1 00:00:31,023 --> 00:00:32,423 [HYDRAULIC BRAKES HISS] 2 00:00:32,623 --> 00:00:34,553 [SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING] 3 00:00:54,703 --> 00:00:56,483 [MUSIC CONTINUES] 4 00:00:59,143 --> 00:01:00,933 MAN: Like we discussed yesterday, 5 00:01:01,133 --> 00:01:05,893 I really want you all to focus on topic sentences more. 6 00:01:06,093 --> 00:01:08,243 Too many of you are rushing into examples 7 00:01:08,443 --> 00:01:10,033 in your body paragraphs. 8 00:01:10,233 --> 00:01:11,853 It'd be good for everyone to review 9 00:01:12,053 --> 00:01:13,773 the paragraph structure PDF I sent you 10 00:01:13,973 --> 00:01:15,163 a few weeks ago. 11 00:01:15,363 --> 00:01:18,953 I know these rules can feel constraining. 12 00:01:19,153 --> 00:01:22,083 But remember, the point of this course 13 00:01:22,283 --> 00:01:26,303 is to learn how to write clearly and persuasively. 14 00:01:26,503 --> 00:01:29,743 That's how you can effectively communicate your ideas. 15 00:01:29,943 --> 00:01:31,003 [MESSAGE ALERT PINGS] 16 00:01:31,203 --> 00:01:32,923 [MAN CHUCKLES] 17 00:01:33,123 --> 00:01:35,443 Chris, I imagine that was supposed to be a private chat 18 00:01:35,643 --> 00:01:38,233 that you sent to the whole class. Well done. 19 00:01:38,433 --> 00:01:42,493 And, yes, the camera on my laptop still doesn't work. 20 00:01:42,693 --> 00:01:44,713 Believe me, you're not missing much. 21 00:01:44,913 --> 00:01:47,283 Oh, and for those of you who still haven't given me paper three, 22 00:01:47,483 --> 00:01:50,233 I need it by Wednesday, no exceptions. 23 00:01:51,323 --> 00:01:53,553 And remember, 24 00:01:53,753 --> 00:01:56,253 - the more you revise these essays, the better. - [WAVES CRASHING] 25 00:01:56,453 --> 00:01:57,993 The more you change, 26 00:01:58,193 --> 00:02:00,823 chances are you'll express your thoughts and ideas 27 00:02:01,023 --> 00:02:02,423 more clearly and persuasively. 28 00:02:03,333 --> 00:02:04,383 All right? 29 00:02:05,123 --> 00:02:06,423 [WAVE CRASHED LOUDLY] 30 00:02:13,393 --> 00:02:14,613 [MAN GRUNTS] 31 00:02:14,813 --> 00:02:16,303 [RAIN PATTERING] 32 00:02:20,393 --> 00:02:21,523 [GROANS] 33 00:02:22,703 --> 00:02:26,803 [HEAVY BREATHING][CONTINUES GRUNTING] 34 00:02:27,003 --> 00:02:29,153 [MEN ON VIDEO BREATHING HEAVILY] 35 00:02:29,353 --> 00:02:32,243 [MAN GRUNTS][STROKING RAPIDLY] 36 00:02:32,443 --> 00:02:33,463 Oh! 37 00:02:33,663 --> 00:02:35,973 [GRUNTING] 38 00:02:36,673 --> 00:02:40,333 [GRUNTING IN PAIN] 39 00:02:41,113 --> 00:02:45,603 [GRUNTING LABORIOUSLY] 40 00:02:45,803 --> 00:02:47,723 [COUGHS, BREATHES HEAVILY] 41 00:02:49,423 --> 00:02:54,443 [GASPING AND COUGHING] 42 00:02:54,643 --> 00:02:59,353 "Moby Dick...[WHEEZES] In the amazing book, Moby..."[GROANS] 43 00:02:59,553 --> 00:03:01,403 [KNOCK AT DOOR]Liz? 44 00:03:01,603 --> 00:03:03,103 [PANTS][KNOCKING CONTINUES] 45 00:03:03,303 --> 00:03:06,223 Just use your key, [WHEEZES] open the door! 46 00:03:08,183 --> 00:03:10,023 [GASPS]Oh, my God. 47 00:03:10,223 --> 00:03:12,063 Who are you? [GROANS IN PAIN] 48 00:03:12,263 --> 00:03:15,203 Gosh, are you okay? Should I call an ambulance? I should call an am... 49 00:03:15,403 --> 00:03:17,673 [MEN PANTING][CONTINUES GROANING] 50 00:03:19,103 --> 00:03:20,203 Read this to me.Do you have a phone? 51 00:03:20,403 --> 00:03:21,293 My phone's dead, I need to... 52 00:03:21,493 --> 00:03:23,063 Please just read it!Okay! 53 00:03:24,333 --> 00:03:25,553 [GRUNTS]Okay. 54 00:03:25,753 --> 00:03:27,563 [GROANS] 55 00:03:27,763 --> 00:03:29,213 "In the amazing book, Moby Dick,by the author, Herman Melville, 56 00:03:29,413 --> 00:03:31,523 "the author recounts his story of being at sea. 57 00:03:31,723 --> 00:03:34,083 "In the first part of his book, the author, calling himself Ishmael, 58 00:03:34,283 --> 00:03:35,523 "is in a small seaside town, 59 00:03:35,723 --> 00:03:37,963 "and he is sharing a bed with a man named Queequeg." 60 00:03:38,163 --> 00:03:39,223 What is this? Why am I reading this? 61 00:03:39,423 --> 00:03:41,483 I need to...Just read any of it! 62 00:03:41,683 --> 00:03:43,883 "And I felt saddest of all when I read the boring chapters 63 00:03:44,083 --> 00:03:45,573 "that were only descriptions of whales, 64 00:03:45,773 --> 00:03:47,363 "because I knew that the author was just trying to save us 65 00:03:47,563 --> 00:03:48,753 "from his own sad story..." 66 00:03:48,953 --> 00:03:50,233 [GASPING] Sad story."...just for a little while." 67 00:03:50,433 --> 00:03:51,803 Just for a little while. 68 00:03:52,003 --> 00:03:53,543 "This book made me think about my own life...[WHEEZES] 69 00:03:53,743 --> 00:03:55,373 "...and then it made me feel glad for my..." 70 00:03:55,573 --> 00:03:57,853 [PANTING] 71 00:03:58,053 --> 00:04:00,463 Did that help?[SIGHS] 72 00:04:00,663 --> 00:04:02,333 Look, do you have a phone? My phone is dead. 73 00:04:02,533 --> 00:04:04,163 I need to call an ambulance. 74 00:04:04,363 --> 00:04:07,163 You need help.I don't go to hospitals. 75 00:04:07,363 --> 00:04:10,203 I can't help you, I don't...I don't go to hospitals. 76 00:04:11,423 --> 00:04:15,123 I am sorry, um... You can go. 77 00:04:15,323 --> 00:04:16,733 Thank you for reading that to me. 78 00:04:22,823 --> 00:04:24,083 Are you sure you're okay? 79 00:04:26,343 --> 00:04:27,953 I'm sorry, who are you? 80 00:04:29,523 --> 00:04:31,103 Are you acquainted with the Gospel of Jesus Christ? 81 00:04:31,303 --> 00:04:34,233 What?I'm sharing Christ's message of love, 82 00:04:34,433 --> 00:04:36,063 and I'm showing people...[SIGHING] Oh. 83 00:04:36,263 --> 00:04:37,453 Think I should call my friend. 84 00:04:37,653 --> 00:04:40,633 She's a nurse, she takes care of me. 85 00:04:40,833 --> 00:04:44,193 Yeah. Yeah, I'll go. Sorry to bother you.Wait. 86 00:04:45,583 --> 00:04:47,103 My phone fell under there, can you... 87 00:04:50,673 --> 00:04:51,853 Yeah, sure. 88 00:04:54,503 --> 00:04:55,773 [SIGHS] 89 00:05:02,773 --> 00:05:03,873 [SIGHS]Here it is. 90 00:05:04,073 --> 00:05:04,993 [GROANS IN PAIN] 91 00:05:09,173 --> 00:05:10,533 [MAN GRUNTS] 92 00:05:10,733 --> 00:05:12,313 Hey, listen, I don't know what's gonna happen 93 00:05:12,513 --> 00:05:14,183 in the next few minutes. 94 00:05:14,383 --> 00:05:16,843 If you don't mind, could you... [GRUNTS] 95 00:05:17,043 --> 00:05:19,093 Yeah. Yeah, of course.Thank you. 96 00:05:20,573 --> 00:05:22,053 [PHONE LINE RINGING] 97 00:05:24,663 --> 00:05:26,973 [AUTOMATED VOICE SPEAKING] It's Liz. I'm not around. Leave a message. 98 00:05:29,453 --> 00:05:31,633 What was that thing that you had me read to you? 99 00:05:33,323 --> 00:05:34,333 It's an essay. 100 00:05:35,153 --> 00:05:36,373 It's my job. 101 00:05:37,463 --> 00:05:39,513 I teach online college courses. 102 00:05:39,713 --> 00:05:41,113 But why did you have me read it to you? 103 00:05:45,473 --> 00:05:46,613 Because I thought I was dying. 104 00:05:46,813 --> 00:05:48,993 And I wanted to hear it one last time. 105 00:05:53,393 --> 00:05:55,053 [VELCRO RIPS] 106 00:05:55,253 --> 00:05:56,923 You should have called an ambulance. 107 00:05:57,123 --> 00:05:58,973 With no health insurance? 108 00:05:59,173 --> 00:06:00,963 Being in debt is better than being dead. 109 00:06:01,703 --> 00:06:02,703 What's wrong with you? 110 00:06:03,963 --> 00:06:05,753 Why is there a missionary here? 111 00:06:06,843 --> 00:06:09,243 Someone left the door unlocked. 112 00:06:09,443 --> 00:06:10,883 I left after you fell asleep earlier, 113 00:06:12,103 --> 00:06:13,233 I must've forgotten. 114 00:06:14,933 --> 00:06:16,903 Good thing, too. If I hadn't, you might have... 115 00:06:17,103 --> 00:06:18,383 Liz, I don't like it when you... 116 00:06:18,583 --> 00:06:20,383 Okay, okay. I just hate the thought 117 00:06:20,583 --> 00:06:22,993 of you being sealed up in this place when I'm not here. 118 00:06:23,193 --> 00:06:25,293 [PUMPING SPHYGMOMANOMETER BULB] Now shut up, I'm trying to... 119 00:06:30,953 --> 00:06:33,213 [RELEASES PRESSURE][AIR HISSING] 120 00:06:34,653 --> 00:06:35,953 What?Hush. 121 00:06:40,963 --> 00:06:42,133 Tell me what you felt. 122 00:06:42,793 --> 00:06:44,803 Pain, in my chest. 123 00:06:45,003 --> 00:06:46,053 Hard to breathe. 124 00:06:47,013 --> 00:06:48,233 I couldn't intake air. 125 00:06:49,533 --> 00:06:51,413 [RIPS VELCRO] 126 00:06:51,613 --> 00:06:54,063 How are you sleeping?I'm not, really. 127 00:06:57,413 --> 00:06:58,543 Lean forward. 128 00:07:00,633 --> 00:07:01,853 [SIGHS] 129 00:07:02,763 --> 00:07:03,943 [MAN WHEEZES] 130 00:07:06,243 --> 00:07:07,733 You're wheezing. 131 00:07:07,933 --> 00:07:09,693 I always wheeze, Liz. 132 00:07:09,893 --> 00:07:11,073 You're wheezing more. 133 00:07:11,553 --> 00:07:12,873 Deep breath. 134 00:07:13,073 --> 00:07:15,473 [BREATHES DEEPLY WITH DIFFICULTY] 135 00:07:16,953 --> 00:07:18,613 That hurt? 136 00:07:18,813 --> 00:07:19,823 What was my blood pressure? 137 00:07:22,093 --> 00:07:24,173 Two-hundred and thirty-eight over 134. 138 00:07:30,053 --> 00:07:31,453 [CHUCKLING] Oh. 139 00:07:31,653 --> 00:07:32,703 Yeah. "Oh." 140 00:07:34,663 --> 00:07:35,663 [SIGHS] 141 00:07:36,323 --> 00:07:37,893 Hey, could you... 142 00:07:38,093 --> 00:07:39,843 I haven't been to the bathroom all day, I'm ready to explode. 143 00:07:52,163 --> 00:07:53,293 [GRUNTS] 144 00:07:54,993 --> 00:07:56,643 [EXHALES DEEPLY] 145 00:08:06,523 --> 00:08:08,043 [DRAWS CURTAIN][LIGHT SWITCH CLICKS] 146 00:08:15,183 --> 00:08:16,543 [TRASH CAN LID CLOSES] 147 00:08:16,743 --> 00:08:18,593 [SIGHS] 148 00:08:18,793 --> 00:08:20,543 [MAN GRUNTS]LIZ: You need help in there? 149 00:08:21,623 --> 00:08:23,363 MAN: No, I'm fine. Sorry. 150 00:08:24,103 --> 00:08:25,513 What are you sorry about? 151 00:08:25,713 --> 00:08:28,773 I'm sorry. I don't know. Just sorry. 152 00:08:28,973 --> 00:08:30,333 MISSIONARY: I should go.LIZ: Thank you. 153 00:08:31,423 --> 00:08:33,343 You must be from New Life. 154 00:08:33,543 --> 00:08:35,253 You know Doug, from the church council? 155 00:08:36,463 --> 00:08:38,043 Yeah, I think so? 156 00:08:38,243 --> 00:08:39,483 I'm not entirely sure. 157 00:08:39,683 --> 00:08:40,603 I'm sort of new here, so... 158 00:08:41,123 --> 00:08:42,213 He's my dad. 159 00:08:44,173 --> 00:08:46,403 Doug and Cindy adopted me when I was a baby. 160 00:08:46,603 --> 00:08:47,833 Oh, that's great. 161 00:08:48,033 --> 00:08:49,753 I've never seen you there before, but, 162 00:08:49,953 --> 00:08:51,143 again I'm sort of new, so... 163 00:08:51,343 --> 00:08:53,583 [SIGHS] Fucking hate New Life.Oh. 164 00:08:53,783 --> 00:08:55,323 My dad forced me to go when I was a kid. 165 00:08:55,523 --> 00:08:59,053 It was awful, growing up with all that "end times" bullshit. 166 00:09:00,363 --> 00:09:02,363 [SIGHS] You're young. 167 00:09:03,453 --> 00:09:04,543 Why the hell would you want to believe 168 00:09:04,743 --> 00:09:06,103 that the world is about to end? 169 00:09:07,583 --> 00:09:09,773 I believe that when Christ returns, 170 00:09:09,973 --> 00:09:11,193 it's gonna be beautiful. 171 00:09:14,893 --> 00:09:16,073 Look, you can go. 172 00:09:17,683 --> 00:09:19,433 I know Charlie appreciates the help, 173 00:09:19,633 --> 00:09:22,003 but if you're here to convert him... 174 00:09:22,203 --> 00:09:23,303 Oh, we don't convert, 175 00:09:23,503 --> 00:09:24,613 our message is a message of hope 176 00:09:24,813 --> 00:09:27,353 for people of all...LIZ: People of all faiths. 177 00:09:27,553 --> 00:09:30,783 I know. You're sweet. [CLICKS LIGHTER] But... 178 00:09:33,783 --> 00:09:35,143 [SIGHS] 179 00:09:35,343 --> 00:09:37,053 Believe me, he doesn't want to hear about New Life. 180 00:09:38,353 --> 00:09:40,283 Why? 181 00:09:40,483 --> 00:09:41,923 Because it's caused him a lot of pain. 182 00:09:42,973 --> 00:09:43,973 How? 183 00:09:47,713 --> 00:09:48,713 It killed his boyfriend. 184 00:09:50,673 --> 00:09:52,063 [TOILET FLUSHES] 185 00:09:54,633 --> 00:09:56,633 You're saying the church...[SIGHS] 186 00:09:57,723 --> 00:10:00,113 Killed Charlie's boyfriend, yes. 187 00:10:01,333 --> 00:10:03,083 And I should add that New Life 188 00:10:03,283 --> 00:10:05,393 has caused me a lot of pain in my life. 189 00:10:05,593 --> 00:10:07,913 So, we don't need you coming over here, 190 00:10:08,113 --> 00:10:10,213 especially not now, not this week. 191 00:10:11,523 --> 00:10:13,003 Why? 192 00:10:13,203 --> 00:10:15,043 Because he probably won't be here next week. 193 00:10:15,873 --> 00:10:17,363 Where's he going? 194 00:10:17,563 --> 00:10:19,613 I'm sorry you had to come over, Liz. 195 00:10:20,793 --> 00:10:22,063 No, it's okay. 196 00:10:22,263 --> 00:10:24,933 I'm sorry that I always think I'm dying. 197 00:10:25,133 --> 00:10:28,153 Charlie, your blood pressure is 238 over 134. 198 00:10:28,353 --> 00:10:30,283 I'm sorry.Go to the hospital. 199 00:10:30,483 --> 00:10:32,023 I'm sorry.Stop saying you're sorry. 200 00:10:32,223 --> 00:10:33,413 Go to the hospital. 201 00:10:34,543 --> 00:10:35,943 You have congestive heart failure. 202 00:10:36,143 --> 00:10:37,333 If you don't go to the hospital, 203 00:10:37,533 --> 00:10:38,503 you'll be dead by the weekend. 204 00:10:40,203 --> 00:10:42,023 [STERNLY] You will die. 205 00:10:44,033 --> 00:10:45,303 CHARLIE: Well, then, I better get to work 206 00:10:45,503 --> 00:10:46,783 because I have a lot of essays this week. 207 00:10:46,983 --> 00:10:48,393 God damn it! 208 00:10:48,593 --> 00:10:51,733 I know. I'm sorry, I'm an awful person. I know. 209 00:10:53,303 --> 00:10:54,523 I'm sorry. 210 00:10:54,723 --> 00:10:56,483 [GRUNTS, PANTS] 211 00:10:56,683 --> 00:10:58,183 Did you still want to hear about Christ's message of love and salvation? 212 00:10:58,383 --> 00:10:59,353 No, he does not! 213 00:10:59,553 --> 00:11:00,483 MISSIONARY: Okay. Okay. 214 00:11:01,263 --> 00:11:02,263 I'll go. 215 00:11:04,573 --> 00:11:05,623 I still don't understand 216 00:11:05,823 --> 00:11:06,963 why you had me read that essay to you. 217 00:11:08,273 --> 00:11:09,753 It's a really good essay. 218 00:11:12,103 --> 00:11:13,973 LIZ: Goodbye. [CLOSES DOOR] 219 00:11:16,323 --> 00:11:18,723 Charlie, you have to go to the hospital. This has gone way too far. 220 00:11:18,923 --> 00:11:22,123 And rack up tens of thousands of dollars in hospital bills 221 00:11:22,323 --> 00:11:24,603 I'll never be able to pay back, ever. 222 00:11:24,803 --> 00:11:26,593 This affects me too, you know? 223 00:11:29,723 --> 00:11:30,733 You're my friend. 224 00:11:32,343 --> 00:11:33,343 I know. 225 00:11:35,123 --> 00:11:36,093 I'm sorry. 226 00:11:36,293 --> 00:11:37,613 You say you're sorry one more time, 227 00:11:37,813 --> 00:11:39,573 I will shove a knife right into you, I swear to God! 228 00:11:39,773 --> 00:11:41,753 Go ahead, what's it gonna do? 229 00:11:41,943 --> 00:11:43,483 My internal organs are two feet in, at least. 230 00:11:46,783 --> 00:11:48,743 [LAUGHING] 231 00:11:50,143 --> 00:11:51,363 [COUGHS] 232 00:11:51,563 --> 00:11:52,493 [WHIMPERS PLAYFULLY] 233 00:11:59,933 --> 00:12:01,633 I've been telling you this would happen. 234 00:12:01,833 --> 00:12:02,843 [SIGHS] I know. 235 00:12:05,633 --> 00:12:07,593 Haven't I been telling you?You have. 236 00:12:17,863 --> 00:12:20,003 NEWSCASTER 1: ...a new GOP presidential primary. 237 00:12:20,203 --> 00:12:22,263 However, they say absentee ballots 238 00:12:22,463 --> 00:12:24,313 are the lowest they've seen in recent history.NEWSCASTER 2: That's not good. 239 00:12:24,513 --> 00:12:26,443 NEWSCASTER 3: No, it's not. Get out and vote tomorrow. 240 00:12:26,643 --> 00:12:28,533 if you want to vote in the Republican primary. 241 00:12:28,733 --> 00:12:30,753 Our current polls do show, among Republicans,, 242 00:12:30,953 --> 00:12:33,193 30% favor Trump...Liz. 243 00:12:33,393 --> 00:12:35,023 NEWSCASTER 3: ...senator Ted Cruz, 244 00:12:35,223 --> 00:12:38,113 17% would vote for Florida senator Marco Rubio, 245 00:12:38,313 --> 00:12:40,893 and 5% for Ohio governor John Kasich. 246 00:12:41,093 --> 00:12:42,593 Liz. 247 00:12:42,793 --> 00:12:44,023 NEWSCASTER 3: ...for someone else, if they could. 248 00:12:44,223 --> 00:12:45,853 Below a percent that just don't know. 249 00:12:46,053 --> 00:12:47,943 NEWSCASTER 1: Meanwhile, Vermont senator Bernie Sanders 250 00:12:48,143 --> 00:12:50,773 is expected to win the Gem State on the Democratic side... 251 00:12:50,973 --> 00:12:51,953 Please. 252 00:12:52,153 --> 00:12:54,423 [NEWSCASTER 1 CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY] 253 00:13:19,403 --> 00:13:20,403 Thank you. 254 00:13:31,893 --> 00:13:33,723 [CRUNCHING] 255 00:13:43,163 --> 00:13:45,043 [LAUGHTER ON TV] 256 00:13:45,243 --> 00:13:47,443 Oh, I've seen this one, it's good. 257 00:13:47,643 --> 00:13:49,303 [INDISTINCT TV CHATTER] 258 00:13:53,043 --> 00:13:54,873 [RAIN PATTERING] 259 00:13:56,043 --> 00:13:58,053 [INDISTINCT TV CHATTER] 260 00:14:00,703 --> 00:14:02,663 [CHARLIE CHOKES, COUGHS] 261 00:14:03,493 --> 00:14:05,793 [COUGHING] 262 00:14:10,843 --> 00:14:12,103 [REMOTE CLICKS][TV SWITCHES OFF] 263 00:14:15,453 --> 00:14:16,633 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 264 00:14:19,853 --> 00:14:21,903 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 265 00:14:38,353 --> 00:14:42,393 CHARLIE: In the first part of his book, the author, 266 00:14:44,353 --> 00:14:46,013 calling himself Ishmael, 267 00:14:47,053 --> 00:14:52,583 is in a small seaside town 268 00:14:54,323 --> 00:14:55,493 and he is 269 00:14:57,583 --> 00:15:00,943 sharing a bed with a man 270 00:15:02,723 --> 00:15:04,073 named Queequeg. 271 00:15:08,513 --> 00:15:11,513 The author and Queequeg go to church, 272 00:15:12,513 --> 00:15:15,003 and later, they set out on a ship 273 00:15:15,203 --> 00:15:16,733 captained by the pirate named 274 00:15:18,433 --> 00:15:19,523 Ahab, 275 00:15:22,303 --> 00:15:24,453 who is missing a leg, 276 00:15:24,653 --> 00:15:27,353 and very much wants to kill the whale 277 00:15:29,703 --> 00:15:31,443 which is named Moby Dick, 278 00:15:32,583 --> 00:15:33,753 and which is white. 279 00:15:35,063 --> 00:15:37,503 In the course of the book, 280 00:15:37,703 --> 00:15:40,103 the pirate Ahab encounters many hardships. 281 00:15:41,323 --> 00:15:44,423 His entire life is set around 282 00:15:44,623 --> 00:15:46,953 trying to kill a certain whale. 283 00:15:47,153 --> 00:15:48,863 I think this is sad 284 00:15:49,063 --> 00:15:50,123 [GRUNTS] 285 00:15:50,323 --> 00:15:53,163 because the whale doesn't have any emotions. 286 00:15:55,383 --> 00:15:56,603 [GRUNTS] 287 00:15:56,993 --> 00:15:57,993 He's just 288 00:15:59,473 --> 00:16:00,913 a poor, big animal. 289 00:16:03,263 --> 00:16:07,873 And I feel bad for Ahab as well 290 00:16:09,443 --> 00:16:10,843 [GRUNTS] 291 00:16:11,043 --> 00:16:16,193 ...because he thinks that his life will be better 292 00:16:16,393 --> 00:16:19,493 if he can just kill this whale. 293 00:16:22,763 --> 00:16:24,933 But in reality, 294 00:16:25,453 --> 00:16:26,463 [GRUNTS] 295 00:16:28,243 --> 00:16:29,723 it won't help him at all. 296 00:16:31,723 --> 00:16:34,123 This book made me think 297 00:16:35,203 --> 00:16:36,383 about my own life. 298 00:16:40,033 --> 00:16:42,263 This book made me think about my own life. 299 00:16:42,463 --> 00:16:45,353 [OCEAN WAVES CRASHING] 300 00:16:45,553 --> 00:16:49,353 [SOFTLY] This book made me think about my own life. 301 00:17:38,963 --> 00:17:39,963 [SIGHS] 302 00:17:46,403 --> 00:17:47,803 [EXHALES] 303 00:17:50,193 --> 00:17:51,373 [TYPING] 304 00:18:02,643 --> 00:18:04,293 [TYPING] 305 00:18:18,743 --> 00:18:19,923 [SIGHS] 306 00:18:21,183 --> 00:18:22,793 [TYPING] 307 00:18:36,113 --> 00:18:37,153 [EXHALES] 308 00:18:56,433 --> 00:18:58,393 [WRAPPER CRINKLING] 309 00:19:00,743 --> 00:19:02,183 [BIRD CHIRPS] 310 00:19:05,053 --> 00:19:06,313 [CHIRPS] 311 00:19:20,593 --> 00:19:21,933 [SIGHS HEAVILY] 312 00:19:48,403 --> 00:19:50,053 [LINE RINGS] 313 00:19:51,053 --> 00:19:53,233 [CLEARS THROAT][LINE CONNECTS] 314 00:20:30,743 --> 00:20:31,923 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 315 00:20:35,183 --> 00:20:37,023 [CHUCKLES QUIETLY] 316 00:20:37,223 --> 00:20:38,623 Does this mean now I'm gonna get fat? 317 00:20:39,713 --> 00:20:42,583 [GRUNTS] No, it doesn't. 318 00:20:43,763 --> 00:20:45,113 I was always big. 319 00:20:45,313 --> 00:20:46,283 I just... 320 00:20:47,153 --> 00:20:48,503 I let it get out of control. 321 00:20:50,073 --> 00:20:51,373 [CHARLIE EXHALES] 322 00:20:53,463 --> 00:20:56,813 So, was your mom okay with you coming over here? 323 00:20:57,773 --> 00:20:58,943 I didn't tell her. 324 00:21:01,993 --> 00:21:03,303 CHARLIE: It's really good to see you. 325 00:21:05,473 --> 00:21:06,603 You look beautiful. 326 00:21:09,563 --> 00:21:10,833 So, how's school? 327 00:21:11,613 --> 00:21:13,273 You're a senior, right? 328 00:21:13,473 --> 00:21:14,843 You actually care? 329 00:21:15,043 --> 00:21:16,883 Well, of course I care. 330 00:21:17,083 --> 00:21:18,503 I pester your mom for information 331 00:21:18,693 --> 00:21:19,923 as often as she'll give it to me. 332 00:21:22,053 --> 00:21:23,233 [CHARLIE EXHALES] 333 00:21:25,883 --> 00:21:26,893 Um... 334 00:21:28,453 --> 00:21:30,813 So... [GRUNTS] 335 00:21:31,013 --> 00:21:33,293 Why are you... I mean, don't you have school? 336 00:21:33,493 --> 00:21:34,983 Got suspended this morning. 337 00:21:35,633 --> 00:21:36,633 Oh. 338 00:21:37,423 --> 00:21:38,863 Why? 339 00:21:39,063 --> 00:21:40,823 I posted something about my stupid bitch lab partner 340 00:21:41,023 --> 00:21:43,253 that the vice principal said was "Vaguely threatening." 341 00:21:44,513 --> 00:21:45,823 [GRUNTS] 342 00:21:46,953 --> 00:21:48,053 You don't like school? 343 00:21:48,253 --> 00:21:49,473 Only idiots like high school. 344 00:21:51,003 --> 00:21:53,353 But you're on track to graduate, right? 345 00:21:55,443 --> 00:21:56,573 Counselor says I might not. 346 00:21:58,313 --> 00:21:59,353 I'm not worried. 347 00:22:01,053 --> 00:22:02,053 I'm a smart person. 348 00:22:02,923 --> 00:22:04,143 I never forget anything. 349 00:22:05,403 --> 00:22:06,983 High school is just bullshit. 350 00:22:07,183 --> 00:22:08,853 But, Ellie, it's important. 351 00:22:09,053 --> 00:22:10,243 If you don't graduate, then... 352 00:22:10,443 --> 00:22:11,673 Are you actually trying to parent me right now? 353 00:22:12,933 --> 00:22:14,543 No, I'm... Sorry. 354 00:22:14,933 --> 00:22:16,553 I just... 355 00:22:16,753 --> 00:22:18,813 I just thought that maybe we could spend some time with each other. 356 00:22:19,763 --> 00:22:21,073 I'm not spending time with you. 357 00:22:21,773 --> 00:22:22,773 You're disgusting. 358 00:22:28,383 --> 00:22:30,133 Well, I'm a lot bigger than I was 359 00:22:30,333 --> 00:22:31,573 since last time you saw me. 360 00:22:31,773 --> 00:22:33,703 ELLIE: No, I'm not talking about what you look like. 361 00:22:33,903 --> 00:22:35,693 You'd be disgusting even if you weren't this fat. 362 00:22:37,003 --> 00:22:38,883 You'd still be that piece-of-shit dad 363 00:22:39,083 --> 00:22:40,393 who walked out on me when I was eight. 364 00:22:41,743 --> 00:22:43,673 All because he wanted to fuck one of his students. 365 00:22:43,873 --> 00:22:44,833 Can I have one of these? 366 00:22:46,403 --> 00:22:47,443 Yeah. 367 00:22:50,933 --> 00:22:52,423 Look, it's... it's been a long time. 368 00:22:52,613 --> 00:22:54,153 I just thought that maybe 369 00:22:55,503 --> 00:22:56,803 we can get to know each other. 370 00:22:58,593 --> 00:22:59,763 I don't even know why I'm here. 371 00:23:00,723 --> 00:23:01,723 I can pay you. 372 00:23:06,553 --> 00:23:08,343 You want to pay me to spend time with you? 373 00:23:08,543 --> 00:23:10,393 And I can help you with your work. 374 00:23:10,593 --> 00:23:12,163 It's what I do for my job. 375 00:23:13,863 --> 00:23:15,253 I can help you pass your classes. 376 00:23:16,873 --> 00:23:18,833 You teach online?Yes. 377 00:23:19,033 --> 00:23:20,573 Your students know what you look like? 378 00:23:20,773 --> 00:23:22,493 I keep the camera shut off. 379 00:23:22,693 --> 00:23:24,183 Yeah, that's probably a good idea. 380 00:23:31,363 --> 00:23:33,333 My counselor says that if I show a lot of improvement 381 00:23:33,533 --> 00:23:34,593 in one subject, 382 00:23:34,793 --> 00:23:35,713 I might be able to graduate. 383 00:23:37,023 --> 00:23:39,293 You can rewrite these essays for English. 384 00:23:39,493 --> 00:23:40,803 They have to be really good, though. 385 00:23:44,593 --> 00:23:45,953 Well, look, um... 386 00:23:46,153 --> 00:23:47,693 I don't know if I should write them for you, 387 00:23:47,893 --> 00:23:48,823 but I can work with you on them. 388 00:23:49,023 --> 00:23:50,123 How much can you pay me? 389 00:23:51,293 --> 00:23:52,483 Everything I have. 390 00:23:52,673 --> 00:23:54,473 All the money I have in the bank.How much? 391 00:23:56,643 --> 00:24:00,003 $120,000? Something like that. I'd have to check. 392 00:24:01,613 --> 00:24:02,923 I never go out. 393 00:24:03,123 --> 00:24:06,223 All I pay for is food, rent, Internet. 394 00:24:06,923 --> 00:24:08,533 And I work all the time. 395 00:24:10,013 --> 00:24:11,143 And you'd give all of it to me? 396 00:24:12,623 --> 00:24:13,623 Not to my mom, to me? 397 00:24:15,453 --> 00:24:17,453 Yes. Just... 398 00:24:18,543 --> 00:24:19,883 don't tell your mom, 399 00:24:20,453 --> 00:24:21,453 all right? 400 00:24:22,973 --> 00:24:26,853 And maybe you could do some writing just for me. 401 00:24:27,593 --> 00:24:28,903 Why? 402 00:24:29,103 --> 00:24:31,693 Because you're a smart person. 403 00:24:31,893 --> 00:24:33,943 And I bet you'd make a strong writer. 404 00:24:36,253 --> 00:24:37,783 Plus, I'm a teacher. I want to make sure 405 00:24:37,983 --> 00:24:39,693 you're getting something out of this. 406 00:24:42,823 --> 00:24:45,213 [ZIPS BAG] I don't even understand you. 407 00:24:56,143 --> 00:24:57,443 Stand up and walk over to me. 408 00:24:58,753 --> 00:24:59,853 What? 409 00:25:00,053 --> 00:25:01,753 Come over here. Walk toward me. 410 00:25:05,543 --> 00:25:07,243 No. No. Without this thing. 411 00:25:08,853 --> 00:25:10,723 Stand up and walk over here. 412 00:25:13,293 --> 00:25:14,553 Ellie, I can't really...Shut up! 413 00:25:16,463 --> 00:25:17,643 Come over here. 414 00:25:23,473 --> 00:25:24,653 [CHARLIE SIGHS] 415 00:25:30,653 --> 00:25:31,743 [EXHALES HEAVILY] 416 00:25:32,443 --> 00:25:33,443 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 417 00:25:38,963 --> 00:25:40,673 [GRUNTS WITH EXERTION] 418 00:25:40,873 --> 00:25:42,493 [GRUNTS, GROANS] 419 00:25:43,013 --> 00:25:45,933 [PANTING] 420 00:25:48,413 --> 00:25:50,583 [HUFFING] 421 00:25:51,633 --> 00:25:54,373 [GRUNTS] 422 00:25:58,553 --> 00:25:59,683 [CHARLIE YELLS] 423 00:26:00,333 --> 00:26:01,943 [GROANING LOUDLY] 424 00:26:03,123 --> 00:26:05,083 [GROANING IN PAIN] 425 00:26:09,303 --> 00:26:11,303 [PANTING] 426 00:26:13,523 --> 00:26:15,393 [DOG BARKS OUTSIDE] 427 00:26:21,183 --> 00:26:23,013 [WHISPERING] "...celebrate my soul. 428 00:26:24,183 --> 00:26:25,723 "Sell my soul." 429 00:26:25,913 --> 00:26:27,063 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 430 00:26:27,713 --> 00:26:28,713 MAN: Gambino's! 431 00:26:29,713 --> 00:26:30,803 Yeah, you can, um... 432 00:26:31,973 --> 00:26:33,543 I put a $20 in the mailbox. 433 00:26:34,853 --> 00:26:35,893 MAN: Sure. 434 00:26:39,683 --> 00:26:41,913 You can just leave it on the... 435 00:26:42,103 --> 00:26:44,333 MAN: Yeah, I, uh... I remember. 436 00:26:46,513 --> 00:26:47,643 Everything okay in there? 437 00:26:52,473 --> 00:26:53,473 Yeah. 438 00:26:55,213 --> 00:26:56,263 MAN: You sure? 439 00:26:57,003 --> 00:26:58,003 Yeah. 440 00:26:58,833 --> 00:26:59,873 I'm fine. 441 00:27:02,443 --> 00:27:03,443 Thank you. 442 00:27:05,403 --> 00:27:06,403 [METAL CLACKS] 443 00:27:07,233 --> 00:27:08,713 [FOOTSTEPS] 444 00:27:12,103 --> 00:27:13,233 [CHUCKLES LIGHTLY] 445 00:27:20,543 --> 00:27:21,813 [CAR ENGINE STARTS] 446 00:27:47,003 --> 00:27:48,713 Breathe slowly.[DEVICE BEEPS] 447 00:27:48,913 --> 00:27:50,153 [INHALES] 448 00:27:50,353 --> 00:27:51,243 Relax. 449 00:27:51,433 --> 00:27:52,723 [EXHALES][DEVICE BEEPS] 450 00:27:52,913 --> 00:27:55,633 It measures perspiration. It's an indicator of stress. 451 00:27:55,833 --> 00:27:56,893 It's about establishing a relationship 452 00:27:57,093 --> 00:27:58,243 between your brain and your body. 453 00:27:58,443 --> 00:27:59,683 If you know how to make yourself calm, 454 00:27:59,883 --> 00:28:00,903 then your blood pressure will... 455 00:28:01,103 --> 00:28:03,033 [DEVICE BEEPS]Here. 456 00:28:03,233 --> 00:28:05,083 I don't need a little machine to tell me 457 00:28:05,273 --> 00:28:07,693 to take a few deep breaths and stop sweating. 458 00:28:07,893 --> 00:28:09,863 Well, apparently, you fucking do. 459 00:28:10,063 --> 00:28:12,693 [DEVICE BEEPS]Take another deep breath. 460 00:28:12,893 --> 00:28:15,303 [BREATHES DEEPLY][DEVICE BEEPS] 461 00:28:15,503 --> 00:28:16,513 Thank you. 462 00:28:18,473 --> 00:28:19,873 [CHARLIE EXHALES DEEPLY] 463 00:28:20,073 --> 00:28:22,223 [LIZ SIGHS] 464 00:28:22,423 --> 00:28:26,363 We're just gonna try some different methods, or whatever. 465 00:28:26,563 --> 00:28:29,963 If you refuse to go to the hospital, then you'll... 466 00:28:31,143 --> 00:28:32,223 I don't know. 467 00:28:40,363 --> 00:28:41,503 Where'd this come from? 468 00:28:41,703 --> 00:28:42,973 [DEVICE CONTINUES BEEPING] 469 00:28:46,593 --> 00:28:47,593 Hey. 470 00:28:50,853 --> 00:28:51,853 Was she here? 471 00:28:55,123 --> 00:28:57,043 No, I don't like this. 472 00:28:57,243 --> 00:28:59,263 This isn't a good idea. 473 00:28:59,463 --> 00:29:01,303 You know you're not supposed to be around her. 474 00:29:02,693 --> 00:29:03,743 Does her mom know about this? 475 00:29:03,943 --> 00:29:05,313 I just wanted to see her. 476 00:29:05,513 --> 00:29:07,353 Mary has kept her from me all this time. 477 00:29:07,553 --> 00:29:09,973 Why do you suddenly need to see her so bad, why now? 478 00:29:10,173 --> 00:29:11,093 Liz. 479 00:29:15,013 --> 00:29:16,143 [LIZ SIGHS] 480 00:29:18,313 --> 00:29:20,143 Why the hell do you have her homework, anyway? 481 00:29:21,013 --> 00:29:24,593 Look, I didn't plan for this. 482 00:29:24,793 --> 00:29:26,243 She needs some help at school, 483 00:29:26,443 --> 00:29:28,723 so I'm gonna help her with a few essays. 484 00:29:28,923 --> 00:29:30,253 [LIZ SCOFFS] 485 00:29:30,453 --> 00:29:31,773 You haven't seen her since she was eight years old, 486 00:29:31,973 --> 00:29:32,953 and you're gonna reconnect with her 487 00:29:33,153 --> 00:29:34,733 by doing her homework for her? 488 00:29:34,933 --> 00:29:36,203 It's fine.It's not fine. 489 00:29:39,033 --> 00:29:40,813 She shouldn't be around you when you're like this. 490 00:29:42,163 --> 00:29:44,783 What if something happens, what if you need help? 491 00:29:44,983 --> 00:29:46,183 [DEVICE BEEPING RAPIDLY] 492 00:29:46,383 --> 00:29:47,523 Charlie, calm down. 493 00:29:48,523 --> 00:29:50,083 Hey. No.[BEEPING STOPS] 494 00:29:52,783 --> 00:29:54,043 Okay. Forget it, then. 495 00:29:55,443 --> 00:29:57,483 I'm worried about her.Why? 496 00:30:00,143 --> 00:30:01,753 Oh, you're spying on her now? 497 00:30:03,403 --> 00:30:05,233 It doesn't look like she has any friends. 498 00:30:09,453 --> 00:30:10,503 I don't think this is... 499 00:30:15,243 --> 00:30:17,463 [CHARLIE SCOFFS] Come on, a dead dog? 500 00:30:23,943 --> 00:30:25,483 I'm worried that she's forgotten 501 00:30:25,683 --> 00:30:27,383 what an amazing person she is. 502 00:30:32,693 --> 00:30:34,403 She's just a teenager. 503 00:30:34,603 --> 00:30:36,493 Everyone is insane when they're a teenager. 504 00:30:36,693 --> 00:30:37,713 When I was her age, 505 00:30:37,913 --> 00:30:39,183 when my dad would really piss me off... 506 00:30:41,053 --> 00:30:43,183 I'm just lucky I didn't get arrested, that's all I'll say. 507 00:30:46,713 --> 00:30:47,753 Point is, 508 00:30:49,753 --> 00:30:52,023 bringing her over here is a bad idea. 509 00:30:52,223 --> 00:30:54,153 You have enough to deal with right now, you hear me? 510 00:30:55,853 --> 00:30:57,373 Do not bring her over here again. 511 00:30:58,073 --> 00:30:59,203 Okay. 512 00:31:00,683 --> 00:31:01,683 Okay. 513 00:31:06,813 --> 00:31:09,163 It's not like she's alone, you know. She has her mom. 514 00:31:15,263 --> 00:31:17,693 LIZ: Ugh, shit. I have to go soon. 515 00:31:19,003 --> 00:31:21,183 I hate these night shifts.[UTENSILS CLACKING] 516 00:31:21,383 --> 00:31:25,283 It's just a steady parade of dumb, drunk college kids. 517 00:31:25,473 --> 00:31:26,663 [FAUCET RUNS] 518 00:31:27,793 --> 00:31:29,413 [LAUGHING] Did I tell you about this girl 519 00:31:29,613 --> 00:31:31,413 from a few nights ago?[GAGS] 520 00:31:31,613 --> 00:31:33,893 The puke was bright purple, I swear. 521 00:31:34,093 --> 00:31:36,503 [CHOKING][LIZ LAUGHING] 522 00:31:36,703 --> 00:31:37,853 I mean, what is that? 523 00:31:38,053 --> 00:31:40,463 Why can't these kids just drink beer? You know. 524 00:31:41,983 --> 00:31:43,993 Are you choking?[CONTINUES CHOKING] 525 00:31:44,193 --> 00:31:46,373 Oh, God! Okay, lean on that arm. 526 00:31:47,073 --> 00:31:48,073 Lean on that arm! 527 00:31:49,033 --> 00:31:50,513 Okay, I need you to rock with me. 528 00:31:51,293 --> 00:31:53,263 [GRUNTS][CHOKES] 529 00:31:53,463 --> 00:31:54,823 [GRUNTS][CHARLIE GASPS] 530 00:31:55,733 --> 00:31:56,703 [LIZ YELLS] 531 00:31:56,903 --> 00:31:58,923 [COUGHS, WHEEZES] 532 00:31:59,123 --> 00:32:01,833 [COUGHING, WHEEZING] 533 00:32:02,033 --> 00:32:03,963 [GASPING] 534 00:32:05,003 --> 00:32:06,523 I'm okay. [GASPS] 535 00:32:07,703 --> 00:32:11,363 I'm okay. [GASPS] 536 00:32:11,563 --> 00:32:13,933 [SHOUTS] God damn it, Charlie, what is wrong with you? 537 00:32:14,133 --> 00:32:15,153 [HITS] 538 00:32:15,353 --> 00:32:17,153 Chew your food like a normal human being! 539 00:32:17,353 --> 00:32:19,073 You could have just died right in front of me! 540 00:32:19,273 --> 00:32:20,193 I'm sorry. 541 00:32:21,283 --> 00:32:24,153 [CHARLIE WHIMPERS AND SOBS] 542 00:32:26,283 --> 00:32:27,333 I'm sorry, Liz. 543 00:32:39,473 --> 00:32:40,523 [OBJECT CLACKS] 544 00:32:47,743 --> 00:32:48,913 [LIZ EXHALES] 545 00:32:55,663 --> 00:32:56,663 It's okay. 546 00:33:20,773 --> 00:33:22,873 CHARLIE: I read through some of the posts 547 00:33:23,073 --> 00:33:25,833 in the class discussion forum this morning. 548 00:33:26,033 --> 00:33:28,223 In particular, a post 549 00:33:28,423 --> 00:33:32,583 about crafting a good thesis, and I quote, 550 00:33:32,783 --> 00:33:34,843 "Just pick a sentence from the reading 551 00:33:35,043 --> 00:33:37,233 "and say, 'It's good,' or some shit." 552 00:33:37,433 --> 00:33:40,323 Listen, at this point in the course, 553 00:33:40,523 --> 00:33:43,413 I have given you all that I can, 554 00:33:43,613 --> 00:33:46,893 in terms of structure, building a thesis, 555 00:33:47,093 --> 00:33:48,503 paragraph organization. 556 00:33:49,763 --> 00:33:52,513 But if all of that isn't built 557 00:33:52,713 --> 00:33:55,343 on your own original ideas and truthful analysis, 558 00:33:55,543 --> 00:33:56,853 it doesn't mean anything. 559 00:33:58,513 --> 00:34:00,693 Think about that as you write and revise. 560 00:34:00,893 --> 00:34:03,343 Think about the truth of your argument. 561 00:34:04,953 --> 00:34:08,913 I know this may sound silly, but it's important. 562 00:34:10,433 --> 00:34:13,003 Promise, it's important. 563 00:34:16,483 --> 00:34:18,003 [BIRD CHIRPING] 564 00:34:32,583 --> 00:34:34,673 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 565 00:34:43,733 --> 00:34:44,773 [STRAINING] 566 00:34:45,473 --> 00:34:46,683 [KEY CLATTERS] 567 00:34:53,693 --> 00:34:56,393 [GRUNTING SOFTLY] 568 00:35:05,183 --> 00:35:06,233 [KEY CLACKS] 569 00:35:08,143 --> 00:35:09,193 [CLAW CLICKS] 570 00:35:17,633 --> 00:35:19,593 [MUTTERING INDISTINCTLY] 571 00:35:22,553 --> 00:35:23,723 [SIGHS] 572 00:35:32,083 --> 00:35:34,523 This is... [EXHALES] 573 00:35:34,723 --> 00:35:37,173 You say that Walt Whitman wrote Song for Myself. 574 00:35:37,613 --> 00:35:38,793 Yeah? 575 00:35:38,993 --> 00:35:40,563 It's called Song of Myself. 576 00:35:42,353 --> 00:35:43,393 My title's better. 577 00:35:45,613 --> 00:35:46,613 Yeah. 578 00:35:47,663 --> 00:35:48,663 Well... 579 00:35:49,573 --> 00:35:50,623 Okay, I'll just change it. 580 00:35:52,363 --> 00:35:54,763 "The poem Song of Myself 581 00:35:54,963 --> 00:35:56,763 "is in a book called Leaves of Grass. 582 00:35:56,963 --> 00:35:58,373 "It was written by Walt Whitman 583 00:35:58,573 --> 00:36:00,643 "and was published in 1855. 584 00:36:00,843 --> 00:36:02,603 "He paid for the first publication himself." 585 00:36:02,803 --> 00:36:05,643 You don't have to read it out loud. Just rewrite it. 586 00:36:05,843 --> 00:36:07,733 You're supposed to analyze the poem. 587 00:36:07,933 --> 00:36:09,173 This is just a list of facts. 588 00:36:09,373 --> 00:36:11,513 Yup. Thank you, Wikipedia. 589 00:36:13,253 --> 00:36:14,783 [SMACKS LIPS] 590 00:36:14,983 --> 00:36:16,573 You know, it's really an amazing poem. 591 00:36:16,773 --> 00:36:20,313 Whitman uses the metaphor of "I" not to refer to himself, 592 00:36:20,513 --> 00:36:24,103 but to explode the very definition of self 593 00:36:24,303 --> 00:36:26,453 in favor of a more all-encompassing... 594 00:36:26,653 --> 00:36:27,963 I really, really don't care. 595 00:36:32,533 --> 00:36:34,843 You know, I think you might like it if you actually read it. 596 00:36:36,013 --> 00:36:38,463 You're just like my teachers. 597 00:36:38,663 --> 00:36:40,983 You think just because I'm not losing my shit over the poem, 598 00:36:41,183 --> 00:36:42,293 it's because I didn't read it. 599 00:36:42,493 --> 00:36:43,593 I did read it. 600 00:36:43,793 --> 00:36:46,163 It's overwritten, and dumb, and repetitive. 601 00:36:46,363 --> 00:36:48,733 And even though he thinks his metaphor of "I" is deep, 602 00:36:48,933 --> 00:36:50,603 it's actually just a bunch of bullshit. 603 00:36:50,803 --> 00:36:51,863 And, in reality, 604 00:36:52,063 --> 00:36:54,993 he's just some worthless 19th century faggot. 605 00:36:57,383 --> 00:36:59,873 That's an interesting perspective. 606 00:37:00,073 --> 00:37:01,653 It would make for an interesting essay. 607 00:37:04,173 --> 00:37:07,183 Just write that thing about exploding the definition of self. 608 00:37:07,383 --> 00:37:08,573 My English teacher will love it. 609 00:37:13,313 --> 00:37:14,443 [CHARLIE SIGHS] 610 00:37:17,183 --> 00:37:19,973 So, how's your mom doing?Oh, my God. 611 00:37:21,623 --> 00:37:23,893 Look, if you're not gonna write these essays for me, then... 612 00:37:24,093 --> 00:37:27,593 CHARLIE: Ellie, I don't need you here to write these essays for you. 613 00:37:27,793 --> 00:37:29,283 If you want to go, you can go. 614 00:37:30,723 --> 00:37:31,853 You can still have the money. 615 00:37:34,643 --> 00:37:36,993 I thought you wanted to get to know me.I do, 616 00:37:37,193 --> 00:37:38,603 but I don't want to force you to be here. 617 00:37:40,383 --> 00:37:41,473 It's up to you. 618 00:37:45,173 --> 00:37:46,173 [PUTS BAG DOWN] 619 00:37:47,603 --> 00:37:48,613 She's fine. 620 00:37:49,563 --> 00:37:50,693 Mom. I guess. 621 00:37:51,873 --> 00:37:54,223 She happy?When she drinks. 622 00:37:56,133 --> 00:37:58,623 You guys still live in that duplex over on Orchard? 623 00:37:59,753 --> 00:38:00,843 You don't even know where we live? 624 00:38:03,793 --> 00:38:05,023 You don't stay in touch with Mom? 625 00:38:05,223 --> 00:38:08,293 Yeah, I check in with her as often as she lets me. 626 00:38:08,493 --> 00:38:09,973 She really only tells me things about you. 627 00:38:10,933 --> 00:38:12,203 Why? 628 00:38:12,403 --> 00:38:14,023 Because that's all I want to know about. 629 00:38:20,383 --> 00:38:21,303 When I was 11, 630 00:38:21,503 --> 00:38:22,903 we moved to the other side of town, 631 00:38:23,733 --> 00:38:24,863 near the Walmart. 632 00:38:25,473 --> 00:38:26,473 Is your mother 633 00:38:27,603 --> 00:38:29,603 with anyone right now?No. 634 00:38:30,433 --> 00:38:32,273 Why, you interested? 635 00:38:32,473 --> 00:38:34,833 [CHUCKLES] No, of course not. 636 00:38:42,703 --> 00:38:44,153 Why'd you gain all that weight? 637 00:38:44,353 --> 00:38:45,853 [INHALES DEEPLY] I don't... 638 00:38:46,053 --> 00:38:47,663 If you're gonna interrogate me, I'm gonna do the same thing. 639 00:38:50,233 --> 00:38:51,363 Why'd you gain all that weight? 640 00:38:55,633 --> 00:38:59,113 Someone close to me passed away, and it... 641 00:38:59,893 --> 00:39:02,083 It had an effect on me. 642 00:39:02,283 --> 00:39:03,203 Your boyfriend. 643 00:39:04,383 --> 00:39:06,913 My partner.Your student. 644 00:39:07,113 --> 00:39:09,133 He wasn't that young. It was a night school course. 645 00:39:09,333 --> 00:39:10,303 ELLIE: Oh, I remember him. 646 00:39:11,693 --> 00:39:12,743 You had him over for dinner once 647 00:39:12,943 --> 00:39:14,783 when Mom was in Montana, visiting Grandma. 648 00:39:16,563 --> 00:39:17,693 You made steaks. 649 00:39:18,703 --> 00:39:20,273 The good kind. 650 00:39:20,473 --> 00:39:23,233 Better meal than you ever made for me or Mom. 651 00:39:23,433 --> 00:39:25,703 I remember hearing you two talk after I went to bed. 652 00:39:29,103 --> 00:39:30,723 How do you remember all that? 653 00:39:30,923 --> 00:39:33,193 I told you, I never forget anything. 654 00:39:43,423 --> 00:39:44,423 How did he die? 655 00:39:46,423 --> 00:39:48,433 I... I don't... I'm... 656 00:39:48,633 --> 00:39:50,903 I really don't want to talk about that right now, 657 00:39:52,253 --> 00:39:53,603 if that's all right with you. 658 00:39:58,693 --> 00:40:00,693 [CELL PHONE KEYS CLACKING] 659 00:40:05,443 --> 00:40:06,743 I'll write these essays for you. 660 00:40:08,623 --> 00:40:11,843 I want you to do some writing, just for me. 661 00:40:12,883 --> 00:40:14,593 I hate writing essays. 662 00:40:14,793 --> 00:40:16,453 Just think about the poem for a while, 663 00:40:17,453 --> 00:40:18,453 and write something. 664 00:40:21,063 --> 00:40:22,863 Be honest. 665 00:40:23,063 --> 00:40:24,993 Tell me what you really think. 666 00:40:25,193 --> 00:40:26,723 You want me to write what I really think? 667 00:40:28,373 --> 00:40:29,463 I'll be right back. 668 00:40:30,593 --> 00:40:32,643 Just write whatever you want. 669 00:40:35,423 --> 00:40:38,603 [CHARLIE GROANING WITH EXERTION] 670 00:40:41,043 --> 00:40:42,173 [SIGHS HEAVILY] 671 00:40:43,353 --> 00:40:45,533 [CONTINUES GROANING] 672 00:40:45,733 --> 00:40:49,093 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 673 00:41:21,643 --> 00:41:23,173 [WATER RUNNING] 674 00:41:25,653 --> 00:41:27,783 [SUPPRESSED SOBBING] 675 00:41:28,563 --> 00:41:30,883 [MUFFLED SOBBING] 676 00:41:31,083 --> 00:41:32,793 [WATER CONTINUES RUNNING] 677 00:41:34,273 --> 00:41:36,493 Are you okay? 678 00:41:36,693 --> 00:41:38,373 Unless you're dying, there's no way I'm going in there. 679 00:41:38,573 --> 00:41:39,803 [SNIFFLES] 680 00:41:40,003 --> 00:41:42,233 [EXHALES] Oh, yeah. I'm fine. I'm fine. 681 00:41:48,983 --> 00:41:50,723 [BRID WINGS FLAPPING] 682 00:41:58,903 --> 00:42:00,163 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 683 00:42:01,473 --> 00:42:03,163 [WATER RUNNING][KNOCKING CONTINUES] 684 00:42:06,993 --> 00:42:08,353 Hi. 685 00:42:08,553 --> 00:42:09,873 I was looking for Charlie? 686 00:42:10,653 --> 00:42:11,653 He's in the bathroom. 687 00:42:12,523 --> 00:42:13,743 Oh, I can come back. 688 00:42:19,273 --> 00:42:20,973 Are you his friend, or... 689 00:42:21,173 --> 00:42:22,413 I'm his daughter. 690 00:42:22,613 --> 00:42:24,883 Oh.Are you surprised? 691 00:42:25,883 --> 00:42:27,243 Yeah, I guess. 692 00:42:27,443 --> 00:42:28,943 What's more surprising? That a gay guy has a daughter, 693 00:42:29,143 --> 00:42:30,583 or that someone actually found his penis? 694 00:42:33,463 --> 00:42:34,463 I'm kidding. 695 00:42:35,543 --> 00:42:36,593 Jesus. 696 00:42:37,503 --> 00:42:38,993 Um... 697 00:42:39,193 --> 00:42:41,523 Charlie was interested in hearing more about my church, 698 00:42:41,723 --> 00:42:42,693 and I brought some literature... 699 00:42:42,893 --> 00:42:45,003 Are you Mormon?No, I'm from New Life. 700 00:42:45,203 --> 00:42:47,613 Oh. That end times cult thing. 701 00:42:47,813 --> 00:42:49,573 [POURS JUICE]It's not a cult. 702 00:42:49,773 --> 00:42:51,533 Tell you one thing that I like about religion. 703 00:42:51,733 --> 00:42:52,833 What I like about religion 704 00:42:53,033 --> 00:42:55,013 is that it assumes that everyone is an idiot 705 00:42:55,213 --> 00:42:56,973 and that they're all incapable of saving themselves. 706 00:42:57,173 --> 00:42:58,623 I think they got something right with that. 707 00:42:58,823 --> 00:42:59,843 I don't think like that... 708 00:43:00,043 --> 00:43:01,673 What I don't like about religion 709 00:43:01,873 --> 00:43:04,283 is that when people accept Jesus or whatever, 710 00:43:04,483 --> 00:43:05,843 they suddenly think that they're better 711 00:43:06,043 --> 00:43:07,283 than everyone else.[CHARLIE GRUNTING] 712 00:43:07,483 --> 00:43:09,243 By accepting the fact that they're stupid sinners, 713 00:43:09,443 --> 00:43:12,633 somehow they've become better, and they turn into assholes. 714 00:43:15,063 --> 00:43:16,293 I don't really know what to say. 715 00:43:16,493 --> 00:43:18,293 I have some pamphlets that I think would... 716 00:43:18,493 --> 00:43:20,123 [CAMERA CLICKS]Why did you just do that? 717 00:43:20,323 --> 00:43:21,733 Are you coming back tomorrow? 718 00:43:21,933 --> 00:43:23,303 I'm not sure...Come back tomorrow. 719 00:43:23,503 --> 00:43:25,343 I'll be here around the same time. 720 00:43:25,543 --> 00:43:26,943 I'm sorry, what's happening? 721 00:43:27,683 --> 00:43:28,863 [CAMERA CLICKS] 722 00:43:29,473 --> 00:43:30,833 Oh! 723 00:43:31,033 --> 00:43:32,783 Hi. I was just coming over 724 00:43:32,983 --> 00:43:34,053 to share these pamphlets with you. 725 00:43:34,253 --> 00:43:35,303 You'll have those done by tomorrow? 726 00:43:36,133 --> 00:43:37,133 Sure. 727 00:43:37,823 --> 00:43:39,183 Five-page minimum. 728 00:43:39,383 --> 00:43:40,613 It'll be good, I promise. 729 00:43:43,743 --> 00:43:45,533 I'm Ellie.Thomas. 730 00:43:46,353 --> 00:43:48,443 [BREATHES HEAVILY] 731 00:43:49,533 --> 00:43:50,663 [SLAMS DOOR SHUT] 732 00:43:54,453 --> 00:43:55,723 So... 733 00:43:55,923 --> 00:43:57,903 Christ's return has been promised for centuries. 734 00:43:58,103 --> 00:43:59,423 But there are a lot of clues in Scripture 735 00:43:59,623 --> 00:44:00,993 that suggest it's imminent. 736 00:44:01,193 --> 00:44:02,903 So, that means we don't have time to deny the Gospel, 737 00:44:03,103 --> 00:44:04,163 we don't have...Do you really think 738 00:44:04,363 --> 00:44:06,473 that the world's gonna end soon? 739 00:44:06,673 --> 00:44:08,473 Well, the Bible says that no one shall know the day 740 00:44:08,673 --> 00:44:09,873 or the hour, but, 741 00:44:10,063 --> 00:44:11,553 yeah, I think we're probably living in end times. 742 00:44:12,773 --> 00:44:13,913 And that doesn't bother you? 743 00:44:14,113 --> 00:44:15,443 No. It's the idea 744 00:44:15,643 --> 00:44:18,003 that a better world is coming to replace this one. 745 00:44:18,203 --> 00:44:20,533 That everything terrible about this country, 746 00:44:20,733 --> 00:44:22,363 this planet, is gonna be wiped clean, 747 00:44:22,563 --> 00:44:25,233 and replaced with something pure and holy, and... 748 00:44:25,433 --> 00:44:27,143 I'm sorry. I don't mean to be rude, 749 00:44:27,343 --> 00:44:29,093 but I know all this. 750 00:44:29,833 --> 00:44:31,103 What do you mean? 751 00:44:31,303 --> 00:44:33,453 I have probably read everything 752 00:44:33,653 --> 00:44:36,413 New Life Church has ever written. 753 00:44:36,613 --> 00:44:39,463 Probably every pamphlet they've ever published. 754 00:44:39,663 --> 00:44:41,813 Wow, that's great and everything, 755 00:44:42,013 --> 00:44:43,813 but these tracts are just the beginning. 756 00:44:44,013 --> 00:44:46,203 There's so much more in the Bible that we can...I read the Bible. 757 00:44:47,203 --> 00:44:48,563 Really? 758 00:44:48,763 --> 00:44:50,593 Sure. Couple times. 759 00:44:51,993 --> 00:44:53,523 Did you like it? 760 00:44:53,723 --> 00:44:55,913 I thought it was devastating. 761 00:44:56,113 --> 00:44:58,743 God creates us, expels us from paradise. 762 00:44:58,943 --> 00:45:01,743 We wander around for thousands of years killing each other, 763 00:45:01,943 --> 00:45:04,793 before He comes back and saves 144,000 of us. 764 00:45:04,993 --> 00:45:08,183 Meanwhile, seven- and-a-half billion of us fall into hell. 765 00:45:10,573 --> 00:45:12,543 Yeah. 766 00:45:12,743 --> 00:45:14,623 That's not really how I interpret it, but... 767 00:45:16,143 --> 00:45:17,883 Charlie, you have to understand, 768 00:45:18,973 --> 00:45:21,413 God hasn't turned His back on you. 769 00:45:21,613 --> 00:45:24,243 If you accept Him, He'll release you from this. 770 00:45:24,443 --> 00:45:25,723 [SIPPING]He'll take your soul 771 00:45:25,923 --> 00:45:27,903 out of this body and give you a brand-new body. 772 00:45:28,103 --> 00:45:30,123 One made of pure light. I mean, don't you want that? 773 00:45:30,323 --> 00:45:33,253 I'm not interested in being saved. 774 00:45:33,453 --> 00:45:34,823 [SIGHS]I appreciate what you did 775 00:45:35,023 --> 00:45:37,043 the other day, but you can go. 776 00:45:37,243 --> 00:45:38,743 This doesn't sound like something that I... 777 00:45:38,943 --> 00:45:41,433 Look, I really think that God brought me here for a reason. 778 00:45:41,633 --> 00:45:43,443 There's a reason why I knocked on your door 779 00:45:43,643 --> 00:45:45,483 right when you needed someone the most. 780 00:45:45,683 --> 00:45:48,533 Isn't there any way I can help? 781 00:45:48,733 --> 00:45:50,013 I mean, that's the entire reason 782 00:45:50,213 --> 00:45:51,753 why I became a missionary in the first place, right? 783 00:45:51,953 --> 00:45:53,393 There's something you can do for me. 784 00:45:57,703 --> 00:46:00,633 What?Um, nothing I just... 785 00:46:00,833 --> 00:46:04,933 I hope you know I wasn't talking about, um... 786 00:46:05,673 --> 00:46:07,773 What?I'm not... 787 00:46:07,973 --> 00:46:09,723 Oh, my God.I'm... I'm sorry. I just... 788 00:46:09,923 --> 00:46:10,943 No.With what you were watching 789 00:46:11,143 --> 00:46:12,073 the first time I came in here, I just... 790 00:46:12,273 --> 00:46:14,253 [CHUCKLES] I am not attracted to you. 791 00:46:14,453 --> 00:46:17,563 Please, you gotta believe me when I say I'm not attracted to you. 792 00:46:17,763 --> 00:46:18,723 You're a fetus. 793 00:46:21,473 --> 00:46:22,733 I'm sorry. 794 00:46:24,293 --> 00:46:25,383 [SIGHS] 795 00:46:29,523 --> 00:46:31,523 Thomas, tell me the truth. 796 00:46:34,523 --> 00:46:35,653 You find me disgusting? 797 00:46:38,923 --> 00:46:39,923 No. 798 00:46:42,663 --> 00:46:43,843 I just want to help. 799 00:46:44,883 --> 00:46:46,753 Please, just let me help. 800 00:46:56,073 --> 00:46:58,343 [GRUNTS SOFTLY] 801 00:46:58,543 --> 00:47:00,553 Thank you. That's very helpful. 802 00:47:07,473 --> 00:47:09,873 What happened to your... Sorry. Your friend, Liz, 803 00:47:10,073 --> 00:47:12,483 she said that your boyfriend, 804 00:47:12,683 --> 00:47:14,483 he used to go to New Life?[DOOR OPENS] 805 00:47:16,963 --> 00:47:18,263 LIZ: Charlie?Yeah. 806 00:47:19,093 --> 00:47:20,973 I got you this. 807 00:47:21,173 --> 00:47:22,703 I did some asking around, and... 808 00:47:24,963 --> 00:47:26,633 What the fuck is he doing here? 809 00:47:26,833 --> 00:47:28,283 He's just helping me with something. 810 00:47:28,483 --> 00:47:29,763 Take it easy, Liz. 811 00:47:29,963 --> 00:47:32,063 Okay, well, you can go now. 812 00:47:32,623 --> 00:47:33,623 Liz. 813 00:47:34,843 --> 00:47:35,843 Go home! 814 00:47:36,983 --> 00:47:38,513 Sorry. I'm sorry.Leave it. 815 00:47:38,713 --> 00:47:40,553 [CHARLIE GRUNTS]I said, leave it! 816 00:47:40,753 --> 00:47:42,593 CHARLIE: Liz, would you stop? 817 00:47:44,513 --> 00:47:47,683 Actually, stay. We'll have a little chat. 818 00:47:51,733 --> 00:47:52,733 What's this? 819 00:47:54,043 --> 00:47:55,173 The fuck does it look like? 820 00:47:57,743 --> 00:47:59,663 It's a fat-guy wheelchair. 821 00:47:59,863 --> 00:48:01,663 And why do I need a wheelchair? 822 00:48:01,863 --> 00:48:04,843 I was talking to one of the ER doctors, 823 00:48:05,043 --> 00:48:07,973 He said moderate activity would be a good idea. 824 00:48:08,173 --> 00:48:09,763 Sense of independence might help you out. 825 00:48:09,963 --> 00:48:11,323 And what did you pay for this thing? 826 00:48:11,523 --> 00:48:13,283 Nothing. We ordered it for a patient a few months ago. 827 00:48:13,483 --> 00:48:14,463 It's just been sitting around. 828 00:48:14,663 --> 00:48:15,623 What happened to the patient? 829 00:48:17,023 --> 00:48:18,983 Just try it out. 830 00:48:19,183 --> 00:48:20,113 Please. 831 00:48:21,153 --> 00:48:22,373 [SIGHS] 832 00:48:23,023 --> 00:48:24,853 [GRUNTING] 833 00:48:27,773 --> 00:48:29,383 [EXHALES SHARPLY] 834 00:48:30,423 --> 00:48:33,953 Beep. Beep. Beep. 835 00:48:35,733 --> 00:48:38,603 [LAUGHING] 836 00:48:39,783 --> 00:48:41,263 CHARLIE: Can I sit?I gotcha. 837 00:48:42,523 --> 00:48:44,483 [CHARLIE GROANING] 838 00:48:47,053 --> 00:48:48,133 [CHUCKLES] 839 00:48:49,573 --> 00:48:51,573 Good?Yeah, actually, this is really nice. 840 00:48:54,103 --> 00:48:55,373 Yeah. 841 00:48:55,573 --> 00:48:57,103 Let me clear some space for you. 842 00:48:57,843 --> 00:48:58,843 CHARLIE: Whee. 843 00:49:00,323 --> 00:49:01,323 Hello? 844 00:49:06,503 --> 00:49:07,683 CHARLIE: Look, no hands. 845 00:49:09,633 --> 00:49:11,473 Thank you, Liz. This is great, so great. 846 00:49:11,673 --> 00:49:14,783 [CHUCKLES] See? I told you.CHARLIE: I know. 847 00:49:14,983 --> 00:49:16,483 I should go.Ah-pap-pap. 848 00:49:16,683 --> 00:49:17,863 Not until we have our little chat. 849 00:49:19,173 --> 00:49:20,863 What?LIZ: Come on. 850 00:49:27,483 --> 00:49:28,573 Liz. 851 00:49:28,773 --> 00:49:30,183 Just gimme a minute with him. 852 00:49:40,103 --> 00:49:41,543 [DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE] 853 00:49:57,863 --> 00:49:58,863 Where are you from? 854 00:50:00,213 --> 00:50:01,483 What? 855 00:50:01,683 --> 00:50:03,083 You said you've only been here for a little while. 856 00:50:06,343 --> 00:50:07,873 Where you from? 857 00:50:08,073 --> 00:50:11,133 Uh, Iowa. A town called Waterloo? 858 00:50:11,963 --> 00:50:13,003 You asking me? 859 00:50:13,873 --> 00:50:15,183 No. I'm from Waterloo. 860 00:50:15,743 --> 00:50:17,153 Okay. 861 00:50:17,343 --> 00:50:19,363 Your whole family move out here for New Life? 862 00:50:20,363 --> 00:50:21,893 No, it's just me. 863 00:50:22,093 --> 00:50:24,283 I wanted to do some missionary work before school. 864 00:50:24,483 --> 00:50:25,813 [CHUCKLES] 865 00:50:26,013 --> 00:50:28,073 You're from Iowa, 866 00:50:28,273 --> 00:50:31,463 and you came to Idaho to do missionary work? 867 00:50:31,663 --> 00:50:33,293 Why aren't you in Africa or something? 868 00:50:33,493 --> 00:50:35,153 Idaho needs the Word as much as anywhere else. 869 00:50:42,253 --> 00:50:43,953 Okay, listen. 870 00:50:44,153 --> 00:50:45,483 I know this is fun for you. 871 00:50:45,683 --> 00:50:46,743 You get to travel around, 872 00:50:46,943 --> 00:50:48,343 act superior than everyone else, 873 00:50:49,523 --> 00:50:50,833 and eventually, you go home, 874 00:50:51,033 --> 00:50:53,013 get some boring job, have too many kids. 875 00:50:53,213 --> 00:50:54,143 It's God's plan. 876 00:50:54,343 --> 00:50:57,053 But there are other types of people. 877 00:50:57,253 --> 00:50:58,403 People like Charlie, 878 00:50:58,603 --> 00:51:01,793 for whom this amazing plan doesn't fit. 879 00:51:02,883 --> 00:51:05,983 So, just stay away from him. 880 00:51:06,183 --> 00:51:07,363 He doesn't need this right now. 881 00:51:09,803 --> 00:51:11,373 I disagree. 882 00:51:11,573 --> 00:51:14,073 [EXHALES] Excuse me?Sorry, I just, uh... 883 00:51:14,273 --> 00:51:15,593 He's dying. 884 00:51:15,793 --> 00:51:17,123 He's refusing to go to the hospital. 885 00:51:17,323 --> 00:51:18,863 What he needs is spiritual guidance. 886 00:51:19,063 --> 00:51:20,213 And you're gonna give him that? 887 00:51:20,413 --> 00:51:22,333 No. God will. 888 00:51:25,163 --> 00:51:26,123 I see. 889 00:51:45,273 --> 00:51:47,403 My big brother did some missionary work for New Life. 890 00:51:49,493 --> 00:51:50,793 Went to South America. 891 00:51:51,533 --> 00:51:53,683 Oh.Yeah. 892 00:51:53,883 --> 00:51:54,983 I was the black sheep. 893 00:51:55,183 --> 00:51:57,283 I refused to go to church ever since I was 12. 894 00:51:58,323 --> 00:51:59,853 Dad knew I was a lost cause, 895 00:52:02,243 --> 00:52:06,173 but not my brother, he loved New Life. 896 00:52:06,373 --> 00:52:08,303 He wrote me a letter a few months after he left, 897 00:52:08,503 --> 00:52:10,483 told me he was tired, 898 00:52:10,683 --> 00:52:12,093 and lonely, but he didn't want to come home 899 00:52:12,293 --> 00:52:13,473 because he didn't want to get married. 900 00:52:14,513 --> 00:52:15,653 He didn't want to get married? 901 00:52:15,853 --> 00:52:17,403 Dad had set it all up. 902 00:52:17,603 --> 00:52:18,703 Pushed him into getting married 903 00:52:18,903 --> 00:52:21,923 to this girl from the church he barely knew. 904 00:52:22,123 --> 00:52:24,363 But when he came back, he met someone else. 905 00:52:24,563 --> 00:52:26,403 Fell in love, started a whole new life. 906 00:52:26,603 --> 00:52:29,573 And Dad kicked him out of the church. 907 00:52:30,443 --> 00:52:31,493 And the family. 908 00:52:33,323 --> 00:52:34,543 I thought he was gonna be able 909 00:52:34,743 --> 00:52:36,633 to get over all that religious stuff, 910 00:52:36,833 --> 00:52:40,033 but it was like a cancer. 911 00:52:40,233 --> 00:52:42,463 He couldn't shake it. 912 00:52:42,663 --> 00:52:44,253 He just caved in on himself, 913 00:52:44,453 --> 00:52:45,863 stopped sleeping, stopped eating. 914 00:52:46,063 --> 00:52:47,163 Lost a ton of weight. 915 00:52:48,773 --> 00:52:50,593 One night, he doesn't come home. 916 00:52:52,773 --> 00:52:54,563 Couple weeks later, this guy is out jogging 917 00:52:54,763 --> 00:52:56,353 on a bike path near the river in Lewiston, 918 00:52:56,553 --> 00:52:58,133 sees something washed up on shore, 919 00:52:58,333 --> 00:52:59,993 and that was Alan. 920 00:53:02,303 --> 00:53:04,523 The love of Charlie's life, and my brother. 921 00:53:06,173 --> 00:53:08,363 Oh.Yeah. "Oh." 922 00:53:08,563 --> 00:53:11,063 To this day, my dad won't admit it. 923 00:53:11,263 --> 00:53:13,533 Told the whole congregation Alan's death was... 924 00:53:15,443 --> 00:53:17,493 just an unfortunate accident. 925 00:53:20,323 --> 00:53:23,023 Denying him to the end. 926 00:53:32,033 --> 00:53:34,913 Look, I know that you don't trust me. 927 00:53:35,113 --> 00:53:37,483 And I know that I haven't known him for very long, 928 00:53:37,683 --> 00:53:40,443 but I really think that God brought me here, 929 00:53:40,633 --> 00:53:42,703 right when Charlie needs it the most. 930 00:53:42,903 --> 00:53:45,533 I just want him to be saved, that's all...You listen to me! 931 00:53:45,733 --> 00:53:47,083 He doesn't need saving! 932 00:53:48,303 --> 00:53:50,583 In a few days, he's probably going to be dead, 933 00:53:50,783 --> 00:53:53,193 so what he needs is for you to leave him alone. 934 00:53:53,393 --> 00:53:54,753 I'm the only one who can help him. 935 00:53:54,953 --> 00:53:56,273 You understand me?CHARLIE: Liz. 936 00:54:05,233 --> 00:54:06,633 [LIZ SIGHS] 937 00:54:10,333 --> 00:54:12,983 [CUTLERY CLACKING] 938 00:54:18,813 --> 00:54:20,603 [CHARLIE WHEEZES SOFTLY] 939 00:54:22,823 --> 00:54:24,223 [TV TURNS ON] 940 00:54:24,423 --> 00:54:27,173 You wanna watch some Maury? 941 00:54:28,603 --> 00:54:30,093 Sounds good, right? 942 00:54:30,293 --> 00:54:33,493 [INDISTINCT CHATTER ON TV] 943 00:54:33,693 --> 00:54:35,233 Actually, I got another night shift tonight. 944 00:54:35,433 --> 00:54:36,753 I better, uh... 945 00:54:36,953 --> 00:54:38,053 You good for the night? 946 00:54:39,883 --> 00:54:42,273 [SMACKS LIPS] I'll leave the remote here. 947 00:54:47,543 --> 00:54:49,233 [DOOR OPENS] 948 00:54:52,933 --> 00:54:53,983 [DOOR CLOSES] 949 00:54:56,073 --> 00:54:57,373 [LOCK CLICKS] 950 00:55:18,833 --> 00:55:20,313 [GRUNTS SOFTLY] 951 00:55:22,753 --> 00:55:25,363 [LIGHT SWITCH CLICKING] 952 00:55:28,453 --> 00:55:29,493 [SIGHS] 953 00:55:36,283 --> 00:55:37,593 [SIGHS] 954 00:55:43,513 --> 00:55:46,033 [SNIFFING] 955 00:55:47,863 --> 00:55:50,123 [CHUCKLES SOFTLY] 956 00:56:00,873 --> 00:56:01,873 [DOOR SHUTS] 957 00:56:12,323 --> 00:56:13,413 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 958 00:56:13,613 --> 00:56:14,983 MAN: Gambino's! 959 00:56:15,183 --> 00:56:17,033 Yeah. You can, uh... 960 00:56:17,233 --> 00:56:19,413 MAN: Money in the mailbox, leave it on the bench. 961 00:56:20,503 --> 00:56:21,893 Yeah. Thanks. 962 00:56:23,983 --> 00:56:24,983 MAN: I'm Dan. 963 00:56:27,643 --> 00:56:28,823 What? 964 00:56:29,023 --> 00:56:31,863 DAN: I just... My name, it's Dan. 965 00:56:33,733 --> 00:56:36,263 I've been coming here for a while now. 966 00:56:36,463 --> 00:56:38,393 Just thought you'd wanna know my name. 967 00:56:40,913 --> 00:56:41,963 Charlie. 968 00:56:43,353 --> 00:56:44,623 DAN: Hey, Charlie. 969 00:56:44,823 --> 00:56:47,063 [MAILBOX OPENS, CLOSES] 970 00:56:47,263 --> 00:56:48,443 DAN: Have a good night, okay? 971 00:56:49,183 --> 00:56:53,013 [FOOTSTEPS RECEDING] 972 00:56:56,933 --> 00:56:58,463 ...it sure did. 973 00:56:58,663 --> 00:57:00,593 More Idaho Republicans want to see Senator Ted Cruz 974 00:57:00,793 --> 00:57:02,513 in the White House than any other candidate. 975 00:57:02,713 --> 00:57:05,473 Cruz will split Idaho's 32 delegates 976 00:57:05,673 --> 00:57:07,213 with Donald Trump, 977 00:57:07,413 --> 00:57:10,253 the only other candidate to clear that 20% threshold. 978 00:57:10,453 --> 00:57:13,343 It was a disappointing night for Senator Marco Rubio 979 00:57:13,543 --> 00:57:15,213 who failed to win any delegates 980 00:57:15,413 --> 00:57:17,953 in the four states that held primaries, while...[SWITCHES TV OFF] 981 00:57:25,173 --> 00:57:27,003 [WHEELCHAIR SQUEAKING] 982 00:57:45,153 --> 00:57:46,863 "This apartment smells. 983 00:57:47,053 --> 00:57:51,023 "This notebook is retarded. I hate everyone." 984 00:57:52,723 --> 00:57:53,723 [SIGHS] 985 00:58:00,343 --> 00:58:03,053 [SYLLABICALLY] This apartment smells. 986 00:58:03,243 --> 00:58:07,223 This notebook is retarded. 987 00:58:07,423 --> 00:58:10,263 I hate everyone. [LAUGHING] 988 00:58:12,833 --> 00:58:14,273 [COUGHING, WHEEZING] 989 00:58:14,473 --> 00:58:16,753 [GRUNTING IN PAIN] 990 00:58:16,953 --> 00:58:18,453 [COUGHS] 991 00:58:18,653 --> 00:58:22,143 [BREATHING LABORIOUSLY] 992 00:58:23,713 --> 00:58:25,493 And I felt saddest of all 993 00:58:26,543 --> 00:58:28,373 when I read the boring chapters 994 00:58:29,633 --> 00:58:31,593 that were only descriptions of whales 995 00:58:32,633 --> 00:58:34,203 because [EXHALES] I knew 996 00:58:35,943 --> 00:58:38,603 that the author was just trying to save us 997 00:58:38,803 --> 00:58:40,383 from his own sad story, 998 00:58:41,643 --> 00:58:42,903 just for a little while. 999 00:58:44,693 --> 00:58:46,183 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 1000 00:58:46,373 --> 00:58:47,603 This apartment smells. 1001 00:58:50,043 --> 00:58:52,353 [INHALES DEEPLY] This apartment smells. 1002 00:58:55,393 --> 00:58:56,973 The author was just trying to save us 1003 00:58:57,173 --> 00:58:58,403 from his own sad story. 1004 00:58:59,963 --> 00:59:01,183 I hate everyone. 1005 00:59:05,623 --> 00:59:06,583 I hate everyone. 1006 00:59:12,543 --> 00:59:13,543 Do you have it? 1007 00:59:14,463 --> 00:59:15,503 CHARLIE: I'm almost done. 1008 00:59:17,813 --> 00:59:20,773 You can wait while I finish it up, 1009 00:59:23,383 --> 00:59:24,423 print it out. 1010 00:59:27,213 --> 00:59:29,133 Maybe while you're waiting, 1011 00:59:29,333 --> 00:59:32,003 you can write some more in your notebook.Oh, my God. 1012 00:59:32,203 --> 00:59:34,273 You've only written a couple sentences so far. 1013 00:59:34,473 --> 00:59:35,403 Can you write more? 1014 00:59:35,603 --> 00:59:37,143 I kind of hate you.[CHUCKLING] Yeah. 1015 00:59:37,343 --> 00:59:39,743 Well, you hate everyone. 1016 00:59:40,793 --> 00:59:42,573 Listen, just keep going. 1017 00:59:43,483 --> 00:59:44,713 Forget about the poem. 1018 00:59:44,913 --> 00:59:47,323 Write whatever you want, whatever you're thinking. 1019 00:59:47,523 --> 00:59:48,923 [BAG THUDS]Okay. Be quiet, just... 1020 00:59:59,673 --> 01:00:01,153 [EXHALES DEEPLY] 1021 01:00:05,773 --> 01:00:08,873 You know, I was in a really strange place in my life 1022 01:00:09,073 --> 01:00:10,903 when I married your mom.Did I fucking ask? 1023 01:00:12,173 --> 01:00:13,703 I just wish... 1024 01:00:13,903 --> 01:00:15,083 I'm sor... I'm sorry. 1025 01:00:25,613 --> 01:00:27,313 I understand that you're angry. 1026 01:00:28,533 --> 01:00:29,633 [BREATHES HEAVILY] 1027 01:00:29,833 --> 01:00:30,753 But... 1028 01:00:33,533 --> 01:00:37,893 you don't have to be angry at the whole world. 1029 01:00:41,413 --> 01:00:43,773 You can just be angry at me. 1030 01:00:43,973 --> 01:00:45,123 [AGGRESSIVELY] Okay, you know what? 1031 01:00:45,323 --> 01:00:47,473 You can't throw me away like a piece of garbage, 1032 01:00:47,673 --> 01:00:50,733 and then suddenly just want to be my dad eight years later. 1033 01:00:50,933 --> 01:00:53,653 You left me for your boyfriend. 1034 01:00:53,853 --> 01:00:55,653 [SIGHS]It's that simple. 1035 01:00:55,853 --> 01:00:57,443 And if you've been telling yourself anything different, 1036 01:00:57,643 --> 01:00:58,823 then you're lying to yourself. 1037 01:01:03,173 --> 01:01:04,663 But you know what? I'm glad. 1038 01:01:04,863 --> 01:01:07,523 I'm glad, because you taught me something very important. 1039 01:01:08,183 --> 01:01:10,883 People are assholes. 1040 01:01:11,963 --> 01:01:13,623 Most people learn that way too late. 1041 01:01:14,793 --> 01:01:16,933 You... You taught me that when I was eight. 1042 01:01:19,543 --> 01:01:20,713 Thank you for that. 1043 01:01:31,293 --> 01:01:32,423 You know, you could've... 1044 01:01:33,733 --> 01:01:35,473 What? 1045 01:01:35,673 --> 01:01:36,823 ELLIE: You could've been sending us money. 1046 01:01:39,033 --> 01:01:40,873 If you had all that money saved up, 1047 01:01:41,073 --> 01:01:42,223 and wanted to be a part of my life so bad, 1048 01:01:42,423 --> 01:01:43,923 you could've been sending money to Mom. 1049 01:01:44,123 --> 01:01:45,223 I did. 1050 01:01:45,423 --> 01:01:47,043 ELLIE: Yeah, I mean more than just child support. 1051 01:01:58,013 --> 01:01:59,053 I did. 1052 01:02:00,973 --> 01:02:04,583 When I left your mom, she did not want me around you. 1053 01:02:05,453 --> 01:02:06,853 I hoped 1054 01:02:07,053 --> 01:02:09,813 that she would change her mind eventually, but she... 1055 01:02:10,013 --> 01:02:11,723 You could have just fucking called me. 1056 01:02:13,113 --> 01:02:14,243 All this time, you... 1057 01:02:15,643 --> 01:02:17,293 You could have been a part of my life. 1058 01:02:19,123 --> 01:02:20,253 Ellie. 1059 01:02:22,083 --> 01:02:23,173 Look at me. 1060 01:02:29,393 --> 01:02:31,833 Who would want me to be a part of their life? 1061 01:02:44,013 --> 01:02:45,143 I'm hungry. 1062 01:02:47,233 --> 01:02:49,373 There's some stuff for sandwiches in the fridge. 1063 01:02:54,543 --> 01:02:56,333 I'll make you one, but it's going to be small. 1064 01:03:00,773 --> 01:03:02,383 And I'm only using turkey, 1065 01:03:03,163 --> 01:03:04,383 and no mayonnaise. 1066 01:03:09,863 --> 01:03:11,473 What?Nothing. 1067 01:03:12,823 --> 01:03:14,623 You're an amazing person, Ellie. 1068 01:03:14,823 --> 01:03:18,323 I hope you know what an amazing person you are. 1069 01:03:18,523 --> 01:03:21,663 I couldn't ask for a more incredible daughter. 1070 01:03:24,713 --> 01:03:26,273 I'll print that out for you now. 1071 01:03:33,243 --> 01:03:34,283 [BIRD WINGS FLAP] 1072 01:03:41,463 --> 01:03:42,903 [KEYBOARD CLACKING] 1073 01:03:46,903 --> 01:03:47,953 [GRATING] 1074 01:03:50,383 --> 01:03:51,383 [LIGHTER CLICKS] 1075 01:03:52,123 --> 01:03:54,133 [CHARLIE BREATHES HEAVILY] 1076 01:04:13,153 --> 01:04:14,323 [LIGHTER CLICKS] 1077 01:04:29,253 --> 01:04:30,653 [SNORES SOFTLY] 1078 01:04:30,853 --> 01:04:31,773 [PILLS RATTLE] 1079 01:04:48,353 --> 01:04:49,883 [DOOR CREAKS] 1080 01:05:15,513 --> 01:05:16,643 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 1081 01:05:20,953 --> 01:05:22,533 [KNOCK AT DOOR]ELLIE: Yeah? 1082 01:05:22,733 --> 01:05:24,263 THOMAS: Uh... Hello? 1083 01:05:27,223 --> 01:05:28,663 [KNOCKS] Hi. 1084 01:05:30,353 --> 01:05:31,353 ELLIE: Come on. 1085 01:05:32,703 --> 01:05:33,803 Is he... 1086 01:05:34,003 --> 01:05:35,283 Is he okay?I don't know. 1087 01:05:35,483 --> 01:05:37,283 I ground up some Ambien and I put it in his sandwich. 1088 01:05:37,483 --> 01:05:38,413 What? 1089 01:05:38,613 --> 01:05:40,023 I only gave him a couple. He's fine. 1090 01:05:40,223 --> 01:05:41,243 I can take, like, three at a time. 1091 01:05:41,443 --> 01:05:42,503 THOMAS: Where did you get Ambien? 1092 01:05:42,703 --> 01:05:43,803 I had sex with a pharmacist. 1093 01:05:45,803 --> 01:05:47,473 I'm kidding. Gross. 1094 01:05:47,673 --> 01:05:49,123 My mom pops them like Tic Tacs. 1095 01:05:49,323 --> 01:05:51,073 I don't know if he should be taking Ambien. 1096 01:05:53,683 --> 01:05:56,003 Does this make you nervous? 'Cause it's just pot. 1097 01:05:56,203 --> 01:05:57,953 It's not like I'm smoking meth or anything. 1098 01:05:58,153 --> 01:05:59,833 I know. I... I know what pot is, okay? 1099 01:06:00,033 --> 01:06:01,783 No. You only think you know what pot is 1100 01:06:01,983 --> 01:06:03,963 because your parents told you a bunch of lies about it. 1101 01:06:04,163 --> 01:06:05,533 Don't. I know what drugs are. 1102 01:06:05,733 --> 01:06:08,403 I've smoked pot before.Ooh. Oh, I'm so impressed. 1103 01:06:08,603 --> 01:06:10,143 I wasn't trying to impress you. 1104 01:06:10,343 --> 01:06:12,613 You've not smoked pot before.Yes, I have. It... 1105 01:06:14,613 --> 01:06:15,793 It was kind of a problem. 1106 01:06:17,013 --> 01:06:18,153 That is the stupidest fucking thing 1107 01:06:18,353 --> 01:06:19,283 I've ever heard in my entire life. 1108 01:06:19,483 --> 01:06:21,853 I was smoking every day. I had a problem. 1109 01:06:22,053 --> 01:06:24,983 You were a stoner. You had a hobby. 1110 01:06:25,183 --> 01:06:26,943 All right, I'm gonna go. Just tell him I was here and I'll... 1111 01:06:27,143 --> 01:06:29,203 If you leave, I'll feed him the rest of the pills I have in the bottle. 1112 01:06:29,403 --> 01:06:30,993 What?Yeah. 1113 01:06:31,193 --> 01:06:33,763 There's, like, 20, 30 more in here. 1114 01:06:34,683 --> 01:06:35,953 I'll crush them up, 1115 01:06:36,153 --> 01:06:37,993 I'll put them in some water, [PUTS BOTTLE DOWN] 1116 01:06:38,193 --> 01:06:39,293 and I'll pour it down his throat. 1117 01:06:40,213 --> 01:06:41,303 You wouldn't actually do that, 1118 01:06:41,503 --> 01:06:42,603 would you?Sit down. 1119 01:06:49,693 --> 01:06:50,913 So, why do you keep coming back here? 1120 01:06:53,133 --> 01:06:54,133 He needs help. 1121 01:06:55,313 --> 01:06:56,273 He needs God in his life right now. 1122 01:06:56,473 --> 01:06:57,483 That's a stupid reason. 1123 01:06:58,793 --> 01:07:00,933 Do you think he wants to have sex with you? 1124 01:07:01,133 --> 01:07:03,153 That is so gross, oh, my God. Take a hit. 1125 01:07:03,353 --> 01:07:04,673 I don't want...If you don't take a hit, 1126 01:07:04,873 --> 01:07:06,413 I'm gonna call the police 1127 01:07:06,613 --> 01:07:08,193 and I'm gonna tell them that you tried to rape me. Take a hit. 1128 01:07:10,713 --> 01:07:12,023 I don't understand you at all. 1129 01:07:12,543 --> 01:07:13,543 Oh, my God. 1130 01:07:14,983 --> 01:07:16,253 Is there a carb on this? 1131 01:07:16,453 --> 01:07:17,823 Ooh, I'm impressed. 1132 01:07:18,023 --> 01:07:19,473 I wasn't trying to impress you. 1133 01:07:19,673 --> 01:07:20,643 There isn't a carb. 1134 01:07:24,863 --> 01:07:26,083 [SIGHS] 1135 01:07:30,433 --> 01:07:31,653 [CAMERA CLICKS][COUGHS] 1136 01:07:32,653 --> 01:07:34,013 Calm down. 1137 01:07:34,213 --> 01:07:35,313 [COUGHING] What are you gonna do with that picture? 1138 01:07:35,513 --> 01:07:36,793 I'm gonna masturbate to it. 1139 01:07:36,993 --> 01:07:37,973 Is that what you want me to say? 1140 01:07:38,173 --> 01:07:39,263 You're a pervert. Take another hit. 1141 01:07:41,273 --> 01:07:43,323 Look, I'm just fucking with you, all right? 1142 01:07:43,523 --> 01:07:44,933 I'm not gonna kill anyone, 1143 01:07:45,133 --> 01:07:47,983 I'm not gonna tell anyone that you tried to rape me. 1144 01:07:48,183 --> 01:07:49,463 You're not going to give him any more Ambien? 1145 01:07:49,663 --> 01:07:50,853 ELLIE: No.[PILLS RATTLE] 1146 01:07:51,053 --> 01:07:52,503 [ZIPS BAG] 1147 01:07:52,703 --> 01:07:54,193 Why do you keep coming back here? 1148 01:07:56,723 --> 01:07:58,293 I don't know. 1149 01:07:58,493 --> 01:07:59,993 Seriously, if you hate him so much, then why... 1150 01:08:00,193 --> 01:08:01,503 I'm done answering questions now. 1151 01:08:07,863 --> 01:08:08,993 Can I take another hit? 1152 01:08:10,733 --> 01:08:12,043 It goes against your religion, 1153 01:08:13,343 --> 01:08:14,563 and that makes you a hypocrite. 1154 01:08:16,563 --> 01:08:17,563 Go ahead. 1155 01:08:23,133 --> 01:08:24,183 [INHALES] 1156 01:08:26,533 --> 01:08:28,503 [CAMERA CLICKS] 1157 01:08:28,703 --> 01:08:29,803 I really wish that you wouldn't do that. 1158 01:08:30,003 --> 01:08:31,403 Yeah, I know. I heard you the first time. 1159 01:08:32,673 --> 01:08:33,673 Do you find me attractive? 1160 01:08:34,453 --> 01:08:35,633 [HESITATES] 1161 01:08:35,833 --> 01:08:37,633 Because I'm not attracted to you at all, 1162 01:08:38,323 --> 01:08:40,163 just to let you know. 1163 01:08:40,363 --> 01:08:41,423 I'm not trying to be mean or anything. 1164 01:08:41,623 --> 01:08:42,943 I just don't think you're very good-looking, 1165 01:08:43,893 --> 01:08:44,943 or interesting. 1166 01:08:45,593 --> 01:08:46,593 Or intelligent. 1167 01:08:46,983 --> 01:08:48,073 [SCOFFS] 1168 01:08:49,163 --> 01:08:50,343 Oh, my God, grow up. 1169 01:08:50,543 --> 01:08:51,783 Maybe someone else finds you attractive. 1170 01:08:51,983 --> 01:08:53,093 Maybe my dad finds you attractive. 1171 01:08:53,293 --> 01:08:54,913 I really wish you...You know, it is so easy 1172 01:08:55,113 --> 01:08:56,003 to make you uncomfortable. 1173 01:08:56,203 --> 01:08:57,653 It's honestly... It's a little sad. 1174 01:08:58,523 --> 01:08:59,523 You can cash that out. 1175 01:09:13,623 --> 01:09:16,413 [SCOFFS] If my parents knew I was getting high, 1176 01:09:16,613 --> 01:09:17,983 getting high while out witnessing for the church... 1177 01:09:18,183 --> 01:09:19,103 You're not from New Life. 1178 01:09:20,843 --> 01:09:22,163 What? 1179 01:09:22,363 --> 01:09:24,643 There's a kid in the grade below me who goes there. 1180 01:09:24,843 --> 01:09:25,813 He told me that they stopped doing 1181 01:09:26,013 --> 01:09:27,643 door-to-door stuff last year 1182 01:09:27,843 --> 01:09:29,953 when some woman was out preaching or whatever, 1183 01:09:30,153 --> 01:09:32,203 and a guy answered the door with no clothes on. 1184 01:09:33,473 --> 01:09:35,473 I gotta go.Who are you, really? 1185 01:09:37,163 --> 01:09:38,473 Come on, just tell me! 1186 01:09:39,783 --> 01:09:41,443 THOMAS: Why do you care?Because I think we have 1187 01:09:41,643 --> 01:09:42,823 a blossoming friendship. 1188 01:09:44,433 --> 01:09:45,653 You're just messing with me. 1189 01:09:47,173 --> 01:09:48,263 ELLIE: No, I'm not. 1190 01:09:49,523 --> 01:09:50,703 You're not going to tell anyone? 1191 01:09:52,353 --> 01:09:53,353 Who am I gonna tell? 1192 01:10:01,713 --> 01:10:02,803 I was on a mission. 1193 01:10:06,413 --> 01:10:08,413 With a group from my church, back in Waterloo, 1194 01:10:09,723 --> 01:10:11,073 my hometown in Iowa. 1195 01:10:12,373 --> 01:10:13,993 When my dad caught me smoking pot, 1196 01:10:14,193 --> 01:10:16,603 he thought a mission would be a good idea. 1197 01:10:16,803 --> 01:10:19,783 I mean, the truth is, he's just embarrassed by me 1198 01:10:19,983 --> 01:10:22,173 and wanted me gone for a while. 1199 01:10:22,993 --> 01:10:25,173 Anyway, I just left. 1200 01:10:28,433 --> 01:10:29,563 I couldn't do it anymore. 1201 01:10:31,613 --> 01:10:32,613 Why? 1202 01:10:33,793 --> 01:10:34,833 The mission leader, 1203 01:10:36,573 --> 01:10:37,763 this guy, Jerry, 1204 01:10:37,963 --> 01:10:39,243 all he had us doing was standing on corners 1205 01:10:39,443 --> 01:10:41,193 and handing out pamphlets. 1206 01:10:41,393 --> 01:10:42,503 The end of each day, he'd be like, 1207 01:10:42,703 --> 01:10:44,283 "Look how many people we're helping," but... 1208 01:10:45,103 --> 01:10:46,113 I tried to talk to him 1209 01:10:46,313 --> 01:10:47,943 about different ways we can minister. 1210 01:10:48,143 --> 01:10:50,853 I mean, different ways that we could actually help people. But... 1211 01:10:52,243 --> 01:10:54,473 You could just tell that he didn't need to earn 1212 01:10:54,673 --> 01:10:56,073 or prove his faith at all. 1213 01:10:59,253 --> 01:11:02,553 After a while, I was just, like, "Am I really helping?" 1214 01:11:03,863 --> 01:11:05,643 No. You were not. 1215 01:11:07,393 --> 01:11:08,953 Yeah, I started to feel that way, too. 1216 01:11:11,003 --> 01:11:12,093 I don't feel that way, 1217 01:11:12,293 --> 01:11:14,183 I know that you weren't helping people. 1218 01:11:14,383 --> 01:11:15,403 It doesn't help people to tell them 1219 01:11:15,603 --> 01:11:16,713 that they should believe in God. 1220 01:11:16,913 --> 01:11:17,923 Why would that help people? 1221 01:11:18,923 --> 01:11:20,543 THOMAS: I just thought... 1222 01:11:20,743 --> 01:11:22,573 I see all my family, my friends, 1223 01:11:24,273 --> 01:11:25,493 they're all just so happy. 1224 01:11:30,543 --> 01:11:31,803 I just want to be like that. 1225 01:11:34,113 --> 01:11:35,203 So, why'd you leave, then? 1226 01:11:36,813 --> 01:11:39,293 I was worried I was gonna get arrested. 1227 01:11:40,203 --> 01:11:41,203 For smoking pot? 1228 01:11:42,813 --> 01:11:44,073 For stealing from the mission. 1229 01:11:52,133 --> 01:11:54,963 One day, I ditched the pamphlets. 1230 01:11:55,163 --> 01:11:56,183 I went door-to-door. 1231 01:11:56,383 --> 01:11:57,883 I started actually engaging with people. 1232 01:11:58,083 --> 01:12:00,753 Finally. I mean, it felt like I was doing something, 1233 01:12:00,953 --> 01:12:01,963 helping someone. 1234 01:12:03,663 --> 01:12:05,503 [SCOFFS] 1235 01:12:05,703 --> 01:12:08,463 And that night, I went back to the mission meeting, 1236 01:12:08,653 --> 01:12:10,073 and I told everyone what I did that day, 1237 01:12:10,263 --> 01:12:11,983 and Jerry was like, "That's not what we do, buddy." 1238 01:12:12,183 --> 01:12:13,723 And I was like, "Well, why not?" 1239 01:12:13,923 --> 01:12:15,543 And we got in this huge argument in front of everyone, and... 1240 01:12:16,893 --> 01:12:17,933 [SIGHS] 1241 01:12:20,463 --> 01:12:23,603 And that night, I decided to leave. 1242 01:12:23,803 --> 01:12:25,693 And when everyone was asleep, I... 1243 01:12:25,893 --> 01:12:26,943 I took the petty cash. 1244 01:12:28,903 --> 01:12:29,993 ELLIE: How much? 1245 01:12:33,513 --> 01:12:35,563 $2,436. 1246 01:12:37,823 --> 01:12:39,183 Oh. 1247 01:12:39,383 --> 01:12:40,483 THOMAS: Yeah. "Oh." 1248 01:12:42,523 --> 01:12:43,573 I got on a bus. 1249 01:12:44,923 --> 01:12:46,673 Jerry and my parents were calling me 1250 01:12:46,873 --> 01:12:48,093 over and over again. 1251 01:12:49,793 --> 01:12:51,273 I just tossed my phone. 1252 01:12:53,843 --> 01:12:56,543 After a while, I wound up here. 1253 01:13:00,723 --> 01:13:02,553 THOMAS: I thought I could use this money 1254 01:13:02,753 --> 01:13:03,853 for my own mission. 1255 01:13:05,593 --> 01:13:08,333 You know, see my faith save just one person. 1256 01:13:09,993 --> 01:13:12,033 But now I'm almost out of money. I just... 1257 01:13:13,513 --> 01:13:15,483 I can't go home, and... 1258 01:13:15,683 --> 01:13:17,303 My parents probably wanna disown me. 1259 01:13:23,093 --> 01:13:24,303 [SIGHS] I don't know what to do. 1260 01:13:35,233 --> 01:13:36,713 You're more interesting to me now. 1261 01:13:39,753 --> 01:13:40,803 Thanks. 1262 01:13:53,553 --> 01:13:55,073 So, that's why you wanna save my dad. 1263 01:13:59,913 --> 01:14:00,913 [DOOR OPENS] 1264 01:14:06,093 --> 01:14:07,093 [CAMERA CLICKS] 1265 01:14:09,613 --> 01:14:10,613 [MAIN DOOR LOCK CLICKS] 1266 01:14:16,053 --> 01:14:17,193 Mom? 1267 01:14:17,393 --> 01:14:18,713 Don't freak out.Shut up. 1268 01:14:21,323 --> 01:14:22,363 LIZ: You again? 1269 01:14:23,193 --> 01:14:24,413 Charlie? 1270 01:14:24,803 --> 01:14:25,803 Charlie? 1271 01:14:27,983 --> 01:14:29,063 Charlie? 1272 01:14:30,463 --> 01:14:31,723 [SOFTLY] Charlie. 1273 01:14:38,813 --> 01:14:40,123 [CHARLIE COUGHS] 1274 01:14:44,433 --> 01:14:45,473 [LIGHTER CLICKS] 1275 01:14:46,603 --> 01:14:47,653 Not with the oxygen tank. 1276 01:14:49,963 --> 01:14:50,963 I'll stand by the window. 1277 01:14:52,653 --> 01:14:53,653 [LIZ SIGHS] 1278 01:14:57,963 --> 01:15:01,023 Ellie told you she was coming over? 1279 01:15:01,223 --> 01:15:02,673 LIZ: No. I did. 1280 01:15:02,873 --> 01:15:04,193 And just in time, looks like. 1281 01:15:05,413 --> 01:15:07,023 You having any more pain? 1282 01:15:07,223 --> 01:15:08,643 [GRUNTS SOFTLY] 1283 01:15:08,833 --> 01:15:10,373 [SIGHS] How easy is it to move? 1284 01:15:11,193 --> 01:15:12,383 Not very. 1285 01:15:12,583 --> 01:15:14,823 Any confusion? Have you felt disoriented, 1286 01:15:15,013 --> 01:15:16,383 forgotten where you are or what you're doing? 1287 01:15:16,583 --> 01:15:19,913 Am I okay?No, you're not okay. 1288 01:15:20,113 --> 01:15:21,523 But as far as the sleeping pills, you're fine. 1289 01:15:21,723 --> 01:15:22,743 I don't think she gave you much. 1290 01:15:22,943 --> 01:15:24,033 Yeah, that's what I told you. 1291 01:15:26,303 --> 01:15:27,613 You know, I was a very angry, 1292 01:15:27,813 --> 01:15:29,183 very stupid little girl once, too, 1293 01:15:29,383 --> 01:15:30,533 but if you would've given him any more pills than that... 1294 01:15:30,733 --> 01:15:32,093 Yeah, but I didn't give him more pills than that, 1295 01:15:32,293 --> 01:15:33,783 I gave him two pills.Ellie? 1296 01:15:35,043 --> 01:15:36,353 How much money did he offer you? 1297 01:15:42,363 --> 01:15:44,363 All of it?How do you know about the money? 1298 01:15:45,103 --> 01:15:47,243 You think I'm an idiot? 1299 01:15:47,443 --> 01:15:49,113 You think I would believe that you were coming over here 1300 01:15:49,313 --> 01:15:50,543 out of the kindness of your heart? 1301 01:15:51,673 --> 01:15:54,773 [LAUGHS] Charlie doesn't have any money. 1302 01:15:54,973 --> 01:15:56,773 [LIZ CONTINUES LAUGHING] 1303 01:15:56,973 --> 01:15:58,603 She doesn't know?CHARLIE: Mary. 1304 01:15:58,803 --> 01:15:59,693 Where do you think all the money 1305 01:15:59,893 --> 01:16:00,813 from his teaching has been going? 1306 01:16:02,073 --> 01:16:03,213 The account for Ellie? 1307 01:16:03,413 --> 01:16:05,303 By now, it has to be huge. 1308 01:16:05,503 --> 01:16:06,953 Over $100,000 at least, right? 1309 01:16:08,823 --> 01:16:10,083 [WHEEZES SOFTLY] 1310 01:16:12,693 --> 01:16:13,913 That's not true, is it? 1311 01:16:17,833 --> 01:16:19,003 Charlie. 1312 01:16:20,483 --> 01:16:22,483 We could have gotten you anything you needed. 1313 01:16:23,793 --> 01:16:25,283 Special beds, physical therapists, 1314 01:16:25,483 --> 01:16:27,443 fucking health insurance! 1315 01:16:29,843 --> 01:16:31,283 Last winter, when my pick-up broke down 1316 01:16:31,483 --> 01:16:32,593 and I had to walk through the snow 1317 01:16:32,793 --> 01:16:33,763 to get your groceries for you... 1318 01:16:33,963 --> 01:16:35,333 I offered to get your truck fixed. 1319 01:16:35,533 --> 01:16:38,163 Yeah, and I refused because I thought you had $700 1320 01:16:38,363 --> 01:16:40,543 in your bank account.The money is for Ellie. 1321 01:16:41,763 --> 01:16:43,693 It's always been for Ellie. 1322 01:16:43,893 --> 01:16:46,213 If there was ever any kind of emergency, 1323 01:16:46,413 --> 01:16:48,163 I would have given you the money.Would you? 1324 01:16:52,123 --> 01:16:53,093 Wait. 1325 01:16:53,293 --> 01:16:55,823 [PANTING] 1326 01:16:57,043 --> 01:16:58,473 Wait.[DOOR SHUTS] 1327 01:17:01,613 --> 01:17:02,883 Mom, you're not getting any of my money. 1328 01:17:03,083 --> 01:17:04,003 MARY: Oh, shut up, Ellie. 1329 01:17:05,793 --> 01:17:07,573 Leave, right now. 1330 01:17:10,793 --> 01:17:12,453 Wait. 1331 01:17:12,653 --> 01:17:15,283 Ellie, I know you didn't mean to hurt me. I know you didn't... 1332 01:17:15,483 --> 01:17:16,813 Okay, you know what? Listen to me. Listen. 1333 01:17:17,013 --> 01:17:18,633 I don't care about you! 1334 01:17:18,833 --> 01:17:20,383 Get that through your fucking skull. 1335 01:17:20,573 --> 01:17:22,723 [CRYING] Ellie, please.Just fucking die already! 1336 01:17:23,413 --> 01:17:24,683 Enough! 1337 01:17:28,243 --> 01:17:29,593 Ellie, your... Your essay. 1338 01:17:33,293 --> 01:17:34,293 [OPENS DRAWER] 1339 01:17:37,823 --> 01:17:40,433 So... It's... 1340 01:17:43,393 --> 01:17:44,743 It's a really good essay! 1341 01:17:48,223 --> 01:17:50,053 [SOBS, WHEEZES] 1342 01:17:51,183 --> 01:17:52,623 [COUGHS] 1343 01:18:12,553 --> 01:18:14,593 [WHEEZES]Jesus, Charlie. 1344 01:18:22,523 --> 01:18:23,603 Do you have anything? 1345 01:18:27,833 --> 01:18:29,313 It's above the sink, 1346 01:18:29,513 --> 01:18:31,353 the kitchen counter on the left. 1347 01:18:33,443 --> 01:18:35,353 The other one. [SNIFFLES] Yup. 1348 01:18:37,443 --> 01:18:39,583 [COUGHING, WHEEZING] 1349 01:18:39,783 --> 01:18:41,463 MARY: Our deal was 1350 01:18:41,663 --> 01:18:43,493 to wait until she's out of the house to give her the money. 1351 01:18:44,413 --> 01:18:45,853 What's the difference? 1352 01:18:46,053 --> 01:18:49,863 The difference is she's 17 and still in high school. 1353 01:18:50,063 --> 01:18:52,773 She's gonna spend it on face tattoos or ponies, or something. 1354 01:18:52,973 --> 01:18:55,173 I think that she's a lot smarter than that. 1355 01:18:55,373 --> 01:18:56,553 [MARY SCOFFS] 1356 01:18:58,553 --> 01:18:59,553 So... 1357 01:19:02,693 --> 01:19:03,733 How's it been? 1358 01:19:04,953 --> 01:19:06,783 Getting to know her.[CHUCKLES SOFTLY] 1359 01:19:07,913 --> 01:19:10,273 She's amazing.[MARY CHUCKLES] 1360 01:19:10,473 --> 01:19:12,393 [SIGHS] You still do that. 1361 01:19:14,183 --> 01:19:15,183 What? 1362 01:19:16,093 --> 01:19:17,663 That positivity. 1363 01:19:19,313 --> 01:19:20,313 It's so annoying. 1364 01:19:21,363 --> 01:19:22,623 You're a complete cynic. 1365 01:19:24,103 --> 01:19:25,853 Just trying to balance us out. 1366 01:19:26,053 --> 01:19:27,973 Yeah. I guess I do miss that. 1367 01:19:29,233 --> 01:19:30,283 That one thing. 1368 01:19:31,853 --> 01:19:32,803 Just that? 1369 01:19:34,893 --> 01:19:36,863 That, and the cooking. 1370 01:19:37,063 --> 01:19:39,863 Last month, tried to make a stir-fry thing.CHARLIE: Yeah? 1371 01:19:40,063 --> 01:19:41,783 Almost set the entire apartment building on fire. 1372 01:19:41,983 --> 01:19:43,213 [LAUGHS] 1373 01:19:43,413 --> 01:19:45,163 [COUGHING] 1374 01:19:46,253 --> 01:19:48,253 [GASPS, COUGHS] 1375 01:19:48,733 --> 01:19:49,963 [GASPING] 1376 01:19:50,163 --> 01:19:54,003 [CONTINUES COUGHING] 1377 01:19:54,963 --> 01:19:56,223 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 1378 01:20:03,013 --> 01:20:04,843 I never knew you were doing this to yourself. 1379 01:20:06,313 --> 01:20:08,453 Well, you never asked how I was doing. 1380 01:20:09,883 --> 01:20:11,583 You never asked how I was doing either. 1381 01:20:12,893 --> 01:20:14,773 Every month, it's just, 1382 01:20:14,973 --> 01:20:17,603 "How much money do you need?" or, "How's Ellie?" 1383 01:20:17,803 --> 01:20:20,693 You didn't tell me that she's flunking out of school. 1384 01:20:20,893 --> 01:20:22,213 I guess I just didn't need the lecture 1385 01:20:22,413 --> 01:20:23,863 about my involvement in her education. 1386 01:20:24,063 --> 01:20:26,603 That is not what I... [EXHALES] 1387 01:20:29,733 --> 01:20:30,733 [EXHALES] 1388 01:20:32,653 --> 01:20:34,133 How're you doing, Mary?[SCOFFS] 1389 01:20:39,833 --> 01:20:42,973 I know I'm not supposed to be around her. 1390 01:20:43,173 --> 01:20:46,763 You could probably call the police if you wanted to.Oh, Christ. 1391 01:20:46,963 --> 01:20:48,153 You really think I'd do that? 1392 01:20:48,353 --> 01:20:50,893 You fought me pretty hard for full custody. 1393 01:20:51,093 --> 01:20:53,243 And I don't blame you for keeping her from me. 1394 01:20:53,443 --> 01:20:57,543 Charlie, need I remind you that you left us. 1395 01:20:58,243 --> 01:20:59,333 I know. 1396 01:20:59,533 --> 01:21:01,253 And I was left raising our kid 1397 01:21:01,453 --> 01:21:04,693 and explaining to people that my husband left me for a man. 1398 01:21:04,893 --> 01:21:07,123 But you didn't have to cut me out of her life like that. 1399 01:21:07,323 --> 01:21:08,653 Oh, please. 1400 01:21:08,853 --> 01:21:10,563 You were more than happy to forget about us for a while. 1401 01:21:10,763 --> 01:21:11,683 You know that. 1402 01:21:13,603 --> 01:21:15,563 I know I made a lot of mistakes. 1403 01:21:17,863 --> 01:21:20,703 But I just wanted to see her, Mary. 1404 01:21:20,903 --> 01:21:23,133 I've always just... Just wanted to see her. 1405 01:21:24,653 --> 01:21:25,743 It's all about you. 1406 01:21:27,533 --> 01:21:29,183 Even now, huh? 1407 01:21:30,013 --> 01:21:31,633 [CHARLIE SIGHS HEAVILY] 1408 01:21:31,833 --> 01:21:33,313 Now you know why I kept you from her. 1409 01:21:34,403 --> 01:21:35,403 What? 1410 01:21:37,063 --> 01:21:39,903 She's awful. Isn't she? 1411 01:21:40,103 --> 01:21:43,333 She's a terror. And you think it's my fault. 1412 01:21:43,533 --> 01:21:48,123 Wait, is that why you kept her from me all this time? 1413 01:21:48,323 --> 01:21:52,463 Because you thought that I would think that you're a bad mother? 1414 01:21:53,603 --> 01:21:54,603 At first. 1415 01:21:55,953 --> 01:21:58,953 But later, when she was 15, 16, 1416 01:22:01,083 --> 01:22:02,653 I was worried she would hurt you. 1417 01:22:03,173 --> 01:22:04,173 Hurt me? 1418 01:22:05,483 --> 01:22:06,533 It's ridiculous. 1419 01:22:06,733 --> 01:22:08,323 I don't take any pleasure in admitting it. 1420 01:22:08,513 --> 01:22:10,883 I'm her mother, for Christ's sake. 1421 01:22:11,083 --> 01:22:13,673 You know, I spent way too much time telling myself, 1422 01:22:13,873 --> 01:22:15,933 you know, "She's just rebellious, 1423 01:22:16,133 --> 01:22:17,233 "she's just difficult." 1424 01:22:19,713 --> 01:22:22,233 Charlie, she's evil. 1425 01:22:23,713 --> 01:22:24,933 She's not evil. 1426 01:22:31,593 --> 01:22:32,633 What are you doing? 1427 01:22:38,553 --> 01:22:40,033 [MARY TYPING] You think it's just me? 1428 01:22:51,963 --> 01:22:55,093 "There'll be a grease fire in hell when he starts to burn." 1429 01:23:02,663 --> 01:23:03,673 Don't feel bad. 1430 01:23:05,103 --> 01:23:07,283 I've made quite a few appearances on that thing. 1431 01:23:11,113 --> 01:23:12,283 She's a strong writer. 1432 01:23:14,503 --> 01:23:16,123 [RAISES VOICE] That's your response? 1433 01:23:16,323 --> 01:23:17,333 This isn't evil. 1434 01:23:17,983 --> 01:23:19,393 This is honesty. 1435 01:23:19,593 --> 01:23:21,953 Do you know how much bullshit I've read in my life? 1436 01:23:22,153 --> 01:23:24,783 My God, I don't understand you, Charlie! 1437 01:23:24,983 --> 01:23:26,833 Every time I call and ask you how she's doing, 1438 01:23:27,033 --> 01:23:28,083 you say, "She's fine." 1439 01:23:28,953 --> 01:23:30,313 If she's so evil, then... 1440 01:23:30,513 --> 01:23:32,013 [MARY SHOUTING] What was I supposed to tell you? 1441 01:23:32,213 --> 01:23:34,623 Huh? That she was off making her classmates cry 1442 01:23:34,823 --> 01:23:36,063 or slashing her teachers' tires? 1443 01:23:36,253 --> 01:23:37,453 You didn't want to hear that stuff! 1444 01:23:37,653 --> 01:23:38,933 I could have helped her! 1445 01:23:39,133 --> 01:23:42,063 She doesn't want your help! She doesn't want anyone! 1446 01:23:42,263 --> 01:23:44,143 You think I didn't want her to have a dad? 1447 01:23:45,063 --> 01:23:46,543 She adored you! 1448 01:23:46,743 --> 01:23:48,373 The only reason you married me in the first place 1449 01:23:48,573 --> 01:23:50,163 was to have a kid, I know that! 1450 01:23:50,363 --> 01:23:51,503 Mary, please! 1451 01:23:52,153 --> 01:23:53,243 [MARY SIGHS] 1452 01:23:57,333 --> 01:24:00,593 Well, this brings back memories, doesn't it? 1453 01:24:02,643 --> 01:24:03,773 [SIGHS] 1454 01:24:04,813 --> 01:24:06,213 [WHEEZES, COUGHS] 1455 01:24:19,833 --> 01:24:20,833 Listen. 1456 01:24:23,623 --> 01:24:25,533 I never got to say that I was sorry. 1457 01:24:27,403 --> 01:24:29,803 What would you have to be sorry about? 1458 01:24:30,003 --> 01:24:31,013 That's not what I mean. 1459 01:24:32,583 --> 01:24:33,583 I mean... 1460 01:24:38,283 --> 01:24:40,683 About your friend. 1461 01:24:42,163 --> 01:24:43,113 Oh. 1462 01:24:46,813 --> 01:24:47,823 His name was Alan. 1463 01:24:48,023 --> 01:24:49,513 I know his fucking name, Charlie. 1464 01:24:54,213 --> 01:24:55,213 I saw him once, 1465 01:24:57,003 --> 01:24:58,263 in the Walmart parking lot. 1466 01:24:59,223 --> 01:25:00,273 He wasn't looking too good, 1467 01:25:00,473 --> 01:25:02,133 and I don't think it was long before he... 1468 01:25:04,443 --> 01:25:06,933 Anyway, I had all these things that I... 1469 01:25:07,133 --> 01:25:08,283 I wanted to say to him, 1470 01:25:08,483 --> 01:25:09,923 you know, hurl at him like bricks. [SNIFFLES] 1471 01:25:10,623 --> 01:25:12,503 But I... 1472 01:25:12,703 --> 01:25:14,143 I asked if he wanted some help. 1473 01:25:16,763 --> 01:25:18,763 He let me carry a couple of bags to his car, 1474 01:25:20,153 --> 01:25:21,243 he said thank you, 1475 01:25:23,023 --> 01:25:24,023 and I left. 1476 01:25:27,813 --> 01:25:29,293 I never even told him who I was. 1477 01:25:33,083 --> 01:25:34,433 [WHEEZES SOFTLY] 1478 01:25:35,903 --> 01:25:37,383 [WHEEZING] 1479 01:25:38,433 --> 01:25:39,473 You're wheezing. 1480 01:25:40,953 --> 01:25:43,613 Yeah, it's gotten worse. 1481 01:25:44,483 --> 01:25:45,653 Should I call someone? 1482 01:25:46,313 --> 01:25:48,353 No. Um... 1483 01:25:53,713 --> 01:25:54,843 You'll let me hear? 1484 01:26:03,723 --> 01:26:04,933 [GRUNTS] 1485 01:26:19,733 --> 01:26:20,823 [HOARSELY] How do I sound? 1486 01:26:28,743 --> 01:26:31,103 That was the first time we've all been together 1487 01:26:31,303 --> 01:26:33,843 in almost nine years. Do you realize that? 1488 01:26:34,043 --> 01:26:35,143 [CHUCKLES DRYLY] 1489 01:26:43,623 --> 01:26:45,463 When Ellie was little, 1490 01:26:45,663 --> 01:26:49,243 when we took that trip to the Oregon Coast together, 1491 01:26:50,333 --> 01:26:52,423 Ellie played in the sand, and... 1492 01:26:52,893 --> 01:26:53,953 [SNIFFLES] 1493 01:26:54,153 --> 01:26:55,903 ...we laid out on the beach. 1494 01:26:57,333 --> 01:26:58,863 I went swimming in the ocean. 1495 01:27:01,433 --> 01:27:04,083 That was the last time I ever went swimming, actually. 1496 01:27:07,173 --> 01:27:09,433 I kept cutting my legs on the rocks. 1497 01:27:13,183 --> 01:27:15,103 The water was so cold. 1498 01:27:15,303 --> 01:27:16,533 [OCEAN WAVES SPLASHING] 1499 01:27:26,803 --> 01:27:30,463 And you were so mad that my legs bled 1500 01:27:30,663 --> 01:27:32,863 and stained the seats in the minivan. 1501 01:27:33,063 --> 01:27:34,513 [CHUCKLES] 1502 01:27:34,713 --> 01:27:38,733 And you said, for days after that, I smelled like seawater. 1503 01:27:38,933 --> 01:27:40,693 [CHARLIE LAUGHS][SNIFFLES] 1504 01:27:40,893 --> 01:27:42,343 [WHEEZES] You remember that? 1505 01:27:42,543 --> 01:27:45,513 [COUGHING] 1506 01:27:46,513 --> 01:27:48,253 [SNIFFLES] 1507 01:27:50,173 --> 01:27:51,303 You sound awful. 1508 01:27:52,953 --> 01:27:55,223 [SIGHS] I'm dying, Mary. 1509 01:27:59,313 --> 01:28:00,313 Fuck you. 1510 01:28:02,223 --> 01:28:03,363 I'm sorry. 1511 01:28:04,973 --> 01:28:06,103 Fuck you. 1512 01:28:08,973 --> 01:28:10,153 [CRYING] For sure? 1513 01:28:10,973 --> 01:28:13,423 Yeah. For sure. 1514 01:28:13,623 --> 01:28:15,603 [CRIES, SIGHS] 1515 01:28:15,793 --> 01:28:16,983 CHARLIE: Listen to me. 1516 01:28:19,983 --> 01:28:22,383 I need to make certain that she's going to be okay. 1517 01:28:23,513 --> 01:28:24,773 We can't give up on her. 1518 01:28:25,553 --> 01:28:27,303 You already gave up on her! 1519 01:28:27,503 --> 01:28:29,263 You gave up on her when she was eight years old! 1520 01:28:29,463 --> 01:28:32,313 I wish I could have been a part of her life, Mary, 1521 01:28:32,513 --> 01:28:34,183 a part of both of your lives. 1522 01:28:34,383 --> 01:28:35,303 Go to the hospital. 1523 01:28:36,483 --> 01:28:38,783 You have money, just go to the hospital! 1524 01:28:39,873 --> 01:28:44,313 We both know that that money is for Ellie. 1525 01:28:45,313 --> 01:28:49,413 But beyond that, 1526 01:28:49,613 --> 01:28:53,623 I need to know that she's gonna have a decent life. 1527 01:28:54,803 --> 01:28:56,983 Where she cares about people 1528 01:28:57,183 --> 01:28:59,243 and other people care about her. 1529 01:29:00,593 --> 01:29:02,593 [CRYING] And she's gonna be okay. 1530 01:29:03,593 --> 01:29:04,773 I need to go.Mary. 1531 01:29:04,973 --> 01:29:08,213 She doesn't have anyone else!I have to go. 1532 01:29:08,413 --> 01:29:10,783 [CRYING] I need to know that I have done 1533 01:29:10,983 --> 01:29:13,643 one thing right with my life! 1534 01:29:17,393 --> 01:29:18,613 We both played our parts. 1535 01:29:20,263 --> 01:29:22,653 I raised her, and you're giving her the money. 1536 01:29:23,483 --> 01:29:24,573 It's the best we could do. 1537 01:29:26,663 --> 01:29:27,833 [SIGHS] 1538 01:29:30,663 --> 01:29:31,663 Do you need anything 1539 01:29:33,233 --> 01:29:34,273 before I leave? 1540 01:29:35,273 --> 01:29:36,413 Water, or something. 1541 01:29:37,713 --> 01:29:39,233 [COUGHS] 1542 01:29:44,503 --> 01:29:45,723 [SIGHS] 1543 01:29:46,113 --> 01:29:47,373 [COUGHS] 1544 01:29:58,603 --> 01:29:59,703 [PHONE BUTTON BEEPS] 1545 01:29:59,903 --> 01:30:02,343 [SNORING][THUNDER RUMBLES] 1546 01:30:03,873 --> 01:30:05,833 [RAIN POURING] 1547 01:30:08,133 --> 01:30:10,453 [THUNDER RUMBLING] 1548 01:30:10,653 --> 01:30:12,093 [COUGHS] 1549 01:30:26,153 --> 01:30:27,593 [WATER TRICKLING] 1550 01:30:45,953 --> 01:30:47,313 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 1551 01:30:47,513 --> 01:30:48,883 DAN: Gambino's! 1552 01:30:49,083 --> 01:30:51,053 [CHARLIE COUGHING] Yeah. 1553 01:30:51,253 --> 01:30:52,183 DAN: Charlie? 1554 01:30:53,443 --> 01:30:54,443 You okay? 1555 01:30:56,183 --> 01:30:58,013 CHARLIE: Yeah. [CLEARS THROAT] 1556 01:30:59,583 --> 01:31:01,273 The money is in the, um... 1557 01:31:02,713 --> 01:31:03,683 DAN: Sure. 1558 01:31:03,883 --> 01:31:05,063 [MAILBOX OPENS] 1559 01:31:07,853 --> 01:31:09,323 DAN: You sure you're doing okay? 1560 01:31:11,463 --> 01:31:13,383 Yeah. Thanks, Dan. 1561 01:31:13,583 --> 01:31:15,243 DAN: Have a good night, okay? 1562 01:31:15,813 --> 01:31:16,943 [MAILBOX CLOSES] 1563 01:31:22,213 --> 01:31:24,123 [RAIN POURING HEAVILY] 1564 01:31:40,923 --> 01:31:41,923 [MUMBLES] 1565 01:31:54,853 --> 01:31:57,023 [INTENSE MUSIC PLAYING] 1566 01:32:09,253 --> 01:32:11,263 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 1567 01:32:16,783 --> 01:32:18,483 [THUNDER RUMBLING] 1568 01:32:25,623 --> 01:32:26,843 [TYPING] 1569 01:32:35,593 --> 01:32:37,113 [WHISPERING] Fuck these essays. 1570 01:32:38,203 --> 01:32:39,413 Fuck these readings. 1571 01:32:41,853 --> 01:32:45,993 Just write something fucking honest. [BANGING KEYBOARD] 1572 01:32:49,733 --> 01:32:50,733 [SLAMS LAPTOP SHUT] 1573 01:32:51,433 --> 01:32:52,433 [SIGHS] 1574 01:32:55,393 --> 01:32:57,563 [INTENSE MUSIC CONTINUES] 1575 01:33:40,003 --> 01:33:41,443 [RETCHES] 1576 01:33:41,643 --> 01:33:42,753 [SPITS] 1577 01:33:42,953 --> 01:33:44,743 [COUGHS, WHEEZES] 1578 01:33:45,663 --> 01:33:47,223 [GASPS] 1579 01:33:47,663 --> 01:33:50,493 [COUGHING] 1580 01:33:54,493 --> 01:33:56,273 [CONTINUES COUGHING] 1581 01:33:57,673 --> 01:33:58,843 [STIFLES SOB] 1582 01:33:59,543 --> 01:34:01,643 [SOBBING] 1583 01:34:01,843 --> 01:34:03,373 [COUGHS, SOBS] 1584 01:34:08,983 --> 01:34:11,213 [CONTINUES SOBBING] 1585 01:34:11,413 --> 01:34:12,683 [COUGHS] 1586 01:34:15,773 --> 01:34:16,913 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 1587 01:34:17,113 --> 01:34:18,473 [GASPS] Liz? 1588 01:34:20,303 --> 01:34:22,273 [KNOCKING CONTINUES] 1589 01:34:22,473 --> 01:34:23,563 THOMAS: Can I come inside? 1590 01:34:25,263 --> 01:34:26,303 It's not locked. 1591 01:34:28,653 --> 01:34:29,743 Hi.What's wrong? 1592 01:34:30,613 --> 01:34:31,883 Thank you.For what? 1593 01:34:32,083 --> 01:34:34,763 Look, I'm not exactly who I said I was. 1594 01:34:34,963 --> 01:34:36,583 I'm not from New Life. 1595 01:34:36,783 --> 01:34:38,063 What? I... I don't... 1596 01:34:38,263 --> 01:34:40,023 I've been in a pretty bad place recently. 1597 01:34:40,223 --> 01:34:41,553 I... I stole some money, 1598 01:34:41,753 --> 01:34:43,593 and I ran away from home a few months ago. 1599 01:34:43,793 --> 01:34:46,423 And your daughter, she took these pictures of me smoking pot, 1600 01:34:46,623 --> 01:34:48,683 and a recording or something like that, 1601 01:34:48,883 --> 01:34:50,953 and she found my church in Waterloo somehow, 1602 01:34:51,153 --> 01:34:52,213 and then she sent it to them, 1603 01:34:52,413 --> 01:34:53,863 and they sent it to my parents...Wait. 1604 01:34:54,063 --> 01:34:55,253 ...and you know what they said? 1605 01:34:56,163 --> 01:34:57,203 "It's just money." 1606 01:34:58,343 --> 01:35:00,133 And they forgive me. 1607 01:35:00,333 --> 01:35:02,953 And they love me, and they want me to come home. 1608 01:35:04,733 --> 01:35:06,133 How awful is that? 1609 01:35:07,263 --> 01:35:09,753 Ellie, she... She did all that? 1610 01:35:09,953 --> 01:35:14,103 I can't tell if she was trying to help me or hurt me or... 1611 01:35:14,303 --> 01:35:15,543 Do you ever get that feeling from her?[CHUCKLES] 1612 01:35:15,743 --> 01:35:17,183 How did she even... She... 1613 01:35:19,013 --> 01:35:21,843 She found your church, she tracked down your parents. 1614 01:35:23,273 --> 01:35:24,593 She really did all that? 1615 01:35:24,793 --> 01:35:26,323 Yeah. I mean, I'm going home tomorrow. 1616 01:35:27,453 --> 01:35:28,903 But, Charlie, before I go...[LAUGHS] 1617 01:35:29,103 --> 01:35:30,463 ...I have to show you this. 1618 01:35:30,663 --> 01:35:32,383 [BREATHES UNCOMFORTABLY] 1619 01:35:32,583 --> 01:35:33,903 What... What's wrong?[GRUNTS HEAVILY] 1620 01:35:34,103 --> 01:35:35,253 Wait, are you okay? 1621 01:35:35,453 --> 01:35:37,303 It just hurts.Charlie, 1622 01:35:37,503 --> 01:35:39,653 I want to help you. I know I can help you. 1623 01:35:39,853 --> 01:35:41,563 I'm not going to the hospital. 1624 01:35:41,763 --> 01:35:42,963 No, I know. I'm not gonna make you go. 1625 01:35:43,153 --> 01:35:44,433 But I can help you. 1626 01:35:46,383 --> 01:35:47,793 "Therefore, brothers and sisters..."What are you doing? 1627 01:35:47,993 --> 01:35:49,223 "...we have an obligation, 1628 01:35:49,423 --> 01:35:51,533 "but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. 1629 01:35:51,733 --> 01:35:54,233 "For if you live according to the flesh, you will die. 1630 01:35:54,433 --> 01:35:56,713 "But if by the Spirit you put to death 1631 01:35:56,913 --> 01:35:59,193 "the misdeeds of the body, then you will live." 1632 01:35:59,393 --> 01:36:01,063 I... I don't understand. 1633 01:36:01,263 --> 01:36:03,983 Charlie, when I read this, I finally got it. 1634 01:36:04,183 --> 01:36:07,463 I finally understood why God brought me here to you. 1635 01:36:07,663 --> 01:36:09,683 So I could help you understand what happened to Alan, 1636 01:36:09,883 --> 01:36:11,153 so it doesn't happen to you, too. 1637 01:36:14,193 --> 01:36:15,343 How did you get this? 1638 01:36:15,533 --> 01:36:18,603 Charlie, Alan tried to escape God's will. 1639 01:36:18,803 --> 01:36:20,823 He chose his life with you over God. 1640 01:36:21,023 --> 01:36:24,613 But this is why he was so obsessed with this verse. 1641 01:36:24,803 --> 01:36:26,353 He knew that he was living in the flesh, 1642 01:36:26,553 --> 01:36:28,003 and not in the Spirit. 1643 01:36:28,203 --> 01:36:30,873 He never prayed for salvation, but it's not too late for you. 1644 01:36:31,073 --> 01:36:32,663 Through the Spirit, you can put to death 1645 01:36:32,863 --> 01:36:34,913 the misdeeds of the body, and you will live. 1646 01:36:36,703 --> 01:36:39,093 You think Alan died because he chose to be with me? 1647 01:36:41,483 --> 01:36:42,933 You think God turned his back on him 1648 01:36:43,133 --> 01:36:44,273 because he and I were in love? 1649 01:36:48,583 --> 01:36:49,583 Yes. 1650 01:36:54,453 --> 01:36:55,673 [SIGHS] 1651 01:36:58,063 --> 01:37:00,463 You know something? I wasn't always this big. 1652 01:37:01,943 --> 01:37:03,913 Yeah, I know. 1653 01:37:04,113 --> 01:37:06,423 I mean, I wasn't the best-looking guy in the room, but... 1654 01:37:08,033 --> 01:37:09,033 Alan loved me. 1655 01:37:12,123 --> 01:37:13,253 He thought I was beautiful. 1656 01:37:17,953 --> 01:37:18,913 Okay. 1657 01:37:21,173 --> 01:37:22,873 Halfway through the semester, 1658 01:37:24,443 --> 01:37:27,893 he started meeting me during my office hours. 1659 01:37:28,093 --> 01:37:32,153 And we were... We were crazy about one another. 1660 01:37:32,353 --> 01:37:34,243 But we waited 1661 01:37:34,443 --> 01:37:36,943 until the class was over before... 1662 01:37:37,143 --> 01:37:38,333 This isn't, uh... 1663 01:37:38,533 --> 01:37:41,513 It was just after classes had ended for the year. 1664 01:37:41,713 --> 01:37:43,503 It was perfect temperature outside. 1665 01:37:44,593 --> 01:37:46,463 We took a walk in the arboretum, 1666 01:37:48,993 --> 01:37:50,033 and we kissed. 1667 01:37:50,683 --> 01:37:52,303 Charlie, stop. 1668 01:37:52,503 --> 01:37:55,863 We would spend entire nights lying together, naked. 1669 01:37:58,343 --> 01:37:59,473 We would make love. 1670 01:38:05,093 --> 01:38:06,223 We would make love. 1671 01:38:09,573 --> 01:38:11,063 Do you find that disgusting? 1672 01:38:11,263 --> 01:38:12,893 Charlie, God is ready to help you. 1673 01:38:13,093 --> 01:38:16,333 Oh, I hope that there isn't a God, 1674 01:38:16,533 --> 01:38:18,983 because I hate to think that there's an afterlife, 1675 01:38:19,183 --> 01:38:22,643 and that Alan can see what I have done to myself. 1676 01:38:22,843 --> 01:38:25,773 Charlie...That he can see my swollen feet 1677 01:38:25,973 --> 01:38:27,643 and the sores on my skin, 1678 01:38:27,843 --> 01:38:28,953 and the patches of mold 1679 01:38:29,153 --> 01:38:30,343 in between the flaps.Stop. 1680 01:38:30,543 --> 01:38:32,433 The infected ulcers on my ass, 1681 01:38:32,633 --> 01:38:36,043 and the sack of fat on my back that turned brown last year. 1682 01:38:36,243 --> 01:38:38,043 Okay, stop!This is disgusting? 1683 01:38:38,243 --> 01:38:40,183 Yes!I'm disgusting? 1684 01:38:40,383 --> 01:38:42,133 [SHOUTING] Yes, you're disgusting! You're... 1685 01:38:53,703 --> 01:38:55,403 [BREATH SHUDDERING, WHISPERING] I'm sorry. 1686 01:38:59,143 --> 01:39:00,143 What? 1687 01:39:03,583 --> 01:39:05,583 Go home to your family. 1688 01:39:16,163 --> 01:39:18,423 [CHARLIE COUGHS][DOOR OPENS] 1689 01:39:19,953 --> 01:39:24,043 [DOOR CLOSES][CONTINUES COUGHING] 1690 01:39:25,913 --> 01:39:27,433 [COUGHS HEAVILY] 1691 01:39:54,853 --> 01:39:57,683 CHARLIE: Well, your complaints have been heard. 1692 01:39:58,463 --> 01:39:59,603 I've been replaced 1693 01:39:59,803 --> 01:40:01,823 by someone who will, no doubt, 1694 01:40:02,023 --> 01:40:05,213 have you rewrite, and rewrite, and rewrite, 1695 01:40:05,823 --> 01:40:08,173 be more objective, 1696 01:40:09,043 --> 01:40:10,183 less authentic, 1697 01:40:10,383 --> 01:40:12,953 less you, with every draft. 1698 01:40:15,913 --> 01:40:19,453 But some of you saw my post 1699 01:40:19,653 --> 01:40:22,493 about writing something honest. 1700 01:40:25,923 --> 01:40:26,933 And... 1701 01:40:28,143 --> 01:40:29,153 [SIGHS] 1702 01:40:30,323 --> 01:40:32,063 ...the things that some of you wrote... 1703 01:40:34,153 --> 01:40:35,413 Kristy, you wrote, 1704 01:40:36,543 --> 01:40:39,563 "My parents want me to be a radiologist, 1705 01:40:39,763 --> 01:40:42,163 "but I don't even know what that is." 1706 01:40:48,863 --> 01:40:50,183 Julian, you wrote, 1707 01:40:50,373 --> 01:40:53,693 "I'm sick of people telling me that I have promise." 1708 01:41:01,443 --> 01:41:02,533 Adam, you wrote, 1709 01:41:03,743 --> 01:41:05,543 "I think I need to accept that my life 1710 01:41:05,743 --> 01:41:08,103 "isn't going to be very exciting." 1711 01:41:11,233 --> 01:41:15,713 You all wrote these amazing, honest things, and... 1712 01:41:17,893 --> 01:41:20,023 you've been so honest with me that I... I... 1713 01:41:23,463 --> 01:41:24,643 [GRUNTS SOFTLY] 1714 01:41:25,593 --> 01:41:27,033 ...I just want to be... 1715 01:41:28,473 --> 01:41:29,993 honest with you, too. 1716 01:41:31,083 --> 01:41:32,213 [EXHALES] 1717 01:41:35,823 --> 01:41:37,873 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 1718 01:42:05,463 --> 01:42:06,763 [SIGHS HEAVILY] 1719 01:42:12,253 --> 01:42:13,863 These assignments don't matter. 1720 01:42:15,603 --> 01:42:16,903 This course doesn't matter. 1721 01:42:19,083 --> 01:42:20,213 College doesn't matter. 1722 01:42:22,653 --> 01:42:25,573 These amazing, honest things that you wrote, 1723 01:42:29,613 --> 01:42:30,743 they matter. 1724 01:42:34,793 --> 01:42:35,923 [LAPTOP CRASHES] 1725 01:42:38,233 --> 01:42:40,063 [CHARLIE WHEEZES] 1726 01:42:50,243 --> 01:42:51,463 [CHARLIE COUGHS] 1727 01:43:06,223 --> 01:43:08,043 [WHEEZING CONTINUES] 1728 01:43:12,313 --> 01:43:13,833 I'm sorry.Don't. 1729 01:43:20,493 --> 01:43:22,143 [BREATHES ERRATICALLY] 1730 01:43:25,233 --> 01:43:26,413 [SUPPRESSES GRUNT] 1731 01:43:30,333 --> 01:43:32,893 I really hate you for putting me through this again, you know that? 1732 01:43:36,073 --> 01:43:37,463 Those last few months before Alan... 1733 01:43:39,123 --> 01:43:41,393 I'd come over here, shake him, scream at him, 1734 01:43:41,593 --> 01:43:43,443 just trying to get him to fucking eat something. 1735 01:43:43,633 --> 01:43:46,183 God, that was awful!It was awful for me, too. 1736 01:43:46,383 --> 01:43:47,403 Yeah? Well, you weren't the one 1737 01:43:47,603 --> 01:43:48,963 who had to identify his body, 1738 01:43:49,163 --> 01:43:50,693 all bloated...They wouldn't let me. 1739 01:43:52,303 --> 01:43:53,523 I wasn't family. 1740 01:43:55,263 --> 01:43:56,353 [SIGHS] 1741 01:44:02,713 --> 01:44:04,713 [CHARLIE COUGHS AND WHEEZES] 1742 01:44:07,713 --> 01:44:09,843 I got you two meatball subs. Extra cheese. 1743 01:44:15,333 --> 01:44:16,903 [SIGHS, SNIFFLES] 1744 01:44:17,103 --> 01:44:18,203 I don't know what I'm doing. 1745 01:44:24,513 --> 01:44:26,743 [BREATHES HEAVILY] 1746 01:44:26,943 --> 01:44:28,963 I'm not going to the hospital. 1747 01:44:29,163 --> 01:44:30,473 I'm not asking you to. 1748 01:44:36,003 --> 01:44:37,783 I can't do this anymore. 1749 01:44:40,923 --> 01:44:42,573 I tried to save him, Liz. 1750 01:44:45,923 --> 01:44:47,843 I thought that if I just loved him, 1751 01:44:50,753 --> 01:44:52,503 that he wouldn't need anyone else. 1752 01:44:55,453 --> 01:44:57,023 I told him he didn't need God, 1753 01:44:58,413 --> 01:45:01,553 he didn't need anyone but me. 1754 01:45:03,423 --> 01:45:04,423 Charlie, 1755 01:45:06,033 --> 01:45:07,693 all I know is that you gave Alan 1756 01:45:07,893 --> 01:45:09,043 the best years of his life. 1757 01:45:09,243 --> 01:45:10,523 If it weren't for you, he would have jumped off 1758 01:45:10,723 --> 01:45:12,603 that bridge years earlier.[SHUDDERS] 1759 01:45:13,393 --> 01:45:14,483 Nobody could've saved him. 1760 01:45:14,683 --> 01:45:16,433 Believe me, I spent years trying. 1761 01:45:17,263 --> 01:45:18,783 [BREATHES HEAVILY] 1762 01:45:20,483 --> 01:45:23,263 I don't think I believe anyone can save anyone. 1763 01:45:29,583 --> 01:45:30,663 She saved him. 1764 01:45:33,273 --> 01:45:37,333 She wasn't trying to hurt him. She was trying to help him. 1765 01:45:37,533 --> 01:45:39,293 Who are you talking about? 1766 01:45:39,493 --> 01:45:41,673 He's going home. She did that. 1767 01:45:43,023 --> 01:45:45,163 Charlie...She didn't do it to hurt him, 1768 01:45:45,903 --> 01:45:48,203 she did it to send him home. 1769 01:45:49,643 --> 01:45:52,003 Do you feel light-headed? Charlie, look at me. 1770 01:45:52,203 --> 01:45:54,603 She was trying to help him.Who? 1771 01:45:55,693 --> 01:45:59,313 Ellie. She was trying to help him, 1772 01:45:59,513 --> 01:46:01,303 She just wanted to send him home. 1773 01:46:03,913 --> 01:46:07,703 Do you ever get the feeling that... 1774 01:46:09,573 --> 01:46:13,053 people are incapable of not caring? 1775 01:46:18,493 --> 01:46:20,063 People are amazing. 1776 01:46:21,503 --> 01:46:22,543 [DOOR OPENS] 1777 01:46:23,673 --> 01:46:24,763 What the fuck did you do? 1778 01:46:27,943 --> 01:46:28,983 What's wrong with him? 1779 01:46:31,203 --> 01:46:32,203 He's dying. 1780 01:46:34,073 --> 01:46:35,563 So, call someone. 1781 01:46:35,763 --> 01:46:37,473 [SOFTLY] No.Call a fucking ambulance! 1782 01:46:38,303 --> 01:46:39,303 Liz. 1783 01:46:40,303 --> 01:46:41,443 I need to talk to him. 1784 01:46:41,643 --> 01:46:42,793 I'm not leaving you alone with him. 1785 01:46:42,993 --> 01:46:44,403 I need to talk to him alone. 1786 01:46:44,603 --> 01:46:45,483 [SOFTLY] Liz. 1787 01:46:48,523 --> 01:46:49,533 Please. 1788 01:46:54,273 --> 01:46:55,273 Okay. 1789 01:47:01,753 --> 01:47:03,503 [STIFLED SOBBING] 1790 01:47:12,943 --> 01:47:14,113 LIZ: I'll call someone. 1791 01:47:17,033 --> 01:47:18,033 Charlie. 1792 01:47:21,213 --> 01:47:22,693 I'll wait downstairs. 1793 01:47:30,303 --> 01:47:32,313 Why did you do that?[CHUCKLING] What? 1794 01:47:34,573 --> 01:47:35,573 I failed. 1795 01:47:36,403 --> 01:47:37,803 It's a really good essay. 1796 01:47:38,003 --> 01:47:40,763 Are you just trying to screw me over one last time? 1797 01:47:40,963 --> 01:47:42,803 I don't care about you! I don't care that you're dying. 1798 01:47:43,003 --> 01:47:44,283 Do you want me to fail out of high school? 1799 01:47:44,483 --> 01:47:46,293 Is that why you did this?I didn't write it. 1800 01:47:46,493 --> 01:47:48,683 This is the essay that you gave me yesterday. 1801 01:47:48,883 --> 01:47:50,593 You didn't read it.I don't need to read it. 1802 01:47:51,203 --> 01:47:52,203 Read it. 1803 01:47:56,373 --> 01:47:58,253 [BREATHING LABORIOUSLY] 1804 01:48:03,693 --> 01:48:04,693 This is... 1805 01:48:06,213 --> 01:48:07,533 I know what this is. 1806 01:48:07,723 --> 01:48:09,743 [CHUCKLING] I knew you would. 1807 01:48:10,823 --> 01:48:11,823 I wrote this. 1808 01:48:14,173 --> 01:48:15,753 You never forget anything. 1809 01:48:15,953 --> 01:48:18,623 I wrote this in eighth grade for English. Why do you... 1810 01:48:18,823 --> 01:48:20,763 "And I felt saddest of all 1811 01:48:20,963 --> 01:48:23,113 "when I read the boring chapters 1812 01:48:23,313 --> 01:48:25,933 "that were only descriptions of whales, 1813 01:48:26,133 --> 01:48:28,983 "because I knew that 1814 01:48:29,183 --> 01:48:32,553 "the author was just trying to save us 1815 01:48:32,753 --> 01:48:35,023 "from his own sad story, 1816 01:48:37,023 --> 01:48:38,773 "just for a little while." 1817 01:48:38,973 --> 01:48:40,513 [CHARLIE CHUCKLES][SNIFFLES] 1818 01:48:40,713 --> 01:48:43,433 How do you have this?Your mother, 1819 01:48:43,633 --> 01:48:45,523 she sent it to me four years ago. 1820 01:48:45,723 --> 01:48:48,223 I wanted to know how you were doing in school, 1821 01:48:48,423 --> 01:48:49,963 and she sent it. 1822 01:48:50,163 --> 01:48:53,313 And it's the best essay I've ever read. 1823 01:48:53,513 --> 01:48:55,043 [SOBBING] Why are you fucking with me like this? 1824 01:48:56,003 --> 01:48:57,003 I'm not. 1825 01:48:58,093 --> 01:49:01,573 [SOBS] I'm sorry for leaving you. 1826 01:49:03,703 --> 01:49:07,153 I was in love, and... 1827 01:49:07,353 --> 01:49:09,103 [INHALES LABORIOUSLY]I left you behind. 1828 01:49:11,013 --> 01:49:14,423 You did not deserve that.I don't... 1829 01:49:14,623 --> 01:49:16,723 I don't know how [INHALES LABORIOUSLY] 1830 01:49:16,923 --> 01:49:18,643 I could have done such a thing. 1831 01:49:18,843 --> 01:49:21,033 You're so beautiful. [SOBS] 1832 01:49:21,233 --> 01:49:23,033 You're amazing.Stop. 1833 01:49:25,423 --> 01:49:28,073 You're amazing.[SOBS] 1834 01:49:28,863 --> 01:49:31,033 This essay is amazing. 1835 01:49:32,733 --> 01:49:35,263 This essay is you. 1836 01:49:35,463 --> 01:49:36,483 Stop saying that. 1837 01:49:36,683 --> 01:49:40,013 This essay is you.Stop saying that! 1838 01:49:40,213 --> 01:49:43,193 You're the best thing I have ever done. 1839 01:49:43,393 --> 01:49:44,623 [CRIES OUT IN PAIN] 1840 01:49:44,823 --> 01:49:46,803 [COUGHS]What's the matter? 1841 01:49:47,003 --> 01:49:47,893 Ellie! 1842 01:49:48,093 --> 01:49:49,843 No. Okay, I can't be here right now. 1843 01:49:50,043 --> 01:49:51,453 I have to go.You're perfect. 1844 01:49:51,923 --> 01:49:53,103 You'll be happy. 1845 01:49:54,543 --> 01:49:57,293 You care about people. [SOBS] 1846 01:49:57,493 --> 01:49:58,853 The ambulance is coming, they'll help you. 1847 01:49:59,053 --> 01:50:00,463 No. They won't. 1848 01:50:00,663 --> 01:50:03,343 You're going to the hospital.No. 1849 01:50:03,543 --> 01:50:05,433 You just need surgery, or something! 1850 01:50:05,623 --> 01:50:09,393 Read it to me. [GRUNTS]What? 1851 01:50:09,593 --> 01:50:12,863 [STRUGGLING] If you want to help, read it to me. 1852 01:50:13,863 --> 01:50:16,743 You'll help if you read it. 1853 01:50:16,943 --> 01:50:19,133 You asshole. You fat fucking asshole! 1854 01:50:19,333 --> 01:50:20,223 You'll help...Fuck you. 1855 01:50:20,423 --> 01:50:21,623 Please.Fuck you! 1856 01:50:21,823 --> 01:50:22,783 Ellie! 1857 01:50:26,353 --> 01:50:27,613 [SOBBING] Daddy, please. 1858 01:50:35,663 --> 01:50:37,063 [ELLIE SNIFFLING] 1859 01:50:46,593 --> 01:50:49,993 "In the amazing book, Moby Dick, by the author Herman Melville, 1860 01:50:50,193 --> 01:50:52,913 "the author recounts his story of being at sea. 1861 01:50:53,113 --> 01:50:54,393 "In the first part of his book, 1862 01:50:54,593 --> 01:50:56,433 "the author, calling himself Ishmael, 1863 01:50:56,633 --> 01:50:58,133 "is in a small seaside town 1864 01:50:58,333 --> 01:51:01,223 "and he is sharing a bed with a man named Queequeg. 1865 01:51:01,423 --> 01:51:03,663 "The author and Queequeg go to church 1866 01:51:03,863 --> 01:51:04,963 "and later set out on a ship 1867 01:51:05,163 --> 01:51:06,573 "captained by a pirate named Ahab, 1868 01:51:06,773 --> 01:51:07,913 "who is missing a leg, 1869 01:51:08,963 --> 01:51:10,663 "and very much wants to kill the whale 1870 01:51:10,863 --> 01:51:13,713 "which is named Moby Dick, and which is white. 1871 01:51:13,913 --> 01:51:15,763 "In the course of the book, 1872 01:51:15,963 --> 01:51:18,283 "the pirate Ahab encounters many hardships."[GRUNTS] 1873 01:51:18,483 --> 01:51:21,683 "His entire life is set around trying to kill a certain whale." 1874 01:51:21,883 --> 01:51:23,423 [PANTING]"I think this is sad 1875 01:51:23,623 --> 01:51:25,033 "because this whale doesn't have any emotions, 1876 01:51:25,233 --> 01:51:27,593 "and doesn't know how bad Ahab wants to kill him. 1877 01:51:27,793 --> 01:51:28,853 "He's just a poor 1878 01:51:29,543 --> 01:51:31,993 "big animal." 1879 01:51:32,193 --> 01:51:34,993 [CHARLIE GASPS FOR BREATH] 1880 01:51:35,193 --> 01:51:37,133 "And I feel bad for Ahab as well, 1881 01:51:37,333 --> 01:51:38,693 "because he thinks that his life will be better 1882 01:51:38,893 --> 01:51:40,433 "if he can just kill this whale, 1883 01:51:40,633 --> 01:51:42,343 "but in reality, it won't help him at all." 1884 01:51:43,383 --> 01:51:45,793 [CHARLIE BREATHING SHALLOWLY] 1885 01:51:45,993 --> 01:51:48,533 "I was very saddened by this book, 1886 01:51:48,733 --> 01:51:50,653 "and I felt many emotions for the characters. 1887 01:51:53,443 --> 01:51:54,713 "And I felt saddest of all 1888 01:51:54,913 --> 01:51:56,013 "when I read the boring chapters 1889 01:51:56,213 --> 01:51:58,103 "that were only descriptions of whales, 1890 01:51:58,303 --> 01:52:00,323 "because I knew that the author was just trying 1891 01:52:00,523 --> 01:52:02,233 "to save us from his own sad story, 1892 01:52:03,063 --> 01:52:04,113 "just for a little while." 1893 01:52:04,313 --> 01:52:05,633 [GASPING] 1894 01:52:05,833 --> 01:52:07,113 [WAVES LAPPING] 1895 01:52:07,313 --> 01:52:09,243 [EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING] 1896 01:52:12,243 --> 01:52:14,113 "This book made me think about my own life, 1897 01:52:15,593 --> 01:52:17,863 "and then it made me feel glad for my..." 1898 01:52:18,063 --> 01:52:19,643 [BREATHING ERRATICALLY] 1899 01:52:21,553 --> 01:52:22,563 [LAUGHING] 1900 01:52:22,763 --> 01:52:23,653 [CHUCKLES] 1901 01:52:23,853 --> 01:52:25,263 [MUSIC SWELLS] 1902 01:52:25,463 --> 01:52:26,383 [GASPS] 1903 01:52:34,653 --> 01:52:36,133 [WAVES CRASHING] 1904 01:52:37,573 --> 01:52:39,963 [EMOTIONAL MUSIC CONTINUES] 1905 01:54:01,263 --> 01:54:03,263 [GRIM MUSIC PLAYING] 1906 01:54:12,493 --> 01:54:14,493 [WAVES CRASHING GENTLY]