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Hi.
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Vivian Lee Finch.
Davenport, Iowa.
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Heather Billings.
Billings, Montana.
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[both chuckle]
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I collect snapshots.
Do you mind?
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- Not at all.
- Thanks.
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- [camera whirs]
- [chuckles]
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My mom gave it to me
for graduation.
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She said, "You never want
to forget a friend's face."
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Mm.
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There's a lot of girls here.
[laughs]
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Yeah, because it's Thursday.
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Every Thursday, Sheila holds an
open call across all categories.
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Editorial, or "The Faces."
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Runway. We call them
"The Walkers."
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And fitness.
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Spartans.
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Girls come from all over
to be seen.
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Well, I just got in yesterday,
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and I promised myself, the first
day I wake up in New York City,
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I'm going straight
to Sheila Klein's office
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and introducing myself.
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- Oh, good for you.
- [both chuckle]
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It's been three months for me.
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Do you eat Vogue
for breakfast, too?
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[laughs]
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- My dream is to be on the cover.
- Mine, too.
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[both laugh]
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Yeah, I'll make you a deal,
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Heather Billings
from Billings, Montana.
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If I'm the first one to the top
of the mountain,
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I'll throw the rope back
and hoist you up.
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And if you make it first,
you throw the rope back for me.
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- How about that?
- Pinky promise?
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- Yes.
- [both laugh]
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Not a lot of sisterhood
in this sorority.
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All the more reason
girls like us
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have to watch
each other's backs.
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- Okay.
- [both chuckle]
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[photos turning]
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[Sheila] Forehead.
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Nostrils.
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Braces? Oh, what is this,
The Mickey Mouse Club tryouts?
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[sighs]
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Hmm... She's fresh.
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Bring her in.
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Ugh.
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Everyone is so pretty
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and skinny.
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Nobody in Davenport
looks like this.
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Negative two
is the new size zero.
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[door opens]
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Vivian Finch.
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That's you.
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Oh.
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- [stammers] Okay.
- Yeah.
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Okay.
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Good luck.
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[footfalls echoing]
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[sighs]
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Vivian Lee Finch.
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Tell me, why are you here?
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I'm here because I have a dream.
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I was born with something called
neuromuscular scoliosis.
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- My spine is curved--
- [Sheila] No. Don't. Stop.
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This is not your one-woman show.
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What do you do?
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Uh...
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Editorial? Runway? Fitness?
What do you do?
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Oh, um...
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I suppose I hadn't
really thought about that.
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[laughs] Um...
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I want to do anything.
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Everything.
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I want to be on
the cover of Vogue.
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[laughing] Oh, sweetie.
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Just because you're
the prettiest girl
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in Hog Scrotum, Indiana,
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doesn't mean you have
what it takes
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to be on the cover of Vogue.
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I'm from Iowa.
[chuckles] Davenport.
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Walk.
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Walk!
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Oh, uh, okay.
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[whispers] Okay.
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[sighs]
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["Boys Wanna Be Her"
by Peaches playing]
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♪ You've got them all
by the balls ♪
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♪ Causin' waterfalls,
stone walls, bar brawls ♪
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♪ Common stalls
that cause 'em all ♪
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♪ To you, they crawl,
body sprawl ♪
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♪ Smoking Pall Malls,
close call, stand tall ♪
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♪ Doll, you make them
feel so small ♪
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♪ And they love it ♪
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♪ The boys wanna be her,
the girls wanna be her ♪
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♪ The boys wanna be her,
the girls ♪
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♪ Wanna be her,
the boys wanna be her ♪
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♪ I wanna be her ♪
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♪ Yes, I do. ♪
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Was that all right?
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You know...
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it really doesn't take
that much talent
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to be a model.
I mean, not really.
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But to be a supermodel...
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Well, it takes more talent
than anything in the world.
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And not the kind of talent
that you can teach.
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It's star quality.
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And, my dear, other than
Linda Evangelista,
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you have more of it
than anyone I've ever seen
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come through that door.
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Really?
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Oh, wow, Miss Klein,
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you have no idea
what that means.
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I really wish I could sign you.
I do.
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Good luck to you. I mean it.
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Oh, bring this one in.
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Uh...
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But I-I don't understand.
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What are you, a size two?
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Uh, a four.
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[laughs] Oh, sweetie. A four?
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You're too fat.
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♪ ♪
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[camera shutters clicking]
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Are you okay?
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I feel so stupid.
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God, how embarrassing.
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Let me guess...
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she told you
you were too heavy.
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No, she said I was too fat.
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I mean, who says a thing
like that?
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- I'm sorry.
- [grunts] I will show her.
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She has no idea
what I'm capable of.
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I'll diet, I'll exercise.
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I'll do whatever it takes,
just you wait.
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It won't work.
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[scoffs]
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So you think I should
just give up too, huh?
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Gee, whatever happened to us
girls having each other's backs?
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Vivian.
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I'm not telling you to quit.
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I'm just saying it won't work.
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Dieting, exercising.
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Would you believe it
if I told you
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I used to be a size four, too?
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That's impossible.
You're so skinny.
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I know.
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Here.
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Go see this guy,
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Dr. Lau.
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It's the only way.
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[creaking]
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♪ ♪
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♪ ♪
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I don't like to cut corners--
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ask anyone who knows me--
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but... I don't know what to do.
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I-I've been dieting
and exercising. I...
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I lost four pounds,
but the rest...
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it just won't come off.
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Well...
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your bloodwork is excellent.
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I'm recommending
a course of a drug
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called Mondify.
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It's a diabetes drug,
but I use it off-label
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for weight loss with a lot
of patients in Hollywood,
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the modeling industry,
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lot of news anchors on Fox,
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etcetera, etcetera.
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Is it a pill?
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I've never taken anything more
than an aspirin. [laughs]
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Not a pill, a shot. Once a week.
The weight will fly off.
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A shot?
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Ugh, um...
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I don't know. Um...
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Look, Mondify is nothing
to be afraid of.
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Side effects are minimal.
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Tiny needle, FDA approved,
all above board.
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You know, I use Mondify myself.
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It's a drug of the future.
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Here.
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I'll show you how to use it.
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[groans softly]
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So I just stab it in
and push the button?
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Mm-hmm. Just stab and push.
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[sighs]
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Should we toast?
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To...
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To Vogue.
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[chuckles]
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[sighs]
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[woman vomiting]
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[toilet flushing]
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Hi.
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Mary Alice, right?
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You're Sheila's assistant?
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Profiles.
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Give us a twirl.
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What do you think?
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- I think you look fantastic.
- [sneezes]
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Go wash your hands, please.
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[door opens, closes]
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Three words:
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Vivian Lee from
Nobody-cares, Indiana.
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Iowa. [chuckles]
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I'm signing you.
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Oh, my goodness, really?
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- For real real?
- For real real.
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See Marjorie at the front desk.
She'll get you all sorted.
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I won't let you down. [laughs]
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- Mondify?
- Sorry?
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That's what you're on, Mondify?
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Oh. Uh...
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Yeah.
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How long?
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Uh, about four months.
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I get a little nausea
on the day of the shot,
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but, otherwise, I feel great.
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[Sheila] Well, keep it up.
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We'll make you
the it-iest it girl ever.
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[camera shutter clicking]
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[Mick] Over here, Viv.
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That's it.
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Oh, fuck me in the ballsack,
that's beautiful.
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- She's a goddess.
- Good, right?
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[Mick]
God, she's a fucking Maserati.
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Vroom, vroom, baby.
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- [laughs]
- Ooh!
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Careful. It's an eyelid,
not a garage door.
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[camera whirs]
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Oh, Heather. Come here.
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Mm. Pretty color.
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Sheila, this is my friend
and roommate Heather Billings.
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It's an honor to meet you,
Miss Klein.
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Heather is a fabulous model.
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You should see her portfolio.
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It's hot in here.
Let's get everybody out.
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My girl's overheating.
Chop, chop.
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Come on.
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Ugh, gorgeous.
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Mm.
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A gazelle cannot live
with a hyena.
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Heather? She's not a hyena.
[chuckles]
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You don't think that girl
wouldn't eat you in a heartbeat
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just to stay alive?
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She's got claws.
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And I'm not talking about
those dreadful press-ons.
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[camera shutter clicking]
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[Mick] Over here, Viv.
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[shutter clicking loudly]
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[Heather] Vivian!
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Oh, if it's broken,
I'll just die.
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I am so stupid.
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Your nose will be fine.
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Vivian, what I'm worried about
is your electrocardiogram.
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You forgot to tell me
you have a heart murmur?
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Well, it's a complication
of my scoliosis,
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but I-I hardly thought
it mattered.
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I-I don't let it affect
my daily life.
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That doesn't mean
you don't have it. It matters.
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I can't, in good conscience,
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00:16:03,537 --> 00:16:05,206
allow you to continue
on Mondify.
269
00:16:05,206 --> 00:16:06,275
Your heart could explode.
270
00:16:06,275 --> 00:16:08,580
What? But I need it.
271
00:16:08,580 --> 00:16:11,720
Vivian, this drug could lead
to real valve damage.
272
00:16:11,720 --> 00:16:13,790
It caused you to black out.
273
00:16:13,790 --> 00:16:15,360
What if you'd been driving?
274
00:16:15,360 --> 00:16:17,998
Would you rather
be skinny or alive?
275
00:16:18,767 --> 00:16:20,671
That's supposed to be rhetorical.
276
00:16:20,671 --> 00:16:22,140
[sighs]
277
00:16:22,140 --> 00:16:24,010
Well, there has to be
another way.
278
00:16:25,313 --> 00:16:27,484
Anything that radically changes
279
00:16:27,484 --> 00:16:30,089
the composition of your body
comes with extreme risk.
280
00:16:30,089 --> 00:16:32,762
You lied to me
about your medical history.
281
00:16:32,762 --> 00:16:35,199
At this point,
any options I do have,
282
00:16:35,199 --> 00:16:36,468
I wouldn't recommend to you.
283
00:16:36,468 --> 00:16:38,439
But there are
other options then?
284
00:16:38,439 --> 00:16:40,744
[sighs] Vivian.
285
00:16:42,347 --> 00:16:45,386
These things have to come
from a place of honesty.
286
00:16:45,386 --> 00:16:47,525
Health first.
287
00:16:47,525 --> 00:16:50,396
It can't come from some
insane, jealous desire
288
00:16:50,396 --> 00:16:53,135
to be the skinniest
or the prettiest.
289
00:16:55,373 --> 00:16:56,676
You're right.
290
00:16:59,381 --> 00:17:01,686
[sighs] I don't know
what's gotten into me.
291
00:17:01,686 --> 00:17:04,358
[sighs]
292
00:17:04,358 --> 00:17:06,763
You know, my whole life,
293
00:17:06,763 --> 00:17:09,167
becoming a model was a statement
294
00:17:09,167 --> 00:17:11,573
I was determined
to make about...
295
00:17:11,573 --> 00:17:13,309
overcoming odds,
296
00:17:13,309 --> 00:17:17,417
about proving that I wasn't
limited by my condition,
297
00:17:17,417 --> 00:17:19,187
my scoliosis.
298
00:17:22,260 --> 00:17:23,864
But there's another philosophy
299
00:17:23,864 --> 00:17:26,670
that drives girls
in this industry.
300
00:17:26,670 --> 00:17:29,207
And it isn't about being
the best version of you,
301
00:17:29,207 --> 00:17:31,779
it's about being
better than them.
302
00:17:33,248 --> 00:17:36,656
And it's bitter
and petty, and...
303
00:17:39,294 --> 00:17:41,632
...I-I just got caught up in it.
304
00:17:43,903 --> 00:17:45,472
Please.
305
00:17:46,609 --> 00:17:49,414
I want to show little girls
out there who have big dreams
306
00:17:49,414 --> 00:17:51,653
that there is
a different way to be.
307
00:17:51,653 --> 00:17:53,824
I want to be an example of
308
00:17:53,824 --> 00:17:57,430
empowerment
and self-love, but...
309
00:17:59,167 --> 00:18:02,440
I have to stay in the business
to do that.
310
00:18:02,440 --> 00:18:04,444
Dr. Lau, if you help me,
311
00:18:04,444 --> 00:18:07,283
I won't lie to you ever again,
312
00:18:07,283 --> 00:18:08,686
you have my word.
313
00:18:14,498 --> 00:18:15,867
Wait here.
314
00:18:20,209 --> 00:18:22,246
[door opens]
315
00:18:24,384 --> 00:18:26,523
[sighs]
316
00:18:26,523 --> 00:18:28,325
- [door closes]
- [Lau] This...
317
00:18:28,325 --> 00:18:30,564
it's a very ancient treatment.
318
00:18:30,564 --> 00:18:34,706
All natural, so it won't run you
the same risks as Mondify.
319
00:18:34,706 --> 00:18:37,210
But do not take this lightly,
320
00:18:37,210 --> 00:18:39,247
it comes with its own
whole set of issues.
321
00:18:50,670 --> 00:18:53,309
Is it a pill?
322
00:18:53,309 --> 00:18:55,245
Oh.
323
00:18:56,983 --> 00:18:58,820
[Lau] Taenia asiatica.
324
00:18:58,820 --> 00:19:01,392
It's a tapeworm
325
00:19:01,392 --> 00:19:03,563
from a very distant forest.
326
00:19:03,563 --> 00:19:05,400
Wash it down
with some oolong tea.
327
00:19:05,400 --> 00:19:07,738
You'll lose more weight with
this little guy than on Mondify.
328
00:19:07,738 --> 00:19:09,542
A tapeworm?
329
00:19:09,542 --> 00:19:11,378
But...
330
00:19:12,147 --> 00:19:15,219
...if you're going to do this,
Vivian, you have to follow
331
00:19:15,219 --> 00:19:17,289
my instructions to the letter.
332
00:19:18,960 --> 00:19:21,164
I'm very serious.
333
00:19:32,286 --> 00:19:34,424
[tea pouring]
334
00:19:38,633 --> 00:19:41,873
The tapeworm will beg to be fed.
335
00:19:41,873 --> 00:19:43,877
You will feel hungry,
very hungry,
336
00:19:43,877 --> 00:19:45,480
but you must eat normally,
337
00:19:45,480 --> 00:19:47,785
no more than
you would ordinarily.
338
00:19:47,785 --> 00:19:49,287
Do you understand?
339
00:20:13,703 --> 00:20:15,740
♪ ♪
340
00:20:21,519 --> 00:20:22,888
[clears throat]
341
00:20:22,888 --> 00:20:25,794
You'll be down
ten pounds in a week.
342
00:20:25,794 --> 00:20:27,831
I promise.
343
00:21:01,431 --> 00:21:03,636
[sputters softly]
344
00:21:31,692 --> 00:21:33,729
♪ ♪
345
00:22:01,953 --> 00:22:03,990
["Your Love"
by Frankie Knuckles playing]
346
00:22:12,841 --> 00:22:14,578
♪ ♪
347
00:22:19,555 --> 00:22:21,960
♪ When I'm with you I believe ♪
348
00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:23,663
♪ That your love is true ♪
349
00:22:23,663 --> 00:22:26,034
♪ When we love you turn me out ♪
350
00:22:26,034 --> 00:22:27,705
♪ You know what to do ♪
351
00:22:27,705 --> 00:22:30,510
♪ Visions really blow my mind ♪
352
00:22:30,510 --> 00:22:32,814
♪ Fantasizing all the time... ♪
353
00:22:37,490 --> 00:22:38,827
[whistles]
354
00:22:38,827 --> 00:22:40,897
A princess among us peasants.
355
00:22:42,701 --> 00:22:44,104
♪ Well, I need your love... ♪
356
00:22:44,104 --> 00:22:45,807
[mouth full] You think she's
prettier than me?!
357
00:22:46,976 --> 00:22:48,780
♪ I need your love... ♪
358
00:22:48,780 --> 00:22:50,750
[screams]
359
00:22:51,251 --> 00:22:54,825
♪ I need your love ♪
360
00:22:56,862 --> 00:22:59,702
♪ Don't make me wait too long ♪
361
00:22:59,702 --> 00:23:01,004
♪ Oh ♪
362
00:23:01,004 --> 00:23:03,441
♪ I need your touch ♪
363
00:23:05,179 --> 00:23:09,821
♪ Don't make me wait
for your love... ♪
364
00:23:12,627 --> 00:23:14,598
[waiter] Hey. Are you, like,
365
00:23:14,598 --> 00:23:15,867
okay?
366
00:23:15,867 --> 00:23:18,138
Perfect jawline.
367
00:23:18,138 --> 00:23:21,979
Too bad your hairline
is on fucking Mars.
368
00:23:28,760 --> 00:23:30,128
Oh, no.
369
00:23:31,499 --> 00:23:32,867
I'm sorry.
370
00:23:34,638 --> 00:23:36,742
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
371
00:23:41,084 --> 00:23:43,488
♪ I can't let go ♪
372
00:23:48,900 --> 00:23:50,904
♪ I can't let go. ♪
373
00:23:50,904 --> 00:23:53,709
- [buzzer sounds]
- [man] That's lunch. 30 minutes.
374
00:23:54,812 --> 00:23:56,214
She's hogging my light.
375
00:24:02,928 --> 00:24:04,831
[light buzzing]
376
00:24:14,952 --> 00:24:17,290
[model 1]
Oink, oink, little piggy.
377
00:24:17,290 --> 00:24:18,860
[model 2]
I heard she ate
378
00:24:18,860 --> 00:24:21,264
four double chili cheeseburgers
379
00:24:21,264 --> 00:24:23,035
in the bathroom.
380
00:24:23,035 --> 00:24:25,072
She brought them from home.
381
00:24:25,072 --> 00:24:27,276
[model 1] You know what?
It's not her fault.
382
00:24:27,276 --> 00:24:30,951
That's just how they eat
in Potatoville, Idaho.
383
00:24:30,951 --> 00:24:33,021
[laughter]
384
00:24:41,572 --> 00:24:44,578
I'm from Iowa,
385
00:24:44,578 --> 00:24:48,653
you puddles of herpes pus!
386
00:24:48,653 --> 00:24:49,855
[Sheila] Hey! Okay.
387
00:24:49,855 --> 00:24:50,923
Hold on, hold on.
388
00:24:53,696 --> 00:24:54,932
Show's over.
389
00:24:54,932 --> 00:24:56,668
Ugh, don't touch me,
you axe wound.
390
00:25:03,081 --> 00:25:05,987
Okay, Viv, I need you
to take a breath. Calm down.
391
00:25:05,987 --> 00:25:08,058
[laughs] I don't need
to take a breath.
392
00:25:08,058 --> 00:25:10,664
Didn't you hear?
393
00:25:10,664 --> 00:25:13,870
I booked Vogue.
394
00:25:13,870 --> 00:25:15,874
The fucking cover.
395
00:25:15,874 --> 00:25:18,713
So sit on a rusty railroad spike
396
00:25:18,713 --> 00:25:20,048
and rotate.
397
00:25:46,669 --> 00:25:48,740
- I hate them.
- [Sheila] That's perfectly fine.
398
00:25:48,740 --> 00:25:51,278
You can be
an outright bitch to them,
399
00:25:51,278 --> 00:25:54,652
but we cannot have scenes
like what happened back there.
400
00:25:54,652 --> 00:25:57,156
[crying] I know.
I'm so sorry, Sheila.
401
00:25:57,156 --> 00:26:00,195
The weight loss isn't real.
402
00:26:01,197 --> 00:26:03,969
[Sheila] Everyone is on Mondify.
403
00:26:06,074 --> 00:26:08,312
No.
404
00:26:08,312 --> 00:26:10,917
Something else.
405
00:26:10,917 --> 00:26:13,589
I'm a fraud.
There's something...
406
00:26:15,158 --> 00:26:16,895
...inside of me.
407
00:26:19,033 --> 00:26:20,268
[Sheila] I know.
408
00:26:30,188 --> 00:26:32,426
Imposter syndrome.
409
00:26:32,426 --> 00:26:35,667
You've stepped over every other
girl to get to where you are,
410
00:26:35,667 --> 00:26:38,640
and now you're wondering,
"Why me? Why me?"
411
00:26:38,640 --> 00:26:40,877
I'll tell you why,
because you are a supermodel,
412
00:26:40,877 --> 00:26:42,681
and they are not.
413
00:26:42,681 --> 00:26:44,685
They will never understand
the pressures that you face,
414
00:26:44,685 --> 00:26:45,820
but I do.
415
00:26:45,820 --> 00:26:47,790
I have seen it all before.
416
00:26:49,928 --> 00:26:53,134
Everything is gonna be okay,
trust me.
417
00:26:55,105 --> 00:26:57,644
Now get yourself cleaned up.
418
00:27:12,039 --> 00:27:13,342
[train rumbling]
419
00:27:13,342 --> 00:27:15,145
Viv?
420
00:27:15,145 --> 00:27:17,116
Hey, guess what.
421
00:27:17,116 --> 00:27:19,755
You'll never believe it,
but Magenta Magazine
422
00:27:19,755 --> 00:27:21,391
is doing this article.
423
00:27:21,391 --> 00:27:24,765
It's all about models, misconceptions,
424
00:27:24,765 --> 00:27:27,804
how tough the business can be.
425
00:27:27,804 --> 00:27:31,177
Anyway, guess what?
426
00:27:31,177 --> 00:27:34,217
They're using my photos
to go with the article.
427
00:27:34,217 --> 00:27:36,187
My snapshots.
428
00:27:36,187 --> 00:27:38,292
It doesn't pay, but...
429
00:27:38,292 --> 00:27:39,795
it's gonna be printed
all over the world.
430
00:27:39,795 --> 00:27:41,264
[soft clanking nearby]
431
00:27:41,264 --> 00:27:44,169
Vivian? Are you home?
432
00:27:45,974 --> 00:27:47,476
[heavy breathing nearby]
433
00:27:47,476 --> 00:27:49,013
Viv?
434
00:27:57,497 --> 00:27:59,266
Vivian?
435
00:28:01,104 --> 00:28:02,272
Hey...
436
00:28:04,110 --> 00:28:06,114
I know you have a lot
on your plate right now
437
00:28:06,114 --> 00:28:09,187
with Vogue coming up
and all, but...
438
00:28:09,187 --> 00:28:11,458
do you think you could do
some of your dishes?
439
00:28:11,458 --> 00:28:13,428
Or take out the trash?
440
00:28:13,428 --> 00:28:16,101
This mess is getting
out of control.
441
00:28:16,101 --> 00:28:18,205
Magenta Magazine
442
00:28:18,205 --> 00:28:21,378
is doing an article.
443
00:28:21,378 --> 00:28:25,853
They're using my photos.
444
00:28:28,291 --> 00:28:29,427
[Vivian yells]
445
00:28:29,427 --> 00:28:32,534
Magenta Magazine
is for has-beens
446
00:28:32,534 --> 00:28:34,404
and wannabes.
447
00:28:34,404 --> 00:28:36,742
[laughing]
448
00:28:38,211 --> 00:28:39,881
Viv, you're scaring me.
449
00:28:43,388 --> 00:28:45,526
[growls]
450
00:28:49,568 --> 00:28:52,406
[Vivian breathing heavily]
451
00:28:53,976 --> 00:28:55,780
[whispers] Heather...
452
00:28:57,951 --> 00:29:00,288
I don't know why I did that.
453
00:29:01,892 --> 00:29:03,529
[crying] I am so sorry.
454
00:29:04,865 --> 00:29:07,537
I will buy you another one.
455
00:29:07,537 --> 00:29:09,273
I'm gonna go, Vivian.
456
00:29:09,273 --> 00:29:10,577
No...
457
00:29:10,577 --> 00:29:12,179
I can't live with you like this.
458
00:29:12,179 --> 00:29:14,050
I'll come and get my stuff
later this week
459
00:29:14,050 --> 00:29:15,119
when you're gone.
460
00:29:15,119 --> 00:29:16,555
No. Heather, wait, please.
461
00:29:16,555 --> 00:29:18,860
I have to tell you
the truth. Please.
462
00:29:18,860 --> 00:29:20,964
It's not, it's not me,
there's...
463
00:29:20,964 --> 00:29:23,869
- It's not me.
- [keys jingle]
464
00:29:24,938 --> 00:29:27,343
There's something...
465
00:29:27,343 --> 00:29:30,315
A monster
466
00:29:30,315 --> 00:29:31,886
inside of me.
467
00:29:31,886 --> 00:29:34,257
I know there is.
468
00:29:34,257 --> 00:29:36,361
I've been in this business
longer than you have, Vivian.
469
00:29:36,361 --> 00:29:38,198
Lots of girls have
the exact same thing
470
00:29:38,198 --> 00:29:39,300
inside them as you.
471
00:29:39,300 --> 00:29:40,469
Even me.
472
00:29:40,469 --> 00:29:42,507
I just hide it better.
473
00:29:42,507 --> 00:29:45,547
You have... you have a tapeworm?
474
00:29:45,547 --> 00:29:48,318
A tapeworm?
475
00:29:48,318 --> 00:29:50,255
Don't mock me, Vivian.
476
00:29:50,255 --> 00:29:52,059
The monster inside of you
is jealousy.
477
00:29:52,059 --> 00:29:54,263
Insecurity.
478
00:29:54,263 --> 00:29:56,233
You have so much right now,
and I have nothing.
479
00:29:57,469 --> 00:30:00,075
Why would you
feel threatened by me?
480
00:30:02,514 --> 00:30:04,952
Good luck with Vogue tomorrow.
481
00:30:04,952 --> 00:30:06,420
I hope it's everything
you ever dreamed of.
482
00:30:08,324 --> 00:30:12,233
No, no, wait. Come back.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
483
00:30:12,233 --> 00:30:15,974
[crying] I'm sorry.
484
00:30:15,974 --> 00:30:18,880
I'm sorry.
485
00:30:18,880 --> 00:30:21,016
[sobbing]
486
00:30:26,394 --> 00:30:28,364
[Pelé speaking French]
487
00:30:35,513 --> 00:30:37,116
All right, I can't believe
I'm saying this,
488
00:30:37,116 --> 00:30:38,351
but the model is too skinny.
489
00:30:38,351 --> 00:30:40,322
There is no body.
490
00:30:40,322 --> 00:30:43,261
There is no body
to hang the clothes on.
491
00:30:43,261 --> 00:30:44,864
I'm sorry.
492
00:30:49,173 --> 00:30:51,311
- What's going on?
- You're down five pounds
493
00:30:51,311 --> 00:30:53,115
from the fitting, hon.
494
00:30:53,115 --> 00:30:55,920
The dress was custom tailored.
Now we have to redo it.
495
00:30:55,920 --> 00:30:57,389
I can't be.
496
00:30:58,559 --> 00:31:00,897
I get it.
There's a lot of pressure
497
00:31:00,897 --> 00:31:03,034
to be thin in this business,
but I've seen girls go down
498
00:31:03,034 --> 00:31:06,609
fast and hard
because of eating disorders.
499
00:31:06,609 --> 00:31:08,345
What's going on?
500
00:31:08,345 --> 00:31:11,184
- Is it bulimia, anorexia?
- No, no.
501
00:31:11,184 --> 00:31:14,123
It's just my constitution.
502
00:31:14,123 --> 00:31:17,362
[scoffs] This ain't
my first rodeo, sister.
503
00:31:18,699 --> 00:31:20,570
I'm not trying to embarrass you.
504
00:31:20,570 --> 00:31:23,175
I want you to have a long
and healthy career.
505
00:31:23,175 --> 00:31:25,379
Burn, you fat lesbian cow.
506
00:31:25,379 --> 00:31:28,519
Ugh, avert your gaze from me.
507
00:31:39,975 --> 00:31:41,444
[Alessia] Excuse me.
508
00:31:46,053 --> 00:31:47,423
I respect your process,
509
00:31:47,423 --> 00:31:49,326
but you better purge that shit
before we shoot.
510
00:31:51,330 --> 00:31:54,203
♪ ♪
511
00:32:07,196 --> 00:32:09,535
[crying]
512
00:32:09,535 --> 00:32:12,038
[retching, coughing]
513
00:32:22,025 --> 00:32:23,461
[coughing]
514
00:32:28,037 --> 00:32:30,041
[crying]
515
00:32:44,103 --> 00:32:46,273
[car alarm blaring in distance]
516
00:32:49,614 --> 00:32:51,150
[soft moaning nearby]
517
00:32:57,262 --> 00:32:58,431
Vivian?
518
00:33:17,804 --> 00:33:20,475
I never should have
given it to you.
519
00:33:20,475 --> 00:33:23,783
It's too much responsibility.
You're...
520
00:33:23,783 --> 00:33:26,053
You're too young. I...
521
00:33:28,224 --> 00:33:31,097
I'm so sorry, Vivian.
This is my fault.
522
00:33:31,097 --> 00:33:34,169
I can't stop shedding weight.
523
00:33:35,271 --> 00:33:37,442
I'm losing jobs.
524
00:33:38,679 --> 00:33:40,616
I'm too skinny.
525
00:33:42,152 --> 00:33:45,125
But more than that,
526
00:33:45,125 --> 00:33:47,229
it's changing me.
527
00:33:48,031 --> 00:33:50,603
The tapeworm metabolizes
and stores food
528
00:33:50,603 --> 00:33:52,373
more efficiently than we do.
529
00:33:52,373 --> 00:33:56,281
That's why you can eat and eat
without gaining in size.
530
00:33:56,281 --> 00:34:00,088
But the worm does grow,
and the bigger it gets,
531
00:34:00,088 --> 00:34:02,359
the stronger its need
to consume becomes.
532
00:34:02,359 --> 00:34:04,263
This is why you mustn't
feed it too much.
533
00:34:04,263 --> 00:34:07,269
But the hunger
isn't just for food.
534
00:34:07,269 --> 00:34:09,072
It's for...
535
00:34:11,344 --> 00:34:12,546
...everything.
536
00:34:13,582 --> 00:34:16,120
All for me.
537
00:34:17,155 --> 00:34:20,530
None for anyone else.
538
00:34:20,530 --> 00:34:22,801
The tapeworm is
a powerful organism,
539
00:34:22,801 --> 00:34:26,407
but... it's also very simple.
540
00:34:26,407 --> 00:34:28,377
You see, it...
541
00:34:31,450 --> 00:34:34,825
Its function is
its defense mechanism.
542
00:34:34,825 --> 00:34:37,564
It consumes.
543
00:34:37,564 --> 00:34:40,402
As the worm gets bigger,
its need to consume
544
00:34:40,402 --> 00:34:42,607
becomes your need to consume.
545
00:34:42,607 --> 00:34:47,182
Its defense mechanism
becomes your defense mechanism.
546
00:34:47,182 --> 00:34:49,186
Devour.
547
00:34:49,186 --> 00:34:52,359
Devour anything deemed
to be a threat.
548
00:34:52,359 --> 00:34:56,167
I have to get it out of me.
549
00:34:56,167 --> 00:34:57,469
Do the surgery.
550
00:34:57,469 --> 00:34:59,875
[sighs]
551
00:34:59,875 --> 00:35:02,446
It's too big.
It's enmeshed in you.
552
00:35:02,446 --> 00:35:05,318
Can I take something to kill it?
553
00:35:05,318 --> 00:35:07,757
Almost anything strong enough
to kill the worm
554
00:35:07,757 --> 00:35:09,694
will kill you, too.
555
00:35:13,602 --> 00:35:16,775
There has to be something.
556
00:35:16,775 --> 00:35:19,212
Get it out of me!
557
00:35:26,193 --> 00:35:27,295
Okay.
558
00:35:29,801 --> 00:35:32,439
[drawer opens, closes]
559
00:35:41,958 --> 00:35:44,731
This. Drink it.
560
00:35:44,731 --> 00:35:48,271
The tapeworm has
an innate revulsion to it.
561
00:35:48,271 --> 00:35:49,775
You'll experience contractions,
562
00:35:49,775 --> 00:35:51,477
and the worm will
make its way out
563
00:35:51,477 --> 00:35:55,218
to the nearest exit...
your anus.
564
00:35:58,424 --> 00:36:02,500
When you see its head,
grab it and tug firm,
565
00:36:02,500 --> 00:36:03,903
but gentle.
566
00:36:03,903 --> 00:36:05,940
Keep pulling till
the whole thing comes out.
567
00:36:05,940 --> 00:36:07,811
If you've been feeding it
as moderately
568
00:36:07,811 --> 00:36:11,350
as we discussed, it should be
about a-a foot long by now.
569
00:36:14,724 --> 00:36:17,228
[thunder rumbles]
570
00:36:23,341 --> 00:36:26,280
[light buzzing]
571
00:36:47,723 --> 00:36:48,925
[grunts softly]
572
00:37:00,783 --> 00:37:02,920
[shudders]
573
00:37:31,477 --> 00:37:33,982
♪ ♪
574
00:37:42,332 --> 00:37:45,472
[gasping]
575
00:37:45,472 --> 00:37:46,975
[squishing]
576
00:37:48,745 --> 00:37:49,915
[cries out]
577
00:37:49,915 --> 00:37:52,486
- [squishing]
- [screaming]
578
00:37:52,486 --> 00:37:55,358
[pained grunting]
579
00:38:06,514 --> 00:38:09,587
[crying softly]
580
00:38:11,591 --> 00:38:13,595
[sharp cries]
581
00:38:17,435 --> 00:38:19,740
- [squishing]
- [screaming]
582
00:38:25,084 --> 00:38:27,021
[screaming]
583
00:38:30,796 --> 00:38:33,635
- [hissing]
- [screaming]
584
00:38:37,677 --> 00:38:39,780
[tapeworm screeching]
585
00:38:45,091 --> 00:38:47,395
[sobbing]
586
00:39:06,133 --> 00:39:08,706
No, no, no, please.
587
00:39:08,706 --> 00:39:10,610
No, please.
588
00:39:10,610 --> 00:39:13,616
Please, please, no, no, no.
589
00:39:13,616 --> 00:39:15,652
[screams]
590
00:39:21,498 --> 00:39:25,639
[doorbell buzzing]
591
00:39:28,645 --> 00:39:30,148
Vivian, you're not answering,
592
00:39:30,148 --> 00:39:31,952
so I assume that means
you're not home.
593
00:39:31,952 --> 00:39:33,855
Just letting you know
I'm coming up to get my stuff.
594
00:39:40,001 --> 00:39:41,871
[scoffs]
595
00:39:52,058 --> 00:39:56,668
Vivian Lee Finch,
what happened to you?
596
00:40:00,743 --> 00:40:02,145
Viv?
597
00:40:03,949 --> 00:40:05,819
Are you in here?
598
00:40:07,556 --> 00:40:09,661
Are you okay?
599
00:40:09,661 --> 00:40:11,463
[light buzzing]
600
00:40:39,554 --> 00:40:40,789
- [tapeworm screeches]
- [Heather cries out]
601
00:40:53,749 --> 00:40:56,822
Well, you've certainly got
the look.
602
00:40:56,822 --> 00:40:59,627
But I only sign girls who are
willing to do the work.
603
00:41:01,731 --> 00:41:03,167
Are you hungry?
604
00:41:14,256 --> 00:41:17,730
Miss Klein, I am starving.
605
00:41:17,730 --> 00:41:19,800
[tapeworm hissing]
606
00:41:26,648 --> 00:42:23,728
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