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Glennon Doyle (on podcast):
It's the same phenomenon.
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I'm gonna throw
myself off the cliff,
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and just assume that the
person I'm gonna become after
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is gonna be at
the bottom of the cliff
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- and is gonna catch me.
- Mm.
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Glennon:
And that there's
a bunch of shit
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that's gonna happen
in that fall...
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Yeah.
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Glennon:
...that's gonna change
me into a different woman
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by the time I catch
myself at the bottom.
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- Oh, shoot.
- Glennon: And so,
you trust that...
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- Trust it.
- Glennon: I don't even
know if it's trust.
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- But it's a ridiculous...
- (tires screech, crash)
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- ...hunch.
- Oh, God!
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Sister (on podcast):
It's a devil's bargain.
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- No!
- Sister: You can’t stay,
you can’t leave...
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- (groans, exhales)
- ...so here the fuck goes.
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Glennon:
You could stay.
You could though.
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No, no, no, I cannot deal
with this right now.
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- I cannot deal with this!
- (podcast continues)
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- Shut up, shut up.
I love you, but shut up.
- (podcast stops)
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(sighs) No!
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(wails)
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- (Joel grunts)
- (door chiming)
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(muffled)
Oh, no.
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Oh, what have I done?
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What have I done?
What have I done?
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(gentle music playing)
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♪
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- Hey!
- Hey.
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- What? What's going on?
- Oh, nothing.
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(emotional)
I just rammed my car into
a very sweet old lady.
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Okay.
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Oh, my God, you didn't--
You didn't kill her, did you?
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No, no,
it was just a fender b--
(gasps) fender bender,
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- but, um--
- Is everything okay?
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- Um...
- Would some French toast
for the table help?
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Yeah,
it would actually.
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Yeah. That's worth
a shot, right?
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You nailed
an old lady, right?
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- (cries)
- Got a little fender bender.
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- (crying) Yeah.
- It's okay!
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- (phone buzzing)
- Hold on.
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Oh, my God.
She's calling me.
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Why is she calling me?
She said she was fine.
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She hurt
her fuckin' neck?
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- (buzzing stops)
- Hello?
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Yeah.
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(weak laugh)
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No, I am.
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Yes.
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Absolutely.
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Bye-bye.
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Well, that,
that sounded good.
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Was--
Was that good?
It was good.
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She was just calling
to see if I was okay
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'cause she realized
she hadn't asked me
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when we had the wreck.
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- Oh, wow. Oh, that's--
- (crying)
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- That's nice.
- It's the nicest thing
that anybody's ever done.
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Sam:
Joel, look!
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Look, Joel!
French toasty!
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- You love French toasty!
- Yes, I do. I do,
I do, I do, I do.
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(blows nose)
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I'm sorry,
that was really loud.
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I'm sorry. Let's just
change the subject.
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- You sure?
- Let's just
change the subject.
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You wanna talk about,
um, sneaky, uh, husbands?
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Um...
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- (quietly yells) Fred!
- (scoffs)
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Fred Rococo.
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- Not me. Not me.
- Joel: Oh!
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You are so busted.
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(quietly)
What? I'm just picking
up a salad. No big deal.
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Fred, have you been coming
here this whole time?
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- No.
- Well, your secret's
safe with us.
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- Why don't you just sit
down and join us, huh?
- Yeah.
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Here? In front of
this French toast?
You're killin' me!
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It's a treat day.
Just ignore it.
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Okay, Fred.
Got your cheeseburger
and fries.
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- Fred!
- Fred.
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What? Sometimes,
I wanna be a bad,
bad boy.
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- (Joel and Sam laugh)
- Sam: Oh, wow!
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Oh! Oh, he--
Oh-- (laughs)
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(birds chirping)
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Wait. Right there?
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Yeah.
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Sam: Oh, Joel,
that's not that bad.
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- Yeah, it's not
that bad, right?
- Not that bad.
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Yeah, yeah.
(sniffles)
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Are you okay to drive?
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'Cause I can
give you a lift,
if you want.
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Would that be nice?
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Oh, no, no, no.
I'm okay, I'm okay.
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I just got a little
shook up there,
but it's okay.
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Oh, I wish you
could come over,
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and I'd get you all
nursed back to health.
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We could do, like,
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'tinis,
and tickle fights,
and--
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I could do that.
We could do that!
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- I wanna do that.
- You can?
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- You don't-- You don't
have to ask Brad first?
- No!
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- He's my boyfriend, not my mom!
- (laughing)
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I can do what I want!
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And I wanna have a s--
a slumber party!
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Oh, my God.
Seriously,
I'm so excited.
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This is gonna be...
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(sighs) I don't know.
I need this.
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It's gonna be
like old times.
I'm really excited.
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(crying)
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Joel, no! (laughing)
Come on!
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I have not
seen you like this
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- since we watched
"Mr. Holland's Opus" together.
- (laughs)
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Pull it together!
Come on. (chuckles)
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(sobs) I'm fine.
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(shudders)
I'm fine.
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- You sure?
- I'm fine. Yeah.
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- Okay.
- Yeah. (gasps)
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'Cause if,
if you want me to,
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I'd be happy to sing
just a little bit of
"Beautiful Boy" and I--
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- (laughs) Don't you dare!
You put those hands down!
- I think--
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- My fingers,
I think I--
- No!
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'Cause that's the part
that fucks me up the most!
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- Put 'em--
Put 'em down.
- (laughing)
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- Fucks me up, too.
- (sobbing laugh)
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- Oh, God.
- God, I still can't believe
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Richard Dreyfuss didn't
win an Oscar for that.
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Wasn't his year.
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- (gentle music playing)
- (cows mooing)
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(birds chirping)
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Tricia:
Oh well, guess what?
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I don't give a rat's ass
if you're at work, Rick!
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No! Oh, no, no!
What I really wanna know is
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who is the skank
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that you hooked up
with this time, Rick?!
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- You just go and get chlamydia?!
- (door shuts)
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And then, you just
give it to me? I mean,
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who does that?!
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Oh, no, no.
No, no, no, no.
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You do not
play dumb with me!
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Yes, I went to the doctor!
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Yes, I got tested, you idiot!
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Did you?
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Me? Oh! (scoffs)
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No! No!
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There is literally no way
I could've given it to you!
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It is medically impossible!
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I didn't just, like,
dream up chlamydia
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and pull it outta the sky
and say, "Ooh, fun!
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"I'm gonna give this STD
to my goddamn idiot,
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- ass-eating ex-husband who--"
- Gimme the phone.
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- (panting)
- Hey Rick. Hi, it's Sam.
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Yeah, you know,
everybody knows
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that you can't keep
your dick in your pants.
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Nope, nope, nope.
No, shut the fuck up,
I'm talking now.
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Yeah, it was you.
Yes.
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So, you
and your dirty dick
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need to stay the fuck
away from my sister.
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Do we understand?
We understand.
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Alright, good. Is there
anything else you wanna add?
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Yeah! Yeah.
J-- Asshole!
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Okay, I think that's gonna
do it, Rick. Thank you.
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Go fuck yourself.
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- Tricia (panting): Yeah. Ho!
- Okay!
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- So, you finally called him?
- Yeah.
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- Yeah? How do you feel?
- Yeah. Feel really good.
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- Good?
- Yeah.
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- Alright, good.
You want some time?
- No, no!
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- I'm fired the fuck up!
- Okay, well--
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- God, that felt good!
- Good!
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- Now, where do you want me?
- You sit right there.
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- Okay, right here.
- Are you ready?
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Oh, I'm,
I'm real ready.
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(sighs)
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(calmly)
Mitch, Helen,
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I am so excited to
share this with you.
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Welcome to
Konza For A Cure.
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- (soft clapping, giggles)
- Thank you.
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I have a mockup
of the space here.
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Um, as you can see,
we have our tables out front
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when guests arrive,
where they will register.
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We will give them a paddle,
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and we will register
their phone number
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for the live auction.
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I'm not gonna say
"register" twice.
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- Love it. Killing it.
- (clears throat) Thank you.
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Um, over here, we have displays
of our live auction items,
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which we're
very excited about.
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We have box seats
to the football game,
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we have two tickets to
see "Hairspray" at McCain,
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and we have
a brew-your-own-beer
experience
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at Manhattan
Brewing Company.
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- I knew you'd like that one.
- That's really cool.
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Now...
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Mitch, Helen,
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I know that you didn't wanna
make this night about you,
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but your story is
so inspirational,
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and I know that it will
resonate so deeply with people.
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It will give them
something to connect with,
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and hopefully inspire
them to give generously.
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- Can I?
- Yeah, of course.
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I mean...
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Wow, Trish, this is...
really cool.
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- I didn't know you
were gonna do this.
- Yeah, you like it?
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Sam:
I love it.
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My God, she beat cancer
three times.
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Yeah, I know.
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She's such a fighter.
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And he loves her
so much, it's crazy.
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Yeah.
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Anyway, so that's...
that's most of it.
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Wow. I mean,
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- you are so good at
this shit, Tricia.
- (Tricia giggling)
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Well, I just wanna make them
a ton of money that night,
you know?
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I learned so much
doing this.
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Like, they are doing
incredible research
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for cancer
up at K State.
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I didn't even know they
were doing that, did you?
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- No, I had no idea.
- I know! And I just--
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I just wanna, like,
back a truck up
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with stacks of money
for them, you know?
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No family
should have to go--
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Well, I mean, you know.
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Yeah.
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Mm...
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(sighs)
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What if... (sighs)
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- What if what?
- Well...
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What if you did,
like, "$10 for a Cure"
at a football game?
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I mean, you could
throw up, like, a,
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a number on the big screen
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that people could
text and donate.
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You know, they just
text the number,
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donate 10 bucks,
boom, done, you know?
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I don't know, I mean--
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But, if there were
50,000 people there,
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and even... a quarter
donated something,
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00:08:29,801 --> 00:08:31,010
you could...
239
00:08:31,011 --> 00:08:33,221
- It's kind of a lot of money.
- Damn.
240
00:08:34,848 --> 00:08:36,432
I mean, that's good.
241
00:08:36,433 --> 00:08:38,268
That's--
That's really good.
242
00:08:38,268 --> 00:08:39,894
- (both laugh)
- Alright. (claps)
243
00:08:41,104 --> 00:08:42,646
P-Put your hand here.
244
00:08:42,647 --> 00:08:44,356
- My hand?
- Put your-- Get y--
Yeah, put it right here.
245
00:08:44,357 --> 00:08:47,110
And on the count of three,
we're gonna go one, two, three,
246
00:08:47,110 --> 00:08:48,360
manifest!
247
00:08:48,361 --> 00:08:50,112
- (laughing) Okay.
- But you gotta say it like that.
248
00:08:50,113 --> 00:08:51,155
- (deep voice) Manifest!
- Okay.
249
00:08:51,156 --> 00:08:52,781
(normal)
One, two, three.
250
00:08:52,782 --> 00:08:54,450
- both (deep voice): Manifest!
- (giggling)
251
00:08:54,451 --> 00:08:55,617
(normal) Okay,
that never happened.
252
00:08:55,618 --> 00:08:56,702
(both laughing)
253
00:08:56,703 --> 00:08:57,954
Alright, well,
I gotta get outta here.
254
00:08:57,954 --> 00:08:58,996
You--
You're gonna be great!
255
00:08:58,997 --> 00:09:00,456
No, no! No, no,
I want you to stay.
256
00:09:00,457 --> 00:09:02,625
No, no.
I don't do rich people.
That's not my thing.
257
00:09:02,625 --> 00:09:04,126
Sam, he's not like
rich people. I promise.
258
00:09:04,127 --> 00:09:05,502
Tricia, they can't
help themselves.
259
00:09:05,503 --> 00:09:07,964
No! Sam, I'm nervous.
I want you to stay.
260
00:09:07,964 --> 00:09:10,507
Sorry, I gotta...
I got something I gotta do.
261
00:09:10,508 --> 00:09:12,676
(scoffs) What do--
You have to do something, really?
262
00:09:12,677 --> 00:09:15,054
- Yeah, I got something
I gotta do.
- Is it Iceland?
263
00:09:15,055 --> 00:09:16,638
- Oh God, leave me alone.
- Oh, my God, it is!
264
00:09:16,639 --> 00:09:18,475
- You're seeing Iceland?
- Oh, my God, Tricia, leave me--
265
00:09:18,475 --> 00:09:19,975
Please tell me you're
not wearing that, please.
266
00:09:19,976 --> 00:09:22,186
- What? (scoffs)
- Just-- I'm just saying, like,
267
00:09:22,187 --> 00:09:23,520
put a little curl
in your hair.
268
00:09:23,521 --> 00:09:24,813
- Maybe, like, just--
- Tricia!
269
00:09:24,814 --> 00:09:26,023
- Maybe some lip gloss?
- Tricia!
270
00:09:26,024 --> 00:09:27,316
Just, whatever you do,
271
00:09:27,317 --> 00:09:28,734
get a good look at it
beforehand.
272
00:09:28,735 --> 00:09:29,985
Sam:
Ugh! Sit on it!
273
00:09:29,986 --> 00:09:31,112
- (door shuts)
- (Tricia sputters)
274
00:09:34,324 --> 00:09:37,160
(gentle music playing)
275
00:09:37,160 --> 00:09:40,288
(birds chirping)
276
00:09:42,582 --> 00:09:43,583
(sighs)
277
00:10:05,480 --> 00:10:06,731
(exhales)
278
00:10:22,330 --> 00:10:23,331
(sighs)
279
00:10:40,473 --> 00:10:41,641
(puts down lip gloss)
280
00:11:00,702 --> 00:11:03,705
- (emotional music playing)
- (inhales deeply)
281
00:11:04,956 --> 00:11:06,291
(exhales)
282
00:11:08,126 --> 00:11:10,628
(sniffles) Jesus.
283
00:11:11,379 --> 00:11:12,380
(sighs)
284
00:11:15,383 --> 00:11:16,384
(sighs)
285
00:11:18,970 --> 00:11:19,971
(sighs)
286
00:11:21,222 --> 00:11:22,849
- (bed rattles)
- (sighs)
287
00:11:24,142 --> 00:11:25,310
(blows nose)
288
00:11:27,562 --> 00:11:30,065
(sniffles, sighs)
289
00:11:31,858 --> 00:11:33,860
(sighs deeply)
290
00:11:35,320 --> 00:11:37,655
(sighs)
Jesus, keep it together.
291
00:11:40,075 --> 00:11:42,327
♪
292
00:11:48,375 --> 00:11:49,918
(mutters, sniffs)
293
00:11:51,211 --> 00:11:52,754
(sighs) Of course.
294
00:11:56,257 --> 00:11:57,759
(sighs)
295
00:12:07,894 --> 00:12:09,396
(sighs)
296
00:12:12,524 --> 00:12:13,525
(sniffles)
297
00:12:13,942 --> 00:12:15,193
Alright.
298
00:12:17,737 --> 00:12:19,030
(quietly)
Not a big deal.
299
00:12:19,864 --> 00:12:21,700
Not a big deal.
300
00:12:27,580 --> 00:12:30,583
(truck rattling, squeaking)
301
00:12:32,127 --> 00:12:34,087
(brakes squeal)
302
00:12:40,927 --> 00:12:41,928
(sniffles)
303
00:12:46,766 --> 00:12:48,143
(inner door opens)
304
00:12:48,810 --> 00:12:50,894
- Hi! (chuckles)
- (outer door creaks)
305
00:12:50,895 --> 00:12:53,815
- Hey.
- Hi. Um...
306
00:12:55,066 --> 00:12:57,192
sorry I'm a little late,
I was-- (clears throat)
307
00:12:57,193 --> 00:12:59,028
I had a frash--
a fashion emergency.
308
00:12:59,029 --> 00:13:01,865
- (giggles)
- Oh. I like the shirt.
309
00:13:01,865 --> 00:13:03,575
Oh. Thanks, I'm--
310
00:13:04,492 --> 00:13:05,910
Yeah, I thought
I'd try something new.
311
00:13:06,578 --> 00:13:08,121
It works.
312
00:13:08,663 --> 00:13:09,914
You look really nice.
313
00:13:10,623 --> 00:13:12,708
- Sorry?
- I said you look really nice.
314
00:13:12,709 --> 00:13:14,753
Oh. Thank you.
Uh, um...
315
00:13:15,503 --> 00:13:16,796
Thanks.
316
00:13:17,964 --> 00:13:19,715
Where's, um, Wesley? I...
317
00:13:19,716 --> 00:13:20,759
(nervous laugh)
318
00:13:21,843 --> 00:13:24,053
He's like my emotional
support animal, I think.
319
00:13:24,054 --> 00:13:25,764
- Well, he's mine, too.
- (both chuckle)
320
00:13:26,473 --> 00:13:28,223
Uh, he's sleeping. Um...
321
00:13:28,224 --> 00:13:30,225
- Oh, okay.
- You want me
to call him?
322
00:13:30,226 --> 00:13:32,061
Nah, it's okay.
323
00:13:32,062 --> 00:13:34,606
I'll call him. Wesley!
(clicking tongue)
324
00:13:35,023 --> 00:13:37,483
- (speaking Icelandic)
- Hey!
325
00:13:37,484 --> 00:13:40,278
- (laughing) Hi! Hi!
- (Iceland laughs softly)
326
00:13:40,904 --> 00:13:42,780
- Good boy!
- Iceland: Yeah.
327
00:13:42,781 --> 00:13:44,949
I think he's just as
nervous as I am. (laughs)
328
00:13:45,325 --> 00:13:46,326
(sighs)
329
00:13:47,077 --> 00:13:48,370
Um...
330
00:13:49,120 --> 00:13:52,123
Uh, do you want, uh,
wanna go for a walk?
331
00:13:53,625 --> 00:13:55,001
Yeah. Sure.
332
00:13:55,669 --> 00:13:57,170
Okay. I'll, um,
333
00:13:57,962 --> 00:13:59,673
- get my coat.
- Okay.
334
00:14:06,179 --> 00:14:08,682
(birds chirping)
335
00:14:13,019 --> 00:14:14,853
- (Sam laughs)
- (Wesley panting)
336
00:14:14,854 --> 00:14:16,314
(Iceland laughs)
337
00:14:18,316 --> 00:14:21,319
(Wesley panting)
338
00:14:22,404 --> 00:14:25,197
- So, um, how are
the chickens doing?
- (Iceland inhales)
339
00:14:25,198 --> 00:14:28,159
Uh, they're good.
Um, put some toys in there.
340
00:14:28,993 --> 00:14:31,371
- They get bored,
they start fighting.
- (laughs)
341
00:14:32,330 --> 00:14:34,332
Chickens.
They're just like us.
342
00:14:37,168 --> 00:14:38,586
(awkward laugh)
343
00:14:39,504 --> 00:14:42,715
I, um, built some
beds over there.
344
00:14:42,716 --> 00:14:44,759
Brussels sprouts,
broccoli...
345
00:14:45,760 --> 00:14:47,970
Um, rutabagas.
346
00:14:47,971 --> 00:14:51,056
I had some mustard greens there,
but the, the deer got them.
347
00:14:51,057 --> 00:14:53,435
Aw, yeah.
You know, my...
348
00:14:54,519 --> 00:14:56,353
my dad used to do this
thing where he would
349
00:14:56,354 --> 00:14:59,149
string up bars of soap
to keep 'em away.
350
00:14:59,149 --> 00:15:01,693
I mean, I don't know if it
really did anything, but, um,
351
00:15:02,193 --> 00:15:04,528
he never wanted to do anything
that would hurt 'em, so...
352
00:15:04,529 --> 00:15:06,990
Oh. I like that idea.
353
00:15:06,990 --> 00:15:08,074
(chuckles slightly)
354
00:15:08,783 --> 00:15:12,077
Yeah, and I seeded some
buckwheat over there.
355
00:15:12,078 --> 00:15:13,996
English peas--
Sorry about that.
356
00:15:13,997 --> 00:15:15,707
- (Sam laughs)
- Um...
357
00:15:17,417 --> 00:15:19,711
Yeah, the soil
needed a rest.
358
00:15:21,463 --> 00:15:23,088
Soil.
359
00:15:23,089 --> 00:15:24,758
It's just like us.
360
00:15:26,468 --> 00:15:27,843
(chuckles slightly)
361
00:15:27,844 --> 00:15:30,095
Um, do--
362
00:15:30,096 --> 00:15:33,141
(calm music playing)
363
00:15:34,934 --> 00:15:37,686
(insects chirping)
364
00:15:37,687 --> 00:15:40,565
(breeze rustling)
365
00:15:44,736 --> 00:15:46,196
Do you shoot?
366
00:15:46,196 --> 00:15:48,198
Uh...
I gave it a try.
367
00:15:48,198 --> 00:15:49,907
Oh yeah?
How'd it go?
368
00:15:49,908 --> 00:15:51,116
Took a minute.
369
00:15:51,117 --> 00:15:53,912
Well, it's... it's not
as easy as it looks.
370
00:15:54,954 --> 00:15:56,414
But, um...
371
00:15:57,540 --> 00:15:58,874
You know, if...
372
00:15:58,875 --> 00:16:01,251
if you want, I could...
show you--
373
00:16:01,252 --> 00:16:03,546
You know, you basically,
you just need to
find your anchor,
374
00:16:03,546 --> 00:16:05,965
and then (clicks tongue)
it kinda all falls into place.
375
00:16:06,758 --> 00:16:08,760
- Ah, that makes sense.
- Yeah.
376
00:16:12,180 --> 00:16:14,683
Well, yeah, you-- Well,
I-I think we're doing great.
377
00:16:16,976 --> 00:16:18,353
Yeah, I think so, too.
378
00:16:20,814 --> 00:16:23,608
Um...
(awkward laugh)
379
00:16:24,359 --> 00:16:25,902
This is embarrassing,
but I was afraid
380
00:16:25,902 --> 00:16:27,569
that we weren't gonna have
anything to talk about,
381
00:16:27,570 --> 00:16:28,905
so I made a list.
382
00:16:29,447 --> 00:16:31,491
- You made a list?
- Yeah, I made a list. (laughs)
383
00:16:32,325 --> 00:16:34,076
- Well, can I see it?
- No, no.
384
00:16:34,077 --> 00:16:35,911
(laughs) Oh, please?
385
00:16:35,912 --> 00:16:37,996
- Oh, it's really bad.
- It can't be that bad.
386
00:16:37,997 --> 00:16:39,332
It's not a good list!
387
00:16:39,708 --> 00:16:41,543
Let me see it. Please.
388
00:16:42,002 --> 00:16:43,837
(sighs)
389
00:16:44,713 --> 00:16:45,797
Okay.
390
00:16:49,968 --> 00:16:51,469
Oh, my God.
(laughs)
391
00:16:54,597 --> 00:16:57,516
- "Dogs."
- Okay, you don't have
to read it out loud.
392
00:16:57,517 --> 00:17:00,270
- No, I wanna answer all
your questions about me.
- Okay.
393
00:17:00,270 --> 00:17:02,939
"Have you always had dogs?"
Well, mostly.
394
00:17:02,939 --> 00:17:05,775
I did raise a dairy calf
one year.
395
00:17:05,775 --> 00:17:08,111
Only did that once
because it just--
396
00:17:08,111 --> 00:17:11,196
it broke my heart when
I had to sell her.
397
00:17:11,197 --> 00:17:13,491
Hm. What was her name?
398
00:17:14,034 --> 00:17:15,492
Audbjorg.
399
00:17:15,493 --> 00:17:16,952
(stifled laugh)
400
00:17:16,953 --> 00:17:19,122
Um, you're making
that up, right?
401
00:17:19,122 --> 00:17:20,789
I am not.
402
00:17:20,790 --> 00:17:23,208
- I'm sorry.
- Why would you laugh?
403
00:17:23,209 --> 00:17:25,462
- That's really hurtful.
- I mean, hope-hopefully...
(laughing)
404
00:17:25,462 --> 00:17:26,545
hopefully,
she had a nickname.
405
00:17:26,546 --> 00:17:27,963
I mean, what cow's
gonna come running
406
00:17:27,964 --> 00:17:29,048
when they hear that?
407
00:17:29,049 --> 00:17:31,342
(both laughing)
408
00:17:31,343 --> 00:17:33,677
- Audbjorg!
- (laughing)
409
00:17:33,678 --> 00:17:36,305
Finally, you laugh
at one of my jokes.
410
00:17:36,306 --> 00:17:38,558
(laughing)
411
00:17:39,559 --> 00:17:42,062
I don't like how you
always put yourself down.
412
00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:46,691
(mouthing)
413
00:17:47,317 --> 00:17:49,026
So, what other
questions do you have?
414
00:17:49,027 --> 00:17:51,987
(sighs)
This is humiliating.
415
00:17:51,988 --> 00:17:54,282
"What's Iceland like?"
Um...
416
00:17:55,408 --> 00:17:57,493
It is quite cold.
417
00:17:57,494 --> 00:17:59,537
Very dark in winter.
418
00:18:01,456 --> 00:18:03,708
- Very bright in summer.
- Hm.
419
00:18:05,043 --> 00:18:06,544
Really beautiful.
420
00:18:09,214 --> 00:18:11,340
Okay, you don't have to keep
doing this if you don't want to.
421
00:18:11,341 --> 00:18:14,176
- No, I'm having fun.
- Oh, okay. (laughs)
422
00:18:14,177 --> 00:18:16,762
"Favorite music."
Um, that's easy.
423
00:18:16,763 --> 00:18:19,431
Classical. Um...
424
00:18:19,432 --> 00:18:22,185
Wagner or, uh, Debussy.
425
00:18:22,686 --> 00:18:24,395
Well, if you don't
like "Clair de lune,"
426
00:18:24,396 --> 00:18:25,688
you're an asshole, right?
427
00:18:25,689 --> 00:18:27,232
- Exactly.
- (Sam laughs)
428
00:18:28,400 --> 00:18:30,234
- Can you just
gimme that back?
- (paper crinkles)
429
00:18:30,235 --> 00:18:33,571
Because we're not
gonna have anything left
to talk about, so...
430
00:18:37,992 --> 00:18:39,744
(sighs)
431
00:18:57,137 --> 00:18:58,972
- Oh shit. Um--
- (softly) No.
432
00:19:00,640 --> 00:19:02,558
- I should have asked.
- It's okay.
433
00:19:02,559 --> 00:19:04,810
- N-No, I'm sorry. I--
- No, it's not you.
434
00:19:04,811 --> 00:19:06,813
- Um...
- Uh...
435
00:19:12,027 --> 00:19:14,446
Oh, God.
Oh, God. Um...
436
00:19:15,113 --> 00:19:16,488
Uh, you know what?
I think I'm gonna go.
437
00:19:16,489 --> 00:19:17,656
- No. But, um--
- No, I'm--
438
00:19:17,657 --> 00:19:19,284
- Don't go, please. Um...
- I wanna-- Um...
439
00:19:20,201 --> 00:19:22,037
(sighs)
Oh boy.
440
00:19:25,540 --> 00:19:27,375
I'm, I'm so sorry.
I'm--
441
00:19:28,793 --> 00:19:30,002
- Let's j-- Let's j--
- You d-- You did--
442
00:19:30,003 --> 00:19:31,087
You didn't do
anything wrong.
443
00:19:31,087 --> 00:19:32,921
Let's just walk.
Uh...
444
00:19:32,922 --> 00:19:34,131
Let's see
what happens.
445
00:19:34,132 --> 00:19:35,467
(sighs)
446
00:19:37,385 --> 00:19:39,387
I don't know,
maybe I don't
have, um...
447
00:19:41,765 --> 00:19:44,809
Maybe I don't have the
emotional infrastructure
for this.
448
00:19:47,020 --> 00:19:49,731
(sighs deeply)
449
00:19:54,486 --> 00:19:55,487
(sniffles)
450
00:19:56,571 --> 00:19:57,822
Okay.
451
00:20:08,667 --> 00:20:10,877
(sighs)
452
00:20:14,714 --> 00:20:17,466
(somber music playing)
453
00:20:17,467 --> 00:20:20,469
(birds chirping)
454
00:20:20,470 --> 00:20:23,348
(insects chirping)
455
00:20:25,558 --> 00:20:27,393
Joel: Then he said,
"Throw it," so I did!
456
00:20:27,394 --> 00:20:30,145
- (Sam laughing)
- And it bounced off the ground,
457
00:20:30,146 --> 00:20:32,523
- and it just smacked him
right in the eyes! (laughing)
- Sam: You know what?
458
00:20:32,524 --> 00:20:34,316
- Not your business,
not your problem.
- Not my b--
459
00:20:34,317 --> 00:20:35,359
It's called Catch Club.
460
00:20:35,360 --> 00:20:36,527
- It's called Catch it!
- Catch it!
461
00:20:36,528 --> 00:20:40,072
(both laughing)
462
00:20:40,073 --> 00:20:42,492
Wait, how long
are we supposed to
leave these on our feet?
463
00:20:42,492 --> 00:20:44,368
'Cause mine feel like
they're going numb.
464
00:20:44,369 --> 00:20:46,328
You know what? I--
Now that you mention it,
465
00:20:46,329 --> 00:20:48,163
- I think mine are numb, too.
- (both laugh)
466
00:20:48,164 --> 00:20:51,041
Is that bad? I thought
that was part of it.
467
00:20:51,042 --> 00:20:53,085
- Oh, God, is it?
I don't know.
- I don't know.
468
00:20:53,086 --> 00:20:54,337
I feel like we should
take them off.
469
00:20:54,337 --> 00:20:55,504
Yeah,
you're probably right.
470
00:20:55,505 --> 00:20:57,131
(both laughing)
471
00:20:57,132 --> 00:20:58,841
As much as
I like not feeling.
472
00:20:58,842 --> 00:21:00,175
(both laughing)
473
00:21:00,176 --> 00:21:01,760
- Sam!
- (plastic crinkling)
474
00:21:01,761 --> 00:21:03,512
And then,
now what happens?
475
00:21:03,513 --> 00:21:05,014
Well,
476
00:21:05,015 --> 00:21:06,307
first...
477
00:21:07,726 --> 00:21:09,519
First,
it's gonna be horrifying,
478
00:21:09,519 --> 00:21:12,355
- and then, it's gonna
be disgusting.
- (laughs)
479
00:21:12,355 --> 00:21:15,190
And then,
we're gonna have
480
00:21:15,191 --> 00:21:17,359
the babiest, softest feet
you ever did see.
481
00:21:17,360 --> 00:21:19,695
- And the numbness?
- Unclear.
482
00:21:19,696 --> 00:21:21,447
(laughs) Okay, great.
That's awesome.
483
00:21:21,448 --> 00:21:22,740
(both laughing)
484
00:21:22,741 --> 00:21:24,908
- Cheers.
- Cheers to numb feet.
485
00:21:24,909 --> 00:21:26,786
- Cheers to numb feet.
- Mm. (chuckles)
486
00:21:27,871 --> 00:21:29,288
Mm...
487
00:21:29,289 --> 00:21:32,541
- (Sam sighing)
- (soft laughing)
488
00:21:32,542 --> 00:21:36,004
Okay, so, um...
(sighs)
489
00:21:36,963 --> 00:21:38,547
Are w-- Um...
490
00:21:38,548 --> 00:21:40,883
Are we allowed to
talk about it yet?
491
00:21:40,884 --> 00:21:43,135
- Yeah.
- Should I just...?
492
00:21:43,136 --> 00:21:45,138
- Yeah.
- Okay.
493
00:21:46,931 --> 00:21:49,434
So, I know that you've
made your peace with it,
494
00:21:50,685 --> 00:21:53,438
but does what's going on have
anything to do with having kids?
495
00:21:54,439 --> 00:21:55,981
(gasps) Okay, okay.
Because I was worried
496
00:21:55,982 --> 00:21:58,234
that it might have
something to do with,
like, God or religion.
497
00:21:58,234 --> 00:21:59,651
- I'm a little
out of my depth.
- (sobs)
498
00:21:59,652 --> 00:22:02,738
Oh, God! Okay,
I'm, I'm warmer.
Okay, I'm-- Okay.
499
00:22:02,739 --> 00:22:05,617
- (Joel sobbing)
- (Sam sighs)
500
00:22:06,868 --> 00:22:08,119
I don't know--
(gasps)
501
00:22:09,037 --> 00:22:10,829
(crying laugh) Sorry.
502
00:22:10,830 --> 00:22:13,458
- No!
- I'm sorry. (crying laugh)
503
00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:17,003
(sobs) It's just that
things are really good.
504
00:22:17,837 --> 00:22:20,715
Things with Brad
are really good.
I have good friends.
505
00:22:21,466 --> 00:22:22,467
I have you.
506
00:22:23,301 --> 00:22:25,636
(crying laugh)
507
00:22:25,637 --> 00:22:28,682
Things in my life
are wonderful. Why...
508
00:22:29,349 --> 00:22:30,809
isn't that enough?
509
00:22:32,394 --> 00:22:35,479
Well, what's wrong with
wanting a little bit more?
510
00:22:35,480 --> 00:22:38,149
I don't think
there's anything
wrong with that, Joel.
511
00:22:39,651 --> 00:22:42,277
(gasps) I don't know
what to do.
512
00:22:42,278 --> 00:22:43,278
(sighs)
513
00:22:43,279 --> 00:22:44,572
Well...
514
00:22:45,573 --> 00:22:47,575
You know, maybe, um...
515
00:22:49,160 --> 00:22:50,954
maybe you could go
talk to Pastor Deb?
516
00:22:50,954 --> 00:22:53,997
No. That bridge is burned.
517
00:22:53,998 --> 00:22:56,292
- Oh, I don't know
about that, Joel.
- (sniffles)
518
00:22:56,876 --> 00:22:59,879
I mean, everything that
you've said about her, and...
519
00:23:01,006 --> 00:23:02,924
You know, she's...
520
00:23:03,341 --> 00:23:05,551
She's a good
person, right?
521
00:23:05,552 --> 00:23:07,804
- Yeah.
- Why don't you just...
522
00:23:08,221 --> 00:23:10,515
Why don't you just try
and see what happens?
523
00:23:11,725 --> 00:23:13,768
You know? Just... eh.
524
00:23:14,352 --> 00:23:15,603
(weak laugh)
525
00:23:16,604 --> 00:23:18,356
- Yeah.
- She's...
526
00:23:19,274 --> 00:23:20,858
You always say
that those...
527
00:23:20,859 --> 00:23:23,653
- Jesus people are
good people, right?
- (laughs)
528
00:23:23,653 --> 00:23:25,320
You said something
like that, I don't know.
529
00:23:25,321 --> 00:23:27,656
- Jesus people are good people?
- Yeah, Jesus people,
530
00:23:27,657 --> 00:23:29,408
I s-- I mean,
I practically got
531
00:23:29,409 --> 00:23:30,701
a bumper sticker
that said that.
532
00:23:30,702 --> 00:23:33,163
- (laughing)
- And then, I didn't.
533
00:23:33,163 --> 00:23:35,330
Okay. Okay,
no more talking
about me.
534
00:23:35,331 --> 00:23:37,875
- We spent too much time talking
about me. Let's talk about--
- No. Come on.
535
00:23:37,876 --> 00:23:40,419
- I got nothing but time!
Let's keep going!
- No, no, I'm bored with it.
536
00:23:40,420 --> 00:23:42,421
- I'm bored with me.
I wanna hear about you.
- (laughs)
537
00:23:42,422 --> 00:23:43,922
Tell me about you.
What's going on with you?
538
00:23:43,923 --> 00:23:45,257
(haughty)
Oh, so much.
539
00:23:45,258 --> 00:23:47,469
Oh, good!
Give it to me.
540
00:23:48,386 --> 00:23:49,887
(normal)
Okay.
541
00:23:49,888 --> 00:23:51,222
(sighs)
542
00:23:51,806 --> 00:23:53,808
Well, um...
543
00:23:56,686 --> 00:23:58,730
You know, there's this--
there's this guy.
544
00:23:59,731 --> 00:24:01,106
What guy?
545
00:24:01,107 --> 00:24:03,902
(sighs) You know that guy
that rents the farm?
546
00:24:04,402 --> 00:24:05,694
Oh yeah,
the guy from the bar!
547
00:24:05,695 --> 00:24:06,904
And he's all manly,
548
00:24:06,905 --> 00:24:08,531
and he has that really,
really deep voice.
549
00:24:08,531 --> 00:24:10,407
- (Sam laughs)
- Okay, what's his name?
550
00:24:10,408 --> 00:24:12,868
- You know, I'm not
even really sure.
- (both laughing)
551
00:24:12,869 --> 00:24:15,371
It's like nothing that
anybody can pronounce.
552
00:24:15,372 --> 00:24:16,873
I don't know,
I just call him Iceland.
553
00:24:17,290 --> 00:24:19,709
Oh. Iceland? Okay, well,
554
00:24:19,709 --> 00:24:21,794
- Icelandic people are
very good people.
- Is that right?
555
00:24:21,795 --> 00:24:24,631
I don't know. (laughing)
556
00:24:26,466 --> 00:24:29,385
(sighs deeply) Oh, fuck.
557
00:24:29,386 --> 00:24:31,804
Well... (sighs)
558
00:24:31,805 --> 00:24:34,556
He, um, he asked me
on a date,
559
00:24:34,557 --> 00:24:37,268
and, um, I went.
560
00:24:37,602 --> 00:24:39,604
And, um, he...
561
00:24:40,438 --> 00:24:41,730
- he kissed me.
- Oh!
562
00:24:41,731 --> 00:24:43,692
- (Sam laughs)
- (muffled) I'm sorry!
563
00:24:45,026 --> 00:24:47,403
- Okay!
- I've been wanting to
tell you, I swear to God!
564
00:24:47,404 --> 00:24:50,115
- It's okay!
You're telling me now!
- (sighs)
565
00:24:50,990 --> 00:24:53,075
So, how are you feeling?
566
00:24:53,076 --> 00:24:55,787
(sighs) Not great.
(weak laugh)
567
00:24:56,454 --> 00:24:58,623
- Why?
- Um...
568
00:25:01,626 --> 00:25:04,045
- because I really like him.
- (giggles)
569
00:25:05,797 --> 00:25:07,340
And, you know, I'm not...
570
00:25:07,799 --> 00:25:09,551
I'm not really, uh...
571
00:25:10,844 --> 00:25:13,012
I don't really know what
I'm doing, and, you know,
572
00:25:13,013 --> 00:25:15,223
it just kinda brings up
a lot of stuff.
573
00:25:15,849 --> 00:25:17,350
What stuff?
574
00:25:19,853 --> 00:25:21,855
Um, how I feel about myself.
575
00:25:22,647 --> 00:25:24,899
- Hm.
- And, um...
576
00:25:26,401 --> 00:25:29,154
I just keep thinking about
what if he got to know me?
577
00:25:29,988 --> 00:25:31,197
(sighs)
578
00:25:40,081 --> 00:25:42,083
(voice breaking)
How could he want that?
579
00:25:45,712 --> 00:25:47,172
(voice breaking)
How could he not?
580
00:25:47,881 --> 00:25:49,883
(emotional sigh)
581
00:25:50,842 --> 00:25:53,345
(crying) I really wanna
feel that way, Joel.
582
00:25:55,930 --> 00:25:56,931
(gasps)
583
00:25:58,767 --> 00:26:00,185
I re-- (gasps)
584
00:26:00,852 --> 00:26:03,271
I'm really trying.
(sniffles)
585
00:26:03,938 --> 00:26:06,441
I really am. I really am!
586
00:26:06,900 --> 00:26:08,192
(sniffles)
587
00:26:08,193 --> 00:26:12,155
It's just some of this stuff
is really hard to shake.
588
00:26:12,155 --> 00:26:13,198
(sighs)
589
00:26:15,283 --> 00:26:17,786
- I know.
- I really want to.
590
00:26:19,204 --> 00:26:21,873
(sniffles, sighs)
591
00:26:22,999 --> 00:26:25,919
But why don't you just try
and see what happens?
592
00:26:27,545 --> 00:26:28,922
Well...
593
00:26:29,464 --> 00:26:32,925
- fuck you.
- (both laugh)
594
00:26:32,926 --> 00:26:34,677
(haughty)
A wise woman
once told me that.
595
00:26:34,678 --> 00:26:36,428
(both laughing)
596
00:26:36,429 --> 00:26:39,265
- Eh, she's a dumbass bitch.
- (laughing)
597
00:26:40,266 --> 00:26:41,767
(normal)
I wanted you to be
on my level.
598
00:26:41,768 --> 00:26:43,268
- (laughing)
- (sniffs)
599
00:26:43,269 --> 00:26:44,687
Why don't we put on
"Mr. Holland's Opus"
600
00:26:44,688 --> 00:26:45,771
so we can both feel better?
601
00:26:45,772 --> 00:26:48,023
- Sold!
- (sighs)
602
00:26:48,024 --> 00:26:49,566
- Yeah.
- Don't threaten me
with a good time.
603
00:26:49,567 --> 00:26:50,609
I'm 'bout to,
604
00:26:50,610 --> 00:26:52,195
'cause I'm gonna
fuck up some donuts.
605
00:26:52,195 --> 00:26:53,738
- Mm, 'ummy!
- (laughs)
606
00:26:54,447 --> 00:26:55,781
I don't know if
I should eat these.
607
00:26:55,782 --> 00:26:58,033
- I'm a little stuffed up.
- (laughing)
608
00:26:58,034 --> 00:26:59,536
No, this will help.
I promise.
609
00:26:59,536 --> 00:27:01,578
Is this that strawberry
one that I had-- Yes!
610
00:27:01,579 --> 00:27:02,871
Oh, I never
had that one.
611
00:27:02,872 --> 00:27:04,748
- Me neither.
- Oh, my God.
612
00:27:04,749 --> 00:27:08,627
- (laughter, chatter)
- ("Clair de lune"
by Claude Debussy playing)
613
00:27:08,628 --> 00:27:10,421
- Looks like Tricia's UTI.
- (laughing)
614
00:27:10,422 --> 00:27:12,214
It wasn't a UTI,
by the way.
615
00:27:12,215 --> 00:27:14,216
- No! No!
- Chlamydia!
616
00:27:14,217 --> 00:27:16,427
(laughing and chattering)
617
00:27:16,428 --> 00:27:19,972
(both laughing)
618
00:27:19,973 --> 00:27:21,599
So stupid...
619
00:27:23,393 --> 00:27:26,438
("Clair de lune" continues)
620
00:27:53,465 --> 00:27:54,883
♪