1 00:00:02,169 --> 00:00:04,505 (gate buzzes) 2 00:00:04,505 --> 00:00:06,465 (lock booms shut) 3 00:00:06,465 --> 00:00:08,050 SAMANTHA: Look, I'm not gonna lie to you. 4 00:00:08,050 --> 00:00:10,135 - It's all triggering. - (door opens) 5 00:00:10,135 --> 00:00:11,386 MAN: Samantha Fink? 6 00:00:11,386 --> 00:00:12,846 Let's go. 7 00:00:12,846 --> 00:00:14,848 ♪ ♪ 8 00:00:14,848 --> 00:00:17,684 - SAMANTHA: I mean, the sounds, the smells... - Hold up. 9 00:00:17,684 --> 00:00:19,937 SAMANTHA: I mean, the last time I woke up here I was still drunk. 10 00:00:19,937 --> 00:00:22,689 It just all felt so hopeless. 11 00:00:22,689 --> 00:00:25,108 I didn't even know if I'd make it to my next birthday. 12 00:00:25,108 --> 00:00:27,319 But I did. It's today. 13 00:00:27,319 --> 00:00:28,528 I'm 29. (chuckles) 14 00:00:30,280 --> 00:00:32,157 You don't have to say anything. 15 00:00:32,157 --> 00:00:35,160 Anyway, I made it. I'm here, I'm alive. 16 00:00:35,160 --> 00:00:37,412 Is it perfect? No, absolutely not. 17 00:00:37,412 --> 00:00:39,039 I still live with my mother. 18 00:00:39,039 --> 00:00:40,541 And the mattress there is terrible. 19 00:00:40,541 --> 00:00:42,251 It's, like, super soft. 20 00:00:42,251 --> 00:00:44,211 And too, like, pillow-toppy for my taste. 21 00:00:44,211 --> 00:00:46,547 But I do have the first real job I've had in years, 22 00:00:46,547 --> 00:00:49,007 which is great, and, do I have a boyfriend? 23 00:00:49,007 --> 00:00:51,927 No, but I have dated a little bit. 24 00:00:51,927 --> 00:00:53,637 Honestly, there's not much out there. 25 00:00:53,637 --> 00:00:55,389 You guys are not missing anything. 26 00:00:55,389 --> 00:00:56,431 (laughs) Believe me. 27 00:00:58,308 --> 00:01:00,185 But the point that I'm trying to make is 28 00:01:00,185 --> 00:01:01,728 I didn't get here alone. 29 00:01:01,728 --> 00:01:04,147 I have a sponsor, who's amazing, 30 00:01:04,147 --> 00:01:07,067 and a real community that supports me. 31 00:01:07,067 --> 00:01:09,486 And they all helped me understand that... 32 00:01:09,486 --> 00:01:12,281 this did not have to be the end of my story. 33 00:01:12,281 --> 00:01:14,157 - It's... - No. That's the end. 34 00:01:14,157 --> 00:01:15,617 Yeah, it's been 20 minutes. Thank you so much 35 00:01:15,617 --> 00:01:18,120 for that inspiring share, Samantha. 36 00:01:18,120 --> 00:01:19,830 And thank you, ladies, for coming. 37 00:01:19,830 --> 00:01:21,331 Now you can head out to Bible study. 38 00:01:21,331 --> 00:01:23,792 Be sure to say what up to my big dog JC 39 00:01:23,792 --> 00:01:25,502 and his mama. (chuckles) 40 00:01:25,502 --> 00:01:26,670 ("Overlivin" by Soulplusmind & Janae E. playing) 41 00:01:26,670 --> 00:01:28,630 Yeah, call it money ♪ 42 00:01:28,630 --> 00:01:31,842 - Call it bass, I'm a boss ♪ - Thank you ♪ 43 00:01:31,842 --> 00:01:33,510 International I'm flying ♪ 44 00:01:33,510 --> 00:01:35,387 ♪ 'Cross the coast, yes, I'm packing ♪ 45 00:01:35,387 --> 00:01:37,514 ♪ I've been working on my car... ♪ 46 00:01:37,514 --> 00:01:40,100 - Morning, Mary. - Morning, Sam. 47 00:01:40,100 --> 00:01:41,893 Up the shore ♪ 48 00:01:41,893 --> 00:01:43,770 ♪ Ah, ah, you good? Yeah, I'm good ♪ 49 00:01:43,770 --> 00:01:46,148 Oh, Jeff. 50 00:01:46,148 --> 00:01:49,067 Yeah, you're getting worse at opening things, man. 51 00:01:49,067 --> 00:01:51,987 You're getting worse at... stuff. 52 00:01:51,987 --> 00:01:53,530 Hey. Grab your shit, come with me. 53 00:01:53,530 --> 00:01:55,157 But I... 54 00:01:55,157 --> 00:01:57,576 - Just come with me. Let's go. - Okay. I... 55 00:01:57,576 --> 00:01:59,244 I was actually early today, though. 56 00:01:59,244 --> 00:02:01,204 I already sent you the list 57 00:02:01,204 --> 00:02:03,165 of the chunkiest "chowdahs" on the South Shore, so I don't know 58 00:02:03,165 --> 00:02:04,374 - if you saw that, but it's definitely - What are you talking about? 59 00:02:04,374 --> 00:02:05,959 - in your inbox. - I'm not worried about that. 60 00:02:05,959 --> 00:02:07,919 Okay. It's just that it's been my experience 61 00:02:07,919 --> 00:02:09,212 when a boss says, like, "Come with me," 62 00:02:09,212 --> 00:02:10,422 something very bad is about to happen. 63 00:02:10,422 --> 00:02:12,674 - You're very paranoid. - With good reason. 64 00:02:12,674 --> 00:02:14,885 This, right here-- 65 00:02:14,885 --> 00:02:17,012 that's your desk. 66 00:02:18,347 --> 00:02:20,265 - Me? Mine? - Yes, it's yours. Congratulations. 67 00:02:20,265 --> 00:02:21,975 You've been killing it here. Take a seat, 68 00:02:21,975 --> 00:02:23,560 - please. Seriously, - Okay. 69 00:02:23,560 --> 00:02:24,978 it's been amazing. 70 00:02:24,978 --> 00:02:27,230 When your Legal Sea Food top ten went viral, 71 00:02:27,230 --> 00:02:29,650 that was huge for us. And you ate... 72 00:02:29,650 --> 00:02:31,401 so much lobster. 73 00:02:31,401 --> 00:02:33,654 - So much lobster. Yeah. - Unhealthy amounts. 74 00:02:33,654 --> 00:02:35,405 I still don't feel right, if I'm being honest. 75 00:02:35,405 --> 00:02:36,573 - (toilet flushes) - Oh. 76 00:02:38,367 --> 00:02:39,576 What's up, Dave? 77 00:02:41,912 --> 00:02:43,038 Um, I'm sorry about that. 78 00:02:43,038 --> 00:02:44,247 - It's just, there's not - Yeah, no. 79 00:02:44,247 --> 00:02:45,582 a lot of space up here. All the desks 80 00:02:45,582 --> 00:02:47,292 - It's fine. I'm kind of into it. - were taken. 81 00:02:47,292 --> 00:02:48,877 - I love it. Thank you. - Yeah. Good. 82 00:02:48,877 --> 00:02:49,961 Yeah. 83 00:02:49,961 --> 00:02:52,130 Um, while you're here... 84 00:02:52,130 --> 00:02:53,924 - Yeah? - I was just wondering, maybe I could 85 00:02:53,924 --> 00:02:55,634 write something a bit longer. 86 00:02:55,634 --> 00:02:56,927 - Uh... - Not that I don't love being 87 00:02:56,927 --> 00:02:59,388 the listicle lady, 'cause I do. I just... 88 00:02:59,388 --> 00:03:01,139 I actually worked at a grocery store recently 89 00:03:01,139 --> 00:03:03,016 and was, like, slicing deli meat and very bad at it, 90 00:03:03,016 --> 00:03:05,185 - so I'm very grateful for this. I just... - Just chill right now, 91 00:03:05,185 --> 00:03:07,688 all right? I gave you a desk. A toilet desk. 92 00:03:07,688 --> 00:03:09,272 It's a clear vote of confidence. 93 00:03:09,272 --> 00:03:11,858 But, yes, if you have samples, send them to me. 94 00:03:11,858 --> 00:03:13,860 - Seriously? - Yeah. 95 00:03:13,860 --> 00:03:15,153 I mean, I'll... I'll do it right now. 96 00:03:15,153 --> 00:03:16,738 Before you get back to your desk. 97 00:03:16,738 --> 00:03:18,824 - I'll send them. - Okay, cool. 98 00:03:18,824 --> 00:03:20,450 Send them when you're done with this panic attack. 99 00:03:20,450 --> 00:03:22,536 - Okay. Okay. Oh, and, - Cool. 100 00:03:22,536 --> 00:03:25,122 hey, Alex, um... I'm actually, I'm having, 101 00:03:25,122 --> 00:03:26,998 a birthday party tonight. I don't know if you're free. 102 00:03:26,998 --> 00:03:28,333 I know it's kind of last-minute, 103 00:03:28,333 --> 00:03:29,793 but I kind of went all out. There's gonna be, 104 00:03:29,793 --> 00:03:31,586 like, a photo booth and a taco truck. 105 00:03:31,586 --> 00:03:33,964 So, I don't know. If you want to swing by... 106 00:03:33,964 --> 00:03:36,508 Uh, I would love to, I would. 107 00:03:36,508 --> 00:03:39,177 Um... but I'm your boss. 108 00:03:39,177 --> 00:03:40,637 - Of course. - And I just gave you a desk. 109 00:03:40,637 --> 00:03:42,806 - I don't want people thinking... - Right. 110 00:03:42,806 --> 00:03:44,641 Something weird's going on, and... 111 00:03:44,641 --> 00:03:46,726 - No, me either. - But, uh, 112 00:03:46,726 --> 00:03:48,603 - happy birthday. - You too. 113 00:03:48,603 --> 00:03:50,522 - That doesn't make sense. - No. 114 00:03:50,522 --> 00:03:51,648 (chuckles) 115 00:03:53,733 --> 00:03:55,777 Wow. 116 00:03:55,777 --> 00:03:57,696 ♪ ♪ 117 00:03:59,614 --> 00:04:01,741 (coughs) 118 00:04:01,741 --> 00:04:04,411 - (grunts) - Would you stop it with the chairs? You're pregnant. 119 00:04:04,411 --> 00:04:06,580 - I'm 11 weeks. - Sit. 120 00:04:06,580 --> 00:04:09,416 (scoffs) Okay. 121 00:04:09,416 --> 00:04:12,627 (inhales, exhales) 122 00:04:12,627 --> 00:04:14,171 You ready for your birthday surprise? 123 00:04:14,171 --> 00:04:17,174 - Yeah. - You're greeting today. 124 00:04:17,174 --> 00:04:20,010 Oh, yay. I get to touch clammy newcomer palms. 125 00:04:20,010 --> 00:04:22,220 It took me four years to be promoted to greeter, 126 00:04:22,220 --> 00:04:25,182 and she doesn't even appreciate it. 127 00:04:25,182 --> 00:04:27,142 Okay, well, we'll take it from here, Mark. 128 00:04:27,142 --> 00:04:29,227 - Whoa. - Some people are 129 00:04:29,227 --> 00:04:30,854 so touchy about belly button birthdays. 130 00:04:30,854 --> 00:04:32,689 - They think they're no big deal. - Yeah, well, 131 00:04:32,689 --> 00:04:34,316 I think this one's kind of a big deal. 132 00:04:34,316 --> 00:04:35,567 It's the first time I felt like celebrating 133 00:04:35,567 --> 00:04:36,985 my existence since I was 11. 134 00:04:36,985 --> 00:04:38,528 I'm happy for you, Sam. 135 00:04:38,528 --> 00:04:40,822 Most people, sober or not, do not have a life 136 00:04:40,822 --> 00:04:42,407 - that they are actively proud of. - Thank you. 137 00:04:42,407 --> 00:04:46,161 I'm trying. But I want more, you know? 138 00:04:46,161 --> 00:04:49,831 I want, like, a real relationship and hot sex. 139 00:04:49,831 --> 00:04:51,958 - And maybe a "Pullitzer." - Pulitzer. 140 00:04:51,958 --> 00:04:53,335 - Whatever. - Well, you know what they say, 141 00:04:53,335 --> 00:04:54,461 throw a party and the rest 142 00:04:54,461 --> 00:04:55,670 of your life falls into place. 143 00:04:58,006 --> 00:04:59,800 That's sarcasm. 144 00:04:59,800 --> 00:05:01,802 Could still be true. 145 00:05:01,802 --> 00:05:03,762 (indistinct chatter) 146 00:05:03,762 --> 00:05:05,514 - Ooh, someone looks hot. - Thank you. 147 00:05:05,514 --> 00:05:07,057 No, by someone I meant me. 148 00:05:07,057 --> 00:05:08,016 - Oh. - You look okay, too. 149 00:05:08,016 --> 00:05:09,518 It's cute, right? 150 00:05:09,518 --> 00:05:11,436 - Yes. I love it. - It's so cute. 151 00:05:11,436 --> 00:05:13,438 Ooh. Let me, uh, show you what I got for Sam 152 00:05:13,438 --> 00:05:15,023 at that cute shop around the corner. 153 00:05:16,274 --> 00:05:17,526 Shut the front door. Is that a journal? 154 00:05:17,526 --> 00:05:18,693 - Mm-hmm. - That's what I got her. 155 00:05:18,693 --> 00:05:20,237 - Really? - I was like, 156 00:05:20,237 --> 00:05:22,113 "What do I get someone who doesn't booze 157 00:05:22,113 --> 00:05:23,782 - and talks about her frigging feelings all the time?" - Right? 158 00:05:23,782 --> 00:05:25,242 Anyway, I think mine's different enough. 159 00:05:25,242 --> 00:05:27,077 It's got a sparkly unicorn on the cover 160 00:05:27,077 --> 00:05:28,662 and a lock with a tiny key 161 00:05:28,662 --> 00:05:30,705 for her tiny hands and her big dreams. 162 00:05:30,705 --> 00:05:32,374 - That's what I wrote on the card. - That's good. 163 00:05:32,374 --> 00:05:34,459 You ready to see Joel tonight? 164 00:05:34,459 --> 00:05:36,503 Yeah, I'm excited for it. I mean, we did it right. 165 00:05:36,503 --> 00:05:37,546 We're still really good friends. 166 00:05:37,546 --> 00:05:40,257 - Her ex-husband. - Wow. Seriously? 167 00:05:40,257 --> 00:05:41,716 Tell me about it. My baby daddy texts me 168 00:05:41,716 --> 00:05:43,718 every two years, "Sup, Felicia?" 169 00:05:43,718 --> 00:05:45,512 And it takes every ounce of my being 170 00:05:45,512 --> 00:05:46,721 not to hurl my phone in the frigging river. 171 00:05:46,721 --> 00:05:49,349 I know. Joel and I have the best divorce ever. 172 00:05:49,349 --> 00:05:51,309 I mean, technically we haven't signed the papers yet, 173 00:05:51,309 --> 00:05:54,312 but we're both in a really great place. 174 00:05:54,312 --> 00:05:55,772 It's amazing. 175 00:05:55,772 --> 00:05:59,317 It's not like I'm upset, you know? 176 00:05:59,317 --> 00:06:02,279 I just have this, like, intense physical reaction 177 00:06:02,279 --> 00:06:04,823 every time I hear her name. 178 00:06:04,823 --> 00:06:07,534 Which I've been told is actually really normal, so... 179 00:06:07,534 --> 00:06:11,997 Have you read The Body Keeps the Score? I have it. 180 00:06:11,997 --> 00:06:14,082 I'm gonna give this book to you right now. 181 00:06:14,082 --> 00:06:17,210 Is it a thriller? I mostly read James Patterson. 182 00:06:17,210 --> 00:06:19,588 I've been doing Thriller Thursdays where I order 183 00:06:19,588 --> 00:06:23,258 takeout and then curl up at home with my Jimmy P. 184 00:06:23,258 --> 00:06:24,551 James Patterson doesn't write his own books. 185 00:06:24,551 --> 00:06:26,678 - He uses foreign undergrads. - Oh. 186 00:06:28,722 --> 00:06:30,140 How's the house? 187 00:06:30,140 --> 00:06:32,225 So great. Yeah. 188 00:06:32,225 --> 00:06:33,435 At first I thought it would be hard 189 00:06:33,435 --> 00:06:35,520 living in the Craftsman that I built 190 00:06:35,520 --> 00:06:37,981 specifically for me, Brit, and two to four of our children, 191 00:06:37,981 --> 00:06:40,191 but it's been amazing. 192 00:06:40,191 --> 00:06:42,235 Yeah, I find myself falling asleep in any room 193 00:06:42,235 --> 00:06:43,153 'cause it's so quiet. 194 00:06:44,279 --> 00:06:45,906 So quiet. 195 00:06:45,906 --> 00:06:47,657 Joel, you know it's okay 196 00:06:47,657 --> 00:06:49,618 to be upset about the divorce, right? 197 00:06:49,618 --> 00:06:52,829 I am upset about the divorce. 198 00:06:52,829 --> 00:06:53,663 - So, you g... - (guitar chord twangs) 199 00:06:53,663 --> 00:06:54,789 Bob. 200 00:06:54,789 --> 00:06:56,207 Mm. That is literally the sound 201 00:06:56,207 --> 00:06:58,960 - of one of my migraines. - (chuckles) Sorry. 202 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:01,588 - Hey. Hi, Joel. - Hey, Bob. 203 00:07:01,588 --> 00:07:03,715 Couldn't help but overhear some of your conversation, 204 00:07:03,715 --> 00:07:07,927 and I wanted to give you one of my new business cards. 205 00:07:10,221 --> 00:07:13,892 "Bobby Positive, inclusive personal training." 206 00:07:13,892 --> 00:07:17,020 Yeah, yeah. I'm-I'm seeing clients again in the garage. 207 00:07:17,020 --> 00:07:18,605 So, you know, if you want to work on your strength-- 208 00:07:18,605 --> 00:07:22,692 not just physical but also emotional 209 00:07:22,692 --> 00:07:25,487 and spiritual-- all done in a multiplatform environment, 210 00:07:25,487 --> 00:07:27,030 you know, just give me a call. 211 00:07:27,030 --> 00:07:29,949 Or you can text me. Just don't use too many emojis. 212 00:07:29,949 --> 00:07:31,284 I'm not sure what they all mean. 213 00:07:31,284 --> 00:07:33,161 Right. Yeah. 214 00:07:34,704 --> 00:07:36,623 Anyway, I'm not sure I'll make the party 'cause the house 215 00:07:36,623 --> 00:07:39,876 is so far, but, um, I wanted to drop this off for Sam. 216 00:07:39,876 --> 00:07:42,837 - It's a journal. - Joel, stop. 217 00:07:42,837 --> 00:07:44,464 - Do you know who I am? - Uh, 218 00:07:44,464 --> 00:07:46,508 you're Carol? 219 00:07:46,508 --> 00:07:48,051 I am a woman who has been through the throat 220 00:07:48,051 --> 00:07:50,637 of grief and pooped out the other side of it. 221 00:07:50,637 --> 00:07:52,972 And I am telling you, the only way through the pain 222 00:07:52,972 --> 00:07:55,350 is to face it head-on. 223 00:07:55,350 --> 00:07:57,894 Do you understand what I'm saying to you? 224 00:07:57,894 --> 00:08:00,063 I think so. You're saying 225 00:08:00,063 --> 00:08:01,272 I should suck it up and come to the party? 226 00:08:01,272 --> 00:08:02,774 - Ex... - Absolutely what she's saying... 227 00:08:02,774 --> 00:08:05,110 - This is what I'm saying. - You got it. 228 00:08:05,110 --> 00:08:06,236 - Exactly. - You got it, you got it. Yeah. 229 00:08:06,236 --> 00:08:07,404 - Yeah, very good. - Great. 230 00:08:09,114 --> 00:08:10,407 Hey, how you doing? Welcome back. 231 00:08:10,407 --> 00:08:12,450 You can pop over there. 232 00:08:12,450 --> 00:08:14,786 Make eye contact. Use your kind eyes. 233 00:08:14,786 --> 00:08:15,954 You want to attract, not repel. 234 00:08:15,954 --> 00:08:17,205 - Okay? - Okay. 235 00:08:17,205 --> 00:08:19,082 - Hi. How you doing? - Hi. 236 00:08:19,082 --> 00:08:20,792 - Good. - You can, uh... go over there, 237 00:08:20,792 --> 00:08:22,502 - I guess, if you want. Yeah. - That's a bit better. 238 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:24,963 - Hi. Welcome back. Good to see you. - Oh, there we go. 239 00:08:24,963 --> 00:08:25,922 That was way better. 240 00:08:38,268 --> 00:08:40,186 James. 241 00:08:40,186 --> 00:08:41,688 (grunts) 242 00:08:41,688 --> 00:08:43,148 - My jacket. Get off. - Oh... 243 00:08:43,148 --> 00:08:45,442 Sorry. 244 00:08:45,442 --> 00:08:47,652 Just didn't-didn't want you to go. 245 00:08:47,652 --> 00:08:50,155 You didn't answer a call or a text in, like, six months. 246 00:08:50,155 --> 00:08:54,492 I... I couldn't. You were off the wagon, James. 247 00:08:54,492 --> 00:08:56,161 It would have been really bad for both of us, you know. 248 00:08:56,161 --> 00:08:57,829 Self-preservation. 249 00:08:57,829 --> 00:09:00,081 I have to put my own oxygen mask on first. 250 00:09:00,081 --> 00:09:04,294 Yeah, I know that, but... it sucked. 251 00:09:05,462 --> 00:09:07,589 Yeah, for me, too. 252 00:09:07,589 --> 00:09:10,008 I get it. I'm a rules guy, all that stuff, 253 00:09:10,008 --> 00:09:13,303 but it's been awful. 254 00:09:14,596 --> 00:09:17,015 And, you know... lonely. 255 00:09:18,183 --> 00:09:21,394 Yeah. Come inside. 256 00:09:21,394 --> 00:09:22,937 I still hoard the good cookies 257 00:09:22,937 --> 00:09:25,231 and let the dirtbags eat the lemon ones. 258 00:09:27,233 --> 00:09:28,276 - All right. - Okay. 259 00:09:28,276 --> 00:09:30,779 Oh, my... Okay, go. Go, go, go. 260 00:09:36,910 --> 00:09:39,162 Okay. I'll see you there? 261 00:09:39,162 --> 00:09:40,914 - JAMES: Yeah. - Okay. 262 00:09:42,832 --> 00:09:45,502 Well, I did not think that was going to go that way. 263 00:09:45,502 --> 00:09:48,421 - Good for you. - Thank you. 264 00:09:48,421 --> 00:09:50,298 Also, I invited him to my birthday party. 265 00:09:50,298 --> 00:09:52,717 Sam, it's his first day back. You're clearly triggering him. 266 00:09:52,717 --> 00:09:55,345 He-He's not ready to go to a party. 267 00:09:55,345 --> 00:09:57,180 Should I tell him not to come? 268 00:09:57,180 --> 00:09:59,432 - Sam. - Right. 269 00:10:05,688 --> 00:10:06,815 BOB: Ah, there she is. 270 00:10:06,815 --> 00:10:08,608 Looking like a snack... (chuckles) 271 00:10:08,608 --> 00:10:10,568 ...as the kids say. 272 00:10:10,568 --> 00:10:12,862 - Happy birthday, darling. - Thank you. 273 00:10:12,862 --> 00:10:15,406 - What are you doing? - Hiding the meds. 274 00:10:15,406 --> 00:10:17,117 There will be addicts here. It's for their own sake. 275 00:10:17,117 --> 00:10:19,828 You can't overdose on antidepressants, Mom. 276 00:10:19,828 --> 00:10:22,288 No, but you can get brain damage. 277 00:10:22,288 --> 00:10:23,832 I read this article in Parade magazine. 278 00:10:23,832 --> 00:10:25,542 Oh, that poor woman. 279 00:10:25,542 --> 00:10:29,462 It's going to be a beautiful, wonderful evening, I promise. 280 00:10:29,462 --> 00:10:31,005 That's right, 281 00:10:31,005 --> 00:10:32,799 'cause I trimmed all the rose bushes 282 00:10:32,799 --> 00:10:34,634 and filled the gopher holes. 283 00:10:34,634 --> 00:10:36,970 - We are party ready. - SAMANTHA: Yeah, we sure are. 284 00:10:36,970 --> 00:10:39,597 I got every single kind of cheese a person could get, 285 00:10:39,597 --> 00:10:42,433 and I think it looks... looks really beautiful. 286 00:10:42,433 --> 00:10:44,561 You guys just need to stay in here, that's all. 287 00:10:44,561 --> 00:10:46,688 You just can't... 288 00:10:46,688 --> 00:10:48,064 I mean, you can say hi to a couple of people, 289 00:10:48,064 --> 00:10:49,315 but then mostly just stay inside. Right? 290 00:10:51,067 --> 00:10:53,736 I better go spray for gnats. 291 00:10:55,029 --> 00:10:57,532 Mom. I'd love to hear you say you heard me. 292 00:10:57,532 --> 00:11:01,161 Samantha, 29. 293 00:11:01,161 --> 00:11:03,163 I can't believe it. 294 00:11:03,163 --> 00:11:06,249 They say you don't remember childbirth. This is a lie. 295 00:11:06,249 --> 00:11:09,919 I look at your face, I remember every second of pushing you out. 296 00:11:09,919 --> 00:11:11,921 I really don't feel like doing the whole... 297 00:11:11,921 --> 00:11:14,340 22 hours of labor. 298 00:11:14,340 --> 00:11:16,718 The worst pain I've ever felt. Searing pain. 299 00:11:16,718 --> 00:11:19,137 Like being stabbed with red hot knives. 300 00:11:19,137 --> 00:11:20,513 I tore like Velcro. 301 00:11:20,513 --> 00:11:21,681 And then at 4:28 on a Wednesday... 302 00:11:21,681 --> 00:11:24,601 And then at 4:28 303 00:11:24,601 --> 00:11:27,645 on a Wednesday morning, out you popped. 304 00:11:27,645 --> 00:11:30,315 I didn't know till I saw the photos later, 305 00:11:30,315 --> 00:11:32,567 but, you know, your baby can be so ugly 306 00:11:32,567 --> 00:11:34,527 and you don't even know it? 307 00:11:34,527 --> 00:11:35,820 And this was me. 308 00:11:37,113 --> 00:11:39,824 - Is this leading to anything? - Yes. 309 00:11:39,824 --> 00:11:43,828 I took one look at you and I saw how special you are. 310 00:11:43,828 --> 00:11:46,539 And you are special. And you are beautiful. 311 00:11:46,539 --> 00:11:48,708 Even without makeup. 312 00:11:48,708 --> 00:11:50,668 I have so much makeup on. 313 00:11:52,295 --> 00:11:53,880 And it's perfect. 314 00:11:55,965 --> 00:11:57,759 (clears throat) 315 00:11:57,759 --> 00:12:00,220 ("TNT" by Fantasydub playing) 316 00:12:00,220 --> 00:12:02,263 (woman singing in French) 317 00:12:02,263 --> 00:12:05,934 (speaking indistinctly) 318 00:12:05,934 --> 00:12:07,852 ♪ ♪ 319 00:12:09,103 --> 00:12:11,105 Thank you so much for coming. 320 00:12:11,105 --> 00:12:13,691 Oh. Thank you very much. 321 00:12:13,691 --> 00:12:16,361 Do you want a drink? There's so much stuff. Okay, come. 322 00:12:16,361 --> 00:12:18,154 - I'm so glad that you could make it. - Yeah, thanks for inviting me. 323 00:12:18,154 --> 00:12:20,406 My dad finally got that new kidney, so... 324 00:12:20,406 --> 00:12:22,158 - Oh. - I have a lot more free time now. 325 00:12:22,158 --> 00:12:24,452 I also have tons of different kinds of hot sauce. 326 00:12:24,452 --> 00:12:25,745 It really does look great, though. 327 00:12:25,745 --> 00:12:27,288 - You think? - You did a great job. Yeah. 328 00:12:27,288 --> 00:12:30,541 - Does it feel, like, too try-hardy? - Happy birthday! 329 00:12:30,541 --> 00:12:33,711 (screams) Oh, here's your gift. 330 00:12:33,711 --> 00:12:35,338 - Oh, thank you so much. - It's a journal. 331 00:12:35,338 --> 00:12:37,465 - Oh. - I'm bad at surprises. 332 00:12:37,465 --> 00:12:38,675 Brit got you one, too. 333 00:12:38,675 --> 00:12:40,802 Oh, well, if one gets lonely. 334 00:12:40,802 --> 00:12:41,928 I also got her a journal. 335 00:12:41,928 --> 00:12:43,596 (laughter) 336 00:12:43,596 --> 00:12:44,973 - Joel, you remember Peter. - Yeah, yeah, of course. 337 00:12:44,973 --> 00:12:46,307 - From the wedding. - Yeah. 338 00:12:46,307 --> 00:12:47,642 Yeah, I was, I was there. 339 00:12:47,642 --> 00:12:48,768 - Mm-hmm. - It was a, uh, 340 00:12:48,768 --> 00:12:50,812 beautiful night. 341 00:12:50,812 --> 00:12:53,398 Uh, congratulations. 342 00:12:53,398 --> 00:12:54,274 And condolences. 343 00:12:55,316 --> 00:12:56,818 'Cause of the-the... 344 00:12:56,818 --> 00:12:58,778 - It's... - Yeah. - Thank you. 345 00:12:58,778 --> 00:13:01,030 - BRIT: Oh, my God. - Oh, perfect. 346 00:13:01,030 --> 00:13:04,158 - All my favorite people! - Yeah. 347 00:13:04,158 --> 00:13:05,660 Hi, good friend. 348 00:13:07,829 --> 00:13:09,205 - How are we? - Oh, just... 349 00:13:09,205 --> 00:13:11,457 we're just super good in-in every way. 350 00:13:11,457 --> 00:13:12,959 So that's... 351 00:13:12,959 --> 00:13:14,711 (sighs) 352 00:13:14,711 --> 00:13:16,254 JOEL: Ten-ten out of ten? 353 00:13:16,254 --> 00:13:18,214 Oh, man. 354 00:13:18,214 --> 00:13:20,758 - Super good. - FELICIA: Super. 355 00:13:20,758 --> 00:13:22,885 Yeah. Have some tacos. I've got a minimum. 356 00:13:22,885 --> 00:13:24,929 - Oh. - Seriously, eat them. 357 00:13:24,929 --> 00:13:27,181 Taco actually sounds pretty good right now. 358 00:13:27,181 --> 00:13:29,309 Oh, I'll come with you. 359 00:13:29,309 --> 00:13:30,685 Terrific, yeah. 360 00:13:32,478 --> 00:13:33,896 - Let's get a drink. - Please, God. 361 00:13:35,273 --> 00:13:38,026 Sam, great party. Is this, is this pasteurized? 362 00:13:38,026 --> 00:13:39,986 - Yeah. - Is it? 363 00:13:39,986 --> 00:13:41,863 - What do you want it to be? - Pasteurized. 364 00:13:41,863 --> 00:13:43,698 I don't know. 365 00:13:43,698 --> 00:13:46,868 Yeah, so I only, like, eat my oatmeal with raisins 366 00:13:46,868 --> 00:13:48,953 - because... - Jeff? 367 00:13:48,953 --> 00:13:51,664 - Have you seen Alex? - Yeah, I saw him with your mom. 368 00:13:51,664 --> 00:13:53,666 I don't know why I said it like that. 369 00:13:53,666 --> 00:13:55,835 Uh, I saw him with your mom. 370 00:13:55,835 --> 00:13:56,961 They're in the kitchen, talking. 371 00:13:56,961 --> 00:13:59,255 Cool. 372 00:13:59,255 --> 00:14:00,548 Okay, so like I was saying, 373 00:14:00,548 --> 00:14:02,091 raisins, man, they're glued together. 374 00:14:02,091 --> 00:14:03,676 Does Samantha ever talk about me at work? 375 00:14:03,676 --> 00:14:06,179 - Am I what you expected? - Mother. 376 00:14:06,179 --> 00:14:07,764 What? 377 00:14:07,764 --> 00:14:10,308 I am inside. They came to me. 378 00:14:10,308 --> 00:14:11,517 I'm in the kitchen. 379 00:14:13,227 --> 00:14:15,396 - Have you seen Alex? - Who is Alex? 380 00:14:23,362 --> 00:14:25,073 This is nice, right? 381 00:14:25,073 --> 00:14:28,951 Feels good to be spending time with you. Be friends again. 382 00:14:28,951 --> 00:14:31,204 Yeah, I mean, there are different types of friends. 383 00:14:31,204 --> 00:14:33,956 You know? Like the types who talk once a year 384 00:14:33,956 --> 00:14:36,167 or like each other's posts on Instagram. 385 00:14:36,167 --> 00:14:38,628 Ooh. We should take a photo for my parents. 386 00:14:38,628 --> 00:14:42,757 Yeah, speaking of your parents, have you told them about us yet? 387 00:14:44,008 --> 00:14:47,220 Not yet. Ready? 388 00:14:47,220 --> 00:14:49,180 Actually, I have to go over there, I just realized, so... 389 00:14:52,683 --> 00:14:55,812 We could be that way. ♪ 390 00:14:58,564 --> 00:15:00,817 (sighs) 391 00:15:00,817 --> 00:15:04,112 (sobbing) 392 00:15:08,241 --> 00:15:09,909 (indistinct chatter) 393 00:15:09,909 --> 00:15:11,911 - Hi. - Hey. 394 00:15:11,911 --> 00:15:13,329 - Hi. - What's up? 395 00:15:13,329 --> 00:15:16,207 I, um, I'm really glad that you came. 396 00:15:16,207 --> 00:15:17,917 Yeah, me, too. It's cool. 397 00:15:17,917 --> 00:15:21,129 - This is awesome. - Was it the-the taco truck? 398 00:15:21,129 --> 00:15:24,006 No, um... 399 00:15:24,006 --> 00:15:27,051 Actually, uh, I got fired. 400 00:15:27,051 --> 00:15:28,094 (laughs) 401 00:15:28,094 --> 00:15:29,720 No, I'm not... 402 00:15:29,720 --> 00:15:31,806 It's not funny. I-I don't have a job. 403 00:15:31,806 --> 00:15:34,058 - And... - What happened? 404 00:15:34,058 --> 00:15:36,811 - I read your samples, and... - You did? 405 00:15:36,811 --> 00:15:38,104 Yeah, they're so good. 406 00:15:38,104 --> 00:15:41,065 And then I go to bring them upstairs, and... 407 00:15:41,065 --> 00:15:42,650 Oh, my God. You did? What did they say? 408 00:15:42,650 --> 00:15:44,819 That's not the point of the story. 409 00:15:44,819 --> 00:15:46,612 - Oh, right, I'm sorry. No, go on. - Yeah. 410 00:15:46,612 --> 00:15:47,530 Anyway, they told me they're bringing in 411 00:15:47,530 --> 00:15:48,739 some boomer from New York 412 00:15:48,739 --> 00:15:50,950 and they're "managing me out." 413 00:15:50,950 --> 00:15:53,786 They won't even say "fired." It's such a weird situation, 414 00:15:53,786 --> 00:15:54,787 and it's just bullshit. 415 00:15:54,787 --> 00:15:57,290 Oh, man, I'm so sorry. 416 00:15:57,290 --> 00:15:59,375 - Yeah, me, too. - I don't really want to go 417 00:15:59,375 --> 00:16:00,793 to work there without you. 418 00:16:00,793 --> 00:16:02,962 - That's very sweet. - Oh. 419 00:16:08,885 --> 00:16:12,513 I... This is really bad timing, but I should go say hi 420 00:16:12,513 --> 00:16:14,015 to someone, but will you stick around? 421 00:16:14,015 --> 00:16:16,392 'Cause I want to talk to you more. 422 00:16:16,392 --> 00:16:17,476 Yeah, yeah, I'll stick around. 423 00:16:17,476 --> 00:16:18,936 Maybe I'll go snoop around 424 00:16:18,936 --> 00:16:20,354 your childhood home for a little bit. 425 00:16:20,354 --> 00:16:21,731 That sounds like a very good idea. 426 00:16:21,731 --> 00:16:23,107 My mom keeps a bunch of pills 427 00:16:23,107 --> 00:16:23,983 in the sugar jar if you want them. 428 00:16:25,776 --> 00:16:28,279 - Hi. - Hey. 429 00:16:28,279 --> 00:16:30,072 - You came, you... - Yeah. 430 00:16:30,072 --> 00:16:30,948 - Yeah, I'm here. - Cool. 431 00:16:32,200 --> 00:16:35,286 - Are you okay? - Oh, yeah. I just... 432 00:16:35,286 --> 00:16:37,997 I got some weird work news, but how are you? 433 00:16:37,997 --> 00:16:40,208 I'm good. I'm good. Uh, this is for you. 434 00:16:40,208 --> 00:16:42,585 - Well, thank you very much. - Yes, of course. 435 00:16:42,585 --> 00:16:45,463 - It's, um, not journal-shaped. - Yeah. 436 00:16:45,463 --> 00:16:49,217 - Off to a very good start. - No, it's not. It's really not. 437 00:16:49,217 --> 00:16:51,052 - Yeah. - Oh, it's a... 438 00:16:51,052 --> 00:16:52,845 - It's a Good Time Sally's mug. - Right, right. 439 00:16:52,845 --> 00:16:55,056 - To commemorate where we first met. - Right. 440 00:16:55,056 --> 00:16:56,849 You don't have to drink alcohol out of that. 441 00:16:56,849 --> 00:16:58,351 - Right. - You can drink, like, orange juice, coffee. 442 00:16:58,351 --> 00:17:00,603 - Totally. - Whatever you need. 443 00:17:00,603 --> 00:17:02,939 - Yeah, it's very sweet. Thank you. - Yeah. Yeah. 444 00:17:02,939 --> 00:17:04,565 Uh... 445 00:17:06,859 --> 00:17:08,527 What are you doing? 446 00:17:08,527 --> 00:17:10,571 Kissing you. 447 00:17:10,571 --> 00:17:12,657 We broke up like six months ago. 448 00:17:12,657 --> 00:17:14,116 Yeah, we broke up because I was drinking, 449 00:17:14,116 --> 00:17:15,451 not because we didn't like each other. 450 00:17:15,451 --> 00:17:16,994 - (sighs) - I'm not drinking now. 451 00:17:16,994 --> 00:17:18,621 For what, a day? 452 00:17:18,621 --> 00:17:20,081 Okay, well, how long do I have to be sober 453 00:17:20,081 --> 00:17:21,332 for you to take me back? 454 00:17:21,332 --> 00:17:23,084 No, your sobriety is not about me. It... 455 00:17:23,084 --> 00:17:25,086 Did you honestly think that we would just, 456 00:17:25,086 --> 00:17:27,296 like, slip right back into this without even a conversation? 457 00:17:27,296 --> 00:17:29,382 - Yeah. Yeah, I did. - Uh-huh. 458 00:17:29,382 --> 00:17:30,925 - You invited me here. - I invited you here 459 00:17:30,925 --> 00:17:33,261 because I want to be friends with you. 460 00:17:33,261 --> 00:17:34,929 We're not friends. 461 00:17:34,929 --> 00:17:36,681 We're just two people that met at a bar. 462 00:17:47,149 --> 00:17:50,236 CAROL: I have so much respect for what you people are doing. 463 00:17:50,236 --> 00:17:53,406 I think, for me, I would miss the taste. 464 00:17:53,406 --> 00:17:55,283 You know, it would be the... 465 00:17:55,283 --> 00:17:58,452 It would be the-the-the taste of the prosecco. 466 00:17:58,452 --> 00:18:01,330 The-the-the fizz, the snap, crackle, pop there. 467 00:18:01,330 --> 00:18:02,999 Do you know-- you don't miss that? No? 468 00:18:02,999 --> 00:18:04,834 (music playing in distance) 469 00:18:15,094 --> 00:18:17,138 Hey, mind if I join you? 470 00:18:17,138 --> 00:18:19,265 Wow, this party must be really bad. 471 00:18:19,265 --> 00:18:21,517 (chuckles) 472 00:18:21,517 --> 00:18:25,062 It's been a very nice evening. 473 00:18:26,981 --> 00:18:28,441 (sighs) 474 00:18:29,984 --> 00:18:30,901 You okay? 475 00:18:32,653 --> 00:18:34,280 Not really. 476 00:18:35,740 --> 00:18:38,576 I tried really hard, you know? 477 00:18:38,576 --> 00:18:41,579 Just wanted everyone to have fun, have a great time. 478 00:18:41,579 --> 00:18:44,373 Instead, they're being super weird and awkward 479 00:18:44,373 --> 00:18:46,125 and not eating the tacos. 480 00:18:46,125 --> 00:18:47,418 Well, thank God you're here to help with that. 481 00:18:47,418 --> 00:18:49,211 I know. 482 00:18:49,211 --> 00:18:51,047 You can't control other people's behavior. 483 00:18:52,214 --> 00:18:53,758 I want to so bad. 484 00:18:55,009 --> 00:18:56,594 I really thought I was helping with James. 485 00:18:56,594 --> 00:18:58,179 Mm. 486 00:18:58,179 --> 00:19:00,014 Bringing him back in and everything. 487 00:19:01,766 --> 00:19:03,476 Then he tries to smooch me? 488 00:19:03,476 --> 00:19:04,644 I mean, come on. 489 00:19:04,644 --> 00:19:06,020 God, what a dumb birthday. 490 00:19:08,356 --> 00:19:10,483 Look, was the party perfect? No. 491 00:19:10,483 --> 00:19:13,611 I tripped in a gopher hole and almost broke my ankle. 492 00:19:13,611 --> 00:19:15,946 But the salami was fantastic. Baby's going to love it. 493 00:19:15,946 --> 00:19:17,490 (chuckles) 494 00:19:17,490 --> 00:19:19,367 Just 'cause tonight wasn't exactly as you pictured it 495 00:19:19,367 --> 00:19:22,328 does not mean that you don't have a life worth celebrating. 496 00:19:22,328 --> 00:19:26,457 Tonight was messy and fun and very on-brand, frankly. 497 00:19:26,457 --> 00:19:28,084 BOB: Paging Samantha Fink. 498 00:19:28,084 --> 00:19:30,711 Will Samantha Fink please come out to the backyard? 499 00:19:30,711 --> 00:19:34,924 To the tent that's the... the only tent in the backyard. 500 00:19:34,924 --> 00:19:36,884 - (sighs) - All right. Looks like they need you out there. 501 00:19:38,260 --> 00:19:40,304 You can't stay in here forever. 502 00:19:40,304 --> 00:19:42,932 Why not? None of the bad stuff's in here. 503 00:19:42,932 --> 00:19:45,309 Neither's any of the good stuff. 504 00:19:45,309 --> 00:19:47,103 Let's go. 505 00:19:47,103 --> 00:19:49,605 Party's still happening. (groans) 506 00:19:49,605 --> 00:19:50,564 - Let's go celebrate you. - Oh, God. 507 00:19:53,943 --> 00:19:55,486 - SAMANTHA: Hi, everybody. - There she is. 508 00:19:55,486 --> 00:19:57,697 - Ah, here she comes. - Happy birthday, girl. 509 00:19:57,697 --> 00:19:58,698 BOB: All right. 510 00:19:58,698 --> 00:20:01,992 Uh, okay. Hi. Um... 511 00:20:01,992 --> 00:20:05,705 We learned this song in honor of Sam's big day. 512 00:20:05,705 --> 00:20:07,206 - Okay, here we go. - FELICIA: We're gonna kill it. 513 00:20:07,206 --> 00:20:08,457 We're gonna kill it. 514 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:09,583 All right. Hit it, Bob. 515 00:20:09,583 --> 00:20:12,837 One, two, three, four. 516 00:20:12,837 --> 00:20:14,422 Three little birds ♪ 517 00:20:14,422 --> 00:20:17,216 - Sat on my window ♪ - (chuckles) 518 00:20:17,216 --> 00:20:18,509 And they told me I don't ♪ 519 00:20:18,509 --> 00:20:20,594 Need to worry ♪ 520 00:20:22,638 --> 00:20:24,974 Summer came like cinnamon ♪ 521 00:20:24,974 --> 00:20:27,476 So sweet ♪ 522 00:20:27,476 --> 00:20:31,063 ♪ Little girls double Dutch on the concrete ♪ 523 00:20:31,063 --> 00:20:32,314 WOMAN: All right. 524 00:20:32,314 --> 00:20:36,277 Maybe sometimes ♪ 525 00:20:36,277 --> 00:20:38,779 You got it wrong ♪ 526 00:20:38,779 --> 00:20:40,740 But it's all right... ♪ 527 00:20:40,740 --> 00:20:43,576 - Hey. - Oh, hey. 528 00:20:43,576 --> 00:20:45,244 - Um, thank you... - I'm really glad that you came. 529 00:20:45,244 --> 00:20:46,412 Of course. 530 00:20:46,412 --> 00:20:48,873 Uh, I mean, 531 00:20:48,873 --> 00:20:51,709 today sucked, but I'm glad I'm here, and, uh... 532 00:20:51,709 --> 00:20:54,044 Now that I'm not your boss, 533 00:20:54,044 --> 00:20:58,007 do you think we could go on a date? 534 00:20:58,007 --> 00:21:00,718 Yeah, yeah, I think that we could do that. 535 00:21:00,718 --> 00:21:03,763 That would... Um... 536 00:21:03,763 --> 00:21:05,389 - I'm gonna get out of here. - SAMANTHA: Okay. 537 00:21:05,389 --> 00:21:07,391 - I hope you get your dreams ♪ - Happy birthday. 538 00:21:07,391 --> 00:21:11,479 ♪ Just go ahead, let your hair down ♪ 539 00:21:11,479 --> 00:21:14,440 Baby, let your hair down ♪ 540 00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:17,401 Ooh ♪ 541 00:21:17,401 --> 00:21:20,196 ♪ Just go ahead, let your hair down. ♪ 542 00:21:20,196 --> 00:21:20,905 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH access.wgbh.org