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[children shouting excitedly]

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DEREK DELGAUDIO:
They ask you,

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"What do you wanna be when you grow up?"

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Later they ask,

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"What do you do?"

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Which is just another way of saying,

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"What have you become?"

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It's not enough to have a name.

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People need something to call you.

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So you search.

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You look at the roles
the world offers you,

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trying to find the one
that reflects who you are.

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♪ serene instrumental music playing ♪

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♪

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Only a lucky few get to play
the part they want.

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The rest settle for what's left

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or struggle with what they've been handed.

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Then we all learn to embrace
our illusions of identity.

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I did.

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I thought I knew my role.

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♪

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Then I met a man who told me
who I really was.

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And I knew he was right.

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I just didn't know why.

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♪

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We're here because I heard a story.

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♪ mystic music plays ♪

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Five years ago, I was in Spain
visiting a friend of mine.

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And this friend,
he took me to a small bar,

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and it was there that
I was introduced to a stranger.

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And this stranger, he told me a story.

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He told me a story about a sailor

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who returned home after the Great War,

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and this sailor quickly discovered
the only thing more difficult

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than fighting in a war was surviving one.

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'Cause for him, without a war to fight,
he felt lost.

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So the sailor searched for himself
at the bottom of a bottle

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only to find himself
with no friends, no family,

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no prospects.

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So one day, at the end of his rope,
this desperate man,

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he turned to a game of chance.

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A game of Russian Roulette.

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The game was highly illegal,
but it was organized.

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The players would enter
their names at the door.

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And when a player's name was drawn,
they'd be escorted into a dark room

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full of a bunch of strangers.

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The strangers would proceed
to place bets.

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They would decide the value
of the player's life.

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Once all the bets were collected,
a single bullet was ceremoniously loaded

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into one of six
empty chambers of a pistol,

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the chambers then closed and spun,
the pistol handed to the player

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who had one job:
place the gun to your head,

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pull the trigger.

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Your odds of surviving this game,
of winning were five in six.

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And if you won,
you were handsomely rewarded.

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All your troubles were over.

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And if you lost,

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all your troubles were over.

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So‐‐
[audience laughs]

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First time this sailor played, he won,

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but no one noticed him.

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And no one paid any attention to him.

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But the second time,

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second time he played,
people started to pay attention.

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And mostly because
nobody who won this game
ever came back the next day.

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And the third time that this man played
and won, that was the night,

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that was the night
the people gave him the name.

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They started calling this man

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the Rouletista.

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[gun clicking]

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[clicking]

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The fourth night, the fourth night,
the crowd nearly doubled in size.

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Word spread of this guy.

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And people just wanted to see
what the fuss was about.

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So again, the people,
they all placed their bets,

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and again he played.

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[whirring]

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Click. And again he won.

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It was about this time
people started to speculate,

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okay, maybe this guy figured out
a way to cheat at this game.

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Or may‐‐ or maybe
the organizers of the game,

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they just rigged it
for him to win, you know,

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drum up some promotion
for their own business.

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So people got smart, they stopped betting,
they stopped playing altogether.

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So the Rouletista,
without anyone asking him to do this,

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he said he'd be willing to add
a second bullet to the gun.

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So people took the bet.
And again he played.

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[whirring]

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Click. And again he won.

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He agreed to add a third bullet.

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This time, no one really cared
if he was cheating, you know.

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[audience laughs]

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People just wanted to be able to say
that they got to place a bet against him.

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[whirring]

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Click.

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He added a fourth bullet. And a fifth.

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Eventually, he agreed to add
a sixth and final bullet.

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Yet nobody bet.

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No. Instead, they just bought
a ticket to watch, you know.

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Watch a man stand on a stage
and place a loaded gun to his head.

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Believe it or not, for the first time
in a hundred years,

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there was an earthquake in that region.

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[rumbling]

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The building shook so hard‐‐

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[rattling, crashing]

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A beam fell right from the ceiling,
knocked the gun

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right out of the Rouletista's hand.

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[whirring]

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He took this as a sign.
That was the night he retired.

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But he, he was wealthy
at this point, though.

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So he got married.

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[audience laughs]

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He had some kids.

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Got himself some grandkids.

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He lived in the biggest house

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on the highest hill in his town.

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People, when they saw him,
they would cross the street

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just to come shake the man's hand

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or to get the hell away from him.

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He w‐‐ he was a living legend.

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One night, he was asleep in his bedroom,

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he heard someone downstairs
rummaging around.

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He went down to investigate,

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only to discover a burglar was down there
trying to break into his safe.

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The burglar stood up and pointed a gun
at the Rouletista.

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[whirring]

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Rouletista looked back
at the man and said,

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"Do you know who I am?"

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Burglar replied,

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"No."

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[gunshot]

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Fired a single shot.

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Killed the Rouletista right there
in his own home.

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That's it. That's the story.

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[audience laughs]

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This is a story the stranger told me
at this little bar.

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And I looked at him and said,
"That's a fascinating tale, sir.

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"Why did you tell me that?

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Wha‐‐ what made you think of this?"

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And he, he looked at me
and in all seriousness replied,

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"Because you are the Rouletista."

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I had my friend translate that.
Perhaps I misunderstood him.

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And he just repeated himself, "No,

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"you are the Rouletista.

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I just thought you should know."

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And he left.

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And that night, I stared into a mirror
trying to see the man that he saw,

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but all I could see is
the same thing I see

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every single day.

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I‐‐ I've retraced the footsteps
of that encounter

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over and over again, looking for clues
as to why he might have said that.

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I didn't say but two words to him.

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I wasn't dressed like a sailor, you know.

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I didn't put a gun to my head.
So what was it?

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What did he hear that I didn't tell him?

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Or what did he see in me
that I didn't show him?

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[gun clicks]

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[click]

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[clicking]

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♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

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♪

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You think this is a performance.

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You see a man in a theater.

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There's an audience.

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His lines are memorized.
His actions are rehearsed.

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[inaudible]

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It is difficult to see past
what this looks like.

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Hell, it's easy to lie on a stage.
It's even easier to lie in a film.

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♪

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I do not expect you to believe
anything you're seeing or hearing.

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And knowing you won't believe me,

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that's the only reason I'm going
to tell you the truth.

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♪

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[waves crashing]

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You do have a choice, though.

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You can see it for what it is,

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or you can imagine what it could be.

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[waves crashing]

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[birds squawking]

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♪

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[birds squawking]

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[waves crashing]

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I need someone to come back tomorrow.

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Okay.

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On, on, on every ship, there is a book.

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And this book is called the ship's log.

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And it was, it was the sailor's job

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to write down everything
that happened on a journey.

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They were supposed to write it down
inside of this book.

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But long before
modern instruments, this book,

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it wasn't just a record of the journey.

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It was a really important part
of navigation.

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Because sailors used the stars
and the sun to navigate.

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They would determine their location,

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and then they would write those
coordinates down inside of this book.

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But from time to time, on a journey,
sometimes clouds would fill the sky

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and it would be impossible for them
to determine where they were

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But on these days, they still needed
to make an entry in this book.

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So on these days, sailors were forced
to imagine where they were.

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And they had to write that down.

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And they relied heavily
on the previous entries

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to help keep them on course.

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Eventually, the clouds would part,
they'd find the stars again,

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get back on track,
arrive at their destination.

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But the, the end result for that book,
it told an honest story

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of the journey that had taken place,

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but it was comprised
entirely of information

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that was both real and imagined.

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We have a book.
And in order for it to continue,

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I would need one of you to come back
to our next performance.

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All right, sir. Um, I see you raising
your hand here.

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I should point out, I'm serious.

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[audience laughs]

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Are you comfortable with me referring
to you as Mr. Tomorrow

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just for clarity's sake?

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[audience laughs]
DEREK: Okay.

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Okay. Tomorrow,

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you will now be responsible
for the most terrifying moment

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of the performance for me.

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It's the moment when I ask this question:

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"Did the person from
the last show come back?"

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This is Ms. Yesterday.
Welcome back, Ms. Yesterday.

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[audience laughs]

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Hi.

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Come on down.

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[audience applauding]

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Thank you very much.

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Welcome back.

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Sorry. He's aware of this.
The rest of you probably are not.

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This is, this is the only time
I ever get to look at this.

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So if you'll just indulge me for a moment,

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I handed this out
on our very first performance.

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This has gone out to sea with someone else
each and every day since,

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and it's remained out there,
but it's always,

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always managed to find its way
back to me in this moment.

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I've been asking people to document

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what they've been witnessing in here.

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And some people,

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some people have made
some really interesting artistic decisions

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in this process.
[audience laughs]

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Holy shit. Okay.

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Derek seemed to have a sadness
in his eyes. And‐‐

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[audience laughs]

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These are the first two pictures
ever pasted in here.

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Pictures of the rappers Ice‐T
and Ice Cube.

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[audience laughs]

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Well, that was a good one.

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[audience laughs]

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Bit of an overachiever there. Yeah.

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She interlaced it with lyrics
from the musical Hamilton.

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[audience laughs]

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Post‐it Note Guy, he just went
through the book

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and talked shit about everyone else.

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[audience laughs]

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00:17:49,007 --> 00:17:50,717
Did you see the elephant last night?

256
00:17:52,051 --> 00:17:54,053
‐ Excuse me?
‐ Did you see the elephant last night?

257
00:17:54,053 --> 00:17:55,305
‐ We talked about the elephant.
‐ I know,

258
00:17:55,305 --> 00:17:57,140
but with your eyes, did you see it?

259
00:17:57,974 --> 00:17:58,892
‐ My literal eyes.

260
00:17:58,892 --> 00:18:00,602
‐ Yeah, li‐‐ literal. It's not a trick.
‐ No.

261
00:18:00,602 --> 00:18:01,227
‐ You didn't?

262
00:18:01,227 --> 00:18:02,395
‐ No.
‐ Okay.

263
00:18:02,395 --> 00:18:04,522
There will be an elephant here
a little later on.

264
00:18:04,522 --> 00:18:07,567
It was right,
right before we threw you out.

265
00:18:07,567 --> 00:18:09,194
We threw him out of the show.

266
00:18:09,194 --> 00:18:11,613
Last night, he did not see
the end of the show. Uh‐‐

267
00:18:11,613 --> 00:18:13,740
She still has not seen
the end of the show because we

268
00:18:14,449 --> 00:18:16,910
booted her out of here
before it was over. So‐‐

269
00:18:17,744 --> 00:18:20,288
You have that to look forward to,
Mr. Tomorrow.

270
00:18:21,080 --> 00:18:23,333
There will be a reason
for your sacrifice tonight.

271
00:18:23,333 --> 00:18:24,876
There was a reason for his
in the last show.

272
00:18:24,876 --> 00:18:26,044
Because of it,

273
00:18:27,295 --> 00:18:29,839
you're gonna ensure
this story doesn't end.

274
00:18:29,839 --> 00:18:32,217
Instead of letting it end today,

275
00:18:32,217 --> 00:18:34,010
I'm gonna have you take it with you.

276
00:18:34,010 --> 00:18:36,012
And instead of seeing an ending,
I'm going to ask you

277
00:18:36,012 --> 00:18:38,264
to imagine one and write that down,

278
00:18:38,264 --> 00:18:40,266
which is what I asked her to do
in the last show.

279
00:18:40,266 --> 00:18:41,226
Is this your writing here?
‐ Mm‐hmm.

280
00:18:41,226 --> 00:18:42,727
‐ I have not heard this yet.

281
00:18:42,727 --> 00:18:45,563
I will... I'll be hearing this
with all of you for the very first time.

282
00:18:45,897 --> 00:18:47,315
Uh, what did you choose last night?

283
00:18:47,315 --> 00:18:48,566
‐ Uh, last night was pathfinder.

284
00:18:48,566 --> 00:18:49,984
‐ Pathfinder. All right. This is‐‐

285
00:18:51,653 --> 00:18:53,196
This is how our pathfinder‐‐

286
00:18:53,196 --> 00:18:54,239
Our traveler.

287
00:18:54,239 --> 00:18:54,948
Our novelist.

288
00:18:54,948 --> 00:18:56,032
Our contrarian.

289
00:18:56,032 --> 00:18:56,783
Our observer.

290
00:18:56,783 --> 00:18:57,575
Our heretic.

291
00:18:57,575 --> 00:18:58,284
Our warrior.

292
00:18:58,284 --> 00:18:58,993
Our producer.

293
00:18:58,993 --> 00:18:59,786
Our gift.

294
00:18:59,786 --> 00:19:00,495
Our clown.

295
00:19:00,495 --> 00:19:03,331
Our father imagined this story ends.

296
00:19:03,331 --> 00:19:04,666
Secret agent. Stage is yours.

297
00:19:04,666 --> 00:19:06,292
All I ask is loud enough
so they can hear you.

298
00:19:06,292 --> 00:19:07,043
‐ Right.
‐ Thank you.

299
00:19:07,043 --> 00:19:08,336
[clears throat]

300
00:19:10,046 --> 00:19:11,923
‐ Ummm‐‐

301
00:19:11,923 --> 00:19:13,550
‐ "By the time I left‐‐"

302
00:19:14,425 --> 00:19:16,052
Sorry. I can't read
my own damn handwriting.

303
00:19:16,052 --> 00:19:17,804
[audience laughs]

304
00:19:18,346 --> 00:19:20,932
‐ "This is the scary part,
because I know this is the part

305
00:19:20,932 --> 00:19:22,850
"I will have to read in front of everyone.

306
00:19:24,269 --> 00:19:27,021
"But I don't have all day to spend time
on a writing assignment

307
00:19:27,021 --> 00:19:30,108
I got from a show that I paid to see,
so here goes nothing."

308
00:19:30,108 --> 00:19:32,318
[audience laughs]

309
00:19:32,318 --> 00:19:33,444
MAN:
But how did it end?

310
00:19:33,444 --> 00:19:37,031
"A bright flash, music crescendos,
then silence.

311
00:19:37,031 --> 00:19:40,034
"On the scale where Derek once stood
is a full‐grown elephant.

312
00:19:40,034 --> 00:19:42,036
The scale‐‐"

313
00:19:42,036 --> 00:19:44,622
[audience laughs]

314
00:19:45,373 --> 00:19:46,583
"The‐‐"

315
00:19:46,583 --> 00:19:49,752
It's gonna be great.
[audience laughs]

316
00:19:50,670 --> 00:19:52,547
"Every person will find love.

317
00:19:53,089 --> 00:19:54,674
"No one will be judged.

318
00:19:55,049 --> 00:19:59,345
Our 'I ams' will become 'We are.'"

319
00:19:59,929 --> 00:20:03,975
[speaking German]

320
00:20:07,437 --> 00:20:10,064
[continues speaking German]
‐ ...butterfly...

321
00:20:10,064 --> 00:20:11,441
‐ Butterfly. I got that one.
‐ Butterfly.

322
00:20:11,441 --> 00:20:13,234
‐ Yeah.
[audience laughs]

323
00:20:13,234 --> 00:20:16,905
‐ "The Rouletista made the mistake
of being defined

324
00:20:16,905 --> 00:20:18,990
"by the six chambers of the revolver.

325
00:20:19,699 --> 00:20:23,578
"And although Derek is described
by the six chambers along the backdrop,

326
00:20:23,995 --> 00:20:27,123
he should not be defined
by those six chambers."

327
00:20:27,123 --> 00:20:30,335
‐ "People describe my parts,
my fac‐‐ my facets,

328
00:20:30,335 --> 00:20:32,712
"uh, but do they ever really know
the whole me?

329
00:20:33,087 --> 00:20:36,466
"Uh, how could they when I, like Derek,
hide an ugly truth,

330
00:20:36,466 --> 00:20:37,425
"my secret,

331
00:20:39,219 --> 00:20:41,179
when it should be my pride."

332
00:20:41,179 --> 00:20:43,389
‐ "When I walked in and had
to choose my identity card,

333
00:20:43,389 --> 00:20:44,724
I started to panic."

334
00:20:46,517 --> 00:20:48,728
Sorry. [exhales forcefully]

335
00:20:48,728 --> 00:20:51,564
"I'm not great at making decisions,
so naturally, I hesitated

336
00:20:51,564 --> 00:20:53,024
"and over thought things.

337
00:20:53,775 --> 00:20:56,778
"My constant fear crept up.
What if I choose wrong?

338
00:20:57,320 --> 00:20:58,780
"Without realizing it,

339
00:20:59,864 --> 00:21:01,407
"I was saying to myself,

340
00:21:01,783 --> 00:21:03,368
[voice breaking]
'I don't think I know who I am.'"

341
00:21:03,368 --> 00:21:04,786
[sniffles]

342
00:21:04,786 --> 00:21:06,871
WOMAN: "A further introspective note:

343
00:21:06,871 --> 00:21:10,750
"We all label ourselves
and live according to our label.

344
00:21:10,750 --> 00:21:14,379
"But while I am an accountant,
as are thousands of other people,

345
00:21:14,379 --> 00:21:16,047
"there is only one me.

346
00:21:16,047 --> 00:21:19,884
"No one else has lived
every single one of my experiences.

347
00:21:19,884 --> 00:21:23,263
I am not a label.
I am a sum of all parts."

348
00:21:23,263 --> 00:21:27,225
DEREK: We are all the unreliable narrators
of each other's stories.

349
00:21:31,813 --> 00:21:34,190
Based on the little that they know,

350
00:21:34,190 --> 00:21:37,735
they're asked to imagine
how this story ends.

351
00:21:38,194 --> 00:21:40,238
And it's that blank page,
it's that blank page of,

352
00:21:40,238 --> 00:21:42,490
here's everything you know,
everything you've just heard,

353
00:21:42,490 --> 00:21:43,908
everything you've seen.

354
00:21:45,410 --> 00:21:46,744
Now what?

355
00:21:46,744 --> 00:21:48,246
What are you gonna fill it with?

356
00:21:49,581 --> 00:21:52,876
And it's just like the person
sitting next to you, across from you.

357
00:21:53,459 --> 00:21:55,962
What do you know about him?
What have you heard? What have you seen?

358
00:21:58,006 --> 00:21:59,591
What are you gonna put on that blank page?

359
00:22:02,260 --> 00:22:05,638
And it's that responsibility that that,
that that book

360
00:22:06,890 --> 00:22:08,016
presents to people.

361
00:22:08,016 --> 00:22:09,392
Is the responsibility,

362
00:22:10,935 --> 00:22:13,313
we are all writing one another's stories.

363
00:22:13,313 --> 00:22:18,902
♪

364
00:22:25,283 --> 00:22:27,035
WOMAN: "The Rouletista.

365
00:22:27,035 --> 00:22:29,704
"Aren't we all gambling
pieces of ourselves daily?

366
00:22:30,246 --> 00:22:32,624
"Don't we all have something to lose?

367
00:22:32,624 --> 00:22:34,876
How do you know
when you're holding a loaded gun?"

368
00:22:35,835 --> 00:22:39,505
[audience applauding]

369
00:22:44,427 --> 00:22:45,637
DEREK: Thank you.

370
00:22:45,637 --> 00:22:46,679
‐ Okay.

371
00:22:47,180 --> 00:22:48,264
[indiscernible whispering]

372
00:22:48,264 --> 00:22:51,017
[applause continues]

373
00:22:51,643 --> 00:22:54,020
[whooping]

374
00:23:01,945 --> 00:23:04,239
[gun clicking]

375
00:23:06,491 --> 00:23:07,534
[click]

376
00:23:08,952 --> 00:23:13,373
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

377
00:23:13,373 --> 00:23:17,710
♪

378
00:23:17,710 --> 00:23:19,045
[Derek sighs]

379
00:23:21,965 --> 00:23:27,762
♪

380
00:23:33,184 --> 00:23:34,227
There's a light.

381
00:23:36,855 --> 00:23:39,148
This light happens every day. It ha‐‐

382
00:23:40,275 --> 00:23:42,443
It happens at the same time
every single day.

383
00:23:44,863 --> 00:23:48,032
If you stare out towards the horizon,

384
00:23:48,575 --> 00:23:50,368
right as the sun hits it,
you're gonna notice.

385
00:23:50,368 --> 00:23:53,746
It's very difficult to decipher
anything that's standing

386
00:23:54,247 --> 00:23:56,249
between you and the sun.

387
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:02,005
This time is called "The Time
Between Dog and Wolf."

388
00:24:06,009 --> 00:24:09,804
This expression, "The Time Between Dog
and Wolf," it comes from the middle ages.

389
00:24:09,804 --> 00:24:12,265
This‐‐ it was a cautionary expression
that parents would use

390
00:24:12,265 --> 00:24:13,683
to scare their children.

391
00:24:13,683 --> 00:24:15,560
Make sure that they got home
before it got dark out.

392
00:24:15,560 --> 00:24:17,770
"You better get home before the time
between dog and wolf."

393
00:24:18,730 --> 00:24:21,149
At this, at this time of day,
it's very difficult

394
00:24:21,149 --> 00:24:24,485
to distinguish a friend from a foe
at a distance.

395
00:24:25,361 --> 00:24:27,113
It's hard to tell the difference
between a dog and a wolf.

396
00:24:27,113 --> 00:24:29,324
And by the time it gets
close enough to you

397
00:24:29,324 --> 00:24:31,951
for you to make out
what it really is, too late.

398
00:24:36,414 --> 00:24:38,333
I never saw this
as a dangerous time, though.

399
00:24:38,333 --> 00:24:41,961
I... I always saw this as a time
of possibility, you know.

400
00:24:41,961 --> 00:24:45,673
It's a very specific moment
for metamorphosis.

401
00:24:46,883 --> 00:24:49,177
For me, this was the time when a dog

402
00:24:50,094 --> 00:24:51,554
could also be a wolf.

403
00:25:04,400 --> 00:25:07,237
♪ piano music playing ♪

404
00:25:07,237 --> 00:25:09,948
♪

405
00:25:09,948 --> 00:25:13,993
I‐‐ I'll never forget the first time I saw
someone perform sleight of hand.

406
00:25:14,744 --> 00:25:16,287
I'd like to say it was love
at first sight,

407
00:25:16,287 --> 00:25:19,457
but I fell in love with all the things
I couldn't see.

408
00:25:19,457 --> 00:25:22,252
And I had to learn.
So I started with the very basics.

409
00:25:22,252 --> 00:25:24,254
How do you hold a deck of cards properly.

410
00:25:26,005 --> 00:25:28,049
And then I read it would take eight years

411
00:25:28,049 --> 00:25:30,176
to learn how to hold
a deck of cards properly.

412
00:25:31,427 --> 00:25:32,512
Eight years.

413
00:25:33,012 --> 00:25:35,807
And which grip are you gonna learn
to hold them in?

414
00:25:39,310 --> 00:25:40,895
You gonna learn the mechanic's grip.

415
00:25:41,771 --> 00:25:44,566
The full grip, straddle grip,
box grip, dealer grip?

416
00:25:44,566 --> 00:25:45,775
I couldn't decide.

417
00:25:45,775 --> 00:25:48,111
So, I just learned them all.

418
00:25:49,320 --> 00:25:52,448
Taught myself how to shuffle.
You take one and another and another.

419
00:25:52,448 --> 00:25:53,867
Eventually, I could speed up.

420
00:25:54,576 --> 00:25:56,411
Start throwing as many as I'd like.

421
00:25:56,411 --> 00:25:58,246
I learned the variations on these things.

422
00:25:58,246 --> 00:26:00,081
Taught myself the cuts.

423
00:26:00,081 --> 00:26:01,958
I learned how to do 'em one‐handed.

424
00:26:01,958 --> 00:26:05,378
I taught myself how to riffle shuffle
using my leg.

425
00:26:06,045 --> 00:26:07,005
Do‐‐

426
00:26:12,844 --> 00:26:15,346
[audience laughs]

427
00:26:15,346 --> 00:26:17,307
Eventually, I didn't need my leg, but‐‐

428
00:26:17,807 --> 00:26:18,933
But I always threw in a bridge.

429
00:26:20,602 --> 00:26:23,396
You know, I wanted people to know
I had been practicing.

430
00:26:24,522 --> 00:26:27,108
You gotta put it to good use,
so you start finding cards.

431
00:26:27,108 --> 00:26:28,401
Do you remember your card, sir?

432
00:26:29,277 --> 00:26:31,154
Ten of spades? You're welcome.

433
00:26:31,154 --> 00:26:32,280
[audience laughs]

434
00:26:32,280 --> 00:26:34,616
Okay. And then, what about you, miss?
Do you remember your card?

435
00:26:34,991 --> 00:26:36,409
The six of hearts? All right. [blows]

436
00:26:36,409 --> 00:26:37,535
From the ten [clicks tongue]

437
00:26:37,535 --> 00:26:38,828
to the six.

438
00:26:38,828 --> 00:26:41,122
And you there. In the third row.

439
00:26:41,873 --> 00:26:43,208
Do you remember your card?

440
00:26:45,335 --> 00:26:47,670
You didn't have a card.
That's all right, we can do that.

441
00:26:49,172 --> 00:26:50,632
[audience chuckles]

442
00:26:50,632 --> 00:26:52,842
I wanted credit
for all this stuff, though.

443
00:26:52,842 --> 00:26:54,761
So you start throwing in the flourishes.

444
00:26:55,345 --> 00:26:57,347
Learn how to spring the cards.
That will get them every time.

445
00:26:57,347 --> 00:26:59,015
That way, they know you're professional.

446
00:26:59,766 --> 00:27:01,226
That way, they know you're working.

447
00:27:01,226 --> 00:27:03,061
But you start to question that,

448
00:27:03,061 --> 00:27:04,896
and you think, well, maybe they'd like
a waterfall more.

449
00:27:04,896 --> 00:27:06,481
I mean, that's a bit more nuanced.

450
00:27:06,481 --> 00:27:07,899
It's a little more elegant.

451
00:27:07,899 --> 00:27:08,816
Same thing with the fan.

452
00:27:08,816 --> 00:27:10,235
You learn the thumb fan,

453
00:27:10,235 --> 00:27:12,779
and then you think, you know what,
maybe they'd like a pressure fan more.

454
00:27:12,779 --> 00:27:14,364
I mean that's got something
[clicks tongue]

455
00:27:14,364 --> 00:27:15,865
a little extra to it.

456
00:27:15,865 --> 00:27:17,617
And what's better than a fan?

457
00:27:18,034 --> 00:27:19,452
I know. Two fans.

458
00:27:20,453 --> 00:27:23,373
After you learn this, it's mandatory
you get that headshot.

459
00:27:25,333 --> 00:27:28,002
[audience laughs]

460
00:27:29,837 --> 00:27:30,880
I loved it.

461
00:27:30,880 --> 00:27:32,215
I lo‐‐ I loved it so much.

462
00:27:32,215 --> 00:27:34,384
And, and I shared it with other people.

463
00:27:36,219 --> 00:27:37,637
And then, then it was like,

464
00:27:38,930 --> 00:27:41,015
it was like the more
I shared it with others,

465
00:27:42,267 --> 00:27:44,227
the more disillusioned I became.

466
00:27:44,227 --> 00:27:45,436
And I didn't understand that.

467
00:27:45,436 --> 00:27:48,314
[riffling cards]

468
00:27:48,314 --> 00:27:50,525
Now, looking back,
I can see that other people,

469
00:27:51,693 --> 00:27:55,363
other people just couldn't appreciate
what I appreciated about it.

470
00:27:55,363 --> 00:27:56,698
It's not their fault.

471
00:27:57,657 --> 00:28:00,618
It's not my fault either.
It's nobody's fault.

472
00:28:01,911 --> 00:28:05,081
Other people literally couldn't see
what I saw.

473
00:28:09,252 --> 00:28:11,296
But then I met someone who could.

474
00:28:11,963 --> 00:28:14,007
[telephone ringing]

475
00:28:20,263 --> 00:28:22,056
[ringing continues]

476
00:28:24,767 --> 00:28:26,644
DEREK: [over phone] Hey, Wolf?
WOLF: [over phone] Yeah.

477
00:28:26,644 --> 00:28:28,104
DEREK: Hey, it's Derek.

478
00:28:28,104 --> 00:28:29,272
WOLF: What's up?

479
00:28:29,272 --> 00:28:31,316
DEREK: So, is it cool
if I record this conversation?

480
00:28:31,983 --> 00:28:33,276
WOLF: Yeah.

481
00:28:33,276 --> 00:28:35,153
DEREK: Okay, so the last time I saw you,

482
00:28:35,153 --> 00:28:36,738
you told me about

483
00:28:36,738 --> 00:28:39,157
the first time you saw him.

484
00:28:39,157 --> 00:28:40,491
WOLF: Yeah.

485
00:28:40,491 --> 00:28:41,659
DEREK: Can you tell me that story again?

486
00:28:43,620 --> 00:28:47,457
WOLF: So... I got me into this game.

487
00:28:48,041 --> 00:28:50,043
It's a game my older brother used to play.

488
00:28:50,043 --> 00:28:54,047
And I'm sitting in this game
next to this guy,

489
00:28:55,006 --> 00:28:56,174
and we're playing.

490
00:28:56,799 --> 00:29:00,220
And at the time, I hadn't been
in too many card games.

491
00:29:00,220 --> 00:29:03,389
At that time, I was mostly
fuckin' around with dice.

492
00:29:03,389 --> 00:29:07,602
But, uh, I'm in this game,
and I'm next to this guy.

493
00:29:08,394 --> 00:29:09,938
And I ain't never met this guy before.

494
00:29:09,938 --> 00:29:11,981
But at that time, I ain't never met
a lot of people.

495
00:29:11,981 --> 00:29:15,860
So, I'm sitting there,
and he leans in to bet.

496
00:29:15,860 --> 00:29:17,904
Now, he confident but real sloppy.

497
00:29:19,197 --> 00:29:23,034
So, he leans forward to bet,
and I seen what he's holding.

498
00:29:23,034 --> 00:29:24,369
He just being lazy.

499
00:29:25,370 --> 00:29:29,207
And I think to myself,
"I've got this motherfucker beat."

500
00:29:29,207 --> 00:29:31,584
Only problem now is keeping him
in the hand.

501
00:29:32,418 --> 00:29:34,629
I didn't want to scare him off,
know what I'm saying.

502
00:29:34,629 --> 00:29:38,383
So, I raised, he raised,

503
00:29:38,383 --> 00:29:40,218
and that shit went back and forth.

504
00:29:40,218 --> 00:29:42,220
And I'm doing my best not to laugh at him,

505
00:29:42,220 --> 00:29:44,472
'cause I know this motherfucker
ain't got shit.

506
00:29:45,098 --> 00:29:46,391
But I'm playin' it cool.

507
00:29:47,058 --> 00:29:48,726
And I go all in.

508
00:29:48,726 --> 00:29:51,813
He calls. And we roll over our hands.

509
00:29:54,649 --> 00:29:55,900
And he had me beat.

510
00:29:57,277 --> 00:29:59,112
Now I'm thinking, "Am I hallucinating?"

511
00:29:59,112 --> 00:30:01,197
'Cause I know what I saw.

512
00:30:01,197 --> 00:30:05,201
But then when it ain't there
I start to think I'm losing my mind.

513
00:30:05,201 --> 00:30:06,911
And I look up at this motherfucker,

514
00:30:06,911 --> 00:30:09,330
and he's smiling right at me.

515
00:30:09,330 --> 00:30:11,916
And he knew and he's smiling.

516
00:30:12,625 --> 00:30:14,210
That's when I knew

517
00:30:15,420 --> 00:30:16,796
he was the Devil.

518
00:30:17,755 --> 00:30:20,008
And I wanted to be just like him.

519
00:30:21,217 --> 00:30:23,720
‐ And I wanted to be just like him.

520
00:30:24,929 --> 00:30:26,264
So he taught me.

521
00:30:27,891 --> 00:30:29,142
So I learned.

522
00:30:29,142 --> 00:30:31,352
And I remember him saying to me,

523
00:30:31,352 --> 00:30:35,106
"Okay, Derek, all that time you spent
learning to become a dog,

524
00:30:35,106 --> 00:30:38,484
"all that razzle‐dazzle you've learned,
you can forget it,

525
00:30:38,484 --> 00:30:41,863
"because dogs like to please people,
and we're not about that.

526
00:30:41,863 --> 00:30:45,283
"So from now on, you're gonna
shuffle cards like we shuffle cards.

527
00:30:45,283 --> 00:30:46,951
"You're gonna deal 'em like we deal 'em.

528
00:30:46,951 --> 00:30:49,787
"And you, you're gonna learn
to be invisible.

529
00:30:49,787 --> 00:30:51,956
"You can start by getting yourself
a new name.

530
00:30:51,956 --> 00:30:54,459
And make sure you pick a name
that's easy to remember."

531
00:30:55,460 --> 00:30:57,879
So I thought about it for a little bit.

532
00:30:57,879 --> 00:30:59,422
I went with the name Cody.

533
00:31:02,217 --> 00:31:03,551
Cody is my middle name.

534
00:31:03,551 --> 00:31:06,262
I just‐‐ I figured that would be
very easy for me to remember.

535
00:31:10,433 --> 00:31:11,643
King of spades.

536
00:31:13,686 --> 00:31:15,980
It turns out that's actually
really good advice.

537
00:31:15,980 --> 00:31:17,982
Pick a name that's easy to remember.

538
00:31:17,982 --> 00:31:21,110
'Cause the last thing you need
is to be sitting at a card table

539
00:31:21,110 --> 00:31:23,530
and shuffling, dealing, playing cards,

540
00:31:23,530 --> 00:31:26,074
having a grand old time
with a bunch of strangers,

541
00:31:26,074 --> 00:31:27,909
and then someone you don't know says

542
00:31:27,909 --> 00:31:30,119
what's supposed to be
your name a few times

543
00:31:30,119 --> 00:31:31,412
and you don't respond.

544
00:31:32,914 --> 00:31:36,125
You can't be sitting at these tables
trying to remember what your name is.

545
00:31:36,125 --> 00:31:38,169
You got other things on your mind,

546
00:31:38,169 --> 00:31:40,463
more important things
to be keeping track of.

547
00:31:40,463 --> 00:31:42,006
Things like that king of spades.

548
00:31:42,549 --> 00:31:44,801
Which is now 17 cards from the top.

549
00:31:47,095 --> 00:31:48,388
There's 16.

550
00:31:48,763 --> 00:31:51,975
One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight,

551
00:31:51,975 --> 00:31:56,479
nine, ten, eleven, twelve,
thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen,

552
00:31:56,479 --> 00:31:57,522
seventeen.

553
00:31:58,022 --> 00:31:58,982
King of spades.

554
00:32:00,483 --> 00:32:03,570
[chuckles] I remember him
saying to me, "Okay,

555
00:32:04,696 --> 00:32:08,116
"Cody, listen, when you sit down to deal,

556
00:32:08,658 --> 00:32:10,285
"there are a few things
you're going to need

557
00:32:10,285 --> 00:32:11,870
"to remind yourself from time to time.

558
00:32:11,870 --> 00:32:15,498
"One of those things... some of these guys
sitting at these tables,

559
00:32:15,498 --> 00:32:18,626
"some of them are just going to be staring
at your hands while you're dealing.

560
00:32:19,294 --> 00:32:23,631
"And if you ever notice that,
you gotta just stay calm, stay focused,

561
00:32:25,341 --> 00:32:26,426
do your job."

562
00:32:26,426 --> 00:32:30,889
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

563
00:32:30,889 --> 00:32:35,560
♪

564
00:32:35,560 --> 00:32:38,980
"Now you gotta understand, kid,
even if they're staring at your hands,

565
00:32:38,980 --> 00:32:40,273
"they can't see what you're doing.

566
00:32:41,191 --> 00:32:45,069
"And they can't see what you're doing
'cause they don't even know it exists.

567
00:32:48,698 --> 00:32:51,492
"And they don't know
someone like you exists.

568
00:32:52,076 --> 00:32:54,621
"And they're just staring at your hands

569
00:32:54,621 --> 00:32:56,372
"'cause they're waiting
for their next card.

570
00:32:56,372 --> 00:32:58,541
"These guys are gamblers.
They're always just gonna be sitting there

571
00:32:58,541 --> 00:33:00,210
"waiting for their next card.

572
00:33:02,003 --> 00:33:05,673
But you have to believe me when I tell you
they cannot see that you're a wolf."

573
00:33:12,680 --> 00:33:14,807
Didn't take long for me to realize,
on most nights,

574
00:33:14,807 --> 00:33:17,143
one card, one card was
not gonna be enough.

575
00:33:17,143 --> 00:33:20,605
On most nights, you needed
to find at least two.

576
00:33:20,605 --> 00:33:23,191
And on those bad nights,

577
00:33:25,193 --> 00:33:26,361
three.

578
00:33:26,361 --> 00:33:28,905
And on those really bad nights, all four.

579
00:33:31,866 --> 00:33:35,537
I remember him telling me,
"Look, kid, when you beat these guys,

580
00:33:35,537 --> 00:33:37,038
"they're gonna get pissed.

581
00:33:37,664 --> 00:33:40,500
"If you learn to accept it now
that they're gonna get upset,

582
00:33:40,500 --> 00:33:44,003
"it will be a lot easier for you
when you're actually sitting with them

583
00:33:44,003 --> 00:33:47,423
"and then you hear these guys start
to whine about losing,

584
00:33:48,633 --> 00:33:50,885
"when you hear 'em start to bitch and moan

585
00:33:51,427 --> 00:33:55,306
"or when they start yelling
or making threats.

586
00:33:56,182 --> 00:33:58,393
"I mean, you gotta understand, kid,
some of these guys,

587
00:33:59,060 --> 00:34:02,522
"some of these guys might have
the nerve to accuse you of cheating.

588
00:34:02,522 --> 00:34:04,357
"And if that ever happens,

589
00:34:04,983 --> 00:34:07,777
"you gotta take a moment
and remind yourself of the truth.

590
00:34:07,777 --> 00:34:09,195
"They just lost all their money.

591
00:34:09,946 --> 00:34:11,114
"So they're furious.

592
00:34:11,114 --> 00:34:13,950
"And you're one of the only people
in the world

593
00:34:13,950 --> 00:34:15,410
"that they can take that out on.

594
00:34:17,453 --> 00:34:19,247
They don't know that you're a wolf."

595
00:34:19,956 --> 00:34:20,999
After their shuffles,

596
00:34:21,457 --> 00:34:23,334
they always insist that you pass the deck

597
00:34:23,334 --> 00:34:25,003
so someone else can give it a cut.

598
00:34:26,087 --> 00:34:30,133
I guess they thought this sort
of procedure would keep the wolves at bay.

599
00:34:30,842 --> 00:34:32,552
I don't know. I just‐‐
I remember being told,

600
00:34:32,552 --> 00:34:36,890
"Look, look, you gotta let them have
those types of illusions, Cody.

601
00:34:39,434 --> 00:34:41,686
You always want them
to have their illusions."

602
00:34:43,855 --> 00:34:45,023
Four kings.

603
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:48,193
[sighs]

604
00:34:48,193 --> 00:34:49,360
From the middle.

605
00:34:49,360 --> 00:34:54,032
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

606
00:34:54,032 --> 00:34:58,036
♪

607
00:35:01,998 --> 00:35:03,875
Didn't seem to matter
how well I did, though,

608
00:35:03,875 --> 00:35:05,001
how hard I tried,

609
00:35:05,835 --> 00:35:06,920
how proud I tried to make him.

610
00:35:06,920 --> 00:35:10,548
Whatever I had, he always insisted
I give him a better hand.

611
00:35:16,596 --> 00:35:19,849
That, that at the end of the day
is the problem I found with hustlers.

612
00:35:19,849 --> 00:35:23,728
These guys, they really only care
about one thing, you know. Money.

613
00:35:23,728 --> 00:35:27,148
And the sad truth is
you can make as much money

614
00:35:27,148 --> 00:35:28,816
on any given night with one move.

615
00:35:28,816 --> 00:35:31,986
One great move can win you the same amount
of money as every move combined,

616
00:35:31,986 --> 00:35:36,115
so, a lot of these guys, they only bother
practicing one thing.

617
00:35:36,115 --> 00:35:39,077
And some of them become
the best in the world

618
00:35:39,536 --> 00:35:40,828
at one thing.

619
00:35:44,374 --> 00:35:47,126
I spent most of my youth tracking
those few men down.

620
00:35:47,585 --> 00:35:50,088
Asking them to teach me
what they've learned.

621
00:35:50,088 --> 00:35:52,257
And I learned a lot
of great lessons from 'em,

622
00:35:52,257 --> 00:35:54,509
but the best came when I was 17 years old.

623
00:35:54,509 --> 00:35:57,136
I got on a Greyhound bus,
I went to Denver, Colorado

624
00:35:57,554 --> 00:36:00,640
looking for the man
when it came to one thing.

625
00:36:01,182 --> 00:36:03,935
I found him at a pool hall,
introduced myself.

626
00:36:03,935 --> 00:36:07,105
After some convincing
of why someone like me

627
00:36:07,105 --> 00:36:08,773
would be looking for someone like him,

628
00:36:08,773 --> 00:36:11,693
he took me into a room in the back
where there was a card table,

629
00:36:11,693 --> 00:36:13,987
and he set a deck in front of me
and said, "All right, kid,

630
00:36:14,654 --> 00:36:15,780
let's see what you got."

631
00:36:16,322 --> 00:36:18,700
This was like the old gunslinger
testing the kid, you know.

632
00:36:19,117 --> 00:36:21,286
See how fast he is. I didn't hesitate.

633
00:36:21,286 --> 00:36:23,288
I took the cards. I started shuffling.

634
00:36:23,288 --> 00:36:26,666
I'm sitting there looking down at my hands
thinking, "Oh wow, this looks good."

635
00:36:26,666 --> 00:36:28,084
[riffling cards]
I've been practicing.

636
00:36:28,501 --> 00:36:31,796
And I finish my shuffles
and I look up from my hands

637
00:36:32,505 --> 00:36:34,340
to see he's now holding a gun.

638
00:36:36,384 --> 00:36:37,510
And he says,

639
00:36:38,428 --> 00:36:40,555
"Just hope they get you
in the heart, kid."

640
00:36:42,932 --> 00:36:46,394
And what he was doing was teaching me
a valuable lesson,

641
00:36:46,936 --> 00:36:50,106
which is if I were ever to attempt
these sort of things at a card table,

642
00:36:50,106 --> 00:36:52,734
with strangers, for money,
I better make damn sure

643
00:36:52,734 --> 00:36:55,862
that I'm not sitting there with 'em
just staring at my own hands

644
00:36:55,862 --> 00:36:57,614
and admiring my own work.

645
00:36:57,614 --> 00:36:58,573
So‐‐

646
00:36:59,699 --> 00:37:01,117
He taught me how to practice.

647
00:37:01,659 --> 00:37:04,037
I've practiced everything this way since,

648
00:37:04,037 --> 00:37:07,207
and I will share it with you
as I try to run up a decent hand

649
00:37:07,207 --> 00:37:10,043
for... his favorite game.

650
00:37:12,545 --> 00:37:16,966
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

651
00:37:16,966 --> 00:37:18,009
Bridge.

652
00:37:18,635 --> 00:37:20,762
The idea here, in theory,
is pretty straightforward.

653
00:37:20,762 --> 00:37:24,557
Specific cards get shuffled
into specific positions.

654
00:37:24,557 --> 00:37:25,558
Hopefully.

655
00:37:25,558 --> 00:37:28,561
In this case, we're looking for
as many of the spades as we can find

656
00:37:28,561 --> 00:37:32,273
so that in a moment, when I'm dealing,
the deals can be fair,

657
00:37:32,273 --> 00:37:35,401
because right now it's the shuffles
that are crooked.

658
00:37:36,653 --> 00:37:40,907
♪

659
00:37:54,796 --> 00:37:56,047
All right, let's see how we do.

660
00:37:57,507 --> 00:37:59,509
A spade?
AUDIENCE: Yes.

661
00:37:59,509 --> 00:38:00,885
‐ Thank you.

662
00:38:00,885 --> 00:38:02,637
Spade?
AUDIENCE: Yeah.

663
00:38:04,222 --> 00:38:05,348
‐ Spade?

664
00:38:05,348 --> 00:38:06,975
All right. Let's just see
how many we miss.

665
00:38:07,892 --> 00:38:12,188
♪

666
00:38:32,750 --> 00:38:37,005
[audience applauding]

667
00:38:40,049 --> 00:38:41,175
Yeah. Okay, good.

668
00:38:41,175 --> 00:38:43,720
Uh... no, I've finished this before,
I've had people say,

669
00:38:43,720 --> 00:38:46,055
"That's awesome,
but they're not in order."

670
00:38:46,055 --> 00:38:49,017
[audience laughing]

671
00:38:52,896 --> 00:38:55,481
Which, you know, I would have done
for you folks,

672
00:38:55,481 --> 00:38:58,067
but I had a fuckin' tie on my face. So‐‐

673
00:38:58,067 --> 00:39:01,321
[laughing]

674
00:39:01,321 --> 00:39:03,406
For any perfectionist that might be here‐‐

675
00:39:15,168 --> 00:39:17,128
Using those deals from earlier,

676
00:39:19,797 --> 00:39:22,926
starting with the ace of spades,
you should be able to bring it home

677
00:39:23,760 --> 00:39:24,844
like this.

678
00:39:26,262 --> 00:39:29,724
Ace, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight,

679
00:39:29,724 --> 00:39:31,476
nine, ten, jack, queen, king.

680
00:39:31,476 --> 00:39:32,727
Now they're in order.

681
00:39:32,727 --> 00:39:36,481
[audience applauding]

682
00:39:38,441 --> 00:39:40,235
It really does seem like no matter how

683
00:39:41,236 --> 00:39:43,446
long it's been or how hard I try,

684
00:39:46,199 --> 00:39:48,451
I've still got a whole lot of wolf in me.

685
00:39:53,957 --> 00:39:55,667
♪ dramatic music playing ♪

686
00:39:57,835 --> 00:39:59,420
♪

687
00:40:02,131 --> 00:40:04,133
♪

688
00:40:04,133 --> 00:40:07,178
[audience gasping, applauding]

689
00:40:10,139 --> 00:40:14,394
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

690
00:40:14,394 --> 00:40:16,521
It's true, you stare out
towards that horizon,

691
00:40:16,521 --> 00:40:20,692
and it is very difficult
to decipher anything that's standing

692
00:40:20,692 --> 00:40:22,902
between you and the sun.

693
00:40:26,739 --> 00:40:29,576
But if you are willing
to turn your back on the sun,

694
00:40:33,329 --> 00:40:35,331
everything else is illuminated.

695
00:40:35,331 --> 00:40:39,002
[high‐pitched screeching]

696
00:40:57,770 --> 00:41:00,815
[screeching intensifies]

697
00:41:08,573 --> 00:41:09,991
[gun clicks]

698
00:41:11,993 --> 00:41:13,161
[click]

699
00:41:14,662 --> 00:41:15,830
[click]

700
00:41:15,830 --> 00:41:18,041
[screeching fades away]

701
00:41:18,041 --> 00:41:23,004
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

702
00:41:39,812 --> 00:41:43,024
Every secret has a unique weight to it.

703
00:41:47,654 --> 00:41:49,531
I learned this at an early age.

704
00:41:49,531 --> 00:41:50,657
My mother‐‐

705
00:41:57,539 --> 00:41:58,915
My mother.

706
00:41:58,915 --> 00:42:01,918
She had me when she was only 17 years old.

707
00:42:01,918 --> 00:42:03,378
And my father, he was,

708
00:42:04,337 --> 00:42:06,047
he was a little bit older than she was,

709
00:42:06,047 --> 00:42:09,008
but he decided to split town

710
00:42:10,301 --> 00:42:11,886
right when he found out she was pregnant.

711
00:42:14,305 --> 00:42:15,348
But my mother,

712
00:42:16,015 --> 00:42:18,726
she managed to work I don't know
how many jobs and go to school,

713
00:42:18,726 --> 00:42:21,521
and she still somehow found the time
to tuck me in at night.

714
00:42:21,521 --> 00:42:23,982
I mean, she found the time
to read me bedtime stories.

715
00:42:24,983 --> 00:42:26,025
And‐‐

716
00:42:29,028 --> 00:42:31,906
I honestly don't know how she did it
by herself for so long.

717
00:42:31,906 --> 00:42:34,742
But when I was, when I was six years old,
that all changed.

718
00:42:34,742 --> 00:42:36,953
I don't, I don't remember
if I was already asleep

719
00:42:36,953 --> 00:42:39,956
or about to fall asleep,
but I do vividly remember

720
00:42:39,956 --> 00:42:41,291
being thirsty.

721
00:42:41,291 --> 00:42:44,377
So I remember grabbing my little cup
off my nightstand,

722
00:42:45,044 --> 00:42:47,714
leaving my room, going down the hall
past the living room

723
00:42:48,506 --> 00:42:50,925
to discover, oh hey, the TV's still on.

724
00:42:52,802 --> 00:42:56,681
And there on the couch is my mother
kissing another woman.

725
00:42:59,434 --> 00:43:01,144
And this for me is confusing.

726
00:43:01,561 --> 00:43:04,105
But... my mother, she sits me down.

727
00:43:04,105 --> 00:43:06,357
She introduces me to a very nice lady

728
00:43:06,357 --> 00:43:09,819
and proceeds to gently explain

729
00:43:09,819 --> 00:43:11,446
the nuances of love

730
00:43:11,863 --> 00:43:14,407
between two human beings.

731
00:43:19,370 --> 00:43:21,039
I cried myself to sleep that night.

732
00:43:22,874 --> 00:43:25,043
And not because she told me she's gay

733
00:43:25,043 --> 00:43:28,671
but because that's the night I knew
I would never have a father.

734
00:43:33,176 --> 00:43:34,260
But she was happy.

735
00:43:35,345 --> 00:43:36,971
I wa‐‐ I was happy.

736
00:43:36,971 --> 00:43:40,850
I mean, for the first time in our lives,
we were enjoying the comforts

737
00:43:41,392 --> 00:43:43,228
of a nuclear family.

738
00:43:44,020 --> 00:43:47,023
[inaudible conversation]

739
00:43:55,740 --> 00:43:57,033
My best friend,

740
00:43:58,743 --> 00:44:01,663
my best friend at that time
was a neighbor kid.

741
00:44:01,663 --> 00:44:02,997
His name was Ryan.

742
00:44:02,997 --> 00:44:07,544
And my playtime with Ryan consisted
of riding bikes,

743
00:44:08,044 --> 00:44:09,337
playing tag.

744
00:44:12,131 --> 00:44:14,592
We us‐‐ we used to pretend
we were pirates,

745
00:44:15,343 --> 00:44:16,511
in a sandbox.

746
00:44:17,345 --> 00:44:20,014
One day, I told my best friend, Ryan,

747
00:44:20,848 --> 00:44:22,350
about my new mom.

748
00:44:23,560 --> 00:44:26,521
And the next day, Ryan told me
he couldn't be my friend anymore.

749
00:44:29,399 --> 00:44:30,650
That's what he was told.

750
00:44:33,027 --> 00:44:35,029
And then I remember
coming home from school

751
00:44:35,029 --> 00:44:37,699
and finding a Bible on my doorstep,

752
00:44:38,992 --> 00:44:43,121
and I remember hearing
the sound of glass shattering

753
00:44:43,121 --> 00:44:44,581
and then finding a brick.

754
00:44:45,623 --> 00:44:48,835
And I remember hearing picketers
and learning the words "faggot"

755
00:44:48,835 --> 00:44:50,545
and "queer" and "dyke".

756
00:44:52,380 --> 00:44:55,216
And learning all three of those words
meant the same thing:

757
00:44:56,175 --> 00:44:57,010
Mom.

758
00:45:06,978 --> 00:45:08,021
We moved...

759
00:45:09,397 --> 00:45:10,440
right after that.

760
00:45:12,442 --> 00:45:13,818
And I learned...

761
00:45:13,818 --> 00:45:14,777
[sighs]

762
00:45:16,821 --> 00:45:18,781
I learned how to keep a secret, you know.

763
00:45:19,240 --> 00:45:20,325
How to...

764
00:45:22,118 --> 00:45:23,203
protect one.

765
00:45:23,870 --> 00:45:24,746
How to create one.

766
00:45:24,746 --> 00:45:28,416
I, I started to use language

767
00:45:28,416 --> 00:45:30,543
I could hide in to...

768
00:45:32,337 --> 00:45:34,756
avoid all discussion of life at home.

769
00:45:39,510 --> 00:45:41,012
And I developed rituals.

770
00:45:41,638 --> 00:45:45,558
If a new friend were to come over
to my house for the very first time,

771
00:45:45,558 --> 00:45:47,602
I would ask them politely,
"Hey, dude, do me a favor,

772
00:45:48,144 --> 00:45:49,229
"wait outside here at the front door.

773
00:45:49,229 --> 00:45:51,481
I'm gonna go inside. I wanna make sure
the house is clean for you."

774
00:45:51,481 --> 00:45:53,983
And cleaning meant me
running around the house,

775
00:45:53,983 --> 00:45:56,903
hiding all the rainbow flags
and Indigo Girls CDs

776
00:45:56,903 --> 00:46:00,240
and, you know, hiding anything
I thought might expose me

777
00:46:00,240 --> 00:46:01,824
for who I wasn't.

778
00:46:04,577 --> 00:46:07,205
Hiding all of the evidence
of my mother's pride.

779
00:46:11,626 --> 00:46:13,253
I got really good at that.

780
00:46:16,214 --> 00:46:17,048
[chuckles]

781
00:46:17,048 --> 00:46:20,093
Then I remember Lindsey,
this girl from school.

782
00:46:20,093 --> 00:46:21,553
I remember summoning up

783
00:46:22,512 --> 00:46:24,180
every ounce of courage I had in me

784
00:46:24,180 --> 00:46:26,391
to ask her to whatever dance it was

785
00:46:26,391 --> 00:46:30,812
and she telling me she couldn't
because she heard from one of her friends

786
00:46:30,812 --> 00:46:32,063
that my mother is gay.

787
00:46:33,815 --> 00:46:36,568
How did they know? I mean,
how did everyone find out?

788
00:46:36,568 --> 00:46:38,152
I had been so careful.

789
00:46:42,490 --> 00:46:46,703
After that, my secrets were replaced
with "go fuck yourselves."

790
00:46:47,203 --> 00:46:51,082
And... I like to think that
this honest new disposition came

791
00:46:51,082 --> 00:46:53,334
from a place of maturity, but‐‐

792
00:46:54,919 --> 00:46:56,004
[sighs]

793
00:46:56,921 --> 00:46:58,464
It was exhaustion.

794
00:46:58,965 --> 00:47:02,176
'Cause every secret has a weight to it,

795
00:47:02,176 --> 00:47:04,512
and you can only carry them for so long.

796
00:47:18,985 --> 00:47:23,489
[high‐pitched screeching]

797
00:47:23,489 --> 00:47:24,532
[screeching stops]

798
00:47:28,369 --> 00:47:29,579
[thud]

799
00:47:54,520 --> 00:47:55,897
[chuckles]

800
00:48:10,578 --> 00:48:11,871
This is just a brick.

801
00:48:28,930 --> 00:48:30,306
This is just a brick.

802
00:48:31,724 --> 00:48:34,018
But it's gonna be very difficult

803
00:48:34,602 --> 00:48:36,604
for any of you to see it that way anymore.

804
00:48:39,941 --> 00:48:42,402
This brick was painted gold

805
00:48:43,403 --> 00:48:45,363
and it was placed on this stage,

806
00:48:49,617 --> 00:48:51,119
and I just told that story.

807
00:48:52,328 --> 00:48:53,788
I mentioned a brick in that story.

808
00:48:53,788 --> 00:48:55,498
I, I sat right here

809
00:48:56,624 --> 00:48:59,085
next to this brick
when I mentioned it, so‐‐

810
00:49:00,879 --> 00:49:02,922
It's gonna be very difficult
for any of you to see this

811
00:49:02,922 --> 00:49:05,425
as just a brick now, 'cause you know
too much, you know that story.

812
00:49:05,425 --> 00:49:06,926
And that is what you will

813
00:49:07,927 --> 00:49:10,054
think of now when you look at this.

814
00:49:20,940 --> 00:49:22,025
Sorry.

815
00:49:30,366 --> 00:49:31,868
I can help with that.

816
00:49:34,579 --> 00:49:35,580
[thud]

817
00:49:39,876 --> 00:49:41,419
[mutters]

818
00:49:41,419 --> 00:49:45,340
♪

819
00:50:29,759 --> 00:50:30,969
[sighs]

820
00:50:30,969 --> 00:50:33,972
♪

821
00:50:33,972 --> 00:50:35,723
Someone here is a tourist.

822
00:50:37,183 --> 00:50:39,310
Tourist, wherever you are,
please raise your hand.

823
00:50:39,310 --> 00:50:43,982
♪

824
00:50:44,524 --> 00:50:47,902
Hey, tourist, could you please name,
uh, an avenue in this city

825
00:50:47,902 --> 00:50:49,654
that we'd all recognize if we heard it.

826
00:50:49,654 --> 00:50:51,155
WOMAN: Avenue A.

827
00:50:51,155 --> 00:50:52,782
DEREK: Avenue A. That might work.

828
00:50:53,283 --> 00:50:54,701
Someone here is an idiot.

829
00:50:54,701 --> 00:50:57,495
[audience laughs]

830
00:50:57,495 --> 00:50:59,873
Idiot, wherever you are,
please raise your hand.

831
00:50:59,873 --> 00:51:04,586
♪

832
00:51:04,586 --> 00:51:08,631
[laughing]

833
00:51:09,674 --> 00:51:13,094
That's about right. Uh‐‐
[audience laughs]

834
00:51:14,220 --> 00:51:15,847
Uh, someone here is a film buff.

835
00:51:15,847 --> 00:51:17,849
Film buff, wherever you are,
please raise your hand.

836
00:51:17,849 --> 00:51:18,850
Hey, film buff.

837
00:51:19,225 --> 00:51:22,979
Could you please name, uh, a street
that intersects with Avenue A

838
00:51:22,979 --> 00:51:24,689
that we'd be familiar with if we heard it?

839
00:51:25,023 --> 00:51:26,691
‐ Third Street.
DEREK: Third Street.

840
00:51:27,108 --> 00:51:28,359
Third Street and Avenue A.

841
00:51:28,943 --> 00:51:30,069
Thank you, both.

842
00:51:30,069 --> 00:51:34,616
♪

843
00:51:38,786 --> 00:51:41,164
We all start so pure.

844
00:51:41,164 --> 00:51:43,708
There's no information
that's tainted our experience

845
00:51:43,708 --> 00:51:44,876
of what it means to be human.

846
00:51:44,876 --> 00:51:48,463
And what we, we know about this world
is just pure. It's just‐‐

847
00:51:49,255 --> 00:51:52,050
It's what actually is,
and then slowly but surely,

848
00:51:52,050 --> 00:51:56,262
opinions are thrust upon us
and knowledge is put in our head

849
00:51:57,764 --> 00:52:00,183
and we're given ideas,
and we start to make associations

850
00:52:00,183 --> 00:52:01,851
between what's good and bad

851
00:52:03,478 --> 00:52:05,897
and what a good person is
and what a bad person is.

852
00:52:06,773 --> 00:52:08,483
And it's all that knowledge

853
00:52:09,108 --> 00:52:11,819
that conceals what a thing is.

854
00:52:13,029 --> 00:52:16,991
♪

855
00:52:22,622 --> 00:52:26,167
That brick is now on the corner
of Avenue A and Third Street.

856
00:52:27,710 --> 00:52:30,964
And it is, it's sitting now
right there on the corner,

857
00:52:32,382 --> 00:52:34,592
and people are walking right by it.

858
00:52:34,592 --> 00:52:36,970
Pe‐‐ people are driving right past it.

859
00:52:38,304 --> 00:52:41,140
And if, if you go there,
just look, just observe,

860
00:52:41,140 --> 00:52:43,893
and you're gonna notice
not a single person stops

861
00:52:43,893 --> 00:52:45,270
to look at that brick.

862
00:52:45,270 --> 00:52:47,105
Not a single person takes a moment

863
00:52:47,105 --> 00:52:48,773
out of their day to look down
at the ground and go,

864
00:52:48,773 --> 00:52:51,818
"Oh hey, there's a gold brick here on
the corner of Avenue A and Third Street.

865
00:52:51,818 --> 00:52:54,279
What is this brick doing here?"
Nobody, nobody does that.

866
00:52:55,154 --> 00:52:56,281
And...

867
00:52:57,991 --> 00:53:01,828
nobody takes that moment out of their day
to acknowledge that brick's existence

868
00:53:01,828 --> 00:53:04,080
because they don't care, and they‐‐

869
00:53:04,622 --> 00:53:06,541
They don't care 'cause
they don't know anything about it.

870
00:53:06,541 --> 00:53:10,003
They don't know where it's been.
They don't know its story.

871
00:53:10,420 --> 00:53:13,047
Only the people in this room know
anything about that brick right now

872
00:53:13,047 --> 00:53:14,799
and to everyone else on the planet,

873
00:53:15,425 --> 00:53:16,801
that's just a brick.

874
00:53:19,721 --> 00:53:20,805
Which it is.

875
00:53:24,100 --> 00:53:25,685
It's just all in how you look at it.

876
00:53:29,689 --> 00:53:30,607
[blows]

877
00:53:33,151 --> 00:53:34,819
[wind whooshing]

878
00:53:34,819 --> 00:53:37,322
DEREK'S MOTHER: Hey! Oh! [laughs]

879
00:53:37,322 --> 00:53:38,615
How does it feel, honey?

880
00:53:50,001 --> 00:53:51,044
[gun clicks]

881
00:53:52,629 --> 00:53:53,671
[click]

882
00:53:55,256 --> 00:53:56,257
[click]

883
00:54:07,977 --> 00:54:11,356
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

884
00:54:11,356 --> 00:54:14,984
♪

885
00:54:14,984 --> 00:54:16,444
‐ Nobody move.

886
00:54:17,153 --> 00:54:18,571
Nobody make a sound.

887
00:54:20,406 --> 00:54:23,576
Uh... can you please choose
somebody for us.

888
00:54:25,870 --> 00:54:27,038
Who'd you get?

889
00:54:28,540 --> 00:54:29,624
Let me see that.

890
00:54:30,875 --> 00:54:33,836
Okay. Nobody move,
especially not the Stabilizer.

891
00:54:33,836 --> 00:54:34,629
The Gentleman.

892
00:54:34,629 --> 00:54:35,338
The Tsar.

893
00:54:35,338 --> 00:54:36,089
The Mediator.

894
00:54:36,089 --> 00:54:37,006
The Teacher.

895
00:54:38,675 --> 00:54:40,385
What does a reflection look like?

896
00:54:43,596 --> 00:54:45,223
You don't need to think about it.
We have one here.

897
00:54:45,223 --> 00:54:47,141
[audience laughs]

898
00:54:47,141 --> 00:54:48,393
Uh, Reflection.

899
00:54:49,477 --> 00:54:50,103
[sighs]

900
00:54:50,103 --> 00:54:51,604
Wherever you are, please raise your hand.

901
00:54:51,604 --> 00:54:53,273
I promise no harm will come.

902
00:54:56,693 --> 00:54:59,612
Hey, Reflection.
Could you please stand up.

903
00:55:01,197 --> 00:55:03,491
And if you could just
turn around real quick.

904
00:55:03,491 --> 00:55:05,577
Ladies and gentlemen,
this is what a reflection looks like.

905
00:55:05,577 --> 00:55:08,621
[audience laughing, applauding]
Thank you very much, Reflection.

906
00:55:18,298 --> 00:55:19,674
There's a story you should know.

907
00:55:24,971 --> 00:55:26,639
There's a story all of us,

908
00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:28,725
all of us should know.

909
00:55:29,100 --> 00:55:32,145
This story is about these six dudes.

910
00:55:33,104 --> 00:55:36,399
And these dudes,
they're walking through a field,

911
00:55:38,234 --> 00:55:40,778
and they come across a thing,

912
00:55:42,780 --> 00:55:44,365
and they don't know what this thing is.

913
00:55:44,365 --> 00:55:45,825
So these guys decide

914
00:55:46,159 --> 00:55:47,410
instead of just moving along,

915
00:55:47,410 --> 00:55:49,412
instead of just minding
their own damn business,

916
00:55:49,412 --> 00:55:51,956
these guys decide they're gonna stop,

917
00:55:51,956 --> 00:55:54,167
they're going to investigate.

918
00:55:54,167 --> 00:55:56,711
And by God, they're gonna figure out
what this thing is.

919
00:55:56,711 --> 00:55:59,130
There's a‐‐ there is a problem
with their idea.

920
00:55:59,130 --> 00:56:01,466
All six of these guys are blind.

921
00:56:02,008 --> 00:56:04,010
And even though they're all touching
the same thing,

922
00:56:04,010 --> 00:56:05,428
they're all touching
a different part of it.

923
00:56:05,428 --> 00:56:07,764
So each guy thinks
it's a totally different thing.

924
00:56:08,223 --> 00:56:11,059
For instance, the guy at the front
of this thing, he's touching this part.

925
00:56:11,059 --> 00:56:13,561
Feels all long and round.
Gets thicker towards the top.

926
00:56:13,561 --> 00:56:16,022
It's kinda rough, almost scaly.

927
00:56:18,441 --> 00:56:22,028
It's wet at the tip. "Oh, hey, guys,
back up. It's an enormous snake."

928
00:56:23,196 --> 00:56:25,031
The guy at the opposite end,
at the back end,

929
00:56:25,031 --> 00:56:27,200
he feels something similar but different.

930
00:56:27,200 --> 00:56:29,661
It is long and round back here.
It's not very thick though.

931
00:56:29,661 --> 00:56:31,204
It's kind of the same width
all the way up.

932
00:56:31,204 --> 00:56:32,914
It's fuzzy at spots.

933
00:56:33,748 --> 00:56:34,666
It's fluffy at the end.

934
00:56:34,666 --> 00:56:37,669
"Hey, man, it's not a snake.
It's just rope.

935
00:56:38,253 --> 00:56:39,546
Don't freak us out."

936
00:56:41,005 --> 00:56:43,299
And the guy touching
the side of this thing,

937
00:56:43,925 --> 00:56:47,303
this guy is touching
the big broad side of this thing.

938
00:56:47,303 --> 00:56:51,099
This thing is so big and so heavy and hard

939
00:56:51,099 --> 00:56:53,309
when he presses up against it,
it doesn't budge, doesn't move an inch.

940
00:56:53,309 --> 00:56:55,061
So this guy, he thinks it's a wall.

941
00:56:55,603 --> 00:56:59,816
And the guy just below that, he's got
his arms around this part here.

942
00:56:59,816 --> 00:57:01,609
"That feels like a tree trunk, gentlemen."

943
00:57:02,819 --> 00:57:05,738
There's another one
and another and another.

944
00:57:05,738 --> 00:57:07,615
"It's four tree trunks, guys."

945
00:57:08,366 --> 00:57:10,118
And the guy on top of this thing‐‐

946
00:57:10,118 --> 00:57:12,579
I don't, I don't know why there was
a guy on top of this thing.

947
00:57:12,579 --> 00:57:13,955
[audience laughs]
But he's up there.

948
00:57:13,955 --> 00:57:15,748
He's feeling around,

949
00:57:15,748 --> 00:57:17,083
and he feels this part here.

950
00:57:17,083 --> 00:57:19,586
Feels, feels kinda leathery.

951
00:57:20,420 --> 00:57:22,755
Shaped like a fan.
Oh, there's two of them.

952
00:57:22,755 --> 00:57:24,924
"It's like two big fans, guys."

953
00:57:24,924 --> 00:57:26,551
Anyways, the point being,

954
00:57:27,218 --> 00:57:30,555
these guys argue amongst themselves
for quite a while,

955
00:57:30,555 --> 00:57:34,517
and it, it was not until they learned
to communicate

956
00:57:34,517 --> 00:57:36,185
and work together

957
00:57:36,185 --> 00:57:39,772
that they were able to, you know, "see"
the thing they were all touching

958
00:57:40,523 --> 00:57:41,691
is just an elephant.

959
00:57:41,691 --> 00:57:43,693
Now this, this is an old story.

960
00:57:43,693 --> 00:57:45,653
There's lots of versions
of this really old story

961
00:57:45,653 --> 00:57:47,238
from all around the world.

962
00:57:47,238 --> 00:57:50,491
I have read every version of this story
I could get my hands on,

963
00:57:50,491 --> 00:57:54,245
and I've noticed every version
of this story has one thing in common.

964
00:57:54,245 --> 00:57:58,041
There's... there's not a single version
of this story

965
00:57:58,041 --> 00:58:01,669
that takes into consideration
what this experience must have been like

966
00:58:02,253 --> 00:58:03,296
for the elephant.

967
00:58:03,296 --> 00:58:05,423
[audience laughs]

968
00:58:06,257 --> 00:58:08,259
Think about it from its perspective
for just a moment.

969
00:58:08,259 --> 00:58:13,014
Ima‐‐ imagine you are standing alone
in a field minding your own business

970
00:58:14,182 --> 00:58:16,267
and six perverts come out of nowhere

971
00:58:17,435 --> 00:58:19,270
and start fondling you.

972
00:58:20,730 --> 00:58:22,232
[grumbling]

973
00:58:23,066 --> 00:58:26,194
And then they start arguing
about what you are,

974
00:58:26,194 --> 00:58:27,278
and they can't decide.

975
00:58:27,278 --> 00:58:29,989
They can't figure it out. So they form
a really creepy committee,

976
00:58:30,323 --> 00:58:31,991
and they discuss what you are.

977
00:58:32,951 --> 00:58:36,329
And they come back and go, "Hey,
we talked about it. We figured it out

978
00:58:36,329 --> 00:58:38,248
You, you're an elephant, Elephant."

979
00:58:38,248 --> 00:58:39,999
[babbling]

980
00:58:39,999 --> 00:58:42,168
What if they're wrong?
I mean, they are blind.

981
00:58:43,169 --> 00:58:46,214
Or in, or in this instance, what if
they were right in the first place?

982
00:58:46,214 --> 00:58:49,008
What if these blind guys
didn't stumble across an elephant?

983
00:58:49,008 --> 00:58:51,636
What if they really did stumble
across a magical creature?

984
00:58:51,636 --> 00:58:53,555
Something that had a snake for a nose,

985
00:58:53,555 --> 00:58:55,807
and tree trunks for legs
and a wall for a body,

986
00:58:55,807 --> 00:58:58,226
and then they just,
they convinced each other

987
00:58:58,226 --> 00:58:59,602
it was just an elephant

988
00:59:00,019 --> 00:59:01,980
And worse than that,

989
00:59:02,939 --> 00:59:05,358
what if they could convince it
it was just an elephant.

990
00:59:05,358 --> 00:59:06,568
And then what if this thing,

991
00:59:06,568 --> 00:59:09,237
what if this magical creature didn't have
someone around who knew it,

992
00:59:09,237 --> 00:59:12,031
someone who saw it for what it really was
and loved it enough to say,

993
00:59:12,031 --> 00:59:14,325
"No, they're all wrong,
and you're more than that."

994
00:59:20,123 --> 00:59:21,249
I don't know.

995
00:59:22,584 --> 00:59:25,503
Maybe that's why we don't see
those types of magical creatures

996
00:59:25,503 --> 00:59:27,046
roaming around anymore.

997
00:59:44,856 --> 00:59:46,858
Reflection, please join me on the stage.

998
00:59:56,701 --> 00:59:57,827
WOMAN: Hi.
‐ Pleasure to meet you.

999
00:59:58,203 --> 01:00:01,122
Uh, take a seat. I'm gonna grab my chair.
I will explain what's happening.

1000
01:00:02,165 --> 01:00:06,461
I've been doing my best.
Uh, I've been doing my damnedest to keep

1001
01:00:06,461 --> 01:00:10,048
an antiquated form of communication
from going extinct.

1002
01:00:11,132 --> 01:00:14,052
In other words, I've been having
letters sent to me.

1003
01:00:14,052 --> 01:00:15,345
And I have,

1004
01:00:16,095 --> 01:00:18,056
[exhales forcefully] I have enough here

1005
01:00:18,056 --> 01:00:21,309
for... almost everyone,
but it doesn't matter.

1006
01:00:21,309 --> 01:00:24,896
Uh, it doesn't matter
'cause each day, each performance

1007
01:00:24,896 --> 01:00:26,397
we only get to open one,

1008
01:00:26,397 --> 01:00:31,194
and today you have been selected to decide
which of these we're gonna open.

1009
01:00:31,194 --> 01:00:33,446
So please go through,
decide on one you'd like to open,

1010
01:00:33,446 --> 01:00:34,781
and keep it for yourself.

1011
01:00:40,411 --> 01:00:42,205
MAN: This one.
DEREK: Okay. I'll take the rest.

1012
01:00:42,205 --> 01:00:44,999
I'm just gonna point out a few things
that you can see right now
that most of them can't.

1013
01:00:44,999 --> 01:00:47,460
First of all, you may have noticed,
all of these are actually addressed to me,

1014
01:00:47,460 --> 01:00:50,421
to Derek DelGaudio,
care of the Daryl Roth Theatre.

1015
01:00:50,421 --> 01:00:52,715
That's me. That's this place.

1016
01:00:53,091 --> 01:00:56,344
Second, you may have noticed all
of the return addresses have been removed.

1017
01:00:56,761 --> 01:00:58,805
And finally, if you turn it over
on the back,

1018
01:00:58,805 --> 01:01:00,932
you'll see this says "Cousin," "Friend."

1019
01:01:00,932 --> 01:01:01,516
What does yours say?

1020
01:01:01,516 --> 01:01:02,767
‐ Sister.
DEREK: Sister.

1021
01:01:02,767 --> 01:01:04,727
‐ Grandfather.
‐ Grandfather.

1022
01:01:04,727 --> 01:01:06,896
Sibling. Do you have any siblings"

1023
01:01:07,564 --> 01:01:09,274
‐ Yes.
‐ This is a rude question.

1024
01:01:09,274 --> 01:01:10,441
Do you have any friends?

1025
01:01:10,733 --> 01:01:12,819
‐ I think so.
‐ You think so. Okay, good. I have to ask.

1026
01:01:13,152 --> 01:01:14,612
What does yours say?
‐ Father.

1027
01:01:14,612 --> 01:01:17,198
‐ Father. Do‐‐ uh, do you have a father?

1028
01:01:17,198 --> 01:01:18,241
‐ I do.

1029
01:01:18,241 --> 01:01:19,951
‐ Is he here with you tonight?
‐ He is not.

1030
01:01:19,951 --> 01:01:20,994
‐ Perfect.

1031
01:01:22,954 --> 01:01:24,163
Okay.

1032
01:01:25,582 --> 01:01:28,793
Freak, two things are about to happen.

1033
01:01:28,793 --> 01:01:31,421
Uh, these two things are gonna happen
almost simultaneously.

1034
01:01:31,421 --> 01:01:33,298
One of these things, you will see.

1035
01:01:34,090 --> 01:01:35,383
And the other thing,

1036
01:01:36,384 --> 01:01:37,260
we will see.

1037
01:01:37,260 --> 01:01:39,345
Uh, here is what
you are about to see happen.

1038
01:01:39,345 --> 01:01:40,972
Right now, you're holding an envelope.

1039
01:01:40,972 --> 01:01:42,807
And presumably, inside of that envelope

1040
01:01:42,807 --> 01:01:44,893
is a folded card or piece of paper.

1041
01:01:44,893 --> 01:01:46,519
But in a moment,
you're gonna open that up,

1042
01:01:46,519 --> 01:01:48,146
you're gonna unfold whatever's in there.

1043
01:01:48,146 --> 01:01:50,857
And when you do,
you're gonna see this thing

1044
01:01:52,275 --> 01:01:54,068
transform

1045
01:01:54,444 --> 01:01:56,154
into a handwritten letter

1046
01:01:57,614 --> 01:01:58,489
to you

1047
01:01:58,489 --> 01:01:59,574
from your father.

1048
01:01:59,574 --> 01:02:00,575
From your friend.

1049
01:02:00,575 --> 01:02:01,576
From your nephew.

1050
01:02:01,576 --> 01:02:02,535
From your son.

1051
01:02:02,535 --> 01:02:03,328
From your cousin.

1052
01:02:03,328 --> 01:02:04,287
From your sister.

1053
01:02:04,287 --> 01:02:05,413
From your child.

1054
01:02:06,122 --> 01:02:07,832
[audience laughs]

1055
01:02:07,832 --> 01:02:09,250
None of us will see that.

1056
01:02:09,709 --> 01:02:11,211
Only she will see that.

1057
01:02:11,211 --> 01:02:13,588
What the rest of us will see,
in my opinion, it's,

1058
01:02:15,465 --> 01:02:16,633
it's better.

1059
01:02:16,633 --> 01:02:18,218
In a moment, you're gonna open that up.

1060
01:02:18,218 --> 01:02:20,595
And when you see this thing transform,

1061
01:02:20,595 --> 01:02:22,597
we get to see you, the reflection‐‐

1062
01:02:22,597 --> 01:02:23,890
The conceptual artist.

1063
01:02:23,890 --> 01:02:24,891
The teacher.

1064
01:02:24,891 --> 01:02:26,184
The pediatrician.

1065
01:02:26,184 --> 01:02:27,018
The lieutenant.

1066
01:02:27,018 --> 01:02:27,852
The unicorn.

1067
01:02:27,852 --> 01:02:28,853
The dog lover.

1068
01:02:28,853 --> 01:02:29,479
The fighter.

1069
01:02:29,479 --> 01:02:33,733
Transform into... something else.

1070
01:02:36,903 --> 01:02:37,779
Okie‐dokie.

1071
01:02:37,779 --> 01:02:39,656
Uh‐‐
[audience laughs]

1072
01:02:41,658 --> 01:02:43,993
You don't even need to read that aloud.
That's just for you to read.

1073
01:02:43,993 --> 01:02:45,745
But we are gonna watch.

1074
01:02:45,745 --> 01:02:48,498
I will be right here if you need anything

1075
01:02:48,498 --> 01:02:49,582
at any moment.

1076
01:02:51,668 --> 01:02:53,211
[audience laughs]

1077
01:03:04,764 --> 01:03:08,434
[scattered laughter]

1078
01:03:13,147 --> 01:03:15,024
‐ Ohh. What?

1079
01:03:15,650 --> 01:03:17,193
‐ No!

1080
01:03:19,028 --> 01:03:20,572
‐ What the fuck!

1081
01:03:20,572 --> 01:03:22,282
[audience laughs]

1082
01:03:29,831 --> 01:03:30,957
‐ How‐‐

1083
01:03:30,957 --> 01:03:36,629
[audience laughs]

1084
01:03:55,106 --> 01:03:56,399
[laughs]

1085
01:04:00,862 --> 01:04:03,698
‐ Uh, okay.
[laughs]

1086
01:04:06,868 --> 01:04:08,036
[sniffles]

1087
01:04:32,477 --> 01:04:33,686
[sniffles]

1088
01:04:45,740 --> 01:04:46,950
‐ [whispering] You had
a moment for yourself.

1089
01:04:46,950 --> 01:04:48,701
Are you comfortable sharing this?

1090
01:04:49,661 --> 01:04:51,037
I can help if you need.

1091
01:04:55,333 --> 01:04:57,043
‐ I don't understand.

1092
01:04:57,043 --> 01:04:58,670
‐ I know. Please stand.

1093
01:05:13,476 --> 01:05:14,477
[clears throat]

1094
01:05:22,068 --> 01:05:23,945
‐ "To the Hairy Gary Gorilla‐‐

1095
01:05:24,612 --> 01:05:27,490
"despite being away from home
for ten years,

1096
01:05:29,701 --> 01:05:30,994
"I want you to know

1097
01:05:32,829 --> 01:05:35,290
"you're still a big part of my life,

1098
01:05:36,749 --> 01:05:38,418
and a very big inspiration."

1099
01:05:40,086 --> 01:05:41,588
‐ "You are everything to me.

1100
01:05:41,588 --> 01:05:44,716
"You are amazing to be around,
because you are smart,

1101
01:05:44,716 --> 01:05:46,593
funny, and beautiful inside and out."

1102
01:05:47,427 --> 01:05:50,013
‐ "I'm not sure that I've ever
completely conveyed to you

1103
01:05:50,013 --> 01:05:51,764
"how proud I am of you

1104
01:05:52,140 --> 01:05:54,225
"more than anyone I've ever met.

1105
01:05:55,101 --> 01:05:56,853
"You have a strong moral core

1106
01:05:57,270 --> 01:05:59,647
"and the courage of your convictions.

1107
01:06:00,190 --> 01:06:02,609
"Whether you're standing up
for the little guy

1108
01:06:02,609 --> 01:06:04,652
"against the big football players,

1109
01:06:04,652 --> 01:06:06,112
"like you did in college,

1110
01:06:07,113 --> 01:06:09,908
"or starting your venture
to teach adolescents how to live

1111
01:06:09,908 --> 01:06:11,492
an ethical Jewish life."

1112
01:06:11,492 --> 01:06:15,955
‐ "I am truly lucky to have‐‐
found a friend
as awesome as you so late in life

1113
01:06:15,955 --> 01:06:17,999
when it gets really hard to do so."

1114
01:06:18,583 --> 01:06:21,753
‐ "I want to tell you how much
I admire your independence

1115
01:06:22,212 --> 01:06:24,297
"and your strength,
especially to get through

1116
01:06:24,297 --> 01:06:26,174
"the tough times in life.

1117
01:06:26,883 --> 01:06:30,094
I love our common love
of Dachshunds and Chardonnay."

1118
01:06:30,094 --> 01:06:33,056
‐ "Just in case you haven't noticed,
your mama's proud of you."

1119
01:06:34,224 --> 01:06:36,017
And then she signed it 63,

1120
01:06:36,935 --> 01:06:38,686
which is a family shorthand
for "I love you."

1121
01:06:41,814 --> 01:06:44,567
‐ "I look forward to many more
happy years of friendship

1122
01:06:44,567 --> 01:06:46,528
"and worldwide travels together.

1123
01:06:47,070 --> 01:06:48,196
"Love, Ducky.

1124
01:06:49,155 --> 01:06:50,114
"P.S.,

1125
01:06:50,990 --> 01:06:54,869
there's nothing like El Baño at the 717."

1126
01:06:56,496 --> 01:06:57,497
‐ El Baño?

1127
01:07:00,333 --> 01:07:02,293
‐ That's the bathroom
we used to get high in.

1128
01:07:02,293 --> 01:07:05,421
[audience laughing]

1129
01:07:08,341 --> 01:07:09,842
‐ "You once said to me

1130
01:07:10,552 --> 01:07:13,263
"'Dad, what color is God's skin?'

1131
01:07:14,889 --> 01:07:16,724
"Your mother and I said to you,

1132
01:07:17,350 --> 01:07:20,270
"'It's black, brown, it's yellow.

1133
01:07:20,270 --> 01:07:22,063
"'It is red. It is white.

1134
01:07:22,897 --> 01:07:26,776
"Every man's the same
in the good Lord's sight.'

1135
01:07:28,111 --> 01:07:29,821
"To your mother and me,

1136
01:07:29,821 --> 01:07:32,907
"you have always embodied
this message to the world.

1137
01:07:34,158 --> 01:07:35,285
Love, Dad."

1138
01:07:37,495 --> 01:07:38,079
[sniffles]

1139
01:07:38,079 --> 01:07:39,038
And he's

1140
01:07:39,998 --> 01:07:41,541
dying of Parkinson's

1141
01:07:43,418 --> 01:07:44,502
and is...

1142
01:07:46,546 --> 01:07:49,883
in the last stages,
and every time I see him

1143
01:07:51,050 --> 01:07:54,470
I say goodbye to him, because I don't know
if I'm gonna see him again.

1144
01:08:03,313 --> 01:08:05,273
‐ I don't know if you all saw the moment.

1145
01:08:06,274 --> 01:08:08,318
I no longer see a reflection
on this stage.

1146
01:08:08,318 --> 01:08:09,819
I see someone's daughter.

1147
01:08:10,278 --> 01:08:12,488
I no longer see a free thinker
on this stage.

1148
01:08:12,488 --> 01:08:13,990
I see somebody's son.

1149
01:08:13,990 --> 01:08:16,075
I no longer see an organizer
on this stage.

1150
01:08:16,075 --> 01:08:17,660
I see somebody's friend.

1151
01:08:17,660 --> 01:08:20,663
I no longer see a fighter on this stage.
I see somebody's father.

1152
01:08:22,624 --> 01:08:25,418
I don't know when you plan
on seeing your dad or talking to him

1153
01:08:25,418 --> 01:08:26,711
but in the meantime,

1154
01:08:27,253 --> 01:08:29,881
I mean this, take a moment,
get a piece of paper, write him back.

1155
01:08:29,881 --> 01:08:30,506
Write her back.

1156
01:08:30,506 --> 01:08:31,424
Write her back.

1157
01:08:31,424 --> 01:08:32,050
Write him back.

1158
01:08:32,050 --> 01:08:33,635
It always means a lot more.

1159
01:08:33,968 --> 01:08:34,886
‐ Thank you.
‐ You're welcome.

1160
01:08:34,886 --> 01:08:35,970
‐ Thank you.

1161
01:08:35,970 --> 01:08:39,974
[audience applauding]

1162
01:08:55,990 --> 01:08:57,116
[sighs]

1163
01:09:02,205 --> 01:09:04,457
Uh, Mr. Tomorrow? Mr. Tomorrow.

1164
01:09:05,416 --> 01:09:06,793
Hi, Mr. Tomorrow.

1165
01:09:07,544 --> 01:09:08,836
Pack your shit. It's time to go.

1166
01:09:08,836 --> 01:09:10,964
[audience laughs]

1167
01:09:22,141 --> 01:09:23,643
Thank you very much for doing this.

1168
01:09:23,643 --> 01:09:25,228
We're gonna throw you out right now.

1169
01:09:25,228 --> 01:09:27,730
I don't want you to feel like
you're being excluded from this.

1170
01:09:28,273 --> 01:09:30,149
It's easy to feel that way
in this particular moment,

1171
01:09:30,149 --> 01:09:33,444
but I, uh, I assure you
it is quite the contrary,

1172
01:09:33,444 --> 01:09:35,071
because in a few moments,

1173
01:09:35,864 --> 01:09:37,031
all of this,

1174
01:09:38,074 --> 01:09:40,159
all of this, it's gonna end

1175
01:09:41,119 --> 01:09:42,328
for all of them.

1176
01:09:42,829 --> 01:09:44,455
And whether they all know it or not,

1177
01:09:45,790 --> 01:09:49,294
when this ends,
they will have decided what it is.

1178
01:09:50,545 --> 01:09:52,589
And they will have decided what I am.

1179
01:09:54,507 --> 01:09:56,259
But not you.
But not you.

1180
01:09:56,259 --> 01:09:57,010
But not you.

1181
01:09:57,010 --> 01:09:57,802
But
not you.

1182
01:09:57,802 --> 01:10:00,471
For you, this is gonna remain a mystery
a little bit longer,

1183
01:10:00,471 --> 01:10:03,266
and this story is gonna continue now
'cause you're gonna take it with you,

1184
01:10:03,266 --> 01:10:06,060
and... that means it could be
whatever you want it to be.

1185
01:10:06,060 --> 01:10:08,646
I'd like you to write down
what you saw here up until this moment.

1186
01:10:08,646 --> 01:10:10,523
Just as you saw. Like a recap for us.

1187
01:10:10,523 --> 01:10:12,525
And then, more importantly,

1188
01:10:12,525 --> 01:10:14,986
I want you to imagine how this story ends.

1189
01:10:14,986 --> 01:10:16,654
Uh, it can be anything you want.
Give us an ending.

1190
01:10:16,654 --> 01:10:18,740
I will have you read that imaginary ending

1191
01:10:18,740 --> 01:10:20,408
to the nice people that come tomorrow.

1192
01:10:20,408 --> 01:10:21,993
And then some day,

1193
01:10:22,535 --> 01:10:26,164
if someone were to read all of this,
it's gonna tell 'em an honest story

1194
01:10:26,164 --> 01:10:29,167
of everything that has ever happened here,

1195
01:10:29,167 --> 01:10:31,336
even though it's composed
entirely of information

1196
01:10:31,336 --> 01:10:33,254
that is both real and imagined.

1197
01:10:34,756 --> 01:10:36,841
I'm grateful you're part of it.
I'll see you tomorrow.

1198
01:10:36,841 --> 01:10:37,967
Thank you.
[audience applauding]

1199
01:10:48,061 --> 01:10:49,979
[gun clicking]

1200
01:11:30,019 --> 01:11:33,606
♪ suspenseful music plays ♪

1201
01:12:05,889 --> 01:12:10,768
♪ dramatic music playing ♪

1202
01:12:10,768 --> 01:12:14,856
♪

1203
01:12:32,123 --> 01:12:35,335
Before you came in here, there was a wall.

1204
01:12:37,378 --> 01:12:39,756
On that wall, there were a bunch of cards,

1205
01:12:39,756 --> 01:12:41,925
and a lot of you probably had fun with it.

1206
01:12:41,925 --> 01:12:43,259
Chose something like Ninja.

1207
01:12:44,677 --> 01:12:46,846
But others may have taken it seriously.

1208
01:12:48,264 --> 01:12:49,849
Maybe you chose something
you feel reflects

1209
01:12:49,849 --> 01:12:51,309
who you really are in this world.

1210
01:12:52,518 --> 01:12:54,687
How you'd really like
to be seen by others.

1211
01:12:58,399 --> 01:13:00,568
If you're one of those few people,
please stand.

1212
01:13:03,488 --> 01:13:08,868
♪

1213
01:13:18,378 --> 01:13:20,672
I remember reading that True Identity,

1214
01:13:20,672 --> 01:13:23,883
and not just identity,
True Identity is that which

1215
01:13:24,551 --> 01:13:26,928
exists within one's own heart

1216
01:13:28,638 --> 01:13:30,056
and is seen by another.

1217
01:13:33,810 --> 01:13:36,938
Honestly, I have no idea if that's true
outside these walls these days.

1218
01:13:36,938 --> 01:13:38,022
But in here,

1219
01:13:40,859 --> 01:13:41,901
I see a bartender.

1220
01:13:43,361 --> 01:13:44,696
And a curiosity.

1221
01:13:47,407 --> 01:13:48,575
And a heavyweight.

1222
01:13:53,162 --> 01:13:54,455
And an individual.

1223
01:13:56,791 --> 01:13:57,917
And an achiever.

1224
01:13:59,210 --> 01:14:00,211
A singer.

1225
01:14:03,631 --> 01:14:04,674
[sighs]

1226
01:14:07,927 --> 01:14:09,178
The truth‐teller.

1227
01:14:16,644 --> 01:14:17,770
A soother.

1228
01:14:18,605 --> 01:14:19,647
And a lover.

1229
01:14:22,066 --> 01:14:23,443
And a stargazer.

1230
01:14:24,569 --> 01:14:26,654
They're gonna regret it,
the one that got away.

1231
01:14:30,992 --> 01:14:32,035
An explorer.

1232
01:14:36,414 --> 01:14:37,832
And a good Samaritan.

1233
01:14:41,753 --> 01:14:42,879
And a vegan.

1234
01:14:44,339 --> 01:14:45,506
An alchemist.

1235
01:14:50,470 --> 01:14:51,638
An independent.

1236
01:14:54,349 --> 01:14:55,433
A maker.

1237
01:14:56,601 --> 01:14:57,769
And a good time.

1238
01:14:57,769 --> 01:14:59,646
[laughter]

1239
01:15:00,647 --> 01:15:02,565
If I'm right so far, you may be seated.

1240
01:15:04,484 --> 01:15:09,989
♪

1241
01:15:16,412 --> 01:15:17,622
A visionary.

1242
01:15:20,208 --> 01:15:24,629
♪

1243
01:15:27,215 --> 01:15:28,424
Keep up the good work.

1244
01:15:28,424 --> 01:15:33,012
♪

1245
01:15:36,933 --> 01:15:38,184
A disruptor.

1246
01:15:39,686 --> 01:15:40,770
A feminist.

1247
01:15:42,105 --> 01:15:43,565
An iconoclast.

1248
01:15:46,317 --> 01:15:47,443
A journalist.

1249
01:15:52,574 --> 01:15:53,658
Counselor.

1250
01:15:55,159 --> 01:15:56,452
A life coach.

1251
01:15:57,453 --> 01:15:58,913
A fish out of water.

1252
01:16:00,874 --> 01:16:02,041
A public servant.

1253
01:16:03,543 --> 01:16:04,836
A reconciler.

1254
01:16:11,843 --> 01:16:13,011
An artist.

1255
01:16:17,432 --> 01:16:18,975
A midnight toker.

1256
01:16:18,975 --> 01:16:24,022
[audience laughs]

1257
01:16:27,400 --> 01:16:28,693
An introvert.

1258
01:16:28,693 --> 01:16:29,736
Sorry to make you stand.

1259
01:16:29,736 --> 01:16:30,862
[laughter]

1260
01:16:34,365 --> 01:16:34,991
[exhales forcefully]

1261
01:16:34,991 --> 01:16:38,995
♪

1262
01:16:42,916 --> 01:16:44,292
You're like me.

1263
01:16:44,292 --> 01:16:45,460
An accident.

1264
01:16:49,047 --> 01:16:49,631
A traveler.

1265
01:16:52,050 --> 01:16:53,051
A mystic.

1266
01:16:58,973 --> 01:16:59,974
A leader.

1267
01:17:05,772 --> 01:17:06,731
A skeptic.

1268
01:17:10,068 --> 01:17:11,611
An anthropologist.

1269
01:17:12,529 --> 01:17:13,655
A nurse.

1270
01:17:14,405 --> 01:17:16,032
A makeup artist.

1271
01:17:21,955 --> 01:17:23,331
A single mother.

1272
01:17:28,670 --> 01:17:29,796
An adventurer.

1273
01:17:33,383 --> 01:17:38,346
♪

1274
01:17:47,981 --> 01:17:48,857
Nobody.

1275
01:17:53,319 --> 01:17:54,654
An intellectual.

1276
01:17:56,948 --> 01:17:58,074
A reader.

1277
01:17:59,284 --> 01:18:02,120
♪

1278
01:18:11,421 --> 01:18:13,047
[indiscernible whispering]

1279
01:18:13,047 --> 01:18:14,424
[woman chuckles]

1280
01:18:19,554 --> 01:18:20,555
A real mensch.

1281
01:18:20,972 --> 01:18:22,056
[chuckles]

1282
01:18:23,474 --> 01:18:24,976
[Derek chuckles] A breath of fresh air.

1283
01:18:28,104 --> 01:18:29,564
Welcome. Our immigrant.

1284
01:18:39,032 --> 01:18:40,116
My brother.

1285
01:18:44,746 --> 01:18:45,830
An accountant.

1286
01:18:48,958 --> 01:18:50,084
Hey, Grandpa.

1287
01:18:50,084 --> 01:18:51,127
[audience laughs]

1288
01:18:51,711 --> 01:18:53,046
A New Yorker.

1289
01:18:53,838 --> 01:18:55,340
A masochist.

1290
01:18:56,007 --> 01:18:57,926
[audience laughs]

1291
01:18:57,926 --> 01:18:59,135
An Adonis.

1292
01:18:59,135 --> 01:19:00,595
[audience laughs]

1293
01:19:00,595 --> 01:19:02,305
An exhibitionist.

1294
01:19:03,139 --> 01:19:04,349
A unicorn.

1295
01:19:05,558 --> 01:19:06,768
A real catch.

1296
01:19:07,310 --> 01:19:08,811
[audience laughs]

1297
01:19:11,523 --> 01:19:15,693
♪

1298
01:19:19,572 --> 01:19:20,657
Hi, Mom.

1299
01:19:22,367 --> 01:19:24,869
[audience applauds]

1300
01:19:35,380 --> 01:19:40,051
♪

1301
01:19:40,051 --> 01:19:41,636
An entomologist.

1302
01:19:44,639 --> 01:19:45,807
My teacher.

1303
01:19:49,227 --> 01:19:50,270
A shaman.

1304
01:19:53,398 --> 01:19:54,732
A multitude.

1305
01:19:57,819 --> 01:19:58,987
Everything.

1306
01:20:01,447 --> 01:20:02,574
Howdy, pilgrim.

1307
01:20:04,617 --> 01:20:05,660
Your Highness.

1308
01:20:08,371 --> 01:20:09,497
My advocate.

1309
01:20:10,832 --> 01:20:11,916
One of a kind.

1310
01:20:13,710 --> 01:20:15,003
A lone wolf.

1311
01:20:16,170 --> 01:20:17,171
A searcher.

1312
01:20:17,672 --> 01:20:19,132
An oracle.

1313
01:20:19,132 --> 01:20:20,675
An experimenter.

1314
01:20:20,675 --> 01:20:22,343
Life of the party.

1315
01:20:22,343 --> 01:20:23,636
My good luck charm.

1316
01:20:23,636 --> 01:20:24,929
My confidant.

1317
01:20:24,929 --> 01:20:26,139
A connector.

1318
01:20:26,139 --> 01:20:27,015
A fixer.

1319
01:20:27,015 --> 01:20:28,349
A dreamer.

1320
01:20:28,349 --> 01:20:29,601
A dog lover.

1321
01:20:29,601 --> 01:20:30,727
A believer.

1322
01:20:30,727 --> 01:20:31,769
Possibility.

1323
01:20:31,769 --> 01:20:32,979
An interpreter.

1324
01:20:32,979 --> 01:20:34,272
An organizer.

1325
01:20:37,567 --> 01:20:40,069
And you, Miss, you are a storyteller.

1326
01:20:40,069 --> 01:20:41,404
Please sit down.

1327
01:20:43,031 --> 01:20:47,035
[audience applauding]

1328
01:20:57,629 --> 01:20:59,047
And I am...

1329
01:21:00,006 --> 01:21:04,510
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

1330
01:21:04,510 --> 01:21:09,015
♪

1331
01:21:25,323 --> 01:21:26,658
the Rouletista.

1332
01:21:29,285 --> 01:21:30,453
[sighs]

1333
01:21:33,873 --> 01:21:35,041
Beca‐‐

1334
01:21:38,044 --> 01:21:39,879
Because that...

1335
01:21:44,050 --> 01:21:45,510
that's how he saw me.

1336
01:21:46,427 --> 01:21:48,054
And then that's,

1337
01:21:51,140 --> 01:21:52,684
that's how I started to see myself.

1338
01:21:52,684 --> 01:21:54,227
And now I come here

1339
01:21:54,811 --> 01:21:58,189
day after day after day,
and I stand in a dark room

1340
01:21:58,648 --> 01:22:00,608
full of a bunch of strangers

1341
01:22:02,527 --> 01:22:06,531
letting them decide the value of my life
while I load up six chambers

1342
01:22:06,531 --> 01:22:08,199
and attempt to defy some odds.

1343
01:22:08,199 --> 01:22:09,367
So, yeah,

1344
01:22:11,536 --> 01:22:13,371
I am the Rouletista.

1345
01:22:13,997 --> 01:22:18,001
♪

1346
01:22:27,218 --> 01:22:29,137
But I also know that I'm a son.

1347
01:22:31,431 --> 01:22:35,059
And I know that even though I am a son,
I know I'm also an orphan.

1348
01:22:36,436 --> 01:22:39,355
And I know that I am a sailor
even though I've never left the shores.

1349
01:22:39,355 --> 01:22:41,024
And honestly, I don't‐‐

1350
01:22:41,691 --> 01:22:44,152
I don't expect anyone
to be able to decipher

1351
01:22:44,152 --> 01:22:46,905
whether I'm a dog or a wolf,
'cause I, I understand.

1352
01:22:46,905 --> 01:22:50,366
For most people, it's inconceivable
that I'm both, but I don't‐‐

1353
01:22:54,037 --> 01:22:57,665
I don't need anyone to see all the things
that make me what I am

1354
01:22:57,665 --> 01:22:59,292
to know I'm more than just an elephant.

1355
01:22:59,292 --> 01:23:03,504
I'm more than just one thing, 'cause
I'm not just defined by what you see.

1356
01:23:05,965 --> 01:23:09,010
I'm also defined by all the things
you will never see.

1357
01:23:14,933 --> 01:23:17,018
We all are. And...

1358
01:23:18,978 --> 01:23:20,230
I see that now.

1359
01:23:20,230 --> 01:23:23,858
♪

1360
01:23:36,037 --> 01:23:39,290
♪ music intensifies ♪

1361
01:23:39,666 --> 01:23:40,708
Click.

1362
01:23:43,044 --> 01:23:47,882
[audience gasps, murmurs]

1363
01:23:51,511 --> 01:23:56,391
♪ upbeat music playing ♪

1364
01:23:56,391 --> 01:24:01,229
♪

1365
01:24:08,236 --> 01:24:11,030
WOMAN: [laughing] Holy fucking shit.

1366
01:24:13,783 --> 01:24:17,996
♪

1367
01:24:20,707 --> 01:24:23,334
MAN: We're on the corner of 25th and 7th.

1368
01:24:24,168 --> 01:24:25,670
There's a golden brick here.

1369
01:24:26,379 --> 01:24:27,338
We're taking it.

1370
01:24:27,338 --> 01:24:31,426
♪

1371
01:24:34,262 --> 01:24:36,514
WOMAN: Okay, this is
the craziest thing in my life.

1372
01:24:36,514 --> 01:24:37,557
[laughing]

1373
01:24:37,557 --> 01:24:39,017
The brick is right here.

1374
01:24:39,475 --> 01:24:43,771
♪

1375
01:25:28,650 --> 01:25:29,859
MAN: Can you take a photo of us?

1376
01:25:29,859 --> 01:25:33,363
♪

1377
01:26:01,724 --> 01:26:05,019
♪