1 00:00:18,936 --> 00:00:20,897 ["Girl" playing] 2 00:00:20,980 --> 00:00:21,939 ♪ Girl ♪ 3 00:00:24,317 --> 00:00:26,527 ♪ Perfectly her ♪ 4 00:00:27,111 --> 00:00:27,987 [grunts] 5 00:00:28,613 --> 00:00:31,532 ♪ Broken and hurt ♪ 6 00:00:32,366 --> 00:00:33,826 [Paula laughing] 7 00:00:33,910 --> 00:00:38,289 ♪ Soft and asleep in the morning gray ♪ 8 00:00:38,372 --> 00:00:42,502 ♪ Shake off the night And don't hide your face ♪ 9 00:00:42,585 --> 00:00:47,006 ♪ The sun lights the world With a single flame ♪ 10 00:00:49,050 --> 00:00:51,135 ♪ I want you to see this ♪ 11 00:00:53,471 --> 00:00:55,473 ♪ I want you to see this ♪ 12 00:01:02,271 --> 00:01:03,523 [engine starting] 13 00:01:09,904 --> 00:01:10,988 ♪ Today ♪ 14 00:01:12,907 --> 00:01:15,993 ♪ And all of your days ♪ 15 00:01:17,662 --> 00:01:20,248 ♪ I'll wear your pain ♪ 16 00:01:23,126 --> 00:01:27,171 ♪ Heal what I can in your troubled mind ♪ 17 00:01:27,255 --> 00:01:31,717 ♪ Sometimes our bodies Will hurt for some time ♪ 18 00:01:31,801 --> 00:01:35,763 ♪ And the beauty in that Can be hard to find ♪ 19 00:01:37,056 --> 00:01:39,308 ♪ I want you to know this ♪ 20 00:01:41,769 --> 00:01:44,981 I'm Denise. I'm a survivor of domestic violence. 21 00:01:45,064 --> 00:01:46,023 [all] Hi, Denise. 22 00:01:46,107 --> 00:01:47,191 Hi, Denise. 23 00:01:47,275 --> 00:01:52,363 Does anyone want to share anything today before we start with our special activity? 24 00:01:54,157 --> 00:01:57,451 Okay. Then I'll turn this over to Alex. 25 00:01:57,535 --> 00:01:58,744 Let's give her a warm welcome. 26 00:01:58,828 --> 00:02:01,038 [all snapping fingers] 27 00:02:01,122 --> 00:02:02,165 Thanks, guys. 28 00:02:02,248 --> 00:02:06,669 I'm Alex and I am a survivor of domestic violence. 29 00:02:06,752 --> 00:02:08,921 [all] Hi, Alex. 30 00:02:09,005 --> 00:02:13,009 I asked Denise if I could do some volunteer work and... 31 00:02:13,593 --> 00:02:16,137 I meant cleaning the toilets, but... 32 00:02:16,220 --> 00:02:18,181 Denise said that I should do this instead 33 00:02:18,264 --> 00:02:23,394 and I said "no," and she said "yes," and here we are. 34 00:02:23,477 --> 00:02:25,688 Show them your serial-killer notebook. 35 00:02:25,771 --> 00:02:28,441 She says my writing looks like a serial killer's, so... 36 00:02:28,524 --> 00:02:30,234 Damn, you wrote all that? 37 00:02:30,318 --> 00:02:34,363 I did. Yes. I wrote this just since I've been at McMullen House. 38 00:02:35,698 --> 00:02:39,660 Do any of you guys write for fun? 39 00:02:42,413 --> 00:02:44,957 Brandi, you do not need to raise your hand. 40 00:02:45,625 --> 00:02:49,754 I had a diary in 5th grade. It was furry and pink. 41 00:02:49,837 --> 00:02:52,089 It had a little lock on it. 42 00:02:52,173 --> 00:02:54,634 -Yeah. Me too. I had one of those. -Mm. 43 00:02:56,135 --> 00:02:57,762 [Alex] Here's the hard question. 44 00:02:57,845 --> 00:03:01,265 Who were you writing to when you wrote? 45 00:03:01,349 --> 00:03:03,893 Nobody. Just myself. 46 00:03:03,976 --> 00:03:05,311 Yeah, same. 47 00:03:06,312 --> 00:03:10,316 Writing is where I go to be honest about how I feel. 48 00:03:11,192 --> 00:03:14,904 Sometimes it's really the only way for me to know what it is that I'm feeling. 49 00:03:14,987 --> 00:03:18,407 Like I have to write in order to see what I'm gonna write. 50 00:03:18,491 --> 00:03:20,284 If that makes any sense. 51 00:03:21,118 --> 00:03:21,953 But... 52 00:03:22,954 --> 00:03:27,541 I find that it's a lot easier to write the truth than it is to say it out loud. 53 00:03:29,377 --> 00:03:31,671 Nobody can take writing away from you. 54 00:03:32,254 --> 00:03:36,676 Nobody can tell you that you're wrong, or your words are wrong. 55 00:03:36,759 --> 00:03:38,094 Because they're not. 56 00:03:38,177 --> 00:03:40,888 You're right, and your words are fucking right. 57 00:03:42,640 --> 00:03:43,975 Because they're yours. 58 00:03:45,601 --> 00:03:49,105 Anyway, we all have notebooks and pens. 59 00:03:49,188 --> 00:03:52,650 Are we gonna read this out loud? 60 00:03:52,733 --> 00:03:56,237 You can if you want to, but you definitely don't have to if you don't want to. 61 00:03:57,071 --> 00:03:59,991 Okay, so I brought some writing prompts 62 00:04:00,074 --> 00:04:03,577 that I got from a real professor from the Internet 63 00:04:03,661 --> 00:04:06,455 that is qualified to be teaching things. 64 00:04:06,539 --> 00:04:10,209 Okay. Describe a day in your life that you were really happy. 65 00:04:10,293 --> 00:04:13,170 It can be a real day that actually happened. 66 00:04:13,254 --> 00:04:16,465 Or an imagined day that you wish would happen. 67 00:04:19,552 --> 00:04:21,429 I'm gonna put ten minutes on... 68 00:04:22,596 --> 00:04:23,889 the clock. 69 00:04:23,973 --> 00:04:27,810 There's no pressure, we're just writing for the sake of writing. 70 00:04:33,774 --> 00:04:35,192 [Denise] That was great. 71 00:04:35,276 --> 00:04:38,279 -Can I ask something? You have a minute? -Of course. 72 00:04:38,362 --> 00:04:40,614 I know the answer to this already, 73 00:04:40,698 --> 00:04:43,701 but we're not allowed to have any visitors at the shelter, are we? 74 00:04:43,784 --> 00:04:46,162 No. I'm sorry, baby girl. 75 00:04:46,245 --> 00:04:49,332 We can only have individual victims and their children in shelter. 76 00:04:49,999 --> 00:04:51,625 -Figured. -Why? 77 00:04:52,918 --> 00:04:56,922 Um, I just found out that my mom's living in a car. 78 00:04:57,006 --> 00:04:58,341 Sorry to hear that. 79 00:04:58,424 --> 00:04:59,633 Thanks. 80 00:04:59,717 --> 00:05:01,177 Is she a victim of DV? 81 00:05:02,178 --> 00:05:06,974 She's a chronic victim of DV, but she's also in complete denial 82 00:05:07,058 --> 00:05:09,894 and delusional and unmedicated, so... 83 00:05:10,644 --> 00:05:12,605 Is she over 55? 84 00:05:12,688 --> 00:05:13,939 Mm-hm. 85 00:05:14,023 --> 00:05:17,568 They have a program called SHARE that puts homeless folks at senior centers, 86 00:05:17,651 --> 00:05:19,820 but she has to enroll. 87 00:05:19,904 --> 00:05:21,614 Yeah. Ah... 88 00:05:21,697 --> 00:05:24,825 She really hates everything government-oriented 89 00:05:24,909 --> 00:05:29,038 and she's on the lam from a psych ward, so that's not gonna work out. 90 00:05:29,538 --> 00:05:30,373 Thank you. 91 00:05:31,040 --> 00:05:33,334 Is there anyone else that can look after your mom? 92 00:05:34,126 --> 00:05:37,046 No, I've been taking care of her since I was 6. 93 00:05:38,381 --> 00:05:41,342 What would happen if you didn't? 94 00:05:50,643 --> 00:05:53,312 [Paula] I think I'll do something, I don't know, 95 00:05:53,395 --> 00:05:55,356 something spectacular when I walk in. 96 00:06:01,529 --> 00:06:06,742 They come in really strong. [laughs] Yeah, that's a good idea, so... 97 00:06:09,203 --> 00:06:10,621 Oh, shit, man. 98 00:06:10,704 --> 00:06:13,332 -Hey, Mom. -Alex, hey. 99 00:06:13,415 --> 00:06:18,754 I thought that was you, I was just driving home from a clean and I saw your car. 100 00:06:18,838 --> 00:06:20,464 She's hard to miss. 101 00:06:20,548 --> 00:06:25,010 -What are you up to out here? -Oh, well, look at Her Majesty. 102 00:06:25,094 --> 00:06:26,887 Spring has sprung. 103 00:06:26,971 --> 00:06:29,765 It's gonna be a cotton-candy sunset, 104 00:06:29,849 --> 00:06:33,352 and I'm gonna watch every sugar-coated moment of her. 105 00:06:33,435 --> 00:06:36,063 Looks like you were talking to the birds. 106 00:06:36,147 --> 00:06:37,815 Oh, no, honey. 107 00:06:38,440 --> 00:06:43,946 I downloaded that dictation app onto my phone. 108 00:06:44,029 --> 00:06:48,868 Because I'm giving a lecture on the Neolithic concept 109 00:06:48,951 --> 00:06:50,786 of the solar barge to the collective. 110 00:06:50,870 --> 00:06:54,957 And, um, I would write this one, but I can't. 111 00:06:55,040 --> 00:06:56,876 Because my fucking arm's killing me. 112 00:06:56,959 --> 00:06:59,211 Oh, where's your cast, Mom? 113 00:07:00,296 --> 00:07:01,672 Where did your cast go? 114 00:07:01,755 --> 00:07:03,424 Oh. [chuckles] 115 00:07:03,507 --> 00:07:06,218 It was plastered to your wrist. Where did it go? 116 00:07:06,302 --> 00:07:07,178 Uh... 117 00:07:07,928 --> 00:07:11,265 I had a terrible itch, so I had Micah saw it off. 118 00:07:11,348 --> 00:07:14,351 I have to say, it was oddly erotic. 119 00:07:14,435 --> 00:07:17,688 Are you kidding me? The cast has to be on for six more weeks. 120 00:07:17,771 --> 00:07:19,732 -It's fine. -No, that's not fine. 121 00:07:19,815 --> 00:07:22,735 You have a severed tendon and now your tendon is not gonna heal. 122 00:07:23,569 --> 00:07:27,281 If you're gonna ruin the cotton candy, you're gonna have to go. 123 00:07:32,328 --> 00:07:33,162 I'm, um... 124 00:07:34,246 --> 00:07:35,956 I'm glad that I ran into you. 125 00:07:36,582 --> 00:07:40,586 I know that you have a great living situation in your loft 126 00:07:40,669 --> 00:07:43,088 with your collective, but, um... 127 00:07:44,632 --> 00:07:47,384 I told you I'm moving to Montana. 128 00:07:49,762 --> 00:07:50,971 What if you came with me? 129 00:07:52,932 --> 00:07:55,184 I've got a place on campus. 130 00:07:55,267 --> 00:07:56,977 You could hang with Maddy 131 00:07:57,061 --> 00:08:01,690 and you could go on walks and you could paint all day. 132 00:08:02,441 --> 00:08:04,443 Watch Maddy start kindergarten. 133 00:08:07,488 --> 00:08:09,865 Oh, babe, that's not me. 134 00:08:11,784 --> 00:08:13,160 Why not? 135 00:08:13,244 --> 00:08:14,662 Because I'm not boring. 136 00:08:17,164 --> 00:08:18,916 I've got a big life. 137 00:08:18,999 --> 00:08:21,794 I can't be galloping off behind you, being a tag along. 138 00:08:21,877 --> 00:08:25,047 No, Mom. I'm really serious. I'm inviting you. 139 00:08:26,423 --> 00:08:28,467 My blood's here, honey. 140 00:08:28,551 --> 00:08:31,387 My mama's buried here. Her mama's buried here. 141 00:08:31,470 --> 00:08:33,305 The Langley women are here. 142 00:08:35,057 --> 00:08:38,227 I am a Langley woman and I am going. 143 00:08:38,727 --> 00:08:40,646 I know, baby, and that's you. 144 00:08:41,480 --> 00:08:42,356 But, uh... 145 00:08:44,900 --> 00:08:46,110 I can't leave. 146 00:08:49,572 --> 00:08:50,406 Okay. 147 00:08:52,992 --> 00:08:55,411 Go to some appointments before I leave. 148 00:08:55,494 --> 00:08:58,247 -Like the wrist doctor. -Hard pass. 149 00:08:58,330 --> 00:09:01,166 I'm making you an appointment for tomorrow, okay? 150 00:09:01,250 --> 00:09:04,128 You're gonna meet me there. Nod that you hear me. 151 00:09:08,632 --> 00:09:11,218 I don't wanna have to worry about you when I'm gone, Mom. 152 00:09:16,056 --> 00:09:18,809 [Paula] Look at that. Cotton candy. 153 00:09:20,853 --> 00:09:24,648 We're starting here, and then we're gonna go over some mountains. 154 00:09:25,232 --> 00:09:28,527 We're gonna go to Spokane, which is a really big city. 155 00:09:28,611 --> 00:09:31,071 Then we're gonna go over more mountains. 156 00:09:31,739 --> 00:09:33,574 Then over some more mountains. 157 00:09:34,325 --> 00:09:36,535 All the way to Missoula. 158 00:09:37,161 --> 00:09:39,038 -Mm-hm. -Right there. 159 00:09:39,121 --> 00:09:40,664 Missoula. 160 00:09:40,748 --> 00:09:41,582 Missoula. 161 00:09:43,459 --> 00:09:45,711 It's gonna take us this many hours. 162 00:09:45,794 --> 00:09:51,800 Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Seven. Eight. Nine. 163 00:09:51,884 --> 00:09:52,718 Nine hours. 164 00:09:53,594 --> 00:09:56,096 -[Maddy] And "Shoop." -Exactly. 165 00:09:56,180 --> 00:09:57,640 ["Hello Hello Hello" playing] 166 00:09:59,016 --> 00:10:02,853 ♪ There he go, my baby Never answers in the room ♪ 167 00:10:03,479 --> 00:10:06,357 ♪ Steps outside or puts it on snooze ♪ 168 00:10:06,440 --> 00:10:09,068 ♪ He just do whatever he do ♪ 169 00:10:09,151 --> 00:10:11,737 ♪ Like, "Hello, hello, hello? ♪ 170 00:10:11,820 --> 00:10:14,406 ♪ How's my little lady In the New York snow?" ♪ 171 00:10:14,490 --> 00:10:16,950 ♪ Yeah, he says "I love you, I love you loads" ♪ 172 00:10:17,034 --> 00:10:20,746 ♪ We got a certified gambler Messin' with me ♪ 173 00:10:20,829 --> 00:10:23,123 ♪ Hello, hello, hello ♪ 174 00:10:23,207 --> 00:10:25,459 ♪ I got one foot in and one out the door ♪ 175 00:10:25,542 --> 00:10:28,253 ♪ I think it's 'bout time That I take control ♪ 176 00:10:28,337 --> 00:10:31,632 ♪ 'Cause I'm a certified gambler Fuckin' with three ♪ 177 00:10:31,715 --> 00:10:33,425 No! 178 00:10:34,802 --> 00:10:36,220 ♪ Hello, hello, hello ♪ 179 00:10:36,303 --> 00:10:37,680 [groans] 180 00:10:37,763 --> 00:10:42,226 ♪ But my baby miss me more Than he misses his job ♪ 181 00:10:42,309 --> 00:10:45,062 ♪ Makin' pizza in the Bronx ♪ 182 00:10:45,145 --> 00:10:48,148 ♪ He just has to call me up ♪ 183 00:10:48,232 --> 00:10:50,693 ♪ Like, "Hello, hello, hello? ♪ 184 00:10:50,776 --> 00:10:53,404 ♪ How's my little lady Playin' rock 'n' roll? ♪ 185 00:10:53,487 --> 00:10:56,198 ♪ Or maybe these days You like pop and soul?" ♪ 186 00:10:56,281 --> 00:10:58,992 ♪ He's a certified gambler Messin' with me ♪ 187 00:10:59,076 --> 00:11:05,582 Hi, I'd like to place an order for English 102, Block 5, textbook. 188 00:11:08,919 --> 00:11:09,920 For books? 189 00:11:11,338 --> 00:11:13,590 Do you have any used copies? 190 00:11:16,802 --> 00:11:19,847 Great, um, would you mind setting one of those aside? 191 00:11:19,930 --> 00:11:21,515 I can be there on Tuesday. 192 00:11:24,143 --> 00:11:24,977 Thank you. 193 00:11:25,060 --> 00:11:26,145 [cell phone buzzing] 194 00:11:29,231 --> 00:11:30,732 -Hey, Tara. -[Tara] Oh, good, hi. 195 00:11:30,816 --> 00:11:33,277 Just a quick update for you. 196 00:11:33,360 --> 00:11:35,279 I just got back from the clerk's office. 197 00:11:35,362 --> 00:11:36,905 -Uh-oh. -No, it's fine. 198 00:11:36,989 --> 00:11:39,616 They objected to the notice of relocation, which we knew, 199 00:11:39,700 --> 00:11:43,454 but the motion for the ex parte emergency custody order 200 00:11:43,537 --> 00:11:46,999 has been filed and I also slapped him with a temporary no-contact order, 201 00:11:47,082 --> 00:11:49,251 so that ought to make a point. 202 00:11:49,334 --> 00:11:51,420 -So he can't contact me? -Correct. 203 00:11:51,503 --> 00:11:54,423 The sheriff should be serving him with the restraining order 204 00:11:54,506 --> 00:11:56,717 and the ex parte motion this morning. 205 00:11:56,800 --> 00:11:58,385 Okay. Uh... 206 00:11:58,469 --> 00:12:01,054 -So, what happens now? -We wait. 207 00:12:01,138 --> 00:12:03,932 I left word for Sean's attorney. We should know more soon. 208 00:12:04,433 --> 00:12:06,143 Okay, thank you so much. 209 00:12:06,226 --> 00:12:07,603 Yeah, no problem, bye. 210 00:12:08,896 --> 00:12:11,440 Brandi, I think you were next, right? 211 00:12:13,233 --> 00:12:16,612 I don't know if this is my happiest day ever, 212 00:12:16,695 --> 00:12:18,655 but it's what came to my mind during then. 213 00:12:18,739 --> 00:12:19,990 Perfect. 214 00:12:21,700 --> 00:12:25,120 "I used to go on these walks with my dad as a kid. 215 00:12:25,787 --> 00:12:28,999 We'd go in June before the sticky late-summer heat. 216 00:12:30,834 --> 00:12:35,380 I'd get one of those Flintstone orange popsicles from 7-Eleven. 217 00:12:36,381 --> 00:12:39,510 The kind you have to use all your might to push up. 218 00:12:39,593 --> 00:12:44,014 We'd walk along the ocean looking at the Virgo constellations, 219 00:12:44,097 --> 00:12:47,476 since my birthday is four days before his. 220 00:12:48,352 --> 00:12:50,687 My dad would point to the sky and tell me 221 00:12:50,771 --> 00:12:54,274 he was the Big Dipper and I was the Little Dipper. 222 00:12:55,108 --> 00:13:00,489 [voice breaking] We stopped going on our walks when my dad got sick. 223 00:13:02,533 --> 00:13:04,868 But I went back recently with my son. 224 00:13:07,037 --> 00:13:09,456 Got him a Flintstone orange popsicle. 225 00:13:12,668 --> 00:13:14,753 They're much easier to push up now. 226 00:13:16,463 --> 00:13:20,509 I looked up at the night sky, and there it was... 227 00:13:21,301 --> 00:13:23,637 as if zero time had passed. 228 00:13:24,846 --> 00:13:26,473 The Big and Little Dipper." 229 00:13:34,064 --> 00:13:34,982 That's it. 230 00:13:35,566 --> 00:13:36,942 [all snapping fingers] 231 00:13:40,862 --> 00:13:44,032 So of course we wanna keep everything that we say positive, 232 00:13:44,116 --> 00:13:48,870 but I was hoping that we could say some of the images 233 00:13:48,954 --> 00:13:53,709 that are gonna stay with us from Brandi's story. 234 00:13:53,792 --> 00:13:55,919 "Sticky late-summer heat." 235 00:13:57,546 --> 00:13:59,298 "They're much easier to push up now." 236 00:13:59,923 --> 00:14:01,174 [all laughing] 237 00:14:02,467 --> 00:14:04,011 "Zero time had passed." 238 00:14:05,554 --> 00:14:07,222 "Big and Little Dipper." 239 00:14:08,724 --> 00:14:11,018 Does anybody else wanna share? 240 00:14:20,360 --> 00:14:21,570 [line ringing] 241 00:14:26,366 --> 00:14:28,660 [automated voice] Please leave a message after the tone. 242 00:14:28,744 --> 00:14:29,828 [voicemail beeps] 243 00:14:49,014 --> 00:14:50,223 [people chattering] 244 00:14:53,602 --> 00:14:54,436 Mom. 245 00:14:54,519 --> 00:14:55,354 Mom! 246 00:14:55,938 --> 00:14:57,105 Hey, honey. 247 00:14:57,189 --> 00:14:59,274 Don't. We're going to the doctor. 248 00:14:59,358 --> 00:15:01,902 -What doctor? -The doctor that you just stood up. 249 00:15:01,985 --> 00:15:04,446 She can see you at 4:00, but we have to leave right now. 250 00:15:04,529 --> 00:15:06,490 It's Thursday. I didn't say I was going. 251 00:15:06,573 --> 00:15:09,034 We have the booth on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. 252 00:15:09,117 --> 00:15:10,827 And I'm not abandoning Micah. 253 00:15:10,911 --> 00:15:13,914 -Come meet my daughter. -We met the other day. 254 00:15:13,997 --> 00:15:14,831 Oh. 255 00:15:14,915 --> 00:15:17,084 Mom. Please, can we go? 256 00:15:17,167 --> 00:15:20,963 Uh, why have you got glitter all over? Did you go to a rave? 257 00:15:21,046 --> 00:15:23,465 -I cleaned a playroom. -[Paula] You know what glitter is? 258 00:15:23,548 --> 00:15:26,885 -It is the lice of the art room. -You gave me your word. Come on. 259 00:15:26,969 --> 00:15:29,554 -You spread it wherever you go. -Would you grow up? 260 00:15:29,638 --> 00:15:31,431 -We gotta go. -You're the one with glitter. 261 00:15:31,515 --> 00:15:34,142 Get in my car and I'm gonna drive you to the doctor. 262 00:15:34,226 --> 00:15:36,603 You're not the boss of me. Okay? 263 00:15:36,687 --> 00:15:38,105 It's my arm that hurts. 264 00:15:38,188 --> 00:15:42,025 I'll take CBD or go to the doctor or I'll cut the fucker off. 265 00:15:42,109 --> 00:15:44,653 Just because you're on some timer because you're leaving, 266 00:15:44,736 --> 00:15:46,780 doesn't mean I am. I am fantastic. 267 00:15:46,863 --> 00:15:49,574 For God's sake, just worry about somebody else. Please. 268 00:15:49,658 --> 00:15:51,410 -[Micah] Babe. -Oh, sorry, honey. 269 00:15:51,493 --> 00:15:54,204 I'm working. I've got a job here, okay? 270 00:15:54,871 --> 00:15:55,831 Hi there. 271 00:15:55,914 --> 00:15:57,124 [cell phone buzzing] 272 00:15:57,207 --> 00:16:00,419 You got a nice smile. Look at your smile. 273 00:16:01,086 --> 00:16:02,921 -Tara? -[Tara] Uh, change of plans. 274 00:16:03,005 --> 00:16:05,549 Do you think you could meet me near my office on Whitby? 275 00:16:05,632 --> 00:16:06,883 Is everything okay? 276 00:16:08,093 --> 00:16:09,720 I spoke to Sean's attorney. 277 00:16:09,803 --> 00:16:13,140 They are moving to reject the ex parte motion altogether, 278 00:16:13,223 --> 00:16:15,183 citing lack of evidence of abuse. 279 00:16:15,267 --> 00:16:18,437 And Sean is unwilling to revise the parenting plan 280 00:16:18,520 --> 00:16:20,856 or give up any of his custodial rights. 281 00:16:22,899 --> 00:16:24,609 Okay. 282 00:16:24,693 --> 00:16:25,819 Thanks. 283 00:16:25,902 --> 00:16:28,822 I'm sorry. So, what does that mean? 284 00:16:28,905 --> 00:16:31,700 It means that he says you're lying about being abused. 285 00:16:31,783 --> 00:16:34,870 So there will be an adequate-cause hearing in 14 days 286 00:16:34,953 --> 00:16:38,081 to determine the validity of your claims and appropriate custody. 287 00:16:38,165 --> 00:16:42,002 And it's gonna be what we call a win-loss case. 288 00:16:42,753 --> 00:16:45,756 If you lose, you can't take Maddy anywhere. 289 00:16:48,008 --> 00:16:49,092 Uh, ever? 290 00:16:49,176 --> 00:16:51,595 Washington makes it very hard for victims of DV. 291 00:16:51,678 --> 00:16:53,346 Particularly in cases of emotional-- 292 00:16:53,430 --> 00:16:56,933 I'm aware, I've been through this and lost because I didn't have any bruises. 293 00:16:57,017 --> 00:16:58,602 You're not gonna lose. 294 00:16:58,685 --> 00:17:00,979 We have 14 days to make a solid case. 295 00:17:01,063 --> 00:17:03,774 Someone must have seen this guy emotionally abuse you. 296 00:17:03,857 --> 00:17:06,276 I don't have 14 days. I leave for Montana on Monday. 297 00:17:06,359 --> 00:17:09,071 Legally, you can't go anywhere with Maddy. 298 00:17:09,154 --> 00:17:10,530 Not before the hearing. 299 00:17:14,826 --> 00:17:20,332 I am gonna lose my family housing and my spot in school. I'm... 300 00:17:20,415 --> 00:17:22,584 -Yes. -Another one. 301 00:17:23,460 --> 00:17:26,046 I have to leave the shelter this weekend. 302 00:17:26,129 --> 00:17:29,674 What do you think that I should do? I don't have a backup plan here. 303 00:17:29,758 --> 00:17:31,176 We're gonna fight this. 304 00:17:31,259 --> 00:17:33,887 I'm gonna get you there by fall semester. 305 00:17:33,970 --> 00:17:37,599 I just took out a $9000 student loan, $9000. 306 00:17:37,682 --> 00:17:40,227 I don't know if you realize, but this is my fucking life. 307 00:17:40,310 --> 00:17:42,729 I'm not rich like you and Regina. I can't repay this. 308 00:17:42,813 --> 00:17:43,939 There's more. 309 00:17:44,022 --> 00:17:46,608 Sean is demanding visitation with Maddy. 310 00:17:48,193 --> 00:17:51,113 No. We have a restraining order, so, no. 311 00:17:51,196 --> 00:17:53,073 It only applies to you, not to Maddy. 312 00:17:53,156 --> 00:17:55,826 The court has approved a four-hour visitation. 313 00:17:57,577 --> 00:17:58,703 When? 314 00:17:58,787 --> 00:17:59,621 Tomorrow. 315 00:18:00,288 --> 00:18:03,333 They will appoint a third party, neutral supervisor, 316 00:18:03,416 --> 00:18:05,669 unless you have someone you could use? 317 00:18:05,752 --> 00:18:07,254 -A grandparent? -Not doing that. 318 00:18:07,337 --> 00:18:08,713 I can't do that to her. 319 00:18:08,797 --> 00:18:11,967 If you don't comply, you will be in violation of your parenting plan, 320 00:18:12,050 --> 00:18:16,388 which will not look good for the hearing in 14 days. 321 00:18:16,471 --> 00:18:18,765 Alex, I'm sorry that this is happening, but... 322 00:18:20,142 --> 00:18:21,226 it's not over. 323 00:18:21,309 --> 00:18:22,686 It's just a speed bump. 324 00:18:28,024 --> 00:18:30,026 [emotional music playing] 325 00:19:09,149 --> 00:19:11,276 -Oh. -It's just me. 326 00:19:11,359 --> 00:19:14,070 Alex. Shit. Good God. 327 00:19:16,781 --> 00:19:18,575 You scared the shit out of me. 328 00:19:18,658 --> 00:19:20,285 What are you doing here? 329 00:19:21,328 --> 00:19:23,121 I need your help. 330 00:19:23,205 --> 00:19:24,456 What are you doing here? 331 00:19:24,539 --> 00:19:30,128 Oh, I had one too many margaritas and I just pulled over here to... 332 00:19:31,296 --> 00:19:33,215 sleep it off on the way home. 333 00:19:34,132 --> 00:19:36,927 -Mom. -I know this doesn't look good. 334 00:19:37,010 --> 00:19:37,928 It's just, um... 335 00:19:39,054 --> 00:19:43,141 the collective gets noisy and I come here... 336 00:19:43,975 --> 00:19:44,893 to nap. 337 00:19:46,144 --> 00:19:48,730 I know you sleep here, you spend all day in the park alone, 338 00:19:48,813 --> 00:19:50,732 and that there's no collective. 339 00:19:56,363 --> 00:19:57,364 Well... 340 00:20:00,283 --> 00:20:03,078 maybe "collective" isn't the right word. 341 00:20:04,871 --> 00:20:10,377 You know, we've really got a nice group of people here. 342 00:20:10,460 --> 00:20:11,503 Honestly... 343 00:20:12,128 --> 00:20:15,465 We've got the Flores family over here, in the van. 344 00:20:15,548 --> 00:20:18,009 Billy and Anna. I just love them. 345 00:20:18,093 --> 00:20:21,888 You know, we look out for each other and it's like a-- 346 00:20:21,972 --> 00:20:26,393 I don't know, a big sleep-out or a drive-in movie theater. 347 00:20:26,476 --> 00:20:27,978 We just need popcorn. 348 00:20:29,646 --> 00:20:31,314 Why can't you take care of yourself? 349 00:20:32,065 --> 00:20:35,402 What do you mean? You know, I've got my cooler in here. 350 00:20:35,485 --> 00:20:37,862 I've got my vitamins, baby. 351 00:20:37,946 --> 00:20:40,240 Cozy blanket and my fucking good weed. 352 00:20:40,323 --> 00:20:42,117 -I'm fine. -You're homeless. 353 00:20:42,200 --> 00:20:43,743 You're living in your car. 354 00:20:43,827 --> 00:20:46,079 -Would you just stop? -No. Please. 355 00:20:47,247 --> 00:20:48,665 I love my car! 356 00:20:49,499 --> 00:20:51,418 She's my cobalt bitch. 357 00:20:51,501 --> 00:20:53,503 -We're like family. -You're homeless, mom. 358 00:20:53,586 --> 00:20:56,631 -Would you please just stop! -You're homeless. 359 00:20:56,715 --> 00:20:58,925 I'm under the stars. I'm independent. 360 00:21:01,553 --> 00:21:03,722 And it's not all the time. I mean... 361 00:21:04,264 --> 00:21:06,308 sometimes I stay with Micah. 362 00:21:07,684 --> 00:21:09,352 When Alaina-May's not there. 363 00:21:09,436 --> 00:21:14,024 -Who the fuck is Alaina-May? -I told you. His wife. 364 00:21:14,107 --> 00:21:19,863 They broke up, but she still stays there because she's a feral dumpster fire. 365 00:21:19,946 --> 00:21:21,865 The point is, honey, I... 366 00:21:23,283 --> 00:21:28,413 You know, I like being a gypsy. I like being mobile. Okay? 367 00:21:28,496 --> 00:21:29,998 You know me. I'm scrappy. 368 00:21:30,081 --> 00:21:33,960 I don't know. I can't afford to put you in a motel or bring you to the shelter. 369 00:21:34,044 --> 00:21:35,211 I don't know. 370 00:21:35,295 --> 00:21:37,881 I am not your problem, Alexandra. 371 00:21:37,964 --> 00:21:40,300 -Yes, you are. -No, I am not. 372 00:21:40,383 --> 00:21:42,135 -I'm your mother. -You're not. 373 00:21:42,218 --> 00:21:43,303 Yes, I am! 374 00:21:44,262 --> 00:21:45,764 I am! 375 00:21:45,847 --> 00:21:48,892 You said you needed my help. 376 00:21:48,975 --> 00:21:49,809 I do. 377 00:21:49,893 --> 00:21:51,936 So how can I help you, madam? 378 00:21:52,645 --> 00:21:55,023 Can you supervise a playdate between Sean and Maddy? 379 00:21:55,106 --> 00:21:58,193 He gets visitation and a third party needs to be present. 380 00:21:58,276 --> 00:21:59,569 Can you do that? 381 00:21:59,652 --> 00:22:01,321 Yes, I can. 382 00:22:02,030 --> 00:22:05,283 -At what time should I be there? -12:30. 383 00:22:05,367 --> 00:22:06,826 Don't you worry. 384 00:22:07,452 --> 00:22:09,245 I will take care of your girl. 385 00:22:13,041 --> 00:22:15,835 -You're going to the doctor. -Over my dead body. 386 00:22:15,919 --> 00:22:17,796 You're going. Everything isn't all right. 387 00:22:17,879 --> 00:22:21,257 Everything is fucking shit and you need to be a goddamn adult. 388 00:22:21,341 --> 00:22:23,718 Your hand looks terrible. You're going! 389 00:22:26,304 --> 00:22:27,931 Do I get a lollipop? 390 00:22:31,559 --> 00:22:32,977 [Maddy giggling] 391 00:22:38,399 --> 00:22:40,819 Jesus Christ! [laughs] 392 00:22:41,486 --> 00:22:43,863 What's that smell coming from your car? 393 00:22:43,947 --> 00:22:46,533 -It smells like burnt turds. -You went to the doctor. 394 00:22:46,616 --> 00:22:49,327 Yeah, look. My finger still works. 395 00:22:49,410 --> 00:22:50,495 Hey, pumpkin pie. 396 00:22:50,578 --> 00:22:53,581 You ready for a playdate with me and your daddy? 397 00:22:54,290 --> 00:22:55,500 We're gonna have fun. 398 00:22:55,583 --> 00:22:58,878 I've packed a snack and a change of clothes and she's had lunch already. 399 00:22:58,962 --> 00:23:01,589 We've got this. Hi, pumpkin. 400 00:23:04,092 --> 00:23:05,718 Oh, I know. 401 00:23:05,802 --> 00:23:08,680 I guess I'll wait here, because I have to. 402 00:23:09,556 --> 00:23:12,142 Okay, Maddy. So you're gonna be with Dad for four hours. 403 00:23:12,225 --> 00:23:14,227 Thanks for sending the cops! 404 00:23:14,310 --> 00:23:15,270 Very classy! 405 00:23:15,854 --> 00:23:16,688 And then... 406 00:23:17,564 --> 00:23:21,151 [whispering] we'll go and get an ice cream together. Does that sound good? 407 00:23:21,234 --> 00:23:23,361 Do you want to get ice cream? Okay. 408 00:23:25,572 --> 00:23:27,448 -I love you so much. -Oh! 409 00:23:28,116 --> 00:23:30,618 -Thanks, Mom. -Yeah, we're gonna have fun. 410 00:23:34,789 --> 00:23:39,252 Get your Mad-dog. You're about to see your daddy. 411 00:23:39,335 --> 00:23:40,170 Hey! 412 00:23:40,253 --> 00:23:44,174 Sean-y, you've got your Mad-dog girl here. [laughs] 413 00:23:44,257 --> 00:23:46,217 -[Sean] Oh! -[Paula] Hey, Sean-y boy. 414 00:23:46,384 --> 00:23:48,595 -She's heavy. -[Sean] You're getting big. 415 00:23:48,678 --> 00:23:50,180 [Paula] She's getting so big. 416 00:23:51,639 --> 00:23:55,059 We've been swinging and she can go so high. 417 00:23:55,143 --> 00:23:56,102 Mad-dog! 418 00:23:56,895 --> 00:23:58,897 [pensive music playing] 419 00:24:02,066 --> 00:24:03,359 Thank you for coming. 420 00:24:03,985 --> 00:24:04,819 Of course. 421 00:24:06,279 --> 00:24:10,408 I was worried about you falling off the face of the earth like you did. 422 00:24:12,160 --> 00:24:13,077 You look okay. 423 00:24:15,038 --> 00:24:16,247 I am okay. 424 00:24:17,248 --> 00:24:20,585 Good. Where's Maddy? 425 00:24:20,668 --> 00:24:22,795 I thought maybe I'd get to see her. 426 00:24:24,881 --> 00:24:29,302 She is at the domestic violence shelter where I'm living. 427 00:24:30,511 --> 00:24:32,680 They have a daycare for their victims, so... 428 00:24:32,764 --> 00:24:33,973 Oh, okay. 429 00:24:34,057 --> 00:24:38,061 Well, did you, um--? Did you order anything yet? 430 00:24:40,563 --> 00:24:44,567 This is my second time at an emergency shelter for abused women this year. 431 00:24:48,196 --> 00:24:51,074 It's the second time that Sean sent me there. 432 00:24:55,620 --> 00:24:56,621 [clears throat] 433 00:24:59,332 --> 00:25:01,542 Do you hear the words coming out of my mouth? 434 00:25:02,168 --> 00:25:03,503 Yes, I hear them. 435 00:25:06,798 --> 00:25:07,632 And? 436 00:25:11,010 --> 00:25:13,429 I wish you would have reached out to me. 437 00:25:14,347 --> 00:25:17,350 Before taking my granddaughter to a place like that. 438 00:25:17,433 --> 00:25:19,227 You guys have a place to live. 439 00:25:21,187 --> 00:25:23,147 I would do anything to help, you know that. 440 00:25:23,231 --> 00:25:26,234 I'd give you the shirt off my back, all right? 441 00:25:26,317 --> 00:25:27,735 But instead you make me worry. 442 00:25:29,279 --> 00:25:30,655 You make Sean worry. 443 00:25:32,156 --> 00:25:34,909 I've been searching the ferry station floor 444 00:25:34,993 --> 00:25:36,160 for you guys, Alex. 445 00:25:36,995 --> 00:25:37,829 Okay. 446 00:25:39,372 --> 00:25:40,623 Maybe you can help me now. 447 00:25:42,083 --> 00:25:44,127 Because I do. I need your help. 448 00:25:45,378 --> 00:25:46,212 Okay. 449 00:25:48,798 --> 00:25:51,634 I filed for full custody of Maddy 450 00:25:51,718 --> 00:25:53,928 so that I can take her to Missoula with me. 451 00:25:54,012 --> 00:25:55,972 And Sean is objecting to it. 452 00:25:56,472 --> 00:25:57,849 Yeah, I know. 453 00:25:58,808 --> 00:25:59,892 Sean told me. 454 00:26:00,810 --> 00:26:01,644 You know... 455 00:26:02,854 --> 00:26:04,981 Sean's not doing too good right now. 456 00:26:05,064 --> 00:26:06,858 I don't care how Sean's doing, Dad. 457 00:26:07,650 --> 00:26:12,113 My lawyer is building a case to prove that Sean emotionally abused me. 458 00:26:13,865 --> 00:26:18,494 And I have to provide evidence, testimony from people that have seen it. 459 00:26:21,372 --> 00:26:22,206 Dad... 460 00:26:24,042 --> 00:26:27,253 will you testify that you saw Sean emotionally abuse me? 461 00:26:28,963 --> 00:26:31,049 -When would I have seen that? -At the trailer. 462 00:26:31,758 --> 00:26:34,594 -No. That's not what I saw. -I saw you see it. 463 00:26:34,677 --> 00:26:37,889 -No, Alex, that's not what I saw. -You sat there and didn't do a thing. 464 00:26:37,972 --> 00:26:40,892 If I saw anything, what I saw was a young couple 465 00:26:40,975 --> 00:26:42,727 going through a rough patch. 466 00:26:43,895 --> 00:26:46,731 Sean is struggling with his sobriety right now, 467 00:26:46,814 --> 00:26:49,233 and what he needs is empathy. 468 00:26:50,026 --> 00:26:52,487 You're walking away from him at the exact wrong moment. 469 00:26:52,570 --> 00:26:54,614 I can't be responsible for Sean any more, Dad. 470 00:26:56,324 --> 00:26:59,577 I have to do what's best for me, and I have to do what's best for Maddy. 471 00:27:00,661 --> 00:27:01,829 He's an alcoholic. 472 00:27:02,955 --> 00:27:04,290 Okay? He's-- 473 00:27:04,791 --> 00:27:08,920 He's got a disease that turns him into a monster. 474 00:27:09,545 --> 00:27:12,090 It's the booze that's the enemy, not him. 475 00:27:12,173 --> 00:27:14,133 Okay, is it the booze that hit Mom, then? 476 00:27:19,097 --> 00:27:20,098 -Okay. -Don't walk out. 477 00:27:20,181 --> 00:27:21,599 Are you fucking kidding me? No! 478 00:27:21,682 --> 00:27:23,643 Alex, what do you want me to say? 479 00:27:23,726 --> 00:27:25,228 I want you to say, "Yes." 480 00:27:25,311 --> 00:27:28,398 I want you to say, "Yes, I did hit Mom. I'm sorry." 481 00:27:29,941 --> 00:27:31,359 I don't remember that. 482 00:27:35,071 --> 00:27:37,782 You've never been here for me once in my entire life. 483 00:27:40,243 --> 00:27:42,245 But I'm asking for you to be, right now. 484 00:27:49,961 --> 00:27:52,755 I'm always there for you. For you and Maddy. 485 00:27:52,839 --> 00:27:53,798 It's just it's... 486 00:27:54,966 --> 00:27:56,175 Then do this for me. 487 00:27:57,343 --> 00:27:58,553 Stand up for me. 488 00:28:00,096 --> 00:28:01,514 Help me protect Maddy. 489 00:28:05,393 --> 00:28:06,894 Write a testimonial. 490 00:28:15,194 --> 00:28:16,612 I can't do that. 491 00:28:18,573 --> 00:28:20,575 [emotional music playing] 492 00:28:33,337 --> 00:28:35,715 Then I guess we don't have much to say to each other. 493 00:28:39,218 --> 00:28:40,136 Can you just--? 494 00:28:47,143 --> 00:28:52,148 [Denise] "My happiest day is the day my daughter touched me for the first time. 495 00:28:52,857 --> 00:28:54,984 I remember it like it was yesterday. 496 00:28:55,651 --> 00:28:57,278 She was nine weeks old. 497 00:28:57,945 --> 00:28:59,906 She didn't know I was in hell, 498 00:28:59,989 --> 00:29:02,992 terrorized day and night by her father. 499 00:29:04,243 --> 00:29:08,539 To her, I was just the warm, nice milk lady. 500 00:29:09,624 --> 00:29:13,085 But this one morning, when she was nine weeks old, 501 00:29:13,586 --> 00:29:17,215 we were napping on the floor and I woke up 502 00:29:17,298 --> 00:29:19,300 because someone was touching me. 503 00:29:19,842 --> 00:29:21,010 It was her. 504 00:29:22,303 --> 00:29:26,432 This tiny baby hand was holding onto my arm. 505 00:29:26,974 --> 00:29:29,018 She was looking at me, 506 00:29:29,769 --> 00:29:33,439 expressing unfiltered affection for me. 507 00:29:33,981 --> 00:29:36,776 This look of trust on her face... 508 00:29:38,402 --> 00:29:41,989 she saw me and loved me. 509 00:29:44,492 --> 00:29:46,953 It was the happiest moment of my life. 510 00:29:47,995 --> 00:29:51,499 That I could be that for someone." 511 00:30:00,633 --> 00:30:02,009 [all snapping fingers] 512 00:30:10,601 --> 00:30:11,769 Thank you, Denise. 513 00:30:13,229 --> 00:30:16,232 You guys want to say what images stood out to you? 514 00:30:16,774 --> 00:30:18,150 "Unfiltered affection." 515 00:30:18,860 --> 00:30:20,903 "Warm, nice milk lady." 516 00:30:23,614 --> 00:30:25,324 "Terrorized day and night." 517 00:30:30,329 --> 00:30:31,831 "Tiny hands." 518 00:30:35,918 --> 00:30:38,045 Does anybody else want to share? 519 00:30:41,048 --> 00:30:41,883 Trina. 520 00:30:41,966 --> 00:30:45,011 Mine's about a girl's night out. Is that weird? 521 00:30:45,094 --> 00:30:47,346 -It's-- No. -[all laughing] 522 00:30:47,430 --> 00:30:50,266 I didn't write about my kids like you guys did. 523 00:30:50,349 --> 00:30:53,102 It's your happy day. You can write about whatever you want. 524 00:30:53,728 --> 00:30:54,562 Okay. 525 00:30:57,273 --> 00:30:59,984 "I was at the bar with my usual wrecking crew. 526 00:31:00,067 --> 00:31:01,861 [all laughing] 527 00:31:01,944 --> 00:31:04,113 Liv, Amanda and Davina. 528 00:31:04,196 --> 00:31:07,450 We were slamming drinks, celebrating something, 529 00:31:07,533 --> 00:31:08,993 I can't remember what. 530 00:31:10,244 --> 00:31:14,165 But I'll admit it, I wasn't mad about how I was looking that night. 531 00:31:15,041 --> 00:31:19,629 Then this incredibly hot man came up from behind. His--" 532 00:31:19,712 --> 00:31:21,964 I'm sorry, I just have to step out for a second. 533 00:31:22,048 --> 00:31:23,925 -Keep reading. Thank you so much. -[Denise] Okay. 534 00:31:24,675 --> 00:31:27,178 [Trina] "His name was Neil. He was dressed very nice..." 535 00:31:27,261 --> 00:31:29,931 It's okay. It's okay. 536 00:31:30,014 --> 00:31:31,974 Are you okay? What's going on? 537 00:31:32,058 --> 00:31:34,435 She just got a little upset, that's all. 538 00:31:34,518 --> 00:31:38,356 She had a little meltdown and couldn't recover. 539 00:31:38,439 --> 00:31:39,982 Isn't that right, pumpkin? 540 00:31:40,066 --> 00:31:42,318 She just really wanted her mommy. 541 00:31:43,319 --> 00:31:48,324 Um, Alex, Sean-y dropped us off, and he wants to talk to you. 542 00:31:53,204 --> 00:31:54,538 I'm in the middle of class. 543 00:31:54,622 --> 00:31:57,375 Honey, you need to go talk to him. 544 00:31:57,458 --> 00:31:59,168 Things did not go well. 545 00:32:04,757 --> 00:32:05,591 What happened? 546 00:32:07,009 --> 00:32:10,513 When I told her to get off the swing, she had a tantrum. She was screaming. 547 00:32:12,932 --> 00:32:16,602 -She never wants to get off the swings. -I know, but I fucking couldn't handle it. 548 00:32:17,353 --> 00:32:19,981 I-- I lost my temper, and I yelled at her. 549 00:32:28,990 --> 00:32:30,533 I haven't had a drink in 24 hours. 550 00:32:30,616 --> 00:32:33,869 I was trying to be straight for Maddy, and, uh... 551 00:32:38,040 --> 00:32:39,375 I'm irritable. 552 00:32:40,459 --> 00:32:42,128 My skin fucking crawls. 553 00:32:43,462 --> 00:32:44,630 The sun hurts. 554 00:32:45,131 --> 00:32:46,590 I'm just rubbed raw. 555 00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:53,681 I was pushing Maddy on the swings. She kept saying, "Higher, Daddy, higher." 556 00:32:56,058 --> 00:32:57,268 And it was nice. 557 00:32:58,811 --> 00:33:00,021 She was giggling. 558 00:33:01,939 --> 00:33:04,567 But even then, I was still planning my next fucking drink. 559 00:33:04,650 --> 00:33:08,237 I was trying to find some... relief. 560 00:33:08,946 --> 00:33:12,658 And she had the tantrum, and I knew that if Paula wasn't there, 561 00:33:12,742 --> 00:33:15,244 I'd have found a drink with Maddy in tow. 562 00:33:18,956 --> 00:33:20,458 Just like my fucking mom. 563 00:33:26,297 --> 00:33:28,132 I don't wanna do that to Maddy. 564 00:33:32,803 --> 00:33:35,014 I'm signing over full custody to you. 565 00:33:37,266 --> 00:33:38,684 I just called my lawyer. 566 00:33:46,650 --> 00:33:48,611 Sorry I'm such a piece of shit. 567 00:33:51,739 --> 00:33:53,282 You're doing right by her. 568 00:33:56,619 --> 00:34:00,289 You can come whenever you want, and get her stuff. I'll box it up for you. 569 00:34:04,085 --> 00:34:05,002 Thanks. 570 00:34:05,086 --> 00:34:07,088 [emotional music playing] 571 00:34:18,265 --> 00:34:20,518 Do I have the DTs, or are you sparkly? 572 00:34:24,772 --> 00:34:25,731 I'm sparkly. 573 00:34:39,161 --> 00:34:40,454 [cell phone buzzing] 574 00:34:50,005 --> 00:34:52,258 [Denise] Nice. Thanks for sharing. 575 00:34:52,341 --> 00:34:53,509 [all snapping fingers] 576 00:34:57,805 --> 00:34:59,348 That was so awesome. 577 00:34:59,431 --> 00:35:02,226 "Fuck Murphy's Law." I like that line. 578 00:35:03,561 --> 00:35:06,730 "Punched him like a boxer." That stood out to me. 579 00:35:06,814 --> 00:35:08,399 [Kyla] "The cracked nightlight." 580 00:35:09,400 --> 00:35:11,026 Black, not blue. 581 00:35:11,110 --> 00:35:12,945 I just loved the whole thing. 582 00:35:13,028 --> 00:35:15,406 You're a great writer, Edith. 583 00:35:15,489 --> 00:35:17,074 -Esther. -[Paula] Oh. Yeah. 584 00:35:17,158 --> 00:35:19,493 Well, I'm next, right? 585 00:35:19,577 --> 00:35:21,412 Mom, you didn't write anything. 586 00:35:21,495 --> 00:35:22,997 Well, I can recite it. 587 00:35:23,080 --> 00:35:25,749 I'm a great-- I'm just great at oration. 588 00:35:25,833 --> 00:35:26,750 Mother. 589 00:35:28,419 --> 00:35:29,378 Aww... 590 00:35:30,004 --> 00:35:31,672 Oh, well. Okay. 591 00:35:33,757 --> 00:35:36,552 -Will you wait outside? I'm almost done. -Okay. 592 00:35:36,635 --> 00:35:39,180 -Bye, ladies. -Bye. 593 00:35:39,263 --> 00:35:42,224 -Peace out. -You're welcome back any time, Paula. 594 00:35:42,308 --> 00:35:43,809 Oh, thank you so much. 595 00:35:43,893 --> 00:35:45,019 [all snapping fingers] 596 00:35:45,102 --> 00:35:46,437 [Paula] Oh! [chuckling] 597 00:35:46,520 --> 00:35:47,354 Yeah. 598 00:35:49,523 --> 00:35:50,774 [Paula] Oh, man. 599 00:35:51,317 --> 00:35:53,194 Here's to getting out of Dodge. 600 00:35:53,277 --> 00:35:54,528 [Paula chuckles] 601 00:35:55,988 --> 00:35:58,115 My man Sean-y looked like shit. 602 00:36:00,868 --> 00:36:02,912 Your dad shook a lot like that. 603 00:36:06,874 --> 00:36:08,918 Do you want to tell me your happiest day? 604 00:36:11,003 --> 00:36:11,837 What? 605 00:36:12,796 --> 00:36:14,298 The thing we were doing in group. 606 00:36:14,965 --> 00:36:17,843 You have a day you remember where you were happy? 607 00:36:18,802 --> 00:36:19,803 Oh. 608 00:36:22,014 --> 00:36:25,809 Hands down, our first morning in Alaska. 609 00:36:27,269 --> 00:36:29,480 We got into Anchorage in the middle of the night, 610 00:36:29,563 --> 00:36:33,609 and you were freezing because I forgot your coat. 611 00:36:35,152 --> 00:36:37,780 We left your dad's in such a panic. 612 00:36:40,783 --> 00:36:44,161 I had this cabin for us, and it didn't have any furniture. 613 00:36:44,912 --> 00:36:46,121 So, uh... 614 00:36:47,122 --> 00:36:50,376 I just dumped all the clothes from the suitcase 615 00:36:50,459 --> 00:36:53,420 in the middle of the floor and made us a bed. 616 00:36:54,255 --> 00:36:56,715 And we slept there, snuggled up. 617 00:36:59,385 --> 00:37:02,805 The next morning, while you were still sleeping, 618 00:37:02,888 --> 00:37:04,765 I tiptoed outside, 619 00:37:04,848 --> 00:37:07,059 and I just dove into the snow. 620 00:37:08,269 --> 00:37:09,436 And I lay there, 621 00:37:10,312 --> 00:37:13,190 and made a snow angel. [chuckles] 622 00:37:13,274 --> 00:37:16,318 Because nobody was there to tell me I was crazy 623 00:37:17,403 --> 00:37:19,238 or suddenly explode on me. 624 00:37:19,989 --> 00:37:21,699 It was just me... 625 00:37:23,242 --> 00:37:24,827 the sun and the snow. 626 00:37:29,707 --> 00:37:33,043 Anyway, in less than a year, we were back here, 627 00:37:33,127 --> 00:37:35,462 and I was broke as shit. 628 00:37:35,546 --> 00:37:38,215 The whole trip was just dumb. 629 00:37:39,216 --> 00:37:40,217 No, it wasn't. 630 00:37:40,301 --> 00:37:41,593 It wasn't dumb. 631 00:37:42,303 --> 00:37:45,055 You got me away from Dad, and you never went back to him. 632 00:38:01,572 --> 00:38:02,573 Uh... 633 00:38:03,907 --> 00:38:04,783 So, uh... 634 00:38:09,496 --> 00:38:11,582 So am I still invited to Montana? 635 00:38:13,292 --> 00:38:14,335 You want to come? 636 00:38:15,961 --> 00:38:16,837 Yeah. 637 00:38:19,757 --> 00:38:21,550 Hell yeah, why not? 638 00:38:22,176 --> 00:38:26,013 I can get a job painting murals, 639 00:38:26,638 --> 00:38:28,557 find me a mountain man. 640 00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:30,392 [Paula laughing] 641 00:38:30,476 --> 00:38:31,977 Plus, Maddy needs me. 642 00:38:32,061 --> 00:38:33,896 She's an artist like me. 643 00:38:33,979 --> 00:38:36,023 Can you be ready by Monday? 644 00:38:36,857 --> 00:38:38,984 [laughing] I'm ready. 645 00:38:39,068 --> 00:38:40,569 I'm packed, baby. 646 00:38:40,652 --> 00:38:43,447 That's the nice thing about living in your car, you're packed. 647 00:38:43,530 --> 00:38:45,783 I don't know if she's going to make it to Montana, 648 00:38:45,866 --> 00:38:48,118 I might have to sell her for parts... 649 00:38:49,995 --> 00:38:52,373 but I could hitch a ride with you, yeah? 650 00:38:53,374 --> 00:38:54,291 Yeah. 651 00:38:54,375 --> 00:38:55,876 -Yeah? -Yes. 652 00:38:55,959 --> 00:38:57,544 -Really? -Of course. 653 00:38:57,628 --> 00:38:59,505 Oh, my gosh. Yes? 654 00:39:00,547 --> 00:39:01,507 Maddy! 655 00:39:01,590 --> 00:39:03,258 Maddy girl, guess what. 656 00:39:03,342 --> 00:39:05,344 We're going on a road trip! 657 00:39:05,844 --> 00:39:08,263 Do you want to go on a road trip with Grammy? 658 00:39:08,847 --> 00:39:10,599 We're going to go on a road trip! 659 00:39:10,682 --> 00:39:14,353 Oh, my goodness, we're going to go on a road trip! 660 00:39:14,436 --> 00:39:15,771 ["We Get By" playing] 661 00:39:15,854 --> 00:39:17,439 ♪ On love and faith ♪ 662 00:39:19,733 --> 00:39:24,947 ♪ We get by with a smile on our face ♪ 663 00:39:27,157 --> 00:39:32,121 ♪ We get by with help from our kin ♪ 664 00:39:34,248 --> 00:39:39,086 ♪ We get by Through thick and through thin ♪ 665 00:39:41,338 --> 00:39:42,714 ♪ We get by ♪ 666 00:39:44,883 --> 00:39:46,343 ♪ We get by ♪ 667 00:39:47,219 --> 00:39:51,014 ♪ No matter what happens I'll be there for you ♪ 668 00:39:51,098 --> 00:39:53,392 ♪ We get by ♪ 669 00:39:55,227 --> 00:39:56,854 ♪ We get by ♪ 670 00:39:59,106 --> 00:40:00,232 ♪ We get by ♪ 671 00:40:01,191 --> 00:40:05,028 ♪ No matter how long I'll be waiting here for you ♪ 672 00:40:05,112 --> 00:40:07,698 ♪ We get by ♪ 673 00:40:08,198 --> 00:40:11,910 ♪ No matter how long, I'll come running ♪ 674 00:40:11,994 --> 00:40:14,621 -♪ We get by ♪ -♪ I'll be waiting ♪ 675 00:40:14,705 --> 00:40:15,664 ♪ Oh ♪ 676 00:40:15,747 --> 00:40:18,834 ♪ No matter what happens I'll be there for you ♪ 677 00:40:18,917 --> 00:40:22,337 -♪ I'll be there for you ♪ -♪ Oh ♪ 678 00:40:22,421 --> 00:40:25,132 ♪ Oh, oh, yeah ♪ 679 00:40:25,215 --> 00:40:26,675 -Is that it? -That's it. 680 00:40:38,937 --> 00:40:41,064 You can come see her as much as you want. 681 00:40:43,066 --> 00:40:44,943 Yeah, I'm going to get myself cleaned up. 682 00:40:48,906 --> 00:40:51,158 And then I'll come visit all the time. 683 00:41:00,709 --> 00:41:02,461 I'm really going to miss her. 684 00:41:25,484 --> 00:41:26,693 Good luck, Alaska. 685 00:41:29,696 --> 00:41:31,031 [engine starting] 686 00:41:32,699 --> 00:41:34,701 [upbeat music playing] 687 00:42:01,270 --> 00:42:04,147 -[Maddy] Save the black ones. -Yes... 688 00:42:04,231 --> 00:42:06,692 Yeah, and black ones are nice. 689 00:42:07,359 --> 00:42:08,318 Come on, Maddy. 690 00:42:35,512 --> 00:42:36,346 This way. 691 00:43:15,969 --> 00:43:17,095 All right, honey... 692 00:43:18,972 --> 00:43:20,098 I'll be right back. 693 00:43:22,517 --> 00:43:23,810 [doorbell rings] 694 00:43:28,982 --> 00:43:31,109 I didn't know you were coming by. Come on in. 695 00:43:31,193 --> 00:43:32,944 I can't, I've got Maddy back there. 696 00:43:34,071 --> 00:43:35,947 I just wanted to come say goodbye. 697 00:43:36,531 --> 00:43:38,742 I also have been meaning to give you this. 698 00:43:38,825 --> 00:43:43,205 I'm not sure if I stole it or what happened, but I had it, so... 699 00:43:44,289 --> 00:43:46,958 I saw you had it on. Thanksgiving, right? 700 00:43:47,042 --> 00:43:48,168 I'm really sorry. 701 00:43:48,251 --> 00:43:50,837 Nah, can't blame a girl for putting on a little cashmere. 702 00:43:53,382 --> 00:43:55,801 -So next stop Montana? -I'm, uh... 703 00:43:56,843 --> 00:44:00,347 going to pick my mom up in Port Winslow and get on the I-90. 704 00:44:02,557 --> 00:44:06,019 -Thank you for being such a good friend. -You too. 705 00:44:09,523 --> 00:44:13,235 -Keep the sweater. -No, no, I'm going to buy my own one day. 706 00:44:13,777 --> 00:44:15,612 It was $1400. 707 00:44:16,655 --> 00:44:17,572 I'm keeping it. 708 00:44:20,659 --> 00:44:22,744 [emotional music playing] 709 00:44:59,990 --> 00:45:01,825 -Mother? -Oh! 710 00:45:02,451 --> 00:45:04,035 Hi. Hi, hi. 711 00:45:04,619 --> 00:45:05,495 Oh! 712 00:45:07,914 --> 00:45:10,375 Oh, honey, you must be so excited. 713 00:45:11,293 --> 00:45:15,005 -You said you were going to sell your car. -I was. I mean... 714 00:45:15,088 --> 00:45:17,257 I am. But, baby, honey, 715 00:45:17,340 --> 00:45:21,136 I just have the most incredible news. 716 00:45:24,014 --> 00:45:24,973 What? 717 00:45:25,056 --> 00:45:28,059 Micah threw Alaina-May out. 718 00:45:28,143 --> 00:45:30,854 He threw that feral bitch to the curb for me. 719 00:45:30,937 --> 00:45:34,274 And I slept in his bed last night, in his arms. 720 00:45:34,357 --> 00:45:37,068 And I'm telling you, honey, there's sex and then there's... 721 00:45:37,152 --> 00:45:39,779 Oh, my God, this was on a whole new level. 722 00:45:39,863 --> 00:45:41,448 Even for me. 723 00:45:43,909 --> 00:45:45,327 Are you not coming? 724 00:45:45,952 --> 00:45:48,705 Sweetie, you know, just not right now. 725 00:45:48,788 --> 00:45:51,583 I mean, I-- I can't leave Micah right now, 726 00:45:51,666 --> 00:45:54,002 I mean, what's going on between us, you know, baby, 727 00:45:54,085 --> 00:45:56,296 it's just so powerful and... 728 00:45:57,339 --> 00:45:58,215 It's just really... 729 00:46:00,091 --> 00:46:01,760 I can't wait on you, Mom. 730 00:46:01,843 --> 00:46:04,471 No, you're not. Of course you're not going to wait on me. 731 00:46:04,554 --> 00:46:05,764 This is your moment. 732 00:46:05,847 --> 00:46:10,393 You go, baby doll, and I'll tell you what, give me the address, 733 00:46:10,477 --> 00:46:13,104 and I'll be right behind. 734 00:46:13,188 --> 00:46:15,232 I just-- I'll follow you, okay? 735 00:46:16,316 --> 00:46:19,194 -I don't want to leave you here. -I know. 736 00:46:19,277 --> 00:46:21,154 Isn't it funny how these things work out? 737 00:46:21,238 --> 00:46:24,241 I mean, as soon as I told Micah I was leaving, 738 00:46:24,324 --> 00:46:26,409 he realized he had feelings for me. 739 00:46:26,493 --> 00:46:28,245 I mean, baby, it was, "Boom!" 740 00:46:28,328 --> 00:46:31,540 And he told Alaina-May about me and everything. 741 00:46:33,166 --> 00:46:34,042 Just... 742 00:46:34,876 --> 00:46:36,169 be happy for me. 743 00:46:40,549 --> 00:46:41,716 I'm gonna go without you. 744 00:46:41,800 --> 00:46:44,261 Yes, you're going to go. Of course you're going to go. 745 00:46:46,972 --> 00:46:49,891 Sweetheart, this is your adventure. It's not mine. 746 00:46:54,938 --> 00:46:56,231 You going to be okay? 747 00:46:58,483 --> 00:47:01,152 -Come on, you know you love me. -I do love you. 748 00:47:01,236 --> 00:47:04,698 -I know you do. Give me a really good hug. -Okay. 749 00:47:04,781 --> 00:47:05,865 [Paula laughing] 750 00:47:05,949 --> 00:47:07,367 Oh, God. 751 00:47:07,450 --> 00:47:08,785 Oh, sweetie. 752 00:47:08,868 --> 00:47:11,162 -I love you, Mom. -Yeah, I know, baby. 753 00:47:15,417 --> 00:47:16,668 [engine starting] 754 00:47:16,751 --> 00:47:18,753 [pensive music playing] 755 00:47:48,825 --> 00:47:51,411 [upbeat music playing] 756 00:48:10,096 --> 00:48:13,141 [Alex] Do you guys want to do a round of snaps for everybody? 757 00:48:13,224 --> 00:48:14,601 [all snapping fingers] 758 00:48:21,441 --> 00:48:24,319 I just want to thank you guys so much for doing this with me. 759 00:48:25,070 --> 00:48:26,279 It's been a real honor. 760 00:48:27,822 --> 00:48:29,074 Thank you. 761 00:48:29,157 --> 00:48:30,659 Thank you, Alex. 762 00:48:30,742 --> 00:48:33,453 Wait, we didn't hear your happiest day. 763 00:48:33,536 --> 00:48:34,788 [laughs] 764 00:48:34,871 --> 00:48:36,122 [all snapping fingers] 765 00:48:39,709 --> 00:48:42,337 "My happiest day hasn't happened yet. 766 00:48:43,672 --> 00:48:45,340 But it's about to. 767 00:48:45,423 --> 00:48:46,841 ["Let Go" playing] 768 00:48:47,884 --> 00:48:52,180 On that day, I'm going to get in my car 769 00:48:52,263 --> 00:48:54,432 that smells like old tuna... 770 00:48:55,392 --> 00:48:58,103 which will be packed with all of my belongings 771 00:48:58,186 --> 00:49:00,355 and my amazing daughter. 772 00:49:01,022 --> 00:49:05,026 And I'm going to drive the fuck out of this town. [chuckles] 773 00:49:05,110 --> 00:49:07,654 I'm going to drive nine hours, 774 00:49:08,655 --> 00:49:13,868 566 miles to Missoula, Montana... 775 00:49:15,245 --> 00:49:18,540 where I'm going to spend the next four years... 776 00:49:19,332 --> 00:49:21,084 learning to be a writer. 777 00:49:22,460 --> 00:49:26,548 Hopefully, there will be a lot of happy days during that time. 778 00:49:28,216 --> 00:49:30,802 And I know there will be some hard ones. 779 00:49:33,680 --> 00:49:37,976 Most people would bet against a single mom putting herself through college. 780 00:49:40,228 --> 00:49:42,439 But they don't know what it took to get here. 781 00:49:45,400 --> 00:49:48,445 Three hundred and thirty-eight toilets cleaned... 782 00:49:51,030 --> 00:49:53,450 seven types of government assistance... 783 00:49:55,118 --> 00:49:57,078 nine separate moves... 784 00:49:59,038 --> 00:50:01,374 one night on the ferry-station floor... 785 00:50:02,751 --> 00:50:06,880 and the entire third year of my daughter's life. 786 00:50:09,048 --> 00:50:11,342 But, when we get to Missoula... 787 00:50:12,594 --> 00:50:14,888 I'm going to take Maddy up Sentinel Mountain... 788 00:50:16,097 --> 00:50:19,559 which looks over the town, and show her our new home. 789 00:50:19,642 --> 00:50:23,438 ♪ Ripped apart by albatross ♪ 790 00:50:23,521 --> 00:50:26,024 [Alex] I've been telling her all about the giant M 791 00:50:26,107 --> 00:50:27,942 that's at the tippy-top of the mountain. 792 00:50:34,032 --> 00:50:37,786 That the trail up there is long and zig-zaggy. 793 00:50:37,869 --> 00:50:41,164 ♪ What's in a name? ♪ 794 00:50:41,247 --> 00:50:42,290 The hike will be hard. 795 00:50:45,001 --> 00:50:46,920 But we're going to make it to the top. 796 00:50:49,297 --> 00:50:50,632 And when we do... 797 00:50:52,842 --> 00:50:55,970 I'm going to tell her that the M stands for 'Maddy.' 798 00:50:59,140 --> 00:51:01,601 That this whole new world is for her." 799 00:51:01,684 --> 00:51:07,065 ♪ Down on the other side ♪ 800 00:51:08,274 --> 00:51:13,530 [both] Whoo! 801 00:51:18,993 --> 00:51:23,915 ♪ Looking up to let go ♪ 802 00:51:27,460 --> 00:51:33,383 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 803 00:51:37,804 --> 00:51:43,643 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 804 00:51:46,437 --> 00:51:53,403 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 805 00:51:54,571 --> 00:52:01,578 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 806 00:52:06,332 --> 00:52:11,129 -♪ Let it go ♪ -♪ Let him go, let him go ♪ 807 00:52:11,212 --> 00:52:14,674 ♪ Let him go, let him go ♪ 808 00:52:14,757 --> 00:52:17,343 ♪ Let it go ♪ 809 00:52:17,427 --> 00:52:21,014 ♪ Let him go, let him go ♪