1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:26,393 --> 00:00:28,895 [CARS HONKING] 4 00:00:54,554 --> 00:00:57,924 JAMES SEBASTIANO JR.: You know, I didn't know what was going on in my life when I was younger. 5 00:00:57,924 --> 00:00:59,459 I was kind of lost. 6 00:00:59,459 --> 00:01:01,861 So I just drank as much as I could, 7 00:01:01,861 --> 00:01:04,597 bottle after bottle and smoked as much weed as I could 8 00:01:04,597 --> 00:01:06,633 and then started taking acid. 9 00:01:06,633 --> 00:01:09,436 And, you know, at 16 years old, I lost my girlfriend. 10 00:01:09,436 --> 00:01:12,705 She, uh, she overdosed on acid and committed suicide. 11 00:01:12,705 --> 00:01:16,042 And then I kept going to the point I was 21, 12 00:01:16,042 --> 00:01:18,411 and I was like, alone in my apartment for three days, 13 00:01:18,411 --> 00:01:22,615 just doing coke like crazy, and I, uh, I flatlined. 14 00:01:22,615 --> 00:01:24,984 I ate a whole bag because I thought that the cops were coming 15 00:01:24,984 --> 00:01:27,720 and started hallucinating, and literally flatlined. 16 00:01:27,720 --> 00:01:30,223 And, um, from that point on, I was like, 17 00:01:30,223 --> 00:01:32,826 I don't know what's, what's happening in my life. 18 00:01:32,826 --> 00:01:36,563 I don't understand. So I quit stuff and I became a vegetarian. 19 00:01:36,563 --> 00:01:39,299 And, not saying that everybody should be a vegetarian, 20 00:01:39,299 --> 00:01:42,302 but for me, that was the turning point in my life 21 00:01:42,302 --> 00:01:46,005 because I feel like it's the first in my life where I started to be aware, 22 00:01:46,005 --> 00:01:48,208 just being more aware of what I put in my body. 23 00:01:48,208 --> 00:01:50,543 It didn't make sense to do a juice cleanse 24 00:01:50,543 --> 00:01:52,846 and then the next day, to go to the bar and get hammered. 25 00:01:52,846 --> 00:01:57,884 Um, and I opened a lot of vegetarian and vegan restaurants 26 00:01:57,884 --> 00:02:01,020 and a vegan hotel. And I'm having these healthy businesses. 27 00:02:01,020 --> 00:02:04,424 I'm trying to help people and I don't do the drugs anymore. 28 00:02:04,424 --> 00:02:06,226 I don't do this, I don't do that. 29 00:02:06,226 --> 00:02:09,929 And I did all this other stuff, and I felt like I kind of got addicted to work. 30 00:02:09,929 --> 00:02:12,465 I mean, we can do everything that way. 31 00:02:12,465 --> 00:02:14,134 Probably a little drama still, 32 00:02:14,134 --> 00:02:15,768 because he's friends with some of the staff. 33 00:02:15,768 --> 00:02:18,371 So that stuff that we'll always deal with probably no matter what. 34 00:02:18,371 --> 00:02:20,373 What happens after she signs it? 35 00:02:20,373 --> 00:02:21,908 Because she told me, I haven't really... 36 00:02:21,908 --> 00:02:25,311 Yeah, So I stopped those other things and I, I started working like 37 00:02:25,311 --> 00:02:27,780 crazy amounts and became successful and like, 38 00:02:27,780 --> 00:02:30,450 so I was still waking up in the middle of the night and, um, 39 00:02:30,450 --> 00:02:32,785 going to the emergency room because my heart was skipping beats 40 00:02:32,785 --> 00:02:37,624 and I was having full blown anxiety and, and panic attacks. 41 00:02:37,624 --> 00:02:39,692 -[MACHINES BEEPING] -[INDISTINCT CHATTER] 42 00:02:49,636 --> 00:02:51,070 And I didn't understand what was happening. 43 00:02:51,070 --> 00:02:53,072 I would wake up in the middle of the night sometimes 44 00:02:53,072 --> 00:02:55,875 and feel this like, fear, 45 00:02:55,875 --> 00:02:58,511 taking over me to the point where my heart was skipping beats 46 00:02:58,511 --> 00:03:03,349 and I couldn't even speak because my face was getting so tingly and numb 47 00:03:03,349 --> 00:03:05,585 and my whole body was kind of tightening up 48 00:03:05,585 --> 00:03:08,188 and, I don't know, it felt like I was dying. 49 00:03:12,425 --> 00:03:14,427 And then that's how this journey started. 50 00:03:20,066 --> 00:03:22,268 I was super confused because 51 00:03:22,268 --> 00:03:25,405 I had all this fear in me. But on the other hand, 52 00:03:25,405 --> 00:03:27,774 I was totally secure in, in terms of 53 00:03:27,774 --> 00:03:29,943 what the world kind of taught me was secure. 54 00:03:29,943 --> 00:03:31,477 I had a house and a good job, 55 00:03:31,477 --> 00:03:33,846 I was making money and, so, didn't make sense. 56 00:03:33,846 --> 00:03:36,082 I didn't really understand what the hell was going on. 57 00:03:36,082 --> 00:03:38,484 To feel these things and to have everything 58 00:03:38,484 --> 00:03:40,353 that I thought that I was supposed to have. 59 00:03:42,255 --> 00:03:45,692 So we've been traveling around the world for the last two years, 60 00:03:45,692 --> 00:03:50,430 um, with an effort of me really understanding who I am better. 61 00:03:50,430 --> 00:03:52,232 But for me, it was, it was a very challenging thing. 62 00:03:52,232 --> 00:03:54,434 And it still is, like, you know, it takes focus 63 00:03:54,434 --> 00:03:55,902 and it takes dedication. 64 00:03:55,902 --> 00:03:58,504 And it takes a really strong will to do it. 65 00:04:02,141 --> 00:04:04,877 [MELODIC PIANO MUSIC PLAYING] 66 00:04:21,594 --> 00:04:24,264 [PREM BABA SPEAKING OTHER LANGUAGE] 67 00:06:18,077 --> 00:06:19,846 I'm glad you made it back all right. 68 00:06:21,013 --> 00:06:22,382 All those places. 69 00:06:23,549 --> 00:06:24,684 Yeah. 70 00:06:25,985 --> 00:06:27,887 A long way, man. It's a long trip. 71 00:06:27,887 --> 00:06:28,955 You wouldn't go? 72 00:06:30,123 --> 00:06:31,858 I don't think so. 73 00:06:31,858 --> 00:06:35,294 I don't think there's anything I want to see to be on a plane for that long. 74 00:06:35,294 --> 00:06:37,463 What about baby pandas? [LAUGHS] 75 00:06:37,463 --> 00:06:41,000 Yeah, I'd go to Busch Gardens, see 'em nice and easy. 76 00:06:41,000 --> 00:06:44,070 -What if we go tomorrow to try and see the baby pandas? -Nah. 77 00:06:44,070 --> 00:06:45,471 I don't think so. 78 00:06:49,075 --> 00:06:52,645 When I was working, I didn't, I felt like something was not right. 79 00:06:52,645 --> 00:06:56,549 With me. I didn't really understand what it was or whatever. 80 00:06:56,549 --> 00:06:58,384 So going on this trip kind of... 81 00:07:00,119 --> 00:07:02,321 helped me understand that stuff better. 82 00:07:02,321 --> 00:07:06,492 By doing yoga in India, and doing meditation and doing all this stuff, 83 00:07:06,492 --> 00:07:09,495 I started to kind of figure out what was going on. 84 00:07:09,495 --> 00:07:12,198 -Why you look at me like that? -I think you're cracking up on me. 85 00:07:12,198 --> 00:07:14,634 -But it's all right. [CHUCKLES] -What do you mean? 86 00:07:15,668 --> 00:07:18,004 Yeah, you're cracking up. 87 00:07:18,004 --> 00:07:20,306 -Why is that... -So you found yourself in India. 88 00:07:20,306 --> 00:07:21,841 Is that what you're saying? 89 00:07:21,841 --> 00:07:24,277 It's not about, like, finding myself or something. 90 00:07:24,277 --> 00:07:26,045 -It's about realizing... -Does it all feel right now? 91 00:07:26,045 --> 00:07:27,814 Now that you went out to India 92 00:07:27,814 --> 00:07:29,949 and Nepal, and... Does it feel right now? 93 00:07:29,949 --> 00:07:30,983 Feels good? 94 00:07:51,003 --> 00:07:53,406 SEBASTIANO: It's not so hard to go to India for a month 95 00:07:53,406 --> 00:07:55,842 and practice yoga and feel good. 96 00:07:55,842 --> 00:07:57,977 And, you know, being yourself 97 00:07:57,977 --> 00:08:00,813 and hang out with those people and you don't have much worries. 98 00:08:00,813 --> 00:08:03,182 You're not working, you're away from everything. 99 00:08:03,182 --> 00:08:06,486 Everything's nice, um, and it's much easier, 100 00:08:06,486 --> 00:08:09,689 but it is more challenging when you go home and you talk to your dad. 101 00:08:09,689 --> 00:08:11,991 Talk to your mom, to talk to friends, 102 00:08:11,991 --> 00:08:14,360 you try to explain the stuff that you're going through, 103 00:08:14,360 --> 00:08:20,266 and the stuff that you learned like in the East, and it's challenging. 104 00:08:26,506 --> 00:08:28,341 JOSH KORDA: As I say pretty much every week, 105 00:08:28,341 --> 00:08:31,611 we are a social species, 106 00:08:31,611 --> 00:08:36,582 and that our biggest core drive in life 107 00:08:36,582 --> 00:08:40,186 from the beginning is to connect with others. 108 00:08:40,186 --> 00:08:44,023 Um, we survive simply because 109 00:08:44,023 --> 00:08:47,760 in infancy we can bond with other adults 110 00:08:47,760 --> 00:08:50,796 who will nurture us until we reach an age 111 00:08:50,796 --> 00:08:57,036 where we can survive, uh, without constant care and support. 112 00:08:57,036 --> 00:08:59,605 So the core, 113 00:08:59,605 --> 00:09:03,476 uh, neural components of the brain from birth 114 00:09:03,476 --> 00:09:06,279 are simply again to establish these bonds. 115 00:09:06,279 --> 00:09:09,615 When, and these bonds are established by looking 116 00:09:09,615 --> 00:09:12,218 into the eye of someone: 117 00:09:12,218 --> 00:09:15,054 your parents, your caregivers, the other adults, 118 00:09:15,054 --> 00:09:17,690 having them see you and then express 119 00:09:17,690 --> 00:09:20,993 whatever state you're in through your emotions. 120 00:09:20,993 --> 00:09:23,462 So you're tired, you're frustrated, 121 00:09:23,462 --> 00:09:25,798 you're sad, you're lonely, you're vulnerable. 122 00:09:25,798 --> 00:09:29,235 You express that physiologically. 123 00:09:29,235 --> 00:09:34,540 Those times where we feel disconnected from care, 124 00:09:34,540 --> 00:09:38,978 from love, support are the greatest traumas of childhood. 125 00:09:38,978 --> 00:09:42,548 Those negative emotions, we believe are 126 00:09:42,548 --> 00:09:46,953 some kind of really horrible part of ourselves 127 00:09:46,953 --> 00:09:48,387 that we don't want to experience. 128 00:09:48,387 --> 00:09:52,224 And the key... [COUGHS] ...to soothing us, 129 00:09:52,224 --> 00:09:55,461 which means regulating us back to a state of calmness 130 00:09:55,461 --> 00:09:59,665 is that experience of being seen in the eye of someone 131 00:09:59,665 --> 00:10:04,370 who will be empathetic and will meet these needs. 132 00:10:11,143 --> 00:10:13,613 RUSSELL BRAND: I reckon fear, anger, anxiety, 133 00:10:13,613 --> 00:10:17,450 these are, like, on a basic biochemical level, signals. 134 00:10:17,450 --> 00:10:18,784 Signal is communication. 135 00:10:18,784 --> 00:10:22,121 Communication is an attempt to create community, 136 00:10:22,121 --> 00:10:23,456 connection, togetherness. 137 00:10:23,456 --> 00:10:25,958 I suppose people feel fearful and angry 138 00:10:25,958 --> 00:10:27,727 'cause they're not being heard. 139 00:10:27,727 --> 00:10:30,396 And I don't necessarily mean on an individual level. 140 00:10:32,198 --> 00:10:36,435 But my sense is there's an aspect of, of spirit 141 00:10:36,435 --> 00:10:38,838 that's being neglected. 142 00:10:39,905 --> 00:10:42,308 If you ignore it, fear will happen. 143 00:10:44,343 --> 00:10:46,445 [VOICEMAIL PLAYING] Hello, James. This is Zelda here. 144 00:10:46,445 --> 00:10:49,081 I have time for a session with you 145 00:10:49,081 --> 00:10:53,586 at 2:00 p.m. I hope that suits you. Just let me know. Bye. 146 00:11:06,132 --> 00:11:09,669 Yeah, I really, I realized, actually like, wow, anxiety is a big thing for me, 147 00:11:09,669 --> 00:11:13,072 -HALL: Mm. -But I don't feel like I ever gave it the attention 148 00:11:13,072 --> 00:11:14,840 that it kind of needed, you know. 149 00:11:15,808 --> 00:11:20,980 and I, also through work with you, I feel like a lot of it comes from my childhood 150 00:11:20,980 --> 00:11:23,449 and, but I don't know, I still have it. 151 00:11:23,449 --> 00:11:25,484 And, and I'm a little bit confused 152 00:11:25,484 --> 00:11:27,186 because on the trip I've heard different things 153 00:11:27,186 --> 00:11:28,754 from different people, you know? 154 00:11:28,754 --> 00:11:31,857 Do I have to go back to the root of every single thing in my life 155 00:11:31,857 --> 00:11:33,759 that could have caused anxiety? 156 00:11:33,759 --> 00:11:37,930 For example, when I was a kid, work, or is it good enough to just, like, 157 00:11:37,930 --> 00:11:41,701 sit with the anxiety when it comes up, and just feel it? 158 00:11:41,701 --> 00:11:43,436 People often ask that in therapy. 159 00:11:43,436 --> 00:11:45,871 Do I need to go into every single thing 160 00:11:45,871 --> 00:11:50,109 that happened in my childhood in order to really change this thing that 161 00:11:50,109 --> 00:11:52,278 I'm having trouble with? No, you don't. 162 00:11:52,278 --> 00:11:57,783 Um, you, but you do need to go into it as it comes up. 163 00:11:57,783 --> 00:12:00,886 You know, when you stay with things for a while, 164 00:12:00,886 --> 00:12:03,756 if you, if you allow yourself to be present with them, 165 00:12:03,756 --> 00:12:06,258 then you start noticing, 166 00:12:06,258 --> 00:12:10,496 um, something that wants to be addressed. 167 00:12:10,496 --> 00:12:13,733 And, yes, then it's useful to deal with that. 168 00:12:13,733 --> 00:12:17,236 Um, that's a useful time to do it with somebody else. 169 00:12:17,236 --> 00:12:20,139 Like, have somebody guiding you in it 170 00:12:20,139 --> 00:12:22,641 to give it, give enough safety in the situation. 171 00:12:22,641 --> 00:12:25,444 Maybe you'd like to try it out a little bit now. 172 00:12:26,712 --> 00:12:28,748 -Yeah, we can. -Yeah? 173 00:12:29,915 --> 00:12:32,752 Uh, yeah, let's just 174 00:12:32,752 --> 00:12:34,954 take a couple of deep breaths there. 175 00:12:34,954 --> 00:12:37,456 Just check in with yourself if that 176 00:12:37,456 --> 00:12:40,860 is actually what you want to do at the moment. 177 00:12:40,860 --> 00:12:43,963 So that we're really sure that's the right thing to be doing now. 178 00:12:44,997 --> 00:12:48,434 Here. Now. This situation. 179 00:12:50,870 --> 00:12:51,504 Okay. You sure you want to try this out now? 180 00:12:54,607 --> 00:12:56,308 -Yeah. -Okay. 181 00:12:59,111 --> 00:13:00,379 [INHALES] 182 00:13:04,416 --> 00:13:06,385 MAN: [IN VIDEO] Boy, this is beautiful. 183 00:13:06,385 --> 00:13:08,154 WOMAN: [IN VIDEO] This swimming pool is their swimming pool. 184 00:13:08,154 --> 00:13:10,189 It's in the backyard of their house, 185 00:13:10,189 --> 00:13:12,458 and it's very, very nice. 186 00:13:12,458 --> 00:13:14,560 MAN: Well, now we're gonna go inside. 187 00:13:14,560 --> 00:13:17,530 RUPERT SPIRA: If we were to take a survey 188 00:13:17,530 --> 00:13:21,567 out in the world of all seven billion people 189 00:13:21,567 --> 00:13:23,202 and we were to ask everyone, 190 00:13:23,202 --> 00:13:25,638 what is it that you really want in life? 191 00:13:25,638 --> 00:13:27,740 There would be a variety of answers 192 00:13:27,740 --> 00:13:31,143 from, uh, more money, better health, 193 00:13:31,143 --> 00:13:32,912 an intimate relationship, a family. 194 00:13:32,912 --> 00:13:36,348 A nicer home. But then, if we were to ask everyone, 195 00:13:36,348 --> 00:13:42,922 but why do you want more money or a better home or intimate relationship? 196 00:13:42,922 --> 00:13:47,259 Um, they would say, "Because I think it will make me happy." 197 00:13:47,259 --> 00:13:50,796 In other words, everybody seeks happiness 198 00:13:50,796 --> 00:13:53,899 above all else. There's nothing greater than happiness. 199 00:13:56,168 --> 00:13:59,271 And nearly everybody seeks happiness through 200 00:13:59,271 --> 00:14:02,174 the acquisition of some kind of objective experience. 201 00:14:02,174 --> 00:14:05,678 An object, a substance, uh, a state of mind, 202 00:14:05,678 --> 00:14:09,481 an activity, an intimate relationship, a family, etc. 203 00:14:11,650 --> 00:14:13,919 Many people, at some stage in their life, 204 00:14:13,919 --> 00:14:17,189 begin to suspect that happiness for which they seek 205 00:14:17,189 --> 00:14:19,625 can never be delivered 206 00:14:19,625 --> 00:14:22,027 via an objective experience. 207 00:14:22,027 --> 00:14:24,129 And it's the madness from which 208 00:14:24,129 --> 00:14:27,166 the vast majority of humanity are suffering. 209 00:14:27,166 --> 00:14:28,901 Actually feel like 210 00:14:28,901 --> 00:14:30,803 my anxiety's starting to come out. 211 00:14:30,803 --> 00:14:34,473 -My face, like a little bit tingly and... -Mm-hmm. 212 00:14:35,674 --> 00:14:38,377 SHARON SALZBERG: Everybody really wants to be happy, 213 00:14:38,377 --> 00:14:40,279 not just in a superficial sense. 214 00:14:40,279 --> 00:14:42,248 We want a sense of belonging, 215 00:14:42,248 --> 00:14:45,918 each of us to this body, to this mind, 216 00:14:45,918 --> 00:14:47,019 to this Earth, somewhere. 217 00:14:47,019 --> 00:14:48,654 We want a sense of 218 00:14:48,654 --> 00:14:52,258 being a part of something greater than our limited sense of who we are. 219 00:14:52,258 --> 00:14:53,559 Yeah, but what are we taught? 220 00:14:53,559 --> 00:14:55,427 It's not easy to figure out. 221 00:14:55,427 --> 00:14:57,696 You have to separate from a lot of conditioning 222 00:14:57,696 --> 00:15:00,366 and be able to look at it to say, 223 00:15:00,366 --> 00:15:03,369 "Oh, this is where happiness lies." 224 00:15:03,369 --> 00:15:07,439 GRAHAM HANCOCK: We live in a rigidly controlled society, rigidly structured, 225 00:15:07,439 --> 00:15:11,010 which seeks to oppress us down and turn us only 226 00:15:11,010 --> 00:15:13,879 into vehicles for production and consumption. 227 00:15:13,879 --> 00:15:17,449 That's all we are supposed to be in the present set up. 228 00:15:19,418 --> 00:15:22,755 BRANFear and desire provoke action. 229 00:15:22,755 --> 00:15:26,258 They cause you to get out of the present. 230 00:15:26,258 --> 00:15:28,460 If you're continually being frightened, 231 00:15:28,460 --> 00:15:30,329 turn on your TV set, look at your phone, 232 00:15:30,329 --> 00:15:33,565 terror, death, cancer, war, famine, 233 00:15:33,565 --> 00:15:36,402 in that and then desire... [HUMS JINGLE] 234 00:15:36,402 --> 00:15:38,103 Then constantly inundated with 235 00:15:38,103 --> 00:15:43,642 some beautiful imagery of whatever, uh, sex you're into. 236 00:15:43,642 --> 00:15:47,313 And, uh, it's very hard, it's hard. 237 00:15:47,313 --> 00:15:48,747 I feel like you're being like this. 238 00:15:48,747 --> 00:15:51,684 Your culture's got jump leads on my consciousness, 239 00:15:51,684 --> 00:15:54,386 keep sending signals that are not helpful. 240 00:15:56,388 --> 00:15:59,992 It's not a coincidence, is it, consumerism and capitalism? 241 00:15:59,992 --> 00:16:01,794 That's where we've all got to. 242 00:16:01,794 --> 00:16:05,698 That's what we've all generated through our consciousness. 243 00:16:05,698 --> 00:16:07,433 That's what we were all participating in. 244 00:16:07,433 --> 00:16:09,401 And enough of us seem to find it hard to go, 245 00:16:09,401 --> 00:16:10,569 I'm just not gonna participate. 246 00:16:10,569 --> 00:16:12,471 I'm coming off Facebook. I'm coming off Google. 247 00:16:12,471 --> 00:16:14,506 I'm not even gonna own this phone no more. 248 00:16:14,506 --> 00:16:15,941 I'm not going to try and earn money. 249 00:16:15,941 --> 00:16:18,310 I'm just gonna sit quietly by the river and breathe. 250 00:16:18,310 --> 00:16:20,079 I'll sit there quietly for a while and breathe. 251 00:16:20,079 --> 00:16:23,649 That's if I didn't wanna see if anyone has called while I've been breathing. 252 00:16:29,755 --> 00:16:31,390 I feel like, um... 253 00:16:34,293 --> 00:16:37,463 All the things I do and just like doing 254 00:16:37,463 --> 00:16:39,999 like, things compulsively in general... 255 00:16:39,999 --> 00:16:42,401 -HALL: Mm-hmm? -...are all like... 256 00:16:43,502 --> 00:16:46,238 ...so that I don't have to feel like... 257 00:16:47,840 --> 00:16:48,874 HALL: Yeah. 258 00:16:49,408 --> 00:16:52,444 That's it. It's okay. 259 00:16:52,444 --> 00:16:54,346 Try not to explain it too much. 260 00:16:54,346 --> 00:16:56,181 Just allow yourself to feel, James. 261 00:16:56,181 --> 00:16:58,717 It's okay. The more you can allow yourself 262 00:16:58,717 --> 00:17:00,386 to have that feeling, 263 00:17:02,054 --> 00:17:03,455 the easier it will get. 264 00:17:12,865 --> 00:17:15,601 [BIRDS CHIRPING] 265 00:17:25,277 --> 00:17:27,613 HANCOCK: There is just one area 266 00:17:27,613 --> 00:17:32,584 where every one of us human beings is powerful, 267 00:17:32,584 --> 00:17:35,721 and that is over the choices and decisions we make 268 00:17:35,721 --> 00:17:38,724 about our own lives. 269 00:17:38,724 --> 00:17:41,627 You have enough time. You have 70,80, 90 years, if you're lucky. 270 00:17:41,627 --> 00:17:44,196 Maybe more on this planet, maybe less. 271 00:17:44,196 --> 00:17:45,964 There's a random element to life, 272 00:17:45,964 --> 00:17:48,367 but you have time to make changes to your life. 273 00:17:51,770 --> 00:17:54,840 Even at the level of the single individual 274 00:17:54,840 --> 00:17:56,475 operating in society, 275 00:17:56,475 --> 00:17:58,510 if we choose right rather than wrong, 276 00:17:58,510 --> 00:18:00,779 if we choose light rather than darkness, 277 00:18:00,779 --> 00:18:03,415 if we choose love rather than fear, 278 00:18:03,415 --> 00:18:06,718 then this is going to affect everybody else. 279 00:18:06,718 --> 00:18:10,055 And if enough of us change ourselves, 280 00:18:10,055 --> 00:18:11,957 then we will change the world. 281 00:18:22,634 --> 00:18:24,403 [PREM BABA SPEAKING IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 282 00:18:39,384 --> 00:18:42,287 [PRAYER CHANTING OVER LOUDSPEAKER] 283 00:18:54,166 --> 00:18:57,336 [PLAYING FOLK MUSIC] 284 00:21:20,779 --> 00:21:23,582 SEBASTIANO: Which tools have helped you in your life? 285 00:21:23,582 --> 00:21:26,518 Say, maybe 20 years ago or 25 years ago, 286 00:21:26,518 --> 00:21:31,823 what were the things that you used in your life to heal things within yourself? 287 00:21:32,557 --> 00:21:34,226 [SPEAKING IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 288 00:24:10,449 --> 00:24:13,118 SEBASTIANO: I started to spend more time in silence 289 00:24:13,118 --> 00:24:16,321 and more time questioning myself. 290 00:24:16,321 --> 00:24:19,124 I feel that a lot of the problems that I was having 291 00:24:19,124 --> 00:24:21,059 were definitely related to fear. 292 00:24:21,059 --> 00:24:24,129 You know, fear that I wasn't good enough, for example. 293 00:24:24,129 --> 00:24:26,965 Do all these different things I could see myself doing, 294 00:24:26,965 --> 00:24:28,633 creating lots of businesses, 295 00:24:28,633 --> 00:24:32,637 trying to get acknowledgement that I was good enough for myself. 296 00:24:32,637 --> 00:24:35,273 And I didn't really realize that, until recently, that 297 00:24:35,273 --> 00:24:37,042 I don't actually need acknowledgement from 298 00:24:37,042 --> 00:24:38,710 anything outside of myself. 299 00:24:38,710 --> 00:24:42,147 That maybe there's a way that I could feel good enough inside of myself, 300 00:24:42,147 --> 00:24:45,884 to the point where I don't need to do things for other people to feel that. 301 00:24:45,884 --> 00:24:49,621 Where I could just feel that in myself, I could be whole in myself. 302 00:24:59,764 --> 00:25:02,334 SEBASTIANO SR.: So how is... Your anxiety's okay now? 303 00:25:02,968 --> 00:25:04,503 What, what's happening? 304 00:25:05,070 --> 00:25:06,671 No, I went... I mean, 305 00:25:06,671 --> 00:25:08,306 it's better for sure. 306 00:25:08,306 --> 00:25:09,674 Because I feel like, 307 00:25:09,674 --> 00:25:12,277 growing up with, like, wanting to be good in school, 308 00:25:12,277 --> 00:25:14,980 wanting to be good at sports, wanting to do all those kind of stuff, 309 00:25:14,980 --> 00:25:17,115 you know, the American dream. You have to grow up, 310 00:25:17,115 --> 00:25:18,550 you have to make a certain amount of money, 311 00:25:18,550 --> 00:25:20,385 you have to have a certain amount of cars. 312 00:25:20,385 --> 00:25:22,487 You have to get the shoes that the neighbor has. 313 00:25:22,487 --> 00:25:24,189 You know what I mean? You know exactly what I mean. 314 00:25:24,189 --> 00:25:25,590 Well, some of its valid. 315 00:25:25,590 --> 00:25:27,792 I mean, if you don't go to school and you don't get A's, 316 00:25:27,792 --> 00:25:29,561 you don't get a good job. 317 00:25:29,561 --> 00:25:30,462 [BLOWS RASPBERRY] 318 00:25:31,463 --> 00:25:34,566 But, but, whatever it is, it puts a lot of pressure on us. 319 00:25:34,566 --> 00:25:36,868 Once you get older, you don't need that stuff, you know? 320 00:25:36,868 --> 00:25:40,605 You realize you don't need that same kind of pressure from society anymore. 321 00:25:40,605 --> 00:25:42,574 -Mm. -You make your own choices. 322 00:25:42,574 --> 00:25:45,710 So I went on this trip to, kind of... 323 00:25:45,710 --> 00:25:47,812 That stuff did create anxiety in my life. 324 00:25:47,812 --> 00:25:50,482 When I was younger, I would get drunk with my friends. 325 00:25:50,482 --> 00:25:54,753 I've smoked weed. I don't know how many times, you know, did it. 326 00:25:54,753 --> 00:25:58,023 You didn't see anxiety. I didn't even know that that's why I was doing it. 327 00:25:58,023 --> 00:26:01,626 -But now I can figure out... -How did you figure out that you had anxiety? 328 00:26:01,626 --> 00:26:04,696 When did this anxiety thing pop up? 329 00:26:04,696 --> 00:26:07,866 Just, I had it. I had panic attacks when I lived in Europe. 330 00:26:07,866 --> 00:26:10,802 In Bali, I had a couple of times where I went to the emergency room 331 00:26:10,802 --> 00:26:13,238 because my heart was beating at a different rate 332 00:26:13,238 --> 00:26:15,040 and I couldn't feel my face. 333 00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:17,943 I used to call Mom sometimes and pull over on the side of the highway 334 00:26:17,943 --> 00:26:19,844 when I was like, 20, 21. 335 00:26:19,844 --> 00:26:21,446 I couldn't like, even talk. 336 00:26:21,446 --> 00:26:24,649 I'm straight. I could tell you that I never had anxiety, ever. 337 00:26:25,717 --> 00:26:28,787 I could fix your anxiety, a little 10% you got left? 338 00:26:28,787 --> 00:26:31,623 Its, it's either a right hand or a left foot. Which would you prefer? [CHUCKLES] 339 00:26:31,623 --> 00:26:34,459 -That'll fix this? -That's the end of your anxiety. 340 00:26:34,459 --> 00:26:36,161 You wake up, you will be healed. 341 00:26:36,161 --> 00:26:40,031 You say, "I don't want that shit again. So, my anxiety is gone." 342 00:26:40,031 --> 00:26:41,499 [LAUGHING] 343 00:26:42,233 --> 00:26:44,502 It's all good, bro. 344 00:26:44,502 --> 00:26:47,372 It wasn't all good, you know? Now it's getting better, you know? 345 00:26:47,372 --> 00:26:49,207 -That's, that's one thing you should... -It'll get better. 346 00:26:49,207 --> 00:26:53,445 I mean, you know, ten million miles later, you know? 347 00:26:53,445 --> 00:26:54,546 Yeah. 348 00:27:03,722 --> 00:27:07,659 JOSEPH GOLDSTEIN: Instead of seeing it just as craziness out there, 349 00:27:07,659 --> 00:27:10,095 begin nearly to see it as suffering, you know? 350 00:27:10,095 --> 00:27:12,597 Because we see it in ourselves, we see the suffering that 351 00:27:12,597 --> 00:27:15,300 a lot of these mindsets of greed and desire, 352 00:27:15,300 --> 00:27:17,335 wanting and hatred and fear 353 00:27:17,335 --> 00:27:19,471 that are playing out in the world. 354 00:27:19,471 --> 00:27:22,841 We've seen that in our own minds, 355 00:27:22,841 --> 00:27:25,644 and see the suffering, understand the suffering of it. 356 00:27:30,815 --> 00:27:34,085 Of course, a lot of good work, great work, can be done 357 00:27:34,085 --> 00:27:39,124 at alleviating and adjusting the symptoms of the suffering. 358 00:27:39,124 --> 00:27:40,525 But what's the cause? 359 00:27:40,525 --> 00:27:42,927 What's the underlying cause of these problems? 360 00:27:49,134 --> 00:27:51,436 GARY WEBER: I think, as a species, we have to realize 361 00:27:51,436 --> 00:27:53,038 that there is a solution to the problem. 362 00:27:54,205 --> 00:27:57,942 I mean, there is a way to stop our suffering. 363 00:27:57,942 --> 00:28:01,780 We have to find out what the root of the suffering is. 364 00:28:01,780 --> 00:28:04,482 And if we look carefully, we can see that this 365 00:28:04,482 --> 00:28:08,019 egoic/I belief set that we have, 366 00:28:08,019 --> 00:28:13,058 it comes from some software that we generated for ourselves 75,000 years ago, 367 00:28:13,058 --> 00:28:14,793 that was very useful at the time. 368 00:28:15,393 --> 00:28:17,629 Now, it's not working. 369 00:28:17,629 --> 00:28:20,331 You borrowed from chimpanzees six million years ago. 370 00:28:20,331 --> 00:28:24,469 We went through six million years, minus 75,000 years, 371 00:28:24,469 --> 00:28:27,539 and we were just like, there were four other species like us 372 00:28:27,539 --> 00:28:30,709 running around, very, very competitive. 373 00:28:30,709 --> 00:28:32,711 And so we said, "What we gonna do?" 374 00:28:32,711 --> 00:28:36,147 Somehow we developed this idea, this way of saying, 375 00:28:36,147 --> 00:28:38,983 "Okay, symbolic logic." 376 00:28:38,983 --> 00:28:42,520 I can represent this by... 377 00:28:43,588 --> 00:28:45,523 ...drawing that. And I could point to this, 378 00:28:45,523 --> 00:28:48,326 and you'll know, "Oh, that's this thing." 379 00:28:48,326 --> 00:28:49,994 That may sound simple, 380 00:28:49,994 --> 00:28:54,766 but that's a big deal, because then there's a you, a subject, 381 00:28:54,766 --> 00:28:57,102 and an object out here 382 00:28:57,102 --> 00:28:59,537 that's, you know, you can refer to, 383 00:28:59,537 --> 00:29:02,640 and we can begin talking about other things 384 00:29:02,640 --> 00:29:04,876 in complicated ways. 385 00:29:05,744 --> 00:29:07,979 And so what happened 75,000 years ago, 386 00:29:07,979 --> 00:29:09,748 we developed this subject 387 00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:14,619 doing object relationship with this symbolic language. 388 00:29:14,619 --> 00:29:19,390 Once we did, then we had this I, the I is in there, planted. 389 00:29:19,390 --> 00:29:21,426 -Mm. -That I is right there. 390 00:29:21,426 --> 00:29:24,262 And the I is involved in everything that goes on. 391 00:29:24,262 --> 00:29:25,997 Common across our species. 392 00:29:25,997 --> 00:29:28,399 Once we learned how to do that, 393 00:29:28,399 --> 00:29:30,001 we just kicked ass. 394 00:29:31,002 --> 00:29:33,671 I mean, the other four species, "Go on." 395 00:29:34,839 --> 00:29:36,608 And we shouldn't have won. 396 00:29:36,608 --> 00:29:40,945 There were bigger, stronger, bigger brained species. 397 00:29:40,945 --> 00:29:44,415 They should have beat us. They didn't. We wiped them off this Earth. 398 00:29:44,415 --> 00:29:47,585 But at the same time, we eventually came of out that, 399 00:29:47,585 --> 00:29:53,024 and we said, "We really are gonna control the package." And we did. 400 00:29:53,024 --> 00:29:55,293 With that knowledge, that symbolic logic, 401 00:29:55,293 --> 00:29:57,028 and the structure, "I" structure, 402 00:29:57,028 --> 00:30:00,298 this piece of software, that's all it is, piece of software. 403 00:30:00,298 --> 00:30:02,967 We wiped up the planet, for good or bad, 404 00:30:03,868 --> 00:30:05,470 and that now is our problem. 405 00:30:05,470 --> 00:30:07,505 We got this egoic structure 406 00:30:07,505 --> 00:30:10,642 and you can see it everywhere you look. 407 00:30:11,876 --> 00:30:14,245 There's a big ego sitting there. 408 00:30:14,245 --> 00:30:18,316 And this ego is what's running the process, and screwing everything up. 409 00:30:25,790 --> 00:30:29,327 HANCOCK: We've lost ourselves in objective experience. 410 00:30:29,327 --> 00:30:33,164 We have allowed ourselves to become immersed in, 411 00:30:33,164 --> 00:30:37,869 and therefore, apparently limited by our objective experience. 412 00:30:37,869 --> 00:30:40,004 To the extent that that's what we think we are. 413 00:30:40,004 --> 00:30:41,773 We think I am this bundle of 414 00:30:41,773 --> 00:30:46,678 thoughts, images, feelings, memories, activities, relationships. 415 00:30:46,678 --> 00:30:52,050 Now, most people are so involved in their experience 416 00:30:52,817 --> 00:30:54,786 that they don't notice, 417 00:30:54,786 --> 00:30:58,223 they overlook or forget their essential self. 418 00:30:58,223 --> 00:31:00,725 And this overlooking of ourself, 419 00:31:00,725 --> 00:31:06,664 this is the ignoring of the essential element of our experience. 420 00:31:25,316 --> 00:31:27,518 What is there for him to do? 421 00:31:27,518 --> 00:31:30,054 To stop trying to put an end to his suffering 422 00:31:30,054 --> 00:31:32,190 by seeking to change his 423 00:31:32,190 --> 00:31:34,192 activities, relationships, etc. 424 00:31:34,192 --> 00:31:37,362 But to investigate who he truly is and to begin with that 425 00:31:37,362 --> 00:31:39,731 will require some exploration. 426 00:31:50,241 --> 00:31:52,210 [INAUDIBLE] 427 00:31:59,317 --> 00:32:02,387 [CHANTING PRAYER IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 428 00:32:28,179 --> 00:32:30,181 GOLDSTEIN: The root causes of suffering 429 00:32:30,181 --> 00:32:32,617 can be described in many ways. 430 00:32:32,617 --> 00:32:35,853 Different spiritual traditions may describe it differently, 431 00:32:35,853 --> 00:32:41,793 but certainly this sense of the, the ego self... 432 00:32:42,927 --> 00:32:45,563 is definitely a, 433 00:32:45,563 --> 00:32:48,266 you could call that basic ignorance. 434 00:32:48,266 --> 00:32:51,002 Where we've created this notion, 435 00:32:51,803 --> 00:32:58,109 the sense of I, very deeply conditioned, really deeply habituated. 436 00:32:58,109 --> 00:33:00,445 Uh, it's, it's... 437 00:33:00,445 --> 00:33:02,380 But it's really a construct. 438 00:33:04,449 --> 00:33:06,551 [CHANTING SANSKRIT HYMNS] 439 00:33:08,353 --> 00:33:10,254 And, of course, the meditative process 440 00:33:10,254 --> 00:33:12,323 is to see that this very notion 441 00:33:12,757 --> 00:33:14,225 is illusory. 442 00:33:14,225 --> 00:33:18,162 And that, yeah, there's a conventional meaning 443 00:33:18,162 --> 00:33:19,931 to the sense of self and I 444 00:33:19,931 --> 00:33:21,499 and it has a use. 445 00:33:21,499 --> 00:33:24,235 But it also has a danger. 446 00:33:24,235 --> 00:33:26,804 Because long as there's that view, 447 00:33:26,804 --> 00:33:28,840 you know, 448 00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:31,676 then what is it that we do around the sense of self? 449 00:33:31,676 --> 00:33:33,978 We try to gratify it, we defend it, 450 00:33:33,978 --> 00:33:36,314 we aggrandize it, we judge it. 451 00:33:36,314 --> 00:33:38,616 We do all kinds of things. 452 00:33:38,616 --> 00:33:41,319 But meditation takes us to a deeper level 453 00:33:41,319 --> 00:33:45,590 where we say, "Okay, what is it that we're actually calling self?" 454 00:33:45,590 --> 00:33:50,728 And when we look deeper, we see the constituent elements that go in. 455 00:33:50,728 --> 00:33:54,766 And this is just helpful because then we're not so attached 456 00:33:54,766 --> 00:33:57,635 to this idea, to this concept of self. 457 00:34:01,773 --> 00:34:05,510 The more we can let go of this self-centeredness, 458 00:34:05,510 --> 00:34:07,311 which is just really what ego means. 459 00:34:07,311 --> 00:34:10,515 There is a self-center 460 00:34:10,515 --> 00:34:14,519 that we gravitate around, you know? 461 00:34:14,519 --> 00:34:18,322 When we, when we see through that, 462 00:34:18,322 --> 00:34:21,826 then the natural expression of that insight is compassion, 463 00:34:21,826 --> 00:34:23,928 is connection, is love. 464 00:34:31,536 --> 00:34:34,405 SEBASTIANO: I had a dad who was very strong. 465 00:34:34,405 --> 00:34:36,808 Nothing's good enough. You have to keep going. 466 00:34:36,808 --> 00:34:39,577 You have to score more goals, hit more home runs. 467 00:34:39,577 --> 00:34:41,379 -Better, better, better. -Mm-hmm. 468 00:34:41,379 --> 00:34:42,947 Somehow it was a beautiful thing 469 00:34:42,947 --> 00:34:46,951 because I became successful financially and materially 470 00:34:46,951 --> 00:34:48,686 and accomplished these things. 471 00:34:48,686 --> 00:34:51,589 But I feel like somehow, it's... [CLEARS THROAT] 472 00:34:51,589 --> 00:34:53,858 ...what I'm being drawn to is the complete opposite. 473 00:34:54,759 --> 00:34:57,495 [SPEAKING OTHER LANGUAGE] 474 00:36:40,698 --> 00:36:43,801 SEBASTIANO: This ego part of myself is so strong and so powerful. 475 00:36:43,801 --> 00:36:47,805 It's been just fed for the last 34 years of my life. 476 00:36:47,805 --> 00:36:49,874 It's being fed, and fed, and fed, and fed, 477 00:36:49,874 --> 00:36:52,543 just getting stronger and stronger and stronger and stronger, 478 00:36:52,543 --> 00:36:54,679 telling me that I need this, 479 00:36:54,679 --> 00:36:56,881 I need that, I need this, I need that. 480 00:36:56,881 --> 00:36:59,917 And it was really overwhelming to see, like, "Shit. 481 00:36:59,917 --> 00:37:03,187 "This is causing so much stress in my life because 482 00:37:03,187 --> 00:37:06,123 "I'm allowing myself to get caught up in this, 483 00:37:06,123 --> 00:37:09,393 "this race of how can I get more stuff?" 484 00:37:12,597 --> 00:37:14,732 What would, I would really like to hear 485 00:37:14,732 --> 00:37:18,636 from myself, and understand is like the suffering part, 486 00:37:18,636 --> 00:37:20,538 like, I, I suffer, 487 00:37:20,538 --> 00:37:22,873 to be honest. Like I have, I do... 488 00:37:22,873 --> 00:37:24,842 -I don't know if it's daily or weekly. -Right. 489 00:37:24,842 --> 00:37:27,745 It just varies, it's not like on schedule or something, 490 00:37:27,745 --> 00:37:30,147 -but I do have anxiety. I do feel fear. -Right. 491 00:37:30,147 --> 00:37:33,317 I do feel like sometimes my mind is like, just controlling my life. 492 00:37:33,317 --> 00:37:35,086 Out of control, totally. 493 00:37:35,086 --> 00:37:37,188 What can I do really to be free from that? 494 00:37:37,188 --> 00:37:39,490 We say, we could look at self-inquiry. 495 00:37:39,490 --> 00:37:43,894 Ramana Maharshi, probably the sage of the 20th century, 496 00:37:43,894 --> 00:37:45,630 said, "Just look for the I." 497 00:37:45,630 --> 00:37:51,168 Just ask "Who am I?" Over and over and over and over again. 498 00:37:51,168 --> 00:37:55,906 Western philosophy, only one or two people ever even looked at the possibility 499 00:37:55,906 --> 00:37:57,441 of questioning the I. 500 00:37:58,109 --> 00:38:00,411 Eastern folks did it. 501 00:38:00,411 --> 00:38:02,380 -Where am I? -Just like, like meditate 502 00:38:02,380 --> 00:38:03,848 and just like, on that, 503 00:38:03,848 --> 00:38:06,017 -kind of make that my mantra kind of thing? -Yep. 504 00:38:06,017 --> 00:38:08,252 Not a mantra though, not a mantra! 505 00:38:08,252 --> 00:38:10,921 We're trying to do, is get really curious. 506 00:38:10,921 --> 00:38:13,457 Is it, is it simple enough to say, 507 00:38:13,457 --> 00:38:15,860 like, if we don't want to feel suffering, 508 00:38:15,860 --> 00:38:18,796 to just don't do things that make us suffer? 509 00:38:18,796 --> 00:38:21,065 No, but, even more fundamental than that. 510 00:38:21,065 --> 00:38:22,967 It's like, "Okay, let's just 511 00:38:22,967 --> 00:38:24,869 "deconstruct the sufferer." 512 00:38:24,869 --> 00:38:29,407 If we don't have the sufferer, there is no suffering. 513 00:38:29,407 --> 00:38:32,310 There are an infinite number of pleasures and possibilities 514 00:38:32,310 --> 00:38:34,111 and desires and thoughts. 515 00:38:34,111 --> 00:38:37,014 But there's only one I, 516 00:38:37,014 --> 00:38:38,783 because it's there in every thought, 517 00:38:38,783 --> 00:38:42,286 every desire, every lack, 518 00:38:42,286 --> 00:38:43,754 there's an I there. 519 00:38:43,754 --> 00:38:46,324 And if you just keep going after that I, 520 00:38:46,324 --> 00:38:48,392 don't get sucked into stories. 521 00:38:48,392 --> 00:38:50,928 Just keep going back into "What is this I? 522 00:38:50,928 --> 00:38:54,265 Where is this I?" When I ask, "Where is James?" 523 00:38:54,265 --> 00:38:55,399 "Well, James is sitting here." 524 00:38:55,399 --> 00:38:57,368 "No, but where is James though?" 525 00:38:57,368 --> 00:38:59,737 "Well, James is someplace in here." 526 00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:01,939 "No, he's not, though." 527 00:39:01,939 --> 00:39:06,811 And you keep watching, keep asking, you know, "Where is James?" 528 00:39:06,811 --> 00:39:10,047 And you find out that, in fact, James isn't a real thing. 529 00:39:12,049 --> 00:39:14,552 Every time, James, you meet somebody, 530 00:39:14,552 --> 00:39:16,921 a different person, you talk to Mark, 531 00:39:16,921 --> 00:39:20,391 or you talk to, you know, Ana? 532 00:39:20,391 --> 00:39:23,794 There's a different James shows up for those two situations. 533 00:39:23,794 --> 00:39:27,231 You watch carefully, you concede you're two different James' there. 534 00:39:27,231 --> 00:39:29,233 If you watch yourself in the course of a day, 535 00:39:29,233 --> 00:39:30,935 you can see lots of Jameses. 536 00:39:33,104 --> 00:39:35,172 You know, what's the deal here? 537 00:39:35,172 --> 00:39:37,341 How important can James be 538 00:39:37,341 --> 00:39:42,146 if he's got all this, you know, a whole pack of them. 539 00:39:42,146 --> 00:39:43,714 Which one do we believe is real? 540 00:39:46,283 --> 00:39:49,286 If you take a, put yourself in a scanner, 541 00:39:49,286 --> 00:39:52,022 you can look at your brain, you can say, "Hold it. 542 00:39:52,022 --> 00:39:55,993 We can't find James anyplace. 543 00:39:55,993 --> 00:39:58,095 We can find lots of Jameses, 544 00:39:58,095 --> 00:40:04,635 but James is just an ad hoc entity created as waves of energy sweep across the cortex. 545 00:40:08,072 --> 00:40:11,709 Scientifically, we can show you there is no James there. 546 00:40:14,979 --> 00:40:18,883 So according to all that stuff, who is James? Who am I? 547 00:40:18,883 --> 00:40:20,451 Well, that's the question. 548 00:40:21,152 --> 00:40:24,622 You're only now, now. 549 00:40:24,622 --> 00:40:27,558 Now, you aren't becoming now. 550 00:40:27,558 --> 00:40:30,594 You are only now. There is no past. 551 00:40:30,594 --> 00:40:33,731 There's only this very moment. 552 00:40:33,731 --> 00:40:38,102 Be. Not "I will be present now." 553 00:40:38,102 --> 00:40:40,337 No, you're only there. 554 00:40:40,337 --> 00:40:42,273 Only being-ness. 555 00:40:42,273 --> 00:40:45,743 There's no one being. There's just being-ness. 556 00:41:09,366 --> 00:41:13,003 BRANYou know, it's difficult not to evaluate the experience almost aesthetically, 557 00:41:13,003 --> 00:41:14,438 if you know what I mean. 558 00:41:14,438 --> 00:41:16,674 It's been called, even having the idea of a good meditation. 559 00:41:16,674 --> 00:41:20,211 "There's no such thing as good meditation." aren't they? But you, sort of, 560 00:41:20,211 --> 00:41:23,447 "I know I want, I want cessation of self." 561 00:41:23,447 --> 00:41:27,685 I want, "Ah, bliss. There was nothingness for a while." 562 00:41:27,685 --> 00:41:32,323 Because on some level we know, "I've put this thing together." 563 00:41:32,323 --> 00:41:34,158 It's not really who I am. 564 00:41:34,158 --> 00:41:37,328 Stare too long in a mirror, you freak yourself out whether you're on acid or not. 565 00:41:37,328 --> 00:41:41,031 And it gets to a point where you think, "Who's looking back at me now?" 566 00:41:41,031 --> 00:41:42,900 Who is that? Where is the distinction? 567 00:41:48,339 --> 00:41:51,175 HANCOCK: This is the process of self-inquiry. 568 00:41:51,175 --> 00:41:53,377 I would start by asking, 569 00:41:53,377 --> 00:41:55,980 tell me about yourself, and chances are, 570 00:41:55,980 --> 00:41:58,649 the person, which starts 571 00:41:58,649 --> 00:42:01,585 with something like, "I'm a school teacher," 572 00:42:01,585 --> 00:42:04,188 and straightaway, I would say, "No. 573 00:42:04,188 --> 00:42:05,556 "You haven't always been a school teacher, 574 00:42:05,556 --> 00:42:08,125 "and you probably won't always be a school teacher." 575 00:42:08,125 --> 00:42:10,194 So I want to know about yourself. 576 00:42:10,194 --> 00:42:12,463 Can you tell me about yourself? 577 00:42:14,164 --> 00:42:17,668 So then the person might say, "Well... 578 00:42:17,668 --> 00:42:19,236 "I'm 34 years old." 579 00:42:19,236 --> 00:42:22,373 Again I would comment, 580 00:42:22,373 --> 00:42:24,975 "Well, you haven't always been 34 years. 581 00:42:24,975 --> 00:42:27,645 "You're still yourself when you were 13 years old." 582 00:42:27,645 --> 00:42:31,248 So yourself cannot have any particular age. 583 00:42:31,248 --> 00:42:36,720 So I'm presuming, of course, that person understands, this is very easy to understand. 584 00:42:36,720 --> 00:42:39,990 Nothing extraordinary, nothing mystical, nothing spiritual 585 00:42:39,990 --> 00:42:42,660 and just, just inviting the person 586 00:42:42,660 --> 00:42:47,131 to go deeper and deeper into their sense of themselves, 587 00:42:47,131 --> 00:42:49,166 the sense of their being. 588 00:42:49,166 --> 00:42:52,703 What they've called "I" all their life. 589 00:42:52,703 --> 00:42:56,607 The person may then refer to some bodily sensation. 590 00:42:56,607 --> 00:42:59,810 Again, I would point out that our bodily sensations 591 00:42:59,810 --> 00:43:03,180 change innumerable times throughout the day, 592 00:43:03,180 --> 00:43:04,548 let alone throughout our life. 593 00:43:04,548 --> 00:43:09,253 So no actual experience of the body is inherent 594 00:43:09,253 --> 00:43:12,957 to begin where they would describe thoughts, feelings and activities. 595 00:43:12,957 --> 00:43:15,593 But as the conversation went on, 596 00:43:15,593 --> 00:43:19,597 there would be longer and longer periods of silence 597 00:43:19,597 --> 00:43:22,299 as they tried to find something 598 00:43:22,299 --> 00:43:25,202 in their own experience which they could say, 599 00:43:25,202 --> 00:43:27,104 "This is with me when I'm dreaming, 600 00:43:27,104 --> 00:43:29,406 "it's with me when I'm deeply asleep, 601 00:43:29,406 --> 00:43:31,241 "it's with me whatever I'm feeling. 602 00:43:31,241 --> 00:43:33,644 "It's with me whatever age I've been, 603 00:43:33,644 --> 00:43:35,546 "in whatever circumstance I find myself." 604 00:43:35,546 --> 00:43:41,385 So they would begin to struggle to put a name to that. 605 00:43:42,686 --> 00:43:45,623 What is it in our experience that 606 00:43:45,623 --> 00:43:47,157 qualifies as I? 607 00:43:47,157 --> 00:43:51,195 Obviously no thought, no feeling, no bodily sensation, 608 00:43:51,195 --> 00:43:56,400 no activity, no relationship qualifies as I because these are continually 609 00:43:56,400 --> 00:44:00,070 leaving us and reappearing and leaving us. 610 00:44:00,070 --> 00:44:02,006 So, self-inquiry begins 611 00:44:02,006 --> 00:44:06,677 by tracing...with this tracing back of the attention. 612 00:44:07,678 --> 00:44:09,713 I'm not my thoughts. 613 00:44:09,713 --> 00:44:11,949 I am that which is aware of my thoughts. 614 00:44:11,949 --> 00:44:15,085 I'm not my feelings, I'm that which is aware of my feelings. 615 00:44:15,085 --> 00:44:16,987 We trace our way back 616 00:44:16,987 --> 00:44:23,060 until we get simply to that which I am, the only element 617 00:44:23,060 --> 00:44:25,729 that remains with us all the time 618 00:44:25,729 --> 00:44:30,467 is our essential being or our essential self-aware being. 619 00:44:30,467 --> 00:44:32,302 And at some point, there is this recognition. 620 00:44:32,302 --> 00:44:34,071 I am pure awareness. 621 00:44:34,071 --> 00:44:36,874 That is the recognition of our true nature. 622 00:44:41,812 --> 00:44:45,916 And we've lost touch, in most cases, with our essential self, 623 00:44:45,916 --> 00:44:48,986 which is not a thought, or a feeling, an activity, or relationship, 624 00:44:48,986 --> 00:44:54,191 and is above all inherently peaceful and unconditionally fulfilled. 625 00:44:54,191 --> 00:44:58,295 In other words, it is the place in us of peace and happiness. 626 00:44:58,295 --> 00:45:01,532 But most of us have overlooked that 627 00:45:01,532 --> 00:45:07,571 or forgotten it in favor of the objective content of our experience. 628 00:45:09,106 --> 00:45:11,341 [PREM BABA SPEAKING IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 629 00:46:34,525 --> 00:46:39,196 So, is suffering kind of an illusion? 630 00:46:39,196 --> 00:46:43,167 Ah! Yes. 631 00:46:43,167 --> 00:46:44,802 Very good. [CHUCKLES] 632 00:46:45,302 --> 00:46:47,538 Very good. 633 00:46:47,538 --> 00:46:48,972 [CONTINUES IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 634 00:47:05,055 --> 00:47:06,456 It's not real. 635 00:47:06,456 --> 00:47:09,493 -[LAUGHING] -But it feels so real. 636 00:47:11,094 --> 00:47:12,596 It feels real. 637 00:47:13,597 --> 00:47:15,899 -It's tricky... -Yes. Yes. 638 00:47:15,899 --> 00:47:17,601 [CONTINUES IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 639 00:47:54,404 --> 00:47:57,341 So, by separating, 640 00:47:57,341 --> 00:48:01,445 by cultivating silence and self-investigation, 641 00:48:01,445 --> 00:48:04,348 those are the ways to disconnect from the mind? 642 00:48:04,348 --> 00:48:06,650 Are those the ways to bypass the mind, 643 00:48:06,650 --> 00:48:09,119 -to dis-identify with the mind? -Yes. 644 00:48:09,119 --> 00:48:11,188 This is the main goal. 645 00:48:11,188 --> 00:48:13,056 [CONTINUES IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 646 00:48:57,734 --> 00:48:59,736 [CHANTING PRAYERS] 647 00:49:03,640 --> 00:49:05,876 [PREM BABA CONTINUES IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 648 00:49:58,028 --> 00:50:02,599 I was just in India not too long ago, and I was studying with an amazing kind of guru, 649 00:50:02,599 --> 00:50:03,734 spiritual teacher, 650 00:50:03,734 --> 00:50:07,938 and we're having an incredible chat, and 651 00:50:07,938 --> 00:50:11,575 he said, at one point during the talk, I kind of realized like... 652 00:50:11,575 --> 00:50:13,610 with suffering and this "I," 653 00:50:13,610 --> 00:50:17,814 or the ego and separation, it kind of... 654 00:50:17,814 --> 00:50:21,084 was understood by me that it's an illusion. 655 00:50:21,084 --> 00:50:24,221 But like, I understood it on one level, 656 00:50:24,221 --> 00:50:27,391 but when I'm having, like, an anxiety attack, or 657 00:50:27,391 --> 00:50:29,192 -you know... -It's not enough. 658 00:50:29,192 --> 00:50:31,094 ...this doesn't feel like an illusion to me. 659 00:50:31,094 --> 00:50:32,829 I can't breathe. Like it's... 660 00:50:32,829 --> 00:50:37,067 if this is fake, you know, I feel still a little bit confused about it. 661 00:50:37,801 --> 00:50:40,170 If James has bad thoughts, 662 00:50:40,170 --> 00:50:44,241 problematic, anxiety, fear, traumatic thoughts, 663 00:50:44,241 --> 00:50:46,543 then... That's one kind of a thought. 664 00:50:46,543 --> 00:50:49,112 You can feel the difference, you can feel that one 665 00:50:49,112 --> 00:50:52,849 and you can feel, I think we should shoot this afternoon, 666 00:50:52,849 --> 00:50:55,485 or this morning or tomorrow. 667 00:50:55,485 --> 00:50:57,454 That's a different thought from, 668 00:50:57,454 --> 00:51:00,357 "Oh, my God, this is a horrible fiasco." 669 00:51:00,357 --> 00:51:02,859 "This is a terrible thing, my one business is failing." 670 00:51:02,859 --> 00:51:04,027 [MUMBLES] 671 00:51:04,027 --> 00:51:06,196 Those feel differently. 672 00:51:06,196 --> 00:51:08,131 So, are those thoughts the suffering? 673 00:51:08,131 --> 00:51:09,766 The ones that cause the problems? Is that... 674 00:51:09,766 --> 00:51:13,036 -Is that, maybe, your definition of suffering? -That's it. 675 00:51:13,036 --> 00:51:14,771 If these kind of thoughts are quiet, 676 00:51:14,771 --> 00:51:17,908 and most people, 99% of their thoughts are these kind of thoughts, 677 00:51:17,908 --> 00:51:19,509 the bad thoughts. 678 00:51:19,509 --> 00:51:22,012 And so, if you can quiet those down, 679 00:51:22,012 --> 00:51:24,347 you gain a huge amount of bandwidth. 680 00:51:24,347 --> 00:51:28,618 You know, the whole thing... Now this thing is quiet in here. 681 00:51:28,618 --> 00:51:31,755 There's just nothing going on, it's just quiet. 682 00:51:31,755 --> 00:51:33,690 And do you feel like you... 683 00:51:33,690 --> 00:51:35,525 still suffer from those things at all? 684 00:51:35,525 --> 00:51:38,228 Anxiety, fear, separation? 685 00:51:38,228 --> 00:51:40,530 -All the things that you're talking about? -No. 686 00:51:40,530 --> 00:51:43,767 So, you don't feel like you suffer at all, in life? 687 00:51:46,770 --> 00:51:50,507 Do... Do you, like, know how you did it? Or... 688 00:51:50,507 --> 00:51:53,243 I went into self-enquiry. 689 00:51:53,243 --> 00:51:55,345 Enquiring who you are, and what you are... 690 00:51:56,012 --> 00:51:57,814 and it worked. 691 00:51:57,814 --> 00:52:00,617 You know, you watch your thoughts, you could watch your thoughts. 692 00:52:00,617 --> 00:52:02,519 You could see all that taking place. 693 00:52:02,519 --> 00:52:04,287 They all had an "I" in them. 694 00:52:04,287 --> 00:52:07,124 Part of this stuff that I do, this practice. 695 00:52:07,124 --> 00:52:08,625 It's getting rid of your attachments, 696 00:52:08,625 --> 00:52:12,062 because the attachments really generate the I. 697 00:52:12,062 --> 00:52:15,031 They work together. I want this green tea. 698 00:52:15,031 --> 00:52:17,000 I have to have a green tea. If I don't, 699 00:52:17,000 --> 00:52:18,668 "Oh, my gosh, I feel terrible." 700 00:52:18,668 --> 00:52:22,272 So, you just need to deconstruct all those attachments, 701 00:52:22,272 --> 00:52:24,641 and so, that drives you forward 702 00:52:24,641 --> 00:52:27,177 because if you start to take apart James, 703 00:52:27,177 --> 00:52:29,412 you find a lot of resistance. 704 00:52:29,412 --> 00:52:31,815 It's all the James stories about this and that. 705 00:52:31,815 --> 00:52:34,317 A lot of old memories, a lot of old traumas, 706 00:52:34,317 --> 00:52:37,053 and you won't... There's ways to push through those. 707 00:52:37,053 --> 00:52:40,090 Take a look at them and say, "Where's the James in this one?" 708 00:52:40,090 --> 00:52:43,226 You look at your attachments and, "Why am I attached to that?" 709 00:52:43,226 --> 00:52:45,662 There's a James there attached to the car, 710 00:52:45,662 --> 00:52:48,532 or the reputation, or the story, or whatever. 711 00:52:48,532 --> 00:52:51,034 And you say, "Those are all parts of James." 712 00:52:51,034 --> 00:52:53,637 You can break all those down. 713 00:52:53,637 --> 00:52:56,840 But you've got to decide, "Hey, this is serious." 714 00:52:56,840 --> 00:53:00,343 "I can't just buy another car, get another girlfriend, get more drugs, rock n' roll. 715 00:53:00,343 --> 00:53:03,046 "I've gotta somehow fix this thing. 716 00:53:03,046 --> 00:53:06,149 "I'm responsible for this mess." 717 00:53:06,149 --> 00:53:07,717 Everyone has to feel that, 718 00:53:07,717 --> 00:53:09,486 and change. 719 00:53:09,486 --> 00:53:12,022 If they don't change, the ship sinks. 720 00:53:12,856 --> 00:53:14,357 Titanic goes down. 721 00:53:14,357 --> 00:53:16,059 How do we fix it? 722 00:53:16,059 --> 00:53:18,862 If you first begin to recognize, "Look, 723 00:53:18,862 --> 00:53:20,397 "I don't need to suffer." 724 00:53:20,397 --> 00:53:23,300 I say, "Fuck it..." pardon my French, "Fuck it. 725 00:53:23,300 --> 00:53:26,102 "I don't want to suffer anymore. 726 00:53:26,102 --> 00:53:27,671 "I'm done suffering. 727 00:53:27,671 --> 00:53:29,005 "This has to stop." 728 00:53:29,005 --> 00:53:30,574 -Do you need to suffer? -No. 729 00:53:30,574 --> 00:53:33,310 Okay, 'cause that's an important part. 730 00:53:33,310 --> 00:53:36,580 When you get to that point, then you'll do anything 731 00:53:36,580 --> 00:53:37,781 to get free. 732 00:53:45,422 --> 00:53:46,990 But it needs to get there. 733 00:54:05,976 --> 00:54:07,344 It is, um... 734 00:54:08,778 --> 00:54:10,947 I think I'm at that point... [VOICE BREAKING] 735 00:54:12,682 --> 00:54:14,851 How much are you willing to surrender? 736 00:54:15,619 --> 00:54:17,721 Accept, let go, forage and use, 737 00:54:17,721 --> 00:54:19,322 but we don't like to use the word "surrender." 738 00:54:19,322 --> 00:54:22,993 But to me, it came down to when I totally surrendered. 739 00:54:25,729 --> 00:54:26,963 [EXHALES] 740 00:54:28,431 --> 00:54:30,033 I was totally held. 741 00:54:31,935 --> 00:54:33,036 Totally. 742 00:54:34,204 --> 00:54:35,639 Completely. 743 00:54:35,639 --> 00:54:37,941 I have no sense of doing anything. 744 00:54:45,148 --> 00:54:48,018 HALL: You don't have to understand it right now. 745 00:54:48,018 --> 00:54:49,653 That will come later. 746 00:54:50,487 --> 00:54:51,588 It's okay. 747 00:54:55,325 --> 00:54:57,227 Like, I feel it a lot right now in my face. 748 00:54:57,227 --> 00:54:59,396 It's like really tingling... [VOICE BREAKS] 749 00:54:59,396 --> 00:55:02,132 -Yeah. Yeah. -[SIGHS] 750 00:55:02,132 --> 00:55:04,000 It may not be the 751 00:55:04,801 --> 00:55:07,070 ideal situation to do this in. 752 00:55:07,070 --> 00:55:09,272 Don't do it if it's not right for you, 753 00:55:09,272 --> 00:55:13,543 but see if you can allow yourself to make some sound. 754 00:55:16,880 --> 00:55:18,715 -[DEEPLY EXHALES] -Yeah. 755 00:55:18,715 --> 00:55:20,684 That's it. 756 00:55:20,684 --> 00:55:24,387 It's difficult, but try not to control it. 757 00:55:24,387 --> 00:55:28,525 Yeah, try and let the sound out as much as you can. 758 00:55:29,392 --> 00:55:31,728 Even if it's only a little bit. 759 00:55:32,062 --> 00:55:33,763 [EXHALES] 760 00:55:40,370 --> 00:55:43,673 SEBASTIANO: It's something new for me. We didn't learn about this stuff growing up. 761 00:55:43,673 --> 00:55:45,775 They don't teach this stuff in school. 762 00:55:45,775 --> 00:55:47,744 This isn't what they taught us in church and all that. 763 00:55:47,744 --> 00:55:49,179 It's different, it's a different thing. 764 00:55:49,179 --> 00:55:51,715 You know, I met a couple of people on this trip in India. 765 00:55:51,715 --> 00:55:54,851 A teacher, a guy in New York and they said 766 00:55:54,851 --> 00:55:57,620 by learning these things, learning how to be more present 767 00:55:57,620 --> 00:56:01,157 and stuff like that, they actually don't get angry, ever. 768 00:56:01,157 --> 00:56:04,027 -They don't. They're not making bad decisions... -That's a process. 769 00:56:04,027 --> 00:56:06,262 That's a process. You're not born that way. 770 00:56:06,262 --> 00:56:08,565 No, definitely... Well, maybe we are born that way 771 00:56:08,565 --> 00:56:11,134 and then stuff happens in our life which changes us. 772 00:56:11,134 --> 00:56:13,803 I don't think we're born as like little assholes. 773 00:56:13,803 --> 00:56:16,973 Well it's learned behavior, you learn how to be 774 00:56:16,973 --> 00:56:18,908 an asshole, and then, you know 775 00:56:18,908 --> 00:56:20,744 you learn, you unlearn, whatever. 776 00:56:20,744 --> 00:56:24,080 Yeah, it was definitely interesting, that's for sure. 777 00:56:24,080 --> 00:56:25,315 I went to Peru also. 778 00:56:25,315 --> 00:56:27,083 You want to know what I did in Peru? [CHUCKLING] 779 00:56:27,083 --> 00:56:29,586 You told me. There was the monks and everything else, right? 780 00:56:29,586 --> 00:56:31,888 No, Peru there was no monks. It was the shamans. 781 00:56:32,288 --> 00:56:33,656 We drank... 782 00:56:33,656 --> 00:56:36,559 We went one month in the jungle in Peru, 783 00:56:36,559 --> 00:56:38,428 and there's this stuff called Ayahuasca. 784 00:56:38,428 --> 00:56:40,263 -Have you ever heard of that? -No. 785 00:56:40,263 --> 00:56:42,799 It's like this... they take this vine... 786 00:56:42,799 --> 00:56:45,335 like, that grows above ground, like a vine, 787 00:56:45,335 --> 00:56:47,570 and they take a leaf from another plant 788 00:56:47,570 --> 00:56:50,140 and there's like, priests, and at night you sit, 789 00:56:50,140 --> 00:56:52,041 like, in a room with 12 people... 790 00:56:52,041 --> 00:56:53,543 -And you drink it? -...and you drink it. 791 00:56:53,543 --> 00:56:55,578 -Just you? And they watch you? -No. 792 00:56:55,578 --> 00:56:57,247 SEBASTIANO: 12... everybody drinks it. 793 00:56:57,247 --> 00:56:58,815 Yeah, they're experimenting on you. 794 00:56:58,815 --> 00:57:00,850 No, no, they weren't experimenting on me. It was crazy, 795 00:57:00,850 --> 00:57:03,686 but I started to have that panic attack before I drank it. 796 00:57:03,686 --> 00:57:06,956 I was like, crying, shaking, and I didn't even drink the stuff yet. 797 00:57:07,857 --> 00:57:10,393 And I drank it. 798 00:57:10,393 --> 00:57:12,328 I wouldn't have drank it. I would have faked it. 799 00:57:12,328 --> 00:57:13,830 I would have been like, yeah... 800 00:57:13,830 --> 00:57:15,965 I wouldn't have drank it at all. 801 00:57:15,965 --> 00:57:19,836 Yeah, but I felt like I was fighting this thing 802 00:57:19,836 --> 00:57:21,704 and then like, the fourth time I did it... 803 00:57:21,704 --> 00:57:24,541 We were there for like a month, and I did it five times. 804 00:57:24,541 --> 00:57:26,810 -You drank the juice five times? -Yeah. 805 00:57:27,877 --> 00:57:30,146 But the fourth time, I felt... 806 00:57:30,146 --> 00:57:32,248 I figured out that I was fighting this... 807 00:57:33,082 --> 00:57:34,984 this thing, they call it a medicine. 808 00:57:34,984 --> 00:57:36,653 They're like doctors actually, 809 00:57:36,653 --> 00:57:40,523 and this is like, a natural medicine that "God" told them about. 810 00:57:41,157 --> 00:57:42,459 That's what they say. 811 00:57:42,459 --> 00:57:45,395 But some people leave with no depression or anxiety 812 00:57:45,395 --> 00:57:48,731 or some people are suicidal and they go, and it helps them. 813 00:57:48,731 --> 00:57:52,702 It fixes... It can help people fix their problems. 814 00:57:52,702 --> 00:57:56,372 For me, I felt like it really helped 'cause I felt like... 815 00:57:56,372 --> 00:58:00,543 lot of the anxiety I had, was 'cause I feel like I tried to control stuff. 816 00:58:00,543 --> 00:58:03,546 -Mm. -To always be in control of everything 817 00:58:03,980 --> 00:58:05,248 in my life. 818 00:58:05,248 --> 00:58:08,685 And with that kind of stuff, you can't be in control. 819 00:58:08,685 --> 00:58:12,455 So, it's hard because you start freaking out at the beginning, because 820 00:58:12,455 --> 00:58:14,757 your body and your mind, and all that stuff, you're just, 821 00:58:14,757 --> 00:58:17,560 can't do anything. You're totally out of control. 822 00:58:17,560 --> 00:58:20,630 You're lucky you didn't piss yourself in front of all those people. 823 00:58:29,806 --> 00:58:33,643 SEBASTIANI was hearing all this stuff from these teachers and these gurus 824 00:58:33,643 --> 00:58:36,913 and people that I saw about how suffering's an illusion, 825 00:58:36,913 --> 00:58:38,781 and, you know, that it doesn't really exist. 826 00:58:38,781 --> 00:58:41,084 But I was still feeling suffering. 827 00:58:41,084 --> 00:58:43,253 So, I really wanted to take Ayahuasca 828 00:58:43,253 --> 00:58:48,658 and work with that medicine to see if I could access that place in myself, 829 00:58:48,658 --> 00:58:50,827 where the suffering didn't exist anymore. 830 00:58:53,796 --> 00:58:55,765 BRAND: When you start to analyze your life, 831 00:58:55,765 --> 00:58:57,867 you start to question what is the nature of reality. 832 00:58:57,867 --> 00:59:00,970 And it seems that there's more than one answer to that question. 833 00:59:04,007 --> 00:59:06,175 This isn't all reality. 834 00:59:06,175 --> 00:59:07,877 Who is it behind the "I"s? 835 00:59:07,877 --> 00:59:11,714 When I think to myself, whose "I," and who's "myself"? 836 00:59:11,714 --> 00:59:14,784 How can I have a simultaneous, subjective, objective experience 837 00:59:14,784 --> 00:59:15,785 in my own consciousness? 838 00:59:15,785 --> 00:59:18,922 Who's talking in there and who's listening? 839 00:59:18,922 --> 00:59:20,957 That's at least two people 840 00:59:20,957 --> 00:59:23,293 in every single human mind. 841 00:59:23,927 --> 00:59:25,261 SEBASTIANHola. 842 00:59:26,329 --> 00:59:27,730 [SPEAKING SPANISH] 843 00:59:47,317 --> 00:59:49,552 [SPEAKING SPANISH] 844 01:00:06,035 --> 01:00:09,172 ALEX GREY: Coming to the surface of all the shadows 845 01:00:09,172 --> 01:00:11,741 and all the lies, and, uh, 846 01:00:11,741 --> 01:00:15,979 getting back to a sense of what is the truth 847 01:00:15,979 --> 01:00:18,314 and how can we know it? 848 01:00:18,314 --> 01:00:20,516 Maybe there's something more 849 01:00:20,516 --> 01:00:24,787 than the game show reality I'm being sold, 850 01:00:24,787 --> 01:00:26,456 and they discover it. 851 01:00:26,456 --> 01:00:28,992 And when they do, then 852 01:00:29,792 --> 01:00:32,161 they're so perplexed 853 01:00:32,161 --> 01:00:37,800 because they're not seeing it on the cover of The New York Times. 854 01:00:37,800 --> 01:00:41,304 But it's the most important thing that's ever happened to them. 855 01:00:43,473 --> 01:00:45,408 [INSECTS CHIRPING, CHITTERING] 856 01:01:01,024 --> 01:01:03,393 [BIRDS SINGING] 857 01:01:10,767 --> 01:01:12,368 [JOSE SPEAKING IN SPANISH] 858 01:01:57,413 --> 01:02:03,453 Ayahuasca is an amazing medicine 859 01:02:03,453 --> 01:02:07,190 that has been known about for centuries 860 01:02:07,190 --> 01:02:11,594 and brewed in the Amazon 861 01:02:13,796 --> 01:02:16,599 by the combining of two elements. 862 01:02:18,101 --> 01:02:21,270 What it is, is, you have the vine 863 01:02:21,270 --> 01:02:24,874 and then you have the leaf. 864 01:02:26,943 --> 01:02:31,114 So the combination of the vine and the leaf 865 01:02:31,114 --> 01:02:36,719 in a tea allows the DMT 866 01:02:36,719 --> 01:02:39,522 to become orally active. 867 01:02:39,522 --> 01:02:44,761 DMT is one of the most powerful psychoactive agents ever discovered, 868 01:02:46,696 --> 01:02:50,967 and it happens to be 869 01:02:50,967 --> 01:02:56,806 a naturally occurring neurotransmitter in everyone. 870 01:02:59,976 --> 01:03:02,011 [BUBBLING] 871 01:03:04,781 --> 01:03:09,619 [SPEAKING SPANISH] 872 01:04:38,875 --> 01:04:42,478 MATHEW WATHERSTON: It's helpful to understand that this is a pathway. 873 01:04:42,478 --> 01:04:46,849 This is not just a medicine that we can drink or ingest, 874 01:04:46,849 --> 01:04:48,551 that's just gonna fix our problems. 875 01:04:48,551 --> 01:04:51,320 In so many ways we have become dismembered, disconnected, 876 01:04:51,320 --> 01:04:54,557 dislocated, dislodged as a result of trauma. 877 01:04:54,557 --> 01:04:58,561 So, now we see in the West that our medical system 878 01:04:58,561 --> 01:05:01,230 is not able to address the root causes 879 01:05:01,230 --> 01:05:06,369 of the chronic issues that we face, typically on the psycho-emotional level. 880 01:05:06,369 --> 01:05:10,473 So, the epidemic of depression, anxiety, stress 881 01:05:10,473 --> 01:05:13,175 that we see in the modern world, 882 01:05:13,175 --> 01:05:16,612 is not being addressed by our medical system. 883 01:05:16,612 --> 01:05:20,049 Ayahuasca and the tradition that surrounds Ayahuasca 884 01:05:20,049 --> 01:05:23,519 does offer us an opportunity to really address the root causes 885 01:05:23,519 --> 01:05:26,489 of stress, depression and anxiety. 886 01:05:26,489 --> 01:05:30,092 Fundamentally by clearing the barriers, the blockages, 887 01:05:30,092 --> 01:05:32,395 the difficulties, the traumas that we've been through 888 01:05:32,395 --> 01:05:34,230 and accumulated over our life, 889 01:05:34,230 --> 01:05:36,465 to purge them out, to cleanse them. 890 01:05:36,465 --> 01:05:39,535 When we cleanse them, we then find ourselves being 891 01:05:39,535 --> 01:05:42,405 able to live in a much more authentic way. 892 01:05:42,405 --> 01:05:45,441 Feeling a sense of presence, feeling a sense of coherence, 893 01:05:45,441 --> 01:05:48,277 a flow, and connection in our life. 894 01:05:48,277 --> 01:05:51,147 So, Ayahuasca, in a nutshell, 895 01:05:51,147 --> 01:05:53,749 is really helping us to remember who we are. 896 01:05:53,749 --> 01:05:56,752 We forget who we are because we get too trapped 897 01:05:56,752 --> 01:05:59,689 in the conditions, and patterns and programs 898 01:05:59,689 --> 01:06:02,458 that have been laid in, often in our childhood, 899 01:06:02,458 --> 01:06:06,896 that take us away from our presence and authenticity. 900 01:06:49,205 --> 01:06:51,774 [THUNDER RUMBLING] 901 01:07:01,283 --> 01:07:06,722 HANCOCK: Nobody should be going into this sacred experience with a view to recreation. 902 01:07:06,722 --> 01:07:09,658 This is not what it's about. It's not about that at all. 903 01:07:09,658 --> 01:07:14,663 It's about deep, often very troubling personal work. 904 01:07:14,663 --> 01:07:16,966 If you're prepared to do that work, 905 01:07:16,966 --> 01:07:19,602 it can be transformatory. 906 01:07:21,737 --> 01:07:26,942 What Ayahuasca is going to show you is the plain, unvarnished truth 907 01:07:26,942 --> 01:07:28,544 about yourself 908 01:07:28,544 --> 01:07:32,081 and the impact, either positive or negative, or a bit of both 909 01:07:32,081 --> 01:07:33,349 that you have in the world. 910 01:07:33,349 --> 01:07:35,951 You're going to get that message loud and clear. 911 01:07:35,951 --> 01:07:38,654 Sooner or later, maybe not your first session, maybe not your tenth, 912 01:07:38,654 --> 01:07:42,124 but sooner or later, it is gonna hit you like a rocket. 913 01:07:42,124 --> 01:07:43,692 [RAIN PATTERING] 914 01:07:49,832 --> 01:07:54,070 ALEX GREY: When you have a really powerful Ayahuasca experience, 915 01:07:54,070 --> 01:07:56,539 it's like the rapids, 916 01:07:56,539 --> 01:07:59,442 that you're going down in your imagination. 917 01:07:59,442 --> 01:08:02,812 One dimension after another is coming at you, 918 01:08:02,812 --> 01:08:05,548 and it's just overwhelming. 919 01:08:05,548 --> 01:08:07,817 There's no way that you can control it, 920 01:08:07,817 --> 01:08:11,487 and so the best is to surrender to it, 921 01:08:11,487 --> 01:08:14,690 and to orient toward your... 922 01:08:14,690 --> 01:08:16,859 your most... 923 01:08:19,295 --> 01:08:23,766 [EXHALES] ...deep center of your soul. 924 01:08:27,269 --> 01:08:29,438 GRAHAWhen you open that door 925 01:08:29,438 --> 01:08:31,841 to the realm beyond the material realm, 926 01:08:31,841 --> 01:08:35,511 you're opening it to everything that's in there. 927 01:09:26,162 --> 01:09:27,630 [SPITS] 928 01:09:37,072 --> 01:09:39,542 [BLOWING RHYTHMICALLY] 929 01:09:53,322 --> 01:09:56,625 HALLet whatever comes up, just let it come. 930 01:09:56,625 --> 01:09:57,927 It's okay. 931 01:09:58,894 --> 01:10:00,329 That's it. 932 01:10:04,466 --> 01:10:06,802 I'm gonna go out on a limb here, I'm guessing 933 01:10:06,802 --> 01:10:10,940 there's a little bit of control going on there. 934 01:10:10,940 --> 01:10:12,575 Does that make any sense? 935 01:10:13,742 --> 01:10:15,144 Yeah, I can feel that. 936 01:10:15,144 --> 01:10:16,645 Sorry, what? 937 01:10:16,645 --> 01:10:18,314 -Yeah. -Yes. 938 01:10:18,814 --> 01:10:20,015 Okay... 939 01:10:23,319 --> 01:10:25,788 What happens when I say that, James? 940 01:10:29,358 --> 01:10:31,627 I feel more emotions come up. 941 01:10:31,627 --> 01:10:34,063 Okay. Just let them be there. 942 01:10:34,063 --> 01:10:35,864 Just allow them space. 943 01:10:36,832 --> 01:10:40,536 It's safe to feel your heart. 944 01:10:42,104 --> 01:10:45,507 [BLOWING RHYTHMICALLY] 945 01:11:09,932 --> 01:11:12,134 See, I may not be right, 946 01:11:12,134 --> 01:11:16,772 but I have a slight feeling that there's something that wants to put that scream to sleep. 947 01:11:17,806 --> 01:11:19,375 Shut it up. 948 01:11:20,242 --> 01:11:21,877 Not be so noisy. 949 01:11:22,711 --> 01:11:24,013 Does that make sense? 950 01:11:24,013 --> 01:11:25,414 -Yeah. -Mm-hmm. 951 01:11:28,217 --> 01:11:29,652 So... 952 01:11:29,652 --> 01:11:32,988 -I also feel like there's like physical... -Yeah, lot of... 953 01:11:33,789 --> 01:11:35,457 No, like there's... 954 01:11:35,457 --> 01:11:40,029 like this shaky... Like, I can shake away this like... 955 01:11:40,029 --> 01:11:42,031 that it actually feels good to like... 956 01:11:42,031 --> 01:11:44,466 -Yeah, great. -...shake away the... 957 01:11:45,134 --> 01:11:46,902 ...like let it out... 958 01:11:46,902 --> 01:11:50,539 Yeah, do a bit more of that and see if you could make some sound with it. 959 01:11:50,806 --> 01:11:53,475 [GROWLS] 960 01:11:57,079 --> 01:11:58,580 [CLEARS THROAT] 961 01:12:01,050 --> 01:12:02,785 [EXHALES, GRUNTS] 962 01:12:02,785 --> 01:12:04,053 [GROWLS] 963 01:12:05,087 --> 01:12:06,689 [CONTINUES BLOWING] 964 01:12:49,798 --> 01:12:51,600 -[GROWLS] -Yeah, that's it. 965 01:12:51,600 --> 01:12:53,936 [BOTH GROWLING] 966 01:12:56,305 --> 01:12:58,607 -[YELLS] -Yeah, that's great. 967 01:12:59,608 --> 01:13:01,076 -[YELLS] -Yeah. 968 01:13:11,787 --> 01:13:12,855 [YELLS] 969 01:13:20,763 --> 01:13:22,831 -[SCREAMS] -Yeah. 970 01:13:25,934 --> 01:13:27,736 -[SCREAMS] -Yeah. 971 01:13:30,572 --> 01:13:32,274 [SCREAMING] 972 01:13:35,978 --> 01:13:37,579 [SCREAMING] 973 01:13:52,895 --> 01:13:55,030 [SCREAM FADES AWAY] 974 01:14:16,985 --> 01:14:19,288 [WOMAN SPEAKING IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 975 01:14:26,862 --> 01:14:28,730 [WOODEN WIND CHIMES TINGLING] 976 01:14:32,468 --> 01:14:34,570 [WOMAN SINGING TRIBAL SONG] 977 01:14:53,689 --> 01:14:56,758 [DEEP BREATHING] 978 01:15:01,163 --> 01:15:03,465 -[WHIMPERING] -HALL: Yeah. 979 01:15:04,466 --> 01:15:06,301 -[SOBBING] -Yeah. 980 01:15:12,741 --> 01:15:14,710 [BREATH TREMBLING] 981 01:17:42,858 --> 01:17:44,860 BRAND: Get out of the way, there's something there. 982 01:17:44,860 --> 01:17:46,695 There's something there and if you get out of the way 983 01:17:46,695 --> 01:17:49,665 so that it just comes through in a variety of 984 01:17:49,665 --> 01:17:53,602 colors and flavors, and all manner of permutations. 985 01:17:53,602 --> 01:17:56,271 You have to be completely, completely and absolutely present. 986 01:17:56,271 --> 01:17:58,874 You have to fall into it. You have to surrender. 987 01:17:58,874 --> 01:18:01,610 I sense that there is just a oneness, 988 01:18:01,610 --> 01:18:04,246 continually communicating with itself. 989 01:18:04,246 --> 01:18:08,050 The infinite is expressing itself through the temporal, 990 01:18:08,050 --> 01:18:11,820 that between our consciousness, your consciousness and my consciousness, 991 01:18:11,820 --> 01:18:12,954 that we are one. 992 01:18:15,190 --> 01:18:17,693 [SIGHS] I don't know, mate. 993 01:18:17,693 --> 01:18:20,162 I don't know what we're gonna do. Luckily, 994 01:18:20,162 --> 01:18:21,530 you don't live that long. 995 01:18:22,097 --> 01:18:24,566 [LAUGHING] 996 01:18:24,566 --> 01:18:27,335 It's good, innit, to just take the piss 'cause none of it is real. 997 01:18:27,335 --> 01:18:28,770 It's this little curtain, 998 01:18:28,770 --> 01:18:31,940 you come behind the curtain, you see that it's all silly, 999 01:18:31,940 --> 01:18:34,876 go back around the curtain and worry about death again for a bit. 1000 01:18:34,876 --> 01:18:36,078 How long is there now? 1001 01:18:36,078 --> 01:18:38,213 Maximum, 50-60 years. 1002 01:18:38,213 --> 01:18:40,348 Then it's the old bone yard. 1003 01:18:41,116 --> 01:18:42,017 [CHUCKLES] 1004 01:18:45,620 --> 01:18:47,489 [WATER SPLASHING] 1005 01:18:47,489 --> 01:18:50,392 SEBASTIANO: Yeah, so I was in Peru not too long ago, and 1006 01:18:50,392 --> 01:18:53,395 I stayed there for a month in the Amazon, like deep, 1007 01:18:53,395 --> 01:18:56,465 and we worked with Shipibo people. 1008 01:18:56,465 --> 01:18:59,367 And we did some very intense Ayahuasca ceremonies. 1009 01:18:59,367 --> 01:19:03,138 It was the first time in my life that I ever tried Ayahuasca. 1010 01:19:03,138 --> 01:19:06,775 Yeah, it was pretty intense place to go for the first... 1011 01:19:06,775 --> 01:19:08,243 the first round. 1012 01:19:08,243 --> 01:19:11,780 And the first night, I was kind of like mellow, and I didn't really 1013 01:19:11,780 --> 01:19:13,548 have much of an experience. 1014 01:19:13,548 --> 01:19:16,985 So the second night, I drink much more, 1015 01:19:16,985 --> 01:19:18,620 and before I even drank the medicine, 1016 01:19:18,620 --> 01:19:21,289 I was like, having crazy anxiety attacks. 1017 01:19:21,289 --> 01:19:24,126 Before even drank it, just pure panic. 1018 01:19:24,126 --> 01:19:26,294 And then I realized something. I realized like, 1019 01:19:26,294 --> 01:19:28,697 I was trying to control something. 1020 01:19:28,697 --> 01:19:31,433 I was trying to like, control the medicine 1021 01:19:31,433 --> 01:19:34,069 -and I wasn't really willing to let go. -Mm-hmm. 1022 01:19:34,069 --> 01:19:36,805 and I had this thought of like, "What the fuck am I doing?" 1023 01:19:36,805 --> 01:19:39,407 I'm here like, in Peru, in the jungle, 1024 01:19:39,407 --> 01:19:43,044 drinking Ayahuasca, and I'm trying to control something 1025 01:19:43,044 --> 01:19:45,480 that can't really be controlled. 1026 01:19:45,480 --> 01:19:47,415 So I comp... I had that thought, 1027 01:19:47,415 --> 01:19:50,051 and then I completely let go, like... [EXHALES] 1028 01:19:50,051 --> 01:19:52,187 -Yeah, great insight. -Everything. 1029 01:19:52,187 --> 01:19:54,489 -Yeah. -And everything changed. 1030 01:19:54,489 --> 01:19:56,725 I feel like I even let go of, like, life. 1031 01:19:56,725 --> 01:19:58,460 I remember having a thought of... 1032 01:19:58,460 --> 01:20:01,129 Well, if this is death, and I'm dying right now, 1033 01:20:01,129 --> 01:20:02,964 I'm okay with it. 1034 01:20:02,964 --> 01:20:06,234 Which is something that was huge for me 'cause I always had this fear of dying, 1035 01:20:06,234 --> 01:20:08,870 and I felt like I actually did die on some level... 1036 01:20:08,870 --> 01:20:10,472 -Wow. -...but it was okay. 1037 01:20:10,472 --> 01:20:13,241 And I was just like... [EXHALES] You know? 1038 01:20:13,241 --> 01:20:19,948 But you had reached that point of surrendering even your life, 1039 01:20:19,948 --> 01:20:23,118 in that limited form, you know, 1040 01:20:23,118 --> 01:20:25,854 to the great flow, 1041 01:20:25,854 --> 01:20:30,258 and that is beyond your control. 1042 01:20:30,258 --> 01:20:33,562 Letting die the controller, you know, 1043 01:20:33,562 --> 01:20:37,432 and getting in touch with the Great Controller. 1044 01:20:37,432 --> 01:20:39,401 -You know? -But I still do like, 1045 01:20:39,401 --> 01:20:41,503 suffer in my life from anxiety, 1046 01:20:41,503 --> 01:20:43,805 and I feel it coming 1047 01:20:43,805 --> 01:20:47,042 and I do the same kind of thing where I start to control, 1048 01:20:47,042 --> 01:20:50,011 try to control, "What's happening, what's that feeling? 1049 01:20:50,011 --> 01:20:51,780 "What's coming up in me." 1050 01:20:51,780 --> 01:20:56,084 And I guess, what you just said makes a lot of sense. I have to maybe... 1051 01:20:56,084 --> 01:21:00,322 I have to maybe treat it like I did with the Ayahuasca, and somehow completely 1052 01:21:00,322 --> 01:21:02,290 surrender to the feelings that I have. 1053 01:21:02,290 --> 01:21:04,025 Instead of trying to control them, maybe. 1054 01:21:04,025 --> 01:21:08,830 GREY: Exactly. You were still there 1055 01:21:08,830 --> 01:21:10,498 after you surrendered. 1056 01:21:11,766 --> 01:21:12,868 Right? 1057 01:21:15,003 --> 01:21:16,571 You were still there 1058 01:21:16,571 --> 01:21:20,709 and, uh, identifying with that, 1059 01:21:21,543 --> 01:21:24,346 witness that's still there, 1060 01:21:25,013 --> 01:21:26,748 always, you know? 1061 01:21:26,748 --> 01:21:29,651 No matter what happens on the outside. 1062 01:21:44,132 --> 01:21:46,268 HANCOCK: I think first and foremost, 1063 01:21:46,268 --> 01:21:48,703 we have to concede that we're dealing with 1064 01:21:49,237 --> 01:21:51,506 a gigantic mystery. 1065 01:21:52,040 --> 01:21:53,942 What we're here to do, 1066 01:21:53,942 --> 01:21:55,944 as best as we possibly can 1067 01:21:55,944 --> 01:21:59,080 in one lifetime or in multiple lifetimes, 1068 01:21:59,080 --> 01:22:01,816 is to explore that mystery 1069 01:22:01,816 --> 01:22:04,586 and understand, try to understand 1070 01:22:04,586 --> 01:22:07,222 what all this magic is about 1071 01:22:07,222 --> 01:22:10,292 because surely it's a magical thing, 1072 01:22:10,292 --> 01:22:11,927 an enchanted thing, 1073 01:22:12,827 --> 01:22:14,663 to live in this universe, 1074 01:22:14,663 --> 01:22:17,899 to live on this beautiful planet. 1075 01:22:17,899 --> 01:22:23,004 Where I see the light is an awakening of consciousness. 1076 01:22:23,004 --> 01:22:25,307 That people all around the world 1077 01:22:25,307 --> 01:22:28,343 are waking up to this fundamental fact 1078 01:22:28,343 --> 01:22:31,613 that we are not our knees, we are not our shoulders, 1079 01:22:31,613 --> 01:22:35,483 we are not our skulls. We are our consciousness. 1080 01:22:37,419 --> 01:22:40,989 SPIRA: The most transforming effect of this recognition 1081 01:22:40,989 --> 01:22:45,727 is that it puts us in touch with the place of happiness in ourselves, 1082 01:22:45,727 --> 01:22:50,899 and it brings an end to the impossible and unfulfillable 1083 01:22:50,899 --> 01:22:53,568 search for happiness in objective experience. 1084 01:22:53,568 --> 01:22:57,305 It doesn't even mean to say that we necessarily stop desiring 1085 01:22:58,139 --> 01:23:00,241 activities and relationships, 1086 01:23:00,241 --> 01:23:03,411 but we desire them not 1087 01:23:03,411 --> 01:23:05,914 in order to find happiness in them. 1088 01:23:05,914 --> 01:23:09,551 We desire them in order to express, or celebrate, or share 1089 01:23:09,551 --> 01:23:12,554 the happiness or the peace that we have already felt. 1090 01:23:17,659 --> 01:23:20,829 I've never done psychedelics. I'm still a psychedelic virgin. 1091 01:23:20,829 --> 01:23:24,833 We're gonna change that right now. I actually have someone LSD... 1092 01:23:24,833 --> 01:23:28,603 Everybody I work with has done everything. 1093 01:23:28,603 --> 01:23:32,474 So, I'm the only virgin. But, uh... 1094 01:23:32,474 --> 01:23:35,343 Yeah, I just still try to find some way through. 1095 01:23:35,343 --> 01:23:37,412 -So through meditation... -Yeah. 1096 01:23:37,412 --> 01:23:40,081 -...through practicing yoga. -Yeah, but... 1097 01:23:40,081 --> 01:23:44,586 I'm just interested to know the different methods that you used to end suffering. 1098 01:23:44,586 --> 01:23:46,921 Yeah, but it could even be... 1099 01:23:46,921 --> 01:23:50,825 It's really the core of it is, how do we deconstruct this "I"? 1100 01:23:50,825 --> 01:23:53,661 When you completely surrender, it happens. 1101 01:23:54,262 --> 01:23:56,064 Poof. Like that. 1102 01:24:03,138 --> 01:24:06,508 God, how many people I think are even aware... 1103 01:24:06,508 --> 01:24:08,810 -That's possible, -...of what it is that's... 1104 01:24:08,810 --> 01:24:11,813 What this thing is, that they could actually have access to? 1105 01:24:11,813 --> 01:24:14,315 That's right. That's right. And you've... 1106 01:24:14,315 --> 01:24:16,451 And everybody's felt it at some point in life. 1107 01:24:16,451 --> 01:24:20,455 Everybody has, at some place, had a... 1108 01:24:20,455 --> 01:24:22,490 [GASPS IN WONDER] Wow. 1109 01:24:24,025 --> 01:24:26,261 Pfft. It goes way then. 1110 01:24:26,261 --> 01:24:29,164 It wasn't caused by an orgasm or something... 1111 01:24:29,164 --> 01:24:30,532 Just that little window 1112 01:24:30,532 --> 01:24:33,368 into some other space, that was like, "What is that?" 1113 01:24:33,368 --> 01:24:35,904 And quickly the brain, conditioned very heavily, 1114 01:24:35,904 --> 01:24:39,274 plasters it over, "Oh, pay no attention to the man behind the screen." 1115 01:24:39,274 --> 01:24:42,077 I mean, just get it out of the way. 1116 01:24:42,077 --> 01:24:45,947 But if you recognize, you can have that. 1117 01:24:45,947 --> 01:24:50,552 That little window that you had, that little, "Oh, wow!" 1118 01:24:51,453 --> 01:24:53,955 What is that? Poof! 1119 01:24:54,656 --> 01:24:55,790 That's real. 1120 01:24:55,790 --> 01:24:59,327 You can be in this blissful, transcendent 1121 01:24:59,327 --> 01:25:02,430 OMG state all the time. 1122 01:25:02,430 --> 01:25:06,234 You could just be there, life still goes on. 1123 01:25:06,234 --> 01:25:09,237 These bodies still have behaviors that they do. 1124 01:25:09,237 --> 01:25:14,209 But, in fact, what's inside is vast stillness. 1125 01:25:14,209 --> 01:25:18,279 You still pick up coffee and tea, move it around the table and everything else. 1126 01:25:18,279 --> 01:25:20,014 But, in fact, 1127 01:25:20,014 --> 01:25:24,185 what's happening inside isn't anything to do with that. 1128 01:25:24,185 --> 01:25:27,122 The body still does what bodies do. 1129 01:25:27,122 --> 01:25:29,457 But, in fact, you've moved far beyond that. 1130 01:25:29,457 --> 01:25:32,393 You can see that all of this is a dream. 1131 01:25:32,393 --> 01:25:34,829 All of this is... None of this is real. 1132 01:25:36,097 --> 01:25:40,835 You're in a whole different... place. 1133 01:25:40,835 --> 01:25:42,804 You're not there anymore. 1134 01:25:42,804 --> 01:25:45,807 I mean, to be here in now, now, now, 1135 01:25:45,807 --> 01:25:49,344 to really just be there, 1136 01:25:49,344 --> 01:25:52,313 there is no past, literally. 1137 01:25:54,582 --> 01:25:58,019 There's no recollection of what took place 10 seconds ago. 1138 01:25:59,020 --> 01:26:00,688 There's just now, 1139 01:26:00,688 --> 01:26:02,023 and now. 1140 01:26:02,423 --> 01:26:04,759 And now. 1141 01:26:06,194 --> 01:26:07,795 It's a whole different world. 1142 01:26:23,278 --> 01:26:25,446 [PREM BABA SPEAKING IN OTHER LANGUAGE] 1143 01:27:23,204 --> 01:27:25,006 [BOTH CHUCKLE] 1144 01:27:25,974 --> 01:27:27,375 You'll feel bliss. 1145 01:27:29,043 --> 01:27:30,612 Because the bliss 1146 01:27:31,846 --> 01:27:33,248 pass through you. 1147 01:27:39,988 --> 01:27:42,957 [RAIN PATTERING] 1148 01:27:42,957 --> 01:27:45,793 SEBASTIANO: The path, in the sense, that I'm on, is trying to figure out how to 1149 01:27:46,894 --> 01:27:51,532 be controlled by thoughts and not let my emotions control me. 1150 01:27:52,300 --> 01:27:54,235 Be who I really am, and not 1151 01:27:54,235 --> 01:27:56,371 pretend to be somebody else, you know? 1152 01:27:56,371 --> 01:27:58,740 When we're kids, we have to be a certain way, 1153 01:27:58,740 --> 01:28:02,277 so that our teachers like us, so that our parents are happy with us, 1154 01:28:02,277 --> 01:28:05,246 so that the society works. You know what you mean? 1155 01:28:05,246 --> 01:28:07,548 -Mm-hmm. -We can't actually be ourselves. 1156 01:28:07,548 --> 01:28:09,917 So we pretend to be something else 1157 01:28:09,917 --> 01:28:12,620 that we think everybody else wants us to be. 1158 01:28:12,620 --> 01:28:14,822 And just that idea in itself, 1159 01:28:14,822 --> 01:28:17,425 like, causes us to suffer, and we don't even realize it. 1160 01:28:17,425 --> 01:28:20,295 It 'causes us from, like, reaching our full potential. 1161 01:28:20,295 --> 01:28:21,929 You know what I mean? 1162 01:28:21,929 --> 01:28:24,699 And from what I learned, traveling around the world, talking all the... 1163 01:28:24,699 --> 01:28:28,136 these amazing people, smart people, scientists, 1164 01:28:28,136 --> 01:28:30,705 people from every different religion, 1165 01:28:30,705 --> 01:28:32,540 the way to kinda fix all this stuff, 1166 01:28:32,540 --> 01:28:34,909 is to really just be in the moment. 1167 01:28:34,909 --> 01:28:36,944 -Mm-hmm. -To be present. 1168 01:28:41,316 --> 01:28:45,420 Well, that's the bottom line, I guess. I'm a bottom line type of guy. 1169 01:28:45,420 --> 01:28:47,422 You can try it, I'll give you some CDs. 1170 01:28:47,422 --> 01:28:48,890 You can listen to and see. 1171 01:28:49,157 --> 01:28:50,325 Hmm. 1172 01:28:50,325 --> 01:28:53,194 If you say you're present all the time anyway, 1173 01:28:53,194 --> 01:28:54,729 it'll be easy for you. 1174 01:28:54,729 --> 01:28:57,732 I'm present when it's important. When it's important, I'm present. 1175 01:28:57,732 --> 01:28:59,133 What's not important? 1176 01:28:59,133 --> 01:29:01,836 Well... I'm here visiting with you, 1177 01:29:01,836 --> 01:29:03,571 it's important for me to be 1178 01:29:03,571 --> 01:29:05,707 -in the moment, right? -I didn't... 1179 01:29:05,707 --> 01:29:08,242 Also, I didn't realize how important life is. 1180 01:29:08,242 --> 01:29:10,645 Yeah. Yeah. It goes by quick. 1181 01:29:10,645 --> 01:29:13,381 -Yeah. -It goes by quick, real quick. 1182 01:29:13,381 --> 01:29:16,117 But you said like being present 1183 01:29:16,117 --> 01:29:17,752 when things are important. 1184 01:29:17,752 --> 01:29:19,787 And what I'm saying is, what's not important? 1185 01:29:19,787 --> 01:29:22,223 -I don't know, something's... -Everything's important. 1186 01:29:22,223 --> 01:29:24,859 -Every minute is like a gift. -Yeah. 1187 01:29:24,859 --> 01:29:28,930 You figure it out. Carve your little circle out, and do you. 1188 01:29:28,930 --> 01:29:33,401 You can never change what other people think or act, or... 1189 01:29:33,401 --> 01:29:35,436 feel. That's for sure. 1190 01:29:35,436 --> 01:29:37,138 -I don't wanna do that. -I stopped watching the news, 1191 01:29:37,138 --> 01:29:39,974 and reading the newspaper a long time ago 1192 01:29:39,974 --> 01:29:42,043 'cause you can't change the news. 1193 01:29:42,043 --> 01:29:44,045 But the news can change you. 1194 01:29:44,045 --> 01:29:47,882 Nothing you can do about what's happening, you know, on the 8 o'clock news. 1195 01:29:50,785 --> 01:29:53,688 But, we better get outta here. They're gonna... 1196 01:29:55,089 --> 01:29:57,959 -You want to go to the jazz place later? -Yeah. Yeah. For sure. 1197 01:29:57,959 --> 01:30:01,229 -Check out some jazz and ginger ale. -Jazz out. Yeah. 1198 01:30:01,229 --> 01:30:03,264 -Cranberry, bro. -Cranberry juice. 1199 01:30:03,264 --> 01:30:05,032 I live it up at night. 1200 01:30:05,032 --> 01:30:07,902 Cranberry and pineapple something. 1201 01:30:07,902 --> 01:30:11,239 It looks like a drink. So you could perpetrate with the... 1202 01:30:11,239 --> 01:30:13,241 with the pineapple juice. 1203 01:30:13,241 --> 01:30:15,576 Sometimes I'll tell 'em "Give me umbrella." 1204 01:30:15,576 --> 01:30:17,078 [CHUCKLES] 1205 01:30:19,213 --> 01:30:20,381 Yeah. 1206 01:30:21,616 --> 01:30:25,286 You need to eat a big steak. Stop messing around. 1207 01:30:25,286 --> 01:30:27,321 Eat a big steak. Get it over with. 1208 01:30:27,321 --> 01:30:29,023 I'm not gonna eat a steak. 1209 01:30:29,023 --> 01:30:30,391 Forget the vegan thing for a month. 1210 01:30:30,391 --> 01:30:32,827 No. I've been doing it for like, eight years. 1211 01:30:32,827 --> 01:30:33,928 Get down with a steak. 1212 01:30:33,928 --> 01:30:34,996 That's it. 1213 01:30:34,996 --> 01:30:36,998 -No steak. -Big Texas Cattleman. 1214 01:30:36,998 --> 01:30:39,300 You tried the vegetarian thing too. 1215 01:30:39,300 --> 01:30:40,735 Yeah, I know. I know. 1216 01:30:40,735 --> 01:30:42,670 SEBASTIANO: You did like a year, right? 1217 01:30:42,670 --> 01:30:44,906 SEBASTIANO SR.: Yeah, year and a half. 1218 01:30:44,906 --> 01:30:46,073 I'm about to go back though. 1219 01:30:46,073 --> 01:30:48,509 I gotta just get off, just eat chicken 1220 01:30:48,509 --> 01:30:50,845 for a few weeks, and then just get off the chicken. 1221 01:30:50,845 --> 01:30:53,815 SEBASTIANO: Or fish. You could start with fish...