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You guys are good?
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Awesome.
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Oh.
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We're rolling.
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What I've done
for the last 20 years
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is direct response marketing.
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I make... millions.
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Hey, you gotta do what you gotta
do for money.
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I'm like the Wizard of Oz.
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Lisa and I met the first
Sundance that I lived in Utah.
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I know she has my back. I know
she wants what's best for me.
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I know there's
no ulterior motive there.
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She was like, "Oh, my God.
You're amazing,"
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and I just felt
the same way about her.
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I just really like that Meredith
is 100% Meredith all the time.
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She's super consistent,
and she's a great person.
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Heather and I have been friends
for years.
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We are actually cousins.
We are bloodline relatives.
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She's the best human I know,
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and she's such a good friend
to me.
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She never explodes on me.
I can tell her anything I want,
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critical or otherwise, and I
know that she will listen,
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and we can talk it out.
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Our time is coming.
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I just can't lie to you.
This is a test for all of us.
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I wanna----ing kill myself.
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Jen, you know what? Right now--
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And just not be here.
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Everything's been taken away
from me!
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Everything!
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- Confide in you, Lisa.
- You haven't.
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'Cause I never
fully trusted you.
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I was talking to myself!
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I was ranting
like normal people do!
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- To speak about your...
- Yeah.
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...dear friend that way. Okay.
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- You are my girl, Heather.
- Is it possible you're wrong...
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- No. No.
- ...and making it all about you?
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No.
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Show up for your people.
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You are saying our friendship
is bullsh--.
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That----ing hurts me, Heather.
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you for calling me
a----ing liar!
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You called me a liar.
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You lost me, bitch.
You lost me.
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But what people don't know
about Salt Lake City
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is what lies beneath
that image of perfection.
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Let me say that again.
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This is so unnerving. Okay.
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- Hey, John.
- Oh, you look great.
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Thanks. Um, I'm gonna head out.
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I'm gonna head to lunch
right now.
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Oh, yeah?
How you feeling about it?
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Um, I'll let you know
when I'm done.
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- Okay. Looking forward to it.
- Okay, love you.
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All right, love you.
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Hello?
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Hi. How are you?
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Good. I just got out
of a meeting. How are you?
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Oh, I'm good. I'm actually on
my way to, um, meet someone.
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I'll probably be, like,
a little unreachable
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for a few hours.
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Well, hello.
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You were literally
around the corner.
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- I wasn't kidding.
- No.
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You look cute.
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Oh, I love it.
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- Hey, Heather.
- Hi.
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- How are you?
- Good. How are you?
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- Good to see you.
- It's good to see you.
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- This is beautiful.
- Isn't it nice?
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Oh, my gosh.
What a gorgeous view.
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Not too chilly, and the hot tub
will feel nice and warm.
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Okay.
Put our stuff in a locker.
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If someone asked me
eight months ago
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if I'd be hanging out
with Jen...
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I would look at them
like they were crazy.
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Did you like a comment
referring to my son
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as a sissy bitch?
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- No!
- It's your----ing Twitter, Jen!
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Miracles do happen.
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Oh, this looks so pretty.
I can't wait to get in.
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This looks phenomenal.
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When Jen and I were in L.A.,
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I think that she sort of
got an understanding
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of everything that
I went through last winter.
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I had some very serious issues
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well beyond just losing
my father.
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My reactions, everything was
amplified a million times over.
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I totally understand,
and, Meredith, honestly,
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when I saw you,
I saw myself a year ago.
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Thank you.
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Cheers. Here's to a new year
and a new us.
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I will drink to that.
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No more fighting.
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It's just all love
from here on out.
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Yeah. It was--
It was a tough winter
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for both of us, you know?
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Yeah. What are you feeling
right now
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after Lisa going on her tirade?
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- I felt that.
- It's a process, and I mean,
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I'm still dealing with it
in a lot of ways.
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- Oh, yeah.
- And I'm sure I will be
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for a while, you know?
- Yeah.
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I've been going through so much,
and you know,
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my trial starts in, like,
a month and a half.
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And so I'm trying to plan
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a birthday party
for Coach Shah,
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just to show Coach I--
how much I appreciate him.
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And so I was planning
on inviting Lisa and John.
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How's everything going?
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- I mean, good.
- Here's a water for you.
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She's gonna--She's gonna take
a Vida Paloma, too.
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- Excellent. Would you like poco?
- I ordered for you.
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Yeah, I-I trust Lisa explicitly
with alcohol, so...
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I agreed to meet with Lisa
because she said she needed me,
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and she's never said
she's needed me before.
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I never called Heather Shrek.
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Oh, you've called me
horrible things, Lisa.
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I have never called you Shrek.
I have never--
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You've called me
a LEGO figurine.
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The fact that she's scraping
the bottom of the barrel
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to call me, the--probably
the last person on the earth
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that she wants to call?
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If I can do something
of value for Lisa,
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then maybe she won't hate me
as much.
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To us.
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To us.
I didn't expect that, but okay.
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For me, it's, like,
very uncomfortable to say this,
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but, like, I need some help
with Meredith.
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I feel like you are able to
navigate situations differently.
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Like, I feel like you say
what you're thinking,
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you say what you're feeling.
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And you, like,
end up, like, fine,
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and I feel like now, I'm like,
like the worst person on earth,
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in, like, Meredith's eyes.
- Like you've been banished.
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I need your advice.
I need help.
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Well...
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What is most sacred to Meredith?
If I were to ask you,
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without any influence--
- Her family.
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- Okay.
- Yeah. Her family.
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Yeah. And you came
for her family?
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I didn't feel like
I came for her family.
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I was in a blind rage.
It wasn't intentional.
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- Listen...
- I get it.
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Regardless, it's on the table.
You did.
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So you have to make it right.
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The questions that are gonna be
asked are
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is that how you really feel
about Meredith?
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What do you think?
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I think that's how you really
feel about Meredith.
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No. No. No. No.
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I don't know.
I'm still trying to figure out
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where I stand on everything.
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I mean, she went through
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and completely defamed
my character
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on things that just aren't true.
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And so then you say,
"Well, where did this come from?
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Are you listening to rumors
and spreading rumors?
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Because at the end of the day,
I'm hearing rumors
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left, right, and center.
- About Lisa?
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About Lisa.
And am I spreading them? No.
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So let's see. Is it--Is it just
her projecting her own truth,
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or is it just she decided to be
a total asshole
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'cause she was angry?
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The sh-- Lisa Barlow said about
her "sister" and best friend?
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What Meredith needs to do is
monetize that.
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Make "Garbage trash whore"
T-shirts.
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So what rumors are you hearing?
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Um...
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There have been question marks
surrounding her marriage,
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um... her business
and her finances.
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Do I really wanna dig
into Lisa's stuff?
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No, I really have no interest.
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But if you're going to sit there
talking about everyone else,
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fair game on her at this point.
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Fair game.
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I mean, there are--
there are affair rumors.
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I'm not getting into any of it,
but there are rumors.
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I don't know
if they're true or false.
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Um... but the exist.
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Yeah, I've heard the same thing.
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Even if you feel like
what you said is justified,
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if you feel like what you said--
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I didn't feel like it was
justified, just so--
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I mean, we have to be clear
about that.
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- I'm very clear about that.
- It doesn't even matter.
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It's like,
you're in the position
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where you have to say,
"I didn't mean it.
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It was a moment, and I'm going
to have to eat sh-- for it
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for a long time."
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I don't think humble pie
is something that Lisa
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likes to eat, will ever eat,
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or will for sure never pretend
to enjoy eating.
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And all three of those things
need to occur
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for her to bridge this gap
with Meredith.
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I've eaten so much humble pie,
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it's amazing I still fit
in this dress.
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I think there needs to be give
on both sides, honestly.
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But the bigger side
has to come from you.
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- Okay.
- Because you said
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the mean things
that are out there forever.
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Okay, I hear you. I hear you.
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Coming up...
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If you say to the Church,
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"I want you
to ex-communicate me.
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I want to remove my name
from the records,"
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what changes
in your day-to-day life?
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What's up, Bobbie Rose?
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Wait, what?
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Pros and cons about guys?
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- Yes!
- What do you mean by guys?
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- Like, men.
- Like, men?
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Yes.
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How old are you, Bobbi Rose?
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Let me see what you got. Pros...
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Athletic.
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- Good style.
- Nice.
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- That's a big one. Hi, Dad.
- Hey.
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Dad, come look at this.
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She's writing
a pros and cons list about guys.
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You're gonna take that one up
with your daddy.
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Well, I'm really worried
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that there's not as many cons
as there are pros.
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I don't know how I feel
about that.
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Whit?
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- Hello!
- Hey!
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Get in here.
I need a rescue right now.
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- Hi.
- Hi.
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- You need a rescue?
- Yes, I need--
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What's going on?
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I need--I need you
to tag in here.
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- Hi, Bobbie.
- Hi.
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This is a department
I don't know much about.
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What's up?
What are we working on?
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Pros and cons about guys.
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Well, it's gonna be hard
to get any cons from me, Bobbie.
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She's completely
and utterly boy-crazy.
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Sixth grade.
Like, think of sixth grade.
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I didn't have my first kiss
till 15.
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That's too long!
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I didn't have my first kiss
till 15 either.
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Oh, my gosh. Okay.
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But I still wanted it
in sixth grade.
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I was a good little Mormon girl,
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and I followed all the rules.
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I was not interested in boys
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until the Mormon Handbook
told me I could be.
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I just put,
"Doesn't do what's asked of me,"
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so I think they don't listen
to me.
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Honey, you gotta take that
off your list.
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You don't want someone
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that does exactly what
you ask them to do all the time.
254
00:11:37,392 --> 00:11:40,351
Bobbie Rose has some
ridiculously high standards.
255
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I think you can dress a guy.
I don't think style matters.
256
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Oh, yeah. That is true.
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I just wanna take, like,
a Sharpie
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and just be like,
"Never gonna get it.
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Never gonna get it.
Never gonna get it.
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Settle. Settle. Settle."
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Not attractive. Ugly sex--
it's gonna change your life.
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Let's switch that one over, too.
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I want to be as hopeful
as Bobbie Rose
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when I make out
my pros and cons list, honestly.
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- Let's go downstairs.
- What can I get you to drink?
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Whatever you guys are drinking.
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There's rosé
or a really nice tequila.
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You know what? In a nod to me
being Team Lisa Barlow lately,
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let's do a tequila.
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All right. Got you.
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- Hi.
- Hi. [laughs]
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I need to talk to you.
I'm dying.
273
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What's going on?
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I'm on my way to meet up
with Lisa.
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It's good. As much as I wanna
be like, "No! Run,"
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we need to get over our sh--.
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- When did you do this?
- Yeah, we made it a speakeasy.
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- Yeah.
- Yeah.
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And you can lock
the bookshelves.
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- It has the lock up top.
- Oh, my gosh.
281
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This is so cool...
you guys. Yes!
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Feels good to me, too.
283
00:12:47,462 --> 00:12:49,246
I love it, and, like,
close the door, padlock it,
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don't let the kids in.
285
00:12:50,944 --> 00:12:52,815
The fact that we have a bar
in our home is a big deal.
286
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I never knew anyone with a bar.
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I remember, like,
going to my friend's house,
288
00:12:57,777 --> 00:12:59,866
and, like, seeing her parents,
like, drinking wine,
289
00:12:59,909 --> 00:13:02,520
and being like, "OMG."
290
00:13:04,087 --> 00:13:06,698
But, no, I, um, you know
I've been, like, on this, like,
291
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healing journey,
and I had a big healing session
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with Megan the other day.
293
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So the past keeps showing up
over and over.
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'Cause I don't have a memory
of it.
295
00:13:16,317 --> 00:13:18,885
Yeah, and I think that's what's
manifesting in your gut.
296
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It's wanting to stay
in the past,
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trying to resolve
what happened in the past.
298
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The great thing
about this trauma
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00:13:25,065 --> 00:13:28,720
with your early childhood is
clearing out this old energy
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allows you to move forward.
301
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This energy we're gonna hand
to the universe.
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Up and over your body.
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00:13:35,989 --> 00:13:37,468
Think of this trauma.
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Ask yourself,
"Is it still here?"
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- Can I hug you?
- Yes, please do.
306
00:13:42,822 --> 00:13:46,173
And it really hit me that
one of the biggest tethers
307
00:13:46,216 --> 00:13:50,438
or, like, wounds I have
is the Church.
308
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And I came to the realization
that I'm ready
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to close that chapter
and leave officially
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and ask them to remove my name.
311
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If you say to the Church,
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00:14:06,280 --> 00:14:07,716
"I want you
to ex-communicate me.
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00:14:07,759 --> 00:14:09,152
I want to remove my name
from the records,
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00:14:09,196 --> 00:14:11,807
what changes
in your day-to-day life?
315
00:14:11,851 --> 00:14:14,201
Nothing changes
in my day-to-day life.
316
00:14:14,244 --> 00:14:16,333
But to know Whitney is to know
317
00:14:16,377 --> 00:14:19,336
that the freedom that comes
with the release
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is what she's truly, truly--
319
00:14:21,861 --> 00:14:23,601
So this is about inner...
320
00:14:23,645 --> 00:14:25,734
I'm doing this
for Bobbie and Brooks
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00:14:25,777 --> 00:14:28,868
so that they do not
fall into my cycle
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00:14:28,911 --> 00:14:33,002
of limited beliefs,
of not being good enough,
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00:14:33,046 --> 00:14:34,699
and not being heard.
324
00:14:34,743 --> 00:14:38,051
Having my name on the record
of the Mormon Church
325
00:14:38,094 --> 00:14:41,184
means that they're still
tracking what I'm doing.
326
00:14:41,228 --> 00:14:42,707
That means that they still
327
00:14:42,751 --> 00:14:44,622
send people to my house
to check on me.
328
00:14:44,666 --> 00:14:45,928
They still come
to collect money.
329
00:14:45,972 --> 00:14:47,887
Even when you move,
they know where you move,
330
00:14:47,930 --> 00:14:49,627
and your record transfers.
331
00:14:49,671 --> 00:14:51,281
- It makes sense.
- You have to understand,
332
00:14:51,325 --> 00:14:53,414
I still have this tether...
333
00:14:53,457 --> 00:14:55,024
- Well, yeah, that's--
- ...to this programming,
334
00:14:55,068 --> 00:14:56,504
to this mindset...
- Indoctrination.
335
00:14:56,547 --> 00:14:59,072
...and so, like,
the treatment of women,
336
00:14:59,115 --> 00:15:02,902
about women are subordinate
to men, I wanna break that,
337
00:15:02,945 --> 00:15:05,905
because I am a woman,
and I can do whatever I want
338
00:15:05,948 --> 00:15:07,776
because I'm a human.
339
00:15:07,819 --> 00:15:10,692
When you do this process,
you are saying...
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00:15:10,735 --> 00:15:12,650
- I'm done.
- ...I choose outer darkness...
341
00:15:12,694 --> 00:15:14,565
- Mm-hmm.
- ...and no communion with God
342
00:15:14,609 --> 00:15:17,917
over being numbered as a member
of the Mormon Church?
343
00:15:17,960 --> 00:15:19,875
The Mormons believe
that our names are recorded,
344
00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:21,964
like, in a ledger for God.
345
00:15:22,008 --> 00:15:25,098
When you elect to have your name
removed from the list,
346
00:15:25,141 --> 00:15:26,882
it's like a steel door
347
00:15:26,926 --> 00:15:31,408
on their version of heaven
and their community forever.
348
00:15:31,452 --> 00:15:32,409
What do you have to do
right now?
349
00:15:32,453 --> 00:15:34,324
Like, what's gonna happen?
350
00:15:34,368 --> 00:15:38,198
I can literally, literally go
to QuitMormon.com.
351
00:15:38,241 --> 00:15:40,461
How easy is that?
352
00:15:41,766 --> 00:15:43,507
I mean, there's no doubt
watching her do this
353
00:15:43,551 --> 00:15:48,643
that I'm thinking, "Can I,
will I, would I ever do this?"
354
00:15:48,686 --> 00:15:50,688
"I demand that
you remove my name
355
00:15:50,732 --> 00:15:52,429
completely from your records
within..."
356
00:15:52,473 --> 00:15:54,866
"Five business days
of receipt."
357
00:15:54,910 --> 00:15:56,607
- Wow.
- I printed it.
358
00:15:56,651 --> 00:15:58,087
But, like,
even with my dad gone,
359
00:15:58,131 --> 00:15:59,697
I still wanna be
a good daughter,
360
00:15:59,741 --> 00:16:01,177
and even with my mom
not speaking to me,
361
00:16:01,221 --> 00:16:05,007
I still wanna be
a good daughter.
362
00:16:08,576 --> 00:16:13,450
And... I don't know
if my family would recover
363
00:16:13,494 --> 00:16:15,061
if they knew I did that.
364
00:16:15,104 --> 00:16:19,630
I've done a lot of sh--ty things
to Mormonism, you know?
365
00:16:19,674 --> 00:16:21,545
I've hurt my family
in so many ways,
366
00:16:21,589 --> 00:16:22,982
but I feel like that would be,
367
00:16:23,025 --> 00:16:26,028
like, the final knife
in their back.
368
00:16:26,072 --> 00:16:28,291
And I'm not there yet.
369
00:16:28,335 --> 00:16:31,338
- Heather.
- You printed it?
370
00:16:31,381 --> 00:16:33,470
This is the letter.
371
00:16:40,129 --> 00:16:42,436
Holy sh--.
372
00:16:42,479 --> 00:16:44,873
Do you feel like there's
anything there for you?
373
00:16:44,916 --> 00:16:47,441
Babe, I can't sign this
fast enough.
374
00:16:48,572 --> 00:16:50,922
Thank you for being here
for me, Heather.
375
00:16:50,966 --> 00:16:52,489
- I know you hate--
- Babe, you are my exemplar.
376
00:16:52,533 --> 00:16:54,926
- You are fearless.
- I know you hate
377
00:16:54,970 --> 00:16:56,711
when I get all mushy
and touchy-feely on you.
378
00:16:56,754 --> 00:16:59,931
Bring it in. I love
a little mush. I love you.
379
00:16:59,975 --> 00:17:02,369
You are...
380
00:17:04,066 --> 00:17:05,633
Coming up...
381
00:17:05,676 --> 00:17:11,639
She's questioning our finances,
yet I see SEC documents that
382
00:17:11,682 --> 00:17:14,381
say that their company's
not making money.
383
00:17:29,700 --> 00:17:31,528
Hey, you know the fireplace?
384
00:17:31,572 --> 00:17:34,792
How do you turn that on?
385
00:17:34,836 --> 00:17:38,100
Okay, I'm gonna put you
on FaceTime. Okay, hold on.
386
00:17:38,144 --> 00:17:41,582
Okay, so bring me closer.
It's on the left.
387
00:17:41,625 --> 00:17:42,931
- Right here?
- Okay.
388
00:17:42,974 --> 00:17:44,237
And then to the right,
you see those knobs?
389
00:17:44,280 --> 00:17:46,065
Oh, right here.
390
00:17:46,108 --> 00:17:49,720
Put it on "pilot,"
and then push that red button.
391
00:17:49,764 --> 00:17:53,115
I've been adjusting
to the new house. Okay?
392
00:17:53,159 --> 00:17:55,378
I went from 9,000 square feet...
393
00:18:00,992 --> 00:18:02,907
...to half of that.
394
00:18:02,951 --> 00:18:06,824
I went from the
Barbie Dreamhouse closet, okay?
395
00:18:06,868 --> 00:18:10,132
- Oh, my gosh. Jen.
- So...
396
00:18:10,176 --> 00:18:11,960
I love this.
397
00:18:12,003 --> 00:18:15,398
...to, like,
a normal-sized closet.
398
00:18:18,140 --> 00:18:21,143
- Cool?
- Yeah...
399
00:18:22,840 --> 00:18:25,800
Coach Shah, who is the voice
of reason in our marriage,
400
00:18:25,843 --> 00:18:28,803
sat me down,
and we discussed this.
401
00:18:28,846 --> 00:18:32,633
We can get a smaller spot.
We don't have to pay as much.
402
00:18:32,676 --> 00:18:35,462
Because
the most important thing is
403
00:18:35,505 --> 00:18:37,464
being able to fight
for your freedom.
404
00:18:38,726 --> 00:18:40,554
- Hi, honey.
- What are you doing?
405
00:18:40,597 --> 00:18:43,209
I'm trying to start
the fireplace.
406
00:18:43,252 --> 00:18:46,212
Oh, honey. It's better
just to leave it alone.
407
00:18:46,255 --> 00:18:47,691
Along with downsizing the house,
408
00:18:47,735 --> 00:18:50,390
I also had to downsize
the Shah Squad.
409
00:18:50,433 --> 00:18:52,783
Okay, I'll talk to you later.
410
00:18:52,827 --> 00:18:54,829
So I'm doing my best.
That's all I can say.
411
00:18:54,872 --> 00:18:57,179
I'm doing my very, very best.
412
00:18:57,223 --> 00:18:58,876
How was work today?
413
00:18:58,920 --> 00:19:01,270
Long. Long, baby.
414
00:19:01,314 --> 00:19:03,751
Baby, can I get a coffee?
That'll be nice.
415
00:19:03,794 --> 00:19:04,839
Okay.
416
00:19:04,882 --> 00:19:07,320
A coffee or tea or something?
417
00:19:07,363 --> 00:19:09,017
Um... let's talk about the party.
418
00:19:09,060 --> 00:19:10,192
Okay.
419
00:19:10,236 --> 00:19:13,108
This is Coach's 51st birthday.
420
00:19:13,152 --> 00:19:16,807
Angie Katsanevas said I could
use her house to hold it.
421
00:19:16,851 --> 00:19:19,419
Angie and I have been friends
since college.
422
00:19:19,462 --> 00:19:20,942
She also went to high school
with Heather.
423
00:19:20,985 --> 00:19:23,727
She's good friends with Lisa.
424
00:19:23,771 --> 00:19:26,513
So when she offered up
her house,
425
00:19:26,556 --> 00:19:28,036
I'm like, this will be perfect.
426
00:19:28,079 --> 00:19:31,518
Obviously, this will be
little cocktail tables.
427
00:19:31,561 --> 00:19:33,520
We've got the piano player
in the corner.
428
00:19:33,563 --> 00:19:35,739
- Back in the corner.
- Oh, with an actual piano?
429
00:19:35,783 --> 00:19:37,001
- Yes.
- Jen's got a piano player.
430
00:19:37,045 --> 00:19:38,351
We're dropping a piano here Friday.
431
00:19:38,394 --> 00:19:40,657
I'm used to hosting
these parties at my house.
432
00:19:40,701 --> 00:19:42,355
Make way for the dancers.
433
00:19:45,401 --> 00:19:49,318
But every penny is literally
going to fighting my case.
434
00:19:49,362 --> 00:19:52,582
You might not think this,
but I can operate on a budget.
435
00:19:52,626 --> 00:19:55,194
The theme of the party is
"Harlem Nights,"
436
00:19:55,237 --> 00:19:56,499
'cause you love that movie.
437
00:19:56,543 --> 00:19:58,371
Okay, honey.
438
00:19:58,414 --> 00:20:00,808
You remember we're in Utah, okay?
439
00:20:00,851 --> 00:20:02,375
- I know that.
- Salt Lake City,
440
00:20:02,418 --> 00:20:04,551
and "Harlem Nights"
was in Harlem.
441
00:20:04,594 --> 00:20:06,901
Lot of Black folks,
which we're void of here.
442
00:20:06,944 --> 00:20:08,816
So we going to import
Black people here?
443
00:20:08,859 --> 00:20:09,991
- Like, what are we gon' do?
- Yes. Yes, we are.
444
00:20:10,034 --> 00:20:13,081
- So I'm--I'm inviting the bruhs.
- Who?
445
00:20:13,124 --> 00:20:14,952
- Your fraternity brothers.
- Which ones?
446
00:20:14,996 --> 00:20:16,954
- The ones here are coming.
- That's what's up. Okay. Good.
447
00:20:16,998 --> 00:20:19,348
Okay?
Some of our family's coming.
448
00:20:19,392 --> 00:20:21,742
- Who else is coming?
- I invited Heather and Whitney.
449
00:20:21,785 --> 00:20:24,092
I was planning on inviting
Lisa and John
450
00:20:24,135 --> 00:20:26,703
'cause I know you would want
John there at your party.
451
00:20:26,747 --> 00:20:28,966
But Meredith's gonna be there.
452
00:20:32,405 --> 00:20:34,929
What I don't want is to use
a party as some platform
453
00:20:34,972 --> 00:20:36,191
for somebody
to confront something.
454
00:20:36,235 --> 00:20:38,411
"Oh, I need to tell her
about how I feel."
455
00:20:38,454 --> 00:20:41,501
Do that sh-- someplace else.
There's a lot of other things
456
00:20:41,544 --> 00:20:43,764
that are so much more important
than this,
457
00:20:43,807 --> 00:20:46,680
and what I wanna do
is have a good time.
458
00:20:48,029 --> 00:20:51,641
As we come closer to,
you know, the trial date,
459
00:20:51,685 --> 00:20:54,078
that in and of itself
is a lot to deal with.
460
00:20:54,122 --> 00:20:56,733
My trial is seven weeks
from today.
461
00:20:56,777 --> 00:20:58,996
It's on March 22nd.
462
00:21:07,178 --> 00:21:10,834
I'm the only defendant left
that is still going to trial.
463
00:21:13,794 --> 00:21:15,448
I have no idea what's going on
464
00:21:15,491 --> 00:21:17,188
with the other defendants
in this case.
465
00:21:17,232 --> 00:21:20,148
I have no idea why
they've taken a plea deal.
466
00:21:20,191 --> 00:21:23,325
But I'm not gonna take
a plea deal when I'm not guilty.
467
00:21:23,369 --> 00:21:24,805
I'm innocent.
468
00:21:24,848 --> 00:21:27,373
We need to get to New York
for a pre-trial meeting,
469
00:21:27,416 --> 00:21:30,854
and more than anything, it's
just a million tons of documents
470
00:21:30,898 --> 00:21:33,814
that we have to continue
to review and analyze.
471
00:21:33,857 --> 00:21:38,035
I would be lying if I said
I wasn't scared.
472
00:21:38,079 --> 00:21:40,821
I'm not thinking about myself.
I'm thinking about my family.
473
00:21:40,864 --> 00:21:44,390
I can't imagine being away
from them.
474
00:21:44,433 --> 00:21:46,870
It would literally kill me.
475
00:21:46,914 --> 00:21:49,133
There's still other individuals
we need to talk to
476
00:21:49,177 --> 00:21:51,875
regarding their participation
in the trial.
477
00:21:51,919 --> 00:21:53,181
There's a bunch of deadlines
they were telling me about.
478
00:21:53,224 --> 00:21:55,966
- Right.
- You know, coming up next week.
479
00:21:56,010 --> 00:21:58,665
We have a lot of things
that we have to get ready for.
480
00:22:10,416 --> 00:22:12,809
What did you get
ramen noodles for?
481
00:22:12,853 --> 00:22:15,682
Did you think we're
college students or something?
482
00:22:15,725 --> 00:22:17,379
- Who wants ramen noodles?
- Really?
483
00:22:17,423 --> 00:22:20,948
For a guy who can't keep a job,
this is what we eat.
484
00:22:27,563 --> 00:22:29,217
Next time, I can't send you.
485
00:22:29,260 --> 00:22:30,697
That's what happens when you
send me to the grocery store.
486
00:22:30,740 --> 00:22:32,481
- I should have never sent--
- I mean, really?
487
00:22:32,525 --> 00:22:33,743
- I mean, yes.
- Jelly?
488
00:22:33,787 --> 00:22:35,615
Well, the best brand
in the world.
489
00:22:35,658 --> 00:22:38,052
This is crazy.
This is a lot of stuff.
490
00:22:38,095 --> 00:22:39,923
- The groceries?
- No, just getting,
491
00:22:39,967 --> 00:22:42,448
like, situated here
and figuring it all out.
492
00:22:42,491 --> 00:22:45,276
The question is where do you
wanna trench down?
493
00:22:45,320 --> 00:22:47,453
I'm not ready to trench down
quite yet.
494
00:22:47,496 --> 00:22:52,588
I'm kind of having fun being,
like, an empty-nester wanderer.
495
00:22:52,632 --> 00:22:54,590
Our children are
out of the house.
496
00:22:54,634 --> 00:22:56,549
Seth is working remotely
for the most part.
497
00:22:56,592 --> 00:22:59,856
So we're enjoying being able
to go wherever we want,
498
00:22:59,900 --> 00:23:04,078
whenever we want,
and despite what Lisa says,
499
00:23:04,121 --> 00:23:07,255
I could own multiple homes
if I wanted to.
500
00:23:07,298 --> 00:23:09,213
The only reason I even care
about that commentary
501
00:23:09,257 --> 00:23:13,130
is not only could she hung you
and your career
502
00:23:13,174 --> 00:23:15,916
with spewing her nonsense B.S.,
503
00:23:15,959 --> 00:23:18,962
but you have 4,000 employees
504
00:23:19,006 --> 00:23:22,618
that her negative commentary
can impact their livelihood.
505
00:23:22,662 --> 00:23:24,359
That's pretty self-centered.
506
00:23:24,403 --> 00:23:25,926
What does Seth do, really?
507
00:23:25,969 --> 00:23:28,581
Well, what does John Barlow
do for a living
508
00:23:28,624 --> 00:23:30,887
other than follow Lisa around?
509
00:23:30,931 --> 00:23:34,630
I need a Diet Coke from Sonic.
I want Taco Bell.
510
00:23:34,674 --> 00:23:35,936
Two tables and four chairs.
511
00:23:35,979 --> 00:23:38,286
I'm gonna go inside
because it's cold.
512
00:23:38,329 --> 00:23:41,332
John is the best 'cause
I would not do that for him.
513
00:23:41,376 --> 00:23:42,812
Well, hurry,
'cause I gotta send wires.
514
00:23:42,856 --> 00:23:44,161
- Yep, I'll hurry.
- Let me get this done fast.
515
00:23:44,205 --> 00:23:45,946
Sorry I'm keeping you
from doing your job.
516
00:23:45,989 --> 00:23:48,688
Honestly, I totally understand
John Barlow.
517
00:23:49,819 --> 00:23:51,299
What can I do for you right now?
518
00:23:51,342 --> 00:23:53,649
We have our own business
together, so it's Lisa and I...
519
00:23:53,693 --> 00:23:54,955
Absolutely.
520
00:23:54,998 --> 00:23:55,869
...doing the business
with Vida.
521
00:23:55,912 --> 00:23:57,392
We own everything together.
522
00:24:02,179 --> 00:24:05,095
I can neither confirm nor deny.
523
00:24:05,139 --> 00:24:07,924
Is he responsible
for 4,000 employees?
524
00:24:07,968 --> 00:24:10,274
I mean, I hear that they own
this distillery in Mexico.
525
00:24:10,318 --> 00:24:13,103
Have they ever gone to Mexico
since we met them?
526
00:24:13,147 --> 00:24:17,107
She's questioning
our, you know, finances,
527
00:24:17,151 --> 00:24:20,981
yet I see SEC documents that
528
00:24:21,024 --> 00:24:22,939
their company
was not making money.
529
00:24:22,983 --> 00:24:24,419
- Fact.
- Really?
530
00:24:24,463 --> 00:24:27,944
It's a legal public document
that anyone can read.
531
00:24:27,988 --> 00:24:31,382
It just shows that
the Barlows were crowd-funding
532
00:24:31,426 --> 00:24:32,819
for their business.
533
00:24:32,862 --> 00:24:35,038
In 2018, the company
was reporting losses
534
00:24:35,082 --> 00:24:37,824
and had some outstanding debts.
535
00:24:37,867 --> 00:24:41,175
So it raises a question mark,
that's for sure.
536
00:24:41,218 --> 00:24:42,742
This is just like a projection.
537
00:24:42,785 --> 00:24:47,355
Like, she's busy questioning
our relationship,
538
00:24:47,398 --> 00:24:50,053
affairs, cheating,
whatever you wanna call it,
539
00:24:50,097 --> 00:24:52,055
sleeping with people,
540
00:24:52,099 --> 00:24:54,536
yet those rumors are flying
about her.
541
00:24:54,580 --> 00:25:00,586
Lisa tries to show this life
of perfection,
542
00:25:00,629 --> 00:25:02,196
and what I hear from others,
543
00:25:02,239 --> 00:25:04,111
if everything I'm hearing
is actually true,
544
00:25:04,154 --> 00:25:07,201
her life is... not so great.
545
00:25:07,244 --> 00:25:09,595
Like, that's the most
absurd thing unless
546
00:25:09,638 --> 00:25:13,033
you're super defensive because
you're hiding something else.
547
00:25:13,076 --> 00:25:15,992
I have never exchanged sex
for money.
548
00:25:16,036 --> 00:25:18,342
That's what a whore is.
549
00:25:18,386 --> 00:25:21,041
Maybe someone else has.
I don't know.
550
00:25:28,222 --> 00:25:32,574
- Did you reach out to her?
- Why would I reach out to her?
551
00:25:32,618 --> 00:25:35,708
I'm not reaching out to her
to ask her to apologize to me.
552
00:25:35,751 --> 00:25:37,361
That doesn't work.
553
00:25:37,405 --> 00:25:39,973
It's very sad that somebody
just wants to throw away
554
00:25:40,016 --> 00:25:42,410
a 10-year friendship
over some skeletons
555
00:25:42,453 --> 00:25:44,586
in their own closet.
556
00:25:56,946 --> 00:25:59,470
I'm not convinced that these
buttons are gonna work, but...
557
00:25:59,514 --> 00:26:02,735
Get 'em really in there.
558
00:26:02,778 --> 00:26:03,953
Throughout the party
and just pop!
559
00:26:05,999 --> 00:26:07,740
Should I wear pasties
just in case?
560
00:26:07,783 --> 00:26:09,829
I probably would.
561
00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:16,183
Let's get you in your dress, Jen.
562
00:26:16,226 --> 00:26:17,967
Let me go put my Spanx on.
563
00:26:18,011 --> 00:26:19,012
Okay.
564
00:26:21,014 --> 00:26:23,494
- I got brown right here.
- No.
565
00:26:23,538 --> 00:26:25,496
First of all,
that's not the vibe.
566
00:26:25,540 --> 00:26:28,804
- What is it? Brooklyn nights?
- Harlem. Really?
567
00:26:39,902 --> 00:26:42,905
Wow. It's beautiful.
Thank you so much.
568
00:26:44,472 --> 00:26:48,563
Love the cake.
This looks so good.
569
00:27:04,144 --> 00:27:06,363
Would you like a drink?
570
00:27:10,019 --> 00:27:12,152
Hi, Whitney!
571
00:27:12,195 --> 00:27:14,458
- Hi, Angie.
- Thank you so much for coming.
572
00:27:21,248 --> 00:27:24,033
- Working. He had an event.
- Oh, okay.
573
00:27:26,209 --> 00:27:29,822
- Hi, babe.
- Hi! Oh, hi!
574
00:27:29,865 --> 00:27:31,171
- Hi, gorgeous.
- Look at you!
575
00:27:31,214 --> 00:27:32,694
- Get over here.
- Oh, my gosh.
576
00:27:32,738 --> 00:27:34,391
Got our little tassels.
577
00:27:34,435 --> 00:27:35,741
I've known Angie K.
since I moved to Utah
578
00:27:35,784 --> 00:27:37,220
when I was 15 years old.
579
00:27:37,264 --> 00:27:39,701
At our 10-year reunion,
she, like, pulled up
580
00:27:39,745 --> 00:27:41,224
in, like, a Lamborghini.
581
00:27:41,268 --> 00:27:42,704
The rest of us had, like,
six kids
582
00:27:42,748 --> 00:27:45,707
and, like, we're wearing, like,
outfits from Old Navy.
583
00:27:45,751 --> 00:27:47,491
She was for sure
584
00:27:47,535 --> 00:27:49,319
the coolest girl
at the 10-year reunion.
585
00:27:49,363 --> 00:27:51,713
Look at you two BFFs, so cute.
586
00:27:51,757 --> 00:27:54,455
- We dearly love each other.
- We're--We're good.
587
00:27:54,498 --> 00:27:56,370
Kissin' cousins.
The kissin' cou--buzzin'.
588
00:27:56,413 --> 00:27:57,937
- The buzzin' cousins.
- The cousins.
589
00:28:00,287 --> 00:28:02,158
Ooh, this is pretty.
590
00:28:02,202 --> 00:28:05,292
It sounds like there's
fun happening. I love that.
591
00:28:05,335 --> 00:28:08,382
You know, I mean, I don't know
what I'm walking into tonight.
592
00:28:08,425 --> 00:28:10,601
Like, seeing Meredith
and Seth at this point
593
00:28:10,645 --> 00:28:12,386
is gonna be awkward.
594
00:28:12,429 --> 00:28:13,909
Hi! How are you?
595
00:28:13,953 --> 00:28:16,085
I know if the roles
were reversed,
596
00:28:16,129 --> 00:28:19,262
I would at least be open
to hearing the apology,
597
00:28:19,306 --> 00:28:21,917
and if it's sincere,
I'm sure I would accept it.
598
00:28:21,961 --> 00:28:23,789
- You look gorgeous.
- Thank you.
599
00:28:23,832 --> 00:28:26,182
I wouldn'’t throw away
a 10-year friendship
600
00:28:26,226 --> 00:28:29,446
over one bad moment.
601
00:28:32,841 --> 00:28:34,974
Hey, you, you look so good.
602
00:28:35,017 --> 00:28:37,019
Thank you. You look great, too.
Glitz, glam, and gangster.
603
00:28:37,063 --> 00:28:39,021
- I know. Whoo! Hi, Whitney.
- Hi, Lisa.
604
00:28:39,065 --> 00:28:41,371
- Ooh, I like the hair, too.
- Thank you.
605
00:28:41,415 --> 00:28:42,851
How are you guys?
Should we cheer?
606
00:28:42,895 --> 00:28:43,896
Yes.
607
00:28:47,682 --> 00:28:51,164
Yeah, this is what it's supposed
to look like.
608
00:28:52,818 --> 00:28:53,775
Hey.
609
00:28:55,429 --> 00:28:57,692
Y'all, they just got here.
610
00:28:57,736 --> 00:28:59,389
Okay, come on in.
611
00:29:01,087 --> 00:29:02,741
Too much. Too much.
612
00:29:02,784 --> 00:29:04,786
That's why
I'm gonna get out of the scene.
613
00:29:04,830 --> 00:29:06,527
Oh, I think that's Jen.
614
00:29:06,570 --> 00:29:08,964
Whoo!
615
00:29:09,008 --> 00:29:10,574
Look at you!
616
00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:14,491
It's the birthday boy and girl.
617
00:29:14,535 --> 00:29:15,449
Cheers.
618
00:29:15,492 --> 00:29:16,755
I should have worn sequins.
619
00:29:16,798 --> 00:29:19,366
I'm, like, the only one
not sparkly.
620
00:29:19,409 --> 00:29:20,671
You look gorgeous,
worth the wait.
621
00:29:20,715 --> 00:29:23,196
- You, too. Oh, my gosh.
- Happy birthday!
622
00:29:23,239 --> 00:29:25,328
- How are you?
- I'm good. How are you?
623
00:29:25,372 --> 00:29:27,417
The party looks
absolutely beautiful.
624
00:29:27,461 --> 00:29:29,550
- Hi.
- You look gorgeous.
625
00:29:29,593 --> 00:29:32,118
Now if I hosted this at my home,
626
00:29:32,161 --> 00:29:35,164
it would have been
a little bit different.
627
00:29:35,208 --> 00:29:37,688
It was hard for me to, like,
let go.
628
00:29:37,732 --> 00:29:39,647
- Thanks for having us.
- Come on, baby. I love you.
629
00:29:39,690 --> 00:29:41,736
- Thank you.
- And we're here for you guys
630
00:29:41,780 --> 00:29:43,129
if you need anything.
631
00:29:43,172 --> 00:29:45,479
Go, red. Uhh!
That's what I'm talkin' 'bout.
632
00:29:47,742 --> 00:29:48,612
- Easy 8.
- Oh!
633
00:29:48,656 --> 00:29:49,831
Easy 8 over here.
634
00:29:49,875 --> 00:29:51,833
- Hi!
- Oh!
635
00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:53,966
Oh!
636
00:29:54,009 --> 00:29:55,184
Yeah.
637
00:29:55,228 --> 00:29:57,534
- Good. Just like... so busy.
- Yeah.
638
00:29:57,578 --> 00:29:59,058
Hi.
639
00:29:59,101 --> 00:30:01,712
We're doing a hard seltzer
right now. It's like, crazy.
640
00:30:04,193 --> 00:30:06,195
Yeah.
641
00:30:06,239 --> 00:30:07,849
This is my friend Nikisha
from college.
642
00:30:07,893 --> 00:30:08,676
- Hi.
- This is Meredith.
643
00:30:08,719 --> 00:30:11,070
So nice to meet you.
644
00:30:11,113 --> 00:30:12,811
Do you mind getting me a drink, babe?
645
00:30:12,854 --> 00:30:14,203
Yeah. What do you want?
646
00:30:14,247 --> 00:30:16,727
Um, something with Vida.
I need tequila.
647
00:30:19,774 --> 00:30:20,993
Yeah, hit it!
648
00:30:21,036 --> 00:30:22,908
Whoo-hoo!
649
00:30:24,300 --> 00:30:26,520
Hey, your oldest baby--
I gotta ask you.
650
00:30:26,563 --> 00:30:28,391
- Santa Barbara?
- Santa Barbara.
651
00:30:28,435 --> 00:30:29,958
She loves it? Tell her to go
to class, 'cause it's beautiful.
652
00:30:30,002 --> 00:30:31,742
Listen, she's going to class.
653
00:30:31,786 --> 00:30:32,918
She got straight A's
first quarter.
654
00:30:32,961 --> 00:30:36,095
Oh, Mom! Mom!
I know. Listen.
655
00:30:36,138 --> 00:30:36,922
- Mom!
- And she Facetimed me.
656
00:30:36,965 --> 00:30:39,489
- Mom!
- Yes, sir.
657
00:30:39,533 --> 00:30:41,883
Big Baby.
658
00:30:43,450 --> 00:30:45,234
- How you feeling?
- Good, good.
659
00:30:45,278 --> 00:30:46,583
We about to get stupid
up in here.
660
00:30:46,627 --> 00:30:48,759
Now tell me about Big Daddy.
Is he your friend?
661
00:30:48,803 --> 00:30:50,805
- Yeah!
- Is he gonna be my friend?
662
00:30:50,849 --> 00:30:52,067
Might be yours.
663
00:30:52,111 --> 00:30:54,635
I am a big fan.
I love your game.
664
00:30:54,678 --> 00:30:56,419
- You know who that is?
- Big Baby?
665
00:30:56,463 --> 00:30:59,118
You know who Glen Davis is, right?
666
00:30:59,161 --> 00:31:00,293
Correct.
667
00:31:00,336 --> 00:31:01,947
How tall are you?
668
00:31:01,990 --> 00:31:05,602
- Baby.
- He's a short 6'8".
669
00:31:05,646 --> 00:31:08,475
Yeah, short.
You're a short, stocky 6'8".
670
00:31:09,955 --> 00:31:11,739
The upgrade from Big Daddy
to Big Baby is like going
671
00:31:11,782 --> 00:31:14,307
from a Shirley Temple
to a Piña Colada.
672
00:31:14,350 --> 00:31:16,222
I heard you were the Big Easy.
Are you not...
673
00:31:16,265 --> 00:31:20,139
I heard you were the Big Easy.
674
00:31:20,182 --> 00:31:21,662
Anything to drink, sir?
675
00:31:21,705 --> 00:31:23,620
You know what? Could I do
a cranberry and orange juice?
676
00:31:23,664 --> 00:31:25,057
Oh, of course.
677
00:31:26,580 --> 00:31:29,931
Oh, yes, yes. Pop that booty.
Pop that booty. Pop.
678
00:31:36,982 --> 00:31:38,679
- Whitney.
- Nice to meet you.
679
00:31:38,722 --> 00:31:39,898
Nice to meet you.
680
00:31:39,941 --> 00:31:41,551
Did you put shimmer
on your ta-tas?
681
00:31:41,595 --> 00:31:44,293
- I did.
- They look good.
682
00:31:44,337 --> 00:31:46,339
I got a little shimmer going.
683
00:31:46,382 --> 00:31:48,080
Thanks for having this
for Sharrieff. It's amazing.
684
00:31:48,123 --> 00:31:49,646
It's so...
685
00:31:49,690 --> 00:31:50,952
Oh!
686
00:31:50,996 --> 00:31:54,303
So we're this...
687
00:31:55,739 --> 00:31:59,047
It's a good night,
and I'm just saying, like,
688
00:31:59,091 --> 00:32:00,701
I met with Lisa.
689
00:32:02,833 --> 00:32:04,400
And I haven't had the chance
to talk to you about it,
690
00:32:04,444 --> 00:32:06,837
and, like, I don't wanna
burden tonight with it.
691
00:32:06,881 --> 00:32:10,972
But the fact that you're here
is to me, like, maturity.
692
00:32:11,016 --> 00:32:13,018
I don't think it's a big deal.
693
00:32:13,061 --> 00:32:15,237
I think it's a huge deal.
694
00:32:15,281 --> 00:32:16,717
If anyone should be wallowing
and crying
695
00:32:16,760 --> 00:32:18,197
in the corner at home,
it's not me.
696
00:32:18,240 --> 00:32:20,503
I didn't do anything wrong.
697
00:32:20,547 --> 00:32:22,853
I love that Meredith
is a woman of principle,
698
00:32:22,897 --> 00:32:24,812
but on that same note, there's
a Mormon proverb that says,
699
00:32:24,855 --> 00:32:28,511
"Where much is given,
much is expected."
700
00:32:28,555 --> 00:32:30,818
So if you've given 10 years
to a friendship,
701
00:32:30,861 --> 00:32:32,646
you're expected to have
a conversation
702
00:32:32,689 --> 00:32:35,954
about a path to forgiveness.
703
00:32:35,997 --> 00:32:38,130
It is brave of you
to be here tonight.
704
00:32:38,173 --> 00:32:39,435
You can also just walk away
and say,
705
00:32:39,479 --> 00:32:41,089
"I don't have to be
around that."
706
00:32:41,133 --> 00:32:42,961
You had that option, you know?
707
00:32:44,788 --> 00:32:45,572
Coming up...
708
00:32:45,615 --> 00:32:49,010
Hey, Seth. How are you?
709
00:32:49,054 --> 00:32:50,185
Look, look, look, look.
710
00:32:51,404 --> 00:32:53,188
Why is this happening here?
711
00:32:59,368 --> 00:33:02,110
Uh, give me 50 on that hard 4, Randy.
712
00:33:03,764 --> 00:33:05,505
Hi, baby.
713
00:33:07,594 --> 00:33:09,422
So glad you're having
a good time. I'm so happy.
714
00:33:09,465 --> 00:33:11,467
- Man, I'm so--
- Enjoy yourself.
715
00:33:11,511 --> 00:33:12,468
- Oh, bless yourself.
- Enjoy yourself.
716
00:33:12,512 --> 00:33:13,730
I'm so happy.
717
00:33:13,774 --> 00:33:15,254
I'm happy you're having
a good time.
718
00:33:15,297 --> 00:33:16,516
- Man, Mama.
- You never relax.
719
00:33:16,559 --> 00:33:18,387
- I know, huh?
- All right, go, boy.
720
00:33:18,431 --> 00:33:19,693
- Do your thang.
- Come on, you wanna get
721
00:33:19,736 --> 00:33:22,087
a little something to sip on?
- Oh.
722
00:33:24,654 --> 00:33:27,222
- Everybody!
- Come on.
723
00:33:27,266 --> 00:33:28,441
- Whoo!
- Shh!
724
00:33:28,484 --> 00:33:31,270
- We need Jen to make a speech.
- Shh!
725
00:33:31,313 --> 00:33:34,229
Everybody, we need Jen to make
726
00:33:34,273 --> 00:33:36,492
a little toast
to the birthday boy.
727
00:33:36,536 --> 00:33:38,233
Coach doesn't really like
728
00:33:38,277 --> 00:33:39,539
celebrating his birthday
that much.
729
00:33:39,582 --> 00:33:41,236
I don't.
730
00:33:41,280 --> 00:33:45,371
But, you know, this year
was very special.
731
00:33:45,414 --> 00:33:48,809
It was important for me
to show you
732
00:33:48,852 --> 00:33:51,290
how much I love
and appreciate you.
733
00:33:51,333 --> 00:33:54,293
I know we've been through a lot.
734
00:33:54,336 --> 00:33:58,166
And, um...
735
00:33:58,210 --> 00:34:00,647
because of everything
we've been going through,
736
00:34:00,690 --> 00:34:03,693
it means more to me than ever
737
00:34:03,737 --> 00:34:06,957
in my life to have people
that I know...
738
00:34:07,001 --> 00:34:08,481
that really, truly love me
739
00:34:08,524 --> 00:34:10,091
and love our family.
740
00:34:10,135 --> 00:34:11,223
- We love you, Jen!
- MAN #2: We love you, baby!
741
00:34:14,356 --> 00:34:16,010
- That's right!
- Always.
742
00:34:16,054 --> 00:34:17,751
And to everybody that
has been there and just...
743
00:34:17,794 --> 00:34:20,710
thank you for being here
to wish Coach a happy birthday,
744
00:34:20,754 --> 00:34:23,191
because this birthday, I think,
means more to me
745
00:34:23,235 --> 00:34:25,802
than anything because we can
still be here together
746
00:34:25,846 --> 00:34:26,977
to celebrate it.
747
00:34:27,021 --> 00:34:28,631
I know that's right!
748
00:34:28,675 --> 00:34:30,416
Amen.
749
00:34:30,459 --> 00:34:32,983
And, Angie and Shawn,
thank you so much.
750
00:34:33,027 --> 00:34:35,247
Thank you for opening up
your home,
751
00:34:35,290 --> 00:34:37,727
and for celebrating with us.
752
00:34:37,771 --> 00:34:40,730
The one thing that can bring me
to tears almost instantly
753
00:34:40,774 --> 00:34:46,867
is thinking of life
without my wife by my side.
754
00:34:46,910 --> 00:34:50,653
That's hard to...
it's hard to stomach.
755
00:34:50,697 --> 00:34:51,567
Make a wish, baby.
756
00:35:17,419 --> 00:35:19,465
- Yeah.
- I'm doing good.
757
00:35:19,508 --> 00:35:21,989
Good to see you, man.
758
00:35:22,032 --> 00:35:24,470
- Are you in town long?
- This week,
759
00:35:24,513 --> 00:35:26,907
but, yeah. Yeah.
760
00:35:26,950 --> 00:35:31,085
Well, if you can break away,
let me know.
761
00:35:31,129 --> 00:35:34,088
Yeah. It's, uh...
762
00:35:38,179 --> 00:35:42,096
It... whatever our wives are--
I hope that's...
763
00:35:42,140 --> 00:35:42,966
Yes.
764
00:35:48,450 --> 00:35:49,669
Our relationship--
765
00:35:49,712 --> 00:35:51,105
I'm not accountable
for Meredith's behavior.
766
00:35:51,149 --> 00:35:54,674
I know you're not accountable
for Lisa's behavior.
767
00:35:54,717 --> 00:35:56,110
- I have to believe that...
- Yes.
768
00:35:56,154 --> 00:35:57,720
...'cause I know it's true
for me.
769
00:35:57,764 --> 00:36:01,594
Oh, for sure. For sure.
No, that'll never change.
770
00:36:01,637 --> 00:36:03,204
- Yeah.
- Never change at all.
771
00:36:03,248 --> 00:36:04,684
I do like your tie.
772
00:36:04,727 --> 00:36:07,861
Thank you, man.
You look sharp. Looking good.
773
00:36:07,904 --> 00:36:10,646
Hey, hey, hey, hey!
774
00:36:10,690 --> 00:36:13,562
♪ Hit it, Rico, hit it, Rico
775
00:36:13,606 --> 00:36:16,043
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!
776
00:36:16,086 --> 00:36:18,698
♪ Hit it, Rico, hit it, Rico
777
00:36:18,741 --> 00:36:20,830
- Aah!
- Whoo!
778
00:36:24,051 --> 00:36:27,272
-♪ Hit it, Rico, hit it Rico
- Oh, there you go.
779
00:36:34,061 --> 00:36:37,195
You better slow down, baby!
You know you gotta slow down!
780
00:36:37,238 --> 00:36:38,935
Well, you do know that.
781
00:36:38,979 --> 00:36:40,241
- Hey.
- Hi! Oh, my gosh.
782
00:36:40,285 --> 00:36:42,896
What if I have a King?
What if I have a King?
783
00:36:42,939 --> 00:36:44,463
Yeah, a King for a Queen.
A King for a Queen.
784
00:36:44,506 --> 00:36:46,421
I love it.
785
00:36:46,465 --> 00:36:48,597
I'm gonna pinch you some chips.
How are you doing?
786
00:36:48,641 --> 00:36:50,991
- How's your night?
- Good. Oh, my gosh. Good.
787
00:36:51,034 --> 00:36:54,603
Are you gonna say anything
to Meredith or Seth?
788
00:36:54,647 --> 00:36:56,866
I don't think the time's right
right now.
789
00:36:58,041 --> 00:36:59,782
I just don't think
it's the right time.
790
00:36:59,826 --> 00:37:00,957
Time's not about that.
You know what I mean?
791
00:37:01,001 --> 00:37:02,220
- Yeah.
- You can save that for another.
792
00:37:02,263 --> 00:37:04,134
Especially with everything
Jen has going on,
793
00:37:04,178 --> 00:37:06,354
I really just wanna be here
for her.
794
00:37:06,398 --> 00:37:09,183
It's, like, hard now.
It's about to get harder.
795
00:37:09,227 --> 00:37:10,793
Well, that's the thing.
That's what we keep hearing,
796
00:37:10,837 --> 00:37:14,275
is that she just really needs us
to be there for her, so...
797
00:37:14,319 --> 00:37:16,277
In that moment,
I was kinda thinking,
798
00:37:16,321 --> 00:37:18,366
why don't we hurry
and take a quick trip
799
00:37:18,410 --> 00:37:19,802
before she goes to New York?
800
00:37:19,846 --> 00:37:22,065
We need to.
Where should we go?
801
00:37:22,109 --> 00:37:23,719
- Build on that good energy.
- Where should we go?
802
00:37:23,763 --> 00:37:25,417
Somewhere close,
not a long flight.
803
00:37:25,460 --> 00:37:28,333
- Somewhere we can just, like--
- Somewhere warm, sunshine.
804
00:37:28,376 --> 00:37:29,986
I was thinking Arizona.
805
00:37:30,030 --> 00:37:31,814
- Oh, my God. I'm in. Let's go.
- All right.
806
00:37:31,858 --> 00:37:33,076
I will take care of everything.
807
00:37:33,120 --> 00:37:35,078
I'll take care
of all the details.
808
00:37:35,122 --> 00:37:36,210
- Should we put a bet in?
- Okay.
809
00:37:36,254 --> 00:37:38,256
- Okay, girl.
- I'm gonna go all in.
810
00:37:38,299 --> 00:37:40,780
Oh! Let's go all in!
811
00:37:40,823 --> 00:37:42,303
I'm going all in
on the girls' trip.
812
00:37:42,347 --> 00:37:43,957
You better.
813
00:37:44,000 --> 00:37:46,438
14, 16.
814
00:37:46,481 --> 00:37:47,526
- Bet 5 more.
- I'm gonna hit.
815
00:37:47,569 --> 00:37:48,570
- The book says hit.
- Getting...
816
00:37:48,614 --> 00:37:52,008
Oh!
817
00:37:52,052 --> 00:37:53,793
There's no hope
for our friends!
818
00:37:53,836 --> 00:37:55,360
No hope.
819
00:37:56,752 --> 00:37:58,450
Look at her.
820
00:37:58,493 --> 00:37:59,755
- Yes.
- Mom, don't be trying
821
00:37:59,799 --> 00:38:01,104
to be mean.
No young tender for you, Mom.
822
00:38:04,586 --> 00:38:06,762
It looks good, right?
823
00:38:08,677 --> 00:38:10,723
Yes. The best thing is
the octopus.
824
00:38:10,766 --> 00:38:12,986
- Oh, my God.
- It's so good.
825
00:38:13,029 --> 00:38:14,683
- Hey.
- Hi. How are you?
826
00:38:14,727 --> 00:38:16,294
I wanted to say hi.
827
00:38:18,208 --> 00:38:21,647
Okay. Um...
828
00:38:21,690 --> 00:38:22,822
At some point,
I wanna talk to you
829
00:38:22,865 --> 00:38:24,606
if you're open to it.
830
00:38:24,650 --> 00:38:25,999
- Sure.
- Not tonight.
831
00:38:26,042 --> 00:38:29,307
You know what? You've had
two months nearly now
832
00:38:29,350 --> 00:38:31,961
to reach out to me and tell me
you wanna talk to me.
833
00:38:32,005 --> 00:38:33,746
Well, I just want you to know
I love you
834
00:38:33,789 --> 00:38:35,182
and I'm really, really sorry.
835
00:38:35,225 --> 00:38:36,705
Leave me alone.
836
00:38:36,749 --> 00:38:38,620
Look. Look, look. Look.
837
00:38:40,622 --> 00:38:42,711
Okay.
838
00:38:42,755 --> 00:38:46,106
Hey, Seth. How are you?
839
00:38:46,149 --> 00:38:47,847
- Good. How are you?
- Can I hug you?
840
00:38:47,890 --> 00:38:51,241
- Is it okay? You don't have to.
- No, I don't...
841
00:38:51,285 --> 00:38:52,852
That's huge.
842
00:38:52,895 --> 00:38:54,723
It was crazy, so I don't still--
trying to understand it.
843
00:38:54,767 --> 00:38:57,422
Yeah. I'm sorry.
844
00:38:57,465 --> 00:38:59,598
Meredith was devastated.
845
00:38:59,641 --> 00:39:01,774
I know. I know.
846
00:39:01,817 --> 00:39:04,907
- It was hard on me.
- Yeah, I know.
847
00:39:04,951 --> 00:39:08,433
You made some comments about me
that I couldn't believe either.
848
00:39:08,476 --> 00:39:09,825
I regret all of it.
849
00:39:09,869 --> 00:39:11,349
Seth, I can't even believe
I said those things.
850
00:39:11,392 --> 00:39:13,046
I don't feel that way
about Meredith.
851
00:39:13,089 --> 00:39:16,136
I don't feel that way about you.
Like, I don't. Like, I don't.
852
00:39:28,409 --> 00:39:30,237
Seth, I can't even believe
I said those things.
853
00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:31,891
I don't feel that way
about Meredith.
854
00:39:31,934 --> 00:39:33,066
I don't feel that way
about you.
855
00:39:33,109 --> 00:39:35,416
Like, I don't. Like, I don't.
856
00:39:35,460 --> 00:39:38,811
Seth is talking to Lisa
right now.
857
00:39:38,854 --> 00:39:42,902
Whatever, you know?
858
00:39:42,945 --> 00:39:45,861
What... we were surprised
by that, that, like...
859
00:39:45,905 --> 00:39:48,951
- I know.
- ...wasn't the Lisa we know.
860
00:39:48,995 --> 00:39:52,085
- Yeah.
- That behavior was... so hurtful.
861
00:39:52,128 --> 00:39:53,956
I hope you can
understand that, like,
862
00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:56,698
I literally haven't been able
to sleep.
863
00:39:56,742 --> 00:39:58,004
Like, it's been weighing on me,
864
00:39:58,047 --> 00:39:59,222
and, like, John's, like,
"It's gonna be okay."
865
00:39:59,266 --> 00:40:03,096
But, like,
it doesn't feel like it.
866
00:40:03,139 --> 00:40:05,272
Why is this happening here?
She's had a month.
867
00:40:05,315 --> 00:40:06,926
She could've texted me.
She could've texted Seth.
868
00:40:06,969 --> 00:40:08,580
She could've texted my children.
869
00:40:08,623 --> 00:40:10,277
She hasn't said anything, right?
870
00:40:10,320 --> 00:40:11,931
No! Like, if you wanna talk
to him, then tell us,
871
00:40:11,974 --> 00:40:13,541
but why are you attacking
my husband right now
872
00:40:13,585 --> 00:40:17,066
while we're trying to have fun
and celebrate your husband?
873
00:40:18,372 --> 00:40:22,158
Literally, Seth, it was like
a blind, like, rant.
874
00:40:22,202 --> 00:40:27,076
Have you--You know what the root
of that was?
875
00:40:27,120 --> 00:40:29,296
It was never before that trip.
876
00:40:29,339 --> 00:40:30,689
Like, I'd never thought
those things.
877
00:40:30,732 --> 00:40:32,517
I don't even think
those things now, but, like,
878
00:40:32,560 --> 00:40:34,388
on the van on the way down,
everyone's like,
879
00:40:34,432 --> 00:40:36,303
"She's not your friend.
Like, that's not your friend,"
880
00:40:36,346 --> 00:40:39,698
and then, like, just hearing it
over and over again,
881
00:40:39,741 --> 00:40:41,003
did that make sense?
882
00:40:41,047 --> 00:40:42,831
Not--None of it makes
sense to me.
883
00:40:42,875 --> 00:40:46,574
Like, to--to get to where
you got to,
884
00:40:46,618 --> 00:40:50,622
I can never imagine myself
saying something like that
885
00:40:50,665 --> 00:40:51,971
about someone we love.
886
00:40:52,014 --> 00:40:54,756
And, Seth, I understand that.
887
00:40:54,800 --> 00:40:58,456
Like, I don't even remember
saying those things.
888
00:40:58,499 --> 00:41:01,502
And I-I did feel hurt.
889
00:41:01,546 --> 00:41:04,331
Like, I understand Meredith
was hurting. I was hurting, too.
890
00:41:04,374 --> 00:41:07,247
I'm not--I'm not making excuses,
891
00:41:07,290 --> 00:41:10,511
but I was coming
from a place of hurt.
892
00:41:10,555 --> 00:41:14,384
- It just seemed so hateful.
- It was. It was hurt.
893
00:41:14,428 --> 00:41:16,517
I'm human, and I was hurting.
It wasn't hate.
894
00:41:16,561 --> 00:41:17,997
It was hurt.
I'm one of five girls,
895
00:41:18,040 --> 00:41:20,521
and, like, I'm a girls' girl.
896
00:41:20,565 --> 00:41:24,482
I have four sisters that I'm,
like, very responsible for,
897
00:41:24,525 --> 00:41:26,745
and, like, I have my stuff
going on, too, Seth.
898
00:41:26,788 --> 00:41:28,660
Nobody knows what goes on
for me.
899
00:41:28,703 --> 00:41:31,445
Nobody asked me,
and then I'm trying to, like,
900
00:41:31,489 --> 00:41:32,838
be there for others.
901
00:41:32,881 --> 00:41:35,449
I've never talked badly
about Meredith to anyone.
902
00:41:37,973 --> 00:41:39,758
There's not one person
in this friend group
903
00:41:39,801 --> 00:41:42,456
that can say I've ever said
anything about her.
904
00:41:42,500 --> 00:41:43,805
The rant was...
905
00:41:43,849 --> 00:41:46,895
I know, but I thought I was
in a private space
906
00:41:46,939 --> 00:41:50,290
just, like, hurting.
907
00:41:50,333 --> 00:41:52,205
It wasn't meant for anybody else
to hear.
908
00:41:52,248 --> 00:41:59,125
And, like, I don't expect you
to, like, like, forgive.
909
00:41:59,168 --> 00:42:02,737
She's hurt more than me,
and rightfully so.
910
00:42:02,781 --> 00:42:06,872
It's hard right now, so, like,
we'll just keep moving forward.
911
00:42:06,915 --> 00:42:08,874
Thanks for listening to me.
912
00:42:12,051 --> 00:42:13,705
Do I have a problem
saying I'm sorry? Never.
913
00:42:13,748 --> 00:42:16,229
Do I have a problem
taking accountability
914
00:42:16,272 --> 00:42:18,492
for my actions or my words?
Not at all.
915
00:42:18,536 --> 00:42:20,407
But at some point,
if it's not being heard,
916
00:42:20,450 --> 00:42:23,279
and the apology
isn't being accepted,
917
00:42:23,323 --> 00:42:26,369
there's nothing more I can do.
I have to move on.
918
00:42:26,413 --> 00:42:30,417
- Do you care if we leave?
- You okay?
919
00:42:30,460 --> 00:42:33,246
- What was she saying?
- I wasn't ready for it.
920
00:42:33,289 --> 00:42:36,118
- Why did you even go there?
- What was I gonna do?
921
00:42:36,162 --> 00:42:38,556
I would say,
"It's not the time and place."
922
00:42:40,209 --> 00:42:44,257
The bad news is she doesn't--
She seems to be excusing it
923
00:42:44,300 --> 00:42:46,825
and not taking accountability
for it.
924
00:42:46,868 --> 00:42:50,393
Is it an apology when
you're excusing the behavior?
925
00:42:50,437 --> 00:42:51,525
No.
926
00:42:51,569 --> 00:42:53,048
- Thank you, guys.
- Thank you, guys.
927
00:42:53,092 --> 00:42:55,050
Love you. Bye. Good night.
928
00:43:01,709 --> 00:43:04,756
Next time on "The Real
Housewives of Salt Lake City"...
929
00:43:04,799 --> 00:43:07,454
We're gonna plan a little party.
It's gonna be called
930
00:43:07,497 --> 00:43:09,674
the "Garbage Trash Whore"
lingerie party.
931
00:43:09,717 --> 00:43:11,545
- That's not good.
- I'll just say G.T.W.
932
00:43:11,589 --> 00:43:13,155
G.T.W.
933
00:43:15,288 --> 00:43:16,942
I love Arizona in the winter.
934
00:43:16,985 --> 00:43:19,118
What's up?!
935
00:43:19,161 --> 00:43:20,598
I missed you!
936
00:43:21,903 --> 00:43:25,080
No.
937
00:43:25,124 --> 00:43:27,648
I love you both,
and maybe it's at the point now
938
00:43:27,692 --> 00:43:29,084
where there can
be a conversation,
939
00:43:29,128 --> 00:43:30,303
and she can hear you.
940
00:43:30,346 --> 00:43:32,566
Have you talked to her about it?
941
00:43:32,610 --> 00:43:34,481
Yes.
942
00:43:34,524 --> 00:43:36,222
Meredith brought up rumors
about Lisa having--
943
00:43:36,265 --> 00:43:38,137
- About what?
- Affairs.
944
00:43:38,180 --> 00:43:39,791
I just heard that she was,
you know,
945
00:43:39,834 --> 00:43:43,446
doing favors to help get places
to pick up Vida Tequila.
946
00:43:43,490 --> 00:43:46,275
You have to swallow it
and bury it.
947
00:43:46,319 --> 00:43:48,321
We have a shaman coming.
948
00:43:48,364 --> 00:43:50,802
She recommended not drinking.
949
00:43:50,845 --> 00:43:52,194
Yeah.
950
00:43:52,238 --> 00:43:55,415
- How are we feeling?
- I had some anxiety.
951
00:43:55,458 --> 00:43:58,461
Well, I used to feel like
I was a safe space for you.
952
00:43:58,505 --> 00:44:00,159
You are not a safe space, Lisa.
953
00:44:01,943 --> 00:44:04,293
I mean, I'm not gonna lie.