1 00:00:35,770 --> 00:00:37,772 Tell me what to do. 2 00:00:37,939 --> 00:00:41,543 I'm so fucking angry. I'm so fucking mad. 3 00:00:41,676 --> 00:00:44,746 - Marla-- - I'm so mad. I'm so angry. 4 00:00:48,583 --> 00:00:50,752 Give it time. 5 00:00:50,885 --> 00:00:53,320 Give it time. Give it time. 6 00:00:59,761 --> 00:01:01,663 I don't want to pick it up. 7 00:01:05,432 --> 00:01:07,100 It's not gonna be okay. 8 00:01:11,573 --> 00:01:14,709 I want to kill her. 9 00:01:19,547 --> 00:01:21,214 I'm worried about you. 10 00:01:21,348 --> 00:01:22,850 You're my sister. 11 00:01:24,953 --> 00:01:26,721 I can't find Mom anywhere. 12 00:01:27,487 --> 00:01:29,657 Marla, you need to go back. 13 00:01:32,660 --> 00:01:35,162 What happened to your mother? 14 00:02:05,026 --> 00:02:08,495 Where were you when it happened? 15 00:02:16,904 --> 00:02:20,875 I haven't slept for 156 hours. 16 00:02:21,009 --> 00:02:24,378 I'm not tired, but I am. 17 00:02:24,512 --> 00:02:26,914 - I have PTSD... - Marla. 18 00:02:27,081 --> 00:02:28,549 ...from something. 19 00:02:28,683 --> 00:02:31,119 Or I'm schizophrenic and paranoid. 20 00:02:31,853 --> 00:02:33,821 At least that's what my doctor told me, 21 00:02:33,988 --> 00:02:36,524 or some doctor told me. 22 00:02:36,658 --> 00:02:40,128 You're schizophrenic and paranoid. 23 00:02:40,293 --> 00:02:42,930 That may or may not be true. 24 00:02:43,097 --> 00:02:44,632 I don't know if this is now 25 00:02:44,766 --> 00:02:46,067 or somewhere in between when it happened. 26 00:02:46,199 --> 00:02:48,368 Marla. Marla. 27 00:02:48,536 --> 00:02:49,871 In limbo. 28 00:02:50,538 --> 00:02:52,205 Just my expertise. 29 00:02:53,941 --> 00:02:57,277 - You seem to be-- - Far gone. 30 00:02:57,444 --> 00:02:58,746 Perhaps this is the beginning. 31 00:02:58,913 --> 00:03:00,447 Mmm. 32 00:03:04,919 --> 00:03:06,386 You fucked up. 33 00:03:06,521 --> 00:03:09,057 I told you not to get mixed up with the wrong crowd, 34 00:03:09,222 --> 00:03:10,825 and now look at you. 35 00:03:10,958 --> 00:03:12,026 Fucked! 36 00:03:12,160 --> 00:03:14,962 Mm-mm. No. No. Stop. 37 00:03:15,096 --> 00:03:16,396 Resistance! 38 00:03:18,166 --> 00:03:19,834 Why are you here, man? 39 00:03:19,967 --> 00:03:21,301 I need my stuff. 40 00:03:21,769 --> 00:03:23,905 I need to get out of here. I can't stay here anymore. 41 00:03:24,038 --> 00:03:25,338 They're coming for me. 42 00:03:25,506 --> 00:03:27,608 You want to make problems, blame yourself, 43 00:03:27,742 --> 00:03:29,577 and get caught for nothing. 44 00:03:29,977 --> 00:03:31,846 Right? Right? 45 00:03:31,979 --> 00:03:33,280 Right. 46 00:03:33,447 --> 00:03:36,050 You better stop before I ask you to leave. 47 00:03:38,186 --> 00:03:41,089 I know you don't have anywhere else to go. 48 00:03:45,358 --> 00:03:46,761 It's in your head. 49 00:03:49,429 --> 00:03:51,766 Oh, fuck, dude. 50 00:03:54,301 --> 00:03:55,870 My mother's dead. 51 00:03:59,439 --> 00:04:01,075 It's all a blank. 52 00:04:02,110 --> 00:04:05,813 It's all scrambled, missing pieces of information. 53 00:04:09,183 --> 00:04:11,485 It feels like it's my fault. 54 00:04:16,657 --> 00:04:17,959 Wanna watch a movie? 55 00:04:30,772 --> 00:04:34,374 This shitbag right here is my best friend. 56 00:04:34,509 --> 00:04:35,810 Hard to tell. 57 00:04:36,677 --> 00:04:40,480 But everything I see lately is so fucked up... 58 00:04:41,115 --> 00:04:43,751 I wouldn't be surprised if this was not true either. 59 00:04:45,520 --> 00:04:47,155 I can't seem to sleep 60 00:04:47,320 --> 00:04:48,856 and I can't seem to wake up. 61 00:04:49,422 --> 00:04:50,892 I'll be out of here by morning. 62 00:05:48,616 --> 00:05:50,017 We had our winner call in 63 00:05:50,151 --> 00:05:52,186 and now it's time for the facts. 64 00:05:53,821 --> 00:05:55,355 The ancient Egyptians believed 65 00:05:55,523 --> 00:05:57,191 that mirages are the ghosts of objects in places 66 00:05:57,357 --> 00:05:58,726 that once existed in reality 67 00:05:58,893 --> 00:06:00,595 that have already disappeared. 68 00:06:51,979 --> 00:06:53,648 All right, come back home! 69 00:06:56,617 --> 00:06:58,152 You're a good girl. 70 00:07:00,354 --> 00:07:01,656 Don't forget that. 71 00:07:08,195 --> 00:07:09,297 Marla... 72 00:07:09,462 --> 00:07:10,731 Marla. 73 00:07:15,336 --> 00:07:17,138 Here. 74 00:07:17,271 --> 00:07:18,372 This will be fun. 75 00:07:18,873 --> 00:07:20,473 Just like in the movies. 76 00:07:21,242 --> 00:07:23,377 The Old West. 77 00:07:23,511 --> 00:07:25,445 See that point right over there? 78 00:07:26,213 --> 00:07:30,051 You can get there without your training wheels. 79 00:07:30,184 --> 00:07:31,919 Yeah? You gonna show me? 80 00:07:32,485 --> 00:07:34,255 -Yeah. -Okay. 81 00:07:34,956 --> 00:07:36,524 And when you get there... 82 00:07:37,325 --> 00:07:38,626 shoot 'em up. 83 00:07:39,660 --> 00:07:40,928 Yeah? 84 00:07:45,498 --> 00:07:46,767 Okay. 85 00:07:51,772 --> 00:07:53,441 Go, Marla, go! 86 00:07:53,607 --> 00:07:55,543 You're almost there! 87 00:07:55,676 --> 00:07:57,078 Yeah, Marla! 88 00:07:58,612 --> 00:07:59,981 Shoot 'em up! 89 00:08:06,187 --> 00:08:08,189 It's possible and it's not possible 90 00:08:08,356 --> 00:08:10,257 that it didn't happen this way. 91 00:08:17,064 --> 00:08:19,499 This looks familiar. 92 00:08:20,001 --> 00:08:21,869 This was before my mom died. 93 00:08:22,036 --> 00:08:24,438 Got water out back. A range. 94 00:08:25,239 --> 00:08:28,409 -Why do you need a gun? -Protection. 95 00:08:28,542 --> 00:08:29,777 Shitty people. 96 00:08:30,978 --> 00:08:32,380 You never know what's gonna happen. 97 00:08:32,546 --> 00:08:34,548 Hmm. Been there. 98 00:08:34,682 --> 00:08:35,983 Everybody needs protection. 99 00:08:36,150 --> 00:08:38,486 This world's a goddamn hellhole. 100 00:08:39,220 --> 00:08:41,655 I think you've had this one before. 101 00:08:41,822 --> 00:08:43,557 It's more of a classic. 102 00:08:45,493 --> 00:08:47,228 House price, 70 bucks. 103 00:08:49,997 --> 00:08:52,666 I think I killed my mother with this gun. 104 00:08:53,467 --> 00:08:54,735 Yeah. 105 00:08:55,569 --> 00:08:57,671 We all feel that way sometimes. 106 00:08:58,372 --> 00:08:59,774 Paranoia sets in. 107 00:09:00,341 --> 00:09:01,742 Now. 108 00:09:45,953 --> 00:09:47,721 The best way to keep people away 109 00:09:47,888 --> 00:09:49,056 is to look hurt or sick. 110 00:09:49,190 --> 00:09:51,158 No one will approach you. 111 00:09:51,325 --> 00:09:53,794 They're too afraid of anything past the normal state of human, 112 00:09:53,961 --> 00:09:55,396 which is usually neutral. 113 00:09:55,830 --> 00:09:57,164 And don't smile in public. 114 00:09:57,331 --> 00:09:59,133 If there's anything I've learned, 115 00:09:59,266 --> 00:10:01,536 it's not to share that kind of weapon with leeches. 116 00:10:01,702 --> 00:10:04,772 They leap like leopards only to steal your light. 117 00:10:12,746 --> 00:10:14,181 Oh, fuck. 118 00:10:16,750 --> 00:10:18,853 The moment you walked in... 119 00:10:18,986 --> 00:10:20,321 I knew it was you. 120 00:10:23,357 --> 00:10:25,292 Special kind of lady. 121 00:10:28,095 --> 00:10:29,363 I'm alone. 122 00:10:30,698 --> 00:10:32,266 He probably knew that. 123 00:10:32,433 --> 00:10:34,034 I did. 124 00:10:40,207 --> 00:10:43,410 The goal is to escape, to run. 125 00:10:47,248 --> 00:10:49,216 It hurts more than it feels better. 126 00:10:54,722 --> 00:10:56,390 How do I get out of here? 127 00:10:59,126 --> 00:11:00,895 You've already disappeared. 128 00:11:06,667 --> 00:11:08,202 I can't sleep. 129 00:11:30,592 --> 00:11:31,992 I'm good here. 130 00:11:32,760 --> 00:11:34,395 Right? 131 00:11:34,529 --> 00:11:35,796 Alone. 132 00:11:41,869 --> 00:11:43,103 Housekeeping. 133 00:11:43,237 --> 00:11:45,940 No, I'm-- I'm okay. Thank you. 134 00:11:46,575 --> 00:11:47,542 Hello? 135 00:11:49,877 --> 00:11:51,546 No. No. 136 00:11:52,947 --> 00:11:54,315 What the fuck? 137 00:11:54,448 --> 00:11:56,350 I don't have all day. 138 00:11:58,919 --> 00:12:00,655 Yes. Yes. 139 00:12:00,788 --> 00:12:02,223 My God. 140 00:12:04,925 --> 00:12:06,260 Your eyes. 141 00:12:08,062 --> 00:12:10,665 Are you tired? What-- what happened? 142 00:12:10,798 --> 00:12:14,935 You know, I know you didn't knock the door down for my eyes. 143 00:12:16,403 --> 00:12:17,639 What do you want? 144 00:12:17,771 --> 00:12:19,674 -Maybe some towels? -No. 145 00:12:20,174 --> 00:12:21,775 -No, I really don't need-- -Conditioner? 146 00:12:21,942 --> 00:12:23,377 -I don't need anything. -Soap? 147 00:12:23,545 --> 00:12:24,478 You can leave. 148 00:12:24,613 --> 00:12:26,747 I don't need anything 149 00:12:26,880 --> 00:12:29,149 and I don't need any help. 150 00:12:29,316 --> 00:12:32,987 -So, please go. -Wow. 151 00:12:34,855 --> 00:12:36,323 You are so mean, Nena. 152 00:12:36,490 --> 00:12:38,058 You know my mother used to tell me that? 153 00:12:38,492 --> 00:12:40,294 She used to tell me that I was worthless, 154 00:12:40,461 --> 00:12:42,930 that I was uneducated, and that nobody liked me 155 00:12:43,097 --> 00:12:45,199 and nobody liked it when I was around. 156 00:12:45,332 --> 00:12:46,534 And now she's-- 157 00:12:47,535 --> 00:12:48,969 she's dead. 158 00:12:49,970 --> 00:12:51,238 And, um... 159 00:12:52,741 --> 00:12:53,974 and I... 160 00:12:55,009 --> 00:12:58,445 I can't-- I can't-- I can't remember. 161 00:13:02,783 --> 00:13:04,051 I just... 162 00:13:04,918 --> 00:13:06,287 I can't remember... 163 00:13:07,187 --> 00:13:08,556 what I did wrong. 164 00:13:12,493 --> 00:13:13,961 I'm so sorry. 165 00:13:17,632 --> 00:13:18,932 I understand. 166 00:13:21,368 --> 00:13:22,469 Take this. 167 00:13:23,270 --> 00:13:25,906 You need to take care of yourself. 168 00:13:26,040 --> 00:13:27,941 You need to rest. 169 00:13:56,103 --> 00:13:58,005 Look what you've done. 170 00:14:02,209 --> 00:14:04,612 You need to learn how to talk, Marla. 171 00:14:06,548 --> 00:14:08,215 Speak up for yourself. 172 00:14:13,020 --> 00:14:14,288 Here. 173 00:14:15,956 --> 00:14:17,659 I can't drink milk. 174 00:14:18,092 --> 00:14:21,095 It's just one simple thing, Marla. 175 00:14:21,529 --> 00:14:24,031 I told you I can't drink milk. 176 00:14:24,198 --> 00:14:27,067 Makes you upset to repeat yourself. 177 00:14:27,201 --> 00:14:31,372 No, it makes me upset that you can't hear me. 178 00:14:46,554 --> 00:14:47,888 That's good. 179 00:14:51,058 --> 00:14:53,026 Stop looking at me like that, Marla. 180 00:14:53,160 --> 00:14:54,529 What do you want? 181 00:14:54,928 --> 00:14:56,531 You don't even have a family. 182 00:14:56,664 --> 00:14:57,931 You're alone. 183 00:14:58,065 --> 00:15:00,033 Your sister has a family. 184 00:15:01,268 --> 00:15:03,805 You? What are you? 185 00:15:03,937 --> 00:15:05,339 Still trying to hang on. 186 00:15:05,507 --> 00:15:08,510 No one likes it when you're around. 187 00:15:08,643 --> 00:15:10,911 You need to look at your life, Marla. 188 00:15:11,378 --> 00:15:13,782 Why have you put yourself in this position? 189 00:15:13,947 --> 00:15:15,449 There must be a reason. 190 00:15:15,916 --> 00:15:18,520 When you're alone, you have no one. 191 00:15:20,822 --> 00:15:22,289 I don't feel safe here. 192 00:15:22,757 --> 00:15:24,592 Goddamn it! 193 00:15:26,093 --> 00:15:27,961 I don't feel safe here. 194 00:15:28,362 --> 00:15:29,531 Look what you just did. 195 00:15:29,697 --> 00:15:30,799 I don't feel safe here. 196 00:15:31,231 --> 00:15:32,534 Look at that mess. 197 00:15:34,968 --> 00:15:36,470 Well, go ahead. Walk on it. 198 00:15:37,471 --> 00:15:38,673 Do it. 199 00:15:38,840 --> 00:15:40,140 I don't feel safe here. 200 00:15:40,274 --> 00:15:41,975 No, Mom. 201 00:15:42,142 --> 00:15:43,845 What did you say to me? 202 00:15:43,977 --> 00:15:45,078 Walk! 203 00:15:45,212 --> 00:15:46,447 -Walk! -No! 204 00:15:46,614 --> 00:15:48,081 Walk! Do it! 205 00:15:48,215 --> 00:15:50,017 I don't feel safe here. 206 00:15:50,984 --> 00:15:52,620 I don't feel safe here. 207 00:15:54,889 --> 00:15:56,323 Wake up. 208 00:15:57,759 --> 00:15:59,126 Wake up. 209 00:16:00,695 --> 00:16:02,196 Wake up. 210 00:16:07,367 --> 00:16:08,670 Right there. 211 00:16:14,676 --> 00:16:15,743 Mom? 212 00:16:17,177 --> 00:16:19,213 I just wanted to call... 213 00:16:20,515 --> 00:16:23,350 to see if you were doing all right. 214 00:16:26,855 --> 00:16:30,725 And I wanted to say that I was sorry. 215 00:16:34,495 --> 00:16:35,697 I'm sorry. 216 00:16:41,368 --> 00:16:42,971 Will you please forgive me? 217 00:16:43,136 --> 00:16:44,238 Marla? 218 00:16:44,404 --> 00:16:47,207 -Hello? -This is the police. 219 00:16:48,242 --> 00:16:50,177 Marla, your mother is dead. 220 00:16:54,816 --> 00:16:57,217 On the night it happened, you were there. 221 00:17:00,254 --> 00:17:01,789 I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 222 00:17:02,222 --> 00:17:05,359 We have reason to believe you are at fault. 223 00:17:06,326 --> 00:17:07,929 I couldn't reach it. 224 00:17:08,796 --> 00:17:10,497 You have caused harm. 225 00:17:10,665 --> 00:17:12,132 I didn't do it! 226 00:17:13,267 --> 00:17:15,402 You seem to be the problem. 227 00:17:17,337 --> 00:17:18,673 I didn't do it! 228 00:17:20,842 --> 00:17:23,443 You can't keep deceiving us, Marla. 229 00:17:24,378 --> 00:17:25,947 I wouldn't kill my mother! 230 00:17:26,079 --> 00:17:28,382 It's easier to face the truth. 231 00:17:34,856 --> 00:17:36,456 I didn't mean it. 232 00:17:39,994 --> 00:17:41,495 Marla Dayton, 233 00:17:41,663 --> 00:17:43,598 we have a few questions for you about your mother. 234 00:19:05,847 --> 00:19:07,682 I'm sorry. 235 00:19:10,051 --> 00:19:11,184 I'm sorry. 236 00:20:06,941 --> 00:20:08,341 Mom? 237 00:20:08,475 --> 00:20:10,477 Why do we have to lock the door? 238 00:20:10,978 --> 00:20:13,981 Sometimes I lock it because I need to be alone. 239 00:20:15,415 --> 00:20:17,384 It's always right up here. 240 00:20:32,734 --> 00:20:36,170 Please help me. I don't know how I got here. 241 00:20:36,336 --> 00:20:39,173 I don't know how this happened, but I don't have any-- 242 00:20:41,509 --> 00:20:44,478 I'm sorry. Please don't leave me. 243 00:20:44,645 --> 00:20:46,748 You're all I have. 244 00:20:46,914 --> 00:20:48,583 Please help me. 245 00:20:52,019 --> 00:20:53,320 Come on, Marla. 246 00:21:46,306 --> 00:21:47,809 Don't read that now. 247 00:21:48,876 --> 00:21:52,513 It just says I'll be with you forever. 248 00:21:54,081 --> 00:21:55,482 Always. 249 00:22:00,588 --> 00:22:02,489 I'm the kind of person... 250 00:22:03,356 --> 00:22:04,959 who doesn't know when to stop. 251 00:22:06,661 --> 00:22:09,130 But when you don't want to know who you are... 252 00:22:10,898 --> 00:22:12,967 ...you'll run as far as you can to disappear. 253 00:22:24,879 --> 00:22:26,446 Up for a good old time? 254 00:22:26,614 --> 00:22:28,783 Come on down to Donna's Ranch in Texas. 255 00:22:28,950 --> 00:22:32,385 Our girls are the real deal and a hoot of a good time. 256 00:22:32,553 --> 00:22:33,654 Come on down. 257 00:22:35,857 --> 00:22:37,658 I like this place because... 258 00:22:38,526 --> 00:22:43,064 the connections I share here with some of the people, like... 259 00:22:43,197 --> 00:22:45,066 it's special and... 260 00:22:45,900 --> 00:22:47,535 there's love in it, you know? 261 00:23:44,125 --> 00:23:45,927 -Hello. -Hi. 262 00:23:46,627 --> 00:23:49,664 You see my boss here? He's a special client. 263 00:23:50,564 --> 00:23:52,533 He's got specific wants. 264 00:23:52,967 --> 00:23:54,835 Specific needs. 265 00:23:55,403 --> 00:23:57,905 I just want to make sure his needs can be met here. 266 00:23:59,173 --> 00:24:00,708 Okay. 267 00:24:01,709 --> 00:24:03,144 What do you say, pretty lady? 268 00:24:33,507 --> 00:24:36,510 Are you available? 269 00:24:39,213 --> 00:24:40,480 Sure. 270 00:24:54,996 --> 00:24:56,063 Well... 271 00:24:57,264 --> 00:24:59,033 what should we do first? 272 00:25:01,535 --> 00:25:03,871 Anything you'd like to do, sir. 273 00:25:04,672 --> 00:25:05,940 That's good. 274 00:25:08,376 --> 00:25:10,277 I'd like to 275 00:25:10,444 --> 00:25:12,113 talk to you a little bit. 276 00:25:14,382 --> 00:25:15,916 Would you lie to me? 277 00:25:18,252 --> 00:25:19,520 Sure. 278 00:25:21,255 --> 00:25:22,656 If you'd like me to. 279 00:25:23,891 --> 00:25:26,160 If it makes it better. 280 00:25:26,794 --> 00:25:28,262 No, no, no. Forget it. Never mind. 281 00:25:28,429 --> 00:25:30,464 This is not gonna work. Go-- go away. Go away from me. 282 00:25:30,598 --> 00:25:32,566 -What is it? -Go away! 283 00:25:38,305 --> 00:25:40,408 I can do anything you'd like 284 00:25:40,574 --> 00:25:42,176 if it pleases you. 285 00:25:43,978 --> 00:25:45,346 Are you serious about that? 286 00:25:45,746 --> 00:25:47,615 About pleasing? 287 00:25:56,390 --> 00:25:58,192 Why don't you sit down on that chair? 288 00:26:08,069 --> 00:26:10,571 Right now, this second... 289 00:26:12,940 --> 00:26:14,942 how is it that you feel? 290 00:26:16,577 --> 00:26:18,112 I don't share that. 291 00:26:20,047 --> 00:26:22,083 I-- I can't share that with you. 292 00:26:22,583 --> 00:26:24,218 You share your body willingly. 293 00:26:24,385 --> 00:26:27,288 I can't share that with you. I don't share that. 294 00:26:27,888 --> 00:26:29,123 Listen, I have more money. 295 00:26:29,256 --> 00:26:31,292 I-- I can pay you more money. 296 00:26:31,425 --> 00:26:33,127 I-- I can't. 297 00:26:34,563 --> 00:26:36,097 Nothing at all? 298 00:26:36,565 --> 00:26:38,265 I don't feel anything. 299 00:26:39,333 --> 00:26:42,937 Whatever is going on inside you, you feel it there anyway. 300 00:26:43,104 --> 00:26:45,739 You're just-- you're just not aware of it now. 301 00:26:45,873 --> 00:26:47,608 I don't feel anything. 302 00:26:48,375 --> 00:26:49,877 Feel. 303 00:26:51,278 --> 00:26:52,980 -Please. -Feel. 304 00:26:53,614 --> 00:26:55,382 -Stop. -Feel, describe it to me. 305 00:26:55,550 --> 00:26:56,717 Feel something. 306 00:26:56,884 --> 00:26:59,386 Please, stop. 307 00:26:59,521 --> 00:27:00,921 Feel everything! 308 00:27:01,055 --> 00:27:02,990 I don't feel anything. 309 00:27:03,124 --> 00:27:04,191 Feel. 310 00:27:04,692 --> 00:27:07,562 I feel scared. 311 00:27:07,995 --> 00:27:10,431 -Feel. -I feel scared. 312 00:27:10,565 --> 00:27:11,832 Feel! 313 00:27:13,167 --> 00:27:14,668 And alone. 314 00:27:17,338 --> 00:27:18,706 You're guilty. 315 00:27:20,641 --> 00:27:22,243 But where... 316 00:27:23,477 --> 00:27:24,979 does it come from? 317 00:27:26,981 --> 00:27:30,851 It's a sadness deep in my core... 318 00:27:33,120 --> 00:27:36,056 saying I cannot be loved. 319 00:27:36,724 --> 00:27:38,527 Good. 320 00:27:38,659 --> 00:27:40,094 That's so good. 321 00:27:41,195 --> 00:27:42,229 That's so good. 322 00:28:02,149 --> 00:28:03,918 All right, now is the time to call in, 323 00:28:04,084 --> 00:28:06,287 WWZ, Name That Tune 324 00:28:06,420 --> 00:28:08,389 and win tickets to the state county fair. 325 00:28:14,328 --> 00:28:15,597 Third caller gets it. 326 00:28:33,582 --> 00:28:35,015 The Boswell Sisters. 327 00:28:35,816 --> 00:28:38,653 Yes, that is right. You are going to the fair. 328 00:28:39,320 --> 00:28:41,155 -You are the winner. -What? 329 00:28:41,288 --> 00:28:43,257 Let's hear it, pick up your tickets at WWZ. 330 00:28:43,424 --> 00:28:45,726 -You're kidding me? -Let's hear it for her, folks. 331 00:28:45,859 --> 00:28:47,161 Thank you. Thank you. 332 00:28:47,728 --> 00:28:50,030 Now, here's a little tune to bring it back. 333 00:29:24,431 --> 00:29:26,267 Why don't you let us help you? 334 00:29:27,901 --> 00:29:29,970 You're going the wrong way. 335 00:29:30,838 --> 00:29:32,273 What are you doing here? 336 00:29:33,907 --> 00:29:35,610 Marla, where are you? 337 00:29:39,681 --> 00:29:41,215 We have a few questions for you. 338 00:29:44,885 --> 00:29:47,921 Stop! Stop now. 339 00:29:51,593 --> 00:29:52,926 I'm stopped. 340 00:29:53,827 --> 00:29:55,396 Now. 341 00:29:55,896 --> 00:29:58,566 We understand you may be on the loose 342 00:29:58,733 --> 00:30:01,670 and losing your mind. 343 00:30:01,802 --> 00:30:04,506 Sure. Maybe. 344 00:30:04,639 --> 00:30:05,873 I don't know. 345 00:30:07,207 --> 00:30:08,576 That's fine, Marla. 346 00:30:08,710 --> 00:30:11,412 -We've been trying to find you. -We found you. 347 00:30:13,648 --> 00:30:15,849 Okay. 348 00:30:15,983 --> 00:30:19,386 I don't, um-- uh-- What do you want? 349 00:30:19,853 --> 00:30:21,121 To bring you back. 350 00:30:21,255 --> 00:30:23,457 -Take you. -Back. 351 00:30:24,759 --> 00:30:26,360 Am I being arrested? 352 00:30:26,528 --> 00:30:31,265 Well, if you want to be rested... 353 00:30:31,899 --> 00:30:34,301 we can take you in to get looked at. 354 00:30:34,902 --> 00:30:36,403 -Seen. -With eyes. 355 00:30:36,571 --> 00:30:41,710 I don't want to go back anywhere with anyone. 356 00:30:41,842 --> 00:30:45,647 We're here to confuse you. I mean, question you. 357 00:30:45,780 --> 00:30:47,147 Your prints are everywhere. 358 00:30:47,281 --> 00:30:48,516 You were there. 359 00:30:48,650 --> 00:30:49,784 The night it happened. 360 00:30:49,917 --> 00:30:51,285 No, no. I left. 361 00:30:51,418 --> 00:30:52,920 I thought you couldn't remember. 362 00:30:53,053 --> 00:30:54,522 -I can only remember pieces. -What pieces? 363 00:30:55,489 --> 00:30:56,957 Why are you seeing things? 364 00:30:57,124 --> 00:30:59,059 I don't know! I don't know. 365 00:30:59,193 --> 00:31:00,562 You have the right to remain quiet. 366 00:31:00,695 --> 00:31:04,599 All you say or do will be used against you. 367 00:31:07,501 --> 00:31:09,403 You need to come. 368 00:31:09,537 --> 00:31:11,606 I don't feel safe here. 369 00:31:12,306 --> 00:31:14,475 You need to accept this, Marla. 370 00:31:15,409 --> 00:31:16,477 How it is. 371 00:31:17,444 --> 00:31:18,580 How I am. 372 00:31:20,849 --> 00:31:22,149 Let me go. 373 00:31:34,228 --> 00:31:35,663 What the fuck? 374 00:31:36,564 --> 00:31:38,365 No way. 375 00:31:38,499 --> 00:31:39,299 Can I come in? 376 00:31:43,671 --> 00:31:44,972 It's good to see you. 377 00:31:45,740 --> 00:31:47,007 You okay? 378 00:31:48,375 --> 00:31:50,110 Yeah. Yeah, I'm good. 379 00:31:50,645 --> 00:31:52,946 I'm good, uh, other than the fact 380 00:31:53,113 --> 00:31:55,349 that I feel like I'm living in a goddamn limbo 381 00:31:55,482 --> 00:31:57,519 and I can't get out and I don't know 382 00:31:57,652 --> 00:31:59,521 if there is going to be a beginning or an end 383 00:31:59,654 --> 00:32:00,954 or if this is even... 384 00:32:01,689 --> 00:32:02,956 real. 385 00:32:05,225 --> 00:32:06,594 I'm groovy. 386 00:32:08,362 --> 00:32:11,098 Shit. Yes. The cookies. 387 00:32:11,231 --> 00:32:13,300 I made shit special. 388 00:32:25,814 --> 00:32:28,048 You are not real right now. 389 00:32:28,182 --> 00:32:30,350 Does this look real to you? 390 00:32:30,484 --> 00:32:32,953 Does this feel real to you? 391 00:32:33,120 --> 00:32:35,790 You are not real right now. 392 00:32:35,956 --> 00:32:37,090 You are not real right now. 393 00:32:37,224 --> 00:32:39,426 This is not real right now. What? 394 00:32:40,027 --> 00:32:41,663 I look like a damn dream. 395 00:32:47,100 --> 00:32:48,368 Thank you. 396 00:32:50,538 --> 00:32:52,574 Seems like someone is chasing you. 397 00:32:54,776 --> 00:32:56,109 It feels that way. 398 00:32:58,445 --> 00:33:00,347 It's okay to let that shit go. 399 00:33:01,415 --> 00:33:03,283 When did you become so... 400 00:33:04,151 --> 00:33:05,419 Old? 401 00:33:06,019 --> 00:33:07,822 Yeah. 402 00:33:09,256 --> 00:33:12,192 I just got tired, you know? 403 00:33:13,761 --> 00:33:15,295 It's like life is just too fucking long 404 00:33:15,429 --> 00:33:16,997 to be scared of shit. 405 00:33:17,799 --> 00:33:19,868 Yeah. 406 00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:21,468 You don't have to be afraid. 407 00:33:22,402 --> 00:33:25,740 I just feel so wrong... 408 00:33:28,943 --> 00:33:31,111 for not feeling okay. 409 00:33:33,247 --> 00:33:36,116 You feel weird for not feeling okay? 410 00:33:37,785 --> 00:33:39,486 Yeah. Yeah, that's normal. 411 00:33:48,863 --> 00:33:50,532 Marla? Marla. 412 00:33:51,331 --> 00:33:53,400 Marla, hey, hey. Where are we? Where are we? 413 00:33:53,568 --> 00:33:55,003 What are we thinking? Marla? 414 00:33:55,135 --> 00:33:57,070 There she is. Oh! 415 00:33:57,204 --> 00:33:58,940 Fuck, yes! 416 00:33:59,072 --> 00:34:01,643 Yeah! There she is! 417 00:34:01,809 --> 00:34:03,011 Fuck yeah. 418 00:34:03,143 --> 00:34:04,913 Do you still have my childhood tapes? 419 00:34:05,078 --> 00:34:07,381 Yeah, it's all memories though. 420 00:34:09,283 --> 00:34:10,785 Do you wanna watch a movie? 421 00:34:23,297 --> 00:34:25,165 Do you have to keep going away? 422 00:34:27,334 --> 00:34:29,403 It's kind of hard to love you when you leave. 423 00:34:31,305 --> 00:34:32,941 Give me a break. 424 00:34:50,157 --> 00:34:51,458 You were there. 425 00:34:51,626 --> 00:34:54,127 I'm so mad. I'm so angry. 426 00:34:54,261 --> 00:34:55,897 You were there. 427 00:34:56,030 --> 00:34:58,098 I told you I wouldn't tell you what happened. 428 00:35:01,903 --> 00:35:03,705 I told the cops you weren't involved. 429 00:35:04,806 --> 00:35:05,907 We have our story. 430 00:35:06,908 --> 00:35:09,043 I don't understand. You have to tell them. 431 00:35:09,209 --> 00:35:10,678 You have to tell them what happened. 432 00:35:10,845 --> 00:35:11,813 They think I did it. 433 00:35:11,946 --> 00:35:13,781 You have to tell them what happened. 434 00:35:14,983 --> 00:35:16,350 Well, I can't. 435 00:35:19,520 --> 00:35:20,655 Why not? 436 00:35:22,757 --> 00:35:24,491 Because I just know how it ended. 437 00:35:27,028 --> 00:35:28,997 I walked in. 438 00:35:29,129 --> 00:35:30,598 Your mother was on the floor. 439 00:35:34,102 --> 00:35:35,670 And you told me... 440 00:35:38,606 --> 00:35:40,307 "I didn't mean to do it." 441 00:35:45,847 --> 00:35:46,914 No. 442 00:35:48,549 --> 00:35:49,617 No. 443 00:35:49,784 --> 00:35:51,686 Stop, no. Stop. 444 00:35:51,819 --> 00:35:55,023 It's okay. It's okay. 445 00:35:55,556 --> 00:35:57,992 -Okay. It's okay, Marla. -No, no, no, no, no. 446 00:35:58,126 --> 00:36:00,628 I didn't do anything. I didn't do anything. 447 00:36:00,795 --> 00:36:03,865 I didn't do it. I didn't do anything. 448 00:36:09,604 --> 00:36:11,471 I don't understand. 449 00:36:11,606 --> 00:36:13,206 It's not your fault. 450 00:36:42,737 --> 00:36:44,806 Police are on their way, Marla. 451 00:36:48,442 --> 00:36:50,011 They know where you are. 452 00:36:50,545 --> 00:36:52,780 Did you really think you could get away? 453 00:36:54,448 --> 00:36:55,883 Don't come close to me. 454 00:36:57,350 --> 00:36:59,153 Don't be that way. 455 00:36:59,587 --> 00:37:02,222 Don't run from your mistakes. 456 00:37:04,224 --> 00:37:08,663 -You're gonna hurt me. -I wanna talk to you, Marla. 457 00:37:10,531 --> 00:37:12,600 Stop. Don't come any closer. 458 00:37:12,767 --> 00:37:14,535 I'm sorry! Don't touch me! 459 00:37:14,669 --> 00:37:17,839 I'm sorry! I didn't want you to die! 460 00:37:21,308 --> 00:37:23,443 You don't feel safe here. 461 00:37:23,578 --> 00:37:25,813 Thanks for letting me know. 462 00:37:25,947 --> 00:37:27,014 I'm sorry. 463 00:37:28,482 --> 00:37:30,585 What would you like to do now? 464 00:37:31,652 --> 00:37:34,555 Now that you know this? 465 00:37:34,689 --> 00:37:37,592 Now that you know you aren't safe? 466 00:37:42,864 --> 00:37:44,766 I'm not sure what's happening. 467 00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:48,035 We kid ourselves a lot. 468 00:37:48,401 --> 00:37:50,104 It's a way of living, 469 00:37:50,270 --> 00:37:53,007 repeating cycles of past wounds. 470 00:37:53,708 --> 00:37:58,546 But it says here you don't seem to like it. 471 00:37:59,781 --> 00:38:01,749 And what would you like to do now? 472 00:38:02,315 --> 00:38:03,818 Now that you know this? 473 00:38:05,052 --> 00:38:06,220 No one stays. 474 00:38:06,587 --> 00:38:08,790 Uh, it says here, um, you're running. 475 00:38:08,956 --> 00:38:11,592 You're running away from something? 476 00:38:11,726 --> 00:38:13,861 You think you killed your mother. 477 00:38:14,862 --> 00:38:15,897 I did. 478 00:38:16,063 --> 00:38:18,666 What you have is shame. 479 00:38:18,833 --> 00:38:22,904 This blocks everything new from happening in your life. 480 00:38:23,037 --> 00:38:25,606 Love, especially. 481 00:38:25,740 --> 00:38:30,511 Viewing through shame stops all forward motions. 482 00:38:31,179 --> 00:38:32,445 Change. 483 00:38:33,346 --> 00:38:34,749 I can't sleep. 484 00:38:35,315 --> 00:38:37,051 You've been asleep. 485 00:38:38,286 --> 00:38:41,022 It's time to wake up. 486 00:38:41,589 --> 00:38:42,957 You're right on time 487 00:38:43,090 --> 00:38:45,193 if you choose to let it be right. 488 00:38:45,793 --> 00:38:48,763 You have to find out where it all came from, 489 00:38:48,896 --> 00:38:51,899 then you must stop it from repeating. 490 00:38:55,036 --> 00:38:56,571 That seems like a lot. 491 00:38:56,704 --> 00:38:58,906 Oh, you-- you've already begun. 492 00:39:00,041 --> 00:39:01,609 It's time to finish it. 493 00:39:03,277 --> 00:39:04,612 Your prescription. 494 00:39:06,214 --> 00:39:09,650 Undo all that's been done. 495 00:39:12,019 --> 00:39:13,921 How the fuck? 496 00:39:14,722 --> 00:39:17,859 Oh, through here. 497 00:39:41,749 --> 00:39:44,552 Marla, your grandmother passed away 498 00:39:44,719 --> 00:39:46,053 while you were at camp. 499 00:39:46,587 --> 00:39:48,122 I was gonna call her. 500 00:39:53,661 --> 00:39:56,597 All right, stop it, would you? 501 00:39:56,731 --> 00:39:59,499 -You're upsetting me. -Sorry. 502 00:40:01,702 --> 00:40:04,538 -Stop it. -I'm sorry. 503 00:40:07,275 --> 00:40:09,476 Marla, pull yourself together. 504 00:40:17,551 --> 00:40:19,186 Are you okay? 505 00:40:50,384 --> 00:40:51,919 What day is it? 506 00:40:59,060 --> 00:41:01,228 Everything's going to be fine. 507 00:41:02,730 --> 00:41:05,032 I'm glad mom is gone. 508 00:41:07,368 --> 00:41:08,636 More tea? 509 00:41:15,609 --> 00:41:17,912 I don't remember it being this way. 510 00:41:19,714 --> 00:41:21,515 Didn't you want it to? 511 00:41:23,751 --> 00:41:26,187 We will take care of everything tomorrow. 512 00:41:28,155 --> 00:41:29,957 How are you so calm? 513 00:41:32,259 --> 00:41:33,928 Are you questioning me? 514 00:41:35,563 --> 00:41:36,998 After everything? 515 00:41:38,799 --> 00:41:40,334 I'm trying to talk to you. 516 00:41:40,500 --> 00:41:42,103 I'm trying to... 517 00:41:43,637 --> 00:41:44,672 be here with you. 518 00:41:44,839 --> 00:41:46,173 I don't understand. 519 00:41:47,241 --> 00:41:49,910 Yeah, well, it's really hard to help you, Marla. 520 00:41:52,279 --> 00:41:53,381 Why? 521 00:41:54,048 --> 00:41:57,151 I'm trying to talk to you. 522 00:41:57,284 --> 00:41:59,420 You think you don't belong anywhere, 523 00:41:59,553 --> 00:42:02,890 but I'm right here trying, 524 00:42:03,024 --> 00:42:04,692 but you don't see it. 525 00:42:06,093 --> 00:42:08,295 You don't want to be let in. 526 00:42:08,429 --> 00:42:09,530 Why? 527 00:42:10,231 --> 00:42:12,733 I don't-- I don't get it. Why is it so hard to help? 528 00:42:16,604 --> 00:42:18,072 You need to go, Marla. 529 00:42:18,205 --> 00:42:21,342 Stop looking at me like our mother. I'm not her. 530 00:42:21,709 --> 00:42:23,210 You're not her. 531 00:42:23,878 --> 00:42:26,680 You need to go, Marla. Your time is up here. 532 00:42:41,395 --> 00:42:42,630 It's safe here. 533 00:42:50,539 --> 00:42:52,173 Wanna eat, love? 534 00:42:58,712 --> 00:43:00,181 That's fucking gross. 535 00:43:00,748 --> 00:43:02,149 I like coming here, dude. 536 00:43:04,318 --> 00:43:05,453 Dude. 537 00:43:05,853 --> 00:43:08,155 Enjoy one day, yeah? 538 00:43:09,423 --> 00:43:10,724 Okay. 539 00:43:16,263 --> 00:43:17,832 Marla, stop. 540 00:43:18,499 --> 00:43:19,934 Oh, you just want me to stop? 541 00:43:20,569 --> 00:43:22,636 We all have to live in the real world, right? 542 00:43:22,803 --> 00:43:25,106 We all have to bounce back and go to work, 543 00:43:25,239 --> 00:43:26,674 do the same shit we do every day. 544 00:43:26,841 --> 00:43:28,943 But not you. No, right? 545 00:43:29,076 --> 00:43:32,213 Just throw your little fucking tantrum. 546 00:43:32,346 --> 00:43:33,548 Like, what do you want right now? 547 00:43:33,714 --> 00:43:34,715 Just fuck you. 548 00:43:34,849 --> 00:43:36,518 Are you done? 549 00:43:36,951 --> 00:43:39,588 You've been dealing with this same shit your entire life. 550 00:43:39,753 --> 00:43:42,957 -Can you stop? Please? -Fuck you. 551 00:43:44,425 --> 00:43:46,927 Do you think that this just stops? 552 00:43:47,061 --> 00:43:50,764 That everything just goes back to the way it was... 553 00:43:50,898 --> 00:43:52,800 and that nothing is wrong? 554 00:43:55,769 --> 00:43:58,038 You know what happens here in this one? 555 00:43:59,673 --> 00:44:02,109 You get mad and you leave. 556 00:44:03,612 --> 00:44:06,981 So, why don't you change it? 557 00:44:11,586 --> 00:44:14,188 Now that I'm still here, Marla... 558 00:44:16,290 --> 00:44:17,391 now what? 559 00:44:19,827 --> 00:44:22,363 It doesn't really fit the old story, does it? 560 00:44:25,466 --> 00:44:27,801 Feels a little bit worse than the worst shit ever. 561 00:44:29,904 --> 00:44:32,173 It's 'cause you're not used to love, Marla. 562 00:44:34,475 --> 00:44:35,976 We're trying to help you. 563 00:44:37,044 --> 00:44:39,680 And the only way you're gonna get through this 564 00:44:39,813 --> 00:44:41,348 is if you see that. 565 00:44:44,051 --> 00:44:45,753 I really wish you could see it. 566 00:44:47,821 --> 00:44:49,356 I just want to go home. 567 00:44:51,058 --> 00:44:52,726 Where is home to you? 568 00:44:53,861 --> 00:44:57,566 Shh. I got the key. 569 00:44:57,698 --> 00:44:59,200 Now we can lock it... 570 00:45:00,067 --> 00:45:02,770 so she can't get in. 571 00:45:24,191 --> 00:45:27,361 And what does home look like to you? 572 00:45:28,762 --> 00:45:30,164 Create it. 573 00:45:32,800 --> 00:45:34,935 Create a place 574 00:45:35,069 --> 00:45:36,737 that you can go... 575 00:45:37,404 --> 00:45:40,741 for only you and no one else to know. 576 00:50:30,297 --> 00:50:32,065 Don't ever leave me. 577 00:50:39,707 --> 00:50:41,408 Don't ever leave me. 578 00:50:45,780 --> 00:50:47,381 I'll never forget my mother's face 579 00:50:47,549 --> 00:50:50,183 when she got released from the hospital. 580 00:50:51,719 --> 00:50:53,186 She was smiling. 581 00:50:54,022 --> 00:50:55,322 She was calm. 582 00:50:56,958 --> 00:50:59,527 She had this aura around her... 583 00:51:01,161 --> 00:51:03,297 like she was finally free. 584 00:51:05,934 --> 00:51:08,235 And again! And again! 585 00:51:36,096 --> 00:51:37,799 I'm proud of you, Marla. 586 00:51:39,667 --> 00:51:41,603 Proud of everything you've done. 587 00:51:43,270 --> 00:51:44,639 You're a good girl. 588 00:51:47,809 --> 00:51:49,209 Don't forget that. 589 00:51:50,078 --> 00:51:51,345 Okay? 590 00:51:59,554 --> 00:52:01,488 What has happened before. 591 00:52:03,791 --> 00:52:05,760 Where are we going? 592 00:52:05,893 --> 00:52:07,294 Um... 593 00:52:08,428 --> 00:52:11,264 I don't know. 594 00:52:12,567 --> 00:52:15,803 Hmm, so you're some kind of nihilist. 595 00:52:15,937 --> 00:52:18,940 No, I'm not some kind of nihilist. 596 00:52:19,073 --> 00:52:20,474 I'm not a nihilist. 597 00:52:20,875 --> 00:52:25,813 I'm not a nihilist. I'm-- I'm-- I just-- I don't-- 598 00:52:25,980 --> 00:52:28,549 Where are you going? 599 00:52:28,683 --> 00:52:33,420 Well, I'm a nihilist, so I have no idea. 600 00:52:34,555 --> 00:52:35,657 Really? 601 00:52:36,591 --> 00:52:39,060 -You're a nihilist? Okay. -That's right. 602 00:52:39,694 --> 00:52:41,763 - Guilty as charged. - ...oldies but... 603 00:52:41,896 --> 00:52:43,097 You like this? 604 00:52:43,631 --> 00:52:44,999 Keep on listening for a chance to win 605 00:52:45,165 --> 00:52:47,769 -tickets to your county fair. -The radio? 606 00:52:50,038 --> 00:52:51,773 It's just a station announcer. 607 00:52:52,339 --> 00:52:55,308 I know. I like him. 608 00:52:57,512 --> 00:52:59,246 You can have this if you want. 609 00:53:00,915 --> 00:53:02,416 -Really? -Yeah. 610 00:53:03,851 --> 00:53:05,953 -What is it? -I don't know. 611 00:53:06,286 --> 00:53:07,722 Never know when you'll need it. 612 00:53:08,890 --> 00:53:10,558 You're just gonna give it to me? 613 00:53:11,324 --> 00:53:12,593 Yeah, why not? 614 00:53:15,328 --> 00:53:16,898 You deserve something nice. 615 00:53:21,903 --> 00:53:23,738 I'm so happy right now. 616 00:53:26,507 --> 00:53:27,942 I need to go back. 617 00:53:28,408 --> 00:53:29,777 I need to go back, I need to go back 618 00:53:29,944 --> 00:53:32,747 so I can tell him that I can see it clearly now. 619 00:53:33,614 --> 00:53:35,817 If you could take it all back... 620 00:53:36,651 --> 00:53:39,419 you wouldn't know what you know now. 621 00:54:29,369 --> 00:54:32,673 Come back! Come back! Don't go. 622 00:54:32,807 --> 00:54:35,643 Don't go. Don't. 623 00:55:23,558 --> 00:55:25,392 I'm all alone. 624 00:55:27,261 --> 00:55:28,930 Help me. 625 00:55:30,898 --> 00:55:31,933 Help me. 626 00:55:46,346 --> 00:55:48,348 -Wake up. -Sleep. 627 00:55:48,716 --> 00:55:51,085 You would need to go to sleep to wake up. 628 00:55:51,652 --> 00:55:54,655 What are you protecting by being this way? 629 00:55:54,789 --> 00:55:56,657 I couldn't save her. 630 00:55:56,991 --> 00:55:59,827 Are you not worth saving yourself? 631 00:56:02,196 --> 00:56:04,497 I just want to understand. 632 00:56:04,632 --> 00:56:06,634 She forgot we needed her. 633 00:56:31,792 --> 00:56:33,628 Figure, why eat alone? 634 00:56:40,368 --> 00:56:43,004 Is it good? 635 00:56:43,771 --> 00:56:45,206 -In a rush? -I don't have to go. 636 00:56:45,373 --> 00:56:48,676 I-- I just didn't really know what this was. 637 00:56:50,077 --> 00:56:53,214 Why would you? It just started. 638 00:56:53,915 --> 00:56:56,083 I'm happy to see you, Marian. 639 00:56:58,319 --> 00:57:00,054 We're not really here right now. 640 00:57:02,422 --> 00:57:04,457 I was gonna say. 641 00:57:05,726 --> 00:57:07,494 It's funny, it's... 642 00:57:09,630 --> 00:57:12,533 it's like you want it to be the same. 643 00:57:20,341 --> 00:57:21,676 You want a lift? 644 00:57:43,998 --> 00:57:45,232 Come on, Marla! 645 00:58:24,238 --> 00:58:26,007 Sorry about our mother. 646 00:58:32,346 --> 00:58:33,748 She was sick. 647 00:58:35,716 --> 00:58:37,785 How did you feel about her? 648 00:58:40,488 --> 00:58:44,825 I feel like she was a woman who was never heard in her pain. 649 00:58:47,128 --> 00:58:48,295 It happens. 650 00:58:49,764 --> 00:58:53,567 No one deserves it, it's just... 651 00:58:53,701 --> 00:58:55,970 we don't know what to do with all that weight. 652 00:58:59,508 --> 00:59:01,175 Don't read that now. 653 00:59:02,710 --> 00:59:06,313 It just says "I'll be with you forever. 654 00:59:07,948 --> 00:59:08,749 Always." 655 00:59:22,496 --> 00:59:23,998 I don't want you to go. 656 00:59:28,135 --> 00:59:29,336 You left. 657 00:59:30,805 --> 00:59:32,239 I had to go. 658 00:59:33,908 --> 00:59:36,210 It hurts too much. 659 00:59:36,944 --> 00:59:38,913 I share your pain. 660 00:59:40,314 --> 00:59:41,982 We have the same mother. 661 00:59:43,584 --> 00:59:45,753 Tell me what I did wrong 662 00:59:45,886 --> 00:59:47,688 so I can change. 663 00:59:48,089 --> 00:59:51,526 Those people that want you to change, 664 00:59:51,659 --> 00:59:53,260 they're not around anymore. 665 00:59:58,065 --> 00:59:59,834 This was you then. 666 01:00:00,000 --> 01:00:01,669 I believed myself. 667 01:00:01,836 --> 01:00:04,438 I wanted connection. 668 01:00:04,573 --> 01:00:08,375 -What kind of connection? -The kind a mother gives. 669 01:00:09,578 --> 01:00:12,179 And now? 670 01:00:12,313 --> 01:00:16,083 I realize I never learned what that looked like. 671 01:00:17,284 --> 01:00:18,853 Do you now? 672 01:00:20,855 --> 01:00:23,824 Please don't go. Don't go. Please. 673 01:00:23,958 --> 01:00:25,793 It's time, Marla. 674 01:00:26,460 --> 01:00:30,664 And what if everything could be different now? 675 01:00:30,798 --> 01:00:32,633 Everything is different now. 676 01:00:33,033 --> 01:00:34,635 Everything is different. 677 01:00:36,270 --> 01:00:37,371 Now. 678 01:00:40,641 --> 01:00:42,042 It's safe here. 679 01:00:44,411 --> 01:00:46,046 I'm just so sad. 680 01:00:46,447 --> 01:00:48,849 What's wrong? 681 01:00:48,983 --> 01:00:51,218 I don't know what to do anymore. 682 01:00:52,686 --> 01:00:53,988 It's okay. 683 01:00:54,455 --> 01:00:56,257 Are you okay? 684 01:00:57,791 --> 01:00:59,126 I'm okay. 685 01:00:59,894 --> 01:01:02,429 Where can we go? 686 01:01:02,564 --> 01:01:04,198 Can we go anywhere? 687 01:01:15,075 --> 01:01:16,343 What do you like? 688 01:01:18,479 --> 01:01:19,780 I don't know. 689 01:01:20,714 --> 01:01:21,982 What do you like? 690 01:01:24,251 --> 01:01:25,352 I don't know. 691 01:01:25,920 --> 01:01:29,690 It's nice to just relax. 692 01:01:32,860 --> 01:01:34,563 I like you. 693 01:01:34,695 --> 01:01:35,963 You're cool. 694 01:01:39,366 --> 01:01:40,467 I like you, too. 695 01:01:42,169 --> 01:01:44,305 What did you have for dinner last night? 696 01:01:45,339 --> 01:01:46,440 Nothing. 697 01:01:47,174 --> 01:01:49,810 -What did you have? -Nothing. 698 01:01:51,680 --> 01:01:53,047 Why not? 699 01:01:56,250 --> 01:01:58,252 I just-- when I'm scared... 700 01:01:59,820 --> 01:02:01,422 I don't feel hungry anymore. 701 01:02:01,590 --> 01:02:03,057 I forget to eat. 702 01:02:05,192 --> 01:02:07,728 How about from now on... 703 01:02:08,495 --> 01:02:10,831 you get to do whatever you want? 704 01:02:12,766 --> 01:02:16,503 You deserve great things. Okay? 705 01:02:17,104 --> 01:02:19,340 Don't listen to anybody else. 706 01:02:20,140 --> 01:02:24,178 And you deserve to smile and to laugh 707 01:02:24,311 --> 01:02:26,046 and be unafraid. 708 01:02:27,881 --> 01:02:30,084 No one's ever gonna stop you. 709 01:02:31,519 --> 01:02:32,786 Okay? 710 01:02:33,787 --> 01:02:35,289 Anything? 711 01:02:35,422 --> 01:02:36,857 Anything I want? 712 01:02:37,559 --> 01:02:38,826 Anything. 713 01:02:43,897 --> 01:02:45,432 You know what I like? 714 01:02:46,333 --> 01:02:48,269 What? 715 01:02:48,402 --> 01:02:50,070 I like to dream. 716 01:04:20,628 --> 01:04:22,363 Why does it hurt? 717 01:04:23,798 --> 01:04:26,967 I don't want to feel unlovable anymore. 718 01:04:28,636 --> 01:04:33,073 I want to feel like I'm able to be loved. 719 01:04:34,509 --> 01:04:36,944 I love you. You're more than this. 720 01:04:37,077 --> 01:04:38,946 I see the real you. 721 01:04:39,113 --> 01:04:41,048 What did you need someone to say? 722 01:04:41,181 --> 01:04:43,752 It's not your fault! It's not your fault! 723 01:04:43,917 --> 01:04:45,620 It's not your fault. 724 01:04:48,355 --> 01:04:50,625 What will you tell me? 725 01:05:00,334 --> 01:05:01,669 Are you okay, honey? 726 01:05:05,072 --> 01:05:06,340 What happened? 727 01:05:07,441 --> 01:05:08,909 Is there anything you need? 728 01:05:09,042 --> 01:05:11,378 Anything? Anything at all? 729 01:05:13,914 --> 01:05:15,650 I need to call my friend. 730 01:05:18,185 --> 01:05:20,187 Everything's gonna be all right. 731 01:05:21,155 --> 01:05:22,757 You're gonna be fine, love. 732 01:05:42,309 --> 01:05:46,246 Marla! 733 01:05:46,848 --> 01:05:48,348 Are you real right now? 734 01:05:48,516 --> 01:05:50,017 Yeah, I'm motherfucking real. 735 01:05:50,184 --> 01:05:52,453 You're real? This is real? 736 01:05:52,620 --> 01:05:53,721 -Yes. -No. 737 01:05:53,855 --> 01:05:57,424 Please believe it. 738 01:06:03,330 --> 01:06:06,266 -I'm sorry. -It's okay. It's okay. 739 01:06:06,835 --> 01:06:10,572 Like a rapper with no chain, like an April with no rain. 740 01:06:10,705 --> 01:06:11,773 It just works. 741 01:06:12,239 --> 01:06:13,808 We're friends. 742 01:06:13,942 --> 01:06:15,209 Yeah. 743 01:06:17,545 --> 01:06:18,513 Wanna talk? 744 01:06:19,279 --> 01:06:21,716 Now here's a little tune to bring you back. 745 01:06:22,817 --> 01:06:23,952 Yeah. 746 01:07:47,635 --> 01:07:49,503 Uh, Marla? 747 01:07:52,574 --> 01:07:54,474 I think we're supposed to go to there. 748 01:08:00,180 --> 01:08:01,549 You know what? 749 01:08:01,683 --> 01:08:03,250 That is what I'm seeing. That is what it is. 750 01:08:03,383 --> 01:08:05,520 That's a phone booth in the middle of the road. 751 01:08:05,653 --> 01:08:07,889 Right? That is what I'm seeing. 752 01:08:08,022 --> 01:08:09,489 That's messed up, right? 753 01:08:11,425 --> 01:08:13,661 I don't know who I am anymore. 754 01:08:15,095 --> 01:08:16,296 I don't really know either, 755 01:08:16,463 --> 01:08:17,966 but I think I'm starting to get it. 756 01:08:18,098 --> 01:08:19,366 Yeah. 757 01:08:19,534 --> 01:08:21,869 We always have been sort of, like, nuts, 758 01:08:22,036 --> 01:08:23,905 so, what's fun? 759 01:08:28,710 --> 01:08:31,311 You gotta go, Marla. You gotta go. 760 01:08:31,445 --> 01:08:34,381 It's, like, the only way to deal with all of this. 761 01:08:35,182 --> 01:08:36,718 And what if I don't come back? 762 01:08:37,051 --> 01:08:38,352 I'll come get you. 763 01:08:43,123 --> 01:08:44,525 You're not alone, Marla. 764 01:08:46,828 --> 01:08:48,696 We're all made of dark parts. 765 01:08:50,098 --> 01:08:51,599 Just gotta try and face them. 766 01:09:01,109 --> 01:09:02,442 You got this. 767 01:09:04,846 --> 01:09:06,146 Go. 768 01:09:30,772 --> 01:09:33,407 Nice of you to show up. 769 01:09:37,011 --> 01:09:38,278 Hey. 770 01:09:39,179 --> 01:09:40,581 Open your gift. 771 01:09:43,250 --> 01:09:44,585 Happy birthday. 772 01:09:46,186 --> 01:09:47,487 Hi, Mom. 773 01:09:49,957 --> 01:09:51,358 This is for you. 774 01:10:08,810 --> 01:10:09,911 Thanks, Mom. 775 01:10:11,979 --> 01:10:14,982 I had one just like it when I was a kid. 776 01:10:18,753 --> 01:10:19,821 It's beautiful. 777 01:10:25,660 --> 01:10:26,794 Mm-hmm. 778 01:10:28,096 --> 01:10:29,530 I thought you would like it. 779 01:10:32,466 --> 01:10:33,735 Let me see it. 780 01:10:37,437 --> 01:10:38,940 Marla, put it down. 781 01:10:39,874 --> 01:10:43,211 Mom, it's-- it's okay. She can hold it. 782 01:10:43,343 --> 01:10:45,345 Put that down. It's your sister's. 783 01:10:49,183 --> 01:10:51,384 -Goddamn it! -I-- I-- 784 01:10:51,519 --> 01:10:53,588 -Look what you just fucking did? -Mom! 785 01:10:54,222 --> 01:10:55,690 Try to have one nice night. 786 01:10:55,823 --> 01:10:58,593 -I'll pick it up. I'm sorry. -Yeah. Pick it up. 787 01:10:59,127 --> 01:11:01,495 Pick it up right now. Do it. 788 01:11:02,196 --> 01:11:03,531 -Pick it up! -Stop it. 789 01:11:03,698 --> 01:11:05,298 -Pick it up! -Stop it! Stop it! 790 01:11:05,465 --> 01:11:06,601 Mom! You're hurting her! 791 01:11:06,768 --> 01:11:08,202 I don't care about hurting her. 792 01:11:08,368 --> 01:11:10,538 She should see how it feels for once. 793 01:11:15,543 --> 01:11:17,410 What the fuck is wrong with you? 794 01:11:19,180 --> 01:11:20,915 What's wrong with you? 795 01:11:26,286 --> 01:11:28,388 Jesus Christ. 796 01:11:30,158 --> 01:11:31,592 I'm not coming back here. 797 01:11:31,726 --> 01:11:33,961 Well, no one wants you here anyway, so... 798 01:11:39,399 --> 01:11:41,769 You're not fit to be a fucking mother. 799 01:12:02,757 --> 01:12:04,391 Tell me what to do. 800 01:12:04,926 --> 01:12:08,361 I don't know what to do. I'm so fucking angry. 801 01:12:08,529 --> 01:12:10,497 - I'm so fucking mad. - Marla. 802 01:12:10,665 --> 01:12:12,533 I'm so mad. I'm so angry. 803 01:12:12,667 --> 01:12:15,368 She's not gonna be okay. I need to go back there. 804 01:12:17,171 --> 01:12:18,906 Please give it time. Please? 805 01:12:20,541 --> 01:12:22,009 I told her I hated her. 806 01:12:23,211 --> 01:12:25,613 Give it time. Give it time. 807 01:12:25,780 --> 01:12:27,949 Give it time. 808 01:12:28,082 --> 01:12:29,416 Okay? 809 01:12:30,084 --> 01:12:31,152 Okay? 810 01:12:37,158 --> 01:12:38,659 I don't want to pick it up. 811 01:12:39,227 --> 01:12:40,561 Rest. Come on, come on. 812 01:12:40,695 --> 01:12:43,097 Come on, come on. Come on, come on, come on. 813 01:12:52,073 --> 01:12:54,108 I want to kill her. 814 01:13:00,147 --> 01:13:02,750 -Rest. -I have to go back there. 815 01:13:02,884 --> 01:13:03,885 Rest. 816 01:13:04,051 --> 01:13:05,418 I have to go back. 817 01:13:08,923 --> 01:13:10,490 I have to go back there. 818 01:13:12,693 --> 01:13:14,562 I can't find Mom anywhere. 819 01:13:15,162 --> 01:13:16,429 I'm worried about you. 820 01:13:16,831 --> 01:13:18,099 You're my sister. 821 01:13:18,733 --> 01:13:20,701 Marla, you need to go back there. 822 01:15:25,926 --> 01:15:30,164 I don't feel safe here. I don't feel safe here. 823 01:15:55,222 --> 01:15:56,724 I'll be right back. 824 01:16:29,990 --> 01:16:31,158 Mom! 825 01:16:31,992 --> 01:16:33,127 Mom! 826 01:16:33,260 --> 01:16:34,795 Mom, Mom, please, stop. 827 01:16:34,929 --> 01:16:36,397 -Marla! -Mom, stop! 828 01:16:36,531 --> 01:16:38,065 Marla! Stop it. 829 01:16:38,499 --> 01:16:40,067 Mom, please. 830 01:16:40,201 --> 01:16:41,836 What are you doing? Let me go. 831 01:16:41,969 --> 01:16:45,106 I want you to hear me. I want you to hear me. 832 01:16:45,473 --> 01:16:47,274 Leave it alone. Stop trying. 833 01:16:47,441 --> 01:16:49,544 I need you to hear me. I need you to hear me. 834 01:16:49,977 --> 01:16:52,179 I love you. I need you to hear that. 835 01:16:52,746 --> 01:16:54,415 Please. Can you hear me? 836 01:16:54,882 --> 01:16:56,984 Mom, please. I don't want you to go. 837 01:16:57,651 --> 01:16:59,053 I really don't want you to go. 838 01:17:00,522 --> 01:17:02,056 Will you accept this? 839 01:17:04,425 --> 01:17:05,826 How it is... 840 01:17:08,095 --> 01:17:10,397 how it was, how I am. 841 01:17:13,834 --> 01:17:17,371 This has nothing to do with you. 842 01:17:19,473 --> 01:17:21,008 Nothing to do with you. 843 01:17:22,276 --> 01:17:23,344 Do you hear me? 844 01:17:30,784 --> 01:17:32,386 Let me go. 845 01:18:00,515 --> 01:18:01,849 Mom? 846 01:18:22,403 --> 01:18:23,470 Mom? 847 01:18:50,464 --> 01:18:51,799 Mom? 848 01:19:15,489 --> 01:19:16,757 Open the door, Mom. 849 01:19:45,620 --> 01:19:46,954 Mom? 850 01:19:47,454 --> 01:19:48,822 I'm really sorry. 851 01:19:50,190 --> 01:19:52,560 I'm-- 852 01:19:52,694 --> 01:19:54,094 I'm really sorry. 853 01:19:59,433 --> 01:20:00,868 Are you okay? 854 01:20:07,941 --> 01:20:09,343 I'm really sorry... 855 01:20:10,645 --> 01:20:12,747 for-- for everything I said. 856 01:20:12,913 --> 01:20:14,181 I didn't mean it. 857 01:20:17,151 --> 01:20:18,553 I just want to tell you something. 858 01:20:18,720 --> 01:20:20,321 -I don't-- -Shh. 859 01:20:23,490 --> 01:20:24,825 Shh. 860 01:20:28,062 --> 01:20:30,565 This has nothing to do with you. 861 01:20:34,268 --> 01:20:35,537 Let go. 862 01:20:38,939 --> 01:20:40,941 Shh, shh. 863 01:20:45,913 --> 01:20:48,315 This has nothing to do with you. 864 01:20:50,785 --> 01:20:52,119 Let go. 865 01:20:58,693 --> 01:20:59,828 Mom? 866 01:21:00,027 --> 01:21:02,162 Mom! 867 01:21:04,331 --> 01:21:06,867 Mom! 868 01:21:09,503 --> 01:21:11,271 Mom? Mom! 869 01:21:12,039 --> 01:21:13,407 Mom! Mom! 870 01:21:13,974 --> 01:21:15,409 Mom. 871 01:21:16,977 --> 01:21:18,245 Mom. 872 01:21:25,787 --> 01:21:27,121 Mom. 873 01:21:31,626 --> 01:21:34,061 Mom. Mom. 874 01:21:40,668 --> 01:21:42,169 Mom. Mom. 875 01:21:42,936 --> 01:21:44,204 Mom. 876 01:21:45,507 --> 01:21:46,940 Marla? 877 01:21:50,277 --> 01:21:51,679 You don't belong here. 878 01:21:53,046 --> 01:21:54,448 Come on. 879 01:22:04,324 --> 01:22:05,760 Can we go home now? 880 01:22:07,862 --> 01:22:09,430 When I was little 881 01:22:09,564 --> 01:22:12,667 I used to hide when I was scared. 882 01:22:12,801 --> 01:22:14,268 I would close my eyes... 883 01:22:15,870 --> 01:22:17,404 and I'd be safe. 884 01:22:19,774 --> 01:22:20,842 I used to imagine... 885 01:22:21,876 --> 01:22:24,211 going to watch the moon tap dance. 886 01:22:28,182 --> 01:22:30,250 I would sit there and be safe. 887 01:22:31,418 --> 01:22:34,622 There is no wrong place to be. 888 01:22:38,225 --> 01:22:40,260 I think I wanna choose living. 889 01:22:42,496 --> 01:22:43,631 Is that me? 890 01:22:44,799 --> 01:22:47,569 Facing it all. Trying. 891 01:22:49,637 --> 01:22:50,738 It'll be worth it. 892 01:22:51,773 --> 01:22:54,041 I'm sorry I didn't know sooner. 893 01:22:57,612 --> 01:22:58,913 In life, 894 01:22:59,079 --> 01:23:01,883 there are so many memories 895 01:23:02,015 --> 01:23:03,484 to choose from. 896 01:23:06,119 --> 01:23:07,154 Bad and good. 897 01:23:11,158 --> 01:23:12,694 I'll never forget this. 898 01:23:15,996 --> 01:23:17,331 I promise you. 899 01:23:18,432 --> 01:23:20,234 I will always take you with me.