This program me contains strong language
Hands by your side. Sit.
HE EXHALES
SHE EXHALES
For the select few, this process might make them,
but for the majority of these celebrities...
Guards.
...it will completely break them.
Hands. Walk.
Move.
Incoming, let's go.
In this series... Squeeze it in!
...16 celebrity recruits...
Crawl, zip it.
...will leave their glamorous lives behind...
Lay down on the ground! Get in there.
...they will be put through the most gruelling stages of SAS selection...
Down!
...by an elite team of ex-special forces soldiers.
Honesty, integrity, trust,
everything we've installed in you from day one. Everything!
No allowances or exceptions will be made.
Get on your stomach.
I'm not scared of getting dirty,
but I'm going to have to change these.
I can just about open my car door!
Go. Wow, wow, wow, whoa, whoa.
My mum does not want me to do this.
She's scared I'm going to get injured. I think she's really,
really not looking forward to that.
Get in to it. I've seen pressure.
I need support - NOW!
So what I'm going to face on this course is water off a duck's back.
Take him down. Ow.
Like an injured slug.
Lift up your boat.
No other test asks as much...
Ah, ah. You've got it. Let's go.
Well done, ZoZo. ..or means as much...
Well done. ..to the few who make it through.
Welcome to your worst nightmare.
It's a beautiful sunny day in paradise.
Paradise slash hell.
Overnight... SHE SQUEALS
...number 8, Montana Brown was medically withdrawn
after sustaining a serious leg injury returning to base.
We're two thirds of the way. We are.
Of the 16 celebrity recruits that began...
I just keep waking up every day, feeling sick.
...only eight remain.
Let's never come here on holiday again, OK, guys?
MATT LAUGHS
What's wrong with the Cotswolds?
If I was a betting man, at least one more person's going home today.
Do you reckon? 100%.
Get on parade.
Right, do you want to head down?
I will because I walk like a snail with arthritis. Go on.
Go, Zoe. Come on, Zo.
Get your heads up. Quick check of your kit.
We're all good to go.
OK. New phase, new start, both physically and mentally.
Now, you need to find a new ingredient which is grit.
Dig in deep, find a way through it.
When the chips are down, you've had a setback,
it's about going again.
Do you understand what I'm saying? ALL: Yes, staff.
Expect the unexpected.
Go!
Move. Fast, fast, let's go.
Keep going, come on.
SAS selection will put you in a situation
where you'll be surrounded with fear.
And we're looking for how you deal with that.
Keep going. Keep going. Come on.
When we put the recruits through this pressure,
only the ones with extreme determination will survive.
Start with your lower harnesses,
make sure that you cinch these up.
Loose is no use. Tight is right.
For the first task in this phase,
the recruits have been taken to a ravine.
Oh, my God...
All right, are we ready, 13? Yes, sir.
Why on earth I want to do this course where there'll be
a lot of stresses put upon me?
I'll tell you why. I look absolutely cracking in military uniforms.
Let's get those helmets, put them on your dome pieces.
I realise I'll probably be one of the older contestants.
I'm 51.
I think I'm mentally stronger now
than I've probably ever been.
But physically...
...let's see how far it can go.
All right, let's go.
First they must scramble up a steep cliff face...
That's it, keep pulling.
...in 40 degree heat.
I just feel like I'm going to pass out.
Having five kids,
that's definitely changed me.
My life is now about my kids, not about me any more.
Now, listen up, course.
In the Special Operations community,
the kind of missions we get are always super-dangerous.
So you have to pay attention and do exactly as you're told.
We operate at extreme heights.
Really focus and prepare for this next challenge
cos it's no joke.
At the top of the mountain,
the recruits will face a 100-metre wide ravine...
...50 metres above the ground.
Let's go, 6.
Pull yourself along.
To pass the task, they must pull themselves across by hand.
Number 6! Stop.
Once instructed by the DS...
Stand by.
...they must trust their equipment...
Go!
...and release within three seconds.
Good effort, 6.
Good effort, number 6. Well worked.
11, you're on deck.
Fucking hell. Oh, God.
Next to go is recruit number 11, Danielle Lloyd.
Being away from home I will feel exposed, I'll feel vulnerable.
You seem to be crying.
I do feel emotional today, Staff.
Do you? Why?
I just miss home.
Why? Look at this. Look at that.
Go on, then.
I am going to miss my kids,
I'm going to miss my family and I'll be emotional,
but I've got to remember that I'm doing this for them.
Right, you know what you need to do now.
Just walk yourself back. Walk yourself.
Oh, wait. Oh, wait!
Go on, keep going. Long way to go yet.
Oh, fuck!
Go on, number 11, keep working.
Oh...!
Number 11, stop.
Stand by!
I'm safe.
Go! Get a fucking move on.
Oh!
Oh, fuck.
She was like a cat caught in the headlights.
I was shitting myself, but I just breathed through it.
Oh, God, that was...something else.
Right, are you good? Yes, staff.
Right, enjoy the ride.
Next up is recruit number 10, Amber Turner.
There you go, that's it.
Good effort.
I don't want people to take one look at me
and just think that I'm weak,
that I'm just some girlie girl
that is just here to give it a go.
Oh, I'm stuck. Go on.
I think they couldn't be more wrong.
That's it, rapid movement with the hands, hand over hand.
There is always a part of me that worries that am I going to give up,
am I going to just think I can't do this any more?
Number 10, stop.
I'm going to just need to pull myself together and not stress out.
Go!
Hurry up. It's not going.
Let's go.
It's not going down.
Pull the orange handle.
Fucking hell.
Oh. Ow.
Fail, number 10.
Come on.
Bit awkward, but you've just got to grizz through it.
You're on your own now, just listening to the words of command.
The idea of the task is, if you were in the situation
where you had to release and drop, would you be able to do it?
It's the ultimate confidence test because equipment can fail.
Keep going.
I remember one time where the only option I had
was to cut away and take a fall.
Stop.
It was that moment of, shit, I've really got to do this.
Stand by.
You have to release against all things in your head
that logically say, "Don't."
Listen in.
Go!
So when I fell, fucking felt like I was falling forever.
Go...
Go.
And the moment you feel the snap and suspension again was like, Wow,
my life's just been given back to me.
Whew. Jesus.
But you've got to have the determination, the grit,
to go, "I've got to do It."
Do not touch anything other than this line
until you hear the word, "Standby".
Next up is comedian, number 13, Zoe Lyons.
I've had to develop a thick skin as a comedian.
So men shouting in my face,
sleep deprivation and shit food,
that was the first five years of me doing stand-up.
Got through that, how hard can this be?
How do I not stab my hand in this thing?
A bit of resilience is required, grit. Ah!
But I have my limits.
I have a proper fear of heights and I'm going to have to
really...bite my lip and get through it.
Argh! Move that hand
that is next to the pulley and keep moving it. Where to?!
Argh! Hand over hand!
Oi, 13. Yeah. Listen. Stop making noises for 30 seconds.
Listen. SHE SQUEALS
Hand over hand. So you move the hand that's near the pulley.
My hand is trapped, staff.
Lean further back.
SHE YELLS, WINCES
I've got it, staff. I've got it, I've got it.
Don't let go. Don't let go. Don't let go!
Number 13. Stop.
Stand by.
Stand by, number 13. What does that mean?
Holy shit.
Go!
Holy shit.
Breathe, Zoe.
Just breathe.
SHE YELLS
Shitting hell.
She fucked that up, didn't she?
Well done, ZoZo.
That was terrifying.
I thought I would die. Yeah.
All the way round to the right, go. Quickly.
My feet are in bits.
You all right, James? No.
I know your feet hurt. Mine are fucking killing.
It's hard. They want to break us, they want to break you.
What they want to see is that you're strong enough.
Just show that you've got grit and you're resilient.
Like, this is what it's all about.
Mentally, you go from one extreme to the other, innit? I know.
BIRD CHIRPS: Ee-oh!
What is that noise? Cos I hear it a lot. ZOE: It's the Fuck You bird.
BIRD CHIRPS "Fuck you".
LAUGHTER
Fuck you! It's got wings that are shaped like that.
That's literally what it sounds like.
Moving into the new phase which is grit.
The task today was the Temple Ravine crossing,
which is all about digging deep,
being pushed and mentally, giving it everything you've got.
Number 11 was slow and emotional and I know she's scared of heights,
but the whole point of this is to fucking harness that
and overcome it and she didn't.
She was a fucking emotional wreck. Slow and emotional.
Roger.
I really do think, going forward,
the next bit's really going to be a struggle for her.
Hasn't passed much? But she's fucking still here.
THEY CHUCKLE
And I think she's surprised herself, she's surprised us. Definitely.
She is the one you never saw coming.
And then 13, came up visibly scared, as was expected.
She knows she's the bottom of the pack when it comes
to physical ability.
As soon as she left terra firm a,
she was squealing like a banshee.
There was all sorts going on.
It was a mess from the beginning, if I'm honest. Yeah, it was.
I think tonight it would be worth having a chat with her,
because I think she's been grafting.
We've all talked she's been grafting.
She's not going to be a front runner.
Be interesting to see how long she's going to last. Yeah, definitely.
I'm not sure how much she'll have in the
tank when we start turning up the heat. She looked fragile. Yeah.
WHISPERED: Doesn't feel good.
Recruit number 13.
Recruit 13.
Coming, staff.
Concerned about number 13, Zoe...
Keep pushing, 13. Hands up against there.
Oh, fuck. Oh, Jesus.
...the DS want to dig deeper into her background.
Hands by your side.
You all right? Yeah.
Having a fucking bad hair day or what?
Oh, yeah, every day, you know.
It's been a fucking bad hair day for a while.
You look like a sack of shit. Thank you very much, staff.
You're welcome. How are you feeling?
Truthfully, how are you feeling?
Erm...
My feet are fucked.
I'm really struggling.
Everything else is holding together reasonably well for...
...a relatively old bird.
There was times going up that mountain, I hit two or three walls.
Yeah. Yeah. It's tricky. It's really tricky.
I really struggle, so it takes more energy for me.
Mentally...
Yeah, a few wobbles.
Why you here? Why did you come here?
Oh, I want to see if I have the resilience I...
would like to think I have.
I had a very, very tough year last year
and properly hit sort of rock-bottom.
So what happened?
I guess you would, sort of, it was a classic, sort of...
...mid-life crisis stroke breakdown and...
...everything fell away. And it's taken a lot to build myself back up.
what led to all that?
I had marital problems, my wife and I split up for a while.
We spent a year apart.
The stress of it all, my hair fell out, clearly.
And to go onstage, and not feel or look like yourself,
I found it very hard. I found it very hard.
Because I didn't feel or look like myself any more.
I think sometimes it takes stripping everything away
and having a proper kick in the tits
to appreciate what you've got and what you can be.
And now I'm finding out who I am.
I think if it was just on grit and resilience,
you'd be fucking near the top. Yeah. Mm-hm.
However...
...to get to the end of this course is going to be difficult.
Really difficult. I'm not saying you can't do it,
but it is going to be difficult.
It's going to feel like fucking horrendously hideously
fucking, "I don't want to be here". I've been there.
Yeah. Exactly. You've been to the dark places.
We can see you're breaking down body-wise. Yeah.
That's a fact. That's just part and parcel, I mean...
Just dig deep and keep going, all right? Yeah.
Thank you, staff. Thank you.
Guard. DOOR OPENS
Quite an honest little chat in there.
It's just whether this is going to be a bridge too far for her. Yeah.
Get the feet sorted, yeah. Will do, staff. Good effort, number 13.
Thank you. Keep your chin up. will do.
All of the wheels came off my life.
I felt so depressed, it hurt.
I was struggling mentally, a lot.
And as a result, most of my hair fell out.
They just said look after your feet.
No shit, Sherlock!
I'm quite proud of the person I've become.
I'm quite proud of being a strong 51-year-old woman.
But I really want to discover what I've got within myself.
And I really, really want to see how far I can go.
People often say there's a roller-coaster of emotions,
but fuck me, I feel like an entire theme park.
The recruits have been asleep for just four hours.
Everything on selection is done with surprise.
You have to expect the unexpected, at any time.
Because, in our world, we don't know when the enemy's going to attack.
METAL CRASHES Wakey-wakey. Let's go.
Let's go. Five minutes on parade. Let's go.
Wakey-wakey.
There comes a point in the course where we will weed out...
One minute.
...the recruits that do not have the grit to go forward.
My God, I feel uncomfortable.
Don't be last!
We will do a be a sting that will not stop
until the weaker recruits quit.
Get your heads up.
When I say go, you will sprint over your shoulder to the back there. Go.
Pick up your equipment. Get in position.
The first exercise is going to be press ups.
Stand by. Exercise begins.
Recruits must complete a series of physically demanding exercises...
Just block it out and take the pain.
...aimed at breaking their resolve.
Last 40 seconds, push them out.
Number 13, Zoe,
is the oldest recruit on the course.
I was never particularly competitive or sporty.
I was always last to be chosen for netball.
And rightly so. I was shit.
That's it. Let's go, 13. Stay in the fight. Let's go, 13.
I am not a sprinter in this world.
I am a real plodder, but I won't give up.
Next change, stand by.
Change.
SHE SIGHS Number 11, come on.
Stop fucking feeling sorry for yourself.
Struggling to keep up is recruit number 11, Danielle.
When I told my family that I was going on this course,
they just started to laugh a little bit at first.
And then, they were like, "Well, you'd best start training,
"cos it's not going to be easy!"
Deeper, three. Deeper, three.
Give me five good ones.
But they know that I'm not going to give up.
Four. Five. Recover, run in place.
Number 2, fucking around.
When we're be a sting the recruits,
what we're looking for is that ability
to overlook all pain and emotion.
Some of you want to be here!
When you're in battle,
you will find yourself in some of the darkest places.
Ten seconds!
But you have to be able to thrive there.
You have to be able to dig deep
and be comfortable in those horrendously difficult situations.
Keep going. Keep going. Going to be a long night.
Catch it up, number 2. Catch it up.
30 minutes into the be a sting...
Get it up there. Get it up there!
...number 2, James Argent...
Pick it back up. Get it up!
...is falling behind. Get it up.
I've gone through so, so much mentally and physically in my life
and especially the last few years,
and I've battled all these demons.
Down lower. Down!
So why can't I battle this?
I'm going to throw you right on your back if you don't go down.
Down!
I've never pushed myself past the pain barrier.
As soon as I get to a point where I feel knackered
or slightly uncomfortable, then I stop and I'm done.
Get off your knees, number 2.
I just don't want to embarrass myself or...
...or let anyone down.
Get off your knees.
Everyone else is suffering because you can't get in the position.
Get your fucking knees off the floor.
That's another two minutes.
Everybody say, "Thank you, number 2."
SHE GROANS Thank you, number 2.
With number 2, James, failing to keep up... Get on with it.
...the be a sting intensifies.
Oh, God, what's he doing?
Get off your knees.
We're waiting for number 2 to finish his exercise.
Everyone else will suffer.
JAMES: Oh, for fuck's sake, I've done it.
Get off your fucking knees, and do as you're told!
Stand up.
Stand by. Change!
All the way down.
Seven, eight...
All the way down.
Start again and do them properly.
Don't give up.
16, 17.
Start the exercise again.
Amber, I'm done. Sorry. I love you. I'm done.
What do you mean, you're fucking done? I'm done.
You done? Yeah. Oh, I dunno.
Gimme... Gimme the armband. Gimme the armband.
I'm so sorry, Amber.
Go over to the Doc's room.
Number 2, James, has voluntarily withdrawn from the course.
Get off this parade square. Sorry.
HE BREATHES SHAKILY
Oh, get me out of here. Fucking hell.
When I say go, back into the centre. Go.
Go. Come on, let's fucking move.
I'll go round.
All the way up. Stand still.
OK. Here ends the lesson.
There's a hard-core fucking team now.
It will get harder...
...so stay in the game.
Stay focused. Good effort.
Go!
Well done, babe.
Oh, bless you.
Well done, everybody getting through. Well done, Zoe.
Well done, Zo.
Well done, Zoe, wow.
Christ Almighty, you're a tank.
How're you feeling? It's been a long journey, eh?
HE SOBS Hey, number 2.
Hold your head up.
Every journey for everybody is different. Yeah. OK?
You did the right, honourable thing to leave then.
You've done amazing, you've had a fucking great run.
There's less than half the course out there.
All right? Yeah. It's been a pleasure to have you here.
Your fucking health's important.
Thank you so much.
Thanks for having me. Listen, you've had a good run, man.
Thank you so much. Thank you. I appreciate it, thanks for having me.
Get yourself home. Thank you. All the best. Bye, mate. Thank you.
If I don't go as far as what I dreamed of or hoped,
I'm not going to let that knock me back.
Just over a year ago I was, I was like 27st.
So for me to even take part in something like this
is just an achievement in itself.
Number 2, James, is the ninth recruit to leave the course.
Just seven remain.
Oh, sorry, everyone,
for the sound and the fury, signifying nothing.
You OK, Zo?
Living my best life, thank you, Danielle.
How are you doing this morning?
I've had a cry. Feel a bit better.
I just feel emotionally fucked. I just wanna go home.
No, get that thought out cos you're so close now.
Think about everything you've been through.
Physically, you've got this. No bits and bobs have dropped off.
Feel like I'm going to break down.
But you're not, are you?
Great-looking kid, you can do anything.
Just miss my house, miss my kids.
I really, really believe you can do it. Thanks, Zo.
Yeah. Good meeting.
I can't believe we're having this company meeting while I'm having
a shit, but thanks for coming.
Thanks for the pep talk.
Feel like a millionaire CEO right now.
Everyone out with your bergens!
Jesus. Fuck's sake.
All out with your bergens.
Come on, what's going on? There's some serious issues
if 13's out here before anyone else.
Come on, then.
Take your bergens off, place them down in front of you.
Neatly.
Fucking into the death throes of this course now.
You can see it starting to emulate life
in the special forces.
There are long periods of you lot doing nothing.
And then, all of a sudden, you have to fucking switch it on,
and all the time you're dealing with different emotions,
because war fighting, as far as we're concerned,
is about being uncomfortable, and embracing it,
loving it, thriving in the dark places.
That's what we're doing.
When I say go, bergens onto one shoulder
and you are going to get in the water.
Go! Let's go, let's get in the water.
To further test the recruits' physical resilience...
Swim into that nasty shit. Go.
...the DS have devised a brutal 5km race...
Kick like a frog. Let's go!
...through the Vietnamese jungle.
Everybody wants to be special forces,
so you have to do special forces shit. Let's go.
Selection's designed to challenge you physically.
Come on! Let's go!
As you're more exhausted...
Teddy, don't panic, it's fine.
Hold the Bergen in front of you and kick.
...find out who you really are. Will you fight to the end?
Give him some fucking support. That's it.
Or do you just not have what it takes to be one of us?
Put it on your shoulder and bring it to me. Let's go.
It's so heavy. Of course it is!
Let's go! Drag it up here! No-one said fucking stop.
Come on, 13! Let's go.
Now! Come on, Number 13. Catch it up. Can you actually swim?
Yes, I can swim.
SHE GROWLS
Selection for me was very, very difficult.
I was way out of my depth.
Get crawling, number 3!
I can't.
I was afraid I just didn't have what it takes.
I'm very close to... Go 11. Let's go, 11. OK.
As I started falling back, it made me angry.
Come on up here then, 13, let's go.
Low crawl, belly, belly, belly. Move.
And there's something inside of me,
and I don't know where it comes from,
but it just won't let go and will not give up.
And that's what we're looking for.
Come on. You can fucking smash this. Let's go. Come on.
Struggling at the back is recruit number 13, Zoe.
Fuck off! Fuck off!
Don't get angry, get fucking even. Come on, legs!
Take that pain out of your face. Use the pain.
Of course I am worried that there are things that are
going to make me quit.
That's it. Stay in that swampy shit.
Keep pushing. Keep pushing, 13, that's right.
But I don't want to let myself down. I hate failing.
Keep going.
I don't know which way I'm going.
This way.
Fuck.
You can call this hell. This is our home.
I'm determined to give everything a go...
Keep going, 13.
...to climb over those walls that I know I'L have.
But I'm slightly concerned about face planting as I do so.
15!
Ten!
Five!
Stand up. Stand up. We are not finished.
Stay in the game, get your heads up, stand up.
Sort your shit out now, everybody.
We finish a task, what happens, number 17
Get ready to go again.
Anybody want to go home?
Fucking gin and tonic on the beach by ten o'clock tonight,
if you want. Anybody?
No, staff. No? Pain is glory. Go!
Stand here, stand here. All the way.
After 45 minutes,
the recruits are only halfway through the task.
It's impossible to serve in government
and not appreciate and respect the work that the special forces do.
Stay low. Stay low.
Get down. Through the tunnel. Fast as you can.
Just to be put through a small part of what they do...
Come on. Keep going.
...and see whether I've got what it takes, I'm up for that challenge.
Good effort, number 1. All the way through.
Number 1, Matt Hancock, pushes to the front,
followed closely by number 11, Danielle.
Keep your foot on the gas, 11.
Low crawl, on your belly. On your belly!
Soak that puddle up. Let's move.
I feel like physically I'll be able to cope.
Flat on your stomach. Walk on forearms, that's right.
It's just the mental side, like, I'm worried about.
All the way through.
Commit.
Being away from home, I feel really out of my comfort zone.
Move, keep moving.
I want my kids to be proud of me. I want them to look at me
and think, "Wow, my mum is so strong."
Headfirst into the tunnel. As fast as you can.
Get in there. Get in there.
Let's go. Come on. Keep coming.
Come on, keep coming, 13. Keep coming.
After 90 minutes, the task is over.
Good man. Well done.
Well done, Zoe. Oh, man. I think they've tipped me over the edge.
It's really hard. And I nearly... I nearly...
This was clean on as well!
LAUGHTER
How were people? Tell you what, to be honest, fucking...
There was nobody there that was really petrified.
1, no problem, straight through.
7, dived straight in, fucking flying through there.
The noise came with 13. She was puffing
and panting like she was being born again.
She's struggling with it. A personal pass in her world,
a definitely fail in ours.
Yeah, she is, like, dangling.
Everybody on parade! Clean fatigues.
Ready, Zoe?
On selection, we have
a responsibility to protect the recruits.
Come on then!
Sometimes they become physically exhausted,
but they will not let go.
We have to get rid of them.
we'll cull them. And it's for their own safety.
We still have a long way to go.
The pace is going to get faster,
the tasks are going to get harder
and you really are going to have to dig deep to survive.
Some of you have given all,
but all is not enough.
Number 13, step forward.
Give your armband to the DS.
Make your way over to the med centre. Good.
Have I done enough?
Have I got enough to go again?
You should be asking yourself that question right now.
Go!
That was sad, but inevitable.
Yeah. Bless her heart.
Think Zoe would have been gutted to go, you know. Yeah.
Her feet have been in absolute bits. She should now be relieved.
She's gone so, so far. She's smashed it.
She's absolutely smashed it. Smashed it.
Good call. Good call. What was a good call?
I was teetering on the edge. Listen...
I mean, look. I mean, look.
Fucking hell, what's happened there?
So, it's been... Yeah.
We've been watching you, you've give your 100%... Yeah.
And that's all we asked... Yeah. ..and you've done amazing.
Oh, thank you. I really, really appreciate it.
I hope it's been mega-beneficial to you
and not just fucking beating you up. I've done some shit that
I never thought I would do. It was awesome.
I really appreciate everything. Take care. I can only apologise if
I smell. Don't worry about that. I'm so stinky. Chris, best of luck.
Number 13, Zoe, has been removed from the course.
See you soon. Bye!
Now, just six recruits remain.
Oh, God, something's brewing.
And it ain't my belly.
It's like the calm before the storm.
I need the toilet but fuck that.
This course isn't all about being physically fit.
Or the storm before the...
...before the calm.
If only.
You've got to be robust. It's 70% psychological.
SHOUTS: Number 7!
What?! Number 77
After testing the recruits physically,
the DS want to assess the recruits' emotional strength.
Hands down by your side. That's it.
The majority of these celebrities will not have
the mental fortitude
to keep pushing on till the bitter end.
If it should ring
and you wish to answer it, then carry on.
When you're a long way from home,
a call could be everything that you need
to remind you what you're fighting for.
RINGING
Hey, Mum.
I'm so proud of you. HE SOBS
How are you doing? What an absolute boy.
I love you so much.
Mum, I love you so much.
It's been hard.
But you're a strong man.
Hi. Hello.
Oh, my God, how are you?
I'm fine. I'm thriving.
Are you? Yeah. Oh, my darling, really? Yeah.
Is it not as tough as hell?
Do you know what? Guess what my hardest thing has been.
Not answering back.
Think you ought to try this skill at home.
Thank you.
He held it together, didn't he?
Taking a call from home can have huge consequences.
All right, babe? Where's Oliver?
SHE GROANS
I miss you guys so much.
To some recruits, it can be a boost.
Hey! Mike!
Hello!
Oh, Matthew!
Love it. You've got to have mental grit to stay in the game,
but you've got to be honest about where your head's at.
ALL: Hey!
What's going to distract you and what isn't.
You've got this, bro. You've got this. Keep going. Keep going.
I love you.
If a call home is going to distract you,
you should probably say no...
,,because it could break you.
RINGING
Hello.
Hello!
Hiya.
SHE SNIFFS I love you.
SHE SOBS
Oh! I miss you all so much.
Say, "Thank you, Mummy." I love you both.
We all miss you, you're doing really well.
Keep going. Think of the positive, not the negative.
I've cried so much.
Autumn, I love you.
Hello!
She's been saying Mama all the time.
The boys are missing you. They're all proud of you.
She's in a mental trauma place now.
It's the hardest thing I've ever done in my life and...
...believe me, I've been to hell and back.
One last push now, yeah?
She's just a very emotional person.
Bye, Mummy. Bye.
Say bye-bye.
It'll be interesting to see how she takes that.
Wow, that's, like, really cheered me up a bit, you know.
It's so motivating, isn't it?
Oh. How are you? Come here.
Thank God.
Wow. I'm just so happy to see them. Yeah.
I just kept saying, "I miss you, I love you," and it was hard.
As soon as you think about your family, it just sets you off.
Yeah, like, massively. Mm.
SHOUTS: Recruits! Number 11!
Concerned about her emotional state,
the DS call in number 11, Danielle.
How are you feeling? Obviously I'm missing home, but...
...I'm just trying to keep it together.
What are you missing?
Just my kids. And my husband.
You're going to make them proud, aren't you?
I think so. I have.
I'm sure you are.
And you've done well.
The reason we're having this chat is for that reason.
Yeah. You know, I think when I looked at you this morning,
I swear you were, like, 50-50. "I don't wanna be here."
I just... I haven't... I've tried not to think about them cos
when I do, this happens, so... Hey, it's a passage in time.
I know it's a cliche and we keep saying it, but it really is.
You're in the last stages now. It can get quite dark,
psychologically. But I mean,
it can't get as dark as five kids screaming at you.
Do you know what I mean? No.
You need to dig in and find that resilience.
You're way over halfway. Yeah.
Don't let that now start giving you an end date.
Yeah. Because I feel it is. I can see it in your face.
The engine now is your mind.
Yeah. You know that.
The pain will be gone before you know it.
Can't even fucking feel my body any more. It's just like...
...from there down, it's numb. It's a great feeling, though, right?
Yeah, I do feel... I honestly feel really proud of myself, I do.
I mean, before I came here,
I probably wouldn't even have been able to do one press up.
You're smashing it so far. Thank you.
Fucking surprised that you're doing it.
Fucking surprised myself, honestly, like,
thought I'd have been gone the first day.
No. You've proved you can do it.
You're in there with a shout. I know you've tried
to talk yourself out fucking ten times at least.
I have. Yeah, I definitely was shitting myself on
the way up that mountain today.
But actually, when I got into it, I loved it.
It was amazing. It's the best feeling ever.
You should feel good. Did fucking well today.
We see potential in you, we see you going to another stage,
another phase, easy. OK. But that's down to you.
Yeah. OK. All right? Yeah.
Don't let nothing, physically or mentally,
make you step backwards. Always go forwards, go forwards.
But just keep giving it your best shot. OK. Thanks. All right?
Thank you. Guard!
She's grown on me. Yeah. we'll see.
I don't think you can ever prepare yourself
for anything like this.
I wanna find out whether I've actually got the stamina
to stay.
I wanna find out if I'm strong enough
mentally, physically, emotionally.
How was it? Yeah, good. Really good.
If I threw the towel in, like, I'd be so upset with myself.
It's going to be, like, I need to just keep to being
the person that I am, basically.
Being strong and getting through each bit at a time. Yeah.
Obviously, I just wanna make my kids proud,
and just show that women can be strong.
Don't give up! Find that aggression now.
When you're in battle, you will find yourself in some of
the darkest places you could possibly imagine.
It's in those dark places that you draw upon your will to survive.
BARKING
GUNFIRE
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