1 00:00:25,447 --> 00:00:29,831 - I've never been the smoothest with the ladies. 2 00:00:29,865 --> 00:00:31,108 I think we all know that. 3 00:00:32,661 --> 00:00:34,284 I did get it right once though. 4 00:00:35,147 --> 00:00:38,598 Or rather I didn't screw it up. 5 00:00:41,153 --> 00:00:45,812 We met at a bar, it was her local bar, Rocky's Tavern. 6 00:00:45,847 --> 00:00:49,092 I'd never been there before, I just stopped by for a drink. 7 00:00:50,817 --> 00:00:52,164 And that's when I saw Cindy. 8 00:00:56,547 --> 00:00:59,205 Everyone, I mean everyone knew Cindy. 9 00:01:00,655 --> 00:01:04,383 She was laughing, dancing, calling the employees by name. 10 00:01:05,591 --> 00:01:07,765 She must've known I was thinking about her too 11 00:01:07,800 --> 00:01:09,353 because she sat down at my table. 12 00:01:11,321 --> 00:01:12,632 I nearly spilled my drink. 13 00:01:14,186 --> 00:01:17,844 Like, damn. 14 00:01:17,879 --> 00:01:18,707 Me? 15 00:01:21,089 --> 00:01:23,298 She sat down and she smiled. 16 00:01:25,645 --> 00:01:26,474 She was lonely. 17 00:01:28,821 --> 00:01:31,858 I mean she was kind, engaged. 18 00:01:34,930 --> 00:01:39,935 Happy even, I don't know how else to say it. 19 00:01:40,660 --> 00:01:41,627 She was just lonely. 20 00:01:44,733 --> 00:01:46,425 Of course, I was lonely too. 21 00:01:46,459 --> 00:01:49,255 So Pete, do you wanna hear about me? 22 00:01:50,670 --> 00:01:51,947 - That night she told me 23 00:01:51,982 --> 00:01:54,433 all sorts of personal things about her life. 24 00:01:54,467 --> 00:01:57,021 About her best friends in high school. 25 00:01:57,056 --> 00:01:59,852 How she could have been in the Olympics if she wanted to. 26 00:02:02,234 --> 00:02:03,027 She didn't. 27 00:02:05,237 --> 00:02:07,308 How many guys the waitress had slept with. 28 00:02:08,481 --> 00:02:09,275 Seven. 29 00:02:12,002 --> 00:02:13,452 She talked me about her sister 30 00:02:13,486 --> 00:02:16,109 and the woods at night and it was beautiful. 31 00:02:16,144 --> 00:02:19,630 My God, it was so beautiful. 32 00:02:21,529 --> 00:02:23,565 I felt like I was living it all with her. 33 00:02:25,981 --> 00:02:27,500 I had nothing to add, you know? 34 00:02:28,950 --> 00:02:31,470 I just nodded, I stirred my drink 35 00:02:31,504 --> 00:02:33,368 and I helped her finish hers. 36 00:02:36,992 --> 00:02:38,787 I started to make up my own stories. 37 00:02:41,549 --> 00:02:42,550 Isn't that pathetic? 38 00:02:46,243 --> 00:02:51,214 My own emotions and memories and opinions, all fake. 39 00:02:54,665 --> 00:02:55,494 She knew it. 40 00:02:59,152 --> 00:03:00,395 It only made her lonelier. 41 00:03:05,745 --> 00:03:08,058 She think I resent her, but I don't. 42 00:03:08,092 --> 00:03:10,198 I never no, I wanna be her. 43 00:03:11,579 --> 00:03:14,306 To have those emotions and memories and opinions. 44 00:03:14,340 --> 00:03:15,203 To live. 45 00:03:18,551 --> 00:03:19,380 And I tried. 46 00:03:22,106 --> 00:03:24,247 I really really tried, 47 00:03:27,284 --> 00:03:29,666 'cause in my heart I believe that I still love her. 48 00:03:37,294 --> 00:03:39,848 She was as lonely last week as the night I met her. 49 00:03:43,231 --> 00:03:47,684 - Let there be...Hey! 50 00:03:47,718 --> 00:03:51,412 Well welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome to my home. 51 00:03:51,446 --> 00:03:54,138 It's um, well, home. 52 00:03:54,173 --> 00:03:55,933 I'm a book. 53 00:03:55,968 --> 00:03:57,314 Have you ever met a book? 54 00:03:57,349 --> 00:03:59,489 Like really engaged with it? 55 00:03:59,523 --> 00:04:01,111 I mean I know we're just words, 56 00:04:01,145 --> 00:04:03,424 but I think that makes us very interesting! 57 00:04:03,458 --> 00:04:07,117 Words, language, words! 58 00:04:07,151 --> 00:04:10,085 No guttural nonsense, you know, no ugh. 59 00:04:11,017 --> 00:04:12,467 "How are you feeling today?" 60 00:04:12,502 --> 00:04:13,572 "Ugh." 61 00:04:13,606 --> 00:04:14,504 It's not a word. 62 00:04:14,538 --> 00:04:16,747 It's a sound, an emotion. 63 00:04:16,782 --> 00:04:17,748 And those are great. 64 00:04:17,783 --> 00:04:19,716 I mean emotions, shew, are great. 65 00:04:19,750 --> 00:04:22,615 But your emotions they need the word! 66 00:04:22,650 --> 00:04:25,446 Just as the word needs your emotions. 67 00:04:25,480 --> 00:04:30,485 I mean all my juicy words like exalted and yearning, lust, 68 00:04:31,866 --> 00:04:33,005 well they're nothing without your ugh ugh ugh. 69 00:04:39,080 --> 00:04:39,908 Exhibit A. 70 00:04:42,911 --> 00:04:45,983 So, what else about me? 71 00:04:46,018 --> 00:04:48,814 Oh, one could say I'm about 1,500 years old, 72 00:04:48,848 --> 00:04:50,781 depending on your translation. 73 00:04:50,816 --> 00:04:52,024 But I like to think of myself as still relevant. 74 00:04:52,058 --> 00:04:54,820 Still hot with the kids. 75 00:04:54,854 --> 00:04:59,411 I'm not one of those grumpy, old, get off-my-shelf books. 76 00:05:00,998 --> 00:05:04,864 I mean I once knew a copy of Moby Dick that was, a dick. 77 00:05:04,899 --> 00:05:07,867 "The new books this and the new books that" 78 00:05:07,902 --> 00:05:08,799 Couldn't keep up. 79 00:05:08,834 --> 00:05:10,145 That's what makes me special. 80 00:05:10,180 --> 00:05:11,112 I adapt. 81 00:05:11,146 --> 00:05:12,389 I am always adapting. 82 00:05:12,424 --> 00:05:15,634 Country to country, century to century, 83 00:05:15,668 --> 00:05:19,776 I'm the one the only, the hallowed the holy. 84 00:05:20,742 --> 00:05:21,571 Bible! 85 00:07:09,437 --> 00:07:10,369 Wanna talk? 86 00:07:11,335 --> 00:07:12,854 - No. 87 00:07:12,889 --> 00:07:14,062 - Okay. 88 00:07:14,097 --> 00:07:16,168 I'm Gid, by the way. 89 00:07:16,202 --> 00:07:17,687 Gideon. Gid. 90 00:07:17,721 --> 00:07:18,550 - Hey Gid. 91 00:07:34,669 --> 00:07:35,498 Stop! 92 00:07:36,395 --> 00:07:37,741 - Stop what? 93 00:07:37,776 --> 00:07:39,053 - Looking at me like that. 94 00:07:39,087 --> 00:07:39,985 - Like what? 95 00:07:40,019 --> 00:07:40,779 - Like you're judging me. 96 00:07:40,813 --> 00:07:42,056 - I'm not judging you. 97 00:07:43,747 --> 00:07:44,576 - Whatever. 98 00:07:44,610 --> 00:07:45,438 - I'm not. 99 00:07:45,473 --> 00:07:46,267 Should I be? 100 00:07:46,301 --> 00:07:47,130 - No! - Okay. 101 00:07:47,164 --> 00:07:47,958 - Okay. 102 00:07:47,993 --> 00:07:48,821 - Okay. 103 00:07:50,513 --> 00:07:51,306 - What do you want from me? 104 00:07:51,341 --> 00:07:52,549 - I just want to talk! 105 00:07:52,584 --> 00:07:53,826 - Don't most motels at least have the courtesy 106 00:07:53,861 --> 00:07:54,689 to leave you in the drawer. 107 00:07:54,724 --> 00:07:55,656 Jesus Christ. 108 00:07:55,690 --> 00:07:56,726 - Language. 109 00:07:57,865 --> 00:07:59,038 - Really? 110 00:07:59,073 --> 00:08:01,385 - Look, I sit here all day. 111 00:08:01,420 --> 00:08:02,801 Stuck in this motel room. 112 00:08:02,835 --> 00:08:04,319 Waiting for you. 113 00:08:04,354 --> 00:08:05,528 You don't have to be rude about it. 114 00:08:05,562 --> 00:08:06,874 Gosh. 115 00:08:06,908 --> 00:08:08,116 - You can't leave? 116 00:08:08,151 --> 00:08:09,048 - Not unless you take me with you. 117 00:08:09,083 --> 00:08:10,256 Sounds terrible. 118 00:08:10,291 --> 00:08:11,499 - It is! 119 00:08:11,534 --> 00:08:12,638 Stuck in this hotel room, my goodness. 120 00:08:12,673 --> 00:08:13,708 - No, I meant taking you with me. 121 00:08:13,743 --> 00:08:14,709 Walking around with you. 122 00:08:14,744 --> 00:08:16,228 My god, it sounds awful. 123 00:08:16,262 --> 00:08:18,195 - Mm, resistance to the Word of God. 124 00:08:18,230 --> 00:08:19,645 You know you got a real Paul complex. 125 00:08:19,680 --> 00:08:21,302 - Paul, huh? - Mm hmm. 126 00:08:22,475 --> 00:08:23,649 - You know I saw myself 127 00:08:23,684 --> 00:08:25,202 as more of George Harrison kinda guy. 128 00:08:25,237 --> 00:08:26,583 - No, no, no you're a Paul. 129 00:08:26,618 --> 00:08:28,033 He used to be a real sourpuss. 130 00:08:28,067 --> 00:08:28,861 - Sourpuss? 131 00:08:28,896 --> 00:08:30,898 - But then one day. 132 00:08:30,932 --> 00:08:34,971 Acts 9:4, a light from heaven flashed around him. 133 00:08:35,005 --> 00:08:37,594 He fell to the ground and heard a voice say 134 00:08:37,629 --> 00:08:40,010 "I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. 135 00:08:40,045 --> 00:08:41,805 "Now get up and go into the city, 136 00:08:41,840 --> 00:08:43,462 "and you will be told what you must do." 137 00:08:43,496 --> 00:08:44,290 - Very dramatic. 138 00:08:44,325 --> 00:08:45,498 - Oh yes. 139 00:08:45,533 --> 00:08:46,741 God zapped him right then and there. 140 00:08:46,776 --> 00:08:47,604 - With lightning? 141 00:08:47,639 --> 00:08:48,467 - With love. 142 00:08:49,710 --> 00:08:51,159 And blindness. 143 00:08:51,194 --> 00:08:53,990 And he went on to spread the Word of God all over the world, 144 00:08:54,024 --> 00:08:56,544 and ultimately had a big hand in writing me. 145 00:08:56,579 --> 00:08:58,339 - So, I'm the sourpuss, 146 00:08:58,373 --> 00:09:01,342 and you are the flash of light that's gonna save me. 147 00:09:01,376 --> 00:09:02,170 Is that right? 148 00:09:02,205 --> 00:09:04,000 - In a word, amen. 149 00:09:04,034 --> 00:09:07,797 I'd still rather be George Harrison. 150 00:09:07,831 --> 00:09:09,281 - Don't know that I know him. 151 00:09:09,315 --> 00:09:11,076 - Oo, probably 'cause all you got is Bible stuff 152 00:09:11,110 --> 00:09:14,182 and I'm not really talking Bible stuff 153 00:09:14,217 --> 00:09:16,426 so back in the drawer with ya. 154 00:09:16,460 --> 00:09:17,910 - No, no, come on. 155 00:09:17,945 --> 00:09:20,188 Come on, we don't have to talk about Bible stuff. 156 00:09:20,223 --> 00:09:22,397 We could talk about anything. 157 00:09:22,432 --> 00:09:23,813 What's going on with the world? 158 00:09:23,847 --> 00:09:24,814 Is Reagan still president? 159 00:09:24,848 --> 00:09:26,194 - What? 160 00:09:26,229 --> 00:09:27,437 No. 161 00:09:27,471 --> 00:09:31,165 Politics are just a big Reality TV show mess. 162 00:09:31,199 --> 00:09:32,097 - TV? 163 00:09:32,131 --> 00:09:33,029 Well, Reagan was an actor. 164 00:09:33,063 --> 00:09:33,892 - Not the same. 165 00:09:33,926 --> 00:09:34,755 - Okay! 166 00:09:35,894 --> 00:09:37,240 Is Batman still a thing? 167 00:09:37,274 --> 00:09:39,207 - Yes, Batman is still a thing. 168 00:09:39,242 --> 00:09:40,036 - Great! 169 00:09:40,070 --> 00:09:40,864 Batman's my favorite. 170 00:09:40,899 --> 00:09:41,796 - Mine too. 171 00:09:41,831 --> 00:09:42,659 - Are the Yankees still good? 172 00:09:42,694 --> 00:09:43,764 - Ah they're better. 173 00:09:43,798 --> 00:09:45,248 - Dang. - Yeah. 174 00:09:45,282 --> 00:09:47,595 Oh, but the Cubs won the World Series a couple years ago. 175 00:09:47,630 --> 00:09:48,803 - No way? 176 00:09:48,838 --> 00:09:50,011 - Yeah, yeah. It was pretty crazy. 177 00:09:50,046 --> 00:09:53,774 - Oh praise God from whom all blessings flow! 178 00:09:53,808 --> 00:09:54,637 Oh he's good. 179 00:09:54,671 --> 00:09:57,294 Whoo hoo ha ha ha. 180 00:09:57,329 --> 00:09:58,606 Oh my. 181 00:09:58,641 --> 00:10:00,470 Oh my! 182 00:10:00,504 --> 00:10:01,367 Oh! 183 00:10:01,402 --> 00:10:02,679 Oh that's my God. 184 00:10:02,714 --> 00:10:04,025 That is my God. 185 00:10:04,060 --> 00:10:06,200 That's an answer to a lot of prayers. 186 00:10:06,234 --> 00:10:07,442 - Oh yeah, I bet. 187 00:10:07,477 --> 00:10:08,374 - You would not believe how many. 188 00:10:08,409 --> 00:10:09,203 - In this town? 189 00:10:09,237 --> 00:10:10,135 I'm sure. 190 00:10:10,169 --> 00:10:11,792 - Can I confess something? 191 00:10:11,826 --> 00:10:13,345 - Sure. - I love baseball. 192 00:10:13,379 --> 00:10:15,623 It's just so, everyone's there. 193 00:10:15,658 --> 00:10:17,280 Cheering for the same team. 194 00:10:17,314 --> 00:10:18,522 And they're so happy! 195 00:10:18,557 --> 00:10:19,972 They're in unity. 196 00:10:20,007 --> 00:10:22,181 Celebrating the same amazing thing. 197 00:10:23,596 --> 00:10:24,943 It's like heaven. 198 00:10:24,977 --> 00:10:26,358 - Uh huh. 199 00:10:26,392 --> 00:10:27,600 - A solid 30 years of prayers 200 00:10:27,635 --> 00:10:29,775 I've heard up to the big guy about it. 201 00:10:29,810 --> 00:10:31,397 Or was it 40? 202 00:10:31,432 --> 00:10:32,813 Oh my goodness. 203 00:10:32,847 --> 00:10:34,090 What year is it? 204 00:10:34,124 --> 00:10:35,643 I'm sorry I try, but I always lose track. 205 00:10:35,678 --> 00:10:37,818 - It's 2019. 206 00:10:37,852 --> 00:10:39,647 - 2019? 207 00:10:39,682 --> 00:10:40,475 Wow. 208 00:10:42,063 --> 00:10:44,065 And we still have Batman! 209 00:10:44,100 --> 00:10:44,963 Mm mm mm. 210 00:10:44,997 --> 00:10:46,861 That makes me happy. 211 00:10:46,896 --> 00:10:47,690 Shoobado bop. 212 00:10:49,761 --> 00:10:51,314 - How old are you? 213 00:10:51,348 --> 00:10:53,661 - Oh, one could say 1500 years, depending... 214 00:10:54,869 --> 00:10:55,732 Me personally? 215 00:10:55,767 --> 00:10:56,560 - Yeah. 216 00:10:58,493 --> 00:11:01,186 - Let's see, it's 2019. 217 00:11:01,220 --> 00:11:03,636 Gosh, that's a lot. 218 00:11:03,671 --> 00:11:05,052 66. 219 00:11:05,086 --> 00:11:07,399 Published Gideon's international 1953. 220 00:11:07,433 --> 00:11:08,227 - Wow. - Yep. 221 00:11:09,366 --> 00:11:11,299 Been stuck in this hotel room ever since. 222 00:11:12,645 --> 00:11:14,026 - Dang. 223 00:11:14,061 --> 00:11:14,889 - Yep. 224 00:11:16,339 --> 00:11:18,341 Used to have a working TV! 225 00:11:18,375 --> 00:11:19,411 In '84. 226 00:11:20,723 --> 00:11:21,896 Kinda never fixed it. 227 00:11:21,931 --> 00:11:26,452 Then with laptops and smartphones, yeah. 228 00:11:26,487 --> 00:11:29,076 Haven't really been used much in the last few years. 229 00:11:30,974 --> 00:11:35,151 Except for, you know. 230 00:11:35,185 --> 00:11:36,014 - Hm? 231 00:11:37,429 --> 00:11:40,363 - This one guy needed some paper to roll a joint. 232 00:11:40,397 --> 00:11:41,916 Stole a piece of Judges. 233 00:11:41,951 --> 00:11:43,228 Kind of ironic actually. 234 00:11:44,160 --> 00:11:45,299 Yeah. 235 00:11:45,333 --> 00:11:47,370 Oh then some guy spilled coffee on my once. 236 00:11:47,404 --> 00:11:48,647 - Bible study? 237 00:11:48,681 --> 00:11:49,821 - AA meeting. 238 00:11:49,855 --> 00:11:52,202 Lost soul, searching for the answer. 239 00:11:52,237 --> 00:11:53,031 - Jesus Christ. 240 00:11:53,065 --> 00:11:53,894 - That's the one! 241 00:11:55,102 --> 00:11:55,999 - I bet you see a lot of shady stuff 242 00:11:56,034 --> 00:11:57,173 in this hotel room, huh. 243 00:11:57,207 --> 00:11:58,657 - Not always! 244 00:11:58,691 --> 00:12:00,763 Once a kindergartner needed something to draw on. 245 00:12:00,797 --> 00:12:01,591 Back cover. 246 00:12:04,905 --> 00:12:05,940 Cool, eh? 247 00:12:05,975 --> 00:12:06,803 - It's cute. 248 00:12:06,838 --> 00:12:07,839 - Yeah, I think so. 249 00:12:07,873 --> 00:12:09,426 I mean, it's not Picasso. 250 00:12:09,461 --> 00:12:11,497 - Eh, maybe it is Picasso. 251 00:12:11,532 --> 00:12:12,395 - Hey. - Hey. 252 00:12:15,812 --> 00:12:18,228 I guess, that makes you her Bible then, huh. 253 00:12:18,263 --> 00:12:19,160 - Uh, no, no. 254 00:12:19,195 --> 00:12:20,990 I'm not really anyone's Bible. 255 00:12:21,024 --> 00:12:23,613 Or, I'm everyone's Bible, everyone who walks in the room. 256 00:12:23,647 --> 00:12:26,409 That's kinda how I think about it, anyways. 257 00:12:26,443 --> 00:12:29,274 But no no, I'm no... 258 00:12:30,758 --> 00:12:32,173 I don't belong to anyone. 259 00:12:33,347 --> 00:12:35,556 No underlined passages, 260 00:12:35,590 --> 00:12:38,870 or highlighted Psalms of encouragement. 261 00:12:39,940 --> 00:12:40,803 Yeah. 262 00:12:43,012 --> 00:12:44,047 Just a princess. 263 00:12:47,879 --> 00:12:49,294 - I never wrote in my Bible. 264 00:12:50,882 --> 00:12:51,710 - You should. 265 00:12:51,744 --> 00:12:52,849 You really should. 266 00:12:52,884 --> 00:12:53,746 - Yeah. 267 00:12:57,129 --> 00:12:58,337 - Expecting someone? 268 00:12:58,372 --> 00:12:59,200 - Huh? 269 00:13:00,892 --> 00:13:01,720 No. 270 00:13:03,377 --> 00:13:05,137 No, no, just uh... 271 00:13:07,277 --> 00:13:08,520 Waiting. 272 00:13:08,554 --> 00:13:10,073 - Well, want to hear a story while you wait? 273 00:13:10,108 --> 00:13:11,350 No. 274 00:13:11,385 --> 00:13:13,042 - "In the beginning, God created the heavens a-" 275 00:13:13,076 --> 00:13:15,216 Not that one. 276 00:13:15,251 --> 00:13:16,528 - "And there were shepherds 277 00:13:16,562 --> 00:13:18,564 "living out in the fields nearby" 278 00:13:18,599 --> 00:13:19,600 No. 279 00:13:21,050 --> 00:13:22,845 - "By prayer and petition, 280 00:13:22,879 --> 00:13:24,985 "with thanksgiving, present your requests to" 281 00:13:25,019 --> 00:13:26,020 Next. 282 00:13:27,539 --> 00:13:29,368 - "He spilled his semen on the ground 283 00:13:29,403 --> 00:13:31,957 "to keep from providing offspring for his brother." 284 00:13:33,338 --> 00:13:34,684 - Oh my god! 285 00:13:34,718 --> 00:13:35,547 That's in there? 286 00:13:36,617 --> 00:13:37,652 - You'd be surprised. 287 00:13:40,138 --> 00:13:40,932 - Damn. 288 00:13:42,036 --> 00:13:42,865 - Indeed. 289 00:13:48,422 --> 00:13:50,355 So what's the gun for? 290 00:13:53,013 --> 00:13:54,324 - Nothing. 291 00:13:54,359 --> 00:13:55,256 Nothing? 292 00:13:55,291 --> 00:13:56,085 - Nothing. 293 00:13:56,119 --> 00:13:57,362 - Is it a drug thing? 294 00:13:57,396 --> 00:13:58,259 - No! 295 00:13:58,294 --> 00:13:59,536 - Is it a stakeout? 296 00:13:59,571 --> 00:14:00,434 Wait! You're a cop? 297 00:14:00,468 --> 00:14:01,711 - Stop it! 298 00:14:01,745 --> 00:14:02,850 - Oh, you must be really undercover. 299 00:14:02,885 --> 00:14:03,955 How long since you've shaved? 300 00:14:03,989 --> 00:14:05,163 - I'm not a cop. 301 00:14:05,197 --> 00:14:07,096 - Hmm, maybe a detective? 302 00:14:07,130 --> 00:14:08,062 You seem like a good guy. 303 00:14:08,097 --> 00:14:09,305 - I'm not a good guy. 304 00:14:09,339 --> 00:14:11,928 - So a bad guy who talks to Bibles. 305 00:14:11,963 --> 00:14:13,585 - Bad guys don't use the Bible? 306 00:14:13,619 --> 00:14:14,517 - Not like this. 307 00:14:14,551 --> 00:14:16,312 - This isn't special man. 308 00:14:17,761 --> 00:14:19,039 I've read you before. 309 00:14:19,073 --> 00:14:21,213 - Oh right, your unmarked Bible. 310 00:14:21,248 --> 00:14:22,628 No wonder you're confused. 311 00:14:25,252 --> 00:14:26,460 - I got stuff to focus on. 312 00:14:26,494 --> 00:14:27,668 - Mm. Gun stuff? 313 00:14:27,702 --> 00:14:28,634 - You're not talking me out of this! 314 00:14:28,669 --> 00:14:29,601 - Talking you out of what? 315 00:14:29,635 --> 00:14:30,705 - This! - This what? 316 00:14:32,052 --> 00:14:33,294 - Use your words, Pete! 317 00:14:33,329 --> 00:14:35,607 Ugh is not a word, it's a sound an em- 318 00:14:37,712 --> 00:14:39,024 Yeah, that's not really how this works. 319 00:14:39,059 --> 00:14:40,715 - I'm not talking to you. 320 00:14:41,647 --> 00:14:42,994 - If you insist. 321 00:14:46,031 --> 00:14:47,688 What's this? - Don't. 322 00:14:47,722 --> 00:14:48,654 - Is this what you wanted to talk about? 323 00:14:48,689 --> 00:14:50,139 - Touch that. - A letter. 324 00:14:50,173 --> 00:14:51,968 "Dear Candy"? - Cindy! 325 00:14:52,003 --> 00:14:53,176 - Cindy! Sorry. 326 00:14:53,211 --> 00:14:55,075 You need to work on your handwriting, sir. 327 00:14:56,076 --> 00:14:57,663 Is she who the gun's for? 328 00:15:01,495 --> 00:15:02,323 - No. 329 00:15:09,296 --> 00:15:12,264 - "Dear Cindy, I miss you. 330 00:15:14,439 --> 00:15:15,543 "Isn't that crazy? 331 00:15:16,717 --> 00:15:19,168 "Even when I think about you with Leo. 332 00:15:20,238 --> 00:15:21,066 "I miss you. 333 00:15:23,482 --> 00:15:24,897 "But I can't forgive you. 334 00:15:26,313 --> 00:15:28,039 "And I certainly won't forgive Leo. 335 00:15:29,661 --> 00:15:33,527 "If you are reading this, then Leo's not around anymore. 336 00:15:33,561 --> 00:15:34,390 "Good. 337 00:15:35,805 --> 00:15:39,119 "I'm sure that hurts, but that's a price I'm willing to pay. 338 00:15:41,604 --> 00:15:44,538 "If you're reading this now, then you've already paid it. 339 00:15:47,817 --> 00:15:48,645 "I love you. 340 00:15:51,786 --> 00:15:55,756 "I'm sorry you were lonely and I'm sorry I could never help. 341 00:15:58,862 --> 00:16:00,036 "Peter Jameson" 342 00:16:06,491 --> 00:16:07,388 I'm sorry. 343 00:16:09,149 --> 00:16:10,667 - For what? 344 00:16:10,702 --> 00:16:11,841 You didn't do anything. 345 00:16:13,118 --> 00:16:15,500 Then again action really isn't your thing, huh? 346 00:16:16,880 --> 00:16:19,814 You're all about talking, judging, predicting. 347 00:16:21,885 --> 00:16:24,095 You haven't done shit for thousands of years. 348 00:16:37,832 --> 00:16:39,351 What the hell is this? 349 00:16:39,386 --> 00:16:40,180 - What? - This! 350 00:16:40,214 --> 00:16:42,285 What the hell is this? 351 00:16:42,320 --> 00:16:43,459 - Sorry. 352 00:16:43,493 --> 00:16:44,632 Lots of people find me comforting. 353 00:16:44,667 --> 00:16:45,633 - Comforting? 354 00:16:45,668 --> 00:16:47,014 - Um, yes. - I don't. 355 00:16:47,049 --> 00:16:49,672 - Okay, maybe I rushed the hug. 356 00:16:49,706 --> 00:16:51,605 Look, it's been a while for me, okay? 357 00:16:51,639 --> 00:16:54,159 And I'm just meeting you, you're just meeting me. 358 00:16:54,194 --> 00:16:55,229 It's our first time! 359 00:16:55,264 --> 00:16:56,092 We'll get it. 360 00:16:57,404 --> 00:16:58,784 - Now I'm really uncomfortable. 361 00:16:58,819 --> 00:16:59,647 - Fine. 362 00:17:00,648 --> 00:17:02,478 But I'm trying over here, 363 00:17:02,512 --> 00:17:04,652 and you have been nothing but rude to me. 364 00:17:04,687 --> 00:17:05,895 Rude to you? 365 00:17:05,929 --> 00:17:08,553 Look princess, I'm not gonna get tricked 366 00:17:08,587 --> 00:17:10,451 into feeling sorry for you, okay? 367 00:17:10,486 --> 00:17:11,694 You are not a perfect book. 368 00:17:11,728 --> 00:17:12,660 You're not worth defending. 369 00:17:12,695 --> 00:17:15,007 You're not an underdog. 370 00:17:15,042 --> 00:17:16,181 You're kind of a monster. 371 00:17:16,216 --> 00:17:17,389 And sure, my parents got off on you, 372 00:17:17,424 --> 00:17:18,942 but I sure as hell don't have to. 373 00:17:18,977 --> 00:17:21,773 Frankly, if I never saw you again, I'd be a happier man. 374 00:17:30,195 --> 00:17:31,576 - Strong words. 375 00:17:33,405 --> 00:17:35,683 I wonder are you feeling convicted? 376 00:17:35,718 --> 00:17:36,960 - No. Shut up. 377 00:17:36,995 --> 00:17:38,307 - A lotta pressure to put on one guy, 378 00:17:38,341 --> 00:17:39,549 killing someone and all. 379 00:17:39,584 --> 00:17:40,757 - Ha. - Excuse me? 380 00:17:40,792 --> 00:17:42,621 - That's pretty rich coming from you. 381 00:17:42,656 --> 00:17:43,450 - Uh- - You're gonna 382 00:17:43,484 --> 00:17:45,003 knock me for killing? 383 00:17:45,037 --> 00:17:46,418 - Yes. 384 00:17:46,453 --> 00:17:49,835 10 Commandments, Exodus 20:13, thou shalt not murder. 385 00:17:49,870 --> 00:17:52,459 - How many people die by your hand? 386 00:17:52,493 --> 00:17:53,391 - My hand? 387 00:17:53,425 --> 00:17:55,220 I'm just a book after all. 388 00:17:55,255 --> 00:17:57,602 - Okay, you were written by God, right? 389 00:17:57,636 --> 00:17:58,534 Yes. 390 00:17:58,568 --> 00:18:01,675 - And God is good, right? 391 00:18:01,709 --> 00:18:02,538 - Yes. 392 00:18:04,298 --> 00:18:06,369 - How many people die by his hand? 393 00:18:08,923 --> 00:18:10,235 - Some. - Some? 394 00:18:10,270 --> 00:18:12,306 Tell me, was it 2 Kings 395 00:18:12,341 --> 00:18:15,965 when the Angel of the Lord smote the Assyrian camp? 396 00:18:15,999 --> 00:18:16,897 - Yes. 397 00:18:16,931 --> 00:18:18,450 - Something like 100,000 people? 398 00:18:18,485 --> 00:18:19,279 - 185,000 399 00:18:19,313 --> 00:18:21,695 - 185,000 people. 400 00:18:21,729 --> 00:18:22,868 - Yes, so, a lot. 401 00:18:22,903 --> 00:18:24,491 - A lot. 402 00:18:24,525 --> 00:18:27,804 185,000 people, in one night. 403 00:18:27,839 --> 00:18:28,736 - Yes, not untrue. 404 00:18:28,771 --> 00:18:32,015 - Very true, according to you. 405 00:18:33,845 --> 00:18:36,365 Thou shalt not murder. unless I say so. 406 00:18:36,399 --> 00:18:38,953 - Look! God gets to make that call! 407 00:18:38,988 --> 00:18:40,610 I can tell you're not a believer. 408 00:18:40,645 --> 00:18:41,439 - Hey, damn right. 409 00:18:41,473 --> 00:18:42,440 - But I do know this: 410 00:18:42,474 --> 00:18:44,269 You did not create life. 411 00:18:44,304 --> 00:18:45,581 God did! 412 00:18:45,615 --> 00:18:47,099 He has the power to give life 413 00:18:47,134 --> 00:18:48,998 and he the authority to take it away. 414 00:18:49,032 --> 00:18:50,517 You Pete, do not. 415 00:18:50,551 --> 00:18:52,622 For you to murder someone in cold blood 416 00:18:52,657 --> 00:18:54,831 for selfish reasons is wrong. 417 00:19:01,321 --> 00:19:02,943 - You're right. 418 00:19:02,977 --> 00:19:04,047 - Yes, yes I am. 419 00:19:05,394 --> 00:19:07,154 - I need to be more obedient. 420 00:19:07,189 --> 00:19:08,397 - Yes, you do. 421 00:19:08,431 --> 00:19:11,745 - I need guidance, I need scripture. 422 00:19:14,472 --> 00:19:16,232 - Praise Jesus. - O my gosh. 423 00:19:16,267 --> 00:19:17,199 - Yes. Yes! 424 00:19:17,233 --> 00:19:18,027 - Oh let's see. 425 00:19:18,061 --> 00:19:19,684 Guidance, laws. 426 00:19:20,616 --> 00:19:21,410 Leviticus! 427 00:19:21,444 --> 00:19:22,238 - Oo. 428 00:19:22,273 --> 00:19:23,377 - Chapter 20? 429 00:19:23,412 --> 00:19:24,585 - Ya know? - Let's see verse- 430 00:19:24,620 --> 00:19:25,862 - That's completely different. 431 00:19:25,897 --> 00:19:26,518 - Verse 10! - See the Old Testament law 432 00:19:26,553 --> 00:19:27,450 was fulfilled. 433 00:19:27,485 --> 00:19:28,693 We aren't under that covenant- 434 00:19:28,727 --> 00:19:30,108 If a man commits adultery 435 00:19:30,142 --> 00:19:32,697 with the wife of his neighbor, both the adulterer 436 00:19:32,731 --> 00:19:37,736 and the adulteress shall surely be put to death. 437 00:19:41,878 --> 00:19:42,776 - You see? 438 00:19:42,810 --> 00:19:44,260 I'm just following orders. 439 00:19:45,641 --> 00:19:46,435 - Don't do that. 440 00:19:46,469 --> 00:19:47,643 - What? Follow orders? 441 00:19:47,677 --> 00:19:49,438 That's conve- - Don't abuse me. 442 00:19:50,542 --> 00:19:52,303 Don't pluck out verses and twist them. 443 00:19:54,719 --> 00:19:56,997 You're not humbling yourself. 444 00:19:57,031 --> 00:19:58,274 You're not learning. 445 00:19:58,309 --> 00:19:59,758 You're not even listening. 446 00:19:59,793 --> 00:20:02,451 You're manipulating Scripture because you're selfish. 447 00:20:02,485 --> 00:20:03,728 And it hurts. 448 00:20:03,762 --> 00:20:04,763 It hurts people. 449 00:20:04,798 --> 00:20:05,592 It hurts God. 450 00:20:05,626 --> 00:20:06,455 And it hurts you. 451 00:20:07,870 --> 00:20:10,700 What you said earlier, all the blood on my hands, 452 00:20:10,735 --> 00:20:11,632 that's how it happens. 453 00:20:11,667 --> 00:20:12,599 - So this is my fault? 454 00:20:12,633 --> 00:20:13,772 - It's about to be. 455 00:20:13,807 --> 00:20:15,049 You're about to kill someone. 456 00:20:15,084 --> 00:20:16,879 And I will not be used. 457 00:20:16,913 --> 00:20:19,537 Either don't use Scripture at all, 458 00:20:19,571 --> 00:20:21,539 or take it all as a whole. 459 00:20:21,573 --> 00:20:22,609 All in context. 460 00:20:22,643 --> 00:20:23,920 - Context? - Yes. 461 00:20:25,197 --> 00:20:26,095 - You're saying I should take 462 00:20:26,129 --> 00:20:27,407 the whole chapter into account. 463 00:20:27,441 --> 00:20:28,270 - The whole book! 464 00:20:28,304 --> 00:20:29,754 - Right. 465 00:20:29,788 --> 00:20:31,169 And if I still don't get it. 466 00:20:31,203 --> 00:20:34,310 If showing love to a thousand generations in Exodus 467 00:20:34,345 --> 00:20:36,692 still isn't consistent enough with killing witches 468 00:20:36,726 --> 00:20:39,315 also in Exodus, I should read the whole Bible, right? 469 00:20:39,350 --> 00:20:40,489 - I highly recommend it. - For context? 470 00:20:40,523 --> 00:20:42,594 - For context. - Great. 471 00:20:42,629 --> 00:20:44,872 And this is just a thought here. 472 00:20:44,907 --> 00:20:47,461 It feels like you're asking me to do all the work for you. 473 00:20:47,496 --> 00:20:49,567 Justifying all your contradictions with context. 474 00:20:49,601 --> 00:20:51,362 - Asking you to read the whole thing 475 00:20:51,396 --> 00:20:52,949 doesn't seem that unfair. 476 00:20:52,984 --> 00:20:54,192 Imagine if I only listened to half of what you said. 477 00:20:54,226 --> 00:20:55,573 - But it doesn't stop there, does it? 478 00:20:55,607 --> 00:20:56,850 - What do you mean? 479 00:20:56,884 --> 00:20:58,369 - Well for context, for true biblical context, 480 00:20:58,403 --> 00:20:59,715 I would have to consider all the original languages 481 00:20:59,749 --> 00:21:00,957 and adaptations you've been through. 482 00:21:00,992 --> 00:21:02,269 The Greek, the Hebrew, the Aramaic. 483 00:21:02,304 --> 00:21:03,788 - Sure, and not just the languages, the cultures- 484 00:21:03,822 --> 00:21:05,755 - And then I can't forget about the historical context. 485 00:21:05,790 --> 00:21:08,413 How you've been interpreted since then. 486 00:21:08,448 --> 00:21:10,553 For which I would have to look through thousands of years 487 00:21:10,588 --> 00:21:11,899 of church history which, to be honest, 488 00:21:11,934 --> 00:21:14,108 had a lot of low points don't ya think? 489 00:21:14,143 --> 00:21:16,766 Between The Crusades, Joan of Arc, pedophilia, et cetera. 490 00:21:16,801 --> 00:21:18,527 - Fair point: interpretation is sloppy. 491 00:21:18,561 --> 00:21:20,460 What are you getting at? 492 00:21:20,494 --> 00:21:21,668 - Who do you expect to help 493 00:21:21,702 --> 00:21:24,464 when no one's qualified to read you, Gid? 494 00:21:26,983 --> 00:21:28,606 Are we supposed to devote half our lives 495 00:21:28,640 --> 00:21:31,609 to justifying your stains with centuries of context? 496 00:21:31,643 --> 00:21:32,782 What is context? 497 00:21:32,817 --> 00:21:34,094 - Fine, let me simplify it for you. 498 00:21:34,128 --> 00:21:35,026 - Please. 499 00:21:35,060 --> 00:21:35,958 - The context is that of love. 500 00:21:35,992 --> 00:21:37,200 - Love? 501 00:21:37,235 --> 00:21:38,719 Well that's a goddamn catchall, isn't it? 502 00:22:15,722 --> 00:22:16,826 - So, what's the plan? 503 00:22:16,861 --> 00:22:18,069 - You know the plan. 504 00:22:18,103 --> 00:22:19,657 - You check the parking lot every few minutes 505 00:22:19,691 --> 00:22:21,555 and hope you get lucky? 506 00:22:21,590 --> 00:22:22,763 - Yep. 507 00:22:22,798 --> 00:22:24,731 - Ya know you could just stand by the window. 508 00:22:24,765 --> 00:22:26,526 - Oh why don't I just wave my gun around too, 509 00:22:26,560 --> 00:22:27,803 make sure they see me. 510 00:22:27,837 --> 00:22:29,356 - Mm. 511 00:22:29,391 --> 00:22:31,427 Then hopefully of all the gin joints in all Chicago, 512 00:22:31,462 --> 00:22:34,361 Cindy shacks up with Leo in this dump of a hotel. 513 00:22:34,396 --> 00:22:35,189 - I know she's coming. 514 00:22:35,224 --> 00:22:36,121 - Oo, did God tell you? 515 00:22:36,156 --> 00:22:38,020 - What, like a flash of light? 516 00:22:39,124 --> 00:22:42,058 No, I stick to reality, thank you. 517 00:22:42,093 --> 00:22:43,853 - Oh, like talking to a Bible. 518 00:22:46,580 --> 00:22:47,409 - Touché. 519 00:22:51,723 --> 00:22:52,552 I followed her. 520 00:22:54,761 --> 00:22:56,383 - Ouch. - Yeah. 521 00:22:59,559 --> 00:23:01,043 I kept telling myself 522 00:23:01,077 --> 00:23:02,941 that I was just making sure she was safe, you know? 523 00:23:05,012 --> 00:23:06,462 Even when I followed her here. 524 00:23:08,947 --> 00:23:10,673 And then I followed her here again. 525 00:23:12,261 --> 00:23:13,089 And again. 526 00:23:15,954 --> 00:23:19,510 This was their place, Friday was their night. 527 00:23:20,718 --> 00:23:22,271 I checked in to the room next door once. 528 00:23:25,343 --> 00:23:26,482 It's stupid, but... 529 00:23:30,072 --> 00:23:31,763 it was nice hear her laugh again. 530 00:23:36,699 --> 00:23:37,562 I confronted her. 531 00:23:40,427 --> 00:23:41,255 Six months. 532 00:23:42,912 --> 00:23:45,294 I called and sure enough, there was a reservation. 533 00:23:45,328 --> 00:23:46,122 - Maybe you missed them. 534 00:23:46,157 --> 00:23:47,089 - I didn't miss them. 535 00:23:48,159 --> 00:23:49,194 I have an alarm clock. 536 00:23:49,229 --> 00:23:50,333 A clear view of the parking lot. 537 00:23:50,368 --> 00:23:52,439 I know what car she drives. 538 00:23:53,613 --> 00:23:54,752 And just in case, I told the desk clerk 539 00:23:54,786 --> 00:23:57,064 to call me when they check in. 540 00:23:57,099 --> 00:23:58,514 - Wow, very thorough. 541 00:23:58,549 --> 00:23:59,377 - Thanks. 542 00:23:59,411 --> 00:24:00,792 - So then what? 543 00:24:00,827 --> 00:24:01,724 When? 544 00:24:01,759 --> 00:24:03,036 - I mean after you shoot Leo 545 00:24:03,070 --> 00:24:04,969 and throw this bloody note at your wife. 546 00:24:05,003 --> 00:24:05,797 Then what? 547 00:24:05,832 --> 00:24:06,764 - Who knows. 548 00:24:06,798 --> 00:24:08,110 Maybe I'll go to a Cubs game. 549 00:24:08,144 --> 00:24:09,352 - Well, that'd be fun. 550 00:24:09,387 --> 00:24:10,526 - Yeah and I may need a cigarette. 551 00:24:10,561 --> 00:24:11,700 You mind if I borrow a few pages? 552 00:24:11,734 --> 00:24:13,460 Nothing important, just Old Testament stuff. 553 00:24:13,495 --> 00:24:15,393 - Ha ha cheeky. 554 00:24:22,469 --> 00:24:25,955 You know, I couldn't help but notice 555 00:24:25,990 --> 00:24:28,717 you know your way around Scripture better than most. 556 00:24:29,890 --> 00:24:31,374 - O yeah? 557 00:24:31,409 --> 00:24:32,548 - Yeah. 558 00:24:32,583 --> 00:24:33,825 And you don't strike me as a religion major. 559 00:24:33,860 --> 00:24:35,102 - Why's that? 560 00:24:35,137 --> 00:24:37,519 - Religion majors tend to be less... 561 00:24:37,553 --> 00:24:39,106 Yes? 562 00:24:39,141 --> 00:24:40,314 - Disheveled. 563 00:24:42,627 --> 00:24:45,043 - You and I know very different religion majors. 564 00:24:46,286 --> 00:24:47,563 Anyways it's a long story. 565 00:24:49,185 --> 00:24:50,014 - I got time. 566 00:24:56,296 --> 00:25:00,472 - My dad was a pastor. 567 00:25:02,647 --> 00:25:03,510 Was? 568 00:25:04,822 --> 00:25:07,963 - Yeah, he died a few years ago. 569 00:25:10,275 --> 00:25:13,485 Five, five years ago. 570 00:25:17,213 --> 00:25:20,044 Highly aggressive early onset Alzheimer's. 571 00:25:22,218 --> 00:25:23,116 - I'm sorry. 572 00:25:24,117 --> 00:25:24,945 - Thanks. 573 00:25:30,399 --> 00:25:31,538 We rushed the wedding. 574 00:25:34,092 --> 00:25:35,231 Wanted him to be there. 575 00:25:36,957 --> 00:25:38,925 He didn't remember my name at the time. 576 00:25:41,272 --> 00:25:42,445 And Mom was a mess, 577 00:25:42,480 --> 00:25:44,240 she didn't make it through the ceremony, 578 00:25:45,552 --> 00:25:47,105 And on top of all the dad stuff, 579 00:25:47,140 --> 00:25:50,626 Cindy wasn't a Christian which Mom was just ballistic about. 580 00:25:53,042 --> 00:25:54,630 She thought she was immature. 581 00:25:59,635 --> 00:26:00,705 I guess she was right. 582 00:26:06,504 --> 00:26:08,748 My dad was one of the best men that I ever knew. 583 00:26:09,852 --> 00:26:11,129 A real solid guy. 584 00:26:12,510 --> 00:26:15,409 And when he got sick, I started to pray. 585 00:26:17,998 --> 00:26:18,896 And I prayed. 586 00:26:20,173 --> 00:26:21,864 Every morning, every evening. 587 00:26:21,899 --> 00:26:23,728 Fasting, Bible study, the whole bit. 588 00:26:23,763 --> 00:26:25,281 Nothing, nothing, nothing. 589 00:26:27,456 --> 00:26:28,526 I was in a bad way. 590 00:26:31,391 --> 00:26:35,498 That's when I met Cindy, and she lit up my life. 591 00:26:35,533 --> 00:26:37,190 Man, her singing, her dancing. 592 00:26:37,224 --> 00:26:38,674 She was fearless. 593 00:26:41,643 --> 00:26:42,471 Fearless! 594 00:26:46,061 --> 00:26:47,821 I don't know, maybe I needed something to love, 595 00:26:47,856 --> 00:26:49,927 or something to save because my Dad, 596 00:26:51,135 --> 00:26:52,930 I couldn't save him and it hurt so much, 597 00:26:52,964 --> 00:26:54,172 that I became numb. 598 00:26:58,556 --> 00:27:01,628 And my faith broke a little more each day until finally, 599 00:27:01,663 --> 00:27:06,219 I told God, that if Dad got better, I'd be in. 600 00:27:06,253 --> 00:27:07,945 And if he didn't, then I'd be out. 601 00:27:12,639 --> 00:27:13,605 He's gone now. 602 00:27:18,645 --> 00:27:19,577 - How is your mom? 603 00:27:19,611 --> 00:27:20,440 - Terrible. 604 00:27:21,959 --> 00:27:23,098 She still prays for me. 605 00:27:23,132 --> 00:27:24,409 Prays for Dad, too. 606 00:27:25,825 --> 00:27:28,655 She thinks that if she has enough faith 607 00:27:28,690 --> 00:27:29,967 he'll raise from the dead. 608 00:27:32,521 --> 00:27:34,143 Matthew 10, right? 609 00:27:34,178 --> 00:27:35,662 - That's not what I meant. 610 00:27:35,697 --> 00:27:37,112 - Well it doesn't matter what you meant, all right? 611 00:27:37,146 --> 00:27:38,734 This is what happens when you get shoved down the throat 612 00:27:38,769 --> 00:27:40,702 of vulnerable, desperate people. 613 00:27:42,876 --> 00:27:44,084 Raised from the dead? 614 00:27:44,119 --> 00:27:45,154 Isn't that crazy? 615 00:27:46,224 --> 00:27:47,432 And this is what I hate. 616 00:27:47,467 --> 00:27:48,779 I hate when all of this faith crap 617 00:27:48,813 --> 00:27:50,090 gets in the way of what's real. 618 00:27:50,125 --> 00:27:51,471 You know? 619 00:27:51,505 --> 00:27:52,990 I mean, my poor mom may be hung up on the fact 620 00:27:53,024 --> 00:27:54,439 that Dad's gonna come back from the dead 621 00:27:54,474 --> 00:27:55,717 for the rest of her life. 622 00:27:55,751 --> 00:27:57,822 I wish she would just accept it and move on. 623 00:27:57,857 --> 00:27:58,754 Dad's dead. 624 00:28:01,930 --> 00:28:06,244 I mean what am I supposed to do with that, huh? 625 00:28:09,627 --> 00:28:10,455 - I don't know. 626 00:28:13,596 --> 00:28:14,597 - That's a first. 627 00:28:19,602 --> 00:28:21,535 - I hope your mom comes around. 628 00:28:21,570 --> 00:28:26,368 - Yeah, yeah I hope she's okay. 629 00:28:30,924 --> 00:28:31,753 - You know... 630 00:28:35,446 --> 00:28:40,140 I think there's a spot in there where we agree. 631 00:28:41,590 --> 00:28:44,351 - That faith is a poisonous substitute for reality? 632 00:28:45,490 --> 00:28:46,595 - No. 633 00:28:46,629 --> 00:28:47,458 Not there. 634 00:28:49,356 --> 00:28:53,947 That death is the worst. 635 00:28:56,191 --> 00:28:57,468 - Death's the worst. 636 00:28:58,745 --> 00:29:00,540 Yeah, I think I can get behind that. 637 00:29:02,266 --> 00:29:04,233 - Not by design, you know? 638 00:29:04,268 --> 00:29:05,994 People weren't originally made to die. 639 00:29:06,028 --> 00:29:07,927 - I got news for you friend. 640 00:29:07,961 --> 00:29:09,100 - I mean... 641 00:29:09,135 --> 00:29:13,070 Anyway, death is the worst. 642 00:29:14,036 --> 00:29:15,106 - Yeah. 643 00:29:15,141 --> 00:29:16,694 Yeah, it's pretty bad. 644 00:29:20,871 --> 00:29:21,699 - And yet. 645 00:29:23,183 --> 00:29:24,667 - What? 646 00:29:24,702 --> 00:29:29,017 - I mean, we both agree that death is a bad thing. 647 00:29:30,535 --> 00:29:31,640 You just said so yourself. 648 00:29:31,674 --> 00:29:33,331 It's, it's permanent. 649 00:29:33,366 --> 00:29:35,713 Your father, he can't come back. 650 00:29:35,747 --> 00:29:36,921 And that hurts. 651 00:29:39,406 --> 00:29:40,614 - Yes? 652 00:29:40,649 --> 00:29:43,203 - Then well Leo, I mean he's not gonna be able 653 00:29:43,238 --> 00:29:44,170 to come back either. 654 00:29:44,204 --> 00:29:45,654 - Yes? 655 00:29:45,688 --> 00:29:47,483 - Are you gonna think about your father while you kill Leo? 656 00:29:47,518 --> 00:29:48,864 What about his father. - Yeah? 657 00:29:48,899 --> 00:29:50,314 - His family. - Yeah? 658 00:29:50,348 --> 00:29:51,487 - This of all the damage your father's death caused. 659 00:29:51,522 --> 00:29:53,282 - You're the worst, you know that. 660 00:29:53,317 --> 00:29:55,491 Taking my pain and guilting me with it. 661 00:29:55,526 --> 00:29:57,252 - So it's my fault that you feel guilty? 662 00:29:57,286 --> 00:29:58,460 - No, no. 663 00:29:58,494 --> 00:29:59,737 - It has nothing to do with the fact 664 00:29:59,771 --> 00:30:01,152 that you're about to shoot someone. 665 00:30:01,187 --> 00:30:02,533 - That's real shitting man, to use pain as a tool. 666 00:30:02,567 --> 00:30:03,603 - Not use, address! 667 00:30:03,637 --> 00:30:04,811 I'm addressing your pain. 668 00:30:04,846 --> 00:30:05,639 - You don't get to. 669 00:30:05,674 --> 00:30:07,124 - Pete, I can help. 670 00:30:07,158 --> 00:30:08,642 - I decide, you don't get to force and manipulate me. 671 00:30:08,677 --> 00:30:10,127 Can you just stop and think for one second? 672 00:30:10,161 --> 00:30:11,162 - You know you dig and dig, you pretend like you care. 673 00:30:11,197 --> 00:30:12,405 But you just want to find an in. 674 00:30:12,439 --> 00:30:13,613 Isn't that right? - Listen to me. 675 00:30:13,647 --> 00:30:14,407 - You just want to know what makes me weak! 676 00:30:14,441 --> 00:30:15,373 - What if you die? 677 00:30:21,103 --> 00:30:22,035 - Screw you, man. 678 00:30:22,070 --> 00:30:23,381 - What if Leo has a gun? 679 00:30:23,416 --> 00:30:24,693 I mean, he knows you know. 680 00:30:24,727 --> 00:30:25,867 She probably told him, right? - I don't care. 681 00:30:25,901 --> 00:30:26,522 - I mean, she would have told him. 682 00:30:26,557 --> 00:30:27,730 - I don't care. 683 00:30:27,765 --> 00:30:28,524 You don't get to tell me what to do. 684 00:30:28,559 --> 00:30:29,974 - Don't remind me. 685 00:30:30,009 --> 00:30:31,286 I just sit here offering you words of truth and love- 686 00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:33,875 - You have no authority here! 687 00:30:38,880 --> 00:30:39,708 - Your loss. 688 00:30:46,508 --> 00:30:48,268 - Who the hell do you think you are? 689 00:30:48,303 --> 00:30:49,235 - The Word of God. 690 00:30:49,269 --> 00:30:50,374 The Word of God? 691 00:30:50,408 --> 00:30:52,031 - Straight from the mouth. 692 00:30:52,065 --> 00:30:54,619 - You mean the mouth of 40 violent dead men. 693 00:30:54,654 --> 00:30:56,449 - Who were inspired by the Holy Spirit several- 694 00:30:56,483 --> 00:30:57,277 - Oh good! 695 00:30:57,312 --> 00:30:58,623 Insane violent dead men. 696 00:30:58,658 --> 00:31:00,073 Who got high on some 697 00:31:00,108 --> 00:31:01,557 Holy Spirit and wrote a book - They weren't insane. 698 00:31:01,592 --> 00:31:02,248 You think I'm insane? - for a buncha straight men. 699 00:31:02,282 --> 00:31:02,938 - I am inspired. 700 00:31:02,973 --> 00:31:04,181 I am the Bible. 701 00:31:04,215 --> 00:31:04,906 - You hurt people. - I'm the Word of God! 702 00:31:04,940 --> 00:31:05,872 - John 1. 703 00:31:05,907 --> 00:31:08,530 Jesus is the Word of God. 704 00:31:11,636 --> 00:31:13,017 That's gotta be true, isn't it? 705 00:31:13,052 --> 00:31:13,915 - Yes. 706 00:31:14,985 --> 00:31:16,124 - You aren't Jesus, are you? 707 00:31:16,158 --> 00:31:18,229 - No. - No, you're not the Father, 708 00:31:18,264 --> 00:31:19,368 or the Son or the Holy Spirit. 709 00:31:19,403 --> 00:31:20,300 - I'm Scripture for God's sake. 710 00:31:20,335 --> 00:31:21,992 - Right. You're Scripture. 711 00:31:22,026 --> 00:31:23,959 You're the Word of God, but you aren't the voice of God, 712 00:31:23,994 --> 00:31:25,064 you're not God himself. 713 00:31:25,098 --> 00:31:25,996 - Yes but you need the Word. 714 00:31:26,030 --> 00:31:27,100 - Like you need God? 715 00:31:27,135 --> 00:31:27,929 - Yes. 716 00:31:29,896 --> 00:31:31,035 No! - Oh, so I don't need you? 717 00:31:31,070 --> 00:31:32,140 You only go so far. 718 00:31:32,174 --> 00:31:33,072 - Oh, trust me. I go pretty far. 719 00:31:33,106 --> 00:31:33,935 - Yeah, but not far enough. 720 00:31:33,969 --> 00:31:35,177 - I go pretty far. 721 00:31:35,212 --> 00:31:36,213 - Easy man, your Old Testament's showing. 722 00:31:36,247 --> 00:31:37,145 - I go pretty far. 723 00:32:16,978 --> 00:32:18,117 Hey, I got a question. 724 00:32:19,290 --> 00:32:21,603 What's it like getting to believe whatever? 725 00:32:21,637 --> 00:32:25,538 - I don't believe whatever, I just don't believe in you. 726 00:32:28,058 --> 00:32:29,818 You're a cocky son of a bitch, you know that. 727 00:32:29,852 --> 00:32:30,750 Look who's talking. 728 00:32:30,784 --> 00:32:31,993 - Yeah, look who's asking. 729 00:32:34,029 --> 00:32:37,032 - I mean it's just so incredible, 730 00:32:37,067 --> 00:32:39,345 God lets people believe anything. 731 00:32:41,761 --> 00:32:43,280 It's pretty great actually. 732 00:32:43,314 --> 00:32:44,143 - Yeah? 733 00:32:44,177 --> 00:32:45,661 Man, it's wild. 734 00:32:45,696 --> 00:32:50,701 Oh, what's the craziest thing you ever believed? 735 00:32:51,909 --> 00:32:52,737 - The Bible. 736 00:32:53,600 --> 00:32:55,050 - Fine. 737 00:32:55,085 --> 00:32:57,432 What's the second craziest thing you ever believed? 738 00:32:58,536 --> 00:32:59,882 - You can't judge me, okay? 739 00:32:59,917 --> 00:33:00,745 - Okay. 740 00:33:02,264 --> 00:33:04,956 - When I was a kid I believed that Pokemon were real. 741 00:33:04,991 --> 00:33:05,888 - No way! 742 00:33:05,923 --> 00:33:07,062 - Yeah. 743 00:33:07,097 --> 00:33:08,063 - Like really believed it though. 744 00:33:08,098 --> 00:33:09,478 - Oh yeah man, I was positive 745 00:33:09,513 --> 00:33:11,377 I was gonna catch a Charmander in my backyard. 746 00:33:12,550 --> 00:33:13,379 - Wow! 747 00:33:15,036 --> 00:33:15,967 What's a Pokemon? 748 00:33:17,935 --> 00:33:21,076 - Oh, it's this super fun Satan thing 749 00:33:21,111 --> 00:33:22,595 that people used to do on the weekends. 750 00:33:22,629 --> 00:33:23,389 - What? 751 00:33:23,423 --> 00:33:24,597 - Oh, yeah. 752 00:33:24,631 --> 00:33:26,185 You go off into the deep grass, maybe a cave. 753 00:33:26,219 --> 00:33:29,843 You summon up a Scyther, Pinsirs, Mr. Mime. 754 00:33:29,878 --> 00:33:31,880 - Pete, you were a Satan worshipper? 755 00:33:31,914 --> 00:33:32,984 - Nope. 756 00:33:33,019 --> 00:33:33,951 I Gotcha. 757 00:33:33,985 --> 00:33:35,090 - Ugh. 758 00:33:35,125 --> 00:33:35,918 - Ugh? 759 00:33:35,953 --> 00:33:37,023 Use your words, Gid. 760 00:33:37,989 --> 00:33:39,060 You're better than that. 761 00:33:39,094 --> 00:33:39,922 - Pokemon. 762 00:33:42,373 --> 00:33:43,581 - Okay what about you? 763 00:33:43,616 --> 00:33:44,824 What's the craziest thing you believe. 764 00:33:44,858 --> 00:33:45,756 - Oh. 765 00:33:45,790 --> 00:33:48,103 I mean, I believe myself. 766 00:33:48,138 --> 00:33:50,140 I'm kinda locked in. 767 00:33:50,174 --> 00:33:51,002 I don't really change. 768 00:33:51,037 --> 00:33:52,625 That's why I asked you. 769 00:33:52,659 --> 00:33:54,144 I'm a codified system of beliefs. 770 00:33:54,178 --> 00:33:55,593 - Exactly, that's what I mean. 771 00:33:55,628 --> 00:33:59,252 What's the craziest codified belief you got in you? 772 00:33:59,287 --> 00:34:00,426 - Oh, that's tough! 773 00:34:01,668 --> 00:34:04,809 Well there's an angel with a cow face. 774 00:34:04,844 --> 00:34:06,156 Ezekiel, it's trippy. 775 00:34:07,536 --> 00:34:10,677 A 7-headed dragon chasing a pregnant woman. 776 00:34:10,712 --> 00:34:13,163 Revelation, also trippy. 777 00:34:13,197 --> 00:34:16,925 And then there's the Leviathan and the Nephilim. 778 00:34:19,721 --> 00:34:23,069 Honestly, the craziest thing to me, 779 00:34:23,104 --> 00:34:26,866 is that God, big infinite God, 780 00:34:26,900 --> 00:34:31,250 let these itty bitty little people make infinite choices. 781 00:34:32,320 --> 00:34:33,562 Like believing whatever. 782 00:34:36,600 --> 00:34:38,395 That's it, that's the craziest thing. 783 00:34:41,087 --> 00:34:45,056 - You also can sit back and judge us when we choose wrong. 784 00:34:46,437 --> 00:34:48,163 - You don't always choose wrong. 785 00:34:48,198 --> 00:34:49,406 - Not that you'd know. 786 00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:51,339 - Come on, if there is one thing I know 787 00:34:51,373 --> 00:34:53,030 it's right and wrong. 788 00:34:53,064 --> 00:34:54,273 - Please. 789 00:34:54,307 --> 00:34:55,239 - Really? You disagree? 790 00:34:55,274 --> 00:34:56,516 - Yes I disagree. 791 00:34:56,551 --> 00:34:58,208 Morality in the Bible is all over the place, 792 00:34:58,242 --> 00:35:01,832 and morality through God, well that's impossible. 793 00:35:01,866 --> 00:35:02,764 - What? 794 00:35:02,798 --> 00:35:04,317 - Oh yeah, the idea of morality 795 00:35:04,352 --> 00:35:06,008 and the God of the Bible don't fit together. 796 00:35:06,043 --> 00:35:07,700 - That's ridiculous. - It's true. 797 00:35:07,734 --> 00:35:09,011 - Explain. - No. 798 00:35:09,046 --> 00:35:09,840 - Come on. 799 00:35:09,874 --> 00:35:11,428 - Ugh. - Ugh? 800 00:35:11,462 --> 00:35:12,877 You scared? 801 00:35:12,912 --> 00:35:13,913 - No. 802 00:35:13,947 --> 00:35:15,397 - Okay. 803 00:35:15,432 --> 00:35:19,229 - Fine, but if I win this one, you have to leave me alone. 804 00:35:19,263 --> 00:35:20,471 - What? 805 00:35:20,506 --> 00:35:21,679 - If I can prove to you that morality 806 00:35:21,714 --> 00:35:24,234 and the God of the Bible don't fit together, 807 00:35:24,268 --> 00:35:27,858 then you go back in the drawer; talk over. 808 00:35:27,892 --> 00:35:29,998 - Okay, Mr. Religion Major. 809 00:35:30,032 --> 00:35:34,209 And if I win, then you have to take me to a Cubs game. 810 00:35:34,244 --> 00:35:35,106 - No. - Yep! 811 00:35:35,141 --> 00:35:35,935 - Not happening. 812 00:35:35,969 --> 00:35:37,350 - Please? 813 00:35:37,385 --> 00:35:38,386 - People don't bring Bibles to baseball games. 814 00:35:38,420 --> 00:35:39,663 - You can put me in a sleeve, 815 00:35:39,697 --> 00:35:41,009 everybody'll think I'm a dictionary. 816 00:35:41,043 --> 00:35:42,390 - People don't bring dictionaries to baseball games- 817 00:35:42,424 --> 00:35:43,874 - Please, please, please, please! 818 00:35:43,908 --> 00:35:46,773 please, please, please, please 819 00:35:46,808 --> 00:35:48,913 please, please, please 820 00:35:48,948 --> 00:35:49,776 please, please, please, please 821 00:35:49,811 --> 00:35:50,605 - Fine. - Yes! 822 00:35:50,639 --> 00:35:52,020 Okay. 823 00:35:53,608 --> 00:35:56,783 Prosecution takes opening arguments, sir. 824 00:35:56,818 --> 00:35:59,648 - Let's pretend that God exists, and that morality, 825 00:35:59,683 --> 00:36:01,409 right and wrong, flow from him. 826 00:36:01,443 --> 00:36:05,240 It comes from his magical God beard. 827 00:36:05,275 --> 00:36:06,690 Whatever. - Love it. 828 00:36:06,724 --> 00:36:10,072 - Except that if God sets the standard 829 00:36:10,107 --> 00:36:12,247 for moral and immoral, then right and wrong 830 00:36:12,282 --> 00:36:14,629 will change at the snap of his God-fingers. 831 00:36:14,663 --> 00:36:15,733 - Faulty premise. 832 00:36:15,768 --> 00:36:17,287 God doesn't change. 833 00:36:17,321 --> 00:36:20,462 Morality stays the same because God stays the same. 834 00:36:20,497 --> 00:36:21,843 Point for Gideon. 835 00:36:21,877 --> 00:36:22,775 - What about Abraham? 836 00:36:22,809 --> 00:36:23,603 - My Abraham? 837 00:36:23,638 --> 00:36:24,639 - Yes! Your Abraham. 838 00:36:24,673 --> 00:36:26,848 God asked him to kill his son. 839 00:36:26,882 --> 00:36:28,021 Yes? - Yes, but God stopped him. 840 00:36:28,056 --> 00:36:29,230 - Exactly! 841 00:36:29,264 --> 00:36:30,645 He asked him and then he stopped him. 842 00:36:30,679 --> 00:36:32,094 He changed his mind. 843 00:36:32,129 --> 00:36:32,923 - Point for Pete! 844 00:36:32,957 --> 00:36:33,751 - Objection! 845 00:36:33,786 --> 00:36:34,787 - Overruled! 846 00:36:34,821 --> 00:36:36,582 He's either a liar or he's sick. 847 00:36:36,616 --> 00:36:40,344 How, how then can I rely on God for moral guidance? 848 00:36:40,379 --> 00:36:42,381 His morality is constantly shifting. 849 00:36:42,415 --> 00:36:43,244 Two points for Pete! 850 00:36:43,278 --> 00:36:44,797 - Okay, okay. 851 00:36:45,798 --> 00:36:46,695 My turn. 852 00:36:47,593 --> 00:36:49,491 The defense begins. 853 00:36:51,286 --> 00:36:52,218 Let's zoom out. 854 00:36:52,253 --> 00:36:53,909 - Hate it. 855 00:36:53,944 --> 00:36:58,051 - Now you say God and his morality are constantly shifting. 856 00:36:59,156 --> 00:37:00,537 But to say that something is shifting 857 00:37:00,571 --> 00:37:02,401 implies that you are on stable ground 858 00:37:02,435 --> 00:37:04,817 and able to perceive said shift. 859 00:37:04,851 --> 00:37:06,128 Your argument acknowledges 860 00:37:06,163 --> 00:37:08,199 that there's a stable objective morality. 861 00:37:08,234 --> 00:37:09,684 Yes? - Proceed. 862 00:37:09,718 --> 00:37:11,513 - So there's an immovable code of right and wrong. 863 00:37:11,548 --> 00:37:13,343 - Correct. - We agree. 864 00:37:13,377 --> 00:37:15,345 But who defines that code? 865 00:37:15,379 --> 00:37:18,693 Either God is shifting, and you are stable. 866 00:37:18,727 --> 00:37:22,248 Or you are shifting, and God is stable. 867 00:37:22,283 --> 00:37:23,249 It's like the sun. 868 00:37:23,284 --> 00:37:25,769 It looks like the sun is rising, 869 00:37:25,803 --> 00:37:28,323 when in fact it's you that's moving. 870 00:37:28,358 --> 00:37:30,567 Now if I have to guess which one is stable 871 00:37:30,601 --> 00:37:34,225 between you and God, I choose the creator of the universe 872 00:37:34,260 --> 00:37:35,848 not the guy with the gun. 873 00:37:35,882 --> 00:37:37,090 Two points to two! 874 00:37:37,125 --> 00:37:38,885 - Let's bring it back to morality, though. 875 00:37:38,920 --> 00:37:39,955 Shall we? 876 00:37:39,990 --> 00:37:41,992 Remember context? 877 00:37:42,026 --> 00:37:45,685 You bend over backwards to qualify God's decisions. 878 00:37:45,720 --> 00:37:48,619 God violates my conscience! 879 00:37:48,654 --> 00:37:51,795 Clearly, then, I must have a moral measuring stick 880 00:37:51,829 --> 00:37:53,037 apart from God. 881 00:37:53,072 --> 00:37:54,245 Point! 882 00:37:54,280 --> 00:37:55,695 - And who made your measuring stick? 883 00:37:55,730 --> 00:37:57,973 You're appealing to a moral code without an author. 884 00:37:58,008 --> 00:37:59,354 A substance without a source. 885 00:37:59,389 --> 00:38:01,425 An effect without a cause. 886 00:38:01,460 --> 00:38:02,702 Point! - Not necessarily. 887 00:38:02,737 --> 00:38:04,842 - Pete, you're not looking to disprove God. 888 00:38:04,877 --> 00:38:06,119 You're looking for a better god. 889 00:38:06,154 --> 00:38:07,500 - Damn right. 890 00:38:07,535 --> 00:38:09,330 Your god is an objectively bad communicator. 891 00:38:09,364 --> 00:38:10,814 Point! 892 00:38:10,848 --> 00:38:12,988 - Oh so he is moral, you just don't understand him. 893 00:38:13,023 --> 00:38:13,817 Point! 894 00:38:13,851 --> 00:38:14,680 He ties the game. 895 00:38:16,129 --> 00:38:17,338 - Fine. 896 00:38:17,372 --> 00:38:20,582 You're saying God is always moral. 897 00:38:20,617 --> 00:38:21,963 - No, he defines moral. 898 00:38:21,997 --> 00:38:23,205 - Whatever. 899 00:38:23,240 --> 00:38:26,864 So all I need to do is find one example of God 900 00:38:26,899 --> 00:38:29,384 not being moral, and I win. 901 00:38:31,559 --> 00:38:32,836 - Good luck. 902 00:38:32,870 --> 00:38:36,011 - Okay. Genocide. 903 00:38:37,668 --> 00:38:38,876 - Hmm. 904 00:38:38,911 --> 00:38:41,810 - Killing children as part of a plague. 905 00:38:43,191 --> 00:38:47,298 Sacking Canaan, and calling it Promised Land. 906 00:38:47,333 --> 00:38:51,268 Drowning all of humanity, and oh look a rainbow. 907 00:38:55,445 --> 00:38:56,860 These are war crimes. 908 00:38:56,894 --> 00:39:00,139 I say these are objectively terrible things to do. 909 00:39:00,173 --> 00:39:00,967 Terrible. 910 00:39:01,002 --> 00:39:02,210 Do you agree? 911 00:39:02,244 --> 00:39:03,073 - I agree. 912 00:39:04,108 --> 00:39:05,109 - So I win? 913 00:39:05,144 --> 00:39:06,352 - No! 914 00:39:06,387 --> 00:39:08,181 While these things are terrible and horrifying, 915 00:39:08,216 --> 00:39:10,218 they must have been much better than the alternative. 916 00:39:10,252 --> 00:39:11,150 - What is what precisely? 917 00:39:11,184 --> 00:39:12,323 - I don't know. 918 00:39:12,358 --> 00:39:13,152 - What? 919 00:39:13,186 --> 00:39:13,980 - I don't know! 920 00:39:14,015 --> 00:39:15,430 And that's my point. 921 00:39:15,465 --> 00:39:16,742 We don't know what the alternative would have been. 922 00:39:16,776 --> 00:39:18,847 A world without freedom? 923 00:39:18,882 --> 00:39:19,883 Greater evil? 924 00:39:19,917 --> 00:39:21,436 No consequence for injustice? 925 00:39:21,471 --> 00:39:22,920 Who knows. 926 00:39:22,955 --> 00:39:24,128 But the answer is certainly not that God is immoral, 927 00:39:24,163 --> 00:39:26,752 God is good definitionally, 928 00:39:26,786 --> 00:39:29,858 he made goodness, he can't not be good! 929 00:39:29,893 --> 00:39:31,584 It's like asking a triangle to be a square! 930 00:39:31,619 --> 00:39:33,448 - But he's changed his mind before. 931 00:39:33,483 --> 00:39:35,070 - From your point of view. 932 00:39:38,315 --> 00:39:40,628 And you could too if you wanted. 933 00:39:45,080 --> 00:39:46,944 - You just pivoted off of morality. 934 00:39:46,979 --> 00:39:48,601 - You just pivoted off of murder. 935 00:39:56,816 --> 00:39:58,577 - You're a piece of work, you know that? 936 00:39:58,611 --> 00:39:59,819 - You kidding me? 937 00:39:59,854 --> 00:40:00,613 I'm an all-time best seller baby. 938 00:40:00,648 --> 00:40:01,442 I'm good at this. 939 00:40:01,476 --> 00:40:02,373 - That I did not say. 940 00:40:02,408 --> 00:40:03,789 - Here, let me prove it to ya. 941 00:40:03,823 --> 00:40:06,412 You can go into some prayer or meditation time. 942 00:40:06,447 --> 00:40:07,862 I'll give you some juicy verse to chew on. 943 00:40:07,896 --> 00:40:10,174 - I'll get all teary eyed and start confessing? 944 00:40:10,209 --> 00:40:11,382 My God! - Yes! 945 00:40:11,417 --> 00:40:13,143 Then the Holy Spirit can come and comfort you 946 00:40:13,177 --> 00:40:15,490 like a loving father holding his sweet precious son. 947 00:40:15,525 --> 00:40:16,491 - Oh you mean Jesus. 948 00:40:19,011 --> 00:40:19,943 - Would you stop? 949 00:40:22,911 --> 00:40:24,430 - I swear I will throw you out that window. 950 00:40:24,465 --> 00:40:25,258 - Oh would you please? 951 00:40:25,293 --> 00:40:26,467 I'd see the world! 952 00:40:26,501 --> 00:40:27,675 - You're unbelievable. - That's not true. 953 00:40:27,709 --> 00:40:28,814 Hundreds of millions of people believe in me. 954 00:40:28,848 --> 00:40:30,022 - Not me. 955 00:40:30,056 --> 00:40:30,747 - Yes, you've made that abundantly clear. 956 00:40:30,781 --> 00:40:31,575 - Good. 957 00:40:31,610 --> 00:40:32,438 - Sigh. 958 00:41:06,265 --> 00:41:08,163 Pete, you've said a lot 959 00:41:09,786 --> 00:41:11,650 about how wrong I am. 960 00:41:13,030 --> 00:41:15,688 You've got a lot of things you don't believe. 961 00:41:17,448 --> 00:41:20,417 What exactly do you believe? 962 00:41:24,732 --> 00:41:25,733 - I believe... 963 00:41:31,601 --> 00:41:36,467 The truth is I feel the happiest when I do something. 964 00:41:39,747 --> 00:41:41,162 I never felt happy with God. 965 00:41:44,199 --> 00:41:48,031 I felt afraid with God, I felt alone with God. 966 00:41:49,860 --> 00:41:51,897 I feel the safest when I rely on myself. 967 00:41:51,931 --> 00:41:53,761 And I'm not good, 968 00:41:57,523 --> 00:41:58,455 but I want to be. 969 00:42:00,043 --> 00:42:01,009 I want to know myself. 970 00:42:01,044 --> 00:42:02,079 Improve myself! 971 00:42:02,114 --> 00:42:04,185 And religion. God. 972 00:42:04,219 --> 00:42:05,013 God. 973 00:42:06,394 --> 00:42:09,017 Any god that damns humanity for eating an apple 974 00:42:09,052 --> 00:42:12,227 in pursuit of knowledge is no god of mine. 975 00:42:13,712 --> 00:42:15,610 Anything that limits personal responsibility, 976 00:42:15,645 --> 00:42:18,302 self-improvement through self reflection is wrong, 977 00:42:18,337 --> 00:42:20,684 is inadequate and it is evil. 978 00:42:20,719 --> 00:42:23,411 Religion is just the fog of war 979 00:42:23,445 --> 00:42:25,586 that separates mankind from himself. 980 00:42:29,624 --> 00:42:30,970 It's funny. 981 00:42:31,005 --> 00:42:32,903 It's kinda like what you said earlier. 982 00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:35,596 I believe in me. 983 00:42:38,046 --> 00:42:38,875 - Me. 984 00:42:41,740 --> 00:42:42,603 Self. 985 00:42:44,259 --> 00:42:45,364 That's all that I am. 986 00:42:46,710 --> 00:42:48,056 - What if you're not enough? 987 00:42:48,091 --> 00:42:49,437 For what exactly. 988 00:42:49,471 --> 00:42:52,060 - Everything you believe is based on you. 989 00:42:53,475 --> 00:42:54,787 What if you're not enough? 990 00:42:54,822 --> 00:42:55,650 - For what? 991 00:42:55,685 --> 00:42:56,513 For living, dying- 992 00:42:56,547 --> 00:42:57,376 - Let me rephrase. 993 00:42:57,410 --> 00:43:00,275 Pete, you're not enough. 994 00:43:02,484 --> 00:43:04,141 If you are trying to shoulder the weight 995 00:43:04,176 --> 00:43:08,629 of justifying your own existence, it's going to kill you. 996 00:43:11,908 --> 00:43:15,912 But, you know, when you fail. 997 00:43:15,946 --> 00:43:18,811 When! Not if. 998 00:43:18,846 --> 00:43:19,916 You don't measure up. 999 00:43:21,434 --> 00:43:24,679 God loves you with his whole heart. 1000 00:43:25,853 --> 00:43:28,096 He paid a ridiculous price to be with you, 1001 00:43:28,131 --> 00:43:29,960 to be your justice. 1002 00:43:29,995 --> 00:43:30,961 He loves you. 1003 00:43:30,996 --> 00:43:32,273 - There is no God. 1004 00:43:34,171 --> 00:43:35,000 - Come on! 1005 00:43:38,072 --> 00:43:38,900 Okay. 1006 00:43:40,281 --> 00:43:41,109 Tell me this. 1007 00:43:42,007 --> 00:43:43,698 If you knew there was a god, 1008 00:43:43,733 --> 00:43:47,529 a loving God up there, would you admit it? 1009 00:43:49,152 --> 00:43:49,980 Seriously? 1010 00:43:53,121 --> 00:43:54,329 See, you're not looking for truth, 1011 00:43:54,364 --> 00:43:55,296 for what's real. 1012 00:43:56,435 --> 00:43:57,608 You don't want there to be a god. 1013 00:43:57,643 --> 00:43:59,438 You can't believe that someone loves you. 1014 00:43:59,472 --> 00:44:00,542 You can't accept it. 1015 00:44:03,200 --> 00:44:06,134 You know what, I think you know there's a god. 1016 00:44:06,169 --> 00:44:07,066 Somewhere deep down. 1017 00:44:07,101 --> 00:44:08,343 - You don't know what I know. 1018 00:44:08,378 --> 00:44:09,828 - At least you're pretty darn sure. 1019 00:44:09,862 --> 00:44:11,243 And it feels safer to treat it like some big question mark 1020 00:44:11,277 --> 00:44:12,762 because of what if would mean. 1021 00:44:15,074 --> 00:44:16,662 Look, Pete. 1022 00:44:16,697 --> 00:44:18,906 I don't think you're in an existential philosophy crisis. 1023 00:44:18,940 --> 00:44:20,114 I think you're in pain. 1024 00:44:21,667 --> 00:44:24,912 And there's a good, big God up there who loves you. 1025 00:44:24,946 --> 00:44:25,740 Let him in. 1026 00:44:25,775 --> 00:44:26,707 - "Let him in"? 1027 00:44:28,294 --> 00:44:29,710 "I know the plans I have for you", 1028 00:44:29,744 --> 00:44:31,090 "Let go and let God." 1029 00:44:32,298 --> 00:44:34,542 It's all the same message, isn't it? 1030 00:44:34,576 --> 00:44:36,026 Be passive! 1031 00:44:36,061 --> 00:44:38,166 Stop trying to effect your own life and trust in the thing 1032 00:44:38,201 --> 00:44:40,617 that disappears the second you start looking for it. 1033 00:44:40,651 --> 00:44:43,724 You asked me, if there was a God would I admit it? 1034 00:44:46,450 --> 00:44:47,244 Yes! 1035 00:44:48,694 --> 00:44:49,868 Of course. 1036 00:44:49,902 --> 00:44:51,179 You don't think I want to be real? 1037 00:44:52,974 --> 00:44:55,114 You don't think I spent every Sunday, every dinner, 1038 00:44:55,149 --> 00:44:56,737 Christmas, every god damn second 1039 00:44:56,771 --> 00:44:58,255 with my father drinking the Kool-aid? 1040 00:44:58,290 --> 00:45:00,085 I was in the fold, man. 1041 00:45:01,224 --> 00:45:03,088 You talk like, I know there's a God, 1042 00:45:03,122 --> 00:45:04,020 but I wish there wasn't. 1043 00:45:04,054 --> 00:45:05,262 No! 1044 00:45:05,297 --> 00:45:07,368 I wish God was real, but where the fuck is he? 1045 00:45:08,403 --> 00:45:10,060 Your God and your religion 1046 00:45:10,095 --> 00:45:12,200 kept telling me the same thing, be passive. 1047 00:45:12,235 --> 00:45:13,892 It's like this disease that stuck to me 1048 00:45:13,926 --> 00:45:14,858 even when I left, and I'm done. 1049 00:45:14,893 --> 00:45:16,791 I'm done being passive. 1050 00:45:16,826 --> 00:45:18,068 I was passive with Cindy. 1051 00:45:18,103 --> 00:45:20,588 And I will not be passive with Leo. 1052 00:45:20,622 --> 00:45:21,658 - Is there a god? 1053 00:45:21,692 --> 00:45:23,177 - Why are you torturing me? 1054 00:45:24,834 --> 00:45:27,319 I already broke myself when I left Christianity. 1055 00:45:27,353 --> 00:45:28,561 And it hurt. 1056 00:45:28,596 --> 00:45:29,217 And now you want to break me again? 1057 00:45:29,252 --> 00:45:30,046 Why, what for? 1058 00:45:30,080 --> 00:45:30,874 - Is there a god? 1059 00:45:30,909 --> 00:45:32,427 - I don't know. 1060 00:45:32,462 --> 00:45:34,464 Do you believe there's a god? 1061 00:45:41,712 --> 00:45:42,541 - Yes. 1062 00:45:46,062 --> 00:45:47,684 - You're tired of being passive? 1063 00:45:48,581 --> 00:45:50,514 Pursue God. 1064 00:45:50,549 --> 00:45:51,446 Get up. 1065 00:45:51,481 --> 00:45:53,621 Start walking, run to him. 1066 00:45:53,655 --> 00:45:55,519 I'm not trying to torture you. 1067 00:45:55,554 --> 00:45:56,451 I'm trying to help you. 1068 00:45:56,486 --> 00:45:57,867 - I don't need your help. 1069 00:45:57,901 --> 00:45:59,454 - 'Cause you're just doing so great right now? 1070 00:45:59,489 --> 00:46:01,456 - No, because all you've got are words. 1071 00:46:02,457 --> 00:46:03,389 And all he's got... 1072 00:46:04,943 --> 00:46:05,736 He's not even here! 1073 00:46:05,771 --> 00:46:06,841 You think he'll help me? 1074 00:46:07,808 --> 00:46:08,981 I've heard that before. 1075 00:46:09,016 --> 00:46:09,913 I'm still waiting for him to show up. 1076 00:46:09,948 --> 00:46:11,397 - What would you ask of him? 1077 00:46:11,432 --> 00:46:12,813 To come in the flesh? 1078 00:46:12,847 --> 00:46:15,160 To sacrifice himself, to be crucified, 1079 00:46:15,194 --> 00:46:16,092 just so he could be with you? 1080 00:46:16,126 --> 00:46:17,645 - No, I want him here, now. 1081 00:46:17,679 --> 00:46:20,613 - Okay, so if God was here right now, you would stop? 1082 00:46:23,202 --> 00:46:24,031 - Yes. 1083 00:46:25,135 --> 00:46:26,171 - Great! 1084 00:46:26,205 --> 00:46:27,068 Pete. 1085 00:46:27,103 --> 00:46:28,104 He is. 1086 00:46:28,138 --> 00:46:28,967 Here. 1087 00:46:29,001 --> 00:46:30,140 Now. 1088 00:46:30,175 --> 00:46:31,038 In this very room. - No. Not invisible god. 1089 00:46:31,072 --> 00:46:32,487 Real God. 1090 00:46:32,522 --> 00:46:34,938 You talk about a relationship, God becoming flesh. 1091 00:46:34,973 --> 00:46:35,801 Why not now? 1092 00:46:35,836 --> 00:46:36,629 Why not here? 1093 00:46:36,664 --> 00:46:37,492 Why am I not enough? 1094 00:46:37,527 --> 00:46:38,735 - No Pete, that's not- 1095 00:46:38,769 --> 00:46:40,081 - I mean part a sea, burn a bush, be here. 1096 00:46:40,116 --> 00:46:41,600 Give me a sign. 1097 00:46:41,634 --> 00:46:43,257 - You've been talking to the Bible for the last 30 minutes. 1098 00:46:43,291 --> 00:46:44,706 How much more of a sign do you want? 1099 00:46:44,741 --> 00:46:49,746 - We have talked before, many times. 1100 00:46:50,471 --> 00:46:51,713 - Then you should know! 1101 00:46:51,748 --> 00:46:53,336 You've got to let go. 1102 00:46:53,370 --> 00:46:54,164 Trust him. 1103 00:46:54,199 --> 00:46:55,027 - Trust him. 1104 00:46:56,166 --> 00:46:57,271 Do you have any idea what that means? 1105 00:46:57,305 --> 00:46:58,099 - Of course, I do. 1106 00:46:58,134 --> 00:46:59,652 It means to have faith. 1107 00:46:59,687 --> 00:47:00,999 Hebrews 11:1. 1108 00:47:01,033 --> 00:47:02,103 Now faith is being sure- - No Gideon, 1109 00:47:02,138 --> 00:47:03,242 do you know what that means? 1110 00:47:03,277 --> 00:47:04,485 - I just said- - No, Gideon. 1111 00:47:04,519 --> 00:47:05,900 Do you know what it means to trust God 1112 00:47:05,935 --> 00:47:08,765 when your own father doesn't remember your name? 1113 00:47:08,799 --> 00:47:11,285 Or what it means to trust God when you argue with your mom 1114 00:47:11,319 --> 00:47:12,769 about whether to plan the funeral 1115 00:47:12,803 --> 00:47:14,253 because she thinks Dad will raise from the dead? 1116 00:47:14,288 --> 00:47:15,876 Or what is means to trust God 1117 00:47:15,910 --> 00:47:18,464 when the woman you love leaves you for another man? 1118 00:47:19,810 --> 00:47:21,157 Do you have any idea? 1119 00:47:23,469 --> 00:47:24,919 - Look. I know you've had pain- 1120 00:47:24,954 --> 00:47:27,818 - No, no you do not know, and that is what I am saying. 1121 00:47:28,992 --> 00:47:30,338 Tell me when you felt pain. 1122 00:47:31,512 --> 00:47:34,342 Talk to me as someone who had to trust God 1123 00:47:34,377 --> 00:47:35,550 when it was impossible. 1124 00:47:35,585 --> 00:47:36,482 How did you do it? 1125 00:47:44,801 --> 00:47:46,907 Who are you to talk to me about trusting God? 1126 00:47:46,941 --> 00:47:47,735 - I'm, I'm his Word. 1127 00:47:47,769 --> 00:47:48,943 - His Word? 1128 00:47:48,978 --> 00:47:50,531 Well, do me a favor: go get God and bring him. 1129 00:47:50,565 --> 00:47:51,912 He lost a son, right? 1130 00:47:53,085 --> 00:47:54,328 I'll talk to him. 1131 00:47:54,362 --> 00:47:55,432 But you, you've got no skin in the game. 1132 00:47:55,467 --> 00:47:56,261 You're a tool. 1133 00:47:56,295 --> 00:47:57,814 A hammer left by God. 1134 00:47:57,848 --> 00:47:58,746 - Look, I'm his Word- 1135 00:47:58,780 --> 00:47:59,574 - And you are not enough. 1136 00:47:59,609 --> 00:48:00,506 - I'm trying- 1137 00:48:00,541 --> 00:48:03,130 - And you are not enough! 1138 00:48:24,116 --> 00:48:24,945 What? 1139 00:48:30,122 --> 00:48:31,123 - You don't. 1140 00:48:32,849 --> 00:48:34,023 You can't... 1141 00:48:34,057 --> 00:48:35,265 - What? I can't grasp the context- 1142 00:48:35,300 --> 00:48:36,991 - You can't see how lucky you are. 1143 00:48:42,445 --> 00:48:43,342 You are correct. 1144 00:48:46,069 --> 00:48:47,139 I am words. 1145 00:48:48,589 --> 00:48:50,763 And for all my words 1146 00:48:50,798 --> 00:48:53,870 I'm at best a tool, 1147 00:48:55,596 --> 00:48:58,771 at worst a weapon. 1148 00:49:01,671 --> 00:49:02,534 Or a cigarette. 1149 00:49:04,605 --> 00:49:08,436 Don't get me wrong, I got a sweet gig. 1150 00:49:08,471 --> 00:49:09,886 God works through me. 1151 00:49:09,920 --> 00:49:10,749 It's great. 1152 00:49:11,646 --> 00:49:12,475 But you... 1153 00:49:14,960 --> 00:49:17,928 you can choose. 1154 00:49:21,380 --> 00:49:22,519 Grow. 1155 00:49:22,554 --> 00:49:23,727 Change! 1156 00:49:23,762 --> 00:49:27,214 Connect to the God who made the universe. 1157 00:49:30,320 --> 00:49:32,495 You've got this chance, this opportunity 1158 00:49:34,600 --> 00:49:36,637 to trust him in the mystery, 1159 00:49:39,088 --> 00:49:42,125 to have faith when life gets blurry. 1160 00:49:48,200 --> 00:49:49,029 It's beautiful! 1161 00:49:54,586 --> 00:49:55,828 I know it sucks. 1162 00:49:58,486 --> 00:49:59,315 Or... 1163 00:50:13,260 --> 00:50:16,194 You're right, I don't. 1164 00:50:18,748 --> 00:50:21,544 I guess it sounds like it sucks. 1165 00:50:29,966 --> 00:50:31,485 But it's beautiful too. 1166 00:50:52,885 --> 00:50:54,784 - Can you save me, Gid? 1167 00:51:06,520 --> 00:51:09,039 - For God so loved the world 1168 00:51:09,074 --> 00:51:10,731 that he gave his only begotten son- 1169 00:51:10,765 --> 00:51:11,904 - I've already read it. 1170 00:51:20,292 --> 00:51:23,399 - You've gotta, you gotta believe it, 1171 00:51:27,713 --> 00:51:31,683 come into a saving acceptance of the truth of it, 1172 00:51:31,717 --> 00:51:34,134 an intimate knowing of God. 1173 00:51:39,725 --> 00:51:40,554 - God. 1174 00:51:57,916 --> 00:51:59,366 You can't save me. 1175 00:52:05,648 --> 00:52:06,442 - No. 1176 00:52:12,275 --> 00:52:13,759 Pete- 1177 00:52:21,457 --> 00:52:25,185 You don't have to answer that phone. 1178 00:52:25,219 --> 00:52:27,704 You can walk away, you can walk away right now. 1179 00:52:27,739 --> 00:52:28,567 - Hello? 1180 00:52:29,982 --> 00:52:31,294 Yes, yes, it is. 1181 00:52:34,711 --> 00:52:35,609 Great. 1182 00:52:35,643 --> 00:52:39,578 Thank you. 1183 00:52:39,613 --> 00:52:41,028 - You don't have to do this. 1184 00:52:42,167 --> 00:52:43,893 We, we can hang out. 1185 00:52:43,927 --> 00:52:44,859 Catch a Cubs game. 1186 00:52:47,310 --> 00:52:48,173 Pete. 1187 00:52:48,208 --> 00:52:49,174 Peter! 1188 00:52:49,209 --> 00:52:50,037 Please. 1189 00:52:57,838 --> 00:53:00,737 - Thank you for everything Gid. 1190 00:53:00,772 --> 00:53:02,808 This was fun. 1191 00:53:05,846 --> 00:53:08,366 And, I know you wanted to help. 1192 00:53:14,406 --> 00:53:15,235 And... 1193 00:53:21,482 --> 00:53:24,761 I hope that no one rolls a cigarette out of you again. 1194 00:53:29,732 --> 00:53:30,526 - Peter! 1195 00:53:30,560 --> 00:53:31,389 Peter! 1196 00:53:34,495 --> 00:53:36,083 Uh, uh. 1197 00:53:37,153 --> 00:53:39,776 Uh, okay, okay. 1198 00:53:39,811 --> 00:53:41,468 Um God. 1199 00:53:42,538 --> 00:53:44,091 Um God. 1200 00:53:44,125 --> 00:53:45,437 Um God. 1201 00:53:45,472 --> 00:53:46,300 Look. 1202 00:53:47,612 --> 00:53:48,440 Peter, I mean, 1203 00:53:49,648 --> 00:53:51,512 Peter, you know Peter he's the one with the- 1204 00:53:52,651 --> 00:53:53,583 Oh 1205 00:53:53,618 --> 00:53:54,446 Oh 1206 00:53:55,827 --> 00:53:56,828 Come on Gid. 1207 00:53:58,450 --> 00:53:59,313 Peter. 1208 00:53:59,348 --> 00:54:00,210 He uh. 1209 00:54:01,177 --> 00:54:03,006 I mean. 1210 00:54:03,041 --> 00:54:06,216 He's about to do something pretty bad. 1211 00:54:08,460 --> 00:54:10,393 And I know you let people, but um. 1212 00:54:14,017 --> 00:54:15,502 Be with him. 1213 00:54:15,536 --> 00:54:16,641 Please. 1214 00:54:20,472 --> 00:54:21,439 He needs you. 1215 00:54:21,473 --> 00:54:22,302 - Pete? 1216 00:54:25,960 --> 00:54:26,789 Peter? 1217 00:54:28,825 --> 00:54:29,654 You okay? 1218 00:54:32,277 --> 00:54:34,106 - Please, be with him. 1219 00:54:36,971 --> 00:54:38,870 Just be with them both. 1220 00:54:41,735 --> 00:54:43,184 He needs you. 1221 00:54:43,219 --> 00:54:44,047 - Pete. 1222 00:54:45,670 --> 00:54:47,672 He needs you. 1223 00:54:48,983 --> 00:54:50,122 He needs you. 1224 00:54:54,644 --> 00:54:55,438 He needs you. 1225 00:55:43,659 --> 00:55:45,315 Thank you so much for the help. 1226 00:55:45,350 --> 00:55:47,732 I'm sorry, that's quite heavy. 1227 00:55:47,766 --> 00:55:49,112 Yeah, yeah. 1228 00:55:49,147 --> 00:55:50,769 I've got it from here. 1229 00:55:50,804 --> 00:55:51,977 Thanks.