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This is affecting my work, Shay!
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Oh, my God. You
actually care, don't you?
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- No! Get off of me!
- Ah!
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I'm not going to apologize
to Roberta Matheson
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and if you have an issue
with that, let me know.
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Well, the Theo you knew when we
were residents would have told him...
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everything happens for a reason.
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You don't believe that anymore?
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You own stock in the company
that's marketing the ICD.
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- Are you sure that that's not a conflict?
- Not according to the ethics board.
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That's what you come up with?
My morals take too much space?
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Do you think I'm naive
because I wanna be happy?
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No! I think you burn things
down when they don't match
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- your impossible standards.
- And you think you don't deserve things.
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_
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I was waiting 'til I was a doctor again.
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There's a part of me too that
all it knows is how to survive.
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Do you think you can help me?
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Okay sir, take slow, deep breaths.
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Lean forward.
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Uh...
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I'm so sorry about this.
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Uh, I'll get another one.
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'Kay.
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Sports help.
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Learn about hockey.
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He shouldn't have to
front like that, should he?
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I'd rather be alone with my thoughts
than force something I'm not.
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You never say anything, Bashir.
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Four sessions, not a word.
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He doesn't have to. And you know that.
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Thank you. See you next week.
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Hey man, fair disclosure.
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You told me before you
even joined this group
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that you hate the sound of your
own voice when you complain,
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and I told you I don't care if you come
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for a whole year without
ever speaking up, so...
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This was my father's.
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I've used it every day since
I was a doctor in this country.
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What a beautiful keepsake.
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Hmm... I think I shouldn't
have been using it.
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Then you would never have enjoyed it.
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But I ruined it.
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This instrument lived a life.
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It breaking doesn't diminish that.
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Then why can I only see the pieces?
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Have you and I spoken about
what we call rumination?
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- It means...
- It's a constant pattern of negative thinking.
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I was going to say,
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if we keep doing what we're doing,
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we keep getting what we're getting.
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How much do you know about the
therapeutic use of psilocybin?
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You want me to take magic mushrooms?
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I want us to find a way to
punch your brain in the face.
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- Synced and corrected by chamallow -
- www.addic7ed.com -
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So Mister Coswell can leave.
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Weren't you on twelve to twelve
last night? It's almost two.
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Mrs. Oliveri's fever didn't break
so I booked her for a chest X-ray.
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Look at you, remembering
everyone's names.
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Makes me miss the days of Eye
Pain needs his cath drained.
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Is that Shay?
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First names now?
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Show off.
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Hey, what are you doing here?
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You hurt yourself?
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Technically no. I got here at like four.
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They had me in triage for three
hours. Another one for two.
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I told them my pain
was a four but now...
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it feels like a nine.
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- What kind of pain, Shay?
- Right side, really sharp.
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I was worried about appendicitis.
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She was sent to CT. I'll
go check if it's back.
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Yeah.
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Why didn't you tell them to call me?
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They said the wait was for
some big car crash overnight.
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I figured you'd be busy.
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Plus I... didn't know if you
wanted me explaining us to people.
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I mean you could've texted.
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Yeah, well, I was staying
up to work on this paper
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and thought you'd just say
I was being dramatic or,
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I don't know, just making it worse.
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That'd be pretty hypocritical of
me. I mean, I was up all night too.
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Yeah, saving people,
not writing an essay
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about how unlikely it is that
we'll ever stop climate chan...
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- Ow!
- Okay...
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You know, it was smart of you to
come in. You have acute appendicitis.
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- I'm gonna have to get you into surgery.
- Surgery? No, I...
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Look. It's fine, okay?
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We can do it laparoscopically,
there's no big incision.
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You'll be there?
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Yeah. Look, I know you're scared, okay?
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But, I've done hundreds
of these, so I got you.
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But we... we'd been talking about
turning it into a two-year lease.
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You didn't even tell me you
were putting it on the market.
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Yeah, well, maybe I will get a lawyer.
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- A lawyer?
- Yeah.
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- The owner of my place is selling. I have to move.
- When?
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I know it's not the end of the world
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but I've been trying to get
on top of health, and work,
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and you know, live my life,
and now I have to find a place.
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You know you can...
you can stay with me.
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- No, I-I-I wasn't saying...
- No, no, I'm offering.
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But it would only be like
a temporary offer. Right?
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Just until Amira comes back, not-not...
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- Well, permanently? No, we can talk about that...
- 'Cause I wasn't saying...
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No, it's just... When Amira comes back,
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- it might be...
- ... be impossible.
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Let me go!
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Need some help over here! Hey! Hey!
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- Here!
- Hey, hey, up, up!
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- Eyes open!
- Ouch! Stop jerking me around, man!
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- Eyes open, come on.
- What happened?
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This idiot got into it with us.
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But Van seemed like she was okay,
but she passed out in the squad car.
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Did she fall or hit her head?
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Cheese jostled her around a lil' bit.
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- Trying to get...
- Shut up and wait here!
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He needs attention. You
want to take him to triage?
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No, I'm gonna stay with her. Arnold!
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Do you know how many weeks she is?
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Just that she was supposed
to go on maternity leave.
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She stayed on a week longer.
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Let's get lines and a
monitor! I need vitals ASAP.
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Calm down, man, you got me.
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Pulse is thready. She's cyanotic.
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Slow resp rate. Unless you wanna
check for a fetal heart rate?
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I really hope she's okay.
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I hope she's okay!
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Bash?
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Bash!
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Uh-uh... there's a heartbeat.
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Let's get the fetal monitor up.
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- What's wrong with her?
- Pupils are constricted.
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Nail beds are blue. Do
you think that she's...
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Arnold, uh, naloxone,
two milligram IV push.
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Naloxone, you... you think she's OD'ing?
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Heart rate's 53 bpm.
Pressure's 100 over 70.
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Okay, pushing naloxone...
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Could she have come into contact
with anything at the scene?
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Uh, fentanyl. Cheese deals it.
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Pressure's still dropping, guys.
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BP too. Let's push epi,
maybe more naloxone.
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We need a crash cart in case. We
should really get him looked at.
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Yeah, security can take him.
Arnold, if you want to come back?
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Yeah. Come with me please.
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Mags? Claire's asking for you.
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A patient that you
know in curtain 6 is...
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No, that's gonna have to wait...
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Fetal heart rate's
slowing, she's still OD'ing.
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Are you ready to pee for us, Darcy?
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Okay, do you think you
will be in a little bit?
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I already went this morning.
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You did? Where?
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Yesterday it was in his bed,
last week it was the bathtub.
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Is it that you can't hold it, buddy?
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Or that you can't feel
when you have to go?
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Okay, does it hurt when you pee?
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Right. All right I'm gonna
go talk to your mom, okay?
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UTIs can cause confusion
and loss of control,
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but in kids, they're
usually septic by that point,
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and Darcy definitely is not.
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I keep thinking what if it's us?
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Let's not play the blame game until
we know where we are at medically.
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Thank you.
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- You're so nice.
- Right.
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Well, uh, if you can think of any
other changes, you let me know.
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Oh! Actually, um, he
has lost a bit of weight
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since his dad took
us off meat and dairy.
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Oh... Sorry.
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I had to go across the street to
find the place that sells this.
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Doctor Hunter wants to test for a UTI.
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Can we maybe also
talk to a psychiatrist?
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I feel Darcy's having a stress response
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to how much you've been working.
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Uh, we, uh... we can look into that.
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Great! I'll get some fluids in him.
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Hey buddy! How you doing?
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How's the pregnant cop?
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We stabilized her twice but every time
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the naloxone wears off her O-two drops.
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Did her partner come back?
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Arnold took him to security.
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He called this in.
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Has OB come down?
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Coming. Bash is still with Van,
and I have another patient waiting.
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- Mags?
- What?
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You are vibrating.
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- Take a beat if you need it, okay?
- Okay.
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Angry dad alert.
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You know the kid with
blue-green algae poisoning?
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Okay, well, I can take
a lot, but his father
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has been on me every five...
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Okay, I'll handle it if you can get
the kid in three to pee into a cup.
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Doctor Hunter?
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Doctor Hunter, it's been three hours.
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You told me he was gonna get admitted.
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Yes, I'm sorry, Mister
Hamilton, unfortunately,
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internal medicine is still
waiting on a bed for Winston.
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But he's still throwing up.
He can't keep anything down...
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Okay, I will go check on him
after I see this next patient.
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No! Oh no! I'm not here for you,
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- I wanna talk to him.
- Mags, what are you doing here?
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I asked Nancy to grab her.
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Patrick is part of
Doctor Fisher's ICD study.
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Did Fisher send you down
here to get rid of me?
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'Cause you can't bounce a bouncer, Mags.
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Doctor Hunter? My son
really needs to see someone.
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I'm an emerg doc now, Patrick.
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Yeah, well, I want a
different emerg doctor now.
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Doctor Hunter, Darcy's dad
says he can't have any sugar.
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All right, all right! Everyone
just uh, hold on, for one minute.
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Doctor Hunter.
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Everything under control?
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Everything's fine, thanks.
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- Mags?
- Yes, got it.
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No, she doesn't!
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I don't care what we have to give
that kid, just get him peeing.
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Mister Hamilton, I am
so sorry for the wait,
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I will page internal again.
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And we'll tell you the bed
shortage is province-wide
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and we would love for
you to write to your MP.
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Uh, this is Doctor Bergeron.
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Mister Hamilton, I'll be
right in to see Winston.
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Maybe we can get a
jump on some treatment
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while we're waiting on a bed upstairs?
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Thank you.
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Call me next time things get hairy?
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Man.
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I thought the working conditions
in the bar business were rough.
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Patrick was saying he's
been dizzy and uncoordinated?
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Since his ICD gave
him a shock last night.
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A shock? Did you go into arrhythmia?
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Yeah, right in the middle
of burgers with my grandkid.
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I felt a tiny flutter and bam!
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But my real problems started after that.
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Mm. Did you come see Fisher's team?
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Well, I called, they looked at my data
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and told me to take my
blood thinners but...
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I was so out of it today
I almost crashed my bike.
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Oh. Not Maurice.
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No, uh, he's okay.
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It scared me, Mags.
244
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His pressure's steady at 200 over 120.
245
00:10:20,304 --> 00:10:22,324
- What's his baseline?
- High, but not that high.
246
00:10:22,366 --> 00:10:23,412
Do you still smoke?
247
00:10:23,471 --> 00:10:25,968
If I say yes, will you tell
me this is all my fault?
248
00:10:26,722 --> 00:10:29,233
Look, I managed to get it
down to five a week, okay?
249
00:10:29,260 --> 00:10:31,655
- I know it's not perfect but...
- Patrick, that's a huge improvement.
250
00:10:31,682 --> 00:10:33,148
That's what I said to Fisher!
251
00:10:33,274 --> 00:10:35,884
And all she said was, "Yeah,
well, zero's the goal."
252
00:10:37,258 --> 00:10:38,258
Look.
253
00:10:38,485 --> 00:10:40,630
I don't like this thing inside me.
254
00:10:41,193 --> 00:10:43,142
If I want it out, they
have to do it, right?
255
00:10:43,200 --> 00:10:44,857
Before we make any drastic decisions,
256
00:10:44,873 --> 00:10:47,194
let me try getting to the
bottom of what happened, okay?
257
00:10:48,326 --> 00:10:50,271
You abandoned me, Mags.
258
00:10:51,630 --> 00:10:52,793
I'm sorry.
259
00:10:53,691 --> 00:10:55,683
- Oh...
- Are you okay?
260
00:10:56,072 --> 00:10:57,945
Should half my face feel numb?
261
00:10:57,982 --> 00:10:59,395
- No, it shouldn't.
- But...
262
00:10:59,422 --> 00:11:00,962
- Lie down for me?
- What...
263
00:11:00,977 --> 00:11:03,910
- Here. I'll help you. Here. Okay.
- What's happening?
264
00:11:03,920 --> 00:11:05,109
- Take my hands.
- Why ha...
265
00:11:05,152 --> 00:11:06,416
Okay, squeeze my fingers.
266
00:11:06,533 --> 00:11:08,675
Okay, that's good. It's a good sign.
267
00:11:09,110 --> 00:11:11,166
It's okay, just try to
breathe, okay, Patrick?
268
00:11:11,192 --> 00:11:12,892
- Ah...
- Just relax.
269
00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:14,464
That blue-green algae kid?
270
00:11:14,491 --> 00:11:17,412
Needs transfusions,
monitoring. Probably surgery.
271
00:11:17,455 --> 00:11:19,660
I'll start reqs, unless I
should check in with Devi?
272
00:11:19,724 --> 00:11:22,124
No, no need, I have been
restored to my former glory.
273
00:11:22,167 --> 00:11:24,865
Oh, good to know the system
still supports the man failing up.
274
00:11:25,120 --> 00:11:28,487
Hey, uh, any thoughts on a kid
that will pee everywhere but a cup?
275
00:11:28,662 --> 00:11:31,272
Eh... Dad thinks it's
behavioural, Mom isn't sure.
276
00:11:31,833 --> 00:11:33,464
Don't think you need me for that.
277
00:11:33,576 --> 00:11:35,015
Actually, I do.
278
00:11:35,482 --> 00:11:39,012
I think the mom might
have been flirting with me.
279
00:11:39,456 --> 00:11:41,785
Actual flirting? Or she smiled at you,
280
00:11:41,792 --> 00:11:43,014
therefore she must want you?
281
00:11:43,033 --> 00:11:45,098
Well, she implied that
her marriage isn't great.
282
00:11:45,120 --> 00:11:48,289
I-I just... I need to be
careful with what I wade into.
283
00:11:48,517 --> 00:11:50,230
Because Devi doesn't love you?
284
00:11:50,343 --> 00:11:53,477
I did refuse to apologize when
a patient complained about me.
285
00:11:53,623 --> 00:11:55,993
And you know, she doesn't
have years of stable Theo
286
00:11:56,026 --> 00:11:57,819
to counter the recent record.
287
00:11:58,131 --> 00:11:59,804
But it's really just eating
at me that I don't know
288
00:11:59,824 --> 00:12:00,879
what's wrong with this kid.
289
00:12:00,979 --> 00:12:02,869
Maybe you should take
another run at the mom.
290
00:12:03,057 --> 00:12:05,513
Oh, you mean, flirt
with her? No, no way.
291
00:12:05,526 --> 00:12:07,326
I thought you were a rebel now.
292
00:12:07,664 --> 00:12:09,928
Look, if dialing up that
lethal Mister Rogers charm
293
00:12:09,948 --> 00:12:12,206
is what it takes to help
the kid, it's worth it.
294
00:12:12,365 --> 00:12:14,131
I'll even distract the dad for you.
295
00:12:17,650 --> 00:12:18,919
See you later.
296
00:12:21,527 --> 00:12:23,864
Okay, this is looking more
inflamed than expected.
297
00:12:24,077 --> 00:12:26,201
Can you clear the suction?
298
00:12:28,710 --> 00:12:30,668
Uh, BP's up and O-two is down.
299
00:12:30,708 --> 00:12:32,834
- What do you mean? What's going on?
- I don't know!
300
00:12:32,881 --> 00:12:34,574
Okay, just get her on 100% oxygen.
301
00:12:34,587 --> 00:12:35,836
Can you get Doctor Singh's attention?
302
00:12:35,856 --> 00:12:37,808
I'm gonna stop retracting,
I don't wanna risk a tear.
303
00:12:38,572 --> 00:12:41,174
- Pulse ox 90% now.
- Talk to me.
304
00:12:41,234 --> 00:12:43,464
Her airway's compromised. I
think I might've missed something?
305
00:12:43,497 --> 00:12:45,184
- Anaphylactic shock?
- She doesn't have any allergies.
306
00:12:45,213 --> 00:12:46,445
I don't know what to do.
307
00:12:46,624 --> 00:12:47,879
Doctor Curtis, we've been through
308
00:12:47,915 --> 00:12:49,604
way more stressful
situations with patients.
309
00:12:49,624 --> 00:12:51,457
It's my sister. Okay?
I know I'm not supposed
310
00:12:51,485 --> 00:12:53,268
to operate on family
but she's not breathing.
311
00:12:53,302 --> 00:12:55,413
Does she have asthma or
underlying conditions?
312
00:12:55,433 --> 00:12:57,245
There's a constriction. Likely muscular.
313
00:12:57,272 --> 00:12:58,593
I know you're thinking bronchospasm
314
00:12:58,600 --> 00:13:00,187
but wouldn't that
manifest during induction?
315
00:13:00,240 --> 00:13:02,656
It's rare when the patient's
still under but it can happen.
316
00:13:02,968 --> 00:13:04,681
At least her wheezing is audible.
317
00:13:05,916 --> 00:13:08,233
Right, 'cause if she's
wheezing then she's breathing.
318
00:13:09,554 --> 00:13:11,215
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
319
00:13:11,248 --> 00:13:13,204
If she wasn't your
sister, what would you do?
320
00:13:13,273 --> 00:13:16,014
I would put her on five
milligrams of salbutamol
321
00:13:16,047 --> 00:13:18,810
and point five of ipratropium,
aerosol, through an ET tube.
322
00:13:19,653 --> 00:13:21,558
I'd run follow-up labs if I were you.
323
00:13:21,658 --> 00:13:24,878
Bronchospasm doesn't just
happen out of the blue.
324
00:13:27,488 --> 00:13:29,359
I overdosed more than once?
325
00:13:29,446 --> 00:13:30,707
What about my baby?
326
00:13:30,753 --> 00:13:33,456
Um, the heart rate went
down but it came back strong.
327
00:13:33,469 --> 00:13:35,494
And the fentanyl? Did it hurt him?
328
00:13:35,613 --> 00:13:37,871
We won't know for sure
until after he's born,
329
00:13:37,904 --> 00:13:40,320
but the fact that you're this
far along, it's a very good sign.
330
00:13:40,864 --> 00:13:43,175
- Jack, wha... what happened?!
- Cheese.
331
00:13:43,374 --> 00:13:44,675
He must've planted something on you
332
00:13:44,702 --> 00:13:46,083
when he came at you and he attacked you.
333
00:13:46,123 --> 00:13:48,871
How? I mean, he only got one
kick in before you were on him.
334
00:13:48,875 --> 00:13:51,209
- Did you find a patch or a contact source?
- No.
335
00:13:51,310 --> 00:13:53,532
I was so careful, I
didn't touch anything
336
00:13:53,559 --> 00:13:55,106
in his place until later in the car,
337
00:13:55,114 --> 00:13:58,371
I had a headache and took a
pill from the hangover bottle
338
00:13:58,391 --> 00:13:59,812
you keep in your coat, I...
339
00:14:03,311 --> 00:14:04,865
It was your fentanyl?
340
00:14:06,692 --> 00:14:08,443
They just looked like
regular pain pills!
341
00:14:08,461 --> 00:14:10,003
I swiped a few from Cheese, okay?
342
00:14:10,029 --> 00:14:11,988
What do you want? I-I didn't...
343
00:14:12,824 --> 00:14:14,312
You weren't supposed to go in there!
344
00:14:14,318 --> 00:14:15,792
I didn't think you were gonna do that.
345
00:14:15,852 --> 00:14:17,968
I'm sorry, okay? I know it was stupid.
346
00:14:18,036 --> 00:14:20,433
I know it was stupid, okay?
347
00:14:21,117 --> 00:14:23,307
What does that mean?
348
00:14:23,659 --> 00:14:26,158
- It means you're having a contraction.
- Wha...
349
00:14:32,009 --> 00:14:34,515
My student said you
sent her to the fileroom
350
00:14:34,539 --> 00:14:38,432
- for six weeks of data on some...
- On Patrick Camby. He's in emerg.
351
00:14:40,114 --> 00:14:42,848
He's a big guy. Talks
about his grandkid.
352
00:14:42,917 --> 00:14:44,473
Rides a motorcycle named Maurice.
353
00:14:44,485 --> 00:14:46,141
Patent foramen ovale defect.
354
00:14:46,182 --> 00:14:47,859
Putting him at a
higher risk for a stroke
355
00:14:47,909 --> 00:14:49,643
from clots caused by the device.
356
00:14:49,676 --> 00:14:51,490
Patrick suffered a
series of mini-strokes
357
00:14:51,559 --> 00:14:54,199
which started after his
ICD delivered a shock.
358
00:14:54,249 --> 00:14:55,463
A shock that saved his life.
359
00:14:55,476 --> 00:14:57,560
Well, per his readout, the
shock was only precautionary,
360
00:14:57,594 --> 00:15:00,431
and now given the higher risk for
a stroke, Patrick wants his ICD out.
361
00:15:00,500 --> 00:15:03,367
That would be a mistake. His
arrhythmia needs to be managed.
362
00:15:03,649 --> 00:15:06,504
And you can't say definitively
the device caused clots.
363
00:15:06,573 --> 00:15:08,522
Especially given that
Patrick lives pretty hard.
364
00:15:08,542 --> 00:15:09,856
Not as much anymore.
365
00:15:09,909 --> 00:15:11,855
Which he tried explaining
to your resident.
366
00:15:11,915 --> 00:15:13,229
Send him upstairs.
367
00:15:13,667 --> 00:15:16,084
And by the way, Mags, according
to your remote monitoring,
368
00:15:16,117 --> 00:15:17,518
you've been pushing
it the last few weeks.
369
00:15:17,571 --> 00:15:19,310
If you wanna avoid another incident...
370
00:15:19,416 --> 00:15:21,726
I'd appreciate if we stay
focused on the patients.
371
00:15:21,779 --> 00:15:23,655
You're not part of this
study anymore, Mags.
372
00:15:23,910 --> 00:15:25,657
So the patient we should be
discussing right now is you,
373
00:15:25,676 --> 00:15:27,203
in my capacity as your cardiologist.
374
00:15:27,290 --> 00:15:29,022
Actually you're not anymore.
375
00:15:29,540 --> 00:15:31,387
I don't want a doctor
who blames her patients
376
00:15:31,400 --> 00:15:32,827
instead of listening to them.
377
00:15:40,078 --> 00:15:42,839
Mister Applebaum? I hear you
are having difficulty breathing?
378
00:15:42,912 --> 00:15:44,054
Uh, it's getting worse.
379
00:15:44,107 --> 00:15:47,652
Your resp rate is too fast,
and your O-two sats are low.
380
00:15:47,685 --> 00:15:49,843
That cop messed me up, man.
He hit me in the throat.
381
00:15:49,856 --> 00:15:51,815
You did kick his pregnant partner.
382
00:15:51,861 --> 00:15:53,428
I tripped 'cause he was all over me.
383
00:15:53,468 --> 00:15:56,020
- Well, now... now I'm gonna die?
- Open your mouth, please.
384
00:15:56,256 --> 00:15:57,387
Thank you.
385
00:15:59,476 --> 00:16:01,335
Inside looks okay.
386
00:16:01,375 --> 00:16:02,795
Nothing seems to be broken
387
00:16:02,828 --> 00:16:04,415
but we'll do imaging just to be sure,
388
00:16:04,461 --> 00:16:06,805
and we'll keep you on oxygen
until everything eases up.
389
00:16:06,831 --> 00:16:08,033
What about him though?
390
00:16:08,484 --> 00:16:11,764
He just gets away with using me
as a punching bag for his rage?
391
00:16:11,970 --> 00:16:13,304
How is that right?
392
00:16:13,330 --> 00:16:15,547
Well, you can take action if
you'd like, Mister Applebaum.
393
00:16:15,587 --> 00:16:18,217
- You don't have to do nothing.
- It's Cheese.
394
00:16:18,874 --> 00:16:20,442
Okay.
395
00:16:30,832 --> 00:16:33,149
I must've lost count
on the amount of times
396
00:16:33,176 --> 00:16:35,685
that I've bought
goodwill with a McFlurry.
397
00:16:35,978 --> 00:16:38,234
Now you can see where my
son gets his defiance trait.
398
00:16:38,274 --> 00:16:40,073
Hey, your secret is safe with me.
399
00:16:41,415 --> 00:16:44,057
- How many do you have?
- Uh, two girls.
400
00:16:44,117 --> 00:16:46,971
- Uh, they live in Sudbury with my ex, so...
- Oh.
401
00:16:46,984 --> 00:16:48,936
I probably go a little
overboard on my days.
402
00:16:49,002 --> 00:16:50,131
I get that.
403
00:16:50,556 --> 00:16:52,967
Reid's uh, the one around more,
404
00:16:53,010 --> 00:16:55,628
so it's like he took all
of his purpose in life and
405
00:16:55,648 --> 00:16:57,036
channeled it into Darcy.
406
00:16:57,089 --> 00:16:59,692
- And since I'm there less...
- Any second you get with Darcy,
407
00:16:59,717 --> 00:17:01,265
you want it to be fun, I get it.
408
00:17:01,305 --> 00:17:03,151
Yeah, exactly.
409
00:17:03,602 --> 00:17:06,715
Um, I just know he can
pick up on my frustration.
410
00:17:07,266 --> 00:17:11,058
Uh, I'm... I'm sorry if you
got the wrong idea here, uh...
411
00:17:11,091 --> 00:17:13,800
Oh God, no. Uh, I'm sorry.
412
00:17:13,826 --> 00:17:16,088
- I've humiliated myself.
- No! No, no!
413
00:17:16,115 --> 00:17:17,721
You just misread the
situation, it's fine.
414
00:17:17,768 --> 00:17:19,348
- Oh no! No! No, no,
- No, it's really okay, it...
415
00:17:19,362 --> 00:17:20,822
No! No, no, Darcy, stop!
416
00:17:21,904 --> 00:17:23,564
Honey, what are you doing?!
417
00:17:24,128 --> 00:17:26,007
At least we got the sample.
418
00:17:30,847 --> 00:17:32,813
Aubrey. I don't want him leaving.
419
00:17:32,882 --> 00:17:34,353
They told me sixth floor cardiology.
420
00:17:34,384 --> 00:17:35,694
And I'm telling you no.
421
00:17:37,419 --> 00:17:38,754
Oh man.
422
00:17:38,814 --> 00:17:41,535
I've trained guys on doors
that are six four, two fifty,
423
00:17:41,575 --> 00:17:43,879
and they didn't have
that kind of ferocity.
424
00:17:44,118 --> 00:17:45,897
- How you doing, Patrick?
- Good.
425
00:17:45,970 --> 00:17:48,140
No more tingling, whatever
you gave me seem to help.
426
00:17:48,187 --> 00:17:51,473
Yeah, clot-busting drugs. But I
wanna keep monitoring you, so...
427
00:17:51,526 --> 00:17:53,834
Oh, meaning Fisher
doesn't wanna take it out.
428
00:17:53,903 --> 00:17:56,133
Well, let's say I got pretty ferocious
429
00:17:56,153 --> 00:17:58,125
with them about not listening
to you, which is probably why
430
00:17:58,132 --> 00:17:59,971
she wants you upstairs because
she wants to try to convince you
431
00:17:59,991 --> 00:18:01,352
- that I'm wrong, but...
- Wait,
432
00:18:01,392 --> 00:18:03,911
because you lost your
cool, I gotta pay for it?
433
00:18:03,980 --> 00:18:06,132
I'm sorry, it's just
her position on the ICD
434
00:18:06,165 --> 00:18:08,436
is that if you want it out, you
need to make the case yourself.
435
00:18:08,515 --> 00:18:11,337
I can't, Mags, it
takes multiple degrees!
436
00:18:11,370 --> 00:18:13,023
- Wait!
- ... to argue with a doctor like that.
437
00:18:13,076 --> 00:18:14,285
It's all stats and percentages!
438
00:18:14,311 --> 00:18:16,887
- I've always lived my life balls out! You know?
- I know.
439
00:18:16,940 --> 00:18:19,057
And what if she's right, huh? I mean,
440
00:18:19,095 --> 00:18:20,883
I'm trying to do better.
441
00:18:20,910 --> 00:18:24,535
And try to stick around for
my daughter and her boy but...
442
00:18:24,595 --> 00:18:27,244
It was stupid to think that
a lifetime of bad choices
443
00:18:27,270 --> 00:18:29,787
- wasn't gonna catch up to me.
- No, don't blame yourself.
444
00:18:30,705 --> 00:18:34,182
If you say that the ICD
caused this, I believe you.
445
00:18:34,912 --> 00:18:36,964
And you get to live the life you want.
446
00:18:38,517 --> 00:18:42,108
You're the reason I signed up for
this study in the first place, Mags.
447
00:18:42,925 --> 00:18:45,149
Because you talk to
your patients like...
448
00:18:46,397 --> 00:18:47,911
like you get them.
449
00:18:49,090 --> 00:18:50,460
Because I am one.
450
00:18:51,203 --> 00:18:52,464
Huh?
451
00:18:52,763 --> 00:18:54,742
That's the reason why I left.
452
00:18:55,498 --> 00:18:58,307
My own heart gave out and I almost died.
453
00:19:00,026 --> 00:19:01,421
Jeez.
454
00:19:01,500 --> 00:19:03,133
You're too young for that, kid.
455
00:19:04,747 --> 00:19:07,177
I'm gonna fix this. Sit tight.
456
00:19:08,670 --> 00:19:09,885
'Kay.
457
00:19:16,351 --> 00:19:18,847
Hey, where's Cheese? Uh, he
needed imaging for his throat.
458
00:19:18,874 --> 00:19:20,175
Security's with him.
459
00:19:20,275 --> 00:19:23,196
- Van's baby gonna be okay?
- OB's been consulting.
460
00:19:23,236 --> 00:19:25,161
They don't think there's
enough narcotic in him
461
00:19:25,194 --> 00:19:26,330
to put him in withdrawal,
462
00:19:26,343 --> 00:19:29,231
but he did go without
oxygen several times.
463
00:19:34,721 --> 00:19:37,025
She's the only reason
Cheese is still breathing.
464
00:19:37,105 --> 00:19:39,548
She made me stop. It's what she does.
465
00:19:41,174 --> 00:19:42,861
I don't know why I'm like this.
466
00:19:43,896 --> 00:19:45,403
Do you want to come inside?
467
00:19:47,614 --> 00:19:49,080
Hi Van, how are you feeling?
468
00:19:49,148 --> 00:19:51,516
The OB says there's still a
chance you can stop my labour.
469
00:19:51,663 --> 00:19:54,783
They gave you something to
slow down your contractions.
470
00:19:55,015 --> 00:19:58,149
Is there anyone we can
call to come support you?
471
00:19:58,873 --> 00:20:00,525
Uh, the father's out of the picture.
472
00:20:00,594 --> 00:20:03,361
My friend's my labour coach,
I left a message, but...
473
00:20:05,159 --> 00:20:07,469
I'd say to call the person
who's supposed to have my back,
474
00:20:07,483 --> 00:20:10,198
but he's got an anger problem
and turns to booze, violence
475
00:20:10,224 --> 00:20:12,494
and apparently now street
fentanyl as an outlet.
476
00:20:12,733 --> 00:20:14,625
Yeah, I-I'm sorry, okay, I'm...
477
00:20:15,309 --> 00:20:18,429
You don't understand, I am freaked
about doing the job without you.
478
00:20:19,591 --> 00:20:21,630
I needed to get out of my
head for a night, that's it.
479
00:20:21,647 --> 00:20:24,245
I know you're your own worst
enemy, but do you have to be mine?!
480
00:20:24,517 --> 00:20:26,921
Ah! Ah!
481
00:20:26,952 --> 00:20:28,760
I thought you said the
contractions were gonna stop.
482
00:20:28,827 --> 00:20:30,954
Uh... um, would you mind
if I checked for dilation?
483
00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:33,337
Uh... Okay. Uh, Jack...
484
00:20:33,988 --> 00:20:35,210
Wait.
485
00:20:41,416 --> 00:20:43,309
Van, you're almost fully dilated.
486
00:20:43,602 --> 00:20:45,307
Um, because of the risk involved,
487
00:20:45,327 --> 00:20:46,801
you'll have to deliver
this baby in emerg.
488
00:20:46,847 --> 00:20:49,231
That wasn't the plan, I can't give
birth in the ER while overdosing.
489
00:20:49,241 --> 00:20:50,499
What happens if I pass out again?
490
00:20:50,525 --> 00:20:51,973
- We'll revive you.
- I shouldn't be here.
491
00:20:51,993 --> 00:20:53,587
You don't get to walk away!
492
00:20:56,022 --> 00:20:57,815
- I am sorry...
- Stop being sorry!
493
00:20:58,346 --> 00:21:01,188
Okay? I know you have a good
heart, I just need you to prove it!
494
00:21:01,619 --> 00:21:02,973
How?
495
00:21:05,257 --> 00:21:08,438
I need to know you'll be there
for my baby if I pass out again.
496
00:21:09,374 --> 00:21:11,565
Okay, just promise me you
won't let him out of your sight.
497
00:21:11,571 --> 00:21:14,393
Can you do that for me, Jack? Please.
498
00:21:15,229 --> 00:21:16,643
Yeah.
499
00:21:20,819 --> 00:21:22,479
- You're finally awake.
- Hey.
500
00:21:22,525 --> 00:21:24,539
You're right, it wasn't all that bad.
501
00:21:24,608 --> 00:21:26,183
Why are you taking sumatriptan?
502
00:21:26,210 --> 00:21:28,088
- What?
- Sumatriptan.
503
00:21:28,512 --> 00:21:30,946
- Oh... I get headaches.
- Is it prescribed?
504
00:21:31,015 --> 00:21:34,149
No, it... it's my friend, he gets
migraines, he said it might help.
505
00:21:34,361 --> 00:21:36,704
The triptans may have interfered
with your antidepressants,
506
00:21:36,737 --> 00:21:38,908
causing something called
serotonin syndrome.
507
00:21:40,202 --> 00:21:42,725
You stopped breathing
during the operation, Shay.
508
00:21:43,017 --> 00:21:45,427
- You're upset...
- I was worried.
509
00:21:46,775 --> 00:21:49,152
I mean... we didn't know
if we were gonna lose you.
510
00:21:49,172 --> 00:21:51,024
Okay. Okay. I'm... I'm sorry.
511
00:21:51,309 --> 00:21:53,835
Why are you even taking
medication without a prescription?
512
00:21:54,576 --> 00:21:58,785
Maybe 'cause I can be a little bit
bipolar, and when I am, I get aura.
513
00:21:59,097 --> 00:22:02,423
What is that... a little bit... what
are... are you diagnosed bipolar?
514
00:22:02,445 --> 00:22:03,685
The migraine meds help,
515
00:22:03,705 --> 00:22:05,776
but they don't weigh me down
like my mood stabilizers do.
516
00:22:05,823 --> 00:22:08,014
Shay, you had me thinking
you have depression.
517
00:22:08,061 --> 00:22:10,199
I do. Also...
518
00:22:10,511 --> 00:22:12,157
You know this is starting to make sense.
519
00:22:12,623 --> 00:22:15,504
Not sleeping for days,
the highs, the lows...
520
00:22:16,188 --> 00:22:18,393
Why didn't you tell me?
521
00:22:18,784 --> 00:22:20,530
It's always the edge
of a knife with you.
522
00:22:20,564 --> 00:22:22,024
You have this way of making me feel like
523
00:22:22,030 --> 00:22:23,929
all I do is disappoint you and...
524
00:22:25,002 --> 00:22:27,010
- You're all I have, June! Just...
- Okay.
525
00:22:27,913 --> 00:22:29,221
Just breathe.
526
00:22:30,240 --> 00:22:31,624
I'm still here.
527
00:22:35,495 --> 00:22:38,390
I knew deep down that some
patients were at risk in that study
528
00:22:38,403 --> 00:22:39,916
but I walked away for my own health.
529
00:22:39,956 --> 00:22:43,375
And to make up for that, you want
me to remove an ICD in Trauma OR?
530
00:22:43,389 --> 00:22:45,626
It's the only way! Patrick
is at risk of a larger stroke,
531
00:22:45,646 --> 00:22:47,126
and Fisher won't listen to me.
532
00:22:48,421 --> 00:22:51,368
Okay, look, her heart
rate is all over the place.
533
00:22:51,388 --> 00:22:53,161
I need you to get me a portable echo.
534
00:22:53,214 --> 00:22:54,761
I'd page cardiology myself
535
00:22:54,781 --> 00:22:56,733
but I'm still fighting
OB to keep her down here.
536
00:22:56,806 --> 00:22:58,453
And you need someone you can trust.
537
00:22:58,645 --> 00:23:00,749
- Yeah.
- Hey, um...
538
00:23:01,247 --> 00:23:03,664
maybe you should try
apologizing to Fisher?
539
00:23:03,684 --> 00:23:05,815
She might reconsider.
She's your doctor too.
540
00:23:06,506 --> 00:23:09,680
Actually, she's not
anymore. I fired her.
541
00:23:10,330 --> 00:23:12,872
But... you don't have a cardiologist?
Mags, why would you do that?
542
00:23:12,919 --> 00:23:14,791
Because I needed
someone I can trust too.
543
00:23:16,663 --> 00:23:18,762
Look, we have to talk about this later.
544
00:23:18,802 --> 00:23:20,103
- Okay.
- Okay?
545
00:23:20,236 --> 00:23:22,041
- Can you get me the portable echo?
- Yes.
546
00:23:22,061 --> 00:23:23,581
All right, thank you.
547
00:23:26,244 --> 00:23:28,248
So, let these run through,
548
00:23:28,288 --> 00:23:30,054
and you can call the
home care nurse or me
549
00:23:30,074 --> 00:23:31,700
with questions any time day or night.
550
00:23:31,872 --> 00:23:34,289
- Thank you, Doctor Bergeron.
- You're welcome.
551
00:23:34,435 --> 00:23:37,721
You taught dad how to
change saline at home?
552
00:23:37,940 --> 00:23:39,885
Empower the patient, save the bed?
553
00:23:39,918 --> 00:23:42,779
What did he mean, Mommy
was touching the doctor?
554
00:23:42,799 --> 00:23:45,322
- It isn't what you think.
- Yes, it is, Reid.
555
00:23:45,468 --> 00:23:47,413
He was just being nice
and I got caught up,
556
00:23:47,427 --> 00:23:49,418
so if you have a problem
with anyone, it's with me.
557
00:23:49,491 --> 00:23:51,496
Well, I've got a problem with all of it.
558
00:23:53,661 --> 00:23:55,433
No, that... that is not what happened.
559
00:23:55,466 --> 00:23:58,660
Uh, actually, this one's on
me, with dysfunctional parents,
560
00:23:58,673 --> 00:24:00,420
divide and conquer sometimes works.
561
00:24:01,222 --> 00:24:02,956
Fix this, please.
562
00:24:06,247 --> 00:24:09,998
Uh, the sample we got from
Darcy, it smelled sugary?
563
00:24:10,031 --> 00:24:11,412
Uh, kinda sticky sweet.
564
00:24:11,452 --> 00:24:14,347
- That's strange 'cause Dad says they don't eat sugar.
- Yeah.
565
00:24:14,433 --> 00:24:17,029
But if Mom's giving him
meat when Dad's not looking,
566
00:24:17,071 --> 00:24:18,914
maybe Darcy can't digest the protein.
567
00:24:18,940 --> 00:24:21,735
Maple Syrup Urine Disease. I
mean it usually starts at birth.
568
00:24:21,775 --> 00:24:24,630
Yeah, it may not show up until
triggered by diet or stress though.
569
00:24:24,683 --> 00:24:26,966
I will run white blood cells to confirm.
570
00:24:28,115 --> 00:24:29,881
Doubt it'll save the marriage.
571
00:24:29,935 --> 00:24:31,229
No.
572
00:24:35,757 --> 00:24:37,855
I know you're tired, Van,
but I need you to push harder.
573
00:24:37,908 --> 00:24:39,568
Okay, how are we doing in here?
574
00:24:39,601 --> 00:24:41,705
Started pushing after
the last two contractions.
575
00:24:41,725 --> 00:24:43,028
Her birthing coach still isn't here.
576
00:24:43,047 --> 00:24:44,733
Van, I'm gonna be using this
wand to look at your heart
577
00:24:44,766 --> 00:24:46,977
and try and find out
why it's beating so fast.
578
00:24:48,644 --> 00:24:49,905
She's okay, though?
579
00:24:49,945 --> 00:24:52,422
Van, take the time between
contractions to keep your breaths even.
580
00:24:52,448 --> 00:24:55,435
- Here, gimme your hand.
- Contractility's weak.
581
00:24:55,462 --> 00:24:57,726
She's cyanotic and I can
see fluid in her lungs.
582
00:24:57,998 --> 00:25:00,262
Hey, you're braver than
I was at this point.
583
00:25:00,548 --> 00:25:03,369
Just screaming for an epidural
before we even parked the car.
584
00:25:03,383 --> 00:25:06,078
It's not as bad as the time
Jack crashed our squad car
585
00:25:06,085 --> 00:25:07,525
trying to stop that chase.
586
00:25:07,588 --> 00:25:10,267
Hey... at least, I, uh, I
made the car crash on my side.
587
00:25:10,314 --> 00:25:13,076
You took 20 stitches to keep
that glass from hitting me.
588
00:25:13,394 --> 00:25:16,063
Based on what we're seeing, what
worries me is amniotic fluid embolism.
589
00:25:16,096 --> 00:25:17,378
Because of the fentanyl?
590
00:25:17,656 --> 00:25:20,152
No, it happens when amniotic
fluid gets in your bloodstream
591
00:25:20,192 --> 00:25:22,033
and causes complications during labour.
592
00:25:22,184 --> 00:25:23,936
Although the continuing
effects of the overdose
593
00:25:23,963 --> 00:25:26,180
and the weakened state of your
body could exacerbate things.
594
00:25:26,220 --> 00:25:27,853
Uh, what does that mean for my baby?
595
00:25:27,926 --> 00:25:29,924
It means we need to get
him out as soon as we can,
596
00:25:29,950 --> 00:25:32,281
ideally via C-section.
Is it too late to pivot?
597
00:25:32,327 --> 00:25:34,532
- I had the same thought.
- No! I don't want a C-section.
598
00:25:34,558 --> 00:25:37,068
- Van, you're already exhausted.
- I can push!
599
00:25:37,094 --> 00:25:39,630
- Listen to the doctors, Van.
- Can we page an anesthesiologist?
600
00:25:39,663 --> 00:25:41,662
- I don't think you're...
- There's already one on standby.
601
00:25:41,688 --> 00:25:44,257
- And we have everything we need.
- Time out! Okay?
602
00:25:44,291 --> 00:25:45,937
It's not what Van wants, gentlemen,
603
00:25:45,963 --> 00:25:49,157
so let's at least hear the other
side before choosing for her?
604
00:25:49,263 --> 00:25:50,716
A C-section means more blood loss,
605
00:25:50,729 --> 00:25:53,000
and multiple transfusions
if the embolism progresses.
606
00:25:53,059 --> 00:25:54,665
Plus they take longer to heal from.
607
00:25:54,734 --> 00:25:57,302
Please. You gotta let me try.
608
00:25:58,437 --> 00:26:00,329
Okay. I can see a case for that.
609
00:26:00,383 --> 00:26:01,770
Here comes another contraction.
610
00:26:01,790 --> 00:26:03,741
Three, two, one...
611
00:26:03,810 --> 00:26:06,723
Push, push, push, push, push,
push, push, push, push, push!
612
00:26:07,208 --> 00:26:08,396
Ah!
613
00:26:08,502 --> 00:26:10,434
Jeez! What the hell are you doing?!
614
00:26:10,474 --> 00:26:12,843
- Taking action like you said!
- I meant get a lawyer!!
615
00:26:12,910 --> 00:26:15,048
- I'm gonna kill you!
- No, Jack, you promised!
616
00:26:15,094 --> 00:26:17,670
Ugh!
617
00:26:19,270 --> 00:26:20,591
Jack, stop!
618
00:26:20,618 --> 00:26:23,758
Code white!
619
00:26:24,070 --> 00:26:26,148
Code white! Call it in right now!
620
00:26:26,778 --> 00:26:28,996
Clear the hallways!
621
00:26:29,168 --> 00:26:31,698
- Clear the hallways!
- Clear the halls!
622
00:26:32,335 --> 00:26:33,737
Her sats are falling!
623
00:26:33,770 --> 00:26:35,283
We're losing the baby's heart rate!
624
00:26:35,988 --> 00:26:37,794
Agh!
625
00:26:47,387 --> 00:26:49,697
Van! Focus! Another big push!
626
00:26:49,737 --> 00:26:50,938
Okay? You can do this!
627
00:26:50,965 --> 00:26:53,182
Three, two, one!
628
00:26:59,443 --> 00:27:02,351
Okay, let's have the vac on
standby! We may need to help him out.
629
00:27:02,935 --> 00:27:05,636
- Okay, it's enough!
- Stay out of it!
630
00:27:07,635 --> 00:27:09,062
Ah!
631
00:27:10,908 --> 00:27:13,106
You're dead! You're dead!
632
00:27:13,119 --> 00:27:15,787
- That's enough, Jack!
- No, get off of me!
633
00:27:15,874 --> 00:27:18,059
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa! Code silver!
634
00:27:18,125 --> 00:27:20,482
Code silver!
635
00:27:20,860 --> 00:27:23,556
Bash!
636
00:27:25,553 --> 00:27:27,625
Code silver in the Emergency Department.
637
00:27:27,651 --> 00:27:29,324
Code silver in the Emergency Department.
638
00:27:29,849 --> 00:27:31,349
Cheese?
639
00:27:40,120 --> 00:27:42,370
Okay. Jack, don't move!
640
00:27:42,439 --> 00:27:43,804
He stopped crying.
641
00:27:43,845 --> 00:27:46,354
He looks hypoxic and
lethargic, he needs NICU now!
642
00:27:46,554 --> 00:27:49,176
I need to be with the baby.
That's all she wanted me to do.
643
00:27:49,212 --> 00:27:51,354
Hey, hey, Jack, Jack, don't
move. Don't move! Don't move!
644
00:27:51,380 --> 00:27:54,016
- We need to clamp and cut.
- Come on, baby.
645
00:27:57,899 --> 00:28:00,249
Where are you taking him?
646
00:28:00,290 --> 00:28:01,604
They need to X-ray
his chest to make sure
647
00:28:01,637 --> 00:28:03,177
that he's getting enough air.
648
00:28:04,478 --> 00:28:05,647
Pulmonary edema!
649
00:28:05,793 --> 00:28:08,475
She needs ventilation and transfusions
for the embolism right now!
650
00:28:11,655 --> 00:28:13,348
I can't feel my legs.
651
00:28:14,084 --> 00:28:15,704
I can't...
652
00:28:17,344 --> 00:28:19,780
Hey! Hey! Come here!
653
00:28:20,238 --> 00:28:21,932
Here! Pressure! Here!
654
00:28:21,952 --> 00:28:23,041
Okay.
655
00:28:27,469 --> 00:28:29,932
Okay.
656
00:28:30,622 --> 00:28:33,252
Stay with us, Jack.
657
00:28:44,983 --> 00:28:46,536
I'm just worried about you.
658
00:28:46,885 --> 00:28:48,481
I didn't ask you to come.
659
00:28:48,621 --> 00:28:50,407
I thought we were coming in together.
660
00:28:50,539 --> 00:28:52,179
June, you knew about this?
661
00:28:52,451 --> 00:28:55,140
- You called my mother?
- I texted June a month ago,
662
00:28:55,173 --> 00:28:56,986
since I wanted to know how you were.
663
00:28:57,012 --> 00:28:58,486
You guys have been
talking this whole time?
664
00:28:58,519 --> 00:29:00,684
Not the whole time, just
a couple times until...
665
00:29:00,703 --> 00:29:03,286
- She just wants to help, Shay.
- Like you know how to do that.
666
00:29:03,392 --> 00:29:05,204
I know enough to accept my limits,
667
00:29:05,230 --> 00:29:06,472
and that I need to set boundaries
668
00:29:06,485 --> 00:29:08,556
- which is what June is doing.
- What did she tell you?
669
00:29:08,974 --> 00:29:12,307
That I ignore the problem until I
do something stupid like crash a car?
670
00:29:12,347 --> 00:29:14,139
- Or go missing for three weeks.
- That was...
671
00:29:14,485 --> 00:29:16,728
all you do is blame me!
672
00:29:16,742 --> 00:29:18,050
I know you see it that way,
673
00:29:18,189 --> 00:29:20,944
but when you get to self-medicating,
I have to be the bad guy.
674
00:29:20,977 --> 00:29:22,684
It's what happens every time.
675
00:29:23,016 --> 00:29:24,616
And I'll do it again, Shay.
676
00:29:24,808 --> 00:29:27,218
I'll keep doing it over and over again.
677
00:29:28,194 --> 00:29:29,615
You know, you said that
I'm the only person you have
678
00:29:29,648 --> 00:29:31,960
but that's not really true,
I mean, you have your mom.
679
00:29:32,029 --> 00:29:33,771
The fact that she's
here and she's facing...
680
00:29:33,791 --> 00:29:36,865
- You just think I'm too much.
- No, I think I'm not enough!
681
00:29:37,231 --> 00:29:38,519
You keep looking at me like I'm someone
682
00:29:38,546 --> 00:29:40,537
who can handle everything and I can't!
683
00:29:40,970 --> 00:29:43,014
I don't wanna lose
you so I ask for help.
684
00:29:43,340 --> 00:29:45,403
That's what we want, Shay, it's to help.
685
00:29:45,702 --> 00:29:47,109
Both of you get out!
686
00:29:47,699 --> 00:29:50,620
- Get out! I will live with Kenzie!
- Kenzie...
687
00:29:50,806 --> 00:29:54,643
- Shay.
- My stomach hurts, I wanna rest.
688
00:30:03,188 --> 00:30:04,529
Shay.
689
00:30:18,245 --> 00:30:19,572
So...
690
00:30:20,031 --> 00:30:21,936
it was healing really well, and...
691
00:30:22,334 --> 00:30:24,405
a couple weeks ago,
I opened it up again.
692
00:30:24,478 --> 00:30:26,742
It got infected and that's why...
693
00:30:27,884 --> 00:30:29,258
it's still tender.
694
00:30:30,049 --> 00:30:31,503
Why would you do that?
695
00:30:36,090 --> 00:30:37,570
'Cause I used to cut myself.
696
00:30:41,049 --> 00:30:44,162
And I've managed mostly to
stop, but sometimes it's j...
697
00:30:49,878 --> 00:30:51,731
Look, you just gotta trust me, okay?
698
00:30:56,177 --> 00:30:57,857
Shay, you... you need help.
699
00:31:00,301 --> 00:31:01,721
No.
700
00:31:08,088 --> 00:31:09,754
Twenty-five milligrams.
701
00:31:09,823 --> 00:31:11,281
Thirty minutes to kick in.
702
00:31:11,965 --> 00:31:14,654
Honestly I'm surprised you
agreed to this so quickly.
703
00:31:16,022 --> 00:31:20,384
The dosage, that's enough to
produce a hallucinogenic reaction?
704
00:31:20,483 --> 00:31:21,864
Not for everyone.
705
00:31:21,964 --> 00:31:24,752
The idea is to activate
a dream-like state.
706
00:31:24,818 --> 00:31:27,932
Some patients say memories
pop up like little films.
707
00:31:27,966 --> 00:31:30,980
Others just feel relaxed
and some feel nothing.
708
00:31:31,882 --> 00:31:33,762
So I just... lie down there and...
709
00:31:33,808 --> 00:31:37,832
You'll choose a playlist, take a
few deep breaths, and it will start.
710
00:31:40,202 --> 00:31:42,140
And it's normal to be nervous.
711
00:31:42,306 --> 00:31:45,898
But just so you know, you're
totally in control of this.
712
00:31:47,073 --> 00:31:48,885
Did you hear the code silver today?
713
00:31:48,931 --> 00:31:51,062
- A few hours ago?
- The cop who got shot?
714
00:31:52,318 --> 00:31:54,940
His partner had a baby
right before it happened.
715
00:31:55,025 --> 00:31:57,001
Did he make it?
716
00:31:57,523 --> 00:32:00,120
For a minute we weren't
sure if he would, but...
717
00:32:00,768 --> 00:32:03,125
you know, we got him to OR
and now it's just wait and see
718
00:32:03,158 --> 00:32:04,560
if he'll walk again.
719
00:32:06,602 --> 00:32:11,282
The way he let his damage drag
down everyone around him...
720
00:32:13,025 --> 00:32:14,676
after seeing that fallout,
721
00:32:15,697 --> 00:32:17,141
I decided to...
722
00:32:17,174 --> 00:32:19,589
Let me try punching
your brain in the face?
723
00:32:23,796 --> 00:32:25,971
Uh, should I be
concerned about doing this
724
00:32:26,005 --> 00:32:28,154
so soon after all that adrenaline?
725
00:32:28,220 --> 00:32:29,855
Do you still feel heightened?
726
00:32:30,329 --> 00:32:31,715
Good.
727
00:32:33,988 --> 00:32:36,643
My mother used to say if
I tried drugs even once,
728
00:32:36,677 --> 00:32:38,593
I'd ruin my life and
never become a doctor.
729
00:32:38,643 --> 00:32:40,668
Mine too. Were you born here?
730
00:32:40,684 --> 00:32:42,377
No. We came from Iran when I was a baby.
731
00:32:42,394 --> 00:32:44,667
And now you're a doctor
who prescribes drugs.
732
00:32:44,700 --> 00:32:47,231
To other doctors whose mothers
would be equally appalled.
733
00:32:50,724 --> 00:32:52,260
You'll stay?
734
00:32:52,534 --> 00:32:54,069
I'll stay.
735
00:33:15,548 --> 00:33:17,802
They keep him on a strict
diet, they'll manage.
736
00:33:18,150 --> 00:33:19,678
Did she...
737
00:33:19,736 --> 00:33:22,401
sort of use me to force
things with her husband?
738
00:33:23,181 --> 00:33:25,645
Give it a month and find her
on Tinder. You can use her back.
739
00:33:25,736 --> 00:33:27,321
Uh, not really my thing.
740
00:33:27,355 --> 00:33:29,395
Oh, dude, please, have some fun.
741
00:33:31,063 --> 00:33:33,703
By the way. Doctor Devi wants
me to come work in emerg.
742
00:33:33,753 --> 00:33:36,591
Oh, in peds? I mean, with me doing
more crossover it'd make sense.
743
00:33:36,641 --> 00:33:38,459
No, actually she said the attending job,
744
00:33:38,508 --> 00:33:40,193
the one you have, is up for grabs.
745
00:33:41,969 --> 00:33:43,272
Uh...
746
00:33:43,355 --> 00:33:45,139
not really sure how I feel about that.
747
00:33:45,280 --> 00:33:48,334
Yeah, well, I said yes.
748
00:34:25,727 --> 00:34:27,113
Mags.
749
00:34:27,163 --> 00:34:29,769
I've been trying to catch
everyone who was in Trauma earlier.
750
00:34:29,802 --> 00:34:31,620
Are you okay?
751
00:34:31,695 --> 00:34:33,097
Yeah, I think so.
752
00:34:33,139 --> 00:34:34,425
How are you doing?
753
00:34:34,508 --> 00:34:37,379
Well, I've never been in
this kind of situation before.
754
00:34:37,412 --> 00:34:39,313
Or dealt with the aftermath.
755
00:34:39,537 --> 00:34:41,479
Well, you should take your own advice.
756
00:34:41,562 --> 00:34:44,101
Don't forget to take
a beat if you need one.
757
00:34:44,218 --> 00:34:47,346
Also this cardiology patient that
you don't wanna send upstairs...
758
00:34:47,412 --> 00:34:49,196
Patrick Camby, yeah, I
was gonna tell you before
759
00:34:49,221 --> 00:34:51,960
but I was hoping we could get
a surgeon to remove his ICD.
760
00:34:52,001 --> 00:34:53,735
Not without the support
of his cardiologist.
761
00:34:53,777 --> 00:34:55,281
But you haven't heard the reasons.
762
00:34:55,341 --> 00:34:57,087
I've read your extensive notes.
763
00:34:57,121 --> 00:34:58,741
- And even if you're right...
- I am.
764
00:34:58,774 --> 00:35:00,646
And that's what Patrick wants.
765
00:35:01,323 --> 00:35:03,912
Fisher makes a good case
for why she disagrees.
766
00:35:04,025 --> 00:35:07,657
But, er... in the
birth, you fought for Van
767
00:35:07,718 --> 00:35:09,364
and you always fight for the patient.
768
00:35:09,423 --> 00:35:10,977
Why is this any different?
769
00:35:11,044 --> 00:35:14,563
Directly contravening the head
of cardiology on her own patient?
770
00:35:14,649 --> 00:35:16,442
So it's a question of politics.
771
00:35:16,502 --> 00:35:19,097
Oh, it's okay, sweetie. It's okay.
772
00:35:19,210 --> 00:35:21,155
You're gonna be all right.
773
00:35:29,102 --> 00:35:31,406
Nancy is quitting nursing.
774
00:35:32,089 --> 00:35:35,143
She said she doesn't know what
she wants to do with her life, but
775
00:35:35,236 --> 00:35:36,603
it can't be this.
776
00:35:41,284 --> 00:35:43,070
You don't seem afraid anymore.
777
00:35:44,587 --> 00:35:45,779
No.
778
00:35:47,126 --> 00:35:48,873
What do you think you were afraid of?
779
00:35:49,258 --> 00:35:51,914
Feeling uninhibited? Feeling vulnerable?
780
00:35:53,796 --> 00:35:55,060
Maybe.
781
00:35:55,963 --> 00:35:58,393
Okay, so how does this work now?
782
00:35:58,459 --> 00:35:59,694
You tell me.
783
00:35:59,800 --> 00:36:01,460
Is there anything you wanna talk about?
784
00:36:01,666 --> 00:36:04,461
Anything you remember from
when the drug was more active?
785
00:36:04,793 --> 00:36:06,287
Rumination.
786
00:36:06,559 --> 00:36:08,007
I'm surprised you haven't asked.
787
00:36:08,378 --> 00:36:10,695
- Why do you say that?
- Well, I kept saying it.
788
00:36:10,828 --> 00:36:12,667
- Out loud?
- Wasn't I?
789
00:36:16,418 --> 00:36:18,064
Okay, um...
790
00:36:18,487 --> 00:36:22,347
It means contemplation,
but it sounds like ruin.
791
00:36:22,391 --> 00:36:24,723
Uh, those things are in such contrast.
792
00:36:25,148 --> 00:36:26,781
Beauty and darkness.
793
00:36:27,259 --> 00:36:29,396
Like my father's stethoscope.
794
00:36:29,755 --> 00:36:34,376
Rumen means the stomach
of ruminant animals, cows.
795
00:36:34,794 --> 00:36:37,789
So the word literally
means chewing the cud.
796
00:36:39,409 --> 00:36:42,177
Any idea what you were ruminating on?
797
00:36:42,264 --> 00:36:46,193
Only that I also saw the sky
798
00:36:46,239 --> 00:36:48,676
just full of stars.
799
00:36:48,888 --> 00:36:50,269
A memory?
800
00:36:51,153 --> 00:36:52,713
A beautiful night.
801
00:36:56,350 --> 00:36:59,046
Do you remember where? When?
802
00:37:01,137 --> 00:37:03,786
In the belly of a bombed out building.
803
00:37:04,197 --> 00:37:06,554
We were searching for survivors.
804
00:37:11,606 --> 00:37:13,465
Beauty and darkness again.
805
00:37:16,200 --> 00:37:20,058
What if I'm not capable of
seeing one without the other?
806
00:37:22,049 --> 00:37:23,232
I...
807
00:37:23,776 --> 00:37:26,492
Of separating damage from good?
808
00:37:27,806 --> 00:37:29,267
Say more, Bashir.
809
00:37:31,398 --> 00:37:33,357
Okay, so...
810
00:37:35,396 --> 00:37:37,712
when that gun went off today,
811
00:37:38,423 --> 00:37:40,069
I wasn't scared.
812
00:37:41,517 --> 00:37:45,348
But this morning, Mags and I...
813
00:37:45,394 --> 00:37:47,419
tried talking about the future?
814
00:37:47,466 --> 00:37:49,225
And I couldn't see it.
815
00:37:50,043 --> 00:37:51,622
Even though I want to.
816
00:37:52,724 --> 00:37:55,991
Is it possible that's
what you're afraid of?
817
00:37:56,849 --> 00:37:59,984
Not of feeling vulnerable,
but of feeling happy?
818
00:38:01,263 --> 00:38:02,756
Maybe.
819
00:38:07,561 --> 00:38:08,951
Probably.
820
00:38:10,597 --> 00:38:12,356
What are you thinking about now?
821
00:38:13,066 --> 00:38:14,368
Cows.
822
00:38:15,869 --> 00:38:19,341
Chewing, digesting, purging and then...
823
00:38:20,607 --> 00:38:22,336
... starting all over again.
824
00:38:31,676 --> 00:38:33,721
Patrick? Patrick?
825
00:38:34,079 --> 00:38:35,732
I wanted to give you my number.
826
00:38:35,785 --> 00:38:37,996
So you can text me if ever you feel any
827
00:38:38,009 --> 00:38:39,543
of the warning signs we talked about.
828
00:38:39,584 --> 00:38:40,791
- Thanks, Mags.
- Yeah.
829
00:38:40,817 --> 00:38:42,908
I'm... I'm sorry that my
loophole didn't pan out.
830
00:38:42,935 --> 00:38:45,152
Ah, don't worry about it.
I figured it on my own.
831
00:38:45,378 --> 00:38:46,932
Really? What does that mean?
832
00:38:46,952 --> 00:38:49,527
Oh, I... I had a buddy
bring in a magnet.
833
00:38:50,377 --> 00:38:51,811
According to Doctor Google,
834
00:38:51,851 --> 00:38:54,700
it'll stop my ICD from shocking
me as long as it's close enough.
835
00:38:54,733 --> 00:38:56,485
No, Patrick, I don't
think that's a good idea.
836
00:38:56,518 --> 00:38:57,965
Medically speaking, we
don't know how that works
837
00:38:57,979 --> 00:39:00,209
- or what kind of side effects you could have. You...
- Mags. Mags. Mags.
838
00:39:00,236 --> 00:39:03,139
You were right when you
told me to trust how I feel.
839
00:39:03,667 --> 00:39:05,692
Now whether I can convince
Fisher to take this out
840
00:39:05,752 --> 00:39:06,840
or find somebody else to do it,
841
00:39:06,860 --> 00:39:10,445
I gotta make sense out of all
this the only way I know how.
842
00:39:11,082 --> 00:39:12,703
And that's balls out.
843
00:39:13,207 --> 00:39:16,142
Catch you later, kid.
844
00:39:28,383 --> 00:39:29,837
You're on graveyard again?
845
00:39:31,469 --> 00:39:32,712
How was your sister?
846
00:39:33,403 --> 00:39:35,527
Well, you were right, there
was something underlying
847
00:39:35,554 --> 00:39:37,200
so I forced her to confront it,
848
00:39:37,565 --> 00:39:38,801
and she left.
849
00:39:40,241 --> 00:39:42,047
Ah...
850
00:39:42,386 --> 00:39:44,643
June.
851
00:39:44,776 --> 00:39:48,295
Look, I... I know I put a lot of
pressure on you to be a mentor to me,
852
00:39:48,318 --> 00:39:50,372
and maybe in some ways
that you didn't wanna be.
853
00:39:51,162 --> 00:39:53,287
All I hear from that
is that I failed you.
854
00:39:53,772 --> 00:39:55,618
No, that's not what I mean, I...
855
00:39:57,344 --> 00:39:59,236
I just didn't realize
what I was asking of you.
856
00:40:01,361 --> 00:40:03,670
Did you get any sleep
between graveyards?
857
00:40:04,540 --> 00:40:07,023
- Go home. I'll cover.
- You don't have to do that.
858
00:40:07,096 --> 00:40:09,413
Go, before I change my mind.
859
00:40:29,941 --> 00:40:31,163
Nothing.
860
00:40:33,580 --> 00:40:36,176
Well, uh... it's going to take time,
861
00:40:36,282 --> 00:40:38,971
a lot of hard work and
rehab to know for sure.
862
00:40:40,468 --> 00:40:42,025
I called my CO.
863
00:40:42,669 --> 00:40:44,043
Told him everything.
864
00:40:45,417 --> 00:40:49,015
They got Cheese in a holding
cell and um, I'm up for review.
865
00:40:50,512 --> 00:40:52,215
That must have been very hard.
866
00:40:53,736 --> 00:40:56,006
Have you seen Van? The baby?
867
00:40:58,316 --> 00:41:00,248
She's not coming to see me, is she?
868
00:41:06,755 --> 00:41:08,050
Yeah.
869
00:41:11,622 --> 00:41:13,547
I wish Cheese had better aim.
870
00:41:25,537 --> 00:41:27,728
I'm gonna find a new cardiologist.
871
00:41:28,140 --> 00:41:29,381
Yeah but when?
872
00:41:29,414 --> 00:41:31,439
You almost died and now there's
no one monitoring your heart.
873
00:41:31,494 --> 00:41:35,030
Yeah, I-I-I need you
to have my back, okay?
874
00:41:35,096 --> 00:41:37,064
Not just to offload your fears.
875
00:41:39,704 --> 00:41:41,002
Okay.
876
00:41:43,183 --> 00:41:45,523
- Bash, when that gun went off today, it was...
- Hey. Hey.
877
00:41:47,242 --> 00:41:48,510
We're okay.
878
00:41:52,619 --> 00:41:54,481
Did you go through with the psilocybin?
879
00:41:54,664 --> 00:41:55,959
I did.
880
00:41:57,353 --> 00:41:59,843
Were you high? How did it feel?
881
00:41:59,876 --> 00:42:02,572
Hmm... uh, I don't
think I was high, but...
882
00:42:05,121 --> 00:42:06,708
I felt lighter.
883
00:42:08,409 --> 00:42:09,716
And now?
884
00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:23,531
I think I'm gonna find
some place else to live.
885
00:42:53,143 --> 00:42:58,143
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