1 00:00:13,640 --> 00:00:14,800 Just walk. 2 00:00:14,840 --> 00:00:16,680 (COMPOSED MUSIC) 3 00:00:16,720 --> 00:00:18,800 NARRATOR: 18 celebrity recruits... 4 00:00:19,440 --> 00:00:23,640 ..volunteered to give up their privileged lives. 5 00:00:23,680 --> 00:00:24,920 Everybody strip. 6 00:00:26,920 --> 00:00:31,400 To take on the infamous SAS selection course. 7 00:00:31,440 --> 00:00:32,440 Go! 8 00:00:33,080 --> 00:00:35,040 This is not a game! 9 00:00:35,080 --> 00:00:39,840 They took on the most dangerous and life-threatening missions 10 00:00:39,880 --> 00:00:42,560 in order to push themselves physically... 11 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:44,080 Suck it up number two. 12 00:00:44,120 --> 00:00:45,400 ..and mentally. 13 00:00:45,440 --> 00:00:46,600 Aww, this hurts! 14 00:00:46,640 --> 00:00:48,160 (INAUDIBLE). 15 00:00:48,200 --> 00:00:49,720 Move! Ahhh! 16 00:00:49,760 --> 00:00:52,720 They were forced to confront their inner demons. 17 00:00:53,480 --> 00:00:55,920 Just take your (BLEEP) chin. I told you. 18 00:00:55,960 --> 00:00:59,120 And come face to face with their true selves. 19 00:00:59,160 --> 00:01:01,560 I love you with all my heart and soul. 20 00:01:02,840 --> 00:01:04,080 (MUMBLES). 21 00:01:04,120 --> 00:01:06,120 And in the end... Number 16. 22 00:01:06,160 --> 00:01:07,640 ..there was only one. 23 00:01:07,680 --> 00:01:09,760 You have successfully passed this course. 24 00:01:09,800 --> 00:01:11,440 Yes, staff. Well done. 25 00:01:13,480 --> 00:01:16,160 Now all celebrity recruits... 26 00:01:16,200 --> 00:01:17,200 Yay, we're home! 27 00:01:17,240 --> 00:01:20,560 ..are returning to base camp for the final time. 28 00:01:20,600 --> 00:01:22,000 I'm actually glad to be here. 29 00:01:22,040 --> 00:01:23,520 Yeah, yeah. We're not running, 30 00:01:23,560 --> 00:01:25,440 we're not like having Bergens on, no one is yelling at us. 31 00:01:26,160 --> 00:01:27,320 This is beautiful. 32 00:01:28,560 --> 00:01:33,320 As they debrief and share their life changing experiences... 33 00:01:34,560 --> 00:01:36,360 ..on SAS Selection. 34 00:01:41,960 --> 00:01:44,320 Alright guys, welcome to the debrief. 35 00:01:45,160 --> 00:01:48,280 On this course, you know how important a debrief is. 36 00:01:48,320 --> 00:01:52,600 After every task we debrief to improve in the future. 37 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:56,320 So, what you've learned about yourselves, about each other. 38 00:01:56,360 --> 00:02:00,120 What you've taken home with you, what you're going to do different. 39 00:02:00,160 --> 00:02:03,360 And this is an open and honest conversation. 40 00:02:04,479 --> 00:02:08,720 So, at the end of selection, there were four people. 41 00:02:08,760 --> 00:02:10,320 Number four, Jana, 42 00:02:10,360 --> 00:02:12,480 number 11, Mark, 43 00:02:12,520 --> 00:02:15,000 number 16, Sam, 44 00:02:15,040 --> 00:02:16,960 and then John, number 14. 45 00:02:17,600 --> 00:02:22,040 Now these guys managed to get all the way to the last day. 46 00:02:23,320 --> 00:02:26,280 So Jana over to you, how did you find the course? 47 00:02:26,320 --> 00:02:27,800 It was extraordinary. Yeah. 48 00:02:27,840 --> 00:02:29,080 You know I learned a lot, 49 00:02:29,120 --> 00:02:30,880 I, I didn't have the last the last 1% as you know, 50 00:02:30,920 --> 00:02:32,560 we talked about that on the final day, 51 00:02:32,600 --> 00:02:34,480 particularly as it got tougher and tougher and tougher 52 00:02:34,520 --> 00:02:36,480 towards the end, physically and mentally, 53 00:02:36,520 --> 00:02:39,520 but I can hands down say it's one of the greatest experiences of my life. 54 00:02:39,560 --> 00:02:40,560 Oh, really? Yeah. 55 00:02:40,600 --> 00:02:41,600 Mark. 56 00:02:41,640 --> 00:02:44,320 I came in here knowing that it's probably going to be 57 00:02:44,360 --> 00:02:45,920 the hardest thing I've ever done 58 00:02:45,960 --> 00:02:48,840 and without a doubt it was the hardest thing I've ever done, 59 00:02:48,880 --> 00:02:51,160 but I actually learned more about myself 60 00:02:51,200 --> 00:02:52,480 which I didn't think I would. 61 00:02:52,520 --> 00:02:57,160 I gained confidence and I then mentally got stronger as well 62 00:02:57,200 --> 00:02:58,840 and peeling back those... 63 00:02:58,880 --> 00:03:01,680 Like, so many things that I peeled back every single day. 64 00:03:01,720 --> 00:03:03,440 There's no more onion left brother. 65 00:03:05,120 --> 00:03:08,120 Hey, listen I'm going to talk as long as I want! Alright? 66 00:03:09,320 --> 00:03:12,960 (BLEEP) hell, it's took to this day to find the real you. 67 00:03:13,000 --> 00:03:14,000 (LAUGHTER) 68 00:03:14,040 --> 00:03:15,720 Yeah, anyways it was amazing, 69 00:03:15,760 --> 00:03:18,120 thank you very much for the opportunity, yes. 70 00:03:19,360 --> 00:03:20,720 Come on then John, how about you? 71 00:03:20,760 --> 00:03:22,880 I'll share the similar sentiments, I'm not going to go on. 72 00:03:22,920 --> 00:03:26,600 Yeah, made some really good friends and learned a lot about myself. 73 00:03:26,640 --> 00:03:28,520 You think you stop learning when you get to a certain age 74 00:03:28,560 --> 00:03:30,040 but yeah, a whole new uh, 75 00:03:30,080 --> 00:03:32,240 like you said those (BLEEP) layers, those onions. 76 00:03:32,280 --> 00:03:33,960 Oh my days. 77 00:03:34,000 --> 00:03:35,880 Oh, that's OK for you to say that, but if I (BLEEP) say that... 78 00:03:35,920 --> 00:03:36,920 (LAUGHTER) ..jeez. 79 00:03:36,960 --> 00:03:38,360 I'm saying you had no onion left, brother. 80 00:03:38,400 --> 00:03:40,240 You know what I mean, you pulled your onions apart. 81 00:03:40,280 --> 00:03:41,400 (LAUGHTER) 82 00:03:41,440 --> 00:03:43,520 No it was brilliant and I appreciate the opportunity. 83 00:03:43,560 --> 00:03:44,760 How about you Sam? 84 00:03:44,800 --> 00:03:48,720 You obviously uh passed the course, the only one to pass the course. 85 00:03:48,760 --> 00:03:50,000 Yeah. Yee-hooo! 86 00:03:51,240 --> 00:03:52,240 Thank you. 87 00:03:52,280 --> 00:03:53,520 No it was just a wonderful experience. 88 00:03:53,560 --> 00:03:56,760 I actually really enjoyed the course as, as silly as that sounds 89 00:03:56,800 --> 00:04:01,000 um, the process has been magnificent and I'll take so many things from it 90 00:04:01,040 --> 00:04:03,720 and I learned some great lessons you guys have... 91 00:04:03,760 --> 00:04:05,480 Speak a lot of wisdom each day. 92 00:04:05,520 --> 00:04:07,520 I always like the idea of being a sponge, 93 00:04:07,560 --> 00:04:10,640 sit and soak up what I like and what I don't like I'll leave behind. 94 00:04:10,680 --> 00:04:13,920 But I, I picked up more than I left behind on this course, 95 00:04:13,959 --> 00:04:16,519 it's been uh, it's been a great experience so thank you very much. 96 00:04:16,560 --> 00:04:17,600 Yeah, Sam! 97 00:04:17,640 --> 00:04:18,640 Good man! 98 00:04:19,600 --> 00:04:20,720 He actually said in the car when we left, 99 00:04:20,760 --> 00:04:22,080 he actually said to me, he was like, 100 00:04:22,120 --> 00:04:24,480 "Oh, I actually thought it was going to be a little harder than that." 101 00:04:24,520 --> 00:04:25,720 (LAUGHS) 102 00:04:28,560 --> 00:04:30,080 Hey, John leave the jokes to us yeah? 103 00:04:34,400 --> 00:04:37,080 Let's move on to day one. 104 00:04:37,120 --> 00:04:39,440 First task. The gassing. 105 00:04:39,480 --> 00:04:40,480 Oh! 106 00:04:40,520 --> 00:04:41,520 Tell us about the gassing. 107 00:04:41,560 --> 00:04:42,560 Um. (BLEEP) 108 00:04:44,320 --> 00:04:45,680 Did I pass out? 109 00:04:45,720 --> 00:04:47,120 I still haven't worked out if I passed out. 110 00:04:47,160 --> 00:04:48,440 Thought you were trying to lick my boots, 111 00:04:48,480 --> 00:04:49,720 I don't know what you were doing. 112 00:04:53,280 --> 00:04:55,360 Look at me, hey, it's a bit rude not to look at someone. 113 00:04:55,400 --> 00:04:56,400 (GAGGING) 114 00:04:56,440 --> 00:04:57,440 What's, what's your name? 115 00:04:57,480 --> 00:04:59,200 (CHOKING) Emma! 116 00:04:59,920 --> 00:05:01,560 Look at me, what's your name? 117 00:05:01,600 --> 00:05:03,240 Alicia! Alicia. 118 00:05:05,040 --> 00:05:06,040 Dan Ewing. 119 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:09,880 What? I can't breathe, I can't breathe! 120 00:05:09,920 --> 00:05:14,320 Help me, help me, please help me. Calm down, calm down, calm down. 121 00:05:14,360 --> 00:05:16,400 To me, to me, do not touch your face. 122 00:05:16,440 --> 00:05:19,400 Was you expecting that? ALL: No. No way! 123 00:05:19,440 --> 00:05:22,480 Mark, you came out of that gas chamber 124 00:05:22,520 --> 00:05:23,920 like you've been brought up on the stuff. 125 00:05:26,480 --> 00:05:27,880 (INAUDIBLE). 126 00:05:28,760 --> 00:05:31,440 Put it on your left arm. OK, what's your name? 127 00:05:31,480 --> 00:05:33,320 Mark. Mark what? 128 00:05:33,360 --> 00:05:35,160 Philippoussis. Philippoussis. 129 00:05:35,200 --> 00:05:37,720 And what do you do Mark? I'm a professional tennis player. 130 00:05:37,760 --> 00:05:40,640 Professional tennis player, OK, are you still playing tennis? 131 00:05:40,680 --> 00:05:41,960 Retired. 132 00:05:42,000 --> 00:05:43,640 I actually said that to a couple of the guys, 133 00:05:43,680 --> 00:05:46,200 I'd rather do the gas a couple more times than do this. 134 00:05:47,400 --> 00:05:48,840 It was hard, don't get me wrong 135 00:05:48,880 --> 00:05:51,720 but some of the, I preferred it than some of the tasks. 136 00:05:52,880 --> 00:05:54,000 It's horrendous. 137 00:05:54,040 --> 00:05:56,320 We do a lot of it and all the stuff we do, 138 00:05:56,360 --> 00:05:58,520 all operations, pre-deployment of operations 139 00:05:58,560 --> 00:06:00,640 is in a gas type environment... (SAM COUGHS) 140 00:06:00,680 --> 00:06:03,360 ..cause that's the worst thing we can go up against 141 00:06:03,400 --> 00:06:06,400 and if you can fight and work in that, you can do alright. 142 00:06:06,440 --> 00:06:08,600 So, that as a start was brutal. 143 00:06:08,640 --> 00:06:10,560 To me, to me. 144 00:06:11,200 --> 00:06:12,400 You didn't like it Manu, did you? 145 00:06:12,440 --> 00:06:15,000 Well for me that was the beginning of the end. 146 00:06:16,680 --> 00:06:19,040 I need to talk about shit right now. 147 00:06:20,160 --> 00:06:23,680 I am forever pissed off because I left early 148 00:06:23,720 --> 00:06:25,120 and I went home struggling. 149 00:06:26,080 --> 00:06:28,160 I know I've made the right decision on the day. 150 00:06:28,200 --> 00:06:29,200 Yeah. 151 00:06:29,240 --> 00:06:31,160 But I've been pissed off since that I didn't stay longer. 152 00:06:32,280 --> 00:06:34,320 When I saw that car dangling from the crane, 153 00:06:34,360 --> 00:06:35,800 I went, "I'm out." 154 00:06:35,840 --> 00:06:37,160 (COMPOSED MUSIC) 155 00:06:46,000 --> 00:06:47,520 You haven't even tried it number six, have you? 156 00:06:47,560 --> 00:06:49,080 I know. You know? 157 00:06:49,120 --> 00:06:51,120 Yep, I'm giving you my number, Staff. 158 00:06:51,160 --> 00:06:52,960 You sure? Yep. 159 00:06:54,440 --> 00:06:58,760 As soon as I said I'm going I wanted to come back straight away, 160 00:06:58,800 --> 00:07:00,240 I had more in to me. 161 00:07:00,880 --> 00:07:05,080 But I didn't give myself the, the chance to give myself more 162 00:07:05,120 --> 00:07:08,200 and I'm, I, I'm forever pissed off. 163 00:07:08,240 --> 00:07:10,040 I've got to be completely honest with you. 164 00:07:10,080 --> 00:07:12,520 If you gave me another chance I'd come back to you guys. 165 00:07:12,560 --> 00:07:14,640 I trained hard physically. 166 00:07:14,680 --> 00:07:17,160 I've lost 15 kilos in two years 167 00:07:17,200 --> 00:07:20,400 and I was ready physically to do anything 168 00:07:20,960 --> 00:07:23,000 and I lost that completely. 169 00:07:23,040 --> 00:07:24,360 It was the wrong decision. 170 00:07:24,400 --> 00:07:25,400 It was the wrong decision. 171 00:07:25,440 --> 00:07:26,480 You know what I want to do? 172 00:07:26,520 --> 00:07:29,240 Is I, I think the four of you running a (BLEEP) restaurant for me 173 00:07:29,280 --> 00:07:30,840 when you've never run one before. 174 00:07:30,880 --> 00:07:32,280 Yeah. 175 00:07:33,720 --> 00:07:37,000 Ultimately, in the moment, you can have a malfunction. 176 00:07:37,040 --> 00:07:38,040 Yeah! 177 00:07:38,080 --> 00:07:41,480 Well always grab that and say, think about what you're doing. 178 00:07:41,520 --> 00:07:42,840 Stop, pause. 179 00:07:42,880 --> 00:07:44,320 And we give everyone that chance. 180 00:07:44,960 --> 00:07:46,920 Number 12 get here. Nah, I'm too scared. 181 00:07:47,640 --> 00:07:49,000 So what. I am. 182 00:07:49,040 --> 00:07:50,760 Listen, listen this is what you're going to do, 183 00:07:50,800 --> 00:07:52,360 you're going to get in that vehicle first. 184 00:07:52,400 --> 00:07:54,600 You're going to sit in there, feel it... 185 00:07:55,360 --> 00:07:56,680 ..and you might change your mind. 186 00:07:56,720 --> 00:07:57,960 I'm taking off for the team, staff. 187 00:07:58,000 --> 00:08:00,680 I'm a liability to the team and I know that, staff. 188 00:08:00,720 --> 00:08:02,160 Think about what you're doing. 189 00:08:03,880 --> 00:08:05,280 Number 15. 190 00:08:05,320 --> 00:08:06,320 No it's done. 191 00:08:06,360 --> 00:08:08,480 Everyone has a chance on this course. 192 00:08:08,520 --> 00:08:11,080 I, I know I'm empty. That's it. 193 00:08:11,120 --> 00:08:12,800 You're done? Yep. 194 00:08:12,840 --> 00:08:13,840 (CRYING) 195 00:08:13,880 --> 00:08:15,080 I've given my all, that's it. 196 00:08:17,960 --> 00:08:19,440 Thank you. 197 00:08:20,080 --> 00:08:24,840 We don't fault you on that because it's your time to decide. 198 00:08:27,679 --> 00:08:32,880 Some of you exited the course early, Brynne, how did you find it? 199 00:08:32,919 --> 00:08:36,000 I think I came in thinking that I would do a lot better than I did. 200 00:08:36,039 --> 00:08:37,600 Get off your (BLEEP) knees! 201 00:08:37,640 --> 00:08:40,520 The more you're on your knees, the more I'll keep you here. 202 00:08:40,560 --> 00:08:41,960 I can't do it. 203 00:08:42,000 --> 00:08:44,520 If you can't do it, get up and give me your (BLEEP) armband. 204 00:08:44,560 --> 00:08:45,560 I'm done, I'm done, I'm done. 205 00:08:46,760 --> 00:08:48,640 The rest of you, stay in the press up position. 206 00:08:48,680 --> 00:08:52,360 I knew that physically I was not strong enough to do the stuff. 207 00:08:52,400 --> 00:08:54,000 Mentally I'm quite strong. 208 00:08:54,040 --> 00:08:56,600 And I mean, somebody can antagonise me and talk shit to me 209 00:08:56,640 --> 00:08:58,440 and everything and that's not going to get to me. 210 00:08:58,480 --> 00:09:03,280 But, physically I need to definitely step up my fitness game by so much 211 00:09:03,320 --> 00:09:05,120 and maybe become a little more coordinated 212 00:09:05,160 --> 00:09:07,760 'cause I stacked it twice just, I don't even know how. 213 00:09:07,800 --> 00:09:09,360 Get up, get up! 214 00:09:09,400 --> 00:09:10,520 OK. (PANTING) 215 00:09:10,560 --> 00:09:13,320 Get up! Get the (BLEEP) up, stand up! 216 00:09:13,360 --> 00:09:14,360 (LAUGHS) 217 00:09:14,400 --> 00:09:15,600 So what did you learn on your short time 218 00:09:15,640 --> 00:09:17,280 'cause obviously you were the first one to go. 219 00:09:17,320 --> 00:09:18,720 Did you take anything from the course? 220 00:09:18,760 --> 00:09:20,520 It's really hard. 221 00:09:20,560 --> 00:09:21,560 (LAUGHS) 222 00:09:21,600 --> 00:09:23,840 Like, I knew it would be hard but... 223 00:09:25,800 --> 00:09:27,480 Alright listen, you walk through these gates, 224 00:09:27,520 --> 00:09:28,840 that's the main thing, you know. 225 00:09:29,640 --> 00:09:31,760 People can say what they want, think what they want 226 00:09:31,800 --> 00:09:35,960 but to expose yourselves that takes guts and courage 227 00:09:36,000 --> 00:09:39,200 so listen, well done for that. Thank you. 228 00:09:39,240 --> 00:09:40,720 Erin. Yes. 229 00:09:40,760 --> 00:09:43,880 You exited the course early. Yeah, I was next. 230 00:09:43,920 --> 00:09:48,600 So, we were doing our beasting and I couldn't pick up Dan, you're heavy. 231 00:09:48,640 --> 00:09:50,160 Sorry, mate, so sorry, mate. Dan's a fat bastard. 232 00:09:50,200 --> 00:09:51,200 Dan's fault. 233 00:09:51,240 --> 00:09:52,400 I can't! 234 00:09:52,440 --> 00:09:53,440 Put a bit of effort in! 235 00:09:53,480 --> 00:09:54,480 I'm trying, Staff. 236 00:09:54,520 --> 00:09:56,320 If you can't do it, then you're not going to last tomorrow. 237 00:09:56,360 --> 00:09:57,880 We will keep going 238 00:09:58,480 --> 00:10:02,400 until number ten gets number (BLEEP) nine around this parade square. 239 00:10:02,440 --> 00:10:04,240 Go up, go, good job, Ezy. 240 00:10:04,280 --> 00:10:06,240 Oh, god! I got ya. 241 00:10:06,280 --> 00:10:07,920 I'm sorry. 242 00:10:08,480 --> 00:10:10,800 Ahhhh! Shut up 14. 243 00:10:11,360 --> 00:10:13,520 Listening to everyone getting beasted 244 00:10:13,560 --> 00:10:17,560 because of my lack of ability, um, I couldn't do it. 245 00:10:17,600 --> 00:10:18,600 I can't do it to them. 246 00:10:18,640 --> 00:10:20,960 You can't do that to them, can you? I can't. 247 00:10:21,000 --> 00:10:24,640 Um, yeah, I was, oh, here we go, I knew I would be the first to cry! 248 00:10:25,440 --> 00:10:30,000 Yeah, I was disappointed in the effort that I put in 249 00:10:30,040 --> 00:10:34,240 and um, at the end of the day though this is a selection course 250 00:10:34,280 --> 00:10:37,920 and I'm in amongst some of the most incredible athletes in the world. 251 00:10:37,960 --> 00:10:39,160 You are. 252 00:10:39,200 --> 00:10:41,760 And I am someone who is really hard on themselves 253 00:10:41,800 --> 00:10:43,480 and a bit of an overachiever 254 00:10:43,520 --> 00:10:46,480 and yeah, like I've, I've never done anything physically before. 255 00:10:46,520 --> 00:10:48,560 Put me in a pair of heels or some sequins 256 00:10:48,600 --> 00:10:51,160 and I'm much more comfortable than, than army boots 257 00:10:51,200 --> 00:10:54,960 and um, it was really like a, a reality check I suppose 258 00:10:55,000 --> 00:10:58,680 just about how incredibly tough it is what you do 259 00:10:58,720 --> 00:11:02,280 and to see how well everyone else did was really amazing so. 260 00:11:03,480 --> 00:11:07,560 You should come into this course physically fit you know? 261 00:11:08,280 --> 00:11:09,560 On top of your game really. 262 00:11:09,600 --> 00:11:11,880 Anyone that's come physically unprepared, 263 00:11:11,920 --> 00:11:15,520 we'll thrash you until you drop and then (BLEEP) you off. 264 00:11:16,600 --> 00:11:21,440 'Cause ultimately you know trying to constantly bring up the back end 265 00:11:21,480 --> 00:11:22,960 and those that are dragging behind. 266 00:11:23,000 --> 00:11:24,800 It's not fair on the front runners and the core group. 267 00:11:26,320 --> 00:11:28,440 What that relates to is the battlefield. 268 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:30,960 You know if it's too much here 269 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:34,040 and you have that VW mind-set on the battlefield. 270 00:11:34,080 --> 00:11:36,040 You're not going to make it off, it's as simple as that. 271 00:11:38,720 --> 00:11:41,840 I'm one of those assholes who will judge a book by its cover. 272 00:11:41,880 --> 00:11:44,800 Like couldn't deal with Koby. 273 00:11:44,840 --> 00:11:46,880 Bad blood between recruits... 274 00:11:47,480 --> 00:11:49,040 We had our disagreements. 275 00:11:49,080 --> 00:11:52,200 ..and Koby gives the DS a piece of his mind. 276 00:11:52,240 --> 00:11:53,800 I didn't really judge people, 277 00:11:53,840 --> 00:11:55,680 who like, my peers who are around me yeah. 278 00:11:55,720 --> 00:11:57,440 But I judge you guys, yeah. 279 00:11:57,480 --> 00:11:58,800 I thought you were kind of pricks. 280 00:12:06,960 --> 00:12:09,920 Base camp for me is like going camping, I suppose. 281 00:12:13,880 --> 00:12:15,560 There's like that hose thing for a shower. 282 00:12:15,600 --> 00:12:16,600 Turn around. 283 00:12:17,560 --> 00:12:18,560 There's no hot water. 284 00:12:18,600 --> 00:12:20,000 Those are your toilets. 285 00:12:20,680 --> 00:12:22,880 That's where you go for piss and shit. 286 00:12:22,920 --> 00:12:24,680 Oh, the toilets were disgusting. 287 00:12:29,200 --> 00:12:30,640 The hole in the side? 288 00:12:30,680 --> 00:12:32,200 Yeah, a bit confronting. 289 00:12:32,240 --> 00:12:34,280 This is ridiculous huh? 290 00:12:34,320 --> 00:12:36,320 I had a poo with the poo. 291 00:12:37,120 --> 00:12:38,480 Just don't want eye contact. 292 00:12:39,880 --> 00:12:41,560 We both had a number two together 293 00:12:41,600 --> 00:12:44,280 and I will cherish that for the rest of my life. 294 00:12:47,080 --> 00:12:49,960 Alright guys, this is your debrief 295 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:51,880 about the course that you've just done. 296 00:12:51,920 --> 00:12:54,760 This is about what you guys learned. 297 00:12:54,800 --> 00:12:56,440 First impressions of each other. 298 00:12:57,560 --> 00:13:00,720 Be honest with each other, when you looked around, 299 00:13:00,760 --> 00:13:04,040 did you think (BLEEP) hell, what's that nob doing on the course? 300 00:13:04,080 --> 00:13:05,280 I thought it was the Olympic village. 301 00:13:06,720 --> 00:13:08,760 Lots of, loads of athletes. 302 00:13:08,800 --> 00:13:10,040 When we did selection 303 00:13:10,080 --> 00:13:13,080 I remember standing on a square of 280 odd people 304 00:13:13,120 --> 00:13:15,000 and looked down the line and we all do it. 305 00:13:15,040 --> 00:13:16,040 I've got no chance here. 306 00:13:16,080 --> 00:13:17,520 Look at the size of him, look at the size of that. 307 00:13:17,560 --> 00:13:19,880 You talk yourself out of it and by day two, three, 308 00:13:19,920 --> 00:13:21,680 you look around and half of them are gone. 309 00:13:21,720 --> 00:13:23,600 You, you grow with confidence then. 310 00:13:23,640 --> 00:13:24,880 Did you feel any of that with your new group? 311 00:13:24,920 --> 00:13:26,400 What did you feel Emma, what did you feel? 312 00:13:26,440 --> 00:13:27,600 When I arrived with everybody? 313 00:13:27,640 --> 00:13:28,840 Yeah, you're first impressions. Um. 314 00:13:28,880 --> 00:13:30,760 Was it daunting to see the athletes and... 315 00:13:30,800 --> 00:13:31,960 Oh, absolutely. 316 00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:33,960 You know people, especially being a politician, right? 317 00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:35,280 These guys have all got six packs, yeah. 318 00:13:35,320 --> 00:13:36,320 I'm a pen pusher from Canberra. 319 00:13:36,360 --> 00:13:37,760 Like, I know how to write policy. 320 00:13:37,800 --> 00:13:40,240 I don't know how to run 5k's with a Bergen on my back. 321 00:13:40,280 --> 00:13:42,040 Obviously like I'm probably physically the weakest... 322 00:13:42,080 --> 00:13:43,080 'Cause you're... 323 00:13:43,120 --> 00:13:45,160 ..but I trained pretty hard and so I looked at everybody else 324 00:13:45,200 --> 00:13:47,400 and I went right, this is not challenge of me against them, 325 00:13:47,440 --> 00:13:49,000 it's a challenge of me against me. 326 00:13:49,040 --> 00:13:51,000 I'd said you know, I'm here to prove to Australia 327 00:13:51,040 --> 00:13:52,280 that I'm not what was written 328 00:13:52,320 --> 00:13:54,960 and I quickly learned when the mirror was help up, 329 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:56,840 I didn't have anything to prove to anyone out there. 330 00:13:56,880 --> 00:13:58,120 I had to prove it to me. 331 00:13:59,040 --> 00:14:01,640 It was about learning to believe in myself again. 332 00:14:01,680 --> 00:14:03,760 So, short and sweet ride 333 00:14:03,800 --> 00:14:05,440 and I'll come back for season three. 334 00:14:07,360 --> 00:14:08,600 Isabelle. 335 00:14:08,640 --> 00:14:10,040 You're sitting all quiet there on the end. 336 00:14:10,080 --> 00:14:11,240 What's your first impressions 337 00:14:11,280 --> 00:14:14,240 when you, when you saw the, saw everyone and. 338 00:14:14,280 --> 00:14:17,080 Um, yeah, just like there's so many athletes here 339 00:14:17,120 --> 00:14:18,240 and so many strong people 340 00:14:18,280 --> 00:14:20,720 but I felt like we all connected quite quickly, 341 00:14:20,760 --> 00:14:23,800 where other people had weaknesses and other people had strengths, 342 00:14:23,840 --> 00:14:26,240 we kind of started to get each other a little bit more. 343 00:14:26,280 --> 00:14:27,640 What about the athletes? 344 00:14:27,680 --> 00:14:30,600 Um, for me, I, I found it actually quite comforting 345 00:14:30,640 --> 00:14:32,760 'cause I, there was a couple of familiar faces. 346 00:14:32,800 --> 00:14:34,200 One of them being Jana, 347 00:14:34,240 --> 00:14:36,240 I actually remember when I was ten years old 348 00:14:36,280 --> 00:14:38,040 my mum was at the Olympics with Jana 349 00:14:38,080 --> 00:14:40,280 and they actually made the Olympic final together 350 00:14:40,320 --> 00:14:41,880 in the 4x4 100m relay. 351 00:14:41,920 --> 00:14:43,280 That must of made you feel awesome. 352 00:14:44,480 --> 00:14:47,440 You're not making Jana feel old and alright now Jess it's fine. 353 00:14:47,480 --> 00:14:50,560 Sorry, no, but I actually remember I uh, I was ten years old 354 00:14:50,600 --> 00:14:52,440 and Jana had this gold scooter. 355 00:14:52,480 --> 00:14:53,480 Yeah. 356 00:14:53,520 --> 00:14:55,280 And I was riding around this, the Olympic village 357 00:14:55,320 --> 00:14:57,760 on Jana's scooter as a ten year, ten-year-old kid 358 00:14:57,800 --> 00:15:00,680 and so for me having Jana here was really comforting. 359 00:15:00,720 --> 00:15:02,240 Um, it made me feel pretty strong 360 00:15:02,280 --> 00:15:06,000 and you know we shared some you know memories and conversations. 361 00:15:06,040 --> 00:15:08,160 Gained strength from others right? We did. We did. Yeah for sure. 362 00:15:08,200 --> 00:15:09,400 That's exactly what you should do. 363 00:15:09,440 --> 00:15:11,920 Number 13, first impressions. 364 00:15:11,960 --> 00:15:14,680 You know you're, you're the oldest on the course. Um. 365 00:15:14,720 --> 00:15:15,720 Thanks for reminding me. 366 00:15:15,760 --> 00:15:17,600 You've got a lot of wisdom, a lot of knowledge, Olympian. 367 00:15:17,640 --> 00:15:19,120 A lot of pressure on you really. 368 00:15:19,160 --> 00:15:21,920 Yeah, well when I saw everyone when we first met 369 00:15:21,960 --> 00:15:23,560 and I looked around 370 00:15:23,600 --> 00:15:26,240 and I'm like there is no one near my age, except Manu. 371 00:15:29,080 --> 00:15:30,680 Hey, hey, hey. Grandma, grandpa. 372 00:15:31,960 --> 00:15:33,600 And Billy. I'm (BLEEP) older than you. 373 00:15:33,640 --> 00:15:34,800 Billy and I share the same birth year. 374 00:15:34,840 --> 00:15:37,360 Um, but uh yeah, it was pretty intimidating, 375 00:15:37,400 --> 00:15:38,920 very intimidating. Yeah. 376 00:15:38,960 --> 00:15:41,720 I knew that was going to be one of the things that I came in with 377 00:15:41,760 --> 00:15:43,560 which was going to be a weakness. 378 00:15:43,600 --> 00:15:45,160 Come on grandma, move! 379 00:15:46,840 --> 00:15:49,360 (BLEEP) hell, stopwatch has ran out of numbers. 380 00:15:50,600 --> 00:15:51,960 Where's your Bergen number 13! 381 00:15:52,000 --> 00:15:53,680 Why are you wet! Why are they carrying your Bergen! 382 00:15:53,720 --> 00:15:54,720 Because I fell over. 383 00:15:54,760 --> 00:15:56,840 Because you're a burden that's why. 384 00:15:56,880 --> 00:15:59,080 Who's the weakest amongst the group? 385 00:15:59,120 --> 00:16:00,760 Number 13, staff. 386 00:16:01,640 --> 00:16:02,640 13, staff. 387 00:16:02,680 --> 00:16:03,960 13, staff. 388 00:16:04,000 --> 00:16:05,320 13, staff. 389 00:16:05,360 --> 00:16:06,480 13, Staff. 390 00:16:07,840 --> 00:16:11,200 It was a massive challenge but you know, I thought, 391 00:16:11,240 --> 00:16:13,360 if I get this opportunity and I say no to it. 392 00:16:13,400 --> 00:16:15,000 I'll always regret it 393 00:16:15,040 --> 00:16:18,440 and I just didn't want to regret it as injured and as broken, 394 00:16:18,480 --> 00:16:21,400 as old as I am or was, um... 395 00:16:21,440 --> 00:16:23,840 Can I just say though none of us, well, I don't know about you guys, 396 00:16:23,880 --> 00:16:26,840 but I never for a second thought, oh, Kez is the oldest 397 00:16:26,880 --> 00:16:28,200 and she's going to be no good. 398 00:16:28,240 --> 00:16:30,160 I was like she's an Olympian, she has a gold medal. 399 00:16:30,200 --> 00:16:32,200 I remember watching you when... Yeah, but that was 20 years ago. 400 00:16:32,240 --> 00:16:33,800 But, but it doesn't, but it doesn't matter. 401 00:16:33,840 --> 00:16:35,520 Look at you, you look fit, you look amazing. 402 00:16:35,560 --> 00:16:37,760 Oh, thanks. You were just as much a team player. 403 00:16:37,800 --> 00:16:40,160 You out lasted me. Yeah, well. 404 00:16:40,200 --> 00:16:41,320 She's a beast, look at her go. 405 00:16:42,880 --> 00:16:43,880 Go! 406 00:16:46,360 --> 00:16:48,480 Well done. Bloody hell, I want to be 55. 407 00:16:51,400 --> 00:16:54,320 I think I pushed my joints right to the end. 408 00:16:54,360 --> 00:16:55,680 Well, she's got you on crutches. 409 00:16:57,080 --> 00:16:59,840 And you know what when I picked up the crutches from the pharmacy, 410 00:16:59,880 --> 00:17:01,480 it says (BLEEP) number 13 on there! 411 00:17:01,520 --> 00:17:02,520 Oh, did it? It is. 412 00:17:02,560 --> 00:17:04,040 There you go. It's meant to be! 413 00:17:04,079 --> 00:17:06,160 But you know what, I'll heal 414 00:17:06,200 --> 00:17:08,240 and for me it was the most incredible experience. 415 00:17:08,280 --> 00:17:11,359 You came into it with an open heart. 416 00:17:11,400 --> 00:17:12,960 Amazing. 417 00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:15,200 Dan, first impressions. 418 00:17:16,040 --> 00:17:18,359 You came in and we identified straight away you know, 419 00:17:18,400 --> 00:17:20,800 that you are quite um, out there, you know. 420 00:17:20,839 --> 00:17:23,000 And you are, you're a spiritual person. 421 00:17:23,040 --> 00:17:24,160 Yeah. Which is great. 422 00:17:38,920 --> 00:17:39,920 Number nine. 423 00:17:39,960 --> 00:17:40,960 Staff. 424 00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:43,000 What's the name of your spaceship? 425 00:17:44,240 --> 00:17:45,800 I don't have a spaceship, staff. 426 00:17:47,120 --> 00:17:49,360 On this course, I knew what I was getting into. 427 00:17:49,400 --> 00:17:50,560 I knew what I signed up for. 428 00:17:50,600 --> 00:17:54,000 But until you're in there and the DS are yelling at you. 429 00:17:54,960 --> 00:17:57,680 Stop! Stop! 430 00:17:57,720 --> 00:17:59,280 You have no idea what's coming. 431 00:17:59,320 --> 00:18:01,080 You were embarrassed that you were the only one 432 00:18:01,120 --> 00:18:02,480 to reverse out of that contact. 433 00:18:05,440 --> 00:18:06,680 No, staff I wasn't embarrassed. 434 00:18:06,720 --> 00:18:07,720 Stop! I made a mistake. 435 00:18:07,760 --> 00:18:09,240 (BLEEP) stop! 436 00:18:10,280 --> 00:18:12,320 You've done really (BLEEP) annoying me now. 437 00:18:12,360 --> 00:18:15,320 It was the hardest physical, mental, emotional 438 00:18:15,360 --> 00:18:17,440 and maybe even spiritual challenge of my life. 439 00:18:18,160 --> 00:18:20,440 But you know what? No hard feelings at all. 440 00:18:20,480 --> 00:18:23,160 I think I'm a quite a positive person 441 00:18:23,200 --> 00:18:25,640 and I think that's one of my best qualities. 442 00:18:25,680 --> 00:18:26,920 I love it. Yep. 443 00:18:26,960 --> 00:18:29,040 I'm going back a better version of myself. 444 00:18:29,080 --> 00:18:30,240 Simple as that. 445 00:18:30,280 --> 00:18:31,800 I had a ball, Staff. That's the honest answer. 446 00:18:31,840 --> 00:18:32,920 Good. 447 00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:34,600 Was it good to get back to area 51? 448 00:18:36,120 --> 00:18:38,200 Staff, you know as well as I do. 449 00:18:38,240 --> 00:18:39,240 I'm joking, yeah. 450 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:46,560 There was some big characters in here wasn't there? 451 00:18:48,160 --> 00:18:49,920 Koby, you come from a different background you know, 452 00:18:49,960 --> 00:18:51,720 did you come in here thinking 453 00:18:51,760 --> 00:18:53,600 (BLEEP) hell, I'm not going to fit in? 454 00:18:53,640 --> 00:18:55,560 Yeah, definitely. My wife was scared for me actually. 455 00:18:55,600 --> 00:18:56,600 See there you go. 456 00:18:56,640 --> 00:18:58,120 She said, "Mate, I don't know if you should do this." 457 00:18:58,160 --> 00:19:00,000 Really? See. 458 00:19:00,040 --> 00:19:03,840 Now I've got my own opinions of people yeah, and my own, own morals, 459 00:19:03,880 --> 00:19:06,880 the way I see things and they're a lot different to other people. 460 00:19:06,920 --> 00:19:08,440 So, I was kind of running that risk 461 00:19:08,480 --> 00:19:10,440 but whatever I've done, I'm proud of, mate 462 00:19:10,480 --> 00:19:12,120 so, and it was really hard-core 463 00:19:12,160 --> 00:19:15,200 so I take my hat off to anyone that done it, after me and before me. 464 00:19:15,240 --> 00:19:18,760 I had a sore back but I didn't want to do that shit, bro. 465 00:19:20,840 --> 00:19:22,360 I've got a bad back, man, I'm out of here! 466 00:19:23,880 --> 00:19:26,240 And who enjoyed Koby as duty recruit? 467 00:19:26,280 --> 00:19:27,400 ALL: Aww. 468 00:19:29,240 --> 00:19:30,400 I can't wait. 469 00:19:30,440 --> 00:19:32,440 I'm now duty recruit. Oh, cool. 470 00:19:32,480 --> 00:19:33,720 I'm the boss. 471 00:19:33,760 --> 00:19:36,400 I'll get a pen and you guys write down what you need with your number. 472 00:19:36,440 --> 00:19:37,560 I just want to see the doctor. 473 00:19:37,600 --> 00:19:39,520 Yeah, well you're going to have to write that down then. 474 00:19:39,560 --> 00:19:42,200 It's going to take so much more time Koby doing it this way. 475 00:19:42,240 --> 00:19:44,520 Well, it's, it's your time not mine. 476 00:19:44,560 --> 00:19:46,120 From now on if I'm serving hey... It's a good idea. 477 00:19:46,160 --> 00:19:48,080 You don't go over and smash your food and come over and go. 478 00:19:48,120 --> 00:19:50,040 Yeah. Oh, oh, oh, I've had two spuds! 479 00:19:50,080 --> 00:19:51,520 You know? Yeah, I just need one. 480 00:19:51,560 --> 00:19:53,360 Shits changed around here alright? 481 00:19:55,360 --> 00:19:57,280 Jett, there's a bit of friction there number two. 482 00:19:57,320 --> 00:19:58,720 To be honest I'm one of those assholes 483 00:19:58,760 --> 00:20:00,480 who will judge a book by its cover. 484 00:20:00,520 --> 00:20:03,000 Like, couldn't deal with Koby. 485 00:20:03,040 --> 00:20:04,200 (BURPS) 486 00:20:06,320 --> 00:20:08,040 That's pretty (BLEEP) gross to do while I'm eating bra. 487 00:20:08,080 --> 00:20:09,960 Well, I couldn't hold it in. Then (BLEEP) walk away. 488 00:20:11,680 --> 00:20:12,800 We had our disagreements 489 00:20:12,840 --> 00:20:15,120 but it's not until you start to go day by day, 490 00:20:15,160 --> 00:20:17,480 challenge by challenge that you understand more and more 491 00:20:17,520 --> 00:20:18,680 about people 492 00:20:18,720 --> 00:20:21,200 and Koby's life growing up was super hard, 493 00:20:21,240 --> 00:20:24,440 I'm very fortunate with my family and everything else growing up 494 00:20:24,480 --> 00:20:28,000 that I was kind of comfortable in a way, Koby never had that. 495 00:20:28,040 --> 00:20:30,480 Or it's not until you open that book and you get in there 496 00:20:30,520 --> 00:20:32,920 and you start to learn the finer detail of someone's life 497 00:20:32,960 --> 00:20:36,240 and where they've, what's led them to get to that point 498 00:20:36,280 --> 00:20:37,680 that you start to understand 499 00:20:37,720 --> 00:20:39,560 and why they do things the way they do. 500 00:20:41,600 --> 00:20:43,400 Obviously, we see his picture on the board, 501 00:20:43,440 --> 00:20:45,360 really every bit about him, this bad boy image. 502 00:20:45,400 --> 00:20:46,560 You know want to be a gangster 503 00:20:46,600 --> 00:20:49,280 and actually we watched you, mate, and what a character. 504 00:20:49,320 --> 00:20:50,440 Yeah, big time. 505 00:20:50,480 --> 00:20:51,960 It's easy to listen to media, listen to bullshit 506 00:20:52,000 --> 00:20:53,000 and the rest of it 507 00:20:53,040 --> 00:20:56,200 but when gave us your story in there, I was like (BLEEP) hell. 508 00:20:56,240 --> 00:20:57,920 Yeah. We didn't want you to go. 509 00:20:57,960 --> 00:20:59,720 We never wanted you to go, because he's a morale booster. 510 00:20:59,760 --> 00:21:00,760 Yeah, big time. 511 00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:01,840 Yeah, I got here didn't I, mate Aye? 512 00:21:05,720 --> 00:21:07,120 Just remember I'm coming to Bali. 513 00:21:08,160 --> 00:21:09,320 I know where you live. 514 00:21:10,480 --> 00:21:12,520 I don't really like judge people, like my peers, 515 00:21:12,560 --> 00:21:13,640 who are around me, yeah? 516 00:21:13,680 --> 00:21:15,080 I judge you guys, yeah. 517 00:21:16,720 --> 00:21:18,680 Brave man. Here we go, cause we're judging you. 518 00:21:19,920 --> 00:21:22,280 Now when I thought about this, I thought you were kind of pricks 519 00:21:22,320 --> 00:21:24,000 and you're kind of like this and that 520 00:21:24,040 --> 00:21:25,720 but then I listened to the words you guys were saying 521 00:21:25,760 --> 00:21:27,560 and I just want to say no matter you guys go in life, 522 00:21:27,600 --> 00:21:30,480 like keep helping people what you guys are doing, 523 00:21:30,520 --> 00:21:31,680 you're not making TV shows, 524 00:21:31,720 --> 00:21:35,160 you're like, helping people and you're good to talking to men, 525 00:21:35,200 --> 00:21:36,720 you know, who need help. 526 00:21:38,040 --> 00:21:39,480 There's a lot of hard men out there 527 00:21:39,520 --> 00:21:43,280 but not all hard men can talk to weak men and stuff, you know? 528 00:21:43,320 --> 00:21:45,360 Yeah, it's only because we've been there and you know 529 00:21:45,400 --> 00:21:47,320 we, we've, we've done it that we can understand it 530 00:21:47,360 --> 00:21:50,640 and that's why we get so emotionally connected with guys. 531 00:21:50,680 --> 00:21:52,800 You know it's an emotional journey that we go on. 532 00:21:52,840 --> 00:21:55,000 You know those weaknesses and strengths that we speak about, 533 00:21:55,040 --> 00:21:56,480 well, we all have them. 534 00:21:56,520 --> 00:21:58,920 You know, Koby, amazing to go to for a bit of morale, 535 00:21:58,960 --> 00:22:01,160 you know, Sam for a bit of strength. 536 00:22:01,200 --> 00:22:03,280 You've got knowledge and wisdom back there. 537 00:22:03,320 --> 00:22:05,680 It's like you know, identify that straight away 538 00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:07,720 and then use it to your advantage, 539 00:22:07,760 --> 00:22:09,960 use it for the advantage of the group 540 00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:12,080 and um, never judge a book by its cover. 541 00:22:13,320 --> 00:22:15,760 When you join the military, it's almost you against us. 542 00:22:15,800 --> 00:22:17,200 And that's the way it is. 543 00:22:17,240 --> 00:22:19,240 When we went through training and you bond. 544 00:22:19,800 --> 00:22:21,960 And when you walk away from here tonight, 545 00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:24,360 most of you will stay in touch forever 546 00:22:24,400 --> 00:22:25,560 'cause you've all been in the same boat. 547 00:22:25,600 --> 00:22:29,520 You've all fought for a position, survival, whatever it is. 548 00:22:30,240 --> 00:22:33,040 And I'll tell you now, that bond will never, never go away. 549 00:22:37,080 --> 00:22:40,080 I hated watching everyone pummel everyone 550 00:22:40,120 --> 00:22:43,600 You were squealing Kerri and getting belted. 551 00:22:43,640 --> 00:22:45,720 A blow by blow account... 552 00:22:45,760 --> 00:22:48,960 Something needs to overcome you to get in that mode 553 00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:50,840 of wanting to pummel and kill someone. 554 00:22:50,880 --> 00:22:52,640 ..of the most brutal task. 555 00:22:52,680 --> 00:22:55,200 To me it was just like, 'can you put it back in? 556 00:22:55,240 --> 00:22:58,520 'Cause I just want to get back in and try and get him. 557 00:23:08,080 --> 00:23:11,360 Right here is aggression of the highest form. 558 00:23:13,000 --> 00:23:14,480 This is milling. 559 00:23:15,840 --> 00:23:17,120 This isn't boxing. 560 00:23:18,880 --> 00:23:20,440 No defending yourselves. 561 00:23:21,320 --> 00:23:24,000 The only form of defence is attack. 562 00:23:30,280 --> 00:23:31,480 The milling. 563 00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:35,160 This was by far the most brutal milling that we've seen. 564 00:23:36,520 --> 00:23:38,960 Pick an opponent number 15. 16. 565 00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:40,000 Good choice. 566 00:23:40,960 --> 00:23:41,960 Fight! 567 00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:43,920 That was pretty hard for the majority of you 568 00:23:43,960 --> 00:23:46,960 and also the reactions whilst you are watching 569 00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:49,920 was something that we've never experienced before either. 570 00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:51,720 That's it, go on. Go on! Come on! 571 00:23:51,760 --> 00:23:53,480 Come on 15, keep going! 572 00:23:54,680 --> 00:23:58,120 Number 15, 16. That was a fight. 573 00:23:58,160 --> 00:24:00,600 Was there rivalry there straight away? 574 00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:02,920 Was it AFL versus NRL? 575 00:24:02,960 --> 00:24:04,720 A mate of mine before I came in, 576 00:24:04,760 --> 00:24:07,320 he just said if you get the choice and you're boxing anyone 577 00:24:07,360 --> 00:24:08,920 just pick the biggest guy, no matter what. 578 00:24:09,680 --> 00:24:11,120 Sammy was the one. 579 00:24:11,160 --> 00:24:12,680 I suggest you fight your (BLEEP) mate next time. 580 00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:13,960 Yeah. 581 00:24:14,560 --> 00:24:16,480 He was a bit quicker than I thought he was, Sammy. 582 00:24:17,480 --> 00:24:18,480 Stop! 583 00:24:21,040 --> 00:24:22,920 Watching you go for it that's exactly what we wanted. 584 00:24:22,960 --> 00:24:26,000 Head up, when the chips are done, all against you and you did. 585 00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:28,760 Stupid mistake, but there you (BLEEP) go. 586 00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:30,200 I was nervous on the other side of it 587 00:24:30,240 --> 00:24:32,960 when we got there I thought I really didn't want to fight anyone, 588 00:24:33,000 --> 00:24:34,840 'cause I know I'm a lot bigger and heavier, 589 00:24:34,880 --> 00:24:37,000 so if I had to fight anyone it would of been Heath. 590 00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:40,640 I just looked at it logically like it's going to go for 30 seconds, 591 00:24:40,680 --> 00:24:43,480 we've got gloves on, head gear on, what's the worst that can happen? 592 00:24:43,520 --> 00:24:45,280 Might get a bit of a bloody nose or a bit stunned 593 00:24:45,320 --> 00:24:47,480 but um, Heath's a tough opponent. 594 00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:49,760 I've watched him play for ten years so I took it for what it was, 595 00:24:49,800 --> 00:24:52,440 simple, just a, swing the arms a few times and... 596 00:24:52,480 --> 00:24:54,520 I like the way that you said that you were wearing head gear 597 00:24:54,560 --> 00:24:57,120 because I had a (BLEEP) job getting that thing on yours. 598 00:24:57,920 --> 00:25:00,160 You know that was the biggest challenge of the entire course. 599 00:25:02,080 --> 00:25:03,800 It's always controversial the milling. 600 00:25:03,840 --> 00:25:04,960 You know people, you want to watch it 601 00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:06,000 or you don't want to watch it. 602 00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:07,800 Especially when you see women fighting, 603 00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:09,640 believe it or not we've had as many fights with women 604 00:25:09,680 --> 00:25:11,760 out on the battlefield as we have with blokes. 605 00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:13,160 And that's true. 606 00:25:13,200 --> 00:25:14,840 When somebody's in front of you, you can't look at gender, 607 00:25:14,880 --> 00:25:17,040 you can't look at, it's do or die. 608 00:25:17,960 --> 00:25:19,200 Number 18, come out here. 609 00:25:19,240 --> 00:25:21,800 Who wants to fight number 18? 610 00:25:21,840 --> 00:25:23,800 Number 13, lets' do it. OK. 611 00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:24,840 Fight! 612 00:25:26,840 --> 00:25:29,200 Keep going number 18, keep going! Keep going! 613 00:25:30,200 --> 00:25:33,400 Keep going, let's go! Keep going number 18, keep going. 614 00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:34,520 Stop. 615 00:25:34,560 --> 00:25:37,480 No one likes being punched in the face, it's (BLEEP) horrible. 616 00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:40,240 Stop, stop! 617 00:25:41,920 --> 00:25:42,920 Get up! 618 00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:47,760 Ask yourself if this is the job that you want to do. 619 00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:52,960 But then, witnessing it as well and by the looks on your faces... 620 00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:56,760 ..that was pretty hard for the majority of you. 621 00:25:56,800 --> 00:25:57,800 Bonnie. 622 00:25:57,840 --> 00:25:59,120 I thought I'd be cool with it. 623 00:25:59,160 --> 00:26:03,200 I was kind of mentally preparing myself for some kind of fight 624 00:26:03,240 --> 00:26:04,480 or something 625 00:26:04,520 --> 00:26:05,880 and the whole time watching everybody, 626 00:26:05,920 --> 00:26:09,280 I think because we got to know each other and it was so brutal. 627 00:26:09,320 --> 00:26:10,560 It was tough. 628 00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:13,640 And like I love these guys, like, it was like, there were tears. 629 00:26:13,680 --> 00:26:16,280 I was feeling emotional everyday actually. 630 00:26:16,320 --> 00:26:18,360 But yeah that was hard. Well, I hated it. 631 00:26:18,400 --> 00:26:19,920 I'm just going to put my hand up. Yeah, over to you. 632 00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:23,240 I hated watching everyone pummel everyone 633 00:26:23,280 --> 00:26:26,880 and you were squealing, Kerri, and getting belted 634 00:26:26,920 --> 00:26:28,720 and I hated listening to that. 635 00:26:28,760 --> 00:26:31,480 And we were last to go, Jana and I. 636 00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:32,960 You two, go and glove up. 637 00:26:34,040 --> 00:26:35,200 Make it a (BLEEP) good one. 638 00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:36,240 Fight! 639 00:26:37,600 --> 00:26:40,120 And I just hated every second of the fighting 640 00:26:40,160 --> 00:26:43,000 and emotion completely overwhelmed me. 641 00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:44,440 And I just opted out. 642 00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:45,480 Do you want to quit? 643 00:26:47,600 --> 00:26:49,640 Right, go over and see the medic. Move. 644 00:26:49,680 --> 00:26:52,040 You cracked on and you did the fight basically 645 00:26:52,080 --> 00:26:53,360 and it was a shame 646 00:26:53,400 --> 00:26:55,040 because you would of only had to stand there 647 00:26:55,080 --> 00:26:56,640 for another second or two max. 648 00:26:56,680 --> 00:26:57,840 I know, I wonder why I didn't? 649 00:26:57,880 --> 00:27:00,400 I'm just trying to understand where your thought process was 650 00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:02,720 because ultimately you pretty much cracked it. 651 00:27:02,760 --> 00:27:03,760 Yeah, I did. 652 00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:05,800 I cracked it, I probably lost the plot a little bit, yeah. 653 00:27:05,840 --> 00:27:07,320 It was a shame. 654 00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:11,960 I keep wondering whether, 655 00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:14,280 if my son or daughter were standing next to me 656 00:27:14,320 --> 00:27:16,800 and I needed to fight for their lives, 657 00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:19,720 I wonder whether I would of continued to fight 658 00:27:19,760 --> 00:27:22,560 because I just took flight and I just gave up. 659 00:27:22,600 --> 00:27:24,280 Something needs to overcome you 660 00:27:24,320 --> 00:27:27,520 to get in that mode of wanting to pummel and kill someone. 661 00:27:28,280 --> 00:27:29,400 Yep. And I didn't have it. 662 00:27:29,440 --> 00:27:31,280 And I trained lots of aspects coming into this 663 00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:32,640 but I didn't train emotion. 664 00:27:32,680 --> 00:27:34,560 I don't know if you can train emotion. 665 00:27:34,600 --> 00:27:36,560 For 20 years I've been taught on the tennis court 666 00:27:36,600 --> 00:27:38,960 play how you must, not how you feel. 667 00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:41,320 You know, you can't fight or box 668 00:27:41,360 --> 00:27:43,400 or try and kill someone by how you feel. 669 00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:45,000 You just must do it. 670 00:27:45,040 --> 00:27:47,240 And I didn't do that that night. 671 00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:51,320 Talk me through your experience Pete and your dislocated arm. 672 00:27:51,360 --> 00:27:53,600 I remember seeing that pop. 673 00:27:53,640 --> 00:27:56,240 Fighting Mark I didn't realise how long his arms were 674 00:27:56,280 --> 00:27:59,040 which was pretty hard challenging guy to try and fight. 675 00:28:03,200 --> 00:28:06,000 And Mark got some good shots on me and I fell backwards 676 00:28:06,040 --> 00:28:07,440 and then the arm popped. 677 00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:10,440 Elbow, elbow, out of joint. 678 00:28:10,480 --> 00:28:12,080 Your elbows come out of joint. 679 00:28:12,920 --> 00:28:15,080 I remember picking you up, Pete, and you saying put it back in, 680 00:28:15,120 --> 00:28:17,160 I want to go again. Yeah. 681 00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:18,880 Um, and your elbow was here. 682 00:28:18,920 --> 00:28:21,040 I thought I said that to the doc, did I say that to you? 683 00:28:21,080 --> 00:28:22,600 Any excuse to get out of it. 684 00:28:24,920 --> 00:28:28,560 I was disappointed because he got the better of me 685 00:28:28,600 --> 00:28:31,000 and all I wanted to do was get back and, and have another go. 686 00:28:31,040 --> 00:28:33,320 So, for me it was just like can you put it back in, 687 00:28:33,360 --> 00:28:36,960 cause I just want to get back in and try and get him. 688 00:28:38,160 --> 00:28:40,480 Mark, how do you feel breaking a musician's arm? 689 00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:45,560 You know what I've never had a fight. 690 00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:47,440 I've never punched anyone in my life. 691 00:28:47,480 --> 00:28:48,600 No one's ever punched me. 692 00:28:48,640 --> 00:28:50,800 I've never done any boxing, I've never done any glove work. 693 00:28:50,840 --> 00:28:53,680 You guys were like who wants to fight number 14 694 00:28:53,720 --> 00:28:55,640 and all the guys are putting up their hands and I was like, 695 00:28:55,680 --> 00:28:56,960 I don't want to fight anyone. 696 00:28:57,000 --> 00:28:59,040 The only thing I was thinking was, 697 00:28:59,080 --> 00:29:01,920 just because I'm the biggest please God do not pair me with Sam. 698 00:29:01,960 --> 00:29:05,720 I just thought, I was shitting my pants. 699 00:29:05,760 --> 00:29:08,120 So when Heath picked Sam, 700 00:29:08,160 --> 00:29:09,520 I was like, thank God. 701 00:29:09,560 --> 00:29:11,320 And when it's time for Pete and I, 702 00:29:11,360 --> 00:29:13,040 I'm like, alright, well this is going to happen. 703 00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:15,440 It's either him or me, pretty much, my mind-set was you know. 704 00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:18,640 I tell you what, you did what you did throughout the whole course? 705 00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:20,640 And that was, surprised us. 706 00:29:20,680 --> 00:29:21,880 You really pulled it out of the bag. 707 00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:23,320 Maybe you should start a new career. 708 00:29:26,800 --> 00:29:29,480 The milling is to see if you've got the aggression to go there 709 00:29:29,520 --> 00:29:33,720 and then to stop because that's what the battlefield is like. 710 00:29:33,760 --> 00:29:36,720 We could be going into a room with enemy combatants, 711 00:29:36,760 --> 00:29:39,400 next room, women and children, can we switch on and off. 712 00:29:39,440 --> 00:29:41,760 And also witnessing what you have to witness, 713 00:29:41,800 --> 00:29:44,120 that's why we get you there to watch it. 714 00:29:44,160 --> 00:29:47,440 It's like, and you said about your friends, it's hard you know, 715 00:29:47,480 --> 00:29:49,120 you've got to know each other for a couple of days 716 00:29:49,160 --> 00:29:50,600 and you've got to punch them. 717 00:29:50,640 --> 00:29:54,320 Well, listen, imagine your (BLEEP) pal that's dead in front of ya, 718 00:29:54,360 --> 00:29:56,360 you've got to get him on your shoulder and get him out there. 719 00:29:56,400 --> 00:29:58,600 It's not just about beating the shit out of each other, 720 00:29:58,640 --> 00:30:01,600 even though we did enjoy this one, so excellent effort on that. 721 00:30:01,640 --> 00:30:03,000 Best one we've had. Yeah, it is. 722 00:30:03,040 --> 00:30:04,040 100%. 723 00:30:05,760 --> 00:30:06,920 Do you remember collapsing? 724 00:30:06,960 --> 00:30:08,120 I remember seeing spots. 725 00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:09,280 Yeah, that wasn't much fun. 726 00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:11,880 You tested my ceiling level of my athleticism. 727 00:30:12,560 --> 00:30:14,400 Pushed to breaking point. 728 00:30:14,440 --> 00:30:16,280 I knocked on the gates of hell 729 00:30:16,320 --> 00:30:19,000 and I saw the grim reaper like three times that day, staff. 730 00:30:21,600 --> 00:30:23,720 In order to defeat their demons. 731 00:30:23,760 --> 00:30:25,280 That was a rebirth for you that day. 732 00:30:25,320 --> 00:30:26,880 Oh, thank you, staff. That means a lot. 733 00:30:32,760 --> 00:30:35,720 The team challenges, they were just absolutely brutal. 734 00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:36,760 Go! 735 00:30:36,800 --> 00:30:38,360 The helicopter where we had to drop into the water, 736 00:30:38,400 --> 00:30:40,520 I actually swallowed a bit of water 737 00:30:40,560 --> 00:30:42,600 and I had a little bit of a panic attack. 738 00:30:44,280 --> 00:30:45,560 Don't panic. 739 00:30:45,600 --> 00:30:48,160 I'm afraid of really, really tight spaces. 740 00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:50,200 Lets go, let's go. 741 00:30:50,240 --> 00:30:52,400 You can do this, let's go. I'm very claustrophobic. 742 00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:57,040 It's pretty hard confronting my fears of claustrophobia. 743 00:30:57,080 --> 00:30:59,160 So, I've actually ticked the box there. 744 00:31:02,120 --> 00:31:03,200 It was tough. 745 00:31:03,240 --> 00:31:06,800 I was certainly quite afraid of falling from high, high heights. 746 00:31:06,840 --> 00:31:07,840 Lean back. 747 00:31:07,880 --> 00:31:10,480 All a sudden there I was hanging off a rock and being let go. 748 00:31:11,040 --> 00:31:13,720 I was petrified. Break, break, break! 749 00:31:15,360 --> 00:31:16,480 Some of those kind of things, 750 00:31:16,520 --> 00:31:18,200 I'll never have that opportunity again in life to do. 751 00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:20,320 So, it was pretty amazing. 752 00:31:20,360 --> 00:31:21,840 You OK? Yep. 753 00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:23,400 The DS have no mercy. 754 00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:30,840 The next debrief point is the toughest task. 755 00:31:30,880 --> 00:31:34,040 Number 16, what was your toughest task. 756 00:31:34,760 --> 00:31:37,080 Uh, definitely for me was the last challenge. 757 00:31:37,120 --> 00:31:39,520 Probably the worst position I could be in. 758 00:31:41,360 --> 00:31:43,160 (BLEEP) my shoulders cooked. 759 00:31:43,200 --> 00:31:44,920 I came in with a pretty bad left shoulder. 760 00:31:44,960 --> 00:31:48,840 It sort of finished my career, physically my left shoulder, 761 00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:52,720 I thought might prevent me from competing as well as others. 762 00:31:54,080 --> 00:31:56,760 I've taught myself that pain can only get to a ten. 763 00:31:56,800 --> 00:31:58,400 Then after that it doesn't get any worse, 764 00:31:58,440 --> 00:31:59,520 so if you can sit at ten and hold it, 765 00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:00,800 then, you can do it alright. 766 00:32:00,840 --> 00:32:03,120 So, I can hold the ten for a while. 767 00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:05,000 Hang. 768 00:32:05,720 --> 00:32:06,800 (GRUNTING) 769 00:32:07,480 --> 00:32:08,720 (BLEEP) 770 00:32:13,680 --> 00:32:16,840 I just give it my best shot and deal with the pain afterwards. 771 00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:20,520 It's a distraction isn't it? A... 772 00:32:20,560 --> 00:32:22,400 You know, you know it could, could give at any time. 773 00:32:22,440 --> 00:32:24,720 Total distraction but one thing I, I tried to do 774 00:32:24,760 --> 00:32:27,160 is distract the distraction with another distraction. 775 00:32:27,200 --> 00:32:28,800 So, that's for me, 776 00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:30,840 I made the food a really big point in my head. 777 00:32:30,880 --> 00:32:33,520 I played on a trick on my brain that 778 00:32:33,560 --> 00:32:35,960 um, I made the food a focal point of my... 779 00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:37,360 Suffering. ..to complain about. 780 00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:38,920 I made that bigger than what it was 781 00:32:38,960 --> 00:32:41,520 because I know it'd take my mind away from my shoulder. 782 00:32:41,560 --> 00:32:42,960 You going to throw it away? Yeah, man. 783 00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:46,080 (BLEEP), no way brother. I'm just offering, do you want it? 784 00:32:46,120 --> 00:32:47,760 Oh, if you're going to throw it away, I'm eating. 785 00:32:47,800 --> 00:32:50,040 Yeah, no way, you cannot throw food away. 786 00:32:50,080 --> 00:32:51,240 (SPEAKS FRENCH) 787 00:32:53,880 --> 00:32:56,160 Oh, boss, even better for me. 788 00:32:56,200 --> 00:33:00,760 In my food bowl every day I would rim it out basically. 789 00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:04,240 I, and I rim, I'd rim Steffs out as well. 790 00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:07,280 You know we got the bowl 791 00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:10,120 and I would take every last piece of food available. 792 00:33:10,160 --> 00:33:11,160 Good. 793 00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:12,360 I'll never waste food again in my life 794 00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:14,080 because you know we take it for granted. 795 00:33:14,120 --> 00:33:16,040 It taught me a big lesson but going back to the last challenge. 796 00:33:16,080 --> 00:33:20,400 That was the hardest challenge for me but um it, it taught me a lot. 797 00:33:20,440 --> 00:33:22,400 That was amazing mate. 798 00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:26,920 Jana your lack of being able to take oxygen in. 799 00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:28,600 Yeah that was. Blue lips. 800 00:33:28,640 --> 00:33:29,800 That was not much fun. 801 00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:31,400 Do you remember on the combat assault course? 802 00:33:31,440 --> 00:33:32,800 Yeah, yeah, that wasn't much fun. 803 00:33:33,840 --> 00:33:36,800 Attack, let's go! Let's go, let's go, let's go! All the way! 804 00:33:40,080 --> 00:33:42,480 I'm so cooked! 805 00:33:42,520 --> 00:33:43,760 Being an elite athlete all your life, 806 00:33:43,800 --> 00:33:45,200 you put a certain standard of yourself 807 00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:46,800 of where you think you are athletically. 808 00:33:46,840 --> 00:33:48,800 Get your, stand up. Stand by. 809 00:33:48,840 --> 00:33:50,680 You tested my ceiling level of my athleticism 810 00:33:50,720 --> 00:33:52,840 and it, that was an extraordinary feeling 811 00:33:52,880 --> 00:33:53,920 to get to that point. 812 00:33:55,480 --> 00:33:57,680 Head up number four. Number four, get in the game. 813 00:34:01,400 --> 00:34:02,480 Do you remember collapsing? 814 00:34:02,520 --> 00:34:03,960 Oh, I don't remember it actually happening 815 00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:05,080 but I remember seeing spots. 816 00:34:05,120 --> 00:34:06,400 Head up, head up, head up. Sorry. 817 00:34:06,440 --> 00:34:07,960 Stand up. Stand up. Stand up, stand up. 818 00:34:08,000 --> 00:34:09,679 Stand up. Stand up, stand up, stand up. 819 00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:12,760 Realising I hit my very low reserve level. 820 00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:15,239 Open your eyes, stand up. 821 00:34:15,280 --> 00:34:17,440 I didn't actually know I could take myself to that level, and I wish... 822 00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:18,679 It was amazing. 823 00:34:18,719 --> 00:34:20,400 Yeah, I wish I could of done that more. 824 00:34:20,440 --> 00:34:22,239 I asked for a 100% and you gave (BLEEP) a 110. 825 00:34:22,280 --> 00:34:23,800 Don't quit on me again. I was going, seeing stars. 826 00:34:23,840 --> 00:34:25,199 Don't quit on me again, I'll tell you now. 827 00:34:25,239 --> 00:34:26,239 (JOHN SPEWING) 828 00:34:28,239 --> 00:34:29,320 John, asthma. 829 00:34:30,199 --> 00:34:32,239 I didn't know it was that bad. I was just really cold. 830 00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:36,239 Uh, it just became something I had to deal with. 831 00:34:36,280 --> 00:34:39,560 The cold air hit, hit my chest and I just battled to breathe. 832 00:34:40,199 --> 00:34:42,320 Let me down, let me down! 833 00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:45,199 I had this Bergen that weighed more than me 834 00:34:45,239 --> 00:34:46,760 and I've turned into skin and bones 835 00:34:46,800 --> 00:34:48,280 and because of the cold air, 836 00:34:48,320 --> 00:34:51,679 my chest started closing in and the harness closed my chest. 837 00:34:54,400 --> 00:34:57,120 I gave Sam the walkie talkie, I said go in and get me down! 838 00:34:57,160 --> 00:34:58,680 And Sam's going no look around, look around. 839 00:34:58,720 --> 00:34:59,800 I tell you. 840 00:35:00,680 --> 00:35:02,960 I said get me the (BLEEP) down. I want to go down. 841 00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:04,160 So, by the time I saw you Ollie. 842 00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:05,880 No I tell you, do you know the first thing that I thought 843 00:35:05,920 --> 00:35:07,640 I thought he's (BLEEP) got his head down. 844 00:35:07,680 --> 00:35:10,040 He's having a nap. You were like that. 845 00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:14,920 You got down to the ground. 846 00:35:14,960 --> 00:35:17,480 I was just about to come unhook you and you're gone. 847 00:35:17,520 --> 00:35:19,120 And I thought, (BLEEP) he's dead! 848 00:35:24,000 --> 00:35:25,560 You alright, you alright? 849 00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:26,600 Yeah. 850 00:35:26,640 --> 00:35:29,760 What's up with you? You alright? What's up with you? 851 00:35:29,800 --> 00:35:31,320 Um, just asthma. A bit exhausted. 852 00:35:32,640 --> 00:35:33,760 Hold that. 853 00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:36,240 It's a commendable effort, you know to come on this 854 00:35:36,280 --> 00:35:39,640 and then get to where you got and well get to any stage of the course 855 00:35:39,680 --> 00:35:41,400 and be dealing with asthma as well so... 856 00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:42,960 Well done, mate. Thanks, Ollie. 857 00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:44,800 Jessica, what was your hardest task? 858 00:35:44,840 --> 00:35:47,440 Ooo-uh. I think we know that one, don't we? 859 00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:49,040 We do, don't we Jess? 860 00:35:49,080 --> 00:35:54,000 For me, toughest task was our... the one that I completed with Dan. 861 00:35:54,720 --> 00:35:56,080 Now let's go. Let's go Jess. 862 00:35:56,120 --> 00:35:58,320 We had to carry a casualty. 863 00:35:58,360 --> 00:35:59,360 Walk together. 864 00:35:59,400 --> 00:36:00,760 I knocked on the gates of hell 865 00:36:00,800 --> 00:36:04,520 and I saw the grim reaper like three times that day, staff. 866 00:36:04,560 --> 00:36:08,160 Let's go, let's (BLEEP) go! Let's go Jess, hurry up. 867 00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:09,200 It's OK. 868 00:36:09,240 --> 00:36:11,600 Come on! Come on, come on arms, come on. 869 00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:12,640 It's OK. 870 00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:17,400 I got to about a 150m and I thought my arms were going to fall off. 871 00:36:19,560 --> 00:36:21,080 Stand up, stand up. Stand up, seriously I got you. 872 00:36:21,120 --> 00:36:22,520 I'm done. I can't do anymore, staff. 873 00:36:22,560 --> 00:36:23,560 That's it. Stand up, you got me. 874 00:36:23,600 --> 00:36:25,120 Stand up! I can't do anymore! 875 00:36:25,160 --> 00:36:26,160 Stand up! Get up! 876 00:36:26,200 --> 00:36:27,560 Come here, come here, look at me. 877 00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:28,600 I can't do anymore. 878 00:36:28,640 --> 00:36:29,640 Look at me in the (BLEEP) eye... 879 00:36:29,680 --> 00:36:31,400 There were a few tears. A few? 880 00:36:31,440 --> 00:36:32,440 A few. 881 00:36:32,480 --> 00:36:34,720 It flooded the (BLEEP) railway track. 882 00:36:36,080 --> 00:36:38,560 Hey, get together, look at me. We are not weak! You are not weak! 883 00:36:39,680 --> 00:36:40,680 Yeah, it was hard. 884 00:36:40,720 --> 00:36:42,960 I remember Dan getting me face to face 885 00:36:43,000 --> 00:36:45,000 and he just said you know what are we doing this for? 886 00:36:45,040 --> 00:36:46,040 We're doing this for our kids. 887 00:36:46,080 --> 00:36:47,160 We're going to get this done. 888 00:36:47,200 --> 00:36:49,720 We're not stopping when we're tired. We're stopping when we're done. 889 00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:51,040 Look at me in the eyes. 890 00:36:51,080 --> 00:36:54,760 So that sort of gave me that last, that bit of boost of strength 891 00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:57,120 and yeah, I just envisioned seeing my beautiful son 892 00:36:57,160 --> 00:36:58,160 at that finish line 893 00:36:58,200 --> 00:36:59,200 and that's what got me there 894 00:36:59,240 --> 00:37:00,880 and I think I've always sort of always questioned 895 00:37:00,920 --> 00:37:02,080 my own capabilities. 896 00:37:02,120 --> 00:37:04,800 That's been something that's held me back a lot in life. 897 00:37:04,840 --> 00:37:06,160 Never thinking that I was good enough. 898 00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:08,520 You know I now know that I'm, I'm capable of anything 899 00:37:08,560 --> 00:37:10,600 if I put my mind to it and I believe in myself 900 00:37:10,640 --> 00:37:12,560 and you know if there's one thing I'm going to take away 901 00:37:12,600 --> 00:37:16,520 from this experience is that I can't use no longer in my vocabulary. 902 00:37:17,120 --> 00:37:19,760 Good. I'm super proud of myself you know 903 00:37:19,800 --> 00:37:23,040 and I, I think my son's going to be um proud of his mum. 904 00:37:23,080 --> 00:37:24,920 You know what? You were amazing. 905 00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:27,560 Honestly that was amazing. 906 00:37:27,600 --> 00:37:29,240 And you got through that and fair play to Dan. 907 00:37:29,280 --> 00:37:30,520 Yep. 908 00:37:30,560 --> 00:37:31,760 Talk about a team member. 909 00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:38,040 That was the best team motivation as a pair that we saw on this course. 910 00:37:38,080 --> 00:37:39,760 That was amazing Dan. 911 00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:42,120 He ultimately helped you get through that. 912 00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:43,160 He did. 913 00:37:43,200 --> 00:37:46,640 Your determination, amazing. Different person. 914 00:37:46,680 --> 00:37:47,920 Thank you, staff. 915 00:37:47,960 --> 00:37:48,960 You're going to make me cry. 916 00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:50,440 On a different level. 917 00:37:51,040 --> 00:37:52,960 I've been a bit of a victim to my past, 918 00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:56,440 but throughout this journey I feel like I'm a new person. 919 00:37:56,480 --> 00:37:58,560 That was a rebirth for you that day. Oh, it was. 920 00:37:58,600 --> 00:38:00,960 I saw you die, but I saw you grow so much in that day. 921 00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:02,640 Yeah. Oh thank you, staff, that means a lot. 922 00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:04,920 Thanks Dan. Yeah, no worries. 923 00:38:05,520 --> 00:38:07,040 The DS saw potential in me. 924 00:38:07,080 --> 00:38:08,560 Well done, Jessica. Thank you. 925 00:38:08,600 --> 00:38:10,680 And they continue to see things in me 926 00:38:10,720 --> 00:38:13,480 that I have failed to see in myself but I do now. 927 00:38:28,040 --> 00:38:31,880 Mentally the psychological side of the whole course is intriguing. 928 00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:37,520 Why are you here? 929 00:38:37,560 --> 00:38:41,720 I want to go back to my family the best version I can. 930 00:38:41,760 --> 00:38:45,640 I was forced to quit and I don't want to be forced to quit again. 931 00:38:46,800 --> 00:38:47,800 I've lost it all. 932 00:38:49,440 --> 00:38:51,120 You start learning more about yourself, 933 00:38:51,160 --> 00:38:54,320 about how you want to change things moving forward in your life 934 00:38:54,360 --> 00:38:55,720 for the better. 935 00:38:57,320 --> 00:38:58,480 I'm a perfectionist. 936 00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:01,240 Like I know you can't achieve perfection but I aim for that 937 00:39:01,280 --> 00:39:02,720 and I expect everyone around me as well. 938 00:39:02,760 --> 00:39:05,840 The best thing for you to do is to be present here. 939 00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:08,600 You'll learn an awful lot about yourself I reckon. 940 00:39:09,800 --> 00:39:12,200 I think the DS saw me as a human being. 941 00:39:12,240 --> 00:39:15,160 They didn't really care about my indiscretions, my career. 942 00:39:15,200 --> 00:39:19,680 There's no in between with people like us and you're one of us. 943 00:39:19,720 --> 00:39:21,840 They look straight at the person, the person who I am, 944 00:39:21,880 --> 00:39:25,440 they look into my soul and see what courage and character I have. 945 00:39:26,520 --> 00:39:28,680 Be prepared to be knocked back a step and go again. 946 00:39:28,720 --> 00:39:30,800 Think of those people that are doubting you. 947 00:39:30,840 --> 00:39:32,560 Let them be your motivation. 948 00:39:35,240 --> 00:39:36,680 What could I have done better? 949 00:39:36,720 --> 00:39:38,960 'Cause that way you're always bettering yourself. 950 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:41,640 I kind of feel like I've found my purpose, you know? 951 00:39:41,680 --> 00:39:44,360 Yeah. I'm feeling peace. 952 00:39:44,400 --> 00:39:45,600 Yeah, that's good, man. 953 00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:48,520 Well, that's what you're meant to do here. 954 00:39:48,560 --> 00:39:50,680 It's just a great lesson in life, 955 00:39:50,720 --> 00:39:54,200 whether you've got to go through 14 days of pain to get there, 956 00:39:54,240 --> 00:39:55,440 but it's, it's worth it at the end. 957 00:39:58,800 --> 00:40:02,600 One which is huge for me is, is sacrifice. 958 00:40:03,680 --> 00:40:06,680 We signed the dotted line to give the ultimate sacrifice 959 00:40:06,720 --> 00:40:08,480 for our queen and country, 960 00:40:08,520 --> 00:40:10,880 for each other, for the job that we do. 961 00:40:11,520 --> 00:40:14,480 When you're willing to give the ultimate sacrifice, 962 00:40:14,520 --> 00:40:17,200 i.e. yourselves, there's no task too big, 963 00:40:17,240 --> 00:40:19,360 how much are you willing to sacrifice 964 00:40:19,400 --> 00:40:20,880 in order to get the job done? 965 00:40:20,920 --> 00:40:23,600 You know time away from your loved ones, time away from your children, 966 00:40:23,640 --> 00:40:26,000 time away from what, whatever it may be. 967 00:40:26,840 --> 00:40:31,280 That's sacrifice in itself. Mark, sacrifice? 968 00:40:32,080 --> 00:40:33,400 To be honest, 969 00:40:33,440 --> 00:40:37,560 the one who was most excited was my wife for me to come because she... 970 00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:38,840 Get rid of you for two weeks. 971 00:40:38,880 --> 00:40:39,880 Yeah. 972 00:40:39,920 --> 00:40:42,160 You're a 100% right, probably what it is. 973 00:40:42,200 --> 00:40:44,760 She's got only two kids to take care of, instead of three. 974 00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:47,760 Um, the toughest thing was, was not communicating with them you know. 975 00:40:47,800 --> 00:40:49,920 Then actually I kind of got used to it 976 00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:52,480 and then you gave us the second last day, 977 00:40:52,520 --> 00:40:56,600 a video call where we actually spoke to and I broke down. 978 00:40:56,640 --> 00:40:57,760 Like... 979 00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:06,080 Hey guys (CRYING) WIFE: Hi, my love. 980 00:41:06,120 --> 00:41:07,640 I miss you. 981 00:41:09,800 --> 00:41:14,000 You guys, Daddy's OK, he's just, is, misses you guys. 982 00:41:14,040 --> 00:41:16,600 SON: Daddy, I miss you. I miss you too. 983 00:41:17,720 --> 00:41:19,760 It really affected me, 984 00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:23,160 where I had to snap myself out of it cause I got into the comfort zone. 985 00:41:23,200 --> 00:41:25,120 I had just, you've been here, it's almost done. 986 00:41:25,160 --> 00:41:27,560 You know you got, you get to see them in two days. 987 00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:29,240 Just put them behind you, you know. 988 00:41:29,280 --> 00:41:31,120 So it was a very, it was a beautiful moment 989 00:41:31,160 --> 00:41:33,240 but it's kind of almost screwed me at the same time. 990 00:41:33,280 --> 00:41:34,600 You got through it right? Yeah. 991 00:41:34,640 --> 00:41:35,640 And you used it. 992 00:41:35,680 --> 00:41:37,720 And you used it right? I did, I did. 993 00:41:37,760 --> 00:41:41,200 And some of you use your emotions to get through the course 994 00:41:41,240 --> 00:41:43,680 and some of you cut yourself off from your, your emotions. 995 00:41:44,240 --> 00:41:47,240 And I suppose John you're a prime example of that 996 00:41:47,280 --> 00:41:49,120 with your phone call home. 997 00:41:49,160 --> 00:41:52,760 Where you just completely cut it off, didn't you? 998 00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:53,800 Yeah, I wasn't doing it. 999 00:41:53,840 --> 00:41:55,440 Yeah. No chance. 1000 00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:56,640 Talk us through that. 1001 00:41:56,680 --> 00:42:00,680 Towards the back end, last two days, I got extremely emotional. 1002 00:42:00,720 --> 00:42:03,040 Just sat down and saw the phone, 1003 00:42:03,080 --> 00:42:06,560 and I saw the display pic and I saw my kids 1004 00:42:06,600 --> 00:42:08,680 and I just thought nah, I couldn't handle it. 1005 00:42:08,720 --> 00:42:09,720 I thought, no, that's not it. 1006 00:42:09,760 --> 00:42:13,920 I'm going to give you a couple of minutes to speak to your loved ones. 1007 00:42:13,960 --> 00:42:16,200 Make sure you press the camera button 1008 00:42:16,240 --> 00:42:18,440 in the centre of those three, yeah? 1009 00:42:19,560 --> 00:42:24,920 Hey. What, what do you want to do? Talk to me. 1010 00:42:25,920 --> 00:42:27,520 No thanks. No thank you. OK. 1011 00:42:36,280 --> 00:42:37,280 I'm focused. 1012 00:42:37,320 --> 00:42:39,120 And when I was an athlete. I never wanted distractions. 1013 00:42:39,160 --> 00:42:40,600 I just wanted to focus on what I was doing 1014 00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:43,160 and I'll enjoy the good times afterwards. 1015 00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:50,240 I sort of felt like, that's my private life, 1016 00:42:50,280 --> 00:42:51,680 and my emotions are my emotions 1017 00:42:51,720 --> 00:42:55,360 and that's the one little bit I've got left is that for me. 1018 00:42:55,400 --> 00:42:58,680 So, I, I just didn't, I just didn't feel like I wanted to share that 1019 00:42:58,720 --> 00:43:00,840 and I'll go home and I'll do it when I get home 1020 00:43:00,880 --> 00:43:03,320 and show them my love and share that with them. 1021 00:43:04,720 --> 00:43:08,040 This course is designed to see how you deal with that. 1022 00:43:08,080 --> 00:43:11,040 How you process it and how you learn from it. 1023 00:43:14,040 --> 00:43:17,320 Anyone else find the sacrifice hard? Yeah, Jessica? 1024 00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:18,360 Yeah. 1025 00:43:18,400 --> 00:43:20,720 I think the greatest sacrifice a person can you know ever make 1026 00:43:20,760 --> 00:43:22,880 is one where they're away from their kids. 1027 00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:26,960 So, I definitely found it comforting that there was a lot of other mums 1028 00:43:27,000 --> 00:43:29,360 um, on the course with me and you know there were times 1029 00:43:29,400 --> 00:43:32,200 where we really confided in one another 1030 00:43:32,240 --> 00:43:34,040 and spoke openly about our kids 1031 00:43:34,080 --> 00:43:38,080 and it made the experience a lot easier to deal with. 1032 00:43:38,120 --> 00:43:40,600 I think it's empowering as well to, to show other women 1033 00:43:40,640 --> 00:43:43,120 that you know just because you, you are a mum, life doesn't stop. 1034 00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:45,560 That we can continuously keep pushing ourselves. 1035 00:43:46,160 --> 00:43:47,160 Absolutely. 1036 00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:48,200 Yeah, it's not only women. 1037 00:43:48,240 --> 00:43:49,240 Sorry, sorry well... 1038 00:43:49,280 --> 00:43:51,040 No it's true, no because to be honest with you, 1039 00:43:51,080 --> 00:43:54,280 I went home and I realised how selfish I've been sometimes 1040 00:43:54,320 --> 00:43:58,240 thinking of my career. My success. What I want to do. 1041 00:43:58,280 --> 00:43:59,280 I want to be on S... 1042 00:43:59,320 --> 00:44:01,520 I remember when I said to my wife, I want to be on SAS, 1043 00:44:01,560 --> 00:44:02,680 she said don't be a (BLEEP) wit. 1044 00:44:02,720 --> 00:44:04,560 And I'm like I'm going to do this shit. 1045 00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:05,600 I'm going to be a (BLEEP) wit. 1046 00:44:06,960 --> 00:44:09,640 And, and yeah I, I went back to work. 1047 00:44:09,680 --> 00:44:11,640 I went back to my businesses. I went back to my family, 1048 00:44:11,680 --> 00:44:15,160 I'm like I, I've been selfish. I just wanted to be here. 1049 00:44:16,480 --> 00:44:20,600 Jana you had a bit of a wobble after we spoke about our regrets, 1050 00:44:20,640 --> 00:44:21,960 didn't we? We did. 1051 00:44:22,000 --> 00:44:23,680 We said you know what do we regret in life or you know 1052 00:44:23,720 --> 00:44:24,880 is there something that we could... 1053 00:44:24,920 --> 00:44:26,960 What are you ashamed of? Yeah, ashamed of. 1054 00:44:29,080 --> 00:44:31,640 In my final year of medical school, 1055 00:44:31,680 --> 00:44:35,600 I budgeted what I thought was I budgeted well for, my family. 1056 00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:38,200 As a single mum with three kids to get through medical school 1057 00:44:38,240 --> 00:44:43,400 and then found myself unable to pay the mortgage, unable to pay, 1058 00:44:43,440 --> 00:44:44,880 put food on the table for three kids 1059 00:44:44,920 --> 00:44:48,840 because I decided to chase success again. 1060 00:44:50,400 --> 00:44:52,800 I think that was such a vulnerable, open moment for us 1061 00:44:52,840 --> 00:44:55,880 to really discover why we're here in all truth 1062 00:44:55,920 --> 00:44:59,000 and why we shouldn't be here in, in other aspects as well. 1063 00:44:59,040 --> 00:45:03,520 And I've often prioritised success and dreams and chasing big goals 1064 00:45:03,560 --> 00:45:06,680 and realising that sometimes people get dragged on that journey 1065 00:45:06,720 --> 00:45:07,720 with you. 1066 00:45:07,760 --> 00:45:09,360 Anyway I realised I have a beautiful family at home, 1067 00:45:09,400 --> 00:45:10,400 a beautiful life 1068 00:45:10,440 --> 00:45:11,560 and then maybe my biggest challenge 1069 00:45:11,600 --> 00:45:15,720 was actually to go and be with my kids 1070 00:45:15,760 --> 00:45:17,400 rather than chase this dream of, being in a SAS, 1071 00:45:17,440 --> 00:45:19,200 selection course recruit. 1072 00:45:20,720 --> 00:45:24,040 My kids grew up where I was on a war path all their lives. 1073 00:45:24,080 --> 00:45:26,880 I never (BLEEP) saw them. They didn't know where I was. 1074 00:45:26,920 --> 00:45:28,080 They'd watch the news every night and think, 1075 00:45:28,120 --> 00:45:29,760 (BLEEP) hell, is that my dad? 1076 00:45:29,800 --> 00:45:33,000 You know and but to me, I was doing it for a good reason. 1077 00:45:33,040 --> 00:45:34,520 Not just for me. 1078 00:45:34,560 --> 00:45:36,640 I was doing it to make the world a better (BLEEP) place 1079 00:45:36,680 --> 00:45:38,120 with what I was doing, you know? 1080 00:45:38,720 --> 00:45:39,920 Well I look back on it now 1081 00:45:39,960 --> 00:45:42,760 and I think, oh, I could of spent more time at home. 1082 00:45:42,800 --> 00:45:44,320 And I'm trying to make up that time now. 1083 00:45:44,360 --> 00:45:46,560 So, it's about what's the greater gain? 1084 00:45:48,080 --> 00:45:50,320 You know you're going to go back a better person for your family 1085 00:45:50,360 --> 00:45:52,240 and for you. Exactly that. 1086 00:45:52,280 --> 00:45:53,760 So, as long as you've got that on your mind 1087 00:45:53,800 --> 00:45:55,400 and you're doing it for the right reasons. 1088 00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:57,400 Then it's, it's (BLEEP) worth a sacrifice. 1089 00:46:04,280 --> 00:46:05,360 Number 16. 1090 00:46:05,400 --> 00:46:08,280 Sam joins an exclusive club. 1091 00:46:08,320 --> 00:46:11,640 You have successfully passed this course. 1092 00:46:11,680 --> 00:46:12,680 Thank you, staff. 1093 00:46:12,720 --> 00:46:16,160 It was one of the hardest decisions I think we've ever had to be honest. 1094 00:46:23,480 --> 00:46:26,080 This course will not be for most of you. 1095 00:46:28,120 --> 00:46:29,880 You've got three outs. 1096 00:46:31,320 --> 00:46:35,520 One you VW, you voluntarily withdraw yourself from the course. 1097 00:46:35,560 --> 00:46:38,680 You take your number off and you hand it to one of the DS. 1098 00:46:38,720 --> 00:46:40,400 It's a posh way of saying, I quit. 1099 00:46:41,440 --> 00:46:43,880 Two, we will (BLEEP) you off. We will cull you. 1100 00:46:43,920 --> 00:46:45,800 You're just not good enough. You're too weak. 1101 00:46:46,720 --> 00:46:50,840 The third out, is that you complete this course. 1102 00:46:50,880 --> 00:46:53,040 In the last course, three people passed. 1103 00:46:54,240 --> 00:46:58,040 I'll be shocked if three of you pass this course. 1104 00:47:04,760 --> 00:47:06,920 Passing our selection process, 1105 00:47:06,960 --> 00:47:09,520 it was a hard decision, wasn't it, from the DS? 1106 00:47:10,680 --> 00:47:13,120 Yeah, it was one of the hardest decisions I think we've ever had, 1107 00:47:13,160 --> 00:47:14,400 to be honest. 1108 00:47:14,440 --> 00:47:19,800 'Cause we had, John, Mark and Sam at the end there 1109 00:47:19,840 --> 00:47:22,240 and Jana you just left just before that. 1110 00:47:22,280 --> 00:47:24,400 With Jana it was like, 1111 00:47:24,440 --> 00:47:27,760 we were tearing our teeth out really, weren't we? 1112 00:47:27,800 --> 00:47:30,160 You just give everything and more, you had nothing else to give 1113 00:47:30,200 --> 00:47:32,880 and you put your balls on the line, lady balls as well. 1114 00:47:34,280 --> 00:47:35,520 It was amazing. 1115 00:47:37,760 --> 00:47:38,760 Well done, well done. 1116 00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:40,400 It was a complete roller coaster of anxiety. 1117 00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:41,440 Let's go, come on! 1118 00:47:41,480 --> 00:47:43,800 To incredible accomplishments... 1119 00:47:44,840 --> 00:47:47,120 ..I've learned I'm stronger than I thought was in certain things. 1120 00:47:47,160 --> 00:47:49,720 I've never ever seen a woman do that. 1121 00:47:49,760 --> 00:47:50,760 You're my first! 1122 00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:53,400 That I also have some vulnerabilities 1123 00:47:53,440 --> 00:47:54,440 that I wasn't expecting. 1124 00:47:54,480 --> 00:47:56,240 Oh, embarrassing. 1125 00:47:57,440 --> 00:48:00,160 Particularly, as it got tougher and tougher and tougher towards the end. 1126 00:48:00,200 --> 00:48:03,080 Go faster, faster, let's move! 1127 00:48:04,080 --> 00:48:05,320 Eventually I gave everything I had. 1128 00:48:05,360 --> 00:48:07,080 I pushed as hard as I could. 1129 00:48:09,320 --> 00:48:11,520 So, I don't feel like I've left anything on the ground. 1130 00:48:11,560 --> 00:48:14,080 You deserve this, you deserve this. I, I'm giving everything. 1131 00:48:14,120 --> 00:48:15,880 Come on! Give it everything and more then. 1132 00:48:15,920 --> 00:48:17,360 Yeah, it was just extraordinary. 1133 00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:19,520 Alright absolutely, legendary. 1134 00:48:19,560 --> 00:48:21,880 Thank you. Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant. 1135 00:48:22,720 --> 00:48:24,560 How about you John? 1136 00:48:24,600 --> 00:48:26,120 What was it like being there at the end? 1137 00:48:26,960 --> 00:48:28,200 You having completed the course. 1138 00:48:29,080 --> 00:48:32,520 When you said it was over it was a big relief that the course was done. 1139 00:48:36,040 --> 00:48:38,200 This was totally out of my comfort zone. 1140 00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:41,240 The anxiety was at 10,000 every day. 1141 00:48:41,840 --> 00:48:42,840 Everything left! 1142 00:48:45,040 --> 00:48:46,280 The course breaks you down, 1143 00:48:46,320 --> 00:48:48,240 not only physically, but mentally, emotionally. 1144 00:48:49,760 --> 00:48:51,520 But to be able to complete it was really cool. 1145 00:48:52,640 --> 00:48:53,640 That's why I came on the course, 1146 00:48:53,680 --> 00:48:56,680 to see if I can still go the way I used to as an athlete. 1147 00:48:56,720 --> 00:48:57,880 Move, move, move! 1148 00:48:57,920 --> 00:49:01,760 And I'm walking away humbled, stronger... 1149 00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:06,920 ..and walking away with a different mind-set. 1150 00:49:06,960 --> 00:49:08,120 (JOHN YELLS) 1151 00:49:09,480 --> 00:49:13,320 I didn't miss my goal and I'll jog on a happy man. 1152 00:49:15,240 --> 00:49:17,800 And Mark, to be honest, 1153 00:49:17,840 --> 00:49:22,120 I was like how the (BLEEP) is number 11 still here, right? 1154 00:49:28,240 --> 00:49:31,840 My goal coming in here was, I wanted to complete the course. 1155 00:49:35,880 --> 00:49:39,040 And I honestly felt I had the mind-set. 1156 00:49:40,320 --> 00:49:43,600 Roller coaster, physically, emotionally, psychologically. 1157 00:49:43,640 --> 00:49:45,000 It was incredible. 1158 00:49:45,040 --> 00:49:48,240 Please let them know Daddy's always there by their sides. 1159 00:49:51,280 --> 00:49:52,920 I came here to better myself, 1160 00:49:52,960 --> 00:49:58,120 to upgrade myself and my goal is go back a better father, 1161 00:49:58,160 --> 00:50:01,080 a better husband, a, a better son, a better friend. 1162 00:50:01,120 --> 00:50:03,640 You've achieved that? A 100%. 1163 00:50:03,680 --> 00:50:05,440 This is, without a doubt changed my life. 1164 00:50:08,320 --> 00:50:12,040 I said at the beginning and I don't say it to scare you. 1165 00:50:12,080 --> 00:50:13,280 I don't say it to put you off. 1166 00:50:14,240 --> 00:50:18,200 It is literally most of you, will not pass this course. 1167 00:50:18,240 --> 00:50:22,320 For those of you that passed selection, i.e. Sam. 1168 00:50:22,360 --> 00:50:24,440 What's your biggest learning from it? 1169 00:50:24,480 --> 00:50:28,400 I mean, passing the course I put myself at the end before I started 1170 00:50:28,440 --> 00:50:30,320 and then I figured out... 1171 00:50:30,880 --> 00:50:32,600 Well I tried to figure out what would get me there. 1172 00:50:33,440 --> 00:50:34,640 Go! 1173 00:50:35,640 --> 00:50:36,920 (BLEEP) 1174 00:50:36,960 --> 00:50:38,240 As painful as it was. 1175 00:50:38,280 --> 00:50:40,080 (BLEEP) I've got you, staff. 1176 00:50:40,120 --> 00:50:41,560 I had a wonderful experience. 1177 00:50:41,600 --> 00:50:46,080 Early on during the course I tried to teach my brain to love the hate. 1178 00:50:46,120 --> 00:50:47,800 (GUNSHOTS) 1179 00:50:47,840 --> 00:50:49,600 Stop! Stop! 1180 00:50:52,240 --> 00:50:54,800 Whilst having some fun throughout the tough moments. 1181 00:50:55,840 --> 00:50:56,840 I loved it. 1182 00:50:58,200 --> 00:51:01,200 I've delved as deep as I've ever done into my own personal downfalls, 1183 00:51:01,240 --> 00:51:02,600 my insecurities. 1184 00:51:02,640 --> 00:51:05,360 Two days after I retired, I separated my marriage. 1185 00:51:07,160 --> 00:51:08,640 Yeah. 1186 00:51:08,680 --> 00:51:14,480 My weaknesses, my strengths, made myself more aware of who I was. 1187 00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:18,720 This course was a great platform to do that. 1188 00:51:18,760 --> 00:51:20,400 To see where you can go mind and body. 1189 00:51:21,280 --> 00:51:24,680 I wanted to give you guys respect coming here and do it justice. 1190 00:51:24,720 --> 00:51:26,040 I respect you four men. 1191 00:51:26,080 --> 00:51:27,080 To what you guys have done, 1192 00:51:27,120 --> 00:51:30,120 um pretty, you're all impressive in your own right. 1193 00:51:31,760 --> 00:51:37,320 Sam. Amazing. You were just that level above everyone. 1194 00:51:38,120 --> 00:51:40,360 You know I would of loved to pass all three of you, 1195 00:51:40,400 --> 00:51:41,960 even all four of you. 1196 00:51:42,000 --> 00:51:45,000 But unfortunately you can thank Sam for... 1197 00:51:46,040 --> 00:51:47,040 Your amazing. 1198 00:51:47,080 --> 00:51:49,240 ..for you know just tipping that scale and hats off to you mate. 1199 00:51:49,280 --> 00:51:50,280 Oh, thanks. 1200 00:51:50,320 --> 00:51:53,360 You know, especially with coming in, taking it seriously, 1201 00:51:53,400 --> 00:51:55,640 hats off to the people that came in and took it seriously. 1202 00:51:56,560 --> 00:52:00,120 It's been an absolute pleasure meeting every one of you. 1203 00:52:00,160 --> 00:52:02,480 You know, some we've known for longer than others 1204 00:52:02,520 --> 00:52:05,280 but it's been an, an amazing experience for us well. 1205 00:52:05,320 --> 00:52:07,600 Keep pushing outside that, that comfort zone 1206 00:52:07,640 --> 00:52:09,600 because that's where the growth is. 1207 00:52:09,640 --> 00:52:10,640 Well done. 1208 00:52:10,680 --> 00:52:13,640 To even like consider coming on this is a ballsy move, 1209 00:52:13,680 --> 00:52:15,920 cause you know you've all got profiles 1210 00:52:15,960 --> 00:52:19,240 and to come out on this and expose yourselves like you do 1211 00:52:19,280 --> 00:52:23,880 and you have done is a testament to your courage and yourself really. 1212 00:52:23,920 --> 00:52:26,920 I know you've come on here and a few of you like had self-doubt 1213 00:52:26,960 --> 00:52:29,720 but you believed in yourself to come through those gates, 1214 00:52:29,760 --> 00:52:31,680 so hats off to you there. 1215 00:52:31,720 --> 00:52:34,800 Unbelievable. And then everyone that's finished at different stages. 1216 00:52:34,840 --> 00:52:36,760 You've done it to the best of your ability. 1217 00:52:36,800 --> 00:52:39,520 So, for me I'm impressed with everyone to be fair. 1218 00:52:40,120 --> 00:52:41,840 Every single one of you have stepped through that gate. 1219 00:52:41,880 --> 00:52:43,680 You're all (BLEEP) winners if you want to call it winners. 1220 00:52:43,720 --> 00:52:44,920 All of you. 1221 00:52:44,960 --> 00:52:46,280 This course was an absolute pleasure 1222 00:52:46,320 --> 00:52:48,240 so thank you everyone so much, all of you. 1223 00:52:48,280 --> 00:52:49,280 Sam. 1224 00:52:50,320 --> 00:52:51,400 Congratulations, mate. 1225 00:52:54,440 --> 00:52:56,160 Absolutely outstanding effort. 1226 00:52:58,160 --> 00:52:59,600 I think I learned more in three days 1227 00:52:59,640 --> 00:53:00,760 than in two years of (BLEEP) therapy 1228 00:53:00,800 --> 00:53:02,680 trying to get over all my shit, you know? 1229 00:53:02,720 --> 00:53:07,200 (INDISTINCT CHATTER AMONGST EVERYONE)