1 00:00:06,548 --> 00:00:07,924 [Milton] That's a really good move. 2 00:00:08,591 --> 00:00:12,554 -[man] Knock it in! Four-bagger! -[shouting] 3 00:00:12,637 --> 00:00:14,389 Rather get killed by a shark or alligator? 4 00:00:14,472 --> 00:00:15,724 -Shark. -Shark, for sure. 5 00:00:15,807 --> 00:00:17,475 -It has a cooler tone to it. -[Josh] Yeah. 6 00:00:17,559 --> 00:00:19,519 I'd rather get killed by an alligator, bro. 7 00:00:19,602 --> 00:00:21,104 [Josh] You know, like, 8 00:00:21,187 --> 00:00:24,149 the shark can grab my shit, pull me underwater, fucking drown me. 9 00:00:24,232 --> 00:00:27,360 Fuck them lizards, dude. I'm not losing to no lizard. 10 00:00:27,444 --> 00:00:28,570 It's like a fucking dinosaur. 11 00:00:28,653 --> 00:00:30,864 [Renee] Oh, shit! Oh! She mad! Ooh! 12 00:00:30,947 --> 00:00:32,991 [Stacy] Renee, what is the term 13 00:00:33,074 --> 00:00:36,870 for when someone older seeks out someone younger? 14 00:00:36,953 --> 00:00:37,954 There's multiple. 15 00:00:38,038 --> 00:00:41,416 -Okay, Scott Disick and a 19-year-old? -[Stacy] Yes. 16 00:00:41,499 --> 00:00:42,542 A predator? 17 00:00:42,625 --> 00:00:44,711 -[Shondra] No. For sure. -[Stacy] Just keep going. 18 00:00:44,794 --> 00:00:46,629 It's three words. Don't give 'em the first word. 19 00:00:46,713 --> 00:00:49,007 -It's "something the cradle." -[woman gasping] 20 00:00:49,090 --> 00:00:51,509 -Robbing. Robbing the cradle! -Robbing. Yes! 21 00:00:51,593 --> 00:00:53,428 -Robbing the cradle! -[Shondra] What? 22 00:00:53,511 --> 00:00:56,056 -Robbing the cradle. That's what it is. -It's called "robbing"? 23 00:00:56,139 --> 00:00:58,016 I thought it was called "rocking." 24 00:00:58,099 --> 00:01:00,060 -[Renee] No. Rob. -[Shondra] Oh, I said rocking! 25 00:01:00,143 --> 00:01:01,728 I thought it was "rocking the cradle." 26 00:01:01,811 --> 00:01:03,730 -No, it's robbing! Yeah. -[Stacy] Robbing. 27 00:01:03,813 --> 00:01:06,816 You're robbing the cradle. You're taking a baby from the crib! 28 00:01:06,900 --> 00:01:07,734 [women laughing] 29 00:01:07,817 --> 00:01:10,028 -[dance music playing] ♪ …right before my eyes ♪ 30 00:01:10,111 --> 00:01:14,199 ♪ Oh! Whoa-oh, whoa-oh… ♪ 31 00:01:14,282 --> 00:01:16,868 [JP] Off we go! 32 00:01:16,951 --> 00:01:19,037 -[Shondra] Good luck, girls! -[Lydia] Bye! 33 00:01:19,120 --> 00:01:21,414 ♪ Whoa-oh, whoa-oh… ♪ 34 00:01:21,498 --> 00:01:22,916 Oh, my God. 35 00:01:23,541 --> 00:01:26,461 Do you have a tube with glitter? 36 00:01:27,003 --> 00:01:28,254 The lifesaver thingy? 37 00:01:28,880 --> 00:01:30,381 -No. -[Lydia] We should play Hula-Hoop. 38 00:01:30,465 --> 00:01:31,591 [Milton] Hula-Hoop? 39 00:01:32,175 --> 00:01:33,676 I do not have a Hula-Hoop. Mm-hmm. 40 00:01:33,760 --> 00:01:36,429 Did you open the fridge? The cooler? 41 00:01:36,513 --> 00:01:38,389 -Did I open the cooler? -[Lydia] Yeah. 42 00:01:39,057 --> 00:01:41,434 -You have a cooler in there? -[Lydia] Yeah. You don't? 43 00:01:42,602 --> 00:01:43,436 What the f… 44 00:01:45,021 --> 00:01:46,773 Uh, no, I don't think so. 45 00:01:47,440 --> 00:01:48,733 -No. -[Lydia] You don't? 46 00:01:49,442 --> 00:01:53,113 -No. Do you have a mini-fridge in there? -I have a mini-cooler. 47 00:01:54,155 --> 00:01:56,616 Oh, my God! I have an ice chest. 48 00:01:57,617 --> 00:02:00,829 I wasn't looking at it. I have my drink and beer on top of it. 49 00:02:01,538 --> 00:02:02,580 [Lydia] Oh, my God! 50 00:02:02,664 --> 00:02:05,083 I see it now. I see. I didn't notice it. 51 00:02:05,166 --> 00:02:06,292 [laughing] 52 00:02:06,376 --> 00:02:08,169 -[Milton] You've been having a good day? -Oh. 53 00:02:09,212 --> 00:02:10,380 Not really. 54 00:02:10,463 --> 00:02:11,297 [Milton] Why not? 55 00:02:11,381 --> 00:02:16,094 [Lydia] I don't know. Things are not the way that I expect them to be, so… 56 00:02:16,177 --> 00:02:18,680 You're with me. So you know you're gonna have a good time. 57 00:02:18,763 --> 00:02:20,140 [pop music playing] 58 00:02:20,223 --> 00:02:23,184 ♪ I've been waiting for a text back ♪ 59 00:02:23,935 --> 00:02:25,478 ♪ Since the morning… ♪ 60 00:02:26,980 --> 00:02:28,565 [Lydia] Izzy cut me off. 61 00:02:28,648 --> 00:02:30,400 [sniffles] Mm. 62 00:02:31,109 --> 00:02:33,611 And it sucks. It's shitty. 63 00:02:34,821 --> 00:02:37,157 Um, he really didn't give me a reason, 64 00:02:38,032 --> 00:02:40,702 but I know I have to pick up myself, 65 00:02:40,785 --> 00:02:44,038 rub my back and continue and go on. 66 00:02:44,747 --> 00:02:47,792 I had a really rough day last-- yesterday. 67 00:02:47,876 --> 00:02:51,421 -Mm-hmm. -[Lydia] Uh, I'm gonna be honest with you. 68 00:02:51,504 --> 00:02:55,216 One of my strongest connection was like, he cut off things, 69 00:02:55,300 --> 00:02:57,260 and I was not expecting that. 70 00:02:58,636 --> 00:03:01,097 I just had a moment and… 71 00:03:02,140 --> 00:03:04,767 You know, you can tell me about it. Like, I don't mind. 72 00:03:07,312 --> 00:03:10,440 I don't think we have been vulnerable with each other. Have we? 73 00:03:10,940 --> 00:03:12,734 [Milton] You've been vulnerable with me. 74 00:03:12,817 --> 00:03:14,944 I don't think I've been fully vulnerable with you. 75 00:03:15,028 --> 00:03:16,529 Yeah, that's how I feel. 76 00:03:16,613 --> 00:03:19,157 I'm sorry about that. It's, like, 77 00:03:20,241 --> 00:03:22,535 really hard for me to be vulnerable, 78 00:03:22,619 --> 00:03:24,537 but I mean, I can open up today. 79 00:03:25,288 --> 00:03:28,249 ♪ I feel my heart start to wake ♪ 80 00:03:29,876 --> 00:03:32,128 Can I talk to you? 81 00:03:32,212 --> 00:03:34,797 -[Milton] What was that? -Can I talk to you for real? 82 00:03:34,881 --> 00:03:36,299 Yeah, for sure. 83 00:03:36,799 --> 00:03:38,927 [sniffles, sighs] 84 00:03:39,010 --> 00:03:40,136 [Milton] What's wrong? 85 00:03:42,263 --> 00:03:45,934 I crave so hard to be loved for who I am. 86 00:03:48,269 --> 00:03:49,395 Yeah, of course. 87 00:03:51,064 --> 00:03:51,981 [Lydia] And I wanna… 88 00:03:52,065 --> 00:03:54,651 [sniffles] I wanna be seen for who I am 89 00:03:54,734 --> 00:03:57,820 and valued and loved for who I really care. 90 00:03:59,322 --> 00:04:01,282 -[Milton] Mm-hmm. -And I'm so passionate. 91 00:04:01,366 --> 00:04:05,119 And I'm so genuine, and I'm so loving, but yet, like… 92 00:04:06,287 --> 00:04:08,831 [sniffles, sighs] 93 00:04:12,794 --> 00:04:15,255 [sobbing] I crave so bad to be loved. 94 00:04:17,131 --> 00:04:18,341 [sniffles] 95 00:04:18,424 --> 00:04:22,178 I mean, I think, like, you're definitely worthy of being loved. Like, you're-- 96 00:04:22,262 --> 00:04:25,890 And I know that I'm worthy of love. I know that, but I just… I don't know. 97 00:04:25,974 --> 00:04:26,975 [Milton] It's okay. 98 00:04:28,643 --> 00:04:30,436 I mean, I think you're an amazing person. 99 00:04:31,271 --> 00:04:33,106 And, like, I thought about you last night, 100 00:04:33,189 --> 00:04:35,900 and I was like, "Damn, I, like, really wanna talk to this girl again." 101 00:04:35,984 --> 00:04:36,943 "I hope I'd get to." 102 00:04:38,027 --> 00:04:39,821 -[Lydia] Were you? -Mm-hmm. 103 00:04:40,405 --> 00:04:43,700 Yeah. I mean, I'll be honest with you. You're my strongest connection. 104 00:04:43,783 --> 00:04:45,076 [exhales] 105 00:04:46,911 --> 00:04:50,331 I think you're the person I, like, look forward to talking to the most. 106 00:04:52,083 --> 00:04:55,503 I think there's other girls that, like, I like talking to, but I'm, like… 107 00:04:56,045 --> 00:04:59,007 Every day I'm like, "Ooh, I hope I talk to Lydia again." 108 00:05:02,051 --> 00:05:04,429 I just feel like you'd be, like, a great mother. 109 00:05:05,179 --> 00:05:06,014 [Lydia] Aww. 110 00:05:06,097 --> 00:05:09,100 [Milton] Like, if I did eventually have kids, 111 00:05:09,183 --> 00:05:11,311 you're, like, a lot more, like, emotionally connected. 112 00:05:11,394 --> 00:05:14,856 Like, you understand your emotions a lot better than I do. 113 00:05:15,440 --> 00:05:19,694 Like, how are you, like, so willing to, like, open up in front of others? 114 00:05:19,777 --> 00:05:22,572 Like, that's something I've always, like, wanted to do. 115 00:05:22,655 --> 00:05:25,700 But, like, I've no idea, like, how to even begin. 116 00:05:26,200 --> 00:05:28,911 [Lydia] For me, the person that I am with you, 117 00:05:29,620 --> 00:05:32,540 I am with everyone. I don't put a fake mask. I don't… 118 00:05:32,623 --> 00:05:35,168 I don't be like, "I'm gonna be this way with this person, 119 00:05:35,251 --> 00:05:37,253 and I'm gonna be this way with other person." 120 00:05:37,337 --> 00:05:38,629 [Milton] Mm-hmm. 121 00:05:38,713 --> 00:05:42,175 And it is emotionally exhausting. 122 00:05:42,258 --> 00:05:46,262 I can get hurt. I was hurt last night, but… 123 00:05:47,680 --> 00:05:50,224 -[Milton] Yeah. -I don't have any regrets. 124 00:05:50,308 --> 00:05:51,601 'Cause I was me. 125 00:05:53,478 --> 00:05:56,939 I have to love really hard that part of myself. 126 00:05:57,023 --> 00:05:58,608 So I am accepting, and I never change 127 00:05:58,691 --> 00:06:01,652 'cause I should never change or apologize for who I am. 128 00:06:03,321 --> 00:06:06,783 I like that. That's, like, what really, like, attracted me to you, 129 00:06:07,575 --> 00:06:09,243 that you're really, like… 130 00:06:10,119 --> 00:06:12,330 Like, you really know yourself really well, 131 00:06:12,997 --> 00:06:15,500 and you're, like, really, like, outgoing and, like, bold. 132 00:06:16,793 --> 00:06:20,129 When I go out or something, like, everybody perceives me to be that way, 133 00:06:20,213 --> 00:06:22,507 but, like, in reality I'm not. 134 00:06:23,299 --> 00:06:26,511 -It's just, like, kind of a front. -[Lydia] Talk to me, Milton. 135 00:06:27,095 --> 00:06:29,847 My parents were, like, really, really strict growing up, 136 00:06:30,431 --> 00:06:33,476 and I felt like, when I was, like, a kid, I was really unhappy. 137 00:06:34,769 --> 00:06:35,978 Like, with my life. 138 00:06:37,647 --> 00:06:41,776 Like, I was born in Hawaii, but I lived in Japan for, like, a long time. 139 00:06:43,152 --> 00:06:45,279 And it was, like, really hard going to school out there. 140 00:06:45,363 --> 00:06:47,365 Like, I made really bad grades. 141 00:06:47,448 --> 00:06:49,826 I felt, like, really stupid every day. 142 00:06:51,244 --> 00:06:52,245 And then 143 00:06:53,996 --> 00:06:56,582 I moved out here right before high school, 144 00:06:57,333 --> 00:06:58,876 and my grades were really good, 145 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:00,878 and I went into college, 146 00:07:00,962 --> 00:07:03,840 like, straight out of high school as a junior. 147 00:07:04,507 --> 00:07:07,427 I already had my associate's degree by the time I graduated high school. 148 00:07:07,510 --> 00:07:11,431 I'm, like, thinking about things constantly at a young age that, like, 149 00:07:11,514 --> 00:07:14,308 you probably shouldn't have to think about these type of things. 150 00:07:14,392 --> 00:07:17,228 [Lydia] Yeah, it forced you to grow up earlier. 151 00:07:17,854 --> 00:07:21,399 Yeah, like, I understand how it feels to grow up really fast. 152 00:07:22,859 --> 00:07:26,028 But I'm not as bold or as confident as people think I am. 153 00:07:26,112 --> 00:07:27,864 I feel like I'm really funny. 154 00:07:27,947 --> 00:07:30,408 Like, I make a lot of jokes because I don't-- 155 00:07:30,491 --> 00:07:35,663 To hide, to hide, but you're wearing your funny self, like, as a shield. 156 00:07:36,414 --> 00:07:37,331 [Milton] Yeah. 157 00:07:37,415 --> 00:07:39,834 Like, I'm gonna hold everything inside. 158 00:07:40,418 --> 00:07:41,919 [Lydia] But that's not healthy, babe. 159 00:07:42,545 --> 00:07:45,173 I have, like, a really bad habit of doing that. 160 00:07:46,048 --> 00:07:49,677 But I just, like, I don't know, like, I feel like there's not a lot of people… 161 00:07:49,760 --> 00:07:50,678 [Lydia] Mm-hmm. 162 00:07:50,761 --> 00:07:54,140 …that, like, can actually, like, see past, like, my shields that I put up. 163 00:07:54,974 --> 00:07:56,476 That's sad, Milton. 164 00:07:56,976 --> 00:07:59,103 Life doesn't come with an instruction manual. 165 00:07:59,187 --> 00:08:01,439 -It's hard. It's really hard. -[Milton] Yeah. 166 00:08:01,939 --> 00:08:05,109 [Lydia] And I appreciate you sharing this with me. I really do. 167 00:08:05,193 --> 00:08:08,237 ["All You Need" by Anthony Esperance playing] 168 00:08:08,321 --> 00:08:11,699 ♪ I'm all you need All you need, all you need ♪ 169 00:08:11,782 --> 00:08:14,243 Oh, my God. I just wanna hug you right now. 170 00:08:14,327 --> 00:08:18,247 I know. Me too. I feel like this experience has actually really helped me. 171 00:08:18,331 --> 00:08:20,708 -No matter what happens-- -[Lydia] How do you think it helped? 172 00:08:21,334 --> 00:08:22,877 [Milton] I thought about you last night, 173 00:08:22,960 --> 00:08:25,505 and I was like, "I wanna be, like, more open with her." 174 00:08:26,547 --> 00:08:29,425 I really wanna be open-minded with you too. You know? 175 00:08:29,509 --> 00:08:31,427 I don't think I've been really open-minded. 176 00:08:31,511 --> 00:08:33,888 I think, like, age really got to me. 177 00:08:34,472 --> 00:08:36,807 [Milton] If I could do this whole experiment again, 178 00:08:36,891 --> 00:08:39,435 I would never tell any girls how old I was. 179 00:08:39,519 --> 00:08:41,521 [Lydia] Yeah, I wish I would have not known. 180 00:08:42,021 --> 00:08:45,149 -[Milton] You think you could marry me? -Yeah, I can see it today. 181 00:08:45,233 --> 00:08:47,235 Yesterday, not so much. Today-- 182 00:08:47,318 --> 00:08:49,195 [Milton] Yesterday not so much? Wow. 183 00:08:49,278 --> 00:08:51,030 [laughing] 184 00:08:51,113 --> 00:08:52,031 [Milton] Why today? 185 00:08:52,615 --> 00:08:54,742 [Lydia] 'Cause you were vulnerable with me, 186 00:08:55,326 --> 00:08:58,412 and you actually made me feel something without even seeing you. 187 00:08:58,996 --> 00:09:01,457 -Mm-hmm. -[Lydia] And I hadn't felt that before. 188 00:09:01,541 --> 00:09:05,127 [Milton] You don't feel like you would reconsider, like, based on my age? 189 00:09:05,878 --> 00:09:08,506 No, I'm not going to reconsider based on your age. 190 00:09:08,589 --> 00:09:11,259 I'm gonna make you that promise. How about that? 191 00:09:11,884 --> 00:09:14,011 Like, I really like you, Lydia. 192 00:09:15,471 --> 00:09:18,599 I don't know. Like, it kind of scares me because you're really feisty too. 193 00:09:18,683 --> 00:09:19,892 -[laughs] -[Milton] So I'm-- 194 00:09:19,976 --> 00:09:23,020 Do you know-- do you know if you can really handle this? 195 00:09:24,021 --> 00:09:26,941 Wait. Hold on. Let me put on the glasses that are right here in front of me. 196 00:09:27,024 --> 00:09:29,193 Tonight I'm feeling much more confident. 197 00:09:29,277 --> 00:09:30,319 [Lydia] Okay, good. 198 00:09:32,238 --> 00:09:34,740 [laughs] Oh, my God. 199 00:09:35,741 --> 00:09:37,326 Oh, shit! Oh, fuck! 200 00:09:38,411 --> 00:09:40,413 -I-- -[Milton] Did you spill a drink? 201 00:09:40,496 --> 00:09:41,831 [laughing] 202 00:09:41,914 --> 00:09:43,708 I'm just… [laughing] 203 00:09:43,791 --> 00:09:47,003 ♪ I… I… I… I'm falling for you ♪ 204 00:09:47,086 --> 00:09:50,798 ♪ I'm falling for you ♪ 205 00:09:50,881 --> 00:09:52,258 [Taylor] Before you came here, 206 00:09:52,341 --> 00:09:55,094 were your dates typically, like, four hours long? 207 00:09:56,137 --> 00:09:57,471 -In the real world? -[Taylor] Yeah. 208 00:09:57,555 --> 00:09:58,389 [chuckles] Oh, no. 209 00:09:58,472 --> 00:10:03,311 There are so many distractions, and here it's like, just locked in on each other. 210 00:10:03,394 --> 00:10:04,604 -[JP] Yeah. -Okay. 211 00:10:04,687 --> 00:10:06,188 I have a couple of questions 212 00:10:06,272 --> 00:10:08,399 that I hadn't asked and that I wanna ask. 213 00:10:08,983 --> 00:10:11,444 [JP] Like, I'm comfortable with you. So, I mean… 214 00:10:12,194 --> 00:10:13,112 What do you wanna know? 215 00:10:13,863 --> 00:10:15,990 [Taylor] I guess, tell me more about your childhood. 216 00:10:16,574 --> 00:10:17,408 [exhales] 217 00:10:19,243 --> 00:10:20,119 [sniffles] 218 00:10:26,250 --> 00:10:27,585 -Sorry. -[Taylor] It's okay. 219 00:10:27,668 --> 00:10:29,086 You don't have to apologize. 220 00:10:32,548 --> 00:10:33,716 [sniffles] 221 00:10:34,842 --> 00:10:36,510 [sniffles] I hate crying. 222 00:10:37,261 --> 00:10:38,220 [Taylor] It's okay. 223 00:10:40,306 --> 00:10:42,308 Sometimes it's good to just let it out. 224 00:10:43,267 --> 00:10:45,686 [JP sniffles] Uh… 225 00:10:48,522 --> 00:10:51,901 So, growing up, my mom was, like, a really angry person. 226 00:10:53,944 --> 00:10:55,237 -I love her now. -[Taylor] Mm-hmm. 227 00:10:55,321 --> 00:10:57,782 And I don't really like to talk bad about people. 228 00:10:59,659 --> 00:11:00,576 Um… 229 00:11:03,245 --> 00:11:05,247 She wasn't as bad towards me, 230 00:11:06,832 --> 00:11:09,585 but she would take out her anger on my sisters. 231 00:11:10,294 --> 00:11:11,170 [sniffles] 232 00:11:18,052 --> 00:11:20,721 [sniffles] And just, like, go into their rooms, 233 00:11:22,056 --> 00:11:25,726 wake them up and yell and, like, trash everything. [sniffles] 234 00:11:26,602 --> 00:11:27,812 And then… 235 00:11:27,895 --> 00:11:29,772 [clears throat] leave and go to work. 236 00:11:30,731 --> 00:11:34,610 [sniffles] In the beginning, I was too young to actually do anything. 237 00:11:34,694 --> 00:11:35,778 [sniffles] 238 00:11:35,861 --> 00:11:36,862 But when she would leave, 239 00:11:36,946 --> 00:11:40,449 I would go in there and just try to comfort them. 240 00:11:41,158 --> 00:11:41,992 [sniffles] 241 00:11:42,868 --> 00:11:45,705 Why was she so angry, or do you not know? 242 00:11:46,747 --> 00:11:49,667 [sniffles] I think it was just part of the… 243 00:11:50,751 --> 00:11:53,838 uh, her and my dad's relationship. 244 00:11:53,921 --> 00:11:56,298 Part of it was she was being too overprotective. 245 00:11:56,882 --> 00:11:59,051 [sniffling] I guess, 'cause she didn't want 246 00:11:59,135 --> 00:12:03,556 my sisters to end up in the same situations. 247 00:12:03,639 --> 00:12:04,515 [Taylor] Mm-hmm. 248 00:12:04,598 --> 00:12:07,852 Um, I don't think she went about it the right way. 249 00:12:07,935 --> 00:12:10,521 -No. -[JP sniffles] 250 00:12:10,604 --> 00:12:13,524 [Taylor] I can't imagine that. 251 00:12:13,607 --> 00:12:15,109 You were very strong. 252 00:12:16,402 --> 00:12:17,695 Very good brother. 253 00:12:17,778 --> 00:12:19,739 [sniffles] I try to be. 254 00:12:19,822 --> 00:12:22,783 She's better now, but, like… [sniffles] 255 00:12:22,867 --> 00:12:24,785 …back in the day, it just sucked. 256 00:12:25,619 --> 00:12:28,789 But I just hate that I was so mad at her for all of that. [sniffles] 257 00:12:29,999 --> 00:12:31,667 You feel like you're still mad? 258 00:12:32,251 --> 00:12:33,961 [sniffles] No. 259 00:12:34,044 --> 00:12:35,004 [sighs] 260 00:12:35,087 --> 00:12:37,548 You know, she's actually really sweet. 261 00:12:38,799 --> 00:12:41,093 [Taylor] Good, maybe she's truly happy now, 262 00:12:41,177 --> 00:12:43,179 and that's why she's gotten better. 263 00:12:44,096 --> 00:12:46,390 I mean, I don't know. I've never met her. 264 00:12:46,474 --> 00:12:49,602 -Yet. You haven't met her yet. -[Taylor laughs] 265 00:12:50,394 --> 00:12:52,271 -Our parents make mistakes. -Mm-hmm. 266 00:12:52,354 --> 00:12:53,522 They're human. 267 00:12:54,356 --> 00:12:56,525 And all we can do is 268 00:12:57,401 --> 00:12:59,779 watch them and learn from it. 269 00:12:59,862 --> 00:13:02,114 The bad parts of them we just don't take with us. 270 00:13:02,198 --> 00:13:03,324 -[JP] Yeah. -You know? 271 00:13:05,117 --> 00:13:06,994 [sniffles] 272 00:13:07,995 --> 00:13:09,997 [sniffles, sighs] 273 00:13:11,624 --> 00:13:13,918 I've never been as comfortable 274 00:13:15,294 --> 00:13:17,713 with somebody, like, being able to open up and stuff, 275 00:13:18,589 --> 00:13:19,632 as I am with you. 276 00:13:20,549 --> 00:13:22,301 I definitely never told anybody that either. 277 00:13:24,428 --> 00:13:28,098 What would you most regret not having told someone? 278 00:13:33,229 --> 00:13:34,730 Mmm. That I love you. 279 00:13:37,775 --> 00:13:39,401 Yeah. That would be a regret. 280 00:13:39,485 --> 00:13:41,987 -I was gonna say the same thing. -[laughs] 281 00:13:43,823 --> 00:13:44,740 I love you too. 282 00:13:45,241 --> 00:13:46,492 [Taylor] Oh! 283 00:13:47,827 --> 00:13:49,787 Oh, my gosh. I might cry! 284 00:13:49,870 --> 00:13:50,955 You made me cry. 285 00:13:51,539 --> 00:13:53,916 I didn't know if you were gonna get there with me. 286 00:13:53,999 --> 00:13:55,417 -[JP] Why? -I don't know. 287 00:13:56,043 --> 00:13:58,087 I was just nervous that you wouldn't. 288 00:13:58,170 --> 00:14:00,297 -Well, it just takes a little bit. -[Taylor] I know. 289 00:14:00,965 --> 00:14:02,716 -And it's scary. -[Taylor] I know. 290 00:14:03,342 --> 00:14:05,344 -But the good kind of scary. -[Taylor] Yeah. 291 00:14:05,427 --> 00:14:07,847 -[laughs] I love you. -I love you too. 292 00:14:07,930 --> 00:14:09,557 [Taylor] All right. Bye-bye, sugar butt. 293 00:14:09,640 --> 00:14:11,851 -[JP] Bye, sugar! -[chuckles] 294 00:14:11,934 --> 00:14:15,437 -[pop music playing] -♪ When I'm with you, when I'm with… ♪ 295 00:14:15,521 --> 00:14:16,814 Oh! 296 00:14:17,481 --> 00:14:18,524 Oh, my gosh. 297 00:14:18,607 --> 00:14:20,943 [vocalizing] 298 00:14:21,026 --> 00:14:24,238 Uche and I, we have to meet each other halfway. 299 00:14:24,321 --> 00:14:26,031 I felt like he was judging me. 300 00:14:26,115 --> 00:14:28,784 If someone was to tell you that, you would be taken aback. 301 00:14:28,868 --> 00:14:31,996 And, like, sometimes you just need time to step away and then think about it. 302 00:14:32,079 --> 00:14:34,039 He's too smart to not know better. 303 00:14:34,123 --> 00:14:35,666 Whatever he's doing now 304 00:14:35,749 --> 00:14:37,751 has to have affected a previous relationship. 305 00:14:37,835 --> 00:14:41,422 -His past doesn't define who you are. -Yeah. 306 00:14:41,505 --> 00:14:42,339 That's right. 307 00:14:42,423 --> 00:14:45,009 -Those are issues he needs to work on. -Yeah. 308 00:14:45,509 --> 00:14:47,219 -He cannot let… -He does. 309 00:14:48,178 --> 00:14:50,556 He cannot get arrogant. He cannot get cocky. 310 00:14:50,639 --> 00:14:52,933 He cannot be superior for you. 311 00:14:53,017 --> 00:14:55,102 -He knows better. He's a lawyer. -[Aaliyah] Yeah. 312 00:14:55,185 --> 00:14:57,062 [Lydia] He has his own business, his own career. 313 00:14:57,146 --> 00:14:59,648 -And this motherfucker, we're gonna fight. -[Aaliyah] Yeah. 314 00:14:59,732 --> 00:15:01,025 [laughing] 315 00:15:01,108 --> 00:15:05,571 [Lydia] I know it's hard, but just be, like, at peace that you get it all out 316 00:15:05,654 --> 00:15:07,948 and make sure this shit doesn't happen again. 317 00:15:08,032 --> 00:15:10,618 -[pop music playing] -♪ Come on, try a little bit harder ♪ 318 00:15:11,285 --> 00:15:16,999 ♪ Yeah, you've gotta show me something Here and now tonight ♪ 319 00:15:17,082 --> 00:15:18,000 ♪ Oh! ♪ 320 00:15:18,709 --> 00:15:19,543 [Uche] Hello. 321 00:15:20,502 --> 00:15:24,506 Um, Uche. This is Aaliyah. 322 00:15:24,590 --> 00:15:25,424 [Uche] I know. 323 00:15:25,507 --> 00:15:26,675 [Aaliyah] Um… 324 00:15:28,052 --> 00:15:32,014 You know, the type of relationship and marriage that I want 325 00:15:32,097 --> 00:15:36,393 is to be able to talk about anything and not feel judged by the other. 326 00:15:36,936 --> 00:15:41,357 I felt like you were almost condemning me for it. 327 00:15:41,440 --> 00:15:44,568 Like, "Two years ago wasn't that long ago." 328 00:15:44,652 --> 00:15:48,030 "And how do I know you won't do that again?" 329 00:15:48,113 --> 00:15:52,660 It made me feel like you think I'm not worthy of being with you anymore. 330 00:15:52,743 --> 00:15:55,621 Did I say any of those things? 331 00:15:55,704 --> 00:15:59,750 Did I say, "How do I know you're not going to do it again?" 332 00:15:59,833 --> 00:16:00,709 Yes. 333 00:16:01,293 --> 00:16:03,545 Well, if that's what I said, 334 00:16:03,629 --> 00:16:07,174 I mean, I apologize, because that's not what I meant. 335 00:16:07,257 --> 00:16:09,343 Everybody has a past, 336 00:16:09,426 --> 00:16:13,305 and everybody has made mistakes. 337 00:16:13,389 --> 00:16:17,768 I think the biggest thing is it just kind of surprised me. 338 00:16:18,644 --> 00:16:22,481 It's fair that you were surprised and caught off guard. 339 00:16:23,190 --> 00:16:24,441 It just, you know… 340 00:16:26,193 --> 00:16:30,739 How do I feel comfortable telling you something else moving forward? 341 00:16:30,823 --> 00:16:31,740 You know what I mean? 342 00:16:31,824 --> 00:16:35,911 It's just I don't wanna feel judged by you 343 00:16:35,995 --> 00:16:39,581 because of something I did two and a half years ago. 344 00:16:39,665 --> 00:16:42,584 Because if it were the other way around, I wouldn't have… 345 00:16:43,502 --> 00:16:46,463 I wouldn't have. I know I wouldn't have reacted in that way. 346 00:16:46,547 --> 00:16:48,924 And I apologize to you. I am sorry about it. 347 00:16:49,425 --> 00:16:53,178 Do you think that if we were to continue on a relationship, 348 00:16:53,262 --> 00:16:56,724 get engaged, get married, we wouldn't have another disagreement like that? 349 00:17:01,687 --> 00:17:03,063 No, I know we would. 350 00:17:04,189 --> 00:17:05,399 [Uche] So, Aaliyah, 351 00:17:06,066 --> 00:17:10,029 why I reacted in that way is 352 00:17:10,112 --> 00:17:13,782 I've had a hard time in the past 353 00:17:13,866 --> 00:17:15,034 trusting people, 354 00:17:15,117 --> 00:17:18,620 you know, with somebody that I was dating, you know, lying to me. 355 00:17:19,163 --> 00:17:21,749 I think it's something that is more 356 00:17:22,499 --> 00:17:25,294 my issue than your issue. 357 00:17:25,377 --> 00:17:28,630 I care about you, and I think that that feeling 358 00:17:28,714 --> 00:17:30,424 kind of scares me. 359 00:17:31,216 --> 00:17:32,468 Yeah. Me too. 360 00:17:33,010 --> 00:17:36,346 I think, because that, you know, scares me. 361 00:17:36,430 --> 00:17:40,601 [chuckles] That's why I'm, you know, like, reacting like that. 362 00:17:40,684 --> 00:17:43,854 Like, I'm, you know, trying to look for something wrong 363 00:17:43,937 --> 00:17:45,647 when there's nothing wrong. 364 00:17:46,231 --> 00:17:48,609 What I should have seen from you 365 00:17:48,692 --> 00:17:51,403 is that you telling me that 366 00:17:52,321 --> 00:17:55,032 was more of a positive thing. 367 00:17:55,115 --> 00:17:58,952 That you were still willing to open yourself up 368 00:17:59,036 --> 00:18:00,162 and tell me that… 369 00:18:00,746 --> 00:18:06,460 [chuckles] even though you knew how negatively I would have viewed that. 370 00:18:06,543 --> 00:18:09,129 Yeah. It wasn't easy, okay? 371 00:18:09,797 --> 00:18:11,715 [Uche] I know. I know, Aaliyah. 372 00:18:12,549 --> 00:18:14,134 I understand that 373 00:18:14,218 --> 00:18:18,555 if I want somebody to be honest, 374 00:18:19,139 --> 00:18:21,225 I need to create the environment 375 00:18:21,308 --> 00:18:24,019 where they feel comfortable telling me things. 376 00:18:24,103 --> 00:18:24,978 Yeah. 377 00:18:26,063 --> 00:18:29,483 I care so much about you, and I accept you for who you are, 378 00:18:29,566 --> 00:18:31,944 and I'm falling for you. 379 00:18:34,029 --> 00:18:36,532 I'm so sorry that I made you feel that way. 380 00:18:39,743 --> 00:18:42,204 Thank you. Thank you for saying that. 381 00:18:43,539 --> 00:18:44,498 You forgive me? 382 00:18:48,961 --> 00:18:50,254 [exhales] 383 00:18:52,297 --> 00:18:53,173 Yes. 384 00:18:53,257 --> 00:18:54,341 Of course. 385 00:18:57,094 --> 00:18:57,928 I'm glad. 386 00:18:59,429 --> 00:19:04,893 As long as you're willing to be honest with me, 387 00:19:05,561 --> 00:19:08,605 I can accept anything about you. 388 00:19:08,689 --> 00:19:10,274 I promise you that. 389 00:19:10,357 --> 00:19:11,900 -[pop music playing] -[vocalizing] 390 00:19:11,984 --> 00:19:14,069 -I don't wanna lose you, Aaliyah. -[chuckles] 391 00:19:14,153 --> 00:19:17,072 ♪ Stand up for love… ♪ 392 00:19:17,156 --> 00:19:18,866 I don't wanna lose you too. 393 00:19:20,075 --> 00:19:22,119 I am just as scared as you are. 394 00:19:23,662 --> 00:19:27,082 And I have trust issues too. 395 00:19:27,166 --> 00:19:29,001 I've been through things just like you have. 396 00:19:29,084 --> 00:19:30,919 We both have to… 397 00:19:32,921 --> 00:19:36,175 commit to not allowing the other person to run 398 00:19:36,258 --> 00:19:39,094 or push the other away like that. 399 00:19:39,178 --> 00:19:42,431 I'm not gonna ever give you a reason not to trust me. 400 00:19:43,098 --> 00:19:44,641 And I mean that. 401 00:19:44,725 --> 00:19:45,851 And I appreciate that. 402 00:19:47,895 --> 00:19:50,063 Does that mean you're still my girlfriend? 403 00:19:50,147 --> 00:19:51,273 Yes. 404 00:19:51,356 --> 00:19:53,025 [laughing] 405 00:19:53,108 --> 00:19:56,528 ♪ For… for love, for love… ♪ 406 00:19:56,612 --> 00:19:59,114 Yeah, you sure know what to say, Uche. 407 00:19:59,198 --> 00:20:02,868 I feel like that's that poetry coming out. 408 00:20:02,951 --> 00:20:05,787 [laughing] 409 00:20:07,998 --> 00:20:10,500 ♪ We got too much to fight for ♪ 410 00:20:10,584 --> 00:20:12,544 -[dance music playing] -♪ Uh-huh, you got it… ♪ 411 00:20:12,628 --> 00:20:13,629 [man] Good luck, fellas! 412 00:20:13,712 --> 00:20:15,380 [laughing] 413 00:20:15,464 --> 00:20:17,466 [woman] Oh, looks fun in here. 414 00:20:17,549 --> 00:20:19,009 DJ, play number four. 415 00:20:19,092 --> 00:20:21,511 -[dance music playing] -♪ Let's get it, get it ♪ 416 00:20:22,638 --> 00:20:24,681 -Oh, I did a split. -[Josh] Yes! 417 00:20:24,765 --> 00:20:25,682 Very sexy. 418 00:20:25,766 --> 00:20:28,977 -[Stacy] Uno, dos, tres. Boom. -[ball plops] 419 00:20:29,061 --> 00:20:31,730 -In! In the fucking hole. -In? Yeah, are you sure? 420 00:20:31,813 --> 00:20:34,024 -Positive! [laughs] -Camera don't lie. 421 00:20:34,107 --> 00:20:37,778 Dating in pods is unique. It's refreshing. 422 00:20:37,861 --> 00:20:39,696 -[Izzy laughs] I made it! -You did? 423 00:20:39,780 --> 00:20:41,031 -[Izzy] I swear! -You're a liar! 424 00:20:41,114 --> 00:20:43,533 [Izzy] This is the first one I've made all day, actually. 425 00:20:43,617 --> 00:20:44,451 [laughs] 426 00:20:44,534 --> 00:20:46,787 I have so much fun with Izzy. 427 00:20:46,870 --> 00:20:48,330 Always playing games. 428 00:20:48,413 --> 00:20:50,916 -What are you drinking? -Uh, vodka. 429 00:20:50,999 --> 00:20:53,502 Get drunk before I beat your ass. How about that? 430 00:20:54,169 --> 00:20:56,838 Games keep you young, and so does Botox. 431 00:20:56,922 --> 00:20:59,466 [laughing] 432 00:20:59,549 --> 00:21:01,051 Why am I like this? 433 00:21:01,843 --> 00:21:05,806 I feel like I can be myself with you, and it's just, it's easy. 434 00:21:05,889 --> 00:21:09,226 Yeah. Easy Izzy. [laughs] 435 00:21:09,309 --> 00:21:12,396 It's like there's comfort, but there's passion. 436 00:21:12,479 --> 00:21:15,732 There's rough passion too. Don't let that slip. 437 00:21:15,816 --> 00:21:20,112 -You'll have to show me. -If we were in person… [laughs] 438 00:21:20,195 --> 00:21:22,322 -[Stacy] What? -It would be fucking amazing. 439 00:21:22,406 --> 00:21:25,158 Why are you laughing before you even finish the sentence? 440 00:21:25,242 --> 00:21:28,203 -[Izzy] Because it excites me. -You're thinking about me naked. 441 00:21:28,287 --> 00:21:31,081 I was thinking of you naked, like, the second day. 442 00:21:31,164 --> 00:21:32,874 -Yeah. -[Izzy] Yeah. Like, for sure. 443 00:21:32,958 --> 00:21:34,418 You have such a fucking hot voice. 444 00:21:34,501 --> 00:21:36,086 -It was crazy. -[laughs] 445 00:21:36,169 --> 00:21:38,046 Why do you think I'm so intrigued? 446 00:21:38,130 --> 00:21:39,464 Can you keep up? 447 00:21:40,215 --> 00:21:41,049 Can you? 448 00:21:41,133 --> 00:21:42,342 Of course. 449 00:21:42,426 --> 00:21:43,885 I mean, you can at least try. 450 00:21:43,969 --> 00:21:45,429 [Izzy] Yeah. No, I can. 451 00:21:45,512 --> 00:21:48,348 I'm just gonna be fucking flat-out honest with you. 452 00:21:49,308 --> 00:21:52,686 I'm picturing my futures with the connections I've had, 453 00:21:53,603 --> 00:21:56,982 and it's, like, hard to figure this shit out. 454 00:21:57,065 --> 00:21:58,859 It's, like, really mindfucking. 455 00:21:58,942 --> 00:22:02,112 With you, the things that I feel, like, I would have to worry about, 456 00:22:02,195 --> 00:22:03,280 I don't worry about. 457 00:22:03,864 --> 00:22:05,657 Financially, 458 00:22:05,741 --> 00:22:08,076 um, the mental stability. 459 00:22:08,160 --> 00:22:09,911 I just feel like you know what you want. 460 00:22:09,995 --> 00:22:12,789 It gets confusing because, like, you're not vulnerable. 461 00:22:12,873 --> 00:22:16,835 With the other girls, like, I go, like, a lot more deeper. 462 00:22:16,918 --> 00:22:18,420 And with you, it's just, like… 463 00:22:18,503 --> 00:22:20,881 I'm just kind of, like, enjoying the ride. Really, just-- 464 00:22:20,964 --> 00:22:25,886 I think that sounds like a much more fun ride, but that's just me. 465 00:22:26,803 --> 00:22:29,056 At the end of it, like, you're trying to find the person 466 00:22:29,139 --> 00:22:31,516 that you wanna spend the rest of your life with. 467 00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:33,602 And part of that for me is 468 00:22:33,685 --> 00:22:36,480 I can't be with someone forever that I can't have fun with. 469 00:22:37,606 --> 00:22:39,316 You give me butterflies. 470 00:22:41,693 --> 00:22:45,447 It's not necessarily that I'm bad at being vulnerable. 471 00:22:45,530 --> 00:22:49,034 What I can promise you is 472 00:22:49,117 --> 00:22:50,660 I'm not gonna, like, half-ass it. 473 00:22:50,744 --> 00:22:54,081 I've never failed anything. I just don't want you to ever, like, 474 00:22:55,540 --> 00:22:59,503 compare me to some other girls and how easy it is for them to share 475 00:22:59,586 --> 00:23:01,463 or be like, "Oh, I like you." 476 00:23:01,546 --> 00:23:02,839 [gibbers] "You're the best." 477 00:23:02,923 --> 00:23:06,927 Like, I know what I want, and I could give two fucks 478 00:23:07,010 --> 00:23:09,513 if someone in there wants you the same way I do. 479 00:23:11,098 --> 00:23:14,309 I've never really been torn between two people before. 480 00:23:14,393 --> 00:23:16,311 Everything with Stacy has just been so easy. 481 00:23:16,395 --> 00:23:19,731 But I do care about Johnie, and I have feelings for Johnie. 482 00:23:19,815 --> 00:23:21,733 Yeah, I'm falling for both of them 483 00:23:21,817 --> 00:23:23,693 for different reasons, is it's hard. 484 00:23:23,777 --> 00:23:25,112 [laughs] 485 00:23:25,195 --> 00:23:27,197 ["Wrecking Ball" playing] 486 00:23:33,120 --> 00:23:35,497 -My love language is sleeping together. -[Maris laughs] 487 00:23:35,580 --> 00:23:38,667 I'll be like, "Hey, can we take a nap together?" That's a love activity. 488 00:23:38,750 --> 00:23:39,835 [chuckles] 489 00:23:39,918 --> 00:23:42,045 [laughs] I mean, actually sleeping together. 490 00:23:42,129 --> 00:23:43,630 Wait, are you done for the day? 491 00:23:43,713 --> 00:23:45,966 No, I have two dates. I'm just, like… 492 00:23:47,050 --> 00:23:48,593 I'm nervous. 493 00:23:48,677 --> 00:23:49,511 [Maris] Yeah. 494 00:23:51,430 --> 00:23:52,472 [Chris] Johnie is great. 495 00:23:52,556 --> 00:23:54,724 -[Carter] Really? -[Izzy] Talking to my top pick? 496 00:23:54,808 --> 00:23:56,560 Do you see yourself marrying her? 497 00:23:56,643 --> 00:23:58,353 [Chris] We just click on so many levels. 498 00:23:58,437 --> 00:24:01,314 And she would make an amazing wife. It's getting real. [chuckles] 499 00:24:01,398 --> 00:24:03,024 In the real world, 500 00:24:03,108 --> 00:24:06,278 the word "marriage" is definitely not something you bring up on date one. 501 00:24:06,361 --> 00:24:08,655 -To every day getting better. -[Carter] Better and better! 502 00:24:08,738 --> 00:24:10,907 [Chris] But it gets really deep really quick here. 503 00:24:10,991 --> 00:24:12,909 Since the beginning of this experiment, 504 00:24:12,993 --> 00:24:16,413 Johnie has been somebody I really enjoy spending time with, 505 00:24:16,913 --> 00:24:19,541 and we just have that kind of spark and connection 506 00:24:19,624 --> 00:24:22,210 that… isn't really describable. 507 00:24:22,294 --> 00:24:23,211 [man] Pods are open! 508 00:24:23,295 --> 00:24:25,464 I definitely think my wife could be 509 00:24:26,715 --> 00:24:28,049 40 feet from me right now. 510 00:24:28,133 --> 00:24:29,885 -Ooh! -[Johnie laughs] 511 00:24:29,968 --> 00:24:33,263 -We have the spa room. -[Chris] Thank God I'm hearing your voice. 512 00:24:33,346 --> 00:24:36,057 Aww. Okay, I gotta take my shoes off for this. 513 00:24:36,141 --> 00:24:37,726 -Yeah. This is-- -[Johnie] I got heels on. 514 00:24:37,809 --> 00:24:39,269 [Chris] I've never been to a spa. 515 00:24:39,352 --> 00:24:41,062 -[Johnie] Ever? -Never. 516 00:24:41,146 --> 00:24:43,815 -[laughing] Here's a mud mask! -Ooh! 517 00:24:43,899 --> 00:24:48,820 I just didn't know that was even a thing. Wait, what do these things do in the back? 518 00:24:48,904 --> 00:24:50,614 [laughing] I'm trying to visualize. 519 00:24:51,781 --> 00:24:52,782 What are you doing? 520 00:24:52,866 --> 00:24:56,495 -I feel like a human Capri-Sun. -[Johnie laughing] 521 00:24:56,578 --> 00:24:57,787 What flavor? 522 00:24:58,371 --> 00:24:59,414 Fruit punch maybe? 523 00:24:59,498 --> 00:25:03,919 -[laughs] I'm gonna pee myself, for real. -[laughs] Don't do that. 524 00:25:04,002 --> 00:25:06,838 -I just snorted. I'm sorry. -[laughing] 525 00:25:10,800 --> 00:25:12,302 You make me laugh. 526 00:25:12,385 --> 00:25:14,554 I'm glad. I love your laugh. 527 00:25:16,306 --> 00:25:18,892 -I already know you like board game night. -Mm-hmm. 528 00:25:18,975 --> 00:25:22,020 We always play this game called Celebrity, 529 00:25:22,103 --> 00:25:25,273 and usually there's about 20 of us playing at the family reunion. 530 00:25:25,357 --> 00:25:28,777 There are certain people who are known to be really bad at it. 531 00:25:28,860 --> 00:25:31,738 -[both laugh] -So we just laugh at them the whole time. 532 00:25:31,821 --> 00:25:33,698 I would fit right in with that. 533 00:25:33,782 --> 00:25:37,661 I can picture you sitting on the couch laughing at everybody with us. 534 00:25:37,744 --> 00:25:39,204 -That's sweet. -[Chris chuckles] 535 00:25:39,287 --> 00:25:42,374 That's not sw-- Why is everything I say so sweet? 536 00:25:42,457 --> 00:25:45,085 -I like it. That's what I want. -Well, I like… 537 00:25:45,168 --> 00:25:49,256 I want you to envision me, like, playing games with your family. 538 00:25:49,339 --> 00:25:50,507 That's sweet. 539 00:25:50,590 --> 00:25:53,426 I do. I think you'd fit right in over there. 540 00:25:54,553 --> 00:25:59,307 I think I've struggled to find someone who's funny and fun, 541 00:25:59,391 --> 00:26:01,142 but also, like, 542 00:26:01,226 --> 00:26:03,603 sensitive and, like, responsible 543 00:26:03,687 --> 00:26:06,690 and, like, a good partner. 544 00:26:06,773 --> 00:26:09,192 [Chris] Well, I hope I check all the lists. 545 00:26:13,029 --> 00:26:15,532 Yeah, I've already told you, like, everything I'm looking for, 546 00:26:15,615 --> 00:26:18,618 you kind of paint that perfect picture. 547 00:26:18,702 --> 00:26:22,163 [Johnie chuckles] I can actually imagine, like, being with you. 548 00:26:23,665 --> 00:26:24,708 [Chris] I'll tell you this. 549 00:26:24,791 --> 00:26:27,252 I have not stopped smiling since I got in here. 550 00:26:28,169 --> 00:26:30,171 Got me feeling some type of way. 551 00:26:30,255 --> 00:26:32,465 [Johnie] Aww, that's sweet. 552 00:26:32,549 --> 00:26:35,093 I'm in love with you, like… 553 00:26:39,681 --> 00:26:44,269 I really do see myself marrying you. 554 00:26:45,353 --> 00:26:49,941 Hopefully, we have, like, 70 years together. 555 00:26:50,025 --> 00:26:51,192 -[Johnie] Aww. -Um… 556 00:26:51,276 --> 00:26:53,111 [Johnie] I can picture 557 00:26:54,779 --> 00:26:57,616 like, a future with you, for sure. 558 00:26:57,699 --> 00:27:04,664 -[pop music playing] -♪ I'll wait for you ♪ 559 00:27:04,748 --> 00:27:07,208 [vocalizing] 560 00:27:08,418 --> 00:27:10,128 I really like Chris. 561 00:27:10,211 --> 00:27:11,796 Like, it always feels easy with him. 562 00:27:11,880 --> 00:27:13,798 It makes a lot of sense. 563 00:27:13,882 --> 00:27:15,759 I can see the future. 564 00:27:15,842 --> 00:27:18,094 I can see, like, how our lives would play out together, 565 00:27:18,887 --> 00:27:23,058 but I definitely feel like a fifth grader with, like, a crush on Izzy. 566 00:27:23,141 --> 00:27:24,309 [laughs] 567 00:27:24,392 --> 00:27:26,728 I don't remember the last time I feel like I had a crush. 568 00:27:26,811 --> 00:27:28,897 What was your upbringing like? 569 00:27:28,980 --> 00:27:31,775 Super strict, sheltered… 570 00:27:33,902 --> 00:27:35,945 My family was all Jehovah Witness. 571 00:27:36,029 --> 00:27:38,114 I was so sheltered and restricted. 572 00:27:38,198 --> 00:27:41,076 As a Jehovah Witness, you're not allowed to be in competitive sports. 573 00:27:41,159 --> 00:27:43,787 I used to have to hide that I played baseball. 574 00:27:43,870 --> 00:27:46,247 We never celebrated any holidays. 575 00:27:46,331 --> 00:27:49,292 We never had any family traditions or anything like that. 576 00:27:49,376 --> 00:27:51,503 Y'all didn't celebrate any holidays? 577 00:27:51,586 --> 00:27:53,213 [Izzy] Nothing. It fucking sucked. 578 00:27:53,296 --> 00:27:55,882 I remember, like, through grade school, 579 00:27:55,965 --> 00:27:58,885 if we had, like, Christmas parties, Valentine's parties, anything, 580 00:27:58,968 --> 00:28:02,639 like, I would either have to get picked up early from school 581 00:28:02,722 --> 00:28:05,892 or sit in a classroom by myself and, like, watch a movie. 582 00:28:05,975 --> 00:28:09,729 Wait, like, they would purposefully separate you because of your religion? 583 00:28:09,813 --> 00:28:11,564 -Yeah. -Oh, damn. 584 00:28:11,648 --> 00:28:13,900 -I remember one time-- -That's so sad. 585 00:28:13,983 --> 00:28:16,069 It was, like, Easter. And all my neighbors were close. 586 00:28:16,152 --> 00:28:17,570 It was a whole bunch of kids. 587 00:28:17,654 --> 00:28:21,366 And one of them was like, "Hey, dude, like, my family's having an Easter thing." 588 00:28:21,449 --> 00:28:23,910 "Come on. We're about to have an Easter egg hunt." 589 00:28:23,993 --> 00:28:26,329 -[Johnie] Aww. -And so I was like, "Cool." 590 00:28:26,413 --> 00:28:29,416 -They were so sweet. They gave me a sack. -[Johnie laughs] 591 00:28:29,499 --> 00:28:32,961 And I'm over there Easter egg hunting, and, like, my dad, 592 00:28:33,044 --> 00:28:35,922 I just see him, like, outside the fence. 593 00:28:36,005 --> 00:28:36,923 [Johnie] Yeah. 594 00:28:37,006 --> 00:28:39,175 And I remember he was so livid. 595 00:28:39,259 --> 00:28:40,969 He, like, yanked me out 596 00:28:41,636 --> 00:28:45,849 and never, like, educated me on why. 597 00:28:45,932 --> 00:28:47,976 So when that had happened, 598 00:28:48,059 --> 00:28:50,520 I was like, "I gotta get out. I'm not gonna stay here." 599 00:28:50,603 --> 00:28:52,897 And I went to my cousin's house. 600 00:28:52,981 --> 00:28:56,025 I'm in shock. And wow, I can't even believe I'm telling you. This is fucking-- 601 00:28:56,109 --> 00:28:58,194 I don't ever tell anybody this story. 602 00:28:58,987 --> 00:29:01,656 I'm, like, you know, venting it out, and I'm telling him. 603 00:29:01,740 --> 00:29:03,658 And just, like, out of nowhere, he just stops me. 604 00:29:03,742 --> 00:29:07,287 [chuckles] He's like, "Do you know that's not your real dad?" 605 00:29:07,370 --> 00:29:08,413 And I was like, 606 00:29:09,372 --> 00:29:12,959 "What?" And I lost my shit. 607 00:29:13,042 --> 00:29:16,463 -You didn't know he wasn't your real dad? -[Izzy] No, I didn't know. 608 00:29:16,546 --> 00:29:18,965 I remember just bawling my eyes out. 609 00:29:19,048 --> 00:29:22,343 -[Johnie] Yeah. -And I felt so lost. 610 00:29:22,427 --> 00:29:23,261 Yeah. 611 00:29:23,344 --> 00:29:25,472 I don't know. It sucks, 'cause you don't really feel 612 00:29:25,555 --> 00:29:28,099 like you have anybody that you can turn to. 613 00:29:28,183 --> 00:29:30,560 Wait, so are you still a Jehovah's Witness? 614 00:29:30,643 --> 00:29:32,562 -Oh, absolutely not. -[Johnie laughs] Okay. 615 00:29:32,645 --> 00:29:35,899 I got my first Christmas tree in 2018. 616 00:29:35,982 --> 00:29:39,360 Girl, best believe I left that thing up till, like, April or May. 617 00:29:39,444 --> 00:29:40,278 [Johnie] Yeah. 618 00:29:40,361 --> 00:29:41,946 I can't wait to be with somebody else 619 00:29:42,030 --> 00:29:44,741 and, like, join their family and join y'all's traditions. 620 00:29:44,824 --> 00:29:47,243 -Yeah. -[Izzy] I wanna be a part of that so bad. 621 00:29:47,327 --> 00:29:48,787 Because I never had it. 622 00:29:48,870 --> 00:29:49,954 [Johnie] Aww. 623 00:29:50,705 --> 00:29:52,248 [laughing] 624 00:29:52,332 --> 00:29:55,001 [Johnie] You can come to my family's next time. 625 00:29:56,878 --> 00:29:58,963 -[Izzy] Like, I'm so into you. -Yeah. 626 00:29:59,047 --> 00:30:02,509 And because you've been married and I've been engaged, 627 00:30:02,592 --> 00:30:05,970 like, I want you to be so fucking certain. 628 00:30:06,054 --> 00:30:06,930 [Johnie] Yeah. 629 00:30:07,013 --> 00:30:09,891 [Izzy] And I wanted you to go through all these other guys… 630 00:30:09,974 --> 00:30:10,809 Yeah. 631 00:30:10,892 --> 00:30:12,769 …and explore and get deep. 632 00:30:12,852 --> 00:30:16,314 And at the end, if you want me, that's what I want. 633 00:30:16,397 --> 00:30:17,232 Right. 634 00:30:18,817 --> 00:30:20,276 -[Izzy] So question. -Yeah. 635 00:30:20,360 --> 00:30:23,655 [Izzy] So far, where we're at, do you see yourself with me? 636 00:30:23,738 --> 00:30:26,199 I don't want any names or specify on anything. 637 00:30:26,282 --> 00:30:28,952 I just need to know how much is left with you. 638 00:30:29,035 --> 00:30:31,621 Yeah, um, so, I will say, like, 639 00:30:31,704 --> 00:30:33,832 I am forming connections, but, like… 640 00:30:34,916 --> 00:30:36,543 you're my second today. 641 00:30:36,626 --> 00:30:40,046 Um, my first is I get along with him really well, 642 00:30:40,129 --> 00:30:43,258 but I'm like, I think it just feels like friendship. 643 00:30:43,341 --> 00:30:44,175 [Izzy] Yeah. 644 00:30:44,259 --> 00:30:45,802 'Cause I really like you. 645 00:30:46,427 --> 00:30:47,428 But, like… 646 00:30:48,054 --> 00:30:51,641 I feel like it was more a feeling with you than, like, a logical thing. 647 00:30:51,724 --> 00:30:54,769 And now, like, the logic is also aligning with the feeling. 648 00:30:54,853 --> 00:30:55,937 I agree. Yeah. 649 00:30:56,020 --> 00:30:58,648 I know there's guys out there that like you. 650 00:30:58,731 --> 00:31:00,650 -[Johnie] Hmm. -I need someone vulnerable. 651 00:31:00,733 --> 00:31:03,653 I want you to tell me like, "Dude, I fucking want you." 652 00:31:04,445 --> 00:31:05,363 Well, I'm here for you. 653 00:31:07,574 --> 00:31:08,658 It's you. 654 00:31:08,741 --> 00:31:10,410 You know. You know. 655 00:31:10,493 --> 00:31:13,246 -[pop music playing] -♪ Can we live on forever? ♪ 656 00:31:13,329 --> 00:31:15,164 ♪ I'd spend it all with you ♪ 657 00:31:15,248 --> 00:31:17,458 ♪ I'd spend it all with you ♪ 658 00:31:23,423 --> 00:31:25,508 [pop music playing] 659 00:31:25,592 --> 00:31:28,928 ♪ You're always on my mind ♪ 660 00:31:31,222 --> 00:31:34,142 ♪ You're never far away… ♪ 661 00:31:34,225 --> 00:31:37,270 [JP] Taylor came along and just swept me off my feet. 662 00:31:38,021 --> 00:31:39,272 I know she's the one. 663 00:31:40,523 --> 00:31:41,774 She loves me for who I am. 664 00:31:43,776 --> 00:31:47,030 It's a good feeling, and I never wanna lose that feeling. 665 00:31:47,739 --> 00:31:49,908 Remove both of your socks using only your teeth. 666 00:31:50,491 --> 00:31:51,659 [grunts] 667 00:31:51,743 --> 00:31:54,287 [laughing] 668 00:31:54,370 --> 00:31:56,247 I can't wait to see this, by the way. 669 00:31:56,331 --> 00:31:57,206 [laughs] 670 00:31:57,290 --> 00:31:58,541 Oh, yeah, here we go. 671 00:32:01,210 --> 00:32:02,253 Almost! 672 00:32:02,337 --> 00:32:04,255 -[JP laughs] -I got it! 673 00:32:04,339 --> 00:32:06,049 [both laugh] 674 00:32:06,132 --> 00:32:09,093 I like holidays. Do you want matching pajamas for Christmas? 675 00:32:09,177 --> 00:32:10,887 -[Taylor] Yeah, I do. -[both laugh] 676 00:32:10,970 --> 00:32:12,972 -[Taylor] Would you do that? -Absolutely. 677 00:32:13,056 --> 00:32:16,434 You know, my mom still tries to get us to sit on Santa's lap. 678 00:32:16,517 --> 00:32:19,520 -[chuckles] -I always felt weird. I'd be like, "Hi!" 679 00:32:19,604 --> 00:32:21,439 He's like, "Hi, what do you want for Christmas?" 680 00:32:21,522 --> 00:32:25,109 I'm like, "Like, a man. A boyfriend, if you can do that." 681 00:32:25,193 --> 00:32:26,110 [laughs] 682 00:32:26,194 --> 00:32:28,529 I'll dress up as Santa. You can sit on my lap. 683 00:32:28,613 --> 00:32:29,739 [laughs] Perfect. 684 00:32:29,822 --> 00:32:31,824 [pop music playing] 685 00:32:41,000 --> 00:32:42,377 -Hello. -[JP] Hey, what's up? 686 00:32:42,460 --> 00:32:44,128 -Hi, sugar butt! -What's up, sugar? 687 00:32:44,212 --> 00:32:45,838 [Taylor chuckles] How's it going? 688 00:32:45,922 --> 00:32:47,548 It's going. Did you eat lunch? 689 00:32:47,632 --> 00:32:50,051 [Taylor] I ate earlier. I had a roll and a brownie. 690 00:32:50,134 --> 00:32:52,178 [laughing] 691 00:32:52,261 --> 00:32:54,097 -[Taylor] I missed you. -Me too. 692 00:32:54,681 --> 00:32:55,890 [laughs] 693 00:32:56,516 --> 00:32:57,642 [sighs] 694 00:32:58,518 --> 00:33:01,020 Taylor, um, 695 00:33:01,771 --> 00:33:04,399 uh, from the moment you walked into my pod, 696 00:33:04,482 --> 00:33:07,276 I just knew there was something so special about you. 697 00:33:09,278 --> 00:33:11,698 Uh, at the time, I couldn't really put my finger on it, 698 00:33:12,323 --> 00:33:16,202 but, uh, as the days went on and the conversations got longer, 699 00:33:16,285 --> 00:33:18,871 I knew that I was talking to the woman I was destined to be with. 700 00:33:18,955 --> 00:33:20,081 [chuckles] 701 00:33:20,164 --> 00:33:21,499 [clicks tongue] Um… 702 00:33:23,209 --> 00:33:26,629 [voice breaking] You're sweeter than sugar, super genuine 703 00:33:26,713 --> 00:33:28,381 and the most amazing woman I've ever met. 704 00:33:29,215 --> 00:33:31,759 -[sniffles, sighs] -[laughs] 705 00:33:31,843 --> 00:33:35,888 [JP] Uh, that is something I've been searching for my entire life, 706 00:33:35,972 --> 00:33:37,348 but I could never find. 707 00:33:37,974 --> 00:33:39,976 [exhales] Never till now. 708 00:33:41,936 --> 00:33:44,147 -I love you, sugar. -[Taylor gasps] 709 00:33:46,315 --> 00:33:48,026 [JP] Taylor McKinsey-Roo… 710 00:33:50,403 --> 00:33:51,571 will you marry me? 711 00:33:58,661 --> 00:34:00,663 I will! [laughs] 712 00:34:00,747 --> 00:34:01,748 [sniffles] 713 00:34:03,791 --> 00:34:05,793 [both laugh] 714 00:34:05,877 --> 00:34:07,712 [claps] I love you so much. 715 00:34:07,795 --> 00:34:09,380 -I love you too. -[Taylor laughs] 716 00:34:09,464 --> 00:34:11,841 That was so sweet! [laughing] 717 00:34:12,759 --> 00:34:15,720 -I wish I could give you a hug right now. -I know. Me too. 718 00:34:15,803 --> 00:34:18,264 -Oh, I love you. -[JP] I love you too. 719 00:34:19,974 --> 00:34:22,351 -Oh, my God, I'm freaking out. -[both laugh] 720 00:34:23,061 --> 00:34:26,439 [Taylor] I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. 721 00:34:26,522 --> 00:34:27,356 Same. 722 00:34:28,107 --> 00:34:30,693 -You are my-- like, an answered prayer. -[JP] Oh. 723 00:34:31,486 --> 00:34:32,820 -Okay? -[JP] Okay. 724 00:34:32,904 --> 00:34:34,947 And I love you, and I'll love you forever. 725 00:34:35,531 --> 00:34:37,325 I love you too. And I'll love you forever also. 726 00:34:37,408 --> 00:34:39,494 Whoo! [chuckles] 727 00:34:39,577 --> 00:34:40,953 [laughs] 728 00:34:41,037 --> 00:34:44,165 -[pop music playing] -[vocalizing] 729 00:34:44,248 --> 00:34:46,250 [women shouting] 730 00:34:49,712 --> 00:34:52,048 -[Josh] She gave you a rock? -[Milton] What you think it is? 731 00:34:52,131 --> 00:34:54,342 [Josh] I can't tell if it's a muscovite or something. 732 00:34:54,425 --> 00:34:55,468 You think it's muscovite? 733 00:34:55,551 --> 00:34:59,847 I'm thinking, like, maybe biotite just because, like, the color. [laughs] 734 00:34:59,931 --> 00:35:02,683 [Chris] Yeah, I got those flowers. The white daisies. 735 00:35:02,767 --> 00:35:04,602 A small gift, a little gesture. 736 00:35:05,478 --> 00:35:06,979 I feel like with Johnie, 737 00:35:07,063 --> 00:35:11,359 I do see a future with her. I see a very happy, loving marriage. 738 00:35:11,442 --> 00:35:14,946 Um, and every morning I wake up excited to talk to her. 739 00:35:15,488 --> 00:35:17,949 I came here to find a wife and get married. 740 00:35:18,032 --> 00:35:20,576 I wanna find my best friend forever. 741 00:35:21,160 --> 00:35:25,289 When you feel it, you know it. And I'm just so certain about Johnie. 742 00:35:27,375 --> 00:35:29,335 [Johnie] Wow. Hello? 743 00:35:29,418 --> 00:35:30,503 How are you doing? 744 00:35:31,003 --> 00:35:33,631 I am doing pretty good. 745 00:35:34,132 --> 00:35:35,675 [Chris] That's good to hear. 746 00:35:35,758 --> 00:35:37,677 -[Johnie] Um… -Just pretty good though? 747 00:35:38,636 --> 00:35:41,722 [Johnie] I do see it being, like, so easy with you. 748 00:35:42,431 --> 00:35:43,891 I like you a lot. 749 00:35:44,976 --> 00:35:47,895 I see how everything lines up with you. 750 00:35:48,563 --> 00:35:50,565 I really had to 751 00:35:51,357 --> 00:35:54,902 think about where I'm at. 752 00:35:57,488 --> 00:35:58,698 Um… 753 00:36:01,492 --> 00:36:03,703 I do feel like, emotionally, 754 00:36:03,786 --> 00:36:07,456 I have a stronger connection with someone else. 755 00:36:11,669 --> 00:36:16,174 And I can't be torn between two people anymore. 756 00:36:21,721 --> 00:36:22,638 [Chris] Um… 757 00:36:24,348 --> 00:36:26,184 -I appreciate it. -[Johnie] Mm-hmm. 758 00:36:28,853 --> 00:36:32,064 [Chris] I want you to know that I really did enjoy 759 00:36:32,148 --> 00:36:33,858 all of our time together. 760 00:36:35,651 --> 00:36:40,114 And I think you really, truly are an amazing and wonderful person. 761 00:36:41,240 --> 00:36:43,034 I think the same thing about you. 762 00:36:45,870 --> 00:36:48,164 And I'm sorry, like… 763 00:36:48,247 --> 00:36:50,625 [Chris chuckles] You don't have to say sorry. It's okay. 764 00:36:50,708 --> 00:36:55,588 Well, I am just sorry that we're ending this way. 765 00:36:58,132 --> 00:37:01,344 It doesn't feel good on this end either. 766 00:37:03,304 --> 00:37:06,015 But I hope that… 767 00:37:06,724 --> 00:37:09,268 you find what you're looking for in here. 768 00:37:15,608 --> 00:37:16,609 [Chris] Mm-hmm. 769 00:37:18,527 --> 00:37:20,780 [clicks tongue] Well, 770 00:37:21,530 --> 00:37:23,658 um, good luck to you. 771 00:37:25,076 --> 00:37:25,910 And you don't… 772 00:37:26,827 --> 00:37:30,289 [laughs] Uh, you don't have to stay in here anymore. Thank you. 773 00:37:30,373 --> 00:37:32,166 [Johnie] Okay. All right. 774 00:37:33,209 --> 00:37:34,210 Bye, Chris. 775 00:37:34,710 --> 00:37:40,341 -[pop music playing] -♪ Can't keep holding on ♪ 776 00:37:41,008 --> 00:37:46,514 ♪ You know, the light, it is gone ♪ 777 00:37:46,597 --> 00:37:48,391 [vocalizing] 778 00:37:48,474 --> 00:37:53,437 ♪ The weight is too heavy to hold… ♪ 779 00:37:53,521 --> 00:37:54,355 [sniffles] 780 00:37:55,356 --> 00:37:59,277 ♪ You know it's okay to let go… ♪ 781 00:37:59,360 --> 00:38:00,444 [sniffles] 782 00:38:01,946 --> 00:38:03,572 [sighs] 783 00:38:04,073 --> 00:38:05,741 [sniffles] 784 00:38:09,662 --> 00:38:11,122 [sniffles] 785 00:38:12,540 --> 00:38:15,084 I was really confident 786 00:38:15,167 --> 00:38:19,839 in who I wanted to propose to and get married to. 787 00:38:19,922 --> 00:38:20,881 [sniffles] 788 00:38:21,674 --> 00:38:23,968 And that was always Johnie. 789 00:38:24,051 --> 00:38:26,429 Johnie was the person that I really thought 790 00:38:26,512 --> 00:38:29,390 I was gonna start a life with. 791 00:38:29,974 --> 00:38:31,517 [sighs] 792 00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:33,811 I just wanna find 793 00:38:34,979 --> 00:38:38,190 the person who loves me for me. 794 00:38:38,858 --> 00:38:42,194 It's a shitty feeling, feeling like you're not enough. 795 00:38:42,987 --> 00:38:45,239 It's like losing a best friend. 796 00:38:48,075 --> 00:38:50,161 [sighs] 797 00:38:50,244 --> 00:38:51,495 [liquid sloshes] 798 00:38:54,540 --> 00:38:57,668 [sighs, sniffles] 799 00:38:59,128 --> 00:39:01,464 [Johnie] I have been able to picture a future with him. 800 00:39:02,048 --> 00:39:04,300 I was, like, it all makes sense, and it would be so easy, 801 00:39:04,383 --> 00:39:08,054 and I was like, but I have a stronger emotional connection with someone else. 802 00:39:08,137 --> 00:39:11,807 It's hard. I mean, it's not easy doing this, going through this. 803 00:39:11,891 --> 00:39:14,727 -[Lydia mutters] -[Johnie] Ooh, I feel bad. 804 00:39:14,810 --> 00:39:18,314 It's okay, baby, but remember you did what was best for you. 805 00:39:22,234 --> 00:39:23,194 [Chris sniffles] 806 00:39:26,572 --> 00:39:27,448 You good, bro? 807 00:39:28,449 --> 00:39:29,700 Want a drink? 808 00:39:32,078 --> 00:39:33,788 -[JP] Sorry, bro. -[Josh] Come on, man. 809 00:39:37,333 --> 00:39:38,292 Fuck. 810 00:39:39,377 --> 00:39:41,087 I did not expect this. 811 00:39:41,754 --> 00:39:44,840 I'm sitting there crying like that. I'm a freaking idiot. 812 00:39:47,593 --> 00:39:49,678 If she knew, she knew. Can't blame her. 813 00:39:51,097 --> 00:39:51,931 [JP] Yeah. 814 00:39:52,014 --> 00:39:53,474 [pop music playing] 815 00:39:53,557 --> 00:39:55,976 ♪ If you want loyalty ♪ 816 00:39:56,060 --> 00:39:59,188 ♪ Promise me You would always be good to me… ♪ 817 00:39:59,271 --> 00:40:00,648 [Stacy] Okay, I got it. 818 00:40:01,607 --> 00:40:03,526 -Bye-bye! -[woman] Have fun. 819 00:40:03,609 --> 00:40:06,904 -Hey! Get that ring on that finger! -[Johnie laughs] 820 00:40:06,987 --> 00:40:07,822 Okay? 821 00:40:08,572 --> 00:40:11,534 ♪ You came in and made it all right ♪ 822 00:40:11,617 --> 00:40:14,203 -[Johnie] Hi! -[Izzy] Hi, how are you? 823 00:40:14,286 --> 00:40:16,247 [Johnie] Good. So… 824 00:40:17,915 --> 00:40:20,543 I was debating telling you this. 825 00:40:20,626 --> 00:40:21,585 Just do it. 826 00:40:22,086 --> 00:40:25,214 I cut off things with my number two today. 827 00:40:25,798 --> 00:40:27,883 Yeah, I, uh, heard about it. 828 00:40:27,967 --> 00:40:29,552 I wasn't there to witness it. 829 00:40:29,635 --> 00:40:31,262 [Johnie] Yeah. Wait, what does that mean? 830 00:40:31,345 --> 00:40:33,639 Witness what? Like, he was upset? 831 00:40:33,722 --> 00:40:36,058 -[Izzy] Mm-hmm. -Fuck. 832 00:40:39,019 --> 00:40:39,854 [Izzy] Yeah. 833 00:40:40,438 --> 00:40:43,107 [Johnie] Yeah, I thought it was gonna be easier. 834 00:40:43,732 --> 00:40:44,608 It's fucking hard. 835 00:40:44,692 --> 00:40:46,652 I think he was a really nice person. 836 00:40:46,735 --> 00:40:48,320 [Izzy] He's really genuine. 837 00:40:48,404 --> 00:40:50,948 I know that. That's why I liked him. 838 00:40:51,031 --> 00:40:55,411 To end things with him and then hear he was torn up about it 839 00:40:55,494 --> 00:40:56,412 feels bad. 840 00:40:56,495 --> 00:40:58,539 [Izzy] You have a good heart. I can tell. 841 00:40:59,832 --> 00:41:02,376 Just remember, it's about you at the end, you know. 842 00:41:02,460 --> 00:41:03,294 I know. 843 00:41:03,377 --> 00:41:06,922 It is a lifelong potential decision here. 844 00:41:07,006 --> 00:41:07,923 I know. 845 00:41:09,133 --> 00:41:11,677 I mean, in some ways, 846 00:41:11,760 --> 00:41:14,013 that relationship was 847 00:41:15,014 --> 00:41:16,223 the safer option. 848 00:41:17,057 --> 00:41:19,310 I didn't feel what I feel for you. 849 00:41:19,393 --> 00:41:22,646 And you're my only person right now. [chuckles] 850 00:41:25,691 --> 00:41:29,737 I think the biggest fear I struggle with 851 00:41:29,820 --> 00:41:32,072 is feeling like you're not good enough. 852 00:41:32,156 --> 00:41:35,201 [sighs] That's how I feel. I hate rejection. 853 00:41:35,284 --> 00:41:37,786 Are you afraid that I would see you and then reject you? 854 00:41:37,870 --> 00:41:39,413 Mm-hmm. 855 00:41:39,497 --> 00:41:40,498 I don't think so. 856 00:41:41,207 --> 00:41:43,876 We built the emotional connection first. 857 00:41:44,543 --> 00:41:46,962 I didn't even talk to anybody about anything physical. 858 00:41:47,046 --> 00:41:48,130 Yeah, I haven't either. 859 00:41:48,714 --> 00:41:50,466 [Izzy] Is it gonna matter to you? 860 00:41:51,008 --> 00:41:54,929 Hmm. No, I don't think so. Like, I'm nervous about it, aren't you? 861 00:41:57,264 --> 00:41:59,892 Honestly, like, not really. 862 00:41:59,975 --> 00:42:02,686 You're not nervous about them seeing you, 863 00:42:02,770 --> 00:42:04,355 and you're not nervous about seeing them? 864 00:42:04,438 --> 00:42:08,400 Oh, I mean, of course, I'm definitely nervous about, like, anybody seeing me. 865 00:42:08,484 --> 00:42:11,570 But, like, I'm not nervous to see the other person. 866 00:42:12,696 --> 00:42:15,241 -I just wanna be loved unconditionally. -Mm. 867 00:42:15,324 --> 00:42:17,910 I just want somebody that will just not fucking give up on me. 868 00:42:17,993 --> 00:42:20,496 I think more than anything, like, that's what I want. 869 00:42:20,579 --> 00:42:24,583 I think that's my biggest insecurities when it comes to relationships. 870 00:42:24,667 --> 00:42:25,501 [Johnie] Yeah. 871 00:42:26,210 --> 00:42:29,630 I'm all-in. But I'm so fucking scared to get abandoned. 872 00:42:29,713 --> 00:42:32,424 Mm-hmm. I am too. 873 00:42:32,508 --> 00:42:34,426 [Izzy] It's actually from my ex-fiance. 874 00:42:34,510 --> 00:42:37,388 I'm not gonna lie to you. That relationship really fucked me up. 875 00:42:38,013 --> 00:42:41,433 I don't think I've ever been so gaslighted in my life before. 876 00:42:41,517 --> 00:42:42,393 [Johnie] Mm-hmm. 877 00:42:43,394 --> 00:42:45,646 And it made me so insecure. 878 00:42:45,729 --> 00:42:49,191 [Johnie] Like, I didn't wanna go into a relationship being, like, 879 00:42:49,275 --> 00:42:50,901 the damaged one. 880 00:42:50,985 --> 00:42:52,653 [Izzy] Mm-hmm. Why is that? 881 00:42:54,238 --> 00:42:56,323 I mean, I'm not. Like, I'm in a good… 882 00:42:56,407 --> 00:42:59,952 Baby, it's all good. Trust me. I get it. 883 00:43:00,035 --> 00:43:03,372 I am really in a good place in my life, 884 00:43:03,956 --> 00:43:07,001 and I am genuinely happy. 885 00:43:07,084 --> 00:43:10,671 But, like, if you hear my past, 886 00:43:10,754 --> 00:43:11,839 I sound like, 887 00:43:13,048 --> 00:43:17,344 uh, like 8,000 walking red flags. You know? 888 00:43:17,428 --> 00:43:20,764 -Have you ever had addiction issues? -[Izzy] Oh, no. Never. 889 00:43:21,307 --> 00:43:24,184 [Johnie] The reason I asked you about the addiction issues 890 00:43:24,268 --> 00:43:27,980 was because my longest relationship 891 00:43:28,063 --> 00:43:30,399 was with someone who struggled with addiction. 892 00:43:32,943 --> 00:43:35,362 After we broke up over the drugs, 893 00:43:35,446 --> 00:43:37,448 fast-forward two years later, 894 00:43:37,990 --> 00:43:39,533 I was in law school. 895 00:43:40,576 --> 00:43:42,995 I was married to someone else. 896 00:43:43,078 --> 00:43:45,331 A girl messaged me on Facebook. 897 00:43:49,126 --> 00:43:53,547 The only person I have ever loved in my life 898 00:43:54,548 --> 00:43:56,383 died of a drug overdose. 899 00:43:59,219 --> 00:44:03,349 That's when shit got rocky with my then-husband as well. 900 00:44:04,850 --> 00:44:07,102 And I just took a step back 901 00:44:07,186 --> 00:44:10,064 from everything in my life 902 00:44:10,147 --> 00:44:13,108 and asked myself, "What am I doing?" 903 00:44:13,192 --> 00:44:15,819 "What do I want?" 904 00:44:15,903 --> 00:44:18,656 "Who am I? What makes me happy?" 905 00:44:18,739 --> 00:44:21,992 And you become very aware of your own mortality. 906 00:44:22,076 --> 00:44:25,829 I never really had that feeling for anyone else. 907 00:44:25,913 --> 00:44:30,000 Like, obviously have been in other relationships that were… [sighs] 908 00:44:31,210 --> 00:44:32,336 Marriage. Yeah. 909 00:44:32,419 --> 00:44:36,799 Yeah. I think I consider him the only person I've ever been in love with. 910 00:44:36,882 --> 00:44:40,219 -[Izzy] Not your ex-husband. Correct? -Right. Yeah. 911 00:44:40,302 --> 00:44:42,680 My ex-husband was basically like a rebound. 912 00:44:43,847 --> 00:44:48,352 And that, coupled with being in a marriage that didn't work out, 913 00:44:48,435 --> 00:44:51,397 leaves me in a very weird space 914 00:44:51,480 --> 00:44:54,274 where I don't wanna make a mistake again. 915 00:44:54,358 --> 00:44:56,026 And I wanna know 916 00:44:56,110 --> 00:44:58,946 that I'm in love with someone before I commit. 917 00:45:03,701 --> 00:45:06,120 [Izzy] I'm sorry that you had to go through that. 918 00:45:06,203 --> 00:45:07,454 [Johnie] Thank you. 919 00:45:07,538 --> 00:45:10,958 It was seven years ago now. 920 00:45:11,041 --> 00:45:13,293 It's something I carry with me. 921 00:45:13,836 --> 00:45:16,964 But at this point, I feel like in a good way, 922 00:45:17,756 --> 00:45:22,845 because most people take things for granted. 923 00:45:32,521 --> 00:45:33,397 [sniffles] 924 00:45:34,356 --> 00:45:36,150 [gasps] And I don't. 925 00:45:37,860 --> 00:45:39,403 And I'm very aware… [sniffles] 926 00:45:41,238 --> 00:45:44,199 …of the risks I take, um, 927 00:45:45,701 --> 00:45:46,535 but… 928 00:45:48,328 --> 00:45:53,250 I do it on purpose because we're not promised tomorrow. 929 00:45:54,543 --> 00:45:56,754 And I don't want to have 930 00:45:57,296 --> 00:45:58,589 any regrets. 931 00:46:03,010 --> 00:46:05,137 -I respect that. -[Johnie sniffles] 932 00:46:05,220 --> 00:46:09,391 So that is why I'm here. [laughs] 933 00:46:09,475 --> 00:46:10,684 And why I'm… 934 00:46:13,395 --> 00:46:17,024 probably a walking red flag. [laughs] 935 00:46:17,107 --> 00:46:19,818 But also deserving of love. 936 00:46:20,486 --> 00:46:23,197 Yeah, of course. We all are. 937 00:46:26,450 --> 00:46:27,576 You're quiet. 938 00:46:32,831 --> 00:46:33,916 Was that too much? 939 00:46:35,375 --> 00:46:37,753 [hesitates] Just processing everything. 940 00:46:39,838 --> 00:46:42,299 -Thank you for sharing that with me. -[Johnie] Mm. 941 00:46:42,966 --> 00:46:44,301 [Izzy] I didn't know any of this. 942 00:46:45,886 --> 00:46:48,514 [Johnie] I know. Does that worry you? 943 00:46:49,264 --> 00:46:50,098 [Izzy] Yes. 944 00:46:56,522 --> 00:46:59,525 You have your issues. I have mine. 945 00:47:01,985 --> 00:47:05,197 It's a little concerning that I feel like you don't wanna… 946 00:47:05,906 --> 00:47:08,617 I feel like you don't wanna talk about it or something. 947 00:47:09,910 --> 00:47:12,871 [Izzy] I don't know what to say 948 00:47:12,955 --> 00:47:14,957 'cause it did catch me off guard. 949 00:47:19,086 --> 00:47:22,965 Do you feel like anyone could ever fill that role? 950 00:47:24,132 --> 00:47:27,594 'Cause that's, like, the only person you've ever been in love with? 951 00:47:28,470 --> 00:47:30,806 [Johnie] Even with how I felt about him, 952 00:47:30,889 --> 00:47:32,474 would I say he was, like, 953 00:47:33,934 --> 00:47:35,561 a good partner to me? 954 00:47:36,144 --> 00:47:39,064 Probably not, so… 955 00:47:39,147 --> 00:47:40,774 [exhales] 956 00:47:42,985 --> 00:47:44,653 Yeah, I definitely think 957 00:47:45,737 --> 00:47:48,824 I'm capable of being in love again, 958 00:47:48,907 --> 00:47:51,827 and that's what I'm looking for. That's why I'm here. 959 00:47:53,662 --> 00:47:55,789 But what if I could feel that way about you? 960 00:47:56,456 --> 00:47:59,835 -Then say something. -[Johnie] I have been. 961 00:48:02,504 --> 00:48:04,798 I'm not judging you for it, 962 00:48:04,882 --> 00:48:09,678 but I'm feeling like I am learning things about you 963 00:48:09,761 --> 00:48:12,347 that I feel like I should have been learning all along. 964 00:48:12,973 --> 00:48:14,308 Now I'm in my head again. 965 00:48:15,642 --> 00:48:18,687 [Johnie] I've told you I'm falling in love with you. 966 00:48:18,770 --> 00:48:23,275 Are there things that we're still gonna be learning about each other? 967 00:48:23,358 --> 00:48:24,276 Absolutely. 968 00:48:24,359 --> 00:48:28,196 Like, if that's a surprise to you, like, it shouldn't be. 969 00:48:30,657 --> 00:48:33,744 I do feel like the ball's in your court at this point. [chuckles] 970 00:48:36,204 --> 00:48:39,333 But I'll tell you again that I'm falling in love with you. 971 00:48:39,416 --> 00:48:42,794 And when I said I haven't felt this in seven years, 972 00:48:43,795 --> 00:48:45,297 now you know what I mean. 973 00:48:46,006 --> 00:48:48,842 And that I'm not just fucking around over here. 974 00:48:50,677 --> 00:48:53,555 But I don't really know what else you want from me at this point, Izzy. 975 00:48:54,056 --> 00:48:56,350 [Izzy] It's not that I want anything from you. 976 00:48:56,433 --> 00:48:58,769 So please don't, like, state it that way. 977 00:48:58,852 --> 00:49:02,648 [Johnie scoffs] You're not giving me anything, and I'm giving you everything. 978 00:49:02,731 --> 00:49:05,817 I'm just processing everything. That's just how I work. 979 00:49:05,901 --> 00:49:07,069 Oh, my God, 980 00:49:07,152 --> 00:49:09,613 this conversation isn't gonna productive. 981 00:49:10,197 --> 00:49:12,074 Yeah, let's just call it a night. 982 00:49:13,659 --> 00:49:15,327 Are you serious, Izzy? 983 00:49:15,410 --> 00:49:18,288 [Izzy] Right now, like, I'm overwhelmed. 984 00:49:21,416 --> 00:49:22,501 Okay. 985 00:49:23,585 --> 00:49:26,588 I wish you would just stop being scared. 986 00:49:26,672 --> 00:49:31,218 I will do everything for you. Just give me a fucking chance. 987 00:49:31,301 --> 00:49:33,762 You do know that, like, your past… 988 00:49:34,846 --> 00:49:36,181 like, it matters to me, 989 00:49:36,264 --> 00:49:38,892 but that's not what's influencing anything. 990 00:49:38,976 --> 00:49:40,936 What matters, Izzy? 991 00:49:44,815 --> 00:49:46,775 Like, if it's not me, I'll accept that, 992 00:49:46,858 --> 00:49:50,404 but I'm telling you that you're it for me. 993 00:49:52,948 --> 00:49:55,242 Take the night, think on it. 994 00:49:55,909 --> 00:49:58,495 If it's all too much for you, that's okay. 995 00:49:58,578 --> 00:50:00,163 But that's where I'm at. 996 00:50:00,664 --> 00:50:02,666 ["Undo Me" by ELKAE playing] 997 00:50:04,334 --> 00:50:07,629 ♪ You don't even try ♪ 998 00:50:07,713 --> 00:50:10,799 ♪ Then start looking through me ♪ 999 00:50:10,882 --> 00:50:12,884 ♪ Undo me ♪ 1000 00:50:14,302 --> 00:50:16,805 Chris seems to care more than Izzy at this point. 1001 00:50:17,472 --> 00:50:19,474 Fuck! Fuck. 1002 00:50:19,558 --> 00:50:21,977 -It's okay. It's okay. Hey. -[Renee] Hey, listen. It's okay. 1003 00:50:22,060 --> 00:50:26,773 No, but I'm like, I let go of the one who really cared. 1004 00:50:26,857 --> 00:50:31,903 When Izzy hears, like, anything somewhat negative, he's, like, scared. 1005 00:50:31,987 --> 00:50:34,781 I said everything I could say. 1006 00:50:34,865 --> 00:50:38,577 -I was calm. I reassured him. -Yeah. 1007 00:50:39,161 --> 00:50:42,122 -[Johnie] I've made how I feel clear. -Yeah. 1008 00:50:42,205 --> 00:50:45,167 [Johnie] And it's either he chooses me or he doesn't. 1009 00:50:50,297 --> 00:50:53,925 Not to be rude. I feel like if he chooses Stacy, he's gonna regret it, 1010 00:50:54,009 --> 00:50:57,971 'cause I don't feel their connection-- I feel like Stacy is his Chris, 1011 00:50:58,055 --> 00:50:59,931 and it's not the same kind of connection. 1012 00:51:00,015 --> 00:51:03,977 And I feel like if he leaves here without me, eventually he'll realize. 1013 00:51:05,020 --> 00:51:06,605 -[Renee] Yeah. -[Lydia] He fucked up. 1014 00:51:06,688 --> 00:51:09,316 And you're right. He's not gonna be happy with her. 1015 00:51:09,399 --> 00:51:10,317 I'm sorry. 1016 00:51:10,400 --> 00:51:13,028 ♪ …start looking through me ♪ 1017 00:51:13,111 --> 00:51:16,698 ♪ Undo me, through me ♪ 1018 00:51:23,371 --> 00:51:27,250 -[dance music playing] -[vocalizing] 1019 00:51:27,334 --> 00:51:29,419 ♪ Nowhere, nowhere that I'd rather… ♪ 1020 00:51:29,503 --> 00:51:30,879 [Taylor] You better watch yourself. 1021 00:51:30,962 --> 00:51:34,049 I'm gonna stand. Okay, let's pretend we're coming out to each other. 1022 00:51:34,132 --> 00:51:36,009 Tell me when the door's open. 1023 00:51:36,093 --> 00:51:39,679 -[Renee] Okay. -[Taylor] Is love really blind? Reveal! 1024 00:51:39,763 --> 00:51:41,973 [laughing] 1025 00:51:42,057 --> 00:51:43,475 -[Paige] Gosh darn it! -Reverse! 1026 00:51:43,558 --> 00:51:47,312 Okay, I think I'm gonna walk. Ah! Why am I being so weird? [gibbers] 1027 00:51:47,395 --> 00:51:49,231 -[Paige] Are you nervous? -Yeah. 1028 00:51:49,314 --> 00:51:51,900 And I'm gonna give a big hug! 1029 00:51:51,983 --> 00:51:54,611 -I'm gonna… -[both moaning] 1030 00:51:54,694 --> 00:51:56,446 -Now get on your knee. -Oh, okay. 1031 00:51:57,989 --> 00:51:59,449 [shouts, laughs] 1032 00:51:59,533 --> 00:52:02,410 -Taylor, is it weird to do this? -[chuckles] 1033 00:52:02,994 --> 00:52:05,288 -[women laughing] -Yeah. Go, get back up. [laughs] 1034 00:52:05,372 --> 00:52:07,582 [Taylor] I used to blame myself. Well, maybe I'm not this. 1035 00:52:07,666 --> 00:52:10,210 Maybe I'm not that. Or my family would be like, "You're too picky." 1036 00:52:10,293 --> 00:52:12,754 And now I'm like, "No, I'm not too picky." 1037 00:52:12,838 --> 00:52:13,672 [sniffles] 1038 00:52:13,755 --> 00:52:16,716 JP provides the type of love that I've been looking for, 1039 00:52:16,800 --> 00:52:18,635 hmm, for a very long time now. 1040 00:52:18,718 --> 00:52:20,887 -[pop music playing] -♪ From the tears of the sky… ♪ 1041 00:52:20,971 --> 00:52:22,097 [sniffles] 1042 00:52:22,180 --> 00:52:25,725 Um, and now here I am. I'm gonna meet my husband. [sniffles] 1043 00:52:25,809 --> 00:52:29,396 So… [sighs] 1044 00:52:30,272 --> 00:52:31,106 Anyways… 1045 00:52:31,189 --> 00:52:33,733 ♪ There's no other… ♪ 1046 00:52:33,817 --> 00:52:34,943 [exhales] 1047 00:52:35,026 --> 00:52:38,738 ♪ Our destiny's gaze… ♪ 1048 00:52:38,822 --> 00:52:42,200 Falling in love with someone I've never seen before is actually kind of freeing. 1049 00:52:42,284 --> 00:52:43,201 [exhales] 1050 00:52:44,786 --> 00:52:47,581 Because this experiment has taught me and shown me that true love 1051 00:52:47,664 --> 00:52:48,874 is really what's on the inside. 1052 00:52:48,957 --> 00:52:51,793 She loves me for who I am, and I love her for who she is. 1053 00:52:53,628 --> 00:52:54,462 [gasps] 1054 00:52:55,130 --> 00:52:57,632 I definitely, like, thought about JP all night, 1055 00:52:57,716 --> 00:52:58,758 literally couldn't sleep. 1056 00:52:58,842 --> 00:53:04,139 He is the best man that I've ever met, and I feel like I deserve a JP. 1057 00:53:04,222 --> 00:53:05,390 Oh, my God, 1058 00:53:05,473 --> 00:53:06,391 this is insane. 1059 00:53:07,017 --> 00:53:09,477 I'm in love with someone that I've never seen before. 1060 00:53:09,561 --> 00:53:10,395 [gasps] 1061 00:53:10,478 --> 00:53:13,023 A lot of people think physical attraction is, like, a huge thing, 1062 00:53:13,106 --> 00:53:15,192 but I don't know what color he is. 1063 00:53:15,275 --> 00:53:18,570 I literally don't know what he looks like. I don't know what he looks like. You know? 1064 00:53:18,653 --> 00:53:21,698 He says it's nothing physical about me, so I don't think it matters to him, 1065 00:53:21,781 --> 00:53:24,701 but I did have a dream last night. 1066 00:53:24,784 --> 00:53:28,371 The guy in my dream had, like, blond hair, and he had, like, tan skin 1067 00:53:28,455 --> 00:53:29,998 and, like, really white teeth. 1068 00:53:30,081 --> 00:53:33,084 I don't know why that was in my dream, but it just was. 1069 00:53:35,795 --> 00:53:37,923 [JP] The anticipation has definitely been killing me, 1070 00:53:38,006 --> 00:53:41,051 just all the excitement and all the build-up that's been going on. 1071 00:53:41,134 --> 00:53:45,055 And as soon as we see each other, I might not know what to say 1072 00:53:45,138 --> 00:53:49,142 and just fumble over my words, and gibberish might come out. 1073 00:53:49,226 --> 00:53:50,852 [sighs] 1074 00:53:50,936 --> 00:53:51,811 But I love her. 1075 00:53:51,895 --> 00:53:53,939 She's one of the most amazing people I've ever met, 1076 00:53:54,022 --> 00:53:56,608 and I just can't wait to finally see her. 1077 00:53:56,691 --> 00:53:57,859 She's my sugar. 1078 00:53:59,277 --> 00:54:02,656 I hope this is the best moment of my life. 1079 00:54:02,739 --> 00:54:03,949 [dramatic music playing] 1080 00:54:04,783 --> 00:54:05,742 [gasps] 1081 00:54:15,335 --> 00:54:16,419 Oh, my God. 1082 00:54:18,463 --> 00:54:20,382 -["Paradise" playing] -♪ Yeah! ♪ 1083 00:54:20,465 --> 00:54:23,260 ♪ You're all I need You're all I ever wanted ♪ 1084 00:54:23,343 --> 00:54:25,720 ♪ Yeah, just you and me ♪ 1085 00:54:25,804 --> 00:54:27,722 ♪ That's paradise, paradise ♪ 1086 00:54:27,806 --> 00:54:30,934 ♪ You're everything, everything I wanted ♪ 1087 00:54:31,017 --> 00:54:33,395 ♪ Oh! Just you and me ♪ 1088 00:54:33,478 --> 00:54:35,397 ♪ Yeah, that's paradise ♪ 1089 00:54:36,982 --> 00:54:39,401 [vocalizing] 1090 00:54:41,486 --> 00:54:43,405 ♪ That's paradise ♪ 1091 00:54:44,489 --> 00:54:46,408 [vocalizing] 1092 00:54:48,493 --> 00:54:51,413 ♪ Yeah, that's paradise ♪