1 00:00:01,710 --> 00:00:03,420        My boss wanted to call        2 00:00:03,461 --> 00:00:04,671          the cops on this guy.        3 00:00:04,713 --> 00:00:06,673        I didn't want to stop him.     4 00:00:06,715 --> 00:00:09,175      What inspired you to apply            to No Negro Left Behind?       5 00:00:09,217 --> 00:00:11,136           I'm a fan of some                     of your alumni.           6 00:00:11,177 --> 00:00:12,429         -What was your name?                       -Arsema.               7 00:00:12,470 --> 00:00:13,972       It's like a relationship,                    you know?              8 00:00:14,014 --> 00:00:15,473      I don't like those, either.                Are you in one?           9 00:00:15,515 --> 00:00:17,017           There's something               I should probably tell you.     10 00:00:17,058 --> 00:00:18,685        There's that whole mess               with Drew and Zayna,         11 00:00:18,727 --> 00:00:21,062     and I did something I regret.                    Uh...                12 00:00:21,104 --> 00:00:23,064              This coming                   from that 12-step thing?       13 00:00:23,106 --> 00:00:25,859            Bro, just focus              on your sobriety. You're good.    14 00:00:33,908 --> 00:00:36,745             "Reggae Rockers"                 by Nicodrum & Friends        15 00:00:36,786 --> 00:00:38,872                                    16 00:00:43,251 --> 00:00:45,503        Do you need some help,                      or... no?              17 00:00:45,545 --> 00:00:49,382  No. I've been... I've been tying       my shoes for... for months.     18 00:00:49,424 --> 00:00:50,759              -[chuckles]                -Um, you've had better shares.    19 00:00:50,800 --> 00:00:52,218    -Today wasn't really your day.                    -Oh.                 20 00:00:52,260 --> 00:00:53,636             -Oh, really?                            -Yeah.                21 00:00:53,678 --> 00:00:54,804          And what would you                  have done differently        22 00:00:54,846 --> 00:00:55,972     if you were in charge, then?     23 00:00:56,014 --> 00:00:57,057  I would've said different words.  24 00:00:57,098 --> 00:00:58,558           Oh, you would've                     said different--           25 00:00:58,600 --> 00:00:59,893             -Yeah. Yeah.                -Okay. I didn't think of that.    26 00:00:59,934 --> 00:01:00,977          Okay, good to know                   for the next time.          27 00:01:01,019 --> 00:01:02,062  I just... Not to critique, but--  28 00:01:02,103 --> 00:01:02,979    Yeah. No, please, I appreciate    29 00:01:03,021 --> 00:01:04,814       your feedback, obviously.      30 00:01:04,856 --> 00:01:06,149     You've been here for so long.        You have so much experience.     31 00:01:06,191 --> 00:01:07,358            I'm giving you                    a fresh perspective.         32 00:01:07,400 --> 00:01:08,860                 -Oh.                        -It was just kind of...       33 00:01:08,902 --> 00:01:10,487              It's like,                 "Drugs never solved my problem.  34 00:01:10,528 --> 00:01:11,988    They just let me ignore them."             It was just, like,          35 00:01:12,030 --> 00:01:13,573       -a little dull, you know?               -Oh, perfect quote.         36 00:01:13,615 --> 00:01:15,408  You remembered it word for word.        Sounds pretty memorable.       37 00:01:15,450 --> 00:01:16,659        I know, 'cause I wanted          to tell you to, like, tweak it.  38 00:01:16,701 --> 00:01:17,911              -Thank you.                      -Um, I didn't know          39 00:01:17,952 --> 00:01:19,704          -you were a runner.                   -Oh, yeah. I run           40 00:01:19,746 --> 00:01:20,747      or ride my bike every day.           Otherwise, I'd kill myself.     41 00:01:20,789 --> 00:01:22,207            -Don't do that.                          -Okay.                42 00:01:22,248 --> 00:01:23,500            You know I work                  in a bike shop, right?        43 00:01:23,541 --> 00:01:24,584               I thought                   you were a sex ed teacher.      44 00:01:24,626 --> 00:01:26,086     No, I'm a jack of two trades.    45 00:01:27,337 --> 00:01:29,380            I can't imagine                    you riding a bike.          46 00:01:29,422 --> 00:01:30,924           Why would that be                   a thing you'd say?          47 00:01:30,965 --> 00:01:32,717          'Cause it's just...                   it's a bike ride.          48 00:01:32,759 --> 00:01:34,719         It's, like, a lot of,            you know, strength, activity.    49 00:01:34,761 --> 00:01:38,098     You're kind of more like a...            [sighs] like a sigh.         50 00:01:38,139 --> 00:01:40,391  Uh, I'm not a sigh. I coached my     high school's basketball team.    51 00:01:40,433 --> 00:01:42,644           Yeah. Coaches sit              on the bench, and they, like,    52 00:01:42,685 --> 00:01:44,229      wear suits and dress shoes.     53 00:01:44,270 --> 00:01:45,605    'Cause they-they played so much               until then.             54 00:01:45,647 --> 00:01:47,607           -You know? Yeah.                  -Uh-huh. Yeah. Hey, um,       55 00:01:47,649 --> 00:01:49,150           are you gonna be                 at the meeting next week?      56 00:01:49,192 --> 00:01:50,735            Do you want me                 to be at the next meeting,      57 00:01:50,777 --> 00:01:52,237           or do you want me             to not be at the next meeting?    58 00:01:52,278 --> 00:01:53,905    -No, don't, please don't come.              -Okay. Um, yeah.           59 00:01:53,947 --> 00:01:55,615      Don't even... don't even be           in the city, if possible.      60 00:01:55,657 --> 00:01:56,950     -Then I think I have a thing.          -[chuckles] Okay. No, no.      61 00:01:56,991 --> 00:01:59,702              I-I, uh...                   I'm a year sober next week.     62 00:01:59,744 --> 00:02:01,454      -Oh, congratulations. Yeah.                   -Thanks.               63 00:02:01,496 --> 00:02:03,373        So, yeah, I don't know.          It'd be nice if you were there.  64 00:02:04,332 --> 00:02:05,708               Um, sure.              65 00:02:05,750 --> 00:02:06,960           How does that...                    how does that work?         66 00:02:07,001 --> 00:02:08,294          Is it like a party                     kind of thing?            67 00:02:08,336 --> 00:02:09,963          Do you have, like,                     balloons, or...           68 00:02:10,004 --> 00:02:12,132                -Uh...                    -Uh, do I bake a cake, or...     69 00:02:12,173 --> 00:02:13,299             Do you bake?             70 00:02:14,259 --> 00:02:15,635        Yeah. No, I bake, yeah.       71 00:02:15,677 --> 00:02:17,595             -Really? Huh.                     -Sure. Yeah, yeah.          72 00:02:17,637 --> 00:02:19,139                -Great.                      -Who-who doesn't? Yeah.       73 00:02:19,180 --> 00:02:20,557     Yeah, okay, great, then yeah.    74 00:02:20,598 --> 00:02:22,600         -I'd love that. Cool.                      -Mm-hmm.               75 00:02:22,642 --> 00:02:25,645    Um, but, yeah, also, would you     be down to share at the meeting?  76 00:02:25,687 --> 00:02:27,730    It's, like, cool for a newcomer        to speak at these things.      77 00:02:27,772 --> 00:02:29,399               Oh, sure.              78 00:02:29,440 --> 00:02:31,484              Yeah. Um...                    speak about my baking,        79 00:02:31,526 --> 00:02:33,945        -or about... about you?                  -[chuckles] No.           80 00:02:33,987 --> 00:02:35,446         You know, ever since          your brief share the other week,  81 00:02:35,488 --> 00:02:36,698            where you were                     talking to everyone         82 00:02:36,739 --> 00:02:38,199     about ratting out that guy--     83 00:02:38,241 --> 00:02:39,868           Yeah, yeah. Okay.               Yeah, yeah. No, I-I got it.     84 00:02:39,909 --> 00:02:41,119  -Yeah. There's no need to, um...         -I'm just telling you.        85 00:02:41,161 --> 00:02:42,120  There's no need to say it aloud.  86 00:02:42,162 --> 00:02:43,621        I thought it was good.        87 00:02:43,663 --> 00:02:44,831          Like, it was brave,                but we don't even need        88 00:02:44,873 --> 00:02:45,999       -to remember what I said.                     -Okay.                89 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:48,001     Um... But, yeah, okay. Cool.     90 00:02:48,042 --> 00:02:49,961        -Yeah. So, I'll-I'll...                    -Game plan.             91 00:02:50,003 --> 00:02:51,671       -Okay, so... [muttering]            -[laughing] This is not...      92 00:02:51,713 --> 00:02:53,506  this is not what I wanted to do.             See, this is...           93 00:02:53,548 --> 00:02:55,341      You're not a sports person.           I was putting my hand in.      94 00:02:55,383 --> 00:02:56,843            -Oh, I gotcha.                  -You coached basketball.       95 00:02:56,885 --> 00:02:59,137      Sorry. So, I'll-I'll share               instead of baking.          96 00:02:59,179 --> 00:03:01,639       No, bake and share, Dan.                 I want the cake.           97 00:03:01,681 --> 00:03:02,891              All right.              98 00:03:02,932 --> 00:03:05,185        "Charade" by Four Tracks     99 00:03:05,226 --> 00:03:07,770       You go through the motion     100 00:03:07,812 --> 00:03:11,274          [Ben] Do ducks have                   any significance           101 00:03:11,316 --> 00:03:12,692           in the community                   that I'm unaware of?         102 00:03:12,734 --> 00:03:15,361         -Mm. They fly south.                         -Mm.                 103 00:03:15,403 --> 00:03:17,030       We all know what happened                  in the South.            104 00:03:17,071 --> 00:03:19,199           [Ben] Hmm. Also,                  notice the moon is out.       105 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:20,533                [Nancy]                               Hmm.                 106 00:03:20,575 --> 00:03:21,868      Why would you have a picnic                   at night?              107 00:03:21,910 --> 00:03:22,827         If you aren't allowed                     in the park             108 00:03:22,869 --> 00:03:24,537           -during the day.                           -Mm.                 109 00:03:24,579 --> 00:03:26,206           I can almost feel               the "whites only" fountain      110 00:03:26,247 --> 00:03:27,540    as if it's right out of frame.    111 00:03:27,582 --> 00:03:29,459                 Man,                     I'm painting ducks because--     112 00:03:29,500 --> 00:03:31,044      Oh, oh, no, no, no, no, no.                Just, you know,           113 00:03:31,085 --> 00:03:32,378    -yeah, pretend we're not here.               -Yes, continue.           114 00:03:32,420 --> 00:03:33,713         We're just observing.        115 00:03:33,755 --> 00:03:35,006     -We're invisible. [chuckles]                    -Yeah.                116 00:03:35,048 --> 00:03:36,716            -Just... Yeah.                      -We don't exist.           117 00:03:36,758 --> 00:03:37,884         [Ben] We're just here                to watch you do you.         118 00:03:37,926 --> 00:03:40,094           -[Nancy chuckles]                         -Okay.                119 00:03:42,388 --> 00:03:44,724          Yeah, I-I still...                 I really don't get it.        120 00:03:44,766 --> 00:03:46,392              [whispers]                     Maybe that's the point.       121 00:03:46,434 --> 00:03:49,187            Maybe we aren't                    supposed to get it.         122 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:50,939                Ah, ah.               123 00:03:50,980 --> 00:03:53,066         Are there any picnics                    of notoriety             124 00:03:53,107 --> 00:03:54,609  that-that we aren't thinking of?  125 00:03:54,651 --> 00:03:56,110                 [Ben]                   All I can think of is   Mad Men.    126 00:03:56,152 --> 00:03:57,904     -[Nancy] Oh, love that show.                -[Ben] I mean,            127 00:03:57,946 --> 00:04:00,073             rewatched it                 and then rewatched it again.     128 00:04:00,114 --> 00:04:01,741               You know,                   it's kind of hard to paint      129 00:04:01,783 --> 00:04:03,493         with you guys talking             over my shoulder like this.     130 00:04:03,534 --> 00:04:05,328              -I feel ya.                         -We feel you.            131 00:04:05,370 --> 00:04:07,372       We see you. We hear you.       132 00:04:07,413 --> 00:04:08,957             -We are you.                         -I just think            133 00:04:08,998 --> 00:04:11,292          we were looking for                   something more...          134 00:04:11,334 --> 00:04:13,378           -Oh, like Black?                       -[Nancy] Ooh.            135 00:04:13,419 --> 00:04:16,589      [chuckles] Oh, no. No, no.               No, not-not Black.          136 00:04:16,631 --> 00:04:18,174       No, I think... I believe       137 00:04:18,216 --> 00:04:19,676      the word you're looking for                is "ancestral."           138 00:04:19,717 --> 00:04:23,763              Uh, Nance,                 I-I think we mean "authentic."    139 00:04:23,805 --> 00:04:26,849         -That's what I said.                      -Authentic.             140 00:04:26,891 --> 00:04:28,101                 -Huh.                         -[Nancy] You know,          141 00:04:28,142 --> 00:04:29,352         -channel your roots.                     -[Ben] Yeah.             142 00:04:29,394 --> 00:04:30,895           We really want to                    feel the history.          143 00:04:30,937 --> 00:04:33,606          You know, maybe put                some bad guys in there.       144 00:04:33,648 --> 00:04:35,441         [chuckles forcefully]                     All right.              145 00:04:35,483 --> 00:04:37,568           Uh, I'm-a go grab                    more white paint.          146 00:04:37,610 --> 00:04:38,945          -[Nancy] Oh, great.                   -Yeah. [chuckles]          147 00:04:38,987 --> 00:04:40,905                 [Ben]                               Great.                148 00:04:40,947 --> 00:04:42,949         -Yeah, be right back.                   -[Ben] Uh-huh.            149 00:04:42,991 --> 00:04:44,617                [sighs]                            Fuck, man.              150 00:04:44,659 --> 00:04:47,287     Fuck these white people, man.    151 00:04:47,328 --> 00:04:49,122          Like, at least wait             until we finish the painting     152 00:04:49,163 --> 00:04:50,456       before you start talking,                   like, damn.             153 00:04:50,498 --> 00:04:52,125        Maybe you should learn                  to paint faster.           154 00:04:52,166 --> 00:04:54,460        Word? You like painting            underneath they microscope?     155 00:04:54,502 --> 00:04:55,795          They can't even say                   the word "Black."          156 00:04:55,837 --> 00:04:56,838     What the fuck is "authentic"?    157 00:04:56,879 --> 00:04:58,131          Doesn't bother me.          158 00:04:58,172 --> 00:04:59,716      Maybe you're too sensitive.     159 00:04:59,757 --> 00:05:04,304     [groans] Maybe. I don't know.    160 00:05:08,599 --> 00:05:10,560               Oh, shit.              161 00:05:10,601 --> 00:05:12,020                 -Ooh.                           -Oh, I'm sorry.           162 00:05:12,061 --> 00:05:14,480     -I did not mean to interrupt.                  -[scoffs]              163 00:05:14,522 --> 00:05:16,024       I just came to get paint.      164 00:05:16,065 --> 00:05:17,483    Oh, looks like you're stealing.  165 00:05:17,525 --> 00:05:20,153       [chuckles] You're funny.       166 00:05:20,194 --> 00:05:22,905             Um, uh, uh...            167 00:05:22,947 --> 00:05:24,657      I'm a big fan of your work.     168 00:05:26,117 --> 00:05:28,328          [chuckles] Thanks.          169 00:05:28,369 --> 00:05:29,996                 Yeah.                170 00:05:30,038 --> 00:05:32,957    Yeah. I almost didn't even join            this fellowship,           171 00:05:32,999 --> 00:05:34,584       but then I saw your name                on the alumni list.         172 00:05:34,625 --> 00:05:36,961          So then I was like,              "Oh, shit. Nneka Stevenson.     173 00:05:37,003 --> 00:05:38,629             That's crazy.            174 00:05:38,671 --> 00:05:40,340       I've got to be in there,"          and now we're here together.     175 00:05:40,381 --> 00:05:41,799       It's, like, really cool.       176 00:05:41,841 --> 00:05:45,511            -Cool. [scoffs]                       -Yeah. Yeah.             177 00:05:45,553 --> 00:05:47,138              All right.              178 00:05:47,180 --> 00:05:48,973          Um... Hey, do you--         179 00:05:49,015 --> 00:05:50,641      -Prefer working in silence?                    -Um...                180 00:05:50,683 --> 00:05:51,809                 Yes.                 181 00:05:51,851 --> 00:05:53,353                 Okay.                182 00:05:53,394 --> 00:05:55,021    I'm just gonna leave the paint                here for you,            183 00:05:55,063 --> 00:05:56,272            'cause you look                     like you need it.          184 00:05:56,314 --> 00:05:58,691        I-I do. I'm a painter.        185 00:05:58,733 --> 00:06:01,652          -Uh-huh. All right.                         -Bye.                186 00:06:01,694 --> 00:06:04,197             -I love you.                            -What?                187 00:06:06,449 --> 00:06:08,993           [sighs] Mr. Hill.          188 00:06:09,035 --> 00:06:11,871            I've worked out                  the terms of your bail.       189 00:06:12,997 --> 00:06:14,749      You cannot leave the state.     190 00:06:14,791 --> 00:06:16,125    I'm local with it, that's cool.  191 00:06:16,167 --> 00:06:18,961  And you can't possess a firearm.  192 00:06:19,003 --> 00:06:20,838                 Yeah,                    they wouldn't give me a gun.     193 00:06:20,880 --> 00:06:24,258        And you are subject to         random alcohol and drug testing.  194 00:06:24,300 --> 00:06:26,844                -Both?                            -Yeah, both.             195 00:06:26,886 --> 00:06:29,555    [sighs] You got them cigarettes              I asked for?             196 00:06:32,600 --> 00:06:34,644    Come on, son. The fuck is this?  197 00:06:34,685 --> 00:06:38,231     -I said get me some menthols.       -Those are menthols, Mr. Hill.    198 00:06:38,272 --> 00:06:41,067      Yeah, for Russian bitches.            I can't smoke this shit.       199 00:06:41,109 --> 00:06:43,194      The last thing on your mind              should be bitches.          200 00:06:43,236 --> 00:06:44,862            -It is, though.                       -Listen, man.            201 00:06:44,904 --> 00:06:48,032       Your sobriety is the most          important part of this case.     202 00:06:48,074 --> 00:06:50,993        We're gonna claim that            you were under the influence     203 00:06:51,035 --> 00:06:52,662              at the time                    the shooting occurred.        204 00:06:52,703 --> 00:06:54,914         -A'ight. I like that.                        -Huh?                205 00:06:54,956 --> 00:06:57,125           Huh? And it helps                that you have no priors.       206 00:06:57,166 --> 00:06:58,626                Mm-hmm.               207 00:06:58,668 --> 00:07:00,670         Though you did shoot                a government employee.        208 00:07:00,711 --> 00:07:01,963           Yeah, in the leg.          209 00:07:02,004 --> 00:07:03,381              They acting                   like I killed the nigga.       210 00:07:03,423 --> 00:07:04,507          He walking, right?          211 00:07:04,549 --> 00:07:06,175    Let me be the lawyer, Mr. Hill.  212 00:07:06,217 --> 00:07:08,803    This is an uphill battle, man.    213 00:07:08,845 --> 00:07:12,265      I came up with a few ideas         that I think might help us out.  214 00:07:13,766 --> 00:07:15,810          Community service?          215 00:07:15,852 --> 00:07:17,854                -Yeah.                        -Self-imposed curfew?        216 00:07:17,895 --> 00:07:20,231       What is this, pre-prison?      217 00:07:20,273 --> 00:07:21,566      And why can't I own a pet?      218 00:07:21,607 --> 00:07:23,693        -Wait, that's on there?                     -[scoffs]              219 00:07:23,734 --> 00:07:25,820         All right. Don't pay                attention to that, man.       220 00:07:25,862 --> 00:07:28,197        That's my last client.                Nigga fucked a goat.         221 00:07:28,239 --> 00:07:31,367    Let me get these Caprice, man.                    Shit.                222 00:07:31,409 --> 00:07:34,120       After I pay this bail...       223 00:07:35,663 --> 00:07:36,789        ...I'm-a be tapped out.       224 00:07:36,831 --> 00:07:38,583    How I'm supposed to make money    225 00:07:38,624 --> 00:07:41,127     if you got me running around         cleaning sidewalks and shit?     226 00:07:41,169 --> 00:07:43,754       I just want to remind you              how serious this is.         227 00:07:43,796 --> 00:07:45,965       You couldn't even get me               the right cigarettes.        228 00:07:46,007 --> 00:07:47,592          So how I don't know            you're just stringing me along    229 00:07:47,633 --> 00:07:48,926            for the bread?            230 00:07:48,968 --> 00:07:51,053           Fake-ass Cellino                   and Barnes-ass nigga.        231 00:07:51,095 --> 00:07:53,306               Mr. Hill,                    any lawyer would tell you      232 00:07:53,347 --> 00:07:56,350    that you have to look favorable        in the eyes of the court.      233 00:07:56,392 --> 00:07:58,144           -[clicks tongue]                  -You want them feeling,       234 00:07:58,186 --> 00:08:01,022      thinking and believing that         not only are you remorseful,     235 00:08:01,063 --> 00:08:03,483           but you are gonna                  rehabilitate yourself        236 00:08:03,524 --> 00:08:05,902          without them making                 your Black ass do it.        237 00:08:05,943 --> 00:08:08,863    Come on, man. You can do this.    238 00:08:08,905 --> 00:08:10,865        Let me get that lighter                    real quick.             239 00:08:12,825 --> 00:08:15,411     So, you're not gonna give me                  a Newport?              240 00:08:15,453 --> 00:08:17,497          Nah, man, these are                for my Russian bitches.       241 00:08:17,538 --> 00:08:19,248         Svetlana love these.         242 00:08:19,290 --> 00:08:21,250        "This Love" by Paldoore      243 00:08:21,292 --> 00:08:22,835           -This nigga here.                        -[laughs]              244 00:08:22,877 --> 00:08:24,420                   No                245 00:08:24,462 --> 00:08:27,507                                    246 00:08:30,885 --> 00:08:33,095           I could've swore            this pipe was working last week.  247 00:08:33,137 --> 00:08:35,348      Yeah, 'cause you didn't pay                the water bill.           248 00:08:35,389 --> 00:08:37,517           That is correct.           249 00:08:37,558 --> 00:08:39,185          [entry bell chimes]         250 00:08:39,227 --> 00:08:41,479       Holy dad of a dope fiend.      251 00:08:41,521 --> 00:08:43,022            What the fuck?            252 00:08:43,064 --> 00:08:44,690                 What?                253 00:08:44,732 --> 00:08:46,817        -Oh, it's just flour.               -[Kareem] Oh, flour. Oh.       254 00:08:46,859 --> 00:08:48,694            Thank goodness.           255 00:08:48,736 --> 00:08:50,321    Gotta make sure you stay sober,  256 00:08:50,363 --> 00:08:51,656       since my rehab cured you.      257 00:08:51,697 --> 00:08:53,658             Bro, you look                    like an ashy albino.         258 00:08:53,699 --> 00:08:55,451       Yeah, had to bake a cake       259 00:08:55,493 --> 00:08:57,036          for my NA friend's                   sober anniversary.          260 00:08:57,078 --> 00:08:58,871          Can you just try it            and tell me if it's all right?    261 00:09:00,373 --> 00:09:01,666     It's not about how it looks.     262 00:09:01,707 --> 00:09:03,501         It's more just about                    how it tastes.            263 00:09:04,418 --> 00:09:05,378         Yeah, this ain't it.         264 00:09:05,419 --> 00:09:06,712          Yeah, I know. Fuck.         265 00:09:06,754 --> 00:09:08,297             I can't bake,                  but I said I could bake,       266 00:09:08,339 --> 00:09:10,299        so now I spent the last             three hours baking trash.      267 00:09:10,341 --> 00:09:12,426          -She asked you to?               -I offered. I-I don't know.     268 00:09:12,468 --> 00:09:14,762     When you like somebody, words     just kind of come out sometimes.  269 00:09:14,804 --> 00:09:16,264         Oh, you trying to...         270 00:09:19,517 --> 00:09:21,435           Stop, stop, stop.                    Stop, stop. Stop.          271 00:09:21,477 --> 00:09:23,896    No, no. You're not supposed to     date the first year of recovery,  272 00:09:23,938 --> 00:09:25,273     but I want to bake this cake                so we can date            273 00:09:25,314 --> 00:09:26,983          in our second year,                      and then...             274 00:09:27,024 --> 00:09:28,359      and then do all that stuff.     275 00:09:28,985 --> 00:09:31,404    A'ight, make sure you use some       almond milk or something, man.    276 00:09:31,445 --> 00:09:32,780      You don't want her farting                   on herself.             277 00:09:32,822 --> 00:09:35,866          Okay. Almond milk.                       Yo, Kareem?             278 00:09:35,908 --> 00:09:37,368         Hey, what's up, son?         279 00:09:37,410 --> 00:09:39,036     Um, could I skip this shift?                 I just got to            280 00:09:39,078 --> 00:09:42,206    head home so I could try again             to bake this thing.         281 00:09:42,248 --> 00:09:43,666               But why?               282 00:09:43,708 --> 00:09:45,376      Uh, it's my friend Sydney.      283 00:09:45,418 --> 00:09:47,128       -It's her, uh, birthday.                       -Hmm.                284 00:09:49,922 --> 00:09:51,674                 -Son.                               -Yeah?                285 00:09:51,716 --> 00:09:53,926             My taste buds                   just killed themselves.       286 00:09:53,968 --> 00:09:55,428               Told you.              287 00:09:55,469 --> 00:09:56,721             I don't know                why you don't ask me for help.    288 00:09:56,762 --> 00:09:57,847                -Yeah.                            -[Kevin] See?            289 00:09:57,888 --> 00:09:59,599    'Cause you know I know recipes.  290 00:09:59,640 --> 00:10:01,183             You ever had                 peanut butter crawfish cake?     291 00:10:01,225 --> 00:10:02,602        That sounds gross, man.       292 00:10:02,643 --> 00:10:04,604        You haven't even heard                  the ingredients.           293 00:10:04,645 --> 00:10:06,522       I just heard two of them.                  Yo, can I go?            294 00:10:06,564 --> 00:10:07,857         No, you got to work.         295 00:10:07,898 --> 00:10:09,191     Listen, if you want to bake,     296 00:10:09,233 --> 00:10:11,110             you can bake                     next to the wrenches.        297 00:10:11,152 --> 00:10:13,529     You know? I got a microwave,                 I got a sink,            298 00:10:13,571 --> 00:10:15,781         and I got a baby oven                just for emergencies.        299 00:10:15,823 --> 00:10:17,533             I didn't know                   you had the baby oven.        300 00:10:17,575 --> 00:10:20,745     [Kevin] Man. Fuck. Damn, bro.            This fellowship, man.        301 00:10:20,786 --> 00:10:23,289            -It's not fun?                 -[Kevin] I don't know, man.     302 00:10:23,331 --> 00:10:25,166           They just want me               to make some bullshit, man.     303 00:10:25,207 --> 00:10:26,667  -I don't know what I'm finna do.       -Can't you just ask someone     304 00:10:26,709 --> 00:10:28,294     who really knows the program                  for advice?             305 00:10:28,336 --> 00:10:30,296     It's been going on for years.               Somebody knows.           306 00:10:30,338 --> 00:10:32,131        -Yeah, I guess I could.                  -[Kareem] Yeah.           307 00:10:32,173 --> 00:10:34,425      Why you don't ask for help?           You know what I'm saying?      308 00:10:34,467 --> 00:10:36,135          What, you-you think                   you're too cool?           309 00:10:36,177 --> 00:10:37,303          You guys ain't me.          310 00:10:37,345 --> 00:10:38,763          Bro, you need help.         311 00:10:38,804 --> 00:10:40,264     You can't even fix the pipe.     312 00:10:40,306 --> 00:10:41,974       Why don't you call Larry                    and ask him             313 00:10:42,016 --> 00:10:43,643     how he used to fix the pipes            when he owned the shop?       314 00:10:44,644 --> 00:10:47,146             Damn, Kevin,                 that is the best idea you had    315 00:10:47,188 --> 00:10:49,523       since you told me to stop           paying Dan time and a half.     316 00:10:49,565 --> 00:10:51,359             That was you?            317 00:10:51,400 --> 00:10:53,027     A'ight, I'll see y'all later.    318 00:10:53,069 --> 00:10:54,403         -The boy's a genius.              -You owe me a lot of money.     319 00:10:54,445 --> 00:10:55,571           -Why would you...                  -[entry bell chimes]         320 00:10:55,613 --> 00:10:58,115      Son, he owes us all money.      321 00:10:58,157 --> 00:10:59,575             He does, son.            322 00:10:59,617 --> 00:11:01,661             [Drew] Damn,                  Zayna keep hitting my jack.     323 00:11:01,702 --> 00:11:03,412                [Blue]                           Yo, so pick up.           324 00:11:03,454 --> 00:11:05,581             And say what?                    She's back in school,        325 00:11:05,623 --> 00:11:07,166          holding up her end                     of the bargain.           326 00:11:07,208 --> 00:11:08,459        Meanwhile, I'm out here       327 00:11:08,501 --> 00:11:09,585       and can't make the money                 to pay her rent.           328 00:11:09,627 --> 00:11:11,337    Bro, she can stay here with us.  329 00:11:11,379 --> 00:11:13,422       Nigga, I don't even want               to stay here with us.        330 00:11:13,464 --> 00:11:14,965            I'm just trying                     to problem-solve.          331 00:11:15,007 --> 00:11:17,009           Son, I can't even                   take my jacket off          332 00:11:17,051 --> 00:11:18,636    'cause your heater don't work.    333 00:11:18,678 --> 00:11:20,012            Bro, why I need                a heater and an oven, man?      334 00:11:20,054 --> 00:11:22,473         That shit redundant.         335 00:11:22,515 --> 00:11:25,142    Yo, I'm not taking nothing else             away from Zay.            336 00:11:25,184 --> 00:11:27,395         I promise. We got to               figure out our business.       337 00:11:27,436 --> 00:11:29,313             Listen, man,                 wasn't nobody fucking with us    338 00:11:29,355 --> 00:11:30,690       before you got arrested.       339 00:11:30,731 --> 00:11:31,816            What you think                   it's gonna be like now?       340 00:11:31,857 --> 00:11:33,526         I don't give a fuck.         341 00:11:33,567 --> 00:11:36,404        We don't have a choice.           We can't be out here lacking.    342 00:11:36,445 --> 00:11:38,739        All right, bro. Listen,            I'm-a check with a connect.     343 00:11:38,781 --> 00:11:40,408     You do that shit on the list             your lawyer gave you?        344 00:11:40,449 --> 00:11:42,410    Man, I'll get to all that shit.  345 00:11:42,451 --> 00:11:44,328       Bro, that shit's serious.      346 00:11:44,370 --> 00:11:46,580      You seen what happened with        Ducky from Coney Island, right?  347 00:11:46,622 --> 00:11:48,666      His lawyer told him to wear          a suit at the arraignment.      348 00:11:48,708 --> 00:11:50,000           He didn't listen.          349 00:11:50,042 --> 00:11:51,043         You see how that shit                     turned out.             350 00:11:51,085 --> 00:11:53,212    That crazy motherfucker was up    351 00:11:53,254 --> 00:11:55,673           on seven charges                     of grand larceny           352 00:11:55,715 --> 00:11:57,299        and came in a bathrobe.       353 00:11:57,341 --> 00:11:59,719       -The fuck, he Ghostface?                 -It was a kimono.          354 00:11:59,760 --> 00:12:01,887     -Nigga, this ain't the same.        -Listen, you end up like Ducky    355 00:12:01,929 --> 00:12:03,723           or your brother,                    it's all good, bro.         356 00:12:03,764 --> 00:12:05,891      Zay can stay here with me.      357 00:12:05,933 --> 00:12:08,894  I got mad Pop-Tarts in the back.  358 00:12:08,936 --> 00:12:10,730    Ah, don't touch that shit, bro.  359 00:12:10,771 --> 00:12:12,815        [video game announcer]                     Chun-Li wins.            360 00:12:31,584 --> 00:12:34,712         -What are you doing?                 -Oh, shit. Yo. Fuck.         361 00:12:34,754 --> 00:12:36,756    You scared the shit out of me.          I thought you was Nneka.       362 00:12:36,797 --> 00:12:38,549          You trying to steal                    her paintings?            363 00:12:38,591 --> 00:12:40,092             Nah, I'm just                   trying to get inspired.       364 00:12:40,134 --> 00:12:41,886        What you think of this?       365 00:12:41,927 --> 00:12:44,930            I like it. I...                  I think it's different.       366 00:12:44,972 --> 00:12:46,599       I like that she's trying               to do something new.         367 00:12:46,640 --> 00:12:49,602       Really? I'm not into it.       368 00:12:49,643 --> 00:12:51,228               [scoffs]               369 00:12:52,313 --> 00:12:53,647           What's so funny?           370 00:12:53,689 --> 00:12:56,233          You've been getting                  the worst reviews,          371 00:12:56,275 --> 00:12:59,236     and you're critiquing someone     who actually won the fellowship?  372 00:12:59,278 --> 00:13:00,571       Shit, I got to be myself       373 00:13:00,613 --> 00:13:01,947     if I'm gonna win this thing,                     so...                374 00:13:02,948 --> 00:13:04,909        Maybe you're better off                 just copying me.           375 00:13:04,950 --> 00:13:06,952            -Mm-hmm. Whoa--                      -[Nneka] Or me.           376 00:13:06,994 --> 00:13:09,079       Oh, shit. Hi, um, sorry.       377 00:13:09,121 --> 00:13:12,124    We-we were just, you know what?         We was about to leave.        378 00:13:12,166 --> 00:13:14,627              It's fine.                      I was taking a break.        379 00:13:14,668 --> 00:13:16,962      What you think about that?      380 00:13:17,004 --> 00:13:18,464              I like it.              381 00:13:20,132 --> 00:13:22,301               Uh, I...               382 00:13:22,343 --> 00:13:24,261         I don't like to judge                  before it's done.          383 00:13:24,303 --> 00:13:25,930       I-I respect the process.       384 00:13:25,971 --> 00:13:27,389  I mean, it's basically finished.  385 00:13:27,431 --> 00:13:30,267           Yeah, but still.                   Like, you know, I...         386 00:13:30,309 --> 00:13:32,311        I just paint. You know?                 I'm not a critic.          387 00:13:32,353 --> 00:13:34,730               [scoffs]                   Nigga, everybody's a critic.     388 00:13:34,772 --> 00:13:36,649         Unless you're scared                 I'm gonna shit on you        389 00:13:36,690 --> 00:13:38,067     if you say you don't like it.    390 00:13:38,108 --> 00:13:40,611               Uh... no.              391 00:13:40,653 --> 00:13:42,488                 -No.                     -Then tell me what you think.    392 00:13:42,530 --> 00:13:44,114                 Um...                393 00:13:45,574 --> 00:13:47,660         I like your old stuff                a little bit better.         394 00:13:47,701 --> 00:13:50,371    [laughs] The fuck do you know?    395 00:13:50,412 --> 00:13:51,997      Dressed like a task rabbit.     396 00:13:52,039 --> 00:13:54,291          If you're going to                     shit on my art,           397 00:13:54,333 --> 00:13:56,043     I'm gonna need you to give me            a better reason than         398 00:13:56,085 --> 00:13:57,962     you like my old stuff better.    399 00:13:58,003 --> 00:14:00,506     I'm gonna go kill this bottle           of wine. Y'all coming?        400 00:14:03,300 --> 00:14:05,010              [mouthing]              401 00:14:08,013 --> 00:14:11,016      [hip-hop music playing faintly                over radio]             402 00:14:11,058 --> 00:14:12,351          [entry bell chimes]         403 00:14:12,393 --> 00:14:14,603      Oh, yeah. Time for a sale.      404 00:14:14,645 --> 00:14:16,605            -How you doing?                     -Hey. Hey, good.           405 00:14:16,647 --> 00:14:18,524           I'm-I'm actually,           I'm looking for Dan. Is he here?  406 00:14:18,566 --> 00:14:20,359            Are you a cop?            407 00:14:21,360 --> 00:14:23,612        -What? No, no. No. I...                    -[Dan] Hey.             408 00:14:23,654 --> 00:14:25,489                 -Oh!                            -Hey, I'm here.           409 00:14:25,531 --> 00:14:26,949    Oh, my gosh, speaking of. Hey.    410 00:14:26,991 --> 00:14:28,701        Kareem, this is Sydney.                  Sydney, Kareem.           411 00:14:28,742 --> 00:14:30,327        -Hi. Nice to meet you.            -Hey. How you doing, darling?    412 00:14:30,369 --> 00:14:31,954           -Happy birthday.                        -Oh, my...              413 00:14:31,996 --> 00:14:33,205              -Thank you.                     -It's your birthday.         414 00:14:33,247 --> 00:14:34,456     Yes, it's my birthday today.     415 00:14:34,498 --> 00:14:36,000              -Thank you.                       -Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.           416 00:14:36,041 --> 00:14:37,376           I was telling Dan                  I love biking, so...         417 00:14:37,418 --> 00:14:38,794               Oh, yeah?                       You should come by          418 00:14:38,836 --> 00:14:40,379      our Tricycle Treasure Hunt                   next month.             419 00:14:40,421 --> 00:14:42,339           Nobody ever finds                  the tricycles I bury.        420 00:14:42,381 --> 00:14:44,049        You bury the tricycle?        421 00:14:44,091 --> 00:14:46,010            In the ground?            422 00:14:46,051 --> 00:14:47,761        It's a hell of a hunt.        423 00:14:47,803 --> 00:14:50,389  -He's actually my stepdad. Yeah.               -Oh, shit.              424 00:14:50,431 --> 00:14:51,891                -Okay.                        -Yeah, Daddy's here.         425 00:14:51,932 --> 00:14:53,058             -I love that.                         -So, uh...              426 00:14:53,100 --> 00:14:54,435                 Yeah.                427 00:14:54,476 --> 00:14:55,728           Where did you two                  know each other from?        428 00:14:55,769 --> 00:14:56,896          -Oh, we're friends.                       -We're--               429 00:14:56,937 --> 00:14:58,772          -We are friends...                      -Yeah. Yeah.             430 00:14:58,814 --> 00:15:02,526           ...from the same                    book club together.         431 00:15:02,568 --> 00:15:04,194          -Mm-hmm. Book club.                        -Yeah.                432 00:15:04,820 --> 00:15:07,364        Son, let me talk to you                for a minute, okay?         433 00:15:08,407 --> 00:15:10,242      Okay. Um, you know, Sydney,              you can look at...          434 00:15:10,284 --> 00:15:12,578            -Oh, thank you.                 -...the wheels and stuff.      435 00:15:12,620 --> 00:15:13,913         -Okay, yeah. Will do.                    -Uh, listen.             436 00:15:13,954 --> 00:15:15,873             Where do you                     really know her from?        437 00:15:15,915 --> 00:15:17,958     'Cause ain't no man in their         right mind discusses a book.     438 00:15:18,000 --> 00:15:19,668     I just know her from around.             I don't know, just...        439 00:15:19,710 --> 00:15:21,754         Around? Come on now.         440 00:15:21,795 --> 00:15:23,881           You go to school,               you come to this bike shop,     441 00:15:23,923 --> 00:15:26,717        and you sit your sorry,                 sad ass at home.           442 00:15:26,759 --> 00:15:27,927       -It's not sad and sorry.                  -Come on, man.            443 00:15:27,968 --> 00:15:29,094    Where you really know her from?  444 00:15:31,430 --> 00:15:33,057             I met her...             445 00:15:33,098 --> 00:15:34,391     -I met her in NA. I'm in NA.                   -[gasps]               446 00:15:34,433 --> 00:15:37,102       NA? When did this happen?      447 00:15:37,144 --> 00:15:38,520          A month or two ago.                     I don't know.            448 00:15:38,562 --> 00:15:40,272          Why didn't you tell                  your daddy sooner?          449 00:15:40,314 --> 00:15:42,441      Because you worked so hard                   to cure me              450 00:15:42,483 --> 00:15:44,276        with that at-home rehab                   a while ago,             451 00:15:44,318 --> 00:15:45,945         and I didn't want you                to think you failed.         452 00:15:45,986 --> 00:15:48,280        [scoffs] I would never                   think I failed.           453 00:15:48,322 --> 00:15:50,741          I think you failed                   to accept my cure.          454 00:15:50,783 --> 00:15:52,034    Okay, well, you kind of failed.  455 00:15:52,076 --> 00:15:54,286               [groans]                     I can't believe this. NA.      456 00:15:54,328 --> 00:15:55,412             This is a lot                    to process right now.        457 00:15:55,454 --> 00:15:56,497         Go, process it. Yeah.        458 00:15:56,538 --> 00:15:58,040        Where is this place at?       459 00:15:58,082 --> 00:15:59,375    Where-where are you dope fiends            meeting at today?          460 00:15:59,416 --> 00:16:00,876               Where are                   the "dope fiends" meeting?      461 00:16:00,918 --> 00:16:03,379                 Yeah.                   Where y'all be nodding off at?    462 00:16:03,420 --> 00:16:05,756              Okay, look.                    It's on Tilden at 5:00.       463 00:16:05,798 --> 00:16:07,424              -Hmm. Hmm.                   -It's just a normal thing.      464 00:16:07,466 --> 00:16:09,176        You cannot tell anybody            I'm in the meetings, okay?      465 00:16:09,218 --> 00:16:10,594    It's a secret. It's anonymous.           That's the whole thing.       466 00:16:10,636 --> 00:16:12,805          [grunts] I got you.         467 00:16:12,846 --> 00:16:15,057          Okay. Ready to go?          468 00:16:15,099 --> 00:16:16,934  -Yes. Great to meet you, Kareem.               -You, too.              469 00:16:16,976 --> 00:16:18,227             -A pleasure.                      -You're damn right.         470 00:16:18,268 --> 00:16:19,478           -Love your shop.                         -I know.               471 00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:21,063             -Good vibes.                          -All right.             472 00:16:21,105 --> 00:16:22,231        Helmets could be, like,               a little bit cheaper.        473 00:16:22,272 --> 00:16:23,190         -[entry bell chimes]                         -Yep.                474 00:16:23,232 --> 00:16:24,441        Tell that to inflation.       475 00:16:24,483 --> 00:16:26,318         [indistinct chatter]         476 00:16:26,360 --> 00:16:28,320    You doing anything at midnight            for your anniversary?        477 00:16:28,362 --> 00:16:30,114             No, it's not                   like New Year's Eve, Dan.      478 00:16:30,155 --> 00:16:31,490             I could throw                   this fucking cake out,        479 00:16:31,532 --> 00:16:32,908           -if you're not--                    -No, no. Thank you.         480 00:16:32,950 --> 00:16:34,076       -Thank you for making it.                 -We are ready.            481 00:16:34,118 --> 00:16:35,619                -Okay.                           -Is that cake?            482 00:16:35,661 --> 00:16:36,954      Yeah, but it's for Sydney,               so you shouldn't--          483 00:16:36,996 --> 00:16:37,997          -Oh, that-- Well...                    -Okay, well...            484 00:16:38,038 --> 00:16:40,499     Mmm! Almond milk. Very good.     485 00:16:40,541 --> 00:16:42,459            You could tell                 it's almond milk from that?     486 00:16:42,501 --> 00:16:44,920            I know my cake.                    You bake this, Dan?         487 00:16:44,962 --> 00:16:46,588        Yeah. I did, actually.        488 00:16:46,630 --> 00:16:48,173       -Can you bake every week?              -Uh, I have two jobs.        489 00:16:48,215 --> 00:16:49,800           -I don't think--                 -It'd be great if he did.      490 00:16:49,842 --> 00:16:51,343      Honestly, I'm so bad at it.             You should teach me.         491 00:16:51,385 --> 00:16:52,970         Uh, yeah, no. I think               I could actually, yeah.       492 00:16:53,012 --> 00:16:54,763     -Yeah, for sure. For sure...              -Yeah? Okay, cool.          493 00:16:54,805 --> 00:16:57,266            I have two jobs                  but need a hobby. Yeah.       494 00:16:57,307 --> 00:16:59,059         -[entry bell chimes]                    -And remember,            495 00:16:59,101 --> 00:17:00,394       one tie, you're a clown.       496 00:17:00,436 --> 00:17:02,229     Two, you're Lance Armstrong.     497 00:17:02,271 --> 00:17:04,982        -Yo, 'Reem. What's up?              -Hey, yo, Drew, what up?       498 00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:08,068         Damn. You got grease                   all over my shit.          499 00:17:08,110 --> 00:17:10,738          Yeah, well, you got              crime residue all over me.      500 00:17:10,779 --> 00:17:11,947              [chuckles]              501 00:17:11,989 --> 00:17:13,782            -How you been?                       -Just got out.            502 00:17:13,824 --> 00:17:15,617           But listen, man,                     I need some help.          503 00:17:15,659 --> 00:17:18,287          Hey, man, anything.                  Whatever you need.          504 00:17:18,328 --> 00:17:20,539          If anybody ask you,              you tell them I work here.      505 00:17:20,581 --> 00:17:21,874         Oh, that I cannot do.        506 00:17:21,915 --> 00:17:23,792       Look, if you buy a bike,       507 00:17:23,834 --> 00:17:25,836         I'll throw in a pump                with a kickstand on it.       508 00:17:25,878 --> 00:17:28,380  -But other than that, that's it.                 -Damn.                509 00:17:28,422 --> 00:17:29,423           What happened to                  all that pro-Black shit       510 00:17:29,465 --> 00:17:31,050          you used to be on?          511 00:17:31,091 --> 00:17:32,551       That went out the window        when I married that white woman.  512 00:17:32,593 --> 00:17:34,303          See, I'm pro-Black                  when it's convenient,        513 00:17:34,344 --> 00:17:36,221              -like Nike.                          -Damn, bro.             514 00:17:36,263 --> 00:17:37,890             I don't know                 how I'm-a do half this shit.     515 00:17:37,931 --> 00:17:39,475    Yeah, let me see that. Come on.  516 00:17:43,771 --> 00:17:46,482          Damn. They act like                you shot the president        517 00:17:46,523 --> 00:17:48,901    while he was holding a baby and      the baby was holding a puppy.    518 00:17:48,942 --> 00:17:52,071       I'm saying! They want me              to get a job, a curfew,       519 00:17:52,112 --> 00:17:55,240          join a drug program                   and shit. [sighs]          520 00:17:55,282 --> 00:17:56,867                 Hmm.                 521 00:17:56,909 --> 00:17:59,078          Drug program? Hmm.          522 00:18:00,329 --> 00:18:02,539             You know one?            523 00:18:02,581 --> 00:18:04,374      Yeah, but I can't tell you                  who's in it,             524 00:18:04,416 --> 00:18:07,920      'cause, um, it's anonymous            and I'm sworn to secrecy.      525 00:18:07,961 --> 00:18:09,296      Nigga, I don't need to know                 who's in it.             526 00:18:09,338 --> 00:18:11,090       Just give me the address                  to the meeting.           527 00:18:12,466 --> 00:18:14,426            Hmm. You right.           528 00:18:14,468 --> 00:18:17,679    You know what? It's on Tilden,        and it's happening right now.    529 00:18:17,721 --> 00:18:19,473       Yo, 'Reem, you that guy.       530 00:18:19,515 --> 00:18:21,683      -Hey, man, I know. I know.          -Yeah. Appreciate you, 'Reem.    531 00:18:21,725 --> 00:18:23,977             Your savior.                   You know we go way back.       532 00:18:24,019 --> 00:18:26,522              -I got you.                    -Oh, my God. [chuckles]       533 00:18:26,563 --> 00:18:27,731            -[Kareem sighs]                   -[entry bell chimes]         534 00:18:27,773 --> 00:18:29,817           That man's going                     way back to jail.          535 00:18:29,858 --> 00:18:31,276              funky music            536 00:18:31,318 --> 00:18:33,779                                    537 00:18:33,821 --> 00:18:36,156          And I'm so grateful                    for this group            538 00:18:36,198 --> 00:18:37,616         for helping me reach                   that year sober.           539 00:18:37,658 --> 00:18:39,201       I-I couldn't have done it                  without you.             540 00:18:39,243 --> 00:18:42,287      I mean, my sponsor Andrea,               thank you so much.          541 00:18:42,329 --> 00:18:44,790     You know, sobriety is easier          when things are going well.     542 00:18:44,832 --> 00:18:46,959        It's trying to continue              when shit hits the fan.       543 00:18:47,000 --> 00:18:49,795    You know, it's hard to believe       that a little over a year ago,    544 00:18:49,837 --> 00:18:51,964        I was stealing tramadol                from a vet clinic.          545 00:18:52,005 --> 00:18:54,133     They fired me since they had             a "no stealing" rule,        546 00:18:54,174 --> 00:18:56,802  but they also say employees must      wash hands and let's just say    547 00:18:56,844 --> 00:18:58,929    I've seen some dry hands. Okay?  548 00:18:58,971 --> 00:19:01,390       My low point, I made eye             contact with this pigeon       549 00:19:01,431 --> 00:19:03,517             in the park.                     He was cooing at me,         550 00:19:03,559 --> 00:19:06,395     but to me, the cooing meant,         "What are you doing, Sydney?     551 00:19:06,436 --> 00:19:10,190     You're better than dog pills.        Become a paralegal. Join NA."    552 00:19:10,232 --> 00:19:13,360    So I did, but it took me a long       time to be vulnerable here.     553 00:19:13,402 --> 00:19:15,487     -I was so impressed with Dan.                 -[rumbling]             554 00:19:15,529 --> 00:19:17,197      -[rumbling stops abruptly]         -I mean, Dan's really new here,  555 00:19:17,239 --> 00:19:20,868    and he was able to just come in          and-and be so brave,         556 00:19:20,909 --> 00:19:23,453     and-and vulnerable and honest       with your share the other day,    557 00:19:23,495 --> 00:19:25,164    -when you opened up to share--          -Oh, so, um... [stammers]      558 00:19:25,205 --> 00:19:26,832        Uh, you're done, right?           There's no more words, yeah?     559 00:19:26,874 --> 00:19:28,917          -Oh. O-Okay. Yeah.               -That was the intro, right?     560 00:19:28,959 --> 00:19:30,460                -Yeah.                      -Yeah, sure, fine. Okay.       561 00:19:30,502 --> 00:19:33,046       -Everyone, Dan. Dan. Dan.             -So, um... Yeah, okay.        562 00:19:33,088 --> 00:19:34,923       Sober Sydney, everybody.       563 00:19:34,965 --> 00:19:37,050              Huh? Um...              564 00:19:37,092 --> 00:19:38,635           Well, I just came                    up here to say...          565 00:19:38,677 --> 00:19:41,138  Oh, first of all, my name's Dan.             I'm an addict.            566 00:19:41,180 --> 00:19:43,473         You guys, obviously,                  addicts yourselves.         567 00:19:43,515 --> 00:19:45,392    Um, so what are we doing here?    568 00:19:45,434 --> 00:19:47,769      We're here because we want                 a clean slate.            569 00:19:47,811 --> 00:19:51,273         Whatever we've done,                whatever we've shared--       570 00:19:51,315 --> 00:19:56,320  certainly whatever I've shared--            let's forget it.           571 00:19:56,361 --> 00:19:58,030           [New York accent]                   "Forget about it."          572 00:19:58,071 --> 00:20:00,449              All right?                 That'll help us turn the page,    573 00:20:00,490 --> 00:20:01,867      and let's make it official.     574 00:20:01,909 --> 00:20:04,953     Let's raise a glass of water,                 obviously,              575 00:20:04,995 --> 00:20:09,791         and, uh... blessed be                  those who forget.          576 00:20:09,833 --> 00:20:11,835            To forgetting.            577 00:20:11,877 --> 00:20:13,378          -Congrats, Sydney.             -Okay. Thank you, Dan. That's--  578 00:20:13,420 --> 00:20:14,963           Many more years.                     Many more years.           579 00:20:15,005 --> 00:20:16,006    Thank you so-- Okay, sit down.                That's great.            580 00:20:16,048 --> 00:20:17,049           -Thank you. Uh...                         -Okay.                581 00:20:17,090 --> 00:20:18,717            Wow. Uh, yeah.            582 00:20:18,759 --> 00:20:21,053          Let's just go ahead             and forget that, immediately.    583 00:20:21,094 --> 00:20:23,222             Um, Franklin,                 you want to say something?      584 00:20:23,263 --> 00:20:25,057            [Franklin] Yes.                 Congratulations, Sydney.       585 00:20:25,098 --> 00:20:26,892         -[Sydney] Thank you.              -Amazing to watch you grow      586 00:20:26,934 --> 00:20:28,518            over this year.           587 00:20:28,560 --> 00:20:29,895          -Thanks, Franklin.               -And, uh... [clears throat]     588 00:20:29,937 --> 00:20:31,396            Hey, everybody,                   thank you for coming         589 00:20:31,438 --> 00:20:33,106     to share in the celebration,               and now it's time          590 00:20:33,148 --> 00:20:34,900            -for some cake.                     -[Sydney whoops]           591 00:20:34,942 --> 00:20:36,944         [indistinct chatter]         592 00:20:36,985 --> 00:20:40,197               Uh, Drew.                  What-what are you doing here?    593 00:20:40,239 --> 00:20:42,115             Man, I swear                    you're like a bad omen.       594 00:20:42,157 --> 00:20:44,034     Man, I knew I shouldn't have         trusted Kareem on this spot.     595 00:20:44,076 --> 00:20:45,744               -Kareem.                              -Damn.                596 00:20:45,786 --> 00:20:47,287    I fucking knew Kareem would say        some shit. Jesus fuck...       597 00:20:47,329 --> 00:20:49,748      So, you a fucking crackhead              teaching my niece.          598 00:20:49,790 --> 00:20:51,250         Ain't this some shit.        599 00:20:51,291 --> 00:20:53,252           No, first of all,              every teacher is high. Okay?     600 00:20:53,293 --> 00:20:54,419              That's how                   they get through the year.      601 00:20:54,461 --> 00:20:55,629        And also, it was pills.       602 00:20:55,671 --> 00:20:57,005         I'm not a crackhead.         603 00:20:57,047 --> 00:20:59,258                I was,                   but not for the last 15 years.    604 00:20:59,299 --> 00:21:00,926      This program saved my life.     605 00:21:00,968 --> 00:21:02,594              You must be                  a friend of Sydney's, huh?      606 00:21:02,636 --> 00:21:05,555     Sydney? Nah. I'm here 'cause,          uh, I got into some, uh,       607 00:21:05,597 --> 00:21:06,765         -legal trouble, um...                        -Oh.                 608 00:21:06,807 --> 00:21:08,558        Who can sign my papers?       609 00:21:08,600 --> 00:21:10,102      Well, I'll make you a deal.            I'll sign your papers,        610 00:21:10,143 --> 00:21:12,271       but first you got to stay                    for cake.              611 00:21:12,312 --> 00:21:13,522         Our man Dan made it.         612 00:21:13,563 --> 00:21:15,774               -He did?                          -That's right.            613 00:21:15,816 --> 00:21:17,234      It ain't no pills in there,                   is there?              614 00:21:17,276 --> 00:21:18,443            You know what?                   Maybe we should check.        615 00:21:18,485 --> 00:21:19,945               -Come on.                      -Yeah, let's do that.        616 00:21:22,823 --> 00:21:24,783           What was it like                  when you were in here?        617 00:21:24,825 --> 00:21:26,952                I mean,                     it was probably the same.      618 00:21:26,994 --> 00:21:28,620       They still do that thing                where they make you         619 00:21:28,662 --> 00:21:30,580         explain your painting           like you're talking to a baby?    620 00:21:30,622 --> 00:21:32,165          [chuckles] No way.               They made you do that, too?     621 00:21:32,207 --> 00:21:35,460        Ugh. Girl. [baby talk]                 "Uh, this shadowing         622 00:21:35,502 --> 00:21:39,506    draws focus to the foreground.             Goo, goo, ga, ga."          623 00:21:39,548 --> 00:21:42,843     I just said my baby was deaf      and started using sign language.  624 00:21:42,884 --> 00:21:44,469          Ugh, such a rebel.          625 00:21:44,511 --> 00:21:46,513             Let me guess,               they don't like your paintings.  626 00:21:46,555 --> 00:21:48,015       [scoffs] I mean, it's not           that they don't like them.      627 00:21:48,056 --> 00:21:49,766             It's just...             628 00:21:49,808 --> 00:21:51,351     It feel like they don't want            anything original here.       629 00:21:51,393 --> 00:21:53,687            Oh, it's like,                    "They don't get me."         630 00:21:53,729 --> 00:21:55,022       Yeah, I mean, they don't.      631 00:21:55,063 --> 00:21:57,024       -I don't know why you...                 -That's bullshit.          632 00:21:57,065 --> 00:21:59,568     If you keep this attitude up,        you ain't gonna make it far.     633 00:21:59,609 --> 00:22:01,153          But if I keep doing                    what they want,           634 00:22:01,194 --> 00:22:02,738       I'll never find my voice.      635 00:22:02,779 --> 00:22:04,906            Like, you know,                my art teacher always says:     636 00:22:04,948 --> 00:22:06,825    "It takes a long time to learn        how to paint like yourself."     637 00:22:06,867 --> 00:22:08,285               [scoffs]               638 00:22:08,327 --> 00:22:10,329  Yo, your art teacher is a thief.  639 00:22:10,370 --> 00:22:12,122    He stole that from Miles Davis.  640 00:22:12,164 --> 00:22:14,583             He did? Huh.             641 00:22:14,624 --> 00:22:16,001             So, what was,                    what was you saying?         642 00:22:16,043 --> 00:22:18,086           Sometimes in life                 you got to compromise.        643 00:22:18,128 --> 00:22:19,963          -You mean sell out.                         -Ugh!                644 00:22:20,005 --> 00:22:21,131       Oh, God. Are you a hotep?      645 00:22:21,173 --> 00:22:23,091      What? No. I'm not a hotep.      646 00:22:23,133 --> 00:22:25,802     I-I just don't want to paint         what white people tell me to.    647 00:22:25,844 --> 00:22:27,804          Like, I want to do                   what I want to do.          648 00:22:27,846 --> 00:22:30,515          Oh, really? Do you?             How very original, all right?    649 00:22:30,557 --> 00:22:32,851     The first Black person that's        wanted to do their own thing.    650 00:22:32,893 --> 00:22:34,311          Call it selling out                    if you want to.           651 00:22:34,353 --> 00:22:36,855          I say I bought in.          652 00:22:36,897 --> 00:22:38,732         I wasn't in love with         everything they made me do here,  653 00:22:38,774 --> 00:22:40,525          but I needed to get                    my kidney back.           654 00:22:40,567 --> 00:22:42,903          Your kidney? Damn.          655 00:22:42,944 --> 00:22:44,571       [Arsema] Uh, when you won                the LACMA prize,           656 00:22:44,613 --> 00:22:45,989             did you know                     it was gonna happen?         657 00:22:46,031 --> 00:22:47,699              -Yeah. Duh.                            -Shush.               658 00:22:47,741 --> 00:22:51,161     I gave them what they wanted,          and I got what I wanted.       659 00:22:51,203 --> 00:22:53,246         Then my life changed.        660 00:22:54,247 --> 00:22:55,707             -Hey, hotep.                             -Hmm?                661 00:22:55,749 --> 00:22:57,042    You really know sign language?    662 00:22:57,084 --> 00:22:59,169                 Yeah,                    if the other person doesn't.     663 00:22:59,211 --> 00:23:01,963         [laughs] Looking like             you're doing the Macarena.      664 00:23:02,005 --> 00:23:04,549            That is fucked.                    Show me your work.          665 00:23:04,591 --> 00:23:06,385               -Really?                              -Yeah.                666 00:23:06,426 --> 00:23:07,719           Oh, shit. A'ight.          667 00:23:07,761 --> 00:23:09,638               Hurry up.              668 00:23:09,679 --> 00:23:11,306                 Um...                669 00:23:12,391 --> 00:23:14,893             This the one,                this the one that got me in.     670 00:23:14,935 --> 00:23:16,686                 -Huh.                               -Yeah.                671 00:23:16,728 --> 00:23:18,563           -I don't hate it.                       -You don't?             672 00:23:18,605 --> 00:23:20,065                Uh-uh.                673 00:23:20,107 --> 00:23:22,192       [Drew] Man, I don't even                 want to be here.           674 00:23:22,234 --> 00:23:24,361           Fucking lawyer's                got me doing all this shit.     675 00:23:24,403 --> 00:23:25,862     [Dan] If you don't want to be        here, maybe I can find a way     676 00:23:25,904 --> 00:23:27,406        that you don't have to                     come here.              677 00:23:27,447 --> 00:23:29,366         You know I don't want                to be here. The fuck?        678 00:23:29,408 --> 00:23:31,451             Good morning.            679 00:23:32,452 --> 00:23:33,829              It's night.             680 00:23:33,870 --> 00:23:35,414                Anyway,                   if you don't want to show up,    681 00:23:35,455 --> 00:23:36,915        maybe I can sign you in                    every week,             682 00:23:36,957 --> 00:23:38,166           so you don't even                 have to come yourself.        683 00:23:38,208 --> 00:23:39,709        How can you sign me in?       684 00:23:39,751 --> 00:23:41,253     I'd just write your name down                 in cursive.             685 00:23:41,294 --> 00:23:43,130           Son, you a bozo.           686 00:23:43,171 --> 00:23:45,590         I couldn't trust you             to get Zayna to go to school.    687 00:23:45,632 --> 00:23:47,759     How I'm supposed to trust you               to sign me in?            688 00:23:47,801 --> 00:23:49,386         I might not come back                   'cause of you.            689 00:23:49,428 --> 00:23:51,096        You're like a black cat                   or some shit.            690 00:23:51,138 --> 00:23:53,473  You know what? I agree with you.  691 00:23:53,515 --> 00:23:55,392       You should not come back                  because of me.            692 00:23:55,434 --> 00:23:56,810     Okay. Here's what I could do.    693 00:23:56,852 --> 00:23:58,103             I could find                  another group you can go to     694 00:23:58,145 --> 00:23:59,604         in the neighborhood,                   or Franklin can.           695 00:23:59,646 --> 00:24:00,605        I mean, I would love to                just help, like...          696 00:24:00,647 --> 00:24:02,607          Why all of a sudden         697 00:24:02,649 --> 00:24:04,776         you all eager beaver                trying to help me out?        698 00:24:04,818 --> 00:24:06,987            Well, I just...           699 00:24:07,028 --> 00:24:10,031           I feel bad about                 the whole Zayna situation      700 00:24:10,073 --> 00:24:11,950      and that you were arrested,               and, you know...           701 00:24:13,160 --> 00:24:14,453           Are-are we okay?           702 00:24:14,494 --> 00:24:16,037     Son, I don't think about you.    703 00:24:16,079 --> 00:24:18,123             -That's fair.                          -[scoffs]              704 00:24:18,165 --> 00:24:19,791      What's up with Kev, though?             He ain't hit me back         705 00:24:19,833 --> 00:24:21,543         since shit went down.                   Where's he at?            706 00:24:21,585 --> 00:24:24,212            Uh, Kev, um...            707 00:24:24,254 --> 00:24:25,922       I don't-- I-I haven't...           I haven't seen him in a bit.     708 00:24:25,964 --> 00:24:28,633     Um, anyway, if you're serious           about not coming back,        709 00:24:28,675 --> 00:24:30,302      I can find some other place             in the neighborhood,         710 00:24:30,343 --> 00:24:32,304    -or maybe make a spreadsheet--          -Dan. Thanks for sharing.      711 00:24:32,345 --> 00:24:34,264        -Oh, yeah, no problem.         -Huge mistake I made asking you,  712 00:24:34,306 --> 00:24:36,099          but you know what?                    I'm gonna own it.          713 00:24:36,141 --> 00:24:37,434                 [Dan]                      You're so unappreciative.      714 00:24:37,476 --> 00:24:38,810        You get one year sober                  and get so rude.           715 00:24:38,852 --> 00:24:40,562              -Yeah, huh.                         -Um, oh, uh,             716 00:24:40,604 --> 00:24:42,814         Sydney, this is Drew.               Uh, Drew, Sydney. Yeah.       717 00:24:42,856 --> 00:24:44,399          [Sydney] Hey, Drew.               You guys know each other?      718 00:24:44,441 --> 00:24:46,485          Uh, Drew... Uh, no.         719 00:24:46,526 --> 00:24:48,487            I just met him.                 Uh, first meeting. Yeah.       720 00:24:48,528 --> 00:24:50,363          Oh, hey, congrats.              Sobriety is the best thing--     721 00:24:50,405 --> 00:24:53,492      I'm already sober, shorty.            I'm just here for court.       722 00:24:53,533 --> 00:24:55,494      Oh, shit. Okay. Well, hey,            if you have legal issues,      723 00:24:55,535 --> 00:24:57,037          you know, I work at                  a legal aid society         724 00:24:57,078 --> 00:24:58,455        right here in Brooklyn,              so I can help you out.        725 00:24:58,497 --> 00:24:59,581         Refer you to someone.                 Whatever you need.          726 00:24:59,623 --> 00:25:00,999          -I'm good for now.                         -Okay.                727 00:25:01,041 --> 00:25:02,709           He's good for now                 and for later, I think.       728 00:25:02,751 --> 00:25:04,544        -He's covered for life.        -Hey, there you go, as promised.  729 00:25:04,586 --> 00:25:06,671      So, we gonna see you again?     730 00:25:06,713 --> 00:25:08,131         You gonna come back?         731 00:25:09,925 --> 00:25:11,510     Will she be here every week?     732 00:25:11,551 --> 00:25:14,179        Oh, yeah. She just went             through a breakup, so...       733 00:25:14,221 --> 00:25:16,681      -she's not going anywhere.                   -Bet, bet.              734 00:25:16,723 --> 00:25:18,725                -Yeah.                     -Cake here every week, too?     735 00:25:18,767 --> 00:25:20,769            As made by Dan.                      He volunteered.           736 00:25:20,810 --> 00:25:22,479    I mean, we'll see what happens.  737 00:25:22,521 --> 00:25:24,147        And she misses meetings            sometimes, but, you know...     738 00:25:24,189 --> 00:25:25,815               -A'ight.                         -[Franklin] Yeah.          739 00:25:25,857 --> 00:25:27,484         -Yeah, I'll be back.               -[Franklin] That's good.       740 00:25:27,526 --> 00:25:29,110       -Cool. Nice to meet you.                  -Y'all be easy.           741 00:25:29,152 --> 00:25:30,612         -[Franklin] Be good.              -I'm gonna go try the cake.     742 00:25:30,654 --> 00:25:31,947                -What?                            -Okay. Yeah.             743 00:25:31,988 --> 00:25:34,199         The chocolate really                   my favorite, boo.          744 00:25:34,241 --> 00:25:36,535               Word up.               745 00:25:36,576 --> 00:25:38,662               Oh, yeah,                   he's definitely an addict.      746 00:25:38,703 --> 00:25:40,830                [Nancy]                         Aw, so beautiful.          747 00:25:40,872 --> 00:25:43,333             It's magical.            748 00:25:43,375 --> 00:25:46,795      You aren't supposed to say               "magical" anymore.          749 00:25:46,836 --> 00:25:49,798            What? Says who?                  Magical's a nice word.        750 00:25:49,839 --> 00:25:52,509           -It's offensive.                          -It is?               751 00:25:52,551 --> 00:25:55,554            Yeah. You know,                   like the whole, like,        752 00:25:55,595 --> 00:25:59,432      magical Black person thing.                  Bagger Vance.            753 00:25:59,474 --> 00:26:01,351                 [Ben]                       Who doesn't like magic?       754 00:26:01,393 --> 00:26:03,311       "Black Boy from the Ghetto"            by Dyke & The Blazers        755 00:26:03,353 --> 00:26:05,397                                    756 00:26:05,438 --> 00:26:08,275           I'm the Black boy         757 00:26:08,316 --> 00:26:10,026                 Yep.                 758 00:26:10,068 --> 00:26:13,196            From the ghetto          759 00:26:13,238 --> 00:26:14,823         I am a magical nigga.        760 00:26:14,864 --> 00:26:16,992           I'm the Black boy         761 00:26:17,033 --> 00:26:19,494               You heard                    what they said about me?       762 00:26:19,536 --> 00:26:22,455         From the ghetto, yeah       763 00:26:22,497 --> 00:26:26,418          -[muttering] Kevin?                         -Hmm?                764 00:26:26,459 --> 00:26:28,587         How you come to work                    late and slow?            765 00:26:28,628 --> 00:26:30,755     My bad, man. The review went            long at the fellowship.       766 00:26:30,797 --> 00:26:32,048       They finally liked one of              my paintings, though.        767 00:26:32,090 --> 00:26:33,758           -What you think?                       -[gasps] Ooh!            768 00:26:33,800 --> 00:26:36,386     What in the Black-trauma-porn             fuck is this, man?          769 00:26:36,428 --> 00:26:38,888      I can't hang that in here.           White people come in here.      770 00:26:38,930 --> 00:26:40,890       I mean, what happened to       771 00:26:40,932 --> 00:26:42,392       the ducks having a picnic                  in the park?             772 00:26:42,434 --> 00:26:44,269       -Now that was good shit.                   -I don't know            773 00:26:44,311 --> 00:26:46,563    what you're talking about, man.       This shit is revolutionary.     774 00:26:46,605 --> 00:26:47,772             It's magical.            775 00:26:47,814 --> 00:26:49,733          Hmm. Magical, huh?          776 00:26:49,774 --> 00:26:51,526             I'm-a hang it                     in a magical place.         777 00:26:52,819 --> 00:26:56,197  In the bathroom, so it can scare       the shit out of everybody.      778 00:26:56,239 --> 00:26:57,240                Like you             779 00:26:57,282 --> 00:26:59,034             [door closes]            780 00:26:59,075 --> 00:27:01,077           I'm the Black boy         781 00:27:03,330 --> 00:27:05,498         From the ghetto, yeah       782 00:27:07,959 --> 00:27:10,670         I'm the Black boy, now      783 00:27:12,589 --> 00:27:15,800       From the ghetto, huh, now     784 00:27:18,345 --> 00:27:21,306          I know what it means       785 00:27:22,307 --> 00:27:25,644     To be called a Black fool      786 00:27:25,685 --> 00:27:27,771            Lord have mercy          787 00:27:27,812 --> 00:27:31,399        And I know how it feels      788 00:27:31,441 --> 00:27:35,612         To wear run-over shoes      789 00:27:35,654 --> 00:27:38,156           I'm the Black boy         790 00:27:39,699 --> 00:27:43,411       From the ghetto, oh, yeah     791 00:27:45,121 --> 00:27:49,250           I'm the Black boy         792 00:27:49,292 --> 00:27:52,253            From the ghetto