-I was thinking about how doctors in the Middle Ages used to bleed people.
You know, they thought by...
cutting the patient and letting them bleed, that they could...
pull the sickness out of them.
And I think in a way, that was what I was trying to do.
When I made that first cut...
I could almost feel the wrong being...
sucked out of me,
and I actually felt high.
- Its appeal must be difficult to resist, Phil,
but we know it's just like any other drug, right?
We've been chasing it for years now
but the high's never been the same nor the relief.
- Yeah, that's true. - DR. M: It's your time, Phil.
Anything else you would like to share?
- I'm good.
- You cut yourself for fun, I wouldn't say you are good, dude.
- Leave him alone.
- Does she tie your shoes, too, Phil? - DR. M: Chad.
We're a non-confrontational therapeutic group.
Treat others as you yourself want to be treated.
- OK.
-Diarrhea of the mouth is a real sickness, huh, Chad?
- DR. M: All right, enough. Enough, every one.
Jane, I don't want you to handle that now.
- Well, I can't think of anything positive to say right now.
- Come on, you've been such a strong presence here, anything.
- OK.
I'm a planner.
And if I can't see what's ahead of me, I lose my shit, which is...
probably why I'm in here.
Life is impossible to plan, so I'm constantly losing my shit.
I come from a family of--of suicides.
My grandmother, my father...
and now me.
But you don't need to know any of that. What you need to know is...
when I get on that plane tonight, I will never arrive home.
My body will but...
the airy part of me, my soul, if you must, will not.
When the lights go down and everyone nods off to sleep,
I will unbuckle my seatbelt,
make my way to the lavatory,
take a handful of oblivion
and just sleep forever.
- DR. M: Jane?
Is everything OK? If you wanna say something? Last chance.
- Yeah...
Um...
I'm gonna miss your faces.
They saved me, more than once.
And for that, I'm forever grateful but...
I don't wanna ever be here again.
And that's not to say that I don't want to see any of you guys again, I just...
not here.
- Get a room, ladies. - GIRL: Shut up!
- Chad...
- No, no, no, I'll be there, OK? It's far too late.
- Mom, please don't pick me up. I'll just take an Uber.
-Jane, just don't argue with me, OK?
I'll be there. It's New York. It's not safe that late at night.
I have a great day planned for us in New York.
We'll go to that chocolate shop, you remember that? Serendipity?
Frozen hot chocolate with your dad?
Jane?
- I know, it's...
It's my fault, Mom.
You're just being good to me, you've always just been good to me,
I'm just so-- I'm... useless, I'm so fucking useless.
- Jane, look, please, just-- It's OK. - Look, Mom, I gotta go.
-Please don't go. - OK, but, I, I love you.
Always remember that.
♪ I should go now quietly ♪
I looked in my mother's eyes this morning knowing that what I was about to do to her
would be so much worse than what he did to me.
I thought my father a narcissist for leaving me.
But this girl I see before me,
she understands him.
And yet it's the pain I feel now is what he felt.
♪ ...Meet my creators ♪
I have to forgive him.
♪ ...That I'm a suffocator ♪
♪ ...Suffocator ♪
Deep breaths, what's up? What's going on?
-Ladies and gentlemen flight 270 to Albuquerque, New Mexico...
- WOMAN: Let's keep the line moving people.
-I've got it.
- Looks like our CrossFit's paying off. - ...Stop it!
- Oh, he's embarrassed!
I'm sorry, we just got engaged.
- Oh, it's beautiful. - Oh, thank you.
It was at his mom's, but I had it reset
...with a much bigger stone.
- Something in your pockets?
Your belt buckle? - No, it's the jacket.
- We're getting married on a mountain top on New Year's Eve.
- That sound's nice.
-There's so many zippers on this thing.
- Wow, I don't know what else...
- Do we have a problem, miss?
- Um... my flight is boarding. - Let me see your boarding pass, please.
It says 5:00 PM here.
You have plenty of time. Please wait in the line.
- I can't. - MAN: What do you mean you can't?
- Miss?
- Hey, it's all good, man.
She can go ahead.
I'm holding up the line, it's my fault.
So, forgot about my keys, sorry, man. It has pockets everywhere.
- Oh, shit, shit, shit!
Breathe.
Five...
Four, three,
two, one.
Hey, Dr. M.
- DR. M: Jane, Jane, I have a situation here at Life House
I have Kara here with me
and she's suggesting that you're planning on doing something.
Is that correct?
- Kara, she can't sleep when I'm not there, you know that.
Why don't you ask her about that?
- Is that true what she's saying that you can't sleep?
Are you trying to keep her from living, Kara.
OK, OK, Jane, listen to me, I'm concerned.
I want you to wait at the airport for me.
I think we should speak in person before you fly home.
- Dr.--Dr. M, I wish I could. I just-- It's Kara,
you know what she's like, she's not in her right mind.
She's a liar, she's a compulsive liar. She doesn't want me to leave
because she's not loved herself.
-I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!
- Um... Uh, Dr. M...
I gotta go, I gotta go.
My flight is boarding. Fuck!
Fuck.
- I hate you! I hate you!
- Fuck, fuck, fuck!
-Hello?
Hello?
Is everything OK?
- Whoa!
- What are you doing in here?
- I'm sorry but the better question is what are you doing in here?
This is the mens' room.