Stand still, put your hands by your side, step across that way.
SAS selection is a test like no other.
People will wonder if
the celebrities will get any special treatment.
Yeah, they ARE gonna get some special treatment.
They're gonna get extreme temperatures,
pain, dehydration.
This is not gonna be lnstagrammers in the wild.
This program me contains very strong language from the start and throughout
In this series...
Oh, my legs.
Quit your moaning.
...14 celebrity recruits...
You disgust me!
...will leave their glamorous lives behind.
Come on, Bambi, hurry up.
All the way. Yaaahhh!
Don't stand around with your back to me cos I'm clone with it.
Do you understand me?
They will be put through the most gruelling stages of selection...
Let's go-o-o!
Hit him.
...by an elite team of ex-Special Forces soldiers from the UK and USA.
Perfect. Suffer in silence!
No allowances or exceptions will be made.
Sometimes, you know, you've gotta just woman up,
and what's the worst that could happen?
I need help! Forget designer labels and five-star hotels.
In the desert it's gonna be sand, sweat and tears.
No other test asks as much...
Has he knocked himself out?
Now seven! Go on, then. You just smashed that and you're gonna smash this, OK?
All right. All right?
...or means as much...
I have to take your armband if you don't do it right. Please.
Shut up. ..to the few who make it through...
Drive, yeah? All the way to the end now.
I'm proud to have you on my team. So am I.
Oh. my God! No! No!
Fatima! How are you doing this to me?!
You, Fatima Whitbread, have farted in my face!
It's halfway through the course,
and of the 14 celebrity recruits who begun, 12 remain.
Now you know why they call me FARTIMA.
Fartima!
Who do you wanna see pushed?
After four days, the DS want to apply pressure
to those recruits who they believe are coasting in
the middle of the pack.
Number 13.
He fires on full cylinders when he's comfortable.
Anything where he's gotta push himself, he's down 50%.
Yeah. He's got it in him, he needs somebody to pull it out of him. Yeah.
Did anyone think... It's just come to my mind there,
was, for me, is number nine.
He's strong, he's young, he's got the most physical talent,
but he's consistently towards the back end of the middle.
Need to put the pressure on him a little bit.
Maybe give him a leadership challenge. Yeah.
Put the two brothers as team leaders.
Yes, put nine under a bit of pressure.
If he cracks or whether he gets the job done.
Yeah. I agree.
All right, good to go, to the next task.
Recruits, on the parade square!
That'll be bags and everything. No, cos he just told us not to.
Come on, guys, let's get out. Everyone, out.
Let's get our here, nine.
12.
In Special Operations,
we learn through this hard training
the expansion of our threshold for pain.
Underneath it is endurance, mental,
physical and emotional.
Who is willing to compartmentalise pain?
That's what we're looking for here.
We have some heavy-duty shit ahead,
and we need 100% effort, switched-on mind-set.
Put the pain aside or else get out of here. Am I understood?
Yes, sir. Get your kit together and we'll crack on. Dismissed.
Yes, Staff.
Let's go, let's move. Let's go, let's go!
Start running. Running, running, all the way!
In combat, you never know when the battle is finished.
Keep it together.
I fought in two open-ended campaigns,
invading Afghanistan, invading Iraq.
It takes strength, it takes commitment.
You must keep your will
and do what you gotta do to make it out of there.
Let's go.
The recruits have been brought to the Asia Korea region of the desert,
where they will face a task designed by the DS
to test their physical and mental endurance.
Keep it together.
Two ranks in front of me.
Listen in.
In the Special Forces we spend
a lot of time behind enemy lines,
recovering vehicles under heavy enemy fire.
What I wanna do, I'm gonna break you into two teams.
Number eight, you're team leader for Team Alpha,
so plonk yourself there.
Yes, Staff.
Number nine, you're team leader for Bravo, stand here.
Yes, Staff.
Alpha...
For this task, the teams will be led by brothers,
number eight, A] Pritchard,
and younger brother, number nine, Curtis.
It is your job to get your vehicle as a team
to that cluster of rocks. It is gonna be hard.
We wanna see who's got the grit and determination
to push through and get there first.
The teams must free their vehicle from deep sand
and then push it over half a kilometre to the safety zone.
Standby. Go!
Let's move, come on! Let's go, let's go!
Each vehicle weighs 1,000kg...
We're getting fired at!
Let's move, come on!
...loaded with an extra 100kg of equipment.
I want people at the back, I want one person pushing
the steering wheel, controlling the steering, OK? Get in neutral.
Right, Jen, you are gonna be controlling the steering.
Someone at the front with the spade
cos we're pushing. Ready. Three, two, one. Push!
Who's got a driving licence? Me.
Handbrake, handbrake is on. WHat do you normally...?
Get the handbrake on. Come on, let's fucking move.
Whatever we do, since kids, we have been competitive.
But it's good cos it helps us battle each other.
One, two, three!
It's going.
Get some momentum.
Now does it need to be in neutral?
Neutral!
No, the handbrake's up.
Put it up, it was down before. Put it up now.
Come on, let's fucking dig deep for this first bit.
This is obviously the hard bit.
Right, everybody, everybody, we are not working together.
Listen to me, and let's all do it at the same goddamn time, OK?
Three, two, one, push.!
The best moment of my career,
winning the under-Ms Ballroom and Latin
because A] only won the under-Ms' Latin,
he didn't win the Ballroom as well. I won both.
A], what's going on at the front?
Guys, try and push now.
Three, two, one, up.
OK. So now it's started getting up.
I am definitely gonna do better than Curtis.
If it comes down to a head-to-head,
I will not let him win.
Ancl I think being that ruthless is the only way to be.
Guys, listen, remove the weight from the vehicle,
we will get it moving,
then we'll put the weight back in the vehicle.
A] instructs number 13, Dwain,
one of the strongest recruits on the course,
to take a position at the back of the vehicle.
Three, two, one, up!
THEY GRUNT Let's go'.!
Work at the back!
Keep going. OK, guys. Dwain, you're going to get behind it.
A] instructs number 13, Dwain, to take a position
at the back of the vehicle.
Despite sustaining a chest injury earlier in the course,
Dwain is still one of the physically strongest recruits.
Three, two, one.
THEY ALL GRUNT
Push! Push!
Don't let it come back cos you'll crush somebody's leg.
My career has been somewhat of a roller-coaster.
So what is the lasting impression that people have of me,
I don't know.
In terms of achievements, I have close to 300 medals.
Guys, keep going. Three, two, one.
Hold. Three, two, one.
That's it, that's it!
All right, yeah!
Number eight Aj's team are the first
to free their vehicle and head for the safety zone...
Let's go! Yeah, let's get a little jog, a little jog on.
...while Curtis's team are still stuck in the truck.
Maybe get switched on and start digging.
Improvise, adapt, overcome. That's right!
What's in these bags? Yes!
All the carpets under the wheels, guys. Under the wheels.
To try and release the vehicle,
Curtis's team are using fabric to create traction.
On three, we push. Back in position. Guys,
back in position now!
Are we ready? On three. One, two, three.
Arghg
Keep pushing! Keep pushing!
Push it. Keep pushing. Keep going.
Four minutes later than Alpha, Curtis's team, Bravo,
are finally on the move.
That's it, good. Let's move!
Come on, let's get the momentum going, let's catch these fuckers.
Extracting the vehicle from an operation in
an extremely dangerous environment,
it's fucking petrifying.
It's hot, it's sandy,
the vehicle's heavy,
there's kit everywhere, people are fucked.
It's fucking hard work.
One, two, three...
Let's go! Let's go! Come on, come on!
Just clig your heels into the side. With just 200m to go,
Curtis's team, Bravo, are gaining ground. Push, push!
Come on, we can catch up.
Push, push.
PUSH! I'm fucking pushing!
That's the spirit, I like it, Ferne. This is harder than lab our, mate.
Come on. You need to move. They're closing in.
OK, push it, we're not safe yet!
Keep pushing! Push! Push!
They're right on your tail.
Turn, turn.
Back there. Turn, turn, turn.
Left. There! Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop.
Aj's team, Alpha, reach the safety zone first and win the task.
Come on. Don't fucking stop, let's fucking move.
Push like your life depends on it!
Arghg
THEY GRUNT AND SCREAM
Curtis's team, Bravo, finish one minute later, losing the task.
That's how you fucking dig in.
You guys smashed it, you were absolutely incredible.
Hey, WE'LL be the fucking judge of that. Zip it.
Alpha and Bravo, come in here.
Right, listen in.
Obviously Team Alpha got that in the bag. Good effort.
All right, listen up.
Instead of having a nice luxurious drive back,
we're gonna run all the way back to camp. Let's go.
All the twos, you know the deal.
After proving their endurance as a team,
the recruits will now be tested individually.
This is fucking snail pace,
so I suggest you snails close it up.
Let's go! Keep moving!
Let's go, you can do it!
After losing on the task,
number nine, Curtis, is now matching older brother,
number eight, A], step for step.
There's no reason, with your long legs, you should be back here.
Towards the back of the pack,
recruit number 13, Dwain, is struggling.
I shy away from the heat. When it gets too hot,
I can't handle it. My stamina... My stamina lasts ten seconds.
This is completely out of my norm.
This ain't no track and field training, where I just run
and rest and chat, there ain't gonna be none of that.
Run!
Catch up to the fucking group.
DWAIN GROANS
You can't keep fucking stopping when everybody else is still moving.
You got girls half your size way ahead of you.
If you stop again, I'm taking your armband, do you understand?
Do you understand?! Get up there. Now!
Stop with all the fucking dramatics and get your ass up there
or give me your armband.
You better not stop.
Run.
Agh! You're done, right?
Argh. Look at me.
I'm about to give you one last warning, do you understand?
Yes, Staff. Go. This is it.
Go! Or take off your fucking armband!
Run! Or taking off your fucking armband.
Ten, nine,
eight,
seven,
six...
Number 13, Dwain, is in danger of losing his place
on the course, after failing
to keep up with most of the other recruits.
About to be taken.
Right, that's it, bro. No.
Yes, it is! No. No, fucking yes, it is. Give it to me!
No. Give it to me. No.
No.
Run in there, you pathetic shit.
Run.
Get fucking up there, look at the size of you!
Get up there, pathetic.
50m, it's jack shit.
Let's go!
You start strong, you finish strong. Yes, Staff!
Thank you, A).
Well clone guys.
Well clone, gang. Are you all right, Dwain? How are ya?
Fucking tough, man. That was fucking tough.
What happened then?
Sit down.
DWAIN GRUNTS AND GROANS Sit down, just sit down.
Dwain, are you all right, man?
Just sudden movements catch me, man.
Dwain, do you want Ibuprofen jab?
Nah, I need to see the medic, I need to get some painkillers.
Yours are the ones without sugar. Yeah.
The other one's too sweet.
Bit like you. Exactly.
Each night, the DS gather to discuss the recruits' progress.
OK, start of a new phase,
the first task today was the down vehicle push.
The two brothers, eight and nine, went team leaders.
Number nine, there was a lack of direction from the beginning,
running around like headless chickens. Sure.
They faffed around getting out of the bogged-in position.
They just took too long trying to
um and ah about what they were gonna do.
Then we go on the second team. OK, number eight.
Justin fucking Bieber. That's right.
We had a good result. He weren't...not cocky,
quietly confident which was good.
Overall, they did a good job,
number eight for leadership.
15 really struggled physically.
But he was in pain but he was still pushing.
He was complaining earlier about some injury,
and it's a shame cos he did well on the push.
But not in the run. He's not comfortable being uncomfortable.
That's right, he takes his foot off the gas. Exactly.
Ancl tries to coast. So if we're gonna bring anybody in...
13. Definitely. Sure.
We need to get to the bottom of who he is first
and what the fuck is going on in his head.
OK.
13!
Think you know what's coming. Are you all right? Yes, Staff. Are you sure? Yes, Staff.
Where's the pain? Round the ribs. Ribs.
I'm OK.
Have you had painkillers issued? Yeah. The medics came in.
All right, I'm gonna go upstairs so just trust me,
just walk fucking steady up the stairs. Walk with me. Step up.
Oooh. Oh.
Is performance enhancing or was it recreational?
DOOR RATTLES CLOSED
How's it going?
A little tough.
I'm finding the running and the cardio stuff, it's killing me.
Because it's just constant.
What were you expecting?
So I had no idea what to expect.
But,
me being me, whenever things get hard, I stop.
Hmm.
So no matter what's happened, I wanna do my best to get through.
Well, that's good news cos that's what we wanna talk to you about.
I know you got banged up a little bit today, but it would be
a massive disservice to this opportunity if you leave.
I understand. What is it that you're struggling with?
I wanna know if I can still be as good as I was,
cos I lost a huge portion of my career cos of what I did.
And what was that?
I made a decision to take performance enhancers.
What year was that?
2002, 2003.
How old were you then? 22, 23 years old. 00f.
How did it feel when it all sort of unfolded?
My whole world fell apart.
I bet.
What...what happened, how did you deal with it?
I didn't deal with it, I just kept on hiding from it.
Drinking and just doing crap
and not facing the reality of what I clone...
...and there came a point where I had to face up, and I cried like mad
cos I realised what I'd clone was a mistake.
Ancl I know it still screws around with me.
We all make mistakes. You're still a good person, regardless
of what decisions you've made in the past.
It's a question of, what are you wanting to get from being here?
When the trips get... When it gets tough, not to pull out,
and use the time to reflect,
even though it's hard to reflect. I'm extremely stressed
because I'm working a side of me I've never liked.
But I have to learn to get used to liking things
that are uncomfortable for me.
Ancl a big driver for me is not waiting till I'm old
to realise what I've got. I think I need to tackle that now.
These anxieties, regrets and fears,
they will not go away until you face it head on.
I will.
Nothing good was easy.
Yeah, I know all about that.
Guard!
DOOR RATTLES OPEN
He's not fucking finished yet.
No, not even close.
When I got the call about being suspended from sport,
I lost everything.
Mum and Dad couldn't help, friends couldn't help.
All right, big man, you know what you gotta do.
You have the tools. Away you go.
I believe now I'm in a good mental space.
I owe a lot to my parents for making me so resilient.
I have asked myself how can I challenge myself again,
and here I am.
So I'm going to use this to answer my own question.
How was it?
Tough. But regardless
of how I perform, I just wanna get to the end.
Just keep going. Yeah, just wanna get to the end.
Recruits! On the parade square!
Battle dress only! Let's go!
I was asleep. No bags. Let's go.
Everyone, underneath the bar.
We're looking for people, someone who's at their lowest,
like physically and emotionally,
but you still see them fighting on
in the middle of a gunfight, when everyone else is dying around you.
You don't want people giving up, you want people who are willing
to throw everything at whatever's in front of them.
They're the people you want next to you.
To test the recruits' stamina and determination,
the DS will subject them to a series of brutal beastings.
I want you all, when I say go,
to get up on to the bars and hang there.
All I want is two minutes.
The two minutes will start when the last person's up.
Clear? Yes, Staff.
Standby. Go!
Three, two, one.
Everyone, up. Go. Three, two, one.
At the front are brothers number eight, A], and number nine, Curtis.
Lock it out, grizz it out.
Remember you're working together, this is for the sake of everyone.
If one of the celebrities drops,
the whole group must begin the challenge again.
Just put your mind in a different place.
Lock it out and think about what you're doing. Hold it.
All right, down, start again.
After 40 seconds, number one, Jennifer, drops.
Shake it out, start again. Come on, guys. Shake it out, stretch out.
Are you ready, guys? Three, two, one.
Three, two, one. Thank you.
Let's all get up, come on, let's go.
Hold for longer. Let's go again, come on.
If you need support, fucking work out where support is.
Fucking all of you are staying off the floor.
Take yourself to another place.
After 20 seconds, number one, Jennifer, falls once again.
I've reduced this to a minute,
now, just think about how you can get round the weaker members.
If someone behind you is struggling,
can you try and kick your legs up to try and hold her up.
Can I get in front of you?
One second, you stand there.
We're gonna help Fatima, then I'll help you.
Are you ready, guys? Ready.
Ready, three, two, one.
Are you holding? Right, I'm gonna jump up now.
Rest on my legs slightly to help yourself out.
Stop talking.
Number nine, Curtis,
has decided to use his legs to support
the weight of number one, Jennifer.
Right, you've got less than a minute.
Curtis wants to make everybody happy.
Curtis wants to help everybody.
Curtis wants everybody to pass the finish line together,
whereas I'm like, no, it's about you.
You have to do what's right for you.
Ancl if you're going to help
somebody else, you're probably gonna hurt yourself.
After 45 seconds, number nine, Curtis, falls.
Listen in. Fucking minute is alll ask for.
One minute hanging from the bar.
I'm not even asking you to do pull-ups.
Everybody in the pool right now, completely wet, head to toe.
Quickly. All the way in.
Shoulders under the water!
Only thing I should see is your fucking heads.
You could cheat with push-ups...
...you could cheat with bear crawls,
but the one thing that you can't cheat is the cold.
Selection is meant to push you mentally, physically,
emotionally, to levels that you've never been before.
Suffer in silence. Suffer in silence.
If we do not put these recruits through the flame,
they could perish on the battlefield.
OK, get out the water.
If you think it's tough so far...
...we just got out of second gear.
Fall back into your accommodations. Dismissed.
Are you OK? No, not really.
It's torture, though, isn't it?
Mm? Torture. Yeah.
Guys, come on, hurry up.
Can you hurry up pooing, squeeze a little bit harder?
Outrageous.
Massage the tummy muscles if need be.
CHUCKLING
Since the recruits started on the course,
they've been living on an average of five hours' sleep.
In half an hour, bro, we'll all wake up.
Yeah. Or when we have a shout, we'll soon wake up then.
"Parade square, five minutes!"
No!
And it's going to be hard as well cos we are tired today.
Well, I am.
Stay positive and stay strong.
Recruits, on the parade square!
Get to your vehicles. Come on!
Speed, intensity and with purpose.
Get moving!
We operate in every environment in every difficult situation possible.
We spend a lot of time working in
the mountains in places like Afghanistan.
Go, go, go!
Speed is of the essence. We are in a foreign land,
we're surrounded, the chips are down. Go. Get up here.
You have not got time to mess about, you have to get in,
get out, fastest, safest, quickest means.
Let's go!
We cannot afford to let an obstacle slow us down.
All right, everybody, Bergens off. Matter of fact,
sit on your Bergens.
In the Special Forces community,
we consider the mission, the enemy, terrain,
time and battle space.
If you had to get up to that high point and you go down and up,
down and up, it'd take you three clays.
But in Special Forces, we have other methods.
Ready!
In a re-creation of a mountain pass manoeuvre,
the celebrities must sidestep across the ropes...
...160ft above the ground.
No matter what, when you get on this apparatus,
you will not stop. I don't care how tired you are.
You must never give up.
I'm fucking shitting myself.
First to face the crossing is number 13, Dwain,
who performed badly in yesterday's task
and now needs to impress the DS.
Look at that. Fucking feel, man. Fuck off, you're gonna nail this now, ain't ya?
You need this in the bag to fucking clear this, don't we?
Yes, Staff. Agree? Yes, Staff.
Never realised the impact I'd had on my sport
and getting suspended, what it clone, the damage.
Ancl there was a little kid who wrote a letter to me and it said,
"Oh, Dwain, you've been my role model for such a long time,
"but when you got suspended from sport
"and you lied, I ripped your picture off the wall,"
and that just broke my heart.
Now I coach near... close to 100 kids.
You're gonna nail this, number 13.
So I almost wanna use myself as an example -
everyone makes mistakes, but there's always life after mistakes.
It's what you choose to do about them.
This is yours, take it. That's good position.
You're almost halfway.
Self-respect to come now.
He's shaking like a coconut on the tree.
Control yourself, son.
Positive thoughts. You can do it. Keep moving.
Looking good, 13! Lucky 13!
It's my lucky number!
You ain't at the other end yet, I wouldn't celebrate TOO quick.
Don't screw it up. You're nearly there.
Well done, Dwain.
Good effort, 13. Well clone.
Now maybe you'll start believing in yourself.
Number 13, Dwain, is the first recruit
to successfully cross the ravine and pass the task.
How was that? Fucking amazing.
Amazing? Yes.
It's the slowest 100m I think you've ever clone. Whoa!
But you made it. Sticking at it, Staff.
Good job. Thank you, Staff.
Got faith in you, number four, don't give up.
A Special Forces operator does not get burned out.
He perseveres, no matter what the obstacle.
Argh! For fuck's sake.
Got to be more careful.
You must have focus,
endurance, stamina. Me fingers are slipping.
Catastrophic fail.
Let's go, five!
If you let the fear come in, everything falls apart.
There you go.
When you get that wobble, just work through it, just keep shuffling,
take your time, take your time, that's it.
You must continue driving on.
She's absolutely killing it.
Keep moving, Fats.
That's good! Don't step - shuffle. Keep composed.
Argh.
Fuck it! Fail.
Fair play. Aw, I'm gutted for her. Absolutely.
Ugh. Walk up the wall as you come to it.
Right, you started off well.
Fucking shame you fucking fluffed it at the end. I know.
I hate losing more than I love winning.
There you go, that's a good technique, number three.
Whoa! Fucking hell.
Ugh! Ah, my, my, my-
Fail!
Fucking fail.
You're almost there!
Steady, steady.
You twat!
I'll give that to you, it was a good effort.
Ten recruits have attempted the crossing.
Only number 14, Ashley,
and number 13, Dwaine, have passed so far.
Number eight. Next to attempt
the manoeuvre is professional dancer, number eight, A].
Relax. There you go. That's it. Slide in rhythm,
slide in rhythm. Good.
That's good technique.
That's confidence right there, keep it going.
As I've got older, I feel like I'm more cautious of heights,
but it's about mentally staying strong to get
to where you need to get to.
It's not about how much do I wanna pass. I WILL pass.
Good technique, number eight, keep it going.
Show number nine how it's clone.
Keep going, AJ-
That position there is where it will start to hurt.
The longer you're that position,
the more it will hurt, so move quickly.
Keep going, Stop showing off! Just keep going.
Don't stand still. That's it, you've got it.
Come on, Twinkle Toes,
you didn't come this far to fall off.
Get that dance technique into it, son.
Ancl you can step off now.
Fantastic, good effort!
It's the turn of Aj's younger brother, number nine, Curtis.
OK, John Travolta, come through.
A] all his life has been so disciplined.
He never went to parties, never did anything like that,
he just focused on himself and his dancing.
Are you ready for this? Yes.
If he says he's going to do something, he'll do it.
I have so much respect for him.
But I'm not like that. I have so much doubt.
I can let negative thoughts get in my head,
and I don't want that to happen on this course.
The longer the step, the better.
There you go, all the way.
Build some momentum now, you need that speed.
That's good. That's your brother, number eight.
Keep that shuffle.
Now you'll feel the burning,
this is where you really have to want it.
Work through the wobble, keep going. Don't stop.
Don't stop. Come on.
This is where you really have to tap into that mental toughness.
It's key not to stop, just keep going.
Keep shuffling.
Over halfway.
He looks tired.
Don't talk yourself out of it.
Fail.
I just told you, don't talk yourself out of it. Fail!
Absolute fail! You simply gave up.
Oh, he's gonna be so disappointed.
What happened there? I was expecting better.
I was as well.
Have a think about where it all went wrong.
You didn't tap into that mental toughness
and push through the pain, huh? No, not good enough, Staff.
Ah! Ah!
UK?
Oh, no, I'm fine. I'm getting no dinner, but I'm fine.
CHUCKLING
Draw a face on that. "Hello, Sarge!"
Throughout the course,
the recruits are responsible for disposing of their own waste.
You put two gloves on.
Put two sets on.
OK.
Fucking hell, everyone shits heavy.
Fucking hell, this is the worst job I've ever done in my life.
Oh, my clays.
Oh, fucking hell, man.
Ugh, God.
What a humble experience!
Number nine!
Coming, Staff.
Ah, fuck's sake, I got it on my top.
Aw.
After failing the ravine crossing, the DS want to learn more
about number Curtis's motivation for being on the course.
Put your hands against the wall there.
Fucking lanky fucker.
DOOR RATTLES CLOSED
How are you feeling?
Yeah, urn, today's been one of the harder days for me.
You're not making any excuse for fucking failing, are you?
No, my arms gave up on that, Sir.
My head went weak, my mind went weak.
Your mind gave up? Yeah.
What fucked your mind-set up? Has this happened before?
Yeah, it has, to be fair.
How, why? Cos I don't know nothing about you, to be honest.
So I'm a professional ballroom and Latin dancer,
dancing from the age of 12 years old,
represented England in the Worlds and everything.
And when I got to about 17, 18 years old,
I sort of fell out of love with dancing.
I want through 13 different dance partners
and I wasn't achieving what I wanted to achieve as fast as I wanted to.
And then I went out partying,
went out with my mates every night and doing loads of stuff.
And to this day, I regret doing that
because I didn't achieve goals that I should have achieved and
reached the level I should have reached, really.
Was that the end of your career, then?
It was the end of my competing career, yes.
So that's the pattern. When things get too hard,
YOU pop smoke, would you say?
Yeah. I always self-sabotage sometimes.
I over think it and I put those negative thoughts in my head.
Tell me why you're here, then.
What's your real reason and motive for being here?
Cos I wanna prove to myself that I've still got that mind-set
that I can overcome anything.
I think you need to stop beating yourself up,
take a fucking breath a minute, you know,
and let things happen naturally,
instead of trying to force shit.
You're doing OK, just take a back step, you know,
and use every moment of this
to peel back those layers of uncertainty.
Yes, Staff.
You and your brother, are you really competitive?
We are competitive, yes.
So, if I tell you tomorrow there's only gonna be one of you left,
is it gonna be you or gonna be him?
He's a fit and strong-minded lad,
but it'll be the first person that drops that leaves.
Ancl who would that be?
I won't be dropping, Staff.
All right.
He fucking kicked your arse today. He did.
So he's already one step ahead of you. He is, staff.
Guard!
DOOR RATTLES OPEN
I feel like what I may have lost now is setting a goal
and accomplishing a goal. I wanna be in the final with A].
Go on, fuck off. All right, Staff.
But I don't know if I've got that mental strength,
that resilience that I did have when I was younger.
Can I actually get to the end or will my mind destroy me before I do?
That's what I want to find out.
Let's go!
To be in the Special Forces, you must fight.
SCREAMING AND GRUNTING
If there's even a shred of doubt...
Go!
...microsecond of hesitation,
they will be defeated or destroyed.
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