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- You look great.
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- Aw, look at Melissa
trying to be shy.
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She's trying to be shy.
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You look so cute.
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- Her real name's Melissa.
- Melissa, say something.
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- Something.
- Ha ha.
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- Go, Melissa.
- This is Melissa.
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- She was Lisso,
like Melissa.
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She was L-I-S-S-O.
- Hey, Melissa!
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- This is the backstage,
and this is the wall
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where our name's
going to be next year.
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- And then it went to Lizzo.
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And for a while,
no one knew Lizzo.
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- My mama knew Lizzo.
[laughs]
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- Please welcome Lizzo.
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- Ladies and gentlemen,
Lizzo!
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- Lizzo!
- Her name is Lizzo.
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Give it up,
ladies and gentlemen.
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[crowd chanting]
Lizzo, Lizzo,
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Lizzo, Lizzo, Lizzo...
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[cheers and applause]
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[moody chords]
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- Someone calls a girl,
"OK, Lizzo,"
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because she's big
and she's Black,
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and she's doing something
that they don't think
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big Black women
should be doing,
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like dancing
and being confident.
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I can only turn Lizzo
into a compliment
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by being a best
version of myself.
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♪ I got a feeling
I'm gonna be all right ♪
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♪ It's bad bitch o'clock ♪
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♪ Yeah, it's thick-thirty ♪
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♪ I been through a lot,
but I'm still flirty ♪
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♪ OK! Is everybody back
up in the building? ♪
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♪ It's been a minute, tell me
how you're healing ♪
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♪ 'Cause I'm about to
get into my feelings ♪
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♪ How you feeling,
how you feel right now? ♪
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♪ Oh, I've been so down
and under pressure ♪
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♪ ♪
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♪ I'm way too fine to be
this stressed, yeah ♪
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♪ Oh, I'm not the girl I was ♪
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♪ Or used to be ♪
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♪ Oh, bitch,
I might be better ♪
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♪ Turn up the music ♪
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♪ Turn down the lights ♪
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♪ I got a feeling
I'm going to be all right ♪
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♪ OK ♪
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♪ All right ♪
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♪ It's about damn time ♪
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♪ I'm coming out tonight ♪
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♪ I'm coming out
tonight ♪
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♪ Coming out tonight ♪
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♪ I'm coming out tonight ♪
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♪ I'm coming out
tonight ♪
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♪ I'm coming out tonight ♪
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♪ I'm coming out
tonight ♪
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♪ Coming out tonight ♪
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♪ OK ♪
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♪ All right ♪
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♪ It's about damn time ♪
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[chatter, laughter]
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- Hear me out.
- What's up?
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- Can you hear me?
- OK, I got you.
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- "2 Be Loved" starts off
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the way "Truth Hurts"
ends, right?
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I'm marrying myself,
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I pull the veil back,
run, right?
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I'm about to have
a panic attack, right?
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I'm a runaway bride.
I hop in the car.
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I speed off.
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Then, somewhere in between,
a U-Haul pulls up,
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and it's, like,
a bunch of my girls.
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And we can have moments
of dancing and all types--
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Ever since I was very young,
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I would...
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I would want something
so badly.
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OK, talk to you later.
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- Take care.
- Bye.
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And I would get it.
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I would just, like, manifest,
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and I would get it,
specifically with music.
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I'd be like, all right,
let's go,
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and I would just...
make it happen.
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♪ ♪
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But it took nearly ten years
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to get to where I am today.
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I worked so much
and never said no.
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No matter what part of
my story you come in at,
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I'm always chasing the music.
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Why is she sleeping
in her car?
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She's chasing the music.
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Why did she move
to Minneapolis?
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She was going
where the music is.
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And I also might not
made it a few times.
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Because nobody
was fucking with me.
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Nobody was trying to sign
a fat Black girl
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that rapped and sang
and played the flute.
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Y'all have no idea
how close I was
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to this not being a thing.
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♪ Ooh, better ♪
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♪ Better, ooh better ♪
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♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
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♪ Ooh, better ♪
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[thunder rumbling]
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[quiet music]
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♪ ♪
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You know,
I was born in Detroit.
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You know, my whole family
Detroiters.
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- I'm from the Eastside,
and my mom and dad,
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they both worked for Chrysler.
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I met Michael at church.
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We had only dated
for about a month,
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and then we got married.
[laughs]
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Because, I mean,
you just know, you know?
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So the next year,
we started having children,
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and they were born,
like, two years apart.
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Melissa is the only child that
took me all the way to term.
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Her brother used to tease
her when she was little,
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and she would just scream.
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Oh, my God, she had
a set of lungs on her.
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But I would never tell her
to shut up or be quiet,
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because I just knew
she was going to
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use her voice for something.
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- Ever since I was little,
I was the person
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who had to mediate
family arguments.
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I was the only person
my dad would listen to.
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It taught me how
to communicate.
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- Hi.
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- My father was
extremely pro-Black.
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He had a lot of Black pride,
which I loved,
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and he taught us a lot.
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He taught me about injustice.
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He taught us about
Emmett Till.
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I learned about these things
growing up
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because my dad
just wanted to show me
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the way the world was,
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and he really enforced in me
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to never ever switch up.
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You know what I'm saying?
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♪ You, you, you ♪
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♪ You, you, oh ♪
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♪ ♪
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- Whoa!
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[thunder rumbling]
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[indistinct greetings]
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♪ ♪
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- Oh, there's the picture.
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That's the one you're talking
about, right there, huh?
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- This one.
It's my great-grandma.
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That's Mama Kirkwood.
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- Her and her husband,
they founded the church.
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- My church
was a family church,
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so everyone
was kind of my cousin.
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My mom played piano in church,
and she sang.
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- I was in the choir at
my grandfather's church.
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You know, and then
my cousins and I,
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we formed a little group
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called
the Gospel Nightingales.
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- Come on, matriarch.
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- And then later on,
I met the Winans,
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and I was able to
sing with them, too.
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- We were brought up around
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like major gospel players
in Detroit,
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and our dad would
even promote their concerts.
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So, like, being around them,
Lizzo saw the professionalism
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of the music industry
in Detroit.
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[crowd cheering]
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- Music has always
had a physical effect on me
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because of the way
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that I would get so lost
in the music in church.
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[crowd cheering]
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- ♪ If you think ♪
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♪ You got me dickmatized ♪
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[dramatic musical sting]
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♪ I need to get you ♪
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♪ Out of my life ♪
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New York, can I get a amen?
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[Lizzo's "Heaven Help Me"]
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♪ ♪
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When I walk on stage,
I black out.
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It's not even blackout.
It's a light.
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It's a bright light.
It's lights on.
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♪ Heaven, help me ♪
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♪ If love ain't dead,
I'ma kill it ♪
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♪ 'Cause it's killing me ♪
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♪ Cold world, got me
living in a fantasy ♪
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♪ Like me, it's the only
thing I'll ever need ♪
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♪ Heaven, help me ♪
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My shows are the way they are
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because I want you
to catch the spirit.
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And if I'm on that stage,
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we're connecting
to something higher.
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♪ If you think
you got me dickmatized ♪
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♪ Oh yeah, oh yeah,
oh yeah, oh yeah ♪
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♪ I need to get you ♪
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♪ Out of my ♪
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♪ Life ♪
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♪ Heaven, help me ♪
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♪ If love ain't dead,
I'ma kill it ♪
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♪ 'Cause it's killing me ♪
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♪ Ooh ♪
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New York, can I get a amen?
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- Amen!
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[moody music]
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- When I was a little girl,
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I really believed
that I was a bad singer--
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not because I didn't try.
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It's because
I actually was singing
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and it wasn't good, like...
[laughs]
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After I had moved to Houston,
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when I was like 10 or 11,
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I would write these pop songs,
and I would try to sing it.
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And I'd be like you know what,
I'm gonna get somebody
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to sing that part.
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Like, I could hold a note,
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I always had good intonation
and pitch,
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but I didn't have
the confidence
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or the power in my voice.
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If there was a singer
in my head
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that I wanted to sound like,
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it was probably
Lauryn Hill and Beyoncé.
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And I didn't sound like that,
so I didn't bother.
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- Yeah.
- Let's pull it out.
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- This is my letterman jacket,
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the one thing we saved
from my past, Jefferson.
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They give you line names,
and I don't know why.
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They were like,
and you gonna be spotlight.
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I was like, OK.
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Hello, hello, helloey!
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And this is, um,
I was Ms. Melissa.
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Ooh, Ms. Melissa is so bougie.
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Band, of course.
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Flute.
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And then this side
was class of '06.
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- '06.
- Jefferson--I put an
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exclamation point on it, too.
- No way.
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- And that's funny.
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My Lizzo signature
has a exclamation point,
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so some things never change,
ho.
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And it's huge
because I was insecure,
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and I was like, I need the
biggest jacket you have.
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'Cause I was scared to get
something too small,
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and everyone
would make fun of me.
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Why she got that old
little jacket on?
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[exaggerated laugh]
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- Why would they
even laugh like that?
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- 'Cause that's how they was.
They were so mean.
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- [imitating laugh]
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- They was so mean in Houston.
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Seventh and eighth grade
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is when kids
started to notice differences.
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I wore my hair different.
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I didn't have the body type.
Like, I was chunky.
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There were things
I would hide about myself,
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like hiding
that I liked anime,
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or that I read
Sailor Moon fan fiction.
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00:11:18,262 --> 00:11:20,305
I knew people were
making fun of me
258
00:11:20,389 --> 00:11:21,765
or laughing at me.
259
00:11:21,849 --> 00:11:24,601
I have memories of
raising my hand,
260
00:11:24,685 --> 00:11:26,353
and people being like...
261
00:11:26,437 --> 00:11:28,439
"Damn, you going to
answer that question, too?
262
00:11:28,522 --> 00:11:29,982
Damn!"
263
00:11:30,065 --> 00:11:33,986
Of girls hiding my clothes
from me after gym class,
264
00:11:34,069 --> 00:11:36,780
boys calling me
fat ass on the bus.
265
00:11:38,198 --> 00:11:41,577
By the time I was going
through the ninth grade,
266
00:11:41,660 --> 00:11:44,371
I was like,
I am sick of being nerdy.
267
00:11:44,455 --> 00:11:45,789
I want to be cool.
268
00:11:45,873 --> 00:11:48,250
So I started throwing
myself into rap.
269
00:11:48,333 --> 00:11:50,127
♪ Yeah, I'm movin'
like a snake ♪
270
00:11:50,210 --> 00:11:52,296
♪ In the woods... ♪
271
00:11:52,379 --> 00:11:54,798
That was
my first rap performance.
272
00:11:54,882 --> 00:11:56,967
I remember
I went out into the crowd,
273
00:11:57,050 --> 00:12:00,220
and everybody just started
screaming and going wild.
274
00:12:00,304 --> 00:12:03,307
- Go, Melissa!
- [rapping indistinctly]
275
00:12:03,390 --> 00:12:06,810
And that's where I fell
in love with live performance.
276
00:12:08,562 --> 00:12:11,064
In Houston, freestyle rap
was everywhere.
277
00:12:11,148 --> 00:12:13,984
You'd put on the radio, Lil
Flip was freestyle rapping,
278
00:12:14,067 --> 00:12:16,236
and he was the freestyle king.
279
00:12:16,320 --> 00:12:19,323
[overlapping shouting]
280
00:12:19,406 --> 00:12:22,284
Then Ludacris came out,
and I was like, oh,
281
00:12:22,367 --> 00:12:25,162
I want to rap like Ludacris.
This is it!
282
00:12:25,245 --> 00:12:28,373
♪ I will probably outlast
every nigga flowin' ♪
283
00:12:28,457 --> 00:12:30,042
And mind you,
that was the time
284
00:12:30,125 --> 00:12:31,376
when I was taking Phentermine.
285
00:12:31,460 --> 00:12:33,212
I was wearing trash bags.
286
00:12:33,295 --> 00:12:35,297
I was, like,
putting on girdles.
287
00:12:35,380 --> 00:12:38,383
I was doing all of this shit
in high school
288
00:12:38,467 --> 00:12:40,344
to be, like, thin.
289
00:12:41,261 --> 00:12:43,639
Like a lot of people,
I grew up
290
00:12:43,722 --> 00:12:46,600
learning how to hate my body.
291
00:12:46,683 --> 00:12:50,687
And...it worked.
292
00:12:50,771 --> 00:12:54,191
You're just so disgusted
with your skin and your flesh
293
00:12:54,274 --> 00:12:56,360
and your muscle and your bones
294
00:12:56,443 --> 00:12:58,111
and the way
that they're designed.
295
00:12:58,195 --> 00:13:00,489
And the fat in your body
is just, like,
296
00:13:00,572 --> 00:13:03,200
you wanna cut parts
of your body off.
297
00:13:03,283 --> 00:13:05,202
Like, how do you--
how do I stop that?
298
00:13:05,285 --> 00:13:08,288
I don't want to feel
this way anymore...
299
00:13:08,372 --> 00:13:10,207
you know?
300
00:13:10,290 --> 00:13:13,043
So I was just like--music.
301
00:13:13,126 --> 00:13:14,836
[somber instrumentals]
302
00:13:14,920 --> 00:13:16,713
Boys don't like me.
I don't need boys.
303
00:13:16,797 --> 00:13:18,966
Music is my boyfriend.
304
00:13:19,049 --> 00:13:21,885
I was very focused.
305
00:13:22,970 --> 00:13:24,596
The first song we wrote
for Cornrow Clique
306
00:13:24,680 --> 00:13:26,765
was "It Don't Matta Doe."
307
00:13:26,848 --> 00:13:28,267
- How did it go?
308
00:13:28,350 --> 00:13:29,935
- I have it.
309
00:13:30,018 --> 00:13:31,895
- Play it.
- Here we go.
310
00:13:31,979 --> 00:13:34,147
[clears thought]
♪ Mayne, it don't matter ♪
311
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♪ If I wear white or black ♪
312
00:13:36,024 --> 00:13:37,693
♪ 'Cause when I'm in the club ♪
313
00:13:37,776 --> 00:13:39,695
♪ Niggas be on my back ♪
314
00:13:39,778 --> 00:13:43,407
♪ Never failing, never
falling off of the track ♪
315
00:13:43,490 --> 00:13:46,326
♪ When I walk away,
look at my back ♪
316
00:13:46,410 --> 00:13:49,913
♪ 'Cause they can't face me
and disrespect on my clique ♪
317
00:13:49,997 --> 00:13:54,626
♪ If you even breathe wrong,
ho, expect to get huh ♪
318
00:13:54,710 --> 00:13:56,920
Wow.
Performing to a room of people
319
00:13:57,004 --> 00:13:59,423
on their phones--my dream.
[laughing]
320
00:13:59,506 --> 00:14:01,049
My dream.
321
00:14:01,133 --> 00:14:05,762
♪ ♪
322
00:14:05,846 --> 00:14:09,308
When I land in Houston,
it's always like, whoa.
323
00:14:12,144 --> 00:14:14,354
This is really
where I grew up.
324
00:14:15,939 --> 00:14:18,483
Detroit is where I was born,
325
00:14:18,567 --> 00:14:21,278
Minneapolis
is where I was branded
326
00:14:21,361 --> 00:14:23,447
and where I became an artist,
like a solo artist,
327
00:14:23,530 --> 00:14:25,115
but I was such an adult
by then.
328
00:14:25,198 --> 00:14:28,035
Houston is really where
I was, like, bred.
329
00:14:30,579 --> 00:14:33,206
I moved down to Houston
in 1997.
330
00:14:33,290 --> 00:14:35,626
My parents had a business
in real estate.
331
00:14:35,709 --> 00:14:37,794
There were days where
we had a lot of money,
332
00:14:37,878 --> 00:14:40,505
and there was days where
we were squeezing it.
333
00:14:40,589 --> 00:14:42,132
My brother and sister
got involved.
334
00:14:42,215 --> 00:14:44,009
It was a family business,
335
00:14:44,092 --> 00:14:45,886
and I was the only one
not involved
336
00:14:45,969 --> 00:14:49,806
because I was like,
I'm going to band practice.
337
00:14:49,890 --> 00:14:51,308
♪ ♪
338
00:14:51,391 --> 00:14:52,601
[murmuring, chatter]
339
00:14:52,684 --> 00:14:54,978
Hi.
340
00:14:55,062 --> 00:14:57,481
It's crazy to be back.
341
00:14:57,564 --> 00:14:59,232
This is where I used to
rehearse
342
00:14:59,316 --> 00:15:01,568
with my band and--yeah.
343
00:15:03,320 --> 00:15:07,741
I went to the University of
Houston on flute scholarship.
344
00:15:07,824 --> 00:15:10,744
[jazzy flute music]
345
00:15:10,827 --> 00:15:14,206
♪ Big girls got to cry ♪
346
00:15:14,289 --> 00:15:18,293
The Houston Rodeo
was like the biggest thing
347
00:15:18,377 --> 00:15:20,504
that I've ever done--period.
348
00:15:20,587 --> 00:15:22,756
- Are y'all ready to see
who the mystery performer is
349
00:15:22,839 --> 00:15:24,257
for Black Heritage Day?
350
00:15:24,341 --> 00:15:27,052
- It's me!
I'm coming back to Houston.
351
00:15:27,135 --> 00:15:30,430
♪ ♪
352
00:15:30,514 --> 00:15:32,974
It feels like a homecoming.
353
00:15:33,058 --> 00:15:34,893
And I remember just thinking,
354
00:15:34,976 --> 00:15:36,520
that is the biggest thing
you can do--
355
00:15:36,603 --> 00:15:39,398
like when Beyoncé did it
and when Selena did it.
356
00:15:41,108 --> 00:15:43,652
I've never played a stadium.
357
00:15:43,735 --> 00:15:48,198
I've never played a venue that
has 75,000 ticketed to see me.
358
00:15:48,281 --> 00:15:51,535
I sold out the [bleep]
Houston Rodeo in seven min--
359
00:15:52,452 --> 00:15:54,663
[bleep], I sold out
the [bleep] Houston Rodeo
360
00:15:54,746 --> 00:15:58,291
in seven [bleep] minutes,
[bleep]!
361
00:15:58,375 --> 00:16:00,419
Oh my God, look at Brazil.
362
00:16:00,502 --> 00:16:02,379
And I sold out the [bleep]--
363
00:16:02,462 --> 00:16:04,131
God is good.
I want to say thank you
364
00:16:04,214 --> 00:16:06,591
to everybody who bought tickets
to the Houston Rodeo.
365
00:16:06,675 --> 00:16:11,054
It's about to be
a [bleep] party [bleep].
366
00:16:11,138 --> 00:16:12,389
[laughing]
I love y'all.
367
00:16:12,472 --> 00:16:13,348
Damn!
368
00:16:13,432 --> 00:16:16,727
[upbeat music playing]
369
00:16:16,810 --> 00:16:22,232
♪ ♪
370
00:16:33,827 --> 00:16:36,246
- We all knew that it was
probably a matter of time
371
00:16:36,329 --> 00:16:38,081
before this was
going to happen.
372
00:16:38,165 --> 00:16:40,417
So now that this
has happened
373
00:16:40,500 --> 00:16:41,668
and we have
a community spread,
374
00:16:41,752 --> 00:16:43,420
this isn't about the Rodeo.
375
00:16:43,503 --> 00:16:45,422
This is about large gatherings
376
00:16:45,505 --> 00:16:48,258
and protecting the community.
377
00:16:48,341 --> 00:16:50,927
[somber music]
378
00:16:51,011 --> 00:16:55,724
- We just got news that the
Rodeo is officially canceled.
379
00:16:55,807 --> 00:16:56,975
- Oh.
380
00:16:58,560 --> 00:16:59,478
OK.
381
00:16:59,561 --> 00:17:02,481
- So I--they literally--
382
00:17:02,564 --> 00:17:05,400
I just hung up with them
two minutes ago.
383
00:17:05,484 --> 00:17:06,526
[phone chime]
384
00:17:06,610 --> 00:17:12,365
♪ ♪
385
00:17:12,449 --> 00:17:15,952
We can hop on a plane
anytime you want.
386
00:17:16,036 --> 00:17:17,329
- I'm sorry.
387
00:17:17,412 --> 00:17:19,831
- It sucks.
388
00:17:19,915 --> 00:17:26,922
♪ ♪
389
00:17:34,262 --> 00:17:36,264
- I was pretty fucking sad,
390
00:17:36,348 --> 00:17:38,934
but people were expecting me
to be sad,
391
00:17:39,017 --> 00:17:41,895
so I'm like,
I'm gonna keep it together.
392
00:17:41,978 --> 00:17:44,356
Everything's gonna be fine.
393
00:18:03,250 --> 00:18:05,085
Welcome. Um...
394
00:18:05,168 --> 00:18:07,003
as some of you might know,
395
00:18:07,087 --> 00:18:11,007
I was scheduled to play
the Houston Rodeo today...
396
00:18:11,091 --> 00:18:14,344
and we had to cancel.
397
00:18:14,427 --> 00:18:16,513
A lot of people
are sad right now.
398
00:18:16,596 --> 00:18:20,308
A lot of people are sad
right now...
399
00:18:20,392 --> 00:18:22,686
because somebody
they know is sick
400
00:18:22,769 --> 00:18:25,355
or they might be sick
401
00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:28,108
or we might be afraid
of what this means
402
00:18:28,191 --> 00:18:31,194
for life as we know it.
403
00:18:31,278 --> 00:18:32,737
[playing flute]
404
00:18:32,821 --> 00:18:34,197
The pandemic was the cause,
405
00:18:34,281 --> 00:18:36,741
and everything else
was the effect.
406
00:18:36,825 --> 00:18:39,744
I had to stop
what I was doing
407
00:18:39,828 --> 00:18:43,498
and sit with myself.
408
00:18:45,959 --> 00:18:50,797
I was staying home
and working on music.
409
00:18:55,093 --> 00:18:58,555
I told myself that Monday,
410
00:18:58,638 --> 00:19:00,432
this Monday, tomorrow,
411
00:19:00,515 --> 00:19:03,435
would be my deadline
for having
412
00:19:03,518 --> 00:19:06,271
a bunch of demos,
listenable demos,
413
00:19:06,354 --> 00:19:08,523
to play for my A&R.
414
00:19:08,607 --> 00:19:09,816
[sighs]
415
00:19:09,900 --> 00:19:11,651
[starts to sing]
[shrill feedback]
416
00:19:11,735 --> 00:19:15,572
Fucking idiot.
I hate when I do that.
417
00:19:15,655 --> 00:19:17,908
I'm so annoyed with myself
right now.
418
00:19:21,161 --> 00:19:24,039
♪ Being in love,
you gotta have some ♪
419
00:19:24,122 --> 00:19:25,749
♪ Self-control ♪
420
00:19:25,832 --> 00:19:27,918
Lately, I just...
421
00:19:28,001 --> 00:19:30,879
I don't...I don't see it.
422
00:19:32,130 --> 00:19:34,007
I just feel like
there's people out there,
423
00:19:34,090 --> 00:19:36,885
there's artists
that are way cooler than me.
424
00:19:36,968 --> 00:19:38,929
There are artists
that are way more
425
00:19:39,012 --> 00:19:42,182
politically impactful
than me.
426
00:19:42,265 --> 00:19:44,726
There's artists that are
way more mysterious
427
00:19:44,809 --> 00:19:48,063
and mystify people more
and wake people up more.
428
00:19:48,146 --> 00:19:52,067
Like, I just don't think
that...[sighs]
429
00:19:52,150 --> 00:19:55,278
It's like the stakes changed.
430
00:19:55,362 --> 00:19:58,114
♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
431
00:19:58,198 --> 00:20:02,077
I think I was like,
ugh, how do I--
432
00:20:02,160 --> 00:20:05,288
how do I write bangers
when I'm fucking sad
433
00:20:05,372 --> 00:20:08,416
and mad and hurting?
434
00:20:09,250 --> 00:20:12,796
I'm such a conduit
when I write music.
435
00:20:12,879 --> 00:20:16,758
I can't fake it, you know,
and I was blocked
436
00:20:16,841 --> 00:20:19,302
because I was holding on
to a lot.
437
00:20:19,386 --> 00:20:22,806
[electric guitar playing]
438
00:20:22,889 --> 00:20:28,144
♪ ♪
439
00:20:30,063 --> 00:20:34,609
I've always been a little,
quote-unquote, different.
440
00:20:34,693 --> 00:20:38,321
I was really, really bookish,
441
00:20:38,405 --> 00:20:41,199
and I couldn't wait to
go home and read
442
00:20:41,283 --> 00:20:43,827
and just sit in my room.
443
00:20:43,910 --> 00:20:46,871
I can lay in my bed
and, like, daydream
444
00:20:46,955 --> 00:20:48,873
and imagine things all day,
445
00:20:48,957 --> 00:20:52,085
and music
was definitely an escape.
446
00:20:52,168 --> 00:20:56,673
The flute was part of that
world that I could go away to,
447
00:20:56,756 --> 00:20:58,842
and I would just
practice for hours.
448
00:20:58,925 --> 00:21:02,554
[upbeat band music playing]
449
00:21:02,637 --> 00:21:05,974
The flute was this weird
thing that just happened.
450
00:21:06,057 --> 00:21:09,728
Mr. Broughton was my
first band teacher ever,
451
00:21:09,811 --> 00:21:13,314
and he looks at you
and picks your horn for you.
452
00:21:13,398 --> 00:21:17,360
And for me,
I was just chosen for flute.
453
00:21:17,444 --> 00:21:20,697
I remember walking into
the band hall every day
454
00:21:20,780 --> 00:21:25,201
excited about what piece
Mr. Broughton had for us.
455
00:21:25,285 --> 00:21:27,078
He would write out
his own music.
456
00:21:27,162 --> 00:21:28,705
He would score it out,
and it was normally
457
00:21:28,788 --> 00:21:30,707
like songs from the radio.
458
00:21:30,790 --> 00:21:35,545
He just made playing
instruments cool.
459
00:21:35,628 --> 00:21:39,049
People assumed that
because I was Black
460
00:21:39,132 --> 00:21:40,842
I wouldn't be good
at the flute.
461
00:21:40,925 --> 00:21:44,179
And I'm just like,
let me prove all y'all wrong.
462
00:21:44,262 --> 00:21:45,555
- Let's bring out Sasha.
463
00:21:45,638 --> 00:21:47,557
This is Sasha the Flute,
the final flute.
464
00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:50,518
Oh, Sasha Floot.
- Her name is Sasha F-L-O-O-T.
465
00:21:50,602 --> 00:21:52,145
Sasha, she gonna post this
on her Instagram
466
00:21:52,228 --> 00:21:53,897
because she's
a cocky little biyatch.
467
00:21:53,980 --> 00:21:56,858
Hey, y'all, it's Sasha,
and I'm walking you through
468
00:21:56,941 --> 00:21:59,611
the Library of Congress.
No one in 200 years
469
00:21:59,694 --> 00:22:02,072
have ever heard this flute
get played.
470
00:22:02,155 --> 00:22:05,325
So, of course
she had to twerk.
471
00:22:05,408 --> 00:22:07,410
Oh, my God.
472
00:22:07,494 --> 00:22:09,120
Are you kidding me?
473
00:22:09,204 --> 00:22:10,914
♪ ♪
474
00:22:10,997 --> 00:22:11,915
- Where do I blow?
475
00:22:11,998 --> 00:22:12,916
- Heh. Well...
476
00:22:12,999 --> 00:22:15,502
[trilling notes]
477
00:22:15,585 --> 00:22:17,587
[applause]
478
00:22:17,670 --> 00:22:23,093
♪ ♪
479
00:22:23,176 --> 00:22:24,636
This is a beginner flute.
480
00:22:29,057 --> 00:22:31,434
My dad would come to
the concerts with my mom,
481
00:22:31,518 --> 00:22:33,144
and they thought
that, you know,
482
00:22:33,228 --> 00:22:35,105
Mr. Broughton's band was cool.
483
00:22:35,188 --> 00:22:37,857
But he didn't really
get invested
484
00:22:37,941 --> 00:22:41,736
until I learned
"The Carnival of Venice."
485
00:22:41,820 --> 00:22:43,113
Whew!
[clank]
486
00:22:43,196 --> 00:22:44,823
Oh, shit!
487
00:22:44,906 --> 00:22:45,907
Wow.
488
00:22:45,990 --> 00:22:48,326
This is the sickest thing ever.
489
00:22:48,409 --> 00:22:52,038
"The Carnival of Venice"
is this technical feat.
490
00:22:52,122 --> 00:22:55,208
It's like
a flute's piece and chain.
491
00:22:55,291 --> 00:22:58,044
You know what I'm saying?
A flute showing out.
492
00:22:58,128 --> 00:23:01,297
And my dad thought that that
was the coolest thing ever.
493
00:23:01,381 --> 00:23:04,467
He was all, she good at this.
[chuckles]
494
00:23:04,551 --> 00:23:09,514
♪ ♪
495
00:23:09,597 --> 00:23:11,307
He was like, you need
to get a lavalier mic,
496
00:23:11,391 --> 00:23:12,976
and you need to start
playing the flute
497
00:23:13,059 --> 00:23:15,770
and putting synthesizers
on it.
498
00:23:15,854 --> 00:23:17,689
My dad just
motivated me a lot.
499
00:23:17,772 --> 00:23:18,857
Bye, guys.
500
00:23:18,940 --> 00:23:22,735
♪ ♪
501
00:23:23,987 --> 00:23:27,657
Oh, God. I don't even wanna
think about this.
502
00:23:27,740 --> 00:23:31,536
He had his first stroke
when I was 16.
503
00:23:32,579 --> 00:23:34,664
I remember
in my mind being like,
504
00:23:34,747 --> 00:23:37,083
I'm going to become
successful.
505
00:23:37,167 --> 00:23:38,751
I'm gonna make money
506
00:23:38,835 --> 00:23:41,504
so that I can just make sure
that my dad is healthy.
507
00:23:41,588 --> 00:23:44,591
I can buy him a nice
house with Mommy,
508
00:23:44,674 --> 00:23:46,676
and I'll get a live-in nurse
that can just, like,
509
00:23:46,759 --> 00:23:48,428
juice for him every day,
and a chef.
510
00:23:48,511 --> 00:23:51,347
And I had all these
big dreams and plans
511
00:23:51,431 --> 00:23:53,766
and goals to help him.
512
00:23:56,644 --> 00:24:01,357
2006 to, like, 2010
513
00:24:01,441 --> 00:24:06,362
was a hot mess blur for me.
514
00:24:07,322 --> 00:24:10,700
I graduated high school,
and I went to college.
515
00:24:10,783 --> 00:24:13,077
My dad was kind of
in the house a lot,
516
00:24:13,161 --> 00:24:15,371
couldn't really work that much.
517
00:24:15,455 --> 00:24:19,167
That was the same time
the financial crisis hit.
518
00:24:19,250 --> 00:24:23,421
My parents' business suffered,
but also my dad was sick.
519
00:24:23,504 --> 00:24:25,715
The pressure really got to me,
520
00:24:25,798 --> 00:24:29,552
and I really kind of
like froze
521
00:24:29,636 --> 00:24:32,222
when it was time
to go back to school.
522
00:24:32,305 --> 00:24:36,434
So yeah, I just kind of
abandoned it.
523
00:24:36,517 --> 00:24:38,770
My dad would be
manifesting for me.
524
00:24:38,853 --> 00:24:41,231
He would be like, you know,
I was praying for you today,
525
00:24:41,314 --> 00:24:43,274
and I really want you
to go back to school,
526
00:24:43,358 --> 00:24:45,068
and I really want
you to study music
527
00:24:45,151 --> 00:24:47,237
and be successful in music.
528
00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:48,988
He wanted us to be,
like, stars
529
00:24:49,072 --> 00:24:51,616
because my dad believed
he was a star,
530
00:24:51,699 --> 00:24:53,868
and he believed
that my mom was a star.
531
00:24:53,952 --> 00:24:55,620
Not a star in the, like,
532
00:24:55,703 --> 00:24:57,580
you're going to be famous
type of way,
533
00:24:57,664 --> 00:24:59,999
but like,
do you know who you are?
534
00:25:00,083 --> 00:25:03,920
You came from me,
so you should be great.
535
00:25:06,172 --> 00:25:08,716
He was actually doing better.
536
00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:13,930
He was at a hospital,
537
00:25:14,013 --> 00:25:18,935
and, um, I still don't know
what happened to him.
538
00:25:19,018 --> 00:25:22,689
I still don't know.
He was...
539
00:25:22,772 --> 00:25:25,900
he was getting better.
540
00:25:27,110 --> 00:25:28,444
When he passed away,
541
00:25:28,528 --> 00:25:31,531
I kind of lost the will
to make music.
542
00:25:31,614 --> 00:25:34,909
I lost the will to live.
543
00:25:34,993 --> 00:25:36,286
[heartbeat thumping]
544
00:25:36,369 --> 00:25:39,289
A lot went to shit
in that time.
545
00:25:39,372 --> 00:25:42,333
I lost my apartment.
I lost my job, I lost my dad.
546
00:25:42,417 --> 00:25:45,586
I was sleeping on floors,
sleeping in, like,
547
00:25:45,670 --> 00:25:49,465
my band's rehearsal studio,
sleeping in my car.
548
00:25:49,549 --> 00:25:52,719
It was a old 1998 Subaru,
549
00:25:52,802 --> 00:25:56,764
and the side was T-boned in.
550
00:25:56,848 --> 00:25:59,142
I slept in my car
on Thanksgiving,
551
00:25:59,225 --> 00:26:01,519
and I just cried.
552
00:26:03,313 --> 00:26:07,066
I lost everything.
553
00:26:08,901 --> 00:26:11,279
[background chatter]
554
00:26:11,362 --> 00:26:15,575
I didn't talk to anyone.
I didn't respond to questions.
555
00:26:15,658 --> 00:26:17,452
I don't know what this was.
556
00:26:17,535 --> 00:26:20,079
It was some weird
psychotic break.
557
00:26:20,163 --> 00:26:22,749
I would go out in
the streets all alone,
558
00:26:22,832 --> 00:26:24,667
and I would sing by myself.
559
00:26:24,751 --> 00:26:29,255
And the thing that came out
was just ugly and raw and dark
560
00:26:29,339 --> 00:26:31,883
and therapeutic all at once.
561
00:26:31,966 --> 00:26:36,179
♪ Ooh ooh ♪
562
00:26:36,262 --> 00:26:39,015
My relationship with
myself had to change,
563
00:26:39,098 --> 00:26:42,143
because in order to pick
myself back up off the floor,
564
00:26:42,226 --> 00:26:44,437
I had to trust myself.
565
00:26:44,520 --> 00:26:45,730
I had to love that person.
566
00:26:45,813 --> 00:26:47,565
♪ Am I ready? ♪
567
00:26:47,648 --> 00:26:49,901
♪ ♪
568
00:26:49,984 --> 00:26:51,527
I was like, all right, well,
569
00:26:51,611 --> 00:26:54,030
I can't stay in Houston
anymore,
570
00:26:54,113 --> 00:26:57,450
and I kind of threw myself
into the unknown.
571
00:26:57,533 --> 00:26:59,535
♪ ♪
572
00:26:59,619 --> 00:27:00,870
Hello.
573
00:27:00,953 --> 00:27:03,331
I'm going to be singing
"Ghosts."
574
00:27:03,414 --> 00:27:05,833
It is one of the songs I
sing with my band, Ellipses,
575
00:27:05,917 --> 00:27:07,960
and it's written by
Jean Guillory,
576
00:27:08,044 --> 00:27:10,088
not me, Melissa.
OK.
577
00:27:10,171 --> 00:27:11,672
♪ I will never touch you ♪
578
00:27:11,756 --> 00:27:13,216
♪ Rather, you will
never touch me ♪
579
00:27:13,299 --> 00:27:14,425
Good luck, though.
580
00:27:14,509 --> 00:27:16,177
♪ Lost in the desert ♪
581
00:27:16,260 --> 00:27:18,054
♪ And losing your mind ♪
582
00:27:18,137 --> 00:27:20,723
♪ Looking for something
you were hoping to-- ♪
583
00:27:20,807 --> 00:27:22,392
♪ [indistinct], biopic ♪
584
00:27:22,475 --> 00:27:24,394
♪ I'm moon walking on Mars ♪
585
00:27:24,477 --> 00:27:28,064
I had been doing, like, Skype
sessions with this producer.
586
00:27:28,147 --> 00:27:29,899
- That's my cousin.
587
00:27:29,982 --> 00:27:31,401
- That's my sister.
588
00:27:31,484 --> 00:27:32,902
- And he was like,
let's go to Minneapolis.
589
00:27:32,985 --> 00:27:34,695
That's where
the music scene is.
590
00:27:34,779 --> 00:27:37,407
So I hopped in his Jeep,
and we drove to Minneapolis,
591
00:27:37,490 --> 00:27:39,951
and I found my voice.
592
00:27:40,034 --> 00:27:42,412
♪ Nah mean?
nah, you don't ♪
593
00:27:42,495 --> 00:27:43,704
♪ Anyways I get that green ♪
594
00:27:43,788 --> 00:27:45,331
♪ They said I won't ♪
595
00:27:45,415 --> 00:27:46,958
♪ Was the rumor
since the womb ♪
596
00:27:47,041 --> 00:27:48,459
♪ And I continue
steady blooming ♪
597
00:27:48,543 --> 00:27:50,169
♪ Dooming, glooming,
on these people ♪
598
00:27:50,253 --> 00:27:51,921
♪ That be thinking
that they doin' something ♪
599
00:27:52,004 --> 00:27:54,632
First, I was in Lizzo
and the Larva Inc.
600
00:27:54,715 --> 00:27:58,094
Then I was in The Chalice.
601
00:27:58,177 --> 00:28:00,096
And then I was in
602
00:28:00,179 --> 00:28:01,931
GRRRL PRTY.
603
00:28:02,014 --> 00:28:03,808
♪ Shooting you
from every angle ♪
604
00:28:03,891 --> 00:28:05,435
♪ Hurt your feelings
and your paycheck ♪
605
00:28:05,518 --> 00:28:07,186
♪ Got a feeling
you won't make it, bye ♪
606
00:28:07,270 --> 00:28:10,606
♪ Oops, I didn't know
you was a wegula ♪
607
00:28:10,690 --> 00:28:12,066
♪ Oops, my bad ♪
608
00:28:12,150 --> 00:28:14,444
I met Sophia Eris
like the first week
609
00:28:14,527 --> 00:28:17,280
I moved to Minneapolis
at a block party.
610
00:28:17,363 --> 00:28:18,448
♪ Oh, you's a wegula ♪
611
00:28:18,531 --> 00:28:19,782
♪ Oh, you's a wegula ♪
612
00:28:19,866 --> 00:28:21,325
♪ Oops ♪
613
00:28:21,409 --> 00:28:23,870
It was hardcore,
it was party, clast,
614
00:28:23,953 --> 00:28:26,789
it was, like, rebellious,
it was very punk rap, you know?
615
00:28:26,873 --> 00:28:29,459
And her and I together,
we were just, like,
616
00:28:29,542 --> 00:28:31,461
trying to do
anything we could.
617
00:28:31,544 --> 00:28:33,045
We were hungry.
618
00:28:33,129 --> 00:28:35,423
- Sophia became my DJ.
619
00:28:35,506 --> 00:28:37,300
It was kind of like
we needed each other,
620
00:28:37,383 --> 00:28:39,177
and we didn't really know
what this was all gonna be,
621
00:28:39,260 --> 00:28:40,720
but we're sisters, you know?
622
00:28:40,803 --> 00:28:42,388
♪ Running and running
until I can't go ♪
623
00:28:42,472 --> 00:28:43,639
♪ I cut the piece,
put that P in pocket ♪
624
00:28:43,723 --> 00:28:45,141
♪ Partly polyethylene ♪
625
00:28:45,224 --> 00:28:46,642
♪ Partly a polygon
made up of particles ♪
626
00:28:46,726 --> 00:28:48,269
♪ Sparkle,
that glitter ain't gold ♪
627
00:28:48,352 --> 00:28:49,854
I was working in
a producer's home studio,
628
00:28:49,937 --> 00:28:51,731
and his style was very
Rap Olympics,
629
00:28:51,814 --> 00:28:54,150
where I'm like...
♪ Remember that gooey gooey ♪
630
00:28:54,233 --> 00:28:55,943
♪ You took us at, ooh wee,
ooh wee, I need two-a towey ♪
631
00:28:56,027 --> 00:28:57,737
And he's like,
all right, one more time.
632
00:28:57,820 --> 00:28:59,280
And I'm like...[inhales]
♪ Remember that gooey gooey ♪
633
00:28:59,363 --> 00:29:00,948
♪ You took us at,
ooh wee, ooh wee ♪
634
00:29:01,032 --> 00:29:02,658
♪ I need two-a twoey-a
these for my baby boo-y ♪
635
00:29:02,742 --> 00:29:05,912
And then I evolved into
Big Grrrl Small World
636
00:29:05,995 --> 00:29:08,623
where I was like,
I wanna get weird.
637
00:29:08,706 --> 00:29:10,208
[vocalizing]
638
00:29:10,291 --> 00:29:11,751
I started getting
into like sonics.
639
00:29:11,834 --> 00:29:13,544
The throat got all these
little nuances to it.
640
00:29:13,628 --> 00:29:15,671
You got to get under--
I studied music theory,
641
00:29:15,755 --> 00:29:17,340
and I was like,
I need to flex that.
642
00:29:17,423 --> 00:29:19,008
And so for
Big Grrrl Small World,
643
00:29:19,091 --> 00:29:21,761
I got very
in the driver's seat.
644
00:29:21,844 --> 00:29:22,970
♪ B-b-b-b-b-b-big girl ♪
645
00:29:23,054 --> 00:29:24,972
♪ S-s-s-s-s-s-small world ♪
646
00:29:25,056 --> 00:29:26,516
Because nobody knows
my truth, you know.
647
00:29:26,599 --> 00:29:27,892
I have to like find it.
648
00:29:27,975 --> 00:29:29,143
Got a lot on my chest,
649
00:29:29,227 --> 00:29:30,353
so here's my breast
reduction.
650
00:29:30,436 --> 00:29:31,479
I hear the sound
of gums bumping.
651
00:29:31,562 --> 00:29:32,730
They ain't saying nothing.
652
00:29:32,813 --> 00:29:33,981
I'm sick and tired
of being typecast
653
00:29:34,065 --> 00:29:35,024
like Lindsay Lohan
654
00:29:35,107 --> 00:29:36,609
when I'm gon' probably outlast
655
00:29:36,692 --> 00:29:37,985
every nigga flowing.
656
00:29:38,069 --> 00:29:40,446
♪ All these niggas
want to ride it ♪
657
00:29:40,530 --> 00:29:42,114
♪ All these niggas wanna ride ♪
658
00:29:42,198 --> 00:29:48,204
♪ I-i-i-i-it ♪
659
00:29:48,287 --> 00:29:49,580
Boom!
660
00:29:49,664 --> 00:29:51,249
[laughs]
661
00:29:51,332 --> 00:29:54,335
"Lizzobangers,"
what I did with Lazerbeak,
662
00:29:54,418 --> 00:29:56,629
kind of came out
unexpectedly for me
663
00:29:56,712 --> 00:30:00,424
'cause I have been in
girl bands my entire life.
664
00:30:00,508 --> 00:30:03,636
- And now we just got
word of a new solo record.
665
00:30:03,719 --> 00:30:06,681
- Yay!
- Big Grrrl Small World.
666
00:30:06,764 --> 00:30:08,266
- I'm so excited.
667
00:30:08,349 --> 00:30:10,893
I finally just went in
and started recording.
668
00:30:10,977 --> 00:30:12,520
And I had this
breakthrough moment
669
00:30:12,603 --> 00:30:15,898
where I wrote a song
called "My Skin."
670
00:30:16,857 --> 00:30:19,902
When I wrote that song, I was
like, now, I know my mission.
671
00:30:19,986 --> 00:30:21,153
Like, I know why I'm here,
672
00:30:21,237 --> 00:30:23,155
I why I have this mouthpiece.
673
00:30:23,239 --> 00:30:26,951
And everything else
became super, super clear.
674
00:30:27,034 --> 00:30:28,953
- What do you love the most
675
00:30:29,036 --> 00:30:30,496
about your body?
676
00:30:30,580 --> 00:30:33,374
- My skin.
677
00:30:33,457 --> 00:30:36,794
I love my skin.
[laughing/crying]
678
00:30:36,877 --> 00:30:38,921
And this is something
I was born with, you know?
679
00:30:39,005 --> 00:30:42,508
You can't buy this
at the store, so...hey.
680
00:30:42,592 --> 00:30:45,219
Your whole life, when you
are on the other side
681
00:30:45,303 --> 00:30:47,597
of the spectrum of, like,
what's hot
682
00:30:47,680 --> 00:30:50,933
or what the models are
walking in on the runway,
683
00:30:51,017 --> 00:30:52,685
you're called these names.
684
00:30:52,768 --> 00:30:55,605
You're called fat, you're
called big, you're called ew.
685
00:30:55,688 --> 00:30:58,441
I remember being like,
should I call myself big?
686
00:30:58,524 --> 00:31:00,109
I mean, I might as well
call myself big
687
00:31:00,192 --> 00:31:02,612
before everybody else do
on the internet.
688
00:31:02,695 --> 00:31:04,447
And then one day,
I was like, yo, like,
689
00:31:04,530 --> 00:31:06,073
I'm going to be
in this body forever.
690
00:31:06,157 --> 00:31:07,908
I'm going to be
this bitch forever,
691
00:31:07,992 --> 00:31:10,244
so you either live
your life not liking her,
692
00:31:10,328 --> 00:31:13,205
or you live your life
trying to love her.
693
00:31:13,289 --> 00:31:14,624
♪ Uh yeah ♪
694
00:31:14,707 --> 00:31:16,125
♪ Ooh what's deeper than ♪
695
00:31:16,208 --> 00:31:17,793
♪ What's deeper
than the darkest ♪
696
00:31:17,877 --> 00:31:19,378
♪ Best kept secret ♪
697
00:31:19,462 --> 00:31:21,339
♪ Beneath the surface,
we could ♪
698
00:31:21,422 --> 00:31:22,923
♪ Let it bring us together... ♪
699
00:31:23,007 --> 00:31:24,675
Before that,
I hadn't heard anyone say
700
00:31:24,759 --> 00:31:26,427
I'm in love with myself
on a song.
701
00:31:26,510 --> 00:31:28,554
But people connected to it,
and it was personal,
702
00:31:28,638 --> 00:31:29,972
and it was real.
703
00:31:30,056 --> 00:31:32,308
So I realized
that was who I was.
704
00:31:32,391 --> 00:31:36,145
♪ Beautiful thing
that you ever seen ♪
705
00:31:36,228 --> 00:31:37,521
♪ Is even bigger than...♪
706
00:31:37,605 --> 00:31:39,231
I used to wanna be
a cool rapper,
707
00:31:39,315 --> 00:31:42,777
but after "My Skin,"
it really hit me, like,
708
00:31:42,860 --> 00:31:44,904
I'm really a songwriter.
709
00:31:44,987 --> 00:31:47,198
And I wanted to write a song
710
00:31:47,281 --> 00:31:49,992
that the whole world
could sing back to me.
711
00:31:50,076 --> 00:31:51,494
♪ My skin ♪
712
00:31:51,577 --> 00:31:55,247
♪ Your skin, yeah ♪
713
00:31:55,331 --> 00:31:58,167
♪ Oh, I can't wash it away ♪
714
00:31:58,250 --> 00:32:00,586
♪ No, you can't
take this from me ♪
715
00:32:00,670 --> 00:32:03,839
Minneapolis accepted, like,
every single part of me,
716
00:32:03,923 --> 00:32:07,259
the part of me that had
a little bit of a accent
717
00:32:07,343 --> 00:32:09,345
and loved to freestyle rap,
718
00:32:09,428 --> 00:32:11,097
and then
the other side of me
719
00:32:11,180 --> 00:32:13,391
that was like, I listen
to indie rock music
720
00:32:13,474 --> 00:32:15,267
and play classical flute.
721
00:32:15,351 --> 00:32:17,144
♪ Ooh, my skin... ♪
722
00:32:17,228 --> 00:32:19,689
I feel like this city
gave me the opportunity
723
00:32:19,772 --> 00:32:22,983
to just be who I am.
724
00:32:25,111 --> 00:32:26,696
I don't think I would
have left Minneapolis
725
00:32:26,779 --> 00:32:29,407
if it weren't for
MTV Wonderland.
726
00:32:29,490 --> 00:32:31,242
It's going to be on
and popping, Khaled.
727
00:32:31,325 --> 00:32:32,618
You got to watch it.
728
00:32:32,702 --> 00:32:34,662
It premieres September
15 at 11:00 p.m.
729
00:32:34,745 --> 00:32:36,706
Honestly, hosting that TV show
730
00:32:36,789 --> 00:32:38,958
was the only reason why
I moved to LA,
731
00:32:39,041 --> 00:32:41,210
which, it weren't for that,
732
00:32:41,293 --> 00:32:43,963
then I would have never
met Myke.
733
00:32:44,046 --> 00:32:47,800
And then I would have never
fallen in love.
734
00:32:47,883 --> 00:32:50,219
But that's a long story.
735
00:32:50,302 --> 00:32:53,222
Wow, all these people are
just, like, regular drivers.
736
00:32:53,305 --> 00:32:55,224
They don't know
that I'm fucking--
737
00:32:55,307 --> 00:32:57,393
- A first timer?
- Yeah.
738
00:32:57,476 --> 00:32:59,019
Whew, another car, look.
739
00:32:59,103 --> 00:33:03,274
[Lizzo's "Fitness"]
[thumping steering wheel]
740
00:33:03,357 --> 00:33:05,109
Why am I not honking?
741
00:33:05,192 --> 00:33:07,319
[thumping]
[honks horn]
742
00:33:07,403 --> 00:33:08,612
There it is.
743
00:33:08,696 --> 00:33:09,905
Full stop.
744
00:33:09,989 --> 00:33:11,741
I don't do no
California--whoa!
745
00:33:11,824 --> 00:33:14,410
- When was the
last time you drove?
746
00:33:14,493 --> 00:33:17,288
- 2000 and, um, [mumbles].
747
00:33:17,371 --> 00:33:19,081
[both laugh]
748
00:33:19,165 --> 00:33:20,624
I haven't been able
to get a license
749
00:33:20,708 --> 00:33:22,835
for, like, mm...years
750
00:33:22,918 --> 00:33:25,838
'cause somebody
had stole my identity,
751
00:33:25,921 --> 00:33:28,924
and I had two licenses
down in Houston.
752
00:33:29,008 --> 00:33:31,927
And one of them had so many
outstanding fucking warrants
753
00:33:32,011 --> 00:33:34,930
that, you know,
I was riding dirty.
754
00:33:35,014 --> 00:33:36,974
I was riding dirty
just being there.
755
00:33:37,057 --> 00:33:39,935
- But you got your license.
- I know.
756
00:33:40,019 --> 00:33:41,812
Drivers don't want to wave?
- [laughs]
757
00:33:41,896 --> 00:33:43,981
- So much has changed
in all those years.
758
00:33:44,064 --> 00:33:45,691
- So much has changed
since 1900 and--
759
00:33:45,775 --> 00:33:47,693
- Watch the squirrel.
- Squirrel!
760
00:33:47,777 --> 00:33:49,445
I'm not going to
hit the squirrel.
761
00:33:49,528 --> 00:33:51,572
I'm a defensive driver,
you know, I mean,
762
00:33:51,655 --> 00:33:54,366
I can say I'm probably the best
defensive driver there is.
763
00:33:54,450 --> 00:33:55,409
[metal scrubbing]
764
00:33:55,493 --> 00:33:57,328
What? Oh, my God.
765
00:33:57,411 --> 00:33:59,288
Am I not supposed to hit that?
766
00:33:59,371 --> 00:34:01,290
[laughter]
767
00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:02,625
Whew!
768
00:34:02,708 --> 00:34:04,126
Wow!
769
00:34:04,210 --> 00:34:05,753
Suck it, Texas.
770
00:34:05,836 --> 00:34:08,464
Texas was trying to
keep me down, man.
771
00:34:08,547 --> 00:34:09,965
But you know what?
772
00:34:10,049 --> 00:34:11,592
I'm a driver now.
773
00:34:11,675 --> 00:34:13,385
♪ But I don't do this for ♪
774
00:34:13,469 --> 00:34:17,097
♪ You-ooh-ooh-ooh... ♪
775
00:34:17,181 --> 00:34:19,141
♪ ♪
776
00:34:26,398 --> 00:34:28,192
- Artists are never
allowed to come back
777
00:34:28,275 --> 00:34:30,820
on the sophomore record
with, like, something real.
778
00:34:30,903 --> 00:34:35,533
It always has to be something
that's, like, so constructed
779
00:34:35,616 --> 00:34:37,660
that it's, like, bulletproof.
780
00:34:37,743 --> 00:34:39,495
- Of course,
I wanna be like, yeah,
781
00:34:39,578 --> 00:34:41,247
let's go out with something
fucking vulnerable.
782
00:34:41,330 --> 00:34:42,957
Like, trust me, I got
a lot of pent-up shit
783
00:34:43,040 --> 00:34:44,750
that I be just watching.
I'm like, damn,
784
00:34:44,834 --> 00:34:46,669
I wish I could say this,
I wish I could say that but--
785
00:34:46,752 --> 00:34:49,088
- What are actually some of
those pent-up things
786
00:34:49,171 --> 00:34:52,758
that you feel like
you can't say?
787
00:34:52,842 --> 00:34:55,010
- When I'm feeling shitty
about myself, I'm honest.
788
00:34:55,094 --> 00:34:56,595
But then the whole
internet goes crazy,
789
00:34:56,679 --> 00:34:58,931
and it's, like, on
the fucking news.
790
00:34:59,014 --> 00:35:01,100
But I'm like, I'm just
being honest, you know.
791
00:35:01,183 --> 00:35:02,643
I'm just saying the things
that people feel
792
00:35:02,726 --> 00:35:04,854
about themselves,
whether they're big or small,
793
00:35:04,937 --> 00:35:06,313
every single day.
794
00:35:06,397 --> 00:35:09,692
- In this fucking world
of Instagram supermodels,
795
00:35:09,775 --> 00:35:14,613
you're the only girl your size,
your style, that they accept.
796
00:35:14,697 --> 00:35:17,157
Even the people
that talk shit about you,
797
00:35:17,241 --> 00:35:20,369
they're talking shit about you
because they're confused
798
00:35:20,452 --> 00:35:22,371
as to why you're accepted.
- Yeah.
799
00:35:22,454 --> 00:35:26,166
I'm so fucking happy with the
way that I look and who I am,
800
00:35:26,250 --> 00:35:27,793
and it's so crazy,
'cause you put my body
801
00:35:27,877 --> 00:35:30,337
next to Kim Kardashian's
and, baby,
802
00:35:30,421 --> 00:35:31,964
people would think
that I'm wrong.
803
00:35:32,047 --> 00:35:34,049
But I'm like,
this is the body I was given.
804
00:35:34,133 --> 00:35:36,093
- Now we're talking.
- You know?
805
00:35:36,177 --> 00:35:38,053
I don't think I want to
write a song
806
00:35:38,137 --> 00:35:40,806
tackling everything at once
that we're talking about.
807
00:35:40,890 --> 00:35:43,642
- Right.
- I think to do something else
808
00:35:43,726 --> 00:35:46,145
and then drop these
kind of like
809
00:35:46,228 --> 00:35:48,188
unabashed truths in there,
810
00:35:48,272 --> 00:35:50,107
and then people
are like, oh, OK.
811
00:35:50,190 --> 00:35:51,859
[track playing]
812
00:35:51,942 --> 00:35:53,360
♪ Hi, motherfucker ♪
813
00:35:53,444 --> 00:35:55,154
♪ Did you miss me? ♪
814
00:35:55,237 --> 00:35:57,948
♪ I been twerking,
making smoothies ♪
815
00:35:58,032 --> 00:36:01,035
♪ And all these rappers,
they've been sexting ♪
816
00:36:01,118 --> 00:36:03,579
♪ I'm in a meeting,
and I look better ♪
817
00:36:03,662 --> 00:36:05,956
♪ Than you seen me last ♪
818
00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:09,001
♪ I been training
I can flex that ass ♪
819
00:36:09,084 --> 00:36:12,630
♪ So when I shake it,
I can shake it fast ♪
820
00:36:12,713 --> 00:36:15,424
♪ Make that camera flash,
camera flash, camera flash ♪
821
00:36:15,507 --> 00:36:17,843
♪ If you're looking for
the sign, bitch, I'm it... ♪
822
00:36:17,927 --> 00:36:19,720
She talking about
making that album.
823
00:36:19,803 --> 00:36:22,097
Hey!
A album?
824
00:36:22,181 --> 00:36:23,098
A album, bitch?
825
00:36:23,182 --> 00:36:25,351
A album?
Absolutely not.
826
00:36:25,434 --> 00:36:26,769
I'm not making
no fucking album.
827
00:36:26,852 --> 00:36:29,229
♪ Just a second,
let me fix my wig, yeah ♪
828
00:36:29,313 --> 00:36:32,858
♪ Now it's time to finally
talk my shit, yeah ♪
829
00:36:32,942 --> 00:36:35,945
♪ Oh, did you forget
I'm still that bitch, yeah ♪
830
00:36:36,028 --> 00:36:38,739
♪ I live inside your head
and pay no rent, yeah ♪
831
00:36:38,822 --> 00:36:40,824
A album!
832
00:36:40,908 --> 00:36:42,451
♪ I'm blessed, I said ♪
833
00:36:42,534 --> 00:36:43,869
♪ I'm getting some head ♪
834
00:36:43,953 --> 00:36:45,454
♪ I'm Texas Toast ♪
835
00:36:45,537 --> 00:36:46,872
♪ I'm cornbread-fed ♪
836
00:36:46,956 --> 00:36:48,499
♪ I'm good, I'm great ♪
837
00:36:48,582 --> 00:36:50,000
♪ I'm two hours late ♪
838
00:36:50,084 --> 00:36:51,585
♪ But I'm on my way ♪
839
00:36:51,669 --> 00:36:52,795
♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
840
00:36:52,878 --> 00:36:54,588
- Yeah. Something like...
841
00:36:54,672 --> 00:36:56,048
'cause the second verse
is good.
842
00:36:56,131 --> 00:36:57,591
There's just some things
in the first verse,
843
00:36:57,675 --> 00:36:59,301
and then there's like
a few things in the hook,
844
00:36:59,385 --> 00:37:01,178
and then the second time,
when the pre comes.
845
00:37:01,262 --> 00:37:02,680
- So the whole song?
846
00:37:02,763 --> 00:37:06,600
[laughter]
847
00:37:06,684 --> 00:37:08,644
- There is more pressure
848
00:37:08,727 --> 00:37:11,522
from not only
my management team
849
00:37:11,605 --> 00:37:13,065
but from the label.
850
00:37:13,148 --> 00:37:15,651
- Get, like, an update on,
in case nobody told you--
851
00:37:15,734 --> 00:37:17,444
- I was writing good songs,
and I was like,
852
00:37:17,528 --> 00:37:19,822
oh, shit, like, I've got
some really good songs.
853
00:37:19,905 --> 00:37:22,074
- Should we see how it sounds?
- Yeah, let's hear it.
854
00:37:22,157 --> 00:37:24,952
I played them for
Atlantic Records.
855
00:37:25,035 --> 00:37:27,329
And for me, I thought
they would be like...
856
00:37:27,413 --> 00:37:29,999
"This is it.
You've done it again.
857
00:37:30,082 --> 00:37:32,501
Girl, you did it."
858
00:37:32,584 --> 00:37:34,503
And, um...
859
00:37:34,586 --> 00:37:36,714
they just were like...
860
00:37:36,797 --> 00:37:39,675
"Yeah, um..."
861
00:37:39,758 --> 00:37:42,386
I was so fuckin' mad
that day.
862
00:37:42,469 --> 00:37:45,305
I was like, I don't trust
the damn label right now.
863
00:37:45,389 --> 00:37:47,099
I need to trust myself.
864
00:37:47,182 --> 00:37:48,976
- I mean, it sounds insane,
865
00:37:49,059 --> 00:37:50,811
but they're just
super thorough.
866
00:37:50,894 --> 00:37:53,814
- You are coming from
a place where just--
867
00:37:53,897 --> 00:37:57,192
you're now in a...you've won
Grammys and shit now,
868
00:37:57,276 --> 00:37:58,736
so they wanna keep that up too.
869
00:37:58,819 --> 00:38:00,279
They want critical acclaim.
870
00:38:00,362 --> 00:38:02,031
- I don't know what music is.
871
00:38:02,114 --> 00:38:05,868
I don't know what
songwriters do.
872
00:38:05,951 --> 00:38:07,453
I'm tired.
873
00:38:07,536 --> 00:38:09,747
- When did you write "Good
as Hell" and "Truth Hurts"?
874
00:38:09,830 --> 00:38:12,207
Did you care?
875
00:38:12,291 --> 00:38:13,375
- No.
876
00:38:13,459 --> 00:38:14,626
- Did you overthink
those songs?
877
00:38:14,710 --> 00:38:16,754
- No.
- All right.
878
00:38:18,088 --> 00:38:20,549
- You got a point there, buddy.
879
00:38:20,632 --> 00:38:23,218
You got a point there, buddy.
880
00:38:23,302 --> 00:38:25,554
It's OK.
881
00:38:25,637 --> 00:38:30,100
The story of how
"Truth Hurts" evolved...
882
00:38:30,184 --> 00:38:34,146
I got my heart
stomped on in 2017.
883
00:38:35,606 --> 00:38:37,399
I wish that there
were cameras then.
884
00:38:37,483 --> 00:38:38,817
Shit.
885
00:38:38,901 --> 00:38:42,237
'Cause it was
really just a sad day.
886
00:38:42,321 --> 00:38:44,490
It was around my birthday,
887
00:38:44,573 --> 00:38:47,868
and I had a voicemail and
this phone call from this guy.
888
00:38:47,951 --> 00:38:51,789
He was like, please don't
contact me, don't call me,
889
00:38:51,872 --> 00:38:53,040
don't text me.
890
00:38:53,123 --> 00:38:56,418
And I was like, huh?
891
00:38:56,502 --> 00:38:58,045
[somber music]
892
00:38:58,128 --> 00:39:00,506
It was painful,
like I slid down the wall.
893
00:39:00,589 --> 00:39:02,883
I was crying.
Like, I was crying for days.
894
00:39:02,966 --> 00:39:05,385
I didn't eat.
895
00:39:05,469 --> 00:39:07,513
So I go into the studio,
896
00:39:07,596 --> 00:39:10,140
and I was just
talking about my day.
897
00:39:10,224 --> 00:39:11,600
It was that weekend.
898
00:39:11,683 --> 00:39:13,685
Like, there was this dude
on the Minnesota Vikings
899
00:39:13,769 --> 00:39:17,356
who wanted to go on a date
with me, so I hit him back.
900
00:39:17,439 --> 00:39:19,650
And then,
I took my weave out
901
00:39:19,733 --> 00:39:23,153
and just went and got my hair
washed and pressed and cut.
902
00:39:23,237 --> 00:39:24,988
I just wanted some new energy.
903
00:39:25,072 --> 00:39:26,949
I took a bomb photo,
and I was like,
904
00:39:27,032 --> 00:39:30,786
life is fucked up right now,
but at least I look good.
905
00:39:30,869 --> 00:39:33,372
Remember, I was like, oh,
you trying to break my heart?
906
00:39:33,455 --> 00:39:34,832
Huh.
907
00:39:34,915 --> 00:39:36,583
Breaks my heart.
908
00:39:36,667 --> 00:39:38,627
'Cause you ain't
never even had it.
909
00:39:39,711 --> 00:39:41,421
It was just like
a magical moment
910
00:39:41,505 --> 00:39:45,634
of everything I've ever
said out of raw emotion,
911
00:39:45,717 --> 00:39:47,594
and I just put it in a song.
912
00:39:47,678 --> 00:39:49,054
That's why it's so important
913
00:39:49,138 --> 00:39:51,723
that I just keep
writing shit like that.
914
00:39:51,807 --> 00:39:53,308
♪ Ah ah ♪
915
00:39:53,392 --> 00:39:55,102
I'm glad it happened.
916
00:39:55,185 --> 00:39:58,105
Sometimes I'll be laughing
to myself like, this boy.
917
00:39:58,188 --> 00:40:00,482
And I just sing
the song about him.
918
00:40:00,566 --> 00:40:01,775
Ha ha.
919
00:40:01,859 --> 00:40:03,318
This is my favorite part.
920
00:40:03,402 --> 00:40:05,112
♪ I just took a DNA test ♪
921
00:40:05,195 --> 00:40:08,323
♪ Turns out
I'm 100% that bitch ♪
922
00:40:08,407 --> 00:40:09,700
♪ Even when I'm cryin' crazy ♪
923
00:40:09,783 --> 00:40:11,368
♪ Yeah, I got boy problems ♪
924
00:40:11,451 --> 00:40:13,495
♪ That's the human in me,
bling bling... ♪
925
00:40:13,579 --> 00:40:15,747
This is the cover shoot
of "Cuz I Love You."
926
00:40:15,831 --> 00:40:17,666
Like, that is
the black backdrop,
927
00:40:17,749 --> 00:40:19,418
and I sat right where he is.
928
00:40:19,501 --> 00:40:20,836
I just got so excited.
929
00:40:20,919 --> 00:40:22,671
We're gonna
listen to the album.
930
00:40:22,754 --> 00:40:24,465
I'm about to be naked.
It's be about to be fucking--
931
00:40:24,548 --> 00:40:25,924
I'm about to fuck
shit up it, bitch.
932
00:40:26,008 --> 00:40:27,593
What's good?
[laughter]
933
00:40:27,676 --> 00:40:29,595
Just a little tit.
934
00:40:29,678 --> 00:40:33,765
[electronic guitar riffing]
935
00:40:33,849 --> 00:40:37,352
It was kind of the beginning
of this wild ride.
936
00:40:37,436 --> 00:40:39,688
♪ Turn it up ♪
I was just excited.
937
00:40:39,771 --> 00:40:41,732
♪ Slow songs,
they for skinny hos ♪
938
00:40:41,815 --> 00:40:43,317
♪ Can't move all of this... ♪
939
00:40:43,400 --> 00:40:44,735
- You're the one killing it.
940
00:40:44,818 --> 00:40:46,528
- A genreless pop star,
a woman of color.
941
00:40:46,612 --> 00:40:48,488
- Hey, girl, color in black!
942
00:40:48,572 --> 00:40:50,824
- Peace and beauty.
- Can I get a amen?
943
00:40:50,908 --> 00:40:52,284
It's always kind
of been like this,
944
00:40:52,367 --> 00:40:53,702
and then this year,
it was just like--
945
00:40:53,785 --> 00:40:55,537
I don't know why
this bathtub
946
00:40:55,621 --> 00:40:57,497
is full of Skittles.
It gets weird.
947
00:40:57,581 --> 00:40:59,166
♪ ♪
948
00:40:59,249 --> 00:41:01,919
- Yeah, girl...
- We love you!
949
00:41:02,002 --> 00:41:04,296
- ♪ Kitty cat, kitty cat,
kitty-kitty cat ♪
950
00:41:04,379 --> 00:41:06,840
♪ Look at my ass,
it's fitty-fitty fat ♪
951
00:41:06,924 --> 00:41:07,925
It is incredible.
952
00:41:08,008 --> 00:41:09,176
Oh, my God.
953
00:41:09,259 --> 00:41:12,054
♪ Girls get love ♪
Whoo!
954
00:41:12,137 --> 00:41:13,722
♪ Slow songs,
that's for skinny hos ♪
955
00:41:13,805 --> 00:41:15,766
♪ Can't move all of this
here to one of those ♪
956
00:41:15,849 --> 00:41:18,518
♪ I'm a thick bitch,
I need tempo ♪
957
00:41:18,602 --> 00:41:19,895
Goddamn!
That's fine!
958
00:41:19,978 --> 00:41:23,065
♪ Fuck it up to the tempo ♪
959
00:41:23,148 --> 00:41:24,733
♪ Fuck it up
to the tempo ♪
960
00:41:24,816 --> 00:41:27,361
♪ Slow songs
ain't for skinny hos ♪
961
00:41:27,444 --> 00:41:29,196
Fuck it up to the tempo.
962
00:41:29,279 --> 00:41:32,032
Fuck it up.
Fuck it up.
963
00:41:32,115 --> 00:41:33,700
Whoo!
964
00:41:40,165 --> 00:41:43,043
[Lizzo's "Truth Hurts"]
965
00:41:43,126 --> 00:41:45,545
♪ New man
on the Minnesota Vikings ♪
966
00:41:45,629 --> 00:41:48,423
♪ Truth hurts, needed
something more exciting ♪
967
00:41:48,507 --> 00:41:49,925
♪ ♪
968
00:41:50,008 --> 00:41:53,095
All your guitars and shit
that you added are missing.
969
00:41:53,178 --> 00:41:54,346
Maybe it's just in my ears.
970
00:41:54,429 --> 00:41:55,806
Do you hear it in
the house, Devon?
971
00:41:55,889 --> 00:41:58,100
- [Devon, indistinct]
- So it's missing, yeah?
972
00:41:58,183 --> 00:41:59,935
Tracks are missing.
973
00:42:00,018 --> 00:42:01,478
It hurts my feelings.
974
00:42:01,561 --> 00:42:03,730
This is my show, this is
my music, this is my life.
975
00:42:03,814 --> 00:42:06,858
Please don't hurt my feelings.
Please don't break my heart.
976
00:42:06,942 --> 00:42:09,319
Let's all be the best
we can fucking be.
977
00:42:09,403 --> 00:42:11,530
This is fine,
but this is a rehearsal.
978
00:42:11,613 --> 00:42:12,990
But when it's time
to go tonight,
979
00:42:13,073 --> 00:42:15,284
it's time to motherfucking go.
980
00:42:15,367 --> 00:42:17,244
Thanks, everybody.
981
00:42:17,327 --> 00:42:19,454
I think in 2019,
982
00:42:19,538 --> 00:42:23,292
I was growing faster
than I could keep up.
983
00:42:23,375 --> 00:42:25,585
Like, holy shit,
now we're doing Coachella.
984
00:42:25,669 --> 00:42:28,755
And I wanted
the set to be perfect.
985
00:42:28,839 --> 00:42:32,134
And, you know, I was a
little big for my britches.
986
00:42:32,217 --> 00:42:34,928
♪ Everybody, hands up ♪
987
00:42:35,012 --> 00:42:36,722
♪ Hands to the sky ♪
988
00:42:36,805 --> 00:42:39,725
We gon' have us a good-ass
time today, Coachella.
989
00:42:39,808 --> 00:42:41,560
[music cuts out]
990
00:42:41,643 --> 00:42:43,603
Nothing but body
positivity and self-love.
991
00:42:43,687 --> 00:42:45,564
[cheers and applause]
992
00:42:45,647 --> 00:42:48,817
The music kept cutting
in and out because...
993
00:42:48,900 --> 00:42:50,444
♪ And baby, worship me ♪
994
00:42:50,527 --> 00:42:52,029
...our system had overheated.
995
00:42:52,112 --> 00:42:54,948
I'ma keep singing this shit.
♪ Worship me ♪
996
00:42:55,032 --> 00:42:56,616
♪ Yeah-ea-eah ♪
997
00:42:56,700 --> 00:42:59,286
We just kept dancing,
and I kept singing.
998
00:42:59,369 --> 00:43:01,830
♪ And baby, worship me ♪
999
00:43:01,913 --> 00:43:04,583
Back then,
I felt like who I am now.
1000
00:43:04,666 --> 00:43:06,501
But everything around me
1001
00:43:06,585 --> 00:43:08,670
was always kind of like
half done.
1002
00:43:08,754 --> 00:43:12,299
♪ Ee ee ee ee ee-ah ♪
1003
00:43:12,382 --> 00:43:15,135
[cheers and applause]
1004
00:43:17,262 --> 00:43:19,765
I want the show to be so much
bigger and better
1005
00:43:19,848 --> 00:43:21,350
than it is right now.
- Yeah, yeah.
1006
00:43:21,433 --> 00:43:23,977
- As I'm standing there,
I was like, huh?
1007
00:43:24,061 --> 00:43:25,812
We need pyrotechnics.
1008
00:43:25,896 --> 00:43:28,774
We need videos.
1009
00:43:28,857 --> 00:43:31,109
It breaks my heart because
1010
00:43:31,193 --> 00:43:32,611
these people
want to see a big show,
1011
00:43:32,694 --> 00:43:35,155
and I want to put on
a good show.
1012
00:43:35,864 --> 00:43:38,867
Our infrastructure
was tiny back then.
1013
00:43:38,950 --> 00:43:41,036
And at that point,
I was, like,
1014
00:43:41,119 --> 00:43:43,830
living in a one-bedroom
box apartment.
1015
00:43:43,914 --> 00:43:45,123
[chatter, light laugh]
1016
00:43:45,207 --> 00:43:47,167
It's like, it wouldn't be
1017
00:43:47,250 --> 00:43:48,877
a fucking Lizzo
award show performance
1018
00:43:48,960 --> 00:43:50,379
if it wasn't down to
1019
00:43:50,462 --> 00:43:52,339
the fucking wire.
[knock on door]
1020
00:43:52,422 --> 00:43:55,801
I'm just so fucking tired.
1021
00:43:55,884 --> 00:43:57,719
- It's 2:00 a.m.
1022
00:43:57,803 --> 00:43:59,721
- Welcome.
- Oh, my God.
1023
00:44:00,680 --> 00:44:01,973
- Welcome to my crowded
apartment.
1024
00:44:02,057 --> 00:44:03,767
- Welcome.
- I don't know how
1025
00:44:03,850 --> 00:44:07,270
you got this done
in less than 24 hours.
1026
00:44:07,354 --> 00:44:09,356
Fingers crossed.
1027
00:44:10,482 --> 00:44:13,360
Should I put it over my head?
- No, you're good.
1028
00:44:15,320 --> 00:44:17,072
- [sighing]
1029
00:44:17,155 --> 00:44:21,952
T-minus seven hours
before the AMAs.
1030
00:44:22,035 --> 00:44:24,621
We were struggling back then.
1031
00:44:24,704 --> 00:44:26,498
♪ 2:00 a.m. ♪
1032
00:44:26,581 --> 00:44:28,834
♪ In my apartment ♪
1033
00:44:28,917 --> 00:44:32,254
♪ Trying on a fucking gown ♪
1034
00:44:32,337 --> 00:44:34,089
- Beautiful.
1035
00:44:34,172 --> 00:44:37,092
- But I gotta give
everybody credit.
1036
00:44:37,175 --> 00:44:42,514
Like, I was working with
such a small group of people,
1037
00:44:42,597 --> 00:44:44,307
and we kept going.
1038
00:44:44,391 --> 00:44:47,102
- Look.
Look at it from behind.
1039
00:44:47,185 --> 00:44:49,688
- ♪ Jerome ♪
1040
00:44:49,771 --> 00:44:52,274
The show don't stop.
1041
00:44:52,357 --> 00:44:54,526
The show must go on.
1042
00:44:54,609 --> 00:44:56,194
[Lizzo's "Jerome"]
1043
00:44:56,278 --> 00:44:58,155
♪ Poor little baby ♪
1044
00:44:58,238 --> 00:45:00,615
♪ Who told you that you stood ♪
1045
00:45:00,699 --> 00:45:03,326
♪ A chance with this royalty ♪
1046
00:45:03,410 --> 00:45:06,079
♪ You're so sweet,
bless your heart ♪
1047
00:45:06,163 --> 00:45:10,125
♪ Can't let a pretty face
distract me from business ♪
1048
00:45:10,208 --> 00:45:15,547
♪ And God as my witness,
your ugly ass won't either ♪
1049
00:45:15,630 --> 00:45:16,923
I'm sorry.
1050
00:45:17,007 --> 00:45:18,550
The music has been
my first love.
1051
00:45:18,633 --> 00:45:22,137
Music has been my most
consistent lover.
1052
00:45:22,220 --> 00:45:25,599
And I always felt
like my music is
1053
00:45:25,682 --> 00:45:28,977
a conversation with the
people who listen to it.
1054
00:45:29,060 --> 00:45:31,396
♪ Jerome ♪
1055
00:45:31,480 --> 00:45:34,441
But when I perform
music sometimes,
1056
00:45:34,524 --> 00:45:36,943
I relive painful experiences.
1057
00:45:37,027 --> 00:45:40,155
But music didn't do
that to me, life did.
1058
00:45:40,238 --> 00:45:44,201
And because of music,
I can express that pain
1059
00:45:44,284 --> 00:45:48,497
in a way that makes life
easier.
1060
00:45:48,580 --> 00:45:51,583
♪ Jerome ♪
1061
00:45:53,168 --> 00:45:56,463
♪ Jerome ♪
1062
00:45:56,546 --> 00:46:01,009
♪ Go on and take
your ass home ♪
1063
00:46:01,092 --> 00:46:03,678
♪ Where the peaches have ♪
1064
00:46:03,762 --> 00:46:09,184
♪ Thorns ♪
1065
00:46:09,267 --> 00:46:14,272
♪ Don't cry for me, baby ♪
1066
00:46:14,356 --> 00:46:18,151
♪ Don't cry, no ♪
1067
00:46:18,235 --> 00:46:22,280
♪ Oh, don't cry for me,
baby ♪
1068
00:46:22,364 --> 00:46:27,911
♪ Oh, oh ♪
1069
00:46:27,994 --> 00:46:30,497
[audience cheers]
1070
00:46:30,580 --> 00:46:34,668
Me and Myke had been
friends since "Wonderland."
1071
00:46:34,751 --> 00:46:38,755
It's complicated
because we're friends
1072
00:46:38,838 --> 00:46:41,758
with a lot of feelings.
1073
00:46:41,841 --> 00:46:44,219
I didn't really know what
to do with all those feelings,
1074
00:46:44,302 --> 00:46:48,223
so we were off and on,
you know?
1075
00:46:48,306 --> 00:46:52,435
One day we were on,
and the next day we were off.
1076
00:46:53,603 --> 00:46:56,481
It hurt because I loved him,
1077
00:46:56,565 --> 00:47:01,528
but honestly, I don't think
I was ready for love.
1078
00:47:26,219 --> 00:47:28,179
I feel so bad.
1079
00:47:28,263 --> 00:47:33,101
[sobbing]
1080
00:47:33,184 --> 00:47:35,520
I don't know.
1081
00:47:35,604 --> 00:47:37,522
I feel so bad.
1082
00:47:41,276 --> 00:47:43,111
I don't know how
this person just has,
1083
00:47:43,194 --> 00:47:45,572
like, all of my heart.
1084
00:47:45,655 --> 00:47:48,825
You know what I mean?
1085
00:47:48,908 --> 00:47:50,827
I don't know what
I'm going to do.
1086
00:47:50,910 --> 00:47:52,454
I just want it to, like--
1087
00:47:52,537 --> 00:47:56,791
I just want, like,
the feelings to stop.
1088
00:47:56,875 --> 00:47:58,793
You look so nice, Shelby.
1089
00:47:58,877 --> 00:48:01,046
[laughs]
- Thank you.
1090
00:48:01,129 --> 00:48:02,380
Girl, this a hard one.
1091
00:48:02,464 --> 00:48:04,090
I don't even got no
words for you,
1092
00:48:04,174 --> 00:48:06,843
'cause I know exactly
how you feel.
1093
00:48:06,927 --> 00:48:09,638
- Yeah. Isn't it so scary
just being like,
1094
00:48:09,721 --> 00:48:12,057
what if this hurts,
or what if it doesn't work?
1095
00:48:12,140 --> 00:48:14,476
Like, it's not even about him.
1096
00:48:14,559 --> 00:48:18,146
It's just about, like, fear,
like, I have a lot of fear.
1097
00:48:18,229 --> 00:48:19,814
You know?
1098
00:48:19,898 --> 00:48:22,859
This is the first time I've
ever been so close to someone
1099
00:48:22,942 --> 00:48:25,987
who doesn't need me
or doesn't ask me for anything,
1100
00:48:26,071 --> 00:48:29,115
which was something
I thought was nice at first.
1101
00:48:29,199 --> 00:48:30,742
It was refreshing.
1102
00:48:30,825 --> 00:48:32,911
And then, now, it's like,
oh, no, you don't need me.
1103
00:48:32,994 --> 00:48:35,413
You don't need me at all.
1104
00:48:37,874 --> 00:48:39,376
Ugh.
1105
00:48:40,543 --> 00:48:42,212
Just put on
the Harry Styles album.
1106
00:48:44,089 --> 00:48:46,091
[Harry Styles' "Falling"]
1107
00:48:46,174 --> 00:48:47,509
Oh, fuck.
1108
00:48:47,592 --> 00:48:51,179
♪ ♪
1109
00:48:51,262 --> 00:48:55,850
- ♪ I'm in my bed ♪
1110
00:48:55,934 --> 00:48:57,060
♪ You're not here ♪
1111
00:48:57,143 --> 00:49:00,188
- I love this fucking song.
1112
00:49:00,271 --> 00:49:02,691
- ♪ And there's
no one to blame ♪
1113
00:49:02,774 --> 00:49:05,735
♪ But the drink
in my wandering hand ♪
1114
00:49:05,819 --> 00:49:07,028
- Bitch!
1115
00:49:07,112 --> 00:49:09,406
Don't sing my truth, bitch.
1116
00:49:09,489 --> 00:49:11,324
- ♪ What am I now ♪
1117
00:49:11,408 --> 00:49:13,868
- What am I now, bitch?
1118
00:49:13,952 --> 00:49:17,997
♪ What if I'm someone
I don't want around? ♪
1119
00:49:18,081 --> 00:49:20,709
♪ I'm falling again ♪
1120
00:49:20,792 --> 00:49:22,919
♪ I'm falling again ♪
1121
00:49:23,002 --> 00:49:25,547
♪ I'm falling ♪
1122
00:49:25,630 --> 00:49:27,716
♪ ♪
1123
00:49:27,799 --> 00:49:29,718
- ♪ I get the feeling ♪
1124
00:49:29,801 --> 00:49:32,679
♪ That you'll
never need me again ♪
1125
00:49:32,762 --> 00:49:36,599
- [weeping]
1126
00:49:36,683 --> 00:49:39,310
I forgot he said that.
1127
00:49:39,394 --> 00:49:46,192
♪ ♪
1128
00:49:46,276 --> 00:49:49,154
[whispering]
Love these lyrics, bro.
1129
00:49:49,237 --> 00:49:52,991
- ♪ What am I now?
What am I now? ♪
1130
00:49:53,074 --> 00:49:56,578
♪ What if you're someone
I just want around? ♪
1131
00:49:56,661 --> 00:49:58,079
- Why did you want me
to turn it on?
1132
00:49:58,163 --> 00:50:01,124
- I don't know.
Why did he say that?
1133
00:50:01,207 --> 00:50:03,710
I was good till he said that.
1134
00:50:06,254 --> 00:50:07,797
- ♪ What if I'm down ♪
1135
00:50:07,881 --> 00:50:10,675
- I'm sorry.
- It's OK.
1136
00:50:10,759 --> 00:50:15,013
- ♪ What if I'm someone
you won't talk about? ♪
1137
00:50:15,096 --> 00:50:19,726
♪ I'm falling again,
I'm falling again ♪
1138
00:50:19,809 --> 00:50:21,519
♪ I'm falling ♪
1139
00:50:21,603 --> 00:50:24,773
- You know, music
is really powerful.
1140
00:50:24,856 --> 00:50:26,941
- You know, you should
watch a Lizzo show.
1141
00:50:27,025 --> 00:50:29,611
- Ha ha.
- I can't.
1142
00:50:29,694 --> 00:50:31,404
It's impossible.
1143
00:50:33,531 --> 00:50:35,200
Can I sing to y'all?
1144
00:50:35,283 --> 00:50:37,952
[cheering and applause]
1145
00:50:38,036 --> 00:50:39,579
♪ I will always... ♪
1146
00:50:39,662 --> 00:50:41,706
♪ In case
nobody told you today ♪
1147
00:50:41,790 --> 00:50:43,792
♪ Dun-dun-duh,
dun-dun-duh ♪
1148
00:50:43,875 --> 00:50:47,754
♪ I'm so glad that
you're still with us ♪
1149
00:50:47,837 --> 00:50:49,214
I love that.
1150
00:50:49,297 --> 00:50:51,007
Write that down.
1151
00:50:51,090 --> 00:50:54,511
- ♪ In case nobody
told you today... ♪
1152
00:50:54,594 --> 00:50:57,472
- I want to say
celebrity is new to me,
1153
00:50:57,555 --> 00:51:02,143
and so is people judging me,
but that's not exactly right.
1154
00:51:02,227 --> 00:51:04,020
- Fame is pretty new to me.
1155
00:51:04,103 --> 00:51:05,814
I'm used to people judging me.
1156
00:51:05,897 --> 00:51:07,774
- ♪ Fame is pretty new,
but I got ♪
1157
00:51:07,857 --> 00:51:10,360
♪ But I been used to
people judging me ♪
1158
00:51:10,443 --> 00:51:11,945
♪ That's why I move
the way I move ♪
1159
00:51:12,028 --> 00:51:13,363
♪ That's why I'm so
in love with me ♪
1160
00:51:13,446 --> 00:51:14,948
- You can say "and."
1161
00:51:15,031 --> 00:51:16,658
♪ That's why I move
the way I move ♪
1162
00:51:16,741 --> 00:51:18,368
♪ And why I'm so
in love with me ♪
1163
00:51:18,451 --> 00:51:19,994
- ♪ Do do do do do do do ♪
Pow.
1164
00:51:20,078 --> 00:51:23,748
♪ In case nobody
told you today ♪
1165
00:51:23,832 --> 00:51:25,917
♪ You're special ♪
1166
00:51:26,000 --> 00:51:29,546
♪ In case nobody
made you believe ♪
1167
00:51:29,629 --> 00:51:31,631
♪ You're special ♪
1168
00:51:31,714 --> 00:51:35,093
♪ Well, I will always
love you the same ♪
1169
00:51:35,176 --> 00:51:36,636
♪ You're special ♪
1170
00:51:36,719 --> 00:51:39,639
♪ I'm so glad that
you're still with us ♪
1171
00:51:39,722 --> 00:51:43,142
♪ Broken, but damn,
you're still perfect ♪
1172
00:51:44,894 --> 00:51:47,272
OK, now I sing it in tune.
1173
00:51:47,355 --> 00:51:50,400
♪ Oh ♪
1174
00:51:50,483 --> 00:51:54,988
♪ ♪
1175
00:51:55,071 --> 00:51:58,157
♪ In case nobody
told you today ♪
1176
00:51:58,241 --> 00:51:59,993
♪ You're special ♪
1177
00:52:00,076 --> 00:52:02,078
♪ I'm so glad that
you're still with us ♪
1178
00:52:02,161 --> 00:52:05,999
♪ Broken, but damn,
you're still perfect ♪
1179
00:52:06,082 --> 00:52:07,375
[echoing]
1180
00:52:13,089 --> 00:52:16,551
- OK. 1, 2, 3, 4.
1181
00:52:16,634 --> 00:52:18,344
5 and 6, 7, 8.
1182
00:52:18,428 --> 00:52:21,723
[Lizzo's "Truth Hurts"]
1183
00:52:21,806 --> 00:52:24,225
♪ ♪
1184
00:52:24,309 --> 00:52:28,187
- The big girls are
an extension of myself.
1185
00:52:28,271 --> 00:52:30,607
I'm not small,
1186
00:52:30,690 --> 00:52:33,651
and I remember being like,
well, if I'm gonna have
1187
00:52:33,735 --> 00:52:36,946
people on stage with me,
they gotta look like me.
1188
00:52:37,030 --> 00:52:40,116
So it inspired me to just
be like I need big girls.
1189
00:52:40,199 --> 00:52:43,912
And I was like, we can
call them the big girls.
1190
00:52:43,995 --> 00:52:47,081
The big girls went from
being a physical thing
1191
00:52:47,165 --> 00:52:50,543
to like an energetic thing,
like how big is your spirit,
1192
00:52:50,627 --> 00:52:51,878
how big is your heart?
1193
00:52:51,961 --> 00:52:54,130
How we feeling, y'all?
- Good.
1194
00:52:54,213 --> 00:52:55,381
[cheering]
1195
00:52:55,465 --> 00:52:57,008
- I just want to
let y'all know,
1196
00:52:57,091 --> 00:53:00,762
I watched the footage from
the rehearsals yesterday,
1197
00:53:00,845 --> 00:53:02,805
and it just looks so good.
1198
00:53:02,889 --> 00:53:06,184
And now that we have
perfection, I think it's time
1199
00:53:06,267 --> 00:53:10,104
to just bring realness to it,
so the whole world can
1200
00:53:10,188 --> 00:53:13,274
fall in love with the person
that we've fallen in love with,
1201
00:53:13,358 --> 00:53:14,484
you know.
1202
00:53:14,567 --> 00:53:16,694
So I want to talk
about what we felt
1203
00:53:16,778 --> 00:53:18,905
and talk about how
we can feel better.
1204
00:53:18,988 --> 00:53:22,283
Not even better, how we can
feel actually good as hell
1205
00:53:22,367 --> 00:53:24,327
when we're
performing this song.
1206
00:53:24,410 --> 00:53:25,912
Because, I'm not going to lie,
1207
00:53:25,995 --> 00:53:28,414
yesterday, I didn't feel
good as hell.
1208
00:53:28,498 --> 00:53:30,333
I was stressed out
1209
00:53:30,416 --> 00:53:32,877
instead of just kind of
opening up and letting it
1210
00:53:32,961 --> 00:53:36,547
flow from me, you know,
but that's me.
1211
00:53:36,631 --> 00:53:39,258
We'll start over here,
and we'll move through.
1212
00:53:39,342 --> 00:53:41,636
Like, how did you feel,
as you were going through?
1213
00:53:41,719 --> 00:53:45,223
- I feel like you feel like
we are capable of everything,
1214
00:53:45,306 --> 00:53:46,975
and you think that
I'm capable of
1215
00:53:47,058 --> 00:53:48,977
more than I think
I'm capable of.
1216
00:53:49,060 --> 00:53:51,938
And so I was fighting
this inclination to shrink
1217
00:53:52,021 --> 00:53:55,900
and to, like--it's OK
to, like, for all of us
1218
00:53:55,984 --> 00:53:58,820
to be, like, big,
to take up space.
1219
00:53:58,903 --> 00:54:00,822
Even stepping on
the train sometimes,
1220
00:54:00,905 --> 00:54:03,658
I know for me the first thing
I do is try to shrink up
1221
00:54:03,741 --> 00:54:05,326
to space for other people.
1222
00:54:05,410 --> 00:54:07,203
- Isn't that funny that
that's our inclination,
1223
00:54:07,286 --> 00:54:09,205
is to shrink ourselves.
1224
00:54:09,288 --> 00:54:11,332
Why do I have to shrink myself?
1225
00:54:11,416 --> 00:54:16,170
Why is this too big for you?
1226
00:54:16,254 --> 00:54:17,755
Do you know what I mean?
1227
00:54:17,839 --> 00:54:20,425
And this ain't too big
for the main stage.
1228
00:54:20,508 --> 00:54:22,010
If anything,
it's just the right size--
1229
00:54:22,093 --> 00:54:24,262
- Come on.
- For an arena, for a stadium.
1230
00:54:24,345 --> 00:54:27,890
Light me up.
[laughter]
1231
00:54:27,974 --> 00:54:31,144
[overlapping chatter]
1232
00:54:32,729 --> 00:54:35,273
But, um...
1233
00:54:43,781 --> 00:54:48,619
And so being there and
going through the steps,
1234
00:54:48,703 --> 00:54:50,747
and going through this whole
process with everybody,
1235
00:54:50,830 --> 00:54:54,584
it's just like, yo, now I
have to give myself permission
1236
00:54:54,667 --> 00:54:57,837
to be in this moment, so...
1237
00:54:57,920 --> 00:54:59,630
- There's nothing
I can do to take away
1238
00:54:59,714 --> 00:55:02,258
the fear of vulnerability.
1239
00:55:02,341 --> 00:55:05,470
But I think we can use
that when you're performing
1240
00:55:05,553 --> 00:55:08,639
tomorrow, and realize
how strong you look
1241
00:55:08,723 --> 00:55:12,226
and realize how much strength
you're going to give people.
1242
00:55:12,310 --> 00:55:14,145
- I gotta be on point.
I have to.
1243
00:55:14,228 --> 00:55:16,314
I can't--you can't let
nobody see you sweat.
1244
00:55:16,397 --> 00:55:19,484
You have to be
three times better than.
1245
00:55:19,567 --> 00:55:21,569
It's not two times.
It's three times.
1246
00:55:21,652 --> 00:55:23,362
You know what I mean?
- Yes.
1247
00:55:23,446 --> 00:55:25,698
- And it's just, oh, my God.
1248
00:55:25,782 --> 00:55:28,534
[soft music]
1249
00:55:28,618 --> 00:55:31,454
♪ ♪
1250
00:55:31,537 --> 00:55:34,582
- Being big,
your body is politicized.
1251
00:55:34,665 --> 00:55:38,252
Being Black,
your skin is politicized.
1252
00:55:38,336 --> 00:55:42,340
Being a woman,
your gender is politicized.
1253
00:55:42,423 --> 00:55:45,843
So we're actually making
quite the political statement
1254
00:55:45,927 --> 00:55:47,470
being all three.
1255
00:55:47,553 --> 00:55:48,763
Look where you are, you know.
1256
00:55:48,846 --> 00:55:50,598
This performance
isn't like, oh, we have,
1257
00:55:50,681 --> 00:55:52,100
like, a token big girl.
1258
00:55:52,183 --> 00:55:53,768
This performance is about us.
1259
00:55:53,851 --> 00:55:55,603
It's for us. And it's not--
[clapping]
1260
00:55:55,686 --> 00:55:58,898
And it's not a joke.
It's dead serious.
1261
00:56:02,318 --> 00:56:06,989
I want you to imagine that
you walked to that train
1262
00:56:07,073 --> 00:56:10,868
and then you hopped in a
limo and drove to the VMAs,
1263
00:56:10,952 --> 00:56:13,121
and you looked back at that
girl walking to the train,
1264
00:56:13,204 --> 00:56:15,623
and you said, I knew it, girl.
I told you, didn't I tell you?
1265
00:56:15,706 --> 00:56:19,293
You are the self
that your younger self saw.
1266
00:56:19,377 --> 00:56:21,295
They would look up to you.
1267
00:56:21,379 --> 00:56:24,340
[overlapping chatter]
1268
00:56:24,423 --> 00:56:26,425
Let me talk to
y'all for a second.
1269
00:56:26,509 --> 00:56:27,635
[cheers and applause]
1270
00:56:27,718 --> 00:56:29,762
I'm tired of the bullshit.
1271
00:56:29,846 --> 00:56:31,639
And I don't have to know
your story to know
1272
00:56:31,722 --> 00:56:34,517
that you're tired
of the bullshit, too.
1273
00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:36,519
It's so hard trying to
love yourself in a world
1274
00:56:36,602 --> 00:56:38,563
that doesn't love you back.
Am I right?
1275
00:56:38,646 --> 00:56:40,022
[cheering]
1276
00:56:40,106 --> 00:56:42,859
So I want to take this
opportunity right now
1277
00:56:42,942 --> 00:56:45,153
to just feel good as hell
1278
00:56:45,236 --> 00:56:47,905
because you deserve
to feel good as hell.
1279
00:56:47,989 --> 00:56:50,825
We deserve to
feel good as hell.
1280
00:56:50,908 --> 00:56:52,326
♪ So tell me
how you feeling ♪
1281
00:56:52,410 --> 00:56:53,661
- ♪ Good as hell! ♪
1282
00:56:53,744 --> 00:56:54,829
- ♪ Tell me how you feeling ♪
1283
00:56:54,912 --> 00:56:56,205
- ♪ Good as hell ♪
1284
00:56:56,289 --> 00:56:57,874
- ♪ If you don't know
what to do ♪
1285
00:56:57,957 --> 00:57:00,835
♪ Yea-ea-eah ♪
1286
00:57:00,918 --> 00:57:06,007
♪ If he don't love
you anymore ♪
1287
00:57:06,090 --> 00:57:08,551
♪ Walk your fine ass out the ♪
1288
00:57:08,634 --> 00:57:13,723
♪ Door ♪
1289
00:57:13,806 --> 00:57:15,224
♪ Oh oh ♪
1290
00:57:15,308 --> 00:57:17,143
♪ ♪
1291
00:57:17,226 --> 00:57:18,269
- ♪ Feeling good as hell ♪
1292
00:57:18,352 --> 00:57:19,604
- ♪ Say good as hell ♪
1293
00:57:19,687 --> 00:57:20,855
- ♪ Feeling good as hell ♪
1294
00:57:20,938 --> 00:57:22,064
- ♪ Say good as hell ♪
1295
00:57:22,148 --> 00:57:23,482
- ♪ Feeling good as hell ♪
1296
00:57:23,566 --> 00:57:24,901
Yeah!
1297
00:57:24,984 --> 00:57:27,361
[cheers and applause]
1298
00:57:33,910 --> 00:57:37,914
[soft, stirring music]
1299
00:57:37,997 --> 00:57:43,961
♪ ♪
1300
00:57:50,301 --> 00:57:51,719
♪ Crazy, sexy, cool, baby ♪
1301
00:57:51,802 --> 00:57:53,429
♪ With or without makeup ♪
1302
00:57:53,512 --> 00:57:56,349
♪ Got nothing to prove ♪
1303
00:57:56,432 --> 00:57:58,309
OK, so basically,
1304
00:57:58,392 --> 00:58:03,105
Myke is coming to my house
at noon to talk.
1305
00:58:03,189 --> 00:58:05,233
- Wait, what?
1306
00:58:05,316 --> 00:58:06,901
- He wrote me yesterday.
1307
00:58:06,984 --> 00:58:09,070
- Wait, what?
1308
00:58:09,153 --> 00:58:10,947
- I know.
1309
00:58:16,827 --> 00:58:18,037
- Wait, what?
1310
00:58:18,120 --> 00:58:19,914
- I was like,
are you frozen or--
1311
00:58:19,997 --> 00:58:21,082
[laughter]
1312
00:58:21,165 --> 00:58:22,667
Even if he wants to be with me,
1313
00:58:22,750 --> 00:58:24,752
I don't think that I could...
1314
00:58:24,835 --> 00:58:26,712
I couldn't handle that.
1315
00:58:26,796 --> 00:58:28,214
- No, you couldn't.
1316
00:58:28,297 --> 00:58:29,507
- I just want to talk to him.
1317
00:58:29,590 --> 00:58:31,425
We had such
a great relationship.
1318
00:58:31,509 --> 00:58:34,595
We talked about things
that I can't really
1319
00:58:34,679 --> 00:58:36,430
talk about with anybody.
1320
00:58:36,514 --> 00:58:38,432
I just hope that I don't
fall in love with him
1321
00:58:38,516 --> 00:58:40,434
all over again
after seeing him,
1322
00:58:40,518 --> 00:58:43,020
because he got ASAP
Rocky braids now, bitch.
1323
00:58:43,104 --> 00:58:44,563
Aah!
[laughs]
1324
00:58:44,647 --> 00:58:46,107
But anyway.
1325
00:58:46,190 --> 00:58:47,984
Going live.
1326
00:58:48,067 --> 00:58:49,485
[background chatter]
1327
00:58:49,568 --> 00:58:53,281
62nd Annual Grammy Award
Nominations Announcement.
1328
00:58:53,364 --> 00:58:55,741
- We got to pack up quick
because we got, like--
1329
00:58:55,825 --> 00:58:58,452
- Fuck. We're boarding
our fucking plane.
1330
00:58:58,536 --> 00:58:59,996
- Whoo!
- It's starting.
1331
00:59:00,079 --> 00:59:02,164
- Oh, God.
Mic it in.
1332
00:59:02,248 --> 00:59:05,710
- Best Pop Solo Performance.
1333
00:59:05,793 --> 00:59:08,129
"Spirit," Beyoncé.
1334
00:59:08,212 --> 00:59:09,338
- Yes.
1335
00:59:09,422 --> 00:59:11,716
- "Bad Guy," Billie Eilish.
1336
00:59:11,799 --> 00:59:14,302
- Shit.
- Oh, my God.
1337
00:59:14,385 --> 00:59:15,344
- "Truth Hurts."
1338
00:59:15,428 --> 00:59:18,306
[cheering]
1339
00:59:20,308 --> 00:59:23,227
- Oh, my God.
1340
00:59:23,311 --> 00:59:24,353
Wow!
1341
00:59:24,437 --> 00:59:25,438
Oh, my God.
1342
00:59:25,521 --> 00:59:28,649
That's crazy.
[laughter]
1343
00:59:28,733 --> 00:59:29,942
Oh, my God!
1344
00:59:30,026 --> 00:59:31,944
[laughs]
1345
00:59:34,071 --> 00:59:35,323
Oh, shit.
1346
00:59:35,406 --> 00:59:42,496
♪ ♪
1347
00:59:51,756 --> 00:59:54,342
So I told Alex my Grammys idea.
1348
00:59:54,425 --> 00:59:55,885
He's the first person
to hear it.
1349
00:59:55,968 --> 00:59:57,678
It came to me
on the plane today.
1350
00:59:57,762 --> 01:00:01,098
♪ Why men great till
they gotta be great? ♪
1351
01:00:01,182 --> 01:00:04,560
All of a sudden you see these
thick Black girl ballerinas.
1352
01:00:04,643 --> 01:00:06,562
Boom. Yes!
Boom.
1353
01:00:06,645 --> 01:00:08,314
They're ballerining.
1354
01:00:08,397 --> 01:00:09,857
You could have had a bad bitch.
1355
01:00:09,940 --> 01:00:11,525
Here come the big girls,
so I want
1356
01:00:11,609 --> 01:00:13,235
to go back and forth
between a Baroque version
1357
01:00:13,319 --> 01:00:15,029
and a trap version.
♪ I don't play tag ♪
1358
01:00:15,112 --> 01:00:16,405
♪ Bitch, I been there ♪
1359
01:00:16,489 --> 01:00:18,949
Sasha comes down from the sky.
- Ah!
1360
01:00:19,033 --> 01:00:21,660
- 15-second flute Baroque solo.
1361
01:00:21,744 --> 01:00:24,914
[imitating flute]
1362
01:00:24,997 --> 01:00:27,249
You know what I mean?
And everyone's like,
1363
01:00:27,333 --> 01:00:28,959
what the fuck, I ain't know
the flute was so lit.
1364
01:00:29,043 --> 01:00:31,003
♪ Bum, bum, de-dum,
de-bum, bum ♪
1365
01:00:31,087 --> 01:00:32,546
Last chorus, everybody,
ballerinas
1366
01:00:32,630 --> 01:00:34,423
dancing, big girls dancing.
1367
01:00:34,507 --> 01:00:36,967
Orchestra's back--♪ boom,
boom, boom, boom ♪
1368
01:00:37,051 --> 01:00:39,178
Actually, in my crazy-ass
head, the orchestra
1369
01:00:39,261 --> 01:00:40,638
been there the whole time.
1370
01:00:40,721 --> 01:00:43,265
♪ Bum, bum, de-bum,
de-bum, bum, bah ♪
1371
01:00:43,349 --> 01:00:44,600
Bah!
1372
01:00:44,683 --> 01:00:47,269
And it's period.
1373
01:00:47,353 --> 01:00:49,230
- I love it.
1374
01:00:49,313 --> 01:00:50,564
So good.
1375
01:00:50,648 --> 01:00:52,400
- Wow.
1376
01:00:52,483 --> 01:00:54,610
[video chat alert]
1377
01:00:54,693 --> 01:00:56,195
- So here's my idea.
1378
01:00:56,278 --> 01:00:59,532
It involves finding some
thick Black girl ballerinas,
1379
01:00:59,615 --> 01:01:01,409
so you need to find them now.
1380
01:01:01,492 --> 01:01:05,079
- I hear you 100%,
but Black ballet dancers
1381
01:01:05,162 --> 01:01:07,415
are so much of an anomaly.
1382
01:01:07,498 --> 01:01:08,666
- I know.
1383
01:01:08,749 --> 01:01:10,334
It's like,
I've seen ballet dancers,
1384
01:01:10,418 --> 01:01:15,172
but I've never seen a
curvaceous, thick Black
1385
01:01:15,256 --> 01:01:16,507
ballet dancer.
1386
01:01:16,590 --> 01:01:18,384
Because they don't
get the training,
1387
01:01:18,467 --> 01:01:21,387
and they don't get the training
because people don't want
1388
01:01:21,470 --> 01:01:23,639
to teach them because of
their bodies or their skin,
1389
01:01:23,722 --> 01:01:24,807
you know.
1390
01:01:24,890 --> 01:01:26,392
That's why
it's important to me.
1391
01:01:26,475 --> 01:01:28,060
- All right.
I'm already on it.
1392
01:01:28,144 --> 01:01:30,312
I'm going to search the
country high and wide.
1393
01:01:30,396 --> 01:01:32,606
- High and thick.
1394
01:01:32,690 --> 01:01:36,110
[piano music playing]
1395
01:01:36,193 --> 01:01:43,242
♪ ♪
1396
01:02:03,220 --> 01:02:07,933
- ♪ Why men great
till they got to be great? ♪
1397
01:02:08,017 --> 01:02:12,313
♪ I just took a DNA test,
turns out I'm 100% ♪
1398
01:02:12,396 --> 01:02:13,731
[horns]
1399
01:02:13,814 --> 01:02:15,149
Fuck yes.
1400
01:02:15,232 --> 01:02:16,775
All these Black girls
at the fucking Grammys
1401
01:02:16,859 --> 01:02:19,278
shitting on these niggas?
Period!
1402
01:02:19,361 --> 01:02:21,655
Y'all came the fuck through.
1403
01:02:21,739 --> 01:02:23,657
Y'all was like, oh,
you want loud, bitch?
1404
01:02:23,741 --> 01:02:24,658
[screams]
1405
01:02:24,742 --> 01:02:26,035
[laughter]
1406
01:02:26,118 --> 01:02:29,330
That's what I want.
You know what I'm saying?
1407
01:02:29,413 --> 01:02:32,833
They told us to shut up
for too long!
1408
01:02:32,917 --> 01:02:35,252
But I'm--I'm so
proud of you all.
1409
01:02:35,336 --> 01:02:36,962
And thank you so much
for being a part of this.
1410
01:02:37,046 --> 01:02:38,589
I'm going to leave,
and I trust y'all.
1411
01:02:38,672 --> 01:02:39,798
Y'all sound beautiful.
1412
01:02:39,882 --> 01:02:41,300
Fill up the room.
1413
01:02:41,383 --> 01:02:46,180
Take up all the space in
the music, in the theater,
1414
01:02:46,263 --> 01:02:49,350
in they face, in your life.
1415
01:02:49,433 --> 01:02:51,101
You know what I'm saying?
1416
01:02:51,185 --> 01:02:54,313
This is like-- it's raining
blessings, so just receive it.
1417
01:02:54,396 --> 01:02:59,235
[Kirk Franklin,
"The Storm is Over Now"]
1418
01:02:59,318 --> 01:03:06,200
- [vocalizing]
1419
01:03:07,117 --> 01:03:14,041
♪ Over now ♪
1420
01:03:24,051 --> 01:03:30,224
I woke up this morning,
and I was just like--
1421
01:03:30,307 --> 01:03:33,561
- I know, like--
1422
01:03:33,644 --> 01:03:36,397
- Fucked up in a bad way.
- Yeah.
1423
01:03:38,148 --> 01:03:39,650
- Thanks, guys.
1424
01:03:39,733 --> 01:03:41,860
- I'm so proud of you.
- I know.
1425
01:03:46,407 --> 01:03:48,117
- Damn.
1426
01:03:48,200 --> 01:03:50,035
I know.
I woke up this morning,
1427
01:03:50,119 --> 01:03:51,412
and I was in my bathroom.
1428
01:03:51,495 --> 01:03:54,915
And I was like,
whoa, look what--
1429
01:03:54,999 --> 01:03:56,417
I was like, shocked.
1430
01:03:56,500 --> 01:03:58,836
I was like, what am I
about to do today?
1431
01:03:58,919 --> 01:04:00,671
[laughing]
1432
01:04:00,754 --> 01:04:02,506
- That's good.
- Like, look what--
1433
01:04:02,590 --> 01:04:04,967
look what God has done.
1434
01:04:05,050 --> 01:04:06,885
I was talking about,
that's crazy.
1435
01:04:06,969 --> 01:04:09,513
It's like, my first
rap crew, and then
1436
01:04:09,597 --> 01:04:13,350
when I moved to Minneapolis,
The Chalice, like--
1437
01:04:13,434 --> 01:04:14,810
so glad y'all are here.
1438
01:04:14,893 --> 01:04:16,854
[applause]
1439
01:04:16,937 --> 01:04:20,858
[orchestral music playing]
1440
01:04:20,941 --> 01:04:28,032
♪ ♪
1441
01:04:37,875 --> 01:04:41,295
[rhythm picks up]
1442
01:04:41,378 --> 01:04:46,091
♪ Why men great
till they gotta be great? ♪
1443
01:04:46,175 --> 01:04:50,220
♪ I just took a DNA test,
turns out I'm 100% ♪
1444
01:04:50,304 --> 01:04:52,556
♪ That bitch, even when
I'm crying, crazy ♪
1445
01:04:52,640 --> 01:04:54,141
♪ Yeah, I got boy problems ♪
1446
01:04:54,224 --> 01:04:55,601
♪ That's the human in me ♪
1447
01:04:55,684 --> 01:04:57,019
♪ Bling, bling,
then I solve them ♪
1448
01:04:57,102 --> 01:04:58,646
♪ That's the goddess in me ♪
1449
01:04:58,729 --> 01:05:00,981
♪ Could have had a bad
bitch, noncommittal ♪
1450
01:05:01,065 --> 01:05:04,193
♪ Help you with your
career, just a little ♪
1451
01:05:04,276 --> 01:05:06,320
♪ You're supposed
to hold me down ♪
1452
01:05:06,403 --> 01:05:07,946
♪ But you're holding me back ♪
1453
01:05:08,030 --> 01:05:12,076
♪ And that's the sound of
me not calling you back ♪
1454
01:05:12,159 --> 01:05:14,828
- And the Grammy goes to Lizzo.
1455
01:05:14,912 --> 01:05:16,288
[cheering and applause]
1456
01:05:16,372 --> 01:05:18,165
♪ Tell it
straight to my face ♪
1457
01:05:18,248 --> 01:05:20,334
♪ Best friend sat me down
in the salon chair ♪
1458
01:05:20,417 --> 01:05:23,671
♪ Truth hurts, needed
something more exciting ♪
1459
01:05:23,754 --> 01:05:25,339
Thank you so much
for lifting me up.
1460
01:05:25,422 --> 01:05:28,133
Let's continue to reach out,
hold each other down,
1461
01:05:28,217 --> 01:05:29,385
and lift each other up.
1462
01:05:29,468 --> 01:05:32,137
God bless you.
Thank you so much.
1463
01:05:32,221 --> 01:05:35,182
[flute playing]
1464
01:05:35,265 --> 01:05:42,314
♪ ♪
1465
01:05:43,107 --> 01:05:45,234
Period!
1466
01:05:47,236 --> 01:05:52,116
♪ So if you fight
like a girl, do your thing ♪
1467
01:05:52,199 --> 01:05:54,952
All of this feels unavoidable.
1468
01:05:55,035 --> 01:05:57,705
I've always described
my life as being
1469
01:05:57,788 --> 01:05:59,832
on a certain type of track.
1470
01:05:59,915 --> 01:06:02,209
Now I know why.
1471
01:06:02,292 --> 01:06:05,462
Sometimes I feel so connected
to the Black women
1472
01:06:05,546 --> 01:06:09,883
who came before me who didn't
really get their praise--
1473
01:06:09,967 --> 01:06:13,429
like my grandma
or my great grandma.
1474
01:06:13,512 --> 01:06:16,181
I do this for them
and so many Black women,
1475
01:06:16,265 --> 01:06:19,143
like Sister Rosetta Tharpe
and Big Mama Thornton,
1476
01:06:19,226 --> 01:06:21,645
who, like, literally
invented rock and roll.
1477
01:06:21,729 --> 01:06:23,564
And none of them
get the credit.
1478
01:06:23,647 --> 01:06:27,609
So it's like, well,
this is for her.
1479
01:06:27,693 --> 01:06:29,778
♪ And if you
feel like a girl ♪
1480
01:06:29,862 --> 01:06:33,240
♪ Then you real like
a girl, bitch ♪
1481
01:06:33,323 --> 01:06:35,743
♪ ♪
1482
01:06:35,826 --> 01:06:38,370
- Breaking news out of
Louisville, Kentucky,
1483
01:06:38,454 --> 01:06:40,914
where a grand jury
handed down its decision
1484
01:06:40,998 --> 01:06:44,501
of three officers involved
in the deadly police
1485
01:06:44,585 --> 01:06:46,211
shooting of Breonna Taylor.
1486
01:06:46,295 --> 01:06:48,922
No one is charged with
anything directly related
1487
01:06:49,006 --> 01:06:52,384
to Breonna Taylor's death.
1488
01:06:52,468 --> 01:06:54,762
- I wonder if some shit's
going to pop off in LA
1489
01:06:54,845 --> 01:06:57,139
because of this Breonna Taylor
shit.
1490
01:06:57,222 --> 01:06:58,432
- At the end of the day,
1491
01:06:58,515 --> 01:06:59,933
I don't think it's
going to be as
1492
01:07:00,017 --> 01:07:01,685
extreme because I think
Black women's lives
1493
01:07:01,769 --> 01:07:04,480
matter way less to people.
1494
01:07:04,563 --> 01:07:09,401
Breonna Taylor was, like,
us really crying out
1495
01:07:09,485 --> 01:07:11,779
for respect this time,
but I still
1496
01:07:11,862 --> 01:07:13,614
don't think it was enough.
It's sad.
1497
01:07:13,697 --> 01:07:16,492
It really fucking
pisses me off.
1498
01:07:18,410 --> 01:07:22,664
I think there's just so much
work to be done in the world,
1499
01:07:22,748 --> 01:07:25,793
and there's so many people
who are suffering
1500
01:07:25,876 --> 01:07:28,670
from the system,
1501
01:07:28,754 --> 01:07:30,672
Like, I will never
understand...
1502
01:07:30,756 --> 01:07:33,884
I mean, I actually
do understand white supremacy
1503
01:07:33,967 --> 01:07:37,429
because it's working.
1504
01:07:37,513 --> 01:07:41,850
♪ How...how do you
think it makes Black women ♪
1505
01:07:41,934 --> 01:07:47,815
♪ Feel when you never see us,
and you never will? ♪
1506
01:07:47,898 --> 01:07:50,776
[whispering]
Fuck, I don't know.
1507
01:07:50,859 --> 01:07:53,570
Oh, what if it's--
1508
01:07:53,654 --> 01:07:56,323
♪ When you never see her ♪
1509
01:07:56,406 --> 01:08:00,077
♪ When you never see us
someday ♪
1510
01:08:00,160 --> 01:08:01,995
- But someday you will.
- ♪ But someday you will ♪
1511
01:08:02,079 --> 01:08:03,664
- Oh, I like that.
1512
01:08:03,747 --> 01:08:08,877
- ♪ How do you think
it makes a Black woman feel ♪
1513
01:08:08,961 --> 01:08:14,341
♪ When you never see her
but someday you will ♪
1514
01:08:14,424 --> 01:08:18,679
The system is effective
because of racism
1515
01:08:18,762 --> 01:08:21,181
and sexism and classism.
1516
01:08:21,265 --> 01:08:23,350
We just need everyone
to realize
1517
01:08:23,433 --> 01:08:26,019
that this isn't working
for all of us.
1518
01:08:26,103 --> 01:08:28,939
♪ My love, my love ♪
1519
01:08:29,022 --> 01:08:31,525
♪ My love,
my love ♪
1520
01:08:31,608 --> 01:08:37,906
♪ My love, my love ♪
1521
01:08:37,990 --> 01:08:41,702
♪ Just hold me close ♪
1522
01:08:41,785 --> 01:08:44,121
- We're going to take
over Brooklyn Boulevard.
1523
01:08:44,204 --> 01:08:47,249
[applause]
1524
01:08:47,332 --> 01:08:50,377
- ♪ And I pray
for protection ♪
1525
01:08:50,460 --> 01:08:53,547
♪ From many evils
or elections ♪
1526
01:08:53,630 --> 01:08:56,216
♪ Because when they
finally see us ♪
1527
01:08:56,300 --> 01:08:59,303
♪ They going to see
it for themselves, oh ♪
1528
01:08:59,386 --> 01:09:04,558
♪ How do you think it
makes a Black woman feel ♪
1529
01:09:04,641 --> 01:09:07,853
♪ When you never see her? ♪
1530
01:09:07,936 --> 01:09:10,439
♪ But someday you will ♪
1531
01:09:10,522 --> 01:09:13,650
♪ ♪
1532
01:09:13,734 --> 01:09:17,529
Black women have been the
heartbeat of every movement,
1533
01:09:17,613 --> 01:09:20,699
from Sojourner Truth
to the Black women
1534
01:09:20,782 --> 01:09:23,243
leading the Black
Lives Matter movement.
1535
01:09:23,327 --> 01:09:25,746
We are at the bottom,
but yet,
1536
01:09:25,829 --> 01:09:28,707
we always raise
our voices first.
1537
01:09:28,790 --> 01:09:31,418
I'm so proud to be a Black
woman and an activist
1538
01:09:31,501 --> 01:09:35,964
because when I'm loud,
they hear this mouth.
1539
01:09:36,048 --> 01:09:37,090
Period.
1540
01:09:37,174 --> 01:09:39,927
[applause]
1541
01:09:40,010 --> 01:09:42,429
I feel like,
as a Black woman,
1542
01:09:42,512 --> 01:09:45,182
I have been put in this
position that I didn't really
1543
01:09:45,265 --> 01:09:49,561
ask for of, like,
making people feel good
1544
01:09:49,645 --> 01:09:52,981
and making noise about
issues to make a change.
1545
01:09:53,065 --> 01:09:55,067
Because that's what we do.
1546
01:09:55,150 --> 01:09:59,696
It's what Black women do.
We've always done that.
1547
01:09:59,780 --> 01:10:03,450
But sometimes I wish
that that wasn't
1548
01:10:03,533 --> 01:10:06,620
always kind of put on us.
1549
01:10:06,703 --> 01:10:09,206
Because I know that
easily, as a Black woman,
1550
01:10:09,289 --> 01:10:10,791
I can wear that burden
1551
01:10:10,874 --> 01:10:14,670
and let it weigh me
down like a mule.
1552
01:10:14,753 --> 01:10:17,631
And I don't want to be
anybody's fucking mule.
1553
01:10:17,714 --> 01:10:20,467
[moody music]
1554
01:10:20,550 --> 01:10:27,599
♪ ♪
1555
01:10:27,933 --> 01:10:29,893
- I have 1, 2, 3.
1556
01:10:29,977 --> 01:10:31,311
["Truth Hurts" playing]
1557
01:10:31,395 --> 01:10:32,813
- It was really important
to me
1558
01:10:32,896 --> 01:10:34,690
that the big girls
could twerk.
1559
01:10:34,773 --> 01:10:36,441
- Whoo!
- Hey!
1560
01:10:36,525 --> 01:10:38,318
- I've been twerking
since I was 12.
1561
01:10:38,402 --> 01:10:41,989
And it's in the music that
I listened to growing up,
1562
01:10:42,072 --> 01:10:45,158
from New Orleans bounce
to Southern rap.
1563
01:10:45,242 --> 01:10:48,870
Twerk, the word, is a newer
way to describe the dance
1564
01:10:48,954 --> 01:10:52,416
move that has been going
on for hundreds of years.
1565
01:10:52,499 --> 01:10:54,167
There's forms of
twerking in almost
1566
01:10:54,251 --> 01:10:56,628
every Indigenous culture.
1567
01:10:58,046 --> 01:11:01,299
Black culture is
the only sect of culture that
1568
01:11:01,383 --> 01:11:04,636
becomes mainstream
and loses its origin.
1569
01:11:04,720 --> 01:11:07,681
When you know where
it comes from,
1570
01:11:07,764 --> 01:11:09,683
you put more respect on it.
1571
01:11:09,766 --> 01:11:13,687
- Thank you, Christy.
Good job.
1572
01:11:13,770 --> 01:11:17,858
- Blackness is a commodity.
It's a hot commodity.
1573
01:11:17,941 --> 01:11:21,028
The media described
twerking as, I quote,
1574
01:11:21,111 --> 01:11:23,113
disturbing and disgusting.
1575
01:11:23,196 --> 01:11:26,033
Once mainstream,
twerking was misunderstood
1576
01:11:26,116 --> 01:11:27,534
and taken out of context.
1577
01:11:27,617 --> 01:11:29,077
So I want to do
everything in my power
1578
01:11:29,161 --> 01:11:33,206
to prevent the erasure of
Blackness from twerking.
1579
01:11:33,290 --> 01:11:34,875
♪ Look up in the mirror ♪
1580
01:11:34,958 --> 01:11:36,710
♪ Oh, my God, it's me ♪
1581
01:11:36,793 --> 01:11:40,797
♪ So much Prada on me,
I'm a prodigy ♪
1582
01:11:40,881 --> 01:11:43,508
♪ Coconut and rose
in my skin regime ♪
1583
01:11:43,592 --> 01:11:47,262
Shaking that ass is
this thing that is sexy.
1584
01:11:47,345 --> 01:11:51,349
It's exciting.
It's extremely feminine.
1585
01:11:51,433 --> 01:11:54,478
♪ Feelin' like a stripper when
I'm lookin' in the mirror ♪
1586
01:11:54,561 --> 01:11:58,106
♪ I be slapping on that ass,
getting thicker and thicker ♪
1587
01:11:58,190 --> 01:11:59,775
Sing it to me.
1588
01:11:59,858 --> 01:12:02,235
It beats at the heart
of my ancestors,
1589
01:12:02,319 --> 01:12:05,655
and it became
a part of my brand.
1590
01:12:05,739 --> 01:12:09,409
♪ ♪
1591
01:12:09,493 --> 01:12:13,288
It is one of my
favorite things to do.
1592
01:12:13,371 --> 01:12:17,626
[cheering and applause]
1593
01:12:17,709 --> 01:12:24,674
♪ ♪
1594
01:12:25,383 --> 01:12:27,636
I can't wait for this album
to come out
1595
01:12:27,719 --> 01:12:29,930
so I can shit on
everybody who's been trying
1596
01:12:30,013 --> 01:12:32,265
to reduce me to my body.
1597
01:12:32,349 --> 01:12:34,476
- So Lizzo right now
is getting canceled.
1598
01:12:34,559 --> 01:12:36,228
- "Lizzo Is Over Party"
was trending on Twitter.
1599
01:12:36,311 --> 01:12:38,355
- Am I getting some
backlash right now?
1600
01:12:38,438 --> 01:12:40,357
- That dress left little
to the imagination.
1601
01:12:40,440 --> 01:12:42,317
- With nothing
underneath but a thong.
1602
01:12:42,400 --> 01:12:43,985
- She got a very pretty face,
1603
01:12:44,069 --> 01:12:45,987
but she keep showing her
body off, like, come on...
1604
01:12:46,071 --> 01:12:48,240
- She became the number one
trending topic on Twitter.
1605
01:12:48,323 --> 01:12:51,368
- No respect for art history
or any historical artifacts.
1606
01:12:51,451 --> 01:12:53,411
- I don't think people
should be canceling Lizzo.
1607
01:12:53,495 --> 01:12:55,163
- Being overweight
is the new gold.
1608
01:12:55,247 --> 01:12:56,957
- She's merely shucking
and jiving for an audience
1609
01:12:57,040 --> 01:12:59,418
of white feminists.
- On Twitter,
1610
01:12:59,501 --> 01:13:02,212
a large
amount of Black people
1611
01:13:02,295 --> 01:13:04,965
have decided they don't
like Lizzo's music.
1612
01:13:05,048 --> 01:13:07,551
What they end up
saying about her music
1613
01:13:07,634 --> 01:13:09,594
is she makes music
for white people.
1614
01:13:09,678 --> 01:13:11,972
[dramatic chord]
1615
01:13:12,055 --> 01:13:15,934
- I think there's nothing
that hurts my feelings more
1616
01:13:16,017 --> 01:13:19,479
than the rejection
of my own people.
1617
01:13:21,064 --> 01:13:25,402
But I feel like,
the bigger you get,
1618
01:13:25,485 --> 01:13:28,572
the more your Blackness
is taken away.
1619
01:13:30,490 --> 01:13:32,993
I was, like, so sad
last night because
1620
01:13:33,076 --> 01:13:37,247
I saw something on TikTok.
1621
01:13:37,330 --> 01:13:39,124
And it was, like,
this thing where it was,
1622
01:13:39,207 --> 01:13:42,335
like, comparing some other
artists to me.
1623
01:13:42,419 --> 01:13:44,504
The reason why this
person doesn't have
1624
01:13:44,588 --> 01:13:48,091
as much, like, mainstream
success is because
1625
01:13:48,175 --> 01:13:50,677
Lizzo makes palatable music
1626
01:13:50,760 --> 01:13:54,764
and makes white people
feel comfortable.
1627
01:13:54,848 --> 01:13:56,433
I don't make
nobody comfortable.
1628
01:13:56,516 --> 01:13:59,019
I've never walked in a room
and been like, like me.
1629
01:13:59,102 --> 01:14:01,313
I walk in a room,
and I'm like, accept me.
1630
01:14:01,396 --> 01:14:05,692
And the fact that people
use me as this think piece
1631
01:14:05,775 --> 01:14:08,028
or why someone else
doesn't have success
1632
01:14:08,111 --> 01:14:10,822
because of my proximity
to whiteness,
1633
01:14:10,906 --> 01:14:12,782
it's like, bruh, like, huh?
1634
01:14:12,866 --> 01:14:14,868
♪ ♪
1635
01:14:14,951 --> 01:14:18,121
The James Webb Telescope
just published a photo
1636
01:14:18,205 --> 01:14:19,873
of a grain of sand,
1637
01:14:19,956 --> 01:14:24,461
and there are millions
of stars and planets
1638
01:14:24,544 --> 01:14:27,214
and life forms
and celestial bodies
1639
01:14:27,297 --> 01:14:29,841
within that grain of sand.
1640
01:14:29,925 --> 01:14:33,887
You think username
Fuck That Bitch
1641
01:14:33,970 --> 01:14:38,266
has any authority on your
existence and why you're here?
1642
01:14:38,350 --> 01:14:39,726
No.
1643
01:14:41,645 --> 01:14:44,397
♪ Girl, there ain't a doubt ♪
1644
01:14:44,481 --> 01:14:47,442
♪ What you talking about? ♪
1645
01:14:47,525 --> 01:14:49,861
♪ You gonna figure it out ♪
1646
01:14:52,322 --> 01:14:54,908
OK, so here's the tea.
I'm back with Myke.
1647
01:14:54,991 --> 01:14:56,743
- So y'all actually
going somewhere or--
1648
01:14:56,826 --> 01:14:59,246
- No, just to a park.
1649
01:14:59,329 --> 01:15:00,747
I'm going to be
like, happy birthday,
1650
01:15:00,830 --> 01:15:03,750
let's go on a picnic,
you know.
1651
01:15:03,833 --> 01:15:05,460
- Spend some time
with your boo.
1652
01:15:05,543 --> 01:15:07,379
- I'm going to cuss
him out too, though.
1653
01:15:07,462 --> 01:15:10,131
Like, yeah, we're
on good terms, but...
1654
01:15:10,215 --> 01:15:11,424
[laughs]
1655
01:15:11,508 --> 01:15:12,676
So that's the tea.
1656
01:15:12,759 --> 01:15:15,637
Hey, guys.
- Hey.
1657
01:15:15,720 --> 01:15:17,514
- All right,
I'll talk to you later.
1658
01:15:17,597 --> 01:15:19,891
- All right. Bye, girl.
- I warmed up for you today.
1659
01:15:19,975 --> 01:15:22,686
- OK, I worked out for you.
- Really? You did?
1660
01:15:22,769 --> 01:15:24,062
- Yeah.
1661
01:15:24,145 --> 01:15:26,022
A lot of my issues with my dad.
1662
01:15:26,106 --> 01:15:28,066
No, I'm just kidding.
1663
01:15:28,149 --> 01:15:29,693
- [laughing]
1664
01:15:31,778 --> 01:15:34,739
♪ Talked to my
girlfriend just today ♪
1665
01:15:34,823 --> 01:15:41,830
♪ They reminded me of when you
had me crying in the car ♪
1666
01:15:41,913 --> 01:15:44,124
Me and Myke
needed the space.
1667
01:15:44,207 --> 01:15:46,376
And I'm grateful
'cause we grew,
1668
01:15:46,459 --> 01:15:48,878
we learned about ourselves,
and most importantly,
1669
01:15:48,962 --> 01:15:52,924
we learned
that we didn't wanna be apart.
1670
01:15:53,008 --> 01:15:55,176
And I, like, prayed about it.
1671
01:15:55,260 --> 01:15:57,262
I was like, help me be
an unconditional lover,
1672
01:15:57,345 --> 01:15:59,973
because to love somebody
with conditions
1673
01:16:00,056 --> 01:16:01,766
hurts too fucking bad.
1674
01:16:01,850 --> 01:16:05,145
♪ Cause, boy,
you know me better ♪
1675
01:16:05,228 --> 01:16:07,647
♪ You know me
so much better ♪
1676
01:16:07,731 --> 01:16:10,275
He's my muse.
I've written quite a few
1677
01:16:10,358 --> 01:16:13,320
songs about him--
"Break Up Twice,"
1678
01:16:13,403 --> 01:16:17,115
"Naked," "Cold play,"
"To be Loved."
1679
01:16:17,198 --> 01:16:20,452
[laughs]
The whole album.
1680
01:16:20,535 --> 01:16:25,915
♪ You know that
I don't break up twice ♪
1681
01:16:25,999 --> 01:16:27,667
- Hell yeah.
1682
01:16:27,751 --> 01:16:30,587
- ♪ But I never had nobody
with a love like you ♪
1683
01:16:30,670 --> 01:16:32,714
♪ It would be a shame
not to see this through ♪
1684
01:16:32,797 --> 01:16:34,174
- That's it.
- Who gonna put up with
1685
01:16:34,257 --> 01:16:35,967
your Gemini shit?
OK, cool.
1686
01:16:36,051 --> 01:16:39,471
- I don't know who would
put up with the Gemini shit.
1687
01:16:44,267 --> 01:16:47,187
- I haven't done stage
banter in so long.
1688
01:16:47,270 --> 01:16:50,940
Jesus Christ, there's so
many mosquitoes in this car.
1689
01:16:51,024 --> 01:16:53,526
Oh, my God.
Uh-uh.
1690
01:16:55,070 --> 01:16:58,031
- They are still in here.
- This is a nightmare.
1691
01:16:58,114 --> 01:16:59,657
Ouch.
- I'm sorry.
1692
01:17:00,784 --> 01:17:03,787
- Minnesota for you.
Welcome back.
1693
01:17:05,955 --> 01:17:08,208
- This is exciting.
It is.
1694
01:17:08,291 --> 01:17:10,377
Oh, my God.
This the first show in what?
1695
01:17:10,460 --> 01:17:12,545
A year.
- If I didn't play a show
1696
01:17:12,629 --> 01:17:14,923
before January,
it would've been two years.
1697
01:17:15,006 --> 01:17:16,508
- Wow.
1698
01:17:18,885 --> 01:17:22,180
- Oh, my God, you guys.
1699
01:17:22,263 --> 01:17:23,598
All right, everybody.
1700
01:17:23,682 --> 01:17:25,141
Close your eyes and
just squeeze the hand
1701
01:17:25,225 --> 01:17:26,559
of the person next to you.
1702
01:17:26,643 --> 01:17:28,353
We did not think
we would make it here,
1703
01:17:28,436 --> 01:17:30,897
but Lord God, you brought us
here to put this show on
1704
01:17:30,980 --> 01:17:32,899
to make people's nights better,
Lord God,
1705
01:17:32,982 --> 01:17:35,402
their lives better.
Thank you for putting us here
1706
01:17:35,485 --> 01:17:37,278
to be positive change
in the world.
1707
01:17:37,362 --> 01:17:39,155
We're so grateful
for the whole team.
1708
01:17:39,239 --> 01:17:41,741
I would be nothing up
there without you guys.
1709
01:17:41,825 --> 01:17:43,868
Every person in this
circle is a part
1710
01:17:43,952 --> 01:17:45,787
of the bigger picture,
a part of bringing
1711
01:17:45,870 --> 01:17:47,372
light into the world.
1712
01:17:47,455 --> 01:17:49,499
This show is already done,
and we have
1713
01:17:49,582 --> 01:17:52,085
already won, in Jesus' name.
1714
01:17:52,168 --> 01:17:54,003
Amen.
1715
01:17:54,087 --> 01:17:57,632
[cheering]
1716
01:18:00,009 --> 01:18:04,722
[crowd noise, chanting Lizzo]
1717
01:18:20,780 --> 01:18:25,160
I never thought I would make
it back to the stage, man.
1718
01:18:28,705 --> 01:18:32,208
This is my first show
in nearly two years,
1719
01:18:32,292 --> 01:18:35,587
and it feels so
special to be doing
1720
01:18:35,670 --> 01:18:38,089
it here back in Minnesota...
1721
01:18:38,173 --> 01:18:40,967
♪ ♪
1722
01:18:41,050 --> 01:18:44,721
Where my solo career took off.
1723
01:18:44,804 --> 01:18:47,474
Thank you so much for
accepting me for who I am.
1724
01:18:47,557 --> 01:18:51,186
[Lizzo's "Juice']
1725
01:18:51,269 --> 01:18:53,771
Here we go.
1, 2, 3, sing!
1726
01:18:53,855 --> 01:18:55,565
♪ Mirror, mirror on
the wall, don't say ♪
1727
01:18:55,648 --> 01:18:57,775
♪ It because I know I'm cute
oh baby ♪
1728
01:18:57,859 --> 01:19:00,945
♪ Louis down to my drawers,
LV all on my shoes ♪
1729
01:19:01,029 --> 01:19:02,572
♪ That's how I roll ♪
1730
01:19:02,655 --> 01:19:05,366
♪ If I'm shinin',
everybody gonna shine ♪
1731
01:19:05,450 --> 01:19:07,494
♪ Yeah, I'm gold,
I was born like this ♪
1732
01:19:07,577 --> 01:19:10,330
♪ Don't even gotta try,
now you know ♪
1733
01:19:10,413 --> 01:19:14,000
♪ I'm like Chardonnay,
get better over time ♪
1734
01:19:14,083 --> 01:19:15,877
Y'all don't know
how much I been through
1735
01:19:15,960 --> 01:19:18,087
to be right here, right now
on this stage.
1736
01:19:18,171 --> 01:19:21,299
♪ It ain't my fault that I'm
out here getting loose ♪
1737
01:19:21,382 --> 01:19:23,593
♪ Gotta blame it on the Goose ♪
1738
01:19:23,676 --> 01:19:26,012
♪ Gotta blame it on my juice ♪
1739
01:19:26,095 --> 01:19:27,347
♪ Ya-ya-ee ♪
1740
01:19:27,430 --> 01:19:31,726
♪ ♪
1741
01:19:31,809 --> 01:19:33,937
1, 2, 3, sing!
1742
01:19:34,020 --> 01:19:37,357
♪ It ain't my fault that I'm
out here getting loose ♪
1743
01:19:37,440 --> 01:19:39,359
♪ Gotta blame it on my juice ♪
1744
01:19:39,442 --> 01:19:42,320
♪ Blame it, blame it
on my juice ♪
1745
01:19:42,403 --> 01:19:43,863
Oh!
1746
01:19:43,947 --> 01:19:47,075
[cheering and applause]
1747
01:19:56,292 --> 01:19:58,378
I messed up so many times.
1748
01:19:58,461 --> 01:20:01,381
- It was so good.
What are you talking about?
1749
01:20:01,464 --> 01:20:03,716
The flute stuff drives
everybody crazy.
1750
01:20:03,800 --> 01:20:05,635
Once that flute comes out.
- Oh, yeah.
1751
01:20:05,718 --> 01:20:07,804
- Banter was on point.
- Thank you.
1752
01:20:07,887 --> 01:20:09,722
My banter was sloppy
tonight, but--
1753
01:20:11,641 --> 01:20:14,269
It's your first time
hearing songs about you.
1754
01:20:14,352 --> 01:20:16,437
- I'm glad they're all jams.
1755
01:20:16,521 --> 01:20:22,610
- They are jams.
1756
01:20:22,694 --> 01:20:24,445
[upbeat music playing]
1757
01:20:24,529 --> 01:20:26,573
♪ I'm under pressure,
and it's all on me ♪
1758
01:20:26,656 --> 01:20:29,951
I'm just excited because
my biggest regret on
1759
01:20:30,034 --> 01:20:33,371
" Cuz I Love You," because
I didn't have a car,
1760
01:20:33,454 --> 01:20:34,914
and I didn't have speakers.
1761
01:20:34,998 --> 01:20:39,085
I didn't listen to
masters and get the timing
1762
01:20:39,168 --> 01:20:40,753
right in between each track.
1763
01:20:40,837 --> 01:20:43,381
That's my biggest regret
on "Cuz I Love You."
1764
01:20:43,464 --> 01:20:45,425
I'll listen to it to this
day and be like, ugh.
1765
01:20:45,508 --> 01:20:47,427
- It makes me really happy
because so many people
1766
01:20:47,510 --> 01:20:49,095
don't care these days.
- I--
1767
01:20:49,178 --> 01:20:50,972
- Thank you for caring.
- ...overcare.
1768
01:20:51,055 --> 01:20:52,599
It wakes me up in the
middle of the night.
1769
01:20:52,682 --> 01:20:55,059
I'm like, "Like a Girl"
went into--
1770
01:20:55,143 --> 01:20:56,936
whatever my other songs are.
1771
01:20:57,020 --> 01:20:58,730
All right, let's listen
to the end of "The Sign"
1772
01:20:58,813 --> 01:21:00,189
real quick into...
1773
01:21:00,273 --> 01:21:02,775
♪ I keep on writing
these songs ♪
1774
01:21:02,859 --> 01:21:05,778
♪ Because he
keep on doing me wrong ♪
1775
01:21:05,862 --> 01:21:08,865
♪ And my girls keep
singing along ♪
1776
01:21:08,948 --> 01:21:12,452
♪ I guess that I'm not alone ♪
1777
01:21:13,453 --> 01:21:15,038
♪ Anyway... ♪
1778
01:21:15,121 --> 01:21:19,250
A bee's dick to the left,
a little sooner.
1779
01:21:19,334 --> 01:21:20,710
So small.
1780
01:21:20,793 --> 01:21:23,379
- I'm saying that
phrase forever.
1781
01:21:23,463 --> 01:21:25,089
- Oh.
1782
01:21:25,173 --> 01:21:26,466
Yes, OK.
1783
01:21:26,549 --> 01:21:31,054
♪ I guess
that I'm not alone ♪
1784
01:21:31,137 --> 01:21:34,098
♪ Anyway... ♪
Woo!
1785
01:21:34,182 --> 01:21:35,642
That's it, baby.
1786
01:21:35,725 --> 01:21:37,894
That's it, baby.
1787
01:21:37,977 --> 01:21:40,980
♪ Ah ♪
1788
01:21:41,064 --> 01:21:45,443
[humming]
1789
01:21:48,279 --> 01:21:49,989
Oh, God,
1790
01:21:50,073 --> 01:21:51,824
this is so fuckin' buttery.
1791
01:21:51,908 --> 01:21:54,619
$55,000 flute, man.
1792
01:21:55,620 --> 01:21:57,747
It is really gorgeous.
1793
01:21:57,830 --> 01:22:00,208
The way that head joint
goes in is a little sexual.
1794
01:22:00,291 --> 01:22:02,669
I'm not gonna lie.
I was like, OK.
1795
01:22:02,752 --> 01:22:05,755
I just hope that Eri
didn't make nails
1796
01:22:05,838 --> 01:22:07,298
that will interfere.
1797
01:22:07,382 --> 01:22:10,051
- Wait, you're playing flute?
- Mm-hmm.
1798
01:22:10,134 --> 01:22:12,804
- The nails I made
are definitely not--
1799
01:22:12,887 --> 01:22:14,806
- Let's see 'em.
1800
01:22:14,889 --> 01:22:16,641
What the hell?
1801
01:22:16,724 --> 01:22:19,602
This is literally--
this is like a wine opener.
1802
01:22:19,686 --> 01:22:22,480
This is fire, though.
1803
01:22:22,563 --> 01:22:24,941
- Do you think
it's not gonna work?
1804
01:22:25,024 --> 01:22:27,318
- There's only one way
to find out.
1805
01:22:30,655 --> 01:22:36,202
♪ ♪
1806
01:22:36,285 --> 01:22:39,247
Fuck. It's like, why do I have
to make things so hard?
1807
01:22:39,330 --> 01:22:41,207
Like, it's already hard enough.
1808
01:22:41,290 --> 01:22:44,127
It's like, OK, play the flute
on the carpet. Cool.
1809
01:22:44,210 --> 01:22:47,296
Memorize the song
you're playing. Cool.
1810
01:22:47,380 --> 01:22:50,466
Play it with fucking
corkscrew nails.
1811
01:22:50,550 --> 01:22:51,801
Damn!
1812
01:22:51,884 --> 01:22:53,428
- You feel comfortable?
1813
01:22:53,511 --> 01:22:55,388
- Of course not,
but that's the point!
1814
01:22:55,471 --> 01:22:58,015
If I feel comfortable,
then it wouldn't be
1815
01:22:58,099 --> 01:22:59,434
worth doing.
1816
01:22:59,517 --> 01:23:03,229
It wouldn't be--my life
wasn't on hard mode.
1817
01:23:03,312 --> 01:23:09,736
♪ ♪
1818
01:23:11,571 --> 01:23:14,031
I have this huge,
depressive episode
1819
01:23:14,115 --> 01:23:16,117
when I dropped out of college,
'cause I was like
1820
01:23:16,200 --> 01:23:17,702
"It was all for nothing."
1821
01:23:17,785 --> 01:23:19,704
You know, all those years
studying flute
1822
01:23:19,787 --> 01:23:22,582
and those dreams of being
like a famous flautist,
1823
01:23:22,665 --> 01:23:25,960
but now it's like, bitch, you
are a famous flautist.
1824
01:23:26,043 --> 01:23:31,174
[sweeping classical music]
1825
01:23:31,257 --> 01:23:33,342
For like a 12-year-old nerd,
1826
01:23:33,426 --> 01:23:35,386
when Mr. Broughton was like,
"All right, who 'bout to be
1827
01:23:35,470 --> 01:23:37,764
on flute?"
And if I had a vision...
1828
01:23:37,847 --> 01:23:41,851
♪ ♪
1829
01:23:41,934 --> 01:23:45,730
[crowd noise]
1830
01:23:48,232 --> 01:23:50,401
Like walking on the Met Gala
carpet playing flute,
1831
01:23:50,485 --> 01:23:53,112
but like the most expensive,
beautiful flute in the world.
1832
01:23:53,196 --> 01:23:55,740
I'd like zoom back
and be like...me!
1833
01:23:57,950 --> 01:24:00,787
Like, life doesn't take you
too far away
1834
01:24:00,870 --> 01:24:03,581
from who you're
supposed to be.
1835
01:24:03,664 --> 01:24:10,463
♪ ♪
1836
01:24:20,556 --> 01:24:22,558
I'm still trying to process
the fact
1837
01:24:22,642 --> 01:24:24,727
that this is my house.
1838
01:24:24,811 --> 01:24:27,522
My parents, they didn't
verbally say you need to
1839
01:24:27,605 --> 01:24:29,607
own everything, but they
instilled it in me
1840
01:24:29,690 --> 01:24:31,150
at a young age.
1841
01:24:31,234 --> 01:24:33,569
You know,
they owned their shit.
1842
01:24:33,653 --> 01:24:38,115
So as a person who slept on
floors and...
1843
01:24:38,199 --> 01:24:41,327
rented for...my entire life
1844
01:24:41,410 --> 01:24:44,413
until right now,
1845
01:24:44,497 --> 01:24:46,499
it is a milestone.
1846
01:24:47,834 --> 01:24:49,502
The least we can do
1847
01:24:49,585 --> 01:24:51,754
is have ownership
of anything, really,
1848
01:24:51,838 --> 01:24:53,339
in this country.
1849
01:24:53,422 --> 01:24:56,509
where we didn't even have
autonomy of our bodies,
1850
01:24:56,592 --> 01:25:00,096
and our lives
and our culture.
1851
01:25:00,179 --> 01:25:01,848
- Hello!
1852
01:25:01,931 --> 01:25:05,142
- Happy Juneteenth!
- Happy Juneteenth.
1853
01:25:05,226 --> 01:25:07,436
How are you?
1854
01:25:07,520 --> 01:25:10,773
Juneteenth is a big deal
in Texas.
1855
01:25:10,857 --> 01:25:13,234
It was almost like Juneteenth
was like
1856
01:25:13,317 --> 01:25:16,487
the Black Independence Day.
1857
01:25:16,571 --> 01:25:19,615
I'm protective of Blackness.
1858
01:25:19,699 --> 01:25:22,285
I'm protective
of my Blackness.
1859
01:25:22,368 --> 01:25:24,370
People like to mishandle
my Blackness,
1860
01:25:24,453 --> 01:25:28,499
but thank God they don't
have ownership of it.
1861
01:25:28,583 --> 01:25:32,169
[all whooping]
1862
01:25:33,462 --> 01:25:34,672
So exciting.
1863
01:25:34,755 --> 01:25:37,383
This is...this material?
In my life,
1864
01:25:37,466 --> 01:25:40,136
ownership is very...
important.
1865
01:25:40,219 --> 01:25:42,722
Like, the ownership
and the pride that I have
1866
01:25:42,805 --> 01:25:44,932
in Yitty, my clothing line.
1867
01:25:45,016 --> 01:25:47,560
I've been wearing shapewear
1868
01:25:47,643 --> 01:25:51,105
since I was in
fifth or sixth grade.
1869
01:25:51,188 --> 01:25:53,399
It was embarrassing
and shameful
1870
01:25:53,482 --> 01:25:55,568
and I don't ever want anyone
to feel that way
1871
01:25:55,651 --> 01:25:57,028
ever again.
1872
01:25:57,111 --> 01:25:59,989
So cute.
I feel like the length
1873
01:26:00,072 --> 01:26:01,490
is a little long.
1874
01:26:01,574 --> 01:26:03,409
I remember talking to
creative directors
1875
01:26:03,492 --> 01:26:05,536
of these huge brands
and being like,
1876
01:26:05,620 --> 01:26:07,413
why don't y'all make clothes
for big people,
1877
01:26:07,496 --> 01:26:11,334
and watching them kind of
stammer over their words.
1878
01:26:11,417 --> 01:26:13,878
And because I made it happen,
1879
01:26:13,961 --> 01:26:16,422
I'm like, how can I
clear this channel
1880
01:26:16,505 --> 01:26:18,215
so that girls who look
like me
1881
01:26:18,299 --> 01:26:20,927
can just take
the elevator up?
1882
01:26:21,010 --> 01:26:22,845
[laughs]
1883
01:26:22,929 --> 01:26:25,806
That's why I made my TV show.
1884
01:26:25,890 --> 01:26:27,308
Watch out for "The Big Girls."
1885
01:26:27,391 --> 01:26:29,727
I wanted to make a show
about big girls
1886
01:26:29,810 --> 01:26:32,980
because you don't get to see
big girls shown in this light,
1887
01:26:33,064 --> 01:26:34,899
shown as the protagonist,
1888
01:26:34,982 --> 01:26:36,734
and shown for her talent
1889
01:26:36,817 --> 01:26:39,862
and not just like
the punchline of a joke.
1890
01:26:39,946 --> 01:26:42,073
- Today is the day
fans have had circled
1891
01:26:42,156 --> 01:26:43,407
around their calendars--
1892
01:26:43,491 --> 01:26:45,076
release date for
Lizzo's new album.
1893
01:26:45,159 --> 01:26:47,119
It's called "Special."
- You finished.
1894
01:26:47,203 --> 01:26:51,123
- Three frickin' years, baby,
I been working on this album.
1895
01:26:51,207 --> 01:26:54,085
I feel amazing.
1896
01:26:57,672 --> 01:27:03,386
♪ ♪
1897
01:27:03,469 --> 01:27:07,974
Last night, my dad
was in my dream.
1898
01:27:08,057 --> 01:27:11,811
And I don't really like
dream about memories.
1899
01:27:11,894 --> 01:27:13,646
I dream about, like...
1900
01:27:13,729 --> 01:27:17,733
realm dreams where
I'm very aware
1901
01:27:17,817 --> 01:27:21,278
that he isn't physically here,
1902
01:27:21,362 --> 01:27:25,199
and I'm like, oh, they let you
come over here.
1903
01:27:26,742 --> 01:27:28,786
This time it was like,
oh, I'm so excited
1904
01:27:28,869 --> 01:27:31,330
that we get to, like,
hang out for a little bit.
1905
01:27:31,414 --> 01:27:33,332
And it was a lotta like me
clapping
1906
01:27:33,416 --> 01:27:35,960
and jumping up and
down and being excited.
1907
01:27:36,043 --> 01:27:39,630
And then I woke up,
and I was like, wow...
1908
01:27:39,714 --> 01:27:42,174
thank you.
1909
01:27:42,258 --> 01:27:44,176
♪ ♪
1910
01:27:44,260 --> 01:27:46,637
He cared so much
about my career,
1911
01:27:46,721 --> 01:27:49,348
especially
in his later years,
1912
01:27:49,432 --> 01:27:51,058
and I think a lot of
that energy
1913
01:27:51,142 --> 01:27:52,476
that was put towards me
1914
01:27:52,560 --> 01:27:55,396
being successful
and everything
1915
01:27:55,479 --> 01:27:57,231
it hasn't stopped, you know?
1916
01:27:57,314 --> 01:27:59,984
I don't think somebody's
love for you stops
1917
01:28:00,067 --> 01:28:01,652
when they go.
1918
01:28:01,736 --> 01:28:05,364
Like, energy doesn't die.
It just changes form.
1919
01:28:05,448 --> 01:28:07,450
Hi, everybody.
1920
01:28:07,533 --> 01:28:09,660
If we have not met yet,
I'm Lizzo,
1921
01:28:09,744 --> 01:28:13,956
It's really important
for me to know
1922
01:28:14,040 --> 01:28:17,376
who everyone is
that's a part of my show,
1923
01:28:17,460 --> 01:28:21,672
'cause my music and my show
is very personal to me.
1924
01:28:21,756 --> 01:28:23,215
[off mic] Can you hear me
this way better?
1925
01:28:23,299 --> 01:28:26,093
That's fucking weird.
[laughter]
1926
01:28:26,177 --> 01:28:27,720
Once upon a time,
1927
01:28:27,803 --> 01:28:31,557
I had one person
on the road with me.
1928
01:28:31,640 --> 01:28:34,477
I had my DJ Sophia,
and I had two dancers,
1929
01:28:34,560 --> 01:28:38,731
and a table with a cloth
and a chair.
1930
01:28:38,814 --> 01:28:40,900
And, uh, now I'm emotional.
1931
01:28:40,983 --> 01:28:43,986
[whooping, applause]
1932
01:28:47,114 --> 01:28:49,408
This is wild for me,
because this is my first
1933
01:28:49,492 --> 01:28:51,827
arena show.
- Whoo!
1934
01:28:51,911 --> 01:28:55,164
[whooping, applause]
1935
01:28:56,040 --> 01:28:58,209
And I don't know
how the fuck I got here,
1936
01:28:58,292 --> 01:28:59,919
but, um...ha ha.
1937
01:29:00,002 --> 01:29:02,046
I do know who I got here with,
1938
01:29:02,129 --> 01:29:03,839
and it's with all of you
wonderful people,
1939
01:29:03,923 --> 01:29:06,258
and I just wanna say
thank you
1940
01:29:06,342 --> 01:29:07,676
from the bottom of my heart.
1941
01:29:07,760 --> 01:29:09,929
You're making my dreams
come true, so...
1942
01:29:10,012 --> 01:29:13,599
[cheers, applause]
1943
01:29:17,895 --> 01:29:20,856
[crowd cheering]
1944
01:29:22,566 --> 01:29:25,820
♪ In case nobody
told you today ♪
1945
01:29:25,903 --> 01:29:28,030
♪ You're special ♪
1946
01:29:28,114 --> 01:29:31,617
♪ In case nobody made you
believe ♪
1947
01:29:31,700 --> 01:29:33,953
♪ You're special ♪
1948
01:29:34,036 --> 01:29:36,956
♪ I will always love you
the same...♪
1949
01:29:37,039 --> 01:29:40,292
I like the story of my success
1950
01:29:40,376 --> 01:29:45,714
because it took so much
hard work and time to be here.
1951
01:29:45,798 --> 01:29:49,927
But I know that when people
see me on stage,
1952
01:29:50,010 --> 01:29:52,179
they see themselves.
1953
01:29:52,263 --> 01:29:57,518
♪ I ♪
1954
01:29:57,601 --> 01:29:59,311
♪ In case nobody
told you today ♪
1955
01:29:59,395 --> 01:30:01,897
♪ Yeah, you're special ♪
1956
01:30:01,981 --> 01:30:04,984
When I was a little girl,
all I wanted to see
1957
01:30:05,067 --> 01:30:09,155
was me in the media,
someone fat like me,
1958
01:30:09,238 --> 01:30:12,533
Black like me,
beautiful like me.
1959
01:30:12,616 --> 01:30:14,326
[applause]
1960
01:30:14,410 --> 01:30:16,537
If I could go back and tell
little Lizzo something,
1961
01:30:16,620 --> 01:30:18,497
I'd be like, you
gonna see that person.
1962
01:30:18,581 --> 01:30:20,249
But, bitch, it's going
to have to be you.
1963
01:30:20,332 --> 01:30:22,126
[chuckling]
1964
01:30:22,209 --> 01:30:23,836
♪ Special ♪
1965
01:30:23,919 --> 01:30:25,421
♪ I'm so glad that
you're still with us ♪
1966
01:30:25,504 --> 01:30:27,673
♪ I'm so glad, so glad ♪
1967
01:30:27,756 --> 01:30:31,218
♪ So glad, so glad, so glad ♪
1968
01:30:34,013 --> 01:30:35,931
♪ ♪
1969
01:30:36,015 --> 01:30:38,225
Just look up,
you know, and smile.
1970
01:30:38,309 --> 01:30:40,936
I want to see your teeth.
1971
01:30:41,020 --> 01:30:42,062
Yes!
1972
01:30:42,146 --> 01:30:43,397
That's the smile.
1973
01:30:43,480 --> 01:30:44,899
You're making me feel
something, which I
1974
01:30:44,982 --> 01:30:46,525
think that's all that matters.
1975
01:30:46,609 --> 01:30:49,236
Just go for it.
Go all the way for it.
1976
01:30:49,320 --> 01:30:50,321
Don't halfway do it.
1977
01:30:50,404 --> 01:30:53,782
So I want you to be like--
1978
01:30:53,866 --> 01:30:56,744
then you're like, this my
first time riding a plane.
1979
01:30:56,827 --> 01:30:59,205
How did I get here?
That's what I want.
1980
01:30:59,288 --> 01:31:01,040
♪ Don't be afraid ♪
1981
01:31:01,123 --> 01:31:06,378
♪ Oh, yeah when the world
can't look me in my eyes ♪
1982
01:31:06,462 --> 01:31:09,465
♪ When the darkness
takes over my mind ♪
1983
01:31:09,548 --> 01:31:11,717
♪ Hold me close,
don't let me run away ♪
1984
01:31:11,800 --> 01:31:13,010
♪ Don't you be afraid ♪
1985
01:31:13,093 --> 01:31:16,055
♪ No no no no no ♪
1986
01:31:16,138 --> 01:31:19,308
♪ When the weight falls in
and you're outside ♪
1987
01:31:19,391 --> 01:31:22,978
♪ Won't you be there
standin' by my side ♪
1988
01:31:23,062 --> 01:31:26,357
♪ Hold me close,
don't let me run away ♪
1989
01:31:26,440 --> 01:31:28,817
♪ Don't be afraid, no no ♪
1990
01:31:28,901 --> 01:31:30,736
♪ If you love me ♪
1991
01:31:30,819 --> 01:31:35,032
♪ You love all of me ♪
1992
01:31:35,115 --> 01:31:37,243
♪ And if you love me ♪
1993
01:31:37,326 --> 01:31:40,579
♪ You love all of me ♪
1994
01:31:40,663 --> 01:31:46,710
♪ Or none of me at all ♪
1995
01:31:46,794 --> 01:31:50,256
♪ If you love me
oh oh oh ♪
1996
01:31:50,339 --> 01:31:52,925
♪ If you love me oh oh oh ♪
1997
01:31:53,008 --> 01:31:56,595
♪ If you love, if you love ♪
1998
01:31:56,679 --> 01:32:03,727
♪ ♪