1 00:00:06,172 --> 00:00:07,340 ANGELA: Do you like spaghetti? 2 00:00:07,424 --> 00:00:09,467 -NATHAN FIELDER: I do. -ANGELA: Great. 3 00:00:12,345 --> 00:00:13,596 When you were young, did you ever hate 4 00:00:13,680 --> 00:00:14,806 one of your parents? 5 00:00:15,849 --> 00:00:18,309 -(CLATTERING) -NATHAN: I don't think so. 6 00:00:18,393 --> 00:00:21,646 -No? I did. I hated my dad. -NATHAN: Oh, really? 7 00:00:21,730 --> 00:00:23,231 I was very angry at him 8 00:00:23,314 --> 00:00:27,944 because he wasn't there. I put my parents through hell. 9 00:00:28,611 --> 00:00:30,071 I drank like a fish. 10 00:00:30,155 --> 00:00:35,201 -What did you drink? -Vodka, tequila. I did drugs. 11 00:00:35,994 --> 00:00:37,370 Marijuana... 12 00:00:38,621 --> 00:00:41,458 -acid. -You did acid? 13 00:00:41,541 --> 00:00:43,960 -Yep. -NATHAN: What? 14 00:00:44,043 --> 00:00:45,879 -Cocaine. -You did cocaine? 15 00:00:45,962 --> 00:00:47,172 (SMACKS LIPS) Yep. 16 00:00:48,882 --> 00:00:50,133 (CLICKS TONGUE) And that sent me 17 00:00:50,216 --> 00:00:52,844 into a lot of destructive behaviors. 18 00:00:52,927 --> 00:00:54,012 NATHAN: Mm-hmm. 19 00:00:59,267 --> 00:01:01,144 What are you doing with the noodles there? 20 00:01:01,227 --> 00:01:03,313 -I'm seeing how done they are. -NATHAN: Oh, okay. 21 00:01:03,396 --> 00:01:04,522 ANGELA: Yeah. 22 00:01:04,606 --> 00:01:08,568 ♪ ("THE REHEARSAL" THEME MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 23 00:01:08,651 --> 00:01:11,279 NATHAN: It's beautiful in rural Oregon. 24 00:01:11,362 --> 00:01:12,947 And the town of Eagle Creek, 25 00:01:13,031 --> 00:01:16,993 my home base for this project, definitely has a lot to offer. 26 00:01:18,203 --> 00:01:20,330 But if what you need is a consistent supply 27 00:01:20,413 --> 00:01:21,956 of professional actors 28 00:01:22,040 --> 00:01:24,083 for all the rehearsals you have in the works... 29 00:01:24,167 --> 00:01:25,543 -ANGELA: Bye. -Bye. See you later. 30 00:01:25,627 --> 00:01:29,005 NATHAN: ...you need to take regular trips to a big city. 31 00:01:29,088 --> 00:01:32,008 You need to go where the actors are. 32 00:01:32,091 --> 00:01:34,177 ♪ (MILD TEMPO MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 33 00:01:34,260 --> 00:01:35,428 NATHAN: During this process, 34 00:01:35,512 --> 00:01:38,765 I've discovered that an actor's sense of authenticity 35 00:01:38,848 --> 00:01:41,810 can vary vastly from one to another. 36 00:01:41,893 --> 00:01:43,394 And I wanted a way to create 37 00:01:43,478 --> 00:01:45,688 a standard for the level of realism 38 00:01:45,772 --> 00:01:47,732 I needed for this project. 39 00:01:49,317 --> 00:01:51,820 I had recently launched The Fielder Method Studio 40 00:01:51,903 --> 00:01:56,491 in LA's NoHo Arts District as a recruitment camp of sorts, 41 00:01:56,574 --> 00:01:58,993 to find and train up-and-coming actors 42 00:01:59,077 --> 00:02:02,330 in the specific techniques needed for this show. 43 00:02:02,413 --> 00:02:05,917 Unlike a normal role where the worst thing 44 00:02:06,000 --> 00:02:09,671 that can happen is, you know, someone changes the channel 45 00:02:09,754 --> 00:02:11,506 if they don't like your performance, 46 00:02:11,589 --> 00:02:14,133 you know what I mean. Like, with this show, 47 00:02:14,217 --> 00:02:15,677 if your performance isn't accurate, 48 00:02:15,760 --> 00:02:17,554 you could ruin someone's life. 49 00:02:17,637 --> 00:02:18,721 ♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 50 00:02:18,805 --> 00:02:20,515 NATHAN: Preparing an actor for a rehearsal 51 00:02:20,598 --> 00:02:22,267 is sort of like a spy mission. 52 00:02:22,350 --> 00:02:24,853 And I wanted them to learn how to do it themselves, 53 00:02:24,936 --> 00:02:28,106 as well as improve on mistakes we had made in the past. 54 00:02:28,189 --> 00:02:31,192 So, is your method based upon, like, literally a slice of life 55 00:02:31,276 --> 00:02:33,361 with this person and then creating reenactments 56 00:02:33,444 --> 00:02:35,864 -based off this one experience? -My point is 57 00:02:35,947 --> 00:02:38,241 -that this didn't go far enough. -Okay. 58 00:02:38,324 --> 00:02:40,451 Sounds like we're gonna secretly follow somebody around 59 00:02:40,535 --> 00:02:42,161 -for a while. -(CHUCKLES) Stalking? 60 00:02:42,245 --> 00:02:43,538 -Stalking? -Yeah. Yes. 61 00:02:43,621 --> 00:02:44,706 -(ALL CHUCKLE) -You guys-- 62 00:02:44,789 --> 00:02:46,666 Okay, you guys are getting ahead of this. Good. 63 00:02:46,749 --> 00:02:50,753 NATHAN: But I often find myself intimidated by actors. 64 00:02:50,837 --> 00:02:53,590 Stella Adler says you can be representational, 65 00:02:53,673 --> 00:02:55,592 which is action based. 66 00:02:55,675 --> 00:02:58,136 Or you could be representational, 67 00:02:58,219 --> 00:02:59,596 which is behavior based. 68 00:03:00,138 --> 00:03:01,306 S-- S-- 69 00:03:01,389 --> 00:03:02,891 -Stella Adler. -Stella Adler. 70 00:03:02,974 --> 00:03:05,685 -And then, yeah. -What is her thing? 71 00:03:05,768 --> 00:03:07,145 NATHAN: They have a way of channeling 72 00:03:07,228 --> 00:03:10,940 other people's emotions that I don't fully understand. 73 00:03:11,024 --> 00:03:13,568 The most playful chakra is your third eye, right? 74 00:03:13,651 --> 00:03:15,403 It's your creative mind as an actor. 75 00:03:15,486 --> 00:03:16,779 That's where you wanna live. 76 00:03:16,863 --> 00:03:19,240 Just in hearing you talk about this, um, 77 00:03:19,324 --> 00:03:21,743 it's like the Suzuki Method which is physical 78 00:03:21,826 --> 00:03:22,869 -and it's about-- -Suzuki? 79 00:03:22,952 --> 00:03:24,829 Yeah, and it's about filling the form. 80 00:03:24,913 --> 00:03:27,916 Okay. And what's the best way to fill in the form? 81 00:03:27,999 --> 00:03:29,417 Just do the action. 82 00:03:29,500 --> 00:03:31,085 -Do the action. -ACTOR: Yeah. 83 00:03:31,169 --> 00:03:33,212 Like in the deep reality of the action. 84 00:03:33,296 --> 00:03:34,923 -Sure. -THOMAS: Yeah. 85 00:03:35,006 --> 00:03:36,299 NATHAN: And by the time I gave them 86 00:03:36,382 --> 00:03:40,053 their first assignment, I was feeling a little insecure. 87 00:03:42,555 --> 00:03:44,641 Okay. So now, we're gonna put 88 00:03:44,724 --> 00:03:47,185 some of what you guys learned today, into action. 89 00:03:47,268 --> 00:03:49,646 You're gonna go out into the real world 90 00:03:49,729 --> 00:03:53,942 and pick a real person to become your primary. 91 00:03:54,025 --> 00:03:57,070 And you're gonna secretly observe and interact with them, 92 00:03:57,153 --> 00:03:59,864 and find out as much as you can about them. 93 00:03:59,948 --> 00:04:02,200 And then, you're gonna come back tomorrow 94 00:04:02,283 --> 00:04:04,577 dressed like them. Okay? 95 00:04:06,079 --> 00:04:07,455 Any other questions or... 96 00:04:09,415 --> 00:04:12,752 -Okay, cool. See you later. -ACTOR 2: Bye. 97 00:04:12,835 --> 00:04:14,671 NATHAN: After spending time with people, 98 00:04:14,754 --> 00:04:18,508 I'm often left wondering what they actually think of me. 99 00:04:18,591 --> 00:04:23,346 So, once the class was gone, I tried a little experiment. 100 00:04:23,429 --> 00:04:27,433 I decided to recreate the class using different actors 101 00:04:27,517 --> 00:04:29,185 to portray each person, 102 00:04:29,269 --> 00:04:33,064 so I could relive the day from a student's perspective. 103 00:04:34,232 --> 00:04:35,900 My hope was to gain insight 104 00:04:35,984 --> 00:04:38,277 into how each lesson made them feel, 105 00:04:38,361 --> 00:04:40,613 so I could improve it for tomorrow. 106 00:04:40,697 --> 00:04:42,657 With this show... 107 00:04:42,740 --> 00:04:44,784 if your performance isn't accurate... 108 00:04:45,576 --> 00:04:47,578 you could ruin a person's life. 109 00:04:47,662 --> 00:04:50,456 NATHAN: I picked a random student to inhabit. 110 00:04:50,540 --> 00:04:51,916 An actor named Thomas, 111 00:04:52,000 --> 00:04:54,210 who was sitting on the side of the room. 112 00:04:54,293 --> 00:04:56,337 Putting myself in his headspace, 113 00:04:56,421 --> 00:04:58,673 I noticed this teacher wasn't very good 114 00:04:58,756 --> 00:05:00,466 at connecting with us. 115 00:05:00,550 --> 00:05:03,052 Your character research needs to be sourced 116 00:05:03,136 --> 00:05:04,303 through real-world interactions 117 00:05:04,387 --> 00:05:05,930 with the person you're portraying. 118 00:05:06,014 --> 00:05:07,974 NATHAN: It didn't seem like he had ever taught 119 00:05:08,057 --> 00:05:09,559 an acting class before. 120 00:05:09,642 --> 00:05:13,438 Is it weird... to put my name, like, in a method? 121 00:05:13,521 --> 00:05:14,480 -Or... -ALL: No. 122 00:05:14,564 --> 00:05:16,190 ACTOR: Everyone does that, yeah. 123 00:05:16,274 --> 00:05:17,900 NATHAN: I wondered if my fellow students 124 00:05:17,984 --> 00:05:19,527 felt the same way. 125 00:05:19,610 --> 00:05:21,779 But I couldn't really see their faces well 126 00:05:21,863 --> 00:05:24,657 because of how the chairs were arranged. 127 00:05:24,741 --> 00:05:27,118 We were all facing forwards. 128 00:05:27,201 --> 00:05:28,578 And this formal environment 129 00:05:28,661 --> 00:05:31,247 made the whole class a little less fun. 130 00:05:31,330 --> 00:05:33,416 So, your assignment for the rest of the day is, 131 00:05:33,499 --> 00:05:35,376 you're gonna go out into the real world 132 00:05:35,460 --> 00:05:37,378 and secretly observe your primary. 133 00:05:37,462 --> 00:05:41,049 NATHAN: But it felt like the method itself made sense. 134 00:05:41,132 --> 00:05:43,051 Nathan explained it all clearly 135 00:05:43,134 --> 00:05:45,595 and it was actually sort of intriguing. 136 00:05:45,678 --> 00:05:47,930 Maybe there was something to it. 137 00:05:48,014 --> 00:05:51,434 I guess I'd have to keep taking the class to find out. 138 00:05:57,356 --> 00:05:58,399 (DOOR CLICKS OPEN) 139 00:05:59,817 --> 00:06:01,486 -THOMAS: Hey. -NATHAN: Hey. 140 00:06:01,569 --> 00:06:04,822 -We're circling. That's cool. (CHUCKLES) -Yeah, circle today. 141 00:06:04,906 --> 00:06:06,866 Hang out. Have a seat. How's it going? 142 00:06:06,949 --> 00:06:09,285 It's good to see you. Hello. 143 00:06:09,368 --> 00:06:13,122 ♪ (MILD TEMPO MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 144 00:06:13,206 --> 00:06:14,916 Um, I asked her how her day was going, 145 00:06:14,999 --> 00:06:17,335 how long was her shift. She's working till midnight. 146 00:06:17,418 --> 00:06:18,628 She's really tired. 147 00:06:18,711 --> 00:06:22,173 I found her Instagram through geotags. 148 00:06:22,256 --> 00:06:23,424 -Wow. -Then I found her Twitter 149 00:06:23,508 --> 00:06:25,051 -and I found her TikTok. -NATHAN: Good. Good. 150 00:06:25,134 --> 00:06:26,427 -She's having... -(ALL LAUGH) 151 00:06:26,511 --> 00:06:27,970 ...she's having a breast reduction soon. 152 00:06:28,054 --> 00:06:29,263 Her name is Amanda. 153 00:06:29,347 --> 00:06:32,100 NATHAN: I felt way more in sync with the actors today. 154 00:06:32,183 --> 00:06:34,602 The vibe in the room felt so much better. 155 00:06:34,685 --> 00:06:37,814 Yeah. So, my primary's name is Henry. He is a barber. 156 00:06:37,897 --> 00:06:39,440 -You had to get your hair cut then? -Yeah. 157 00:06:39,524 --> 00:06:41,317 -You got a haircut? -I got my hair cut and I-- 158 00:06:41,400 --> 00:06:43,277 -Yeah, it was nice. Yeah. -(ALL CHEER) 159 00:06:43,361 --> 00:06:45,488 -ACTOR: So, it was good and like... -Okay, cool. Good. 160 00:06:45,571 --> 00:06:47,490 NATHAN: But I noticed some students were struggling 161 00:06:47,573 --> 00:06:48,699 with the assignment. 162 00:06:48,783 --> 00:06:52,078 -NATHAN: Thomas, what about you? -(SMACKS LIPS) Uh... 163 00:06:52,161 --> 00:06:55,289 -Well, I went to an Acai Place. -Acai? 164 00:06:55,373 --> 00:06:56,541 It's kinda like a smoothie bowl. 165 00:06:56,624 --> 00:06:57,792 NATHAN: Okay. 166 00:06:57,875 --> 00:06:59,460 NATHAN: And I thought this would be a good opportunity 167 00:06:59,544 --> 00:07:01,796 to show them I knew what I was doing. 168 00:07:01,879 --> 00:07:04,549 I noticed you didn't get as-- as much, um... 169 00:07:04,632 --> 00:07:06,425 personal information about your primary 170 00:07:06,509 --> 00:07:08,344 -as some of the others. -THOMAS: Mm-hmm. 171 00:07:08,427 --> 00:07:10,721 Um, is there a reason or... 172 00:07:10,805 --> 00:07:14,225 The environment kind of begs for you to go through the line 173 00:07:14,308 --> 00:07:15,685 -and then leave. -NATHAN: Right. 174 00:07:15,768 --> 00:07:18,855 Uh, the physical space is asking you not to be there. (CHUCKLES) 175 00:07:18,938 --> 00:07:21,149 Yeah. You know, you-- When you got your order, 176 00:07:21,232 --> 00:07:24,235 maybe spill it on the counter and he would come to your aid, 177 00:07:24,318 --> 00:07:27,196 and that would break down some of those social barriers 178 00:07:27,280 --> 00:07:28,865 that you're afraid to cross. 179 00:07:28,948 --> 00:07:31,325 -Just disrupt the situation? -Yeah. 180 00:07:31,409 --> 00:07:32,910 And then maybe, you know, it might lead 181 00:07:32,994 --> 00:07:35,371 to a more personal conversation perhaps. 182 00:07:35,454 --> 00:07:37,790 Okay. Gotcha. 183 00:07:37,874 --> 00:07:41,127 NATHAN: When I relived the day from Thomas's perspective, 184 00:07:41,210 --> 00:07:42,545 it proved my instincts 185 00:07:42,628 --> 00:07:43,921 -to be right. -(ALL APPLAUD) 186 00:07:44,005 --> 00:07:46,174 Thomas, what about you? 187 00:07:46,257 --> 00:07:49,719 So, my primary was at an acai bowl place. 188 00:07:49,802 --> 00:07:50,720 Acai bowl? 189 00:07:50,803 --> 00:07:52,722 Yeah. Acai bowl, kind of like a smoothie. 190 00:07:52,805 --> 00:07:54,348 NATHAN: The circle felt just as good 191 00:07:54,432 --> 00:07:58,019 from a student's perspective as it was from the teacher's. 192 00:07:58,102 --> 00:08:01,480 And I felt really special when Nathan pulled me aside 193 00:08:01,564 --> 00:08:03,858 to give me one-on-one guidance after class. 194 00:08:03,941 --> 00:08:06,444 And that'll help break down some of the social barriers 195 00:08:06,527 --> 00:08:08,029 that you're afraid to cross. 196 00:08:08,112 --> 00:08:10,364 -Thank you. -All right? Good luck. Good luck. 197 00:08:10,448 --> 00:08:11,782 -Thank you. -Okay. Great. 198 00:08:11,866 --> 00:08:16,412 NATHAN: After reliving day two, I basically found no issues. 199 00:08:16,495 --> 00:08:19,874 I felt Nathan gave every student a lot of attention 200 00:08:19,957 --> 00:08:22,668 and made us feel comfortable in the process. 201 00:08:23,836 --> 00:08:26,672 Maybe I had nothing to worry about after all. 202 00:08:37,183 --> 00:08:38,267 ♪ (MELLOW MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 203 00:08:38,351 --> 00:08:40,311 NATHAN: It was nice to be back in LA... 204 00:08:41,354 --> 00:08:42,939 back in my real home. 205 00:08:44,774 --> 00:08:47,902 Once in a while, I would try to check in with Angela. 206 00:08:47,985 --> 00:08:49,153 (PHONE TRILLING) 207 00:08:58,496 --> 00:09:00,248 ALL: One, two, three, four. One, two, three, four. 208 00:09:00,331 --> 00:09:01,916 One, two, three, four. One, two, three, four. 209 00:09:01,999 --> 00:09:03,125 One, two, three. One, two, three. 210 00:09:03,209 --> 00:09:04,585 One, two, three. One, two, three. 211 00:09:04,669 --> 00:09:07,463 One, two. One, two. One, two. One, two. One. One. One. One 212 00:09:07,546 --> 00:09:08,589 (CHEERS, CHUCKLES) 213 00:09:08,673 --> 00:09:10,341 -Wow! All right. -ACTOR: Oh, my God. 214 00:09:10,424 --> 00:09:13,219 NATHAN: Now that the actors had studied their primaries 215 00:09:13,302 --> 00:09:15,263 for two days... 216 00:09:15,346 --> 00:09:17,640 it was time to physically embody them. 217 00:09:17,723 --> 00:09:22,770 ♪ (WHIMSICAL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 218 00:09:24,063 --> 00:09:26,357 Um, you use tape and string, is that... 219 00:09:27,692 --> 00:09:29,235 -I don't know. -You don't know? Okay. 220 00:09:29,318 --> 00:09:31,153 -I don't know what's-- -Um... What's that tool here? 221 00:09:31,237 --> 00:09:33,322 But over here, I got a couple things going. 222 00:09:33,406 --> 00:09:34,740 Um... This is a... 223 00:09:38,869 --> 00:09:39,912 tie iron. 224 00:09:39,996 --> 00:09:41,289 -Tie iron? -Tie iron, yeah. 225 00:09:41,372 --> 00:09:43,082 -T-I-E? -I believe so. 226 00:09:43,791 --> 00:09:45,418 Bananas under the cans. 227 00:09:46,252 --> 00:09:47,336 (CLICKS TONGUE) 228 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:48,963 NATHAN: But I now knew that to take on the mind 229 00:09:49,046 --> 00:09:52,800 of a stranger, it wasn't enough to just talk to them. 230 00:09:52,883 --> 00:09:55,678 The level of immersion had to be deeper. 231 00:09:55,761 --> 00:09:58,764 I am in the process of arranging for all of you 232 00:09:58,848 --> 00:10:02,852 to work in the actual jobs of your primary. 233 00:10:02,935 --> 00:10:05,896 Or at least as-- as close as we can get. 234 00:10:07,273 --> 00:10:08,983 -Is that cool, pretty... -ACTORS: Yeah. 235 00:10:09,066 --> 00:10:10,818 ...or is that dumb? 236 00:10:10,901 --> 00:10:14,155 -I don't wanna work. -(ALL LAUGH) 237 00:10:15,740 --> 00:10:17,533 NATHAN: I was noticing the more extreme 238 00:10:17,616 --> 00:10:18,909 my method became, 239 00:10:18,993 --> 00:10:21,662 the more these actors seemed to respect me. 240 00:10:21,746 --> 00:10:24,248 If I'm not gonna go all the way and get out of my comfort zone, 241 00:10:24,332 --> 00:10:27,209 how am I gonna know where I can go? 242 00:10:27,293 --> 00:10:30,504 So, yeah, thank you for just the space, you know. 243 00:10:30,588 --> 00:10:33,883 NATHAN: But when I caught up with Thomas, something felt off. 244 00:10:33,966 --> 00:10:35,885 Yeah, so-- so how did it go? Yeah, what happened? 245 00:10:35,968 --> 00:10:37,553 -THOMAS: It was-- -Did you get personal? Did you? 246 00:10:37,636 --> 00:10:40,306 Yeah. The deeper conversation was hard to accomplish. 247 00:10:40,389 --> 00:10:42,600 Did you spill your bowl or anything? Or... 248 00:10:42,683 --> 00:10:44,602 -Did not spill the bowl. -NATHAN: Okay, yeah. 249 00:10:44,685 --> 00:10:48,272 But I instead went with, uh... 250 00:10:48,356 --> 00:10:50,649 telling him that I lost my lucky guitar pick 251 00:10:50,733 --> 00:10:51,901 that I got from my dad. 252 00:10:51,984 --> 00:10:53,069 -Okay. -And then-- 253 00:10:53,152 --> 00:10:54,695 -Is that true? -No, that was a lie. 254 00:10:54,779 --> 00:10:55,863 -Oh, okay, okay, got it. -Yeah. 255 00:10:55,946 --> 00:10:57,656 I mean, I don't really like lying to people, 256 00:10:57,740 --> 00:10:59,867 -in general. -Yeah, neither do I. 257 00:10:59,950 --> 00:11:01,494 -THOMAS: Yeah. -Yeah. 258 00:11:01,577 --> 00:11:04,205 -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) -(CHUCKLES) 259 00:11:04,288 --> 00:11:07,750 Yeah, I don't know. It's, uh, it's weird, but... 260 00:11:07,833 --> 00:11:11,003 this is all so fascinating, so what are you gonna do? 261 00:11:11,712 --> 00:11:12,546 Right. 262 00:11:12,630 --> 00:11:14,298 NATHAN: Thomas's ambiguous emotions 263 00:11:14,382 --> 00:11:17,426 were hard for me to read, but then I got the sense 264 00:11:17,510 --> 00:11:19,470 he had been uncomfortable with this method 265 00:11:19,553 --> 00:11:21,263 since the very first day. 266 00:11:21,347 --> 00:11:22,807 So, yeah. That's what makes me feel 267 00:11:22,890 --> 00:11:26,769 -kinda weird about it sometimes. -About doing these-- this... 268 00:11:26,852 --> 00:11:29,772 ...specific kind of stalking thing. (CHUCKLES) 269 00:11:29,855 --> 00:11:31,107 The Fielder Method. 270 00:11:31,190 --> 00:11:34,151 NATHAN: Which was interesting because I had not felt that 271 00:11:34,235 --> 00:11:35,444 when I was him. 272 00:11:40,241 --> 00:11:42,743 So rather than recreating today's lesson, 273 00:11:42,827 --> 00:11:46,497 I decided to experience that first day again 274 00:11:46,580 --> 00:11:48,916 to see if I had missed something. 275 00:11:48,999 --> 00:11:50,418 -Hey, I'm Nathan. -Thomas. 276 00:11:50,501 --> 00:11:52,837 -Thomas? Good to meet you. -Yeah. Good to meet you. 277 00:11:52,920 --> 00:11:54,463 -Uh, yeah, have a seat. -Sure, yeah. 278 00:11:54,547 --> 00:11:56,632 -And, uh, just hang out. -Okay, great. 279 00:11:56,715 --> 00:11:58,551 NATHAN: This time, I was focused 280 00:11:58,634 --> 00:12:00,886 on really getting into his mindset. 281 00:12:00,970 --> 00:12:03,973 So I just kept saying to myself in my head, 282 00:12:04,056 --> 00:12:06,600 "Your name is Thomas and you're an actor." 283 00:12:07,268 --> 00:12:08,602 "How do you feel?" 284 00:12:08,686 --> 00:12:11,605 I have a show that requires a specific type 285 00:12:11,689 --> 00:12:14,650 -of performance. -NATHAN: Almost immediately, 286 00:12:14,733 --> 00:12:18,446 I felt a rush of excitement come over me when I remembered 287 00:12:18,529 --> 00:12:20,406 there were cameras filming me. 288 00:12:21,782 --> 00:12:23,367 HBO cameras. 289 00:12:24,368 --> 00:12:25,953 I love being on camera. 290 00:12:26,036 --> 00:12:30,249 But I wanted to play it cool, like I didn't care that much. 291 00:12:30,332 --> 00:12:33,377 With this show, if your per-- if your performance 292 00:12:33,461 --> 00:12:34,587 isn't accurate... 293 00:12:35,880 --> 00:12:37,840 you could ruin someone's life. 294 00:12:37,923 --> 00:12:40,342 NATHAN: Wait, what is this show? 295 00:12:41,385 --> 00:12:43,929 Is this a show about an acting class? 296 00:12:44,013 --> 00:12:48,309 Am I supposed to be acting? Something doesn't make sense. 297 00:12:48,392 --> 00:12:51,061 If you're training actors for a show, 298 00:12:51,145 --> 00:12:53,272 why would you be filming the training? 299 00:12:54,356 --> 00:12:55,483 I wanted to ask, 300 00:12:55,566 --> 00:12:58,068 but I was worried it would seem rude. 301 00:12:58,152 --> 00:13:03,157 I didn't wanna stand out. I wanted to impress Nathan. 302 00:13:03,240 --> 00:13:05,367 "Fielder Method" on three. 303 00:13:05,451 --> 00:13:08,662 -One, two, three. -ALL: Fielder Method! 304 00:13:08,746 --> 00:13:10,831 ACTING NATHAN: All right, thank you guys. All right. 305 00:13:10,915 --> 00:13:12,917 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 306 00:13:13,000 --> 00:13:14,376 Hi, thank you for coming to the first day 307 00:13:14,460 --> 00:13:16,420 of the Fielder Method, we're... so excited to have you. 308 00:13:16,504 --> 00:13:17,671 If you wanna participate in the show, 309 00:13:17,755 --> 00:13:19,673 you just need to sign this appearance release. 310 00:13:19,757 --> 00:13:21,592 -Okay. -Thank you. 311 00:13:21,675 --> 00:13:24,470 NATHAN: Oh, wow. There are so many pages! 312 00:13:24,553 --> 00:13:26,764 I don't know any of these legal terms. 313 00:13:28,891 --> 00:13:31,268 This would take me hours to read. 314 00:13:31,352 --> 00:13:33,020 Thank you so much. 315 00:13:33,103 --> 00:13:34,772 NATHAN: But everyone else is signing it, 316 00:13:34,855 --> 00:13:36,941 so it must be all right. 317 00:13:37,024 --> 00:13:39,860 Uh, it's all standard. Signature is on the fourth page. 318 00:13:39,944 --> 00:13:42,029 -NATHAN: Right. Sorry, yeah. Okay. -ASSISTANT: Yeah, no problem 319 00:13:42,112 --> 00:13:44,365 -Great, we'll see you tomorrow. -Yeah. 320 00:13:44,448 --> 00:13:47,409 NATHAN: Reliving the day again as Thomas made me realize 321 00:13:47,493 --> 00:13:49,828 there was a whole other layer to his experience 322 00:13:49,912 --> 00:13:51,830 -I hadn't considered. -ASSISTANT: Thank you so much. 323 00:13:51,914 --> 00:13:53,541 -Thanks again for today. -Yeah. Thank you. 324 00:13:53,624 --> 00:13:55,209 I'll see you. Yeah. 325 00:13:55,292 --> 00:13:59,088 NATHAN: And I wondered if was going far enough. 326 00:13:59,171 --> 00:14:04,885 ♪ (MILD TEMPO MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 327 00:14:04,969 --> 00:14:06,887 NATHAN: I had just sent these actors off 328 00:14:06,971 --> 00:14:09,974 to work for an entire week as someone else. 329 00:14:12,268 --> 00:14:14,061 But how much is enough? 330 00:14:16,021 --> 00:14:19,483 How do you ever know you truly understand someone? 331 00:14:22,987 --> 00:14:27,616 So, I started visiting Thomas working at the acai bowl place. 332 00:14:27,700 --> 00:14:29,493 -NATHAN: Hey! -THOMAS: Hey! How you doing? 333 00:14:29,577 --> 00:14:30,578 Good. How are you? 334 00:14:30,661 --> 00:14:31,996 NATHAN: Going through the exact experience 335 00:14:32,079 --> 00:14:33,789 he had with his primary. 336 00:14:33,872 --> 00:14:36,250 -How many siblings do you have? -THOMAS: Pardon me? 337 00:14:36,333 --> 00:14:38,377 -How many siblings? -THOMAS: Brother, two sisters. 338 00:14:38,460 --> 00:14:39,628 -Brother, two sisters? -THOMAS: Yeah. 339 00:14:39,712 --> 00:14:41,380 Do you want Nutella, peanut butter, almond butter? 340 00:14:41,463 --> 00:14:43,757 NATHAN: And returned to class the next morning 341 00:14:43,841 --> 00:14:45,801 to live the second day again. 342 00:14:45,884 --> 00:14:48,304 I'm a dog walker for this dog walking app 343 00:14:48,387 --> 00:14:50,431 and my primary was this director 344 00:14:50,514 --> 00:14:52,808 and I-- I actually got into his house. 345 00:14:52,891 --> 00:14:55,185 NATHAN: But this time, it felt different. 346 00:14:55,269 --> 00:14:57,980 I think you're the first person in the history of this project 347 00:14:58,063 --> 00:15:01,442 to actually get inside their primary's home. Um... 348 00:15:01,525 --> 00:15:02,943 It's amazing. Wow! (CHUCKLES) 349 00:15:03,027 --> 00:15:05,988 I think that deserves a round of applause. Yeah. 350 00:15:06,071 --> 00:15:08,449 (ALL APPLAUD) 351 00:15:08,532 --> 00:15:10,784 NATHAN: And I began to question the tactics 352 00:15:10,868 --> 00:15:13,120 this teacher was encouraging. 353 00:15:13,203 --> 00:15:15,497 You spill your bowl on the counter and... 354 00:15:16,332 --> 00:15:17,916 see how he responds to that. 355 00:15:19,918 --> 00:15:22,171 NATHAN: But every night when I went home, 356 00:15:22,254 --> 00:15:23,839 it was still my house. 357 00:15:24,923 --> 00:15:28,886 My marble coffee table. My TV. 358 00:15:29,887 --> 00:15:32,139 My black and white toilet. 359 00:15:32,222 --> 00:15:35,559 The illusion was shattered. 360 00:15:35,643 --> 00:15:38,729 So, I suggested to Thomas that he move into an apartment 361 00:15:38,812 --> 00:15:40,481 that reflects the living situation 362 00:15:40,564 --> 00:15:44,151 of his primary, to immerse himself fully. 363 00:15:44,234 --> 00:15:46,612 Did you-- did you find out his living situation? 364 00:15:46,695 --> 00:15:48,072 Yeah. I found out that he lives 365 00:15:48,155 --> 00:15:49,698 with the couple of his bandmates, 366 00:15:49,782 --> 00:15:53,285 actually pretty close to here. Uh, Sherman Oaks area. 367 00:15:53,369 --> 00:15:54,828 -Okay. -THOMAS: Mm-hmm. 368 00:15:54,912 --> 00:15:56,664 Cool. Uh, how soon can you move? 369 00:15:56,747 --> 00:15:59,124 (CHUCKLES) As soon as I have to. 370 00:15:59,208 --> 00:16:01,377 NATHAN: So, I rented him a similar place 371 00:16:01,460 --> 00:16:04,213 and hired two actors to play his roommates. 372 00:16:04,296 --> 00:16:05,881 All right. So, this is, uh... 373 00:16:05,964 --> 00:16:07,174 -Tex and Matt. -TEX: S'up man? 374 00:16:07,257 --> 00:16:08,550 -They'll be your new roommates. -Hey. 375 00:16:08,634 --> 00:16:10,844 NATHAN: I told him I would collect his mail for him 376 00:16:10,928 --> 00:16:13,222 and water his plants while he was away. 377 00:16:13,305 --> 00:16:14,765 -(KEYS JANGLE) -Plant in my bathroom. 378 00:16:14,848 --> 00:16:16,475 -Just a little bit. -Okay. 379 00:16:16,558 --> 00:16:18,268 And be careful 'cause it'll overflow 380 00:16:18,352 --> 00:16:21,230 -the little water catch dish. -All right, sure. Great. 381 00:16:21,313 --> 00:16:23,065 -All right. Have fun. -Okay. See you. 382 00:16:23,148 --> 00:16:24,358 NATHAN: See you. 383 00:16:24,441 --> 00:16:26,902 NATHAN: But I really wanted to do more than that. 384 00:16:26,985 --> 00:16:28,987 So, while Thomas was going deeper 385 00:16:29,071 --> 00:16:30,447 into his character... 386 00:16:31,949 --> 00:16:33,867 I would go deeper into mine. 387 00:16:33,951 --> 00:16:39,790 ♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 388 00:16:53,554 --> 00:16:55,222 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 389 00:17:01,437 --> 00:17:03,856 ♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 390 00:17:03,939 --> 00:17:05,899 NATHAN: I began living in his home... 391 00:17:07,943 --> 00:17:09,695 eating what he eats... 392 00:17:13,115 --> 00:17:15,033 playing what he plays... 393 00:17:17,453 --> 00:17:19,872 using the weapons he uses... 394 00:17:21,999 --> 00:17:23,834 reading what he reads... 395 00:17:29,089 --> 00:17:31,425 sleeping where he sleeps. 396 00:17:33,218 --> 00:17:36,054 I was now Thomas 24/7. 397 00:17:37,598 --> 00:17:39,725 I continued following the lesson plan 398 00:17:39,808 --> 00:17:43,562 until I was working at an Ubatuba also. 399 00:17:43,645 --> 00:17:46,607 A different one from Thomas, so he wouldn't know. 400 00:17:47,691 --> 00:17:50,068 He-- he lives with a-- a couple of his bandmates 401 00:17:50,152 --> 00:17:51,320 in Sherman Oaks... 402 00:17:51,403 --> 00:17:53,280 -ACTING NATHAN: All right. -...in, like, an apartment. 403 00:17:53,363 --> 00:17:54,615 Okay. Cool. 404 00:17:55,741 --> 00:17:56,825 How soon can you move? 405 00:17:56,909 --> 00:17:58,494 NATHAN: It was beginning to dawn on me 406 00:17:58,577 --> 00:18:01,079 how much I was asking of these students... 407 00:18:01,163 --> 00:18:03,081 This is Tex. And this is Matt. 408 00:18:03,165 --> 00:18:04,708 -Hey. -They'll be playing your roommates. 409 00:18:04,792 --> 00:18:06,168 -Nice to meet you. -How are you? 410 00:18:06,251 --> 00:18:08,170 NATHAN: ...and the sacrifices they're willing to make 411 00:18:08,253 --> 00:18:10,255 in pursuit of their dreams. 412 00:18:10,339 --> 00:18:12,508 Maybe I could get your keys. 413 00:18:13,050 --> 00:18:14,510 Uh... 414 00:18:14,593 --> 00:18:16,470 Why-- Why do you need my keys? 415 00:18:16,553 --> 00:18:20,015 -I can look after your plants. -Oh, sure. Yeah. 416 00:18:20,098 --> 00:18:22,267 ACTING NATHAN: Or get your mail while you're here. 417 00:18:22,351 --> 00:18:24,728 NATHAN: But no matter how deep I went, 418 00:18:24,812 --> 00:18:28,357 there were still parts of Thomas that were a mystery to me. 419 00:18:29,399 --> 00:18:32,820 But maybe that's as close as you can get. 420 00:18:32,903 --> 00:18:36,156 And that last step in understanding someone 421 00:18:36,240 --> 00:18:38,158 is always just a guess. 422 00:18:40,911 --> 00:18:42,287 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 423 00:18:54,007 --> 00:18:57,469 -All right, Ashley. -(ALL APPLAUD) 424 00:18:57,553 --> 00:18:59,137 NATHAN: When they finished their week of work, 425 00:18:59,221 --> 00:19:02,599 I had all the actors return for a final showcase. 426 00:19:02,683 --> 00:19:06,395 ♪ (MILD TEMPO MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 427 00:19:10,899 --> 00:19:13,277 That looks like two inches. 428 00:19:14,444 --> 00:19:17,489 (ALL APPLAUD) 429 00:19:21,785 --> 00:19:25,163 -(ALL APPLAUD) -All right. Sam. 430 00:19:32,087 --> 00:19:34,423 (ALL APPLAUD) 431 00:19:37,175 --> 00:19:39,761 NATHAN: It's hard to know what exactly is hidden 432 00:19:39,845 --> 00:19:41,805 beneath the smile of an actor. 433 00:19:43,307 --> 00:19:45,934 -Would you like your bowl, sir? -Thomas. 434 00:19:46,018 --> 00:19:47,227 (ALL APPLAUD) 435 00:19:47,311 --> 00:19:50,355 NATHAN: But once in a while, it's nice to just pretend 436 00:19:50,439 --> 00:19:53,358 -that everything's okay. -(ALL CHEER) 437 00:19:55,527 --> 00:19:58,447 -"Fielder Method" on three. -ALL: One, two, three. 438 00:19:58,530 --> 00:20:02,451 -Fielder Method! -(ALL CHEER, APPLAUD) 439 00:20:11,752 --> 00:20:14,671 NATHAN: I was in LA longer than I had planned to be, 440 00:20:14,755 --> 00:20:18,467 and I was sort of nervous to return home again... 441 00:20:18,550 --> 00:20:23,555 to get back into family life. I wasn't sure how it would feel. 442 00:20:33,190 --> 00:20:35,108 -Hey, Dad. -NATHAN: Oh, hey! 443 00:20:35,192 --> 00:20:38,612 -Hi. -Uh, is, uh, Angela here? 444 00:20:39,237 --> 00:20:40,322 Uh... 445 00:20:41,782 --> 00:20:46,078 -Hug? Can I get a hug? -Oh, yeah, yeah. Course. Hey. 446 00:20:46,161 --> 00:20:48,205 -Good to see you. -Yeah, how are you? 447 00:20:48,288 --> 00:20:50,249 Good... um... 448 00:20:50,332 --> 00:20:51,750 Just gonna put my stuff upstairs. 449 00:20:51,833 --> 00:20:53,126 -Oh, okay. -So, yeah. 450 00:20:53,210 --> 00:20:55,003 ♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 451 00:20:55,087 --> 00:20:56,004 Oh... yeah. 452 00:21:02,469 --> 00:21:03,929 ADAM: Maybe I can. Maybe I can show up. 453 00:21:04,012 --> 00:21:07,391 -ANGELA: It could be fun! It could be fun! -(ADAM MUMBLES) 454 00:21:07,474 --> 00:21:10,435 NATHAN: Everyone was being so warm and welcoming, 455 00:21:10,519 --> 00:21:12,479 making me feel at home. 456 00:21:12,562 --> 00:21:14,731 But for some reason, that felt wrong. 457 00:21:14,815 --> 00:21:17,275 ANGELA: I was telling him that he's more mainstream 458 00:21:17,359 --> 00:21:18,568 and I'm more underground. 459 00:21:18,652 --> 00:21:21,613 Like, I like to find eclectic underground artists. 460 00:21:21,697 --> 00:21:26,326 NATHAN: Adam was 15 now. I had been gone for nine years. 461 00:21:27,494 --> 00:21:29,746 Was this really how he would see me? 462 00:21:31,331 --> 00:21:34,126 Maybe I needed to make some adjustments. 463 00:21:34,209 --> 00:21:35,961 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 464 00:21:36,044 --> 00:21:37,212 -Hey. -ADAM: Hey. 465 00:21:37,295 --> 00:21:38,255 (GUITAR STRUMMING) 466 00:21:38,338 --> 00:21:39,631 -ADAM: What's up, Dad? -Mind if I come in? 467 00:21:39,715 --> 00:21:41,842 Yeah, no problem. What's up? 468 00:21:42,634 --> 00:21:44,886 -How's it going? -Ah, just, uh-- 469 00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:45,846 (PLAYS GUITAR) 470 00:21:45,929 --> 00:21:47,097 Trying to write some songs, sorta. 471 00:21:47,180 --> 00:21:48,724 -NATHAN: Oh, yeah. Cool. -Yeah. 472 00:21:48,807 --> 00:21:52,269 Do you mind if I talk to you for a sec, as you? 473 00:21:52,352 --> 00:21:53,854 What's your name again? 474 00:21:54,938 --> 00:21:55,981 Adam. 475 00:21:56,064 --> 00:21:58,358 No, no, like, could I talk to you as-- as the actor? 476 00:21:58,442 --> 00:21:59,901 -Oh. -What's your real name? 477 00:21:59,985 --> 00:22:03,196 -Oh, Joshua. Joshua, yeah. Joshua. -Josh. Josh. All right, Josh. 478 00:22:03,280 --> 00:22:04,865 Sorry, yeah. I know we talked 479 00:22:04,948 --> 00:22:06,158 about never breaking character but-- 480 00:22:06,241 --> 00:22:08,285 Yeah. Oh, okay, okay. So, just-- 481 00:22:08,368 --> 00:22:09,494 -Okay, so, we're in, uh-- 482 00:22:09,578 --> 00:22:12,456 NATHAN: Yeah, just you for a moment. 483 00:22:12,539 --> 00:22:15,917 I guess-- Okay, so your dad comes home after being gone 484 00:22:16,001 --> 00:22:19,337 for nine years. How do you think you'd really feel? 485 00:22:21,673 --> 00:22:24,718 Maybe resentment to him. 486 00:22:24,801 --> 00:22:25,886 -Maybe a little bit. -Uh-huh. 487 00:22:25,969 --> 00:22:28,305 Just as me personally. Especially if... 488 00:22:29,473 --> 00:22:31,808 he comes home and it's almost like, 489 00:22:31,892 --> 00:22:34,644 "Hey, what's up? You doing good?" 490 00:22:34,728 --> 00:22:36,438 -NATHAN: Mm-hmm. -That-- That would be-- 491 00:22:36,521 --> 00:22:38,273 I wouldn't like that at all. 492 00:22:38,356 --> 00:22:40,942 I think I-- I think 'cause then, it's still your dad, but it's just like-- 493 00:22:41,026 --> 00:22:44,196 It's like this guy like, "You didn't take care of me." 494 00:22:44,279 --> 00:22:45,739 -Yeah, yeah, yeah. -So, you know, 495 00:22:45,822 --> 00:22:47,532 it's-- it's like, it's like that sort of thing. 496 00:22:48,533 --> 00:22:50,452 Do you mind if we try me 497 00:22:50,535 --> 00:22:52,537 coming home again, but using that? 498 00:22:52,621 --> 00:22:55,207 -Uh... like that-- that feeling? -Yeah. 499 00:22:55,290 --> 00:22:58,752 -Yeah, totally, I don't-- Yeah. Hundred percent. -Okay. Okay, cool. 500 00:23:12,390 --> 00:23:13,391 NATHAN: Hey! 501 00:23:18,063 --> 00:23:19,606 Look who decided to show up. 502 00:23:26,696 --> 00:23:27,864 (DOOR BANGS SHUT) 503 00:23:31,827 --> 00:23:32,911 Good. 504 00:23:32,994 --> 00:23:36,748 ♪ (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 505 00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:41,294 NATHAN: Do you know anyone or any friends of yours 506 00:23:41,378 --> 00:23:43,547 who have been through anything similar to this? 507 00:23:43,630 --> 00:23:46,508 Like, dad not around situation or... 508 00:23:46,591 --> 00:23:49,845 Um... Yeah, I-- I know a couple people. 509 00:23:49,928 --> 00:23:51,972 Do you think you'd be able to just... 510 00:23:52,055 --> 00:23:53,974 Maybe spend time with one of them 511 00:23:54,057 --> 00:23:56,518 or the friend and take it in, or... 512 00:23:56,601 --> 00:23:58,854 Hmm, yeah. I, um... 513 00:23:58,937 --> 00:24:00,313 I think that's actually a great idea. 514 00:24:00,397 --> 00:24:01,648 I think I can definitely do that. 515 00:24:03,900 --> 00:24:04,901 NATHAN: Hey. 516 00:24:06,111 --> 00:24:07,195 How you doing? 517 00:24:09,865 --> 00:24:11,158 You wanna see a card trick or something, 518 00:24:11,241 --> 00:24:15,495 -like a magic trick? -No, Dad. I'm not five. 519 00:24:15,579 --> 00:24:17,664 Yeah, he's been like in and out of jail a lot. 520 00:24:17,747 --> 00:24:19,457 -Juvenile. Juvie. -Juvenile? 521 00:24:19,541 --> 00:24:21,835 Um, I think he actually has a kid on the way. 522 00:24:21,918 --> 00:24:23,378 -He has a kid? -Just with like someone-- yeah. 523 00:24:23,461 --> 00:24:25,463 -Just with someone. -So what age was he having sex? 524 00:24:25,547 --> 00:24:27,841 -Like 13, probably, like 12. -He was having sex at 13? 525 00:24:27,924 --> 00:24:29,926 I'm-- I'm sure of it. Yeah, most likely. 526 00:24:30,010 --> 00:24:33,096 -If not 13, at least 14. -NATHAN: Hey! 527 00:24:34,890 --> 00:24:36,016 Are you leaving? 528 00:24:36,099 --> 00:24:38,018 ADAM: Yeah, I'm going to hang out with some friends. 529 00:24:39,311 --> 00:24:42,272 Okay. Where are you going? Where-- where-- what friends? 530 00:24:42,355 --> 00:24:44,983 ADAM: My friends. We're probably gonna go drinking. 531 00:24:45,066 --> 00:24:46,359 You're gonna go drinking? 532 00:24:46,443 --> 00:24:48,236 What type of drinks will you have, do you think? 533 00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:50,697 Tequila, vodka. Just some stuff like that. 534 00:24:50,780 --> 00:24:51,948 -Tequila, okay. -JOSHUA: Tequila. 535 00:24:52,032 --> 00:24:54,451 You can't go drinking. You're-- You're only 15. 536 00:24:54,534 --> 00:24:56,286 What do you mean I can't go drinking? W... wh-- 537 00:24:56,369 --> 00:24:58,413 NATHAN: I need to make sure you come home safe. 538 00:24:58,496 --> 00:25:02,209 ADAM: Wow, you're the one to talk about coming home? 539 00:25:02,292 --> 00:25:04,085 NATHAN: Okay, come on. Hey! 540 00:25:05,003 --> 00:25:07,005 You can't... You can't just go... 541 00:25:08,298 --> 00:25:09,299 Adam? 542 00:25:14,054 --> 00:25:15,222 What's going on? 543 00:25:15,305 --> 00:25:17,140 NATHAN: Oh. Uh... 544 00:25:18,683 --> 00:25:20,268 I just think he's upset 545 00:25:20,352 --> 00:25:23,271 that I haven't been there most of his life. 546 00:25:24,064 --> 00:25:24,898 ANGELA: Mm-hmm. 547 00:25:24,981 --> 00:25:26,858 -NATHAN: Um... -Okay. 548 00:25:28,276 --> 00:25:29,277 But... 549 00:25:30,111 --> 00:25:31,279 I'm gonna fix it. 550 00:25:33,531 --> 00:25:34,532 Good. 551 00:25:35,325 --> 00:25:37,577 ♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 552 00:25:39,955 --> 00:25:43,583 (STRUMMING GUITAR) 553 00:25:46,086 --> 00:25:47,796 Hey, buddy. Um... 554 00:25:47,879 --> 00:25:50,340 you don't have to come out or answer me. 555 00:25:50,423 --> 00:25:51,841 Uh, I just got you... 556 00:25:52,717 --> 00:25:54,010 uh, a little something. 557 00:25:54,094 --> 00:25:57,472 It's a guitar pedal. I know you like them. 558 00:25:57,555 --> 00:26:00,058 I'm not sure what they do. So... (CHUCKLES) 559 00:26:00,141 --> 00:26:03,103 Uh, I guess they make the guitar sound cool. 560 00:26:03,186 --> 00:26:05,855 Maybe one day you could show me how it works. 561 00:26:06,481 --> 00:26:07,399 Um... 562 00:26:12,320 --> 00:26:14,322 Like, I think drugs is, like, the next level. 563 00:26:14,406 --> 00:26:16,616 -Yeah. -JOSHUA: Drugs, you name it. 564 00:26:16,700 --> 00:26:17,742 He's done it probably. 565 00:26:21,621 --> 00:26:22,580 (SCREAMS) 566 00:26:22,664 --> 00:26:24,291 JOSHUA: You know, like, cocaine or like, 567 00:26:24,374 --> 00:26:25,959 you know, Molly and that stuff. 568 00:26:26,042 --> 00:26:28,503 And that's all 'cause his dad situation? 569 00:26:28,586 --> 00:26:31,756 -Um... I mean, yeah. I think so. -NATHAN: Okay. 570 00:26:32,757 --> 00:26:33,842 I think it is. 571 00:26:33,925 --> 00:26:37,345 You're not a dad! Okay? 572 00:26:37,429 --> 00:26:39,055 You weren't then and you're not now! 573 00:26:39,139 --> 00:26:40,974 ANGELA: Your anger is not gonna go away... 574 00:26:41,057 --> 00:26:42,684 -(ADAM SCOFFS) -...if you numb it with drugs 575 00:26:42,767 --> 00:26:45,770 and alcohol. Okay, this was the problem I had. 576 00:26:45,854 --> 00:26:47,480 I-- I hated my dad. 577 00:26:47,564 --> 00:26:50,775 I hated my dad and I went to drugs and alcohol. 578 00:26:50,859 --> 00:26:52,986 I wish I would've been spared. 579 00:26:53,069 --> 00:26:54,654 I wish my parents would have sat me down 580 00:26:54,738 --> 00:26:56,573 and talked to me like we're talking to you now. 581 00:26:56,656 --> 00:26:58,408 They didn't. They didn't know how! 582 00:26:58,491 --> 00:27:00,577 I'm not gonna let that happen to you. 583 00:27:00,660 --> 00:27:02,120 NATHAN: What-- what-- what drugs are you doing? 584 00:27:02,203 --> 00:27:03,371 ADAM: What do you mean what drugs am I-- 585 00:27:03,455 --> 00:27:05,165 -Why would I fucking tell you? -I-- I heard you s-- 586 00:27:05,248 --> 00:27:06,708 -What? Are you gonna go to the fucking cops? -NATHAN: So you are doing drugs? 587 00:27:06,791 --> 00:27:08,126 What are you gonna do? Go to the cops and tell them? 588 00:27:08,209 --> 00:27:09,753 No! And that's why I'm talking to you about it now. 589 00:27:09,836 --> 00:27:11,087 -Adam-- -I'm not a snitch. 590 00:27:11,171 --> 00:27:13,131 You're a fucking disaster, my guy. 591 00:27:14,090 --> 00:27:16,593 All right! Now... 592 00:27:16,676 --> 00:27:21,222 can we end this fucking conversation now? 593 00:27:21,306 --> 00:27:24,976 ♪ (OMINOUS MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 594 00:27:30,774 --> 00:27:31,983 (INHALES SHARPLY) 595 00:27:38,865 --> 00:27:41,159 -NATHAN: Hello, Angela? -ANGELA: Hello. 596 00:27:41,242 --> 00:27:42,535 NATHAN: Just a thought, 597 00:27:42,619 --> 00:27:46,331 how would you feel about going back to age six? 598 00:27:46,414 --> 00:27:48,666 Oh, I guess, um, could you help me understand 599 00:27:48,750 --> 00:27:51,836 what the purpose would be of going back? 600 00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:54,672 -Oh, just because... -What were you thinking? 601 00:27:54,756 --> 00:27:56,591 ...I feel like I didn't get the experience 602 00:27:56,674 --> 00:27:59,636 -of seeing him grow. Like... -ANGELA: Oh, um... 603 00:27:59,719 --> 00:28:01,179 I'm willing to do that. 604 00:28:01,262 --> 00:28:06,017 Whatever you think is needed for the show, that's fine. 605 00:28:06,101 --> 00:28:08,103 NATHAN: Okay, cool. I'll-- I'll talk to you in a bit. 606 00:28:08,186 --> 00:28:09,354 ANGELA: Okay. See you. 607 00:28:11,564 --> 00:28:16,736 ♪ (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 608 00:28:25,286 --> 00:28:27,956 (BIRDS SQUAWKING) 609 00:28:32,961 --> 00:28:34,712 (ADAM COUGHING) 610 00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:39,676 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 611 00:28:42,387 --> 00:28:43,430 NATHAN: Adam? 612 00:28:44,848 --> 00:28:46,224 Adam? 613 00:28:46,307 --> 00:28:48,143 -(CLATTERING) -♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 614 00:28:48,226 --> 00:28:49,811 NATHAN: Adam, Adam, you okay? 615 00:28:49,894 --> 00:28:51,938 -(ADAM RETCHING) -NATHAN: Are you okay? Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. 616 00:28:52,021 --> 00:28:53,440 Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. 617 00:28:53,523 --> 00:28:56,776 ♪ (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS) ♪ 618 00:28:56,860 --> 00:29:00,071 -Angela! Angela! -ANGELA: What? 619 00:29:00,864 --> 00:29:01,906 NATHAN: Adam, stay with me, 620 00:29:01,990 --> 00:29:04,117 are you okay? Are you okay, Adam? 621 00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:05,452 -Adam. Adam-- -(COUGHS) 622 00:29:05,535 --> 00:29:06,870 What's going on? 623 00:29:06,953 --> 00:29:09,164 -(ADAM BREATHES HEAVILY) -NATHAN: Okay, it's all right. 624 00:29:09,247 --> 00:29:10,290 (ADAM RETCHES) 625 00:29:10,373 --> 00:29:11,708 NATHAN: (SOBS) I don't know what's happening. 626 00:29:11,791 --> 00:29:14,627 I don't know what's happening to him. I don't know. 627 00:29:14,711 --> 00:29:16,880 I don't know what's happening. 628 00:29:16,963 --> 00:29:19,674 I don't know what's happening with him. 629 00:29:19,757 --> 00:29:25,180 I don't know. I don't know. (SOBS) 630 00:29:25,263 --> 00:29:27,307 He's got pinpointed pupils, hyperventilation. 631 00:29:27,390 --> 00:29:29,893 High end-tidal. Looks like an opioid overdose. 632 00:29:29,976 --> 00:29:31,394 Okay, with hypertension we need to consider 633 00:29:31,478 --> 00:29:33,354 -benzo involvement. -PARAMEDIC 1: Mm-hmm. I agree. 634 00:29:33,438 --> 00:29:34,814 We'll start by assisting his breathing. 635 00:29:34,898 --> 00:29:36,733 -PARAMEDIC 2: Okay. -PARAMEDIC 1: Hit him up with some Narcan. 636 00:29:36,816 --> 00:29:39,819 PARAMEDIC 2: Blood pressure 96 over 50. Respiration, six. 637 00:29:39,903 --> 00:29:41,196 O2 stat, 86. 638 00:29:41,279 --> 00:29:42,530 How are you feeling? You good? 639 00:29:42,614 --> 00:29:44,073 -You okay? -(BREATHES HEAVILY) 640 00:29:44,157 --> 00:29:46,493 What are you doing? Don't. No. Stay, stay. You're safe, Adam. 641 00:29:46,576 --> 00:29:47,994 -You're safe. -PARAMEDIC 2: Hey, hey, hey! 642 00:29:48,077 --> 00:29:49,412 -Wh-- what's happening? -NATHAN: Hey! 643 00:29:58,838 --> 00:30:01,049 Have you seen a 15-year-old boy around here? 644 00:30:01,466 --> 00:30:04,219 PASSERBY: 645 00:30:04,302 --> 00:30:06,554 An older man? No, no. That wouldn't be him. 646 00:30:06,638 --> 00:30:07,847 Okay, thank you. 647 00:30:09,641 --> 00:30:10,642 Adam? 648 00:30:11,559 --> 00:30:13,895 Oh, sorry. Sorry. 649 00:30:16,314 --> 00:30:20,109 -(BIRDS CHIRPING) -NATHAN: It's easy to assume 650 00:30:20,193 --> 00:30:22,320 that others think the worst of you... 651 00:30:25,281 --> 00:30:27,367 but when you assume what others think, 652 00:30:27,450 --> 00:30:31,162 maybe all you're doing is turning them into a character 653 00:30:31,246 --> 00:30:33,164 that only exists in your mind. 654 00:30:39,963 --> 00:30:43,132 The nice thing is, sometimes all it takes 655 00:30:43,216 --> 00:30:45,009 is a change in perspective 656 00:30:45,093 --> 00:30:47,595 to make the world feel brand-new. 657 00:30:52,350 --> 00:30:54,936 All right, Adam. Let's go home. 658 00:31:07,407 --> 00:31:10,285 (ADAM GRUNTS) 659 00:31:18,209 --> 00:31:19,419 Is that it? 660 00:31:19,502 --> 00:31:23,756 ♪ (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪