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♪♪ Classical music plays ♪♪

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Why?

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OK we'll stop it there, OK.

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Who here saw an eight month pregnant lady on the stage?

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Uh... I saw a very constipated old man.

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It did look a bit like you needed a poo.

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Why do you think it looked that way?

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Well, it was just a bit too much.

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Yes Margaret.

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I think it's harder for him.

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Why do you think it's harder for him?

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Because he's a man.

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Why would it be harder because he's a man?

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Well, we see a man on stage

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and so it's harder for us to see him as a pregnant lady.

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OK, forget the lady part. Did he look pregnant?

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But he can't get pregnant.

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That's not the point. Everyone here has done this exercise

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and a lot of you haven't been pregnant.

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In fact Sue can't have children can you Sue? No.

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The point is, when you play a character it shouldn't matter
that you share nothing in common with that character.

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None of us are serial killers but to play one you have to become one,

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you have to think like one, you have to

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find the desire to kill and the belief that you have killed.

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If you don't believe you're a serial killer neither will the audience.

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I mean obviously you're not going to actually kill anyone

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and obviously a man can't get pregnant
but an actor can believe they're pregnant.

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Did you believe you were pregnant?
Did you truly feel a child kicking in your stomach?

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Well I tried, but I couldn't manage it.
I think maybe I was doing the physical actions

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instead of letting the belief that I was pregnant give me the attributes,

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or the the physical attributes, of actually being pregnant.

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Exactly! It was a good try though. We're all still learning.

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I'm not picking on him Margaret, these exercises are difficult.

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But I truly think that he could make us believe he's a pregnant lady

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if he believes it himself.

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Right, everyone up. Next week we're going to be nine months pregnant.

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We're all going to give birth and it's going to get noisy.

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So let's practice our vocal warm-ups.
Hands on your stomachs and breathe in...

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Give me a nice deep laugh.

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Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Haaaaaaaa!

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♪♪ Ominous classical music plays ♪♪

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Yeah mate. No, she was a right fucking skank.

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Yeah, but she let me do her up the shitter.

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Oh yeah, no, no, no,
don't give me any of that "you've got a daughter" shit.

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At the end of the day having a woman around like her you know,

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teaches the kids a solid lesson right?

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Stay in school, don't do drugs

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And then you don't have to have someone
fuck you up the arse for a couple of quid.

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Yeah, yeah, all right, yeah, see you Monday yeah?

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Fuck that. I could turn up pissed and still sell more cars than you.

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Oh yeah, yeah see you Monday. Twat.

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* Noises of sexual groaning *

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Oi! I can hear you dirty bastards.

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If you're gonna do it in public then expect spectators, you know.

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Let Gary show you how this is done.

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Haha yay!

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* More sexual groaning *

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Oh haha! Is this you Wayne?

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All right, you got me. I couldn't help but have a little nosy.

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Right if you're not coming out I'm gonna take your uh...

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fucking walkman? Even though it's fucking shit.

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* A clap of thunder *

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♪♪ Upbeat operatic music plays ♪♪

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♪♪ Music becomes ominous ♪♪

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Thanks

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It's not a particularly good one but it's all right.

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I wouldn't know the difference, I could drink any old rubbish.

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I think if a lot of people were honest they'd probably say the same.

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Yeah probably.

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Tastes all right to me.

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I must say this is very relaxed, not quite what I was expecting.

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What were you expecting?

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Well I'm not sure really.

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Something like a doctor's surgery perhaps?

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Yeah perhaps um something more clinical maybe.

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It's like that in a few places but
I prefer a more relaxed approach.

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I like to subvert expectations.

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For example, to look at me you wouldn't think that I
like to practice ballet, but I do.

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I want you to feel as comfortable as possible
and tell me whatever you like.

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Don't hold back. I can assure you
I've heard it all before, I'm not easily offended.

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I don't know where to start, um...

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I need your help.

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Why do you need my help?

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Because I'm gonna fucking kill myself.

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I see

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I'm gonna kill myself now or I'm gonna kill someone else.

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Someone else?

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Yeah I know I will, if I don't do myself in.

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Who are you gonna kill?

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I don't know, anybody. I don't fucking care.
Everyone makes me sick.

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I've met a lot of people in the same state as you John
and there hasn't been one that I haven't been able to help.

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I don't know Carl, I'm so fucked up.

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I know.

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I don't just fuck myself up, I fuck up everyone around me.

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You don't need to worry about telling me the things that you've done.

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I'm not here to judge, I have no right.
I've done things that will churn your stomach.

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What sort of things?

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Trust me John. Think of the worst thing
that you've done and mine will beat it.

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I'm not so sure. You know, I've been so loaded up
on whatever shit I could get a hold of and...

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I've done unspeakable things.

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It breaks me into a cold sweat just thinking about it.

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I was homeless for a while.
I lived in an abandoned warehouse with a few other people.

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There was a girl in the group, she was in her 30s,
looked about 50, permanently whacked out on glue.

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One night, for no other reason other than we could,
a couple of us raped her with a wine bottle.

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Shit.

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I still have nightmares about it now.
Every time I wake up I have to run to the bathroom to be sick.

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I can see why.

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So you understand, you can tell me anything. I won't judge you.

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* A noise of something being knocked over *

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What was that?

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What?

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That noise.

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I didn't hear anything.

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It sounded like something fell over.

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Don't worry about it.

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Let's concentrate on your suicidal thoughts.
See if you can put into words why you want to kill yourself.

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Yeah, OK.

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I want out. I want to go to bed for good.

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I've had enough.

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I've had enough of people, I've had enough of places
and I've had enough of myself.

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I've got nothing pleasant in my head.
The only thoughts that hold my attention are dark ones.

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Everything else bores me.

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I try. God knows I try,
but I just can't think pleasant thoughts.

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I want to recapture that feeling of happiness,
the happiness you feel as it as a child, you know, unthinking days.

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You didn't worry about being alive, you just lived. Moment by moment.

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Sure, you could be unhappy one moment but it didn't plague you.
You just instinctively let that shit go and got on with having fun.

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Shit just couldn't stick.

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But I am no longer that non-stick kid
and it is impossible to recapture how that felt.

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It's the same for all of us, you're not alone with that.

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We were all carefree once...

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but you just have to grow up.

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♪♪ Playful, classical music ♪♪

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Nice throw Carl. Remember, don't let go the
ball until your arm's fully extended.

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I want to be able to throw as far as you.

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You will when you're as big as me.

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I don't think so. You're better than all the boys in big school
and some of them are bigger than you.

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You just need practice.

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Come on, come on. Come here. Go on Max!

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Oh my God! No one can throw as far as you!

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Can I have a go?

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Sure Midget, here you go.

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Well that was shit.

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Yeah, that was shit.

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Do you know why parents live through their children?

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Because they're trying to recapture that joy of childhood?

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Absolutely. It's their way of getting through this life,
to keep on going, you just haven't found your way.

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So you think life's shit and we're all just trying our best to get through it?

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Yeah most of us. I mean, some of us do have our own moments.

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Some people do fall in love, some people get the big job promotion
and for a while they're happy to be alive.

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To be just who they are right there and right then,
but for the most part they're just bored and miserable, just like you are.

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But people have moments of happiness.

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Yeah

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I want moments.

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Why?

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Having moments is better than being permanently bored and miserable.

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Maybe, maybe not. I mean those moments could make
the rest of the time seem more painful.

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Take your perfect childhood for example. If you
never had that, if you only ever knew boredom,

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you wouldn't spend time trying to recapture those happy days.
You'd just continue with your miserable life none the wiser.

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Are you wanting a cigarette?

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Oh it's all right, I can wait.

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See, this is part of your problem.

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You've got to learn to just please yourself.
Don't wait until you think it's all right, just do it.

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Look after number one. Come on, we'll both go for one.
We'll go out in the courtyard. It's lovely out there.

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Bring your wine.

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♪♪ Playful, classical music ♪♪

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Will you do me a favour Carl?

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What?

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Kill me.

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No I won't.

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Why not?

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I've only just started to get to know you.
It would be a shame to kill you now.

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Are you happy Carl?

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Yeah, I've had my moments

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Tell me about them.

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Yeah all right, I think it'll do you good.

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Yeah. I was in love once.

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And she loved you?

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Yeah she did eventually.

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But I was pretty fucked up at the time,
it was the anniversary of my brother's death.

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Your brother died?

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Yeah. We were really close,
but I was young and the anniversary always hit me really hard.

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In fact, that was the time that I met Julia in a bar,
drowning my sorrows, thinking about my brother.

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The first thing she said to me was
"look at the face on you, you soppy bastard."

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I was going to turn around and just tell her to
fuck off but I couldn't do it.

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There was no malice. No aggression.
Just a big beaming smile and delicious rosy cheeks.

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It wasn't a face that you could say fuck off to,
so instead I just asked if she wanted to join me for a drink.

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She said no.

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No?

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I don't blame her. She was with friends and I was a
miserable git drowning my sorrows on my own.

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So how did you get together?

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We bumped into each other at the bus stop and we just started chatting.
We got the same bus and we decided to go for a coffee together.

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We shared so much in common and it was the first time
I felt really comfortable with a girl. I mean,

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I don't really have female friends. They make me a bit nervous.

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Nervous?

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Yeah.

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I mean... not nervous but...

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we obviously share more things in common with those
of the same sex

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and I just like hanging around people with the same interests as me.

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So I've never really had any use for female friends
and I've always been wary of men that have, you know?

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Why do they have so much in common with women? I mean...

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Gay guys I can understand having close female friends but straight men?
Just seems a bit weird to me.

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They're obviously perverts.

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Or sad cases,

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or they've had the shit bullied out of them by the other boys
when they were at school, you know?

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I didn't know it was a crime to be bullied.

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No it's not, but then again most of the kids that
were bullied at school were bullied for a reason.

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They were a bit weird.

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I mean, when I think back to my school, all the kids that were bullied,
they were kiddie fiddlers in the making.

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That's a bit harsh! I was bullied at school.

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Well, I didn't mean you. You're the exception.

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You know, probably wrong place wrong time.

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But if you think about it, most kids that were bullied were just a bit weird.

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...covered in jizzum

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I was bullied at school. I didn't deserve it.

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I was a rather talented girl but nonetheless
I pretty much enjoyed all the same things all the other girls liked.

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And I did my best not to stick out, you know, in spite of my talents,

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but a group of girls just took a dislike to me.

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I don't know why.

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Probably jealous.

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They made my life hell.

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I don't dwell on it.

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I know it certainly wasn't my fault and there was nothing
I could do about it, it was just one of those things.

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It hasn't done me any harm.

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Anyway, what do you think of this barman?
Quite charming isn't he?

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If he buys me one more drink...

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I'll let him fuck me up the arse.

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Single or double?
Double

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And then it hit me. This is actually what love is.

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00:19:58,264 --> 00:20:06,628
Finding a female who can be your best friend and they have lived
in their own female world and yet they share your feelings and your thoughts

235
00:20:07,738 --> 00:20:13,565
and it's like you're the same person and bam! I was in love.

236
00:20:13,565 --> 00:20:16,814
We hardly spent a day apart from each other after that day.

237
00:20:16,814 --> 00:20:19,040
So that was your moment?

238
00:20:19,040 --> 00:20:20,181
Yeah

239
00:20:21,194 --> 00:20:24,095
But like all moments it didn't last?

240
00:20:24,095 --> 00:20:25,328
Yeah

241
00:20:26,100 --> 00:20:27,410
What happened to her?

242
00:20:27,410 --> 00:20:28,976
We just got bored.

243
00:20:28,976 --> 00:20:30,198
Bored?

244
00:20:30,198 --> 00:20:35,337
Yeah, our moment had passed and we just went back to the mundane.

245
00:20:37,556 --> 00:20:39,358
Let's get another glass of wine.

246
00:20:40,178 --> 00:20:43,283
♪♪ Operatic music plays ♪♪

247
00:20:53,704 --> 00:20:55,847
* A noise of something being knocked over again *

248
00:20:55,847 --> 00:21:03,274
I definitely heard something then. Do you want to go and check it out?
Something definitely fell over.

249
00:21:03,949 --> 00:21:05,635
Don't worry, it's just Max.

250
00:21:05,635 --> 00:21:06,956
Max?

251
00:21:08,259 --> 00:21:16,627
He's my dog. I keep him locked in that room because he gets
hyperactive around strangers. Don't worry, he's alright in there.

252
00:21:16,627 --> 00:21:18,627
Oh right.

253
00:21:20,219 --> 00:21:22,719
It's absolutely fine, there's nothing that he can break.

254
00:21:23,298 --> 00:21:25,135
♪♪ Playful classical music plays ♪♪

255
00:21:26,438 --> 00:21:28,850
♪♪ Music becomes more ominous ♪♪

256
00:21:28,850 --> 00:21:30,312
* sound of a message notification *

257
00:21:32,628 --> 00:21:37,243
I'm too old for you, I'm nearly 14.

258
00:21:41,006 --> 00:21:42,524
* message notification *

259
00:21:48,362 --> 00:21:50,699
My mates will take the piss out of me.

260
00:21:53,353 --> 00:21:54,307
* message notification *

261
00:21:59,566 --> 00:22:07,655
That's true. Don't tell your 'rents though.
They'll think it's weird I can't get a girl my own age.

262
00:22:08,813 --> 00:22:17,470
That's not true though. I've been out with lots of girls older than me.
One were nearly 16.

263
00:22:19,014 --> 00:22:20,124
* message notification *

264
00:22:23,115 --> 00:22:27,005
I know that's why I like you.

265
00:22:28,259 --> 00:22:34,842
You are right. The age gap don't matter. We should meet up.

266
00:22:36,627 --> 00:22:38,161
* A knock at the door *

267
00:22:40,236 --> 00:22:44,724
♪♪ Music builds ♪♪

268
00:22:51,794 --> 00:22:57,197
♪♪

269
00:23:02,418 --> 00:23:04,825
* A rumble of thunder *

270
00:23:12,800 --> 00:23:15,356
* Thunder and music become louder *

271
00:23:20,856 --> 00:23:25,030
♪♪

272
00:23:25,549 --> 00:23:27,419
* Clap of thunder and stab *

273
00:23:35,910 --> 00:23:38,520
So, are you still with Julia?

274
00:23:38,520 --> 00:23:39,597
No.

275
00:23:39,597 --> 00:23:41,300
How come?

276
00:23:42,699 --> 00:23:48,799
Well, one night I put a pillow over her face
and held it there until she stopped breathing.

277
00:23:50,198 --> 00:23:51,069
What?

278
00:23:54,929 --> 00:23:58,326
I'm just joking, we just split up and went our separate ways.

279
00:23:59,339 --> 00:24:00,800
You just split up?

280
00:24:00,800 --> 00:24:02,102
Yeah

281
00:24:02,102 --> 00:24:04,538
Nothing happened to make you split up?

282
00:24:04,538 --> 00:24:10,835
No like I said, we just got bored.
There seemed no reason for us to be staying together.

283
00:24:14,646 --> 00:24:15,937
Are you Michael's brother?

284
00:24:15,937 --> 00:24:17,183
Yeah

285
00:24:17,183 --> 00:24:19,442
He wasn't at school today, is he all right?

286
00:24:19,442 --> 00:24:23,696
Yeah he was at some National school athletics thing,
he was running and stuff.

287
00:24:23,696 --> 00:24:25,976
Oh was that today?

288
00:24:25,976 --> 00:24:27,316
Yeah.

289
00:24:27,316 --> 00:24:30,457
I bet he got Gold. Tell him Becky thought he'd get Gold.

290
00:24:30,457 --> 00:24:34,026
Tell him Holly said Hi.
Tell him Becky said Hi, tell him I missed him at school

291
00:24:34,026 --> 00:24:35,475
Yeah, tell him I missed him too.

292
00:24:35,475 --> 00:24:39,071
Tell him Holly will give him a BJ
No don't say that.

293
00:24:39,071 --> 00:24:41,192
What's a BJ?

294
00:24:41,192 --> 00:24:44,940
Yeah Becky, what's a BJ? Why don't you tell him what a BJ is?

295
00:24:44,940 --> 00:24:48,158
It's just a kiss on the cheek.
Tell him we'll both give him a kiss on the cheek.

296
00:24:48,158 --> 00:24:49,591
Tell him we'll both give him a BJ.

297
00:24:49,591 --> 00:24:53,638
Becky stop it, he's just a little kid, it's not funny.

298
00:24:56,099 --> 00:24:58,199
I know what you're trying to do here Carl.

299
00:25:00,370 --> 00:25:01,892
What am I trying to do John?

300
00:25:01,892 --> 00:25:03,771
You think you're so fucking clever but you're not.

301
00:25:03,771 --> 00:25:05,863
I'm not following you.

302
00:25:05,863 --> 00:25:10,692
You're trying to make me feel like everyone else.
Like I'm not fucked up.

303
00:25:10,692 --> 00:25:17,262
You put on your smart middle-class clothes,
brush your hair all neat and tidy, make yourself all respectable.

304
00:25:17,262 --> 00:25:23,731
I'm not buying it. You talk in your nice voice,
in your respectable clothes and it's bullshit.

305
00:25:23,731 --> 00:25:29,328
You know, when I come in here, one of the first things
you tell me is how you raped a homeless woman with a bottle.

306
00:25:29,328 --> 00:25:34,239
Trying to make out that I'm not sick and that we all think this stuff.

307
00:25:34,239 --> 00:25:39,315
That you are like me. I'm not buying it.

308
00:25:40,797 --> 00:25:45,222
The dead brother, the girlfriend you got bored of, it fits together all too nicely.

309
00:25:45,222 --> 00:25:52,044
You want me to talk to you so you want me
to think I'm just like you, but I'm not.

310
00:25:52,044 --> 00:26:01,399
You expect me to see someone like you looking all respectable,
but really you're as fucked up as me?

311
00:26:01,399 --> 00:26:06,877
But you're not like me and this is just bollocks.

312
00:26:06,877 --> 00:26:15,826
Am I supposed to believe that everyone is like me
but they just carrying on pretending everything's just dandy?

313
00:26:19,927 --> 00:26:22,760
Obviously I want you to talk, John.

314
00:26:22,760 --> 00:26:29,752
If you want someone to open up to you then you've got to create
a connection with them. That's simple psychology.

315
00:26:29,752 --> 00:26:33,141
So everything you said is bollocks?

316
00:26:33,141 --> 00:26:38,764
No, I'm just purposefully selecting things
that I think that you'll empathise with.

317
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:42,989
So you're a rapist who can't connect with women?

318
00:26:43,616 --> 00:26:48,823
No. I used to be a rapist that can't connect with women.

319
00:26:49,836 --> 00:26:52,121
You've never been like me.

320
00:26:52,121 --> 00:26:56,592
You've never been like me. You know when you said about the
homeless woman that you raped with a bottle, do you know what I felt?

321
00:26:56,592 --> 00:26:57,355
What?

322
00:26:57,355 --> 00:27:05,436
Excited. Fucking excited. That's the kind of shit I think about
all the time and I mean all the fucking time.

323
00:27:05,436 --> 00:27:10,153
There's lots of people out there like me are there? I don't fucking think so.

324
00:27:10,153 --> 00:27:12,549
You don't know shit Carl.

325
00:27:12,549 --> 00:27:17,604
If you knew what was happening to me you'd
encourage me to kill myself, I am a fucking monster.

326
00:27:20,064 --> 00:27:26,011
You're right John, I don't know what's going on in your head,
so why don't you tell me?

327
00:27:27,893 --> 00:27:36,443
Bored, perverted, psychotic, neurotic, schizophrenic, addictive,
angry, lonely, I am all of these things and more.

328
00:27:36,443 --> 00:27:41,354
Which would be fine if I could enjoy being in any of these states, but I can't.

329
00:27:41,354 --> 00:27:48,947
I would much rather be one of those serial killers you read about,
at least they seem to get a fucking kick out of the things they think.

330
00:27:50,587 --> 00:28:02,899
But I'm not so lucky. I'd just rather be dead, so fuck you and your
bullshit stories, you can't help me. Your little word games aren't gonna work.

331
00:28:03,912 --> 00:28:08,670
I'm afraid you've made a mistake, this is one person you can't help.

332
00:28:12,771 --> 00:28:16,697
Everything I've told you, you've asked me to tell you.

333
00:28:16,697 --> 00:28:24,246
I said I've done some terrible things and you asked me
what kind of things so I told you about the homeless woman.

334
00:28:26,369 --> 00:28:35,480
I said I've had moments and you asked me what kind of moments
so I very kindly told you about Julia.

335
00:28:36,879 --> 00:28:42,423
Now you seem to think that I'm purposely lying to you
and trying to hide things from you.

336
00:28:43,484 --> 00:28:47,279
I said that I met a woman and that we fell in love.

337
00:28:48,533 --> 00:28:55,768
I then said that we got bored of each other and we split up.
It's not an unusual story. Every other person you meet will tell you the same one.

338
00:28:55,768 --> 00:29:00,428
Yet you chose not to believe me, which is fine.

339
00:29:00,428 --> 00:29:07,717
Now, it's up to you if you want to believe everything that I'm saying to you,
but I can assure you I'm not playing any games.

340
00:29:07,717 --> 00:29:16,283
If you don't want to hear anything about my life, that's absolutely fine
but if that is the case then don't ask me about my life.

341
00:29:16,283 --> 00:29:23,718
I'm more than happy to hear stories about your life.
In fact, that's the reason that I'm here in the first place.

342
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:28,935
♪♪ Operatic music plays ♪♪

343
00:29:30,238 --> 00:29:34,370
Hi. I'm Writer/Director Patrick McConnell.

344
00:29:34,370 --> 00:29:38,437
You're probably wondering what the fuck is going on.

345
00:29:38,437 --> 00:29:45,731
In fact one of the first things people said to me
when they read the script was "what the fuck is this?"

346
00:29:45,731 --> 00:29:50,314
Here's Oscar-winning actor Casey Affleck to explain.

347
00:29:50,314 --> 00:29:53,757
♪♪ Classical Music Builds ♪♪

348
00:30:50,877 --> 00:30:53,354
* Music ends abruptly *

349
00:32:05,566 --> 00:32:11,663
♪♪ classical music comes back again ♪♪

350
00:32:30,000 --> 00:32:34,717
♪♪ Music peters out ♪♪

351
00:32:35,778 --> 00:32:42,887
Maybe your stories are true. They just seem strange
you know, coming from you.

352
00:32:44,286 --> 00:32:50,773
I thought you were trying to manipulate me or something.
You know, with the thing about the bottle and all and...

353
00:32:50,773 --> 00:32:57,761
I thought you were just trying to say it as a way to
make me think we're the same. I dunno, I just...

354
00:32:59,546 --> 00:33:08,628
I find it hard to believe that someone who looks and sounds
like you has ever been that fucked up. You seem too normal.

355
00:33:08,628 --> 00:33:11,985
You think I'm normal?

356
00:33:12,805 --> 00:33:14,709
Kind of.

357
00:33:15,674 --> 00:33:21,451
You know it's not normal for a therapist to tell his patients
that he's raped a homeless woman with a wine bottle.

358
00:33:22,512 --> 00:33:25,360
No, I don't suppose it is.

359
00:33:25,360 --> 00:33:26,749
No.

360
00:33:28,100 --> 00:33:32,817
I'm sorry I had to go at you,
I just want you to realise I'm in quite a state.

361
00:33:36,918 --> 00:33:40,929
I think I got angry at the Julia story.

362
00:33:42,666 --> 00:33:54,425
I got jealous. You see, I couldn't have that connection you two had.
I've never had it with anyone. I'm incapable of it.

363
00:33:55,872 --> 00:34:05,530
That's something you can do and I can't and
no matter how fucked up you've been you've still had that.

364
00:34:08,811 --> 00:34:09,719
I was jealous.

365
00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:11,862
It's understandable.

366
00:34:11,862 --> 00:34:13,862
Sorry.

367
00:34:13,862 --> 00:34:20,969
It's all right, there's no need to apologise.
If you want to say something, just say it.

368
00:34:26,469 --> 00:34:31,734
Am I right in thinking that you believe it's all right
to say and do as you please?

369
00:34:32,458 --> 00:34:33,606
No.

370
00:34:34,667 --> 00:34:38,071
Would you mind telling me the name of your mathematics teacher?

371
00:34:38,071 --> 00:34:40,025
Mr. Furrington.

372
00:34:40,025 --> 00:34:41,806
Mr. Furrington?

373
00:34:41,806 --> 00:34:43,043
Yes.

374
00:34:43,043 --> 00:34:45,472
Is that difficult to pronounce?

375
00:34:45,472 --> 00:34:47,472
No.

376
00:34:47,472 --> 00:34:55,556
In which case I can only presume that what you called him
today was a purposeful insult. What did you call him today?

377
00:34:56,666 --> 00:34:57,613
I don't know.

378
00:34:57,613 --> 00:35:02,392
I suggest you tell me or I am going to double your lashes.

379
00:35:02,392 --> 00:35:07,102
We are up to six already, would you like me to make it 12?

380
00:35:07,102 --> 00:35:13,360
What did you, purposefully today, on several occasions call Mr. Furrington?

381
00:35:14,710 --> 00:35:17,115
Mr. Fucking Bum.

382
00:35:21,457 --> 00:35:24,820
The trouble is, Carl, that you lack character.

383
00:35:26,170 --> 00:35:32,557
You think it's funny to swear in front of your teachers
and you're proud of yourself when the other boys laugh.

384
00:35:33,811 --> 00:35:40,622
But they are only laughing at you.
They are laughing because they know better than to do it themselves.

385
00:35:40,622 --> 00:35:49,080
They are encouraging the weak to misbehave for their own amusement.
They want to see you get into trouble.

386
00:35:50,865 --> 00:35:56,456
And what reward do they give you?
Nothing but their pathetic giggles.

387
00:35:58,386 --> 00:36:01,817
And that is all the reward that this pathetic boy needs.

388
00:36:04,374 --> 00:36:10,975
Your brother Michael has always been at the top of his class.
He has always excelled, do you know why?

389
00:36:10,975 --> 00:36:17,712
Because he does not allow himself to be manipulated
by those with less character than himself.

390
00:36:19,594 --> 00:36:21,757
You need more strength of character.

391
00:36:23,542 --> 00:36:29,788
However, I will do you a favour.
I will give you an exercise in strength of character.

392
00:36:31,332 --> 00:36:37,974
I will give you the chance to have just the three
original lashes I offered you before you lied to me.

393
00:36:40,242 --> 00:36:46,267
If you do not flinch when I raise the ruler,
then three lashes is all you will get.

394
00:36:46,267 --> 00:36:54,672
If you flinch I will double it back to six,
does that sound fair?

395
00:36:54,672 --> 00:36:56,639
Yes, Sir.

396
00:36:58,038 --> 00:37:01,844
Now keep your hands still and look me in the eye.

397
00:37:18,392 --> 00:37:25,659
You really are a pathetic boy. Michael never flinched.
Six it is.

398
00:37:29,681 --> 00:37:30,203
* slap *

399
00:37:32,664 --> 00:37:33,164
* slap *

400
00:37:36,493 --> 00:37:39,429
After Julia, did you fall in love again?

401
00:37:40,442 --> 00:37:46,419
No. She was the only one, but it was good while it lasted.

402
00:37:48,011 --> 00:37:50,382
I've forgotten what it's like to be happy.

403
00:37:52,553 --> 00:37:55,205
Have you had any other moments of happiness?

404
00:37:55,205 --> 00:37:56,393
Yeah.

405
00:37:56,393 --> 00:37:58,393
Like what?

406
00:38:00,468 --> 00:38:05,492
You haven't enjoyed listening to anything that I've told you
so why would you want to hear any more?

407
00:38:05,492 --> 00:38:08,716
I'm sorry Carl, I shouldn't have said you were talking bollocks.

408
00:38:08,716 --> 00:38:12,379
Don't worry. Like I said, I'm not easily offended.

409
00:38:13,585 --> 00:38:17,515
What was your brother like? You know, the one who died?

410
00:38:17,515 --> 00:38:22,069
I could tell you but for all you know it might just be bullshit

411
00:38:22,069 --> 00:38:23,105
I'm sorry.

412
00:38:23,105 --> 00:38:27,415
Don't be. You're right. It might be bullshit.

413
00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:31,090
* Rain and playful classical music *

414
00:38:31,090 --> 00:38:32,205
You sure?

415
00:38:32,205 --> 00:38:39,970
Just go into the first cubicle, there's a hole that goes into the second one. Just knock.

416
00:38:39,970 --> 00:38:44,079
If you get a knock back just put it in the hole.

417
00:38:44,079 --> 00:38:47,117
Just put it in the hole?

418
00:38:47,117 --> 00:38:50,866
Just put it in the hole and they'll suck it.

419
00:38:50,866 --> 00:38:56,281
You don't see them and when you've done just leave.

420
00:38:56,281 --> 00:38:59,395
What if they're a weirdo?

421
00:38:59,395 --> 00:39:06,246
Well of course they're weirdos, they're sucking men off through a toilet door.

422
00:39:06,246 --> 00:39:12,465
Look, I'm not telling you to do it. I'm just telling you how it's done.

423
00:39:15,746 --> 00:39:19,540
All right, okay, I'm gonna do it.

424
00:39:20,167 --> 00:39:21,726
Go on then.

425
00:39:26,203 --> 00:39:30,611
♪♪

426
00:40:20,268 --> 00:40:21,427
* knock knock *

427
00:40:37,734 --> 00:40:38,633
* slice *

428
00:40:39,308 --> 00:40:42,400
* spurt *

429
00:40:49,781 --> 00:40:50,320
Uh

430
00:40:53,987 --> 00:40:56,112
* splat *
Oh no

431
00:41:02,770 --> 00:41:03,821
I would've liked a brother.

432
00:41:05,317 --> 00:41:10,885
Oh I'm sorry, I mean, it must have been hard on you losing him.

433
00:41:13,056 --> 00:41:16,100
I think you need to tell me about him, about Mike.

434
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:26,938
I want to hear it and if you tell me, if you let me in,
then I'll have no choice than to to do the same for you.

435
00:41:28,289 --> 00:41:32,210
It can't hurt either of us to talk

436
00:41:34,621 --> 00:41:43,689
♪♪ Lyrical classical music builds ♪♪

437
00:41:45,523 --> 00:41:48,704
♪♪

438
00:41:49,186 --> 00:41:50,827
Hiya Michael.

439
00:41:53,280 --> 00:41:55,280
Yes Michael, my guy!

440
00:41:56,824 --> 00:41:59,075
Hiya Michael, see you later.

441
00:42:00,812 --> 00:42:03,405
What are you still doing here? Go on, you need to go to school.

442
00:42:03,405 --> 00:42:05,359
I wanna be in your school.

443
00:42:05,359 --> 00:42:11,556
You will next year. Enjoy primary school, it's great. Go on, clear off, or else you'll get in trouble again.

444
00:42:13,346 --> 00:42:19,958
♪♪

445
00:42:22,274 --> 00:42:29,392
Remember, if they haven't accepted you it's their loss.
You've done the work. You'll succeed no matter what.

446
00:42:43,383 --> 00:42:44,728
I got in!

447
00:42:50,400 --> 00:42:58,836
♪♪

448
00:43:10,849 --> 00:43:12,075
Who was that?

449
00:43:13,763 --> 00:43:17,006
He was a scout for Manchester United. They wanna give me a trial.

450
00:43:19,467 --> 00:43:21,410
Yo! Yo! Yo!

451
00:43:21,410 --> 00:43:23,402
I hear Mike's gonna play for Man United.

452
00:43:23,402 --> 00:43:23,944
Yeah

453
00:43:23,944 --> 00:43:25,359
That's pretty neat!

454
00:43:25,359 --> 00:43:28,050
Yeah, he's going to take me to all the games and introduce me to everyone.

455
00:43:28,050 --> 00:43:29,273
Shit, you're so lucky!

456
00:43:30,238 --> 00:43:33,348
♪♪

457
00:43:34,216 --> 00:43:39,282
You're going to have to put this nonsense behind you Michael.
You're going to Oxford and that is that.

458
00:43:40,633 --> 00:43:46,476
Football is for boys. It is a game. It's good fun, but it is a game nonetheless.

459
00:43:48,165 --> 00:43:53,253
You're a man now. You need a solid, stable career
and Oxford is a good foundation for that.

460
00:43:55,086 --> 00:43:56,229
I know.

461
00:43:57,918 --> 00:44:05,282
I'm proud of you. I'm pleased that they want you,
but football is only a viable career choice if you have no other choices.

462
00:44:08,997 --> 00:44:12,901
You're not from a council estate. You're better than that.

463
00:44:15,699 --> 00:44:16,546
I know.

464
00:44:17,463 --> 00:44:21,633
♪♪ Music gently comes to an end ♪♪

465
00:44:24,190 --> 00:44:26,802
So, your brother just gave it all up?

466
00:44:27,960 --> 00:44:28,973
Yeah.

467
00:44:29,697 --> 00:44:31,049
Didn't he wanna be a footballer?

468
00:44:32,207 --> 00:44:38,564
He wanted it all right. He'd had it pummeled into him
from a very early age that daddy was always right.

469
00:44:40,542 --> 00:44:47,643
Daddy made him good at football, daddy wanted him to go to Oxford.
Daddy was always right

470
00:44:49,766 --> 00:44:53,753
Daddy also used to take it out on mummy
when the boys used to misbehave as well.

471
00:44:53,753 --> 00:45:00,271
Rather than having our mother hurt,
he gave up his moment and took mine from me.

472
00:45:03,262 --> 00:45:08,781
It's okay. He would have got bored of the fame eventually
and the moment just would have passed.

473
00:45:08,781 --> 00:45:10,986
Did your brother regret his decision?

474
00:45:10,986 --> 00:45:16,268
Yeah of course he did. I think it's one of the reasons
why he was found hanging in his bedroom.

475
00:45:18,149 --> 00:45:19,281
He killed himself?

476
00:45:19,281 --> 00:45:21,082
Yeah.

477
00:45:24,218 --> 00:45:26,077
He didn't even leave a note.

478
00:45:28,634 --> 00:45:34,258
I think he made a lot of decisions that he regretted,
but in the end we're all gonna have a lot of regrets.

479
00:45:34,258 --> 00:45:41,282
Unless you've spent every moment getting exactly what you want
when you want it, then that's just the way it's gonna be.

480
00:45:42,488 --> 00:45:47,126
Because you think everyone lives most of their
lives bored and miserable?

481
00:45:48,236 --> 00:45:49,413
Yeah.

482
00:45:50,957 --> 00:45:53,045
And they only have moments of happiness?

483
00:45:53,045 --> 00:45:54,413
Yeah.

484
00:46:02,615 --> 00:46:04,475
Isn't it illegal to smoke in the workplace?

485
00:46:05,874 --> 00:46:10,563
Fuck the law. I do what I want.

486
00:46:12,155 --> 00:46:18,800
You should too, it's very liberating.
It makes the world a much better place.

487
00:46:23,974 --> 00:46:27,965
But most people don't suffer from constant
sickening dark thoughts.

488
00:46:29,316 --> 00:46:31,235
Back to your dark thoughts again.

489
00:46:33,117 --> 00:46:37,472
Trust me you're not alone.
Lots of other people have dark thoughts as well.

490
00:46:37,472 --> 00:46:40,781
But constantly though. Do people think them constantly?

491
00:46:41,601 --> 00:46:44,141
No. That's because people aren't bothered about them.

492
00:46:44,141 --> 00:46:46,167
What do you mean?

493
00:46:46,167 --> 00:46:48,903
Your dark thoughts bother you don't they?

494
00:46:49,964 --> 00:46:54,425
Yeah. If you have my thoughts they'd bother you as well.

495
00:46:55,535 --> 00:47:00,728
The things I think of, the things I think of doing, I am a sick man.

496
00:47:00,728 --> 00:47:06,728
I don't think so. The fact that your thoughts trouble you
mean that you're probably less disturbed than the rest of us.

497
00:47:06,728 --> 00:47:08,807
What do you mean by that?

498
00:47:08,807 --> 00:47:13,073
Your dark thoughts are sexual aren't they?

499
00:47:13,073 --> 00:47:14,292
And violent.

500
00:47:14,292 --> 00:47:15,434
I know.

501
00:47:15,434 --> 00:47:22,338
Sometimes they're just sad, lonely and afraid. I don't mind those thoughts.

502
00:47:22,338 --> 00:47:27,919
The sexual and violent ones don't make me want to cry,
they make me feel sick.

503
00:47:27,919 --> 00:47:31,618
They're the thoughts that tell me I should kill myself.

504
00:47:34,079 --> 00:47:41,190
Just to be unhappy would be bliss.
I am sick of feeling like a monster.

505
00:47:42,879 --> 00:47:46,756
Let's talk about porn.
Porn?

506
00:47:46,756 --> 00:47:49,288
Yes. You do wank don't you?

507
00:47:49,288 --> 00:47:52,505
Um...
Yes John you do, we all do.

508
00:47:52,505 --> 00:47:54,760
Yeah, I guess.

509
00:47:54,760 --> 00:48:00,638
But it's that hardcore nasty shit that turns you on.
Well it's...

510
00:48:00,638 --> 00:48:05,461
Same for all of us. Look at the porn sites that you see
on the internet.

511
00:48:05,461 --> 00:48:08,952
It's damaged people being damaged by damaged people.

512
00:48:08,952 --> 00:48:10,952
What?

513
00:48:10,952 --> 00:48:17,246
Think about the sites that you see on the internet.
It's not all beautiful girls in lingerie now is it?

514
00:48:17,246 --> 00:48:26,432
There are millions of sites out there and they all advertise
with the words 'bitch' or 'whore' or 'slut' or 'slag'.

515
00:48:26,432 --> 00:48:31,479
If you look hard enough they'll probably be a site out
there called "The Bitch Whore Slut Slags".

516
00:48:31,479 --> 00:48:37,403
None of these sites are about making love to beautiful women.

517
00:48:37,403 --> 00:48:42,044
They're not even about fucking them.
They're about pain.

518
00:48:42,044 --> 00:48:48,225
They're about damaging people, degrading them
and leaving them used and abused.

519
00:48:48,225 --> 00:48:56,601
And these sites relish that fact. They know what we want.
They advertise the fact that they exploit people.

520
00:48:58,193 --> 00:49:00,184
How is this supposed to help me?

521
00:49:26,840 --> 00:49:34,680
I'm trying to show you that no matter how sick or diseased
you think your mind is, your thoughts are no worse than anyone else's.

522
00:49:34,680 --> 00:49:38,663
Anyway, back to porn.

523
00:49:38,663 --> 00:49:44,861
Millions of men are logging onto sites to
see women being hurt and degraded.

524
00:49:44,861 --> 00:49:49,190
Every one of these sites has women being fucked
in the arse and why do we want to see that?

525
00:49:49,190 --> 00:49:52,437
Because we want to see the girl hurt.

526
00:49:52,437 --> 00:49:59,553
Any soft-headed small-dicked bastard who tells you
"it's the extra grip" thing, they're just talking shit.

527
00:49:59,553 --> 00:50:05,813
We know it's uncomfortable to have something shoved up
your arse and we want to see the girl uncomfortable.

528
00:50:05,813 --> 00:50:09,194
And all the men always have huge cocks.

529
00:50:11,510 --> 00:50:18,635
Is that for the lady's extra pleasure?
No. It's for the lady's extra discomfort.

530
00:50:18,635 --> 00:50:23,554
The larger the object shoved up an arse, the more painful it is.

531
00:50:23,554 --> 00:50:35,351
Fisting! Also popular wanking material. We want to see men sticking
their fists into women because that looks really fucking painful.

532
00:50:35,351 --> 00:50:42,714
We want to see women covered in spunk, in their faces,
on their lips and preferably in their eyes.

533
00:50:42,714 --> 00:50:48,344
We want them to be uncomfortable, to look a mess
and to be as degraded as possible.

534
00:50:48,344 --> 00:50:57,595
And that's why there are websites dedicated to women fucking animals.
Because let's face it, what's more degrading than fucking a pig?

535
00:50:57,595 --> 00:51:05,762
Oh let's have a wank over this poor girl.
A poor girl fucking a horse, even better!

536
00:51:05,762 --> 00:51:13,982
Not only is there the indignity of fucking an animal,
but an animal with a really big fucking dick.

537
00:51:13,982 --> 00:51:19,505
Degrading and painful. What a mixture.

538
00:51:20,373 --> 00:51:22,880
Not everyone gets turned on by this stuff.

539
00:51:22,880 --> 00:51:32,630
You don't know that, they might do. Men wank over porn.
That's not just a generalisation, that's a fact.

540
00:51:33,402 --> 00:51:35,680
But not always women fucking horses.

541
00:51:35,680 --> 00:51:41,801
No, but their thinking's the same.
You see it's all about damaged people.

542
00:51:42,525 --> 00:51:48,000
We know that the girls on these sites aren't
happy little bunnies living their sweet little lives.

543
00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:57,429
These girls are the used and the abused and we like it.
These are the girls who didn't get enough love when they were kids.

544
00:51:57,429 --> 00:52:01,738
The girls who turned to drink and drugs.

545
00:52:01,738 --> 00:52:07,157
The girls who want money and attention
and don't care how they get it.

546
00:52:07,157 --> 00:52:18,497
They're willing to fuck any old stranger and swallow any old fucker's spunk
and be referred to as cheap fucking sluts because that's what they think they are.

547
00:52:19,365 --> 00:52:26,780
We know it's no little girl's dream to be gang-banged on film
by strangers but that is part of the turn-on.

548
00:52:28,320 --> 00:52:31,687
These are the girls that didn't get their fairytale happy ending.

549
00:52:32,845 --> 00:52:38,698
There they are spread-eagled in front of us,
degrading themselves for just a little bit of cash.

550
00:52:40,965 --> 00:52:43,843
This is what we're wanking off over.

551
00:52:45,483 --> 00:52:48,968
We may not be watching a woman fuck a horse,
but we might as well be.

552
00:52:50,029 --> 00:52:54,841
♪♪ Playful music ♪♪

553
00:52:56,288 --> 00:52:57,897
It is you know, Trevor

554
00:53:00,309 --> 00:53:01,168
It can't be.

555
00:53:01,168 --> 00:53:04,698
It is, it's an arctic warbler.

556
00:53:04,698 --> 00:53:08,986
Well I never! An arctic warbler.

557
00:53:08,986 --> 00:53:12,578
Take a picture Carol, or people won't believe us.

558
00:53:13,880 --> 00:53:16,641
♪♪

559
00:53:20,163 --> 00:53:25,454
If you told me this morning I was going to see an arctic
warbler, I never would have believed you.

560
00:53:25,454 --> 00:53:27,798
It's very exciting.

561
00:53:27,798 --> 00:53:30,216
Indeed, it is!

562
00:53:30,216 --> 00:53:36,243
Oh dear, I'm afraid nature calls.
I was trying to hold it in.

563
00:53:36,243 --> 00:53:42,231
You're weeing with excitement!
Yes, maybe I am.

564
00:53:42,858 --> 00:53:48,573
♪♪

565
00:53:48,573 --> 00:53:57,904
♪♪ Music peters out ♪♪

566
00:53:58,820 --> 00:54:03,646
* Urinating sounds *

567
00:54:04,466 --> 00:54:05,926
* A creak *

568
00:54:07,422 --> 00:54:14,597
* Ominous background noise *

569
00:54:14,597 --> 00:54:16,597
* Urinating sounds *

570
00:54:20,843 --> 00:54:26,641
* A clash of noise *

571
00:54:26,641 --> 00:54:31,355
♪♪ Gentle music plays out ♪♪

572
00:54:31,355 --> 00:54:33,021
Maybe you're right.

573
00:54:33,021 --> 00:54:34,611
I am right.

574
00:54:34,611 --> 00:54:36,571
We're all damaged.

575
00:54:36,571 --> 00:54:42,430
We feel so worthless that we wank over
people that we feel are more desperate than us.

576
00:54:43,974 --> 00:54:52,673
The fact that those girls were willing to do that and didn't
even need to be forced it just makes it all the more tragic.

577
00:54:54,265 --> 00:54:56,786
We're worse than rapists if you think about it.

578
00:54:58,379 --> 00:55:05,804
You can't get turned on by somebody that you actually like.
Try as you might, you can't masturbate thinking about them.

579
00:55:05,804 --> 00:55:14,211
It has to be a girl that you think is just as damaged as you,
because she'll be willing to do anything.

580
00:55:14,211 --> 00:55:17,171
Even with a sad creature like you.

581
00:55:19,197 --> 00:55:24,243
Yeah. The child in us is dead
and all that's left is a damaged shell.

582
00:55:25,256 --> 00:55:33,142
So whether you're a Peeping-Tom, or a flasher,
or a self-harmer or an alcoholic,

583
00:55:33,142 --> 00:55:42,182
or a crack addict, or a paedophile, or a rapist,
or a serial killer, or just a plain old-fashioned wanker,

584
00:55:42,182 --> 00:55:52,099
there's one thing that we all have in common.
That sweet innocent little child is gone and what's left is a lot darker.

585
00:55:53,546 --> 00:55:58,685
It doesn't make me feel any better to think
that everyone is as fucked up as me.

586
00:55:58,685 --> 00:56:05,113
In fact, it makes me feel that my life is even more pointless.

587
00:56:05,113 --> 00:56:07,647
What's wrong with pointless?

588
00:56:07,647 --> 00:56:09,614
It's no fun.

589
00:56:10,675 --> 00:56:13,172
We don't all live in a continuous world of fun, John.

590
00:56:13,172 --> 00:56:15,915
But people have fun.

591
00:56:15,915 --> 00:56:17,816
What's stopping you from having fun?

592
00:56:17,816 --> 00:56:19,816
I'm stopping me from having fun.

593
00:56:22,470 --> 00:56:27,327
People have happiness because they have things they want
and there is nothing I want.

594
00:56:27,327 --> 00:56:32,849
I don't want a big job promotion, I don't even want a fucking job.

595
00:56:34,972 --> 00:56:39,144
I don't want a girl. I don't even like people.

596
00:56:40,688 --> 00:56:46,398
I drink, I take drugs and I think dark thoughts
because nothing else interests me.

597
00:56:47,749 --> 00:56:55,601
OK, maybe people spend most of their time bored and think
sick thoughts, but at least they're capable of feeling more.

598
00:56:57,627 --> 00:57:11,472
Some people spend their time trainspotting or birdwatching.
They could be happy out in the rain with a pair of binoculars and I can't
even be happy with a room full of naked girls and a bucket of cocaine.

599
00:57:16,297 --> 00:57:21,376
Maybe no one can recapture that feeling of childhood, but...

600
00:57:21,376 --> 00:57:25,975
I know they're having a better time than me.

601
00:57:29,207 --> 00:57:34,211
Yes, you're right, some people are a lot easier to please than others.

602
00:57:34,211 --> 00:57:46,323
Some people do actually have fun bird watching.
Others need to climb mountains, some need to throw themselves off mountains
and some need to smoke a shit load of crack.

603
00:57:46,323 --> 00:57:53,375
They've found ways of dealing with their miserable lives.
Unfortunately you just haven't found your way.

604
00:57:53,375 --> 00:57:58,039
I've told you, nothing interests me.

605
00:57:58,328 --> 00:58:00,729
♪♪ Heavy metal plays ♪♪

606
00:58:00,729 --> 00:58:02,880
* Sexual groaning *

607
00:58:05,727 --> 00:58:10,773
♪♪

608
00:58:19,680 --> 00:58:20,965
* Music Stops *

609
00:58:20,965 --> 00:58:23,595
(voice altered)
Hello perverts.

610
00:58:23,595 --> 00:58:25,181
Hello.

611
00:58:25,181 --> 00:58:32,069
(voice altered)
I'm about to ruin your party. You're all about to die.

612
00:58:43,600 --> 00:58:47,289
♪♪ Gentle music from Swan Lake plays ♪♪

613
00:58:52,789 --> 00:59:01,636
♪♪

614
00:59:10,082 --> 00:59:12,745
* Stab and screams *

615
00:59:12,745 --> 00:59:18,560
♪♪

616
00:59:18,560 --> 00:59:22,906
What games are we playing now boys? Sounds interesting.

617
00:59:22,906 --> 00:59:25,519
Ooh, yeah! Ooh, I like that.

618
00:59:25,519 --> 00:59:30,000
* Stab and screams in pain *

619
00:59:33,447 --> 00:59:41,025
♪♪

620
00:59:49,420 --> 00:59:57,440
♪♪

621
01:00:01,188 --> 01:00:04,000
* Stab and screams in pain *

622
01:00:14,527 --> 01:00:16,054
* Music ends *

623
01:00:16,536 --> 01:00:18,963
What about your dark thoughts?

624
01:00:18,963 --> 01:00:20,072
What about them?

625
01:00:20,072 --> 01:00:21,921
They interest you.

626
01:00:23,224 --> 01:00:24,097
What do you mean?

627
01:00:24,097 --> 01:00:27,258
Your dark thoughts interest you.

628
01:00:27,258 --> 01:00:35,967
You said that you drink and take drugs and think dark thoughts because
nothing else interests you, so that must mean that they do interest you.

629
01:00:35,967 --> 01:00:38,847
But I don't enjoy thinking them.

630
01:00:38,847 --> 01:00:47,984
I think you should stop trying to recapture your childhood feelings
and start learning to enjoy your new adult ones.

631
01:00:47,984 --> 01:00:50,806
I mean, that is kind of why you're here.

632
01:00:50,806 --> 01:00:52,979
How do you mean?

633
01:00:54,089 --> 01:00:56,089
Why are you here?

634
01:00:56,089 --> 01:00:58,308
Because I read your advert.

635
01:00:58,308 --> 01:01:03,874
OK and what was it about the advert that captured your attention?

636
01:01:05,659 --> 01:01:11,462
It described a lot of things that I've been feeling.
It said you'd be able to help me.

637
01:01:11,462 --> 01:01:13,403
How did you think I was gonna do that?

638
01:01:13,403 --> 01:01:15,644
Because it fucking said you'd be able to help me.

639
01:01:15,644 --> 01:01:19,126
The ad guaranteed you'd be able to help me, and that's why I'm here.

640
01:01:19,126 --> 01:01:23,370
That's right it did, but how did you think I was gonna manage that?

641
01:01:23,370 --> 01:01:28,330
Well I don't know. I thought maybe you'd talk to me
and try and persuade me not to kill myself.

642
01:01:28,330 --> 01:01:35,727
Why would I persuade you not to kill yourself
if all that you think you're gonna feel is nothing but misery?

643
01:01:35,727 --> 01:01:39,000
Maybe killing yourself would be a good idea.

644
01:01:39,000 --> 01:01:45,843
I dunno. Yeah, maybe it is, but what is your point?

645
01:01:45,843 --> 01:01:52,472
The point is I think you can have fun. I think you can feel more.

646
01:01:52,472 --> 01:01:58,677
And I think that deep down you feel that you can feel more
and that's why you haven't killed yourself.

647
01:01:58,677 --> 01:02:01,710
But how can I feel more?

648
01:02:01,710 --> 01:02:04,706
By enjoying the feelings that you have already.

649
01:02:04,706 --> 01:02:06,253
What are you saying?

650
01:02:06,253 --> 01:02:10,662
Your dark thoughts. You need to learn to enjoy them.

651
01:02:10,662 --> 01:02:15,968
Not everybody wants to become a parent,
not everybody wants to throw themselves off a mountain.

652
01:02:15,968 --> 01:02:24,087
Not everybody wants to shoot up heroin but some people do
and that's OK. That's their way of getting through this life

653
01:02:24,087 --> 01:02:27,839
and living out your dark thoughts could be yours.

654
01:02:27,839 --> 01:02:30,677
I don't wanna live them out.

655
01:02:30,677 --> 01:02:33,062
I think you do.

656
01:02:33,737 --> 01:02:37,737
* Ominous drone *

657
01:02:39,040 --> 01:02:41,117
* A door creaks *

658
01:02:52,937 --> 01:02:55,795
Shhh.

659
01:03:02,501 --> 01:03:04,886
* The sound of something being knocked over *

660
01:03:04,886 --> 01:03:06,430
♪♪ Ominous music builds ♪♪

661
01:03:06,430 --> 01:03:10,233
I really think you should check on Max.
It sounds like he's causing chaos back there.

662
01:03:10,233 --> 01:03:12,325
I've told you he's fine.

663
01:03:12,325 --> 01:03:13,953
He doesn't sound fine.

664
01:03:13,953 --> 01:03:16,213
Trust me, he is.

665
01:03:16,213 --> 01:03:19,199
Let me go and check on him, I'm good with dogs.

666
01:03:19,199 --> 01:03:26,707
Look, if you go and check on him then you're only going to overexcite him.
If you just leave him as he is he will eventually calm down.

667
01:03:26,707 --> 01:03:30,896
Honestly, leave it with me. I'm better with dogs than I am with people.
I'll settle him down.

668
01:03:30,896 --> 01:03:35,306
I fucking told you he's fine. Now sit the fuck down.

669
01:03:35,306 --> 01:03:38,611
I'm sorry Carl but I don't trust you.

670
01:03:38,611 --> 01:03:42,082
From the conversation we've had so far
you seem as fucked as me

671
01:03:42,082 --> 01:03:47,551
and I don't believe that you can look after anyone,
not even a dog, so I want to see if he's all right.

672
01:03:47,551 --> 01:03:50,536
I'm warning you John, you'd better sit the fuck down.

673
01:03:50,536 --> 01:03:52,090
Or you'll do what?

674
01:03:52,090 --> 01:03:56,208
Just. Sit. Down.

675
01:03:56,208 --> 01:04:00,386
I'm sorry Carl, but I'm gonna go and check on Max

676
01:04:00,386 --> 01:04:04,607
♪♪ Ominous classical music plays ♪♪

677
01:04:04,607 --> 01:04:07,186
* Thump and music cuts out *

678
01:04:11,094 --> 01:04:23,935
* Distorted drone builds and then dissipates*

679
01:04:24,755 --> 01:04:32,123
From now on, if you don't hold an ordinary adult
conversation I will shoot you in the head.

680
01:04:33,763 --> 01:04:40,268
Now, where was I? Oh yeah.

681
01:04:40,268 --> 01:04:47,268
Earlier you said that you couldn't have fun in a room full of
naked girls and with a bucket of cocaine.

682
01:04:47,268 --> 01:04:49,130
Why is that?

683
01:04:50,626 --> 01:04:52,855
What the hell is this Carl?

684
01:04:52,855 --> 01:04:55,787
I'm warning you, John.

685
01:04:55,787 --> 01:05:01,851
Continue the conversation and answer the question
or I will shoot you in the fucking head.

686
01:05:02,816 --> 01:05:10,583
Why could you not have fun in a room full of naked
girls and a bucket full of cocaine?

687
01:05:10,583 --> 01:05:21,847
Because... because I'd want to take my aggression out on the
girls and use the cocaine to block out my existence

688
01:05:21,847 --> 01:05:25,086
Yeah? What's wrong with that?

689
01:05:26,147 --> 01:05:27,667
It's sick.

690
01:05:28,535 --> 01:05:31,116
I know it is, but so what?

691
01:05:31,116 --> 01:05:34,835
Are you suggesting I go and kick the shit out of some girls?

692
01:05:34,835 --> 01:05:37,562
Yes, if you want to.

693
01:05:38,720 --> 01:05:43,622
You can't continue to be bored just because your interests are morbid.

694
01:05:43,622 --> 01:05:49,958
You can't stop having fun just because you need a little
bit extra stimulation compared to other people.

695
01:05:50,489 --> 01:06:07,093
* creaking noises *

696
01:06:07,093 --> 01:06:09,575
Are you alright Midget?

697
01:06:09,575 --> 01:06:13,601
Get out. Get out. This has nothing to do with you.

698
01:06:17,075 --> 01:06:20,021
You can't just go around doing anything you want.

699
01:06:20,021 --> 01:06:21,173
Why not?

700
01:06:21,173 --> 01:06:25,146
I've got morals and there's laws against it.

701
01:06:25,146 --> 01:06:27,828
Fuck morals, and fuck the law.

702
01:06:27,828 --> 01:06:33,095
You can't just do things at the expense of other people.

703
01:06:33,095 --> 01:06:36,736
What makes your life more important than theirs?

704
01:06:37,653 --> 01:06:43,390
Nothing. The only person you've got a moral obligation
towards is yourself.

705
01:06:43,390 --> 01:06:52,792
I'm really sorry if it affects anybody but it's just unlucky. In the
same way that it's unlucky that you were born the way that you were.

706
01:06:53,323 --> 01:06:55,357
Are you suggesting that

707
01:06:55,357 --> 01:07:01,593
I should attack and abuse people if the idea just pops in my head?

708
01:07:01,593 --> 01:07:03,247
Yes.

709
01:07:04,743 --> 01:07:07,972
Are you condoning rapists and murderers?

710
01:07:09,323 --> 01:07:15,952
Look, I don't know what you're doing here Carl but
you're starting to freak me out.

711
01:07:17,496 --> 01:07:22,930
Thank you for your time and all, but i'm just gonna go.

712
01:07:22,930 --> 01:07:29,916
OK. Nobody's holding you here, but before you go
I just want to show you something.

713
01:07:29,916 --> 01:07:31,490
What?

714
01:07:32,358 --> 01:07:38,166
Well actually it's a gift.
You'll accept a present from me won't you?

715
01:07:38,166 --> 01:07:40,382
Yeah I suppose.

716
01:07:40,382 --> 01:07:48,381
OK good. I'll just go and get it. Won't be a moment.

717
01:08:16,074 --> 01:08:17,288
* A clang of music *
Here we are!

718
01:08:17,288 --> 01:08:20,438
I brought this for you.

719
01:08:20,438 --> 01:08:23,637
You can't take it with you though, you're gonna have to use it here.

720
01:08:23,637 --> 01:08:25,269
What are you doing with her?

721
01:08:25,269 --> 01:08:27,925
She's my present to you.

722
01:08:27,925 --> 01:08:36,041
I don't want her Carl.
Thanks but I'm just gonna go.

723
01:08:36,041 --> 01:08:41,524
You're free to leave but the moment that you exit
I'm gonna put a bullet in her brain.

724
01:08:41,524 --> 01:08:42,493
What?

725
01:08:42,493 --> 01:08:45,742
The moment that you leave I'm gonna shoot her in the head.

726
01:08:45,742 --> 01:08:47,527
Why are you gonna shoot her, Carl?

727
01:08:47,527 --> 01:08:51,363
Oh I would have thought that was obvious.
If I let her go she's gonna go to the police.

728
01:08:51,363 --> 01:08:52,810
What have you done to her?

729
01:08:52,810 --> 01:08:59,931
Nothing. Well, nothing except knocking her out,
kidnapping her, binding and gagging her.

730
01:08:59,931 --> 01:09:01,706
*cries*

731
01:09:01,706 --> 01:09:05,640
* jolly whistling *

732
01:09:09,790 --> 01:09:11,469
I love it out here.

733
01:09:13,351 --> 01:09:19,217
You know, some people think that I'm a boring guy.
A 'goodie two shoes' if you like.

734
01:09:19,217 --> 01:09:25,675
I don't drink, I don't smoke and I generally
don't have any vices.

735
01:09:25,675 --> 01:09:31,452
I like to feel healthy, to feel good about myself, you know?
I'm lucky, I like myself.

736
01:09:31,452 --> 01:09:36,940
I think that most people that don't take care of
themselves don't actually like themselves very much.

737
01:09:40,655 --> 01:09:43,737
Anyway, this is the spot where I buried the first child.

738
01:09:47,452 --> 01:09:53,702
I don't do anything weird to 'em... I just...
I like to see them still.

739
01:09:53,702 --> 01:09:57,077
♪♪ Classical music plays ♪♪

740
01:09:57,077 --> 01:09:58,349
Who is she?

741
01:09:58,349 --> 01:09:59,200
I dunno

742
01:09:59,200 --> 01:10:00,000
You don't know?

743
01:10:00,000 --> 01:10:00,800
No.

744
01:10:00,800 --> 01:10:02,573
Where did you get her from?

745
01:10:02,573 --> 01:10:06,308
It's just some random passer by that I saw on the street
that I grabbed and I brought in.

746
01:10:06,308 --> 01:10:07,287
Why?

747
01:10:07,287 --> 01:10:09,639
Like I said, she's a present for you.

748
01:10:09,639 --> 01:10:11,373
Carl, this is...

749
01:10:11,373 --> 01:10:12,859
This is what?

750
01:10:12,859 --> 01:10:14,485
Really fucking weird.

751
01:10:14,485 --> 01:10:18,467
I don't know what you think you're doing here
but this is wrong.

752
01:10:18,467 --> 01:10:22,574
Wait, this isn't some sort of joke is it?

753
01:10:22,574 --> 01:10:25,380
It's not going to be funny,
but it is meant to be helpful.

754
01:10:25,380 --> 01:10:26,654
Helpful?

755
01:10:26,654 --> 01:10:27,886
Yes.

756
01:10:27,886 --> 01:10:34,787
You spend all your time miserable, board and on the verge of suicide
because you have no outlet for your passions.

757
01:10:34,787 --> 01:10:40,639
You desperately want moments, but you don't know how to get them,
because you're scared of what you are.

758
01:10:40,639 --> 01:10:49,126
You spend your time trying to recapture a childlike sense of wonder
instead of enjoying your naturally morbid adult imagination.

759
01:10:49,126 --> 01:10:53,815
I want you to stop being scared. I want you to enjoy who you are.

760
01:10:53,815 --> 01:10:59,960
I don't want to hurt anyone Carl.
I think you've made a mistake, I'm fine as I am.

761
01:10:59,960 --> 01:11:03,043
Oh shut the fuck up and don't patronise me.

762
01:11:03,043 --> 01:11:11,786
You've already told me that you want to hurt women.
And how can you be fine if you're suicidal? Fucking idiot.

763
01:11:11,786 --> 01:11:19,376
"Do me a favour Carl, will you please kill me?
Boo hoo hoo, I keep having all these dark thoughts"

764
01:11:19,376 --> 01:11:22,154
Fucking pathetic bastard.

765
01:11:22,154 --> 01:11:28,424
If you want to talk to me then don't fucking lie to me again.

766
01:11:28,424 --> 01:11:33,421
If you lie to me, I'm going to shoot
this fucking bitch in the head right now.

767
01:11:33,421 --> 01:11:40,168
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Look, I'm not fine
but I just don't want to see her get hurt.

768
01:11:40,168 --> 01:11:47,494
OK good. Now I believe you, now we're getting somewhere.

769
01:11:47,494 --> 01:11:50,527
What do you want from me?

770
01:11:50,527 --> 01:11:57,866
I don't want anything from you. You're the one who asked me for help,
and that's what I'm gonna do, I'm gonna help you.

771
01:11:57,866 --> 01:12:03,834
I've been helping people for a long time now
so why don't you just fucking let me help you?

772
01:12:03,834 --> 01:12:08,068
Christ knows none of this is for me, this is all for you.

773
01:12:08,068 --> 01:12:11,933
You wanted my help, now you're just spitting it back in my face.

774
01:12:11,933 --> 01:12:18,096
You're just like my fucking brother. Too busy whinging
and not busy enough getting the most out of his shitty life.

775
01:12:18,096 --> 01:12:23,513
Even although he was brave enough to put a rope around his neck
he was still too chicken shit to take what he wanted

776
01:12:23,513 --> 01:12:31,553
and why? Because he didn't want people saying anything behind his back
and he didn't want our mother getting hurt.

777
01:12:31,553 --> 01:12:34,397
What a fucking pussy.

778
01:12:34,397 --> 01:12:40,937
And now here you are, exactly the same.
Whinging about how shit life is.

779
01:12:40,937 --> 01:12:45,745
And how you wish you were dead
instead of taking your share of the excitement.

780
01:12:45,745 --> 01:12:56,088
What a pair of pathetic bastards. Not scared of hurting yourself,
not scared of death, but scared of hurting anybody else instead.

781
01:12:56,088 --> 01:13:01,046
You want this, you want that,
but you don't want it happening to others.

782
01:13:01,046 --> 01:13:07,318
Oh diddums. Poor little Johnny doesn't want to hurt anybody.

783
01:13:07,318 --> 01:13:10,695
Poor little Johnny would rather take his own life.

784
01:13:10,695 --> 01:13:14,959
Little Johnny would rather slit his own little wrists.

785
01:13:14,959 --> 01:13:21,388
Let me tell you something.
Little Johnny is a pathetic little cunt.

786
01:13:21,388 --> 01:13:27,384
Sometimes I wonder what I do it for.
Honestly I do.

787
01:13:27,384 --> 01:13:30,920
Can I say something to you Carl?

788
01:13:30,920 --> 01:13:35,717
Yes of course you can.

789
01:13:35,717 --> 01:13:38,526
And you promise not to shoot her?

790
01:13:38,526 --> 01:13:41,642
As long as you don't lie to me.

791
01:13:41,642 --> 01:13:47,000
I think you need help as well.
This isn't a normal thing to do.

792
01:13:47,000 --> 01:13:49,668
Fuck normal. What the fuck is normal anyway?

793
01:13:49,668 --> 01:13:53,004
Well it isn't kidnapping a woman and holding a
gun to her head now is it?

794
01:13:53,004 --> 01:13:56,309
But it is for some people. Me for example.

795
01:13:56,309 --> 01:14:01,323
Bird watching isn't normal for you, but it is for some people.

796
01:14:01,323 --> 01:14:12,486
I don't get bird watching either. Nothing on this planet seems more dull
and boring. If you ask me you've got to be a bit fucking strange to do that.

797
01:14:12,486 --> 01:14:16,199
But it works for some people and who are we to argue?

798
01:14:16,199 --> 01:14:26,226
Jumping out of a plane, taking a shitload of drugs - these activities probably
seem more understandably stimulating to you, like they do to me.

799
01:14:26,226 --> 01:14:31,888
Yet you're one of the people who still needs more than
even those activities, and so am I.

800
01:14:31,888 --> 01:14:42,064
It may not be normal, but what is fucking normal?
Not you, not me, not anybody.

801
01:14:42,064 --> 01:14:47,699
But those other activities don't harm anyone else.
This woman has done nothing to you.

802
01:15:25,041 --> 01:15:26,787
* pop *

803
01:15:38,077 --> 01:15:44,638
♪♪ Classical music plays ♪♪

804
01:15:50,737 --> 01:15:52,956
I think you're missing the point here John.

805
01:15:52,956 --> 01:15:54,171
Which is?

806
01:15:54,171 --> 01:15:56,936
None of this is for me, this is all for you.

807
01:15:56,936 --> 01:15:57,719
What?

808
01:15:57,719 --> 01:16:01,394
I didn't kidnap this woman for myself,
I kidnapped her for you.

809
01:16:01,394 --> 01:16:08,608
I'm merely helping out a fellow man, I'm doing him a favour.
You don't need to feel bad about it though because you didn't ask me to do it.

810
01:16:08,608 --> 01:16:11,257
So here she is, guilt-free for your use.

811
01:16:11,257 --> 01:16:16,839
I don't want her Carl.
Look, we could let her go. Persuade her not to go to the police.

812
01:16:16,839 --> 01:16:22,768
Thanks for trying to help me and all but this isn't going to work out for me.

813
01:16:22,768 --> 01:16:28,764
Shut the fuck up John. Obviously I'm not going to let her go.
And as for you not wanting her that's fucking bullshit.

814
01:16:28,764 --> 01:16:34,406
You're going to act out your darkest thoughts whether you like it or not.

815
01:16:34,406 --> 01:16:40,628
Have you or have you not ever fantasised about having a woman
bound and gagged at your disposal?

816
01:16:40,628 --> 01:16:45,318
Don't lie to me John or I will shoot her in the fucking head.

817
01:16:45,318 --> 01:16:51,347
All right. All right, I have. But fantasising about it
and doing it are two different things.

818
01:16:51,347 --> 01:16:53,025
How are they?

819
01:16:53,025 --> 01:16:54,174
One's real and the other's not.

820
01:16:54,174 --> 01:16:56,262
Obviously, but apart from that?

821
01:16:56,262 --> 01:16:57,666
I don't get what you mean

822
01:16:57,666 --> 01:17:04,839
What is the difference between fantasising about something and doing it,
except for the fact that one's real and the other isn't?

823
01:17:04,839 --> 01:17:07,646
Nobody gets hurt in a fantasy.

824
01:17:07,646 --> 01:17:09,809
But you have to believe that they do.

825
01:17:09,809 --> 01:17:11,160
What?

826
01:17:11,160 --> 01:17:19,818
For a fantasy to work, you have to believe that it's actually real.
You don't get turned on by the concept of something,
you have to believe it's actually happening.

827
01:17:19,818 --> 01:17:27,523
When using a sex phone line, the people using the line
need to know that the woman on the other end is who she says she is

828
01:17:27,523 --> 01:17:30,000
and is doing what she says she's doing.

829
01:17:30,000 --> 01:17:34,843
If you don't believe that your fantasy is happening
then you don't get turned on by it.

830
01:17:34,843 --> 01:17:36,962
♪♪ Playful classical music ♪♪

831
01:17:36,962 --> 01:17:40,400
Yeah. I'm only 18, yeah.

832
01:17:40,400 --> 01:17:47,383
Barely legal mate, yeah, you're gonna pop me cherry that's right.

833
01:17:47,383 --> 01:17:55,109
Yeah. Ooh it's right tight. Like a gnat's arse. Yeah.

834
01:17:55,109 --> 01:17:59,137
Ooh fuck me that hurts.

835
01:17:59,137 --> 01:18:07,125
Oh you're the daddy oh, you're so big, oh.

836
01:18:07,125 --> 01:18:13,885
And I'm just a little school girl with a right tight chuff.

837
01:18:13,885 --> 01:18:16,977
Oh, you're the daddy, yeah.

838
01:18:16,977 --> 01:18:24,187
Am I what? Black? Yeah I'm black.

839
01:18:24,187 --> 01:18:32,366
Is that you done yeah? Oh, oh you're welcome shug.
Speak to you soon duck. Ta-ra. Ta-ra.

840
01:18:35,309 --> 01:18:36,665
What is your point?

841
01:18:36,665 --> 01:18:42,751
When you fantasise about having a woman bound and
gagged at your disposal, then you believe it's real.

842
01:18:42,751 --> 01:18:45,201
No. No, I know it's a fantasy.

843
01:18:45,201 --> 01:18:52,429
No you don't. I'm telling you that for any fantasy to work
You need to believe, even for a split second, that it's real.

844
01:18:52,429 --> 01:19:00,433
You don't go around believing that every fantasy you've ever had is a real
event that's actually happened, but you do need to believe that at the time.

845
01:19:00,433 --> 01:19:03,672
Maybe, but I still don't get what your point is.

846
01:19:03,672 --> 01:19:06,639
My point is you want to fuck this woman over.

847
01:19:06,639 --> 01:19:13,558
You've fantasised about it, you've got your kicks out of believing
that you have done it, which means that you do want to do it.

848
01:19:13,558 --> 01:19:18,327
So just fucking do it. She's here for you to use, so fucking use her.

849
01:19:18,327 --> 01:19:25,106
Fuck her. Sodomise her. Kick her. Punch her.
Stop being so fucking namby pamby.

850
01:19:25,106 --> 01:19:31,701
Everybody's doing the things that they enjoy doing because
this miserable life is so boring they have to.

851
01:19:31,701 --> 01:19:37,576
So shut the fuck up, follow your heart and rape this
bitch before I kill the pair of you.

852
01:19:37,576 --> 01:19:39,103
I don't want to.

853
01:19:39,103 --> 01:19:39,835
Yes you do.

854
01:19:39,835 --> 01:19:41,261
Honestly Carl, I don't.

855
01:19:41,261 --> 01:19:43,098
You'd better not say that again.

856
01:19:43,098 --> 01:19:43,835
Why?

857
01:19:43,835 --> 01:19:46,282
Or else I'm going to start putting fucking bullets in her head.

858
01:19:46,282 --> 01:19:48,000
What do you want me to say?

859
01:19:48,000 --> 01:19:51,305
I want you to tell us the fucking truth, John.
Tell me the truth.

860
01:19:51,305 --> 01:19:52,196
What's that?

861
01:19:52,196 --> 01:19:54,648
That you want to do sick shit to this woman.

862
01:19:54,648 --> 01:19:58,082
All right, all right, I want to do sick shit to this woman.

863
01:19:58,082 --> 01:20:01,864
That's better.
Now tell me what kind of sick shit you want to do to this woman.

864
01:20:01,864 --> 01:20:06,339
I don't know um, I can't think of anything at the moment.

865
01:20:06,339 --> 01:20:07,597
You do know, tell me.

866
01:20:07,597 --> 01:20:10,826
I don't know, err I... I want to rape her.

867
01:20:10,826 --> 01:20:12,043
You wanna rape her?

868
01:20:12,043 --> 01:20:12,626
Yeah.

869
01:20:12,626 --> 01:20:13,599
Is that it?

870
01:20:13,599 --> 01:20:14,719
Yeah.

871
01:20:14,719 --> 01:20:18,071
Of all the dark thoughts in your head,
all you want to do is just rape her?

872
01:20:18,071 --> 01:20:18,898
Yeah.

873
01:20:18,898 --> 01:20:21,710
I don't believe you. You're gonna have to
come up with something better than that John.

874
01:20:21,710 --> 01:20:24,681
I don't know, look, you're making me nervous
I can't think of anything.

875
01:20:24,681 --> 01:20:31,008
Stop being so soft John. You've got 10 seconds to tell me what sick
shit you want to do to this girl or I'm going to start shooting.

876
01:20:31,008 --> 01:20:33,510
All right I want to...
Yeah?
I want to...
Quickly!

877
01:20:33,510 --> 01:20:35,975
I want to fuck her in the arse whilst punching her in the back of the head.

878
01:20:35,975 --> 01:20:39,097
You wanna fuck her in the arse and punch her in the back of the head?
Yeah.

879
01:20:39,097 --> 01:20:42,208
Come on then, let's do it and
don't you fucking tell me you don't want to.

880
01:20:42,208 --> 01:20:43,764
But I don't have an erection.

881
01:20:43,764 --> 01:20:50,111
You'll get one. Come on.
I'm going to.
Fucking come on then.
* Screams *

882
01:20:50,111 --> 01:20:55,719
♪♪ Music builds ♪♪

883
01:20:55,719 --> 01:20:56,991
* Gun shot *

884
01:21:23,225 --> 01:21:28,440
Why did you do that? I was only trying to help.

885
01:21:56,440 --> 01:21:57,806
Are you alright?

886
01:21:58,240 --> 01:21:59,355
I think so.

887
01:21:59,355 --> 01:22:00,844
I'm sorry.

888
01:22:00,844 --> 01:22:02,438
What for?

889
01:22:02,438 --> 01:22:04,112
For all this.

890
01:22:05,076 --> 01:22:06,420
It's not your fault.

891
01:22:06,951 --> 01:22:09,085
I almost left you alone.

892
01:22:09,085 --> 01:22:10,780
What do you mean?

893
01:22:10,780 --> 01:22:17,557
When he first brought you out I said I didn't want you.
I almost left you alone with him.

894
01:22:18,184 --> 01:22:19,568
Doesn't matter.

895
01:22:21,401 --> 01:22:22,840
I would have gone to the police.

896
01:22:22,840 --> 01:22:24,347
I know

897
01:22:24,347 --> 01:22:26,990
I'm sorry.

898
01:22:26,990 --> 01:22:32,855
You've got nothing to be sorry for. You saved my life. Thank you.

899
01:22:33,356 --> 01:22:35,692
♪♪ Classical music gently plays ♪♪

900
01:22:36,232 --> 01:22:37,807
What should we do now?

901
01:22:39,061 --> 01:22:40,661
Don't know.

902
01:22:42,929 --> 01:22:44,457
Do you suppose I'll get in trouble?

903
01:22:44,457 --> 01:22:46,210
What for?

904
01:22:46,210 --> 01:22:48,084
Killing him.

905
01:22:49,916 --> 01:22:51,674
Is he definitely dead?

906
01:22:52,960 --> 01:22:54,841
I suppose I don't know.

907
01:22:56,723 --> 01:22:58,107
I'll check.

908
01:23:09,734 --> 01:23:13,367
Yeah. He's dead. There's no pulse.

909
01:23:13,367 --> 01:23:14,619
Are you sure?

910
01:23:14,619 --> 01:23:16,088
Yeah.

911
01:23:16,088 --> 01:23:24,430
Look, you had no choice. He had a gun to my head
and he was gonna make you... you know.

912
01:23:24,430 --> 01:23:25,827
I know.

913
01:23:27,950 --> 01:23:31,947
They could take me to court for manslaughter or something.

914
01:23:31,947 --> 01:23:33,862
Could they?

915
01:23:33,862 --> 01:23:36,210
I think so.

916
01:23:36,210 --> 01:23:39,825
I won't let them, you saved my life.

917
01:23:40,886 --> 01:23:42,226
I don't mind really.

918
01:23:42,226 --> 01:23:43,341
I mind.

919
01:23:43,341 --> 01:23:47,072
Why should that sick bastard cause you any more hassle?

920
01:23:47,072 --> 01:23:50,901
I'm sure I won't go to prison or anything.

921
01:23:50,901 --> 01:23:55,966
Nobody needs to know we were here.

922
01:23:58,620 --> 01:24:00,000
What?

923
01:24:01,013 --> 01:24:02,832
Do you have a motive for killing him?

924
01:24:03,797 --> 01:24:05,878
I didn't even know him before today.

925
01:24:07,277 --> 01:24:08,778
Perfect.

926
01:24:08,778 --> 01:24:10,231
What do you mean?

927
01:24:10,231 --> 01:24:13,141
Did anyone know you were coming today?

928
01:24:13,624 --> 01:24:15,434
Um... No.

929
01:24:16,398 --> 01:24:24,350
Right. So neither of us know this guy and there's
nothing to tie us here today so...

930
01:24:24,350 --> 01:24:27,052
we could just walk away and pretend it never happened.

931
01:24:29,368 --> 01:24:31,147
Do you think we should?

932
01:24:32,594 --> 01:24:36,678
Yeah... Yeah... Fuck him

933
01:24:36,678 --> 01:24:39,982
Why should we let him cause us any more hassle?

934
01:24:39,982 --> 01:24:44,682
I don't want police interviews and all that shit.

935
01:24:44,682 --> 01:24:47,489
I just want to go home and pretend this never happened.

936
01:24:47,489 --> 01:24:49,487
Yeah.

937
01:24:49,487 --> 01:24:50,511
Fuck him.

938
01:24:50,511 --> 01:24:52,361
Let's just leave him here.

939
01:24:52,361 --> 01:24:56,195
Yeah. I suppose we could.

940
01:24:56,195 --> 01:25:00,446
Yeah. Right that's settled then, that's what we'll do.

941
01:25:03,148 --> 01:25:04,600
Thanks John

942
01:25:06,047 --> 01:25:09,332
for saving me, I wish I could repay you.

943
01:25:10,344 --> 01:25:13,146
I was so scared, I honestly thought I was going to die.

944
01:25:13,146 --> 01:25:14,964
So was I.

945
01:25:16,797 --> 01:25:18,719
Can I ask you a question?

946
01:25:19,830 --> 01:25:21,440
Sure.

947
01:25:23,177 --> 01:25:24,784
Why were you here today?

948
01:25:24,784 --> 01:25:27,875
I was kind of here for therapy.

949
01:25:27,875 --> 01:25:31,638
I don't know, it seems stupid now.

950
01:25:31,638 --> 01:25:38,397
He had an ad in the local paper.
It mentioned a lot of things that I've been feeling.

951
01:25:38,397 --> 01:25:42,693
It said he could help. I was desperate.

952
01:25:42,693 --> 01:25:45,368
I wasn't thinking straight.

953
01:25:45,368 --> 01:25:54,625
But you know, in a way he showed me that I'm not a big bad
monster after all and there are real monsters out there.

954
01:25:54,625 --> 01:26:00,389
I just want to go back and live an ordinary decent life.

955
01:26:00,389 --> 01:26:06,100
Yeah. That sounds good to me.

956
01:26:07,692 --> 01:26:09,124
Thanks John.

957
01:26:09,124 --> 01:26:11,228
What for?

958
01:26:11,228 --> 01:26:13,735
Saving me.

959
01:26:13,735 --> 01:26:18,132
Not at all. I just hope he didn't hurt you.

960
01:26:19,965 --> 01:26:22,326
He would have done if, it wasn't for you.

961
01:26:23,870 --> 01:26:28,815
Right. I just need to get my bag, um.
He put it in his drawer.

962
01:26:28,815 --> 01:26:34,269
♪♪ Gentle classical music continues ♪♪

963
01:26:39,046 --> 01:26:42,215
Right. Let's go.

964
01:26:45,000 --> 01:26:52,037
♪♪ Music slowly fades ♪♪

965
01:26:52,037 --> 01:26:53,362
* A door creaks shut *

966
01:26:53,362 --> 01:26:55,313
* Gasps for air *

967
01:26:55,313 --> 01:26:57,844
♪♪ Playful classical music ♪♪

968
01:27:03,730 --> 01:27:05,031
Fuck me.

969
01:27:05,031 --> 01:27:10,800
Christ Almighty, I thought those bastards would never leave.

970
01:27:11,766 --> 01:27:17,516
Note to self: make sure I fall down in a comfy position

971
01:27:17,516 --> 01:27:23,507
because some bastards like a right good natter
after they've shot somebody.

972
01:27:36,485 --> 01:27:38,389
Breathe it out.

973
01:27:43,938 --> 01:27:45,000
Relax

974
01:27:55,132 --> 01:27:57,147
and back into it.

975
01:27:59,366 --> 01:28:01,590
Stop swearing.

976
01:28:02,073 --> 01:28:04,739
Fucking hell, stop swearing.

977
01:28:05,270 --> 01:28:11,280
And... back to being Steven.

978
01:28:11,955 --> 01:28:15,000
♪♪

979
01:28:15,000 --> 01:28:19,721
* Door creaks *
Hello Steven.

980
01:28:19,721 --> 01:28:21,679
Hello you.

981
01:28:24,912 --> 01:28:28,130
So. How do you think that went?

982
01:28:30,000 --> 01:28:33,516
Yeah, I think it went all right. What do you think?

983
01:28:33,516 --> 01:28:36,288
Yeah...yeah I think I got what I wanted out of it.

984
01:28:37,784 --> 01:28:43,879
Good. I mean, I found it absolutely fascinating.

985
01:28:43,879 --> 01:28:47,555
I mean, I suppose it's a bit like aversion therapy.

986
01:28:47,555 --> 01:28:49,322
Not really.

987
01:28:49,322 --> 01:28:51,962
So, Carl was your brother?

988
01:28:51,962 --> 01:28:53,219
Yeah.

989
01:28:53,219 --> 01:28:56,228
Yeah? OK.

990
01:28:56,228 --> 01:28:59,271
Were Carl's stories real?

991
01:28:59,271 --> 01:29:08,419
Yeah. Well, except for raping the homeless woman and the thing
with Julia, the relationship, that could never have happened
because Carl died in childhood

992
01:29:08,419 --> 01:29:10,650
not long after Michael killed himself, actually.

993
01:29:10,650 --> 01:29:13,600
Oh. OK, I'm sorry.

994
01:29:13,600 --> 01:29:15,098
Don't be.

995
01:29:15,098 --> 01:29:19,089
I mean, at least your brother's stories were useful.

996
01:29:19,089 --> 01:29:25,499
Obviously you're the expert,
but I really think John let go some of his demons there.

997
01:29:25,499 --> 01:29:30,460
I mean that's... that's what I thought when he...
when he left.

998
01:29:30,460 --> 01:29:36,392
Well yeah he did say that,
but he's still a man isn't he? And he can't change that.

999
01:29:36,392 --> 01:29:42,373
*Creaking floorboards and ominous drone *

1000
01:29:48,210 --> 01:29:50,862
What have you been doing Midget?

1001
01:29:50,862 --> 01:29:54,128
You saw what he did. Why didn't you help me?

1002
01:29:55,189 --> 01:29:57,325
* stab *

1003
01:30:04,996 --> 01:30:09,177
♪♪ Playful music comes back in ♪♪

1004
01:30:12,554 --> 01:30:17,174
Well, I'm not sure what you're trying to get out of it anyway,
but I'm sure you know what you're doing.

1005
01:30:18,380 --> 01:30:21,083
Yeah. I know what I'm doing.

1006
01:30:21,083 --> 01:30:23,629
Uh but what did you think of my performance?

1007
01:30:23,629 --> 01:30:27,230
Yeah. I expected no less.

1008
01:30:27,230 --> 01:30:29,657
Good.

1009
01:30:29,657 --> 01:30:31,603
Well...

1010
01:30:31,603 --> 01:30:34,498
I'm glad you liked it, um...

1011
01:30:34,498 --> 01:30:39,712
Look, I'm gonna go. I'll email you my invoice, um...

1012
01:30:39,712 --> 01:30:43,415
Do you know when I might get paid?

1013
01:30:43,415 --> 01:30:45,207
You won't.

1014
01:30:45,207 --> 01:30:46,517
What?

1015
01:30:46,517 --> 01:30:48,490
You won't get paid.

1016
01:30:48,490 --> 01:30:51,467
Why not?

1017
01:30:51,467 --> 01:30:53,117
Because you'll be dead.

1018
01:30:53,117 --> 01:30:54,485
What?

1019
01:30:54,485 --> 01:31:00,994
Mmm... actually, I'm surprised you're still conscious,
you really should have collapsed by now.

1020
01:31:00,994 --> 01:31:02,715
What do you mean?

1021
01:31:02,715 --> 01:31:09,460
Well John went bang on cue out in the corridor, so I was actually
expecting you to be unconscious when I came back in.

1022
01:31:09,460 --> 01:31:13,282
I'm not following.

1023
01:31:13,282 --> 01:31:21,126
Well, see... normally the poison in the wine
would have taken effect by now

1024
01:31:21,126 --> 01:31:25,794
and you would be unconscious or dead like John is.

1025
01:31:27,193 --> 01:31:28,455
John's dead?

1026
01:31:28,455 --> 01:31:30,733
Yeah.

1027
01:31:31,553 --> 01:31:38,693
He started finding it hard to breathe, so I gave him a bottle of water.
He took a glug and he keeled right over.

1028
01:31:38,693 --> 01:31:47,567
I then put an empty jar of sleeping pills in his hand because the swig of
water he took was the equivalent to a month's supply of those pills.

1029
01:31:47,567 --> 01:31:49,887
They'll just assume he died of an overdose.

1030
01:31:49,887 --> 01:31:51,478
Suicide.

1031
01:31:51,478 --> 01:31:54,064
Which will make perfect sense once they've seen the tape.

1032
01:31:54,064 --> 01:31:58,268
Why?

1033
01:31:58,268 --> 01:32:00,302
Tape?

1034
01:32:00,302 --> 01:32:02,680
Yeah the tape.

1035
01:32:02,680 --> 01:32:07,815
The whole thing's been recorded. Look, there's the camera.

1036
01:32:09,889 --> 01:32:10,735
* thud *

1037
01:32:11,700 --> 01:32:17,537
♪♪

1038
01:32:19,520 --> 01:32:25,166
Once I've edited the tape, it will show John
shooting you and leaving with me.

1039
01:32:25,166 --> 01:32:31,540
Then the tape will run out, so they won't see you getting up

1040
01:32:31,540 --> 01:32:36,583
and they won't see me coming back in and shooting you.

1041
01:32:41,118 --> 01:32:42,876
The first bullet was a blank.

1042
01:32:42,876 --> 01:32:45,412
But the next one is real.

1043
01:32:45,412 --> 01:32:52,299
It's a shame, really, that I can't just have them both be real
and let the men shoot each other in the grapple but...

1044
01:32:52,299 --> 01:32:56,833
I can't trust men with real bullets can I?

1045
01:32:56,833 --> 01:32:59,909
Not when they've got the gun to my head, right?

1046
01:33:09,896 --> 01:33:11,947
I'm going to shoot you now

1047
01:33:11,947 --> 01:33:19,276
but it will speed up your death a bit and you're probably
in quite some discomfort aren't you? So the quicker the better.

1048
01:33:19,276 --> 01:33:21,858
♪♪ Dramatic classical music builds ♪♪

1049
01:33:21,858 --> 01:33:23,994
Why are you doing this?

1050
01:33:26,021 --> 01:33:28,407
I just don't like men.

1051
01:33:31,785 --> 01:33:32,719
* Gun Shot *

1052
01:33:39,457 --> 01:33:45,896
♪♪ Music continues to build, becoming operatic ♪♪

1053
01:33:58,102 --> 01:34:07,250
♪♪

1054
01:35:37,011 --> 01:35:42,567
* Music fades away and a mobile phone rings *

1055
01:35:45,702 --> 01:35:47,064
Hiya

1056
01:35:47,932 --> 01:35:52,356
I've got another man for you.
He joined the class a couple of weeks ago.

1057
01:35:54,527 --> 01:35:58,989
Oh absolutely, he takes it all very seriously, he said

1058
01:35:58,989 --> 01:36:03,257
"I'd love the opportunity to be fully immersed in a character"

1059
01:36:06,200 --> 01:36:08,614
Oh he'd do it all, he's an idiot.

1060
01:36:08,614 --> 01:36:10,460
He's a man.

1061
01:36:12,246 --> 01:36:15,000
No. No, I didn't let him fuck me up the...

1062
01:36:15,000 --> 01:36:17,868
♪♪ Jolly, classical music plays ♪♪