22:49,447
If you're going through
something, reach out.

1464
01:22:49,481 --> 01:22:51,587
Dana wasn't alone
in her experiences.

1465
01:22:51,621 --> 01:22:54,659
More than 20 years later,
members of her community

1466
01:22:54,693 --> 01:22:57,455
still get together
to discuss what happened.

1467
01:22:57,489 --> 01:22:59,940
Support group
meets once a month.

1468
01:22:59,975 --> 01:23:03,564
And, um, there's probably
30 people that come and go.

1469
01:23:03,599 --> 01:23:06,429
Not everybody
comes to every single meeting.

1470
01:23:06,464 --> 01:23:09,191
But there's a lot of people who
don't come to the support group

1471
01:23:09,225 --> 01:23:13,885
that have had experiences
that I've spoken with,

1472
01:23:13,919 --> 01:23:16,232
and that network could be
as large as 60.

1473
01:23:16,267 --> 01:23:19,684
The most important thing
is to talk about it
and express yourself.

1474
01:23:19,718 --> 01:23:22,514
And the more that we
talk about it,
you're doing two things.

1475
01:23:22,549 --> 01:23:26,277
Energetically you're
raising the vibration in
the collective consciousness,

1476
01:23:26,311 --> 01:23:28,658
because now whoever
is listening to you

1477
01:23:28,693 --> 01:23:32,421
is opening, is planting a seed
of new information.

1478
01:23:32,455 --> 01:23:35,010
Secondly, you're helping
yourself energetically

1479
01:23:35,044 --> 01:23:37,702
because now you're no longer
containing that energy.

1480
01:23:37,736 --> 01:23:41,292
Any kind of emotion, feelings,
thoughts that is suppressed

1481
01:23:41,326 --> 01:23:44,674
causes illness
and stagnation of energy.

1482
01:23:44,709 --> 01:23:46,193
Get it out, one way or another.

1483
01:23:46,228 --> 01:23:48,954
Whether it's to your neighbor, your friend, it doesn't matter.

1484
01:23:48,989 --> 01:23:51,716
The more we talk about this,
with whoever we talk about it,

1485
01:23:51,750 --> 01:23:54,132
it's like we're
planting the seed
in like a domino effect.

1486
01:23:54,167 --> 01:23:58,861
More people will at least have
heard it once in their lifetime.

1487
01:23:58,895 --> 01:24:00,966
And that's all
we need sometimes.

1488
01:24:01,001 --> 01:24:07,283
And that knowledge,
that support that I got
from that contact group

1489
01:24:07,318 --> 01:24:08,664
is probably the greatest gift.

1490
01:24:08,698 --> 01:24:11,770
And so I can say today, "Yes,

1491
01:24:11,805 --> 01:24:16,120
"I am a lonely one,
but I'm not the only one."

1492
01:24:16,154 --> 01:24:20,848
It's anyone's guess how big
this phenomenon really is,

1493
01:24:20,883 --> 01:24:22,988
considering all
the other investigators that

1494
01:24:23,023 --> 01:24:26,440
probably have had as many
phone calls and interactions
as I have.

1495
01:24:26,475 --> 01:24:28,373
Now, having been in this field
for a long time,

1496
01:24:28,408 --> 01:24:32,446
uncovered the stories,
helped run conferences
and stuff like this,

1497
01:24:32,481 --> 01:24:34,828
I mean, I helped run the UFO Congress.

1498
01:24:34,862 --> 01:24:39,108
And we have at the congress
alone, you know,

1499
01:24:39,143 --> 01:24:41,938
a huge percentage of the people that come to that conference,

1500
01:24:41,973 --> 01:24:45,114
come to these
experiencer meetings

1501
01:24:45,149 --> 01:24:47,737
where people come
and share their experiences.

1502
01:24:47,772 --> 01:24:51,016
In fact, it makes up a large
percentage of the people.

1503
01:24:51,051 --> 01:24:53,053
And if there are
thousands of people sharing

1504
01:24:53,088 --> 01:24:57,506
that they have these
sort of experiences,
and talk to others,

1505
01:24:57,540 --> 01:24:59,784
there's probably a number
who believe that

1506
01:24:59,818 --> 01:25:02,097
and aren't
sharing it with people.

1507
01:25:02,131 --> 01:25:04,720
So, the numbers,
I think, are staggering.

1508
01:25:04,754 --> 01:25:07,516
That's why, you know,
it deserves attention.

1509
01:25:07,550 --> 01:25:12,659
The patterns and the data
are significant,
and they have to be appreciated.

1510
01:25:12,693 --> 01:25:14,730
It doesn't mean
that it's absolute fact,

1511
01:25:14,764 --> 01:25:17,560
and we go on to some ideology
about interpreting it

1512
01:25:17,595 --> 01:25:22,703
and we get all hell-bent on
going back in our boxes based
on our own interpretation.

1513
01:25:22,738 --> 01:25:25,672
I think it's fair to appreciate
the patterns and the data,

1514
01:25:25,706 --> 01:25:27,846
and let the patterns
speak for themselves,

1515
01:25:27,881 --> 01:25:32,610
and let the human responses
be mature and evolved

1516
01:25:32,644 --> 01:25:34,853
and responsible
individually and collectively.

1517
01:25:34,888 --> 01:25:36,648
What else can we ask for?

1518
01:25:36,683 --> 01:25:39,617
D'ANTONIO: The wider
your audience, the more
noise you're gonna get.

1519
01:25:39,651 --> 01:25:41,998
But you're gonna get
more signal, too.

1520
01:25:43,310 --> 01:25:46,313
And that signal, being louder,

1521
01:25:46,348 --> 01:25:49,282
maybe there'll be some
qualifications or some
characteristics

1522
01:25:49,316 --> 01:25:53,631
of that signal that'll make it
more obvious to discern
from the noise.

1523
01:25:53,665 --> 01:25:56,392
And guess what?
We only need one.

1524
01:25:56,427 --> 01:25:58,843
We only need one
good, solid signal.

1525
01:25:58,877 --> 01:26:01,880
That's it. Question answered.
We can all go home. You know?

1526
01:26:01,915 --> 01:26:03,606
Right? But, until then,

1527
01:26:03,641 --> 01:26:05,298
we have to just
keep doing what we do

1528
01:26:05,332 --> 01:26:10,026
and we have to keep trying to
wade through all the data.

1529
01:26:10,061 --> 01:26:13,651
It's more than mountains. It's planetoids worth of data.

1530
01:26:13,685 --> 01:26:16,757
But the one thing
we have is consciousness.

1531
01:26:16,792 --> 01:26:19,933
That's our secret weapon,

1532
01:26:19,967 --> 01:26:23,557
is this ability to break
those boundaries.

1533
01:26:23,592 --> 01:26:26,802
To break the matrix.
We can all do that.

1534
01:26:26,836 --> 01:26:29,494
That's actually something
every single person can do,

1535
01:26:29,529 --> 01:26:33,222
is break those chains,
those mental chains.

1536
01:27:01,285 --> 01:27:04,909
D'ANTONIO: The elk
being tagged by us
don't get a choice.

1537
01:27:05,910 --> 01:27:08,499
And they get shot with
tranquilizer darts.

1538
01:27:08,533 --> 01:27:12,675
They go, "What's happening?"
And then, bam,
they put this tag in their ear.

1539
01:27:12,710 --> 01:27:14,850
Well, you know, we're not
giving them a choice.

1540
01:27:14,884 --> 01:27:18,578
And the aliens aren't giving
many of us a choice perhaps,
if they're doing that.

1541
01:27:18,612 --> 01:27:23,065
As we say, we're gonna pretend
that's actually happening.
It may very well be.

1542
01:27:23,099 --> 01:27:26,793
So that tells me
that they don't consider us

1543
01:27:26,827 --> 01:27:29,036
any kind of elevated being.

1544
01:27:29,071 --> 01:27:31,936
It means that
we are not considered

1545
01:27:33,558 --> 01:27:36,872
beings worth telling this to,

1546
01:27:36,906 --> 01:27:38,460
telling that they're
being abducted.

1547
01:27:38,494 --> 01:27:40,979
It means that they don't,
these beings that are
doing the abducting,

1548
01:27:41,014 --> 01:27:44,293
don't have the same morality
as we do.

1549
01:27:44,328 --> 01:27:48,953
We have got to remember
that we're dealing with

1550
01:27:48,987 --> 01:27:52,646
probably the most
significant event

1551
01:27:52,681 --> 01:27:55,442
that human beings
could ever imagine.

1552
01:27:55,477 --> 01:27:57,893
It's the arrival, the presence,

1553
01:27:57,927 --> 01:28:01,379
of others who are
so far advanced.

1554
01:28:01,414 --> 01:28:02,967
And they're here,
and they're dealing with us,

1555
01:28:03,001 --> 01:28:04,693
and they've got
their own agenda.

1556
01:28:04,727 --> 01:28:07,903
And the only way that we're
really going to be able to make
sense of it

1557
01:28:07,937 --> 01:28:09,732
is by working together.

1558
01:28:09,767 --> 01:28:11,424
By sharing information,

1559
01:28:11,458 --> 01:28:13,943
and learning and gaining
strengths from each other,

1560
01:28:13,978 --> 01:28:16,394
and giving strength
to each other as well.

1561
01:28:16,429 --> 01:28:18,154
More and more people are coming

1562
01:28:18,189 --> 01:28:22,435
who've had
the extraterrestrial encounters.

1563
01:28:22,469 --> 01:28:25,748
But if you are wondering

1564
01:28:25,783 --> 01:28:29,407
what their special
mission is...

1565
01:28:29,442 --> 01:28:30,822
And usually I'm finding out,

1566
01:28:30,857 --> 01:28:33,860
they're already doing
quite a bit of that mission.

1567
01:28:33,894 --> 01:28:37,001
It's easy to say that,
"I'm suppressed.

1568
01:28:37,035 --> 01:28:40,418
"I can't do this,
because they won't let me."

1569
01:28:40,453 --> 01:28:43,870
It's easier to say that
than to do the hard work

1570
01:28:43,904 --> 01:28:45,423
to make it happen.

1571
01:28:45,458 --> 01:28:50,221
And the people who
do the hard work
to make these things happen

1572
01:28:50,255 --> 01:28:54,225
are making these things happen.
And that's what it takes.

1573
01:28:54,259 --> 01:28:57,849
The abductees that go public
are risking that ridicule.

1574
01:28:57,884 --> 01:29:02,060
They're risking not only
the person watching this,
John Q. Public going,

1575
01:29:02,095 --> 01:29:04,442
"I don't believe it.
It's hogwash.
It's nonsense. No."

1576
01:29:04,477 --> 01:29:07,445
Or the science community...

1577
01:29:07,480 --> 01:29:09,171
They're risking
their own family.

1578
01:29:09,205 --> 01:29:13,209
I know a medical doctor who lost
his license over this subject.

1579
01:29:14,970 --> 01:29:16,247
Lost his being a medic...

1580
01:29:16,281 --> 01:29:18,491
He was an amazing
medical doctor.
Worked with kids.

1581
01:29:18,525 --> 01:29:19,871
Lost his licence.

1582
01:29:19,906 --> 01:29:23,392
I know an abductee who...
I know multiple abductees

1583
01:29:23,427 --> 01:29:25,808
who've been divorced
over this subject.

1584
01:29:25,843 --> 01:29:27,603
And I know
one whose children...

1585
01:29:27,638 --> 01:29:30,468
When she went public,
her children disowned her.

1586
01:29:32,228 --> 01:29:34,852
No, it's...
Sorry I'm getting
all emotional here.

1587
01:29:35,542 --> 01:29:37,372
But I tell you, man.

1588
01:29:37,406 --> 01:29:39,235
There's no reason
to go public about this,

1589
01:29:39,270 --> 01:29:42,169
other than to help other people
that have had it happen,

1590
01:29:42,204 --> 01:29:46,277
and try to convince a public
that doesn't want to hear it

1591
01:29:46,311 --> 01:29:47,899
that this is real.

1592
01:29:47,934 --> 01:29:50,557
You guys, this may have
everything to do with
the future of the human race

1593
01:29:50,592 --> 01:29:52,317
and where we're going.

1594
01:29:52,352 --> 01:29:55,148
Educate yourself,
be open-minded.

1595
01:29:55,873 --> 01:29:57,875
Read, go to a UFO conference.

1596
01:29:57,909 --> 01:30:01,085
See the researchers
present the good evidence.

1597
01:30:01,119 --> 01:30:02,293
Make up your own mind.

1598
01:30:02,327 --> 01:30:06,193
Don't let anyone
ever tell you how to think.

1599
01:30:06,228 --> 01:30:09,058
Make up your own mind
about everything in life.

1600
01:30:09,093 --> 01:30:12,855
If you've got thousands of
people that say this is
an ongoing process,

1601
01:30:12,890 --> 01:30:15,030
they've been subject to it,

1602
01:30:15,064 --> 01:30:18,654
at what point do you say
they're all lying or
they're all telling the truth,

1603
01:30:18,689 --> 01:30:21,001
or some of them are lying
and some of them
are telling the truth?

1604
01:30:21,036 --> 01:30:23,279
I mean,
where do you draw that line?

1605
01:30:23,314 --> 01:30:25,592
Well, unless
it's happened to you,
it's just a story.

1606
01:30:25,627 --> 01:30:29,941
If you experience it,
it changes you to the core.

1607
01:30:31,011 --> 01:30:33,048
And that's the point, I think.

1608
01:30:33,082 --> 01:30:36,223
Keep an open mind,
because, you know,

1609
01:30:36,258 --> 01:30:40,435
something you hear today
may sound totally incredible,

1610
01:30:40,469 --> 01:30:43,127
but then you hear it
again and again and again,

1611
01:30:43,161 --> 01:30:45,370
from people who don't even
know each other.

1612
01:30:45,405 --> 01:30:49,340
And if you keep an open mind,
you'll grow with it.

1613
01:30:49,374 --> 01:30:52,792
Whether you're sold on it
or not,

1614
01:30:52,826 --> 01:30:55,070
you'll see an evolutional
process here.

1615
01:30:55,104 --> 01:30:58,211
Know that these people
have been through a lot.
Have compassion.

1616
01:30:58,245 --> 01:31:01,697
How would you treat someone
who's been raped,
in a plane crash,

1617
01:31:01,732 --> 01:31:05,494
a cancer survivor,
or someone with
a life-threatening illness,

1618
01:31:05,529 --> 01:31:06,944
or a deformed child?

1619
01:31:06,978 --> 01:31:09,498
How would you treat them?
What kind of compassion
would you show them?

1620
01:31:09,533 --> 01:31:11,776
Show that to the people
who've had this experience.

1621
01:31:11,811 --> 01:31:14,020
Even if you don't understand it,
even if you
don't believe it's real.

1622
01:31:14,054 --> 01:31:17,437
Know that that person's
going through something
emotionally real for them.

1623
01:31:17,472 --> 01:31:20,820
You don't have to understand it.
You just have to be kind.

1624
01:31:20,854 --> 01:31:22,787
Isn't that
the truth of everything?

1625
01:31:22,822 --> 01:31:24,962
Being kind and compassionate
to everyone?

1626
01:31:26,032 --> 01:31:28,034
It's a ride I don't suggest
people take.

1627
01:31:28,068 --> 01:31:31,278
I don't suggest it,
'cause it's ruined my life.

1628
01:31:31,313 --> 01:31:34,903
You lose your career,
your wife, your house,

1629
01:31:34,937 --> 01:31:38,216
your money, your dog, you know?

1630
01:31:38,251 --> 01:31:40,805
How much of this is acceptable,

1631
01:31:40,840 --> 01:31:42,393
when you've done nothing wrong?

1632
01:31:42,427 --> 01:31:44,533
You're an experiencer
and you didn't ask for this,

1633
01:31:44,568 --> 01:31:47,502
or you're a researcher
and you're bravely
looking into this.

1634
01:31:47,536 --> 01:31:50,781
People are ruining other
people's lives because
they can't accept it.

1635
01:31:50,815 --> 01:31:54,301
All you do is you be there.
You have a big enough heart,

1636
01:31:54,336 --> 01:31:56,752
you know?
A big enough understanding.

1637
01:31:56,787 --> 01:32:00,791
You rise to the occasion
and you say,
"I'm there for you."

1638
01:32:00,825 --> 01:32:03,103
And that's all we ask.

1639
01:32:03,138 --> 01:32:07,660
Unless you've had
these experiences,
they are hard to comprehend.

1640
01:32:07,694 --> 01:32:09,558
But pain is pain.

1641
01:32:09,593 --> 01:32:13,562
The struggle to understand
something so extraordinary

1642
01:32:13,597 --> 01:32:15,840
is a lonely journey.

1643
01:32:15,875 --> 01:32:20,258
Sometimes we just need someone to be there for us, to listen.

1644
01:32:20,293 --> 01:32:23,883
Unfortunately, my wife
couldn't do this with me,

1645
01:32:23,917 --> 01:32:27,403
but, Megan,
she's been with me, like,

1646
01:32:28,404 --> 01:32:29,716
like a...

1647
01:32:31,235 --> 01:32:33,340
Like through and through,
you know.

1648
01:32:34,445 --> 01:32:35,515
Sorry.

1649
01:32:38,898 --> 01:32:41,038
That where it gets hard,
right there.

1650
01:32:41,417 --> 01:32:43,074
Sorry. Um...

1651
01:32:46,768 --> 01:32:49,080
Without her...
Without her, man...

1652
01:32:50,530 --> 01:32:52,877
There's no way...

1653
01:32:52,912 --> 01:32:56,398
There's no fucking way
I could have...
I could have done it.

1654
01:33:01,852 --> 01:33:03,716
You don't understand

1655
01:33:05,856 --> 01:33:08,030
the hell
we've been through together.

1656
01:33:09,618 --> 01:33:11,275
The absolute torture.

1657
01:33:15,797 --> 01:33:18,593
If we just hold on to each other
as tight as we can,

1658
01:33:19,455 --> 01:33:21,423
'cause in the end,
we're all we got.

1659
01:33:24,288 --> 01:33:26,393
And she's gone through
so much herself.

1660
01:33:30,743 --> 01:33:34,436
'Cause she's been by my side
the whole time.

1661
01:33:34,470 --> 01:33:38,336
Nobody gets to see it, because
I'm the one that takes the...

1662
01:33:39,165 --> 01:33:41,063
takes the reins, but...

1663
01:33:42,340 --> 01:33:45,689
Man, without her,
it wouldn't be possible.

1664
01:33:45,723 --> 01:33:49,762
I wouldn't be alive today,
because I wouldn't have
survived the transformation.

1665
01:33:50,970 --> 01:33:54,249
Nobody can understand
what it's like

1666
01:33:54,283 --> 01:33:58,115
to have to go through
something like...

1667
01:33:59,288 --> 01:34:03,120
I was just a person, man.
I was just a fucking person.

1668
01:34:03,741 --> 01:34:05,294
And now... And now, I'm...

1669
01:34:06,364 --> 01:34:08,228
What am I supposed to do?

1670
01:34:08,953 --> 01:34:10,506
What am I supposed to do?

1671
01:34:11,922 --> 01:34:13,164
I don't know.

1672
01:34:13,199 --> 01:34:18,135
But if it wasn't for her
I couldn't have survived.

1673
01:34:19,101 --> 01:34:20,309
No way.

1674
01:34:20,344 --> 01:34:22,518
Anybody else,
they would have left me.

1675
01:34:22,553 --> 01:34:24,866
You know? Anybody else,
it would have been game over,

1676
01:34:24,900 --> 01:34:30,803
because, you know,
the shit I put her
through, you know...

1677
01:34:30,837 --> 01:34:34,945
'Cause I'm dying, you know,
and she's watching me die.

1678
01:34:34,979 --> 01:34:38,534
You can't even imagine what
that's like for a wife to see
her husband dying

1679
01:34:38,569 --> 01:34:42,159
for an unknown reason,
you know, from ETs.

1680
01:34:42,193 --> 01:34:43,954
You know? Who knows? So...

1681
01:34:43,988 --> 01:34:46,232
What was the...
We never circled back around.

1682
01:34:46,266 --> 01:34:48,855
What was the switch that
flipped you back into health?

1683
01:34:49,373 --> 01:34:50,374
Oh...

1684
01:34:50,408 --> 01:34:52,721
Yeah. So, the health thing.

1685
01:34:52,756 --> 01:34:54,447
It just went away.

1686
01:34:54,999 --> 01:34:56,345
It went away. Boom.

1687
01:34:56,380 --> 01:34:59,901
I was gonna die.
Like, I'm going to die.
I'm dying.

1688
01:34:59,935 --> 01:35:01,557
Boom, it's gone.

1689
01:35:02,041 --> 01:35:03,559
Sometimes, um...

1690
01:35:06,183 --> 01:35:10,428
I... Sometimes I get upset
because I feel like
they robbed that from me.

1691
01:35:14,916 --> 01:35:18,471
I don't know.
Sometimes I don't know
if I should blame them for that

1692
01:35:18,505 --> 01:35:21,681
or just life circumstances.
I don't know.

1693
01:35:23,648 --> 01:35:26,375
You know,
one thing with abductees...

1694
01:35:27,100 --> 01:35:28,688
It's very hard

1695
01:35:30,517 --> 01:35:34,452
for abductees
in relationships afterwards.

1696
01:35:34,487 --> 01:35:36,938
That's one thing that gets
really screwed up.

1697
01:35:36,972 --> 01:35:39,664
First off, will the other person
understand, this and that.

1698
01:35:39,699 --> 01:35:41,839
And you wanna
keep it from people.

1699
01:35:44,290 --> 01:35:48,294
And, uh, and then it affects

1700
01:35:48,328 --> 01:35:51,228
emotional intimacy.

1701
01:35:52,470 --> 01:35:54,852
And a lot of abductees
have issues with that.

1702
01:35:58,614 --> 01:36:01,031
And part of me goes,
"Well, no. That's just life."

1703
01:36:01,065 --> 01:36:02,722
You know? Blah, blah, blah.

1704
01:36:02,757 --> 01:36:08,763
And sometimes I go,
"No, these experiences
have had an effect there."

1705
01:36:10,385 --> 01:36:13,491
And I know that for a lot of
abductees watching this.

1706
01:36:13,526 --> 01:36:18,531
I know that that's real common
for a lot of them.

1707
01:36:18,565 --> 01:36:22,086
If you're already in
a relationship,
it can screw it up.

1708
01:36:22,121 --> 01:36:27,920
And a lot of abductees
end up having a real hard time
with intimacy in relationships.

1709
01:36:27,954 --> 01:36:31,233
There's so many times where you
push down things about this.

1710
01:36:31,268 --> 01:36:35,686
You're like, "I'm fine.
I'm stronger than this."

1711
01:36:36,238 --> 01:36:37,308
You know...

1712
01:36:37,343 --> 01:36:39,655
And then, at times like this...

1713
01:36:39,690 --> 01:36:41,036
These are parts
I don't talk about.

1714
01:36:41,071 --> 01:36:42,866
These are what you go into
support groups to talk about.

1715
01:36:42,900 --> 01:36:46,939
That's where that realizing,
"Oh, my God.
I'm not the only one."

1716
01:36:46,973 --> 01:36:49,286
You know? I'm not the only one
who has those problems.

1717
01:36:49,320 --> 01:36:50,770
I'm not the only one
with those difficulties.

1718
01:36:50,805 --> 01:36:53,911
I'm not the only one
who has intimacy things.

1719
01:36:54,739 --> 01:36:56,880
And that's where
that really helps.

1720
01:36:56,914 --> 01:37:02,092
And it's necessary for more
women to step outside
of that fear, or...

1721
01:37:02,126 --> 01:37:04,163
And if it's not the fear,

1722
01:37:04,197 --> 01:37:09,064
there's the other duality of,
"Oh, it's okay. It's beautiful."
And ask the questions.

1723
01:37:09,099 --> 01:37:12,309
Why are we okay
with just the simple answers
that we're getting?

1724
01:37:12,343 --> 01:37:16,796
People need to investigate
and learn and find
the highest level of truth

1725
01:37:16,831 --> 01:37:17,901
within themselves.

1726
01:37:17,935 --> 01:37:20,317
And each person
may have another story,

1727
01:37:20,351 --> 01:37:22,733
and hopefully another
puzzle piece to this,

1728
01:37:22,767 --> 01:37:26,771
to help us put together
even greater understanding
of this reality,

1729
01:37:26,806 --> 01:37:28,083
which is necessary.

1730
01:37:28,118 --> 01:37:30,258
And if we as humans are within

1731
01:37:30,292 --> 01:37:32,812
a hybridization program
here on this planet,

1732
01:37:32,847 --> 01:37:35,504
what are we doing?
Who are we serving?

1733
01:37:35,539 --> 01:37:37,196
We need to ask those questions.

1734
01:37:37,230 --> 01:37:41,786
Which brings us to the lifelong
existential question,
"Why am I here?"

1735
01:37:41,821 --> 01:37:44,444
And as you can see,
that's the same question
that we've been asking

1736
01:37:44,479 --> 01:37:46,861
even now
with the hybridization program.

1737
01:37:46,895 --> 01:37:50,174
Don't be dismissive
of the unknown.

1738
01:37:50,209 --> 01:37:52,556
Be explorative of it.

1739
01:37:52,590 --> 01:37:54,558
Bring that thought
in the back of your head

1740
01:37:54,592 --> 01:37:56,698
that you should
listen to sometimes.

1741
01:37:56,732 --> 01:38:01,151
Or that feeling in your gut. You gotta get in tune with it.

1742
01:38:01,185 --> 01:38:05,914
Don't always dismiss yourself, or dismiss it as imagination.

1743
01:38:05,949 --> 01:38:10,056
That intuitive feeling is given
to us for a reason, I feel like.

1744
01:38:10,091 --> 01:38:11,713
It's not like I'm special.

1745
01:38:11,747 --> 01:38:13,611
This is the story
for every human being.

1746
01:38:13,646 --> 01:38:16,683
It's just I remember
a fragment of that.

1747
01:38:16,718 --> 01:38:20,170
It's only because
I opened my heart.
That's it.

1748
01:38:20,204 --> 01:38:21,723
Just opened my mind
and my heart.

1749
01:38:21,757 --> 01:38:24,484
That's how I've grown.
It's just... It's made me...

1750
01:38:24,519 --> 01:38:27,763
I feel it's made me
a better person.

1751
01:38:27,798 --> 01:38:34,115
And it's just made me more aware
of the nature of our reality.

1752
01:38:34,149 --> 01:38:38,084
It's the part of ourselves in
our own subconscious that fears.

1753
01:38:38,119 --> 01:38:44,815
It's the part of ourselves in
our own subconscious
that hates and is angry.

1754
01:38:44,849 --> 01:38:48,715
And in that way,
those parts of ourselves
are complicit

1755
01:38:48,750 --> 01:38:50,994
with the sinister forces
in this world

1756
01:38:51,028 --> 01:38:54,963
that try to keep humanity
as a controlled human herd.

1757
01:38:54,998 --> 01:38:57,241
Is this what we want to
become more of?

1758
01:38:57,276 --> 01:39:01,211
It's a question that every
human heart is going to
have to ask itself.

1759
01:39:01,245 --> 01:39:05,387
Do they want more power
and control and restriction
and limitation

1760
01:39:05,422 --> 01:39:09,012
of everything about
who we are as a species?

1761
01:39:09,046 --> 01:39:11,566
Or do we want to become
what we're intended to become?

1762
01:39:11,600 --> 01:39:14,914
Do we wanna
fulfill the potential

1763
01:39:14,949 --> 01:39:17,744
that is within
every codon in our DNA,

1764
01:39:17,779 --> 01:39:20,885
and see where that can take us?

1765
01:39:20,920 --> 01:39:24,337
Can I... Is it appropriate if
I just speak to the camera?

1766
01:39:24,372 --> 01:39:26,995
I want to do this.

1767
01:39:27,030 --> 01:39:31,620
So if you're listening
and you're someone who has had

1768
01:39:31,655 --> 01:39:34,244
unexplainable experiences that
you don't know how to process.

1769
01:39:34,278 --> 01:39:36,763
Or if you're just curious
about this whole

1770
01:39:36,798 --> 01:39:39,352
crazy subject of UFOs
and everything related to it,

1771
01:39:39,387 --> 01:39:44,633
I wanna tell you, A,
your ability to process this is
actually greater than you think.

1772
01:39:44,668 --> 01:39:47,912
There's more strength inside you
than you realize.

1773
01:39:47,947 --> 01:39:50,536
That's one.
I've seen this countless times.

1774
01:39:51,502 --> 01:39:54,989
Reach down.
You can pull up that courage

1775
01:39:55,023 --> 01:39:58,751
and you can face that reality,
and you become a better person.

1776
01:39:58,785 --> 01:40:00,097
You do.

1777
01:40:00,132 --> 01:40:03,480
And you can become
an inspiration to
other people in turn.

1778
01:40:03,514 --> 01:40:05,033
That's what you can do.

1779
01:40:05,068 --> 01:40:08,071
The other thing to keep in mind
is you're not alone.

1780
01:40:08,105 --> 01:40:10,935
There are many other people
just like you,

1781
01:40:10,970 --> 01:40:15,733
who have had difficult,
unexplainable experiences,

1782
01:40:15,768 --> 01:40:17,321
but yet, there they are.

1783
01:40:17,356 --> 01:40:23,155
And so, this is a very
important, significant
process going on,

1784
01:40:23,189 --> 01:40:24,846
and you can deal with it.

1785
01:40:24,880 --> 01:40:26,986
There's other people
just like you.