1 00:00:01,568 --> 00:00:04,318 (birds chirping) 2 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 3 00:00:06,155 --> 00:00:08,572 (door opens) 4 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 5 00:00:09,488 --> 00:00:12,238 (birds chirping) 6 00:00:14,563 --> 00:00:16,396 - [Woman In Computer] Sounds exiting, 7 00:00:16,396 --> 00:00:17,663 I won't tell her don't worry. 8 00:00:18,798 --> 00:00:22,714 Promise it will just be our little secret. 9 00:00:22,714 --> 00:00:23,790 - Hey hun. 10 00:00:23,790 --> 00:00:25,140 - Hey. 11 00:00:25,140 --> 00:00:26,610 - You come home straight from class? 12 00:00:26,610 --> 00:00:28,870 - Yeah, where else would I be? 13 00:00:28,870 --> 00:00:31,053 - I don't know, I thought you'd text me. 14 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:33,824 - You're too busy. 15 00:00:33,824 --> 00:00:37,037 - What, look babe, I got you all around, 16 00:00:37,037 --> 00:00:39,153 I'm gonna spike it and get you drunk. 17 00:00:40,745 --> 00:00:41,710 Are you jealous or something baby? 18 00:00:41,710 --> 00:00:43,890 - Maybe, maybe 19 00:00:46,573 --> 00:00:48,300 - Honey, you know that you're my girl. 20 00:00:48,300 --> 00:00:49,133 - I better be. 21 00:00:50,237 --> 00:00:52,467 - Mm-hm you are. (laughs) 22 00:00:52,467 --> 00:00:54,820 - Can you take that outside please? 23 00:00:54,820 --> 00:00:57,956 My mom's coming tomorrow, don't you remember? 24 00:00:57,956 --> 00:00:58,958 - That's tomorrow? 25 00:00:58,958 --> 00:00:59,791 - Yeah. 26 00:01:00,667 --> 00:01:02,583 - What do you care if I smoke? You smoke. 27 00:01:02,583 --> 00:01:03,916 - I don't smoke. 28 00:01:07,079 --> 00:01:09,783 - Be who you are, baby. 29 00:01:09,783 --> 00:01:11,157 You're Awesome. 30 00:01:11,157 --> 00:01:12,240 - What? 31 00:01:12,240 --> 00:01:14,651 - You're all snooty because your mom is coming tomorrow. 32 00:01:14,651 --> 00:01:15,484 - What? 33 00:01:15,484 --> 00:01:17,404 - Nothing. - What did you say? 34 00:01:17,404 --> 00:01:19,060 - Jason come back here. 35 00:01:19,060 --> 00:01:21,315 What are you mumbling about? 36 00:01:21,315 --> 00:01:23,281 You're going on and on and on and on. 37 00:01:23,281 --> 00:01:25,815 (door opening) 38 00:01:25,815 --> 00:01:27,232 What did you say? 39 00:01:28,257 --> 00:01:31,340 Jason, come back here, what did you say? 40 00:01:31,340 --> 00:01:32,560 - Enough already. 41 00:01:32,560 --> 00:01:34,370 Got the jerk neighbor playing music all day, 42 00:01:34,370 --> 00:01:35,670 and now you're nagging me. 43 00:01:37,862 --> 00:01:39,862 (sighs) 44 00:01:44,974 --> 00:01:46,324 I thought you didn't smoke. 45 00:01:48,851 --> 00:01:50,598 What time are you going in tonight? 46 00:01:50,598 --> 00:01:52,598 - I'm scheduled at five. 47 00:01:54,394 --> 00:01:56,061 - I'm gonna have some people come over. 48 00:01:56,061 --> 00:01:56,975 - No. - Yes. 49 00:01:56,975 --> 00:01:58,306 - Jason no. 50 00:01:58,306 --> 00:01:59,306 - I need it. 51 00:02:00,222 --> 00:02:02,972 (birds chirping) 52 00:02:05,882 --> 00:02:08,299 (airy music) 53 00:02:16,798 --> 00:02:19,465 (water running) 54 00:02:53,160 --> 00:02:54,792 (birds chirping) 55 00:02:54,792 --> 00:02:56,756 (door knocking) 56 00:02:56,756 --> 00:02:58,006 - Crap, my mom. 57 00:02:59,009 --> 00:03:00,642 (birds chirping) 58 00:03:00,642 --> 00:03:01,475 Oh Jeez. 59 00:03:05,710 --> 00:03:07,943 Stay here and stay quiet until we leave. 60 00:03:12,380 --> 00:03:15,047 (door knocking) 61 00:03:20,120 --> 00:03:22,240 (door opening) 62 00:03:22,240 --> 00:03:23,572 Hey mom. 63 00:03:23,572 --> 00:03:25,282 - Happy birthday dear. 64 00:03:25,282 --> 00:03:26,698 Thank you mom. 65 00:03:26,698 --> 00:03:27,893 - (laughs) You're welcome. 66 00:03:28,920 --> 00:03:30,606 Did you forget? 67 00:03:30,606 --> 00:03:31,840 - No, no, no, no. 68 00:03:31,840 --> 00:03:34,054 Just give me a few minutes, come on. 69 00:03:34,054 --> 00:03:34,964 - You're sure honey- - Yes. 70 00:03:34,964 --> 00:03:36,011 We can do this some other time. 71 00:03:36,011 --> 00:03:37,681 - No, no, no, no, come on in, 72 00:03:37,681 --> 00:03:38,514 come on in, I'm ready. - Okay. 73 00:03:39,794 --> 00:03:41,750 (door shuts) 74 00:03:41,750 --> 00:03:43,917 - Hey mom, I'm really sorry, 75 00:03:43,917 --> 00:03:46,515 I thought you were coming later. 76 00:03:46,515 --> 00:03:48,130 - That's okay. 77 00:03:48,130 --> 00:03:50,639 Looks like you had a birthday party last night. 78 00:03:50,639 --> 00:03:54,293 - Yeah, yeah. 79 00:03:55,550 --> 00:03:59,040 - Amy nurses don't smoke. 80 00:03:59,040 --> 00:04:01,490 - I know mom, they are not mine, they're Jason's. 81 00:04:03,641 --> 00:04:04,770 - Okay. 82 00:04:04,770 --> 00:04:06,556 - Okay, let's go get some breakfast. 83 00:04:06,556 --> 00:04:07,556 - All right. 84 00:04:10,883 --> 00:04:13,966 (indistinct chatter) 85 00:04:22,030 --> 00:04:24,090 You know your dad wanted to come, 86 00:04:24,090 --> 00:04:26,673 and well, Jenny had practice. 87 00:04:27,978 --> 00:04:29,145 - That's okay. 88 00:04:31,393 --> 00:04:33,140 - Hey, how's school. 89 00:04:33,140 --> 00:04:34,100 - It's good, 90 00:04:34,100 --> 00:04:36,520 I'm just I'm ready for this semester to be over, 91 00:04:36,520 --> 00:04:38,610 you know, yeah. (mom laughs) 92 00:04:38,610 --> 00:04:40,240 - So do you have any plans 93 00:04:40,240 --> 00:04:42,050 to work at the restaurant this summer? 94 00:04:42,050 --> 00:04:43,193 - Probably, yeah. 95 00:04:44,440 --> 00:04:46,474 - So no summer school? 96 00:04:46,474 --> 00:04:47,724 - I don't know. 97 00:04:50,913 --> 00:04:52,860 - Have you given any more thought 98 00:04:52,860 --> 00:04:55,460 about going on vacation with your dad and me? 99 00:04:55,460 --> 00:04:56,440 - I don't know mom. 100 00:04:56,440 --> 00:04:59,540 - Hey, this year we rented a house on the beach. 101 00:04:59,540 --> 00:05:01,470 I mean, not even near the beach, 102 00:05:01,470 --> 00:05:03,453 it is on the beach. 103 00:05:04,803 --> 00:05:06,630 And will really do you a lot to good to go, 104 00:05:06,630 --> 00:05:08,299 you should think about it. 105 00:05:08,299 --> 00:05:11,682 - I don't know mom. (scoffs) 106 00:05:11,682 --> 00:05:14,083 I just have so much going on right now. 107 00:05:15,665 --> 00:05:18,748 (indistinct chatter) 108 00:05:21,890 --> 00:05:23,820 - How's Jason? 109 00:05:23,820 --> 00:05:24,653 - He's fine. 110 00:05:27,687 --> 00:05:30,390 - Do you have any big birthday plans? 111 00:05:30,390 --> 00:05:31,300 - I don't know. 112 00:05:31,300 --> 00:05:33,500 Honestly, I think he forgot. 113 00:05:33,500 --> 00:05:36,420 - Well, when he wakes up and sees the gift and the cake, 114 00:05:36,420 --> 00:05:37,810 I'm sure that will remind him. 115 00:05:37,810 --> 00:05:39,710 - Mom, he's not living- - Amy don't. 116 00:05:42,887 --> 00:05:47,293 - I'm just ready for life to start, you know? 117 00:05:48,620 --> 00:05:50,270 - Can I tell you something honey, 118 00:05:52,440 --> 00:05:54,243 it's already started. 119 00:05:56,091 --> 00:05:59,654 (indistinct chatter) 120 00:05:59,654 --> 00:06:02,237 (upbeat music) 121 00:06:06,430 --> 00:06:08,450 - So you're working tomorrow? 122 00:06:08,450 --> 00:06:09,283 - No, not tomorrow, 123 00:06:09,283 --> 00:06:10,460 tomorrow is actually my birthday. 124 00:06:10,460 --> 00:06:11,680 But I'll be here on Sunday. 125 00:06:11,680 --> 00:06:13,893 - Are you asking me to come back on Sunday? 126 00:06:13,893 --> 00:06:16,051 - No, that depends on your tip. 127 00:06:16,051 --> 00:06:16,976 (both chuckle) 128 00:06:16,976 --> 00:06:19,170 - I'll tell you what, why don't you come and see me. 129 00:06:19,170 --> 00:06:22,590 The hotel I'm staying at has a bar and lobby, 130 00:06:22,590 --> 00:06:26,240 and I have a little mini bar in the room. 131 00:06:26,240 --> 00:06:28,880 (upbeat music) 132 00:06:28,880 --> 00:06:30,590 - Well, I don't know what my boyfriend 133 00:06:30,590 --> 00:06:31,460 will have to say about this. 134 00:06:31,460 --> 00:06:33,804 Between this place and nursing school, 135 00:06:33,804 --> 00:06:35,012 I just don't think I have the time. 136 00:06:35,012 --> 00:06:37,629 But I'm flattered, thank you. 137 00:06:37,629 --> 00:06:40,212 (upbeat music) 138 00:06:43,670 --> 00:06:46,253 (upbeat music) 139 00:07:09,755 --> 00:07:13,255 (indistinct conversation) 140 00:07:17,599 --> 00:07:19,932 - Jason, what are you doing? 141 00:07:21,547 --> 00:07:24,380 (Jason mumbling) 142 00:07:24,380 --> 00:07:25,710 - Get out of here, you're such a jerk. 143 00:07:25,710 --> 00:07:26,750 - What are you talking about? 144 00:07:26,750 --> 00:07:29,580 Would you just stop talking to her about her job. 145 00:07:29,580 --> 00:07:31,230 - Just go, I'm done, go. 146 00:07:31,230 --> 00:07:32,063 - Come on. 147 00:07:33,410 --> 00:07:36,930 - I thought we were happy. (scoffs) 148 00:07:36,930 --> 00:07:39,893 You know, like a normal couple. 149 00:07:43,360 --> 00:07:45,363 All I ever wanted was to be happy. 150 00:07:46,329 --> 00:07:49,040 (eerie music) 151 00:07:49,040 --> 00:07:54,040 Like on TV, happy and in love. 152 00:07:57,660 --> 00:08:00,743 Jason was supposed to be my knight in shining armor. 153 00:08:02,380 --> 00:08:04,423 He was supposed to come and save me. 154 00:08:06,129 --> 00:08:08,279 - [Counselor] Save you, save you from what? 155 00:08:10,250 --> 00:08:11,379 - Myself. 156 00:08:11,379 --> 00:08:12,858 (eerie music) 157 00:08:12,858 --> 00:08:15,275 (Amy crying) 158 00:08:16,170 --> 00:08:17,773 - What a night, 159 00:08:17,773 --> 00:08:18,856 Amy, what are you doing? 160 00:08:18,856 --> 00:08:19,689 Come on. 161 00:08:20,600 --> 00:08:23,477 - If you wanna be with her so bad, 162 00:08:23,477 --> 00:08:24,814 just go be with her. 163 00:08:24,814 --> 00:08:25,970 - Oh my God, would you stop? 164 00:08:25,970 --> 00:08:28,330 Everyone was worried about you, come on. 165 00:08:28,330 --> 00:08:30,720 - You're just such a loser. 166 00:08:30,720 --> 00:08:32,652 Just get out, just leave. 167 00:08:32,652 --> 00:08:35,840 - You are overreacting like usual, stop. 168 00:08:35,840 --> 00:08:39,798 - I'm overreacting, you practically had your tongue 169 00:08:39,798 --> 00:08:41,000 down her throat last night. 170 00:08:41,000 --> 00:08:41,990 - You are so blind. 171 00:08:41,990 --> 00:08:44,420 She is a friend, just a friend. 172 00:08:44,420 --> 00:08:45,690 You got plenty of guy friends, 173 00:08:45,690 --> 00:08:47,812 you don't see me freaking out. 174 00:08:47,812 --> 00:08:48,730 Now get a grip and come on. 175 00:08:48,730 --> 00:08:50,350 - Don't you dare turn this around on me. 176 00:08:50,350 --> 00:08:51,460 - Just a friend. 177 00:08:51,460 --> 00:08:54,301 - Jason, you need to get out. God you are unbelievable. 178 00:08:54,301 --> 00:08:55,259 - Just shut up- 179 00:08:55,259 --> 00:08:57,342 - No I'm not gonna calm down. 180 00:08:57,342 --> 00:08:58,675 - Oh my God. - No. 181 00:08:58,675 --> 00:08:59,508 Ouch. 182 00:08:59,508 --> 00:09:01,030 - Could you just calm down for once. 183 00:09:01,030 --> 00:09:02,813 - Yeah, hello, I need the police. 184 00:09:04,000 --> 00:09:06,250 I think my neighbor's beating his girlfriend. 185 00:09:07,457 --> 00:09:10,207 (birds chirping) 186 00:09:13,551 --> 00:09:14,844 (door opening) 187 00:09:14,844 --> 00:09:16,010 (door knock) 188 00:09:16,010 --> 00:09:17,092 - You're unbelievable. 189 00:09:17,092 --> 00:09:18,180 - No I want you out. - There you see what you did? 190 00:09:18,180 --> 00:09:19,383 - I want you out, leave. - Calm down Amy. 191 00:09:19,383 --> 00:09:20,403 Calm down - Leave, just leave. 192 00:09:20,403 --> 00:09:23,350 - Calm down Amy, just calm down. 193 00:09:23,350 --> 00:09:25,620 Just gonna freak out now look what's going on. 194 00:09:25,620 --> 00:09:26,760 Hey officer. - What's going on? 195 00:09:26,760 --> 00:09:28,320 Nothing, nothing, I'm sure they called. 196 00:09:28,320 --> 00:09:30,103 They're loud all the time. 197 00:09:36,580 --> 00:09:38,198 We're just having an argument. 198 00:09:38,198 --> 00:09:39,740 - Turn around, turn around. 199 00:09:39,740 --> 00:09:42,610 - Turn around for what are you kidding me? 200 00:09:42,610 --> 00:09:44,043 This is what you want Amy? 201 00:09:44,991 --> 00:09:47,408 (Amy crying) 202 00:09:48,249 --> 00:09:52,132 You're creep, you're gonna regret this. 203 00:09:52,132 --> 00:09:54,549 (Amy crying) 204 00:09:58,153 --> 00:09:59,403 - Are you okay? 205 00:10:01,360 --> 00:10:02,210 - Yeah, I'm fine. 206 00:10:03,120 --> 00:10:04,600 - Stay safe. 207 00:10:04,600 --> 00:10:05,433 - Thanks. 208 00:10:06,537 --> 00:10:09,287 (birds chirping) 209 00:10:10,816 --> 00:10:14,066 (door opens and shuts) 210 00:10:15,840 --> 00:10:18,929 - That was the first time that he hit me, 211 00:10:18,929 --> 00:10:20,090 (eerie music) 212 00:10:20,090 --> 00:10:21,603 at least that I can remember. 213 00:10:24,580 --> 00:10:27,463 After that it just kind of became routine. 214 00:10:29,780 --> 00:10:30,713 I thought that, 215 00:10:31,643 --> 00:10:34,063 that was his way of showing me that he cared. 216 00:10:36,004 --> 00:10:38,610 (water running) 217 00:10:38,610 --> 00:10:42,299 I mean if he got angry and he was showing emotion 218 00:10:42,299 --> 00:10:44,033 then he must love me. 219 00:10:47,973 --> 00:10:50,392 And I learned that any kind any kind of attention 220 00:10:50,392 --> 00:10:52,353 meant that somebody cares. 221 00:10:54,890 --> 00:10:59,053 And that love has a lot of different faces. 222 00:10:59,960 --> 00:11:04,253 Ones that smile, ones that laugh, ones that cry, 223 00:11:07,988 --> 00:11:10,070 and ones that scream. 224 00:11:10,070 --> 00:11:13,320 (eerie music) 225 00:11:13,320 --> 00:11:16,820 (indistinct conversation) 226 00:11:18,151 --> 00:11:20,651 (eerie music) 227 00:11:45,143 --> 00:11:48,310 (indistinct argument) 228 00:12:07,800 --> 00:12:11,623 And after Jason got arrested, he left me. 229 00:12:12,800 --> 00:12:14,800 I don't know, maybe it was for the best. 230 00:12:18,089 --> 00:12:20,433 I just felt so broken after he left, 231 00:12:22,810 --> 00:12:27,543 hopeless and I just wanted to die. 232 00:12:29,750 --> 00:12:31,633 I felt like a piece of me had died. 233 00:12:35,180 --> 00:12:38,710 Anyway, not long after that, I passed my finals 234 00:12:38,710 --> 00:12:41,103 and I got a new roommate, 235 00:12:42,260 --> 00:12:44,660 and I thought that that was gonna fill the void. 236 00:12:46,830 --> 00:12:48,580 And things were better for a while. 237 00:12:50,410 --> 00:12:52,573 Marsha, that's my roommate, 238 00:12:54,090 --> 00:12:55,953 she was a psychology major, 239 00:12:57,120 --> 00:13:00,933 and she liked her privacy so we got along just fine. 240 00:13:01,856 --> 00:13:03,902 (airy music) 241 00:13:03,902 --> 00:13:05,493 - Well, for a while. 242 00:13:09,440 --> 00:13:10,983 - Hey, you okay? 243 00:13:12,270 --> 00:13:13,103 - I'm fine. 244 00:13:19,828 --> 00:13:23,150 I'm just going through some summer clothes, 245 00:13:23,150 --> 00:13:25,033 trying to get ready for the season. 246 00:13:25,980 --> 00:13:28,463 - Well, what can I do tell you today? 247 00:13:29,340 --> 00:13:30,173 - What? 248 00:13:31,610 --> 00:13:33,530 - I just noticed you're a bit down. 249 00:13:33,530 --> 00:13:37,360 And do you want to see a movie? 250 00:13:37,360 --> 00:13:38,193 - No. 251 00:13:42,000 --> 00:13:43,100 - This is really cute. 252 00:13:46,484 --> 00:13:47,834 - I know what you're doing, 253 00:13:49,060 --> 00:13:52,119 saying nice things, trying to be helpful. 254 00:13:52,119 --> 00:13:52,952 - What? 255 00:13:52,952 --> 00:13:54,853 - I took psychology in nursing school. 256 00:13:55,800 --> 00:13:58,053 I don't need your help, I'm not your patient. 257 00:14:11,302 --> 00:14:13,719 (airy music) 258 00:14:18,156 --> 00:14:21,303 And I thought about dating, you know, on the rebound. 259 00:14:22,350 --> 00:14:23,950 I thought maybe that would help. 260 00:14:26,264 --> 00:14:28,681 (airy music) 261 00:14:59,341 --> 00:15:03,174 (crowd cheering and laughing) 262 00:15:20,272 --> 00:15:22,620 - So what, you wanna be a loser your whole life? 263 00:15:22,620 --> 00:15:25,080 Is that the kind of daughter I raised? 264 00:15:25,080 --> 00:15:25,913 Get up. 265 00:15:27,366 --> 00:15:29,783 (airy music) 266 00:15:33,759 --> 00:15:36,023 (water running) 267 00:15:36,023 --> 00:15:38,440 (Amy crying) 268 00:15:47,633 --> 00:15:49,410 - Are you okay? 269 00:15:49,410 --> 00:15:50,313 - [Amy] Go away. 270 00:15:51,974 --> 00:15:54,029 (water running) 271 00:15:54,029 --> 00:15:56,990 (Amy crying) 272 00:15:56,990 --> 00:16:01,990 - [Inner voices] They hate you, I hate you, I hate myself 273 00:16:03,628 --> 00:16:07,003 you're all alone, everyone hates you. 274 00:16:07,003 --> 00:16:07,836 Go away. 275 00:16:09,890 --> 00:16:11,640 And then there was a friend at school 276 00:16:11,640 --> 00:16:13,063 that gave me some pills, 277 00:16:14,229 --> 00:16:16,953 and they told me that it would take the edge off. 278 00:16:18,512 --> 00:16:20,929 (airy music) 279 00:16:22,330 --> 00:16:23,880 They helped for a little while. 280 00:16:26,072 --> 00:16:28,489 (airy music) 281 00:16:29,470 --> 00:16:32,823 I felt like I was living in a dream or a nightmare. 282 00:16:37,570 --> 00:16:39,393 I couldn't feel anything. 283 00:16:40,920 --> 00:16:42,223 I was just numb. 284 00:16:43,580 --> 00:16:45,010 (airy music) 285 00:16:45,010 --> 00:16:47,773 I didn't feel alive, I didn't feel dead, 286 00:16:49,790 --> 00:16:51,313 I was just existing. 287 00:16:52,827 --> 00:16:55,244 (airy music) 288 00:17:00,897 --> 00:17:05,230 So I started going to bars every night and partying, 289 00:17:08,110 --> 00:17:12,303 just doing whatever I could to feel something. 290 00:17:15,651 --> 00:17:17,451 I was just spiraling out of control. 291 00:17:23,927 --> 00:17:27,010 I really didn't care whether I lived, 292 00:17:27,964 --> 00:17:29,464 or whether I died. 293 00:17:31,008 --> 00:17:33,425 (airy music) 294 00:17:37,296 --> 00:17:38,295 - [Mom] Your major is? 295 00:17:38,295 --> 00:17:39,128 - [Marsha] Psychology. 296 00:17:39,128 --> 00:17:42,086 - [Mom] Phycology, well what does this subject 297 00:17:42,086 --> 00:17:43,600 have to do with your psychology? 298 00:17:43,600 --> 00:17:45,270 - [Marsha] Well I'm taking sociology- 299 00:17:45,270 --> 00:17:46,433 - [Mom] Oh I see. 300 00:17:50,922 --> 00:17:52,473 - So what does this have to do with your major? 301 00:18:01,010 --> 00:18:02,370 - So your major is? 302 00:18:02,370 --> 00:18:03,203 - Psychology. 303 00:18:03,203 --> 00:18:07,753 - Psychology, okay, so what does this have to do? 304 00:18:10,500 --> 00:18:11,333 Hi honey. 305 00:18:13,390 --> 00:18:15,373 I brought you girls some lunch. 306 00:18:16,667 --> 00:18:17,943 I made chicken salad. 307 00:18:20,860 --> 00:18:22,123 - Why are you here? 308 00:18:23,460 --> 00:18:25,430 - I made you lunch. 309 00:18:25,430 --> 00:18:26,487 - I'm not hungry. 310 00:18:27,637 --> 00:18:30,070 - Honey, when was the last time you ate? 311 00:18:30,070 --> 00:18:32,713 - Yesterday actually, I had some wings. 312 00:18:34,040 --> 00:18:35,650 - You don't look too good, 313 00:18:35,650 --> 00:18:37,440 you need to eat something. 314 00:18:37,440 --> 00:18:38,393 - Gee, thanks mom. 315 00:18:40,660 --> 00:18:45,660 - Listen, Amy, your dad and I are worried about you. 316 00:18:47,520 --> 00:18:48,353 - Why? 317 00:18:49,490 --> 00:18:53,048 - Well, just sit down, eat. 318 00:18:53,048 --> 00:18:54,310 - I told you will not hungry. 319 00:18:54,310 --> 00:18:59,070 - We'll, just sit down so I can talk to you, okay. 320 00:18:59,070 --> 00:18:59,903 Thank you. 321 00:19:09,720 --> 00:19:11,053 - Okay, mom, what's up? 322 00:19:12,075 --> 00:19:17,075 - Well (clears throat) there's really no easy way 323 00:19:17,090 --> 00:19:20,263 to ask this but to just ask it. 324 00:19:21,260 --> 00:19:23,803 The other night, when you stayed over, 325 00:19:25,890 --> 00:19:28,763 well your dad's handgun was in the nightstand, 326 00:19:29,900 --> 00:19:30,793 it's missing. 327 00:19:32,759 --> 00:19:35,176 (airy music) 328 00:19:52,425 --> 00:19:55,175 (drawer opening) 329 00:19:59,887 --> 00:20:01,727 - And you think I took it? 330 00:20:01,727 --> 00:20:03,510 - Well, I don't know, I hope not. 331 00:20:03,510 --> 00:20:06,950 - Geez mom, I'm not suicidal. 332 00:20:06,950 --> 00:20:08,607 - I was not suggesting that you are. 333 00:20:08,607 --> 00:20:10,080 - I'm not gonna kill myself. 334 00:20:10,080 --> 00:20:11,683 - I don't know that. 335 00:20:13,690 --> 00:20:16,980 Honey you don't understand, 336 00:20:16,980 --> 00:20:18,923 depression is real. 337 00:20:20,910 --> 00:20:23,053 It runs in our family. 338 00:20:24,230 --> 00:20:26,693 You need to get some help. 339 00:20:27,580 --> 00:20:29,823 - I'm not depressed. 340 00:20:30,859 --> 00:20:32,270 What about Jenny? 341 00:20:32,270 --> 00:20:34,090 Jenny could have taken it, 342 00:20:34,090 --> 00:20:35,854 she's there with you all the time. 343 00:20:35,854 --> 00:20:37,858 - She couldn't have taken it. 344 00:20:37,858 --> 00:20:38,691 - What? 345 00:20:38,691 --> 00:20:40,883 Who do you think you are? 346 00:20:41,754 --> 00:20:44,850 What is going on here? 347 00:20:44,850 --> 00:20:48,320 Who do you think you are going through my stuff? 348 00:20:48,320 --> 00:20:50,570 Y'all need to get out. 349 00:20:50,570 --> 00:20:54,083 - No, you need to sit down. 350 00:20:55,690 --> 00:20:56,543 Sit. 351 00:21:04,385 --> 00:21:06,760 Now, you have two choices, 352 00:21:06,760 --> 00:21:07,593 okay? 353 00:21:08,980 --> 00:21:11,465 You can either go to our church and get- 354 00:21:11,465 --> 00:21:12,965 - Church? - Listen! 355 00:21:13,870 --> 00:21:17,263 You either go to our church and get some help, 356 00:21:21,180 --> 00:21:23,000 or I call the police 357 00:21:23,000 --> 00:21:26,000 and have you arrested for stealing your father's gun? 358 00:21:26,000 --> 00:21:27,936 - You wouldn't do that, 359 00:21:27,936 --> 00:21:29,579 dad would never go for that. 360 00:21:29,579 --> 00:21:30,780 - Oh yes he would, it was his idea. 361 00:21:30,780 --> 00:21:32,070 - Where is he? 362 00:21:32,070 --> 00:21:33,370 - Just listened to me Amy. 363 00:21:34,840 --> 00:21:37,770 Just like you and your dad suffered terribly 364 00:21:37,770 --> 00:21:39,913 from depression when he was a young man. 365 00:21:42,800 --> 00:21:43,633 Please. 366 00:21:46,830 --> 00:21:50,620 - Mom I told you, I'm not depressed. 367 00:21:50,620 --> 00:21:53,070 - You are a textbook case of depression. 368 00:21:53,070 --> 00:21:54,970 - You need to shut up. 369 00:21:54,970 --> 00:21:56,623 Didn't I tell you to leave. 370 00:21:58,627 --> 00:22:02,460 - You go to the church, 371 00:22:02,460 --> 00:22:04,140 and you talked to the pastor, 372 00:22:04,140 --> 00:22:06,210 you talk to a counselor, 373 00:22:06,210 --> 00:22:08,713 just talk to somebody who can help you. 374 00:22:10,192 --> 00:22:12,609 (airy music) 375 00:22:14,300 --> 00:22:16,852 (birds chirping) 376 00:22:16,852 --> 00:22:20,269 - [Amy] Part of me knew my mom was right. 377 00:22:21,640 --> 00:22:23,513 Maybe God was the answer. 378 00:22:26,536 --> 00:22:28,560 I don't know. 379 00:22:28,560 --> 00:22:30,283 I just know I needed a change. 380 00:22:31,240 --> 00:22:33,703 I needed to change something in my life. 381 00:22:34,748 --> 00:22:36,340 (birds chirping) 382 00:22:36,340 --> 00:22:40,283 But then there was this part of me that just couldn't do it. 383 00:22:41,419 --> 00:22:43,484 (airy music) 384 00:22:43,484 --> 00:22:44,734 It was strange. 385 00:22:46,310 --> 00:22:49,643 It was like I had this out of body experience, 386 00:22:53,823 --> 00:22:56,731 and I could actually see myself. 387 00:22:56,731 --> 00:22:59,730 (car engine roaring) 388 00:22:59,730 --> 00:23:01,320 I could see myself run away. 389 00:23:09,249 --> 00:23:11,023 (upbeat music) 390 00:23:11,023 --> 00:23:11,856 - Are you okay? 391 00:23:28,590 --> 00:23:30,390 - Excuse me ma'am, are you Amy Self? 392 00:23:33,385 --> 00:23:34,218 - Yes. 393 00:23:34,218 --> 00:23:36,170 - I'm Chief Officer of the police department. 394 00:23:36,170 --> 00:23:37,240 I have a warrant for your arrest, 395 00:23:37,240 --> 00:23:39,043 Theft of a firearm from your family. 396 00:23:40,943 --> 00:23:43,059 Stand up from your chair for me, 397 00:23:43,059 --> 00:23:45,074 put you hand behind you back. 398 00:23:45,074 --> 00:23:48,209 (Amy crying) 399 00:23:48,209 --> 00:23:50,376 - This can't be happening, 400 00:23:51,263 --> 00:23:54,613 I cant believe they actually called the police. 401 00:23:58,529 --> 00:24:00,946 (Amy crying) 402 00:24:08,295 --> 00:24:10,878 (upbeat music) 403 00:24:19,189 --> 00:24:22,050 - Hey Jason, Amy just got arrested, 404 00:24:22,050 --> 00:24:23,850 you may need to pick her up at jail. 405 00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:30,210 - Well, I did it, 406 00:24:30,210 --> 00:24:31,943 I was officially a criminal. 407 00:24:33,940 --> 00:24:37,823 I was arrested, charged with a felony, 408 00:24:39,550 --> 00:24:42,654 my life had completely gone to hell. 409 00:24:42,654 --> 00:24:45,071 (airy music) 410 00:24:46,040 --> 00:24:47,740 It couldn't have gotten any worse. 411 00:24:50,890 --> 00:24:52,403 I wish I had to use that gun. 412 00:24:55,490 --> 00:24:58,803 They say that it's always the darkest before the light, 413 00:25:00,800 --> 00:25:01,983 well, my light came. 414 00:25:04,510 --> 00:25:05,833 At least I thought it did. 415 00:25:09,080 --> 00:25:09,913 - Hey. 416 00:25:11,436 --> 00:25:12,644 - What are you doing here? 417 00:25:12,644 --> 00:25:14,393 - I got a call from the bar, what's going on? 418 00:25:15,506 --> 00:25:16,657 - You shouldn't be here. 419 00:25:16,657 --> 00:25:18,893 - Hey, listen, Amy, I love you. 420 00:25:19,950 --> 00:25:21,023 I'm sorry. 421 00:25:22,580 --> 00:25:25,160 I know that we are meant to be together, 422 00:25:25,160 --> 00:25:28,000 just please give me another chance. 423 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:29,200 We could start our life. 424 00:25:35,260 --> 00:25:36,093 Come on. 425 00:25:42,220 --> 00:25:44,040 - Are you living out of your car? 426 00:25:44,040 --> 00:25:45,930 - No I'm just busy, 427 00:25:45,930 --> 00:25:47,907 I'll move stuff around, don't worry. 428 00:25:47,907 --> 00:25:48,740 Come on. 429 00:25:56,365 --> 00:25:57,198 (Any chuckles) 430 00:25:57,198 --> 00:25:58,240 - What's that? 431 00:25:58,240 --> 00:26:00,245 - My roommate's moving out. 432 00:26:00,245 --> 00:26:01,090 - You're looking to rent a room? 433 00:26:01,090 --> 00:26:01,933 - Please stop. 434 00:26:02,916 --> 00:26:03,749 - What? 435 00:26:03,749 --> 00:26:05,240 - Do you have any idea what happened? 436 00:26:05,240 --> 00:26:07,040 Do you know what you put me through? 437 00:26:08,500 --> 00:26:10,730 Jason almost killed myself, 438 00:26:10,730 --> 00:26:12,312 I had my dad's gun. 439 00:26:12,312 --> 00:26:14,275 - What. 440 00:26:14,275 --> 00:26:18,820 - When you left, life went crazy, 441 00:26:18,820 --> 00:26:20,250 I went crazy. 442 00:26:20,250 --> 00:26:23,240 My parents went crazy, they had me arrested. 443 00:26:23,240 --> 00:26:25,640 Everybody was so worried about me. 444 00:26:25,640 --> 00:26:27,720 And now you're here. 445 00:26:27,720 --> 00:26:29,640 And what, you're just gonna leave again 446 00:26:29,640 --> 00:26:32,160 for another 20 year old Tara 447 00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:33,597 or Tory or whatever her name is. 448 00:26:33,597 --> 00:26:35,843 - No I left her to be with you. 449 00:26:37,540 --> 00:26:40,090 Why do you think all my stuff was packed in my car. 450 00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:42,750 When I heard you were in trouble, 451 00:26:42,750 --> 00:26:45,563 I wanted to come and help you, rescue you. 452 00:26:46,702 --> 00:26:48,720 I wanna be your knight in shining armor. 453 00:26:48,720 --> 00:26:49,553 - But. 454 00:26:49,553 --> 00:26:51,540 - We can do this, we can get through it. 455 00:26:51,540 --> 00:26:53,630 We don't need your parents. 456 00:26:53,630 --> 00:26:55,370 We can do this. 457 00:26:55,370 --> 00:26:56,257 I'm here now. 458 00:26:57,105 --> 00:26:57,938 - But- 459 00:27:01,164 --> 00:27:02,236 - Okay? 460 00:27:02,236 --> 00:27:03,069 - Okay. 461 00:27:03,069 --> 00:27:03,902 - Yeah? 462 00:27:03,902 --> 00:27:04,735 - Yeah. 463 00:27:04,735 --> 00:27:06,401 All right, good. - I'm gonna go take a bath. 464 00:27:06,401 --> 00:27:07,910 - Okay. 465 00:27:07,910 --> 00:27:11,150 I'm gonna unpack and then I will cook us dinner. 466 00:27:11,150 --> 00:27:13,950 Then we can watch a movie and chill out. 467 00:27:13,950 --> 00:27:16,050 and we'll figure it all out tomorrow. 468 00:27:16,050 --> 00:27:17,130 - I have court tomorrow. 469 00:27:17,130 --> 00:27:19,120 - We'll figure that out too. 470 00:27:19,120 --> 00:27:19,953 - Okay. 471 00:27:20,860 --> 00:27:21,693 - Okay. 472 00:27:27,129 --> 00:27:29,879 (birds chirping) 473 00:27:33,930 --> 00:27:35,387 - Hey neighbor, I'm back. 474 00:27:37,812 --> 00:27:38,645 What's he going to do? 475 00:27:38,645 --> 00:27:39,510 Call the cops again? 476 00:27:40,568 --> 00:27:41,401 - Leave her alone. 477 00:27:41,401 --> 00:27:42,710 - Hey you'll be seeing more of me boy. 478 00:27:43,661 --> 00:27:46,911 (door opens and shuts) 479 00:27:48,200 --> 00:27:49,283 (water running) 480 00:27:49,283 --> 00:27:50,616 (Jason knocks) 481 00:27:50,616 --> 00:27:52,880 - Honey, you okay? 482 00:27:52,880 --> 00:27:54,240 - [Amy] Yeah, I'm fine. 483 00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:55,790 - You sure? 484 00:27:55,790 --> 00:27:56,623 - [Amy] Yes. 485 00:27:57,520 --> 00:27:59,970 - You don't need any help with your back, do you? 486 00:28:01,547 --> 00:28:03,170 - [Amy] No, I said I'm fine. 487 00:28:03,170 --> 00:28:04,173 - All right, okay. 488 00:28:09,747 --> 00:28:11,047 - [Amy] But I wasn't fine. 489 00:28:13,340 --> 00:28:15,593 Everything seemed like it was right again. 490 00:28:16,710 --> 00:28:18,073 Jason was back. 491 00:28:19,940 --> 00:28:22,653 My life was on the right track. 492 00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:26,807 But I wasn't, my mind wasn't. 493 00:28:31,340 --> 00:28:33,257 I felt that the slipping away, 494 00:28:33,257 --> 00:28:35,630 (crying) 495 00:28:35,630 --> 00:28:38,193 Slipping into a very dark place. 496 00:28:39,238 --> 00:28:41,738 (eerie music) 497 00:28:42,853 --> 00:28:45,683 A place of no return. 498 00:29:09,851 --> 00:29:11,204 - Hi honey 499 00:29:11,204 --> 00:29:12,037 - Hi mom. 500 00:29:14,334 --> 00:29:16,220 - Your dad and I dropped the charges. 501 00:29:16,220 --> 00:29:17,173 - Thank you. 502 00:29:18,510 --> 00:29:20,510 - Can I speak to you alone for a moment? 503 00:29:21,629 --> 00:29:22,462 - Yeah. 504 00:29:29,615 --> 00:29:30,670 - I'm so sorry this all happened. 505 00:29:30,670 --> 00:29:31,823 - I'm sorry too mom. 506 00:29:32,780 --> 00:29:34,693 - Your dad isn't handling it too well. 507 00:29:35,755 --> 00:29:37,138 - I'm not either. 508 00:29:37,138 --> 00:29:37,971 - I'm sorry. 509 00:29:37,971 --> 00:29:39,760 And what about Jason? 510 00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:40,710 - He bailed me out. 511 00:29:43,316 --> 00:29:45,400 - Is he moving in with you? 512 00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:46,233 - Mom. 513 00:29:46,233 --> 00:29:48,357 - Honey, you're twenty-five years old, 514 00:29:48,357 --> 00:29:50,934 and you can make your own choices. 515 00:29:50,934 --> 00:29:52,580 But I just want you to know 516 00:29:52,580 --> 00:29:55,653 that I love you and your dad loves you. 517 00:29:57,180 --> 00:30:00,170 And we will be here for you no matter what. 518 00:30:00,170 --> 00:30:01,003 Okay? 519 00:30:05,026 --> 00:30:08,859 I wanted to talk to you about your depression. 520 00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:11,713 Honey please, 521 00:30:12,870 --> 00:30:16,223 I've done my homework and I suggest that you do too. 522 00:30:19,710 --> 00:30:22,253 Depression isn't a sign of weakness, honey. 523 00:30:23,290 --> 00:30:24,123 You know what? 524 00:30:24,123 --> 00:30:27,520 You can not "I'm fine" your way out of it. 525 00:30:27,520 --> 00:30:28,530 Okay? 526 00:30:28,530 --> 00:30:30,723 This horrible thing is a disorder. 527 00:30:33,592 --> 00:30:37,203 It's a disease that runs in our family. 528 00:30:38,407 --> 00:30:40,320 (airy music) 529 00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:43,090 You see your father many years ago 530 00:30:43,090 --> 00:30:47,430 had this disease, depression. 531 00:30:47,430 --> 00:30:49,973 It was so severe, he turned to drinking. 532 00:30:51,690 --> 00:30:54,973 I couldn't reach him, no one could. 533 00:30:56,570 --> 00:31:00,003 He became violent, abusive. 534 00:31:01,780 --> 00:31:03,613 We almost got a divorce. 535 00:31:05,200 --> 00:31:08,823 The only thing that kept us together was you. 536 00:31:10,430 --> 00:31:13,660 Back then little was known about depression, 537 00:31:13,660 --> 00:31:16,240 we had few choices for help. 538 00:31:16,240 --> 00:31:17,963 But one thing did help, 539 00:31:19,160 --> 00:31:20,293 he found God. 540 00:31:22,210 --> 00:31:25,630 God changed him into the man he is today, 541 00:31:25,630 --> 00:31:27,793 a loving and caring man. 542 00:31:30,710 --> 00:31:34,923 To this day, he carries the guilt of your illness. 543 00:31:38,090 --> 00:31:40,803 Please, please promise me, 544 00:31:42,000 --> 00:31:43,873 you'll get some help, okay? 545 00:31:46,097 --> 00:31:48,327 - Okay mom, I will. 546 00:31:48,327 --> 00:31:51,680 - Okay honey. (sobs) 547 00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:53,679 I love you so much baby. 548 00:31:53,679 --> 00:31:54,729 - I love you too mom. 549 00:31:56,804 --> 00:31:58,650 - Okay, I'll see you later. 550 00:31:58,650 --> 00:31:59,483 - Okay. 551 00:32:00,679 --> 00:32:01,512 - I love you. 552 00:32:01,512 --> 00:32:02,595 - I love you. 553 00:32:04,178 --> 00:32:06,788 - I'll you talk to you later, okay? 554 00:32:06,788 --> 00:32:07,621 - Okay. 555 00:32:07,621 --> 00:32:08,454 - I love you. 556 00:32:08,454 --> 00:32:10,297 - I love you. 557 00:32:10,297 --> 00:32:12,714 (airy music) 558 00:32:15,830 --> 00:32:18,080 - [Amy] After my parents dropped the charges, 559 00:32:19,340 --> 00:32:22,060 I felt like this huge weight 560 00:32:22,060 --> 00:32:23,843 had been lifted off my shoulders. 561 00:32:25,770 --> 00:32:27,563 Jason and I planned to get married. 562 00:32:29,401 --> 00:32:31,370 And then we got pregnant. 563 00:32:31,370 --> 00:32:32,470 And we had a daughter, 564 00:32:33,640 --> 00:32:38,093 and we named her Madison, beautiful little girl. 565 00:32:39,380 --> 00:32:41,170 She is the love of my life. 566 00:32:45,134 --> 00:32:45,990 - Relax, it'll be great. 567 00:32:45,990 --> 00:32:49,830 - Hey, check it out. (laughs) 568 00:32:49,830 --> 00:32:51,300 Drinks for everybody, huh? 569 00:32:52,600 --> 00:32:54,550 - Heavenly Father, thank you for this food 570 00:32:54,550 --> 00:32:56,020 we're about to receive, 571 00:32:56,020 --> 00:32:58,120 bless it to the nourishment of our bodies. 572 00:32:59,427 --> 00:33:00,260 Lord, look over us. 573 00:33:00,260 --> 00:33:02,963 Thank you for allowing us this time of fellowship. 574 00:33:04,450 --> 00:33:09,066 And please look over at Amy and her friend, 575 00:33:09,066 --> 00:33:10,920 and allow us this opportunity 576 00:33:10,920 --> 00:33:12,865 to come together more frequently. 577 00:33:12,865 --> 00:33:13,698 - Amen. 578 00:33:13,698 --> 00:33:16,043 - We ask these things in your name. 579 00:33:17,300 --> 00:33:19,963 - I finally felt like my depression was gone, 580 00:33:21,330 --> 00:33:24,414 replaced with love. 581 00:33:24,414 --> 00:33:27,250 (gentle music) 582 00:33:27,250 --> 00:33:31,650 I finally felt like my life was worth living, 583 00:33:31,650 --> 00:33:33,300 like I had something to live for. 584 00:33:35,569 --> 00:33:39,503 I had Jason and I had Madison and we had a home. 585 00:33:42,050 --> 00:33:43,500 What could possibly go wrong? 586 00:33:45,540 --> 00:33:46,373 - Oh man, that's awesome. 587 00:33:46,373 --> 00:33:48,940 Nope I can handle it, I promise. 588 00:33:48,940 --> 00:33:50,800 No I can do it. 589 00:33:50,800 --> 00:33:54,203 Hey brother, thanks for the opportunity. 590 00:33:54,203 --> 00:33:56,412 Yeah, no, cool, see you. 591 00:33:56,412 --> 00:33:58,350 You're not gonna believe this, 592 00:33:58,350 --> 00:34:00,590 Mark has opened up a new store of short pump, 593 00:34:00,590 --> 00:34:02,460 and he's gonna ask me to manage it. 594 00:34:02,460 --> 00:34:03,920 Pretty cool, huh. 595 00:34:03,920 --> 00:34:05,590 Whoa, yes, oh yes. 596 00:34:07,865 --> 00:34:10,115 - Jason that's for Madison. 597 00:34:11,029 --> 00:34:12,612 - She's my kid too. 598 00:34:14,872 --> 00:34:16,696 - Jason give that to me. 599 00:34:16,696 --> 00:34:18,446 - No chill out, stop. 600 00:34:19,546 --> 00:34:21,929 - We need that money. 601 00:34:21,929 --> 00:34:23,336 - What she need it for? 602 00:34:23,336 --> 00:34:25,253 - No we need the money. 603 00:34:28,200 --> 00:34:31,627 - All right, time for celebration drinks. 604 00:34:34,105 --> 00:34:36,772 (door shutting) 605 00:34:38,706 --> 00:34:40,017 (birds chirping) 606 00:34:40,017 --> 00:34:42,329 - Grandma, this ones dead. 607 00:34:42,329 --> 00:34:47,329 - No I think there's still some life in there. (chuckles) 608 00:34:48,370 --> 00:34:50,380 Plants have brains. 609 00:34:50,380 --> 00:34:51,280 Did you know that? 610 00:34:53,220 --> 00:34:57,453 You see, they really only decide when they want sprout. 611 00:34:58,870 --> 00:35:02,023 And some sprout too early and some wait. 612 00:35:03,720 --> 00:35:07,760 In fact, as they grow, they react to the size 613 00:35:07,760 --> 00:35:10,233 and the strength of the plant next to them. 614 00:35:11,510 --> 00:35:13,900 They decide how best to survive 615 00:35:14,812 --> 00:35:16,293 by what's happening around them. 616 00:35:17,300 --> 00:35:18,650 Does that make sense honey? 617 00:35:19,628 --> 00:35:21,393 (birds chirping) 618 00:35:21,393 --> 00:35:22,591 - Moms here baby. 619 00:35:22,591 --> 00:35:24,300 - Hey sweetie. 620 00:35:24,300 --> 00:35:26,939 Hi, did you have a good day with grandma? 621 00:35:26,939 --> 00:35:29,508 - We did. - Yay. 622 00:35:29,508 --> 00:35:32,160 - You know Amy, she's welcome to stay here anytime, 623 00:35:32,160 --> 00:35:34,043 if you think it's a good idea. 624 00:35:35,060 --> 00:35:37,056 - What are you saying mom? 625 00:35:37,056 --> 00:35:39,181 - We have the room and that would give you guys 626 00:35:39,181 --> 00:35:41,755 some time to work things out. 627 00:35:41,755 --> 00:35:43,339 - Everything's fine. 628 00:35:43,339 --> 00:35:44,716 - Are you sure? - But I appreciate it. 629 00:35:44,716 --> 00:35:45,549 Thank you. 630 00:35:47,068 --> 00:35:48,485 - Bye honey. Say bye to grandma. 631 00:35:48,485 --> 00:35:51,210 - It's so nice to have you here, I love you so much. 632 00:35:51,210 --> 00:35:52,910 Next time we'll have some greases. 633 00:35:53,785 --> 00:35:55,574 - Yay, lets go see daddy. 634 00:35:55,574 --> 00:35:56,407 Bye grandma. 635 00:35:56,407 --> 00:35:57,697 - Bye bye sweetie. 636 00:35:57,697 --> 00:35:58,641 I love you. 637 00:35:58,641 --> 00:36:00,119 (gentle music) 638 00:36:00,119 --> 00:36:02,952 (birds chirping) 639 00:36:09,990 --> 00:36:11,050 - Oh, hey babe. 640 00:36:11,050 --> 00:36:12,490 - Jason. 641 00:36:12,490 --> 00:36:14,404 - Hey babe, change of plans. 642 00:36:14,404 --> 00:36:16,487 - Hey sweetie, go inside. 643 00:36:19,680 --> 00:36:22,090 Hey sweetie, mommy will be right in. 644 00:36:22,090 --> 00:36:24,640 - The store is actually down in Danville. 645 00:36:24,640 --> 00:36:25,500 - Danville. 646 00:36:25,500 --> 00:36:26,990 - It'll be about three months. 647 00:36:26,990 --> 00:36:28,740 Mark wants me to take control of it. 648 00:36:28,740 --> 00:36:30,370 See the store has all these problems, 649 00:36:30,370 --> 00:36:31,670 and he wants for you to handle it. 650 00:36:31,670 --> 00:36:33,583 - It's four hours away. 651 00:36:33,583 --> 00:36:35,580 - I'll come home every weekend. 652 00:36:35,580 --> 00:36:36,920 - We need to talk about this. 653 00:36:36,920 --> 00:36:40,080 I'm working two jobs, your daughter, Madison- 654 00:36:40,080 --> 00:36:44,320 - Amy, this is an opportunity for me to get my own store. 655 00:36:44,320 --> 00:36:46,820 Okay, he wants me to take control of it. 656 00:36:46,820 --> 00:36:48,240 I'll come home on the weekend, 657 00:36:48,240 --> 00:36:49,940 it's not like I see you during the week anyway. 658 00:36:49,940 --> 00:36:51,413 - I know that you're leaving us, 659 00:36:51,413 --> 00:36:53,180 and you didn't even talk to me about it. 660 00:36:53,180 --> 00:36:55,210 - I'm not leaving you. 661 00:36:55,210 --> 00:36:57,060 You said we needed the money alright? 662 00:36:57,060 --> 00:36:59,050 Well, this is the chance. 663 00:36:59,050 --> 00:37:00,770 They're putting me up in my own hotel, 664 00:37:00,770 --> 00:37:02,963 you guys can come down some weekends. 665 00:37:04,810 --> 00:37:06,970 Amy, I have to do this. 666 00:37:06,970 --> 00:37:08,270 - No, I can't believe you. 667 00:37:11,620 --> 00:37:13,520 Jason never came home on the weekends. 668 00:37:15,000 --> 00:37:16,853 In fact, he never came home at all. 669 00:37:18,164 --> 00:37:22,780 And there I was right back where I had started. 670 00:37:22,780 --> 00:37:25,843 Losing him, losing my daughter, 671 00:37:27,327 --> 00:37:28,563 loosing in my mind. 672 00:37:30,670 --> 00:37:35,413 This disease was my only companion. 673 00:37:39,000 --> 00:37:40,300 But there were my parents, 674 00:37:41,470 --> 00:37:43,453 coming into my rescue once again. 675 00:37:45,380 --> 00:37:48,860 They insisted that Madison that I move in with them. 676 00:37:49,927 --> 00:37:50,763 And so we did. 677 00:37:51,769 --> 00:37:54,352 (gentle music) 678 00:38:00,060 --> 00:38:02,117 - Amy, I am so glad you're here. 679 00:38:02,117 --> 00:38:05,309 - And this little princess is gonna take my room. 680 00:38:05,309 --> 00:38:07,460 (both laugh) 681 00:38:07,460 --> 00:38:11,723 - Listen, Amy, your dad and I have a deal for you. 682 00:38:13,870 --> 00:38:17,607 If you go back to nursing school, we'll pay for it. 683 00:38:18,520 --> 00:38:20,043 - Wow, thanks mom. 684 00:38:21,429 --> 00:38:22,800 - Okay. 685 00:38:22,800 --> 00:38:26,120 Hey you, let's go downstairs and have some lunch, 686 00:38:26,120 --> 00:38:30,602 grandma's gonna put some meat on your bones. (laughs) 687 00:38:30,602 --> 00:38:33,185 (gentle music) 688 00:38:35,129 --> 00:38:36,160 (water running) 689 00:38:36,160 --> 00:38:37,580 - Today I learned that regret 690 00:38:37,580 --> 00:38:41,093 and change are well like the same thing. 691 00:38:42,310 --> 00:38:45,600 I needed a change, but I was feeling so ugly 692 00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:47,323 and like I just didn't deserve it. 693 00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:52,950 This was my Robert Frost moment in life. 694 00:38:52,950 --> 00:38:55,233 You know the two roads diverged in the woods. 695 00:38:57,016 --> 00:38:58,671 (door knock) 696 00:38:58,671 --> 00:39:03,671 - Amy, honey, are you awake? 697 00:39:05,110 --> 00:39:06,827 Amy I brought you some food hun. 698 00:39:24,092 --> 00:39:26,592 (eerie music) 699 00:39:27,973 --> 00:39:30,390 (Amy crying) 700 00:39:58,932 --> 00:40:01,599 (water running) 701 00:40:15,660 --> 00:40:17,053 - Honey, please get up. 702 00:40:18,980 --> 00:40:20,100 I'm going to the store, 703 00:40:20,100 --> 00:40:21,313 do you need anything? 704 00:40:23,270 --> 00:40:24,883 I'm taking Madison with me. 705 00:40:25,932 --> 00:40:28,349 (door shuts) 706 00:40:29,960 --> 00:40:32,763 Amy Self, you get out of that bed. 707 00:40:34,198 --> 00:40:35,110 - What time is it? 708 00:40:35,110 --> 00:40:36,293 - It's one o'clock. 709 00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:40,300 - It's too early mom, I need sleep. 710 00:40:40,300 --> 00:40:43,000 - Amy, you get out of that bed right now. 711 00:40:43,000 --> 00:40:44,960 Now you come downstairs. 712 00:40:44,960 --> 00:40:47,333 Take a shower, I have lunch. 713 00:40:56,732 --> 00:40:59,149 (door shuts) 714 00:41:00,110 --> 00:41:01,815 - What are we gonna do? 715 00:41:01,815 --> 00:41:03,065 - I don't know. 716 00:41:11,723 --> 00:41:13,556 - God help her please. 717 00:41:15,832 --> 00:41:18,415 (gentle music) 718 00:41:21,227 --> 00:41:23,644 (Amy crying) 719 00:42:01,287 --> 00:42:03,954 (keys jingling) 720 00:42:08,033 --> 00:42:10,783 (engine roaring) 721 00:42:17,858 --> 00:42:21,358 (Amy crying hysterically) 722 00:42:30,140 --> 00:42:32,010 - After that incident, 723 00:42:32,010 --> 00:42:33,313 my parents kicked me out, 724 00:42:35,190 --> 00:42:37,680 and they told me that they were keeping Madison 725 00:42:37,680 --> 00:42:39,123 until I got some help. 726 00:42:41,040 --> 00:42:44,670 Help, there's only one thing 727 00:42:44,670 --> 00:42:46,303 that can help someone like me. 728 00:42:49,022 --> 00:42:51,605 (Amy crying) 729 00:42:51,605 --> 00:42:54,022 (airy music) 730 00:43:09,703 --> 00:43:12,370 (water running) 731 00:43:18,235 --> 00:43:20,735 (eerie music) 732 00:43:52,285 --> 00:43:55,535 (inner voices talking) 733 00:44:41,623 --> 00:44:44,510 - [Dad] It's okay sweetheart, get back up 734 00:44:44,510 --> 00:44:45,633 keep working on it, you'll get it. 735 00:44:47,422 --> 00:44:49,839 (airy music) 736 00:44:52,606 --> 00:44:55,500 - Plants have brains, did you know that? 737 00:44:55,500 --> 00:44:57,880 They decide when it's time to sprout, 738 00:44:57,880 --> 00:45:01,020 some sprout early and some sprout later. 739 00:45:01,020 --> 00:45:02,510 And you can see as they grow, 740 00:45:02,510 --> 00:45:04,523 how they react to the plants around them. 741 00:45:05,430 --> 00:45:09,217 They decide the best way to survive in this world. 742 00:45:09,217 --> 00:45:11,213 Amy, it's time for you to do the same. 743 00:45:12,220 --> 00:45:13,193 You need to decide, 744 00:45:14,470 --> 00:45:17,447 do you wanna live or do you wanna die? 745 00:45:18,838 --> 00:45:21,255 (airy music) 746 00:45:31,084 --> 00:45:32,110 - Amy. 747 00:45:32,110 --> 00:45:33,058 - Mom. 748 00:45:33,058 --> 00:45:34,855 - Amy, how you feeling? 749 00:45:34,855 --> 00:45:36,151 - Mom, I'm sorry. 750 00:45:36,151 --> 00:45:38,701 - Oh, sweetie. - I'm so sorry mom. 751 00:45:38,701 --> 00:45:39,701 - It's okay. 752 00:45:41,128 --> 00:45:43,847 I'm so glad you're okay. 753 00:45:43,847 --> 00:45:45,090 - Mom I saw her. 754 00:45:46,027 --> 00:45:47,327 - You saw who honey? 755 00:45:47,327 --> 00:45:48,327 - I saw her grandma. 756 00:45:49,890 --> 00:45:54,890 We were in the garden and she told me that it was my choice 757 00:45:55,000 --> 00:45:57,910 whether or not I wanted to live or die. 758 00:45:57,910 --> 00:45:59,683 She told me that I had to choose. 759 00:46:00,520 --> 00:46:01,923 Mom, I wanna live. 760 00:46:04,670 --> 00:46:07,270 - Well, your grandmother was always a very wise mom. 761 00:46:13,015 --> 00:46:14,603 - Mom. 762 00:46:14,603 --> 00:46:15,436 - Yes sweetie. 763 00:46:15,436 --> 00:46:17,270 - I wanna start going to church with you and dad. 764 00:46:18,148 --> 00:46:19,160 - Church, church. (chuckles) 765 00:46:19,160 --> 00:46:19,993 - Yes. 766 00:46:21,850 --> 00:46:24,430 - Amy, you sure you're feeling okay. 767 00:46:24,430 --> 00:46:25,355 - I am now. 768 00:46:25,355 --> 00:46:27,262 (both laugh) 769 00:46:27,262 --> 00:46:29,686 - I love you honey. - I love you too mom. 770 00:46:32,131 --> 00:46:34,881 (birds chirping) 771 00:46:45,126 --> 00:46:46,423 - Thank you grandma. 772 00:46:50,145 --> 00:46:52,728 (upbeat music) 773 00:47:14,490 --> 00:47:16,240 - Oh, hi. 774 00:47:16,240 --> 00:47:18,810 Your mom said you might be stopping by. 775 00:47:18,810 --> 00:47:20,190 I'm pastor Dale, 776 00:47:20,190 --> 00:47:21,240 I'm glad you're here. 777 00:47:24,360 --> 00:47:28,723 - I have made a mess. (chuckles) 778 00:47:32,320 --> 00:47:35,367 I am not sure why my mom stood by me like she did. 779 00:47:37,429 --> 00:47:40,140 - We pray for you at every service. 780 00:47:41,332 --> 00:47:44,340 You know Proverb says, "Train up a child 781 00:47:44,340 --> 00:47:46,580 the way they should go, 782 00:47:46,580 --> 00:47:50,027 and when they grow old, they will not depart from it." 783 00:47:51,150 --> 00:47:55,593 It's that message, that promise that brought you here. 784 00:47:59,780 --> 00:48:00,613 - Now what? 785 00:48:01,560 --> 00:48:03,390 - Well, you know, Amy, 786 00:48:03,390 --> 00:48:07,443 God can use your past for the new opportunity. 787 00:48:08,550 --> 00:48:10,233 I fully believe that. 788 00:48:11,640 --> 00:48:15,767 So um, tell you what, here's my card, 789 00:48:20,390 --> 00:48:24,990 you call me about anything, anytime. 790 00:48:24,990 --> 00:48:25,823 - Anytime? 791 00:48:27,720 --> 00:48:28,553 - Anytime. 792 00:48:30,213 --> 00:48:32,007 - Well, I like to talk. 793 00:48:32,007 --> 00:48:33,600 (both laugh) 794 00:48:33,600 --> 00:48:37,840 - Well, I have about 10, 15 minutes. 795 00:48:37,840 --> 00:48:39,330 - That sounds great. 796 00:48:39,330 --> 00:48:42,103 - Excellent, let's go sit down and be comfortable. 797 00:48:43,920 --> 00:48:45,120 - It was a slow journey. 798 00:48:46,290 --> 00:48:48,263 Pastor Dale was amazing. 799 00:48:49,310 --> 00:48:50,770 Did I struggle? 800 00:48:50,770 --> 00:48:54,140 You bet, but I would call him and we'd talk. 801 00:48:54,140 --> 00:48:56,807 (phone ringing) 802 00:48:58,410 --> 00:49:00,853 I'd be upset and we'd talk. 803 00:49:01,800 --> 00:49:05,173 He never didn't answer. (chuckles) 804 00:49:07,687 --> 00:49:12,400 And then I started volunteering with the teens. 805 00:49:12,400 --> 00:49:17,313 I finally found my purpose in life, to help others. 806 00:49:18,500 --> 00:49:20,550 To help others that have suffered 807 00:49:20,550 --> 00:49:23,660 from the same conditions that I've suffered from. 808 00:49:23,660 --> 00:49:27,963 Depression, anxiety, no self worth. 809 00:49:29,640 --> 00:49:33,793 You see, for so many years, I thought I was alone. 810 00:49:35,220 --> 00:49:39,120 I thought I was crazy, worthless, 811 00:49:39,120 --> 00:49:40,973 and I really wanted to die. 812 00:49:42,530 --> 00:49:46,050 But I learned that I am not alone. 813 00:49:46,050 --> 00:49:49,170 That there are thousands, millions 814 00:49:49,170 --> 00:49:53,193 of people every day that suffer from this illness. 815 00:49:54,690 --> 00:49:58,120 And just like my grandmother helped me to see the light, 816 00:49:58,120 --> 00:50:00,593 I want to help others see the light. 817 00:50:01,470 --> 00:50:06,470 I wanna help people through love and understanding, 818 00:50:06,650 --> 00:50:07,593 and God. 819 00:50:10,120 --> 00:50:12,680 You see you are not alone, 820 00:50:12,680 --> 00:50:14,423 and if you believe in yourself, 821 00:50:15,480 --> 00:50:17,280 others are gonna believe in you too. 822 00:50:18,441 --> 00:50:22,337 And just when I thought that life couldn't get any better, 823 00:50:24,070 --> 00:50:25,513 that's when I met him. 824 00:50:27,390 --> 00:50:28,933 - Hi, what's your name? 825 00:50:30,550 --> 00:50:32,930 - I'm Tom and this is Josh. 826 00:50:32,930 --> 00:50:34,020 - I'm josh. 827 00:50:34,020 --> 00:50:36,630 - Hi, it's nice to meet you, Josh and Tom. 828 00:50:36,630 --> 00:50:39,820 Welcome to our end of summer blast all-nighter. 829 00:50:39,820 --> 00:50:41,313 Why don't you go have some fun. 830 00:50:42,866 --> 00:50:44,633 - Go and have some fun, have fun. 831 00:50:46,060 --> 00:50:46,900 - He's so cute. 832 00:50:46,900 --> 00:50:48,170 How old is Josh? 833 00:50:48,170 --> 00:50:49,390 - He just turned 16. 834 00:50:49,390 --> 00:50:51,160 - Oh, wow. - Do you have any more kids? 835 00:50:51,160 --> 00:50:53,740 - Oh, he's not mine, I don't have kids. 836 00:50:53,740 --> 00:50:54,940 - But who is he? 837 00:50:54,940 --> 00:50:57,426 - Just some kid I met on the street. 838 00:50:57,426 --> 00:51:00,596 No, he's my neighbor, and I heard about this event, 839 00:51:00,596 --> 00:51:01,490 so I thought he might enjoy it. 840 00:51:01,490 --> 00:51:03,035 - That's awesome. 841 00:51:03,035 --> 00:51:03,868 So you go here? 842 00:51:03,868 --> 00:51:04,951 - Yeah, Yeah, 843 00:51:04,951 --> 00:51:06,490 I just started, I go to the early service. 844 00:51:06,490 --> 00:51:07,323 - Why? 845 00:51:08,340 --> 00:51:09,490 - I like to start- - No I'm just kidding. 846 00:51:09,490 --> 00:51:12,023 - Oh, well, I like to start my day early, shame on you. 847 00:51:12,023 --> 00:51:12,856 - [Man] Come on you two. 848 00:51:14,890 --> 00:51:16,840 Tom was a wonderful man. 849 00:51:16,840 --> 00:51:19,040 That was the first night that we hung out, 850 00:51:19,040 --> 00:51:22,280 with a bunch of teenagers and it was a blast. 851 00:51:22,280 --> 00:51:24,190 I never saw it coming. 852 00:51:24,190 --> 00:51:26,110 It was all new, 853 00:51:26,110 --> 00:51:27,923 it was something so different. 854 00:51:32,580 --> 00:51:34,500 - Wow, its perfect. 855 00:51:34,500 --> 00:51:37,070 - There's a desk hidden somewhere back there. 856 00:51:37,070 --> 00:51:38,657 (all laugh) 857 00:51:38,657 --> 00:51:41,370 And the good news is, my office is right down the hall, 858 00:51:41,370 --> 00:51:43,280 so you don't have to call me. 859 00:51:43,280 --> 00:51:44,113 - Thank you. 860 00:51:45,570 --> 00:51:46,420 - One last thing. 861 00:51:47,536 --> 00:51:50,119 (upbeat music) 862 00:51:52,080 --> 00:51:52,913 - I like it. 863 00:51:53,847 --> 00:51:55,330 - It's a start. 864 00:51:55,330 --> 00:51:56,700 - It's a good start. 865 00:51:56,700 --> 00:51:58,200 Well, let's get this place cleaned up, 866 00:51:58,200 --> 00:52:00,565 Amy Self Women's Ministries. 867 00:52:00,565 --> 00:52:01,470 - Okay. 868 00:52:01,470 --> 00:52:02,820 - Lets roll up our sleeves. 869 00:52:04,384 --> 00:52:06,967 (upbeat music) 870 00:52:10,128 --> 00:52:13,211 (indistinct chatter) 871 00:52:25,820 --> 00:52:28,420 - [Counselor] Well, I'm afraid of our time is up for today. 872 00:52:28,420 --> 00:52:29,990 - Oh, wow, 873 00:52:29,990 --> 00:52:32,110 I guess time really does fly. 874 00:52:32,110 --> 00:52:36,000 Thank you for everything, for listening to my story. 875 00:52:36,000 --> 00:52:37,743 You've been a big help. 876 00:52:43,280 --> 00:52:45,030 Bigger than you can imagine. 877 00:52:45,030 --> 00:52:48,010 - [Counselor] Would you like to schedule another session? 878 00:52:48,010 --> 00:52:50,790 - No, I don't think I'll be back. 879 00:52:50,790 --> 00:52:53,210 Besides have a wedding to catch. 880 00:52:53,210 --> 00:52:55,100 - [Counselor] Oh really, whose? 881 00:52:55,100 --> 00:52:55,933 - Mine. 882 00:52:57,754 --> 00:53:00,337 (upbeat music) 883 00:53:51,273 --> 00:53:53,856 (upbeat music)