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["Tonight the Streets Are Ours" playing]
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[Donny] That's what abuse
does to you, you know?
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It made me this sticking plaster
for all of life's weirdos.
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This... open wound for them to sniff at.
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I knew she was mad,
and I knew she was dangerous,
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but she flattered me.
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That was enough.
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[narration] A random audience member
recorded me on the sly
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and uploaded the video to YouTube,
and it went viral.
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In a matter of weeks,
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I went from a walking ghost
to the center of a media storm.
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It was so overwhelming
that I almost didn't notice
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that Martha had stopped emailing.
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Too distracted by all
the new work opportunities to take notice.
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It was like something took over,
and I just started coming out with it.
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[narration] Podcasts, radio shows,
bigger gigs, better crowds.
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Everyone wanted a piece of me,
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and my career
sprung into surprising action.
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I honestly couldn't believe
it was all happening.
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For the first time in my life,
I really felt like I was going somewhere.
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[compère] Ladies and gentlemen,
please welcome to the stage
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Donny Dunn!
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[cheering]
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[Donny] And there is nothing
like your life going so visibly well
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to let your sexual abuser know,
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"Fuck you. You failed to break me."
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Ah, thank you very much.
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Now, for those of you
that have seen the viral video,
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don't worry,
I'm not gonna go into all that again.
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Although there is a guy in the front row
looking at me a bit funny.
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Is it possible
to get a DBS check on this guy, please?
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[narration] I couldn't keep up with it,
everything that was happening.
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It was like my life began
three decades in,
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and all I needed to do to achieve it
was to be honest with myself.
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It's funny how things work out.
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♪ The streets are ours... ♪
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[Donny] And sometimes I would find myself
in the free fall of happiness,
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and wonder what it was in me
that kept it in for so long.
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What it was in me that felt so afraid.
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[cell phone buzzes]
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Hello.
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[Martha] I wasn't gonna
speak to you again,
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but I've been putting down the basics
regarding what you said on stage.
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Do your parents know
about all that in the video, yeah?
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The shirtlifting, and the guy's cock
half hanging out of you.
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I mean, should I tell them?
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Probably fair to know
their son's an ugly little bumboy.
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It's the least you deserve
for all those things you said about me.
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I cannot express how furious I am
about the way you shafted me.
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[Donny] And just like that,
at the worst possible time,
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during the most important moment
of my professional life,
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Martha got my number.
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How the fuck could I let her
get my number?
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[typing]
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[ominous music playing]
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[automated voice] First new message.
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[Martha] You know,
I've been leaving your parents alone
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because I didn't have the time for it,
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but I think they're gonna wanna know
information like this.
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I don't think your dad
looks like the accepting type.
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[Donny] I couldn't tell
if Martha was bluffing,
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or if she would actually do something
as awful as tell my family.
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Either way, I unplugged from her
for a few days and made plans.
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I just had to get to my parents
before she did.
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[Donny] Look, I, um...
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I don't know whether you've... seen this...
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video of me
that's been going around online.
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No, bear, I'm not on social media anymore,
and your dad--
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Isn't a fucking moron.
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Okay. Thanks for that. Um...
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Well...
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it's this video where I, uh...
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I confess a lot of things.
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I just...
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I just... I feel very confused,
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and, um, I...
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I don't really know anything anymore,
but I'm trying to, you know, like,
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get through it.
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I don't think I'm...
I'm straight anymore. Um...
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I think I'm probably, like,
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bisexual maybe.
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It's a journey, anyway, but it's...
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it's one that I... I need to go on
with your support.
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These past few years
have been really difficult.
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And I think you're gonna have a choice now
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between a...
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between a bi son or a... or a gay son,
whatever I become,
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or a dead one,
because I can't handle it anymore.
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Keeping it in.
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[mother] Oh, love, that's easy.
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Giving us a choice like that, there's
no question which one we're gonna go for.
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Just... Please, just let me finish.
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And I sort of speak about... other things
in the video too.
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I was, um...
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I was
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raped by a man.
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[mother] Oh my God.
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[Donny] I'm fine, all right? I promise.
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But I spoke about it in this online video,
and now everyone knows.
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I just feel so fucking embarrassed,
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and I guess I never wanted you to know
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because I didn't want you
to think less of me,
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you know... [sniffles]
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...as a man.
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[mother] Oh, darling, of course we don't.
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You're our son, whatever happens.
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[Donny] I just feel less of one,
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having let something like that
happen to me.
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But you didn't let it happen.
You weren't to blame.
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Would you see me as less of one?
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What?
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Would you see me as less of a man?
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Uh, well, no.
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I grew up in the Catholic Church.
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Uh, sorry, I... I...
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I don't understand.
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[somber music playing]
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Jesus. I...
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I don't know what to say.
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You don't have to say anything.
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Just know we are always here.
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Oh, Bear, I'm so sorry.
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[somber music continues]
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[music fades]
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[Donny] I slept 12 hours that night
and woke up to a new dawn.
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["If Not For You" playing]
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[Donny] I felt lighter somehow.
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Amazed, even, by the sudden peace
I found within myself.
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I spent the next few days in Scotland
with my phone off, enjoying the quiet.
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I told my parents everything.
Teri, Martha, Darrien.
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I hadn't felt so at ease in all my life.
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There was no need to be afraid anymore.
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There was never any need.
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And by the time
I boarded the train back down,
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I really felt like
there was nothing in my way.
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Nothing, of course, apart from Martha.
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♪ I'd be sad and blue ♪
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♪ If not for you... ♪
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Good luck with the transsexual.
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Yep, thank you, Dad. Just... Thanks.
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You can go now.
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♪ Babe, the night
Would see me wide awake ♪
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♪ The day would surely have to break ♪
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♪ It would not be new ♪
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♪ If not for you ♪
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[unsettling music playing]
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Jesus Christ.
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[automated voice] Welcome
to your voicemail.
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You have 50 new messages.
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First new message.
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[Martha] You stood there,
like a fucking guppy,
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wafting that bitch right under my nose,
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your cock practically in her,
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and you're expecting me to do what?
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She's ringing me now, literally,
as I stand here.
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- I can see that, Mr. Dunn.
- [Donny] Then do something.
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You can't ring somebody
that many times in a day, surely.
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Well, no, you can't,
but obviously with unknown numbers,
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it's very difficult to prove
who is actually calling.
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So you're saying I can call anyone I meet
as many times as I want,
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and as long as I withhold my number,
I'm free to do as I please?
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You're not planning to?
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No, I'm not planning to.
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I'm making a point.
This behavior shouldn't be allowed.
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How'd she get your number anyway?
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She'd stopped emailing,
so I set an out-of-office,
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and it must have... replied to her.
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That's gotta hurt.
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Giving it away so easily after managing
to keep it from her for so long.
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Why is that helpful?
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Wha-- Uh...
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What about her phone number?
Have you tried blocking that?
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Of course I've tried.
You can't block unknown numbers.
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You should know this.
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Can't you just go into the back and listen
to the voicemails she's been leaving?
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We can't listen to that many voicemails.
We don't have the resources.
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Oh my God. So, what? I just change
my number and let her win again?
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Well, there is another option.
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[clears throat]
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Now, I need to speak
off the record here, but
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it might make sense to keep your number
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and wait for her to say something
that we can use to expedite this case.
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You're serious?
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Merely a suggestion.
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Go home. Mark down moments
where she says something threatening.
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She's leaving you
numerous voicemails a day.
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Chances are there'll be something there
we can use.
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- [automated voice] First new message.
- [Martha] I'm gonna be frank with you...
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[Donny] Over the next few months, Martha's
voicemails became the podcast to my life.
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I listened to her on every bus ride,
every Tube journey,
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in the street between meetings.
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She was there in my ears all the time.
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[Martha] Don't forget what I said
about confidentiality.
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[Donny] Her voicemails playing out
this retrospective
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of our entire relationship together.
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[Martha] When you said
about hanging the curtains,
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I assumed you had
a one-night stand in mind.
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[Donny] She remembered everything
with such lucidity.
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[Martha] Do you remember that gig
you performed at back in the day?
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[Donny] The chats, the laughter.
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[Martha laughs]
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[Donny] The false promises.
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[Martha] I'm shocked
you did something like that.
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[Donny] I couldn't believe
the meaning she would glean
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from the most implausible of places.
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[Martha laughs] You surrendered to me
that day, didn't you? By the water.
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[Donny] I started to download them,
log and categorize them,
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color-code them
into different emotions and subjects.
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[Martha] All this fame means fuck all.
They don't love you.
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They'll grow bored. I love you. Yeah?
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[Donny] It became an obsession.
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I ignored work calls,
canceled gigs and interviews,
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devoted my life
to unpacking the mystery of Martha.
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Why she was the way that she was.
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I'm not sure I ever got close
to finding the answer.
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[Martha] You've got
psychiatric problems, darling.
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[Donny] In fact, over time, I found myself
relating to her all over again.
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Our shared insecurities,
our fears for the future.
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The same things at night
which kept us from our sleep.
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[Martha] London's full of charlatans
and backstabbers and liars.
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[Donny] The way she managed to distract me
from all the things that I'd lost.
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[melancholy music playing]
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[Donny] She threatened me many times,
said stuff that was violent or phobic.
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[Martha] Isn't abuse for little boys
and their piano teachers? [laughs]
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[Donny] About me or Teri or the abuse.
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But still, I found myself ignoring it.
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Has anything new come up
that we should know about?
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No.
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[Donny] Holding off reporting her
out of fascination or empathy or guilt.
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- Any excuse to keep her in my life.
- [Martha] Don't you dare!
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[Donny] And sometimes,
in my darkest hours,
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as I lay awake,
listening to how much she was suffering...
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[Martha] I get heavy at night.
I sometimes feel so angry.
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Angry at the world
and what it's taken from me.
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[Donny] I did have to fight every
fiber of my being not to call her back.
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So when I did eventually report her,
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I only did it
because she started on my family.
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I only did it because it felt like a risk
I couldn't take any longer.
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[automated voice] Message.
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[Martha] So you and your family,
you keep your traps shut, yeah?
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You're on your final warning.
I fucking mean it this time.
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Because I've got a raging PMT
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where I could just about stab
anyone in England, in Britain.
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So you'd better watch what you're saying
because maybe one day I will stab someone.
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Martha was arrested the next day
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and charged with three counts
of stalking and harassment.
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And by the time a date was set
for her plea hearing,
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I couldn't tell whether it was putting
an end to her fascination or mine.
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[clerk] All rise.
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[judge] Be seated.
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Stand up, Ms. Scott.
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You are charged with the harassment
of Mr. Donald Dunn
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between the dates of 14th August 2015
and 22nd March 2017.
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Are you guilty or not guilty?
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Guilty.
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[judge] You are charged
with the stalking of Mr. Donald Dunn
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between the dates of 14th August 2015
and 22nd March 2017.
258
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Are you guilty or not guilty?
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Guilty. [cries]
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[judge] You are charged
with the harassment of Gerald Dunn
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and Eleanor Dunn
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between the dates of 6th June 2016
and 22nd March 2017.
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Are you guilty or not guilty?
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Guilty.
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[cries]
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My little reindeer.
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My little reindeer.
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[judge] Ms. Scott, you have pled guilty.
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I will ask the CPS
to prepare a pre-sentencing report.
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- You will remain in custody until then.
- [Martha] Reindeer. [cries]
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[clerk] All rise.
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[Martha cries] Reindeer.
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[cries]
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[somber music playing]
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[Donny] Martha was sentenced
to nine months in prison,
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and a five-year restraining order
was issued that same day.
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And there, in that courtroom,
was the last time I ever set eyes on her.
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[somber music continues]
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[music fades]
280
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[knocking on door]
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[Donny] Oh. Keeley.
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Hi.
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Francis called.
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He's concerned about you.
285
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He says you've barely
come out of your room in weeks.
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Do you wanna come in?
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[Keeley] Yeah.
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What's all this?
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Oh, it's, uh... It's Martha stuff.
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- I thought she'd been sentenced.
- She has. I'm trying to make sense of it.
291
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- And how's that going?
- [Donny] I'm getting closer.
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Yeah, you'd hope so, looking at all this.
293
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[Donny] Yeah, it's crazy.
294
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I have all her voicemails from
when I downloaded them for the police.
295
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I've split them into all these folders
capturing her different emotions.
296
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I've been doing it for weeks.
There's a ton I haven't listened to yet.
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It's funny, 'cause when you see them
all splayed out like this,
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you really do get a sense
of just how mad she was.
299
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Do you wanna sit down or something?
300
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Yeah.
301
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You look awful.
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I feel awesome.
303
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How's the, uh, comedy going?
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Oh, I've given up.
305
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Nothing like getting everything you want
in life to realize it's not for you.
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So, um,
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why are you here?
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I want you to move back to my mum's place.
Sort yourself out a bit.
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- I can't. I've signed a lease here.
- [Keeley] Nah, I'll pay for it.
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Just move back.
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I can't have you go on living like this.
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Having gone through all of that.
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That video, Donny, it really upset me.
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Okay.
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[gentle music playing]
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How does it feel?
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Yeah, familiar.
318
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[gentle music continues]
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I'll leave you to it.
Let me know if you need anything.
320
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Thank you.
321
00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:52,000
[gentle music continues]
322
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I forgot to say, I left a little something
for you in the cupboard,
323
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along with a couple
of bits and bobs I found.
324
00:20:09,880 --> 00:20:11,680
Oh, thanks.
325
00:20:11,680 --> 00:20:14,000
[gentle music continues]
326
00:20:16,280 --> 00:20:17,160
[chuckles softly]
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00:20:18,720 --> 00:20:20,720
[gentle music continues]
328
00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:13,000
[unsettling music playing]
329
00:21:23,800 --> 00:21:24,720
[music fades]
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Ah.
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Hello.
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Can I help with anything?
333
00:21:39,200 --> 00:21:40,280
Yeah, I was, uh...
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I was wondering if I could come in.
335
00:21:46,720 --> 00:21:47,560
Sure.
336
00:22:07,880 --> 00:22:10,240
Would you like a cup of tea?
337
00:22:12,680 --> 00:22:14,120
Yeah, please.
338
00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:20,760
[Darrien laughs]
So they were just high all the time?
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00:22:20,760 --> 00:22:24,440
Oh my God, I've never seen two people
consume drugs like them.
340
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Private school boys too.
341
00:22:25,840 --> 00:22:29,280
I mean, the amount of times I caught
people shagging in my bed was insane.
342
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[laughs]
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00:22:31,680 --> 00:22:32,640
[chuckles softly]
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Where've you been?
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Oh. You know. Here and there.
346
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I'm sorry I disappeared.
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00:22:45,560 --> 00:22:47,520
No. No, I get it.
348
00:22:53,480 --> 00:22:54,880
I saw your video, by the way.
349
00:22:57,960 --> 00:22:58,800
Oh yeah?
350
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I thought it was brave.
351
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Really brave.
352
00:23:06,880 --> 00:23:07,720
Oh.
353
00:23:09,080 --> 00:23:09,960
Thank you.
354
00:23:12,640 --> 00:23:14,560
You should come back and work with me.
355
00:23:16,920 --> 00:23:18,000
Uh...
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It won't be like last time.
357
00:23:21,640 --> 00:23:26,800
Oh, I... I don't know.
I'm sort of not really doing much anymore.
358
00:23:26,800 --> 00:23:29,520
We're bringing Cotton Mouth back
for a reboot.
359
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Probably be terrible, but
360
00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:34,400
we're staffing up at this very moment.
361
00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:41,600
You'd be paid.
362
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I'd love that.
363
00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:52,400
[uneasy music playing]
364
00:24:08,640 --> 00:24:10,080
[uneasy music builds]
365
00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:20,400
[breathes heavily]
366
00:24:23,840 --> 00:24:25,240
[uneasy music continues]
367
00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:53,600
[music fades]
368
00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:01,800
[Martha] God, and there was
this other time in the bar
369
00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:04,320
when you were serving
in your tight whites, and I thought,
370
00:25:04,320 --> 00:25:06,840
"Red. Red is your color."
371
00:25:06,840 --> 00:25:09,560
And then the next day,
you were wearing red.
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[whimsical music playing]
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[Martha] I think you've got
a great jawline, a lovely smile.
374
00:25:15,920 --> 00:25:20,040
You know, I think you're,
you know, very attractive.
375
00:25:23,560 --> 00:25:26,640
You know, when you meet someone sometimes,
376
00:25:26,640 --> 00:25:28,240
you just think they have it.
377
00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:29,880
And you have it.
378
00:25:30,440 --> 00:25:33,080
I dunno. Maybe it's your turn of phrase.
379
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[whimsical music continues]
380
00:25:35,440 --> 00:25:39,560
[Martha] Fine! I fancy you, okay?
I fancy you. There, I said it.
381
00:25:40,160 --> 00:25:43,480
Oh God. I'm blushing
like a teenage virgin here. [laughs]
382
00:25:43,480 --> 00:25:45,560
[whimsical music continues]
383
00:26:04,960 --> 00:26:05,800
[music fades]
384
00:26:06,880 --> 00:26:11,480
- [bar tender] Hi there.
- Hi. Yeah, I'll have a vodka Coke, please.
385
00:26:11,480 --> 00:26:12,920
A... a double. Thanks.
386
00:26:23,440 --> 00:26:25,240
[Martha] That's the thing
I've always wondered.
387
00:26:25,240 --> 00:26:28,840
Why people meet, why people fall in love,
that kind of thing.
388
00:26:30,320 --> 00:26:34,160
And I suppose that brings me
to the baby reindeer thing.
389
00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:37,440
As I think you're probably wondering.
390
00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:41,920
Basically, I had this wee cuddly toy
when I was young.
391
00:26:42,920 --> 00:26:44,760
Went with me everywhere.
392
00:26:45,760 --> 00:26:48,280
Earliest memory I have,
I think, was Christmastime.
393
00:26:48,800 --> 00:26:53,280
This old photo of me,
sitting with this paper hat on my head
394
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and this baby reindeer beside me.
395
00:26:57,120 --> 00:27:01,560
Anyway, this reindeer
was this cuddly, fluffy thing.
396
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It had big lips, huge eyes,
397
00:27:05,320 --> 00:27:06,520
and the cutest wee bum.
398
00:27:07,720 --> 00:27:09,160
I still have it to this day.
399
00:27:11,480 --> 00:27:13,760
It was the only good thing
about my childhood.
400
00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:16,520
I'd hug it
401
00:27:17,680 --> 00:27:18,640
when they fought.
402
00:27:20,280 --> 00:27:22,080
And they fought a lot, you know?
403
00:27:24,360 --> 00:27:28,520
Well, you are the spit of that reindeer.
404
00:27:29,920 --> 00:27:31,000
The same nose.
405
00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:32,960
Same eyes.
406
00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:36,120
Same cute wee bum.
407
00:27:38,480 --> 00:27:40,000
It means so much to me.
408
00:27:42,040 --> 00:27:42,920
[sniffles] You...
409
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:46,360
[Martha cries] You mean so much to me.
410
00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:51,160
I've gotta go.
411
00:27:52,840 --> 00:27:54,840
[gentle music playing]
412
00:28:07,720 --> 00:28:11,720
[cries]
413
00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:19,160
- Are you okay?
- Yeah. Yeah. Sorry. Yeah, I'm fine. Sorry.
414
00:28:19,160 --> 00:28:20,160
[Donny sniffs]
415
00:28:20,160 --> 00:28:21,240
Here you go.
416
00:28:21,240 --> 00:28:22,440
[Donny] Oh, thank you.
417
00:28:24,840 --> 00:28:26,720
- It's, uh, £7.25.
- [Donny] Oh yeah.
418
00:28:28,920 --> 00:28:29,880
Oh fuck.
419
00:28:29,880 --> 00:28:30,880
Sorry, man, I...
420
00:28:32,400 --> 00:28:34,240
I think I've left my wallet at home.
421
00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:40,720
Don't worry about it. It's on me.
422
00:28:46,800 --> 00:28:48,360
["Farewell, Farewell" playing]
423
00:28:52,320 --> 00:28:58,280
♪ Farewell, farewell
To you who would hear ♪
424
00:28:58,840 --> 00:29:02,680
♪ You lonely travelers all ♪
425
00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:10,600
♪ The cold north wind will blow again ♪
426
00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:17,160
♪ The winding road does call ♪
427
00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:25,360
♪ And will you never return to see ♪
428
00:29:25,360 --> 00:29:29,600
♪ Your bruised and beaten sons? ♪
429
00:29:30,240 --> 00:29:34,720
♪ "Oh, I would, I would" ♪
430
00:29:34,720 --> 00:29:37,320
♪ "If welcome I were" ♪
431
00:29:38,720 --> 00:29:45,240
♪ The cold north wind will blow again ♪
432
00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:49,480
♪ The winding road ♪
433
00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:56,560
♪ Does call ♪
434
00:29:57,480 --> 00:29:58,360
[music fades]