NARRATOR: Selection for the SAS is a test like no other.
You can't prepare yourself for selection.
The mindset you must adapt is that of success.
The moment failure enters your head...
..that is enough to take you out.
JAY: Go! Move! STAFF: Try harder!
ANT: I'm sick of your (BLEEP) bullshit excuses!
(TEARFULLY) I know. Sorry.
A new group of celebrity recruits...
STAFF: Block out the pain and stop (BLEEP) whinging.
ABBEY: Oh, my god.
..have volunteered... JAY: Go!
..to leave their comfortable lives behind.
There ain't ever been no one like me...
ANT: Fight! ..in the history of sport
in the world, ever. (ANTHONY GRUNTS)
Dangling like a spare prick.
Give me a (BLEEP) ring, and we'll see.
They'll be trained... Two, what's happening?
CRAIG: We're under attack. Give me a read out!
..to survive the impossible.
Let's go!
Everything you've got!
Chief instructor Ant Middleton and his team of directing staff
will make no exceptions.
The enemy are here! Get down!
Make a decision!
We need to go!
Tonight... Jab, jab.
No, step into it. Ready?
Yeah.
Am I doing OK?
You're doing alright.
(ZIMA EXCLAIMS)
The recruits fight in urban warfare...
(GUNFIRE)
STAFF: He doesn't know where the (BLEEP) you are right now!
Where the (BLEEP) is he going?
..but struggle to make it out.
No, stop! (GUNFIRE)
You're (BLEEP) dead!
And you're the cause of it!
And, in the ultimate test of trust...
Are you ready for the (BLEEP) responsibility
of Number Four's life? Yes, Staff.
..a critical error and a deadly drop.
Standby. Arms out!
Go! Arms out!
(ABBEY CRIES OUT) Arms out!
JAY: (BLEEP) brake!
Brake, brake, brake! (ABBEY SCREAMS)
(MIDDLE EASTERN MUSIC)
(COUGHS)
It's day five...
..and the halfway mark...
..of the unrelenting SAS selection course.
Of the 14 who started, nine exhausted recruits remain.
MATTHEW: I'm gonna stand over here by the fire.
Yeah, it's (BLEEP) cold.
CRAIG M: How'd you sleep, Tim?
Man, I actually slept OK.
Did ya? Yeah.
I heard you didn't sleep much at all.
No, I didn't sleep a wink, really.
Yeah. Were you anticipating...
Yes, I was dressed,
and I was lightning-ready to fight.
ABBEY: Porridge and eggs, everyone.
I still sometimes look at you, and I find it so weird
because our dynamic at 'Neighbours' was the same,
but it's like...
It's just so crazy that we're there then here,
and the difference between it is insane.
'Neighbours' actors, Zima and Tim...
..reminisce about life on set.
Did you do many acting courses, classes?
Yeah.
I saw a psychic...
..and he said, "You're gonna be acting."
(ZIMA GASPS) And from there...
Really? And I was like,
well, holy shit, I better learn how to act properly then.
So then, the audition for 'Neighbours' came through,
and I put it down, and then got a call back,
and then that kind of...
Then Pierce Grayson came to life.
Then the psychic was right,
and I was working full-time as an actor,
which was kind of weird.
Tim did really well.
I really think there's so many people in the industry
that judge people that have come from,
let's say, reality shows and stuff,
there's such a stigma.
Yeah, because they feel like they haven't done their time.
You could feel that when... I mean, everyone was nice.
There was a little bit of that when you went in.
Mm.
But it was then, just had to prove everyone wrong
and pick up my... Which you did.
..skills today.
You did so well.
As the hot desert sun rises...
Ready? Watch my punch. Ready?
..Zima pivots from acting...
Mate, she's not bad through the hips too.
..to boxing,
showing three-time world champ, Anthony 'The Man' Mundine the skills.
One, two.
Hard on the sand without shoes.
See, that's mad you turn it over. MAHALIA: Yeah.
So see when I... I jab, jab, and I step into it.
Jab.
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Jab, jab.
Now jump in
'cause you'll bring your weight if you land that right in.
Can I try? It's a good line.
Ready?
Oh, I missed.
Big swing though. (LAUGHTER)
Am I doing OK?
(ZIMA EXCLAIMS) Beast.
What a beast. Beast.
You're a pocket rocket.
She's literally a pocket rocket.
(MIDDLE EASTERN MUSIC)
Transporting the recruits
to their first gruelling task of the day...
..they'll soon be faced with a mission
requiring courage, focus, and complete trust in one another.
(PRAYER CALL)
In the special forces,
trust is what we operate off 24/7.
Out on the battlefield,
when chaos is kicking off around you,
bullets flying over your heads, bombs going off...
..you have to give your trust to somebody,
somebody has to give their trust to you.
STAFF: Get out, let's move.
Hurry up.
If you don't, then...
..you're gonna be dead.
Trust is earned.
You look to your left and to your right,
and your (BLEEP) world is collapsing.
The people that are still standing with you,
and this is true to life...
..are people that you can trust.
Everything that you've been taught up till now,
everything comes into play now.
Communication and trust is key here.
And listen in very carefully to the detail.
We've all (BLEEP) deployed on countless tier-one operations,
and we've utilised drone technology
in every single one of those missions.
Any (BLEEP) area of operations,
drones in modern-day warfare are employed.
They're our (BLEEP) eyes in the sky.
In an urban warfare scenario...
..in this abandoned desert outpost...
..the recruits will be split into pairs.
(RADIO BEEPS)
One, a drone operator as the eyes in the sky.
The other, a single-armed soldier.
Using clear communication, they're to work together...
..navigating a path through the streets...
..determining which are civilians and which are the enemy.
(GUNFIRE)
And make it to the safety of the extraction vehicle...
..parked in front for a quicker getaway.
If communication between either recruits breaks down,
they both fail.
Identify absolutely everything.
Someone's (BLEEP) walking, are they carrying a weapon?
Or is it civilian population?
You (BLEEP) open up fire,
and you've killed a (BLEEP) civilian,
guess what?
You're in a (BLEEP) court of law.
If I'm the (BLEEP) boots on the ground,
I should be able to close my eyes
and (BLEEP) go off
that communication that's given to me.
That's how serious, and that's how real it is.
Big, big responsibility, huge responsibility.
When I say go, you will disappear into this area.
Go, follow me. Let's go.
OLLIE: Nine and six.
International rugby star, Mahalia Murphy
and actor, Craig McLachlan start the task.
Come here. In an emergency,
I seem to be able to make decisions fairly quickly
to stabilise a situation.
Who's the drone operator?
Me, Staff.
Right, communication absolutely key here.
You are
the operator on the ground's eyes.
Understood. OK?
I hope I can call upon...
..that sense of calm focus if required.
Right, let's go.
Right, let's go. Move.
Head down, head down, head down, head down.
Head down, low, low, low, low.
For the operator on the ground, they're literally flying blind.
Stay down.
They must trust every word...
..that is coming out of their teammate's mouth.
Chief instructor Ant
will judge the drone operator's performance...
Safety catch is applied. Take charge of the weapon.
..while DS Staz,
a highly experienced sniper...
..will shadow the operative on the ground.
Your team somewhere out to your front.
You're on your (BLEEP) own.
You need to communicate clearly and efficiently
to the HQ drone...
..and make your way to that (BLEEP) extraction point.
Do you understand? MAHALIA: Yes, Staff.
CRAIF: Drone operator too.
If I had to rely on someone...
..to guide me through something on the battlefield,
you want someone that has your back and supports you,
and someone that you trust,
but I'd still be worried.
Immediate left into the laneway.
Ahead of you,
you will see an obstacle that screens.
Make your way to your right.
Move.
OK, stop there, stop there.
Now, Number Nine must scan the area ahead...
..before directing her path forward.
Ahead of you is a laneway.
There are obstacles on the ground, but your path is clear.
Move forward.
ANT: Good.
And keep to the shadows.
There is an individual coming up on your left.
I don't believe the individual's a threat,
they appear to be sweeping.
Still moving forward.
You will see...
..what appears to be civilians playing football...
..to your right and beyond that.
To the left, in the shade,
there appears to be someone who could be a threat.
I want you to keep your eyes open as you move forward.
That's great.
This is our only way through.
Deal with it accordingly.
Copy drone operator.
(GUNFIRE)
You've been contacted.
You need to get out of there.
So when you make your way through this open ground,
there'll be two vehicles.
And the vehicle to your right, I want you to get in that vehicle.
Run like the wind.
(GUNFIRE)
Take him out.
What the (BLEEP) are you doing?
Take him out if you get a chance. Just go.
Number Six, make a (BLEEP) decision.
Now!
Make a (BLEEP) decision!
Go!
CRAIG: Go, go, go.
For that vehicle. Go!
(BLEEP) move!
(GUNFIRE)
Heading to the vehicle.
The vehicle to your right.
The next vehicle.
Wrong vehicle, the vehicle to your right.
STAZ: What the (BLEEP) are you doing?
ANT: Staz, exercise stop.
Stop, stop, stop.
Right.
Despite Number Nine's precise communication...
(BLEEP) great job. Let's go.
..Number Six ignored his final instruction
to get to the front vehicle for a speedier exit...
(BLEEP) Number Nine was shaking
'cause he had your life in his hands.
Get the (BLEEP) out of here.
..meaning both have failed the task.
OLLIE: Five and Four.
Now, Anthony Mundine will act as drone operator...
ANT: Let's go.
..while Abbey Holmes will be the ground soldier.
OK.
Weapon system is now yours, and it's live.
I've always been a part of team environments,
but when you're put into a situation
where you effectively have to trust somebody with your life,
that's challenging.
Number Five, Number Five, you got me?
I got ya.
Alright, move, move up, move up, move up.
Come out, come out.
Stick to your left.
Stick to my left?
I feel that I'm a... I can be a good communicator.
I feel that I can be prompt,
be assertive, and...
..give good instructions.
Sticking to the left on the wall.
Clear passage going straight?
Keep going straight, keep going straight.
As Number Four moves,
Number Five doesn't inform what's ahead,
..or where to take cover.
I can see somebody there.
They're holding a shovel. Zero threat.
When that bloke on your left, when he goes ahead,
go on your right side.
Stay on your right and go straight,
but not yet.
Confused,
Abbey moves without instruction to do so.
Why is she (BLEEP) moving?
You haven't told her to move.
Running up to the cover.
Stop, stop, stop, stop.
Tell her to stop (BLEEP) tracking her own detail.
You're in (BLEEP) charge.
Stop tracking your own detail, I'm in charge.
Listen to me. I'll get you out of there.
There's a guy up on the right.
He's got a gun.
You tell me when to move.
Come over to your right.
Can you see the man over there?
There's a guy about 20m up.
Go to your left.
Come back out.
Come back out through the gate.
Without realising,
Mundine has sent her straight toward the hostile.
Gun ahead, it's not pointed at me.
STAZ: What the (BLEEP) are you doing?
(GUNFIRE) Make a decision!
What are you doing?
Come on, make a decision
She's just been contacted.
Go right, go right, go right, run, run, run, run, run.
Go right to that...
In there, yeah. Man with a soccer ball, no threat.
Don't do that, come back, come back, come back,
come back and go straight.
Come back.
Where the (BLEEP) is she going?
Come back, come back. (BLEEP) running into the enemy!
Come back this way. Other way, other way.
Where is this way, Number Five?
Go forward like you were going forward,
and go left.
Now, in a state of panic...
What's here? Identify it.
Look, there's a (BLEEP) gate, there's a gate, whatever it is!
There's a gate there.
..communication has broken down.
There's a corridor with a...
STAZ: There's a (BLEEP) threat there, Number Four!
(GUNFIRE)
(BLEEP) deal with the threat.
Get the (BLEEP) out of there, Ab.
You need to get the (BLEEP) out of there.
(ABBEY WHIMPERS)
Coming up... (ABBEY SCREAMS)
ANT: Arms out! Fear turns to panic...
Brake, brake, brake!
(ABBEY SCREAMS) ..in a terrifying task.
Oh, god.
STAFF: (BLEEP) let's go.
Then...
STAZ: Do not (BLEEP) let them beat you.
..a brutal beasting.
JAY: This is your chance to redeem yourself!
You don't want to be here, give me your (BLEEP) number!
And...
You hate yourself?
..Matt Mitcham's painful past.
That's a big (BLEEP) burden to carry alone.
(DEEP EXHALE)
(GUNFIRE)
There's a (BLEEP) threat there, Number Four!
Operating in pairs...
Get the (BLEEP) out of there, Ab.
You need to get the (BLEEP) out of there.
..in a test of trust and communication...
Deal with that (BLEEP) threat, Number Four.
..one recruit, a lone soldier on the ground...
Shoot back at that dude.
..is guided by the other, a drone operator...
..to navigate through a series of streets
to the safety of the first extraction vehicle.
Where the (BLEEP) she going?
Come back, come back.
(BLEEP) running into the enemy!
ANTHONY: Come back this way. Other way, other way.
Where is this way, Number Five?
Go forward like you were going forward,
and go left.
But Number Five, Anthony Mundine, struggles to be clear and concise.
And Number Four, Abbey Holmes...
..is right in the hostile's line of fire.
(GUNFIRE)
I can't see her.
Is she here?
There is nothing ahead of me.
Permission to go?
What can you see in front of you?
There is nothing ahead of me, permission to go?
You (BLEEP) lost her!
(BLEEP) lost her!
STAZ: Tell him where you are!
I'm back at that initial point where the first threat was found.
Do you want me to proceed forward?
(RADIO STATIC)
(BLEEP) lost her.
You've lost her.
DS Staz, we have no visual,
we have no visuals, over.
STAZ: Copy.
Staz, exercise stop.
(BLEEP) follow me.
With poor communication from Number Five
and rogue movements from Number Four...
Move. ..both have failed.
Clear communication!
Tell her to (BLEEP) get back,
tell her to stay put,
so you've got full control of her!
Take charge of your asset!
That is your responsibility!
(BLEEP) off out of my sight, both of you.
Move.
Shocking.
ANTHONY: Yeah, (BLEEP).
If you're coming into the special forces world...
..and you want to experience
putting your life into someone's hands...
OLLIE: Ten and 14.
PETER: Yes, Staff.
..this is where you will learn
that you need to trust the person that's next to you.
Go.
Trust is your only option.
Number 14, we want to avoid the threat
and move to your left.
And you have one chance at it.
PETER: Away from the threat.
TIM: Are you sure move to my left?
If I move to my left, I'm gonna be exposed by the threat.
Move to your left now.
In your heart of hearts,
you will know if you can trust someone.
(GUNFIRE)
You (BLEEP) ran him into the (BLEEP) enemy.
Number 14 would be (BLEEP) dead.
Move to this corner, I'll sort that out for you.
Move to the corner. Stand up.
ANT: Without trust, there is no teamwork.
Without teamwork, there is no mission.
Move past slowly.
You certainly do not want to go on the battlefield
not trusting anyone.
Move forward, stick right.
Two barrels ahead of you.
Stay there.
When you know that
you can put your trust 100% in your partner...
(GUNFIRE) Move, move, move.
..you want that person by your side on the battlefield.
(GUNFIRE)
We need to move fast.
You've just been contacted.
Go, go, go, go, go.
Get in the car, get in the car.
Overall,
(BLEEP) good effort that was.
OLLIE: 13.
Last into the task, Number 13, Matthew Mitcham.
In 2008,
I won an Olympic gold medal
with the highest-scoring dive in Olympic history.
But after that, I began a bit of a downward spiral.
Come here, you two.
I was using a lot of drugs,
particularly crystal meth.
But even though I'm an addict in recovery,
I am still ruled by self-doubt and fear.
Drone operator.
Yes, Staff.
Got it, Staff.
With an odd number of recruits,
Number Four is given a chance at redemption...
Yes, Staff. Move.
..acting as drone operator for 13, the lone soldier on the ground.
Right, time to (BLEEP) shine.
Get your (BLEEP) head in the game. Yes, Staff.
You're only as good as your last (BLEEP) task,
and make this one a (BLEEP) good one.
Yes, Staff.
Into the corner there.
Into the (BLEEP) corner.
(BLEEP) corner, 13!
I've lived with generalised anxiety for my whole life.
And I've always struggled with that fear of failure.
Take charge of that weapon system.
OK. Stand up.
Some people inherently trust,
but for me to trust...
..it's often a process
that is accompanied with a lot of fear.
OK, as you look around the corner,
can you see two barrels ahead to the right
before the next obstruction?
Two barrels, copy.
Get to those barrels now.
Go through the passage,
but then find those big barrels towards your right.
Stay to the right at all times.
Trusting his drone operator, 13 moves past the civilians.
Go now, Number 13.
But neither notices the threat lurking ahead.
(GUNFIRE) Speed, speed, speed, speed!
Move straight forward, straight forward.
Stop! Stop!
Good, good.
Stay put. Stay put.
(GUNFIRE) Stay there, stay there.
OK, go to your right.
Right. Other way. Turn around, turn around.
Turn around. (GUNFIRE)
Stay there. Stop, stop!
Get behind that wall!
Stay put!
There is a clear ahead,
so turn around the corner
and go through that barricade,
and then find cover.
Move, Move.
Stay in the shadows,
stay in the shadows to your right, to your right.
(GUNFIRE)
Alright, go now, go now, Number 13.
Go, go, go!
Go!
Threats to your right!
Threats to the right!
(GUNFIRE) Behind you. Get behind the barrel.
Keep moving! Keep moving! Go!
Go! Go to the exit!
Go to the exit, head to the vehicle!
Go, straight!
Straight ahead. There are two vehicles.
Get to the vehicle in the front.
The non-threat side.
The vehicle in the front.
Stop!
Stop, stop, stop. I think they've stopped.
Task over.
You got in the wrong (BLEEP) vehicle,
and also more (BLEEP) importantly,
running across the open ground
(BLEEP) shooting like the (BLEEP) Sundance kid?
What the (BLEEP) was all that shit?
That's how you handle a (BLEEP) weapon system?
(BLEEP) unprofessional.
Yes, Staff.
We told you at all (BLEEP) times,
take charge of any (BLEEP) weapon system you're given.
Yes, Staff, acknowledged.
Two hands at all times.
You (BLEEP) giving me attitude? No, Staff.
I'm confirming... I want a (BLEEP), "Yes, Staff!"
Yes, Staff.
At all times (BLEEP)... This course,
I feel like, is designed
so that you can't be good at anything.
(BLEEP) follow me.
Let's (BLEEP) go!
Hurry up!
That you're constantly being challenged,
or failing, or getting it wrong.
I know that I'm going to emotionally struggle with that.
(RECRUIT GROANS) RECRUIT: Oh, my gosh.
How's it going?
All good. Far out.
(ANTHONY GROANS)
You good?
You alright?
Why? I don't look good?
(ANTHONY LAUGHS)
ZIMA: He looks very relaxed to me. (OVERLAPPING SPEECH)
You always look good.
But you look deep in your thoughts.
I just... I'm not... It's time to go now.
I gave it a crack.
After Number Five's huge fail in the task,
his spirits are low.
Keep giving it a crack, mate.
You're just too good.
(ANTHONY GROANS)
Keep going. Get through today.
See how you feel tomorrow.
I don't know, man.
I feel like a failure to myself.
Oh, no, don't. Do not let... No, don't do that.
I'm too competitive, mate. So am I.
And that's what sucks
is because I'm not used to failure and neither are you.
It's not the first time
'The Man' Mundine has wanted to voluntarily withdraw.
Yeah, I'm ready to go now.
Are ya? Yeah.
100%.
Are you sure? Yeah.
Are you kidding around now, or are you serious?
(LAUGHS) I'm serious.
I'm a fighter, and I'm a competitor...
I'll see ya.
..but you sometimes have to...
See ya, bruh.
..know when to bring it on, know when to bring it off.
You know what I mean?
CRAIG M: Sheesh.
Just like that, eh?
Just feels like... Feels so strange.
Number Five.
ANTHONY: Staff.
Good, listen.
I'm not going to keep you here.
If you want to (BLEEP) VW,
it's completely up to you.
I'm just not in the right headspace...
But just listen,
I want you to go out on a high,
not (BLEEP) VW here on (BLEEP) parade square.
He'll come back I reckon.
Come back, baby, come back, baby.
(RECRUITS LAUGH) Nah, just kidding, just kidding.
Just take each day as it comes, OK?
Yeah.
No, you doofus. Lasso him.
Quick, lasso him in.
Clean your shit up. Alright.
He's coming back.
CRAIG M: Talk about (BLEEP) boomerang.
(RECRUITS LAUGH)
Seriously.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
Are you staying?
I love you, man. Love you too, my bruh.
ABBEY: Are you back? Just for a bit.
MATTHEW: He'll end up passing the course.
(RECRUITS LAUGH) ZIMA: Last man standing.
RECRUIT: Just for a bit.
I just want to walk away knowing that I gave my all.
I ain't falling, I'm not...
I ain't falling up short.
Kick back, kick back.
(SINGING) # Anthony Mundine,
# He's the best we ever seen
# With a left and a right
# Mundine he's out of sight. #
(ANTHONY LAUGHS)
(MIDDLE EASTERN MUSIC)
While Number Five recommits to the course...
OLLIE: Rightio.
..the DS meet to examine the recruits' efforts in the task.
Right, drone.
Good task, mate.
It was a good task.
Some of them (BLEEP) melted
and (BLEEP) couldn't grasp it.
I was quite surprised with Number Nine...
..how just calm, set the standard.
Ahead of you,
you will see an obstacle that screens to your right.
I was just like,
"Right, they're gonna (BLEEP) cruise through this."
And then all of a sudden it just went...
STAZ: (BLEEP) move!
(GUNFIRE)
What the (BLEEP) are you doing?
Number Six, make a (BLEEP) decision!
Now!
Number Six (BLEEP) melted
and just (BLEEP) couldn't grasp it.
Number Five has zero communication skills.
I think he tried to fuse
two of his brain cells together for that,
but it didn't work. Come back this way.
Other way, other way.
Where is this way, Number Five?
You (BLEEP) lost her!
(STAZ CHUCKLES)
However, Number Four,
we obviously gave a second chance to redeem herself.
This time she was the drone operator.
And Number 13 was the operator on the ground.
Mate, it was like, what the (BLEEP) am I seeing?
He's just (BLEEP) firing one-handed again,
up, up, all the way around,
firing over his shoulder.
And as he's running across,
and then he gets to the car, the wrong car.
And then the main gripe with me
was just see a little snap,
which I thought was an attitude towards me.
He needs a good talking to.
Let's bring him in.
(PRAYER CALL)
ZIMA: Do you want one? A what?
A gymnastics trick. Gymnastic trick.
Please don't hurt yourself. I won't.
(RECRUITS EXCLAIM)
Ow!
Shut up.
That hurt me.
Ta-da. (LAUGHTER)
JAY: Number 13!
Ever since being a child,
not wanting to get in trouble
has been a constant throughout my life.
Face the post, put your hands up.
I hate being told that I'm wrong,
or feeling that I've done something wrong.
"'Winning Olympic gold
"'is the most extreme natural high you can ever experience',
"says Matthew Mitcham"
"who then pauses, laughs, and adds,
"'That's why I became a drug addict'."
Meth addiction.
Yeah, crystal meth.
(BLEEP).
"It got dark, my self-esteem was shattered."
"He slipped into old habits after discovering
"he remained at number two on the global rankings."
Wow.
If he's not number one and not a perfectionist,
then number two isn't good enough for him.
Mm.
Step up.
MATTHEW: I was retired 15 months
with no intention of ever returning to the sport.
When I got the opportunity to start diving again...
..I had a drug problem and went cold turkey.
But I never really addressed any of the underlying causes
of why I was just wanting to escape.
Step up.
Step over.
Number 13.
Yes, Staff? Relax.
(EXHALES)
What have you come here to prove and who to?
Big question, that.
(MIDDLE EASTERN MUSIC)
Step up.
Step over.
Showing reckless behaviour in the task
and a questionable attitude...
..the DS have summoned Number 13, Matthew Mitcham.
STAZ: Number 13.
Yes, Staff? Relax.
(EXHALES)
What have you come here to prove?
Big question, that.
It is.
What have you come here to prove and who to?
I don't have anything to prove to anybody else, it's all me.
I'm my own worst enemy. It's all...
I (BLEEP) know that. Yeah.
When did you get gold? 2008.
Did you like diving?
It was my ticket to being special basically
'cause I knew I could do it really well
and that's all I kind of wanted.
Like since I was a kid, since I was like eight or nine
I thought, well, if I do something really good
and get this positive validation,
then if I'm the best in the world at something then I'm going to get,
like, everything that I need, I'm going to feel good about myself.
And so that was a real driving force.
Is it because you've been (BLEEP) locked in your own head
for (BLEEP) years?
I know that I've got really low self-esteem
and like of course, I know that's from childhood,
that's ridiculous childhood trauma but...
Take me back to that childhood.
(SIGHS)
My single, only child in a single parent household and...
Mum, Dad? Mum, yeah,
obviously, her life was difficult
so the easiest way to make me just be as easy as possible
was to control me through fear.
What did that make you do to yourself from a young age?
You hate yourself?
Yeah.
Why? Um...
..because I just didn't feel good enough.
When I got overwhelmed with feelings that I couldn't feel on the inside
I used to cut myself out of anger
'cause I felt like then the problem was dealt with,
it was some sort of release for me.
And after one particular episode I went far too far
and I had to call my grandma to take me to hospital.
What was the worst thing?
Um...
I tried to take my life once.
(CRIES QUIETLY)
Have you processed that?
I just think I wrapped it all up in the whole same thing.
It's just that whole self-esteem stuff, you know,
and it got too much and luckily, it didn't work but...
What other issues (BLEEP) came into play?
I kind of knew from five that I liked boys.
Mm-hmm.
Through primary school and, you know, religion and stuff,
that's when shame started getting put onto it
and so then I put a rubber band around my wrist
because I knew that being gay was such a bad thing,
I put a rubber band around my wrist and every time I had a gay thought
I would snap the rubber band against my wrist
to try and associate pain with it,
to try and train myself out of being gay.
(BLEEP).
That's some hardcore stuff, that.
No wonder you've been in your (BLEEP) own head
for all those years.
No wonder you went down that (BLEEP) path of self-destruction.
I think anyone else (BLEEP) would.
That's a big (BLEEP) burden to carry alone
in your own (BLEEP) head.
Wow.
It's been such a long time since I've thought about it
so it's kind of, it has surprised me a little bit I think.
Just kind of feeling those feelings again.
I actually see you here at the end of the course.
Mmm.
But you need to focus 100%.
Stop the (BLEEP) perfection shit, it doesn't exist.
Don't over (BLEEP) think, don't over (BLEEP) analyse.
(BLEEP) go with it, be you.
That's what this course is about.
(TENDER MUSIC)
OK, Number 13? Yes.
Guard!
(TENDER MUSIC)
Been his own worst enemy from the age of five
all the way through 18 and beyond.
(BLEEP) impact that had on him.
I'm seven and a half years clean and sober.
I came here going,
I don't think I'm going to cry about anything
because I've done so much work on processing all of this stuff.
Right, go.
But even though, I've done the work the facts are the facts.
It's all very sad.
(TENSE MUSIC)
Travelling through the dry desert heat,
the recruits are about to engage in an intense test
of their trust in one another.
(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
OLLIE: OK, get out. Hurry up.
Two ranks.
Other one.
What's (BLEEP) important today, trust.
I went away and trained for two years
to become a mountain guide.
I came back, I was the expert.
Do you know what comes with that?
Responsibility.
Responsibility that you do it correctly.
Responsibility that (BLEEP) none you muckers die, OK?
Ignore the failures that went on this morning.
Put them aside.
This is now a different mission, this is now a different task.
There's some people here that don't like (BLEEP) heights.
It's pretty (BLEEP) high, isn't it?
Packet those emotions.
Stick 'em in your (BLEEP) pocket.
You'll be working in terms, pairs of two.
It's essential that you trust each other.
Trust each other with everything.
Lives, emotions, the lot.
At the edge of a mountainous cliff face,
a terrifying 150m drop to the ground below,
the recruits will work in pairs.
At the top, as one prepare to fall...
ANT: Hold brake!
..below, their brakeman must take full control of the rope.
Arms out signals the brakeman to stand by.
Hands behind their head signals they're ready to jump.
Go!
Freefalling at incredible speed,
the brakeman must now wait until the recruit passes the black line
before pulling hard on the rope to slow the recruit
and prevent them from hurtling to the ground.
It's about the full focus of the brakeman.
If they brake too late, it's game over.
JAY: Go.
OLLIE: Number Four and Number Six with me.
First to take the leap of faith,
AFL commentator Abbey Holmes
and international rugby star, Mahalia Murphy.
Guess what you're doing.
Going to the top coming down.
Yep. Mm-hmm.
Guess what you're doing. Braking.
Her life is in...
My hands. OK.
You trust her? I do trust her.
Are you confident? Yes, I am.
OK.
As Mahalia contemplates the huge responsibility ahead of her,
Abbey is at the cliff top, face-to-face with her greatest fear.
Harnessing the emotion today. Yeah, good.
Well, you need to. Yep.
(SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC)
People know that I freeze when it comes to heights.
Yep.
But, you know, everybody's scared of something in this world
and yeah. (TEARFULLY)
But I just, I guess face my fears and get to the end.
Alright, your rope. Listen to the brief.
You hold it like this.
So the rope's like that in your palms, right?
The recruits gonna come down to hold the position,
you'll get told to take control so you'll pull this rope in.
As soon as the head touches the helmet,
you let all the slack go in the rope, they'll descend.
OK, you see the (BLEEP) black line?
Yes, Staff.
Not below or not before it.
For me, like trust is so important.
And I want to earn it.
'Cause I know that person's got faith in me
and if I haven't done it right, then I've let them down.
I'd be absolutely gutted.
Both feet, thank you. Yes, Staff.
Don't be sorry. Just (BLEEP) calm yourself down.
Staff, can I just ask a question?
After Number Six brakes, what do I do need to do?
Stay in your position. You don't need to do anything.
OK. You are potentially a casualty,
you're (BLEEP) probably, could potentially be (BLEEP) dead.
Do you understand? Yes, Staff.
Right, get a (BLEEP) grip of yourself.
You ready, Number Six? Yes, Staff.
ANT: The brakeman, they have your life in their hands.
You ready for the (BLEEP) responsibility
of Number Four's life? Yes, Staff.
You sure? Yes, Staff.
If the brakeman gets it wrong, you're dead.
(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
Right.
Control yourself down to that first lip.
You look a bit apprehensive.
So on the black line, pull it in.
Yeah. Gotcha, Staff.
Good to go.
You sure? Yes, Staff.
Right.
Hold brake!
(HEART BEATING)
Standby.
Standby! Arms out, arms out!
(ABBEY SCREAMS) Brake!
Brake, brake, brake! (BLEEP) brake!
JAY: Pull it down, Number Six. Go!
In a frightening test of trust,
150m above a desert canyon,
Number Four's fate is in the hands of her brakeman,
Number Six, Mahalia...
Standby.
Arms out!
(ABBEY SCREAMS)
ANT AND JAY YELL: Brake!
Brake! Brake!
(BLEEP) hell, Number Six! Arms out!
Go, go! Go, let go!
(BLEEP) hell, Number Six.
Alright, get up, Number Six.
Stand up.
Let go, let go.
Right, Number Four, grab the rope
and descend on your own (BLEEP) steam.
With no control of Abbey's freefall,
needing DS Jay to save her from hitting the ground,
brakeman Mahalia has failed.
What happened, Number Four?
I went down to the first ledge as instructed
and then when I was told to standby
I went to go like that but I fell back.
(SIGHS)
Why did she fall back, Number Six? Didn't have a tight grip.
No, you didn't have a (BLEEP) hold of the (BLEEP) rope, did ya?
(BLEEP) look at Number Four.
I'm good. Look!
I'm good. Sorry, Abs.
(BLEEP) she put her (BLEEP) trust in you.
(BLEEP) off to the DS.
Failure is my biggest disappointment.
I know I'm capable of anything but when things don't go my way
sometimes I can be a bit hard on myself.
I hate failing more than anything.
Number Six.
What's wrong?
Just disappointed in myself.
Listen, (BLEEP) listen, don't worry about that.
We all (BLEEP) up, look at me.
Number Six, we all (BLEEP) up, right?
I can understand why you're disappointed in yourself
'cause I was (BLEEP) shocked you (BLEEP) done that.
Alright?
Yes, Staff. Doesn't (BLEEP) matter.
Just (BLEEP) crack on and get on with things,
you know what I mean?
You're not used to failing, are you?
You're one of my strongest members on this (BLEEP) course.
Yes, Staff. OK?
Yes, Staff. (BLEEP) swallow it up.
Hold yourself (BLEEP) accountable which you have done
and you know where to (BLEEP) go from there, you understand?
Yes, Staff. Alright.
Dry your eyes, get over there, keep your chin up.
Yes, Staff. Away you go then.
JAY: Brakeman needs to be focused.
They need to be unrattled by distraction.
Their partner needs to trust.
Gradually pull down there.
So you pull down, as in like gradually but (BLEEP) pull it hard.
Yep. OK?
They need to trust that they can do this job under pressure.
There is no room for distraction.
There is no room for error.
Standby.
(TENSE PAUSE)
Go!
Trust is vital for any special forces soldier.
Trust is what binds you as a unit and as a team.
How'd that feel, Number Seven? Good.
Had a plan, went exactly as planned.
Yeah? It was actually pretty (BLEEP) good.
Alright, (BLEEP) around to the DS.
Good job, brother.
I owe you my life man.
(LAUGHTER)
ANT: Standby.
Go!
For me, trust has kept me alive.
Trust has kept me sane.
Trust has allowed me to do what I've need to do
in the moments that I've needed to do them.
Standby.
Go!
Brake! Brake, brake!
(BLEEP) pull him. (BLEEP) brake.
Brake!
(BLEEP) move out the way 13.
(BLEEP) hell.
13, what the (BLEEP) was that?
When did say brake?
When he got to the line. The black line.
Yeah. When did you brake?
When he...
(BLEEP) way below the (BLEEP) black line.
(BLEEP) off to the DS, both of you.
The final pair to face the cliff is OG bachelor Tim Robards
and world champion boxer, Anthony Mundine.
I always think about how I overcome obstacles
and how I overcome certain things
to reach the heights that I've reached.
Alright, listening to the brief. Yeah.
Soon as he puts his hands on his head
you let the slack go in the rope, he'll fall and descend.
You see that obvious black line on the rock?
Yeah. OK?
That's your brake line.
Not above, not below.
And how do you brake, just catch it? Pull it.
Over to you.
Trusting in, in your fellow man or fellow human being
basically, come through, come through for you.
It's the most important, is trust.
Nothing else matters.
Watch your leg, five.
Who's your brakeman?
Number Five, Staff.
Do you trust him, Number 14?
I have to trust him. There are no other options, Staff.
Let's find out.
I've always been the kind of person
that gives trust instead of making you earn it.
I give it.
You know what to do, take your time. Get down to the lip.
But at the same time, I have a lot of fears.
I'm scared of heights.
You don't want to die.
Good, wait.
ANT: Hold brake!
ANTHONY: Yeah, got it.
Standby!
Yep.
Go!
Right, how was that?
Had to put my life in his hands and...
(BLEEP) scared of heights, aren't you 14?
Yeah, I don't like heights.
From you five, what I saw,
I mean you listened to the words of command,
you stopped at the right point.
I can't say much more.
BOTH: Thanks, Staff.
I expect a lot from myself.
And I know I can do anything.
Like Batman and Robin. Superman.
(CHUCKLES)
I'm Mundine Man. (LAUGHS)
JAY: Fast as you can! Let's move!
An agonising beasting...
ANT: We are (BLEEP) running all the way back in.
..will force one recruit to withdraw.
Number Five, get a (BLEEP) move on, move!
Hold the press-up position!
Then...
You're hard on yourself. (TEARFULLY) Mm-hm.
..Mahalia's tragedy revealed.
I remember my mum sitting there making me hug my sister
because we weren't sure if she was actually gonna be OK.
(SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC)
When I say go, you'll get your bergens on
and you'll sprint up that hill at the speed of 1,000 cheetahs,
let's go!
They are running back to camp.
Get that into your (BLEEP) heads.
JAY: Keep it (BLEEP) going. Come on!
The recruits have completed their harrowing test of trust
but halfway through the course, the DS want to up the intensity.
Do not walk.
STAFF: Go! Do not walk.
STAZ: Hurry up! JAY: Come on!
Move! Fast as you can!
Let's move!
To see who will crack and leave the course.
ANT: All the way back to camp.
Never out of the fight.
With a sickening beasting, 20kg bergen
and 10km run back to base.
JAY: Hurry up! Go!
ANT: Beastings can break you and I've seen it break many.
We're there to push you. Move it!
To see if you can deal with the horrors of war.
If you don't get to that level, to that standard,
then we're gonna (BLEEP) you off.
Get in the press-up position.
Hold it.
The pack, Number Two. Hurry up!
STAFF: Hurry up!
ANT: Not out of the fight, we're never out of the fight.
Pays to be a winner. Hurry up!
(BLEEP) push it! See that vehicle?
That's where we're going, through that path.
Get down, get down!
That vehicle up there, get down in press-up position!
Get down, get in the (BLEEP) press up position!
Right 20 press-ups, let's go! STAFF: Go!
Proper press-up!
ANT: Hold the press-up position!
STAFF: And you, Number Two, get that (BLEEP) arse down.
Hold the press-up position! JAY: It's not a press-up, is it?
Come on!
Get off your knees, Number Five!
If not, you know what to do!
(ZIMA CRIES OUT)
Right, get up, let's go.
JAY: Let's go!
(BLEEP) move.
Get it (BLEEP) down!
And you, 14!
I'm super competitive, like if you say I can't do something,
I'll prove that I can do it.
That's what separates the man from the rest.
JAY: Put the effort in.
(BLEEP) dig deep.
Two, keep moving those (BLEEP) legs.
Let's go, let's go, let's go!
On one of my first missions in Afghanistan,
just going over the sand dunes,
my heart felt like it wanted to explode.
ZIMA: Two, do not (BLEEP) walk.
Keep running.
My mouth went dry, dehydration.
I was sweating.
It felt like my skin wanted to melt off of my body.
RECRUIT: (TEARFULLY) I know!
I can just remember looking around, thinking to myself,
if I do not keep moving
and I focus on what's happening to my body right now,
I won't get out of here alive.
JAY: (BLEEP) move! Move!
With 5km still to go, the recruits are already exhausted.
Give us your number if you want to get out of here
and you can get in the (BLEEP) wagon and go home.
And Number Five lags well behind the others.
Number Five, get a (BLEEP) move on!
Move!
When my body's in pain,
just try to mentally push through, man.
You got to push through it.
I mean, I'm The Man.
I can do anything.
STAFF: Fast as you can. Get in there.
JAY: (BLEEP) head and eyes down. ANT: Hurry up.
Hurry up.
Get off your (BLEEP) knees.
Get in there!
Don't want to be here, you know what you can do.
We are (BLEEP) running all the way back in.
Get off your (BLEEP) knees.
OLLIE: Alright, this is your chance to redeem yourselves.
(GROANS)
20 press-ups, go.
Get off your (BLEEP) knees, Number Five.
(ANTHONY GRUNTS IN PAIN)
Get your (BLEEP) head and eyes down.
STAFF: Let's (BLEEP) go. Come on.
Stop whimpering six.
(ANTHONY GRUNTS)
ANT: Get off your (BLEEP) knees! I'm done, bruh.
What? I'm done.
Give us your number then.
(RECRUITS GRUNTING AND PANTING)
You sure you want to do this, Number Five?
Yeah, bruh. You sure?
Yeah, yes. Alright, dress back there.
Wait up for the vehicle.
Right, follow me, let's go. Let's go!
(RECRUITS GRUNTING AND PANTING)
I couldn't keep going.
You couldn't?
Listen, at the end of the day, it's your choice, your choice.
Yes, Staff.
And just be proud of how far you've come anyway.
Yeah, nah, I'm, I'm...
As long as, you know what, as long as you're happy
with what you've done. Yeah, nah, I'm happy, bruh.
That's it. Good.
Happy, Staff, yeah.
In my life, I've been pushed to my limits hard.
To when I can't go no more.
That's a part of life so you have to accept that.
Doesn't mean I've stopped believing in myself.
Special forces selection takes a unique mindset.
Putting them through that physical or psychological pressure
and those demands is enough to break any man.
(MIDDLE EASTERN MUSIC)
Lasting five punishing days,
Anthony 'The Man' Mundine has handed in his number.
Walking away, I feel great
and I feel that I've achieved something that,
you know, pushed me out of my comfort zone.
(FLASHBACK) Now.
(EXPLOSION) Good.
And that doing a task, even though I didn't pass a lot of them,
I actually learned there's certain things for certain people
so I'm like one of the best athletes ever, know what I mean?
I didn't say I was the best SAS fella.
I just come and have enjoyed the experience.
I've made it halfway through and I'm grateful for that.
(SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC)
STAFF: Go, go!
After a sickening 10km run,
the eight remaining recruits struggle into base camp.
(ZIMA CRIES) It's (BLEEP) hard.
As long you don't stop.
If you (BLEEP) crawl like a (BLEEP) worm,
and you're making the effort of moving,
that's all that matters, alright?
It's (BLEEP) tough and look where you are now,
'cause you pushed through.
(BLEEP) hard but we got through it. We did, we did great.
I reckon we should wash these tea towels too.
I'll do it now while I thinking about it.
'Cause I've thought about it before and that was several days ago.
(LAUGHS)
Aww, I'm gonna miss him and just like his...
..just the laughs. PETER: His banter.
ABBEY: Laughs. Yeah.
Just like everything was a laugh. Yeah.
He would just laugh at anything. Yeah.
Bless him. He done well.
Number Six!
After a dangerous fail in the task...
Put your hands against the concrete post, Number Six.
..international rugby player Mahalia Murphy
is called in for questioning.
Down.
Sit down.
(DOOR CLOSES)
How are you feeling?
A little bit nervous.
(BLEEP) shit day today you've had.
Yes, Staff.
You so used to be under pressure that when it does go wrong,
you can absolutely, it's the end of the world.
You feel like you're letting people down.
(TEARFULLY) I understand it's part of learning and growing.
Even with football...
Talk to me about your football, you know.
How did you get into that?
I moved away from home straight out of high school.
I used to come back on Friday night,
spend the weekend then watch my sister play on the Saturday.
Couple of girls didn't turn up to the game
and the coach asked me if I could play
and I think yeah, it was just that moment
that I realised I really love the sport.
I really want to play.
I've been playing for just over ten years
and I've been able to represent Australia in three different codes,
from Rugby League to then going to Rugby sevens
and Rugby 15s.
I've been to two World Cups
I've been able to play on home soil in front of my family
which is probably the best thing for me.
Talk to me about your childhood, talk to me about your upbringing.
(TEARFULLY) When I was four years old
my mum had a car accident and...
she's still with us, thank gratefully
but she did die three times on the table,
and she spent a year and a half in hospital
and my dad was a night truck driver
and it was really hard not having him at home
throughout the day and Mum being in hospital away.
(SNIFFS) And my oldest sister had moved away to Walgett.
Take a breath, take a breath.
So your older sister left.
Yes and my younger sister below her had to take responsibility
but she was going through that phase
where she, 'cause she didn't have like a figure around her
to lead her, she kind of just took the wrong path
got involved with drugs.
And you witnessed that?
(TEARFULLY)
I remember my mum sitting there making me hug my sister
'cause we weren't sure if she was actually going to be OK.
Multiple times when my sister was off her face.
How old were you?
At this time I probably would have been able eight.
(BLEEP). Eight years old.
But yeah, so my sister was on the wrong path.
And then my older sister passed.
I'm sorry to hear that. That's OK.
How did she pass? Heart attack.
And you're left by yourself, right? Yeah.
Losing my sister when I was 13
was a massive impact on my family again
experiencing grief at a young age I kind of went into a shell
and isolated myself from everyone.
It was painful.
(SOMBRE MUSIC)
The fact that I will never see or hear her voice again
and give her one more cuddle really hurts.
Yeah, if it wasn't for my mum I definitely wouldn't be where I am.
I just felt like I had to be that child to make her proud.
I sort of saw that emotional side today
when you said that you're disappointed in yourself.
It's almost you feel like you've disappointed your mum probably.
Fair, yeah.
But that's exactly how I thought of it.
I was like when my mum watches this or my brother watches this.
But at the same time...
I know you're used to doing things by yourself
you know especially growing up, having heard your story now
it makes even more sense
but, you know, try and put your (BLEEP) faith in others
and your trust in others whilst you're on this course.
That's the only way you're gonna make it through the course.
You can't make it by yourself.
We all (BLEEP) make mistakes, we all mess up.
It's how we bounce back that's really important, OK?
So make you (BLEEP) bounce back with vengeance,
do you understand me, Number Six?
Yes, Staff.
Good. Guard!
Hands together.
She didn't have a good day.
Hopefully, she'll get back on, back on track
and keep smashing it
'cause that's exactly what she's doing.
She's smashing it.
Yeah, it'd be great to see her at the end.
Yeah.
Number Six. Staff.
We've all got (BLEEP) stinker of a day in us, yeah?
Yes, Staff. Don't (BLEEP) worry about it.
Park it, yeah?
Yes, Staff.
On the course, my family will be in the back of my mind
pushing me through.
So, I'll do everything I can.
'Cause I do want to make my mum proud
because family is the most important thing to me.
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