1 00:00:02,654 --> 00:00:08,703 ♪ 2 00:00:14,361 --> 00:00:17,364 JOHNNY: Okay, I'm gonna ask you a series of questions, 3 00:00:17,408 --> 00:00:20,411 and there are no right or wrong answers. 4 00:00:22,369 --> 00:00:24,676 So when you think about the future, 5 00:00:24,719 --> 00:00:26,895 how do you imagine it'll be? 6 00:00:28,071 --> 00:00:29,507 Like, what will nature be like? 7 00:00:31,987 --> 00:00:33,293 How will your city change? 8 00:00:35,904 --> 00:00:37,297 Will families be the same? 9 00:00:40,605 --> 00:00:43,782 What will stay with you, and what will you forget? 10 00:00:46,785 --> 00:00:47,829 What scares you? 11 00:00:47,873 --> 00:00:49,657 What makes you angry? 12 00:00:49,701 --> 00:00:50,963 Do you feel lonely? 13 00:00:51,833 --> 00:00:54,749 What makes you happy? 14 00:00:56,055 --> 00:00:57,709 [LIVELY MUSIC PLAYING] 15 00:01:00,103 --> 00:01:01,234 [SIREN BLARING DISTANTLY] 16 00:01:03,149 --> 00:01:04,977 So we are goin' around the country, 17 00:01:05,020 --> 00:01:08,154 goin' to different cities and interviewing kids, 18 00:01:08,198 --> 00:01:11,331 ranging in age, um, just about their... their life 19 00:01:11,375 --> 00:01:14,160 and what they think about the future. 20 00:01:14,204 --> 00:01:17,250 ROXANNE: If I ask you anything that you don't wanna answer, 21 00:01:17,294 --> 00:01:18,730 or you don't like a question or whatever, 22 00:01:18,773 --> 00:01:20,384 you can just be like, "No." 23 00:01:20,427 --> 00:01:21,776 - I want you to just feel comfortable, 24 00:01:21,820 --> 00:01:23,778 and if there's anything that I ask you about 25 00:01:23,822 --> 00:01:25,084 that you don't wanna talk about, 26 00:01:25,128 --> 00:01:26,651 say "I don't really wanna talk about that." 27 00:01:26,694 --> 00:01:29,610 - I think adults always think they're the boss, 28 00:01:29,654 --> 00:01:32,004 and they always gotta be the boss of everything. 29 00:01:32,047 --> 00:01:34,311 And I think that some adults have that mindset 30 00:01:34,354 --> 00:01:35,790 where "I'm right and you're wrong." 31 00:01:35,834 --> 00:01:37,531 - When you think about the future, 32 00:01:37,575 --> 00:01:39,229 how do you imagine it'll be? 33 00:01:40,099 --> 00:01:41,231 - I... [SIGHS] 34 00:01:41,274 --> 00:01:44,321 I imagine and hope it'll be good. 35 00:01:46,192 --> 00:01:47,411 JOHNNY: And do you ever think, 36 00:01:47,454 --> 00:01:49,021 like, what could adults have done 37 00:01:49,064 --> 00:01:52,198 to have made sure that we went in the right path? 38 00:01:52,242 --> 00:01:54,157 - Definitely most of all, pay more attention 39 00:01:54,200 --> 00:01:56,246 to, like, what's going on around them, 40 00:01:56,289 --> 00:01:58,204 'cause I feel like that's a big problem 41 00:01:58,248 --> 00:02:00,467 with, like, literally everything. 42 00:02:00,511 --> 00:02:02,382 Like, that's a big, big thing. 43 00:02:04,167 --> 00:02:05,342 GIRL 1: They'll be like, "Oh, you're from Detroit." 44 00:02:05,385 --> 00:02:06,473 I was like, "Yeah." 45 00:02:06,517 --> 00:02:07,779 Like, "It's really dangerous there. 46 00:02:07,822 --> 00:02:09,607 The schools are really terrible 47 00:02:09,650 --> 00:02:11,696 and, like, nothing's good there." 48 00:02:11,739 --> 00:02:13,219 I was like, "Well, how would you know? 49 00:02:13,263 --> 00:02:14,264 You don't live there, 50 00:02:14,307 --> 00:02:15,352 and you don't go to school there. 51 00:02:15,395 --> 00:02:16,831 You weren't raised in Detroit." 52 00:02:16,875 --> 00:02:19,834 Like, "I've been raised in Detroit all my life." 53 00:02:19,878 --> 00:02:21,967 GIRL 2: America, uh, it's so much... 54 00:02:22,010 --> 00:02:23,621 It's so much tragedy, 55 00:02:23,664 --> 00:02:25,623 and some people aren't treated fairly, 56 00:02:25,666 --> 00:02:28,321 because of race, because of who they like, 57 00:02:28,365 --> 00:02:30,193 because of where they live, 58 00:02:30,236 --> 00:02:32,064 because of how much money they have. 59 00:02:32,107 --> 00:02:34,284 So I would want it to become a better place 60 00:02:34,327 --> 00:02:35,589 and people to know 61 00:02:35,633 --> 00:02:36,721 that just because someone isn't like you 62 00:02:36,764 --> 00:02:38,288 doesn't mean that they're wrong, 63 00:02:38,331 --> 00:02:39,898 but then I'm not sure. 64 00:02:39,941 --> 00:02:41,204 GIRL 3: We're at the point right now 65 00:02:41,247 --> 00:02:43,554 where we have to change things, 66 00:02:43,597 --> 00:02:46,600 and just based on our morals as people, 67 00:02:46,644 --> 00:02:48,950 I don't really see that happening anytime soon. 68 00:02:51,214 --> 00:02:53,520 JOHNNY: So, you're... You're hopeful for the future? 69 00:02:53,564 --> 00:02:54,695 Like, when you think about the future, 70 00:02:54,739 --> 00:02:57,307 you think it'll be better or worse? 71 00:02:57,350 --> 00:02:58,612 GIRL 4: For me, personally, 72 00:02:58,656 --> 00:03:00,571 I feel like things are gonna get better, 73 00:03:00,614 --> 00:03:04,096 because I have a lot of opportunities right now. 74 00:03:04,139 --> 00:03:05,402 [OVER TAPE] I'm hopeful for myself, 75 00:03:05,445 --> 00:03:06,925 for other people. 76 00:03:06,968 --> 00:03:09,014 I don't know if things are gonna get better, 77 00:03:09,057 --> 00:03:10,233 it's really on the side, 78 00:03:10,276 --> 00:03:11,538 but I really hope things get better. 79 00:03:12,539 --> 00:03:15,977 Um, but for the overall world, 80 00:03:17,240 --> 00:03:18,676 once again I hope it gets better, 81 00:03:18,719 --> 00:03:21,766 but it might not, like everything. 82 00:03:21,809 --> 00:03:24,595 JOHNNY [OVER TAPE]: If you could have one superpower, 83 00:03:24,638 --> 00:03:25,944 what would it be? 84 00:03:25,987 --> 00:03:27,250 GIRL 4: That's a hard question. 85 00:03:27,293 --> 00:03:30,209 Um, that's one of the popular questions 86 00:03:30,253 --> 00:03:31,776 that I ask people. 87 00:03:31,819 --> 00:03:33,038 Some people say... 88 00:03:34,344 --> 00:03:36,171 Detroit was the future. 89 00:03:36,955 --> 00:03:37,956 [CLICKS TONGUE] 90 00:03:39,174 --> 00:03:40,263 [SIGHS] 91 00:03:42,526 --> 00:03:44,136 So we came to... 92 00:03:44,179 --> 00:03:49,533 We came to Detroit to talk to young people, kids. 93 00:03:49,576 --> 00:03:53,754 You know, we came to Detroit to talk to kids, young people, 94 00:03:54,581 --> 00:03:57,802 and to ask them 95 00:03:57,845 --> 00:03:59,717 what they thought their lives would be like, 96 00:04:00,892 --> 00:04:03,547 how it's changing for them, 97 00:04:03,590 --> 00:04:06,332 what are they inspired by and excited by, 98 00:04:06,376 --> 00:04:08,291 and what are their lives like now? 99 00:04:18,213 --> 00:04:19,824 [SIGHS] 100 00:04:19,867 --> 00:04:22,261 [PHONE LINE RINGING] 101 00:04:26,221 --> 00:04:27,484 VIV: [ON PHONE] Hey. 102 00:04:27,527 --> 00:04:28,572 - Hey. 103 00:04:28,615 --> 00:04:30,661 VIV: Hi. -Hi. 104 00:04:32,402 --> 00:04:34,317 - It's nice that you called. 105 00:04:35,709 --> 00:04:37,537 - I didn't know if I was gonna call 106 00:04:37,581 --> 00:04:39,365 or if you would... 107 00:04:39,409 --> 00:04:41,019 If no one would... 108 00:04:44,196 --> 00:04:45,980 - It's a good day to talk. 109 00:04:48,331 --> 00:04:50,115 Maybe Mom's listening. 110 00:04:50,158 --> 00:04:53,161 JOHNNY: Yeah, maybe. 111 00:04:55,294 --> 00:04:57,383 It doesn't feel like it's been a year to me. 112 00:04:58,515 --> 00:04:59,820 Does it to you? 113 00:05:01,082 --> 00:05:03,520 VIV: No, it's weird. 114 00:05:04,869 --> 00:05:08,351 I didn't know what to do with myself today. 115 00:05:08,394 --> 00:05:09,787 [SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING] 116 00:05:09,830 --> 00:05:13,443 JOHNNY: Yeah, I know. If I just, um, work, 117 00:05:13,486 --> 00:05:15,270 then I feel like I'm not mourning 118 00:05:15,314 --> 00:05:16,707 in the right way or whatever. 119 00:05:18,143 --> 00:05:22,539 And if I sit in this depressing hotel room 120 00:05:22,582 --> 00:05:24,279 and just think about Mom, 121 00:05:24,323 --> 00:05:26,804 then, yeah, it's just pretty brutal. 122 00:05:27,674 --> 00:05:29,633 So, yeah, I called you. 123 00:05:29,676 --> 00:05:31,417 [PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES] 124 00:05:33,463 --> 00:05:34,942 - Where are you? 125 00:05:34,986 --> 00:05:37,075 - Um, I'm in Detroit. 126 00:05:37,118 --> 00:05:40,252 I've been, um, interviewing kids. 127 00:05:41,471 --> 00:05:42,602 Uh, so that was cool. 128 00:05:42,646 --> 00:05:43,951 VIV: Cool. -Yeah. 129 00:05:43,995 --> 00:05:46,127 - Jesse heard you on the radio the other day. 130 00:05:46,171 --> 00:05:47,172 - Oh, yeah? 131 00:05:47,215 --> 00:05:48,782 VIV: Yeah, we were driving, 132 00:05:48,826 --> 00:05:51,655 and there you were on the radio as usual, 133 00:05:51,698 --> 00:05:54,309 and I had to tell him it was you. 134 00:05:55,398 --> 00:05:57,835 - Really? - He's nine, you know? 135 00:05:57,878 --> 00:05:59,010 He didn't recognize your voice, 136 00:05:59,053 --> 00:06:00,011 it's been a year. 137 00:06:00,054 --> 00:06:01,708 It's a long time for a kid. 138 00:06:04,668 --> 00:06:06,147 - Wow. 139 00:06:06,191 --> 00:06:07,627 All right. 140 00:06:07,671 --> 00:06:08,672 VIV: Yeah. 141 00:06:09,977 --> 00:06:11,370 JOHNNY: How is Jesse? 142 00:06:11,414 --> 00:06:13,328 VIV: Uh, he's so good. 143 00:06:13,372 --> 00:06:17,550 He's smart, and he's so weird. 144 00:06:17,594 --> 00:06:21,424 He's older, and he's funny, and I don't know, he's... 145 00:06:21,467 --> 00:06:24,252 He's... he's a whole little person. 146 00:06:25,210 --> 00:06:28,300 Um, and Paul moved to Oakland. 147 00:06:29,040 --> 00:06:30,389 - He did? 148 00:06:30,433 --> 00:06:31,782 - Yeah. 149 00:06:31,825 --> 00:06:33,218 - Whoa, really? 150 00:06:34,262 --> 00:06:35,525 - Yeah, it's okay. 151 00:06:35,568 --> 00:06:37,440 I... It's... I think so. 152 00:06:37,483 --> 00:06:40,007 Jesse is dealing with it well so far, 153 00:06:40,051 --> 00:06:41,966 but Paul's not.[CHUCKLING] 154 00:06:42,009 --> 00:06:43,228 - He is... - Hmm. 155 00:06:43,271 --> 00:06:45,970 I mean, he... I'm just... 156 00:06:46,013 --> 00:06:47,232 He's fine. 157 00:06:47,275 --> 00:06:48,886 I just have to go up and help a little. 158 00:06:48,929 --> 00:06:50,453 Help him settle in. 159 00:06:51,192 --> 00:06:52,367 - Oh, yeah? 160 00:06:53,107 --> 00:06:54,500 - Yeah. 161 00:06:54,544 --> 00:06:57,460 So I'm heading up there soon, but we're good. 162 00:06:59,287 --> 00:07:03,335 - So you taking... You taking Jesse? 163 00:07:03,378 --> 00:07:04,641 - No. 164 00:07:04,684 --> 00:07:07,034 No, I don't think it's that kind of trip. 165 00:07:09,515 --> 00:07:11,386 - So who's watching Jesse? 166 00:07:14,302 --> 00:07:16,479 VIV: I haven't gotten there yet. 167 00:07:17,392 --> 00:07:19,394 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 168 00:07:58,433 --> 00:07:59,652 [KNOCKING ON DOOR] 169 00:08:03,177 --> 00:08:04,788 [FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING] 170 00:08:12,447 --> 00:08:13,753 - Hi. [CHUCKLING] VIV: Hi. 171 00:08:13,797 --> 00:08:15,059 - Hi. 172 00:08:15,102 --> 00:08:16,103 Hey. 173 00:08:18,541 --> 00:08:19,933 - Say hi. 174 00:08:19,977 --> 00:08:21,761 - [WHISPERS] "Hi, how are you?" 175 00:08:21,805 --> 00:08:23,023 - How are you? 176 00:08:23,067 --> 00:08:24,416 - [WHISPERS] I'm good. How are you? 177 00:08:25,417 --> 00:08:26,418 - I'm good. 178 00:08:27,071 --> 00:08:28,420 - Hmm. 179 00:08:28,463 --> 00:08:30,596 VIV: [WHISPERS] Wanna ask Uncle Johnny to come in? 180 00:08:30,640 --> 00:08:32,598 - You should ask me if I wanna come in. 181 00:08:32,642 --> 00:08:33,643 JESSE: Do you wanna come in? 182 00:08:33,686 --> 00:08:34,992 - Thank you. - Okay. 183 00:08:36,080 --> 00:08:37,037 - I get a hug? 184 00:08:38,125 --> 00:08:39,387 [GRUNTING PLAYFULLY] 185 00:08:42,869 --> 00:08:43,957 - Hi. - Hi. 186 00:08:45,437 --> 00:08:46,612 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 187 00:08:53,619 --> 00:08:57,144 - We have, um, her dresses 188 00:08:57,188 --> 00:08:59,451 um, all my homework stuff. 189 00:09:00,844 --> 00:09:03,629 - Hmm, cool. 190 00:09:03,673 --> 00:09:05,718 - Mom says you're gonna sleep up here tonight 191 00:09:05,762 --> 00:09:11,028 in her extra-big, cozy bed, best bed in the house. 192 00:09:11,071 --> 00:09:15,032 So there are these, um, big, big, big, big, 193 00:09:15,075 --> 00:09:19,471 big, um, little like fungus tubes 194 00:09:19,514 --> 00:09:22,648 or tubes that are fungus, 195 00:09:22,692 --> 00:09:25,216 and they're connecting all the trees. 196 00:09:25,259 --> 00:09:26,826 so they're up here. - Mm-hmm. 197 00:09:26,870 --> 00:09:29,046 And they'd be really tall. 198 00:09:29,089 --> 00:09:31,091 They get all the food, and then you kinda, 199 00:09:31,135 --> 00:09:34,138 like, go through the tubes into another tree. 200 00:09:35,574 --> 00:09:38,229 And then, um, well, they... 201 00:09:38,272 --> 00:09:39,534 They would, like, get all the food 202 00:09:39,578 --> 00:09:40,666 and then it'll go through. 203 00:09:40,710 --> 00:09:42,886 And so the tree needs... [FADES] 204 00:09:42,929 --> 00:09:44,322 JOHNNY: So what's goin' on with Paul? How's he doin'? 205 00:09:44,365 --> 00:09:45,932 - Oh, I don't know. 206 00:09:45,976 --> 00:09:47,630 I mean, he was offered this, you know, incredible position 207 00:09:47,673 --> 00:09:48,805 at the San Francisco Symphony, 208 00:09:48,848 --> 00:09:50,502 which he totally deserves, 209 00:09:50,545 --> 00:09:53,070 but the transition fucked him up. 210 00:09:53,113 --> 00:09:54,941 - Mm-hmm. - Like transitions always do. 211 00:09:54,985 --> 00:09:57,596 And... And then he got a fucking dog, 212 00:09:57,640 --> 00:09:59,467 which he should not have gotten, so... 213 00:09:59,511 --> 00:10:01,600 - No. No. - So, yeah. It's just... 214 00:10:01,644 --> 00:10:04,647 It's... It's... It's a total mess as usual. 215 00:10:06,170 --> 00:10:08,302 - And you have to clean it up? 216 00:10:08,346 --> 00:10:09,477 - Yeah. 217 00:10:09,521 --> 00:10:11,262 Yeah, that's Paul. 218 00:10:11,305 --> 00:10:13,090 [SIGHS] 219 00:10:13,133 --> 00:10:15,179 - What about Jesse? What does he know? 220 00:10:15,222 --> 00:10:18,443 - Nothing. I said I was gonna help him get organized, 221 00:10:18,486 --> 00:10:20,097 so we'll go together later. 222 00:10:21,664 --> 00:10:23,578 - He gonna be okay just with me? 223 00:10:23,622 --> 00:10:24,928 Like, what... 224 00:10:24,971 --> 00:10:26,451 - He loves it when I'm not around. 225 00:10:27,408 --> 00:10:28,714 He'll have so much fun. 226 00:10:28,758 --> 00:10:29,933 - Yeah? 227 00:10:32,370 --> 00:10:34,285 - It's really good to see you. 228 00:10:35,460 --> 00:10:36,461 JESSE: Hello? 229 00:10:38,724 --> 00:10:40,465 Is anyone home? 230 00:10:42,685 --> 00:10:45,644 - Hello? - Uh, are you ready for this? 231 00:10:47,298 --> 00:10:49,169 - God, what? 232 00:10:49,213 --> 00:10:51,171 - Hello? - Brace yourself. 233 00:10:51,215 --> 00:10:53,304 There's this, uh, little orphan 234 00:10:53,347 --> 00:10:54,697 who likes to come visit me. 235 00:10:54,740 --> 00:10:57,134 In fact, he will probably come visit you, 236 00:10:57,177 --> 00:11:01,834 and he likes to pretend that, uh, I have some dead children, 237 00:11:01,878 --> 00:11:04,837 and he asks me a lot of questions about what they did, 238 00:11:04,881 --> 00:11:06,926 so he can do those same things. 239 00:11:06,970 --> 00:11:09,189 - That's fucked up. - Yeah. 240 00:11:11,583 --> 00:11:14,107 It's really... It's totally normal. 241 00:11:14,151 --> 00:11:15,630 All the kids do this. 242 00:11:16,806 --> 00:11:18,546 JESSE: Is anyone home? 243 00:11:18,590 --> 00:11:19,809 - I'm coming. 244 00:11:25,858 --> 00:11:27,773 - Hi. - Hi. 245 00:11:27,817 --> 00:11:29,035 - Is this the orphan? 246 00:11:29,079 --> 00:11:30,907 - Mm-hmm. 247 00:11:30,950 --> 00:11:32,735 Can I sleep here tonight? 248 00:11:32,778 --> 00:11:34,258 They only have bunk beds at the orphanage 249 00:11:34,301 --> 00:11:36,434 and all the kids snore. 250 00:11:36,477 --> 00:11:39,872 - Hmm, of course you can. 251 00:11:39,916 --> 00:11:42,570 Uh, actually, my son's not here tonight, so... 252 00:11:46,139 --> 00:11:49,273 - I could take his place if you want. 253 00:11:50,578 --> 00:11:52,015 - That's a good idea. 254 00:11:52,058 --> 00:11:53,712 He usually goes to bed right now. 255 00:11:53,756 --> 00:11:58,499 You know, this way, I happen to have a room 256 00:11:58,543 --> 00:12:00,937 with a bed just your size. 257 00:12:00,980 --> 00:12:02,852 You wanna check it out? 258 00:12:04,723 --> 00:12:06,116 - "Dorothy lived in the midst 259 00:12:06,159 --> 00:12:07,508 of the great Kansas prairies 260 00:12:07,552 --> 00:12:10,120 with Uncle Henry, who was a farmer, 261 00:12:10,163 --> 00:12:12,470 and Aunt Em, who was the farmer's wife." 262 00:12:12,513 --> 00:12:14,777 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 263 00:12:14,820 --> 00:12:18,824 She hugged me, and she felt different, 264 00:12:18,868 --> 00:12:21,479 or I felt different, 265 00:12:21,522 --> 00:12:24,787 and, yeah, Jesse maybe vaguely remembered me. 266 00:12:26,266 --> 00:12:28,834 Maybe. Maybe not. 267 00:12:28,878 --> 00:12:30,444 Da, da. Da, da, da, da. 268 00:12:32,707 --> 00:12:38,235 He told me about trees communicating with each other 269 00:12:38,278 --> 00:12:40,324 and how connected they were 270 00:12:40,367 --> 00:12:44,023 by an underground network of fungus. 271 00:13:02,346 --> 00:13:03,956 - Love you, love you, love you, love you, love you. 272 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:05,305 Mmm. [KISSES] 273 00:13:05,349 --> 00:13:06,916 Love you, love you, love you. 274 00:13:06,959 --> 00:13:09,048 [WHISPERING INDISTINCTLY] 275 00:13:10,093 --> 00:13:12,095 Oh, cozy. Okay, go back to sleep. 276 00:13:17,361 --> 00:13:25,543 [CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING LOUDLY ON SPEAKERS] 277 00:13:28,241 --> 00:13:30,287 - Good morning. 278 00:13:32,115 --> 00:13:33,072 [SHOUTS OVER MUSIC] It's loud! 279 00:13:33,812 --> 00:13:35,422 - It's Saturday. 280 00:13:35,466 --> 00:13:37,555 I get to be loud on Saturdays. 281 00:13:43,213 --> 00:13:44,344 - Mom just left? 282 00:13:44,388 --> 00:13:45,302 - Uh-huh. 283 00:13:47,347 --> 00:13:49,001 She said you might be a bit awkward. 284 00:13:49,045 --> 00:13:50,176 - What? 285 00:13:50,220 --> 00:13:53,049 - She said you might be a bit awkward. 286 00:13:53,092 --> 00:13:54,267 [CHUCKLING] 287 00:13:54,311 --> 00:13:55,660 But you'll get used to things. 288 00:13:55,703 --> 00:13:58,402 [MUSIC CONTINUES LOUDLY] 289 00:13:58,445 --> 00:13:59,838 - Will you turn it down a little? 290 00:14:01,274 --> 00:14:02,928 [MUSIC CONTINUES SOFTLY] 291 00:14:02,972 --> 00:14:05,888 - She left you some notes in the kitchen. 292 00:14:14,157 --> 00:14:17,508 [READING INDISTINCTLY] 293 00:14:20,163 --> 00:14:21,164 - Is that a microphone 294 00:14:21,207 --> 00:14:22,905 or is it a... in the headphones? 295 00:14:22,948 --> 00:14:24,210 - Huh? 296 00:14:24,254 --> 00:14:25,820 - Is it... Is the mic in the headphones and... 297 00:14:25,864 --> 00:14:27,953 Or is that the mic? 298 00:14:27,997 --> 00:14:29,694 - This is the mic, 299 00:14:29,737 --> 00:14:31,957 and I'm just gonna get a quick little level. 300 00:14:32,001 --> 00:14:32,958 Careful. 301 00:14:33,002 --> 00:14:34,003 [SNAPPING FINGERS] 302 00:14:34,046 --> 00:14:35,265 Da, da, da, da, da, da, da. 303 00:14:35,308 --> 00:14:36,875 [CLICKS TONGUE] 304 00:14:36,919 --> 00:14:39,399 So when you think about the future, 305 00:14:40,835 --> 00:14:42,402 what do you imagine? 306 00:14:43,969 --> 00:14:45,928 - Um, I don't wan... I don't wanna. 307 00:14:48,017 --> 00:14:49,888 - You don't wanna imagine what the future's like? 308 00:14:49,932 --> 00:14:51,324 - I don't wanna do the questions. 309 00:14:52,456 --> 00:14:55,415 - Uh-uh. - Oh, what's that? 310 00:14:55,459 --> 00:14:56,982 - Um... - There's a screw there, 311 00:14:57,026 --> 00:14:58,288 and there's loads of little buttons. 312 00:14:58,331 --> 00:14:59,811 - Well, that's the... That's the gain. 313 00:14:59,854 --> 00:15:01,421 - The gain? 314 00:15:01,465 --> 00:15:02,727 - Well, it's how you know how much... 315 00:15:02,770 --> 00:15:04,598 Here, put these on. 316 00:15:04,642 --> 00:15:06,252 [JESSE SCATTING] 317 00:15:09,386 --> 00:15:10,953 Do you see this? 318 00:15:10,996 --> 00:15:12,215 Here. 319 00:15:15,566 --> 00:15:16,523 [RUMBLING ON HEADPHONES] 320 00:15:16,567 --> 00:15:18,873 - Can you hear that? - I can... 321 00:15:18,917 --> 00:15:20,527 - Yes. - ...hear that. 322 00:15:20,571 --> 00:15:24,009 - Yeah. So this is what you adjust for an input volume. 323 00:15:24,053 --> 00:15:25,619 JESSE: Now it's super quiet. 324 00:15:25,663 --> 00:15:27,491 JOHNNY: So turn it all the way up, 325 00:15:27,534 --> 00:15:28,361 you can feel that. 326 00:15:28,405 --> 00:15:30,494 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 327 00:15:35,281 --> 00:15:37,240 [SEAGULLS SQUAWKING] 328 00:15:50,427 --> 00:15:51,994 JOHNNY: Having fun? 329 00:15:52,037 --> 00:15:53,386 JESSE: It all sounds amazing in here. 330 00:15:55,301 --> 00:15:56,650 My dad would love this. 331 00:16:00,132 --> 00:16:01,525 Johnny! 332 00:16:01,568 --> 00:16:02,787 JOHNNY: You need something? 333 00:16:04,397 --> 00:16:06,965 - My mom tells me stories. 334 00:16:07,009 --> 00:16:08,619 It can be fiction or non-fiction. 335 00:16:12,101 --> 00:16:14,625 - [SIGHS] Oh, boy, I don't know any stories. 336 00:16:14,668 --> 00:16:16,322 Um... 337 00:16:18,237 --> 00:16:21,066 Can we just talk and get to know each other? 338 00:16:22,415 --> 00:16:24,461 - Why did she stop talkin' to you? 339 00:16:25,418 --> 00:16:26,680 [JOHNNY CHUCKLING] 340 00:16:26,724 --> 00:16:29,335 - Um, we talk. 341 00:16:29,379 --> 00:16:30,945 - No, you don't. 342 00:16:37,082 --> 00:16:39,432 - [SOFTLY] I mean, I don't know. 343 00:16:39,476 --> 00:16:41,043 - Did you used to talk a lot? 344 00:16:44,785 --> 00:16:46,352 - Yeah. 345 00:16:49,312 --> 00:16:52,532 [SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING] 346 00:16:52,576 --> 00:16:54,186 - Johnny, where have you been? 347 00:16:55,579 --> 00:16:56,536 - Hi. 348 00:16:56,580 --> 00:16:58,016 - You can help me. 349 00:16:58,060 --> 00:16:59,104 - Yeah, what do you need? 350 00:16:59,148 --> 00:17:00,366 - He's coming to get me. 351 00:17:01,411 --> 00:17:03,326 - Who's coming? 352 00:17:03,369 --> 00:17:04,762 - I have to get dressed. 353 00:17:07,504 --> 00:17:09,810 My dad's taking me to the DMV. 354 00:17:10,985 --> 00:17:12,639 My sweater was over there. 355 00:17:13,466 --> 00:17:14,859 Help me up. 356 00:17:16,208 --> 00:17:18,645 I'm gonna get my license. 357 00:17:18,689 --> 00:17:19,864 VIV: I don't know why you give in 358 00:17:19,907 --> 00:17:21,779 to those delusions like that. 359 00:17:21,822 --> 00:17:22,693 JOHNNY: Are you serious? 360 00:17:22,736 --> 00:17:23,824 VIV: Yeah, I'm serious. 361 00:17:23,868 --> 00:17:25,261 - Are you fucking serious? 362 00:17:25,304 --> 00:17:26,566 Easy, I got you. 363 00:17:29,178 --> 00:17:31,049 - Hurry. 364 00:17:31,093 --> 00:17:33,138 - Why wouldn't I entertain it? 365 00:17:33,182 --> 00:17:35,271 Just let her have that. Why you... 366 00:17:35,314 --> 00:17:37,099 VIV: What's going on? 367 00:17:37,142 --> 00:17:39,275 - My dad's coming to get me. 368 00:17:39,318 --> 00:17:40,841 - Mom, why don't you, um... 369 00:17:40,885 --> 00:17:43,496 Why don't we wait for your dad lying down? 370 00:17:43,540 --> 00:17:45,411 You just give in to her! You always just give in to her! 371 00:17:45,455 --> 00:17:46,847 - This is precisely... - Whatever she wants! 372 00:17:46,891 --> 00:17:48,371 - ...what you should give in to. 373 00:17:48,414 --> 00:17:49,633 - What are you talking about? - It's not her, though. 374 00:17:49,676 --> 00:17:51,156 It's not even her... [CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY] 375 00:17:51,200 --> 00:17:52,375 JOHNNY: What is your problem? 376 00:17:52,418 --> 00:17:53,202 VIV: You know what my problem is? 377 00:17:53,245 --> 00:17:54,681 JOHNNY: Yeah, yeah. 378 00:17:54,725 --> 00:17:55,813 It's thatfor our entire lives, I am the only one 379 00:17:55,856 --> 00:17:57,945 whoever challenged them. 380 00:17:57,989 --> 00:17:59,512 JOHNNY: Really? Really? For our entire lives? 381 00:17:59,556 --> 00:18:00,818 VIV: Yes. Yes, really. 382 00:18:00,861 --> 00:18:02,254 So easy for you. 383 00:18:02,298 --> 00:18:04,126 They made me feel like I was a crazy person 384 00:18:04,169 --> 00:18:05,257 again and again, 385 00:18:05,301 --> 00:18:07,172 and you just went along with it. 386 00:18:07,216 --> 00:18:10,088 JOHNNY: You don't exactly make it easy to help you. 387 00:18:10,132 --> 00:18:14,571 VIV: Well, maybe, but I needed your help. 388 00:18:14,614 --> 00:18:19,619 - Look, you're losing a mom who adored you. 389 00:18:19,663 --> 00:18:21,447 She just did. 390 00:18:21,491 --> 00:18:24,363 And I'm losing one who never understood me. 391 00:18:24,407 --> 00:18:27,453 [SOFT PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES] 392 00:18:37,420 --> 00:18:40,597 [SNIFFLING] 393 00:18:41,728 --> 00:18:43,339 [SOFTLY] Okay, Mom. 394 00:18:43,382 --> 00:18:44,514 JOHNNY: "It is kind of you to wear that", said Boq. 395 00:18:44,557 --> 00:18:46,255 "Blue is the color of the Munchkins, 396 00:18:46,298 --> 00:18:48,170 and white is the witch color. 397 00:18:48,213 --> 00:18:50,737 So we know you are a friendly witch. 398 00:18:50,781 --> 00:18:52,522 Dorothy didn't know what to say. 399 00:18:52,565 --> 00:18:55,177 Dorothy did not know what to say to this, 400 00:18:55,220 --> 00:18:57,396 for all the people seemed to think her a witch, 401 00:18:57,440 --> 00:18:58,528 and she knew..." 402 00:18:58,571 --> 00:18:59,703 - Why aren't you married? 403 00:19:02,793 --> 00:19:05,012 - Um, I was with... 404 00:19:05,056 --> 00:19:07,232 I was with somebody for a long time, Louisa. 405 00:19:07,276 --> 00:19:09,147 [CONTINUES READING] "And she knew very well 406 00:19:09,191 --> 00:19:11,149 she was only an ordinary little girl 407 00:19:11,193 --> 00:19:13,107 who had come by the chance of a cyclone 408 00:19:13,151 --> 00:19:14,457 into a strange land." 409 00:19:14,500 --> 00:19:17,242 - Did you love her? 410 00:19:17,286 --> 00:19:19,113 I still do. 411 00:19:19,853 --> 00:19:21,072 - Then why did you break up? 412 00:19:26,860 --> 00:19:28,601 - I don't know. 413 00:19:31,909 --> 00:19:34,738 Um... "When she had tired watching the dancing, 414 00:19:34,781 --> 00:19:37,436 Boq... Boq led her into the house, 415 00:19:37,480 --> 00:19:40,309 where he gave her a room with a pretty bed in it." 416 00:19:40,352 --> 00:19:42,049 I don't think it was my choice. 417 00:19:42,093 --> 00:19:45,227 Mm, I think, um, 418 00:19:47,794 --> 00:19:49,622 you love each other, 419 00:19:49,666 --> 00:19:53,147 and then you still love each other, 420 00:19:53,191 --> 00:19:58,196 but find it hard to express that love to each other, 421 00:19:58,240 --> 00:20:00,894 and so then you look at each other, 422 00:20:00,938 --> 00:20:02,418 and you do this. 423 00:20:04,637 --> 00:20:06,291 And you go, "Oh." 424 00:20:07,858 --> 00:20:10,077 You... You know, I mean, 425 00:20:10,121 --> 00:20:10,991 I hope you don't have the experience, 426 00:20:11,035 --> 00:20:12,602 but you probably will. 427 00:20:12,645 --> 00:20:14,647 It's all right, actually. 428 00:20:18,042 --> 00:20:18,956 Um, "The sh..." 429 00:20:18,999 --> 00:20:20,087 "Pretty bed in it. 430 00:20:20,131 --> 00:20:21,350 The sheets were made of blue cloth, 431 00:20:21,393 --> 00:20:22,786 and Dorothy slept soundly..." 432 00:20:22,829 --> 00:20:24,309 Okay, good night. 433 00:20:24,353 --> 00:20:26,877 - Um, so what happened... 434 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:28,487 [CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY] 435 00:20:28,531 --> 00:20:30,141 JOHNNY: Read him The Wizard of Oz, 436 00:20:30,184 --> 00:20:31,621 kissed him on the head, 437 00:20:31,664 --> 00:20:33,884 and said good night, 438 00:20:33,927 --> 00:20:37,888 and he asked me why am I not married. 439 00:20:37,931 --> 00:20:41,021 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 440 00:20:41,065 --> 00:20:42,588 I didn't tell him that I wanna be, 441 00:20:44,242 --> 00:20:45,765 that I miss Louisa. 442 00:20:48,028 --> 00:20:49,856 I made it into a weird joke. 443 00:20:53,164 --> 00:20:55,209 Why'd I do that? 444 00:20:55,253 --> 00:20:57,995 [SOFT MUSIC CONTINUES] 445 00:21:09,702 --> 00:21:11,922 Not so long ago, 446 00:21:11,965 --> 00:21:14,577 in an Arctic village far away, 447 00:21:14,620 --> 00:21:17,319 there lived a polar bear family. 448 00:21:17,362 --> 00:21:20,887 There was a papa polar bear, a mama polar bear, 449 00:21:20,931 --> 00:21:22,846 and a baby polar bear, 450 00:21:22,889 --> 00:21:25,588 and they all loved each other very much, 451 00:21:25,631 --> 00:21:27,764 but something was not quite right. 452 00:21:27,807 --> 00:21:29,156 [BOTH ARGUING INDISTINCTLY] 453 00:21:29,200 --> 00:21:31,811 Baby bear knew something was wrong. 454 00:21:31,855 --> 00:21:35,075 He never said a word, but he worried all the time. 455 00:21:35,119 --> 00:21:37,469 He worried about his papa. 456 00:21:39,341 --> 00:21:40,864 You see, Papa Bear had a hard time 457 00:21:40,907 --> 00:21:42,909 controlling his feelings 458 00:21:42,953 --> 00:21:45,347 and sometimes he did things that upset, 459 00:21:45,390 --> 00:21:47,871 and even scared Mama and Baby Bear. 460 00:21:47,914 --> 00:21:49,612 [SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY] 461 00:21:50,787 --> 00:21:53,355 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 462 00:21:58,534 --> 00:22:00,492 - So should I call you like "Papa" 463 00:22:00,536 --> 00:22:02,059 or "Dad" or just "Johnny"? 464 00:22:03,582 --> 00:22:05,410 JOHNNY: You can call me 465 00:22:05,454 --> 00:22:07,412 whatever feels comfortable to you. 466 00:22:07,456 --> 00:22:09,109 - Uh, I... I don't know, 467 00:22:09,153 --> 00:22:10,763 it's just I'm not used to being able to choose. 468 00:22:12,591 --> 00:22:16,247 - Maybe we can just take this process slowly 469 00:22:16,290 --> 00:22:21,121 and... [CHUCKLES] And see... See how it feels. 470 00:22:22,340 --> 00:22:24,211 - Mm-hmm, yeah. 471 00:22:24,255 --> 00:22:29,391 And I'm just really sorry that your children died. 472 00:22:33,133 --> 00:22:34,918 - Um, you know, I don't think I can do that part. 473 00:22:34,961 --> 00:22:37,921 - Yeah, I... I told you that's how me and Mom do it. 474 00:22:37,964 --> 00:22:40,445 - If it's... makes sense for your mom to do that, 475 00:22:40,489 --> 00:22:42,099 that's cool, but it doesn't make sense for me 476 00:22:42,142 --> 00:22:43,405 and that's what I was explaining to you. 477 00:22:43,448 --> 00:22:44,449 - Why it doesn't make sense for you? It's... 478 00:22:44,493 --> 00:22:45,407 - Because it's ridiculous. 479 00:22:45,450 --> 00:22:46,756 - Is it... 480 00:22:46,799 --> 00:22:48,192 - It's sad. 481 00:22:49,802 --> 00:22:51,717 The question is why do you wanna do it. 482 00:22:51,761 --> 00:22:54,981 - You are just terrible at this. 483 00:22:55,025 --> 00:22:56,592 - Oh, man, I'm tryin'. 484 00:22:56,635 --> 00:22:58,811 Let... Let me ask you a question. 485 00:22:58,855 --> 00:23:03,381 Why does everything have to be like this kind of weird, 486 00:23:03,425 --> 00:23:05,339 eccentric thing that you do? 487 00:23:05,383 --> 00:23:06,645 - 'Cause I like it. 488 00:23:06,689 --> 00:23:07,603 - Yeah, but why not just 489 00:23:07,646 --> 00:23:09,082 do something normal? 490 00:23:09,126 --> 00:23:10,214 - What's normal? 491 00:23:10,257 --> 00:23:11,084 - Like everything in your real life... 492 00:23:11,128 --> 00:23:12,477 - What's normal? 493 00:23:12,521 --> 00:23:14,305 - Okay, fine. Good point. 494 00:23:16,002 --> 00:23:17,264 BOY: [ON TAPE] The only thing that I do have 495 00:23:17,308 --> 00:23:18,744 is that I know that I'm safe. 496 00:23:18,788 --> 00:23:20,616 I'm in a home where people care about me 497 00:23:20,659 --> 00:23:23,227 and I have friends that care about me and... 498 00:23:36,066 --> 00:23:39,025 [PAUL TALKING INDISTINCTLY] 499 00:23:39,069 --> 00:23:40,374 - That's the total randomness. 500 00:23:40,418 --> 00:23:41,550 Like there was nothing. 501 00:23:41,593 --> 00:23:42,638 It was like a triangle one on this one 502 00:23:42,681 --> 00:23:43,900 and a square on this one, 503 00:23:43,943 --> 00:23:45,554 and half of the block would be a triangle, 504 00:23:45,597 --> 00:23:46,816 and the other half would be a wood, 505 00:23:46,859 --> 00:23:48,078 and they'll be like, "Can you figure it out?" 506 00:23:48,121 --> 00:23:49,688 It looked very similar to this floor here. 507 00:23:49,732 --> 00:23:50,994 VIV: [ON PHONE] Hi. 508 00:23:51,037 --> 00:23:53,083 JOHNNY: Hey, what's... what's going on? 509 00:23:53,126 --> 00:23:55,520 VIV: Oh, it's really bad. 510 00:23:55,564 --> 00:23:59,481 He really needs to go somewhere for help 511 00:23:59,524 --> 00:24:03,572 and he's not letting me, uh, get him there. 512 00:24:03,615 --> 00:24:05,399 - I'm sleeping, I'm going to work, I have... 513 00:24:05,443 --> 00:24:07,053 - Are you sleeping? - I am sleeping! 514 00:24:07,097 --> 00:24:10,100 - How many hours do you usually... 515 00:24:10,143 --> 00:24:11,231 - [SIGHS] Does that matter? 516 00:24:11,275 --> 00:24:13,233 I'm sleeping, I'm sleeping! 517 00:24:13,277 --> 00:24:15,105 VIV: [ON PHONE] You know, he's totally fucking paranoid. 518 00:24:15,148 --> 00:24:16,759 Just the second I bring it up... 519 00:24:16,802 --> 00:24:18,543 Yeah, you know, I just tried to put some things in a bag 520 00:24:18,587 --> 00:24:20,197 and he totally fucking lost his mind. 521 00:24:20,240 --> 00:24:21,807 - And you took all these clothes 522 00:24:21,851 --> 00:24:23,679 if I'm gonna be there for a month or two months or whatever. 523 00:24:23,722 --> 00:24:25,158 - No, no, no, we don't... we don't have to. 524 00:24:25,202 --> 00:24:26,725 - No, no, no. Because I want all my things there. 525 00:24:26,769 --> 00:24:28,248 VIV: I know that I can get him to check himself in, 526 00:24:28,292 --> 00:24:29,859 but I've just... I've gotta lay off 527 00:24:29,902 --> 00:24:30,903 and just slow down. 528 00:24:30,947 --> 00:24:35,212 So can you stay with Jesse for me 529 00:24:35,255 --> 00:24:37,083 for another couple of days? 530 00:24:37,127 --> 00:24:39,564 I called Jesse's school and put you on the list, 531 00:24:39,608 --> 00:24:40,826 and you can... You can just bring him to school 532 00:24:40,870 --> 00:24:42,393 and pick him up. 533 00:24:42,436 --> 00:24:43,742 Can you do that? 534 00:24:43,786 --> 00:24:46,092 - Yeah, I can. 535 00:24:46,136 --> 00:24:47,050 Um... [CLEARS THROAT] 536 00:24:47,093 --> 00:24:48,138 - Oh, thank you. 537 00:24:48,181 --> 00:24:49,487 - But, uh, Viv, you know, 538 00:24:49,531 --> 00:24:51,402 I'm supposed to do these, um, interviews on Friday 539 00:24:51,445 --> 00:24:55,798 back in New York, um, but I'll figure it out. 540 00:24:55,841 --> 00:24:57,669 - You will? You can... You can do that? 541 00:24:57,713 --> 00:24:59,541 - Yeah, don't... I'll figure somethin' out. 542 00:24:59,584 --> 00:25:00,716 - Okay. 543 00:25:02,456 --> 00:25:03,980 Thank you. Thank you. 544 00:25:04,023 --> 00:25:07,897 And listen, you just don't say anything to him, okay? 545 00:25:07,940 --> 00:25:10,116 JOHNNY: Yeah, okay. 546 00:25:24,391 --> 00:25:27,307 ROXANNE: [ON PHONE] I think our first one 547 00:25:27,351 --> 00:25:29,440 is maybe 9:00 on Saturday. Will you be back for that? 548 00:25:29,483 --> 00:25:30,833 - Yeah, definitely. 549 00:25:32,051 --> 00:25:33,400 ROXANNE: Cool. 550 00:25:33,444 --> 00:25:37,056 Is that something where I'll see you before that 551 00:25:37,100 --> 00:25:40,059 or should I send you the pre-interview notes 552 00:25:40,103 --> 00:25:42,932 Fernando gave us for like the plane? 553 00:25:42,975 --> 00:25:45,369 - Um... Yeah, I'll be there, 554 00:25:45,412 --> 00:25:47,066 but, um, yeah, just send it, 555 00:25:47,110 --> 00:25:49,895 just... just so I have it and I'll look at it, 556 00:25:49,939 --> 00:25:54,334 but, no, I'll be in, um, Friday. 557 00:25:54,378 --> 00:25:55,640 Well, I don't know, I haven't figured out a ticket yet, 558 00:25:55,684 --> 00:25:56,772 but, um... 559 00:25:56,815 --> 00:25:58,861 - Okay. - I'll figure somethin' out. 560 00:25:58,904 --> 00:26:00,863 - And how's... How's like Vivs and stuff? 561 00:26:02,995 --> 00:26:04,127 - Good. - Yeah? 562 00:26:04,170 --> 00:26:06,172 - Good. Yeah. 563 00:26:06,216 --> 00:26:09,262 Yeah, it's, um, I mean, you know, 564 00:26:10,046 --> 00:26:11,134 we're just working out, 565 00:26:11,177 --> 00:26:14,006 but, um, this kid is fucking great. 566 00:26:14,050 --> 00:26:14,964 [CHUCKLES] 567 00:26:15,007 --> 00:26:16,400 - Yeah? 568 00:26:16,443 --> 00:26:18,358 - He's got... He's got the gear on and he's, uh... 569 00:26:18,402 --> 00:26:20,752 - Oh, have you been showing him like audio recording stuff? 570 00:26:20,796 --> 00:26:23,625 JOHNNY: Have you been to New York? 571 00:26:24,887 --> 00:26:26,323 - No. 572 00:26:26,366 --> 00:26:28,368 - Never been to New York? 573 00:26:28,412 --> 00:26:30,762 - Never ever been to New York. 574 00:26:30,806 --> 00:26:35,158 - You don't think all the, like, sunshine and sand, 575 00:26:35,201 --> 00:26:38,640 and bodies is kinda boring? 576 00:26:41,817 --> 00:26:43,688 - No. 577 00:26:43,732 --> 00:26:45,211 - Oh, man. 578 00:26:46,952 --> 00:26:48,388 You know, you should come with me. 579 00:26:49,781 --> 00:26:51,565 - What? 580 00:26:51,609 --> 00:26:53,219 - Yeah, come with me to New York. 581 00:26:54,960 --> 00:26:57,571 - Like... Like, right now? 582 00:26:57,615 --> 00:26:59,182 - Well, not right now, but, yeah, 583 00:26:59,225 --> 00:27:00,574 I have to go this weekend 584 00:27:00,618 --> 00:27:02,664 to do interviews and stuff, and you can help me. 585 00:27:04,274 --> 00:27:08,408 You know, record sound 586 00:27:08,452 --> 00:27:10,236 and maybe I can, 587 00:27:10,280 --> 00:27:11,368 like, weave that into the show. 588 00:27:11,411 --> 00:27:12,891 I think it'd be fun. 589 00:27:13,762 --> 00:27:15,589 - I'd love that. 590 00:27:18,897 --> 00:27:21,334 [UPBEAT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING] 591 00:27:32,084 --> 00:27:34,478 [JOHNNY BABBLING] 592 00:27:40,745 --> 00:27:42,399 [LAUGHING] 593 00:27:46,055 --> 00:27:47,099 - Hi! 594 00:27:47,752 --> 00:27:49,145 Come here. 595 00:27:51,538 --> 00:27:53,018 Paul? 596 00:27:55,412 --> 00:27:57,196 Paul? 597 00:27:58,720 --> 00:28:00,417 VIV: [ON PHONE] Uh, so Paul is gone. 598 00:28:00,460 --> 00:28:01,984 Paul? 599 00:28:02,027 --> 00:28:03,681 Uh, he doesn't answer his phone, 600 00:28:03,725 --> 00:28:04,943 I don't know where he went. 601 00:28:04,987 --> 00:28:06,336 - Uh, does he even want help? 602 00:28:06,379 --> 00:28:08,164 I feel like he just... 603 00:28:08,207 --> 00:28:10,209 He just wants you back taking care of him. 604 00:28:10,253 --> 00:28:12,037 - Oh, God. Oh, please, don't... Don't start. 605 00:28:12,081 --> 00:28:14,474 I can't do this with you right now. 606 00:28:14,518 --> 00:28:16,128 - Just hear me out for a second. I know you're stressed out, 607 00:28:16,172 --> 00:28:17,869 but just hear me out for a second. 608 00:28:17,913 --> 00:28:21,481 What if Jesse came with me to New York? 609 00:28:21,525 --> 00:28:24,267 He said that he wanted to and I think that, um... 610 00:28:24,310 --> 00:28:25,616 - What do mean, he said he wanted to? 611 00:28:25,659 --> 00:28:26,748 You already asked him? 612 00:28:28,097 --> 00:28:29,359 - No, we talked about New York... 613 00:28:29,402 --> 00:28:30,664 - Oh, God, you already asked him. 614 00:28:30,708 --> 00:28:31,622 - ...And he said he'd never been there. 615 00:28:31,665 --> 00:28:32,928 Calm down. 616 00:28:32,971 --> 00:28:34,494 - Johnny, you don't ask a nine-year-old kid 617 00:28:34,538 --> 00:28:36,758 if they want go to New York before you ask their mother! 618 00:28:36,801 --> 00:28:38,803 - Viv, I wanna help, I wanna help. 619 00:28:38,847 --> 00:28:40,370 - Jesus Christ! - Listen to me. 620 00:28:40,413 --> 00:28:42,459 I'm tryin' to help you and this is a way that I can help. 621 00:28:42,502 --> 00:28:43,939 - Well, that's not helpful. 622 00:28:44,591 --> 00:28:45,723 Uh... 623 00:28:46,506 --> 00:28:48,117 I'll call somebody else. 624 00:28:48,160 --> 00:28:49,771 I'll figure it out. 625 00:28:50,902 --> 00:28:53,426 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 626 00:28:53,470 --> 00:28:54,819 JOHNNY: And I sat on the wall 627 00:28:54,863 --> 00:28:56,952 waiting for him to come out of school, 628 00:28:56,995 --> 00:29:00,129 and then I heard all the kids coming out of school, 629 00:29:00,172 --> 00:29:03,523 running down the steps, talking loud, 630 00:29:03,567 --> 00:29:05,569 and then he came down.[CHUCKLES] 631 00:29:06,788 --> 00:29:08,485 And then, this stupid little voice 632 00:29:08,528 --> 00:29:11,270 with this cute little fucking hair and face, 633 00:29:11,314 --> 00:29:15,492 he was like, "Did you talk to Mom?" 634 00:29:15,535 --> 00:29:16,754 I said, "Yeah." 635 00:29:16,798 --> 00:29:18,669 "Well, what did she say?" 636 00:29:19,757 --> 00:29:20,932 "She loves you very much." 637 00:29:23,326 --> 00:29:25,110 'Cause I couldn't tell him. 638 00:29:27,896 --> 00:29:29,158 [CELL PHONE BUZZING] 639 00:29:33,118 --> 00:29:34,772 JOHNNY: [ON PHONE] Hey. 640 00:29:34,816 --> 00:29:36,252 - So listen, can you find somebody in New York 641 00:29:36,295 --> 00:29:38,558 to watch him when you're working? 642 00:29:38,602 --> 00:29:40,865 Is that a realistic plan that you could make happen? 643 00:29:40,909 --> 00:29:43,259 - Yes. - Yeah? 644 00:29:43,302 --> 00:29:45,478 - Yes. - Who would that person be? 645 00:29:47,393 --> 00:29:48,742 - I'll find someone. 646 00:29:48,786 --> 00:29:50,309 I'll figure it out, I promise. 647 00:29:52,703 --> 00:29:55,010 - Okay. Okay. 648 00:29:55,053 --> 00:29:56,359 I called Jesse's teacher, 649 00:29:56,402 --> 00:29:57,664 and said there's a family emergency, 650 00:29:57,708 --> 00:29:59,275 and I'll be out for about a week. 651 00:29:59,318 --> 00:30:00,842 I'll send you his assignments. 652 00:30:00,885 --> 00:30:02,191 - Don't worry. 653 00:30:02,234 --> 00:30:04,846 [VIV CHUCKLING] 654 00:30:06,412 --> 00:30:07,631 [CHUCKLING] 655 00:30:07,674 --> 00:30:09,546 VIV: Okay, okay. 656 00:30:09,589 --> 00:30:11,722 - Okay. - Okay. 657 00:30:20,644 --> 00:30:22,428 JOHNNY: "Motherhood is the place in our culture 658 00:30:22,472 --> 00:30:25,475 where we lodge, or rather bury, 659 00:30:25,518 --> 00:30:28,173 the reality of our own conflicts, 660 00:30:28,217 --> 00:30:30,480 of what it means to be fully human." 661 00:30:31,960 --> 00:30:33,918 "It is the ultimate scapegoat for our personal 662 00:30:33,962 --> 00:30:35,920 and political failings, 663 00:30:35,964 --> 00:30:38,401 for everything that is wrong with the world, 664 00:30:38,444 --> 00:30:42,492 which it becomes the task, unrealizable of course, 665 00:30:42,535 --> 00:30:43,797 of mothers to repair." 666 00:30:43,841 --> 00:30:45,712 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 667 00:30:45,756 --> 00:30:47,889 "What are we doin' to mothers when we expect them 668 00:30:47,932 --> 00:30:50,195 to carry the burden of everything 669 00:30:50,239 --> 00:30:52,415 that is hardest to contemplate about our society 670 00:30:52,458 --> 00:30:54,678 and ourselves. 671 00:30:54,721 --> 00:30:56,375 Mothers cannot help, but be in touch 672 00:30:56,419 --> 00:30:57,986 with the most difficult aspects 673 00:30:58,029 --> 00:31:00,249 of any fully-lived life." 674 00:31:00,292 --> 00:31:01,424 [MUSIC ENDS] 675 00:31:01,467 --> 00:31:02,947 "Why on earth should it fall to them 676 00:31:02,991 --> 00:31:06,037 to paint things bright, and innocent, and safe" 677 00:31:10,259 --> 00:31:11,608 SINGER: It's gonna rock you dead, 678 00:31:11,651 --> 00:31:13,001 come upside your head. You get ready? 679 00:31:13,044 --> 00:31:14,480 You said, here we go. Yay, all right, come on. 680 00:31:14,524 --> 00:31:16,918 Come on. Come on, let's go. 681 00:31:16,961 --> 00:31:18,571 Yeah. 682 00:31:18,615 --> 00:31:20,051 ♪ 683 00:31:20,095 --> 00:31:21,792 All right, everybody, get down on your basement. 684 00:31:21,835 --> 00:31:25,361 Get ready, yeah, okay. 685 00:31:25,404 --> 00:31:27,711 ♪ Hey, put your hands up ♪ 686 00:31:27,754 --> 00:31:28,755 ♪ Upside your knees ♪ 687 00:31:28,799 --> 00:31:30,844 ♪ Now do the ostrich ♪ 688 00:31:30,888 --> 00:31:31,976 ♪ Do the ostrich 689 00:31:32,020 --> 00:31:32,977 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 690 00:31:33,021 --> 00:31:34,631 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 691 00:31:34,674 --> 00:31:36,676 ♪ Hey, take this forward and step on your head ♪ 692 00:31:36,720 --> 00:31:38,591 ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ 693 00:31:38,635 --> 00:31:40,289 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ ♪ All right ♪ 694 00:31:40,332 --> 00:31:42,639 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ ♪ Here, we go, oh, whoa! ♪ 695 00:31:42,682 --> 00:31:43,901 ♪ Whoa ♪ ♪ Whoa ♪ 696 00:31:44,728 --> 00:31:45,772 ♪ Whoa ♪ ♪ Whoa ♪ 697 00:31:45,816 --> 00:31:46,730 ♪ Whoa ♪ ♪ All right ♪ 698 00:31:46,773 --> 00:31:49,167 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 699 00:31:49,211 --> 00:31:52,344 ♪ You take a step forward then you turn to the right ♪ 700 00:31:52,388 --> 00:31:54,346 ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ 701 00:31:54,390 --> 00:31:55,913 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 702 00:31:55,957 --> 00:31:57,001 ♪ Oh, oh, whoa, whoa, yeah, yeah ♪ 703 00:31:57,045 --> 00:31:58,002 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 704 00:31:58,046 --> 00:31:59,351 ♪ You turn to left ♪ 705 00:31:59,395 --> 00:32:00,265 ♪ And then you feet upside your left ♪ 706 00:32:00,309 --> 00:32:01,745 ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ 707 00:32:01,788 --> 00:32:02,833 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 708 00:32:02,876 --> 00:32:04,008 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 709 00:32:04,052 --> 00:32:04,922 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 710 00:32:04,966 --> 00:32:06,097 ♪ Now, you go, whoa... ♪ 711 00:32:06,141 --> 00:32:09,405 [TRAIN RUMBLING] 712 00:32:12,538 --> 00:32:14,105 - It's so long. 713 00:32:18,588 --> 00:32:19,458 - Do you like it here? 714 00:32:21,199 --> 00:32:22,984 - What? 715 00:32:23,027 --> 00:32:24,898 - Do you like it here in New York? 716 00:32:26,596 --> 00:32:27,945 - Yeah. 717 00:32:28,946 --> 00:32:30,078 - What do you like better? 718 00:32:30,121 --> 00:32:31,644 Recording here or at the beach? 719 00:32:32,732 --> 00:32:33,951 - Here. 720 00:32:35,300 --> 00:32:37,694 But I like the... I like the skaters. 721 00:32:37,737 --> 00:32:39,217 - You like the skaters? 722 00:32:40,262 --> 00:32:42,264 Yeah. 723 00:32:42,307 --> 00:32:44,744 Yeah, you know, what I love about recording? 724 00:32:44,788 --> 00:32:46,355 What I love about recording? 725 00:32:48,618 --> 00:32:49,662 You can hear me? 726 00:32:49,706 --> 00:32:50,881 - Yep. 727 00:32:50,924 --> 00:32:52,709 - Oh, whatever, I'm so... - No, no, no, no! 728 00:32:52,752 --> 00:32:54,319 No, no. 729 00:32:54,363 --> 00:32:55,364 - [CHUCKLES] No, just... - Oh, okay, okay. 730 00:32:55,407 --> 00:32:56,669 And in a way it's cool, 731 00:32:56,713 --> 00:32:58,106 because you get to keep these sounds, right? 732 00:32:58,149 --> 00:32:59,194 You keep it forever. 733 00:32:59,237 --> 00:33:00,543 You make like this mundane thing, 734 00:33:00,586 --> 00:33:05,069 like be immortal, and that's cool and fun. 735 00:33:05,765 --> 00:33:07,419 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 736 00:33:23,305 --> 00:33:24,828 - Hey. 737 00:33:24,871 --> 00:33:26,177 FERN: Hey. What's up? JESSE: Hello. 738 00:33:26,221 --> 00:33:27,396 FERN: Nice to meet you. JOHNNY: This is Jesse. 739 00:33:27,439 --> 00:33:29,050 FERN: Jesse, this is Fern. JESSE: Hello. 740 00:33:29,093 --> 00:33:30,573 JOHNNY: This is the sweetest man in New York. 741 00:33:30,616 --> 00:33:32,227 He's gonna help take care of you while I'm workin'. 742 00:33:34,925 --> 00:33:36,579 FERN: Also notice how Johnny just like lights up? 743 00:33:36,622 --> 00:33:37,928 - I know. 744 00:33:37,971 --> 00:33:39,451 He is like a... like a mini Johnny. 745 00:33:39,495 --> 00:33:40,452 - Right. 746 00:33:40,496 --> 00:33:42,280 [BOTH CHUCKLE] 747 00:33:42,324 --> 00:33:44,500 With the... with the... With the little hoods... 748 00:33:44,543 --> 00:33:45,675 - Yeah, the little hoods. 749 00:33:45,718 --> 00:33:47,633 - And the flopsy hair. What? Yeah. 750 00:33:47,677 --> 00:33:48,939 - Just hangin' out. 751 00:33:48,982 --> 00:33:50,810 - Uh-huh. 752 00:33:50,854 --> 00:33:52,203 - You know, we're gonna hold off till we eat more. 753 00:33:52,247 --> 00:33:53,335 [FERN CHUCKLES] 754 00:33:53,378 --> 00:33:54,336 We're gonna hold off till we eat more. 755 00:33:54,379 --> 00:33:55,337 ROXANNE: I'm sorry. 756 00:33:55,380 --> 00:33:56,425 [ROXANNE AND FERN LAUGHING] 757 00:33:56,468 --> 00:33:57,774 [CHUCKLES MOCKINGLY] 758 00:33:57,817 --> 00:33:58,905 We're gonna hold off till we eat more. 759 00:33:58,949 --> 00:34:00,907 It's right here. 760 00:34:00,951 --> 00:34:02,126 ROXANNE: Mm-hmm. 761 00:34:02,170 --> 00:34:03,214 So if you eat this, 'cause it's melting, 762 00:34:03,258 --> 00:34:05,129 if you eat this as quick as you can, 763 00:34:05,173 --> 00:34:07,653 not too fast, but just get so many... A few more bites 764 00:34:07,697 --> 00:34:08,915 and you can have the ice cream. 765 00:34:08,959 --> 00:34:11,004 [MOUTHING] 766 00:34:11,048 --> 00:34:14,095 [REGGAE MUSIC PLAYING ON SPEAKERS] 767 00:34:14,834 --> 00:34:15,835 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 768 00:34:15,879 --> 00:34:16,880 [FERN CHUCKLING] 769 00:34:16,923 --> 00:34:17,968 ROXANNE: Go for it. You did it. 770 00:34:18,011 --> 00:34:19,448 Enough. Enough. 771 00:34:19,491 --> 00:34:20,231 ROXANNE: Craziest thing you've seen on the internet. 772 00:34:20,275 --> 00:34:21,276 JESSE: Okay. 773 00:34:21,319 --> 00:34:22,320 ROXANNE: Go. 774 00:34:22,364 --> 00:34:24,148 - So I... I like conspiracies. 775 00:34:24,192 --> 00:34:25,671 FERN: Perfect. Great. 776 00:34:25,715 --> 00:34:27,108 FERN: Tell us... 777 00:34:27,151 --> 00:34:28,500 - Uh, let's eat... Just a little bit of broccoli 778 00:34:28,544 --> 00:34:30,154 and then talk about... 779 00:34:30,198 --> 00:34:31,503 JESSE: Okay, a little bit of broccoli and then we can talk? 780 00:34:31,547 --> 00:34:33,070 - ...then you can talk about conspiracies. 781 00:34:33,114 --> 00:34:35,377 - Yeah, the government got, like, a colony of ants. 782 00:34:35,420 --> 00:34:36,291 This is how I think it happened. 783 00:34:36,334 --> 00:34:37,509 FERN: Okay. 784 00:34:37,553 --> 00:34:39,163 - And like in the rock 785 00:34:39,207 --> 00:34:40,425 and they place it inside a dead person. 786 00:34:40,469 --> 00:34:41,470 ROXANNE: Okay. 787 00:34:41,513 --> 00:34:42,906 - And they made him alive 788 00:34:42,949 --> 00:34:45,126 and he has a plan... planets of ants inside of him. 789 00:34:45,169 --> 00:34:46,127 [GIGGLES] 790 00:34:46,170 --> 00:34:47,171 [FERN CHUCKLING] 791 00:34:47,215 --> 00:34:49,173 - Oh, this is scary stuff. 792 00:34:49,217 --> 00:34:50,174 - Do, um... Uh, I know one. 793 00:34:50,218 --> 00:34:51,871 Oh, I'll show you SCP. 794 00:34:51,915 --> 00:34:52,829 FERN: Yeah. No screen time. 795 00:34:52,872 --> 00:34:53,960 - Do SCP 1. 796 00:34:54,004 --> 00:34:55,397 - Not screen time right now, come on. 797 00:34:55,440 --> 00:34:56,702 - One of them, it was a big thing that they found 798 00:34:56,746 --> 00:34:59,096 in like a forest 799 00:34:59,140 --> 00:35:01,707 and they took the face off of it. 800 00:35:01,751 --> 00:35:03,013 ROXANNE: Wait, like... 801 00:35:03,056 --> 00:35:05,189 - And injected it with a bunch of injections 802 00:35:05,233 --> 00:35:06,321 to make it powerful. 803 00:35:06,364 --> 00:35:07,844 FERN: Whoa. 804 00:35:07,887 --> 00:35:08,801 JESSE: It was meant to be like a government weapon... 805 00:35:08,845 --> 00:35:09,846 [FERN CHUCKLING] 806 00:35:09,889 --> 00:35:11,891 ...they were gonna use. 807 00:35:11,935 --> 00:35:13,806 ROXANNE: Do you... Do all your friends act like you? 808 00:35:13,850 --> 00:35:18,202 JESSE: And that would be a big no. 809 00:35:18,246 --> 00:35:19,986 JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 810 00:35:20,030 --> 00:35:22,075 JESSE: What up, Sunny Spa E Broadway? 811 00:35:23,816 --> 00:35:25,340 I don't know what that says. 812 00:35:25,383 --> 00:35:26,863 JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 813 00:35:26,906 --> 00:35:28,169 JESSE: Whoa! Come on. Hey. Hey, what's goin' on? 814 00:35:28,212 --> 00:35:29,213 - Oh. 815 00:35:31,824 --> 00:35:32,956 JOHNNY: Made it back. 816 00:35:34,131 --> 00:35:35,263 And I was tired. 817 00:35:36,351 --> 00:35:37,917 so tired, 818 00:35:39,092 --> 00:35:40,616 but he wasn't. 819 00:35:41,356 --> 00:35:42,531 So do you have your toothbrush, 820 00:35:42,574 --> 00:35:43,445 'cause I don't see it. 821 00:35:43,488 --> 00:35:44,663 - No. 822 00:35:44,707 --> 00:35:46,056 - Come on, I... I told you to pack it. 823 00:35:46,099 --> 00:35:46,970 What? You didn't bring it? 824 00:35:47,013 --> 00:35:49,842 - Um, I didn't. 825 00:35:49,886 --> 00:35:52,323 Do you have trouble expressing your emotion? 826 00:35:52,367 --> 00:35:55,239 - Well, I'm feeling pretty frustrated right now. 827 00:35:55,283 --> 00:35:56,501 - That's good. 828 00:35:56,545 --> 00:35:59,287 Just sit down, you can let it all come out. 829 00:36:26,314 --> 00:36:27,576 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 830 00:36:27,619 --> 00:36:28,533 [JOHNNY GRUNTS] 831 00:36:28,577 --> 00:36:29,926 - Hey, you okay? 832 00:36:29,969 --> 00:36:32,711 - My friends don't talk like me, because... 833 00:36:32,755 --> 00:36:33,843 [JOHNNY GRUNTS] 834 00:36:33,886 --> 00:36:36,062 I don't really have friends. 835 00:36:36,106 --> 00:36:38,500 I mostly hang out with adults. 836 00:36:38,543 --> 00:36:40,023 [JESSE TALKING INDISTINCTLY] 837 00:36:40,066 --> 00:36:42,286 JOHNNY: No, Jesse, no. Back to bed. 838 00:36:42,330 --> 00:36:44,419 I did? I don't... I don't remember saying that. 839 00:36:44,462 --> 00:36:48,205 I took him to the couch, I laid him down, 840 00:36:48,249 --> 00:36:51,556 and I sat with him till he was asleep. 841 00:36:53,079 --> 00:36:57,562 I got up and slowly started walking back to my room. 842 00:36:57,606 --> 00:37:00,826 - Can't I just sleep with you tonight? 843 00:37:00,870 --> 00:37:03,873 Oh, why did you let me eat all that sugar? 844 00:37:03,916 --> 00:37:06,745 Mom would not let me eat that. 845 00:37:06,789 --> 00:37:11,315 - Oh, my God, you said that she would let you. 846 00:37:11,359 --> 00:37:16,755 - Can you tell me about Mom when she was a little girl? 847 00:37:18,279 --> 00:37:19,802 - I said, She was cute. 848 00:37:22,152 --> 00:37:23,284 He said... 849 00:37:23,327 --> 00:37:25,721 JESSE: I heard about her boyfriends, 850 00:37:25,764 --> 00:37:27,462 and she ran away, and she got in trouble 851 00:37:27,505 --> 00:37:30,116 all the time. 852 00:37:30,160 --> 00:37:33,206 And I heard that she got an abortion. 853 00:37:37,820 --> 00:37:40,736 -[WHISPERING] What the fuck do I say to that? 854 00:37:43,304 --> 00:37:45,436 I didn't even know about it. 855 00:37:46,307 --> 00:37:49,005 You know, a woman's body is, um, 856 00:37:51,181 --> 00:37:54,967 like a... [HESITATES] um, maybe every person. 857 00:37:55,011 --> 00:37:57,100 Like you have the right... 858 00:37:57,143 --> 00:37:58,754 [CLEARS THROAT] ...of your own body 859 00:37:58,797 --> 00:38:02,366 and a woman certainly has the right. 860 00:38:02,410 --> 00:38:03,976 It's like... it's called the right to choose. 861 00:38:05,717 --> 00:38:08,024 Okay, now fuck that. Um... 862 00:38:08,067 --> 00:38:10,722 - Let me tell you how my mom puts me to sleep. 863 00:38:12,115 --> 00:38:13,421 Now, lay down. 864 00:38:16,206 --> 00:38:18,208 - Okay. 865 00:38:18,251 --> 00:38:21,516 - Rest your feet, rest your legs. 866 00:38:24,040 --> 00:38:27,826 Rest your hands, rest your arms. 867 00:38:27,870 --> 00:38:29,262 - My mom would never do this. 868 00:38:31,003 --> 00:38:33,049 - [SOFTLY] Rest your eyes. 869 00:38:34,050 --> 00:38:35,181 Rest your mouth. 870 00:38:36,139 --> 00:38:37,532 Rest your jaw. 871 00:38:39,925 --> 00:38:41,274 Rest your mind. 872 00:38:43,015 --> 00:38:45,061 No more thoughts tonight. 873 00:38:45,104 --> 00:38:46,149 No worries. 874 00:38:47,977 --> 00:38:50,675 Just stars in the sky. 875 00:39:09,302 --> 00:39:12,001 JOHNNY: So what? Does he have something that it... 876 00:39:12,044 --> 00:39:13,350 Is it a sleeping problem? 877 00:39:13,394 --> 00:39:14,743 VIV: [ON PHONE] Listen, he's probably 878 00:39:14,786 --> 00:39:16,571 just over stimulated. Did you give him sugar? 879 00:39:16,614 --> 00:39:18,399 Did you let him watch shit on your computer? 880 00:39:18,442 --> 00:39:20,488 - No. 881 00:39:20,531 --> 00:39:22,359 - 'Cause that makes him crazy. 882 00:39:22,403 --> 00:39:25,667 - You're just, uh, used to this. 883 00:39:25,710 --> 00:39:27,016 JESSE: Like, why are there so many scratches? 884 00:39:27,059 --> 00:39:29,148 VIV: I'm not used to it. 885 00:39:29,192 --> 00:39:31,194 I fucking hate it sometimes. 886 00:39:31,237 --> 00:39:32,456 I mean, I love him more than I... 887 00:39:32,500 --> 00:39:35,546 I can even understand 888 00:39:35,590 --> 00:39:38,244 and that makes it even worse when I can 889 00:39:38,288 --> 00:39:42,074 barely stand to be in the same room with him, 890 00:39:42,118 --> 00:39:43,728 going on and on, talking, talking... 891 00:39:43,772 --> 00:39:45,208 - Another stick. 892 00:39:45,251 --> 00:39:46,514 - Relentlessly about nothing random nothingness, 893 00:39:46,557 --> 00:39:48,472 interrupting every thought I might have... 894 00:39:48,516 --> 00:39:49,647 - Kick, kick, kick, kick. 895 00:39:49,691 --> 00:39:50,996 - Oh, God, and I know. 896 00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:52,302 - From making him lunch and doing the dishes, 897 00:39:52,345 --> 00:39:53,608 from making lunch and then doing the dishes, 898 00:39:53,651 --> 00:39:54,913 from making dinner and then doing the dishes, 899 00:39:54,957 --> 00:39:56,045 from lunch, and then going grocery shopping, 900 00:39:56,088 --> 00:39:57,394 on, and on, and on, and on, he never stops. 901 00:39:57,438 --> 00:39:58,874 - Bees! 902 00:39:58,917 --> 00:40:00,092 - It's a fucking nightmare. 903 00:40:00,136 --> 00:40:01,703 - Yeah. [GRUNTS] 904 00:40:03,095 --> 00:40:04,401 [ON PHONE] Slow down! 905 00:40:04,445 --> 00:40:06,229 - Do you think I'm horrible now? 906 00:40:06,272 --> 00:40:09,232 - No, no, I have so much sympathy. 907 00:40:09,275 --> 00:40:12,844 [JOHNNY CHUCKLING] 908 00:40:12,888 --> 00:40:14,977 - Listen, you just have to get some protein into him, okay? 909 00:40:15,020 --> 00:40:18,110 You know, those disgusting little, uh, rolls, 910 00:40:18,154 --> 00:40:20,504 the salami and cheese things, just... He loves them. 911 00:40:23,725 --> 00:40:25,117 JESSE: Where are we going now? 912 00:40:26,205 --> 00:40:27,337 JOHNNY: I have to find you 913 00:40:27,380 --> 00:40:28,469 some disgusting salami and cheese rolls. 914 00:40:32,951 --> 00:40:36,564 ROXANNE: Historically, New York represents the future 915 00:40:36,607 --> 00:40:40,002 and possibility for so many immigrants. 916 00:40:40,045 --> 00:40:41,569 JOHNNY: We ask today's children of immigrants 917 00:40:41,612 --> 00:40:43,440 what they think about the future 918 00:40:43,484 --> 00:40:45,573 and the world they live in now. 919 00:40:45,616 --> 00:40:47,705 GIRL 1: I never thought that I would be this scared 920 00:40:47,749 --> 00:40:50,316 about like what might happen in the future, 921 00:40:50,360 --> 00:40:52,580 but then now, 922 00:40:52,623 --> 00:40:54,059 I'm starting to think about it, 923 00:40:54,103 --> 00:40:59,064 like, I can't... I can't... 924 00:40:59,108 --> 00:41:01,197 I just can't imagine animals going extinct, 925 00:41:01,240 --> 00:41:04,679 pollution, like, the Earth dying, basically. 926 00:41:06,419 --> 00:41:10,554 BOY 1: So my fears would be like loneliness 927 00:41:10,598 --> 00:41:12,164 and, like, you know, 928 00:41:12,208 --> 00:41:14,558 just like people not understanding you 929 00:41:14,602 --> 00:41:17,126 even though they're there to understand you 930 00:41:17,169 --> 00:41:18,214 and stuff like that. 931 00:41:18,257 --> 00:41:19,476 It's just really scary, 932 00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:21,783 'cause it feels like you have nobody. 933 00:41:21,826 --> 00:41:23,306 BOY 2: My mom always tells me like, 934 00:41:23,349 --> 00:41:26,048 I hate kids that cry. 935 00:41:26,091 --> 00:41:27,876 There was one time I told her, Oh, my gosh, I can... 936 00:41:27,919 --> 00:41:30,922 Like, I could cry, uh, 937 00:41:30,966 --> 00:41:33,838 like, it's like a human thing to do, and then she's like, 938 00:41:33,882 --> 00:41:39,061 No, you're supposed to be, uh, strong and stuff. 939 00:41:39,104 --> 00:41:43,500 So, yeah, I think that's what I hate the most. 940 00:41:43,544 --> 00:41:44,501 GIRL 2: When people end up saying, 941 00:41:44,545 --> 00:41:45,981 Oh, words don't hurt, 942 00:41:46,024 --> 00:41:49,158 it... like it gets to me so bad. 943 00:41:49,201 --> 00:41:51,377 People will just judge you without even knowing. 944 00:41:51,421 --> 00:41:53,554 It's like not even their fault that they don't know. 945 00:41:53,597 --> 00:41:55,947 They probably just wasn't raised like I am 946 00:41:55,991 --> 00:41:58,602 knowing how to treat people, how not to treat people. 947 00:41:58,646 --> 00:42:00,648 GIRL 3: I don't like when everyone's 948 00:42:00,691 --> 00:42:02,911 just in a stressed mindset 949 00:42:02,954 --> 00:42:05,087 and they're very closed into themselves. 950 00:42:05,130 --> 00:42:07,698 They just don't speak to each other 951 00:42:07,742 --> 00:42:09,265 and they're just like kind of hiding away 952 00:42:09,308 --> 00:42:10,962 from like real life. 953 00:42:11,006 --> 00:42:12,355 BOY 2: I feel like people 954 00:42:12,398 --> 00:42:13,704 who try to express their emotions, 955 00:42:13,748 --> 00:42:15,619 like they... they would get a lot of hate. 956 00:42:15,663 --> 00:42:18,666 It happened like more in the 20th century. 957 00:42:18,709 --> 00:42:22,278 So instead of letting them be them, 958 00:42:22,321 --> 00:42:25,803 they wanted to oppose them in like bad horrible ways. 959 00:42:25,847 --> 00:42:29,764 But I feel like now you could speak your feelings easier, 960 00:42:29,807 --> 00:42:32,114 but not easily. 961 00:42:34,682 --> 00:42:39,600 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 962 00:42:46,737 --> 00:42:48,173 [JESSE HUMMING] 963 00:42:48,217 --> 00:42:49,958 Oh, sorry. 964 00:42:50,001 --> 00:42:51,916 [JESSE CONTINUES HUMMING] 965 00:42:54,092 --> 00:42:55,267 [IN SING-SONG VOICE] Texting. Texting. 966 00:42:55,311 --> 00:42:56,225 - Ha, ha, ha. - I am tex... 967 00:42:58,967 --> 00:43:00,577 - Oh, what... what are you doing? 968 00:43:00,621 --> 00:43:02,579 Uh, hey, who are you mimicking here 969 00:43:02,623 --> 00:43:04,407 with that fancy texting you're doing? 970 00:43:04,450 --> 00:43:06,061 - You're doing fancy texting. 971 00:43:06,104 --> 00:43:07,628 - But I'm actually texting something. 972 00:43:07,671 --> 00:43:09,499 -No you're not. - Uh, here. 973 00:43:09,542 --> 00:43:10,848 - Health and beauty. 974 00:43:11,893 --> 00:43:13,068 - Oh, here it is. 975 00:43:15,766 --> 00:43:17,376 All right, grab one of those and I'll find toothpaste. 976 00:43:20,379 --> 00:43:22,817 - For some reason, they're not in the same aisle. 977 00:43:22,860 --> 00:43:25,863 [RECORDED VOICE SINGING] ♪ I am a toothbrush 978 00:43:25,907 --> 00:43:27,473 - Mm-mm, not... Not that one. 979 00:43:27,517 --> 00:43:28,779 That'll flip your mom out. 980 00:43:28,823 --> 00:43:31,695 ♪ I am your toothbrush 981 00:43:31,739 --> 00:43:32,783 You can't get that one. 982 00:43:32,827 --> 00:43:34,437 Come on, find which one you want. 983 00:43:34,480 --> 00:43:36,221 - Oh, she's not here, so... 984 00:43:36,265 --> 00:43:37,701 - Well, she's right. 985 00:43:37,745 --> 00:43:39,355 So... 986 00:43:39,398 --> 00:43:41,357 - Can I please have it? 987 00:43:41,400 --> 00:43:42,619 - Oh, come on, you... You don't need a song... 988 00:43:42,663 --> 00:43:43,707 - Please. 989 00:43:43,751 --> 00:43:44,969 - ...to brush your teeth to. 990 00:43:45,013 --> 00:43:46,188 The next thing you know, you're gonna need 991 00:43:46,231 --> 00:43:47,624 electronic stimuli for everything you do. 992 00:43:49,931 --> 00:43:52,585 You know, it's important to just live in it, you know? 993 00:43:52,629 --> 00:43:54,283 Peace and quiet. 994 00:43:54,326 --> 00:43:56,720 Your generation is completely lost. 995 00:44:00,071 --> 00:44:01,507 Mm... 996 00:44:04,293 --> 00:44:06,338 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 997 00:44:07,731 --> 00:44:09,385 Jesse? 998 00:44:14,738 --> 00:44:16,218 Hey, did you see a little kid running around here? 999 00:44:18,829 --> 00:44:20,439 Did you see a kid here? WOMAN: No. 1000 00:44:21,179 --> 00:44:22,224 - Jesse! 1001 00:44:22,703 --> 00:44:23,747 Jesse! 1002 00:44:23,791 --> 00:44:24,748 [SCREAMS AND CHUCKLES] 1003 00:44:24,792 --> 00:44:25,749 What are you doin'? 1004 00:44:25,793 --> 00:44:27,359 - You should see your face. 1005 00:44:27,403 --> 00:44:28,970 - Hey, you can't do that, you understand? 1006 00:44:29,013 --> 00:44:29,927 You can't do that to somebody. 1007 00:44:29,971 --> 00:44:31,059 - You're freakin' out. 1008 00:44:31,102 --> 00:44:32,103 - Stop it. - Stop it. 1009 00:44:32,147 --> 00:44:33,104 - You stop it. - You stop it. 1010 00:44:33,148 --> 00:44:34,105 - Stop! - Stop! 1011 00:44:34,149 --> 00:44:35,150 - Enough! - Enough! 1012 00:44:35,193 --> 00:44:36,891 - You stop now! - Get off! 1013 00:44:43,462 --> 00:44:46,030 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 1014 00:44:48,903 --> 00:44:50,426 JOHNNY: Sorry, it's so ridiculous. 1015 00:44:50,469 --> 00:44:51,993 Do you know I just... I just said, you know, 1016 00:44:52,036 --> 00:44:53,124 You can't have that toothbrush, 1017 00:44:53,168 --> 00:44:54,560 and I went around the corner 1018 00:44:54,604 --> 00:44:55,779 for a second to grab toothpaste, 1019 00:44:55,823 --> 00:44:57,215 and then he disappeared. 1020 00:44:57,259 --> 00:44:59,348 So I'm runnin' after him, tryin' to find him, 1021 00:44:59,391 --> 00:45:01,089 and he jumps out, scares me, 1022 00:45:01,132 --> 00:45:05,963 and, yeah, I... I got angry and I yelled at him. 1023 00:45:06,007 --> 00:45:07,182 I yelled at him. 1024 00:45:08,531 --> 00:45:10,794 - That's... It's... [CHUCKLES] 1025 00:45:10,838 --> 00:45:12,883 It's... [CHUCKLING] It's fucking awful. 1026 00:45:12,927 --> 00:45:14,319 I've done it. 1027 00:45:14,363 --> 00:45:16,626 I know that look in those little eyes, 1028 00:45:16,669 --> 00:45:18,236 it's the worst. 1029 00:45:19,368 --> 00:45:20,935 But it's okay also. 1030 00:45:20,978 --> 00:45:23,459 You know, you just have to explain to him 1031 00:45:23,502 --> 00:45:25,200 that you were scared, and that's why you yelled, 1032 00:45:25,243 --> 00:45:26,636 and then you apologize, you know? 1033 00:45:26,679 --> 00:45:30,031 He's... he's a person, you just be honest with him. 1034 00:45:30,074 --> 00:45:31,946 It's called doing a repair. 1035 00:45:31,989 --> 00:45:34,644 There's... There's scripts for it online. 1036 00:45:34,687 --> 00:45:36,951 - Okay, sounds... 1037 00:45:36,994 --> 00:45:38,126 - Let me... Let me... 1038 00:45:38,169 --> 00:45:39,083 - ...Sounds easy. 1039 00:45:39,127 --> 00:45:40,606 [VIV CHUCKLING] 1040 00:45:41,346 --> 00:45:42,826 - This is not... - Okay. 1041 00:45:42,870 --> 00:45:44,088 - This is not easy. 1042 00:45:44,132 --> 00:45:46,482 - No, I know. I know, it's not. Um, yeah. 1043 00:45:46,525 --> 00:45:47,744 - Let me talk to him and... - Okay. 1044 00:45:47,788 --> 00:45:49,006 - Now, I'll yell at him. 1045 00:45:49,050 --> 00:45:51,139 - All right, thank you for talking me down. 1046 00:45:51,182 --> 00:45:52,967 Now, hold on. 1047 00:45:53,881 --> 00:45:54,925 Hey, Jesse, it's your mom. 1048 00:45:56,884 --> 00:45:57,972 JESSE: Hello. 1049 00:45:58,015 --> 00:46:01,279 - Hi, sweetie. Hi. Are you okay? 1050 00:46:01,323 --> 00:46:02,846 - I'm okay. 1051 00:46:02,890 --> 00:46:05,066 I was just jokin' around, he didn't need to call you. 1052 00:46:06,589 --> 00:46:08,069 - I know. I know you were, 1053 00:46:08,112 --> 00:46:11,681 but you really scared him, Jesse, okay? 1054 00:46:11,724 --> 00:46:14,379 You can't do that. 1055 00:46:14,423 --> 00:46:16,860 - Mom, why are you taking his side? 1056 00:46:16,904 --> 00:46:18,775 - I'm not on his side. Sweetie, there are no sides, 1057 00:46:18,819 --> 00:46:21,647 but you have to listen to Johnny, okay? 1058 00:46:21,691 --> 00:46:23,475 You're staying at his house, he's taking care of you. 1059 00:46:25,216 --> 00:46:26,304 - Why? 1060 00:46:27,175 --> 00:46:28,567 Why is he taking care of me? 1061 00:46:29,568 --> 00:46:30,874 - Sweetie, come on. 1062 00:46:30,918 --> 00:46:32,658 Just be nice to Johnny. 1063 00:46:34,486 --> 00:46:36,662 [TOOTHBRUSH WHIRRING] 1064 00:46:36,706 --> 00:46:39,143 [OVER SPEAKER] ♪ I am a toothbrush ♪ 1065 00:46:39,187 --> 00:46:42,016 ♪ My name is funky brush 1066 00:46:42,059 --> 00:46:43,756 [SONG CONTINUES PLAYING] 1067 00:46:48,936 --> 00:46:51,939 [WHIRRING STOPS] 1068 00:46:51,982 --> 00:46:53,984 - I don't even know you. 1069 00:46:54,028 --> 00:46:55,551 Why my mom let me come with you? 1070 00:46:57,292 --> 00:46:58,902 - Hey, man, come on. 1071 00:47:00,512 --> 00:47:03,559 Jesse, you wanted to come. 1072 00:47:06,127 --> 00:47:09,478 - I didn't really have a choice. 1073 00:47:09,521 --> 00:47:11,175 [SIGHS] She's a horrible, horrible mom. 1074 00:47:13,525 --> 00:47:15,310 - I know you don't really feel that way. 1075 00:47:16,528 --> 00:47:19,531 - My feelings are inside me. 1076 00:47:20,881 --> 00:47:22,708 You don't know what they are. 1077 00:47:23,666 --> 00:47:25,973 - I think you're mad at me, 1078 00:47:26,016 --> 00:47:28,584 because I scared you and... 1079 00:47:28,627 --> 00:47:31,108 - No, she just does what she wants. 1080 00:47:31,152 --> 00:47:32,936 - No, that's not true, Jesse. 1081 00:47:32,980 --> 00:47:35,156 - You don't know what you're talkin' about. She does! 1082 00:47:35,199 --> 00:47:36,461 - Well, why do you think you're here? 1083 00:47:36,505 --> 00:47:37,680 Do you think that your mom 1084 00:47:37,723 --> 00:47:39,682 really wants to be away from you? 1085 00:47:39,725 --> 00:47:41,466 Really? 1086 00:47:41,510 --> 00:47:42,859 She's tryin' to help your dad. 1087 00:47:47,908 --> 00:47:49,387 - Well, why does he need help? 1088 00:47:53,348 --> 00:47:55,654 - He, um... 1089 00:47:59,702 --> 00:48:01,617 - What's wrong with him? 1090 00:48:02,270 --> 00:48:04,141 - He just... He... [STAMMERS] 1091 00:48:10,408 --> 00:48:12,541 Do you wanna call her? 1092 00:48:16,893 --> 00:48:18,721 - [TEARFULLY] I want my mom. 1093 00:48:21,245 --> 00:48:25,946 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 1094 00:48:28,513 --> 00:48:30,254 - Hey, I'm so sorry. 1095 00:48:30,298 --> 00:48:31,952 [JESSE SOBBING] 1096 00:48:31,995 --> 00:48:34,302 Hey, hey, Jesse. 1097 00:48:35,825 --> 00:48:37,392 Jesse. 1098 00:48:37,435 --> 00:48:40,134 [OPERA MUSIC CONTINUES] 1099 00:49:12,775 --> 00:49:14,037 JOHNNY: I thought I was helping, 1100 00:49:14,081 --> 00:49:16,387 and somehow it got away from me. 1101 00:49:16,431 --> 00:49:17,867 I don't know even how. 1102 00:49:17,910 --> 00:49:19,695 - What... What does he know? Did... Did he know? 1103 00:49:19,738 --> 00:49:20,783 Does he know everything? 1104 00:49:22,480 --> 00:49:24,308 - [SIGHS] Yeah, he knows. 1105 00:49:26,223 --> 00:49:28,486 Um, let me talk to him. 1106 00:49:29,052 --> 00:49:30,488 - Hey, Jesse. 1107 00:49:30,532 --> 00:49:31,837 JESSE: Just tell her I'm fine. 1108 00:49:31,881 --> 00:49:32,969 JOHNNY: Come on, just talk to her. 1109 00:49:33,013 --> 00:49:34,536 JESSE: She's impossible. 1110 00:49:34,579 --> 00:49:36,886 JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hold on, hold on, hold on. 1111 00:49:36,929 --> 00:49:38,540 Viv, you're... You're on speaker. 1112 00:49:40,542 --> 00:49:41,978 VIV: [ON SPEAKER] Jesse, honey, listen to me, 1113 00:49:42,022 --> 00:49:43,501 your dad's gonna be fine. 1114 00:49:44,546 --> 00:49:46,069 Okay? 1115 00:49:46,113 --> 00:49:47,505 - Is it like before? 1116 00:49:51,161 --> 00:49:52,728 - Yeah. 1117 00:49:52,771 --> 00:49:55,122 Yeah, it's like before, 1118 00:49:55,165 --> 00:49:58,212 but he's gonna be fine, okay? 1119 00:49:58,255 --> 00:50:00,649 And I didn't wanna worry you, but I messed up, okay? 1120 00:50:00,692 --> 00:50:02,433 I should have told you, I'm sorry. 1121 00:50:02,477 --> 00:50:04,044 - [VOICE SHAKING] Tell her I'm fine. 1122 00:50:05,393 --> 00:50:06,655 - Um... 1123 00:50:08,178 --> 00:50:10,659 Viv, I'm so sorry, uh... 1124 00:50:10,702 --> 00:50:12,791 - It's fine, it's fine. 1125 00:50:12,835 --> 00:50:14,576 Um, just tell him I love him and I miss him, okay? 1126 00:50:14,619 --> 00:50:15,490 [SNIFFLING] 1127 00:50:15,533 --> 00:50:16,752 - Okay. 1128 00:50:16,795 --> 00:50:18,188 I'm gonna go get him. 1129 00:50:21,670 --> 00:50:25,500 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 1130 00:50:42,647 --> 00:50:46,956 [MUSIC CONTINUES] 1131 00:51:07,237 --> 00:51:10,022 - What's your child like, you know, 1132 00:51:10,066 --> 00:51:11,676 fighting about washing his hair, 1133 00:51:11,720 --> 00:51:14,766 'cause I could do that anytime. 1134 00:51:17,856 --> 00:51:19,510 - You don't wanna talk? 1135 00:51:20,207 --> 00:51:21,730 - Mm, I am talking. 1136 00:51:23,123 --> 00:51:24,428 - Are you gonna be like normal? 1137 00:51:24,472 --> 00:51:26,387 - I am talking, like, you know, normal. 1138 00:51:26,430 --> 00:51:28,389 - Okay. 1139 00:51:30,086 --> 00:51:32,132 - We have to wash our own hair at the orphanage. 1140 00:51:35,222 --> 00:51:36,397 - Ooh, that's harsh. 1141 00:51:36,440 --> 00:51:37,528 - It is. 1142 00:51:37,572 --> 00:51:38,921 - Hmm, sorry about that. 1143 00:51:39,487 --> 00:51:41,228 - It is harsh. 1144 00:51:41,271 --> 00:51:43,708 Not even as a punishment, just, 1145 00:51:43,752 --> 00:51:45,580 Wash your hair, you dumb kids. 1146 00:51:46,798 --> 00:51:47,973 - Yeah. 1147 00:51:48,626 --> 00:51:49,888 What an awful place. 1148 00:51:50,411 --> 00:51:51,629 - Yeah. 1149 00:51:56,330 --> 00:51:58,419 - Okay. [INHALES] 1150 00:51:58,462 --> 00:52:02,205 Do you want to fight about washing your hair 1151 00:52:02,249 --> 00:52:05,687 and then I'll wash your hair? 1152 00:52:05,730 --> 00:52:08,864 All right, I think we have to wash your hair, young man. 1153 00:52:08,907 --> 00:52:11,214 - Why don't you wash your hair, old man? 1154 00:52:11,258 --> 00:52:12,476 [CLICKS TONGUE] - Well, you first. 1155 00:52:12,520 --> 00:52:14,739 - No, you first. 1156 00:52:14,783 --> 00:52:16,132 - I'm telling you right now, 1157 00:52:16,176 --> 00:52:18,134 you're gonna have to wash your hair. 1158 00:52:18,178 --> 00:52:19,440 - I'm telling you right now 1159 00:52:19,483 --> 00:52:21,442 you're gonna wash your hair, old man. 1160 00:52:21,485 --> 00:52:22,747 JOHNNY: Nice. Is that how I sound? 1161 00:52:22,791 --> 00:52:23,705 JESSE: Yeah. 1162 00:52:23,748 --> 00:52:24,923 - Ugh. 1163 00:52:24,967 --> 00:52:26,751 - You're like old Johnny, Johnny. 1164 00:52:26,795 --> 00:52:28,318 I'm Johnny. 1165 00:52:28,362 --> 00:52:30,407 -Yeah, well, that's the way to wash your hair, old man. 1166 00:52:30,451 --> 00:52:31,974 VIV: [ON PHONE] The Tin Woodman 1167 00:52:32,017 --> 00:52:34,368 gave a sigh of satisfaction and lowered his ax. 1168 00:52:34,411 --> 00:52:36,500 'This is a great comfort,' he said. 1169 00:52:36,544 --> 00:52:39,286 'I have been holding that ax in the air ever since I rusted 1170 00:52:39,329 --> 00:52:42,114 'and I'm glad to put it down at last. 1171 00:52:42,158 --> 00:52:43,986 'Now, if you will oil the joints of my legs, 1172 00:52:44,029 --> 00:52:46,249 'I shall be all right once more.' 1173 00:52:47,207 --> 00:52:48,251 So they oiled his legs 1174 00:52:48,295 --> 00:52:50,210 until he could move them freely, 1175 00:52:50,253 --> 00:52:52,647 and he thanked them again and again for his release. 1176 00:52:55,302 --> 00:52:56,781 Are you guys still there? 1177 00:52:56,825 --> 00:52:58,261 JESSE: Keep reading, Mama. 1178 00:52:58,957 --> 00:53:01,046 - Okay. [SMACKS LIPS] 1179 00:53:01,090 --> 00:53:02,178 I might have stood there always 1180 00:53:02,222 --> 00:53:04,224 if you had not come along, he said. 1181 00:53:04,267 --> 00:53:05,834 How did you happen to be here? 1182 00:53:05,877 --> 00:53:07,314 We are on our way to the Emerald City 1183 00:53:07,357 --> 00:53:09,620 to see the great Oz, she answered. 1184 00:53:18,629 --> 00:53:21,241 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 1185 00:53:21,284 --> 00:53:23,112 - So does he just like walk in to a room 1186 00:53:23,155 --> 00:53:25,027 and pretend to be an orphan? 1187 00:53:25,070 --> 00:53:25,984 - There's different scenarios. 1188 00:53:26,028 --> 00:53:27,029 ROXANNE: Okay. 1189 00:53:27,072 --> 00:53:27,986 - It's... It's... Listen... 1190 00:53:28,030 --> 00:53:29,336 - [CHUCKLES] Okay. 1191 00:53:29,379 --> 00:53:30,598 - You don't wanna get into that, I promise you. 1192 00:53:30,641 --> 00:53:32,034 Okay. All right, I'll leave that between you. 1193 00:53:32,077 --> 00:53:33,296 - I'm trying like to figure out how to talk to him 1194 00:53:33,340 --> 00:53:34,689 and so I'll try to play along... 1195 00:53:34,732 --> 00:53:36,473 - Yeah. - In an indirect way 1196 00:53:36,517 --> 00:53:38,083 and like, this is ridiculous. He wants to say something. 1197 00:53:38,127 --> 00:53:41,173 I have to be open and so I say, 1198 00:53:41,217 --> 00:53:42,697 Hey, man, I know 1199 00:53:42,740 --> 00:53:44,307 you wanna talk about something? 1200 00:53:44,351 --> 00:53:45,569 - Yeah. 1201 00:53:45,613 --> 00:53:47,310 - And... Yeah, and I look at him like this, 1202 00:53:47,354 --> 00:53:48,485 like real earnest. 1203 00:53:48,529 --> 00:53:49,921 - Yeah, sincere. 1204 00:53:49,965 --> 00:53:51,749 And then, he just is like dismissive, 1205 00:53:51,793 --> 00:53:53,751 and makes me feel stupid, and then I feel crushed... 1206 00:53:53,795 --> 00:53:54,665 [CHUCKLES] 1207 00:53:54,709 --> 00:53:56,363 And... And... 1208 00:53:56,406 --> 00:53:57,668 [CHUCKLES] And... I know it's funny now, 1209 00:53:57,712 --> 00:53:59,888 but when it happens, it's... It's frustrating. 1210 00:53:59,931 --> 00:54:03,370 - Yeah. He seems like he's doing good. 1211 00:54:03,413 --> 00:54:05,067 - He is, but he should be holding the mic 1212 00:54:05,110 --> 00:54:07,112 if he wants to get that, you hold the mic up. 1213 00:54:07,156 --> 00:54:08,113 - No, he's gotta find his own way! 1214 00:54:08,157 --> 00:54:09,201 - Yes. 1215 00:54:09,245 --> 00:54:10,159 - That's how we all did. 1216 00:54:10,202 --> 00:54:15,425 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 1217 00:54:16,208 --> 00:54:17,819 JOHNNY: Let's say somebody your age 1218 00:54:17,862 --> 00:54:19,342 that was coming from another... 1219 00:54:19,386 --> 00:54:20,952 AnoBOY: Yeah.y... 1220 00:54:20,996 --> 00:54:23,781 What would you tell them about the US? 1221 00:54:23,825 --> 00:54:26,218 TEENAGER: You come here and you'll see a lot of bad, 1222 00:54:26,262 --> 00:54:29,178 but it's beautiful. 1223 00:54:29,221 --> 00:54:31,006 Even though there could be like problems here and there, 1224 00:54:31,049 --> 00:54:32,747 you know, 1225 00:54:32,790 --> 00:54:34,966 you see all these good people who just have kind hearts 1226 00:54:35,010 --> 00:54:38,143 and, you know, and they don't even know you. 1227 00:54:39,449 --> 00:54:42,191 There's been a lot of issues with my dad. 1228 00:54:42,234 --> 00:54:44,019 He's in jail right now, 1229 00:54:44,062 --> 00:54:47,805 so everything is, like, crazy, you know? 1230 00:54:47,849 --> 00:54:50,330 My little sister, she didn't, like, really see 1231 00:54:50,373 --> 00:54:51,896 what was actually going on. 1232 00:54:51,940 --> 00:54:55,465 The stuff that I went through, I don't want her 1233 00:54:55,509 --> 00:54:57,467 to know any of that or just be, 1234 00:54:57,511 --> 00:54:59,817 like, have to think about that. 1235 00:54:59,861 --> 00:55:02,124 You have a lot of responsibilities in your life, 1236 00:55:02,167 --> 00:55:05,257 and sometimes they just come to you, 1237 00:55:05,301 --> 00:55:07,738 and you can't really do anything about them. 1238 00:55:07,782 --> 00:55:09,305 They're just there. 1239 00:55:09,349 --> 00:55:10,828 I feel like a responsibility 1240 00:55:10,872 --> 00:55:12,874 to like that I'm proud to take, 1241 00:55:12,917 --> 00:55:16,138 because I love her a lot, 1242 00:55:16,181 --> 00:55:17,879 and basically, it wouldn't matter to me 1243 00:55:17,922 --> 00:55:20,360 if she sees me as a father or a brother. 1244 00:55:22,274 --> 00:55:25,234 Yeah, that's pretty much it. [CHUCKLES] 1245 00:55:25,277 --> 00:55:26,844 - You're a good man. 1246 00:55:28,629 --> 00:55:31,588 How... How often do you... do you get to visit your dad? 1247 00:55:31,632 --> 00:55:33,111 TEENAGER: [OVER TAPE] Always. 1248 00:55:33,155 --> 00:55:35,984 Yeah, I feel like that's one of my like motivations 1249 00:55:36,027 --> 00:55:37,333 to just think about the future. 1250 00:55:37,377 --> 00:55:38,943 Everything that could happen... 1251 00:55:38,987 --> 00:55:42,991 JOHNNY: I ask for trust, cooperation, and permission 1252 00:55:43,034 --> 00:55:44,296 without knowing where the experience 1253 00:55:44,340 --> 00:55:46,255 will lead the subject. 1254 00:55:46,298 --> 00:55:50,912 I can and will leave a place, a situation, a problem, 1255 00:55:50,955 --> 00:55:53,305 but the people I interview cannot. 1256 00:55:54,655 --> 00:55:55,960 The work offers the interviewer 1257 00:55:56,004 --> 00:55:57,832 access and a reason 1258 00:55:57,875 --> 00:56:00,400 to stay in a world that's not my own, 1259 00:56:00,443 --> 00:56:03,359 complete distraction from my own life, 1260 00:56:03,403 --> 00:56:07,145 a sense of invincibility, a sense of invisibility. 1261 00:56:08,538 --> 00:56:11,193 I traffic in hope without the ability to know 1262 00:56:11,236 --> 00:56:12,629 what will happen in the future. 1263 00:56:14,326 --> 00:56:16,546 The work offers the subjects a chance to speak 1264 00:56:16,590 --> 00:56:18,853 of things they have never spoken of, 1265 00:56:18,896 --> 00:56:21,508 a chance to see themselves as subjects 1266 00:56:21,551 --> 00:56:23,553 worthy of time and attention. 1267 00:56:25,207 --> 00:56:27,470 The work offers the subjects 1268 00:56:27,514 --> 00:56:30,255 the creation of an image of self, 1269 00:56:30,299 --> 00:56:33,520 the distribution of which they cannot control 1270 00:56:33,563 --> 00:56:37,088 on a global scale, in perpetuity. 1271 00:56:38,742 --> 00:56:39,656 - ...you know, there's, like, 1272 00:56:39,700 --> 00:56:40,831 a lot of Chinese people actually, 1273 00:56:40,875 --> 00:56:42,703 so it's not, like, hard to communicate. 1274 00:56:42,746 --> 00:56:45,183 Sometimes in other places, I'm actually... 1275 00:56:45,227 --> 00:56:47,011 [CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY] 1276 00:56:51,102 --> 00:56:52,364 VIV: [ON PHONE] You let Johnny interview you yet? 1277 00:56:52,408 --> 00:56:53,583 JESSE: [ON PHONE] Oh, God, no. 1278 00:56:53,627 --> 00:56:55,324 VIV: That seems like a smart move. 1279 00:56:55,367 --> 00:56:57,631 Too many questions with that guy, right? 1280 00:56:57,674 --> 00:56:59,023 Not enough answers. 1281 00:57:00,285 --> 00:57:02,331 Oh, I miss you so much, babe. 1282 00:57:02,374 --> 00:57:03,724 - I miss you, too, Mama. 1283 00:57:05,203 --> 00:57:06,335 JOHNNY: Excuse me, please. 1284 00:57:07,641 --> 00:57:08,990 Thank you. 1285 00:57:09,033 --> 00:57:12,210 - We've been goin' around the country asking kids 1286 00:57:12,254 --> 00:57:14,038 what they think the future would be like. 1287 00:57:14,909 --> 00:57:16,040 - Uh-huh. 1288 00:57:16,780 --> 00:57:18,347 - Um... 1289 00:57:18,390 --> 00:57:20,349 If there's anything you don't wanna answer, 1290 00:57:21,655 --> 00:57:26,790 you can just say skip or no, 1291 00:57:26,834 --> 00:57:30,838 or I do not want to do this question. 1292 00:57:30,881 --> 00:57:32,317 - Okay. 1293 00:57:35,582 --> 00:57:40,325 - Why don't you and my mom act like brother and sister? 1294 00:57:41,283 --> 00:57:42,284 - This one? 1295 00:57:42,327 --> 00:57:43,677 - Yep. 1296 00:57:49,421 --> 00:57:51,772 Why are you alone? 1297 00:57:53,556 --> 00:57:56,211 [CHUCKLES] 1298 00:57:56,254 --> 00:57:58,605 - I mean, who cares? Blah, blah, blah. 1299 00:57:58,648 --> 00:58:01,564 The same... [GIBBERING] 1300 00:58:01,608 --> 00:58:04,480 [BOTH GIBBERING] 1301 00:58:04,524 --> 00:58:06,569 Yeah, exactly, who cares? 1302 00:58:10,138 --> 00:58:12,793 - Did you tell my mom to leave my dad when he first got sick? 1303 00:58:18,015 --> 00:58:19,582 Did you? 1304 00:58:23,673 --> 00:58:25,196 - I told her to take care of herself. 1305 00:58:28,112 --> 00:58:30,419 - Blah, blah, blah. 1306 00:58:30,462 --> 00:58:32,508 - No, it's not blah, blah, blah. - It is. 1307 00:58:32,552 --> 00:58:33,465 - No, it's not. 1308 00:58:34,641 --> 00:58:35,990 - It is. 1309 00:58:36,033 --> 00:58:37,078 - Okay... 1310 00:58:37,121 --> 00:58:38,122 - Means you did it. 1311 00:58:38,166 --> 00:58:39,602 - There were many things 1312 00:58:39,646 --> 00:58:41,169 that were done, and everybody said a lot of things, 1313 00:58:41,212 --> 00:58:42,605 and there was a lot of concern, 1314 00:58:42,649 --> 00:58:45,086 and sometimes we don't completely understand 1315 00:58:45,129 --> 00:58:47,305 why we're doing the things that we're doing, right? 1316 00:58:47,349 --> 00:58:49,177 But I never did anything 1317 00:58:49,220 --> 00:58:51,005 because I wanted to hurt your mom 1318 00:58:51,048 --> 00:58:53,529 or hurt your dad or hurt you. 1319 00:58:53,573 --> 00:58:56,401 I only wanted everything to be okay. 1320 00:58:59,491 --> 00:59:02,799 - Oh, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 1321 00:59:04,018 --> 00:59:05,236 [SIGHS] 1322 00:59:05,280 --> 00:59:08,805 - Hmm. 1323 00:59:08,849 --> 00:59:12,766 Maybe... Maybe it is blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 1324 00:59:12,809 --> 00:59:14,158 - Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 1325 00:59:14,202 --> 00:59:15,595 - Exactly. 1326 00:59:17,205 --> 00:59:19,120 [SIREN WAILS] 1327 00:59:19,163 --> 00:59:22,863 [ROCK MUSIC PLAYING] 1328 00:59:22,906 --> 00:59:31,698 ♪ 1329 00:59:37,617 --> 00:59:42,709 - Coming from somewhere unknown, 1330 00:59:42,752 --> 00:59:46,538 he's as tall as a small person! 1331 00:59:47,888 --> 00:59:50,847 Jesse the Man! 1332 00:59:50,891 --> 00:59:52,457 - Watch it, man. 1333 00:59:52,501 --> 00:59:53,981 [JESSE GIGGLES] 1334 00:59:54,024 --> 00:59:55,330 - Wait, wait, wait, wait. Have to do my expression, too. 1335 00:59:55,373 --> 00:59:56,636 You can't just jump right into it, okay? 1336 00:59:57,593 --> 00:59:59,290 Go back. Do your introduction. 1337 00:59:59,334 --> 01:00:00,422 All right! 1338 01:00:00,465 --> 01:00:03,120 [SPEAKING GIBBERISH] 1339 01:00:03,164 --> 01:00:04,687 [JESSE LAUGHING] 1340 01:00:04,731 --> 01:00:10,040 [CONTINUES SPEAKING GIBBERISH] 1341 01:00:14,523 --> 01:00:18,222 I'll rise up from the volcano and destroy you! 1342 01:00:18,266 --> 01:00:19,354 [LAUGHING] 1343 01:00:19,397 --> 01:00:20,921 That's how you do it. 1344 01:00:20,964 --> 01:00:22,444 [GIGGLES] 1345 01:00:22,487 --> 01:00:23,924 - Then, he just said, "Pack my bag, get my stuff, 1346 01:00:23,967 --> 01:00:26,013 take me to the hospital." 1347 01:00:26,056 --> 01:00:27,710 "If you don't, I'm just gonna run away again, right?" 1348 01:00:27,754 --> 01:00:29,059 Which is true. 1349 01:00:30,452 --> 01:00:33,020 So I took him to the ER, 1350 01:00:33,063 --> 01:00:35,457 which was fucking awful. 1351 01:00:36,719 --> 01:00:38,025 MALE NURSE: Absolutely, Paul. 1352 01:00:38,068 --> 01:00:38,939 - The milligrams have to be specific... 1353 01:00:38,982 --> 01:00:39,940 - We'll make sure that they are. 1354 01:00:39,983 --> 01:00:41,071 - Because Dr. Marklin said that, 1355 01:00:41,115 --> 01:00:42,203 and he worked on it for three months, 1356 01:00:42,246 --> 01:00:43,247 and it was still going back and forth. 1357 01:00:43,291 --> 01:00:44,684 - Well, I'm not Dr. Marklin, I'm... 1358 01:00:44,727 --> 01:00:45,728 VIV: I mean, you can't believe it, Johnny, 1359 01:00:45,772 --> 01:00:47,295 it's so humiliating. 1360 01:00:47,338 --> 01:00:48,949 They just asked him the same questions 1361 01:00:48,992 --> 01:00:50,254 over and over, and over again. 1362 01:00:50,298 --> 01:00:51,473 - I have been eating 1363 01:00:51,516 --> 01:00:53,954 and I have been sleeping the regular amount 1364 01:00:53,997 --> 01:00:55,346 that I usually eat and sleep. 1365 01:00:55,390 --> 01:00:56,478 You ask me a question, I answer it, 1366 01:00:56,521 --> 01:00:57,740 and then all of a sudden you ask her. 1367 01:00:57,784 --> 01:00:59,046 Like, just why don't you ask her 1368 01:00:59,089 --> 01:01:00,612 the goddamn question. 1369 01:01:00,656 --> 01:01:02,702 VIV: And then we finally got him into a real center. 1370 01:01:02,745 --> 01:01:04,007 - I've done this before, I know it all. 1371 01:01:04,051 --> 01:01:05,139 NURSE: Yeah, no shoelaces, you're right. 1372 01:01:05,182 --> 01:01:06,357 VIV: He was so scared. 1373 01:01:06,401 --> 01:01:07,663 - I'm gonna have you sign off 1374 01:01:07,707 --> 01:01:08,751 that you're gonna be taking those things home. 1375 01:01:08,795 --> 01:01:09,665 VIV: Okay, sure, right here? 1376 01:01:09,709 --> 01:01:11,406 Yeah. 1377 01:01:11,449 --> 01:01:12,973 - And then when I was leaving, he asked me in the sweetest... 1378 01:01:13,016 --> 01:01:14,583 [SOBBING] 1379 01:01:14,626 --> 01:01:18,108 In the sweetest way if I could just stay 1380 01:01:18,152 --> 01:01:20,371 until he was a little better. 1381 01:01:20,415 --> 01:01:23,113 That's what he said, Just a little better. 1382 01:01:25,812 --> 01:01:27,901 - Oh, I'm so sorry. 1383 01:01:27,944 --> 01:01:30,164 - And I want Jesse to have his dad, you know? 1384 01:01:30,207 --> 01:01:32,296 I mean, what the fuck can I do? 1385 01:01:32,340 --> 01:01:33,515 I've gotta... 1386 01:01:34,734 --> 01:01:37,040 - Yeah, you gotta stay with him. 1387 01:01:38,302 --> 01:01:41,001 [SIGHS HEAVILY] 1388 01:01:41,044 --> 01:01:42,698 Really, Viv, we're doin' okay. 1389 01:01:42,742 --> 01:01:44,961 You just take care of what you need to. 1390 01:01:47,094 --> 01:01:48,748 Jesse can keep staying here with me. 1391 01:01:50,488 --> 01:01:53,056 We're havin' a great time. 1392 01:01:57,626 --> 01:01:58,975 ROXANNE: [ON PHONE] I found someone in New Orleans 1393 01:01:59,019 --> 01:02:00,672 who can get us kids and I think we should do it. 1394 01:02:00,716 --> 01:02:01,804 JOHNNY: Okay, I know, 1395 01:02:01,848 --> 01:02:03,632 but I got Jesse and I just don't know 1396 01:02:03,675 --> 01:02:05,721 if I can make that, um, trip right now. 1397 01:02:05,765 --> 01:02:09,899 ROXANNE: Uh, I don't wanna go solo. 1398 01:02:09,943 --> 01:02:12,119 [CHUCKLING] No, it's sort of like 1399 01:02:12,162 --> 01:02:14,077 we told, like, audiences, and funders... 1400 01:02:14,121 --> 01:02:15,426 JESSE: Johnny! 1401 01:02:15,470 --> 01:02:16,601 - And everybody that we... -Johnny! 1402 01:02:16,645 --> 01:02:17,777 ...were gonna go to multiple cities. 1403 01:02:17,820 --> 01:02:19,387 - Johnny. Johnny, let's go to the park. 1404 01:02:19,430 --> 01:02:20,518 - I think we have to do it. -JOHNNY: Stop, stop. Please. 1405 01:02:20,562 --> 01:02:21,781 - Johnny. - JOHNNY: Stop. 1406 01:02:21,824 --> 01:02:23,043 - Unfortunately... - Get off your phone. 1407 01:02:23,086 --> 01:02:24,435 - Yeah, what? - Are...[CHUCKLING] 1408 01:02:24,479 --> 01:02:25,567 Are you... Are you with Jesse? How's it going? 1409 01:02:25,610 --> 01:02:27,177 - Yeah, yeah, fine. 1410 01:02:27,221 --> 01:02:28,613 So what... Where we at with things? 1411 01:02:28,657 --> 01:02:31,312 I think New Orleans was a good idea. 1412 01:02:31,355 --> 01:02:33,836 I know someone down there. 1413 01:02:33,880 --> 01:02:36,012 She can get us kids. 1414 01:02:36,056 --> 01:02:37,405 We just need to tell them we wanna do that 1415 01:02:37,448 --> 01:02:38,928 and then we can have Fern, 1416 01:02:38,972 --> 01:02:41,452 like, start booking everything for us. 1417 01:02:42,889 --> 01:02:43,759 - I know, but a lot... 1418 01:02:44,891 --> 01:02:46,196 Jesse? 1419 01:02:46,240 --> 01:02:47,676 - Can you hear me? 1420 01:02:47,719 --> 01:02:48,808 - Hold on a second. 1421 01:02:50,070 --> 01:02:51,854 Just, like, give me a sec. 1422 01:02:53,377 --> 01:02:55,423 - You were jazzed about the idea like two days ago. 1423 01:02:55,466 --> 01:02:57,164 - Jesse? 1424 01:02:57,207 --> 01:02:59,688 - You were like we just need to get you back to that spot. 1425 01:02:59,731 --> 01:03:00,820 - This is not a great time. 1426 01:03:00,863 --> 01:03:02,169 - Yeah, yeah. 1427 01:03:02,212 --> 01:03:03,648 - I, uh... 1428 01:03:04,911 --> 01:03:06,869 Listen, let me, um... 1429 01:03:06,913 --> 01:03:09,176 Let me call you back, okay? I'll call you back. 1430 01:03:09,219 --> 01:03:10,351 - Okay, okay. 1431 01:03:12,788 --> 01:03:14,137 - Jesse? 1432 01:03:16,357 --> 01:03:18,141 Jesse. 1433 01:03:22,493 --> 01:03:24,539 Fuck. Oh, fuck. 1434 01:03:25,757 --> 01:03:27,063 Oh, fuck. 1435 01:03:28,760 --> 01:03:30,414 Jesse! 1436 01:03:32,416 --> 01:03:33,853 Jesse! 1437 01:03:34,636 --> 01:03:36,420 Wait, wait! Jesse. 1438 01:03:37,291 --> 01:03:38,422 - Where'd you go? 1439 01:03:38,466 --> 01:03:40,033 - I was right there! - No, you weren't! 1440 01:03:40,076 --> 01:03:41,425 - I was on the phone, I turned around one second 1441 01:03:41,469 --> 01:03:42,731 and you were gone! 1442 01:03:42,774 --> 01:03:44,776 Hey, listen, you can't do that, you understand? 1443 01:03:44,820 --> 01:03:46,604 -You lost me! - I didn't lose you. 1444 01:03:46,648 --> 01:03:47,823 - You did. 1445 01:03:47,867 --> 01:03:49,172 - I lost you? Okay, okay, I lost you. 1446 01:03:49,216 --> 01:03:50,652 I'm the worst uncle in the world! 1447 01:03:50,695 --> 01:03:51,958 What... What are you doin'? 1448 01:03:52,001 --> 01:03:53,960 You, uh... Hey, come here! 1449 01:03:55,091 --> 01:03:56,788 [PANTING] 1450 01:04:01,924 --> 01:04:03,708 What are we doin' here, huh? 1451 01:04:03,752 --> 01:04:04,971 - I don't know. 1452 01:04:06,407 --> 01:04:08,626 - That could have been really, really bad. 1453 01:04:10,280 --> 01:04:11,412 - I don't need you. 1454 01:04:14,545 --> 01:04:17,897 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 1455 01:04:17,940 --> 01:04:19,463 - You so need me. 1456 01:04:25,905 --> 01:04:31,911 VIV: He can feel how fucked up things are right now, okay? 1457 01:04:31,954 --> 01:04:35,218 So in his... In his little inarticulate kid way, 1458 01:04:35,262 --> 01:04:38,047 he's saying, I'm feeling out of control right now. 1459 01:04:38,091 --> 01:04:40,006 Can you handle it? 1460 01:04:40,049 --> 01:04:43,270 Can you take care of me feeling this way? 1461 01:04:43,313 --> 01:04:47,013 If I run away from you, if I hide from you, 1462 01:04:47,056 --> 01:04:50,320 even if I jump on this bus, am I gonna be okay? 1463 01:04:50,364 --> 01:04:55,195 - Oh, I'm just, like, in this fucking fantasy 1464 01:04:55,238 --> 01:04:59,112 that you know, I got everything under control 1465 01:04:59,155 --> 01:05:01,462 and, uh, you know, I'll... I'll be there, 1466 01:05:01,505 --> 01:05:02,680 I'll figure it out, I'll get you snacks, 1467 01:05:02,724 --> 01:05:03,986 and I'll pack your bags, 1468 01:05:04,030 --> 01:05:05,422 and we'll go off, I'm thinking of goin', 1469 01:05:05,466 --> 01:05:07,120 I don't know what I'm fucking doing. 1470 01:05:07,163 --> 01:05:08,208 - Yeah. 1471 01:05:08,251 --> 01:05:10,732 Yeah, welcome to my fucking life. 1472 01:05:10,775 --> 01:05:11,951 I... Nobody knows what they're doing. 1473 01:05:13,909 --> 01:05:16,825 Nobody knows what they're doing with these kids. 1474 01:05:16,868 --> 01:05:18,653 You just have to keep doing it. 1475 01:05:20,394 --> 01:05:22,831 [SOFT CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING] 1476 01:05:22,874 --> 01:05:24,920 - I ran up and down the street calling out his name. 1477 01:05:27,227 --> 01:05:29,664 I saw him from across the street 1478 01:05:29,707 --> 01:05:31,796 as a bus passed in front of me. 1479 01:05:31,840 --> 01:05:35,104 I ran towards him, screaming out his name, Jesse. 1480 01:05:37,063 --> 01:05:40,109 He was mad at me, he was scared. 1481 01:05:40,153 --> 01:05:45,897 He turned, and he walked away, and got onto a bus. 1482 01:05:48,465 --> 01:05:54,558 I don't like feeling this, but I feel like he's spoiled, 1483 01:05:56,604 --> 01:05:58,693 or I am. 1484 01:06:04,699 --> 01:06:06,135 [ZIPPER RUNS] 1485 01:06:06,179 --> 01:06:08,007 - I can't believe you're doing this. 1486 01:06:11,706 --> 01:06:13,795 [JOHNNY SIGHS] 1487 01:06:15,144 --> 01:06:16,537 - I know, but I can't take care of you right now. 1488 01:06:16,580 --> 01:06:18,060 - You can. 1489 01:06:18,104 --> 01:06:20,062 - No, but as soon as I get done with work, 1490 01:06:20,106 --> 01:06:21,672 I'll come out to LA and... 1491 01:06:21,716 --> 01:06:23,370 And we'll do whatever you want. 1492 01:06:23,413 --> 01:06:24,849 All right? I'd like that? 1493 01:06:26,373 --> 01:06:32,074 [MUSIC CONTINUES] 1494 01:06:32,118 --> 01:06:40,691 ♪ 1495 01:06:46,262 --> 01:06:48,438 - My stomach hurts. 1496 01:06:50,832 --> 01:06:51,963 - I'm sorry. 1497 01:06:53,052 --> 01:06:54,227 - I need to poop. 1498 01:06:57,534 --> 01:06:59,449 - You do? - Right now. 1499 01:06:59,493 --> 01:07:01,451 - Really? - I need to poop. 1500 01:07:01,495 --> 01:07:02,670 - You can't... you can't hold it. 1501 01:07:04,193 --> 01:07:05,934 - I can't hold my poop. 1502 01:07:07,849 --> 01:07:09,981 - Okay. Um, excuse me, sir, could you please pull over 1503 01:07:10,025 --> 01:07:11,548 at a gas station or diner? 1504 01:07:11,592 --> 01:07:12,680 DRIVER: Okay. 1505 01:07:12,723 --> 01:07:15,204 - Thank you. Okay, just hold on. 1506 01:07:31,177 --> 01:07:32,569 Okay, I'll be right back. 1507 01:07:35,094 --> 01:07:36,312 Here. 1508 01:07:42,231 --> 01:07:43,493 Hey, is there a bathroom he can use? 1509 01:07:43,537 --> 01:07:45,104 WAITER: Down over there. - Thank you. 1510 01:07:50,979 --> 01:07:52,415 Okay, hold it, just hold, hold on. 1511 01:08:12,827 --> 01:08:13,871 You okay? 1512 01:08:13,915 --> 01:08:15,482 - No. 1513 01:08:17,136 --> 01:08:18,354 - Okay, well, hurry up, 1514 01:08:18,398 --> 01:08:19,442 'cause we got... We gotta go to the airport. 1515 01:08:20,530 --> 01:08:21,836 JESSE: No. 1516 01:08:21,879 --> 01:08:23,142 - What? 1517 01:08:24,578 --> 01:08:26,797 Are you going poop? - No. 1518 01:08:29,452 --> 01:08:31,019 - Do you even have to go to the bathroom? 1519 01:08:31,062 --> 01:08:33,152 Huh? 1520 01:08:33,195 --> 01:08:34,370 - No. 1521 01:08:36,590 --> 01:08:39,245 [CHUCKLING] 1522 01:08:40,550 --> 01:08:42,770 You got me. You got me. 1523 01:08:42,813 --> 01:08:45,033 You got me. You... Shit. 1524 01:08:45,076 --> 01:08:46,600 [SIGHS] 1525 01:08:48,863 --> 01:08:52,214 [CLICKS TONGUE] All right, fun time's over, let's go. 1526 01:08:52,258 --> 01:08:53,215 Time to come out. 1527 01:08:53,259 --> 01:08:54,869 - No! 1528 01:08:54,912 --> 01:08:57,001 - Jesse, come out right now. [DOORKNOB RATTLING] 1529 01:08:57,045 --> 01:08:58,089 - No! 1530 01:08:58,133 --> 01:08:59,700 - Jesse, come out right now! 1531 01:08:59,743 --> 01:09:02,268 - I'm sorry. 1532 01:09:02,311 --> 01:09:04,183 I'm sorry I hid, I'm sorry I ran onto the bus, 1533 01:09:04,226 --> 01:09:06,489 I'm sorry, Johnny, I am sorry! 1534 01:09:08,230 --> 01:09:09,492 I heard you talking on the phone. 1535 01:09:09,536 --> 01:09:10,928 You can't take care of me. 1536 01:09:13,017 --> 01:09:14,367 I don't wanna go home. 1537 01:09:17,326 --> 01:09:19,415 My mom is just gonna be sad about my dad 1538 01:09:19,459 --> 01:09:20,808 and my dad's not even there. 1539 01:09:26,248 --> 01:09:27,728 [SIGHS] 1540 01:09:32,863 --> 01:09:34,604 - Okay. 1541 01:09:34,648 --> 01:09:36,519 [CHUCKLING] 1542 01:09:36,563 --> 01:09:38,173 Okay. 1543 01:09:38,217 --> 01:09:40,871 All right, just, um... 1544 01:09:40,915 --> 01:09:43,134 I'll be right back, stay in there. 1545 01:09:43,178 --> 01:09:45,049 ♪ Anyone 1546 01:09:45,093 --> 01:09:46,703 ♪ 1547 01:09:46,747 --> 01:09:47,704 ♪ Anyone ♪ 1548 01:09:47,748 --> 01:09:50,533 ♪ 1549 01:09:50,577 --> 01:09:52,056 ♪ Anyone ♪ 1550 01:09:52,100 --> 01:09:54,450 ♪ 1551 01:09:54,494 --> 01:09:55,451 ♪ Anyone ♪ 1552 01:09:55,495 --> 01:09:57,932 ♪ 1553 01:09:57,975 --> 01:10:00,326 ♪ You can blame me ♪ 1554 01:10:00,369 --> 01:10:01,849 ♪ 1555 01:10:01,892 --> 01:10:04,808 ♪ Try to shame me ♪ 1556 01:10:04,852 --> 01:10:09,073 ♪ And still I'll care for you ♪ 1557 01:10:09,117 --> 01:10:13,426 ♪ 1558 01:10:13,469 --> 01:10:15,558 ♪ You can run around ♪ 1559 01:10:15,602 --> 01:10:17,125 ♪ 1560 01:10:17,168 --> 01:10:20,433 ♪ Even put me down ♪ 1561 01:10:20,476 --> 01:10:24,524 ♪ Still I'll be there for you... ♪ 1562 01:10:24,567 --> 01:10:26,265 ♪ 1563 01:10:26,308 --> 01:10:27,831 TEENAGE GIRL: New Orleans is like... Is very different. 1564 01:10:27,875 --> 01:10:30,356 You don't see it anywhere else 1565 01:10:30,399 --> 01:10:32,271 and, like, sometimes I understand 1566 01:10:32,314 --> 01:10:33,837 why people wanna come here, 1567 01:10:33,881 --> 01:10:36,013 because it's like so beautiful and just so different 1568 01:10:36,057 --> 01:10:37,624 to where it's, like, 1569 01:10:37,667 --> 01:10:39,843 sometimes we need something different in our lives. 1570 01:10:39,887 --> 01:10:42,585 I feel like people are sometimes being selfish 1571 01:10:42,629 --> 01:10:44,195 when they come here, so they're like, 1572 01:10:44,239 --> 01:10:46,546 Oh, I wanna go see something different, 1573 01:10:46,589 --> 01:10:48,504 but you're not takin' in consideration 1574 01:10:48,548 --> 01:10:50,201 about where you are. 1575 01:10:50,245 --> 01:10:51,464 If they keep it up, 1576 01:10:51,507 --> 01:10:53,857 like buildin' Airbnbs and everything, 1577 01:10:53,901 --> 01:10:55,685 all of it is gonna be gone. 1578 01:10:55,729 --> 01:10:58,297 There is not gonna be a New Orleans, 1579 01:10:58,340 --> 01:11:01,865 but I also think that, like, we, as people 1580 01:11:01,909 --> 01:11:04,215 and who live in New Orleans, make it New Orleans. 1581 01:11:04,259 --> 01:11:05,216 [SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY] 1582 01:11:05,260 --> 01:11:07,001 - Yes. 1583 01:11:08,698 --> 01:11:09,656 SUNNI: Hey, how are you? 1584 01:11:09,699 --> 01:11:10,744 JESSE: I'm good. 1585 01:11:10,787 --> 01:11:12,006 ROXANNE: This is Jesse. 1586 01:11:12,049 --> 01:11:13,703 SUNNI: Nice meeting you, Jesse. I'm Sunni. 1587 01:11:13,747 --> 01:11:15,314 ROXANNE: Hey. - Hey. Thank you for having us. 1588 01:11:15,357 --> 01:11:16,706 - Absolutely. - Come on in, come on in. 1589 01:11:16,750 --> 01:11:18,708 -I'm excited. - Hi, I'm Fern. 1590 01:11:18,752 --> 01:11:20,449 - Hey, how are you? - Hey, Fern. Nice meeting you. 1591 01:11:20,493 --> 01:11:23,409 - Through this way in the kitchen here, 1592 01:11:23,452 --> 01:11:27,804 and then there are two rooms back here. 1593 01:11:27,848 --> 01:11:31,373 So Johnny and Jesse, I figure, you can be here. 1594 01:11:31,417 --> 01:11:33,114 There's a bathroom... 1595 01:11:33,157 --> 01:11:36,683 [JESSE AND JOHNNY VOCALIZING] 1596 01:11:36,726 --> 01:11:39,512 - She mentioned that she doesn't think 1597 01:11:39,555 --> 01:11:41,601 that humans are innately violent, which I thought 1598 01:11:41,644 --> 01:11:42,645 was really interesting. 1599 01:11:42,689 --> 01:11:43,951 - Mm-hmm. 1600 01:11:43,994 --> 01:11:45,561 - Um, and she said she thinks the violence 1601 01:11:45,605 --> 01:11:47,041 took place a long time ago. 1602 01:11:47,084 --> 01:11:48,259 - Mm-hmm. 1603 01:11:48,303 --> 01:11:49,522 - And has just been passed down. 1604 01:11:49,565 --> 01:11:51,219 - Passed down? Yeah. She did speak about it. 1605 01:11:51,262 --> 01:11:54,962 - And then she said that, um, it's in people's genetic makeup. 1606 01:11:55,005 --> 01:11:58,008 But we have the power... - There you go. 1607 01:11:58,052 --> 01:11:59,575 - ...to override that. - Yeah. 1608 01:11:59,619 --> 01:12:00,794 - Which I was like... - Yeah. 1609 01:12:00,837 --> 01:12:01,925 ...wow! 1610 01:12:01,969 --> 01:12:03,666 I'm like, What PDFs are you reading? 1611 01:12:03,710 --> 01:12:04,624 [ALL CHUCKLE] 1612 01:12:04,667 --> 01:12:05,755 What? 1613 01:12:05,799 --> 01:12:07,366 FERN: Yeah, can you believe... 1614 01:12:07,409 --> 01:12:11,021 BOY 2: [ON TAPE] So my fears would be like loneliness 1615 01:12:11,065 --> 01:12:14,068 and like people not understanding you 1616 01:12:14,111 --> 01:12:16,331 even though, they're there to understand you 1617 01:12:16,375 --> 01:12:17,463 and stuff like that. 1618 01:12:17,506 --> 01:12:18,681 It's just really scary, 1619 01:12:18,725 --> 01:12:20,248 'cause it feels like you have nobody. 1620 01:12:22,903 --> 01:12:24,165 JOHNNY: All right, listen, it's lesson time. 1621 01:12:25,514 --> 01:12:29,475 So first, as the adult, 1622 01:12:32,129 --> 01:12:35,959 take time for the sad, mad, 1623 01:12:36,003 --> 01:12:39,049 or scared feelings to work their way through. 1624 01:12:39,093 --> 01:12:42,662 How this happens will depend on your personality. 1625 01:12:44,228 --> 01:12:46,535 Calmly invite your child to hear you out. 1626 01:12:46,579 --> 01:12:51,932 You can try, "Hey, I made a mistake 1627 01:12:51,975 --> 01:12:54,543 and I would like to talk to you about that. 1628 01:12:54,587 --> 01:12:55,936 May I come in?" 1629 01:12:55,979 --> 01:12:57,938 - Sure. 1630 01:13:01,158 --> 01:13:02,943 - Try to... [MUMBLING INDISTINCTLY] 1631 01:13:02,986 --> 01:13:05,424 Try... Try something like, 1632 01:13:07,382 --> 01:13:11,430 "Did you feel hurt that I was gonna send you home?" 1633 01:13:13,301 --> 01:13:14,781 - Yeah, I did. 1634 01:13:16,435 --> 01:13:17,871 - Yeah. 1635 01:13:19,916 --> 01:13:22,919 Uh, then I say... 1636 01:13:26,923 --> 01:13:29,012 I feel badly about how I behaved. 1637 01:13:30,666 --> 01:13:32,712 Are you feeling mad at me? 1638 01:13:32,755 --> 01:13:34,322 It's okay if you are 1639 01:13:34,365 --> 01:13:37,194 and I'd like to hear whatever you're feeling and thinking. 1640 01:13:38,195 --> 01:13:40,807 - Mmm... 1641 01:13:40,850 --> 01:13:43,897 I thought that you were being a pain in the ass. 1642 01:13:45,333 --> 01:13:46,334 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1643 01:13:46,377 --> 01:13:48,031 - Yeah. 1644 01:13:48,075 --> 01:13:50,991 Then, I... [CLEARS THROAT] 1645 01:13:51,034 --> 01:13:54,995 I am feeling very... Use a feeling word. 1646 01:13:56,257 --> 01:13:58,215 [GRUNTING] 1647 01:13:58,259 --> 01:14:08,312 Shitty, stupid, totally out of touch, and also, um, sad. 1648 01:14:12,403 --> 01:14:13,927 Sorry, I shouldn't. 1649 01:14:13,970 --> 01:14:15,798 Then, from the bottom of your heart, 1650 01:14:17,234 --> 01:14:20,194 look your child in the eye and say you're sorry. 1651 01:14:28,419 --> 01:14:29,725 Oh, come on. 1652 01:14:29,769 --> 01:14:32,206 - Say it. [PATS ON BACK] 1653 01:14:33,250 --> 01:14:34,948 - I'm sorry. 1654 01:14:38,517 --> 01:14:40,344 - I'm sorry, too. 1655 01:14:41,607 --> 01:14:43,217 - Your mom does all this? 1656 01:14:43,260 --> 01:14:46,742 - Yeah, but she doesn't have to read it from a stupid phone. 1657 01:14:46,786 --> 01:14:49,092 Now, no more phone time for you. 1658 01:14:49,136 --> 01:14:51,355 No more... No more screen time. 1659 01:14:52,661 --> 01:14:54,228 [SWITCH CLICKS] 1660 01:15:01,496 --> 01:15:03,367 Can I sleep with you? 1661 01:15:03,411 --> 01:15:04,586 - Hmm? 1662 01:15:04,630 --> 01:15:05,587 - Can I sleep with you? 1663 01:15:05,631 --> 01:15:08,242 - Yeah. Hmm. 1664 01:15:08,285 --> 01:15:10,723 [SIGHS] 1665 01:15:26,347 --> 01:15:27,522 - Can I be an orphan? 1666 01:15:27,566 --> 01:15:29,698 - Mm-hmm. 1667 01:15:29,742 --> 01:15:31,613 You okay? 1668 01:15:31,657 --> 01:15:33,397 - I just want to be the orphan. 1669 01:15:33,441 --> 01:15:35,182 - Okay. 1670 01:15:37,837 --> 01:15:40,404 - Is there anything about my past you'd like to ask me? 1671 01:15:44,147 --> 01:15:45,758 - What was your mom like? 1672 01:15:45,801 --> 01:15:47,411 - She was nice. 1673 01:15:47,455 --> 01:15:49,196 - Hmm, yeah. 1674 01:15:51,154 --> 01:15:52,503 Do you remember her? 1675 01:15:53,809 --> 01:15:54,680 JESSE: Yeah. 1676 01:15:55,594 --> 01:15:57,639 She always took baths, 1677 01:15:57,683 --> 01:16:00,163 but she'd act like she never got to take 'em, 1678 01:16:00,207 --> 01:16:02,426 but she always took them. 1679 01:16:02,470 --> 01:16:05,342 When she'd get home from work, she'd clean up the kitchen, 1680 01:16:05,386 --> 01:16:07,040 all bangy and loud. 1681 01:16:07,083 --> 01:16:09,346 Then I'd say, "Why are you being so loud?" 1682 01:16:09,390 --> 01:16:10,739 "Are you mad?" 1683 01:16:10,783 --> 01:16:12,480 Then she'd say, "I'm not being loud." 1684 01:16:12,523 --> 01:16:14,613 [JOHNNY LAUGHS] 1685 01:16:16,527 --> 01:16:19,356 She wrote books, fiction and non-fiction. 1686 01:16:19,400 --> 01:16:21,402 VIV: [SINGING] ♪ When you skip-to-my-lou, My darlin' ♪ 1687 01:16:21,445 --> 01:16:23,317 JESSE: She's always singing old songs 1688 01:16:23,360 --> 01:16:24,753 from when she was a kid. 1689 01:16:24,797 --> 01:16:26,537 [SINGING] ♪ I'm gonna get ya 1690 01:16:26,581 --> 01:16:27,974 ♪ I bet you a bottom dollar You were best under pressure ♪ 1691 01:16:28,017 --> 01:16:29,845 ♪ Yo, Sandy I wanna like taste you ♪ 1692 01:16:29,889 --> 01:16:31,499 ♪ Get your, get your lips wet 'Cause it's time to have Pep ♪ 1693 01:16:31,542 --> 01:16:33,109 ♪ On your mark, get set, go Let me go, let me shoop ♪ 1694 01:16:33,153 --> 01:16:34,676 And in that place, you have... 1695 01:16:34,720 --> 01:16:37,026 JESSE: She thought about weird things, like ghosts 1696 01:16:37,070 --> 01:16:41,422 and incarnation, all that stuff. 1697 01:16:41,465 --> 01:16:43,250 She'd loved it here. 1698 01:16:44,207 --> 01:16:46,427 She taught her classes. 1699 01:16:46,470 --> 01:16:48,124 When she was stressed out, 1700 01:16:48,168 --> 01:16:49,735 she would just cook herself a big steak 1701 01:16:49,778 --> 01:16:51,519 and just eat it. 1702 01:16:53,477 --> 01:16:55,610 She loved hanging out with her friends. 1703 01:16:56,916 --> 01:16:59,527 [BOTH CHUCKLE] 1704 01:16:59,570 --> 01:17:01,877 She says even though we love each other, 1705 01:17:01,921 --> 01:17:04,837 she'll never know everything about me 1706 01:17:04,880 --> 01:17:07,840 and I'll never know everything about her. 1707 01:17:07,883 --> 01:17:09,668 It's just the way it is. 1708 01:17:16,762 --> 01:17:18,981 [JOHNNY GRUNTING AND KISSING] 1709 01:17:19,025 --> 01:17:20,287 [GIGGLING] Stop. 1710 01:17:20,330 --> 01:17:21,984 - Um... - You're weird. 1711 01:17:22,028 --> 01:17:24,726 - Okay, yeah. Time to screen time as much screen time 1712 01:17:24,770 --> 01:17:26,032 - as he wants. - Okay. 1713 01:17:26,075 --> 01:17:27,598 - He can watch anything he wants. 1714 01:17:27,642 --> 01:17:28,861 - All the screen time he wants. Here, here, here, here. 1715 01:17:28,904 --> 01:17:31,080 - R-rated, anything, anything he wants. 1716 01:17:31,124 --> 01:17:33,517 - You have to make sure your eyelids stay open. 1717 01:17:33,561 --> 01:17:35,389 Get as much screen time as possible. 1718 01:17:35,432 --> 01:17:37,652 - If he cries or anything, no screen time, all right? 1719 01:17:37,696 --> 01:17:39,001 - All right. - Yeah. 1720 01:17:39,045 --> 01:17:40,568 - Okay, that was it, that was your screen time. 1721 01:17:40,611 --> 01:17:41,787 - Nice. - Yeah. 1722 01:17:41,830 --> 01:17:43,614 FERN: Do you feel screenful? 1723 01:17:43,658 --> 01:17:44,659 JESSE: I feel screenful. 1724 01:17:44,703 --> 01:17:46,008 - Yeah. - Screenish. 1725 01:17:46,052 --> 01:17:48,097 - So do you feel like adults understand 1726 01:17:48,141 --> 01:17:49,969 what kids are going through? 1727 01:17:50,012 --> 01:17:55,235 - Um, I definitely think lots of moms do, 1728 01:17:55,278 --> 01:17:59,587 because... I think they do. 1729 01:17:59,630 --> 01:18:01,154 ROXANNE: I'm curious, like, you said this was 1730 01:18:01,197 --> 01:18:02,982 one of the hardest hit areas of Katrina, 1731 01:18:03,025 --> 01:18:05,027 like, what are the stories you've heard? 1732 01:18:05,071 --> 01:18:08,117 BOY: Um, a guy died in this house, 1733 01:18:08,161 --> 01:18:12,078 but I like to believe that ghosts are nice 1734 01:18:12,121 --> 01:18:14,733 and they don't try to scare people, 1735 01:18:15,995 --> 01:18:17,953 unless that's their intention. 1736 01:18:17,997 --> 01:18:19,172 ROXANNE: Tell me about that, uh, 1737 01:18:19,215 --> 01:18:20,695 tattoo you've got on your arm. 1738 01:18:20,739 --> 01:18:22,784 - It is nothing. - Oh! 1739 01:18:22,828 --> 01:18:24,090 SUNNI: [CHUCKLES] his is what I... I've learned 1740 01:18:24,133 --> 01:18:25,352 about Devante so far. 1741 01:18:25,395 --> 01:18:27,310 Devante is like, my business is mine. 1742 01:18:27,354 --> 01:18:28,921 What's about that? 1743 01:18:28,964 --> 01:18:30,139 I don't feel like talking about that right now. 1744 01:18:30,183 --> 01:18:31,358 What's the tattoo? 1745 01:18:31,401 --> 01:18:32,272 Don't worry about what's the tattoo. 1746 01:18:32,315 --> 01:18:33,621 You know, this kinda thing. 1747 01:18:33,664 --> 01:18:35,754 So, uh, you know, what I appreciate about you? 1748 01:18:35,797 --> 01:18:39,018 I appreciate the fact that you, um... 1749 01:18:39,061 --> 01:18:41,977 You hold what is sacred, right? 1750 01:18:42,021 --> 01:18:45,807 ROXANNE: So what do you think happens to you after you die? 1751 01:18:45,851 --> 01:18:47,896 TEENAGE BOY: Well, me and my mom are Baptists. 1752 01:18:47,940 --> 01:18:50,464 Uh, well, I would say heaven, I feel. 1753 01:18:50,507 --> 01:18:51,857 I don't know how it would be like, 1754 01:18:51,900 --> 01:18:55,295 but what I imagine it, uh, I would say a meadow 1755 01:18:55,338 --> 01:18:57,906 with a one big tree, 1756 01:18:57,950 --> 01:19:01,780 and you just lay on the grass with flowers 1757 01:19:01,823 --> 01:19:04,870 and you just stare up into the sun 1758 01:19:04,913 --> 01:19:07,176 with a lot of breeze, obviously. 1759 01:19:07,220 --> 01:19:08,917 You don't want it to be too hot. 1760 01:19:08,961 --> 01:19:12,312 Yeah, that's what I kind of imagine. 1761 01:19:12,355 --> 01:19:13,922 ROXANNE: That's really beautiful. 1762 01:19:15,315 --> 01:19:18,448 JOHNNY: Do you think that the world is fair? 1763 01:19:18,492 --> 01:19:21,625 GIRL: No, nothing's really that fair. 1764 01:19:21,669 --> 01:19:23,758 There's always gonna be, uh, 1765 01:19:23,802 --> 01:19:25,325 like, probably gonna be more wars, 1766 01:19:25,368 --> 01:19:27,936 since there's more things to fight about 1767 01:19:27,980 --> 01:19:32,114 if you keep on building onto what's in the past. 1768 01:19:32,158 --> 01:19:35,770 SUNNI: What causes flooding within yourself, 1769 01:19:35,814 --> 01:19:37,206 within whether it's in your mind, 1770 01:19:37,250 --> 01:19:38,947 within your heart, within your spirit? 1771 01:19:38,991 --> 01:19:42,472 What causes flooding, um, within you? 1772 01:19:44,735 --> 01:19:48,783 [CHUCKLES] Um, I think it would be, like, 1773 01:19:48,827 --> 01:19:50,959 not, like, feeling that, 1774 01:19:51,003 --> 01:19:54,180 like I said no one cares or, like, just feeling that 1775 01:19:54,223 --> 01:19:56,356 I'm, like, alone sometimes. 1776 01:19:56,399 --> 01:19:58,793 GIRL: But I know a lot of kids are saying, 1777 01:19:58,837 --> 01:20:00,534 Oh, the world's gonna end and all that. 1778 01:20:00,577 --> 01:20:02,318 I don't think the world's gonna end. 1779 01:20:02,362 --> 01:20:05,495 I just think the world's not gonna be as clean 1780 01:20:05,539 --> 01:20:07,889 as it used to be. 1781 01:20:07,933 --> 01:20:10,718 SUNNI: Say if your parents were your children... 1782 01:20:11,719 --> 01:20:13,329 [CHUCKLES] 1783 01:20:13,373 --> 01:20:15,984 What's something you would want them to learn? 1784 01:20:16,028 --> 01:20:17,943 What's something you would teach 'em? 1785 01:20:17,986 --> 01:20:22,382 Not to be selfish, not to be bad, and not to... 1786 01:20:22,425 --> 01:20:25,298 And not to disrespect, and not to have... 1787 01:20:27,082 --> 01:20:29,258 And to have close feelings 1788 01:20:29,302 --> 01:20:31,695 for your friends, your parents, 1789 01:20:31,739 --> 01:20:36,962 and not to be... 1790 01:20:37,005 --> 01:20:39,616 if I were the one to be a lead. 1791 01:20:43,446 --> 01:20:45,579 - If you could change one thing about yourself, 1792 01:20:45,622 --> 01:20:47,624 what would it be? 1793 01:20:49,670 --> 01:20:51,715 - My attitude. 1794 01:20:51,759 --> 01:20:53,369 - [CHUCKLES] Hey, what's wrong with your attitude? 1795 01:20:53,413 --> 01:20:54,849 You seem like you have a great attitude. 1796 01:20:54,893 --> 01:20:56,111 What would you change about yourself? 1797 01:20:56,155 --> 01:20:58,897 My anger. 1798 01:20:58,940 --> 01:21:00,768 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1799 01:21:03,510 --> 01:21:06,948 FERN: There, colors, sensations, and sounds 1800 01:21:06,992 --> 01:21:09,255 will wash over you constantly. 1801 01:21:09,298 --> 01:21:12,432 You will see so many living things. 1802 01:21:12,475 --> 01:21:13,607 JOHNNY: Hey. 1803 01:21:13,650 --> 01:21:14,651 FERN: Hey, what's up? 1804 01:21:14,695 --> 01:21:15,696 [JOHNNY GRUNTING] 1805 01:21:15,739 --> 01:21:16,958 FERN: Beyond imagining... 1806 01:21:17,002 --> 01:21:18,438 - How's it going? - Sensations and sounds... 1807 01:21:18,481 --> 01:21:19,569 - Thank you. 1808 01:21:19,613 --> 01:21:20,788 - ...will wash over you constantly. 1809 01:21:20,831 --> 01:21:21,789 No problem. 1810 01:21:21,832 --> 01:21:23,530 - Hey. You're good? 1811 01:21:23,573 --> 01:21:24,835 - Yeah. - I'm sorry. 1812 01:21:24,879 --> 01:21:25,924 - Yeah. - What happened? 1813 01:21:25,967 --> 01:21:27,316 - No. It's okay. 1814 01:21:27,360 --> 01:21:28,665 He just... There were some tears... 1815 01:21:28,709 --> 01:21:29,928 - Why? 1816 01:21:29,971 --> 01:21:31,277 - ...we ran out of snacks, 1817 01:21:31,320 --> 01:21:32,408 the iPad died, it was like thing after thing. 1818 01:21:32,452 --> 01:21:33,409 We only have raisins left. 1819 01:21:33,453 --> 01:21:35,194 - Shit. - We don't like raisins. 1820 01:21:35,237 --> 01:21:36,586 - I didn't plan well, I'm so sorry. 1821 01:21:36,630 --> 01:21:38,849 - No, don't cuss. - Hey, sorry. 1822 01:21:38,893 --> 01:21:40,068 - It's fine. - You all right? 1823 01:21:40,112 --> 01:21:41,417 - Yeah, I'm gonna go find Maurice. 1824 01:21:41,461 --> 01:21:42,723 - Okay. - And I'll be back. 1825 01:21:42,766 --> 01:21:44,116 - Thanks, Fern. 1826 01:21:45,944 --> 01:21:47,946 - Hey. - Hey. 1827 01:21:47,989 --> 01:21:49,773 - You okay? - I'm embarrassed. 1828 01:21:49,817 --> 01:21:51,862 - You're embarrassed? - That I cried. 1829 01:21:51,906 --> 01:21:54,648 - You're embarrassed that you cried, don't be embarrassed. 1830 01:21:54,691 --> 01:21:56,780 - Because I don't usually cry that much. 1831 01:21:56,824 --> 01:21:58,173 - Huh? 1832 01:21:58,217 --> 01:22:00,001 - I don't usually cry that much. 1833 01:22:00,045 --> 01:22:01,307 - It's okay. 1834 01:22:03,874 --> 01:22:05,354 [CHUCKLES] It's all right. 1835 01:22:05,398 --> 01:22:06,965 You mad at me? 1836 01:22:08,183 --> 01:22:10,055 - Mmm-mmm. 1837 01:22:10,098 --> 01:22:12,796 Can you finish that book? 1838 01:22:14,059 --> 01:22:16,061 - Yeah. - Please. 1839 01:22:25,070 --> 01:22:26,680 - To visit planet Earth, 1840 01:22:26,723 --> 01:22:29,161 you will have to be born as a human child. 1841 01:22:30,945 --> 01:22:34,122 At first, you'll have to learn to use your new body, 1842 01:22:34,166 --> 01:22:38,170 to move your arms and legs, to pull yourself upright. 1843 01:22:41,347 --> 01:22:45,264 You will learn to walk and run, to use your hands 1844 01:22:45,307 --> 01:22:49,137 to make sounds and form words. 1845 01:22:49,181 --> 01:22:52,010 Slowly, you will learn to take care of yourself. 1846 01:22:53,315 --> 01:22:55,839 Here, it is still and peaceful, 1847 01:22:55,883 --> 01:22:58,277 but there, the colors, sensations, 1848 01:22:58,320 --> 01:23:01,062 and sounds will wash over you constantly. 1849 01:23:02,498 --> 01:23:04,848 You will see so many living things, 1850 01:23:04,892 --> 01:23:07,938 plants and animals, beyond imagining. 1851 01:23:09,114 --> 01:23:11,159 Here, it is always the same, 1852 01:23:11,203 --> 01:23:13,814 but there, everything is in motion, 1853 01:23:13,857 --> 01:23:16,512 everything is always changing. 1854 01:23:18,297 --> 01:23:20,603 You will be plunged into Earth's river of time. 1855 01:23:22,083 --> 01:23:24,303 There will be so much for you to learn 1856 01:23:25,739 --> 01:23:28,742 and so much for you to feel, 1857 01:23:28,785 --> 01:23:34,269 pleasure and fear, joy and disappointment, 1858 01:23:34,313 --> 01:23:36,924 sadness and wonder. 1859 01:23:39,231 --> 01:23:42,234 In your confusion and delight, 1860 01:23:42,277 --> 01:23:44,497 you will forget where you came from. 1861 01:23:46,151 --> 01:23:49,632 You will grow up, travel, and work. 1862 01:23:51,025 --> 01:23:52,722 Perhaps, you'll have children, 1863 01:23:52,766 --> 01:23:54,594 even grandchildren of your own. 1864 01:23:55,986 --> 01:23:57,727 Over the years, you will try to make sense 1865 01:23:57,771 --> 01:24:02,167 of that happy, sad, full, empty, 1866 01:24:02,210 --> 01:24:04,517 always-shifting life you're in. 1867 01:24:05,996 --> 01:24:08,129 And when the time comes to return to your star, 1868 01:24:09,391 --> 01:24:11,741 it may be hard to say "goodbye" 1869 01:24:11,785 --> 01:24:14,657 to that strangely beautiful world. 1870 01:24:16,355 --> 01:24:17,660 Damn this book. 1871 01:24:17,704 --> 01:24:19,401 - You're crying. 1872 01:24:19,445 --> 01:24:20,620 - No, I'm not. 1873 01:24:20,663 --> 01:24:22,012 - Yes, you are. 1874 01:24:23,449 --> 01:24:25,929 You're definitely cry... See, you're cry... 1875 01:24:25,973 --> 01:24:27,017 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1876 01:24:27,061 --> 01:24:28,671 - No, it's just... It's true. 1877 01:24:29,716 --> 01:24:31,283 We forget everything. 1878 01:24:32,762 --> 01:24:34,895 - No, I don't, you do. You're stupid. 1879 01:24:36,592 --> 01:24:39,117 - Yeah, you'll barely remember this. 1880 01:24:39,160 --> 01:24:42,294 You'll have, like, a few blurry memories 1881 01:24:42,337 --> 01:24:44,209 of this whole trip. 1882 01:24:44,252 --> 01:24:46,472 That's... That's very stupid. 1883 01:24:46,515 --> 01:24:48,996 You're just the stupidest, stupid person. 1884 01:24:49,039 --> 01:24:50,389 [CHUCKLES] 1885 01:24:50,432 --> 01:24:53,653 Ever. And, like, you have the lesser brain capacity 1886 01:24:53,696 --> 01:24:56,438 than an actual deceased dead person. 1887 01:24:56,482 --> 01:24:58,179 [JOHNNY CHUCKLING] 1888 01:24:58,223 --> 01:25:01,748 [BOTH LAUGHING] 1889 01:25:01,791 --> 01:25:03,837 JOHNNY: [ON PHONE] So eating steaks, 1890 01:25:03,880 --> 01:25:05,447 I know this and... 1891 01:25:05,491 --> 01:25:06,840 - Oh! 1892 01:25:06,883 --> 01:25:09,103 - You used to give mom so much shit about that. 1893 01:25:09,147 --> 01:25:10,452 - [CHUCKLING] I did, didn't I? 1894 01:25:10,496 --> 01:25:11,888 - I can't fucking believe it. 1895 01:25:11,932 --> 01:25:13,847 - Yes, I am. God, that little shit needs to learn 1896 01:25:13,890 --> 01:25:15,283 how to keep secrets. 1897 01:25:15,327 --> 01:25:16,458 - Uh-huh? 1898 01:25:16,502 --> 01:25:17,764 - Uh-huh. 1899 01:25:17,807 --> 01:25:19,157 Why are you still up? 1900 01:25:19,200 --> 01:25:25,815 - Good question. I'm so exhausted I can't sleep. 1901 01:25:25,859 --> 01:25:28,470 I just... I'm gonna tell you something 1902 01:25:28,514 --> 01:25:30,820 that as a mother you won't be able to understand, 1903 01:25:30,864 --> 01:25:32,518 but you're gonna have to trust me. 1904 01:25:32,561 --> 01:25:35,869 Taking care of him and working at the same time is... 1905 01:25:35,912 --> 01:25:37,958 - Yeah. - ...a little too much. 1906 01:25:38,001 --> 01:25:40,047 It just takes a lot out of you. 1907 01:25:40,090 --> 01:25:42,092 [VIV CHUCKLING] 1908 01:25:42,136 --> 01:25:44,965 So tomorrow, I'm gonna take him to a parade 1909 01:25:45,008 --> 01:25:46,358 that Sunni told me about. 1910 01:25:47,315 --> 01:25:48,882 - You're doing so good. 1911 01:25:50,231 --> 01:25:52,364 JOHNNY: Yeah, he's been such a trouper, 1912 01:25:52,407 --> 01:25:53,974 I feel like I owe him a good time. 1913 01:25:54,017 --> 01:25:56,977 [BAND PLAYING UPBEAT MUSIC] 1914 01:25:57,020 --> 01:25:59,719 ♪ 1915 01:25:59,762 --> 01:26:03,549 Even though, he, um, keeps asking me why we don't talk. 1916 01:26:03,592 --> 01:26:05,594 - Oh! 1917 01:26:06,987 --> 01:26:09,598 Cool. I like this kid. 1918 01:26:09,642 --> 01:26:11,861 And what do you say? 1919 01:26:11,905 --> 01:26:13,559 [CHUCKLES] 1920 01:26:13,602 --> 01:26:15,691 - Apparently, some bullshit. 1921 01:26:15,735 --> 01:26:18,216 VIV: He didn't let you get away with that, did he? 1922 01:26:19,391 --> 01:26:20,783 JOHNNY: No. 1923 01:26:20,827 --> 01:26:23,221 I just don't know what to do anymore. 1924 01:26:23,264 --> 01:26:25,353 I'll probably run out of bullshit I guess. 1925 01:26:27,268 --> 01:26:32,099 - Well, you could tell him the truth. 1926 01:26:32,142 --> 01:26:33,579 JOHNNY: That sounds fun. 1927 01:26:33,622 --> 01:26:35,102 Just tell your 9-year-old the truth. What... 1928 01:26:35,145 --> 01:26:36,451 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1929 01:26:36,495 --> 01:26:38,192 Which... Which part? 1930 01:26:38,236 --> 01:26:40,194 That I... 1931 01:26:42,588 --> 01:26:44,198 messed up with you and Paul, that I got in the middle 1932 01:26:44,242 --> 01:26:45,634 of something I didn't understand? 1933 01:26:45,678 --> 01:26:47,767 That part? 1934 01:26:49,682 --> 01:26:51,684 - Oh, yeah, that's good. 1935 01:26:51,727 --> 01:26:54,208 That's... That's a really good start. 1936 01:26:54,252 --> 01:26:57,385 [BAND CONTINUES PLAYING] 1937 01:26:57,429 --> 01:27:01,128 - Or was it when Mom died, we got in... 1938 01:27:01,171 --> 01:27:03,522 into all that weird shit when Mom died. 1939 01:27:03,565 --> 01:27:05,219 [CHUCKLES] That part? 1940 01:27:08,266 --> 01:27:11,051 - You mean, like all that weird shit 1941 01:27:11,094 --> 01:27:14,272 of our entire lives? That stuff? 1942 01:27:14,315 --> 01:27:17,100 JOHNNY: Yeah, our entire lives. 1943 01:27:19,059 --> 01:27:22,018 Or was it when Louisa left me 1944 01:27:22,062 --> 01:27:26,893 and everything just exploded. 1945 01:27:29,635 --> 01:27:32,202 - You know, that's the first time you've said that. 1946 01:27:32,246 --> 01:27:34,335 - Yeah, which part? 1947 01:27:34,379 --> 01:27:37,033 - All of it. 1948 01:27:37,077 --> 01:27:44,214 [BAND CONTINUES PLAYING] 1949 01:27:44,258 --> 01:27:52,614 ♪ 1950 01:27:57,358 --> 01:27:59,317 - Johnny. 1951 01:28:01,406 --> 01:28:03,146 Johnny. Johnny, Johnny! 1952 01:28:03,190 --> 01:28:04,191 [CROWD CHEERING] 1953 01:28:04,234 --> 01:28:05,801 Johnny. 1954 01:28:06,715 --> 01:28:07,890 - I'm okay. MAN: You okay? 1955 01:28:07,934 --> 01:28:09,762 WOMAN: Are you all right? - Uh, I'm okay. 1956 01:28:09,805 --> 01:28:11,024 - Johnny. - I'm okay. 1957 01:28:11,067 --> 01:28:12,373 - Stop, Johnny! Johnny! 1958 01:28:12,417 --> 01:28:13,896 - Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. 1959 01:28:13,940 --> 01:28:15,289 - Take it slow. Take it slow. 1960 01:28:15,333 --> 01:28:16,377 - It's okay, it's okay. - Okay. 1961 01:28:16,421 --> 01:28:18,205 JOHNNY: It's okay. 1962 01:28:26,648 --> 01:28:27,867 - Did I drop you? 1963 01:28:27,910 --> 01:28:29,738 - I jumped. 1964 01:28:29,782 --> 01:28:32,437 - Okay, good move. 1965 01:28:32,480 --> 01:28:33,655 I don't know what that was. 1966 01:28:33,699 --> 01:28:35,831 - You fainted. 1967 01:28:35,875 --> 01:28:37,572 - What? 1968 01:28:49,628 --> 01:28:51,804 Okay, I fainted. 1969 01:28:57,113 --> 01:28:59,638 Uh, maybe we shouldn't talk about it with anyone, 1970 01:28:59,681 --> 01:29:02,641 'cause it's embarrassing. 1971 01:29:02,684 --> 01:29:04,382 - It's not embarrassing! 1972 01:29:08,386 --> 01:29:10,344 - That must have been scary for you. 1973 01:29:12,520 --> 01:29:13,956 - Nah-uh. 1974 01:29:15,131 --> 01:29:16,524 - No, really? 1975 01:29:16,568 --> 01:29:18,178 - I was fine. 1976 01:29:21,834 --> 01:29:23,618 - I don't think I was fine 1977 01:29:23,662 --> 01:29:25,794 and I don't think you were fine. 1978 01:29:27,579 --> 01:29:29,058 [SIGHS] 1979 01:29:33,976 --> 01:29:36,022 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 1980 01:29:36,065 --> 01:29:38,503 - We have a zone of resiliency. 1981 01:29:38,546 --> 01:29:41,767 When we're out of the zone, we can meditate. 1982 01:29:41,810 --> 01:29:44,204 Just think of something that can bring you joy. 1983 01:29:45,335 --> 01:29:46,424 When you're stressed out, 1984 01:29:46,467 --> 01:29:48,556 you can use some of these techniques. 1985 01:29:48,600 --> 01:29:51,994 Shoulder-tapping, rock-tossing. 1986 01:29:54,388 --> 01:29:56,608 Finger-touching. 1987 01:30:00,394 --> 01:30:02,962 Or mindful breathing. 1988 01:30:04,398 --> 01:30:06,052 [TAKING DEEP BREATHS] 1989 01:30:12,101 --> 01:30:17,498 And, or you can just shake it off... 1990 01:30:17,542 --> 01:30:19,500 [GRUNTING] 1991 01:30:19,544 --> 01:30:22,677 [CHUCKLES] Yeah. 1992 01:30:23,809 --> 01:30:26,855 - That's amazing. Thank you. 1993 01:30:35,081 --> 01:30:36,517 Do you think we're alike? 1994 01:30:39,520 --> 01:30:41,391 - God, no. 1995 01:30:43,481 --> 01:30:44,873 - Yeah, we are. 1996 01:30:46,832 --> 01:30:48,094 - We are, we are. 1997 01:30:48,137 --> 01:30:49,965 - No, we are not. No, we are not. 1998 01:30:50,009 --> 01:30:52,011 - Yeah, we are. - No, we're not. 1999 01:30:52,054 --> 01:30:54,753 No, we are not! 2000 01:30:54,796 --> 01:30:56,189 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 2001 01:30:56,232 --> 01:30:57,233 - Well, I wanna be. 2002 01:30:57,277 --> 01:31:00,019 - I don't faint like you do. 2003 01:31:00,062 --> 01:31:02,674 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 2004 01:31:04,327 --> 01:31:05,851 GIRL: [ON TAPE] But I know a lot of kids are saying, 2005 01:31:05,894 --> 01:31:07,940 Oh, the world's gonna end and all that. 2006 01:31:07,983 --> 01:31:09,550 I don't think the world's gonna end. 2007 01:31:09,594 --> 01:31:12,988 I just think the world's not gonna be as clean 2008 01:31:13,032 --> 01:31:16,688 or as easy to get around or easy to breathe 2009 01:31:16,731 --> 01:31:18,341 or easy stuff like that. 2010 01:31:18,385 --> 01:31:21,693 JOHNNY: [ON TAPE] Yeah. Thank you so much. 2011 01:31:21,736 --> 01:31:22,911 This was really fun. 2012 01:31:29,439 --> 01:31:31,964 [CLEARS THROAT] 2013 01:31:32,007 --> 01:31:33,574 [EXHALES] 2014 01:31:33,618 --> 01:31:36,272 - Have you ever thought about the future? 2015 01:31:36,316 --> 01:31:39,101 Oh... [CLEARS THROAT] 2016 01:31:39,145 --> 01:31:40,799 [DEEPENS VOICE] Have you ever thought about the future? 2017 01:31:40,842 --> 01:31:42,583 Uh, yeah. 2018 01:31:42,627 --> 01:31:46,848 Uh, whatever you plan on happening, never happens. 2019 01:31:46,892 --> 01:31:49,808 Stuff you would never think of happens. 2020 01:31:51,331 --> 01:31:54,073 So you just have to... you have to come on, 2021 01:31:54,116 --> 01:31:58,294 come on, come on, come on, come on, 2022 01:31:58,338 --> 01:32:01,080 come on, come on, come on, 2023 01:32:01,123 --> 01:32:05,084 come on, come on, come on, come on. 2024 01:32:05,127 --> 01:32:07,260 [JESSE CHUCKLING] 2025 01:32:07,303 --> 01:32:09,567 VIV: [ON PHONE] Uh, so he slept. 2026 01:32:09,610 --> 01:32:11,220 He slept for two whole nights 2027 01:32:11,264 --> 01:32:13,222 and he's responding to his meds, 2028 01:32:13,266 --> 01:32:15,790 so the doctor said he can do outpatient care. 2029 01:32:15,834 --> 01:32:17,531 He just told me he can go home. 2030 01:32:17,575 --> 01:32:19,402 - He did? - Yeah. 2031 01:32:20,490 --> 01:32:23,232 - Wow. Um... 2032 01:32:23,276 --> 01:32:25,321 And how are you? You doin' all right? 2033 01:32:25,365 --> 01:32:26,627 [SCOFFS] 2034 01:32:26,671 --> 01:32:29,369 - I don't know. Yeah, just fine. 2035 01:32:30,457 --> 01:32:32,459 [SIGHS] 2036 01:32:32,502 --> 01:32:34,853 - Um, you wanna tell Jesse now? 2037 01:32:35,984 --> 01:32:38,639 - Yeah. 2038 01:32:38,683 --> 01:32:40,772 Johnny, thank you so much. 2039 01:32:40,815 --> 01:32:42,687 - Okay. 2040 01:32:42,730 --> 01:32:44,602 Jesse, it's your mom. 2041 01:32:47,779 --> 01:32:49,650 - Hello. 2042 01:32:49,694 --> 01:32:51,609 VIV: Hi, sweetie, how are you? 2043 01:32:51,652 --> 01:32:52,653 - I'm good. 2044 01:32:52,697 --> 01:32:54,002 - Oh, good. 2045 01:32:54,046 --> 01:32:57,092 So listen, your dad's doing so much better. 2046 01:32:57,136 --> 01:32:59,355 The doctors are gonna keep helping him, 2047 01:32:59,399 --> 01:33:01,880 but they thought he was well enough to go home. 2048 01:33:01,923 --> 01:33:04,534 So I'm gonna come get you, okay? 2049 01:33:04,578 --> 01:33:06,232 I'm just driving Moses home 2050 01:33:06,275 --> 01:33:08,669 and then I'm gonna be on the first flight out tomorrow. 2051 01:33:08,713 --> 01:33:11,890 Oh, I'm so excited, I can't wait to see you. 2052 01:33:11,933 --> 01:33:14,457 - Yep. 2053 01:33:14,501 --> 01:33:16,677 - Jesse? - Oh, take the phone, 2054 01:33:16,721 --> 01:33:17,896 take the phone, take the phone! 2055 01:33:17,939 --> 01:33:19,941 - Jesse. Sweetie, are you there? 2056 01:33:21,726 --> 01:33:23,379 Jesse? 2057 01:33:25,381 --> 01:33:30,560 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 2058 01:33:30,604 --> 01:33:39,395 ♪ 2059 01:33:54,497 --> 01:33:56,935 - You don't have to follow me everywhere. 2060 01:33:56,978 --> 01:33:59,067 - Come on, man. 2061 01:34:03,289 --> 01:34:06,422 - [SIGHS] I'm fine. 2062 01:34:06,466 --> 01:34:08,250 - Oh, yeah? 2063 01:34:08,294 --> 01:34:10,818 You can be not fine. 2064 01:34:13,081 --> 01:34:14,735 - But I'm fine. 2065 01:34:14,779 --> 01:34:17,825 - Okay, you know, when you're not in your zone, 2066 01:34:17,869 --> 01:34:21,916 like, your zone of resiliency, it's... 2067 01:34:21,960 --> 01:34:25,050 It's okay to not be fine, you know? 2068 01:34:25,093 --> 01:34:27,705 Like, you can be... 2069 01:34:27,748 --> 01:34:31,447 you know, angry, and... and sad, 2070 01:34:31,491 --> 01:34:34,276 and... and lost, and confused, 2071 01:34:34,320 --> 01:34:36,583 and that's okay. 2072 01:34:36,626 --> 01:34:39,238 - But I'm fine! 2073 01:34:39,281 --> 01:34:41,501 - Okay, but if you're ever not fine, 2074 01:34:41,544 --> 01:34:44,112 you can kick the air, you can throw a fit, 2075 01:34:44,156 --> 01:34:45,635 you can yell, 2076 01:34:45,679 --> 01:34:47,507 and it would be okay. 2077 01:34:47,550 --> 01:34:48,726 - [LOUDLY] I'm fine! 2078 01:34:48,769 --> 01:34:49,509 - It'd be a totally reasonable response! 2079 01:34:49,552 --> 01:34:50,466 It'd be reasonable! 2080 01:34:50,510 --> 01:34:52,642 You're not fine. 2081 01:34:52,686 --> 01:34:54,122 - [LOUDLY] I'm fine! 2082 01:34:55,820 --> 01:34:57,430 - [YELLING] Yeah, I'm not fine! 2083 01:34:57,473 --> 01:34:59,084 - I'm fine! 2084 01:34:59,127 --> 01:35:03,175 - I'm not fine and that's a totally reasonable response! 2085 01:35:06,004 --> 01:35:06,961 [IN NORMAL TONE] Come on, man. 2086 01:35:07,005 --> 01:35:07,832 [JESSE SCREAMING] 2087 01:35:07,875 --> 01:35:09,572 -Yeah. 2088 01:35:11,226 --> 01:35:13,098 - I'm not fine! - Yeah. 2089 01:35:13,141 --> 01:35:15,753 - And that is a totally reasonable response! 2090 01:35:15,796 --> 01:35:19,234 - Yeah. This is fucked up and that makes sense! 2091 01:35:19,278 --> 01:35:22,411 - This is fucked up and that makes sense! 2092 01:35:22,455 --> 01:35:25,501 - [SHOUTS] How could this being so fucked up make sense? 2093 01:35:25,545 --> 01:35:27,677 - It's fucked! 2094 01:35:27,721 --> 01:35:30,637 [BOTH SCREAMING] 2095 01:35:30,680 --> 01:35:33,901 [SCREAMING] 2096 01:35:33,945 --> 01:35:39,298 [BOTH SCREAMING] 2097 01:35:39,341 --> 01:35:43,215 [BOTH GRUNTING] 2098 01:35:47,132 --> 01:35:48,611 Yeah. 2099 01:35:48,655 --> 01:35:50,265 [GRUNTING] 2100 01:35:50,309 --> 01:35:53,747 [BOTH SCREAMING] 2101 01:35:55,662 --> 01:35:57,403 Are you laughing or crying? I can't... I can't tell. 2102 01:35:57,446 --> 01:35:58,883 I wanna have the appropriate reaction. 2103 01:36:02,234 --> 01:36:03,888 Hey, man, come here. 2104 01:36:05,933 --> 01:36:07,065 Let me... Let me look at you. 2105 01:36:07,108 --> 01:36:08,457 - Mm. - Are you laughing? 2106 01:36:08,501 --> 01:36:09,763 Is that a smile? 2107 01:36:09,807 --> 01:36:11,634 Is that your big stupid smile? 2108 01:36:20,905 --> 01:36:22,515 - Are you all right? - Yeah. 2109 01:36:22,558 --> 01:36:24,082 - All right. 2110 01:36:25,083 --> 01:36:26,562 - Are you gonna faint? 2111 01:36:26,606 --> 01:36:29,348 - No. 2112 01:36:29,391 --> 01:36:31,785 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 2113 01:36:31,829 --> 01:36:36,355 I got my shoulder-touching, finger-tapping, rock-throwing. 2114 01:36:36,398 --> 01:36:37,922 Why are you throwing rocks, by the way? 2115 01:36:39,749 --> 01:36:42,404 JESSE: Do you think I'm gonna be like my dad when I'm older? 2116 01:36:43,841 --> 01:36:45,973 - I think you have it better, Jesse. 2117 01:36:46,017 --> 01:36:47,932 - Why? 2118 01:36:47,975 --> 01:36:51,805 - 'Cause you are just... I don't know. 2119 01:36:51,849 --> 01:36:53,067 You know yourself more, 2120 01:36:53,111 --> 01:36:56,157 you're able to like express yourself 2121 01:36:56,201 --> 01:36:58,594 and your feeling, that's what your mom taught you. 2122 01:36:58,638 --> 01:37:03,034 So you are way ahead of the game, believe me. 2123 01:37:04,513 --> 01:37:05,863 Means you're looking better. 2124 01:37:13,174 --> 01:37:14,828 - Lots of blah, blah, blah. 2125 01:37:14,872 --> 01:37:17,135 - Lots of blah, blah, blah. 2126 01:37:17,178 --> 01:37:21,530 - Be funny, comma, when you can, period. 2127 01:37:21,574 --> 01:37:22,923 - What's that? 2128 01:37:22,967 --> 01:37:24,577 - My dad used to say that to me. 2129 01:37:24,620 --> 01:37:25,534 - Really? 2130 01:37:25,578 --> 01:37:26,927 - Yeah. 2131 01:37:26,971 --> 01:37:28,537 - That's funny. 2132 01:37:30,583 --> 01:37:31,714 VIV: Hi! 2133 01:37:31,758 --> 01:37:32,628 JESSE: Mama! 2134 01:37:32,672 --> 01:37:34,065 [SCREAMING] 2135 01:37:42,812 --> 01:37:46,947 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATION] 2136 01:37:46,991 --> 01:37:48,122 VIV: Hi. JOHNNY: Hi. 2137 01:37:48,166 --> 01:37:51,125 VIV: Hi. JESSE: Hi, hi, hi. 2138 01:37:51,169 --> 01:37:52,561 JOHNNY: Hi. VIV: Oh. 2139 01:37:57,262 --> 01:37:59,438 VIV: Hey. Hey. 2140 01:38:01,831 --> 01:38:06,358 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATION] 2141 01:38:06,401 --> 01:38:10,014 ALL: ...two, three... 2142 01:38:11,493 --> 01:38:18,022 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 2143 01:38:21,155 --> 01:38:23,462 [JESSE CHUCKLING] 2144 01:38:23,505 --> 01:38:25,290 SUNNI: Bye, you guys. FERN: Bye. 2145 01:38:25,333 --> 01:38:27,553 So he needs a lot of protein with every meal 2146 01:38:27,596 --> 01:38:30,643 and no screen time on the weekdays. 2147 01:38:30,686 --> 01:38:33,907 Weekends, one hour a day and that's it, all right? 2148 01:38:33,951 --> 01:38:35,169 - Bye. 2149 01:38:40,392 --> 01:38:41,436 - I love you. 2150 01:38:42,568 --> 01:38:43,961 - I love you. 2151 01:39:10,639 --> 01:39:12,598 JESSE: [ON TAPE] Have you ever thought about the future? 2152 01:39:12,641 --> 01:39:16,036 [DEEPENED VOICE] Have you ever thought about the future? 2153 01:39:16,080 --> 01:39:17,646 Uh, yeah. 2154 01:39:17,690 --> 01:39:19,692 Uh, whatever you plan on happening, 2155 01:39:19,735 --> 01:39:21,955 never happens. 2156 01:39:21,999 --> 01:39:25,350 Stuff you would never think of happens. 2157 01:39:25,393 --> 01:39:28,527 So you just have to... You have to come on, 2158 01:39:28,570 --> 01:39:31,617 come on, come on, come on, come on, 2159 01:39:31,660 --> 01:39:35,751 come on, come on, come on, come on. 2160 01:39:35,795 --> 01:39:38,754 [JESSE CHUCKLES] 2161 01:39:38,798 --> 01:39:41,888 Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny. 2162 01:39:43,455 --> 01:39:45,022 Johnny is a bit strange. 2163 01:39:47,763 --> 01:39:49,983 Um, he's really fun. 2164 01:39:52,551 --> 01:39:53,943 He makes me laugh. 2165 01:39:55,771 --> 01:39:57,643 He's really funny when he wrestles. 2166 01:39:57,686 --> 01:39:59,645 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 2167 01:39:59,688 --> 01:40:01,821 He might be my best friend, 2168 01:40:03,344 --> 01:40:05,607 'cause he only has only has two... two... 2169 01:40:05,651 --> 01:40:07,609 He only has two friends, 2170 01:40:07,653 --> 01:40:09,785 but he might be my best friend. 2171 01:40:09,829 --> 01:40:11,961 I don't know. 2172 01:40:16,096 --> 01:40:18,359 Blah, bablah, blah, blah. 2173 01:40:21,145 --> 01:40:23,277 - I would say so blah, blah, 2174 01:40:23,321 --> 01:40:25,932 blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 2175 01:40:25,975 --> 01:40:28,326 [SIGHS] 2176 01:40:28,369 --> 01:40:30,502 Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 2177 01:40:33,026 --> 01:40:34,332 - You ready? 2178 01:40:35,985 --> 01:40:40,599 JOHNNY: [ON TAPE] Hey, Jesse, this is Mozart, 2179 01:40:40,642 --> 01:40:44,559 your intense and overly emotional uncle. 2180 01:40:46,257 --> 01:40:50,435 When I woke up, you were blaring crazy opera music. 2181 01:40:52,132 --> 01:40:55,962 I was surprised that your mom had left, 2182 01:40:57,485 --> 01:40:59,444 but you didn't seem bothered about it. 2183 01:41:00,314 --> 01:41:02,795 You just pretty much... 2184 01:41:02,838 --> 01:41:04,797 [SIGHS] 2185 01:41:04,840 --> 01:41:07,060 ...accepted me. 2186 01:41:07,104 --> 01:41:09,062 I showed you my recorder, 2187 01:41:09,106 --> 01:41:11,325 but you didn't want to be interviewed. 2188 01:41:11,369 --> 01:41:14,502 You recorded the beach, the sounds of the city. 2189 01:41:14,546 --> 01:41:16,722 I had to go back to New York 2190 01:41:16,765 --> 01:41:18,419 and I asked you to come with me, 2191 01:41:18,463 --> 01:41:21,553 and you just said, I'd love that. 2192 01:41:21,596 --> 01:41:22,945 And you couldn't sleep, 2193 01:41:22,989 --> 01:41:25,383 and you were just talking a mile a minute, 2194 01:41:25,426 --> 01:41:27,211 and you had so many things to say, 2195 01:41:27,254 --> 01:41:28,516 and what about approaches, 2196 01:41:28,560 --> 01:41:29,822 and how to record... 2197 01:41:29,865 --> 01:41:32,433 And I could never actually stop you, 2198 01:41:32,477 --> 01:41:36,785 and then I kept trying, and I wish I wouldn't have. 2199 01:41:36,829 --> 01:41:39,832 Now I wanna hear all of your crazy thoughts 2200 01:41:39,875 --> 01:41:41,312 and cool ideas. 2201 01:41:42,965 --> 01:41:46,273 And then we were in bed, you asked... 2202 01:41:46,317 --> 01:41:48,623 - Are you gonna remember any of this? 2203 01:41:50,625 --> 01:41:54,063 [HESITATES] Uhm, What do you mean? 2204 01:41:57,241 --> 01:41:59,895 And that's, like, our awesome sleepovers. 2205 01:42:01,984 --> 01:42:04,117 - And you said you won't remember it. 2206 01:42:04,161 --> 01:42:07,207 No, I said, "You won't remember it." 2207 01:42:07,251 --> 01:42:08,817 I'll remember it. 2208 01:42:10,776 --> 01:42:12,995 - I won't remember? 2209 01:42:14,693 --> 01:42:19,001 JOHNNY: I said, I hope you do, 2210 01:42:20,960 --> 01:42:24,572 and you got so upset, 2211 01:42:24,616 --> 01:42:28,097 and I said, 2212 01:42:28,141 --> 01:42:33,755 I'll remind you of everything. 2213 01:42:38,412 --> 01:42:45,724 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 2214 01:42:50,294 --> 01:42:56,213 [BIRDS CHIRPING] 2215 01:42:57,823 --> 01:43:02,828 [WAVES CRASHING] 2216 01:43:04,786 --> 01:43:07,920 JOHNNY: Do you think it's easy to understand your feelings? 2217 01:43:07,963 --> 01:43:10,357 Like, do you have access to... To what you feel or... 2218 01:43:10,401 --> 01:43:13,360 BOY: Hmm, the only thing that I do have 2219 01:43:13,404 --> 01:43:15,014 is that I know that I'm safe. 2220 01:43:16,102 --> 01:43:17,364 - That's beautiful. - Hmm. 2221 01:43:17,408 --> 01:43:20,106 - Uh, what... What makes you feel safe? 2222 01:43:20,149 --> 01:43:22,195 - I'm in a home where people care about me. 2223 01:43:22,239 --> 01:43:24,502 And I have friends that care about me 2224 01:43:24,545 --> 01:43:27,200 and everything like that. 2225 01:43:28,680 --> 01:43:29,768 GIRL: Um, I would definitely 2226 01:43:29,811 --> 01:43:31,335 take a lot of what my parents did 2227 01:43:31,378 --> 01:43:35,556 into account of how I parent my future children. 2228 01:43:35,600 --> 01:43:38,646 I would talk to them about what they want, 2229 01:43:38,690 --> 01:43:41,606 and, like, what they feel would be the best for them, 2230 01:43:41,649 --> 01:43:43,999 and make it known, like they could talk, 2231 01:43:44,043 --> 01:43:45,392 but I wouldn't force them. 2232 01:43:45,436 --> 01:43:46,654 I wouldn't be like, Hey, just so you know 2233 01:43:46,698 --> 01:43:48,003 we can talk all the time, 2234 01:43:48,047 --> 01:43:50,136 'cause sometimes parents do that. 2235 01:43:50,179 --> 01:43:51,485 JOHNNY: Mm-hmm. 2236 01:43:51,529 --> 01:43:52,530 And it gets annoying and they'll be like... 2237 01:43:52,573 --> 01:43:54,227 BOY 2: It's sort of scary, uh, 2238 01:43:54,271 --> 01:43:55,750 to talk to other people sometimes. 2239 01:43:55,794 --> 01:43:56,882 JOHNNY: Mm-hmm. 2240 01:43:56,925 --> 01:43:59,798 - Because, um, uh, personally, 2241 01:43:59,841 --> 01:44:01,321 I feel like you never know what they're gonna say next. 2242 01:44:01,365 --> 01:44:03,062 So... 2243 01:44:03,105 --> 01:44:04,106 SUNNI: ...right? 2244 01:44:04,150 --> 01:44:06,021 In your... If you had this... 2245 01:44:06,065 --> 01:44:07,632 this superpower, what'd you do? 2246 01:44:07,675 --> 01:44:09,590 What would it be? 2247 01:44:09,634 --> 01:44:11,026 GIRL: I don't know. I don't think 2248 01:44:11,070 --> 01:44:13,028 I would ever, like, use a superpower. 2249 01:44:13,072 --> 01:44:14,247 I think I would just be me. 2250 01:44:14,291 --> 01:44:15,770 Like, me is my superpower. 2251 01:44:15,814 --> 01:44:17,119 SUNNI: Yeah. 2252 01:44:17,163 --> 01:44:18,207 GIRL: And like I use it to help people 2253 01:44:18,251 --> 01:44:19,383 and use it in ways that's... 2254 01:44:19,426 --> 01:44:21,994 that have never been done before. 2255 01:44:22,037 --> 01:44:23,212 SUNNI: Mmm. 2256 01:44:23,256 --> 01:44:24,823 GIRL: Yeah. 2257 01:44:24,866 --> 01:44:26,781 SUNNI: That's super. [CHUCKLES] 2258 01:44:26,825 --> 01:44:28,305 JOHNNY: What about you, London? 2259 01:44:28,348 --> 01:44:29,871 What's the worst thing that's ever happened to you? 2260 01:44:29,915 --> 01:44:33,266 GIRL: Uh, it would probably be either the fact that 2261 01:44:33,310 --> 01:44:35,224 I can I have a nasty personality 2262 01:44:35,268 --> 01:44:38,140 that clashes with my siblings or the fact that 2263 01:44:38,184 --> 01:44:39,838 I might have to have surgery 2264 01:44:39,881 --> 01:44:41,579 when I'm older on this one tooth 2265 01:44:41,622 --> 01:44:42,623 'cause it's like... 2266 01:44:42,667 --> 01:44:43,581 BOY: Well, 2267 01:44:43,624 --> 01:44:45,974 uh, maybe humanity ends, 2268 01:44:46,018 --> 01:44:47,976 just humans cease to exist on this earth. 2269 01:44:48,020 --> 01:44:49,369 I mean, uh... 2270 01:44:49,413 --> 01:44:51,153 I don't really know 2271 01:44:51,197 --> 01:44:52,590 if that's a good thing or a bad thing. 2272 01:44:52,633 --> 01:44:54,461 Uh, I mean, if we're... 2273 01:44:54,505 --> 01:44:55,984 GIRL 2: Yeah, like I want 2274 01:44:56,028 --> 01:44:58,160 everybody to be kind to each other and 2275 01:44:58,204 --> 01:45:00,380 I don't know, like, any harm 2276 01:45:00,424 --> 01:45:06,038 or any anger towards anybody. Like, why? Why? 2277 01:45:06,081 --> 01:45:09,128 Wouldn't... Wouldn't you rather be happy 2278 01:45:09,171 --> 01:45:10,782 than angry at someone? 2279 01:45:10,825 --> 01:45:11,870 SUNNI: Mm-hmm. 2280 01:45:11,913 --> 01:45:13,175 And why do those things 2281 01:45:13,219 --> 01:45:15,047 when you can just come together... 2282 01:45:15,090 --> 01:45:18,224 JOHNNY: So... What... Describe adults for me. 2283 01:45:18,267 --> 01:45:20,618 Like, what do you think an adult is? 2284 01:45:20,661 --> 01:45:24,796 BOY 2: It's... An adult, mm... 2285 01:45:24,839 --> 01:45:27,712 All adults have to do is get money 2286 01:45:27,755 --> 01:45:29,888 and have to pay student loans. Got 'em. 2287 01:45:29,931 --> 01:45:33,152 [JAZZ MUSIC PLAYING] 2288 01:45:33,195 --> 01:45:35,241 BOY 3: I think that I get excited 2289 01:45:35,284 --> 01:45:37,025 'cause I know that I can do something to make the world, 2290 01:45:37,069 --> 01:45:39,680 the world a better place and I also think that 2291 01:45:39,724 --> 01:45:42,117 it's kinda devastating, because, like, I'm 14, 2292 01:45:42,161 --> 01:45:44,337 why should I be worried about the way the world looks, 2293 01:45:44,381 --> 01:45:45,947 or like, I should be able to... 2294 01:45:45,991 --> 01:45:47,384 JOHNNY: Do you ever think about 2295 01:45:47,427 --> 01:45:49,777 what happens after you die? 2296 01:45:49,821 --> 01:45:52,127 GIRL 3: Even though, like, the scientific thing to say 2297 01:45:52,171 --> 01:45:54,086 is that we don't think at all, 2298 01:45:54,129 --> 01:45:56,262 our bodies decompose 2299 01:45:56,305 --> 01:45:59,787 and, uh, like, life continues on without us. 2300 01:45:59,831 --> 01:46:01,093 - Mm-hmm. 2301 01:46:01,136 --> 01:46:05,445 - But why would we be made to just die? 2302 01:46:05,489 --> 01:46:06,664 - Mm-hmm. 2303 01:46:06,707 --> 01:46:08,143 - There's probably that... 2304 01:46:08,187 --> 01:46:09,449 There's probably not a reason 2305 01:46:09,493 --> 01:46:11,712 but there might be a reason behind it. 2306 01:46:11,756 --> 01:46:14,454 Somehow, I don't know, I'm not sure. 2307 01:46:14,498 --> 01:46:17,326 BOY 4: Kids tend to think freely. 2308 01:46:17,370 --> 01:46:20,025 Adults when they think, they think in a tight space. 2309 01:46:20,068 --> 01:46:21,418 You get what I'm saying... 2310 01:46:21,461 --> 01:46:23,507 GIRL 4: I think... it's hard. 2311 01:46:23,550 --> 01:46:27,032 I think it's probably a cross between mind reading and flying. 2312 01:46:27,075 --> 01:46:30,296 Mind reading because if someone's sad, 2313 01:46:30,339 --> 01:46:32,254 they usually won't tell you what's going on. 2314 01:46:32,298 --> 01:46:35,388 And I'm a little bit of a... 2315 01:46:35,432 --> 01:46:37,434 that kind of person that is a little... 2316 01:46:37,477 --> 01:46:39,653 GIRL 5: Apparently, scientific studies, 2317 01:46:39,697 --> 01:46:41,786 I'm not saying this is completely true or whatever, 2318 01:46:41,829 --> 01:46:43,352 it's just what I've heard, 2319 01:46:43,396 --> 01:46:45,050 but, uh, your brain 2320 01:46:45,093 --> 01:46:46,530 has to knock out some old memories 2321 01:46:46,573 --> 01:46:49,402 to be able to save new ones. 2322 01:46:49,446 --> 01:46:52,013 GIRL 6: So I feel like there's two types of Americans, like, 2323 01:46:52,057 --> 01:46:53,885 people who can constantly get what they want 2324 01:46:53,928 --> 01:46:55,364 and have what they need, 2325 01:46:55,408 --> 01:46:56,714 and then there's the other type 2326 01:46:56,757 --> 01:46:58,367 where they kind of have to struggle 2327 01:46:58,411 --> 01:47:02,371 and work harder for the things that they need. 2328 01:47:02,415 --> 01:47:04,112 BOY 5: It's not the way we look, 2329 01:47:04,156 --> 01:47:06,767 but it's, like, how we are on the inside that's... 2330 01:47:06,811 --> 01:47:10,423 Just like you can't judge a book by its cover, 2331 01:47:10,467 --> 01:47:13,644 it's the same with humans. 2332 01:47:13,687 --> 01:47:17,561 GIRL 7: So I like to look at the positive side of things. 2333 01:47:17,604 --> 01:47:20,477 Um, I like to think about, 2334 01:47:20,520 --> 01:47:22,391 um, like new inventions that might 2335 01:47:22,435 --> 01:47:25,438 actually help save the world. 2336 01:47:25,482 --> 01:47:29,007 I think about going into space and discovering a new planet 2337 01:47:29,050 --> 01:47:32,837 and then maybe like building a life there. 2338 01:47:32,880 --> 01:47:35,448 JOHNNY: What do you hope that you really remember 2339 01:47:35,492 --> 01:47:37,624 about your mom and your dad? 2340 01:47:37,668 --> 01:47:39,887 GIRL 8: That they were always there for me, 2341 01:47:39,931 --> 01:47:43,064 that they always love me. They say...[CHUCKLES] 2342 01:47:43,108 --> 01:47:44,718 I tell her 2343 01:47:44,762 --> 01:47:47,504 good night every night and... 2344 01:47:47,547 --> 01:47:50,245 [SNIFFLES] I always tell her that I love her, 2345 01:47:50,289 --> 01:47:52,639 just like out of the blue and she would do the same. 2346 01:47:52,683 --> 01:47:54,380 [VOICE BREAKS] And I really feel 2347 01:47:54,423 --> 01:47:56,382 that strong connection with her. 2348 01:47:56,425 --> 01:47:59,907 JOHNNY: If you could have any superpower, 2349 01:47:59,951 --> 01:48:01,822 what would it be? 2350 01:48:01,866 --> 01:48:04,085 BOY 6: The ability to bend space and time. 2351 01:48:04,129 --> 01:48:06,740 [JOHNNY AND BOY 6 CHUCKLE] 2352 01:48:06,784 --> 01:48:09,830 GIRL 9: If you were what you believe is a good person 2353 01:48:09,874 --> 01:48:11,789 and you ask whoever you believe in, 2354 01:48:11,832 --> 01:48:13,878 Hey, can I be reincarnated 2355 01:48:13,921 --> 01:48:15,662 into, I don't know, like a tiger? 2356 01:48:15,706 --> 01:48:17,490 And you were a good person then they would be like, 2357 01:48:17,534 --> 01:48:18,926 Yeah, you can be a tiger, go ahead. 2358 01:48:18,970 --> 01:48:21,973 [TRAIN CHUGGING] 2359 01:48:22,016 --> 01:48:25,237 BOY 7: Well, I feel like if we die, 2360 01:48:25,280 --> 01:48:27,587 like, we don't really feel anything, 2361 01:48:27,631 --> 01:48:29,763 all like memories are gone and stuff. 2362 01:48:29,807 --> 01:48:32,287 And we're just like, we'll just see you wait 2363 01:48:32,331 --> 01:48:34,899 becoming a baby.[CHUCKLES] 2364 01:48:34,942 --> 01:48:36,422 And, yeah, 2365 01:48:36,465 --> 01:48:38,903 getting born and then just restarting life. 2366 01:48:38,946 --> 01:48:42,254 Like, I'm not sure 'cause I've never been dead before. 2367 01:48:43,472 --> 01:48:44,604 GIRL 10: Sit down 2368 01:48:44,648 --> 01:48:46,824 and close your eyes, 2369 01:48:46,867 --> 01:48:49,957 and try to find yourself. 2370 01:48:50,001 --> 01:48:54,353 Because I feel like that's what you really have to do, 2371 01:48:54,396 --> 01:48:56,529 to know what you want. 2372 01:48:56,573 --> 01:49:01,316 Like, find a way that you feel comfortable finding yourself. 2373 01:49:02,927 --> 01:49:05,582 You know, you gotta find to find.