1 00:01:23,426 --> 00:01:24,827 Where's my primer? 2 00:01:28,965 --> 00:01:30,633 Vada, we're late! 3 00:01:31,501 --> 00:01:33,536 -Vada. -Mmm. 4 00:01:38,841 --> 00:01:41,644 -God... 5 00:02:04,634 --> 00:02:05,801 Dude, we are so fucking late! 6 00:02:05,868 --> 00:02:07,803 Are the cake pops different flavors 7 00:02:07,870 --> 00:02:09,739 or are they just different colors? 8 00:02:09,839 --> 00:02:11,174 Different flavors. 9 00:02:11,240 --> 00:02:12,742 What are the flavor differences? 10 00:02:24,220 --> 00:02:26,589 Honestly, it is a miracle that we made it on time. 11 00:02:26,689 --> 00:02:28,391 Dude, we are killing it! 12 00:02:28,491 --> 00:02:29,592 Per ushe, yes. 13 00:02:29,692 --> 00:02:31,194 Also, is it just me or does coffee 14 00:02:31,260 --> 00:02:33,262 immediately make you have to shit? 15 00:02:33,362 --> 00:02:35,331 -Oh, immediately, yeah. -Like I smell coffee and I'm shitting my pants. 16 00:02:35,398 --> 00:02:37,833 Pause the shit-talking till Justin Dragonas passes. 17 00:02:41,771 --> 00:02:43,105 Oh, my God, I want him. 18 00:02:43,206 --> 00:02:44,607 We need to come up with a code for shitting. 19 00:02:45,508 --> 00:02:46,442 You're right! 20 00:02:46,542 --> 00:02:48,110 Alright, let's think. 21 00:02:48,211 --> 00:02:50,112 -Okay, like-- -We can say like I need to talk to my boss. 22 00:02:50,213 --> 00:02:52,281 -What are you talking about? -Are you picking what I'm putting down? 23 00:02:52,381 --> 00:02:55,051 It's like, "Okay, I need to have a long call with my boss 24 00:02:55,117 --> 00:02:56,385 and he's mad." 25 00:02:56,452 --> 00:02:58,120 Oh my God, my boss is so mad at me 26 00:02:58,221 --> 00:02:59,355 that I got a penis call this morning. 27 00:02:59,422 --> 00:03:00,723 Oh, and then when you... 28 00:03:00,790 --> 00:03:02,692 It could be like you're texting your boss. 29 00:03:02,758 --> 00:03:04,727 You're texting your boss. I love it. 30 00:03:04,794 --> 00:03:06,429 -We love that. -You have to keep it fancy. 31 00:03:06,529 --> 00:03:08,464 We love to keep it fancy, that's what we do. 32 00:03:08,564 --> 00:03:11,434 Now that's also a concern because most of that water is paleo water. 33 00:03:11,534 --> 00:03:13,903 Dating back to the most rec... Yes, Vada? 34 00:03:13,970 --> 00:03:16,606 Does the kind of rock affect how long the aquifer last 35 00:03:16,706 --> 00:03:18,374 or how quickly it recharges? 36 00:03:18,441 --> 00:03:20,243 Oh, that's a great question, 37 00:03:20,309 --> 00:03:22,144 but that depends on many factors. 38 00:03:22,245 --> 00:03:23,746 Anybody wanna guess 39 00:03:23,813 --> 00:03:26,215 what the next biggest aquifer is? 40 00:03:26,282 --> 00:03:27,483 So we have to think about what we know 41 00:03:27,583 --> 00:03:29,051 about the aquifers, right? 42 00:03:29,118 --> 00:03:32,154 So the Ogallala Aquifer is one of the largest eight 43 00:03:32,255 --> 00:03:34,156 in the world, not to... Yes? 44 00:03:34,257 --> 00:03:35,591 I'm sorry, can I use the restroom? 45 00:03:35,658 --> 00:03:36,792 Yes. 46 00:03:36,892 --> 00:03:39,161 It dates back to the recent ice age. 47 00:03:39,262 --> 00:03:40,830 So when we think about that we have to say, "Wow, 48 00:03:40,930 --> 00:03:42,732 this is one of the largest in the world." 49 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:45,234 Are you okay? 50 00:03:45,301 --> 00:03:46,836 -No. -What happened? 51 00:03:49,772 --> 00:03:51,340 I don't want anyone to hear me. 52 00:03:51,440 --> 00:03:54,076 Dude, literally just tell me, you're freaking me out. 53 00:03:56,445 --> 00:03:57,680 I got my... 54 00:03:58,981 --> 00:04:01,584 What? I can't hear you. 55 00:04:01,651 --> 00:04:03,119 I'll just text it to you. 56 00:04:10,860 --> 00:04:12,161 Jesus, Amelia! 57 00:04:12,261 --> 00:04:17,500 You don't text 911 when you get your period! 58 00:04:17,600 --> 00:04:20,269 You scared the shit out of me. Oh my God! 59 00:04:21,470 --> 00:04:22,505 I'm sorry. 60 00:04:26,475 --> 00:04:27,510 It's okay. 61 00:04:29,679 --> 00:04:32,048 Wait, haven't you been dyin' to get your period for like a year? 62 00:04:32,148 --> 00:04:33,349 I thought you'd be stoked. 63 00:04:34,650 --> 00:04:36,118 It's different than I thought. 64 00:04:36,185 --> 00:04:38,054 Oh, you mean shitty as hell? Yeah, I know. 65 00:04:38,154 --> 00:04:40,189 You're the worst. I'm hanging up now. 66 00:04:40,289 --> 00:04:42,625 I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 67 00:04:42,692 --> 00:04:44,126 Do you, um... 68 00:04:46,495 --> 00:04:48,731 have everything you need? 69 00:04:48,831 --> 00:04:52,735 Yeah, I stole it from your room a few months ago. 70 00:04:52,835 --> 00:04:54,370 It's in my backpack. 71 00:04:55,171 --> 00:04:57,073 Just in case. 72 00:04:57,173 --> 00:04:58,708 I was just gonna tell you to stuff a bunch of toilet paper 73 00:04:58,808 --> 00:05:00,176 in your pants till you get home, 74 00:05:00,242 --> 00:05:03,879 but that... That's some pro-level shit. 75 00:05:04,847 --> 00:05:06,082 Nice move! 76 00:05:06,182 --> 00:05:07,350 Oh, my God. 77 00:05:08,684 --> 00:05:10,252 How about this? 78 00:05:10,353 --> 00:05:12,088 Let's go to dinner tonight, just you and I, okay? 79 00:05:12,188 --> 00:05:13,589 And I will fill you in 80 00:05:13,689 --> 00:05:18,994 on all the bloody, chunky, gooey, goopy details. 81 00:05:19,061 --> 00:05:20,596 Ew, shut up. 82 00:05:20,696 --> 00:05:21,697 I love ya. 83 00:05:22,565 --> 00:05:23,999 Congratulations. 84 00:05:24,066 --> 00:05:26,068 Don't say congrats, you freak. 85 00:05:30,906 --> 00:05:31,941 I love you, too. 86 00:05:50,726 --> 00:05:51,694 Photo day. 87 00:05:52,728 --> 00:05:54,530 Better get my shit together. 88 00:06:51,987 --> 00:06:53,789 You don't even need to wear makeup. 89 00:06:54,824 --> 00:06:55,991 Sorry, what? 90 00:06:57,460 --> 00:06:59,662 I just said, "You don't even need to wear makeup." 91 00:07:01,263 --> 00:07:02,665 -I... 92 00:07:02,765 --> 00:07:05,868 -What was that? 93 00:07:05,968 --> 00:07:07,470 -Come on, come on! 94 00:07:07,536 --> 00:07:09,338 -Was that a gun? -Get down! 95 00:07:13,442 --> 00:07:14,310 Take 'em off! 96 00:07:15,511 --> 00:07:16,512 No! Oh! 97 00:07:32,661 --> 00:07:33,896 We're gonna die. 98 00:07:33,996 --> 00:07:36,332 Go, go, go, go, go! 99 00:07:50,379 --> 00:07:53,182 Oh my God. Oh my God. 100 00:07:54,817 --> 00:07:56,385 Is it over? 101 00:07:57,186 --> 00:07:58,420 Is it over? 102 00:08:07,763 --> 00:08:08,764 Who's in there? 103 00:08:10,199 --> 00:08:12,268 I'm not the shooter. It's Matt Corgan, I saw him. 104 00:08:13,669 --> 00:08:16,438 Do you know where he is now? 105 00:08:16,539 --> 00:08:18,040 I don't know, I don't know. 106 00:08:20,209 --> 00:08:21,877 My brother. 107 00:08:21,944 --> 00:08:23,546 Come, come under. Just... 108 00:08:33,689 --> 00:08:35,391 Oh, fuck, are you shot? 109 00:08:36,759 --> 00:08:39,061 My brother. 110 00:09:03,252 --> 00:09:05,821 You! Drop your weapon! 111 00:09:05,921 --> 00:09:07,556 Drop your weapon now! 112 00:09:10,926 --> 00:09:13,062 Down on the ground! 113 00:09:47,630 --> 00:09:49,698 Maybe we should wake her up. 114 00:09:49,798 --> 00:09:51,600 She needs to rest. 115 00:09:51,667 --> 00:09:53,268 I just wanna talk to her. 116 00:10:29,071 --> 00:10:30,239 Did you know him? 117 00:10:32,574 --> 00:10:34,710 He follows you on Instagram, so he knew you. 118 00:10:37,479 --> 00:10:38,881 It's like on every channel. 119 00:10:38,981 --> 00:10:41,350 Like CNN was interviewing your friend Melody. 120 00:10:41,917 --> 00:10:43,018 So crazy. 121 00:10:44,687 --> 00:10:46,055 Did you know anyone who died? 122 00:10:46,155 --> 00:10:47,656 -Amelia. -What? 123 00:10:48,924 --> 00:10:50,392 Is there like a list or something? 124 00:10:56,732 --> 00:11:00,269 Sometimes, I'm just like, "What year are we living in?" 125 00:11:00,369 --> 00:11:03,105 I'm literally gonna Amazon a bulletproof backpack. 126 00:11:03,205 --> 00:11:04,606 Amelia! 127 00:11:04,707 --> 00:11:05,708 What? 128 00:11:11,013 --> 00:11:12,614 Please don't cry, Mom. 129 00:11:13,782 --> 00:11:15,017 I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. 130 00:11:33,235 --> 00:11:34,636 Do you need something? 131 00:11:36,739 --> 00:11:38,307 Was just gonna take a bath. 132 00:11:39,708 --> 00:11:40,609 Okay 133 00:11:44,413 --> 00:11:45,314 Okay. 134 00:14:16,531 --> 00:14:17,699 Fuck. 135 00:15:55,497 --> 00:15:57,532 I'm glad you're going to see Nick. 136 00:15:58,333 --> 00:15:59,801 How's he holding up? 137 00:16:00,869 --> 00:16:01,803 I think okay. 138 00:16:02,738 --> 00:16:03,705 Good! 139 00:16:04,806 --> 00:16:05,707 Good. 140 00:16:11,513 --> 00:16:14,216 What about you? How... How are you feeling? 141 00:16:23,859 --> 00:16:24,726 Better. 142 00:16:26,094 --> 00:16:28,096 That's good, so good. 143 00:16:28,196 --> 00:16:30,198 I'm really so glad to hear that. 144 00:16:38,073 --> 00:16:39,841 I literally thought it was a drill 145 00:16:39,908 --> 00:16:41,610 'cause Cambie had us locked in, 146 00:16:41,710 --> 00:16:43,111 shades over the window in like two seconds, 147 00:16:43,211 --> 00:16:45,280 so I was like, "Okay, clearly, this is a drill." 148 00:16:45,380 --> 00:16:46,548 -Right? -Yeah. 149 00:16:46,615 --> 00:16:47,949 And Olivia Metis is like talking, 150 00:16:48,050 --> 00:16:49,951 you know, being annoying, and Cambie goes 151 00:16:50,052 --> 00:16:53,288 -"Olivia, be fucking quiet." -No. 152 00:16:53,388 --> 00:16:55,290 And we're all like, "Oh shit. 153 00:16:55,390 --> 00:16:57,192 Like this is real deal, no joke." 154 00:16:57,259 --> 00:17:00,128 It's just so... It's so fucked. 155 00:17:00,228 --> 00:17:02,297 I can't stop hearing the sound of it. 156 00:17:07,569 --> 00:17:09,471 So last night, I was like, "Okay, 157 00:17:09,571 --> 00:17:11,273 why did I survive? 158 00:17:11,373 --> 00:17:13,542 Like out of everyone, like why me? 159 00:17:13,608 --> 00:17:16,211 Is it so that I can do something 160 00:17:16,278 --> 00:17:18,947 to like make this never happen again?" 161 00:17:19,581 --> 00:17:20,715 Hmm. 162 00:17:20,782 --> 00:17:22,551 So, I set up this Zoom with Everytown 163 00:17:22,617 --> 00:17:24,319 and we're gonna talk about like 164 00:17:24,419 --> 00:17:26,321 how to be more reactive, how to start a movement, 165 00:17:26,421 --> 00:17:27,789 how to get a fuckin' bill passed. 166 00:17:27,889 --> 00:17:28,957 Like something. 167 00:17:35,764 --> 00:17:36,965 Why do you think he did it? 168 00:17:39,601 --> 00:17:42,003 I don't know, is there like ever a reason? 169 00:17:46,608 --> 00:17:48,410 After initial reports of a shooter, 170 00:17:48,477 --> 00:17:49,945 officers surrounded the campus, 171 00:17:50,011 --> 00:17:51,780 directing the evacuation of hundreds 172 00:17:51,847 --> 00:17:53,415 of students from the scene. 173 00:17:53,482 --> 00:17:54,649 This tragedy is. 174 00:17:54,749 --> 00:17:56,785 I think Anderson Cooper is cute. 175 00:17:56,852 --> 00:17:58,019 We've been on the scene. 176 00:17:58,120 --> 00:17:59,988 He is. Don't get too attached. 177 00:18:34,856 --> 00:18:36,558 Disturbing videos from the students' cellphones 178 00:18:41,630 --> 00:18:44,566 In the video, gunshots can be heard in the hall, 179 00:18:44,666 --> 00:18:47,636 answered by children screaming in their classrooms... 180 00:18:47,702 --> 00:18:49,337 I'm gonna go to Nick's. 181 00:18:49,404 --> 00:18:50,906 Uh, okay. 182 00:18:51,006 --> 00:18:52,507 ...during the escape, children fled the building. 183 00:19:29,044 --> 00:19:30,111 Hey. 184 00:19:30,212 --> 00:19:31,213 Hey. 185 00:19:32,714 --> 00:19:33,882 Wanna come in? 186 00:19:39,054 --> 00:19:39,955 Thank you. 187 00:19:44,059 --> 00:19:45,527 Want some water or somethin'? 188 00:19:47,128 --> 00:19:48,396 Okay. 189 00:19:53,935 --> 00:19:56,805 You have a really nice house. 190 00:19:56,905 --> 00:19:58,373 Thanks. 191 00:19:58,440 --> 00:20:01,543 Really nice, it's a cool vibe, with the wood and uh... 192 00:20:01,610 --> 00:20:04,312 You have a lot of cool art here, too. 193 00:20:04,412 --> 00:20:07,215 Yeah, uh, my dads are artists, so... 194 00:20:07,282 --> 00:20:09,918 -Your parents are artists? -Yeah. 195 00:20:11,553 --> 00:20:12,921 That is so cool. 196 00:20:14,489 --> 00:20:15,824 It all makes sense now. 197 00:20:15,924 --> 00:20:17,726 Do you know when they'll be back? 198 00:20:18,793 --> 00:20:21,062 I'm actually not really sure. 199 00:20:21,129 --> 00:20:23,131 Yeah, they're gone like all the time. 200 00:20:27,235 --> 00:20:30,505 Uh, I have to be honest with you, 201 00:20:30,605 --> 00:20:32,140 'cause if I'm not then 202 00:20:32,240 --> 00:20:34,276 I'll probably feel really bad about it. 203 00:20:34,342 --> 00:20:36,611 But I watched some of... Thank you. 204 00:20:36,678 --> 00:20:40,148 Some of your dance videos on Instagram. 205 00:20:40,248 --> 00:20:43,652 In the videos, you come off like, so like hard. 206 00:20:43,752 --> 00:20:45,453 And whatever. 207 00:20:45,520 --> 00:20:47,589 What I'm tryin' to say is you're a completely different person 208 00:20:47,656 --> 00:20:50,025 when you're dancing and in real life, 209 00:20:50,125 --> 00:20:51,326 you're like so different. 210 00:20:51,426 --> 00:20:53,428 Yeah, I don't know why I'm like that. 211 00:20:53,495 --> 00:20:55,530 It's like... Yeah. 212 00:20:55,630 --> 00:20:58,967 It's cool though that you're able to like just switch into 213 00:20:59,034 --> 00:21:00,302 a different mode. 214 00:21:00,368 --> 00:21:01,536 Like I could never do something like that. 215 00:21:01,636 --> 00:21:02,804 It's dope. 216 00:21:06,374 --> 00:21:07,542 Thank you. 217 00:21:09,144 --> 00:21:10,478 Yeah. 218 00:21:14,182 --> 00:21:16,451 Is that... Is that wine okay for you? 219 00:21:16,518 --> 00:21:18,053 Oh, yeah, no, it's so good. 220 00:21:18,153 --> 00:21:19,721 Are you sure? I have like a couple of others-- 221 00:21:19,821 --> 00:21:21,022 No, it's... Yeah... 222 00:21:21,122 --> 00:21:23,892 That's like the best one I've ever had, so. 223 00:21:23,992 --> 00:21:25,026 Okay. 224 00:21:31,132 --> 00:21:32,901 -I'm sorry, I'm gonna-- -Oh. 225 00:21:33,001 --> 00:21:35,370 I'll turn this off, my mom keeps checking in on me. 226 00:21:36,237 --> 00:21:37,172 Okay. 227 00:21:38,673 --> 00:21:40,408 Nick told me that 228 00:21:40,508 --> 00:21:43,545 Quinton's brother's service is tomorrow. 229 00:21:43,645 --> 00:21:45,347 Already? That's-- 230 00:21:45,413 --> 00:21:47,015 -Yeah, I-- -That's great. 231 00:21:47,082 --> 00:21:51,152 I guess some religions do them fast. 232 00:21:51,219 --> 00:21:52,420 I was thinkin' about going. 233 00:21:52,520 --> 00:21:53,688 Do you think that would be weird? 234 00:21:53,755 --> 00:21:56,091 No. No, I don't... I don't think so. 235 00:21:57,525 --> 00:21:59,561 Okay. 236 00:21:59,661 --> 00:22:03,164 I mean, I can, like, come with you if you want. 237 00:22:03,231 --> 00:22:04,699 Yeah, no, I-- 238 00:22:04,766 --> 00:22:07,435 -Yeah, I want... Yeah. -Yeah, if you... 239 00:22:07,535 --> 00:22:10,338 Um, yeah. If that's cool with you, so... 240 00:22:11,606 --> 00:22:14,075 -Yeah, let's do it. -Cool. 241 00:22:18,413 --> 00:22:20,014 Can I ask you a question? 242 00:22:20,081 --> 00:22:21,049 Mmm-hmm. 243 00:22:25,687 --> 00:22:27,455 Did you have like 244 00:22:27,555 --> 00:22:29,524 the craziest nightmares last night? 245 00:22:31,593 --> 00:22:34,262 You have to be able to sleep to have nightmares. 246 00:22:54,215 --> 00:22:55,316 Hey. 247 00:22:55,417 --> 00:22:56,484 -Hey. -Hey. 248 00:22:57,585 --> 00:22:59,254 Uh, thank you for coming. 249 00:23:00,488 --> 00:23:01,456 Of course. 250 00:24:46,761 --> 00:24:48,596 Do you wanna go to Starbucks? 251 00:24:48,696 --> 00:24:49,664 No. 252 00:24:50,431 --> 00:24:52,100 Do you want a Starbucks? 253 00:24:52,834 --> 00:24:54,335 Mmm, no. 254 00:24:55,937 --> 00:24:56,871 Okay. 255 00:25:05,780 --> 00:25:08,950 I'm literally gonna make Mom get me something with caffeine . 256 00:25:27,569 --> 00:25:30,738 I only do that when I play with my little dinosaur. 257 00:25:32,240 --> 00:25:34,309 Do the cat pitch. 258 00:25:34,409 --> 00:25:36,444 Never again. 259 00:25:39,480 --> 00:25:41,816 I only do that when I play with my little dinosaur. 260 00:25:43,818 --> 00:25:45,320 Do the cat pitch. 261 00:25:46,654 --> 00:25:47,822 Never again. 262 00:25:52,727 --> 00:25:54,262 Are you hungry? 263 00:26:00,501 --> 00:26:02,804 -That's really good. -Mmm. 264 00:26:02,904 --> 00:26:04,505 I'm spilling it everywhere. 265 00:26:06,107 --> 00:26:07,408 It is really good. 266 00:26:10,111 --> 00:26:11,679 Are your dads really chill? 267 00:26:16,284 --> 00:26:18,152 They travel a lot though, huh? 268 00:26:18,252 --> 00:26:19,487 Mostly, Europe. 269 00:26:20,188 --> 00:26:21,456 For like fun? 270 00:26:22,690 --> 00:26:24,192 Work. 271 00:26:24,292 --> 00:26:25,827 Do they send people to spy on you 272 00:26:25,927 --> 00:26:29,130 or they trust you just to not throw a bunch of ragers. 273 00:26:30,965 --> 00:26:35,970 I mean, they know I'm not like a rager person, so. 274 00:26:37,438 --> 00:26:38,840 Who do you hang out with at school? 275 00:26:39,974 --> 00:26:40,942 Like... 276 00:26:42,310 --> 00:26:44,345 Like different people. 277 00:26:45,513 --> 00:26:47,215 Like a bunch of different people, so. 278 00:26:49,283 --> 00:26:50,852 I'm gone a lot with dance. 279 00:26:51,686 --> 00:26:53,021 How often do you dance? 280 00:26:53,821 --> 00:26:55,523 Every day. 281 00:26:55,623 --> 00:26:56,858 Like classes? 282 00:26:56,958 --> 00:26:58,126 Mmm-hmm. 283 00:26:59,394 --> 00:27:02,363 But I haven't gone 284 00:27:02,463 --> 00:27:05,199 since the thing. 285 00:27:12,340 --> 00:27:13,875 Are your parents chill? 286 00:27:16,377 --> 00:27:19,080 My dad more than my mom, for sure. 287 00:27:19,180 --> 00:27:22,517 -My mom's like very white and anxious. 288 00:27:24,252 --> 00:27:26,387 I don't really tell 'em anything though, 'cause like 289 00:27:27,055 --> 00:27:28,156 they worry. 290 00:27:31,025 --> 00:27:33,861 I feel kinda bad for it. They're actually really good parents. 291 00:27:39,200 --> 00:27:40,702 I see you're packing for a trip. 292 00:27:40,768 --> 00:27:42,036 What's your favorite country to visit? 293 00:27:42,103 --> 00:27:43,337 Paris. 294 00:27:43,404 --> 00:27:45,106 What's the last country you visited? 295 00:27:45,206 --> 00:27:46,541 Europe. 296 00:27:46,607 --> 00:27:48,109 What country do you wish to visit? 297 00:27:48,209 --> 00:27:49,343 Persia. 298 00:27:51,179 --> 00:27:53,614 What's the weirdest word in the English language? 299 00:27:53,715 --> 00:27:56,017 Moist. Yuck. 300 00:27:56,084 --> 00:27:57,452 When was the last time you cried? 301 00:28:01,189 --> 00:28:02,457 Can you stay? 302 00:28:05,560 --> 00:28:06,761 It's late. 303 00:28:07,895 --> 00:28:09,397 Just till I fall asleep. 304 00:28:13,901 --> 00:28:14,902 Okay. 305 00:28:15,903 --> 00:28:16,971 Thanks. 306 00:28:23,077 --> 00:28:24,112 What's your favorite movie? 307 00:28:24,212 --> 00:28:25,146 Mmm, Pizza. 308 00:28:25,246 --> 00:28:27,081 Favorite TV show? 309 00:28:27,148 --> 00:28:29,283 Um, I would have to say my pilot with Kate Berlant 310 00:28:29,383 --> 00:28:31,252 that was passed on by every major network and streaming platform. 311 00:28:31,319 --> 00:28:33,421 Meanwhile, rapists everywhere continue to freely make up 10. 312 00:28:33,488 --> 00:28:34,756 What up, bitch? 313 00:28:34,822 --> 00:28:36,991 Dude, I'm so sorry I missed the march. 314 00:28:37,091 --> 00:28:40,261 I mean, it's fine. I was just, like, legit worried about you. 315 00:28:40,328 --> 00:28:42,130 It was cool, though. They let me speak. 316 00:28:42,230 --> 00:28:44,999 I wish you'd been there, but it's fine, I'll send you a link. 317 00:28:45,099 --> 00:28:47,635 I know, I'm sorry. I just... 318 00:28:47,735 --> 00:28:50,338 It's a long story, but I ended up goin' to Mia's house and-- 319 00:28:50,438 --> 00:28:52,306 Wait, lol, Mia Reed? 320 00:28:52,840 --> 00:28:54,308 What? 321 00:28:54,408 --> 00:28:55,743 Yeah. 322 00:28:55,810 --> 00:29:00,114 She... She's just been alone and I feel bad. 323 00:29:00,181 --> 00:29:04,152 -So I just-- -No, no, no, I mean, it's fine. It's just like random. 324 00:29:04,252 --> 00:29:05,419 Is she okay? 325 00:29:05,486 --> 00:29:06,954 I mean, she will be. 326 00:29:08,623 --> 00:29:10,158 Are you okay? 327 00:29:10,258 --> 00:29:11,192 Yeah. 328 00:29:11,993 --> 00:29:13,261 Just tired. 329 00:29:16,130 --> 00:29:18,966 We wanna know how a 16-year-old can have access 330 00:29:19,033 --> 00:29:22,370 to a military assault rifle and that's considered okay? 331 00:29:22,470 --> 00:29:24,372 -It's not okay! 332 00:29:24,472 --> 00:29:26,274 We want change. 333 00:29:26,340 --> 00:29:29,443 We deserve to feel safe going to our own school every day... 334 00:29:52,967 --> 00:29:55,903 It feels like so soon. It's been like two weeks. 335 00:29:56,003 --> 00:29:57,338 No, I hear you. 336 00:29:57,405 --> 00:29:59,040 It's... It's intense, but I just... 337 00:29:59,140 --> 00:30:01,809 I don't want us to be ruled by fear, you know? 338 00:30:01,876 --> 00:30:03,711 I feel like it'll be less scary if we were together. 339 00:30:03,811 --> 00:30:04,979 I gotta go. 340 00:30:05,046 --> 00:30:06,047 Okay, love you. Call me later. 341 00:30:06,147 --> 00:30:07,582 Hey! Honey, can I come in? 342 00:30:07,682 --> 00:30:09,884 You don't have to ask to come in, Mom. 343 00:30:09,984 --> 00:30:12,420 Okay. 344 00:30:12,520 --> 00:30:16,524 So it sounds like Nick's going back today, huh? 345 00:30:16,591 --> 00:30:19,760 Yup. He is. 346 00:30:19,861 --> 00:30:21,762 Well... 347 00:30:21,863 --> 00:30:23,731 Well, as long as you wanna stay home, 348 00:30:23,831 --> 00:30:28,102 you know, your dad and I support that. 349 00:30:28,202 --> 00:30:29,170 Thank you. 350 00:30:33,541 --> 00:30:35,776 There's just one thing. 351 00:30:42,350 --> 00:30:44,252 Were you tired a lot before the incident? 352 00:30:47,121 --> 00:30:48,623 LOL. 353 00:30:50,725 --> 00:30:52,393 You called it "the incident". 354 00:30:52,460 --> 00:30:54,729 Um... 355 00:30:54,795 --> 00:30:57,431 No, I guess I'm just always tired. 356 00:30:57,531 --> 00:30:59,700 I mean, I guess, that's what caffeine is for. 357 00:30:59,767 --> 00:31:00,968 Right? 358 00:31:02,236 --> 00:31:04,972 What do you do when you get tired? 359 00:31:05,072 --> 00:31:07,541 Sleep for like 14 hours straight. 360 00:31:07,608 --> 00:31:09,911 Ooh, I really like watching early seasons 361 00:31:09,977 --> 00:31:11,045 of the Kardashians. 362 00:31:11,112 --> 00:31:12,880 The OG Hidden Hills shit. 363 00:31:14,282 --> 00:31:15,983 That is my vibe! 364 00:31:23,257 --> 00:31:26,327 What's this, you're just gonna fax that to my mom or... 365 00:31:26,427 --> 00:31:28,763 -Fax? -Yes. Fax. 366 00:31:28,829 --> 00:31:31,299 What are you, a time traveler from the '80s? 367 00:31:32,967 --> 00:31:36,437 I mean, I had my suspicions when I saw those sneakers, 368 00:31:36,504 --> 00:31:39,006 but now I'm pretty convinced. 369 00:31:39,106 --> 00:31:40,908 Touche. 370 00:31:40,975 --> 00:31:42,944 Touche. 371 00:31:43,010 --> 00:31:46,614 Look, I know this whole therapy thing is weird 372 00:31:46,681 --> 00:31:48,115 and can be uncomfortable. 373 00:31:48,182 --> 00:31:50,251 But everything that you say in here is confidential. 374 00:31:50,318 --> 00:31:53,254 And, side note, I actually do really like your shoes. 375 00:31:53,321 --> 00:31:55,156 They're very cool. 376 00:31:55,256 --> 00:31:57,825 No, I know. Thank you. 377 00:31:59,527 --> 00:32:01,429 Are there things that you don't feel comfortable talking 378 00:32:01,495 --> 00:32:05,166 to your parents about that maybe you wanna share with me? 379 00:32:10,972 --> 00:32:12,206 Yeah. 380 00:32:14,508 --> 00:32:16,210 My porn addiction. 381 00:32:16,310 --> 00:32:18,145 Okay. 382 00:32:20,381 --> 00:32:21,682 I'm so sorry. I'm... 383 00:32:21,782 --> 00:32:23,284 When I get nervous, 384 00:32:23,351 --> 00:32:25,553 I make really inappropriate jokes, so, my bad. 385 00:32:25,653 --> 00:32:27,688 You don't have to be sorry. 386 00:32:27,788 --> 00:32:29,457 And you don't have to be nervous. 387 00:32:31,025 --> 00:32:34,462 Well, I know that my parents are worried about me 388 00:32:34,528 --> 00:32:36,797 and they think I need help. 389 00:32:36,864 --> 00:32:39,667 But I get it, and that's fine, 390 00:32:39,734 --> 00:32:42,236 but I personally am fine. 391 00:32:42,336 --> 00:32:45,973 Like I feel like I'm really good at managing my emotions. 392 00:32:46,040 --> 00:32:47,074 It's... 393 00:32:48,342 --> 00:32:49,877 What do you mean by that? 394 00:32:51,545 --> 00:32:53,748 I'm just very chill. 395 00:32:53,848 --> 00:32:55,916 Like a very low-key person. 396 00:32:56,017 --> 00:32:59,687 So when it comes to emotional stuff or drama I'm like 397 00:32:59,754 --> 00:33:03,057 "Okay, is this really productive?" 398 00:33:04,525 --> 00:33:06,660 Yeah. I get it. 399 00:33:06,727 --> 00:33:08,863 But you know, just because-- 400 00:33:08,929 --> 00:33:12,366 It doesn't necessarily mean that someone's being dramatic 401 00:33:12,433 --> 00:33:14,769 because they're emotional. 402 00:33:14,869 --> 00:33:16,237 You know, for a lot of people, 403 00:33:16,337 --> 00:33:17,838 they need to fully experience their emotions, 404 00:33:17,905 --> 00:33:20,174 in order to process what they've been through, 405 00:33:20,241 --> 00:33:22,443 so that they can begin to heal. 406 00:33:22,543 --> 00:33:25,212 It's actually really healthy to show your emotion. 407 00:33:33,454 --> 00:33:34,789 I know most people come in here crying 408 00:33:34,889 --> 00:33:36,457 about their cheating husbands. 409 00:33:36,557 --> 00:33:38,526 Vada, I wanna talk about you. 410 00:33:40,061 --> 00:33:42,129 I wanna know how that shooting at your school 411 00:33:42,229 --> 00:33:43,597 has made you feel. 412 00:33:47,968 --> 00:33:49,770 I feel... 413 00:33:55,743 --> 00:33:57,812 It's okay. 414 00:33:57,912 --> 00:33:59,246 I mean, it makes sense. 415 00:34:02,817 --> 00:34:05,119 I want you to track how you're feeling 416 00:34:05,219 --> 00:34:07,421 using this worksheet. 417 00:34:07,488 --> 00:34:09,323 So there's questions on there that'll guide you. 418 00:34:09,423 --> 00:34:10,825 You don't have to overthink it, 419 00:34:10,925 --> 00:34:12,726 it's just basically there to hold space for you to... 420 00:34:12,793 --> 00:34:16,263 To understand whatever emotions may come up. 421 00:34:17,431 --> 00:34:19,567 All you have to do is try and feel. 422 00:34:19,633 --> 00:34:20,768 That's it. 423 00:34:20,835 --> 00:34:22,903 No matter what those feelings are. 424 00:34:22,970 --> 00:34:26,240 Then you can bring it back next session and we'll go through it. 425 00:34:26,307 --> 00:34:28,108 Or you know, you can fax it to me! 426 00:34:28,175 --> 00:34:29,343 If that's easier for you. 427 00:34:33,114 --> 00:34:37,618 She said you were incredibly bright, and smart, and funny. 428 00:34:37,685 --> 00:34:39,987 Wait, is she in love with me? 429 00:34:40,087 --> 00:34:41,856 Oh, what's the point of goin' to therapy, 430 00:34:41,956 --> 00:34:44,024 if they're just gonna tell their parents everything they said after? 431 00:34:44,124 --> 00:34:45,759 Honey, she didn't tell me anything. 432 00:34:45,826 --> 00:34:48,028 She gave me a general assessment of how the session went. 433 00:34:48,128 --> 00:34:50,097 -That's all. -She thought you were doing really well, 434 00:34:50,164 --> 00:34:51,532 considering what you went through. 435 00:34:51,632 --> 00:34:53,367 -Excuse me? -Amelia! 436 00:34:53,467 --> 00:34:56,770 She was on speakerphone. It's not like I was trying to listen. 437 00:34:56,837 --> 00:34:57,938 I'm sorry. 438 00:34:58,005 --> 00:34:59,807 Whatever. Do I need to go again? 439 00:34:59,874 --> 00:35:01,976 Because it sounds like she thinks everything is fine. 440 00:35:02,042 --> 00:35:03,677 Well, I don't know, honey. 441 00:35:03,777 --> 00:35:06,347 I mean, do you think you're ready to go back to school? 442 00:35:10,151 --> 00:35:11,619 -Aren't you coming with us? -No. 443 00:35:11,685 --> 00:35:13,053 Well, I don't know what you want. 444 00:35:13,154 --> 00:35:14,889 -I don't know, turkey. -Toasted? 445 00:35:14,989 --> 00:35:16,690 I don't care, Mom! 446 00:37:10,404 --> 00:37:12,906 We won't live our lives scared to go to school every day. 447 00:37:12,973 --> 00:37:15,342 We can't accept a world in which the federal government 448 00:37:15,442 --> 00:37:17,578 thinks American high school students getting gunned down 449 00:37:17,645 --> 00:37:19,947 in their classrooms isn't a priority. 450 00:37:20,014 --> 00:37:23,183 We won't accept that our leaders have NRA money in their pockets 451 00:37:23,284 --> 00:37:25,486 and our blood on their hands. 452 00:37:25,586 --> 00:37:27,154 We want real change. 453 00:37:27,254 --> 00:37:29,323 We want real leadership, honest politics that make 454 00:37:29,423 --> 00:37:32,993 our schools a safe place for us to learn and grow. 455 00:37:33,093 --> 00:37:34,528 And we want it before it's too late. 456 00:37:34,628 --> 00:37:35,863 Can I have some wine? 457 00:37:35,963 --> 00:37:37,431 That was Nick Feinstein, 458 00:37:37,498 --> 00:37:38,799 one of the several surviving students. 459 00:38:03,490 --> 00:38:05,125 Does it get stuck on your fingers? 460 00:38:06,060 --> 00:38:07,695 Yeah. 461 00:38:07,795 --> 00:38:10,631 I don't know, it's gonna be good, you know? 462 00:38:13,400 --> 00:38:15,669 -You just gotta get in it, you know? -Yeah, like that? 463 00:38:19,306 --> 00:38:21,141 -It's the shoulders. -It's all in the shoulders. 464 00:38:21,208 --> 00:38:23,377 -Like you can't do it without the shoulders. -Okay, my bad. 465 00:38:26,146 --> 00:38:27,414 I feel like that felt right. 466 00:38:27,514 --> 00:38:29,350 -Yeah. Yeah, I think so. -Like now it feels ready. 467 00:38:29,416 --> 00:38:31,318 -I think if you did it anymore, it'd be overkill. -Okay. Okay. 468 00:38:39,026 --> 00:38:40,194 Oh, where did it go? 469 00:38:41,729 --> 00:38:43,030 It wasn't enough. 470 00:38:43,097 --> 00:38:45,399 No, you definitely have to grind it way more. 471 00:38:45,499 --> 00:38:46,867 I need more? 472 00:38:46,934 --> 00:38:49,002 Little more. 473 00:38:49,069 --> 00:38:52,539 Ooh, yeah. Stoner vibes. 474 00:38:52,606 --> 00:38:53,774 It's gonna be good. 475 00:38:53,874 --> 00:38:55,209 -So good? -So good. 476 00:38:55,275 --> 00:38:56,443 Can't wait? 477 00:38:56,543 --> 00:38:57,378 Can't wait. Are you getting pumped? 478 00:38:57,444 --> 00:38:59,780 Go! Go! Go! Go! 479 00:38:59,880 --> 00:39:01,281 This is it. 480 00:39:02,783 --> 00:39:05,686 -Ooh. -Look at us. 481 00:39:05,753 --> 00:39:07,921 -Who'd have thought? -Who'd have thought? 482 00:39:08,021 --> 00:39:10,023 That is fat. 483 00:39:10,090 --> 00:39:11,859 Why do you trust me? 484 00:39:11,925 --> 00:39:15,028 'Cause you've smoked before. 485 00:39:15,095 --> 00:39:18,298 -Okay. Not like too much. -It's so thick. 486 00:39:20,100 --> 00:39:22,436 Is it ever too much? 487 00:39:22,536 --> 00:39:25,439 -We'll find out. -Stoner thoughts. 488 00:39:25,539 --> 00:39:27,908 -Hey, did you just say "stoner thoughts"? -Yes, I did! 489 00:39:32,045 --> 00:39:33,113 Oh! 490 00:39:34,948 --> 00:39:36,316 It's kinda thick. 491 00:39:36,417 --> 00:39:39,720 -Curvy queen. So beautiful! -She has curves. 492 00:39:39,787 --> 00:39:41,121 -Holy, how do I?-- -Do the honors. 493 00:39:41,221 --> 00:39:42,990 -No, just... Just... No. -Do I-- 494 00:39:43,090 --> 00:39:44,725 Is this cigarette or is it like this? 495 00:39:44,792 --> 00:39:46,160 -Cigarette? Weed? -You choose. 496 00:39:46,260 --> 00:39:47,795 -Weed? Cigarette? Weed? -You choose. You choose. 497 00:39:48,929 --> 00:39:50,998 Wait, other-- 498 00:39:51,098 --> 00:39:52,966 Oh! 499 00:39:54,802 --> 00:39:57,137 Okay. This is it. 500 00:40:00,774 --> 00:40:03,644 Yo, it has gotten so bad though, like so bad, 501 00:40:03,744 --> 00:40:06,280 to the point where they're cutting the elephant tusks off 502 00:40:06,346 --> 00:40:07,514 before they release them, 503 00:40:07,614 --> 00:40:08,982 so like the poachers can't kill them. 504 00:40:09,082 --> 00:40:10,784 So, it's like, "Okay, they don't have tusks, 505 00:40:10,851 --> 00:40:12,920 but like at least, they're alive." You know? 506 00:40:12,986 --> 00:40:15,088 It's so messed up! 507 00:40:15,155 --> 00:40:17,491 No, and then it makes me think about the uh, what's his name? 508 00:40:17,591 --> 00:40:19,359 The Jimmy John's founder? 509 00:40:19,460 --> 00:40:21,328 Apparently, he's like some trophy hunter. 510 00:40:21,428 --> 00:40:23,163 But the thing about that one is like I don't know 511 00:40:23,263 --> 00:40:24,965 if I have the right to be mad about that, 512 00:40:25,032 --> 00:40:26,500 'cause I don't know if it's true or not. 513 00:40:26,600 --> 00:40:29,169 So every time I see it, I'm like, "Is this real? 514 00:40:29,269 --> 00:40:30,504 Or is it like this fake news?" 515 00:40:30,604 --> 00:40:35,275 Like, "Can I trust this meme?" 516 00:40:35,342 --> 00:40:38,479 Can you be honest with me for like 2.5 seconds? 517 00:40:38,545 --> 00:40:41,715 -Am I being annoying? 518 00:40:41,815 --> 00:40:43,217 Because personally for me, I feel like this weed 519 00:40:43,317 --> 00:40:44,985 is making me a little bit chatty. 520 00:40:45,052 --> 00:40:48,188 Like I don't even feel sad at this point, I'm just chatty. 521 00:40:48,288 --> 00:40:50,524 I don't know, is that bad? What about you, what do you feel? 522 00:40:52,192 --> 00:40:54,027 I feel chill. 523 00:40:55,696 --> 00:40:57,564 You always feel chill. 524 00:41:06,006 --> 00:41:07,407 I feel nothing. 525 00:41:09,676 --> 00:41:12,079 -Fuck! 526 00:41:22,322 --> 00:41:24,825 -I hate weed. 527 00:41:31,899 --> 00:41:33,500 I hope that's not your dinner. 528 00:41:33,567 --> 00:41:34,935 Yup. 529 00:41:35,035 --> 00:41:36,336 Ew, Vada. 530 00:41:37,404 --> 00:41:39,106 Where's your sister? 531 00:41:39,206 --> 00:41:43,110 Um, filming a nighttime routine for her YouTube channel. 532 00:41:43,210 --> 00:41:44,611 Don't ask. 533 00:41:44,711 --> 00:41:47,014 Do you think we should take her phone away? 534 00:41:47,080 --> 00:41:50,417 No, but you should probably get that app where you can see everything she does online. 535 00:41:50,517 --> 00:41:52,553 That exists? Who knew! 536 00:41:52,619 --> 00:41:55,789 Wow, where we'd be without you? 537 00:42:00,060 --> 00:42:04,798 So Vada, honey, I was um... 538 00:42:04,898 --> 00:42:06,533 I wanted to talk to you about school. 539 00:42:10,437 --> 00:42:11,939 What's up? 540 00:42:12,039 --> 00:42:13,874 Well, I don't want you to fall too far behind. 541 00:42:13,941 --> 00:42:15,142 I won't. 542 00:42:15,242 --> 00:42:16,643 Well, you can't stay home forever. 543 00:42:16,743 --> 00:42:19,580 Why not? 544 00:42:19,646 --> 00:42:22,049 Sure, I just think that the longer you stay home, 545 00:42:22,115 --> 00:42:26,253 the harder it's gonna be for you to go back. 546 00:42:26,787 --> 00:42:28,755 All... 547 00:42:28,822 --> 00:42:31,558 All I want is what's best for you. 548 00:42:31,625 --> 00:42:34,227 I wanna see that sparkle back. 549 00:42:39,600 --> 00:42:41,635 You know, Amelia got her period. 550 00:42:42,336 --> 00:42:43,437 What? 551 00:42:45,272 --> 00:42:47,107 -When? -Forever ago. 552 00:42:47,174 --> 00:42:49,409 Guess she just didn't want you to know. 553 00:42:59,820 --> 00:43:02,356 My mom's tryin' to make me go back to school. 554 00:43:03,457 --> 00:43:05,692 Fuck. 555 00:43:05,792 --> 00:43:07,127 When are you gonna go back? 556 00:43:09,096 --> 00:43:10,631 I don't know. 557 00:43:10,697 --> 00:43:12,666 My dads said I could do homeschooling as long as I want. 558 00:43:14,801 --> 00:43:16,269 Lucky you. 559 00:43:20,307 --> 00:43:22,175 I'm gonna try and get some sleep. 560 00:43:22,275 --> 00:43:23,477 Goodnight. 561 00:43:25,445 --> 00:43:26,380 Night! 562 00:43:45,565 --> 00:43:48,869 Get out of the building and far away from it as you can. 563 00:43:48,969 --> 00:43:50,871 Next, you need to find... 564 00:44:01,715 --> 00:44:03,517 Always remember these three things. 565 00:44:34,715 --> 00:44:36,917 That should be enough for today. 566 00:44:37,017 --> 00:44:39,686 You can basically just review your notes for the test. 567 00:44:39,753 --> 00:44:43,023 Again, if I've talked about it, it'll be on the test. 568 00:44:43,090 --> 00:44:44,458 And guys, remember, I said, 569 00:44:44,558 --> 00:44:45,959 "No phones during classes, please." 570 00:45:12,085 --> 00:45:13,153 Shit. 571 00:45:14,154 --> 00:45:17,124 Oh, you bitch. 572 00:45:18,658 --> 00:45:21,161 You dumb fucking bitch. 573 00:45:24,598 --> 00:45:26,299 It was a fucking soda can! 574 00:45:29,302 --> 00:45:30,971 Dumb fucking stupid-- 575 00:45:31,071 --> 00:45:33,740 So today at PE, Jack Booth was whopping the beanbag 576 00:45:33,807 --> 00:45:36,109 and one hit me in the forearm, and the PE teacher saw it, 577 00:45:36,176 --> 00:45:37,778 and didn't say one word. 578 00:45:37,844 --> 00:45:39,479 And I was like, "Okay, you're terrible at about your job." 579 00:45:39,579 --> 00:45:41,848 I'm sure he's not terrible at his job, Amelia. 580 00:45:41,948 --> 00:45:44,117 Dad, he's protected by union and tenure. 581 00:45:44,184 --> 00:45:46,853 That's the only reason he's still there. 582 00:45:46,953 --> 00:45:48,355 How about you, Vada? How was... 583 00:45:48,455 --> 00:45:49,656 How was your first day back? 584 00:45:53,260 --> 00:45:55,629 Just low-key. 585 00:45:55,695 --> 00:45:58,298 So, is everyone settling in okay? 586 00:45:58,365 --> 00:46:01,935 I don't know, it's... It's heavy, but I think everybody's 587 00:46:02,002 --> 00:46:03,770 just tryin' to move on. 588 00:46:03,837 --> 00:46:07,474 Good. That's good. I'm so glad. 589 00:46:07,541 --> 00:46:10,210 Yeah, it's amazing. 590 00:46:10,310 --> 00:46:11,845 Ugh, I'm so full. 591 00:46:11,945 --> 00:46:12,879 Finish your salad. 592 00:46:14,281 --> 00:46:15,515 It's wilted. 593 00:46:15,615 --> 00:46:17,317 It's good for you. Finish it. 594 00:46:17,384 --> 00:46:20,620 I just can't do arugula, Dad. It's the texture! 595 00:46:32,365 --> 00:46:33,333 Hey. 596 00:46:35,235 --> 00:46:37,070 Uh, hey. 597 00:46:38,505 --> 00:46:40,240 Do you have any E? 598 00:46:41,007 --> 00:46:43,243 Uh, what? 599 00:46:47,914 --> 00:46:49,316 How much do you want? 600 00:48:10,764 --> 00:48:12,265 There's gonna be a quiz, okay? Um... 601 00:48:14,467 --> 00:48:16,970 May I go to the restroom? 602 00:48:17,070 --> 00:48:18,104 Sure. 603 00:48:20,307 --> 00:48:22,275 Okay, so make sure that you are studying. 604 00:48:22,342 --> 00:48:23,843 You have to know the difference 605 00:48:23,944 --> 00:48:26,680 I'm not gonna help you on this when you have a pop... 606 00:48:26,780 --> 00:48:29,950 quiz for this on Friday. 607 00:48:53,173 --> 00:48:54,808 -Nick. 608 00:49:42,055 --> 00:49:43,656 Vada, Vada! 609 00:49:43,723 --> 00:49:44,924 Oh my God, Vada! Hey! 610 00:49:45,025 --> 00:49:46,926 Hey, hey, hey! Vada, what'd you take? 611 00:49:47,027 --> 00:49:49,095 I hate it here. 612 00:49:49,195 --> 00:49:51,698 Vada, what're you doing? Hey, what'd you take? 613 00:49:51,765 --> 00:49:53,333 Hey, what's on your face? Vada, come on! 614 00:49:53,400 --> 00:49:54,567 Spaghetti. 615 00:49:54,667 --> 00:49:55,769 No. 616 00:49:55,869 --> 00:49:56,936 Hey, you need to get your shit together 617 00:49:57,037 --> 00:49:58,204 before someone sees you. Come on! 618 00:49:58,271 --> 00:50:00,573 Ready? We're going. We're going! 619 00:50:00,673 --> 00:50:02,776 We're going, okay. 620 00:50:05,712 --> 00:50:07,580 Is it at least a good high? 621 00:50:11,418 --> 00:50:13,787 Is that an elbow? 622 00:50:18,558 --> 00:50:20,226 Why's your mouth all blue? 623 00:50:20,293 --> 00:50:22,695 Jesus, Millie, what do you want? 624 00:50:24,464 --> 00:50:26,199 A pen exploded in my mouth. 625 00:50:26,266 --> 00:50:27,867 Oh, that happened to me once, too, 626 00:50:27,934 --> 00:50:29,035 but like it was a marker. 627 00:50:29,102 --> 00:50:30,303 Good story, what do you want? 628 00:50:31,738 --> 00:50:33,239 Nothing. 629 00:50:52,792 --> 00:50:54,160 Mmm. 630 00:50:59,899 --> 00:51:01,901 Ugh. 631 00:51:09,809 --> 00:51:11,611 Motherfucker. 632 00:51:12,912 --> 00:51:14,013 Shit. 633 00:51:18,918 --> 00:51:22,322 Oh, okay, so I guess you weren't playing. 634 00:51:22,422 --> 00:51:23,823 What does that mean? 635 00:51:23,923 --> 00:51:25,825 Let me read you this text. 636 00:51:25,925 --> 00:51:29,195 "Uh, Q, I did drugs," with a Z, by the way. 637 00:51:29,295 --> 00:51:31,598 That was the Z on the drugs. 638 00:51:31,664 --> 00:51:34,767 Uh, "And I'm YOLOing hard. Hit me up, honey. 639 00:51:34,834 --> 00:51:36,369 Let's party." 640 00:51:36,469 --> 00:51:40,707 And then you did this emoji, and then this emoji, 641 00:51:40,807 --> 00:51:42,308 and then a hockey stick. 642 00:51:42,375 --> 00:51:44,777 You just spammed, uh, spammed emojis. 643 00:51:44,844 --> 00:51:46,312 No, I did not. 644 00:51:46,379 --> 00:51:48,214 Yeah, yeah, you did. 645 00:51:48,314 --> 00:51:50,517 But uh, now why'd you do the drugs, uh, with the Z? 646 00:51:50,617 --> 00:51:55,855 Dude, I literally don't know, so what had happened was... 647 00:51:55,955 --> 00:51:58,057 Is, um... 648 00:51:58,158 --> 00:52:02,695 I was walking past Dan Bonavure, and I was like, "Okay, 649 00:52:02,795 --> 00:52:05,698 I know he's a dealer. I know he has E. 650 00:52:05,798 --> 00:52:07,567 I'm gonna take some like right now." 651 00:52:07,667 --> 00:52:09,469 Oh shit, okay. Uh, and how're... 652 00:52:09,536 --> 00:52:11,638 How're you feelin' now? 653 00:52:11,704 --> 00:52:13,373 To be determined. 654 00:52:13,473 --> 00:52:16,142 Well, I'm here if you need me. 655 00:52:16,209 --> 00:52:17,377 Um... 656 00:52:18,912 --> 00:52:21,214 What are you doing later? 657 00:52:21,314 --> 00:52:23,550 'Cause I was just gonna be low-key 658 00:52:23,650 --> 00:52:24,651 and like watch a movie or something. 659 00:52:24,717 --> 00:52:25,818 You should come by. 660 00:52:25,885 --> 00:52:28,188 Okay. And I'll bring the acid. 661 00:52:28,254 --> 00:52:29,155 Goodbye. 662 00:52:34,861 --> 00:52:36,829 So is he your boyfriend? 663 00:52:36,896 --> 00:52:38,164 What are you making? 664 00:52:38,231 --> 00:52:40,700 Slime. And don't avoid the question. 665 00:52:40,767 --> 00:52:42,235 This is way too juicy. 666 00:52:42,335 --> 00:52:44,037 You've literally never had a boy over 667 00:52:44,103 --> 00:52:45,505 that was straight before. 668 00:52:45,572 --> 00:52:47,006 Oh, sorry, sorry. 669 00:52:47,073 --> 00:52:48,708 I shouldn't assume his sexual orientation. 670 00:52:48,775 --> 00:52:50,443 So like how does he identify? 671 00:52:50,543 --> 00:52:52,345 You're asking way too many questions. 672 00:52:52,412 --> 00:52:55,448 Vada, you are gonna stay in the living room, right? 673 00:52:55,548 --> 00:52:57,784 No, I was thinking we're gonna snuggle in the dark in my room. 674 00:52:57,884 --> 00:52:58,952 Yes, Mom! 675 00:52:59,052 --> 00:53:00,787 I was just asking. 676 00:53:02,455 --> 00:53:04,290 Please don't embarrass me. 677 00:53:04,390 --> 00:53:07,427 I'm serious, Amelia. Oh my God. 678 00:53:09,963 --> 00:53:11,864 No! No, no, no, don't go in the river! 679 00:53:11,931 --> 00:53:13,700 -Why is he going in the river? -I don't know. 680 00:53:13,766 --> 00:53:16,236 This is the saddest shit I have ever seen in my life. 681 00:53:16,302 --> 00:53:17,804 This is terrible! 682 00:53:17,904 --> 00:53:20,473 This is so bad! Why would they let kids watch this? 683 00:53:20,573 --> 00:53:22,242 Yeah, you said you wanted to watch this. 684 00:53:22,308 --> 00:53:23,810 -I cannot... You picked this. -You said this was your fa-- 685 00:53:23,910 --> 00:53:25,712 I gave you options. I gave you options-- 686 00:53:25,778 --> 00:53:27,080 -Come on. -And you chose this one. 687 00:53:27,146 --> 00:53:27,780 What are you guys laughing at? 688 00:53:30,917 --> 00:53:31,718 Amelia! 689 00:53:31,784 --> 00:53:33,553 Sorry, sorry! 690 00:53:33,620 --> 00:53:35,822 I just wanted to let you guys know that the slime is almost ready. 691 00:53:35,922 --> 00:53:37,323 If you wanna try it, I'll allow it. 692 00:53:37,423 --> 00:53:38,891 I love slime. I wanna try. 693 00:53:38,958 --> 00:53:40,460 Okay! Do you want blue or red? 694 00:53:40,560 --> 00:53:41,661 Blue, please. 695 00:53:41,761 --> 00:53:43,329 Vada? 696 00:53:43,429 --> 00:53:46,232 I don't... Red. I don't care. 697 00:53:46,299 --> 00:53:47,634 Coming right up! 698 00:53:50,136 --> 00:53:51,571 I am so sorry. 699 00:53:51,638 --> 00:53:53,406 She's so cute. 700 00:53:53,473 --> 00:53:55,108 Do you wanna watch The Staircase? 701 00:53:55,174 --> 00:53:56,843 -Do you know what that is? -No, what's The Staircase? 702 00:53:56,943 --> 00:53:58,811 It's this white guy, who murders his second wife, 703 00:53:58,911 --> 00:54:01,447 and probably his first wife, and gets away with both. 704 00:54:01,514 --> 00:54:03,516 Oh, a tale as old as time. 705 00:54:03,616 --> 00:54:04,851 Tale as old as time, really? 706 00:54:04,951 --> 00:54:06,352 Yeah. 707 00:54:06,452 --> 00:54:08,187 Wait, no, have you seen the memes of like you know, 708 00:54:08,288 --> 00:54:10,123 all these women are obsessed with these murder docs, 709 00:54:10,189 --> 00:54:12,492 people have like taken these photos of the Stepford Wives 710 00:54:12,592 --> 00:54:14,193 you know, with the smile, with the knife? 711 00:54:14,294 --> 00:54:15,628 -It's like-- -Nah, I haven't seen-- 712 00:54:15,695 --> 00:54:17,664 Uh, and it says, "Murder me, Daddy." 713 00:54:17,764 --> 00:54:18,765 Nah, I haven't seen that. 714 00:54:18,831 --> 00:54:20,133 You've never seen that? 715 00:54:20,199 --> 00:54:22,969 It's everywhere. Check your timeline, dude. 716 00:54:24,837 --> 00:54:26,306 It's really funny. 717 00:54:31,010 --> 00:54:32,312 Everything okay? 718 00:54:34,781 --> 00:54:36,282 Is everything alright? 719 00:54:36,349 --> 00:54:38,484 Yeah, uh, I'm sorry. 720 00:54:38,551 --> 00:54:40,486 I just have to go home right now. 721 00:54:42,155 --> 00:54:44,357 I'm sorry, but you know, uh, family stuff. 722 00:54:44,457 --> 00:54:47,860 Yeah, don't even apologize. That's totally fine. 723 00:54:49,862 --> 00:54:52,732 Yeah, um, honestly, I just can't believe that 724 00:54:52,832 --> 00:54:56,235 you're gonna leave alone to watch this cat flow down the river all by myself. 725 00:54:56,336 --> 00:54:57,670 Oh, you're actually gonna finish it? 726 00:54:57,737 --> 00:54:59,305 I have to! I have to see what happens! 727 00:54:59,372 --> 00:55:03,676 Okay, well, uh, text me and let me know, 728 00:55:03,743 --> 00:55:04,677 you know, what happens. 729 00:55:08,081 --> 00:55:10,483 I hope everything's okay at home. 730 00:55:10,550 --> 00:55:12,218 You know how it is. 731 00:55:12,752 --> 00:55:13,986 Yeah. 732 00:55:14,987 --> 00:55:16,756 I'll see you. 733 00:55:35,241 --> 00:55:37,610 No, no, no, no, no 734 00:55:37,710 --> 00:55:39,245 -You don't trust me? -No! 735 00:55:39,345 --> 00:55:40,947 -You don't trust me? -No, mom! 736 00:55:41,047 --> 00:55:42,682 -You don't trust me? -Oh my God. 737 00:55:42,749 --> 00:55:44,117 -You don't trust me? -Stop! Stop! 738 00:55:44,217 --> 00:55:45,385 No, now let me see which one you have. 739 00:55:45,451 --> 00:55:46,586 -No, no, no, no, no, no. -Stop! 740 00:55:47,220 --> 00:55:49,122 Stop. 741 00:55:49,222 --> 00:55:50,423 -But this one, I heard this would be better. -That smells like strawberries. 742 00:55:50,523 --> 00:55:51,891 No, that's too-- 743 00:55:51,958 --> 00:55:53,459 No, smell, smell. Smell, smell. Smell. 744 00:55:53,559 --> 00:55:55,194 Oh! Ew! 745 00:55:55,261 --> 00:55:57,630 -Disgusting, I know. Oh God! -You're so bad. 746 00:56:00,566 --> 00:56:01,768 This one does smell good, though. 747 00:56:01,868 --> 00:56:04,570 Just take a little sniff. Come on. 748 00:56:09,075 --> 00:56:12,645 -Ow, Jesus! 749 00:56:13,579 --> 00:56:15,047 -V! -What? 750 00:56:15,114 --> 00:56:17,216 -Let me in! -No. 751 00:56:17,283 --> 00:56:19,252 You never lock the door. What are you doing in there? 752 00:56:19,318 --> 00:56:20,553 None of your business! 753 00:56:46,245 --> 00:56:48,314 Are you wearing my lipstick? 754 00:56:48,414 --> 00:56:50,016 What? No. 755 00:56:50,116 --> 00:56:52,318 Can you tell Mom I don't need a ride? Nick's gonna take me. 756 00:56:52,418 --> 00:56:54,954 Only if you tell me why you're wearing my lipstick. 757 00:56:55,021 --> 00:56:58,458 I think those fake glasses are messing with your vision, dude. 758 00:56:58,524 --> 00:57:00,793 Well, you know, everyone wears fake glasses now. 759 00:57:00,860 --> 00:57:02,462 It's socially acceptable! 760 00:57:04,163 --> 00:57:06,132 Okay, wait, serious question. 761 00:57:06,199 --> 00:57:07,366 Okay. 762 00:57:07,467 --> 00:57:10,636 Now Drake? Degrassi Drake? Choose. 763 00:57:11,537 --> 00:57:12,472 I like wheelchair Drake. 764 00:57:12,538 --> 00:57:14,774 Wheelchair Jimmy! 765 00:57:14,841 --> 00:57:16,876 -Jimmy! -Jimmy! 766 00:57:18,110 --> 00:57:19,011 Jimmy! 767 00:57:25,318 --> 00:57:27,153 You're, like, yodeling. 768 00:57:27,220 --> 00:57:28,955 You probably didn't know this about me, 769 00:57:29,021 --> 00:57:30,723 but I'm the best yodeler in my family. 770 00:57:30,823 --> 00:57:31,958 Prove it! 771 00:57:32,024 --> 00:57:34,393 You can't put me on the spot like that, 772 00:57:34,494 --> 00:57:35,728 'cause then that's just like, you know... 773 00:57:35,828 --> 00:57:37,196 This is like a little preview. 774 00:57:37,296 --> 00:57:38,998 -Yeah, this is like warm-up. -Okay. 775 00:57:39,065 --> 00:57:41,367 You know, but I'm gonna get you when you're not even ready. 776 00:57:41,467 --> 00:57:44,170 And you're gonna be like... 777 00:57:46,305 --> 00:57:48,808 Hey, you know, this might sound weird, 778 00:57:48,875 --> 00:57:52,144 'cause like I haven't known you for that long, 779 00:57:52,211 --> 00:57:54,046 but, like, I feel so comfortable with you. 780 00:57:54,146 --> 00:57:55,882 Like we're bonded or something. 781 00:57:58,818 --> 00:57:59,819 Same. 782 00:58:05,258 --> 00:58:07,059 When'd you lose your virginity? 783 00:58:09,262 --> 00:58:10,663 I haven't. 784 00:58:10,730 --> 00:58:11,864 You haven't had sex? 785 00:58:11,931 --> 00:58:13,032 No. 786 00:58:13,099 --> 00:58:14,700 Do you mean you haven't had today? 787 00:58:14,767 --> 00:58:18,271 -What? -You dance like such a fuck princess! 788 00:58:18,371 --> 00:58:19,705 What? No, I do not! 789 00:58:19,772 --> 00:58:21,374 -Yes, you do! -What does that even mean? 790 00:58:21,440 --> 00:58:23,276 It means exactly what it sounds like it means! 791 00:58:23,376 --> 00:58:24,443 You know, th... The fuck princess! 792 00:58:24,544 --> 00:58:26,178 -Nah. no. -Okay, I get... 793 00:58:26,245 --> 00:58:27,413 Okay, that's on me. 794 00:58:27,513 --> 00:58:29,348 -Never assume. -You never... 795 00:58:29,415 --> 00:58:31,250 Wait, like, have you? 796 00:58:34,720 --> 00:58:35,888 What? 797 00:58:35,955 --> 00:58:37,757 Obviously not! 798 00:58:38,457 --> 00:58:42,795 I am so awkward 799 00:58:42,895 --> 00:58:44,530 and like embarra... Like, no! 800 00:58:45,231 --> 00:58:47,400 Like, oh my God! 801 00:58:47,466 --> 00:58:48,734 I will say this. 802 00:58:48,801 --> 00:58:51,270 I feel like high school sex is very '90s. 803 00:58:51,370 --> 00:58:52,471 Okay. 804 00:58:52,572 --> 00:58:56,943 And waiting until college is more now. 805 00:58:57,043 --> 00:58:59,979 I mean, I feel like I'm probably gonna wait until I'm like in love. 806 00:59:02,548 --> 00:59:03,983 Oh. 807 00:59:04,984 --> 00:59:07,987 Oh, that's really sweet. 808 00:59:08,087 --> 00:59:11,891 Or when you go on tour with Drake one day. 809 00:59:13,326 --> 00:59:14,393 You just let him have it. 810 00:59:16,629 --> 00:59:18,631 What's wheelchair Jimmy like in bed? 811 01:00:25,831 --> 01:00:27,800 What are you thinkin' about? 812 01:00:28,467 --> 01:00:29,902 Hmm? 813 01:00:44,417 --> 01:00:47,687 Okay, I know you're a woman of very little words, 814 01:00:49,188 --> 01:00:52,692 but I know you got some deep shit happening 815 01:00:52,758 --> 01:00:56,195 -in this nice little head of yours. 816 01:00:57,530 --> 01:00:59,732 Beep. 817 01:01:00,433 --> 01:01:02,902 God. 818 01:01:03,002 --> 01:01:04,336 Anything? 819 01:01:06,172 --> 01:01:08,541 Okay. 820 01:01:08,607 --> 01:01:13,112 Let's say this. Let's say you die tomorrow. 821 01:01:13,212 --> 01:01:15,081 Okay? 822 01:01:15,181 --> 01:01:18,451 And what if you die sad, 'cause you regret not saying what you wanted to say? 823 01:01:20,886 --> 01:01:22,121 Then what? 824 01:01:31,464 --> 01:01:33,099 I can't say it. 825 01:01:33,199 --> 01:01:34,633 Why? 826 01:02:08,968 --> 01:02:11,070 Is this okay? 827 01:03:35,521 --> 01:03:36,755 Where have you been? 828 01:03:36,856 --> 01:03:38,724 We've been freaking out! 829 01:03:38,824 --> 01:03:40,259 I was at Nick's. 830 01:03:40,359 --> 01:03:43,329 Nick's been calling all morning wondering where you are. 831 01:03:46,265 --> 01:03:47,933 Vada, your phone was dead. 832 01:03:48,033 --> 01:03:49,368 We didn't know if something terrible had happened to you or-- 833 01:03:49,435 --> 01:03:53,005 I'm sorry. I'm fine. 834 01:03:53,072 --> 01:03:55,341 The perfect child tells a fat one. 835 01:03:55,407 --> 01:03:57,276 She better lose screen time for that one, Dad. 836 01:03:57,376 --> 01:03:59,044 Vada, come back here! 837 01:03:59,945 --> 01:04:01,213 Vada! 838 01:04:02,948 --> 01:04:04,750 I told you, you don't have to know! 839 01:04:04,850 --> 01:04:06,552 -Vada -Vada, don't be rude. 840 01:04:06,619 --> 01:04:08,787 Vada, what were you doing last night? 841 01:04:08,888 --> 01:04:11,257 Nothing, Jesus! 842 01:04:11,357 --> 01:04:12,958 Are you... Are you seeing someone? 843 01:04:13,058 --> 01:04:15,427 LOL, seeing someone. No! 844 01:04:15,527 --> 01:04:17,630 Uh, I'll do it... I'll do it. 845 01:04:21,867 --> 01:04:23,736 If you're gonna be spending the night 846 01:04:23,802 --> 01:04:24,937 at someone's house, Vada-- 847 01:04:25,037 --> 01:04:28,107 I'm not having sex, Mom! 848 01:04:28,207 --> 01:04:30,376 -Okay. -Oh, my God! 849 01:04:30,442 --> 01:04:31,911 What are you doing? 850 01:04:38,083 --> 01:04:40,486 Last night, I slept over at my friend Mia's house 851 01:04:40,586 --> 01:04:42,721 -and I got drunk. -You got drunk? 852 01:04:42,788 --> 01:04:45,391 Yeah, Mom, I got drunk. 853 01:04:45,457 --> 01:04:48,294 I am 16 years old and I drink alcohol, 854 01:04:48,394 --> 01:04:50,729 and here's the thing, I don't even like drinking. 855 01:04:50,796 --> 01:04:52,998 I was just tryin' to live in the moment, 856 01:04:53,098 --> 01:04:56,302 and feel shit, and YOLO or something, okay? 857 01:05:03,976 --> 01:05:07,913 Now if you excuse me, I am hungover as shit 858 01:05:07,980 --> 01:05:09,848 and I'm gonna go barf in the shower. 859 01:05:12,985 --> 01:05:14,453 Who's Mia? 860 01:05:14,520 --> 01:05:15,988 Who's Mia? 861 01:05:29,635 --> 01:05:31,170 I'm not even tryin' to be rude, I'm just-- 862 01:05:31,270 --> 01:05:33,172 I'm super busy and I don't have the time. 863 01:05:33,272 --> 01:05:34,640 So. 864 01:05:35,641 --> 01:05:36,976 Okay. 865 01:05:40,946 --> 01:05:42,381 I'm sorry I never called you back, 866 01:05:42,481 --> 01:05:45,117 but you didn't have to get me in trouble, dude. 867 01:05:45,184 --> 01:05:47,119 Vada, I was just worried about you. 868 01:05:47,186 --> 01:05:48,354 When I didn't hear back from you, 869 01:05:48,454 --> 01:05:49,788 I felt like I had to call your mom, 870 01:05:49,855 --> 01:05:51,190 'cause the last time I had seen you, 871 01:05:51,290 --> 01:05:53,659 you had literally done drugs at school. 872 01:05:53,726 --> 01:05:55,194 So I was like, "Okay, cool. 873 01:05:55,294 --> 01:05:58,230 Maybe she's like having a serotonin drop from hell 874 01:05:58,330 --> 01:06:02,501 and she's like suicidal on a bridge somewhere and... 875 01:06:02,568 --> 01:06:04,737 Then to hear like how freaked your family was all night, 876 01:06:04,837 --> 01:06:06,205 I just... 877 01:06:06,305 --> 01:06:08,073 I don't know, I hoped that 878 01:06:08,173 --> 01:06:10,242 whatever you went and did was worth everything you put them through. 879 01:06:10,342 --> 01:06:12,077 But, you know what? 880 01:06:12,177 --> 01:06:13,912 I'm guessing uh, it's more likely you were with Mia Reed somewhere, 881 01:06:14,013 --> 01:06:15,914 acting like nothing happened. 882 01:06:16,015 --> 01:06:18,917 Why're you being like this? 883 01:06:19,018 --> 01:06:21,553 Because I've waited for you, Vada. 884 01:06:21,653 --> 01:06:26,492 For a month, I've given you space and love to heal. 885 01:06:26,558 --> 01:06:28,427 But I've been dealing with this my own way! 886 01:06:28,527 --> 01:06:31,597 You haven't dealt with anything, that's the problem! 887 01:06:31,697 --> 01:06:33,866 All I wanna do is try my hardest to stop this 888 01:06:33,932 --> 01:06:35,267 from ever happening again. 889 01:06:35,367 --> 01:06:39,505 Like why is that so hard for you to understand? 890 01:06:39,571 --> 01:06:41,774 That's not fucking fair, Nick. 891 01:06:41,874 --> 01:06:44,109 None of this is fair, Vada. 892 01:06:47,880 --> 01:06:50,516 Yeah, yeah. Mmm-hmm, go be with Mia. 893 01:06:50,582 --> 01:06:52,918 She's gonna save the world with her hot ass. 894 01:06:53,018 --> 01:06:54,286 Fuck you, Nick. 895 01:06:54,386 --> 01:06:55,287 Wow. 896 01:06:56,889 --> 01:06:58,123 Nice. 897 01:07:02,294 --> 01:07:04,296 He's just hurtin', I think we all are. 898 01:07:04,396 --> 01:07:08,600 He was so cruel about it! 899 01:07:08,700 --> 01:07:11,470 Yeah, but you know, he's under a lot of pressure. 900 01:07:11,570 --> 01:07:12,938 He has to be the face of this, 901 01:07:13,038 --> 01:07:17,476 just act brave, but, well, he's scared, too. 902 01:07:17,576 --> 01:07:19,311 You know, fear makes people act crazy. 903 01:07:21,747 --> 01:07:23,615 Okay, I... 904 01:07:23,715 --> 01:07:25,584 Like I'm sorry for like 905 01:07:25,651 --> 01:07:28,053 calling you and dumping all of this on you, 906 01:07:28,120 --> 01:07:32,091 especially, because it's been the hardest on you. 907 01:07:32,157 --> 01:07:33,725 It's hard on everyone. 908 01:07:37,396 --> 01:07:40,432 I think for me, you know, when it hurts too much, 909 01:07:40,499 --> 01:07:44,603 I think about how this can't be for nothing. 910 01:07:44,670 --> 01:07:46,738 Like, oh, we won't even let this be for not... Like, it... 911 01:07:46,805 --> 01:07:48,440 It can't be for nothing, you know? 912 01:07:48,507 --> 01:07:50,742 Fuck. Yeah. 913 01:07:56,949 --> 01:07:58,317 Tell me about your brother. 914 01:08:03,322 --> 01:08:05,023 I just wanna know more about him. 915 01:08:09,528 --> 01:08:12,931 He was, uh, real quiet 916 01:08:12,998 --> 01:08:14,333 when you first met him. 917 01:08:15,801 --> 01:08:18,437 He watched everything now, you know. 918 01:08:18,504 --> 01:08:19,872 Like, he'd be like, 919 01:08:19,972 --> 01:08:21,540 "Oh, that girl is gonna go home with that guy 920 01:08:21,640 --> 01:08:23,675 and that guy is gonna go home with that girl and..." 921 01:08:23,775 --> 01:08:26,778 Like, he was always right. 922 01:08:26,845 --> 01:08:28,847 He was funny. 923 01:08:28,947 --> 01:08:31,683 Like always making me laugh. 924 01:08:36,321 --> 01:08:37,623 He, uh... 925 01:08:39,725 --> 01:08:41,360 He sounds dope. 926 01:08:47,466 --> 01:08:49,735 I feel him. 927 01:08:49,835 --> 01:08:53,739 Now I know this sounds crazy to say like... 928 01:08:53,839 --> 01:08:57,176 I just... I know he's still with me. 929 01:08:57,242 --> 01:08:59,244 He's not gonna let me go back and be sad, 930 01:08:59,344 --> 01:09:02,581 he's not gonna let me go forward and freak out. 931 01:09:02,681 --> 01:09:05,517 He keeps me here. 932 01:09:05,584 --> 01:09:07,519 He keeps me calm. 933 01:09:10,389 --> 01:09:12,691 I think he's definitely still here. 934 01:09:14,493 --> 01:09:16,662 Lot of people don't ask me about him. 935 01:09:16,728 --> 01:09:20,832 They think I'mma like cry or somethin'. 936 01:09:20,899 --> 01:09:24,269 Um, well, thank you. 937 01:09:29,408 --> 01:09:32,077 You can always talk about him around me. 938 01:09:49,228 --> 01:09:51,463 Wait, wait. I'm sorry, I... 939 01:09:51,563 --> 01:09:53,799 What's wrong? 940 01:09:53,899 --> 01:09:57,069 I'm just going through a lot right now, it's just... 941 01:09:57,135 --> 01:09:59,805 I just don't know if I'm in the right headspace right now. 942 01:10:02,307 --> 01:10:04,376 -I'm sorry. -Oh, my God. 943 01:10:04,443 --> 01:10:06,411 -I am so sorry! -No, you're okay. 944 01:10:06,478 --> 01:10:08,213 I'm... No, of course, you are. I'm so sorry. 945 01:10:08,280 --> 01:10:10,082 You're perfect, I like you, it's just... 946 01:10:10,148 --> 01:10:11,416 -I'm so sorry. -V, I swear, you didn't do anything wrong. 947 01:10:11,483 --> 01:10:12,918 I am so sorry, okay? 948 01:10:12,985 --> 01:10:14,653 No, don't be sorry, it's... It's not like that. 949 01:10:14,753 --> 01:10:15,954 I am so sorry. I am so sorry. 950 01:10:48,754 --> 01:10:50,255 I can't sleep. 951 01:11:01,667 --> 01:11:04,836 You know, I can always see where you are on Find A Friend 952 01:11:04,936 --> 01:11:06,838 when your phone isn't dead. 953 01:11:06,938 --> 01:11:09,274 You better delete me off of that. 954 01:11:09,341 --> 01:11:10,642 Like tomorrow, 955 01:11:10,709 --> 01:11:12,544 so I don't tell Mom about your Finsta. 956 01:11:12,644 --> 01:11:13,845 Fine! 957 01:11:15,647 --> 01:11:17,215 Why do you care where I am? 958 01:11:17,316 --> 01:11:18,483 I don't. 959 01:11:21,520 --> 01:11:24,289 You're always at a house in North Bay. 960 01:11:24,356 --> 01:11:25,457 Why? 961 01:11:25,524 --> 01:11:27,693 It's where my friend Mia lives. 962 01:11:27,793 --> 01:11:28,960 Hmm. 963 01:11:37,302 --> 01:11:40,739 V, I'm scared. 964 01:11:40,839 --> 01:11:42,374 Of what? 965 01:11:45,077 --> 01:11:47,713 What if... 966 01:11:53,185 --> 01:11:56,521 What if a shooter comes to my school next? 967 01:11:58,156 --> 01:11:59,925 It won't happen. 968 01:12:00,025 --> 01:12:01,526 How do you know? 969 01:12:11,403 --> 01:12:13,839 Sorry, I almost got you killed in a shooting. 970 01:12:20,278 --> 01:12:22,013 What're you talking about? 971 01:12:22,080 --> 01:12:24,416 If I hadn't texted you about my stupid period, 972 01:12:24,516 --> 01:12:26,718 you wouldn't have left the classroom. 973 01:12:26,785 --> 01:12:29,354 You would've been safe. 974 01:12:29,421 --> 01:12:31,857 -You could've died. -That's not true. 975 01:12:31,923 --> 01:12:33,258 Yes, it is! 976 01:12:33,358 --> 01:12:34,526 Quinton's brother died, 'cause he was walking 977 01:12:34,593 --> 01:12:36,261 in the same hallway. 978 01:12:39,865 --> 01:12:42,300 It wasn't safe anywhere 979 01:12:42,401 --> 01:12:44,136 Definitely wasn't your fault. 980 01:12:44,236 --> 01:12:48,573 Then why have you been so mad at me? 981 01:12:48,640 --> 01:12:51,243 I haven't been mad at you. 982 01:12:51,309 --> 01:12:52,911 Why do you keep thinking that? 983 01:12:52,978 --> 01:12:54,813 Because... 984 01:12:55,914 --> 01:12:58,550 You're never home anymore. 985 01:12:58,617 --> 01:13:00,452 You never talk to me. 986 01:13:01,887 --> 01:13:05,223 We never went to dinner to talk about... 987 01:13:05,757 --> 01:13:07,125 periods. 988 01:13:12,297 --> 01:13:14,332 I'm sorry, but I'm definitely not mad at you. 989 01:13:20,238 --> 01:13:23,108 Can I tell you something that I've not told anybody before? 990 01:13:28,947 --> 01:13:30,816 We were in the bathroom. 991 01:13:32,284 --> 01:13:34,085 And the stall where we hid, 992 01:13:35,921 --> 01:13:37,956 there was a moment where I... 993 01:13:38,023 --> 01:13:39,691 really thought I was gonna die. 994 01:13:41,860 --> 01:13:44,095 And it was the scariest moment of my life. 995 01:13:47,132 --> 01:13:52,103 And the only person I could think of was you. 996 01:13:52,170 --> 01:13:54,806 Do you remember when I sent you that "I love you, too"? 997 01:13:56,475 --> 01:13:58,443 I thought I only had time to text one person, 998 01:13:58,510 --> 01:13:59,611 so I texted you. 999 01:14:02,547 --> 01:14:04,216 I didn't know that. 1000 01:14:07,786 --> 01:14:10,555 You're my favorite person on Earth, Millie. 1001 01:14:15,494 --> 01:14:17,128 Even if you get married one day? 1002 01:14:17,195 --> 01:14:19,197 No, fuck a husband. 1003 01:14:21,066 --> 01:14:22,667 You're my number one. 1004 01:14:29,808 --> 01:14:31,877 Don't let go. 1005 01:15:25,897 --> 01:15:27,632 I don't know what's wrong with me. 1006 01:15:28,733 --> 01:15:30,602 Nothing is wrong with you. 1007 01:15:30,702 --> 01:15:33,538 Oh, Dad, I... 1008 01:15:33,605 --> 01:15:35,106 I feel so... 1009 01:15:36,741 --> 01:15:38,076 empty. 1010 01:15:38,143 --> 01:15:41,646 Vada, you went through something 1011 01:15:41,746 --> 01:15:44,282 no one should ever have to go through. 1012 01:15:47,452 --> 01:15:49,487 I can't imagine how scared you feel. 1013 01:15:56,595 --> 01:15:58,496 Life's fuckin' hard. 1014 01:15:58,597 --> 01:16:01,566 I'm sorry for saying "fucking". 1015 01:16:01,633 --> 01:16:03,935 No, you're right. 1016 01:16:04,002 --> 01:16:06,137 Life's fucking hard! 1017 01:16:06,237 --> 01:16:07,339 Dad. 1018 01:16:07,439 --> 01:16:09,240 What? No one's around. 1019 01:16:09,307 --> 01:16:12,143 Try it, it feels good. 1020 01:16:12,243 --> 01:16:14,846 Life is fucking crazy! 1021 01:16:18,750 --> 01:16:20,151 Yeah! 1022 01:16:21,086 --> 01:16:22,187 Fuck! 1023 01:16:24,089 --> 01:16:26,758 Life's fucking confusing! 1024 01:16:35,967 --> 01:16:38,370 I can't fucking feel anything! 1025 01:16:38,470 --> 01:16:39,437 Good one. 1026 01:16:40,705 --> 01:16:42,674 Fuck you, Matt Corgan! 1027 01:16:42,774 --> 01:16:45,210 Yeah, fuck you! 1028 01:16:46,845 --> 01:16:50,515 I'm scared to go to school every day! 1029 01:16:50,615 --> 01:16:53,885 I'm scared to take my children to school! 1030 01:16:55,186 --> 01:16:56,655 I'm scared to sleep! 1031 01:16:57,956 --> 01:17:00,325 I'm scared of... 1032 01:17:00,392 --> 01:17:02,160 time! 1033 01:17:03,361 --> 01:17:05,397 We're not even swearing anymore, Dad. 1034 01:17:05,497 --> 01:17:06,831 Still feels good. 1035 01:17:09,734 --> 01:17:12,337 I'm incredibly proud 1036 01:17:12,404 --> 01:17:15,740 of how smart and amazing 1037 01:17:15,840 --> 01:17:17,075 my daughter is! 1038 01:17:17,175 --> 01:17:20,578 Dad, don't be fucking cheesy! 1039 01:17:20,679 --> 01:17:22,681 -Please! 1040 01:17:23,915 --> 01:17:26,084 Never again. 1041 01:17:28,486 --> 01:17:30,055 Ah! 1042 01:18:17,202 --> 01:18:18,269 Mia? 1043 01:18:36,888 --> 01:18:38,389 Mia? 1044 01:18:51,469 --> 01:18:53,104 Oh, my god! 1045 01:18:54,139 --> 01:18:55,740 Mia? 1046 01:18:57,509 --> 01:18:59,144 -Mia? 1047 01:19:00,779 --> 01:19:02,247 My God. 1048 01:19:03,648 --> 01:19:05,150 I'm just sweating out. 1049 01:19:05,250 --> 01:19:06,785 I thought you were fucking dead, dude. 1050 01:19:06,851 --> 01:19:08,453 Don't scare me like that. 1051 01:19:08,520 --> 01:19:09,788 Ah... 1052 01:19:09,854 --> 01:19:10,955 Come on. 1053 01:19:11,022 --> 01:19:12,323 Come on. 1054 01:19:24,803 --> 01:19:26,271 Do you hate me? 1055 01:19:28,540 --> 01:19:31,776 No. Why would I hate you? 1056 01:19:36,481 --> 01:19:38,216 Just scared the shit out of me. 1057 01:19:45,390 --> 01:19:46,958 And I don't regret it. 1058 01:19:49,994 --> 01:19:53,164 Just scared it was gonna like ruin our friendship or something. 1059 01:19:57,569 --> 01:19:59,971 Yeah, I was scared of that, too. 1060 01:20:06,177 --> 01:20:08,413 Then let's not ruin anything? 1061 01:20:11,149 --> 01:20:12,684 Okay. 1062 01:20:33,905 --> 01:20:37,408 I think I'm gonna go back to dance tomorrow. 1063 01:20:37,508 --> 01:20:40,378 Even though, I'm like literally scared to leave my house, 1064 01:20:40,445 --> 01:20:42,247 I know I need to do it. 1065 01:20:42,347 --> 01:20:44,282 That's amazing. You totally should. 1066 01:20:49,254 --> 01:20:50,421 Well, what are you gonna do? 1067 01:20:50,521 --> 01:20:52,590 I'm gonna go with you. 1068 01:20:52,690 --> 01:20:54,525 No, you're not. We never discussed this. 1069 01:20:54,592 --> 01:20:57,395 Stop trying to get rid of me! 1070 01:20:59,631 --> 01:21:01,566 I am Postmate-ing us frozen yogurt. 1071 01:21:05,770 --> 01:21:07,272 I think I actually want some. 1072 01:21:07,372 --> 01:21:09,207 Okay, then push. 1073 01:21:12,443 --> 01:21:14,312 I like the doodles. 1074 01:21:14,412 --> 01:21:17,215 Who's that guy? Is that Harry Potter? 1075 01:21:17,282 --> 01:21:18,650 That's Paul Dano. 1076 01:21:18,750 --> 01:21:20,118 He's my celebrity crush. 1077 01:21:25,123 --> 01:21:26,491 How was this? 1078 01:21:26,591 --> 01:21:29,427 Processing through all these emotions? 1079 01:21:29,494 --> 01:21:30,495 Good. 1080 01:21:32,330 --> 01:21:36,067 I had a lot of ups and downs, 1081 01:21:36,134 --> 01:21:39,771 but I feel like I felt everything. 1082 01:21:39,837 --> 01:21:41,673 So that's... 1083 01:21:41,773 --> 01:21:43,474 It's good, I guess. 1084 01:21:43,574 --> 01:21:47,178 I noticed that you used the word "scared" a few times. 1085 01:21:47,278 --> 01:21:48,780 When did you feel the most scared? 1086 01:21:53,751 --> 01:21:55,320 Being at school. 1087 01:21:57,789 --> 01:22:00,358 I don't feel comfortable being back there. 1088 01:22:00,458 --> 01:22:04,262 Can you tell me more about that? 1089 01:22:04,329 --> 01:22:05,697 You know, all these kids from my school, 1090 01:22:05,797 --> 01:22:09,367 specifically one of my closest friends, Nick, 1091 01:22:09,467 --> 01:22:12,437 who I love so much, um... 1092 01:22:13,638 --> 01:22:16,307 they've been able to take 1093 01:22:16,374 --> 01:22:18,443 what happened, and... 1094 01:22:20,445 --> 01:22:25,550 are literally using it to change the world. 1095 01:22:25,650 --> 01:22:28,453 Like, they're doing so much amazing stuff and... 1096 01:22:32,957 --> 01:22:36,294 For some reason, I feel like I'm unable to do that. 1097 01:22:40,231 --> 01:22:44,135 I feel like it has kind of ended our friendship. 1098 01:22:48,406 --> 01:22:49,907 Sucks. 1099 01:22:51,576 --> 01:22:53,511 'Cause I really, really miss him. 1100 01:22:55,380 --> 01:22:57,048 What are you feeling right now? 1101 01:23:00,218 --> 01:23:02,053 I don't know. 1102 01:23:02,153 --> 01:23:03,488 Yes, you do. 1103 01:23:13,364 --> 01:23:14,932 I feel... 1104 01:23:19,070 --> 01:23:20,705 mad. 1105 01:23:23,341 --> 01:23:24,509 Mad about what? 1106 01:23:24,575 --> 01:23:28,179 I feel mad, because I had no idea 1107 01:23:28,246 --> 01:23:29,380 one guy with a gun 1108 01:23:29,447 --> 01:23:31,949 could fuck up my life so hard 1109 01:23:32,050 --> 01:23:34,385 in six minutes. 1110 01:23:34,452 --> 01:23:37,121 Fuck up so many lives! 1111 01:23:37,221 --> 01:23:40,291 Then I think I should be grateful to be alive. 1112 01:23:42,093 --> 01:23:44,295 I feel like, I don't know, maybe there's some 1113 01:23:44,395 --> 01:23:46,364 weird fucked up reason why 1114 01:23:46,431 --> 01:23:50,068 I made it and other people didn't. 1115 01:23:50,134 --> 01:23:53,571 Um, but then when you sit back 1116 01:23:53,638 --> 01:23:58,276 and you think about it, you realize, "No! 1117 01:23:58,376 --> 01:23:59,744 There isn't. 1118 01:24:02,380 --> 01:24:03,648 There's no fucking reason." 1119 01:24:05,416 --> 01:24:07,418 None of us should've died. 1120 01:24:26,771 --> 01:24:29,740 I'm having a really hard time moving on. 1121 01:24:51,362 --> 01:24:53,764 Oh, hi. 1122 01:24:53,831 --> 01:24:55,366 I'm sorry. 1123 01:24:57,435 --> 01:24:59,504 I love you. 1124 01:24:59,604 --> 01:25:02,773 Sweetheart, I love you, too. 1125 01:25:02,840 --> 01:25:06,043 I'm gonna try to be more honest with you about my life. 1126 01:25:07,378 --> 01:25:08,446 You know what? 1127 01:25:08,513 --> 01:25:12,817 I would really, really like that. 1128 01:25:17,155 --> 01:25:19,056 I've been really struggling. 1129 01:25:19,157 --> 01:25:20,558 Mmm-hmm. 1130 01:25:20,658 --> 01:25:22,727 And I don't know why it's been so hard to tell you like, 1131 01:25:22,827 --> 01:25:24,529 'cause I just didn't want you to worry. 1132 01:25:24,629 --> 01:25:28,132 And you're right, I was acting funny that time I was drunk, 1133 01:25:28,199 --> 01:25:31,302 because I did have sex with someone. 1134 01:25:31,369 --> 01:25:33,971 And I was a little bit stoned, but not as stoned 1135 01:25:34,038 --> 01:25:36,507 as I was when I was on E. 1136 01:25:36,574 --> 01:25:38,075 Jesus, that was rough. 1137 01:25:38,176 --> 01:25:40,244 And the person I was having sex with wasn't the person 1138 01:25:40,344 --> 01:25:42,380 that I thought I was maybe gonna be having sex with, 1139 01:25:42,480 --> 01:25:44,382 but I'm... I'm telling you all of this, 1140 01:25:44,482 --> 01:25:47,084 because I want you to know that I'm... 1141 01:25:47,185 --> 01:25:50,321 I'm never gonna do any of that stuff ever again. 1142 01:25:50,388 --> 01:25:52,356 You know, the bad... The bad stuff. 1143 01:25:54,025 --> 01:25:55,760 Mmm-hmm. 1144 01:25:57,195 --> 01:25:58,529 Mmm-hmm. 1145 01:26:00,731 --> 01:26:04,001 Okay. Well, thank you for uh... 1146 01:26:05,369 --> 01:26:06,571 For trusting me. 1147 01:26:07,371 --> 01:26:08,739 With this information. 1148 01:26:15,179 --> 01:26:16,347 Was that too much? 1149 01:26:16,414 --> 01:26:18,449 No! I am... 1150 01:26:20,218 --> 01:26:21,719 I'm processing. 1151 01:26:24,222 --> 01:26:25,590 Don't worry, it was with a girl. 1152 01:26:25,690 --> 01:26:26,724 Hmm? 1153 01:26:26,791 --> 01:26:28,192 The sex stuff. 1154 01:26:28,259 --> 01:26:30,595 It was with a girl, 1155 01:26:30,695 --> 01:26:32,396 so it's not like I'm gonna get pregnant. 1156 01:26:32,463 --> 01:26:34,632 That's a bonus, right? 1157 01:26:34,732 --> 01:26:36,634 Yeah. 1158 01:26:36,734 --> 01:26:38,703 Bonus. 1159 01:26:48,412 --> 01:26:50,615 Okay. 1160 01:26:50,715 --> 01:26:52,984 I'm... I'm ready to talk about it more now.