1 00:00:08,021 --> 00:00:10,229 [crickets chirping] 2 00:00:51,521 --> 00:00:53,437 [car approaching] 3 00:01:19,312 --> 00:01:21,104 [car stops] 4 00:01:24,354 --> 00:01:26,271 [Malcolm] ♪ I need a friend ♪ 5 00:01:28,062 --> 00:01:29,604 ♪ Troubled mind ♪ 6 00:01:32,354 --> 00:01:34,021 ♪ One thin dime ♪ 7 00:01:36,104 --> 00:01:37,687 ♪ I need a friend ♪ 8 00:01:40,437 --> 00:01:41,604 [sighs] 9 00:01:51,104 --> 00:01:52,062 [sighs] 10 00:01:53,396 --> 00:01:57,396 ["Down and Out in New York City" by James Brown playing loudly on speakers] 11 00:02:00,146 --> 00:02:01,437 [singing along] ♪ Hey, man ♪ 12 00:02:01,521 --> 00:02:05,646 ♪ I was born in New York City On a Monday ♪ 13 00:02:05,729 --> 00:02:07,146 [snapping fingers] 14 00:02:07,229 --> 00:02:11,146 ♪ It seems I was out shining shoes 'Bout two to noon ♪ 15 00:02:12,562 --> 00:02:15,479 ♪ All the fat cats in the bad hats… ♪ 16 00:02:15,562 --> 00:02:18,104 -♪ Doin' me a real big favor ♪ -You look good tonight, baby. 17 00:02:18,187 --> 00:02:19,354 [Marie] What? 18 00:02:19,437 --> 00:02:20,937 [singing along] ♪ In the bad hats ♪ 19 00:02:21,021 --> 00:02:23,396 ♪ Laying it on real good ♪ 20 00:02:23,479 --> 00:02:25,812 ♪ Here's a dime, boy… ♪ 21 00:02:25,896 --> 00:02:27,771 I said you look beautiful tonight. 22 00:02:28,562 --> 00:02:30,521 I can't hear you! 23 00:02:32,812 --> 00:02:35,146 [Malcolm] I said you look beautiful tonight, baby! 24 00:02:35,896 --> 00:02:38,062 -[Marie] Thank you. -♪ When the cold wind comes ♪ 25 00:02:38,146 --> 00:02:40,437 -♪ It live at New York City ♪ -[Malcolm] Baby! 26 00:02:41,521 --> 00:02:45,479 ♪ And the street's no place to be But there you are ♪ 27 00:02:47,062 --> 00:02:50,062 ♪ So you try hard, or you die hard ♪ 28 00:02:50,146 --> 00:02:52,896 ♪ No one really gives a good damn ♪ 29 00:02:52,979 --> 00:02:55,771 ♪ You try hard, and you die hard ♪ 30 00:02:55,854 --> 00:02:57,771 ♪ No one gives a damn ♪ 31 00:02:58,271 --> 00:03:02,812 ♪ Here's a dime, boy Give me a shine, boy ♪ 32 00:03:04,146 --> 00:03:07,979 ♪ Down and out in New York City ♪ 33 00:03:09,562 --> 00:03:13,104 ♪ Ain't no way to be But where can you go? ♪ 34 00:03:14,729 --> 00:03:18,979 ♪ When you're down and out In New York City ♪ 35 00:03:20,312 --> 00:03:23,646 ♪ I'm never, never Never gonna get that way again ♪ 36 00:03:24,146 --> 00:03:25,604 ♪ Ow! ♪ 37 00:03:26,604 --> 00:03:32,354 ♪ No, no, no No, no, not me ♪ 38 00:03:38,979 --> 00:03:41,187 [Malcolm singing along] ♪ When you need a friend ♪ 39 00:03:42,479 --> 00:03:44,187 ♪ Need to have a… ♪ 40 00:03:45,354 --> 00:03:47,229 ♪ When you want a friend ♪ 41 00:03:47,812 --> 00:03:48,687 [Malcolm] ♪ Ow! ♪ 42 00:03:48,771 --> 00:03:52,354 ♪ Gonna get myself together In the morning ♪ 43 00:03:53,646 --> 00:03:58,229 ♪ Gonna leave it all like one bad dream ♪ 44 00:03:59,062 --> 00:04:04,437 ♪ All the fat cats in the bad hats Doing me a real big favor ♪ 45 00:04:04,521 --> 00:04:06,437 ♪ Got the fat cats in the bad hats ♪ 46 00:04:06,521 --> 00:04:07,604 [Malcolm] Whoo! 47 00:04:07,687 --> 00:04:09,979 ♪ Laying it on real good ♪ 48 00:04:10,062 --> 00:04:11,729 ♪ Here's a dime, boy ♪ 49 00:04:11,812 --> 00:04:14,229 ♪ Give me a shine, boy… ♪ 50 00:04:14,312 --> 00:04:15,146 Whoo! 51 00:04:18,062 --> 00:04:20,604 I'm a little wavy. But life is good. 52 00:04:21,396 --> 00:04:24,062 -Because we fucking did it! -[Marie] Did what? 53 00:04:24,729 --> 00:04:26,687 I wrote and directed and premiered a movie 54 00:04:26,771 --> 00:04:29,604 that knocked the audience the fuck out tonight. 55 00:04:30,771 --> 00:04:32,021 Did you see that? 56 00:04:32,104 --> 00:04:33,771 -Did you see that audience? -[Marie] Hmm. 57 00:04:33,854 --> 00:04:35,437 -Baby, did you see that audience? -Mm-hmm. 58 00:04:35,521 --> 00:04:37,312 I said, did you see the audience? 59 00:04:37,396 --> 00:04:39,354 Man, I delivered a fucking knockout punch. 60 00:04:40,229 --> 00:04:42,229 The last eight minutes straight, they were sobbing 61 00:04:42,312 --> 00:04:46,521 and when the credits hit, it was like a fucking bomb. 62 00:04:47,062 --> 00:04:49,354 [imitates explosion] It's like a bomb went off. 63 00:04:51,104 --> 00:04:52,187 [Malcolm grunts] 64 00:04:52,271 --> 00:04:53,229 It feels good. 65 00:04:54,687 --> 00:04:58,187 [laughing] I cannot believe this is real. Baby, I can't believe this is real. 66 00:04:58,271 --> 00:05:01,687 Afterwards, I talked to six critics. Six or seven of 'em. 67 00:05:01,771 --> 00:05:03,187 They was all on a nigga. 68 00:05:03,854 --> 00:05:05,104 You feel me? 69 00:05:05,187 --> 00:05:08,896 The white guy from Variety loved it. The white guy from IndieWire loved it. 70 00:05:08,979 --> 00:05:11,562 The white woman from the LA Times, she really loved it. 71 00:05:11,646 --> 00:05:13,646 She kept saying that I'm the next Spike Lee, 72 00:05:13,729 --> 00:05:16,687 the next Barry Jenkins, the next John Singleton. 73 00:05:16,771 --> 00:05:19,271 I just looked at her, like, "What about William Wyler?" 74 00:05:19,354 --> 00:05:23,854 You could tell, for three whole seconds, she was like, "Was William Wyler Black?" 75 00:05:24,354 --> 00:05:25,979 [scoffs] Sh-yeah! 76 00:05:26,062 --> 00:05:30,979 [chuckles] And then she realized, "Oh… shit. That's racist too." 77 00:05:32,062 --> 00:05:35,187 She got flushed. Face red. That shit had me dying. 78 00:05:35,271 --> 00:05:36,687 Marie, that was hilarious. 79 00:05:38,021 --> 00:05:40,812 And she kept stumbling over her words, saying shit like, 80 00:05:40,896 --> 00:05:43,437 [imitating woman] "The movie was so emotional." 81 00:05:43,937 --> 00:05:47,812 "I-- Malcolm, I couldn't even think straight. Oh, my God, Malcolm." 82 00:05:47,896 --> 00:05:50,312 "Just, just, Malcolm. Malcolm." 83 00:05:50,396 --> 00:05:51,396 "Oh." 84 00:05:51,479 --> 00:05:52,521 [chuckles] 85 00:05:53,562 --> 00:05:55,937 Yeah, it was like a super white moment. 86 00:05:56,021 --> 00:05:57,562 What was interesting, though, 87 00:05:57,646 --> 00:06:01,437 was that you can tell that because I'm Black, as the director, 88 00:06:01,521 --> 00:06:04,646 and the woman is a Black lead, stars in the film, 89 00:06:04,729 --> 00:06:07,437 she's already trying to frame it through a political lens, 90 00:06:07,521 --> 00:06:11,146 when in reality, it's a film about a girl trying to get clean. 91 00:06:11,729 --> 00:06:14,937 Now, are there certain obstacles, because she's a Black woman? 92 00:06:15,021 --> 00:06:16,646 I mean, hell yeah. 93 00:06:16,729 --> 00:06:19,646 Right? That's reality, too, but it's not a film about race. 94 00:06:20,146 --> 00:06:24,562 No. It's about shame, it's about guilt, and how that shit is inescapable. 95 00:06:24,646 --> 00:06:27,896 And it annoys me that so many of these journalists 96 00:06:27,979 --> 00:06:30,729 can't help but to flex their college education. 97 00:06:30,812 --> 00:06:32,771 Malcolm, you have a college education. 98 00:06:33,562 --> 00:06:36,896 Yeah, but I'm not academic, baby. I'm not elitist about my shit. 99 00:06:36,979 --> 00:06:39,437 I'm not trying to make a film for the three people 100 00:06:39,521 --> 00:06:41,604 in my media studies class that I respect. 101 00:06:41,687 --> 00:06:43,771 -I am a filmmaker. -Hmm. 102 00:06:43,854 --> 00:06:44,854 -Right? -Mm-hmm. 103 00:06:44,937 --> 00:06:48,479 -Am I a filmmaker, baby? That's right. -Mm-hmm. 104 00:06:48,562 --> 00:06:51,729 And I'm going to be part of the larger conversation about filmmaking 105 00:06:51,812 --> 00:06:54,604 without always having some white-ass writer 106 00:06:54,687 --> 00:06:58,312 making it about race 'cause it's fucking convenient. 107 00:06:59,229 --> 00:07:01,479 You know, I could see-- I could see the reviews now. 108 00:07:01,562 --> 00:07:04,562 It goes something like this. This is how they be writin' and shit. 109 00:07:04,646 --> 00:07:08,479 [affectedly] "This film is an acute study of the horrors…" 110 00:07:08,562 --> 00:07:10,229 They like to use words like that. 111 00:07:10,312 --> 00:07:14,312 "…the horrors of systemic racism in this mental healthcare industry." 112 00:07:14,396 --> 00:07:15,312 [scoffs] 113 00:07:15,396 --> 00:07:17,021 Instead of it being a commercial film 114 00:07:17,104 --> 00:07:19,354 about a drug-addicted girl trying to get her shit together. 115 00:07:19,437 --> 00:07:23,354 I mean, these people, these fucking people are so pedantic. 116 00:07:23,437 --> 00:07:26,354 -[R&B song playing softly] -They are. I mean, we get it. 117 00:07:26,437 --> 00:07:28,812 You're smart. We get it. You're woke. We get it. 118 00:07:28,896 --> 00:07:32,187 Let us, us artists, have some fucking fun with the shit. 119 00:07:32,271 --> 00:07:33,604 Let us have fun with the art. 120 00:07:33,687 --> 00:07:36,312 Malcolm, you're writing the Angela Davis biopic right now. 121 00:07:37,396 --> 00:07:40,354 Yeah, but that's different. That's different. 122 00:07:40,437 --> 00:07:43,646 I'm choosing to make a film that's fundamentally political, 123 00:07:43,729 --> 00:07:46,146 but not everything I do is political because I'm Black. 124 00:07:46,229 --> 00:07:48,854 Yeah, I think Angela Davis would disagree with you. 125 00:07:48,937 --> 00:07:51,521 -[laughing] She-- She would, huh? -Mm-hmm. 126 00:07:51,604 --> 00:07:54,562 For real, though, like, if I decide to make… 127 00:07:54,646 --> 00:07:57,646 a fucking LEGO movie, it's not because I want to tell a story 128 00:07:57,729 --> 00:08:01,854 about how the building blocks of the American empire was slave labor. 129 00:08:01,937 --> 00:08:03,979 I may just wanna make a LEGO movie. 130 00:08:04,562 --> 00:08:07,854 -You don't wanna make a LEGO movie. -[chuckles] Yeah, that's true. 131 00:08:07,937 --> 00:08:11,104 But that LEGO movie was fire. That shit was heat! Right? 132 00:08:11,187 --> 00:08:13,729 And you've never gotten a good review in your life. 133 00:08:14,812 --> 00:08:17,396 -Damn, baby, that's… You right, though. -[both laugh] 134 00:08:17,479 --> 00:08:20,604 And you're complaining about reviews that haven't yet been written. 135 00:08:21,604 --> 00:08:22,604 Right again. 136 00:08:22,687 --> 00:08:25,646 So, stop. Makes you sound like an asshole. 137 00:08:25,729 --> 00:08:26,687 Yeah. 138 00:08:26,771 --> 00:08:28,604 But shit, you know what I'm saying, though. 139 00:08:28,687 --> 00:08:31,229 Yeah, but save it for another day. 140 00:08:32,271 --> 00:08:33,104 [Malcolm] Yeah. 141 00:08:33,187 --> 00:08:35,562 You're complaining about the white girl from LA Times 142 00:08:35,646 --> 00:08:37,604 'cause she gave you a bad review that one time. 143 00:08:37,687 --> 00:08:39,437 Aw, she didn't just give a bad review. 144 00:08:39,521 --> 00:08:41,687 She gave a dumb-ass review. There is a difference. 145 00:08:41,771 --> 00:08:42,979 Malcolm, you won. Okay? 146 00:08:43,062 --> 00:08:45,562 She's comparing you to Spike Lee and Barry Jenkins. 147 00:08:45,646 --> 00:08:47,771 But she's such a mediocre-ass writer. 148 00:08:47,854 --> 00:08:50,187 Fine, you're not the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins. 149 00:08:50,271 --> 00:08:52,896 -Doubt she knows who William Wyler is. -I don't know William Wyler. 150 00:08:52,979 --> 00:08:54,229 -Is it ready, babe? -Mm-hmm. 151 00:08:54,312 --> 00:08:55,562 Here comes the mac and cheese. 152 00:08:55,646 --> 00:08:57,812 -You don't know who William Wyler is? -No. 153 00:08:57,896 --> 00:09:00,187 Oh, man. He did The Best Years of Our Lives. 154 00:09:00,687 --> 00:09:02,604 Sh-- Shit was heat. Ben-Hur? 155 00:09:03,104 --> 00:09:05,146 He's one of the most versatile filmmakers of all time. 156 00:09:05,229 --> 00:09:06,479 I mean, Wuthering Heights. 157 00:09:06,562 --> 00:09:07,562 Heads-up. 158 00:09:08,187 --> 00:09:10,104 Roman Holiday. 159 00:09:10,979 --> 00:09:12,437 Yeah, some classics. 160 00:09:13,479 --> 00:09:15,812 It's different, though. You don't work in film. 161 00:09:18,229 --> 00:09:19,854 You're right, Malcolm, I don't. 162 00:09:19,937 --> 00:09:23,979 ["Selfish" by Little Simz playing] ♪ Guess I'm in denial ♪ 163 00:09:24,062 --> 00:09:25,896 ♪ Maybe I'm wrong, you're right ♪ 164 00:09:26,479 --> 00:09:28,312 ♪ Heard it all my life… ♪ 165 00:09:29,437 --> 00:09:30,729 Did you have fun tonight? 166 00:09:31,562 --> 00:09:33,562 -[Marie] It was nice. -[chuckles] 167 00:09:34,521 --> 00:09:35,354 "Nice." 168 00:09:36,771 --> 00:09:40,896 The entire night while I was talking to all those sweet, smiling, rich people who, 169 00:09:40,979 --> 00:09:44,646 a month ago, wouldn't give me the time of day, I just kept looking at you. 170 00:09:45,854 --> 00:09:49,979 And I think to myself, "God, you're the most gorgeous creature on planet Earth." 171 00:09:50,062 --> 00:09:51,896 [kisses] And the sexiest too. 172 00:09:51,979 --> 00:09:54,729 I mean, there's nobody sexier. Even Anthony said it. 173 00:09:55,979 --> 00:09:56,937 [Marie] Hmm. 174 00:09:57,521 --> 00:09:59,937 [kisses] I mean, not in a bad way. 175 00:10:00,604 --> 00:10:02,271 -[kisses] In a positive way. -Hmm. 176 00:10:02,354 --> 00:10:03,729 [jazz music playing] 177 00:10:03,812 --> 00:10:05,771 [Malcolm breathing heavily and kissing] 178 00:10:07,562 --> 00:10:08,854 When I'd see you… 179 00:10:10,021 --> 00:10:12,604 with your cranberry and soda… 180 00:10:14,104 --> 00:10:16,646 smiling, chopping it up… 181 00:10:17,771 --> 00:10:20,854 And I'd think, "God, how fucking lucky am I?" 182 00:10:23,354 --> 00:10:26,437 -I couldn't wait to get you home. -Aww, that's so sweet. 183 00:10:27,229 --> 00:10:30,104 Hold your cute little ass and kiss it. 184 00:10:31,187 --> 00:10:32,479 Tell you that I love you. 185 00:10:36,271 --> 00:10:37,312 I love you, Marie. 186 00:10:37,396 --> 00:10:40,812 -Do you want salted or unsalted butter? -[softly] I'll just have you. 187 00:10:40,896 --> 00:10:42,521 [kissing] 188 00:10:44,312 --> 00:10:45,312 What was that? 189 00:10:46,187 --> 00:10:47,521 -What? -That was a fake-ass smile. 190 00:10:47,604 --> 00:10:49,604 -No, it wasn't. -Swear to God, it was. 191 00:10:49,687 --> 00:10:51,396 [Marie] No, it wasn't. It was nothing. 192 00:10:51,979 --> 00:10:54,521 Bullshit, I can fucking read you. I know when nothing is something. 193 00:10:54,604 --> 00:10:56,521 Well, maybe you can't read me. 194 00:10:57,021 --> 00:10:57,979 No, I can read you. 195 00:10:59,312 --> 00:11:01,604 -I haven't eaten all night. -That's not what this is. 196 00:11:01,687 --> 00:11:03,812 It's 1:00 in the morning. Can we eat and go to sleep? 197 00:11:03,896 --> 00:11:06,104 Please, Marie. I really don't wanna fight tonight. 198 00:11:06,187 --> 00:11:10,771 Neither do I. That is why I'm making you mac and cheese. 199 00:11:12,021 --> 00:11:13,396 So you are angry. 200 00:11:13,479 --> 00:11:14,479 No. 201 00:11:15,146 --> 00:11:17,854 -Was it the thing that Anthony said? -No. 202 00:11:17,937 --> 00:11:19,812 -The joke about you being a model? -No. 203 00:11:19,896 --> 00:11:22,729 Wouldn't take it seriously. He's old and from a totally different era. 204 00:11:22,812 --> 00:11:23,979 I didn't take it personally. 205 00:11:24,812 --> 00:11:26,229 -Promise? -Promise. 206 00:11:27,104 --> 00:11:29,021 -Was it Taylor? -No. 207 00:11:29,562 --> 00:11:31,187 -You sure? -Yes. 208 00:11:31,271 --> 00:11:34,479 -I know you get weird around Taylor. -I do not get weird around Taylor. 209 00:11:34,562 --> 00:11:38,104 -You get meek. -"Meek"? Huh, really? 210 00:11:38,187 --> 00:11:41,396 -Well, you don't talk a lot. -Well, that's different from being meek. 211 00:11:41,479 --> 00:11:42,646 -I just mean-- -What? 212 00:11:42,729 --> 00:11:46,187 Meek implies that I'm shy or small. That she's the queen of fucking England. 213 00:11:46,271 --> 00:11:48,896 -I didn't mean it like that. I meant-- -What? 214 00:11:48,979 --> 00:11:49,979 What? 215 00:11:50,062 --> 00:11:52,187 -She's a movie star. -Hmm. 216 00:11:52,812 --> 00:11:55,896 -She's about to become a movie star. -Don't jinx her, Malcolm. 217 00:11:56,437 --> 00:11:58,896 I have nothing nice to say to Taylor, so I don't talk to Taylor. 218 00:11:58,979 --> 00:12:02,104 -It has nothing to do with being meek. -It's just… she notices. 219 00:12:03,854 --> 00:12:04,687 Really? 220 00:12:05,521 --> 00:12:07,604 -Really. -How do you know? 221 00:12:07,687 --> 00:12:09,229 -'Cause I just do. -Really? 222 00:12:09,312 --> 00:12:12,646 She sees how you are with other people. You're talkative. You're funny. 223 00:12:12,729 --> 00:12:14,354 What can I say? I'm personable. 224 00:12:14,437 --> 00:12:16,437 [chuckles] Right. Which is what makes her insecure. 225 00:12:16,521 --> 00:12:19,729 What does? Other fucking human beings with personalities? 226 00:12:19,812 --> 00:12:22,937 [chuckles] No. The fact that you're not yourself and she sees it. 227 00:12:23,521 --> 00:12:24,354 [blows] 228 00:12:24,854 --> 00:12:26,062 She'll survive. 229 00:12:29,021 --> 00:12:29,979 [Malcolm] Hmm. 230 00:12:31,562 --> 00:12:32,562 So why you angry? 231 00:12:32,646 --> 00:12:33,979 [jazz music becomes louder] 232 00:12:34,062 --> 00:12:35,646 Marie, you're angry. 233 00:12:35,729 --> 00:12:37,896 Marie, what you angry about? 234 00:12:37,979 --> 00:12:39,271 Marie. 235 00:12:39,354 --> 00:12:41,104 -Marie? -[dish clatters] 236 00:12:41,187 --> 00:12:42,354 Marie! 237 00:12:43,479 --> 00:12:44,312 Marie. 238 00:12:46,771 --> 00:12:47,896 Marie, talk to me. 239 00:13:02,021 --> 00:13:04,562 I promise you, it's not a good idea. Let's just talk tomorrow. 240 00:13:04,646 --> 00:13:06,979 -But you're upset with me. -It's not that big of a deal. 241 00:13:07,062 --> 00:13:08,687 I can't go to bed knowing you're angry. 242 00:13:08,771 --> 00:13:10,854 Malcolm, I promise you, 243 00:13:10,937 --> 00:13:13,479 nothing productive is going to be said tonight. 244 00:13:13,562 --> 00:13:16,021 -How do you know? -Because I know you. 245 00:13:16,104 --> 00:13:17,854 -What does that mean? -And I love you. 246 00:13:17,937 --> 00:13:18,979 What does that mean? 247 00:13:19,062 --> 00:13:22,354 It means you are literally incapable of de-escalating a situation 248 00:13:22,437 --> 00:13:25,146 unless it's work-related. Even then, it's 50-50. 249 00:13:25,229 --> 00:13:28,229 [blows raspberry] Why is it that anytime anything good happens, 250 00:13:28,312 --> 00:13:29,854 you have to find something, anything, 251 00:13:29,937 --> 00:13:33,104 the most minor fucking detail to harp on, to make ugly, 252 00:13:33,187 --> 00:13:36,479 to ensure that there's no reason to fucking celebrate. 253 00:13:36,562 --> 00:13:38,562 -Really? You wanna go there? -Yes. 254 00:13:38,646 --> 00:13:41,021 -Okay. -All right, then. What is it? 255 00:13:41,104 --> 00:13:44,021 -Your speech, Malcolm. -Oh, give me a break. 256 00:13:44,104 --> 00:13:45,312 You're outside of your mind. 257 00:13:45,396 --> 00:13:48,896 When I said you find the most minor detail to make it ugly, I meant it. 258 00:13:48,979 --> 00:13:52,979 [grunts] You forgot to thank me, Malcolm. It's not a minor detail. That's a big one. 259 00:13:53,062 --> 00:13:55,021 But I've thanked you a million times before. 260 00:13:55,104 --> 00:13:57,271 You know that I'm thankful. You know I'm appreciative. 261 00:13:57,354 --> 00:14:00,187 You know I made a mistake, so why turn it into something more? 262 00:14:00,271 --> 00:14:02,687 Because it is more. 263 00:14:02,771 --> 00:14:03,604 What? 264 00:14:03,687 --> 00:14:05,687 It's our entire fucking relationship in a nutshell. 265 00:14:05,771 --> 00:14:08,104 -Oh, you can't be serious. -I'm dead serious. 266 00:14:08,187 --> 00:14:09,812 -You're psychotic. -You're hyperbolic. 267 00:14:09,896 --> 00:14:11,187 I'm not. It's psychotic to think 268 00:14:11,271 --> 00:14:13,479 that forgetting to thank you is symbolic of anything 269 00:14:13,562 --> 00:14:16,146 other than me legitimately forgetting to fucking thank you. 270 00:14:16,229 --> 00:14:18,062 You thanked 112 fucking people tonight. 271 00:14:18,146 --> 00:14:21,312 You thanked your mother, your gaffer, your agents, your third grade teacher, 272 00:14:21,396 --> 00:14:24,187 the usher at the theater when you were 12 and saw whatever the fuck. 273 00:14:24,271 --> 00:14:26,062 -Didn't thank the usher. -You know what I mean. 274 00:14:26,146 --> 00:14:29,187 You don't have to be sarcastic, petty and obnoxious about the shit. 275 00:14:29,271 --> 00:14:30,854 I'm sorry. I forgot to thank you. 276 00:14:30,937 --> 00:14:32,771 I am genuinely sorry, 277 00:14:32,854 --> 00:14:36,521 which is why I apologized to you a thousand times during the movie. 278 00:14:36,604 --> 00:14:38,771 I felt so guilty, I couldn't concentrate on the movie. 279 00:14:38,854 --> 00:14:40,979 Huh. That's a shame. You've only seen it 7,000 times. 280 00:14:41,062 --> 00:14:44,187 Every time I'd lean over and said, "I'm sorry," you said it was fine. 281 00:14:44,271 --> 00:14:46,354 You squeezed my hand and said it was fine. 282 00:14:46,437 --> 00:14:48,937 You said, "I love you. Don't worry. It's fine." 283 00:14:52,146 --> 00:14:54,687 Well, Malcolm, I changed my mind. 284 00:14:56,854 --> 00:14:58,312 How can you just change your mind? 285 00:14:58,396 --> 00:15:00,562 Honestly, it's pretty fucking easy. 286 00:15:00,646 --> 00:15:02,562 That doesn't seem a little crazy to you? 287 00:15:03,729 --> 00:15:05,229 -Nope. -It doesn't? 288 00:15:05,312 --> 00:15:07,021 -Nope. -Why? 289 00:15:07,104 --> 00:15:09,687 Well, because when I was in the theater, it didn't matter. 290 00:15:09,771 --> 00:15:11,562 Wasn't that big of a deal. It was fine. 291 00:15:11,646 --> 00:15:13,896 Until the after-party, when every single person, 292 00:15:13,979 --> 00:15:17,437 from your mother to Taylor, kept coming up to me and going, 293 00:15:17,521 --> 00:15:20,396 "You know, I bet you're probably a little bit upset right now 294 00:15:20,479 --> 00:15:24,146 because he forgot to thank you, but you know how much he depends on you." 295 00:15:24,229 --> 00:15:25,687 [Malcolm] Taylor said that? 296 00:15:25,771 --> 00:15:29,021 -Yeah. She told me not to read into it. -What the hell does that mean? 297 00:15:29,104 --> 00:15:31,479 Funny you should say that. That's the exact thought I had. 298 00:15:31,562 --> 00:15:33,146 -I didn't cheat on you. -I didn't ask. 299 00:15:33,229 --> 00:15:34,229 -Just saying-- -Didn't ask. 300 00:15:34,312 --> 00:15:36,604 -Well, I'm just saying-- -I didn't ask. 301 00:15:36,687 --> 00:15:39,146 ["Yum Yum (Gimme Some)" by The Fatback Band playing] 302 00:15:39,229 --> 00:15:40,146 [pops lips] 303 00:15:41,687 --> 00:15:44,396 It's not just about you forgetting to thank me, Malcolm. 304 00:15:44,479 --> 00:15:45,646 It's about how you see me. 305 00:15:45,729 --> 00:15:48,937 And how you view my contribution, not just to this relationship, 306 00:15:49,021 --> 00:15:50,479 but to your work. 307 00:15:50,562 --> 00:15:53,812 Specifically in a movie you made about my life. 308 00:15:54,687 --> 00:15:56,771 ♪ My name is Yum Yum Gimme some ♪ 309 00:15:56,854 --> 00:15:59,062 ♪ My name is Yum Yum Gimme some ♪ 310 00:15:59,146 --> 00:16:01,146 ♪ My name is Yum Yum Gimme some ♪ 311 00:16:01,896 --> 00:16:04,729 -[door slams shut] -♪ And it better be good, better be good ♪ 312 00:16:04,812 --> 00:16:07,104 ♪ And it better be good Real good… ♪ 313 00:16:07,187 --> 00:16:08,937 [song slowly fades out] 314 00:16:11,229 --> 00:16:13,229 [crickets chirping] 315 00:16:45,687 --> 00:16:46,687 [sighs] 316 00:16:53,229 --> 00:16:54,146 [blows] 317 00:17:00,312 --> 00:17:01,687 [shouting] You know, Marie… 318 00:17:03,396 --> 00:17:04,979 you are genuinely… 319 00:17:05,771 --> 00:17:06,937 unstable. 320 00:17:13,312 --> 00:17:14,229 [grunts softly] 321 00:17:15,562 --> 00:17:16,771 I'm not kidding! 322 00:17:18,979 --> 00:17:19,854 Hmm. 323 00:17:20,979 --> 00:17:21,812 Mmm. 324 00:17:22,312 --> 00:17:25,937 I'm actually concerned for your mental well-being! 325 00:17:26,021 --> 00:17:28,021 -[fork scraping] -Hmm. [clears throat] 326 00:17:29,396 --> 00:17:30,229 Hmm. 327 00:17:30,312 --> 00:17:31,396 [chair scraping] 328 00:17:33,812 --> 00:17:35,812 Obviously, there are certain similarities. 329 00:17:36,729 --> 00:17:38,729 But Imani's not based on you. 330 00:17:38,812 --> 00:17:41,104 [spoon tapping on pot] 331 00:17:41,687 --> 00:17:43,437 You're fucking delusional! 332 00:17:47,646 --> 00:17:48,646 [sighs] 333 00:17:52,896 --> 00:17:56,104 In what fucking universe is Imani's character based on you? 334 00:17:56,687 --> 00:17:57,521 Really? 335 00:17:58,271 --> 00:18:01,521 Are you actually yelling and belittling me from across this house 336 00:18:01,604 --> 00:18:04,271 because you are too busy eating mac and cheese? 337 00:18:04,354 --> 00:18:06,021 -What? -[imitates Malcolm] "What?" 338 00:18:06,854 --> 00:18:08,437 -I'm not. -Don't fucking lie! 339 00:18:08,521 --> 00:18:10,687 -You literally just got seconds. -No, I didn't. 340 00:18:10,771 --> 00:18:12,146 Do you know how disturbing it is 341 00:18:12,229 --> 00:18:14,187 that you can compartmentalize to such a degree 342 00:18:14,271 --> 00:18:16,521 that you can abuse me while eating mac and cheese? 343 00:18:16,604 --> 00:18:18,646 -Abuse you? -Mac and cheese I fucking made you. 344 00:18:18,729 --> 00:18:20,396 -Abuse you? -Verbally abuse me. 345 00:18:20,479 --> 00:18:22,896 Thanks for the clarification. It's kind of an important one. 346 00:18:22,979 --> 00:18:24,812 But verbally abuse you? Get out of here. 347 00:18:24,896 --> 00:18:27,937 If you're gonna treat me like an insane person and call me crazy, 348 00:18:28,021 --> 00:18:31,729 the least you could do is do it without casually eating macaroni and cheese. 349 00:18:31,812 --> 00:18:33,187 How does that work for you? 350 00:18:33,271 --> 00:18:36,062 What does that sound like in your fucking brain? 351 00:18:36,146 --> 00:18:38,687 "What a cunt! Mmm. This macaroni and cheese is delicious." 352 00:18:38,771 --> 00:18:40,562 "What a cunt. I wonder if there's more." 353 00:18:40,646 --> 00:18:43,604 "What a cunt. If I could direct commercials for Kraft, I would." 354 00:18:43,687 --> 00:18:44,729 Say whatever you want. 355 00:18:44,812 --> 00:18:47,979 Get pissed off I didn't thank you, Anthony said that joke about you being a model, 356 00:18:48,062 --> 00:18:50,812 that Taylor said whatever the fuck Taylor said-- 357 00:18:50,896 --> 00:18:52,854 -It was mean. -Well, she's an actor. 358 00:18:52,937 --> 00:18:55,521 All night I had to watch you two smile and take pictures together. 359 00:18:55,604 --> 00:18:58,229 -She's the lead in my film! -I know. I don't care. 360 00:18:58,312 --> 00:18:59,979 It's my job to make her feel comfortable. 361 00:19:00,062 --> 00:19:01,812 -Not at my expense. -Actually, it is. 362 00:19:01,896 --> 00:19:03,937 Despite how you fucking feel about it, it is my job. 363 00:19:04,021 --> 00:19:06,021 -You'd never forget to thank her. -Jesus Christ! 364 00:19:06,104 --> 00:19:08,062 -You wouldn't. -'Cause she's psychotic. 365 00:19:08,146 --> 00:19:09,771 No, because she would flip the fuck out 366 00:19:09,854 --> 00:19:13,896 and spend the night making you pay for it so you'd never let that shit happen again. 367 00:19:13,979 --> 00:19:15,854 You're saying you're not nuts enough. 368 00:19:15,937 --> 00:19:18,354 No. What I'm saying is you spend your entire life 369 00:19:18,437 --> 00:19:22,187 catering to the feelings and the whims of literally everyone but me. 370 00:19:22,979 --> 00:19:26,479 Agents, producers, crew members, actors, 371 00:19:26,562 --> 00:19:29,646 fucking fictional characters get more respect 372 00:19:29,729 --> 00:19:31,521 and empathy from you than I do. 373 00:19:32,896 --> 00:19:36,354 And… [scoffs] That's what's so odd about this whole fucking situation, 374 00:19:36,437 --> 00:19:39,187 because I get it. Taylor is wonderful in the film. 375 00:19:39,271 --> 00:19:41,187 But when you get up there and you talk about 376 00:19:41,271 --> 00:19:43,646 her ability to breathe life into the character of Imani 377 00:19:43,729 --> 00:19:49,104 without ever mentioning that if I didn't live my life, she wouldn't exist, 378 00:19:49,187 --> 00:19:50,562 it's kind of fucking weird. 379 00:19:50,646 --> 00:19:52,104 Imani is not based on you. 380 00:19:52,187 --> 00:19:55,396 She's a 20-year-old drug addict trying to get clean. Just a fucking coincidence? 381 00:19:55,479 --> 00:19:57,896 Obviously, you getting clean was a part of the inspiration. 382 00:19:57,979 --> 00:19:59,021 -At 20? -Yes. 383 00:19:59,104 --> 00:20:01,021 And you provide genuine insight into that. 384 00:20:01,104 --> 00:20:03,396 What that was like. But Imani is not based on you. 385 00:20:03,479 --> 00:20:06,437 It's an amalgamation of different things, a bunch of things. 386 00:20:06,521 --> 00:20:07,521 Who? 387 00:20:09,729 --> 00:20:10,562 People! 388 00:20:10,646 --> 00:20:12,104 What people? 389 00:20:13,396 --> 00:20:15,271 A lot of different people. 390 00:20:15,979 --> 00:20:17,229 [Marie] Mmm. 391 00:20:17,312 --> 00:20:19,521 -Like my cousin. Rick, for one. -Okay. 392 00:20:19,604 --> 00:20:22,062 -A lot of different people and things. -Your cousin. 393 00:20:25,354 --> 00:20:27,854 -[sighs] -You know what, Malcolm? 394 00:20:29,979 --> 00:20:33,854 I feel like once you know someone is there for you and once you know they love you, 395 00:20:34,687 --> 00:20:36,687 you never actually think of them again. 396 00:20:37,937 --> 00:20:39,146 That's not true. 397 00:20:39,979 --> 00:20:42,854 It's not until you're about to lose someone that you pay attention. 398 00:20:43,937 --> 00:20:45,896 -Is that what this is? -What? 399 00:20:45,979 --> 00:20:47,812 Is what you're threatening… 400 00:20:47,896 --> 00:20:50,021 if I don't apologize, I'm going to lose you? 401 00:20:50,729 --> 00:20:52,271 I'm not looking for an apology. 402 00:20:52,354 --> 00:20:55,146 -What do you want? A screenplay credit? -Don't be cruel. 403 00:20:55,229 --> 00:20:57,646 I'm serious. I know we talk for hours about work. 404 00:20:57,729 --> 00:21:00,479 Is it so much of a nuisance that you'd like compensation? 405 00:21:00,562 --> 00:21:03,187 I had a draft of the script before you ever came into my life. 406 00:21:04,062 --> 00:21:06,312 It's not about credit. I don't want fucking credit. 407 00:21:06,396 --> 00:21:08,646 Well, what is it, Marie? What do you want? 408 00:21:11,312 --> 00:21:12,646 The film is beautiful. 409 00:21:13,979 --> 00:21:15,062 I'm proud of you. 410 00:21:15,146 --> 00:21:18,104 Took forever to make and it was tough, but I have one question. 411 00:21:18,187 --> 00:21:22,937 Do you think that the movie would be as good as it is if we weren't together? 412 00:21:28,562 --> 00:21:29,396 No. 413 00:21:33,396 --> 00:21:35,521 And that's all I wish you would have said. 414 00:21:44,062 --> 00:21:44,896 Great. 415 00:21:46,229 --> 00:21:47,896 Are we no longer fighting? 416 00:21:51,646 --> 00:21:52,646 That depends. 417 00:21:54,104 --> 00:21:55,104 On what? 418 00:21:55,187 --> 00:21:57,396 On whether you can manage to not say something hurtful 419 00:21:57,479 --> 00:21:58,687 for the rest of the night. 420 00:22:02,437 --> 00:22:03,812 I mean, I'm not that bad. 421 00:22:03,896 --> 00:22:04,937 [inhales sharply] 422 00:22:05,021 --> 00:22:06,896 Fuck you aren't. [sighs] 423 00:22:11,812 --> 00:22:12,812 Can I kiss you? 424 00:22:13,604 --> 00:22:14,604 No. 425 00:22:17,271 --> 00:22:20,146 -Are you sure? -Mm-hmm. 426 00:22:22,146 --> 00:22:23,187 [Malcolm sighs] 427 00:22:23,271 --> 00:22:26,146 But I really, really wanna kiss you. 428 00:22:28,396 --> 00:22:29,562 [softly] I don't care. 429 00:22:40,729 --> 00:22:42,312 Just don't take me for granted. 430 00:22:45,354 --> 00:22:46,354 I don't. 431 00:22:52,979 --> 00:22:53,979 You did. 432 00:22:56,562 --> 00:22:57,562 I'm sorry. 433 00:23:05,812 --> 00:23:06,812 You can kiss me now. 434 00:23:07,562 --> 00:23:09,021 -[softly] Yes! -[chuckles softly] 435 00:23:18,396 --> 00:23:20,729 I'm the only person who tells you you're being an asshole 436 00:23:20,812 --> 00:23:22,271 when you're being an asshole. 437 00:23:24,437 --> 00:23:25,437 [Malcolm] I know. 438 00:23:27,521 --> 00:23:28,896 And now… 439 00:23:29,896 --> 00:23:33,562 that you've made a movie that everybody loves… 440 00:23:34,979 --> 00:23:37,396 -the world's gonna be kissing your ass. -[chuckles] 441 00:23:37,896 --> 00:23:39,229 -You think so? -Mm-hmm. 442 00:23:40,146 --> 00:23:41,146 Yep. 443 00:23:41,812 --> 00:23:45,812 I heard that shit all night. "Oh, he's so sensitive." 444 00:23:45,896 --> 00:23:49,104 "He's so in tune to emotion. He's romantic." 445 00:23:49,187 --> 00:23:50,562 "I bet he's sweet, right?" 446 00:23:51,396 --> 00:23:54,937 -What did you say? -I said, "Well, I mean, yeah." 447 00:23:55,021 --> 00:23:57,687 "When he's not being an emotional fucking terrorist." 448 00:23:57,771 --> 00:23:59,146 [groans and laughs] 449 00:23:59,229 --> 00:24:00,896 [jazz music playing] 450 00:24:01,979 --> 00:24:03,271 Yes. 451 00:24:05,229 --> 00:24:06,187 -Yes. -No. 452 00:24:06,896 --> 00:24:08,146 -[Malcolm grunts] -Mmm. 453 00:24:10,021 --> 00:24:11,771 You think you're tough, skinny-bones Jones? 454 00:24:11,854 --> 00:24:12,937 I am tough. 455 00:24:13,021 --> 00:24:16,354 Nah, I'll eat your ass for breakfast. You light work. 456 00:24:30,187 --> 00:24:33,979 [Marie] You know, life is gonna get easier, but it's also gonna get harder. 457 00:24:36,104 --> 00:24:37,521 [Malcolm] What do you mean? 458 00:24:40,854 --> 00:24:42,771 Just don't believe the hype, Malcolm. 459 00:24:46,021 --> 00:24:46,854 [kisses] 460 00:24:46,937 --> 00:24:49,604 And don't push away the people who ground you. 461 00:24:52,354 --> 00:24:53,937 -Yeah. -Yeah. 462 00:25:00,437 --> 00:25:02,854 [Marie] You're gonna start making fake movies 463 00:25:02,937 --> 00:25:07,312 about fake people with fake emotions. 464 00:25:07,979 --> 00:25:09,437 [both chuckle] 465 00:25:10,312 --> 00:25:14,062 Then you'll start having dinner with the white girl from LA Times. 466 00:25:14,146 --> 00:25:15,687 [both laughing] 467 00:25:15,771 --> 00:25:18,312 -Yeah. Mm-hmm. -[Malcolm] No! Not the white girl. 468 00:25:18,396 --> 00:25:22,812 You'll be talking about this one-take and… and that one-take, 469 00:25:22,896 --> 00:25:23,979 and how the camera… 470 00:25:24,062 --> 00:25:26,479 -[laughing] -You know you do that, right? 471 00:25:26,562 --> 00:25:28,437 -[laughing] -Literally. 472 00:25:28,521 --> 00:25:33,854 Next thing you know, you'll be on your press tour for your new LEGO film. 473 00:25:33,937 --> 00:25:37,854 Talk about how it's an allegory for the failures of reconstruction. 474 00:25:37,937 --> 00:25:39,021 [Malcolm chuckles] 475 00:25:39,937 --> 00:25:42,062 [Marie] "Well, the original working title was… 476 00:25:42,146 --> 00:25:45,646 -Forty LEGOs And A Mule, but the…" -[both laughing] 477 00:25:45,729 --> 00:25:48,396 "The studio got a little, uh…" 478 00:25:48,479 --> 00:25:49,562 [chuckling] 479 00:25:49,646 --> 00:25:51,812 [Malcolm laughing] 480 00:25:51,896 --> 00:25:53,229 [Marie] Mm-hmm. 481 00:25:53,312 --> 00:25:55,521 Malcolm, you laugh, but I can see it. 482 00:25:55,604 --> 00:25:58,104 -I'm serious, I can see that shit. -[Malcolm laughs] 483 00:25:58,187 --> 00:26:01,479 [Marie] All your new Twitter friends will be quote-tweeting your ass, 484 00:26:01,562 --> 00:26:05,479 handclaps and shit, talkin' 'bout, "This is what change looks like." 485 00:26:05,562 --> 00:26:06,687 "Yes, king!" 486 00:26:06,771 --> 00:26:08,271 -[Malcolm] Oh, brutal. -Mm-hmm. 487 00:26:08,354 --> 00:26:09,937 But the rest of America will be like, 488 00:26:10,021 --> 00:26:13,521 "What the fuck is this Negro doing selling us some shit with these LEGOs?" 489 00:26:13,604 --> 00:26:15,437 "I'm not seein' that shit." 490 00:26:15,521 --> 00:26:17,562 [both laughing] 491 00:26:17,646 --> 00:26:20,146 Then there's gonna be boycotts, fucking protests 492 00:26:20,229 --> 00:26:21,896 because you're politicizing these LEGOs, 493 00:26:21,979 --> 00:26:26,562 but thankfully, you'll have your new white girlfriend from the LA Times. 494 00:26:26,646 --> 00:26:30,062 I mean, she's gonna come ridin' in with her SPF-50 brigade 495 00:26:30,146 --> 00:26:32,396 -on some real soccer mom shit… -[Malcolm laughing] 496 00:26:32,479 --> 00:26:34,854 …tweetin' at people left and right. 497 00:26:34,937 --> 00:26:37,562 "Well, this is literally censorship!" 498 00:26:37,646 --> 00:26:39,229 "Who is in charge here?" 499 00:26:39,312 --> 00:26:42,437 "It is our moral obligation to go and see this movie 500 00:26:42,521 --> 00:26:47,062 written and directed by a real Bla… I mean, person of color." 501 00:26:47,146 --> 00:26:48,979 "We are gonna make history, okay?" 502 00:26:49,062 --> 00:26:52,937 "We're going to make it the biggest box office ever." 503 00:26:53,021 --> 00:26:54,479 And the next thing you know, 504 00:26:54,562 --> 00:26:58,687 you will have made a toy company a billion dollars. 505 00:26:58,771 --> 00:27:01,312 -[laughs] Yes! -Yes! 506 00:27:01,396 --> 00:27:04,062 "Congratulations, Malcolm Elliot! You fucking did it!" 507 00:27:04,146 --> 00:27:05,562 [Marie imitates airhorn] 508 00:27:05,646 --> 00:27:08,437 "Here's a couple million dollars and a fuckin' fruit basket." 509 00:27:08,521 --> 00:27:10,687 "But just as a thought, have you ever considered 510 00:27:10,771 --> 00:27:13,479 doing the Angela Davis biopic, but with LEGOs?" 511 00:27:14,854 --> 00:27:16,354 [both laughing] 512 00:27:16,437 --> 00:27:19,396 [Malcolm] You know your white voice is crazy. 513 00:27:20,187 --> 00:27:22,146 -[Marie] You laugh, but… -That's funny. 514 00:27:23,396 --> 00:27:25,146 [Marie] You could change the world. 515 00:27:25,646 --> 00:27:28,021 [Malcolm] You should've never given up acting, baby. 516 00:27:28,104 --> 00:27:30,146 [Marie chuckles] Why, Malcolm? 517 00:27:30,229 --> 00:27:32,229 [Malcolm] I always believed if you found a character 518 00:27:32,312 --> 00:27:35,979 that actually allowed you to be yourself, you'd be astonishing. 519 00:27:38,729 --> 00:27:39,854 Well, Malcolm… 520 00:27:41,187 --> 00:27:43,771 unfortunately no one can really write me except you. 521 00:27:46,146 --> 00:27:48,562 [Malcolm] Hmm. Hmm. 522 00:27:51,521 --> 00:27:52,521 [Marie sighs] 523 00:27:54,854 --> 00:27:55,896 [Malcolm sighs] 524 00:28:14,354 --> 00:28:17,437 ["I Forgot To Be Your Lover" by William Bell playing] 525 00:28:27,771 --> 00:28:30,271 [Malcolm singing along] ♪ Have I told you ♪ 526 00:28:30,354 --> 00:28:33,437 ♪ Lately that I love you? ♪ 527 00:28:35,854 --> 00:28:39,979 ♪ Well, if I didn't, darling, I'm sorry ♪ 528 00:28:42,687 --> 00:28:47,229 ♪ Did I reach out And hold you in my loving arms ♪ 529 00:28:47,312 --> 00:28:48,979 ♪ In my loving arms ♪ 530 00:28:49,604 --> 00:28:52,396 ♪ Oh, when you needed me? ♪ 531 00:28:54,729 --> 00:28:58,146 ♪ Now I realize that you need love too ♪ 532 00:28:58,229 --> 00:29:02,187 ♪ And I'll spend my life Making love to you ♪ 533 00:29:04,146 --> 00:29:07,146 ♪ Oh, I forgot to be your lover ♪ 534 00:29:08,771 --> 00:29:12,604 ♪ And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry… ♪ 535 00:29:12,687 --> 00:29:13,604 Marie! 536 00:29:16,687 --> 00:29:18,479 -♪ Have I taken the time ♪ -Marie! 537 00:29:18,562 --> 00:29:20,271 ♪ To share with you ♪ 538 00:29:21,812 --> 00:29:25,937 ♪ All the burden that love will fare? ♪ 539 00:29:29,312 --> 00:29:31,354 ♪ And have I done the little ♪ 540 00:29:31,437 --> 00:29:32,271 Marie. 541 00:29:32,354 --> 00:29:35,062 ♪ Simple things to show you ♪ 542 00:29:37,229 --> 00:29:39,812 ♪ Just how much I care? ♪ 543 00:29:41,354 --> 00:29:42,187 Marie! 544 00:29:42,271 --> 00:29:45,979 ♪ I've been workin' for you Doin' all I can ♪ 545 00:29:46,896 --> 00:29:47,729 Marie! 546 00:29:47,812 --> 00:29:49,646 ♪ …didn't make me a man ♪ 547 00:29:52,854 --> 00:29:54,312 Marie, stop playin'. 548 00:29:56,937 --> 00:30:02,521 ♪ And I'm sorry I'll make it up to you somehow, baby ♪ 549 00:30:06,312 --> 00:30:07,187 Marie! 550 00:30:09,146 --> 00:30:09,979 Shit. 551 00:30:14,146 --> 00:30:15,021 Marie! 552 00:30:19,937 --> 00:30:23,479 ♪ Oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby ♪ 553 00:30:24,521 --> 00:30:26,062 [Malcolm] Marie, stop playin'. 554 00:30:27,187 --> 00:30:28,271 [crickets chirping] 555 00:30:31,562 --> 00:30:32,396 Marie! 556 00:30:38,771 --> 00:30:40,146 [door slides open] 557 00:30:41,021 --> 00:30:42,021 Marie! 558 00:30:45,062 --> 00:30:45,937 Marie! 559 00:30:47,562 --> 00:30:48,396 Shit. 560 00:30:55,604 --> 00:30:57,604 [crickets chirping] 561 00:30:58,521 --> 00:31:00,021 [leaves rustling] 562 00:31:12,271 --> 00:31:13,104 Marie. 563 00:31:17,937 --> 00:31:19,646 [wind chimes tinkling] 564 00:31:19,729 --> 00:31:21,229 [footsteps receding] 565 00:31:24,937 --> 00:31:26,687 [footsteps approaching] 566 00:31:29,312 --> 00:31:30,229 Marie! 567 00:31:43,479 --> 00:31:44,771 Oh, my God! 568 00:31:45,687 --> 00:31:46,687 [drawer slams shut] 569 00:31:47,812 --> 00:31:50,437 -Where the fuck did you go? -To pee. 570 00:31:50,521 --> 00:31:52,771 -To pee-- Where? -Outside. 571 00:31:53,729 --> 00:31:55,812 Why didn't you just use the bathroom? 572 00:31:55,896 --> 00:31:57,979 Because I didn't grow up with a backyard. 573 00:31:58,062 --> 00:32:00,146 -The novelty hasn't worn off yet. -Jesus! 574 00:32:04,354 --> 00:32:07,687 You know, you are the neediest man I have ever dated. 575 00:32:08,521 --> 00:32:13,521 But at the same time, you are also the least jealous man I have ever dated. 576 00:32:13,604 --> 00:32:17,146 I mean, I could literally be hanging on some random guy's arm 577 00:32:17,229 --> 00:32:19,229 and you would never think it's sexual. 578 00:32:19,312 --> 00:32:22,896 You'd just come up to me and be like, "Hey, babe. What the hell are you doing?" 579 00:32:22,979 --> 00:32:26,062 "I need your help. I can't remember anybody's name here. Let's go." 580 00:32:26,146 --> 00:32:28,937 -But whose arm are you hanging on? -That's it. Doesn't matter. 581 00:32:29,021 --> 00:32:30,812 -[Malcolm] Is this about tonight? -Mmm. 582 00:32:32,062 --> 00:32:32,896 Kinda. 583 00:32:36,896 --> 00:32:38,104 -"Kinda"? -Hmm. 584 00:32:38,187 --> 00:32:39,312 [Malcolm] Mm-hmm. 585 00:32:41,396 --> 00:32:43,687 I was outside smoking and you were in here 586 00:32:43,771 --> 00:32:47,979 apologizing in whatever emotionally obtuse way made sense to you. 587 00:32:48,062 --> 00:32:51,271 As if a song written 50 years ago about a different fucking girl 588 00:32:51,354 --> 00:32:54,604 would somehow make me feel better about our relationship. 589 00:32:54,687 --> 00:32:57,646 Some people would say lack of jealousy is a good thing. 590 00:32:57,729 --> 00:33:01,896 -Not when it borders on indifference. -What are you talkin' about, Marie? 591 00:33:03,229 --> 00:33:07,396 Malcolm, you can encourage me to have a life of my own, 592 00:33:07,479 --> 00:33:09,729 but that's just… That's bullshit. 593 00:33:09,812 --> 00:33:12,854 You don't want me to have a life that is separate from yours 594 00:33:12,937 --> 00:33:14,812 because you are too fucking needy. 595 00:33:14,896 --> 00:33:16,146 Thought we were done fighting. 596 00:33:16,229 --> 00:33:18,729 -Don't be sensitive. This isn't a fight. -Yeah, right. 597 00:33:18,812 --> 00:33:20,437 It's not. It's an observation. 598 00:33:21,354 --> 00:33:23,229 -Tsk. Oh, you don't wanna go there. -Why? 599 00:33:23,312 --> 00:33:24,771 -Trust me, you don't. -Why? 600 00:33:24,854 --> 00:33:26,604 Even if you do, you're not thinking clearly. 601 00:33:26,687 --> 00:33:29,479 -I think I'm thinking clearly. -Trust me, you're not. 602 00:33:29,562 --> 00:33:33,104 -I do have a slightly masochistic streak. -But you're not dumb. 603 00:33:33,187 --> 00:33:35,187 -Oh, my God. Thank you. -Don't be a fucking brat. 604 00:33:35,271 --> 00:33:37,979 Don't patronize me and tell me I gave up something 605 00:33:38,062 --> 00:33:40,896 when you know damn well your work is all that you have time for 606 00:33:40,979 --> 00:33:42,146 and all you care about. 607 00:33:42,229 --> 00:33:46,062 Oh, so you gave up a career in acting to be an emotional fucking support dog. 608 00:33:46,896 --> 00:33:48,521 -Fuck you, Malcolm! -I get it now. 609 00:33:48,604 --> 00:33:50,854 -Fuck you! -'Cause you're scared, you didn't want it. 610 00:33:50,937 --> 00:33:51,771 You never wanted it. 611 00:33:51,854 --> 00:33:54,312 -'Cause you're scared to try and fail. -You are ugly inside. 612 00:33:54,396 --> 00:33:55,312 No, fuck you! 613 00:33:55,896 --> 00:33:58,812 Marie, when I met you, you were a fucking pilled-out disaster. 614 00:33:58,896 --> 00:34:00,187 You were barely 20 years old. 615 00:34:00,271 --> 00:34:02,271 Couldn't hold a conversation without noddin' off, 616 00:34:02,354 --> 00:34:03,771 or passin' out, or breaking down. 617 00:34:03,854 --> 00:34:08,062 Don't act like for the last five years you became so enlightened that I fucking… 618 00:34:08,646 --> 00:34:10,104 forgot the old you. 619 00:34:10,854 --> 00:34:12,604 -Of course I want you to have a life. -[sighs] 620 00:34:12,687 --> 00:34:15,104 You know why? Because I'm terrified that if you don't, 621 00:34:15,187 --> 00:34:16,771 you're gonna hang everything on mine. 622 00:34:16,854 --> 00:34:19,646 And when, God forbid, I forget to thank you at a movie premiere, 623 00:34:19,729 --> 00:34:23,187 you come home, you start a fight, and by morning you're drinking on Xannies, 624 00:34:23,271 --> 00:34:26,854 trying to fuckin' cut your wrists with a pair of fucking nail scissors. 625 00:34:27,771 --> 00:34:30,271 [Malcolm muttering] Stupid motherf… 626 00:34:30,354 --> 00:34:31,979 Malcolm, I want you to leave this room. 627 00:34:32,062 --> 00:34:34,896 Oh, shut the fuck up, Marie. You know, I get it. I really do. 628 00:34:34,979 --> 00:34:37,562 You have pain and fucking disappointment and dreams 629 00:34:37,646 --> 00:34:39,521 like everybody else on planet Earth. 630 00:34:39,604 --> 00:34:41,937 You're mad you didn't get the jobs you wish you'd got. 631 00:34:42,021 --> 00:34:44,562 You're embarrassed you had to play "Skinny Girl In Alley" 632 00:34:44,646 --> 00:34:46,229 and "Concerned Nurse Number Two." 633 00:34:46,312 --> 00:34:50,021 Well, guess what? None of us are proud of where we first start off. 634 00:34:50,104 --> 00:34:54,396 I started off, I had to do token fuckin' punch up on straight to VOD rom-coms, 635 00:34:54,479 --> 00:34:57,646 and under-the-table rewrites on films that didn't wanna pay writers! 636 00:34:57,729 --> 00:34:59,062 But you keep working! 637 00:34:59,146 --> 00:35:01,562 You keep on trying! You work harder and harder 638 00:35:01,646 --> 00:35:03,771 'cause even if you're not talented, which you are, 639 00:35:03,854 --> 00:35:06,854 you can still get somewhere, as long as you don't have an ego. 640 00:35:06,937 --> 00:35:10,146 You don't have to be proud of everything you do! 641 00:35:10,229 --> 00:35:14,104 But you do have to work harder than 99% of people. 642 00:35:14,187 --> 00:35:16,021 [breathing heavily] 643 00:35:16,104 --> 00:35:18,979 You know what's bullshit? What's a fucking cop-out, Marie? 644 00:35:19,062 --> 00:35:22,812 Is you acting like my work is so fucking suffocating 645 00:35:22,896 --> 00:35:26,062 that you can't even breathe, that you don't have any fucking space. 646 00:35:26,146 --> 00:35:27,604 I mean, look around. 647 00:35:27,687 --> 00:35:31,187 Look at this fucking house the production company put us up in. 648 00:35:31,271 --> 00:35:33,479 Pick a room, get to fucking work, 649 00:35:33,562 --> 00:35:37,646 and stop blaming me for your inabilities to get your shit together! 650 00:35:37,729 --> 00:35:39,104 [Malcolm breathing heavily] 651 00:35:40,354 --> 00:35:42,562 I checked you into rehab. 652 00:35:42,646 --> 00:35:45,271 I went to group therapy with you. I've been with you. 653 00:35:45,354 --> 00:35:48,187 I fucking supported you every single step of the way. 654 00:35:51,729 --> 00:35:53,229 When you were depressed, 655 00:35:53,312 --> 00:35:56,354 when you were on so many meds that you couldn't fuck for half a year, 656 00:35:56,437 --> 00:35:57,646 I was there for you. 657 00:35:57,729 --> 00:35:59,812 When you relapsed, I was there for you. 658 00:35:59,896 --> 00:36:04,104 When we lived on 38th Street and you went out to that meeting, right? 659 00:36:04,187 --> 00:36:06,479 And you went to the meeting and you didn't come home 660 00:36:06,562 --> 00:36:08,812 because you were fucking somebody else, right? 661 00:36:08,896 --> 00:36:10,479 Guess who was there for you? 662 00:36:10,562 --> 00:36:11,854 This nigga right here. 663 00:36:14,812 --> 00:36:17,521 So, don't go there. 664 00:36:17,604 --> 00:36:22,396 Do not fucking go there because you are not gonna win this one, Marie. 665 00:36:22,479 --> 00:36:23,521 Trust me. 666 00:36:25,271 --> 00:36:26,312 [Malcolm sniffles] 667 00:36:29,604 --> 00:36:30,771 [clattering in kitchen] 668 00:36:33,979 --> 00:36:35,979 [bottle opening] 669 00:36:50,146 --> 00:36:52,479 [gulps, sighs] 670 00:36:52,562 --> 00:36:53,812 -[sniffles] -[glass clatters] 671 00:36:53,896 --> 00:36:54,896 [sighing] 672 00:36:56,979 --> 00:36:59,437 All right, how about we cut the bullshit, Malcolm? 673 00:37:00,354 --> 00:37:04,146 Since everybody's being honest tonight, how about you be honest? Hmm? 674 00:37:04,646 --> 00:37:06,812 About the real reason you were there for me. 675 00:37:11,312 --> 00:37:13,229 I was good fucking material. 676 00:37:15,979 --> 00:37:18,812 Hmm? That's why you stuck by me. 677 00:37:19,979 --> 00:37:21,396 Because I was a story. 678 00:37:21,479 --> 00:37:25,062 It was a world of emotions you weren't used to seeing so fucking close. 679 00:37:25,146 --> 00:37:28,562 And because I was 20 years old and I'd never been loved the way you loved me 680 00:37:28,646 --> 00:37:31,604 or thought you loved me, I didn't realize what I was to you. 681 00:37:32,937 --> 00:37:35,771 A fucking movie. A tragedy. 682 00:37:35,854 --> 00:37:38,979 One that you could continue watching for as long as you were there for me. 683 00:37:39,062 --> 00:37:42,271 And tonight, in that fucking audience, I watched the whole shit play out. 684 00:37:42,354 --> 00:37:45,562 So don't pretend like it was a selfless fucking act, Malcolm. 685 00:37:46,146 --> 00:37:49,229 It's literally the basis of your art and it is the reason 686 00:37:49,312 --> 00:37:52,812 why all these people are calling you brilliant and brave and fearless. 687 00:37:56,062 --> 00:37:56,937 [scoffs] 688 00:37:57,604 --> 00:37:59,187 "So tell us, Malcolm." 689 00:38:00,979 --> 00:38:03,604 "How were you able to breathe life into the character of Imani?" 690 00:38:03,687 --> 00:38:06,646 "How were you able to channel the voice of a young woman 691 00:38:06,729 --> 00:38:08,687 so well, so authentically?" 692 00:38:09,437 --> 00:38:10,354 "Hmm." 693 00:38:11,146 --> 00:38:15,521 "Well, Jennifer, that's a good question. I guess you could say I stole it." 694 00:38:15,604 --> 00:38:17,021 "I ripped it off." 695 00:38:17,812 --> 00:38:20,187 "Not a literal theft, a spiritual one." 696 00:38:21,396 --> 00:38:22,646 You're a fucking fraud. 697 00:38:22,729 --> 00:38:26,229 The reason you didn't thank me tonight is because you already know that. 698 00:38:26,312 --> 00:38:30,146 [scoffing] You have nothing new to say. 699 00:38:30,229 --> 00:38:33,271 [laughs] All you can do is fuckin' mimic. 700 00:38:33,354 --> 00:38:35,562 Be a fucking parakeet, a goddamn cockatoo. 701 00:38:35,646 --> 00:38:38,354 I mean, God forbid you are ever alone, 702 00:38:38,437 --> 00:38:40,687 and have to dream up another original idea. 703 00:38:40,771 --> 00:38:42,854 What are you going to write, Malcolm? 704 00:38:44,229 --> 00:38:45,187 Huh? 705 00:38:46,812 --> 00:38:47,646 Yourself? 706 00:38:49,479 --> 00:38:51,021 Give me a fucking break. 707 00:38:51,896 --> 00:38:54,062 You don't have the balls. [slaps leg] 708 00:38:54,146 --> 00:38:57,979 You don't have the gravitas, the fucking introspection to look at yourself 709 00:38:58,062 --> 00:38:59,979 and your flaws and your shortcomings 710 00:39:00,062 --> 00:39:02,812 and the fact that you may not be the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins 711 00:39:02,896 --> 00:39:05,729 because those motherfuckers had something new to say. 712 00:39:05,812 --> 00:39:09,312 Something true to themselves and their fucking experience. 713 00:39:10,479 --> 00:39:13,521 You say the film is about shame and guilt. 714 00:39:13,604 --> 00:39:15,146 -[pouring liquid] -Correct? 715 00:39:15,979 --> 00:39:17,354 Your words, not mine. 716 00:39:18,354 --> 00:39:20,937 All right. Well, I have a question for you, Malcolm. 717 00:39:21,021 --> 00:39:22,812 Whose fucking shame? 718 00:39:23,479 --> 00:39:25,187 Whose guilt? 719 00:39:25,271 --> 00:39:28,312 What the fuck do you know about shame and guilt? 720 00:39:28,396 --> 00:39:31,479 You have two parents, no bad habits other than being a fucking prick, 721 00:39:31,562 --> 00:39:32,687 and a college education. 722 00:39:32,771 --> 00:39:35,271 Your mother is a therapist. Your father is a professor. 723 00:39:35,354 --> 00:39:38,021 Your sister works for a think tank in D.C. 724 00:39:38,104 --> 00:39:42,354 But out here, on these streets, these smiling fucking rich people, 725 00:39:42,437 --> 00:39:44,937 they think you know what it's like to scrap. 726 00:39:46,104 --> 00:39:49,396 Think you fucking lived it. Give me a break. 727 00:39:50,687 --> 00:39:53,771 You're more privileged than the white girl who works for the LA Times, 728 00:39:53,854 --> 00:39:57,104 who thinks she's doing a public service by lifting up your mediocre ass. 729 00:39:57,896 --> 00:39:58,896 Now you're being cruel. 730 00:39:58,979 --> 00:40:01,771 Try slitting your wrists with a pair of nail scissors. 731 00:40:04,562 --> 00:40:07,354 You're not gonna wanna survive it, because it's embarrassing. 732 00:40:07,437 --> 00:40:08,271 Don't worry. 733 00:40:08,354 --> 00:40:11,312 I'm not so petty I throw it out in argument because I'm angry. 734 00:40:11,396 --> 00:40:13,437 -I didn't mean it. -Too late. 735 00:40:15,021 --> 00:40:16,979 It's embarrassing and it's cruel, 736 00:40:17,062 --> 00:40:19,437 and it makes me regret sharing so much with you. 737 00:40:26,771 --> 00:40:29,021 -[softly] Fucking calling me… -[door shuts] 738 00:40:30,562 --> 00:40:34,854 [mumbling profanity] 739 00:40:34,937 --> 00:40:37,062 -[instrumental music playing] -[water running] 740 00:40:41,812 --> 00:40:43,312 [foot tapping] 741 00:40:55,604 --> 00:40:59,396 -[crickets chirping] -[muttering] I'm keeping you… 742 00:41:10,979 --> 00:41:11,812 Bullshit! 743 00:41:23,021 --> 00:41:26,562 How the fuck am I keeping you from a life? 744 00:41:26,646 --> 00:41:27,896 So stupid. 745 00:41:31,354 --> 00:41:32,479 [grunting] 746 00:41:37,146 --> 00:41:38,104 Fucking bullshit. 747 00:41:46,229 --> 00:41:47,979 [mumbling indistinctly] 748 00:41:55,187 --> 00:41:57,937 I know… I know what this is. This is bullshit. 749 00:42:02,437 --> 00:42:03,604 Fuck Malibu. 750 00:42:08,396 --> 00:42:09,604 [banging] 751 00:42:11,021 --> 00:42:12,521 What do you mean, "mediocre"? 752 00:42:13,354 --> 00:42:14,479 [Marie inhales deeply] 753 00:42:15,396 --> 00:42:16,729 [water gurgling] 754 00:42:16,812 --> 00:42:18,479 [door slides open] 755 00:42:20,771 --> 00:42:22,604 Were you just trying to be mean? 756 00:42:23,229 --> 00:42:24,437 Is that why you said it? 757 00:42:32,187 --> 00:42:33,479 Out of everything I said, 758 00:42:34,812 --> 00:42:36,812 "mediocre" is what stuck with you? 759 00:42:37,479 --> 00:42:39,687 I just wanna know if you actually believe it. 760 00:42:42,771 --> 00:42:43,604 Guess. 761 00:42:44,104 --> 00:42:47,354 -Answer the question. -What is the question specifically? 762 00:42:47,437 --> 00:42:49,187 Do you not like the movie? 763 00:42:50,146 --> 00:42:51,187 I never said that. 764 00:42:53,812 --> 00:42:56,229 -So you don't like me and the movie. -I never said that. 765 00:42:56,312 --> 00:42:58,146 That's literally what you just fucking said. 766 00:42:59,104 --> 00:43:00,979 I feel like you're being a bit irrational. 767 00:43:01,062 --> 00:43:02,187 I'm being irrational? 768 00:43:02,979 --> 00:43:05,937 I'm being fucking irrational? This is the biggest night of my life, 769 00:43:06,021 --> 00:43:09,062 and you're trying to turn it into the worst and I'm being irrational. 770 00:43:09,771 --> 00:43:10,771 Look at you. 771 00:43:10,854 --> 00:43:13,646 You're so solipsistic that you see yourself in everything. 772 00:43:13,729 --> 00:43:15,729 Even in things you had nothing to do with. 773 00:43:15,812 --> 00:43:17,396 You notice the way Imani walks. 774 00:43:17,479 --> 00:43:20,354 You turn to me and say, "I wonder where you got that walk from." 775 00:43:20,437 --> 00:43:22,479 I don't say shit. I actually smile, don't I? 776 00:43:22,562 --> 00:43:25,354 Keep that shit light because I don't wanna hurt your feelings, 777 00:43:25,437 --> 00:43:27,562 but you tally that shit up, Marie. 778 00:43:27,646 --> 00:43:30,104 While I'm actually doing something, creating something, 779 00:43:30,187 --> 00:43:33,812 you're on the sidelines trying to justify your motherfucking existence. 780 00:43:34,771 --> 00:43:39,812 "I know that line." "I said that." "I did that." "You got that from me." 781 00:43:39,896 --> 00:43:43,271 Shit, even feedback from you comes with an IOU, Marie. 782 00:43:43,354 --> 00:43:45,521 You wanna play fucking dirty? 783 00:43:46,104 --> 00:43:47,312 Well, let's fucking go. 784 00:43:48,854 --> 00:43:50,229 You wanna hurt me, Marie. 785 00:43:51,521 --> 00:43:54,187 I promise you, I can hurt you ten times worse. 786 00:43:55,187 --> 00:43:57,812 You're a fucking featherweight, a level-one boss. 787 00:43:57,896 --> 00:43:59,854 I can snap you like a twig. 788 00:44:01,896 --> 00:44:04,312 Imani is based on you as much as she is on me. 789 00:44:04,396 --> 00:44:05,646 What she says to the nurse, 790 00:44:05,729 --> 00:44:09,854 that's what I said to the doctor when my dad was in the ICU. 791 00:44:11,021 --> 00:44:13,396 You noticed the way Imani walks, didn't you? 792 00:44:14,104 --> 00:44:15,187 It's a good walk. 793 00:44:15,937 --> 00:44:18,229 That was my ex-girlfriend, Jess. 794 00:44:19,729 --> 00:44:21,729 So was the scene on the bicycle in the rain. 795 00:44:21,812 --> 00:44:23,937 It wasn't based on the trip you and I took to Barcelona. 796 00:44:24,021 --> 00:44:27,854 That's Jess and I on the Citi Bike in Brooklyn. 797 00:44:28,562 --> 00:44:31,104 The way she ties her shoes with two loops… 798 00:44:32,104 --> 00:44:33,312 That was Jayla. 799 00:44:34,271 --> 00:44:35,437 You weren't the first. 800 00:44:35,521 --> 00:44:38,062 The joke about how she doesn't give handjobs. 801 00:44:38,146 --> 00:44:41,687 Well, that's an old played-out line that every nigga done heard before. 802 00:44:42,771 --> 00:44:46,146 The joke she makes about how quickly she orgasms. 803 00:44:47,604 --> 00:44:48,604 That was Kiki. 804 00:44:49,437 --> 00:44:50,687 Kiki. 805 00:44:51,729 --> 00:44:53,104 She's a dancer. 806 00:44:54,979 --> 00:44:56,854 Dancer. We'll call her a dancer. 807 00:44:58,354 --> 00:45:00,854 Who I met outside of St. Louis on a road trip. 808 00:45:00,937 --> 00:45:04,396 I fucked the shit out of her in the penthouse suite of a Marriott. 809 00:45:04,479 --> 00:45:07,104 Once on the bed, once in the shower. 810 00:45:07,187 --> 00:45:09,937 We might've even fucked in the closet or some shit too. 811 00:45:10,896 --> 00:45:12,187 I got a Polaroid of her. 812 00:45:13,687 --> 00:45:16,604 Sitting naked in a heart-shaped tub. 813 00:45:16,687 --> 00:45:19,437 It's in a photo album at home in our closet. 814 00:45:22,104 --> 00:45:23,521 But you're an addict, right? 815 00:45:24,521 --> 00:45:26,521 That's what makes you so unique, right? 816 00:45:26,604 --> 00:45:29,979 That's what makes your contribution so much more significant, right? 817 00:45:31,021 --> 00:45:33,854 Get the entire fuck out of here. 818 00:45:33,937 --> 00:45:37,521 You're not the first broken girl I've known, fucked or dated. 819 00:45:38,146 --> 00:45:41,229 I wrote my first script in a one-bedroom apartment with Leah, 820 00:45:41,312 --> 00:45:43,646 who I thought loved hour-long showers 821 00:45:43,729 --> 00:45:47,312 until I found her passed out with a fucking needle in her arm. 822 00:45:47,979 --> 00:45:50,729 Two years ago, I got an email from her sister 823 00:45:50,812 --> 00:45:53,979 saying she took a whole bottle of Tylenol to the head and passed away 824 00:45:54,062 --> 00:45:55,354 and asked if I had any pictures 825 00:45:55,437 --> 00:45:57,854 'cause she was putting together a slideshow on her behalf. 826 00:45:57,937 --> 00:46:00,312 Now that I think about it, I should've thanked her tonight. 827 00:46:00,396 --> 00:46:01,521 She deserves it. 828 00:46:08,271 --> 00:46:09,396 Same with Tasha. 829 00:46:10,812 --> 00:46:13,021 First girl I actually loved, I truly loved. 830 00:46:13,104 --> 00:46:14,771 The first girl who truly broke my heart. 831 00:46:14,854 --> 00:46:17,229 She never cheated on me. She's got that going for her. 832 00:46:17,312 --> 00:46:19,729 She found Jesus, got married, got divorced. 833 00:46:19,812 --> 00:46:23,021 She constantly DMs me pictures of her daughter 834 00:46:23,104 --> 00:46:25,521 saying she wished she had a child with me. 835 00:46:26,312 --> 00:46:30,354 I send her heart emojis because I honestly don't know how to respond to that. 836 00:46:31,937 --> 00:46:33,021 Are you done? 837 00:46:35,562 --> 00:46:37,312 Not even fucking close. 838 00:46:39,354 --> 00:46:40,937 Why, would you like me to stop? 839 00:46:43,604 --> 00:46:46,146 [quietly] No, Malcolm. Keep going. 840 00:46:46,229 --> 00:46:47,896 -Why? -Hmm. 841 00:46:49,646 --> 00:46:50,979 'Cause you like that shit? 842 00:46:52,562 --> 00:46:55,062 You know how disturbed you are, Marie? 843 00:46:55,146 --> 00:46:58,104 You may have gotten clean, but you still haven't figured this part out. 844 00:46:58,187 --> 00:47:01,937 Why you love being hurt, traumatized and fucking eviscerated? 845 00:47:03,812 --> 00:47:04,646 It's not normal. 846 00:47:04,729 --> 00:47:08,146 It's not healthy, and it permeates every aspect of our relationship. 847 00:47:08,229 --> 00:47:12,562 The way we talk, the way we fight, the way we fuck. 848 00:47:12,646 --> 00:47:15,562 I've dated some damaged people in my life, Marie. 849 00:47:15,646 --> 00:47:19,521 But none of them wanted to be debased and degraded like you. 850 00:47:20,479 --> 00:47:22,062 And honestly, Marie… 851 00:47:24,146 --> 00:47:25,854 it's nothing to be proud of. 852 00:47:30,021 --> 00:47:35,021 So stop fucking smiling, 'cause you look like a clown. 853 00:47:38,771 --> 00:47:40,521 Now there's some material for you. 854 00:47:45,187 --> 00:47:47,187 [footsteps receding] 855 00:48:03,896 --> 00:48:06,771 You know what I just realized, Marie? 856 00:48:09,354 --> 00:48:11,562 It's not about justifying your existence. 857 00:48:12,937 --> 00:48:13,937 It's not. 858 00:48:15,229 --> 00:48:17,479 It's about you being so scared and so selfish 859 00:48:17,562 --> 00:48:19,354 that you have to break me down. 860 00:48:20,896 --> 00:48:22,729 Second guess everything I do. 861 00:48:23,396 --> 00:48:24,937 "Am I mediocre?" 862 00:48:25,646 --> 00:48:27,562 "Can I do this without her?" 863 00:48:27,646 --> 00:48:31,521 "I don't know. I better ask Marie. Maybe Marie will know the answer." 864 00:48:31,604 --> 00:48:33,479 "Where's Marie? I need Marie." That's a cut. 865 00:48:33,562 --> 00:48:34,937 "Marie, where did you go?" 866 00:48:35,021 --> 00:48:36,979 "Did you see that performance? What'd you think?" 867 00:48:37,062 --> 00:48:38,979 "You liked it? Yeah, me too." 868 00:48:39,854 --> 00:48:44,146 God forbid I'm secure enough in my opinion that I don't need you. 869 00:48:45,562 --> 00:48:47,354 That's what this all is about. 870 00:48:47,979 --> 00:48:50,187 Your whole speech about fake films. 871 00:48:52,146 --> 00:48:54,646 You just need a reason to be needed 872 00:48:54,729 --> 00:48:59,021 because if I don't need you, then what the hell am I doing with you, Marie? 873 00:49:00,896 --> 00:49:02,229 You want control 874 00:49:02,312 --> 00:49:06,354 because you can't imagine the reason I'm with you is because I love you. 875 00:49:08,437 --> 00:49:10,312 I just love you, baby. 876 00:49:11,812 --> 00:49:13,062 I don't need you. 877 00:49:14,021 --> 00:49:17,646 But I love you. That there's somebody on this planet that just loves you. 878 00:49:19,354 --> 00:49:21,979 I love the way your mind works, Marie. 879 00:49:23,229 --> 00:49:24,104 I do. 880 00:49:24,646 --> 00:49:27,396 I love the way you see the world. 881 00:49:28,312 --> 00:49:30,521 I love the way you think. 882 00:49:31,271 --> 00:49:32,146 Your instincts. 883 00:49:32,229 --> 00:49:36,396 And I'm so fucking grateful 884 00:49:36,479 --> 00:49:39,937 because everything that you've been through, everything… 885 00:49:42,187 --> 00:49:44,521 That's what made you you. That's what made you you. 886 00:49:44,604 --> 00:49:46,562 The girl that I love, the girl that I fuck with, 887 00:49:46,646 --> 00:49:48,979 the girl that I'm up at 2:00 a.m. in the morning 888 00:49:49,062 --> 00:49:54,146 on the biggest night of my life because she's relentless. [laughing] 889 00:49:57,062 --> 00:49:58,271 And crazy. 890 00:50:00,729 --> 00:50:03,771 [voice shaking] And I'm sorry, though. I'm sorry. 891 00:50:04,896 --> 00:50:07,896 I apologized, you know, and… 892 00:50:09,396 --> 00:50:11,771 a thousand times. I know I fucked up. 893 00:50:12,646 --> 00:50:15,937 But honestly, the second we got home, 894 00:50:16,521 --> 00:50:18,937 all I wanted to do was celebrate with you, baby. 895 00:50:19,771 --> 00:50:22,479 Marie, my girl, the love of my life. 896 00:50:26,896 --> 00:50:30,354 You wanna know the part of Imani that's based on you? 897 00:50:33,854 --> 00:50:34,854 It's the end. 898 00:50:36,271 --> 00:50:38,854 The part that makes it such a tragedy. The part… 899 00:50:39,812 --> 00:50:40,937 that she… 900 00:50:41,021 --> 00:50:45,854 Where she loathes herself so much because of all the guilt and the shame. 901 00:50:47,896 --> 00:50:49,687 That she can't let the good in. 902 00:50:52,854 --> 00:50:54,896 That's the part that's based on you. 903 00:50:57,687 --> 00:50:59,937 Her inability to fathom 904 00:51:00,021 --> 00:51:03,312 that there's someone on this planet Earth that just loves her. 905 00:51:06,562 --> 00:51:08,646 Despite her not loving herself. 906 00:51:13,354 --> 00:51:14,354 That's you. 907 00:51:19,771 --> 00:51:21,604 That's the part that isn't fiction. 908 00:51:41,771 --> 00:51:42,854 [sighs] 909 00:51:48,104 --> 00:51:49,312 [glass clattering] 910 00:51:50,979 --> 00:51:52,562 [bottle opening] 911 00:51:53,271 --> 00:51:54,896 [liquid pouring] 912 00:51:54,979 --> 00:51:57,854 [solemn instrumental music playing] 913 00:52:07,604 --> 00:52:08,646 [sighs] 914 00:52:10,104 --> 00:52:11,396 [inhales deeply] 915 00:52:16,229 --> 00:52:17,812 -[water splashing] -[crying] 916 00:53:15,146 --> 00:53:16,187 [water running] 917 00:53:46,104 --> 00:53:47,396 [sighs] 918 00:53:59,729 --> 00:54:01,396 You gonna start smoking again? 919 00:54:09,854 --> 00:54:10,896 [sighs] 920 00:54:23,729 --> 00:54:25,729 [knuckles cracking] 921 00:54:28,146 --> 00:54:32,104 ["Get Rid Of Him" by Dionne Warwick playing on cell phone] 922 00:54:32,187 --> 00:54:35,521 ♪ We're your friends And we've got some good advice ♪ 923 00:54:36,146 --> 00:54:39,771 ♪ Before you let him break your heart You'd better think twice ♪ 924 00:54:40,562 --> 00:54:43,562 ♪ He isn't worth the tears you're cryin' ♪ 925 00:54:44,604 --> 00:54:47,187 ♪ He's only out to break your heart ♪ 926 00:54:48,604 --> 00:54:51,646 ♪ Him with his cheatin' and his lyin' ♪ 927 00:54:52,646 --> 00:54:55,479 ♪ He's gonna rip your dreams apart ♪ 928 00:54:56,604 --> 00:55:00,187 ♪ But I love him ♪ 929 00:55:00,271 --> 00:55:03,729 ♪ And there's nothing I can do ♪ 930 00:55:04,521 --> 00:55:06,437 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Uh-uh ♪ 931 00:55:06,521 --> 00:55:08,604 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 932 00:55:08,687 --> 00:55:11,437 ♪ Do you mean to say You still consider him? ♪ 933 00:55:11,521 --> 00:55:12,604 ♪ Ah-ha ♪ 934 00:55:12,687 --> 00:55:16,687 -♪ When you tell me that he's lazy ♪ -♪ Get rid of him ♪ 935 00:55:16,771 --> 00:55:20,646 -♪ You're just sayin' things I know ♪ -♪ Get rid of him ♪ 936 00:55:20,729 --> 00:55:24,771 -♪ You can tell me that I'm crazy ♪ -♪ Get rid of him ♪ 937 00:55:24,854 --> 00:55:27,979 ♪ But I'll never let him go ♪ 938 00:55:28,771 --> 00:55:31,937 ♪ He will hurt you ♪ 939 00:55:32,021 --> 00:55:35,479 ♪ And he'll break your heart in two ♪ 940 00:55:36,479 --> 00:55:38,437 [Marie singing along] ♪ Get rid of him Uh-uh ♪ 941 00:55:38,521 --> 00:55:40,687 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 942 00:55:40,771 --> 00:55:43,396 ♪ Do you mean to say You still consider him? ♪ 943 00:55:43,479 --> 00:55:44,479 ♪ Ah-ha ♪ 944 00:55:47,396 --> 00:55:48,646 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 945 00:55:51,437 --> 00:55:52,687 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 946 00:55:55,437 --> 00:55:56,521 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 947 00:55:57,146 --> 00:55:58,396 [flicking cigarette] 948 00:55:59,146 --> 00:56:00,812 ♪ Oh ♪ 949 00:56:00,896 --> 00:56:04,021 [Marie singing along] ♪ But I love him ♪ 950 00:56:04,104 --> 00:56:07,812 ♪ And there's nothing I can do ♪ 951 00:56:08,437 --> 00:56:10,271 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Uh-uh ♪ 952 00:56:10,354 --> 00:56:12,562 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 953 00:56:12,646 --> 00:56:16,312 ♪ Do you really mean to say That you can still go on this way? ♪ 954 00:56:16,396 --> 00:56:18,187 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ No! ♪ 955 00:56:18,271 --> 00:56:20,396 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 956 00:56:20,479 --> 00:56:22,104 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Uh-uh ♪ 957 00:56:22,187 --> 00:56:24,021 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 958 00:56:24,104 --> 00:56:28,312 ♪ I know he's out to break my heart And he'll rip my dreams apart ♪ 959 00:56:28,396 --> 00:56:31,937 ♪ But I love that fella so And I'll never let him go ♪ 960 00:56:32,021 --> 00:56:33,937 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 961 00:56:34,021 --> 00:56:36,187 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 962 00:56:36,271 --> 00:56:37,896 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ No ♪ 963 00:56:37,979 --> 00:56:39,896 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no, no, no ♪ 964 00:56:39,979 --> 00:56:41,562 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no, no, no… ♪ 965 00:56:41,646 --> 00:56:42,479 [Malcolm] Fuck! 966 00:56:44,854 --> 00:56:46,812 That fucking piece of shit! 967 00:56:49,562 --> 00:56:53,437 Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! 968 00:56:54,229 --> 00:56:56,479 Fucking piece of shit! Fuck you! 969 00:56:56,562 --> 00:56:59,104 -[Marie] What's going on? -Fuckin' LA Times review's up. 970 00:56:59,187 --> 00:57:01,812 -[Marie] Oh, shit. What does it say? -I don't know. Fucking Internet. 971 00:57:01,896 --> 00:57:03,187 -[Marie] Is it good? -Hold on. 972 00:57:03,271 --> 00:57:05,229 -[Marie] Who sent it to you? -No one. I found it. 973 00:57:05,312 --> 00:57:08,021 -[Marie] How come no one sent it? -Marie, stop. It's loading. 974 00:57:08,104 --> 00:57:09,771 [Marie] All right. What's the headline? 975 00:57:09,854 --> 00:57:13,729 Oh, gotta pay a fucking paywall now? A fucking paywall? Really? 976 00:57:13,812 --> 00:57:14,854 [Marie] When was it posted? 977 00:57:14,937 --> 00:57:18,479 Dollar-ninety-nine a fucking month. Twenty minutes ago. 978 00:57:18,562 --> 00:57:21,771 And no one sent it to you? How come no one sent it to you? 979 00:57:21,854 --> 00:57:23,687 Shit. Where's my fucking wallet? 980 00:57:23,771 --> 00:57:25,896 You don't have your credit card saved in your phone? 981 00:57:25,979 --> 00:57:27,062 -[Malcolm] No! -Why? 982 00:57:27,146 --> 00:57:29,979 -Because I don't trust that shit. -Really? 983 00:57:30,062 --> 00:57:33,104 -Marie, stop. -I'm sorry. Okay. Okay. 984 00:57:34,771 --> 00:57:36,229 Did what's-her-name write it? 985 00:57:36,312 --> 00:57:37,604 -[Malcolm] The white girl? -Yeah. 986 00:57:37,687 --> 00:57:40,104 -[Malcolm] Yeah. -Then it's gotta be positive. 987 00:57:40,187 --> 00:57:43,021 [Malcolm] Shit, I hope so. Where's my motherfuckin' wallet? 988 00:57:43,104 --> 00:57:44,812 [Marie] Did you check the bedroom? 989 00:57:47,646 --> 00:57:49,104 -[Malcolm] What? -Check the bedroom? 990 00:57:49,187 --> 00:57:52,729 -Yeah, I checked the fucking bedroom! -Okay. Well, then did you check the bar? 991 00:57:53,229 --> 00:57:54,062 [Malcolm mumbles] 992 00:57:54,146 --> 00:57:56,979 I checked the fucking bar too, Marie! Where the fuck is the… 993 00:57:57,062 --> 00:57:59,354 Where the fuck is the… Oh, I got it. I got it. 994 00:57:59,437 --> 00:58:02,729 -Got it? Where was it? -Doesn't matter. 995 00:58:02,812 --> 00:58:03,646 [Marie] Mmm. 996 00:58:06,104 --> 00:58:08,021 [Malcolm breathing heavily] 997 00:58:08,104 --> 00:58:11,937 Oh, shit! Where the fuck is my phone? 998 00:58:12,021 --> 00:58:13,354 -Malcolm. -Where's my phone? 999 00:58:13,437 --> 00:58:14,812 -Malcolm. Malcolm? -What? 1000 00:58:14,896 --> 00:58:16,687 It's right here. It's right here. 1001 00:58:16,771 --> 00:58:17,729 Calm down. 1002 00:58:21,479 --> 00:58:23,062 "Imani review." 1003 00:58:23,146 --> 00:58:24,771 "A cinematic tour de force 1004 00:58:24,854 --> 00:58:28,146 takes aim at the twin horrors of healthcare and racism, 1005 00:58:28,229 --> 00:58:32,187 in Malcolm Elliot's rebellious, jazzy directorial debut." 1006 00:58:33,104 --> 00:58:34,854 -I fucking hate this woman. -[chuckles] 1007 00:58:34,937 --> 00:58:36,271 Who wants to see that film? 1008 00:58:36,354 --> 00:58:38,146 "Cinematic tour de force" is all I heard. 1009 00:58:38,229 --> 00:58:41,187 -You didn't hear "jazzy"? -No, I heard "jazzy," too. 1010 00:58:41,271 --> 00:58:44,354 "Like the opening Steadicam shot." It's a dolly, you fucking idiot. 1011 00:58:44,437 --> 00:58:46,479 "Through the streets of Bed-Stuy, we know one thing 1012 00:58:46,562 --> 00:58:49,479 about our slender protagonist Imani. She marches to her own beat." 1013 00:58:49,562 --> 00:58:51,812 "She sets the tone, the atmosphere, the vibe." 1014 00:58:51,896 --> 00:58:54,896 "She may slink and slide through halfway houses and in-patient hospitals, 1015 00:58:54,979 --> 00:58:57,354 but make no mistake, as the title suggests, 1016 00:58:57,437 --> 00:59:00,854 this is her film, her world, her turf. Until it's not." 1017 00:59:00,937 --> 00:59:03,229 "If you can't tell by the rhythm of my white girl words, 1018 00:59:03,312 --> 00:59:04,771 you are in for a Black film." 1019 00:59:04,854 --> 00:59:07,479 [chuckling] The synopsis. Boring, boring, boring. 1020 00:59:07,562 --> 00:59:11,521 The only reason you know it's 2-perf 35 is because I said it at the premier, dipshit. 1021 00:59:11,604 --> 00:59:12,687 "Positive…" 1022 00:59:12,771 --> 00:59:14,729 "Leading to a harrowing and indelible scene 1023 00:59:14,812 --> 00:59:17,104 where Imani overdoses at a Chinatown market, 1024 00:59:17,187 --> 00:59:19,479 and that's where Elliot's true target becomes clear." 1025 00:59:19,562 --> 00:59:22,854 "This is a film about how the American healthcare system treats women of color." 1026 00:59:22,937 --> 00:59:24,229 And at this precise moment, 1027 00:59:24,312 --> 00:59:26,812 every Negro who subscribes to the LA Times just said, 1028 00:59:26,896 --> 00:59:28,771 "Then why the fuck do I need to see this film?" 1029 00:59:28,854 --> 00:59:31,354 Just 'cause the film doesn't star anybody that looks like her 1030 00:59:31,437 --> 00:59:32,854 doesn't mean it's political. 1031 00:59:32,937 --> 00:59:36,354 -What's wrong with being political? -Political films are exhausting. 1032 00:59:36,437 --> 00:59:37,979 [Marie] You love political films. 1033 00:59:38,062 --> 00:59:40,979 Not the ones the white woman from the LA Times calls political. 1034 00:59:41,062 --> 00:59:42,604 I'm sure she loves Do The Right Thing. 1035 00:59:42,687 --> 00:59:46,437 Made at a time when politics weren't cool. That's what made it so revolutionary. 1036 00:59:46,521 --> 00:59:48,562 "When Imani is placed under 5150, 1037 00:59:48,646 --> 00:59:50,562 a term for people being held against their will 1038 00:59:50,646 --> 00:59:52,437 and being a danger to themselves and others, 1039 00:59:52,521 --> 00:59:55,896 after a harrowing scene with a pair of nail scissors, she…" 1040 00:59:55,979 --> 00:59:58,937 "She's placed under the care of friendly doctor 1041 00:59:59,021 --> 01:00:02,479 played by… TV show fame…" 1042 01:00:02,562 --> 01:00:05,146 "But Elliot knows the waters he's wading into, 1043 01:00:05,229 --> 01:00:09,312 and carefully, brilliantly subverts the white savior trope." 1044 01:00:09,396 --> 01:00:11,646 Oh, she's on one now. This fucking stupid… 1045 01:00:11,729 --> 01:00:14,687 "Later, when Imani finds herself, uh… 1046 01:00:14,771 --> 01:00:17,771 at her ex-boyfriend's house begging for a fix, 1047 01:00:17,854 --> 01:00:21,104 Elliot uses tight lenses." It's the fucking same lens. 1048 01:00:21,187 --> 01:00:22,854 "Claustrophobia…" 1049 01:00:22,937 --> 01:00:25,146 "One begins to question his intentions 1050 01:00:25,229 --> 01:00:28,396 in reveling in the trauma of his Black female heroine for so long." 1051 01:00:28,479 --> 01:00:30,229 "It's a scene better implied than depicted." 1052 01:00:30,312 --> 01:00:32,437 "If not for the restraint of his own picture, 1053 01:00:32,521 --> 01:00:34,854 then merely to separate itself from an exhaustive history 1054 01:00:34,937 --> 01:00:37,604 that depicts gendered violence against women of fucking color." 1055 01:00:37,687 --> 01:00:40,604 Are you fucking kidding me? Are you kidding me, ma'am? 1056 01:00:40,687 --> 01:00:44,146 Are you fucking-- In the next line! Oh, shit! Oh, shit! 1057 01:00:44,229 --> 01:00:47,062 She says it's a "genuine masterwork." A genuine fucking-- 1058 01:00:47,146 --> 01:00:50,437 I can't read this fucking shit anymore. It's too fucking moronic. 1059 01:00:50,521 --> 01:00:54,437 The fact that the LA Times will hire such a fucking halfwit is beyond me. 1060 01:00:54,521 --> 01:00:57,812 First she says that I brilliantly subvert the white savior trope. 1061 01:00:57,896 --> 01:00:59,021 She is a savior. 1062 01:00:59,104 --> 01:01:00,812 She's trying to save her, 1063 01:01:00,896 --> 01:01:03,354 so how the fuck did I subvert it, lady? How? 1064 01:01:03,437 --> 01:01:05,437 You wanna know how? It's because I'm Black! 1065 01:01:05,521 --> 01:01:08,062 If I was white, she would've said I fell for the trope. 1066 01:01:08,146 --> 01:01:10,729 But because I'm a man, she can question my intention 1067 01:01:10,812 --> 01:01:13,271 saying that I'm reveling in the trauma of a woman. 1068 01:01:13,354 --> 01:01:14,646 "Better implied than depicted." 1069 01:01:14,729 --> 01:01:17,812 The fuck out of here! Why? Because Taylor took her shirt off? 1070 01:01:17,896 --> 01:01:21,104 I'm sure she just doesn't think that the nudity was necessary. 1071 01:01:21,187 --> 01:01:22,646 None of it is necessary, Marie. 1072 01:01:22,729 --> 01:01:24,437 None of this shit is necessary. 1073 01:01:24,521 --> 01:01:28,854 Movement, blocking, lighting, fucking digital versus film. 1074 01:01:28,937 --> 01:01:31,646 This cut here, that cut here. Let's pan. Two-shot. 1075 01:01:31,729 --> 01:01:33,937 None of this shit matters. It's all about what you want. 1076 01:01:34,021 --> 01:01:36,854 But my fucking problem with her before she even wrote this dumb-ass, 1077 01:01:36,937 --> 01:01:40,021 bitch-ass, pussy-ass review is the same after readin' this cock-sucking, 1078 01:01:40,104 --> 01:01:42,062 -motherfucking, dog-dick review. -[giggles] 1079 01:01:42,146 --> 01:01:45,104 She's not looking at the film. The ideas in it, 1080 01:01:45,187 --> 01:01:46,896 the emotions, or the craft. 1081 01:01:46,979 --> 01:01:49,396 Cinema doesn't need to have a fucking message. 1082 01:01:49,479 --> 01:01:51,854 It needs to have a heart and electricity. 1083 01:01:51,937 --> 01:01:54,812 Morons like this sap the world of its mystery 1084 01:01:54,896 --> 01:01:58,021 because they need everything spelled out with fucking A-B-C blocks. 1085 01:01:58,104 --> 01:02:01,521 And they're terrified to embrace anything potentially dangerous 1086 01:02:01,604 --> 01:02:03,771 because they're trying to predict the culture. 1087 01:02:03,854 --> 01:02:07,771 This fucking bobblehead shouldn't be writing for the LA fucking Times. 1088 01:02:07,854 --> 01:02:11,021 She should be holding smiling sun placards for the local news 1089 01:02:11,104 --> 01:02:13,979 because all she is, is a motherfucking weatherman! 1090 01:02:16,146 --> 01:02:17,604 Or weatherwoman. 1091 01:02:18,937 --> 01:02:20,062 Whatever. 1092 01:02:21,354 --> 01:02:24,271 Fucking… Dorothy-ass… 1093 01:02:28,021 --> 01:02:29,187 Malcolm. 1094 01:02:30,021 --> 01:02:31,021 What? 1095 01:02:32,104 --> 01:02:34,812 She did call it a genuine masterwork. 1096 01:02:37,687 --> 01:02:38,979 I don't give a fuck! 1097 01:02:39,521 --> 01:02:41,646 Unlike her, at least I'm consistent. 1098 01:02:42,187 --> 01:02:43,937 You can't hang everything on identity. 1099 01:02:44,021 --> 01:02:47,354 You can't say that I brilliantly subverted this trope 'cause I'm Black, 1100 01:02:47,437 --> 01:02:50,021 but I fell into this one because I'm a fucking man! 1101 01:02:50,104 --> 01:02:51,771 Identities are constantly shifting. 1102 01:02:51,854 --> 01:02:54,979 Does the male gaze exist if the filmmaker's gay and not straight? 1103 01:02:55,062 --> 01:02:57,229 And to what degree? What if they're asexual? 1104 01:02:57,312 --> 01:02:59,687 What if they're transitioning and you don't even know it? 1105 01:02:59,771 --> 01:03:03,146 You can only look back at things and wonder what the fuck it all means! 1106 01:03:03,812 --> 01:03:07,771 I mean, why did Ben Hecht and Selznick, two fucking Jewish men, 1107 01:03:07,854 --> 01:03:10,937 spend so much time on Gone With the Wind? 1108 01:03:11,021 --> 01:03:12,146 To this day, 1109 01:03:12,229 --> 01:03:16,104 no one can explain to me why the fuck Billy Wilder made Spirit of St. Louis 1110 01:03:16,187 --> 01:03:19,229 and lionized that Nazi bastard Lindbergh, huh? 1111 01:03:19,312 --> 01:03:22,729 Or why Ida Lupino loved film noir and fucking violent men. 1112 01:03:22,812 --> 01:03:24,854 Why Ed Wood wore fucking panties? 1113 01:03:24,937 --> 01:03:29,229 He wore panties and made B films about fucking space aliens. 1114 01:03:29,312 --> 01:03:32,479 Or Elaine May was fascinated with emotionally stunted men. 1115 01:03:32,562 --> 01:03:34,562 I mean, did she see herself in them? 1116 01:03:35,229 --> 01:03:38,646 Did she hate them in real life, but wanted to get to know them through the work? 1117 01:03:38,729 --> 01:03:42,896 The fact that Barry Jenkins isn't gay, is that what made Moonlight so universal? 1118 01:03:42,979 --> 01:03:46,062 Or was being gay the reason Cukor empathized with women more than men? 1119 01:03:46,146 --> 01:03:47,771 It's all a mystery is the point! 1120 01:03:47,854 --> 01:03:50,646 What drives a filmmaker? What drives an artist? 1121 01:03:50,729 --> 01:03:52,479 [breathing heavily] 1122 01:03:52,562 --> 01:03:56,646 I mean, why did Pontecorvo, a fucking rich Italian Jewish man… 1123 01:03:56,729 --> 01:04:00,729 Why did he fucking feel such a kinship to Algerian Muslim guerrilla fighters 1124 01:04:00,812 --> 01:04:02,937 that he fucking made Battle of Algiers? 1125 01:04:03,021 --> 01:04:05,437 A fucking classic! Tell me that! 1126 01:04:05,521 --> 01:04:07,646 Can you tell me that? Fucking Karen! 1127 01:04:07,729 --> 01:04:11,687 Can you tell me that? You can't, can you? Because why? 'Cause nobody knows! 1128 01:04:11,771 --> 01:04:15,771 Who the fuck knows? Who the fuck knows? Why did I shoot the scene the way I did? 1129 01:04:15,854 --> 01:04:17,812 Is it because I'm a man, because I'm straight? 1130 01:04:17,896 --> 01:04:19,729 Is it because I'm desensitized to violence 1131 01:04:19,812 --> 01:04:23,021 or is it because I believe that if you witness trauma onscreen, 1132 01:04:23,104 --> 01:04:25,771 the audience should also feel that fucking trauma? 1133 01:04:25,854 --> 01:04:27,854 That is the mystery of art. Of film. 1134 01:04:27,937 --> 01:04:31,146 What drives someone to make something and fucking say something. 1135 01:04:31,229 --> 01:04:34,771 Now, you can criticize this system, which, like every fucking system, 1136 01:04:34,854 --> 01:04:36,062 is white as fuck, 1137 01:04:36,146 --> 01:04:38,771 and in our business, fucking male and white as fuck! 1138 01:04:38,854 --> 01:04:40,521 I mean, goddamn! 1139 01:04:40,604 --> 01:04:42,604 I've been waiting my whole life, I've been askin', 1140 01:04:42,687 --> 01:04:44,396 "Where the fuck are all the Black filmmakers, 1141 01:04:44,479 --> 01:04:46,937 'cause I'm gettin' sick and tired of these little British boys 1142 01:04:47,021 --> 01:04:50,771 runnin' around here all in they feelings trying to overcome a fucking birth defect 1143 01:04:50,854 --> 01:04:52,896 to save the fucking Queen from Hitler." 1144 01:04:52,979 --> 01:04:55,437 -[chuckling] -Just do me a fucking favor, all right? 1145 01:04:55,521 --> 01:04:58,687 Ban every fucking film with a postscript, and we'll be good. 1146 01:04:59,604 --> 01:05:02,146 We'll be fucking great! 1147 01:05:02,229 --> 01:05:06,646 But to write shit like this? To write this bullshit? 1148 01:05:06,729 --> 01:05:09,729 To box people in because you don't have the love of film, 1149 01:05:09,812 --> 01:05:12,937 because you don't have the mind to critique the form, medium, technique. 1150 01:05:13,021 --> 01:05:15,312 You don't have the words to describe the emotions 1151 01:05:15,396 --> 01:05:17,729 or too much fear that you're not gonna get clicks, 1152 01:05:17,812 --> 01:05:20,312 or too much fear that the mob's gonna turn on you. 1153 01:05:20,396 --> 01:05:23,437 Fuck you for inhibiting the ability for artists to dream about 1154 01:05:23,521 --> 01:05:25,687 what life may be like for other fucking people. 1155 01:05:25,771 --> 01:05:28,562 Fuck you! Twice! With a sick cactus dick! 1156 01:05:28,646 --> 01:05:31,812 Even if you come up short, even if you could do better, fuck you! 1157 01:05:31,896 --> 01:05:33,687 You're the reason they make this stale, 1158 01:05:33,771 --> 01:05:35,854 safe, stagnant turgid shit in the first place! 1159 01:05:35,937 --> 01:05:38,396 You're the reason! Not me! You're the reason! 1160 01:05:39,896 --> 01:05:43,687 I mean, you should be fucking bold! You should be fucking reckless! 1161 01:05:43,771 --> 01:05:45,979 People should be fucking reckless! 1162 01:05:46,062 --> 01:05:48,229 They should be yelling at the top of their lungs! 1163 01:05:48,312 --> 01:05:52,396 Hey, Karen! Hey, Al! 1164 01:05:52,479 --> 01:05:55,687 I hear you, and I don't give a fuck! 1165 01:05:56,312 --> 01:05:58,187 Because they're not gonna get any better 1166 01:05:58,271 --> 01:06:02,104 until they start rebelling against this purist, moralistic, academic nonsense 1167 01:06:02,187 --> 01:06:04,937 in the same way Spike Lee rebelled against the white system 1168 01:06:05,021 --> 01:06:06,562 when he made Do the Right Thing. 1169 01:06:06,646 --> 01:06:08,854 Normally, I wish death upon someone like this. 1170 01:06:08,937 --> 01:06:11,562 Someone who lacks the fucking imagination like this. 1171 01:06:11,646 --> 01:06:14,437 But instead, I'm gonna pray fucking hard, 1172 01:06:14,521 --> 01:06:17,646 the way my mama taught me, that she gets fucking carpal tunnel, 1173 01:06:17,729 --> 01:06:19,562 until her hands atrophy and cramp 1174 01:06:19,646 --> 01:06:24,854 and she can no longer write nonsensical fucking garbage like this anymore! 1175 01:06:24,937 --> 01:06:26,354 [panting] 1176 01:06:26,437 --> 01:06:27,854 -[grunts] -[Marie] Mmm. 1177 01:06:27,937 --> 01:06:29,312 [laughing] 1178 01:06:31,396 --> 01:06:33,104 Oh, my God. 1179 01:06:36,646 --> 01:06:39,687 So this is what happens when you get a good review? 1180 01:06:43,604 --> 01:06:45,729 -You're fucking crazy. -[both chuckle] 1181 01:06:45,812 --> 01:06:47,687 I'm ser-- You're delirious. 1182 01:06:47,771 --> 01:06:49,271 -[Malcolm grunts] -[chuckles] 1183 01:06:50,312 --> 01:06:53,146 Honestly, Malcolm, you are a true insane person. 1184 01:06:54,354 --> 01:06:56,937 I know. I know. I just… I'm tired of fighting, Marie. 1185 01:06:57,021 --> 01:06:59,646 That was a fight you had entirely with yourself. 1186 01:06:59,729 --> 01:07:01,479 [both chuckling] 1187 01:07:02,854 --> 01:07:04,521 You think you're the first writer 1188 01:07:04,604 --> 01:07:07,687 in the history of writing to have this issue with critics? 1189 01:07:07,771 --> 01:07:08,687 'Course not. 1190 01:07:08,771 --> 01:07:11,479 Of course not, 'cause it's all the same bullshit. 1191 01:07:11,562 --> 01:07:14,312 So, what, Malcolm? You wanna make movies, 1192 01:07:14,396 --> 01:07:17,354 and no one's allowed to say anything bad about them? 1193 01:07:17,437 --> 01:07:20,104 Give me a break. 1194 01:07:20,187 --> 01:07:22,604 [mockingly] "Oh, no! Someone attacked my movie." 1195 01:07:22,687 --> 01:07:24,771 Well, fuck these lazy-ass critics. 1196 01:07:24,854 --> 01:07:30,021 Malcolm, you are not making pottery for a living, okay? 1197 01:07:30,104 --> 01:07:34,729 You are a filmmaker, and filmmaking is the most capitalistic, 1198 01:07:34,812 --> 01:07:37,729 mainstream fucking art form on the planet Earth. 1199 01:07:37,812 --> 01:07:40,104 No matter how many times Taylor told E! News 1200 01:07:40,187 --> 01:07:41,937 that she was a fucking communist. 1201 01:07:42,021 --> 01:07:44,021 -She what? -Or a Maoist. 1202 01:07:44,104 --> 01:07:45,729 -Come on. -It was something like that. 1203 01:07:45,812 --> 01:07:48,229 She might've talked about the redistribution of wealth, 1204 01:07:48,312 --> 01:07:49,354 lack of social programs. 1205 01:07:49,437 --> 01:07:51,937 -While selling a film? -The mental healthcare industry-- 1206 01:07:52,021 --> 01:07:53,604 -For $15 a ticket? -I'm just saying-- 1207 01:07:53,687 --> 01:07:54,812 On E! News. 1208 01:07:55,479 --> 01:07:56,896 It was Entertainment Tonight. 1209 01:07:58,271 --> 01:08:00,437 And you wonder why the white girl's talking about 1210 01:08:00,521 --> 01:08:02,479 the mental healthcare system in her review. 1211 01:08:03,979 --> 01:08:04,896 Because… 1212 01:08:04,979 --> 01:08:06,562 -[Marie] Mm-hmm. -[mumbling] 1213 01:08:06,646 --> 01:08:09,437 Oh, she… Oh, shit, you're right. 1214 01:08:09,521 --> 01:08:10,354 Right? 1215 01:08:10,896 --> 01:08:12,646 Oh. [chuckles] 1216 01:08:12,729 --> 01:08:14,479 -Yep. [chuckles] -[stomping feet] 1217 01:08:14,562 --> 01:08:16,646 I hate to break it to you, but uh… 1218 01:08:17,604 --> 01:08:19,729 no one in this game is a radical. 1219 01:08:19,812 --> 01:08:23,354 -Oh, Taylor's pretty radical. -Bullshit. She likes to play one on TV. 1220 01:08:23,437 --> 01:08:24,437 What do you mean? 1221 01:08:25,771 --> 01:08:27,562 All of y'all are a bunch of hookers and hoes. 1222 01:08:27,646 --> 01:08:30,104 -You calling me a ho? -Yes, I am calling you a ho. 1223 01:08:30,187 --> 01:08:31,937 -[chuckles] -[laughing] Fuck you. 1224 01:08:32,021 --> 01:08:34,604 'Cause you're a ho! What? You are. That's fine. 1225 01:08:35,396 --> 01:08:37,437 That's why you're hell-bent on sounding smart, 1226 01:08:37,521 --> 01:08:40,021 'cause you're compensating for the fact that you're a ho. 1227 01:08:40,104 --> 01:08:42,646 Instead of just understanding that… 1228 01:08:42,729 --> 01:08:45,604 this is just how the world of ho-dom turns. 1229 01:08:45,687 --> 01:08:49,271 You know, you got an actress in a $2,000 dress, 1230 01:08:49,354 --> 01:08:51,104 talkin' about socialism on a red carpet 1231 01:08:51,187 --> 01:08:53,646 because she's too afraid to admit that, guess what, 1232 01:08:53,729 --> 01:08:55,729 she's just… she's just a fuckin' actor. 1233 01:08:56,396 --> 01:08:57,771 There's no shame in that. 1234 01:08:58,354 --> 01:09:00,896 And then you got every entertainment outlet 1235 01:09:00,979 --> 01:09:04,646 running with her call to arms, her viva la revolution. 1236 01:09:04,729 --> 01:09:07,729 Not because they actually care or want to spread the message. 1237 01:09:07,812 --> 01:09:12,271 But because they know that there's nothing that sells more than disgust. 1238 01:09:14,021 --> 01:09:16,021 -Hmm. -That's what gets the clicks. 1239 01:09:16,104 --> 01:09:19,062 And you dumbasses fall for that shit every time. 1240 01:09:20,229 --> 01:09:22,687 Honestly, nobody cares what you have to say. 1241 01:09:23,646 --> 01:09:24,646 They don't. 1242 01:09:25,229 --> 01:09:27,187 You guys play fucking dress-up for a living. 1243 01:09:27,271 --> 01:09:28,146 [Malcolm scoffs] 1244 01:09:28,729 --> 01:09:33,937 This is some only-in-America, ho-ass shit. 1245 01:09:34,021 --> 01:09:35,354 [laughing] 1246 01:09:35,437 --> 01:09:37,896 And all of you are guilty. 1247 01:09:38,854 --> 01:09:42,812 You know? So just stay in your lane. Keep doing your ho shit. It's fine. 1248 01:09:43,979 --> 01:09:45,146 [Malcolm mumbles] 1249 01:09:45,229 --> 01:09:48,437 Malcolm, you got a great review with an asterisk. 1250 01:09:50,437 --> 01:09:53,062 Boo-fucking-hoo. 1251 01:09:57,521 --> 01:09:58,729 I'm a ho, huh? 1252 01:09:58,812 --> 01:10:01,146 Mm-hmm. Most definitely. 1253 01:10:03,437 --> 01:10:06,354 -I love you. -Don't manipulate me. 1254 01:10:06,437 --> 01:10:07,521 [kissing] 1255 01:10:07,604 --> 01:10:09,604 [slow jazz music playing] 1256 01:10:47,979 --> 01:10:49,271 -Okay. -Okay. 1257 01:10:49,354 --> 01:10:51,604 -Okay. I got a gameplan. -Okay. 1258 01:10:52,354 --> 01:10:54,354 -I love what's happening. -[chuckles] 1259 01:10:55,229 --> 01:10:57,271 Oh, my God. And thank God. I just… 1260 01:10:57,354 --> 01:10:59,354 -Been wanting to do this all night. -[giggles] 1261 01:10:59,437 --> 01:11:00,437 Here's the gameplan. 1262 01:11:01,021 --> 01:11:02,271 I'm gonna go from here… 1263 01:11:03,396 --> 01:11:04,479 to the bathroom. 1264 01:11:05,312 --> 01:11:06,854 -Because I have to pee. -Okay. 1265 01:11:06,937 --> 01:11:08,354 -Okay. Is it okay? -That's fine. 1266 01:11:08,437 --> 01:11:12,104 And let's just keep it positive. Happy thoughts. 1267 01:11:12,812 --> 01:11:14,979 You stay right here. Don't move. You look beautiful. 1268 01:11:15,062 --> 01:11:16,812 -Stay right here. Okay? -Okay. 1269 01:11:16,896 --> 01:11:19,104 -You stay right here. -Okay. 1270 01:11:21,896 --> 01:11:22,854 Hey. 1271 01:11:24,354 --> 01:11:26,396 -Oh, my God. Oh, my… -[chuckles] 1272 01:11:26,479 --> 01:11:28,479 [footsteps receding] 1273 01:11:51,812 --> 01:11:53,521 [urinating] 1274 01:11:55,562 --> 01:11:56,521 [toilet flushes] 1275 01:11:58,604 --> 01:12:00,437 -[faucet squeaks] -[water running] 1276 01:12:17,854 --> 01:12:18,854 [Marie] Malcolm? 1277 01:12:23,479 --> 01:12:24,312 Yeah? 1278 01:12:27,979 --> 01:12:30,312 Can I ask you a question and you promise to answer 1279 01:12:30,396 --> 01:12:32,146 without making me feel like shit? 1280 01:12:33,979 --> 01:12:35,521 [sighs deeply] 1281 01:12:35,604 --> 01:12:36,521 Yeah. 1282 01:12:45,229 --> 01:12:46,729 Why didn't you cast me? 1283 01:12:57,521 --> 01:12:59,812 When you first wrote it, you wrote it for me. 1284 01:13:02,937 --> 01:13:04,687 So why didn't you cast me? 1285 01:13:05,604 --> 01:13:06,729 [clicks tongue] 1286 01:13:11,687 --> 01:13:14,229 So that's what this whole thing has been about tonight? 1287 01:13:15,937 --> 01:13:16,812 [softly] No. 1288 01:13:16,896 --> 01:13:18,521 -Bullshit, Marie. -It's not. 1289 01:13:18,604 --> 01:13:21,479 -You're lying. Yes, it is. -[voice shaking] I'm not lying. 1290 01:13:24,062 --> 01:13:27,896 At some point, Malcolm, this was something that we were gonna do together. 1291 01:13:30,062 --> 01:13:32,104 And I don't know when that changed. 1292 01:13:33,562 --> 01:13:37,396 I don't know when, I don't know how, I just know that I was in that audience… 1293 01:13:38,812 --> 01:13:40,646 and I thought to myself, "Wow." 1294 01:13:44,104 --> 01:13:46,604 "I did not mean to give all that away." 1295 01:13:46,687 --> 01:13:48,146 [breath trembling] 1296 01:13:50,146 --> 01:13:53,271 And I don't wanna get into all the reasons why you cast Taylor, 1297 01:13:54,854 --> 01:13:56,854 but you're so good at fighting. 1298 01:13:57,687 --> 01:14:00,062 You're so good at fighting. You fought to make the movie, 1299 01:14:00,146 --> 01:14:03,771 to make it the way you wanted to make it. So why didn't you fight for me? 1300 01:14:08,771 --> 01:14:11,229 Because I would have been good. [sniffles] 1301 01:14:12,937 --> 01:14:14,187 I would have. 1302 01:14:16,146 --> 01:14:17,521 Maybe even better. 1303 01:14:20,187 --> 01:14:21,187 So there it is. 1304 01:14:22,354 --> 01:14:25,104 -What? -The fucking truth. 1305 01:14:25,187 --> 01:14:28,604 Leave it to you to spend the entire night burning it all to the ground 1306 01:14:28,687 --> 01:14:32,729 only to reveal that in the end, you're just jealous. 1307 01:14:32,812 --> 01:14:34,312 -I'm not jealous. -Yes, you are. 1308 01:14:34,396 --> 01:14:36,229 -I'm not jealous. -Of course you are. 1309 01:14:36,312 --> 01:14:39,271 The feeling that I'm feeling right now is deeper than that. 1310 01:14:40,562 --> 01:14:42,354 It's not jealousy. [crying] 1311 01:14:42,437 --> 01:14:44,271 Oh, come on. Give me a break, Marie. 1312 01:14:44,354 --> 01:14:46,771 It's the fact that I can't tell my story anymore. 1313 01:14:47,854 --> 01:14:52,979 I can't articulate all the fucking chaos that's going on in here 1314 01:14:53,062 --> 01:14:54,271 because you already did. 1315 01:14:54,354 --> 01:14:55,479 [sniffles] 1316 01:14:55,562 --> 01:14:57,604 You already did and Taylor already did. 1317 01:14:58,854 --> 01:15:00,896 I know it's not solely mine. 1318 01:15:01,604 --> 01:15:02,729 I know that. 1319 01:15:03,521 --> 01:15:05,896 I know it happened to both of us. 1320 01:15:05,979 --> 01:15:09,104 But the difference is you were able to take all the ugly shit 1321 01:15:09,187 --> 01:15:10,812 and make it something beautiful. 1322 01:15:13,521 --> 01:15:14,854 Something good. 1323 01:15:15,729 --> 01:15:16,937 Something that… 1324 01:15:18,562 --> 01:15:20,271 that could move people. 1325 01:15:21,937 --> 01:15:23,896 But, Malcolm, I'm stuck with it. 1326 01:15:33,104 --> 01:15:34,146 Yeah. 1327 01:15:34,229 --> 01:15:37,062 I just wish it was something we could have done together. 1328 01:15:37,562 --> 01:15:39,937 And to be brutally honest, yes… 1329 01:15:41,396 --> 01:15:42,854 I would have been better. 1330 01:15:44,687 --> 01:15:46,187 Because I experienced it. 1331 01:15:47,562 --> 01:15:48,646 I lived it. 1332 01:15:52,562 --> 01:15:56,021 Not only would I have been better, I would have made your film better. 1333 01:15:58,271 --> 01:15:59,562 You gave up acting. 1334 01:15:59,646 --> 01:16:02,312 When I got the film financed, I asked you to audition. 1335 01:16:02,396 --> 01:16:06,437 You said yes, but you were reluctant. You have talent, but that's not enough. 1336 01:16:07,271 --> 01:16:09,437 It's not enough. You have to want it, Marie. 1337 01:16:10,146 --> 01:16:13,354 -Trust me, Malcolm, I wanted this one. -That's fuckin' bullshit. 1338 01:16:13,437 --> 01:16:16,396 You didn't try, and that's the harsh reality of all of this. 1339 01:16:16,479 --> 01:16:18,854 That same instinct that exists in Imani, in you, 1340 01:16:18,937 --> 01:16:22,312 that instinct to fucking self-sabotage, 1341 01:16:22,396 --> 01:16:23,521 that didn't go away. 1342 01:16:24,062 --> 01:16:27,937 -I didn't try because you didn't want me. -Now you wanna play the victim. 1343 01:16:30,479 --> 01:16:33,937 Now you wanna say you felt like I didn't want you so you didn't try. 1344 01:16:41,354 --> 01:16:43,062 You are fucking intolerable. 1345 01:16:56,021 --> 01:16:57,521 [sighs deeply] 1346 01:17:08,104 --> 01:17:12,021 [Marie] Fucking… You fake-ass, fraudulent, thievin' fuckin' con man! 1347 01:17:12,104 --> 01:17:15,729 You didn't want me because if you did, you would have to share the stage. 1348 01:17:15,812 --> 01:17:18,271 You wouldn't be the sole author of this film. 1349 01:17:18,354 --> 01:17:21,854 It would have a lineage that extended beyond you and your brilliance, 1350 01:17:21,937 --> 01:17:26,187 because people would ask me and I'd say, "Yes, this shit happened to me." 1351 01:17:26,271 --> 01:17:29,896 Then all of a sudden everyone would go, "Is it him or her that's talented?" 1352 01:17:29,979 --> 01:17:33,062 If that's what you have to tell yourself, then be my guest. 1353 01:17:33,146 --> 01:17:34,396 It's about ownership. 1354 01:17:34,479 --> 01:17:36,312 It's about the illusion you wanna create 1355 01:17:36,396 --> 01:17:38,354 that filmmaking isn't a collaborative effort. 1356 01:17:38,437 --> 01:17:41,021 It's you, and everybody else is just following directions. 1357 01:17:41,104 --> 01:17:43,187 -Because if it were me… -[grunts loudly] 1358 01:17:43,271 --> 01:17:46,562 If it were authentic 'cause of me, you couldn't swing your dick around! 1359 01:17:46,646 --> 01:17:48,396 That's why you didn't thank me tonight. 1360 01:17:48,479 --> 01:17:51,021 -That's also why you didn't cast me. -Authenticity. 1361 01:17:51,104 --> 01:17:53,187 -Yeah. Mm-hmm. -Ain't that the word of the day? 1362 01:17:53,271 --> 01:17:56,229 It's all I heard tonight. "He's such an authentic filmmaker." 1363 01:17:56,312 --> 01:17:59,146 "The movie is authentic." "He channeled his voice authentically." 1364 01:17:59,229 --> 01:18:00,854 -Know why people love that word? -Why? 1365 01:18:00,937 --> 01:18:02,646 They don't know what makes something good. 1366 01:18:02,729 --> 01:18:03,937 I think authenticity is key. 1367 01:18:04,021 --> 01:18:06,229 Of course, because that's all you have to offer. 1368 01:18:06,312 --> 01:18:08,854 -Anyone, all they have to say. -It's all I have to offer. 1369 01:18:08,937 --> 01:18:11,437 The only word that people that don't know shit about film 1370 01:18:11,521 --> 01:18:13,229 feels like they got something to offer… 1371 01:18:13,312 --> 01:18:14,854 No, I have nothing to offer. 1372 01:18:14,937 --> 01:18:18,479 They can't say anything about film, but they love to talk about authenticity. 1373 01:18:18,562 --> 01:18:19,896 They don't know dick about film. 1374 01:18:19,979 --> 01:18:22,562 About fucking Citizen Kane or Best Years of Our Lives-- 1375 01:18:22,646 --> 01:18:24,646 No one fucking cares about that shit! 1376 01:18:24,729 --> 01:18:28,062 Authenticity. Oh, shit! They know that shit through and through. 1377 01:18:28,146 --> 01:18:30,896 Authenticity does not matter, your perspective doesn't-- 1378 01:18:30,979 --> 01:18:32,437 You don't fucking have any! 1379 01:18:32,521 --> 01:18:34,854 Recreating reality doesn't make something interesting. 1380 01:18:34,937 --> 01:18:37,479 It's about your interpretation about reality. 1381 01:18:37,562 --> 01:18:39,854 -What you feel about reality. -You're full of shit. 1382 01:18:39,937 --> 01:18:41,271 What you reveal about reality. 1383 01:18:41,354 --> 01:18:43,187 Perspective, your perspective. 1384 01:18:43,271 --> 01:18:46,562 Transcribing a conversation or holding a camera up and pressing record, 1385 01:18:46,646 --> 01:18:48,562 that's a fucking YouTube video. 1386 01:18:48,646 --> 01:18:50,354 -That's a confession or memoir. -Okay. 1387 01:18:50,437 --> 01:18:52,521 -We've seen and heard it a thousand times. -All right. 1388 01:18:52,604 --> 01:18:56,146 Your experience, your life, your fucking struggle, doesn't matter. 1389 01:18:56,229 --> 01:18:59,812 You've been an addict, boring! You overdosing, not fucking interesting. 1390 01:18:59,896 --> 01:19:01,896 It's about transferring your emotions 1391 01:19:01,979 --> 01:19:04,604 and all those moments into something cinematic and moving. 1392 01:19:04,687 --> 01:19:06,437 So, you know what? Good luck, Marie. 1393 01:19:07,979 --> 01:19:09,479 -I hate you! -I hate you hate too! 1394 01:19:09,562 --> 01:19:11,437 -I hate you more! -I hate you the most! 1395 01:19:11,521 --> 01:19:13,104 I fucking hate you! 1396 01:19:13,187 --> 01:19:14,979 [both screaming] 1397 01:19:15,062 --> 01:19:16,062 [grunts] 1398 01:19:16,146 --> 01:19:17,104 [screams] 1399 01:19:18,229 --> 01:19:19,562 Fuckin' asshole! 1400 01:19:22,812 --> 01:19:24,646 [Malcolm] Fucking mental patient. 1401 01:19:31,146 --> 01:19:32,562 [exhales deeply] 1402 01:19:40,104 --> 01:19:43,729 ["Wasted" by NNAMDÏ playing] 1403 01:19:57,562 --> 01:20:00,937 ♪ Tell me what you want me to hear ♪ 1404 01:20:05,687 --> 01:20:09,979 ♪ 'Cause I ain't got time to waste I ain't got time to waste ♪ 1405 01:20:10,062 --> 01:20:13,896 ♪ I don't got, I don't got I don't got time ♪ 1406 01:20:15,062 --> 01:20:18,771 ♪ Tell me what you want me to hear ♪ 1407 01:20:23,104 --> 01:20:27,396 ♪ 'Cause we ain't got time to waste We ain't got time to waste ♪ 1408 01:20:27,479 --> 01:20:31,646 ♪ We don't got, we don't got We don't got time ♪ 1409 01:20:32,437 --> 01:20:36,229 ♪ Tell me what you want What you need and what you feel ♪ 1410 01:20:36,312 --> 01:20:38,437 ♪ I love to hear you speak… ♪ 1411 01:20:38,521 --> 01:20:39,479 [song stops abruptly] 1412 01:20:39,562 --> 01:20:41,354 Marie, what are you doing? 1413 01:20:41,437 --> 01:20:44,312 Put the knife down please. Marie? 1414 01:20:46,729 --> 01:20:49,229 [Marie crying] Do you remember those antidepressants I was on? 1415 01:20:51,896 --> 01:20:53,896 I'm not on them anymore. 1416 01:20:57,146 --> 01:21:00,771 I'm not doing well. I'm really, really not doing well. 1417 01:21:02,271 --> 01:21:03,354 [sighs] 1418 01:21:05,187 --> 01:21:06,854 I've never been clean. 1419 01:21:08,729 --> 01:21:10,896 And I don't plan on getting clean. 1420 01:21:15,229 --> 01:21:16,562 I'm a piece of shit. 1421 01:21:17,521 --> 01:21:19,646 -I'm a liar. -[clears throat] 1422 01:21:21,187 --> 01:21:22,604 I cheated on you. 1423 01:21:28,979 --> 01:21:30,646 I fucked your friends. 1424 01:21:32,354 --> 01:21:33,937 [laughing] 1425 01:21:38,729 --> 01:21:40,146 I fucked your friends. 1426 01:21:41,437 --> 01:21:43,854 God, I feel like I'm crazy. 1427 01:21:44,604 --> 01:21:46,187 [chuckling] 1428 01:21:47,437 --> 01:21:48,771 [knife tapping] 1429 01:21:54,604 --> 01:21:56,604 I've stolen from your mother. 1430 01:21:58,312 --> 01:22:00,937 And you know what the fucked up thing is? [sniffles] 1431 01:22:01,021 --> 01:22:02,396 I don't even care. 1432 01:22:03,396 --> 01:22:04,437 I don't mind. 1433 01:22:05,854 --> 01:22:07,187 Because I deserve it. 1434 01:22:16,062 --> 01:22:18,021 Tell me where the fucking pills are. 1435 01:22:19,562 --> 01:22:21,021 [exhales deeply] 1436 01:22:22,104 --> 01:22:23,771 Tell me where the pills are. 1437 01:22:23,854 --> 01:22:25,937 -Um… -[knife tapping] 1438 01:22:27,062 --> 01:22:28,187 Mmm. 1439 01:22:32,979 --> 01:22:34,021 [knife scrapes] 1440 01:22:36,437 --> 01:22:37,729 [knife clatters] 1441 01:22:37,812 --> 01:22:40,521 And that, Malcolm, is what authenticity buys you. 1442 01:22:51,146 --> 01:22:53,729 Well, damn! Why didn't you do that in the audition? 1443 01:22:56,854 --> 01:22:57,937 [knife scrapes] 1444 01:22:58,646 --> 01:22:59,937 [knife clatters] 1445 01:23:04,562 --> 01:23:05,729 [door creaks] 1446 01:23:09,104 --> 01:23:12,937 You are, by far, the most excruciating, difficult, stubbornly obnoxious woman 1447 01:23:13,021 --> 01:23:15,062 I've ever met in my entire life. 1448 01:23:15,146 --> 01:23:17,229 I go from wanting to cut your head off one moment 1449 01:23:17,312 --> 01:23:20,229 to wanting to kiss your beautiful, stupid little face the next. 1450 01:23:21,104 --> 01:23:22,229 I fucking love you. 1451 01:23:23,021 --> 01:23:23,854 I love you. 1452 01:23:24,771 --> 01:23:27,271 -[kissing] Should we get married? -Not in the mood. 1453 01:23:27,354 --> 01:23:29,479 I feel like we're gonna get married and divorced 1454 01:23:29,562 --> 01:23:31,437 a couple times, might as well start now. 1455 01:23:31,521 --> 01:23:32,646 No. 1456 01:23:33,229 --> 01:23:34,312 [grunts] 1457 01:23:34,396 --> 01:23:37,229 -I'm so turned on right now. -I'm not. 1458 01:23:39,354 --> 01:23:41,896 -[laughing] Fuckin' psychopath! -[giggles] 1459 01:23:41,979 --> 01:23:44,979 All this madness was about you, and that scene, 1460 01:23:45,062 --> 01:23:47,187 sayin' to me that you could do it better than Taylor 1461 01:23:47,271 --> 01:23:49,854 and seed doubt in my mind that, for the rest of my life, 1462 01:23:49,937 --> 01:23:51,479 -the movie could've been better. -Mm-mm. 1463 01:23:51,562 --> 01:23:53,562 -Yes. That's exactly what you doin'. -Mm-mmm. No. 1464 01:23:53,646 --> 01:23:55,104 -[Malcolm] That's bullshit. -It's not! 1465 01:23:55,187 --> 01:23:56,562 [both laughing] 1466 01:23:57,187 --> 01:23:58,187 [Malcolm] Brilliant! 1467 01:23:58,687 --> 01:23:59,812 [both moaning] 1468 01:24:12,104 --> 01:24:15,062 You know what's interesting about the white girl from LA Times 1469 01:24:15,146 --> 01:24:16,937 calling out that scene in her review? 1470 01:24:17,021 --> 01:24:18,729 Marie, who cares? 1471 01:24:18,812 --> 01:24:22,521 I mean, I've always said, it was my least favorite in the film. 1472 01:24:23,437 --> 01:24:24,979 But my favorite in the script. 1473 01:24:25,687 --> 01:24:27,937 Can we talk about this later, please? 1474 01:24:28,021 --> 01:24:30,687 -I think it's important, you know? -I beg you. 1475 01:24:31,687 --> 01:24:33,521 To look back and wonder why that is. 1476 01:24:36,146 --> 01:24:37,979 -Don't you? -No. 1477 01:24:38,062 --> 01:24:42,354 Not to strip you of your mystery, you know, just out of curiosity. 1478 01:24:43,312 --> 01:24:46,729 Out of pursuit of wanting to be, I don't know, a better fucking artist. 1479 01:24:46,812 --> 01:24:50,021 Oh. You are exhausting. 1480 01:24:51,104 --> 01:24:54,021 You gonna be this exhausting at 70 or will you have exhausted yourself? 1481 01:24:54,104 --> 01:24:55,562 That depends where you are. 1482 01:24:55,646 --> 01:24:57,854 Living with the white girl from the LA Times 1483 01:24:57,937 --> 01:25:00,604 because at least I can win an argument against her. 1484 01:25:00,687 --> 01:25:05,187 But, you know. It just made me wonder, why did I see that scene so differently? 1485 01:25:05,271 --> 01:25:08,187 I don't know. How did you see the scene? 1486 01:25:08,271 --> 01:25:09,479 It was less graphic. 1487 01:25:09,562 --> 01:25:12,437 So what? He doesn't attack Imani? That's what it was on the page. 1488 01:25:12,521 --> 01:25:16,396 No, he attacks her. I just never thought that you'd shoot it with her top off. 1489 01:25:16,937 --> 01:25:18,771 -What's the difference? -Her tits were out. 1490 01:25:18,854 --> 01:25:21,229 -So? -So, I just feel like you sexualized her. 1491 01:25:21,312 --> 01:25:23,937 If I rolled a camera on you right now, am I sexualizing you, 1492 01:25:24,021 --> 01:25:26,187 or is this what you have on, on a Friday night? 1493 01:25:26,271 --> 01:25:27,312 My tits aren't out. 1494 01:25:27,396 --> 01:25:30,104 If you were in a Chuck E. Cheese, they'd throw your ass out. 1495 01:25:30,187 --> 01:25:32,604 -It was Taylor's idea anyway. -I'm sure it was. 1496 01:25:33,104 --> 01:25:36,187 Look, it just made everything more graphic. 1497 01:25:36,687 --> 01:25:38,896 Okay? And I just thought… 1498 01:25:40,104 --> 01:25:42,896 would the scene have been a bit different if you were a woman? 1499 01:25:43,854 --> 01:25:46,937 Yes, but I also would have shot the entire movie differently 1500 01:25:47,021 --> 01:25:49,479 because I wouldn't have been me, I would've been a woman. 1501 01:25:49,562 --> 01:25:51,521 I would've had a totally different sensibility. 1502 01:25:51,604 --> 01:25:53,604 But that's not how you judge film intelligently, 1503 01:25:53,687 --> 01:25:57,937 by the 600 trillion different choices not made due to an intangible 1504 01:25:58,021 --> 01:26:00,437 yet purely hypothetical assessment of one's identity. 1505 01:26:00,521 --> 01:26:02,812 But rather the choices actually being fucking made. 1506 01:26:02,896 --> 01:26:05,604 [sighs] Look, I'm not defending her as a great fuckin' thinker. 1507 01:26:05,687 --> 01:26:07,354 Good. 'Cause she's an idiot. 1508 01:26:07,437 --> 01:26:10,312 I'm just saying… would the movie have been a little better 1509 01:26:10,396 --> 01:26:12,021 if you had a dash of femininity? 1510 01:26:12,104 --> 01:26:13,687 -Who gives a fuck? -I do. 1511 01:26:13,812 --> 01:26:15,771 -Fuck. -I do. I do. 1512 01:26:15,854 --> 01:26:18,229 I do, Malcolm, because it just made me wonder 1513 01:26:18,312 --> 01:26:20,187 if the problem she has with you as a filmmaker 1514 01:26:20,271 --> 01:26:22,437 is the same problem I have with you as a partner. 1515 01:26:23,187 --> 01:26:24,021 Well… 1516 01:26:26,021 --> 01:26:30,604 All that being said and done, Karen thinks I'm a fucking tour-de-force. 1517 01:26:30,687 --> 01:26:32,854 -[urinating] -[scoffs] Now you like her review? 1518 01:26:32,937 --> 01:26:36,146 [scoffs] Fucking masterwork is what you're looking at right now, girl. 1519 01:26:36,229 --> 01:26:38,604 [groans and chuckles] You're joking, but I'm not. 1520 01:26:38,687 --> 01:26:42,312 That's unfortunate, because I really can't keep arguing about this shit. 1521 01:26:42,396 --> 01:26:45,062 The more I think about it, her problem is my problem. 1522 01:26:45,146 --> 01:26:48,687 -Which is what? -That I'm with you. I haven't walked out. 1523 01:26:48,771 --> 01:26:50,896 I'm not wondering what other movies are playing. 1524 01:26:50,979 --> 01:26:53,271 I got you. I'm on your side, and then you just… 1525 01:26:53,354 --> 01:26:55,396 You gotta fucking take shit too far. 1526 01:26:55,479 --> 01:26:56,604 [Malcolm] Come on. 1527 01:26:56,687 --> 01:26:59,854 No, we're in a fight, maybe the worst fight we've ever been in, 1528 01:26:59,937 --> 01:27:03,312 but instead of just making your point and saying it's not about you, 1529 01:27:03,396 --> 01:27:04,979 it's an amalgamation of people, 1530 01:27:05,062 --> 01:27:08,146 you gotta fucking revel in it. You gotta twist the knife 1531 01:27:08,229 --> 01:27:13,312 and put images in my head that you and I both know will never fucking leave me. 1532 01:27:13,396 --> 01:27:14,354 [Malcolm] What? 1533 01:27:15,312 --> 01:27:16,687 -Kiki. -Oh! 1534 01:27:16,771 --> 01:27:17,604 Kiki. 1535 01:27:17,687 --> 01:27:20,021 -I was angry. What the fuck! -From outside of St. Louis. 1536 01:27:20,104 --> 01:27:23,312 -A heart-shaped bathtub? -I was angry. 1537 01:27:23,396 --> 01:27:25,604 You're a cheeseball. Ugh! Malcolm! 1538 01:27:25,687 --> 01:27:27,646 -Ew! Ew! -[laughing] 1539 01:27:27,729 --> 01:27:28,896 Ugh! 1540 01:27:29,396 --> 01:27:33,312 You're a fucking moron, honestly. You could've won without all that shit. 1541 01:27:33,396 --> 01:27:35,812 You could've won with 20% of what you said, 1542 01:27:35,896 --> 01:27:38,729 but you cannot help yourself. It is just who you are. 1543 01:27:38,812 --> 01:27:42,521 'Cause if I were ever fucked in a penthouse suite of a Marriott, 1544 01:27:42,604 --> 01:27:45,021 in or around a heart-shaped bathtub, 1545 01:27:45,104 --> 01:27:49,271 I would never fucking utter a word about it aloud. 1546 01:27:49,354 --> 01:27:51,729 I would never tell my friends about it, 1547 01:27:51,812 --> 01:27:53,896 I would never wield it in a fight as a weapon. 1548 01:27:53,979 --> 01:27:55,812 You know why? Because I know it would hurt me 1549 01:27:55,896 --> 01:27:57,562 way more than it would hurt you. 1550 01:27:58,937 --> 01:28:01,812 [sighing] And it's a bummer, Malcolm, you know? 1551 01:28:02,354 --> 01:28:05,729 I really enjoyed having sex with you. Up until about 15 minutes ago, 1552 01:28:05,812 --> 01:28:09,687 it was an aspect of our relationship that I genuinely had no complaints about. 1553 01:28:11,771 --> 01:28:14,521 It was also my only remaining vice, that and cigarettes. 1554 01:28:15,896 --> 01:28:19,521 But, well, lo and behold, you had to take shit too far… 1555 01:28:19,604 --> 01:28:20,521 [Malcolm] Come on. 1556 01:28:20,604 --> 01:28:24,937 And obliterate any and all joy there was to be found in fucking you. 1557 01:28:25,021 --> 01:28:27,896 The gloves were off, okay? We were in a fight, like… 1558 01:28:27,979 --> 01:28:32,771 Oh, it didn't support your argument. It just grossed me the fuck out. 1559 01:28:32,854 --> 01:28:36,937 It made me go, "I cannot believe I have unprotected sex 1560 01:28:37,021 --> 01:28:40,896 with this nasty-ass, grimy-dicked fuckin' brute, 1561 01:28:40,979 --> 01:28:44,771 a fuckin' animal, a fuckin' barnyard animal." 1562 01:28:44,854 --> 01:28:47,146 -[chuckles] -That's what you are. A fuckin' hog. 1563 01:28:47,229 --> 01:28:50,771 You are a shit-where-you-eat hog. Hog of a human being. 1564 01:28:50,854 --> 01:28:53,771 -[gags] -[Malcolm laughing] 1565 01:28:53,854 --> 01:28:55,562 Yeah, you fuckin' think it's funny. 1566 01:28:55,646 --> 01:28:57,854 -You're being dramatic. -I'm not being dramatic. 1567 01:28:57,937 --> 01:29:00,896 You think 'cause we had a common enemy in Karen from the LA Times, 1568 01:29:00,979 --> 01:29:02,937 all shit is sweet. We good now? 1569 01:29:03,646 --> 01:29:05,812 Think again, motherfucker. We ain't good. 1570 01:29:05,896 --> 01:29:07,062 -[chuckles] -[Malcolm laughing] 1571 01:29:07,146 --> 01:29:09,729 She's my spiritual sister. I mean that. 1572 01:29:09,812 --> 01:29:11,396 We're both seeking refuge 1573 01:29:11,479 --> 01:29:14,562 from your assaultive, battering ram of a fucking personality. 1574 01:29:14,646 --> 01:29:18,271 Because of your limitations as a partner, and a filmmaker, 1575 01:29:18,354 --> 01:29:20,354 we are both ducking for cover. 1576 01:29:20,854 --> 01:29:24,771 We may not have a lot in common, but sis and I are in the fucking foxhole. 1577 01:29:24,854 --> 01:29:27,104 Oh, you are the last person to talk, Marie. 1578 01:29:27,187 --> 01:29:29,896 You have fucked, dated some of the wildest, 1579 01:29:29,979 --> 01:29:32,854 strangest human beings that ever walked this planet Earth. 1580 01:29:32,937 --> 01:29:36,854 You have, one, no fucking standards, which is a red flag. 1581 01:29:36,937 --> 01:29:39,854 Two, no fucking type, which is also a red flag. 1582 01:29:39,937 --> 01:29:41,312 And three, no discretion. 1583 01:29:41,396 --> 01:29:43,979 Which means everyone who knows you, knows you're a red flag 1584 01:29:44,062 --> 01:29:45,937 and talks about you're a red fucking flag. 1585 01:29:46,021 --> 01:29:47,854 Well, Malcolm, here's the difference. 1586 01:29:47,937 --> 01:29:53,479 I'm not lugging my balls around this house bragging about the places they've been. 1587 01:29:54,354 --> 01:29:55,687 I don't need to know the details. 1588 01:29:55,771 --> 01:29:59,979 I don't need to know all the… the moves and the steps 1589 01:30:00,062 --> 01:30:03,187 and the places that brought you to my doorstep. You're here. 1590 01:30:04,812 --> 01:30:07,437 I loved you unconditionally. Why? 1591 01:30:08,646 --> 01:30:10,854 Because I value mystery. 1592 01:30:11,521 --> 01:30:14,896 The unknown. It's what supports the tension of a relationship 1593 01:30:14,979 --> 01:30:18,312 and forces us to be the best version of ourselves. The what-if factor. 1594 01:30:18,937 --> 01:30:22,354 What if there's someone who loved him better? 1595 01:30:23,979 --> 01:30:26,312 Who was smarter, nicer. 1596 01:30:26,396 --> 01:30:29,312 Woke him up every day with breakfast and a blowjob. 1597 01:30:30,604 --> 01:30:33,062 What if I'm not the best girlfriend he's ever had? 1598 01:30:33,854 --> 01:30:36,062 What if he dreams of someone else? 1599 01:30:36,146 --> 01:30:39,479 Better conversations, a girl with hips and an actual ass 1600 01:30:39,562 --> 01:30:42,646 instead of this string bean body? 1601 01:30:42,729 --> 01:30:45,521 Look, I know a little bit about your type. 1602 01:30:45,604 --> 01:30:49,479 Not so much that I'm paralyzed with insecurity and doubt. 1603 01:30:50,896 --> 01:30:53,229 So that every single day when I get up, 1604 01:30:54,062 --> 01:30:57,062 and I talk to you, and I wear this fancy fuckin' dress, 1605 01:30:57,146 --> 01:30:58,729 and I hold your hand, 1606 01:30:58,812 --> 01:31:02,729 I'm trying to be the best girlfriend you have ever had. 1607 01:31:04,646 --> 01:31:07,646 So, when you tell me that who I'm up against is Kiki… 1608 01:31:07,729 --> 01:31:10,729 -Here we go with the bullshit. Here we go. -…from St. Louis, 1609 01:31:10,812 --> 01:31:15,062 in a heart-shaped bathtub, it makes me give a lot less of a fuck. 1610 01:31:15,146 --> 01:31:16,771 You gotta bring up all the shit. 1611 01:31:16,854 --> 01:31:19,687 I don't know where you're going, but I'm not done. 1612 01:31:21,271 --> 01:31:23,771 I'm not even fucking close to being done. 1613 01:31:25,062 --> 01:31:26,646 [Malcolm sighs] 1614 01:31:26,729 --> 01:31:30,354 But what it also makes me realize, the reason you don't get jealous 1615 01:31:30,437 --> 01:31:33,062 is because you don't value that mystery, do you? 1616 01:31:33,646 --> 01:31:35,146 The reason you don't value it, 1617 01:31:35,979 --> 01:31:39,021 the reason why you never wonder if you're the best fuck I've ever had, 1618 01:31:39,104 --> 01:31:41,687 or the most talented person I've ever been with, 1619 01:31:41,771 --> 01:31:43,812 or the kindest, or the smartest, 1620 01:31:44,521 --> 01:31:46,479 it's because it is inconceivable to you 1621 01:31:46,562 --> 01:31:50,312 that there is anybody on this planet that is more interesting than you are. 1622 01:31:51,229 --> 01:31:52,187 [clicks tongue] 1623 01:31:52,271 --> 01:31:56,437 Your lack of curiosity is merely an extension of your narcissism, 1624 01:31:56,521 --> 01:31:59,812 your megalomania, your egotistical view of the world. 1625 01:32:00,687 --> 01:32:02,271 As a result of never doubting yourself, 1626 01:32:02,354 --> 01:32:07,229 you never stopped to ask yourself, "How can I be a better partner?" 1627 01:32:11,687 --> 01:32:15,021 You're good. You are set. 1628 01:32:16,562 --> 01:32:20,062 The man I'm looking at right now is as good as he's gonna get. 1629 01:32:24,187 --> 01:32:25,729 You yelling at me in a bathtub 1630 01:32:25,812 --> 01:32:28,354 about how you're gonna snap me like a twig, 1631 01:32:29,229 --> 01:32:32,937 is the best and worst of who you will be in this relationship. 1632 01:32:37,646 --> 01:32:40,646 And that's why you can forget to thank me in your speech. 1633 01:32:42,479 --> 01:32:46,479 Because you're not afraid that I'm gonna come home and go… [inhales deeply] 1634 01:32:46,604 --> 01:32:50,812 "You know what? You lost me tonight. Fuck this shit. I am out." 1635 01:32:53,521 --> 01:32:57,896 But if you steamroll every single person in your midst, day in and day out, 1636 01:32:57,979 --> 01:33:02,479 you are going to end up living in a fictional fucking reality. 1637 01:33:05,604 --> 01:33:06,687 Look at me. 1638 01:33:09,854 --> 01:33:11,771 I'm the last person standing. 1639 01:33:13,146 --> 01:33:18,896 I'm the last person to look at you and go, "You know what? Up your fucking game." 1640 01:33:19,521 --> 01:33:21,562 "If not for me, then for your work." 1641 01:33:23,812 --> 01:33:27,479 Malcolm, if this is a movie, you hold on to me for dear fucking life. 1642 01:33:29,021 --> 01:33:31,271 Because that's who we've been for one another. 1643 01:33:31,979 --> 01:33:36,354 That's who you've been for me and I've been for you from the day we met. 1644 01:33:38,437 --> 01:33:42,271 From the day I overdosed in that market, from the day you drove me to rehab. 1645 01:33:42,854 --> 01:33:44,771 From the first day I read your script 1646 01:33:44,854 --> 01:33:48,979 about me, about us, about our relationship. 1647 01:33:50,687 --> 01:33:53,354 About how drugs were destroying my ability to love you 1648 01:33:53,437 --> 01:33:55,396 and your ability to love me. 1649 01:34:02,562 --> 01:34:05,812 All I wanted tonight was a "thank you," Malcolm. That is it. 1650 01:34:07,521 --> 01:34:08,521 That's all. 1651 01:34:11,021 --> 01:34:14,146 "Thank you, Marie. Thank you for loving me." 1652 01:34:14,979 --> 01:34:18,396 "Thank you for making my life better, for getting your life together." 1653 01:34:19,021 --> 01:34:22,854 "Thank you for watching 100 cuts and reading 100 fucking drafts." 1654 01:34:22,937 --> 01:34:26,354 "Thank you for your notes, your experience, your patience, 1655 01:34:26,437 --> 01:34:30,646 your authen-fucking-ticity you bring to this film. Thank you." 1656 01:34:32,396 --> 01:34:35,521 "Thank you for being a drug addict. Thank you for being clean." 1657 01:34:36,271 --> 01:34:40,146 "Thank you for dumb shit, like buying toilet paper and milk 1658 01:34:40,229 --> 01:34:43,312 and organizing the shit with the movers. Thank you." 1659 01:34:43,396 --> 01:34:45,562 "Thank you for doing the shit I don't wanna think about." 1660 01:34:45,646 --> 01:34:48,687 "Thank you for making me coffee. Thank you for making me smile." 1661 01:34:49,437 --> 01:34:52,729 "Thank you for the good sex and the cuddles." 1662 01:34:53,896 --> 01:34:54,937 [Malcolm sniffs] 1663 01:34:56,354 --> 01:34:59,896 "Thank you for doing the laundry and picking out my suit tonight 1664 01:34:59,979 --> 01:35:03,104 and making my ungrateful ass some mac and cheese 1665 01:35:03,187 --> 01:35:05,437 after I forgot to fuckin' thank you." 1666 01:35:11,771 --> 01:35:14,687 "Thank you for the mistakes you've made… 1667 01:35:18,521 --> 01:35:21,062 for the charm you bring, the life you bring." 1668 01:35:21,146 --> 01:35:22,812 "Thank you for loving me." 1669 01:35:25,187 --> 01:35:29,187 "Thank you for getting over this, for moving forward, for being you." 1670 01:35:30,979 --> 01:35:33,896 "Thank you for all the shit I forget to thank you for… 1671 01:35:35,062 --> 01:35:38,937 and thank you for looking so goddamn sexy in that dress tonight." 1672 01:35:43,729 --> 01:35:45,104 "You make me look good." 1673 01:35:46,396 --> 01:35:48,104 "You make me a better person." 1674 01:35:53,062 --> 01:35:54,604 "Thank you for understanding 1675 01:35:55,354 --> 01:35:58,062 that I'm not always great at expressing how I feel 1676 01:35:58,812 --> 01:36:01,479 and it comes out in my work more than in real life." 1677 01:36:03,187 --> 01:36:04,479 "Thank you because… 1678 01:36:07,729 --> 01:36:11,604 I know it doesn't always feel good, so I hope you can live with that." 1679 01:36:16,312 --> 01:36:18,187 [voice breaking] "Thank you." 1680 01:36:18,271 --> 01:36:20,521 "I know I'm emotionally obtuse sometimes, 1681 01:36:20,604 --> 01:36:23,062 but I'm grateful you don't hold it against me." 1682 01:36:24,187 --> 01:36:25,187 "Thank you… 1683 01:36:27,437 --> 01:36:29,062 for assuming the best." 1684 01:36:31,854 --> 01:36:35,979 "I love you, Marie. I'll always love you, my Marie." 1685 01:36:37,646 --> 01:36:38,646 "Thank you." 1686 01:36:40,354 --> 01:36:43,104 "From the bottom of my heart, thank you." 1687 01:36:52,396 --> 01:36:53,771 I love you, Marie. 1688 01:37:03,312 --> 01:37:05,062 [jazz music playing] 1689 01:37:15,354 --> 01:37:17,479 [slow jazz music playing] 1690 01:40:00,729 --> 01:40:02,062 [Malcolm sighs] 1691 01:40:06,812 --> 01:40:08,062 I'm sorry. 1692 01:40:18,146 --> 01:40:19,312 Thank you. 1693 01:40:21,479 --> 01:40:22,896 [Marie] You're welcome. 1694 01:40:30,979 --> 01:40:33,146 -[birds chirping] -[sighs softly] 1695 01:40:35,229 --> 01:40:36,229 [grunts] 1696 01:40:40,687 --> 01:40:41,687 [grunts] 1697 01:40:46,937 --> 01:40:47,979 Marie? 1698 01:40:51,479 --> 01:40:52,896 [sighs] 1699 01:40:53,604 --> 01:40:54,687 Marie? 1700 01:40:59,521 --> 01:41:00,771 [grunts] 1701 01:41:08,771 --> 01:41:09,646 [sighs] 1702 01:41:20,562 --> 01:41:21,646 Marie! 1703 01:41:37,812 --> 01:41:39,312 -[birds chirping] -Marie! 1704 01:42:09,562 --> 01:42:11,896 ["Liberation" by OutKast ft. Cee-Lo playing] 1705 01:42:21,896 --> 01:42:23,854 ♪ And there's a, and there's a ♪ 1706 01:42:23,937 --> 01:42:27,854 ♪ And there's a And there's a fine line ♪ 1707 01:42:27,937 --> 01:42:30,562 ♪ Too late, but baby, I'm on it ♪ 1708 01:42:30,646 --> 01:42:32,396 ♪ Ya, yeah, yeah ♪ 1709 01:42:32,479 --> 01:42:34,229 ♪ Yo, yo, uh-huh ♪ 1710 01:42:34,312 --> 01:42:38,229 ♪ There's a fine line Between love and hate, you see ♪ 1711 01:42:38,312 --> 01:42:42,479 ♪ Came way too late but, baby, I'm on it ♪ 1712 01:42:46,562 --> 01:42:50,479 ♪ And there's a fine line Between love and hate, you see ♪ 1713 01:42:50,562 --> 01:42:54,854 ♪ Came way too late but, baby, I'm on it ♪ 1714 01:42:59,021 --> 01:43:02,729 ♪ Can't worry 'bout What a nigga think, now see ♪ 1715 01:43:02,812 --> 01:43:07,187 ♪ That's liberation and, baby, I want it ♪ 1716 01:43:11,146 --> 01:43:14,812 ♪ Can't worry 'bout What another nigga think ♪ 1717 01:43:14,896 --> 01:43:19,062 ♪ Now that's liberation And, baby, I want it ♪ 1718 01:43:20,437 --> 01:43:22,979 ♪ Lemme hear it, lemme hear it Lemme though, lemme hear it ♪ 1719 01:43:23,062 --> 01:43:26,937 ♪ How many times I sit back and contemplate? ♪ 1720 01:43:27,021 --> 01:43:31,271 ♪ I'm fresh off the dank But I'm tellin' my story ♪ 1721 01:43:35,396 --> 01:43:39,021 ♪ My relationship with my folks Is give-and-take ♪ 1722 01:43:39,104 --> 01:43:43,479 ♪ And I done took so much Now give me my glory ♪ 1723 01:43:47,687 --> 01:43:51,271 ♪ To have a choice to be Who you wants to be ♪ 1724 01:43:51,354 --> 01:43:55,812 ♪ It's left up-a to me And my momma n'em told me ♪ 1725 01:43:56,812 --> 01:43:57,979 ♪ Yes, she did ♪ 1726 01:43:59,396 --> 01:44:03,187 ♪ I say, to have a choice to be Who you wants to be ♪ 1727 01:44:03,271 --> 01:44:08,187 ♪ It's left up-a to me And my momma n'em told me ♪ 1728 01:44:08,271 --> 01:44:11,229 ♪ No, no, no ♪ 1729 01:44:12,521 --> 01:44:15,104 ♪ Oh, Lord, I'm so tired, I'm so tired ♪ 1730 01:44:15,187 --> 01:44:19,437 ♪ My feet feel like I walked Most of the road on my own ♪ 1731 01:44:20,354 --> 01:44:22,771 ♪ All on my own ♪ 1732 01:44:25,187 --> 01:44:29,021 ♪ We alive but we ain't livin' That's why I'm givin' until it's gone ♪ 1733 01:44:29,104 --> 01:44:30,896 ♪ 'Cause I don't wanna be alone ♪ 1734 01:44:30,979 --> 01:44:32,312 ♪ I don't wanna be alone ♪ 1735 01:44:32,396 --> 01:44:33,896 ♪ I don't wanna be alone ♪ 1736 01:44:33,979 --> 01:44:35,937 -♪ Yeah ♪ -♪ No, no, no ♪ 1737 01:44:36,021 --> 01:44:39,979 ♪ If anything I can say to help you find Believe we could fly ♪ 1738 01:44:41,229 --> 01:44:44,937 ♪ But I can feel it in the wind Beginning or the end ♪ 1739 01:44:45,021 --> 01:44:49,062 ♪ But people, keep your head to the sky ♪ 1740 01:44:49,146 --> 01:44:51,937 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1741 01:44:52,021 --> 01:44:54,937 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1742 01:44:55,021 --> 01:44:58,021 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1743 01:44:58,104 --> 01:45:01,021 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1744 01:45:01,104 --> 01:45:04,062 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1745 01:45:04,146 --> 01:45:07,229 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1746 01:45:07,312 --> 01:45:10,187 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1747 01:45:10,271 --> 01:45:13,271 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1748 01:45:13,354 --> 01:45:16,312 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1749 01:45:16,396 --> 01:45:19,146 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1750 01:45:19,229 --> 01:45:22,312 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1751 01:45:22,396 --> 01:45:25,271 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪