1 00:00:11,977 --> 00:00:16,267 -I was thinking about how doctors in the Middle Ages used to bleed people. 2 00:00:16,815 --> 00:00:18,105 You know, they thought by... 3 00:00:18,693 --> 00:00:21,613 cutting the patient and letting them bleed, that they could... 4 00:00:21,695 --> 00:00:23,775 pull the sickness out of them. 5 00:00:23,864 --> 00:00:28,084 And I think in a way, that was what I was trying to do. 6 00:00:29,412 --> 00:00:30,832 When I made that first cut... 7 00:00:31,789 --> 00:00:35,879 I could almost feel the wrong being... 8 00:00:36,753 --> 00:00:37,923 sucked out of me, 9 00:00:39,130 --> 00:00:41,130 and I actually felt high. 10 00:00:43,676 --> 00:00:46,256 - Its appeal must be difficult to resist, Phil, 11 00:00:46,345 --> 00:00:48,765 but we know it's just like any other drug, right? 12 00:00:49,181 --> 00:00:50,771 We've been chasing it for years now 13 00:00:50,849 --> 00:00:53,349 but the high's never been the same nor the relief. 14 00:00:53,645 --> 00:00:55,645 - Yeah, that's true. - DR. M: It's your time, Phil. 15 00:00:56,439 --> 00:00:58,189 Anything else you would like to share? 16 00:01:01,360 --> 00:01:02,320 - I'm good. 17 00:01:02,403 --> 00:01:04,283 - You cut yourself for fun, I wouldn't say you are good, dude. 18 00:01:04,363 --> 00:01:05,953 - Leave him alone. 19 00:01:07,074 --> 00:01:09,034 - Does she tie your shoes, too, Phil? - DR. M: Chad. 20 00:01:09,410 --> 00:01:11,870 We're a non-confrontational therapeutic group. 21 00:01:11,954 --> 00:01:14,294 Treat others as you yourself want to be treated. 22 00:01:14,374 --> 00:01:15,254 - OK. 23 00:01:15,375 --> 00:01:18,795 -Diarrhea of the mouth is a real sickness, huh, Chad? 24 00:01:18,878 --> 00:01:20,918 - DR. M: All right, enough. Enough, every one. 25 00:01:21,214 --> 00:01:23,634 Jane, I don't want you to handle that now. 26 00:01:24,634 --> 00:01:27,604 - Well, I can't think of anything positive to say right now. 27 00:01:27,679 --> 00:01:30,429 - Come on, you've been such a strong presence here, anything. 28 00:01:34,769 --> 00:01:35,689 - OK. 29 00:01:38,189 --> 00:01:39,399 I'm a planner. 30 00:01:40,608 --> 00:01:43,938 And if I can't see what's ahead of me, I lose my shit, which is... 31 00:01:44,904 --> 00:01:46,284 probably why I'm in here. 32 00:01:47,907 --> 00:01:51,407 Life is impossible to plan, so I'm constantly losing my shit. 33 00:01:54,121 --> 00:01:57,291 I come from a family of--of suicides. 34 00:01:58,501 --> 00:02:00,751 My grandmother, my father... 35 00:02:02,129 --> 00:02:03,169 and now me. 36 00:02:05,132 --> 00:02:08,472 But you don't need to know any of that. What you need to know is... 37 00:02:09,387 --> 00:02:13,597 when I get on that plane tonight, I will never arrive home. 38 00:02:15,351 --> 00:02:16,601 My body will but... 39 00:02:17,395 --> 00:02:22,225 the airy part of me, my soul, if you must, will not. 40 00:02:25,236 --> 00:02:28,566 When the lights go down and everyone nods off to sleep, 41 00:02:28,656 --> 00:02:30,906 I will unbuckle my seatbelt, 42 00:02:32,285 --> 00:02:34,285 make my way to the lavatory, 43 00:02:35,538 --> 00:02:37,418 take a handful of oblivion 44 00:02:38,291 --> 00:02:41,501 and just sleep forever. 45 00:02:42,336 --> 00:02:43,206 - DR. M: Jane? 46 00:02:45,715 --> 00:02:48,545 Is everything OK? If you wanna say something? Last chance. 47 00:02:52,722 --> 00:02:53,812 - Yeah... 48 00:02:55,266 --> 00:02:56,136 Um... 49 00:02:59,103 --> 00:03:00,653 I'm gonna miss your faces. 50 00:03:02,565 --> 00:03:05,105 They saved me, more than once. 51 00:03:06,152 --> 00:03:09,662 And for that, I'm forever grateful but... 52 00:03:10,740 --> 00:03:12,530 I don't wanna ever be here again. 53 00:03:13,868 --> 00:03:17,038 And that's not to say that I don't want to see any of you guys again, I just... 54 00:03:19,290 --> 00:03:20,670 not here. 55 00:03:26,798 --> 00:03:28,258 - Get a room, ladies. - GIRL: Shut up! 56 00:03:28,341 --> 00:03:29,261 - Chad... 57 00:03:35,807 --> 00:03:40,097 - No, no, no, I'll be there, OK? It's far too late. 58 00:03:40,186 --> 00:03:43,226 - Mom, please don't pick me up. I'll just take an Uber. 59 00:03:43,314 --> 00:03:45,654 -Jane, just don't argue with me, OK? 60 00:03:45,733 --> 00:03:48,443 I'll be there. It's New York. It's not safe that late at night. 61 00:03:48,903 --> 00:03:51,413 I have a great day planned for us in New York. 62 00:03:51,489 --> 00:03:54,579 We'll go to that chocolate shop, you remember that? Serendipity? 63 00:03:54,951 --> 00:03:56,871 Frozen hot chocolate with your dad? 64 00:03:59,121 --> 00:03:59,961 Jane? 65 00:04:04,335 --> 00:04:05,455 - I know, it's... 66 00:04:06,838 --> 00:04:08,168 It's my fault, Mom. 67 00:04:09,215 --> 00:04:12,255 You're just being good to me, you've always just been good to me, 68 00:04:12,343 --> 00:04:16,473 I'm just so-- I'm... useless, I'm so fucking useless. 69 00:04:16,556 --> 00:04:20,806 - Jane, look, please, just-- It's OK. - Look, Mom, I gotta go. 70 00:04:21,227 --> 00:04:24,437 -Please don't go. - OK, but, I, I love you. 71 00:04:25,189 --> 00:04:26,569 Always remember that. 72 00:04:27,734 --> 00:04:30,864 ♪ I should go now quietly ♪ 73 00:04:31,445 --> 00:04:36,115 I looked in my mother's eyes this morning knowing that what I was about to do to her 74 00:04:36,200 --> 00:04:39,080 would be so much worse than what he did to me. 75 00:04:41,247 --> 00:04:44,417 I thought my father a narcissist for leaving me. 76 00:04:45,418 --> 00:04:47,878 But this girl I see before me, 77 00:04:49,463 --> 00:04:51,013 she understands him. 78 00:04:52,884 --> 00:04:57,514 And yet it's the pain I feel now is what he felt. 79 00:04:57,764 --> 00:05:01,104 ♪ ...Meet my creators ♪ 80 00:05:03,770 --> 00:05:04,980 I have to forgive him. 81 00:05:06,773 --> 00:05:11,613 ♪ ...That I'm a suffocator ♪ 82 00:05:12,194 --> 00:05:15,954 ♪ ...Suffocator ♪ 83 00:05:16,156 --> 00:05:19,906 ♪ ...Suffocator ♪ 84 00:05:20,077 --> 00:05:23,037 ♪ ...Suffocator ♪ 85 00:05:34,258 --> 00:05:36,678 Deep breaths, what's up? What's going on? 86 00:05:37,512 --> 00:05:41,062 -Ladies and gentlemen flight 270 to Albuquerque, New Mexico... 87 00:05:44,644 --> 00:05:46,944 - WOMAN: Let's keep the line moving people. 88 00:05:53,110 --> 00:05:54,400 -I've got it. 89 00:05:55,446 --> 00:05:59,616 - Looks like our CrossFit's paying off. - ...Stop it! 90 00:05:59,784 --> 00:06:01,244 - Oh, he's embarrassed! 91 00:06:02,328 --> 00:06:04,458 I'm sorry, we just got engaged. 92 00:06:06,165 --> 00:06:08,165 - Oh, it's beautiful. - Oh, thank you. 93 00:06:08,250 --> 00:06:10,920 It was at his mom's, but I had it reset 94 00:06:11,170 --> 00:06:12,460 ...with a much bigger stone. 95 00:06:15,800 --> 00:06:17,260 - Something in your pockets? 96 00:06:17,719 --> 00:06:19,429 Your belt buckle? - No, it's the jacket. 97 00:06:19,595 --> 00:06:23,555 - We're getting married on a mountain top on New Year's Eve. 98 00:06:24,976 --> 00:06:26,056 - That sound's nice. 99 00:06:26,895 --> 00:06:28,435 -There's so many zippers on this thing. 100 00:06:32,984 --> 00:06:34,944 - Wow, I don't know what else... 101 00:06:37,989 --> 00:06:39,029 - Do we have a problem, miss? 102 00:06:39,323 --> 00:06:42,913 - Um... my flight is boarding. - Let me see your boarding pass, please. 103 00:06:44,412 --> 00:06:45,582 It says 5:00 PM here. 104 00:06:46,706 --> 00:06:48,916 You have plenty of time. Please wait in the line. 105 00:06:49,000 --> 00:06:51,340 - I can't. - MAN: What do you mean you can't? 106 00:06:54,463 --> 00:06:55,383 - Miss? 107 00:06:56,925 --> 00:06:59,545 - Hey, it's all good, man. 108 00:07:00,762 --> 00:07:01,802 She can go ahead. 109 00:07:02,847 --> 00:07:04,927 I'm holding up the line, it's my fault. 110 00:07:10,312 --> 00:07:13,822 So, forgot about my keys, sorry, man. It has pockets everywhere. 111 00:07:38,674 --> 00:07:40,644 - Oh, shit, shit, shit! 112 00:07:43,638 --> 00:07:44,508 Breathe. 113 00:07:45,222 --> 00:07:46,562 Five... 114 00:07:46,766 --> 00:07:48,226 Four, three, 115 00:07:48,601 --> 00:07:50,311 two, one. 116 00:07:57,735 --> 00:07:58,605 Hey, Dr. M. 117 00:07:58,694 --> 00:08:00,994 - DR. M: Jane, Jane, I have a situation here at Life House 118 00:08:01,072 --> 00:08:02,492 I have Kara here with me 119 00:08:02,573 --> 00:08:04,743 and she's suggesting that you're planning on doing something. 120 00:08:04,826 --> 00:08:05,696 Is that correct? 121 00:08:05,785 --> 00:08:08,365 - Kara, she can't sleep when I'm not there, you know that. 122 00:08:08,621 --> 00:08:09,871 Why don't you ask her about that? 123 00:08:09,956 --> 00:08:11,996 - Is that true what she's saying that you can't sleep? 124 00:08:12,083 --> 00:08:13,633 Are you trying to keep her from living, Kara. 125 00:08:14,169 --> 00:08:16,549 OK, OK, Jane, listen to me, I'm concerned. 126 00:08:16,629 --> 00:08:18,089 I want you to wait at the airport for me. 127 00:08:18,173 --> 00:08:20,223 I think we should speak in person before you fly home. 128 00:08:20,299 --> 00:08:23,929 - Dr.--Dr. M, I wish I could. I just-- It's Kara, 129 00:08:24,012 --> 00:08:26,352 you know what she's like, she's not in her right mind. 130 00:08:26,430 --> 00:08:29,060 She's a liar, she's a compulsive liar. She doesn't want me to leave 131 00:08:29,142 --> 00:08:31,062 because she's not loved herself. 132 00:08:34,271 --> 00:08:38,611 -I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! 133 00:08:40,111 --> 00:08:42,401 - Um... Uh, Dr. M... 134 00:08:43,531 --> 00:08:45,241 I gotta go, I gotta go. 135 00:08:45,992 --> 00:08:48,492 My flight is boarding. Fuck! 136 00:08:50,705 --> 00:08:51,955 Fuck. 137 00:08:57,962 --> 00:08:59,922 - I hate you! I hate you! 138 00:09:03,718 --> 00:09:06,258 - Fuck, fuck, fuck! 139 00:09:23,445 --> 00:09:24,315 -Hello? 140 00:09:29,535 --> 00:09:30,405 Hello? 141 00:09:36,209 --> 00:09:37,089 Is everything OK? 142 00:09:44,008 --> 00:09:44,838 - Whoa! 143 00:09:44,926 --> 00:09:46,716 - What are you doing in here? 144 00:09:46,886 --> 00:09:49,136 - I'm sorry but the better question is what are you doing in here? 145 00:09:49,222 --> 00:09:50,312 This is the mens' room.