1 00:00:11,790 --> 00:00:13,594 ♪ ♪ 2 00:00:39,278 --> 00:00:40,581 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:57,849 --> 00:01:00,655 -[band tuning] -[indistinct chatter] 4 00:01:06,299 --> 00:01:08,303 [anxious chatter] 5 00:01:16,687 --> 00:01:19,458 [actors chanting] 6 00:01:25,270 --> 00:01:28,276 [chanting] 7 00:01:40,702 --> 00:01:44,843 Round about the cauldron go, 8 00:01:44,876 --> 00:01:48,416 in the poison'd entrails throw. 9 00:01:49,820 --> 00:01:52,926 Toad, under cold stone... 10 00:01:52,959 --> 00:01:55,430 -[laughs] -[drumming] 11 00:01:57,635 --> 00:02:00,474 ...days and nights hast 31. 12 00:02:00,508 --> 00:02:04,683 -Swelter'd venom, sleeping got... -[chanting quietly] 13 00:02:04,716 --> 00:02:08,323 ...boil thou first in the charmed pot. 14 00:02:08,356 --> 00:02:10,460 [chanting] 15 00:02:18,209 --> 00:02:21,650 Fillet of fenny snake... 16 00:02:21,683 --> 00:02:24,255 [coughing] 17 00:02:24,288 --> 00:02:25,825 ...in the cauldron 18 00:02:25,858 --> 00:02:28,764 -boil and bake... -[stomach growling] 19 00:02:30,668 --> 00:02:32,304 I... 20 00:02:32,337 --> 00:02:34,208 -[retches] -[gasping] 21 00:02:34,241 --> 00:02:36,813 -[coughing] -[retching] 22 00:02:38,684 --> 00:02:40,421 [Anna Rexhia] What is fear? 23 00:02:40,454 --> 00:02:44,395 Fear is like this person who's always there... 24 00:02:44,428 --> 00:02:45,497 Hey. Hey. 25 00:02:45,531 --> 00:02:46,667 ...watching you, 26 00:02:46,700 --> 00:02:48,270 telling you what to do. 27 00:02:48,303 --> 00:02:49,706 [director] This is not part of the play! 28 00:02:49,739 --> 00:02:51,844 And when fear commands, 29 00:02:51,877 --> 00:02:53,947 most of us just blindly obey. 30 00:02:57,956 --> 00:03:00,193 But what if we said no? 31 00:03:01,864 --> 00:03:04,469 Said, "Not today, fear"? 32 00:03:04,503 --> 00:03:07,909 "I'm just gonna do my thing anyway." 33 00:03:07,942 --> 00:03:09,913 Just like with this winged eyeliner. 34 00:03:09,946 --> 00:03:11,416 I know I suck at it. 35 00:03:11,449 --> 00:03:13,721 I'm literally shaking with fear. 36 00:03:13,754 --> 00:03:15,290 But you know what, girls? 37 00:03:15,323 --> 00:03:17,562 I'm a-going anyway. [laughs] 38 00:03:17,595 --> 00:03:21,871 ♪ Life's a drag when you're a fag ♪ 39 00:03:21,904 --> 00:03:24,242 ♪ So instead... ♪ 40 00:03:24,275 --> 00:03:25,512 [gags] 41 00:03:25,545 --> 00:03:26,714 ♪ Be dead. ♪ [chuckles] 42 00:03:26,747 --> 00:03:28,416 [growling] 43 00:03:28,449 --> 00:03:30,320 Hey, Shelby, do you still play with Pink Bear? 44 00:03:30,353 --> 00:03:32,726 Ew. God, Dad. No. 45 00:03:32,759 --> 00:03:35,397 Well, I'm making a donation box. 46 00:03:35,430 --> 00:03:38,805 Place ain't as big as it looked in the pictures. 47 00:03:38,838 --> 00:03:41,409 Which means it's greener pastures for you, Pink Bear. 48 00:03:41,442 --> 00:03:42,845 Dad! 49 00:03:43,914 --> 00:03:45,518 Just 'cause I don't play with it 50 00:03:45,551 --> 00:03:47,989 doesn't mean you can just throw it away. 51 00:03:48,022 --> 00:03:49,659 No. 52 00:04:02,417 --> 00:04:03,688 [door closes] 53 00:04:03,721 --> 00:04:05,357 [Guy sighs] 54 00:04:05,390 --> 00:04:07,996 What do you think? 55 00:04:08,029 --> 00:04:08,998 Huh? 56 00:04:09,031 --> 00:04:11,402 Home sweet home? 57 00:04:18,116 --> 00:04:19,586 Is that Mom's? 58 00:04:21,523 --> 00:04:23,694 "Teacher of the Year." 59 00:04:23,727 --> 00:04:26,466 She was, uh... [chuckles] 60 00:04:26,499 --> 00:04:28,336 She was really proud of that. 61 00:04:28,369 --> 00:04:29,806 [Guy chuckles softly] 62 00:04:31,810 --> 00:04:33,479 Hey. 63 00:04:34,916 --> 00:04:37,556 I know you didn't want to leave home, 64 00:04:37,589 --> 00:04:38,858 move out here, Shelby, but... 65 00:04:38,891 --> 00:04:39,927 I know, I know. 66 00:04:39,960 --> 00:04:41,530 "Blank slate," blah blah blah. 67 00:04:41,563 --> 00:04:43,568 Blah blah blah, just... 68 00:04:43,601 --> 00:04:45,704 You know, hear me out. 69 00:04:49,646 --> 00:04:52,518 You remember what Dr. Bow said about cancer. 70 00:04:53,453 --> 00:04:56,626 How it doesn't just affect one person, it... 71 00:04:57,895 --> 00:04:59,866 It affects the whole family. 72 00:05:01,369 --> 00:05:03,372 The whole community. 73 00:05:04,943 --> 00:05:07,549 [echoing] But here... 74 00:05:07,582 --> 00:05:10,655 what happened to Mom, her getting sick... 75 00:05:10,688 --> 00:05:12,826 [high-pitched tone] 76 00:05:12,859 --> 00:05:15,732 ...doesn't have to define you. 77 00:05:15,765 --> 00:05:19,338 You get to be whoever you want to be. 78 00:05:23,681 --> 00:05:25,384 [high-pitched tone fades] 79 00:05:25,417 --> 00:05:30,059 So, I saw two pizza joints on that main drag. 80 00:05:31,530 --> 00:05:33,466 What do you say we order from both 81 00:05:33,499 --> 00:05:36,540 and see which one's best? Huh? 82 00:05:37,408 --> 00:05:40,446 I don't want to hear any of that "I'm not hungry" business. 83 00:05:42,785 --> 00:05:44,590 [school bell rings] 84 00:05:44,623 --> 00:05:46,660 [students chattering] 85 00:05:50,701 --> 00:05:52,872 [girls whispering] 86 00:05:56,847 --> 00:06:00,688 ♪ My swell suit might smell sweet ♪ 87 00:06:00,721 --> 00:06:02,826 ♪ My swell suit might smell sweet ♪ 88 00:06:02,859 --> 00:06:04,596 Individually. River. 89 00:06:04,629 --> 00:06:06,432 ♪ My swell suit might smell sweet ♪ 90 00:06:06,465 --> 00:06:07,969 Very good. 91 00:06:08,002 --> 00:06:10,541 ♪ My swell suit might smell sweet ♪ 92 00:06:10,574 --> 00:06:13,848 [girl] She looks like a fucking grandma. 93 00:06:13,881 --> 00:06:16,419 -Those glasses. -[snickering] 94 00:06:16,452 --> 00:06:20,728 ♪ My swell suit might smell sweet ♪ 95 00:06:20,761 --> 00:06:21,864 Take it, Shelby! 96 00:06:21,897 --> 00:06:22,966 ♪ My swell swoot... ♪ 97 00:06:22,999 --> 00:06:24,468 [chuckles softly] 98 00:06:24,502 --> 00:06:26,472 ♪ Might smell like mothballs. ♪ 99 00:06:26,506 --> 00:06:29,646 -[snorting] -[chuckling] 100 00:06:29,679 --> 00:06:31,884 [piano playing scales] 101 00:06:31,917 --> 00:06:35,057 [sound distorting] 102 00:06:35,090 --> 00:06:37,595 -[yelps] -Uh-uh! No! 103 00:06:37,628 --> 00:06:40,535 Come on. You're coming out in the hallway right now. 104 00:06:40,568 --> 00:06:42,137 Come into my office after class. 105 00:06:42,170 --> 00:06:43,473 [girl] Psycho! 106 00:06:43,507 --> 00:06:45,577 [students whispering] 107 00:06:48,182 --> 00:06:50,821 [faint whispering] 108 00:06:54,529 --> 00:06:57,201 [ominous whispering] 109 00:06:57,234 --> 00:07:00,541 [high-pitched tone] 110 00:07:02,612 --> 00:07:03,647 [whispering stops] 111 00:07:05,684 --> 00:07:08,557 -[bell rings] -[students chattering] 112 00:07:14,268 --> 00:07:16,674 [Nevins] Ms. Brubaker? 113 00:07:16,707 --> 00:07:17,975 My office. 114 00:07:22,552 --> 00:07:23,954 So... 115 00:07:23,987 --> 00:07:25,525 I'm sorry I threw the... 116 00:07:25,558 --> 00:07:27,261 Oh, it's okay. 117 00:07:27,294 --> 00:07:29,231 Sometimes I want to throw things, too. 118 00:07:29,264 --> 00:07:30,635 [soft chuckle] 119 00:07:30,668 --> 00:07:32,672 I overreacted. 120 00:07:33,640 --> 00:07:35,243 I just want to check in. 121 00:07:36,713 --> 00:07:39,185 Did you know I knew your mom? 122 00:07:39,218 --> 00:07:40,955 We used to go to a music teachers' conference 123 00:07:40,988 --> 00:07:42,792 in Omaha together. 124 00:07:42,825 --> 00:07:46,700 Sharon Brubaker was one special lady. 125 00:07:46,733 --> 00:07:48,504 And I know if you're her daughter, 126 00:07:48,537 --> 00:07:50,107 you must be pretty special, too. 127 00:07:50,140 --> 00:07:51,777 [chuckles softly] 128 00:07:51,810 --> 00:07:53,212 I'm not. 129 00:07:55,718 --> 00:07:59,693 You know, losing someone you love, it's hard. 130 00:07:59,726 --> 00:08:00,995 It can bring... 131 00:08:01,028 --> 00:08:02,632 adults to their knees. 132 00:08:02,665 --> 00:08:04,870 -Some people never recover. -[Shelby sighs] 133 00:08:04,903 --> 00:08:06,706 But you're here. 134 00:08:07,474 --> 00:08:10,815 Just from that fact alone, I know... 135 00:08:10,848 --> 00:08:13,285 you are brave. 136 00:08:16,860 --> 00:08:18,530 What kind was it? 137 00:08:19,331 --> 00:08:20,768 Pancreatic. 138 00:08:20,801 --> 00:08:22,772 Oh. Awful. 139 00:08:23,740 --> 00:08:26,547 So sudden. Fast. 140 00:08:26,580 --> 00:08:28,115 Not that it would be better if it... 141 00:08:29,318 --> 00:08:30,554 [soft exhale] 142 00:08:32,324 --> 00:08:33,928 You know, 143 00:08:33,961 --> 00:08:37,067 I lost someone very special to me, too. 144 00:08:38,336 --> 00:08:41,075 We tried and tried, my wife and I, 145 00:08:41,108 --> 00:08:42,579 for a long time, 146 00:08:42,612 --> 00:08:45,283 but everyone said it was impossible. 147 00:08:45,316 --> 00:08:47,253 She couldn't get pregnant. 148 00:08:48,857 --> 00:08:50,293 And then... 149 00:08:50,326 --> 00:08:52,899 God gave us a miracle. 150 00:08:52,932 --> 00:08:55,137 Little Madeline. 151 00:08:55,170 --> 00:08:58,577 She was ours, for nine months. 152 00:08:58,610 --> 00:09:01,148 But she was born deceased. 153 00:09:03,319 --> 00:09:05,691 Do something! Don't let my baby die! 154 00:09:11,101 --> 00:09:12,972 The cord had gotten wrapped around her neck 155 00:09:13,005 --> 00:09:14,642 on the way out. 156 00:09:17,748 --> 00:09:19,351 So... 157 00:09:19,384 --> 00:09:21,856 you and I are both brave. 158 00:09:25,129 --> 00:09:26,633 [girl] Hey. 159 00:09:27,400 --> 00:09:29,104 We weren't laughing at you, 160 00:09:29,137 --> 00:09:31,108 just so you know, in class. 161 00:09:31,141 --> 00:09:32,612 Oh, okay. 162 00:09:32,645 --> 00:09:34,281 We were just wondering... 163 00:09:34,314 --> 00:09:36,152 do you have one of those diseases 164 00:09:36,185 --> 00:09:37,889 that makes you go through menopause 165 00:09:37,922 --> 00:09:39,826 super early or something? 166 00:09:39,859 --> 00:09:41,997 -No. -Why do you have gray hair, then? 167 00:09:42,030 --> 00:09:43,399 It's not gray, it's dishwater blonde. 168 00:09:43,432 --> 00:09:46,205 -[laughs] -"Dishwater." I cannot. 169 00:09:46,238 --> 00:09:48,811 Well, you might just want to dye it. 170 00:09:48,844 --> 00:09:50,180 Or something. 171 00:09:50,213 --> 00:09:53,152 It's kind of giving lesbian backpacker vibes. 172 00:09:53,185 --> 00:09:54,789 No offense. 173 00:09:55,858 --> 00:09:57,896 Love the granny glasses. 174 00:09:57,929 --> 00:10:00,266 [laughing] 175 00:10:05,343 --> 00:10:07,080 [Anna Rexhia] And you're watching another episode 176 00:10:07,113 --> 00:10:08,282 of The Beastly Beat. 177 00:10:09,953 --> 00:10:11,790 The show where you watch me do my makeup... 178 00:10:11,823 --> 00:10:13,259 It's starting to look like a real home. 179 00:10:14,896 --> 00:10:17,401 [video playing quietly] 180 00:10:17,434 --> 00:10:19,205 [clears throat] 181 00:10:19,238 --> 00:10:21,275 So... 182 00:10:22,344 --> 00:10:24,248 I was thinking about, uh, 183 00:10:24,281 --> 00:10:27,287 how good you were last year in that, uh... 184 00:10:27,320 --> 00:10:29,291 that Pirates of Penzance. 185 00:10:29,324 --> 00:10:31,195 [video continues playing] 186 00:10:31,228 --> 00:10:33,065 Think you might want to try out for a play again this year? 187 00:10:35,403 --> 00:10:37,140 Hmm? 188 00:10:39,077 --> 00:10:41,148 You know, I found a box of your mom's office stuff. 189 00:10:42,217 --> 00:10:46,225 There's a laptop, some pictures... 190 00:10:46,258 --> 00:10:48,229 You don't think 191 00:10:48,262 --> 00:10:51,970 the Pirate King might be able to convince you? 192 00:10:52,003 --> 00:10:52,972 -Arr! -God, Dad, stop! 193 00:10:53,005 --> 00:10:55,377 Jesus. Shelby. 194 00:10:55,410 --> 00:10:57,313 Sorry-- 195 00:11:02,257 --> 00:11:03,459 What's going on? 196 00:11:03,492 --> 00:11:05,765 -Huh? -God, I didn't see. 197 00:11:05,798 --> 00:11:08,068 Why aren't you wearing your glasses? 198 00:11:09,404 --> 00:11:10,942 [sighs] 199 00:11:10,975 --> 00:11:12,377 Is it... 200 00:11:12,410 --> 00:11:14,081 Is something going on at school? 201 00:11:14,114 --> 00:11:17,253 Dad, just shut up! You don't understand anything! 202 00:11:20,093 --> 00:11:21,295 [door slams] 203 00:11:21,328 --> 00:11:22,799 [Anna Rexhia] Hello, ghouls. 204 00:11:22,832 --> 00:11:25,504 C'est moi, Anna Rexhia. 205 00:11:25,537 --> 00:11:27,374 [giggles] 206 00:11:27,407 --> 00:11:30,280 I want to tell you a story about facing your fears. 207 00:11:30,313 --> 00:11:33,186 You know, for the longest time, 208 00:11:33,219 --> 00:11:36,793 "anorexia" was a word I wouldn't even let myself think. 209 00:11:36,826 --> 00:11:39,331 It was a label that I knew deep down applied to me. 210 00:11:39,364 --> 00:11:41,068 And that was terrifying. 211 00:11:41,101 --> 00:11:43,172 But life is too short 212 00:11:43,205 --> 00:11:46,245 to let a word have that kind of power over you. 213 00:11:47,314 --> 00:11:49,853 So I made it my fucking name. 214 00:11:49,886 --> 00:11:51,422 [laughs] 215 00:11:51,455 --> 00:11:53,192 Oh, and because of that, I have had 216 00:11:53,225 --> 00:11:55,931 so much love and support 217 00:11:55,964 --> 00:11:58,504 from other people who've gone through the same shit. 218 00:11:58,537 --> 00:12:02,311 It's the same reason I like to dress up like this. 219 00:12:02,344 --> 00:12:04,415 To laugh in the face of fear. 220 00:12:04,448 --> 00:12:07,522 [cackles] 221 00:12:07,555 --> 00:12:09,792 So... 222 00:12:11,195 --> 00:12:12,998 What do we think? 223 00:12:14,067 --> 00:12:16,138 Dead baby got back. 224 00:12:16,171 --> 00:12:18,343 Baby got backed over. [laughs] 225 00:12:18,376 --> 00:12:20,113 Okay, whatever. 226 00:12:20,146 --> 00:12:24,956 ♪ Life's a drag when you're a fag ♪ 227 00:12:24,989 --> 00:12:26,560 ♪ So instead... ♪ 228 00:12:26,593 --> 00:12:27,929 [snaps] 229 00:12:27,962 --> 00:12:29,465 ♪ Be dead. ♪ [chuckles] 230 00:12:29,498 --> 00:12:31,035 Ta-ta. 231 00:12:31,068 --> 00:12:34,140 Like, subscribe, follow, all the things. 232 00:12:57,454 --> 00:13:00,192 ♪ ♪ 233 00:13:29,017 --> 00:13:31,288 ♪ ♪ 234 00:13:44,214 --> 00:13:46,251 [ringing] 235 00:13:56,573 --> 00:13:58,142 Um... 236 00:13:58,175 --> 00:14:00,146 Hi, new friend. 237 00:14:01,248 --> 00:14:02,618 Hi. 238 00:14:02,651 --> 00:14:05,090 What are you doing? 239 00:14:05,123 --> 00:14:06,893 Nothing. 240 00:14:06,926 --> 00:14:08,362 Nothing? 241 00:14:08,395 --> 00:14:12,538 It's impossible to do nothing, silly. 242 00:14:12,571 --> 00:14:14,007 Oh. [laughs] 243 00:14:14,040 --> 00:14:16,345 Um, I guess I'm sitting on my bed. 244 00:14:16,378 --> 00:14:20,019 I was eating dinner with my dad, but he was being... 245 00:14:20,052 --> 00:14:22,592 -so annoying. -Oh, that sucks. 246 00:14:22,625 --> 00:14:26,566 My dad is literally the most annoying person in the world. 247 00:14:26,599 --> 00:14:28,202 Uh, no, mine is. 248 00:14:28,235 --> 00:14:29,606 [both laugh] 249 00:14:29,639 --> 00:14:31,576 They're like first and second place 250 00:14:31,609 --> 00:14:33,412 Most Annoying Dad. 251 00:14:33,445 --> 00:14:35,584 [laughs] Like, they like, go to competitions, probably. 252 00:14:35,617 --> 00:14:37,487 [laughs] 253 00:14:37,521 --> 00:14:41,061 Like, they study each other's moves on video in slow motion 254 00:14:41,094 --> 00:14:43,332 analyzing how to be the most annoying. 255 00:14:43,365 --> 00:14:45,303 [laughs] You're really funny. 256 00:14:45,336 --> 00:14:47,642 Oh, my God, no. 257 00:14:47,675 --> 00:14:49,177 So random. 258 00:14:50,681 --> 00:14:53,520 I like your, uh, screenname, "BFF4EVA." 259 00:14:53,553 --> 00:14:55,123 Oh. [chuckles] 260 00:14:55,156 --> 00:14:57,562 What's your real name? 261 00:14:57,595 --> 00:15:00,199 Uh, real names suck. 262 00:15:01,736 --> 00:15:05,143 Hey, I-I have an idea. 263 00:15:05,176 --> 00:15:07,147 You want to give each other nicknames? 264 00:15:07,180 --> 00:15:08,550 Like what? 265 00:15:08,583 --> 00:15:13,025 Like I'll call you Shellybelly. 266 00:15:13,058 --> 00:15:15,429 And you can just call me Bestie. 267 00:15:16,198 --> 00:15:18,971 It'll be like a secret just between us. 268 00:15:19,004 --> 00:15:21,308 [soft chuckle] Okay. 269 00:15:21,341 --> 00:15:22,712 Bestie. 270 00:15:22,745 --> 00:15:24,582 Shellybelly. 271 00:15:24,615 --> 00:15:26,117 [Shelby chuckles] 272 00:15:27,453 --> 00:15:29,057 Who's that little guy? 273 00:15:29,090 --> 00:15:31,696 Oh, um... 274 00:15:31,729 --> 00:15:34,536 nothing, just this dumb thing from when I was a kid. 275 00:15:34,569 --> 00:15:36,138 I don't even know why it's here. 276 00:15:36,171 --> 00:15:37,440 Well... 277 00:15:37,473 --> 00:15:39,679 he's so cute. 278 00:15:39,712 --> 00:15:41,448 What's his name? 279 00:15:41,481 --> 00:15:43,386 Um... 280 00:15:43,419 --> 00:15:45,456 Pink Bear. [chuckles] 281 00:15:45,489 --> 00:15:47,060 He used to be pink. 282 00:15:47,093 --> 00:15:49,364 Now, he's more like a gray. 283 00:15:49,397 --> 00:15:51,503 I think he might be a mouse, actually. 284 00:15:51,536 --> 00:15:53,674 Well, uh, I love him. 285 00:15:53,707 --> 00:15:55,442 Whatever he is. 286 00:15:56,411 --> 00:15:58,216 Cool poster. 287 00:15:58,249 --> 00:15:59,484 I love Pippin. 288 00:15:59,518 --> 00:16:00,721 Wait, you know Pippin? 289 00:16:00,754 --> 00:16:02,558 Of course. 290 00:16:02,591 --> 00:16:04,394 Oh, my God, I'm literally obsessed with that soundtrack. 291 00:16:04,427 --> 00:16:05,698 I know, me, too. 292 00:16:05,731 --> 00:16:08,102 Like, we did it last summer at camp. 293 00:16:08,135 --> 00:16:10,273 Stop, I-I'm literally dying right now. 294 00:16:10,306 --> 00:16:12,310 And I played Catherine. 295 00:16:12,343 --> 00:16:15,250 But I can actually sing the Leading Player better. 296 00:16:15,283 --> 00:16:17,320 [muffled conversation continues] 297 00:16:42,805 --> 00:16:45,042 ♪ ♪ 298 00:16:51,689 --> 00:16:54,294 [ringing] 299 00:16:57,266 --> 00:17:00,139 Show me, show me, show me. 300 00:17:00,172 --> 00:17:02,143 Wait, no, not yet. 301 00:17:02,176 --> 00:17:04,616 -I'm scared. -Okay, one... 302 00:17:04,649 --> 00:17:07,120 -No, not yet. [laughs] -Two... 303 00:17:07,153 --> 00:17:10,126 Don't make me get to three. 304 00:17:10,159 --> 00:17:11,128 [chuckles] 305 00:17:11,161 --> 00:17:13,231 [gasps] 306 00:17:14,134 --> 00:17:15,537 I look like a freak. 307 00:17:15,570 --> 00:17:17,274 Shelby... 308 00:17:17,307 --> 00:17:20,480 you look amazing. 309 00:17:20,514 --> 00:17:23,486 Why didn't you tell me you were so good at makeup? 310 00:17:23,520 --> 00:17:26,225 You have to wear that to school. 311 00:17:26,258 --> 00:17:28,095 What? [chuckles] 312 00:17:28,128 --> 00:17:30,701 No. Oh, my God, no way. 313 00:17:30,734 --> 00:17:32,304 Never. [chuckles] 314 00:17:32,337 --> 00:17:33,774 Why not? 315 00:17:33,807 --> 00:17:36,412 Because everyone would say I look crazy, I... 316 00:17:36,445 --> 00:17:37,815 I would be way too scared. 317 00:17:37,848 --> 00:17:40,386 Come on, do something. 318 00:17:40,419 --> 00:17:43,192 Even just the eye makeup. 319 00:17:43,225 --> 00:17:46,332 It's like what Anna Rexhia says. 320 00:17:46,365 --> 00:17:49,304 "When you feel scared of something, 321 00:17:49,337 --> 00:17:52,110 that's the thing you should do." 322 00:17:52,143 --> 00:17:54,281 If you face your fears, 323 00:17:54,314 --> 00:17:56,519 awesome things will happen. 324 00:18:00,459 --> 00:18:02,496 ♪ ♪ 325 00:18:18,763 --> 00:18:21,503 ♪ There's a land beyond the river ♪ 326 00:18:21,536 --> 00:18:24,441 ♪ That we call the sweet forever ♪ 327 00:18:24,474 --> 00:18:29,585 ♪ And we only reach the shore by faith's decree ♪ 328 00:18:29,618 --> 00:18:33,325 ♪ One by one we'll gain the portals ♪ 329 00:18:33,358 --> 00:18:36,866 ♪ There to dwell with the immortals ♪ 330 00:18:36,899 --> 00:18:40,607 ♪ When they ring the golden bells for you and me ♪ 331 00:18:40,640 --> 00:18:42,611 -♪ You and me. ♪ -[school bell rings] 332 00:18:42,644 --> 00:18:44,381 Oh, auditions, auditions. 333 00:18:44,414 --> 00:18:46,519 Don't forget. Our fall play, 334 00:18:46,552 --> 00:18:48,890 we will be treading the hallowed ground of Macbeth. 335 00:18:48,923 --> 00:18:50,460 Or "The Scottish Play," 336 00:18:50,493 --> 00:18:52,464 for those of you who believe in curses. 337 00:18:52,497 --> 00:18:54,902 Ms. Brubaker? 338 00:18:54,935 --> 00:18:59,211 [Scottish accent] Aye, you'd make a splendid Scot, m'lady. 339 00:18:59,244 --> 00:19:02,384 Will we see thee upon the audition stage? 340 00:19:02,417 --> 00:19:05,490 Um, I don't know. [chuckles] 341 00:19:05,524 --> 00:19:07,360 Maybe. 342 00:19:07,393 --> 00:19:08,863 [chuckles] 343 00:19:12,971 --> 00:19:16,913 Hey, Shelby. What, are you wearing makeup now 344 00:19:16,946 --> 00:19:18,650 because I said you looked like a lesbian? 345 00:19:18,683 --> 00:19:20,554 Are you, like, eating a fiber bar now 346 00:19:20,587 --> 00:19:23,893 because you're constipated, Shit Belly? 347 00:19:25,597 --> 00:19:26,800 [Shelby and Bestie laughing] 348 00:19:26,833 --> 00:19:28,503 Oh, my God, it was so epic. 349 00:19:28,536 --> 00:19:31,208 I was like, "Are you eating a fiber bar 350 00:19:31,241 --> 00:19:33,212 because you're constipated or something?" 351 00:19:33,245 --> 00:19:34,281 [both laugh] 352 00:19:34,314 --> 00:19:36,519 Like, literally out of a movie. 353 00:19:36,552 --> 00:19:38,623 And then I called her a shit belly. 354 00:19:38,656 --> 00:19:42,230 [laughs] Shel, I told you, 355 00:19:42,263 --> 00:19:43,767 it's the makeup. 356 00:19:43,800 --> 00:19:45,938 You did something that scared you, 357 00:19:45,971 --> 00:19:48,810 and now you're like a full-on badass. 358 00:19:48,843 --> 00:19:50,780 No, not even. [laughs] 359 00:19:51,549 --> 00:19:54,688 I did something kind of crazy today, too. 360 00:19:55,957 --> 00:19:59,264 You know how my dad can be so annoying? 361 00:19:59,297 --> 00:20:01,970 I just have to mess with him a little bit. 362 00:20:02,003 --> 00:20:04,407 What did you do? 363 00:20:04,440 --> 00:20:06,278 -I took his wallet. -[Shelby chuckles] 364 00:20:06,311 --> 00:20:08,850 Not, like, stole it, I just hid it 365 00:20:08,883 --> 00:20:11,455 and then he was searching around for it all morning. 366 00:20:11,488 --> 00:20:12,858 It was really funny. 367 00:20:12,891 --> 00:20:14,729 Oh, my God, you're hilarious. 368 00:20:14,762 --> 00:20:17,399 You should do it, too. 369 00:20:18,468 --> 00:20:20,707 Come on, our dads are so cringe. 370 00:20:20,740 --> 00:20:22,845 We have to teach them a lesson. 371 00:20:22,878 --> 00:20:24,582 I don't know... 372 00:20:24,615 --> 00:20:26,986 My dad's at work, he probably has his wallet. 373 00:20:27,019 --> 00:20:28,723 Well, something else then. 374 00:20:30,527 --> 00:20:31,695 Wait... 375 00:20:32,931 --> 00:20:35,804 Shellbell, are you afraid? 376 00:20:37,473 --> 00:20:39,444 You are. Oh, my God. 377 00:20:39,477 --> 00:20:41,281 What's our rule? 378 00:20:41,314 --> 00:20:42,951 Face your fears. 379 00:20:45,891 --> 00:20:47,427 [chuckles softly] 380 00:20:47,460 --> 00:20:49,966 [laughs] Okay. 381 00:20:49,999 --> 00:20:52,571 [Guy] Hey, Shel. You haven't seen Mom's mug? 382 00:20:52,604 --> 00:20:54,341 "Teacher of the Year"? 383 00:20:54,374 --> 00:20:55,711 Did you leave it in the car? 384 00:20:55,744 --> 00:20:57,848 Uh, I don't think so. 385 00:21:00,887 --> 00:21:02,658 I got to run. 386 00:21:02,691 --> 00:21:04,595 -You good here? -Mm-hmm. 387 00:21:04,628 --> 00:21:06,599 Enjoy your day off. 388 00:21:06,632 --> 00:21:08,970 Happy, uh, Happy Columbus Day. 389 00:21:09,003 --> 00:21:10,908 It's Indigenous Peoples' Day. 390 00:21:10,941 --> 00:21:12,778 [Guy] Huh? 391 00:21:12,811 --> 00:21:14,982 Oh, yeah, happy, uh... 392 00:21:15,015 --> 00:21:16,952 -happy that. -Mm-hmm. 393 00:21:18,923 --> 00:21:21,427 -Keep an eye out for that cup? -Yeah. 394 00:21:23,800 --> 00:21:25,036 [door opens] 395 00:21:25,069 --> 00:21:26,605 [door closes] 396 00:21:29,812 --> 00:21:32,785 [Bestie] Is your dad a teacher or something? 397 00:21:32,818 --> 00:21:35,924 No, he's a regional manager at a post office. 398 00:21:35,957 --> 00:21:39,064 He just likes it 'cause it's big. 399 00:21:39,097 --> 00:21:43,072 Oh, my God, I totally have a dare for you. 400 00:21:43,105 --> 00:21:44,642 Break it. 401 00:21:44,675 --> 00:21:46,613 He'd kill me. 402 00:21:46,646 --> 00:21:47,781 It's... 403 00:21:47,814 --> 00:21:49,417 special to him. 404 00:21:49,450 --> 00:21:53,560 Geez. Your dad cares more about a stupid cup 405 00:21:53,593 --> 00:21:55,564 than he does about you. 406 00:21:55,597 --> 00:21:58,068 That sucks, Shell, I'm sorry. 407 00:22:01,842 --> 00:22:03,045 Do it. 408 00:22:03,078 --> 00:22:04,649 It'll feel good. 409 00:22:04,682 --> 00:22:07,019 Trust me. 410 00:22:12,463 --> 00:22:13,699 Do it. 411 00:22:16,572 --> 00:22:17,641 [grunts] 412 00:22:19,545 --> 00:22:21,347 [panting] 413 00:22:23,720 --> 00:22:25,557 What did I tell you? 414 00:22:28,495 --> 00:22:29,966 If you were my daughter, 415 00:22:29,999 --> 00:22:33,673 I'd care more about you than anything else in the world. 416 00:22:33,706 --> 00:22:37,379 It means a lot to me that you trust me, Shel. 417 00:22:38,148 --> 00:22:40,687 I trust you, too. 418 00:22:40,720 --> 00:22:43,726 How gross, I'm getting all mushy-gushy. 419 00:22:50,172 --> 00:22:51,976 Can I ask you something? 420 00:22:52,009 --> 00:22:53,679 Of course. 421 00:22:54,915 --> 00:22:55,951 Why do you, um...? 422 00:22:55,984 --> 00:22:57,855 Why do I look funny? 423 00:22:57,888 --> 00:22:59,592 No, no, that's not what I mean. 424 00:22:59,625 --> 00:23:00,861 I... I mean... 425 00:23:00,894 --> 00:23:02,831 It's okay. 426 00:23:10,513 --> 00:23:13,819 I've actually never told anyone this before. 427 00:23:14,855 --> 00:23:18,094 But I'll tell you because I trust you, Shellybelly. 428 00:23:21,201 --> 00:23:23,104 I'm actually adopted. 429 00:23:23,973 --> 00:23:26,745 I've never met my real mom, but... 430 00:23:28,081 --> 00:23:29,785 ...apparently she was, like, 431 00:23:29,818 --> 00:23:33,025 addicted to drugs and stuff and... 432 00:23:33,058 --> 00:23:36,031 she was, like, doing them, you know, like... 433 00:23:36,064 --> 00:23:38,836 while she was pregnant with me. 434 00:23:40,239 --> 00:23:42,644 So, anyway, it just messed with 435 00:23:42,677 --> 00:23:46,451 a lot of my physical development and stuff. 436 00:23:47,287 --> 00:23:51,562 I have to do school at home and... 437 00:23:51,595 --> 00:23:54,769 I mostly just stay in bed. 438 00:23:54,802 --> 00:23:57,875 I'm so sorry, Bestie. 439 00:23:57,908 --> 00:24:00,012 -No, don't cry. -[chuckles] 440 00:24:00,045 --> 00:24:01,181 [sniffles] 441 00:24:01,214 --> 00:24:02,785 Hey, it's okay. 442 00:24:02,818 --> 00:24:04,154 I get breakfast in bed every day. 443 00:24:04,187 --> 00:24:06,058 [laughs] 444 00:24:06,091 --> 00:24:08,495 -Not bad, huh? -No. 445 00:24:09,765 --> 00:24:12,236 I just sometimes wish I could do normal things, like you. 446 00:24:12,269 --> 00:24:14,107 Stop it. 447 00:24:14,140 --> 00:24:17,079 Whatever you want to do, just tell me and I'll do it. 448 00:24:18,683 --> 00:24:20,887 I'll be like your avatar. 449 00:24:21,689 --> 00:24:24,060 How did I get a friend as good as you? 450 00:24:24,093 --> 00:24:25,563 No. 451 00:24:26,431 --> 00:24:28,936 How did I get a friend as good as you? 452 00:24:30,272 --> 00:24:32,911 Well... 453 00:24:32,944 --> 00:24:36,752 since I told you my deepest, darkest secret... 454 00:24:37,554 --> 00:24:40,794 ...you have to do one little thing for me. 455 00:24:40,827 --> 00:24:44,200 Something I've always wanted to try. 456 00:24:44,233 --> 00:24:45,670 Anything. 457 00:24:46,605 --> 00:24:48,576 [Bestie laughing] 458 00:24:48,609 --> 00:24:51,180 ["They Don't Know" by Tracey Ullman playing] 459 00:24:52,283 --> 00:24:56,224 Shelby! Shelby! [laughing] 460 00:24:56,257 --> 00:24:58,596 ♪ You've been around for such a long time now ♪ 461 00:24:58,629 --> 00:25:02,671 ♪ Oh, maybe I could leave you but I don't know how ♪ 462 00:25:02,704 --> 00:25:06,712 ♪ And why should I be lonely every night ♪ 463 00:25:06,745 --> 00:25:08,883 ♪ When I can be with you ♪ 464 00:25:08,916 --> 00:25:10,987 ♪ Oh yes, you make it right ♪ 465 00:25:11,020 --> 00:25:14,995 ♪ And I don't listen to the guys ♪ 466 00:25:15,028 --> 00:25:16,999 ♪ Who say that you're bad for me ♪ 467 00:25:17,032 --> 00:25:19,605 ♪ And I should turn you away ♪ 468 00:25:19,638 --> 00:25:23,580 ♪ 'Cause they don't know about us ♪ 469 00:25:23,613 --> 00:25:25,249 ♪ And they've never ♪ 470 00:25:25,282 --> 00:25:27,019 -♪ Heard of love... ♪ -[laughing] 471 00:25:27,052 --> 00:25:29,157 That was crazy. 472 00:25:29,190 --> 00:25:31,929 That was the craziest thing I've ever done. 473 00:25:31,962 --> 00:25:35,035 -Yeah. -[both laugh] 474 00:25:35,068 --> 00:25:37,173 [indistinct arguing] 475 00:25:37,206 --> 00:25:39,845 ♪ They say we're crazy but I just don't care... ♪ 476 00:25:39,878 --> 00:25:41,883 Leave me the fuck alone! 477 00:25:41,916 --> 00:25:44,287 ♪ And if they keep on talking, still they get nowhere ♪ 478 00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:45,724 ♪ So I don't... ♪ 479 00:25:45,757 --> 00:25:47,628 I don't know, should I audition? 480 00:25:47,661 --> 00:25:48,997 [Bestie] No way, no. 481 00:25:49,030 --> 00:25:51,034 You're too good for that. 482 00:25:51,067 --> 00:25:52,604 You're really an artist. 483 00:25:52,637 --> 00:25:54,174 We have that in common. 484 00:25:54,207 --> 00:25:57,815 ♪ They don't know about us ♪ 485 00:25:57,848 --> 00:26:01,622 ♪ And they never heard of love ♪ 486 00:26:02,958 --> 00:26:05,095 ♪ And why should it matter... ♪ 487 00:26:05,128 --> 00:26:08,202 I really would've loved to have had you in this one, Shelby. 488 00:26:08,235 --> 00:26:10,238 Maybe next time. 489 00:26:11,007 --> 00:26:14,347 [scoffs] Yeah, maybe there'll be a grandmother part. 490 00:26:14,380 --> 00:26:16,885 You won't even need a costume. 491 00:26:21,729 --> 00:26:23,866 [retching] 492 00:26:28,108 --> 00:26:29,912 [Nevins] Um... 493 00:26:29,945 --> 00:26:31,949 Uh, we need a doctor. 494 00:26:31,982 --> 00:26:33,352 This is not part of the play. 495 00:26:33,385 --> 00:26:35,857 [students retching] 496 00:26:35,890 --> 00:26:40,132 ♪ There's no need for living in the past... ♪ 497 00:26:40,165 --> 00:26:41,368 [siren whoops] 498 00:26:41,401 --> 00:26:43,639 [Bestie on phone] Run, Shell, run! 499 00:26:45,810 --> 00:26:47,814 [indistinct shouting, crying] 500 00:26:52,389 --> 00:26:53,926 [laughs] 501 00:26:59,705 --> 00:27:02,109 [Bestie] Oh, Shellbell, you're amazing. 502 00:27:02,142 --> 00:27:04,113 I want to see what's happening. 503 00:27:04,146 --> 00:27:05,249 I can't go back. 504 00:27:05,282 --> 00:27:07,086 They'll know it was me. 505 00:27:07,119 --> 00:27:09,357 [Bestie] What's our rule? 506 00:27:09,390 --> 00:27:11,394 Face your fear. 507 00:27:16,137 --> 00:27:18,108 [Bestie] Well... 508 00:27:18,141 --> 00:27:20,112 how do you feel? 509 00:27:20,145 --> 00:27:21,716 Alive. 510 00:27:21,749 --> 00:27:23,987 You literally are. 511 00:27:24,020 --> 00:27:25,857 [chuckles] 512 00:27:25,890 --> 00:27:27,226 [indistinct chatter] 513 00:27:27,259 --> 00:27:28,997 [Bestie] What a goober. 514 00:27:29,030 --> 00:27:31,001 [Shelby] He's such a weirdo. 515 00:27:31,034 --> 00:27:34,139 Shelby, I'm so glad I met you. 516 00:27:35,342 --> 00:27:37,380 You make me feel like a real girl. 517 00:27:37,413 --> 00:27:39,785 You make me brave. 518 00:27:39,818 --> 00:27:42,389 I never did anything scary before I met you. 519 00:27:43,358 --> 00:27:45,797 Best friends forever. 520 00:27:45,830 --> 00:27:48,035 Forever. 521 00:27:48,068 --> 00:27:50,706 I'd do anything for you. 522 00:27:51,474 --> 00:27:53,746 I love you, Shelby. 523 00:27:53,779 --> 00:27:55,816 I love you, too. 524 00:27:58,188 --> 00:28:00,292 It's almost Halloween. 525 00:28:01,327 --> 00:28:03,198 I've always wanted to dress up, 526 00:28:03,231 --> 00:28:05,770 but I've never been able to. 527 00:28:06,805 --> 00:28:08,475 Bestie, I'll dress up for you. 528 00:28:08,509 --> 00:28:10,713 Oh, my God, really? 529 00:28:11,481 --> 00:28:12,884 Oh, my God, okay. 530 00:28:12,917 --> 00:28:14,320 I have the best idea. 531 00:28:15,322 --> 00:28:17,326 ♪ ♪ 532 00:28:34,393 --> 00:28:36,932 [laughing] Oh-oh, wow! 533 00:28:36,965 --> 00:28:39,771 Mrs. Grim Reaper. I love it, Shelby. 534 00:28:43,512 --> 00:28:46,317 Not the grim reaper, silly. 535 00:28:48,154 --> 00:28:50,191 [coughing] 536 00:29:00,245 --> 00:29:02,784 Hey, everybody, take a... 537 00:29:02,817 --> 00:29:04,822 take a personal day today. Just work on 538 00:29:04,855 --> 00:29:06,357 whatever you need to work on, okay? 539 00:29:13,271 --> 00:29:16,344 I will forgive you for this, Shelby. 540 00:29:18,114 --> 00:29:20,352 One-one day, I will. 541 00:29:30,973 --> 00:29:32,076 [Guy] What the hell were you thinking? 542 00:29:32,109 --> 00:29:33,378 Where does this even come from? 543 00:29:33,411 --> 00:29:35,550 -It was a joke. -A joke? A joke?! 544 00:29:35,583 --> 00:29:37,420 I don't understand how this is a funny joke! 545 00:29:37,453 --> 00:29:38,856 -Fucking let go of me! -I mean, come on! 546 00:29:38,889 --> 00:29:40,292 I don't know who you are anymore! 547 00:29:40,325 --> 00:29:42,096 -Let go! -All right, no more. 548 00:29:42,129 --> 00:29:44,100 No more going out, no more sneaking out. 549 00:29:44,133 --> 00:29:46,037 -Stop! What are you doing? -Nothing! 550 00:29:46,070 --> 00:29:47,541 I don't know. 551 00:29:47,574 --> 00:29:49,410 -But until I do, you can stay down there. -[yelling] 552 00:29:49,443 --> 00:29:51,414 [pounding on door] 553 00:29:51,447 --> 00:29:53,853 [Shelby] I hate you! 554 00:29:53,886 --> 00:29:55,890 -I hate you. -[heavy pounding on door] 555 00:29:55,923 --> 00:29:58,161 Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! 556 00:29:58,194 --> 00:29:59,565 [both crying] 557 00:29:59,598 --> 00:30:00,934 -I wish you were fucking dead! -[Guy crying] 558 00:30:00,967 --> 00:30:03,105 I hate you! 559 00:30:03,138 --> 00:30:04,507 Give me my phone! 560 00:30:07,146 --> 00:30:08,849 [exhales] 561 00:30:09,618 --> 00:30:11,855 [breathing shakily] 562 00:30:19,604 --> 00:30:21,842 ♪ ♪ 563 00:30:45,322 --> 00:30:47,326 [Bestie] Shelby, you have to get out of there. 564 00:30:47,359 --> 00:30:49,030 Yeah, but how? 565 00:30:49,063 --> 00:30:50,633 Well, I mean... 566 00:30:50,666 --> 00:30:54,307 he'd have to let you out if something happened. 567 00:30:54,340 --> 00:30:56,077 Like what? 568 00:30:56,110 --> 00:30:59,651 Like, I don't know, if you broke a bone or something. 569 00:30:59,684 --> 00:31:01,622 He'd have to take you to hospital. 570 00:31:01,655 --> 00:31:03,358 What? 571 00:31:03,391 --> 00:31:05,229 You just want me to... 572 00:31:05,262 --> 00:31:06,632 That's crazy. 573 00:31:06,665 --> 00:31:09,203 [laughs] No. 574 00:31:09,236 --> 00:31:11,207 Are you afraid? 575 00:31:11,240 --> 00:31:14,179 Um, of breaking a bone? Yes. 576 00:31:15,415 --> 00:31:17,052 Shell, what's our rule? 577 00:31:21,127 --> 00:31:23,599 But you promised you would do anything for me. 578 00:31:23,632 --> 00:31:25,135 That was a lie? 579 00:31:25,168 --> 00:31:26,605 No, of course I would-- 580 00:31:26,638 --> 00:31:28,976 I would break every bone in my body 581 00:31:29,009 --> 00:31:31,014 if it meant I could be free. 582 00:31:31,047 --> 00:31:32,482 But I can't. 583 00:31:33,586 --> 00:31:36,391 My only freedom is you. 584 00:31:36,424 --> 00:31:39,397 And if you're just gonna give up 585 00:31:39,430 --> 00:31:42,136 and stay trapped there... 586 00:31:42,169 --> 00:31:44,541 well, then you're a coward and you're a bad friend. 587 00:31:44,574 --> 00:31:45,643 No. 588 00:31:46,678 --> 00:31:48,516 Bestie, don't say that. 589 00:31:48,549 --> 00:31:49,985 I... 590 00:31:50,018 --> 00:31:51,421 I'm sorry, I'll-- 591 00:31:51,454 --> 00:31:53,258 I'll do anything. 592 00:31:53,291 --> 00:31:55,094 I thought you were brave, Shell. 593 00:31:55,863 --> 00:31:58,503 I thought you were my friend. I guess I was wrong. 594 00:31:58,536 --> 00:31:59,571 -Goodbye. -No, wait! 595 00:31:59,604 --> 00:32:01,274 Wait! I'm sorry, uh... 596 00:32:01,307 --> 00:32:03,344 I'll do it. I can do it. 597 00:32:05,550 --> 00:32:07,954 [Bestie] You're just scared. 598 00:32:09,023 --> 00:32:10,559 But I could help you. 599 00:32:11,595 --> 00:32:13,431 I can make you brave. 600 00:32:13,464 --> 00:32:15,269 You just have to do 601 00:32:15,302 --> 00:32:17,373 exactly what I tell you. 602 00:32:17,406 --> 00:32:19,978 Like all the other times. 603 00:32:20,011 --> 00:32:22,283 Listen to me. 604 00:32:22,316 --> 00:32:24,053 Grab the hammer. 605 00:32:24,086 --> 00:32:25,657 I have it. 606 00:32:25,690 --> 00:32:28,328 It's okay to be scared. 607 00:32:28,361 --> 00:32:30,299 It's good that you're scared, 608 00:32:30,332 --> 00:32:32,737 because when you face your fears, 609 00:32:32,770 --> 00:32:36,444 doors open up for you. 610 00:32:36,477 --> 00:32:40,753 The whole world literally opens up for you. 611 00:32:40,786 --> 00:32:43,225 I want to, I want to face my fears, okay? 612 00:32:43,258 --> 00:32:45,229 I can, I can do it. 613 00:32:45,262 --> 00:32:46,464 [Guy] Shelby! 614 00:32:46,497 --> 00:32:48,736 Who are you talking to? 615 00:32:48,769 --> 00:32:51,040 [Bestie] Your dad is coming. 616 00:32:51,073 --> 00:32:52,443 Do it now. 617 00:32:52,476 --> 00:32:54,681 Okay. 618 00:32:54,714 --> 00:32:56,585 ♪ ♪ 619 00:32:56,618 --> 00:32:58,455 [Bestie] Put your arm in the vice. 620 00:32:58,488 --> 00:33:00,627 What's going on, Shelby? Are you okay? 621 00:33:00,660 --> 00:33:03,599 -[Bestie] That's it, keep turning. -[Guy] Shelby? 622 00:33:06,203 --> 00:33:07,741 [Bestie] Turn it tighter. 623 00:33:07,774 --> 00:33:09,243 Shelby! 624 00:33:09,276 --> 00:33:11,481 [Bestie] Pick up the hammer. 625 00:33:11,515 --> 00:33:13,619 -Don't be scared. -[pounding on door] 626 00:33:13,652 --> 00:33:15,590 Be brave for me! 627 00:33:15,623 --> 00:33:17,761 I don't want to, I don't want to, I'm scared! 628 00:33:17,794 --> 00:33:19,330 [Bestie] Do it now! 629 00:33:19,363 --> 00:33:21,602 Do it, Shelby, be brave. 630 00:33:21,635 --> 00:33:24,340 Be brave for me! I've seen it before. 631 00:33:24,373 --> 00:33:26,477 Do it! Do it now! 632 00:33:26,511 --> 00:33:27,479 [Shelby screams] 633 00:33:27,513 --> 00:33:30,787 [Shelby screaming, crying] 634 00:33:30,820 --> 00:33:33,358 [sobbing] 635 00:33:33,391 --> 00:33:35,428 [whimpering] 636 00:33:37,432 --> 00:33:39,538 [whimpering] 637 00:33:39,571 --> 00:33:41,608 [sobbing] 638 00:33:58,408 --> 00:34:01,649 [counselor] You've experienced a trauma. 639 00:34:01,682 --> 00:34:04,821 But coming here, dealing with it? 640 00:34:04,854 --> 00:34:07,158 That's very brave. 641 00:34:09,731 --> 00:34:11,768 ♪ ♪ 642 00:34:26,631 --> 00:34:29,169 I'll give you a ride in a sec. 643 00:34:30,606 --> 00:34:33,178 Um, Dad? 644 00:34:33,211 --> 00:34:35,182 -Hmm? -I just... 645 00:34:35,215 --> 00:34:37,252 wanted to give you this. 646 00:34:38,722 --> 00:34:40,526 And, um... 647 00:34:43,732 --> 00:34:46,170 ...I'm really, really sorry. 648 00:34:57,660 --> 00:35:00,198 [chuckles softly] 649 00:35:00,231 --> 00:35:02,235 This is a good start. 650 00:35:03,204 --> 00:35:04,707 Thanks. 651 00:35:07,947 --> 00:35:10,151 ♪ ♪ 652 00:35:18,702 --> 00:35:20,606 You need something, sweetheart? 653 00:35:20,639 --> 00:35:22,811 Um, is Mr. Nevins here? 654 00:35:22,844 --> 00:35:25,382 No, he's out for the semester. 655 00:35:25,415 --> 00:35:26,851 [Shelby] Oh. 656 00:35:27,854 --> 00:35:29,390 Oh. 657 00:35:29,423 --> 00:35:30,526 Okay, thank you. 658 00:35:30,559 --> 00:35:32,596 [indistinct chatter] 659 00:35:35,468 --> 00:35:37,172 [phone chimes] 660 00:35:38,241 --> 00:35:40,178 [bell rings] 661 00:35:43,585 --> 00:35:45,723 [cackling] 662 00:35:47,960 --> 00:35:50,866 [phone chiming] 663 00:35:55,876 --> 00:35:58,314 [Bestie] Shellybelly. 664 00:35:58,347 --> 00:36:00,920 -[phone chiming] -[overlapping whispers] 665 00:36:00,953 --> 00:36:02,389 Best friend. 666 00:36:02,422 --> 00:36:04,493 [River] Can I sign it? 667 00:36:05,563 --> 00:36:08,468 Your cast, can I, can I sign it? 668 00:36:08,501 --> 00:36:10,372 Oh. [chuckles] 669 00:36:10,405 --> 00:36:12,342 Um, sure. 670 00:36:13,411 --> 00:36:15,315 Cool. 671 00:36:15,348 --> 00:36:16,985 Wait. 672 00:36:17,018 --> 00:36:18,856 First I think we actually have to be friends. 673 00:36:18,889 --> 00:36:20,927 It's, like, the law of signing casts. 674 00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:23,264 I'm-I'm Riv from choir. 675 00:36:23,297 --> 00:36:25,803 River, professionally, and to my mom. 676 00:36:25,836 --> 00:36:27,540 I'm Shelby. 677 00:36:27,573 --> 00:36:29,276 Just Shelby. 678 00:36:29,309 --> 00:36:30,546 Cool. 679 00:36:30,579 --> 00:36:32,282 Uh... 680 00:36:32,315 --> 00:36:34,286 swear I have, like, a Sharpie or something. 681 00:36:34,319 --> 00:36:36,592 Oh, cool, you know Anna Rexhia? 682 00:36:36,625 --> 00:36:38,896 Oh, yeah, the freaky drag queen? 683 00:36:38,929 --> 00:36:40,499 -Dude, she's awesome. -I know! 684 00:36:40,533 --> 00:36:43,271 -She's so weird, but also cool. -Right? 685 00:36:43,304 --> 00:36:45,943 I'm obsessed with anything, like, drag or horror, you know? 686 00:36:45,976 --> 00:36:48,281 So together it's, like, kaboom! 687 00:36:48,314 --> 00:36:49,551 You know? Like, mind-blowing. 688 00:36:49,584 --> 00:36:51,654 [laughs] Cool, yeah. 689 00:36:52,623 --> 00:36:54,761 Oh, there you are. 690 00:36:54,794 --> 00:36:56,731 Cool. 691 00:37:02,910 --> 00:37:04,346 Cool. 692 00:37:04,379 --> 00:37:06,751 There we are. 693 00:37:07,787 --> 00:37:09,390 Thanks. 694 00:37:09,423 --> 00:37:10,760 Cool, yeah. 695 00:37:10,793 --> 00:37:12,630 -Okay. -Yeah. 696 00:37:12,663 --> 00:37:14,567 Bye. 697 00:37:16,036 --> 00:37:18,274 Bye-bye, friend. 698 00:37:27,627 --> 00:37:29,697 [phone chimes] 699 00:37:35,375 --> 00:37:37,445 [phone chimes] 700 00:37:54,747 --> 00:37:56,784 [door closes loudly] 701 00:38:13,585 --> 00:38:15,421 -[loud whistle] -[Shelby gasps] 702 00:38:20,031 --> 00:38:21,768 Wait. 703 00:38:21,801 --> 00:38:23,873 -You saw? -What you did? 704 00:38:23,906 --> 00:38:25,576 Opening night of Macbeth? 705 00:38:25,609 --> 00:38:26,979 Pod-gate? 706 00:38:27,012 --> 00:38:29,584 I did, I did. I-I saw it all. 707 00:38:29,617 --> 00:38:30,920 Please don't tell anyone. 708 00:38:30,953 --> 00:38:32,624 -They'll expel me. -Lady, chill out. 709 00:38:32,657 --> 00:38:34,460 Okay? 710 00:38:34,493 --> 00:38:36,130 Thought it was badass. 711 00:38:36,163 --> 00:38:37,934 I mean, Chaz and those guys 712 00:38:37,967 --> 00:38:39,971 have been making my life hell since elementary school. 713 00:38:40,004 --> 00:38:41,975 I mean, making fun of the disabled kid-- 714 00:38:42,008 --> 00:38:44,146 it's, like, almost too cliché, right? 715 00:38:44,179 --> 00:38:45,683 Right? 716 00:38:45,716 --> 00:38:47,486 But, alas, you know, the popular d-bag 717 00:38:47,520 --> 00:38:50,057 is a simple and highly predictable organism, so... 718 00:38:51,160 --> 00:38:53,832 I didn't know you had a disability. 719 00:38:53,865 --> 00:38:56,037 Look, it's called ectopia cordis. 720 00:38:56,070 --> 00:38:58,074 Sounds like a fucking Harry Potter spell. 721 00:38:58,107 --> 00:39:01,414 But, basically, I was born with my heart 722 00:39:01,447 --> 00:39:03,586 on the outside of my body. 723 00:39:03,619 --> 00:39:06,959 Had, like, four open-heart surgeries before I was six. 724 00:39:06,992 --> 00:39:10,633 But then they shoved my heart back inside of my body 725 00:39:10,666 --> 00:39:12,503 and, for some reason, put my asshole 726 00:39:12,536 --> 00:39:14,406 on the outside. 727 00:39:14,439 --> 00:39:16,778 Woo-hoo, right? 728 00:39:18,715 --> 00:39:20,151 TMI? 729 00:39:21,186 --> 00:39:23,023 How did you know it was me? 730 00:39:24,527 --> 00:39:26,163 I don't know. I've been watching you this year. 731 00:39:26,932 --> 00:39:30,071 I'm not, like, stalking you or anything, Shelby. 732 00:39:30,104 --> 00:39:31,942 You know, just... looking out. 733 00:39:31,975 --> 00:39:33,912 You know, in case things went too far. 734 00:39:34,914 --> 00:39:36,618 So you're not blackmailing me? 735 00:39:36,651 --> 00:39:38,187 You're not gonna make me... [inhales sharply] 736 00:39:38,220 --> 00:39:40,191 [shudders] ...do anything? 737 00:39:40,224 --> 00:39:42,129 Why would I make you do something you don't want to do? 738 00:39:42,162 --> 00:39:43,932 That's not how friendship works. 739 00:39:47,573 --> 00:39:50,211 The text-- you called me "best friend." 740 00:39:50,244 --> 00:39:52,115 Yeah, 'cause I signed your cast and all? 741 00:39:52,884 --> 00:39:55,055 I mean, it was a joke, and I'm... 742 00:39:55,088 --> 00:39:56,490 sorry if it freaked you out. 743 00:39:56,524 --> 00:39:58,094 [chuckles softly] It's... 744 00:39:58,127 --> 00:40:00,064 -it's okay. -'Kay. 745 00:40:01,100 --> 00:40:02,670 Um, what are you doing right now? 746 00:40:03,638 --> 00:40:04,874 Um... 747 00:40:04,907 --> 00:40:06,143 the lady at the gas station-- 748 00:40:06,176 --> 00:40:08,047 she's for sure a tweaker-- but... 749 00:40:08,080 --> 00:40:11,220 she gives me free cigarettes if I play the-the cripple card. 750 00:40:11,253 --> 00:40:12,857 [chuckles, sniffles] 751 00:40:12,890 --> 00:40:14,527 How 'bout fruit snacks? 752 00:40:14,560 --> 00:40:15,563 Oh, yeah. 753 00:40:15,596 --> 00:40:17,432 She'll for sure hook it up. 754 00:40:18,200 --> 00:40:19,236 Okay. 755 00:40:19,269 --> 00:40:20,839 -Yeah? -Mm-hmm. 756 00:40:23,144 --> 00:40:24,680 Come on. 757 00:40:27,285 --> 00:40:28,855 [phone chimes] 758 00:40:34,166 --> 00:40:35,535 [River] All good? 759 00:40:36,638 --> 00:40:37,674 -Yeah. -All right. 760 00:40:37,707 --> 00:40:39,142 -Sorry. -Nah, it's cool. 761 00:40:42,583 --> 00:40:44,687 [Anna Rexhia] I've talked a lot about fear. 762 00:40:45,488 --> 00:40:48,862 How, in order to be brave, we have to do what scares us. 763 00:40:49,664 --> 00:40:53,104 Now, I'm not talking about driving 100 miles an hour 764 00:40:53,137 --> 00:40:54,273 with a blindfold on. 765 00:40:54,306 --> 00:40:56,545 -No, no, no. -[laughs] 766 00:40:56,578 --> 00:40:58,615 I'm talking about the scary things 767 00:40:58,648 --> 00:41:00,151 that, deep down, we know are right. 768 00:41:00,184 --> 00:41:02,824 [students] ♪ Show you a rhyme ♪ 769 00:41:02,857 --> 00:41:05,195 ♪ Cats fit on the windowsill ♪ 770 00:41:05,228 --> 00:41:08,201 -Like standing up for yourself. -♪ Children fit in the snow ♪ 771 00:41:08,234 --> 00:41:09,604 Being vulnerable. 772 00:41:09,637 --> 00:41:12,109 ♪ Why do I feel I don't fit in ♪ 773 00:41:12,142 --> 00:41:15,148 -♪ Anywhere I go? ♪ -Saying you're sorry. 774 00:41:15,181 --> 00:41:19,624 ♪ Rivers belong where they can ramble ♪ 775 00:41:19,657 --> 00:41:21,193 ♪ They can ramble ♪ 776 00:41:21,226 --> 00:41:24,901 ♪ Eagles belong where they can fly ♪ 777 00:41:24,934 --> 00:41:27,573 ♪ They can fly ♪ 778 00:41:27,606 --> 00:41:31,948 ♪ I've got to be where my spirit can run free ♪ 779 00:41:31,981 --> 00:41:36,958 ♪ Got to find my corner ♪ 780 00:41:36,991 --> 00:41:40,298 ♪ Of the sky... ♪ 781 00:41:40,331 --> 00:41:43,171 -♪ Of the sky ♪ -♪ Of the sky ♪ 782 00:41:43,204 --> 00:41:48,281 ♪ Of the sky...! ♪ 783 00:41:48,314 --> 00:41:49,918 Because, you see, 784 00:41:49,951 --> 00:41:52,255 when you face those kinds of fears, 785 00:41:52,288 --> 00:41:53,692 good things 786 00:41:53,725 --> 00:41:55,930 and good people 787 00:41:55,963 --> 00:41:57,933 come into your life. 788 00:41:59,737 --> 00:42:01,608 ♪ Life's a drag ♪ 789 00:42:01,641 --> 00:42:03,111 ♪ When you're a fag ♪ 790 00:42:03,144 --> 00:42:05,315 -♪ So, instead ♪ -[computer chimes] 791 00:42:05,348 --> 00:42:07,653 [gags] ♪ Be dead. ♪ 792 00:42:19,109 --> 00:42:22,149 [Nevins] I like to have these end-of-year check-ins just to... 793 00:42:22,182 --> 00:42:25,623 see where we are, where we've been, where we're going. 794 00:42:25,656 --> 00:42:26,958 Shelby-- 795 00:42:26,991 --> 00:42:28,896 she's one of my good eggs. 796 00:42:28,929 --> 00:42:30,766 -I'm gonna miss her a lot. -[chuckling softly] 797 00:42:30,799 --> 00:42:32,235 She's smart, 798 00:42:32,268 --> 00:42:34,206 she's talented, she's kind, 799 00:42:34,239 --> 00:42:35,743 she's got A's across the board-- 800 00:42:35,776 --> 00:42:37,780 -Uh, one "B." -Oh. 801 00:42:37,813 --> 00:42:39,082 -In P.E. -[Shelby giggles] 802 00:42:39,115 --> 00:42:41,253 Oh, I count that as a badge of honor. 803 00:42:41,286 --> 00:42:43,090 [chuckling] 804 00:42:43,123 --> 00:42:44,828 And it did not stop you from getting into Oberlin. 805 00:42:44,861 --> 00:42:48,802 Well, uh, I-I think we're still considering, you know, uh, 806 00:42:48,835 --> 00:42:51,106 maybe getting some generals out of the way somewhere... 807 00:42:52,108 --> 00:42:53,611 ...closer to Dad? 808 00:42:54,379 --> 00:42:55,950 Your freshman year-- 809 00:42:55,983 --> 00:42:57,252 classes are gonna be the same 810 00:42:57,285 --> 00:42:58,755 -pretty much wherever you go. -Dad. 811 00:42:58,788 --> 00:43:00,759 I want to go to Oberlin. 812 00:43:00,792 --> 00:43:02,964 And it's not just about the classes. 813 00:43:02,997 --> 00:43:05,167 It's where River's going. 814 00:43:06,136 --> 00:43:07,874 And he's just... 815 00:43:07,907 --> 00:43:09,677 my favorite person in the world. 816 00:43:09,710 --> 00:43:11,914 I don't want to lose that. 817 00:43:13,785 --> 00:43:15,956 You are all heart. 818 00:43:15,989 --> 00:43:17,693 Just like your mom. 819 00:43:18,460 --> 00:43:19,763 [scoffs softly] 820 00:43:20,732 --> 00:43:21,767 Come here. 821 00:43:23,037 --> 00:43:24,306 [grunting] 822 00:43:24,339 --> 00:43:25,643 [inhales deeply] 823 00:43:25,676 --> 00:43:27,211 -It's the best way to be. -[sighs] 824 00:43:28,214 --> 00:43:30,050 -Mmm. -[school bell rings] 825 00:43:38,067 --> 00:43:39,269 [chuckles softly] 826 00:43:40,872 --> 00:43:42,241 -Guess what. -What? 827 00:43:43,778 --> 00:43:44,881 I told him. 828 00:43:44,914 --> 00:43:47,018 -No frickin' way. -Yeah. 829 00:43:47,051 --> 00:43:48,755 Dude, Shelby, that's awesome. 830 00:43:48,788 --> 00:43:49,824 Are you serious? 831 00:43:49,857 --> 00:43:51,393 He said it's all okay. 832 00:43:51,426 --> 00:43:52,930 We can live together at Oberlin 833 00:43:52,963 --> 00:43:55,134 as long as I get good financial aid. 834 00:43:55,167 --> 00:43:56,437 Which you will. 835 00:43:56,470 --> 00:43:57,371 -'Cause you're amazing. -[chuckles] 836 00:44:00,011 --> 00:44:01,982 [computer chimes] 837 00:44:02,015 --> 00:44:03,752 -Who's this? Like, your secret boyfriend or something? -No. 838 00:44:03,785 --> 00:44:05,121 -What is this? -Just this... 839 00:44:05,154 --> 00:44:07,793 loser girl I used to be friends with. 840 00:44:09,029 --> 00:44:10,866 She's a freak. [chuckles] 841 00:44:10,899 --> 00:44:13,437 She's, like, confined to her bed or something. 842 00:44:14,439 --> 00:44:16,410 Spends all day online. 843 00:44:16,443 --> 00:44:18,414 Feel kind of bad for her. 844 00:44:18,447 --> 00:44:21,053 But she's... toxic. 845 00:44:21,086 --> 00:44:22,823 Honestly. 846 00:44:22,856 --> 00:44:25,428 She's probably, like, some fat incel dude in a mask. 847 00:44:25,461 --> 00:44:27,198 -[chuckles] -Jerking his micropenis 848 00:44:27,231 --> 00:44:28,735 or something. 849 00:44:31,841 --> 00:44:33,277 She's, like, a legit psychopath. 850 00:44:33,310 --> 00:44:34,313 What the hell? 851 00:44:34,346 --> 00:44:35,883 [Shelby] I know. 852 00:44:35,916 --> 00:44:37,285 I blocked her on my phone, but, somehow, 853 00:44:37,318 --> 00:44:39,222 her messages keep coming through to my computer. 854 00:44:40,224 --> 00:44:41,260 Oh, no. 855 00:44:41,293 --> 00:44:42,429 She's got to go. 856 00:44:42,462 --> 00:44:44,767 What are you doing? 857 00:44:44,800 --> 00:44:46,369 One moment, please. 858 00:44:48,340 --> 00:44:50,344 Boop. Beep. 859 00:44:51,948 --> 00:44:53,818 Ho, ho, ho, Merry Christmas. 860 00:44:54,854 --> 00:44:57,359 Wait. Are you serious? 861 00:44:57,392 --> 00:44:59,530 She's actually gone from my life forever? 862 00:44:59,563 --> 00:45:01,801 I mean, she can still stare at you through your window 863 00:45:01,834 --> 00:45:03,404 and watch you sleep at night. 864 00:45:03,437 --> 00:45:07,012 But, yeah, she can no longer contact you via airwaves. 865 00:45:07,045 --> 00:45:09,416 I didn't know it was possible to be more in love with you 866 00:45:09,449 --> 00:45:11,955 than I already am, but... 867 00:45:11,988 --> 00:45:13,090 guess I was wrong. 868 00:45:13,123 --> 00:45:14,493 [chuckles softly] 869 00:45:14,527 --> 00:45:16,196 -Yeah? Come here. -[chuckles] 870 00:45:20,806 --> 00:45:22,375 What are you doing tonight? 871 00:45:22,408 --> 00:45:24,814 I have a crazy, amazing, 872 00:45:24,847 --> 00:45:27,519 awesome, incredible idea. 873 00:45:41,981 --> 00:45:43,283 Where are we? 874 00:45:44,252 --> 00:45:45,556 We're almost there. 875 00:45:45,589 --> 00:45:47,759 Don't want to ruin the surprise. 876 00:45:49,129 --> 00:45:50,231 -All right? -Okay. 877 00:45:50,264 --> 00:45:51,399 [chuckles] All right. 878 00:45:52,402 --> 00:45:54,472 Sorry. [giggling] 879 00:46:06,263 --> 00:46:08,568 -What is this place? -[shushing] 880 00:46:10,071 --> 00:46:11,306 Come on. Get out. 881 00:46:13,477 --> 00:46:15,314 [dog barking in distance] 882 00:46:16,884 --> 00:46:18,353 Whoa... 883 00:46:19,557 --> 00:46:20,959 Riv, I-I don't like this. 884 00:46:20,992 --> 00:46:22,228 -I have a weird feeling. -Oh, come on. 885 00:46:22,261 --> 00:46:23,296 It's okay. It's okay. 886 00:46:24,165 --> 00:46:26,369 I really want to show you this, okay? 887 00:46:27,138 --> 00:46:29,142 Okay, but hold me. I'm a scaredy-cat. 888 00:46:29,175 --> 00:46:30,879 -Aw, I'm right here, okay? -Hmm? 889 00:46:30,912 --> 00:46:32,081 I'm right here. 890 00:46:52,321 --> 00:46:54,359 ♪ ♪ 891 00:47:20,177 --> 00:47:22,214 [creaking] 892 00:47:25,321 --> 00:47:26,891 [door closes] 893 00:47:31,166 --> 00:47:33,036 What is this place? 894 00:47:39,617 --> 00:47:41,220 Does someone live here? 895 00:47:41,253 --> 00:47:42,923 I don't know. 896 00:47:56,349 --> 00:47:57,919 -[thump] -What was that? 897 00:47:58,721 --> 00:48:00,190 What? 898 00:48:01,393 --> 00:48:03,263 [weak chuckle] 899 00:48:11,981 --> 00:48:14,018 ♪ ♪ 900 00:48:24,405 --> 00:48:27,011 ♪ ♪ 901 00:48:37,265 --> 00:48:38,433 River? 902 00:48:41,239 --> 00:48:43,143 What are we doing here? 903 00:48:43,176 --> 00:48:44,747 -What did you do? Why are we here? -Calm down. Calm down. 904 00:48:44,780 --> 00:48:47,285 Calm down. Calm down. Shelby, calm down. 905 00:48:47,318 --> 00:48:49,022 -[protesting] -It's okay, it's okay. Hey. 906 00:48:49,055 --> 00:48:50,491 It's not. There's things I haven't told you. 907 00:48:50,525 --> 00:48:52,495 Shelby, calm down. 908 00:48:52,529 --> 00:48:54,733 Be brave, all right? Hey! Shelby! 909 00:49:00,010 --> 00:49:02,047 [creaking] 910 00:49:14,607 --> 00:49:16,276 Hello, friend. 911 00:49:16,309 --> 00:49:18,582 [screams] 912 00:49:18,615 --> 00:49:20,117 -[blade squishes] -[grunts] 913 00:49:20,150 --> 00:49:22,154 [shuddering] 914 00:49:26,564 --> 00:49:28,668 [gasping] 915 00:49:28,701 --> 00:49:30,672 -[high-pitched ringing] -[heart beating steadily] 916 00:49:33,343 --> 00:49:35,414 [breathing heavily] 917 00:49:38,320 --> 00:49:41,026 [whispers] Why? 918 00:49:41,059 --> 00:49:42,428 [ringing and heartbeat stop] 919 00:49:42,461 --> 00:49:44,165 [thuds] 920 00:49:45,334 --> 00:49:47,004 [clattering] 921 00:49:50,244 --> 00:49:51,714 I did it. 922 00:49:52,482 --> 00:49:54,720 I did everything you ever asked me to do. 923 00:49:54,753 --> 00:49:56,356 I brought her to you. 924 00:49:56,389 --> 00:49:58,026 It's-it's over. 925 00:49:58,828 --> 00:50:00,798 You're the only friend I'll ever need. 926 00:50:01,567 --> 00:50:04,138 And now we can be together forever. 927 00:50:06,242 --> 00:50:07,546 Friend. 928 00:50:09,082 --> 00:50:11,119 Best friend. 929 00:50:20,204 --> 00:50:22,207 [waves crashing] 930 00:50:27,786 --> 00:50:29,823 ♪ ♪ 931 00:50:56,176 --> 00:50:58,213 ♪ ♪